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Title: None Other Gods
Author: Benson, Robert Hugh, 1871-1914
Language: English
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To whom can I dedicate this book but to you who were, not only the best
friend of the man I have written about, but one without whom the book
could not have been written? It is to you that I owe practically all the
materials necessary for the work: it was to you that Frank left the
greater part of his diary, such as it was (and I hope I have observed
your instructions properly as regards the use I have made of it); it was
you who took such trouble to identify the places he passed through; and
it was you, above all, who gave me so keen an impression of Frank
himself, that it seems to me I must myself have somehow known him
intimately, in spite of the fact that we never met.

I think I should say that it is this sense of intimacy, this
extraordinary interior accessibility (so to speak) of Frank, that made
him (as you and I both think) about the most lovable person we have ever
known. They were very extraordinary changes that passed over him, of
course--(and I suppose we cannot improve, even with all our modern
psychology, upon the old mystical names for such changes--Purgation,
Illumination and Union)--but, as theologians themselves tell us, that
mysterious thing which Catholics call the Grace of God does not
obliterate, but rather emphasizes and transfigures the natural
characteristics of every man upon whom it comes with power. It was the
same element in Frank, as it seems to me--the same root-principle, at
least--that made him do those preposterous things connected with bread
and butter and a railway train, that drove him from Cambridge in
defiance of all common-sense and sweet reasonableness; that held him
still to that deplorable and lamentable journey with his two traveling
companions, and that ultimately led him to his death. I mean, it was the
same kind of unreasonable daring and purpose throughout, though it
issued in very different kinds of actions, and was inspired by very
different motives.

Well, it is not much good discussing Frank in public like this. The
people who are kind enough to read his life--or, rather, the six months
of it with which this book deals--must form their own opinion of him.
Probably a good many will think him a fool. I daresay he was; but I
think I like that kind of folly. Other people may think him simply
obstinate and tiresome. Well, I like obstinacy of that sort, and I do
not find him tiresome. Everyone must form their own views, and I have a
perfect right to form mine, which I am glad to know coincide with your
own. After all, you knew him better than anyone else.

I went to see Gertie Trustcott, as you suggested, but I didn't get any
help from her. I think she is the most suburban person I have ever met.
She could tell me nothing whatever new about him; she could only
corroborate what you yourself had told me, and what the diaries and
other papers contained. I did not stay long with Miss Trustcott.

And now, my dear friend, I must ask you to accept this book from me, and
to make the best of it. Of course, I have had to conjecture a great
deal, and to embroider even more; but it is no more than embroidery. I
have not touched the fabric itself which you put into my hands; and
anyone who cares to pull out the threads I have inserted can do so if
they will, without any fear of the thing falling to pieces.

I have to thank you for many pleasurable and even emotional hours. The
offering which I present to you now is the only return I can make.

          I am,
            Ever yours sincerely,
              ROBERT HUGH BENSON.

P.S.--We've paneled a new room since you were last at Hare Street. Come
and see it soon and sleep in it. We want you badly. And I want to talk
a great deal more about Frank.

P.P.S.--I hear that her ladyship has gone back to live with her father;
she tried the Dower House in Westmoreland, but seems to have found it
lonely. Is that true? It'll be rather difficult for Dick, won't it?





"I think you're behaving like an absolute idiot," said Jack Kirkby

Frank grinned pleasantly, and added his left foot to his right one in
the broad window-seat.

These two young men were sitting in one of the most pleasant places in
all the world in which to sit on a summer evening--in a ground-floor
room looking out upon the Great Court of Trinity College, Cambridge. It
was in that short space of time, between six and seven, during which the
Great Court is largely deserted. The athletes and the dawdlers have not
yet returned from field and river; and Fellows and other persons, young
enough to know better, who think that a summer evening was created for
the reading of books, have not yet emerged from their retreats. A
white-aproned cook or two moves across the cobbled spaces with trays
upon their heads; a tradesman's boy comes out of the corner entrance
from the hostel; a cat or two stretches himself on the grass; but, for
the rest, the court lies in broad sunshine; the shadows slope eastwards,
and the fitful splash and trickle of the fountain asserts itself clearly
above the gentle rumble of Trinity Street.

Within, the room in which these two sat was much like other rooms of the
same standing; only, in this one case the walls were paneled with
white-painted deal. Three doors led out of it--two into a tiny bedroom
and a tinier dining-room respectively; the third on to the passage
leading to the lecture-rooms. Frank found it very convenient, since he
thus was enabled, at every hour of the morning when the lectures broke
up, to have the best possible excuse for conversing with his friends
through the window.

The room was furnished really well. Above the mantelpiece, where rested
an array of smoking-materials and a large silver cigarette-box, hung an
ancestral-looking portrait, in a dull gilded frame, of an aged man, with
a ruff round his neck, purchased for one guinea; there was a sofa and a
set of chairs upholstered in a good damask: a black piano by Broadwood;
a large oval gate-leg table; a bureau; shelves filled with very
indiscriminate literature--law books, novels, Badminton, magazines and
ancient school editions of the classics; a mahogany glass-fronted
bookcase packed with volumes of esthetic appearance--green-backed poetry
books with white labels; old leather tomes, and all the rest of the
specimens usual to a man who has once thought himself literary. Then
there were engravings, well framed, round the walls; a black iron-work
lamp, fitted for electric light, hung from the ceiling; there were a
couple of oak chests, curiously carved. On the stained floor lay three
or four mellow rugs, and the window-boxes outside blazed with geraniums.
The débris of tea rested on the window-seat nearest the outer door.

Frank Guiseley, too, lolling in the window-seat in a white silk shirt,
unbuttoned at the throat, and gray flannel trousers, and one white shoe,
was very pleasant to look upon. His hair was as black and curly as a
Neapolitan's; he had a smiling, humorous mouth, and black eyes--of an
extraordinary twinkling alertness. His clean-shaven face, brown in its
proper complexion as well as with healthy sunburning (he had played very
vigorous lawn-tennis for the last two months), looked like a boy's,
except for the very determined mouth and the short, straight nose. He
was a little below middle height--well-knit and active; and though,
properly speaking, he was not exactly handsome, he was quite
exceptionally delightful to look at.

Jack Kirkby, sitting in an arm-chair a yard away, and in the same sort
of costume--except that he wore both his shoes and a Third Trinity
blazer--was a complete contrast in appearance. The other had something
of a Southern Europe look; Jack was obviously English--wholesome red
cheeks, fair hair and a small mustache resembling spun silk. He was,
also, closely on six feet in height.

He was anxious just now, and, therefore, looked rather cross, fingering
the very minute hairs of his mustache whenever he could spare the time
from smoking, and looking determinedly away from Frank upon the floor.
For the last week he had talked over this affair, ever since the amazing
announcement; and had come to the conclusion that once more, in this
preposterous scheme, Frank really meant what he said.

Frank had a terrible way of meaning what he said--he reflected with
dismay. There was the affair of the bread and butter three years ago,
before either of them had learned manners. This had consisted in the
fastening up in separate brown-paper parcels innumerable pieces of bread
and butter, addressing each with the name of the Reverend Junior Dean
(who had annoyed Frank in some way), and the leaving of the parcels
about in every corner of Cambridge, in hansom cabs, on seats, on
shop-counters and on the pavements--with the result that for the next
two or three days the dean's staircase was crowded with messenger boys
and unemployables, anxious to return apparently lost property.

Then there had been the matter of the flagging of a fast Northern train
in the middle of the fens with a red pocket-handkerchief, to find out if
it were really true that the train would stop, followed by a rapid
retreat on bicycles so soon as it had been ascertained that it was true;
the Affair of the German Prince traveling incognito, into which the
Mayor himself had been drawn; and the Affair of the Nun who smoked a
short black pipe in the Great Court shortly before midnight, before
gathering up her skirts and vanishing on noiseless india-rubber-shod
feet round the kitchen quarters into the gloom of Neville's Court, as
the horrified porter descended from his signal-box.

Now many minds could have conceived these things; a smaller number of
people would have announced their intention of doing them: but there
were very few persons who would actually carry them all out to the very
end: in fact, Jack reflected, Frank Guiseley was about the only man of
his acquaintance who could possibly have done them. And he had done
them all on his own sole responsibility.

He had remembered, too, during the past week, certain incidents of the
same nature at Eton. There was the master who had rashly inquired, with
deep sarcasm, on the fourth or fifth occasion in one week when Frank had
come in a little late for five-o'clock school, whether "Guiseley would
not like to have tea before pursuing his studies." Frank, with a radiant
smile of gratitude, and extraordinary rapidity, had answered that he
would like it very much indeed, and had vanished through the still
half-open door before another word could be uttered, returning with a
look of childlike innocence at about five-and-twenty minutes to six.

"Please, sir," he had said, "I thought you said I might go?"

"And have you had tea?"

"Why, certainly, sir; at Webber's."

Now all this kind of thing was a little disconcerting to remember now.
Truly, the things in themselves had been admirably conceived and
faithfully executed, but they seemed to show that Frank was the kind of
person who really carried through what other people only talked
about--and especially if he announced beforehand that he intended to do

It was a little dismaying, therefore, for his friend to reflect that
upon the arrival of the famous letter from Lord Talgarth--Frank's
father--six days previously, in which all the well-worn phrases occurred
as to "darkening doors" and "roof" and "disgrace to the family," Frank
had announced that he proposed to take his father at his word, sell up
his property and set out like a prince in a fairy-tale to make his

       *       *       *       *       *

Jack had argued till he was sick of it, and to no avail. Frank had a
parry for every thrust. Why wouldn't he wait a bit until the governor
had had time to cool down? Because the governor must learn, sooner or
later, that words really meant something, and that he--Frank--was not
going to stand it for one instant.

Why wouldn't he come and stay at Barham till further notice? They'd all
be delighted to have him: It was only ten miles off Merefield, and
perhaps--Because Frank was not going to sponge upon his friends. Neither
was he going to skulk about near home. Well, if he was so damned
obstinate, why didn't he go into the City--or even to the Bar? Because
(1) he hadn't any money; and (2) he would infinitely sooner go on the
tramp than sit on a stool. Well, why didn't he enlist, like a
gentleman? Frank dared say he would some time, but he wanted to stand by
himself a bit first and see the world.

"Let's see the letter again," said Jack at last. "Where is it?"

Frank reflected.

"I think it's in that tobacco-jar just behind your head," he said. "No,
it isn't; it's in the pouch on the floor. I know I associated it somehow
with smoking. And, by the way, give me a cigarette."

Jack tossed him his case, opened the pouch, took out the letter, and
read it slowly through again.

            "Merefield Court,
              "near Harrogate.
              "May 28th, _Thursday_.

     "I am ashamed of you, sir. When you first told me of your
     intention, I warned you what would happen if you persisted, and
     I repeat it now. Since you have deliberately chosen, in spite
     of all that I have said, to go your own way, and to become a
     Papist, I will have no more to do with you. From this moment
     you cease to be my son. You shall not, while I live, darken my
     doors again, or sleep under my roof. I say nothing of what you
     have had from me in the past--your education and all the rest.
     And, since I do not wish to be unduly hard upon you, you can
     keep the remainder of your allowance up to July and the
     furniture of your rooms. But, after that, not one penny shall
     you have from me. You can go to your priests and get them to
     support you.

     "I am only thankful that your poor mother has been spared this


Jack made a small murmurous sound as he finished. Frank chuckled aloud.

"Pitches it in all right, doesn't he?" he observed dispassionately.

"If it had been my governor--" began Jack slowly.

"My dear man, it isn't your governor; it's mine. And I'm dashed if
there's another man in the world who'd write such a letter as that
nowadays. It's--it's too early-Victorian. They'd hardly stand it at the
Adelphi! I could have put it so much better myself.... Poor old

"Have you answered it?"

"I ... I forget. I know I meant to.... No, I haven't. I remember now.
And I shan't till I'm just off."

"Well, I shall," remarked Jack.

Frank turned a swift face upon him.

"If you do," he said, with sudden fierce gravity, "I'll never speak to
you again. I mean it. It's my affair, and I shall run it my own way."


"I mean it. Now! give me your word of honor--"


"Your word of honor, this instant, or get out of my room!"

There was a pause. Then:

"All right," said Jack.

Then there fell a silence once more.


The news began to be rumored about, soon after the auction that Frank
held of his effects a couple of days later. He carried out the scene
admirably, entirely unassisted, even by Jack.

First, there appeared suddenly all over Cambridge, the evening before
the sale, just as the crowds of undergraduates and female relations
began to circulate about after tea and iced strawberries, a quantity of
sandwich-men, bearing the following announcement, back and front:


      has pleasure in announcing that on
              JUNE 7TH (Saturday)
        at half-past ten a.m. precisely
    in Rooms 1, Letter J, Great Court, Trinity College,
            he will positively offer for

                SALE BY AUCTION

    _The household effects, furniture, books, etc., of
    the Hon. Frank Guiseley, including_--

A piano by Broadwood (slightly out of tune); a magnificent suite of
drawing-room furniture, upholstered in damask, the sofa only slightly
stained with tea; one oak table and another; a bed; a chest of drawers
(imitation walnut, and not a very good imitation); a mahogany
glass-fronted bookcase, containing a set of suggestive-looking volumes
bound in faint colors, with white labels; four oriental mats; a portrait
of a gentleman (warranted a perfectly respectable ancestor); dining-room
suite (odd chairs); numerous engravings of places of interest and
noblemen's seats; a

_Silver Cigarette-box and fifteen Cigarettes in it (Melachrino and Mixed
American_); a cuckoo-clock (without cuckoo); five walking-sticks;
numerous suits of clothes (one lot suitable for Charitable Purposes);
some books--all VERY CURIOUS indeed--comprising the works of an
Eminent Cambridge Professor, and other scholastic luminaries, as well as
many other articles.

    All friends, and strangers, cordially invited.
              NO RESERVE PRICE.

It served its purpose admirably, for by soon after ten o'clock quite a
considerable crowd had begun to assemble; and it was only after a very
serious conversation with the Dean that the sale was allowed to proceed.
But it proceeded, with the distinct understanding that a college porter
be present; that no riotous behavior should be allowed; that the sale
was a genuine one, and that Mr. Guiseley would call upon the Dean with
further explanations before leaving Cambridge.

The scene itself was most impressive.

Frank, in a structure resembling an auctioneer's box, erected on the
hearth-rug, presided, with extraordinary gravity, hammer in hand, robed
in a bachelor's gown and hood. Beneath him the room seethed with the
company, male and female, all in an excellent humor, and quite tolerable
prices were obtained. No public explanations were given of the need for
the sale, and Jack, in the deepest dismay, looked in again that
afternoon, about lunch-time, to find the room completely stripped, and
Frank, very cheerful, still in his hood and gown, smoking a cigarette in
the window-seat.

"Come in," he said. "And kindly ask me to lunch. The last porter's just

Jack looked at him.

He seemed amazingly genial and natural, though just a little flushed,
and such an air of drama as there was about him was obviously

"Very well; come to lunch," said Jack. "Where are you going to dine and

"I'm dining in hall, and I'm sleeping in a hammock. Go and look at my

Jack went across the bare floor and looked in. A hammock was slung
across from a couple of pegs, and there lay a small carpet-bag beneath
it. A basin on an upturned box and a bath completed the furniture.

"You mad ass!" said Jack. "And is that all you have left?"

"Certainly. I'm going to leave the clothes I've got on to you, and you
can fetch the hammock when I've gone."

"When do you start?"

"Mr. Guiseley will have his last interview and obtain his _exeat_ from
the Dean at half-past six this evening. He proposes to leave Cambridge
in the early hours of to-morrow morning."

"You don't mean that!"

"Certainly I do."

"What are you going to wear?"

Frank extended two flanneled legs, ending in solid boots.

"These--a flannel shirt, no tie, a cap, a gray jacket."

Jack stood again in silence, looking at him.

"How much money did your sale make?"

"That's immaterial. Besides, I forget. The important fact is that when
I've paid all my bills I shall have thirteen pounds eleven shillings and


"Thirteen pounds eleven shillings and eightpence."

Jack burst into a mirthless laugh.

"Well, come along to lunch," he said.

       *       *       *       *       *

It seemed to Jack that he moved in a dreary kind of dream that afternoon
as he went about with Frank from shop to shop, paying bills. Frank's
trouser-pockets bulged and jingled a good deal as they started--he had
drawn all his remaining money in gold from the bank--and they bulged
and jingled considerably less as the two returned to tea in Jesus Lane.
There, on the table, he spread out the coins. He had bought some
tobacco, and two or three other things that afternoon, and the total
amounted now but to twelve pounds nineteen shillings and fourpence.

"Call it thirteen pounds," said Frank. "There's many a poor man--"

"Don't be a damned fool!" said Jack.

"I'm being simply prudent," said Frank. "A contented heart--"

Jack thrust a cup of tea and the buttered buns before him.

       *       *       *       *       *

These two were as nearly brothers as possible, in everything but blood.
Their homes lay within ten miles of one another. They had gone to a
private school together, to Eton, and to Trinity. They had ridden
together in the holidays, shot, dawdled, bathed, skated, and all the
rest. They were considerably more brothers to one another than were
Frank and Archie, his actual elder brother, known to the world as
Viscount Merefield. Jack did not particularly approve of Archie; he
thought him a pompous ass, and occasionally said so.

For Frank he had quite an extraordinary affection, though he would not
have expressed it so, to himself, for all the world, and a very real
admiration of a quite indefinable kind. It was impossible to say why he
admired him. Frank did nothing very well, but everything rather well; he
played Rugby football just not well enough to represent his college; he
had been in the Lower Boats at Eton, and the Lent Boat of his first year
at Cambridge; then he had given up rowing and played lawn-tennis in the
summer and fives in the Lent Term just well enough to make a brisk and
interesting game. He was not at all learned; he had reached the First
Hundred at Eton, and had read Law at Cambridge--that convenient branch
of study which for the most part fills the vacuum for intelligent
persons who have no particular bent and are heartily sick of classics;
and he had taken a Third Class and his degree a day or two before. He
was remarkably averaged, therefore; and yet, somehow or another, there
was that in him which compelled Jack's admiration. I suppose it was that
which is conveniently labeled "character." Certainly, nearly everybody
who came into contact with him felt the same in some degree.

His becoming a Catholic had been an amazing shock to Jack, who had
always supposed that Frank, like himself, took the ordinary sensible
English view of religion. To be a professed unbeliever was bad form--it
was like being a Little Englander or a Radical; to be pious was equally
bad form--it resembled a violent devotion to the Union Jack. No;
religion to Jack (and he had always hitherto supposed, to Frank) was a
department of life in which one did not express any particular views:
one did not say one's prayers; one attended chapel at the proper times;
if one was musical, one occasionally went to King's on Sunday afternoon;
in the country one went to church on Sunday morning as one went to the
stables in the afternoon, and that was about all.

Frank had been, too, so extremely secretive about the whole thing. He
had marched into Jack's rooms in Jesus Lane one morning nearly a
fortnight ago.

"Come to mass at the Catholic Church," he said.

"Why, the--" began Jack.

"I've got to go. I'm a Catholic."


"I became one last week."

Jack had stared at him, suddenly convinced that someone was mad. When he
had verified that it was really a fact; that Frank had placed himself
under instruction three months before, and had made his confession--(his
confession!)--on Friday, and had been conditionally baptized; when he
had certified himself of all these things, and had begun to find
coherent language once more, he had demanded why Frank had done this.

"Because it's the true religion," said Frank. "Are you coming to mass or
are you not?"

Jack had gone then, and had come away more bewildered than ever as to
what it was all about. He had attempted to make a few inquiries, but
Frank had waved his hands at him, and repeated that obviously the
Catholic religion was the true one, and that he couldn't be bothered.
And now here they were at tea in Jesus Lane for the last time.

       *       *       *       *       *

Of course, there was a little suppressed excitement about Frank. He
drank three cups of tea and took the last (and the under) piece of
buttered bun without apologies, and he talked a good deal, rather fast.
It seemed that he had really no particular plans as to what he was going
to do after he had walked out of Cambridge with his carpet-bag early
next morning. He just meant, he said, to go along and see what happened.
He had had a belt made, which pleased him exceedingly, into which his
money could be put (it lay on the table between them during tea), and he
proposed, naturally, to spend as little of that money as possible....
No; he would not take one penny piece from Jack; it would be simply
scandalous if he--a public-school boy and an University man--couldn't
keep body and soul together by his own labor. There would be hay-making
presently, he supposed, and fruit-picking, and small jobs on farms. He
would just go along and see what happened. Besides there were always
casual wards, weren't there? if the worst came to the worst; and he'd
meet other men, he supposed, who'd put him in the way of things. Oh!
he'd get on all right.

Would he ever come to Barham? Well, if it came in the day's work he
would. Yes: certainly he'd be most obliged if his letters might be sent
there, and he could write for them when he wanted, or even call for
them, if, as he said, it came in the day's work.

What was he going to do in the winter? He hadn't the slightest idea. He
supposed, what other people did in the winter. Perhaps he'd have got a
place by then--gamekeeper, perhaps--he'd like to be a gamekeeper.

At this Jack, mentally, threw up the sponge.

"You really mean to go on at this rotten idea of yours?"

Frank opened his eyes wide.

"Why, of course. Good Lord! did you think I was bluffing?"

"But ... but it's perfectly mad. Why on earth don't you get a proper
situation somewhere--land-agent or something?"

"My dear man," said Frank, "if you will have it, it's because I want to
do exactly what I'm going to do. No--I'm being perfectly serious. I've
thought for ages that we're all wrong somehow. We're all so beastly
artificial. I don't want to preach, but I want to test things for
myself. My religion tells me--" He broke off. "No; this is fooling. I'm
going to do it because I'm going to do it. And I'm really going to do
it. I'm not going to be an amateur--like slumming. I'm going to find out
things for myself."

"But on the roads--" expostulated Jack.

"Exactly. That's the very point. Back to the land."

Jack sat up.

"Good Lord!" he said. "Why, I never thought of it."


"It's your old grandmother coming out."

Frank stared.


"Yes--old Mrs. Kelly."

Frank laughed suddenly and loudly.

"By George!" he said, "I daresay it is. Old Grandmamma Kelly! She was a
gipsy--so she was. I believe you've hit it, Jack. Let's see: she was my
grandfather's second wife, wasn't she?"

Jack nodded.

"And he picked her up off the roads on his own estate. Wasn't she
trespassing, or something?"

Jack nodded again.

"Yes," he said, "and he was a magistrate and ought to have committed
her: And he married her instead. She was a girl, traveling with her

Frank sat smiling genially.

"That's it," he said. "Then I'm bound to make a success of it."

And he took another cigarette.

Then one more thought came to Jack: he had determined already to make
use of it if necessary, and somehow this seemed to be the moment.

"And Jenny Launton," he said "I suppose you've thought of her?"

A curious look came into Frank's eyes--a look of great gravity and
tenderness--and the humor died out. He said nothing for an instant. Then
he drew out of his breast-pocket a letter in an envelope, and tossed it
gently over to Jack.

"I'm telling her in that," he said. "I'm going to post it to-night,
after I've seen the Dean."

Jack glanced down at it.

      "The Rectory,
          "Merefield, Yorks."

ran the inscription. He turned it over; it was fastened and sealed.

"I've told her we must wait a bit," said Frank, "and that I'll write
again in a few weeks."

Jack was silent.

"And you think it's fair on her?" he asked deliberately.

Frank's face broke up into humor.

"That's for her to say," he observed. "And, to tell the truth, I'm not
at all afraid."

"But a gamekeeper's wife! And you a Catholic!"

"Ah! you don't know Jenny," smiled Frank. "Jenny and I quite understand
one another, thank you very much."

"But is it quite fair?"

"Good Lord!" shouted Frank, suddenly roused. "Fair! What the devil does
it matter? Don't you know that all's fair--under certain circumstances?
I do bar that rotten conventionalism. We're all rotten--rotten, I tell
you; and I'm going to start fresh. So's Jenny. Kindly don't talk of what
you don't understand."

He stood up, stretching. Then he threw the end of his cigarette away.

"I must go to the Dean," he said. "It's close on the half-hour."


The Reverend James Mackintosh was an excellent official of his college,
and performed his duties with care and punctilium. He rose about
half-past seven o'clock every morning, drank a cup of tea and went to
chapel. After chapel he breakfasted, on Tuesdays and Thursdays with two
undergraduates in their first year, selected in alphabetical order,
seated at his table; on the other days of the week in solitude. At ten
o'clock he lectured, usually on one of St. Paul's Epistles, on which
subjects he possessed note-books filled with every conceivable piece of
information that could be gathered together--grammatical, philological,
topographical, industrial, social, biographical--with a few remarks on
the fauna, flora, imports, characteristics and geological features of
those countries to which those epistles were written, and in which they
were composed. These notes, guaranteed to guide any student who really
mastered them to success, and even distinction, in his examinations,
were the result of a lifetime of loving labor, and some day, no doubt,
will be issued in the neat blue covers of the "Cambridge Bible for
Schools." From eleven to twelve he lectured on Church history of the
first five centuries--after which period, it will be remembered by all
historical students, Church history practically ceased. At one he
lunched; from two to four he walked rapidly (sometimes again in company
with a serious theological student), along the course known as the
Grantchester Grind, or to Coton and back. At four he had tea; at five he
settled down to administer discipline to the college, by summoning and
remonstrating with such undergraduates as had failed to comply with the
various regulations; at half-past seven he dined in hall--a meek figure,
clean shaven and spectacled, seated between an infidel philosopher and a
socialist: he drank a single glass of wine afterwards in the Combination
Room, smoked one cigarette, and retired again to his rooms to write
letters to parents (if necessary), and to run over his notes for next

And he did this, with the usual mild variations of a University life,
every weekday, for two-thirds of the year. Of the other third, he spent
part in Switzerland, dressed in a neat gray Norfolk suit with
knickerbockers, and the rest with clerical friends of the scholastic
type. It was a very solemn thought to him how great were his
responsibilities, and what a privilege it was to live in the whirl and
stir of one of the intellectual centers of England!

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank Guiseley was to Mr. Mackintosh a very great puzzle. He had
certainly been insubordinate in his first year (Mr. Mackintosh gravely
suspected him of the Bread-and-Butter affair, which had so annoyed his
colleague), but he certainly had been very steady and even deferential
ever since. (He always took off his hat, for example, to Mr. Mackintosh,
with great politeness.) Certainly he was not very regular at chapel, and
he did not dine in hall nearly so often as Mr. Mackintosh would have
wished (for was it not part of the University idea that men of all
grades of society should meet as equals under the college roof?). But,
then, he had never been summoned for any very grave or disgraceful
breach of the rules, and was never insolent or offensive to any of the
Fellows. Finally, he came of a very distinguished family; and Mr.
Mackintosh had the keenest remembrance still of his own single
interview, three years ago, with the Earl of Talgarth.

Mr. Mackintosh wondered, then, exactly what he would have to say to Mr.
Guiseley, and what Mr. Guiseley would have to say to him. He thought,
if the young man were really going down for good, as he had understood
this morning, it was only his plain duty to say a few tactful words
about responsibility and steadiness. That ridiculous auction would serve
as his text.

       *       *       *       *       *

Mr. Mackintosh paused an instant, as he always did, before saying "Come
in!" to the knock on the door (I think he thought it helped to create a
little impression of importance). Then he said it; and Frank walked in.

"Good evening, Mr. Guiseley.... Yes; please sit down. I understood from
you this morning that you wished for your _exeat_."

"Please," said Frank.

"Just so," said Mr. Mackintosh, drawing the _exeat_ book--resembling the
butt of a check-book--towards him. "And you are going down to-morrow?"

"Yes," said Frank.

"Going home?" murmured the Dean, inscribing Frank's name in his neat
little handwriting.

"No," said Frank.

"Not?... To London, perhaps?"

"Well, not exactly," said Frank; "at least, not just yet."

Mr. Mackintosh blotted the book carefully, and extracted the _exeat_.
He pushed it gently towards Frank.

"About that auction!" he said, smiling indulgently; "I did want to have
a word with you about that. It was very unusual; and I wondered.... But
I am happy to think that there was no disturbance.... But can you tell
me exactly why you chose that form of ... of ..."

"I wanted to make as much money as ever I could," said Frank.

"Indeed!... Yes.... And ... and you were successful?"

"I cleared all my debts, anyhow," said Frank serenely. "I thought that
very important."

Mr. Mackintosh smiled again. Certainly this young man was very well
behaved and deferential.

"Well, that's satisfactory. And you are going to read at the Bar now? If
you will let me say so, Mr. Guiseley, even at this late hour, I must say
that I think that a Third Class might have been bettered. But no doubt
your tutor has said all that?"

"Yes, I think so."

"Well, then, a little more application and energy now may perhaps make
up for lost time. I suppose you will go to the Temple in October?"

Frank looked at him pensively a moment.

"No, Mr. Mackintosh," he said suddenly; "I'm going on the roads. I mean
it, quite seriously. My father's disowned me. I'm starting out to-morrow
to make my own living."

There was dead silence for an instant. The Dean's face was stricken, as
though by horror. Yet Frank saw he had not in the least taken it in.

"Yes; that's really so," he said. "Please don't argue with me about it.
I'm perfectly determined."

"Your father ... Lord Talgarth ... the roads ... your own living ... the
college authorities ... responsibility!"

Words of this sort burst from Mr. Mackintosh's mouth.

"Yes ... it's because I've become a Catholic! I expect you've heard
that, sir."

Mr. Mackintosh threw himself back (if so fierce a word may be used of so
mild a manner)--threw himself back in his chair.

"Mr. Guiseley, kindly tell me all about it. I had not heard one
word--not one word."

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank made a great effort, and told the story, quite fairly and quite
politely. He described his convictions as well as he could, the various
steps he had taken, and the climax of the letter from his father. Then
he braced himself, to hear what would be said; or, rather, he retired
within himself, and, so to speak, shut the door and pulled down the

It was all said exactly as he knew it would be. Mr. Mackintosh touched
upon a loving father's impatience, the son's youth and impetuosity, the
shock to an ancient family, the responsibilities of membership in that
family, the dangers of rash decisions, and, finally, the obvious errors
of the Church of Rome. He began several sentences with the phrase: "No
thinking man at the present day ..."

In fact, Mr. Mackintosh was, so soon as he had recovered from the first
shock, extraordinarily sensible and reasonable. He said all the proper
things, all the sensible and reasonable and common-sense things, and he
said them, not offensively or contemptuously, but tactfully and
persuasively. And he put into it the whole of his personality, such as
it was. He even quoted St. Paul.

He perspired a little, gently, towards the end: so he took off his
glasses and wiped them, looking, still with a smile, through kind,
short-sighted eyes, at this young man who sat so still. For Frank was so
quiet that the Dean thought him already half persuaded. Then once more
he summed up, when his glasses were fixed again; he ran through his
arguments lightly and efficiently, and ended by a quiet little
assumption that Frank was going to be reasonable, to write to his father
once more, and to wait at least a week. He even called him "my dear

"Thanks very much," said Frank.

"Then you'll think it over quietly, my dear boy. Come and talk to me
again. I've given you your _exeat_, but you needn't use it. Come in
to-morrow evening after hall."

Frank stood up.

"Thanks, very much, Mr. Mackintosh. I'll ... I'll certainly remember
what you've said." He took up his _exeat_ as if mechanically.

"Then you can leave that for the present," smiled the Dean, pointing at
it. "I can write you another, you know."

Frank put it down quickly.

"Oh, certainly!" he said.

"Well, good-night, Mr. Guiseley.... I ... I can't tell you how glad I am
that you confided in me. Young men are a little unwise and impetuous
sometimes, you know. Good-night ... good-night. I shall expect you

When Frank reached the court below he stood waiting a moment. Then a
large smile broke out on his face, and he hurried across to a passage
opposite, found a friend's door open, and rushed in. The room was empty.
He flew across to the window and crouched down, peeping over the sill at
the opening on the other side of the court leading to Mr. Mackintosh's

He was rewarded almost instantly. Even as he settled himself on the
window seat a black figure, with gown ballooning behind, hurried out and
whisked through the archway leading towards the street. He gave him
twenty seconds, and then ran out himself, and went in pursuit. Half-way
up the lane he sighted him once more, and, following cautiously on
tiptoe, with a handkerchief up to his face, was in time to behold Mr.
Mackintosh disappear into the little telegraph office on the left of
Trinity Street.

"That settles it, then," observed Frank, almost aloud. "Poor Jack--I'm
afraid I shan't be able to breakfast with him after all!"


It was a little after four o'clock on the following morning that a
policeman, pacing with slow, flat feet along the little lane that leads
from Trinity Hall to Trinity College, yawning as he went, and entirely
unconscious of the divine morning air, bright as wine and clear as
water, beheld a remarkable spectacle.

There first appeared, suddenly tossed on to the spikes that top the gate
that guards the hostel, a species of pad that hung over on both sides of
the formidable array of points. Upon this, more cautiously, was placed
by invisible hands a very old saddle without any stirrups.

The policeman stepped back a little, and flattened
himself--comparatively speaking--against the outer wall of the hostel
itself. There followed a silence.

Suddenly, without any warning, a heavy body, discernible a moment later
as a small carpet-bag, filled to bursting, fell abruptly on to the
pavement; and, again, a moment later, two capable-looking hands made
their appearance, grasping with extreme care the central rod on which
the spikes were supposed to revolve, on either side of the saddle.

Still the policeman did not make any sign; he only sidled a step or two
nearer and stood waiting.

When he looked up again, a young gentleman, in flannel trousers, gray
jacket, boots, and an old deerstalker, was seated astride of the saddle,
with his back to the observer. There was a pause while the rider looked
to this side and that; and then, with a sudden movement, he had dropped
clear of the wall, and come down on feet and hands to the pavement.

"Good morning, officer!" said the young gentleman, rising and dusting
his hands, "it's all right. Like to see my _exeat_? Or perhaps half a


About six o'clock in the morning, Jack Kirkby awoke suddenly in his
bedroom in Jesus Lane.

This was very unusual, and he wondered what it was all about. He thought
of Frank almost instantly, with a jerk, and after looking at his watch,
very properly turned over and tried to go to sleep again. But the
attempt was useless; there were far too many things to think about; and
he framed so many speeches to be delivered with convincing force at
breakfast to his misguided friend, that by seven o'clock he made up his
mind that he would get up, go and take Frank to bathe, and have
breakfast with him at half-past eight instead of nine. He would have
longer time, too, for his speeches. He got out of bed and pulled up his
blind, and the sight of the towers of Sidney Sussex College, gilded with
sunshine, determined him finally.

When you go to bathe before breakfast at Cambridge you naturally put on
as few clothes as possible and do not--even if you do so at other
times--say your prayers. So Jack put on a sweater, trousers, socks,
canvas shoes, and a blazer, and went immediately down the
oilcloth-covered stairs. As he undid the door he noticed a white thing
lying beneath it, and took it up. It was a note addressed to himself in
Frank's handwriting; and there, standing on the steps, he read it
through; and his heart turned suddenly sick.

       *       *       *       *       *

There is all the difference in the world between knowing that a
catastrophe is going to happen, and knowing that it has happened. Jack
knew--at least, with all his reasonable part--that Frank was going to
leave Cambridge in the preposterous manner described, after breakfast
with himself; and it was partly because of this very knowledge that he
had got up earlier in order to have an extra hour with Frank before the
final severance came. Yet there was something in him--the same thing
that had urged him to rehearse little speeches in bed just now--that
told him that until it had actually happened, it had not happened, and,
just conceivably, might not happen after all. And he had had no idea how
strong this hopeful strain had been in him--nor, for that matter, how
very deeply and almost romantically he was attached to Frank--until he
felt his throat hammering and his head becoming stupid, as he read the
terse little note in the fresh morning air of Jesus Lane.

It ran as follows:

     "DEAR JACK,

     "It's no good, and I'm off early! That ass Mackintosh went and
     wired to my people directly I left him. I tracked him down. And
     there'll be the devil to pay unless I clear out. So I can't
     come to breakfast. Sorry.


     "P.S.--By the way, you might as well go round to the little man
     and try to keep him quiet. Tell him it'll make a scandal for
     Trinity College, Cambridge, if he makes a fuss. That'll stop
     him, perhaps. And you might try to rescue my saddle from the
     porter. He's probably got it by now."

Three minutes later a figure in a sweater, gray trousers, canvas shoes,
Third Trinity blazer and no cap, stood, very inarticulate with
breathlessness, at the door of the Senior Dean's rooms, demanding of a
scandalized bed-maker to see the official in question.

"'E's in his barth, sir!" expostulated the old woman.

"Then he must come out of it!" panted Jack.

"--That is, if 'e's out o' bed."

"Then he can stop in it, if he isn't.... I tell you--"

Jack gave up arguing. He took the old lady firmly by the shoulders, and
placed her in the doorway of the audience-room; then he was up the inner
stairs in three strides, through the sitting-room, and was tapping at
the door of the bedroom. A faint sound of splashing ceased.

"Who's there? Don't--"

"It's me, sir--Kirkby! I'm sorry to disturb you, but--"

"Don't come in!" cried an agitated voice, with a renewed sound of water,
as if someone had hastily scrambled out of the bath.

Jack cautiously turned the handle and opened the door a crack. A cry of
dismay answered his move, followed by a tremendous commotion and
swishing of linen.

"I'm coming in, sir," said Jack, struggling between agitation and
laughter. It was obvious from the sounds that the clergyman had got into
bed again, wet, and as God made him. There was no answer, and Jack
pushed the door wider and went in.

It was as he had thought. His unwilling host had climbed back into bed
as hastily as possible, and the bed-clothes, wildly disordered, were
gathered round his person. A face, with wet hair, looking very odd and
childlike without his glasses, regarded him with the look of one who
sees sacrilege done. A long flannel nightgown lay on the ground between
the steaming bath and the bed, and a quantity of water lay about on the
floor, in footprints and otherwise.

"May I ask what is the meaning of this disgraceful--"

"I'm sorry, sir," said Jack briefly, "but Frank Guiseley's bolted. I've
just found this note." It did not occur to him, as he handed the note to
a bare arm, coyly protruded from the tangled bed-clothes, that this very
officer of the college was referred to in it as "that ass" and "the
little man." ... All his attention, not occupied with Frank, was fixed
on the surprising new discovery that deans had bodies and used real
baths like other people. Somehow that had never occurred to him he had
never imagined them except in smooth, black clothes and white linen. His
discovery seemed to make Mr. Mackintosh more human, somehow.

The Dean read the note through as modestly as possible, holding it very
close to his nose, as his glasses were unattainable, with an arm of
which not more than the wrist appeared. He swallowed in his throat once
or twice, and seemed to taste something with his lips, as his manner

"This is terrible!" said the Dean. "Had you any idea--"

"I knew he was going some time to-day," said Jack, "and understood that
you knew too."

"But I had no idea--"

"You did telegraph, didn't you, sir?"

"I certainly telegraphed. Yes; to Lord Talgarth. It was my duty. But--"

"Well; he spotted it. That's all. And now he's gone. What's to be done?"

Mr. Mackintosh considered a moment or two. Jack made an impatient

"I must telegraph again," said the Dean, with the air of one who has
exhausted the resources of civilization.

"But, good Lord! sir--"

"Yes. I must telegraph again. As soon as I'm dressed. Or perhaps you

"Office doesn't open till eight. That's no good. He'll be miles away by

"It's the only thing to be done," said the Dean with sudden energy. "I
forbid you to take any other steps, Mr. Kirkby. I am responsible--"


"We must not make a scandal.... What else did you propose?"

"Why--fifty things. Motor-cars; police--"

"Certainly not. We must make no scandal as he ... as he very properly
says." (The Dean swallowed in his throat again. Jack thought afterwards
that it must have been the memory of certain other phrases in the
letter.) "So if you will be good enough to leave me instantly, Mr.
Kirkby, I will finish my dressing and deal with the matter."

       *       *       *       *       *

Jack wheeled and went out of the room.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was a miserable breakfast to which he sat down half an hour
later--still in flannels, and without his bath. Frank's place was laid,
in accordance with the instructions he had given his landlady last
night, and he had not the heart to push the things aside. There were
soles for two, and four boiled eggs; there was coffee and marmalade and
toast and rolls and fruit; and the comfortable appearance of the table
simply mocked him.

He had had very confused ideas just now as to what was possible with
regard to the pursuit of Frank; a general vision of twenty motor-cars,
each with a keen-eyed chauffeur and an observant policeman, was all
that had presented itself to his imagination; but he had begun to
realize by now that you cannot, after all, abduct a young man who has
committed no crime, and carry him back unwillingly, even to Cambridge!
Neither the Dean of Trinity nor a father possesses quite unlimited power
over the freedom of a pupil and a son. And, after all, Frank had only
taken his father at his word!

These reflections, however, did not improve the situation. He felt quite
certain, in theory, that something more could be done than feebly to
send another telegram or two; the only difficulty was to identify that
something. He had vague ideas, himself, of hiring a motor-car by the
day, and proceeding to scour the country round Cambridge. But even this
did not stand scrutiny. If he had failed to persuade Frank to remain in
Cambridge, it was improbable that he could succeed in persuading him to
return--even if he found him. About eight important roads run out of
Cambridge, and he had not a glimmer of an idea as to which of these he
had taken. It was possible, even, that he had not taken any of them, and
was walking across country. That would be quite characteristic of Frank.

       *       *       *       *       *

He finished breakfast dismally, and blew through an empty pipe, staring
lackadaisically out of the window at the wall of Sidney Sussex for two
or three minutes before lighting up. Cambridge seemed an extraordinary
flat and stupid place now that Frank was no longer within it. Really
there was nothing particular to do. It had become almost a regular
engagement for him to step round to the Great Court about eleven, and
see what was to be done. Sometimes Frank wanted lawn-tennis--sometimes a
canoe on the Backs--at any rate, they would either lunch or dine
together. And if they didn't--well, at any rate, Frank was there!

He tried to picture to himself what Frank was doing; he had visions of a
sunlit road running across a fen, with a figure tramping up it; of a
little wayside inn, and Frank drinking beer in the shade. But it seemed
an amazing waste of company that the figure should always be alone. Why
hadn't he proposed to go with him himself? He didn't know; except, that
it certainly would not have been accepted. And yet they could have had
quite a pleasant time for a couple of months; and, after a couple of
months, surely Frank would have had enough of it!

But, again--would he?... Frank seemed really in earnest about making his
living permanently; and when Frank said that he was going do a thing, he
usually did it! And Jack Kirkby did not see himself leaving his own
mother and sisters indefinitely until Frank had learned not to be a

He lit his pipe at last; and then remembered the commission with regard
to the saddle--whatever that might mean. He would stroll round presently
and talk to the porter about it ... Yes, he would go at once; and he
would just look in at Frank's rooms again. There was the hammock to
fetch, too.

But it was a dreary little visit. He went round as he was, his hands
deep in his pockets, trying to whistle between his teeth and smoke
simultaneously; and he had to hold his pipe in his hand out of respect
for rules, as he conversed with the stately Mr. Hoppett in Trinity
gateway. Mr. Hoppett knew nothing about any saddle--at least, not for
public communication--but his air of deep and diplomatic suspiciousness
belied his words.

"It's all right," said Jack pleasantly, "I had nothing to do with the
elopement. The Dean knows all about it."

"I know nothing about that, sir," said Mr. Hoppett judicially.

"Then you've not got the saddle?"

"I have not, sir."

Frank's outer door was open as Jack came to the familiar staircase, and
his heart leaped in spite of himself, as he peered in and heard
footsteps in the bedroom beyond. But it was the bed-maker with a mop,
and a disapproving countenance, who looked out presently.

"He's gone, Mrs. Jillings," said Jack.

Mrs. Jillings sniffed. She had heard tales of the auction and thought it
a very improper thing for so pleasant a young gentleman to do.

"Yes, sir."

"There isn't a saddle here, is there?"

"Saddle, sir? No, sir. What should there be a saddle here for?"

"Oh, well," said Jack vaguely. "I've come to fetch away the hammock,

Certainly the rooms looked desolate. Even the carpets were gone, and the
unstained boards in the middle seemed suggestive of peculiar dreariness.
It was really very difficult to believe that these were the rooms where
he and Frank had had such pleasant times--little friendly
bridge-parties, and dinners, and absurd theatricals, in which Frank had
sustained, with extreme rapidity, with the aid of hardly any properties
except a rouge-pot, a burnt cork and three or four wisps of hair of
various shades, the part of almost any eminent authority in the
University of Cambridge that you cared to name. There were long
histories, invented by Frank himself, of the darker sides of the lives
of the more respectable members of the Senate--histories that grew, like
legends, term by term--in which the most desperate deeds were done. The
Master of Trinity, for example, in these Sagas, would pass through
extraordinary love adventures, or discover the North Pole, or give a
lecture, with practical examples, of the art of flying; the Provost of
King's would conspire with the President of Queen's College, to murder
the Vice-Chancellor and usurp his dignities. And these histories would
be enacted with astonishing realism, chiefly by Frank himself, with the
help of a zealous friend or two who were content to obey.

And these were all over now; and that was the very door through which
the Vice-Chancellor was accustomed to escape from his assassins!

       *       *       *       *       *

Jack sighed again; passed through, picked up the parcel of clothes that
lay in the window-seat, unhitched the hammock in which Frank had slept
last night (he noticed the ends of three cigarettes placed on the cover
of a convenient biscuit-tin), and went off resembling a _retiarius_.
Mrs. Jillings sniffed again as she looked after him up the court. She
didn't understand those young gentlemen at all; and frequently said so.


At half-past six o'clock that morning--about the time that Jack awoke in
Cambridge--John Harris, laborer, emerged, very sleepy and frowsy--for he
had sat up late last night at the "Spotted Dog"--from the door of a
small cottage on the Ely road, in the middle of Grunty Fen. He looked
this way and that, wondering whether it were as late as his
kitchen-clock informed him, and observing the sun, that hung now
lamentably high up in that enormous dome of summer sky that sat on the
fenland like a dish-cover on a dish. And as he turned southwards he
became aware of a young gentleman carrying a carpet-bag in one hand, and
a gray jacket over his other arm, coming up to him, not twenty yards
away. As he came nearer, Mr. Harris noticed that his face was badly
bruised as by a blow.

"Good morning," said the young gentleman. "Hot work."

John Harris made some observation.

"I want some work to do," said the young gentleman, disregarding the
observation. "I'm willing and capable. Do you know of any? I mean, work
that I shall be paid for. Or perhaps some breakfast would do as a

John Harris regarded the young gentleman in silence.



Merefield Court, as every tourist knows may be viewed from ten to five
on Tuesdays and Thursdays, when the family are not in residence, and on
Tuesdays only, from two to four, when they are. It is unnecessary,
therefore, to describe it very closely.

It stands very nearly on the top of a hill, protected by woods from the
north winds of Yorkshire; and its towers and pinnacles can be seen from
ten miles away down the valley. It is built, architecturally considered,
in the form of an irregular triangular court--quite unique--with the old
barbican at the lower end; the chapel wing directly opposite; the ruins
of the old castle on the left, keep and all, and the new house that is
actually lived in on the right. It is of every conceivable date (the
housekeeper will supply details) from the British mound on which the
keep stands, to the Georgian smoking-room built by the grandfather of
the present earl; but the main body of the house, with which we are
principally concerned--the long gray pile facing south down to the
lake, and northwards into the court--is Jacobean down to the smallest
detail, and extremely good at that. It was on the end of this that the
thirteenth earl the fifteenth baron and the fourteenth viscount (one
man, not three) thought it proper to build on a Palladian kind of
smoking-room of red sandstone, brought at enormous cost from half across
England. Fortunately, however, ivy has since covered the greater part of
its exterior.

It was in this room--also used as a billiard-room--that Archie Guiseley
(Viscount Merefield), and Dick Guiseley, his first cousin, first heard
the news of Frank's intentions.

They were both dressed for dinner, and were knocking the balls about for
ten minutes, waiting for the gong, and they were talking in that
incoherent way characteristic of billiard-players.

"The governor's not very well again," observed Archie, "and the doctor
won't let him go up to town. That's why we're here."

Dick missed a difficult cannon (he had only arrived from town himself by
the 6.17), and began to chalk his cue very carefully.

"There's nothing whatever to do," continued Archie, "so I warn you."

Dick opened his mouth to speak and closed it again, pursing it up
precisely as once more he addressed himself to the balls, and this time
brought off a really brilliant stroke.

"And he's in a terrible way about Frank," continued the other. "You've
heard all about that?"

Dick nodded.

"And he swears he won't have him home again, and that he can go to the

Dick arched his eyebrows interrogatively.

"Of course, he doesn't mean it.... But the gout, you know, and all
that.... I think Frank had better keep out of the way, though, for a
bit. Oh! by the way, the Rector and Jenny are coming to dinner."

"What does Jenny say to it all?" asked Dick gently.

"Oh! Jenny laughs."

These two young men--for Archie was only twenty-five, and Dick a year or
two older--were quite remarkably like one another in manner and general
bearing. Each, though their faces were entirely different, wore that
same particular form of mask that is fashionable just now. Each had a
look in his eyes as if the blinds were down--rather insolent and yet
rather pleasant. Each moved in the same kind of way, slow and
deliberate; each spoke quietly on rather a low note, and used as few
words as possible. Each, just now, wore a short braided dinner-jacket of
precisely the same cut.

For the rest, they were quite unlike. Archie was clean-shaven, of a
medium sort of complexion, with a big chin and rather loosely built;
Dick wore a small, pointed brown beard, and was neat and alert. Neither
of them did anything particular in the world. Archie was more or less
tied to his father, except in the autumn--for Archie drew the line at
Homburg, and went about for short visits, returning continually to look
after the estate; Dick lived in a flat in town on six hundred a year,
allowed him by his mother, and was supposed to be a sort of solicitor.
They saw a good deal of one another, off and on, and got on together
rather better than most brothers; certainly better than did Archie and
Frank. It was thought a pity by a good many people that they were only

       *       *       *       *       *

Then, as they gossiped gently, the door suddenly opened and a girl came

She was a very striking girl indeed, and her beauty was increased just
now by obvious excitement held well in check. She was tall and very
fair, and carried herself superbly, looking taller than she really was.
Her eyes, particularly bright just now, were of a vivid blue, wide-open
and well set in her face; her mouth was strong and sensible; and there
was a glorious air of breeziness and health about her altogether. She
was in evening dress, and wore a light cloak over her white shoulders.

"I'm sorry to interrupt," she said--"Oh! good evening, Mr. Dick!--but
there's something wrong. Clarkson ran out to tell us that Lord
Talgarth--it's a telegram or something. Father sent me to tell you."

Archie looked at her a second; then he was gone, swiftly, but not
hurriedly. The girl turned to Dick.

"I'm afraid it's something about Frank," she said. "I heard Clarkson
mention his name to father. Is there any more news?"

Dick laid down his cue across the table.

"I only came an hour ago," he said. "Archie was telling me just now."

Jenny went across to the deep chair on the hearth, threw off her cloak
and sat down.

"Lord Talgarth's--well--if he was my father I should say he was in a
passion. I heard his voice." She smiled a little.

Dick leaned against the table, looking at her.

"Poor Frank!" he said.

She smiled again, more freely.

"Yes ... poor, dear Frank! He's always in hot water, isn't he?"

"I'm afraid it's serious this time," observed Dick. "What did he want to
become a Catholic for?"

"Oh, Frank's always unexpected!"

"Yes, I know; but this happens to be just the one very thing--"

She looked at him humorously.

"Do you know, I'd no notion that Lord Talgarth was so deeply religious
until Frank became a Catholic."

"Yes, I know," said Dick. "But it is just his one obsession. Frank must
have known that."

"And I've not the slightest doubt," said Jenny, "that that was an
additional reason for his doing it."

"Well, what'll happen?"

She jerked her head a little.

"Oh! it'll pass off. You'll see. Frank'll find out, and then we shall
all be happy ever afterwards."

"But meantime?"

"Oh! Frank'll go and stay with friends a month or two. I daresay he'll
come to the Kirkbys', and I can go and see him."

"Suppose he does something violent? He's quite capable of it."

"Oh! I shall talk to him. It'll be all right. I'm very sensible indeed,
you know. All my friends tell me that."

Dick was silent.

"Don't you think so?"

"Think what?"

"That I'm very sensible."

Dick made a little movement with his head.

"Oh! I suppose so. Yes, I daresay.... And suppose my uncle cuts him off
with a shilling? He's quite capable of it. He's a very heavy father, you

"He won't. I shall talk to him too."

"Yes; but suppose he does?"

She threw him a swift glance.

"Frank'll put the shilling on his watch-chain, after it's been shown
with all the other wedding-presents. What are you going to give me, Mr.

"I shall design a piece of emblematic jewelry," said Dick very gravely.
"When's the wedding to be?"

"Well, we hadn't settled. Lord Talgarth wouldn't make up his mind. I
suppose next summer some time."

"Miss Jenny--"


"Tell me--quite seriously--what you'd do if there was a real row--a
permanent one, I mean--between Frank and my uncle?"

"Dear Mr. Dick--don't talk so absurdly. I tell you there's not going to
be a row. I'm going to see to that myself."

"But suppose there was?"

Jenny stood up abruptly.

"I tell you I'm a very sensible person, and I'm not going to imagine
absurdities. What do you want me to say? Do you want me to strike an
attitude and talk about love in a cottage?"

"Well, that would be one answer."

"Very well, then. That'll do, won't it? You can take it as said.... I'm
going to see what's happening."

But as she went to the door there came footsteps and voices outside; and
the next moment the door opened suddenly, and Lord Talgarth, followed by
his son and the Rector, burst into the room.


I am very sorry to have to say it, but the thirteenth Earl of Talgarth
was exactly like a man in a book--and not a very good book. His
character was, so to speak, cut out of cardboard--stiff cardboard, and
highly colored, with gilt edges showing here and there. He also, as has
been said, resembled a nobleman on the stage of the Adelphi. He had a
handsome inflamed face, with an aquiline nose and white eyebrows that
moved up and down, and all the other things; he was stout and tall,
suffered from the gout, and carried with him in the house a black stick
with an india-rubber pad on the end. There were no shades about him at
all. Construct a conventionally theatrical heavy father, of noble
family, and you have Lord Talgarth to the life. There really are people
like this in the world--of whom, too, one can prophesy, with tolerable
certainty, how they will behave in any given situation.

Certainly, Lord Talgarth was behaving in character now. He had received
meek Mr. Mackintosh's deferential telegram, occupying several sheets,
informing him that his son had held an auction of all his belongings,
and had proposed to take to the roads; asking, also, for instructions as
to how to deal with him. And the hint of defiant obstinacy on the part
of Frank--the fact, indeed, that he had taken his father at his
word--had thrown that father into a yet more violent fit of passion.
Jenny had heard him spluttering and exclamatory with anger as she came
into the hall (the telegram had but that instant been put into his
hands), and even now the footmen, still a little pale, were exchanging
winks in the hall outside; while Clarkson, his valet, and the butler
stood in high and subdued conference a little way off.

What Lord Talgarth would really have wished was that Frank should have
written to him a submissive--even though a disobedient--letter, telling
him that he could not forego his convictions, and preparing to assume
the _rôle_ of a Christian martyr. For he could have sneered at this, and
after suitable discipline forgiven its writer more or less. Of course,
he had never intended for one instant that his threats should really be
carried out; but the situation--to one of Lord Talgarth's
temperament--demanded that the threats should be made, and that Frank
should pretend to be crushed by them. That the boy should have behaved
like this brought a reality of passion into the affair--disconcerting
and infuriating--as if an actor should find his enemy on the stage was
armed with a real sword. There was but one possibility left--which Lord
Talgarth instinctively rather than consciously grasped at--namely, that
an increased fury on his part should once more bring realities back
again to a melodramatic level, and leave himself, as father, master both
of the situation and of his most disconcerting son. Frank had behaved
like this in minor matters once or twice before, and Lord Talgarth had
always come off victor. After all, he commanded all the accessories.

       *       *       *       *       *

When the speeches had been made--Frank cut off with a shilling, driven
to the Colonies, brought back again, and finally starved to death at his
father's gates--Lord Talgarth found himself in a chair, with Jenny
seated opposite, and the rest of the company gone to dinner. He did not
quite realize how it had all been brought about, nor by whose
arrangement it was that a plate of soup and some fish were to come
presently, and Jenny and he to dine together.

He pulled himself together a little, however, and began to use phrases
again about his "graceless son," and "the young villain," and "not a
penny of his." (He was, of course, genuinely angry; that must be

Then Jenny began to talk.

"I think, you know," she said quietly, "that you aren't going the right
way to work. (It's very impertinent of me, isn't it?--but you did say
just now you wanted to hear what I thought.)"

"Of course I do; of course I do. You're a sensible girl, my dear. I've
always said that. But as for this young--"

"Well, let me say what I think. (Yes, put the soup down here, will you.
Is that right, Lord Talgarth?)." She waited till the man was gone again
and the old man had taken up his spoon. Then she took up her own. "Well,
I think what you've done is exactly the thing to make Frank more
obstinate than ever. You see, I know him very well. Now, if you'd only
laughed at him and patted his head, so to speak, from the beginning, and
told him you thought it an excellent thing for a boy of his character,
who wants looking after--"

Lord Talgarth glared at her. He was still breathing rather heavily, and
was making something of a noise over his soup.

"But how can I say that, when I think--"

"Oh! you can't say it now, of course; it's too late. No; that would
never do. You must keep it up--only you mustn't be really angry. Why not
try a little cold severity?"

She looked so charming and humorous that the old man began to melt a
little. He glanced up at her once or twice under his heavy eyebrows.

"I wonder what you'll do," he said with a kind of gruffness, "when you
find you've got to marry a pauper?"

"I shan't have to marry a pauper," said Jenny. "That wouldn't do

"Oh! you're counting on that eight hundred a year still, are you?"

Jenny allowed a little coldness to appear on her face. Rude banter was
all very well, but it mustn't go too far. (Secretly she allowed to
herself sometimes that this old man had elements of the cad in his

"That's entirely my own affair," she said, "and Frank's."

Lord Talgarth blazed up a little.

"And the eight hundred a year is mine," he said.

Jenny laid down her spoon as the servant reappeared with the fish and
the menu-card. He came very opportunely. And while her host was
considering what he would eat next, she was pondering her next move.

Jenny, as has been said, was an exceedingly sensible girl. She had grown
up in the Rectory, down at the park gates; and since her mother's death,
three years previously, had managed her father's house, including her
father, with great success. She had begun to extend her influence, for
the last year or two, even over the formidable lord of the manor
himself, and, as has been seen, was engaged to his son. Her judgment was
usually very sound and very sane, and the two men, with the Rector, had
been perfectly right just now in leaving the old man to her care for an
hour or so. If anything could quiet him it would be this girl. She was
quite fearless, quite dignified, and quite able to hold her own. And her
father perceived that she rather enjoyed it.

When the man had gone out again, she resumed:

"Well, let's leave it," she said, "for a day or two. There's no hurry,

"But I must answer this--this telegram," he growled. "What am I to say
to the feller?"

"Tell him to follow his discretion, and that you have complete


"Yes; I know you haven't, really. But it'll do no harm, and it'll make
him feel important."

"And what if the boy does take to the roads?"

"Let him," said Jenny coolly. "It won't kill him."

He looked up at her again in silence.

Jenny herself was very far from comfortable, though she was conscious of
real pleasure, too, in the situation. She had seen this old man in a
passion pretty often, but she had never seen him in a passion with any
real excuse. No one ever thwarted him. He even decided where his doctor
should send him for his cure, and in what month, and for how long. And
she was not, therefore, quite certain what would happen, for she knew
Frank well enough to be quite sure that he meant what he said. However,
she reflected, the main thing at present was to smooth things down all
round as far as possible. Then she could judge.

"Can't make out why you ever consented to marry such a chap at all!" he
growled presently.

"Oh, well--" said Jenny.


It was a delicious evening, and the three men, after dinner, strolled
out on to the broad terrace that ran, looking over the lake, straight up
and down the long side of the house. They had not had the advantage,
since the servants were in the room, of talking over the situation as
they wished, and there was no knowing when Lord Talgarth and Jenny might
emerge. So they sat down at a little stone table at the end furthest
from the smoking-room, and Archie and Dick lit their cigarettes.

There is not a great deal to say about the Rector. The most effective
fact about him was that he was the father of Jenny. It was a case, here,
of "Averill following Averill": his father and grandfather, both second
sons, as was the Rector himself, had held the living before him, and had
performed the duties of it in the traditional and perfectly respectable
way. This one was a quiet middle-aged man, clean-shaven except for two
small whiskers. He wore a white tie, and a small gold stud was visible
in the long slit of his white shirt-front. He was on very easy terms in
this house, in an unintimate manner, and dined here once a fortnight or
so, without saying or hearing anything of particular interest. He had
been secretly delighted at his daughter's engagement, and had given his
consent with gentle and reserved cordiality. He was a Tory, not exactly
by choice, but simply--for the same reason as he was Church of
England--because he was unable, in the fiber of him, to imagine anything
else. Of course, Lord Talgarth was the principal personage in his world,
simply because he was Lord Talgarth and owned practically the whole
parish and two-thirds of the next. He regarded his daughter with the
greatest respect, and left in her hands everything that he decently
could. And, to do her justice, Jenny was a very benevolent, as well as
capable, despot. In short, the Rector plays no great part in this drama
beyond that of a discreet, and mostly silent, Greek chorus of
unimpeachable character. He disapproved deeply, of course, of Frank's
change of religion--but he disapproved with that same part of him that
appreciated Lord Talgarth. It seemed to him that Catholicism, in his
daughter's future husband, was a defect of the same kind as would be a
wooden leg or an unpleasant habit of sniffing--a drawback, yet not
insuperable. He would be considerably relieved if it could be cured.

       *       *       *       *       *

The three men sat there for some while without interruption from the
smoking-room, while the evening breeze died, the rosy sky paled, and the
stars came out one by one, like diamonds in the clear blue. They said,
of course, all the proper things, and Dick heard a little more than he
had previously known.

Dick was always conscious of a faint, almost impersonal, resentment
against destiny when he stayed at Merefield. It was obvious to him that
the position of heir there was one which would exactly have suited his
tastes and temperament. He was extremely pleased to belong to the
family--and it was, indeed, a very exceptional family as regards
history: it had been represented in nearly every catastrophe since the
Norman Conquest, and always on the winning side, except once--but it was
difficult to enjoy the distinction as it deserved, living, as he did, in
a flat in London all by himself. When his name was mentioned to a
well-informed stranger, it was always greeted by the question as to
whether he was one of the Guiseleys of Merefield, and it seemed to him
singularly annoying that he could only answer "First cousin." Archie, of
course, was a satisfactory heir; there was no question of that--he was
completely of Dick's own school of manner--but it seemed a kind of
outrage that Frank, with his violent convictions and his escapades,
should be Archie's only brother. There was little of that repose about
him that a Guiseley needed.

It would be about half-past nine that the sound of an opening door, and
voices, from the further end of the terrace, told them that the
smoking-room conference was over, and they stood up as Jenny, very
upright and pale in the twilight, with her host at her side, came up
towards them. Dick noticed that the cigar his uncle carried was smoked
down almost to the butt, and augured well from that detail. The old
man's arm was in the girl's, and he supported himself on the other side,
limping a little, on his black stick.

He sat down with a grunt and laid his stick across the table.

"Well, boys, we've settled it," he said. "Jenny's to write the

"No one need be anxious any more," announced Jenny imperturbably. "Lord
Talgarth's extremely angry still, as he has every right to be, and
Frank's going to be allowed to go on the tramp if he wants to."

The Rector waited, in deferential silence, for corroboration.

"Jenny's a very sensible girl," observed Lord Talgarth. "And what she
says is quite right."

"Do you mean to say--" began Archie.

The old man frowned round at him.

"All that I've said holds good," he said.

"Frank's made his bed and he must lie on it. I warned him. And Jenny
sees that, too."

Archie glanced at the girl, and Dick looked hard at her, straight into
her face. But there was absolutely no sign there of any perturbation.
Certainly she looked white in the falling dusk, but her eyes were merry
and steadfast, and her voice perfectly natural.

"That's how we've settled it," she said. "And if I'm satisfied, I
imagine everyone else ought to be. And I'm going to write Frank a good
long letter all by myself. Come along, father, we must be going. Lord
Talgarth isn't well, and we mustn't keep him up."


When the last game of billiards had been played, and whisky had been
drunk, and Archie had taken up his candle, Dick stood still, with his
own in his hand.

"Aren't you coming?" said Archie.

Dick paused.

"I think I'll smoke one more cigarette on the terrace," he said. "It's a
heavenly night, and I want to get the taste of the train out of my

"All right, then. Lock up, will you, when you come in? I'm off."

It was, indeed, a heavenly night. Behind him as he sat at the table
where they had had coffee the great house shimmered pale in the summer
twilight, broken here by a line or two of yellow light behind shuttered
windows, here with the big oriel window of the hall, blazing with coats,
fully illuminated. (He must remember, he thought, to put out the lights
there as he went to bed.)

And about him was the great soft, sweet-smelling darkness, roofed in by
the far-off sky alight with stars; and beneath him in the valley he
could catch the glimmer of the big lake and the blotted masses of pine
and cypress black against it.

It was here, then, under these circumstances, that Dick confessed to
himself, frankly and openly for the first time, that he was in love with
Jenny Launton.

He had known her for years, off and on, and had thought of her as a
pretty girl and a pleasant companion. He had skated with her, ridden
with her, danced with her, and had only understood, with a sense of mild
shock, at the time of her engagement to Frank six months before, that
she was of an age to become a wife to someone.

That had been the beginning of a process which culminated to-night, as
he now understood perfectly. Its next step had been a vague wonder why
Archie hadn't fallen in love with her himself; and he had explained it
by saying that Archie had too great a sense of his own importance to
permit himself to marry a rector's daughter with only a couple of
hundred a year of her own. (And in this explanation I think he was quite
correct.) Then he had begun to think of her himself a good
deal--dramatically, rather than realistically--wondering what it would
feel like to be engaged to her. If a younger son could marry her, surely
a first cousin could--even of the Guiseleys. So it had gone on, little
by little. He had danced with her here at Christmas--just after the
engagement--and had stayed on a week longer than he had intended. He had
come up again at Easter, and again at Whitsuntide, though he always
protested to his friends that there was nothing to do at Merefield in
the summer. And now here he was again, and the thing had happened.

At first, as he sat here, he tried to analyze his attitude to Frank.

He had never approved of Frank altogether; he didn't quite like the
queer kinds of things that Frank did; for Frank's reputation at
Merefield was very much what it was at Cambridge. He did ridiculous and
undignified things. As a small boy, he had fought at least three pitched
battles in the village, and that was not a proper thing for a Guiseley
to do. He liked to go out with the keepers after poachers, and Dick,
very properly, asked himself what keepers were for except to do that
kind of thing for you? There had been a bad row here, too, scarcely
eighteen months ago; it had been something to do with a horse that was
ill-treated, and Frank had cut a very absurd and ridiculous figure,
getting hot and angry, and finally thrashing a groom, or somebody, with
his own hands, and there had been uncomfortable talk about police-courts
and actions for assault. Finally, he had fallen in love with, proposed
to, and become engaged to, Jenny Launton. That was an improper thing for
a younger son to do, anyhow, at his age, and Dick now perceived that the
fact that Jenny was Jenny aggravated the offense a hundredfold. And,
last of all, he had become a Catholic--an act of enthusiasm which seemed
to Dick really vulgar.

Altogether, then, Frank was not a satisfactory person, and it would do
him no harm to have a little real discipline at last....

       *       *       *       *       *

It was the striking of midnight from the stable clock that woke Dick up
from his deep reverie, and was the occasion of his perceiving that he
had come to no conclusion about anything, except that Frank was an ass,
that Jenny was--well--Jenny, and that he, Dick, was an ill-used person.

I do not like to set down here, even if I could, all the considerations
that had passed through Dick's mind since a quarter-past eleven, simply
because the very statement of them would give a false impression. Dick
was not a knave, and he did not deceive himself about himself more than
most of us do. Yet he had considered a number of points that, strictly
speaking, he ought not to have considered. He had wondered whether Frank
would die; he had wondered whether, if he did not, Lord Talgarth would
really be as good as his word; and, if so, what effect that would have
on Jenny. Finally, he had wondered, with a good deal of intellectual
application, what exactly Jenny had meant when she had announced all
that about the telegram she was going to send in Lord Talgarth's name,
and the letter she was going to send in her own. (He had asked Archie
just now in the smoking-room, and he, too, had confessed himself beaten.
Only, he had been quite sure that jenny would get her way and obtain
Frank's forgiveness.)

Also, in the course of his three-quarters of an hour he had considered,
for perhaps the hundredth time since he had come to the age of
discretion, what exactly three lives between a man and a title stood
for. Lord Talgarth was old and gouty; Archie was not married, and showed
no signs of it; and Frank--well, Frank was always adventurous and
always in trouble.

Well, I have set down the points, after all. But it must not be thought
that the gentleman with the pointed brown beard and thoughtful eyes, who
at five minutes past twelve went up the two steps into the smoking-room,
locked the doors, as he had been directed, took up his candle and went
to bed, went with an uneasy conscience, or, in fact, was a villain in
any way whatever.



The first spot in Frank's pilgrimage which I have been able to visit and
identify in such a way that I am able to form to myself a picture of his
adventure more or less complete in all its parts, lies about ten miles
north-west of Doncaster, in a little valley, where curiously enough
another pilgrim named Richard lived for a little while nearly six
hundred years ago.

Up to the time of Frank's coming there, in the season of hay-making,
numberless little incidents of his experience stand out, vivid, indeed,
but fragmentary, yet they do not form to my mind a coherent whole. I
think I understand to some extent the process by which he became
accustomed to ordinary physical hard living, into which the initiation
began with his series of almost wholly sleepless nights and heavy
sleep-burdened days. Night was too strange--in barns, beneath hay-ricks,
in little oppressive rooms, in stable-lofts--for him to sleep easily at
first; and between his tramps, or in the dinner-hour, when he managed to
get work, he would drop off in the hot sunshine down into depths of
that kind of rest that is like the sea itself--glimmering gulfs, lit by
glimpses of consciousness of the grass beneath his cheek, the bubble of
bird-song in the copses, stretching down into profound and utter

Of how the little happenings of every day wore themselves into a
coherent whole, and modified, not indeed himself, but his manner of life
and his experience and knowledge, I can make no real picture at all. The
first of these took place within ten miles of Cambridge on his first
morning, and resulted in the bruised face which Mr. Harris noticed; it
concerned a piece of brutality to a dog in which Frank interfered....
(He was extraordinarily tender to animals.) Then there was the learning
as to how work was obtained, and, even more considerable, the doing of
the work. The amateur, as Frank pointed out later, began too vigorously
and became exhausted; the professional set out with the same
deliberation with which he ended. One must not run at one's spade, or
hoe, or whatever it was; one must exercise a wearisome self-control ...
survey the work to be done, turn slowly, spit on one's hands, and after
a pause begin, remembering that the same activity must show itself, if
the work was to be renewed next day, up to the moment of leaving off.

Then there was the need of becoming accustomed to an entirely different
kind of food, eaten in an entirely different way, and under entirely
different circumstances. There was experience to be gained as to washing
clothes--I can almost see Frank now by a certain kind of stream,
stripped to the waist, waiting while his shirt dried, smoking an
ill-rolled cigarette, yet alert for the gamekeeper. Above all, there was
an immense volume of learning--or, rather, a training of instinct--to be
gained respecting human nature: a knowledge of the kind of man who would
give work, the kind of man who meant what he said, and the kind of man
who did not; the kind of woman who would threaten the police if milk or
bread were asked for--Frank learned to beg very quickly--the kind of
woman who would add twopence and tell him to be off, and the kind of
woman who, after a pause and a slow scrutiny, would deliberately refuse
to supply a glass of water. Then there was the atmosphere of the little
towns to be learned--the intolerable weariness of pavements, and the
patient persistence of policemen who would not allow you to sit down. He
discovered, also, during his wanderings, the universal fact that
policemen are usually good-hearted, but with absolutely no sense of
humor whatever; he learned this through various attempts to feign that
the policeman was in fancy-dress costume and had no real authority. He
learned, too, that all crimes pale before "resisting the police in the
execution of their duty"; then, he had to learn, to, the way in which
other tramps must be approached--the silences necessary, the sort of
questions which were useless, the jokes that must be laughed at and the
jokes that must be resented.

All this is beyond me altogether; it was beyond even Frank's own powers
of description. A boy, coming home for the holidays for the first time,
cannot make clear to his mother, or even to himself, what it is that has
so utterly changed his point of view, and his relations towards familiar

       *       *       *       *       *

So with Frank.

He could draw countless little vignettes of his experiences and
emotions--the particular sensation elicited, for example, by seeing
through iron gates happy people on a lawn at tea--the white china, the
silver, the dresses, the flannels, the lawn-tennis net--as he went past,
with string tied below his knees to keep off the drag of the trousers,
and a sore heel; the emotion of being passed by a boy and a girl on
horseback; the flood of indescribable associations roused by walking for
half a day past the split-oak paling of a great park, with lodge-gates
here and there, the cooing of wood-pigeons, and the big house, among
its lawns and cedars and geranium-beds, seen now and then, far off in
the midst. But what he could not describe, or understand, was the inner
alchemy by which this new relation to things modified his own soul, and
gave him a point of view utterly new and bewildering. Curiously enough,
however (as it seems to me), he never seriously considered the
possibility of abandoning this way of life, and capitulating to his
father. A number of things, I suppose--inconceivable to
myself--contributed to his purpose; his gipsy blood, his extraordinary
passion for romance, the attraction of a thing simply because it was
daring and unusual, and finally, a very exceptionally strong will that,
for myself, I should call obstinacy.

The silence--as regards his old world--was absolute and unbroken. He
knew perfectly well that by now letters and telegrams must be waiting
for him at Jack's home, including at least one from Jenny, and probably
a dozen; but as to Jenny, he knew she would understand, and as to the
rest, he honestly did not care at all. He sent her a picture postcard
once or twice--from Ely, Peterborough, Sleaford and Newark--towns where
he stayed for a Sunday (I have seen in Sleaford the little room where he
treated himself to a bed for two nights)--and was content. He made no
particular plans for the future; he supposed something would turn up;
and he settled with himself, by the help of that same will which I have
mentioned before, that he would precipitate no conclusions till he
reached Barham later on in the early autumn.

His faith and morals during these weeks are a little difficult to
describe. As regards his morals, at least in one particular point, he
had formulated the doctrine that, when he was very hungry, game might
not be touched, but that rabbits and birds were permissible if they
could be snared in the hedges of the high-road. He became an expert at
this kind of thing, and Jack has described to me, as taught by Frank, a
few devices of which I was entirely ignorant. Frank tramped for a couple
of days with a gamekeeper out of work, and learned these things from
him, as well as one or two simple methods of out-of-door cookery. As
regards his religion, I think I had better not say much just now; very
curious influences were at work upon him: I can only say that Frank
himself has described more than once, when he could be induced to talk,
the extraordinary, and indeed indescribable, thrill with which he saw,
now and again, in town or country, a priest in his vestments go to the
altar--for he heard mass when he could....

So much, then, is all that I can say of the small, detached experiences
that he passed through, up to the point when he came out one evening at
sunset from one of the fields of Hampole where he had made hay all day,
when his job was finished, and where he met, for the first time, the
Major and Gertie Trustcott.


They were standing with the sunset light behind them, as a glory--two
disreputable figures, such as one sees in countless thousands along all
the high-roads of England in the summer. The Major himself was a lean
man, with a red mustache turning gray, deep-set, narrow, blood-shot
eyes, a chin and very square jaw shaved about two days previously. He
had an old cricketing cap on his head, trousers tied up with string,
like Frank's, and one of those long, square-tailed, yellowish coats with
broad side-pockets such as a gamekeeper might have worn twenty years
ago. One of his boots was badly burst, and he, seemed to rest his weight
by preference on the other foot. He was not prepossessing; but Frank
saw, with his newly-gained experience, that he was different from other
tramps. He glanced at the girl and saw that she too was not quite of the
regular type, though less peculiar than her companion; and he noticed
with an odd touch at his heart that she had certain characteristics in
common with Jenny. She was not so tall, but she had the same colored
hair under a filthy white sun-bonnet and the same kind of blue eyes: but
her oval face again was weak and rather miserable. They were both deeply

Frank had learned the discretion of the roads by now, and did no more
than jerk his head almost imperceptibly as he went past. (He proposed to
go back to the farm to get his dwindled belongings, as the job was over,
and to move on a few miles northward before sleeping.)

As he went, however, he knew that the man had turned and was looking
after him: but he made no sign. He had no particular desire for company.
He also knew by instinct, practically for certain, that these two were
neither husband and wife, nor father and daughter. The type was obvious.

"I say, sir!"

Frank turned as bucolically as he could.

"I say, sir--can you direct this lady and myself to a lodging?"

Frank had tried to cultivate a low and characterless kind of voice, as
of a servant or a groom out of work. He knew he could never learn the
proper accent.

"Depends on what kind of lodging you want, sir."

"What'd suit you 'ud suit us," said the Major genially, dropping the

"I'm going further, sir," said Frank. "I've done my job here."

The Major turned to the girl, and Frank caught the words, "What d'you
say, Gertie?" There was a murmur of talk; and then the man turned to him

"If you've no objection, sir, we'll come with you. My good lady here is
good for a mile or two more, she says, and we'd like some company."

Frank hesitated. He did not in the least wish for company himself. He
glanced at the girl again.

"Very good, sir," he said. "Then if you'll wait here I'll be back in
five minutes--I've got to get my belongings."

He nodded to the low farm buildings in the valley just below the

"We will await you here, sir," said the Major magnificently, stroking
his mustache.

       *       *       *       *       *

As Frank came back up the little hill a few minutes later, he had made
up his mind as to what to say and do. It was his first experience of a
gentleman-tramp, and it was obvious that under the circumstances he
could not pretend to be anything else himself. But he was perfectly
determined not to tell his name. None of his belongings had anything
more than his initials upon them, and he decided to use the name he had
already given more than once. Probably they would not go far together;
but it was worth while to be on the safe side.

He came straight up to the two as they sat side by side with their feet
in the ditch.

"I'm ready, sir," he said. "Yes; you've spotted me all right."

"University man and public school boy," said the Major without moving.

"Eton and Cambridge," said Frank.

The Major sprang up.

"Harrow and the Army," he said. "Shake hands."

This was done.

"Name?" said the Major.

Frank grinned.

"I haven't my card with me," he said. "But Frank Gregory will do."

"I understand," said the Major. "And 'The Major' will do for me. It has
the advantage of being true. And this lady?--well, we'll call her my

Frank bowed. He felt he was acting in some ridiculous dream; but his
sense of humor saved him. The girl gave a little awkward bow in
response, and dropped her eyes. Certainly she was very like Jenny, and
very unlike.

"And a name?" asked Frank. "We may as well have one in case of

The Major considered.

"What do you say to Trustcott?" he asked. "Will that do?"

"Perfectly," said Frank. "Major and Mrs. Trustcott.... Well, shall we be

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank had no particular views as to lodgings, or even to roads, so long
as the direction was more or less northward. He was aiming, generally
speaking, at Selby and York; and it seemed that this would suit the
Major as well as anything else. There is, I believe, some kind of
routine amongst the roadsters; and about that time of the year most of
them are as far afield as at any time from their winter quarters. The
Major and Mrs. Trustcott, he soon learned, were Southerners; but they
would not turn homewards for another three months yet, at least. For
himself, he had no ideas beyond a general intention to reach Barham some
time in the autumn, before Jack went back to Cambridge for his fourth

"The country is not prepossessing about here," observed the Major
presently; "Hampole is an exception."

Frank glanced back at the valley they were leaving. It had, indeed, an
extraordinarily retired and rural air; it was a fertile little tract of
ground, very limited and circumscribed, and the rail that ran through it
was the only sign of the century. But the bright air was a little dimmed
with smoke; and already from the point they had reached tall chimneys
began to prick against the horizon.

"You have been here before?" he said.

"Why, yes; and about this time last year, wasn't it, Gertie? I
understand a hermit lived here once."

"A hermit might almost live here to-day," said Frank.

"You are right, sir," said the Major.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank began to wonder, as he walked, as to why this man was on the
roads. Curiously enough, he believed his statement that he had been in
the army. The air of him seemed the right thing. A militia captain would
have swaggered more; a complete impostor would have given more details.
Frank began to fish for information.

"You have been long on the roads?" he said.

The Major did not appear to hear him.

"You have been long on the roads?" persisted Frank.

The other glanced at him furtively and rather insolently. "The younger
man first, please."

Frank smiled.

"Oh, certainly!" he said. "Well, I have left Cambridge at the end of
June only."

"Ah! Anything disgraceful?"

"You won't believe me, I suppose, if I say 'No'?"

"Oh! I daresay I shall."

"Well, then, 'No.'"

"Then may I ask--?"

"Oh, yes! I was kicked out by my father--I needn't go into details. I
sold up my things and came out. That's all!"

"And you mean to stick to it?"

"Certainly--at least for a year or two."

"That's all right. Well, then--Major--what did we say? Trustcott? Ah,
yes, Trustcott. Well, then, I think we might add 'Eleventh Hussars';
that's near enough. The final catastrophe was, I think, cards. Not that
I cheated, you understand. I will allow no man to say that of me. But
that was what was said. A gentleman of spirit, you understand, could not
remain in a regiment when such things could be said. Then we tumbled
downhill; and I've been at this for four years. And, you know, sir, it
might be worse!"

Frank nodded.

Naturally he did not believe as necessarily true this terse little
story, and he was absolutely certain that if cards were mixed up in it
at all, obviously the Major had cheated. So he just took the story and
put it away, so to speak. It was to form, he perceived, the
understanding on which they consorted together. Then he began to wonder
about the girl. The Major soon supplied a further form.

"And Mrs. Trustcott, here? Well, she joined me, let us say, rather more
than eighteen months ago. We had been acquainted before that, however.
That was when I was consenting to serve as groom to some--er--some
Jewish bounder in town. Mrs. Trustcott's parents live in town."

The girl, who had been trudging patiently a foot or two behind them,
just glanced up at Frank and down again. He wondered exactly what her
own attitude was to all this. But she made no comment.

"And now we know one another," finished the Major in a tone of genial
finality. "So where are you taking us--er--Mr. Gregory?"


They were fortunate that night.

The part of Yorkshire where they were traveling consists chiefly of an
innumerable quantity of little cottages, gathered for the most part
round collieries. One has the impression--at any rate, from a
motor--that there is nothing but villages. But that is not a fact. There
are stretches of road, quite solitary at certain hours; and in one of
these they noticed presently a little house, not twenty yards from the
road, once obviously forming part of a row of colliers' cottages, of
which the rest were demolished.

It was not far off from ruin itself, and was very plainly uninhabited.
Across the front door were nailed deal props, originally, perhaps, for
the purpose of keeping it barred, and useful for holding it in its
place. The Major and Gertie kept watch on the road while Frank pushed
open the crazy little gate and went round to the back. A minute later he
called to them softly.

He had wrenched open the back door, and within in the darkness they
could make out a little kitchen, stripped of everything--table,
furniture, and even the range itself. The Major kicked something
presently in the gloom, swore softly, and announced he had found a
kettle. They decided that all this would do very well.

       *       *       *       *       *

Tramps do not demand very much, and these were completely contented when
they had made a small fire, damped down with a turf to prevent it
smoking, had boiled a little water, stewed some tea, and eaten what they
had. Even this was not luxurious. The Major produced the heel of a
cheese and two crushed-looking bananas, and Frank a half-eaten tin of
sardines and a small, stale loaf. The Major announced presently that he
would make a savory; and, indeed, with cheese melted on to the bread,
and sardines on the top, he did very well. Gertie moved silently about;
and Frank, in the intervals of rather abrupt conversation with the
Major, found his eyes following her as she spread out their small
possessions, vanished up the stairs and reappeared. Certainly she was
very like Jenny, even in odd little details--the line of her eyebrows,
the angle of her chin and so forth--perhaps more in these details than
in anything else. He began to wonder a little about her--to imagine her
past, to forecast her future. It seemed all rather sordid. She
disappeared finally without a word: he heard her steps overhead, and
then silence.

Then he had to attend to the Major a little more.

"It was easy enough to tell you," said that gentleman.


"Oh, well, if nothing else, your clothes."

"Aren't they shabby enough?"

The Major eyed him with half-closed lids, by the light of the single
candle-end, stuck in its own wax on the mantelshelf.

"They're shabby enough, but they're the wrong sort. There's the cut,
first--though that doesn't settle it. But these are gray flannel
trousers, for one thing, and then the coat's not stout enough."

"They might have been given me," said Frank, smiling.

"They fit you too well for that."

"I'll change them when I get a chance," observed Frank.

"It would be as well," assented the Major.

       *       *       *       *       *

Somehow or another the sense of sordidness, which presently began to
affect Frank so profoundly, descended on him for the first time that
night. He had managed, by his very solitariness hitherto, to escape it
so far. It had been possible to keep up a kind of pose so far; to
imagine the adventure in the light of a very much prolonged and very
realistic picnic. But with this other man the thing became impossible.
It was tolerable to wash one's own socks; it was not so tolerable to see
another man's socks hung up on the peeling mantelpiece a foot away from
his own head, and to see two dirty ankles, not his own, emerging from
crazy boots.

The Major, too, presently, when he grew a trifle maudlin over his own
sorrows, began to call him "Frankie," and "my boy," and somehow it
mattered, from a man with the Major's obvious record. Frank pulled
himself up only just in time to prevent a retort when it first happened,
but it was not the slightest use to be resentful. The thing had to be
borne. And it became easier when it occurred to him to regard the Major
as a study; it was even interesting to hear him give himself away, yet
all with a pompous appearance of self-respect, and to recount his first
meeting with Gertie, now asleep upstairs.

The man was, in fact, exactly what Frank, in his prosperous days, would
have labeled "Bounder." He had a number of meaningless little
mannerisms--a way of passing his hand over his mustache, a trick of
bringing a look of veiled insolence into his eyes; there were subjects
he could not keep away from--among them Harrow School, the Universities
(which he called 'Varsity), the regiment he had belonged to, and a
certain type of adventure connected with women and champagne. And
underneath the whole crust of what the Major took to be breeding, there
was a piteous revelation of a feeble, vindictive, and rather nasty
character. It became more and more evident that the cheating
incident--or, rather, the accusation, as he persisted in calling
it--was merely the last straw in his fall, and that the whole thing had
been the result of a crumbly unprincipled kind of will underneath,
rather than of any particular strain of vice. He appeared, even now, to
think that his traveling about with a woman who was not his wife was a
sort of remnant of fallen splendor--as a man might keep a couple of
silver spoons out of the ruin of his house.

"I recommend you to pick up with one," remarked the Major. "There are
plenty to be had, if you go about it the right way."

"Thanks," said Frank, "but it's not my line."


The morning, too, was a little trying.

Frank had passed a tolerable night. The Major had retired upstairs about
ten o'clock, taking his socks with him, presumably to sleep in them, and
Frank had heard him creaking about upstairs for a minute or two; there
had followed two clumps as the boots were thrown off; a board suddenly
spoke loudly; there was a little talking--obviously the Major had
awakened Gertie in order to make a remark or two--and then silence.

Frank had not slept for half an hour; he was thinking, with some
depression, of the dreary affair into which he had been initiated, of
the Major, and of Gertie, for whom he was beginning to be sorry. He did
not suppose that the man actually bullied her; probably he had done this
sufficiently for the present--she was certainly very quiet and
subdued--or perhaps she really admired him, and thought it rather
magnificent to travel about with an ex-officer. Anyhow, it was rather

       *       *       *       *       *

When he awoke next morning, the depression was on him still; and it was
not lifted by the apparition of Gertie on which he opened his eyes from
his corner, in an amazingly dirty petticoat, bare-armed, with her hair
in a thick untidy pig-tail, trying to blow the fire into warmth again.

Frank jumped up--he was in his trousers and shirt.

"Let me do that," he said.

"I'll do it," said Gertie passionlessly.

       *       *       *       *       *

The Major came down ten minutes later, considerably the worse for his
night's rest. Yesterday he had had a day's beard on him; to-day he had
two, and there was a silvery sort of growth in the stubble that made it
look wet. His eyes, too, were red and sunken, and he began almost
instantly to talk about a drink. Frank stood it for a few minutes, then
he understood and capitulated.

"I'll stand you one," he said, "if you'll get me two packets of

"What's the good of that?" said the Major. "Pubs aren't open yet. It's
only just gone five."

"You'll have to wait, then," said Frank shortly.

Presently the Major did begin to bully Gertie. He asked her what the
devil was the good of her if she couldn't make a fire burn better than
that. He elbowed her out of the way and set to work at it himself. She
said nothing at all. Yet there was not the faintest use in Frank's
interfering, and, indeed, there was nothing to interfere in.

Food, too, this morning, seemed disgusting; and again Frank learned the
difference between a kind of game played by oneself and a reality in
which two others joined. There had been something almost pleasing about
unrolling the food wrapped up at supper on the previous night, and
eating it, with or without cooking, all alone; but there was something
astonishingly unpleasant in observing sardines that were now common
property lying in greasy newspaper, a lump of bread from which their
hands tore pieces, and a tin bowl of warmish cocoa from which all must
drink. This last detail was a contribution on the part of Major and Mrs.
Trustcott, and it would have been ungracious to refuse. The Major, too,
was sullen and resentful this morning, and growled at Gertie more than

Even the weather seemed unpropitious as they set out together again soon
after six. Rain had fallen in the night, yet not all the rain that there
was overhead. There were still clouds hanging, mixed with the smoke from
the chimneys; the hedges seemed dulled and black in spite of their
green; the cinder path they walked on was depressing, the rain-fed road
even more so. They passed a dozen men on their way to the pits, who made
remarks on the three, and retaliation was out of the question.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was very disconcerting to Frank to find the difference that his new
circumstances made; and yet he did not seriously consider changing them.
It seemed to him, somehow or other, in that strange fashion in which
such feelings come, that the whole matter was pre-arranged, and that the
company in which he found himself was as inevitably his--at least for
the present--as the family to a child born into it. And there was, of
course, too, a certain element of relief in feeling himself no longer
completely alone; and there was also, as Frank said later, a curious
sense of attraction towards, and pity for, Gertie that held him there.

At the first public-house that was open the Major stopped.

"I'll get your Cinderellas now, if you like," he said.

This had not been Frank's idea, but he hardly hesitated.

"All right," he said. "Here's fourpence."

The Major vanished through the swing-doors as a miner came out, and a
gush of sweet and sickly scent--beer, spirits, tobacco--poured upon the
fresh air. And there was a vision of a sawdusted floor and spittoons

Frank looked at Gertie, who had stopped like a patient donkey, and, like
a prudent one, had let her bundle instantly down beside the Major's.

"Like one, too?" he said.

She shook her head.

"Not for me." ... And no more.

In a couple of minutes the Major was out again.

"Only had one packet left," he said, and with an air of extreme
punctiliousness and magnanimity replaced one penny in Frank's hand. He
had the air of one who is insistent on the little honesties of life.
There was also a faintly spirituous atmosphere about him, and his eyes
looked a little less sunken.

Then he handed over the cigarettes.

"Shouldn't mind one myself," he said genially.

Frank gave him one before lighting his own.

"You're a good sort," said the Major, "and I wish I could give you one
of my old cigars I used to give my friends."

"Ah! well, when your ship comes home," observed Frank, throwing away his

The Major nodded his head as with an air of fallen grandeur.

"Well," he said, "_vorwärts_. That means 'forward,' my dear," he
explained to Gertie.

Gertie said nothing. They took up their bundles and went on.


It was not till a week later that Gertie did that which was to effect so
much in Frank--she confided in him.

The week had consisted of the kind of thing that might be
expected--small negligible adventures; work now and then--the Major and
Frank working side by side--a digging job on one day, the carrying of
rather dingy smoke-stained hay on another, the scraping of garden-paths
that ran round the small pink house of a retired tradesman, who observed
them magnificently though a plate-glass window all the while, with a
cigar in his teeth, and ultimately gave them ninepence between them.
They slept here and there--once, on a rainy night, in real lodgings,
once below a haystack. Frank said hardly a word to Gertie, and did
little more than listen to the Major, who was already beginning to
repeat himself; but he was aware that the girl was watching him.

The crisis came about under circumstances that might be expected--on a
rather sentimental kind of Sunday evening, in a village whose name I
forget (perhaps it was Escrick) between Selby and York. Frank had made a
small excursion by himself in the morning and had managed to hear mass;
they had dined well off cold bacon and beans, and had walked on in the
afternoon some miles further; and they came to the village a little
after six o'clock. The Major had a blister, which he had exhibited at
least four times to the company, and had refused to go further; and as
they came to the outskirts of the village, volunteered to go and look
for shelter, if the two would wait for him at a stile that led across
fields to the old church.

The scene was rather like the setting of the last act in a melodrama of
a theater on the Surrey side of the Thames--the act in which the injured
heroine, with her child, sinks down fainting as the folk are going to
church in the old village on a June evening among the trees--leading up
to moonlight effects and reunion. There was no organ to play "off," but
the bells were an excellent substitute, and it was these that presently
melted the heart of Gertie.

When the Major had disappeared, limping, the two climbed over the stile
and sat down with their bundles under the hedge, but they presently
found that they had chosen something of a thoroughfare. Voices came
along presently, grew louder, and stopped as the speakers climbed the
stile. The first pair was of a boy and girl, who instantly clasped again
mutual waists, and went off up the path across the field to the
churchyard without noticing the two tramps; their heads were very near

Then other couples came along, old and young, and twice a trio--one, two
young men in black, who skirmished on either side of a very sedate girl
in white; one, two girls who shoved one another, and giggled, walking in
step three yards behind another young man with his hat on one side, who
gloried in being talked at and pretended to be rapt in abstraction. Then
some children came; then a family--papa walking severely apart in a silk
hat, and mamma, stout and scarlet-faced, in the midst of the throng.
Finally there came along a very old Darby and Joan, who with many
Yorkshire ejaculations helped one another over the stile, and moved on
with bent heads, scolding one another affectionately. It was as this
last couple reached the spot where the path ran into the corn that the
peal of four bells broke out, and Gertie broke down.

Frank had not been noticing her particularly. He was gloomy himself; the
novelty of the whole affair had gone; the Major was becoming
intolerable, and Frank's religion was beginning to ebb from his
emotions. Mass this morning had not been a success from an emotional
point of view; he had had an uncomfortable seat on a pitch-pine bench in
a tin church with an American organ; the very young priest had been
tiresome and antipathetic.... Frank had done his best, but he was tired
and bored; the little church had been very hot, and it was no longer any
fun to be stared at superciliously by a stout tradesman as he came out
into the hot sunshine afterwards.

Just now he had been watching the figures make their appearance from the
stile, re-form groups and dwindle slowly down to the corn, and their
heads and shoulders bob along above it--all with a kind of resentment.
These people had found their life; he was still looking for his. He was
watching, too, the strangely unreal appearance of the sunlit fields, the
long shadows, the golden smoky light, and the church tower, set among
cypresses half a mile away--yet without any conscious sentiment. He had
not said a word to Gertie, nor she to him, and he was totally taken by
surprise when, after the first soft crash of bells for evening service,
she had suddenly thrown herself round face forward among the grasses and
burst out sobbing.

"My dear girl!" said Frank, "whatever's the matter?" Then he stopped.

       *       *       *       *       *

Fortunately, the procession of worshipers had run dry, and the two were
quite alone. He sat upright, utterly ignorant of what to say. He thought
perhaps she was in pain ... should he run for the Major or a doctor?...
Then, as after a minute or two of violent sobbing she began a few
incoherent words, he understood.

"Oh! I'm a wicked girl ... a wicked girl ... it's all so beautiful ...
the church bells ... my mother!"

       *       *       *       *       *

He understood, then, what had precipitated this crisis and broken down
the girl's reserve. It was, in fact, exactly that same appeal which
holds a gallery breathless and tearful in the last act of a Surrey-side
melodrama--the combination of Sunday quiet, a sunset, church bells,
associations and human relationships; and Gertie's little suburban soul
responded to it as a bell to a bell-rope. It was this kind of thing that
stood to her for holiness and peace and purity, and it had gone clean
through her heart. And he understood, too, that it was his presence
that had allowed her to break down. The Major's atmosphere had held her
taut so far. Frank was conscious of a lump in his own throat as he
stared out, helpless, first at the peaceful Sunday fields and then down
at the shaking shoulders and the slender, ill-clad, writhed form of
Gertie.... He did not know what to do ... he hoped the Major would not
be back just yet. Then he understood he must say something.

"Don't cry," he said. "The Major--"

She sat up on the instant in sudden consternation, her pretty, weak,
sunburned face disfigured with tears, but braced for the moment by fear.

"No, no," said Frank; "he isn't coming yet; but--"

Then she was down again, moaning and talking. "Oh!... Oh!... I'm a
wicked girl.... My mother!... and I never thought I should come to

"Well, why don't you chuck it?" said Frank practically.

"I can't!... I can't! I ... I love him!"

That had not occurred to this young man as a conceivable possibility,
and he sat silenced. The church-bells pealed on; the sun sank a little
lower; Gertie sobbed more and more gently; and Frank's mind worked like
a mill, revolving developments. Finally, she grew quiet, lay still, and,
as the bells gave place to one of their number, sat up. She dabbed at
her eyes with a handful of wet grass, passed her sleeve across them once
or twice, and began to talk.

"I ... I'm very silly, Frankie," she said, "but I can't help it. I'm
better now. Don't tell George."

"Of course I shan't!" said Frank indignantly.

"You're a gentleman too," said Gertie. (Frank winced a little,
interiorly, at the "too.") "I can see that you're polite to a lady. And
I don't know however I came to tell you. But there it is, and no harm's

"Why don't you leave him?" said Frank courageously. A little wave of
feeling went over her face.

"He's a gentleman," she said.... "No, I can't leave him. But it does
come over you sometimes; doesn't it?" (Her face wavered again.) "It was
them bells, and the people and all."

"Where's your home?"

She jerked her head in a vague direction.

"Down Londonwards," she said. "But that's all done with. I've made my
bed, and--"

"Tell me plainly: does he bully you?"

"Not to say bully," she said. "He struck me once, but never again."

"Tell me if he does it again."

A small, sly, admirative look came into her eyes. "We'll see," she said.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank was conscious of a considerable sense of disappointment. The thing
had been almost touching just now, as the reserve first broke up, but it
was a very poor little soul, it seemed to him, that had at last made its
appearance. (He did not yet see that that made it all the more
touching.) He did not quite see what to do next. He was Christian enough
to resent the whole affair; but he was aristocratic enough in his
fastidiousness to think at this moment that perhaps it did not matter
much for people of this sort. Perhaps it was the highest ideal that
persons resembling the Major and Gertie could conceive. But her next
remark helped to break up his complacency.

"You're a Catholic," she said. "People say that you Catholics don't mind
this kind of thing--me and the Major, I mean."

There was a dreadful sort of sly suggestiveness about this remark that
stung him. He exploded: and his wounded pride gave him bitterness.

"My good girl," he said, "Catholics simply loathe it. And even,
personally, I think it's beastly."

"Well--I ..."

"I think it's beastly," said Frank didactically. "A good girl like you,
well-brought-up, good parents, nice home, religious--instead of which
"--he ended in a burst of ironical reminiscence--"you go traveling about
with a--" he checked himself--"a man who isn't your husband. Why don't
you marry him?"

"I can't!" wailed Gertie, suddenly stricken again with remorse; "his
wife's alive."

Frank jumped. Somehow that had never occurred to him. And yet how
amazingly characteristic of the Major!

"Well--leave him, then!"

"I can't!" cried poor Gertie. "I can't!... I can't!"



Frank awoke with a start and opened his eyes.

But it was still dark and he could see nothing. So he turned over on the
other side and tried to go to sleep.

The three of them had come to this little town last night after two or
three days' regular employment; they had sufficient money between them;
they had found a quite tolerable lodging; they had their programme, such
as it was, for the next day or so; and--by the standard to which he had
learned to adjust himself--there was no sort of palpable cause for the
horror that presently fell on him. I can only conjecture that the origin
lay within, not without, his personality.

The trouble began with the consciousness that on the one side he was
really tired, and on the other that he could not sleep and, to clinch
it, the knowledge that a twenty-mile walk lay before him. He began to
tell himself that sleep was merely a question of will--of will
deliberately relaxing attention. He rearranged his position a little;
shifted his feet, fitted himself a little more closely into the
outlines of the bed, thrust one hand under the pillow and bade himself
let go.

Then the procession of thoughts began as orderly as if by signal.

He found himself presently, after enumerating all the minor physical
points of discomfort--the soreness of his feet, the knobbiness of the
bed, the stuffiness of the room in which the three were sleeping, the
sound of the Major's slow snoring--beginning to consider the wisdom of
the whole affair. This was a point that he had not consciously yet
considered, from the day on which he had left Cambridge. The impetus of
his first impulse and the extreme strength of his purpose had, up to the
present--helped along by novelty--kept him going. Of course, the moment
had to come sooner or later; but it seems a little hard that he was
obliged to face it in that peculiarly dreary clarity of mind that falls
upon the sleepless an hour or two before the dawn.

For, as he looked at it all now, he saw it as an outsider would see it,
no longer from the point of view of his own personality. He perceived a
young man, of excellent abilities and prospects, sacrificing these
things for an idea that fell to pieces the instant it was touched. He
touched it now with a critical finger, and it did so fall to pieces;
there was, obviously, nothing in it at all. It was an impulse of silly
pride, of obstinacy, of the sort of romance that effects nothing. There
was Merefield waiting for him--for he knew perfectly well that terms
could be arranged; there was all that leisureliness and comfort and
distinction in which he had been brought up and which he knew well how
to use; there was Jenny; there was his dog, his horse ... there was, in
fact, everything for which Merefield stood. He saw it all now,
visualized and clear in the dark; and he had exchanged all
this--well--for this room, and the Major's company, and back-breaking
toil.... And for no reason.

So he regarded all this for a good long while; with his eyes closed,
with the darkness round him, with every detail visible and insistent,
seen as in the cold light of morning before colors reassert themselves
and reconcile all into a reasonable whole....

"... I must really go to sleep!" said Frank to himself, and screwed up
his eyes tight.

There came, of course, a reaction presently, and he turned to his
religion. He groped for his rosary under his pillow, placed before him
(according to the instructions given in the little books) the "Mystery
of the Annunciation to Mary," and began the "Our Father." ... Half-way
through it he began all over again to think about Cambridge, and
Merefield and Jack Kirkby, and the auction in his own rooms, and his
last dinner-party and the design on the menu-cards, and what a fool he
was; and when he became conscious of the rosary again he found that he
held in his fingers the last bead but three in the fifth decade. He had
repeated four and a half decades without even the faintest semblance of
attention. He finished them hopelessly, and then savagely thrust the
string of beads under his pillow again; turned over once more,
rearranged his feet, wished the Major would learn how to sleep like a
gentleman; and began to think about his religion in itself.

       *       *       *       *       *

After all, he began to say to himself, what proof was there--real
scientific proof--that the thing was true at all? Certainly there was a
great deal of it that was, very convincing--there was the curious ring
of assertion and confidence in it, there was its whole character,
composed (like personality) of countless touches too small to be
definable; there was the definite evidence adduced from history and
philosophy and all the rest. But underneath all that--was there, after
all, any human evidence in the world sufficient to establish the
astounding dogmas that lay at the root? Was it conceivable that any such
evidence could be forthcoming?

He proceeded to consider the series of ancient dilemmas which, I
suppose, have presented themselves at some time or another to every
reasonable being--Free-will and Predestination; Love and Pain;
Foreknowledge and Sin; and their companions. And it appeared to him, in
this cold, emotionless mood, when the personality shivers, naked, in the
presence of monstrous and unsympathetic forces, that his own religion,
as much as every other, was entirely powerless before them.

He advanced yet further: he began to reflect upon the innumerable little
concrete devotions that he had recently learned--the repetition of
certain words, the performance of certain actions--the rosary for
instance; and he began to ask himself how it was credible that they
could possibly make any difference to eternal issues.

These things had not yet surrounded themselves with the atmosphere of
experience and association, and they had lost the romance of novelty;
they lay before him detached, so to say, and unconvincing.

I do not mean to say that during this hour he consciously disbelieved;
he honestly attempted to answer these questions; he threw himself back
upon authority and attempted to reassure himself by reflecting that
human brains a great deal more acute than his own found in the dilemmas
no final obstacles to faith; he placed himself under the shelter of the
Church and tried to say blindly that he believed what she believed. But,
in a sense, he was powerless: the blade of his adversary was quicker
than his own; his will was very nearly dormant; his heart was entirely
lethargic, and his intellect was clear up to a certain point and
extraordinarily swift....

Half an hour later he was in a pitiable state; and had begun even to
question Jenny's loyalty. He had turned to the thought of her as a last
resort for soothing and reassurance, and now, in the chilly dawn, even
she seemed unsubstantial.

He began by remembering that Jenny would not live for ever; in fact, she
might die at any moment; or he might; and he ended by wondering,
firstly, whether human love was worth anything at all, and, secondly,
whether he possessed Jenny's. He understood now, with absolute
certitude, that there was nothing in him whatever which could possibly
be loved by anyone; the whole thing had been a mistake, not so much on
his part as on Jenny's. She had thought him to be something he was not.
She was probably regretting already the engagement; she would certainly
not fulfill it. And could she possibly care for anyone who had been such
an indescribable fool as to give up Merefield, and his prospects and his
past and his abilities, and set out on this absurd and childish
adventure? So once more he came round in a circle and his misery was

       *       *       *       *       *

He sat up in bed with a sudden movement as the train of thought clicked
back into its own beginning, clasped his hands round his knees and
stared round the room.

The window showed a faint oblong of gray now, beyond where the Major
breathed, and certain objects were dingily and coldly visible. He
perceived the broken-backed chair on which his clothes were heaped--with
the exception of his flannel shirt, which he still wore; he caught a
glimmer of white where Gertie's blouse hung up for an airing.

He half expected that things would appear more hopeful if he sat up in
bed. Yet they did not. The sight of the room, such as it was, brought
the concrete and material even more forcibly upon him--the gross things
that are called Facts. And it seemed to him that there were no facts
beyond them. These were the bones of the Universe--a stuffy bedroom, a
rasping flannel suit, a cold dawn, a snoring in the gloom, and three
bodies, heavy with weariness.... There once had been other facts:
Merefield and Cambridge and Eton had once existed; Jenny had once been a
living person who loved him; once there had been a thing called
Religion. But they existed no longer. He had touched reality at last.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank drew a long, dismal sigh; he lay down; he knew the worst now; and
in five minutes he was asleep.


Of course, the thing wore away by midday, and matters had readjusted
themselves. But the effect remained as a kind of bruise below the
surface. He was conscious that it had once been possible for him to
doubt the value of everything; he was aware that there was a certain
mood in which nothing seemed worth while.

It was practically his first experience of the kind, and he did not
understand it. But it did its work; and I date from that day a certain
increased sort of obstinacy that showed itself even more plainly in his
character. One thing or the other must be the effect of such a mood in
which--even though only for an hour or two--all things other than
physical take on themselves an appearance of illusiveness: either the
standard is lowered and these things are treated as slightly doubtful;
or the will sets its teeth and determines to live by them, whether they
are doubtful or not. And the latter I take to be the most utter form of

       *       *       *       *       *

About midday the twine round Frank's bundle broke abruptly, and every
several article fell on to the road. He repressed a violent feeling of
irritation, and turned round to pick them up. The Major and Gertie
instinctively made for a gate in the hedge, rested down their bundles
and leaned against it.

Frank gathered the articles--a shirt, a pair of softer shoes, a razor
and brush, a tin of potted meat, a rosary, a small round cracked
looking-glass and a piece of lead piping--and packed them once more
carefully together on the bank. He tested his string, knotted it, drew
it tight, and it broke again. The tin of potted meat--like some small
intelligent animal--ran hastily off the path and dived into a small

A short cry of mirth broke from the Major, and Gertie smiled.

Frank said nothing at all. He lay down on the road, plunged his arm into
the drain and drew up the potted meat; it had some disagreeable-looking
moist substance adhering to it, which he wiped off on to his sleeve, and
then regretted having done so. Again he packed his things; again he drew
the string tight, and again it snapped.

"Lord! man, don't be so hard on it."

Frank looked up with a kind of patient fury. His instinct was to kick
every single object that lay before him on the path as hard as possible
in every direction.

"Have you any more string?" he said.

"No. Stick the things in your pocket and come on."

Frank made no answer. He went to the hedge and drew out a long supple
twig of hazel, stripped it of its leaves, and once more tried, with it,
to tie up his parcel. But the angle was too acute, and just as the twig
tightened satisfactorily it snapped, and this time the razor slid out
sideways into a single minute puddle that lay on the path.

The Major snorted in mirthful impatience.


"Kindly let me alone," said Frank icily. "The thing's got to go like
this, or not at all."

He drew out the razor from the puddle, opened it and dried the blade on
his sleeve. During the process Gertie moved suddenly, and he looked up.
When he looked down again be perceived that he had slit a neat slice
into the cloth of his jacket.

He remained quite still for one moment. Then he sat down on the bank,
and examined the twine once more.

The Major began to make slightly offensive comments. Then Frank looked

"You can go to hell!" he said quite softly, "or anywhere else you like.
But I'm going to do up the bundle in my way and not yours."

       *       *       *       *       *

Now that is a sort of parable. It really happened, for it was reported
to a witness by Frank himself exactly as I have told it, and it seems to
me a very good little symbol of his state of mind. It is quite
indefensible, of course--and especially his regrettable language that
closed the interview; but it gives a pleasant little glimpse, I think,
of Frank's character just now, in section. The things had to go in a
certain way: he saw no adequate reason to change that way, and
ultimately, of course, the twine held. It must have been a great
satisfaction to him.


It seems that Frank must have been allowed just now to sample several
different kinds of moods, for he had a very different kind of awakening
a day or two later.

They had come to some piece of open country that I am unable to
identify, and for some reason or other determined to spend the night out
of doors. There was a copse a hundred yards away from the road, and in
the copse a couple of small shelters built, probably, for wood-pigeon
shooting. The Major and Gertie took possession of one, and Frank of the
other, after they had supped in the dark under the beeches.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank slept deeply and well, half waking once, however, at that strange
moment of the night when the earth turns and sighs in her sleep, when
every cow gets up and lies down again. He was conscious of a shrill
crowing, thin as a bugle, from some farm-yard out of sight; then he
turned over and slept again.

When he awoke it was daylight. He lay on his back looking at the network
of twigs overhead, the beech leaves beyond, and the sky visible only in
glimpses--feeling extremely awake and extremely content. Certainly he
was a little stiff when he moved, but there was a kind of interior
contentment that caused that not to matter.

After a minute or two he sat up, felt about for his shoes and slipped
them on. Then he unwound the wrapping about his neck, and crept out of
the shelter.

It was that strange pause before the dawn when the light has broadened
so far as to extinguish the stars, and to bring out all the colors of
earth into a cold deliberate kind of tint. Everything was absolutely
motionless about him as he went under the trees and came out above the
wide park-land of which the copse was a sort of barrier. The dew lay
soaking and thick on the grass slopes, but there was not yet such light
as to bring out its sparkle; and everywhere, dotted on the green before
him, sat hundreds of rabbits, the nearest not twenty yards away.

The silence and the solemnity of the whole seemed to him extraordinary.
There was not a leaf that stirred--each hung as if cut of steel; there
was not a bird which chirped nor a distant cock that crew; the rabbits
eyed him unafraid in this hour of truce.

It seemed to him like some vast stage on to which he had wandered
unexpectedly. The performance of the day before had been played to an
end, the night scene-shifting was finished, and the players of the new
eternal drama were not yet come. An hour hence they would be all about:
the sounds would begin again; men would cross the field-paths, birds
would be busy; the wind would awake and the ceaseless whisper of leaves
answer its talking. But at present the stage was clear-swept, washed,
clean and silent.

It was the solemnity then that impressed him most--solemnity and an air
of expectation. Yet it was not mere expectation. There was a suggestion
of the fundamental and the normal, as if perhaps movement and sound
were, after all, no better than interruptions; as if this fixed poise of
nature were something complete in itself; as if these trees hung out
their leaves to listen to something that they could actually hear, as if
these motionless creatures of the woodland were looking upon something
that they could actually see; as if there were some great secret
actually present and displayed in dead silence and invisibility before
those only who possessed the senses necessary to perceive it.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was odd to regard life from this standpoint--to look back upon the
days and their incidents that were past, forward upon the days and
incidents to come. Again it was possible for Frank to look upon these
things as an outsider and a deliberate critic--as he had done in the
stuffy room of the lodging-house in the town. Yet now, though he was
again an outsider, though he was again out of the whirl of actual
living, he seemed to be looking at things--staring out, as he was,
almost unseeingly at the grass slopes before him--from exactly the
opposite side. Then, they had seemed to him the only realities, these
tangible physical things, and all else illusion: now it was the physical
things that were illusive, and something else that was real. Once again
the two elements of life lay detached--matter and spirit; but it was as
obviously now spirit that was the reality as it had been matter a day or
two before. It was obviously absurd to regard these outward things on
which he looked as anything but a frame of something completely
different. They were too silent, too still, too little self-sufficient
to be complete in themselves. Something solid lay embraced within

So, then, he stared and ruminated, scarcely perceiving that he thought,
so intensely conscious was he of that of which he thought. It was not
that he understood anything of that on which he looked; he was but aware
that there was something to be understood. And the trees hung rigid
above him, and the clear blue sky still a hard stone beyond them, not
yet flushed with dawn; and the grass lay before him, contracted, it
seemed, with cold, and every blade soaked in wet; and the silence was

Then a cock crew, a mile away, a thin, brazen cry; a rabbit sat up, then
crouched and bolted, and the spell faded like a mist.

Frank turned and walked back under the trees, to see if the Major was



We are arrived now at one of those few deplorable incidents in Frank's
career, against which there is no defense. And the painful thing about
it is that Frank never seemed to think that it required any defense. He
shows no penitence for it in his diary: and yet moralists are united in
telling us that we must never do evil that good may come. It is only,
paralleled by his rash action in leaving Cambridge in defiance of all
advice and good sense; so far, that is to say, as a legally permissible
act, however foolish, can be paralleled by one of actual crime.
Moralists, probably, would tell us, in fact, that the first led
inevitably to the second.

It fell out in this way.

Once or twice in his travels with the Major he had been haunted by an
uncomfortable suspicion that this or that contribution that the warrior
made to their common table had not been come by honestly. When a
gentleman, known to possess no more than tenpence, and with a
predilection to drink, leaves the shelter of a small copse; let us say,
at seven o'clock, and reappears, rather breathless, forty minutes later
with a newly-plucked fowl--or even with a fowl not plucked at all, and
still warm, or with half a dozen eggs; and, in addition, issues out
again later in the evening and returns with a strong smell of spirits
and a watery eye--it seems a little doubtful as to whether he has been
scrupulously honest. In cases of this kind Frank persevered in making
some excuse for not joining in the festivity: he put it to himself as
being a matter of pride; but it is hard to understand that it was simply
that in a young man who made no scruple of begging in cases of
necessity. However, there it was, and even the Major, who began by
protesting, ended by acquiescing.

       *       *       *       *       *

They were somewhere in the neighborhood of Market Weighton when the
thing happened--I cannot identify the exact spot. The situation was as

They had secured an excellent barn for their night's lodging--facing on
the road on the outskirts of a village. Behind them were, the farm
buildings, and the farmer's household gone to bed. The sun had set and
it was dark. They had supped sparingly, of necessity, and had finished
every morsel of food. (Frank had even found himself mechanically
gathering up crumbs on a wet finger.) They had had a bad week of it;
the corn was not yet ready for cutting, and there seemed no work
anywhere for honest men. The Major's gloom had become terrible; he had
even made remarks upon a choice between a workhouse and a razor. He had
got up after supper and turned his waistcoat pockets inside out to
secure the last possible grains of tobacco, and had smoked about a
quarter of a pipeful gathered in this way without uttering one word. He
had then uttered a short string of them, had seized his cap and

Frank, too, was even more heavy and depressed than usual. The last
shreds of romance were gone from his adventure long ago, and yet his
obstinacy held firm. But he found he could not talk much. He watched
Gertie listlessly as she, listless too, began to spread out nondescript
garments to make a bed in the corner. He hardly spoke to her, nor she to

He was beginning to feel sleepy, when he heard rather hurried steps, as
of one trying to run on tiptoe, coming up the lane, and an instant later
in popped the Major.

"Put out that damned light!" he whispered sharply.

The candle end went out with the swiftness of thought.

"What's up?" Frank roused himself to ask. There had been a strenuous
look about the face seen an instant before that interested him.

There was dead silence. Gertie seemed frozen into motionlessness in her
corner, almost as if she had had experience of this kind of thing
before. Frank listened with all his ears; it was useless to stare into
the dark: here in this barn the blackness was complete.

At first there was no sound at all, except a very soft occasional scrape
of a boot-nail that betokened that the Major was seeking cover
somewhere. Then, so suddenly that he started all over, Frank felt a hand
on his arm and smelt a tobacco-laden breath. (Alas! there had been no
drink to-night.)

"See here, Frankie, my boy.... I ... I've got the thing on me.... What
shall I do with it?... It's no good chucking it away: they'd find it."

"Got what?" whispered Frank.

"There was a kid coming along ... she had a tin of something ... I don't
even know what it is.... And ... and she screamed out and someone ran
out. But they couldn't spot me; it was too dark."

"Hush!" whispered Frank sharply, and the hand tightened on his arm. But
it was only a rat somewhere in the roof.

"Well?" he said.

"Frankie ... I suppose you wouldn't take it from me ... and ... and be
off somewhere. We could meet again later.... I ... I'm afraid someone
may have spotted us coming through the village earlier. They'll ...
they'll search, I expect."

"You can do your own dirty work," whispered Frank earnestly through the

"Frankie, my boy ... don't be hard on a poor devil.... I ... I can't
leave Gertie."

"Well, hide it somewhere."

"No good--they'd ... Good God--!"

The voice was stricken into silence once more, as a light, hardly seen
before it was gone again, shone through a crack in the side of the barn.
Then there was unmistakable low talking somewhere.

Frank felt the man, crouched at his side, suddenly stand up noiselessly,
and in that instant his own mind was made up.

"Give it here, you fool," he said. "Here!"

He felt a smooth flat and circular thing thrust suddenly into his hands
with a whisper that he could not catch, and simultaneously he heard a
rush of footsteps outside. He had just time to stuff the thing inside
his coat and roll over as if asleep when the door flew open, and three
or four men, with a policeman at their head, burst into the barn.


It would be charitable, I think, to suppress the name of the small
market-town where the trial was held. The excellent magistrates who
conducted it certainly did their best under very difficult
circumstances; for what are you to do if a man accused of theft
cordially pleads guilty? and yet, certainly it would distress them to
hear of a very obvious miscarriage of justice executed at their hands.

On Friday morning at ten o'clock the vehicles began to arrive--the motor
of the country gentleman, the dog-cart of the neighboring rector, and
the brougham of the retired general. It was the General who presided.

The court-room was not more dismal than court-rooms usually are. When I
visited it on my little pilgrimage, undertaken a few months ago, it had
been repainted and the woodwork grained to represent oak. Even so, it
was not cheering.

At the upper end, under one of the windows, were ranged five seats on a
daïs, with a long baize-covered table before them. Then, on a lower
level, stood the clerk's and solicitors' table, fenced by a rail from
the vulgar crowd who pressed in, hot and excited, to see the criminals
and hear justice done. There was a case arising from an ancient family
feud, exploded at last into crime; one lady had thrown a clog at another
as the last repartee in a little dialogue held at street doors; the clog
had been well aimed, and the victim appeared now with a very large white
bandage under her bonnet, to give her testimony. This swelled the crowd
beyond its usual proportions, as both ladies were well known in society.

The General was a kindly-looking old man (Frank recognized his name as
soon as he heard it that morning, though he had never met him before)
and conversed cheerily with his brother magistrates as they took their
seats. The Rector was--well, like other rectors, and the Squire like
other squires.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was a quarter to twelve before the ladies' claims were adjusted. They
were both admonished in a paternal kind of way, and sent about their
business, since there was disputed evidence as to whether or not the
lady with the bandage had provoked the attack, not only by her language,
but by throwing a banana-skin at the lady without the bandage. They were
well talked to, their husbands were bidden to keep them in order, and
they departed, both a little crestfallen, to discuss the whole matter
over a pint of beer.

There was a little shifting about in court; a policeman, looking
curiously human without his helmet, pushed forward from the door and
took his place by the little barrier. The magistrates and the clerk and
the inspector all conferred a little together, and after an order or
two, the door near the back of the court leading from the police-cells
opened, and Frank stepped forward into the dock, followed by another
policeman who clicked the barrier behind the prisoner and stood,
waiting, like Rhadamanthus. Through the hedge of the front row of the
crowd peered the faces of Gertie and the Major.

We need not bother with the preliminaries--in fact, I forget how they
ran--Frank gave his name of Frank Gregory, his age as twenty-two years,
his occupation as casual laborer, and his domicile as no fixed abode.

The charge was read to him. It was to the effect that he, on the night
of Tuesday, the twenty-third instant, had in the village (whose name I
choose to forget, if I ever knew it), seized from Maggie Cooper, aged
nine years, a tin of preserved salmon, with intent to steal. The
question put to the prisoner was: Did he or did he not plead guilty?

"I plead guilty, sir," said Frank, without a tremor.

He had been two full days in the cells by now, and it had not improved
his appearance. He was still deeply sunburned, but he was a little pale
under the eyes, and he was unshaven. He had also deliberately rumpled
his hair and pulled his clothes to make them look as untidy as possible.
He answered in a low voice, so as to attract as little attention as
possible. He had given one quick look at the magistrates as he came in,
to make sure he had never met them out shooting or at dinner-parties,
and he had been deeply relieved to find them total strangers.

"You plead guilty, eh?" said the General.

Frank nodded.

"Well, well! let's hear the whole story. Where is the complainant?"

A rather pale and awe-stricken child appeared somewhere in a little box
opposite Frank, with a virtuous mother in black silk behind her. It
appeared that this child was on her way to her aunt--her father was a
grocer--with a tin of salmon that had been promised and forgotten (that
was how she came to be out so late). As she reached the corner by
Barker's Lane a man had jumped at her and seized the tin. (No; he had
not used any other violence.) She had screamed at the top of her voice,
and Mrs. Jennings' door had opened. Then the man had run away.

"Had she seen the man clearly?" No, she hadn't seen him at all; she had
just seen that he was a man. ("Called himself one," put in a voice.) The
witness here cast an indignant--almost vindictive--look at Frank.

Then a few corroborations were issued. Mrs. Jennings, a widow lady,
keeping house for her brother who was a foreman in Marks' yard, ratified
the statement about the door being opened. She was going to shut up for
the night when she heard the child scream. Her brother, a severe-looking
man, with a black beard, finished her story. He had heard his sister
call out, as he was taking off his boots at the foot of the stairs; he
had run out with his laces dangling, in time to see the man run past the
public-house fifty yards up the street. No ... he, too, had not seen the
man clearly, but he had seen him before, in company with another; the
two had come to his yard that afternoon to ask for work and been
refused, as they wanted no more hands.

"Well, what had happened then?"

He had hammered at two or three doors as he ran past, among them that of
the police-constable, and himself had run on, in time to hear the
prisoner's footsteps run up the lane leading to the barn. He had stopped
then as he was out of breath, and as he thought they would have the man
now, since there was no exit from the lane except through Mr. Patten's
farm-yard, and if he'd gone that way they'd have heard the dogs.

Finally the police-constable corroborated the entire story, and added
that he, in company with the foreman and two other men, had "proceeded"
to the barn immediately, and there had found the prisoner, who was
pretending to be asleep, with the tin of salmon (produced and laid on
the table) hidden inside his jacket. He had then taken him into custody.

"Was there any one else in the barn?"

Yes--two persons, who gave the names of George and Gertie Trustcott.
These were prepared to give evidence as to the prisoner's identity, and
as to his leaving and returning to the barn on the evening in question,
if the magistrate wished.... Yes; they were present in court.

       *       *       *       *       *

The General began to turn a little testy as the constable finished. He
seemed a magistrate who liked to be paternal, and he appeared to grow
impatient under the extraordinarily correct language of the policeman.

He turned to Frank--seeming to forget all about the two witnesses not
yet called--and spoke rather sharply:

"You don't deny all that? You plead guilty, eh?"

"Yes, sir," said Frank, gazing at the very pink salmon emblazoned on
the tin.

"Why did you do it?"

"I was hungry, sir."

"Hungry, eh? An able-bodied lad like you? Can't you work, then?"

"When I can get it, sir," said Frank

"Eh?... eh? Well, that's true enough. You couldn't get it that day,
anyhow. Mr. What's-his-name's told us that."

"Yes, sir."

Then the Rector leaned forward swiftly--to Frank's horror.

"You speak like an educated man."

"Do I, sir? I'm very pleased to hear it."

There was a faint snigger in court.

"Where were you educated?" persisted the Rector.

"Am I bound to incriminate myself, sir?"

"Incriminate?" said the General suddenly interested. "Eh? you mean,
after a good education. I see. No, of course you're not, my lad."

"Thank you, sir."

"And you plead guilty? And you'd like the case dealt with now?"

"If you please, sir."

The clerk rose swiftly in his place and began to whisper to the
magistrates behind his hand. Frank understood perfectly what was
happening; he understood that it was doubtful whether or no his case
could be dealt with in this court. He exploded within himself a violent
adjuration to the Supreme Authorities, and the next instant the General
sat back.

"Nonsense! nonsense! It isn't highway robbery at all within the meaning
of the term. We'll deal with it now--eh, gentlemen?"

There was a little more whispering, and finally the General settled
himself and took up a quill pen.

"Well, we'll deal with it now, my lad, as you wish. I'm sorry to see a
fellow like you in this position--particularly if you've had a good
education, as you seem to have had. Cowardly thing, you know, to attack
a child like that, isn't it? even if you were hungry. You ought to be
more hardy than that, you know--a great fellow like you--than to mind a
bit of hunger. Boys like you ought to enlist; that'd make a man of you
in no time. But no.... I know you; you won't.... You'd sooner loaf about
and pick up what you can--sooner than serve His Majesty. Well, well,
there's no compulsion--not yet; but you should think over it. Come and
see me, if you like, when you've done your time, and we'll see what can
be done. That'd be better than loafing about and picking up tins of
salmon, eh?"

"Well, I've no more to say. But you just think over it. And we'll give
you fourteen days."

       *       *       *       *       *

Then as Frank went out he saw the three magistrates lean back in


I find it very hard to explain, even to myself, the extraordinary
depression that fell upon Frank during his fourteen days. He could
hardly bear even to speak of it afterwards, and I find in his diary no
more than a line or two, and those as bald as possible. Apparently it
was no kind of satisfaction to him to know that the whole thing was
entirely his own doing, or that it was the thought of Gertie that had
made him, in the first instance, take the tin from the Major. Yet it was
not that there was any sense of guilt, or even of mistake. One would
have thought that from everybody's point of view, and particularly
Gertie's, it would be an excellent thing for the Major to go to prison
for a bit. It would certainly do him no harm, and it would be a real
opportunity to separate the girl from his company. As for any wrong in
his pleading guilty, he defended it (I must say, with some adroitness)
by saying that it was universally acknowledged that the plea of "Not
Guilty" is merely formal, and in no way commits one to its intrinsic
truth (and he is right there, at least according to Moral Theology as
well as common sense) and, therefore, that the alternative plea is also
merely formal.

And yet he was depressed by his fourteen days to the verge of

There are several contributory causes that may be alleged.

First, there is the extreme ignominy of all the circumstances, beginning
with the paternal scolding in court, in the presence of grocers and
persons who threw clogs, continuing with the dreary journey by rail, in
handcuffs, and the little crowds that gathered to laugh or stare, and
culminating with the details of the prison life. It is not pleasant for
a cleanly man to be suspected of dirt, to be bathed and examined all
over by a man suffering himself apparently from some species of eczema;
it is not pleasant to be ordered about peremptorily by uniformed men,
who, three months before, would have touched their hats to you, and to
have to do things instantly and promptly for the single reason that one
is told to do them.

Secondly, there was the abrupt change of life--of diet, air and

Thirdly, there was the consideration, the more terrible because the more
completely unverifiable, as to what difference all this would make, not
only to the regard of his friends for him, but to his own regard for
himself. Innocence of a fault does not entirely do away with the
distress and stigma of its punishment. He imagined himself telling
Jenny; he tried to see her laughing, and somehow he could not. It was
wholly uncharacteristic of all that he knew of her, and yet somehow,
night after night, as the hours dragged by, he seemed to see her looking
at him a little contemptuously.

"At any rate," he almost heard her say, "if you didn't do it, you made a
friend of a man who did. And you were in prison."

Oh! there are countless excellent explanations of his really terrible
depression; and yet somehow it does not seem to me at all in line with
what I know of Frank, to think that they explain it in the least. I
prefer to believe, with a certain priest who will appear by and by, that
the thing was just one stage of a process that had to be accomplished,
and that if it had not come about in this way, it must have come about
in another. As for his religion, all emotional grasp of that fled, it
seemed finally, at the touch of real ignominy. He retained the
intellectual reasons for which he had become a Catholic, but the thing
seemed as apart from him as his knowledge of law--such as it
was--acquired at Cambridge, or his proficiency in lawn-tennis. Certainly
it was no kind of consolation to him to reflect on the sufferings of
Christian martyrs!

It was a Friday evening when he came out and went quickly round the
corner of the jail, in order to get away from any possibility of being
identified with it.

He had had a short interview with the Governor--a very conscientious and
religious man, who made a point of delivering what he called "a few
earnest words" to every prisoner before his release. But, naturally
enough, they were extraordinarily off the point. It was not helpful to
Frank to have it urged upon him to set about an honest livelihood--it
was what he had tried to do every day since June--and not to go about
robbing innocent children of things like tins of salmon--it was the very
last thing he had ever dreamed of doing.

       *       *       *       *       *

He had also had more than one interview with the chaplain of the
Established Church, in consequence of his resolute refusal to
acknowledge any religious body at all (he had determined to scotch this
possible clue to his identification); and those interviews had not been
more helpful than any other. It is not of much use to be entreated to
turn over a new leaf when you see no kind of reason for doing so; and
little books left tactfully in your cell, directed to the same point,
are equally useless. Frank read them drearily through. He did not
actually kick them from side to side of his cell when he had finished;
that would have been offensive to the excellent intentions of the
reverend gentleman....

Altogether I do not quite like to picture Frank as he was when he came
out of jail, and hurried away. It is such a very startling contrast with
the gayety with which he had begun his pilgrimage.

       *       *       *       *       *

He had had plenty of time to think over his plans during the last
fortnight, and he went, first, straight to the post-office. The Governor
had given him half-a-crown to start life with, and he proposed to
squander fourpence of it at once in two stamps, two sheets of paper and
two envelopes.

His first letter was to be to Jack; the second to Major Trustcott, who
had thoughtfully given him the address where he might be found about
that date.

But there were to be one or two additional difficulties first.

He arrived at the post-office, went up the steps and through the swing
doors. The place had been newly decorated, with a mahogany counter and
light brass lattice rails, behind which two young ladies of an
inexpressibly aristocratic demeanor and appearance were engaged in
conversation: their names, as he learned from a few sentences he
listened to before daring to interrupt so high a colloquy, were Miss
Mills and Miss Jamieson.

After a decent and respectful pause Frank ventured on his request.

"Two stamps, two sheets of paper and two envelopes, please ... miss."
(He did manage that!)

Miss Mills continued her conversation:

"So I said to her that that would never do, that Harold would be sure to
get hold of it, and that then--"

Frank shuffled his feet a little. Miss Mills cast him a high glance.

"--There'd be trouble, I said, Miss Jamieson."

"You did quite right, dear."

"Two stamps, two sheets of paper and two envelopes, please, miss." He
clicked four pence together on the counter. Miss Mills rose slowly from
her place, went a yard or two, and took down a large book. Frank watched
her gratefully. Then she took a pen and began to make entries in it.

"Two stamps, two sheets of paper and two envelopes, please."

Frank's voice shook a little with anger. He had not learned his lesson

Miss Mills finished her entry; looked at Frank with extreme disdain,
and finally drew out a sheet of stamps.

"Pennies?" she inquired sharply.


Two penny stamps were pushed across and two pennies taken up.

"And now two sheets of paper and two envelopes, please, miss," went on
Frank, encouraged. He thought himself foolish to be angry. Miss Jamieson
uttered a short laugh and glanced at Miss Mills. Miss Mills pursed her
lips together and took up her pen once more.

"Will you be good enough to give me what I ask for, at once, please?"

The whole of Frank blazed in this small sentence: but Miss Mills was
equal to it.

"You ought to know better," she said, "than to come asking for such
things here! Taking up a lot of time like that."

"You don't keep them?"

Miss Mills uttered a small sound. Miss Jamieson tittered.

"Shops are the proper places for writing-paper. This is a post-office."

Words cannot picture the superb high breeding shown in this utterance.
Frank should have understood that he had been guilty of gross
impertinence in asking such things of Miss Mills; it was treating her
almost as a shop-girl. But he was extremely angry by now.

"Then why couldn't you have the civility to tell me so at once?"

Miss Jamieson laid aside a little sewing she was engaged on.

"Look here, young man, you don't come bullying and threatening here.
I'll have to call the policeman if you do.... I was at the railway
station last Friday week, you know."

Frank stood still for one furious instant. Then his heart sank and he
went out without a word.

       *       *       *       *       *

The letters got written at last, late that evening, in the back room of
a small lodging-house where he had secured a bed. I have the one he
wrote to Jack before me as I write, and I copy it as it stands. It was
without address or date.

     "DEAR JACK,

     "I want you to do, something for me. I want you to go to
     Merefield and see, first, Jenny, and then my father; and tell
     them quite plainly and simply that I've been in prison for a
     fortnight. I want Jenny to know first, so that she can think of
     what to say to my father. The thing I was sent to prison for
     was that I pleaded guilty to stealing a tin of salmon from a
     child called Mary Cooper. You can see the account of the case
     in the County Gazette for last Saturday week, the
     twenty-seventh. The thing I really did was to take the tin from
     somebody else I was traveling with. He asked me to.

     "Next, I want you to send on any letters that may have come for
     me to the address I enclose on a separate piece of paper.
     Please destroy the address at once; but you can show this
     letter to Jenny and give her my love. You are not to come and
     see me. If you don't, I'll come and see you soon.

     "Things are pretty bad just now, but I'm going to go through
     with it.



     "P.S.--By the way, please address me as Mr. F. Gregory when you

       *       *       *       *       *

He was perfectly obstinate, you understand, still.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank's troubles as regards prison were by no means exhausted by his
distressing conversation with the young ladies in the post office, and
the next one fell on him as he was leaving the little town early on the
Saturday morning.

He had just turned out of the main street and was going up a quiet side
lane that looked as if it would lead to the York Road, when he noticed
a disagreeable little scene proceeding up a narrow _cul-de-sac_ across
whose mouth he was passing.

A tall, loose-limbed young man, in his working-clothes, obviously
slightly excited with drink, had hold of a miserable old man by the
scruff of the neck with one hand, and was cuffing him with the other.

Now I do not wish to represent Frank as a sort of knight-errant, but the
fact is that if anyone with respectable and humane ideas goes on the
tramp (I have this from the mouth of experienced persons) he has to make
up his mind fairly soon either to be a redresser of wrongs or to be
conveniently short-sighted. Frank was not yet sufficiently experienced
to have learned the wisdom of the second alternative.

He went straight up the _cul-de-sac_ and without any words at all hit
the young man as hard as possible under the ear nearest to him.

There seems to have been a moment of amazed silence; the young man
dropped the old one, who fled out into the lane, and struck back at
Frank, who parried. Simultaneously a woman screamed somewhere; and faces
began to appear at windows and doors.

It is curious how the customs of the Middle Ages, as well as some of
their oaths, seem to have descended to the ranks of the British
working-man. In the old days--as also in prize-fights to-day--it was
quite usual to assail your adversary with insults as well as with blows.
This was done now. The young man, with a torrent of imprecations,
demanded who Frank thought he was, asked where he was coming to,
required of society in general an explanation of a stranger's
interfering between a son and a qualified father. There was a murmur of
applause and dissent, and Frank answered, with a few harmless expletives
such as he had now learned to employ as a sort of verbal disguise, that
he did not care how many sons or fathers were in question, that he did
not propose to see a certain kind of bully abuse an old man, and that he
would be happy to take the old man's place....

Then the battle was set.

Frank had learned to box in a certain small saloon in Market Street,
Cambridge, and knew perfectly well how to take care of himself. He
received about half the force of one extremely hard blow just on his
left cheek-bone before he got warmed to his work; but after that he did
the giving and the loose-limbed young man the receiving, Frank was even
scientific; he boxed in the American manner, crouching, with both arms
half extended (and this seems to have entirely bewildered his adversary)
and he made no effort to reach the face. He just thumped away steadily
below the spot where the ribs part, and where--a doctor informs me--a
nerve-center, known as the _solar plexus_, is situated. He revolved,
too, with considerable agility, round his opponent, and gradually drew
the battle nearer and nearer to the side lane outside. He knew enough of
slum-chivalry by now to be aware that if a sympathizer, or sycophant, of
the young man happened to be present, he himself would quite possibly
(if the friend happened to possess sufficient courage) suddenly collapse
from a disabling blow on the back of the neck. Also, he was not sure
whether there was any wife in the question; and in this case it would be
a poker, or a broken bottle, held dagger-wise, that he would have to
meet. And he wished therefore to have more room round him than the
_cul-de-sac_ afforded.

But there was no need for precaution.

The young man had begun to look rather sickly under the eyes and to
hiccup three or four times in distressed manner; when suddenly the
clamor round the fight ceased. Frank was aware of a shrill old voice
calling out something behind him; and the next instant, simultaneously
with the dropping of his adversary's hands, he himself was seized from
behind by the arms, and, writhing, discerned is blue sleeve and a gloved
hand holding him.

"Now, what's all this?" said a voice in his ear.

There was a chorus of explanation, declaring that "'Alb" had been set
upon without provocation. There was a particularly voluble woman with
red arms and an exceedingly persuasive manner, who advanced from a
doorway and described the incident from her own point of view. She had
been hanging out the children's things, she began, and so forth; and
Frank was declared the aggressor and "'Alb" the innocent victim.

Then the chorus broke out again, and "'Alb," after another fit of
hiccupping, corroborated the witnesses in a broken and pathetically
indignant voice.

Frank tore himself from one embracing arm and faced round, still held by
the other.

"All right; I shan't run away.... Look here; that's a black lie. He was
hitting that old man. Where is he? Come on, uncle, and tell us all about

The old man advanced, his toothless face contorted with inexplicable
emotion, and corroborated the red-armed woman, and the chorus generally,
with astonishing volubility and emphasis.

"You old fool!" said Frank curtly. "What are you afraid of? Let's have
the truth, now. Wasn't he hitting you?"

"He, he, he!" giggled the old man, torn by the desire of
self-preservation on one side and, let us hope, by a wish for justice on
the other. "He warn't hittin' of me. He's my son, he is.... 'Alb is....
We were just having--"

"There! get out of this," said the policeman, releasing Frank with a
shove. "We don't want your sort here. Coming and making trouble.... Yes;
my lad. You needn't look at me like that. I know you."

"Who the deuce are you talking to?" snapped Frank.

"I know who I'm talking to, well enough," pronounced the policeman
judicially. "F. Gregory, ain't it? Now you be off out of this, or you'll
be in trouble again."

There was something vaguely kindly about the man's manner, and Frank
understood that he knew very tolerably where the truth lay, but wished
to prevent further disturbance. He gulped down his fury. It was no good
saying anything; but the dense of the injustice of the universe was very
bitter. He turned away--

A murmur of indignation broke out from the crowd, bidding the policeman
do his duty.

And as Frank went up the lane, he heard that zealous officer addressing
the court with considerable vigor. But it was very little comfort to
him. He walked out of the town with his anger and resentment still hot
in his heart at the indignity of the whole affair.


By the Sunday afternoon Frank was well on his way to York.

It was a heavy, hot day, sunny, but with brooding clouds on the low
horizons; and he was dispirited and tired as he came at last into a
small, prim village street rather after two o'clock (its name, once
more, I suppress).

His possessions by now were greatly reduced. His money had gone, little
by little, all through his journey with the Major, and he had kept of
other things only one extra flannel shirt, a pair of thick socks and a
small saucepan he had bought one day. The half-crown that the Governor
had given him was gone, all but fourpence, and he wanted, if possible,
to arrive at York, where he was to meet the Major, at least with that
sum in his possession. Twopence would pay for a bed and twopence more
for supper.

Half-way up the street he stopped suddenly. Opposite him stood a small
brick church, retired by a few yards of turf, crossed by a path, from
the iron railings that abutted on the pavement: and a notice-board
proclaimed that in this, church of the Sacred Heart mass was said on
Sundays at eleven, on holidays of obligation at nine, and on weekdays at
eight-thirty A.M. Confessions were heard on Saturday evenings
and on Thursday evenings before the first Friday, from eight
to nine P.M. Catechism was at three P.M. on Sundays; and
rosary, sermon and benediction at seven P.M. A fat cat, looking
as if it were dead, lay relaxed on the grass beneath this board.

The door was open and Frank considered an instant. But he thought that
could wait for a few minutes as he glanced at the next house. This was
obviously the presbytery.

Frank had never begged from a priest before, and he hesitated a little
now. Then he went across the street into the shadow on the other side,
leaned against the wall and looked. The street was perfectly empty and
perfectly quiet, and the hot summer air and sunshine lay on all like a
charm. There was another cat, he noticed, on a doorstep a few yards
away, and he wondered how any living creature in this heat could
possibly lie like that, face coiled round to the feet, and the tail laid
neatly across the nose. A dreaming cock crooned heart-brokenly somewhere
out of sight, and a little hot breeze scooped up a feather of dust in
the middle of the road and dropped again.

Even the presbytery looked inviting on a day like this. He had walked a
good twenty-five miles to-day, and the suggestion of a dark, cool room
was delicious. It was a little pinched-looking house, of brick, like the
church, squeezed between the church and a large grocery with a
flamboyant inscription over its closed shutters. All the windows were
open, hung inside with cheap lace curtains, and protected with
dust-screens. He pictured the cold food probably laid out within, and
his imagination struck into being a tall glass jug of something like
claret-cup, still half-full. Frank had not dined to-day.

Then he limped boldly across the street, rapped with the cast-iron
knocker, and waited.

Nothing at all happened.

       *       *       *       *       *

Presently the cat from the notice-board appeared round the corner, eyed
Frank suspiciously, decided that he was not dangerous, came on, walking
delicately, stepped up on to the further end of the brick stair, and
began to arch itself about and rub its back against the warm angle of
the doorpost. Frank rapped again, interrupting the cat for an instant,
and then stooped down to scratch it under the ear. The cat crooned
delightedly. Steps sounded inside the house; the cat stopped writhing,
and as the door opened, darted in noiselessly with tail erect past the
woman who held the door uninvitingly half open.

She had a thin, lined face and quick black eyes.

"What do you want?" she asked sharply, looking up and down Frank's
figure with suspicion. Her eyes dwelt for a moment on the bruise on his

"I want to see the priest, please," said Frank.

"You can't see him."

"I am very sorry," said Frank, "but I must see him."

"Coming here begging!" exclaimed the woman bitterly. "I'd be ashamed! Be
off with you!"

Frank's dignity asserted itself a little.

"Don't speak to me in that tone, please. I am a Catholic, and I wish to
see the priest."

The woman snorted; but before she could speak there came the sound of an
opening door and a quick step on the linoleum of the little dark

"What's all this?" said a voice, as the woman stepped back.

He was a big, florid young man, with yellow hair, flushed as if with
sleep; his eyes were bright and tired-looking, and his collar was
plainly unbuttoned at the back. Also, his cassock was unfastened at the
throat and he bore a large red handkerchief in his hand. Obviously this
had just been over his face.

Now, I do not blame this priest in the slightest. He had sung a late
mass--which never agreed with him--and in his extreme hunger he had
eaten two platefuls of hot beef, with Yorkshire pudding, and drunk a
glass and a half of solid beer. And he had just fallen into a deep sleep
before giving Catechism, when the footsteps and voices had awakened him.
Further, every wastrel Catholic that came along this road paid him a
call, and he had not yet met with one genuine case of want. When he had
first come here he had helped beggars freely and generously, and he
lived on a stipend of ninety pounds a year, out of which he paid his
housekeeper fifteen.

"What do you want?" he said.

"May I speak to you, father?" said Frank.

"Certainly. Say what you've got to say."

"Will you help me with sixpence, father?"

The priest was silent, eyeing Frank closely.

"Are you a Catholic?"

"Yes, father."

"I didn't see you at mass this morning."

"I wasn't here this morning. I was walking on the roads."

"Where did you hear mass?"

"I didn't hear it at all, father. I was on the roads."

"What's your work?"

"I haven't any."

"Why's that?"

Frank shrugged his shoulders a little.

"I do it when I can get it," he said.

"You speak like an educated man."

"I am pretty well educated."

The priest laughed shortly.

"What's that bruise on your cheek?"

"I was in a street fight, yesterday, father."

"Oh, this is ridiculous!" he said. "Where did you come from last?"

Frank paused a moment. He was very hot and very tired.... Then he spoke.

"I was in prison till Friday," he said. "I was given fourteen days on
the charge of robbing a child, on the twenty-sixth. I pleaded guilty.
Will you help me, father?"

If the priest had not been still half stupid with sleep and indigestion,
and standing in the full blaze of this hot sun, he might have been
rather struck by this last sentence. But he did have those
disadvantages, and he saw in it nothing but insolence.

He laughed again, shortly and angrily.

"I'm amazed at your cheek," he said. "No, certainly not! And you'd
better learn manners before you beg again."

Then he banged the door.

       *       *       *       *       *

About ten minutes later he woke up from a doze, very wide awake indeed,
and looked round. There lay on the table by him a Dutch cheese, a large
crusty piece of bread and some very soft salt butter in a saucer. There
was also a good glass of beer left--not claret-cup--in a glass jug, very
much as Frank had pictured it.

He got up and went out to the street door, shading his eyes against the
sun. But the street lay hot and dusty in the afternoon light, empty from
end to end, except for a cat, nose in tail, coiled on the grocery

Then he saw two children, in white frocks, appear round a corner, and he
remembered that it was close on time for Catechism.



About the time that Frank was coming into the village where the priest
lived, Jenny had just finished lunch with her father. She took a book,
two cigarettes, a small silver matchbox and a Japanese fan, and went out
into the garden. She had no duties this afternoon; she had played the
organ admirably at the morning service, and would play it equally
admirably at the evening service. The afternoon devotions in the little
hot Sunday school--she had decided, in company with her father a year or
two ago--and the management of the children, were far better left in the
professional hands of the schoolmistress.

She went straight out of the drawing-room windows, set wide and shaded
by awnings, and across the lawn to the seat below the ancient yews.
There she disposed herself, with her feet up, lit a cigarette, buried
the match and began to read.

       *       *       *       *       *

She had not heard from Frank for nearly three weeks; his last
communication had been a picture postcard of Selby Abbey, with the
initial "F" neatly printed at the back. But she was not very greatly
upset. She had written her letter as she had promised, and had heard
from Jack Kirkby, to whose care she sent it, that he had no idea of
Frank's whereabouts, and that he would send on the letter as soon as he
knew more. She supposed that Frank would communicate with her again as
soon as he thought proper.

Other circumstances to be noted were that Dick had gone back to town
some while ago, but would return almost immediately now for the
grouse-shooting; that Archie and Lord Talgarth were both up at the
house--indeed, she had caught sight of them in the red-curtained
chancel-pew this morning, and had exchanged five words with them both
after the service--and that in all other respects other things were as
they had been a month ago.

The Dean of Trinity had telegraphed in great dismay on the morning
following his first communication that Frank had gone, and that no one
had the slightest idea of his destination; he had asked whether he
should put detectives on the track, and had been bidden, in return,
politely but quite firmly, to mind his own business and leave Lord
Talgarth's younger son to Lord Talgarth.

It was a sleepy afternoon, even up here among the hills, and Jenny had
not read many pages before she became aware of it. The Rectory garden
was an almost perfect place for a small doze; the yews about her made a
grateful shade, and the limes behind them even further cooled the air,
and, when the breeze awoke, as one talking in his sleep, the sound about
her was as of gentle rain. The air was bright and dusty with insects;
from the limes overhead, the geranium beds, and the orchard fifty yards
away, came the steady murmur of bees and flies.

Jenny woke up twenty minutes later with a sudden start, and saw someone
standing almost over her. She threw her feet down, still bewildered by
the sudden change and the glare on which she opened her eyes, and
perceived that it was Jack Kirkby, looking very dusty and hot.

"I am so sorry," said Jack apologetically, "but I was told you were out

She did not know Jack very well, though she had known him a long time.
She looked upon him as a pleasant sort of boy whom she occasionally met
at lawn-tennis parties and flower shows, and things like that, and she
knew perfectly how to talk to young men.

"How nice of you to came over," she said. "Did you bicycle? Have
something to drink?"

She made room for him on the seat and held out her second cigarette.

"It's your last," said Jack.

"I've lots more in the house."

She watched him as he lit it, and as the last shreds of sleep rolled
away, put the obvious question.

"You've news of Frank?"

Jack threw away the match and drew two or three draughts of smoke before

"Yes," he said.

"Where is he?"

"He gave an address at York, though he wasn't there when he wrote. I
sent your letter on there yesterday."

"Oh I did he give any account of himself?"

Jack looked at her.

"Well, he did. I've come about that. It's not very pleasant."

"Is he ill?" asked Jenny sharply.

"Oh, no; not at all; at least, he didn't say so."

"What's the matter, then?"

Jack fumbled in his breast-pocket and drew out a letter, which he held a
moment before unfolding.

"I think you'd better read what he says, Miss Launton. It isn't
pleasant, but it's all over now. I thought I'd better tell you that

She held out her hand without speaking.

Jack gave it her, and addressed himself carefully to his cigarette. He
didn't like this kind of thing at all, he wished Frank wouldn't give him
unpleasant commissions. But, of course, it had to be done. He looked out
at the lawn and the sleepy house, but was aware of nothing except the
girl beside him in her white dress and the letter in her hands. When she
had finished it, she turned back and read it again. Then she remained
perfectly still, with the letter held on her knee.

"Poor, dear old boy!" she said suddenly and quietly.

An enormous wave of relief rolled up and enveloped Jack. He had been
exceedingly uncomfortable this morning, ever since the letter had come.
His first impulse had been to ride over instantly after breakfast; then
he had postponed it till lunch; then he had eaten some cold beef about
half-past twelve and come straight away. He told himself he must give
her plenty of time to write by the late Sunday night post.

He had not exactly distrusted Jenny; Frank's confidence was too
overwhelming and too infectious. But he had reflected that it was not a
wholly pleasant errand to have to inform a girl that her lover had been
in prison for a fortnight. But the tone in which she had just said those
four words was so serene and so compassionate that he was completely
reassured. This really was a fine creature, he said to himself.

"I'm extraordinarily glad you take it like that," he said.

Jenny looked at him out of her clear, direct eyes.

"You didn't suppose I should abuse him, did you?... How exactly like
Frank! I suppose he did it to save some blackguard or other."

"I expect that was it," said Jack.

"Poor, dear old boy!" she said again.

There was a moment's silence. Then Jack began again:

"You see, I've got to go and tell Lord Talgarth. Miss Launton, I wish
you'd come with me. Then we can both write by to-night's post."

Jenny said nothing for an instant. Then:

"I suppose that would be best," she said. "Shall we go up pretty soon? I
expect we shall find him in the garden."

Jack winced a little. Jenny smiled at him openly.

"Best to get it over, Mr. Jack. I know it's like going to the dentist.
But it can't be as bad as you think. It never is. Besides, you'll have
somebody to hold your hand, so to speak."

"I hope I shan't scream out loud," observed Jack. "Yes, we'd better
go--if you don't mind."

He stood up and waited. Jenny rose at once.

"I'll go and get a hat. Wait for me here, will you? I needn't tell
father till this evening."


The park looked delicious as they walked slowly up the grass under the
shade of the trees by the side of the drive. The great beeches and elms
rose in towering masses, in clump after clump, into the distance, and
beneath the nearest stood a great stag with half a dozen hinds about
him, eyeing the walkers. The air was very still; only from over the hill
came the sound of a single church bell, where some infatuated clergyman
hoped to gather the lambs of his flock together for instruction in the
Christian religion.

"That's a beauty," said Jack, waving a languid hand towards the stag.
"Did you ever hear of the row Frank and I got into when we were boys?"

Jenny smiled. She had been quite silent since leaving the Rectory.

"I heard of a good many," she said. "Which was this?"

Jack recounted a story of Red Indians and ambuscades and a bow and
arrows, ending in the flight of a frantic stag over the palings and
among the garden beds; it was on a Sunday afternoon, too.

"Frank was caned by the butler, I remember; by Lord Talgarth's express
orders. Certainly he richly deserved it. I was a guest, and got off

"How old were you?"

"We were both about eleven, I think."

"Frank doesn't strike me as more than about twelve now," observed Jenny.

"There's something in that," admitted Jack.... "Oh! Lord! how hot it
is!" He fanned himself with his hat.

       *       *       *       *       *

There was no sign of life as they passed into the court and up to the
pillared portico; and at last, when the butler appeared, the irregular
state of his coat-collar showed plainly that he but that moment had put
his coat on.

(This would be about the time that Frank left the village after his
interview with the priest.)

Yes; it seemed that Lord Talgarth was probably in the garden; and, if
so, almost certainly in the little square among the yews along the upper
terrace. His lordship usually went there on hot days. Would Miss Launton
and Mr. Kirkby kindly step this way?

No; he was not to trouble. They would find their own way. On the upper

"On the upper terrace, miss."

       *       *       *       *       *

The upper terrace was the one part of the old Elizabethan garden left
entirely unaltered. On either side rose up a giant wall of yew, shaped
like a castle bastion, at least ten feet thick; and between the two ran
a broad gravel path up to the sun-dial, bordered on either side by huge
herbaceous beds, blazing with the color of late summer. In two or three
places grass paths crossed these, leading by a few yards of turf to
windows cut in the hedge to give a view of the long, dazzling lake
below, and there was one gravel path, parallel to these, that led to the
little yew-framed square built out on the slope of the hill.

Two very silent persons now came out from the house by the garden door
on the south side, turned along the path, went up a dozen broad steps,
passed up the yew walk and finally turned again down the short gravel
way and stood abashed.

His lordship was indeed here!

A long wicker chair was set in one angle, facing them, in such a
position that the movement of the sun would not affect the delightful
shade in which the chair stood. A small table stood beside it, with the
_Times_ newspaper tumbled on to it, a box of cigars, a spirit-bottle of
iridescent glass, a syphon, and a tall tumbler in which a little ice lay
crumbled at the bottom. And in the wicker chair, with his mouth wide
open, slept Lord Talgarth.

"Good gracious!" whispered Jenny.

There was a silence, and then like far-off thunder a slow meditative
snore. It was not an object of beauty or dignity that they looked upon.

"In one second I shall laugh," asserted Jenny, still in a cautious

"I think we'd better--" began Jack; and stopped petrified, to see one
vindictive-looking eye opened and regarding him, it seemed, with an
expression of extraordinary malignity. Then the other eye opened, the
mouth abruptly closed and Lord Talgarth sat up.

"God bless my soul!"

He rolled his eyes about a moment while intelligence came back.

"You needn't be ashamed of it," said Jenny. "Mr. Jack Kirkby caught me
at it, too, half an hour ago."

His lordship's senses had not even now quite returned. He still stared
at them innocently like a child, cleared his throat once or twice, and
finally stood up.

"Jack Kirkby, so it is! How do, Jack? And Jenny?

"That's who we are," said Jenny. "Are you sure you're quite recovered?"

"Recovered! Eh--!" (He emitted a short laugh.) "Sit down. There's chairs

Jack hooked out a couple that were leaning folded against the low wall
of yew beneath the window and set them down.

"Have a cigar, Jack?"

"No, thanks."

They were on good terms--these two. Jack shot really well, and was smart
and deferential. Lord Talgarth asked no more than this from a young man.

"Well--what's the matter?"

Jack left it thoughtfully for Jenny to open the campaign. She did so
very adroitly.

"Mr. Jack came over to see me," she said, "and I thought I couldn't
entertain him better than by bringing him up to see you. You haven't
such a thing as a cigarette, Lord Talgarth?"

He felt about in his pockets, drew out a case and pushed it across the

"Thanks," said Jenny; and then, without the faintest change of tone:
"We've some news of Frank at last."

"Frank, eh? Have you? And what's the young cub at, now?"

"He's in trouble, as usual, poor boy!" remarked Jenny, genially. "He's
very well, thank you, and sends you his love."

Lord Talgarth cast her a pregnant glance.

"Well, if he didn't, I'm sure he meant to," went on Jenny; "but I
expect he forgot. You see, he's been in prison."

The old man jerked such a face at her, that even her nerve failed for an
instant. Jack saw her put her cigarette up to her mouth with a hand that
shook ever so slightly. And yet before the other could say one word she
recovered herself.

"Please let me say it right out to the end first," she said. "No; please
don't interrupt! Mr. Jack, give me the letter ... oh! I've got it." (She
drew it out and began to unfold it, talking all the while with
astonishing smoothness and self-command.) "And I'll read you all the
important part. It's written to Mr. Kirkby. He got it this morning and
very kindly brought it straight over here at once."

Jack was watching like a terrier. On the one side he saw emotions so
furious and so conflicting that they could find no expression, and on
the other a restraint and a personality so complete and so compelling
that they simply held the field and permitted no outburst. Her voice was
cool and high and natural. Then he noticed her flick a glance at
himself, sideways, and yet perfectly intelligible. He stood up.

"Yes, do just take a stroll, Mr. Kirkby.... Come back in ten minutes."

And as he passed out again through the thick archway on to the terrace
he heard, in an incredibly matter-of-fact voice, the letter begin.

     "DEAR JACK...."

Then he began to wonder what, as a matter of interest, Lord Talgarth's
first utterance would be. But he felt he could trust Jenny to manage
him. She was an astonishingly sane and sensible girl.


He was at the further end of the terrace, close beneath the stable wall,
when the stable clock struck the quarter for the second time. That would
make, he calculated, about seventeen minutes, and he turned reluctantly
to keep his appointment. But he was still thirty yards away from the
opening when a white figure in a huge white hat came quickly out. She
beckoned to him with her head, and he followed her down the steps. She
gave him one glance as if to reassure him as he caught her up, but said
not a word, good or bad, till they had passed through the house again,
and were well on their way down the drive.

"Well?" said Jack.

Jenny hesitated a moment.

"I suppose anyone else would have called him violent," she said. "Poor
old dear! But it seems to me he behaved rather well on the
whole--considering all things."

"What's he going to do?"

"If one took anything he said as containing any truth at all, it would
mean that he was going to flog Frank with his own hands, kick him first
up the steps of the house then down again, and finally drown him in the
lake with a stone round his neck. I think that was the sort of


"Oh! we needn't be frightened," said Jenny. "But if you ask me what he
will do, I haven't the faintest idea."

"Did you suggest anything?"

"He knows what my views are," said jenny.

"And those?"

"Well--make him a decent allowance and let him alone."

"He won't do that!" said Jack. "That's far too sensible."

"You think so?"

"That would solve the whole problem, of course," went on Jack, "marriage
and everything. I suppose it would have to be about eight hundred a
year. And Talgarth must have at least thirty thousand."

"Oh! he's more than that," said Jenny. "He gives Mr. Dick twelve

There was a pause. Jack did not know what to think. He was only quite
certain that the thing would have been far worse if he had attempted to
manage it himself.

"Well, what shall I say to Frank?" he asked. Jenny paused again.

"It seems to me the best thing for you to do is not to write. I'll write
myself this evening, if you'll give me his address, and explain--"

"I can't do that," said Jack. "I'm awfully sorry, but--"

"You can't give me his address?"

"No, I'm afraid I mustn't. You see, Frank's very particular in his

"Then how can I write to him? Mr. Kirkby, you're really rather--"

"By George! I've got it!" cried Jack. "If you don't mind my waiting at
the Rectory. Why shouldn't you write to him now, and let me take the
letter away and post it? It'll go all the quicker, too, from Barham."

He glanced at her, wondering whether she were displeased. Her answer
reassured him.

"That'll do perfectly," she said, "if you're sure you don't mind

The Rectory garden seemed more than ever a harbor from storm as they
turned into it. The sun was a little lower now, and the whole lawn lay
in shadow. As they came to the door she stopped.

"I think I'd better go and get it over," she said. "I can tell father
all about it after you've gone. Will you go now and wait there?" She
nodded towards the seat where they had sat together earlier.

       *       *       *       *       *

But it was nearly an hour before she came out again, and a neat maid, in
apron and cap, had come discreetly out with the tea-things, set them
down and retired.

Jack had been thinking of a hundred things, which all centered round
one--Frank. He had had a real shock this morning. It had been
intolerable to think of Frank in prison, for even Jack could guess
something of what that meant to him; and the tone of the letter had been
so utterly unlike what he had been accustomed to from his friend. He
would have expected a bubbling torrent of remarks--wise and
foolish--full of personal descriptions and unkind little sketches. And,
indeed, there had come this sober narration of facts and requests....

But in all this there was one deep relief--that it should be a girl like
Jenny who was the heart of the situation. If she had been in the least
little bit disturbed, who could tell what it would mean to Frank? For
Frank, as he knew perfectly well, had a very deep heart indeed, and had
enshrined Jenny in the middle of it. Any wavering or hesitation on her
part would have meant misery to his friend. But now all was perfectly
right, he reflected; and really, after all, it did not matter very much
what Lord Talgarth said or did. Frank was a free agent; he was very
capable and very lovable; it couldn't possibly be long before something
turned up, and then, with Jenny's own money the two could manage very
well. And Lord Talgarth could not live for ever; and Archie would do the
right thing, even if his father didn't.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was after half-past four before he looked up at a glint of white and
saw Jenny standing at the drawing-room window. She stood there an
instant with a letter in her hand; then she stepped over the low sill
and came towards him across the grass, serene and dignified and
graceful. Her head was bare again, and the great coils of her hair
flashed suddenly as they caught a long horizontal ray from the west.

"Here it is," she said. "Will you direct it? I've told him everything."

Jack nodded.

"That's excellent!" he said. "It shall go to-night."

He glanced up at her and saw her looking at him with just the faintest
wistfulness. He understood perfectly, he said to himself: she was still
a little unhappy at not being allowed to send the letter herself. What a
good girl she was!

"Have some tea before you go?" she said.

"Thanks. I'd better not. They'll be wondering what's happened to me."

As he shook hands he tried to put something of his sympathy into his
look. He knew exactly how she was feeling, and he thought her splendidly
brave. But she hardly met his eyes, and again he felt he knew why.

As he opened the garden gate beyond the house he turned once more to
wave. But she was busy with the tea-things, and a black figure was
advancing briskly upon her from the direction of the study end of the



Life had been a little difficult for the Major for the last fortnight or
so. Not only was Frank's material and moral support lacking to him, but
the calls upon him, owing to Gertie's extreme unreasonableness, had
considerably increased. He had explained to her, over and over again,
with a rising intensity each time, how unselfishly he had acted
throughout, how his sole thought had been for her in his recent course
of action. It would never have done, he explained pacifically, for a
young man like Frank to have the responsibility of a young girl like
Gertie on his hands, while he (the Major) was spending a fortnight
elsewhere. And, in fact, even on the most economical grounds he had
acted for the best, since it had been himself who had been charged in
the matter of the tin of salmon, it would not have been a fortnight, but
more like two months, during which the little community would have been
deprived of his labor. He reminded her that Frank had had a clean record
up to that time with the police....

But explanation had been fruitless. Gertie had even threatened a
revelation of the facts of the case at the nearest police-station, and
the Major had been forced to more manly tactics with her. He had not
used a stick; his hands had served him very well, and in the course of
his argument he had made a few insincere remarks on the mutual relations
of Frank and Gertie that the girl remembered.

       *       *       *       *       *

He had obtained a frugal little lodging in one of the small streets of
York, down by the river--indeed looking straight on to it; and, for a
wonder, five days' regular work at the unloading of a string of barges.
The five days expired on the Saturday before Frank was expected, but he
had several shillings in hand on the Sunday morning when Frank's letter
arrived, announcing that he hoped to be with them again on Sunday night
or Monday morning. Two letters, also, had arrived for his friend on the
Sunday morning--one in a feminine handwriting and re-directed, with an
old postmark of June, as well as one of the day before--he had held it
up to the light and crackled it between his fingers, of course, upon
receiving it--and the other an obvious bill--one postmark was Cambridge
and the other Barham. He decided to keep them both intact. Besides,
Gertie had been present at their delivery.

The Major spent, on the whole, an enjoyable Sunday. He lay in bed till
a little after twelve o'clock, with a second-hand copy of the Sporting
Times, and a tin of tobacco beside him. They dined at about one o'clock,
and he managed to get a little spirit to drink with his meal. He had
walked out--not very far--with Gertie in the afternoon, and had managed
by representing himself as having walked seven miles--he was determined
not to risk anything by foolishly cutting it too fine--to obtain a
little more. They had tea about six, and ate, each of them, a kippered
herring and some watercress. Then about seven o'clock Frank suddenly
walked in and sat down.

"Give me something to eat and drink," he said.

He looked, indeed, extraordinarily strained and tired, and sat back on
the upturned box by the fireplace as if in exhaustion. He explained
presently when Gertie had cooked another herring, and he had drunk a
slop-basinful of tea, that he had walked fasting since breakfast, but he
said nothing about the priest. The Major with an air of great
preciseness measured out half a finger of whisky and insisted, with the
air of a paternal doctor, upon his drinking it immediately.

"And now a cigarette, for God's sake," said Frank. "By the way, I've got
some work for to-morrow."

"That's first-rate, my boy," said the Major. "I've been working myself
this week."

Frank produced his fourpence and laid it on the corner of the table.

"That's for supper and bed to-night," he said.

"Nonsense, my boy; put it back in your pocket."

"Kindly take that fourpence," remarked Frank. "You can add some
breakfast to-morrow, if you like."

       *       *       *       *       *

He related his adventures presently--always excepting the priest--and
described how he had met a man at the gate of a builder's yard this
evening as he came through York, who had promised him a day's job, and
if things were satisfactory, more to follow.

"He seemed a decent chap," said Frank.

       *       *       *       *       *

The Major and Gertie had not much to relate. They had left the
market-town immediately after Frank's little matter in the magistrates'
court, and had done pretty well, arriving in York ten days ago. They
hardly referred to Frank's detention, though he saw Gertie looking at
him once or twice in a curiously shy kind of way, and understood what
was in her mind. But for very decency's sake the Major had finally to
say something.

"By the way, my boy, I won't forget what you did for me and for my
little woman here. I'm not a man of many words, but--"

"Oh! that's all right," said Frank sleepily. "You'll do as much for me
one day."

The Major assented with fervor and moist eyes. It was not till Frank
stood up to go to bed that anyone remembered the letters.

"By the way, there are two letters come for you," said the Major,
hunting in the drawer of the table. Frank's bearing changed. He whisked
round in an instant.

"Where are they?"

They were put into his hand. He looked at them carefully, trying to make
out the postmark--turned them upside down and round, but he made no
motion to open them.

"Where am I to sleep?" he said suddenly. "And can you spare a bit of

(And as he went upstairs, it must have been just about the time that the
letter-box at Barham was cleared for the late Sunday post.)


Frank lay a long time awake in the dark that night, holding tight in his
hand Jenny's letter, written to him in June. The bill he had not even
troubled to open.

For the letter said exactly and perfectly just all those things which
he most wished to hear, in the manner in which he wished to hear them.
It laughed at him gently and kindly; it called him an extraordinarily
silly boy; it said that his leaving Cambridge, and, above all, his
manner of leaving it--Frank had added a postscript describing his
adventure with the saddle and the policeman--were precisely what the
writer would have expected of him; it made delightful and humorous
reflections upon the need of Frank's turning over a new leaf--there was
quite a page of good advice; and finally it gave him a charming
description--just not over the line of due respect--of his father's
manner of receiving the news, with extracts from some of the choicest
remarks made upon that notable occasion. It occupied four
closely-written pages, and if there were, running underneath it
all, just the faintest taint of strain and anxiety, loyally
concealed--well--that made the letter no less pleasant.

I have not said a great deal about what Jenny meant to Frank, just
because he said so very little about her himself. She was, in fact,
almost the only element in his variegated life upon which he had not
been in the habit of pouring out torrential comments and reflections.
His father and Archie were not at all spared in his conversation with
his most intimate friends; in fact, he had been known, more than once,
in a very select circle at Cambridge, to have conducted imaginary
dialogues between those two on himself as their subject, and he could
imitate with remarkable fidelity his Cousin Dick over a billiard-table.
But he practically never mentioned Jenny; he had not even a photograph
of her on his mantelpiece. And it very soon became known among his
friends, when the news of his engagement leaked out through Jack, that
it was not to be spoken of in his presence. He had preserved the same
reticence, it may be remembered, about his religion.

And so Frank at last fell asleep on a little iron bedstead, just
remembering that it was quite possible he might have another letter from
her to-morrow, if Jack had performed his commission immediately. But he
hardly expected to hear till Tuesday.

       *       *       *       *       *

Gertie was up soon after five next morning to get breakfast for her men,
since the Major had announced that he would go with Frank to see whether
possibly there might not be a job for him too; and as soon as they had
gone, very properly went to sleep again on the bed in the sitting-room.

Gertie had a strenuous time of it, in spite of the Major's frequently
expressed opinion that women had no idea what work was. For, first,
there was the almost unending labor of providing food and cooking it as
well as possible; there was almost a standing engagement of mending and
washing clothes; there were numerous arguments to be conducted, on terms
of comparative equality, if possible, with landladies or farmers'
wives--Gertie always wore a brass wedding-ring and showed it sometimes a
little ostentatiously; and, finally, when the company was on the march,
it was only fair that she should carry the heavier half of the luggage,
in order to compensate for her life of luxury and ease at other times.
Gertie, then, was usually dog-tired, and slept whenever she could get a

It was nearly eight o'clock before she was awakened again by sharp
knocking on her door; and on opening it, found the landlady' standing
there, examining a letter with great attention. (It had already been
held up to the light against the kitchen window.)

"For one of your folks, isn't it, Mrs.--er--" Gertie took it. It was
written on excellent paper, and directed in a man's handwriting to Mr.

"Thank you, Mrs.--er--" said Gertie.

Then she went back into her room, put the letter carefully away in the
drawer of the table and set about her household business.

About eleven o'clock she stepped out for a little refreshment. She had,
of course, a small private exchequer of her own, amounting usually to
only a few pence, of which the Major knew nothing. This did not strike
her as at all unfair; she only wondered gently sometimes at masculine
innocence in not recognizing that such an arrangement was perfectly
certain. She got into conversation with some elder ladies, who also had
stepped out for refreshment, and had occasion, at a certain point, to
lay her wedding-ring on the bar-counter for exhibition. So it was not
until a little after twelve that she remembered the time and fled. She
was not expecting her men home to dinner; in fact, she had wrapped up
provisions for them in fragments of the Major's _Sporting Times_ before
they had left; but it was safer to be at home. One never knew.

As she came into the room, for an instant her heart leaped into her
mouth, but it was only Frank.

"Whatever's the matter?" she said.

"Turned off," said Frank shortly. He was sitting gloomily at the table
with his hands in his pockets.

"Turned off?"

He nodded.

"What's up?"

"'Tecs," said Frank.

Gertie's mouth opened a little.

"One of them saw me going in and wired for instructions. He had seen the
case in the police-news and thought I answered to the description. Then
he came back at eleven and told the governor."



There was a pause.

"And George?"

"Oh! he's all right," said Frank a little bitterly. "There's nothing
against him. Got any dinner, Gertie? I can't pay for it ... oh, yes, I
can; here's half a day." (He chucked ninepence upon the table; the
sixpence rolled off again, but he made no movement to pick it up.)

Gertie looked at him a moment.

"Well--" she began emphatically, then she stooped to pick up the

Frank sighed.

"Oh! don't begin all that--there's a good girl. I've said it all
myself--quite adequately, I assure you."

Gertie's mouth opened again. She laid the sixpence on the table.

"I mean, there's nothing to be said," explained Frank. "The point
is--what's to be done?"

Gertie had no suggestions. She began to scrape out the frying-pan in
which the herrings had been cooked last night.

"There's a letter for you," she said suddenly.

Frank sat up.


"In the drawer there--by your hand. Frankie...."

Frank tore at the handle and it came off. He uttered a short
exclamation. Then, with infinite craft he fitted the handle in again,
wrapped in yet one more scrap of the _Sporting Times_, and drew out the
drawer. His face fell abruptly as he saw the handwriting.

"That can wait," he muttered, and chucked the letter face downwards on
to the table.

"Frankie," said the girl again, still intent on her frying-pan.


"It's all my fault," she said in a low voice.

"Your fault! How do you make that out?"

"If it hadn't been for me, you wouldn't have taken the tin from George,

"Oh, Lord!" said Frank, "if we once begin on that!... And if it hadn't
been for George, he wouldn't have taken the tin; and if it hadn't been
for Maggie Cooper, there wouldn't have been the tin; and if it hadn't
been for Maggie's father's sister, she wouldn't have gone out with it.
It's all Maggie's father's sister's fault, my dear! It's nothing to do
with you."

The words were brisk enough, but the manner was very heavy. It was like
repeating a lesson learned in childhood.

"That's all right," began Gertie again, "but--"

"My dear girl, I shall be annoyed if you go back to all that. Why can't
you let it alone? The point is, What's to happen? I can't go on sponging
on you and the Major."

Gertie flushed under her tan.

"If you ever leave us," she said, "I'll--"


"I'll ... I'll never leave George."

Frank was puzzled for a moment. It seemed a _non sequitur_.

"Do you mean--"

"I've got me eyes," said Gertie emphatically, "and I know what you're
thinking, though you don't say much. And I've been thinking, too."

Frank felt a faint warmth rise in his own heart. "You mean you've been
thinking over what I said the other day?"

Gertie bent lower over her frying-pan and scraped harder than ever.

"Do stop that confounded row one second!" shouted Frank.

The noise stopped abruptly. Gertie glanced up and down again. Then she
began again, more gently.

"That's better," said Frank.... "Well, I hope you have," he went on
paternally. "You're a good girl, Gertie, and you know better. Go on
thinking about it, and tell me when you've made up your mind. When'll
dinner be ready?"

"Half an hour," said Gertie.

"Well, I'll go out for a bit and look round."

He took up the letter carelessly and went out.


As he passed the window Gertie glanced towards it with the corner of her
eye. Then, frying-pan still in hand, she crept up to the angle and
watched him go down the quay.

A very convenient barrel was set on the extreme edge of the embankment
above the water, with another beside it, and Frank made for this
immediately. She saw him sit on one of the barrels and put the letter,
still unopened, on the top of the other. Then he fumbled in his pockets
a little, and presently a small blue cloud of smoke went upwards like
incense. Gertie watched him for an instant, but he did not move again.
Then she went back to her frying-pan.

Twenty minutes later dinner was almost ready.

Gertie had spread upon the table, with great care, one of the Major's
white pocket-handkerchiefs. He insisted upon those being, not only
retained, but washed occasionally, and Gertie understood something of
his reasons, since in the corner of each was embroidered a monogram, of
which the letters were not "G.T." But she never could make out what they

Upon this tablecloth she had placed on one side a black-handled fork
with two prongs, and a knife of the same pattern (this was for Frank)
and on the other a small pewter tea-spoon and a knife, of which the only
handle was a small iron spike from which the wood had fallen away. (This
was for herself.) Then there was a tooth-glass for Frank, and a
teacup--without a handle, but with a gold flower in the middle of it, to
make up--for herself. In the center of the pocket-handkerchief stood a
crockery jug, with a mauve design of York Minster, with a thundercloud
behind it and a lady and gentleman with a child bowling a hoop in front
of it. This was the landlady's property, and was half full of beer.
Besides all this, there were two plates, one of a cold blue color, with
a portrait of the Prince Consort, whiskers and hat complete, in a small
medallion in the center, and the other white, with a representation of
the Falls of Lodore. There was no possibility of mistaking any of the
subjects treated upon these various pieces of table-ware, since the
title of each was neatly printed, in various styles, just below the

Gertie regarded this array with her head on one side. It was not often
that they dined in such luxury. She wished she had a flower to put in
the center. Then she stirred the contents of the frying-pan with an iron
spoon, and went again to the window.

The figure on the barrel had not moved; but even as she looked she saw
him put out his hand to the letter. She watched him. She saw him run a
finger inside the envelope, and toss the envelope over the edge of the
quay. Then she saw him unfold the paper inside and become absorbed.

This would never do. Gertie's idea of a letter was that it occupied at
least several minutes to read through; so she went out quickly to the
street door to call him in.

She called him, and he did not turn his head, nor even answer.

She called him again.


The letter that Frank read lies, too, with a few other papers, before me
as I write.

It runs as follows:


     "I know you won't like what I have to say, but it has to be
     said. Believe me, it costs me as much to write as you to
     read--perhaps more.

     "It is this: Our engagement must be at an end.

     "You have a perfect right to ask me for reasons, so I will give
     them at once, as I don't want to open the subject again. It
     would do no kind of good. My mind is absolutely made up.

     "My main reason is this: When I became engaged to you I did not
     know you properly. I thought you were quite different from what
     you are. I thought that underneath all your nice wildness, and
     so on, there was a very solid person. And I hinted that, you
     will remember, in my first letter, which I suppose you have
     received just before this. And now I simply can't think that
     any longer.

     "I don't in the least blame you for being what you are: that's
     not my business. But I must just say this--that a man who can
     do what you've done, not only for a week or two, as I thought
     at first, as a sort of game, but for nearly three months, and
     during that time could leave me with only three or four
     postcards and no news; above all, a man who could get into
     such disgrace and trouble, and actually go to prison, and yet
     not seem to mind much--well, it isn't what I had thought of

     "You see, there are a whole lot of things together. It isn't
     just this or that, but the whole thing.

     "First you became a Catholic, without telling me anything until
     just before. I didn't like that, naturally, but I didn't say
     anything. It isn't nice for a husband and wife to be of
     different religions. Then you ran away from Cambridge; then you
     got mixed up with this man you speak of in your letter to Jack;
     and you must have been rather fond of him, you know, to go to
     prison for him, as I suppose you did. And yet, after all that,
     I expect you've gone to meet him again in York. And then
     there's the undeniable fact of prison.

     "You see, it's all these things together--one after another. I
     have defended you to your father again and again; I haven't
     allowed anybody to abuse you without standing up for you; but
     it really has gone too far. You know I did half warn you in
     that other letter. I know you couldn't have got it till just
     now, but that wasn't my fault; and the letter shows what I was
     thinking, even three months ago.

     "Don't be too angry with me, Frank. I'm very fond of you still,
     and I shall always stand up for you when I can. And please
     don't answer this in any way. Jack Kirkby isn't answering just
     yet. I asked him not, though he doesn't know why.

     "Your father is going to send the news that the engagement is
     broken off to the newspapers.

                       "Yours sincerely,
                           "JENNY LAUNTON."




Barham, as all Yorkshire knows, lies at the foot of a long valley, where
it emerges into the flatter district round Harrogate. It has a railway
all to itself, which goes no further, for Barham is shut in on the north
by tall hills and moors, and lies on the way to nowhere. It is almost
wholly an agricultural town, and has a curious humped bridge, right in
the middle of the town, where men stand about on market days and discuss
the price of bullocks. It has two churches--one, disused, on a
precipitous spur above the town, surrounded by an amazingly irregular
sort of churchyard, full, literally, to bursting (the Kirkbys lie there,
generation after generation of them, beneath pompous tombs), and the
other church a hideous rectangular building, with flat walls and
shallow, sham Gothic windows. It was thought extremely beautiful when it
was built forty years ago. The town itself is an irregular and rather
picturesque place, with a twisting steep High Street, looking as if a
number of houses had been shot at random into this nook among the hills
and left to find their own levels.

The big house where the Kirkbys have lived since the middle of the
seventeenth century is close to the town, as the squire's house ought to
be, and its park gates open right upon the northern end of the old
bridge. There's nothing of great interest in the house (I believe there
is an old doorway in the cellar, mentioned in guide-books), since it was
rebuilt about the same time as the new church first rose. It is just a
big, comfortable, warm, cool, shady sort of house, with a large hall and
a fine oak staircase, surrounded by lawns and shrubberies, that adjoin
on the west the lower slopes, first of the park and then of the moors
that stretch away over the horizon.

There is a pleasant feudal air about the whole place--feudal, in a small
and neighborly kind of way. Jack's father died just a year before his
only son came of age; and Jack himself, surrounded by sisters and an
excellent and beneficently-minded mother, has succeeded to all the
immemorial rights and powers, written and unwritten, of the Squire of
Barham. He entertained me delightfully for three or four days a few
months ago, when I was traveling about after Frank's footsteps, and I
noticed with pleasure as we drove through the town that there was
hardly a living creature in the town whom he did not salute; and who did
not salute him.

He took me first to the bridge and pulled up in the middle of it, to
point out a small recess in it, over the central pier, intended, no
doubt, to give shelter to foot-passengers before the bridge was widened,
in case a large vehicle came through.

"There," he said. "That's the place I first saw Frank when he came."

We drove on up through the town, and at the foot of the almost
precipitous hill leading up to the ruined church we got out, leaving the
dog-cart in charge of the groom. We climbed the hill slowly, for it was
a hot day, Jack uttering reminiscences at intervals (many of which are
recorded in these pages) and turned in at the churchyard gate.

"And this was the place," said Jack, "where I said good-by to him."


It was on the twenty-fifth of September, a Monday, that Jack sat in the
smoking-room, in Norfolk jacket and gaiters, drinking tea as fast as he
possibly could. He had been out on the moors all day, and was as thirsty
as the moors could make him, and he had been sensual enough to smoke a
cigarette deliberately before beginning tea, in order to bring his
thirst to an acute point.

Then, the instant he had finished he snatched for his case again, for
this was to be the best cigarette of the whole day, and discovered that
his sensuality had overreached itself for once, and that there were none
left. He clutched at the silver box with a sinking heart,
half-remembering that he had filled his case with the last of them this
morning. It was a fact, and he knew that there were no others in the

This would never do, and he reflected that if he sent a man for some
more, he would not get them for at least twenty minutes. (Jack never
could understand why an able-bodied footman always occupied twenty
minutes in a journey that ought to take eight.) So he put on his cap
again, stepped out of the low window and set off down the drive.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was getting a little dark as he passed out of the lodge-gates. The
sun, of course, had set at least an hour before behind the great hill to
the west, but the twilight proper was only just beginning. He was nearly
at the place now, and as he breasted the steep ascent of the bridge,
peered over it, at least with his mind's eye, at the tobacconist's
shop--first on the left--where a store of "Mr. Jack's cigarettes" was
always on hand.

He noticed in the little recess I have just spoken of a man leaning
with his elbows on the parapet, and staring out up the long reach of the
stream to the purple evening moors against the sky and the luminous
glory itself; and as he came opposite him, wondered vaguely who it was
and whether he knew him. Then, as he got just opposite him, he stopped,
uneasy at heart.

       *       *       *       *       *

Naturally Frank was never very far away from Jack's thoughts just
now--ever since, indeed, he had heard the news in a very discreet letter
from the Reverend James Launton a week or two ago. (I need not say he
had answered this letter, not to the father, but to the daughter, but
had received no reply.)

He had written a frantic letter to Frank himself then, but it had been
returned, marked: "Unknown at this address." And ever since he had eyed
all tramps on the road with an earnestness that elicited occasionally a
salute, and occasionally an impolite remark.

The figure whose back he saw now certainly was not much like Frank; but
then--again--it was rather like him. It was dressed in a jacket and
trousers so stained with dust and wet as to have no color of their own
at all, and a cloth cap of the same appearance. A bundle tied up in a
red handkerchief, and a heavy stick, rested propped against an angle of
the recess.

Jack cleared his throat rather loud and stood still, prepared to be
admiring the view, in case of necessity; the figure turned an eye over
its shoulder, then faced completely round; and it was Frank Guiseley.

Jack for the first instant said nothing at all, but stood transfixed,
with his mouth a little open and his eyes staring. Frank's face was
sunburned almost beyond recognition, his hair seemed cut shorter than
usual, and the light was behind him.

Then Jack recovered.

"My dear man," he said, "why the--"

He seized him by the hands and held him, staring at him.

"Yes; it's me all right," said Frank. "I was just wondering--"

"Come along, instantly.... Damn! I've got to go to a tobacconist's; it's
only just here. There isn't a cigarette in the house. Come with me?"

"I'll wait here," said Frank.

"Will you? I shan't be a second."

It was, as a matter of fact, scarcely one minute before Jack was back;
he had darted in, snatched a box from the shelf and vanished, crying out
to "put it down to him." He found Frank had faced round again and was
staring at the water and sky and high moors. He snatched up his friend's
bundle and stick.

"Come along," he said, "we shall have an hour or two before dinner."

Frank, in silence, took the bundle and stick from him again, firmly and
irresistibly, and they did not speak again till they were out of
ear-shot of the lodge. Then Jack began, taking Frank's arm--a custom for
which he had often been rebuked.

"My dear old man!" he said. "I ... I can't say what I feel. I know the
whole thing, of course, and I've expressed my mind plainly to Miss


"And to your father. Neither have answered, and naturally I haven't been
over again.... Dick's been there, by the way."

Frank made no comment.

"You look simply awful, old chap," pursued Jack cheerily. "Where on
earth have you been for the last month? I wrote to York and got the
letter returned."

"Oh! I've been up and down," said Frank impassively.

"With the people you were with before--the man, I mean?"

"No. I've left them for the present. But I shall probably join them
again later."

"Join...!" began the other aghast.

"Certainly! This thing's only just begun," said Frank, with that same
odd impassivity. "We've seen the worst of it, I fancy."

"But you don't mean you're going back! Why, it's ridiculous!"

Frank stopped. They were within sight of the house now and the lights
shone pleasantly out.

"By the way, Jack, I quite forgot. You will kindly give me your promise
to make no sort of effort to detain me when I want to go again, or I
shan't come any further."

"But, my dear chap--"

"Kindly promise at once, please."

"Oh, well! I promise, but--"

"That's all right," said Frank, and moved on.

       *       *       *       *       *

"I say," said Jack, as they came up to the hall door. "Will you talk now
or will you change, or what?"

"I should like a hot bath first. By the way, have you anyone staying in
the house?"

"Not a soul; and only two sisters at home. And my mother, of course."

"What about clothes?"

"I'll see about that. Come on round to the smoking-room window. Then
I'll get in Jackson and explain to him. I suppose you don't mind your
name being known? He'll probably recognize you, anyhow."

"Not in the least, so long as no one interferes."

Jack rang the bell as soon as they came into the smoking-room, and Frank
sat down in a deep chair. Then the butler came. He cast one long look at
the astonishing figure in the chair.

"Oh!--er--Jackson, this is Mr. Frank Guiseley. He's going to stay here.
He'll want some clothes and things. I rather think there are some suits
of mine that might do. I wish you'd look them out."

"I beg your pardon, sir?

"This is Mr. Frank Guiseley--of Merefield.... It is, really! But we
don't want more people talking than are necessary. You understand?
Please don't say anything about it, except that he's come on a
walking-tour. And please tell the housekeeper to get the Blue Room
ready, and let somebody turn on the hot water in the bath-room until
further notice. That's all, Jackson ... and the clothes. You

"Yes, sir."

"And get the _eau de lubin_ from my dressing-room and put it in the
bath-room. Oh, yes; and the wooden bowl of soap."

"These clothes of mine are not to be thrown away, please, Jackson,"
said Frank gravely from the chair. "I shall want them again."

"Yes, sir."

"That's all, then," said Jack.

Mr. Jackson turned stiffly and left the room.

"It's all right," said Jack. "You remember old Jackson. He won't say a
word. Lucky no one saw us as we came up."

"It doesn't matter much, does it?" said Frank.

There was a pause.

"I say, Frank, when will you tell me--"

"I'll answer any questions after dinner to-night. I simply can't talk

Dinner was a little difficult that night.

Mrs. Kirkby had been subjected to a long lecture from her son during the
half hour in which she ought to have been dressing, in order to have it
firmly implanted in her mind that Frank--whom she had known from a
boy--was simply and solely in the middle of a walking-tour all by
himself. She understood the situation perfectly in a minute and a
half--(she was a very shrewd woman who did not say much)--but Jack was
not content. He hovered about her room, fingering photographs and
silver-handled brushes, explaining over and over again how important it
was that Frank should be made to feel at his case, and that Fanny and
Jill--(who were just old enough to come to dinner in white high-necked
frocks that came down to their very slender ankles, and thick pig-tails
down their backs)--must not be allowed to bother him. Mrs. Kirkby said,
"Yes, I understand," about a hundred and thirty times, and glanced at
the clock. She stood with one finger on the electric button for at least
five minutes before venturing to ring for her maid, and it was only that
lady's discreet tap at one minute before eight that finally got Jack out
of the room. He looked in on Frank in the middle of his dressing, found
to his relief that an oldish suit of dress-clothes fitted him quite
decently, and then went to put on his own. He came down to the
drawing-room seven minutes after the gong with his ears very red and his
hair in a plume, to find Frank talking to his mother, and eyed by his
sisters who were pretending to look at photographs, with all the ease in
the world.

But dinner itself was difficult. It was the obvious thing to talk about
Frank's "walking-tour"; and yet this was exactly what Jack dared not do.
The state of the moors, and the deplorable ravages made among the young
grouse by the early rains, occupied them all to the end of fish; to the
grouse succeeded the bullocks: to the bullocks, the sheep, and, by an
obvious connection--obvious to all who knew that gentleman--from the
sheep to the new curate.

But just before the chocolate _soufflée_ there came a pause, and Jill,
the younger of the two sisters, hastened to fill the gap.

"Did you have a nice walking-tour, Mr. Guiseley?"

Frank turned to her politely.

"Yes, very nice, considering," he said.

"Have you been alone all the time?" pursued Jill, conscious of a social

"Well, no," said Frank. "I was traveling with a ... well, with a man who
was an officer in the army. He was a major."

"And did you--"

"That's enough, Jill," said her mother decidedly. "Don't bother Mr.
Guiseley. He's tired with his walk."

The two young men sat quiet for a minute or two after the ladies had
left the room. Then Jack spoke.

"Well?" he said.

Frank looked up. There was an odd, patient kind of look in his eyes that
touched Jack a good deal. Frank had not been distinguished for
submissiveness hitherto.

"Oh! a bit later, if you don't mind," he said. "We can talk in the


"Well, I'll tell you the whole thing as far as I understand it," began
Frank, as the door closed behind Jackson, who had brought whisky and
candles. "And then I'll answer any questions you want."

He settled himself back in his chair, stretching out his legs and
clasping his hands behind his head. Jack had a good view of him and
could take notice of his own impressions, though he found them hard to
put into words afterwards. The words he finally chose were "subdued" and
"patient" again, and there are hardly two words that would have been
less applicable to Frank three months before. At the same time his
virility was more noticeable than ever; he had about him, Jack said,
something of the air of a very good groom--a hard-featured and sharp,
yet not at all unkindly look, very capable and, at the same time, very
much restrained. There was no sentimental nonsense about him at all--his
sorrow had not taken that form.

"Well, I needn't talk much about Jenny's last letter and what happened
after that. I was entirely unprepared, of course. I hadn't the faintest
idea--Well, she was the one person about whom I had no doubts at all! I
actually left the letter unread for a few minutes (the envelope was in
your handwriting, you know)--because I had to think over what I had to
do next. The police had got me turned away from a builder's yard--"

Jack emitted a small sound. He was staring at Frank with all his eyes.

"Yes; that's their way," said Frank. "Well, when I read it, I simply
couldn't think any more at all for a time. The girl we were traveling
with--she had picked up with the man I had got into trouble over, you
know--the girl was calling me to dinner, she told me afterwards. I
didn't hear a sound. She came and touched me at last, and I woke up. But
I couldn't say anything. They don't even now know what's the matter. I
came away that afternoon. I couldn't even wait for the Major--"


"The Major.... Oh! that's what the chap calls himself. I don't think
he's lying, either. I simply couldn't stand him another minute just
then. But I sent them a postcard that night--I forget where from;
and--There aren't any letters for me, are there?

"One or two bills."

"Oh! well, I shall hear soon, I expect. I must join them again in a day
or two. They're somewhere in this direction, I know."

"And what did you do?"

Frank considered.

"I'm not quite sure. I know I walked a great deal. People were awfully
good to me. One woman stopped her motor--and I hadn't begged, either--"

"You! Begged!"

"Lord, yes; lots of times.... Well, she gave me a quid, and I didn't
even thank her. And that lasted me very well, and I did a little work
too, here and there."

"But, good Lord! what did you do?"

"I walked. I couldn't bear towns or people or anything. I got somewhere
outside of Ripon at last, and went out on to the moors. I found an old
shepherd's hut for about a week or ten days--"

"And you--"

"Lived there? Yes. I mended the hut thoroughly before I came away. And
then I thought I'd come on here."

"What were you doing on the bridge?"

"Waiting till dark. I was going to ask at the lodge then whether you
were at home."

"And if I hadn't been?"

"Gone on somewhere else, I suppose."

Jack tried to help himself to a whisky and soda, but the soda flew out
all over his shirt-front like a fountain, and he was forced to make a
small remark. Then he made another.

"What about prison?"

Frank smiled.

"Oh! I've almost forgotten that. It was beastly at the time, though."

"And ... and the Major and the work! Lord! Frank, you do tell a story

He smiled again much more completely.

"I'm too busy inside," he said. "Those things don't seem to matter much,

"Inside? What the deuce do you mean?"

Frank made a tiny deprecating gesture.

"Well, what it's all about, you know ... Jack."


"It's a frightfully priggish thing to say, but I'm extraordinarily
interested as to what's going to happen next--inside, I mean. At least,
sometimes; and then at other times I don't care a hang."

Jack looked bewildered, and said so tersely. Frank leaned forward a

"It's like this, you see. Something or other has taken me in hand: I'm
blessed if I know what. All these things don't happen one on the top of
the other just by a fluke. There's something going on, and I want to
know what it is. And I suppose something's going to happen soon."

"For God's sake do say what you mean!"

"I can't more than that. I tell you I don't know. I only wish somebody
could tell me."

"But what does it all amount to? What are you going to do next?"

"Oh! I know that all right. I'm going to join the Major and Gertie


"Yes?... No, not a word, please. You promised you wouldn't. I'm going to
join those two again and see what happens."

"But why?"

"That's my job. I know that much. I've got to get that girl back to her
people again. She's not his wife, you know."

"But what the devil--"

"It seems to me to matter a good deal. Oh! she's a thoroughly stupid
girl, and he's a proper cad; but that doesn't matter. It's got to be
done; or, rather, I've got to try to do it. I daresay I shan't succeed,
but that, again, doesn't matter. I've got to do my job, and then we'll

Jack threw up his hands.

"You're cracked!" he said.

"I daresay," said Frank solemnly.

There was a pause. It seemed to Jack that the whole thing must be a
dream. This simply wasn't Frank at all. The wild idea came to him that
the man who sat before him with Frank's features was some kind of
changeling. Mentally he shook himself.

"And what about Jenny?" he said.

Frank sat perfectly silent and still for an instant. Then he spoke
without heat.

"I'm not quite sure," he said. "Sometimes I'd like to ... well, to make
her a little speech about what she's done, and sometimes I'd like to
crawl to her and kiss her feet--but both those things are when I'm
feeling bad. On the whole, I think--though I'm not sure--that is not my
business any more; in fact, I'm pretty sure it's not. It's part of the
whole campaign and out of my hands. It's no good talking about that any
more. So please don't, Jack."

"One question?"


"Have you written to her or sent her a message?"


"And I want to say one other thing. I don't think it's against the


"Will you take five hundred pounds and go out to the colonies?"

Frank looked up with an amused smile.

"No, I won't--thanks very much.... Am I in such disgrace as all that,

"You know I don't mean that," said Jack quietly.

"No, old chap. I oughtn't to have said that. I'm sorry."

Jack waved a hand.

"I thought perhaps you'd loathe England, and would like--And you don't
seem absolutely bursting with pride, you know."

"Honestly, I don't think I am," said Frank. "But England suits me very
well--and there are the other two, you know. But I'll tell you one thing
you could do for me."


"Pay those extra bills. I don't think they're much."

"That's all right," said Jack. "And you really mean to go on with it

"Why, yes."


The moors had been pretty well shot over already since the twelfth of
August, but the two had a very pleasant day, for all that, a couple of
days later. They went but with a keeper and half a dozen beaters--Frank
in an old homespun suit of Jack's, and his own powerful boots, and made
a very tolerable bag. There was one dramatic moment, Jack told me, when
they found that luncheon had been laid at a high point on the hills from
which the great gray mass of Merefield and the shimmer of the lake in
front of the house were plainly visible only eight miles away. The flag
was flying, too, from the flagstaff on the old keep, showing, according
to ancient custom, that Lord Talgarth was at home. Frank looked at it a
minute or two with genial interest, and Jack wondered whether he had
noticed, as he himself had, that even the Rectory roof could be made
out, just by the church tower at the foot of the hill.

Neither said anything, but as the keeper came up to ask for orders as
they finished lunch, he tactfully observed that there was a wonderful
fine view of Merefield.

"Yes," said Frank, "you could almost make out people with a telescope."

       *       *       *       *       *

The two were walking together alone as they dropped down, an hour before
sunset, on to the upper end of Barham. They were both glowing with the
splendid air and exercise, and were just in that state of weariness that
is almost unmixed physical pleasure to an imaginative thinker who
contemplates a hot bath, a quantity of tea, and a long evening in a
deep chair. Frank still preserved his impassive kind of attitude towards
things in general, but Jack noticed with gentle delight that he seemed
more off his guard, and that he even walked with something more of an
alert swing than he had on that first evening when they trudged up the
drive together.

Their road led them past the gate of the old churchyard, and as they
approached it, dropping their feet faster and faster down the steep
slope, Jack noticed two figures sitting on the road-side, with their
feet in the ditch--a man and a girl. He was going past them, just
observing that the man had rather an unpleasant face, with a ragged
mustache, and that the girl was sunburned, fair-haired and rather
pretty, when he became aware that Frank had slipped behind him. The next
instant he saw that Frank was speaking to them, and his heart dropped to

"All right," he heard Frank say, "I was expecting you. This evening,
then.... I say, Jack!"

Jack turned.

"Jack, this is Major and Mrs. Trustcott, I told you of. This is my
friend, Mr.--er--Mr. Jack."

Jack bowed vaguely, overwhelmed with disgust.

"Very happy to make your acquaintance, sir," said the Major,
straightening himself in a military manner. "My good lady and I were
resting here. Very pleasant neighborhood."

"I'm glad you like it," said Jack.

"Then, this evening," said Frank again. "Can you wait an hour or two?"

"Certainly, my boy," said the Major. "Time's no consideration with us,
as you know."

(Jack perceived that this was being said at him, to show the familiarity
this man enjoyed with his friend.)

"Would nine o'clock be too late?"

"Nine o'clock it shall be," said the Major.

"And here?"


"So long, then," said Frank. "Oh, by the way--" He moved a little closer
to this appalling pair, and Jack stood off, to hear the sound of a
sentence or two, and then the chink of money.

"So long, then," said Frank again. "Come along, Jack; we must make

"Good-evening, sir," cried the Major, but Jack made no answer.

       *       *       *       *       *

"Frank, you don't mean to tell me that those are the people?"

"That's the Major and Gertie--yes."

"And what was all that about this evening?"

"I must go, Jack. I'm sorry; but I told you it couldn't be more than a
few days at the outside."

Jack was silent, but it was a hard struggle.

"By the way, how shall we arrange?" went on the other. "I can't take
these clothes, you know; and I can't very well be seen leaving the house
in my own."

"Do as you like," snapped Jack.

"Look here, old man, don't be stuffy. How would it do if I took a bag
and changed up in that churchyard? It's locked up after dark, isn't it?"


"You've got a key, I suppose?"


"Well, then, that's it. And I'll leave the bag and the key in the hedge

Jack was silent.

Jack held himself loyally in hand that evening, but he could not talk
much. He consented to explain to his mother that Frank had to be off
after dinner that night, and he also visited the housekeeper's room, and
caused a small bundle, not much larger than a leg of mutton, including
two small bottles which jingled together, to be wrapped up in brown
paper--in which he inserted also a five-pound note (he knew Frank would
not take more)--and the whole placed in the bag in which Frank's old
clothes were already concealed. For the rest of the evening he sat,
mostly silent, in one chair, trying not to watch Frank in another;
pretending to read, but endeavoring to picture to his imagination what
he himself would feel like if he were about to join the Major and Gertie
in the churchyard at nine o'clock.... Frank sat quite quiet all the
evening, reading old volumes of _Punch_.

They dined at half-past seven, by request--Frank still in his homespun
suit. Fanny and Jill were rather difficult. It seemed to them both a
most romantic thing that this black-eyed, sunburned young man, with whom
they had played garden-golf the day before, should really be continuing
his amazing walking-tour, in company with two friends, at nine o'clock
that very night. They wondered innocently why the two friends had not
been asked to join them at dinner. It was exciting, too, and unusual,
that this young man should dine in an old homespun suit. They asked a
quantity of questions. Where was Mr. Guiseley going first? Frank didn't
quite know; Where would he sleep that night? Frank didn't quite know; he
would have to see. When was the walking-tour going to end? Frank didn't
quite know. Did he really like it? Oh, well, Frank thought it was a good
thing to go on a walking tour, even if you were rather uncomfortable

The leave-taking was unemotional. Jack had announced suddenly and
loudly in the smoking-room before dinner that he was going to see the
last of Frank, as far as the churchyard; Frank had protested, but had
yielded. The rest had all said good-by to him in the hall, and at a
quarter to nine the two young men went out into the darkness.


It was a clear autumn night--a "wonderful night of stars"--and the skies
blazed softly overhead down to the great blotted masses of the high
moors that stood round Barham. It was perfectly still, too--the wind had
dropped, and the only sound as the two walked down the park was the low
talking of the stream over the stones beyond the belt of trees fifty
yards away from the road.

Jack was sick at heart; but even so, he tells me, he was conscious that
Frank's silence was of a peculiar sort. He felt somehow as if his friend
were setting out to some great sacrifice in which he was to suffer, and
was only partly conscious of it--or, at least, so buoyed by some kind of
exaltation or fanaticism as not to realize what he was doing. (He
reminded me of a certain kind of dream that most people have now and
then, of accompanying some friend to death: the friend goes forward,
silent and exultant, and we cannot explain nor hold him back.

"That was the sort of feeling," said Jack lamely.)

       *       *       *       *       *

Jack had the grim satisfaction of carrying the bag in which, so to
speak, the knife and fillet were hidden. He changed his mood half a
dozen times even in that quarter of an hour's walk through the town. Now
the thing seemed horrible, like a nightmare; now absurdly preposterous;
now rather beautiful; now perfectly ordinary and commonplace. After all,
Jack argued with himself, there are such people as tramps, and they
survive. Why should not Frank? He had gipsy blood in him, too. What in
the world was he--Jack--frightened of?

"Do you remember our talking about your grandmother?" he said suddenly,
as they neared the lodge.

"Yes. Why?"

"Only I've just thought of something else. Wasn't one of your people
executed under Elizabeth?"

"By gad, yes; so he was. I'd quite forgotten. It was being on the wrong
side for once."

"How--the wrong side?"

There was amusement in Frank's voice as he answered.

"It was for religion," he said. "He was a Papist. All the rest of them
conformed promptly. They were a most accommodating lot. They changed
each time without making any difficulty. I remember my governor telling
us about it once. He thought them very sensible. And so they were, by
George! from one point of view."

"Has your religion anything to do with all this?"

"Oh, I suppose so," said Frank, with an indifferent air.

       *       *       *       *       *

There were a good many doors open in the High Street as they went up it,
and Jack saluted half a dozen people mechanically as they touched their
hats to him as he passed in the light from the houses.

"What does it feel like being squire?" asked Frank.

"Oh, I don't know," said Jack.

"Rather good fun, I should think," said Frank.

       *       *       *       *       *

They were nearing the steep part of the ascent presently, and the church
clock struck nine.

"Bit late," said Frank.

"When will you come again?" asked the other suddenly. "I'm here another
fortnight, you know, and then at Christmas again. Come for Christmas if
you can."

"Ah! I don't know where I shall be. Give my love to Cambridge, though."



"Mayn't I say what I think?"


       *       *       *       *       *

Ah! there was the roof of the old church standing out against the stars,
and there could be no more talking. They might come upon the other two
at any moment now. They went five steps further, and there, in the
shadow of the gate, burned a dull red spot of fire, that kindled up as
they looked, and showed for an instant the heavy eyes of the Major with
a pipe in his mouth.

       *       *       *       *       *

"Good-evening, sir," came the military voice, and the girl rose to her
feet beside him. "You're just in time."

"Good-evening," said Jack dully.

"We've had a pleasant evening of it up here, Mr. Kirkby, after we'd
stepped down and had a bit of supper at the 'Crown.'"

"I suppose you heard my name there," said Jack.

"Quite right, sir."

"Give us the key," said Frank abruptly.

He unlocked the door and pushed it back over the grass-grown gravel.

"Wait for me here, will you?" he said to Jack.

"I'm coming in. I'll show you where to change."

       *       *       *       *       *

Twenty yards of an irregular twisted path, over which they stumbled two
or three times, led them down to the little ruined doorway at the west
end of the old church. Jack's father had restored the place admirably,
so far as restoration was possible, and there stood now, strong as ever,
the old tower, roofed and floored throughout, abutting on the four
roofless walls, within which ran the double row of column bases.

Jack struck a light, kindled a bicycle lamp he had brought with him, and
led the way.

"Come in here," he said.

Frank followed him into the room at the base of the tower and looked

"This looks all right," he said. "It was a Catholic church once, I

"Yes; the parson says this was the old sacristy. They've found things
here, I think--cupboards in the wall, and so on."

"This'll do excellently," said Frank. "I shan't be five minutes."

Jack went out again without a word. He felt it was a little too much to
expect him to see the change actually being made, and the garments of
sacrifice put on. (It struck him with an unpleasant shock, considering
the form of his previous metaphor, that he should have taken Frank into
the old sacristy.)

He sat down on the low wall, built to hold the churchyard from slipping
altogether down the hill-side, and looked out over the little town

The sky was more noticeable here; one was more conscious of the enormous
silent vault, crowded with the steady stars, cool and aloof; and,
beneath, of the feverish little town with sparks of red light dotted
here and there, where men wrangled and planned and bargained, and
carried on the little affairs of their little life with such astonishing
zest. Jack was far from philosophical as a rule, but it is a fact that
meditations of this nature did engross him for a minute or two while he
sat and waited for Frank, and heard the low voices talking in the lane
outside. It even occurred to him for an instant that it was just
possible that what Frank had said in the smoking-room before dinner was
true, and that Something really did have him in hand, and really, did
intend a definite plan and result to emerge from this deplorable and
quixotic nonsense. (I suppose the contrast of stars and human lights may
have helped to suggest this sort of thing to him.)

Then he gave himself up again to dismal considerations of a more
particular kind.

       *       *       *       *       *

He heard Frank come out, and turned to see him in the dim light, bag in
hand, dressed again as he had been three days ago. On his head once more
was the indescribable cap; on his body the indescribable clothes. He
wore on his feet the boots in which he had tramped the moors that day.
(How far away seemed that afternoon now, and the cheerful lunch in the
sunshine on the hill-top!)

"Here I am, Jack."

Then every promise went to the winds. Jack stood up and took a step
towards him.

"Frank, I do implore you to give up this folly. I asked you not to do it
at Cambridge, and I ask you again now. I don't care a damn what I
promised. It's simple madness, and--"

Frank had wheeled without a word, and was half-way to the gate. Jack
stumbled after him, calling under his breath; but the other had already
passed through the gate and joined the Major and Gertie before Jack
could reach him.

"And so you think up here is the right direction?" Frank was saying.

"I got some tips at the 'Crown,'" said the Major. "There are some farms
up there, where--"

"Frank, may I speak to you a minute?"

"No.... All right, Major; I'm ready at once if you are."

He turned towards Jack.

"By the way," he said, "what's in this parcel?"

"Something to eat and drink," murmured Jack.

"Oh ... I shan't want that, thanks very much. Here's the bag with the
clothes in it. I'm awfully grateful, old man, for all your kindness.
Awfully sorry to have bothered you."

"By the way, Frankie," put in the hateful voice at his side, "I'll take
charge of that parcel, if you don't want it."

"Catch hold, then," said Frank. "You're welcome to it, if you'll carry
it. You all right, Gertie?"

The girl murmured something inaudible. As at their first meeting, she
had said nothing at all. The Major lifted a bundle out of the depths of
the hedge, slung it on his stick, and stood waiting, his face again
illuminated with the glow of his pipe. He had handed the new parcel to
Gertie without a word.

"Well, good-by again, old man," said Frank, holding out his hand. He,
too, Jack saw, had his small bundle wrapped up in the red handkerchief,
as on the bridge when they had first met. Jack took his hand and shook
it. He could say nothing.

Then the three turned and set their faces up the slope. He could see
them, all silent together, pass up, more and more dim in the darkness of
the hedge, the two men walking together, the girl a yard behind them.
Then they turned the corner and were gone. But Jack still stood where
Frank had left him, listening, until long after the sound of their
footfalls had died away.


Jack had a horrid dream that night.

He was wandering, he thought, gun in hand after grouse, alone on the
high moors. It was one of those heavy days, so common in dreams, when
the light is so dim that very little can be seen. He was aware of
countless hill-tops round him, and valleys that ran down into profound
darkness, where only the lights of far-off houses could be discerned.
His sport was of that kind peculiar to sleep-imaginings. Enormous birds,
larger than ostriches, rose occasionally by ones or twos with incredible
swiftness, and soared like balloons against the heavy, glimmering sky.
He fired at these and feathers sprang from them, but not a bird fell.
Once he inflicted an indescribable wound ... and the bird sped across
the sky, blotting out half of it, screaming. Then as the screaming died
he became aware that there was a human note in it, and that Frank was
crying to him, somewhere across the confines of the wold, and the horror
that had been deepening with each shot he fired rose to an intolerable
climax. Then began one of the regular nightmare chases: he set off to
run; the screaming grew fainter each instant; he could not see his way
in the gloom; he clambered over bowlders; he sank in bogs, and dragged
his feet from them with infinite pains; his gun became an unbearable
burden, yet he dared not throw it from him; he knew that he should need
it presently.... The screaming had ceased now, yet he dared not stop
running; Frank was in some urgent peril, and he knew it was not yet too
late, if he could but find him soon. He ran and ran; the ground was
knee-deep now in the feathers that had fallen from the wounded birds; it
was darker than ever, yet he toiled on hopelessly, following, as he
thought, the direction from which the cries had come. Then as at last he
topped the rise of a hill, the screaming broke out again, shrill and
frightful, close at hand, and the next instant he saw beneath him in the
valley a hundred yards away that for which he had run so far. Running up
the slope below, at right angles to his own path came Frank, in the
dress-clothes he had borrowed, with pumps upon his feet; his hands were
outstretched, his face white as ashes, and he screamed as he ran.
Behind him ran a pack of persons whose faces he could not see; they ran
like hounds, murmuring as they came in a terrible whining voice. Then
Jack understood that he could save Frank; he brought his gun to the
shoulder, aimed it at the brown of the pack and drew the trigger. A snap
followed, and he discovered that he was unloaded; he groped in his
cartridge-belt and found it empty.... He tore at his pockets, and found
at last one cartridge; and as he dashed it into the open breach, his gun
broke in half. Simultaneously the quarry vanished over an edge of hill,
and the pack followed, the leaders now not ten yards behind the flying
figure in front.

Jack stood there, helpless and maddened. Then he flung the broken pieces
of his gun at the disappearing runners; sank down in the gloom, and
broke out into that heart-shattering nightmare sobbing which shows that
the limit has been reached.

He awoke, still sobbing--certain that Frank was in deadly peril, if not
already dead, and it was a few minutes before he dared to go to sleep
once more.



The Rectory garden at Merefield was, obviously, this summer, the proper
place to spend most of the day. Certainly the house was cool--it was one
of those long, low, creeper-covered places that somehow suggest William
IV. and crinolines (if it is a fact that those two institutions
flourished together, as I think), with large, darkish rooms and wide,
low staircases and tranquil-looking windows through which roses peep;
but the shadow of the limes and the yews was cooler still. A table stood
almost permanently through those long, hot summer days in the place
where Dick had sat with Jenny, and here the Rector and his daughter
breakfasted, lunched and dined, day after day, for a really
extraordinarily long period.

Jenny herself lived in the garden even more than her father; she got
through the household business as quickly as possible after breakfast,
and came out to do any small businesses that she could during the rest
of the morning. She wrote a few letters, read a few books, sewed a
little, and, on the whole, presented a very domestic and amiable
picture. She visited poor people for an hour or so two or three days a
week, and occasionally, when Lord Talgarth was well enough, rode out
with him and her father after tea, through the woods, and sometimes with
Lord Talgarth alone.

She suffered practically no pangs of conscience at all on the subject of
Frank. Her letter had been perfectly sincere, and she believed herself
to have been exceedingly sensible. (It is, perhaps, one may observe, one
of the most dangerous things in the world to think oneself sensible; it
is even more dangerous than to be told so.) For the worst of it all was
that she was quite right. It was quite plain that she and Frank were not
suited to one another; that she had looked upon that particular quality
in him which burst out in the bread-and-butter incident, the leaving of
Cambridge, the going to prison, and so forth, as accidental to his
character, whereas it was essential. It was also quite certain that it
was the apotheosis of common-sense for her to recognize that, to say so,
and to break off the engagement.

Of course, she had moments of what I should call "grace," and she would
call insanity, when she wondered for a little while whether to be
sensible was the highest thing in life; but her general attitude to
these was as it would be towards temptation of any other kind. To be
sensible, she would say, was to be successful and effective; to be
otherwise was to fail and to be ineffective.

Very well, then.

       *       *       *       *       *

At the beginning of September Dick Guiseley came to Merefield to shoot
grouse. The grouse, as I think I have already remarked, were backward
this year, and, after a kind of ceremonial opening, to give warning as
it were, on the twelfth of August, they were left in peace. Business was
to begin on the third, and on the evening of the second Dick arrived.

He opened upon the subject that chiefly occupied his thoughts just now
with Archie that night when Lord Talgarth had gone to bed. They were
sitting in the smoking-room, with the outer door well open to admit the
warm evening air. They had discussed the prospects of grouse next day
with all proper solemnity, and Archie had enumerated the people who were
to form their party. The Rector was coming to shoot, and Jenny was to
ride out and join them at lunch.

Then Archie yawned largely, finished his drink, and took up his candle.

"Oh! she's coming, is she?" said Dick meditatively.

Archie struck a match.

"How's Frank?" went on Dick.

"Haven't heard from him."

"Where is the poor devil?"

"Haven't an idea."

Dick emitted a monosyllabic laugh.

"And how's she behaving?"

"Jenny? Oh! just as usual. She's a sensible girl and knows her mind."

Dick pondered this an instant.

"I'm going to bed," said Archie. "Got to have a straight eye to-morrow."

"Oh! sit down a second.... I want to talk."

Archie, as a compromise, propped himself against the back of a chair.

"She doesn't regret it, then?" pursued Dick.

"Not she," said Archie. "It would never have done."

"I know," agreed Dick warmly. (It was a real pleasure to him that head
and heart went together in this matter.) "But sometimes, you know, women
regret that sort of thing. Wish they hadn't been quite so sensible, you

"Jenny doesn't," said Archie.

Dick took up his glass which he had filled with his third
whisky-and-soda, hardly five minutes before, and drank half of it. He
sucked his mustache, and in that instant confidentialism rose in his

"Well, I'm going to have a shot myself," he said.


"I'm going to have a shot. She can but say 'No.'"

Archie's extreme repose of manner vanished for a second. His jaw dropped
a little.

"But, good Lord! I hadn't the faintest--"

"I know you hadn't. But I've had it for a long time.... What d'you
think, Archie?"

"My good chap--"

"Yes, I know; leave all that out. We'll take that as read. What comes

Archie looked at him a moment.

"How d'you mean? Do you mean, do I approve?"

"Well, I didn't mean that," admitted Dick. "I meant, how'd I better set
about it?"

Archie's face froze ever so slightly. (It will be remembered that Jack
Kirkby considered him pompous.)

"You must do it your own way," he said.

"Sorry, old man," said Dick. "Didn't mean to be rude."

Archie straightened himself from the chair-back.

"It's all rather surprising," he said. "It never entered my head. I
must think about it. Good-night. Put the lights out when you come."

"Archie, old man, are you annoyed?"

"No, no; that's all right," said Archie.

And really and truly that was all that passed between these two that
night on the subject of Jenny--so reposeful were they.


There was a glorious breeze blowing over the hills as Jenny rode slowly
up about noon next day. The country is a curious mixture--miles of moor,
as desolate and simple and beautiful as moors can be, and by glimpses,
now and then in the valleys between, of entirely civilized villages,
with even a town or two here and there, prick-up spires and roofs; and,
even more ominous, in this direction and that, lie patches of smoke
about the great chimneys.

Jenny was meditative as she rode up alone. It is very difficult to be
otherwise when one has passed through one considerable crisis, and
foresees a number of others that must be met, especially if one has not
made up one's mind as to the proper line of action. It is all very well
to be sensible, but a difficulty occasionally arises as to which of two
or three courses is the more in accordance with that character. To be
impulsive certainly leads to trouble sometimes, but also, sometimes it
saves it.

Jenny looked charming in repose. She was in a delightful green habit;
she wore a plumy kind of hat; she rode an almost perfect little mare
belonging to Lord Talgarth, and her big blue, steady eyes roved slowly
round her as she went, seeing nothing. It was, in fact, the almost
perfect little mare who first gave warning of the approach to the
sportsmen, by starting violently all over at the sound of a shot, fired
about half a mile away. Jenny steadied her, pulled her up, and watched
between the cocked and twitching ears.

Below her, converging slowly upwards, away from herself, moved a line of
dots, each precisely like its neighbor in color (Lord Talgarth was very
particular, indeed, about the uniform of his beaters), and by each moved
a red spot, which Jenny understood to be a flag. The point towards which
they were directed culminated in a low, rounded hill, and beneath the
crown of this, in a half circle, were visible a series of low defenses,
like fortifications, to command the face of the slope and the dips on
either side. This was always the last beat--in this moor--before lunch;
and lunch itself, she knew, would be waiting on the other side of the
hill. Occasionally as she watched, she saw a slight movement behind
this or that butt--no more--and the only evidence of human beings,
beside the beaters, lay in the faint wreath of all but invisible smoke
that followed the reports, coming now quicker and quicker, as the grouse
took alarm. Once with a noise like a badly ignited rocket, there burst
over the curve before her a flying brown thing, that, screaming with
terrified exultation, whirred within twenty yards of her head and
vanished into silence. (One cocked ear of the mare bent back to see if
the rocket were returning or not.)

Jenny's meditations became more philosophical than ever as she looked.
She found herself wondering how much free choice the grouse--if they
were capable themselves of philosophizing--would imagine themselves to
possess in the face of this noisy but insidious death. She reminded
herself that every shred of instinct and experience that each furious
little head contained bade the owner of it to fly as fast and straight
as possible, in squawking company with as many friends as possible, away
from those horrible personages in green and silver with the agitating
red flags, and up that quiet slope which, at the worst, only emitted
sudden noises. A reflective grouse would perhaps (and two out of three
did) consider that he could fly faster and be sooner hidden from the
green men with red flags, if he slid crosswise down the valleys on
either side. But--Jenny observed--that was already calculated by these
human enemies, and butts (like angels' swords) commanded even these
approaches too.

It was obvious, then, that however great might be the illusion of free
choice, in reality there was none: they were betrayed hopelessly by the
very instincts intended to safeguard them; practical common-sense, in
this case, at least, led them straight into the jaws of death. A little
originality and impulsiveness would render them immortal so far as guns
were concerned....

Yes; but there was one who had been original, who had actually preferred
to fly straight past a monster in green on a gray mare rather than to
face the peaceful but deathly slopes; and he had escaped. But obviously
he was an exception. Originality in grouse--

At this point the mare breathed slowly and contemptuously and advanced a
delicate, impatient foot, having quite satisfied herself that danger was
no longer imminent; and Jenny became aware she was thinking nonsense.

       *       *       *       *       *

There were a number of unimportant but well-dressed persons at lunch,
with most of whom Jenny was acquainted. These extended themselves on the
ground and said the right things one after another; and all began with
long drinks, and all ended with heavy meals. There were two other women
whom she knew slightly, who had driven up half an hour before.
Everything was quite perfect--down even to hot grilled grouse that
emerged from emblazoned silver boxes, and hot black coffee poured from
"Thermos" flasks. Jenny asked intelligent questions and made herself

At the close of lunch she found herself somehow sitting on a small rock
beside Dick. Lord Talgarth was twenty yards away, his gaitered legs very
wide apart, surveying the country and talking to the keeper. Her father
was looking down the barrels of his rather ineffective gun, and Archie,
with three or four other men and two women, a wife and a sister, was
smoking with his back against a rock.

"Shall you be in to-morrow?" asked Dick casually.

Jenny paused an instant.

"I should think so!" she said. "I've got one or two things to do."

"Perhaps I may look in? I want to talk to you about something if I may."

"Shan't you be shooting again?"

"No; I'm not very fit and shall take a rest."

Jenny was silent.

"About what time?" pursued Dick.

Jenny roused herself with a little start. She had been staring out over
the hills and wondering if that was the church above Barham that she
could almost see against the horizon.

"Oh! any time up to lunch," she said vaguely.

Dick stood up slowly with a satisfied air and stretched himself. He
looked very complete and trim, thought Jenny, from his flat cap to his
beautifully-spatted shooting-boots. (It was twelve hundred a year, at
least, wasn't it?)

"Well, I suppose we shall be moving directly," he said.

       *       *       *       *       *

A beater came up bringing the mare just before the start was made.

"All right, you can leave her," said Jenny. "I won't mount yet. Just
hitch the bridle on to something."

It was a pleasant and picturesque sight to see the beaters, like a file
of medieval huntsmen, dwindle down the hill in their green and silver in
one direction, and, five minutes later, the sportsmen in another. It
looked like some mysterious military maneuver on a small scale; and
again Jenny considered the illusion of free choice enjoyed by the
grouse, who, perhaps, two miles away, crouched in hollows among the
heather. And yet, practically speaking, there was hardly any choice at

Lady Richard, the wife of one of the men, interrupted her in a drawl.

"Looks jolly, doesn't it?" she said.

Jenny assented cordially.

(She hated this woman, somehow, without knowing why. She said to herself
it was the drawl and the insolent cold eyes and the astonishing
complacency; and she only half acknowledged that it was the beautiful
lines of the dress and the figure and the assured social position.)

"We're driving," went on the tall girl. "You rode, didn't you?


"Lord Talgarth's mare, isn't it? I thought I recognized her."

"Yes. I haven't got a horse of my own, you know," said Jenny


Jenny suddenly felt her hatred rise almost to passion.

"I must be going," she said. "I've got to visit an old woman who's
dying. A rector's daughter, you know--"

"Ah! yes."

Then Jenny mounted from a rock (Lady Richard held the mare's head and
settled the habit), and rode slowly away downhill.


Dick approached the Rectory next day a little before twelve o'clock with
as much excitement in his heart as he ever permitted to himself.

Dick is a good fellow--I haven't a word to say against him, except
perhaps that he used to think that to be a Guiseley, and to have
altogether sixteen hundred a year and to live in a flat in St. James's,
and to possess a pointed brown beard and melancholy brown eyes and a
reposeful manner, relieved him from all further effort. I have wronged
him, however; he had made immense efforts to be proficient at billiards,
and had really succeeded; and, since his ultimate change of fortune, has
embraced even further responsibilities in a conscientious manner.

Of course, he had been in love before in a sort of way; but this was
truly different. He wished to marry Jenny very much indeed.... That she
was remarkably sensible, really beautiful and eminently presentable, of
course, paved the way; but, if I understand the matter rightly, these
were not the only elements in the case. It was the genuine thing. He did
not quite know how he would face the future if she refused him; and he
was sufficiently humble to be in doubt.

The neat maid told him at the door that Miss Launton had given
directions that he was to be shown into the garden if he came.... No;
Miss Launton was in the morning-room, but she should be told at once. So
Dick strolled across the lawn and sat down by the garden table.

He looked at the solemn, dreaming house in the late summer sunshine; he
observed a robin issue out from a lime tree and inspect him sideways;
and then another robin issue from another lime tree and drive the first
one away. Then he noticed a smear of dust on his own left boot, and
flicked it off with a handkerchief. Then, as he put his handkerchief
away again, he saw Jenny coming out from the drawing-room window.

She looked really extraordinarily beautiful as she came slowly across
towards him and he stood to meet her. She was bare-headed, but her face
was shadowed by the great coils of hair. She was in a perfectly plain
pink dress, perfectly cut, and she carried herself superbly. She looked
just a trifle paler than yesterday, he thought, and there was a very
reserved, steady kind of question in her eyes. (I am sorry to be obliged
to go on saying this sort of thing about Jenny every time she comes upon
the scene; but it is the sort of thing that everyone is obliged to go on
thinking whenever she makes her appearance.)

"I've got a good deal to say," said Dick, after they had sat a moment
or two. "May I say it right out to the end?"

"Why, certainly," said Jenny.

Dick leaned back and crossed one knee over the other. His manner was
exactly right--at any rate, it was exactly what he wished it to be, and
all through his little speech he preserved it. It was quite restrained,
extremely civilized, and not at all artificial. It was his method of
presenting a fact--the fact that he really was in love with this
girl--and was in his best manner. There was a lightness of touch about
this method of his, but it was only on the surface.

"I daresay it's rather bad form my coming and saying all this so soon,
but I can't help that. I know you must have gone through an awful lot in
the last month or two--perhaps even longer--but I don't know about that.
And I want to begin by apologizing if I am doing what I shouldn't. The
fact is that--well, that I daren't risk waiting."

He did not look at Jenny (he was observing the robin that had gone and
come again since Jenny had appeared), but he was aware that at his first
sentence she had suddenly settled down into complete motionlessness. He
wondered whether that was a good omen or not.

"Well, now," he said, "let me give a little account of myself first. I'm
just thirty-one; I've got four hundred a year of my own, and Lord
Talgarth allows me twelve hundred a year more. Then I've got other
expectations, as they say. My uncle gives me to understand that my
allowance is secured to me in his will; and I'm the heir of my aunt,
Lady Simon, whom you've probably met. I just mention that to show I'm
not a pauper--"

"Mr. Guiseley--" began Jenny.

"Please wait. I've not done yet. Do you mind? ... I'm a decent living
man. I'm not spotless, but I'll answer any questions you like to put--to
your father. I've not got any profession, though I'm supposed to be a
solicitor; but I'm perfectly willing to work if ... if it's wished, or
to stand for Parliament, or anything like that--there hasn't, so far,
seemed any real, particular reason why I should work. That's all. And I
think you know the sort of person I am, all round.

"And now we come to the point." (Dick hesitated a fraction of a second.
He was genuinely moved.) "The point is that I'm in love with you, and I
have been for some time past. I ... I can't put it more plainly ... (One
moment, please, I've nearly done.) ... I can't think of anything else;
and I haven't been able to for the last two or three months. I ... I ...
I'm fearfully sorry for poor old Frank; I'm very fond of him, you know,
but I couldn't help finding it an extraordinary relief when I heard the
news. And now I've come to ask you, perfectly straight, whether you'll
consent to be my wife."

Dick looked at her for the first time since he had begun his little

She still sat absolutely quiet (she had not even moved at the two words
she had uttered), but she had gone paler still. Her mouth was in repose,
without quiver or movement, and her beautiful eyes looked steadily on to
the lawn before her. She said nothing.

"If you can't give me an answer quite at once," began Dick again
presently, "I'm perfectly willing to--"

She turned and looked him courageously in the face.

"I can't say 'Yes,'" she said. "That would be absurd.... You have been
quite straightforward with me, and I must be straightforward with you.
That is what you wish, isn't it?"

Dick inclined his head. His heart was thumping furiously with
exultation--in spite of her words.

"Then what I say is this: You must wait a long time. If you had insisted
on an answer now, I should have said 'No.' I hate to keep you waiting,
particularly when I do really think it will be 'No' in the long run; but
as I'm not quite sure, and as you've been perfectly honest and
courteous, if you really wish it I won't say 'No' at once. Will that

"Whatever you say," said Dick.

"You mustn't forget I was engaged to Frank till quite lately. Don't you
see how that obscures one's judgment? I simply can't judge now, and I
know I can't.... You're willing to wait, then?--even though I tell you
now that I think it will be 'No'?"

"Whatever you say," said Dick again; "and may I say thank you for not
saying 'No' at once?"

A very slight look of pain came into the girl's eyes.

"I would sooner you didn't," she said. "I'm sorry you said that...."

"I'm sorry," said poor Dick.

There was a pause.

"One other thing," said Jenny. "Would you mind not saying anything to my
father? I don't want him to be upset any more. Have you told anybody
else you were--?"

"Yes," said Dick bravely, "I told Archie."

"I'm sorry you did that. Will you then just tell him exactly what I
said--exactly, you know. That I thought it would be 'No'; but that I
only didn't say so at once because you wished it."

"Very well," said Dick.

It was a minute or so before either spoke again. Jenny had that
delightful and soothing gift which prevents silence from being empty. It
is the same gift, in another form, as that which enables its possessor
to put people at their ease. (It is, I suppose, one of the elements of
tact.) Dick had a sense that they were still talking gently and
reasonably, though he could not quite understand all that Jenny was

She interrupted it by a sudden sentence.

"I wonder if it's fair," she said. "You know I'm all but certain. I only
don't say so because--"

"Let it be at that," said Dick. "It's my risk, isn't it?"


When he had left her at last, she sat on perfectly still in the same
place. The robin had given it up in despair: this human creature was not
going to scratch garden-paths as she sometimes did, and disclose rich
worms and small fat maggots. But a cat had come out instead and was now
pacing with stiff forelegs, lowered head and trailing tail, across the
sunny grass, endeavoring to give an impression that he was bent on some
completely remote business of his own.

He paused at the edge of the shadow and eyed the girl malignantly.

"Wow!" said the cat.

There was no response.

"Wow!" said the cat.

Jenny roused herself.

"Wow!" said Jenny meditatively.

"Wow!" said the cat, walking on.

"Wow!" said Jenny.

Again there was a long silence.

"Wow!" said Jenny indignantly.

The cat turned a slow head sideways as he began to cross the path, but
said nothing. He waited for another entreaty, but Jenny paid no more
attention. As he entered the yews he turned once more.

"Wow!" said the cat, almost below his breath.

But Jenny made no answer. The cat cast one venomous look and

       *       *       *       *       *

Then there came out a dog--a small brown and black animal, very sturdy
on his legs, and earnest and independent in air and manner. He was the
illegitimate offspring of a fox-terrier. He trotted briskly across from
the direction of the orchard, diagonally past Jenny. As he crossed the
trail of the cat he paused, smelt, and followed it up for a yard or two,
till he identified for certain that it proceeded from an acquaintance;
then he turned to resume his journey. The movement attracted the girl's

"Lama!" called Jenny imperiously. "Come here this instant!"

Lama put his head on one side, nodded and smiled at her indulgently, and
trotted on.

       *       *       *       *       *

"Oh, dear me!" said Jenny, sighing out loud.



There lived (and still lives, I believe) in the small Yorkshire village
of Tarfield a retired doctor, entirely alone except for his servants, in
a large house. It is a very delightful house, only--when I stayed there
not long ago--it seemed to me that the doctor did not know how to use
it. It stands in its own grounds of two or three acres, on the
right-hand side of the road to a traveler going north, separated by a
row of pollarded limes from the village street, and approached--or,
rather, supposed to be approached--by a Charles II. gate of iron-scroll
work. I say "supposed to be approached" because the gate is invariably
kept locked, and access can only be gained to the house through the side
gate from the stable-yard. The grounds were abominably neglected when I
saw them; grass was growing on every path, and as fine a crop of weeds
surged up amongst the old autumn flowers as ever I have seen. The house,
too, was a sad sight. There here two big rooms, one on either side of
the little entrance-hall--one a dining-room, the other a sort of
drawing-room--and both were dreary and neglected-looking places. In the
one the doctor occasionally ate, in the other he never sat except when a
rare visitor came to see him, and the little room supposed to be a study
at the foot of the stairs in the inner hall that led through the kitchen
was hardly any better. I was there, I say, last autumn, and the
condition of the place must have been very much the same as that in
which it was when Frank came to Tarfield in October.

For the fact was that the doctor--who was possessed of decent private
means--devoted the whole of his fortune, the whole of his attention, and
the whole of his life--such as it was--to the study of toxins upstairs.

Toxins, I understand, have something to do with germs. Their study
involves, at any rate at present, a large stock of small animals, such
as mice and frogs and snakes and guinea-pigs and rabbits, who are given
various diseases and then studied with loving attention. I saw the
doctor's menagerie when I went to see him about Frank; they were chiefly
housed in a large room over the kitchen, communicating with the doctor's
own room by a little old powder-closet with two doors, and the smell was
indescribable. Ranks of cages and boxes rose almost to the ceiling, and
in the middle of the room was a large business-like looking wooden
kitchen-table with various appliances on it. I saw the doctor's room
also--terribly shabby, but undoubtedly a place of activity. There were
piles of books and unbound magazines standing about in corners, with
more on the table, as well as a heap of note-books. An array of glass
tubes and vary-colored bottles stood below the window, with a
microscope, and small wooden boxes on one side. And there was, besides,
something which I think he called an "incubator"--a metal affair,
standing on four slender legs; a number of glass tubes emerged from
this, each carefully stoppered with cotton wool, and a thermometer
thrust itself up in one corner.

A really high degree of proficiency in any particular subject invariably
leads to atrophy in other directions. A man who eats and breathes and
dreams Toxins, for instance, who lives so much in Toxins that he
corresponds almost daily with learned and unintelligible Germans; who
knows so much about Toxins that when he enters, with shabby trousers and
a small hand-bag, into the room of a polished specialist in Harley
Street, he sees as in a dream the specialist rise and bow before
him--who, when he can be persuaded to contribute a short and highly
technical article to a medical magazine, receives a check for
twenty-five guineas by return of post--a man of this kind is peculiarly
open to the danger of thinking that anything which cannot be expressed
in terms of Toxin is negligible nonsense. It is the characteristic
danger of every specialist in every branch of knowledge; even
theologians are not wholly immune.

It was so in the case of Dr. Whitty (I forget all the initials that
should follow his name). He had never been married, he never took any
exercise; occasionally, when a frog's temperature approached a crisis,
he slept in his clothes, and forgot to change them in the morning. And
he was the despair of the zealous vicar. He was perfectly convinced
that, since the force that underlay the production of Toxins could
accomplish so much, it could surely accomplish everything. He could
reduce his roses, his own complexion, the grass on his garden-paths, the
condition of his snakes', and frogs' skins, and the texture of his
kitchen-table--if you gave him time--to terms of Toxin; therefore,
argued Dr. Whitty, you could, if you had more time, reduce everything
else to the same terms. There wasn't such a thing as a soul, of
course--it was a manifestation of a combination of Toxins (or
anti-Toxins, I forget which); there was no God--the idea of God was the
result of another combination of Toxins, akin to a belief in the former
illusion. Roughly speaking, I think his general position was that as
Toxins are a secretion of microbes (I am certain of that phrase,
anyhow), so thought and spiritual experiences and so forth are a
secretion of the brain. I know it sounded all very brilliant and
unanswerable and analogous to other things. He hardly ever took the
trouble to say all this; he was far too much interested in what he
already knew, or was just on the point of finding out, to treat of these
extravagant and complicated ramifications of his subject. When he really
got to know his mice and bats, as they deserved to be known, it might be
possible to turn his attention to other things. Meanwhile, it was
foolish and uneconomical. So here he lived, with a man-of-all-work and
his man's wife, and daily went from strength to strength in the
knowledge of Toxins.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was to this household that there approached, in the month of October,
a small and dismal procession of three.

The doctor was first roused to a sense of what was happening as he
shuffled swiftly through his little powder-closet one morning soon after
breakfast, bearing in his hand the corpse of a mouse which had at last,
and most disappointingly, succumbed to a severe attack of some hybrid of
leprosy. As he flew through to his microscope he became aware of an
altercation in the stable-yard beneath.

"I tell you he ain't a proper doctor," he heard his man explaining; "he
knows nothing about them things."

"My good fellow," began a high, superior voice out of sight; but Dr.
Whitty swept on, and was presently deep in indescribable disgustingness
of the highest possible value to the human race, especially in the South
Seas. Time meant nothing at all to him, when this kind of work was in
hand; and it was after what might be an hour or two hours, or ten
minutes, that he heard a tap on his door.

He uttered a sound without moving his eye, and the door opened.

"Very sorry, sir," said his man, "but there's a party in the yard as

The doctor held up his hand for silence, gazed a few moments longer,
poked some dreadful little object two or three times, sighed and sat


"There's a party in the yard, sir, wants a doctor."

(This sort of thing had happened before.)

"Tell them to be off," he said sharply. He was not an unkindly man, but
this sort of thing was impossible. "Tell them to go to Dr. Foster."

"I 'ave, sir," said the man.

"Tell them again," said the doctor.

"I 'ave, sir. 'Arf a dozen times."

The doctor sighed--he was paying practically no attention at all, of
course. The leprous mouse had been discouraging; that was all.

"If you'd step down, sir, an instant--"

The doctor returned from soaring through a Toxined universe.

"Nonsense," he said sharply. "Tell them I'm not practicing. What do they

"Please, sir, it's a young man as 'as poisoned 'is foot, 'e says. 'E
looks very bad, and--"

"Eh? Poison?"

"Yes, sir."

The doctor appeared to reflect a moment (that mouse, you know--); then
he recovered.

"I'll be down directly," he said almost mechanically. "Take 'em all into
the study."


Dr. Whitty could hardly explain to me, even when he tried, exactly why
he had made an exception in this particular instance. Of course, I
understand perfectly myself why he did; but, for himself, all he could
say was that he supposed the word Poison happened to meet his mood. He
had honestly done with the mouse just now; he had no other very critical
case, and he thought he might as well look at the poisoned young man
for an instant, before finally despatching him to Dr. Foster, six miles
further on.

When he came into the study ten minutes later he found the party ranged
to meet him. A girl was sitting on a box in the corner by the window,
and stood up to receive him; a young man was sitting back in a Windsor
chair, with one boot off, jerking spasmodically; his eyes stared
unmeaningly before him. A tallish, lean man of a particularly
unprepossessing appearance was leaning over him with an air of immense
solicitude. They were all three evidently of the tramp-class.

What they saw--with the exception of Frank, I expect, who was too far
gone to notice anything--was a benignant-looking old man, very shabby,
in an alpaca jacket, with a rusty velvet cap on his head, and very
bright short-sighted eyes behind round spectacles. This figure appeared
in the doorway, stood looking at them a moment, as if bewildered as to
why he or they were there at all; and then, with a hasty shuffling
movement, darted across the floor and down on his knees.

The following colloquy was held as soon as the last roll of defiled
bandage had dropped to the floor, and Frank's foot was disclosed.

"How long's this been going on?" asked the doctor sharply, holding the
discolored thing carefully in his two hands.

"Well, sir," said the Major reflectively, "he began to limp about--let's
see--four days ago. We were coming through--"

The doctor, watching Frank's face curiously (the spasm was over for the
present), cut the Major short by a question to the patient.

"Now, my boy, how d'you feel now?"

Frank's lips moved; he seemed to be trying to lick them; but he said
nothing, and his eyes closed, and he grinned once or twice, as if

"When did these spasms begin?" went on the doctor, abruptly turning to
the Major again.

"Well, sir--if you mean that jerking--Frankie began to jerk about half
an hour ago when we were sitting down a bit; but he's seemed queer since
breakfast. And he didn't seem to be able to eat properly."

"How do you mean? D'you mean he couldn't open his mouth?"

"Well, sir, it was something like that."

The doctor began to make comments in a rapid undertone, as if talking to
himself; he pressed his hand once or twice against Frank's stomach; he
took up the filthy bandage and examined it. Then he looked at the boot.

"Where's the sock?" he asked sharply.

Gertie produced it from a bundle. He looked at it closely, and began to
mumble again. Then he rose to his feet.

"What's the matter with him, doctor?" asked the Major, trying to look

"We call it tetanus," said the doctor.

"Who are you, my man?" he said. "Any relation?"

The Major looked at him loftily.

"No, sir.... I am his friend."

"Ha! Then you must leave your friend in my charge. He shall be well in a
week at the latest."

The Major was silent.

"Well?" snapped the doctor.

"I understood from your servant, sir--"

"You speak like an educated man."

"I am an educated man."

"Ha--well--no business of mine. What were you about to say?"

"I understood from your servant, sir, that this was not quite in your
line; and since--"

The specialist smiled grimly. He snatched up a book from a pile on the
table, thrust open the title-page and held it out.

"Read that, sir.... As it happens, it's my hobby. Go and ask Dr.
Foster, if you like.... No, sir; I must have your friend; it's a good
sound case."

The Major read the title-page in a superior manner. It purported to be
by a James Whitty, and the name was followed by a series of distinctions
and of the initials, which I have forgotten. F.R.S. were the first.

"My name," said the doctor.

The Major handed the book back with a bow.

"I am proud to make your acquaintance, Dr. Whitty. I have heard of you.
May I present Mrs. Trustcott?"

Gertie looked confused. The doctor made a stiff obeisance. Then his face
became animated again.

"We must move your friend upstairs," he said. "If you will help, Mr.
Trustcott, I will call my servant."


It was about half-past nine that night that the doctor, having rung the
bell in the spare bedroom, met his man at the threshold.

"I'll sleep in this room to-night," he said; "you can go to bed. Bring
in a mattress, will you?"

The man looked at his master's face. (He looked queer-like, reported
Thomas later to his wife.)

"Hope the young man's doing well, sir?"

A spasm went over the doctor's face.

"Most extraordinary young man in the world," he said.... Then he broke
off. "Bring the mattress at once, Thomas. Then you can go to bed."

He went back and closed the door.

       *       *       *       *       *

Thomas had seldom seen his master so perturbed over a human being
before. He wondered what on earth was the matter. During the few minutes
that he was in the room he looked at the patient curiously, and he
noticed that the doctor was continually looking at him too. Thomas
described to me Frank's appearance. He was very much flushed, he said,
with very bright eyes, and he was talking incessantly. And it was
evidently this delirious talking that had upset the doctor. I tried to
get out of Doctor Whitty what it was that Frank had actually said, but
the doctor shut up his face tight and would say nothing. Thomas was more
communicative, though far from adequate.

It was about religion, he said, that Frank was talking--about
religion.... And that was really about all that he could say of that

Thomas awoke about one o'clock that night, and, still with the
uneasiness that he had had earlier in the evening, climbed out of bed
without disturbing his wife, put on his slippers and great-coat and made
his way down the attic stairs. The October moon was up, and, shining
through the staircase window, showed him the door of the spare bedroom
with a line of light beneath it. From beyond that door came the steady
murmur of a voice....

Now Thomas's nerves were strong: he was a little lean kind of man, very
wiry and active, nearly fifty years old, and he had lived with his
master, and the mice and the snakes, and disagreeable objects in
bottles, for more than sixteen years. He had been a male nurse in an
asylum before that. Yet there was something--he told me later--that
gripped him suddenly as he was half-way down the stairs and held him in
a kind of agony which he could in no way describe. It was connected with
the room behind that lighted door. It was not that he feared for his
master, nor for Frank. It was something else altogether. (What a pity it
is that our system of education teaches neither self-analysis nor the
art of narration!)

He stood there--he told me--he should think for the better part of ten
minutes, unable to move either way, listening, always listening, to the
voice that rose and sank and lapsed now and then into silences that
were worse than all, and telling himself vigorously that he was not at
all frightened.

It was a creak somewhere in the old house that disturbed him and snapped
the thin, rigid little thread that seemed to paralyze his soul; and
still in a sort of terror, though no longer in the same stiff agony, he
made his way down the three or four further steps of the flight, laid
hold of the handle, turned it and peered in.

Frank was lying quiet so far as he could see. A night-light burned by
the bottles and syringes on the table at the foot of the bed, and,
although shaded from the young man's face, still diffused enough light
to shoes the servant the figure lying there, and his master, seated
beyond the bed, very close to it, still in his day-clothes--still, even,
in his velvet cap--his chin propped in his hand, staring down at his
patient, utterly absorbed and attentive.

There was nothing particularly alarming in all that, and yet there was
that in the room which once more seized the man at his heart and held
him there, rigid again, terrified, and, above all, inexpressibly awed.
(At least, that is how I should interpret his description.) He said that
it wasn't like the spare bedroom at all, as he ordinarily knew it (and,
indeed, it was a mean sort of room when I saw it, without a fireplace,
though of tolerable size). It was like another room altogether, said

He tried to listen to what Frank was saying, and I imagine he heard it
all quite intelligently; yet, once more, all he could say afterwards was
that it was about religion ... about religion....

So he stood, till he suddenly perceived that the doctor was looking at
him with a frown and contorted features of eloquence. He understood that
he was to go. He closed the door noiselessly; and, after another pause,
sped upstairs without a sound in his red cloth slippers.


When Frank awoke to normal consciousness again, he lay still, wondering
what it was all about. He saw a table at the foot of his bed and noticed
on it a small leather case, two green bottles stoppered with
india-rubber, and a small covered bowl looking as if it contained
beef-tea. He extended his explorations still further, and discovered an
Hanoverian wardrobe against the left wall, a glare of light (which he
presently discerned to be a window), a dingy wall-paper, and finally a
door. As he reached this point the door opened and an old man with a
velvet skull-cap, spectacles, and a kind, furrowed face, came in and
stood over him.

"Well?" said the old man.

"I am a bit stiff," said Frank.

"Are you hungry?"

"I don't think so."

"Well, you're doing very well, if that's any satisfaction to you,"
observed the doctor, frowning on him doubtfully.

Frank said nothing.

The doctor sat down on a chair by the bed that Frank suddenly noticed
for the first time.

"Well," said the doctor, "I suppose you want to know the facts. Here
they are. My name is Whitty; I'm a doctor; you're in my house. This is
Wednesday afternoon; your friends brought you here yesterday morning.
I've given them some work in the garden. You were ill yesterday, but
you're all right now."

"What was the matter?"

"We won't bother about names," said the doctor with a kind sharpness.
"You had a blister; it broke and became a sore; then you wore one of
those nasty cheap socks and it poisoned it. That's all."

"That's in those bottles?" asked Frank languidly. (He felt amazingly
weak and stupid.)

"Well, it's an anti-toxin," said the doctor. "That doesn't tell you
much, does it?"

"No," said Frank.... "By the way, who's going to pay you, doctor? I

The doctor's face rumpled up into wrinkles. (Frank wished he wouldn't
sit with his back to the window.)

"Don't you bother about that, my boy. You're a case--that's what you

Frank attempted a smile out of politeness.

"Now, how about some more beef-tea, and then going to sleep again?"

Frank assented.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was not until the Thursday morning that things began to run really
clear again in Frank's mind. He felt for his rosary under his pillow and
it wasn't there. Then he thumped on the floor with a short stick which
had been placed by him, remembering that in some previous existence he
had been told to do this.

A small, lean man appeared at the door, it seemed, with the quickness of

"My rosary, please," said Frank. "It's a string of beads. I expect it's
in my trouser-pocket."

The man looked at him with extraordinary earnestness and vanished.

Then the doctor appeared holding the rosary.

"Is this what you want?" he asked.

"That's it! Thanks very much."

"You're a Catholic?" went on the other, giving it him.


The doctor sat down again.

"I thought so," he said.

Frank wondered why. Then a thought crossed his mind.

"Have I been talking?" he said. "I suppose I was delirious?"

The doctor made no answer for a moment; he was looking at him fixedly.
Then he roused himself.

"Well, yes, you have," he said.

Frank felt rather uncomfortable.

"Hope I haven't said anything I shouldn't."

The old man laughed shortly and grimly.

"Oh, no," he said. "Far from it. At least, your friends wouldn't think

"What was it about?"

"We'll talk about that later, if you like," said the doctor. "Now I want
you to get up a bit after you've had some food."

       *       *       *       *       *

It was with a very strange sensation that Frank found himself out in the
garden next day, in a sheltered corner, seated in a wicker chair in
which, by the help of bamboo poles, he had been carried downstairs by
Thomas and the Major, with the doctor leading the way and giving
directions as to how to turn the corners. The chair was brought out
through an irregularly-shaped little court at the back of the house and
set down in the warm autumn noon, against an old wall, with a big
kitchen garden, terribly neglected, spread before him. The smoke of
burning went up in the middle distance, denoting the heap of weeds
pulled by the Major and Gertie during the last three days. He saw Gertie
in the distance once or twice, in a clean sun-bonnet, going about her
business, but she made no sign. The smell of the burning weeds gave a
pleasant, wholesome and acrid taste to his mouth.

"Now then," said the doctor, "we can have our little talk." And he sat
down beside him on another chair.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank felt a little nervous, he scarcely knew why. It seemed to him that
it would be far better not to refer to the past at all. And it appeared
to him a little unusual that a doctor should be so anxious about it.
Twice or three times since yesterday this old man had begun to ask him a
question and had checked himself. There was a very curious eagerness
about him now.

"I'm awfully grateful and all that," said Frank. "Is there anything
special you want to know? I suppose I've been talking about my people?"

The doctor waved a wrinkled hand.

"No, no," he said, "not a word. You talked about a girl a little, of
course--everybody does; but not much. No, it isn't that."

Frank felt relieved. He wasn't anxious about anything else.

"I'm glad of that. By the way, may I smoke?"

The doctor produced a leather case of cigarettes and held it out.

"Take one of these," he said.

"Because," continued Frank, "I'm afraid I mustn't talk about my people.
The name I've got now is Gregory, you know." He lit his cigarette,
noticing how his fingers still shook, and dropped the match.

"No, it's not about that," said the doctor; "it's not about that."

Frank glanced at him, astonished by his manner.

"Well, then--?" he began.

"I want to know first," said the doctor slowly, "where you've got all
your ideas from. I've never heard such a jumble in my life. I know you
were delirious; but ... but it hung together somehow; and it seemed much
more real to you than anything else."

"What did?" asked Frank uncomfortably.

The doctor made no answer for a moment. He looked out across the untidy
garden with its rich, faded finery of wild flowers and autumn leaves,
and the yellowing foliage beyond the wall, and the moors behind--all
transfigured in October sunshine. The smoke of the burning weeds drew
heavenly lines and folds of ethereal lace-work across the dull splendors

"Well," he said at last, "everything. You know I've heard hundreds and
hundreds of folks ..." he broke off again, "... and I know what people
call religion about here--and such a pack of nonsense ..." (He turned on
Frank again suddenly.) "Where d'you get your ideas from?"

"Do you mean the Catholic religion?" said Frank.

"Bah! don't call it that. I know what that is--" Frank interrupted him.

"Well, that's my religion," he said. "I haven't got any other."

"But ... but the way you hold it," cried the other; "the grip ... the
grip it has of you. That's the point. D'you mean to tell me--"

"I mean that I don't care for anything else in the whole world," said
Frank, stung with sudden enthusiasm.

"But ... but you're not mad! You're a very sensible, fellow. You don't
mean to tell me you really believe all that--all that about pain and so
on? We doctors know perfectly what all that is. It's a reaction of
Nature ... a warning to look out ... it's often simply the effects of
building up; and we're beginning to think--ah! that won't interest you!
Listen to me! I'm what they call a specialist--an investigator. I can
tell you, without conceit, that I probably know all that is to be known
on a certain subject. Well, I can tell you as an authority--"

Frank lifted his head a little. He was keenly interested by the fire
with which this other enthusiast spoke.

"I daresay you can," said Frank. "And I daresay it's all perfectly true;
but what in the world has all that got to do with it--with the use made
of it--the meaning of it? Now I--"

"Hush! hush!" said the doctor. "We mustn't get excited. That's no good."

He stopped and stared mournfully out again.

"I wish you could really tell me," he said more slowly. "But that's just
what you can't. I know that. It's a personal thing."

"But my dear doctor--" said Frank.

"That's enough," said the other. "I was an old fool to think it

Frank interrupted again in his turn. (He was conscious of that
extraordinary mental clearness that comes sometimes to convalescents,
and he suddenly perceived there was something behind all this which had
not yet made its appearance.)

"You've some reason for asking all this," he said. "I wish you'd tell me
exactly what's in your mind."

The old man turned and looked at him with a kind of doubtful fixedness.

"Why do you say that, my boy?"

"People like you," said Frank smiling, "don't get excited over people
like me, unless there's something.... I was at Cambridge, you know. I
know the dons there, and--"

"Well, I'll tell you," said the doctor, drawing a long breath. "I hadn't
meant to. I know it's mere nonsense; but--" He stopped an instant and
called aloud: "Thomas! Thomas!"

Thomas's lean head, like a bird's, popped out from a window in the
kitchen court behind.

"Come here a minute."

Thomas came and stood before them with a piece of wash-leather in one
hand and a plated table-spoon in the other.

"I want you to tell this young gentleman," said the doctor
deliberately, "what you told me on Wednesday morning."

Thomas looked doubtfully from one to the other.

"It was my fancy, sir," he said.

"Never mind about that. Tell us both."

"Well, sir, I didn't like it. Seemed to me when I looked in--"

("He looked in on us in the middle of the night," explained the doctor.
"Yes, go on, Thomas.")

"Seemed to me there was something queer."

"Yes?" said the doctor encouragingly.

"Something queer," repeated Thomas musingly.... "And now if you'll
excuse me, sir, I'll have to get back--"

The doctor waved his hands despairingly as Thomas scuttled back without
another word.

"It's no good," he said, "no good. And yet he told me quite

Frank was laughing quietly to himself.

"But you haven't told me one word--"

"Don't laugh," said the old man simply. "Look here, my boy, it's no
laughing matter. I tell you I can't think of anything else. It's
bothering me."


The doctor waved his hands.

"Well," he said, "I can say it no better. It was the whole thing. The
way you looked, the way you spoke. It was most unusual. But it affected
me--it affected me in the same way; and I thought that perhaps you could


It was not until the Monday afternoon that Frank persuaded the doctor to
let him go. Dr. Whitty said everything possible, in his emphatic way, as
to the risk of traveling again too soon; and there was one scene,
actually conducted in the menagerie--the only occasion on which the
doctor mentioned Frank's relations--during which he besought the young
man to be sensible, and to allow him to communicate with his family.
Frank flatly refused, without giving reasons.

The doctor seemed strangely shy of referring again to the conversation
in the garden; and, for his part, Frank shut up like a box. They seem
both to have been extraordinarily puzzled at one another--as such people
occasionally are. They were as two persons, both intelligent and
interested, entirely divided by the absence of any common language, or
even of symbols. Words that each used meant different things to the
other. (It strikes me sometimes that the curse of Babel was a deeper
thing than appears on the surface.)

The Major and Gertie, all this while, were in clover. The doctor had no
conception of what six hours' manual work could or could not do, and, in
return for these hours, he made over to the two a small disused
gardener's cottage at the end of his grounds, some bedding, their meals,
and a shilling the day. It was wonderful how solicitous the Major was as
to Frank's not traveling again until it was certain he was capable of
it; but Frank had acquired a somewhat short and decisive way with his
friend, and announced that Monday night must see them all cleared out.

The leave-taking--so far as I have been able to gather--was rather
surprisingly emotional. The doctor took Frank apart into the study where
he had first seen him, and had a short conversation, during which one
sovereign finally passed from the doctor to the patient.

I have often tried to represent to myself exactly what elements there
were in Frank that had such an effect upon this wise and positive old
man. He had been a very upsetting visitor in many ways. He had
distracted his benefactor from a very important mouse that had died of
leprosy; he had interfered sadly with working hours; he had turned the
house, comparatively speaking, upside down. Worse than all, he had--I
will not say modified the doctor's theories--that would be far too
strong a phrase; but he had, quite unconsciously, run full tilt against
them; and finally, worst of all, he had done this right in the middle of
the doctor's own private preserve. There was absolutely every element
necessary to explain Frank's remarks during his delirium; he was a
religiously-minded boy, poisoned by a toxin and treated by the
anti-toxin. What in the world could be expected but that he should rave
in the most fantastic way, and utter every mad conception and idea that
his subjective self contained. As for that absurd fancy of the doctor
himself, as well as of his servant that there was "something queer" in
the room--the more he thought of it, the less he valued it. Obviously it
was the result of a peculiar combination of psychological conditions,
just as psychological conditions were themselves the result of an
obscure combination of toxin--or anti-toxin--forces.

Yet for all that, argue as one may, the fact remained that this dry and
rather misanthropic scientist was affected in an astonishing manner by
Frank's personality. (It will appear later on in Frank's history that
the effect was more or less permanent.)

Still more remarkable to my mind was the very strong affection that
Frank conceived for the doctor. (There is no mystery coming: the doctor
will not ultimately turn out to be Frank's father in disguise; Lord
Talgarth still retains that distinction.) But it is plainly revealed by
Frank's diary that he was drawn to this elderly man by very much the
same kind of feelings as a son might have. And yet it is hardly possible
to conceive two characters with less in common. The doctor was a
dogmatic materialist--and remains so still--Frank was a Catholic. The
doctor was scientific to his finger-tips--Frank romantic to the same
extremities; the doctor was old and a confirmed stay-at-home--Frank was
young, and an incorrigible gipsy. Yet so the matter was. I have certain
ideas of my own, but there is no use in stating them, beyond saying
perhaps that each recognized in the other--sub-consciously only, since
each professed himself utterly unable to sympathize in the smallest
degree with the views of the other--a certain fixity of devotion that
was the driving-force in each life. Certainly, on the surface, there are
not two theories less unlike than the one which finds the solution of
all things in Toxin, and the other which finds it in God. But perhaps
there is a reconciliation somewhere.

       *       *       *       *       *

The Major and Gertie were waiting in the stable-yard when the two other
men emerged. The Major had a large bag of apples--given him by Thomas at
the doctor's orders--which he was proceeding to add to Gertie's load at
the very moment when the two others came out. Frank took them, without a
word, and slung them over his own back.

The doctor stood blinking a moment in the strong sunshine.

"Well, good-by, my boy," he said. "Good luck! Remember that if ever you
come this way again--"

"Good-by, sir," said Frank.

He held out his disengaged hand.

Then an astonishing thing happened. The doctor took the hand, then
dropped it; threw his arms round the boy's neck, kissed him on both
cheeks, and hurried back through the garden gate, slamming it behind
him. And I imagine he ran upstairs at once to see how the mice were.

       *       *       *       *       *

Well, that is the whole of the incident. The two haven't met since, that
I am aware. And I scarcely know why I have included it in this book. But
I was able to put it together from various witnesses, documentary and
personal, and it seemed a pity to leave it out.



An enormous physical weariness settled down on Frank, as he trudged
silently with the Major, towards evening, a week later.

He had worked all the previous day in a farm-yard--carting manure, and
the like; and though he was perfectly well again, some of the spring had
ebbed from his muscles during his week's rest. This day, too, the first
of November, had been exhausting. They had walked since daybreak, after
a wretched night in a barn, plodding almost in silence, mile after mile,
against a wet south-west wind, over a discouraging kind of high-road
that dipped and rose and dipped again, and never seemed to arrive

It is true that Frank was no longer intensely depressed; quite another
process had been at work upon him for the last two or three months, as
will be seen presently; but his limbs seemed leaden, and the actual
stiffness in his shoulders and loins made walking a little difficult.

They were all tired together. They did not say much to one another.
They had, in fact, said all that there was to be said months ago; and
they were reduced--as men always are reduced when a certain pitch is
reached--to speak simply of the most elementary bodily things--food,
tobacco and sleep. The Major droned on now and then--recalling luxuries
of past days--actual roofs over the head, actual hot meat to put in the
mouth, actual cigars--and Frank answered him. Gertie said nothing.

       *       *       *       *       *

She made up for it, soon after dark had fallen, by quite suddenly
collapsing into a hedge, and announcing that she would die if she didn't
rest. The Major made the usual remarks, and she made no answer.

Frank interposed suddenly.

"Shut up," he said. "We can't stop here. I'll go on a bit and see what
can be done."

And, as he went off into the darkness, leaving his bundle, he heard the
scolding voice begin again, but it was on a lower key and he knew it
would presently subside into a grumble, soothed by tobacco.

       *       *       *       *       *

He had no idea as to the character of the road that lay before him. They
had passed through a few villages that afternoon, whose names meant
nothing to him, and he scarcely knew why, even, they were going along
this particular road. They were moving southwards towards London--so
much had been agreed--and they proposed to arrive there in another month
or so. But the country was unfamiliar to him, and the people seemed
grudging and uncouth. They had twice been refused the use of an outhouse
for the night, that afternoon.

It seemed an extraordinarily deserted road. There were no lights from
houses, so far as he could make out, and the four miles that had been
declared at their last stopping-place to separate them from the next
village appeared already more like five or six. Certainly the three of
them had between two and three shillings, all told; there was no actual
need of a workhouse just yet, but naturally it was wished to spend as
little as possible.

Then on a sudden he caught a glimpse of a light burning somewhere, that
appeared and vanished again as he moved, and fifty yards more brought
him to a wide sweep, a pair of gate-posts with the gate fastened back,
and a lodge on the left-hand side. So much he could make out dimly
through the November darkness; and as he stood there hesitating, he
thought he could see somewhere below him a few other lights burning
through the masses of leafless trees through which the drive went

He knew very well by experience that lodge-keepers were, taken
altogether, perhaps the most unsympathetic class in the community. (They
live, you see, right on the high road, and see human nature at its
hottest and crossest as well as its most dishonest.) Servants at back
doors were, as a rule, infinitely more obliging; and, as obviously this
was the entrance to some big country house, the right thing to do would
be to steal past the lodge on tiptoe and seek his fortune amongst the
trees. Yet he hesitated; the house might be half a mile away, for all he
knew; and, certainly there was a hospitable look about the fastened-back

There came a gust of wind over the hills behind him, laden with wet....
He turned, went up to the lodge door and knocked.

He could hear someone moving about inside, and just as he was beginning
to wonder whether his double tap had been audible, the door opened and
disclosed a woman in an apron.

"Can you very kindly direct me--" began Frank politely.

The woman jerked her head sharply in the direction of the house.

"Straight down the hill," she said. "Them's the orders."


It was no good; the door was shut again in his face, and he stood alone
in the dark.

This was all very unusual. Lodge-keepers did not usually receive
"orders" to send tramps, without credentials, on to the house which the
lodge was supposed to guard.... That open gate, then, must have been
intentional. Plainly, however, he must take her at her word; and as he
tramped down the drive, he began to form theories. It must be a fanatic
of some kind who lived here, and he inclined to consider the owner as
probably an eccentric old lady with a fad, and a large number of

As he came nearer, through the trees, he became still more astonished,
for as the branches thinned, he became aware of lights burning at such
enormous distances apart that the building seemed more like a village
than a house.

Straight before him shone a row of lighted squares, high up, as if hung
in air, receding in perspective, till blocked out by a black mass which
seemed a roof of some kind; far on the left shone some kind of
illuminated gateway, and to his right another window or two glimmered
almost beneath his feet.

Another fifty yards down the winding drive disclosed a sight that made
him seriously wonder whether the whole experience were real, for now
only a few steps further on, and still lower than the level at which he
was, stood, apparently, a porter's lodge, as of a great college. There
was a Tudor archway, with rooms above it and rooms on either side; a
lamp hung from the roof illuminated the dry stone pavement within, and
huge barred gates at the further end, shut off all other view. It looked
like the entrance to some vast feudal castle, and he thought again that
if an eccentric old lady lived here, she must be very eccentric indeed.
He began to wonder whether a seneschal in a belt hung with keys would
presently make his appearance: he considered whether or not he could
wind a horn, if there were no other way of summoning the retainers.

When at last he tapped at a small interior door, also studded and barred
with iron, and the door opened, the figure he did see was hardly less of
a shock to him than a seneschal would have been.

For there stood, as if straight out of a Christmas number, the figure of
a monk, tall, lean, with gray hair, clean-shaven, with a pair of merry
eyes and a brisk manner. He wore a broad leather band round his black
frock, and carried his spare hand thrust deep into it.


The monk sighed humorously.

"Another of them," he said. "Well, my man?"

"Please, father--"

The monk closed his eyes as in resignation.

"You needn't try that on," he said. "Besides, I'm not a father. I'm a
brother. Can you remember that?"

Frank smiled back.

"Very well, brother. I'm a Catholic myself."

"Ah! yes," sighed the monk briskly. "That's what they all say. Can you
say the 'Divine Praises'? Do you know what they are?... However, that
makes no difference, as--"

"But I can, brother. 'Blessed be God. Blessed be His--"

"But you're not Irish?"

"I know I'm not. But--"

"Are you an educated man? However, that's not my affair. What can I do
for you, sir?"

The monk seemed to take a little more interest in him, and Frank took

"Yes," he said, "I'm an educated man. My name's Frank Gregory. I've got
two friends out on the road up there--a man and a woman. Their name's
Trustcott--and the woman--"

"No good; no good," said the monk. "No women."

"But, brother, she really can't go any further. I'm very sorry, but we
simply must have shelter. We've got two or three shillings, if

"Oh, you have, have you?" said the monk keenly. "That's quite new. And
when did you touch food last? Yesterday morning? (Don't say 'S'elp me!'
It's not necessary.)"

"We last touched food about twelve o'clock to-day. We had beans and cold
bacon," said Frank deliberately. "We're perfectly willing to pay for
shelter and food, if we're obliged. But, of course, we don't want to."

The monk eyed him very keenly indeed a minute or two without speaking.
This seemed a new type.

"Come in and sit down a minute," he said. "I'll fetch the guest-master."

It was a very plain little room in which Frank sat, and seemed designed,
on purpose, to furnish no temptation to pilferers. There was a table,
two chairs, a painted plaster statue of a gray-bearded man in black
standing on a small bracket with a crook in his hand; a pious book, much
thumb-marked, lay face downwards on the table beside the oil lamp. There
was another door through which the monk had disappeared, and that was
absolutely all. There was no carpet and no curtains, but a bright little
coal fire burned on the hearth, and two windows looked, one up the drive
down which Frank had come, and the other into some sort of courtyard on
the opposite side.

About ten minutes passed away without anything at all happening. Frank
heard more than one gust of rain-laden wind dash against the little
barred window to the south, and he wondered how his friends were getting
on. The Major, at any rate, he knew, would manage to keep himself
tolerably dry. Then he began to think about this place, and was
surprised that he was not surprised at running into it like this in the
dark. He knew nothing at all about monasteries--he hardly knew that
there were such things in England (one must remember that he had only
been a Catholic for about five months), and yet somehow, now that he had
come here, it all seemed inevitable. (I cannot put it better than that:
it is what he himself says in his diary.)

Then, as he meditated, the door opened, and there came in a thin,
eager-looking elderly man, dressed like the brother who followed him,
except that over his frock he wore a broad strip of black stuff,
something like a long loose apron, hanging from his throat to his feet,
and his head was enveloped in a black hood.

Frank stood up and bowed with some difficulty. He was beginning to feel

"Well," said the priest sharply, with his bright gray eyes, puckered at
the corners, running over and taking in the whole of Frank's figure from
close-cut hair to earthy boots. "Brother James tells me you wish to see

"It was Brother James who said so, father," said Frank.

"What is it you want?"

"I've got two friends on the road who want shelter--man and woman. We'll
pay, if necessary, but--"

"Never mind about that," interrupted the priest sharply. "Who are you?"

"The name I go by is Frank Gregory."

"The name you go by, eh?... Where were you educated?"

"Eton and Cambridge."

"How do you come to be on the roads?"

"That's a long story, father."

"Did you do anything you shouldn't?"

"No. But I've been in prison since."

"And your name's Frank Gregory.... F.G., eh?"

Frank turned as if to leave. He understood that he was known.

"Well--good-night, father--"

The priest turned with upraised hand.

"Brother James, just step outside."

Then he continued as the door closed.

"You needn't go, Mr.--er--Gregory. Your name shall not be mentioned to a
living being without your leave."

"You know about me?"

"Of course I do.... Now be sensible, my dear fellow; go and fetch your
friends. We'll manage somehow." (He raised his voice and rapped on the
table.) "Brother James ... go up with Mr. Gregory to the porter's lodge.
Make arrangements to put the woman up somewhere, either there or in a
gardener's cottage. Then bring the man down here.... His name?"

"Trustcott," said Frank.

"And when you come back, I shall be waiting for you here."


Frank states in his diary that an extraordinary sense of familiarity
descended on him as, half an hour later, the door of a cell closed
behind Dom Hildebrand Maple, and he found himself in a room with a
bright fire burning, a suit of clothes waiting for him, a can of hot
water, a sponging tin and a small iron bed.

I think I understand what he means. Somehow or other a well-ordered
monastery represents the Least Common Multiple of nearly all pleasant
houses. It has the largeness and amplitude of a castle, and the
plainness of decent poverty. It has none of that theatricality which it
is supposed to have, none of the dreaminess or the sentimentality with
which Protestants endow it. He had passed just now through, first, a
network of small stairways, archways, vestibules and passages, and then
along two immense corridors with windows on one side and closed doors on
the other. Everywhere there was the same quiet warmth and decency and
plainness--stained deal, uncarpeted boards, a few oil pictures in the
lower corridor, an image or two at the turn and head of the stairs; it
was lighted clearly and unaffectedly by incandescent gas, and the only
figures he had seen were of two or three monks, with hooded heads (they
had raised these hoods slightly in salutation as he passed), each going
about his business briskly and silently. There was even a cheerful smell
of cooking at the end of one of the corridors, and he had caught a
glimpse of two or three aproned lay brothers, busy in the firelight and
glow of a huge kitchen, over great copper pans.

The sense of familiarity, then, is perfectly intelligible: a visitor to
a monastery steps, indeed, into a busy and well-ordered life, but there
is enough room and air and silence for him to preserve his individuality

       *       *       *       *       *

As soon as he was washed and dressed, he sat down in a chair before the
fire; but almost immediately there came a tap on his door, and the
somewhat inflamed face of the Major looked in.

"Frankie?" he whispered, and, reassured, came in and closed the door
behind. (He looked very curiously small and unimportant, thought Frank.
Perhaps it was the black suit that had been lent him.)

"By gad, Frankie ... we're in clover," he whispered, still apparently
under the impression that somehow he was in church. "There are some
other chaps, you know, off the roads too, but they're down by the lodge
somewhere." (He broke off and then continued.) "I've got such a queer
Johnnie in my room--ah! you've got one, too."

He went up to examine a small plaster statue of a saint above the

"It's all right, isn't it?" said Frank sleepily.

"And there's another Johnnie's name on the door. The Rev. S. Augustine,
or something."

He tip-toed back to the fire, lifted his tails, and stood warming
himself with a complacent but nervous smile.

(Frank regarded him with wonder.)

"What do all the Johnnies do here?" asked the Major presently. "Have a
rare old time, I expect. I bet they've got cellars under here all right.
Just like those chaps in comic pictures, ain't it?"

(Frank decided it was no use to try to explain.)

The Major babbled on a minute or two longer, requiring no answer, and
every now and then having his roving eye caught by some new marvel. He
fingered a sprig of yew that was twisted into a crucifix hung over the
bed. ("Expect it's one of those old relics," he said, "some lie or
other.") He humorously dressed up the statue of the saint in a
pocket-handkerchief, and said: "Let us pray," in a loud whisper, with
one eye on the door. And all the while there still lay on him apparently
the impression that if he talked loud or made any perceptible sound he
would be turned out again.

He was just beginning a few steps of a noiseless high-kicking dance when
there was a tap at the door, and he collapsed into an attitude of
weak-kneed humility. Dom Hildebrand came in.

"If you're ready," he said, "we might go down to supper."

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank relates in his diary that of all else in the monastery, apart from
the church, the refectory and its manners impressed him most. (How easy
it is to picture it when one has once seen the ceremonies!)

He sat at a center table, with the Major opposite (looking smaller than
ever), before a cloth laid with knife, spoon and forks. All round the
walls on a low daïs, with their backs against them, sat a row of perhaps
forty monks, of every age, kind and condition. The tables were bare
wood, laid simply with utensils and no cloths, with a napkin in each
place. At the end opposite the door there sat at a table all alone a
big, portly, kindly-faced man, of a startlingly fatherly appearance,
clean-shaven, gray-haired, and with fine features. This was the Abbot.
Above him hung a crucifix, with the single word "_Sitio_" beneath it on
a small black label.

The meal began, however, with the ceremony of singing grace. The rows of
monks stood out, with one in the middle, facing the Abbot, each with his
hood forward and his hands hidden in his scapular. It was sung to a
grave tone, with sudden intonations, by the united voices in
unison--blessing, response, collect, psalm and the rest. (Frank could
not resist one glance at the Major, whose face of consternation
resembled that of a bird in the company of sedate cats.)

Then each went to his place, and, noiselessly, the orderly meal began
and continued to the reading first of the gospel, and then of a history,
from a pulpit built high in the wall. All were served by lay brothers,
girded with aprons; almost every movement, though entirely natural,
seemed ordered by routine and custom, and was distinguished by a serious
sort of courtesy that made the taking of food appear, for once, as a
really beautiful, august, and almost sacramental ceremony. The great
hall, too, with its pointed roof, its tiled floor, its white-wood
scrubbed tables, and its tall emblazoned windows, seemed exactly the
proper background--a kind of secular sanctuary. The food was plain and
plentiful: soup, meat, cheese and fruit; and each of the two guests had
a small decanter of red wine, a tiny loaf of bread, and a napkin. The
monks drank beer or water.

Then once more followed grace, with the same ceremonial.

When this was ended, Frank turned to see where Father Hildebrand was,
supposing that all would go to their rooms; but as he turned he saw the
Abbot coming down alone. He moved on, this great man, with that same
large, fatherly air, but as he passed the two guests, he inclined
slightly towards them, and Frank, with a glance to warn the Major,
understanding that they were to follow, came out of his place and passed
down between the lines of the monks, still in silence.

The Abbot went on, turned to the right, and as he moved along the
cloister, loud sonorous chanting began behind. So they went, on and on,
up the long lighted corridor, past door after door, as in some church
procession. Yet all was obviously natural and familiar.

They turned in at last beneath an archway to the left, went through a
vestibule, past a great stone of a crowned Woman with a Child in her
arms, and as they entered the church, the Abbot dipped his finger into a
stoop and presented it to Frank. Frank touched the drop of water, made
the sign of the cross, and presented again his damp finger to the Major,
who looked at him with a startled eye.

The Abbot indicated the front row of the seats in the nave, and Frank
went into it, to watch the procession behind go past, flow up the steps,
and disappear into the double rows of great stalls that lined the choir.

There was still silence--and longer silence, till Frank understood....


His eyes grew accustomed to the gloom little by little, and he began to
be able to make out the magnificence of the place he was in. Behind him
stretched the immense nave, its roof and columns lost in darkness, its
sides faintly illuminated by the glimmer of single oil-lamps, each in a
small screened-off chapel. But in front of him was the greater splendor.

From side to side across the entrance to the choir ran the rood-screen,
a vast erection of brown oak and black iron, surmounted by a high loft,
from which glimmered down sheaves of silvered organ pipes, and, higher
yet, in deep shadow, he could make out three gigantic figures, of which
the center one was nailed to a cross. Beyond this began the stalls--dark
and majestic, broken by carving--jutting heads of kings and priests
leaning forward as if to breathe in the magnetism of that immense living
silence generated by forty men at their prayers. At the further end
there shone out faintly the glory of the High Altar, almost luminous, it
seemed, in the light of the single red spark that hung before it. Frank
could discern presently the gilded figures that stood among the
candlesticks behind, the throne and crucifix, the mysterious veiling
curtains of the Tabernacle.... Finally, in the midst of the choir,
stood a tall erection which he could not understand.

       *       *       *       *       *

An extraordinary peace seemed to descend and envelop him as he looked--a
kind of crown and climax of various interior experiences that were
falling on him now--for the last few weeks. (It is useless trying to put
it into words. I shall hope to do my best presently by quoting Frank
himself.) There was a sense of home-coming; there was a sense of
astonishing sanity; there was a sense of an enormous objective peace,
meeting and ratifying that interior peace which was beginning to be his.
It appeared to him, somehow, as if for the first time he experienced
without him that which up to now he had chiefly found within. Certainly
there had been moments of this before--not merely emotional, you
understand--when heart and head lay still from their striving, and the
will reposed in Another Will. But this was the climax: it summed up all
that he had learned in the last few months; it soothed the last scars
away, it explained and answered--and, above all, correlated--his
experiences. No doubt it was the physical, as well as the spiritual,
atmosphere of this place, the quiet corridors, the warmth and the
plainness and the solidity, even the august grace of the refectory--all
these helped and had part in the sensation. Yet, if it is possible for
you to believe it, these were no more than the vessels from which the
heavenly fluid streamed; vessels, rather, that contained a little of
that abundance that surged up here as in a fountain....

Frank started a little at a voice in his ear.

"When's it going to begin?" whispered the Major in a hoarse,
apprehensive voice.


A figure detached itself presently from the dark mass of the stalls and
came down to where they were sitting. Frank perceived it was Father

"We're singing Mattins of the Dead, presently," he said in a low voice.
"It's All Souls' Eve. Will you stay, or shall I take you to your room?"

The Major stood up with alacrity.

"I'll stay, if I may," said Frank.

"Very well. Then I'll take Mr. Trustcott upstairs."

       *       *       *       *       *

Half an hour later the ceremony began.

Here, I simply despair of description. I know something of what Frank
witnessed and perceived, for I have been present myself at this affair
in a religious house; but I do not pretend to be able to write it down.

First, however, there was the external, visible, audible service: the
catafalque, a bier-like erection, all black and yellow, guarded by
yellow flames on yellow candles--the grave movements, the almost
monstrous figures, the rhythm of the ceremonies, and the wail of, the
music of forty voices singing as one--all that is understood....

But the inner side of these things--the reverse of which these things
are but a coarse lining, the substance of which this is a shadow--that
is what passes words and transcends impressions.

It seemed to Frank that one section, at any rate, of that enormous truth
at which he had clutched almost blindly when he had first made his
submission to the Church--one chamber in that House of Life--was now
flung open before him, and he saw in it men as trees walking.... He was
tired and excited, of course; he was intensely imaginative; but there
are some experiences that a rise of temperature cannot explain and that
an imagination cannot originate....

For it seemed to him that here he was aware of an immeasurable need to
which those ministrations were addressed, and this whole was countless
in its units and clamant in its silence. It was as a man might see the
wall of his room roll away, beyond which he had thought only the night
to lie, and discern a thronging mass of faces crying for help, pressing
upon him, urging, yet all without sound or word. He attempts in his
diary to use phrases for all this--he speaks of a pit in which is no
water, of shadows and forms that writhe and plead, of a light of glass
mingled with fire; and yet of an inevitability, of a Justice which there
is no questioning and a Force that there is no resisting. And, on the
other side, there was this help given by men of flesh and blood like
himself--using ceremonies and gestures and strange resonant words....
The whole was as some enormous orchestra--there was the wail on this
side, the answer on that--the throb of beating hearts--there were
climaxes, catastrophes, soft passages, and yet the result was one vast
and harmonious whole.

It was the catafalque that seemed to him the veiled door to that other
world that so manifested itself--seen as he saw it in the light of the
yellow candles--it was as the awful portal of death itself; beneath that
heavy mantle lay not so much a Body of Humanity still in death, as a
Soul of Humanity alive beyond death, quick and yet motionless with pain.
And those figures that moved about it, with censor and aspersorium, were
as angels for tenderness and dignity and undoubted power. They were men
like himself, yet they were far more; and they, too, one day, like
himself, would pass beneath that pall and need the help of others that
should follow them....

       *       *       *       *       *

Something of this is but a hint of what Frank experienced; it came and
went, no doubt, in gusts, yet all through he seems to have felt that
sense that here was a door into that great watching world beyond--that
here, in what is supposed by the world to be the narrow constraint of
religion, was a liberty and an outlook into realities such as the open
road and nature can but seldom give. But for my part, I can no more
follow him further than I can write down the passion of the lover and
the ecstasy of the musician. If these things could be said in words,
they would have been said long ago. But at least it was along this path
of perception that Frank went--a path that but continued the way along
which he had come with such sure swiftness ever since the moment he had
taken his sorrows and changed them from bitter to sweet. Some sentences
that he has written mean nothing to me at all....

Only this I see clearly, both from my talks with Father Hildebrand and
from the diary which Frank amplified at his bidding--that Frank had
reached the end of a second stage in his journey, and that a third was
to begin.

It is significant also, I think, in view of what is to follow, that the
last initiation of this stage should have taken place on such an
occasion as this.



There are certain moods into which minds, very much tired or very much
concentrated, occasionally fall, in which the most trifling things take
on them an appearance of great significance. A man in great anxiety, for
example, will regard as omens or warnings such things as the ringing of
a bell or the flight of a bird. I have heard this process deliberately
defended by people who should know better. I have heard it said that
those moods of intense concentration are, as a matter of fact states of
soul in which the intuitive or mystical faculties work with great
facility, and that at such times connections and correlations are
perceived which at other times pass unnoticed. The events of the world
then are, by such people, regarded as forming links in a chain of
purpose--events even which are obviously to the practical man merely the
effects of chance and accident. It is utterly impossible, says the
practical man, that the ringing of a bell, or the grouping of
tea-leaves, or the particular moment at which a picture falls from a
wall, can be anything but fortuitous: and it is the sign of a weak and
superstitious mind to regard them as anything else. There can be no
purpose or sequence except in matters where we can perceive purpose or

Of course the practical man must be right; we imply that he is right,
since we call him practical, and I have to deplore, therefore, the fact
that Frank on several occasions fell into a superstitious way of looking
at things. The proof is only too plain from his own diary--not that he
interprets the little events which he records, but that he takes such
extreme pains to write them down--events, too, that are, to all
sensibly-minded people, almost glaringly unimportant and insignificant.

       *       *       *       *       *

I have two such incidents to record between the the travelers' leaving
the Benedictine monastery and their arriving in London in December. The
Major and Gertie have probably long since forgotten the one which they
themselves witnessed, and, indeed, there is no particular reason why
they should remember it. Of the other Frank seems to have said nothing
to his friends. Both of them, however, are perfectly insignificant--they
concern, respectively, only a few invisible singers and a couple of
quite ordinary human beings. They are described with a wholly
unnecessary wealth of detail in Frank's diary, though without comment,
and I write them down here for that reason, and that reason only.

The first was as follows:

They were approaching a certain cathedral town, not a hundred miles from
London, and as the evening was clear and dry, though frosty, and money
was low, they determined to pass the night in a convenient brick-yard
about half a mile out of the town.

There was a handy shed where various implements were kept; the Major, by
the help of a little twisted wire, easily unfastened the door. They
supped, cooking a little porridge over a small fire which they were able
to make without risk, and lay down to sleep after a pipe or two.

Tramps go to sleep early when they mean business, and it could not have
been more than about eleven o'clock at night when Frank awoke with the
sense that he had slept long and deeply. He seems to have lain there,
content and quiet enough, watching the last ember dying in the brazier
where they had made their fire.... There was presently a stir from the
further corner of the shed, a match was struck, and Frank, from his
improvised pillow, beheld the Major's face suddenly illuminated by the
light with which he was kindling his pipe once more. He watched the face
with a sort of artistic interest for a few seconds--the drooping
shadows, the apparently cavernous eyes, the deep-shaded bar of the
mustache across the face. In the wavering light cast from below it
resembled the face of a vindictive beast. Then the Major whispered,
between his puffs:



"Oh! you're awake too, are you?"


A minute later, though they had spoken only in whispers, Gertie drew a
long sighing breath from her corner of the shed and they could hear that
she, too, sat up and cleared her throat.

"Well, this is a pretty job," said the Major jovially to the company
generally. "What's the matter with us?"

Frank said nothing. He lay still, with a sense of extraordinary content
and comfort, and heard Gertie presently lie down again. The Major smoked

Then the singing began.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was a perfectly still night, frost-bound and motionless. It was late
enough for the sounds of the town to have died away (cathedral towns go
to bed early and rise late), and, indeed, almost the only sounds they
had heard, even three or four hours before, had been the occasional
deliberate chime of bells, like a meditative man suddenly uttering a
word or two aloud. Now, however, everything was dead silent. Probably
the hour had struck immediately before they awoke, since Frank remarks
that it seemed a long time before four notes tolled out the quarter.

The singing came first as a sensation rather than as a sound, so far
away was it. It was not at once that Frank formulated the sense of
pleasure that he experienced by telling himself that someone was

At first it was a single voice that made itself heard--a tenor of
extraordinary clarity. The air was unknown to him, but it had the
character of antiquity; there was a certain pleasant melancholy about
it; it contained little trills and grace-notes, such as--before harmony
developed in the modern sense--probably supplied the absence of chords.
There was no wind on which the sound could rise or fall, and it grew
from a thread out of the distance into clear singing not a quarter of a
mile away....

The Major presently grunted over his pipe some expression of surprise;
but Frank could say nothing. He was almost holding his breath, so great
was his pleasure.

The air, almost regretfully, ran downhill like a brook approaching, an
inevitable full close; and then, as the last note was reached, a chord
of voices broke in with some kind of chorus.

The voices were of a quartette of men, and rang together like struck
notes, not loud or harsh, but, on the contrary, with a restrained
softness that must, I suppose, have been the result of very careful
training. It was the same air that they were repeating, but the
grace-notes were absent, and the four voices, in chord after chord,
supplied their place by harmony. It was impossible to tell what was the
subject of the song or even whether it were sacred or secular, for it
was of that period--at least, so I conjecture--when the two worlds were
one, and when men courted their love and adored their God after the same
fashion. Only there ran through all that air of sweet and austere
melancholy, as if earthly music could do no more than hint at what the
heart wished to express.

       *       *       *       *       *

Frank listened in a sort of ecstasy. The music was nearer now, coming
from the direction from which the three travelers had themselves come
this afternoon. Presently, from the apparent diminuendo, it was plain
that the singers were past, and were going on towards the town. There
was no sound of footsteps; the Major remarked on that, when he could
get Frank to attend a few minutes later, when all was over; but there
were field paths running in every direction, as well as broad stretches
of grass beside the road, so the singers may very well have been walking
on soft ground. (These points are dispassionately noted down in the

The chorus was growing fainter now; once more the last slopes of the
melody were in sight--those downhill gradations of the air that told of
the silence to come. Then once more, for an instant, there was silence,
till again, perhaps nearly a quarter of a mile away, the single tenor
voice began _da capo_. And the last that Frank heard, at the moment
before the quarter struck and, soft and mellow though it was, jarred the
air and left the ear unable to focus itself again on the tiny woven
thread of sound, was, once more the untiring quartette taking up the
melody, far off in the silent darkness.

It seems to me a curious little incident--this passing of four singers
in the night; it might have seemed as if our travelers, by a kind of
chance, were allowed to overhear the affairs of a world other than their
own--and the more curious because Frank seems to have been so much
absorbed by it. Of course, from a practical point of view, it is almost
painfully obvious what is the explanation. It must have been a quartette
from the cathedral choir, returning from some festivity in the suburbs;
and it must have happened that they followed the same route, though
walking on the grass, along which Frank himself had come that evening.


The second incident is even more ordinary, and once again I must declare
that nothing would have induced me to incorporate it into this story had
it not appeared, described very minutely in the sort of log-book into
which Frank's diary occasionally degenerates.

They were within a very few miles of the outskirts of London, and
December had succeeded November. They had had a day or two of work upon
some farm or other. (I have not been able to identify the place), and
had run into, and, indeed, exchanged remarks with two or three groups of
tramps also London bound.

They were given temporary lodgings in a loft over a stable, by the
farmer for whom they worked, and this stable was situated in a court at
the end of the village street, with gates that stood open all day,
since the yard was overlooked by the windows of the farmer's
living-house--and, besides, there was really nothing to steal.

They had finished their work in the fields (I think it had to do with
the sheep and mangel-wurzels, or something of the kind); they had
returned to their lodgings, received their pay, packed up their
belongings, and had already reached the further end of the village on
their way to London, when Frank discovered that he had left a pair of
socks behind. This would never do: socks cost money, and their absence
meant sore feet and weariness; so he told the Major and Gertie to walk
on slowly while he went back. He would catch them up, he said, before
they had gone half a mile. He hid his bundle under a hedge--every pound
of weight made a difference at the end of a day's work--and set off.

It was just at that moment between day and night--between four and five
o'clock--as he came back into the yard. He went straight through the
open gates, glancing about, to explain matters to the farmer if
necessary, but, not seeing him, went up the rickety stairs, groped his
way across to the window, took down his socks from the nail an which he
had hung them last night, and came down again.

As he came into the yard, he thought he heard something stirring within
the open door of the stable on his right, and thinking it to be the
farmer, and that an explanation would be advisable, looked in.

At first he saw nothing, though he could hear a horse moving about in
the loose-box in the corner. Then he saw a light shine beneath the crack
of the second door, beside the loose-box, that led into the farm-yard
proper; and the next instant the door opened, a man came in with a
lantern obviously just lighted, as the flame was not yet burned up, and
stopped with a half-frightened look on seeing Frank. But he said

Frank himself was just on the point of giving an explanation when he,
too, stopped dead and stared. It seemed to him that he had been here
before, under exactly the same circumstances; he tried to remember what
happened next, but he could not....

For this was what he saw as the flame burned up more brightly.

The man who held the lantern and looked at him in silence with a
half-deprecating air was a middle-aged man, bearded and bare-headed. He
had thrown over his shoulders a piece of sacking, that hung from him
almost like a robe. The light that he carried threw heavy wavering
shadows about the stable, and Frank noticed the great head of a
cart-horse in the loose-box peering through the bars, as if to inquire
what the company wanted. Then, still without speaking, Frank let his
eyes rove round, and they stopped suddenly at the sight of yet one more
living being in the stable. Next to the loose-box was a stall, empty
except for one occupant; for there, sitting on a box with her back to
the manger and one arm flung along it to support her weight, was the
figure of a girl. Her head, wrapped in an old shawl, leaned back against
her arm, and a very white and weary face, absolutely motionless, looked
at him. She had great eyes, with shadows beneath, and her lips were half
opened. By her side lay a regular tramp's bundle.

Frank looked at her steadily a moment, then he looked back at the man,
who still had not moved or spoken. The draught from the door behind blew
in and shook the flame of his lantern, and the horse sighed long and
loud in the shadows behind. Once more Frank glanced at the girl; she had
lowered her arm from the manger and now sat looking at him, it seemed,
with a curious intentness and expectancy.

There was nothing to be said. Frank bowed a little, almost
apologetically, and went out.

Now that was absolutely all that happened. Frank says so expressly in
his diary. He did not speak to them, nor they to him; nor was any
explanation given on either side. He went out across the yard in
silence, seeing nothing of the farmer, but hearing a piano begin to play
beyond the brightly lighted windows, of which he could catch a glimpse
over the low wall separating the yard from the garden. He walked quickly
up the village street and caught up his companions, as he had said, less
than half a mile further on. He said nothing to them of his
experience--indeed, what was there to say?--but he must have written it
down that same night when they reached their next lodging, and written
it down, too, with that minuteness of detail which surprised me so much
when I first read it.

       *       *       *       *       *

For the explanation of the whole thing is as foolishly obvious as was
that of the singing that the three had heard in the suburbs of
Peterborough. Obviously a couple of tramps had turned into this stable
for shelter. Perhaps the girl was the man's daughter; perhaps his wife;
perhaps neither. Plainly they had no right there--and that would explain
the embarrassed silence of the two: they knew they were trespassing, and
feared to be turned away. Perhaps already they had been turned away from
the village inn. But the girl was obviously tired out, and the man had
determined to risk it.

That, then, was the whole affair--commonplace, and even a little sordid.
And yet Frank thought that it was worth writing down!


_An extract, taken by permission, from a few pages of Frank Guiseley's
diary. These pages were written with the encouragement of Dom Hildebrand
Maple, O.S.B., and were sent to him later at his own request._

"... He told me a great many things that surprised me. For instance, he
seemed to know all about certain ideas that I had had, before I told him
of them, and said that I was not responsible, and he picked out one or
two other things that I had said, and told me that these were much more

"I went to confession to him on Friday morning, in the church. He did
not say a great deal then, but he asked if I would care to talk to him
afterwards. I said I would, and went to him in the parlor after dinner.
The first thing that happened was that he asked me to tell him as
plainly as I could anything that had happened to me--in my soul, I
mean--since I had left Cambridge. So I tried to describe it.

"I said that at first things went pretty well in my soul, and that it
was only bodily things that troubled me--getting fearfully tired and
stiff, being uncomfortable, the food, the sleeping, and so on. Then, as
soon as this wore off I met the Major and Gertie. I was rather afraid of
saying all that I felt about these; but he made me, and I told him how
extraordinarily I seemed to hate them sometimes, how I felt almost sick
now and then when the Major talked to me and told me stories.... The
thing that seemed to torment me most during this time was the contrast
between Cambridge and Merefield and the people there, and the company of
this pair; and the only relief was that I knew I _could_, as a matter of
fact, chuck them whenever I wanted and go home again. But this relief
was taken away from me as soon as I understood that I had to keep with
them, and do my best somehow to separate them. Of course, I must get
Gertie back to her people some time, and till that's done it's no good
thinking about anything else.

"After a while, however--I think it was just before I got into trouble
with the police--I began to see that I was a conceited ass for hating
the Major so much. It was absurd for me, I said, to put on airs, when
the difference between him and me was just that he had been brought up
in one way and I in another. I hated the things he did and said, not
because they were wrong, but because they were what I called 'bad form.'
That was really the whole thing. Then I saw a lot more, and it made me
feel miserable. I used to think that it was rather good of me to be kind
to animals and children, but I began to see that it was simply the way I
was made: it wasn't any effort to me. I simply 'saw red' when I came
across cruelty. And I saw that that was no good.

"Then I began to see that I had done absolutely nothing of any good
whatever--that nothing had _really_ cost me anything; and that the
things I was proud of were simply self-will--my leaving Cambridge, and
all the rest. They were theatrical, or romantic, or egotistical; there
was no real sacrifice. I should have minded much more not doing them. I
began to feel extraordinarily small.

"Then the whole series of things began that simply smashed me up.

"First there was the prison business. That came about in this way:

"I had just begun to see that I was all wrong with the Major--that by
giving way to my feelings about him (I don't mean that I ever showed it,
but that was only because I thought it more dignified not to!), I was
getting all wrong with regard to both him and myself, and that I must do
something that my whole soul hated if it was to be of any use. Then
there came that minute in the barn, when I heard the police were after
us, and that there was really no hope of escape. The particular thing
that settled me was Gertie. I knew, somehow, that I couldn't let the
Major go to prison while she was about. And then I saw that this was
just the very thing to do, and that I couldn't be proud of it ever,
because the whole thing was so mean and second-rate. Well, I did it, and
it did me a lot of good somehow. I felt really rolled in the dirt, and
that little thing in the post-office afterwards rubbed it in. I saw how
chock-full I must be of conceit really to mind that, as I did, and to
show off, and talk like a gentleman.

"Then there came the priest who refused to help me. That made me for a
time perfectly furious, because I had always said to myself that
Catholics, and especially priests, would always understand. But before I
got to York I saw what an ass I had made of myself. Of course, the
priest was perfectly right (I saw that before I got ten yards away,
though I wouldn't acknowledge it for another five miles). I was a dirty
tramp, and I talked like a brazen fool. (I remember thinking my
'openness' to him rather fine and manly!) Well, that made me smaller

"Then a sort of despair came on me when the police got me turned out of
my work in York. I know it was only a little thing (though I still
think it unfair), but it was like a pebble in your boot when you're
already going lame from something else.

"And then came Jenny's letter. (I want to write about that rather

"I said just now that I was getting to feel smaller and smaller. That's
perfectly true, but there was still a little hard lump in the middle
that would not break. Things might have gone crumbling away at me for
ever, and I might have got smaller still, but they wouldn't have smashed

"Now there were two things that I held on to all this time--my religion
and Jenny. I gave them turns, so to speak, though Jenny was never
absent. When everything religious tasted flat and dull and empty, I
thought about Jenny: when things were better--when I had those two or
three times I told Father Hildebrand about (...)--I still thought of
Jenny, and imagined how splendid it would be when we were both Catholics
together and married. But I never dreamed that Jenny would ever be angry
or disappointed. I wouldn't talk about her to anybody ever, because I
was so absolutely certain of her. I knew, I thought, that the whole
world might crumble away, but that Jenny would always understand, down
at the bottom, and that she and I would remain....

"Well, then came her letter.

"Honestly, I don't quite know what I was doing inside for the next week
or so. Simply everything was altered. I never had any sort of doubt that
she meant what she said, and it was as if there wasn't any sun or moon
or sky. It was like being ill. Things happened round me: I ate and drank
and walked, but the only thing I wanted was to get away, and get down
somewhere into myself and hide. Religion, of course, seemed no good at
all. I don't understand quite what people mean by 'consolations' of
religion. Religion doesn't seem to me a thing like Art or Music, in
which you can take refuge. It either covers everything, or it isn't
religion. Religion never has seemed to me (I don't know if I'm wrong)
one thing, like other things, so that you can change about and back
again.... It's either the background and foreground all in one, or it's
a kind of game. It's either true, or it's a pretense.

"Well, all this, in a way, taught me it was absolutely true. Things
wouldn't have held together at all unless it was true. But it was no
sort of satisfaction. It seemed to me for a while that it was horrible
that it was true; that it was frightful to think that God could be like
that--since this Jenny-business had really happened. But I didn't feel
all this exactly consciously at the time. I seemed as if I was ill, and
could only lie still and watch and be in hell. One thing, however,
Father Hildebrand thought very important (he asked me about it
particularly) was that I honestly did not feel any resentment whatever
against either God or Jenny. It was frightful, but it was true, and I
just had to lie still inside and look at it. He tells me that this shows
that the first part of the 'process,' as he called it, was finished (he
called it the 'Purgative Way'). And I must say that what happened next
seems to fit in rather well.

"The new 'process' began quite suddenly when I awoke in the shepherd's
hut one morning at Ripon. The instant I awoke I knew it. It was very
early in the morning, just before sunrise, but there was a little wood
behind me, and the birds were beginning to chirp.

"It's very hard to describe it in words, but the first thing to say is
that I was not exactly happy just then, but absolutely content. I think
I should say that it was like this: I saw suddenly that what had been
wrong in me was that I had made myself the center of things, and God a
kind of circumference. When He did or allowed things, I said, 'Why does
He?'--_from my point of view_. That is to say, I set up my ideas of
justice and love and so forth, and then compared His with mine, not mine
with His. And I suddenly saw--or, rather, I knew already when I
awoke--that this was simply stupid. Even now I cannot imagine why I
didn't see it before: I had heard people say it, of course--in sermons
and books--but I suppose it had meant nothing to me. (Father Hildebrand
tells me that I had seen it intellectually, but had never embraced it
with my will.) Because when one once really sees that, there's no longer
any puzzle about anything. One can simply never say 'Why?' again. The
thing's finished.

"Now this 'process' (as Father H. calls it) has gone on in a most
extraordinary manner ever since. That beginning near Ripon was like
opening a door into another country, and I've been walking ever since
and seeing new things. All sorts of things that I had believed as a
Catholic--things, I mean, which I assented to simply because the Church
said so, have, so to speak, come up and turned themselves inside out. I
couldn't write them down, because you can't write these things down, or
even put them intelligibly to yourself. You just _see that they are so_.
For instance, one morning at mass--quite suddenly--I saw how the
substance of the bread was changed, and how our Lord is united with the
soul at Communion--of course it's a mystery (that's what I mean by
saying that it can't be written down)--but I saw it, in a flash, and I
can see it still in a sort of way. Then another day when the Major was
talking about something or other (I think it was about the club he used
to belong to in Piccadilly), I understood about our Lady and how she is
just everything from one point of view. And so on. I had that kind of
thing at Doctor Whitty's a good deal, particularly when I was getting
better. I could talk to him all the time, too, or count the knobs on the
wardrobe, or listen to the Major and Gertie in the garden--and yet go on
all the time seeing things. I knew it wasn't any good talking to Doctor
Whitty himself much, though I can't imagine why a man like that doesn't
see it all for himself....

"It seems to me most extraordinary now that I ever could have had those
other thoughts I told Father H. about--I mean about sins, and about
wondering whether, after all, the Church was actually true. In a sort of
way, of course, they come back to me still, and I know perfectly well I
must be on my guard; but somehow it's different.

"Well, all this is what Father H. calls the 'Illuminative Way,' and I
think I understand what he means. It came to a sort of point on All
Souls' Eve at the monastery. I saw the whole thing then for a moment or
two, and not only Purgatory. But I will write that down later. And
Father H. tells me that I must begin to look forward to a new
'process'--what he calls the 'Way of Union.' I don't understand much
what he means by that; I don't see that more could happen to me. I am
absolutely and entirely happy; though I must say that there has seemed a
sort of lull for the last day or two--ever since All Souls' Day, in
fact. Perhaps something is going to happen. It's all right, anyhow. It
seems very odd to me that all this kind of thing is perfectly well known
to priests. I thought I was the first person who had ever felt quite
like this.

"I must add one thing. Father H. asked me whether I didn't feel I had a
vocation to the Religious Life; he told me that from everything he could
see, I had, and that my coming to the monastery was simply providential.

"Well, I don't agree, and I have told him so. I haven't the least idea
what is going to happen next; but I know, absolutely for certain, that I
have got to go on with the Major and Gertie to East London. Gertie will
have to be got away from the Major somehow, and until that is done I
mustn't do anything else.

"I have written all this down as plainly as I can, because I promised
Father H. I would."



Mrs. Partington was standing at the door of her house towards sunset,
waiting for the children to come back from school.

Her house is situated in perhaps the least agreeable street--Turner
Road--in perhaps the least agreeable district of East London--Hackney
Wick. It is a disagreeable district because it isn't anything in
particular. It has neither the tragic gayety of Whitechapel nor the
comparative refinement of Clapton. It is a large, triangular piece of
land, containing perhaps a square mile altogether, or rather more,
approached from the south by the archway of the Great Eastern Railway,
defined on one side by the line, and along its other two sides, partly
by the river Lea--a grimy, depressed-looking stream--and partly by the
Hackney Marshes--flat, dreary wastes of grass-grown land, useless as
building ground and of value only for Saturday afternoon recreations of
rabbit coursing and football. The dismalness of the place is beyond
description at all times of the year. In winter it is bleak and chilly;
in summer it is hot, fly-infested, and hideously and ironically
reminiscent of real fields and real grass. The population is calculated
to change completely about every three years, and I'm sure I am not
surprised. It possesses two important blocks of buildings besides the
schools--a large jam factory and the church and clergy-house of the Eton

Turner Road is perhaps the most hopeless of all the dozen and a half of
streets. (It is marked black, by the way, in Mr. Booth's instructive
map.) It is about a quarter of a mile long and perfectly straight. It is
intersected at one point by another street, and is composed of tall dark
houses, with flat fronts, perhaps six or seven stories in height. It is
generally fairly silent and empty, and is inhabited by the most
characteristic members of the Hackney Wick community--quiet, white-faced
men, lean women, draggled and sharp-tongued, and countless
over-intelligent children--all of the class that seldom remain long
anywhere--all of the material out of which the real criminal is
developed. No booths or stalls ever stand here; only, on Saturday
nights, there is echoed here, as in a stone-lined pit, the cries and the
wheel-noises from the busy thoroughfare a hundred yards away round the
corner. The road, as a whole, bears an aspect of desperate and fierce
dignity; there is never here the glimpse of a garden or of flowers, as
in Mortimer Road, a stone's throw away. There is nothing whatever except
the tall, flat houses, the pavements, the lampposts, the grimy
thoroughfare and the silence. The sensation of the visitor is that
anything might happen here, and that no one would be the wiser. There is
an air of horrible discretion about these houses.

       *       *       *       *       *

Mrs. Partington was--indeed is (for I went to see her not two months
ago)--of a perfectly defined type. She must have been a handsome factory
girl--dark, slender, and perfectly able to take care of herself, with
thin, muscular arms, generally visible up to the elbow, hard hands, a
quantity of rather untidy hair--with the tongue of a venomous orator and
any amount of very inferior sentiment, patriotic and domestic. She has
become a lean, middle-aged woman, very upright and very strong, without
any sentiment at all, but with a great deal of very practical human
experience to take its place. She has no illusions about either this
world or the next; she has borne nine children, of which three survive;
and her husband is almost uninterruptedly out of work. However, they are
prosperous (for Turner Road), and have managed, so far, to keep their
home together.

The sunset was framed in a glow of smoky glory at the end of the street
down which Mrs. Partington was staring, resembling a rather angry
search-light turned on from the gates of heaven. The street was still
quiet; but already from the direction of the Board-school came thin and
shrill cries as the swarm of children exploded in all directions. Mrs.
Partington (she would have said) was waiting for her children--Jimmy,
Maggie and 'Erb--and there were lying within upon the bare table three
thick slices of bread and black jam; as a matter of fact, she was
looking out for her lodgers, who should have arrived by midday.

Then she became aware that they were coming, even as she looked,
advancing down the empty street _en échelon_. Two of them she knew well
enough--they had lodged with her before; but the third was to be a
stranger, and she was already interested in him--the Major had hinted at
wonderful mysteries....

So she shaded her eyes against the cold glare and watched them
carefully, with that same firm, resolute face with which she always
looked out upon the world; and even as, presently, she exchanged that
quick, silent nod of recognition with the Major and Gertie, still she
watched the brown-faced, shabby young man who came last, carrying his
bundle and walking a little lame.

"You're after your time," she said abruptly.

The Major began his explanations, but she cut them short and led the way
into the house.


I find it very difficult to record accurately the impression that Frank
made upon Mrs. Partington; but that the impression was deep and definite
became perfectly clear to me from her conversation. He hardly spoke at
all, she said, and before he got work at the jam factory he went out for
long, lonely walks across the marshes. He and the Major slept together,
it seemed, in one room, and Gertie, temporarily with the children and
Mrs. Partington in another. (Mr. Partington, at this time, happened to
be away on one of his long absences.) At meals Frank was always quiet
and well-behaved, yet not ostentatiously. Mrs. Partington found no fault
with him in that way. He would talk to the children a little before they
went to school, and would meet them sometimes on their way back from
school; and all three of them conceived for him an immense and
indescribable adoration. All this, however, would be too long to set
down in detail.

It seems to have been a certain air of pathos which Mrs. Partington
herself cast around him, which affected her the most, and I imagine her
feeling to have been largely motherly. There was, however, another
element very obviously visible, which, in anyone but Mrs. Partington, I
should call reverence.... She told me that she could not imagine why he
was traveling with the Major and Gertie, so she at least understood
something of the gulf between them.

So the first week crept by, bringing us up to the middle of December.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was on the Friday night that Frank came back with the announcement
that he was to go to work at the jam factory on Monday. There was a
great pressure, of course, owing to the approach of Christmas, and Frank
was to be given joint charge of a van. The work would last, it seemed,
at any rate, for a week or two.

"You'll have to mind your language," said the Major jocosely. (He was
sitting in the room where the cooking was done and where, by the way,
the entire party, with the exception of the two men, slept; and, at this
moment, had his feet on the low mantelshelf between the saucepan and
Jimmy's cap.)

"Eh?" said Frank.

"No language allowed there," said the Major. "They're damn particular."

Frank put his cap down and took his seat on the bed.

"Where's Gertie?" he asked. ("Yes, come on, Jimmie.")

Jimmie crept up beside him, looking at him with big black, reverential
eyes. Then he leaned against him with a quick smile and closed his eyes
ecstatically. Frank put an arm round the boy to support him.

"Oh! Gertie's gone to see a friend," said the Major. "Did you want her?"

Frank said nothing, and Mrs. Partington looked from one to the other

Mrs. Partington had gathered a little food for thought during the last
few days. It had become perfectly evident to her that the girl was very
much in love with this young man, and that while this young man either
was, or affected to be, ignorant of it, the Major was not. Gertie had
odd silences when Frank came into the room, or yet more odd
volubilities, and Mrs. Partington was not quite sure of the Major's
attitude. This officer and her husband had had dealings together in the
past of a nature which I could not quite determine (indeed, the figure
of Mr. Partington is still a complete mystery to me, and rather a
formidable mystery); and I gather that Mrs. Partington had learned from
her husband that the Major was not simply negligible. She knew him for a
blackguard, but she seems to have been uncertain of what kind was this
black-guardism--whether of the strong or the weak variety. She was just
a little uncomfortable, therefore, as to the significance of Gertie; and
had already wondered more than once whether or no she should say a
motherly word to the young man.

       *       *       *       *       *

There came a sound of footsteps up the street as Mrs. Partington ironed
a collar of Jimmie's on the dining-room table, and laid down the iron as
a tap fell on the door. The Major took out his pipe and began to fill it
as she went out to see who was knocking.

"Oh! good evening, Mrs. Partington," sounded in a clear, high-bred voice
from the street door. "May I come in for a minute or two? I heard you
had lodgers, and I thought perhaps--"

"Well, sir, we're rather upside-down just now--and--"

"Oh! I won't disturb you more than a minute," came the other voice
again. There were footsteps in the passage, and the next instant, past
the unwilling hostess, there came a young, fresh-colored clergyman,
carrying a silk hat, into the lamplight of the kitchen. Frank stood up
instantly, and the Major went so far as to take down his feet. Then he,
too, stood up.

"Good evening!" said the clergyman. "May I just come in for a minute or
two? I heard you had come, and as it's in my district--May I sit down,
Mrs. Partington?"

Mrs. Partington with sternly knit lips, swept a brown teapot, a
stocking, a comb, a cup and a crumby plate off the single unoccupied
chair, and set it a little forward near the fire. Clergymen were, to her
mind, one of those mysterious dispensations of the world for which there
was no adequate explanation at all--like policemen and men's gamblings
and horse-races. There they were, and there was no more to be said. They
were mildly useful for entertaining the children and taking them to
Southend, and in cases of absolute despair they could be relied upon for
soup-tickets or even half-crowns; but the big mysterious church, with
its gilded screen, its curious dark glass, and its white little
side-chapel, with the Morris hangings, the great clergy-house, the
ladies, the parish magazine and all the rest of it--these were simply
inexplicable. Above all inexplicable was the passion displayed for
district-visiting--that strange impulse that drove four
highly-cultivated young men in black frock-coats and high hats and
ridiculous little collars during five afternoons in the week to knock at
door after door all over the district and conduct well-mannered
conversations with bored but polite mothers of families. It was one of
the phenomena that had to be accepted. She supposed it stood for
something beyond her perceptions.

"I thought I must come in and make your acquaintance," said the
clergyman, nursing his hat and smiling at the company. (He, too,
occasionally shared Mrs. Partington's wonder as to the object of all
this; but he, too, submitted to it as part of the system.) "People come
and go so quickly, you know--"

"Very pleased to see a clergyman," said the Major smoothly. "No
objection to smoke, sir, I presume?" He indicated his pipe.

"Not at all," said the clergyman. "In fact, I smoke myself; and if Mrs.
Partington will allow me--" He produced a small pink and gilded packet
of Cinderellas. (I think he thought it brought him vaguely nearer the
people to smoke Cinderellas.)

"Oh! no objection at all, sir," put in Mrs. Partington, still a little
grimly. (She was still secretly resenting being called upon at half-past
six. You were usually considered immune from this kind of thing after
five o'clock.)

"So I thought I must just look in and catch you one evening," explained
the clergyman once more, "and tell you that we're your friends here--the
clergy, you know--and about the church and all that."

He was an extremely conscientious young man--this Mr. Parham-Carter--an
old Etonian, of course, and now in his first curacy. It was all pretty
bewildering to him, too, this great and splendid establishment, the
glorious church by Bodley, with the Magnificat in Gothic lettering below
the roof, the well-built and furnished clergy-house, the ladies' house,
the zeal, the self-devotion, the parochial machinery, the Band of
Hope, the men's and boys' clubs, and, above all, the furious
district-visiting. Of course, it produced results, it kept up the
standards of decency and civilization and ideals; it was a weight in the
balances on the side of right and good living; the clubs kept men from
the public-house to some extent, and made it possible for boys to grow
up with some chance on their side. Yet he wondered, in fits of
despondency, whether there were not something wrong somewhere.... But he
accepted it: it was the approved method, and he himself was a learner,
not a teacher.

"Very kind of you, sir," said the Major, replacing his feet on the
mantelshelf. "And at what time are the services on Sunday?"

The clergyman jumped. He was not accustomed to that sort of question.

"I ..." he began.

"I'm a strong Churchman, sir," said the Major. "And even if I were not,
one must set an example, you know. I may be narrow-minded, but I'm
particular about all that sort of thing. I shall be with you on Sunday."

He nodded reassuringly at Mr. Parham-Carter.

"Well, we have morning prayer at ten-thirty next Sunday, and the Holy
Eucharist at eleven--and, of course, at eight."

"No vestments, I hope?" said the Major sternly.

Mr. Parham-Carter faltered a little. Vestments were not in use, but to
his regret.

"Well, we don't use vestments," he said, "but--"

The Major resumed his pipe with a satisfied air.

"That's all right," he said. "Now, I'm not bigoted--my friend here's a
Roman Catholic, but--"

The clergyman looked up sharply, and for the first time became
consciously conscious of the second man. Frank had sat back again on the
bed, with Jimmie beside him, and was watching the little scene quietly
and silently, and the clergyman met his eyes full. Some vague shock
thrilled through him; Frank's clean-shaven brown face seemed somehow
familiar--or was it something else?

Mr. Parham-Carter considered the point for a little while in silence,
only half attending to the Major, who was now announcing his views on
the Establishment and the Reformation settlement. Frank said nothing at
all, and there grew on the clergyman a desire to hear his voice. He
made an opportunity at last.

"Yes, I see," he said to the Major; "and you--I don't know your name?"

"Gregory, sir," said Frank. And again a little shock thrilled Mr.
Parham-Carter. The voice was the kind of thing he had expected from that

       *       *       *       *       *

It was about ten minutes later, that the clergyman thought it was time
to go. He had the Major's positive promise to attend at least the
evening service on the following Sunday--a promise he did not somehow
very much appreciate--but he had made no progress with Frank. He shook
hands all round very carefully, told Jimmie not to miss Sunday-school,
and publicly commended Maggie for a recitation she had accomplished at
the Band of Hope on the previous evening; and then went out, accompanied
by Mrs. Partington, still silent, as far as the door. But as he actually
went out, someone pushed by the woman and came out into the street.

"May I speak to you a minute?" said the strange young man, dropping the
"sir." "I'll walk with you as far as the clergy-house if you'll let me."

       *       *       *       *       *

When they were out of earshot of the house Frank began.

"You're Parham-Carter, aren't you?" he said. "Of Hales'."

The other nodded. (Things were beginning to resolve themselves in his

"Well, will you give me your word not to tell a soul I'm here, and I'll
tell you who I am? You've forgotten me, I see. But I'm afraid you may
remember. D'you see?"

"All right."

"I'm Guiseley, of Drew's. We were in the same division once--up to
Rawlins. Do you remember?"

"Good Lord! But--"

"Yes, I know. But don't let's go into that. I've not done anything I
shouldn't. That's not the reason I'm like this. It's just turned out so.
And there's something else I want to talk to you about. When can I come
and see you privately? I'm going to begin work to-morrow at the jam

The other man clutched at his whirling faculties.

"To-night--at ten. Will that do?"

"All right. What am I to say--when I ring the bell, I mean?"

"Just ask for me. They'll show you straight up to my room."

"All right," said Frank, and was gone.


Mr. Parham-Carter's room in the clergy-house was of the regular
type--very comfortable and pleasing to the eye, as it ought to be for a
young man working under such circumstances; not really luxurious; pious
and virile. The walls were a rosy distemper, very warm and sweet, and
upon them, above the low oak book-cases, hung school and college groups,
discreet sporting engravings, a glorious cathedral interior, and the
Sistine Madonna over the mantelpiece. An oar hung all along one ceiling,
painted on the blade with the arms of an Oxford college. There was a
small _prie-dieu_, surmounted by a crucifix of Ober-Ammergau
workmanship: there was a mahogany writing-table with a revolving chair
set before it; there were a couple of deep padded arm-chairs, a
pipe-rack, and a row of photographs--his mother in evening dress, a
couple of sisters, with other well-bred-looking relations. Altogether,
with the curtains drawn and the fire blazing, it was exactly the kind of
room that such a wholesome young man ought to have in the East of

Frank was standing on the hearth-rug as Mr. Parham-Carter came in a
minute or two after ten o'clock, bearing a small tray with a covered
jug, two cups and a plate of cake.

"Good-evening again," said the clergyman. "Have some cocoa? I generally
bring mine up here.... Sit down. Make yourself comfortable."

Frank said nothing. He sat down. He put his cap on the floor by his
chair and leaned back. The other, with rather nervous movements, set a
steaming cup by his side, and a small silver box of cigarettes, matches
and an ash-tray. Then he sat down himself, took a long pull at his
cocoa, and waited with a certain apprehensiveness.

"Who else is here?" asked Frank abruptly.

The other ran through the three names, with a short biography of each.
Frank nodded, reassured at the end.

"That's all right," he said. "All before my time, I expect. They might
come in, you know."

"Oh, no!" said the clergyman. "I told them not, and--"

"Well, let's come to business," said Frank. "It's about a girl. You saw
that man to-day? You saw his sort, did you? Well, he's a bad hat. And
he's got a girl going about with him who isn't his wife. I want to get
her home again to her people."


"Can you do anything? (Don't say you can if you can't, please....) She
comes from Chiswick. I'll give you her address before I go. But I don't
want it muddled, you know."

The clergyman swallowed in his throat. He had only been ordained
eighteen months, and the extreme abruptness and reality of the situation
took him a little aback.

"I can try," he said. "And I can put the ladies on to her. But, of
course, I can't undertake--"

"Of course. But do you think there's a reasonable chance? If not, I'd
better have another try myself."

"Have you tried, then?"

"Oh, yes, half a dozen times. A fortnight ago was the last, and I really

"But I don't understand. Are these people your friends, or what?"

"I've been traveling with them off and on since June. They belong to
you, so far as they belong to anyone. I'm a Catholic, you know--"

"Really? But--"

"Convert. Last June. Don't let's argue, my dear chap. There isn't time."

Mr. Parham-Carter drew a breath.

There is no other phrase so adequate for describing his condition of
mind as the old one concerning head and heels. There had rushed on him,
not out of the blue, but, what was even more surprising, out of the very
dingy sky of Hackney Wick (and Turner Road, at that!), this astonishing
young man, keen-eyed, brown-faced, muscular, who had turned out to be a
school-fellow of his own, and a school-fellow whose reputation, during
the three hours since they had parted, he had swiftly remembered point
by point--Guiseley of Drew's--the boy who had thrown off his coat in
early school and displayed himself shirtless; who had stolen four out of
the six birches on a certain winter morning, and had conversed affably
with the Head in school yard with the ends of the birches sticking out
below the skirts of his overcoat; who had been discovered on the fourth
of June, with an air of reverential innocence, dressing the bronze
statue of King Henry VI. in a surplice in honor of the day. And now here
he was, and from his dress and the situation of his lodging-house to be
reckoned among the worst of the loafing class, and yet talking, with an
air of complete confidence and equality of a disreputable young
woman--his companion--who was to be rescued from a yet more disreputable
companion and restored to her parents in Chiswick.

And this was not all--for, as Mr. Parham-Carter informed me
himself--there was being impressed upon him during this interview a very
curious sensation, which he was hardly able, even after consideration,
to put into words--a sensation concerning the personality and presence
of this young man which he could only describe as making him feel
"beastly queer."

       *       *       *       *       *

It seems to have been about this point that he first perceived it
clearly--distinguished it, that is to say, from the whole atmosphere of
startling and suggesting mystery that surrounded him.

He looked at Frank in silence a moment or two....

There Guiseley sat--leaning back in the red leather chair, his cocoa
still untouched. He was in a villainous suit that once, probably, had
been dark blue. The jacket was buttoned up to his chin, and a grimy
muffler surrounded his neck. His trousers were a great deal too short,
and disclosed above a yellow sock, on the leg nearest to him, about four
inches of dark-looking skin. His boots were heavy, patched, and entirely
uncleaned, and the upper toe-cap of one of them gaped from the leather
over the instep. His hands were deep in his pockets, as if even in this
warm room, he felt the cold.

There was nothing remarkable there. It was the kind of figure presented
by unsatisfactory candidates for the men's club. And yet there was about
him this air, arresting and rather disconcerting....

It was a sort of electric serenity, if I understand Mr. Parham-Carter
aright--a zone of perfectly still energy, like warmth or biting cold, as
of a charged force: it was like a real person standing motionless in
the middle of a picture. (Mr. Parham-Carter did not, of course, use such
beautiful similes as these; he employed the kind of language customary
to men who have received a public school and university education, half
slang and half childishness; but he waved his hands at me and distorted
his features, and conveyed, on the whole, the kind of impression I have
just attempted to set down.)

Frank, then, seemed as much out of place in this perfectly correct and
suitable little room as an Indian prince in Buckingham Palace; or, if
you prefer it, an English nobleman (with spats) in Delhi. He was just
entirely different from it all; he had nothing whatever to do with it;
he was wholly out of place, not exactly as regarded his manner (for he
was quite at his ease), but with regard to his significance. He was as a
foreign symbol in a familiar language.

Its effect upon Mr. Parham-Carter was quite clear and strong. He
instanced to me the fact that he said nothing to Frank about his soul:
he honestly confessed that he scarcely even wished to press him to come
to Evensong on Sunday. Of course, he did not like Frank's being a Roman
Catholic; and his whole intellectual being informed him that it was
because Frank had never really known the Church of England that he had
left it. (Mr. Parham-Carter had himself learned the real nature of the
Church of England at the Pusey House at Oxford.) But there are certain
atmospheres in which the intellectual convictions are not very
important, and this was one of them. So here the two young men sat and
stared at one another, or, rather, Mr. Parham-Carter stared at Frank,
and Frank looked at nothing in particular.

"You haven't drunk your cocoa," said the clergyman suddenly.

Frank turned abruptly, took up the cup and drank the contents straight
off at one draught.

"And a cigarette?"

Frank took up a cigarette and put in his mouth.

"By the way," he said, taking it out again, "when'll you send your
ladies round? The morning's best, when the rest of us are out of the

"All right."

"Well, I don't think there's anything else?"

"My dear chap," said the other, "I wish you'd tell me what it's all
about--why you're in this sort of life, you know. I don't want to pry,

Frank smiled suddenly and vividly.

"Oh, there's nothing to say. That's not the point. It's by my own choice
practically. I assure you I haven't disgraced anybody."

"But your people--"

"Oh! they're all right. There's nothing the matter with them.... Look
here! I really must be going."

He stood up, and something seemed to snap in the atmosphere as he did

"Besides, I've got to be at work early--"

"I say, what did you do then?"

"Do then? What do you mean?"

"When you stood up--Did you say anything?..."

Frank looked at him bewildered.

"I don't know what you're talking about."

Mr. Parham-Carter did not quite know what he had meant himself. It was a
sensation come and gone, in an instant, as Frank had moved ... a
sensation which I suppose some people would call "psychical"--a
sensation as if a shock had vibrated for one moment through every part
of his own being, and of the pleasant little warm room where he was
sitting. He looked at the other, dazed for a second or two, but there
was nothing. Those two steady black eyes looked at him in a humorous
kind of concern....

He stood up himself.

"It was nothing," he said. "I think I must be getting sleepy."

He put out his hand.

"Good-night," he said. "Oh! I'll come and see you as far as the gate."

Frank looked at him a second.

"I say," he said; "I suppose you've never thought of becoming a

"My dear chap--"

"No! Well, all right.... oh! don't bother to come to the gate."

"I'm coming. It may be locked."

       *       *       *       *       *

Mr. Parham-Carter stood looking after Frank's figure even after it had
passed along the dark shop fronts and was turning the corner towards
Turner Road. Then it went under the lamplight, and disappeared.

It was a drizzling, cold night, and he himself was bareheaded; he felt
the moisture run down his forehead, but it didn't seem to be happening
to him. On his right rose up the big parish-hall where the
entertainments were held, and beyond it, the east end of the great
church, dark now and tenantless; and he felt the wet woodwork of the
gate grasped in his fingers.

He did not quite know what was happening to him but everything seemed
different. A hundred thoughts had passed through his mind during the
last half hour. It had occurred to him that he ought to have asked
Guiseley to come to the clergy-house and lodge there for a bit while
things were talked over; that he ought, tactfully, to have offered to
lend him money, to provide him with a new suit, to make suggestions as
to proper employment instead of at the jam factory--all those proper,
philanthropic and prudent suggestions that a really sensible clergyman
would have made. And yet, somehow, not only had he not made them, but it
was obvious and evident when he regarded them that they could not
possibly be made. Guiseley (of Drew's) did not require them, he was on
another line altogether.... And what was that line?

Mr. Parham-Carter leaned on the gate a full five minutes considering all
this. But he arrived at no conclusion.



The Rector of Merefield was returning from a short pastoral visitation
towards the close of an afternoon at the beginning of November. His
method and aims were very characteristic of himself, since he was one of
that numerous class of persons who, interiorly possessing their full
share of proper pride, wear exteriorly an appearance of extreme and
almost timid humility. The aims of his visiting were, though he was
quite unaware of the fact, directed towards encouraging people to hold
fast to their proper position in life (for this, after all, is only
another name for one's duty towards one's neighbor), and his method was
to engage in general conversation on local topics. There emerged, in
this way, information as to the patient's habits and actions; it would
thus transpire, for example, whether the patient had been to church or
not, whether there were any quarrels, and, if so, who were the
combatants and for what cause.

He had been fairly satisfied to-day; he had met with good excuses for
the absence of two children from day-school, and of a young man from
choir-practice; he had read a little Scripture to an old man, and had
been edified by his comments upon it. It was not particularly
supernatural, but, after all, the natural has its place, too, in life,
and he had undoubtedly fulfilled to-day some of the duties for whose
sake he occupied the position of Rector of Merefield, in a completely
inoffensive manner. The things he hated most in the world were
disturbances of any kind, abruptness and the unexpected, and he had a
strong reputation in the village for being a man of peace.

It sounds a hard thing to say of so conscientious a man, but a properly
preserved social order was perhaps to his mind the nearest approach to
the establishment of the Kingdom of Heaven on earth. Each person held
his proper position, including himself, and he no more expected others
to be untrue to their station than he wished to be untrue to his own.
There were, of course, two main divisions--those of gentle birth and
those not of gentle birth, and these were as distinct as the sexes. But
there were endless gradations in each respectively, and he himself
regarded those with as much respect as those of the angelic hierarchy:
the "Dominations" might, or might not be as "good" as the "Powers," but
they were certainly different, by Divine decree. It would be a species
of human blasphemy, therefore, for himself not to stand up in Lord
Talgarth's presence, or for a laborer not to touch his hat to Miss
Jenny. This is sometimes called snobbishness, but it is nothing of the
kind. It is merely a marked form of Toryism.

It was a pleasant autumnal kind of afternoon, and he took off his hat as
he turned up past the park gates to feel the cool air, as he was a
little heated with his walk. He felt exceedingly content with all
things: there were no troubles in the parish, he enjoyed excellent
health, and he had just done his duty. He disliked pastoral visiting
very deeply indeed; he was essentially a timid kind of man, but he made
his rules and kept them, for he was essentially a conscientious man. He
was so conscientious that he was probably quite unaware that he disliked
this particular duty.

Just as he came opposite the gates--great iron-work affairs with ramping
eagles and a Gothic lodge smothered in ivy--the man ran out and began to
wheel them back, after a hasty salute to his pastor; and the Rector,
turning, saw a sight that increased his complacency. It was just Jenny
riding with Lord Talgarth, as he knew she was doing that afternoon.

They made a handsome, courtly kind of pair--a sort of "father and
daughter" after some romantic artist or other. Lord Talgarth's heavy
figure looked well-proportioned on horseback, and he sat his big black
mare very tolerably indeed. And Jenny looked delicious on the white
mare, herself in dark green. A groom followed twenty yards behind.

Lord Talgarth's big face nodded genially to the Rector and he made a
kind of salute; he seemed in excellent dispositions; Jenny was a little
flushed with exercise, and smiled at her father with a quiet, friendly

"Just taking her ladyship home," said the old man.... "Yes; charming
day, isn't it?"

       *       *       *       *       *

The Rector followed them, pleased at heart. Usually Jenny rode home
alone with the groom to take back her mare to the stables. It was the
first time, so far as he could remember, that Lord Talgarth had taken
the trouble to escort her all the way home himself. It really was very
pleasant indeed, and very creditable to Jenny's tact, that relations
were so cordial.... And they were dining there to-morrow, too. The
social order of Merefield seemed to be in an exceedingly sound


Lord Talgarth, too, seemed to the lodge-keeper, as ten minutes later the
gates rolled back again to welcome their lord, in an unusually genial
temper (and, indeed, there was always about this old man as great a
capacity for geniality on one side as for temper on the other; it is
usually so with explosive characters). He even checked his horse and
asked after "the missus" in so many words; although two days before a
violent message had come down to complain of laxity in the gate-opening,
owing to the missus' indisposition on an occasion when the official
himself had been digging cabbages behind the Gothic lodge and the hoot
of the motor had not been heard.

The missus, it seemed, was up and about again (indeed her husband caught
a glimpse out of the tail of his eye of a pale face that glanced and
withdrew again apprehensively above the muslin curtain beyond his

"That's all right," remarked Lord Talgarth heartily, and rode on.

The lodge-keeper exchanged a solemn wink with the groom half a minute
later, and stood to watch the heavy figure ahead plunging about rather
in the saddle as the big black mare set her feet upon the turf and
viewed her stable afar off.

It was a fact that Lord Talgarth was pleased with himself and all the
world to-day, for he kept it up even with the footman who slipped, and
all but lost his balance, as he brought tea into the library.

"Hold up!" remarked the nobleman.

The footman smiled gently and weakly, after the manner of a dependent,
and related the incident with caustic gusto to his fellows in the

After tea Lord Talgarth lay back in his chair and appeared to meditate,
as was observed by the man who fetched out the tea-things and poked the
fire; and he was still meditating, though now there was the aromatic
smell of tobacco upon the air, when his own man came to tell him that it
was time to dress.

It was indeed a perfect room for arm-chair meditations; there were tall
book-shelves, mahogany writing-tables, each with its shaded electric
lamp; the carpet was as deep as a summer lawn; and in the wide hearth
logs consumed themselves in an almost deferential silence. There was
every conceivable thing that could be wanted laid in its proper place.
It was the kind of room in which it would seem that no scheme could
miscarry and every wish must prevail; the objective physical world
grouped itself so obediently to the human will that it was almost
impossible to imagine a state of things in which it did not so. The
great house was admirably ordered; there was no sound that there should
not be--no hitches, no gaps or cracks anywhere; it moved like a
well-oiled machine; the gong, sounded in the great hall, issued
invitations rather than commands. All was leisurely, perfectly adapted
and irreproachable.

       *       *       *       *       *

It is always more difficult for people who live in such houses as these
to behave well under adverse fortune than for those who live in houses
where the Irish stew can be smelled at eleven o'clock in the morning,
and where the doors do not shut properly, and the kitchen range goes
wrong. Possibly something of this fact helped to explain the owner's
extreme violence of temper on the occasion of his son's revolt. It was
intolerable for a man all of whose other surroundings moved like
clockwork, obedient to his whims, to be disobeyed flatly by one whose
obedience should be his first duty--to find disorder and rebellion in
the very mainspring of the whole machine.

Possibly, too, the little scheme that was maturing in Lord Talgarth's
mind between tea and dinner that evening helped to restore his
geniality; for, as soon as the thought was conceived, it became obvious
that it could be carried through with success.

He observed: "Aha! it's time, is it?" to his man in a hearty kind of
way, and hoisted himself out of his chair with unusual briskness.


He spent a long evening again in the library alone. Archie was away; and
after dining alone with all the usual state, the old man commanded that
coffee should be brought after him. The butler found him, five minutes
later, kneeling before a tall case of drawers, trying various keys off
his bunch, and when the man came to bring in whisky and clear away the
coffee things he was in his deep chair, a table on either side of him
piled with papers, and a drawer upon his knees.

"You can put this lot back," he remarked to the young footman,
indicating a little pile of four drawers on the hearth-rug. He watched
the man meditatively as he attempted to fit them into their places.

"Not that way, you fool! Haven't you got eyes?... The top one at the

But he said it without bitterness--almost contemplatively. And, as the
butler glanced round a moment or two later to see that all was in order,
he saw his master once more beginning to read papers.

"Good-night," said Lord Talgarth.

"Good-night, my lord," said the butler.

There was a good deal of discussion that night in the men's wing as to
the meaning of all this, and it was conducted with complete frankness.
Mr. Merton, the butler, had retired to his own house in the stable-yard,
and Mr. Clarkson, the valet, was in his lordship's dressing-room; so the
men talked freely. It was agreed that only two explanations were
possible for the unusual sweetness of temper: either Mr. Frank was to be
reinstated, or his father was beginning to break up. Frank was extremely
popular with servants always; and it was generally hoped that the former
explanation was the true one. Possibly, however, both were required.

       *       *       *       *       *

Mr. Clarkson too was greatly _intrigué_ that night. He yawned about the
dressing-room till an unusually late hour, for Lord Talgarth generally
retired to rest between ten and half-past. To-night, however, it was
twenty minutes to twelve before the man stood up suddenly from the sofa
at the sound of a vibration in the passage outside. The old man came in
briskly, bearing a bundle of papers in one hand and a bed-candle in the
other, with the same twinkle of good temper in his eyes that he had
carried all the evening.

"Give me the dispatch-box under the sofa," he said; "the one in the
leather case."

This was done and the papers were laid in it, carefully, on the top.
Mr. Clarkson noticed that they had a legal appearance, were long-shaped
and inscribed in stiff lettering. Then the dispatch-box was reclosed and
set on the writing-table which my lord used sometimes when he was

"Remind me to send for Mr. Manners to-morrow," he said. (This was the

       *       *       *       *       *

Getting ready for bed that evening was almost of a sensational nature,
and Mr. Clarkson had to keep all his wits about him to respond with
sufficient agility to the sallies of his master. Usually it was all a
very somber ceremony, with a good deal of groaning and snarling in
asides. But to-night it was as cheerful as possible.

The mysteries of it all are too great for me to attempt to pierce them;
but it is really incredible what a number of processes are necessary
before an oldish man, who is something of a buck and something of an
invalid, and altogether self-centered, is able to lay him down to rest.
There are strange doses to be prepared and drunk, strange manipulations
to be performed and very particular little ceremonies to be observed,
each in its proper place. Each to-night was accompanied by some genial
comment: the senna-pod distillation, that had been soaking since seven
p.m. in hot water, was drunk almost with the air of a toast; the
massaging of the ankles and toes (an exercise invented entirely by Lord
Talgarth himself) might have been almost in preparation for a dance.

He stood up at last, an erect, stoutish figure, in quilted dressing-gown
and pyjamas, before the fire, as his man put on his slippers for him,
for the little procession into the next room.

"I think I'm better to-night, Clarkson," he said.

"Your lordship seems very well indeed, my lord," murmured that diplomat
on the hearth-rug.

"How old do you think I am, Clarkson?"

Clarkson knew perfectly well, but it was better to make a deprecatory
confused noise.

"Ah! well, we needn't reckon by years ... I feel young enough," observed
the stately figure before the fire.

       *       *       *       *       *

Then the procession was formed: the double doors were set back, the
electric light switched on; Lord Talgarth passed through towards the
great four-posted bed that stood out into the bedroom, and was in bed,
with scarcely a groan, almost before the swift Mr. Clarkson could be at
his side to help him in. He lay there, his ruddy face wonderfully
handsome against the contrast of his gray hair and the white pillow,
while Mr. Clarkson concluded the other and final ceremonies. A small
table had to be wheeled to a certain position beside the bed, and the
handle of the electric cord laid upon it in a particular place, between
the book and the tray on which stood some other very special draught to
be drunk in case of thirst.

"Call me a quarter of an hour earlier than usual," observed the face on
the pillow. "I'll take a little stroll before breakfast."

"Yes, my lord."

"What did I tell you to remind me to do after breakfast?"

"Send for Mr. Manners, my lord."

"That's right. Good-night, Clarkson."

"Good-night, my lord."

       *       *       *       *       *

There was the usual discreet glance round the room to see that all was
in order; then the door into the dressing-room closed imperceptibly
behind Mr. Clarkson's bent back.



Winter at Merefield Rectory is almost as delightful as summer, although
in an entirely different way. The fact is that the Rectory has managed
the perfect English compromise. In summer, with the windows and doors
wide open, with the heavy radiant creepers, with the lawns lying about
the house, with the warm air flowing over the smooth, polished floors
and lifting the thin mats, with the endless whistle of bird song--then
the place seems like a summer-house. And in winter, with the heavy
carpets down, and the thick curtains, the very polished floors, so cool
in summer, seem expressly designed to glimmer warmly with candle and
fire-light; and the books seem to lean forward protectively and reassert
themselves, and the low beamed ceilings to shelter and safeguard the
interior comfort. The center of gravity is changed almost imperceptibly.
In summer the place is a garden with a house in the middle; in winter a
house surrounded by shrubberies.

The study in one way and the morning-room in another are the respective
pivots of the house. The study is a little paneled room on the
ground-floor, looking out upon the last of the line of old yews and the
beginning of the lawn; the morning-room (once known as the school-room)
is the only other paneled room in the house, on the first floor, looking
out upon the front. And round these two rooms the two sections of the
house-life tranquilly revolve. Here in one the Rector controls the
affairs of the parish, writes his sermons, receives his men friends (not
very many), and reads his books. There in the other Jenny orders the
domestic life of the house, interviews the cook, and occupies herself
with her own affairs. They are two rival, but perfectly friendly, camps.

       *       *       *       *       *

Lately (I am speaking now of the beginning of November) there had not
been quite so much communication between the two camps as usual, not so
many informal negotiations. Jenny did not look in quite so often upon
her father--for ten minutes after breakfast, for instance, or before
lunch--and when he looked in on her he seemed to find her generally with
rather a preoccupied air, often sitting before the wide-arched
fireplace, with her hands behind her head, looking at the red logs.

He was an easy man, as has been seen, and did not greatly trouble his
head about it: he knew enough of the world to recognize that an
extremely beautiful girl like Jenny, living on the terms she did with
the great house--and a house with men coming and going continually, to
say nothing of lawn-tennis parties and balls elsewhere--cannot
altogether escape complications. He was reasonable enough, too, to
understand that a father is not always the best confidant, and he had
supreme confidence in Jenny's common sense.

I suppose he had his dreams; he would scarcely have been human if he had
not, and he was quite human. The throwing over of Frank had brought him
mixed emotions, but he had not been consulted either at the beginning or
the end of the engagement, and he acquiesced. Of Dick's affair he knew
nothing at all.

That, then, was the situation when the bomb exploded. It exploded in
this way.

He was sitting in his study one morning--to be accurate, it was the
first Saturday in November, two days after the events of the last
chapter--preparing to begin the composition of his sermon for the next
day. They had dined up at the great house the night before quite quietly
with Lord Talgarth and Archie, who had just come back.

He had selected his text with great care from the Gospel for the day,
when the door suddenly opened and Jenny came in. This was very unusual
on Saturday morning; it was an understood thing that he must be at his
sermon; but his faint sense of annoyance was completely dispelled by his
daughter's face. She was quite pale--not exactly as if she had received
a shock, but as if she had made up her mind to something; there was no
sign of tremor in her face; on the contrary, she looked extremely
determined, but her eyes searched his as she stopped.

"I'm dreadfully sorry, father, but may I talk to you for a few minutes?"

She did not wait for his answer, but came straight in and sat down in
his easy-chair. He laid his pen down and turned a little at his
writing-table to face her.

"Certainly, dear. What is it? Nothing wrong?"

(He noticed she had a note in her hand.)

"No, nothing wrong...." She hesitated. "But it's rather important."


She glanced down at the note she carried. Then she looked up at him

"Father, I suppose you've thought of my marrying some day--in spite of


"Would you mind if I married a man older than myself--I mean a good deal

He looked at her in silence. Two or three names passed before his mind,
but he couldn't remember--

"Father, I'm in trouble. I really am. I didn't expect--"

Her voice faltered. He saw that she really found it difficult to speak.
A little wave of tenderness rolled over his heart. It was unlike her to
be so much moved. He got up and came round to her.

"What is it, dear? Tell me."

She remained perfectly motionless for an instant. Then she held out the
note to him, and simultaneously stood up. As he took it, she went
swiftly past him and out of the door. He heard the swish of her dress
pass up the stairs, and then the closing of a door. But he hardly heeded
it. He was reading the note she had given him. It was a short, perfectly
formal offer of marriage to her from Lord Talgarth.


"Father, dear," said Jenny, "I want you to let me have my say straight
out, will you?"

He bowed his head.

They were sitting, on the evening of the same day, over the tea-things
in his study. He had not seen her alone for one moment since the
morning. She had refused to open her door to him when he went up after
reading the note: she had pleaded a headache at lunch, and she had been
invisible all the afternoon. Then, as he came in about tea-time, she had
descended upon him, rather pale, but perfectly herself, perfectly
natural, and even rather high-spirited. She had informed him that tea
would be laid in his study, as she wanted a long talk. She had poured
out tea, talking all the time, refusing, it seemed, to meet his eyes.
When she had finished, she had poured out his third cup, and then pushed
her own low chair back so far that he could not see her face.

Then she had opened the engagement.

       *       *       *       *       *

To say that the poor man had been taken aback would be a very poor way
of describing his condition. The thing simply had never entered his
head. He had dreamed, in wild moments, of Archie; he had certainly
contemplated Dick; but Lord Talgarth himself, gouty and aged
sixty-five!... And yet he had not been indignant. Indignation not only
did not do with Jenny, but it was impossible. To be quite frank, the man
was afraid of his daughter; he was aware that she would do ultimately
as she wished, and not as he wished; and his extreme discomfort at the
thought of this old man marrying his daughter was, since he was human,
partly counter-balanced by the thought of who the old man was. Lastly,
it must be remembered that Jenny was really a very sensible girl, and
that her father was quite conscious of the fact.

Jenny settled herself once more in her chair and began.

       *       *       *       *       *

"Father, dear, I want to be quite sensible about this. And I've been
very foolish and silly about it all day. I can't imagine why I behaved
as I did. There's nothing to go and mope about, that Lord Talgarth has
been kind enough to do me this honor. Because it is an honor, you know,
however you look at it, that anyone should ask one to be his wife.

"Well, I want to say what I have to say first, and then I want you to
say exactly what you think. I've thought it all out, so I shan't be very

(He put down his cup noiselessly, as if in the presence of a sick
person. He was anxious not to lose a word, or even an inflection).

"First of all, let's have all the things against it. He's an old man. We
mustn't forget that for one minute. And that's a very strong argument
indeed. Some people would think it final, but I think that's

"Secondly, it never entered my head for one instant." (Jenny said this
quite deliberately, almost reverently.) "Of course I see now that he's
hinted at it very often, but I never understood it at the time. I've
always thought of him as a sort of--well--a sort of uncle. And that's
another strong argument against it. If it was a right thing to do,
oughtn't it to have occurred to me too? I'm not quite sure about that.

"Thirdly, it's unsuitable for several reasons. It'll make talk. Here
have I been engaged to Frank for ages and broken it off. Can't you
imagine how people will interpret that now? I suppose I oughtn't to mind
what people say, but I'm afraid I do. Then I'm the Rector's daughter ...
and I've been running in and out continually--dining with them, sitting
with him alone. Can't you imagine what people--Lady Richard, for
instance--will make of it?... I shall be an adventuress, and all the
rest of it. That's not worth much as an argument, but it is a ... a
consideration. One must look facts in the face and think of the future.

"Fourthly, Lord Talgarth probably won't live very long...." (Jenny
paused, and then, with extraordinary impressiveness, continued).... "And
that, of, course, is perhaps the strongest argument of all. If I could
be of any real use to him--" She stopped again.

The Rector shifted a little in his chair.

It was impossible for him to conceal from himself any longer the fact
that up to now he had really been expecting Jenny to accept the offer.
But he was a little puzzled now at the admirable array of reasons she
had advanced against that. She had put into words just the sensible view
of which he himself had only had a confused apprehension; she had
analyzed into all its component parts that general sense which one side
of him had pushed before him all day--that the thing was really
abominable. And this side of him at this time was uppermost. He drew a
whistling breath.

"Well, my dear," he began, and the relief was very apparent in his
voice. But Jenny interrupted.

"One minute, please, father! In fairness to--to everyone I must put the
other side.... I suppose the main question is this, after all. Am I fond
of him?--fond enough, that is, to marry him--because, of course, I'm
fond of him; he's been so extraordinarily kind always.... I suppose
that's really the only thing to be considered. If I were fond enough of
him, I suppose all the arguments against count for nothing. Isn't that
so?... Yes; I want you to say what you think."

He waited. Still he could make out nothing of her face, though he
glanced across the tea-things once or twice.

"My dear, I don't know what to say. I--"

"Father, dear, I just want that from you. Do you think that any
consideration at all ought to stand in the way, if I were--I don't say
for one single moment that I am--but if I were--well, really fond of
him? I'm sorry to have to speak so very plainly, but it's no good being

He swallowed in his throat once or twice.

"If you really were fond of him--I think ... I think that, no
consideration of the sort you have mentioned ought to ... to stand in
your way."

"Thank you, father," said Jenny softly.

"When did you first think of it?"

Jenny paused.

"I think I knew he was going to ask me two days ago--the day you met us
out riding, you know."

       *       *       *       *       *

There was a long silence.

They had already discussed, when Frank's affair had been before them,
all secondary details.

The Rector's sister was to have taken Jenny's place. There was nothing
of that sort to talk about now. They were both just face to face with
primary things, and they both knew it.

The Rector's mind worked like a mill--a mill whose machinery is running
aimlessly. The wheels went round and round, but they effected nothing.
He was completely ignorant as to what Jenny intended. He perceived--as
in a series of little vignettes--a number of hypothetical events, on
this side and that, but they drew to no conclusion in his mind. He was
just waiting on his daughter's will.

       *       *       *       *       *

Jenny broke the silence with a slow remark in another kind of voice.

"Father, dear, there's something else I must tell you. I didn't see any
need to bother you with it before. It's this. Mr. Dick Guiseley proposed
to me when he was here for the shooting."

She paused, but her father said nothing.

"I told him he must wait--that I didn't know for certain, but that I was
almost certain. If he had pressed for an answer I should have said 'No.'
Oddly enough, I was thinking only yesterday that it wasn't fair to keep
him waiting any longer. Because ... because it's 'No' ... anyhow, now."

The Rector still could not speak. It was just one bewilderment. But
apparently Jenny did not want any comments.

"That being so," she went on serenely, "my conscience is clear, anyhow.
And I mustn't let what I think Mr. Dick might say or think affect
me--any more than the other things. Must I?"

"... Jenny, what are you going to do? Tell me!"

"Father, dear," came the high astonished voice, "I don't know. I don't
know at all. I must think. Did you think I'd made up my mind? Why! How
could I? Of course I should say 'No' if I had to answer now."

"I--" began the Rector and stopped. He perceived that the situation
could easily be complicated.

"I must just think about it quietly," went on the girl. "And I must
write a note to say so.... Father ..."

He glanced in her direction.

"Father, about being fond of a man.... Need it be--well, as I was fond
of Frank? I don't think Lord Talgarth could have expected that, could
he? But if you--well--get on with a man very well, understand him--can
stand up to him without annoying him ... and ... and care for him,
really, I mean, in such a way that you like being with him very much,
and look up to him very much in all kinds of ways--(I'm very sorry to
have to talk like this, but whom am I to talk to, father dear?) Well, if
I found I did care for Lord Talgarth like that--like a sort of daughter,
or niece, and more than that too, would that--"

"I don't know," said the Rector, abruptly standing up. "I don't know;
you mustn't ask me. You must settle all that yourself."

She looked up at him, startled, it seemed, by the change in his manner.

"Father, dear--" she began, with just the faintest touch of pathetic
reproach in her voice. But he did not appear moved by it.

"You must settle," he said. "You have all the data. I haven't. I--"

He stepped towards the door.

"Tell me as soon as you have decided," he said, and went out.


The little brown dog called Lama, who in an earlier chapter once trotted
across a lawn, and who had lately been promoted to sleeping upon Jenny's
bed, awoke suddenly that night and growled a low breathy remonstrance.
He had been abruptly kicked from beneath the bedclothes.

"Get off, you heavy little beast," said a voice in the darkness.

Lama settled himself again with a grunt, half of comfort, half of

"_Get off!_" came the voice again, and again his ribs were heaved at by
a foot.

He considered it a moment or two, and even shifted nearer the wall,
still blind with sleep; but the foot pursued him, and he awoke finally
to the conviction that it would be more comfortable by the fire; there
was a white sheepskin there, he reflected. As he finally reached the
ground, a scratching was heard in the corner, and he was instantly
alert, and the next moment had fitted his nose, like a kind of
india-rubber pad, deep into a small mouse-hole in the wainscoting, and
was breathing long noisy sighs down into the delicious and
gamey-smelling darkness.

"Oh! be quiet!" came a voice from the bed.

Lama continued his investigations unmoved, and having decided, after one
long final blow, that there was to be no sport, returned to the
sheepskin with that brisk independent air that was so characteristic of
him. He was completely awake now, and stood eyeing the bed a moment,
with the possibility in his mind that his mistress was asleep again,
and that by a very gentle leap--But a match was struck abruptly, and he
lay down, looking, with that appearance of extreme wide-awakedness in
his black eyes that animals always wear at night, at his restless

He could not quite understand what was the matter.

First she lit a candle, took a book from the small table by the bed and
began to read resolutely. This continued till Lama's eyes began to blink
at the candle flame, and then he was suddenly aware that the light was
out and the book closed, and all fallen back again into the clear gray
tones which men call darkness.

He put his head down on his paws, but his eyebrows rose now and again as
he glanced at the bed.

Then the candle was lighted again after a certain space of time, but
this time there was no book opened. Instead, his mistress took her arms
out of bed, and clasped them behind her head, staring up at the

This was tiresome, as the light was in his eyes, and his body was just
inert enough with sleep to make movement something of an effort....

Little by little, however, his eyebrows came down, remained down, and
his eyes closed....

He awoke again at a sound. The candle was still burning, but his
mistress had rolled over on to her side and seemed to be talking gently
to herself. Then she was over again on this side, and a minute later was
out of bed, and walking to and fro noiselessly on the soft carpet.

He watched her with interest, his eyes only following her. He had never
yet fully understood this mysterious change of aspect that took place
every night--the white thin dress, the altered appearance of the head,
and--most mysterious of all--the two white things that ought to be feet,
but were no longer hard and black. He had licked one of them once
tentatively, and had found that the effect was that it had curled up
suddenly; there had been a sound as of pain overhead, and a swift slap
had descended upon him.

He was observing these things now--to and fro, to and fro--and his eyes
moved with them.

       *       *       *       *       *

After a certain space of time the movement stopped. She was standing
still near a carved desk--important because a mouse had once been
described sitting beneath it; and she stood so long that his eyes began
to blink once more. Then there was a rustle of paper being torn, and he
was alert again in a moment. Perhaps paper would be thrown for him

She came across to the hearth-rug, and he was up, watching her hands,
while his own short tail flickered three or four times in invitation.
But it was no good: the ball was crumpled up and thrown on to the red
logs. There was a "whup" from the fire and a flame shot up. He looked at
this carefully with his head on one side, and again lay down to watch
it. His mistress was standing quite still, watching it with him.

Then, as the flame died down, she turned abruptly, went straight back to
the bed, got into it, drew the clothes over her and blew the candle out.

       *       *       *       *       *

After a few moments steady staring at the fire, he perceived that a part
of the ball of paper had rolled out on to the stone hearth unburned. He
looked at it for some while, wondering whether it was worth getting up
for. Certainly the warmth was delicious and the sheepskin exquisitely

There was no sound from the bed. A complete and absolute silence had
succeeded to all the restlessness.

Finally he concluded that it was impossible to lie there any longer and
watch such a crisp little roll of paper still untorn. He got up, stepped
delicately on to the wide hearth, and pulled the paper towards him with
a little scratching sound. There was a sigh from the bed, and he paused.
Then he lifted it, stepped back to his warm place, lay down, and
placing his paws firmly upon the paper, began to tear scraps out of it
with his white teeth.

"Oh, _be quiet_!" came the weary voice from the bed.

He paused, considered; then he tore two more pieces. But it did not
taste as it should; it was a little sticky, and too stiff. He stood up
once more, turned round four times and lay down with a small grunt.

In the morning the maid who swept up the ashes swept up these fragments
too. She noticed a wet scrap of a picture postcard, with the word
"Selby" printed in the corner. Then she threw that piece, too, into the



Mrs. Partington and Gertie had many of those mysterious conversations
that such women have, full of "he's" and "she's" and nods and becks and
allusions and broken sentences, wholly unintelligible to the outsider,
yet packed with interest to the talkers. The Major, Mr. Partington
(still absent), and Frank were discussed continually and exhaustively;
and, so far as the subjects themselves ranged, there was hardly an
unimportant detail that did not come under notice, and hardly an
important fact that did. Gertie officially passed, of course, as Mrs.
Trustcott always.

A couple of mornings after Frank had begun his work at the jam factory,
Mrs. Partington, who had stepped round the corner to talk with a friend
for an hour or so, returned to find Gertie raging. She raged in her own
way; she was as white as a sheet; she uttered ironical and
unintelligible sentences, in which Frank's name appeared repeatedly, and
it emerged presently that one of the Mission-ladies had been round
minding other folks' business, and that Gertie would thank that lady to
keep her airs and her advice to herself.

Now Mrs. Partington knew that Gertie was not the Major's wife, and
Gertie knew that she knew it; and Mrs. Partington knew that Gertie knew
that she knew it. Yet, officially, all was perfectly correct; Gertie
wore a wedding-ring, and there never was the hint that she had not a
right to it. It was impossible, therefore, for Mrs. Partington to
observe out loud that she understood perfectly what the Mission-lady had
been talking about. She said very little; she pressed her thin lips
together and let Gertie alone. The conversations that morning were of
the nature of disconnected monologues from Gertie with long silences

It was an afternoon of silent storm. The Major was away in the West End
somewhere on mysterious affairs; the children were at school, and the
two women went about, each knowing what was in the mind of the other,
yet each resolved to keep up appearances.

At half-past five o'clock Frank abruptly came in for a cup of tea, and
Mrs. Partington gave it him in silence. (Gertie could be heard moving
about restlessly overhead.) She made one or two ordinary remarks,
watching Frank when he was not looking. But Frank said very little. He
sat up to the table; he drank two cups of tea out of the chipped enamel
mug, and then he set to work on his kippered herring. At this point Mrs.
Partington left the room, as if casually, and a minute later Gertie came

       *       *       *       *       *

She came in with an indescribable air of virtue, rather white in the
face, with her small chin carefully thrust out and her eyelids drooping.
It was a pose she was accustomed to admire in high-minded and
aristocratic barmaids. Frank nodded at her and uttered a syllable or two
of greeting.

She said nothing; she went round to the window, carrying a white cotton
blouse she had been washing upstairs, and hung it on the clothes-line
that ran inside the window. Then, still affecting to be busy with it,
she fired her first shot, with her back to him.

"I'll thank you to let my business alone...."

(Frank put another piece of herring into his mouth.)

"... And not to send round any more of your nasty cats," added Gertie
after a pause.

There was silence from Frank.

"Well?" snapped Gertie.

"How dare you talk like that!" said Frank, perfectly quietly.

He spoke so low that Gertie mistook his attitude, and, leaning her
hands on the table, she poured out the torrent that had been gathering
within her ever since the Mission-lady had left her at eleven o'clock
that morning. The lady had not been tactful; she was quite new to the
work, and quite fresh from a women's college, and she had said a great
deal more than she ought, with an earnest smile upon her face that she
had thought conciliatory and persuasive. Gertie dealt with her
faithfully now; she sketched her character as she believed it to be; she
traced her motives and her attitude to life with an extraordinary wealth
of detail; she threw in descriptive passages of her personal appearance,
and she stated, with extreme frankness, her opinion of such persons as
she had thought friendly, but now discovered to be hypocritical parsons
in disguise. Unhappily I have not the skill to transcribe her speech in
full, and there are other reasons, too, why her actual words are best
unreported: they were extremely picturesque.

Frank ate on quietly till he had finished his herring; then he drank his
last cup of tea, and turned a little in his chair towards the fire. He
glanced at the clock, perceiving that he had still ten minutes, just as
Gertie ended and stood back shaking and pale-eyed.

"Is that all?" he asked.

It seemed it was not all, and Gertie began again, this time on a
slightly higher note, and with a little color in her face. Frank waited,
quite simply and without ostentation. She finished.

After a moment's pause Frank answered.

"I don't know what you want," he said. "I talked to you myself, and you
wouldn't listen. So I thought perhaps another woman would do it

"I did listen--"

"I beg your pardon," said Frank instantly. "I was wrong. You did listen,
and very patiently. I meant that you wouldn't do what I said. And so I

Gertie burst out again, against cats and sneaking hypocrites, but there
was not quite the same venom in her manner.

"Very good," said Frank. "Then I won't make the mistake again. I am very
sorry--not in the least for having interfered, you understand, but for
not having tried again myself." (He took up his cap.) "You'll soon give
in, Gertie, you know. Don't you think so yourself?"

Gertie looked at him in silence.

"You understand, naturally, why I can't talk to you while the Major's
here. But the next time I have a chance--"

The unlatched door was pushed open and the Major came in.


There was an uncomfortable little pause for a moment. It is extremely
doubtful, even now, exactly how much the Major heard; but he must have
heard something, and to a man of his mind the situation that he found
must have looked extremely suspicious. Gertie, flushed now, with emotion
very plainly visible in her bright eyes, was standing looking at Frank,
who, it appeared, was a little disconcerted. It would have been almost
miraculous if the Major had not been convinced that he had interrupted a
little private love-making.

It is rather hard to analyze the Major's attitude towards Gertie; but
what is certain is that the idea of anyone else making love to her was
simply intolerable. Certainly he did not treat her with any great
chivalry; he made her carry the heavier bundles on the tramp; he behaved
to her with considerable disrespect; he discussed her freely with his
friends on convivial occasions. But she was his property--his and no one
else's. He had had his suspicions before; he had come in quietly just
now on purpose, and he had found himself confronted by this very
peculiar little scene.

He looked at them both in silence. Then his lips sneered like a dog's.

"Pardon me," he said, with extreme politeness. "I appear to be
interrupting a private conversation."

No one said anything. Frank leaned his elbow on the mantelpiece.

"It was private, then?" continued the Major with all the poisonous
courtesy at his command.

"Yes; it was private," said Frank shortly.

The Major put his bowler hat carefully upon the table.

"Gertie, my dear," he said. "Will you be good enough to leave us for an
instant? I regret having to trouble you."

Gertie breathed rather rapidly for a moment or two. She was not
altogether displeased. She understood perfectly, and it seemed to her
rather pleasant that two men should get into this kind of situation over
her. She was aware that trouble would come to herself later, probably in
the form of personal chastisement, but to the particular kind of
feminine temperament that she possessed even a beating was not wholly
painful, and the cheap kind of drama in which she found herself was
wholly attractive. After an instant's pause, she cast towards Frank what
she believed to be a "proud" glance and marched out.

"If you've got much to say," said Frank rapidly, as the door closed,
"you'd better keep it for this evening. I've got to go in ... in two

"Two minutes will be ample," said the Major softly.

Frank waited.

"When I find a friend," went on the other, "engaged in an apparently
exciting kind of conversation, which he informs me is private, with one
who is in the position of my wife--particularly when I catch a sentence
or two obviously not intended for my ears--I do not ask what was the
subject of the conversation, but I--"

"My dear man," said Frank, "do put it more simply."

The Major was caught, so to speak, full in the wind. His face twitched
with anger.

Then he flung an oath at Frank.

"If I catch you at it again," he said, "there'll be trouble. God damn

"That is as it may be," said Frank.

The Major had had just one drink too much, and he was in the kind of
expansive mood that changes very rapidly.

"Can you tell me you were not trying to take her from me?" he cried,
almost with pathos in his voice.

This was, of course, exactly what Frank had been trying to do.

"You can't deny it!... Then I tell you this, Mr. Frankie"--the Major
sprang up--"one word more from you to her on that subject ... and ...
and you'll know it. D'you understand me?"

He thrust his face forward almost into Frank's.

It was an unpleasant face at most times, but it was really dangerous
now. His lips lay back, and the peculiar hot smell of spirit breathed
into Frank's nostrils. Frank turned and looked into his eyes.

"I understand you perfectly," he said. "There's no need to say any more.
And now, if you'll forgive me, I must get back to my work."

He took up his cap and went out.

       *       *       *       *       *

The Major, as has been said, had had one glass too much, and he had,
accordingly, put into words what, even in his most suspicious moments,
he had intended to keep to himself. It might be said, too, that he had
put into words what he did not really think. But the Major was, like
everyone else, for good or evil, a complex character, and found it
perfectly possible both to believe and disbelieve the same idea
simultaneously. It depended in what stratum the center of gravity
happened to be temporarily suspended. One large part of the Major knew
perfectly well, therefore, that any jealousy of Frank was simply
ridiculous--the thing was simply alien; and another part, not so large,
but ten times more concentrated, judged Frank by the standards by which
the Major (_qua_ blackguard) conducted his life. For people who lived
usually in that stratum, making love to Gertie, under such
circumstances, would have been an eminently natural thing to do, and,
just now, the Major chose to place Frank amongst them.

The Major himself was completely unaware of these psychological
distinctions, and, as he sat, sunk in his chair, brooding, before
stepping out to attend to Gertie, he was entirely convinced that his
suspicions were justified. It seemed to him now that numberless little
details out of the past fitted, with the smoothness of an adjusted
puzzle, into the framework of his thought.

There was, first, the very remarkable fact that Frank, in spite of
opportunities to better himself, had remained in their company. At
Barham, at Doctor Whitty's, at the monastery, obvious chances had
offered themselves and he had not taken them. Then there were the small
acts of courtesy, the bearing of Gertie's bundles two or three times.
Finally, there was a certain change in Gertie's manner--a certain silent
peevishness towards himself, a curious air that fell on her now and then
as she spoke to Frank or looked at him.

And so forth. It was an extraordinarily convincing case, clinched now
by the little scene that he had just interrupted. And the very
irregularity of his own relations with Gertie helped to poison the
situation with an astonishingly strong venom.

Of course, there were other considerations, or, rather, there was
one--that Frank, obviously, was not the kind of man to be attracted by
the kind of woman that Gertie was--a consideration made up, however, of
infinitely slighter indications. But this counted for nothing. It seemed
unsubstantial and shadowy. There were solid, definable arguments on the
one side; there was a vague general impression on the other....

So the Major sat and stared at the fire, with the candle-light falling
on his sunken cheeks and the bristle on his chin--a poor fallen kind of
figure, yet still holding the shadow of a shadow of an ideal that might
yet make him dangerous.

Presently he got up with a sudden movement and went in search of Gertie.


There are no free libraries in Hackney Wick; the munificences of Mr.
Carnegie have not yet penetrated to that district (and, indeed, the
thought of a library of any kind in Hackney Wick is a little
incongruous). But there is one in Homerton, and during the dinner-hour
on the following day Frank went up the steps of it, pushed open the
swing-doors, and found his way to some kind of a writing-room, where he
obtained a sheet of paper, an envelope and a penny stamp, and sat down
to write a letter.

The picture that I have in my mind of Frank at this present time may
possibly be a little incorrect in one or two details, but I am quite
clear about its main outlines, and it is extremely vivid on the whole. I
see him going in, quietly and unostentatiously--quite at his ease, yet a
very unusual figure in such surroundings. I hear an old gentleman sniff
and move his chair a little as this person in an exceedingly shabby blue
suit with the collar turned up, with a muffler round his neck and large,
bulging boots on his feet, comes and sits beside him. I perceive an
earnest young lady, probably a typist in search of extra culture, look
at him long and vacantly from over her copy of Emerson, and can almost
see her mind gradually collecting conclusions about him. The attendant,
too, as he asks for his paper, eyes him shrewdly and suspiciously, and
waits till the three halfpence are actually handed across under the
brass wire partition before giving him the penny stamp. These
circumstances may be incorrect, but I am absolutely clear as to Frank's
own attitude of mind. Honestly, he no longer minds in the very least
how people behave to him; he has got through all that kind of thing long
ago; he is not at all to be commiserated; it appears to him only of
importance to get the paper and to be able to write and post his letter
without interruption. For Frank has got on to that plane--(I know no
other word to use, though I dislike this one)--when these other things
simply do not matter. We all touch that plane sometimes, generally under
circumstances of a strong mental excitement, whether of pleasure or
pain, or even annoyance. A man with violent toothache, or who has just
become engaged to be married, really does not care what people think of
him. But Frank, for the present at least, has got here altogether,
though for quite different reasons. The letter he wrote on this occasion
is, at present, in my possession. It runs as follows. It is very short
and business-like:

     "DEAR JACK,

     "I want to tell you where I am--or, rather, where I can be got
     at in case of need. I am down in East London for the present,
     and one of the curates here knows where I'm living. (He was at
     Eton with me.) His address is: The Rev. E. Parham-Carter, The
     Eton Mission, Hackney Wick, London, N.E.

     "The reason I'm writing is this: You remember Major Trustcott
     and Gertie, don't you? Well, I haven't succeeded in getting
     Gertie back to her people yet, and the worst of it is that the
     Major knows that there's something up, and, of course, puts the
     worst possible construction upon it. Parham-Carter knows all
     about it, too--I've just left a note on him, with instructions.
     Now I don't quite know what'll happen, but in case anything
     does happen which prevents my going on at Gertie, I want you to
     come and do what you can. Parham-Carter will write to you if

     "That's one thing; and the next is this: I'd rather like to
     have some news about my people, and for them to know (if they
     want to know--I leave that to you) that I'm getting on all
     right. I haven't heard a word about them since August. I know
     nothing particular can have happened, because I always look at
     the papers--but I should like to know what's going on

     "I think that's about all. I am getting on excellently myself,
     and hope you are. I am afraid there's no chance of my coming to
     you for Christmas. I suppose you'll be home again by now.

                                          "Ever yours,

     "P.S.--Of course you'll keep all this private--as well as where
     I'm living."

Now this letter seems to me rather interesting from a psychological
point of view. It is extremely business-like, but perfectly unpractical.
Frank states what he wants, but he wants an absurd impossibility. I like
Jack Kirkby very much, but I cannot picture him as likely to be
successful in helping to restore a strayed girl to her people. I suppose
Frank's only excuse is that he did not know whom else to write to.

It is rather interesting, too, to notice his desire to know what is
going on at his home; it seems as if he must have had, some faint
inkling that something important was about to happen, and this is
interesting in view of what now followed immediately.

He directed his letter, stamped it, and posted it in the library
post-box in the vestibule. Then, cap in hand, he pushed open the
swing-doors and ran straight into Mr. Parham-Carter.

"Hullo!" said that clergyman--and went a little white.

"Hullo!" said Frank; and then: "What's the matter?"

"Where are you going?"

"I'm going back to the jam factory."

"May I walk with you?"

"Certainly, if you don't mind my eating as I go along."

The clergyman turned with him and went beside him in silence, as Frank,
drawing out of his side-pocket a large hunch of bread and cheese,
wrapped up in the advertisement sheet of the _Daily Mail_, began to fill
his mouth.

"I want to know if you've had any news from home."

Frank turned to him slightly.

"No," he said sharply, after a pause.

Mr. Parham-Carter licked his lips.

"Well--no, it isn't bad news; but I wondered whether--"

"What is it?"

"Your governor's married again. It happened yesterday. I thought perhaps
you didn't know."

There was dead silence for an instant.

"No, I didn't know," said Frank. "Who's he married?"

"Somebody I never heard of. I wondered whether you knew her."

"What's her name?"

"Wait a second," said the other, plunging under his greatcoat to get at
his waistcoat pocket. "I've got the paragraph here. I cut it out of the
_Morning Post_. I only saw it half an hour ago. I was coming round to
you this evening."

He produced a slip of printed paper. Frank stood still a moment, leaning
against some area-railings--they were in the distinguished quarter of
Victoria Park Road--and read the paragraph through. The clergyman
watched him curiously. It seemed to him a very remarkable situation that
he should be standing here in Victoria Park Road, giving information to
a son as to his father's marriage. He wondered, but only secondarily,
what effect it would have upon Frank.

Frank gave him the paper back without a tremor.

"Thanks very much," he said. "No; I didn't know."

They continued to walk.

"D'you know her at all?"

"Yes, I know her. She's the Rector's daughter, you know."

"What! At Merefield? Then you must know her quite well."

"Oh! yes," said Frank, "I know her quite well."

Again there was silence. Then the other burst out:

"Look here--I wish you'd let me do something. It seems to me perfectly

"My dear man," said Frank. "Indeed you can't do anything.... You got my
note, didn't you?"

The clergyman nodded.

"It's just in case I'm ill, or anything, you know. Jack's a great friend
of mine. And it's just as well that some friend of mine should be able
to find out where I am. I've just written to him myself, as I said in my
note. But you mustn't give him my address unless in case of real need."

"All right. But are you sure--"

"I'm perfectly sure.... Oh! by the way, that lady you sent round did no
good. I expect she told you?"

"Yes; she said she'd never come across such a difficult case."

"Well, I shall have to try again myself.... I must turn off here. Good


Gertie was sitting alone in the kitchen about nine o'clock that
night--alone, that is to say, except for the sleeping 'Erb, who, in a
cot at the foot of his mother's bed, was almost invisible under a pile
of clothes, and completely negligible as a witness. Mrs. Partington,
with the other two children, was paying a prolonged visit in Mortimer
Road, and the Major, ignorant of this fact, was talking big in the bar
of the "Queen's Arms" opposite the Men's Club of the Eton Mission.

Gertie was enjoying herself just now, on the whole. It is true that she
had received some chastisement yesterday from the Major; but she had the
kind of nature that preferred almost any sensation to none. And, indeed,
the situation was full of emotion. It was extraordinarily pleasant to
her to occupy such a position between two men--and, above all, two
"gentlemen." Her attitude towards the Major was of the most simple and
primitive kind; he was her man, who bullied her, despised her, dragged
her about the country, and she never for one instant forgot that he had
once been an officer in the army. Even his blows (which, to tell the
truth, were not very frequent, and were always administered in a
judicial kind of way) bore with them a certain stamp of brilliance; she
possessed a very pathetic capacity for snobbishness. Frank, on the other
side, was no less exciting. She regarded him as a good young man, almost
romantic, indeed, in his goodness--a kind of Sir Galahad; and he,
whatever his motive (and she was sometimes terribly puzzled about his
motives), at any rate, stood in a sort of rivalry to the Major; and it
was she who was the cause of contention. She loved to feel herself
pulled this way and that by two such figures, to be quarreled over by
such very strong and opposite types. It was a vague sensation to her,
but very vivid and attractive; and although just now she believed
herself to be thoroughly miserable, I have no doubt whatever that she
was enjoying it all immensely. She was very feminine indeed, and the
little scene of last night had brought matters to an almost exquisite
point. She was crying a little now, gently, to herself.

       *       *       *       *       *

The door opened. Frank came in, put down his cap, and took his seat on
the bench by the fire.

"All out?" he asked.

Gertie nodded, and made a little broken sound.

"Very good," said Frank. "Then I'm going to talk to you."

Gertie wiped away a few more tears, and settled herself down for a
little morbid pleasure. It was delightful to her to be found crying over
the fire. Frank, at any rate, would appreciate that.

"Now," said Frank, "you've got the choice once more, and I'm going to
put it plainly. If you don't do what I want this time, I shall have to
see whether somebody else can't persuade you."

She glanced up, a little startled.

"Look here," said Frank. "I'm not going to take any more trouble myself
over this affair. You were a good deal upset yesterday when the lady
came round, and you'll be more upset yet before the thing's over. I
shan't talk to you myself any more: you don't seem to care a hang what I
say; in fact, I'm thinking of moving my lodgings after Christmas. So now
you've got your choice."

He paused.

"On the one side you've got the Major; well, you know him; you know the
way he treats you. But that's not the reason why I want you to leave
him. I want you to leave him because I think that down at the bottom
you've got the makings of a good woman--"

"I haven't," cried Gertie passionately.

"Well, I think you have. You're very patient, and you're very
industrious, and because you care for this man you'll do simply anything
in the world for him. Well, that's splendid. That shows you've got grit.
But have you ever thought what it'll all be like in five years from

"I shall be dead," wailed Gertie. "I wish I was dead now."

Frank paused.

"And when you're dead--?" he said slowly.

There was an instant's silence. Then Frank took up his discourse again.
(So far he had done exactly what he had wanted. He had dropped two tiny
ideas on her heart once more--hope and fear.)

"Now I've something to tell you. Do you remember the last time I talked
to you? Well, I've been thinking what was the best thing to do, and a
few days ago I saw my chance and took it. You've got a little
prayer-book down at the bottom of your bundle, haven't you? Well, I got
at that (you never let anyone see it, you know), and I looked through
it. I looked through all your things. Did you know your address was
written in it? I wasn't sure it was your address, you know, until--"

Gertie sat up, white with passion.

"You looked at my things?"

Frank looked her straight in the face.

"Don't talk to me like that," he said. "Wait till I've done.... Well, I
wrote to the address, and I got an answer; then I wrote again, and I got
another answer and a letter for you. It came this morning, to the
post-office where I got it."

Gertie looked at him, still white, with her lips parted.

"Give me the letter," she whispered.

"As soon as I've done talking," said Frank serenely. "You've got to
listen to me first. I knew what you'd say: you'd say that your people
wouldn't have you back. And I knew perfectly well from the little things
you'd said about them that they would. But I wrote to make sure....

"Gertie, d'you know that they're breaking their hearts for you?... that
there's nothing, in the whole world they want so much as that you
should come back?..."

"Give me the letter!"

"You've got a good heart yourself, Gertie; I know that well enough.
Think hard, before I give you the letter. Which is best--the Major and
this sort of life--and ... and--well, you know about the soul and God,
don't you?... or to go home, and--"

Her face shook all over for one instant.

"Give me the letter," she wailed suddenly.

Then Frank gave it her.


"But I can't possibly go home like this," whispered Gertie agitatedly in
the passage, after the Major's return half an hour later.

"Good Lord!" whispered Frank, "what an extraordinary girl you are, to

"I don't care. I can't, and I won't."

Frank cast an eye at the door, beyond which dozed the Major in the chair
before the fire.

"Well, what d'you want?"

"I want another dress, and ... and lots of things."

Frank stared at her resignedly.

"How much will it all come to?"

"I don't know. Two pounds--two pounds ten."

"Let's see: to-day's the twentieth. We must get you back before
Christmas. If I let you have it to-morrow, will it do?--to-morrow

She nodded. A sound came from beyond the door, and she fled.

       *       *       *       *       *

I am not sure about the details of the manner in which Frank got the two
pounds ten, but I know he got it, and without taking charity from a
soul. I know that he managed somehow to draw his week's money two days
before pay-day, and for the rest, I suspect the pawnshop. What is quite
certain is that when his friends were able to take stock of his
belongings a little later, the list of them was as follows:

One jacket, one shirt, one muffler, a pair of trousers, a pair of socks,
a pair of boots, one cap, one tooth-brush, and a rosary. There was
absolutely nothing else. Even his razor was gone.

Things, therefore, were pretty bad with him on the morning of the
twenty-second of December. I imagine that he still possessed a few
pence, but out of this few pence he had to pay for his own and Gertie's
journey to Chiswick, as well as keep himself alive for another week. At
least, so he must have thought.

It must have been somewhere in Kensington High Street that he first had
a hint of a possibility of food to be obtained free, for, although I
find it impossible to follow all his movements during these days, it is
quite certain that he partook of the hospitality of the Carmelite
Fathers on this morning. He mentions it, with pleasure, in his diary.

It is a very curious and medieval sight--this feeding of the poor in the
little deep passage that runs along the outside of the cloister of the
monastery in Church Street. The passage is approached by a door at the
back of the house, opening upon the lane behind, and at a certain hour
on each morning of the year is thronged from end to end with the most
astonishing and deplorable collection of human beings to be seen in
London. They are of all ages and sizes, from seventeen to seventy, and
the one thing common to them all is extreme shabbiness and poverty.

A door opens at a given moment; the crowd surges a little towards a
black-bearded man in a brown frock, with an apron over it, and five
minutes later a deep silence, broken only by the sound of supping and
swallowing, falls upon the crowd. There they stand, with the roar of
London sounding overhead, the hooting of cars, the noise of innumerable
feet, and the rain--at least, on this morning--falling dismally down the
long well-like space. And here stand between two and three hundred men,
pinched, feeble, and yet wolfish, gulping down hot soup and bread,
looking something like a herd of ragged prisoners pent in between the
high walls.

Here, then, Frank stood in the midst of them, gulping his soup. His van
and horses, strictly against orders, remained in Church Street, under
the care of a passer-by, whom Frank seems to have asked, quite openly,
to do it for him for God's sake.

It is a dreary little scene in which to picture him, and yet, to myself,
it is rather pleasant, too. I like to think of him, now for the second
time within a few weeks, and all within the first six months of his
Catholic life, depending upon his Church for the needs of the body as
well as for the needs of the soul. There was nothing whatever to
distinguish him from the rest; he, too, had now something of that lean
look that is such a characteristic of that crowd, and his dress, too,
was entirely suitable to his company. He spoke with none of his hosts;
he took the basin in silence and gave it back in silence; then he wiped
his mouth on his sleeve, and went out comforted.



Dick Guiseley sat over breakfast in his rooms off Oxford Street,
entirely engrossed in a local Yorkshire paper two days old.

His rooms were very characteristic of himself. They were five in
number--a dining-room, two bedrooms, and two sitting-rooms divided by
curtains, as well as a little entrance-hall that opened on to the
landing, close beside the lift that served all the flats. They were
furnished in a peculiarly restrained style--so restrained, in fact, that
it was almost impossible to remember what was in them. One was just
conscious of a sense of extreme comfort and convenience. There was
nothing in particular that arrested the attention or caught the eye,
except here and there a space or a patch of wall about which Dick had
not yet made up his mind. He had been in them two years, indeed, but he
had not nearly finished furnishing. From time to time a new piece of
furniture appeared, or a new picture--always exceedingly good of its
kind, and even conspicuous. Yet, somehow or other, so excellent was his
taste, as soon as the thing was in place its conspicuousness (so to
speak) vanished amidst the protective coloring, and it looked as if it
had been there for ever. The colors were chosen with the same superfine
skill: singly they were brilliant, or at least remarkable (the ceilings,
for instance, were of a rich buttercup yellow); collectively they were
subdued and unnoticeable. And I suppose this is exactly what rooms ought
to be.

The breakfast-table at which he sat was a good instance of his taste.
The silver-plate on it was really remarkable. There was a delightful
Caroline tankard in the middle, placed there for the sheer pleasure of
looking at it; there was a large silver cow with a lid in its back;
there were four rat-tail spoons; the china was an extremely cheap
Venetian crockery of brilliant designs and thick make. The coffee-pot
and milk-pot were early Georgian, with very peculiar marks; but these
vessels were at present hidden under the folded newspaper. There were
four chrysanthemums in four several vases of an exceptional kind of
glass. It sounds startling, I know, but the effect was not startling,
though I cannot imagine why not. Here again one was just conscious of
freshness and suitability and comfort.

       *       *       *       *       *

But Dick was taking no pleasure in it all this morning. He was feeling
almost physically sick, and the little spirit-heated silver dish of
kidneys on his Queen Anne sideboard was undisturbed. He had cut off the
top of an egg which was now rapidly cooling, and a milky surface
resembling thin ice was forming on the contents of his coffee-cup. And
meanwhile he read.

The column he was reading described the wedding of his uncle with Miss
Jenny Launton, and journalese surpassed itself. There was a great deal
about the fine old English appearance of the bridegroom, who, it
appeared, had been married in a black frock-coat and gray trousers, with
white spats, and who had worn a chrysanthemum in his button-hole (Dick
cast an almost venomous glance upon the lovely blossom just beside the
paper), and the beautiful youthful dignity of the bride, "so popular
among the humble denizens of the country-side." The bride's father, it
seemed, had officiated at the wedding in the "sturdy old church," and
had been greatly affected--assisted by the Rev. Matthieson. The wedding,
it seemed, had been unusually quiet, and had been celebrated by special
license: few of the family had been present, "owing," said the discreet
reporter, "to the express wish of the bridegroom." (Dick reflected
sardonically upon his own convenient attack of influenza from which he
was now completely recovered.) Then there was a great deal more about
the ancient home of the Guiseleys, and the aristocratic appearance of
Viscount Merefield, the young and popular heir to the earldom, who, it
appeared, had assisted at the wedding in another black frock-coat.
General Mainwaring had acted as best man. Finally, there was a short
description of the presents of the bridegroom to the bride, which
included a set of amethysts, etc....

       *       *       *       *       *

Dick read it all through to the luxuriant end, down to the peals of the
bells and the rejoicings in the evening. He ate several pieces of dry
toast while he read, crumbling them quickly with his left hand, and when
he had finished, drank his coffee straight off at one draught. Then he
got up, still with the paper, sat down in the easy-chair nearest to the
fire and read the whole thing through once more. Then he pushed the
paper off his knee and leaned back.

       *       *       *       *       *

It would need a complete psychological treatise to analyze properly all
the emotions he had recently gone through--emotions which had been, so
to say, developed and "fixed" by the newspaper column he had just read.
He was a man who was accustomed to pride himself secretly upon the speed
with which he faced each new turn of fortune, and the correctness of the
attitude he assumed. Perhaps it would be fair to say that the Artistic
Stoic was the ideal towards which he strove. But, somehow, those
emotions would not sort themselves. There they all were--fury,
indignation, contempt, wounded pride, resignation, pity--there were no
more to be added or subtracted; each had its place and its object, yet
they would not coalesce. Now fury against his uncle, now pity for
himself, now a poisonous kind of contempt of Jenny. Or, again, a
primitive kind of longing for Jenny, a disregard of his uncle, an
abasement of himself. The emotions whirled and twisted, and he sat quite
still, with his eyes closed, watching them.

But there was one more emotion which had made its appearance entirely
unexpectedly as soon as he had heard the news, that now, greatly to his
surprise, was beginning to take a considerable place amongst the
rest--and this was an extraordinarily warm sense of affection towards
Frank--of all people. It was composed partly of compassion, and partly
of an inexplicable sort of respect for which he could perceive no
reason. It was curious, he thought later, why this one figure should
have pushed its way to the front just now, when his uncle and Jenny and,
secondarily, that Rector ("so visibly affected by the ceremony") should
have occupied all the field. Frank had never meant very much to Dick; he
had stood for the undignified and the boyish in the midst of those
other stately elements of which Merefield, and, indeed, all truly
admirable life, was composed.

Yet now this figure stood out before him with startling distinctness.

First there was the fact that both Frank and himself had suffered
cruelly at the hands of the same woman, though Frank incomparably the
more cruelly of the two. Dick had the honesty to confess that Jenny had
at least never actually broken faith with himself; but he had also the
perspicuity to see that it came to very nearly the same thing. He knew
with the kind of certitude that neither needs nor appeals to evidence
that Jenny would certainly have accepted him if it had not been that
Lord Talgarth had already dawned on her horizon, and that she put him
off for a while simply to see whether this elderly sun would rise yet
higher in the heavens. It was the same consideration, no doubt, that had
caused her to throw Frank over a month or two earlier. A Lord Talgarth
in the bush was worth two cadets in the hand. That was where her
sensibleness had come in, and certainly it had served her well.

It was this community of injury, then, that primarily drew Dick's
attention to Frank; and, when once it lead been so drawn, it lingered on
other points in his personality. Artistic Stoicism is a very satisfying
ideal so long as things go tolerably well. It affords an excellent
protection against such misfortunes as those of not being appreciated or
of losing money or just missing a big position--against all such ills as
affect bodily or mental conveniences. But when the heart is touched,
Artistic Stoicism peels off like rusted armour. Dick had seriously began
to consider, during the last few days, whether the exact opposite of
Artistic Stoicism (let us call it Natural Impulsiveness) is not almost
as good an equipment. He began to see something admirable in Frank's
attitude to life, and the more he regarded it the more admirable it

Frank, therefore, had begun to wear to him the appearance of something
really moving and pathetic. He had had a communication or two from Jack
Kirkby that had given him a glimpse of what Frank was going through, and
his own extremely artificial self was beginning to be affected by it.

       *       *       *       *       *

He looked round his room now, once or twice, wondering whether it was
all worth while. He had put his whole soul into these rooms--there was
that Jacobean press with the grotesque heads--ah! how long he had
agonized over that in the shop in the King's Road, Chelsea, wondering
whether or not it would do just what he wanted, in that space between
the two doors. There was that small statue of a Tudor lady in a square
head-dress that he had bought in Oxford: he had occupied at least a week
in deciding exactly from what point she was to smile on him; there was
the new curtain dividing the two rooms: he had had half a dozen
patterns, gradually eliminated down to two, lying over his sofa-back for
ten days before he could make up his mind. (How lovely it looked, by the
way, just now, with that patch of mellow London sunlight lying across
the folds!)

But was it all worth it?... He argued the point with himself, almost
passively, stroking his brown beard meditatively; but the fact that he
could argue it at all showed that the foundations of his philosophy were

Well, then ... Frank ... What about him? Where was he?


About eleven o'clock a key turned in his outer door and a very
smart-looking page-boy came through, after tapping, with a telegram on a

Dick was writing to Hamilton's, in Berners Street, about a question of
gray mats for the spare bedroom, and he took the telegram and tore open
the envelope with a preoccupied air. Then he uttered a small

"Any answer, sir?"

"No. Yes.... Wait a second."

He took a telegraph-form with almost indecent haste, addressed it to
John Kirkby, Barham, Yorks, and wrote below:

     "_Certainly; will expect you dinner and sleep_.--RICHARD

Then, when the boy had gone, he read again the telegram he had received:

     "_Have received letter from Frank; can probably discover
     address if I come to town. Can you put me up
     to-night?_--JACK KIRKBY, Barham."

He pondered it a minute or so. Then he finished his note to Hamilton's,
but it was with a distracted manner. Then for several minutes he walked
up and down his rooms with his hands in his jacket-pockets, thinking
very deeply. He was reflecting how remarkable it was that he should hear
of Frank again just at this time, and was wondering what the next move
of Providence would be.

The rest of Dick's day was very characteristic of him; and considering
my other personages in this story and their occupations, I take a
dramatic sort of pleasure in writing it down.

He went out to lunch with a distinguished lady of his
acquaintance--whose name I forbear to give; she was not less than
seventy years old, and the two sat talking scandal about all their
friends till nearly four o'clock. The Talgarth affair, even, was
discussed in all its possible lights, and Dick was quite open about his
own part in the matter. He knew this old lady very well, and she knew
him very well. She was as shrewd as possible and extremely experienced,
and had helped Dick enormously in various intricacies and troubles of
the past; and he, on the other hand, as a well-informed bachelor, was of
almost equal service to her. She was just the least bit in the world
losing touch with things (at seventy you cannot do everything), and Dick
helped to keep her in touch. He lunched with her at least once a week
when they were both in town.

At four he went to the Bath Club, ordered tea and toast and cigarettes,
and sat out, with his hat over his eyes, on the balcony, watching the
swimmers. There was a boy of sixteen who dived with surprising skill,
and Dick took the greatest possible pleasure in observing him. There was
also a stout man of his acquaintance whose ambition it had been for
months to cross the bath by means of the swinging rings, and this
person, too, afforded him hardly less pleasure, as he always had to let
go at the fourth ring, if not the third, whence he plunged into the
water with a sound that, curiously enough, was more resonant than

At six, after looking through all the illustrated papers, he went out to
get his coat, and was presently in the thick of a heated argument with a
member of the committee on the subject of the new carpet in the front
hall. It was not fit, said Dick (searching for hyperboles), for even the
drawing-room of the "Cecil."

This argument made him a little later than he had intended, and, as he
came up in the lift, the attendant informed him, in the passionless
manner proper to such people, that the Mr. Kirkby who had been mentioned
had arrived and was waiting for him in his rooms.


Shortly before midnight Dick attempted to sum up the situation. They had
talked about Frank practically without ceasing, since Dick's man had set
coffee on the table at nine o'clock, and both had learned new facts.

"Well, then, wire to go down to this man, Parham-Carter," said Dick,
"the first thing after breakfast to-morrow. Do you know anything about
the Eton Mission?"

"No. One used to have a collection for it each half, you know, in the

"How do we go?"

"Oh! railway from Broad Street. I've looked it up. Victoria Park's the

Dick drew two or three draughts of smoke from his cigar-butt, and laid
it down in a small silver tray at his elbow. (The tray was a gift from
the old lady he had lunched with to-day.)

"All you've told me is extraordinarily interesting," he said. "It really
was to get away this girl that he's stopped so long?"

"I expect that's what he tells himself--that's the handle, so to speak.
But it's chiefly a sort of obstinacy. He said he would go on the roads,
and so he's gone."

"I rather like that, you know," said Dick.

Jack snorted a little.

"Oh, it's better than saying a thing and not doing it. But why say it?"

"Oh! one must do something," said Dick. "At least, some people seem to
think so. And I rather envy them, you know. I'm afraid I don't."

"Don't what?"

"Don't do anything. Unless you can call this sort of thing doing
something." He waved his hand vaguely round his perfectly arranged

Jack said nothing. He was inclined to be a little strenuous himself in
some ways, and he had always been conscious of a faint annoyance with
Dick's extreme leisureliness.

"I see you agree," went on Dick. "Well, we must see what can be done."

He stood up smiling and began to expand and contract his fingers
luxuriously before the fire behind his back.

"If we can only get Frank away," murmured Jack. "That's enough for the

"And what do you propose to do with him then?"

"Oh, Lord! Anything. Go round the world if he likes. Come and stay at my

"And suppose he thinks that's a bit too near to ... to Lady Talgarth.".

This switched Jack back again to a line he had already run on for an
hour this evening.

"Yes, that's the ghastly part of it all. He's sure not to have heard.
And who the devil's to tell him? And how will he take it?"

"Do you know," said Dick, "I'm really not frightened about that? All
you've told me about him makes me think he'll behave very well. Funny
thing, isn't it, that you know him so much better than I do? I never
dreamed there was so much in him, somehow."

"Oh, there's a lot in Frank. But one doesn't always know what it is."

"Do you think his religion's made much difference?"

"I think it's done this for him," said Jack slowly. "(I've been thinking
a lot about that). I think it's fixed things, so to speak ...." He
hesitated. He was not an expert in psychological analysis. Dick took him
up quickly. He nodded three or four times.

"Exactly," he said. "That's it, no doubt. It's given him a center--a hub
for the wheel."


"It's ... it's joined everything on to one point in him. He'll be more
obstinate and mad than ever before. He's got a center now.... I suppose
that's what religion's for," he added meditatively.

This was Greek to Jack. He looked at Dick uncomprehendingly.

Dick turned round and began to stare into the fire, still contracting
and expanding his fingers.

"It's a funny thing--this religion," he said at last. "I never could
understand it."

"And what about Archie?" asked Jack with sudden abruptness. (He had no
continuity of mind.)

Dick brought his meditations to a close with equal abruptness, or
perhaps he would not have been so caustic as regards his first cousin.

"Oh, Archie's an ass!" he said. "We can leave him out."

Jack changed the subject again. He was feeling the situation very
acutely indeed, and the result was that all its elements came tumbling
out anyhow.

"I've been beastly uncomfortable," he said.

"Yes?" said Dick. "Any particular way?"

Jack shifted one leg over the other. He had not approached one element
in the situation at all, as yet, with Dick, but it had been simmering in
him for weeks, and had been brought to a point by Frank's letter
received this morning. And now the curious intimacy into which he had
been brought with Dick began to warm it out of him.

"You'll think me an ass, too, I expect," he said. "And I rather think
it's true. But I can't help it."

Dick smiled at him encouragingly. (Certainly, thought Jack, this man was
nicer than he had thought him.)

"Well, it's this--" he said suddenly. "But it's frightfully hard to put
into words. You know what I told you about Frank's coming to me at


"Well, there was something he said then that made me uncomfortable. And
it's made me more and more uncomfortable ever since ..." (He paused
again.) "Well, it's this. He said that he felt there was something going
on that he couldn't understand--some sort of Plan, he said--in which he
had to take part--a sort of scheme to be worked out, you know. I suppose
he meant God," he explained feebly.

Dick looked at him questioningly.

"Oh! I can't put it into words," said Jack desperately. "Nor did he,
exactly. But that was the kind of idea. A sort of Fate. He said he was
quite certain of it.... And there were lots of little things that fitted
in. He changed his clothes in the old vestry, you know--in the old
church. It seemed like a sort of sacrifice, you know. And then I had a
beastly dream that night. And then there was something my mother said....
And now there's his letter: the one I showed you at dinner--about
something that might happen to him.... Oh! I'm a first-class ass, aren't

There was a considerable silence. He glanced up in an ashamed sort of
way, at the other, and saw him standing quite upright and still, again
with his back to the fire, looking out across the room. From outside
came the hum of the thoroughfare--the rolling of wheels, the jingle of
bells, the cries of human beings. He waited in a kind of shame for
Dick's next words. He had not put all these feelings into coherent form
before, even to himself, and they sounded now even more fantastic than
he had thought them. He waited, then, for the verdict of this quiet man,
whom up to now he had deemed something of a fool, who cared about
nothing but billiards and what was called Art. (Jack loathed Art.)

Then the verdict came in a surprising form. But he understood it

"Well, what about bed?" said Dick quietly.


It was on the morning of the twenty-fourth that Mr. Parham-Carter was
summoned by the neat maid-servant of the clergy-house to see two
gentlemen. She presented two cards on a plated salver, inscribed with
the names of Richard Guiseley and John B. Kirkby. He got up very
quickly, and went downstairs two at a time. A minute later he brought
them both upstairs and shut the door.

"Sit down," he said. "I'm most awfully glad you've come. I ... I've been
fearfully upset by all this, and I haven't known what to do."

"Now where is he?" demanded Jack Kirkby.

The clergyman made a deprecatory face.

"I've absolutely promised not to tell," he said. "And you know--"

"But that's ridiculous. We've come on purpose to fetch him away. It
simply mustn't go on. That's why I didn't write. I sent Frank's letter
on to Mr. Guiseley here (he's a cousin of Frank's, by the way), and he
asked me to come up to town. I got to town last night, and we've come
down here at once this morning."

Mr. Parham-Carter glanced at the neat melancholy-faced, bearded man who
sat opposite.

"But you know I promised," he said.

"Yes," burst in Jack; "but one doesn't keep promises one makes to
madmen. And--"

"But he's not mad in the least. He's--"


"I was going to say that it seems to me that he's more sane than anyone
else," said the young man dismally. "I know it sounds ridiculous, but--"

Dick Guiseley nodded with such emphasis that he stopped.

"I know what you mean," said Dick in his gentle drawl. "And I quite

"But it's all sickening rot," burst in Jack. "He must be mad. You don't
know Frank as I do--neither of you. And now there's this last
business--his father's marriage, I mean; and--"

He broke off and looked across at Dick.

"Go on," said Dick; "don't mind me."

"Well, we don't know whether he's heard of it or not; but he must hear
sooner or later, and then--"

"But he has heard of it," interrupted the clergyman. "I showed him the
paragraph myself."

"He's heard of it! And he knows all about it!"

"Certainly. And I understood from him that he knew the girl: the
Rector's daughter, isn't it?"

"Knows the girl! Why, he was engaged to her himself."


"Yes; didn't he tell you?"

"He didn't give me the faintest hint--"

"How did he behave? What did he say?"

Mr. Parham-Carter stared a moment in silence.

"What did he say?" snapped out Jack impatiently.

"Say? He said nothing. He just told me he knew the girl, when I asked

"Good God!" remarked Jack. And there was silence.

Dick broke it.

"Well, it seems to me we're rather in a hole."

"But it's preposterous," burst out Jack again. "Here's poor old Frank,
simply breaking his heart, and here are we perfectly ready to do
anything we can--why, the chap must be in hell!"

"Look here, Mr. Parham-Carter," said Dick softly. "What about your going
round to his house and seeing if he's in, and what he's likely to be
doing to-day."

"He'll be at the factory till this evening."

"The factory?"

"Yes; he's working at a jam factory just now."

A sound of fury and disdain broke from Jack.

"Well," continued Dick, "(May I take a cigarette, by the way?), why
shouldn't you go round and make inquiries, and find out how the land
lies? Then Kirkby and I might perhaps hang about a bit and run up
against him--if you'd just give us a hint, you know."

The other looked at him a moment.

"Well, perhaps I might," he said doubtfully. "But what--"

"Good Lord! But you'll be keeping your promise, won't you? After all,
it's quite natural we should come down after his letter--and quite on
the cards that we should run up against him.... Please to go at once,
and let us wait here."

In a quarter of an hour Mr. Parham-Carter came back quickly into the
room and shut the door.

"Yes; he's at the factory," he said. "Or at any rate he's not at home.
And they don't expect him back till late."


"There's something up. The girl's gone, too. (No; she's not at the
factory.) And I think there's going to be trouble."



The electric train slowed down and stopped at the Hammersmith terminus,
and there was the usual rush for the doors.

"Come on, Gertie," said a young man, "here we are."

The girl remained perfectly still with her face hidden.

The crowd was enormous this Christmas Eve, and for the most part laden
with parcels; the platforms surged with folk, and each bookstall,
blazing with lights (for it was after seven o'clock), was a center of a
kind of whirlpool. There was sensational news in the evening papers, and
everyone was anxious to get at the full details of which the main facts
were tantalizingly displayed on the posters. Everyone wanted to know
exactly who were the people concerned and how it had all happened. It
was a delightful tragedy for the Christmas festivities.

"Come on," said the young man again. "They're nearly all out."

"I can't," moaned the girl.

Frank took her by the arm resolutely.

"Come!" he said.

Then she came, and the two passed out together into the mob waiting to
come in.

"We shall have to walk," said Frank. "I'm sorry; but I've got to get
home somehow."

She bowed her head and said nothing.

Gertie presented a very unusual appearance this evening. Certainly she
had laid out the two-pound-ten to advantage. She was in a perfectly
decent dark dress with a red stripe in it; she had a large hat and some
species of boa round her neck; she even carried a cheap umbrella with a
sham silver band and a small hand-bag with one pocket-handkerchief
inside it. And to her own mind, no doubt, she was a perfect picture of
the ideal penitent--very respectable and even prosperous looking, and
yet with a dignified reserve. She was not at all flaunting, she must
have thought; neither was she, externally, anything of a disgrace. It
would be evident presently to her mother that she had returned out of
simple goodness of heart and not at all because her recent escapade had
been a failure. She would still be able to talk of "the Major" with
something of an air, and to make out that he treated her always like a
lady. (When I went to interview her a few months ago I found her very
dignified, very self-conscious, excessively refined and faintly
reminiscent of fallen splendor; and her mother told me privately that
she was beginning to be restless again and talked of going on to the
music-hall stage.)

But there is one thing that I find it very hard to forgive, and that is,
that as the two went together under the flaming white lights towards
Chiswick High Street, she turned to Frank a little nervously and asked
him if he would mind walking just behind her. (Please remember, however,
in extenuation, that Gertie's new pose was that of the Superior Young

"I don't quite like to be seen--" murmured this respectable person.

"Oh, certainly!" said Frank, without an instant's hesitation.

       *       *       *       *       *

They had met, half an hour before, by appointment, at the entrance to
the underground station at Victoria. Frank's van-journeyings would, he
calculated, bring him there about half-past six, and, strictly against
the orders of his superiors, but very ingeniously, with the connivance
of his fellow-driver of the van, he had arranged for his place to be
taken on the van for the rest of the evening by a man known to his
fellow-driver--but just now out of work--for the sum of one shilling, to
be paid within a week. He was quite determined not to leave Gertie alone
again, when once the journey to Chiswick had actually begun, until he
had seen her landed in her own home.

The place of meeting, too, had suited Gertie very well. She had left
Turner Road abruptly, without a word to anyone, the instant that the
Major's military-looking back had been seen by her to pass within the
swing-doors of the "Queen's Arms" for his usual morning refreshment.
Then she had occupied herself chiefly by collecting her various things
at their respective shops, purchased by Frank's two-pound-ten, and
putting them on. She had had a clear threepence to spare beyond the few
shillings she had determined to put by out of the total, and had
expended it by a visit to the cinematograph show in Victoria Street.
There had been a very touching series of pictures of the "Old Home in
the Country," and the milking of the cows, with a general atmosphere of
roses and church-bells, and Gertie had dissolved into tears more than
once, and had cried noiselessly into her new pocket-handkerchief drawn
from her new hand-bag. But she had met Frank quite punctually, for,
indeed, she had burned her boats now entirely and there was nothing else
left for her to do.

       *       *       *       *       *

At the entrance to Chiswick High Street another brilliant thought struck
her. She paused for Frank to come up.

"Frankie," she said, "you won't say anything about the two-pound-ten,
will you? I shouldn't like them to think--"

"Of course not," said Frank gravely, and after a moment, noticing that
she glanced at him again uneasily, understood, and fell obediently to
the rear once more.

       *       *       *       *       *

About a quarter of a mile further on her steps began to go slower. Frank
watched her very carefully. He was not absolutely sure of her even now.
Then she crossed over the street between two trams, and Frank dodged
after her. Then she turned as if to walk back to Hammersmith. In an
instant Frank was at her side.

"You're going the wrong way," he said.

She stopped irresolutely, and had to make way for two or three hurrying
people, to pass.

"Oh, Frankie! I can't!" she wailed softly.

"Come!" said Frank, and took her by the arm once more.

Five minutes later they stood together half-way down a certain long lane
that turns out of Chiswick High Street to the left, and there, for the
first time, she seems to have been genuinely frightened. The street was
quite empty; the entire walking population was parading up and down the
brightly-lit thoroughfare a hundred yards behind them, or feverishly
engaged in various kinds of provision shops. The lamps were sparse in
this lane, and all was comparatively quiet.

"Oh, Frankie!" she moaned again. "I can't! I can't!... I daren't!"

She leaned back against the sill of a window.

Yet, even then, I believe she was rather enjoying herself. It was all so
extremely like the sort of plays over which she had been accustomed to
shed tears. The Prodigal's Return! And on Christmas Eve! It only
required a little snow to be falling and a crying infant at her

I wonder what Frank made of it. He must have known Gertie thoroughly
well by now, and certainly there is not one sensible man in a thousand
whose gorge would not have risen at the situation. Yet I doubt whether
Frank paid it much attention.

"Where's the house?" he said.

He glanced up at the number of the door by which he stood.

"It must be a dozen doors further on," he said.

"It's the last house in the row," murmured Gertie, in a weak voice. "Is
father looking out? Go and see."

"My dear girl," said Frank, "do not be silly. Do remember your mother's

Then she suddenly turned on him, and if ever she was genuine she was in
that moment.

"Frankie," she whispered, "why not take me away yourself? Oh! take me
away! take me away!"

He looked into her eyes for an instant, and in that instant he caught
again that glimpse as of Jenny herself.

"Take me away--I'll live with you just as you like!" She took him by his
poor old jacket-lapel. "You can easily make enough, and I don't ask--"

Then he detached her fingers and took her gently by the arm.

"Come with me," he said. "No; not another word."

Together in silence they went the few steps that separated them from the
house. There was a little garden in front, its borders set alternately
with sea-shells and flints. At the gate she hesitated once more, but he
unlatched the gate and pushed her gently through.

"Oh! my gloves!" whispered Gertie, in a sharp tone of consternation. "I
left them in the shop next the A.B.C. in Wilton Road."

Frank nodded. Then, still urging her, he brought her up to the door and
tapped upon it.

There were footsteps inside.

"God bless you, Gertie. Be a good girl. I'll wait in the road for ten
minutes, so that you can call me if you want to."

Then he was gone as the door opened.


The next public appearance of Frank that I have been able to trace, was
in Westminster Cathedral. Now it costs an extra penny at least, I think,
to break one's journey from Hammersmith to Broad Street, and I imagine
that Frank would not have done this after what he had said to Gertie
about the difficulty connected with taking an omnibus, except for some
definite reason, so it is only possible to conclude that he broke his
journey at Victoria in an attempt to get at those gloves.

It seems almost incredible that Gertie should have spoken of her gloves
at such a moment, but it really happened. She told me so herself. And,
personally, on thinking over it, it seems to me tolerably in line
(though perhaps the line is rather unusually prolonged) with all that I
have been able to gather about her whole character. The fact is that
gloves, just then, were to her really important. She was about to appear
on the stage of family life, and she had formed a perfectly consistent
conception of her part. Gloves were an integral part of her
costume--they were the final proof of a sort of opulence and refinement;
therefore, though she could not get them just then, it was perfectly
natural and proper of her to mention them. It must not be thought that
Gertie was insincere: she was not; she was dramatic. And it is a fact
that within five minutes of her arrival she was down on her knees by her
mother, with her face hidden in her mother's lap, crying her heart out.
By the time she remembered Frank and ran out into the street, he had
been gone more than twenty minutes.

       *       *       *       *       *

One of the priests attached to Westminster Cathedral happened to have a
pause about half-past nine o'clock in his hearing of confessions. He had
been in his box without a break from six o'clock, and he was extremely
tired and stiff about the knees. He had said the whole of his office
during intervals, and he thought he would take a little walk up and down
the south aisle to stretch his legs.

So he unlatched the little door of his confessional, leaving the light
burning in case someone else turned up; he slipped off his stole and
came outside.

The whole aisle, it seemed, was empty, though there was still a
sprinkling of folks in the north aisle, right across the great space of
the nave; and he went down the whole length, down to the west end to
have a general look up the Cathedral.

He stood looking for three or four minutes.

Overhead hung the huge span of brickwork, lost in darkness, incredibly
vast and mysterious, with here and there emerging into faint light a
slice of a dome or the slope of some architrave-like dogmas from
impenetrable mystery. Before him lay the immense nave, thronged now with
close-packed chairs in readiness for the midnight Mass, and they seemed
to him as he looked with tired eyes, almost like the bent shoulders of
an enormous crowd bowed in dead silence of adoration. But there was
nothing yet to adore, except up there to the left, where a very pale
glimmer shone on polished marble among the shadows before the chapel of
the Blessed Sacrament. There was one other exception; for overhead,
against the half-lighted apse, where a belated sacristan still moved
about, himself a shadow, busy with the last preparations of the High
Altar--there burgeoned out the ominous silhouette of the vast hanging
cross, but so dark that the tortured Christ upon it was invisible....
Yet surely that was right on this night, for who, of all those who were
to adore presently the Child of joy, gave a thought to the Man of
Sorrows? His Time was yet three months away....

       *       *       *       *       *

As the priest stood there, looking and imagining, with that strange
clarity of mind and intuition that a few hours in the confessional gives
to even the dullest brain, he noticed the figure of a man detach itself
from one of the lighted confessionals on the left and come down towards
him, walking quickly and lightly. To his surprise, this young man,
instead of going out at the northwest door, wheeled and came towards

He noticed him particularly, and remembered his dress afterwards: it was
a very shabby dark blue suit, splashed with mud from the Christmas
streets, very bulgy about the knees; the coat was buttoned up tightly
round a muffler that had probably once been white, and his big boots
made a considerable noise as he came.

The priest had a sudden impulse as the young man crossed him.

"A merry Christmas," he said.

The young man stopped a moment and smiled all over his face, and the
priest noticed the extraordinary serenity and pleasantness of the
face--and that, though it was the face of a Poor Man, with sunken cheeks
and lines at the corners of the mouth.

"Thank you, Father," he said. "The same to you."

Then he went on, his boots as noisy as ever, and turned up the south
aisle. And presently the sound of his boots ceased.

       *       *       *       *       *

The priest still stood a moment or two, looking and thinking, and it
struck him with something of pleasure that the young man, though
obviously of the most completely submerged tenth, had not even hesitated
or paused, still less said one word, with the hope of a little something
for Christmas' sake. Surely he had spoken, too, with the voice of an
educated man.

He became suddenly interested--he scarcely knew why, and the impression
made just by that single glimpse of a personality deepened every
moment.... What in the world was that young man doing here?... What was
his business up in that empty south aisle? Who was he? What was it all

He thought presently that he would go up and see; it was on his way back
to the clergy-house, too. But when he reached the corner of the aisle
and could see up it, there seemed to be no one there.

He began to walk up, wondering more than ever, and then on a sudden he
saw a figure kneeling on the lower step of the chapel on the right,
railed off and curtained now, where the Crib was ready to be disclosed
two hours later.

It all seemed very odd. He could not understand why anyone should wish
to pray before an impenetrable curtain. As he came nearer he saw it was
his friend all right. Those boots were unmistakable. The young man was
kneeling on the step, quite upright and motionless, his cap held in his
hands, facing towards the curtain behind which, no doubt, there stood
the rock-roofed stable, with the Three Personages--an old man, a maid
and a new-born Child. But their time, too, was not yet. It was two hours

Priests do not usually stare in the face of people who are saying their
prayers--they are quite accustomed to that phenomenon; but this priest
(he tells me) simply could not resist it. And as he passed on his
noiseless shoes, noticing that the light from his own confessional shone
full upon the man, he turned and looked straight at his face.

Now I do not understand what it was that he saw; he does not understand
it himself; but it seems that there was something that impressed him
more than anything else that he had ever seen before or since in the
whole world.

The young man's eyes were open and his lips were closed. Not one muscle
of his face moved. So much for the physical facts. But it was a case
where the physical facts are supremely unimportant.... At any rate, the
priest could only recall them with an effort. The point was that there
was something supra-physical there--(personally I should call it
supernatural)--that stabbed the watcher's heart clean through with one
over whelming pang.... (I think that's enough.)

       *       *       *       *       *

When the priest reached the Lady chapel he sat down, still trembling a
little, and threw all his attention into his ears, determined to hear
the first movement that the kneeling figure made behind him. So he sat
minute after minute. The Cathedral was full of echoes--murmurous
rebounds of the noises of the streets, drawn out and mellowed into long,
soft, rolling tones, against which, as against a foil, there stood out
detached, now and then, the sudden footsteps of someone leaving or
entering a confessional, the short scream of a slipping chair--once the
sudden noise of a confessional-door being opened and the click of the
handle which turned out the electric light. And it was full of shadows,
too; a monstrous outline crossed and recrossed the apse behind the High
Altar, as the sacristan moved about; once a hand, as of a giant,
remained poised for an instant somewhere on the wall beside the throne.
It seemed to the priest, tired and clear-brained as he was, as if he sat
in some place of expectation--some great cavern where mysteries moved
and passed in preparation for a climax. All was hushed and confused, yet
alive; and the dark waves would break presently in the glory of the
midnight Mass.

He scarcely knew what held him there, nor what it was for which he
waited. He thought of the lighted common-room at the end of the long
corridor beyond the sacristy. He wondered who was there; perhaps one or
two were playing billiards and smoking; they had had a hard day of it
and would scarcely get to bed before three. And yet, here he sat, tired
and over-strained, yet waiting--waiting for a disreputable-looking young
man in a dirty suit and muffler and big boots, to give over praying
before a curtain in an empty aisle.

A figure presently came softly round the corner behind him. It was the
priest whom he had heard leaving his confessional just now.

"Haven't you done yet?" whispered the new-comer, pausing behind his

"Coming in a minute or two," he said.

The figure passed on; presently a door banged like muffled thunder
somewhere beyond the sacristy, and simultaneously he heard a pair of
boots going down the aisle behind.

He got up instantly, and with long, silent steps made his way down the
aisle also. The figure wheeled the corner and disappeared; he himself
ran on tip-toe and was in time to see him turning away from the
holy-water basin by the door. But he came so quickly after him that the
door was still vibrating as he put his hand upon it. He came out more
cautiously through the little entrance, and stood on the steps in time
to see the young man moving off, not five yards away, in the direction
of Victoria Street. But here something stopped him.

Coming straight up the pavement outside the Art and Book Company depot
was a newsboy at the trot, yelling something as he came, with a poster
flapping from one arm and a bundle of papers under the other. The priest
could not catch what he said, but he saw the young man suddenly stop and
then turn off sharply towards the boy, and he saw him, after fumbling in
his pocket, produce a halfpenny and a paper pass into his hands.

There then he stood, motionless on the pavement, the sheet spread before
him flapping a little in the gusty night wind.

"Paper, sir!" yelled the boy, pausing in the road. "'Orrible--"

The priest nodded; but he was not thinking much about the paper, and
produced his halfpenny. The paper was put into his hand, but he paid no
attention to it. He was still watching the motionless figure on the
pavement. About three minutes passed. Then the young man suddenly and
dexterously folded the paper, folded it again and slipped it into his
pocket. Then he set off walking and a moment later had vanished round
the corner into Victoria Street.

       *       *       *       *       *

The priest thought no more of the paper as he went back through the
Cathedral, wondering again over what he had seen....

But the common-room was empty when he got to it, and presently he spread
the paper before him on the table and leaned over it to see what the
excitement was about. There was no doubt as to what the news was--there
were headlines occupying nearly a third of a column; but it appeared to
him unimportant as general news: he had never heard of the people
before. It seemed that a wealthy peer who lived in the North of England,
who had only recently been married for the second time, had been killed
in a motor smash together with his eldest son. The chauffeur had escaped
with a fractured thigh. The peer's name was Lord Talgarth.



On the morning of the twenty-fourth a curious little incident
happened--I dug the facts out of the police news--in a small
public-house on the outskirts of South London. Obviously it is no more
than the sheerest coincidence. Four men were drinking a friendly glass
of beer together on their way back to work from breakfast. Their
ecclesiastical zeal seems to have been peculiarly strong, for they
distinctly stated that they were celebrating Christmas on that date, and
I deduce from that statement that beer-drinking was comparatively
infrequent with them.

However, as they were about to part, there entered to them a fifth,
travel-stained and tired, who sat down and demanded some stronger form
of stimulant. The new-comer was known to these four, for his name was
given, and his domicile was mentioned as Hackney Wick. He was a small
man, very active and very silent and rather pale; and he seems to have
had something of a mysterious reputation even among his friends and to
be considered a dangerous man to cross.

He made no mystery, however, as to where he had come from, nor whither
he was going. He had come from Kent, he said, and humorously added that
he had been hop-picking, and was going to join his wife and the family
circle for the festival of Christmas. He remarked that his wife had
written to him to say she had lodgers.

The four men naturally stayed a little to hear all this news and to
celebrate Christmas once more, but they presently were forced to tear
themselves away. It was as the first man was leaving (his foreman
appears to have been of a tyrannical disposition) that the little
incident happened.

"Why," he said, "Bill" (three out of the five companions seemed to have
been usually called "Bill"), "Bill, your boots are in a mess."

The Bill in question made caustic remarks. He observed that it would be
remarkable if they were not in such weather. But the other persisted
that this was not mud, and a general inspection was made. This resulted
in the opinion of the majority being formed that Bill had trodden in
some blood. Bill himself was one of the majority, though he attempted in
vain to think of any explanation. Two men, however, declared that in
their opinion it was only red earth. (A certain obscurity appears in the
evidence at this point, owing to the common use of a certain expletive
in the mouth of the British working-man.) There was a hot discussion on
the subject, and the Bill whose boots were under argument seems to have
been the only man to keep his head. He argued very sensibly that if the
stains were those of blood, then he must have stepped in some--perhaps
in the gutter of a slaughter-house; and if it was not blood, then it
must be something else he had trodden in. It was urged upon him that it
was best washed off, and he seems finally to have taken the advice,
though without enthusiasm.

Then the four men departed.

The landlady's evidence was to the same effect. She states that the
new-comer, with whose name she had been previously unacquainted, though
she knew his face, had remained very tranquilly for an hour or so and
had breakfasted off bacon and eggs. He seemed to have plenty of money,
she said. He had finally set off, limping a little, in a northward

Now this incident is a very small one. I only mention it because, in
reading the evidence later, I found myself reminded of a parallel
incident, recorded in a famous historical trial, in which something
resembling blood was seen on the hand of the judge. His name was Ayloff,
and his date the sixteenth century.


Mrs. Partington had a surprise--not wholly agreeable--on that Christmas
Eve. For at half-past three, just as the London evening was beginning to
close in, her husband walked into the kitchen.

She had seen nothing of him for six weeks, and had managed to get on
fairly well without him. I am not even now certain whether or no she
knows what her husband's occupation is during these absences of his--I
think it quite possible that, honestly, she does not--and I have no idea
myself. It seemed, however, this time, that he had prospered. He was in
quite a good temper, he was tolerably well dressed, and within ten
minutes of his arrival he had produced a handful of shillings. Five of
these he handed over to her at once for Christmas necessaries, and ten
more he entrusted to Maggie with explicit directions as to their

While he took off his boots, his wife gave him the news--first, as to
the arrival of the Major's little party, and next as to its unhappy
dispersion on that very day.

"He will 'ave it as the young man's gone off with the young woman," she

Mr. Partington made a commentatory sound.

"An' 'e's 'arf mad," she added. "'E means mischief if 'e can manage it."

Mr. Partington observed, in his own particular kind of vocabulary, that
the Major's intentions were absurd, since the young man would scarcely
be such a peculiarly qualified kind of fool as to return. And Mrs.
Partington agreed with him. (In fact, this had been her one comfort all
day. For it seemed to her, with her frank and natural ideas, that, on
the whole, Frank and Gertie had done the proper thing. She was pleased,
too, to think that she had been right in her surmises as to Gertie's
attitude to Frank. For, of course, she never doubted for one single
instant that the two had eloped together in the ordinary way, though
probably without any intentions of matrimony.)

Mr. Partington presently inquired as to where the Major was, and was
informed that he was, of course, at the "Queen's Arms." He had been
there, in fact, continuously--except for sudden excursions home, to
demand whether anything had been heard of the fugitives--since about
half-past eleven that morning. It was a situation that needed comfort.

Mrs. Partington added a few comments on the whole situation, and
presently put on her bonnet and went out to supplement her Christmas
preparations with the extra five shillings, leaving her husband to doze
in the Windsor chair, with his pipe depending from his mouth. He had
walked up from Kent that morning, he said.

       *       *       *       *       *

She returned in time to get tea ready, bringing with her various
"relishes," and found that the situation had developed slightly since
her departure. The Major had made another of his infuriated returns, and
had expanded at length to his old friend Mr. Partington, recounting the
extraordinary kindness he had always shown to Frank and the confidence
he had reposed in him. He had picked him up, it seemed, when the young
man had been practically starving, and had been father and comrade to
him ever since. And to be repaid in this way! He had succeeded also by
his eloquence, Mrs. Partington perceived, in winning her husband's
sympathies, and was now gone off again, ostensibly to scour the
neighborhood once more, but, more probably, to attempt to drown his
grieved and wounded feelings.

Mrs. Partington set her thin lips and said nothing. She noticed also, as
she spread the table, a number of bottles set upon the floor, two of
them with yellow labels--the result of Maggie's errand--and prepared
herself to face a somewhat riotous evening. But Christmas, she reflected
for her consolation, comes but once a year.

It was about nine o'clock that the two men and the one woman sat down to
supper upstairs. The children had been put to bed in the kitchen as
usual, after Jimmie had informed his mother that the clergyman had been
round no less than three times since four o'clock to inquire after the
vanished lodger. He was a little tearful at being put to bed at such an
unusually early hour, as Mr. Parham-Carter, it appeared, had promised
him no less than sixpence if he would come round to the clergy-house
within five minutes after the lodger's return, and it was obviously
impossible to traverse the streets in a single flannel shirt.

His mother dismissed it all as nonsense. She told him that Frankie was
not coming back at all--that he wasn't a good young man, and had run
away without paying mother her rent. This made the situation worse than
ever, as Jimmie protested violently against this shattering of his
ideal, and his mother had to assume a good deal of sternness to cover up
her own tenderness of feeling. But she, too--though she considered the
flight of the two perfectly usual--was conscious of a very slight sense
of disappointment herself that it should have been this particular young
man who had done it.

Then she went upstairs again to supper.


The famous archway that gives entrance to the district of Hackney Wick
seems, especially on a rainy night, directly designed by the Great
Eastern Railway as a vantage ground for observant loafers with a desire
to know every soul that enters or leaves Hackney Wick. It is, of course,
possible to, enter Hackney Wick by other ways--it may be approached by
the marshes, and there is, I think, another way round about half a mile
to the east, under the railway. But those ways have nothing whatever to
do with people coming from London proper. You arrive at Victoria Park
Station; you turn immediately to the right and follow the pavement down,
with the park on your left, until you come to the archway where the road
unites with that coming from Homerton. One is absolutely safe,
therefore, assuming that one has not to deal with watchful criminals, in
standing under the arch with the certitude that sooner or later, if you
wait long enough, the man whom you expect to enter Hackney Wick will
pass within ten yards of you.

Mr. Parham-Carter, of course, knew this perfectly well, and had,
finally, communicated the fact to the other two quite early in the
afternoon. An elaborate system of watches, therefore, had been arranged,
by which one of the three had been on guard continuously since three
o'clock. It was Jack who had had the privilege (if he had but known it)
of observing Mr. Partington himself returning home to his family for
Christmas, and it was Dick, who came on guard about five, who had seen
the Major--or, rather, what was to him merely a shabby and excited
man--leave and then return to the "Queen's Arms" during his hour's

       *       *       *       *       *

After the amazing and shocking news, however, of the accident to Lord
Talgarth and Archie, the precautions had been doubled. It was the
clergyman who had first bought an evening paper soon after five o'clock,
and within five minutes the other two knew it also.

It is of no good to try to describe the effect it had on their minds,
beyond saying that it made all three of them absolutely resolute that
Frank should by no possible means escape them. The full dramatic
situation of it all they scarcely appreciated, though it soaked more and
more into them gradually as they waited--two of them in the Men's Club
just round the corner, and the third, shivering and stamping, under the
arch. (An unemployed man, known to the clergyman, had been set as an
additional sentry on the steps of the Men's Club, whose duty it would
be, the moment the signal was given from the arch that Frank was
coming, to call the other two instantly from inside. Further, the
clergyman--as has been related--had been round three times since four
o'clock to Turner Road, and had taken Jimmie into his pay.)

The situation was really rather startling, even to the imperturbable
Dick. This pleasant young man, to whom he had begun to feel very
strangely tender during the last month or two, now tramping London
streets (or driving a van), in his miserable old clothes described to
him by the clergyman, or working at the jam factory, was actually no one
else at this moment but the new Lord Talgarth--with all that that
implied. Merefield was his, the big house in Berkeley Square was his;
the moor in Scotland.... It was an entire reversal of the whole thing:
it was as a change of trumps in whist: everything had altered its

Well, he had plenty of time, both before he came off guard at seven and
after he had joined the clergyman in the Men's Club, to sort out the
facts and their consequences.

       *       *       *       *       *

About half-past ten the three held a consultation under the archway,
while trains rumbled overhead. They attracted very little attention
here: the archway is dark and wide; they were muffled to the eyes; and
there usually is a fringe of people standing under shelter here on rainy
evenings. They leaned back against the wall and talked.

They had taken further steps since they had last met. Mr. Parham-Carter
had been round to the jam factory, and had returned with the news that
the van had come back under the charge of only one of the drivers, and
that the other one, who was called Gregory (whom Mr. Parham-Carter was
inquiring after), would certainly be dismissed in consequence. He had
taken the address of the driver, who was now off duty--somewhere in
Homerton--with the intention of going to see him next morning if Frank
had not appeared.

There were two points they were discussing now. First, should the police
be informed? Secondly, was it probable that Frank would have heard the
news, and, if so, was it conceivable that he had gone straight off
somewhere in consequence--to his lawyers, or even to Merefield itself?

Dick remembered the name of the firm quite well--at least, he thought
so. Should he send a wire to inquire?

But then, in that case, Jack shrewdly pointed out, everything was as it
should be. And this reflection caused the three considerable comfort.

For all that, there were one or two "ifs." Was it likely that Frank
should have heard the news? He was notoriously hard up, and the name
Talgarth had not appeared, so far, on any of the posters. Yet he might
easily have been given a paper, or picked one up ... and then....

So the discussion went on, and there was not much to be got out of it.
The final decision come to was this: That guard should be kept, as
before, until twelve o'clock midnight; that at that hour the three
should leave the archway and, in company, visit two places--Turner Road
and the police-station--and that the occupants of both these places
should be informed of the facts. And that then all three should go to


At ten minutes past eleven Dick moved away from the fire in the Men's
Club, where he had just been warming himself after his vigil, and began
to walk up and down.

He had no idea why he was so uncomfortable, and he determined to set to
work to reassure himself. (The clergyman, he noticed, was beginning to
doze a little by the fire, for the club had just been officially closed
and the rooms were empty.)

Of course, it was not pleasant to have to tell a young man that his
father and brother were dead (Dick himself was conscious of a
considerable shock), but surely the situation was, on the whole,
enormously improved. This morning Frank was a pauper; to-night he was
practically a millionaire, as well as a peer of the realm. This morning
his friends had nothing by which they might appeal to him, except common
sense and affection, and Frank had very little of the one, and, it would
seem, a very curious idea of the other.

Of course, all that affair about Jenny was a bad business (Dick could
hardly even now trust himself to think of her too much, and not to
discuss her at all), but Frank would get over it.

Then, still walking up and down, and honestly reassured by sheer reason,
he began to think of what part Jenny would play in the future.... It was
a very odd situation, a very odd situation indeed. (The deliberate and
self-restrained Dick used an even stronger expression.) Here was a young
woman who had jilted the son and married the father, obviously from
ambitious motives, and now found herself almost immediately in the
position of a very much unestablished kind of dowager, with the jilted
son reigning in her husband's stead. And what on earth would happen
next? Diamonds had been trumps; now it looked as if hearts were to
succeed them; and what a very remarkable pattern was that of these

But to come back to Frank--

And at that moment he heard a noise at the door, and, as the clergyman
started up from his doze, Dick saw the towzled and becapped head of the
unemployed man and his hand beckoning violently, and heard his hoarse
voice adjuring them to make haste. The gentleman under the arch, he
said, was signaling.

The scene was complete when the two arrived, with the unemployed man
encouraging them from behind, half a minute later under the archway.

Jack had faced Frank fairly and squarely on the further pavement, and
was holding him in talk.

"My dear chap," he was saying, "we've been waiting for you all day.
Thank the Lord you've come!"

Frank looked a piteous sight, thought Dick, who now for the first time
saw the costume that Mr. Parham-Carter had described with such
minuteness. He was standing almost under the lamp, and there were heavy
drooping shadows on his face; he looked five years older than when Dick
had last seen him--only at Easter. But his voice was confident and
self-respecting enough.

"My dear Jack," he was saying, "you really mustn't interrupt. I've only
just--" Then he broke off as he recognized the others.

"So you've given me away after all," he said with a certain sternness to
the clergyman.

"Indeed I haven't," cried that artless young man. "They came quite
unexpectedly this morning."

"And you've told them that they could catch me here," said Frank "Well,
it makes no difference. I'm going on--Hullo! Dick!"

"Look here!" said Dick. "It's really serious. You've heard about--" His
voice broke.

"I've heard about it," said Frank. "But that doesn't make any difference
for to-night."

"But my dear man," cried Jack, seizing him by the lapel of his coat,
"it's simply ridiculous. We've come down here on purpose--you're killing

"One moment," said Frank. "Tell me exactly what you want."

Dick pushed to the front.

"Let him alone, you fellows.... This is what we want, Frank. We want you
to come straight to the clergy-house for to-night. To-morrow you and
I'll go and see the lawyers first thing in the morning, and go up to
Merefield by the afternoon train. I'm sorry, but you've really got to go
through with it. You're the head of the family now. They'll be all
waiting for you there, and they can't do anything without you. This
mustn't get into the papers. Fortunately, not a soul knows of it yet,
though they would have if you'd been half an hour later. Now, come

"One moment," said Frank. "I agree with nearly all that you've said. I
quite agree with you that"--he paused a moment--"that the head of the
family should be at Merefield to-morrow night. But for to-night you
three must just go round to the clergy-house and wait. I've got to
finish my job clean out--and--"

"What job?" cried two voices simultaneously.

Frank leaned against the wall and put his hands in his pockets.

"I really don't propose to go into all that now. It'd take an hour. But
two of you know most of the story. In a dozen words it's this--I've got
the girl away, and now I'm going to tell the man, and tell him a few
other things at the same time. That's the whole thing. Now clear off,
please. (I'm awfully obliged, you know, and all that), but you really
must let me finish it before I do anything else."

There was a silence.

It seemed tolerably reasonable, put like that--at least, it seemed
consistent with what appeared to the three to be the amazing unreason of
all Frank's proceedings. They hesitated, and were lost.

"Will you swear not to clear out of Hackney Wick before we've seen you
again?" demanded Jack hoarsely.

Frank bowed his head.

"Yes," he said.

The clergyman and Dick were consulting in low voices. Jack looked at
them with a wild sort of appeal in his face. He was completely
bewildered, and hoped for help. But none came.

"Will you swear--" he began again.

Frank put his hand suddenly on his friend's shoulder.

"Look here, old man. I'm really rather done up. I think you might let me
go without any more--"

"All right, we agree," said Dick suddenly. "And--"

"Very good," said Frank. "Then there's really no more--"

He turned as if to go.

"Frank, Frank--" cried Jack.

Frank turned and glanced at him, and then went on.

"Good-night," he cried.

And so they let him go.

They watched him, in silence, cross the road by the "Queen's Arms" and
pass up the left-hand pavement. As he drew near each lamp his shadow
lay behind him, shortened, vanished and reappeared before him. After
the third lamp they lost him, and they knew he would a moment later pass
into Turner Road.

So they let him go.


Mr. Parham-Carter's room looked very warm and home-like after the
comfortlessness of the damp lamp-lit streets. It was as has already been
related: the Madonna, the prints, the low book-cases, the drawn
curtains, the rosy walls, the dancing firelight and the electric lamp.

It was even reassuring at first--safe and protected, and the three sat
down content. A tray with some cold meat and cheese rested on the table
by the fire, and cocoa in a brown jug stood warming in the fender. They
had had irregular kinds of refreshments in the Men's Club at odd
intervals, and were exceedingly hungry....

They began to talk presently, and it was astonishing how the sight and
touch of Frank had cheered them. More than one of the three has
confessed to me since that a large part of the anxiety was caused by his
simple absence and by imaginative little pictures of street accidents.
It would have been so extremely ironical if he had happened to have
been run over on the day on which he became Lord Talgarth.

They laid their little plans, too, for the next day. Dick had thought it
all out. He, Jack and Frank were to call at the lawyers' office in
Lincoln's Inn Fields, and leave a message, as the office would be closed
of course, immediately after the wanderer had been dressed properly in
ready-made clothes. Then they would catch the early afternoon train and
get to Merefield that night. The funeral could not possibly take place
for several days: there would have to be an inquest.

Then they read over the account of the smash in the _Star_
newspaper--special edition. It seemed to have been nobody's fault. The
brake had refused to act going down a steep hill; they had run into a
wall; the chauffeur had been thrown clean over it; the two passengers
had been pinned under the car. Lord Talgarth was dead at once; Archie
had died five minutes after being taken out.

So they all talked at once in low voices, but in the obvious excitement
of relief. It was an extraordinary pleasure to them--now that they
looked at it in the sanity conferred by food and warmth--to reflect that
Frank was within a quarter of a mile of them--certainly in dreary
surroundings; but it was for the last time. To-morrow would see him
restored to ordinary life, his delusions and vagaries plucked from him
by irresistible circumstance, and the future in his hands.

       *       *       *       *       *

Midnight still found them talking--alert and cheerful; but a little
silence fell as they heard the chiming of bells.

"Christmas Day, by George!" said the clergyman. "Merry Christmas!"

They shook hands, smiling shamefacedly, as is the custom of Englishmen.

"And to think of old Frank--" mused Jack half aloud. "I told you,
Guiseley, about his coming to me in the autumn?" (He had been thinking a
great deal about that visit lately, and about what Frank had told him of
himself--the idea he had of Something going on behind the scenes in
which he had passively to take his part; his remark on how pleasant it
must be to be a squire. Well, the play had come to an end, it seemed;
now there followed the life of a squire indeed. It was curious to think
that Frank was, actually at this moment, Lord Talgarth!)

Dick nodded his head, smiling to himself in his beard. Somehow or
another the turn things had taken had submerged in him for the present
the consciousness of the tragedy up at Merefield, and his own private
griefs, and the memory of Jenny.

Jack told it all again briefly. He piled it on about the Major and his
extreme repulsiveness, and the draggled appearance of Gertie, and
Frank's incredible obstinacy.

"And to think that he's brought it off, and got the girl home to her
people.... Well, thank the Lord that's over! We shan't have any more of
that sort of thing."

Dick got up presently and began to walk about, eyeing the pictures and
the books.

"Want to turn in?" asked the cleric.

"Well, I think, as we've an early start--"

The clergyman jumped up.

"You've a beastly little room, I'm afraid. We're rather full up. And
you, Mr. Kirkby!"

"I'll wait till you come back," he said.

       *       *       *       *       *

The two went out, after good-nights, and Jack was left staring at the

He felt very wide-awake, and listened contentedly to the dying noises of
the streets. Somewhere in that hive outside was Frank--old Frank. That
was very good to think of....

During these last months Frank's personality had been very persistently
before him. It was not that he pretended to understand him in the very
least; but he understood enough now to feel that there was something
very admirable in it all. It was mad and quixotic and absurd, but it
had a certain light of nobility. Of course, it would never do if people
in general behaved like that; society simply could not go on if everyone
went about espousing the cause of unhappy and badly-behaved individuals,
and put on old clothes and played the Ass. But, for all that, it was not
unpleasant to reflect that his own friend had chosen to do these things
in despite of convention. There was a touch of fineness in it. And it
was all over now, thank God.... What times they would have up in the

He heard a gate clash somewhere outside. The sound just detached itself
from the murmur of the night. Then a late train ran grinding over the
embanked railway behind the house, and drew up with the screaming of
brakes at Victoria Park Station, and distracted him again.

"Are you ready, Mr. Kirkby?" said the clergyman, coming in.

Jack stood up, stretching himself. In the middle of the stretch he

"What's that noise?" he asked.

They stood listening.

Then again came the sharp, prolonged tingle of an electric bell,
followed by a battering at a door downstairs.

Jack, looking in the other's face, saw him go ever so slightly pale
beneath his eyes.

"There's somebody at the door," said Mr. Parham-Carter. "I'll just go
down and see."

And, as Jack stood there, motionless and breathless, he could hear no
sound but the thick hammering of his own heart at the base of his



At half-past eleven o'clock Mrs. Partington came upstairs to the room
where the two men were still drinking, to make one more suggestion that
it was time to go to bed.

It was a dreary little room, this front bedroom on the first floor,
where Frank and the Major had slept last night in one large double bed.
The bed was pushed now close against the wall, the clothes still tumbled
and unmade, with various articles lying upon it, as on a table. A chair
without a back stood between it and the window.

The table where the two men still sat was pulled close to the fire that
had been lighted partly in honor of Mr. Partington and partly in honor
of Christmas, and was covered with a _débris_ of plates and glasses and
tobacco and bottles. There was a jam-jar filled with holly obtained from
the butcher's shop, in the middle of the table. There was very little
furniture in the room; there was a yellow-painted chest of drawers
opposite the door, and this, too, held a little regiment of bottles;
there was a large oleograph of Queen Victoria hanging above the bed,
and a text--for some inscrutable reason--was permitted to hang above the
fireplace, proclaiming that "The Lord is merciful and long-suffering,"
in Gothic letters, peeping modestly out of a wealth of painted
apple-blossoms, with a water-wheel in the middle distance and a stile.
On the further side of the fireplace was a washhand-stand, with a tin
pail below it, and the Major's bowler hat reposing in the basin. There
was a piece of carpet underneath the table, and a woolly sort of mat,
trodden through in two or three places, beside the bed.

       *       *       *       *       *

Mrs. Partington coughed as she came in, so tremendous was the reek of
tobacco smoke, burning paraffin and spirits.

"Bless the men!" she said, and choked once more.

She was feeling comparatively light-hearted; it was a considerable
relief to her that Frank actually had not come back, though she never
had for one instant expected him to do so. But she didn't want any more
disturbances or quarrels, and, as she looked at the Major, who turned in
his chair as she came in, she felt even more relieved. His appearance
was not reassuring.

He had been drinking pretty steadily all day to drown his grief, and had
ended up by a very business-like supper with his landlord. There were
four empty beer bottles and one empty whisky bottle distributed on the
table or floor, and another half-empty whisky bottle stood between the
two men on the table. And as she looked at the Major (she was completely
experienced in alcoholic symptoms), she understood exactly what stage he
had reached....

       *       *       *       *       *

Now the Major was by no means a drunkard--let that be understood. He
drank whenever he could, but a tramp cannot drink to very grave excess.
He is perpetually walking and he is perpetually poor. But this was a
special occasion; it was Christmas; he was home in London; his landlord
had returned, and he had lost Gertie.

He had reached, then, the dangerous stage, when the alcohol, after
having excited and warmed and confused the brain, recoils from it to
some extent, leaving it clear and resolute and entirely reckless, and
entirely conscious of any idea that happens to be dominant (at least,
that is the effect on some temperaments). The maudlin stage had passed
long ago, at the beginning of supper, when the Major had leaned his head
on his plate and wept over the ingratitude of man and the peculiar
poignancy of "old Frankie's" individual exhibition of it. A noisy stage
had succeeded to this, and now there was deadly quiet.

He was rather white in the face; his eyes were set, but very bright, and
he was smoking hard and fast.

"Now then," said Mrs. Partington cheerfully, "time for bed."

Her husband winked at her gravely, which was his nearest approach to
hilarity. He was a quiet man at all times.

The Major said nothing.

"There! there's 'Erb awake again," said the mother, as a wail rose up
the staircase. "I'll be up again presently." And she vanished once more.

       *       *       *       *       *

Two of the children were awake after all.

Jimmie lay, black-eyed and alert, beside his brother, and looked at his
mother reflectively as she came in. He was still thinking about the
sixpence that might conceivably have been his. 'Erb's lamentation
stopped as she came in, and she went to the table first to turn down the
smoking lamp.

She was quite a kindly mother, a great deal more tender than she seemed,
and 'Erb knew it well enough. But he respected her sufficiently to stop
crying when she came in.

"Now then," she said with motherly sternness. "I can't 'ave--"

Then she stopped abruptly. She had heard steps on the pavement outside
as she came into the room, and now she heard the handle of the street
door turned and someone come into the passage. She stood wondering, and
in that pause she missed her chance, for the steps came straight past
the door and began to go upstairs. It might, of course, conceivably be
one of the lodgers on the top-floor, and yet she knew it was not. She
whisked to the door a moment later, but it was too late, and she was
only just in time to see the figure she knew turn the corner of the four
stairs that led to the first-floor landing.

"Is that Frankie?" asked Jimmie, suddenly sitting up in bed. "Oh!
mother, let me--"

"You be quiet!" snapped the woman, and stood listening; with parted


From that point Mrs. Partington seems to have been able to follow very
closely what must have taken place upstairs.

It was a very quiet night, here in Turner Road: the roysterers were in
the better-lighted streets, and the sober folk were at home. And there
was not a footstep on the pavements outside to confuse the little drama
of sound that came down to her through the ill-fitting boards overhead.
She could not explain afterwards why she did not interfere. I imagine
that she hoped against hope that she was misinterpreting what she heard,
and also that a kind of terror seized her which she found it really
impossible to shake off.

First, there was the opening and closing of the door; two or three
footsteps, and then dead silence.

Then she heard talking begin, first one voice, then a crescendo, as if
two or three clamored together; then one voice again. (It was
impossible, so far, to distinguish which was which.)

This went on for a minute or two; occasionally there was a crescendo,
and once or twice some voice rose almost into a shout.

Then, without warning, there was a shuffling of feet, and a crash, as of
an overturned chair; and, instant upon the noise, 'Erb set up a
prolonged wail.

"You be quiet!" snapped the woman in a sharp whisper.

The noises went on: now the stamp of a foot; now the scraping of
something overhead and a voice or two in sharp deep exclamation, and
then complete silence once more. 'Erb was sobbing now, as noiselessly as
he could, terrified at his mother's face, and Jimmie was up, standing
on the floor in his flannel shirt, listening like his mother. Maggie
still slept deeply on the further side of the bed.

The woman went on tip-toe a step nearer the door, opened it, and peeped
out irresolutely. But the uncarpeted stairs stretched up into the
darkness, unlit except for the glimmer that came from the room at whose
door she was standing....

There was a voice now, rising and falling steadily, and she heard it
broken in upon now and again by something that resembled a chuckle.
Somehow or another this sickened her more than all else; it was like her
husband's voice. She recoiled into the room, and, as she did so, there
came the sound of blows and the stamping of feet, and she knew, in a way
that she could not explain, that there was no fight going on. It was
some kind of punishment, not a conflict....

She would have given the world to move, to run to the street door and
scream for help; but her knees shook under her and her heart seemed to
be hammering itself to bits. Jimmie had hold of her now, clinging round
her, shaking with terror and murmuring something she could not
understand. Her whole attention was upstairs. She was wondering how long
it would go on.

It must be past midnight now, she thought: the streets seethed still as
death. But overhead there was still movement and the sound of blows,
and then abruptly the end came.

There was one more crescendo of noise--two voices raised in dispute, one
almost shrill, in anger or expostulation; then one more sudden and heavy
noise as of a blow or a fall, and dead silence.


The next thing that Mrs. Partington remembered afterwards was that she
found herself standing on the landing upstairs, listening, yet afraid to

All was very nearly silent within: there was just low talking, and the
sound of something being moved. It was her husband's voice that she

Beyond her the stairs ran up to the next story, and she became aware
presently that someone else was watching, too. An untidy head of a woman
leaned over the banisters, and candle-light from somewhere beyond lit up
her face. She was grinning.

       *       *       *       *       *

Then the sharp whisper came down the stairs demanding what was up.

Mrs. Partington jerked her thumb towards the closed door and nodded
reassuringly. She was aware that she must be natural at all costs. The
woman still hung over the banisters a minute longer and then was gone.

Jimmie was with her too, now, still just in his shirt, perfectly quiet,
with a face as white as paper. His big black eyes dwelt on his mother's

Then suddenly she could bear the suspense no more. She stole up to the
door, still on tip-toe, still listening, and laid her fingers on the
handle. There were more gentle movements within now, the noise of water
and a basin (she heard the china clink distinctly), but no more words.

She turned the handle resolutely and looked in.

       *       *       *       *       *

The Major was leaning in the corner by the window, with his hands in his
pockets, staring with a dull, white, defiant kind of face at the bed.
The lamp on the mantelpiece lighted him up clearly. On his knees by the
bedside was her husband, with his back to her, supporting a basin on the
bed and some thing dark that hung over it. Then she saw Frank. It was he
who was lying on the bed almost upon his face; one boot dangled down on
this side, and it was his head that her husband was supporting. She
stared at it a moment in terror.... Then her eyes wandered to the floor,
where, among the pieces of broken glass, a pool of dark liquid spread
slowly over the boards. Twigs and detached leaves of holly lay in the
midst of it. And at that sight her instinct reasserted herself.

She stepped forward and took her husband by the shoulder. He turned a
face that twitched a little towards her. She pushed him aside, took the
basin from him, and the young man's head....

"Clear out of this," she whispered sharply. "Quick, mind! You and the
Major!... Jimmie!" The boy was by her in an instant, shaking all over,
but perfectly self-controlled.

"Jimmie, put your things on and be off to the clergy-house. Ring 'em up,
and ask for Mr. Carter. Bring him round with you."

Frank's head slipped a little in her hands, and she half rose to steady
it. When she had finished and looked round again for her husband, the
room was empty. From below up the stairs came a sudden draught, and the
flame leaped in the lamp-chimney. And then, once more unrestrained, rose
up the wailing of 'Erb.


A little after dawn on that Christmas morning Mr. Parham-Carter sat
solitary in the kitchen. The children had been packed off to a
neighbor's house before, and he himself had been to and fro all night
and was tired out--to the priest's house at Homerton, to the doctor's,
and to the parish nurse. All the proper things had been done. Frank had
been anointed by the priest, bandaged by the doctor, and settled in by
the nurse into the middle of the big double bed. He had not yet
recovered consciousness. They were upstairs now--Jack, Dick and the
nurse; the priest and the doctor had promised to look in before
nine--there was nothing more that they could do for the present, they
said--and Mrs. Partington was out at this moment to fetch something from
the dispensary.

He had heard her story during one of the intervals in the course of the
night, and it seemed to him that he had a tolerably accurate theory of
the whole affair--if, that is to say, her interpretation of the noises
she had heard was at all correct.

The Major must have made an unexpected attack, probably by a kick that
had temporarily disabled Frank, and must then, with Mr. Partington's
judicial though amused approval, have proceeded to inflict chastisement
upon Frank as he lay on the floor. This must have gone on for a
considerable time; Frank seemed to have been heavily kicked all over his
body. And the thing must have ended with a sudden uncontrolled attack on
the part of the Major, not only with his boots, but with at least one of
the heavy bottles. The young man's head was cut deeply, as if by glass,
and it was probably three or four kicks on the head, before Mr.
Partington could interfere, that had concluded the punishment. The
doctor's evidence entirely corroborated this interpretation of events.
It was, of course, impossible to know whether Frank had had the time or
the will to make any resistance. The police had been communicated with,
but there was no news yet of the two men involved.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was one of those bleak, uncomfortable dawns that have no beauty
either of warmth or serenity--at least it seemed so here in Turner Road.
Above the torn and dingy strip of lace that shrouded the lower part of
the window towered the black fronts of the high houses against the
steely western sky. It was extraordinarily quiet. Now and then a
footstep echoed and died suddenly as some passer-by crossed the end of
the street; but there was no murmur of voices yet, or groups at the
doors, as, no doubt, there would be when the news became known.

The room, too, was cheerless; the fire was long ago gone out; the
children's bed was still tumbled and disordered, and the paraffin lamp
had smoked itself out half an hour ago. Overhead the clergyman could
hear now and again a very gentle footstep, and that was all.

He was worn out with excitement and a kind of terror; and events took
for him the same kind of clear, hard outline as did the physical objects
themselves in this cold light of dawn. He had passed through a dozen
moods: furious anger at the senseless crime, at the hopeless, miserable
waste of a life, an overwhelming compassion and a wholly unreasonable
self-reproach for not having foreseen danger more clearly the night
before. There were other thoughts that had come to him too--doubts as to
whether the internal significance of all these things were in the least
analogous to the external happenings; whether, perhaps, after all, the
whole affair were not on the inner side a complete and perfect event--in
fact, a startling success of a nature which he could not understand.
Certainly, exteriorly, a more lamentable failure and waste could not be
conceived; there had been sacrificed such an array of advantages--birth,
money, education, gifts, position--and for such an exceedingly small and
doubtful good, that no additional data, it would appear, could possibly
explain the situation. Yet was it possible that such data did exist
somewhere, and that another golden and perfect deed had been done--that
there was no waste, no failure, after all?

But at present these thoughts only came to him in glimpses; he was
exhausted now of emotion and speculation. He regarded the pitiless
facts with a sunken, unenergetic attention, and wondered when he would
be called again upstairs.

There came a footstep outside; it hesitated, then the street door was
pushed open and the step came in, up to the room door, and a small face,
pinched with cold, its eyes all burning, looked at him.

"Come in, Jimmie," he whispered.

       *       *       *       *       *

And so the two sat, huddled one against the other, and the man felt
again and again a shudder, though not of cold, shake the little body at
his side.


Ten minutes later a step came down the stairs, a little hurriedly,
though on tip-toe; and Mrs. Partington, her own thin face lined with
sleeplessness and emotion, and her lips set, nodded at him emphatically.
He understood, and went quickly past her, followed closely by the child,
and up the narrow stairs.... He heard the street-door close behind him
as the woman left the house.

It seemed to him as he came into the room as if he had stepped clean out
of one world into another. And the sense of it was so sudden and abrupt
that he stood for an instant on the threshold amazed at the transition.

First, it was the absolute stillness and motionlessness of the room that
impressed him, so far as any one element predominated. There were
persons in the room, but they were as statues.

On the farther side of the bed, decent now and arranged and standing out
across the room, kneeled the two men, Jack Kirkby and Dick Guiseley, but
they neither lifted their eyes nor showed the faintest consciousness of
his presence as he entered. Their faces were in shadow: behind them was
the cold patch of the window, and a candle within half an inch of
extinction stood also behind them on a table in the corner, with one or
two covered vessels and instruments.

The nurse kneeled on this side, one arm beneath the pillow and the other
on the counterpane.

And then there was Frank.

       *       *       *       *       *

He lay perfectly still upon his back, his hands clasped before him (and
even these were bandaged). His head lay high on three or four pillows,
and he wore what looked like a sort of cap, wholly hiding his hair and
ears. His profile alone showed clear-cut and distinct against the gloom
in the corner behind. His face was entirely tranquil, as pale as ivory;
his lips were closed. His eyes alone were alive.

Presently those turned a little, and the man standing at the door,
understanding the look, came forward and kneeled too by the bed.

       *       *       *       *       *

Then, little by little, he began, in that living stillness, to
understand rather better what it was that he was witnessing.... It was
not that there was anything physical in the room, beyond the things of
which his senses told him; there was but the dingy furniture, the white
bed, august now with a strange dignity as of a white altar, and the four
persons beside himself--five now, for Jimmie was beside him. But that
the physical was not the plane in which these five persons were now
chiefly conscious was the most evident thing of all.... There was about
them, not a Presence, not an air, not a sweetness or a sound, and yet it
is by such negatives only that the thing can be expressed.

       *       *       *       *       *

And so they kneeled and waited.

       *       *       *       *       *

"Why, Jack--"

It shook the waiting air like the sound of a bell, yet it was only
whispered. The man nearest him on the other side shook with a single
spasmodic movement and laid his fingers gently on the bandaged hands.
And then for a long while there was no further movement or sound.

"Rosary!" said Frank suddenly, still in a whisper.... "Beads...."

Jack moved swiftly on his knees, took from the table a string of beads
from where they had been laid the night before, and put them into the
still fingers. Then he laid his own hands over them again.

       *       *       *       *       *

Again there was a long pause.

Outside in the street a footstep came up from the direction of Mortimer
Road, waxed loud and clear on the pavement, and died again down towards
the street leading to the marshes. And, but for this, there was no
further sound for a while. Then a cock crew, thin and shrill, somewhere
far away; a dray rumbled past the end of the street and was silent.

But the silence in the room was of a different quality; or, rather, the
world seemed silent because this room was so, and not the other way. It
was here that the center lay, where a battered man was dying, and from
this center radiated out the Great Peace.

It was no waste then, after all!--this life of strange unreason ending
in this very climax of uselessness, exactly when ordinary usefulness was
about to begin. Could that be waste that ended so?

"Priest," whispered the voice from the bed.

Then Dick leaned forward.

"He has been," he said distinctly and slowly. "He was here at two
o'clock. He did--what he came for. And he's coming again directly."

The eyes closed in sign of assent and opened again.

He seemed to be looking, as in a kind of meditation, at nothing in
particular. It was as a man who waits at his ease for some pleasant
little event that will unroll by and by. He was in no ecstasy, and, it
seemed, in no pain and in no fierce expectation; he was simply at his
ease and waiting. He was content, whatever those others might be.

For a moment it crossed the young clergyman's mind that he ought to pray
aloud, but the thing was dismissed instantly. It seemed to him
impertinent nonsense. That was not what was required. It was his
business to watch, not to act.

So, little by little, he ceased to think actively, he ceased to consider
this and that. At first he had wondered how long it would be before the
doctor and the priest arrived. (The woman had gone to fetch them.) He
had wished that they would make haste.... He had wondered what the
others felt, and how he would describe it all to his Vicar. Now, little
by little, all this ceased, and the peace grew within and without, till
the balance of pressure was equalized and his attention floated at the
perfect poise.

Again there was no symbol or analogy that presented itself. It was not
even by negation that he thought. There was just one positive element
that included all: time seemed to mean nothing, the ticks of the clock
with the painted face were scarcely consecutive; it was all one, and
distance was nothing, nor nearness--not even the nearness of the dying
face against the pillows....

       *       *       *       *       *

It was so, then, that something of that state to which Frank had passed
communicated itself to at least one of those who saw him die.

A little past the half hour Frank spoke again.

"My love to Whitty," he said.... "Diary.... Tell him...."

       *       *       *       *       *

The end came a few minutes before nine o'clock, and it seems to have
come as naturally as life itself. There was no drama, no dying speech,
not one word.

Those who were there saw him move ever so slightly in bed, and his head
lifted a little. Then his head sank once more and the Failure was


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