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Title: Rose of Dutcher's Coolly
Author: Garland, Hamlin, 1860-1940
Language: English
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ROSE OF DUTCHER'S COOLLY

by

HAMLIN GARLAND



Chicago
Stone & Kimball
MDCCCXCV

Copyright, 1895, by
Hamlin Garland



CONTENTS
   CHAPTER I.     HER CHILDHOOD
   CHAPTER II.    CHILD-LIFE, PAGAN FREE
   CHAPTER III.   DANGEROUS DAYS
   CHAPTER IV.    AN OPENING CLOVER-BLOOM
   CHAPTER V.     HER FIRST PERIL
   CHAPTER VI.    HER FIRST IDEAL
   CHAPTER VII.   ROSE MEETS DR. THATCHER
   CHAPTER VIII.  LEAVING HOME
   CHAPTER IX.    ROSE ENTERS MADISON
   CHAPTER X.     QUIET YEARS OF GROWTH
   CHAPTER XI.    STUDY OF THE STARS
   CHAPTER XII.   THE GATES OPEN WIDE
   CHAPTER XIII.  THE WOMAN'S PART
   CHAPTER XIV.   AGAIN THE QUESTION OF HOME-LEAVING
   CHAPTER XV.    CHICAGO
   CHAPTER XVI.   HER FIRST CONQUEST
   CHAPTER XVII.  HER FIRST DINNER OUT
   CHAPTER XVIII. MASON TALKS ON MARRIAGE
   CHAPTER XIX.   ROSE SITS IN THE BLAZE OF A THOUSAND EYES
   CHAPTER XX.    ROSE SETS FACE TOWARD THE OPEN ROAD
   CHAPTER XXI.   MASON TALKS AGAIN
   CHAPTER XXII.  SOCIAL QUESTIONS
   CHAPTER XXIII. A STORM AND A HELMSMAN
   CHAPTER XXIV.  MASON TAKES A VACATION
   CHAPTER XXV.   ROSE RECEIVES A LETTER
   CHAPTER XXVI.  MASON AS A LOVER
   CONCLUSION



ROSE OF DUTCHER'S COOLLY



CHAPTER I

HER CHILDHOOD


Rose was an unaccountable child from the start. She learned to speak
early and while she did not use "baby-talk" she had strange words of her
own. She called hard money "tow" and a picture "tac," names which had
nothing to do with onomatopoeia though it seemed so in some cases.
Bread and milk she called "plop."

She began to read of her own accord when four years old, picking out the
letters from the advertisements of the newspapers, and running to her
mother at the sink or bread-board to learn what each word meant. Her
demand for stories grew to be a burden. She was insatiate, nothing but
sleep subdued her eager brain.

As she grew older she read and re-read her picture books when alone, but
when older people were talking she listened as attentively as if she
understood every word. She had the power of amusing herself and visited
very little with other children. It was deeply moving to see her with
her poor playthings out under the poplar tree, talking to herself,
arranging and rearranging her chairs and tables, the sunlight flecking
her hair, and the birds singing overhead.

She seemed only a larger sort of insect, and her prattle mixed easily
with the chirp of crickets and the rustle of leaves.

She was only five years old when her mother suddenly withdrew her hands
from pans and kettles, gave up all thought of bread and butter making,
and took rest in death. Only a few hours of waiting on her bed near the
kitchen fire and Ann Dutcher was through with toil and troubled
dreaming, and lay in the dim best-room, taking no account of anything in
the light of day.

Rose got up the next morning after her mother's last kiss and went into
the room where the body lay. A gnomish little figure the child was, for
at that time her head was large and her cropped hair bristled till she
seemed a sort of brownie. Also, her lonely child-life had given her
quaint, grave ways.

She knew her mother was dead, and that death was a kind of sleep which
lasted longer than common sleep, that was all the difference, so she
went in and stood by the bed and tried to see her mother's face. It was
early in the morning and the curtains being drawn it was dark in the
room, but Rose had no fear, for mother was there.

She talked softly to herself a little while, then went over to the
window and pulled on the string of the curtain till it rolled up. Then
she went back and looked at her mother. She grew tired of waiting at
last.

"Mamma," she called, "wake up. Can't you wake up, mamma?"

She patted the cold, rigid cheeks with her rough brown little palms.
Then she blew in the dead face, gravely. Then she thought if she could
only open mamma's eyes she'd be awake. So she took her finger and thumb
and tried to lift the lashes, and when she did she was frightened by the
look of the set faded gray eyes. Then the terrible vague shadow of the
Unknown settled upon her and she cried convulsively: "Mamma! mamma, I
want you!" Thus she met death, early in her life.

After her mother's burial Rose turned to her father more hungrily than
before. She rode into the fields with him in the spring, when he went
out to sow, sitting on the seeder box with the pockets of her little
pink apron filled with wheat, and her sweet, piping little voice calling
to the horses or laughing in glee at the swarms of sparrows. When he was
plowing corn she rode on the horses, clinging like a blue-jay to the
rings in the back-pad, her yellow-brown hair blowing.

She talked sagely about the crops and the weather, and asked innumerable
questions. Often John could not hear her questions, which were like soft
soliloquies, but she babbled on just the same.

"See the little birds, pappa John. They's 'bout a million of 'um, ain't
they? They're glad spring has come, ain't they, pappa? They can
understand each other just the same as we can, can't they, pappa John?"

John Dutcher was not a talker, and he seldom answered her unless she
turned her eager face to him, and her bird-like voice repeated her
question. But it mattered very little to Rose. She had her father's
power of self-amusement. In case she got tired of riding about with him
she brought her playthings out and established them in a corner of the
fence. Her favorite game was playing horses.

Her horses were sticks of the size of canes, and of all sorts and
colors. Each one had a name. How she selected them, and why she selected
them out of the vast world of sticks, was a mystery to John Dutcher.

The brown stick she called Dan, the fork handle, Nellie, and the crooked
stick with the big knot was Barney. She had from six to ten and she
never forgot their names. Each had a string for a bridle and they all
were placed in stalls, which she built with infinite labor and
calculation out of twigs. She led each stick by its halter up to the
manger (a rail) on which she had placed oats and grass. She talked to
them.

"Now, Barney, whoa-whoa there now! Don't you kick Kit again--now sir!
Kit, you better stand over here by Pete--Barney, you need exercise,
that's what you need--yessir."

She exercised them by riding them in plunging circles about the fields,
forgetting, with the quick imagination of a child, that she was doing
all the hard work of the riding with her own stout, brown legs. It was a
pleasure to John to have her there though he said little to her.

Often at night as he saw her lying asleep, her long lashes upon her
roughened sun-burned skin, his heart went out to her in a great gush of
tenderness. His throat ached and his eyes grew wet as he thought how
unresponsive he had been that day. His remorseful memory went back over
her eager questions to which he had not replied. Dear, sweet, restless
little heart! And then he vowed never to lose patience with her again.
And sometimes standing there beside her bed his arms closed about the
little mound under the quilts, and his lips touched the round,
sleep-enraptured face. At such times his needy soul went out in a cry to
his dead wife for help to care for his child.

He grew afraid of the mystery and danger of coming womanhood. Her needs
came to him more powerfully each day.

When she began going to school with the other children the effects of
her lonely life and of her companionship with her father set her apart
from the boys and girls of her own age and placed her among those
several years older, whom she dominated by her gravity and her audacity.
She was not mischievous or quarrelsome, but she was a fearless
investigator. She tested their childish superstitions at once.

When they told her that if she swore at God and shook her fist at the
sky she would certainly drop dead, she calmly stepped forward and shook
her little fist up at the sun and swore, while the awe-stricken children
cowered like a covey of partridges.

"There! you see _that's_ a lie," she said scornfully. "God can't kill
me--or else he don't care."

She went on exploding these strange superstitious fancies, which are
only the survivals in civilized children of savage ancestry. She stood
erect in the door of the school-house when she was eight years old, and
pointed her hand at the lightning while the teacher sat cowed and
weeping at her desk.

"You said I dassn't," the little elf cried, "But I dass't, and nothing
ain't struck me yet."

Her absolute fearlessness of the things which children shrank from, the
dark, and things of the dark, made her a marked figure. The women of the
Coolly thought it due to the lack of a mother's care. They spoke to the
minister about it and urged him to see Dutcher and ask him to try and do
something for the child's good.

But Dutcher simply said, "Oh, don't bother the child about her soul.
She's all right. I don't bother myself about those things, and what's
the use o' spoilin' the child's fun. If she wants to go to
Sunday-school, why all right. She'll go where she's interested."

"But, Brother Dutcher, the child is doing outrageous things--heathenish,
defying her God."

"I don't s'pose what she does will make any particular difference to
God. We understand each other, Rosie and me. Don't worry. If she does
anything real bad she'll come an' tell me of it. _Chk! Chk!_ G' wan,
Barney!" He cut the matter short by driving away into the field of corn.

He saw rushing upon him the most solemn and severe trials of a parent.
Rose was a sturdy girl and promised to develop into a maiden early, and
there were a hundred things which ought to be said to her which must be
said by some one. He was not philosopher enough to know that she held in
her expanding brain the germs of self-knowledge.

He had been passing through a running fire of questions from the child
for two years, but these questions now took hold of deeper things, and
they could no longer be put aside by saying, "Wait a few years and then
I'll tell you." She would learn them elsewhere, if not from him. He
braced himself for the trial, which increased in severity.

The child's horizon was limited, but within its circle her searching
eyes let nothing escape. She came to Dutcher with appalling questions.

She not only asked him, "Who made God?" but she wanted to know how she
came to be born, and a thousand other questions of the same searching
nature. He saw that the day of petty fictions had gone by. The child
knew that little lambs, and calves, and kittens did not grow down in the
woods. She knew that babies were not brought by the doctor, and that
they did not come from heaven.

"Good Lord!" groaned her father one day, after an unusually persistent
attack from her, caused by the appearance of a little colt out in the
barn, "I wish your mother was here, or some woman. You do make it hard
for me, Rosie."

"How do I make it hard for you, pappa?" was her quick new question. "O,
Lord, what a young un," he said, in deeper despair. "Come, ain't it
about time for you to be leggin' it toward school? Give me a rest,
Rosie. But I'll answer all your questions--don't ask about them things
of the children--come right to me always--only don't pile 'em all on me
to once."

"All right, pappa, I won't."

"That's a good old soul!" he said, patting her on the back. After she
had gone he sat down on the feed-box and wiped his face. "I wonder how
women do explain things like that to girls," he thought. "I'll ask the
preacher's wife to explain it--no, I won't. I'll do it myself, and I'll
get her books to read about it--good books."

It was evidence of the girl's innate strength and purity of soul that
the long succession of hired hands had not poisoned her mind. They soon
discovered, however, the complete confidence between the father and
child, and knew that their words and actions would be taken straight to
John as soon as night came and Rose climbed into his lap. This made them
careful before her, and the shame of their words and stories came to the
child's ears only in fragments.

Dutcher concluded that he should have a woman in the house, and so sent
back to Pennsylvania for his sister, lately widowed. Rose looked forward
to seeing her aunt with the wildest delight. She went with her father
down the valley to Bluff Siding to meet her. Bluff Siding was the only
town the child knew, and it was a wonderful thing to go to town.

As they stood on the platform, waiting, her eyes swept along the great
curve of the rails to the east, and suddenly, like a pain in the heart,
came her first realization of distance, of the infinity of the world.

"Where does it go to, pappa?"

"O, a long way off. To Madison, Chicago, and Pennsylvany."

"How far is it? Could we go there with old Barney and Nell?"

"O, no. If we drove there it would take us days and days, and the wheat
would grow up and get yellow, an' the snow come, almost, before we'd get
there."

"O, dear!" she sighed. "I don't like to have it so big. Do people live
all along the whole way?"

"Yes, the whole way, and lots of big cities."

"Big as Madison?" Madison was her unseen measure of greatness.

"O, yes. A hundred times bigger."

She sighed again and looked away to the east with a strange, unchildish,
set stare in her eyes. She was trying to realize it.

"It makes me ache, pappa," she sighed, putting her little brown hand to
her throat.

When the engine came in with its thunder and whizz, she shrank back
against the station wall, white and breathless, not so much with fear as
with awe. She had never stood so close to this monster before. It
attracted all her attention so that for the moment she forgot about the
coming of her aunt.

When she looked into the large dull face of Mrs. Diehl she was deeply
disappointed. She liked her but she not love her!

She had looked forward to her coming almost as if to the return of her
mother. She had imagined her looking strange and beautiful because she
came out of the mystical, far-off land her father often spoke of.
Instead of these things Mrs. Diehl was a strong-featured, mild-voiced
woman, rather large and ungraceful, who looked upon the motherless child
and clicked her tongue--tch!

"You poor chick!"

But the thing which had happened was this: Rose had conceived of
distance and great cities.

The next day she said: "Pappa John, I want to go way up on the bluffs. I
want to go up to Table Rock where I can see way, way off."

"It's a long climb up there, Rosie. You'll get tired."

But Rosie insisted and together they climbed the hill. Up beyond the
pasture--beyond the black-berry patch--beyond the clinging birches in
their white jackets--up where the rocks cropped out of the ground and
where curious little wave-worn pebbles lay scattered on the scant grass.

Once a glittering rattle-snake lying in the sun awoke, and slipped under
a stone like a stream of golden oil, and the child shrank against her
father's thigh in horror.

They climbed slowly up the steep grassy slope and stood at last on the
flat rock which topped the bluff. Rose stood there, dizzy, out of
breath, with her hair blown across her cheek and looked away, at the
curving valley and its river gleaming here and there through the willows
and elders. It was like looking over an unexplored world to the child.
Her eyes expanded and her heart filled with the same ache which came
into it when she looked down along the curving railway track. She turned
suddenly and fell sobbing against her father.

"Why, Rosie, what's the matter? Poor little girl--she's all tired out,
climbin' up here." He sat down and took her on his lap and talked to her
of the valley below and where the river went--but she would not look up
again.

"I want to go home," she said with hidden face.

On the way down, John rolled a big stone down the hill and as it went
bounding, crashing into the forest below, a deer drifted out like a gray
shadow and swept along the hillside and over the ridge.

Rose saw it as if in a dream. She did not laugh nor shout. John was
troubled by her silence and gravity, but laid it to weariness and took
her pick-a-back on the last half mile through the brush.

That scene came to her mind again and again in the days which followed,
but she did not see it again till the following spring. It appealed to
her with less power then. Its beauty over-shadowed its oppressive
largeness. As she grew older it came to be her favorite playing ground
on holidays. She brought down those quaint little bits of limestone and
made them her playthings in her house, which was next door to her
barn--and secondary to her barn.



CHAPTER II

CHILD-LIFE, PAGAN FREE


Rose lived the life of the farm girls in the seven great Middle-West
States. In summer she patted away to school, clad only in a gingham
dress, white untrimmed cotton pantalets, and a straw hat that was made
feminine by a band of gay ribbon. Her body was as untrammeled as a
boy's. She went bare-foot and bare-headed at will, and she was part of
all the sports.

She helped the boys snare gophers, on the way to school, and played
house with the girls on the shady side of the school-house, and once,
while the teacher was absent at noon, Rose proposed that a fire be built
to heat the tea for the dolls.

She it was who constructed the stove out of thin bricks, and set a fire
going in it in the corner of the boy's entry-way, and only the passing
of a farmer saved the building from disaster.

She it was who found the ground-bird's nest and proposed to make a house
over it, and ended by teaching the bird to walk through a long hallway
made of sticks in order to get to its eggs again.

She despised hats and very seldom wore hers except hanging by the string
down her back. Her face was brown and red as leather, and her stout
little hands were always covered with warts and good brown earth, which
had no terrors for her.

Bugs and beetles did not scare her any more than they did the boys. She
watched the beetles bury a dead gopher without the slightest repugnance;
indeed, she turned to, after a long time, to help them, a kindness which
they very probably resented, to judge from their scrambling.

She always urged the other girls to go down to the creek and see the
boys go in swimming, and would have joined the fun had not the boys
beaten her back with hands full of mud, while they uttered opprobrious
cries. She saw no reason why boys should have all the fun.

When the days were hot they could go down there in the cool, nice creek,
strip and have a good time, but girls must primp around and try to keep
nice and clean. She looked longingly at the naked little savages running
about and splashing in the water. There was something so fine and joyous
in it, her childish heart rebelled at sex-distinction as she walked
slowly away. She, too, loved the feel of the water and the caress of the
wind.

She was a good student and developed early into a wonderful speller and
reader. She always listened to the classes in reading, and long before
she reached the pieces herself she knew them by heart, and said them to
herself in the silence of the lane or the loneliness of the garret. She
recited "The Battle of Waterloo" and "Locheil" long before she
understood the words. The roll of the verse excited her, and she thrust
her nut of a fist into the air like Miriam the Hebrew singer, feeling
vaguely the same passion.

She went from Primer to First Reader, then to the Second and Third
Readers, without effort. She read easily and dramatically. She caught at
the larger meanings, and uttered them in such wise that the older pupils
stopped their study to listen.

Scraps and fragments of her reading took curious lodgment in her mind.
New conceptions burst into her consciousness with a golden glory upon
reading these lines:

    "Field of wheat so full and fair,
    Shining with a sunny air;
    Lightly swaying either way,
    Graceful as the breezes sway."

They made her see the beauty of the grainfield as never before. It
seemed to be lit by some mysterious light.

    "Cleon hath a million acres,
    Ne'er a one have I,"

seemed to express something immemorial and grand. She seemed to see
hills stretching to vast distances, covered with cattle. "The pied
frog's orchestra" came to her with sudden conscious meaning as she sat
on the door-step one night eating her bowl of bread and milk, and
watching the stars come out. These fragments of literature expressed the
poetry of certain things about her, and helped her also to perceive
others.

She was a daring swinger, and used to swing furiously out under the
maple trees, hoping to some day touch the branches high up there, and,
when her companions gathered in little clumps in dismayed consultation,
she swung with wild hair floating free, a sort of intoxication of
delight in her heart.

Sometimes when alone she slipped off her clothes and ran amid the tall
corn-stalks like a wild thing. Her slim little brown body slipped among
the leaves like a weasel in the grass. Some secret, strange delight,
drawn from ancestral sources, bubbled over from her pounding heart, and
she ran and ran until wearied and sore with the rasping corn leaves,
then she sadly put on civilized dress once more.

Her feet were brown as toads, but graceful and small, and she washed
them (when the dew was heavy enough) by running in the wet grass just
before going in to bed, a trick the boys of the neighborhood had taught
her. She ran forward to clean the insteps and backward to clean the
heels. If the grass was not wet, she omitted the ceremony. Dust was
clean anyhow. Her night-gowns were of most sorry pattern till her aunt
came; thereafter they were clean, though it mattered little. They were a
nuisance anyway.

She wore a pink sun-bonnet, when she could find one; generally there
were two or three hanging on the fences at remote places. She sat down
in the middle of the road, because she had a lizard's liking for the
warm soft dust, and she paddled in every pool and plunged her hand into
every puddle after frogs and bugs and worms, with the action of a crane.

She ate everything that boys did. That is to say, she ate sheep sorrel,
Indian tobacco, roots of ferns, May apples, rose leaves, rose-buds, raw
turnips, choke-cherries, wild crab-apples, slippery elm bark, and the
green balls on young oak trees, as well as the bitter acorns. These
acorns she chewed into pats, and dried in the sun, to eat at other
times, like a savage.

She ate pinks and grass blades, and green watermelons, and ground
cherries, and black-haws, and dew-berries, and every other conceivable
thing in the woods and fields, not to mention the score of things which
she tried and spit out. She became inured to poison ivy like the boys
and walked the forest paths without fear of anything but snakes.

Summer was one continuous and busy play-spell for her in those days
before her lessons became a serious thing, for as she sat in school she
was experimenting in the same way. She chewed paper into balls and
snapped them like the boys. She carried slips of elm bark to chew also,
and slate pencils she crunched daily. She gnawed the corners of her
slate, tasted her ink and munched the cedar of her pencil.

And through it all she grew tall and straight and brown. She could run
like a partridge and fight like a wild-cat, at need. Her brown-black
eyes shone in her dark warm skin with an eager light, and her calloused
little claws of hands reached and took hold of all realities.

The boys respected her as a girl who wasn't afraid of bugs, and who
could run, and throw a ball. Above all she was strong and well.



CHAPTER III

DANGEROUS DAYS


A farmer's daughter is exposed to sights and sounds which the city girl
knows nothing of. Mysterious processes of generation and birth go on
before the eyes of the farm child, which only come as obscure
whisperings to the city child of the same middle condition. And these
happenings have a terrifying power to stir and develop passions
prematurely.

Rose heard occasionally obscene words among the hands. She listened
unperceived to the vulgar cackling of old women during afternoon calls.
Before her eyes from the time of her toddling youth had proceeded the
drama of animal life. She had seen it all; courtship, birth, death.
Nothing escaped her keen, searching, inquisitive eyes. She asked her
father about these dramatic and furious episodes of the barnyard, but he
put her off, and she finally ceased to ask about them. She began to
perceive they were considered of that obscure and unmentionable world of
sin, with which men alone had proper right to deal.

When the girls of her age in the grasp of some gale of passion, danced
about her shouting foul words in the unknowing way children have, she
could not take part by word of mouth, though she felt the same savage,
frenzied delight in it.

She learned early the hideous signs which pass in the country to
describe the unnamable and the covert things of human life. She saw them
scrawled on the fences, on school-house doors, and written on the dust
of the road. There was no escaping them. The apparently shameful fact of
sex faced her everywhere.

And yet through it all she lived a glad, free, wholesome life. Her blood
was sweet and clean and kept off contagion. Her brown skin flushed with
its unhindered current. She dipped into this obscure questionable world
only momentarily, and came back to her father wholesome and happy,
except occasionally when some outrageous gesture or word had stricken
her into weeping.

Then her father told her not to mind; just be good and sweet herself,
and it would help the others to be good too. He blundered sometimes and
struggled for words, and talked in grotesque riddles, but she understood
his meaning some way and was comforted.

She did not go to her aunt. She had heard her say coarse words and she
did not care to go and tell her of these strange things. Her father was
her hero and guide. She went to him as naturally as to a mother. It was
a great thing for him to achieve, but he did not know it. He did not
seek it. It was indeed thrust upon him. He would gladly have escaped
from it, but Rose refused to listen to anyone else, so the puzzled and
disturbed father continued to be her timorous guide as a matter of need.

He could not understand her quick perception--something seemed to rise
in the child to help him explain. Germs of latent perception seemed to
spring up like a conjuror's magic seed, here a kernel, there a tree. One
by one obscure ideas rose from the deep like bubbles, and burst into
thought in her conscious self. A hint organized in her brain long trains
of sequential conceptions, which she had inherited with her sex. She did
not require teaching on the most fundamental problems of her nature.

Rose began to work early, but her work, like her playing, was not that
of other girls. As she never played with dolls, caring more for
hobby-horses, so she early learned to do work in the barn. From taking
care of make-believe stick horses she came easily to take care of real
horses.

When a toddling babe she had moved about under the huge plow-horses in
their stalls, and put straw about them, and patted their columnar limbs
with her little pads of palms, talking to them in soft indefinite gurgle
of love and command.

She knew how much hay and oats they needed, and she learned early to
curry them, though they resented her first trials with the comb. She
cared less for the cows and pigs, but before she was ten she could milk
the "easy" cows. She liked the chickens, and it was part of her daily
duty to feed the hens and gather the eggs.

She could use a fork in the barn deftly as a boy by the time she was
twelve, and in stacking times she handed bundles across the stack to her
father. It was the variety of work, perhaps, which prevented her from
acquiring that pathetic and lamentable stoop (or crook) in the shoulders
and back which many country girls have in varying degree.

All things tended to make her powerful, lithe and erect. The naked facts
of nature were hers to command. She touched undisguised and unrefined
nature at all points. Her feet met not merely soil, but mud. Her hands
smelled of the barn yard as well as of the flowers of the wild places of
wood and meadow.

Meanwhile her comradeship was sweet to John Dutcher. He hardly knew his
loss of a son so completely was he companioned by Rose. He had put far
away the time when she should wear shoes and long dresses and become a
"young lady."

"Let her be, as long as you can," he said to his sister. "She's a mighty
comfort to me now, and she's happy; don't disturb her; time to wear long
dresses and corsets'll come soon enough without hurryin' things."



CHAPTER IV

AN OPENING CLOVER-BLOOM


There are times in a child's life when it leaps suddenly into larger
growth as the imprisoned bud blooms larger than its promise, when the
green fist of its straining calyx loosens in the warm glow of a May
morning. Knowledge comes to the child, especially all the subtler
knowledge of time, of space, of love, in a vague, indefinite,
unconscious way, developing out of the child's organic self precisely as
the flower blooms.

This knowledge comes to definite knowledge for an instant only and then
returns to the subconscious, waiting the next day of warm sun, shining
water and smell of spring. Each time it stays longer, till at last the
child can contemplate its own thought and finally express it. These
times form our real life epochs.

One day in June, a party of the school children, with flashing tin pails
and willow baskets, went up into the woods after the wild-wood
strawberries. It was late June and the strawberries of the meadows and
uplands were nearly gone. The roads were dusty, the pastures
close-clipped.

Merry, bare-footed little creatures! They started forth in the early
morning while the dew still flamed on the clover-leaves, and around each
corn-hill the ground was still moist. The girls romped and picked wild
flowers, the boys threw stones at the chipmunks on the fence, and tossed
their tin pails in the air, performing feats of deftness in imitation of
the circus-men, whom they had lately seen on the green at Tyre.

They entered the forest and kept on up the wood-road until it seemed as
if they were explorers. They had the delicious, tremulous feeling of
having penetrated into the primeval, where nothing but the birds and
animals lived. On past cool deeps of poplar, where the mandrake grew,
and the sweet fern spread its magnificent leaves. On until the
strawberries appeared, growing in clumps on long swaying stems, pale
scarlet globes of delicious tartness.

They fell to work mostly in pairs. Curly-haired Carl kept with Rose, and
his sharp eyes and knowledge of the patch enabled them to fill their
pails first; then they went about helping the others, whose voices
babbled on like streams.

Everywhere the pink sun-bonnets and ragged straw hats bobbed up and
down. Everywhere fresh voices. The sunlight fell in vivid yellow patches
through the cool odorous gloom. Everywhere the faint odor of ferns and
mandrakes and berries, and the faint rustle of leaves, as if the shadows
of the clouds trampled the tree-tops.

There was something sweet and wild and primeval in the scene, and the
children were carried out of their usual selves. Rose herself danced and
romped, her eyes flashing with delight. Under her direction they all
came together on a little slope, where the trees were less thick, and
near a brook which gurgled through moss-covered stones.

"O, let's have our picnic here!"

"All right, let's!"

They made short work of the lunch they had. Their buttered biscuits were
spread with berries and mixed with water from the brook, which the girls
drank like the boys, that is, by lying down on their breasts and
drinking as the hunter drinks. Their hunger eased they fell to games.
Games centuries old. Games which the Skandinavians played in the edges
of their pine forests. Games the English lads and lassies played in the
oak-openings of middle-age England.

The little ones were ruled out after awhile and the five or six elder
children (the oldest only fourteen), went on with their games, which
told of love. They joined hands and circled about Carl, they sang:

    "King William was King James' son,
    And from the royal race he run,
    Upon his breast he wore a star,
    Which points away to a conquest far.
    Go choose you east, go choose you west,
    Go choose the one that you love best."

Carl selected Rose, as they all knew he would. They stood together now,
holding hands.

    "Down on this carpet you must kneel,"

(they knelt)

    "As sure as the grass grows in the field.
    Salute your bride with a kiss so sweet,"

(Carl kissed her gravely)

    "Now you rise upon your feet."

Again they circled, and again a little bride and bridegroom knelt. The
fresh young voices rang under the spaces of the trees, silencing the joy
of the thrush. The flecking sunlight fell on their towsled hair and
their flushed faces. They had forgotten home and kindred, and were
living a strange new-old life, old as history, wild and free once more,
and in their hearts something bloomed like a flower, something sweet
shook them all, something unutterable and nameless, something
magnificent to attain and sorrowful to lose.

When they tired of "King William," they all flung themselves down on the
grass and grew quiet. Some of the girls made wreaths of flowers strung
on grass stems, while the boys studied the insects under the chips and
stumps, or came slyly behind the girls and stuck spears of fox-tail down
their necks. Some of them rolled down the bank. Carl, when he was tired
of this, came and lay down by Rose, and put his head in her lap. Other
bridegrooms did the same with their brides. Some of the boys matched
violets, by seeing which would hook the other's head off.

Silence fell on them. Some passion thrilled Rose as she looked down into
Carl's sunny blue eyes. She brushed his hair as he looked up at the
clouds sailing above the trees like wonderful mountains of snow.

She was thirteen years of age, but prophecy of womanhood, of change, of
sorrow, was in her voice as she said slowly, a look not childish upon
her face:

"I'd like to live here forever, wouldn't you, Carl?"

"I guess we'd have to build a house," said Carl, the practical one.

She felt a terrible hunger, a desire to take his head in her arms and
kiss it. Her muscles ached and quivered with something she could not
fathom. As she resisted she grew calm, but mysteriously sad, as if
something were passing from her forever. The leaves whispered a message
to her, and the stream repeated an occult note of joy, which was mixed
with sorrow.

The struggle of wild fear and bitter-sweet hunger of desire--this vague,
mystical perception of her sex, did not last, to Rose. It was lost when
she came out of the wood into the road on the way homeward. It was a
formless impulse and throbbing stir far down below definite thought. It
was sweet and wild and innocent as the first coquettish love-note of the
thrush, and yet it was the beginning of her love-life. It was the second
great epoch of her life.



CHAPTER V

HER FIRST PERIL


She came in contact during her school life with a variety of teachers.
Most of the women she did not like, but one sweet and thoughtful girl
had her unbounded love and confidence. She was from Madison, that was in
itself a great distinction, for the capital of the state had come to
mean something great and beautiful and heroic to Rose.

There it was the governor lived. There the soldiers went to enter the
army, she remembered hearing the neighbors say, and her father's weekly
paper was printed there. It was a great thing to have come from so far
away and from Madison, and Rose hung about the door of the school house
at the close of the first day, hoping the teacher would permit her to
walk home by her side.

The young teacher, worried almost to despair over the arrangement of her
classes, did not rise from her desk until the sun was low, rolling upon
the tree-fringed ridge of the western bluff.

She was deeply touched to find this dusky-complexioned, bare-legged girl
waiting for her.

"It was very nice of you, Rose," she said, and they walked off together.
She talked about the flowers in the grass, and Rose ran to and fro,
climbing fences to pick all sorts that she knew. She did not laugh when
the teacher told her the botanical names. She wished she could remember
them.

"When you grow up you can study botany too. But you must run home now,
it's almost dark."

"I ain't afraid of the dark," said Rose stoutly, and she went so far
Miss Lavalle was quite alarmed.

"Now you must go."

She kissed the child good-bye, and Rose ran off with her heart big with
emotion, like an accepted lover.

It was well Rose turned to her for help, for most of her teachers had
not the refinement of Miss Lavalle. They were generally farmers'
daughters or girls from neighboring towns, who taught for a little extra
money to buy dresses with--worthy girls indeed, but they expressed less
of refining thought to the children.

One day this young teacher, with Rose and two or three other little
ones, was sitting on a sunny southward sloping swell. Her hands were
full of flowers and her great dark eyes were opened wide as if to mirror
the whole scene, a valley flooded with light and warm with the radiant
grass of spring. She was small and dark and dainty, and still carried
the emotional characteristics of her French ancestry. She saw nature
definitely, and did not scruple to say so.

"O, it is beautiful!" she said, as her eyes swept along the high broken
line of the Western coulé ridge, down to the vast blue cliff where the
river broke its way into the larger valley. "Children, see how beautiful
it is!" The children stared away at it, but Rose looked into the
teacher's eager face. Then her flowers dropped to the ground, the
sunlight fell upon her with a richer glow, the dandelions shone like
stars in a heaven of green, the birds and the wind sang a wild clear
song in the doors of her ears, and her heart swelled with unutterable
emotion. She was overpowered by the beauty of the world, as she had been
by its immensity that day on the hill top with her father.

She saw the purple mists, the smooth, green, warm slopes dotted with
dandelions, and the woodlands with their amber, and purple-gray, and
gray-green foliage. The big world had grown distinctly beautiful to her.
It was as though a gray veil had been withdrawn from the face of created
things--but this perception did not last. The veil fell again before her
eyes when the presence of the teacher was withdrawn. She felt the
beautiful and splendid phases of nature and absorbed and related them to
herself, but she did not consciously perceive except at rare moments.

The men, who taught in winter, were blunt and crude, but occasionally
one of a high type came. Some young fellows studying law, or taking a
course at some school, teaching to keep their place or to go higher.
These men studied nights and mornings out of great Latin books which
were the wonder of the children. Such teachers appealed to the better
class of pupils with great power, but excited rebellion in others.

It seemed a wonderful and important day to Rose, the first time she
entered the scarred and greasy room in winter, because it was swarming
with big girls and boys. She took her seat at one of the little benches
on the north side of the room, where all the girls sat. At some far time
the girls had been put on that, the coldest side of the house, and they
still sat there; change was impossible.

Rose was a little bit awed by the scene. The big boys never seemed so
rough, and the big girls never seemed so tall. They were all talking
loudly, hanging about the old square stove which sat in the middle of a
puddle of bricks.

She was an unimportant factor in the winter school, however, for the big
boys and girls ignored the little ones, or ordered them out of their
games.

In winter also her physical superiority to the other girls was less
apparent, for she wore thick shoes and shapeless dresses and muffled her
head and neck like the boys.

She plodded to school along the deep sleigh tracks, facing a bitter
wind, with the heart of a man. It made her cry sometimes but there was
more of rage than fear in her sobbing. She coughed and wheezed like the
rest, but through it all her perfect lungs and sinewy heart carried her
triumphantly.

The winter she was fourteen years of age she had for teacher a girl
whose beautiful presence brought a curse with it. She was small and
graceful, with a face full of sudden tears and laughter and dreams of
desire. She fascinated the children, and the larger boys woke to a
sudden savagery of rivalry over her, which no one understood. The older
boys fought over her smiles and low-voiced words of praise.

The girls grew vaguely jealous or were abject slaves to her whims. The
school became farcical in session, with ever-increasing play hours and
ever-shortening recitations, and yet such was the teacher's power over
the students they did not report her. She gathered the larger girls
around her as she flirted with the young men, until children like Carl
and Rose became a part of it all.

At night the young men of the neighborhood flocked about her
boarding-place, absolutely fighting in her very presence for the promise
which she withheld, out of coquettish perversity. She herself became a
victim of the storm of passion which swept over the neighborhood. She
went out to parties and dances every night and came languidly to school
each morning. Most of the men of the district laughed, but the women
began to talk excitedly about the stories they heard.

At school the most dangerous practices were winked at. The older boys
did not scruple to put their arms about the teacher's waist as they
stood by her side. All the reserve and purity which is organic in the
intercourse of most country girls and boys seemed lost, and parties and
sleigh-rides left remorse and guilt behind. There was something feverish
and unwholesome in the air.

The teacher's fame mysteriously extended to Tyre, and when known
libertines began to hitch their horses at the fence before her house and
to enter into rivalry with the young men of the neighborhood, then the
fathers of the coulé suddenly awoke to their children's danger, and
turning the teacher away (tearful and looking harmless as a kitten),
they closed and locked the school-house door.

Instantly the young people grew aware of their out-break of premature
passion. Some of them, like Rose, went to their parents and told all
they knew about it. John Dutcher received his daughter's answers to his
questions with deep sorrow, but he reflected long before he spoke. She
was only a child, not yet fifteen; she would outgrow the touch of
thoughtless hands.

He sent for Carl, and as they stood before him, with drooping heads, he
talked to them in his low, mild voice, which had the power of bringing
tears to the sturdy boy's eyes.

"Carl, I thought I could trust you. You've done wrong--don't you know
it? You've made my old heart ache. When you get old and have a little
girl you may know how I feel, but you can't now. I don't know what I can
say to you. I don't know what I am going to do about it, but I want you
to know what you've done to me--both of you. Look into my face now--you
too, Rose--look into your old father's face!"

The scared children looked into his face with its streaming tears, then
broke out into sobbing that shook them to their heart's center. They
could not bear to see him cry.

"That's what you do to your parents when you do wrong. I haven't felt so
bad since your mother died, Rose."

The children sobbed out their contrition and desire to do better, and
John ended it all at last by saying, "Now, Carl, you may go, but I shall
keep watch of you and see that you grow up a good, true man. When I see
you're real sorry I'll let you come to see Rose again."

After Carl went out, Rose pressed into his ready arms. "I didn't mean to
be bad, pappa."

"I know you didn't, Rosie, but I want you to know how you can make me
suffer by doing wrong--but there, there! don't cry any more. If you are
good and kind and true like your mother was you'll outgrow this trouble.
Now run away and help get supper."

The buoyancy of a healthy child's nature enabled her to throw off the
oppression of that dark day, the most terrible day of her life, and she
was soon cheerful again, not the child she had been, but still a happy
child. After a few weeks John sent for Carl to come over, and they
popped corn and played dominos all the evening, and the innocency of
their former childish companionship seemed restored.



CHAPTER VI

HER FIRST IDEAL


One June day a man came riding swiftly up the lanes, in a buggy with a
gilded box. As he passed the school-house he flung a handful of
fluttering yellow and red bills into the air.

"A circus! a circus!" was the cry as the boys rushed for the blowing
sheets of paper. It was a circus, the annual "monstrous aggregation of
Gregorian games and colossal cataracts of gilded chariots," and it was
coming to Tyre.

The children read every word of those high sounding posters, standing in
knots by the roadside. It was the mightiest event of their lives. Most
of them had never been to a circus. Many had never been so far as Tyre.
Some had, however, and they straightway became fountains of wisdom, and
declaimed upon the splendors of other aggregations.

Rose looked at the lines of knights and ladies winding down the yellow
broadside of the sheet, and wondered if she would ever see them.

The courier rode on. He flung a handful of the bills over into the
corn-field where Carl was plowing corn with the hired man, and Carl
straightway began to plan.

He flung a handful of the alluring yellow leaves into the bed of the
wagon which poor old John Rapp was driving, and he sighed and wondered
how he would raise the money to take the children down, and also he
longed to see it himself. The whole county awoke to the significance of
the event and began preparation and plans, though it was nearly three
weeks away. An enormous distance it seemed to the boys and girls.

At school and at church it was talked of. The boys selected their girls,
and parties of four or six were made up to go to Tyre, ten miles away,
in the larger valley below. In some way, without words, Rose agreed to
go with Carl. John Nixon and Ella Pierce made up the other couple. They
were to go in a "bowery wagon."

The whole population awoke to pathetic, absorbing interest in the
quality of the posters and the probable truth of the fore-word. The
circus was the mightiest contrast to their slow and lonely lives that
could be imagined. It came in trailing clouds of glorified dust and
grouped itself under vast tents whose lift and fall had more majesty
than summer clouds, and its streamers had more significance than the
lightning.

It brought the throb of drum and scream of fife, and roar of wild beast.
For one day each humdrum town was filled with romance like the Arabian
Nights; with helmeted horsemen, glittering war maidens on weirdly
spotted horses; elephants with howdahs and head-plates of armor, with
lions dreadful, sorrowful, sedate and savage; with tigers and hyenas in
unmanageable ferocity pacing up and down their gilded dens while their
impassive keepers dressed in red, sat in awful silence amidst them.

There was something remote and splendid in the ladies who rode haughtily
through the streets on prancing horses, covered with red and gold
trappings. There was something heroic, something of splendid art in the
pose of the athletes in the ring.

From the dust and drudgery of their farms the farm boys dreamed and
dreamed of the power and splendor of the pageantry. They talked it each
Sunday night as they sat up with their sweethearts. The girls planned
their dresses and hats, and the lunch they were to take. Everything was
arranged weeks ahead. Carl was to furnish one team, John the other; Ella
was to bring cake and jelly and biscuit; Rose to take a chicken and a
shortcake.

They were to start early and drive a certain route and arrive at the
ground at a certain hour to see the parade. After the parade they were
to take dinner at the hotel, and then the circus! No court ball ever
thrilled a young girl's heart like this event.

It was trebly important to Rose. It was her first really long dress. It
was her first going out into the world with an escort, and it was her
first circus. She trembled with excitement whenever she thought of it,
and sometimes burst into tears at the uncertainty of it. It might rain,
she might be sick, or something might happen!

She worked away with feverish haste, trimming her hat and helping on her
dress, which was to be white, trimmed with real lace from the store.
Some dim perception of what it all meant to his girl, penetrated John
Dutcher's head, and he gave Rose a dollar to buy some extra ribbon with,
and told Mrs. Diehl to give the child a good outfit.

On the night before the circus Carl could not work in the corn. He drove
furiously about the neighborhood on inconsequential errands. He called
twice on Rose, and they looked into each other's face with transports of
fear and joy.

"O, if it should rain!"

"It won't. I just know it's going to be fine. Don't you worry. I am the
son of a prophet. I know it can't rain."

There was no real sleep for Rose that night. Twice she woke from an
uneasy doze, thinking she heard the patter of rain, but listening close
she knew it was only the rustle of the cottonwood trees about the house.

Her room was a little rough-plastered garret room, with an eastern
window, and at last she saw the yellow light inter-filtrate the
dark-blue of the eastern sky, and she rose and pattered about in her
bare feet, while she put up her hair like a woman and slipped on her
underskirt, stiff with starch, and then her dress, with its open-work
sleeves and ruche of lace, threaded with blue ribbon. She moved about on
her bare feet, rejoicing in the crisp rustle of her new clothing, and
put on her wide hat with its hectic rose-buds and paris-green thick
leaves. Her undistorted feet were the most beautiful of all, but she did
not know that.

She sat on the bed completely dressed, but hardly daring to move for
fear of waking her aunt. She watched the yellow glow deepen to a saffron
dome of ever-spreading light. She knew the weather signs herself, and
she was sure the day was to be hot but clear. She did not fear the heat.

As she sat so, a feeling of joy, of realization of the abounding
goodness and sweetness of living, made her want to thank something--to
give praise. She moved her lips in a little prayer of thanks to the sun,
as his first glittering rim of light came above the low hills.

"Rosie!" called Mrs. Diehl.

"I'm up," she replied, and hastily drew on her shoes and stockings. She
took her hat in her hands and went down the stairs and through the
little sitting room out to the door-step. She heard someone whistling.
Then a shout of laughter--they were coming!

She had packed her basket the night before, and she stood ready at the
gate when Carl and his companions drove up. They had four horses hitched
to a large wagon, which was set about with branches of oak and willow.
Carl was driving and Rose mounted to the front seat with him. He cracked
his whip and they whirled away, leaving the old folks calling warnings
after them.

The sun was just rising, the dew was still globed on the wild roses. The
wagon rumbled, the bower over their heads shook with the jar of the
wheels. The horses were fresh and strong and the day was before them.
Rose felt something vague and sweet, something that laved the whole
world like sunlight. She was too happy to sing. She only sat and
dreamed. She felt her clothes, but she was no longer acutely conscious
of them.

Carl was moved too, but his emotion vented itself in shouts and cheery
calls to the horses, and to the pistol-like cracking of his whip.

He looked at her with clear-eyed admiration. She abashed him a little by
her silence. She seemed so strangely womanly in that pose, and the glow
of her firm arms through her sleeve was alien, somehow.

The road led around hill sides, under young oak trees, across dappled
sands, and over little streams where the horses stopped to drink. It was
like some world-old idyl, this ride in a heavy rumbling wagon; it led to
glory and light, this road among the hills.

Rounding a long low line of bluffs they caught the flutter of flags in
Tyre, and saw the valley spotted with other teams, crawling like beetles
down the sandy river roads. The whole land seemed to be moving in gala
dress toward Tyre. Everywhere appeared the same expectancy, the same
exultation between lovers.

Carl pulled up with a flourish at the wooden porch of the Farmers'
Hotel, and the girls alighted and went into the parlor, while the boys
took the horses into a back alley and gave them their oats and hay in
the end of the box.

As Rose walked into the parlor, filled with other girls and young men,
the proud consciousness of her clothes came back to her, and she carried
herself with a lift of the head, which made her dark gipsy-like face
look haughty as a young queen's. She knew her dress was as good as any
other there, and she had no need to be ashamed, and besides it was her
first long dress, and she wore low shoes.

The boys came bustling back and hurried the girls out on the sidewalk.
"They're coming!" they cried breathlessly, as a far-off burst of music
came in on a warm puff of wind.

On they came, a band leading the way. Just behind, with glitter of lance
and shine of helmet, came a dozen knights and fair ladies riding
spirited chargers. They all looked strange and haughty and sneeringly
indifferent to the cheers of the people. The women seemed small and firm
and scornful, and the men rode with lances uplifted looking down at the
crowd with a haughty droop in their eyelids.

Rose shuddered with a new emotion as they swept past. She had never
looked into eyes like those. They had wearied of all splendor and
triumph, those eyes. They cared nothing for flaunt of flag or blast of
bugle. They rode straight out of the wonder and mystery of the morning
to her. They came from the unknown spaces of song and story beyond the
hills.

The chariots rumbled by almost unheeded by Rose. She did not laugh at
the clown jiggling by in a pony-cart for there was a face between her
and all that followed. The face of a bare-armed knight, with brown hair
and a curling mustache, whose proud neck had a curve in it as he bent
his head to speak to his rearing horse. He turned his face toward where
Rose stood, and her soul fluttered, and her flesh shrank as if from
fire, but he rode on. His face was fine, like pictures she had seen. It
was a pleasant face, too proud, but not coarse and stern like the
others.

The calliope, (a musical monster, hideous as the hippopotamus) and the
dens of beasts went past without arousing her interest; then the open
cage of lions rolled by with a trainer carelessly seated on a camp stool
amid his dun-colored monsters. His gaudy red-and-gold continental coat
and his impassive face made a deep impression on her. At last the
procession passed, carrying with it swarms of detached boys and girls,
whose parents fearfully called after them and unavailingly plead with
them to come back as they broke away.

"O, I wish it would all come by again!" sighed Ella.

"So do I," said Carl.

Rose remained silent. Somehow those knights and ladies dwarfed all else.
She did not look forward to eating a hotel dinner with the same pleasure
now, but was eager to get to the tent, whose pennants streamed above the
roofs of the houses.

The hotel swarmed with farmer folks, whose loud voices uttered shouts of
satisfaction over the promise of the parade. It was the best ever seen
in the town.

"Right this way, ladies and gentlemen," said the landlord, as he ushered
Carl's party down to a table at the end of the dining-room.

Rose felt a thrill of delight; she was a grown-up person at last. This
landlord recognized her assumption and it made the dinner almost
enjoyable. She saw no one better dressed than herself, and she had a
feeling that she was good to look at. She was really more beautiful than
she knew. A city drummer sitting at another table eyed her all through
the meal with breathless admiration. Her health and color, and the firm
lines of her nose and chin were especially attractive.

They all ate with unusual formality, using their forks instead of knives
for their pie, and otherwise trying to seem citified. Ella laughed at
the antics John cut up over his fork, and the sly digs that he gave
Carl, who chased the crust of his pie around his plate with a fork and
at last gave it up and seized it with his fingers.

No one noticed these pranks, because everyone else was carrying on in
much the same way. At length they rose and returned to the parlor, where
they sat about on the cheap red plush chairs and waited for 1 o'clock.

"Well, it's about time to go," said Carl, on one of his re-entries from
the street. "Gee-Whittaker! but it's hot out there!"

"It'll be cool under the tent."

"Well, come on."

Out on the street they joined the stream of lovers like themselves,
moving hand in hand down the walk, assaulted by cries of lemonade, candy
and fruit hucksters.

The sun beat upon their heads; a dust arose from the feet of the passing
teams and settled upon the white dresses of the girls, and sank through
the meshes of their sleeves and gathered in the moist folds of their
ruches. They moved on rapidly toward the clanging band, the flutter of
the pennants and the brazen outcries of the ticket-takers.

On to the square before the tents, thronged with innumerable people, an
avenue of side-shows faced them like a gauntlet to be run. Before each
flapping sign of fat woman, or snake charmer, stood a man who cried in
strange, clanging, monotonous and rhythmical voice:

"You still have a half an hour, ladies and gentlemen, before the great
show opens. Come in and see the wonders of the world."

Before the ticket wagon a straggling, excited crowd wrestled,
suspicious, determined, hurried. Leaving their girls in the more open
space, the boys drew deep breaths of resolution and plunged into the
press with set, determined faces.

They returned soon, hot, disarranged but triumphant. "Come on, girls."

They moved upon the main entrance, where a man stood snatching at the
tickets which were handed to him. He was humorous, and talked as he
pushed the people in.

"Hurry up, old man; trot close after your mother. Have your tickets
ready, everybody. Yes, right this way, uncle. Bless your dear little
face--right ahead. H'y'ere, bub, this ticket's no good!--Oh, so it is, I
didn't see the right side--get on quick."

As Rose passed him he said, "You go in free, my dear," and resumed his
bawling cry, "Have your tickets ready."

Under the tent! Rose looked up at the lifting, tremulous, translucent
canvas with such awe as the traveler feels in St. Peter's dome. Her feet
stumbled on, while she clung to Carl's hand without knowing it. O, the
enormous crowds of people, the glitter and change of it all!

They followed in the stream which flowed around the circle of animal
dens, and Rose silently looked at all she saw. The others laughed and
exclaimed, but she did not. Everything seemed inexplicable and
mysterious, and roused confusing trains of thought.

She saw the great tigers, and caught the yellow-green sheen of their
eyes. She saw the lions rise like clouds of dust in their corners,
silent as mist and terrible as lightning. She looked at the elephant and
wondered how he could live and be so like the toy elephants she had at
home. On past shrieking tropical birds and grunting, wallowing beasts,
and chattering crowds of people she moved, without a word, till they
came around to the circus entrance, and then she lifted her eyes again
around the great amphitheater.

"_Peanuts, peanuts here, five a bag!_"

"Here's your lemonade, cool and fresh."

On all sides brazen-voiced young men were selling, at appalling prices,
sticks of candy, glasses of lemonade, palm-leaf fans and popcorn balls.
There was something about them that frightened her, and she walked a
little closer to Carl.

They heard familiar voices call and saw some young people from their
coulé, and so clambered up where they sat. The boards were narrow and
the seats low, but nobody minded that, for that was part of the circus.

They were settled at last and ready to enjoy all that came. Two or three
volunteered to say: "This is great! the best place to see 'em come in."
Then they passed the peanut bag in reckless liberality.

Rose sat in a dream of delight as the band began to play. It was an
ambitious band and played operatic selections with modulations, and it
seemed to Rose to be the most splendid music in the world. All other
bands she had heard played right along tum-tummy tum-tummy tummy,
tummy-tum. This band sang and talked and whispered and dreamed. It shook
her like a stallion's neigh, and soothed her like the coo of a dove on
the barn roof.

She heard nothing that was said about her, and she did not know she sat
squeezing Carl's arm.

People streamed by in enormous crowds. Ladies in elegant dresses, and
hats such as she had never seen before. Handsome young men went by, and
yet she gave them no second look. They were like figures in a dream.

At last the band blared an announcing note, and the uniformed attendants
filed into the ring and took positions at set points like sentries. Then
the music struck into a splendid galop, and out from the curtained
mysteries beyond, the knights and ladies darted, two and two, in glory
of crimson and gold, and green and silver. At their head rode the man
with the brown mustache.

They came around into position, and then began a series of bewildering
changes, directed by her knight, whose shout dominated the noise of the
horses and the blare of the band, with hollow wild sound.

They vanished as they came, and then came the clowns, and tricks and
feats of strength. The iron-jawed woman lifted incredible weights; the
Japanese jugglers tossed cannon-balls, knives and feathers; the baby
elephant stood on his head--and then suddenly six men dressed in tights
of blue and white and orange ran into the ring, and her hero led them.

He wore blue and silver, and on his breast was a rosette. He looked a
god to her. His naked limbs, his proud neck, the lofty carriage of his
head, made her shiver with emotion. They all came to her lit by the
white radiance; they were not naked, they were beautiful, but _he_ was
something more.

She had seen naked boys, and her own companions occasionally showed
themselves naked and cowering before her, but these men stood there
proud and splendid. They invested their nakedness with something which
exalted them. They became objects of luminous beauty to her, though she
knew nothing of art.

As she grew clearer-eyed, she saw that one was a little too short,
another too lean, but he of the rosette was perfect. The others leaped,
with him, doing the same feats, but as distances were increased, and the
number of camels and horses grew, the others stood by to see him make
his renowned double somersault over a herd of animals. When the applause
broke out she joined it, while her temples throbbed with emotion. To see
him bow and kiss his fingers to the audience was a revelation of manly
grace and courtesy. He moved under the curtain, bowing still to the
cheering crowd.

Once more he came back later on, leading a woman by the hand. She too
was in tights throughout, and like him she walked with a calm and
powerful movement, but she seemed petty beside him.

Something new seized upon Rose's heart, a cold contraction that she had
never felt, and her teeth pressed together. She wondered if the woman
were his wife.

The woman seized a rope with her right arm and was drawn to the tent
roof. He took a strap in his mouth and was drawn to his trapeze also.
There, in mid-air, they performed their dangerous evolutions. It was all
marvelous and incredible to the country girl.

She heard him clap his hands, then his glorious voice rang above the
music, and the lithe figure of his companion launched itself through the
air, was caught by the shoulders in his great hands, thence with a twist
he tossed her, and hooked her by the hands.

Each time, the blood surged into Rose's throat as if to suffocate her. A
horrible fear that was a pleasure, some way, rose and fell in her. She
could not turn away her head. She must look.

She was a powerful girl, and the idea of fainting had never come to her,
but when at the conclusion, he dropped in a revolving ball into the net
far beneath, she turned sick and her eyes seemed to whirl in their
sockets. Then as he leaped to the ground, bowing and smiling, the blood
rushed back to her face, and the perspiration stood like rain on her
face.

Thereafter riders came, and the clowns capered, and the ring-master
cracked his whip and she enjoyed it, but it was an after-climax. She saw
it, but saw it dimly. Nothing but the lions and their trainers aroused
her to applause. Her brain was full. It was a feast of glories and her
very hunger made her lay hold upon the first that came, to the neglect
of what came after.

At last the brazen, resounding voice of the ring-master announced the
last of the show, and the audience arose and moved out in a curious sort
of a hush, as if in sorrow to think it was all over, and the humdrum
world was rushing back upon them.

Rose moved along in perfect silence, clinging to Carl's hand. Around her
was the buzz of low speech, the wailing of tired and hungry babies and
the clamor of attendants selling tickets for the minstrel show to
follow.

Suddenly she perceived that her dress was wet with perspiration and
grimy with dust. She saw all about her women with flushed faces and
grimy hands, their hats awry and their brows wrinkled with trouble over
fretful children. The men walked along with their coats over their arms,
and their hats pushed back. The dust arose under their feet with a
strange smell. Out in the animal tent the odor was stifling and Rose
hurried Carl out into the open air.

Somehow it seemed strange to see the same blue sky arching the earth;
things seemed exactly the same and yet Rose had grown older. She had
developed immeasurably in those few hours. It took her some time to
fully recover the use of her feet, and it took longer to get back a full
realization of where she was.

The grass, crushed and trampled and littered with paper, and orange
peel, gave out a fresh farm-like odor, that helped her to recover
herself. She would not talk, she could not talk yet. She only urged them
to go home. She wanted to get home to think.

       *       *       *       *       *

As they climbed the slope on the other side of the river, they looked
back at the tents with their wilted streamers, at the swarming bug-like
teams and the ant-like human beings, and it seemed to Rose as if she
should weep, so poignant was her sense of personal loss.

She knew something sweet and splendid and mystical was passing out of
her life after a few hours' stay there. Her feeling of loss was none the
less real because it was indefinable to her.

The others chattered about each part of the show, and shouted admiration
about this and that feat, but Rose was silent. When they stopped at
sunset beside a spring to eat their lunch she merely said:

"I don't feel hungry."

The others fell silent after a time, and they rode dreamily forward,
with the roll of wheels making them sleepy and the trample of the
horses' feet telling them how rapidly they were leaving their great
day's pleasure behind them.

When Rose huddled into her little attic bed, her eyes were wide open,
and her brain active as at noonday. There was no sleep for her then.
Lying there in the darkness she lived it all over again; the flutter of
flags, the wild voices, the blare of music, the chariots, the wild
beasts, the knights and ladies, the surging crowds; but the crowning
glory, the pictures which lingered longest in her mind were the splendid
and beautiful men, whose naked majesty appealed to her pure wholesome
awakening womanhood, with the power of beauty and strength combined,
with sex and art both included.

These glorious, glittering graceful beings with their marvelous strength
and bravery filled her with a deep sad hunger, which she could not
understand. They came out of the unknown, led by her chosen one, like
knights in Ivanhoe.

She fell asleep thinking of the one in blue and silver, and in her sleep
she grew braver and went closer to him, and he turned and spoke to her,
and his voice was like waters running, and his eyes shone some way into
her eyes like a light.

       *       *       *       *       *

When she rose the next day she was changed. She moved about the house
dull and languid. Never before had she failed to sleep when her head
touched the pillow. She managed to be alone most of the time, and at
last her mind cleared. She began to live for him, her ideal. She set him
on high as a being to be worshiped, as a man fit to be her judge.

In the days and weeks which followed she asked herself, "Would he like
me to do this?" or she thought, "I must not do that. What would he think
of me if he saw me now?" And every night when she went to sleep it was
with the radiant figure in blue and silver before her eyes.

When the sunset was very beautiful, she thought of him. When the stars
seemed larger in the blue sky, she could see the star upon his grand
breast. She knew his name; she had the bill in her little box of
trinkets, and she could take it out and read, "William De Lisle, the
world-famous leader in ground and lofty tumbling, in his stupendous leap
over two elephants, six camels and two horses."

In all the talk of the circus which followed among her companions, she
took no part because she feared she might be obliged to mention his
name. When others spoke his name she could feel a hot flush surge up all
over her body and she trembled for fear some one might discover her
adoration of him.

She went about with Carl and Rob as before, only she no longer longed
for them; they seemed good, familiar comrades, but nothing more. To them
she seemed stranger every day. Her eyes had lost their clear, brave
look; they were dreamy black, and her lids drooped.

Vast ambitions began in her. She determined to be a great scholar. She
would be something great for his sake. She could not determine what, but
she, too, would be great. At first she thought of being a circus woman,
and then she determined that was impossible.

She dreamed often of being his companion and coming on hand in hand with
him, bowing to the multitude, but when she was drawn to the tent-roof,
she awoke in a cold sweat of fear, and so she determined to be a writer.
She would write books like Ivanhoe. Those were great days! Her mind
expanded like the wings of a young eagle. She read everything; the
_Ledger_, the _Weekly_, and all the dog-eared novels of impassioned and
unreal type in the neighborhood.

In short, she consecrated herself to him as to a king, and seized upon
every chance to educate herself to be worthy of him. Every effort was
deeply pathetic, no matter how absurd to others. She took no counsel,
allowed no confidants. She lived alone among her playmates.

This ideal came in her romantic and perfervid period, and it did her
immeasurable good. It lifted her and developed her. It enabled her to
escape the clutch of mere brute passion which seizes so many boys and
girls at that age, and leads to destructive early marriages. It kept her
out of reach of the young men of the neighborhood.

She did not refuse the pleasures of the autumn and the winter, only she
did not seem so hearty in her enjoyment of the rides and parties. She
rode with the young fellows on moonlit nights, lying side by side with
them on the straw-filled bottom of the sleigh, and her heart leaped with
the songs they sang, but it all went out towards her ideal; he filled
the circle of her mind. The thought of him made the night magical with
meaning. As she danced with Carl it was her hero's arm she felt. At
night, when Carl left her on the door-step, she looked up at the stars
and the sinking moon, and lifted her face in a wild vow,
inarticulate--"I will be worthy of him!" That was the passionate
resolution, but it did not reach to the definiteness of words.

As she worked about the house she took graceful attitudes, and wished he
might see her; he would be pleased with her. The grace and power of her
arm acquired new meaning to her. Her body, she recognized, had something
the same statuesque pose of his. In the secrecy of her room she walked
up and down, feeling the splendid action of her nude limbs muscled
almost like his. And all this was fine and pure physical joy. Her idea
remained indefinite, wordless.

These were days of formless imaginings and ambitions. "I will do! I will
do!" was her ceaseless cry to herself, but what could she do? What
should she do?

She could be wise; that she would be. So she read. She got little out of
her reading that she could make a showing of, but still it developed
her. It made her dream great things, impossible things, but she had
moments when she tried to live these things.

Meanwhile her manners changed. She became absent-minded, and seemed
sullen and haughty to her companions at times. She never giggled like
the rest of the girls. She had fine teeth, and yet her smile was
infrequent. She laughed when occasion demanded, and laughed heartily,
but she was not easily stirred to laughter.

Just in proportion as she ignored the young beaux, so they thronged
about her. One or two of them eyed her with a look which made her angry.
She took refuge in Carl's company, and so escaped much persecution, for
Carl was growing to be a powerful young man, with fists like mauls, and
was respected among the athletes of the neighborhood.

She did not realize that she would need at some time to settle with
Carl. She accepted his company as a matter of course. He filled social
requirements for the time being.

Her teacher that winter was a plaintive sort of a little middle-aged
man, a man of considerable refinement, but with little force. Rose liked
him, but did not respect him as she had two or three of the men who had
filled the teacher's chair. She could not go to him for advice.

As the winter wore on the figure of "William De Lisle" grew dimmer, but
not less beautiful. Her love for him lost its under-current of
inarticulate expectancy; it was raised into a sentiment so ethereal it
would seem a breath of present passion would scatter it like vapor, and
yet it was immovable as granite. Time alone could change it. He still
dominated her thought at quiet times, at dark when the stars began to
shine, but in the daytime he was faint as a figure in a dream.



CHAPTER VII

ROSE MEETS DR. THATCHER


The school-house in Dutcher's coulé, like most country school-houses,
was a squalid little den. It was as gray as a rock and as devoid of
beauty as a dry goods box. It sat in the midst of the valley and had no
trees, to speak of, about it, and in winter it was almost as snow-swept
as the school-houses of the prairie.

Its gray clap-boarding was hacked and scarred with knife and stone, and
covered with mud and foul marks. A visitor who had turned in from the
sun-smit winter road paused before knocking and looked at the walls and
the door with a feeling of mirth and sadness. Was there no place to
escape the obscene outcome of sexual passion?

Dr. Thatcher had been a pupil here in this same school-house more than
twenty years before, and the droning, shuffling sound within had a
marvelous reawakening power. He was a physician in Madison now, and was
in the coulé on a visit.

His knock on the door brought a timid-looking man to the door.

"I'd like to come in awhile," said the Doctor.

"Certainly, certainly," replied the teacher, much embarrassed by the
honor.

He brought him the chair he had been sitting on, and helped his visitor
remove his coat and hat.

"Now don't mind me, I want to see everything go on just as if I were not
here."

"Very well, that's the way we do," the teacher replied, and returned to
his desk and attempted, at least, to carry out his visitor's request.

A feeling of sadness, mingled with something wordlessly vast, came over
the Doctor as he sat looking about the familiar things of the room.

He was in another world, an old, familiar world. His eyes wandered
lovingly from point to point of the room, filled with whispering lips
and shuffling feet and shock-heads of hair, under which shone bright
eyes, animal-like in their shifty stare. The curtains, of a
characterless shade, the battered maps, the scarred and scratched
blackboards, the patched, precarious plastering, the worn floor on which
the nails and knots stood like miniature mountains, the lop-sided seats,
the master's hacked, unpainted pine desk, dark with dirt and polished
with dirty hands, all seemed as familiar as his own face.

He sat there listening to the recitations in a dreamy impassivity. He
was deep in the past, thinking of the days when to pass from his seat to
the other side of the room was an event; when a visitor was a
calamity--for the teacher; when the master was a tyrant and his
school-room a ceaselessly rebellious kingdom.

As his eyes fell at last more closely upon the scholars; he caught the
eyes of a young girl looking curiously at him, and so deep was he in the
past, his heart gave a sudden movement, just as it used to leap when in
those far-off days Stella Baird looked at him. He smiled at himself for
it. It was really ludicrous; he thought, "I'll tell my wife of it."

The girl looked away slowly and without embarrassment. She was thinking
deeply, looking out of the window. His first thought was, "She has
beautiful eyes." Then he noticed that she wore her hair neatly arranged,
and that her dress, though plain, looked tasteful and womanly about the
neck. The line of her head was magnificent. Her color was rich and dark;
her mouth looked sad for one so young. Her face had the effect of being
veiled by some warm, dusky color.

Was she young? Sometimes as he studied her she seemed a woman,
especially as she looked away out of the window, and the profile line of
her face could be seen. But she looked younger when she bent her head
upon her books, and her long eye-lashes fell upon her cheek.

His persistent study brought a vivid flush into her face, but she did
not nudge her companion and whisper as another would have done.

"That is no common girl," the Doctor concluded.

He sat there while the classes were called up one after the other. He
heard again these inflections, tones, perpetuated for centuries in the
school-room, "The-cat-saw-a-rat."

Again the curfew failed to ring, in the same hard, monotonous, rapid,
breathless sing-song, every other line with a falling inflection. The
same failure to make the proper pause caused it to appear that "Bessie
saw him on her brow."

Again the heavy boy read the story of the ants, and the teacher asked
insinuatingly sweet questions.

"What did they do?"

"Made a tunnel."

"Yes! Now what _is_ a tunnel?"

"A hole that runs under-ground."

"Very good! It says that the ant is a voracious creature. What does that
mean?"

"Dunno."

"You don't know what a voracious creature is?"

"No, sir."

And then came the writing exercise, when each grimy fist gripped a pen,
and each red tongue rolled around a mouth in the vain effort to guide
the pen. _Cramp, cramp; scratch, scratch; sputter!_ What a task it was!

The December afternoon sun struck in at the windows, and fell across the
heads of the busy scholars, and as he looked, Dr. Thatcher was a boy
again, and Rose and her companions were the "big girls" of the school.
He was looking at Stella, the prettiest girl in the district, the
sunlight on her hair, a dream of nameless passion in her eyes.

The little room grew wide as romance, and across the aisle seemed over
vast spaces. Girlish eyes met his like torches in the night. The dusty
air, the shuffle of feet, the murmuring of lips only added to the
mysterious power of the scene.

There they sat, these girls, just as in the far-off days, trying to
study, and succeeding in dreaming of love songs, and vague, sweet
embraces on moonlight nights, beneath limitless star-shot skies, with
sound of bells in their ears, and the unspeakable glory of youth and
pure passion in their souls.

The Doctor sighed. He was hardly forty yet, but he was old in the
history of disillusion and in contempt of human nature. His deep-set
eyes glowed with an inward fire of remembrance.

"O pathetic little band of men and women," thought he, "my heart thrills
and aches for you."

He was brought back to the present with a start by the voice of the
teacher.

"Rose, you may recite now."

The girl he had been admiring came forward. As she did so he perceived
her to be not more than sixteen, but she still had in her eyes the look
of a dreaming woman.

"Rose Dutcher is our best scholar," smiled the teacher proudly as Rose
took her seat. She looked away out of the window abstractedly as the
teacher opened the huge geography and passed it to the Doctor.

"Ask her anything you like from the first fifty-six pages." The Doctor
smiled and shook his head.

"Bound the Sea of Okhotsk," commanded the teacher.

Thatcher leaned forward eagerly--her voice would tell the story!

Without looking around, with her hands in her lap, an absent look in her
eyes, the girl began in a husky contralto voice: "Bounded on the
north--" and went through the whole rigmarole in the same way, careless,
but certain.

"What rivers would you cross in going from Moscow to Paris?"

Again the voice began and flowed on in the same measured indifferent way
till the end was reached.

"Good heavens!" thought the Doctor, "they still teach that useless
stuff. But how well she does it!"

After some words of praise, which the girl hardly seemed to listen to,
she took her seat again.

Rose, on her part, saw another man of grace and power. She saw every
detail of his dress. His dark, sensitive face, and splendid slope of his
shoulders, the exquisite neatness and grace of his collar and tie and
coat. But in his eyes was something that moved her, drew her. She felt
something subtile there, refinement and sorrow, and emotions she could
only dimly feel.

She could not keep her eyes from studying his face. She compared him
with "William De Lisle," not deliberately, always unconsciously. He had
nothing of the bold beauty of her ideal. This man was a scholar, and he
was come out of the world beyond the Big Ridge, and besides, there was
mystery and allurement in his face.

The teacher called as if commanding a regiment of cavalry. "Books.
_Ready!_" There was a riotous clatter, which ended as quickly as it
begun.

_Kling!_ They all rose. _Kling!_ and the boys moved out with clumping of
heavy boots and burst into the open air with wild whoopings. The girls
gathered into little knots and talked, glancing furtively at the
stranger. Some of them wondered if he were the County Superintendent of
Schools.

Rose sat in her seat, with her chin on her clasped hands. It was a sign
of her complex organization, that the effect of a new experience was
rooted deep, and changes took place noiselessly, far below the surface.

"Rose, come here a moment," called the teacher, "bring your history."

"Don't keep her from her playmates," Thatcher remonstrated.

"O she'd rather recite any time than play with the others."

Rose stood near, a lovely figure of wistful hesitation. She had been
curiously unembarrassed before, now she feared to do that which was so
easy and so proper. At last she saw her opportunity as the teacher
turned away to ring the bell.

She touched Thatcher on the arm. "Do you live in Madison, sir?"

"Yes. I am a doctor there."

She looked embarrassed now and twisted her fingers.

"Is it so very hard to get into the university?"

"No. It is very easy--it would be for you," he said with a touch of
unconscious gallantry of which he was ashamed the next moment, for the
girl was looking away again. "Do you want to go to the university?"

"Yes, sir, I do."

"Why?"

"O, because--I want to know all I can."

"Why? What do you want to do?"

"You won't tell on me, will you?" She blushed red as a carnation now.
Strange mixture of child and woman, thought Thatcher.

"Why, certainly not."

They stood over by the blackboard; the other girls were pointing and
snickering, but she did not mind them.

"I guess I won't tell," she stammered; "you'd laugh at me like everybody
else--I know you would."

He caught her arm and turned her face toward his; her eyes were full of
tears.

"Tell me. I'll help you."

His eyes glowed with a kindly smile, and she warmed under it.

"I want to write--stories--and books," she half whispered guiltily. The
secret was out and she wanted to run away. The Doctor's crucial time had
come. If he laughed!--but he did not laugh. He looked thoughtful, almost
sad.

"You are starting on a long, long road, Rose," he said at last. "Where
it will lead to I cannot tell--nobody can. What put that into your
head?"

Rose handed him a newspaper clipping containing a brief account of "how
a Wisconsin poetess achieved fame and fortune."

"Why, my dear girl," he began, "don't you know that out of ten
thousand--" He stopped. She was looking up at him in expectation, her
great luminous grey-brown eyes burning with an inward hungry fire which
thrilled him.

"She may be the one in ten thousand, and I'll help her," he said to
himself.

The bell ringing brought the boys clattering back into their seats,
puffing, gasping, as if at last extremity. For a couple of minutes
nothing could be done, so great was the noise.

While they were getting settled he said to her:

"If you want to go to the university you will have to go to a
preparatory school. Here is my card--write to me when you get done here,
and I'll see what can be done."

Rose went back to her seat, her eyes filled with a burning light, her
hands strained together. This great man from Madison had believed in
her. O, if he would only come home and see her father!

She painfully penciled a note and handed it to him as she came past to
the blackboard. He was putting on his coat to go, but he looked down at
the crumpled note, with its Spencerian handwriting.

"Please, sir, won't you come down and see pappa and ask him if I can't
go to Madison?"

He looked at the girl, whose eyes, big and sombre and full of wistful
timidity, were fixed upon him. Obeying a sudden impulse, he stepped to
her side and said: "Yes, I'll help you; don't be troubled."

He stayed until school was out and the winter sun was setting behind the
hills. Rose sat and looked at him with more than admiration. She trusted
him. He had said he would help her, and his position was one of power in
her fancy, and something in his face and dress impressed her more deeply
than any man she had ever seen save "William De Lisle," her dim and
shadowy yet kingly figure.

On his part he was surprised at himself. He was waiting a final hour in
this school-room out of interest and curiosity in a country school girl.
His was a childless marriage, and this girl stirred the parental in him.
He wished he had such a child to educate, to develop.

The school was out at last, and, as she put on her things and came
timidly towards him, he turned from the teacher.

"So you are John Dutcher's daughter? I knew your father when I was a lad
here. I am stopping at the Wallace farm, but I'll come over a little
later and see your father."

Rose rushed away homeward, full of deep excitement. She burst into the
barn where John was rubbing the wet fetlocks of the horses he had been
driving. Her eyes were shining and her cheeks were a beautiful pink.

"O, pappa, he said I ought to go to Madison to school. He said he'd help
me go."

John looked up in astonishment at her excitement.

"Who said so?"

"Dr. Thatcher, the man who visited our school today. He said I'd ought
to go, and he said he'd help me."

Her exultation passed suddenly. Somehow there was not so much to tell as
she had fancied, and she suddenly found herself unable to explain the
basis of her enthusiasm. The perceived, but untranslatable expression of
the Doctor's eyes and voice was the real foundation of her hope, and
that she had not definitely and consciously noted--to explain it was
impossible. If her father could only have seen him!

"I guess you'd better wait awhile," her father said, with a smile, which
Rose resented.

"He's coming tonight."

"Who's he?"

"Dr. Thatcher. He used to live here. He knows you."

John grew a little more intent on her news.

"Does! I wonder if he is old Stuart Thatcher's son? He had a boy who
went east to school somewheres."

Rose went into the house and set to work with the graceful celerity
which Mrs. Diehl called "knack."

"Rose, you can turn off work when you really want to, to beat anything I
ever see."

Rose smiled and hummed a tune. Mrs. Diehl was made curious.

"You're wonderful good-natured, it seems to me. What's the reason,
already?"

"We're going to have company."

"Who, for Peter's sake?"

"Dr. Thatcher."

"What's he come here for?"

"To see pappa," said Rose, as she rushed upstairs into her attic-room.
It was cold up there, warmed only by the stove-pipe from the
sitting-room, but she sat down and fell into a dream in which she
recalled every look and word he had given her.

She came suddenly to herself, and began putting on her red dress, which
was her company dress. When she came downstairs in her creaking new
shoes Mrs. Diehl was properly indignant.

"Well! I declare. Couldn't you get along in your calico?"

"No, I couldn't!" Rose replied, with easy sharpness, which showed the
frequent passages at arms between them.

When Thatcher came in with the teacher he was quite startled by the
change in her. She looked taller and older and more intricate some way.

She took his hat and coat and made him at home in much better form than
he had reason to think she knew. She on her part watched him closely.
His manner at the table was a source of enlightenment to her. She felt
him to be a strong man, therefore his delicacy and consideration meant
much to her. It suggested related things dimly. It made her appreciate
vaguely the charm of the world from whence he came.

Dr. Thatcher was not young, and his experience as a physician had added
to his natural insight. He studied Rose keenly while he talked with John
concerning the changes in the neighborhood.

He saw in the girl great energy and resolution, and a mental
organization not simple. She had reason and reserve force not
apprehended by her father. The problem was, should he continue to
encourage her. Education of a girl like that might be glorious--or
tragic! After supper John Dutcher took him into the corner, and, while
Rose helped clear away the dishes, the two men talked.

"You see," John explained, "she's been talkin' about going on studyin'
for the last six months. I don't know what's got into the girl, but she
wants to go to Madison. I suppose her learnin' of that Bluff-Sidin' girl
goin' has kind o' spurred her on. I want her to go to the high school at
the Sidin', but she wants to go away"--he choked a little on that
phrase--"but if you an' teacher here think the girl'd' ought to go, why,
I'll send her."

The younger man looked grave--very grave. He foresaw lonely hours for
John Dutcher.

"Well--the girl interests me very much, Mr. Dutcher. It's a strong point
in her favor that she wants to go. Most girls of her age have little
ambition beyond candy and new dresses. I guess it's your duty to send
her. What she wants is the larger life that will come to her in Madison.
The preparatory work can be done here at the Siding. I believe it is one
of the accredited schools. Of course she will come home often, and when
she comes to Madison, I will see that she has a home until she gets
'wunted,' as you farmers say."

The teacher came in at this point full of wild praise of Rose's ability.
"She's great on history and geography. She knows about every city and
river and mountain on the maps."

"She's always been great for geography," confirmed John. "Used to sit
and follow out lines on the maps when she wasn't knee-high to a 'tater."
A tender tone came into his voice, almost as if he were speaking of a
dead child. He too had a quick imagination, and he felt already the loss
of his girl, his daily companion.

The matter was decided there. "You send her to me, when she gets ready,
and I'll have Mrs. Thatcher look after her for a week or so, till we
find her a place to stay."

Rose was in a fever of excitement. She saw the men talking there, and
caught disconnected words as she came and went about the table. At last
she saw Dr. Thatcher rise to go. She approached him timorously.

"Well, Rose, when you come to Madison you must come to our house. Mrs.
Thatcher will be glad to see you." She could not utter a word in thanks.
After he had gone Rose turned to her father with a swift appeal.

"Oh, pappa, am I going?"

He smiled a little. "We'll see when the time comes, Rosie."

She knew what that meant and she leaped with a joy swift as flame. John
sat silently looking at the wall, his arm flung over the back of his
chair. He wondered why she should feel so happy at the thought of
leaving home, when to him it was as bitter as death to think of losing
her for a single day out of his life.

Thenceforward the world began to open to Rose. Every sign of spring was
doubly significant; the warm sun, the passing of wild-fowl, the first
robin, the green grass, the fall of the frost, all appealed to her with
a power which transcended words. All she did was only preparation for
her great career beyond the Ridge.

She pictured the world outside in colors of such splendor that the
romance of her story-papers seemed weak and pale.

Out there in the world was William De Lisle. Out there were ladies with
white faces and heavy-lidded, haughty eyes, in carriages and in
ball-rooms. Out there was battle for her, and from her quiet coulé
battle seemed somehow alluring.



CHAPTER VIII

LEAVING HOME


As the time for leaving came on Rose had hours of depression, wherein
she wondered if it were worth while. Sometimes it began when she noticed
a fugitive look of sorrow on her father's face, and sometimes it was at
parting with some of her girl friends, and sometimes it was at thought
of Carl. She had spent a year in the Siding in preparation for the work
in Madison, and the time of her adventure with the world was near.

Carl came to be a disturbing force during those last few weeks. He had
been a factor in all of the days of her life. Almost without thought on
her part she had relied upon him. She had run to him for any sort of
material help, precisely as to a brother, and now he was a man and would
not be easily set aside.

He generally drove her to meeting on Sunday, and they loitered on the
shady stretches of the coulé roads. He generally put his arm around her,
and she permitted it because it was the way all the young fellows did
but she really never considered him in the light of a possible husband.

Most of the girls were precocious in the direction of marriage, and
brought all their little allurements to bear with the same object in
view which directs the coquetry of a city belle. At sixteen they had
beaux, at seventeen many of them actually married and at eighteen they
might often be seen riding to town with their husbands, covered with
dust, clasping wailing babes in their arms; at twenty they were often
thin and bent in the shoulders, and flat and stiff in the hips, sallow
and querulous wives of slovenly, careless husbands.

Rose did not hold that Carl had any claim upon her. The incidents of two
years before were lived down, both by herself and Carl, for as manhood
and womanhood came to them they put away all that which they had done in
the thoughtlessness of childhood. To Rose it was an unpleasant memory,
because associated with her father's grief. She supposed Carl to feel in
the same way about it, and so no allusion to it was ever made by any
one.

But Carl was grown to be a great stalwart young fellow, with the blood
and sinew of a man, and the passions of a man were developing in his
rather thick head. The arm which he laid along the buggy seat was less
passive and respectful of late. It clutched in upon her at times; though
she shook herself angrily each time, he merely laughed.

So matters stood when she told him she was going away to school in
Madison.

"That so?" he said, and not much else till the next Sunday. With all the
week to think about it in, he began to ask himself in current slang,
"Where do I come in?"

So the next time they drove together he tried again to tighten his arm
about her while he said:

"I'll miss you, Rosie."

"So'll pap," she said.

There was a long pause, then he said: "What's the use o' going away
anyhow? I thought you an' me was goin' to be married when we grew up."

She shook herself free. "We ain't grown up yet."

"I guess we won't never get our growth, then," he said with a chuckle;
"you don't need that extra schoolin' any more'n I do."

They rode in silence down the beautiful valley, with the charm of early
autumn lying over it.

"You mustn't go and forget me off there in Madison," he said, giving her
a squeeze.

"Carl, you stop that! You mustn't do that! I'll jump out o' the buggy if
you do that again!"

There was genuine anger in her voice.

"Why, it's all right, Rosie; ain't we engaged?"

"No, we're not, and we never will be, either."

There was a note in her voice that struck through even Carl's thick
thought. He did not reply, but continued to dwell upon that reply until
its entire meaning came to him. Then his face became pitiful to see. It
was usually round and red, but now it looked long and heavy and bitter.
He was so infertile of phrases he could only say:

"Then we might as well drive right back home."

"Well, you made me say it," she went on in a softer tone, being much
moved by the change in his face. "I like you, Carl, but I'm not a-goin'
to promise anything. I'll see when I come back, after I graduate."

They drove on. She was not much more of a talker than he, and so they
rode in silence that was sullen on Carl's part. At the gate she relented
a little. "Won't you come in, Carl?"

"No, I guess not," he said shortly, and drove off.

After she went in the house she felt more and more the injustice of her
anger. "If he hadn't pinched me like that," she said to herself.

She went to work at her packing again, putting in things she would not
possibly have any use for. As she worked the ache and weariness at her
heart increased, and when they called her to supper the tears were
falling again like a shower. It was a silent and miserable meal, though
the doors and windows were open and the pleasant sounds of the farm-yard
came in, and the red light of the setting sun shone in magically warm
and mellow.

John ate slowly, his eyes fixed on his plate. Rose ate not at all and
looked out of the window, with big tears rolling childishly down her
cheeks. She didn't want to go at all now. Her home seemed all at once so
comfortable and happy and safe!

John looked up and saw her tears, and immediately he was choked and
could not eat.

"There, there! Rosie, don't cry. We'll be all right, and you'll be back
almost 'fore you know it. June comes early in the summer, you know."
They were both so childlike they did not consider it possible to come
home before the year was up. She came around and knelt down by his side
and buried her face on his knees.

"I wish I hadn't promised to go," she wailed; "I don't want to go one
bit. I want to stay with you."

He understood her feeling and soothed her and diverted her, though tears
would have been a relief to him.

She went with him out to the barn, and she cried over the bossies and
the horses, and said good-by to them under her breath, so that her
father might not hear.

When she went to bed she lay down disconsolate and miserable. O it was
so hard to go, and it was hard not to go. Life was not so simple as it
had seemed before. Why did this great fear rise up in her heart? Why
should she have this terrible revulsion at the last moment? So she
thought and thought. Her only stay in the midst of chaos was Dr.
Thatcher. William De Lisle was very far away, like a cold white star.

Just as she made up her mind that she could not sleep, she heard her
father call her.

"Rose, time to get up!"

Her heart contracted with a sharp spasm that almost made her scream. The
time had come for action--momentous, irrevocable action, like Napoleon's
embarking from Elba for France.

It was very chill and dark. She rose and groped about for a light. Her
teeth chattered with cold and it seemed to her she was going to be sick.
She dressed hurriedly and went down.

John and her aunt were seated at breakfast. She slipped into her seat,
white and silent. It was still dark and the lighted lamps made it seem
like a midnight meal.

John was strenuously cheerful. "We have to get up early if we get that
seven o'clock train," he said.

"Better take some coffee anyhow," urged Mrs. Diehl.

"O, I can't eat a thing," Rose insisted.

"Don't worry her, sis," interposed John. "She'll feel like it later."

While John went to get the team Rose got on her things and walked about,
uttering a little moaning sound, like a babe in delirium. It was
terrible to hear her and Mrs. Diehl lost patience at last.

"Stop that fuss! Good land! anybody'd think you was goin' to die dead as
a hammer, the way you take on, and after all the time we've had gettin'
you ready. I declare to goodness I never see such a young'un in all my
born days. I will be glad to get rid of you!"

This was good strong medicine to Rose, and she uttered no more of her
grief. She punished her aunt by refusing to say good-bye at the door,
which grieved John very much.

"You folks had a tiff this morning a'ready?"

It was cold and damp. The wind pushed against their faces like the touch
of wet palms. The horses splashed along in pools of water, and out of
the dim light the hills rose against the sky full of soft sprawling
rain-clouds.

They rode in silence. Rose saw no more of the splendid visions of the
world. It was all dark and rainy ahead. Home, and peace, and comfort
were all behind her. She was so miserable it seemed as if she must cry
out, but her aunt's contemptuous words helped her to silence.

John talked a little about the trains on the road, and the weather, but
talk was an effort to him also. As he rode he thought of it all again.
He felt as if he were losing his heart, but he did not waver.

He helped her on the cars and then stooped and hugged her hard without
kissing her, and so stumbled out again, while she sat white and rigid,
breathing hard.

The sun came out after a little, and covered the earth with a glory that
found its way into the girl's heart. She ceased to sob, and the ache
passed out of her throat, although the shadow still hung in her eyes.

The car interested her. It seemed a palace and of enormous size. She
figured out the number of people it would hold, and wondered how the
seats which were turned the other way came to be so. The car was mainly
occupied by men in careless clothing. Everybody seemed sleepy and
unkempt. She wondered where they all came from, and so speculating, she
lost something of her poignant sorrow.

Then came one moment of quiet elation. She was going out into the world!
the enormous, the incredible had happened! She was going to Madison, the
state capital. The speed of the train, which seemed to her very great,
aided her to realize how swiftly she was getting into the world. The
fields and farms whirled by in dizzying fashion, and the whistle of the
engine was like the furious, defiant neigh of a rushing horse. It was
all on a scale more splendid than her dreams.

In the midst of her exultant moment the brakeman came through and eyed
her with the glare of a sex-maniac. She felt as if a hot iron had
touched her flesh, and she shrank back into herself, like a scared
mollusk. The man passed on, but her exultation was gone.

She noticed that the hills grew lower as they sped southward, and queer
rocks rose squarely out of the flat lands, which were covered with wild
swamps of small trees, out of which long skeletons of dead pines lifted
with a desolate effect.

There were several tunnels, and every time they went through one Rose
clung to the seat in terror. Some young men in the rear of the car
smacked their lips to represent kisses, and laughed boisterously
afterward, as if that were a very good joke indeed.

The conductor, when he came through the next time, eyed her closely and
smiled broadly. She did not understand why he should smile at her. After
he had been through the car several times he came and sat down by her.

"Nice day, ain't it? Live in Madison?"

"No, sir," she replied, looking away. She did not want to say more, but
some power made her add, "I am going to school there."

He seemed pleased.

"Ah, hah! Going to the university?"

"Yes, sir."

"O, I see." He put his knee against the back of the seat in front of her
and took an easy position.

"It's a nice town. Wish I could stop off and help you find a
boarding-place."

The brakeman, coming through, winked at the conductor as if to say: "I
like your 'mash,'" and the terror and shame of her position flashed over
Rose, flushing her from head to foot. Her eyes filled with angry tears,
and she looked out of the window, not knowing what to do. She was so
helpless here, for she was out in the world alone.

The conductor went on serenely, knowing well how scared and angry she
was.

"Yes, sir; it's a fine little town. Great place for boating, summer or
winter. You'll see a hundred ice-boats out on Monona there all at once.
I've got a cousin there who has a boat. He'd be glad to take you out if
I'd tell him about you."

"I don't want to know him," she said, in what she intended to be a
fierce tone, but which was a pitifully scared tone.

The conductor saw the brakeman looking at him and in order to convey the
impression that he was getting on nicely he bent forward and looked
around into her face.

"O, you'd like him first rate."

Rose would have screamed, or burst out into some wild action had not the
engine whistled. This gave the conductor an excuse to give the talk up
for the moment.

"She's a daisy and as green as grass," he said to the brakeman. Her
innocence seemed to place her in his hand.

For the next hour they persecuted the girl with their low presences.
First one and then the other came along the aisle and sat down beside
her. And when she put her valise there, blocking the seat, the brakeman
sat on the armrest and tormented her with questions to which she gave no
answer.

Just after Pine City she heard a cool, firm woman's voice ask: "May I
sit with you?"

She looked up and made room for a handsome, middle-aged woman, in a neat
traveling dress.

"It's a shame!" she said. "I've just got in, but I saw at once how those
men were torturing you. Strange no one in the car could see it and take
your part."

Rose turned to her gratefully, and laid her head on the lady's stalwart
shoulder.

"There, there, no harm done! You must learn to expect such things from
some men. It would be libelous on the brutes to call them beasts." She
said a great many things which Rose hardly understood, but her presence
was strong and helpful. Rose liked her very much.

"How far are you going?"

Rose told her in a few words.

"Ah, are you? You could not have made a better choice. Who sends you
there--pardon me?"

"Dr. Thatcher."

"Dr. Thatcher! Well, well, how things come about. I know the Doctor very
well."

"Do you? I'm going to live there for a while."

Rose was smiling now.

"Well, you couldn't be more fortunate. You'll get into the most
progressive home in the city."

From this on they had a royal good time. Rose grew happier than she had
been for weeks. There was something strangely masterful about this woman
in spite of her sweet smile and soft gray eyes.

When the conductor came down the aisle again she met his eye with a
keen, stern glance.

"Young man, I shall have you discharged from this road."

The astonished cur took her card, and when he read the name of a famous
woman lawyer of Milwaukee his face fell.

"I didn't mean any harm."

"I know better. I shall see Mr. Millet, and see that he makes an example
of you."

Rose was awed by her calm and commanding voice.

"It has been our boast that our girls could travel from east to west in
our broad land, and be safe from insult, and I'm not going to let such a
thing pass."

She returned to her grave sweet mood presently, and began to talk of
other things.

As they neared the town where they were to part company, the elder woman
said:

"Now, my dear, I am to get off here. I may never see you again, but I
think I shall. You interest me very much. I am likely to be in Madison
during the year, and if I do I will see you. I am getting old though,
and things of this life are uncertain to us with gray hair. I like that
forehead on you, it tells me you are not to be a victim to the first man
who lays his hand on you. Let me give one last word of advice. Don't
marry till you are thirty. Choose a profession and work for it. Marry
only when you want to be a mother."

She rose. "You don't understand what I mean now, but keep my words in
your mind. Some day you will comprehend all I mean--good-bye." Rose was
tearful as Mrs. Spencer kissed her and moved away.

Rose saw her on the steps and waved her hand back at her as the train
drew away. Her presence had been oppressive in spite of her kindness,
and her last words filled the girl's mind with vague doubts of life and
of men. Everything seemed forcing her thoughts of marriage to
definiteness. Her sex was so emphasized, so insisted upon by this first
day's experience in the world, that she leaned her head against the
window and cried out: "O, I wish I was dead."

But the train shot round the low green hills fringed with the glorious
foliage of the maples, the lake sparkled in the afternoon's sun, the
dome of the capitol building loomed against the sky, and the romance and
terror of her entry into the world came back to her, driving out her
more morbid emotions. She became again the healthy country girl to whom
Madison was a center of art and society and literature.



CHAPTER IX

ROSE ENTERS MADISON


The train drew up to a long platform swarming with people, moving
anxiously about with valises in hand, broad-hatted and kindly; many of
them were like the people of the coulé. But the young hackmen terrified
her with their hard, bold eyes and cruel, tobacco-stained mouths.

She alighted from the car, white and tremulous with fear, and her eyes
moved about anxiously. When they fell upon Thatcher the blood gushed up
over her face, and her eyes filled with tears of relief.

"Ah, here you are!" he said with a smile, as he shook her hand and took
her valise. "I began to fear you'd been delayed."

She followed him to the carriage with down-cast eyes. Her regard for him
would not permit her to say a word, even when they were seated together
in the carriage and driving up the street. Her breath came so quick and
strange the Doctor noticed it.

"A little bit excited about it, aren't you?" he smilingly said. "I
remember how I felt when I went to Chicago the first time. I suppose
this seems like Chicago to you. How did you leave the people in the
coulé, all well?"

"Yes, sir," she replied without looking up.

"Well, now you are about to begin work. I've got everything all
arranged. You are to stay with us for the present at least. My niece is
with us and you will get along famously I know. How do you like my
horse?" he asked, in his effort to get her to speak.

She studied the horse critically.

"First rate!" she said at last.

He laughed. "Well, I am glad you like him, for I know you are a judge.
He is a pretty good stepper, too, though he hasn't quite enough fling in
his knees, you notice. I'll let you drive him some time."

He drew up before a pretty cottage, set in the midst of a neat lawn. It
was discouragingly fine and handsome to the girl. She was afraid it was
too good for her to enter.

A very blonde young girl came dancing out to the block.

"O Uncle Joe, did Rose--" Rose suddenly appeared.

"This is Rose. Rose, this is our little chatter-box."

"Now, Uncle Joe! Come right in, Rose. I'm going to call you Rose, mayn't
I?"

Mrs. Thatcher, a tall thin woman, welcomed Rose in sober fashion, and
led the way into the little parlor, which seemed incredibly elegant to
the shy girl.

She sat silently while the rest moved about her. There was a certain
dignity in this reserve, and both Mrs. Thatcher and Josie were impressed
by it. She was larger and handsomer than either of them and that gave
her an advantage, though she did not realize that. She was comparing in
swift, disparaging fashion her heavy boots with their dainty soft shoes,
and wondering what she could do to escape from them.

"Josie, take her right up to her room," said Mrs. Thatcher, "and let her
get ready for dinner."

"Yes, come up, you must feel like a good scrub."

Rose flushed again, wondering if her face had grown grimy enough to be
noticeable.

The young girl led Rose into a pretty room with light green walls, and
lovely curtains at the windows. There were two dainty little beds
occupying opposite corners.

"We're to occupy this room together," said Josie. "This is my dressing
case and that's yours."

Rose saw at once Josie had given her the best one. Josie bustled about
helping her lay off her things, pouring water for her and talking on
with gleeful flow.

"I'm awful glad you've come. I know we'll be just as thick! I wish you
were in my classes though, but you won't be, so Doctor says. Don't you
think this is a nice room?"

Rose washed her hands as quickly as possible because they looked so big
and dingy beside the supple whiteness of Josephine's. She felt dusty and
coarse and hopeless in the midst of this exquisite room, the most
beautiful room she had ever seen.

Her eyes moving about fell upon a picture which had the gleam of white
limbs in it. Josephine followed her look: "O, that's young Samson
choking the lion. I just love that; isn't he lovely?"

Rose blushed and tried to answer but could not. The beautiful splendid
limbs of the young man flamed upon her with marvelous appeal. It was
beautiful, and yet her training made her think it somehow not to be
talked about.

Josephine led the way downstairs into the little parlor, which was quite
as uncomfortably beautiful as the bedroom. The vases and flowers, and
simple pictures, and the piano, all seemed like the furnishings of the
homes she had read about in stories.

But dazed as she was she kept her self-command, at least she kept
silence and sat in sombre, almost sullen dejection amid it all. Mrs.
Thatcher hardly knew what to think of her, but the Doctor comprehended
her mood better for he had passed through such experiences himself. He
talked to her for a few minutes about her plans, and then they went out
to dinner.

Rose entered the dining-room with a great fear in her heart. She longed
to run away and hide.

"O I don't know anything!" was the bitter cry welling up in her throat
again and again, and she nearly cried out upon the impulse.

The Doctor liked to have his dinner at one, and so Rose found two
knives, and two forks at her plate, and two spoons also. She had read in
stories of banquets, and she saw that this was to be her greatest trial.
She sat very stiff and silent as the soup was brought on by the
Norwegian girl.

She took the plate as it was handed her, and handed back the one which
was turned down with the napkin on top of it. The Norwegian girl smiled
broadly and handed them both back. Then Rose saw her mistake and the hot
blood swept over her brown face in a purple wave.

The Doctor and his wife passed it in silence. Josie fortunately was
talking to the cat and did not see it.

Rose could hardly touch her soup, which was delicious; her whole mind
was filled with a desire to escape as soon as possible.

Which of the knives should she use first, and what was the extra little
plate for, were the disturbing questions. She could use a fork, but she
was afraid of betraying herself in the minutiæ of the service. As a
matter of fact she got along very well, but of that she had no
knowledge.

Some way she lived through the dainty dinner, scarcely tasting anything
of it. At the close of it Mrs. Thatcher said:

"Wouldn't you like to lie down for a little while? aren't you tired?"
Rose hardly knew what weariness was, but she assented because she wished
to be alone.

"I'll call you at three, may I?" asked Josie, who was wildly in love
with Rose already.

"O, isn't she big and splendid, but she's queer," she said when she came
down.

"That'll wear off," said the Doctor. "She feels a little strange now. I
know all about it. I went from a farm to the city."

Rose hardly dared lie down on the spotless bed. A latent good taste in
her enabled her to see in every detail harmony of effect, and herself as
the one discordant note in the house. O, how dirty and rough and awkward
she was!

Looking out of the window she saw a couple of ladies come out of a large
house opposite and walk down toward a carriage which waited at the gate.
The ladies held their dresses with a dainty action of their gloved hands
as they stood for a moment in consultation. (How graceful their hats
were!) Then they entered the carriage.

As they gathered their soft dresses about their limbs and stooped to
enter the door, the flexile line of waist and hip and thigh came out
beautifully, modestly.

They were a revelation of elegance and grace to the farmer's daughter.
Their gaiters were of the same color as their dresses. This was most
wonderful of all. Such unity and completeness of attire was unknown to
her before. She looked down at her red dress, which Mattie Teel had cut
out for her, and she saw it in all its deformity. The sleeves didn't fit
like Josie's did. It didn't hang right; it just wrinkled all around her
waist, and hung in bunches, and she knew it. And her hat, made over from
her last winter's hat, was awful.

She might just as well die or go back home, and never go out of the
coulé again. She was nothing but a great country gawk, anyway.

In this bitter fashion she raged on, lying face downward on the sofa.
She lay there until she heard dancing steps, and Josie called out: "May
I come in?"

"Yes," said Rose coldly.

"O, you've been having a good cry, I know! I just like to go off and
have a good cry that way. It makes your eyes red, but you can fix that.
Just sit still now and let me see what I can do."

She bustled about and Rose let her bathe her face with cool water and
cologne, and fuss about. Her little fingers were like a baby's and she
murmured and gurgled in the goodness of her heart like a kitten. Rose
actually fell asleep under her touch.

Josie stopped astonished and startled for a moment, and then tip-toed
out of the room like a burglar, and told Mrs. Thatcher all about it.

"And O, auntie, she's very poor, isn't she? Her clothes----"

"Tut," warned Mrs. Thatcher, "you must be careful not to notice that.
Edward, is she so very poor?"

The Doctor, seated at his desk in the little office, looked up a moment.

"No, I don't think so. It is lack of judgment partially. A little tact
and taste will fix her all right. Dutcher is fairly well-to-do, and she
is all he has. He wrote me to get her what she needed, but I'll leave
that to you girls."

Josie danced with delight. Buying things for yourself was fun, but
buying for another was ecstasy!

"The poor child hasn't a dress that she can wear without alteration, and
she is such a splendid creature, too. I can't conceive how they failed
to fit her."

"It seems to me that putting her beside Josie is pretty hard on her. I
am afraid you are not conversant with the wardrobe of farmer's girls."

"Well, I didn't suppose--and the other room is so small."

"O, well, it all depends upon Josie. Josie, come here."

The girl rose up, and he put his arm around her.

"Now, my kitten, you must be very careful not to allude to any little
mistakes Rose makes."

"O, Uncle Ed--you know--"

"Yes, I know chatterboxes mean all right, but they forget. Now, Rose is
going to be a great scholar and she is going to be a lady, very quick,
too; but she is awkward, now, and my little girl mustn't make it hard
for her."

After Josie went out, Thatcher said:

"I know just how the girl feels. I went through it myself. It's hard,
but it won't hurt her, only don't try to talk it over with her. If she's
the girl I think she is, she'll work the whole matter out in a week
herself. More than that, let me talk to her myself. If she's rested, ask
her to come down."

Rose came into the Doctor's office in a numb sort of timidity, for there
was a great change in the Doctor. He was hardly the same man who had
eaten at their table. She couldn't describe it, but there was something
in his voice which awed her. He sat now surrounded by his professional
books and tools, which gave him dignity in her eyes.

"Sit down, Rose," he said, "I want to talk with you. I've had a letter
from your father about you and your expenses."

And then, in some way, she never knew exactly how, he talked away her
bitterness and gave her hope and comfort. He advised about books, and
said: "And you'll need some little things which Bluff Siding doesn't
keep. Mrs. Thatcher will drive you up town tomorrow and you can get what
you need. Your father has deposited some money here to pay your
expenses. I am going over to University Hill to make a call; perhaps
you'd like to go."

She assented, and went to get her hat.

It was the largest town she had ever seen, and the capitol was wonderful
to her, set in its park, where squirrels ran about on the velvet green
of the grass. The building towered up in the sky, just as she had seen
it in pictures. Swarms of people came and went along the hard,
blue-black paths, and round it the teams moved before the stores of the
square. It was all mightily impressive to her.

They passed the Public Library, and the Doctor said:

"You'll make great use of that, I imagine."

She could not make herself believe that. She saw students coming and
going on the street, and they all seemed so gay and well dressed.

"All this will trouble you for a little while," the Doctor said. "When I
came to the University the first time I seemed like a cat in a bath tub.
I thought everybody was laughing at me, but, as a matter of fact, nobody
paid any attention to me at all. Then I got mad, and I said, 'Well, I'll
_make_ you pay attention to me before I'm done.'" The Doctor smiled at
her and she had the courage to smile back. It was wonderful how well he
understood her.

He drove her around the Lake drive. It was beautiful, but in her
depression the more beautiful anything was the more it depressed her.
The Doctor did not demand speech of her, well knowing she did not care
to talk.

"I'm not mistaken in the girl," he said to his wife when they were
alone. "She has immense reserve force--I feel it. Wait until she
straightens up and broadens out a little, you'll see! There's some
half-savage power in her, magnetism, impelling quality. I predict a
great future for her if--"

"If what?"

"If she don't marry. She is passionate, willful as a colt. It seems
impossible she has come thus far without entanglement. She's going to be
very handsome when she gets a little more at ease. I thought her a
wonderful creature as she sat in that school-room, with the yellow sun
striking across her head. She appeared to me to have destiny in her
favor."

"She's fine, but I think you're over-enthusiastic, Edward."

"Wait and see. She isn't a chatter-box like Josie, that is evident."

"In fact, my dear," he went on to say after a silence, "I should like to
adopt her--I mean, of course, take a particular interest in her. She has
appealed to me very strongly from the first. You can be a mother to
Josie and I'll be a father to Rose."

There was something sombre under his smiling utterance of these words.
Their eyes did not meet, and there was a silence. At last the Doctor
said:

"The girl's physical perfection is wonderful. Most farmers' girls are
round in the shoulders, and flat in the hips, but Rose has grown up like
a young colt. Add culture and ease to her and she'll mow a wide swath,
largely without knowing it, for the girl is incapable of vanity."

The wife listened with a brooding face. Rose's splendid prophecy of
maternity oppressed her some way.

When the girls went up to bed, terror and homesickness and depression
all came back upon Rose again. She sat down desolately upon the little
cream-and-gold chair and watched Josie as she pattered about taking down
her hair and arranging it for the night. She could not help seeing the
multitude of bottles and little combs and powder puffs and boxes and
brushes which Josie gloated over, seeing that Rose was interested.

They were presents, she said, and named the givers of each. It was a
revelation to Rose of the elegancies of a dainty, finicky girl's toilet.
She thought of the ragged wash-brush and wooden-backed hair-brush and
horn comb which made up her own toilet set, and grew hot and cold.

Josephine was delighted to have some one sit and stare in that admiring
way at her, therefore she displayed all her paces. She brushed her hair
out with her ivory-backed brush, and laid out all her beautiful
underwear, trimmed with lace and embroidered in silk. She did it without
malice, but Rose thought of her worn cotton things, shapeless and ugly.
She never could undress before Josephine in the world!

She delayed and delayed until Josie had cuddled down into her bed with
her little pink nose sticking out, and her merry eyes blinking like the
gaze of a kitten. Rose waited, hoping those bright eyes would close, but
they would not. At last a desperate idea came to her. She sprang up and
went to the gaslight.

"How do you put this out?" she asked.

Josie gurgled with laughter. "Just turn that thingamabob underneath.
Yes, _that_--turn it quick--that's right. O, ain't it dark! But you
ain't undressed yet, and the matches are out in the bathroom."

Rose was more at her ease in the dark.

"Never mind, I can undress in the dark. I'm used to it." She loosened
the collar of her dress, slipped off her shoes, and lay down on the bed
bitter and rebellious.

When Josie awoke in the morning the country girl was awake and fully
dressed and reading a book by the window.

The wrinkly red dress could not utterly break up the fine lines of her
firm bust and powerful side and thigh, and the admiring little creature
hopped out of bed and stole across the room, and threw her arms about
Rose.

"How big and beautiful you are!"

These wonderful words ran into the country girl's blood like hot scented
wine. To be beautiful made some amends for being coarse and uncultured.
As she had never felt abasement before, so she had never felt the need
of being beautiful until now.

She turned a radiant, tearful face to Josie, and seized her hands.

"I--I like you--O, so much!"

"I knew we'd be friends," cried the little one dancing about. "And
you'll let me go and help you buy your things, won't you?"

"O, I'll be _glad_ to have you--I'm such a fool. I don't know anything
at all that I ought to know."

"You're just splendid. I'm the one who don't know anything."

Then they entered upon a day of shopping. They toiled like ants and
buzzed like bees.

Rose came home at night worn out, discouraged and dumb as an Indian. She
had submitted to her fate, but she was mentally sore, lame and confused.
She no longer cared whether Josie saw her poverty or not, and she went
to sleep out of utter fatigue, her eyes wet with tears of homesickness.
All she hoped for seemed impossible and of no account, and sleep in her
own attic bed appeared to be the sweetest thing in the world.

Her good, vigorous blood built up her courage during the night, but she
was hardly a sweet and lovable companion in the days which followed. She
(temporarily) hated Josie and feared Mrs. Thatcher. Thatcher himself,
however, was her savior, for she would surely have gone home had it not
been for him.

She had a notable set-to with the dressmaker.

"I won't come here again," she said, sullenly. "I don't want any
dresses, I'm going home. I'm tired of being pulled and hauled."

The dressmaker was a brisk little Alsatian, with something of the French
adroitness in her manner.

"O, my dear young friend! If you only knew! I am in despair! You have
such a beautiful figure. You would give me such pleasure if I might but
finish this lovely gown."

Rose looked at her from under a scowling prominent forehead. She had
never been called beautiful before, at least not by one who was
disinterested or a stranger, and she did not believe the woman.

The dressmaker passed her hands caressingly over the girl's splendid
bust and side.

"Ah! I can make myself famous if I may but fit those lines."

Rose softened and put on the gown once more and silently permitted
herself to be turned and turned about like a tin sign, while the little
artist (which she was) went about with a mouth full of pins, gurgling,
murmuring and patting. This was the worst of the worry, and the end of
all the shopping was in sight.

The touch of soft flannels upon her flesh, the flow of ample and
graceful gowns helped her at once. Her shoulders lifted and her bust
expanded under properly cut and fitted garments. Quickly, unconsciously
she became herself again, moving with large, unfettered movements. She
dominated her clothing, and yet her clothing helped her. Being fit to be
seen, she was not so much troubled by the faces of people who studied
her.

It was wonderful to see how she took on (in the first few weeks) the
graces and refinements of her new life. She met her schoolmates each day
with added ease, and came at last to be a leader among them, just as in
the home coulé. Her strength and grace and mastery they felt at once.

Her heart beat very hard and fast on the first day as she joined the
stream of students moving toward the Central Hall. The maple trees were
still in full leaf and blazing color. The sunlight was a magical
cataract of etherealized gold, and the clouds were too beautiful to look
at without a choking in the throat.

As she stepped over the deeply-worn stone sill, she thought of the
thousands of other country girls whose feet had helped to wear that
hollow, and her heart ached with unaccountable emotion.

Above her noisy feet clattered and bounded on the winding stairway, and
careless voices resounded. She climbed in silence. In such wise she
began to climb the way of knowledge, the way which has no returning
foot-steps, and which becomes ever more lonely as the climber rises.



CHAPTER X

QUIET YEARS OF GROWTH


Outwardly her days were uneventful. She came and went quietly, and
answered her teachers with certainty and precision. She was not
communicative to her companions, and came to know but few of them during
the first term. She watched the trees go sere and bare, and calculated
on the progress of the farmwork. She wondered if the men were in the
corn yet, or whether it were too cold a morning to plow. She studied the
sky to see if there were signs of snow. She could not at once throw off
her daily supervision of the weather and of farmwork.

Her father wrote only at long intervals. His chapped and stiffened hands
managed the pen-stock but painfully. He wrote of the farm affairs, the
yield of corn, the weight of the steers or hogs he had sold, and asked
her how many turkeys he had best keep over.

Carl wrote once or twice and stopped. He was a still more reluctant
correspondent. Carl meant little to her now. The Doctor's dominion was
absolute, and yet there was a subtle change. She no longer blushed in
his presence, and he seemed older and nearer to her, more like an uncle
and adviser. The figure he had been, took its place beside that of
William De Lisle. More substantial, but less sweet and mythical.

Her school life was not her entire intellectual life by any means. She
had the power of absorbing and making use of every sight and sound about
her. She saw a graceful action at table or in the drawing room, and her
mind seized upon it and incorporated it. She did not imitate; she took
something from every one, but from no one too much.

Her eyes lost their round nervous stare, but they searched, searched
constantly, as was natural for a girl of her years and fine animal
nature, but there was brain back of it all. The young men knew nothing
of her searching eyes; indeed, they thought her cold, and a little
contemptuous of them.

Meanwhile their elegance often alienated them from her. There were many
types not far removed from Carl and Henry; farmer's boys with some touch
of refinement and grace, but others had a subtle quality, which told of
homes of refinement and luxury.

Two wonderful things had come to her. One was the knowledge that she was
beautiful, which she came to understand was the burning desire of all
women; and again that she was master of things which had scared her. She
could wear lovely dresses unconsciously, and sit at table with ease, and
walk before her classmates without tremor. She felt power in her heart,
as well as in her fist.

Her winter was a quiet one. She came and went between her classes and
her home at Dr. Thatcher's. She studied in her own room or recited to
the Doctor when he was at leisure. He liked to have the girls come into
his study when he was not too busy, and there he sat figuring on the
probable effect of cocaine or atropine in a certain case, while the
girls read or talked.

Those were wonderful hours to the country girl. She was a long way from
the little cottage on the old coulé farm at such times. Dr. Thatcher
felt the same beauty and power in the droop of the head which had
attracted him first in the old school-house, only enriched and in nobler
colorings here.

They went sleighing together, with shouting and laughter, as if the
Doctor were a girl, too. They went skating, and once in awhile to some
entertainment at the church. They were not theatre-going people, and the
lectures and socials of the town and college made up their outings. It
was the Doctor's merry interest in their doings which made young men so
unnecessary to Rose as well as to Josephine.

Then came spring again; the southwest wind awoke, snow began to go, the
grass showed here and there, and Rose's thoughts turned back toward the
coulé. There were days when every drop of her blood called out for the
hills and the country roads, the bleat of lambs, the odor of fields, and
the hum of bees, but she kept on at work.

Something elemental stirred in her blood as the leaves came out. The
young men took on added grace and power in her eyes. When they came
before her in their athletic suits, lithe, clean-limbed, joyous, then
her eyes dreamed and her heart beat till the blood choked her breathing.

O, the beautiful sky; O, the shine and shade of leaves! O, the splendor
of young manhood! She fought down the dizziness which came to her. She
smiled mechanically as they stood before her with frank, clean eyes and
laughing lips, and so, slowly, brain reasserted itself over flesh, and
she, too, grew frank and gay.

Then came the vacation. The partings, the bitter pain of leaving the
young people she had learned to love, and, too, came the thought of
home. The dear old coulé with its peaks and camel humps, and pappa John!
He was waiting to see her there!

So the pain of leaving her mates was mingled with the joy of
home-coming. She romped on the grass with the young lambs. She followed
Pappa John about as of old, in the fields, while he wondered and
marveled at her. She was so fine and white and lady-like.

She was fain to know all the news of the farm, and the neighborhood. She
felt like kissing all the dear old ladies in the coulé. O, the old
friends were the best after all! You could rest on them. They didn't
care how you ate soup. They didn't keep you keyed up to company manners
all the time.

She went back to her old dresses and cotton underwear, and went dirty as
she liked, and got brown and iron-muscled again.

Carl met her on the road one day and bowed and drove on, with hurried
action of the lines. He still bore her rejection of him fresh in mind.
It is everlastingly to his credit, let it be said now, that he never
made use of his youthful intimacy with her. He was a man, with all the
honesty and sincerity and chivalry of a race of gentlemen in his head,
slow-witted as he was.



CHAPTER XI

STUDY OF THE STARS


She came back each September with delight and exultation. It was not so
much like going to the world's end now, and besides, her father seemed
resigned to it. Back to the gleam of the lakes, the flaming sunsets, the
moonlit nights filled with twang of guitars and floating harmony of
fresh boyish voices, back to her girl-lovers and her books, back to the
chalky odor of the recitation room.

It was so sweet to climb the circular stairway again. The booming roar
of the feet did not disturb her now. The greetings of the Professors as
they passed, made her eyes dim with pleasure. The spirit of the
University had established dominion over her.

These were days without care, days of silent pleasant growth. A year of
sweet gravity over books and wholesome laughter over games. She studied
hard, but it was a quiet pleasure to study, for she had the power of
concentration which gives mastery.

She was never behind, never fagged out with study. She had time for the
splendor of nature and for the world of books. She read more and more
each year because she felt lacking in literary knowledge. She read the
books she ought to know--read them religiously. Occasionally it chanced
the books were those she loved to read, but not often. Generally she had
to bend to them as if they were lessons.

She read also Scott, Dickens and Thackeray, a volume or two each. Then
one day in mid-winter it chanced she fell upon "Mosses from an Old
Manse," and then all the other books waited. She read it while she
walked home from the library. She read it after dinner and put it in her
satchel as she went to recite. She finished it and secured the second
volume; then came "Twice Told Tales," then "The Scarlet Letter," and the
world of woman's sin opened to her.

She read that terrible book, rebelling against the dark picture, raging
against the insatiable vengeance of the populace who condemned Hester as
if she had opened the gates of hell in the path of every daughter of New
England.

She could not understand, then nor thereafter, the ferocity of hate
which went out against the poor defenseless woman. What had the woman
done? She struggled over the problem. She felt in herself that terrible
ceaseless urging. Her thoughts were not clear, they were still only
raised figures in the web of organic thought, but she was accomplishing
great conceptions.

She knew it was wrong, but why it was wrong troubled her. The law--yes,
but what lay behind the law? The Mormon had one law, the Turks another.
Why was this English law better than any other? Why were the animals
freer than men? Their lives were good and healthy, they lived in the
sunshine and were untroubled. Such were a few of the questions she
grappled with.

God only knows the temptations which came to her. She had days when all
the (so-called) unclean things she had ever seen, all the overheard
words of men's coarse jests, came back like vultures to trouble her.
Sometimes when she walked forth of a morning, the sun flamed across the
grass with ineffable beauty. The whole earth was radiant; every sound
was a song; every lithe youth moved like a god before her, and it was
then that something deep in her, something drawn from generations of
virtuous wives and mothers, saved her from the whirlpool of passion.

At such times she felt dimly the enormous difference between her nature
and that of Josephine. Josephine's passion was that of a child--hers
that of an imaginative and complex man.

She was silent after these days of gayety. She was not a chatterer at
any time, but after these moods she was almost sullen once more, and she
fell upon her lessons with renewed zeal, as a monk flagellates his
rebellious flesh.

After these days of searching eyes she refused to look at any of her
young male friends. She answered them crustily and turned away from
them, but this did not serve to cure her nor to keep the young men away.

Always at such times William De Lisle's glorious presence drew near in
the dusk, insubstantial and luminous as a cloud, and she set her teeth
in fresh resolve to be wise and famous; to be worthy his look and his
word of praise.

She had suitors constantly. Her dark haughty face, warm with blood, her
erect and powerful figure excited admiration among the young men, and
they courted her with the wholesome frankness of clean and vigorous
manhood. The free and natural intercourse of the college kept the young
people healthy as a home circle.

As the Doctor came to take a different place in her love, Rose became
open to the advances of other men. Twice during the winter she felt the
power of love touch her. In the first instance her eyes sought and found
among her classmates a young man's physical beauty, and her imagination
clothed him with power and mystery, and she looked for him each day, and
life was less interesting and purposeful when he was not present.

She made no open advances, she scarcely needed to, for he also saw, and
when he came to her and she flushed and trembled with weakness, it
seemed as if her life had at last taken a fixed direction. For a few
weeks the man was her ideal. She saw him before her constantly. She knew
his smile, the lift of his eye-brows, the shape of his ears, the slope
of his shoulders, the sound of his voice. She looked at him stealthily
from her book. She contrived to sit where she could watch every motion.
She walked down the street with him each day, half numb with her
emotion.

But this ecstasy did not last. She felt eventually his shallowness and
narrowness. He was vain and ungenerous. He grew sere and bare of grace
and charm like the autumn elms, and at last he stood empty and
characterless before her, and her eyes looked over and beyond him, into
the blue sky again, and throughout it all she kept her place in her
classes and no one was aware of her new ideal.

When she turned away from him he did not grow pale and lean. He grew a
little vicious and said: "She is too cold and proud for my taste."

Her next suitor was a worthy young man who was studying law in the town.
A fine, clean young fellow, who paid court to her with masterly address.
He was older than she, and was a better scholar and brought to her less
of the clotheshorse and more of the man than her freshly outgrown lover.
Before spring began he had won great intimacy with her--almost an
engagement.

He was adroit. He did not see her too much, and he came always at his
best. He appealed to the most imaginative side of her nature. She
glorified his calling as well as his person. He was less handsome than
his predecessor, but he brought an ample and flowing phraseology, and a
critical knowledge of farm-life as well as of town-life. Once he took
her to the court-room to hear him plead.

He took her to the socials, and once to the theater. There was his
mistake! The play made a most powerful impression upon her, more
powerful than anything since the circus at Tyre.

It raised new and wordless ambitions. For the first time in her life she
saw society dress on the stage. The play was one which pretended, at
least, to show New York and London life. Therefore men in claw-hammer
coats came and went, with strange accents and with cabalistic motions of
hats and gloves, and women moved about with mystic swagger.

The heroine glowed like a precious stone in each act, now sapphire, now
pearl, now ruby. She spoke in a thick, throaty murmur and her white
shoulders shone like silver, and her wide childish eyes were like wells
of light-diffusing liquid.

Rose gazed at her with unwearying eyes. Her bosom rose and fell as if
she had been running, and she said in her heart: "_I_ can do that! I
could stand there and do that!"

Then the theme of the play filled her with strange new thoughts. These
people lived out before her a condition which she had read about but
which had never been discussed in her presence. A husband discovers his
wife to have been a lover and mother in her girlhood, and in a tempest
of self-righteous passion flings her to the ground in scorn and horror.

She clings to his feet (in approved stage fashion), pleading for mercy:
"I was so young!"

He would not listen. "Go!--or no, stay--I will go. I make the home over
to you, but never look upon my face again."

While Rose burned with shame and indignation, the outraged woman on the
stage grew white and stern.

"Who are you to condemn me so?" she asked in icy calm. "Are you the
saint you profess to be? Will one offence contain your crime against
me?"

"What do you mean?" thundered the man and husband.

"You know what I mean. In my weakness I was stained, ineffaceably; I
admit it--but you, in your strength, have you not preyed upon weak
women? The law allows you to escape disgrace--nature and law force me to
suffer with mine."

Rose thought of Carl and his courtship with such a shudder as one feels
in remembering a rescue from an abyss. A hundred great confusing
questions floated by in her mind, like clouds in a mist of
rain--formless, vast, trailing deeper shadow beneath them. The
self-sufficient young lawyer beside her said as the curtain fell:

"There was nothing else for her husband to do but just fire her out."

Rose heard him but did not reply. She felt a sharp revulsion of feeling
toward him for his coarse, hard tone. When he laid his hand on her she
shook it off, and when he asked a question of her she did not reply. He
was annoyed also, and so they waited for the curtain to rise on the
final act.

The wife was sick and dying. The dramatist had not the courage to work
out his theme. He killed the wife, so that the husband should not appear
to condone and take her to wife again. She died while he, magnanimously,
forgave her.

       *       *       *       *       *

As they walked home, with fatuous insistence her lover talked with Rose
about the case. He took the man's side. He hinted at the
reason--presuming upon their intimacy. Men outgrow such experiences, he
said; women do not. They are either one thing or the other--either pure
as angels or black as devils.

Rose closed her lips tight, and her eyes flamed with indignant protest,
but she said nothing in reply. In her heart she knew it was a lie. A
woman can set her foot above her dead self as well as a man.

When he tried to kiss her good-bye she pushed him aside and left him
without a word. He, too, was a bare and broken ideal. Her heart went
back again to William De Lisle, as the young eagle goes back to the
sun-warmed cliff to rest and dream, with eyes to the sun.

That night put her girlhood far from her. She grew five years older in
the weeks which followed. Her mind took up irresistibly one insoluble
problem after another and wrestled with it in silence. Josie's chatter
went on around her like the sound of the swallows in the eaves of the
old barn at home.

Her mind was like a piece of inconceivably intricate machinery, full of
latent and complicated motion. A word, a touch, and it set to work, and
out of its working some fine inner heat and glow changed the whole
mental and physical equilibrium of her nature, and she became something
else, finer, more mysterious, and more alluring--though this she did not
realize.

Thereafter the young man of her acquaintance did not draw her. Her eyes
had been raised to higher altitudes. She fell upon her books with
terrible industry, in the hope that they would throw some light on her
problems and ambitions.

There was nothing she did not think of during these character-forming
days. The beauty and peace of love, the physical joy of it; the problem
of marriage, the terror of birth--all the things girls are supposed not
to think of, and which such girls as Rose must irresistibly think of,
came to her, tormenting her, shaking her to the inmost center of her
nature, and through it all she seemed quite the hearty young school girl
she was, for this thought was wholesome and natural, not morbid in any
degree.

She was a child in the presence of the Doctor, but a woman with her
suitors. The Doctor helped her very much, but in the most trying moments
of her life (and no man can realize these moments) some hidden force
rose up to dominate the merely animal forces within. Some organic
magnificent inheritance of moral purity.

She was saved by forces within, not by laws without. Opportunities to
sin always offer in every life. Virtue is not negative, it is positive;
it is a decoration won by fighting, resisting. This sweet and terrible
attraction of men and women towards each other is as natural and as
moral as the law of gravity, and as inexorable. Its perversion produces
trouble. Love must be good and fine and according to nature, else why
did it give such joy and beauty?

Natural as was this thought, she hid it from her associates. Most women
die with it unacknowledged, even to their own spoken thought. She would
have been helped by talk with the Doctor, or at least with his wife. But
there was a growing barrier between Mrs. Thatcher and herself, and the
Doctor did not seem the same good friend. She felt a change coming in
the whole household.

When she went home at the close of her second year, she had a feeling
that she would never again return to the old sweet companionship with
Dr. Thatcher. He was too busy now, apparently, to give her the time he
once seemed so glad to give. He never asked her to ride with him now.
She was troubled by it and concluded they were tired of her, and so she,
too, grew cold and reserved.

       *       *       *       *       *

The day she left, the Doctor, after he had driven Rose to the train,
called his wife into the office.

"Sit down a moment, wife, I want to talk with you." He faced her
bravely. "I guess we'd better arrange for Rose to go to one of the
chapter-houses next year. There's no need to beat around the bush--she
takes up too much of my thought, and you know it and I know it."

It drew blood to say that. It took manhood to look his wife in the eyes
then, but he did it.

"It isn't her fault, and it isn't yours--it isn't mine, as a matter of
justice. Rose is just what she's always been, a good, sweet girl--I
wouldn't have her see anything but friendly interest in my eyes for half
my heart--I'm afraid she will, so--I guess----"

He was talking through set teeth. "I wish you'd tell her we can't offer
her a home; I can't do it."

He rose and went to his wife. "My dear, don't cry--you've watched this
thing come on in brave silence--not every wife would have kept silence
so long. It won't break up our comradeship, will it, dear? We've jogged
along so peacefully these fifteen years--we ought to overlook a little
thing like this!" He smiled a little, then he stooped and put his arm
about her.

"Come, give me a kiss, and let's adopt no more handsome girls till I'm
sixty-five."

She rose and lifted her sad face to his. "It's my fault, if I--"

He kissed her and said: "No more of that! You're my faithful wife. What
helps the matter materially is this--Rose thinks of me as a sober old
settler now."

This ended it so far as any outward showing ever defined his feeling,
but the presence of the girl never left him. At night, as he sat at his
desk at the hour which almost always used to bring Rose down from her
room to discuss her lessons with him, he grew sad and lonely. "If I had
a child," he said to himself, "I could bear it more easily."

When Rose returned, she went into one of the co-operative
boarding-houses, and slowly drifted away from the Doctor and his family.
She never quite knew why. It puzzled her for a time, and then she forgot
it--in the fashion of youth.



CHAPTER XII

THE GATES OPEN WIDE


Of what avail the attempt to chronicle those days? They were all happy,
and all busy, yet never alike. When the sun shone it was beautiful, and
when the wind roared in the trees and the rain slashed like falling
sails, it was equally glorious. On clear, crisp, bright winter days the
air grew magical with bells, and the grating snarl of the ice-boat's
rudder was thrilling as a lion's cry. It was apart from the world of
care and politics and revolution.

There was fun, whirlwinds of it, at the chapter-house when studies were
over, and there was fun at the professedly-formal girl-banquets where
the chairman arose to say, "Gentlemen, the honor--" and everybody
shrieked to see her pull an imaginary chin-whisker. There was more fun
on winter nights, when loads of people packed into the bob-tail
mule-cars (which tinkled up the snowy street with wonderful
persistency), while the passengers trod on each other's toes and chaffed
the driver. And the wonderful nights under the stars, walking home with
arm fast anchored in a fellow's grip; or strolls in summer beside the
Lake, or dreamy hours floating at sunset in a boat which lay like a
lily's petal, where skies of orange and purple met water of russet-gold
and steely-blue.

And there was the glory of mounting also. One by one the formidable
mesas of calculations, conjugations, argumentations, fell below her
feet, and Rose grew tall in intellectual grace. She had no mental
timidities. Truth with her came first, or if not first, certainly she
had little superstitious sentiment to stand in the way. She was still
the same impatient soul as when she shook her little fist at the
Almighty's lightning.

It was this calm, subconscious assumption of truth's ultimate harmony
with nature's first cause which she delighted in as she entered physics
and astronomy. Her enthusiasm for the hopeless study of the stars
developed into a passion. They exalted her and saddened her.

She lifted her eyes to them, and the ultimate distances of their orbits
swept upon her with overwhelming power.

She felt again the ache in the heart which came to her as a child on the
bluff-top, when the world seemed spread out before her. When she turned
her face upward now it was to think of the awful void spaces there, of
the mysteries of each flaming planet, and of the helplessness and
weakness of the strongest man.

For a year she plunged into astronomy. It had the allurement and the
sombre aloofness of unrequited love. It harmonized well with her
restless, limitless inner desire.

These sudden passions for this or that art were signs of her strength
and not her weakness. They sprang out of her swift and ready
imagination, which enabled her to take on the personality of the artist,
and to feel his joy of power. It was quite normal that she should desire
to be successively circus rider, poet and astronomer, and yet, now that
her graduation was near, she was as far from a real decision as ever.

"What are you going to do after graduation?" Josie said.

Rose grew grave. "I don't know. Go on studying somewhere."

"I'm going to have a good time!"

"You're always having a good time, you little oriole." Rose had come to
patronize Josie in these later days. "I envy you so," she sighed. "The
world is so simple for you."

"I don't understand you when you go on like that--you'll come tomorrow
and see my new dress, won't you?"

Graduation meant for Josephine the chance to wear a fetching gown, and
be looked at by an immense crowd--and one extra man. This was supposed
to be a secret, but everybody who cared to give it a thought, knew of it
and smiled at her as they would at a child. Josie could be nothing else
but a child.

To most of the students graduation day came rushing with sorrowful
speed. It meant passing from sunlit lanes of maple and lilac out into
the bleak highways of trade and labor. It meant the beginning of
struggle with pitilessness in man and nature. As students they were not
in the race for subsistence, but as citizens and professional men they
were to be competitors in trades and crafts already overflowing.

Graduation day drew near, and a tremulous ecstasy came into the lives of
the outgoing students--a joy made more precious by its certainty of
passing.

To Rose graduation day came as the sweetest, saddest day of her life. It
seemed to close a gate upon something in her history. The smiling, yet
mournful, faces of her friends, the wistful eyes of the young men who
loved her, the rustle of leaves, the gleam of the water, the dapple of
light and shade on the campus, the exaltation of the public moment, all
these wondrous things rushed upon her like a flood, and overwhelmed her
ambitions and desires, powerful as they were.

At last the books were closed and packed away.

The commencement exercises began with the reception in Science Hall. The
night fell slowly, and the fine new building grew alight story after
story, and crowds began to stream in. The students led the way, rakish,
full of airs, except when piloting their parents about. The fun had been
almost furious all day.

There were many of the relatives of the students present, and often they
stood out in sharp contrast with the decorations and with the joy of the
young people. Beautiful girls might be seen leading bent and wrinkled
fathers and mothers, who had sacrificed all for them. Rose wished for
her father, and passionately desired to do something for him. He had
written that he couldn't leave the farm, and so she wandered about with
others, like herself, free. Everywhere the young men met her. She never
escaped them for a moment, their pursuit was relentless.

The crowd swarmed into each room, where the professors stood beside
show-cases, polite and patient, exhibiting machines, specimens,
drawings. At another place sherbet was served to the guests, and music
could be heard in the lower halls. Everywhere was the lisp of feet, the
ripple of talk.

All this was a bore to many of the pupils, for there was the peace-pipe
ceremonial preparing on the campus, that they really waited for.
Mysteriously in the deep dusk a huge heap of combustibles had been piled
up on the wet grass, and one by one the two classes began to gather.
There was a mutter of voices, a command, then a red flame flashed out,
and with it the college yell soared up from a little bunch of dark
forms:

"RAH-RAH-RAH-WISCONSIN!"

The stragglers on the walks turned toward the fire, like insects. They
came in crawling dark lines like ants, across the wet grass. They formed
a blue-black mass, lighted on one side by the orange light of the
bonfire. The stars overhead grew green and dim in the light of the fire,
and the encircling trees of the campus came out like silhouettes of
purple-green cardboard.

The class rolled out its carpet for the girls and opened its boxes of
long clay pipes. It seemed so much more important to Rose now that she
stood there in the center as one of the graduating class. There was not
much talk. They lined up and sang song after song. Then the boys moved
about and showed the girls how to light their pipes.

"You want to suck, not blow, on it!" a voice called out, and everybody
laughed dutifully. For a few moments all was laughter. The girls tried
to assume the airs of smokers, and puffed their kinnikinnick furiously.
Then as they sang they swung their pipes with rakish air,--"There is a
Tavern in our Town" and "The Bull-frog in the Pool," and their voices
floated out and up into the wreathing smoke of the fire, as deliciously
sweet as though their songs were hymns of praise as they were hymns of
youth.

The pipes needed constant relighting. In every silence some girl cried
out: "O, my pipe's gone out!" One cried: "Give me a bite!" as if the
pipe-stem were taffy.

To Rose the whole ceremony was glorious. It carried her out of herself.
It gave her a glimpse into the world which men keep to themselves, and,
besides, she had written the speech handing the pipe down to the
custodian of the succeeding class, a really admirable ceremony.

Here on this spot the red men warred and loved. Here, with the sheen of
lakes about, and the wild grass under their feet, it was beautiful and
appropriate that they should be remembered by these young western sons
and daughters of the white man.

The mock antagonism between seniors and juniors seemed to have great
meaning when Tom Harris spoke the lofty phrases she had written for him,
standing outlined against the soaring fire like a silhouette of velvet,
his voice rolling out with lofty suspensive power.

"Here on the spot where our fathers have dwelt for countless suns and
moons we ask for peace. We call upon you to bury the hatchet. Forgive
and forget; you who have scars forgive, and you who have wrongs forget.
Let all evil spirits be exorcised by the pipe. Here we break the arrow.
Here we tender the sacred pipe. Brothers--sisters, we have spoken!"

The fire burned low. As they sat in circles on the ground and chanted
their songs, the sky grew blacker, the trees melted into the darkness,
the last wailing cadence floated into silence, and then subdued, tender,
they rose and vanished, in pairs and groups, into the darkness like the
songs they sang. The class of 189-- had entered upon its long, long
trail, some to the plains of failure, some to the mountains of victory.

This quaint and suggestive custom received new strength from the oration
which Rose contributed. All felt its power and beauty. To the girls the
whole ceremony was a rare and delicious piece of audacity. It did them
good. It gave them something to look back upon with laughter, into which
a sigh and a little catching of the breath might also come.

Something elemental and primitive came to Rose amid all the laughter and
song. What was she more than the swart women who had lived here and been
wooed of men? Was there not something magnificent in their frank
following of the trail of pure passion? They loved, and bore children,
and ground at the corn mills, and died as the female bison died, and
other women came after them to do like unto them, to what end?

Some such questions, vague, ever shadowy, formless, moved Rose, as she
lay down to sleep that night. Outside a mandolin twanged--the boys were
serenading her, but she had not the wish to see them. She did not go to
the window, as the other girls did, deliciously excited, almost hysteric
with the daring of being possibly seen in their night-gowns. She kept
sombre silence, stirred by profounder emotions than they were capable
of.

She thought of William De Lisle but seldom now. In open daylight she was
a little ashamed of her idolatry, but on nights like these, when love
songs and moonlight fused together, his figure came before her, not so
clear a personality now, but as a type of beauty, as a center of dreams,
of something wild and free and splendid--something she was to attain to
some good day.

She had no thought of attaining him, but some one like unto him. Some
one who was grand as her dream of heroes and loyal as her father.

It was characteristic of her that while the lovers singing without made
her companions utter hysterical laughter, she was sad and wished to be
alone. Their desires were on the surface, shifting, sparkling, seeking
kisses. Hers was dark, and deep down, sombre, savage, prophetic. Love
with her was a thing not to be uttered. She silenced all jests about it,
and all familiarity on the part of her suitors she had put away.

During her first year she had allowed her lover to take her hand, as
Carl used to do, because it seemed the usual thing, but after breaking
off that entanglement she resolutely set to work to study, and no man
had since considered himself her lover. To permit a caress now meant all
the world to her. It meant change, undoing of plans, throwing away
ambitions. It meant flinging herself to the immemorial sacrifice men
demand of women.

There were times when she felt the impulse to do this. She felt it that
night as the clear voices of the serenaders came floating in at her
window. What did it matter? What could she do in the mighty world? What
did the Indian girl, when her lover sang from his canoe among the water
lilies in the lake? Why not go to one of these good, clean young men and
be a wife? What did it matter--her ambition--her hope? "I will," she
said, and a wild rush of blood choked her breathing, "I'll end it all."

But the singing died away, the moonlight vanished out of the room, and
the passionate longing and tumult of her blood grew slowly quiet, and
she slept.

When the sun rose there was no man in her world who could have won her
consent to marriage. Her ambitions rose like the sun, buoyant as young
eagles, while the singers of the night before were hapless fireflies,
tangled in the dewy grass, their love-light dim, their singing lost.

       *       *       *       *       *

She was not done with this problem, however.

She saw in one man's eyes something to be answered. She had her answer
ready, though she hoped to escape the ordeal. He hovered close about her
all the morning. He came by the chapter-house for her, but she had gone
to the chapel.

She felt a little guilty toward him. She had attended concerts with him.
She had accepted his company now and again because she liked him and
because--well, it was convenient, and by selecting him she escaped the
attentions of others. She had seemed to acquiesce in his proprietorship
of her, and yet always when alone she had tried to show him that they
could only be friends. This he had persistently misunderstood.

She was almost the tallest of her classmates, she led the march into the
chapel for the final ceremonies, a splendid and terrible moment, toward
which they had looked for weeks, and for which they had elaborately
planned dresses and procedure.

It was all so wistfully beautiful. The cool spacious hall filled with
hushed people; the vivid green trees looking in at the windows and the
soft air burdened with bee songs and the smell of flowers. The June
sunlight dappled the lawn with marvels of shade and shine. The music
seemed to wail as they marched, and the rustling stir and murmur of
comment helped to unnerve them all even to men.

The speaker looked down upon them with comprehension. He was an eastern
man and an old man, also he was a poet. He was just, and he had seen how
clean and fine this co-educational school was. The day was beautiful to
him as to them, and he comprehended their feelings well. He looked down
into their pensive faces, he saw the sorrowful arching of their brows,
the sad droop of their lips.

His shaggy head drooped forward as he talked to them, till his kind old
face, lined with genial wrinkles, seemed to grow beautiful and tender
and maternal. He had reared many children of his own, and he now took
the young people into his heart. He told them much of his life and
trials--how work was in the world for them; play, too--but work, hard
work, glorious work! work for humanity as well as for themselves. He
conveyed to them something of the spirit of altruism into which the
world seemed about to enter on its orbit as it swings through clouds of
star-dust.

They cheered him when he ended, and then the president, in brief words,
presented their diplomas. Among them now were bitten lips, and tremulous
chins and tearful eyes. The doors had closed behind them and they faced
the whole world, it seemed. For years they had studied here, in storm
and sun, but now they remembered only the sunlight, all fused and
blended into one radiant vista.

As they stood for their final benediction a splendid snowy cloud sailed
across the sun, and the room darkened mystically. A shudder of exquisite
pleasure and pain thrilled Rose, and a little moan pushed from her
throat, but the shadow lifted, the organ sounded out a fine brave
strain, and the class of 189-- was ended. It was now a group of men and
women facing the open road.

With low words of greeting and congratulation the graduates and their
friends lingered about the chapel. Slowly it emptied and the hill grew
populous again with groups of leisurely moving figures.

There were scholars showing their parents about the grounds, there were
groups of visiting towns-people, and there were the lovers, two and two,
loitering, wandering (she in dainty white gown, he in cap and jacket),
two-and-two in world-old, sex-old fashion. They lay on the banks and
watched the boats on the gleaming lake where other lovers were. They
threaded the hill-paths where the thrush moved with quick rustle, and
the pale wood-flowers peered above the fragrant mosses. They stood on
the beach skipping pebbles, he lithe and laughing, she tender,
palpitating, wistful and sombre, or fitfully gay. Everywhere laughter
had a solemn sweet undertone; "Good-bye!" trembled so close to "I love
you!"

Rose saw young Harris approaching, and a faintness took hold upon her
limbs. He was at his princeliest estate--never would he be handsomer.
His summer suit set close to his agile and sinewy figure. His cap rested
lightly on his curly hair. His frank blue eyes were laughing, but his
lips were tremulous with feeling.

"Well, Rose, all the girls have deserted me so I'm glad to find you
alone," he said, but she knew he was never deserted. "Let's take a walk.
The whole school seems to be divided off into teams. Looks as if the
whole crowd would trot in double harness, don't it?"

She did not reply, he hardly expected her to do so.

"Going to the ball with me tonight, aren't you?"

"No, I guess not."

"I was in hopes you'd change your mind."

"I can't dance those new-fangled figures."

"O, you'd catch on in a jiffy. You should have gone out more."

They moved down the hill to the beach road, and as they walked Harris
talked, talked against time, he would have said. They strolled on past
the small boys fishing, past other low-voiced couples, out into
comparative solitude where the farms began. She knew what was coming but
she could not stop, could not then turn back.

They came at last to a grassy little knoll which looked out upon the
lake, and there he laughingly spread out his handkerchief for her.

"Sit here, my liege lady!"

It was red clover, and its powerful fragrance swept upon her with a
vision of the hay-field at home.

Harris lay down below her so that he could see her face, and the look in
his eyes made her shiver again. Nothing so beautiful and powerful and
pagan-free had come to her since that day when she danced with Carl
beneath the dappling leaves, when woman's passion first stirred within
her. The sailing clouds, the clicking insects, the smell of leaves and
flowers all strove on the side of the lover. It was immemorial, this
scene, this impulse.

"Well, Rose, this is our last day at school, and what I want to know is
this, is it the last we shall see of each other?"

She made an effort and answered:

"Why, no, I hope not."

"You hope not--then there is hope for me? Confound it, Rose, I'm not
going to talk in riddles. You're the only girl in the world for me." He
took her hand. "And I can't live without you. You are going to live with
me, aren't you, Rose?"

She shook her head, but tears dropped upon his hand. He allured her like
the sunshine, this lithe young lover.

His keen eyes saw a lack of decision in this head shake. He held her
hand and his fingers caressed her wrist. Unconsciously, with pure
intent, he used all the wiles of men, which women love, yet dread. His
voice grew vibrant, yet remained low, his clear eyes called in subtler
speech than his tongue. His wrist touched her knee, his hair moved in
the soft wind.

"I can't bear to go home without you, Rose, darling. Come, tell me,
don't you care for me at all, not the least bit?"

She tried to draw her hand away, but he held it and continued:

"I've got everything all planned. I'm going into law with my father.
I've got plans for a house, and we'll begin life together today----"

His physical charm united itself some way with the smell of clover, the
movement of the wind and the warm flood of sunshine. She had never loved
him, though she had always liked him, but now something sweet and
powerful, something deep buried, rose in her heart and shortened her
breath. Her face burned, her throat was swollen shut, her face was
distorted, for one moment she was mastered.

Then the swift revulsion came, and she drew her hand away and sprang up.

"No!" she cried harshly and bitterly, "I can't do it; it is impossible.
Go away!"

Then the blood slowly fell away from her neck and face, and her heart
ceased to pound, her eyes cleared and she grew gentle again, seeing his
pained and frightened face.

"I didn't mean that--I didn't mean to be so rough, Tom, but it's no use.
I don't want to marry you, nor anybody else. All I want is to be let
alone. I'm going to Chicago. I want to see the world. I can't be shut up
in a little town like Lodi. I want to see people--thousands of people. I
want to see what the world is like. I may go to Europe before I get done
with it. I'm going to study art. I'm going to be great. I can't marry
any one now."

She poured out her confidences in swift, almost furious protest. She had
never confided to him so much before.

His pain was not so overpowering but he found strength to say:

"I thought you were going to be a writer."

She flushed again. "Well, I am. But I'm going to be a painter, too. I'm
going home," she said abruptly, and in such wise they walked along the
returning way.

The glamour was gone from the young man's hair and eyes. She saw him as
he was, clean, boyish, shallow. His physical charm was lost, and a sort
of disgust of his supple waist and rounded limbs came upon her, and
disgust at herself for that one moment of yielding weakness; and also
the keen fear of having been unjust, of having given him a claim which
she was repudiating, troubled her.

He made one last attempt.

"Rose, I wish you'd reconsider. What can you do in the world?"

"I don't know. I can be my own master for one thing," she replied. "I
can see the world for another thing--and besides, I don't want to marry
any one just yet." Her voice was abrupt, merciless, and the young fellow
bowed his head to his sentence. She was too mysterious and powerful for
him to understand.

"What could I do in Lodi? Gossip with old women and grow old. I know
those towns. I had rather live in the country than in one of those flat
little towns."

"But I'll go to the city with you if you want me to. I can get a place
there. I know two men--"

"No, no! I can't do it. I want to be free. I've got something to do,
and,--I don't care for you--"

"Well, go to the ball with me tonight, won't you?" he pleaded.

"Yes, if you never speak about this to me again."

He promised; of course he promised. Standing where he did he would have
promised anything.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was a singular and lovely ball. The people came together simply and
quietly, on foot, or on the tinkling mule-car.

There were no ultra-fashionable dresses, and no jewelry. The men came in
various cuts of coats, and the girls wore simple white, or blue or mauve
dresses, beneath which their lithe untrammeled waists and firm rounded
limbs moved with splendid grace.

It was plain all were not practised dancers. Some of the young men
danced with hands waggling at the wrist, and the girls did not know all
the changes, but laughter was hearty and without stint.

Around the walls sat or stood the parents of the dancers, dignified
business men and their wives, keen-eyed farmers and village merchants
and lawyers. There were also the alumni from all over the West, returned
to take part in the exercises, to catch a glimpse of the dear old
campus. It was all a renewal of youth to them. Many came from the
prairies. Some came from the bleak mountain towns, and the gleam of the
lakes, the smell of grass, the dapple of sunlight on the hillside
affected them almost to tears. Now they danced with their wives and were
without thought or care of business.

Professors danced with their pupils, husbands with their wives, who had
also been pupils here. Lovely, lithe young girls dragged their bearded
old fathers out into the middle of the floor, amid much laughter, and
the orchestra played "Money-Musk" and "Old Zip Coon" and "The Fireman's
Dance" for their benefit.

Then the old fellows warmed up to it, and danced right manfully, so that
the young people applauded with swift clapping of their hands. Plump
mothers took part in the quaint old fashioned figures, and swung and
balanced and "sashayed" in a gale of fun.

It was a beautiful coming together of the University. It represented the
unspoiled neighborliness and sex _camaraderie_ of the West. Its
refinement was not finicky, its dignity was not frigidity, and its fun
was frank and hearty. May the inexorable march of wealth and fashion
pass by afar off, and leave us some little of these dear old forms of
social life.

It had a tender and pensive quality, also. The old were re-living the
past, as well as the young, and all had an unconscious feeling of the
transitoriness of these tender and careless hours. Smiles flashed forth
on the faces of the girls like hidden roses disclosed in deep hedges by
a passing wind-gust, to disappear again in pensive, thoughtful deeps.

Rose danced with Dr. Thatcher, who took occasion to say:

"Well, Rose, you leave us soon."

"Yes, tomorrow, Doctor."

"What are your plans?"

"I don't know; I must go home this summer. I want to go to Chicago next
winter."

"Aha, you go from world to world. Rose, you will do whatever you dream
of--_provided_ you don't marry." He said this as lightly as he could,
but she knew he meant it.

"There isn't much danger of that," she said, trying to laugh.

"Well, no, perhaps not." They fell into a walk, and moved slowly just
outside the throng of dancers.

"Now, mark you, I don't advise you at all. I have realized from the
first a fatality in you. No one can advise you. You must test all things
for yourself. You are alone; advice cannot reach you nor influence you
except as it appeals to your own reason. To most women marriage is the
end of ambition, to you it may be an incentive. If you are big enough,
you will succeed in spite of being wife and mother. I believe in you.
Can't you come and see me tomorrow? I want to give you letters to some
Chicago people."

The company began to disperse, and the sadness impending fell upon them
all. One by one good-byes were said, and the dancers one and all slipped
silently away into the night.



CHAPTER XIII

THE WOMAN'S PART


It was all over at last, the good-byes, the tearful embraces, the cheery
waving of hands, and Rose was off for home. There were other students on
the train, but they were young students whom she did not know. At the
moment it seemed as if she were leaving all that was worth while--five
years of the most beautiful time of her life lay behind her.

She had gone there a country girl, scared and awkward. She was now a
woman (it seemed to her) and the time for action of some sort had come.
She did not look to marriage as a safe harbor. Neither had she regarded
it as an end of all individual effort, as many of her companions
unequivocally had done.

After her experiences during those last three days, she felt as if sex
were an abomination, and she wished for freedom from love. She had
already the premonition that she was of those who seem destined to know
much persecution of men.

Her strong, forceful, full-blooded, magnetic beauty could not be hidden
so deep under sober garments but that the ever-seeking male eye quickly
discovered it. As she entered the car she felt its penetrating,
remorseless glare, and her face darkened, though she was no longer
exposed to the open insults of brakemen and drummers. There was
something in the droop of her eyelids and the curve of her mouth which
kept all men at a distance, even the most depraved. She was not a
victim--a girl to be preyed upon. She was quite evidently a proud,
strong woman, to be sued for by all flatteries and attentions.

The train whirled along over the familiar route, and the land was most
beautiful. Fresh grass everywhere, seas of green flashing foliage,
alternating with smooth slopes of meadow where cattle fed, yet she saw
little of it. With sombre eyes turned to the pane she thought and
thought.

What was to be done now? That was the question. For a year she had been
secretly writing verse and sending it to the magazines. It had all been
returned to her. It made her flush hot to think how they had come back
to her with scarcely a word of civility. Evidently she was wrong. She
was not intended for a writer after all. She thought of the stage, but
she did not know how to get upon the stage.

The train drew steadily forward, and familiar lines of hill-tops aroused
her, and as she turned her face toward home, the bent and grizzled
figure of her father came to her mind as another determining cause. He
demanded something of her now after nearly five year's absence from
home, for he had paid her way--made it possible for her to be what she
was.

There he sat holding his rearing horses and watching, waiting for her.
She had a sudden, swift realization of his being a type as he sat there,
and it made her throat fill, for it seemed to put him so far away,
seemed to take away something of her own sweet dignified personality.

There was a crowd of people on the platform. Some of them she knew, some
of them she did not. She looked very fine and lady-like to John Dutcher
as she came down the car steps, and the brakeman helped her down, with
elaborate and very respectful courtesy.

The horses pranced about, so that John could not even take her hand, and
so she climbed into the buggy alone.

"Carl will take care of your trunk," he said. "Give him the check."

She turned to Carl, whom she had not noticed. He bowed awkwardly.

"How de do, Rosie," he said, as he took the check. He wore brown denims,
and a broad hat and looked strong and clumsy.

She had no time to speak to him, for the horses whirled away up the
street. The air was heavy with the scent of clover, and the
bitter-sweet, pungent smells of Lombardy poplar trees.

They rode in silence till the village lay behind them and the horses
calmed down.

"Cap's a perfect fool about the cars," said John. "But I had to take
him; Jennie's getting too heavy, I darsent take her."

"How is the stock?"

"O, all right. We had a big crop of lambs this spring. The bees are
doing well, but the clover don't seem to attract 'em this year. The corn
looks well except down near the creek--it's been wet there in rainy
seasons, you remember." He gave other reports concerning stock.

Rose felt for the first time the unusualness of this talk. All her life
she had discussed such things with him, but on previous vacations she
had not been conscious of its startling plainness, but now it came to
her with a sudden hot flush--think of such talk being reported of her to
the Doctor and Mrs. Thatcher!

There was something strange in her father's manner, an excitement very
badly concealed, which puzzled her. He drove with almost reckless
swiftness up the winding coulé road. He called her attention to the
way-side crops, and succeeded in making her ask:

"Father, what in the world is the matter with you? I never knew you to
act like this."

John laughed. "I'm a little upset getting you home again, that's all."

She caught a gleam of new shingles through the trees.

"What have you been building?"

"O, nothing much--new granary--patchin' up a little," he replied
evasively. When they whirled into the yard she was bewildered--the old
cottage was gone and a new house stood in its place.

John broke into a laugh.

"How's that for a new granary?"

"O father, did you do that _for me_?"

"For you and me together, Rosie."

They sat in the carriage and looked at it. Rose peered through
tear-blurred lids. He loved her so--this bent old father! He had torn
down the old home and built this _for her_.

Her aunt came out on the side porch: "Hello, Rosie, just in time! The
shortcake is about ready. Ain't you comin' in?"

John gave the team up to the hired hand (who stared at Rose with
wondering eyes) and then they walked upon the front porch and in the
front door. It was new--so new it glistened everywhere and was full of
the fragrance of new lumber and the odor of paint.

"I didn't get any new furniture," John said. "I thought I'd let you do
that."

Rose turned and put her arms about his neck.

"You dear old daddy, what can I do for you, you're so good to me?"

"There now, don't mind, I'm paid for it now. I just want you to enjoy
it, that's all, and if any feller comes around and you like him, why,
you can bring him right here. It's big enough now, and I'm ready to let
the farm any time."

Rose saw his purpose to the uttermost line. He had built this to keep
her at home. How little he knew her now, to think that she could marry
and bring her husband home to this place!

She kissed him and then they passed into all the rooms.

"Come here--I've got something to show you," he said mysteriously. "I
just _determined_ to have it, no matter what it cost." He pushed open a
door at the head of the stairway, calling triumphantly:

"There--how's that?--a bathroom!"

For an instant she felt like laughing. Then she looked at his kind and
simple face and she broke down again and cried.

John understood now that this was only her way of being glad, so he just
patted her shoulder and got her a chair, and waited for her to dry her
eyes.

"Yes, sir," he went on, "cost me a hundred dollars to put that in, say
nothin' of the fixin's. I had to have special set of eave-spouts made to
run the water into a cistern on top of the kitchen. I thought of
bringing the water from the spring, but that's a little hard."

They went down to supper at last, he full of talk, she very quiet. His
loquacity was painful to her, for it seemed to indicate growing age and
loneliness.

The meagreness of the furniture and tableware never struck her so
forcibly as now, lost in the big new house. Intellectual poverty was
shown also in the absence of books and newspapers, for John Dutcher read
little, even of political newspapers, and magazines were quite outside
his experimental knowledge till Rose brought a few home with her in her
later vacations.

There were no elegancies at their table--that too was borne in upon her
along with the other disturbing things. It was as if her eyes had
suddenly been opened to all the intolerable meagreness of her old-time
life.

"I didn't buy any carpets or wallpaper, Rosie; I thought you'd like to
do that yourself," John explained as she looked around the room.

But outside all was beautiful, very beautiful. Under the trees the
sinking sun could be seen hanging just above the purple-green hills to
the northwest. Robins clucked, orioles whistled, a ring-dove uttered its
never changing, sorrowful, sweet love-note. A thrush, high on a poplar,
sang to the setting sun a wonderful hymn, and the vivid green valley,
with its white houses and red barns, was flooded with orange light,
heaped and brimming full of radiance and fragrance.

And yet what was all that to a girl without love, a brain which craved
activity, not repose? Vain were sunset sky, flaming green slopes and
rows of purple hills to eyes which dreamed of cities and the movement of
masses of men. She was young, not old; ambitious, not vegetative. She
was seeking, seeking, and to wait was not her will or wish.

The old man saw nothing difficult in all this. She was educated now. He
had patiently sent her to school and now it was over; she was to be his
once more, his pride and comfort as of olden time. Without knowing it he
had forged the chains round her with great skill. Every carpet she
bought would bind her to stay. She was to select the wallpaper, and by
so doing to proclaim her intention to conform and to content herself in
the new home.

She rose the next morning feeling, in spite of disturbing thought, the
wonderful peace and beauty of the coulé, while her heart responded to
the birds, rioting as never before--orioles, thrushes, bob-o-links,
robins, larks--their voices wonderful and brilliant as the sunlight
which streamed in upon her new, uncarpeted floor.

As she looked around at the large, fine new room, she thought of the
little attic in which she had slept so many years. Yes, decidedly there
would be pleasure in furnishing the house, in making her room pretty
with delicate drapery and cheerful furniture.

She began to plan, only to break off--it seemed in some way to be
deceit. No, before she did anything to it she must tell him she could
not stay here, and she went down to breakfast with that resolution
tightly clutched in her teeth, but when she saw his smiling face she
could not speak the word. He was so pathetically happy. She had never
seen him so demonstrative, and this mood showed her how deeply he had
missed her.

Now that she was home for good, he felt no need of concealing his
exceeding great joy of her daily presence with him. She remembered all
the brave words he had spoken to her in order to make her feel he did
not suffer when she was happy at school. Fortunately at breakfast he was
full of another subject.

"I s'pose you heard that Carl is to be married?" he announced rather
than asked her.

She looked up quickly--"No, is he? To whom?"

"Little Sary Wilson."

"Well, I'm very glad to hear it," she said quietly.

Some way, at that moment she seemed more alien to him than ever before,
and he looked across at her in wonder. How lady-like she was in her
tasty dress. How white her hands were! And it was wonderful to think she
could sit so at ease and hear of Carl's approaching marriage. He
remembered the time when he called them to his knee, the two young
rogues.

She was thinking of that too. It was far in the past, yet, far as it
was, it was still measurable, and a faint flush crept over her face. No
one in the world knew of that experience but Carl and her father. Would
Carl's wife ever know of it? That was the thought which caused the
flush.

The first day she spent in looking about the farm with John. Towards
evening she climbed the hills alone, and spent an hour on the familiar
slope. It helped her to look down on her plans and her daily life, and
the next day she met the question direct.

"Well, Rosie, when will you go to Tyre and do our buyin'?"

"O, not yet. I want to look around a few days first."

"All right--you're the captain! only we can't have any company till we
get some furniture."

True enough! there was the excuse for buying the furniture; even if she
were to go to the city she would be home during the summer, and she
would want to entertain her friends. The fever seized her thereupon, and
she plunged into planning and cataloguing. They had but little to spend,
and she was put to her wit's end to passably furnish the house.

This filled in the first week or two of her stay, and she suffered less
from loneliness than she expected; it came only at intervals, just
before going to sleep, or in the morning, as she made her toilet for
each new but eventless day.

As the home came to look pretty and complete, she thought of asking
Josie to come on to visit her, and finally wrote her, and when she had
promised to come, there was something to look forward to.

Meanwhile, she found something wrong between herself and her old
friends. She meant to be just the same as ever, and at first she seemed
to succeed, but she found herself not listening to them, or looking at
them with alien eyes. She heard their harsh, loud voices, not their
words, and she saw their stiff, ungraceful gestures instead of the
fancy-work and worked-over dresses which they showed her. They looked at
each other with significant nods. Other young people had gone away to
school without acquiring airs, why should she?

It was not her education in books, but in manners, which made her alien.
She was educated above them, too. Her thoughts were higher than theirs,
and she did not attempt to play the hypocrite. She was not interested in
them; for the most part they bored her. In a few cases the
misunderstanding grew to be anger and distrust.

Carl drove over once with his bride-elect, and they all sat stiffly in
the front room for one distressing hour; then they left, never to come
again.

Sarah counted the visit not all in vain, however, for she quite closely
reproduced Rose's shirt-waist the following week--that much she got out
of the call. Carl was awed and troubled a little by the failure of his
bride to get on with Rose, and Rose was bitter over it in heart. She
could not see the fun of all this, as so many story-writers had done. It
was all pitiful and bitter and barren, and to eat with the knife and
drink coffee with a loud, sipping sound were inexcusable misdemeanors to
her overwrought temper.

Josie came in like a little oriole. She fluffed down off the train like
a bunch of lilac bloom one July day.

"O, what a funny little town," she said, after kissing Rose how-de-do.
"Are we to ride in this carriage? O, I'm _so_ disappointed!"

"Why so?"

"O, I wanted to ride on a hay-cart or dray or whatever it is. Mr.
Dutcher, I'm so glad to see you." She sprang upon John and kissed him,
"like a swaller lightin' on me," he said afterward. It astonished him
but gratified him.

"Do you live far out in the country--the real country?" she asked.

"Well, you'd think so if you had to haul corn over it in the spring," he
replied.

"I'd like to haul corn over it," she replied. "May I?"

"You can do anything you want to," John said.

Josie got at the picturesque qualities of the people. They all
interested her and amused her like the cattle without horns, and the
guinea-hens which clacked like clocks, and the tadpoles in the marsh.
She had no personal relations--no responsibilities toward them such as
Rose felt were inescapably hers. Josie had no responsibilities at all,
none under heaven!

She laughed at the ill-made dresses, and winked over the heads of the
old wives when they talked in dialect, and made fun of the boys who came
courting her, and sang "Where did they get those hats?" after coming out
of the church.

Rose laughed and yet suffered, as one might whose blood relatives were
ridiculed. It was a new experience to John Dutcher to have one about who
cried out at everything as if it were the seventh wonder. The summer
visitor had never before penetrated to his farm and all the women he had
ever known could talk about cattle and drainage and wool-washing almost
like men. In his interest and desire to do the part of entertainer, he
pushed on into subjects which the girl listened to with wonder-wide eyes
and a flushed face.

He talked to her as he would with Rose, about "farrer cows" and other
commonplaces of stock-raising to which Rose would have listened
abstractedly or with a slight feeling of disgust. To Josie it was deeply
fascinating, and just a little bit like reading a forbidden book. It
affected her a little unwholesomely, just as it would have made Ed, the
hand, spasmodically guffaw to stand before the Venus de Milo--use and
custom do much.

She sometimes asked questions which she would not have dared to ask her
uncle, for John Dutcher was beyond sex; indeed, he had always been a man
of pure heart and plain speech. He was even in youth perfectly free from
any sensuality, and now in his later middle life sex was a fact like the
color of a horse or a squash, and all that pertained to it he talked of,
on the same plane. It did not occur to him that he was going beyond the
lines of propriety in explaining to this delicate little woman various
vital facts of stock-raising.

Josie sometimes went back to Rose smilingly, and told her what had taken
place.

"Why didn't you ask me--you little goose? I never thought you didn't
know those things. We farm girls know all that when we are toddlers. We
can't help it."

All this should have been tonic, thoroughly wholesome to the dainty
over-bred girl, and so it ultimately became, though it disturbed her at
the time.

The two girls went out into the meadows and upon the hills almost daily.
They sought wild strawberries in the sunny spots amid the hazel brush.
They buried themselves in the hay in the field and climbed on the huge
loads with John and rode to the barn. They drank water out of the spring
lying flat on the ground; Rose showed how it was done. They went up on
the hillsides under the edges of great ledges of water-washed sandstone
where Rose had made her playhouse in her childhood, and she drew forth
from the crevices in the rocks the queer little worn pieces of rock
which she had called horses and cows and soldiers.

Rose had not been so girlish since her first vacation from school in
Madison. She romped and laughed with the ever-joyous Josie, and together
they grew brown and strong. But there came into the lusty splendid joy
of these days hours of almost sombre silence and dreaming. It all ended
in nothing, this attempt at amusement.

Here in the riant and overflowing opulence of July, time without love's
companionship was time wasted. Of what avail these soft winds, the song
of birds, the gleam and lift and shimmer of leaves, if love were not
there to share it?

Josie frankly confessed the name of the one she wished to share it with,
but Rose looked into the sky and remained silent. Her soul was still
seeking, restless, avid, yet evermore discerning, evermore difficult to
satisfy.

They fell into long talks on marriage, and Rose confided to her some of
her deepest thoughts, though she felt each time that this little
twittering sparrow was hardly capable of understanding her.

"I want to know the men who think the great thoughts of the world," she
said once as they lay under the beeches on the hillside, far above the
haying field. "I don't want to marry--I only want to know men who can
lift me up by their great plans. I want to forget myself in work of some
kind--I don't know what kind--any kind that will make me big and grand
in my life. I can't stand these little petty things here in this valley;
these women drive me crazy with their talk of butter and eggs and
made-over bonnets."

"I think they're funny," said Josie. "They talk so loud and they get so
interested in such queer things."

Rose fell silent again. She knew Josie was of this type, only her
affairs happened to be of a different sort, not larger, only different,
pettinesses of dress and teas.

"O, for a nice man!" sighed Josie. "Why didn't you tell me there weren't
any nice men up here?"

Meanwhile the lack of men was not apparent. Hardly a day but some young
fellow from Tyre or the Siding made bold to hitch his horses to the
fence before Dutcher's place. Rose was annoyed and gave most of them
scant courtesy. Josie, however, always saw them and managed to have
great amusement out of their embarrassment.

Like summer girls in general she thought any man better than no man at
all. Rose, however, could not endure a love-glance from any of them. She
found her household duties pressing when they called, and Josie
entertained them, and afterward entertained her by mimicking their looks
and tones. It was very funny to see Josie screw her little face into
shapes to represent her suitors' bashful grins and side-glances.

They were not always bashful, it must be said. Sometimes they were
distressingly bold, and they came to the point of offensive warfare with
a readiness and assurance which scared Josie. She had never seen
anything like it.

Rose found Josie entertaining in any mood.



CHAPTER XIV

AGAIN THE QUESTION OF HOME-LEAVING


But the day came at last when Josie must say good-bye, and then Rose's
essential loneliness swept back upon her in a bitter flood. That night
she walked her room in her naked feet, with her handkerchief stifling
her sobs, so that John might not hear. She fought it out there (she
supposed) and ended at last by determining to sacrifice herself to her
father.

He could not be deserted, he needed her so, now that he was growing old
and a little weaker. She must put away her vague, ambitious dreams of
success, and apply herself to making him happy.

And yet to what end was all her study, she thought, during these later
years? Could it be applied to doing him good? Her indifferent talent as
a musician seemed the only talent which gave him joy. He cared
nothing--knew nothing, of the things she loved and thought about!

Was her life, like his, to come down to the raising of cattle and the
breeding of sheep? Was not his office served in educating her? Should
not the old be sacrificed to the young?

All these devilish questions came into her mind like flashes of lurid
light, but they all paled and faded before this one unchangeable
radiance; he was her father, tender, loving, simple, laborious and old.

She fell asleep after hours of writhing agony, worn out, yet
triumphant--she imagined.

But she was not. Day followed day, each one seemingly more hopeless than
the other. This consideration beat like a knell into her brain, love
could never come to her. Marriage with these young men was no longer
possible. Love was out there, somewhere in the great world, in the city
among artists and music-lovers, and men of great thought and great
deeds. Her powerful physical, mental and emotional womanhood rebelled at
this thought of lovelessness; like the prisoner of old bound in a
sunless cavern where the drip-drop of icy water fell upon his brain, she
writhed and seemed like to go mad.

This was the age of cities. The world's thought went on in the great
cities. The life in these valleys was mere stagnant water, the great
stream of life swept by far out and down there, where men and women met
in millions. To live here was to be a cow, a tad-pole! Grass grew here,
yes--but she could not live on grass. The birds sang here, yes--but
there were Patti, and Duse, and Bernhardt out there in the world.

Here you could arise at five o'clock to cook breakfast and wash dishes,
and get dinner, and sweep and mend, and get supper, and so on, till you
rotted, like a post stuck in the mud. Your soul would rot. She felt
change going on all the time. She was slipping back into shiftlessness,
into minute untidiness--into actual slovenliness. There was no stimulus
in these surroundings, she told herself; everything was against her
higher self.

Once she had read a sentence from Lowell which flamed upon her mind now
each time she mused upon her lot.

"The wilderness is all right for a vacation, but all wrong for a
life-time."

She considered the coulé a wilderness. It had nothing for her but
nature, and nature palls upon a girl of twenty, with red blood in her
veins, and splendid dreams in her heart.

Out there was her ideal. "Out there is the man who is to fill out my
life," she uttered to herself softly, so that only her inner ear heard.

So she argued, fought, wept, surrendered, and went to battle again.
While all about her, John and his sister, moved tranquilly to their
daily duties, calm as the cattle in the meadows. To the discerning eye
it was a wonderful sight to see that dark, gloomy, restless girl seated
opposite those serene, almost stolid faces, to whom "the world" was a
breeze blowing in the tree-tops. She had the bearing of a rebellious
royal captive--a duchess in exile. Mrs. Diehl and the hired man were the
peasants who waited upon her, but ate with her--and her father was the
secure free-holder, to whom kings were obscure, world-distant diseases.

Then the equinoctial storms came on, and days of dull, cold, unremitting
rain confined her to the house. The birds fell silent, the landscape,
blurred with gray mist, looked grim and threatening, and there was
prophecy of winter in the air. The season seemed to have rushed into
darkness, cold and decay, in one enormous bound. The hills no longer
lifted buoyant crests to heaven; they grew cheerless and dank as prison
walls.

One night Rose spoke. She had always been chary of caresses; even when a
child she sat erect upon her father's knee, with a sober little face,
and when she grew sleepy she seldom put hands to his neck, but merely
laid her head on his breast and went to sleep. John understood her in
all this, for was he not of the same feeling? Love that babbled spent
itself, his had no expression.

His heart was big with pride and affection when his splendid girl came
over and put her arms about his neck, and put her forehead down on his
shoulder.

"O pappa John, you're so good to me--I'm ashamed--I don't deserve this
new house!"

"O yes y' do, daughter." His voice when he said "daughter" always made
her cry, it was deep and tender like the music of water. It stood for
him in the place of "dear" and "darling," and he very, very seldom spoke
it. All this made it harder for her to go on.

"No, I don't, father--O, father, I can't stay here--I can't bear to stay
here now!"

"Why not, Rosie?"

"O because it's so lonesome for me. There is nobody for me to talk to"
(she had to use phrases he could understand) "and I want to go on with
my studies."

John considered a moment.

"But, Rosie, seems to me you've got enough; you're graduated."

Rose saw the hopelessness of making him understand that, so she went
back.

"It's so lonesome for me here, pappa John!"

He considered again. "I 'spose it is. Well, you can go to the Siding
every day if you want to. Hitch up old Doll every day--"

"I don't care for the Siding; it's just as lonesome there for me. I want
to go to Chicago."

John grew rigid. "Chicago! What you want to do there?"

"I want to study, pappa. I want to go on with my work. I'll come home
summers just the same. I'll come home Christmas if you want me to. It
won't cost much, I'll live just as cheap as I can----"

"'Tain't that, 'tain't that, Rose," he said. Then he lifted his head and
looked around.

She read his thought and the tears came to her eyes in blinding rush.

"I know, pappa. It's terrible to go now, when you've built this nice
home for me, but what can I do? It's so lonesome here! I thought maybe
I'd get used to it, but it gets worse. I can't stay here this winter.
You _must_ let me go. I'll go crazy if I stay here all winter. I must go
out into the world. I want to be an artist. I want to see great people.
I can't stay here, pappa John!"

The terrible earnestness of every sentence stabbed John Dutcher's heart
like a poniard thrust. He put her away and rose stiffly.

"Well, well, Rosie, if you want to go----"

He did not finish, but turned tremblingly and walked out. She remained
on the floor near his chair and watched him go, her soul sick with
wretchedness.

Why was the world so ordered? Why must she torture that beautiful,
simple soul? Why was it that all her high thoughts, her dreams, her
ambitions, her longings, seemed to carry her farther away from him?

She could have beaten her head against the wall in her suffering. She
rose at last and crawled slowly to her room, and abandoned herself to
black, rayless hopelessness.

John Dutcher went out to the hedgerow and sat down on a stool. Around
him bees were humming in the wet clover. The calves thrust their
inquiring noses through the fence and called to him. The rain-clouds
were breaking up, and the sun was striking under the flying canopy at
the West.

It was the bitterest moment of his life, since his wife's death. His
eyes were opened to his fate; he saw what he had done; he had educated
his daughter out of his world. Never again would she be content in the
coolly beside him. He saw how foolish he had been all these years, to
suppose he could educate and keep her. For a moment he flamed with
resentment and said to himself:

"I wish she had never seen a book."

Then he grew tender. He saw her again in her little blue apron with its
pockets full of wheat--he saw her blowing hair, her sunny face; he heard
again the wind-tossed chatter of her cunning lips. He ran swiftly over
her development--how tall she grew and how splendid she was now, the
handsomest girl in the coolly, and he softened. She was right. Who was
there of the young farmers or even in Tyre good enough for her?

So he rose to a conception which had never come to him before, and even
now it was formlessly vast; he felt the power of the outside world, and
reached to a divination of the fatality of it all. It had to be, for it
was a part of progress. He was old and bent and dull. She was young,
gloriously young. The old must give way to the young, while she was the
one to be bowed down to. She was queen and he was subject.

With these conceptions in his mind he went back and looked for her. He
called her softly, but she did not hear, she was sobbing deep into her
pillow. He came up the stairs and saw her lying face downward on her
bed. His heart rose in his throat, because it was a terrible thing to
see his imperious girl weep.

"Rosie, old pappa John surrenders. You're right and he's an old dummy."

She turned her face upon him.

"No, you're right. We won't be separated."

"But we ain't going to be." He came over and sat down on the edge of the
bed.

"You'll come home summers, and maybe I'll go to Chicago winters."

Her face flashed into a smile. She flung her arms about him again.

"O will you, pappa John?"

"Course I will. Wait till you see me in a spike-tail coat and a boiled
shirt. I'll astonish the city dudes."

Rose laughed a little wildly, and tightened her clasp about his neck.

"You're my dear old pappa John."

She went at once to her desk and wrote a letter to Mary Compton, an old
schoolmate who had gone to Chicago and whose guidance to bed and board
now seemed valuable.

That night John Dutcher did not go to sleep at once, as he usually did
on entering his room. He went to his bureau--the old bureau he had
bought for his wife thirty years before. In it he kept his pictures.
There were several tin-types of Rose, in awkward, scared poses, and
there too was the last picture of his wife which had been taken with
Rose as a babe in her arms.

Dutcher sat for a long time looking at it, and the tears ran down his
face unheeded, pitiful to see.

When he got up at last he moved stiffly as if he had suddenly grown ten
years older, and in his sleep his sister heard him groan and talk. In
the morning he said he had a touch of rheumatism, but it would most
probably pass off as the sun came out.



CHAPTER XV

CHICAGO


Almost 6 o'clock, and the train due in Chicago at 6:30! The city grew
more formidable to Rose as she approached it. She wondered how it would
first appear on the plain. There was little sign of it yet.

As she looked out of the car window she saw men stacking grain, and
plowing. It was supper time at home, and John was just rising from the
table. The calves were bleating for their pails of milk; the guinea-hens
were clacking, and the little turkeys crying in the grass, the bees were
homing, heavy with honey, and here she sat, rushing toward that
appalling and unimaginable presence--Chicago.

Somewhere just ahead it sat, this mighty hive of a million and a half of
people. The thought of it made her heart beat quick, and her throat
filled. She was going there; the lake was there; art was there, and
music and the drama--and love! Always under each emotion, always behind
every success, was the understanding that love was to be the woman's
reward and recompense. It was not articulate nor feverish, this thought;
it was a deep, pure emotion, streaming always toward the unknown.

She dreamed as the train rumbled on. She would succeed, she _must_
succeed. She gripped the seat-rail with her broad, strong hands, and
braced herself like one entering a flood.

It was this wonderful thing again, a fresh, young and powerful soul
rushing to a great city, a shining atom of steel obeying the magnet, a
clear rivulet from the hills hurrying to the sea. On every train at that
same hour, from every direction, others, like her, were entering on the
same search to the same end.

"See that cloud?" some one said; "that's Chicago."

Rose looked--far to the south-east a gigantic smoke-cloud soared above
the low horizon line, in shape like an eagle, whose hovering wings
extended from south to east, trailing mysterious shadows upon the earth.
The sun lighted its mighty crest with crimson light, and its gloom and
glow became each moment more sharply contrasted. Towards this portentous
presence the train rushed, uttering an occasional shrill neigh, like a
stallion's defiance.

The brazen bell upon the engine began to clang and clang; small towns of
scattered wooden houses came into view and were left behind. Huge,
misshapen buildings appeared in flat spaces, amid hundreds of cars. Webs
of railway tracks spread out dangerously in acres of marvelous
intricacy, amid which men moved, sooty, grimy, sullen and sickly.

Terrors thickened. Smells assaulted her sensitive nostrils,
incomprehensible and horrible odors. Everywhere men delved in dirt and
murk, and all unloveliness. Streets began to stretch away on either
side, interminable, squalid, filled with scowling, squaw-like women and
elfish children. The darkness grew, making the tangle and tumult a
deadly struggle.

Was this the city of her dreams? This the magnificent, the home of
education and art.

The engine's bell seemed to call back "_Good cheer! Good cheer!_" The
buildings grew mightier but not less gloomy; the freight cars grew
fewer, and the coaches more numerous. It was an illimitable jungle
filled with unrecognizable forms, over which night was falling.

The man with a hoop of clinking checks came through. He was a handsome,
clean and manly fellow, and his calm, kindly voice helped Rose to choke
down her dread.

"Baggage checked!--Baggage--Baggage checked to any part of the
city--Baggage!"

In him she saw the native denizen to whom all these horrors were
commonplace sensations, and it helped her. It couldn't be so bad as it
looked to her.

"Chicago, _She-caw-go_!" called the brakeman, and her heart for a moment
stood still, and a smothering sensation came upon her. She was at the
gate of the city, and life with all its terrors and triumphs seemed just
before her.

At that moment the most beautiful thing in the world was the smooth
pasture by the spring, where the sheep were feeding in the fading light,
and if she could, she would have turned back, but she was afloat, and
retreat was impossible. She pressed on with the rest, wondering what she
could do if Mary did not meet her.

Mary had hardly been more than an acquaintance at school, but now she
seemed a staff to lean upon. Rose looked to her as a guide to a refuge,
a hiding-place from all these terrors.

Out under the prodigious arching roof she stepped, into the tumult of
clanging bells, of screeching, hissing steam and of grinding wheels. The
shouts of men echoed here and there in the vaulted roof, mysteriously as
in a cavern. Up the long walk, streams of people moved, each one laden,
like herself, with a valise. Electric lamps sputtered overhead. She
hurried on, with sensitive ears tortured by the appalling tumult, her
eyes wide and apprehensive.

Her friend was not to be seen, and she moved on mechanically with the
rest, keeping step beside an old man who seemed to be familiar with the
station, and who kept off (without knowing it), the attentions of two
human vultures, in wait for such as Rose.

They moved up the steps into the waitingroom before Rose gave up hope of
her friend. So far she had gone securely, but could she find the house
which was to be her home, alone?

She sat down for an instant on the long seat by the wall, and listened
to the obscure thunder of the street outside. It was terrifying,
confusing. Shrill screams and hoarse shouts rose above a hissing,
scraping sound, the clang of gongs and the click of shoe-heels.

Every voice was pitched to an unnatural key, like that of men in a mill.
The noise seemed hot, some way, like smitten iron and brass. No sound
was familiar to her, nothing cool and reposeful. Her head throbbed and
her tongue was dry. She had eaten little since early morning and she
felt weak.

She looked far more composed and self-reliant than she was, and when her
friend came swinging up to her she cried out: "O, Mary!" and her friend
realized a little of her relief and gratitude.

"O, here you are! I got delayed--forgive me. I'm all out o' breath."
(Here she kissed her.) "How well you look! Your complexion is
magnificent. Give me your valise. We'll send for your trunk. Save
twenty-five cents by having it done up town. This way--I'm glad to see
you. How is Wisconsin?"

Mary Compton was tall, red-haired and strong. Her eyes were keen and
laughing, and the tip of her chip hat and the swing of her skirts let
everybody know how able she was to take care of herself--thank you! She
had been the smart girl of a small town near Madison, and had come to
the city, as her brother Dan had gone to Idaho, for the adventure of it.
It was quite like hunting bears.

"Shall we take the grip?"

Rose didn't know what she meant, but she said:

"Just as you like."

"I like to take the grip; it gives a fellow a little fresh air, if there
is any at all."

A train of cable-cars came nosing along like vicious boars, with snouts
close to the ground. Mary helped Rose upon the open forward car, which
had seats facing outward. A young man lifted his hat and made room for
them.

"Hello, John!" said Mary, "aren't you a little early tonight? Rose, my
friend Mr. Hardy. Mr. Hardy, Miss Dutcher."

The young fellow raised his hat again and bowed. He was a pleasant-faced
young man in round straw hat and short coat. Mary paid no further
attention to him.

"I've got you a room right next to mine," she said to Rose, who was
holding to the seat with one hand and clinging to her hat with the
other. The car stopped and started with vicious suddenness.

"You'd better hang on; the gripman is mad tonight," Mary explained.
"We're most to our street, anyway."

To Rose it was all a wild ride. The noise, the leaping motion of the
cars and the perilous passage of drays made it as pleasant to her as a
ride behind a running team on a corduroy road.

They came at last to quieter spaces, and alighted finally at a cross
street.

"I'm pretty far up," said Mary, "but I want it decently quiet where I
live. I have noise enough at the office."

Rose thought it indecently noisy. Peddlers were crying out strange
sing-song cries; children romped, screaming in high-pitched furious
voices; laundry wagons and vegetable wagons clattered about. There was a
curious pungent odor in the air.

On the steps of the houses groups of young people, like Mary and John,
sat on strips of carpet, and laughed and commented on the passers-by.
Mary turned upon one fool who called a smart word at her:

"Left your manners in Squashville, didn't you, little man?"

They came at last to an imposing block of houses, situated at the
corner. They entered the door and climbed a gas-lit stairway, which went
round and round a sort of square well. They came at last to a door which
closed all passage, and Mary got out her key and opened it.

"Here we are!" she said cheerily.

The main hall was carpeted and ran past several doors, which were open.
In one room a young man in his shirt sleeves was shaving before a glass.
In another a girl was reading.

"Hello!" called Mary.

"Hello!" said the girl, without looking up.

"Here's my room, and this's yours." Mary pushed open a door at the end
of the hall. It was a small room, papered in light buff and blue. It had
an oak dresser and mirror, a couple of chairs and a mantel bed. It
looked cheerful and clean, but very small. Mary put down her valise.

"I guess you'll find everything all right, water and towels. Wash up
right off--dinner'll be ready soon."

Rose removed her hat and sat down, her head throbbing with the heat and
noise. She heard the man at the glass whistling, and Mary was thumping
about in her vigorous way.

The dash of cold water cleared her brain, but did not remove her
headache. Her face was still flushed and her eyes expanded.

Mary coming back, looked at her a moment and then rushed upon her and
hugged her.

"O what a beauty you are! I wish I had half what you've got."

Rose smiled faintly; she didn't care just that moment whether she looked
well or ill.

"The boys will all be dead in love with you before dinner is over. Let
me tell you about them." She softened her reed-like voice down and
glanced at the transom furtively: "Never forget the transom when you're
talking secrets," she explained.

"First, there's Mr. Taylor; he's from Colorado somewhere. He's a lawyer.
He's a fine fellow too--you'll like him. Then there's Mr. Simons; he's a
Jew, but he's not _too much_ of a Jew. There's Alice Fletcher; she's
queer and grumpy, but she reads a lot and she can talk when she wants
to, and there's you and myself."

"I don't feel like meeting them tonight," Rose said; "if I had a cup of
tea I'd stay in my room."

"All right! I'll bring it."

The bell rang and then the movement of feet and the banging of doors
told of the rush to dinner.

Mary came back with a cup of tea and a biscuit and some pudding.

"Have more, if you wish," she said.

"This will do nicely. You're very kind, Mary Compton. I don't deserve
it."

"You deserve the world," cried the adoring girl. "If I had your figure
and complexion I'd make the universe wait on me."

In spite of all this fervor of praise Rose felt herself to be a very
dejected and spiritless beauty. She was irritated and angry with the
nagging of strange sights and sounds and smells. The air seemed laden
with disease and filth. It was all so far from the coolly with its
purple hills looming against the sapphire sunset sky.

But this she came for--to see the city; to plunge into its life. She
roused herself therefore with a blush of shame at her weakness. She had
appeared to be a child before this girl who had always been her inferior
at school.

It was a very dignified young woman who arose to greet Mrs. Wilcox, the
landlady, whom Mary brought back. This dignity was not needed. Mrs.
Wilcox was a sweet-voiced, smiling woman of fifty--being of those
toilers who smile when they are tired enough to drop. She was flushed
with fatigue and moved languidly, but her kind, patient, pathetic smile
touched Rose almost to tears.

"I'm glad to have you come here," the landlady said. "We're all nice
people here, aren't we, Miss Compton?" Her eyes twinkled with humorous
self-analysis.

"Every one of us," corroborated Mary.

"I hope you'll rest well. If there's anything we can do for you, my
dear, let me know." Such was the spirit in which the over-worked woman
served her boarders. They all called her "mother." She had no children
of her own, and her husband was "not at all well," yet nothing could
sour her sweet kindliness, which included all the world. She was a
familiar type, and Rose loved her at once.

Miss Fletcher came in and was introduced. She was a teacher in a school
near by.

"What anybody should come to this town for I can't understand. I stay
here because I'm obliged to. I'm just back from the country to my work."

"The country is all right for a vacation," quoted Rose.

Mary broke in, "That's what I say. I lived on a farm and I lived in
Castle Rock. When I lived on the farm I wanted to get to Castle Rock.
When I got to Castle Rock I wanted to get to Madison. Madison made me
hone for Chicago, and when I had a chance to come, I just dropped my
work at the University and put for the city, and here I am and glad of
it."

"I can't understand such folly," murmured Miss Fletcher.

"You could if you'd stayed on the farm the year round, with nobody to
talk to and mighty little to read. It's all right for you to go up for a
couple of months and lie about in a hammock, but you take a place like
Castle Rock all the year round! It's worse than the farm. Gossip! They
talk every rag of news to smithereens, don't they, Rose?"

Rose nodded.

"And then the people! They're the cullin's. All the bright boys and
girls go to Madison and Chicago or Dakota, and then the rest marry and
intermarry, and have idiot boys and freckle-faced girls!"

They all laughed. Mary was always extreme, no matter what her subject.

Miss Fletcher sighed resignedly.

"Well, it's fate. Here this big city sits and swallows you bright people
like a great dragon, and the old folks are left alone in these dull
places you talk about."

Rose felt her eyes filling with tears. The figure of her lonely old
father came before her. She saw him sitting beside the kitchen table,
his head on his palm, and all the new house empty and dark.

Mary jumped up. "Here now, stop that talk, we must leave Rose alone and
let her go to sleep."

They left her alone, but sleep was impossible. The tramp of feet, the
sound of pianos, the slam of doors, the singing, laughing of the other
boarders made sleep impossible. The cars jangled by, the click-clack of
horses' hoofs and the swift rattle of wagons kept up long after the
house was silent. Between midnight and four o'clock she got a little
sleep, out of which she awoke while a booming, clattering wagon
thundered by. Other wagons clattered viciously along up the alleys, and
then some early riser below began to sing, and Rose wearily dressed and
sat down by the window to listen.

Far to the south a low, intermittent, yet ever deepening, crescendo bass
note began to sound. It was Chicago waking from the three hours' doze,
which is its only sleep. It grew to a raucous, hot roar; and then to the
north she heard the clear musical cry of a fruit vendor,--then another:
"_Black-berries! Fine fresh black-berries!_"

The cars thickened, the sun grew hot and lay in squares of blinding
light across her carpet. That curious pungent smell came in with the
wind. Newsboys cried their morning papers. Children fought and played in
the street. Distant whistles began to sound, and her first morning in
Chicago came to Rose, hot, brazen, unnatural, and found her blinded,
bruised, discouraged, abased, homesick.



CHAPTER XVI

HER FIRST CONQUEST


She was still sitting by the window wondering what to do next, when Mary
tapped at her door.

"May I come in?"

She looked fresh and strong, and her cheery smile made her seem
beautiful to Rose.

"How did you sleep?"

Rose shook her head. Mary laughed.

"I can tell by the looks of you. Look's if you'd been pulled through a
knot-hole, as they say up in Molasses Gap. Heard everything that took
place, didn't you? I did too. You'll get over that. I sleep like a top
now."

"What is that smell? Pah!" shuddered Rose.

Mary elevated her freckled nose. "What smell? O, you mean that rotten,
piney, turpentiney smell--that's the Chicago smell. It comes from the
pavin' blocks, I guess. I never inquired. I'll ask Mr. Reed, he knows
everything mean about Chicago. Well, you hadn't better go to breakfast
looking like that. I want you to paralyze that Boston snipe. I'll bring
in your breakfast."

Rose accepted this service passively; nothing else was to be done in
Mary Compton's presence. She had the energy of a steam threshing
machine, and affection to correspond.

Rose wondered again what she could do next. She was here to study art
and literature--there was the library! She would read. And there were
lectures perhaps; what she was to do would come to her after awhile.

Mary returned a little hot of color, bringing a tray.

"That Boston clothes-pin says you're a myth or a country gawk. You must
lay him out cold as a handspike. I've been bragging about you and they
were all on tip-toe to see you this morning. You sail in on 'em at
dinner the way you used to do at our chapter-house spreads. Weren't they
great! There now, I've got to vamoose. I'm not a lady of leisure. I'm a
typewriter on trial and looks won't carry _me_ through. I've got to
rustle and walk chalk, as they say in Molasses Gap. So good-bye. Take it
easy today. If you want to walk, go over to the lake front," and she
banged out of the door and faced the city in her daily encounter.

Rose ate her breakfast and felt much better. Her trunk came and she got
out her dresses and hung them up and made other preparations for
staying, although it seemed impossible she should ever sleep another
night in this terrible city.

She got out her portfolio and wrote a letter home and one also to Dr.
Thatcher. Then she looked over the little bunch of letters of
introduction she had. One was to Doctor Isabel Herrick, one to Professor
H. Bevan Fowler at Evanston, and one was to Orrin Thatcher; that was the
Doctor's cousin, a young lawyer in the Woman's building, whatever that
was. With these and ten dollars a week she faced Chicago. The contest
was unequal.

She felt this more keenly as she stood on the lake front a little later
on in the day. She went there as the New Hampshire girl goes to the sea.
This body of water, majestic in its immense shoreless spread, is
wonderful to the young girl from Iowa or interior Wisconsin.

A fresh, keen east wind had arisen, pure and exhilarating, and the
smooth expanse of glittering green-and-blue water stretched out under a
vivid blue sky, in which great clouds floated like snow mountains,
trailing great shadows like robes of state upon the lake.

The curving lake-wall was wet and glistening with the up-flung spray.
The slender elms were fronded at the top like palms, and the vivid green
grass set opposite the pink-gray wall, and the brilliant many-colored
lake in magnificent, harmonious contrast. The girl felt her soul grow
larger as she faced this scene, so strange, so oriental, and she looked
and looked, until it became a part of her.

It was all so remote and so splendid. There the great violet-shadowed
sails of ships stood, as she had seen them in pictures of the sea. There
a gleaming steamer ran, trailing great banners of smoke. There glittered
the white bodies and slant wings of gulls, dipping, upshooting and
whirling. To her eyes this was infinity, and the purple mist in which
the ships drave was ultimate mystery.

At last she turned to look behind her. There on the left stood rows of
immense houses, barred and grated like jails or fortresses; palaces
where lived the mighty ones of Chicago commerce. Before their doors
carriages stood, with attendants in livery, such as she had read about
and had never seen. Up and down the curving ribbon of lavender sand
other carriages were driving, with jingle of silver chains and soft roll
of wheels. The horses flung foam from their bits; they were magnificent
horses (she knew horses as well as any coachman), and their
brass-trimmed harnesses glittered in the sun like burnished gold.

There was no noise here beyond the tread of these stately horses, the
babble of a few soft-voiced children on the grass and the crackling,
infrequent splash of the leaping breakers. It was a wide contrast to the
Chicago of her first glimpses the day before. That side of the city
terrified her, this oppressed and awed her. The social splendor of this
life appealed to her perception as it would not to any man. Her quick
imagination peopled these mansions with beautiful women and lordly men,
and she felt herself rightful claimant of a place among them.

She turned and faced them with set teeth and a singular look in her
half-closed eyes, and in her heart she said: "Before I die I'll go where
I please in this city. I'll be counted as good as any of you--poor as I
am."

To the onlooker--to Mrs. Oliver Frost, she was a girl in a picturesque
attitude; to the coachmen on the carriages she was a possible
nurse-girl; to the policeman she was a speck on the lake-front lawn.

       *       *       *       *       *

Something of this mood was with her still when she went in to dinner
with Mary. Mary ushered the way, beaming with joy. Rose never looked
more beautiful nor more imperious. The Boston man was properly
astonished; the Jew salesman smiled till his chubby face seemed not able
to contain his gladness. Mr. Taylor, a gaunt young man, alone seemed
unmoved; the morose teacher gave a sigh of sad envy.

Rose said little during the meal. She cordially hated Mr. Reed at once.
His Boston accent annoyed her, and his brutal sarcasm upon the West
aroused a new anger in her. She had never listened to such talk before.
It didn't seem possible anybody could disparage the West.

"Civilization stops," he said during the meal, "after you leave the
Hudson riveh."

"Some folks' manners stop after they leave the Hudson river, if they
ever had any," Mary replied, and the Jew cackled joyously.

He defended Chicago. "It is the greatest place to do business in the
world. I'm a New Yorker by birth, but Chicago suits me. I like its
hustle."

"That's the point. It thinks of nothing but hustle," said the Boston
man. "I was speaking of higher things. It lacks the art atmosphere of
Boston and Cambridge."

"It has all the atmosphere I need," said the Jew.

To Rose all this was new. It had not occurred to her to differentiate
the cities sharply from one another. Chicago, to her, was a great city,
a splendid example of enterprise, and it was to be her city, the pride
of the West. To the country mind a city is a great city when it acquires
a million people. Like the young Jew, Rose had not missed any
atmosphere. The tall young man voiced her opinion when he said:

"This finicky criticism don't count. You might just as well talk about
the lack of gondolas and old palaces in Boston. Conditions here are
unexampled. It's a new town and I think a splendid place to live. Of
course you can find fault anywhere."

Rose looked at him with interest. Such precision and unhesitancy of
speech she had not heard since leaving college.

Mary glowed with gratified admiration. The Jew was delighted, although
he did not quite follow the implied rebuke. Miss Fletcher merely said:

"If Mr. Reed don't like Chicago he is privileged to go back to Boston. I
don't think Chicago would experience any shock if he did."

Mr. Reed wilted a little, but he was not crushed.

"The trouble with you people is you don't know anything about any other
city. You come in here from Oshkosh and Kalamazoo, and Okookono--"

"Hit him on the back!" called Mary, "he's choking."

"O-con-o-mo-woc," calmly interpreted Miss Fletcher.

Reed recovered--"And a lot more outlandish places--"

"How about Squantum and Skowhegan and Passamaquoddy," laughed Mary.

Reed collapsed--"O well, those are old, familiar--"

The others shouted with laughter.

"O yes! Everything old and New England goes. You are too provincial, old
boy. You want to broaden out. I've seen a lot of fellows like you come
here, snapping and snarling at Chicago, and end up by being wild
promoters." The Jew was at the bat, and the table applauded every hit.

Rose did not share in the talk--she had so little knowledge of
cities--but it served to make Mr. Taylor a strong figure in her eyes. He
was tall and big-boned and unsmiling. He studied her with absent-minded
interest, and she felt no irritation or embarrassment, for his eyes were
clean and thoughtful. He looked at her as if she called up memories of
some one he had loved in another world, and she somehow grew a little
sad under his gaze.

As they sat in her room after dinner, Mary asked:

"How do you like our crowd?"

"I can't tell yet. I don't like that Boston man. I never could bear the
sound of 'ah'."

"He's a chump; but they ain't all like that. I have met two or three
decent Boston fellows down in the office. Don't think they are all
muffs."

"Of course not."

"Now take my 'boss' for example. He's fine. He's big enough so you don't
mind his airs, but what do you think of Mr. Taylor?"

Rose looked thoughtful, and Mary hastened to say.

"Ain't he fine?" She hoped to forestall criticism.

"Yes, I think he's fine. He makes me think of Professor Jenks."

"A-hugh! so he does me. Say Rose, I'm going to tell you something, don't
you ever tell, will you?"

"Why no--of course not."

"Hope to die?"

"Hope to die, hands crossed."

"Well!"

"Well?"

"I came here to board because _he_ was here."

"Why, Mary Compton!"

"Ain't it awful? Of course, no one knows it but you. I'd just die if he
knew it. I used to be afraid that he'd find out, but he can't, because
you see, he never saw me till I came here, and he thinks it is just
accident. He's so simple about such things anyway, and he's always
dreaming of something away off. O he's wonderful! He's been all over the
mountains. He adores John Muir--you know that man Professor Ellis told
us about? Well, he's lived just that way weeks and weeks in the wildest
mountains, and it's just glorious to hear him tell about it."

Rose was astonished at Mary, generally so self-contained. She talked as
if she had volumes to tell and but short minutes to tell them in. Her
cheeks glowed and her eyes grew deep and dark.

"He's here reading law, but he don't need to work. He's got a share in a
big mine out there somewhere, which he discovered himself. He just
thought he'd try civilization awhile, he said, and so he came to
Chicago. He kind o' pokes around the law school (it's in our
building--that's where I saw him first, in the elevator), just as an
excuse. He hates the law; he told me so. He comes in to see me
sometimes. Of course I leave the door open." She smiled. "But it don't
make any difference to him. He's just the same here as he is anywhere--I
mean he knows how to treat a woman. The school-ma'am said she thought it
was terrible to have a man come into your room--the same room you sleep
in--but I told her it depended on the man. That settled her, for Owen--I
mean Mr. Taylor--don't like her."

Rose listened in silence to this torrent of words from Mary. Her mind
was naturally fictive, and she divined the immense world suggested by
the girl's incoherent sentences. The mysterious had come to her
friend--the "one man of all the world," apparently--a striking
personality, quite suited to Mary, with her practical ways and love of
fun. It confirmed her in her conviction that a girl must adventure into
the city to win a place and a husband.

She rose and put her arms about her friend's neck:

"I'm so glad, Mary."

"O goodness! don't congratulate me. He's never said a word--and maybe he
won't. I can't understand him--anyway it's great fun."

A slow step crossed the hall, and a rap at the door nearly took away
Mary's breath; for a moment she could not reply, then Mr. Taylor's voice
was heard.

"I beg your pardon." He was turning away when Mary sprang up and opened
the door.

"O Mr. Taylor, is it you?"

"Yes--I didn't know but you and your friend would like to go out
somewhere?"

"Would you, Rose?"

"Not tonight, thank you. But you go. Don't keep in on my account."

Mary struggled a moment, then she smiled with tender archness.

"Very well, thank you, Mr. Taylor. I'll be ready soon." After he had
gone she said:

"Perhaps he'll propose!"

Rose glowed sympathetically. "I hope he will."

       *       *       *       *       *

The next day Rose went down town alone. The wind had veered to the
south, the dust blew, and the whole terrifying panorama of life in the
streets seemed some way blurred together, and forms of men and animals
were like figures in tapestry. The grind and clang and clatter and hiss
and howl of the traffic was all about her.

She came upon the river just as the bridge was being opened. Down toward
the lake, which had to her all the wonder and expanse of the sea, boats
lay thickly, steamers from deep water, long, narrow and black. Excursion
boats, gleaming white, and trimmed with shining brass, lay beside the
wharves, and low-lying tugs, sturdy, rowdyish little things, passed by,
floating like ducks and pulling like bull-dogs, guiding great two-masted
sailing boats and long, low, grimy steamers, with high decks at the
ends. The river ran below, gray-green, covered with floating refuse.
Mountainous buildings stood on either side of the waterway.

The draw, as it began to move, made a noise precisely like an old
fashioned threshing machine--a rising howl, which went to her heart like
a familiar voice. Her eyes for a moment released hold upon the scene
before her, and took a slant far over the town to the coulé farm, and
the days when the threshing machine howled and rattled in the yard came
back, and she was rushing to get dinner ready for the crew.

When the bridge returned to its place she walked slowly across, studying
each vista. To the west, other bridges, swarming with people, arched the
stream--on each side was equal mystery. These wonderful great boats and
their grim brave sailors she had read about, but had never seen. They
came from far up the great tumultuous lake, and they were going to
anchor somewhere in that wild tangle of masts and chimneys and towering
big buildings to the west. They looked as if they might go to the ends
of the earth. At the stern of an outgoing boat four sailors were pulling
at a rope, the leader singing a wild, thrilling song in time to the
action.

So it was--the wonderful and the terrifying appealed to her mind first.
In all the city she saw the huge and the fierce. She perceived only
contrasts. She saw the ragged newsboy and the towering policeman. She
saw the rag-pickers, the street vermin, with a shudder of pity and
horror, and she saw also the gorgeous show windows of the great stores.
She saw the beautiful new gowns and hats, and she saw also the curious
dress of swart Italian girls scavenging with baskets on their arms.
Their faces were old and grimy, their voices sounded like the chattered
colloquies of monkeys in the circus.

It all seemed a battlefield. There was no hint of repose or home in it
all. People were just staying here like herself, trying to get work,
trying to make a living, trying to make a name. They had left their
homes as she had, and though she conceived of them as having a foot-hold
she could not imagine them having reached security. The home-life of the
city had not revealed itself to her.

She made her way about the first few blocks below Water street, looking
for Dr. Herrick's address. It was ten o'clock, and the streets were in a
frenzy of exchange. The sidewalks were brooks, the streets rivers of
life which curled into doors and swirled around mountainous buildings.

It was almost pathetic to see how helpless she seemed in the midst of
these alien sounds. It took away from her the calm, almost scornful,
self-reliance which characterized her in familiar surroundings. Her
senses were as acute as a hare's and sluiced in upon her a bewildering
flood of sights and sounds. She did not appear childish, but she seemed
slow and stupid, which of course she was not. She thought and thought
till she grew sick with thought. She struggled to digest all that came
to her, but it was like trampling sand; she apparently gained nothing by
her toil.

The streets led away into thunderous tunnels, beyond which some other
strange hell of sound and stir imaginatively lay. The brutal voices of
drivers of cabs and drays assaulted her. The clang of gongs drew her
attention, now here, now there, and her anxiety to understand each sound
and to appear calm added to her confusion.

She heard crashes and yells that were of murder and sudden death. It was
the crash of a falling bundle of sheet iron, but she knew not that. She
looked around thinking to see some savage battle scene.

She saw women with painted faces and bleached hair whom she took to be
those mysterious and appalling women who sell themselves to men. They
were in fact simple-minded shop girls or vulgar little housewives with
sad lack of taste.

Every street she crossed, she studied, looking both up and down it, in
the effort to see some end of its mystery. They all vanished in lurid,
desolate distance, save toward the lake. Out there she knew, the water
lay serene and blue.

This walk was to her like entrance into war. It thrilled and engaged her
at every turn. She was in the center of human life. To win here was to
win all she cared to have.

It was a relief to pass into the rotunda of the splendid building in
which Dr. Herrick's office was. Outside the war sounded, and around her
men hastened. She entered the elevator as one in a dream. The man
hustled her through the door without ceremony and clanged the door as if
it were a prison gate. They soared to the ninth floor like a balloon
suddenly liberated, and the attendant fairly pushed her out.

"Here's your floor--Herrick, to the left."

Rose was humiliated and indignant, but submitted. The hallway along
which she moved was marble and specklessly clean. On each side doors of
glass with letters in black told of the occupations of the tenants.

She came at length to the half-open door of Dr. Herrick's office and
timidly entered. A young girl came forward courteously.

"Would you like to see the Doctor?" she asked in a soft voice.

"Yes, please. I have a letter to her from Dr. Thatcher of Madison."

"O! well, I will take it right in. Be seated, please."

This seemed good treatment, and the soft voice of the girl was very
grateful after the hoarse war-cries of the street. Rose looked around
the little room with growing composure and delight. It was such a dainty
little waiting room, and argued something attractive in Dr. Herrick.

"Come right in," the girl said on returning. "The Doctor is attending to
her mail, but she will see you for a few moments."

Rose entered the second and larger room, and faced a small graceful
woman, of keen, alert gaze. She appeared to be about thirty-five years
of age. She shook hands briskly, but not warmly.

Her hand was small and firm and her tone quick and decisive.
"How-d'-you-do! Sit down! I had a note from Dr. Thatcher the other day
saying I might expect you."

Rose took a chair while the Doctor studied her, sitting meanwhile with
small graceful head leaning on one palm, her elbow on the corner of her
desk. No woman's eyes ever searched Rose like those of this little
woman, and she rebelled against it inwardly, as Dr. Herrick curtly
asked:

"Well, now, what can I do for you? Dr. Thatcher thought I could do
something for you."

Rose was too dazed to reply. This small, resolute, brusque woman was a
world's wonder to her. She looked down and stammered.

"I don't know--I--thought maybe you could help me to find out what I
could do."

The Doctor studied her for an instant longer. She saw a large,
apparently inexperienced girl, a little sullen and a little
embarrassed--probably stupid.

"Don't you know what you want to do?"

"No--that is, I want to write," confessed Rose.

"Write! My dear girl, every addlepate wants to write. Have you friends
in the city?"

"One; a classmate."

"Man?"

"No, a girl."

"Why did you leave home?"

Rose began to grow angry. "Because I couldn't live the life of a cow or
a cabbage. I wanted to see the city."

The Doctor arose. "Come here a moment." Rose obeyed and stood beside her
at the window, and they looked out across a stretch of roofs, heaped and
humped into mountainous masses, blurred and blent and made appalling by
smoke and plumes of steam. A scene as desolate as a burnt-out volcano--a
jumble of hot bricks, jagged eave-spouts, gas-vomiting chimneys, spiked
railings, glass skylights and lofty spires, a hideous and horrible
stretch of stone and mortar, cracked and seamed into streets. It had no
limits and it palpitated under the hot September sun, boundless and
savage. At the bottom of the crevasses men and women speckled the
pavement like minute larvæ.

"Is _that_ what you came here to see?" asked the Doctor.

Rose drew a deep breath and faced her.

"Yes, and I'm not afraid of it. It's mighty! It is grander than I
expected it to be--grand and terrible, but it's where things are done."

Isabel Herrick studied her a little closer.

"You'd leave your country home for this?"

Rose turned upon her and towered above her. Her eyes flashed and her
abundant eye-brows drew down in a dark scowl.

"Would you be content to spend your life, day and night, summer and
winter, in Dutcher's Coolly?"

"Pardon me," said Dr. Herrick cuttingly, "the problem is not the same. I
have not the same----I----the question----"

"Yes, _you_ who are born in the city and who come up to see us on the
farms for a couple of weeks in June--_you_ take it on yourselves to
advise us to stay there! _You_ who succeed are always ready to
discourage us when we come to try _our_ fortunes. I can succeed just as
well as you, and I'll make you bow your head to me before five years are
gone."

Rose was magnificent, masterful. She was flaming hot with wrath. This
little woman had gone too far.

Dr. Herrick turned abruptly.

"I guess I've made a mistake; sit down again," she said, in softer
tones.

Rose was not yet done. She kept her lofty pose.

"Yes, you certainly have. I am not afraid of this city; I can take care
of myself. I wouldn't be under obligations to you now for the world. I
want you to know I'm not a beggar asking a dollar from you; I'm not a
school-girl, either. I know what I can do and you don't. I wouldn't have
troubled you, only for Dr. Thatcher." She moved toward the door,
gloriously angry, too angry to say good-day.

The Doctor's cold little face lighted up. She smiled the most radiant
smile, and it made her look all at once like a girl.

"My dear--I am crushed. I am an ant at your feet. Come here now, you
great splendid creature, and let me hug you this minute."

Rose kept on to the door, where she turned:

"I don't think I ought to trouble you further," she said coldly.

The Doctor advanced. "Come now, I beg your pardon. I'm knocked out. I
took you for one of those romantic country girls, who come to the
city--helpless as babes. Come back."

Rose came near going on. If she had, it would have lost her a good
friend. She felt that and so, when the Doctor put an arm around her to
lead her back to the desk, she yielded, but she was still palpitating
with the heat of her wrath.

"My dear, you fairly scared me. I never was so taken by surprise in my
life; tell me all about yourself; tell me how you came to come, where
you are--and all about it."

Rose told her--not all, of course--she told her of her college work, of
her father, of the coulé, of her parting from her father.

"O yes," the Doctor interrupted, "that's the way we go on--we new men
and women. The ways of our fathers are not ours; it's tragedy either way
you put it. Go on!"

At last she had the story, told with marvelous unconscious power,
direct, personal, full of appeal. She looked at Rose with reflective
eyes for a little space.

"Well, now we'll take time to consider. Meanwhile bring me something of
yours; I'll show it to a friend of mine, an editor here, and if it
pleases him we'll know what to do. Meanwhile, come and see me, and I'll
introduce you to some nice people. Chicago is full of nice people if you
only come at them. Come and see me tomorrow, can't you? O you great,
splendid creature! I wish I had your inches." She glowed with
admiration.

"Come Sunday at six and dine with me," yielding to a sudden impulse.
"Come early and let me talk to you."

Rose promised and then went out into the waiting room.

"Etta, dear, this is Miss Dutcher; this is my sister. I want you to know
each other." The little girl tip-toed up and took Rose's hand with a
little inarticulate murmur.

There was a patient waiting, but Dr. Herrick ignored her and conducted
Rose to the door.

"Good-bye, dear, I'm glad you came. You've given me a good shaking up.
Remember, six, sharp!"

She looked after Rose with a wonderful glow in her heart.

"The girl is a genius--a jewel in the rough," she thought. "She must be
guided. Heavens! How she towered."

When she stepped into the street Rose felt taller and stronger, and the
street was less appalling. She raised her eyes to the faces of the men
she met. Her eyes had begun their new search. The men streamed by in
hundreds; impressive in mass, but comparatively uninteresting singly.

It was a sad comment upon her changing conceptions of life that she did
not look at the poorly dressed men, the workmen. She put them aside as
out of the question; not consciously, for the search at this stage was
still unconscious, involuntary, like that of a bird seeking a mate,
moved by a law which knows neither individuals nor time.

She saw also the splendor of the shop windows. She had a distinct love
for beautiful fabrics as works of art, but she cared less for dress than
one would suppose to see her pass lingeringly before great luminous
cataracts of drapery. She was quietly dressed, and gracefully dressed,
beyond this she had never cared to go, but she constructed wonderful
homes and owners out of the glimpses of these windows, and from the
passing of graceful young girls, clothed like duchesses, and painted
(some of them) like women of the under world.

It all grew oppressive and disheartening to her at last, and she boarded
a State street car (the only car she knew) and took her way up home. All
the people in the car looked at her as if she had intruded into a
private drawing room.

She was evidently from the country, for, though it was in the day of
quaintness, she wore her hair plain. It was also the middle period of
the curious and inexplicable little swagger which all duly-informed
girls assumed, but Rose walked on her strong elastic feet with a
powerful swing which was worth going miles to see. It was due to her
unconscious imitation of the proud carriage of William De Lisle. She
loved that forward swing of the thigh, with the flex of the side which
accompanied it. It was her ideal of motion, that free action of knee,
waist and neck, which she felt rather than saw in the great athlete.

She made a goodly figure to look at, and it was no especial wonder that
the people in the car faced her. Her forehead was prominent and her eyes
were sombre. It was impossible for the casual observer to define why she
made so marked an impression upon him. It was because she was so fresh
and strong, and unaffected and unconscious.

Pure men did not smile at her as they might at a pretty girl. They
looked at her with wide, quiet eyes, and she knew they meant to be
perfectly respectful. There was one man looking at her like that when
she looked up to pay the conductor. There was a deep sorrowful look in
his eyes, and his face, too, was sad.

She did not understand his mood, but was moved by it. When she looked at
him again he dropped his eyes to his paper. He was a large man of thirty
or more, and had a rugged, serious face. She remembered it long
afterwards.

At lunch she found no one but Mr. Taylor. He loomed up at the further
end of the table, his gaunt, grave face and broad shoulders towering up
like a farmer's. She studied him closely, now that she knew more about
him. He had a big, wide, plain face, with gentle gray eyes. His beard
was trimmed round and made him look older than he was. He was a man into
whose eyes women could look unafraid and unabashed. He greeted Rose with
a smile.

"I'm very glad you've come. I was afraid I should eat lunch alone. With
your permission I'll move down to your end of the table."

Rose was very glad to have him take a seat near, and they were friends
at once. They naturally fell upon Mary as a topic. Mr. Taylor spoke of
her quietly:

"Mary's a fine girl," he said. "I don't like to see her work. I don't
like to see any woman do work like that. I don't claim any right to say
what women shall do or not do, but I imagine they wouldn't go into shops
if they were not, in a way, forced into it."

Rose defended the right of a girl to earn her own living. He hastened to
explain further:

"Of course a woman should be free and independent, but is she free when
pressure forces her into typewriting or working in a sweat-shop?"

Rose turned his thoughts at last by asking about the West. He expanded
like flame at the thought.

"Ah! the old equatorial wind is blowing today, and my hair crackles with
electricity." He smiled as he ran his hands through his hair. "On such
days I long for my pony again. Sometimes, when I can't stand it any
longer, I take a train to some little station and go out and lie flat
down on the grass on my back, so that I can't see anything but sky; then
I can almost imagine myself back again where the lone old peaks bulge
against the sky. Do you know John Muir and Joaquin Miller?"

Rose shook her head. His eyes glowed with enthusiasm.

"There are two men who know the wilderness. Your Thoreau I've read, but
he don't interest me the way these Rocky Mountain fellows do. Your
eastern fellows don't really know a wilderness--they're sort o' back
pasture explorers. John isn't a bit theatrical, he's been there. He
doesn't take a train of guides to explore a glacier, he sticks a crust
of bread in his belt along with a tin cup, and goes alone. I've been
with John in the Sierras, and once he came over into my range."

Rose defended Emerson and Thoreau as if she were the easterner this
Colorado hunter considered her. As she talked he fixed great
absent-minded eyes upon her, and absorbed every line of her face, every
curve of her lips--every changing wave of color.

"I don't care for the wilderness as you do. What is a bird compared to a
man, anyway? I like people. I want to be where dramas are being played.
Men make the world, bears don't." She ended hotly.

He slowly withdrew his gaze.

"I guess you're right." He smiled a wise smile. "If the wilderness had
been everything in the world, I wouldn't be here. A woman is more than a
flower. A woman would make my mountains a paradise."

"You have no right to ask a woman to go there with you--not to stay,"
she added quickly.

His smile passed.

"You're right again. Unless I could find a woman who loves the
wilderness as I do."

"That is out of the question," she replied. "No woman loves the
wilderness--as a home. All women love cities and streets and children."
She had a young person's readiness to generalize, and pitilessly flung
these hopeless truisms at him. He arose, apparently made sadder by them.
He sighed.

"But civilization carries such terrible suffering with it."

Rose went to her room and looked at her other letters of introduction.
Should she present them? What would be the use. The scene with Dr.
Herrick had not been pleasant; true, it had apparently brought her a
friend, but it was a rigorous experience, and she hardly felt it worth
while at the moment to go through another such scene to win another such
friend.

She fell to looking over her manuscripts. They were on lined paper,
stitched together at the top. They were imitative, of course, and leaned
toward the Elizabethan drama, and toward Tennyson and Mrs. Browning, so
far as verse-form went. There were also essays which she had written at
college, which inquired mournfully, who will take the place of the
fallen giants, Bryant, Longfellow, Emerson? She had eloquent studies of
Hugo and valiant defences of Dickens. She reflected in her writing
(naturally) all the conventional positions in literature. She stood upon
the graves of the dead as if she feared they might be desecrated.

She was a pupil, and as a pupil she had considered literature as
something necessarily afar off, in England or France, in Boston and
Cambridge, though she had come to think Chicago might be a place
suitable for a humble beginning, but that it might be the subject of
literature had not occurred to her. She had never known a person who had
written a book. Professor Ellis and the President had written scientific
treatises, but, not being a fool, she knew there was a difference
between getting an article into a country weekly and getting into a big
daily, to say nothing of the great magazines. She wished for advice.
Being out in the world now, something must be done with her writings.

These essays were good and thoughtful, they represented study and toil,
but they did not represent her real self, her real emotions, any more
than her reading represented her real liking. Her emotions, big, vital,
contemporaneous, had no part in this formal and colorless pedantry. Of
this she was still ignorant, however.

She was sorting her poems over and dreaming about them when Mary came
home.

"O, you dear! I've been thinking about you all day. Did you see your
woman doctor?"

"Yes."

"Did you like her?"

"Well, I don't know--yes, I think I do. I didn't at first."

"Where else did you go?"

"Nowhere. I came home to lunch."

"Eat alone?" Mary was taking off her things and was more than usually
fragmentary.

"No. Mr. Taylor was there." Mary faced her.

"Now see here, Rose Dutcher, do you want to break my heart into
smithereens? If you do, you go on lunching with Owen Taylor."

Rose laughed at her tone of simulated sorrow and dismay.

"He moved down to my end of the table, too."

Mary plumped into a chair and stared.

"Well, that finishes me. I'm coming home to lunch after this. If you
prove a _terrater_, I'll have your back hair, Rose Dutcher."

"I couldn't help it. He didn't want to shout at me across the table."

Mary's voice softened.

"What did you talk about?"

"He talked about you."

"Did he? What did he say?"

"He said you were a good girl, and you are."

"Is that all?"

"What more could you ask?"

"He might 'ave praised me beauty!" Then she laughed and rushed at Rose
and hugged her for some reason not expressed.

"Isn't he just grand?"

"I'm going out to dinner Sunday night!"

"Where? Woman doctor's?"

"Yes. I met her sister, too."

"O, you'll soon be getting so swell you won't notice us. Well, anyhow,
you'll leave me Owen?"

       *       *       *       *       *

In the mood in which she went to sleep that night, there was no
premonition of conquest. The tide of her life sank low. It was
impossible for her to succeed--she, a little country girl, of five feet
nine. She looked at her bulk as it showed under the quilts. How small a
thing she was to be set over against the mighty city.

And yet Napoleon was less than she. And Patti and Edwin Booth were not
so large. The life of a great actor, like Edwin Booth, a singer, like
Patti, interested her deeply. She wondered that they could do things
like other people. They were so public, so admired, so lifted into the
white-hot glare of success.

She brought her mind back to the point. They succeeded, small beings
though they were, they faced the millions of the earth and became the
masters, the kings and queens of art.

By what necromancy did they do this? If it was born in them, then there
was hope for her; if they reached it by toil, then, surely, there was
hope for her.



CHAPTER XVII

HER FIRST DINNER OUT


Rose went to see the parts of the city which no true Chicagoan ever
visits. That is to say, she spent Sunday in the park, admiring with
pathetic fortitude the sward, the curving drives, and the bridges and
the statues, in company with the lowly and nameless multitude--she even
crowded in to see the animals.

She had intended to get back to church, conformable to Mary's programme,
which was to start in St. James, and go in rotation to all the great
churches and hear the choirs; but it happened that on this first Sunday
there was a fine west wind, and the three-masters were setting sail to
the north close inshore, and when Rose found she could sit on the park
benches and see those mighty birds sail by she was content to do that
and nothing more.

She had no cheap, easy and damnable comparisons. The passage of each
purple-sailed lumber freighter was a poem to her. They floated
noiselessly, effortlessly, on a beautiful sea of color. They drove like
butterflies in dreams, their motive power indiscernible.

She sat with her chin in her palm, her big eyes, like beautiful windows,
letting in the sunshine and the grace of ships and clouds without
effort, fixed in an ecstasy of reverie. Around her streamed floods of
the city's newly acquired residents, clerks, bookkeepers, typewriters,
shop-girls, butcher's boys, salesmen, all fresh from the small towns and
from the farms of the West. As the ships passed, she gave her attention
to these people--recognized in them many familiar types. There was the
smart young man, son of the tavernkeeper in Cyene. There was the
blundering big wag, Ed Smith of Molasses Gap (assistant shipping clerk
in Smith & Rydal's hardware store now). There were types like Mary,
hearty, loud-voiced, cheery, wholesome, whom the city could never rob of
their native twang. There were Tom and Grace and Elsa and Bert and all
the rest of the bright, restless spirits of the country towns and
wide-awake school districts come to try their fortunes in the great city
like herself.

They wore bargains in ready-made clothing pretty generally, but it was
up-to-date and they were all clean as a new dime. They laughed, shouted
jokes, scuffled and pushed the girls, quite in the good country way.
They made quaint and sometimes insolent remarks about the park and its
adornments, assuming blasé airs as old residents, and pointing out to
the later arrivals the various attractions.

There came by other groups, as alien as the foregoing were familiar.
Dark-skinned, queer, bow-legged, bewhiskered little men, followed by
their wives and children, all sallow and crooked.

They were all foreigners. Great droves, whole neighborhoods drifted
along, chattering unintelligible languages, incomprehensible to the
country girl as the Chinese. Whether they were Italians or Jews or
Bohemians she could not tell, but she could see the marks of hunger and
hard work on their pallid faces. These were, no doubt, the people who
moved about under the murk of that deadly region through which she had
been borne by her train that first night.

She went home from this first visit to the park oppressed and over-borne
with the multitude of her new impressions. She felt quite as she did
upon her return from the Art Institute, to which she had hastened early
in the first week. So much that was artificially beautiful tired her and
irritated her, like eating a meal of honey and sponge cake. Her head
ached with the formal curves of the drives, with the unchanging
fixedness of the statues, just as the unnatural murky tones of the
landscapes in frames gave her vague discomfort.

In the few days between her meeting with Isabel and her dinner she saw
the Wheat Exchange (which interested her mightily, like battle), she
went again to the Art Institute, she visited other parks, she went to
the top of the Masonic Temple, and did many other things which the
native high-class Chicagoan prides himself on never doing. Happily she
apprehended not the enormity of her offence; on the contrary, she was
seeing life, and this feeling compensated her when she did not otherwise
enjoy "a sight." It was a duty, and she felt grateful to the unknown
city officials for the chance to see these things, even if it nearly
broke her neck and tired her out to see them. She looked forward to her
dinner with great interest. She had thought a great deal about Dr.
Herrick, and had come to the conclusion that she was not much to blame.
"I suppose she thought I was a poor helpless ninny coming to ask her for
a job," she said to Mary.

"Well, she couldn't have had much gumption," Mary loyally replied.

Mary came home from a walk with Mr. Taylor on purpose to help Rose "fix
up and get off," but found her quite dressed and watching the clock.

"Well, you are a prompt one! Stand up now, and let me see if you're all
right."

Rose obediently stood and was twirled about in various lights.

"That's fine! That grey dress is such a fit, and scarlet goes well with
it. O, you sweet thing! How're you going to get home?"

"Walk, of course."

"Shall I send Owen over for you?"

They both laughed at her tone.

"O, what a self-sacrificing friend!" Rose exclaimed. "I guess I can walk
home alone. I'm not afraid of the dark."

"O, it ain't that. It would be sweller to have some one come after you."

"Well, you and Owen both come."

"Well, I'll see. If I feel safe by nine-thirty I'll send him. But if
you're not back here by ten o'clock I'll be after ye." This made them
both laugh again.

"Where is this address?"

Rose gave her the card.

"Why, this is away up in the swell part. My, ain't you comin' on!" Mary
clucked with her tongue. "You'll be calling on the Lake Drive soon."

Rose looked neat and altogether well composed in her simple grey dress
and sober-hued bonnet and gloves. She wasn't in the very latest fall
fashion, of course, but she was not noticeably out of vogue. She felt
quite at ease as she walked up the street.

This ease began to desert her as the houses grew larger and the
doorplates more ornate. What if Dr. Herrick lived in one of these
houses! They were not, of course, palatial like those houses on the lake
front, but they looked too grand for any of her friends to live in them.
Her fear of getting tangled in social intricacies grew keener as she
walked up the steps to a large cream-colored brick building. The mystery
of "flats" was to be faced. The entrance was tiled and flecklessly
clean. On the right were three bells, one above the other. Over the
second one she saw Dr. Herrick's name. She pulled the bell and waited
for developments.

Suddenly a hollow voice, hoarse and breathy, pushed from the wall.

"Kim roight up." She turned to the inner door which opened mysteriously,
and a small boy in buttons motioned her to the elevator. She began to
comprehend and felt grateful to the small boy for his considerate
gravity.

At the landing the door was opened by Etta, the pretty little sister.

She said "How-do-you-do!" in her soft, timid little voice, and let Rose
into an exquisite little bedroom off the hall and asked her to lay off
her hat. She stood in awe of Rose, who seemed very large and stern to
her.

Rose felt a little nervous about what was to come after, but contrived
to keep outwardly calm while following her gentle guide out into the
hall and forward into a small reception room. Isabel arose and greeted
her with a smile of delight.

"Ah! here you are! Do you know I began to fear you were mythical--that
I'd dreamed you. Warren, this is Miss Dutcher. Miss Dutcher, Mr. Mason."
A slow, large man stepped forward and looked her in the face with
penetrating eyes. He was a little taller than she was and his face had a
weary look. He was blond as a Norwegian and his voice was very
beautiful.

"I am very glad you're not a myth," he said, and his face lost its tired
look for a moment.

"This is my nephew, Mr. Paul Herrick;" a slim young man came up to shake
hands. He was plainly a college man, and Rose comprehended him at once.

Isabel's voice changed and a little flush came to her face as she put
her hand on the shoulder of a tall, black-bearded man standing quietly
in the shadow.

"This is Dr. Sanborn, my husband-who-is-to-be."

"If nothing happens." He smiled as he shook hands.

"If she doesn't conclude to take me instead," remarked Mason.

Rose had perception enough at command to feel the powerful personalities
grouped about her. She sat near Dr. Sanborn, with whom she was at ease
at once, he was so awkward and so kindly. He took off his glasses and
polished them carefully as if anxious to see her better.

"Isabel tells me you gave her a little lecture the other day. I'm glad
of it. We city folks need it once in a while. We get to thinking that
country folks are necessarily fools and stupids by reason of our
farce-comedies and our so-called comic weeklies."

"We're not so bad as that," said Rose.

"Of course not; nobody could be so bad as that."

Isabel sat down near Mason. "I tell you, Warren, that girl has a future
before her."

"No doubt. It couldn't well be behind her."

"Don't be flippant! See that head! But it ain't that--she has power. I
feel it, she made me feel it. I want you to see some of her writing and
see what can be done for her."

Mason looked bored. "Writes, does she?"

"Of course she writes. See that head, I say."

"I see the head and it's a handsome head. I'll concede that. So is
Sanborn's, but he can't write a prescription without a printed form."

"O well, if you are in the mood to be irreverent!"

Mason's face lighted up. "There, _you_ can write! Anyone who is capable
of a touch like that--in the presence of gods, men should be meek. At
the same time I would hasten to warn you, the Doctor is becoming
marvelously interested in this girl with a future. He has faced her; he
is actually touching her knee with his forefinger!"

Isabel laughed. "He always does that when he argues anything. It won't
do any harm."

"It mightn't do you any harm, but that innocent country girl!"

"She can take care of herself. You should have heard her put me down in
my chair. I want you to take her in to dinner."

"I--madam? Etta is my choice, after the hostess, of course. I'm a little
shy of these girls who write."

"Well, you take me in and I'll let Paul take Rose, but I want her to sit
by you. I invited you, of all the men of my vast acquaintance, because I
hoped your trained and fictive eye would see and appreciate her."

"My trained and fictive eye is regarding her, but maybe she is like an
impressionist painting, better seen at a little distance. I confess she
is attractive at this focus, but O, if her mind--!"

"You need not worry about her mind. She's a genius. Well, I guess
Professor Roberts is not coming. Suppose we go in!"

"Aren't we rather formal tonight?"

"Well, yes, but Dr. Sanborn had no dinner in the middle of the day so I
transferred ours."

"I'm glad you did, for I'm hungry too."

And so it happened Rose found herself seated beside the big blond man
whose face seemed so weary and so old. Paul sat on her left, and they
chatted easily on college affairs. He was from Ann Arbor, he told her.

Rose looked with wonder at Dr. Herrick. She was quite another woman,
entirely unprofessional. Her face was warm with color, and she wore an
exquisite dress, simple as a uniform, yet falling into graceful soft
folds about her feet. Her brown hair was drawn about her pretty head in
wavy masses. Her eyes sparkled with the pleasure and pride of being
hostess to such company. Altogether she looked scarcely older than Rose.
The table was set with tall candles with colored shades, and the simple
little dinner was exquisitely served. At the same time it all seemed
artificial and unhomelike to Rose. The home which had no cellar and no
yard was to her false, transitory and unwholesome no matter how lovely
the walls might be. Air seemed lacking and the free flow of electricity.
It was like staying in a hotel.

Mason turned to her after a little talk with Etta.

"And so _you_ have joined the stream of fortune-seekers setting always
to the city. Do you feel yourself to be a part of a predestinated
movement?"

"I did not when I started--I do now."

"That's right. This is the Napoleon of cities. A city of colossal vices
and colossal virtues. It is now devouring, one day it will begin to send
back its best arterial blood into the nation. My metaphor is a bit
questionable but that is due to my two minds concerning this salad--I
alternately curse and bow down in wonder before this city. Its future is
appalling to think of. In 1920 it will be the mightiest center of the
English speaking race--thank you, I'll not take any more dressing--I
envy you young people who come now when the worst of the fight against
material greed is nearly over. We who have given twenty years of our
lives--I beg your pardon. I don't know why I should moralize for your
benefit--I meant to say I hope you have not come to Chicago to make your
living."

"Why yes--I hope to--but my father gives me a little to live on till I
find something to do."

"That's good. Then sit down and watch the city. It doesn't matter how
humble your living place--sit above the city's tumult. Observe it, laugh
at it but don't fight it--don't mix in the grind. Keep it in your brain,
don't let it get into your blood."

Rose looked at him in wonder, his voice was so quiet and his words so
vibrant with meaning.

"I never felt so drawn to a woman in my life," Isabel said to her
betrothed. "I don't pretend to understand it. I just love her this
minute."

"With due qualifications I can agree with you, my dear. She is very
promising indeed."

"She has the power that compels. I wish she'd get hold of Mason." Isabel
smiled wisely: "You see Mason is really listening to her now, and poor
Etta is left alone. I wish Professor Roberts were here. He's such good
fun for her. Before the evening's out every man in the house will be
around that Wisconsin girl, and I don't blame 'em a bit."

A little later the maid announced Professor Roberts.

"Ah! bring him right in, Mary!"

A cheery voice was heard in the hallway.

"Don't rise, I'll find a place somewhere. I am delinquent I know; what's
this--a roast?"

"Now don't you pretend to be starving just to please me; this Sunday
evening dinner was given for me especially," said Sanborn.

"Hungry? Of course I'm hungry. I've come all the way from Fifty-second
street."

Professor Roberts was a middle-aged man, with a chin whisker. He had a
small, elegant figure, and his eyes were humorous.

Everybody took on new life the moment he came in.

"The fact is I got bridged," he explained, after being introduced to
Rose.

"All from living on the south side," said Paul.

"I know--I know! However, _somebody_ must live on the south side, and so
I stay to keep up the general average."

"How modest and kind of you!"

"Professor belongs to the University settlement--down near the Indiana
line," explained Paul to Rose.

"Anybody'd think, to hear you north siders talk, that Fifty-second
street was at the uttermost parts of the earth."

"It is."

"Well, we don't have weekly burglaries on our side."

"We no longer sing 'Lily Dale' and the Sankey hymns up here."

All this banter was amusing to Rose. It opened to her the inner social
landmarks of the city. She didn't know before that there was a west side
and a north side to the city.

Professor Roberts bubbled over with fun. He was curiously like some of
the men Rose had known at Bluff Siding. His chin whiskers, his mirthful
eyes, and his hearty laughter were familiar as a dandelion. What could
he be professor of, she thought--and asked her neighbor.

Paul told her. "He's professor of geology and paleontology, and knows,
besides, a tremendous lot about bugs and animals. He made a trip up into
the Yukon country last year. He was gone eighteen months, with no one
but a couple of Indian guides. He's a big fellow, for all he's so jolly
and everyday in his manners."

The talk that went on was a revelation to the country girl. The three
men addressed themselves to Isabel, and every conceivable subject
received some sort of mention. Roberts joked incessantly, and Dr.
Sanborn held him a good second, while Mason said the most enigmatical
things in his smooth, melodious bass. His face lost its heavy look under
the eyes, and his smile was very attractive--though he never laughed.

Rose sat with the other young people, absorbed in the touch and go,
brilliancy and fun of the talk. It was wonderful to Rose that one little
woman could sit so masterful and at ease before three such keen
conversationalists as these men seemed to her.

After dinner they took on a quieter tone. Mason asked the privilege of
ruminating over his coffee and cigar.

"Ruminate, yes; but don't make it an excuse for going to sleep," said
Isabel. "You must wake up at any rate and tell us a story before the
evening is over."

She got Roberts started on his recent trip to see the Indian snake dance
at Walpi, and they listened breathlessly till he rounded up safely
half-an-hour later. Then Dr. Sanborn was called upon.

"Come, Doctor, we must have your song!"

"His song!" exclaimed Roberts.

"_One_ song?" asked Mason.

"One song alone is all he knows, and the only way he acquired that was
by damnable iteration. It was a cheerful lay sung by his nurse in the
hospital during a spell of brain fever," explained Isabel.

"Is this thing unavoidable?" asked Mason in illy concealed apprehension.

"Thus we earn our dinner," replied Roberts. "To what length this love of
food will carry a man!"

"Well, let's have the agony over at once."

The Doctor lifted his tall frame to the perpendicular as if pulled by a
string, and, marching to the piano, waited for Etta to play the chords.
His face was expressionless, but his eyes laughed.

His voice shook the floor with the doleful cadences of a distressing
ballad about a man who murdered his wife because she was "untrew," and
was afterwards haunted by a "figger in white with pityous eyes and
cries." He eventually died of remorse and the ballad ended by warning
all men to refrain from hasty judgments upon their wives.

"Amen! So say we all!" Professor Roberts heartily agreed. A lively
discussion was precipitated by Mason, who said "the man must be judged
by the facts before him at the time the deed was done, not afterwards.
I've no doubt there are wives whose murder would be justifiable
homicide."

Isabel interrupted it at last by saying: "That will do, that is quite
enough. You are on the road to vituperation."

"Miss Dutcher, you will sing for us, won't you?"

"O, I don't sing." Rose turned upon her in terror.

"Really and truly?"

"Really and truly."

"Then you play?"

"I have no accomplishments at all. All the music I can make is a whistle
and a jewsharp, I assure you."

This set Roberts off. "Ah! _La Belle Siffleuse!_ we will hear you
whistle. Dr. Sanborn, Miss Dutcher can whistle."

Rose shrank back. "O, I can't whistle before company; I learned on the
farm, I was alone so much."

They fell upon her in entreaties, and at last she half promised.

"If you won't look at me--"

"Turn down the gas!" shouted Roberts.

They made the room dim. There was a little silence, and then into the
room crept a keen little sweet piping sound. It broadened out into a
clear fluting and entered upon an old dance tune. As she went on she put
more and more go into it, till Roberts burst out with a long-drawn nasal
cry, "Sash-ay all!" and Rose broke down into a laugh. Everybody shouted
"Bravo!"

Roberts exulted. "O, but I'd like to see an old-fashioned country dance
again. Give us another old-fashioned tune."

"I don't know that I do them right," said Rose. "I hear the fiddlers
playing them."

"More! more!" cried Roberts. "I like those old things. Mason here
pretends not to know them, but he's danced them many a time."

Rose whistled more of the old tunes. "Haste to the Wedding," "Honest
John," "Polly Perkins," and at last reached some fantastic furious
tunes, which she had caught from the Norwegian fiddlers.

Then she stopped and they turned up the light. She looked a little
ashamed of her performance, and Isabel seemed to understand it, so she
said:

"Now that is only fooling, and I'm going to ask Miss Dutcher to read
some of her verses to us. Dr. Thatcher writes me that she does verses
excellently well." This sobered the company at once, as it well might,
and Rose was in despair.

"O no, don't ask me to do that, please."

"This is your chance, rise to it," insisted Isabel.

"If you will I'll sing my song again for you," Sanborn said.

At last Rose gave up resistance. Her heart beat so terribly hard she
felt smothered, but she recited a blank verse poem. It was an echo of
Tennyson, of course, not exactly "Enoch Arden," but reminiscent of it,
but the not too critical taste of Dr. Sanborn and Prof. Roberts accepted
it with applause.

Mason stole a sly look at Isabel, who did not give up. She asked for one
more and Rose read a second selection, a spasmodic, equally artificial
graft, a supposedly deeply emotional lyric, an echo of Mrs. Browning,
with a third line which went plumping to the deeps of passion after a
rhyme. It had power in it, and a sort of sincerity in the reading which
carried even Isabel away--besides that, her magnificent figure was a
poem in itself.

"What a voice you have!" she said as she seized her by the hands. "You
read beautifully--and you write well, too."

Rose noticed that Mr. Mason, the large man, said nothing at all. In the
midst of the talk the maid approached Isabel.

"Some one has called for Miss Dutcher." Every one shook hands with her
cordially; they received her as an equal, that was evident.

Isabel went in with Rose to help her put on her things.

"My dear, you've pleased them all and I've just fallen in love with you.
I'm going to have you at the Woman's Club. You must come and see me.
Come often, won't you?"

"I shall be glad to," Rose said simply, but her face was flushed and her
eyes shining with joy.

Owen was outside in the hall alone.

"Didn't Mary come too?"

"No, she concluded it would look awkward if she came and stood outside
the door."

They walked along side by side. Taylor considered it an affectation to
offer a strong young woman his arm, except at critical passages of the
street.

"Did you have a good time?"

"O splendid!" she said, the joy of her social success upon her. "It was
lovely! I never met such fine people. Everything was so full of fun and
they were intellectual, too. Dr. Herrick is wonderful! Mr. Mason, too."

"What Mr. Mason?"

"Warren Mason, I think they call him."

"Is that so? Warren Mason is considered one of the finest newspaper men
in the city. All the fellows look up to him."

"I'm glad I met him. O, now I see! Dr. Herrick invited him there to hear
me read. I made a failure, I'm afraid."

She thought so more and more as the rose color of her little triumph
grew gray. She ended by tossing to and fro on her bed, raging to think
how foolishly she had acted. The long poem was bad, she saw it now. It
was involved and twisted and dull. She saw Mason's face darken again,
and it seemed now it wore a look of disgust.

And the whistling! Good heavens, was there no limit to her folly, her
childishness?

So she writhed and groaned, her hopes all pathetically trampled and
dust-covered now. Everybody would hear of her idiocy. She had been so
determined to do something worth while, and she had read her worst
lines, and whistled--whistled like a cow-boy.

The houses of the Lake Shore seemed like impenetrable castles in the
deep of her despair, and Mason's words about the city grew each moment
deeper in meaning.

       *       *       *       *       *

After Rose left, Dr. Herrick came back into the room radiant.

"There, what do you think of her? Am I crazy or not? I claim to have
discovered a genius."

"My dear, seems to me Thatcher has a prior claim."

"Well, anyhow, she _is_ a genius. Don't you think so, Warren?"

"She can whistle."

"O, don't be so enigmatical, it is out of place. She's got power. You
can't deny that."

"Time enough to say what she can do when she finds out what polly-rot
she is writing now. The whistling interested me," he added,
malevolently.

Isabel's face darkened a little.

"I understand, this is one of your prank nights. But I shall not allow
it to affect me. You cannot sneer down that beautiful girl."

"I'm not sneering her down. I am merely indicating where she needs help.
She is a glorious creature physically and she's keen mentally--morally,
no doubt, she's well instructed--after the manner of country girls--but
esthetically she's in a sorrowful way. Taste is our weak point in
America, and in the rural regions--well, there isn't any taste above
that for shortcake, dollar chromos and the New York _Repository_."

"He's started, he's off!" said Roberts. "Now, I like the girl's verses;
they are full of dignity and fervor, it seems to me."

"Full of fever, you mean. You specialists in nerve diseases and spotted
bugs wouldn't know a crass imitation of Tennyson if you had it in a
glass vial. It's such poor creatures as you who keep these young writers
imitating successes. The girl has a fine roll of voice and a splendid
curve of bust, and that made the stuff she read, poetry--to
impressionable persons."

"Oh! Oh! Oh!" chorused the young people.

"Roberts, you are a sensualist," Sanborn interposed gravely.

Mason imperturbably proceeded.

"The girl has power of some sort. I rather suspect it to be dramatic,
but that's mimetic and of a low order, anyway. Her primary distinction,
with me, consists in something quite other than these. The girl has
character, and that's saying a good deal about a woman, especially a
girl. She has departed widely from the conventional type without losing
essential womanliness."

"Ah, now we are coming at it!" they all exclaimed, as they drew around
him, with exaggerated expressions of interest.

"The girl is darkly individual, and very attractive because of it; but
you make of her a social success, as I can see Isabel is planning to do,
and get her to wearing low-necked dresses and impoverishing her people,
and you'll take all the charm out of her."

"I don't believe it!" said Isabel.

"It hasn't hurt Dr. Herrick," put in Roberts. "I must say I'd like to
see the girl in a low-necked dress"--he waved his hand to hold them in
check. "Now, hold on! I know that sounds bad, but I mean it all right."

"Oh, no doubt!" They laughed at his embarrassment.

Mason interposed. "Roberts' long stay among the Wallapi and Tlinkit
wigwams has perverted his naturally moral nature."

Roberts shook his hands in deprecation, but made no further protest.

Sanborn said: "It's a serious thing to advise a girl like that. What do
you intend to do, Isabel? Is a social success the thing the girl needs?"

"It won't do her any harm to meet nice people--of course, she ought not
to go out too much if she's going to write."

"You amuse me," Mason began again, in his measured way. "First because
you assume that the girl can go where she pleases--"

"She can, too, if she's got the quality we think she has. Chicago
society isn't the New York four hundred. We're all workers here."

"Workers and thieves," Mason went on; "but if the girl has the quality I
think she has, she will map out her own career and follow it
irresistibly. The question that interests me is this--how did the girl
get here? Why didn't she stay on the farm like Susan, and Sally, and Ed
and Joe? How did she get through college without marrying Harry or
Tommy? These are the vital questions."

"I don't know," replied Isabel. "I thought of those things, but of
course I couldn't ask her on first acquaintance."

Mason lifted his eye-brows. "Ah! You drew the line at love and marriage.
Most women--"

Isabel resented this.

"I'm not 'most women'--I'm not even a type. Don't lecture me, please."

"I beg your pardon, Isabel; you're quite right." His tone was sincere,
and restored peace. "I always except you in any generalization."

"This is the most significant thing of all," Isabel said finally. "The
girl has set us talking of her as if she were a personage, instead of a
girl from a Wisconsin valley--"

"That's true," Mason admitted. "She's of the countless unknown hundreds
of the brightest minds from the country, streaming into the city side by
side with the most vicious and licentious loafers of the towns. It
leaves the country dull, but moral. The end is not yet. In the end the
dull and moral people survey the ruined walls of the bright and
vicious."

"And the dull and the moral are prolific," Sanborn put in.

"Precisely, and they can eat and sleep, which gives them long life and
vast stomachs."

Roberts sprang up, "I propose to escape while I can. Mason is wound up
for all night." There was a little bustle of parting, and eventually
Sanborn and Mason walked off together.

"It's no time to go to sleep. Come to my room and smoke a pipe,"
suggested Mason. "I'm in a mood to talk if you're in a mood to listen."

Sanborn was a modest fellow, who admired his friend. "I am always ready
to listen to you," he said.

"Probably that is your amiable weakness," Mason dryly responded.



CHAPTER XVIII

MASON TALKS ON MARRIAGE


Men are not easily intimate. They confide in each other rather seldom.
Of love and marriage coarse men speak with sneers and obscene jests. Of
these deep themes serious men speak in hints, with apologetic smiles, as
if they were betraying a weakness, seldom going to any length of
statement. They express their meaning in broken sentences--in indirect
statements.

Sanborn had known Mason for some years. They were both from the country;
Mason from a small interior town in Illinois, Sanborn from Indiana.
Mason was an older man than Sanborn, and generally presumed upon it,
also upon Sanborn's reticence.

They rode up the elevator in the Berkeley flats in silence, and in
silence they removed their coats and filled their pipes, and took seats
before the fire. Mason was accustomed to say he supported two rooms and
an open grate fire, and he regretted it was not cold enough to have the
grate lighted for that evening.

They sat some minutes in smoke. Mason sitting low in his chair, with
face in repose, looked old and tired, and Sanborn was moved to say:

"Mason, I'm going to ask you a plump question: Why don't you get
married? You're getting old."

"I've tried to."

"What! tried to?"

"Exactly."

"That is incredible!"

"It is the fact," replied the older man, placidly.

Sanborn did not believe it. He knew Mason to be somewhat seclusive in
his life, but he also knew the high place he held in the eyes of several
women.

Mason went on finally, in his best manner, as Sanborn called it.

"For ten years I've been trying to marry, and I've been conscientious
and thorough in my heart, too."

Sanborn was violently interested. He drew a long breath of smoke.

"What seems to be the matter?"

"Don't hurry me. For one thing, I suppose I've gone too far in my
knowledge of women. I've gone beyond the capability of being bamboozled.
I see too much of the ropes and props that do sustain the pasteboard
rosetree."

"That is flat blasphemy," put in Sanborn. "I know more about women than
you do, and--"

"I don't mean to say that women deceive in a base way--often they are
not intentionally deceptive; but hereditarily-transmitted, necessarily
defensive wiles lead them to turn their best side toward men. Before I
was thirty I could still call upon a young woman without observing she
received me in a room shadowed to conceal her crows-feet. The
pre-arranged position of the chairs and color of the lamp-shade did not
trouble me."

He seemed to pause over some specific case. "And once I believed a girl
wore a patch on her chin to conceal a sore. Now I know she does it to
locate a dimple. I know perfectly well what any young woman would do if
I called upon her tomorrow. She would take a seat so that the softest
shadows would fall over her face. If she had good teeth she would smile
often. If her teeth were poor she would be grave. If her arms were fair
her sleeves would be loose, if they were thin she'd wear ruffles. If she
had a fine bosom her dress would be open a little at the neck--"

"O look here, Mason!" Sanborn interrupted, "I can't listen to such
calumny without protest."

"I don't mean to say that all this would be conscious. As a matter of
fact it is innocent and unintentional. A woman does not deliberately
say: 'I have a dimple, therefore I will smile.' She inherited the
dimples and the smile from a long line of coquettes. Women are painfully
alike from generation to generation. It's all moonshine and misty sky
about their infinite variety."

"Suppose I grant that--who's to blame? mind you I don't grant it--but
suppose I do, for argument."

"You are a lover and a fortunate man. You have in Isabel a woman of
character. Mark you! These wiles and seductions on the part of women
were forced upon them. I admit that they have been forced to use them in
defense for a million years. Had they been our physical superiors
unquestionably the lying graces would have been ours. At the same time
it doesn't help me. I can't trust such past-masters in deceit, albeit
they deceive me to my good."

"Are we not deceptive also? It seems to me the same indictment would
hold regarding men."

"Undoubtedly--but we are not now under indictment. You asked me a
question--I am answering it." This silenced Sanborn effectually. Mason
refilled his pipe and then resumed:

"Again, I can't seem to retain a vital interest in any given case--that
is to say, an exclusive interest."

"That is a relic of polygamy," Sanborn said. "I imagine we all have
moments when we feel that old instinct tumbling around in our blood."

"I meet a woman today who seems to possess that glamour which the
romantic poets and high-falutin novelists tell us the woman of our
choice must have. I go home exulting--at last I am to reach the mystic
happiness marriage is supposed to bring. But tomorrow I meet her and the
glamour is faded. I go again and again, every spark of electric aureole
vanishes; we get to be good friends, maybe--nothing more."

"Perhaps a friendship like that is the best plane for a marriage. Isabel
and I have never pretended to any school-boy or school-girl sentiment."

Mason replied in such wise Sanborn did not know whether to think him
bitterly in earnest or only lightly derisive.

"That would overturn all the sentiment and love-lore of a thousand
years. It would make every poet from Sappho down to Swinburne a
pretender or a madman. Such ideas are supreme treason to all the
inspired idiots of poetry. No! glamour we must have."

Sanborn smiled broadly, but Mason did not see him.

"So I say, marry young or marry on the impulse, or you'll come at last
to my condition, when no head wears an aureole."

"I wonder what started you off on this trail, Mason?"

Mason pushed on resolutely:

"I have become interested and analytical in the matter. I follow up each
case and catalogue it away. This failure due to a distressing giggle;
that to an empty skull; this to a bad complexion; that to a too ready
sentiment. If I could marry while the glamour lasts! I admit I have met
many women whose first appeal filled me with hope; if I might contrive
to marry then it might be done once for all. That, of course, is
impossible, because no woman, I am forced to admit, would discover any
seductive glamour in a taffy-colored blond like me. My glamour comes out
upon intimate acquaintance."

"Perhaps the glamour needed could be developed on closer acquaintance
with women who seem plain at first sight."

"Possibly! But I can't go about developing glamour in strange, plain
women. They might not understand my motives."

Sanborn laughed dismally.

"Then the case seems to me hopeless."

"Precisely. The case seems hopeless. After ten years careful study of
the matter I have come to the conclusion that I was born to something
besides matrimony. Cases of glamour get less and less common now, and I
foresee the time when the most beautiful creature in the world will
possess no glamour."

Sanborn imaginatively entered into this gloomy mood. "Nothing will then
remain but death."

"Exactly! Peaceful old age and decay. But there are deeper deeps to this
marriage question, as I warn you now on the eve of your venture. I find
in myself a growing inability to conceive of one woman in the light of
an exclusive ideal, an ideal of more interest than all the world of
women. I am troubled by the 'possible woman.'"

"I don't quite conceive----"

"I mean the woman who might, quite possibly, appeal to me in a more
powerful and beautiful way than the one I have. I am not prepared as I
approach the point to say I will love and cherish till death. In the
unknown deeps of life there are other women, more alluring, more
beautiful still. So I must refuse to make a promise which I am not sure
I can keep."

"Isabel and I have agreed to leave that out of our ceremony," said
Sanborn; "also the clause which demands obedience from her."

"I am watching you. If your experiment succeeds, and I can find a woman
as fine and sensible and self-reliant--but there again my confounded
altruism comes in. I think also of the woman. Ought I to break into the
orderly progress of her life? I can't afford to throw myself away, I
can't afford to place a barrier between me and the 'possible woman,'
and, per contra, neither can the woman afford to make a mistake; it
bears harder upon women than it does upon men. When the glorious
'possible woman' comes along I want to be free. So the woman might
reasonably want to be free when the ideal man comes along."

"If you really love, these considerations would not count."

Mason waved a silencing palm.

"That will do. I've heard those wise words before. I am ready to be
submerged in such excluding emotions."

"Mason," said Sanborn, "one of two things I must believe: Either that
you have fallen in love with that superb country girl tonight or you've
been giving me a chapter from your new novel."

Mason looked around with a mystic gleam in his eyes.

"Well, which is it?"



CHAPTER XIX

ROSE SITS IN THE BLAZE OF A THOUSAND EYES


Life quickened for the coulé girl. She accommodated herself to the pace
of the daily papers with instant facility. She studied the amusement
columns, and read the book reviews, and frequented the beautiful
reading room of the Newberry library. She went to all the matinees,
taking gallery tickets, of course, ever mindful of her slender
resources--studying as truly, as intently, as if she were still at
college.

She had told her father that three hundred dollars would carry her
through till June, and she was determined it should do so. She had not
begun to think of any work to do beyond her writing. Her mind was still
in unrest--here life's problem was seemingly more difficult of solution
than ever.

She took hold upon the city with the power of a fresh mind capable of
enormous feeling and digesting. She seemed to be in the world at last,
plunged in it, enveloped by it, and she came to delight in the roar and
tumult of it all, as if it were the sound of winds and waters; and each
day she entered upon a little wider circle of adventure. Once the first
confusion was past, the movement and faces of the crowds were of endless
interest to her. She walked down into the city every day, returning to
her little nook in the noisy flat building, as the young eagle to its
eerie above the lashing tree-tops. She was sitting above the tumult, as
Mr. Mason had advised her to do.

She came soon to know that the west side of State street was tabooed by
wealthy shoppers, who bought only on the east side; that Wabash avenue
was yet more select, and that no one who owned a carriage ever traded in
the bargain stores. She did all her shopping there because it was
cheaper, but deep in her heart she felt no kinship with the cross,
hurrying, pushing, perspiring crowds in the bargain stores. Her place
was among the graceful, leisurely, beautifully attired groups of people
on the east side of State street. She was not troubled at this stage of
her development by any idea of being faithful to the people of her own
material condition and origin. She had always loved the graces and
cleanlinesses of life, and her father, she knew to be a man of innate
refinement. The idea of caste, of arbitrary classes of people, had only
come to her newly or obscurely through newspapers or novels. She did not
like dirty people, nor surly people, nor boorish people. In fact, she
did not class people at all; they were individuals with her yet. She was
allured by the conditions of life on the Lake Shore Drive because the
people lived such quiet, clean and joyous lives apparently, with time to
think and be kind.

She met few people outside of the little circle at the boarding house,
and an occasional visiting friend of Miss Fletcher or Mr. Taylor. Owen
she saw much of, and he pleased her greatly. He was a man she could have
married under some circumstances. He had means a plenty; he was an
unusual character, clean-souled, almost elemental in his simple
sincerity, but she considered him committed to Mary, and, besides, Mason
had become a deterring cause, though she hardly realized that.

Through all the days which followed that evening at Dr. Herrick's she
saw his face with growing distinctness. It was not a genial face, but it
was one to remember, a face of power. The line of the lips, the
half-averted chin, marked Mason's attitude to be one of disgust or
weariness. He was the most powerful man she had ever known, a man of
critical insight, and for that reason especially she had sought in her
last reading to please him. She had failed, and so she was afraid to see
him again. When Isabel said to her:

"Mason is a man you should know. He can do a great deal for you in the
city," Rose replied in her blunt fashion:

"I don't want him to do anything for me."

"O yes, you do! He's really a kind-hearted man. He puts on a manner
which scares people sometimes, but he's a man of the highest character.
He's the greatest thinker I ever met--O I'm not disloyal to Dr. Sanborn,
he's the _best_ man I ever met." There was a story in that tender
inflection. "So you must let me send in something to Warren, and let him
advise you."

Rose finally consented, but it seemed to her like laying an only child
upon the rack. She had come almost to fear, certainly to dread, that
strange, imperturbable man. His abiding-place and his office were alike
so far removed from any manner of living she had knowledge of. He
concealed his own likes and dislikes so effectually that not even Isabel
(as she confessed) could learn them.

A few days after putting her packet of poems into Isabel's hands Rose
received a note from her asking her to come over and see her--that she
had an invitation for her.

"We are invited, you and Dr. Sanborn and I, to sit in a box at the
symphony concert Saturday night, with Mr. and Mrs. Harvey. Mrs. Harvey
is one of my dearest friends, and I've talked about you so much she is
eager to see you."

Rose took the matter very quietly. She was mightily pleased, but she was
not accustomed to gushing her thanks; besides, she had recovered her
equilibrium.

Isabel was a little surprised at her coolness, but was keen enough to
see that she did not mean to be ungrateful.

"I thought perhaps you'd like to advise about dress," she said. "The
boxes are very brilliant, but you'll look well in anything. You won't
need a bonnet, your hair is so pretty, and that little grey dress will
do, with a little change."

"You know I'm a farmer's daughter," Rose explained; "I can't afford new
dresses in order to go to the opera."

"I understand, my dear. I have my own limitations in that way. I keep
one or two nice gowns and the rest of the time I wear a uniform. I told
Mrs. Harvey you were poor like myself, and that we'd need to be the
background for her, and she said she'd trust me."

What Mrs. Harvey had said was this: "My dear Isabel, you've got
judgment, and if you say the girl's worth knowing I want to know her.
And if you say the girl will be presentable I'd like to have her come.
The boys are both in New York, anyway, and we've got three unoccupied
seats."

"Now you come over to dinner with me Saturday; come at five. I want you
to help me dress. Doctor will be over, and we'll have a nice time before
the carriage comes."

Rose was much more elated than she cared to show. Once as she sat in the
gallery of the theatre and looked at the boxes she had shut her teeth in
a vow: "I'll sit there where you do, one of these days!" and now it had
come in a few weeks instead of years--like a fairy gift. She told Mary
nothing about her invitation for several days. She dreaded her outcry,
which was inescapable.

"Oh! isn't that fine! How you _do_ get ahead--what will you wear?"

"I haven't a bewildering choice," Rose said. "I thought I'd wear my grey
dress."

"Oh, this is a wonderful chance for you! Can't you afford a new dress?"

"No, I'm afraid not. There isn't time now, anyway. I'll keep close to
the wall. Fortunately I have a new cloak that will do."

"Well, that grey dress is lovely--when it's on you."

Rose hated the bother about the dress.

"I wish I could wear a dress suit like a man," she said to Isabel when
they were in the midst of the final stress of it.

"So do I, but we can't. There's a law against it, I believe. Now I'm
going to dress your hair for you. That is, I'm going to superintend it
and Etta's deft little fingers shall do the work."

After dinner, Isabel ordered things cleared and said to Sanborn:

"Doctor, you go and smoke while we put on our frills."

Sanborn acquiesced readily enough.

"Very well--if you find me gone when you come forth, don't worry. I've
gone ahead with my friend Yerkes. Your carriage will be full anyhow."

"All right." She went over and gave him a hug. "You're a good, obedient
boy--that's what you are!"

He spoke (with his chin over her wrist) addressing Rose:

"The study of chemicals and nerve tissues has not left us utterly
desolate, you perceive."

When they were in their dressing room, Rose asked what the Doctor meant
by that speech.

Isabel laughed and colored a little:

"Oh, he meant that a study of bones and muscles and diseased bodies had
not made us prosaic and--and old. I think it has made me still more in
love with healthy human flesh--but never mind that now; we must hurry."

Rose looked at Isabel in silent worship as she stood before her ready
for the carriage. Her, ordinarily, cold little face glowed with color,
and her eyes were full of mirthful gleams like a child's. It seemed
impossible that she had written a treatise on "Nervous Diseases," and
was ranked among the best alienists in the city.

Etta made no secret of her adoration. She fairly bowed down before her
sister and before Rose also. She was so little and so commonplace before
these beings of light.

Down at the carriage it was too dark to see any one distinctly, but Rose
liked the cordial, hearty voice of Mrs. Harvey. Mr. Harvey's hand was
small and firm, Mrs. Harvey's plump and warm. Mr. Harvey spoke only once
or twice during the ride.

As the carriage rumbled and rolled southward at a swift pace, Rose kept
watch out of the window. The street had not lost a particle of its power
over her.

As they plunged deeper into the city, and the roll of other carriages
thickened around them, the importance of this event grew upon Rose. She
was bewildered when they alighted, but concealed it by impassivity, as
usual. The carriages stood in long rows waiting to unload. Others were
rolling swiftly away; doors slammed; voices called, "All right!" A
mighty stream of people was entering the vast arched entrance, with
rustle of garments and low murmur of laughing comment. Rose caught the
flash of beautiful eyes and the elusive gleam of jewels on every side,
as the ladies bowed to their acquaintances.

Everything was massive, and spacious and enduring. The entrance way was
magnificent, and Rose followed Mr. Harvey as if in a dream. They took a
mysterious short cut somewhere, and came out into a narrow balcony,
which was divided into stalls. Through arched openings Rose caught
glimpses of the mighty hall, immense as a mountain cave, and radiant as
a flower.

As they moved along, Mrs. Harvey turned to Isabel.

"She'll do; don't worry!"

At their box Mr. Harvey paused and said, with a pleasant smile:

"Here we are."

Dr. Sanborn met them, and there was a bustle getting wraps laid away.

"You sit here, my dear," said Mrs. Harvey. She was a plump, plain,
pleasant-voiced person, and put Rose at ease at once. She gave Rose the
outside seat, and before she realized it the coulé girl was seated in
plain view of a thousand people, under a soft but penetrating light.

She shrank like some nocturnal insect suddenly brought into sunlight.
She turned white, and then the blood flamed to her face and neck. She
sprang up.

"O, Mrs. Harvey, I can't sit here," she gasped out.

"You must!--that is the place for you," said Mrs. Harvey. "Do you
suppose an old housewife like me would occupy a front seat with such a
beauty in the background? Not a bit of it! The public welfare demands
that you sit there." She smiled into the scared girl's face with kindly
humor.

Isabel leaned over and said; "Sit there; you're magnificent."

Rose sank back into her seat, and stared straight ahead. She felt as if
something hot and withering were blowing on that side of her face which
was exposed to the audience. She wished she had not allowed the neck of
her dress to be widened an inch. She vowed never again to get into such
a trap.

Mr. Harvey talked to her from behind her chair. He was very kindly and
thoughtful, and said just enough to let her feel his presence, and not
enough to weary her.

Gradually the beauty and grandeur of the scene robbed her of her absurd
self-consciousness. She did not need to be told that this was the heart
and brain of Chicago. This was the Chicago she had dreamed about. A
perfumed rustling rose from below her. Around her the boxes filled with
women in gowns of pink and rose and blue, and faint green. Human flowers
they were, dewed with diamonds. All about was the movement of orderly,
leisurely, happy-toned and dignified men and women. All was health,
pleasure, sanity, kindliness. Wealth here displayed its wondrous charm,
its peace, its poetry.

Her romantic conception of these people had done them an injustice. She
had clothed them with the attributes of the men and women of English
society novels and New York imitations of these novels. This Mr. Harvey
did not know, but he helped her to rectify her mistaken estimate of the
people around her by saying:

"We business men can't get out to the Friday rehearsals, but Saturday
night finds us ready to enjoy an evening of art."

He looked very handsome in his dress suit, and his face was very
pleasant to see, yet Isabel had told her that not only was he a
hard-working business man, but a man of wide interests, a great railway
director, in fact.

"I suppose you know many of the people here," she said at last.

"Oh, yes," he replied, "I know most of them. Chicago is large, but some
way we still keep track of people here."

As he talked, she got courage to raise her eyes to the roof, soaring far
up above, glowing with color. Balcony after balcony circled at the back,
and Rose thought with a little flush that perhaps Owen and Mary were
sitting up in one of those balconies and could see her in the box.

The hall was buff and light-blue to her eyes, and the procession of
figures over the arch, the immense stage, the ceiling, the lights, all
were of great beauty and interest.

But the people! the beautiful dresses! the dainty bonnets! the flow of
perfumed drapery! the movement of strong, clean, supple limbs!--these
were the most glorious sights of all. She had no room for envy in her
heart. She was very happy, for she seemed to have reached a share in
ultimate magnificence.

She longed for gowns and bonnets like these, but there was no bitterness
in her longing.

She herself was a beautiful picture as she sat there. From her bust,
proud and maternal, rose her strong smooth neck, and young, graceful
reflective head. If the head had been thrown back she would have seemed
arrogant; with that reflective, forward droop, she produced upon the
gazer an effect both sweet and sad. In the proud bust was prophecy of
matronly beauty, and also of the freshness of youth.

Mason, seated below among a group of musical critics, looked at her with
brooding eyes. At that moment she seemed to be the woman he had long
sought. Certainly the glamour was around her then. She sat above him and
her brown hair and rich coloring stood out from the drapery like a
painting. A chill came over him as he thought of the letter he had sent
to her that very morning. It was brutal; he could see it now. He might
have put the criticism in softer phrases.

Isabel leaned over and spoke to Rose and then Rose began searching for
him. He was amazed to feel a thrill of excitement as he saw that strong,
dark face turned toward him; and when his eyes met her's he started a
little, as if a ray of light had fallen suddenly upon him. She colored a
little, he thought, and bowed. Where did the girl acquire that regal,
indifferent inclination of the head? It was like a princess dropping a
favor to a faithful subject, but it pleased him. "The girl has
imagination!" he said. "She claims her own."

Then he meditated: "What an absurdity! Why should I fix upon that girl,
when here, all about me are other women more beautiful, and rich and
accomplished, besides. That confounded farmer's girl has a raft of
stupid and vulgar relatives, no doubt, and her refinement is a mere
appearance."

He solaced himself with a general reflection.

"Furthermore, why should any man select any woman, when they are all
dots and dashes in a web of human life, anyhow? Their differences are
about like the imperceptible differences of a flock of wrens. Why not go
out and marry the first one that offers, and so end it all?"

The mystery of human genius came also to Rose as Mr. Harvey pointed out
to her the city's most noted men and women. They were mere dabs of
color--sober color, for the most part--upon this flood of humankind. She
was to Mason, probably, only a neutral spot in the glorious band of
color, which swept in a graceful curve back from the footlights. It was
wonderful, also, to think that these smiling men were the millionaire
directors of vast interests--they seemed without a care in the world.

At last the stage chairs were all filled by a crowd of twanging,
booming, sawing, squeaking instrumentalists. Then the leader, a large
man of military erectness, came down to the leader's desk and bowed,
amidst thunderous applause. Then rapping sharply on his desk he brought
orderly silence out of the tumult, and the concert began.

The music did not mean much to Rose during the first half-hour, for the
splendor of the whole spectacle dominated the appeal of the instruments.
Such music and such audiences were possible only in the largest cities,
and that consideration moved her deeply. It seemed too good to be true
that she sat here securely, ready to enjoy all that came. It had come to
her, too, almost without effort, almost without deserving, she felt.

But there came at last a number on the programme which dimmed the
splendor of the spectacle. The voice of Wagner came to her for the first
time, and shook her and thrilled her and lifted her into wonderful
regions where the green trees dripped golden moss, and the grasses were
jeweled in very truth. Wistful young voices rose above the lazy lap of
waves, sad with love and burdened with beauty which destroyed. Like a
deep-purple cloud death came, slowly, resistlessly, closing down on
those who sang, clasped in each other's arms.

They lay dead at last, and up through the purple cloud their spirits
soared like gold and silver flame, woven together, and the harsh thunder
of the gray sea died to a sullen boom.

       *       *       *       *       *

When she rose to her feet the girl from the coulé staggered, and the
brilliant, moving, murmuring house blurred into fluid color like a wheel
of roses.

The real world was gone, the world of imagined things lay all about her.
She felt the power to reach out her hand to take fame and fortune.

In that one reeling instant the life of the little coulé, the lonely,
gentle old father, and the days of her youth--all her past--were pushed
into immeasurable distance. The pulling of weeds in the corn, the
driving of cattle to pasture were as the doings of ants in a dirt-heap.

A vast pity for herself sprang up in her brain. She wanted to do some
gigantic thing which should enrich the human race. She felt the power to
do this, too, and there was a wonderful look on her face as she turned
to Isabel. She seemed to be listening to some inner sound throbbing away
into silence, and then her comprehension of things at hand came back to
her, and Isabel was speaking to her.

"Here's Mr. Mason coming to speak to us," interrupted Mr. Harvey.

She turned to watch him as he came along the aisle behind the boxes; her
head still throbbed with the dying pulsations of the music. Everybody
seemed to know and greet him with cordial readiness of hand. He came
along easily, his handsome blonde face showing little more expression at
meeting her than the others, yet when he saw her rapt and flushed face
he was touched.

"I came to see how Miss Dutcher was enjoying the evening."

Rose felt a sudden disgust with her name; it sounded vulgarly of the
world of weeds and cattle.

In some way she found herself a few moments later walking out through
the iron gate into the throng of promenaders back of the seats. It was
the most splendid moment of her life. She forgot her fear of Mason in
the excitement of the moment. She walked with hands clenched tightly and
head lifted. The look on her face, and the burning color in her face
made scores of people turn to look at her.

Mason perceived but misinterpreted her excitement. He mistook her entire
self-forgetfulness for a sort of vain personal exaltation or rapture of
social success.

She saw only dimly the mighty pillars, the massive arches, lit by stars
of flame. She felt the carpet under her feet only as a grateful thing
which hushed the sound of feet.

They made one circuit with the promenaders, Mason bowing right and left,
and talking disjointedly upon indifferent subjects. He felt the
tormenting interest of his friends in Rose, and drew her out of the
crowd.

"Let us stand here and see them go by," he said. "You liked the music,
did you?"

His commonplace question fell upon her like the scream of a peacock amid
songs of thrushes. It showed her in a flash of reasoning of which he
could not know, that it was possible to be ennuied with glorious
harmonies. Her mind asked, "Shall I, too, sometimes wish to talk
commonplaces in the midst of such glories?"

"O, it was beyond words!" she said. And then Mason was silent for a
little space. He divined her mood at last, but he had something to say
which should be said before she returned to her box.

He began at once:

"Let me say, Miss Dutcher, that while the main criticism of your work,
which I made in my note this morning, must hold, still I feel the
phraseology could be much more amiable. The fact is, I was irritated
over other matters, and that irritation undesignedly crept into my note
to you."

"I haven't received it," she said looking directly at him for the first
time.

"Well then, don't read it. I will tell you what I think you ought to
do."

"O, don't talk of it," she said, and her voice was tense with feeling.
"All I have written is tonight trash! I can see that. It was all
somebody else's thought. Don't let's talk of that now."

He looked down at her face, luminous, quivering with excitement--and
understood.

"I forgot," he said gently, "that this was your first concert at the
Auditorium. It is beautiful and splendid, even to an habitué like me. I
like to come here and forget that work or care exists in the world. I
shall enjoy it all the more deeply now by reason of your enthusiasm."

In the wide space back of the seats a great throng of young people were
promenading to the left, round and round the massive pillars, in
leisurely rustling swing, the men mainly in dress suits, the ladies in
soft luminous colors; the heavy carpet beneath their feet gave out no
sound, and only the throb of laughter, the murmur of speech and the soft
whisper of drapery was to be heard.

It was all glorious beyond words, to the imaginative girl. It flooded
her with color, beauty, youth, poetry, music. Every gleaming neck or
flashing eye, every lithe man's body, every lover's deferential droop of
head, every woman's worshipful upturned glance, came to her with power
to arouse and transform. The like of this she had not dreamed of seeing.

Nobody had told her of this Chicago. Nobody could tell her of it,
indeed, for no one else saw it as she did. When Mason spoke again his
voice was very low and gentle. He began to comprehend the soul of the
girl.

"I've no business to advise you. I've come to the conclusion that advice
well followed is ruinous. Genius seldom takes advice, and nobody else is
worth advising. I took advice and went into a newspaper office twenty
years ago. I've been trying ever since to rectify my mistake. I would be
a literary if I were not forced to be a newspaper man, just when my
powers are freshest. I want to write of today. I want to deal with the
city and its life, but I am forced to advise people upon the tariff. I
come home at night worn out and the work I do then is only a poor
starveling. Now, see this audience tonight! There are themes for you.
See these lovers walking before and behind us. He may be a clerk in a
bank; she the banker's daughter. That man Harvey, in whose box you sit
tonight, was a farmer's boy, and his wife the daughter of a Methodist
preacher in a cross-roads town. How did they get where they are, rich,
influential, kindly, polished in manner? What an epic!"

"Are you advising me now?" she asked with a smile.

Her penetration delighted him.

"Yes, I am saying now in another way the things I wrote. I hope, Miss
Dutcher, you will burn that packet without reading. I would not write it
at all now."

They were facing each other a little out of the stream of people. She
looked into his face with a bright smile, though her eyes were timorous.

"Do you mean manuscript and all?"

His face was kind, but he answered firmly:

"Yes, burn it all. Will you do it?"

"If you mean it."

"I mean it. You're too strong and young and creative to imitate anybody.
Burn it, and all like it. Start anew tonight."

His voice compelled her to a swift resolution.

"I will do it."

He held out his hand with a sudden gesture, and she took it. His eyes
and the clasp of his hand made her shudder and grow cold, with some
swift, ominous foreknowledge of distant toil and sorrow and joy.

The lights were dimmed mysteriously, and Mason said:

"They are ready to begin again; we had better return."

He led her back to the box, and Mrs. Harvey flashed a significant look
upon him, and said in a theatrical aside:

"Aha! at last."

Isabel said:

"Come and see us tomorrow at six--a 'pow-wow.'"

The music which came after could not hold Rose's attention. How could
it, in the face of the tremendous changes which were in progress in her
brain? What had she done? To an almost perfect stranger she had promised
to burn all the work of her pen thus far.

And an hour before she had almost hated, certainly she had feared, that
man. While the music throbbed and wailed and clashed, she sat with blood
throbbing in her ears and at her throat, longing to cry out, to sing and
to weep. She had said little of late to any one, but she had finally
settled upon one ambition--to write, to be a great poetess. After
vicissitudes and false enthusiasm she had come back to the first great
ambition which she had confessed to Thatcher years before, in the little
coulé school-house. And now, at the bidding of a stranger, she had made
a promise to burn her work and start again.

But had not the music and the splendid spectacle before her almost
determined her before he had spoken?

Then she came back to the wondrous gentleness which was in his voice, to
the amazing change in his eyes. The man who had held her hand was not
the worn, cynical man she had feared. He was younger and handsomer, too.
She shuddered again, with some powerful emotion at the thought of his
calm, compelling, down-thrusting glance into her eyes. His mind appeared
to her to have a shoreless sweep.

The music rose to a pounding, blaring climax, and the audience,
applauding, began to rise to go home, breaking into streams and pools
and whirling masses of color.

"Well, my dear, how have you enjoyed the evening?" asked Mrs. Harvey,
cordially.

"Very much, indeed. I never can thank you enough."

"It has been a pleasure to feel your enthusiasm. It makes us all young
again. I've asked Dr. Herrick to bring you to see us; I hope you will
come."

The hearty clasp of her hand moved the motherless girl deeply, and her
voice trembled with emotion as she replied:

"It will be a great pleasure to me, Mrs. Harvey."

Mrs. Harvey clutched her in her arms and kissed her.

"You splendid girl! I wish you were mine," she said, and thereafter Rose
felt no fear in her presence.

"I don't care whether she's a genius or not," Mrs. Harvey said to
Isabel, as they walked out to the carriage. "She's a good girl, and I
like her, and I'll help her. You figure out anything I can properly do
and I'll do it. I don't know another girl who could have carried off
that cheap little dress the way she did. She made it look like a work of
art. She's a wonder! Think of her coming from a Wisconsin farm!"

Isabel rejoiced.

"I knew you'd like her." She leaned over and said in a low voice: "I'd
like Elbert to see her."

Mrs. Harvey turned a quick eye upon her.

"Well, if you aren't a matchmaker!"

As they came out in the throng it seemed as if everybody knew the
Harveys and Isabel. Out in the street the cabs had gathered, like huge
beetles, standing in patient rows in the gaslight.

The bellowing of numbers, the slam of carriage doors, the grind of
wheels, the shouts of drivers, made a pandemonium to Rose, but Mr.
Harvey, with the same gentle smile on his face, presented his ticket to
the gigantic negro, who roared enormously:

"Ninety-two! Ninety-two!"

"Here we are!" Mr. Harvey called finally, and handed the women in with
the same unhurried action, and the homeward ride began. There was little
chance for talk, though Mrs. Harvey did talk.

Rose sat in silence. This had been another great period of growth. She
could still feel the heat and turmoil in her brain. It was as if upon a
seed-bed of quick-shooting plants a bright, warm light had been turned,
resulting in instant, magical activity. At her door they put her down,
and once more she thanked them.

"It's nothing at all, my dear; we hope to do more for you," said Mrs.
Harvey. "I want you to come to dinner soon. You'll come?"

"With pleasure," Rose responded, quite as a man might have done.



CHAPTER XX

ROSE SETS FACE TOWARD THE OPEN ROAD


When Rose reached her room, she found the packet of poems lying on her
desk. It had come in the afternoon mail.

She sat down by the toilet table with a burning flush on her face. A
world seemed some way to lie between her present self and the writer of
those imitative verses. She wished to see, yet feared to see what he had
written, and taking up the packet she fingered the string while she
meditated. She had not absolutely promised not to read the letter,
though she had pledged herself to burn the poems.

Her life was so suddenly filled with new emotions and impulses, that she
was bewildered by them. The music, the audience-room, the splendid
assemblage, and some compelling power in Mason--all of these (or he
alone) had changed her point of view. It was a little thing to the great
city, a little thing to him probably, but to her it was like unto the
war of life and death.

What, indeed, was the use of being an echo of passion, a copy? She had
always hated conformity; she hated to dress like other girls; why should
she be without individuality in her verse, the very part where, as Mason
had intimated, she should be most herself?

She had the chance to succeed. The people seemed ready to listen to her
if she had something to say; and she had something to say--why not say
it?

She arose, tense and white with resolution, and opened the stove door
and dropped the packet in, and closed the door and held it as if she
feared the packet might explode in her face, or cry out at her. In her
poems she would have had the heroine fling it in the grate and snatch it
out again, but having no grate the stove must serve, and there could be
no snatching at the packet, no remorseful kisses of the charred body. It
was gone in a dull roar.

She sat down and waited till the flame died out, and then drew up to her
desk and wrote swiftly for an hour. She grew sleepy at last, as the
tumult of her brain grew quieter. Just before she went to sleep all her
lovers came before her: Carl, in the strawberry-scented glade; William
de Lisle, shining of limb, courtesying under the lifting canvas roof;
Dr. Thatcher, as he looked that afternoon in the school-room; then
Forest Darnlee, with the physical beauty of William De Lisle, but vain
and careless; then Professor Ellis, seated at his desk in the
chalk-laden air, or perched on the ladder beneath the great telescope, a
man who lived in abstract regions far from sense and sound; then Tom
Harris, lithe, graceful, always smiling--Tom, who had the songs of
birds, the smell of flowers, the gleam of sunset-water leagued with
him--who almost conquered, but who passed on like a dapple of purple
shadow over the lake.

And now she faced two others, for she could see that Owen was turning to
her from Mary, and he had great charm. He was one of the cleanest-souled
men she had ever known; he had, also, a strange touch of paganism, of
mystery, as of free spaces and savage, unstained wildernesses, and he
could give her a home, and he would allow her freedom. He would be her
subject, not her master.

Then there was Mason--of him what? She did not know. He was outside her
knowledge of men. She could neither read his face nor understand his
voice. He scared her with a look or a phrase. Sometimes he looked old
and cynical, but tonight how tenderly and sympathetically he had spoken!
How considerately silent he had been!

When she awoke, Mary was standing looking down at her.

"If you're going to have any breakfast, Rose, you'd better be stirring.
It's nine o'clock, and everything's ready to clear away. What kind of
time did you have?"

Rose resented her question, but forced herself to answer:

"Beautiful!"

"I saw you in the box. Owen and I were in the second balcony. You were
just scrumptious! I wanted to throw a kiss at you." She fell upon Rose
and squeezed her, quilt and all, in her long arms. "My stars! I wish I
was lovely and a poet."

She had nothing but joy over her idol's good fortune, and it made Rose
feel guilty to think how resentful and secretive she had become. There
was coming into her friendship with Mary a feeling which prevented
further confidence--a feeling that Mary was not a suitable confidant,
and could not understand the subtleties of her position, in which Rose
was quite correct.

With Mary, procedure was always plain sailing. Either she was in love
and wanted to marry, or she wasn't. Her ideals changed comparatively
little, and were healthily commonplace. Her friendships were quick, warm
and stable. She was the country girl in the city, and would be so until
death. If she felt disposed, she chewed gum or ate an apple on the
street like a boy, and she walked on the Lake Shore Sunday evening with
Owen, unconscious (and uncaring) of the servant-girls and their lovers
seated on every bench.

So Rose had grown away from her friend. She felt it dimly the first
week. She felt it vividly on the morning after the concert, and it
troubled her. Her life was too subtle, too complicated and too
problematic for honest, freckle-faced, broad-cheeked Mary to analyze.

Then, too, there was the question of Owen. Soon Mary must see how he set
face toward her, but she felt quite equal to answering him when Owen
came to speak, because his appeal to her was not in the slightest degree
sensuous, as Tom Harris' had been.

She spent the day in deep thought, writing some lines which came to her,
and writing a letter home. She filled it full of love and praise for
"pappa John," as if in remorse for growing so far away from him.

That done she fell back upon her group of friends; upon the concert,
upon thought of that wonderful promenade with Mason.

The world of art seemed so secure and reposeful, so filled with splendor
of human endeavor. She drew her breath in a mighty inspiration, and
resolved to be a part of it. Art had always seemed to her so far off,
something European, and now she seemed to be in immediate contact with
it, and soared into exultation for a day, falling soon into dreary
doubt.

Her literary ideals were so hopelessly confused. She had lost the desire
to write as she had been writing, and there seemed nothing left for her
to do. She had so few convictions and so little experience! The door had
closed upon her old forms of action, and yet the way Mason had pointed
out to her was dark and utterly bewildering. She felt great things
moving around her; themes, deeds that were enormous but not defined. She
could not quite lay hold upon them.

She went down the street to Dr. Herrick's house, feeling that she was
committing herself to something. She knew that Isabel had taken her case
in hand, and that she was to meet other young men there. She could not
resent it, for the zeal of her new-found friend was manifestly from the
heart--it could not be otherwise. Of what advantage to Dr. Herrick could
it be to take her up--a poor country girl?

In fact, she was puzzled by this overpowering kindness. There was so
little apparent reason for it all. She could not, of course, understand
the keen delight of introducing a powerful and fresh young mind to the
wonders of the city. She had not grown weary of "sets" and "circles,"
and of meeting the same commonplace people again and again, as Mrs.
Harvey had. Isabel's position was different, but she had an equal
delight, more subtle and lasting, in seeing the genius (as she believed)
of the girl win its way, and besides, the girl, herself, pleased her
mightily.

Isabel Herrick's life was one of deep earnestness and high aims. She was
the daughter of a physician in an interior city. She had worked her way
up from the bottom in the usual American fashion by plucky efforts
constantly directed to one end, and was the head of the house of
Herrick, which consisted of her young sister, a brother at college and
her aged mother, now an invalid.

She had been one of the first three girls to enter the medical school,
and she had been their shield and fortress in the storm which followed
their entrance into the dissecting room. The battle was short but
decisive. Her little head was lifted and her face white as she said:

"Men--I won't say gentlemen--I'm here for business, and I'm here to
stay. If you're afraid of competition from a woman you'd better get out
of the profession."

In the dead silence which followed a lank country fellow stepped out and
raised his voice.

"She's right, and I'm ready to stand by her, and I'll see she's let
alone."

Others shouted: "Of course she's right!" by which it appeared the
disturbance was of the few and not the mass of students, a fact which
Isabel inferred. She spoke a grateful word to the lanky student, and Dr.
Sanborn found his wife right there.

There was little for Isabel to learn of the sordid and vicious side of
men. She knew them for what they were, polygamous by instinct,
insatiable as animals, and yet she had been treated on the whole with
courteous--often too courteous--kindness. Her dainty color and her
petite figure won over-gallant footway everywhere, though she often
said:

"Gentlemen, I have studied my part. I know what I am doing and I ask
only a fair field and no favors."

Thatcher and Sanborn had been her close companions in the stern, hard
course they set themselves; each had said with vast resolution to the
other: "I'm not to be left behind." And each had sworn to take no
mediocre position. Thatcher had made apparently the least mark in the
world, but he was writing a monograph which was expected to give
important facts to the medical profession. He had written to Sanborn
several times: "You have the advantage of association with the 'Little
Corporal.'"

They called her "Little Corporal" among themselves. Her sternly sweet
face had a suggestion of Napoleon in it, and then she ordered them about
so naturally and led them so inevitably in everything she undertook.

It was into the hands of the "Little Corporal" that Rose had fallen, and
all Isabel's enthusiasm was roused in her behalf. Her own little sister
was a sweet, placid little thing, who had inherited the body, and spirit
as well, of her mother, while Isabel had inherited the mind of her
father in the body of her mother.

Something of this Thatcher had told Rose, part of it Isabel had told,
and it made only one definite impression on Rose--this, that a woman
could succeed if she set her teeth hard and did not waste time.

She found Isabel already surrounded by company. She made every other
Sunday evening an informal "at home," and certain well-known artists and
professional people dropped in to talk awhile, or to sit at her generous
table. It was a good place to be and Rose had perception enough to feel
that.

"O, you dear child! I'm glad to see you. There's some one here you'll be
glad to see."

Rose flushed a little, thinking of Mason.

"It's an old friend--Dr. Thatcher."

Rose clapped her hands: "O, is he? I'm so glad; it's almost like seeing
the folks."

"I've asked Elbert Harvey and Mr. Mason also; I didn't want you to think
I had no friends but doctors. It must seem to you as if the world is
made up of doctors. But it isn't."

Thatcher greeted Rose quietly but with a pressure of the hand which made
up for his impassivity of countenance. He trembled a little as he sat
down and watched her greeting Sanborn and Mason.

Fear and admiration were both present in her heart as Mason took her
hand.

She forced herself to look into his face, and started to find his eyes
so terribly penetrating.

"I burned the packet," she said with a constrained smile.

His eyes grew softer and a little humorous.

"Did you indeed. Without opening it?"

"Yes."

"Heroic girl!"

"Am I not?" she said over her shoulder as Isabel dragged her toward a
tall, smooth-faced young fellow who stood talking with Etta.

"Elbert, this is Miss Dutcher--Rose, young Mr. Harvey, son of our
hostess at the concert."

Young Harvey seemed much taken back as he faced Rose, and shook hands in
current angular fashion. His mind formulated these opinions:

"She's a stunner! Caroline was dead right!" By "Caroline" he meant his
mother.

Rose placed him at once. He was another college man. Paul and Etta
joined them and they made a fine group. They were soon as free as
schoolmates, laughing, telling stories, and fighting over the East and
the West.

Rose stoutly defended the western colleges; they had their place, she
said.

"So they have," Elbert said, "but let them keep it."

"Their place is at the head, and that's where we'll put them soon," she
said.

Elbert told a story about hazing a western boy at Yale. He grew excited
and sprang up to dramatize it. He stood on one foot and screwed up his
face, while the rest shrieked with laughter, all except Rose, who
thought it unjust.

Mason looked on from his low chair with a revealing touch of envious
sadness. He had gone past that life--past the land of youth and
love--past the islands of mirth and minstrelsy. He was facing a cold,
gray sea, with only here and there a grim granite reef gnawing the water
into foam.

It made him long to be part of that again, therefore he valued Rose more
at that moment than ever before. "The girl has imagination, she has
variety. She is not a simple personality. At the concert she was
exalted, rapt, her eyes deep. Tonight she is a school-girl. Then it was
Wagner--now it is college horse-play."

Isabel came up to sit a moment by him.

"Isn't she fine? I think I surprised young Harvey. I thought I'd like to
have her meet him--he's such a fine fellow. She should meet someone else
beside us old fogies."

Mason winced a little.

"Well now, that's pleasant! Do you call me an old fogy?"

She laughed:

"O, we're not old in years, but we're old in experience. The bloom of
the grape is lost."

"But the grape is ripe, and we still have that. The bloom--what is it? A
nest for bacteria."

"But it is so beautiful with the bloom on," she said wistfully. "I'd
take it again, bacteria and all. See those young people! The meeting of
their eyes is great as fame, and the touch--the accidental touch of
their hands or shoulders, like a return of lost ships. I am thirty-three
years of age and I've missed that somewhere."

Mason lifted his eye-brows:

"Do you mean to say that the touch of Sanborn's hand does not hasten
your blood?"

"I do--and yet I love him as much as I shall ever love anybody--now."

Mason studied her, and then chanted softly:

    "'Another came in the days that were golden,
    One that was fair, in the days of the olden
          Time, long ago!'

You've never told me about that."

She smiled. "No, but I will some time--perhaps."

She led the way out to supper with Dr. Thatcher, and the rest followed
without quite breaking off conversation, a merry, witty procession.

Rose was conscious of a readjustment of values. Dr. Thatcher had less
weight in the presence of these people, but Mason--Mason easily
dominated the table without effort. Indeed, he was singularly silent,
but there was something in the poise of his head, in the glance of his
eyes, which showed power and insight into life.

The young folks, led by young Harvey took possession of the table, and
laughter rippled from silence to silence like a mountain stream. Young
Harvey aided at the chafing-dish with the air of an adept, and Isabel
was almost as light-hearted in laughter as he.

Thatcher and Mason seemed to sit apart from it, and so it was Mason
found opportunity to say:

"You knew our young friend of the coulé--discovered her, in fact?"

"Yes, as much as any one could discover her. It's a little early to talk
of her as if she had achieved fame."

"Dr. Herrick thinks she's on the instant of going up higher, and so
we're all hanging to her skirts in hopes of getting a rise."

Thatcher didn't like Mason's tone.

"Rose is a hard worker. If she rises any higher it will be by the same
methods which put her through college." He spoke with a little air of
proprietorship.

Mason felt the rebuff, but he was seeking information about Rose,
therefore he ignored it.

"She's an only child, I believe."

"Yes; her father is a hard-working, well-to-do farmer in a little
'coolly' in Wisconsin."

"It's the same old story, I suppose; he doesn't realize that he's lost
his daughter to the city of Chicago. We gain at his expense."

Mason's mind had something feminine about it, and he saw as never before
how attractive to a girl a fine young fellow like Harvey could be. Being
rich he was lifted above worry. His activity was merely wholesome
exercise, and his flesh was clean and velvety as a girl's. He was
strong, too, as it was the fashion of college men of his day to be. He
had never known want or care in his beautiful life. He was, moreover, a
clean boy. Money had not spoiled his sterling nature. It was no wonder
that Rose's eyes grew wide and dark as they rested on him. They were
physically a beautiful pair and their union seemed the most inevitable
thing in the world.

Isabel leaned over to say:

"Aren't they enjoying themselves? I wish Mrs. Harvey could see them."

After they had returned to the sitting room a couple of young artists
came in with John Coburg, Mason's room-mate on the _Star_. He was a
smooth-faced fellow of extra-solemn visage, relieved by twinkling black
eyes. The artists were keen, alert-looking fellows, with nothing to
indicate their profession save their pointed beards. One of them being
lately from Paris turned his moustaches up devilishly; the other had
fallen away from his idols sufficiently to wear his moustaches turned
down and an extra width to his beard.

Rose was glad Mr. Davidson twisted his mustache; there was so little
else about him to indicate his high calling.

Their coming turned the current of talk upon matters of art, which made
Rose feel perfectly certain she was getting at the heart of Chicago
artistic life.

Mr. Davidson inveighed against America, and Chicago especially, for its
"lack of art atmosphere."

"If you've got the creative power you can make your own art atmosphere,"
his companion hotly said. "You always start up on that thing." Evidently
it was a source of violent argument between them.

"The trouble is you fellows who paint, want to make a living too easy,"
Mason remarked.

"You ought to stay and do pioneer work among us," said Isabel.

"I don't consider it worth while so far as I am concerned. I prefer
Paris."

"You're not very patriotic."

"There is no patriotism in art."

"That's the regular Parisian jabber," returned his friend. "I talked all
that myself. What you need is a touch of poverty. I'd like to see your
people drop you in a small town where you had to make your living for a
little while."

"All the hard conditions of Chicago are changing," Isabel interposed,
with peaceful intent. "All that was true a few years ago is not true
now. The materialism you war against, no longer dominates us. We are
giving a little time to art and literature."

Davidson twisted his mustache point. "It isn't noticeable yet--O,
there's a little band of fellows starving here like rats in a
garret--but what general recognition of art have you?"

"What could you expect?"

"Well, you might buy pictures."

"We do--old masters and salon pictures," said Mills, with a relenting
acknowledgment of the city's weakness.

"That's it exactly!" said Davidson. "You've no judgment here. You are
obliged to take your judgment from somebody else."

So the talk proceeded. To Rose it was illuminating and epoch-making. She
read in it the city's developing thought. Paris and the Rocky Mountains
met here with Chicago and the most modern types of men and women.

Meanwhile Mason found opportunity to say to Thatcher, who seemed a
little ill at ease:

"These little informal Sunday suppers and free-for-alls are increasing
in number, and they are signs of civilization. Of course a few of the
women still go to church in the morning, but that will wear off, except
at new-bonnet time."

Thatcher did not reply; he thought Mason a little flippant.

Rose sought opportunity to talk about Mrs. Thatcher and Josephine.

"They're quite well."

"I wish I could see them both."

"We should be glad to welcome you back to Madison any time. But I hardly
expect to see you, except on a vacation, possibly. You're a city dweller
already. I can see that." He seemed sadder than she had ever known him,
and his look troubled her a little.

At ten o'clock she rose to go, and young Harvey sprang up:

"Are you going? If you are I hope you'll give me the pleasure--my
carriage--"

"Thank you very much," she answered quickly. "I've a friend coming for
me." Thatcher rose as if to go with her, but sat down again with a level
line of resolution on his lips.

Mason and Harvey both wondered a little about that friend. Mason took a
certain delight in young Harvey's defeat, and analyzed his pulse to find
out why he was delighted. "We should mob that friend," he said to
Sanborn. "He is an impertinence, at this time."

Rose felt Isabel's arm around her as she entered the cloakroom.

"Isn't he fine?"

"Who?"

"Mr. Harvey."

"O--yes--so are the artists." Rose began to wonder if Isabel were not a
matchmaker as well as a promoter of genius.

Isabel had a suspicion of Rose's thought and she laughingly said:

"Don't think I'm so terrible! I do like to bring the right people
together. I see so many people wrongly mated, but I don't mean--I only
want you to know nice people. You're to do your own choosing," she said
with sudden gravity. "No one can choose for you. There are some things I
want to talk about when I can venture it."

Mason and Sanborn were the last to go and when Isabel returned from the
door, where she had speeded the last guest, she dropped into a chair and
sighed.

"It's splendid good fun, but it does tire me so! Talk to me now while I
rest."

"Sanborn, talk!" Mason commanded.

Sanborn drew a chair near Isabel and put his arm about her. She leaned
her head on his shoulder.

Mason rose in mock confusion.

"I beg your pardon! I should have gone before."

Isabel smiled. "Don't go; we're not disturbed."

"I was considering myself."

"O, you were!"

"Such things shock me, but if I may smoke I may be able--"

"Of course. Smoke and tell me what you think of Rose. Isn't it strange
how that girl gets on? She's one of the women born to win her way
without effort. It isn't true to say it is physical; that's only part of
it--it's temperament."

Mason got his cigar well alight before he said:

"She has the prime virtue--imagination."

"Is that a woman's prime virtue?"

"To me it is. Of course there are other domestic and conjugal virtues
which are commonly ranked higher, but they are really subordinate.
Sappho and Helen and Mary of the Scots were not beautiful nor virtuous,
as such terms go; they had imagination, and imagination gave them
variety, and variety means endless charm. It is decidedly impossible to
keep up your interest in a woman who is the same yesterday, today and
tomorrow--whose orbit can be predicted, whose radiance is without the
shadow of turning."

"Should he be stopped?" Isabel asked of Sanborn.

"I shouldn't like the job," Sanborn replied. "When he strikes that line
of soliloquy he's out of my control."

       *       *       *       *       *

Rose found Owen waiting in the hall, and she accepted his escort with
the frankness of a sister.

"Have you waited long?"

"No, I was just going to ring the bell when I heard your voice."

They walked on in silence. At last he asked:

"Did you have a good time?"

"Splendid!" she answered.

"We missed you," he said.

Rose felt something tender in his voice and remained silent.

"I heard from my partners today." He went on after a little: "They're
feeling mighty good. Struck another vein that promises better than the
one we have. I ought to go out, but I----" He paused abruptly. "Did you
ever see the Rockies in late fall? O, they're mighty, mighty as the sky!
I wish you'd--I wish we could make up a party some time and go out. I'd
take a car----"

She faced the situation.

"I'll tell you what would be nice: When you and Mary take your wedding
trip I'll go along to take care of you both."

Owen fairly staggered under the import of that speech, and could find
nothing to say for some time.

"Did you have a good time tonight?" he asked again.

"Splendid! I always do when I go to Isabel's." Thereafter they walked in
silence.

Rose fell to thinking of young Harvey in the days which followed. There
was allurement in his presence quite different from that of any other.
She could not remember anything he had said, only he had made her laugh
and his eyes were frank and boyish. She felt his grace and the charm
that comes from security of position and freedom from care.

He brought up to her mind by force of contrast, her father, with his
eyes dimmed with harsh winds and dust and glowing sun. He was now
spending long, dull days wandering about the house and barn, going to
bed early in order to rise with the sun, to begin the same grind of
duties the day following. Young Harvey's life was the opposite from
this.

He admired her, she felt that as distinctly as if he had spoken to her.
He wanted to be near her. He had asked her to help him with the
chafing-dish that night, and to pour the beer while he stirred the gluey
mass of cheese. All the little things by which a young man expresses his
admiration he had used almost artlessly, certainly boyishly.

There was nothing there but a vista of pleasures, certain relief from
toil and worry. What a marvelous thing to be suddenly relieved from all
fear of hunger and every harassing thought about the future! And it was
not a question of an old man of wealth, or a man of repulsive
appearance; it was a question of taking a bright, handsome, clean-souled
man, together with his money. She felt the power to put out her hand and
claim him as her own.

She liked him, too; he amused her and interested her. She admired his
splendid flesh and his clear, laughing eyes. It seemed the easiest thing
in the world--to an outsider. She felt that Isabel was working hard to
have her see young Harvey at his best, and she felt, too, that Mrs.
Harvey was taking unusual interest in her, and in her secret heart she
knew she could marry into that fine family, but--

Liking was not love. She did not shiver when he clasped her hand, as she
did when Mason greeted her. She feared Mason. When he came by, her
judgment blurred and her eyes fell. She couldn't tell what his traits
were, and she didn't know whether he was a good man or not. She hungered
to see him, to hear his voice; beyond that she hardly dared consciously
go.

His attitude toward her she could not understand. Sometimes he seemed
anxious to please her, sometimes he seemed equally determined that she
should understand how inconsequential she was in his life--and always he
dominated her.

She did not once think it might be indecision in his mind, after the
usual stupidity of love's victims. She thought his changes of manner due
in some way to her. She had acted foolishly, or she was looking so badly
he was ashamed of her.

In this condition of mind, it may be imagined, she did not do much
studying or writing. She went to the library regularly, but she could
not concentrate her thoughts upon her book. She grew surly and
changeable with Mary, who no longer dared to talk unguardedly with her.

Mary's eyes were not glass marbles; she could see things with them, and
she said gleefully to Owen one night:

"She's in love, that's what is the matter with her. I don't mind it.
She'll be all right after a while. She's short as pie-crust with me, but
I know how it is myself. She's in love with some high-flyer she's met at
Dr. Herrick's house."

Then she wondered why Owen made no reply.



CHAPTER XXI

MASON TALKS AGAIN


Not seeing Mason for some days, Sanborn took a walk one night, and
turned up about nine o'clock at his rooms. He found him sitting before
his open grate fire, smoking meditatively.

"Hello, Sanborn! Glad you came over." He did not rise, but Sanborn was
untroubled by that.

"Got another chapter turned off?"

"Possibly. Fill up and draw up."

Sanborn obediently filled a pipe and drew up a chair.

"You look tired."

"I am. I have written a column editorial on the labor question, one on
the Chinese treaty, a special article on irrigation for the Sunday
issue, not counting odd paragraphs on silver, anarchy, and other little
chores of my daily grind."

"That's not as bad as poulticing people."

"Bad! There's nothing any worse, and my novelistic friends are always
saying, 'Why don't you turn in and finish up your novel?' What can an
intellectual prostitute do?"

"Get out of the business, one would suppose."

"Well, now, that brings me to the point. In the midst of all my other
worriments, I am debating whether to marry a rich girl and escape work,
or a poor girl and work harder, or to give the whole matter of marriage
up forever."

"These are actual cases, not hypothetical, this time?"

Mason turned a slow eye upon him.

"I have no need to fly to hypothetical cases," he said, dryly. "In the
first place, my hero--if you incline tonight to that theory of the
case--my hero is equally interested in two young women. This is contrary
to the story books, but then only an occasional novelist tells the
truth. I'm to be that one."

He seemed to be going off upon some other line of thought, and Sanborn
hauled him back by asking a pertinent question:

"You mean to say both of these young ladies have that glamour?"

"O, not at all! They did have, but it has faded in both cases, as in all
previous cases, yet more seems to have remained, or else I am getting a
little less exacting. In the case of the sculptress--she's the poor
girl, of course--she's a genius. The first time I saw her she read a
paper on 'The Modern in Sculpture' (it was good, too). She was dressed
beautifully, in cheese-cloth, for all I know--I only know she put to
shame her sculptured copies of Hope and Ariadne. The glamour was around
her like rose-colored flame. It was about her still when I stepped up to
her. She was tall, and strong as a young lioness. Her clean, sweet eyes
were level with mine, and she made me ashamed of every mean thing I had
uttered in my whole life."

"Well, well!" exclaimed Sanborn.

"She was flattered and exalted to think 'the editor' was pleased with
her essay, and the rest was easy. I went to call on her a day or two
later----"

"And the glamour--the glamour?"

Mason shook his head. "Faint! She was in her study, and the hard, cold
light was merciless. She was handsome, even then, but her face had a
pinched look, and there was a heavy droop to her lips. The color so
beautiful that night when flushed with excitement had faded from her
cheeks, and gathered in some unfortunate way about her eyes and nose.
She was a fine woman, but--the glamour was gone."

"What an eye for symptoms! you should have been a physician," Sanborn
put in.

"At the same time she grew upon me. She's an artist. She has the
creative hand--no doubt of that. She has dreams, beautiful dreams of
art. She glows, and dilates, and sings with the joy of it. She could
bring into my life something of the dreams I myself had as a youth.
She's going to make a name for herself, without question."

"Why, that's glorious, Warren, old man; she's just the wife for you! And
she really inclines toward you?"

"She does." Then his self-crucifying humor came in. "That's really her
most questionable virtue. However, if Love can laugh at locksmiths, I
suppose he can laugh at a bald head. But this is only one phase of the
matter. Like all spectators, you are informed of only one side of the
banner. Let's look at the other.

"I manage to live here and support this fire, which is my only
extravagance. I keep the establishment going, and a little more. I'll
anticipate the usual arguments. Suppose, for a little while, it would
not increase expenses. It would not do to bring a woman here, it would
not be right. When children came--and I should hope for children--they
should have a home in the suburbs; I don't believe in raising children
in a flat. That would mean an establishment which would take every cent
I could hook on to, and it would mean that the whole glittering fabric
would be built upon my own personal palm."

"But she might earn something--you say she's a genius."

"She is, that's the reason she'll never make money. Holding the view I
do, I could not require her to toil. I do not believe marriage confers
any authority on the husband--you understand my position there?"

"Perfectly--and agree with it, to a limited extent, of course."

"Going back, therefore--I do not believe I can assume the risk involved.
I'm not capable of twenty years' work at my present rate. I'd break
down, some fine day, and then my little home, upheld upon my Atlas palm,
would tumble. No, I can't take the risk. I'm getting too foxy; I haven't
the bounce I once had. Besides, her career is to be considered. I don't
believe I can afford to let her marry me."

"That's mighty kind of you," Sanborn dryly remarked.

"Thank you. I think it is an error of judgment on her part. She is
younger, and as her adviser I think I must interfere and save her from
the power of a vivid imagination and abounding vitality. You see, there
are a great many considerations involved."

"Real love, I must repeat, would not consider."

"I wish you wouldn't repeat it, it does you an injustice. The animal
passion of youth would not consider. With youth, it is marry--marry,
even if within the year you are picked up by the patrol wagon, a vagrant
in the streets. The love of my time is not so heedless nor so selfish;
it extends to the question of the other party to the transaction."

"I suppose that should be so, but as a physician I doubt it. My
observations do not run that way. Age grows like a child again,
thoroughly selfish."

"Then there is the question of the 'possible woman,'" Mason resumed, and
his tone was cynically humorous again. "I can't give her up. There she
stands in a radiant mist always just before me like the rainbow of our
childhood. I can't promise any woman to love her till death. I don't
know as it would be safe to promise it even to the woman with glamour.
Another might come with a subtler glory, and a better fitting glamour,
and then--"

"What then?"

"It would all be up with the first woman," he said with a gravity of
tone of which the words gave no hint.

"I'm afraid some one has already come to make pale the beauty of the
sculptress. What about the other, the rich girl you set over against the
sculptress at the beginning? Mind you, I believe the whole situation is
fictitious, but I'll humor you in it."

"Well, Aurelia--we'll call her Aurelia--brings up a far-reaching train
of reflections, and, if you've got a patient waiting, you'd better come
again."

"I'm the only patient waiting."

Mason ignored the lame old pun and proceeded:

"Aurelia lives in Springfield. You know the kind of home the wealthy
politician builds in a western town--combination of jail and
court-house. I attended a reception there last winter and saw Aurelia
for the first time. She was as beautiful as an acrobat--"

"I don't want to interrupt, Mason, but I notice all your heroines are
beautiful."

"They must be; my taste will not permit me to tolerate unsymmetrical
heroines. I started in as an architect and I've done a little paddling
in clay, and my heroines must be harmonious of structure--glamour comes
only with beauty, to me."

"Largely physical, then."

"Certainly! I believe in the physical, the healthy, wholesome physical.
In the splendor of the tiger's wooing is no disease."

"Well, well, she was beautiful as an acrobat--"

Mason looked sour. "One more interruption, and the rest of my
heart-tragedy will remain forever alien to your ear."

Sanborn seemed alarmed:

"My lips are glued to my pipe."

Mason mused--("Composed!" Sanborn thought.)

"She looked as if she had been moulded into her gown. The Parisian robe
and the hair piled high, were fast--undeniably theatric, but her little
face was sweet and girlish, almost childish. Well, she had glamour,
largely physical as you say. But like the heroes of E. P. Roe's novels,
I aspired to awaken her soul. She was pleased with me apparently. I
called soon after the reception--I always follow up each case of
glamour. I knew she was rich but I did not realize she commanded such an
establishment.

"It was enormous. Her mother was a faded little hen of a woman, who had
been a very humble person in youth, and who continued a very humble
person in middle-life. The court-house in which she was forced to live
continually over-awed her, but the girl used it, entertained in it as if
she had a string of palace-dwelling ancestors straggling clear back to
Charlemagne."

"That's the American idea, the power of adaptation. Our women have it
better developed than--"

"She was a gracious and charming hostess, and I admit the sight of her
in command of such an establishment was impressive. I thought how easily
a tired editor could be absorbed into that institution and be at rest--a
kind of life hospital, so to say. She was interested in me--that was
certain."

"Now, Mason, I must protest. You know how high Isabel and I both hold
you, but we never quite considered you in the light of a ladies' man.
Your Springfield girl must have had dozens of brilliant and handsome
young men about her."

Mason smoked in silence, waiting till Sanborn's buzz ceased.

"Well, she came to the city last month, and I've been to see her a
number of times; the last time I saw her she proposed to me."

Sanborn stared, with fallen jaw gaping, while Mason continued in easy
flow.

"And I have the matter under consideration. I saw the coming storm in
her eyes. Last night as we sat together at the piano she turned suddenly
and faced me, very tense and very white.

"'Mr. Mason, why can't you--I mean--what do you think of me?'

"I couldn't tell her that night what I thought of her, for she had
seemed more minutely commonplace than ever. She had trotted round her
little well-worn circle of graces and accomplishments, even to playing
her favorite selection on the piano. I equivocated. I professed it was
not very easy to say what I thought of her, and added:

"'I think you're a fine, wholesome girl,' as she is, of course.

"'But you don't think I'm beautiful?' That was a woman's question,
wasn't it. 'Yes,' I said in reply, 'I think you are very attractive.
Nature has been lavish with you.'

"Then she flamed red and stammered a little:

"'Then why don't you like me?'

"'I do,' I said.

"'You know what I mean,' she hurried on to say--'I want you to like me
better than any other woman.'

"'That's impossible,' I replied. It was pitiful to see her sitting there
like a beggar in the midst of all her splendor. 'I like you very much. I
think you're very sweet and kind and girlish.'

"She seemed to react from her boldness. Her eyes filled with tears. 'I
know you think I'm _terrible_ to say these things.'

"'No. I feel that I do not deserve such trust on your part.' Then she
defended me. 'Yes, you do. I couldn't have spoken to any one else so.
You're so kind and gentle.'"

"Did she say that of you?"

"She said that."

"I wish I could reach that phase of your character," sighed Sanborn.
"What did you say in reply?"

Mason apparently showed deep feeling at last.

"I told her that I was like the average man. I was taking credit to
myself for not devouring her like a wolf! She didn't listen to that.
'What can I do to make you like me?' she asked. She leaned toward me,
her chin in her palm, thinking and suffering as her sweet little soul
had never suffered before. 'I'm too simple,' she said, with a flash of
startling insight. 'I don't know enough. I feel that. Can't I study and
change that?'

"'You're changing that now,' I replied.

"She grew radiant for a moment."

"'O you _do_ like me a little!'"

As he went on, Mason's tone grew sweet and solemn. It had singular power
of suggestion. It developed more of his nature than he knew; his real
gravity, and tenderness and purity.

"There you have it," he ended. He struck the ashes out of his pipe and
rose.

"I could marry her, but it wouldn't make her happy. It would make her
suffer. It is not a light thing to decide. It is a very grave thing. As
in the case of the sculptress I thought it an error of judgment on her
part, and on my own it would be criminal."

"That's a fine bit of fiction," said Sanborn. "You're too rough on
yourself, for you could do the girl a deal of good by marrying her."

"Possibly. In the case of the sculptress the problem is different. She
is moving past me like a queen--splendid, supple, a smile of conscious
power on her lips, the light of success in her eyes. It's a terrible
temptation, I admit, this power to stretch out my hand and stay her. It
makes my blood leap, but my sense of justice will not allow of it. I
shall let her pass on, beautiful and rapt."

"To marry some confounded pin-head, who will make her a domestic animal,
and degrade her into 'my wife, gents'?"

"Possibly. However, my responsibility ends where I say good-bye."

"Don't shirk--don't shirk."

Mason turned on him. His voice lost a little of its coldness.

"Is a man to have no credit for letting such a glorious creature pass
him, unharmed and free?"

"Why yes, certainly. But the world of art will not satisfy that girl.
She's sure to marry--she _must_ marry--and she is entitled to more
consideration. You've got to look ahead to the time when she regrets the
lack of husband and children."

"Ah, but it's a frightful thing, Sanborn, to arrest that girl, to make
her a wife and mother, to watch her grow distorted, stiffened, heavy
with child-bearing. I prefer to see her pass me, in order that I may
remember her, lithe, radiant, moving like music and light."

"That's fine, Mason, I honor you for that spirit," said Sanborn, deeply
moved. "But you must remember I am about to be married to a beautiful
woman myself, a woman who knows both sexes, knows their vices and
passions. She tells me, and it fits in with what I know myself, that the
woman's nature moves on from this beautiful state you've described so
well, into the pain and responsibility of marriage not merely willingly,
but eagerly. Half the girl's joy, which we men see in her face, is the
smile of anticipated motherhood--it must be so. Isabel, as you know, is
no sentimentalist; she's a woman you can talk these things to, freely. I
can't state it as she did, but the substance of it was this: if the girl
knew she was to be always young and childish, her youth and beauty would
be of no value to her--that it is the untried pain and pleasures of
other years and conditions which make the beauty so radiant now."

"All of which merely means she makes the best of an irresistible and
tragic impulse, a force which she does not originate and cannot control.
Therefore I say it is a sorrowful business to hew down a temple or tear
a lily in pieces."

The two men were silent again. They had reached fundamentals in their
talk. Sanborn considered the whole matter an allegory, which Mason was
using to veil his design to win Rose if possible. He knew the ease of
Mason's invention, as well as his power to present a case dramatically,
and while he was moved by the expression of his friend's noble thought,
he could not think that there was any exact truth contained in the
story.

Mason resumed a moment later:

"There are certain other material, minor and prosaic considerations
which must be kept in mind. Suppose I announce my engagement to Miss
Aurelia; the newspapers would have a pleasant paragraph or two. Some
people would say 'what a very appropriate match.' Others would say very
knowingly, 'Well, Mason has feathered his nest.' The newspaper boys who
really wish me well would say, 'Good for Mason; now he can take time to
finish that great American novel he's had on hand so long!' A few shrewd
fellows would say, 'Well, that ends Mason! He's naturally lazy, and with
a wife and home like that he'll never do another stroke of work. Mason's
like Coleridge in one thing: he dreams great things, but never writes
them. He's out of the race!'"

"There's something in that," Sanborn admitted.

"I know there is," Mason replied without offense. "Now we'll suppose I
scrape a little money together for immediate use. The old railway Baron
is kind. He tolerates me for the daughter's sake. I come in contact with
the relatives; already I have had a touch of them! A girl like that is
not like a pebble on the sea-shore; she's a thread in a web of cloth, a
silken thread in a breadth of shoddy, maybe. You can't marry her and
have her to yourself. You come into new relations with her people as her
_fiancé_. They cannot be escaped. They swarm around you. They question
your motives and they comment on your person: 'He's getting bent and
bald;' 'He's lazy;' 'What did she ever see in him?' They vulgarize
everything they touch. They are as tiresome as the squeal of a pump, but
there you are, you must meet them. The old gentleman is a man who deals
in millions, reliable and conscientious. He talks to you about his
business, till you say, 'business be damned.' He thereafter meets you in
heavy silence. The mother is a timid soul, with an exaggerated idea of
your importance as an editor. The aunts and uncles variously sniff and
tremble before you."

"Meanwhile your wife has talked all she knows, and all she says
thereafter has a familiar sound. She delights in stories with many
repetitions in them. Her little brain travels from the pantry to the
table, from the tea table to the children's bath tub; its widest circuit
is the millinery store and the bargain counter. She gets fat, that's
another distressing phase of my trouble, let me say. I seem to be gifted
with a prophetic eye in the midst of my transports--"

"Think of you in a transport!"

"I am able to see just how each one will change, how this pretty
plumpness will get fat, how this delicate slimness will get bony. I see
how this beautiful alert face will get beakish. In other words I am
troubled about the future, when I should be involved only in the ecstasy
of the present. In this latest case I see excessive plumpness and
chatter in ten years. I see myself bored to death with her within ten
months. She is at her best now; in striving to win me she is like a
female bird, her plumage is at its best; she will grow dowdy when the
incentive is gone.

"There are other considerations. Aurelia, too, has exaggerated notions
of my power to earn money. She may expect me to maintain an expensive
establishment. I can't ask anything of the political pirate, her father;
I can only put my income into the treasury. If my power to earn money
decreases, as it may, then I become an object of contempt on the part of
the old savage, who considers money the measure of ability. Suppose at
last I come to the point of borrowing money, of going to the old man
humbly, twisting my hat in my hand: 'My dear sir, Aurelia and the
children'--Pah!"

He uttered a sound of disgust and anger and fell silent.

Sanborn mused, "I wonder if the lovers of any other age had any such
scruples about marriage. I guess you're right about Aurelia, but I don't
believe you are about the sculptress. I think she would make you happy."

Mason mused a moment and then went on:

"Well, now, as to that--marry her and we plunge, inside of two years,
into a squalid struggle for bread and coal and a roof. I elect myself at
once into the ranks of dray-horses, and, as I said before, I chain a
genius to the neck-yoke with me. That is also out of the question."

Sanborn sought his hat.

"Well, Mason, this has been a season of plain speaking. I'd feel pretty
bad over it if I thought it was real. When you get the whole thing
typewritten I should like to read it to Isabel and Rose."

Mason's face did not change, but he failed to look at his friend. He
said quietly:

"Isabel wouldn't read it; the girl might possibly find something in it
of value. Good night; you've listened like a martyr."

"Don't fail to write that out while it's fresh in your mind. Good
night," said Sanborn.

His last glance as he closed the door fell upon a lonely figure lying in
a low chair before the fire, and he pitied him. Mason seemed "the great
irresolute" which Isabel believed him to be; helpless to do, patient to
suffer.



CHAPTER XXII

SOCIAL QUESTIONS


The social world seemed about to open to the coulé girl. At Mrs.
Harvey's she called, and behold! her house was but one street removed
from the Lake Shore Drive, on which she had stood that September day. It
was a home of comfort rather than of wealth, not at all ostentatious,
and yet its elegance troubled Rose not a little.

She knew values by instinct, and she knew there was nothing shoddy and
nothing carelessly purchased in the room. The Harveys were envied by
some of their wealthier neighbors for the harmoniousness of their house.
They contrived to make their furniture distinguish itself from a
down-town stock--which requires taste in selection, and arrangement as
well.

Rose heard voices above, and soon Mrs. Harvey and Isabel came down
together. Rose was glad of her friend's presence--it made it easier for
her.

After hearty greetings from Mrs. Harvey they all sat down and Mrs.
Harvey said:

"I'm glad you came over. We--Isabel and I--feel that we should do
something for you socially. I would like to have you come over some
Wednesday and pour tea for me. It's just my afternoon at home, and
friends drop in and chatter a little while; perhaps you'd enjoy it."

"O, you're very kind!" Rose said, dimly divining that this was a
valuable privilege, "but I really couldn't do it. I--I'm not up to
that."

"O, yes, you are. You'd look like a painting by Boldini up against that
tapestry, with your hair brought low, the way you wore it concert
night."

Isabel put in a word. "It isn't anything to scare you, Rose. It's hardly
more formal than at college, only there won't be any men. It will
introduce you to some nice girls, and we'll make it as easy for you as
we can."

"O, yes, indeed; you can sit at the table with Isabel."

"O, it isn't that," Rose said, looking down. "I haven't anything
suitable to wear." She went on quickly, as if to put an end to the whole
matter. "I'm a farmer's girl living on five hundred dollars a year, and
I can't afford fifty dollar dresses. I haven't found out any way to earn
money, and I can't ask my father to buy me clothes to wear at teas. You
all are very kind to me, but I must tell you that it's all out of my
reach."

The other women looked at each other while Rose hurried through this.
Mrs. Harvey was prepared at the close:

"There, now, my dear! don't let that trouble you. Any simple little gown
will do."

"It's out of the question, Mrs. Harvey, until I can buy my own dresses.
I can't ask my father to buy anything more than is strictly necessary."

There was a note in her voice which seemed to settle the matter.

Isabel said, "Perhaps you have something made up that will do. Won't you
let me see what you have? Certainly the dress you wore at the concert
became you well."

"If you have anything that could be altered," Mrs. Harvey said, "I have
a dressmaker in the house now. She could easily do what you need. She's
looking over my wardrobe."

Rose shook her head, and the tears came to her eyes.

"You're very, very kind, but it wouldn't do any good. Suppose I got a
dress suitable for this afternoon, it wouldn't help much. It's
impossible. I'd better keep in the background where I belong."

She stubbornly held to this position and Mrs. Harvey reluctantly gave up
her plans to do something for her socially.

Rose had come to see how impossible it was for her to take part in the
society world, which Isabel and Mrs. Harvey made possible to her. The
winter was thickening with balls and parties; the society columns of the
Sunday papers were full of "events past," and "events to come."
Sometimes she wished she might see that life, at other times she cared
little. One day, when calling upon Isabel, she said suddenly:

"Do you know how my father earned the money which I spend for board? He
gets up in the morning, before any one else, to feed the cattle and work
in the garden and take care of the horses. He wears old, faded clothes,
and his hands are hard and crooked, and tremble when he raises his
tea----"

She stopped and broke into a moan--"O, it makes my heart ache to think
of him alone up there! If you can help me to earn a living I will bless
you. What can I do? I thought I was right, but Mr. Mason made me feel
all wrong. I'm discouraged now; why was I born?"

Isabel waited until her storm of emotion passed, then she said:

"Don't be discouraged yet, and don't be in haste to succeed. You are
only beginning to think about your place in the economy of things. You
are costing your father but little now, and he does not grudge it;
besides, all this is a part of your education. Wait a year and then we
will see what you had better do to earn a living."

They were in her library and Rose sat with her hat on ready to go back
to her boarding house. Isabel went on, after a time spent in thought:

"Now the social question is not so hopeless as you think. There are
plenty of select fine places for you to go without a swagger gown. Of
course, there is a very small circle here in Chicago which tries to be
ultra-fashionable, but it's rather difficult because Chicago men have
something else to do and won't be dragooned into studying Ward
McAllister. You'll find the people here mostly good, sensible people,
like the Harveys, who'll enjoy you in any nice, quiet dress. You can
meet them informally at dinner or at their little Sunday evening in. So
don't you take any more trouble about it," she ended, "and you needn't
pay me for the lecture either."

Rose answered her with smiles:

"I wish I could feel--I wish I didn't care a cent about it, but I do. I
don't like to feel shut out of any place. I feel the equal of any one; I
was brought up that way, and I don't like to be on the outside of
anything. That's a dreadful thing to say, I suppose, but that's the way
I feel."

"I'm not going to quarrel with you about the depth of your depravity;
but I assure you there is no circle in Chicago worth knowing which will
shut you out because you are a poor girl. Thank heaven, we have not
reached to that point yet. And now about your writing. I believe in you.
I liked those verses, though I may not be an acute critic--Mr. Mason
says I'm a conservative, and he's probably right. He says you should
write as you talk. He told me you had remarkable power in suggesting
images to the mind, but in your verse the images were all second-hand.
He believes you'll come to your own themes and style soon."

"I hope so." Her answer was rather spiritless in tone.

"There's another thing, Rose. You're going to have suitors here in
Chicago, and fine ones too. May I talk with you about that?"

Rose flushed deeply and her eyes fell; she was a little incoherent.

"Why, yes--I don't see any reason--there isn't any need of secrecy."

Isabel studied her from a little distance.

"Rose, tell me: how is it that you didn't marry young, as so many poor
girls do?"

Rose considered a moment:

"I hardly know myself."

"You had lovers, always?"

"Yes, always."

"And you had fancies, too?"

"O yes, as all girls do, I suppose."

"Why didn't you marry one of these?"

"Well, for one reason, they didn't please me well enough--I mean _long_
enough. They grew tiresome after awhile; and then I was ambitious, I
wanted to get out into the world. I couldn't marry some one who would
bind me down to the cook-stove all my life, and then I had my ideals of
what a man should be--and, some way, the boys didn't interest me after
awhile."

"I think I understand that. You're going to marry some time, of course."

Rose looked down: "Why, yes, I suppose so--most girls do."

"Don't think I'm impertinent, will you, but is there any--are you bound
to any one?"

Rose lifted her face.

"No, I am as free as any woman."

"I'm glad of that, Rose. I was afraid you might be half-engaged to some
one in the college or back in the valley. It makes it very fine and
simple if you can enter your wider life here, free. You are sure to
marry, and you ought to marry well."

Rose replied a little disgustedly:

"I hate to think of marrying for a home, and I hate to think of marrying
as a profession. Writers accuse us of thinking of nothing else, and I
get sick and tired of the whole thing. I wish I was just a plain animal
or had no sex at all. Sometimes I think it is a curse to be a woman."
She ended fierce and sullen.

Isabel shrank a little:

"O don't be too hard on me, Rose! I didn't mean to anger you."

"I'm not angry; the things I want to say I can't seem to say. It isn't
your fault or mine. It's just fate. I hate to think of 'marrying
well'--"

"I think I understand," Isabel said, a little appalled at the storm she
had raised. "I haven't been troubled by that question because I have a
profession, and have something to think about besides marriage, and
still we must think about it enough to prepare for it. The world must
have its wives and mothers. You are to be a wife and mother, you are
fitted for it by nature. Men see that--that is the reason you are never
without suitors. All I was going to say, dear, was this: you are worthy
the finest and truest man, for you have a great career, I feel sure of
it--and so--but no, I'll not lecture you another minute. You're a
stronger woman than I ever was, and I feel you can take care of
yourself."

"That's just it. I don't feel sure of that yet. I feel dependent upon my
father and I ought not to be; I'm out of school, I'm twenty-three years
of age, and I want to do something. I must do something--and I don't
want to marry as a--as a--because I am a failure."

"Nobody wants you to do that, Rose. But you didn't mean that exactly.
You mean you didn't want to come to any man dependent. I don't think you
will; you'll find out your best holt, as the men say, and you'll
succeed."

Rose looked at her in silence a moment:

"I'm going to confess something," she finally said with a little laugh.
"I hate to keep house. I hate to sew, and I can't marry a man who wants
me to do the way other women do. I must be intended for something else
than a housewife, because I never do a bit of cooking or sewing without
groaning. I like to paint fences and paper walls; but I'm not in the
least domestic."

Isabel was amused at the serious tone in which Rose spoke.

"There is one primal event which can change all that. I've seen it
transform a score of women. It will make you domestic and will turn
sewing into a delight."

"What do you mean?" asked Rose, though more than half guessing.

"I mean motherhood."

The girl shrank, and sat silent, as if a doom had been pronounced upon
her.

"That is what marriage must mean to you and to me," Isabel said, and her
face had an exultant light in it. "I love my profession--I am ambitious
in it, but I could bear to give it all up a hundred times over, rather
than my hope of being a mother."

The girl was awed almost into whispering.

"Does it mean that--will it take away your power as a physician?"

"No, that's the best of it these days. If a woman has brains and a good
man for a husband, it broadens her powers. I feel that Dr. Sanborn and I
will be better physicians by being father and mother. O, those are great
words, Rose! Let me tell you they are broader than poet or painter,
deeper than wife or husband. I've wanted to say these things to you,
Rose. You've escaped reckless marriage someway, now let me warn you
against an ambitious marriage--"

She broke off suddenly. "No, I'll stop. You've taken care of yourself so
far; it would be strange if you couldn't now." She turned quickly and
went to Rose. "I love you," she said. "We are spiritual sisters, I felt
that the day you crushed me. I like women who do not cry. I want you to
forgive me for lecturing you, and I want you to go on following the lead
of your mysterious guide; I don't know what it is or, rather, who he
is--"

She stopped suddenly, and seating herself on the arm of Rose's chair,
smiled.

"I believe it is a man, somewhere. Come now, confess--who is he?"

Quick as light the form and face of William De Lisle came into Rose's
thought, and she said:

"He's a circus rider."

Isabel unclasped Rose's arm and faced her.

"A circus rider!"

Rose colored hotly and looked away.

"I--can't tell you about it--you'd laugh and--well, I don't care to
explain."

Isabel looked at her with comical gravity.

"Do you know what you've done, 'coolly' girl? You know the common
opinion of woman's curiosity? I don't believe a woman is a bit more
curious than a man, only a woman is curious about things he isn't. I'm
suffering agonies this minute. You know I'm an alienist. I've studied
mad people so much I know just what sends them off. You've started me.
If you don't explain at once--" She went to the door and called, "Etta!
Don't disturb me, no matter who comes."

"Now tell me about it," she said, as she sat down beside Rose and
studied her with avid eyes.

"Why, it's nothing," Rose began. "I never spoke to him, and he never
even saw me, and I never saw him but once--"

"And yet he influenced your whole life?"

Rose mused a moment:

"Yes, I can see it now--I never realized it before--he has helped me all
my life."

She told of her first sight of him, of her long ride home, of her
thoughts of him, reserving something, of course, and her voice grew
husky with remembered emotion. She uttered more than she knew. She
showed the keen little woman at her side the more imaginative side of
her nature. It became evident to Isabel that the beautiful poise of the
head and supple swing of the girl's body was in part due to the
suggestion of the man's perfect grace. His idealized face had made the
commonplace apparent--had led her, lifted her.

"Why, it's all a poem!" she exclaimed at the end. "It's magnificent; and
you thought I'd laugh!" She looked reproachful. "I think it's incredibly
beautiful. What was his name? We may meet him some time--"

Rose drew back and grew hot with a blush.

"Oh, no--I don't want to see him now. I'm afraid he wouldn't seem the
same to me now."

Isabel considered. "You're right! He never really existed. He was a
product of your own clean, sweet imagination, but let me tell you--" she
made a swift feminine turn to the trivial, "You'll marry a tall, lathy
man, or a short, dumpy man. That's the way things go. Really, I'll need
to keep Doctor and Mason out of the house."



CHAPTER XXIII

A STORM AND A HELMSMAN


In quiet wise her winter wore on. In a month or two the home feeling
began to make itself felt, and the city grew less appalling, though
hardly less oppressive. There were moments when it seemed the most
splendid presence in the world--at sunset, when the river was crowded
with shipping and the great buildings loomed up blue as wood-smoke,
almost translucent; when the brick walls grew wine-colored; when the
river was flooded with radiance from the western sun, and the great
steamers lay like birds wearied and dreaming after a long journey.

Sometimes, too, at night, when she came out of the concert hall and saw
the glittering twin tiaras of burning gold which the Great Northern
towers held against the blue-black, starless sky, two hundred feet above
the pavement; or when in the early evening she approached the
mountainous Temple, luminous and sparkling with electric lights, lifting
a lighted dome as airy as a bubble three hundred feet into the pale
sapphire of the cloudless sky--the city grew lofty.

The gross, the confused in line, the prosy in color, disappeared at such
moments, and the city, always vast, took on grace and charm and softened
to magnificence; became epic, expressing in prophecy that which it must
attain to; expressed the swift coming in of art and poetry in the lives
of the western world-builders.

She grew with it all; it deepened her conception of life, but she could
not write of it for the reason that it was too near and too multiple in
its appeal upon her. She strove daily to arrange it in her mind, to put
it into form, and this striving wore upon her severely. She lost some of
her superb color and physical elasticity because of it, and became each
week a little less distinctive exteriorly, which was a decided loss,
Mason told Isabel.

"She isn't losing anything very real," Isabel said. "She's just as
unaccountable as ever. She goes out much less than you imagine. I take
her out, and send her, all I can to keep her from getting morbid. Why
don't you come oftener and help me?"

"Self-protection," said Mason.

"Are you afraid of a country girl?"

"O, no--afraid of myself."

"How much do you mean of that, Warren?"

"All of it."

She wrinkled her brow in disgust of his concealing candor.

"O, you are impossible in that mood!"

As the winter deepened Rose narrowed the circle of conquest. She no
longer thought of conquering the world; it came to be the question of
winning the approbation of one human soul. That is, she wished to win
the approbation of the world in order that Warren Mason might smile and
say "Well done!"

She did not reach this state of mind smoothly and easily. On the
contrary, she had moments when she rebelled at the thought of any man's
opinion being the greatest good in the world to her. She rebelled at the
implied inferiority of her position in relation to him and also at the
physical bondage implied. In the morning when she was strong, in the
midst of some social success, when people swarmed about her and men bent
deferentially, then she held herself like a soldier on a tower defying
capture.

But at night, when the lights were all out, when she felt her essential
loneliness and weakness, and need--when the world seemed cold and cruel
and selfish, then it seemed as if the sweetest thing in the universe
would be to have him open his arms and say "Come!"

There would be rest there and repose. His judgment, his keen wit, his
penetrating, powerful influence, made him seem a giant to her, a giant
who disdained effort and gave out an appearance of indifference and
lassitude. She had known physical giants in her neighborhood who spoke
in soft drawl, and slouched lazily in action, but who were invincible
when aroused.

She imagined she perceived in Mason a mental giant, who assumed
irresolution and weakness for reasons of his own. He was always off duty
when she saw him, and bent more upon rest than a display of power. Once
or twice she saw him roused, and it thrilled her; that measured lazy
roll of voice changed to a quick, stern snarl, the brows lowered and the
big, plump face took on battle lines. It was like a seemingly shallow
pool suddenly disclosed to be of soundless depths by a wind of passion.

The lake had been the refuge of the distracted and restless girl. She
went to it often in the autumn days, for it rested her from the noise of
grinding wheels, and screams and yells. Its smooth rise and fall, its
sparkle of white-caps, its sailing gulls, filled her with delicious
pleasure. It soothed her and it roused her also. It gave her time to
think.

The street disturbed her, left her purposeless and powerless, but out
there where the ships floated like shadows, and shadows shifted like
flame, and the wind was keen and sweet--there she could get her mental
breath again. She watched it change to wintry desolation, till it grew
empty of vessels and was lonely as the Arctic sea, and always it was
grand and thought-inspiring.

She went out one day in March when the home longing was upon her and
when it seemed that the city would be her death. She was tired of her
food, tired of Mary, tired of her room. Her forehead was knotted tensely
with pain of life and love--

She cried out with sudden joy, for she had never seen the lake more
beautiful. Near the shore a great mass of churned and heaving ice and
snow lay like a robe of shaggy fur. Beyond this the deep water spread, a
vivid pea-green broken by wide, irregular strips of dark purple. In the
open water by the wall a spatter of steel-blue lay like the petals of
some strange flower, scattered upon the green.

Great splendid clouds developed, marvelously like the clouds of June,
making the girl's heart swell with memories of summer. They were white
as wool, these mountainous clouds, and bottomed in violet, and as they
passed the snow-fields they sent down pink-purple, misty shadows, which
trailed away in splendor toward the green which flamed in bewildering
beauty beyond. The girl sat like one in a dream while the wind blew the
green and purple of the outer sea into fantastic, flitting forms which
dazzled her eyes like the stream of mingled banners.

Each form seemed more beautiful than the preceding one; each combination
had such unearthly radiance, her heart ached with exquisite sorrow to
see it vanish. The girl felt that spring was coming on the wing of the
southern wind, and the desire to utter her passion grew almost into
pain.

It had other moods, this mighty spread of water. It could be angry,
dangerous. Sometimes it rolled sullenly, and convoluted in oily surges
beneath its coverlid of snow, like a bed of monstrous serpents.
Sometimes the leaden sky shut down over it, and from the desolate
north-east a snowstorm rushed, hissing and howling. Sometimes it
slumbered for days, quiet as a sleeping boa, then awoke and was a
presence and a voice in the night, fit to make the hardiest tremble.

Rose saw it when it was roused, but she had yet to see it in a frenzy.
The knowledge of its worst came to her early in May, just before her
return to the coulé.

The day broke with the wind in the north-east. Rose, lying in her bed,
could hear the roar of the lake; never before had its voice penetrated
so far. She sprang up and dressed, eager to see it in such a mood. Mary
responded sleepily to her call, saying the lake would be there after
breakfast.

Rose did not regret her eagerness, though it was piercingly cold and
raw. The sea was already terrific. Its spread of tawny yellow showed how
it had reached down and laid hold on the sand of its bed. There were
oily splotches of plum-color scattered over it where the wind blew it
smooth and it reached to the wild east sky, cold, desolate, destructive.

It had a fierce, breathing snarl like a monster at meat. It leaped
against the sea-wall like a rabid tiger, its sleek and spotted hide
rolling. Every surge sent a triangular sheet of foam twenty-five feet
above the wall, yellow and white, and shadowed with dull blue; and the
wind caught it as it rose, and its crest burst into great clouds of
spray, which sailed across the streets and dashed along the walk like
rain, making the roadway like a river; while the main body of each
up-leaping wave, falling back astride the wall, crashed like the fall of
glass, and the next wave met it with a growl of thunderous rage,
striking it with concave palm, with a sound like a cannon's exploding
roar.

Out of the appalling obscurity to the north frightened ships scudded at
intervals with bare masts bending like fire-trimmed pines. They hastened
like homing pigeons which do not look behind. The helmsmen stood grimly
at their wheels, with eyes on the harbor ahead.

The girl felt it all as no one native to the sea can possibly do. It
seemed as if the bounds of the flood had been overcome, and that it was
about to hurl itself upon the land. The slender trees, standing deep in
the swash of water, bowed like women in pain; the wall was half hidden,
and the flood and the land seemed mingled in battle.

Rose walked along the shore, too much excited to go back to her
breakfast. At noon she ate lunch hurriedly and returned to the shore.
There were hundreds of people coming and going along the drive; young
girls shrieking with glee, as the sailing clouds of spray fell upon
them. Rose felt angry to think they could be so silly in face of such
dreadful power.

She came upon Mason, dressed in a thick mackintosh coat, taking notes
rapidly in a little book. He did not look up and she passed him, wishing
to speak, yet afraid to speak. Near him a young man was sketching.

Mason stood like a rock in his long, close-fitting raincoat, while she
was blown nearly off her feet by the blast. She came back against the
wind, feeling her soul's internal storm rising. It seemed quite like a
proposal of marriage to go up and speak to him--yet she could not forego
the pleasure.

He did not see her until she came into his lee, then he smiled,
extending his hand. She spoke first:

"May I take shelter here?"

His eyes lightened with a sudden tender humor.

"Free anchorage," he said, and drew her by the hand closer to his
shoulder. It was a beautiful moment to her, and a dangerous one to him.
He took refuge in outside matters.

"How does that strike your inland eyes?" He pointed to the north.

"It's awful. It's like the anger of God." She spoke into his bowed ear.

"Please don't think I'm reporting it," he explained. "I'm only making a
few notes about it for an editorial on the need of harbors." Each moment
the fury increased, the waves deepened. The commotion sank down amid the
sands of the deeper inshore water, and it boiled like milk. Splendid
colors grew into it near at hand; the winds tore at the tops of the
waves, and wove them into tawny banners which blurred the air like blown
sand. On the horizon the waves leaped in savage ranks, clutching at the
sky like insane sea-monsters, frantic, futile.

"I've seen the Atlantic twice during a gale," shouted the artist to a
companion, "but I never saw anything more awful than this. These waves
are quicker and higher. I don't see how a vessel could live in it if
caught broadside."

"It's the worst I ever saw here."

"I'm going down to the south side; would you like to go?" Mason asked of
Rose.

"I would, indeed," she replied.

Back from the lake shore the wind was less powerful but more uncertain.
It came in gusts which nearly upturned the street cars. Men and women
scudded from shelter to shelter like beleaguered citizens avoiding
cannon shots.

"What makes our lake so terrible," said Mason, in the car, "is the fact
that it has a smooth shore--no indentations, no harbors. There is only
one harbor here at Chicago, behind the breakwater, and every vessel in
mid-lake must come here. Those flying ships are seeking safety here like
birds. The harbor will be full of disabled vessels."

As they left the car a roaring gust swept around a twenty-story building
with such power Rose would have been taken off her feet had not Mason
put his arm about her shoulders.

"You're at a disadvantage," he said, "with skirts." He knew she prided
herself on her strength, and he took no credit to himself for standing
where she fell.

It was precisely as if they were alone together: the storm seemed to
wall them in, and his manner was more intimate than ever before. It was
in very truth the first time they had been out together, and also it was
the only time he had assumed any physical care of her. He had never
asserted his greater muscular power and mastery of material things, and
she was amazed to see that his lethargy was only a mood. He could be
alert and agile at need. It made his cynicism appear to be a mood also;
at least, it made her heart wondrously light to think so.

They came upon the lake shore again, near the Auditorium. The refuge
behind the breakwater was full of boats, straining at anchor, rolling,
pitching, crashing together. Close about the edge of the breakwater
ships were rounding hurriedly, and two broken vessels lay against the
shore, threshing up and down in the awful grasp of the breakers. Far
down toward the south the water dashed against the spiles, shooting
fifty feet above the wall, sailing like smoke, deluging the street, and
lashing against the row of buildings across the way.

Mason's keen eye took in the situation:

"Every vessel that breaks anchor is doomed! Nothing can keep them from
going on shore. Doubtless those two schooners lost anchor--that one
there is dragging anchor." He said suddenly, "She is shifting position,
and see that hulk--"

Rose for a moment could not see it. She lay flat on her side, a
two-master, her sails flapping and floating on the waves. Her anchor
still held, but she had listed her cargo, careened, and so lay helpless.

"There are men on it!" cried some one. "Three men--don't you see them?
The water goes over them every time!"

"Sure enough! I wonder if they are going to let them drown, here in the
harbor!"

Rose grew numb with horror. On the rounded side of the floating hulk
three men were clinging, looking like pegs of tops. They could only be
seen at intervals, for the water broke clear over their heads. It was
only when one of them began to move to and fro that the mighty crowd
became certainly aware of life still clinging to the hull.

It was an awful thing to stand helplessly by, and see those brave men
battle, but no life-boat or tug could live out there. In the station men
wept and imprecated in their despair--twice they tried to go to the
rescue of the beleaguered men, but could not reach them.

Suddenly a flare of yellow spread out on the wave. A cry arose:

"She's breaking up!"

Rose seized Mason's arm in a frenzy of horror.

"O God! can't somebody help them?"

"They're out of reach!" said Mason solemnly. And then the throng was
silent.

"They are building a raft!" shouted a man with a glass, speaking at
intervals for the information of all. "One man is tying a rope to
planks ... he is helping the other men ... he has his little raft nearly
ready ... they are crawling toward him--"

"O see them!" exclaimed Rose. "O the brave men! There! they are
gone--the vessel has broken up."

On the wave nothing now lived but a yellow spread of lumber; the glass
revealed no living thing.

Mason turned to Rose with a grave and tender look.

"You have seen human beings engulfed like flies--"

"No! no! There they are!" shouted a hundred voices, as if in answer to
Mason's thought.

Thereafter the whole great city seemed to be watching those specks of
human life, drifting toward almost certain death upon the breakwater of
the south shore. For miles the beach was clustered black with people.
They stood there, it seemed for hours, watching the slow approach of
that tiny raft. Again and again the waves swept over it, and each time
that indomitable man rose from the flood and was seen to pull his
companions aboard.

Other vessels drifted upon the rocks. Other steamers rolled heavily
around the long breakwater, but nothing now distracted the gaze of the
multitude from this appalling and amazing struggle against death.
Nothing? No, once and only once did the onlookers shift their intent
gaze, and that was when a vessel passed the breakwater and went sailing
toward the south through the fleet of anchored, straining, agonized
ships. At first no one paid much attention to this late-comer till Mason
lifted his voice.

"By Heaven, the man is _sailing_!"

It was true; steady, swift, undeviating, the vessel headed through the
fleet. She did not drift nor wander nor hesitate. She sailed as if the
helmsman, with set teeth, were saying,

"By God! If I must die on the rocks, I'll go to my death the captain of
my vessel!"

And so, with wheel in his hand and epic oaths in his mouth, he sailed
directly into the long row of spiles, over which the waves ran like
hell-hounds; where half a score of wrecks lay already churning into
fragments in the awful tumult.

The sailing vessel seemed not to waver, nor seek nor dodge--seemed
rather to choose the most deadly battle-place of waves and wall.

"God! but that's magnificent of him!" Mason said to himself.

Rose held her breath, her face white and set with horror.

"O must he die?"

"There is no hope for him. She will strike in a moment--she
strikes!--she is gone!"

The vessel entered the grey confusion of the breakers and struck the
piles like a battering ram; the waves buried her from sight; then the
recoil flung her back; for the first time she swung broadside to the
storm. The work of the helmsman was over. She reeled--resisted an
instant, then submitted to her fate, crumbled against the pitiless wall
like paper and thereafter was lost to sight.

This dramatic and terrible scene had held the attention of the
onlookers--once more they searched for the tiny raft. It was nearing the
lake wall at another furious point of contact. An innumerable crowd
spread like a black robe over the shore waiting to see the tiny float
strike.

A hush fell over every voice. Each soul was solemn as if facing the
Maker of the world. Out on the point, just where the doomed sailors
seemed like to strike, there was a little commotion. A tiny figure was
seen perched on one of the spiles. Each wave, as it towered above him,
seemed ready to sweep him away, but each time he bowed his head and
seemed to sweep through the gray wall. He was a negro and he held a rope
in his hands.

As they comprehended his danger the crowd cheered him, but in the
thunder of the surf no human voice could avail. The bold negro could not
cry out, he could only motion, but the brave man on the raft saw his
purpose--he was alone with the shipwrecked ones.

In they came, lifted and hurled by a prodigious swell. They struck the
wall just beneath the negro and disappeared beneath the waves.

All seemed over, and some of the spectators fell weeping; others turned
away.

Suddenly the indomitable commander of the raft rose, then his
companions, and then it was perceived that he had bound them all to the
raft.

The negro flung his rope and one man caught at it, but it was swept out
of reach on a backward leaping billow. Again they came in, their white,
strained, set faces and wild eyes turned to the intrepid rescuer. Again
they struck, and this time the negro caught and held one of the sailors,
held him while the foam fell away, and the succeeding wave swept him
over the spiles to safety. Again the resolute man flung his noose and
caught the second sailor, whose rope was cut by the leader, the captain,
who was last to be saved.

As the negro came back, dragging his third man over the wall, a mighty
cry went up, a strange, faint, multitudinous cry, and the negro was
swallowed up in the multitude.

       *       *       *       *       *

Mason turned to Rose and spoke: "Sometimes men seem to be worth while!"

Rose was still clinging to his arm as they walked away. Mason did not
speak again for some time.

"We have suffered in vain," he said at last, "and you are cold and
stiffened with long standing. Let me put you in a cab and--"

"Oh, no, thank you! The walk will do me good."

"Perhaps you are right. I'll go with you to the car, and then I must go
to my desk for six hours of hard work. Put this behind you," he said
tenderly. "It does no good to suffer over the inevitable. Forget those
men!"

"I can't! I shall never forget them while I live. It was awful!" She
shuddered, but when she looked into his face she nearly cried out in
astonishment at the light in his eyes.

"It had its grandeur. They went to their death like men. They have
taught me a lesson. Hitherto I have drifted--henceforth _I sail_!" He
bent to her with a mystical smile.

She drew away in a sort of awe as if she looked unworthily upon a sacred
place. He misunderstood her action and said, "Don't be afraid. I have
something to say to you, but not here; perhaps I'll write it. When do
you go?"

"On Saturday."

"I will write you soon. Good bye."

She watched him as he moved away into the crowd, with powerful erect
body--the deskman's droop almost gone out of his shoulders. What did he
mean?

She was standing waiting for a chance to board a car when Elbert Harvey
came pushing along against the wind, fresh and strong and glowing with
color like a girl.

"O, I've been looking for you, Rose," he said. "I was at your house.
They said you were over on the lake front and so--See here! You're all
wet and cold. I'm going to get a carriage."

He would not be gainsaid, and she was really glad to escape the crowd in
the car. He said: "I'm going to take you home to get warm."

She allowed herself to be driven to the door before she realized what it
might be taken to mean, but it was then too late to insist on being
driven home, it would do no harm to see Mrs. Harvey for a moment--and
then she was so tired, too tired to resist.

Mrs. Harvey met her in the hall, smiling and scolding:

"Why, you reckless girl! Have you been down town? Elbert, where did you
get her?"

"I found her on the street waiting for a State street car--shivering,
too."

"Why, you're all wet! Come up to my room and change your shoes."

The warm air and the glow of the beautiful rooms seemed to narcotize
her, and Rose allowed herself to be led away like a sleepy child. It was
delicious to be so attended. Mrs. Harvey took her to her own room, a
room as big and comfortable and homely as herself, and there she put
Rose down before the grateful fire and rang for her maid.

"Annette, remove Mademoiselle's shoes and give her some slippers."

The deft girl removed Rose's wraps, then her shoes, while Mrs. Harvey
knelt by her side and felt of her stocking soles.

"They're wet, just as I expected." She said joyfully, "Take them off!"

"O, no! They'll dry in a minute."

"Take them off, Annette," commanded Mrs. Harvey. "O, what lovely feet
and ankles!" she said, and so betrayed her not too subtle design to
Rose.

Rose was passive now, and yielded to the manipulations of the two women.
They all had a gale of fun over the difference between Mrs. Harvey's
stockings and her own, and then they brought out a fantastic pair of
slippers and a beautiful wrap, which Mrs. Harvey insisted upon putting
about her.

At about this time Elbert knocked on the door.

"Can't I come in and share the fun, Caroline?"

"In a moment!" she replied, and finished tucking the robe about Rose.
"Now you may."

Elbert came in, radiant, unabashed, smiling, almost grinning his
delight. He had changed his dress to a neat and exquisitely fitting dark
suit, and he looked very handsome indeed. His cheeks were like peaches,
with much the same sort of fuzz over them.

He took a place near the fire where he could see Rose, and he signaled
to his mother at the earliest chance that she was stunning.

Rose lay back in the chair with the robe drawn about her, looking the
_grande dame_ from her crown of hair to the tasseled toes of her
slippers. She might almost have been Colombe on the eve of her birthday.

It was delicious, and she had not heart or resolution at the moment to
throw off this homage. She knew that Mrs. Harvey was misreading her
acquiescence, and that every moment she submitted to her care and
motherly direction, involved her, enmeshed her. But it was so delicious
to be a princess and an heiress--for an hour.

The whole situation was intensified when Mr. Harvey's soft tenor voice
called:

"Where is everybody?"

"Come up; here we are! There's somebody here you'll want to see."

Mr. Harvey came in smiling, looking as calm and contained as if he were
just risen from sleep. He was almost as exquisitely dressed as his son.

"Well! well! This is a pleasure," he cordially exclaimed. "What's the
meaning of the wrap; not sick?"

"Elbert picked her up on the street, wet and shivering, waiting for a
car, and brought her home."

"Quite right. We're always glad to see you. Did you give her a little
cordial, Caroline? In case of cold--"

Rose protested. "I'm not sick, Mr. Harvey, only tired. I've been out all
the day watching the dreadful storm. I saw those ships go on the rocks.
O, it was dreadful!"

"Did you see the three men on the raft?" asked Elbert.

Rose shuddered. How far away she was from that cold, gray tumult of
water. Of what manner of men were they who could battle so for hours in
the freezing sleet?

"Well, now, we won't talk about the storm any more," Mrs. Harvey
interposed. "It does no good, and Rose has had too much of it already.
Besides, it's almost dinner time, Mr. Harvey. Go dress!"

There was not a thread ruffled on Mr. Harvey's person, but he dutifully
withdrew. He had had a busy day, and had transacted business which
affected whole states by its influence, yet he was quiet, cordial,
exquisite.

"What does this mean, my dear?" he asked of Mrs. Harvey, who followed
him out.

"It may mean a great deal, Willis," she said. "All I know is Elbert
brought her home, his eyes shining with delight."

"Not to be wondered at," Mr. Harvey replied. "I'm only afraid of
actresses," he added a little incoherently, but his wife understood him.

Elbert was not lacking in adroitness. He did not presume on his position
during his mother's absence. He remained standing in the same position.

"How do you like coddling? Now, you see what I get when I dare to
sneeze. Caroline will coddle any one into regular sickness if you let
her."

"I was chilled, but I am not sick in the least."

"You'd better straighten up and shout at her when she comes in, or
she'll be for sending your dinner up to you, and I don't want that."

"O, I must go home, now."

"Not till after dinner."

"I'm not--dressed for dinner."

"There's nobody here but ourselves. You _must_ stay."

Every one seemed determined to press her into a false position, and
there was so little chance to throw the influence off.

She rose out of her cloak, and when Mrs. Harvey came back she was
standing before the fire with Elbert--which seemed also to be
significant.

"Caroline, don't coddle Rose any more; she's all right."

Mrs. Harvey accepted this command, because it argued a sense of
proprietorship on her son's part.

They continued this intimate talk during the dinner. Elbert took her
down and placed her near him. There were a couple of elderly ladies,
sisters of Mr. Harvey, who sat also at table in a shadowy way, and Rose
divined in a flash of imaginative intelligence how they subordinated
themselves because they were dependent. "Would I grow like that as I
grew old?" was her thought.

At the table she felt it her duty to rouse herself to talk, and she took
part in the jolly patter between Elbert and his mother. Their
_camaraderie_ was very charming--so charming one almost forgot the
irreverence expressed by his use of "Caroline."

After dinner Mrs. Emma Seymour Gallup, whom Rose had met two or three
times but who always demanded a new introduction, came whisking in on
her way to some party. She had everything in decidedly the latest crimp.
Her sleeves did not fit; her hips seemed enormous; her bonnet seemed
split on the middle of her head, and was symmetrically decked with bows
of ribbon and glitter and glimmer. Her real proportions were only to be
divined at the waist, all else was fibre-cloth and conjecture.

Her eyes were bright and her face cold and imperious. She had once
before chilled Rose with a cold nod and insulting shift of shoulder. She
was plainly surprised to see Rose in the bosom of this family, and she
seized the only plausible explanation with instant readiness and smiled
a beautiful smile, and Rose could not help seeing that she had a very
charming face after all.

"Ah! How do you do, Miss Dutcher! I am very glad to see you again!"

"Thank you," Rose replied simply.

"You're quite well--but then I know you're well," Mrs. Gallup went on,
assuming still greater knowledge of her.

"Did you see the storm? Wasn't it dreadful! I saw it all quite securely
from Mrs. Frost's window. How cosy you all look. I wish I could stay,
but I just dropped in to ask you to take a seat in my box on Saturday
night. Bring Miss Dutcher--Mr. Gallup will be delighted to meet her."

All that she said, and more that she implied enmeshed Rose like folds of
an invisible intangible net.

Mrs. Harvey calmly accepted, but Rose exclaimed: "O, you're very kind
but I am going home on Saturday morning!"

"How sad! I should have liked to have you come."

After she was gone Rose sprang to her feet. "I must go now," she said
and there was a note in her voice which Mrs. Harvey knew meant
inflexible decision.

As they went upstairs Rose was filled with dread of some further
complication, but Mrs. Harvey only said:

"I love you, my child. I wish you were going to stay here always."

She left the way open for confidences, but Rose was in a panic to get
away and kept rigid silence.

In the carriage she contrived to convey to Elbert her desire to be left
alone and so he kept back the words of love which were bubbling in his
good frank soul. He was saddened by it but not made hopeless. It would
have been a beautiful close to a dramatic day could he have kissed her
lips and presented her to his mother as his promised wife--but it was
impossible for even his volatile nature to break into her somber, almost
sullen, silence; and when he said "Good night, Rose!" with tender
sweetness she replied curtly, "Good night!" and fled.

She hurried past Mary to her own room and lay for hours on her bed,
without undressing, listening to the howl of the wind, the grind of cars
and the distant boom of the breakers. There was a storm in her heart
also.

She thought of that lovely and gentle home, of the power wealth would
give her, of the journeys into the world, of trips to Europe, to the
ocean, to Boston and New York and London. It could give her a life of
ease, of power, of grace and charm. O, how beautiful it all was, but----

To win it she had to cut off her old father. He never could fit in with
these people. She thought of his meeting with the Harveys with a
shudder. Then, too, she would need to give up her own striving toward
independence, for it was plain these people would not hear to her
continued effort. Even if they consented, she would be meshed in a
thousand other duties.

And then she thought of Mason toiling at his desk down there in the
heart of the terrible town, and the look on his face grew less and less
imperious and more wistful and pleading. This day she had caught a new
meaning from his eyes--it was as if he needed her; it seemed absurd, and
she blushed to think it, but so it seemed. That last look on his face
was the look of a lonely man.

His words came to her again and again: "Hitherto I have
drifted--henceforth I will sail!"

And she pushed away the splendid picture of a life of ease and reached
out for comradeship with a man of toil, of dreams and hidden powers.



CHAPTER XXIV

MASON TAKES A VACATION


As Mason walked away from the lake that terrible day it seemed as if he
had ceased to drift. The spirit of that grim helmsman appeared to have
entered into him. Life was short and pleasures few. For fifteen years he
had planned important things to do, but had never done them--feeling all
the time the power to write latent within him, yet lacking stimulus.
From the very first this girl had roused him unaccountably. Her
sympathy, her imaginative faculty as well as her beauty, had come to
seem the qualities which he most needed.

Could he have gone to his own fireside at once, the determining letter
would have been written that night, but the routine of the office, the
chaff of his companions, took away his heroic mood, and when he entered
a car at twelve o'clock he slouched in his seat like a tired man, and
the muscles of his face fell slack and he looked like a hopeless man.

After Rose went home he seemed to Sanborn to be more impassible than
ever. As for Mason himself, it seemed as if some saving incentive had
gone out of his life--some redeeming grace. He had grown into the habit
of dropping in at Isabel's once a week, and Isabel had taken care that
Rose should be often there on the same evening; and so without giving
much thought to it he had come to accept these evenings as the
compensating pleasures of his sombre life.

It was such a delight to come up out of the vicious pitiless grind of
his newspaper day and sit there before the fire, with the face of a
radiant girl to smile upon him. Her voice, with its curiously
penetrating yet musical quality, stirred him to new thoughts, and often
he went home at ten or eleven and wrote with a feeling of exultant power
upon his book. After she went home he wrote no more; he smoked and
pondered. When he called upon Isabel and Sanborn he continued to smoke
and to ponder.

He had not abandoned his allegory in talking with Sanborn, and Sanborn
and Isabel together could not get at his real feeling for Rose.

Sanborn asked one day plumply:

"Mason, why don't you marry the coolly girl, and begin to live?"

"It would be taking a mean advantage of her. She's going to be famous
one of these days, and then I should be in the way."

"Nonsense!"

"Besides, she probably would not marry me; and if she would, I don't
think I could keep up the pose."

"What pose?"

"Of husband."

"Is that a pose?" Sanborn smiled.

"It would be for me," Mason said, rather shortly. He was thinking once
more of the letter he had promised to write to Rose, but which he had
never found himself capable of finishing.

He put it in his pocket when he went up in July to spend a week at the
Herrick cottage at Oconomowoc. Isabel and Sanborn were married just
before leaving the city.

Sanborn said he had the judge come in to give him legal power to compel
Isabel to do his cooking for him, and Isabel replied that her main
reason was to secure a legal claim on Sanborn's practice.

The wedding had been very quiet. Society reporters (who did not see it)
called it "an unique affair." But Mason, who did see it, said it was a
very simple process, so simple it seemed one ought to be able to go
through it oneself. To which Sanborn replied: "Quite right. Try it!"

They had a little cottage on the bank of the lake, and Sanborn came up
on Saturdays with the rest of the madly busy men who rest over Sunday
and over-work the rest of the week. Mason had been with them a week,
and, though he gave no sign, he was nearing a crisis in his life. He had
gone to the point of finishing his letter to Rose--it was lying at that
moment in his valise waiting to be posted--but it was a long way from
being over with. It was a tremendous moment for him. As he approached
the deciding moment the deed grew improbable, impossible. It was a very
beautiful life there on the lake, with nothing to do but smoke and
dream, but one evening he had the impulse to ask Isabel's advice, and
after dinner he courteously invited her to sail with him.

There was some joking by Sanborn about the impropriety of such a thing
on Isabel's part, and many offers to man the boat, which, Mason said,
sprang from jealousy. "I consider I am doing you people a kindness in
not letting you bore each other into black hatred." It ended in the two
friends drifting away over the lake, while Sanborn called after them
threats of war if they were not at the wharf at nine--sharp!

They talked commonplaces for a time, while the sky flushed and faded and
the lake gradually cleared of its fisher boats. Slowly the colors grew
tender and a subtle, impalpable mist rose from the water, through which
the boat drifted before an imperceptible breeze.

The two sailors lay at ease, Mason at the rudder. The sail stood up
light and airy and soundless as a butterfly's wing. It pointed at the
sparse stars as if with warning finger.

The hour and the place were favorable to confidences. As the dusk
deepened, a boat-load of young people put off into the lake, singing
some wailing sweet song. They were far enough away to be unobtrusively
impersonal. A plover was faintly calling from the sedgy shore on the
other side.

"One should be forever young," said Mason broodingly.

Isabel said: "Once I heard a cow low, and a robin laugh, while a cricket
chirped in the grass. Why should they have moved me so?"

Mason mused a moment. "The cow was maternity pleading for its suckling;
the robin's laugh suggested a thousand springtimes, and the cricket
prophesied the coming of frost and age. Love and loss are in the wail of
yonder song, the loneliness of age in yonder piping bird, and the
infinite and all-absorbing menstruum of death in the growing dusk."

"And the light of man's optimism in the piercing out of the stars."

"It may be so," he replied uncertainly.

They drifted on in silence. There was a faint ripple at the prow and
that was all. At last Mason roused himself to say his word.

"All these intangible essences and powers are no apparent reason why I
should do so foolish a thing--but they have influenced me. Today I wrote
to our coolly girl--I hope to say _my_ coolly girl."

Isabel caught her breath:

"Warren, did you? I'm very glad. If I could reach you I'd shake your
hand."

"I don't rejoice. This thing which boys and girls find easy I find each
year more difficult, quite equal to the revolution of the earth--perhaps
the girl will save me from myself."

"She'll save you _for_ yourself, and you'll be happy."

"It is impossible to say," he said sombrely. "I have warned her fairly.
Once I should not have warned the woman of my choice. Am I gaining in
humanity or losing? Please lower your head, I am going to tack."

The boat swung about like a sleeping gull, and the sail slowly filled,
and the ripple at the prow began again.

After a little Mason went on in a calm, even voice:

"The world to me is not well governed and I hesitate about marriage, for
it has the effect, in most cases, of perpetuating the human species,
which is not as yet a noble business. I am torn by two minds. I don't
appear to be torn by even one mind, but I am. I am convinced that Rose
has imagination, which is in my eyes the chief thing in a wife. It
enables her to idealize me"--there was a touch of his usual humor in
that--"and fills me with alleged desire to possess her, but it is sad
business for her, Isabel. When I think of her I am of the stature of a
thief, crouching for concealment."

The two in the boat were no longer young. They had never been lovers,
but they seemed to understand each other like man and wife.

"I am old in knowledge of the world--my life has ground away any charm I
might have once possessed. For her sake I hope she will refuse."

She perceived he was at the end of his confidence, and she began
speaking. "I promised you a story once," she began, "and I'm going to
tell it now, and then we'll return to Rose."

She spoke in a low voice, with a little catching of the breath peculiar
to her when deeply moved. It made her voice pulse out like the flow of
heavy wine. She faced him in the shadow, but he knew she was not looking
at him at all. Just how she began he didn't quite hear--perhaps she was
a little incoherent.

"O those days when I was seventeen!" she went on. "Everything was
magical. Every moonlit night thrilled me with its possibilities. I
remember how the boys used to serenade me, and then--I was a mediæval
maiden at my barred window, and they were disguised knights seeking me
in strange lands by their songs.

"You know what I mean. I tingled with the immense joy of it! They sang
there in the moonlight, and I tip-toed to the window and peeped out and
listened and listened with pictures and pictures tumbling in and out of
my head.

"Of course it was only the inherited feminine rising up in me, as you
would say--but it was beautiful. It just glorified that village street,
making it the narrow way in a Spanish city."

There was silence again. Mason softly said: "Bend your head once more."

When the boat swung around and the faint moon and the lights of the town
shifted, Isabel went on.

"One of the boys who came on those midnight serenadings became my
hero--remember, I was only seventeen and he was twenty! We used to meet
on the street--and oh! how it shook me. My heart fluttered so I could
not speak, and at first I had to run past him. After a time I got
composed enough to speak to him"--

Her voice choked with remembered passion, but after a little pause she
went on:

"All this, I know as well as you, is absurd"--

"It is very beautiful," he said. "Go on!"

"He was tall and straight, I remember, with brown hair. He was a workman
of some kind. I know he used to show me his powerful hands and say he
had tried to get the grime from them. They were splendid, heroic hands
to me. I would have kissed them if I dared. It was all incredible folly,
but I thought I was loving beneath my station, for I was a little
grandee in the town. It pleased me to think I was stooping--defying the
laws of my house. He never tried to see me at home--he was good and
clean--I can see that now, for I remember just how his frank, clear eyes
looked at me. He didn't talk much, he seemed content to just look at
me."

"Well, that went on for weeks. He used to follow me to church, as the
boys do in country towns, but I used to go to different places just to
see if he would find out and be there to meet me at the door. He never
offered to speak to me or take my arm, but he stood to see me go by. Do
you know, if I go into a country church today, that scent of wilted
flowers and linen and mingled perfumes almost makes me weep?"

"I understand."

Her voice was lower when she resumed.

"Well, then the dreadful, the incredible happened. He did not meet me
any more, and just when I was wild with rage and humiliation came the
news of his illness--and then I suffered. O God! how I suffered! I
couldn't inquire about him--I couldn't see him. I had kept my secret so
well that no one dreamed of my loving him so. The girls thought that he
followed me and that I despised him, and when they jested about him I
had to reply while my heart was being torn out of me. I spent hours in
my room writhing, walking up and down, cursing in a girl's way myself
and God--I was insane with it all."

She drew a long breath but it did not relieve her. Her voice was as
tense as before when she spoke again. The helmsman leaned to listen, for
he could hardly hear.

"Then one day he died--O that awful day! I sat in my room with the
curtains down. I couldn't endure the sunlight. I pretended to be sick. I
was numb with agony and yet I could do nothing. I couldn't even send a
rose to lay on his coffin. I couldn't even speak his name. I could only
lie there like a prisoner gagged and on the rack--to suffer--suffer!"

The shadow of the sail covered the woman like a mantle. It was as if the
man listening had turned away his face from her sacred passion. She was
more composed when she spoke again:

"Well, it wore itself out after a time. I got hungry and ate once more,
though I did not suppose I ever should. I came down to the family a week
later, a puzzle to them. They never thought to connect my illness with
the death of an obscure machinist, and then in the same way I crept
gradually back into society--back into the busy life of a popular young
girl. But there was one place where no one ever entered. I never told
any one of this before. I tried to tell Dr. Sanborn about it once, but I
felt he might not understand; I tell you because--because you can
understand and because you may be influenced by it and understand your
wife when she comes to you. These days come to many women at seventeen
and, though we can't spare them out of our lives, it doesn't mean
disloyalty to our present ideals. I think you understand?"

"Very well indeed," he said. "I have such memories myself."

"Then I resolved to be a physician. I felt that he would not have died
if he had been treated properly; the connection was obscure but powerful
enough to consecrate me to the healing profession. Then I met Dr.
Sanborn. I love him and I couldn't live without him, but there is that
figure back there--to have him and all that he means go out of my life
would take part of my heart away." Her voice had appeal in it.

"You understand me? It was all clean and innocent, but it was my first
passion and I can't spare it. Rose may have such a memory. It has
nothing to do with today, with her present ideals. It is not
disloyalty--it is--"

"The love of love," said Mason. "I thank you for your trust in me. Rose
is what she is, not what she has been." And then in perfect stillness
the boat swung around and drifted toward the shore, where a ruby lantern
was swinging. Isabel turned and her voice was tremulous with
earnestness.

"Warren, Rose loves you--not as she loved when a girl, but as a woman
loves. I think I understand your hesitancy--and I say you are wrong. You
need her and you will do her good. You will develop her."

"She will suffer through me."

"That is a part of development."

The boat was nearing the wharf and Sanborn's hearty voice came from the
shore:

"See here! Isn't it pretty late for a pair of rheumatic old folks to be
out sailing? It's 9:30 o'clock."

"The breeze failed us," Isabel answered, as Mason took her hand to help
her ashore.

"And the night was so beautiful," said Mason. Before she loosed his hand
Isabel shook it hard and now Mason understood. He mailed the letter that
night, and Rose held his future in her hand.



CHAPTER XXV

ROSE RECEIVES A LETTER


Rose went directly from that storm to the repose and apparent peace of
the country, and it helped her to make a great discovery. She found
every familiar thing had taken on a peculiar value--a literary and
artistic value. It was all so reposeful, so secure. A red barn set
against a gray-green wooded hillside was no longer commonplace. "How
pretty!" she thought; "I never noticed that before."

A little girl wrapped in a shawl was watching cattle in the field; a dog
sat near, his back to the misty drizzle. Rose saw it and put herself in
the place of that child, chilled and blue of hand, with unfallen tears
upon her cheeks.

A crow flying by with ringing, rough cry made her blood leap. Some
cattle streamed up a lane and over a hill; their legs moving invisibly
gave them a gliding motion like a vast centipede. Some mysterious charm
seemed imparted to everything she saw, and, as the familiar lines of the
hills began to loom against the sky, she became intolerably eager to see
her father and the farm. She hoped it would be a sunny day, but it was
raining heavily when she got out at the station.

He was there, the dear, sweet, old face smiling, almost tearful. He had
an umbrella and couldn't return her hug; but he put his arm about her
and hurried her to the carriage, and in a few moments they were
spattering up the familiar road.

Instantly it seemed as if she had never been away. She was a little girl
again; the horses shook their heads, impatient at the rain; the pools in
the road were green as liquid emerald, and were dimpled by the pelting
drops. The wheels flung segments of mud into the air, but the horses
drove ahead sullenly, almost desperately, unmindful of the splash and
splatter of mud and water.

Rose took keen delight in it all. She had been shut away from nature so
long, it seemed good to get back into even the stern mood of a May
storm. The great, reeling masses of gray cloud delighted her, and the
ringing cry of frogs seemed delicious orchestration. Everything was
fresh, clean, almost harsh. How arid and artificial the city life seemed
in the freshness of green fields!

It was a pleasure to return to the barnyard, to get back into the
kitchen where her aunt was phlegmatically working away at
supper-getting. She wiped her hands on her apron, and said "How-de-do!"
as if Rose were a neighbor just dropping in for a call.

The life all seemed heroically dull, but the coolness, repose and sanity
of nature was elemental, as if she had risen into the rainy sky or sunk
into the waters of the ocean. It was deathly still at times. And dark,
dark and illimitable and freshly sweet the night shut down over the
valley.

She went to sleep with the soft roar of the falling rain near her
window; and the faint puffing in of the breeze brought to her the
delicious smell of the rain-washed leaves, the acrid, pungent odor of
poplars, the sweet smell of maples, the fragrance of rich loam--she knew
them all.

By force of contrast she thought of Mason and his life in the city. The
roar of traffic; the thunder of great presses; the nights at the opera
or the theater, all had enormous weight and value to her, but how remote
it all was! In the country the city seemed unreal; in the city the
country seemed impossible.

She awoke at the cry of a jay in the maples, and then as she listened
she heard a mourning-dove sob from the distance. Robins were laughing
merrily, an oriole whistled once and flew away, and hark! yes, a thrush
was singing, sitting high in some tree-top, she knew.

The rain was over; the valley was flooded with sunshine. O, so
beautiful!--flooded with light like the love of God. She sprang up with
joyous energy. Life's problem was not without solution if she could
live--both city and country, too.

She felt her joy of the country doubled by her winter in the city--this
day was made marvelous by that storm on the lake.

Rhymes grew in her mind upon subjects hitherto untouched by her literary
perception. Things she had known all her life, familiar plants, flowers,
trees, etc., seemed touched all at once by supernatural radiance.

The clouds on the hills, the buzz of bees in the clover, the sabre swing
of poplar trees against the sky, moved her to song, and she wrote daily
with marvelous ease. She flung herself prone on the bank by the spring,
and strove to mix and be one with the wind and the trees. She thought of
her childish crooning over Carl that day his head lay in her lap, and
its significance came to her and voiced itself in music.

She traced out every path where her feet had trod as a child, and the
infinite significance and terror and high beauty of life and death came
upon her. She seemed to summon up and analyze all her past, as if she
were about to end one life and begin another. These wonderful moods and
memories in some unaccountable way co-ordinated themselves in lines of
verse, and the restless, vigorous heart of the girl felt the splendid
peace which comes when the artist finds at last that art which is verily
his.

The body of her verse grew, and she longed for Mason's opinion upon it,
and yet she feared to send it, it seemed so different from other verse.
At times she felt its passionate and imaginative quality, and made up
selections to send him, but ended always by putting them away again.

She had his picture in her room, and sometimes she sat down to write
with his sadly inscrutable face before her. She could see in it (as she
studied it here in her home) the lines of varied and restless thought
which make up the face of a man who largely comprehends American
civilization in the light of experience.

That face represented to her the highest type of manhood, and something
more. It was refined and infinitely subtle compared with the simple,
almost ox-like faces of the men about her. It was sad, too, as her
father's face in repose was sad, but the sadness was different. There
was patient, resigned sadness in her father's eyes and lips; in Mason's,
bitter, rebellious, perhaps despairing sadness, and something else,
too--youth taking hold on the hopelessness of the whole world.

And yet she knew how sweetly those lips could smile, and she had felt
the gentleness and purity hid in those eyes. He looked at her as no
other man looked, without boldness, without uncertainty, clean, manly
and just; and still there were those cynical lines about the lips; not
deep, but still perceptible.

She thought less of his fine, erect bearing, and yet she liked to see
him walking down the street. He had physical power and dignity, but his
face and eyes were etched in minutest detail upon her brain. The life
companionship of such a man came to seem more and more impossible for
her to attain to. The common little details of her life seemed to lower
her. She fell back into inelegant habits and careless speech, and every
time she realized it, it put Mason far off and far above her. Her verse
lost its brilliancy, its buoyancy, and became dark and bitter at times.

Every night she wondered if she might not hear from him. He had promised
to write, and he had hinted at something very important. She knew that
she had no definite claim upon him, and yet her last letter had
contained one question, not of any importance only as it gave him a
chance to reply if he felt like it.

Then the question came: "What of my winter in the city? What has it done
for me? Is not life as insoluble as ever--success as far away as ever?"

Could she live here in the country any easier because of her stay there;
did it not, in fact, make life harder?

It was in thinking about these things and Mason's letter, which did not
come, that her new-found rapture in nature began to cool down. She began
to spend more time in her room, thinking of him, and wondering what his
attitude toward her really was.

She had moments at last when his face seemed cynically smiling at her.
What did he care for an awkward country girl like her? He pitied her,
that was all. He wanted to help her, and had tried, and finding her
dull, had given her up and forgotten her. He knew scores of beautiful
women, actresses, artists, millionaires' daughters; it was absurd to
suppose that a girl from the coolly could be of any special interest to
him; and to win his love, that was impossible.

She had not the personal vanity which makes so many pretty and brainless
women think themselves irresistible to any man, and a fair return for
any man's name and fame. Her flesh she made little of in the question.

She hoped each week for a reply, and in her letters to Isabel asked for
news about "all friends," meaning one especially.

Isabel wrote, saying they had invited Mr. Mason up to stay a few days at
their cottage, and that Elbert Harvey had asked after her, and couldn't
she come down?

By the middle of July she had begun to pass days without writing at all.

When the letter from Mason came her father brought it to her with a
smile: "Guess this is a love-letter; it's a big one!"

She took it in her hand, feeling a keen, swift premonition of its
importance. It was indeed a heavy letter--almost a packet.

She went to her room with it and took a seat by the window, quite
deliberately, but her hands shook as she opened the envelope. Her senses
seemed some way to acquire unnatural keenness, like a scared animal's.
She heard every voice about the barnyard, and she felt the wind on her
cheek like a live thing beating its slow wings. The letter began simply:

     "DEAR MISS DUTCHER:

     "I must begin by asking pardon for not writing before, but as a
     matter of fact I have not found this letter easy to compose. It
     represents a turning point in my life, and contains an
     important decision, and I have never been less sure of my
     judgment than now.

     "This letter may be considered an offer of marriage. It is well
     to say that now, and then all the things which come after, will
     be given their proper weight. Let me state the debit side of
     the account first, and if you feel that it is too heavy you can
     put the letter down and write me a very short answer, and the
     matter will be ended.

     "First, I say to you: whoso weds me weds sorrow. I do not
     promise to make you happy, though I hope my influence will not
     be always untoward. I cannot promise any of the things husbands
     are supposed to bring. I cannot promise a home. My own living
     is precarious, dependent upon my daily grind of newspaper work.
     For though I hope to achieve a success with my novel, great
     successes with novels do not mean much money. I do not feel
     either that I shall ever be free from money cares; luxury and I
     are to continue strangers.

     "I cannot promise to conform to your ways, nor to bend to your
     wishes, though I will try to do so. I cannot promise to assume
     cordial relations with your relatives, nor accept your
     friendships as binding upon me.

     "I cannot promise to be faithful to you until death, but I
     shall be faithful so long as I fill the relation of husband to
     you. I shall not lead a double life, or conceal from you any
     change in my regard toward you. If at any time I find a woman
     whom I feel I should live with, rather than with you, I shall
     tell you of her with perfect frankness. I _think_ I shall find
     you all-sufficient, but I do not know. Men and women change,
     grow weary of things, of bonds, of duties. It may be that I
     shall become and continue the most devoted of husbands, but I
     cannot promise it. Long years of association develop
     intolerable traits in men and women very often.

     "On the other hand, let me say I exact nothing from you. I do
     not require you to cook for me, nor keep house for me. You are
     mistress of yourself; to come and go as you please, without
     question and without accounting to me. You are at liberty to
     cease your association with me at any time, and consider
     yourself perfectly free to leave me whenever any other man
     comes with power to make you happier than I.

     "I want you as comrade and lover, not as subject or servant, or
     unwilling wife. I do not claim any rights over you at all. You
     can bear me children or not, just as you please. You are a
     human soul like myself, and I shall expect you to be as free
     and as sovereign as I, to follow any profession or to do any
     work which pleases you. It is but just to say that I have never
     been a man of loose habits. No woman has any claim upon me for
     deed or word. I have thought at various times that I could
     marry this woman or that woman, but I have never before made a
     proposition of marriage to any woman.

     "I have written you in good, set terms what you may expect of
     me. I am not a demonstrative man by nature, and my training
     from childhood has made me saving of words of endearment. My
     love for you must be taken largely for granted after it is once
     stated, for I regard the word 'love' as a jewel not to be
     carelessly tossed from hand to hand.

     "Doubtlessly I shall make a dull companion--that I cannot judge
     for myself."

The letter concluded with this characteristic touch; she seemed to
hear his voice as she read it:

     "I have written frankly because I believed it would prejudice
     you in my favor. Had I believed otherwise, doubtless I should
     have written in terms of flattery and deceit, for of such is
     man when seeking woman in marriage.

     "If you return the affirmative answer I shall be very happy to
     come up and spend the rest of my vacation at your father's
     home--provided it is agreeable to you."

Rose sat rigidly still in her chair, her hands in her lap, holding the
letter.

It had come again, this question of marriage, and this time it appealed
to her whole nature--to her intellectual part as well as to her material
self; uttered this time by a voice which had no tremor in it.

How strange it all was! How different from the other proposals she had
received; apparently cold and legal, yet under the lines she felt
something deep and manly and passionate, because she was only a coulé
girl, and he was a man of the great intellectual world; a man who
"molded public opinion" by the power of his editorial pen. He was
greater than that. In his presence you felt him to be a man of national
reputation living quietly under an assumed name.

There rose a great pride in her heart. He had selected her from among
the women of the world! He loved her so much he had written her this
strange letter, which plead for her under its rigid order of words. She
held the letter to her lips as if to get its secret meaning so and then
she dropped it as if it were a husk. No matter what it said, she felt
the spirit of the man.

She wrote a few lines and sealed them quickly. Then she fell into
thought upon the terms of his letter. She hardly comprehended the
significance of the minor statements, so filled was she with the one
great fact, he wished her to be his wife! She was poor, unknown, and yet
he had chosen her!

There was something sad in the letter, too--like his face it was
inscrutable, intricate, but (she believed) noble in intention. The
freedom of action which he claimed for himself did not trouble her, for
she felt his love beneath it. His word "comrade" pleased her, too. It
seemed to be wholesome and sweet, and promised intellectual
companionship never before possible to her.

O, to be the wife of such a man! to have his daily help and presence; it
was wonderful, it could not be true! Yet there lay the letter in her
lap, and there the firm, calm, even signature. She rose to her feet and
her heart dilated with pride, and her head was that of a newly crowned
princess. Oh, the great splendid world out there!

She took up her letter suddenly and went downstairs and out into the
yard in search of her father. He was sitting by the bees, with dreamy
eyes. He spent a great deal of his time there.

"Father, I want you to hitch Kitty to the buggy for me."

"Why, of course. Where are you goin', Rose?"

"I'm going to the Siding to post a letter. O, pappa John!" she cried
suddenly, putting her arms round him, "I'm going to be married."

John did not instantly comprehend her passion; he was slower to move,
but he said:

"Why, Rosie! When? Who to?"

"To a man in Chicago, Mr. Warren Mason, a great editor. I'm just writing
to him to come."

John began to feel the solemnity of the thought.

"Does he live in Chicago?"

"Yes." She understood his thought. "But we'll come and see you, summers,
just the same, pappa John."

"Well, I'll take the letter down."

"No, I must take it myself," she said, smilingly, holding the letter
behind her like a child.

There was something fine in carrying the letter to the office herself.
It seemed to hasten it. The horse was spirited and carried her at a
steady swift trot up hill and down, and the railway track was soon in
sight.

Suddenly an idea seized her; why not telegraph her answer. They might
suspect him to be her lover, but what did she care now? She penned this
message:

"Come up tomorrow if you can, please. Rose."

But afterward, as she approached the office, she shrank from handing it
in. It seemed to her too plainly a love message. She mailed her letter
and fell to calculating when it would reach him. He could not possibly
come till the second day, whereas if she telegraphed he might arrive in
the morning. This thought strengthened her resolution; going over to the
window she placed the message firmly before the operator, who knew her
and admired her deeply.

"Please send that at once, Mr. Bingham."

The operator smiled and bowed, and when he read the message he looked up
at her keenly, but did not smile.

"Any answer?" he asked.

"No, probably not," she replied. "Will it go right out?"

"Immediately."

As she turned away to ride home her soul took wing. A marvelous
elevation and peace came upon her. It was done. Life held more than
promise now, it contained certainties. Her chosen one of Israel was
coming!



CHAPTER XXVI

MASON AS A LOVER


The telegram came to Mason as he sat on the porch of the Herrick
cottage. He read it, and his eyes smiled, but his feeling was not one of
amusement. The significance of that impulsive message struck deep, and
his blood responded to it as if it were an embrace.

It settled all doubt in his mind concerning her. She was as free and
self-reliant as he thought her, and the severe terms of his proposal had
not repelled her, and yet that she loved him in a right human and very
passionate way did not seem to him possible.

He had, also, other misgivings. He wished he had delineated more fully
in his letter the negative side of his character. "She is young and
beautiful," he thought, "and will want to see life. She will value
social affairs--I am done with them. She will want words of tender
protestation, flattery perhaps, which I cannot give.

"My habits are fixed. I like my silent pipe at night after dinner. I
shall undoubtedly get more and more disinclined to social duties as time
goes on.

"In ten years I shall be forty-eight years old, an old man, when she is
just in her splendid June season. She will find the difference between
our ages wider than now. She will be a wife. I can free her when she
asks it, but I cannot give her back her sweet, superb girlhood. I can
give her perception and comprehension of the world and of life, but I
cannot make her young again. I may die after a few years, leaving her a
mother with a hazardous future. Then she will be doubly cursed.

"Again, this marriage may ruin and interrupt her career. With some women
marriage, especially maternity, seems to take away their power as
artists, and to turn them into cooks and nurses; meritorious vocations
of course, but----"

All night long he alternately mused and dozed upon the problem. He
roused up at early daylight with a feeling of doom upon him. He had made
a mistake. He was not fitted to be a husband--he was a poor thing, at
best, who had not had energy enough to get out of a groove nor to demand
adequate pay for grinding in his groove. He lacked "push," and had
dreamed away the best years of his life, at least such parts of the
years as he had saved from the merciless drive of his paper. He was
pulp, squeezed dry.

He groaned, and a curse came upon his lips, and his forehead knit into a
tangle of deep lines. His paper had used him. It had sucked the blood of
his heart. The creative energy of his brain had gone into the impersonal
columns of the editorial page--to what end? To the end that the Evening
Star Publishing Company should be rated high in Bradstreet. Had any
human being been made better by anything he had written in those
columns? Politics? Good God! he had sold his soul, his blood, the grace
of his limbs, the suppleness of his joints, the bloom of his
enthusiasms, to put this or that damned party into power.

And now, when a beautiful young woman, singing her way to fame, had sent
for him, he must go to her, cynical, thin-haired, stiff in joints, bent
in shoulders and reeking with the smell of office life and, worst of
all, worked out, his novel not yet written, and his enthusiasm turned to
indifference and despair.

The problem of the age that morning made him savage. He looked out of
the window at the farmhouses gleaming in the early light, at the smoke
curling up into the still air, at the men going to milk the cows--

"The damn fools!" he said in his heart. "They don't know enough to
vegetate any more than I had sense to know I was becoming a machine. Rot
and rot! So we go like leaves to the muck-heap." The porter rushed in
and shook him.

"Almos' to Bluff Siding, sah."

This put a little resolution into his blood, and he dressed rapidly,
with little thought on anything else. Once or twice he looked out at the
misty blue hills, cool and fresh with recent rains. As the porter came
to get his grip a few minutes later, Mason wondered how he should meet
her, with a hand-shake or a kiss? How would she meet him?

As the train slowed down he saw her at the platform. She sat in a
carriage waiting for him. He had one flashing thought: "There sits my
wife!" It startled him. The tremendous significance of that phrase made
his brain dizzy for a moment.

She was dressed trimly, he noticed, as he came toward her, and she held
her horse firmly--he liked her for that, it showed self-mastery. As for
him, he felt more uncertainty of footing than ever before in his life,
and tried to throw off the stoop in his shoulders.

As he came forward, she flushed, but her steady eyes met his
unwaveringly. He looked into their clear obscurity of depth, wherein
were purity and unworldly womanly ways.

She held out her hand, firm and strong, and he took it in his. Outwardly
it was merely a friendly greeting, yet something subtler than light came
from her to him. He did not speak for an instant, then he said:

"This is good of you! I did not expect this great pleasure."

Her voice trembled as she said:

"I wanted to be the first to greet you, and besides, papa wouldn't know
you."

He smiled for the first time.

"That's true. But it's very early--quite in the small hours."

"Oh, that's nothing; I'm a farmer's girl, you know. But put your valise
in, we must be off."

How strong and supple she looked! and how becoming her silk waist and
straw hat! She could drive, too. Some way she seemed quite another sort
of person here in her own land and in her own carriage. She was so much
more composed. "She has imagination," he repeated to himself.

They turned into the road before he spoke again.

"So this is your 'coolly'?"

"No, this is our valley. The coolly is over there where you see that
cloud shadow sliding down."

He looked about slowly at the hills and fields.

"It's very fine; much finer than Oconomowoc and Geneva."

"We like it ... papa and I."

They were both talking around the bush, as the saying goes, but he
finally said:

"I was very glad to receive your telegram. Am I to take it as an
affirmative answer?"

She said with effort:

"I wanted you to see how poor and humble we all are before--before I--"

He studied her profile. Her lips quivered, and a tear glistened through
the veil.

"On my part," he said, "I regretted that I did not further set forth my
general cussedness and undesirability.--How well you drive!" he said, by
way of relieving the stress of the moment.

He took command now, and there were no more tender allusions. He sniffed
the smell of the grass and the way-side trees, and remarked upon the
cattle, and inquired the names of several birds whose notes reached
across the field.

"Do you know, I'm no wild lover of the country, and I don't admire the
country people unreservedly. There are exceptions, of course--but my
experience with them has not been such as to make them heroic sufferers,
as the new school of fiction sets 'em forth. They are squalid enough and
poor enough, heaven knows, but it is the squalor of piracy--they do as
well as I should under the same circumstances, no doubt."

Rose looked at him narrowly, as if to find his real thought. He stopped
abruptly at her glance.

"I beg your pardon for boring you; but these disagreeable phases of my
character should be known to you. I'm full of whims and notions, you'll
find."

She looked away and a moment later said: "There is our farm; that house
in the grove is ours."

"Cattle I hate, so I hope your father will not expect me to be
interested in stock."

This was the first time he had mentioned her father, and it moved her
unaccountably. It would be so dreadful if he should not understand her
father. His perverse attitude toward her and toward the country had
brought her from exalted singleness of emotion down to a complexity of
questionings and forebodings.

As they whirled in the yard Mason saw a new house of the ambitious
pork-pie order, standing in a fairly well-kept sward, with a background
of barns, corncribs, pigsties and beehives. A well-to-do farmstead of
the more fortunate sort, and the thought that the man coming out of the
barn to meet them was to be his father-in-law struck him like a gust of
barnyard air. Really could it be that he had made this decision?

As the man came nearer he appeared a strong-armed, gentle-faced farmer
of sixty. His eyes were timid, almost appealing. His throat was brown
and wrinkled as leather. His chin beard was a faded yellow-grey, and his
hands were nobbed and crooked in the fingers. He peered at Mason through
dimmed eyes.

"Father," said Rose, and her voice trembled a little, "this is Mr.
Mason."

John Dutcher put up his hand heartily.

"How do you do, sir?" His timid smile touched Mason, but there was
something else in the man which made him return the hand-clasp.

"I am glad to see you, Mr. Dutcher," he said, and his tone was so
genuine it brought a gush of tears to the daughter's eyes. Her lover
understood her father after all.

"Won't you 'light out, sir?" continued John with elaborate hospitality.

"Well, yes, I think I will," said Mason, and Rose's spirits shook off
their cowls.

Suddenly she heard every bird singing, the thrush in the poplar top, the
catbirds in the willows, the robin on the lawn; the sun flooded the
world with magical splendor. It was morning in the world and morning in
her life, and her lover was walking up the path by her side.

It was splendid beyond belief to show him to his room, to bring him
water and towels and to say from the doorway, with a smile:

"Breakfast is ready!"

The picture that she made lingered pleasantly on Mason's interior eye.
She was so supple of form and so radiant of color, and so palpitant with
timid joy.

She sat alone at the table when he came out. She explained as she showed
him his seat, "Father and my aunt had breakfast long ago."

Mrs. Diehl brought the coffee in and bowed awkwardly to Mason. The whole
thing seemed like a scene in a play to him. It was charming, all the
same, to sit alone at the table with such a girl; it was just the least
bit exciting. His hands shook a little, he noticed.

As he took his cup of coffee from her he said whimsically:

"I expect to wake up soon."

"Does it seem like a dream to you too?"

"Well, it isn't my everyday life, I must confess."

To her he seemed handsomer and more refined than in the city. He seemed
simpler, too, though he was still complex enough to keep her wondering.
The slope of his shoulders and the poise of his head were splendid to
her. It could not be possible that he was here to see her; to be served
by her; to spend the days with her; to be her husband if she should say
so.

And yet she retained her dignity. She did not grow silly nor hysterical
as a lesser woman might have done. She was tremulous with happiness and
wonder, but she sat before him mistress of her hands and voice. Her very
laughter pleased him; if she had giggled--heavens, if she had giggled!

John also went busily, apparently calmly, about his work. Mason was
pleased at that; it showed astonishing reserve in the man.

Again that keen, sweet feeling of companionship--wifehood--came to Rose
as they walked out side by side into the parlor. He had come to her;
that was the marvelous thing! She was doing wifely things for him; it
was all more intimate, more splendid than she thought!

They sat down in the best room and faced each other. It was their most
potential moment. Breakfast was eaten and the day was before them, and
an understanding was necessary.

"Now, I can't allow you to be hasty," Mason said. "I'll tell you what I
think you had better do; defer your answer until two weeks from today,
when I shall return to the city. That will give us time to talk the
matter over, and it will give you time to repent."

A little shadow fell over her and the sunlight was not quite so
brilliant. The incomprehensible nature of the man came to her again, and
he seemed old, old as a granite crag, beyond song, beyond love, beyond
hope.

Then he smiled: "Well, now, I'm ready to go see the world; any caves,
any rocking boulders, any water tower?"

She took up the cue for gaiety: "No, but I might take you to see the
cemetery, that is an appropriate Sunday walk; all the young people walk
there."

"The cemetery! I'm a believer in crematories. I'll tell you what we'll
do. After you've hung out the wash-boiler to dry we'll go down under the
trees, and I'll listen to some of your verse. Now, that is a tremendous
concession on my part. I hope you value it to the full."

"I do, indeed."

"You do? good! We'll put the matter in movement at once."

"The dew is still on the grass," she said warningly.

"So it is. I thank you for remembering my growing infirmities. Well,
let's go out and see the pigs. As I told you, I hate cattle and swine,
they act out so frankly the secret vices of man--but, never mind, I'll
go out and have it out with your father."

The moment he began in that tone she was helpless.

They moved out into the barnyard, but John was not in sight.

"I guess he's with his bees," Rose said. "He likes to sit out there and
watch them when he is resting."

They peered over the fence, and their eyes took in a picture they will
never forget while they live. John Dutcher sat before his bees in the
bloom of the clover, his head bowed in his hands. He was crying for his
lost daughter.

There came a gripping pain in the girl's throat, the hot tears rushed to
her eyes, and she cried in a voice of remorseful agony:

"Father--pappa John!"

He lifted his head and looked at her, his eyes dim with tears, his lips
quivering.

The girl rushed through the gate, and Mason turned and walked away like
a man discovered thieving from an altar.



CONCLUSION

THE WIND IN THE TREETOPS


Mason freshened magically under her sweet and self-contained
companionship. She did not coddle him, nor bore him by attentions, but
seemed to do the right thing instinctively. She assumed command over him
in certain ways--that is, she insisted on his taking long walks and
drives with her--though he sturdily refused to climb hills. "Bring me to
them gradually," he said, "for I am from Egypt."

One Sunday afternoon he consented to try an easy one and they started
out--she in radiant, laughing exultation, he in pretended dark
foreboding of the outcome.

She led the way with swift, steady swing of skirts, her smiling face a
challenge to him when he fell too far behind. He never ceased to admire
her powerful, decisive movement and her radiant color, though he said
nothing about it to her.

She stopped at a spring which came silently to light beneath an
overhanging sandstone. There was no dipper, and Rose, with a new daring,
dropped on her knees and dipped some of the cool, sweet water in her
palm.

"Do you thirst, Sir Guy?"

He kneeled beside her with a comical groan, and drank from her hand.

"Thanks, a sweeter draught from fairer hand was never quaffed."

Rose was highly elated at the success of her trick. She dipped another
palm full. He shook his head.

"With your permission I'll use my hat brim."

"I'll show you how to do it," she said. She rose and leaped the little
stream, and flung herself down full length on the ground, and resting
her palms on two flat stones, she drank from the pool, like an Indian.

"There!" she cried triumphantly. "That's the way to drink. All my life
I've done this way at this spring--when there wasn't anyone to see."

Mason felt a wild charm in this. Most other women would have tumbled to
pieces doing such a thing, while she sprang up a little flushed, but
with no other sign of exertion.

There was something primeval, elemental, in being thus led by a
beautiful woman through coverts of ferns and hazel. Every shadow seemed
to wash away some stain or scar of the city's strife. He grew younger.

"I almost like this sort of thing," he said.

They came at last to the smooth slope of the peak where grass stood tall
in bunches on a gravelly soil, and wild flowers of unusual kinds grew.
As they mounted now, the landscape broke over the tree tops, and the
valleys curved away into silent blue mist.

On every side low wooded ridges lay, with farms spread like rugs
half-way up their deep green clearings. On the further slope a pasture
came nearly to the summit, and the tinkle of a bell among the bushes
sounded a pastoral note. A field of timothy farther on to the left
glowed with a beautiful pink-purple bloom.

"Isn't it beautiful," asked Rose.

Mason dropped full length on the grass before replying.

"Yes, it is lovely--perfectly pastoral. Worthy a poem."

"I've written three, right on this spot," she said a little shyly.

He seemed interested.

"Have you? Haven't one with you?"

"No."

"Always go armed. Now here's a golden opportunity gone to waste."

She smiled shyly.

"I can repeat one though."

"Can you? Better yet! Recite one."

She sat down near him, but not too near, and began in a soft hesitant
voice to repeat a poem which was full of feminine sadness and
wistfulness. As she went on Mason turned his face toward her, and her
eyes fell and her voice faltered.

"That's glorious!" he said. "Go on."

The wind swept up the slope and through the leaning white bodies of the
birches with a sadness like the poem. The wild barley bowed and streamed
in the wind like an old man's beard; the poem struck deep into secret
moods, incommunicable in words--and music came to carry the words. The
girl's eyes were sweet and serious and the lovely lines of her lips
shifted and wavered.

Mason suddenly reached out and took the girl's right hand. Her voice
died out and her eyes met his. He drew her hand toward him and laid his
lips upon it.

"You're a poet," he said. "You have found your voice, and I--I love you
because you are a poet and because you are a beautiful woman."

The touch of his bearded lips upon her hand was the event of her life,
and the whole world reshaped itself. His praise of her poem, her victory
over him as a critic was great, but his final words drowned in fierce
light the flame of her art's enthusiasm.

Once more a man's voice came to her, filled with entreaty and command,
but in this case she had no reservations. It was well, it was
inevitable, and it was glorious to set her face toward wifehood and fame
with such a man as companion, friend and lover.

A couple of weeks later, Mason came down from his room with a grim look
on his face. He stepped out on the porch and stood there feeling the
change in the air. The summer was over.

Rose came out, and he put his arm about her.

"Hark!" he commanded. "Do you hear the wind in the tree-tops? It brings
me the roar of the city this morning. I hear the grind of cars, the roar
of mills, the throb of presses; the city calls me and I must go. My
vacation is over. I must say good-by tonight."

"It's very beautiful up here now," she said a little wistfully. "The
sumac is beginning to turn and the hills are like jewels."

"Oh yes, it is beautiful," he said smiling a little. "But down there
life is. Infinite novelty, ceaseless change. As you love the country, so
I love the city. It is a greater pleasure to me to meet men than trees,
and concerts are more than winds in the pines. Artist souls, poets,
people who do and think, are there, and so I must go."

"When shall I go?" she asked.

"When you please," he said. "I have no commands. You are perfectly free
to do as you like. I need you always now."

"Then I will go tonight," she said firmly.

He turned his eyes upon her in a look she never forgot.

"My dearest girl, do you realize what you are doing? Do you realize that
you are entering upon a problematical line of action--that you are
inviting pain and sorrow and care, that you are leaving girlhood and
leisure behind--that you are entering gates that never swing outward. Do
you know this--once more and finally, do you realize all this?"

She stood before him stronger than he; he felt it. She knew him at last
since that touch of his lips to her arm, since that look in his
eyes--and she said: "I realize it all, and I choose it."





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