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Title: Jimmy Quixote - A novel
Author: Gallon, Tom
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                           Jimmy Quixote

                              A NOVEL

                           By TOM GALLON

    Author of "Tatterley," "The Golden Thread," "Meg the Lady," etc.

    Hurst and Blackett, Limited,
    Paternoster House, E.C.



    In the early days of a friendship that has happily lasted for some
    years, you were witness of, and kindly helper in, some of those
    struggles which must always be the lot of the young beginner in
    literature. They were good days, and I look back at them with more
    of laughter than of tears. And because you will recognise in these
    pages certain autobiographical notes of that time, and may care to
    smile with me at them, I feel that this book most properly belongs
    to you.

    Your friend always,


    _London, 1906._





"Old Paul" struggled back out of the big, roaring, bustling world one
day in late July, and was rather glad to leave it behind him. Old Paul
had been jostled and hurried and flurried and stared at in London; had
drifted aimlessly into the wrong departments in shops, and had nearly
bought the wrong things, and had more than once lost his way. For,
indeed, it was a far cry to the days when Old Paul had known London
well, and it had known him. And when it is remembered that he was clad
in somewhat shabby country clothing, and that he went into the biggest
shops, and with a total disregard for money bought the most
extraordinary things, and insisted on carrying the greater number away
with him, there is small wonder that he was stared at. Now, at the end
of a hot and bustling day, he got out at the little local station at
Daisley Cross, drew a deep breath of fresher, purer air, and smiled to
think that he was near home.

A sympathetic porter, who had known him for some years, helped him to
adjust the little cascade of parcels that tumbled out with Old Paul on
to the platform; remarked that he was "main glad" to see Old Paul
again--quite as though that gentleman had been absent for a few years,
instead of merely for the length of a summer day. In the simplest
fashion Old Paul borrowed some string from the porter, and contrived an
ingenious arrangement of slings about his broad shoulders wherewith to
support certain refractory parcels; and, finally, something after the
manner of a very hot and perspiring summer Father Christmas, started off
for home.

The summer twilight was all about him as he breasted the hill at the end
of the village, and came out on to the long sweep of road that led down
into the valley; and so faced a prospect that had been homely and
familiar to him for some years--and faced it with simple gratitude. On
such a day as this, Old Paul always went back to that London he had
known so many years before with misgivings, and always returned from it
with an uplifting of his heart; and yet Old Paul turned to-night a face
towards the twilight that was young and unlined. True, it may have been
lined with unaccustomed wrinkles of perplexity in London that day; but
all those lines were smoothed away now as he went on through the
gathering dusk, tramping steadily, with the step of a man used to
country roads and broad uplands. As he walked he pushed back the soft
hat he wore, displaying a rather high forehead, and light brown hair
growing a little thin; and he smiled to himself as at some problem that
was exercising his mind--yet not exercising it in any troublesome way.

"I hope there's nothing I've forgotten," he muttered, glancing about him
at the parcels which formed a sort of bulwark round his tall figure. "If
I hadn't lost the paper when that very agreeable young woman was
advising me about the length of Moira's frock, I should feel more
certain in my own mind. I tried hard to remember most things--and I
don't want another journey. The curtains for the study are hardly dark
enough; but then the man said they were a pleasing pattern. And, after
all, I was most careful to tell him what they were wanted for. Well, we
must hope for the best."

Twenty yards further on he stopped, and took off his hat, and dashed it
quite unexpectedly and yet with no real violence to the ground. "Jimmy's
boots!" he cried, and had turned and made off towards the station again
before he realised that there was no possibility of getting to London
again that night. Then, as he turned in the road and dusted his hat, a
pleased smile gradually stole over his face; he tapped one of the
parcels that hung from his arm.

"Of course--how very foolish of me!" he whispered. "But I'll own it gave
me a turn for the moment; I could scarcely have faced Jimmy without his
boots. How perfectly absurd! I stopped the cab and went back at the very
last moment. Heigho! what a day it's been!"

So much of a day had it been out of the ordinary course of a quiet life,
that Old Paul surreptitiously touched certain of the parcels as he
strode along, and evidently mentally counted them more than once; shook
his head doubtfully at the recollection of the lost list. Nevertheless,
by the time he came to a low gate in an old wall the last doubt seemed
to have cleared from his mind, and he went in with a smile on his face.
Dark though it was by this time, he took his way unerringly by a path
through what appeared to be a rambling old garden, and came to a
rambling old house; lifted the simple latch of a door, and went into a
little square hall; and was at home.

The scraping of a chair was heard instantly near at hand, and another
door opened, and an old woman appeared, looking out at him. He nodded
and smiled at her cordially, yet with something of the abashed demeanour
of a schoolboy who has returned home later than he should have done;
there was an apologetic air about him as he slid the strings from his
shoulders, and lowered the many parcels to the floor.

"I'm a little late, Patience," he said; "but that was the fault of the
train. I don't think you'll find, Patience, that anything has been
forgotten," he went on, evidently still mentally calculating the
parcels. "I've been most careful. And the babies?"

"All of them up, if you please, and not so much as a show of bed about
'em," exclaimed the old woman, with a little resentful toss of her head.
"I don't know what the world's comin' to," she went on, while she
stooped over the parcels, and prodded one or two of them with a sharp
forefinger. "Wasn't allowed in my young days--nor yours either, Master

"Ah--I'm glad they're up," said Old Paul, with a smile. "I've been
looking forward to seeing them all the way home--counting the miles, as
you might say. I can talk to them while I have my supper. I'm hungry,
Patience--with a great and mighty hunger."

"Supper's nearly spoilt," she snapped. "I'm not sure that you deserve
that I should have gone out of my way to make anything special--and then
see it spoiling itself on my very hands. And why you're standin' about
there, when by this time you might have been half through it, beats me,"
she added.

"I'll come at once, Patience--if you'll tell the babies," he said. "We
can count the parcels afterwards."

He was moving across to a further door, when it was opened, and a man
advanced towards him. A man much older than himself, clad in rusty
black, and with a curious peevish, forlorn cast of countenance. A man
with nervous trembling hands that fluttered over each other and about
his lips, and even over his straggling hair. A man who came forward
expectantly, with eyes only for the many parcels.

"My tobacco, Paul--you haven't forgotten my tobacco?" he asked, in a
strange subdued voice.

"No; that was one of the things I made sure of first of all," replied
Old Paul, in his cordial voice. "I'm sorry to be late, Anthony," he
added apologetically, as he dropped on one knee and began searching
among the parcels. "Now, did I make them put it up with the
stockings--or did I----"

But Patience had a word to say. She stooped suddenly, and swept the
parcels out of his hands; pointed with peremptory finger to the further
door. "Tobacco can wait--though he _has_ been growling about it all
day--supper can't," she exclaimed. "And as to the selfishness of some
folk--the least said about it the better."

Old Paul was moving towards the door of the dining-room; he stopped to
look back, and to shake a protesting head at the woman. "Not
selfishness, Patience," he said. "I wouldn't call it selfishness
exactly. A woman doesn't always understand what tobacco means to a man.
I think you'll find it with the stockings, Anthony," he added.

He passed into the room from which the other man had come, and saw set
out there his supper. The old woman was hard upon his heels; she
fluttered about him nervously and anxiously, even while she still
scolded at the thought of the spoilt meal. She thrust his chair forward,
and watched him while he sat down leisurely and removed the cover from
the dish; heaved a little quick sigh of satisfaction in response to his
boyish sniff of delight. Indeed, as she stood near, after seeing that he
had all he wanted, she made a little quick movement of the hands--almost
a movement of motherly benediction--behind him. Then, as she was
turning away, he laid down his knife and fork, and looked at her

"The babies, Patience," he said. "We've forgotten the babies!"

"They'll need no telling," said the old woman; and, indeed, at that
moment they swarmed into the room.

Perhaps in the manner of their coming, and in the style of their
reception, might best be shown the dispositions of the three children
who came to greet Old Paul. The first was a thin dark-eyed girl of some
eight or nine years of age, and with hair that was almost black; she
came in with a rush and with hair flying, eager to be first to greet the
man; and so was caught in a moment in the embrace of his arm, with her
cheek close against his, in silent contentment.

The second was a handsome boy of twelve or thirteen; he came more
slowly, but none the less with a smile of greeting for the man, and with
a hand outstretched to grasp Old Paul's disengaged hand; he leant shyly
against the table, and swung the big hand backwards and forwards in his
own while he looked at the man.

"It's been a beastly long day without you, Old Paul," was his greeting.

The third child came in sedately enough. She was very fair and somewhat
fragile-looking, with wide open blue eyes and a very perfect child-like
mouth. There was a daintiness about her that seemed to be in the very
air through which she moved. She came to the other side of the table,
and looked across at the man, and smiled.

"Old Paul's brought simply heaps of parcels," she said.

Old Paul laughed as he looked round at them. "Simply heaps and heaps of
parcels," he said, giving the girl beside him a sudden squeeze. "I think
you'll like your frock, Moira; two inches longer this time, my dear,
according to measurements. It was such fun," he went on gleefully,
glancing at the door, and lowering his voice. "I lost the list! I don't
think I've forgotten anything, but if I have we shall hear of it--shan't

He was like a big over-grown boy when he looked round upon them with
that mischievous smile; they seemed thoroughly to understand the danger
which threatened him, and to be ready enough to share it. He lowered his
voice still more as he went on speaking, heedless of the supper that was
cooling before him.

"But, dears, I had the greatest idea!" he whispered. "I found a shop
where they sold shawls--the sort of shawls that Patience loves; they're
difficult to get nowadays. And I bought one--of the most beautiful
colours ever you saw. Someone'll be making love to Patience when they
see her in it; it's a dream of a shawl. So that, you see, if I've
forgotten anything, I've only got to give her that, and----"

The door opened quickly, and the autocrat of the household came in, in
the shape of Patience. Immediately Old Paul began to eat at a great
rate, behaving quite badly, so far as table manners were concerned, in
his anxiety to show that he was demolishing the supper; but he spared
time between bites for a wink at the boy and at the dark-haired girl
beside him. Of the younger, fairer child he seemed a little afraid, as
though not quite understanding her. Patience, with a grunt, turned and
left the room, colliding as she did so with the old man, who was coming
in at the moment. He came in holding out a packet, and his face was a
face of grief.

"You've got the medium, Paul--and I always smoke the full-flavoured," he
whimpered. "And I've broken it now, so that they won't take it back. You
might have remembered, Paul; it's little enough I ask of you, in all

"Tobacco's tobacco--and one sort's as good as another," flashed out the
boy; but Old Paul laid a hand on his arm, and shook his head at him.

"You knew I'd run short, Paul," went on the complaining voice, "and I
was so looking forward to it. All day long I've sucked an empty pipe and
watched the clock; I couldn't work as usual, on account of missing it."
He picked at the tobacco in the broken package, and shook his head

"I'm sorry, Anthony--more sorry than I can say," said Old Paul humbly.
"Now, if a pipe of mine would soothe you--or do you any good----"

"Much too strong for me," complained the old man. "I suppose I shall
have to put up with this for a bit; but it's hard--it's very hard." He
grumbled his way out of the room, still looking disdainfully at the big
packet of tobacco he held.

Old Paul looked round at the children. "It was the list, dears," he said
penitently. "I remember now he did say the full-flavoured, and I put it
down; it only shows how careful anybody ought to be--doesn't it?"

He was almost dejected as he went on with his supper, while the children
watched him; presently he found voice to ask a question. "What have you
been doing all day?"

"Moira and I have been in the woods; we took sandwiches, and tried to
think that you'd be coming any minute," said the boy.

"Yes--and Jimmy made me afraid, because he said anything might happen to
you in London--and that you might never come back," said the girl of the
dark eyes, watching the man wistfully.

"That was only in fun," retorted the boy.

"Never frighten people only in fun," said Old Paul gravely, as he put
out a hand to the child as though to comfort her. "And Alice"--he
looked across at the child on the other side of the table--"what has
Alice been doing?"

There was a curious, subtle difference in his fashion of addressing the
younger girl; it was not a want of cordiality, but rather as though he
feared to offend her--desired, indeed, to win her good graces. She
answered him demurely; her smile was as sweet and as gentle as her
voice; but the words were not child-like at all.

"I thought it would be best for me to call and see the Baffalls," she

Old Paul nodded, with a covert glance at the faces of the boy and girl
on either side of him. "The little lady!" he murmured in admiration.

"They were very glad to see me, Old Paul," went on the child, "and Mr.
Baffall saw me home afterwards." And be it noted that she spoke with no
sense of priggishness or superiority, but rather with the air of one to
whom the more formal events of life inevitably appealed.

Old Paul rose to his feet; he kept an arm about the slim body of the
dark-eyed girl Moira. "Let's see the parcels," he said, with a gay
laugh. "Oh--the shops I went into--and the stairs I climbed--and the
lifts that rattled me up and down--and the people who wouldn't
understand what I wanted!"

He swept them all out into the hall, there to find themselves confronted
not only with the parcels, but with Patience, with a stern eye upon the

"Time for bed!" she exclaimed, and the man stopped guiltily, with the
children holding to him. In a hesitating nervous fashion, still with
that guilty schoolboy aspect, he pleaded for them.

"Special occasion, Patience, you know--and though I wouldn't for the
world gainsay anything you cared to suggest--still, if you didn't

"Ten minutes," said Patience quickly, and disappeared into her own
quarters. Thereafter the thing resolved itself into a mere riot of Old
Paul and the children and brown paper and string; and new wonders
displayed every moment.

For Old Paul had brought home a medley. This had been one of his few
excursions to London, carefully prepared for, and long looked forward
to; a day on which he procured things for his household that should last
for months to come. So much a business did Old Paul make of it, that
here was everything that had been suggested alike to Patience and to his
own thoughtful eye for the needs of his people. Boots and stockings,
according to sizes; linens and woollens, presently to be prepared by
Patience; stout country suits for the boy and frocks for the girls. Even
caps and hats had not been forgotten, while, in addition, even curtains
and household necessaries had been brought.

There was, too, a softer side to the purchases of the day. There was a
cricket bat and a new fishing rod for Jimmy; books and toys and dolls
for the girls. And, lastly, that shawl of many colours for Patience. He
spread it out, with anxious glances at them in hope of their admiration.

"If you'd given her that," said Jimmy, with conviction, "she'd have made
it twenty minutes at least!"

"I'm glad you like it," said Old Paul, with a sigh of relief. "There's a
great deal of it for the money, and it is certainly bright; more than
that, it smooths things with Patience. Not that I would have you think,"
he went on hurriedly, "that I have anything to say against Patience; but
we have to be careful not to hurt her feelings."

At that very moment the woman marched in; she simply stood still in the
hall, and looked at the clock. Old Paul stood up, with the shawl held
behind him and trailing on the ground, and approached her meekly.

"Oh, Patience, it occurred to me to-day that there might be

"Time's up!" snapped Patience, taking no notice of him.

"Something you would like from--from London. So I took the liberty of
bringing you----" He held out the thing sheepishly, without daring to
look at her.

She took it, and looked it over with the keen eye of one who knew the
value of every thread in it; opened her hard mouth as though to make
some caustic remark; and then broke down. Old Paul seemed to understand,
and under the pretence of adjusting it about her shoulders, contrived to
touch her cheek softly with one hand, and to whisper something in her
ear. She forgot about the children and the clock, and hurried away,
pulling the shawl about her as she went, as though the gaudy thing might
embrace her with a touch of love.

She remembered her duties strongly enough presently, and came back with
added bitterness to make up for that temporary weakness, and swept the
children off to bed. Old Paul stood at the foot of the stairs, and
called out messages to them as they went; then turned with a smile and a
sigh into his own room, and started to light a pipe. He stretched his
long figure in a chair, and sighed, and leaned back, and seemed to be
dreaming about the day.

And then, after a little time, sat up in the attitude of one listening.
He laid down the pipe, and kept his eyes fixed upon the door of the
room; noted with a little exultant nod that the door was softly opening,
and that someone was coming in. It was the dark-eyed girl Moira.

She had thrown a little dressing-gown over her nightdress; the little
white, slim feet were bare. Once having peeped into the room, and seen
that Old Paul was alone, she crept forward swiftly, and was in his arms
in a moment. For this was their sacred hour; this the time when she
innocently cheated old Patience, and crept from her bed to come to the
man who was all her world. And they were quite silent over it for a
minute or two; sufficient for them that the quiet world held only
themselves--this child and the man who loved her.

"My little maid!" he whispered at last. "So you've been in the woods all
day--with Jimmy?"

She stirred in his arms, and seemed to nod her head. "But this is better
than all the woods," she whispered. "This is the time you belong to
me--and only to me."

"Hungry, jealous little maid!" he whispered again. "I'm afraid that big
heart of yours aches sometimes for no cause. What will love do to you in
the big world, Moira?"

"I don't understand," she whispered, looking at him in perplexity.

"Well that you shouldn't, little maid," was his reply; and he kissed her
quickly as he spoke.

He watched her presently as she glided--a white shadow among grey
ones--upstairs to her room, and came back to his chair and his pipe with
a thoughtful frown upon his face. And in the smoke from his pipe seemed
to trace out, in a shadowy fashion, something of who he was, and what he
was, and how he came to be Old Paul of that big house at Daisley Cross.

Some years before Old Paul came to be known to the inhabitants of
Daisley Cross, a certain Mr. Paul Nannock had been known fairly well in
London. He was a tall, shy young man, with a painful habit of blushing,
and an utter disbelief in himself and his own powers. Finding that the
possession of considerable property smoothed the road of life for him,
and rendered it unnecessary that he should put forth those powers, Mr.
Paul Nannock drifted easily, and had rather a good time in a mild way.
People spoke of him with a shrug and a laugh; perhaps the chief thing
said about him was that very negative one--that there was no harm in
him. Perhaps it might have been better expressed by saying that Paul
Nannock had never grown up; that he looked out at the world with the
wide trusting eyes of a child, fully expecting to warm his hands at the
comfortable fire of life, without any fear of getting burnt in the

Then, in an unlucky day, Paul discovered that he had a heart; found it
beating uncomfortably, and causing him considerable trouble. The dark
eyes of a woman had looked into the innocent blue eyes of Paul Nannock;
and from that time, as you will not need to be told, the world was a
different place--never to be the happy-go-lucky place it had been
before. Paul Nannock was in love.

To do the man justice, he had never for a moment believed that there was
any hope for him; that this beautiful and gracious girl could stoop from
her height to touch him had appeared altogether out of the question.
There was only in Paul's mind a deep feeling of gratitude to the kindly
fate that had brought her into his life, and had taught him this
wondrous lesson of love; he was never to forget that, and it was at all
times to be a blessed memory to him. Henceforth all women were to be
hallowed in his sight because of her; the world to be a finer place even
than he had conceived it.

And then, in a curious way--a blundering, haphazard way that belonged to
the man--he had blurted out the truth to her; and had walked that night
straight into heaven! For--wonder of wonders never to be accounted
for--she had told him that she loved him; and let it be said here that
at that time she did love him, and that there was never any thought in
her mind of his money or his position or anything else. He was different
from other men; the very earnestness and simplicity of him won her. For
three marvellous months he walked with the gods in high places, and
entered fully into the highest inheritance possible to man.

And then came the end of it. Paul had proved to be unexciting, in the
sense that he was so easily found out; all his virtues were to be seen
and known and loved at a glance; and there was no more of him to
explore. As the heart of a woman craves for mystery, so here was no
mystery to be unfolded; and she grew tired. Another man of richer
promise in that respect came suddenly into her life and swept her away;
and Paul Nannock walked the grey world alone.

So great and single-hearted had been his love and his purpose, that for
the time the thing wrecked him; he wanted to be quit of London--that
great place which reminded him always of her--and to get away somewhere
to find peace. That brought him to Daisley Cross; and there he took an
old rambling house known as Daisley Place; and for years lived there as
a hermit. The people of the village grew to be familiar with the sight
of the tall, gaunt man, striding silently through the woods and fields,
and living all alone, save for that one old servant in the old house.
Then one day Daisley Cross woke, and rubbed its eyes, and asked what had
happened. For Paul Nannock had been seen walking through the woods with
a child--an elfin-like black-eyed thing, the people said--perched high
upon his shoulder.

It was her child. The man of possibilities had married her and deserted
her; and at the time of her death, when she looked with clearer eyes
back on the world she was leaving, she thought of her child, and she
thought of the man she had loved and trusted. She sent for him; and,
there being but one thing for Paul to do in such a case, he went to her
straight; and he came away, when he had closed her eyes for the last
time, bringing with him that small, frail replica of herself, to be his
for ever after, and to be cherished for her sake. And that was the child

So far as the other "babies" were concerned, they may be said to have
been supplementary, and quite accidental. Whether it came about that the
big heart of Old Paul warmed with the advent of the child, or whether,
as a laughing neighbour once expressed it, "baby collecting became a
hobby with him," it is impossible to say; but certainly the other
children dropped into Daisley Place as it were in the most casual
fashion, and remained there. Jimmy had been discovered by the merest
accident; had been brought to the very door, as it seemed, solely that
Paul might befriend him.

Jimmy's parents had been mere acquaintances of Paul Nannock, and they
had gone to the other side of the world on the business of life, leaving
the boy at school, and leaving funds for him in the hands of a guardian;
and it had happened that at the school they had given Paul's name as a
reference. The ship in which the young parents sailed foundered, and was
lost with all hands; and the time came when the schoolmaster wrote to
Paul, having failed to get any satisfactory statement from the guardian,
inquiring what he should do. Paul took up the matter at once, carrying
it through on behalf of the child with his usual energy, only to
discover that the guardian had used every penny that had been left in
his hands for his own purposes. Pressed hard by Paul on account of the
boy, the man disappeared, and was, discovered in a mean hovel in
Liverpool with a bullet in his brain. And the heart of Paul expanding
over the lonely child, Jimmy had come into that curious house at Daisley

So far as Alice was concerned, her coming had about it a sense of
comedy. Whether or not some whisper of Paul's eccentricities had by that
time got abroad, it is impossible to say; certain it is that the mother
of that prim little maid--known only quite casually in London to
Paul--flung a telegram at him one day, and followed it within a few
hours, accompanied by the child; expressed the keenest delight and
admiration of the place; asserted that Alice was pining for the society
of children of something near her own age, and hinted at the possibility
of some arrangement being made--much as though Paul kept a species of
_crèche_, or boarding establishment.

Finally, on the plea that urgent business called her to Paris for a day
or two, and that she could not possibly take the child, and that there
were no friends to whom she could be consigned, the lady actually left
the girl there; she was to return in four days exactly. At the end of
four days she telegraphed that she would be there in a week; wrote on
the sixth day; and again, a week later, with profuse apologies and
thanks, and the expressed hope that Alice was being a good girl; and was
never after heard of. Certainly Paul was not rigorous in his inquiries,
and the child expressed no regret at the absence of her natural
guardian; and there the matter ended. So to-night, as Old Paul sat there
smoking his pipe, he seemed to see through the years that had grown
softly about them all the changes that had come in himself, and the
greater changes in his babies; and was well content. Something of that
old hunger in his heart had been satisfied; something of the old hopes
and dreams that once had blossomed about a woman blossomed now about
these children; and that was as it should be. But most of all, they
blossomed about Moira--for the sake, not only of the child, but of his
dead love.



If any man in this commonplace, humdrum world of ours elects to live on
other than humdrum and commonplace lines, the unexpected must perforce
happen to him; for the unexpected is a very will-o'-the-wisp, darting
hither and thither, and finding but few people ready to take it
seriously. Therefore it was in the very nature of things that the
unexpected, which had given to Old Paul three babies that never should
have belonged to him, should give him someone else also. And that
someone else was a certain Anthony Ditchburn.

We have already met him in a matter of tobacco; and we have seen that he
was apparently something of a fixture in that queer house. He had become
a fixture there in a curious way--in as curious a way as any of those
which had brought the other inhabitants of the house into the care of
Paul Nannock.

Vague hints had been dropped from time to time by Anthony Ditchburn as
to his antecedents; vague suggestions of a university which had not
treated him too well, and which had scoffed at certain scientific
departures of his; there was here a talk of the shaking of dust from his
feet, and a going out into the world. That he was cultured was beyond
question; that he knew books better than he knew men was also beyond
question; and that he had an absolute disregard for anything and
everything in the world save his own comfort was the most pregnant fact
of all. And he had come to Daisley Place in this wise.

There had come a night, some years before, of heavy rain--a night when,
to use a local phrase, "it wasn't fit for a dog to be out in." And on
that night, while Old Paul sat musing over his fire, there had come a
knock at the outer door--a surprising thing enough, in that
out-of-the-way place and at that hour. Old Paul, a little startled, had
gone to the door and had opened it, there to be confronted with Anthony
Ditchburn, whose name he did not know, and whom he had never seen in his
life before. The man being wet through, however, there seemed no great
harm in his coming into the place and drying himself; and, in the
process of the drying, his tongue being loosened with certain generous
liquids, he displayed something of his culture; to the delight of Old
Paul, with whom cultured people were rare in those days. They had talked
far into the night, until it became the obvious thing for Old Paul to
offer his guest a bed; and the offer had been graciously accepted. In
the morning the necessary offer of breakfast was accepted in like
fashion, and then Ditchburn stayed to lunch. To cut the mere chronicle
of beds and meals short, let it be said at once that from that time he
remained; for Old Paul had not the courage to turn him out, and felt
that a hint on such a matter would have been a thing of gross
discourtesy. Nor did he inquire anything beyond the name of his guest.

From time to time a certain great work on which Anthony Ditchburn was
supposed to be engaged was referred to; once, indeed, Paul was allowed
to enter the room that had been assigned to the elder man, and to see a
great mass of notes and memoranda; he had gazed at it with his hands on
his hips, and his head on one side, and had felt rather proud that such
a man should have condescended to come under his roof. Thereafter, when
Anthony Ditchburn deplored the fact that certain books which were
absolutely necessary to the completion of the great work could not be
obtained, for lack of the necessary money, Old Paul suggested a simple
matter of banking, with himself as the banker; and Anthony Ditchburn
condescended to accept the suggestion, and declared that the monumental
work should be dedicated to his benefactor.

Anthony Ditchburn had no money, and apparently no friends other than
Paul. Occasionally it became necessary that his wardrobe should be
replenished, and this was done at Paul's expense. Tobacco was the man's
only luxury, outside what could be procured in the house itself; and
tobacco was supplied by his host. For the rest, he was a peevish,
self-opinionated old man, and a rank impostor. But Paul believed in him,
and had a vague idea that he had caught a genius who added lustre to the

Anthony Ditchburn had come in out of the storm before the advent of the
first of the babies; and the coming of Moira had upset him very
completely. The man had been so comfortable; it had been a house of
slippers and dressing-gowns--a place of pipes and easy chairs and
dreams--the latter always intangible; and the presence of a girl, to
whom this queer host of his appeared devoted, threatened disaster. It
was a memorable night when Moira had been put to bed by Patience (with
Old Paul hovering about on the landing outside the door of the room,
asking if he could do anything, or cook anything), and when, coming
down, he had encountered the resentful old man. For Paul had a feeling
that all the world rejoiced and sang with him that night, because of
the advent of this dark-eyed baby.

Paul had been in a joyous mood; had caught Anthony Ditchburn by the
shoulders, and had pushed him into the room, and laughingly suggested a
toasting of the baby. Anthony had not objected to the toasting, but he
strongly objected to the baby.

"She's mine!" Old Paul had whispered exultantly. "There isn't a soul can
claim her, Anthony; she's going to grow up with me, and by God!"--the
joyous voice was lowered to seriousness--"she shall have a better
childhood and a sweeter womanhood than her mother ever knew."

"You don't know what you're doing," Anthony had snapped. "Boys are bad
enough--but a girl! They grow up; they put on airs with their
frocks--and silly ways as their skirts grow longer. I know 'em!--and
there's trouble brewing for you if you keep the child here. Rank
sentiment and moonshine; she'll grow up to laugh at you, and to go out
into the world for the first lad that holds up a finger to her. Send her
packing in the morning; if you must look after her, find a good, hard
boarding school."

"You don't know what you're talking about," Paul had replied with
unexpected harshness. "This baby is more to me than anyone else could
be, Anthony Ditchburn; with her tiny fingers she writes for me the book
of life as I have known it; lisps out to me with her baby-lips all that
life has spelled for me; tells over again, with the sweet eyes of her, a
story I have tried to forget, and yet have been glad to remember. The
child stays."

"Then it'll be damned uncomfortable!" Ditchburn had exclaimed in a heat.

"If it rests between you and the child, Anthony Ditchburn," Old Paul
had said gravely, "there are other places where you can find opportunity
for work and for thought." Which showed Anthony Ditchburn that it would
be well to be silent.

But if these were his feelings on the arrival of Moira, what must have
been his thoughts when Jimmy came into the house--and when Alice
followed. The man for a time regarded himself as being in a state of
siege; dared not move about the house, lest he might stumble upon some
objectionable child. At meal times he grunted and ate in silence, while
the merry talk went on at the other end of the table; he smoked many
pipes, and determined that in the monumental work he would contrive to
introduce a chapter dealing with a Rational Upbringing of Children; a
chapter which should throw a new light upon a very much misunderstood

Old Paul was a lover of peace; he would have been glad to bring Anthony
Ditchburn to a better understanding of the children--to have welded
together those warring elements. Knowing Ditchburn for a man of
learning, it had occurred to him, as time went on, that the old man
might do something towards the education of Moira and the others. Not
that it occurred for a moment to the generous mind of Paul that in that
way Anthony Ditchburn might work off a great debt; he would have blushed
at the thought. But to Anthony himself the suggestion savoured of that,
and he resented it hotly.

"You are evidently unaware, my dear Nannock," he said, "of the position
I once occupied in the world, before I decided, for that world's
service, to write my present treatise. Shall I, who have touched the
highest in matters of learning, descend to teach babies the alphabet and
the rule of three? Shall I, who have been regarded with veneration by
men whose names (through their arts of self-advertisement) are known to
the world, stoop to teach boys and girls their tables?"

"It occurred to me that you might care to help me in the matter," Paul
had suggested humbly. "Of course, I can guess how great your attainments
must have been, before you consented to come down here and to bury
yourself; but the children want teaching something."

"Very well, then, I will sacrifice myself," Anthony Ditchburn had
declared. "I am aware that I am in your hands; it is not for me to be
proud in these days; I must bend the knee, I suppose, in return for the
food I eat and the bed in which I sleep. It is but another instance of
what culture and learning must pass through in this stony world. Not
another word, I beg"--this as Old Paul would indignantly have
protested--"I will see the children after my third pipe to-morrow

But the experiment was not a success. It was declared afterwards that
Anthony Ditchburn, in the intervals of falling asleep and much smoking
of pipes, quoted Horace to the silent wondering babies, and even read a
scrap or two from the monumental work; but he taught them nothing. Jimmy
drew pictures for their delight on some of the tutor's sacred margins;
and they whispered together, what time Anthony Ditchburn slumbered; but
Old Paul saw that another arrangement must be made.

The further experiment involved the rector. Old Paul only knew him
casually, chiefly because the Rev. Temple Purdue, having been much
exercised in his mind over the strange household of Daisley Place, had
called, with the view to a better understanding of all the
circumstances; and had gone away utterly bewildered, and with no
understanding at all. But he, too, was a man of learning, and in a small
way, a man of family, for he had a son. It occurred to Old Paul that it
might be possible to induce the rector to give lessons to those babies
who, from the educational standpoint, were beginning to be troublesome.
Therefore he called upon the Rev. Temple Purdue, and broached the

The rector was a small, mild, spectacled man of a frightened aspect; he
had been left a widower some two or three years before, and it was his
painful duty to pass the modest headstone erected to the memory of the
late Mrs. Temple Purdue twice on Sundays, and occasionally on other
evenings. In sleepy Daisley Cross he was certainly very much out of his
element; may be said, indeed, to have fluttered about among his sturdy,
slow flock, like a small timid hen in charge of rather large and heavy
ducks. But he was a conscientious little man, with a large leaven of
unworked geniality in him.

He had held up hands of protest at the mention of the large sum which
Old Paul was prepared to pay for the education of the children; had
compromised gratefully on something a little more than half; and had
told himself that undreamt-of luxuries, in the shape of books and other
matters, were to be his for the future. And the children--shy at
first--had gone across to the rectory each morning, and had been well
and carefully grounded.

That arrangement of necessity involved the son of the Rev. Temple
Purdue--Charlie. Up to that time, Charlie Purdue had been a lonely,
restless, mischievous boy of about the same age as Jimmy--roaming the
neighbourhood, something to its scandal, and listening impatiently to
mild and nervous lectures in the evening times from his father. Now,
suddenly, new interests came into his days; these children he had only
seen from a distance were intimately concerned with him in the first
dreary journeys into the mysterious land of Knowledge.

It came to be an ordinary thing during successive summers (and be it
noted that to a young child the world is always summer, and chill winter
but a thing of a week or two, to be happily forgotten), for Charlie
Purdue to spend a great deal of his time with Old Paul's babies; in
effect, he made a fourth, and spent many hours with them in the house,
and in rambling about the countryside. He knew more about that
countryside than they did, and was learned in the ways of birds and
beasts and fishes; he opened up new worlds to them. His was a
happy-go-lucky, mischief-loving nature; and they followed him after a
time, awe-struck and admiring.

Had Old Paul but known, heads were nodded over him across many a country
tea-table, shoulders were shrugged and eyebrows raised, and he formed
for a time the chief topic of conversation. The mere sight of him,
strolling through a country lane with his hat on the back of his head
and his short pipe in his mouth, and with the three children clinging to
him, or playing about him, was extraordinary enough; that he should keep
up that great house, solely, as it seemed, for their benefit, and should
keep himself and them apart from his neighbours, was stranger still. One
or two daring spirits took upon themselves to call upon him; but in few
instances did Old Paul suggest, by his manner of speech or his smile,
that he would be glad to see the visitors again.

In the case of the Baffalls, Paul opened his heart at once. He had heard
of them and of their coming, as, indeed, had all Daisley Cross. It had
not been easy to lose sight of the Baffalls when once they loomed upon
the place. For they came in force; huge furniture vans lumbered along
the roads, and taxed the strength of the bridges; servants in flies,
superciliously eyeing the country, arrived to put things in order; and
finally, after a delay, the Baffalls themselves. A brand-new carriage
met them at the little station, and they drove shyly through the village
to their newly-furnished house, and held each other's hands as they
went, and looked nervously about them. For they only knew London
(wherein their money had been made); and the country to which they were
retiring was new and strange and awful. Mrs. Baffall would never have
come to the country but that she had heard it was the thing to do; and
Mr. Baffall would never have come but for Mrs. Baffall.

Then, of course, they came to hear about Old Paul and the babies; and
instantly Mrs. Baffall was excited. It had been the tragedy of her life
that she had had no children; she had lain awake at nights, many and
many a time in her hard-working life, and had held a dream child to her
breast that ached for the touch of little lips. And here was a bachelor
with three of them!

She had believed that another thing to do when you retired was to call
upon people; and the first man on whom to call should be this
extraordinary creature and his babies. She did not know that she should
have waited decorously until people called upon her; she simply dressed
Baffall in his best, and put him into the large brand-new carriage, and
took him to call upon Old Paul. And Old Paul, a little amazed and
frightened, went to find them in the big sitting-room that had books and
toys and other delightful lumber scattered about it; and found Mr.
Baffall smoothing a silk hat round and round upon his knee, and Mrs.
Baffall examining a battered doll she had picked up from the sofa, and
smiling at it. They laboriously shook hands with Old Paul (Mrs. Baffall
at first nervously presented the legs of the doll to him instead of her
own fingers), and hoped he was well.

After that conversation flagged. Old Paul made a remark or two about the
weather, and inwardly wondered where Mrs. Baffall had bought her
bonnet; Mr. Baffall responded as to the weather, and looked at the
carpet. And then suddenly Mrs. Baffall broke the ice by asking in a
fluttering whisper, and with pleading eyes turned to the young man, if
she might see the children. And the hunger in those eyes was so strong
that it went straight to the heart of Paul; so that from that moment he
loved the common old woman with a mighty love.

The children were sent for; and meanwhile Paul, who had apologised for
the delay by suggesting that they would "want some finding," examined
his visitors. He saw that Mrs. Baffall had once been plump and pretty;
she was plump enough now, but only a suggestion of the prettiness
remained. It was obvious that, while she was grateful to Fortune that
had enabled her and Mr. Baffall to rest from their labours before the
greatest rest of all fell upon them, she yet did not quite know what to
do, now that the necessity for labour had gone past. She glanced about
the room furtively, as though seeking suggestions as to decorations; she
was evidently making mental notes of alterations she could effect in her
own establishment. More than that, glancing at Paul's easy tweed-clad
figure, she decided that Baffall must have that kind of dress instanter,
and must discard the black clothes and the silk hat; but she felt that
Baffall would look well in a somewhat more marked pattern. Baffall, for
his part, presented the appearance of a hard-grained, well-knit old man,
with a firm mouth unobscured by a moustache, and with a mere fringe of
grey beard on his chin; he spoke slowly and deliberately.

"You see, sir," he began, running a stunted forefinger round and round
on the top of his silk hat, and regarding the process thoughtfully,
"Mother is fair set on the babies. Turns round in the street to look at
'em; keeps pictures of 'em cut out and pasted in books. In fact,
sir"--the man raised his head, and his grey eyes twinkled for a
moment--"it's my belief that she keeps a big doll somewheres secret."

"Go along, father!" exclaimed Mrs. Baffall, blushing.

"Never mind, mother." Mr. Baffall stretched out a rough hand, and laid
it on the plump gloved hand of the woman beside him. "It's only my fun.
Though I give you warning, sir," he went on solemnly, "that you'd better
watch these babies of yours; or one of these fine days Mrs. B. will be
off with one of 'em."

"Oh, I'm not afraid of that," replied Paul, kindly. "I think I'd trust
Mrs. Baffall with any of them."

At that moment the children came into the room. Moira went straight to
Paul, and slipped her hand into his, and looked inquiringly from him to
the visitors. Jimmy, after a moment's hesitation, walked across to Mr.
Baffall, and held out his hand. Mr. Baffall rose to his feet, and bent
his body, and slowly and ceremoniously shook the hand of the boy.

"I hope you're well, sir, and that you like the country," he said,

The only one of the trio absolutely at home under these circumstances
was Alice--true daughter of that vivacious widow who had been, before
all things, a woman of the world. She went straight to Mrs. Baffall, and
graciously submitted to being kissed, smiled delightfully, and answered
all that was said to her perfectly. Moira alone remained close to Paul;
his arm had encircled her where he sat.

"And this," said Old Paul, "this is my little maid, Moira. Moira was the
first of the babies to find her way to me; she gave me the idea
about--about the others," he added, waving a hand vaguely towards the
two other children.

Mr. Baffall glanced at his wife. "We might have thought of taking a
little child like that," he said, in a low voice.

But Mrs. Baffall shook her head. "We couldn't have got the right
sort--not situated as we were, with the business. And I should have
wanted something I could look up to, as well as be fond of, in a way of

The Baffalls presently took their awkward leave, after a visit which was
to be but the first of many, and drove away solemnly in the carriage. As
might have been expected, Old Paul sank into insignificance, at least,
in the mind of Mrs. Baffall, in comparison with the children; to her the
children were everything. Indeed, she hovered about the house
scandalously, coming in on all sorts of excuses at all times of the day.
More than once she was actually found waiting outside the rectory, at
the time the three of them came from their lessons; and walked home with
them humbly enough, and proud that people should look at her, holding a
hand of one of them.

She carried them off one day to her own place, and gave them tea in a
big gaudily-furnished room, where they sat stiffly on chairs and looked
at her and Mr. Baffall. Urged by Mrs. Baffall, the man cudgelled his
brains to remember a game he had once played in childhood; essayed to
introduce it for their delight. But at the very moment that he was down
on his knees in the middle of the room repeating some doggerel with his
eyes shut, the thing slipped his memory, and he knelt there, looking
foolish, with the children gravely watching him. After they had been
sent home, he sat for a long time saying the half-forgotten thing over
to himself, and Mrs. Baffall, very silent, watching him.

"It ain't no good, Daniel; they didn't understand us, and we don't
understand them," she said at last, slowly. "I never got the trick of
it, having none of my own; and it's too late to learn it now. But I
think if one of 'em ever came up to me--spontaneous--and put their arms
round my neck--well, I think I should dance, Daniel!" And the tears were
in the old woman's eyes as she spoke, although she laughed and brushed
them away.

Incidentally the Baffalls were responsible for Honora Jackman, and for
her introduction to Paul Nannock. Honora Jackman had casually, and
somewhat scornfully, made the acquaintance of the Baffalls in London;
but the Baffalls in the country, remote from trade, were people to be
cultivated. So that it came about that they received one day a gushing
telegram (with reply prepaid), demanding to know if she might come and
"rusticate." And the Baffalls had looked at each other in some dismay,
even while they had felt vaguely flattered. For Honora had been a person
of consequence in their limited circle in London.

"Mother, what's 'rusticate'?" asked Mr. Baffall, feebly.

"It's a general term," Mrs. Baffall responded; "means picking flowers,
and walking about, and--and looking at the trees and things, I believe.
It's what we're doing now, father."

"Well, it's easy enough," said Mr. Baffall. "Tell her to come down at
once, and mention the best train."

Honora Jackman descended upon the Baffalls with a series of little
shrieks of delight; which was Honora's way. She was a lady with a high,
clear voice and a high, clear colour; perfectly self-possessed; one of
those people who assure you volubly and loudly that they are having "a
fine old time." She was always busy over doing nothing; always in
splendid health; and never in any one place for more than a week or two
at a time. Possessed of very small means, Honora had seen the years
slipping away beneath her well-shod, quick feet, and the "fine old time"
had come down to be a mere matter of hunting up friends, and doing
anything that should keep her away from a small and poky set of rooms in
an obscure street in London. She had reached that stage when the hunt
for friends had developed into a somewhat stern chase.

She landed at Daisley Cross with her battered trunks, and looked about
her good-humouredly through a single eyeglass. She decided at once that
she would be bored to death; she drew a mental picture of Mr. Baffall
falling asleep after dinner, and of Mrs. Baffall knitting, or doing
embroidery, and striving vainly to find subjects for conversation. She
wondered if they kept anything she could ride. But she was all smiles
and hearty good humour when presently the old couple drove up in the
carriage to meet her; she exclaimed delightedly about the
picturesqueness of the place, and vowed they should never get rid of
her; shrieked with delight when a small urchin chased a hen across the
road, and borrowed a penny from Mr. Baffall to throw to him.

She made rather a brilliant figure after dinner that night in the
subdued light of the shaded lamps, what time she lazily smoked a
cigarette, and drew Mr. and Mrs. Baffall out concerning the neighbours.
And then, for the first time, she heard about Old Paul Nannock. She
leaned across the table, with her white elbows on it, deeply interested,
asking questions with a perplexed frown.

"A rich old bachelor--adopting babies?" she asked, in her high voice.

"Oh, dear no--not a bit old," replied Mrs. Baffall, laughing. "Quite
young, as a matter of fact--and certainly good looking. At least, I
think he's got nice eyes."

"Gracious!" Honora Jackman puffed out a cloud of smoke very suddenly,
and leaned forward again over the table. "What's the matter with the
man? Has he been crossed in love--or what is it?"

"Well, you see," said Baffall solemnly, "we haven't cared to ask him,
Miss. He's a nice fellow; and he seems fond of the children, and that's
all there is to it. I'm told he's got plenty of money."

"And certainly there isn't what you'd call any stint," corroborated Mrs.

"I never heard of such a thing," exclaimed Honora, appealing to the very
furniture and the pictures in her astonishment. "A rich young
man--collecting babies as though they were postage stamps--and living
all alone with 'em in the country. Do you know him well?"

"Oh, yes; the children often come here," replied Mrs. Baffall.

"And he doesn't?" said Honora, drily. Then, suddenly changing her tone,
she added beseechingly, "I say, you positively must take me to see him;
I revel in children, and I should simply love to meet a man like that.
I'm sure he's a dear."

The Baffalls looked at each other a little doubtfully; perhaps into the
mind of each came the thought that Honora Jackman might scarcely fit in
well with Old Paul or Old Paul's ways. However, something had to be
said, and Mr. Baffall was the one weakly to capitulate.

"I'm sure he'd be pleased," he said. "Mother and I'll take you
over--whenever you like."

"How perfectly heavenly of you!" exclaimed Honora. "I'm simply dying to
know him."

Honora Jackman took her loud-voiced way upstairs that night, and sat
for some time thoughtfully twisting her rings round and round on her
fingers. She had dreams--absolutely mercenary, let it be said--of a
certain tall, blue-eyed man, who had much money, and was encumbered by
children he had been foolish enough to adopt. Honora gave a short, quick
laugh when she thought of them.

"Idiot!" she exclaimed scornfully. "After all, there may be something to
be got out of this dead-and-alive hole; you never can tell. I expect
he's a bit raw; but that won't matter. And as for the children"--Honora
laughed again, as she rose and yawned and stretched her white arms above
her head--"well, we can easily dispose of that sort of nonsense."



Exactly at what date Jimmy fell in love with Honora Jackman it would be
difficult to say; it was a subtle affair growing out of circumstances;
it would have been impossible even for Jimmy to have written a diary of
it. For be it known that Jimmy was some thirteen years of age, with
certain large ideas of his own regarding the world in general and ladies
in particular; and Honora had burst upon him, and had captured him in
quite an innocent and pretty fashion.

With the thought of a larger capture in her mind, Honora had wavered in
her going from the hospitable house of the Baffalls, and had ended by
not going at all. She had discovered that one of the horses fitted her
"adorably"; and she had pretty well ridden him to death after that
discovery. Then she had contrived to stir the Baffalls into giving a
dinner party, to which the Rev. Temple Purdue was invited, and came,
mildly apologetic for his very presence; and to which Old Paul, greatly
against his own wish, also came. Then for the first time Honora looked
upon him and found him exceedingly good. She had visions of years
stretching before her, during which she wound him gaily round her little
finger; and had, so far as herself was concerned, that "fine old time"
to which reference has been made.

On that occasion Honora did not smoke; more than that, she subdued that
high and somewhat grating laugh of hers. There was a new shyness upon
her, and she inquired sympathetically and kindly about the children. She
turned her rather good eyes upon Paul, and let them sparkle at him while
she asked for full particulars; nodded brightly and sympathetically over
the account of the coming of each child; threw in a word or two here and
there, which showed Paul that she understood very perfectly his own
intimate feelings concerning them; and stated that she was dying to meet
them. Only in the drawing-room afterwards, amid gusts of stifled
laughter, did she tell the perplexed Mrs. Baffall what she thought of
Paul Nannock and of the children; only then did she suggest something of
a programme that had been mapped out in her mind.

"He wants waking up--he wants stirring, and showing what the world is!"
she exclaimed. "Fancy a man with that money pottering about country
lanes with other people's children clinging to his skirts. Skirts is the
right word; the man isn't a proper man at all. He's wasted here; I
should like to do something with him."

Mrs. Baffall flutteringly thought it possible that Honora might do
something with the man not altogether to the taste of his friends, but
she said nothing. She only noted the change in Honora Jackman when the
tall young man presently came into the drawing-room--that change to
sweetness and gentleness that seemed a little foreign to the woman's
nature. When presently Paul, with a glance at the clock, stated that he
must be getting home, Honora rather lost sight of the part she was
playing, and expressed her contemptuous resentment.

"You don't mean to tell me that you've got to tuck up the babies?" she
demanded, with a little shrill laugh. "Upon my word, Mr. Nannock, you
are positively interesting; one seems to see you hovering over them with
candles, and listening to their breathing."

"I'm afraid you don't quite understand," Paul said, a little stiffly.

"Indeed, I understand perfectly," she replied, with that softened manner
and with that bright light in her eyes. "And to-morrow I'm coming round
to see them, if I may."

"I should like you to see them," said Paul; and went away with the
feeling that the woman had a heart in her, after all, and was only
flippant by accident.

She appeared at the house quite early the next morning, striding in with
that appearance of gay good-nature and boundless health that best became
her. And long before Paul had appeared to greet her, she had in some
miraculous fashion discovered the children, and had made their
acquaintance, and learnt something of their lives, and of their pet
haunts and hobbies. Jimmy had quite naturally taken the lead as guide
and deputy host, and Jimmy had therewith lost his heart.

At first the loss had not been serious; he merely sighed a little after
she had gone, and remembered with gratitude how naturally and easily she
had spoken with him, and how frankly she had laughed with him, instead
of at him. He remembered, in particular, certain adroit questions she
had asked him in regard to himself, and how, when he had admitted that
except for Old Paul he was quite alone in the world, she had made a
demure, wry grimace, and had whispered that she, too, was alone in the
world; which was distinctly a bond between them. He remembered that
after Old Paul had quite unnecessarily put in an appearance, Miss
Jackman had walked with a hand on his (Jimmy's) shoulder; and it had
been, "Jimmy says this," or, "Jimmy thinks the other," until the boy's
head had swum a little, and the light hand on his shoulder had seemed to
press it with a caress. Then, too, she had suggested, with that charming
laugh of hers, to Old Paul that she was alone in the world; had made
rather a point of it, in fact. When, after inspecting everything, and
expressing shrill delight at everyone, she was taking her leave, she had
said, with a little whimsical shrug of the shoulders, that she really
didn't know what was going to become of her unless she settled down
soon. "I suppose I'm not like other people," she said, toying with her
eyeglass, and laughing a little confusedly. "You see, Mr. Nannock, I'm a
nomad; I've simply got a stuffy place in London, and so many trunks, and
I"--she threw out one arm gracefully and laughed again--"I simply
wander. Various people are kind enough to put me up--like those dear,
sweet Baffalls, and then I go off again somewhere else. Nice in the
summer, but a bit rough for a woman in the winter."

"I'm sorry," said Paul, for no particular reason.

"Though I don't know why I should bore you about myself," she added more
brightly. "Mr. Nannock"--she held out her hand to him and laughed
frankly--"you're one of the people it is good to meet. You've refreshed
me--helped me; I shall face the world more bravely, remembering this
place--and remembering you."

"We--we shall hope to see you again," said Paul, though he did not quite
mean it at the time. "Kind of you to have called--most kind of you."

Honora Jackman knew the people with whom she had to deal, and knew
perfectly well that she could stay in the place as long as she liked. To
do her credit, she managed the thing rather well. She began by declaring
on the third or fourth day that she must trespass no longer on the
hospitality of the Baffalls; and on Mrs. Baffall murmuring that they
were only too glad to have her there, while glancing at Mr. Baffall, and
so eliciting a growling murmur from him, had impetuously rushed round
the table to kiss Mrs. Baffall, and had declared, somewhat to the
consternation of the worthy couple, that she would "make it another

At the end of the week she was discovered by Mrs. Baffall, among a
confusion of trunks and clothing, diffidently attempting to begin the
task of packing; the eyes she raised to the kindly old woman were
suffused with tears. Never had she felt it so difficult to tear herself
away from any place; never had she felt before, in this strange fashion,
the loss of that mother who had died when Honora most needed her. She
made a desperate business of drying her eyes, and of going on with the
packing; she wondered, a little incoherently, what was going to become
of her. So that it ended in Mrs. Baffall, with unwonted firmness,
insisting on the trunks being put aside and on Honora Jackman, after
protests and tears and embraces, consenting to stay a little longer. She
was a beast, and it was a shame, and the Baffalls were angels--a couple
of people in a beastly hard world who had hearts in 'em, and were not
ashamed to acknowledge it. And oh--if dear mother had only lived!

Old Paul proved inaccessible more than once, and Honora, biting her lip
to save an exclamation of impatience, had to put up with the children.
It occurred to her that through the children she might best attack that
stronghold to which she desired to win; and, to the future
heart-breaking of Jimmy, she chose that susceptible boy as the first
line of defence to be demolished; though, had she but known it, she had
better have attempted to secure the allegiance of Moira. Jimmy, nothing
loth, fell an easy victim, and dimly wondered how such a glorious
creature could have stooped to him.

At first it was a mere matter of showing her the nearest way to the
village, and Jimmy strode along willingly enough and proud of his new
responsibilities. Truth to tell, it had been the design of Honora to
capture all the children, and so incidentally to reach to Paul himself;
but Moira stood in the way. When Honora Jackman had swung up to the
house with a cheery call and a light laugh, she had been met by the
dark-eyed girl; the child held out a hand calmly, and put up a cold
cheek for the proffered kiss. But she could not go out; there were
things she had to do for Old Paul.

"Why do you call him 'Old Paul'?" asked Honora.

The child looked at her in surprise. "We all call him that," she
replied. "You see, he's not an ordinary relation--not a father, nor an
uncle--nor anything of that kind; and we've got to call him something.
We talked it over a long time ago with him, and we came to the
conclusion"--Moira stepped delicately over her words at this
point--"came to the conclusion that it would not be quite respectful to
call him 'Paul' so we called him 'Old Paul'; and no one can have a word
to say against that--can they? You see," the child concluded simply,
"it's really because you don't know Old Paul that you don't

"Gracious!" Honora ejaculated under her breath; but she smiled at Moira
with apparent understanding.

Jimmy coming out at that moment flung himself joyfully into the breach,
but he had a suspicion that the child regarded him coldly as he walked
away with Miss Jackman. He must really explain to Moira afterwards that
there were things in life she could not possibly hope yet to
understand--affairs of the heart, vague but beautiful. Meanwhile, Honora
Jackman, inwardly fuming, was smiling upon him and extracting
information. Jimmy, with his cap upon the back of his head and his hands
in his pockets, supplied answers cheerfully.

So it came about that Honora learnt more than she had learnt already
from the Baffalls; understood how this large-hearted man had stood in
his loneliness, as it were, with wide-opened arms ready to welcome these
children who drifted in from the world he had gladly left behind;
understood, with no real sense of the beauty and generosity of it, how
all and sundry who came had been welcomed, for the simple and perfect
reason that they were children. That point never appealed to the woman;
she saw only a foolish man, easily imposed upon by a tale of distress.

"So that I suppose you all have different names?" she suggested. "I
mean, of course, names other than Jimmy--and Moira--and the other

"My name is James Larrance," said Jimmy, "and Alice's mother (she went
away and quite forgot to come back, you know) was Mrs. Vickery. Only
Moira has got the real name," he added.

"The real name?" She turned and looked at him sharply. "What's the real

"Nannock," replied Jimmy. "That's Old Paul's name, you know; and he gave
it to Moira because I believe he couldn't bear that other one--the name
that really belonged to her. He got Moira from someone he was awfully
fond of."

Honora began to see daylight; began to sniff suspiciously at a possible
but impossible love story--an awkward jumbled thing, buried away in the
years that Old Paul was trying to forget. She became interested in spite
of herself, but she saw that she must use this boy to further her ends.
She dropped that light hand again upon his shoulder as they walked, and
spoke confidentially, playing upon his heartstrings as upon a new and
untried instrument, easily stirred.

"Jimmy, I'm quite sure that you and I are going to be great friends,"
she said. "Of course, you understand, Jimmy, that I have very few
friends--not people that I really like--people I can talk to."

Jimmy gulped, and began dimly to call to mind all the romances of which
he had heard or which he had read. Almost he wished that something
wonderful might happen--some danger that should threaten her; it seemed
then that he would have known perfectly what to do. Strong boy though he
was, he was almost on the verge of tears at his own helplessness--at the
thought that she must go away, and leave him as she had found him but a
few days since. For this was not love in the ordinary sense; this was
but that fine chivalry that lies deep in the hearts of all of us, and
can be wakened at a whisper or at the touch of a hand; only in some of
us it grows and springs to full life earlier than in others. Jimmy did
not understand what the very word woman meant; only he stretched out
warm impulsive young hands into the future, and craved to do that which
the best of men had done before him and had laid down their lives for.
The woman did not matter; the fact that she was a woman sufficed.

Even when she began to reveal a little of her purpose he did not
understand; he was glad only to help her. Still keeping that hand upon
his shoulder as they walked towards the village, she began delicately to
ask him about the lives they led--he and the others and Old Paul--and
how they spent their days. And by the guileless Jimmy was let suddenly
into the secret heart of it all.

The betrayal was disgraceful; but, then, Honora knew the ways of youth,
and she meant to gain her point. She fished delicately, with slow, easy
questions for bait, until Jimmy had led her--in words, at least--into
the very heart of that paradise which Old Paul had made for himself and
the children, in certain deep woods unexplored by others. Honora had a
vision of the man hidden away there, surrounded by the children, and
reading and talking to them on sunny afternoons. There, apparently, he
was to be taken off his guard; there discovered in his most intimate
moments, and taken unawares. Honora laid her plans, and determined
heartlessly enough to use the boy to further them. Jimmy was to meet her
on the morrow; the infatuated boy was actually to bring this loud-voiced
hearty woman into the holy of holies, and to spring her suddenly upon
his friends.

Only when Jimmy had parted from her, and was taking his way back to the
house, did he realise what he had promised, and what it involved. He
remembered how first he had been taken--walking on tip-toe and breathing
carefully--deep down into that place of trees and ferns and birds and
rustling things; remembered with what pride he had assisted to bring
Moira and Alice into it afterwards. The place had been Old Paul's
discovery; you had to plunge through masses of undergrowth and drop down
a bank to get to it, and no one in the world had ever found it before!
Alice had been properly frightened, and had torn her frock; Moira had
gone into it with her eyes wide open, and her lips parted a little in
sheer delight. And to-morrow Honora Jackman was to scramble into it, and
to take them all by surprise.

Jimmy thought deeply about the prospect. In the first place, it might be
well to break it to the others; to explain that the lady was really very
nice, and that he adored her, and to try and recollect a few of the
things she had said when speaking about their retreat. On the other hand
(a wiser and more subtle thought, this), it might be well to meet Miss
Jackman, and take her by another route to another place, and so get over
the difficulty in that way. But Jimmy had not yet learnt to be
absolutely dishonest; he faced the thought resolutely that to-morrow he
must redeem his promise, and must thrust the lady, willy-nilly, into the

This new Judas had revealed the very time when Paul might be discovered
with his young people; Jimmy woke with the thought of that in the
morning, and carried that leaden thought all day; or, at least, until
the time when he was to meet Honora Jackman. He had made an excuse for
deserting the party; had slipped away at the last moment, and now hung
about, flushed and irresolute, but strangely happy, to wait for the lady
with the eyeglass. And presently saw her swinging along towards him, and
already noting him with a smile. Jimmy discovered, too, that another
miracle was to happen at the very moment of meeting; for she dropped an
arm about his shoulders, and stooped and brushed his lips with her own.

"You're the best friend I have in the world," she whispered, truthfully

The intoxicated Jimmy stumbled on through the wood with the woman behind
him. His lips were wet with her kiss, and had it been anyone else who
had done this thing, he would have rubbed the lips hard to get rid of
the taint of it. But now he dared not even lick them. Honora Jackman
sang softly as she walked, and Jimmy, with that wondrous being behind
spelling indefinite happiness, faced resolutely the dreadful moment when
he must meet those he had betrayed. He wished desperately that she might
have been content with any other place in the wood in which to sit and
talk with him; why she should choose this particular spot, and be so
anxious about it, had not yet dawned upon the mind of Jimmy. So, with
fear knocking at his heart, he came to the top of the bank and parted
the bushes and looked down.

"Hullo!" he called feebly.

There was a shriek of delight, changing instantly to a dead silence as
the head of Honora appeared beside his own, looking down at them. Old
Paul was upon his hands and knees working out an elaborate design with
fir cones; he looked up at the apparition and straightened himself, and
got ceremoniously to his feet, treading out the design as he moved.
Honora, nothing daunted, looked down and nodded cheerfully, and surveyed
the paradise out of her bright eyes through a brighter eyeglass.

"How perfectly heavenly!" she exclaimed. "Will you help me down?"

Now Old Paul was something of a coward; moreover, he had lived so long
that hermit life away from women that he had nothing wherewith to meet
the situation. Jimmy had jumped down, and was industriously kicking away
at the ground beneath his feet, without caring very much to look at
anyone, and Paul glanced round at the girls. Most of all he looked at
Moira, and he read the shameful answer he was to give clearly in her
eyes. After that he faced Honora Jackman with some sternness, though
with a little laughter in his eyes.

"I'm afraid you must go back," he said. "You see, this is private
property, in a manner of speaking; it's our enchanted garden--and all
that sort of thing. I'm afraid you must go back."

"I don't think I can find my way," she retorted; and then lowering her
voice, added rallying to the innocent face uplifted to her own below the
bank, "I declare you're the biggest baby of the lot!"

"Very likely; but I'd rather you went back; Jimmy will take you," he

Jimmy, after a moment of amazed silence, scrambled up the bank, cast a
glance of withering scorn back at Old Paul, and then disappeared with
Honora into the wood. In less than five minutes he was back again, and
he came like a young fury, bursting through the bushes, and flinging
himself breathless before Paul, who had resumed work with the fir cones.

"You're a beast!" the boy shouted, almost crying. "She's much nicer than
you think--and she's a lady--and she was crying when I left her. You're
a brute, Old Paul!"

That statement was to an extent true, but the tears in the eyes of
Honora Jackman had been those of sheer rage and mortification. Moreover,
Jimmy's outburst may be accounted for by the fact that she had utterly
ignored him at the moment of parting, except to request him viciously to
"run away and play." For Honora was seriously annoyed.

"Oho! sits the wind in that quarter?" said Old Paul, sitting back on his
heels, and regarding the boy with a quizzical smile. "Poor old Jimmy!
I'll wager a week's pocket money with you, Jimmy, that you love her.
Come, now--out with it!"

Jimmy stammered and stuttered, and looked about at the trees. "I do--and
I don't mind who knows it," he said at last, hotly.

"Brave boy! good boy! You're growing up finely, Jimmy, and it's just
what I might have expected of you. But even in your love, Jimmy, you
mustn't betray your friends," he added gravely. "She's a nice lady,
though a trifle old for you, Jimmy; but you're growing every day. I'll
even forgive you for calling me names, though that wasn't quite fair.
Did you see her safely out of the wood, Jimmy?"

But Jimmy, with a sudden suspicious sound in his throat, had turned and
bolted up the bank. And in a moment Paul's smile faded, and he took the
bank at a leap, and went after the boy. He found him lying prone on the
ground, with his face hidden on his arms, sobbing as though his heart
would break. He flung himself in a moment beside him, and put his head
down close to Jimmy's.

"Jimmy--old Jimmy--I didn't mean----"

Jimmy raised his face cautiously, looked about him to be sure that no
eyes save those of Paul could note his swollen eyelids and his quivering
lips. "I know you didn't," he gulped. "But you don't understand me; you
don't know how wonderful she is. You haven't thought that she hasn't got
a friend in the world--'cept me; she told me that," he added proudly.

"Did she now!" Old Paul sat up and looked at the boy. "She's more
wonderful than I thought, Jimmy. And I suppose you'd do anything for
her--die for her?"

"I would!" exclaimed the boy earnestly. "If I thought she was in
trouble--or anybody was going to do anything that would hurt

"I know--I know, Jimmy," replied Paul, with a grave nod. "And it's a
brave feeling--isn't it, boy? Makes you tingle all over, especially at
the tips of the fingers. Makes you carry your head up, and draw your
breath quickly--eh?"

"Why--how do you know, Old Paul?" asked the boy, staring at him.

"Oh--just guessed it," said Paul, with a little laugh. "Come on, Jimmy
Quixote, let's join the ladies."

"What's 'Quixote'?" asked Jimmy, getting slowly to his feet.

"Oh, he was a gentleman who went out to fight for ladies--and he tilted
at windmills and things," said Paul. "But he was rather a good sort,
Jimmy; and I think I like you the better for this afternoon. You don't
mind my calling you 'Jimmy Quixote,' do you?"

"Not if he was that sort of man," replied Jimmy.

For a long time after that--long, indeed, after Honora Jackman had left
the Baffalls in peace and gone again upon her journeyings--Old Paul
would sometimes, in moments of confidence, tenderly call Jimmy by that
curious name, so that between them it rather stuck to him. It was,
moreover, a reminder of something that must not be known by others--a
sweet and beautiful confidence--the first of that kind between them.

But Honora Jackman was not of the kind to be ignored, nor did she mean
to give up the pursuit so easily. The children were a nuisance, but she
remembered that they were not always in evidence; there was a time when
the tiresome creatures were safely shut away with the Rev. Temple
Purdue, and when Old Paul had, in a manner of speaking, lost his
bodyguard. It would be hard if Honora did not contrive to get hold of
the man at that time, and her confidence in herself told her that she
could soon bring the man to her feet if once she had got him out of his
usual surroundings. He was a good creature, and he was rich, and he was
simply wasting his life. Apart from all else, too, Honora's pride was
piqued at the thought of his apparent inaccessibility; she would
challenge him, and that, too, before the children. To do her justice,
she felt that ordinary honesty demanded that she should not attack Paul
behind their backs.

The opportunity arrived easily enough. On the following morning, behold
Honora at the gate leading to the grounds, standing tall and slim and
straight as the children came out on their way to the rectory; behold
Old Paul standing sheepishly in the gateway, and giving her "Good
morning!" Jimmy flushed hotly, and gave her his hand; Alice did
likewise; Moira shyly drew back and bowed. Honora Jackman gaily nodded
to Paul, and proffered her blunt request.

"I lost my way again in the woods this morning, Mr. Nannock," she said.
"You will really have to show me the way through them--and I'll promise
not to go near your sacred haunts," she added, with a glance at Jimmy.

"I--I should be delighted," said the recreant Paul in a low voice.

"I can't manage it this morning; I've got some shopping to do in the
village for Mrs. Baffall," said Honora. "Shall we say--to-morrow?"

"To-morrow," echoed Paul, with a nod.

The three children walked in silence to the rectory; it was a dismal day
for everyone. And that night, for the second time, Old Paul sat in his
room smoking, and listening for a little light footfall on the stairs--a
footfall that never came.



That was a night against which a black mark had afterwards to be set in
the memory of Paul Nannock. It had seemed such a simple thing, and so
inevitable--that promise to which he had been forced, and which would
have meant, with anyone else, a mere matter of an idle stroll and a
little easy talk. But with this man the children stood first; and ever
in the front rank of them stood Moira, child of the woman he had loved.
The absurdity of regarding the little expedition with Honora Jackman
seriously occurred to him more than once, and yet he shrank from it; and
the fact that the sensitive child who was so near to his heart had
stamped it with her disapproval meant much to Paul. It was a desertion
on his part, and she had answered it by a desertion of her own. Paul sat
up later than usual, in the hope that she might after all come creeping
down to his room; but she never appeared.

He stole upstairs at last, miserably enough, and listened at the door of
her room. All was silent, and he told himself that she had forgotten,
and had fallen asleep. Had he known that she lay in her bed, wide-awake,
fighting out jealously the bitter problem in her mind, it would have
been a matter of his hurrying in in the darkness, and taking her in his
arms, and promising I know not what. But he did not know that, and he
went upstairs to his own room.

In a new bravery induced by the darkness he determined that on the
morrow he would invent an excuse, and would get out of the engagement
with Honora; in a more sober and reflective moment he knew that he would
do no such thing; the affair must be gone through with, and he must
contrive in some fashion to make his peace with Moira afterwards.

The relations between the child and the man were so curious and so
subtle, that no real explanation of anything that troubled them could
ever be made between them. Their sympathy one with the other was so
great, that it had long ago become a mutual business of give-and-take;
the sensitive little creature had come to learn long since that no words
were necessary, and that the mere taking of her into Old Paul's arms in
silence meant much, and atoned for much, and explained everything.
Gentle as she was, she resented bitterly and fiercely any interference
with the man; he was all her world, and she must stand first with him,
or her world crumbled into dust. And Paul had long ago come to
understand that, and to understand that he must be watchful. The thought
of it troubled him now; the impossibility of explaining to Moira that
this was a mere act of politeness to Honora Jackman struck him with a
sense of comical dismay.

He slept badly, and rose early; he was glad to get out into the air and
into his garden before anyone was stirring; there was every promise of a
perfect long summer day before him. Well, he would be done with Honora
Jackman in a matter of an hour or so; the rest of the day was his own.
Yet how he longed even to be rid of the responsibility of that hour or

He went back into the house and into his room, and set about preparing
for himself a cup of coffee. He very often did that in the early
morning, before anyone was about. Glancing at the clock, he saw that it
was not quite six. He was bending over the little spirit stove, when he
suddenly drew himself upright and listened; for there was a sound of
little feet upon the stair.

The sound drew nearer, while he listened a little guiltily. Then the
door was pushed open, and Moira came in; and for a moment the man and
the child looked deep into each other's souls.

"Hullo, Moira!" said Paul at last. "You're up early."

She did not reply; she walked across to him, and put up her face for a
kiss. He did not dare even to whisper a question as to the previous
night; he was casting about in his mind for the best thing to say under
these tragic circumstances. The pride of the child forbade that she
should even breathe the name of her rival; so that each waited and
wondered what was best to be said. Had the simple Paul but known,
however, Moira had already made up her mind what to do with him; had
been thinking it out during the night.

Paul was sipping his coffee, and furtively glancing at the child, when
he saw that she was about to speak. She was leaning against him, and his
arm encircled her; almost he could feel her thin young body quiver with
the eagerness of the question, although she spoke quietly enough.

"Old Paul--what do you do when you love anybody?"

"Do?" Paul set down his cup, and twisted the child about, the better to
look into her eyes. "Oh, you just--just love 'em," he replied feebly.

"Oh!" The child lowered her eyes, and seemed to be pondering deeply.
Finally she spoke, tracing a vein on the back of the man's hand with one
finger as she said the words, and looking down at that finger. "Patience
says that sometimes, when you're in that state, you elope."

"Patience seems to know a lot about it," said Paul. "Look here, old
lady--what are you driving at? We're quite alone, you know--and I'll
never breathe a word about it."

"Patience says that sometimes there's somebody in the way--'somebody who
stands between,' was what she said; and in that case you steal out
quietly, and you rush away, and you never get caught. At least, that is,
in the best eloping cases," she added, thoughtfully.

"And you only do that when somebody stands between?" whispered Paul.
"Somebody, for instance, who is a little bit in the way?"

She did not look up at him; she only nodded quickly. As he looked at
her, he saw a bright drop fall on his hand, but he was too wise to say
anything; he went on in an unaltered tone:

"Someone, for instance, who would take--shall we say _me_, for
argument?--away for a time; that is, of course, if they could. But,
dear"--he drew her a little closer to him--"I don't really want to go."

"But of course there are things you must do, unless somebody else is
brave enough to help you," she whispered. "That's why it seemed to me on
such a day, that we might, if we were very quiet about it, elope!" She
raised her eyes for the first time, and the eyes were laughing. "It
isn't a serious business, Old Paul; and we could be back in time for

"It _is_ a serious business," he replied. "It's a desperate business. We
might be pursued by that--that other person."

"There's not a moment to be lost, Old Paul," she cried, slipping out of
his embrace, and dancing light-footed and light-hearted round the room.
"Come at once!"

"Eloping persons generally have a carriage, and they drive at top
speed," suggested Old Paul. "We must do the thing properly, you know."

"There is the Ancient One," replied Moira instantly.

"To be sure; I never thought of the Ancient One," he replied.

Now the Ancient One was an aged and somewhat dejected donkey, who had
been bought out of sheer charity by Old Paul under distressing
circumstances. Originally the Ancient One had been attached to a cart
owned by a gipsy; and Paul had come upon the gipsy belabouring the
animal unmercifully upon a country-road. Moira had been with him; she
remembered to this hour all that had happened on that wonderful and
exciting occasion.

Old Paul had first of all taken off his coat, and folded it neatly, and
laid it on the bank; and then a moment later he and the gipsy were "all
arms and legs," as Moira expressed it afterwards, "about the road."

It had ended in the gipsy being discovered, as they say in the plays,
seated with a swollen face on the opposite bank, and bewailing his hard
lot; while Old Paul stood over him, and asked what he wanted for the
Ancient One. (They christened him the Ancient One afterwards, because
Paul said that donkeys never died, and that this one ought to have died
years before.)

Paul had paid certain bright sovereigns for the Ancient One, and had led
him home in triumph, with Moira poised upon his back. After that an old
chaise had been discovered, hidden away in the stable of an inn; and
that had been a mere matter of seventeen shillings; and this was the
equipage in which these eloping persons were to start.

But first, of course, there were preparations. You cannot elope without
careful consideration; and it was more than possible that they might be
hungry before the day was out and they crept home to supper. Going hand
in hand and on tip-toe guiltily, they stole from the larder bread and
cheese and a bottle of milk; moreover, Paul made an uncouth sandwich or
two in a desperate hurry. When all this had been tied up in a cloth,
they went out of the house in search of the Ancient One and the chaise.

By all the rules of the great game it was necessary, as Old Paul
carefully explained in a whisper, that he should be waiting in the
carriage in a lane, until the lady could escape and join him. Therefore,
the better to keep up that fiction, Moira hid in the bushes until three
shrill whistles sounded from outside the garden; then she crept out to
meet her lover; and Old Paul (the dog must have been through this
before, to understand it so well!) received her, hat in hand--a
difficult process, because he had to hold the Ancient One with the other
hand, and the Ancient One was kicking; but Moira, radiantly happy, got
into the chaise, and sat bright-eyed and demure; then Old Paul climbed
in beside her, and after a preliminary tussle with the Ancient One,
started him on his journey.

Properly speaking, the Ancient One should have gone at top speed, with
dust flying and the chaise rocking perilously. But there was no top
speed about that animal; instead, he crawled along in a zig-zag fashion,
just as tempting grass lured him at either side of the road; while Old
Paul sat, leaning forward, with the reins hanging loose in his hands,
the while he talked to Moira. For they were going out into the big
world, these two, if only for a day; and it was a wonderful place to
each innocent pair of eyes, unexplored and beautiful. Somewhere or
other, when the Ancient One should have condescended to drag them to the
spot, they were to have breakfast, and to discuss the plans for the day.

In that, again, Old Paul showed his absolute genius; you might have
imagined that he would have stopped in some secluded spot, and have
opened that precious cloth which contained the provisions he had so
artfully prepared; but not a bit of it; he had other ideas than that for
such an occasion. Presently, if you please, the Ancient One was turned
unresisting into an old stable yard attached to an equally old inn;
there to dream in a little while of the Elysian Fields, amid a generous
bounty of hay. By that time a wondering landlady had conducted Old Paul
and the child to a room upstairs, where in the mere twinkling of an eye
a cloth was spread upon the table, and a round-faced, open-eyed young
female had bounced in and out with knives and forks and cups and plates.
For by that time the Ancient One had been examined, and the very chaise
appraised; and the story was abroad of this wonderful young man who had
come suddenly as it were into the deserted place, and had mysteriously
ordered breakfast.

The landlady herself waited upon them; hovered about them, indeed, with
hands upraised, and with stifled exclamations of wonder and delight. It
was difficult to get rid of her; she came in on the mere pretext of
picking up a crumb from the floor; there was no delicacy about her.
When, however, it had at last dawned upon her that her presence was an
outrage, the two settled down to their meal; and the dark eyes looked
into the blue ones contentedly and happily; and the blue ones smiled
back; for even Moira knew that this was the proper thing to do on an

They grew quite confidential over that meal--more confidential, in fact,
than they had ever been. It was as though they had been lifted out of
their ordinary world, and set down in an enchanted one somewhere else;
the ordinary conditions of life had slipped past them; and could be
lightly forgotten. Old Paul told her something of the days when he had
been a boy, something of his life in a time that seemed now far off,
lying back in the shadows. And Moira learned, to her surprise, that in
that time Patience had been with him, and had even then, as it seemed to
his remembrance, been quite old.

"I was a little chap, and I remember that we were all very poor, Moira,"
he said across the table. "But always Patience was there; she looked
after my mother a lot, when my mother seemed only to be a young girl.
Then heaps and heaps of riches came to me, too late for the young girl
who was my mother, but still I had Patience with me; which accounts, you
see," he added whimsically, "for her being there now, and understanding
me so well. If sometimes you think she's hard and stern, dear, you've
only got to remember that I've given her a lot of trouble in my time,
and made her anxious about me. I've taken a deal of watching, Moira."

"You have, Old Paul," she retorted, with a remembrance of her rescue of
him that day. "You might have been quite destroyed if we hadn't looked
after you carefully," she added, with her elbows on the table and her
chin propped in her palms.

"Do you know," he said, looking across at her gratefully, "although I
wouldn't mention it to a soul, I shall never know quite how to thank you
for to-day. This elopement of ours has quite put matters straight; I
should never have thought of it myself at all."

"Patience says that it takes a woman to manage things," retorted Moira

They found the Ancient One less inclined to move than ever after his
feasting; indeed, Moira declared that it was a little difficult to fit
him in between the shafts. But they got him started, and went away on
another unknown expedition, with the whole inn to watch them, including
the landlady and the bouncing female who had brought in the knives and
forks and plates. At the last moment the Ancient One decided that he
would return to the hay, and it became necessary for Old Paul to lead
him out into the high road, and for the landlady and the bouncing one to
push the chaise behind; while Moira, in a high state of dignity, sat in
the chaise, and strove hard not to laugh. For Old Paul saying pretty
things to the donkey while he led him was certainly funny.

Paul had been thoughtful in regard to the home-coming, and the landlady
had received secret orders, so that by the time the long bright day was
ending, and the shadows were lengthening across the roads and fields,
they came, in some unaccountable fashion, by a circuitous route back to
the inn again; there to find the landlady, apparently moved to
astonishment at their re-appearance, and yet with a sumptuous meal on
the way. Moira was handed over to the care of the motherly woman and the
bouncing maid, while Paul smoked a pipe, and lounged in a deep window
seat, and looked out over the darkening fields. And presently the child
came down, radiant and hungry, with her attendant slaves hovering about
her. The man and the child ate their meal in the dusk of the room, with
only their eyes for lights--the one for the other.

"It's been the most wonderful elopement possible," said Moira, with a
deep sigh of contentment. "I'm sure that even the Ancient One will
remember it to his dying day--that is, if he ever dies at all."

"I wouldn't have missed it for the world," said Paul.

A little jealous feeling crept in, even in the midst of Moira's
happiness; she stole round the table, and got an arm about his neck, and

"Have you thought about her at all, Old Paul?"

"Once--but not seriously," he whispered. "But I don't like you to say
that, dear," he added.

"That's because you don't understand," she breathed, with her lips
against his cheek. "I should have died if I had thought of you in the
woods with her; I could not have borne it. Promise me, Old Paul--promise
me truly?"

"What, little maid?" he whispered.

"Promise me that never in all your life will you elope with anybody but
me. Let me know that no one else will be taken away by you like this.
Let this be my own--my very own elopement."

And Old Paul most solemnly promised.

They drove home under a kindly moon and stars; and by that time Moira
was nearly asleep. Jogging along through the country lanes, Old Paul as
he held the reins and kept an arm about the child, dreamed dreams.
Dreamed, perhaps, that this might have been the woman who had died; that
in such a fashion he might have travelled through an impossible world of
moonshine and of starshine with her, and been impossibly happy. Almost
he came to think that by the love of the child he had won back to the
love of the mother; that the disaster that had touched his life was a
thing to be forgotten--something long since atoned for, alike in death
and by the gift of this baby. The love his young manhood had known for
the mother seemed to be swallowed up in this purer, finer love for the
child; he came back, at the end of his perfect day, secure in that love
at least.

By the time the sleepy Ancient One stopped at the gate in the wall Moira
was awake again; she suffered herself to be lifted from the chaise, and
so to face the commonplace world again. She stood, swaying a little with
sleep, in the warm dusk; she became dimly conscious that someone was
surveying her through a bright eyeglass. That was the crowning moment of
her triumph, and she did not need to say anything in explanation.

"I was taking a stroll," sounded the high voice of Honora Jackman.
"Where have you been hiding all day, you two?"

Old Paul felt the warm fingers of the child tighten about his hand; he
knew what answer he must give. "Well, as a matter of fact," he replied
blandly, "Moira and I have been away all day--on a little excursion."
The fingers tightened still more, and he plunged desperately into the
full truth. "We--we eloped together early this morning; and it has been
a wonderful day."

That was enough; impelled by the stern hand of Moira he was swept past
Honora Jackman, and was drawn towards the house, leading the Ancient
One. It was the hour of Moira's triumph, and she would not have abated
one jot of it. The shrill little laugh the woman gave was the final
beautiful note of it.

Only Anthony Ditchburn seemed to have suffered. He came querulously to
Paul that night--looking in with a scared face, and with glances over
his shoulder, as though in fear of pursuit.

"Why did you go away, Nannock?" he demanded. "She's a horrible woman;
she came early, and said something about woods; seemed to have a sort of
suspicion that I was hiding you. Came again several times during the
day, and asked about you; was positively rude at times. And I in the
midst of an important chapter! You needn't laugh," he added piteously;
"it has quite unnerved me. She's dangerous."

But Old Paul leaned back in his chair, and laughed until he cried.



It does not need to be recorded here that after that first fierce
outburst the image of Honora Jackman faded from the mind of Jimmy, and
became but as a vague dream of the past. True, for a time he hugged to
himself the impossible thought of her; remembered with a pang the day of
her departure. For even the Baffalls were to see the last of her, and
Jimmy was to be privileged to be inconsolable for some twenty-four

She did not depart without something of a sensation. She felt she
owed it to her reputation, and to her superior knowledge of the
world, that she should let this man know that she understood his
feelings--understood, in particular, that he was afraid of her. Bitterly
though she resented the fashion in which he had set her aside, there
was consolation in the thought that he had had to set, as she believed,
the frail child between herself and him; she would remind him of that at
least before she went. Mrs. Baffall being easily managed on such a
matter, it came about that Mrs. Baffall put in an appearance at Daisley
Place, and sought an interview with Old Paul.

"She's going away," said Mrs. Baffall; it did not seem necessary to
mention any name.

"You'll miss her," replied Old Paul politely.

Mrs. Baffall glanced about her as though fearing listeners; then she
smoothed her gloved hands down over her silk dress, bending herself a
little to do so, and spoke in a confidential whisper:

"We shall--and we shan't, Mr. Nannock, in a manner of speaking," she
said. "Between you and me and what I may call the gate-post, Baffall and
me won't be sorry. She's nice, and she's got style, but it's a bit too
much of a style for us. Bare shoulders at dinner make me feel
chilly--and her voice seems to go through and through the house."

"I think I understand," said Paul, nodding. "But you want me to do

"I thought if you could stand the shoulders for one evening--you being
more used to 'em like, Mr. Nannock--it'd be a charity. She said this
morning"--Mrs. Baffall made an extraordinary grimace, as though
controlling a desire to laugh--"said this very morning that she was
dying to see you and the children together--in your own place. Seems
quite set on it."

Paul walked across to the window and looked out; turned there, and
looked at the old woman. There was an unspoken question in his eyes, and
she answered it promptly.

"Lord bless the man--she won't eat you!" she exclaimed, in a more
natural fashion than that in which she usually spoke. "And if it'll do
her any good, by all means let her. I'm sure you'll excuse me speaking
in such a fashion to you, sir; but I think she's got about a hundred and
fifty a year to live on--and not many friends, as you count friends in
this world. And she ain't a bad sort, take her all round--and she's a

Paul came away from the window and stood close to the old woman, who had
risen to meet him; in that moment they clasped hands and looked into
each other's eyes. "Come, all of you--and you shall fix the date," said

She withdrew her hand and laughed a little confusedly; settled the
strings of her bonnet with some faint touch of coquetry. "Make it
to-morrow, Mr. Nannock," she said.

In order not to reveal the innocent plot Paul sent a formal invitation
that day by the hand of Jimmy. Jimmy had a wild hope that he might see
his divinity, for, of course, at that time her image had not faded by
any means--that was only to come later. But the lady did not put in an
appearance; instead, Mrs. Baffall entertained him in the showy
drawing-room, inquiring politely as to the health of everybody, and
giving him minute particulars concerning various uninteresting matters
with which he could not possibly be concerned. But Jimmy learnt, to his
fluttering delight, that _she_ was coming to dinner on the morrow; it
might be that he would get a glimpse of her.

He was to get more than a glimpse. Old Paul gravely informed him, on his
return to the house, that he was to dine with the company on the morrow;
and Jimmy, blushing furiously, blurted out his thanks and fled from the
room. For reasons of state Paul decided that the girls had better not
appear; perhaps he feared Moira a little. In his own mind he set this
experienced woman of the world against the child, and carefully made
allowances for feelings with which another would not have credited her.
In fact, all things considered, Paul felt he would be glad when the
dinner party should be over, and Honora Jackman well away upon her
travels again.

Honora came softly, and with something of timidity. To judge from her
manner, and from the fashion in which her hand lingered in his for a
moment at her coming, this might have been really an affair of hearts
between them; some impossible romance, in which self-sacrifice had been
demanded and sadly given. Mrs. Baffall quite felt that the unfortunate
woman was departing into a grey world, charged with sad and secret
memories. So well, indeed, did Honora carry out that part of the
business that Paul himself had an uncomfortable feeling that he had
treated her rather badly, and that she was behaving with a generosity
that called for the highest commendation. In manner he was quite

She had evidently determined that she would stamp this night into the
memory of Paul Nannock; would go away, in fact, leaving the sweetest
savour behind her. The boisterousness was gone; there was almost a new
timidity about her. When she came into that sitting-room that was
littered with books and toys, and came up frankly to him with a hand
outstretched, she was careful to keep her disengaged white arm round the
neck of the radiant Jimmy; insisted afterwards on having Jimmy beside
her at table. And there talked in a quiet voice, and with a little low
ripple of laughter, about what she was to do and what prosaic things
were to happen to her.

"It's just been simply lovely down here with you all," she said. "I'll
own I came to scoff; I've remained to do the other thing. If you knew
anything about me, you dear simple folk, you'd know that for a time I've
lost sight and touch of the hard world in which I live. Funny--isn't it?
Yet it's true; even Jimmy here has taught me a lot. I shall remember
your woods and your fields, and I shall think of you often and often.
Gracious!--I'm growing sentimental."

She was to be a revelation to them that night. Presently she sat down at
the piano in the dusk of the room (Paul remembered it afterwards, and
could smell again, when he remembered, the soft warm summer night
outside the open windows) and sang to them. She began with a haunting
Irish song--an old thing, with a hint of mournfulness and longing and
fatality in it--passed rapidly into a happy-go-lucky burlesque affair
that set them chuckling, and caused Mrs. Baffall to roll about in her
chair and to cram her handkerchief into her mouth. The voice was not
particularly good, but it had a pleasant quality of sincerity and
naturalness, and she made the most of it. And then suddenly she came out
with the complete object of her visit revealed.

"Mr. Nannock," she said, with a faint flush mounting in her cheek, "you
won't let me go away without seeing the--the children?"

"I'll be--delighted," he said, looking at her helplessly, and inwardly
praying with extreme fervour that Moira might be asleep. "Perhaps, Mrs.

But Mrs. Baffall shook her head. "I'm very comfortable, thank you," she
replied, "and I can see the children any time. Miss Jackman won't get
another chance."

So Paul, feeling somewhat ridiculous, went out of the room, and lighted
a candle in the hall, and prepared to set out on his expedition. Honora
Jackman, evidently amused, stood with her skirts gathered in one hand
ready to mount the stairs, watching him; noted with a secret delight the
perplexed frown on the face bending above the candle. He came at last to
the foot of the stairs, and smiled at her over the candle, and indicated
the way.

"Is it very far up?" she asked.

"Only the first floor," he replied, and she tripped on in front of him,
while he followed demurely with the candle.

The girls had two tiny beds in a big wilderness of a room--a room that
had been specially fitted, under Paul's direction, for their comfort.
There was a huge cupboard that held toys and dolls; there were deep
chairs and couches; there was a big fireplace, covered still with a high
curved fire-guard--reminiscent of the days when they had been very young
indeed. Old Paul, holding the candle, opened the door, and motioned to
Honora Jackman to go in. Honora stepped in delicately, and Paul followed
with the light.

The first bed held Alice. She lay there with her fair curls fallen about
her face, and with a smile upon the half-parted lips. Honora smiled as
she bent over her. "She looks like a small angel," she whispered.

In the next bed, as they tip-toed over to it, was Moira; and Moira, be
it noted, was not asleep. She had lain fretting and fuming at the
thought of the woman downstairs; she had heard the footsteps on the
stairs, and had known, indignantly enough, that the woman was coming up.
Instantly she had closed her eyes and feigned sleep. It was, of course,
a very wrong thing to do, and there is no possible excuse that can be
urged; but the child felt that here, at this moment, she was to see even
deeper into the heart of Old Paul, and to understand what that real
intimate heart meant for her.

Old Paul bent over her, and softly put back a long strand of dark hair
from her face. Honora Jackman had taken the candle, and was shading the
light carefully, so that it happened that Moira's flush of sudden
pleasure at his touch was unseen. Honora was looking not at the child,
but at him, and her eyes were laughing.

"Why are you so afraid of me, Mr. Nannock?" she whispered, squeezing the
warm top of the candle between a finger and thumb, and looking
thoughtfully at the light.

"I--I don't think I am," he breathed in reply.

"Oh, yes, you are," she retorted. "So much afraid of me that you had
once to set this baby between me and--shall we say--possible danger?"
She gave a little quick laugh in her throat, and flashed a glance at

"Oh--that was a whim--of hers and mine," he said steadily, still keeping
his voice to the lowest. "Besides, if you come to that, I think she
stands first--in all things."

"Oh, I quite know that," she whispered. "But I wonder sometimes, as
every woman wonders where a man who interests her is concerned--I wonder
what you think of me."

"Nothing but the best, I assure you."

"That counts for nothing--and means nothing," she whispered sharply.
"Lord, what fools we women are," she went on, in quite another tone. "I
wonder what you'd think of me if I told you what was in my mind?"

"Is it necessary?" he whispered gravely.

"I think so," she said. "I came down here and heard about you, and set
you down for a fool--a gaby. I thought all this business of the children
was a pose--something to make you talked about; I know now that it
isn't. And I like you for it--love you a little for it."

"Shall we go downstairs?" he asked.

"Not yet; there's something else to be said--and I may as well say it
beside this child, who holds your heart in those slim fingers of hers,
as anywhere else--better perhaps. I don't suppose you'll see me
again--at any time; why should you?" She laughed that queer little
laugh in her throat, and kept her bright eyes on the light of the
candle. "So I'll say now that I would have sold my immortal soul
to-night to have had you stand beside me as you've stood beside this
baby--and touched my hair once like that--and looked at me with that
softened look in your eyes. That's all. Now we can go down."

They moved towards the door; there he stopped and turned towards her. "I
think you might kiss the child," he said, with a nod back towards the
bed. "I should like to remember that you did that."

"Thank you," she whispered, and stole back to the bed.

Moira had heard, and in some dim fashion had partly understood--was
perhaps a little ashamed of her own triumph; therefore, it happened that
when Honora Jackman bent over her, she reached up an arm in apparent
half slumber and encircled Honora's neck. When the woman had settled the
bed-clothes about the child she turned away quickly, and came back to
where Paul stood, and handed him the candle. And she was smiling quite

Outside the room they met Mrs. Baffall; the good woman had felt that
after all she might as well come up and look after her guest. "So you've
seen them?" she whispered. "Aren't they sweet?"

"Oh--they're all right--for children," replied Honora, with a laugh.
"And they always look better asleep, you know."

She ran downstairs, leaving the others to follow at their leisure. Mrs.
Baffall turned an anxious face to Paul, and spoke excusingly of her.

"You mustn't think she's hard," she said. "I'm afraid it's her life--the
people she's met, you know. There's some tenderness in her."

"I believe there is," replied Paul.

Honora Jackman was to leave the place the next day, so that this was a
species of farewell. Paul presently insisted that a glass of wine should
be drunk in her honour before they parted; and even Jimmy--blinking hard
to keep his eyes open--was allowed a minute fraction of a glass
wherewith to honour the toast. And by that time Honora Jackman, with
nothing of that past tenderness and humility upon her, insisted upon
clinking glasses with the boy, and drank to him specially, so that he
blushed to the very ears.

"Jimmy--I drink to you," she said, and her eyes were very soft. "I
shan't forget you, Jimmy--and I'm going to ask Mr. Nannock to let you
come to the station to see me off in the morning--and only you."

The boy looked anxiously at Paul, and Paul nodded with a smile. Very
soon after that they heard her voice calling back to them as they stood
at the gate, and as she walked away with the Baffalls. The voice was
high and strident and loud as ever.

"She's a good woman, Jimmy," said Paul, as he closed and locked the

"She's wonderful!" said the boy, with a little catch in his voice.

He was down at the station hours before the train could possibly start;
he watched the clock anxiously; wished, as time went on, that she also
might on this last occasion have found it in her heart to come early,
and to talk to him before she went. He felt he could have braved the
grins of the one porter and the station-master in that event.

He had exhausted every nook and corner of the station, and had even
wandered disconsolately outside in the road to watch for the coming
carriage; but five minutes before the coming of the train there was
still no sign of her. Then, when his heart was beginning to beat with
the hope that after all she had decided not to go, the carriage came in
sight, with the coachman flogging his horses. There was a minute and a
half before the train was to come, but Honora Jackman got out of the
carriage as serenely as ever, and began to give directions about her
luggage. Jimmy, getting near to her, ventured to touch her hand; she
looked round at him and said, quite in a tone of surprise: "Hullo,
Jimmy! where did you come from?" just as though she had not expected
him, or had not remembered that he was to meet her. Jimmy's one chance
of a tender moment with her came when the anxious station-master, after
fuming and fretting and grinding his teeth, had seen her into the train;
and the one porter, red in the face from unaccustomed exertion, had got
her luggage by superhuman efforts into the van. Then she dropped coppers
to the porter, and held out a hand to Jimmy as the whistle sounded.

"I got up late, Jimmy; I didn't think I'd start at all, as a matter of
fact. Good-bye; there hasn't been time for a word--has there?"

She might have leaned out of the window at the last; the boy waited
until the very tail end of the train was disappearing under the bridge
and round the curve. But by that time Honora Jackman was deep in a
paper, and had forgotten his very existence.

Jimmy trudged home, kicking up more dust than was really necessary on
the road, and having his cap drawn down over his eyes. Subsequently he
confessed to Old Paul that girls were beasts, and that for his part he
had quite made up his mind never to marry. There were lots of things a
fellow could do in the world; Jimmy seemed to suggest a sort of sardonic
attitude, in which he stood with folded arms and a cynical expression,
looking on at people making fools of themselves over women, and secretly
pitying them. The change came at the end of a week, what time a letter
arrived for "Master James Larrance"; the writing was big and sprawling,
and quite a lot of Jimmy's unaccustomed name had been lost under the
stamp and postmark.

But it was from her; there was the signature at the end--"Honora
Jackman"--with the "man" cramped up in a corner--pushed out of the way,
as it were, by the first syllable. And above that wondrous name the
words, "yours ever lovingly."

Jimmy passed the thing off casually enough--quite as though he were in
the habit of receiving letters from ladies signed in that fashion every
day of the week, and was a little bored by them. Moira wanted to know
why he didn't read it, for, of course, the inconsiderate postman had
delivered the tender missive to the very breakfast table, and Jimmy had
opened it in sheer wonder before he knew who the writer was.

Old Paul might have been expected to have a better grasp of the
situation; but Old Paul chuckled, and advised Jimmy not to answer it;
you couldn't be too careful in this world. And Jimmy burnt his mouth
with his tea, and wondered why they must all find it necessary to look
at him, and why the very envelope seemed to spread itself half over the
table, and to be the biggest thing there. He had to wait until the meal
was ended, and they had taken their time about going, before he dared
pick up the sacred thing and read it.

She was well; there was comfort in that. If anything, she was a little
too happy for one writing as far away as Yorkshire; but no other man was
mentioned, and she had been thinking a lot about Jimmy. It appeared
that Jimmy had been "beautifully kind" to her. Jimmy blushed, and
glanced at the door, and read that phrase again--and yet again.

She seemed anxious to know about Old Paul; referred to him in the letter
under that title, but told Jimmy he was not to mention it. She thought
how nice it must be for them all to live with Old Paul, and didn't they
absolutely adore him? Quite an unnecessary part of the letter was taken
up with references to Old Paul; Jimmy decided it would be wiser not to
tell the man about it. For the rest, she was having "a ripping time,"
and the people were delightful; they were described enthusiastically as
"dears." Jimmy would have been better satisfied if he had known whether
the "dears" were male or female.

That letter--the only one he ever received from her--was a thing of
wonder for a day or two; and then somehow, after many readings, the
wonder vanished. Sentences that had seemed almost inspired at a first or
even a second reading touched the commonplace when submitted to a
twentieth; at the last perusal--in a matter of a week--they appeared
almost silly. There came a degraded morning when Jimmy actually burnt
the letter, and went out into the world again to find new interests.
Which was, of course, as it should be.

In the time that lay before him Jimmy's affections were at the most
brushed lightly from time to time; they were never violently stirred.
The affair of Honora Jackman had done that much for him at least, that
it had brought him out into sane and ordinary life again, and had not
harmed him. In whatever direction his heart might turn in his boyhood,
he would not even have that experience behind him; because he had in a
very short space of time absolutely forgotten all about it, and had
relegated Honora Jackman to the back of his mind, so that he remembered
her only as a tall young woman with an eyeglass, who was perhaps almost
too elderly to be absolutely interesting.

It is the way of man (and, incidentally, perhaps, of boy) to desire that
which another desires first; things are seldom valuable until another
has pointed out that value to us, by coveting whatever the special
object may be. And so it came about that when Jimmy once again touched
emotional matters, it was owing to a question of rivalry and of
jealousy. It happened in this wise.

A year or two had gone on in a dull, pleasant, easy fashion, with
nothing changed or changing, as it seemed, in the quiet world of Daisley
Cross. Old Paul did not look a day older, and time was only to be
counted by a mere matter of actual figures, which did not concern the
children, and by the fact that they had progressed considerably in their
work under the guidance of the Rev. Temple Purdue. Old Paul could have
told a tale of lengthening frocks for the girls, and of increased
expenditure concerning Jimmy's clothes also; but he only smiled, and
shook his head, and said nothing. If the truth be told, he was a little
worried at the thought that the "babies" should be so obviously growing

Charlie Purdue had in a sense grown up with them--grown up, in fact, a
little more than they had. He was tall and fair; the recklessness of his
manner had increased with his years, and gave him an appearance of being
older than he was. That, too, had passed unnoticed, save perhaps by the
Rev. Temple Purdue, who had been compelled to strengthen his lectures a
little to the boy, and who had worried a little more about the future.
For the rest, Charlie had studied with them, and roamed the country with
them, and had been almost as free of Old Paul's house as those who
rightly belonged to it. And then one day had come the revelation to
Jimmy that seemed to make him understand, in one swift moment, how much
he had grown up, and how much things had changed for them all.

It happened in a mere matter of a frolic. They had come out of the
rectory one summer morning (for all their recollections seemed connected
with summer at that time), and it had been a merry rush for the gate at
the end of the garden. Jimmy, dreaming of something else, had not heard
the invitation; the rush had developed into a keen race between Charlie
and Moira. Alice laughingly gave up half way, and turned back to Jimmy.
Jimmy, looking at the pair, saw exactly what occurred.

Moira had no chance against Charlie at the end; he rapidly overtook her.
Racing along by her side for a moment, he deftly caught her round the
waist, and bent his face towards hers laughingly. She struggled,
laughing in her turn, but he kissed her, and they finished the race side
by side, and so drew up, blushing and laughing confusedly at the gate.

Charlie left them there, and the three walked on towards home. More than
once Moira glanced at Jimmy timidly; once she tried to laugh, but gave
it up. Jimmy's brow was storm-clouded; he walked on with his hands in
his pockets, staring straight before him. When for a moment he glanced
at Moira, as she tripped on ahead with the younger girl, the thought
came to him of how greatly she had changed. She was tall and straight
and slim; she carried her head high, and her dark hair fell about her
shoulders in profusion. And then he remembered that Charlie Purdue had
seized her roughly, and had kissed her. She had not seemed to struggle
as much as she should have done.

As they turned in at the gate of Old Paul's house, Moira lingered for a
moment and slipped a hand into his. He did not respond; he did not even
look at her.

"You're out of friends with me," she whispered. There was no reply. "It
wasn't my fault; I didn't like him to."

"He kissed you," whispered Jimmy, with suppressed wrath. "You could have
got away if you'd liked."

"He was too quick," she pleaded, with a burning face. "Indeed, Jimmy
dear, I didn't want him to."

"That's all right," said Jimmy magnanimously.

But he thought about it for a long time, and the more he thought about
it the more his heart ached, and the more he hated Charlie Purdue. He
re-enacted the little scene over again--brooded over it, and had his
jealousy stirred every time he happened upon Moira. And at last went out
into the woods, to fight this new battle with himself, and to get the
thing out of his mind.

Poor Moira, fully recognising the heinousness of her offence by this
time, followed him, in the hope to make peace; but he did not see her.
He went on and on, until he came to a quiet spot in the wood, and there
he flung himself down, and snatched up handfuls of grass, and tossed
them about savagely, and moped. She was on the very point of creeping up
to him and flinging herself down beside him, and making friends with him
in the old fashion, when she heard a cheery whistle near at hand, and
saw that Jimmy was lying propped on his elbows watching. She drew back
among the trees--afraid, and yet fascinated. For this was the eternal
problem of which as yet she knew nothing, but which was to have its
beginnings there at that very moment.

Charlie Purdue came on, all unsuspecting, gave a whoop of delight when
he saw Jimmy; stopped dead when Jimmy did not respond nor even raise his
eyes to him. Charlie sank down on his knees within a yard of the other
boy, and leaned forward, and gazed at Jimmy quizzically.

"Hullo!" he said. "What's gone wrong?"

Jimmy got up leisurely; to an onlooker it might have seemed almost that
he stretched and showed his muscles, much as a young animal might have
done on the eve of an encounter. Charlie rose at the same time, and so
they stood together--unobserved, as they thought, in the heart of the
wood, looking into each other's eyes.

"You've got to fight me," said Jimmy. "I suppose you know what that

"Oh, yes, I know," replied Charlie, with a faint laugh. "But what for?"

Jimmy suddenly determined to do the thing in the grand manner; this
should be no mere squabble over the favours of a girl. He remembered
suddenly and unexpectedly that former great passion of his for Honora
Jackman; it inspired him now. "You've got to fight me," he said,
"because you've insulted a lady. I saw you insult her."

"Rot!" exclaimed the more prosaic Charlie. "She didn't mind; she was

"She did mind; she didn't like it at all," exclaimed Jimmy fiercely;
more fiercely, because he wanted to believe that himself. "Come on!"

He began to strip off his coat; Charlie, following his example more
slowly, added a galling statement which served only to rouse the other
boy to a frenzy.

"You'd better be careful, you know; I'm a lot bigger than you are. And I
didn't start this."

Jimmy started it then and there; he set his teeth and made a blind rush
for his adversary, hitting where he could. Moira, hidden by the trees,
watched eagerly, and caught her breath in a sort of sob as Jimmy,
rebounding from the other, went flat upon his back. But the next moment
he was up, and was dancing about the bigger boy like a small madman.

The feeling that he was in a sense an avenger--alike for the girl and
for his own outraged feelings--gave Jimmy a strength he would not
otherwise have had in colder blood. It came to Charlie's turn to go
down, and then to sit up, with a mild sort of amazement on his
good-humoured face, the while he rubbed the back of his head. Then,
taking things more seriously, he got to his feet, and set to work in
earnest, only to find himself beaten by the nimbler Jimmy. And it
finished with the pair of them rolling over and over, grappling
fiercely, while Jimmy pummelled the other boy wherever he could get in a

"Say--say you're sorry!" he gasped, still hitting away with might and
main. "Say--say you're a beast!"

"I'm not," jerked out the other, "and I'm--not sorry. Let go my hair!"

"Say--say you're sorry--or I'll kill you!" panted Jimmy, still hitting

"Oh--oh--all right--I'm sorry. She isn't worth this," gasped the other.
"Get off!"

"She _is_ worth it--and you know it," cried Jimmy, setting to work again
harder than ever. "Say it!"

And Charlie finally said it, as an easy way to end the business. Then
they drew off from each other, the better to ascertain the damage.
Charlie had a beautiful colour beginning to rise on one side of his
forehead, and he mopped at his nose doubtfully, and seemed a little
astonished at the state of his handkerchief. Jimmy had a fast darkening
eye and a suspicious puffiness about the mouth.

"What are you going to say about it?" asked Jimmy. "I mean--you won't
speak about her?"

"I suppose not," replied Charlie. "It doesn't matter much what we say; we
had a row, and had it out."

"Very well," replied the other stiffly.

Moira flew home by another route--got to Old Paul before Jimmy could
possibly arrive at the house. Breathlessly she blurted out something of
the story, and it would appear from her narrative that Jimmy had been in
the right, but that it must not be talked about. "Old Paul," she
whispered, shaking him to a better understanding, "you know what I

"Oh, yes, I understand," he said, with comically raised eyebrows. He
went away to find the others, muttering as he went something which
sounded to Moira's ears like "Oh, wise little woman!".

So that it happened that when Jimmy, with some bravado and some
hesitation, met them all at the table, and braced himself to meet their
outcries and their exclamations, he found that he had nothing to meet.
True, they looked at him covertly, and Alice seemed to be a little
frightened, but that was all. Yet when Moira found a chance to slip her
hand into his under the table, he hurriedly disengaged his fingers, and
did not look at her. For so much at least his new conquering manhood



Old Paul had done an unprecedented thing. Utterly regardless of the fact
that his usual journey to London was but just completed and the
multitudinous stores laid in, he had gone to London again; and that not
because he had forgotten anything.

He had apparently made up his mind with much suddenness about it; had
gone off early in the morning, before anyone was stirring. Patience had
been told late the previous night that he was going, and that he should
return on the same day; but all her questioning only elicited from him
the vague suggestion that it was a matter of business. And as London
and Old Paul had been sharply divided, so far as business and all other
matters were concerned, for several years past, Patience felt vaguely

Paul came back by the last train, and he walked queerly out of the
station and through the village--walked in a purposeless fashion, as
though not quite knowing which way to turn. Even when he came out on to
the road that led over the hill towards his house he walked with lagging
feet, as though he would delay his home-coming for as long a time as
possible. And frightened Patience almost out of her wits by going in at
the back of the house, and coming upon her in her own little sanctum
adjoining the kitchen.

"Lord save us--what's come to the man?" exclaimed Patience, starting up
from her chair, and looking at him across the light of the lamp. "I
didn't hear you come in."

"Hush!" he said, in a strange voice. "I'm tired--and I didn't want to
see anyone to-night, Patience--not even the children. Send them to bed;
I'll see them in the morning."

The woman gave him a swift look over the lamp; then turned quickly, and
went from the room, closing the door behind her. Paul tossed his hat
into a corner, and sat down, and idly turned the wick of the lamp up and
down once or twice; once he laughed softly, as at some grim jest that
had just occurred to him. But by the time Patience had come anxiously
into the room, and was staring into his face, with her hands clasped at
her lean breast, the man was himself again, and could afford to smile at

"Why--how frightened you look!" he said gently. "What's the matter?"

"Master Paul--Master Paul--something has gone wrong. You've bad news?"

"No--not bad news," he replied, without looking at her. "Nothing to
worry about at any rate--especially to-night. Get me some supper,
Patience--and something to drink."

She hurried away, and rapidly got a meal for him. When she came back
with the tray he was seated near the table, engaged on that old
occupation of turning the wick of the lamp up and down. He looked round
at her, in the attitude of one listening.

"What was that on the stairs?" he whispered. "I thought I heard someone
moving. Have they all gone to bed?"

"Yes, Master Paul--all gone to bed."

"Thank you, Patience; I could not have seen them to-night. And Mr.

"Oh I sent him packing the first of all," replied the woman, with a
sharp laugh. She began to adjust the tray, and to set out the things as
temptingly as possible; eager as she was to know what had happened, her
woman's tact taught her that it was something about which he would not
speak then. There was a strange awkward tenderness about her voice and
her movements as she waited upon him; the faded old eyes had a light in
them that had never shone for anyone but him. "Eat it, dearie; it'll do
you good," she whispered.

Nor would she leave him until a little later, utterly worn out, he
toiled upstairs to his room. And even then, in the security of her own
room, she listened for a long time, with her ear against the door, while
the man paced up and down--up and down--in his own room near at hand.
But at last even that sound ceased, and Old Paul was apparently at rest.

The night must have soothed him in some fashion; he woke calm and
refreshed. True, some of his gaiety was gone; he had a way of suddenly
relapsing into silence for no given reason, and then waking himself from
those silences with a start and a forced laugh. And a week after that
visit to London he suddenly went again; and this time was absent for the
whole of that day and the night, and the whole of the next day.

As he alighted at the little station of Daisley Cross, and took his way
down towards the house, with the darkening fields and woods on either
side of him, he moved like a man who has come into a strange world; for
now he viewed this world with other eyes than those with which he had
looked upon it before. As he walked, he strove to remember what he had
to face, and what had been said to him that day. It was difficult to
remember, because it was jumbled in his mind with something that had to
be done, and done quickly. For there was so little time--dear
God!--there was such a little time left!

That was the burden of the merciless song that had been ringing in his
ears all day--a song the faint coming sound of which had been suggested
to him a week before. He had only heard the thing faintly then--a mere
whisper of it; now it was ringing in his ears, and beating on his very
brain. As he walked, tears, not wholly of self-pity, flooded into his
eyes; he had not deserved this--had not expected it. It wasn't fair nor
just; other men who had lived wilder lives than himself would go on
living wilder lives yet, until they grew to be old, with a long life to
look back upon; and his was to close in so short a time; he was still
young--and yet young enough to die. It wasn't fair--there must be some

He grew calmer presently; some of the old sober strength of the man,
that had been shattered for the time, returned to him. The peace of the
night stole into his veins; he looked about him at the darkening world,
and up at the stars, and thought how small and poor a thing he was,
compared with all the worlds that took their calm and solemn ways about
him. He was but a unit in a great scheme of things; and on this very
earth he trod to-night other men in bygone years had trod their ways, of
joy or pain, weariness or hope; and so had gone down into the dust, as
he must go. It did not seem so bad, out here under the stars; it almost
seemed as though the man walked alone with his God, and understood.

But now, perhaps more than ever before in his life, he needed a woman.
It was a vague indefinite longing--some faint touch of the helplessness
of the man, alike in his birth and in his death. No mere child could be
of use to him in this hour; he wanted to touch the hand of a woman;
wanted to be sure of her, and to know, whoever she was, that she
understood. And there was no one to whom he could turn--no one strong

He avoided the house, save that he stood for a time at the gate, and
looked at the windows, and counted the lights; he knew what each light
meant, and knew who slept within. And only then for a moment did he turn
aside, and see that all the landscape danced and was misty before him.
He went on, with that indefinite feeling of what he wanted and could not

He went on down into the succeeding valley beyond his own house; found
himself presently wandering disconsolately outside the house of the
Baffalls. And, the house of the Baffalls being a new one, was set close
to the road, with only a mere strip of ground between it and a new and
gaily painted railing. Half mechanically he glanced at the windows, and
saw a light, and was comforted; because here were friends.

On the other side of the lighted window a woman lay wakeful. That was
strange, because ordinarily speaking, as Mrs. Baffall herself expressed
it, she no sooner touched the pillow than she was off! But on this night
she lay thinking and listening; even the comfortable well-known presence
of Baffall by her side did not reassure her. In some way or other the
night held a mystery; someone seemed to be calling to her from out the
dark depths of it.

She had been thinking a great deal about Old Paul--for the motherly
heart of her, that never had been wakened to real motherhood, embraced
even him. She had been a little sorry for him--as for one who had not
quite made the best of things, or who had missed something to which he
should have attained. She had thought once--blushing prettily at the
thought--that she might have had such a son, of such an age, for
herself; for she and Baffall had married early, and that had been many
years ago. And to-night, for some hidden reason, she lay awake and
thought about him.

She got out of bed softly at last, petulantly displeased with herself
for this sudden change in her habits, and went to the window and looked
out. It was a clear night, with stars showing, and a mere ghost of a
wind rustling the trees; Mrs. Baffall shivered a little, and made a
movement to go back to bed. But as she turned, she glanced again through
the window, and stopped. For the tall figure of a man was pacing up and
down in the road outside, not a dozen yards from where she stood. And
the man had on his head a flapping soft hat, such as was worn by Paul

To tell the sober truth, Mrs. Baffall was a little frightened. Perhaps
because the half-waking dream of him had brought him so strongly into
her memory--perhaps because it seemed so strange that he should be
pacing up and down like this, when she had thought of him secure in his
own house. She stood for a moment, with nervous fingers at her lips,
looking at her sleeping husband, and wondering what she should do. Still
watching Baffall, she went at last to a corner of the room, and got a
heavy dressing-gown and put it on; slipped her bare feet into soft
slippers, and made for the door. Mr. Baffall still slumbered heavily as
she opened the door and went out on to the staircase.

Even then she had no very distinct idea of what she was to do. The fear
had gone; she seemed to see only out in the darkness this lonely man who
was fighting out some problem; seemed to feel, in the very heart of her,
that he wanted her, and that she could help him. She felt her way down
the stairs, and found a candle and lighted it; softly undid the bolts
and locks of the door; and appeared there in the doorway, with her
candle held above her head. That was the appearance she made to Paul
Nannock, as he paused outside the railings and looked towards her.

Unconsciously this was what he had prayed and hoped for; for here was a
woman who might--indeed, who must--understand. He thrust open the gate,
and went in slowly, with his eyes fixed upon her; and so for a moment
they looked at each other. And as they looked, all the surprise of the
meeting was gone; it was only a man and a woman smiling upon each other
in a very perfection of kindly friendship.

"I saw you--a long time ago," she whispered. "Funny--I seemed to think
it was you. Come in--come in and talk to me."

He went in and she closed the door; with a little cheery whisper to him
that the fire was not quite out, and that it was a chilly night, and
that Baffall was asleep, and that Old Paul mustn't mind her "get-up,"
Mrs. Baffall took him into a room, and set down the candle. And there
stood, with her grey hair disordered and falling about her shoulders,
looking at him, and mutely asking what he had to say. And because what
he had to say was so momentous, he made no apology for his coming--he
spoke direct from his heart.

"It's a little--a little trouble," he said--"and I wanted--wanted
someone to speak to."

"Yes, my dear?" The words came out quite simply and naturally, as she
seated herself and drew her dressing-gown about her. But never did she
take her eyes from his face.

"I've known it a long time," went on Paul, swallowing something in his
throat, and drawing himself up--"longer than I cared to confess to
myself. I tried not to believe it--just as we all do; but it wasn't any
good in the end. There was a ray of hope last week--something that might
be done, they thought; but the ray of hope went to-day."

She drew a long breath, and then set her lips tightly, and nodded. He
smiled at her; almost it seemed as though he tried to laugh. Seeing
that, she turned her head away swiftly, and doubled one hand, and beat
it softly on her knee as she looked at the remains of the fire. He went
on speaking; and it was curious that he seemed to speak of someone else.
Never of himself.

"They don't give you much time in anything like this," he said in a
whisper. "I've got the truth out of 'em--and God knows it wanted some
pulling out; these people have wrong-headed ideas of mercy. It's death,
Mrs. Baffall."

He spoke as though the very presence of it were in the room with them
then; she glanced at him, but did not speak.

"When I heard it first I--I was afraid. Life seemed so big and strong;
it was all about me--throbbing and pulsing and striving--as I came out
from where they'd examined me. Men were laughing and striding along,
and speaking to each other--men with years of life before them; I stood
in a great city, with death hard at my elbow. In quite a little time I
was to leave everything behind--I was to go out into the shadows.
Oh--I can tell you I was afraid!" He laughed now at that odd
recollection--laughed shamefacedly.

"But not now?" It was the first time she had spoken since he began; she
spoke in a whisper.

He shook his head. "Not for myself; the fear has gone," he said. "It
will only be a sort of falling asleep. If ever I grow afraid again, it
will be when I think about it in the sunlight. For I love the sunlight.
It isn't for myself--but oh, my God--what of the babies?"

He beat one fist softly into the palm of the other hand, and bit his
lips, and looked at her wide-eyed. She felt that she had got to the very
heart of the matter now; she was on surer ground. Already she looked
upon the man as someone gone beyond her--someone to be spoken of with
bated breath; but the children appealed to her practical mind; she
probed deep down to the very source of the trouble that oppressed him.
Death was a thing to be met full front; but young lives were wrapped up
with the failing life of Old Paul, and he did not know what was to
happen to them.

"There'll be those who'll give a care to them," she suggested, with her
own mind already making up to speak to Baffall about it on the morrow.

"You see, I gathered them about me so light-heartedly," said the man,
"there was no thought about the future. I think I'd got an idea that we
were going to live in this place for ever--without changing--almost
without growing up. Silly--wasn't it?" He laughed feebly, and shook his
head at that folly that was done with. "And yet I meant it for the
best. Jimmy, now, could look after himself; boys are different. But it's
the--the girls."

"Oh--I know, my dear--I know!" whispered the old woman, thrusting back a
lock of grey hair from her forehead, and looking perplexedly at the
fire. "But you can appoint guardians--people to look after them--and to
look after the money?"

"Oh, yes, I shall do all that," he said. "That's the first thing I shall
set about doing; I'll leave everything square and straight; trust me for
that. It seems strange I should be arranging things like this--doesn't
it? I think yesterday--or even this morning, for the matter of that--I
wanted to live quite a long time. Now it doesn't seem to matter so
much--except--except for the children." He waved his hand indefinitely,
and smiled upon her with a wan smile.

"It would have been worse for you, dear--the going would have been
worse, I mean--except for the babies," she reminded him gently. "That
seems to me the best of it; several of 'em to be sorry--more sorry than
most. Now, when it comes to my time----"

He moved towards the door of the room, and came back again; he fingered
the brim of his hat, and looked at it as he spoke. "Of course they may
have made a mistake--but I don't think so. It seems--seems rather a
pity--doesn't it?" And again he spoke as of someone else.

She did not reply; together they went to the outer door, and stood there
for a moment looking at the stars. He seemed to indicate the stars as he
leaned towards the old woman for a moment, and nodded his head towards
the sky.

"It all seems very peaceful," he said whimsically. "I mean--nothing
seems to be threatened; no vengeance or punishment for blunders--nothing
of that at all. Even God sleeps, perhaps, on such a night as this--and
mercifully forgets. Good-night!"

There was that between them that the old hand lay for a moment in the
firmer grasp of the younger one before he shook it and let it go. As he
reached the gate, he looked back and nodded; and she called to him,
holding her candle above her head:

"Good-bye!" Then, as he disappeared, she called out feebly, in a mere
whisper--"No--no--I didn't mean 'good-bye'; I meant--'good-night.' Not

But Paul was gone, and a puff of wind from the garden blew out her



Old Paul went home comforted and uplifted, and filled with the thought
that the first thing he must do before he slept must be to make
provision for the future for his young people. Before he slept! There
was that in the thought that gave solemn pause to everything, and
gripped his heart for a moment--but only for a moment. The night was
coming, in a special sense, to him; but it was to be only a falling

He let himself into the old house, and went quietly to his room; lit his
lamp, and sat down to smoke and to think. Then he got out pens and
papers, and set to his task. For the time might be short in which this
was to be done.

But the pen dropped from his fingers, and he lay back in his chair, with
a smile upon his face, dreaming. Not to-night should this be done; it
would seem as though he feared that to-night was the last opportunity.
He would wait; some other night, when he was calmer, he might take up
the pen, and set out what his wishes were. This was not a night for
business; if the Shadows were to claim him so soon, he would have at
least this night to himself. It occurred to him, too, that he would not
sleep; that was a giving of so much time to an eternity that should
claim soon all the time that was his. He would sit up, and dream.

His thoughts, from touching gently on the peaceful life he had led
there, and on the children who had been about him in those quiet years,
went back further and touched his earlier life; touched gently the woman
who had been in her grave so long, and whose child was near Paul's heart
that night. Almost it seemed as though he was a mere boy again, flushed
and primed with the knowledge that she loved him; with the world
stretching fair before him, and the woman beckoning. Mercifully enough,
all that had happened since was swept away and forgotten; he loved her,
and out of the past she came to him on this night, and stood before him.
He rose in the quiet room, and stretched out his arms, and called her
name; and it was the glad, joyous call of the youth in love.

"Moira!--my Moira!"

The child in the room above heard dimly in her sleep, and turned, and
smiled; she had heard the cry from his lips over and over again in
infinite tenderness. And this, was but a beautiful dream, from which she
did not desire to wake. She turned and snuggled comfortably into her
pillow, and slept with that smile on her lips.

The lonely man stood there with a face transfigured; his youth was
coming back to him. The warm kisses of the woman were on his lips; her
soft, rounded body was pressed close in his arms; he heard the whisper
that he had heard once in reality--"I love you, Paul--I love you!"

Then the dream changed; his arms fell to his sides, and he stared out
into the room, seeming to shrink a little into himself. He was striving
to remember now what had been said to him that day; striving almost to
believe that it was not true. Above all, he was alone; and even now
there might be a Presence in the house. He was not afraid; but if he
might only know when It was coming. Not yet--oh, God!--not yet!

And then the prayer--the only cowardly cry that had come from
him--"Lord, let it be sudden; kill me in my sleep!"--and then a seizing
of the paper, and a wild beginning to write.

"To Moira, beloved of my heart now and always, I give----"

       *       *       *       *       *

At the last, with some growing faintness upon him, and with the pen
trailing off illegibly, he must have tried to get to the children. For
they found him at the foot of the stairs, lying there with his hands
stretched up towards the room, and with a smile upon his face, as though
at the last he had striven to call to them. Patience found him like
that, early in the morning, before anyone was stirring; and the old
woman sat for a long time on the stairs, holding him in her arms, as she
had done many and many a time when he had been a child, and whispering
to him, and striving to wake him. But he was quite dead.

There is a courage born of love and devotion greater than ever sprang
from passion or from hate; and such a courage was given to the woman
then. When she knew that her dead was past recall, she determined that
no other hand should touch him--no other eyes look upon him, until
presently he should lie calm and peaceful as she would have him lie.
With a love-given strength that seemed impossible for her withered
limbs, she got her arms about him, and got him toilsomely up the stairs;
being so gentle with him, and whispering so tenderly, that he might have
been a thing alive, and only sick and faint. And so got him to his room,
and laid him on his bed; and only then, for the first time, gave way.
For when that was done, and the door closed upon her and her dead, she
wept her withered heart out; with only his cold hand against her cheek
and her tears upon it.

Afterwards, while she gathered her wits, she kept up the amazing
pretence that he had not yet come home. Everyone had gone to bed on the
previous night before Old Paul had let himself into the house; and the
woman told herself that she must seek some advice, before the children
or Anthony Ditchburn knew what had happened. She did not quite know to
whom to go; for the present she turned the key in the lock, and left him
there, and set about her ordinary duties. For those must be done always,
she thought, whether men lived or died.

Jimmy and the two girls spoke wonderingly about Old Paul at the
breakfast table; Patience silenced them querulously, as she had done any
time these ten years over awkward questions. And all the time she
wondered what she should do, or to whom she should go; Anthony Ditchburn
was impossible, and there seemed no one else. Yet someone must be told,
and that soon.

The difficulty grew with Anthony Ditchburn. The going of Paul to London
had always spelt for Ditchburn tobacco; and in this case it happened
that, seeing fresh tobacco near at hand, the man had smoked more than
usual, and his supply was exhausted. He came piteously to Patience,
after she had dismissed the children to the rectory, and held out a
ragged, empty pouch.

"He should have been back before this, Patience," he whimpered. "Even
if he couldn't get back, he might have sent it. My work at a
standstill--and my nerves shattered; it isn't fair. It's so little I

She turned a stony face to him. "There's no tobacco for you--and I know
nothing about it," she said. "Did he ever forget any one of you?"

"He was never as careful as he might have been," retorted Anthony; and
was staggered when she turned upon him fiercely, and drove him from the

She went up more than once during the day to that room; she was a little
proud of the fact that she alone knew what had happened, and that she
had him there to herself. Coming down on the last occasion, she heard
someone moving about quietly in the room Old Paul had used as his study;
with a raging heart against Anthony Ditchburn, she went straight in,
with set teeth, to face him. And faced instead, the girl Moira--looking
at her with eyes before the light of which her own fell.

The girl held a paper in her hand; she held it out towards the woman.
"He's been here--last night," she said, in a whisper.

"Why, dearie, whatever are you talking about?" asked Patience,
fearfully. "And what brings you back now?"

"I couldn't stay; I knew that he had come back," whispered Moira,
watching the woman. "I knew it this morning; in a dream I had he called
to me last night. And look at this; see what he's written!"

Patience went tremblingly towards the child; but in an instant Moira had
snatched back the paper, and was rapidly folding it. "No--not for you to
see--not for anyone to see," she said. "It was written for me--meant
only for me. Where is he?"

Patience broke down at once; spread out tremulous hands towards the
child, to soothe and silence her. "Now, my dear, there's nothing for you
to ask about--nothing for you to know. And even if he did come back last

The girl had raced out of the room, and was half-way up the stairs
before the old woman had reached the door. Patience stood there,
trembling and cowering against the wall; she heard the rattling of the
handle of the door above. And that roused her as nothing else could have
done; she stumbled up the stairs, whispering entreaties as she went.

"For the love of God, child, don't make a noise there!" she breathed.
"He lies so quiet; tread soft, my dear--tread very soft!"

So they faced each other outside the door of the locked room--the
white-faced child and the woman who wept and wrung her hands. And for a
long moment, nothing was said.

"He's in there; I know it," whispered Moira. "You needn't think I'm
afraid; and I shan't cry out. Let me go in!"


"I will! I'll beat down the door if you don't let me in!" came the tense

She had not looked on death before; and this was not what she had
expected. For this was the Old Paul that she had loved, lying asleep,
with a smile on his lips, and that smile for her. He was gone; but
sorrow was too mean a thing, in the ordinary sense, for him now. Child
though she was, she knew that at the last he had written of her; that
one little phrase, "beloved of my heart--now and always," lay warm
against her heart even now, and comforted her. He had gone to that last
sleep thinking of her; and nothing in that sleep was terrible. It had
been his creed always to teach her to be brave; he had not taught that
in vain. The old woman, standing fearfully within the door watching her,
understood for the first time what this child was; seemed to look for
the first time upon a new being that surprised and held her silent and
dried her tears. She saw the slim figure of the girl, with hands clasped
at her breast, bend forward; wonderingly heard her speak.

"Old Paul--it was kind of you," whispered the child. "I knew it
always--that I was beloved of your heart; but it was sweet of you to
remember to tell me."

She came out quite firmly, and locked the door, and took the key; the
amazed woman followed her downstairs; ventured at the foot of them to
touch her on the arm. "You--you weren't afraid?" she breathed.

Moira looked at her with raised eyebrows. "Afraid?--of Old Paul?" She
turned away and went into his room.

Nor did she break down when presently Mrs. Baffall came in, with raised
hands and streaming eyes, to comfort her. This was no question of
callousness. Old Paul had been everything to her in life, and he must,
therefore, be everything to her in death, and always. Nor was it
affectation; it was only what Old Paul would have wished--part of that
fine, strong, smiling philosophy that had been the very fibre of the man
himself. Truth to tell, the child was a little impatient of what she
regarded as a mere parading of grief. Old Paul would never speak to her
again, and in that only did her grief lay; but he had spoken to her at
the last--to her specially; and in that was her exquisite comfort.

Others had, of course, to be told, and they took the news in varying
fashion. Alice became wide-eyed and tearful; she was a very appeal in
herself. For the blue eyes, half obscured in a mist of tears, and the
beautiful drooping mouth, quivering and pitiful, demanded sympathy and
secured it. Jimmy wore a frightened aspect; for this was something he
did not understand, and something that touched him unexpectedly.
Curiously enough, only Mrs. Baffall seemed to know what was in the mind
of Moira.

"It's quite uncanny," she said to Baffall, with a shake of the head. "It
isn't as though the man had died at all; he lives in that very house
with her and for her; he's always lived like that for her. She doesn't
seem to know what death means--at least, not in his case. You see,
Daniel, it makes me feel younger than she is--and ignorant, in a way.
When I spoke to her this morning--and I was crying at the time--she
didn't seem to understand that there was anything to cry for. 'You don't
know Old Paul,' she keeps on saying; and she smiles at me in that queer
way I want to hug her--and yet I dare not."

Mrs. Baffall, feeling it incumbent upon her to tell her friends what had
happened, searched her mind for the names of friends; and discovered
that not many were left outside that business that had been left behind
in London. And, therefore, it happened that she thought, with the pens
and paper actually before her, of Honora Jackman, with something of
gratitude for the inspiration; and wrote to her, to that obscure address
in London. And so evoked a black whirlwind.

For Honora came down as the whirlwind, preceded by a tempestuous
telegram. Arriving in the evening, she was welcomed sombrely by Mrs.
Baffall; and thereafter sat in a dejected attitude, sipping tea and
saying little. She heard in whispers from Mrs. Baffall, and in low
growls from Baffall, all that had taken place; she learned that the
funeral was to be on the morrow. She nodded gloomily once or twice;
strove to fix her eyeglass, and failed; and listened to a whispered
account of the bravery of Old Paul, and of how the end had come. Then
she sat up and spoke her mind, and Mrs. Baffall, though amazed, had a
sneaking feeling that Honora had got to the truth of things.

"Oh, it's a damned rough world!" said Honora, viciously. "Here was a man
that ought, in the proper course of things, to have been in armour, with
a face turned towards the sun--going out to do noble things, and to
fight for women--and all that sort of thing. You knew him--and you'd
seen him. Instead of that, he comes down here among the woods and the
flowers; and he walks steadfastly--before his God, I verily believe--and
any feeble little child that raises a cry out of a hideous world is
snatched up by him and glorified. And then they cut him off--all in a
minute--and leave all sorts of other whelps to live, and do harm, and

"It's hard on the children," said Mrs. Baffall, after a pause in which
she had striven to digest Honora's vehement statement.

Miss Jackman sat up, and smote her hands together. "The children! I'd
forgotten the children," she said, breathlessly. "What's going to become
of them?"

Mr. Baffall coughed, and stroked the grey beard on his chin; Mrs.
Baffall smiled at him, and drew herself up a little proudly.

"We're taking Alice," she said softly. "I think we took her because
there's something lady-like about her, and we seem to have understood
her best," she added apologetically. "Then Baffall's got the idea that
something might be done for the boy in London--in a matter of business;
but we haven't quite had time to think about it yet."

"I remember the boy--Jimmy, didn't they call him?" said
Honora thoughtfully. "A nice boy. And wasn't there another
girl--dark-haired--bit of a spitfire?"

"Moira," said Mrs. Baffall. "We don't quite know what is going to be
done with Moira; no one seems to know how to begin about her. We shall
know better after to-morrow."

"After to-morrow?" Honora Jackman nodded and pursed up her lips. "What
are the children going to do to-morrow?" she demanded suddenly.

"Well, my dear," began Mrs. Baffall, "in a little place like this, where
everybody knows everybody--I suppose they'll go to the funeral; it's
what might be expected----"

Honora suddenly brought down a fist smartly on the table beside her.
"No--and no again--a thousand times over!" she exclaimed, with what
seemed quite unnecessary violence. "You're wrong. The man is done
with--so far as the mere flesh of him is concerned; what have children
to do with that? Don't I know myself what I've suffered as a child;
don't I know and remember how I've been dragged into dark rooms by the
hand, and shown people in coffins; can I ever forget it? It isn't
fair--it isn't right. Death comes soon enough to us all; never should a
child see it or brood about it. _I'll_ see to the children to-morrow,"
she added, with sudden alacrity. "I'll take them away, and let them know
about it only afterwards. It's a hard world, but we might let the
children sometimes see the best side of it; the worst comes soon

"'Ear! 'ear!" exclaimed Mr. Baffall, in a hoarse whisper.

Honora Jackman kept her word in that matter valiantly. Whether as a
tribute to the man who had stirred her careless time-beaten heart as few
others had done, or whether simply on an impulse of generosity, it is
impossible to say; but she determined to take charge of the young
people for that day. She put in an appearance at the house quite early
in the morning; was greeted by Jimmy somewhat shyly, and with but small
recollection of past days. Alice, for her part, lifted a face which
seemed all brimming eyes and quivering mouth, as she had done to
everyone about her for days past; Moira was not to be discovered.
Patience, appealed to, had not seen the girl that day; she had
apparently slipped out of the house before anyone was stirring.

Honora Jackman drew Patience aside; spoke to her in her usual energetic
and impetuous way.

"I'm going to take them away--just for the day--I'm going to get them
out of it. He'd have wished that," she added, lowering her voice, "and I
feel I ought to do something--for his sake--to-day. They don't know that
it's to be to-day--do they?"

"I don't think so, Miss," replied the old woman. "There's been so much
to see to, one way and another, that I don't know that it's been
actually spoken of. But perhaps they guess, Miss."

"And perhaps they don't," exclaimed Honora sharply. "I'll bring 'em back
when it's all over. Can you manage some sandwiches?--we'll picnic

Thus it happened that, after a fruitless search for Moira, Honora
Jackman started off with Jimmy and the younger girl into the woods; and
Jimmy carried a parcel. They were rather an incongruous trio in their
black garments (for Honora had "dodged up" something, as she expressed
it to Mrs. Baffall), but no one thought of that. Jimmy, still stunned a
little by the blow that had fallen, was glad to escape from the house;
Alice was always willing to do anything she was told. The woods
swallowed them up, and Honora Jackman had a warm feeling about her
heart that perhaps at this late hour she might be doing something that
would have pleased Old Paul after all.

It is not necessary to touch in detail the events of a saddened day; the
only point that needs to be dwelt upon is the coming of the man in
black, and what his coming meant to everyone concerned.

The man in black appeared first in the garden of the house, what time
Mr. Baffall was pulling on stiff black gloves, and looking appropriately
solemn and melancholy. The man in black had opened the gate, and had
stepped quietly in; he looked all about him, almost as though he were
making a valuation of the property generally. He was not a nice-looking
man; he had a long thin cadaverous face, and his eyes were too near
together, and his step was not a firm nor manly one. Indeed, he walked
with something of a mincing gait, as though he apologised to the very
ground for treading upon it.

Mr. Baffall stopped in the act of pulling on a glove, and stared out of
the window at the stranger. He called in a whisper to Patience, and
nodded towards the man, and looked inquiringly at the old woman. She
shook her head.

"Don't know, I'm sure," she whispered. Then, in lingering tones of half
remembrance, she added slowly: "And yet I seem to know the face--seem to

The man in black made no attempt to come into the house; he waited until
the melancholy little procession was formed, and then fell in behind Mr.
Baffall. Mrs. Baffall had gone to the churchyard, and Patience went by
the way across the fields, and met her there. So that it came about that
Mr. Baffall and the man in black were the only people who followed.
Someone had knocked softly at the door of Anthony Ditchburn's room; but
he had cried out in a frightened, whimpering voice that he was not well,
and that they were to go away. Mr. Baffall did not care to say
anything, or to question the man in black; he had known so little of
Paul himself that he thought it possible this might be an old friend or

The Rev. Temple Purdue must have been thinking of something else at one
part of the service, for he began a line from quite another place.

"Forasmuch as ye have done it unto the least of these----"

Then he checked himself hurriedly, and went on with the proper words;
but Baffall glanced at Mrs. Baffall, and thought perhaps the little slip
not so wrong after all.

As Mr. Baffall, at the end of everything, was replacing his hat and
turning towards his home, the man in black touched him on the elbow, and
tendered a card. Baffall, in some surprise, mechanically took it, but
did not look at it; instead, he looked at the man in black, and decided
that he did not like him. Then his eyes travelled to the card, and he
read the name upon it--"Mr. Matthew Shandler."

Baffall looked up at the man, and back again at the card. The man
cleared his throat, and sighed, and ventured an explanation.

"A--a second cousin--on his father's side," he murmured. "So far as I am
aware, his sole living relative; and I have made every inquiry. But
perhaps he left a will."

Mr. Baffall felt his heart sink; as he expressed it afterwards to Mrs.
Baffall, he "knew directly it was all up with the children." Being a man
of business, however, he invited Mr. Matthew Shandler to come home with
him and discuss the situation.

The shadows lengthened into evening in the little churchyard, and over
the woods and fields. Honora Jackman and the two children came
presently tailing homewards to that changed house; afterwards Honora
took her own way back to the house of the Baffalls. In the churchyard a
slim white-faced girl stole out from among the shadows of the trees,
looking about her carefully in all directions, and went to the grave;
and there for the first time broke down and wept as she had never wept
before. For this was the parting, and only her memories were to be left
to her for the future. It was, perhaps, characteristic of her that she
should have watched and waited until the darkness had fallen before she
went to him; characteristic of her, too, that she felt she was never
again to visit the grave. This was to be final--and this was between the
dead man and herself only.

"Good-bye, Old Paul--for ever and ever," she whispered, kneeling there,
and touching the earth softly with her palms, as in benediction. "Sleep
very quietly--rest lightly--my dear--my dear! I shall never forget; I
shall think of you, dear, sleeping here, with the trees whispering above
you, and the birds--and all about you that you loved. Old Paul!--oh--my
Old Paul!"

By the time she got back to the house she was calm and self-contained;
she offered no explanation of her absence to anyone. When, in the big
room upstairs, Alice begged that she might be allowed to drag her bed
across, so that she could be near Moira in the night, Moira scornfully
regarded her for a moment, and then dragged the bed across herself.

"What are you afraid of?" she demanded.

"I feel as if I should die," whimpered the other girl. "It's so awful.
He's dead--and I feel that perhaps in the dark he might come in--as he
used to do----"

"I wish he would," broke in Moira quickly. "Go to sleep; you can hold my
hand, if you feel frightened."

The younger girl presently fell asleep, with the undried tears still
upon her pink cheeks; a smile grew about her mouth as she lay there. The
smile was answered by one in the face of Moira, but it was a scornful
one. For her part she lay wakeful, with the tears gathering in her eyes
quietly now and then, as old memories came back to her.

Meanwhile, Mr. Baffall was stubbornly fighting a battle. As he went on
fighting it, he discovered that he hated the man in black more and more
every moment, with a growing hatred; for Matthew Shandler was not to be
moved in any way. They had been together to the house, but no will had
been found; they had the testimony of Mrs. Baffall that Old Paul had
declared his intention of doing it that very night of his death; which
looked hopeless enough, on the face of it.

Mrs. Baffall had been early turned out of the room by the shoulders,
gently enough, by her husband; because she persisted in bursting into
tears, and in imploring Matthew Shandler to remember the children.
Which, as Baffall put it afterwards, wasn't business.

Shandler, for his part, spoke with perfect justice, as the world knows
it. The children were nothing to him, and were not related in any way to
the late Paul Nannock. Right was right; and although Mr. Shandler was an
exceedingly well-to-do man, as he admitted with some pride, the property
belonging to Old Paul was most certainly his, unless someone with a
better right put in a claim to it. And he referred Mr. Baffall, with a
smile, to his solicitors.

Mr. Baffall waited until such time as he discovered that the battle was
a hopeless one; then he closed the door, lest Mrs. Baffall be shocked;
and he remembered, with sudden vehemence, certain language long since
left behind with the sordid business that had made him rich. He gave
vent to some home-truths and expressions of opinion that hurt no one;
for the man in black was made of stronger stuff than Baffall supposed,
and merely smiled in reply. When, finally, he left, with the knowledge
that he had come conveniently enough into a very snug property, he
wished Mr. Baffall "Good-night!" gently, and desired that that gentleman
would make Matthew Shandler's farewells to his good wife.

There was a deadly quality about Matthew Shandler that could not in any
sense be opposed. He did that which he had determined upon with quiet
precision, and with absolutely no display of emotion; indeed, more than
once, when bitter opposition was raised against him, he smiled and
shrugged his shoulders and turned away. But he went on with the work

Alice had her home assured; though at the last Mrs. Baffall wondered, in
a timorous whisper to her husband, whether it wouldn't have been better
to have taken Moira. But she had never understood Moira; and, indeed, it
is doubtful if the girl would have listened to any such proposition.
Alice was satisfactory, in the sense that there was nothing unexpected
about her; you always knew where to find her, and you were always sure
that she would never be unladylike, or in any mood difficult of
analysis. As a matter of fact, Moira had been approached, dubiously
enough, on the subject, and had declared that she was going to stay with
Patience. Which meant, in other words, that she would stay at the old
house as long as anyone would permit her to do so.

Jimmy was to go out into the world. Mr. Baffall had tugged at his beard
a great deal over Jimmy, and had at last decided that the boy should go
to London, and should be given a post in a business there, the strings
of which were still in Mr. Baffall's hands.

Mr. Matthew Shandler had sold everything in the house, and the house
itself was to let. There had been no mercy about the man, nor any
suggestion of mercy; these people were nothing to him, and they must be
got rid of. So that there came a day when the few possessions of
Patience were packed ready to be taken away, and when an old battered
tin trunk--such a small pitiful little tin trunk!--that had come with
Moira years before, when Old Paul had first brought her to the house,
was fished out of a garret and stuffed with what clothes the girl
possessed; some parcels held the rest. Patience--brave, strong old
woman--was going out into the world to-morrow, and Moira was going with
her. Mr. Baffall had done pulling his beard over them; he realised that
the woman and the child must be left alone. Anthony Ditchburn had sent
off a box of books to some unknown destination, and then had followed
too--going away as mysteriously as, years before, he had come.

On the morrow Jimmy was to start; he was going quite early in the
morning, consigned to a lodging and to his new business by the Baffalls.
They had been very good to the boy, and he was starting fairly well;
more than that, he was filled with awe and wonder and delight at the
prospect of entering that wonderful place--that London to which Old Paul
had gone now and again to fetch treasure. He had said "good-bye" easily
enough to Alice; Alice who, in the future, was to live comfortably, and
who had not paid her calls upon the Baffalls for nothing. And now it had
come to the point when he must say "good-bye" to Moira.

His small luggage had been sent on to the station, and he was to walk.
He came with Moira out of the dismantled house, and through the old
garden; she would walk to the top of the hill with him, she said, and
see him on his way. She choked down the heart that was rising in her as
she went with him; she touched his hand casually as they walked side by
side; and he let it linger there, so that they went hand in hand. It was
a miserable morning--fitted appropriately enough to the occasion--and a
drizzle of rain was all about them as they went, and made a mist over
the familiar road and the fields.

They got to the top of the hill, and Jimmy turned his bright eyes upon
her. "I shall see you again--soon and often," he said. "Who knows?--you
may be coming to London, too. That'll be splendid--won't it?"

"Yes," she responded soberly. "We're bound to meet again, Jimmy--because
London isn't so far off, after all, and we ought to be able to find each
other easily. They say it's a big place; but we can easily meet. When I
come to London I'll look for you."

"Good-bye!" he said, a little huskily. "You're not crying?"

"Only a little," she whispered; and with a boyish gesture he put his arm
about her neck, and kissed her.

"I'm going to do big things in London," he said. "And then I'll do big
things for you. Good-bye!"

So he went over the hill, and down the long road that had always led
away into the world mysteriously when they had been younger. The road
that was leading him away mysteriously into the world now. So she saw
him trudging on through the rain; so she remembered afterwards that she
had seen him, through the rain of Heaven and the rain of her tears.





The capacity of the average human being to drift apart from his fellows,
whether by accident or design; to take up new interests to the neglect
of old ones; to regard as mere pleasant memories vital matters which but
yesterday stirred the very soul of him; all these have done much to
people the great world and to spread men over its surface--but have
sometimes been disastrous for the individual. Men and women have told
themselves, times without number, that in this way will they live
without separation; in that fashion will they order their lives; and lo!
in a moment grim Fate steps in; and they are flung apart almost before
there is time for remonstrance.

In such cases, happily, the new interests assert themselves, and the man
or the woman--easily adaptable--begins instantly to form new ties, and
to think less and less regretfully of the old ones. It is a kindly law
of Nature--a merciful law.

This is true, of course, in the vast majority of cases--but not in all.
It was not true in the case of the girl Moira, for instance; because she
rebelled fiercely against the sudden snatching of herself away from the
old life--the rude dispersal of everything and everyone that had made up
that life. Hers was not a nature formed for forgetfulness; more than
that, the new life (or may we not rather call it existence?) into which
she had gone proved so bare as to force her back, against her will
almost, to those old and pleasant recollections for almost her only
mental food.

Patience, in the course of careful years, had amassed savings. She had
been in the family of Paul Nannock for so long a time, and her reward as
a trusted servant had been so generous, and the necessity for spending
anything so meagre, that she had a considerable sum, carefully
invested--considerable, that is, for a woman in her position. The
interest upon those savings had gone on accumulating, until at Old
Paul's death she was in a position to fold her hands, and to slumber, if
she liked, during the remainder of the time left to her. She chose to do
that; her real interests in life had closed with the death of the last
of the family she had served; quite simply and rather beautifully, there
was nothing left for her to do. Nothing, that is, save as regarded the
girl Moira; for Moira had elected to stay with her.

In a sense--a selfish, elderly sense--Patience clung to the girl. Her
jealously watchful eyes had shown her that the child had been first in
all things with Paul; she was, in a sense, a legacy left by him, all
unconsciously, to the old woman. Perhaps, too, there was a curious
feeling that if Moira went elsewhere she might come to talk about that
precious memory of the dead man; and with Patience only must it be
shared. She stood a little in awe of the girl; was attracted to her, in
a subtle sense; and so made willingly enough an arrangement to keep her
with her.

Patience had never really liked the country, save for the sake of her
dead master; her heart always was in the turmoil of the streets where
she had been born and where she had lived so long; now, free again, she
would go back to it. And in that, of course, Moira was heartily with
her; for had not Jimmy set out to the Enchanted City, and was she not
absolutely to meet him at the very moment of her arrival? She had walked
so often through Daisley Cross, and had seen practically every living
soul that filled her world. London might be bigger, but anyone could be
met there easily enough. In her idea of the place Jimmy stood waiting,
with hands outstretched and a smile in his eyes.

The tragedy of the thing only dawned upon her later. So eager had she
been to follow where Jimmy had gloriously led, that the matter of
farewells was a small one. Mr. and Mrs. Baffall said good-bye solemnly,
and urged that she would write; Alice was tearful for five minutes, but
called that marvellous equanimity of hers to bear upon the situation,
and waved a hand smilingly at the last. And then it was hey for London,
and the old life left behind! She went willingly and even eagerly with
Patience; and so the world swallowed her, and she was lost.

Patience had, of course, no concern for anyone outside the man who was
dead and the girl who lived; no one else mattered. She had nodded
sharply with pursed lips when Mrs. Baffall pressed her to write; in her
heart she determined that not a line should be sent. She was going away
to live her own life; all this was done with. And in that spirit she
brought Moira to London--Moira, taller by an inch or two than the bent
old woman whose hand she held, and to whom she clung.

Moira was about fourteen years of age, slim, but not very well formed,
with all the awkward movements of a shy girl growing up rapidly. When it
is remembered that she had never seen any place very much larger than
Daisley Cross, save when she had taken little excursions with Old Paul
and the others to neighbouring towns, it is not to be wondered at that
that first coming to London was a shock greater than can well be
described. The coming to the fringe of it--that fringe which was not
London at all, and yet had long since left the country behind, and was a
dreary expanse of roofs and chimney-pots--cleaner roofs and newer
chimney-pots than were to be found further in. After that, the roar and
the rush beating up about the carriage of the train like a great angry
sea; men and women crowding and hurrying everywhere in the streets down
below them, and on the stations through which they flew; and then,
lastly, London itself, and the demon of Noise let loose upon them! Where
in all that turmoil through which they had almost to fight their way was
to be found Jimmy, as she had seen him last going up the quiet hill in
the rain, on a morning that seemed to be set years back in the ages?

Patience had taken some tiny furnished rooms in the top part of a house
in a small street in Chelsea; one of the narrowest streets imaginable;
and there, in a dull, ordinary, complete fashion, she settled down with
the girl; folded her hands--and was at rest.

But Moira? This child of the woods and the fields and the birds and the
flowers; this little sensitive loving soul that craved the touch of
loving hands and the whisper of loving words; what of her? On how many
hopeless nights was she to stare out, wet-eyed, over the hideous
streets, and wonder if this was the end, and if, like Patience, she was
to grow old in these top rooms, and never see the world again, and never
hear of anyone. On how many nights as she sat with her knitting or her
needlework (for Patience knew her duty, and knew that in these things
for the young lay salvation), did she glance past the lamp on the little
table, and look at the sleeping woman whose spectacles had been
carefully lifted off and laid on the table before she composed herself
in her arm-chair. Always the lamp burning there--and the woman
sleeping--and the silence of the room--and the memories that would not
die, and that the child did her best indeed to keep alive.

Now it was Old Paul, wandering with her through the woods; she had only
to move that hand from her knitting for a moment, and close her eyes
stealthily, to feel the warm touch of his fingers again. Oh, God! the
warm touch of his fingers!

Now it was Jimmy, shut up, too, in this dreadful world of London
somewhere this night, and calling to her above all the roar of the
streets, and never making her hear. She closed her eyes again, and lay
with Jimmy on the warm earth, with the sun beating down upon them, and
only a whisper now and then passing between them--the very inmost kernel
of their thoughts. Moira had that moment seen a fairy flit across where
the sunlight lay in a path from tree to tree; and she whispered it to
Jimmy, who nodded in perfect understanding. Oh, God! the fairies in the

Now she rode again in Paul's arms in the old donkey-chaise, with the
Ancient One crawling home through the warm scented dusk of a summer
night; and Old Paul murmured tales to her that she knew by heart, but
yet could never hear too often; and she opened her eyes and blinked away
the tears, and saw always the lamp on the little table, and the woman
asleep in her chair.

There were, of course, summer mornings even in London--mornings when the
fresh young spirit of her, not to be quenched, rose exultant to the
sunlight, and craved for air and liberty. But even then the watchful
jealousy of Patience had to be reckoned with; she must not go far; she
must not stray in this direction nor in that. More often than not
Patience insisted on going with her; so that the spectacle was presented
of the white-faced girl going through the streets, guiding the slower
steps of the old woman. That was how she saw London, and how she knew it
for almost four long years.

It seems in a sense incredible; but it is strictly true. Even the people
in the same house with her knew nothing of her, and probably cared
nothing. She grew up in that bitter narrow environment; came to full
womanhood in the heart of the greatest city in the world; and yet knew
nothing of the life of the city or of the world at all. She dwelt always
in the past, this child of the dark eyes and the unclouded and untouched
heart; anything that she saw or heard in the streets through which she
passed with the old woman for company went by her, and left no trace.
Her necessarily lengthening frocks were lengthened by herself; whatever
small vanities sprang up in her, with the growth of her womanhood, were
caught deftly enough from the people she saw in the streets, and from
shop windows, and were imitated cheaply and dexterously. But the life of
loneliness did not change.

Once she escaped--and only once. She must have been nearly seventeen
when the chance came, and then it came and was gone before almost she
had had time to recover breath. It came in the strangest fashion, and it
woke within her something that made her half afraid of herself, even
while it filled her with strange delight.

A girl, some years older than herself, climbed the stairs one day, and
asked for her--not by name, because few people knew her name at all.
Patience met the intruder, and recognised in her a girl who lived in the
rooms below--a sharp, bright, rather common girl--easy and good-natured,
and knowing London perfectly; and Patience, seeing in her a new danger,
confronted her and demanded her errand.

"Well, I thought she might like to go out with me to-night," said the
girl, a little aggressively. "I shan't do her no harm; I know my way
about. I've got two tickets----"

"No," said Patience in a low voice, as though she would keep the mere
knowledge of the thing from the girl in the room behind her. "We keep
ourselves to ourselves, thank you; there's nothing we want."

"I don't know that I was talking to you," retorted the other, rather
hotly. "It strikes me as rather hard if a girl can't say what she'd like
to do or what she wouldn't. And if the opera isn't respectable, then I'd
like to know what is?"

Patience felt a hand on her shoulder, and turning a little guiltily, saw
Moira standing beside her. She had caught that last word, and
understood, curiously enough, what it meant; for Old Paul had spoken of
it more than once. Old Paul had been lifted out of himself, it seemed,
on occasions of heavy trouble, by this same wonderful opera; had felt
his soul rising on wings of music far away from the earth and its
troubles. This was Old Paul's business clearly, and Patience must stand
aside. So much the girl demanded.

"I think I will go," said Moira, smiling out at the other girl. "It's
very kind of you."

"Not a bit of it," retorted the other, with a laugh. "I only got these
by chance; there's not many going, I can tell you. It's _Faust_, and a
bit of a big night. There's somebody else"--the girl laughed confusedly,
and turned away her head--"somebody else that generally takes me out;
but he'd only fall asleep. Can't stand opera at any price. So I

She put on the neatest that she had, and enjoyed the new luxury of a
ride on the top of an omnibus. They came to a great building ablaze with
lights; and by that time Moira was trembling to such an extent that the
other girl, somewhat amused and amazed, put a friendly arm about the
thin form to guide it up the stairs. Moira came to herself among a great
press of people, with a great crowded building spreading far down below
her, and a blank curtain, and the faint sound of music. Then she forgot
everything, and looked and listened--and understood.

For this was very perfectly what Old Paul had told her; almost it was as
though she sat with his hand in hers, swaying that hand softly in the
darkness to the sound of the music below her; understanding, with the
sympathetic pressure of his fingers, all the wondrous story spreading
itself before her--the hope, the despair, the passion; all that love
story that has stirred and moved the world for so long. She sat there,
with her hands clasped, and her breath coming and going sharply; she saw
nothing of anyone about her--knew nothing of where she was, or what the
hour or the day; heard only the music--listened only as this thing was
unfolded for her, and poured into her ears alone. For this was Love, as
she had not known it nor understood it in her starved life; this was
Love, that she knew, with a gasp of affright at the knowledge, it would
be possible for her to feel and understand in its fullest intensity.

She sat there still after the curtain had fallen, and when the people
were going out; her companion had to shake her somewhat roughly and with
some feeling of uneasiness, before she would move at all. And then
stumbled out like one blind.

Outside in the street, while the girl who knew her London was hurrying
her along to get a 'bus, that London spread itself before Moira as a new
and wonderful place. For here were men and women walking who could love
as these dream people of the night had loved; here was a world
transformed in a moment. She walked with light feet; all the world was
alive for her to-night, and pulsing with a new feeling.

When they got out at the corner of the street that led to their own
narrow little street, she took advantage of the darkness to catch at the
hand of the other girl, and to raise it quickly to her lips. "I shall be
grateful to you all my life," she whispered.

"Good Lord!" muttered the other girl, with an uncomfortable little

She found old Patience partially undressed, and with a shawl wrapped
about her, slumbering uneasily before the burnt-out fire. Moira woke her
rapturously; began to pour into her unsympathetic ears some halting,
stumbling account of the wonders of the night; was met by a querulous
pointing to the burnt-out fire, and to the fact that Patience had been
kept out of her bed for hours beyond her usual time by these unnatural
proceedings. The girl listened humbly, and said nothing more about what
had happened; but she did not go again. As a matter of fact she had no
further opportunity, probably because she was too surprising a companion
to be taken out, even under the most generous impulses; perhaps even
because no further tickets came to her friend. In any case it is
doubtful if she would have accepted any further offer.

But though she dropped back to that dull routine that had been hers for
so long, the memory of that night lived with her--to be stored away in
that hidden chamber of memories, and not lightly to be forgotten. That
was another matter over which she had merely to close her eyes, what
time she sat in the dead silence of the room with the old woman and the
lamp for company; and so to reconstruct the thing from beginning to end.
Often and often, when Patience was asleep, the girl sat there, with her
eyes closed, and her head raised, and her hands locked together in her
lap over her work, quivering from head to foot with the sheer ecstasy of
that music and that story that had thrilled her, and would thrill her
while ever she remembered.

That incident and its consequences gave her courage--courage to override
the tender, jealous watchfulness of Patience. Once or twice before, in
some passionate desire to get back to the life she had known and
understood in her childhood, Moira had set about the task of writing to
Alice; once, too, a polite note to Mrs. Baffall. But in each instance
the idea of Moira writing at all had been seized upon by the old woman
as something strange and out of the way; sharp questions had been
answered evasively; and finally, Patience had bitterly exclaimed against
the ingratitude of one who had received such benefits as had fallen to
the lot of Moira, and yet wanted someone else to fill her life. So the
letters had been torn up, and Moira had gratefully whispered her thanks
and her repentance to the churlish woman; and there the matter had
ended. But on this occasion she was bolder.

That breaking away from the dominion of the old woman had been a greater
departure than either of them suspected; it had roused in Moira that
indefinite longing for the things that once had been hers. She wrote to
Alice at the house of the Baffalls again; a mad, hungry letter, craving
forgiveness for a long silence, and expressing vaguely enough all the
longings of a heart that had been held in check sternly enough for a
long time. Above all, she asked where Jimmy could be found in London;
commented pitifully on the fact that she had not yet found him, although
she had been in London so long. And having sent that letter, in defiance
of frowns and shrugs and murmured complaints, sat down to await the
postman that must inevitably come to her as a messenger straight from
out of the old life.

It took more than a fortnight for that messenger to arrive; but he came
one morning, and left a letter addressed to "Miss Moira Nannock," and
bearing the London postmark. In all that starved time this had been the
only letter the girl had had; one or two had come for Patience purely on
business, and relating to small matters of dividends. Moira carried it
up to her room, and looked at the precious thing with sparkling eyes
before she opened it. Opening it, she found it to be commonplace enough,
even though it had a certain note of conventional girlish impulse about


     "How perfectly sweet of you to have written to me after all this
     long time! Of course I have not forgotten the old days; how could
     you suppose such a thing? I have never really got over Old Paul's
     death yet; it was so inexpressibly sad. For a time, at least, we
     have left Daisley Cross. I was bored to death there, and dear Aunt
     Baffall was only too glad to bring me to London. We are staying at
     a house here for the present, and you must come and see me as soon
     as you can. I must close now, having a dozen other letters to
     answer before a tiresome morning drive.

     "Yours with love,


There was not much in the letter; but the suggestion that Alice, too,
had come to London seemed to be a binding together anew of the original
little company. Moreover, there was at the very end of the note a little
hurried scrawl, giving the business address to which Jimmy had been
sent. Alice had "got it out of Uncle Baffall"--but did not know
anything more about Jimmy. At all events, here, with the simple coming
of the postman, Moira was in touch already with almost all the people
who had come into her life at the very beginning; and life took on a new
aspect from that time.

Patience asked about the letter; nodded grimly when she understood that
the Baffalls had come to London. "Trust her for that," said the old
woman--"she'll make them do what she likes without any trouble at all.
That's where you're different, my dear. Alice will slide through the
world with that smile of hers and that little turn at the corners of her
mouth; people will simply lie down for her to walk over 'em."

Moira, in that new eagerness to reconstruct her original world, went at
once to the address of the Baffalls, as given in the letter. She was a
little dismayed, on coming into the neighbourhood, to find what a very
grand neighbourhood it was; she walked round the square twice before
summoning courage to approach the door of the house. And when that door
was opened by a tall footman, who looked straight over the top of her
head while blandly asking her business, she nearly turned and ran away
again. But was finally ushered into a room that seemed all gold and
mirrors, and sat down there to await the appearance of this new Alice.

Mrs. Baffall came instead. Mrs. Baffall, looking a little older and a
little greyer and a little more nervous; Mrs. Baffall with an eye upon
the door, even while she tearfully hugged Moira. Yet Mrs. Baffall, very
prosperous-looking for all that, even though not quite fitting in with
the gold and the mirrors.

"Oh, my dear," murmured Mrs. Baffall, turning the pale face to the light
of the windows that she might see it better, "where have you been all
this time?--and why haven't we seen you? Often and often I've thought
about you--(oh, my dear--what a white, thin face it is!)--and wondered
what had become of you. And Old Paul (though the Lord forgive me for
speaking so disrespectful of the dead) going away like that, without
ever making the least provision! And as you know, my dear, Baffall and
me couldn't do everything--and you did make up your mind to go your own

"I've wanted to write to you often," said Moira, speaking a little
unsteadily--"but--but there seemed to be nothing to write about. We've
led very quiet lives. And Alice----"

"Well--and very pretty," said Mrs. Baffall hurriedly, with another
glance at the door. "Not but what, my dear, it hasn't been in my mind
many a time that it might have been better to take someone else at the
first--instead of her. For she hustles us, my dear; we don't seem to get
that peace in the house that Baffall and me looked forward to. It's
pictures here--and a crick in the neck through looking at the top
ones--and a concert there--and all sorts of things that we ain't used
to. But still--she's young--and I suppose----"

The door opened, and a vision came in. The word is advisable, seeing
that for the moment Moira did not recognise, in this radiant appearance,
the short-skirted child of the tumbled curls she had known a few years
before. For this was a being perfectly dressed, with hair perfectly
arranged, and with a wonderfully correct smile of welcome parting her
lips and brightening her blue eyes. There was no haste or impetuosity or
eagerness; only one swift critical glance at the thin, somewhat shabbily
dressed figure; then an embrace, with a little murmur in the girl's ear
that was half pitying and half patronising; a murmur that sent the hot
blood to Moira's cheeks, and chilled her at the same time.

"My sweet Moira--to meet you like this!" exclaimed the exquisite one.
"Over and over again I've urged Aunt Baffall to do something--to
advertise--or inquire of somebody--and yet nothing's been done. How have
you lived, my dear--and what are you doing with yourself? Do sit down
and tell me all about it?"

Moira sat down, with her eyes straying in the direction of the perplexed
old woman, whose motherly instincts, cheated so long, had induced her
late in life to bring this awkward swan under her very ordinary goose's
wing. When presently Mr. Baffall strayed in, he did but accentuate the
position; for he was more awkward than ever, and seemed to have a vague
and horrible feeling that Moira had come there with the object of being
adopted also. He sat there, while Mrs. Baffall furtively reached for his
hand, and regarded the two girls in silence.

"Now I want to have a long talk with Moira; so you'll please run away,"
said Alice at last, after a long and somewhat awkward pause. "You know
what time to order the carriage, dear Uncle Baffall; and I do hope that
Aunt Baffall will lie down for half an hour before we start; she _is_ so
liable to fall asleep," she added to Moira, as she took an arm of each
of the old people and hurried them out of the room.

"But I wanted to talk to her myself," protested Mrs. Baffall feebly. But
the door was closed and she was gone.

Afterwards, in recalling the conversation that had taken place, Moira
found it difficult to remember anything in particular. She had a vague
notion that Alice's time was largely taken up with the fitting on of
frocks and with conversations with young gentlemen upon nothing in
particular; but she brought away with her a distinct notion that the
blue eyes were more beautiful than ever, although somewhat colder, and
that the droop of the mouth would have made almost anyone who did not
understand, sorry for the girl in an indefinite way. Only one point did
honest Moira think of resentfully afterwards; and that was Alice's
dismissal of the Baffalls from the very scheme of things, as being
necessary only for what they gave her.

"The dear old things are so stuffy," she had said. "Positively,
sometimes, my dear, I find myself blushing for them, and going hot and
cold when I think of the mistakes they have made. But there--I think
most of my real friends understand!"

Remembering that resplendent vision that drove in a carriage through
this London in a corner of which Moira hid, she determined to go no more
in search of Alice. Instead, she turned with an eagerly-beating heart in
the direction in which Jimmy might be found--Jimmy, who had not even
been mentioned by Alice or by the Baffalls. Only now, as she went in
search of him, did she begin to think it strange that nothing had been
said concerning Mr. Baffall's other _protégé_.

The address was that of a huge general warehouse in a narrow street
turning out of Cheapside. Moira found it with some difficulty; read the
name over the big windows with a feeling of pride that Jimmy should
belong to such an establishment. After a little hesitation she went
inside, through big swing doors, into a great warehouse stacked to the
very ceiling with parcels wrapped in paper, and with cardboard boxes and
bales; and with innumerable young men and elderly men and boys at work
among the parcels and the bales, and here and there a figure perched at
a high desk, jotting down something called to him by one of the busy
figures. But no sign of Jimmy.

A young gentleman without a coat lounged forward to the counter at
which she stood; glanced at her quickly for a moment, and went on
writing in a book. Without looking up he asked what she wanted.

"Mr. James Larrance," she said, in a low voice. "I wanted to speak to
him for a moment--if he's not too busy."

The man glanced up quickly, and laughed; spread a piece of
blotting-paper on the book, and rubbed it vigorously. Then he turned in
the direction of another man, and jerked his head to beckon him. "Mr.
James Larrance, if you please," he said; and laughed again, and went on
with his work.

The other man who had been beckoned was somewhat older than the first;
moreover, he wore a coat, as showing some greater importance. He came to
the counter, and lounged with one elbow upon it, and looked at the girl.

"Don't you know he's gone?" he asked.

"No--I didn't know that," she faltered.

"Well, he has," he retorted. "The work here wasn't quite good enough for
him; he'd got notions above cloth and calico, I suppose--at any rate,
notions that wouldn't do here. So he decided to go away, and I suppose
make a fortune for himself--eh?" He glanced at the younger man and
laughed unpleasantly.

"Can't I see him doing it!" replied the other, addressing the sheet of
blotting-paper, and thumping it to give emphasis to his words.

"Could you tell me where I should find him?" asked Moira. "I'm an old
friend; I knew him years ago."

"You might find him, miss, on the Hotel Embankment--enjoying the air--or
he might have got an appointment as Inspector of Public Buildings--that
is to say--the outside of 'em," said the younger clerk, with another

"In a word, my dear--he's gone from here--and I haven't yet heard that
he's got another billet. That's the long and the short of it. Good
morning!" Thus the elder man as he turned away.

Moira came out into the busy streets; she saw here the last chance of
touching that old life gone from her. Alice unapproachable, and Jimmy
wandering London friendless; the prospect was not a cheerful one.

She went home to Patience, and took up again the life she had striven to
change--took it up with a new humility and a new gratitude.



London, as we already know, had held out hands of welcome to the
innocent Jimmy, and had promised great things to him; moreover, changing
her name to Fortune, she had seemed to tell him that in a little time
she would be his for the mere wooing. He soon discovered, however, what
manner of jade she was, and how shamefully she had deceived him.

It must be said at once that Mr. Baffall had behaved rather well.
Remembering complacently his own first struggles in the great
city--struggles intimately connected even now in his mind with a
shortage of food and of clothing--he decided that the boy was starting
with good prospects--far better, indeed, than those his patron had
enjoyed. The boy was put into a good business, and a sufficient sum was
to be paid for his lodging in a modest way; Jimmy had but to work within
those carefully-arranged lines that had been drawn for him, and all
would be well. He would rise step by step, and presently take his place,
with his advancing years, in the great army of men in that particular
line of life. Mr. Baffall shook his head at the thought of the
possibilities of Jimmy rising to be a second Baffall on such beginnings;
such things did not happen every day. But for the rest he was well
provided for, and there was an end of the matter.

Jimmy's lodging was in a sort of rough-and-tumble haphazard
boarding-house in the neighbourhood of Camden Town--a boarding-house
crowded with young men and half-grown youths, and presided over by a
lady of untidy appearance and rasping voice, and with an air of being
always in a hurry. She was assisted in the management of the place by
two haphazard, scrambling, hurrying servant-maids--never quite clean
(save on special occasions, when they managed to get out for an hour or
so) and always haggard and tired-looking. Everyone appeared to be in a
great hurry in the morning, from the time when the first young man
clattered downstairs, and plunged at his breakfast, until the time when
the more aristocratic, who did not begin work until ten o'clock, hurried
away from the house; and everyone appeared very tired at night, what
time that strangely composite meal known as a "meat tea" was set before
the returning workers. Jimmy discovered, something to his dismay, that
this, outside the actual life of the warehouse in that turning off
Cheapside, was to be his life.

The thing was hideous from the beginning; hideous in the sense that, in
being swallowed up in such an existence, he became at once a mere unit
in the scheme of things--one of a hurrying, driving crowd, with no
individuality, and no time to think of anything but his work, and his
journeys to and fro, and his eating and his sleeping. And even sleep was
hideous; because, to his dismay, he found that, as a junior in the
boarding-house he had to share a room with two other youths, given a
little to sky-larking, and to the smoking of cheap cigarettes.

At the warehouse, as a beginner, he did whatever odd work was set before
him; wondered a little at first, in a petulant fashion, why the men and
the boys seemed so much happier than he was, and so generally contented
with their lot. But, grimly silent regarding the past, and suspicious as
to the future, he took his place in this new life like a bruised,
stunned creature driven along by an unkind fate. Only afterwards was he
to learn that there is another life of the senses, quite independent of
the mere work of the hands, or the mere sights and sounds around about

His first night at the boarding-house began disastrously, and ended in a
triumph. The room in which the "meat tea" had been partaken of was musty
and noisy; such of the boarders as had not gone out were seated about
the room; one noisy youth was pounding a broken-down piano in a corner.
Jimmy decided to go out; and after roaming about the streets for a long
time, went back, and went up to his room. He found himself alone there,
and was rather glad of the seclusion; he partially undressed and lay
down on his bed, with his hands clasped under his head and his eyes
closed--wondering a little that so great a change could have come into
his life in a matter of a few hours; wondering also what the morrow was
to bring him, in this great place wherein he was to make his fortune.
For he had not yet been to the warehouse.

He was disturbed by an enormous thud at the door, and by the entrance of
the two youths who shared the room with him, and who had apparently been
having a scuffle on the landing, the better to impress the new lodger.
Jimmy turned a little on one side to look at them; decided that they
were not particularly interesting; and rolled over on his back again. A
little smothered laughter followed; and presently, while he still lay
with his eyes closed, something shot across the room and struck him on
the arm. Jimmy was up in a moment, seated on the side of the bed, and
looking gravely down at the shoe that had been thrown at him. The others
were apparently very busy with their undressing.

"I beg your pardon," said Jimmy gravely--"who threw that?"

The elder of the two--a tall weedy youth with loose lips, turned to the
other, and grinned and shook his head. "I dunno' what he's talking
about," he murmured feebly--"or what he's doing with my shoe."

The loose lips tightened in a moment as the shoe caught them full and
square; he looked round in amazement at this outrage, to discover Jimmy
standing in the centre of the room, with his hands gripped tight at his
sides, and a very dangerous look in his eyes. For this was what Jimmy
wanted, in the sense that he could relieve an over-burdened heart only
in some such fashion as this, and because, too, he felt that it was
demanded of him that he should show London something of his quality.

It was Jimmy's second fight; he remembered the first even now, in the
sweet, clean smelling woods, and decided that this was an even more
important battle. The weedy youth got up from the bed on which he was
seated, and with a pitying glance at Jimmy, and an amused shrug at his
companion, as though suggesting that he supposed this sort of thing had
to be done, the better to keep people in their places, strolled out to
meet his assailant. And the next moment found his head in a most
surprising fashion striking the floor.

For the country boy, well fed and well cared for, and used to hard
exercise out of doors, was more than a match for this cigarette-smoking,
narrow-chested youth, who stood half a head taller. He got up slowly,
and looked with pained surprise at his friend; then tried rushing
tactics, and came at Jimmy like a whirlwind. But Jimmy met him coolly;
and he went down again, and decided to stay there. The other youth
muttered something about speaking to the landlady in the morning, and
not knowing quite what things were coming to; until Jimmy happening to
glance in his direction, he decided to get into bed as rapidly as
possible. Jimmy, seeing that the matter was at an end, calmly undressed
and went to bed himself.

He had no further trouble after that; so far as the boarding-house was
concerned he was left severely alone; while at the warehouse everyone
was so busy, and those in authority were so constantly hurrying
backwards and forwards through the place, that there was but scant
opportunity for anything but the work itself.

Yet in the time that followed he sunk more and more into himself, as it
were, and became more and more dependent upon himself. It was part of
Jimmy's nature that he must at all times make the most of everything,
and enlarge upon any circumstance if possible; his very dreams were
large ones. Therefore, when it happened that he realised, as day after
day went on in its dull monotony, that there was nothing here about
which he could boast, he determined to be silent about his life. There
had been a sort of dim feeling in his mind that he would write to Moira;
surely if he wrote to the old home any letter would be forwarded. But in
a curious shame-faced fashion he realised that to Moira most of all he
must have something to write about; must have done something in the big
world to which she had so confidently consigned him before he could
approach her again. And as yet he had done nothing.

In the very beginning of his career at the warehouse he trembled more
than once, when the outer door opened, at the possibility of someone
who had been with him in the old days coming in, and finding him there
hauling parcels about, and for the most part without a coat; every time
the door swung back on its hinges he felt it might be possible that
Moira or Alice--or, worst thought of all, Charlie Purdue--might walk
into the place: Charlie, with a grin upon his good-humoured face that
would have been exasperating. But, of course, no one ever came, and
after a time he ceased to watch the door.

For the most part in the evenings he wandered about the streets--staring
into shop windows, and lingering about outside theatres, and generally
touching the mere fringe of the great life that was pulsing all about
him. But when some twelve months had gone by, the coming of younger lads
than himself to the boarding-house as well as to the warehouse sent him
a step up in each place; so that at the boarding-house he had a tiny
room at the very top of the house to himself--a mere cupboard, but still
a room in his eyes; while at the warehouse he somehow got to a desk
whereat he wore his coat, and left the parcels behind. And in so doing
gained a little money for himself in addition to the meagre pocket-money
he had had.

That room at the top of the house became in a very big sense the boy's
home. It was something to return to; something to know, in the stress
and worry of the day, was waiting for him, even though he might occupy
it for but a few hours at the most. And no sooner had he got that room
than he set about, in quite an imitative fashion, to do what others had
done before him. An imitative fashion, because he had lighted by
accident upon what was to him a wonderful romance; the story of a boy as
poor as he was, and working as hard as he worked, who had gathered books
about him, and made of himself a great and celebrated man.

Jimmy being a mere creature of impulse, and in a desperate hurry always
to do whatever his mind happened to light upon--until something else
attracted his attention--began setting about the great and celebrated
business without delay. He bought books--a few at a time, and quite
unsuited to his purpose--and fell asleep over them with great regularity
in the room upstairs for a week or two. They taught him
something--stirred that brain that had not been stirred by anything
beyond figures for a long time; made him think for himself. For, save
that grounding in elementary things given by the Rev. Temple Purdue, and
a deeper grounding in classical matters the importance of which he had
not grasped, Jimmy was profoundly ignorant. For the first time he began
to remember something of the romantic side of life, as told him years
before by Old Paul; for the first time began to apply that
half-forgotten knowledge to his own purposes. Two years from the time
Jimmy had landed in London, when he was coming near to his twentieth
year, he began sheepishly and with a locked door to write. By that time
the books covered two long shelves, and were in every state of binding
imaginable, and in every condition of repair.

Is it necessary to state that he began with verse? Finding most
unaccountably a line singing in his head for the greater part of one
day, he went home, and set that line down at the top of a fair sheet of
paper, and added another; afterwards erasing the second as being
unworthy of the first. Stumblingly, he went at the thing again; felt
that the first line was not after all what it might be, and, moreover,
that it was difficult to fit with a rhyme; therefore he began again.

Poor Jimmy! His beginnings were about all there were of him for a time;
and he spoilt much paper. But by that time the subtle craze of it had
eaten into his very life, and the warehouse was a mere necessary thing
by which he must live, but which did not really concern him in the
least. After a time the verses failed to concern him also; he determined
to return to them at a later period--much as Mr. Thomas Hardy had done,
after making himself famous in another direction; also there was Mr.
George Meredith to be thought of, and remembered with satisfaction. In
other words, Jimmy tackled prose--as being easier.

The writing seemed at first the smallest part of it all; it was the
sending of the stuff about. Bulky packages came back to the
boarding-house, with the names of various papers and magazines stamped
aggressively on the covers; and, of course, created comment. Jimmy bore
it with a burning face, and tried to call to mind other persecutions
endured by the elect of the earth under similar conditions; the stories
of sons who had been thrashed by commonplace fathers upon showing marked
literary, artistic, or musical ability afforded him keen satisfaction.
Obviously he was on the right road, although no thrashings in the actual
sense were his.

But there came a day--I should rather have written a day of days--when a
letter arrived from a paper--a packet far too small to contain the bulky
thing that had been sent. Opening it, Jimmy discovered that a certain
wonderful being desired to see him; tremblingly, Jimmy sought the office
in his dinner-hour, and inquired for the editor. A small boy with no
reverence about him--no lowering of the voice in speaking of so great a
personage--took his name up; and presently Jimmy stood in the presence,
with his knees knocking together, and a curious dryness in his throat.

The editor was a youngish man of a slim appearance and with flaxen hair.
He was seated at an untidy desk, with his coat off, and with a pipe that
was cold in his mouth. The room appeared to be decorated for the most
part with photographs, chiefly of ladies. Photographs large and
small--Continental photographs and English; photographs in costume, and
photographs in but little costume at all. Paper clippings were all over
the floor; and at the opposite side of the desk a pale boy in spectacles
was at work upon a drawing that seemed to the unpractised glance of
Jimmy already completed.

The man looked up at him, scanning him narrowly, and nodded towards a
chair. "Well, Mr. Larrance," he said, "and what can we do for you?"

Jimmy thought it was rather the other way about, in the sense that he
was desirous of knowing what he could do for the editor; but he smiled
feebly, and murmured something about a letter he had received. The man
was silent for a moment or two, as though debating what to say; finally
he looked up, screwing his eyes shrewdly, and spoke.

"I suppose you run away with the idea that you're a genius--eh?" Jimmy
shook his head and blushed at the mere suggestion, although he had a
sneaking feeling that that suggestion might not be so very wrong after
all. "Because, if you've got that sort of idea, you're not much good to
us. You may be able to write some day; there are indications of it; but
you've got a lot to learn. How long's your story?"

He took up the precious manuscript from beside him, and carelessly
turned over the leaves. Jimmy had not thought of that vital point; he
said he wasn't quite sure.

"You're like all the rest, my boy," retorted the young man, throwing the
packet on his desk. "You write a story to please yourself--and you
ramble on, and you fill it with accounts of green trees, and waving
grass, and birds, and God knows what; things that everybody knows about,
and don't want to read about; and you send us--say twenty thousand
words--when we run to anything from five hundred to three thousand.
Bless you, you wouldn't look at the paper--would you, now?"

Jimmy murmured that he had seen the paper--well, everywhere; and the
young man grinned.

"That's our circulation; you couldn't help seeing it," he said. "But
what do you think would happen to us if we printed that"--he indicated
Jimmy's manuscript, without even glancing at it--"and shoved about five
pages of it down their throats, just to see what they _would_ swallow?
What would be the result? I'll tell you."

He threw one leg over the arm of the chair, and struck a match; forgot
to apply it to the pipe, and blew it out, and dropped it into his
waste-paper basket. Jimmy watched him reverently.

"We should first of all be deluged with letters from all the smart young
men who read us, and snigger at us, and like us; and they'd want to know
what the something something we'd printed it for, or where we found it;
and they'd offer to do something a great deal better, just to show us
what the public wanted. William," he looked across at the boy at the
other desk--"give me a copy of the last for Mr. Larrance--will you?"

The boy stretched out an arm, without looking up, and handed the man a
copy of the paper; the editor, after flicking over the leaves
complaisantly, passed it on to Jimmy. "Just look at that," he said.

Jimmy looked at the thing a little helplessly--turning over the pages
mechanically; then he handed it back to the young man. "I see," he

"No, you don't; you only think you do," retorted the other, not
unkindly. "My boy--we ain't out for literature, because we've got a
living to make; but we do the thing honestly, and we work pretty hard.
Observe, please."

He flicked over the first leaf, and pointed dramatically to the page

"Snippets generally--some American, and some dodged up out of old
chestnuts with a new flavour. But"--he held up a forefinger, and
winked--"but, I say, doesn't the young man who buys us repeat them over
to his friends, and his mother (if the old lady'll stand 'em!), and his
girl, and a few others. Page two: a small story, sir, cut straight out
of the heart of the Latin Quarter--with a real grisette, and an artist
who is going into the Salon in five minutes--and a hopeless love story.
Picture in the middle of the grisette--dodged up from a photograph, with
the hair altered. About nine hundred words--and I paid eleven and
sixpence for it. He's a beginner; but he'll do well presently. And that
isn't his right name."

"It seems very short," Jimmy ventured to say.

"They've got to be short; I cut twenty lines out of this myself; he'd
worked in something about his mother's grave, which wasn't in the
picture a bit. Page three: picture of two girls and a man--dodged-up
joke underneath. Page four: the beginning of our Grand New Serial
Story--which you may begin any week by reading the synopsis at the top;
I do the synopsis myself, and the ungrateful beast of an author
complains bitterly. That takes up--the serial, I mean--three pages and a
bit. More pictures; Continental cuttings--we have to tone them down a
bit, but we get 'em very cheap--then a competition which takes up a
page, and for which the prizes are small; then our Beginners' Page;
which means that they send us stories, and we cut 'em down a bit, and
send 'em a nicey-picey letter, saying they'll do better by and by, and
will they please let us hear from 'em again. That's rather a cheap
page," he added, contemplatively. "Then we finish up with a couple of
novelettes in a nutshell; about six hundred words each--must be full of
plot; then answers to correspondents--chiefly love and complexion stuff;
and there you are! That's what we call editing," he added, proudly. "You
can take that home if you like, and have a good look at it."

"I quite see that any story as long as mine wouldn't suit," said Jimmy,
a little mystified. "I ought to have sent it somewhere else." He half
rose from his seat.

"Stop a bit," said the young man, taking up the manuscript, and looking
through it with his lips pursed. "Stop a bit." He tossed the thing over
on to the other desk, and called to the boy: "William--what should you
say was the length?"

William cast an eye over it--the eye of the expert who was not to be
deceived, turned to the last page, seemed almost to weigh it in his
hand, and then replied.

"Fifteen five hundred--might be a little over," he said, handing it
back, and resuming his work as though this were a matter of the smallest

"There you are, you see," exclaimed the editor with a triumphant smile.
"No good at all. But I'll tell you what I think--and I wouldn't tell
everybody. It's got an idea in it; and I can assure you we often get
double the quantity, without any idea at all. Now, I wonder if you're
prepared to listen to reason?"

Jimmy indicating that he was prepared to listen to anything, the young
man made one or two suggestions. In the first place, he was to take it
away, and read it over; he was to take out the idea that was in it, and
to boil it down--that was the actual expression used--to something like
two thousand words. He was to leave in as much love as possible.
"They'll stand any amount of that sort of thing," said the young man;
and he was also to leave in all the sensation. If he came across a tree
he was simply to say it was a tree, and not attempt to describe it; nor
was he to let himself go on scenery at all. And if he did all that
satisfactorily, and didn't spoil the idea, he would have a guinea. "We
pay on Fridays," said the young man easily, as though that was the most
ordinary part of the business.

"What we could do with you," said the young man, as he shook hands at
parting--"would be to take one a fortnight; that would mean half a
guinea every blessed week for you. Then now and then we could let you
have a novelette to do--fourteen or fifteen thousand words, simply
packed with incident--and for those we _do_ pay; you'd get about four
ten for those. Then now and then, when you'd got into the way of it, you
could do a six or seven-hundred worder; I mean the novelette in a
nutshell; and that would be another five bob. So there you are; you
wouldn't need to look anywhere else. And always on Fridays, mind
you--there would be your little bit waiting for you. Good morning!--and
remember we don't want names; we're looking for young talent, and we're
teaching it to earn its living."

So this particular young talent went back to the warehouse with dreams;
Jimmy was absolutely certain that the thing could be done, and here,
almost at once, was a fortune awaiting him. After all, when you came to
think of it, it was simply a matter of hard work, but of congenial work
at that; an hour or two every evening meant four tens and guineas and
five bobs and what not; and when you came to add those together--well,
your fortune was made. As a mild beginning, Jimmy tackled that bulky
manuscript which he was to boil down that very night.

In the first place, the beginning must certainly stand. There was the
full description not only of the heroine, but of her surroundings;
despite what the young man had said as to his objection to descriptions
of scenery, Jimmy felt that when that young man came to read again that
particular part he would feel with Jimmy that it would be a crime to let
it go. There was, of course, one objection; on counting it laboriously,
Jimmy discovered that it amounted to just over six hundred words.

Then he came to the big scene in the middle; the real incident of the
thing--that "idea" that had taken the fancy of the editor. Not a word of
that must be missed--for every word had its special value. But that was
a matter--(again much laborious counting)--of just over five hundred

Then he tried cutting the thing up; slicing out a paragraph or two here,
and a sheet or two there, and reading them after he had joined them
carefully; but the real beauty of the thing, Jimmy felt, was gone. He
went to bed with a headache; only to dream that the young man was
tearing reams of valuable manuscript, while the boy William looked on
with an exasperating smile.

The next evening Jimmy began to write the whole thing again; for Jimmy
was learning his lesson. He got it down to something near the limit
arranged in two nights; decided, on an impulse, to take it to the office
himself; and was received somewhat coolly by the young man.

"We're pretty full up just now," said the young man, scratching his head
dubiously, and looking down into the pipe that never seemed to be
alight. "However, I'll have a go at it."

Jimmy went away, and waited a week. He dared not write anything else;
this was to be a test of his efficiency. If he could please this man he
would go ahead; there were prospects for him if this matter came out
fortunately. At the end of the week he once more climbed the stairs and
knocked at the door. The room seemed full of the editor and the pale
boy and several other men; all, with the exception of the pale boy,
smoking and laughing and talking.

The editor detached himself, and came across to Jimmy, evidently in a
good temper. "Let's see," he said, with the remainder of a smile that
had been the proper compliment to a story he had just heard still
lingering about his lips--"didn't I write you?"

Jimmy murmured that he had not yet had a letter; he wondered if by any
good chance it would ever happen that he would be on such terms of
familiarity with the great one as was the gentleman with his hat on the
back of his head who had just sat down in the editorial chair and taken
one of the editorial cigarettes.

"Oh, it's all right," said the young man. "Not quite the idea--in the
working out, you'll understand; you seemed to miss it a bit somehow. But
I've made it sixteen shillings. You know the office; go there on Friday,
and tell 'em who you are. I'll have the account passed through."

Jimmy was staggering out at the door when the young man, who had darted
back to his desk, came out after him, and called him. He whispered Jimmy
on the staircase.

"Here's a couple of drawings--they haven't been used for a long time,
and you might write up to 'em----"

"Write up to them?" asked Jimmy, in perplexity.

"Yes--yes," replied the other impatiently. "Make it a thousand words, so
that we can space it out well; and write naturally and lightly. I don't
care what order you use 'em in, but write so that those will come in as
illustrations. Let me have it next week. And, by the way," he added
hurriedly, "let the man's figure be the hero. Very necessary, that."

Jimmy discovered, on examining the drawings, that the figure of the man
in one was that of a young gentleman with very broad shoulders and a
very beautiful waist, apparently denouncing a lady upon a sofa; that of
the gentleman in the other was heavily bearded, and was in the act of
dashing forward to stop a runaway horse on which an altogether different
young lady was being carried away at a great rate. Jimmy hesitated for a
long time; but finally made it a matter of years between the first
picture and the second, and so grew the beard naturally, while he exiled
his hero for the purpose.

Jimmy became a frequent visitor to the office over which the young man
presided, and a less frequent visitor to that other office where the
shillings and occasional sovereigns were handed out to him. There was
that to be said for the matter, at least; that the money was always
forthcoming at the right time, if it had been earned; and a pretty
starveling crew it was that waited about on Fridays--though a merry one
nevertheless. Once or twice, too, it happened that something of Jimmy's
that had not fitted the fancy of the young man was sent on its
wanderings elsewhere, and fell into hands that detained it, and paid
meagrely for it. So that Jimmy was becoming rich in a small way.

All this took time; I have been careful to say nothing of the quakings
and the fevers of doubt and anxiety, the bitternesses and all the other
little trifles that filled out a matter of two years; Jimmy forgot those
pretty easily, because Jimmy was young, and Jimmy was fighting.

In proportion as that work took up his time the warehouse sunk into the
background. For there were weeks when the money he earned at the
warehouse was as nothing in proportion to what, for example, a novelette
(at four ten) had brought him; other weeks when it loomed large, because
he had earned nothing. So that it came about, after a time, that he
came to be looked at a little askance in that busy house in the turning
off Cheapside; was reprimanded once or twice for blunders and omissions;
and with the remembrance of his secret income in his mind took but scant
notice of what was said. Then, on the pretext of a change in the staff,
Jimmy was sent for one day, and was astounded to find that his services
were no longer required.

Astounded in a fashion, and yet not altogether displeased. A fleeting
recollection of the man who had given him his first opportunity of
making a start in life caused him to murmur the name of Mr. Baffall; but
the man before whom he was arraigned shook his head, and smiled.

"Mr. Baffall was good enough to recommend you, Larrance, a long time
ago; and we accepted that recommendation because he had had a good deal
to do with the firm. But Mr. Baffall would be the last to expect us to
keep on anybody we don't want. You're all right, Larrance--but you're
not all right here. You dream too much; you're not smart enough. I
think, for all our sakes, it would be better if you shook hands, and had
a look round somewhere else. London's a big place--and I daresay you'll
get on."

So Jimmy, with a curious feeling that was half fear and half elation,
turned his back upon the warehouse he had known for some four years, and
went out into the world in a new sense. He had plenty of money, as he
counted money then, in hand; and there was work to be done for the young
man who presided over that particular paper, and for other men
doubtless, young as well as old.

The first thing Jimmy did was to leave that boarding-house in the
neighbourhood of Camden Town, and to look about for a place more suited
to his requirements as a literary man, and as an independent one to
boot. After much searching, he discovered some rooms at the top of an
old house in a small court leading out of Holborn; with an ancient
wheezy dame to cook his breakfast and to make his bed, and to shift the
dust about his room on occasion. There he established himself with his
books; from there, on the first evening, he went as a new luxury to a
small restaurant, and partook of a modest meal.

Somehow or other, matters did not seem to go on so smoothly after that
time. For example, he went one day to the office over which his first
friend presided, to discover that first friend standing outside on the
pavement, with his coat on for the first time, thoughtfully scratching
his chin and staring at his boots. On Jimmy accosting him, he looked up,
and laughed ruefully.

"We've doubled up, dear boy," he said. "The blessed old rag has held out
as long as it could; and the circulation has gone down and down till we
hadn't got a gasp left in us; and we couldn't even afford to give it
away! Not but what we're doing the thing properly, mind you," he added
hastily. "You'll find your money all right on Friday--but it's the last.
What's going to become of me I don't quite know; but I think there's a
chance of my being mopped up by one of the big syndicates. I'm going to
try, at any rate; it isn't quite so wearing a life."

Jimmy discovered that they had sold the novelettes; he had an
introduction to the new proprietor, and contrived to get a little work
out of him, though at a cheaper rate even than before. For the rest,
with something like a new despair beginning to knock at his young heart,
he scurried round, and wrote anything and everything he could.

Often and often, in those first few months, he knew what it was to have
to think more than twice before spending a sixpence for food; he grew,
too, to dread the coming of the wheezy old dame with a certain
red-covered little book which contained the account for his breakfasts
and for her own personal attendance upon him; invented excuses, now and
then, to go out, so as to miss seeing her. But in some fashion he
managed to pay that; managed also to put aside a little towards that big
item--rent. Though that was a nightmare, indeed--a thing that meant the
counting of days with a palpitating heart.

He found his way, quite naturally, to the British Museum and its
reading-room; discovered also near it a tiny tea shop, where, provided
you bought butter-and only one pat at that--you might eat as much bread
as ever you liked. Oh--a blessed institution, and one to be encouraged!

So, struggling along, with an occasional flutter of the heart--(only
very occasional this) at the sight of his name on a list of contents of
some small paper; often hungry, and much perplexed at times over the
question of clothes; with a wistful eye to the great men at the top, who
had begun long ago perhaps in some such fashion as this; Jimmy trod the
ways of freedom with a fair amount of contentment.



"I've been making up my mind to it for a long time; now I shall do it."
Patience sat upright in her chair, and stared, not at the girl, but at
the window of the room; she shook her head resolutely. "I shall do it in
my own way--and it isn't as if it'll cost much. It'll only want two
sheets--or an extra one, in case of a blot or anything like that, and
I'll have 'em black-edged."

Moira looked at her for a moment in silence. "Why black-edged,
Patience?" she asked at last.

"More respectable, if it isn't too deep. There's a something about a
black edge that takes away any flippancy; with anybody elderly like me
it's always more decent. If you wouldn't mind, my dear, getting three or
four sheets--and envelopes to match--I could set about it."

The idea had been in the mind of Patience for some time; she had thought
about it, and worried over it, until at last she had brought herself to
undertake the extraordinary task itself. Distrustful always of anyone
young and impulsive, such as she conceived Moira to be, and of anyone,
moreover, with no knowledge or experience of life, she had felt that in
some fashion or other the girl had blundered in writing to Alice. The
Baffalls were people of quality; above all, they were people with money;
was it not possible that Moira had let slip something about the narrow
life she led with the old woman, and the care with which money had to be
watched with an eye to the future. If that were the case--Patience
bridled at the thought, and determined to set matters right in her own
fashion. Filled with a fiery independence, the old woman seemed to see
these people shrugging shoulders and pursing lips, in pity for her and
her supposed poverty; she would tell a different tale, with the aid of
that highly respectable black-edged paper.

Behold her, therefore, with the grimly-edged sheet spread on a newspaper
before her on the table, and with Moira's inkstand and pen at her
service. Behold her watching the girl furtively while she framed her
first sentence. Her worn cheeks were hot at the thought of what she had
to do, and what she had to say; feverishly, she wished that the girl
would say something, if only something against which she could raise a

"What are you going to say?" asked Moira unexpectedly, without glancing
up from her needlework.

"Don't know yet; it's hard to begin," retorted Patience. "I've put the
address at the top, and the day--and 'Dear Madam'--that's as far as I've

"What do you want to say?" asked Moira, without looking up.

"Well"--the thin old hand was guiding the pen over the newspaper,
tracing lines in and out among the lines of print--"I want to put it so
they'll understand what we do--and the people we see--and--and all that
sort of thing."

"Surely it's easy to say that," said Moira, with a half smile. "But how
will it interest them?"

"They've got to be interested," replied the old woman sharply as she
looked up. "Anything you've put into their heads has got to be taken out
again; they've got to understand that we're doing things rather
well--going about--and that sort of thing."

Moira dropped her hands, and looked across at Patience with sudden
interest. "But why?" she asked.

"Because I choose," said Patience stiffly. "Because I'm going to have
'em think different from what you've told 'em. Because I want 'em to
know that we hold up our heads with the best of 'em. That's why. If I
was younger, and hadn't forgot so many things, I could be able to write
down just what I want. But my imagination seems to have got dead

"Are you going to put imagination in the letter?" asked the girl.

"What else is there to put?" Patience raised her head and looked at the
girl; then lowered her eyes, and went on tracing the lines on the
newspaper. "Oh, yes, I know; I understand more than you think. I'm a
hard old woman--and you're a girl, with all the world calling to you.
You hear the beat of hundreds of feet all marching on the road you'd
like to travel; don't you hear the beat of the feet sometimes?"

"Sometimes," replied Moira, lowering her eyes.

"I know you do. And I'm glad to forget that the feet are marching at
all; glad to think that if they march my way, it'll only be perhaps over
my grave. I've done with it, and I've thought sometimes that you could
be done with it, too."

Moira stretched a hand across the table, and touched the hand of the
woman. "I'm not ungrateful--and we lead our quiet lives here," she said.

"I know that," replied Patience sharply. "But I don't mean that anyone
else shall know that; I've got my pride--more than most folk. Who's
Alice, if it comes to that, that she should be taken about, and drive in
her carriage--and all that? If they took one girl--didn't I take the
other; me that they looked on as a servant? I'll soon show 'em."

"You wouldn't show what wasn't true, dear?" whispered Moira.

"Yes--I would," was the surprising answer, "and not think twice about
it. Who's to know?"

"I wouldn't do it," said Moira. "You'll only be sorry afterwards."

"Shall I? You don't know me," she retorted. "My pride'll keep me from
ever being sorry. Now for it!"

Moira leaned her elbows on the table, and rested her chin on her clasped
hands, and watched. A slight flush of excitement had grown in the white
face of Patience; her lips were set in grim determination as she poised
the pen, and waited before setting down in black and white what was in
her mind. It seemed difficult of expression; after a moment she raised
her eyes hopelessly to the girl. "I don't know how to begin," she
muttered, with a glance at the door, as though fearful of being

"I thought you'd find it difficult," was the reply. "Why not say at
once that we drive every morning until luncheon; pay calls in the
afternoon; are never to be found at home in the evening? If you want
imagination----Why, what are you writing?"

The pen was jerking rapidly over the paper, and Patience was saying the
words aloud as she wrote. "Dear Madam,--I have been meaning to write to
you for a long time--but London life takes up so much of my time--and
Moira--'is it one "r," Moira?'--is always out and about--when not with
me, then with some young companion." She glanced up half shyly at Moira,
who was watching.

"Can't you spell 'companion'?" asked Moira demurely.

"Of course I can," explained Patience. "My in-vest-ments having turned
out better than I hoped, we are finding this house almost too large for
us, but should not like to change. I do not think that we could go back
to the country now; we seem to want more life than we used to have,
especially now after my re-tire-ment. I am afraid sometimes"--she raised
her eyes again to the face of the girl, and then lowered them--"afraid
sometimes that the life is almost too gay for Moira; but then she is
young, and----"

Her voice trailed off, and she finished the letter with a commonplace or
two that she had dug out of the respectable past. Then she looked up
again at the girl, half appealingly. "It ain't exactly what I wanted to
say; 'tain't strong enough," she said. "Couldn't I write something

"Tear it up," suggested Moira, in a whisper. "Why should you write such
things--when they'll know----"

"The letter's going," exclaimed Patience sternly. She turned again to
the page, and took up her pen; began to write, while she muttered the
words aloud.

"P.S.--I name no names; but there may be parties that have said things
about me, and it is my wish to right myself in the eyes of all. Moira
sits opposite me while I write"--she raised her eyes again for a moment,
and lowered them quickly; perhaps she thought of the many, many nights
on which the girl had sat there, with the lamp between them--"having no
engagement for this evening outside."

       *       *       *       *       *

She addressed the envelope hurriedly, as though afraid her resolution
might fail. Moira, glancing across at the thing when it was finished,
raised a protest.

"It's no use sending it to Daisley Cross," she said; "they're in

"I ain't going to waste an envelope," retorted Patience, after gazing at
it for a moment a little blankly. "It'll find 'em."

So it came about that the letter found its way to the breakfast table of
the Baffalls at Daisley Cross, for they were down there, as it happened,
by a sudden whim on the part of Alice.

"Now I do hope nobody I know has died," murmured Mrs. Baffall, as she
turned the black thing over and over. "No--I don't know the writing--but
the postmark's London. Now, it couldn't be----No--it wouldn't be them;
they were quite well a week ago; besides, the writing isn't the same.
Now I come to look at it," added Mrs. Baffall, brightening, "it isn't
unlike Janie Ford's writing; she has just those little twiggles at the
ends of the words. And yet it isn't Janie."

It occurred to her at last that it might be well to open it, which she
did, shaking her head as she did so, and murmuring suggestions as to who
the writer might be. The letter open, she began to punctuate her reading
of it with little soft "oh's" now and then, and an upraised hand. Mr.
Baffall complacently waited until she had turned the page, and had got
to the end of the letter; then, as she laid it down and looked round at
the two expectant faces, he smiled, and asked who it was had really
written it.

"Well--you'll never guess," said Mrs. Baffall. "If anyone had come to me
this morning, and had said to me--suddenly and without any
warning--'Flora Baffall, you're going to have a letter with the name of
Patience Roe at the end of it'--well, I don't know what I should have
said to them. Ten to one I should have laughed."

"And what does Patience Roe want?" asked Mr. Baffall. "Not in any
difficulty, I hope?"

"Moira didn't come to see me in London," said Alice. "At least--not
after that once."

"Well, it's not surprising," said Mrs. Baffall, appealing to the letter,
and seeming to shake her head over it. "According to what Patience says
here, they never have time for anything--she speaks of Moira as being
almost too gay."

Alice started, and looked round quickly with a frown. "What?" she
exclaimed. "Gay? Well, she didn't look very gay when I saw her; surely
you didn't think so Aunt Baffall? A poor washed-out, shabby thing----"

"Patience says something about investments having turned out better than
she expected," murmured Mrs. Baffall. "Which is very pleasing, as
Baffall himself would tell you, my dear--knowing something about it. If
I didn't know Patience, I should almost think this was like a boasting
letter--what we should call a bit of show-off. But it can't be that, of

When the meal was ended, and Alice had gone singing off to her own
quarters, Baffall came round the table to his wife, and put a friendly
hand on her shoulder. "May I see the letter, mother?" he asked.

She handed it to him, and he read it in silence; screwed up one eye over
it, and tugged at his short beard, and rumpled his hair. Finally,
tapping it with a stunted forefinger, he gave his verdict.

"When anybody writes like that--for no particular reason--it's either
one or other of two things. Either they're what we'd call in business
'bluffing'--which means that the letter's got to be read the opposite
way, in a manner of speaking--or else they're merely bragging for the
sake of bragging."

"That isn't her way, I should think," broke in Mrs. Baffall quickly.

"I should think not," retorted her husband, "but you never can tell.
There's some reason for it, and it concerns that dark-eyed girl. I'm not
much of a judge--but what did you think when you saw her in London,

"Well--without meaning to be unkind, Daniel, I did run an eye over her,"
said Mrs. Baffall; "and I must say she was poor as poor. Neat, mind you,
as such a girl always would be--and more of a lady than half a hundred
of 'em would be, no matter how much you spent on 'em; but poor--what I'd
call make-shifty, if you'll understand."

Mr. Baffall nodded slowly. "I understand," he said; "therefore, it looks
like bluff. Of course, the investments may have turned out much better;
but you can't lead me to believe that that old woman would be the sort
to make a splash about it, even if she came into a quarter of a

Mr. Baffall took a turn across the room, and touched the handle of the
door to be certain that the door was closed. Then he came back to Mrs.
Baffall, and spoke in a lowered voice.

"How do you think it would be if Alice was to go----"

Mrs. Baffall shook her head vigorously; Mr. Baffall nodded slowly, with
a perplexed face. "Perhaps you're right," he said slowly; "perhaps Alice
isn't quite the sort. Not but what, being brought up as children, I
should have thought----"

It was the turn of Mrs. Baffall to shake her head again. "It doesn't
matter much how you bring 'em up, Daniel, or how you don't; it's what's
in 'em to begin with. She's a nice girl, Daniel"--the old lady seemed to
indicate the girl who had gone singing from the room--"but God didn't
give her quite the sort of heart you an' me was looking for. Come and
kiss you, she will, and her smile is beautiful to see; yet it leaves a
longing somehow for something you never get."

"She always looks very nice--and is much admired," suggested Mr. Baffall

"Which is something to be grateful for," replied Mrs. Baffall,
brightening a little. "If only I could have understood the other one."

"I wouldn't worry about it," said Mr. Baffall, with a hand upon her
shoulder. "I daresay the other one's happier as she is."

Nevertheless, Mr. Baffall was not altogether happy about the matter; he
pondered over it with bent brows while he smoked his morning cigar round
what he called the "estate." It ended, in fact, by his taking the cigar
and the letter in the direction of the rectory, in the hope for temporal
advice at least. There, without ceremony, he spread the letter before
the Rev. Temple Purdue (grown a little greyer with the years, but
otherwise unchanged) and indicated by a wave of the hand that it was to
be read.

Mr. Purdue turned it over solemnly to find the signature; turned it back
again to begin the reading of it. When he had finished he took off his
spectacles, and laid them on his writing table, and looked up mildly at
Mr. Baffall.

"Seems very satisfactory," he said. "Really, my dear Baffall, it is kind
and thoughtful of you to have given me news of old friends like
this--very kind indeed. I always had a great respect for Patience Roe--a
very great respect indeed."

"That's one of the letters," said Mr. Baffall, leaning forward, and
tapping it with a finger, "that wants reading between the lines. There
is more in it than the mere words--and, according to Mrs. Baffall, it
don't bear out what she thought when she saw the girl in London; nor,
for the matter of that, does it bear out what I saw. Mr. Purdue, I've
got a sneaking feeling that I should like to do something for that
girl--young lady, I suppose you'd call her now; and I think that
thought's in Mrs. Baffall's mind too."

Mr. Purdue looked at his visitor in some perplexity. "I'm afraid I don't
quite understand," he said.

"Mr. Purdue, sir," went on Baffall solemnly, "when I was in business, if
things went very wrong with me, and I didn't quite know where to turn
for money or credit, what was the first thing I did?" Mr. Purdue shook
his head. "Why, I made believe that I'd got more money than I knew what
to do with, and was looking out for investments; or I suggested that
business was so flourishing that I really couldn't entertain the idea of
taking any more. That was my move--and that's the move in that letter.
For all we know, they may be in Queer Street, and yet much too proud to
let anybody show 'em the way out."

"You distress me greatly," said Mr. Purdue, with a sigh. "What do you
suggest should be done?"

Baffall shook his head. "Whatever's done must be done delicately," he
said. "If me or Mrs. B., or Alice was to go--and Alice would want the
carriage--I can understand their backs would be up--and their pride
would stand in the way; I was always a bit afraid of that girl myself.
But if there was anybody in London--struggling a bit, perhaps, like
themselves--it might be a help to the girl, for it seems to me that she
must have a pretty slow time of it with that old woman."

The Rev. Temple Purdue sat silent for a few moments, thoughtfully biting
the end of a pen. He looked up at last, and spoke almost apologetically.
"There's Charlie," he said.

There seemed to be some understanding between the two men as regarded
Charlie; they looked at each other for a moment or two in silence; the
rector sighed a little.

"Yes, there's Charlie," said Mr. Baffall, a little sternly. "Doing any

"I have hopes of him," replied Purdue. "You see, he lost his mother when
he was very young, Baffall; we must never forget that. And if he's wild
and headstrong--well, that is one of the faults of youth, I suppose. You
see--to go to London like that--plunge at once into a medical
school--and live in lodgings----"

"I see what you're driving at," broke in Baffall. "You think that if he
lived with anyone who would keep an eye on him----"

"I'm sure he'd do better," exclaimed the other eagerly. "I've thought of
it often; but I have no time to go to London myself. He writes for
money--and still more money; he sends promises of what he will do, and
what he will undo; he's a good boy at heart."

"Patience Roe has rooms to spare in her house," said Daniel Baffall

Such a little phrase to change a life--nay, to change lives! These two
men, with their lives nearly spent, and with the road they had traversed
stretching far behind them, sat innocently plotting what was to be done
with younger lives that were in their keeping; and innocently they
forged links that were to bind together those lives in a fashion they
would never have suspected. Somewhere in that great London of which the
one knew nothing, and which the other was glad to forget, Moira sat
waiting for the beat of the many feet that were to come marching into
her life; somewhere in that London Charlie lived his careless existence,
with no thought of any morrow but a bright one. And these two men were
pulling strings that should draw the two inevitably together.

"I'll write to her," exclaimed Purdue suddenly, "and I'll write to
Charlie. He wants friends of a better sort in London; and if, as you
suspect, they are poor, this may help them."

"I'm glad I came to you," said Baffall, as he got to his feet. "After
all, that girl may help to keep the boy straight. Boys want a lot of
keeping straight these days, it seems to me."

He had moved to the door when Mr. Purdue, going after him, detained him
with a question. "No news of Jimmy?"

Mr. Baffall's brows contracted. "Not a word," he replied. "I'm
disappointed in that boy; we both seem to have been a bit unlucky in
that respect, Mr. Purdue. I got Jimmy into a good situation--provided
for him, in a way; and he left it--or was turned out of it--for
incompetence; and that's the last we've heard of him. It wants a strong
boy or a strong man to hold his own in London."

The Rev. Temple Purdue sighed. "And Charlie is not strong--in that way,"
he said.

The Rev. Temple Purdue wrote two letters that evening in his study. The
one was to astonish Patience Roe on the following day, and to cause her
to regret that she had sent a letter to Daisley Cross at all. It
suggested that Mr. Purdue was glad to hear of her continued prosperity;
it mentioned incidentally that his son was in London, and would in all
probability call upon them at an early date; concerning that particular
item of news Patience said nothing to Moira.

The second letter was to Charlie; it was a letter written with some
shakings of the head and many pauses for reflection. It addressed
Charlie as "My dear boy," and it reminded him once again that his father
was not a rich man, and that much money had already travelled
Londonwards for Charlie's benefit. It contained some advice (which
Charlie was afterwards to skim through hurriedly with a frowning face),
and it mentioned the address of Patience Roe and Moira. More than that,
it finished with the suggestion that Charlie might find it pleasant to
visit them, and that he might perhaps care to make a change of lodging,
and to take up his quarters with friends.

And while the rector penned that letter in his quiet study at Daisley
Cross, a man in a little squalid coffee-house in a turning off Fleet
Street was writing a letter to him.

The man was one of that great army of men in London who have no means,
and no hopes, and no prospects; who, in some fashion or other, manage to
keep a frowsy bed to which to retire when the long, scheming, hungry,
pitiful day is ended; who have come down from borrowing sovereigns to
borrowing shillings and even sixpences; who are acquainted with every
cheap place in the great city where, for the expenditure even of a
penny, shelter may be had for an indefinite number of hours. And his
name was Anthony Ditchburn.

It had taken Anthony Ditchburn a long time to get to this coffee-house
(which was also, by the way, a species of reading-room, to which
admittance was to be gained by the payment of one penny, and the
luxuries of which included chess and draughts and dominoes); yet the
road he had traversed to it had been a fairly straight one. He had begun
with the borrowing of sovereigns from such men as had known him in
university days, and were sorry for the position in which the man had
suddenly found himself by the death of Paul Nannock at Daisley
Cross--Paul Nannock, who had died so inconsiderately, and left Ditchburn
in the lurch. Then, when that source of income had gone, and men closed
their doors against him, Anthony Ditchburn took to writing begging
letters, and found it quite a profitable business for a time.

He got easily into the reading-room of the British Museum; it was warm
there, and writing materials were at his hand for the asking. He flew at
high game; wrote to people he had never met, but whose titles seemed to
promise something substantial; quoted the letters which he had a right
to set down after his name, and referred to the university lists boldly.
To his surprise money came in readily; he fell so quickly into the
business that he prepared lists of his patrons, and of others to whom he
might apply, and set down against them the amounts they had given, or
which might be expected.

It took a long time to exhaust his list, but the hour dawned when he was
met with rebuff after rebuff, and when even the mention of the great
work on which he had been so long engaged failed to attract the
attention it should have done. Then, remembering those people in whose
midst he had lived in the flourishing times of Old Paul, he looked in
the direction of Daisley Cross, and sent a missive winging towards it.

That was the missive written in the little squalid coffee-house. Anthony
Ditchburn had quarrelled bitterly with another shabby, greasy
individual, who had dared to occupy the table at which Ditchburn usually
sat in the dark little reading-room; had quoted Latin at him, and had
been retorted to in the same tongue; had gone away discomfited. Finally,
he had haggled with a contemptuous young lady in charge of the room for
an outside soiled sheet of paper, and had got it for a halfpenny; had
managed to secure an envelope for himself, at no expenditure at all,
while her back was turned. And then had sat down to write to the Rev.
Temple Purdue.

Knowing his man, and inwardly reproaching himself that he had not done
something in this direction before, Anthony Ditchburn adopted the grand
manner in dealing with him.


     "I venture to turn, in the midst of unmerited misfortune, to one
     who has been placed (and I would add, quite deservedly placed) in a
     position of ease and comfort; as a scholar I appeal to a scholar.

     "You may doubtless remember that some years ago I grounded in the
     elements some children, who afterwards (solely owing to a whim on
     the part of our poor dear old friend Nannock) were passed on to you
     for further instruction. Incidentally, it will ever be a
     satisfaction to me that they lisped their first words of knowledge
     under the guidance of two such men.

     "Since that period, although I have been a wanderer in various
     seats of learning, and have contributed with some degree of success
     to various of the heavier reviews, the time has at last come when,
     owing to a difference of opinion with an editor, I am in temporary
     difficulties. I am amazed when I think that such a misfortune
     should ever have befallen me; I tremble at the thought of what I
     must face in the great world." (It may be added that Anthony
     Ditchburn had trembled often and often in a hundred such letters,
     until he knew quite well the trick of it; could even give a shake
     of his pen to emphasise it.) "Will you--quite as a temporary
     matter--oblige me with a small loan, which will enable me to
     satisfy a truculent being who demands a something for rent; and
     also to provide myself during the next day or two with the mere
     necessaries of life? I need scarcely add that the amount will be
     repaid as soon as I receive a remittance--long since overdue--from
     a friend to whom, in a more fortunate moment, I rendered
     assistance, and who shall of course be nameless.

     "I am, Rev. Sir,

     "Obediently and sincerely yours,


     "P.S.--A mere matter of ten shillings would stay the pangs of
     hunger, and permit me to pay something on account for my poor
     lodging.--A. D."

That written, and the envelope addressed, Anthony found a greasy piece
of folded paper in an inner pocket, and from it took a stamp. Then the
letter was despatched, bearing the name and address of the coffee-house
as Anthony's abode; and so took its way down to Daisley Cross to startle
the Rev. Temple Purdue, and to show him anew what a hard and sordid
place this London was.

But the letter had one effect, and that incidentally a great one. For
Mr. Purdue, after conning the letter for a long time, and clicking his
tongue over it, and sighing and shaking his head, despatched it in turn
to the only person he knew in London, who would be likely, as being on
the spot, to give what assistance was necessary, and to take an old
acquaintance by the hand. That person Charlie Purdue.

On his own account the rector sent a sovereign to Anthony Ditchburn, who
under his present circumstances felt that he had tapped a gold mine.
Also, the innocent rector mentioned his son's address, and begged that
the eminent scholar would look the young man up. "Charlie will be glad
of a solid friend," he wrote.

But long before Anthony Ditchburn had had time to enter into Charlie's
life in that new and somewhat startling capacity of solid friend,
Charlie himself had read his father's letter, and had, on an impulsive
moment when things were wrong with him, and he had nothing very much to
occupy his attention, started for Chelsea; had found the little house,
and had climbed the stairs to find Moira. Of course, she knew nothing of
him or of his coming; he took her unawares, in that little room wherein
she spent her lonely days and her lonely evenings with the old woman.

It had been a day of misty rain and bitter wind; a day when the mere
commonplace work of mean shopping had seemed more toilsome than usual.
She had come home with damp skirts, and with limbs reluctant to climb
the stairs; had sunk down in the firelight, and had leaned her head back
and had closed her eyes. The lamp was lighted, and she was alone; for it
happened that old Patience was in her bedroom, putting those little
absurd touches to her dress and to her cap, without the addition of
which she would not have faced the evening.

There came a tap at the door; Moira spoke wearily, although she did not
turn her head; this was probably the landlady on some petty matter of
the household. "Come in," she said.

The door was opened, and someone stood there. Moira waited for that
someone to speak; heard a cough, and got up quickly. There, for a
moment, she stood behind the lamp, looking with parted lips at the young
man--fair, well-dressed, and smiling--who stood with a hand outstretched
to her. Then something in the look told her who he was, whispered to her
heart that here suddenly was a friend come out of the brighter world
into her life. She touched his hand, and caught a sob--half of laughter,
half of tears--in her throat, and whispered his name.

"Charlie!" And again, wringing his hand--"Charlie!" And yet again,
almost hysterically as it seemed--"Charlie!"



To have him standing there was wonderful; to look into his eyes, and
feel his friendly clasp of her hand; to hear again the light-hearted
voice and the light-hearted, gay little laugh----Well--it was just the
Charlie of the woods and the fields and the sunshine of the old days.
There seemed no change in him, save that he had a dainty suggestion of a
moustache (she blushed that she should have noticed that, and then
laughed because she had blushed), and his voice a little deeper. For the
rest--simply happy-go-lucky Charlie Purdue of the woods and the fields
and the sunshine.

He said over and over again that he was glad to see her; looked round
the room in the firelight and lamplight, and said what a jolly place it
was. And instantly it became a jolly place; the grey sobriety of it
faded and was gone. The fire burnt brighter--the chairs were
comfortable; it _was_ a jolly room!

That was what Patience saw when she came in with a look of vacant
surprise on her face at hearing the laughter. Came in, to be seized at
once by Charlie, in that impetuous fashion of his, and kissed and
hugged until the cap she had so carefully arranged was all awry. But
even then it was only Charlie, and she scarcely dared frown at him.

"Well, if this isn't splendid!" he exclaimed. "To think of you being
here all this time--hidden away like moles (although moles don't occupy
top floors--generally--do they?)--and I knowing nothing about it. Moira
grown a woman--and a pretty woman, too, my dear--and Patience looking
younger than ever, especially with her cap on one side like that."

Even Patience laughed; his gaiety was infectious. She and Moira,
exchanging smiles for perhaps the first time for months, bustled about
to get tea ready; and Charlie Purdue, talking all the while, found out
where the kettle was to be filled, and had it on the fire in no time,
and assisted generally. To the scandal of old Patience (that is, had she
had time to think about it), they found themselves all talking at the
top of their voices, punctuated by Charlie's laughter from time to time.
He had dashed in out of the world, and had seized them and shaken them,
and put new life into them. Across the table under the lamp Moira found
herself looking at him gratefully--telling herself, in a little whisper
deep down in her heart, that the days of loneliness were over; that a
friend had come to her at last, with the breath of the old days about

"And what are you doing, Charlie?" she asked at last.

"Oh, I'm studying medicine," he replied, with a grimace. "It was always
a whim of dad's to make a doctor of me; and I hate it. It isn't what I
was cut out for somehow; it's beastly work. Besides, when I'd finished
boyhood I thought I'd left books behind; and here I am grinding away at
them harder than ever, and trying for examinations--and--and failing,"
he added ruefully.

"Oh, Charlie!" The dark eyes regarded him not unkindly, but still with
some reproach in their depths. And yet in a sense it was like Charlie to
fail, and to laugh at the failure.

"Yes, it's true," he went on. "There seem to be so many things to be
done in London, outside the work--such a fine gay life to be lived; so
many people calling me here or calling me there--jolly fellows everyone.
No day is long enough for all that one can crowd into it; and then the
next day comes, and the work hasn't been done. But I won't talk about
that to-night; there's so much else that's pleasanter to talk about.
What have you been doing, the pair of you, all this time? How have you
been living?"

"Our lives have been quiet ones," said Patience, a little stiffly. "I am
living the life I hoped to live years ago; a life of comfort and of--of

Charlie glanced at the girl quickly; then back again to the old woman.
"And Moira?" he asked, "what has Moira been doing?"

"Living here--quietly," replied the girl, with a half smile at him.

"And being a bit dull, I'll be bound," he exclaimed, getting up and
looking about the room impatiently. "But to-night you shan't be dull;
to-night you shall taste what London is; I'll look after you."

Patience had risen swiftly to her feet; she seemed in that small room to
set herself against the door, as though she would keep the girl back--as
though she would keep out the roar of the great London that was calling
to Moira. "She can't go!" she breathed, looking from one to the other of
the eager faces.

"Can't she? Why not?" demanded Charlie, with his bright laugh. "Do you
think anyone will steal her? I'll look after her; we'll go and have a
little quiet dinner somewhere, and then--well, then we'll see things

"She can't go," breathed Patience again, but in a feebler tone. "Leave
her with me."

"Don't be silly, Patience; I'll bring her back safely. Why, I know every
inch of this London you're so much afraid of," he went on; "I've
explored places that would make you shudder even to hear about. Moira,
get ready; to-night you belong to me and to me only."

Moira slipped out of the room, after hesitating for but a moment; then
Patience faced the young man with a whispered question. "Where are you
going to take her?" she demanded.

"The Lord only knows!" exclaimed Charlie, with a laugh. "If you're so
much afraid, why don't you come yourself? Put on your bonnet, Patience,
and we'll make a night of it; and you shall wear your bonnet sideways by
the time you come back, I'll warrant!"

"I'll stay here," she replied. "Only remember"--she held up a warning
finger, and glanced at the door--"remember that she knows nothing of
this horrible city; remember that she will look on it with the eyes of a

"I won't open her eyes," said Charlie, with a laugh that was half
subdued. "Don't you worry about nothing; give her a latchkey, and don't
wait up."

"I'll wait up," replied Patience grimly.

Moira came in with her eyes glowing, and her fingers fumbling over the
button of a shabby glove. Charlie took possession of the hand and the
glove, and buttoned it in a desperate hurry and yet with some skill.

"We'll find a cab--(ever been in a cab, Moira?)--and we'll drive down
town, and have a cosy little dinner. I think I've got money enough for
that; if I haven't, I know a place where they'll trust me. I once lived
a whole week on tick there. And after that--well--the night will be
young--and London waiting for us! Come along!"

Moira went back at the last moment, and bent over the old woman, and
kissed her. "I shan't really be late," she whispered; and wondered why
Patience held to her for a moment with a clutching hand before letting
her go. The last sight she had of Patience was as she looked back from
the doorway; the old woman had sunk down in the chair, with her elbows
on her knees, and was staring at the fire.

Outside the house the misty rain was still falling, and the wind was
still coming in bursts down the little narrow street. But Moira was no
longer tired nor hopeless; she would have laughed at a downpour. She
eagerly slipped her hand into the crook of his elbow; they went gaily
down the street together. At the end was a waiting cab--waiting because
the driver had seen two young people hurrying along, laughing on such a
night, and so was pretty sure of a fare. Charlie helped her in, and got
in after her; gave the man an address; they were off. Bright-eyed Moira
glanced round at the young man as she snuggled into her corner of the
cab; laughed as the glass was let down in front of them. "It _is_
comfortable," she said.

"Poor old girl!" he murmured under his breath, with a new note of
gravity in his tone. "Why have you let her hide you away like that all
this time? And fancy being so delighted over a cab ride! You seem to
have plenty of money, according to what Patience wrote in a letter to
the Baffalls."

"That wasn't quite true," replied the girl; "it was only a matter of
pride. Patience thought people might believe that she was poor; she
exaggerated a little."

"And the house?--the house that was larger than you wanted?" he asked,
with a whimsical look in his eyes.

She shook her head. "It isn't our house at all; we've only got a few
furnished rooms at the top of it," she replied.

"And I was thinking of coming to live with you!" he cried, with a laugh.

"Oh, Charlie!" She seized his arm, and looked round eagerly into his
face. "If you only would!"

"Why--would it mean so much to you?" he asked, in a tone half of pity,
half of tenderness. "I don't suppose they'd find room for me."

"It might be managed; oh, I'm sure it might be managed!" she whispered.
"And you could work there--and I--we could see you often--every day."

He had no understanding of her real meaning; no knowledge of the
desperate loneliness that spoke innocently in her voice and in her eyes;
shallow himself, he was only vaguely flattered at her desire to see him,
at her happiness in meeting him again. After all, this was something of
a new sensation; this snatching up of someone out of the darkness in
which she had lain hidden; this showing to her all the wonders of a
world of which he had grown a little tired. He promised himself some
entertainment out of it; felt that under all the circumstances he was
doing rather a good and a kindly thing.

"Well, even if I don't find a room there, we must manage to see a lot of
each other, Moira," he said. "You must be heartily sick of spending all
your time with old Patience; I should think you must yawn your heads off
every night. Or do you go out at all, as she seemed to suggest?"

"We do not go out; I've only been out once--to enjoy myself, I mean--and
that was to the opera. That was wonderful!"

"Oh, there are better things than the opera, my dear," he said, with a
laugh. "The opera's dull and stupid compared to other things you shall
see. But here we are at my restaurant; and here you shall taste the
first of your new joys. Wait till he pulls the glass up."

It was extraordinary how well Charlie seemed to be known. A smiling man,
with a stiff hand to the peak of his cap, held open the door for them;
another smiling man, rotund of body, was discovered bowing within the
doors, and preceded them to a table in a corner; hoped that the
gentleman was well, and issued sharp orders in a foreign tongue to the
flying waiters. Charlie took it all as a mere matter of course; had a
word or two to say about the menu, and the changing of a particular
dish; and then sank down at the other side of the table. Truly a new
experience to look into the dark eyes of this girl, and to see how she
sat in this very ordinary restaurant with her lips parted, looking about
her, and enjoying every moment of the time, even while she waited for
dinner. And she was such a striking looking girl, too, he thought
critically, with that black hair and those dark eyes set in her white
face. No one need quarrel with him for bringing out such a girl as this;
there was something attractive, in a fashion, about her very shabbiness;
it gave an air to her.

She ate sparingly; there was so much to be seen--so much to which to
listen. People coming and going--hurrying or taking this matter of
dining easily; and beyond the doors the brightly lighted street, and all
the hum and noise of a London that was making night holiday. And
opposite her--here familiarly, with his eyes smiling into hers--Charlie
of the pleasant smile and the pleasant voice; Charlie who had known her
in the old days that his very presence recalled with a pang, and yet
with a dear remembrance.

It is probable that had it been anyone else out of that old familiar
life--anyone else as joyous and as glad to meet her--it would have been
the same; he would have been as certain of a welcome. But it happened
that Charlie was the first; and Charlie had that exquisite
quality--exquisite for that time at least--that he knew how to laugh,
and had found a trick of being light-hearted. The world and all it held
was as much a great game to him as she had once believed it might be for
her; gladly and eagerly, like a child who is taught some pleasant lesson
that has less of task than of sport about it, she listened to him, and
was glad to learn anything he could teach her.

He whispered whimsical surmises as to the characters of the people at
the adjoining tables; set her bubbling with laughter at a humorous
suggestion as to what would happen if anyone there should feel compelled
to rise and give an account of himself or herself.

"You would have to confess that you had never been in a restaurant
before," he whispered across the table. "How they'd stare at you!"

"So that _you_ don't laugh at me, I don't mind," she replied. "I think I
could sit here for ever--just looking at the people--and wondering about
them; I don't want it ever to leave off."

He asked her if he might smoke; she nodded gravely, and smiled. He might
have been surprised had he known what the savour of the smoke in her
nostrils meant to her; how it breathed in a vague way of Old Paul and
his pipe on far-off evenings, and of a thousand things for which she had
longed. Then at last the time came for him to pay the reckoning, and
for them both to go. She rose with something of a sigh; but all was not
over yet.

As they came out of the place, he took her by the elbow and turned her
sharply off down the street; dodged with her carefully and yet
laughingly through a press of traffic; and stopped with her before the
doors of a brilliantly lighted building, outside which hung posters and
photographs of all shapes and sizes and sorts. Before she had time to
utter a word he had hurried her inside, and had stopped at a little
ticket office, from out of which a man looked at him; then had put down
money, and had taken up two printed slips. Only then, when he stood
before her looking at the numbers on the slips, did she venture a

"What place is this? You know I ought--I really ought to be going home."

"We shan't stay half an hour if you don't like it," he replied lightly.
"I told you we were going to see life to-night; this is Bohemia, Moira,
though with rather a small 'b,' I'm afraid. There's nothing to be afraid

They went down carpeted stairs, and in a moment Moira found herself
sinking back luxuriously into a cushioned seat, with Charlie beside her.
For a moment, a little bewildered and a little frightened, she looked
about her with the air of one who had dropped into new and strange
surroundings by the merest chance. Someone was singing on the stage; and
voices up above had taken up the refrain of the song raucously and
altogether out of tune; as the song ceased, she heard shrill whistlings
and shouts and the clapping of hands.

"You'll hear something better than this presently," Charlie murmured in
her ear; and she woke with a start, and tried to concentrate her
thoughts on what was passing on the stage.

Charlie was still smoking; indeed, most of the men round about in the
other seats were doing the same. Moira became aware, after a moment or
two, that a fat heavy man a seat or two removed from her had leaned
forward, and was staring at her; she averted her eyes, and glanced round
towards Charlie. For his part, that young man was so engrossed with what
was passing on the stage that he had removed his cigar from a mouth that
was wide open, while his eyes were crinkled up in laughter. On the stage
a diminutive man was hopping about with eccentric gestures, sparring at
nothing, and occasionally holding a one-sided sort of interview with the
conductor of the orchestra; yet he must have been funny, or why was
Charlie so convulsed, and why were the other faces at which the girl
glanced timidly, addressed to the stage and convulsed also. Moira
decided that there must be something missing in her; the better to
please Charlie, she made a feint of laughing also.

After a time it was obvious that Charlie tired a little of the
performance; once or twice he glanced at the girl, as though on the
point of suggesting that they should go, and yet, in his good nature,
unwilling to cut short her pleasure. At last, however, he leaned towards
her, and whispered:

"Tired of it?"

"There's rather a lot, Charlie--for all at once," she whispered; and the
next moment, taking her at her word, he was walking out of the place
with her.

"You mustn't have too much Bohemia all at once, miss," said Charlie,
beckoning to a hansom. "You won't sleep after this. We'll take our
London in doses, and you shall learn as much of it as you like to learn.
Now for home--and Patience--and perhaps a lecture."

They drove home in comparative silence. More than once it was in her
mind to say something to him in the way of thanks--to tell him what a
night this had been in her life. But she checked herself, partly from
shyness, partly because, although this was the Charlie of old days,
there was yet the difference between the boy who had known nothing and
the man who had learned so much. Only when they got out of the cab, and
stood together for a moment at the door of the little house in Locker
Street, did she put out her hand to him, and murmur a word of thanks.

"Thank you, Charlie," she whispered. "It has been wonderful. The
beautiful dinner--and the lights and the music----. Thank you."

They heard the steps of the old woman in the house, coming down the last
few stairs, and approaching the door. For a moment, as Charlie held her
hand, and saw the flushed, grateful face before him, he drew that hand
towards him, and bent his head to her; she, puzzled a little, drew back.
If he had meant to kiss her he repented of the thought, or decided that
the time was not yet; he laughed, and shook the hand, and the next
moment had jumped into the cab, and was away. And the dark house
swallowed her up.

Patience said nothing while the girl chattered on lightly about all that
had happened, and about how kind Charlie had been, and how good-natured;
Patience merely looked at her from under brooding brows, and made the
simple preparations for bed. But an hour or two afterwards the old woman
stole softly into the room where the girl lay asleep; shading the
candle, she looked down and saw that Moira's face, even in sleep, was
smiling, and that there was a flush upon it.

In just such a fashion, had the girl but known it, the old woman had
looked down at her often and often while she slept; for only at that
time, when Moira lay unconscious, could the deep, strong love of the
woman flash out of her eyes, and set itself in the firm lines of the
mouth, without the possibility of betrayal. Now, as she looked down at
the face, she saw upon it that smile it had not worn before; knew what
had come into the girl's life, and vaguely dreaded it. She went softly
from the room, and closed the door; outside, she looked at the candle
flame, and shook her head.

"She's slipping from me--she's slipping from me," she whispered.

Meanwhile Charlie had gone home--thinking, in his own careless fashion
as he went, what a queer evening it had been, and what queer company he
had kept. It would be untrue to say that Moira had made any impression
upon him, in an active sense; it simply happened that, in his own
careless, good-natured fashion, he was sorry for her, and thought it a
shame that she should have been kept away from all the good things of
life so long. He remembered that she had grown prettier even than he
should have thought possible; had noted with approval that there was an
air of grace and refinement about her which he rather liked. He would
see her again--and that soon.

Charlie got out of his cab, and climbed the stairs to his rooms.
Reaching the top stair in the semi-darkness, he stumbled over someone
sitting there--someone asleep by the startled sounds he made as he got
up. Charlie saw that it was an old man, who, in the confusion of the
moment, had pulled off his hat, and was bowing and scraping before the
younger one.

"Who are you?" asked Charlie, staring at him.

"I think you will remember me, Mr. Purdue," replied the quavering voice,
"although it is years since we met. You were a child then--and I had
the felicity of calling you by your Christian name. Years have gone by,
and while fortune has raised you--(as I am sure you must deserve)--to a
position of affluence--it has seen fit to cast me down, and in a sense,
to trample upon me. But I thought that if I might----"

By that time Charlie had got the door open, and had gone in and turned
up the gas. Facing about there, he saw that the old man had come into
the doorway, and was standing watching him; and then in a moment,
somewhat ruefully, Charlie recognised him.

"Why--it's old Ditchburn----. I beg your pardon; I should have said Mr.
Ditchburn. Come in. How did you find me out?"

Anthony Ditchburn came into the room humbly, and looked about with the
air of one who was sizing things up, with a view to the value, in a
pecuniary sense, of the man who lived there. "Your esteemed father was
so good as to suggest that I might call and see you," he said.

"Very kind of my esteemed father," said Charlie, looking at the old man
doubtfully. "Would you mind shutting the door; then you can come in and

Anthony Ditchburn, nothing loth, closed the door with alacrity, and came
into the room. Charlie saw how ragged and unkempt the man was; noted in
a quick glance all the little devices of poverty for the saving of his
dress and the covering of worn seams and threads; he mentally decided
that Mr. Ditchburn would probably endeavour to "touch him" for something
before he departed.

"My dear young friend," began Anthony, in that querulous, whining tone
he had learned to adopt, "I am indeed glad to look upon your face again.
The world has gone hardly with me; it may astonish you to know that I
have not at times had sufficient to eat. I wrote to your dear father,
and he was so good as to send me a little temporary assistance--merely
as a loan, of course."

"Look here," broke in Charlie, hurriedly, "if you're thinking of that
sort of thing, I may tell you at once that it's no good. I wouldn't hurt
your feelings for the world--but I have a devil of a fight to get along
on my small allowance; because, you see, a man of my age wants
enjoyment--must have it, in fact."

Mr. Ditchburn drew himself up somewhat haughtily; strength was his,
because he had not yet exhausted the sum sent him by the Rev. Temple
Purdue. "I do not come here to beg," he said; "this is merely a friendly

"That's all right," said Charlie, with an abashed laugh. "But it's just
as well to have a clear understanding at the beginning--isn't it? Will
you have a drink?"

"I will swallow my pride, young sir--and I will take refreshment with
you," said Mr. Ditchburn solemnly.

"You needn't--if it hurts you at all," retorted Charlie, as he opened a
cupboard and took out bottles and glasses. "Help yourself."

Mr. Ditchburn helped himself liberally, and sat down; Charlie,
philosophically understanding that he was in for an hour or two of the
man's company, mixed for himself, and sat down also. When he produced a
tobacco jar and a pipe Anthony's lean fingers twitched; he found from
somewhere about his soiled dress a blackened old briar pipe, and
ostentatiously blew through it to show that it was empty. Charlie pushed
the tobacco across the table.

"I doubt if I shall like your mixture," said Anthony, fingering it, "but
tobacco in any form appeals to me." He filled the pipe, and lighted it,
and sucked at it meditatively.

During the next hour or so he mumbled over the pipe--removing it
occasionally from between his teeth to utter some scathing criticism of
the world and the world's methods--methods by which he had suffered.
Charlie nodded fast to slumber, but woke himself now and then with a
jerk, to answer vaguely some question that had been put to him fiercely
by the old man. At last, as it grew on to one o'clock in the morning,
and Anthony Ditchburn, having mixed himself many doses, and having also
dug deep into the tobacco jar, was stretching out more comfortably in
his chair, Charlie rose to his feet, and yawned, and looked despairingly
at the clock.

"I'm very sorry," he said, "but I've got a lecture in the morning, and
I've got to turn out early. I'm dead tired; I shall go to bed."

"Don't let me detain you," said Mr. Ditchburn, a little thickly.

Charlie stared at him in perplexity. "Yes, but--I can't very well leave
you here; it isn't--isn't exactly polite," he said.

"Do not waste politeness on me," retorted Anthony, wagging his head at
the fire, which had died down almost to nothing. "I am not used to it.
If you insist upon my leaving you, I shall in all probability be
discovered in a comatose state in the streets by some benevolent
policeman; it is too far for me to walk to my humble lodging
to-night--and cabs I cannot afford. Surely I am doing no harm in
remaining here?" he added, stretching out his hand, and looking round at
the young man. "Let me at least remain where I am warm; I can sleep
anywhere. This chair is very comfortable--and I can reach the coal to
replenish the fire without moving. Good-night!"

Charlie would have removed the decanter with the remaining whisky in it
before going, but at the very moment that he stretched out a hand for
it Anthony Ditchburn also reached out towards it to replenish his glass.
Charlie good-humouredly shrugged his shoulders, and went to bed.

In the morning, when he came out to his breakfast, he discovered the
decanter empty, and the room thick with the fumes of stale tobacco;
Anthony had apparently been smoking and drinking all night. He blinked
red eyes at Charlie, and smacked his dry lips, and watched the
preparations for breakfast; he looked more shabby and unkempt than ever
in the morning light. He sat down unbidden with his unwilling host; ate
substantially, and had almost to be turned out of the place by force at
last. But he went finally, and Charlie congratulated himself on the fact
that he had got rid of him.

He had yet to learn that Anthony Ditchburn could stick like the
proverbial leech, and could bleed his victim as voraciously. He came
again and again; was to be found, miserably cold, upon the stairs at
unseasonable hours; even when sent away he left behind him the whining
threat that he would be found dead in the street, and that his blood
would be upon the head of Charlie Purdue. The persecution became so
great at last that it roused Charlie to do that which he had been
half-shamefacedly contemplating for some time. So that in the end it may
be said that this miserable whining creature, with his tales of wrongs
done him, and benefits withheld, became in a sense the pivot round which
the tragedy was to revolve.

Charlie came up one evening to the lamp-lit room where Moira and
Patience were seated; he was bubbling over with excitement and
suppressed laughter. As he came in Moira noted something about him, and
spoke of it at once.

"Why, Charlie--where's your hat?" she asked.

Charlie chuckled. "It's downstairs," he said.

The two women, young and old, turned to look at him; Moira breathlessly
repeated the word. "Downstairs?"

"Yes; I thought I should surprise you," exclaimed Charlie. "I've taken
the two empty rooms below; father's been hammering it into me ever so
long--thought the other place wasn't respectable. I did it quietly, so
as to surprise you; I moved in my books and things this afternoon. Now
you'll have to look after me, Moira, and see that I work."

They were silent; Moira had stolen a glance at Patience, and was
striving perhaps to hide the feeling of exultation that made her heart
beat faster, and brought a flush to her pale face. There had swept over
her the thought that Charlie would be in this very house--cheerful,
light-hearted, happy-go-lucky Charlie; that he could run upstairs at any
moment--that she could go down to him! No longer would she be tied to
these rooms, with Patience for company; half the house would be
practically hers, because Charlie lived below.

"I don't know as you'll find it comfortable," said Patience, after a
somewhat awkward pause. "We're very quiet people here."

"That'll just suit me," said Charlie, with a grin. "You don't know how
quiet I can be when I try. Well, Moira"--he turned towards the girl a
little anxiously--"aren't you glad?"

"Yes--I'm very glad," she replied, afraid almost to think how glad she

For the first few evenings, at least, Charlie brought his books
upstairs; and that was delightful. Simply to have him there at the end
of the table, and to hear him muttering weird words to himself when he
couldn't quite understand anything; to see him puffing at his pipe (for
Patience, after a feeble protest, had given in, and now merely sniffed
ominously from time to time), all this was as it should be. Once or
twice, too, Moira went down to his rooms, saw the wonderful array of
books and pipes, and wondered and admired. The house was completely
changed with his coming, and could never be the same again.

He was sitting one evening yawning over his books, and now and then
glancing up at the pleasant figure of Moira at the other side of the
table, when he raised his head, and sat still, listening; someone was
coming up the stairs. That was strange at that hour of the evening; it
must be a visitor who had been directed to come up by the landlady.
Patience was nodding in her chair as usual; the two young people
whispered eagerly, as they listened to the somewhat stumbling steps upon
the stairs.

"I wonder who it can be?" whispered Charlie. "I expect it's someone for
me--and they've come up----"

The words died on his lips as the door opened behind him and a head was
thrust in. Charlie had turned, and Moira had risen to her feet; the head
at which they both looked was the ragged and unkempt one of Anthony
Ditchburn. Charlie uttered a groan, and sank back in his chair.

"Ah!--glad to find you at last," said Mr. Ditchburn, cheerfully. "I went
to your old lodgings, and they gave me your new address; you forgot to
send it to me--or to write to me." By this time he was actually in the
room, and was looking round benevolently on the others without in the
least recognising them.

"Now, look here, Ditchburn," exclaimed Charlie, rising to his feet,
"this is getting really a little too thick. I've got work to do--and
I've really moved----"

Moira put him aside quickly, and advanced to the old man. "Mr.
Ditchburn!" she exclaimed, in a surprised voice. "Why, of course--I knew
you at once."

Anthony looked somewhat astonished, but, scenting here a new ally, took
her hand, and smiled in triumph at Charlie. "Another friend!" he said,
"although I do not at the moment recall the lady's name. My eyes are not
what they were; privation and sorrow, and much poring over books----"

"You remember me?--Moira?" she said quickly.

He had to search his mind for a moment or two before he remembered; in
his old selfish days he had not troubled much about the children or
their names. But perhaps the presence of Charlie jogged his memory; he
seized the girl's hands, and beamed upon her. "Little Moira!" he
exclaimed. "This is delightful!"

Patience had by this time got to her feet; he recognised her more
promptly, probably from the fact that in the old days she had been the
one to feed him and look to his comforts.

"What a reunion!" he exclaimed, sitting unbidden in the sacred seat of
Patience, and stretching out his hands to the fire. "After all these
years--to come again into the midst of a circle of which I was once a
welcome and a happy member! Dear!--Dear!--how wonderful!"

"He's an old humbug!" whispered Charlie to Moira.

"Hush!--he's poor--and he's old; the world hasn't treated him well
perhaps," she whispered gently.

"And that reminds me," exclaimed Ditchburn, looking round at them with a
smile, and beginning to fumble in his pockets. "I met a man
to-day--another friend--now, where did I put that paper?--one who was
with us in the old days. Is there anyone here who remembers Jimmy--Jimmy

Moira and Charlie cried out at once; looked at each other quickly.
"You've found Jimmy?" they exclaimed in a breath.

"Yes. I was in a place of which I don't suppose you know anything--the
reading-room of the British Museum; only persons of some culture can
gain admittance there, I am given to understand; and a man came up to
me, and spoke my name. I imagined at first it must be someone who had
heard of me, or of my work; fame travels, you know. Then I looked at him
more closely, and there was something familiar--strangely familiar, I
may say----"

"Yes--yes--it was Jimmy!" exclaimed Moira.

"It was Jimmy!" exclaimed Anthony, letting them into the secret with a
burst. "I don't know how he's living exactly, but he's got a sort of
idea that he can write. He gave me this--I presume as a specimen; it
contains a rather foolish piece of fiction from his pen. Curious how one
with no particular learning or experience will attempt these things," he
added, spreading out the paper on his knee, and searching among its
pages. "I never heard that Jimmy had been to a university, or was even
moderately acquainted with the classics. I haven't attempted to read it
myself, except for the opening sentences."

Moira had eagerly snatched the paper from him; with a glowing face she
held it out, so that Charlie might look over her shoulder. For there was
the thing in print; there were the wonderful words--"By James Larrance,"
underneath the title. And then a name caught the eyes of the girl, and
she gasped, and looked quickly at Charlie.

"He's called one of his girls 'Moira,'" said Charlie, with a laugh. "So
he hasn't forgotten you."

"Of course not," said Moira, scanning the paper eagerly. She turned to
Ditchburn, quickly. "Do you know where he is?--where he lives?"

"I can find him easily enough," said the old man. "I will certainly
bring him to see you," he added.

"And then"--Moira was looking at the paper she held, but was not
reading the lines--"then we shall all be together again--just as in the
old days!"

Anthony Ditchburn looked into the fire, and smiled. Perhaps he
understood the difference; perhaps he knew that never could they be
together again as in the old days--never any more.



When it came to an actual matter of finding Jimmy, that young man proved
difficult. Anthony Ditchburn went out full of confidence, but returned
dejected--returned, let it be said, at a time when a meal might be
expected to be spread in that top floor in Locker Street, Chelsea; he
required some pressing to stay, but asked a blessing in somewhat choice
Latin. Patience felt, in regard to this latter, that it might be pagan,
but sounded genteel.

"I have hunted high and low," said Mr. Ditchburn, sinking into a chair
wearily and combing his ragged beard with his fingers. "First to the
museum, where I had a good look round in all directions, but failed to
find him; next, a weary tramp to Fleet Street, where I am told these
struggling ones are sometimes to be discovered. But though I went to the
very office of the paper, they declined to give me any information; I
might even say that they looked upon me with suspicion."

This was not altogether to be wondered at perhaps, seeing that Anthony
Ditchburn, with tears in his eyes, had endeavoured to borrow
half-a-crown at that office, on the strength of a supposed friendship
with Mr. James Larrance, which had lasted for many years; and had been
repulsed coldly.

"They live in holes and corners, these writing people, I've heard,"
murmured Patience, with a shake of the head. "No getting up at regular
hours; no going to bed at regular ones either. And as to meals----"
Patience raised her hands and closed her eyes at the mere horror of it.

"The ease of the thing surprises me," said Mr. Ditchburn presently, as
he sat at the table eating ravenously. "A mere boy like this gets his
name into print (I actually saw his name on a placard outside a paper
shop this very afternoon) with no more qualifications than"--he looked
round in search of a simile--"than you have. No grounding in the

"Jimmy was always clever--and--and poetical," said Moira.

"There are others who are clever--also poetical," snapped Anthony; "yet
they fail to obtain a hearing. Bah! it's the spread of cheap and popular
education; every young jackanapes who can spell c-a-t--cat, d-o-g--dog,
thinks he has a right to give his views to the public. It's a horrible
state of things--and won't be mended in my time, I fear."

"But I've heard that it's difficult--very difficult indeed--to get a
hearing--to persuade editors that you can write," urged Moira.

"Stuff and fiddlesticks!" exclaimed the old man. "You've only got to
knuckle down to 'em--to pander to a public that doesn't know what it
wants. _I've_ always refused to do that--and you see the result. I would
rather starve."

Still on that mission to find Jimmy, Anthony Ditchburn haunted likely
spots for a day or two, but with no success. He came in to report his
want of progress each day, and each day came at the same time; moreover,
he stayed, and smoked as late or later than they would have him. When he
had gone on the last occasion, Moira hit upon a simpler plan to find her
old friend, and adopted it. She wrote to him at the office of that
paper Anthony Ditchburn had brought--wrote a little tender, girlish,
friendly note, that should strike at once at Jimmy's heart. For the
wonder of it was that Jimmy was not like an ordinary person at all; he
could be found in this great world of London through the actual medium
of the printed press.

There came a letter back to her in a surprisingly short space of time.
It was headed with the address of the house in that little court off
Holborn; was written in a scrawl that was almost boyish, and seemed to
speak as Jimmy might have spoken.


     "Yes, of course I am 'your own special Jimmy' as you delightfully
     phrase it; and of course I am delighted to hear about you. We
     mustn't lose sight of each other again--and you must come soon and
     see me. What a lot we shall have to talk about! Your note doesn't
     say very much about you, or what you are doing; it seems strange to
     think you must be grown a woman. I shall have a lot to tell you
     when we meet; thanks for all the nice things you say about my work.

     "Ever yours,


That was sufficiently wonderful; in that at least she had triumphed over
them all; she had found Jimmy. Had she looked a little deeper into the
letter she might have read that note of hesitation in it; that half
suggestion that they were to meet at some future time, and not now, in
the first flush of their finding each other. But she did not think of
that; she saw only that Jimmy--Jimmy who was already in her eyes great
and famous--was near at hand, and wanted to see her. She would go to him
without delay.

In that, as may be guessed, was something of the old passionate, jealous
Moira, eager to be the first with all with whom she came in
contact--eager to stand first in their hearts. She had found Jimmy; she
would be the first to drag him out into the light of day, and to show
her friends how she had triumphed. She would take Jimmy by the hand and
draw him again amongst them all. She set off on the very morning of the
day that had brought her the letter.

There was a curious feeling of hesitation about her; she was half afraid
of this man who had grown into something so different from what might
have been anticipated. Jimmy poor and unknown; Jimmy in a warehouse,
labouring among ordinary men and boys; that was a Jimmy to be taken
frankly by the hand as a comrade in the struggle in this great world of
London. But Jimmy famous; Jimmy in print, to be read and admired by the
million; that was a Jimmy to be approached with care and hesitation.
True, genius appeared to be but indifferently housed, she thought, as
she climbed the dark stairs to his room; but then genius was
proverbially careless in such matters.

We may leap ahead of Moira's hesitating steps, and open the door for
ourselves, and discover Jimmy. Jimmy in a somewhat despondent mood,
having a dull aching wonder in his heart as to whether after all this
game of writing was worth the candle; a little momentary feeling of envy
for those who plodded the ways to offices that held certain salaries for
them at the end of each carefully mapped-out week. For Jimmy had had two
rebuffs that week; there was the evidence of them in packets at his
elbow at that very moment. And beside the packets a certain red-covered
book, that had haunted him long, and over which there had been a storm
that very morning. For the wheezy dame who looked after him had
delivered an ultimatum, and had snapped her fingers at Jimmy's
suggestion that there was certainly money coming to him in the near
future. Jimmy had pulled out periodicals, and had held before her
undazzled eyes stories by himself, with his very name attached to them,
but unpaid for; the good woman had merely retorted that she "couldn't
abide readin' of any sort, an' didn't mean to begin at her time of

Therefore, Jimmy had no prospect of lunch; which might not have been a
serious matter had there been any prospect of dinner, or, after that,
any prospect of a bed. As the wheezy dame before mentioned had taken it
into her head, the better to revive his drooping spirits, to come back
into the room at intervals, and to launch at him further suggestions
regarding the impropriety of his conduct in general, and the
advisability of his earning an honest living at the earliest possible
moment in particular, Jimmy had had a stormy morning, and was not in the
best mood for visitors. Therefore, when, after a preliminary tap at the
door, urgently repeated, the door was opened, and he heard the swish of
skirts, Jimmy, without looking round, saluted his visitor.

"Now, my good lady--I can't do impossibilities--but I should like to do
my work. You shall be paid in time; there's three guineas due to me this
morning, and you shall be settled with to the uttermost farthing. If
you'd read more yourself, and encourage your friends to do so, it might
push up the circulation of some of the papers a bit, and I should get
the money sooner. Please don't leave the door open; there's a frightful

Finding that the door was not closed, and finding, also, something to
his astonishment, that no fresh outburst came from the direction of the
doorway, Jimmy turned round. Turned round, to find this tall,
white-faced, wistful-looking girl, with hands strangely outstretched to
him, and a smile parting and fluttering her lips. He fell back in

"Jimmy! You know me, Jimmy--you haven't forgotten?"

He went towards her blindly, with his eyes fixed upon hers; he seemed to
grope for her hands. Perhaps, of all times in his life, he wanted her
most then; perhaps, above all things, he was glad, in an indefinite
unconscious way, to find that she seemed to be poor and shabby, and
perhaps a little thin and hungry too. That was as it should be; he could
not quite have borne anything else then.

He took her hands and held them; the two of them laughed shyly at each
other, swaying towards each other for a moment, and swaying away again.
And then the eager words found vent.

"Moira--dear old Moira!"

"Jimmy--oh, Jimmy!"

He shut the door, and drew her across to a chair by the fire, and looked
long at her. He stirred the fire, simply to have some occupation for his
hands; looked up at her with a half smile. She, for her part, found that
a new hesitation had come upon her--a new reluctance into her speech.
For though this was no genius of a Jimmy, to be held in reverence and
awe and worship, still, this was a Jimmy grown up, with a deeper voice,
and with the responsibilities of life upon him. The only blessed thought
in her mind, as it had been a blessed thought in his, was that he, too,
was poor and shabby--perhaps even a little in trouble.

They laughed at each other softly--a little sentimentally and foolishly,
if the truth be told, because there was so much to be said that each was
looking for a beginning. The years had gone by for each of them, and
had given each of them, in a sense, a new experience of the world, and
yet a small experience at the best. So that, although it was the old
Jimmy and the old Moira who looked into each other's eyes in this poor
room, it was yet a new Jimmy and a new Moira, with much to be learned
and much to be forgotten. The child who had romped and wandered with him
through sunny days was left far behind; this woman who smiled with the
eyes of the old Moira was a something different, with which he had to
get acquainted.

"Everyone's been trying to find you," she said at last, laughing
nervously. "Now that you're such an important person, we've all been
anxious to hear about you--to know what you were doing. Jimmy"--she
leaned down towards him where he knelt before the refractory fire--"why
didn't you try to find us?"

He got up from his knees, and stood a little shamefacedly beside his
desk, turning over papers on it. "Well, you see," he began at last, "I
had a notion I wanted to do something in the world--to be great--and all
that sort of thing; then I think I meant to spring in upon you all--and
surprise you."

He finished rather lamely, but the eyes into which he looked were
tender, and he laughed more easily. "You see, I've had a bit of a
struggle," he said. "Before a man does anything in this sort of
profession, he's got to be prepared to live on dry bread almost----"

"But not now, Jimmy," she broke in hurriedly. "All that is done with."

"Practically," said Jimmy, jingling some coppers in his pockets, and
swallowing with some difficulty. "Still, it's a good thing to look back
upon; to remember the days when you didn't have all you wanted--and--and
so forth."

"You must have been very brave, Jimmy," she said in wonderment.

"I had to be," he retorted.

At that moment a curious bumping sound was audible from the landing;
then the door was thrust open without ceremony. In the doorway was
framed, as a picture of Bohemia for the eyes of Moira, the figure of the
landlady--a supercilious landlady, and no respecter of persons. She
struck an attitude as she came into the room, and looked about her
contemptuously; had a particular eye for Moira.

"Ho!" she exclaimed, with a sniff. "So we entertains, do we? Not content
with robbin' honest people of what's their doo, an' snatchin' the very
bread from the mouths of the widow an' such like, we brings our young
ladies, if you please, an' sits 'em down by our fires, an' what not. An'
it's cheques we're goin' to 'ave the very next time the postman walks
in; an' I wouldn't be a bit surprised if we don't 'ave champagne wine
for our lunches. Oh, it's a nice world for them as is brazen enough to
'old their 'eads 'igh, an' mock the pore an' the 'elpless!"

Jimmy, with a burning face, crossed the room to her, and endeavoured to
control her. "My good woman--I've already told you that you shall have
your money to-day; I'm a little pressed, but it isn't my fault. Don't
make a scene, I implore you, before this lady." All this earnestly, and
with backward glances towards the girl.

"Ho, yes--I dare say!" exclaimed the woman. "Nobody mustn't be put out a
bit while this 'ere robbery goes on--nor must we breathe a word that
might be over'eard by anyone as doubtless calls theirselves most
superior. 'Owever, young man"--she raised her voice for the benefit of
Moira--"it's come to this 'ere with me; that money I will 'ave--an' this
very day. I might've known, by the very look of yer, w'en you first come
'ere, that I was doin' a silly thing to let you 'ave the place at
all--much less feed yer!"

She went out, slamming the door; Jimmy turned towards Moira. Something
to his surprise, he saw that though the ready tears were in her eyes,
she was smiling at him--smiling in something of the fashion of the old
Moira, who had been sorry for him when he had got into a scrape. He went
across to her, and stood looking down at her.

"She's a beast!" he said boyishly.

"And so you're really poor, Jimmy?" she whispered eagerly.
"Really--really hard up! That's splendid!"

"Splendid?" He looked down at her in perplexity.

"Yes. Because now that we've met again I shall be able to see all you
do--and how you fight. It would have been awful to come back to you, and
find that all the work had been done, and that I had not seen how it was
done. It's beautiful to think that now, when your name is in print, and
people are beginning to talk about you, all this goes on--this fight for
money. I could not have liked you, Jimmy, unless you had been poor--that
is, poor to begin with, of course. I shall be able to watch it all grow
up; see you making money; I shall have been in the secret of it all."

"It's a poor sort of secret," he said ruefully.

"No, it isn't," she retorted. "Don't you understand, Jimmy dear, that
being poor you're my friend in a special sense, because I'm poor too. It
seems to me that the nicest people are poor, and I shan't feel so lonely
in London now, as I should have done if I'd had to look up to you, as to
someone richer than myself. But what are you going to do about--about
her?" She jerked her head towards the door.

"Clear out, I suppose, if I can't pay up," he said. "Everything's gone
wrong lately, Moira, and everything seemed to go so right at first. I
was to have had a cheque this morning--and it hasn't come."

"Had any breakfast, Jimmy?" She spoke eagerly--wistfully--with a little
catch in her voice.

"Not--not exactly," he replied. "Not that I was hungry, you'll
understand; I never eat much before lunch----"

"Jimmy!" He looked round at her sharply, and read the reproach in her
eyes. "You're not treating me fairly," she said.

"Well--what would you have me say? That I was beastly hungry--not having
had a very liberal dinner last night--and that I dared not ask her for
any breakfast, because I owed her too much already? Would you like me to
say that?"

"To me--yes," she whispered. "Would you be hurt with me if I
offered--offered to get you some breakfast?"

"Moira!" He drew back, and looked at her with a sudden frown of

"Oh, it's only a little matter," she pleaded, "and you shall pay me back
some day--when you're rich. It's only a few coppers, Jimmy--and I should
love to do it--please!"

She saw that he was relenting; she laughed gaily, and ran out of the
room. Almost before he had done smiling foolishly at the door through
which she had vanished, she came back again, bringing parcels with her.
And then, all aglow with excitement, was down on her knees before the
fire, stirring it to activity, and laughing delightedly like a child.

"What am I to cook it in," she asked, suddenly. "I suppose you haven't a

"Oh, yes--I have," he whispered, entering suddenly and completely into
the spirit of the thing. "I keep a frying-pan and a kettle--because
sometimes at night, after she's gone to bed, and one is hungry--well,
even sausages are very comforting for supper."

"Poor Jimmy!" She whispered it to herself, with a softened look, as she
saw him go to a cupboard and open it, and with many glances towards the
door bring out a battered frying-pan, and a kettle that had also seen
better days. Also, he found a cup and saucer, and a plate or two.

Then, of course, the obvious miracle, while Jimmy stood watching
wonderingly and admiringly. In no time at all a rasher and eggs were
spluttering merrily over the fire, and the kettle was boiling, just to
add another pleasant sound to the business. She made the tea in the
kettle itself, gipsy fashion (the teapot was downstairs in charge of the
dragon, it was explained), and in a trice had it poured out, and the
eggs and bacon done to a turn, set before him. Her reward was in the
hungry fashion in which he set to work upon it.

But he paused between bites to look up at her anxiously. "You'll never
tell anyone?" he demanded.

She shook her head, and looked at him with perfect understanding. "Of
course not, Jimmy; this is something quite between ourselves. You _were_
hungry, you know," she added, looking at the empty plates. "Feel

"Rather!" he replied gratefully. "I don't know what would have happened
if you hadn't come here this morning, and done--done this!" He indicated
the hastily-arranged breakfast table as he spoke. "Now I want you to
tell me all about yourself--and what you've been doing all these years.
Do you know, Moira"--he went towards her, looking at her critically--"do
you know that you've grown a woman?"

"I'm afraid so," she said shyly. She turned her head quickly towards the
door, listening. "Hush! she's coming back again," she whispered, with a
mischievous laugh that was half a frightened one. "We'd better clear
these things away."

It was a hurried scrambling business; to tell the truth, they got
somewhat in each other's way over the work; it was a mere frantic
scurry, with whispers and soft laughter as they passed each other. But
it was done before the door was opened, and Moira was back again in her
place by the fire, and Jimmy standing looking down at her. As the door
opened, he turned somewhat coldly towards it, feeling that now he could
receive the landlady with some greater firmness for the food that was in
him; moreover, he must show Moira that he was not to be set at nought
lightly by a mere landlady.

But his eyes opened to their roundest as he saw the two men who stood in
the doorway--an old man and a young one. The old one he knew--had seen
him more than once lately; it was Anthony Ditchburn. The face of the
younger seemed familiar, but he did not at first recognise it. The
slight exclamation to which he gave vent brought Moira's head round at
once; she started to her feet.

"Charlie!" she exclaimed in surprise; and then Jimmy knew in a moment
who the second visitor was.

"Forestalled!" exclaimed Ditchburn, spreading out his hands, and looking
round upon them. "She's stolen a march upon us, after all, Charlie; and
I made so sure of being first--didn't I, Purdue?"

"How are you, Jimmy?" Charlie had come forward, and was holding out his
hand somewhat awkwardly. "Ditchburn told me he met you yesterday, and
that you told him where you lived----"

"I'd forgotten," said Jimmy. "But I'm very glad to see you. It seems
such ages since we met. Moira and I have had quite a long talk."

"There is a distinct smell of cooking," said Ditchburn, sniffing and
looking about him. "If I put a name to it, I might almost say that it
was bacon--and----"

"Quite impossible," broke in Jimmy, with a glance at the girl.

"It comes up from below," exclaimed Moira, with her eyes dancing. "I was
really the first to find him," she went on, turning to Charlie. "You
never saw anyone so surprised as he was when I came in."

"Is this where you do it all?" asked Charlie, coming across to the desk.
(Jimmy hurriedly hid the packages that had come in on that and the
previous day.) "And I suppose you grind away like one o'clock--eh?"

"Yes--the work's pretty hard at times," said Jimmy with another glance
at the girl.

"He calls it hard work!" exclaimed Anthony Ditchburn, raising his hands
and his eyes at the same moment. "This business of writing for the
popular tastes; this stringing together of words that shall catch the
vulgar ear, and bring a smile to vulgar lips; this writing of things
that can have no possible connection with the classics--or with----"

"Never mind about that," broke in Charlie, "so long as you make money by
it. That's the great thing--the making of the money. That's where
independence comes in; no having to go to fathers to beg for shillings
here or sovereigns there; there's the glorious feeling that you coin
money by your pen. Jimmy--we must see more of you. It seems funny," he
added, appealing to the others with a whimsical smile, "awfully funny to
think that Jimmy--sober quiet old Jimmy--should have blossomed out like

Anthony Ditchburn had worked his way over to where Jimmy was standing, a
little confused, against his desk; he bent his head to whisper, even
while he kept his eyes fixed on the others. "I am in the deepest
distress, old friend," he murmured, "but the loan of five shillings
would immediately relieve that distress, and would make a new man of me.
Brethren in the paths of literature--treading its hard and thorny
ways--and the one with a success which may not be perhaps
unmerited--while the other----"

"I can't manage it--just now," whispered Jimmy, with a burning face.

Mr. Ditchburn moved away, muttering something to himself not wholly
complimentary. Perhaps he felt a little relieved when Charlie burst in
with a most inopportune suggestion.

"The best thing old Jimmy can do, now that we've routed him out, is to
make a glorious occasion of it, and take us all to lunch. If I had my
watch with me," he went on ruefully, diving into his waistcoat pocket
and bringing up empty fingers, "I could tell you the time to a minute,
but I know it's near lunch time. There's a beautiful little restaurant
not a stone's throw from here, and we can celebrate the occasion with
proper joyfulness. What do you say, Jimmy?"

Jimmy might have said a great deal; instead, he glanced at Moira. The
girl, having already penetrated to the true inwardness of the situation,
endeavoured to carry the thing off with a laugh.

"I'm afraid you don't understand, Charlie," she said, "that these
celebrated writing people breakfast late. I actually caught Jimmy at his
breakfast when I came in--didn't I, Jimmy?"

"I only finished five minutes ago," said Jimmy. "I lunch--much later."

"The true meaning of hospitality, my young friend, is to see others
enjoy themselves," said Anthony Ditchburn, a little spitefully. "The
suggestion is an admirable one; we are but ordinary mortals, and you can
at all events have the satisfaction of looking on while we eat. Come,
Purdue--lead the way!"

Moira would have stepped forward, in the endeavour to save a
catastrophe--would have flung herself into the breach somehow, but it
was not necessary. Even then Providence was knocking at the door, though
in a strange shape; Jimmy had heard the knocking before the others, and
had heard it with dread. He crossed the room swiftly, and opened to the
landlady; took from her hand a letter, and, checking what she was about
to say, closed the door upon her. He came back to his desk, with a
murmured apology as he opened the letter; glanced at Moira with a
meaning look.

Inside the envelope, accompanying a brief note, was a slip of pink
paper--rather larger than the ordinary cheque, in that it had printed at
the top of it the names of many papers unknown in the larger world of
literature; it bore two signatures at the foot, and it was for the sum
of five guineas. Jimmy thrust it into his pocket, and turned with a
bright face to the others.

"It _is_ a great occasion," he said, "and we must celebrate it; we'll
certainly go to lunch. But we'll go to my own restaurant; they know me
there, and it is more comfortable. Lead the way, Charlie!"

Anthony Ditchburn and Charlie went out of the place hilariously, arm in
arm; Jimmy followed with Moira. At the door, as he paused for a moment,
she whispered to him, with a look of awe on her face:

"Does it always come in like that, Jimmy?"

He heaved a sigh--laughed a little as he looked into her eyes. "Mostly
like that," he replied; and they went down the stairs together.



Of the qualities that distinguished Charlie Purdue, and that made
somewhat for his undoing, it may be safely said that he had got but few
of them from his father. Rumour had it that Mrs. Purdue had been a
flighty, pretty girl, who had in her time driven the good man almost to
distraction, both before and after his successful wooing of her. Daisley
Cross had seen but little of her; she had died within a few months of
her first coming to the place, leaving a very small boy and a
heart-broken husband behind her. So that, in a sense, Charlie Purdue had
grown up, as has been shown, in his own fashion--ruled sternly at rare
intervals by his father, and for the most part left to his own devices.

If he inherited anything from his mother, it was perhaps that
light-hearted gaiety which refused to take the world seriously; that
eager restlessness which taught him from the beginning that he had a big
inheritance in the world itself, and that he must make the most of it.
He was of the kind that could spring from his bed each morning, with the
keen anticipation that the new day was to bring him new delights; of the
sort, too, that must ever go to bed reluctantly, because the day has
closed. To suggest for a moment that Charlie Purdue, launched suddenly
into London at the beginnings of a new profession that included men as
wild and reckless as himself, should settle down to sober work and to
nothing else, was to expect the impossible.

Charlie had told himself (and had told others) that there was time
enough for sober work later on; he wasn't going to forget his duties or
his responsibilities; but a man could only be young once, and could only
face London once in the best of health and spirits, and with the best of
friends about him. That old Sobersides, his father, did not know what
life meant; besides that, Mr. Purdue's profession debarred him from
those delights which were open to his son. Which, perhaps, accounted for
the Rev. Temple Purdue's letters to his boy in London.

Those letters were for the most part in response to
hurriedly-affectionate letters begging for money. Charlie had begun
honestly enough, by pointing out how much money was required in this big
world in which he lived, and how quickly the money he had went; there
had come mild remonstrances from the father to the son, begging that he
would be careful, and would remember that his father, though possessing
some private means and a living, was not a wealthy man. Charlie, seeing
only the money, had scanned the letters hurriedly, on the chance of
news, and had allowed the advice to remain practically unread. Then,
when the necessity arose again for money, he had carefully tapped the
same source, and with the same result.

But the time came when the father grew suspicious; came to London on the
impulse, and sought out his son. He failed to find him at his lodgings,
and was, somewhat to his surprise, presented by the landlady with a bill
for a sum long due; the good woman thought that such an opportunity
should not be lost. The Rev. Temple Purdue, after questioning her
carefully, and looking at her with pained eyes of surprise through his
glasses, came to the conclusion that it would be well for him to seek
his son without delay; he went off at once to the hospital where the boy
was supposed to be at work.

Referred from one to the other, and working his way up, as it were, from
the students to those in authority, he learned that Charlie Purdue was
somewhat irregular in his attendance; they doubted much if he would be
there that day. The father took his pained face back to the boy's rooms,
and sat down there, with what patience he possessed, to wait for him.

He waited long--waited, with a growing anger in his heart which he
strove to control, far into the small hours. Then Charlie came home
hilariously with three or four boon companions; saw with dismay the
black-coated visitor waiting for him; and understood that unless he
exercised great care the game was up. He got rid of the boon companions
with some difficulty (one of them persisted in sitting on the stairs for
a long time, crooning a love song in a falsetto voice), and faced his

Of course, it was the old story; he had really been working very
hard--and this was a night of nights, when an old friend had secured an
appointment, and the occasion must be celebrated. It had never happened
before, and it would never happen again. He was not drunk; the
suggestion was absurd, and he was amazed and pained that his father
should make it. He was a little excited; the night air had brought a
flush to his cheek and an additional light to his eyes. That was all. He
trusted he was a gentleman (it was a pity the mantelpiece refused to
catch his elbow at the proper moment when he would have leant upon it
with dignity), and his father did not understand these things.

His father understood them so well, that that night, before composing
himself to sleep upon the sofa in his son's sitting-room, he delivered
an ultimatum; and it is probable that Charlie had never seen the kindly
old mouth take on so firm a line. Charlie would attend strictly to his
studies; instead of having money on every occasion on which he cared to
demand it, he would be strictly limited to a definite allowance, and
that allowance would not be exceeded.

That had been, of course, practically at the very beginning of things;
much had happened since then. For Charlie contrived to keep within the
bounds of his allowance for but a week or two; then gaily went back to
the old order of things. While his father, watching the post anxiously,
was gratified to think that his words had sunk deep into a ready soil,
and that the boy was reforming, Charlie was gaily borrowing here, there
and everywhere--beginning by little, and making the amounts larger as
time went on; giving promissory notes, and playing all the old mad
business as thoroughly as it could be played. As for work--well--there
were examinations that should some day be scrambled through--at the
eleventh hour; for the present they could be set aside, and happily

He was pretty deeply involved at the time he came to the house in Locker
Street and took the rooms there; it was Charlie's fashion to cast old
responsibilities behind him (a sort of wiping of the slate), and to take
on new ones cheerfully. Here, for the first time, in the quiet room with
the two women wherein he sat at night, he determined that he would work;
books were fetched out, and Charlie plunged into this matter of medicine
again as heartily as he had once begun it. The mere fact that Moira sat
near him, and was proud of him, was a stimulus; she should see that he
was no mere idler.

But after a time the old life called to him again, and with no uncertain
voice. He was not interested in the least in the profession he had
adopted; only the irresponsibility of it--the jolly companionship of
other students--appealed to him. It was the life he liked and wanted;
never the work.

He began in a foolish fashion to cheat his father a little. Pressed for
money, he wrote that new books must be bought, and fresh fees paid for
lectures; he was careful to specify the books and the lectures. The Rev.
Temple Purdue, pleased to think that he had won so easy a victory, sent
the money at once; Charlie, a little ashamed, was yet pleased to think
that he had tapped that source of wealth again. He did not buy the books
nor pay the fees; the money went elsewhere. A little later on, when
necessary, he would be able to borrow the books or to buy them
secondhand; and his father could be put off with another excuse.

But that father remembered always that he had this one son; he kept a
more watchful eye upon that son's future than the boy imagined.
Examination lists came out, and failed to tell the tale the father
expected; inquiries were set on foot, and the miserable story leaked out
bit by bit. Charlie was summoned by a telegram to Daisley Cross; and
went down there, inventing stories on the way--stories that grew more
desperate with each mile that the train covered.

The old place seemed to have dwindled a little in the years; Charlie,
reaching it in the evening, felt that he understood, resentfully and yet
pityingly enough, that a man who had lived so many years in its
narrowness, and in the midst of its petty happenings, must necessarily
fail to understand that broader life and that bigger world in which he
himself had flung away his substance. Above all things, his father was
not a man in whom there was any real live blood; he was a creature (or
so Charlie felt) in whom passions and hopes and ambitions had died long
since, giving place to the mere desire to live comfortably and at peace
with his neighbours. How could he understand the game of life as Charlie
had played it?

The rectory looked grim and forbidding when he got to it; some memory of
days when, as a boy, he had crept back half exultantly and half in fear
from some escapade came full upon him; this seemed to be just such
another home-coming. He would not go in yet; he would wait, and rehearse
again what he meant to say, and rehearse it better. He went on past the
rectory--past the old house where Paul Nannock had lived so long ago, as
it seemed--and so to the little churchyard adjoining the church. There
were lights in the windows of the church, and the sound of the wheezy
old organ, and of voices accompanying it, floated out into the darkness.
Charlie leaned against the wall of the churchyard and waited; now making
up his mind to go and face his father boldly; now determining to remain
where he was, until he had his lesson more complete in his mind.

While he debated, the organ gasped and wheezed and was still; a door at
the side of the church was opened, and some dim figures came out,
snuggling their necks into the collars of overcoats and jackets. Almost
the last of them was a bent figure that exchanged salutations with them,
and then, turning, came on towards where Charlie was waiting. He knew
the figure before it reached him for that of his father.

The Rev. Temple Purdue stopped within a yard or so of him, and scanned
him closely for a moment; then held out his hand. In that first gesture
there was a natural warmth, as from the father to the son; a moment
later he had checked it, and it was the grave salutation of the man with
a painful duty to perform. Charlie stiffened at the altered touch, and
hardened himself to meet what was to come.

"I thought I'd better come up and see you," said Charlie, standing stiff
and aggressive, and towering by many inches above the little rector. "I
suppose I'm in for a wigging--eh?"

"Charlie!--Charlie!--have you nothing else to say to me than that?"

"What am I to say?" retorted the other. "I suppose you'd call me a lost
sheep, and goodness knows what else; and I suppose it'd be all true. We
look at things from opposite points of view--you and I."

"You've had chances enough," said his father, moving on towards the gate
of the churchyard, and glancing round at the tall fellow who lounged
beside him. "It's been a series of failures from beginning to end----"

"I never liked the work," said Charlie, slashing at the grass with his
stick as he walked. "All very interesting to begin with--but a year or
so of it would sicken anyone. Besides, there are easier ways of getting
through the world and making a living. Look at our old friend
Jimmy--Jimmy Larrance."

"What of him?" The rector spoke sharply, for, according to his
information, this was but another erring young man, who had refused to
take advantage of the benefits that had been showered upon him. "What
has he done?"

"Why, without any training, or anything of that sort, he's taken to
writing for the papers--and makes rather a good thing of it. That's what
I ought to have done," added Charlie seriously; "I wanted something that
I could sit down to when I felt in the mood, or--or not sit down to when
I didn't feel in the mood. That's the sort of thing I was cut out for;
it's the sticking to it, whether I like it or not, that upsets me."

In that walk back to the house, where the old man lived practically
alone, the rector endeavoured to impress upon Charlie, with the use of
many platitudes, the necessity for that sticking to it; but without much
effect. For Charlie knew the real state of the case, and his father did
not; Charlie understood only too well the huge pile of debts that hung
like a cloud over certain parts, at least, of that gay London the boy
loved. Only a very small fraction of these had been confessed to; and
even that fraction had been sufficient to disconcert Mr. Purdue. Charlie
had, in a sense, burnt his boats; he could not make that fair and fresh
beginning his father suggested, and he knew that there was no one to
whom he could appeal to help him out of the tangle into which he had
got. The most he could hope for was some temporary assistance, to be
given him until such time as, by some extraordinary freak of Fortune, a
few of his creditors should die or disappear, or some benevolent, but
hitherto unsuspected, relative should leave him a large sum of money.

The talk lasted well into the night; Charlie, lounging in a chair,
seeing the end of his hopes looming nearer with every moment, and his
father pacing up and down his study with short, nervous steps, and
explaining his view of the situation. Gradually, in the sheer
hopelessness of the business, Charlie blurted out some further
confession of the position in which he found himself; was forced in
cross-examination to disclose yet a little more; and so stood, with
nearly everything laid bare before the old man, and himself
grinning--half recklessly, half with relief--at the thought that the
worst was told.

That was, of course, the end of all things. Mr. Purdue had a duty to
perform, and he had already been sorely tried. Charlie refused to go on
with his profession; refused, for the time at least, to entertain the
thought of any other. His father left him at last to his own
reflections, telling him that he would try and sleep, and try better
alone to understand the situation, and how best to grapple with it.

The dawn was coming in through the cracks in the shutters, and the lamp
was burning low, when the father came downstairs--hollow-eyed and
unkempt--to confront his son. In his own simple fashion the good man had
spent the night in some sort of halting prayer to the God who had given
the boy to him; he felt he had arrived, with that help, at a solution.
Charlie, watching him furtively, wondered what was coming.

"Since you will do nothing I suggest--and since you have wasted every
opportunity that has ever been given to you--I have determined to leave
you to your own devices. I am going to give you a draft for fifty
pounds; that is the last you will ever have from me. If you are sincere
in meaning to make a start in some new mode of life--that will give you
the start; but I can do nothing more. Your life is in your own hands,
and you must make what you will of it. Good-bye!"

Charlie suppressed his feelings; there was a sort of wonder in his mind
that he should have come out of the thing so well. Fifty pounds meant
everything just then; it would keep him for--well, never mind exactly
how long; that was not a time to juggle with dates. The proper thing to
do, of course, was to show penitence and a chastened spirit; and Charlie
contrived to convey both pretty admirably. He took the draft; listened
to a few last words from the father who was breaking his poor old heart
in the dawn of that morning for him; and went back to London.

Went back--to begin his new life in a special and an easy sense. He sold
his medical books at once, and said good-bye to all the work of the
years he had spent in London; then looked about him (with the feeling
that there was no special need for haste in the matter), to decide what
he should do in the future. His experience seemed to have taught him
that there were one or two remarkably easy professions--such as
painting and literature, and slight matters of that kind--where no
preparation was specially necessary, and where the life and the
surroundings were attractive. Almost his mind leaned towards painting;
he had heard that your art student was a happy-go-lucky bohemian, in a
picturesque costume, who smoked innumerable pipes, and sang while he
worked. Charlie felt he could manage that role pretty well.

Having ample time upon his hands, he even invested in an easel and a
paint-box and a few canvases; was a little astonished, when he came to
the actual work, to discover that lines would not go quite where they
were intended, and that some small knowledge was necessary even for the
mixing of colours. However, that difficulty could surely be got over;
Charlie joined an art school, where, in less than a week, he was the
most popular student, and had already given two delightful dinners at a
restaurant in Soho. He felt that here, at last, was the very profession
for which he had been looking.

But he tired of that, as he tired of everything else; and a chance visit
to Jimmy, and the sight of Jimmy driving a pen furiously, while a
printer's boy dangled his legs and strove not to whistle between his
teeth, spurred Charlie to the knowledge that perhaps after all he had
made another mistake, and that there was no reason why printers' boys
should not wait on him. He went home, to fling easel and canvas and
brushes aside, and to look for a pen that absolutely suited his hand.

He wrote something, and took it down to practical Jimmy; and practical
Jimmy scanned it thoughtfully, and made suggestions--something on the
lines of those given to himself some years back, by the young man in a
certain office of a certain paper--the first for which Jimmy had worked.
Charlie was deeply grateful, and took the thing away; looked at it on
reaching home, and decided that Jimmy was altogether wrong about it; and
pitched it into a corner after the easel and the canvases.

Yet he tried again--and yet again; flinging into each effort a fierce
energy that carried him on feverishly for an hour or so; and then
dropping the work, and never going back to it with any energy at all.
Now and then he railed against his ill-luck; more often he laughed, and
said it didn't matter. And slowly saw the fifty pounds dwindling, and
told himself--or tried to tell himself--that that didn't matter. If only
he had had the chance that Jimmy had had; if only he had had to fight
his way as Jimmy had done; if only it had happened that he had not
possessed a dear good father (much too good for him, he added sometimes
in generous moments); he might really have done something. People had
been a jolly sight too good to him--all the dear people he had met in
the world had made the mistake of not treating him seriously. However,
if once he did see the sort of work that would suit his
temperament--well, he would astonish some people; and then they'd be
sorry for some of the things they had said!

Weak himself, he carried with him a very pestilence of weakness; painted
the world in grey and feeble colours for other people. Moira, seeing him
apparently striving against dreadful odds, pitied him, and called the
world hard for his sake; those who succeeded had been but lucky, she
thought, and good-natured, laughing Charlie had been bruised by the
world, and had not deserved his bruises. In a sense, setting the one man
against the other, she wavered a little in her favour of Charlie; seemed
to see in him one of those failures that yet are half-successes, because
the failure is taken with a shrug, good-humouredly, and because he who
fails is not strong enough to fight against it. Jimmy was all right;
Jimmy had seemed to succeed from the very first, and his moments of
poverty had been mere light accidents, to be set aside and forgotten.
She knew but little of Jimmy's fight; she had only touched his life, as
it were, when first that life blossomed, however humbly, into print.

The starved heart of the girl longed and hoped always for love; hoped
unconsciously, just as it had done in the old days, when she had
struggled so fiercely to be first with Old Paul. Above all, it has to be
remembered that Charlie had come into her life--full of gaiety and
light-heartedness--at a moment when that life was dull and grey and
commonplace; and he bore upon him always, either in failure or success,
the stamp of youth, and hope and cheeriness. On the darkest mornings,
when the streets outside were hideous, and the young spirit of the girl
was fighting fiercely against the restraint of those few sombre rooms,
it was Charlie who could always come up the stairs two at a time;
Charlie who could burst into the room with a laugh and a joke; Charlie
who could drag her out into the streets for a walk; Charlie whose cheery
tongue was never still. It was what she needed; it was more than food
and drink to her then.

Jimmy, in a sense, stood aloof; Jimmy was on quite another plane. Once
or twice, when she had mustered courage to go round to his rooms, he had
been either very busy or else not there at all; she had had the long
tramp back to Locker Street, Chelsea, with the thought uppermost in her
mind that Jimmy was slipping away from her. She had hoped so much at the
first; she was to draw Jimmy into that magic circle again; to open up
afresh the half-worked gold mines of their childhood. But Jimmy was in a
sense inaccessible.

To be put to the account of Charlie Purdue was his poverty, and the
disaster that had fallen upon him. Moira made no count of right or wrong
in such a matter as this; her friend was in trouble, and that was
sufficient. Charlie had only to point to all he had endeavoured to
do--his medical knowledge, in the right use of which he had failed (or
so he told her) on a mere technical quibble of the examiners; his easel
and brushes, in the use of which again he had failed because he had not
had a fair start; his manuscripts--in which he had not been so lucky as
a certain Jimmy Larrance. Only give him an opportunity, he asserted
passionately again and again, and he'd soon show them.

But the opportunity did not come, and the money steadily dwindled.
Charlie became for the first time in his life a little careless in
regard to his dress, and a little shabby; took to sitting in his room
the greater part of the day, staring into the fire, and smoking much.
Moira would creep down to see him; opening the door a little way, and
looking in, and calling to him softly; on which he would look round, and
make a valiant effort to call up something resembling the old genial
smile; and tell her with a nod that "it was all right; he was thinking
about things." And she would go away heavy-hearted.

She went down one night, to find him sitting in the light of the fire,
with his chin cocked in his hands; he did not look round as she entered.
She crossed the room softly, and stood near him; put out a hand
nervously, and touched him on the shoulder. He looked round at her with
a whimsical smile; then stared again into the flames.

"Charlie--Charlie!" she whispered. "What are you going to do?"

"The Lord He knows best--and I don't!" said Charlie, without looking up
at her. "I've thought of everything; I don't seem to have any energy
left--or any hope. It doesn't seem fair somehow that I should fight
like this--or try to fight--with no result."

"You've tried a great many things," assented Moira.

"Haven't I?" He looked round at her gratefully. "That's where it is; my
worst enemy can't say I haven't tried. I'm a fellow of energy really; no
sooner does an idea enter my head than I'm off after it like a shot.
It's a matter of luck, my dear. I haven't got the luck. A fellow like
Jimmy simply drops into the thing at once."

"Jimmy works very hard," suggested Moira.

"And I don't, I suppose?" he broke in quickly. "Oh, you may as well say
it; I don't mind. Yet if Jimmy had failed, the boot might have been on
the other leg. I thought you believed in me a little," he added

"Of course I do," she said quietly. "I only wish I could help you."

"Why, so you do," he replied, with a sudden change of tone. "You put
heart into me, many and many a time; you've been a sort of good angel to
me." He got up suddenly, and dropped his hands on her shoulders, and
looked into her eyes. "If I'd known you earlier, Moira, I might have
done big things; I wanted guiding."

It was, of course, the cry of the coward--the despairing cry of the man
who, having failed, shifts the blame on Fate, and cries out what might
have been, had everything been different! But of course she did not know
that; her young heart warmed to him at that blessed thought that she
might have helped him--that she might even help him now. She was
lonely--as he was; her life seemed to have gone down into the
shadows--as his had done. She looked at him with shining eyes.

"Oh, it isn't too late, Charlie; you're young, and you can fight the
world easily enough. All your energy will come back. You must fight."

"Not alone, dear." He said it then, as he said most things, on the
impulse of the moment; perhaps because her eyes were shining as they
looked into his; perhaps because her mouth was soft and tender as it
pleaded with him. He dropped the hands upon her shoulders to her elbows,
and drew her towards him. "Not alone, Moira; I haven't the strength."

"But how could I help you?" she whispered.

"As only a woman can help a man," he went on more eagerly, pleased with
the sudden idea that had come to him, and almost feeling that it had
been in his mind for a long time. "I love you, Moira; with you beside me
I can fight such a battle as never man fought yet. You shall help me;
we'll fight together."

"But, Charlie"--her hands were on his breast, and she was holding him
away for a moment--"we are so poor, both of us--so young. After all,
although I want to help you--why should I add to your burden? How should
we live?"

"Oh, the old parrot cry of living!" he exclaimed, getting his arms about
her, and drawing her towards him. "Look here, my dear; the world has
behaved pretty roughly to both of us; to me most of all. I've been a bit
wild, I know; but no one has properly understood me yet. I can do big
things; I can do anything; but I want steadying. Besides--I've always
loved you, you know; didn't I hunt for you in London, directly I knew
you were here? Say you love me, dear."

"Of course--of course I love you, Charlie," she faltered. "At least, I

"Oh, never mind what you think," he exclaimed impetuously. "The words
are enough--you've said you love me. Kiss me; I'll be awfully good to
you--and you'll find you've made a new man of me. Don't look so
frightened; I've been meaning to say this to you for a long time."

Her lips met his, but with no ardour in the touch; she seemed to be
thinking. He kissed her again, and strove to look into her eyes; and
asked a little roughly what was the matter. She looked up into his face;
perhaps she strove to read there some fulfilment of the dreams that had
been hers during these past few years; perhaps she remembered, in that
hour, certain words of Old Paul's--spoken a long, long time ago; they
seemed to rise like an echo in her heart now. "What will love do to you
in the big world, Moira?"

"There is nothing the matter, Charlie; I--I was only trying to think how
happy I ought to be," she whispered, with a faint laugh. "Because I
thought once--dreamed it, I think--that when love came to me it would be
something like the angels one thinks about in childhood--something great
and marvellous."

"And isn't it?" he asked, quite simply.

"I don't know--yet," she replied, disengaging herself from his arms.
"Perhaps it's because I haven't had time to think about it."

"_I_ didn't need to think about it," he exclaimed. "I knew in a moment."

"Yes--but then you're different," she replied. "Let me go now; we'll
talk about this--some other time."

"But you've said you loved me," he cried, striving to detain her.

"I--I think so," she breathed. "Oh--won't you let me get a little used
to it?" she asked whimsically, and ran out of the room.

Charlie thoughtfully filled a pipe, and lit it, and threw himself back
in his easy chair. "Now," he said, as he puffed thoughtfully--"now I
shall really have something to work for, when I've made up my mind
what's the best work to tackle. Why didn't I think of this before?"



It is highly necessary, having regard to the fact that we have a
hero--albeit a doubtful one--that we should not lose sight of him. Jimmy
in a sense had almost lost sight of himself for a time, if the
expression may be pardoned; lost sight, in fact, of that large
personage, James Larrance, who had blossomed forth so well in print at
one time.

For Jimmy had grown ambitious; and Jimmy had left behind him something
of the old safe hack work, and had launched out a little. Fortune had
smiled upon him a little to begin with; but he had soon discovered that
in this more ambitious work editors were not so reasonable as that young
man in the shirt-sleeves had once been, nor so ready to give advice and
assistance. When the money did come in, it came in, as Jimmy would have
expressed it, "in lumps"; but then the lumps were few and far between,
and a man might well starve while he was waiting for the next lump to
come to him. Jimmy almost starved, with some amount of cheerfulness; but
he went on. For Jimmy had a way of setting his teeth, and going at the
work in a bullet-headed fashion--and coming up whenever he was knocked
down, and going at it again. Which was highly serviceable in the long

Also--wonder of wonders!--Jimmy had contrived, in the interval of work
of a smaller order, to write a novel; a novel that always reminded him
in after days of a cold room, and a lamp that smoked, and the collar of
an overcoat scraping his ears; because those were the conditions under
which it was produced. It was a blessed relaxation that Jimmy promised
himself during each long day; a something to be tenderly brought forth
at night, and gone over lovingly; something that was in an indefinite
fashion to make his fortune, in a surprising way, immediately on its

And the thing was finished--absolutely staring at him, from its first
page to its last; and he told himself in his soul that it was good; that
into it he had put something of himself--something of the vital essence
of life, as he had known it, and lived it, and suffered it. The only
question now in his mind was which particular publisher should have the
privilege of making a fortune over it, alike for himself and for Jimmy.
For that it would be a huge success Jimmy never doubted for a moment;
there was in it that mysterious thing commended originally by the young
man in the shirt-sleeves--an Idea!

The first publisher failed to find the Idea; in fact, he refused to see
it when it was carefully pointed out to him. He suggested that if anyone
had sixty pounds to throw away, this seemed to be a noble way of losing
that sum, or perhaps more; but he was not rash by nature himself. Jimmy
carried it to another--and yet another; it became a little worn in the
process, and the first and last sheets had to be rewritten. Then it went
to a fourth man, and lost itself in some unaccountable way among other
wandering manuscripts; until Jimmy in despair ventured at last, after
months, to write a letter that should recall it. And had a letter in
reply, asking him to call personally.

He went, and was received after some delay by a big-bearded man in a
great wilderness of an office; there were books lying all about--books
that the great one had published, and others that he had acquired, in
order to study questions of binding and paper; and there were many
photographs framed upon the walls. The big man was courteous to a
fault; actually apologised for having kept Jimmy waiting!

"Well, Mr. Larrance," he began--"I have read your book--after my
reader's report upon it--and I may say that I have read it with very
great pleasure." He coughed, and added, as an afterthought--"with very
great pleasure indeed."

Jimmy had a feeling that this was the sort of man he would like to shake
by the hand, if he got an opportunity. And oh--he should have the book
cheap! Which thought, it may be noted as a rare coincidence, was also in
the mind of the large-bearded man.

"At the same time, Mr. Larrance," went on the other--"I have a doubt
whether the public will take to it. The public, my dear sir, is tricky;
prefers, I fear, books which are not good for it; is something like a
spoilt child, crying for sweets when it should be fed on oatmeal. On the
other hand, there is a possibility that the book might catch on; one
never can tell."

"We could hope that that would be so," suggested Jimmy.

The large man shook his head sadly. "Even a publisher cannot live on
hope," he said. "However, Mr. Larrance, I am half inclined to take the
risk--I am, indeed. People will probably call me foolish--but I must put
up with that. Now--shall we talk about terms?"

He pulled a sheet of paper towards him, and took up a pencil, and began
to make figures upon the paper--figures over which he shook his large
head, and pursed up his lips. Jimmy watched him, fascinated; for, of
course, it was a well-known fact that if once you got a book published,
you sat still for ever afterwards, while the publisher sent you cheques;
or, at all events, you sat still until you felt inclined to write
another book. Jimmy held his breath in awe of the great man who could
do these things; and incidentally wondered whether he paid monthly, or
quarterly, or half yearly.

"I like to deal fairly with people--especially young people," said the
big man, beaming upon Jimmy, the while Jimmy's heart expanded to him. "I
would propose that we do this thing together."

"Together?" Jimmy looked at him in some perplexity.

"Yes"--the big man was absolutely warming with his subject and
benevolence stirred his very beard--"together. We'll share the thing;
we'll share expenses, and we'll share profits. How do you like that

"Well"--Jimmy looked at him, and was conscious that his face was
burning--"I should be delighted; but I'm not a capitalist. I have no
money that I could expend."

"I have not asked you to expend anything," retorted the other, with a
smile. "I will pay for everything; I will produce the book--pay for
advertisements--everything. Then, when the profits come in, everything
will be divided, after deducting expenses. You pay nothing--and you may
receive something--if we're lucky. The only risk taken will be by me."

Jimmy began to feel that here was a man who should at least be canonised
at the earliest opportunity; a man about whom the world ought to know.
It was wonderful that a man of this character should sit in this place,
doing good with a large heart and a large hand, and that so few people
knew about it. Jimmy's pleasure must have shown itself in his face; for
the large man held up a warning hand.

"Now, don't thank me; this is a matter of business," he said. "You may
get nothing out of it, although that is very unlikely; and I may lose a
lot of money--which is very likely indeed. But in any case we shall know
that we have done our best. Say the word, and I'll have an agreement
drawn up, and send it to you."

Jimmy said the word; in his gratitude he said many words. Finally he
went out of the office with a light heart and a light step, feeling that
he had made another great and powerful friend.

There came the time--the time that comes only once in one's life!--when
the first proofs of the book were received; proofs to be lingered over
lovingly, and left conspicuously on Jimmy's desk for the edification of
chance callers. Finally the book itself, with some copies which belonged
to him by right.

Curiously enough, according to the melancholy account given by the
big-bearded man, the thing fell flat; he said the public wasn't ripe for
it. Jimmy saw it in book-sellers' windows now and then; and some of the
notices were kind, and one actually dug out that Idea, and made the most
of it; said there was something new about it. Jimmy ventured, after a
decent interval, to go and see the publisher; was kept waiting a little
longer than before, but was finally shown in. There he learned for the
first time the disastrous thing he had done--so far, that is, as the big
man was concerned.

"I told you there was a risk," said the man, smiling as cheerfully as
ever; "and I made it clear, I think, that I took the risk, and you
didn't. My dear young friend"--the big man dived among a heap of papers,
and brought out one particular sheet, which he perused with his head on
one side--"you owe me quite a decent sum of money."

"But you said----"

"Only on paper, of course," broke in the other quickly. "I didn't mean
to frighten you; there's nothing for you to pay. _I_ attend to that part
of the business, and I may say that from an artistic point of view I am
proud to have brought the book out--proud to feel that I have, even at
a loss, put such a story before the public. I shall have another go at
it, and see if I can't make it hum a little yet."

Whether the big man ever really did make it "hum" or not it is
impossible to say; but it may be mentioned here that at the end of some
months Jimmy received an account from the publisher, informing him that
there was a sum against him in their books of a mere trifle of £6 5s.
9d.; and the account was accompanied by a cheery letter from the big
man, informing him kindly that this was a mere formality, to enable them
to keep their books straight. And wound up with a casual
suggestion--"When are we to have another book from you?"

But this by the way. It only happened, of course, some months after that
first interview; but it left its sting on Jimmy nevertheless. It is only
mentioned here because indirectly it was to change Jimmy's life;
indirectly it was to bring him on the path his wandering feet had been
seeking for so long. Before he knew the disaster he felt he had brought
upon the big-bearded man, Jimmy received a letter, sent through the
office of that gentleman; a letter which caused him to catch his breath,
and to open his eyes, and to feel that the world was still a wonderful
place, despite all that the cynics might say.

Someone had actually discovered the Idea!

The letter was headed with the name of a theatre; it was written in a
sprawling hand difficult to decipher; and it was signed by a certain Mr.
Bennett Godsby. As everyone knew the name of Mr. Bennett Godsby, Jimmy
for a moment or two felt the room going round him, and wondered, after
that glance at the signature, what so great a man could possibly have to
say to him. Then he tackled the letter.

It appeared that Mr. Bennett Godsby had happened to have his attention
called to the book; had read it; and had dug out of it that Idea which
had for others been so carefully concealed. With a feeling of pity for
the probable ignorance of Mr. James Larrance in regard to such matters,
Mr. Bennett Godsby begged to inform that gentleman that the name of
Bennett Godsby was known on two sides of the Atlantic, as an actor who
had played many parts, and who, as it happened, was at that time in want
of a play. If any dramatic version of the story had been done, Mr.
Bennett Godsby would be glad to see it; in any case, it might be well if
he could see Mr. Larrance. The Idea appeared to be a strong one, and
something ought to be made of it. So Jimmy, greatly elated, went off to
the theatre at a time that had been suggested by the great man himself.
Inquiring at the stage door, he was kept waiting for a time, in company
with a man who was smoking a pipe--a gas stove--and a very old dog.
While he waited, a harsh little swing-door kept banging backwards and
forwards on its hinges, to admit or to let out various men and women,
who all seemed to be in a great hurry, and who all seemed also to know
each other remarkably well. Presently Jimmy was requested by the man
(who laid down his pipe at a summons from someone within) to step with
him; and stepping accordingly, found himself, after traversing various
long passages and flights of stone steps, stumbling among the
holland-covered stalls of the theatre, in semi-darkness, on his way to
find Mr. Bennett Godsby, who was seated, muffled in an overcoat, in the
second row.

On the dimly-lighted stage some sort of rehearsal was going forward,
conducted for the most part by a pale and anxious young man, who was
darting hither and thither among a crowd of people, endeavouring to get
them into some semblance of order. Just as Jimmy reached Mr. Bennett
Godsby's side, and stood quaking, the great man stood up to roar out
some instructions to the pale and anxious young man, while the latter
craned forward over the footlights, at the imminent risk of his neck, to

"Very good, sir," exclaimed the young man, with several emphatic nods;
and plunged again among the crowd. Mr. Godsby, bending his head the
better to read Jimmy's card, held out a hand to him, and drew him down
beside him. This being Jimmy's first experience of a theatre in its
morning wrappers, he looked up curiously at the shrouded boxes and
circles, and then at the stage; came back from that inspection, to find
that Mr. Godsby was speaking to him in a strong deep voice that could be
heard easily even above the racket on the stage.

Mr. Bennett Godsby was a small, spare man, with a rather lined face, and
with deep-set eyes; he seemed to look Jimmy over carefully while he
talked to him. The talk was difficult, because it was interrupted every
now and then by Mr. Godsby himself, when he stood up to shout at the
stage, and by various people who came from time to time into the row of
stalls behind, and whispered to Mr. Godsby over his shoulder.

"Well, Mr. Larrance--I'm very glad to see you," he said. "Perhaps my
letter was a little impulsive," he went on, with an indulgent
smile--"but then I am nothing if not impulsive; it's the life, you know.
But there is something in your book that seems to appeal to me;
something in that particular character that seems to move me. Have you
had any experience with stage work?"

Jimmy was learning wisdom; Jimmy was giving over that habit of showing
his hand on all occasions. Now he shrugged his shoulders, and spoke with
what carelessness he might.

"I have studied it a great deal--from an outside point of view," he
said. "You see, I am still rather--rather young."

"That is in your favour," said the other, with another smile. "Now, how
does your work appeal to you in the sense of a play? Have you, for
instance, thought of me in regard to it at all?"

Jimmy, again with wisdom, said that the idea had certainly occurred to
him, and that he thought Mr. Bennett Godsby would be the one man to
interpret the character. Mr. Godsby nodded, and smiled; then suddenly
started up in a fury, and roared out at the young man on the stage:

"What in the world have you got those people up there for?" he shouted.
"Take 'em all back; show 'em exactly what I showed you yesterday. How do
you think I'm going to make that entrance through that crowd, when
they're all fighting together up in that corner? And teach 'em how to
jeer; remember they've got to jeer at me at the beginning of that scene,
or it goes for nothing." Absolute silence on the stage, while the pale
young man craned his neck over the footlights, and nodded emphatically,
and looked more anxious than ever. "Oh, my God!" concluded Mr. Bennett
Godsby, as he sank back into his stall--"the amount of work that I have
to do with you people, because you won't remember from one day to the
other----There--get on--get on, please!"

"Now, Mr. Larrance--what was I saying? Oh, to be sure--I wanted to know
whether you had thought of me; and it seems you have. Very well,
then--do you think that it is possible for you to make a play out of
this--or have you already done anything in the way of a play with it?"

On Jimmy confessing that he had not yet done anything with it, the actor
pulled a long face; on Jimmy assuring him that it would not take very
long, his face lengthened still more. But it came at last to the point
that the great man stated, in urgent whispers, what he was prepared to

Jimmy was to set about and prepare that extraordinary thing known as a
"synopsis"; was to set out, act by act, and scene by scene, what the
play was to be; and, on that proving satisfactory, was to have twenty
pounds. After that, on the completion of the play, another twenty--and
there was to be a small percentage every time it was played.

"What you have to consider chiefly is to build the play"--Mr. Bennett
Godsby formed his hands roughly into the shape of a cup, as though he
moulded the play within them--"to build the play round me. It may seem
strange; but there is a certain public, I am given to understand, which
wants me and demands me; and I have to consider that public. I think as
a matter of fact"--Bennett Godsby looked up at the proscenium arch, and
raised his eyebrows, and smoothed the hair back from his forehead--"I
really think there is a large section of the public that would be better
satisfied if I was never off at all; if, in fact, I carried the whole
thing on my shoulders. And mind you"--this very confidentially, with a
hand upon Jimmy's arm--"on many occasions it has been my fate to _have_
to carry a play on my shoulders!"

Jimmy went back to his rooms, feeling that at last Fortune was treading
hard upon his heels, and that his chance had really come. Already, as he
walked, he seemed to see in the near future people turning in the street
to glance at him; nudging each other as he went by. He saw himself
seated at the theatre (he thought it wouldn't be a bad plan to appear
rather bored, and to wear his honours coldly) and other people bowing to
him, and saying who he was. He went back to his rooms, and seized the
book, and plunged into it with fresh zest, although he knew it by

So far as he could judge, it would take at a rough estimate at least six
full acts to develop the Idea; and in three of those acts Mr. Bennett
Godsby, as the leading character, could not appear at all.

This was awkward, remembering the injunction laid upon him by that
gentleman that the play must be built round him; Jimmy decided that many
things would have to be left out--valuable things at that. But the Jimmy
who had learnt his lesson in the old days, what time a certain gentleman
in shirt-sleeves had compelled him to cut down and alter work
ruthlessly, was a Jimmy who had learnt something of his business, and
had left behind him a good deal that was unmarketable. It may sound
shameful; but Jimmy had about him an adaptability that was surprising,
and that had long since sounded the first notes of his success.

So while Jimmy, heedless of anything but the great prospect that was
looming before him, set to work then and there, making copious notes,
and lifting passages out of the wonderful book that must not by any
chance be omitted from the still more wonderful play that was to be
written; and while the day drew on to a close, and the lamps were lit in
the streets, and he still worked; someone set out for his rooms with the
purpose of seeing him, someone who had been forgotten by Jimmy for the
time, in the pressure of more urgent things. She came eagerly, and yet
with a certain reluctance; she was turning to Jimmy in a crisis in her
life, as to someone who might put a different complexion upon that life.
The girl was Moira.

She came almost straight from that momentous interview with Charlie; for
in a curious way she felt that this was a matter upon which Jimmy must
have a word to say. Charlie had held her in his arms, and had kissed
her; and almost, as she walked through the lighted streets, she was a
child again in the garden of the rectory, with Charlie's arm about her,
and his lips striving to meet hers; almost, too, she was the girl who
had hidden among the trees and seen Jimmy fight for her. Oh, yes--Jimmy
must have a word to say!

What that word would be or what she desired it to be, she scarcely knew
or cared to think. It is safe at least to say that in that inmost heart
of hers--that heart she had kept concealed from everyone, and which it
might be her fate never to show at all, Jimmy stood first. She had
passionately longed to see him; it had been Jimmy she was going to meet
in London when first she came there with Patience; it was of Jimmy she
had been so anxious to hear. On the other hand, of course, there was the
natural girlish gratitude to the man who had spoken the first words of
love to her--the man who had stepped brightly into her life, and
stripped away her loneliness. An additional factor, too, in the case,
and one which weighed with her heavily, was that Charlie needed help and
guidance; had indeed asked for her strength to lean upon. Jimmy
apparently needed no help and no guidance, and had strength enough for
himself. Nevertheless, Jimmy must have a word to say in the matter.

Jimmy heard the tap upon the door; felt in his own mind that it heralded
a visitor who would interrupt the important work--that work at the end
of which lay a much-needed twenty pounds, to say nothing of fame and
success. Glancing round impatiently from his desk, he called to the
unknown one to come in.

She opened the door timidly, and looked in; and as she saw him then she
was destined to remember him, many and many a time; to keep that picture
of him in her mind. He sat within the circle of light thrown by his
reading lamp; the rest of the room was in shadow. The desk was littered
with papers, and Jimmy was evidently furiously at work. Even as she
hesitated at the door, she seemed to see here the successful man of
affairs--the man who prospered, and to whom work was readily given.

"Oh, it's you, Moira," he said, laying down his pen, and even then
pausing for a moment to look at the work he left. "Come in."

It did not seem to the girl that there was the old cordiality in his
voice; no welcoming cry as she came into the place--no starting up
gladly to meet her. And she so lonely--so much in need of a friend to
whom she could talk! And Jimmy with that word to say!

"I'm frantically busy," said Jimmy, with a smile and another glance at
his desk. "Sudden work, for which everything else must be set aside,
Moira--great and wonderful work. I've got a chance to write a play."

"Yes, Jimmy?" She spoke quietly, and with no enthusiasm, as it seemed,
in her tones. For she was chilled and repelled; this was not the man to
whom to come on any affair of the heart; this was a Jimmy who, if he had
a word to say, would be likely to say it about himself.

"A man has read my book--Bennett Godsby; you're sure to have heard of
him--and he sees a play in it. I'm just to write off a few
pages--suggesting what it's to be--and I get twenty pounds for
that"--Jimmy was talking excitedly, and was tapping the open book upon
his desk as he spoke. "It's a gorgeous chance--a wonderful opportunity!
I've had a long talk with him to-day. But there--sit down, Moira; I can
spare you ten minutes. And don't mind my excitement; one doesn't get a
chance like this every day."

She did not sit down; she stood looking into the small fire, and
wondering why she had come, or what there was for her to say.
Jimmy--this Jimmy who knew great people, and talked so lightly of
twenty pounds, and of plays, and what not--this was not the Jimmy who
would have the word to say. Even as tears welled into her eyes--tears of
bitterness and of loneliness--she thought of Charlie who had kissed her;
Charlie who was not successful, but who always had a kind word for her,
and a cheery laugh in the midst of all his misfortune. Why had she come
here at all?

"Well, Moira," said Jimmy, leaning against his desk and looking at
her--"and what's the news with you?"

"Oh--the best, I suppose," she said, without raising her eyes. "I came
here to-night to tell you something of my news. It's about--about

"Poor old Charlie!" he said lightly; and in her ears it sounded as the
light dismissal by the successful man of the man who had failed. "What's
Charlie doing?"

"Charlie is going to do great things one of these days," she said
brightly, surprising herself by discovering that she was suddenly the
other man's champion. "And I--I am going to help him."

"Well--you've always done that, you know," said Jimmy; and in his mind
as he spoke was not Moira nor Charlie--nor any of their troubles. He
seemed to see Bennett Godsby walking the stage in one particular scene,
and speaking the words that should have been set down for him by that
new dramatist, James Larrance. "What are you doing for him now?"

"It isn't what I'm doing for him now, Jimmy--it's what I'm going to do
for him," she said, raising her eyes for the first time. "I thought
you'd like to hear about it. Charlie wants me--he's asked me to marry

Jimmy had turned for a moment to look back at his precious notes; he
swung round now towards her, and for a moment or two was silent. For
this was a shock; and perhaps just then Jimmy realised for the first
time that in this he might have had a word to say, after all. For Jimmy
had planned, as he always did for himself and for others, a certain
future, in which always he took the lead, and wherein always he arranged
the lives of those in whom he was interested. In some part of that dim
and distant future he was, as a very successful man, to have gone to
Moira, and with much kindness have offered her a share in it; with no
real priggishness in the thought, he yet felt that she should be very
properly gratified, and a little humble, and very much admiring. It was
all indefinite; but it had a place in that future; and this was a sudden
disturbance of the scheme.

"Charlie has asked you to marry him?" He moved a little nearer to her,
and laughed. "And what did you say?"

"Nothing--yet," said Moira. "You see, Jimmy"--her loneliness made her
confidential with him; she must at that time, she felt, lean on
someone--"I didn't know what to say. Of course, I like Charlie--and I'm
sorry for him--and I should like to help him. He says I could; that I
should give him something to work for."

"A man always says that," said Jimmy wisely. "After all, it must be a
matter for yourself, my dear girl," he added. "I suppose Charlie knows
best; perhaps you will be able to help him to make something of

"I hope so--I think so," she said, in a low voice. "I only came
to-night, Jimmy, because--because we've been such good friends, you and

"And always shall be, of course," he broke in.

"And I thought you'd like to know about it."

Jimmy looked at her thoughtfully for a moment or two; then he sighed,
and smiled as she raised her eyes to him. "You've had but a poor life of
it, Moira," he said; "I don't wonder you turn to a man who promises you
something better."

"Perhaps that's it," she whispered, dropping her eyes. "After all,
Jimmy, I suppose love only comes once--doesn't it?"

"So they say," replied Jimmy solemnly.

"I suppose, Jimmy"--she kept her eyes averted, and her voice was
scarcely more than a whisper--"I suppose, Jimmy, you don't think--don't
think of those things--eh?"

"No--I don't," said Jimmy, after a long look at her. "I am in a sense
wedded to my work; I never think of anything else. A man must be
free--free to live his life, and do the best that is in him"--Jimmy
seemed to have read or heard that somewhere, but it sounded rather well
just now. "I cannot see myself ever marrying," he added; yet there was a
little bitterness in his heart as he said it, and as he thought of
Charlie and of Moira.

"I understand," she said; and laughed curiously. "So I shall say what I
meant to say all along to Charlie; I shall tell him that I'll marry him.
Good-bye, Jimmy!"

He took the hand she held out to him; they stood for a moment in the
shadows of the room; stood, too, perhaps, for a moment amid the shadows
of old memories clustering thick and fast about them. Then he wrung her
hand, and turned away.

"I hope you'll be very happy, Moira," he said.

"Oh--I think so," she replied; and when he turned again from his notes
she was gone.

Curiously enough he did not touch the notes again that night. He sat for
a long time in front of the fire--thinking--thinking; striving to look
into that new future which had so suddenly to be rearranged.

"I can quite see what is going to happen," he told himself. "I can see
myself, in the years that are coming, a man grown successful--and yet
not caring very much about the success." (Jimmy was very confident about
this point.) "And yet there shall be no bitterness in me; I can feel
myself looking at things, sanely, and telling myself that this was,
after all, for the best--quite for the best. Poor Moira!"



Jimmy had suddenly found himself a personage--in something of a
roundabout and accidental fashion. Paragraphs had appeared in
newspapers, giving strange accounts of the young dramatist; a
photographer had most surprisingly asked for a sitting, for which no
charge would be made, and in regard to which certain copies of the
photograph were actually to be presented to Jimmy; and many other things
had happened.

So far as the actual play was concerned, matters had not gone so
smoothly as might at first have been anticipated. The synopsis, to begin
with, seemed to puzzle Mr. Bennett Godsby not a little; he suggested
that he "couldn't see himself in it." Jimmy waited a little hopelessly
at the theatre on several evenings; had messages sent out to him by the
great man, declaring that the great man was changing--or absolutely worn
out--or that he hadn't had time to think about the matter. Finally, one
night Jimmy received a note, requesting him to call and see Mr. Bennett
Godsby at his house on the following morning.

Jimmy went, and discovered Bennett Godsby, in a sense, in the bosom of
his family--that family consisting of Mrs. Bennett Godsby, and a young
and rather plump Miss Bennett Godsby. Mrs. Bennett Godsby had at one
time appeared with her husband; Jimmy seemed to understand that there
must have been acrimonious discussions when the time came when Mrs.
Bennett Godsby was no longer young enough, nor slim enough, to play lead
with him. She had the appearance, not only of being very plump, but of
threatening to be plumper; she was somewhat negligently dressed, and she
wore even at that early hour all the rings that could possibly be got on
her short fingers. Mr. Bennett Godsby introduced Jimmy, and then led the
young man into another room in order to talk business.

"Now, my dear Larrance," he began, "I confess I'm a little disappointed.
I don't know how it is--but you haven't quite hit it; at least, that's
how it strikes me. I suppose it's lack of experience, or something of
the sort--or perhaps I was mistaken when I thought there was a play in
the thing after all. It won't carry; there's nothing in it to grip 'em."

"I'm sorry," said Jimmy, with a sinking feeling at his heart. "Perhaps
you could suggest----"

"Just what I'm going to do," said Mr. Godsby, sitting down and drawing
Jimmy's synopsis towards him. "You know"--he looked up with a pained
expression--"this thing has worried me more than you think. You'll
understand that men like myself--men who live for their art--are bound
to understand and to feel the characters they portray. I can assure you
I've found myself speaking abruptly to Mrs. Bennett Godsby--in the
fashion in which I imagine the man in your play would speak. She's been
surprised. 'Bennett,' she has said to me, 'what is this? What is
troubling you?' She knows; she's been through the mill herself--only, of
course, in a smaller way. I should love to play that character," he
added, with a sigh, as he tapped the paper.

Jimmy sat silent; he did not know what to do or what to say. More than
that, he dared not break in upon the reflections of Mr. Bennett Godsby,
for that gentleman was evidently thinking deeply. After a moment or two
the actor got up and strolled across the room, and frowned at a picture;
turned round, and frowned upon Jimmy by way of a change. "It's lack of
experience--that's what it is," he said, nodding his head sagely.

"On my part?" Jimmy looked anxious.

"Yes, sir, on your part. The brain is there--the creative force, if I
may say so; but you can't convey things. Now, if only I had the time to
set to work on that myself--but, of course, one mustn't interfere with
another man's work. Oh, no--not to be thought of."

Jimmy hastened to assure Mr. Bennett Godsby that he would value any
suggestion that gentleman cared to make--would esteem it a privilege to
do anything in his power to meet the wishes of such a man--to profit by
his experience. Mr. Godsby, saying nothing, picked up the offending
pages, and rapidly scanned them; presently sat down opposite Jimmy, and
began to go steadily through the thing, scene by scene.

The alterations were somewhat drastic, but they did not affect the plot
very greatly. The chief thing desirable seemed to be that Mr. Bennett
Godsby should turn up at effective moments; should have a scene twisted
here that would gain for him the sympathy of the audience; should have
this changed, and that made bigger, in order, as he phrased it, to "lift
the thing up."

"You see, my dear Larrance," he said confidentially, "they want _me_. I
assure you that if I'm off for ten minutes it becomes a question of
their looking round about them, and whispering, and saying to
themselves: 'Where's Bennett Godsby? Why isn't he here? Why doesn't he
lift the thing up?' I've been assured of it again and again by those
who have sat in the front of the house, and have heard those things
said. See the position it places me in!"

Jimmy said he quite saw the position, and he was honestly sorry for Mr.
Bennett Godsby. At the same time----

"Well, you see; I know what the public wants; I've sampled its tastes
pretty well. Now, my suggestion is this: I'll help you with the play;
I'll show you what it wants, and how it might be turned about;
and--well, in a sense, we'll write it together."

Jimmy pondered. "But then, you see, it wouldn't be quite my play," he

"Oh, yes, it would; we're not going to quarrel about that," said Bennett
Godsby. "There's nothing grasping about me; I shall be pleased if I've
helped a young dramatist; better pleased still, perhaps, if I've got the
play I want. You keep your name to it by all means, and together we'll
make a success of it. You've got my notes there (I'm afraid I've
pencilled the thing all over, but you mustn't mind that), and you can go
to work at once. We'll call this synopsis, with its alterations, _the_
synopsis I wanted. And I'll send you a cheque to-night."

"You are really very good, Mr. Godsby," said Jimmy, rising as the other
rose, and gathering up the papers.

"Oh, that's all right; I only want to do the best for both of us,"
replied the other. "You get to work, and bring it to me bit by bit;
we'll talk it over. I won't forget the cheque. Good morning!"

Jimmy came out of the house convinced once more that there really were
some very wonderful people in the world, and that all the nonsense
talked about those in high places in the various professions ought to be
contradicted without delay. He modified that exuberant feeling a little
on receiving a letter the next morning from Mr. Bennett Godsby,
enclosing a cheque for ten pounds.

     "My dear Mr. Larrance.

     "Under all the circumstances, I feel you are right about the joint
     authorship; if I am to do half the work (or probably more than
     half) I ought to have something of the glory. I need scarcely say
     it will be a good thing for you to have your name associated with
     mine, and I shan't mind a bit. It will be a good advertisement for
     each of us. Under all the circumstances, too, I quite see that for
     half the work (or more than half, as I have suggested) I ought to
     have half the pay. Therefore, I have credited my private account
     with ten pounds, and I send you the other ten herewith. Good luck
     to our united efforts.

     "Ever yours most cordially,


Jimmy consoled himself with the thought that, after all, it was a very
big chance for him; he saw himself connected indefinitely with Mr.
Bennett Godsby, and the two of them rising to fame and fortune (the
second somewhat more limited than he had at first imagined) side by
side. Obviously, too, Mr. Bennett Godsby would do his best for a play in
which he was so intimately concerned.

Then began for Jimmy a matter, as he afterwards described it, of waiting
on doorsteps. For, pinning his faith to the play and to the play only,
and seeing in its certain success a relief from all the hack work he had
been doing for so long, Jimmy set aside everything else for its sake;
worked at it night and day, and waited on Bennett Godsby at all times
and seasons, with scenes and ideas, as they occurred to him and as he
wrote them down. As Mr. Bennett Godsby had at least three addresses at
which he might (or might not) be found, Jimmy's task was not an easy
one. The three addresses were the theatre, the club, and Mr. Bennett
Godsby's house; and it became sometimes a stern chase on Jimmy's part to
get hold of his man. Even then, if he ran him to earth, it was a
thousand chances to one that Bennett Godsby was going out--or desired to
talk about something else--or was engaged with a visitor; and in those
days every visitor spelt, in the mind of Jimmy, a new man with a new
play to catch the fancy of the actor.

In that business of manufacturing the play Jimmy learnt much, and
incidentally almost starved himself again in the learning. Cherished
scenes and bits of dialogue had to be cast overboard and lost. Phrases
from the melodramatic brain of Mr. Bennett Godsby had to take their
place. The original pile of notes had grown into a chaotic heap of
blotted and altered sheets of paper before the thing was done; but it
was done at last, and almost to the satisfaction of Bennett Godsby.

"Mind, I won't say that we've got it," said Mr. Godsby (and be it noted
that in this time the great man had dwindled a little in the sight of
Jimmy, and did not seem quite so great). "A little more niggering at it
would have done a lot of good; but I suppose it'll have to do until we
get to rehearsals. I'll send you the other cheque to-night."

The other cheque did not come that night, nor the next morning; it came
about a week later, and it was something short of the ten pounds,
because Mr. Bennett Godsby had deducted Jimmy's share of the type
writing bill. But Jimmy looked forward to the rehearsals, and to the
production of the great play; Jimmy hugged himself over paragraphs in
the papers, in which his name was openly associated with that of the
great Bennett Godsby.

Some slight mistake had been made over the paragraphs--a little
misunderstanding. It was declared that the great Bennett Godsby,
hitherto known only in the front rank of living actors, had suddenly
blossomed out as a dramatist; had written a dramatic version of a novel
by a certain Mr. James Larrance; the paragraphs seemed to suggest that
Mr. James Larrance was lucky in having been selected for that honour.

Then, in the very midst of rehearsals, other paragraphs appeared, which
stated that the play had been written by Mr. Bennett Godsby; that he
hoped for lenient treatment from his ever faithful public in this his
first essay with such work. Jimmy pointed out the paragraph to him one
morning when they stood together on the half-lighted stage; rehearsals
were getting to an end at last.

"I can't understand it," said the great man, staring with a puzzled air
at the paragraph. "I quite see your meaning; it isn't right at all. But
these beasts of writers will say anything to get a few shillings;
they've put words in my mouth before now that I've never uttered. I tell
you what I'll do," he added, with deep indignation, "I'll write to these
people--sort of letter that they must put in, and that will help things
along a bit--and I'll tell them the true facts of the case. I'm glad you
called my attention to it, my dear Larrance; there mustn't be any

But the curious part was that when next day a letter appeared in that
paper, signed by Mr. Bennett Godsby, it did not seem to put things quite
as straight as it should have done. Much was made of Mr. Bennett Godsby
in the letter; much of Mr. Bennett Godsby's kindness to a young author,
but mighty little of James Larrance. And that morning Bennett Godsby, in
what appeared to be a towering rage, informed Jimmy that that had not
been his letter at all; "they had disgracefully garbled it."

Other mistakes occurred also in regard to printing; according to Bennett
Godsby, you never could trust a theatrical printer to put things as
they should be. Here, for example, was one scoundrel (Bennett Godsby
pointed it out himself, and almost tore his hair over it at the time)
who had had the audacity to print the name of the play, and then
underneath the authors' names, with Bennett Godsby first--and James
Larrance very much second, and in much smaller type! Did you ever hear
of such a thing; would you have conceived it possible that an
intelligent firm of printers could have committed such an outrage? Too
late now, of course, to alter it, because every bill had been printed,
and the loss would be enormous.

"However, it's all right, you know," said Bennett Godsby, taking him by
the arm confidentially, and leading him aside. "Everybody _knows_ the
real facts of the case; the public will understand that of course the
book was yours--and the title--and all that sort of thing."

"But the book isn't mentioned," objected Jimmy.

"Another oversight," whispered the other. "But, of course, everybody
knows about that, too; it was mentioned to me yesterday on several
occasions. I said to one man in particular, just as I might say to you,
'You know the book?' I said. 'Know the book?' he replied--just like
that, and laughed. It was such an absurd question--wasn't it?"

Jimmy was vaguely comforted; he felt that in all probability everybody
did know about it. More than that, he had been comforted from time to
time by the assurance of various members of the company as to the value
of certain lines, and the excellence of certain business; and they had
been careful to inform him (in whispers, and out of the hearing of
Bennett Godsby) that they knew perfectly well who had written the play,
and that Bennett Godsby could probably not have done it "for toffee."

Of course, there came the moment when by no possibility could this play
be produced; and when Jimmy sat quaking in the stalls, and wondered what
was going to happen to him. The further moment when Bennett Godsby
wondered why he had ever adopted this particular profession, when so
many others were open to him; the further moment when he did not see
what there was in the thing after all, or how it came about that he had
ever imagined this was a play that would strike the public. Then, to
crown matters, Mrs. Bennett Godsby came down, and tittered audibly in
the midst of the big scene; true, she apologised afterwards, and said
that she had not taken it "in the right spirit"; but that apology was
received with gloom.

Some two days before the actual production a card was brought to Jimmy,
while he sat disconsolately in the stalls watching Mr. Bennett Godsby
raving up and down on the other side of the footlights, and expressing
his opinion volubly concerning the musical director, and the fashion in
which the incidental music had been arranged. The card bore the name of
"Mrs. Daniel Baffall"; and the messenger whispered that the lady was in
a carriage outside. Jimmy presently went out, to find the good-natured
creature flutteringly leaning towards him over the door of the carriage,
and wondering if he remembered her.

"Why, of course," said Jimmy, "although it seems such a long time ago.
How did you find me?"

"Oh--everyone knows you," said Mrs. Baffall, glancing across at a young
girl seated at the other side of the carriage. "And we're all so
tremendously proud of you--and we can't possibly think how you've
managed to do it. Even Mr. Baffall has almost forgotten about the
warehouse--though he did say once (not meaning it in the least, poor
dear man) that he was sure you'd starve."

"We have taken a box, Jimmy," said the young girl, in the most
surprising fashion; and Jimmy wheeled about to look at her.

In a moment he remembered who this must be; yet the change in her was so
great that he might not have known, but for connecting her with Mrs.
Baffall and the carriage. For this was a radiant vision, beautifully
dressed, and belonging to the carriage far more than poor Mrs. Baffall
could ever hope to do. She held out her hand to him and laughed at his
evident embarrassment.

"You do remember me, I hope," she said.

"Why, of course--Alice," he replied. "I'm very glad you're coming; I'm
very anxious about it all."

"Oh--it's certain to be all right--and a big success," she replied.
"Aunt Baffall is making up her mind at this very moment to ask you to
come and dine with us to-night--aren't you, Aunt Baffall?"

"Yes, of course--if you think so--and if Mr. Jimmy can spare the time.
I'm sure that if I'd ever tried anything of this kind (that is, always
supposing that Baffall would have let me), I should have had such a
dreadful headache that I shouldn't have been able to eat or walk or do
anything else. You know what it is, my dear"--Mrs. Baffall turned
plaintively to Alice--"you know what it means for me when I even try to
write a letter. And when you come to a book (not that I could quite make
out the end of it, Mr. Jimmy, but I suppose you meant well), and then a
play, which, I suppose, has to be written too--it makes me feel quite
sorry for you. So that if you _can_ eat anything----"

Jimmy promised, almost with eagerness. It was a rare event in his life
to be going out anywhere in a friendly way; and he needed greatly just
then to find someone to whom to talk--someone to tell of his great
success and all that the future was to hold for him. He found himself
wondering, as he sat in the theatre, why he had not thought of Alice
before--why he had not known instinctively that she must have grown into
this flower-like creature--this rare and delicate beauty. He was to see
her to-night; he would have a chance of telling her a great deal about
himself and his work. He had been foolish to lose sight for so long of
such a girl as this; he remembered what good friends they had been in
far-off childish days. More than that, he considered with gratification
that they must regard him as something rare in the world of young men;
this boy who had been started in a warehouse, and now had blossomed into
an important man. He felt glad that they had come to find him at the

Escaping at last from the theatre, and from what now amounted almost to
the reproaches of Mr. Bennett Godsby, Jimmy hastened to his room, and
put on his rarely used dress suit. From a financial point of view,
things were very, very wrong with Jimmy; it was only by persistently
pointing out the flattering paragraphs in the newspapers that he had
been able to convince his landlady that if only she waited for a week or
two he would be able to pay all that was due. He had tried her with a
photograph of himself, reproduced in an evening newspaper; but it seemed
that she had once had a nephew "in trouble," as she expressed it, and
his portrait had appeared in much the same fashion; she was distrustful.

Jimmy walked, because he could not afford a cab, and because also the
night was fine. And as he walked, there passed him, going along the
road, an omnibus, and on the side of the omnibus, standing out clearly
and distinctly, the name of the theatre and the name of his play; it was
there for all London to read. He wondered what people would have
thought, had they known who he was, and what the names on the sides of
the 'buses (for there were others going on other routes) meant to him.
Though he walked with but a shilling or two in his pocket that night, he
felt once again as he had felt before--that he envied no man, and that
the world was very pleasant, and that the world smiled upon him.

For he was young, and he was talked about; and he had done something
already in the world. And a pretty girl had held his hand that day, and
had said that she was proud of him; and he was on his way now to see
her. What more, in the name of Fortune, need any man ask?



Jimmy had been dressed three hours before it was absolutely necessary
that he should be at the theatre, and then had wandered about his rooms,
tortured by doubts and fears; wondering if by chance it would not have
been better to have altered this line at the last, or to have extended
that phrase, so as to convey the meaning better. Suppose, after all, the
theatre took fire--now, when people were gathering at its very doors;
suppose the iron curtain refused to go up (such things had been known to
happen); or suppose Bennett Godsby, in the very hour of his triumph,
dropped dead from sheer excitement. Would there be a call for the
author, and should Jimmy go on, in that case? Nay, more--would he be
permitted to go on? That was the more vital question, because Bennett
Godsby had to be reckoned with in such a matter.

He went down to the theatre at last, to find the man at the stage door,
who always sat in the company of the gas stove and the very old dog,
rising to his feet to wish him good luck; Jimmy blushed to think that he
had not sufficient in his pocket for a tip. Also, there were telegrams;
one in particular from Alice, which he thrust into an inner pocket. Then
he went down on to the stage and looked about him.

Actually there was a man there--a property man, or some other debased
character--lounging on a settee, and whistling! It did not seem to occur
to him that so much depended on this night; if anything, the debased one
looked a trifle bored. Jimmy trembled at the thought that in the hands
of such people as this rested perhaps the fate of the play; for,
according to Bennett Godsby, the wrong coloured carpet put down on the
stage, or a chair six inches too much to the left, had ruined the fate
of the finest ere this. Thinking that, Jimmy went in search of Bennett
Godsby, with the object of cheering him.

He found him in his dressing-room, opening letters and telegrams, and
apparently not in the least anxious. The great man looked round at Jimmy
as he entered and nodded.

"I've got a ghastly feeling come over me, Larrance," he said--"a
horrible feeling that I shan't do myself justice to-night. It's the
life, I suppose; it's telling on me a bit. Every blessed thing seems to
have gone out of my head. I know I look calm," he added, as if in reply
to Jimmy's deprecatory smile, "but that's only manner. I've got to that
pitch that I simply don't care what happens--I don't indeed. It may suit
the part better, in a way--and it may not. Here--take this coat!"

He turned to the dresser, and began to prepare for the evening's work.
Jimmy, with a dull feeling that all was over with him, and that he
wished someone would stop the band then tuning up in the distance,
turned to go. Mr. Bennett Godsby called him back.

"By the way--you'll be somewhere about, I suppose?" he said.

"Oh, yes; I shall be somewhere about," replied Jimmy, and went out into
the streets again.

But the curtain went up in due time, and Mr. Bennett Godsby, also in due
time, went on to receive the applause of his friends in his dual
capacity of author and actor. Jimmy knew nothing of what was happening;
he could only guess, as he paced about outside, that this part of the
play had been reached, or that part; he knew that an act was over and
another begun when men in caps came tumbling out of the stage door, and
adjourned hurriedly to a neighbouring public-house. Then Jimmy ventured
inside again.

But he was not alone that night in his anxiety; there was someone else
who counted the hours, and wondered what was happening; someone who,
like Jimmy, but for a different reason, could have no sight of the
proceedings. Although Jimmy did not know it then, and was not to know it
until long, long afterwards, Moira had counted the days, and then the
hours; knew to a moment when the curtain was to rise; guessed almost to
a moment when it might fall again, and Jimmy's fate be known. And it was
her fate to stand outside, bitterly enough, and to see nothing.

She had not seen Jimmy since that night when she had gone to his rooms,
and had told him of herself and Charlie; that night she was so often to
remember, when she had seen him sitting in the circle of light from his
lamp; that night when the merciful darkness of the room had hidden her
tears. But she had thought about him often and often; had once, on a
little foolish impulse, put a common newspaper to her lips when she was
alone, because it spoke of him kindly and wished him well. Charlie knew
nothing of that; Charlie stood outside, as another part of her
life--something Jimmy did not touch.

Yet there had been a faint hope in her mind that she might have seen the
play--might have been present at Jimmy's triumph--for to imagine him
failing was impossible, she felt. More than that, there was in the girl
this night that strong, fine feeling--half the feeling of motherhood
almost--that made her feel she would have liked to take him in her arms,
and whisper words of comfort and of hope to him. It never occurred to
Moira that there might be others to do that; it never seemed possible to
her that this was a new Jimmy, grown out of old ways, and leaving her
lightly and easily enough to Charlie. To-night at least Jimmy--her
Jimmy!--stood alone, as it seemed to her, and she only understood from
what he had come, and what struggles he had had, before his name could
shine out before men as it did now. She wanted to tell him all this;
wanted to be somewhere near him--and yet quite secretly--so that at the
last crucial moment he might understand that she knew what he felt, and
that she was with him in his fight.

And yet--the difference! There had come no word from him--no suggestion
that she might like to see the play. She waited bravely until the very
end--the very moment when she knew that people must be gathering at the
theatre, and still nothing came. She determined then that she would go
down to the place; she might see something of him at least--might even
hear from others what was happening. Alone, and thinking only of him,
she made her way down the stairs; stopped for a moment at Charlie's
door. And as she stopped the door was opened, and Charlie stood there,
looking out at her.

"Hullo!--going out?" he asked, yawning a little. From his appearance he
had evidently been sitting over the fire for a long time, brooding.

"Yes, but only a little way," she said hurriedly, without looking at
him; for in a sense this was a disloyalty to Charlie. "I shan't be

"Shall I come with you?" he asked, but with no alacrity in his tone.

"No--I shall be back directly--very soon, I mean," she replied.

"Oh--all right," he said, and as she went down stairs he closed the door
and went back to the fire.

He sat down there in the comfortable warmth, and fell asleep. His pipe
dropped from his mouth, and lay unheeded at his feet; he slept for quite
a long time. When he awoke the room seemed cold and dark; the fire had
died down and was almost out. Muttering impatiently against it, he set
to work to replenish it; then, shuddering, looked round the place with a

"I hate this room," he muttered. "Here I seem to spend my life; to this
I get up in the morning; from this I go to bed at night. I wonder how
long it'll last? No hope--nothing to look forward to; every jolly fellow
I ever met gone from me, or gone ahead of me. It's cursed bad luck; if
it wasn't for Moira, I'd----I wonder whether she's back yet?"

After a moment or two he went up softly to the upper rooms, and opened
the door. Patience sat in her deep chair against the fire, asleep; there
was no one else there. Charlie closed the door, and came down again;
looked irresolutely about his own room.

"I'll go out," he muttered to himself. "I've got a fit of the blues, and
I'll walk them off. What the deuce did Moira want to go out for--and
stay away all this time?"

He got his hat and coat, and went out into the streets. It was a windy,
gusty night, with splashes of rain flung at the few people in the
streets; for a moment he hesitated, and almost turned back. But the
thought of the cheerless room decided him against it; he walked on
sharply into the brighter streets. And as he walked his spirits rose a

Meanwhile Moira had gone on, making straight for the theatre. Almost at
that time she was obsessed with the idea that Jimmy wanted her; that on
this night of all other nights he was lonely, even in the midst of his
success, and that he called to her. Wind nor gusts of rain mattered
anything to her then; it was Jimmy who called--Jimmy of whom she was
proud; Jimmy whom she loved at this moment as she had never loved him
before. In this hour her heart, so long held in check and starved within
her, woke and cried for him, as a child, waking from some uneasy dream
in the night, cries out for the touch of love--the sweet whisper of love
to calm and soothe its fears. Jimmy in a blaze of glory in the lighted
theatre was nothing to her then; her soul went out to the Jimmy of the
woods and the fields of her childhood. Through the streets of that
London that had taken them both into its cruel arms, and made of them
what it would, she went on to meet her Jimmy.

She came to the theatre, to find a crowd about it, and carriages and
cabs driving up in a long line. Only then did she realise that her
errand was a wrong one; that here was no place for her. She drew
back--poor shabby figure that she was--among those who waited in a line
at either side of the big doors to watch the carriage folk going in. And
then, for the first time, understood the bitterness of her position, as
she saw one bright girlish figure emerge from a carriage and flutter in
at the great doors. It was Alice.

Mr. and Mrs. Baffall came immediately afterwards, Mr. Baffall very much
out of place, and Mrs. Baffall but little more at ease. Peering through
the little crowd, Moira saw the girl greeting acquaintances
inside--almost heard the light ripple of her laughter. It wasn't
fair--it wasn't right that Jimmy should have forgotten. She drew back,
and got away from the crowd, and began to pace the streets again.

They would be taking their places now; Jimmy's play would be beginning.
Perhaps after all, she thought, she might contrive to get in; it would
be good to think that she might sit aloft somewhere and watch it, and
tell Jimmy about it afterwards. Yes--she would go in, although shillings
were hard to spare. She went round to a door in an alley, and mounted a
flight of stone steps; a man behind a little paybox window shook his
head at her.

"No good, miss; every seat gone, and not even standing room. Bless you,
they've been waiting 'ere for hours."

She turned away again, and went round again to the front of the theatre.
The last belated comers were hurrying in, and the crowd had gone; she
stood there helpless. Moving away a little, she came to a board hung
against the wall of the theatre; there in small print was Jimmy's name.
Glancing about her quickly, and seeing that she was alone, she softly
touched that name with her fingers, with infinite tenderness, before she
turned away.

"Jimmy," she said in a whisper, "you might have remembered, dear."

She did not go back at once, she paced the streets for a long time;
perhaps then some hardness was growing up in her heart--some new
bitterness at the fashion in which everything and everyone seemed to
have conspired to set her aside. When at last she turned her steps
towards Locker Street it had grown very late, and she was very tired;
she walked with lagging feet.

She got to the house and let herself in; the house was dark and silent.
Going slowly up the stairs, she had a mental picture of what she must
find when she reached her own rooms--Patience asleep in her chair, or
Patience asleep in her bed in her own small room. Perhaps, worst of all,
Patience asking questions--demanding querulously to know where she had
been; perhaps speaking of Jimmy. No--she would not face that yet; she
could not face it now. And so she halted on her way, and listened at the
door of Charlie's room for a sound within; rapped lightly, and, getting
no reply, turned the handle. The room was empty.

But the fire burned brightly, and the room held a welcome for her after
the wet and chilly streets. Charlie would come in presently, and they
could talk for a little while before she went to bed. For quite
desperately she wanted someone to whom to talk to-night--someone who
loved her; and Charlie had said, times without number, how much he loved
her. Poor Charlie, who was unsuccessful, and yet had always a good word
for her--always a smile with which to greet her.

She took off her hat and laid it down; presently stretched herself at
length on the shabby old sofa, and laid her cheek on her palm and looked
into the fire. The room was very silent; only the fire ticked a little
as it fell together; even the streets were quiet. Lying there, she
thought of what her life was to be, in all the days that were coming to
her--days of poverty and of struggle such as she had known for so long.

"Charlie and I will be together--and perhaps I shall be able to help
him," she murmured to herself. "It won't be so bad--with the firelight
in the winter--and a quiet room; and in the summer, when the sun shines,
the streets and the parks--and perhaps sometimes a glimpse of the
country. It won't be so bad--and there will be Charlie. And perhaps
Jimmy will----"

She broke off there, because her eyes had filled with tears, and she
could not go on. She turned her face a little, so that her arm hid it
from the fire; she seemed to murmur there a little brokenly: "Jimmy--you
might have remembered"--and again, "Jimmy!"

Then from sheer weariness she slept, and dreamed that she was back again
in the old days and the sun was shining. London was but a far-off dream,
and she did not know what it would be like. And so, when presently
Charlie Purdue opened the door and looked in, he saw her.

He came slowly across the room, and stood looking down at her; saw her
lying warm and rosy in the firelight, with the tears yet undried upon
her cheeks. As she murmured in her sleep, he suddenly stooped, and fell
upon one knee, and put his arms about her; it was his kiss upon her lips
that woke her to some consciousness of where she was.

"Moira! my Moira!" he whispered. "I didn't hope to find you here."

Still almost with that dream upon her, she wound her arms about his
neck, and nestled her head against his shoulder, as she might have done
as a little child, long, long before. Still in that dream, as it seemed,
and yet with a half memory of who she was and where she was, she
whispered, with her lips against his:

"Let me stay with you; don't send me away. I can't--I can't bear cold
looks to-night; don't speak to me. Let me stay; I want love to-night!"

It was his shame that he did not understand; his shame that he saw in
her only what he might have seen in any other woman he could meet and
conquer, in such an hour and under such circumstances. He wound his arms
about her and held her close, and put his lips to hers. And the fire
fell, and died down, and dropped to ashes.

       *       *       *       *       *

The dawn was stealing in faint and grey, and the room was very cold. She
stood against the door looking at him shamed and frightened, she shrank
away from him when he would have held her; she beat him off with feeble

"I didn't know, Charlie--I didn't understand," she breathed. And said it
over and over many times.

When he would have touched her, she crouched away from him, and looked
with wild eyes at the grey dawn that was coming in from the world
outside, as though this were a new world on which she looked, and she
was afraid of it. And presently fled up to her room, sobbing to herself
as she went.





There fell upon the little house in Locker Street, Chelsea, a silence
greater than had fallen before. Charlie Purdue dashed upstairs no more
with his laugh and his shout; Charlie Purdue was perplexed and a little
afraid. The thing that that happened--the careless, brutal thing of a
moment--had cut him off from the girl more completely than anything else
could have done; in a sense, he could not meet her eyes; in a sense, it
brought him back to what he was and to what he must do. At the mere
thought of her--the mere sight of her--he recognised the desperate
necessity for doing something with his life--making something of himself
for her sake. If she would only have spoken to him--if she would have
appealed to him in any set form of words to which he could have
replied--he would have been better satisfied and less ashamed; but the
tragedy of it was that she said nothing. Forced to remain there in the
very house with him, she avoided him, spoke always, when the necessity
arose, in mere monosyllables, and with hesitation. And that barrier he
failed to break down for a long time.

He strove to bring to bear upon the situation something of his old
cheery light-heartedness, however forced it might be; made something of
a foil of Patience, the better to rouse the girl. But she bent always
over her work, and only answered when actually challenged to do so by

Moira went no more to his room; she seemed to live a new life, apart
from him. When once or twice he carried some new project to her, in the
hope to rouse her sympathy, she answered dully enough; the old
enthusiasm had gone. It was not given to him to understand her, or to
know all that she felt, or what new outlook on life she took at that
time; he was merely resentful that she should avoid him; merely bitter
with himself that he should have driven her in that sense from him.
There were no reproaches; he saw no tears; merely she withdrew into
herself, and held him and the world at arms' length, and fought out this
new fight for herself. How the battle went he could not know, and he
dared not ask.

Now and then he persuaded himself that it would all be forgotten with
any new change of circumstances; other women had been willing enough to
forget--why not she? No one would ever know anything; the time was
coming when he would marry her, and when they would begin to live out
their lives together. He did her that grave injustice to believe that if
the world prospered with him, and he could take her legitimately to his
heart, she would be glad and relieved; he had no understanding of all
her trembling fears at that time--no knowledge of the many hours when
she wept in her bruised and troubled heart, and saw herself cut off from
the rest of the world for ever, by reason of what she called her sin.
She never spoke of it, because there was no one to whom she might speak;
but she looked out on the world from that time with different eyes--with
the eyes, sadly enough, of one who weeps for the might-have-been.

Stories she had read and heard came back to her--old scraps of poems,
forgotten, or but dimly understood until this time--poems that touched
this, the greatest of all tragedies. She knew now how to class
herself--was afraid of what any who had loved her might have said, had
they known the truth about her. She grew afraid to pray; in one bitter
moment of self-abandonment and shame was glad to think that Old Paul was
dead. Old Paul--who had wondered once what love would do to her in the
great world!

And this had not been love; bitterly she declared that to herself again
and again. She was of the stuff that would have walked barefoot through
hell in the service of a man to whom her heart had been fully given; and
lo! it had been her fate to fall in so poor a fashion as this. That was
the shame of it in her eyes.

She went once or twice to the house in which Jimmy lived. Not to see
him, because she told herself that she was never to see him again; that,
of all people in the world, he most of all must know nothing of
her--must forget her. She never acknowledged to herself why that should
be; she only thought of it with tears, many and many a time, as of
something she had lost and could never regain. Jimmy, who was once to
have said a word in a great crisis of her life--Jimmy, who had not said
that word; he was the one above all others who must not know anything
of this. Yet it was something of a comfort at that time to go to the
house wherein he lived; even to stand in the cold streets, and look up
at his windows and wonder what he was doing and how he fared. She found
that she could say a prayer for him easily and earnestly, even while she
could not pray for herself.

Once she was bold enough to climb the stairs of the house, on the
pretext of seeing him, and to wait outside the door of his rooms in the
darkness of the staircase; she put her face against the door, and
listened, almost thinking that she would go in for a moment, just to
touch his friendly hand--just to look into his eyes. But there came from
the room a shout of laughter, and the sounds of men's voices; she
hurried away again, and went home.

Meanwhile, the affairs of Charlie Purdue prospered not at all. He had
scandalised the little house in Locker Street by getting deeply into
debt with the landlady, and his constant assurances that he would be
able to pay very soon were beginning to be regarded with suspicion.
Always with that idea in his mind that presently something wonderful was
to happen--something which should mean to him unlimited money, earned at
the least possible expenditure of time or energy--he had racked his
brains to discover any and every person from whom he could borrow, and
had pretty nearly exhausted the list. The weeks had grown into months,
and Charlie had lost something of his gaiety and his brightness; quite
unused to trouble or responsibility, he fretted under the weight of
both, and became morose and taciturn and embittered. He got to that
easiest of all stages in such a career, wherein a man tells himself that
to fight any longer is absurd, and that the world must have its way, and
must do what it will with him. That further stage, wherein Charlie told
himself (and others who would listen) that he had a father, if you
please, with no one in the world dependent upon him; a father with a fat
living and a private income to boot; yet here was poor Charlie Purdue
(if you would but look at him for a moment) without a sixpence to call
his own, and with no prospects in the world. Charlie conveniently forgot
to mention how long-suffering the father in the fat living had been;
that was a mere matter of detail that did not concern the question. The
fact that Charlie, at the end of every such expression of opinion,
declared with much heartiness that all he wanted in this world was
plenty of work, if only someone would give it to him, commended him to
such as did not know him, and caused him to be referred to sighingly and
pityingly as "Poor Charlie Purdue."

He stooped to the depth of a meanness that was in a sense accidental
when he strove to borrow from Patience. Instinctively he chose a time
when Moira was away; and he was careful to explain to the old woman that
this was merely a temporary matter, and that he expected to be in funds
again in the course of a day or two; he seemed to suggest that it was
only a question, on the part of Patience, of paying it out with one
hand, and receiving it back with the other almost at once. Patience,
however, had other views; she asked questions as to what Charlie was
going to do in the near future. Evidently she had kept her eyes open,
and had, moreover, heard whispers regarding those shadowy prospects of
his of which he had suspected nothing.

"Well, you see, my dear Patience," Charlie explained, as carelessly as
he could, "it isn't for my own sake exactly; it has to do with Moira."

"With Moira?" The old woman looked at him under lowering brows, and with
a new note of suspicion in her tones. "Why with her?"

"Oh, I know nothing's been said about it yet," he went on, a little
lamely, "but it's settled between us that we're going to be married.
Don't look at me like that; we're awfully fond of each other--and I
shall do better with her than I should alone."

"I can quite believe that," replied Patience steadily. "But how are you
going to live?"

"That's the same old silly question that everyone seems to ask in this
world," retorted Charlie. "You don't seem to realise that I'm a
man--strong and healthy--and with all the world before me. I may have
failed in one or two things; but I shan't fail in everything. Moira and
I will be all right; it's only just at this present moment that things
are a little tight with me, and that I want a little temporary
assistance. You knew me in the old days, Patience--and you've seen
something of me recently----"

"Yes--I've seen a great deal of you," said the old woman; "but that
doesn't seem to have anything to do with it. You talk of love; what
right have you to speak of love, when you're simply an idler in the
world, unable to support yourself?"

"My dear Patience," he exclaimed, with some indignation, "you forget who
I am, and what my education has been. I've done my best; it's not my
fault if I've failed in--in various ways."

"It's not for me to blame you, Mr. Purdue," said the old woman steadily;
"and I'm not sure I was thinking about you. I was thinking about the
girl--Moira. What's going to become of her?"

"Oh--that'll be all right," he exclaimed. It was his invariable reply in
regard to everything, although be it noted it had grown a little fainter
and less confident during the past two or three months. "Moira
understands me; we shall get on splendidly."

"I suppose you think, Mr. Purdue, that I'm a rich woman--eh?" she asked
after a pause, during which she had swung a bunch of keys on one finger,
for the tantalising of the man who hoped that one of those keys might
unlock temporary wealth for him.

"Oh--I know that you're all right," retorted Charlie, with a laugh. "And
you'll have the satisfaction of knowing that it's on Moira's account as
much as on mine. She wouldn't like to see me suffer, I know." He smiled
expectantly, as he looked at the old woman.

"Very well, I'll talk to Moira about it," was her surprising reply, as
she dropped the keys back into her pocket and turned away.

But that would not suit Charlie at all; Moira might learn it afterwards,
but not now. "No--no--you mustn't do that," he exclaimed hurriedly. "It
might--might trouble her, you understand; I don't want her to think that
I'm worried to such an extent that I have to come to you. I wouldn't say
anything to Moira, Patience."

The old woman looked at him keenly. "Either I speak to Moira, or I let
the matter alone altogether," she said.

"Very well--let it alone altogether then," he exclaimed violently. "It's
only what I might have expected; anyone with any money in this world
seems to desire to stick to it, whether they actually need it or not;
there's no charity--no open-handedness--no disposition to help any poor
devil who has fallen by the way. Keep your money."

"I will," said the old woman imperturbably.

Whether or not Patience waited, in the hope or expectation that Moira
would say something to her concerning that all-important engagement, it
is impossible to say; certainly she made no attempt to question the
girl. She watched her intently at times; would look across at her over
the rims of her spectacles, and would note the bowed head and the
close-drawn lips; but she said nothing. She saw, perhaps with a pained
perplexity, that Moira grew quieter and quieter as the weeks went on;
that she sat more often in an attitude of dejection, staring into the
fire; but still she said nothing. Until at last one night, when they sat
alone together, Moira rose quickly from her chair, and made a movement
towards the door; it was as though she had suddenly made up her mind to
a thing that must be done.

"Where are you going?" asked the old woman, almost in a whisper.

"I'm going down--down to see Charlie," she replied, and laughed a
little, as though to reassure not only the anxious old woman, but
herself. "Only for a moment or two," she added.

Patience rose as the girl left the room; she stood still, with her hand
resting on the table; she watched the door through which Moira had
disappeared. Then, with set lips, and some new determination in her
eyes, she crossed the room on tip-toe, and went out on to the landing.
There she stood and looked over, and listened, and presently stole down
the stairs, and stood outside the door. Hearing but little, she yet
understood what the girl's errand was--seemed to understand in a flash
all that the change in the girl had indicated--all that the old woman
herself had been until that night unable to understand.

Charlie had turned, with some note of surprise in his tones, to greet
the girl; for this was the first time she had been to his rooms for some
three months. With something of his old cheery manner he welcomed her,
and set a chair for her near the fire. She moved across to it, but did
not sit down; instead, she leaned upon the back of it, and looked
steadily into the flames, as though debating in what form of words she
should say what was in her mind.

"Why, my dear girl--it's an age since you've honoured me with a visit,"
he said. "And how solemn you look; quite tragic." He made a movement
towards her, as though he would have dropped an arm about her shoulders;
saw the eyes that were turned upon him, and recoiled. For the eyes were
swimming in tears, and there was in them such an agony of despair and
misery that it struck him dumb. He stood looking at her for a moment or
two with a dropped jaw.

"Why, old girl," he blurted out at last, "what's wrong? Why do you look
at me like that?"

"Charlie--don't you--don't you know?" It was a mere whisper, but he
heard it, and partly understood, even while he told himself in his heart
that he would not understand and would not believe. As he moved towards
her she dropped her head on the back of the chair, and he heard the
sobbing cry that broke from her.

"Dear God!--what shall I do?"

He stood for a moment like one stunned; then he took her roughly by the
shoulders and twisted her round. She hid her face, and while he strove
to drag her hands away he spoke brutally, because of his own terror.

"You're wrong--you don't know what you're talking about. Come now--look
at me--speak to me--tell me."

She murmured behind her hands; he bent his head to listen. Then he got
away from her and walked across to the fireplace, and stood there,
beating his foot impatiently on the floor and biting his lips. Presently
he came back to her and laid his hand on her shoulder, and spoke

"Now, look here--don't be silly--and don't give way. It'll be all right;
you can take that from me, now, Moira; it'll be all right. You may be
mistaken; I don't know anything about that; but in any case, it'll be
all right. Do you understand?"

She shook her head in a dull, feeble sort of way, and he took her in his
arms and soothed her, and kissed away her tears. Over and over again he
impressed that upon her; it would be all right.

"Money or no money, we'll get married; it's only a little earlier than I
meant--and no one can say a word against you then. I'm not a blackguard;
I'll do the right thing. I'll get money from somewhere--from my father,
if necessary; and I'll make him give me something to do--work of some

"Soon?" she whispered.

"At once," he exclaimed. "I'll go down to-morrow; he's a good sort
really, and he won't leave us in the lurch. There now"--he took her by
the shoulders, and shook her rallyingly, and looked into her eyes--"the
tears are gone--aren't they? That's right; give me a smile, if it's only
an April one. And keep that in your mind clearly, my dear; it'll be all

Patience crept away upstairs noiselessly; when presently Moira came in,
she saw the old woman seated in her chair as usual, with her eyes
closed, and apparently asleep. But that night, when Moira lay
wakeful--thinking long thoughts, and striving to look into a future that
was dark and frightening, the door of her room was softly opened, and
the old woman came in.

For a moment or two the queer-looking old figure in night array stood
looking at the girl with a trembling lip; she was a little afraid to go
near her. Then, stirred to tenderness by some understanding of the
girl's desperate need, she set down her candle, and stretched out her
thin arms; and with a cry Moira rose to meet her, and the two faces--the
young and the old--the one of the woman with no experience, and the
other of the woman who had learned so much--were bent together, and the
kindly rain of tears fell from them and eased their hearts. There
seemed no need for real words; it was the mere confused murmur of one
woman to another, in a matter that only a woman could know and
understand. Dawn, striking into the poor room, saw Moira sleeping in the
old woman's arms, and Patience, cramped and tired, keeping watch with
her, as she had done through the long night.

By the morning Charlie was gone. To do him justice, he carried with him
the remembrance of the girl's tear-stained face, and of her broken,
dejected figure as she had leaned on the back of the shabby old chair,
and whispered the dread that was in her heart. That made him valiant to
face his father--to secure something for the future that should mean not
only something for himself, but for Moira. He was very indefinite about
it in his own mind; he only told himself, again and again, as he had
told her, that something must be done, and--that it would be all right.

He strode through the little town of Daisley Cross with his head erect;
albeit he was a shabbier figure than he had been in the old days. It was
a curious feeling, because he could not remember ever having been shabby
in that place before; and yet with that new virtue on him he was not
ashamed. In a sense, he felt that he could meet his father, because that
father must inevitably recognise that here had been no squandering of
money; but that Charlie, though unfortunate, must have lived hard and
lived carefully. Which was the impression he desired to create.

The Rev. Temple Purdue walked in his somewhat neglected garden that
morning, looking thoughtfully at all the decay and débris of the dead
year, and thinking perhaps of the decay of his own hopes. He raised his
eyes at the click of the gate--stood still, expectant, with a flushed
face, as Charlie advanced towards him. Something of his love for the
young man shone in his eyes for a moment, and was in his grasp when he
gave a reluctant hand; then in a moment he was the stern father again,
waiting to hear what Charlie had to say.

To begin with, Charlie was repentant; he saw now how much he might have
done had he been more careful. It must not be understood, according to
Charlie's account, that he whined about it; no--he was simply ready to
face whatever future might be given him, and to face it boldly. He
wanted it to be understood that he had learned his lesson, and learned
it well; the Rev. Temple Purdue heard with some astonishment that this
remarkable son thanked his father for having given him the opportunity
of learning that lesson.

They went to the house together, with a better understanding growing
between them than there had been for a very long time. The heart of the
old man had ached with longing for some such moment as this, and he had
not believed that it could ever arise; yet here was the prodigal,
smiling at him, and thanking him, and promising anything and everything.
The old man furtively wiped his eyes more than once as he listened to
what Charlie had to say. And Charlie, as might have been expected under
emotional circumstances, said too much.

"You've got to understand, sir, that I'm a different sort of man from
what I was," he said, wagging his head strenuously at that disreputable
figure of himself now rapidly vanishing into the background. "I've got
responsibilities, and I mean to live up to them. I hope I know my duty
to myself, as well as to others. That's why I want to make a start;
that's what I mean when I say I'm going to live a different sort of

The father caught only one or two words, and clung to them; he looked
round quickly at his son. "Responsibilities? To others?"

"Yes," said Charlie, not quite so boldly nor so bravely; "one other, at
any rate. There's--there's a woman." He had decided, on the mere impulse
of the moment, not to mention that woman's name; it was no use making
the case harder against himself than was necessary.

The old man stiffened and set his lips. "A woman?" he asked, in a
different tone.

"Yes--someone I'm very fond of--someone who is very fond of me. I
want--want to marry her."

Mr. Purdue's face cleared. "My dear boy--you quite startled me for the
moment; forgive me that I did not understand," he said. "But we need not
talk about that now; I applaud your desire to settle down, and to lead a
more regular life; but when you are established there will be time
enough to arrange about your marriage. If this girl is worthy of you,
she will wait, my boy."

"She can't wait--it's impossible," blurted out the son. "That's why I'm
here to-day; that's what my responsibility means, I must marry her--and
at once."

His father took a step towards him, and looked into his face; drew his
breath sharply. "You mean----"

Charlie nodded slowly, without looking up. His father looked at him for
a long minute, and then turned and walked to the door, and opened it. He
seemed to brace himself in a curious fashion for what he had to say, but
he was none the less resolute in his determination to say it. He seemed,
as he drew himself up, to look taller than Charlie had ever seen him.

"So this is the meaning of your new resolution--of your sudden desire to
get into a decent position, and to secure some money--is it?" he asked.
"Not content with the wrong you have done yourself, and the shame you
have brought upon me, you have involved some wretched woman in deeper
shame yet."

"She's a good woman," muttered Charlie.

"That is impossible," retorted the other quickly. "But I will not
discuss the matter with you; I have finished with you for good and all.
Get out of my house." He pointed to the door as he spoke, but kept his
face averted from his son.

"Oh, very well." Charlie lounged towards the door, stopped for a moment
close to the old man to speak. "You'll do nothing for me--or for her?"

"Your companions and your friends do not concern me. Your duty, which
you appear to know so clearly, points you straight to her, and demands
that you shall do her justice and shall marry her; but with that I have
nothing to do."

"Very good." Charlie heaved a deep sigh, and turned towards the open
door. "I've promised her it'll be all right--and I'll keep my word, even
if we starve together. And I hope you'll never remember, at some time
when you'd be glad to forget, what you've said to me. Good-bye--and this
for the last time."

He flung out of the house, and across the garden, and disappeared into
the wind-swept road. After a moment of silence the old man turned, and
put a hand across his eyes; then swayed to the door, and went out
quickly. "Charlie!" he called. "Charlie!" But there was no response, and
the garden and the road seemed empty.

Charlie paced the station for an hour or more, waiting for a train to
take him back to London; and the longer he paced, and the more he
thought about matters, the deeper and the more fixed became his
resolution to do that right thing on which he had set his mind, and
regarding which he had made so many promises. Even in the railway
carriage at last, on his way back to London, he nodded across at the
opposite seat, as though the girl sat there and could hear him, and told
her what he would do.

"It'll be all right," he said. "Money, or no money, we'll get
married--and no one shall point a finger at you. Then the old man'll be
sorry; he'll understand that I've done the right thing, and am in that
sense a better Christian than he is, in spite of his cloth. Don't you
worry, Moira--because there's nothing to worry about. When once I get
back to London, I'm going to take up real work; I'll decide before the
end of the week whether I'll go in for painting, or writing, or
something else easy like that. After all, perhaps it's best that this
has happened; it'll put strength into me, and make me do things for the
sake of somebody else. I shouldn't be surprised to find in the long run
that there was quite a Providence in it for us both."

He was still troubled, however, about the business; he felt a lump
coming in his throat more than once at the thought of the bitter
injustice to which he had been subjected by his father. It wasn't fair.
Here was a young man, trying to do his solemn duty in the face of
tremendous odds, and his own father refused to help him. Oh, it wasn't
right at all!

He had had but a scanty breakfast, and he was faint and tired and
discouraged by the time his slow train got to London. There was still a
shilling or two in his pockets; he went into the bar of the refreshment
room, and ordered something that should put new courage into him for
that indefinite fight with the world that was beginning that very week.
It put such courage into him that he told himself he was going to be
very good to Moira; she should live to bless the day on which she had
met him. So he had some more of that liquid courage--and yet some
more--telling himself, in a despairing, half-whimsical way, that for
this lapse his poor old father was directly responsible, had he but
known it. And then went out into the streets, with his hat on the back
of his head and his hands in his pockets to make his way to Moira.

I think he must have been murmuring to himself again that it would be
all right when the accident happened. He never knew very much about it;
he was crossing a road, and there were shouts and the screaming of a
woman, and the thunder of horses' hoofs; then he turned about, and beat
feeble protesting hands against the moving thing that was crushing him,
and then lost consciousness.

When he woke up, as it were, he was in a strange place, with strange
faces about him; there seemed to be a great weight on his lungs and in
his head; he could not breathe well, and he found it difficult to speak.
Someone, bending an ear down to him to get a faint whisper, and
wondering a little perhaps why he smiled so cheerfully, seemed to think
that he said twice over that it would be all right, and that he wanted
to see Jimmy. And so, with some labour, they got a name and an address
from him, and wrote them down. And as soon as possible sent for a
certain Mr. James Larrance to come in all haste to see a man who had but
an hour to live.



In an accidental haphazard way Jimmy had succeeded. Mr. Bennett Godsby
had scored something of a success with that play in the making of which
he had so largely interested himself, and the secret of the authorship
had leaked out. Moreover, sundry people, reading the book, had lighted
on that idea for themselves, and had seen what was indefinitely referred
to as "promise" in it. And so it had come about that someone greater
than Bennett Godsby had descended upon Jimmy, and had held out a bait in
the form of a pink cheque for one hundred pounds--this time with no
deductions. And Jimmy had gasped and wondered, but had fortunately kept
his head; and so had started, with that bait for comfort and support,
on the writing of another play for the man greater even than Bennett

The world was changed, so far as Jimmy was concerned; he looked at it
through rose-coloured glasses. No more poverty nor struggling; no more
counting up of small gains; no more dodging of landladies. Jimmy had yet
to learn, of course, that the struggle is never done, and that it goes
on to the very end; but he did not know that then.

Also, Jimmy was going into Society--with what was for him a very large
"S." That Society comprised, in the first place, Mr. Bennett Godsby (who
kept touch with the young man, with an eye to the future) and Mrs.
Bennett Godsby and daughter; also the new and greater one with whom
cheques for a hundred pounds appeared to be but casual things; and the
Baffalls and Alice. More particularly, it may be said, the Baffalls and

It was a pleasant thing for a man who lived in somewhat shabby rooms
alone to have a little note delivered to him in the morning, making an
appointment for the evening; a little dinner, or a theatre party--or
even a mere going round to a pleasant house to see the Baffalls--and
especially Alice. It was an excuse for putting on that evening dress
which spelled prosperity; it was an easy and a pleasant ending to a day
of work. So that he went often, and saw much of her.

Perhaps her greatest merit in his eyes was what may be termed her
adaptability. She had no emotions and no rough edges; you did not need
to be afraid of her. Whatever you talked about you discovered she
understood, and was sympathetic; which, on later reflection, meant that
she had no particular views about anything, but that her views were
yours. In other words, you discovered, on thinking about it, that her
conversation had been limited largely to monosyllabic affirmatives or
negatives--carefully interlarded with smiles; and that you yourself had
talked a great deal, having been encouraged to do so by the smiles.

But she was always pretty, and always restful; and if you told her of a
disappointment or a worry she had always a tender--"Poor boy!"--or some
such soothing word to throw at you. Then again, when one was back in
one's lonely rooms at night, it was pleasant to think what she would
have been like, sitting in that empty chair at the other side of the
fireplace; pleasant to think how she would have smiled, and what she
would have said, and what she would have done. Always, of course, with
the proviso that she must be in the same sort of pretty frock you had
admired so much that night, with the dimpled arms showing, and the
firelight dancing on her hair and in her blue eyes. In effect, when
Jimmy came to consider the matter, he knew that he must regard her
always in the light of an ornament--something that others must admire
quite as much as he did; something about which people must whisper
enviously, and call him a lucky dog.

Even when he tried the experiment of talking about his work and his
plans and hopes, she was quite as satisfactory. She knew just when to
nod--just when to remind you how clever you were--just when to wonder
how you managed to think of such brilliant things. And her capacity for
listening was marvellous.

Jimmy having found it necessary, as has been stated, to reconstruct his
world, and to dismiss Moira from that share in his prosperity which he
had originally designed for her, came to decide that he might after all
do worse than fall in love with Alice. Some day or other he must marry;
some day or other there must be someone as beautifully dressed, and as
beautiful in herself as this girl, who would take her place with him in
the great world into which he was slowly moving, and would be admired as
much as he was admired for his work. That was inevitable--and Alice
would be most satisfactory.

Let it not be supposed that he actually said this thing to himself in so
cold-blooded a fashion; rather that that was the actual impression in
his mind. There was that adaptability about him at that time, when his
work chiefly held possession of him, that would have enabled him to fall
in love quite easily with anyone half as pretty as Alice; there was no
task about it, and he had for a long time found himself anxiously
watching the hours when he was separated from her--anxiously longing for
the time when he should see her. This was no grand passion in any sense
of the word; it was merely a man and a maid who saw much of each other,
and who were on the friendliest terms; it wanted but the slightest touch
of either of them to set them on fire, and to see the thing done and
settled. Perhaps Daniel Baffall and his wife nodded over it together
more than once, and said in whispers that this was what might naturally
be expected; perhaps Alice had her own views, and knew pretty clearly,
as she usually did, what was coming.

Of course, there were others. There were men who came there,
disturbingly enough, on occasions when Jimmy had hoped to find her
alone; men who seemed to know a great deal about her pursuits, and who
even had the audacity to make appointments with her for the following
day or for other days, quite as though they had a right to do so.
Generally speaking, however, the others may be said to have resolved
themselves in time into a certain Mr. Ashby Feak; so that Jimmy's
jealousies melted away, even as the other men melted away, and centred
round Ashby Feak, and round him alone.

Ashby Feak was a tall fair man, at whose age it would be difficult to
guess, and concerning whose life various stories were told. He had been
abroad a great deal, and had done something in the way of exploration in
a mild way in various places; had written a little concerning his
travels. That he was interesting there was not the slightest doubt; that
he had a wider and a deeper knowledge and experience of the world than
Jimmy was also beyond question. Daniel Baffall did not like him, and
Mrs. Baffall was a little afraid of him; but he came often,
nevertheless, and in a sense he monopolised the girl, after a time, as
no other man had done. She still held to Jimmy in a half-hearted way;
but Jimmy found it difficult to discover her alone, and the old cordial
talks were things of the past.

He manoeuvred to see more of her, and was sometimes successful;
sometimes, in fact, he was able to take the girl, with Mrs. Baffall for
company, to places into which Ashby Feak could not go; while Ashby Feak,
on his side, could return that compliment easily enough. And Alice
received both men apparently on equal terms--now and then bestowing a
favour upon Jimmy, and the next moment taking it away from him, in a
sense, for the better encouragement of Mr. Feak. In the long run,
however, Jimmy told himself that Ashby Feak seemed to score more than he

Jimmy was in that bitter mood engendered by the receipt of a note from
her, suggesting that she would be unable to keep an appointment made
with him, and suggesting further that he had been "horrid" to her the
night before, when that hurried message came which summoned him to
Charlie's bedside. All he heard was that a man was dying, and had craved
to see him; he had no suspicion of who the man was. But the summons
drove from his mind that lighter business of jealousy, and sent him off
at once to find the man.

That poor, broken, misguided thing called Charlie Purdue was fast losing
his strong grip on life by the time Jimmy--subdued and wondering and
sorry--was brought to him. There had been no time to summon anyone else;
indeed, but for that faint glimmer of intelligence which had allowed of
the getting of the address and the sending for Jimmy, Charlie had lain
passive, watching the light change outside the high windows in the great
ward in which he lay, and solemnly facing this, the last phase in his
tumultuous life. Watching it so solemnly even, that he was able to see
only one dark-eyed girl (he remembered with a pang that the eyes had
been filled with tears when last he had looked into them), and the
remembrance of a promise he had made--long, long ago, as it seemed--that
it would be all right! Strangely enough, the instinct to make it all
right had urged him, racked with pain though he was, and with death
looking in at the great windows, to send for Jimmy. He did not know yet
what Jimmy was to do; but Jimmy had loved her, and they had fought
together over her--this dying man and the other--years before. Jimmy
would know--Jimmy would remember.

For a time the man in the bed and the man standing beside it held hands
and said nothing; perhaps because there was so much to be said. A doctor
had shaken his head, and pursed up his lips, and turned away; a nurse,
at a nod from the doctor, had held something to the man's lips and had
turned away, too. Jimmy bent down, and put his face close to that of the
other; and even then, in that hour, Charlie was laughing as it seemed;
at all events his eyes laughed.

"It's going to be quick," he whispered. "I may slip away while you look
at me. I know enough of the game--quite enough for that. It's a
bit--bit of a silly ending--isn't it?"

Jimmy said nothing; he could only hold the hand, and stare into the face
of this man who had been his friend as a boy--this man who had made such
a poor business, as it seemed, of the life that had been given him.

"Only--for God's sake--listen to me." Charlie's eyes closed for a
moment, and he seemed to set his teeth to keep back a groan. "It isn't
me--it's someone--someone else. It's a woman."

Jimmy nodded. It seemed, as he bent over the other man, that he must
remember all his life this quiet ward, with the high windows, and the
fading light outside, and the man in the bed whispering. It was as
though he had entered upon another life--something stronger and more
forceful than anything he had yet understood. He was miles away from the
petty smallnesses and jealousies that had been his for some time past.

"You know her--Moira. One of the best, Jimmy--damn sight too good for
me. We were going--going to be married. I--you needn't look at me for a
minute--I wronged her."

Jimmy was looking at him intently; the words seemed to sing through his
ears like some tune he had remembered. "I wronged her!--I wronged her!"

"I was a beast--but I've promised--promised faithfully it would be all
right. She'll die--kill herself, I think--shame, you know. There's going
to be--a child. Jimmy--what shall we do?"

In that last hour, as it seemed, the two were drawn together; the great
city that had sucked their lives into itself, and made of them what it
would, was a thing forgotten; almost they were boys again in the woods
and the fields; almost it seemed that the one stretched out hands to the
other, and craved for help.

"It won't be long--before I'm gone, Jimmy"--the other hand was feebly
groping for the stronger hand of the man beside the bed--"Jimmy--she'll
be all alone--and--and the child. You loved her--I think you did--and
she was fond of you----"

This was what he had meant to say; even if it was unfinished in words,
his eyes said the rest. Jimmy, looking at him, seemed to have a vision
of something else beyond him; seemed to see this woman bowed in shame,
and left lonely and helpless. And in a curious, ironical, half-whimsical
way, quite apart from the tragedy of it, this fitted in with Jimmy's
mood of the day--was but the legitimate complement of the bitterness of
the morning. Alice was not for him; Alice turned to another man; and
here was something that Jimmy might do that must for ever place him on a
lonely and wonderful pedestal, far above Alice, and far above the petty
things of the world in which he lived. He saw it all; saw that,
wonderfully, he must step forward to rescue this girl, and must perforce
occupy that lonely position, because of her and of the sacrifice he made
for her--that position he had long ago seemed to map out for himself in
his mind.

So swift was his thought that even before he answered he seemed to see a
radiant figure standing before him--and he obdurate; he, with some
sadness, declaring that it could never be--that he had sacrificed
himself for someone else. And so rising to a point in her view, and in
the view of others, to which he could never under more commonplace
circumstances have reached. He voiced that thought, in a measure, when
he answered the dying man.

"I think I understand," he whispered. "You would have done the right
thing for her?"

"Yes--yes--I would!"

"But there is no time? I understand; she shall not be left alone. I did
love her--I'll marry her."

"Oh--may God bless you!" The feeble spluttering lips were pressed
against his hands; Charlie was laughing and crying hysterically. "Swear
it--swear you'll make her marry you!"

"I swear it; she shall not suffer," said Jimmy; and there was in him a
great and sudden uplifting of his heart at the thought of this thing he
was to do.

Charlie had but little else to say; the few mutterings he made, in the
few minutes that remained, could scarcely be distinguished even by the
man who bent above him. But at the last, with some faint suspicion of
the old cheery smile that had been his always, he drew Jimmy's head down
to him, and whispered a message:

"Tell her--tell her from me--I said it'd be--be all right!"

Then someone drew a screen about the bed, and Jimmy went out into the
late winter afternoon, with some of his elation gone; and thinking
deeply of the man who lay so quiet in the big ward with the high

At first he was all for going straight to Moira, and telling her; he saw
himself breaking the news of this sudden death; and then soothing her by
telling her what he had done, and what he had promised; perhaps he began
to wonder a little how she would receive him under those circumstances.
But when he had walked a little way towards Chelsea, he suddenly decided
that he must not see her yet; when he went to her she must be prepared,
and must know beforehand all that had happened. Therefore he hurried
home, and wrote a letter to Patience--telling her what had happened, and
begging her to break the news to the girl as gently as possible. He
added in the letter that he would come the next day, and see Moira; he
wanted to talk to her. He made it clear that he had seen Charlie at the
last, and had been with him when he died; he made it clear also that he
had a message from the dead man to Moira.

That despatched, he sat down to think over the situation--to consider
fairly and clearly the position in which he found himself. He discovered
that he rather liked it; he felt that this was in a sense altogether
appropriate. He was to do a great and noble thing--and in the doing of
it was to have two women at his feet in one moment. The first, because
he gave up everything for her and to preserve her good name; the second,
in wonder and awe that any man could do such a thing. He quite saw Alice
blaming herself that she had trifled, even for a moment, with such a man
as this.

Being, as it were, the executor of Charlie Purdue's poor affairs, he
wrote also to the Rev. Temple Purdue, telling him of what had happened;
he did not know, of course, that Charlie had been returning from a visit
to his father at the time of the accident.

He went on the following morning to Locker Street, Chelsea. If the truth
be told he rather dreaded the coming interview--rather wondered, in
fact, how Moira--this new Moira of whom he knew nothing--would take the
suggestion he had to offer. He had always thought of her in a curious,
indefinite, detached fashion--as of someone he did not really
understand; he wondered now how he was to be met--whether by tears and
self-reproaches--or in what other fashion.

But he was destined not to meet her then. He found his way upstairs, and
was met at the door of the room by Patience--Patience with an
inscrutable face, save that the eyes were tragic. They shook hands in
silence, and he followed her into the room.

"Where's Moira?" he asked; and it was curious that he spoke in the
subdued tones of one speaking of someone ill or dead. "I want to see

"She's not here," replied Patience. "I--I don't know where she is."

"Not know where she is?" he demanded. "But you had my note; you know
what has happened?"

"Yes--I know," replied the old woman in a dull, level voice. "And she
knows, too; I told her last night."

"Well--what did she say?"

"She didn't say anything; she seemed stunned," said Patience. "I broke
it to her gently; I said there had been an accident, and that someone
she loved--just like that I put it--someone she loved was dead. And the
funny thing was that she looked at me wildly--and said another name--not
his at all."

"Another name?" Jimmy looked at her in perplexity. "Whose?"

"Yours. She must have been thinking of something else," said the old
woman. "Then, when I told her who it was, she sat for a long time
brooding; but she didn't say anything. And this morning she went out
quite early, without a word to me."

"I'll come again," said Jimmy, moving towards the door. And at the door
she called him softly.

"Mr. Jimmy--did he tell you anything?" It was a mere whisper, and she
looked at him intently while she spoke.

"Everything. That's what I'm to see her about," he said. "I'll come

He went back to his own rooms, and tried to work; but he could only
think of the man who lay dead, and of the girl who was in a sense his
pitiful legacy. He felt he could do nothing until he had seen her; until
he had completed the work left for him. After that he would settle down
again to the life he knew--the life of which this had been so strange an

There came a note from Alice--a little hurried scrawled thing--demanding
petulantly to know what had become of him, and whether he would not go
and see her that evening; she would be all alone, she said, and promised
to be very good. He was tearing it up slowly when there came a
hesitating knock at the door; he went to open it, and found waiting
there, outside on the landing, old Mr. Purdue. He took his hand, and
drew him into the room, and shut the door.

Jimmy's head was in a whirl; there seemed at that time so many vital
things to be thought about and arranged--things more vital than he had
ever touched before. On the one hand, the desperate woman whose lover
was gone; on the other, the woman who wrote from the security of her
assured position, and asked him to go and see her. And, lastly, this
broken old man whose only son was dead--the only hope he had in life
gone. Jimmy dropped the pieces of paper in the fire, and faced Mr.

"I came at once," said the old man. "It was kind of you to do what you
have done--you have been most thoughtful. I would have liked--liked to
have seen him again--alive, I mean. Because, you know"--he spread out
his hands with a feeble gesture that was pitiful to see--"because, you
know--this was my fault."

"Your fault?" Jimmy looked at him in astonishment.

"Yes. He came down to see me--he wanted to tell me something--wanted me
to help him. And I drove him away; I wouldn't listen to him. I wish I'd
listened now."

Jimmy stood waiting; he knew there must be something else to be said; he
wondered, in view of what was in his own mind, what he might have to say
himself. Mr. Purdue stood nervously rubbing one hand over the back of
the other, and blinking his eyes at the fire; it almost seemed as if he
tried to weep, but had forgotten the trick of it.

"When Charlie came to me--he spoke of a woman--some woman he must
marry," went on the old man. "I would not listen to that--and I should
have listened, I suppose. I suppose you know nothing--nothing about

"Yes--I know everything," replied Jimmy, steadily. "I know the woman
well; she will be provided for."

He did not mean it quite in that way--did not intend, perhaps, to put
the statement so crudely; but in face of this new and strange situation
he seemed to be acting in a new and strange fashion. Proud, in a curious
sense, of what he was to do, he yet had in him that chivalry which would
make him keep secret Moira's name, even while he boasted of what he was
to do for her. While the old man stared at him, he repeated that phrase
he had used.

"She will be provided for," he said again; and he said it sternly.

"I'm glad," replied the other, with something of a sigh of relief. "I'm
glad he thought of that--at the last."

Mr. Purdue asked but a few questions after that; and then set out to do
all that was to be done for the dead man. There was to be an inquest;
and after that the father had decided to take the son back to the place
where he had lived as a boy. Jimmy was not, of course, concerned in
that, and the two men parted presently; the one to go back to the
solitary life he had lived so long--the other to step forward into the
new life that was so strangely opening for him.

Always with that feeling in his mind of the great thing he was doing,
Jimmy decided to do it very completely; he would not go near Alice
again, nor would he reply to her note. The time was coming when he could
stand before her, as he had already suggested, and would let her know
of this thing he had done; the time when he would very beautifully, as
he felt, go out of her presence for ever, leaving an ineffaceable memory
behind him, to be treasured by her while she lived.

He was hugging that thought to himself, and was deciding that he would
go and see Moira, and tell her what her fate was to be; and he had
lingered over it a little until the day had grown dark; when he was
thrown a little off his balance by Moira coming to him. He was sitting
at his desk--not working, but with the circle of light from his lamp
falling upon his brooding face, when she came softly in, and stood
within the door, looking at him. Just so once before she had seen him,
on a night when he was to have spoken a word to her that should have
changed the current of their lives; just so she saw him now, for a
moment, before he moved, and rose, and came towards her.

"You wished to see me?" She stood still in the shadows of the room; it
was strange, he thought, that she made no attempt to take his hand. For
his part, he found himself looking at her with a new feeling--a feeling
of wonder. She stood here so quiet and calm--apparently so perfectly
self-possessed. His notion of a possible interview had been that it
would be a thing of tears and lamentations; that she would be bowed at
his feet. Not, to do him justice, that he desired that; it merely fitted
in with his idea of what was right under the circumstances. And here she
was, asking calmly if he wished to see her.

"Yes," he replied, a little awkwardly. "You had my message--you know
what has happened?"

She nodded slowly; she kept her eyes fixed upon his; she seemed to be
waiting breathlessly for something he was to say. "Charlie's dead," she
said; "and I suppose he sent a message to me."

Jimmy set a chair for her, but she did not seem to notice it. She
watched him as he moved, and her eyes were on his face when he turned
again to her. Her impatience was shown by the fact that she said again,
in the same quick whisper: "He sent a message for me?"

"Yes." Jimmy felt that the interview was not arranging itself in the
proper way at all. "He told me--told me everything about--about you; he
sent for me on purpose."

She nodded slowly again; her face was very white. "So that you know--you
know what I am?" she breathed.

"I have not said anything about that," said Jimmy, more disconcerted
than ever. "If Charlie had lived he would have married you; but there
was no time. He died so quickly. But his message to you--the last
message of all--was that it would be all right."

She smiled a little wanly; she shook her head. "Poor Charlie!--that was
always what he said. And now he has gone, and it can't be all right at
all--can it?"

"I think it can," said Jimmy, turning away from her, and walking across
to the fireplace. "That was why Charlie sent for me; and that is why
I--I wanted to see you. Because, you see, Moira--I'm going to make it
all right."

"You?" She started violently, and made a movement towards him; checked
herself, with a hand upon her lips. "What have you to do with it?"

"Everything. I promised Charlie before he died that I would do what he
was to have done, had he lived. I promised him that I would marry you."

There was a deathlike silence in the room for a moment or two; Jimmy
seemed literally to feel her eyes looking at him, even though his back
was turned towards her. Almost for a moment he expected an
outburst--though whether of gratitude or of shame he could not tell. But
when she spoke it was in a clear, steady, level voice--much as she
might have spoken had she been discussing the fate of someone else.

"But why are you doing this?" she asked.

"It seems to be the better way," he replied, glancing round at her for a
moment. "In the first place, I promised Charlie that I would do it; and
I mustn't break that promise. He died happily, because he knew that it
would be all right for you. So many people would suffer if anything went
wrong with you; and I suppose it's a man's privilege to
protect--and--and support a woman. As for me--well, I'm glad to do it."


"Yes--quite glad. I was always very fond of you, Moira; we've been
friends for a long time; we were almost sweethearts as boy and
girl--weren't we?----Did you speak?"

She shook her head, and after a moment's pause he went on again. And now
she looked at him no more.

"I am bound up in my work, and in the future that seems to be opening
out before me," he said. "In a sense, I may be said to be wedded to my
work; I do not think I ever meant really to marry. But I will give you
my name--and that, as I say, I do gladly. You will be Mrs. Larrance--and
no one will be able to say a word against you. We shall be good
friends--and that will be all. In the eyes of the world you will be my
wife; but we shall go on as before."

The silence after that grew to such a length and became so tense that at
last Jimmy looked round fully at her, wondering a little that she did
not speak. He saw that she stood with her head bowed; he did not know,
and did not even guess, that her tears were falling fast in the silence
of the room. He did not know, nor did he guess, that for one word of
tenderness or kindness in that hour she would have fallen before him,
and have kissed his feet.

"Well--you don't say anything," he said at last. "How is it to be?"

"There is no one in your life--no one to whom you might turn--at some
other time--if you were free?" she asked in a whisper, without raising
her head.

"There is no one," he replied. "You need not fear that."

"And you will take me--knowing what you know--and will give me your
name--just because of your promise to the man who is dead--just because
you--because you're my friend?"

"Yes." He looked at her steadily; he wondered a little that she should
take this matter in such a fashion.

"Then it shall be as you say," she whispered. "And thank you, Jimmy; I
think I know all that is in your mind; there is no one else would do so
much. Let me know what you want me to do--and when--and I will be ready.
And after that we live our lives as before--eh?"

"Exactly as before," he said; and saw himself going down the years with
this burden upon him--and bearing it cheerfully.

She said--"Thank you, Jimmy"--and turned away from him; she whispered it
quite humbly, without looking at him. When he would have taken her hand,
perhaps with the impulse to say some more kindly word, she shrank away
from him, and got to the door, and went out.

Jimmy, sitting alone, decided that the interview had not gone in any way
as he had intended.



It was on a morning of late summer that Jimmy, playing with that fire at
which he had, on occasion, warmed his hands for months past, set out to
see Alice. London, so far as he was concerned, was empty of people in
whom he was interested or who were interested in him; but he had
lingered in it, chiefly because Alice, on a whim, had decided to keep
the Baffalls and herself to their town house; and Jimmy, striding along
through the bright sunshine, thought over the months that had gone by,
and wondered a little where he stood, or what the future was to hold for
him. Almost on this bright morning he decided that there was mighty
little in life worth the grasping.

Yet Jimmy had not done badly; and in a future that was looming brightly
before him Jimmy was a marked man. For that one who was greater than the
now despised Bennett Godsby had paid Jimmy much money, and had
commissioned another play; and others were coming after Jimmy, and
seeking him out, and assuring him that he alone could "fit them"; a
phrase which meant, as Jimmy knew, the writing of a play in which, like
Bennett Godsby of old, they carried the thing on their shoulders. But
then Jimmy was getting used to the business. And Jimmy was passing
rich--for Jimmy, at least; and had changed his quarters long ago from
the dingy little rooms in the little turning off Holborn.

Casting his mind back over those months, Jimmy seemed to see all that
had happened; seemed to see also all that might have happened, had his
life been directed in other channels. On this bright morning, while the
sunlight lay upon the streets, he walked with the memory of another
morning strong upon him--a morning of rain and wind, when he had stood
in a draughty old church, hand in hand with the woman who was to be his

It had been the strangest wedding; so different from anything he had
imagined could ever happen to him; something with the shadow of the dead
over it--something that spoke of disaster. He remembered particularly
that the clergyman had seemed puzzled that two young people should stand
hand in hand like this, with such tragic faces; he had tried to improve
the occasion in more than ordinary fashion, with hopes of happiness and
what not; and had wondered that he could not move them. Jimmy,
remembering it all, wondered now that they were not moved to tears by
the irony of it.

For it had all been wrong--and unnatural. They had parted bravely
enough, as they had meant to do, at the church door, with the rain
beating upon them and the dreary wind whistling about them; and so had
gone their different ways. But the bitter tie that held them; the
knowledge that was between them that what had been done was done that
the world might be cheated of the truth; had been a greater barrier than
anything else could possibly have been. And there had sprung up between
them, curiously enough, a feud--a strange misunderstanding that never
could have arisen in any other circumstances.

It had begun with money matters. Jimmy, in the pride of his new wealth,
had sent money to Moira, telling her that he had a right to do so under
the circumstances; and that money had been returned, with a simple line
to the effect that she did not want it; she had plenty. He had kept a
strict account of it, because he meant some day to insist that she
should take it; but though he wrote again and again, he could not change
her resolution.

Then again, when once or twice he called at the house soon after the
marriage, she would not see him; sent Patience to him, with a message
that she was well, but could not meet him then. And there came a day
when, on going to the house, he was told that she and Patience had gone;
had given up the rooms completely, and had gone into the country.
Letters would be sent on, but the woman absolutely refused to tell him
their address, or to give him any clue that would enable him to find

Then Jimmy wrote--quite a literary letter, in point of fact--setting out
with some pathos what he had done for her, and what he still hoped to
do. And a reply came--gentle and dignified and wonderful, had Jimmy but
been able to read between the lines--in which she acknowledged all that
he had done, and thanked him more than she could ever express. But she
reminded him that it had been the name only he had given; that she had
no part nor lot in his life. He must not misunderstand her, she had
pleaded; but her life was done and ended, so far as he was concerned;
she would live alone, grateful only for his name and the protection it
gave her. There was even a pretty womanly note, to the effect that she
was proud of that name, and glad to think that so many people must think
well of it and of its owner. And she was in all things his "grateful

There had come that day when an old and grey-haired woman had found him
out in London, to tell him news he had been expecting, and yet had
thrust aside out of his mind. The grey-haired old woman was Patience;
and she brought news, tremblingly and yet happily, of the birth of a
child. Jimmy had listened, a little dazed; had heard that the baby girl
had the dark eyes of Moira herself, and that it was to be named after
her. And Patience, knowing what he had done, or guessing it (for no one
had ever told her the real truth of that matter, some part of which she
had overheard on a night on the stairs in the little house in Chelsea)
had wondered that he should say nothing about it, and should express no
wish to see Moira. Almost she could have worshipped him--this man who
had rescued her darling from a fate which seemed the worst that could
happen to any woman; yet she was afraid of him--afraid most of all of
his silence, and his refusal to say anything she might be longing to
hear. He had sent back a friendly message to Moira at the last; some day
he would come down and see her.

And that had led him quite naturally to get the address from Patience:
Patience glad enough to give it, because she hoped and prayed always in
her secret heart that old blunders might be forgotten, and that this man
and woman, already mated, might come together. But Jimmy merely put the
address among his papers, and decided to let matters alone. Resolutely
he closed that side of his life; hesitatingly and shamefacedly he turned
to the other and the brighter one.

He had said nothing of the matter to anyone; Moira was lost even to the
small world that had known her. If at times that shadow in the
background oppressed him, he let it remain a shadow only, and applied
himself more strongly to his work. Yet in that work had grown a
bitterness that, while it strengthened it, yet made it unlike anything
he had previously done.

It may well be thought that he would have found that opportunity for
which he once had hoped of standing before Alice, and letting her
understand what he had done, and how hopeless was any thought of any
love story between them. Yet, curiously enough, she had never given him
the opportunity. It had happened that the one man who had roused his
jealousy--Ashby Feak--had gone away to some extraordinary region with an
exploring party, leaving the field, as it seemed, to Jimmy; and Jimmy,
knowing that he must not speak, had been content to drift aimlessly,
seeing much of the girl, and becoming quite a recognised institution at
all times and seasons at the house of the Baffalls. So the mouths had
drifted on, and Jimmy had drifted with them. The tie that held him was
known only to himself, so far as his own world was concerned; he had
told no one. If at any time Moira's name was mentioned--and then
pityingly as someone submerged and quite beyond her reach--by Alice,
Jimmy quickly changed the subject, without saying anything definite
concerning that hidden wife of his. What was at the back of his mind he
never realised--never admitted even to himself; but he held that balance
steadily between the woman who attracted him and the woman to whom he

So the long winter had gone by, and the spring had come; and now the
summer was fading fast into autumn. He carried in his mind, as he
walked, the recollection of many, many days when he and Alice had been
together--long quiet days on the river; cheery little dinners at hotels,
where they could chat quietly, and look out in the cool of the evening
over the silent river; there were fifty or more such occasions to be
remembered. And always she had been sweet and gracious and friendly; and
always she had been beautiful.

If he had remembered at any time the woman who bore his name, and who
had lived in shame and loneliness, he had remembered her only with
something akin to impatience. Once, as he walked now, it struck him with
a pang that on a night when he had sat at dinner with Alice, looking out
over the river, he had remembered Moira; had had a sudden mental picture
of her flashed into the very room in which he sat; a picture of her
seated in a black dress, with a little child in her arms; her head was
bent low over the child. The picture had faded in a moment, as he had
meant it should do, and he had looked swiftly at the bright smiling face
on the opposite side of the table; and so had forgotten the gloomier
vision more easily.

He came to the big house that was so familiar to him at last, and rang
the bell; he had a feeling as he did so that there was vaguely something
wrong--that he was to encounter something disagreeable. He understood
what it was when, on the door being opened, he saw a man's hat, with
gloves dangling out of it, and a light cane lying beside it on the
table. He knew to whom they belonged--guessed in a moment that Mr. Ashby
Feak had come back from that wild land into which he had gone, with a
halo of romance and adventure about him that must appeal at once to the
heart of the girl.

Ashby Feak greeted him cordially, and then resumed his conversation with
Alice. Jimmy noted, with a scowl, that Alice was listening intently, and
that her face was glowing with excitement. She turned to Jimmy to call
his attention to the wonderful tale then being related; Jimmy listened
indifferently; the thing was something absurd about a bear or two, with
a side reference to a snake bite which might have proved fatal; Jimmy
wondered bitterly why it had ever been asserted that snake bites were
invariably supposed to cause death.

He stayed but a little time; in spite of appealing looks from Alice,
which seemed to suggest that she was rapidly getting bored by Ashby
Feak's conversation, he rose to go. He had actually reached the hall
when she came running out after him, closing the door behind her.

"Jimmy, dear--what is the matter?" she asked in a quick whisper.

"Nothing--nothing at all," he replied savagely. "What should be the

"I hate a jealous disposition," she whispered, with a pout. "I suppose
if a friend calls to see me I may just as well be civil to him. You'd
like to shut me up altogether--never let me see a soul--wouldn't you?"

"I would," said Jimmy gloomily. "And I wanted so much to see you to-day;
I had lots of things to talk about. We've had such a glorious time while
he's been away; now it's all ended."

"I'm glad to see him back alive, at any rate," replied the girl. "The
poor dear's had some narrow shaves."

"I wish they'd been narrower," muttered Jimmy. "Good-bye!"

"I can't let you go like this, Jimmy," she said, with the ready tears
springing to her blue eyes. "I shouldn't sleep all night--and I should
be a sight to-morrow. Won't you--won't you meet me somewhere--to-day, if
you like."

"Of course I will," exclaimed Jimmy quickly. "Let it be somewhere where
we can have a long talk together. Where shall it be?"

"The National Gallery--one of the middle rooms to the left--three
o'clock," breathed Alice, with the air of an expert; and was gone. Jimmy
went away happy.

At the National Gallery that afternoon he felt he was an object of
suspicion to the officials on duty for a good hour; for of course he was
too early, and equally of course she was too late. But she came at last,
just as he had almost determined that he would go home, and would write
her a cutting letter that should give her to understand that he was not
to be played with; and his anger was gone in a moment. Ashby Feak had
stayed to lunch, and had, she averred, given her a headache. "Some
people would keep on talking about themselves, but now she would at last
have a rest." They found a seat near that most restful of pictures--poor
Fred Walker's "Harbour of Refuge"--and it fell about that Jimmy, when
not looking at the girl, had his eyes fixed on the fine strong figure of
the woman upon whom the elder one leans in the picture--that splendid
symbol of all that is beautiful and wonderful in duty beautifully and
wonderfully performed. It stirred something in him--woke now and then a
fleeting thought of the woman who had never complained--the woman who
had been grateful even to tears for what he had done. Meanwhile the
butterfly beside him, stifling a yawn prettily, was chattering.

"I'm sure I can't think why you should be so horrid about things, Jimmy.
I'm sure I've been a perfect angel all these months to you; there are
times when I've been kinder to you than I am even to poor old Uncle
Baffall; the only difference is that I haven't kissed you as I do Uncle
Baffall, although with him it's only just on his forehead night and
morning, and he generally rubs the place afterwards; I've seen him do
it. Not that you'd wish me to kiss you, I'm sure--as we're only friends.
A girl in my position must expect, I suppose, to have all sorts of
people coming after her; and I'm sure there are not half so many in my
case as in dozens and dozens of other girls. I could tell you things
about the shocking way some of 'em carry on that would make you write
different sorts of stories. And as for Mr. Ashby Feak, if he's fond of
me, poor dear----"

"Don't call him 'poor dear'!" snapped Jimmy quickly.

"I only do it to you--and perhaps to myself," said Alice. "He tells me
that all the time he was out there, mixed up with the bears and things,
and hearing them hoot at night--(at least, I'm not sure if it was the
bears--but something hooted)--all that time he thought of me in the most
extraordinary way; it was quite touching. I think it was quite noble of
him, considering how much he had to do."

"What are you going to do about him?" asked Jimmy, after a pause.

"I don't know, I'm sure," she replied, "Of course, he's not said
anything yet; he's only hinted. I suppose I owe him some return for
having thought about me like that; it wouldn't be fair to let him do all
that for nothing. Of course, I don't--I don't exactly like him;
although, of course, I was very glad to see him; but I shall have to
marry somebody--some day."

Jimmy looked morosely at the figure in the picture; it was no longer
beautiful in his eyes. He thought bitterly of Moira and of the child; he
saw this bright and radiant figure at his side drifting away from him,
and going to some other man. It was cruel--it was wrong; there must be
some way by which he could at least hold her--some way in which he might
free himself.

Perhaps the most curious thing was that he had no intention at the time
of telling her; he did not mean, as he had once meant, to stand before
her an heroic, self-sacrificing figure; he wanted her, and not her
worship, now. The object in his mind was to keep her away from Ashby
Feak, and from all others, until such time as by some impossible means
he should be free.

"Alice," he said at last, turning towards her, and so setting his back
to the picture--"you don't love this man Feak?"

"Oh--I don't know," she retorted, with a shrug of her shoulders. "He's
very nice--and he's brave--and I think he loves me. What more would
anyone ask?"

"Alice--have you any love for me--real love, I mean--not this empty
thing called friendship?"

"Jimmy!" It was of course what she had seemed to see trembling on his
lips a score of times; she had had a thought, in fact, that it might be
said this very afternoon; but she was very properly astonished for all

"I mean it," he said. "I love you as I love no one else on earth;
there's no one like you anywhere--no one who understands me so
perfectly as you do--no one who could help me with my work as you are
able to help me. I love you."

She sat in a pensive attitude, with her eyes upon the floor; when she
spoke she did not look at him, but he was satisfied by the tenderness of
her tones and the light blush she had been able to call to the aid of
the situation, that he need fear no Ashby Feak. Keeping his back
resolutely to that figure in the picture, and so shutting out all that
was difficult and impossible, he took her hand a little shamefacedly,
noting as he did so that she was careful to look round to see that they
were not observed.

"Of course I always felt, Jimmy, that you did care for me; something in
your manner seemed to suggest it," she whispered. "Also I think Aunt
Baffall and Uncle Baffall have thought so too--although anything they
said would make not the slightest difference to me. I love them, and all
that kind of thing; but there's the end of it. As for Ashby Feak--well,
he's very nice as a friend--and I've felt a little sorry for him; but
anything else, Jimmy dear, was absolutely out of the question. And I
must say that whatever happens I feel easier in my mind about

"There's one thing, Alice," said Jimmy, a little lamely--"one thing
that's rather important. I haven't mentioned it before, and it is a
matter about which you'll have to trust me. Love means trust and
confidence, you know--and I've got a secret that I must keep even from

She looked at him quickly and eagerly; he avoided her eyes. "It's
nothing awful--is it?" she asked.

"Nothing at all awful," replied Jimmy casually. "It simply means
that--well--for a time you would have--we should have, I mean--to
wait--to be true to each other, knowing that things will come right in
the future. You would have to take my hands in yours, in a manner of
speaking, and to say that you trusted me; to walk blindly with me.
Afterwards I should be able to tell you why I had kept you and myself
waiting. But not yet."

"Yes, Jimmy--that sounds very nice," replied Alice, a little doubtfully.
"Of course I'm not in any desperate hurry to get married--or--or
anything of that sort; but why should we have to wait? If it's money,
Aunt and Uncle Baffall are sure to be awfully good to me--and you're
becoming a greater man every day. _Do_ tell me what it is, Jimmy? I
won't breathe it to a living soul. Please, Jimmy dear?"

"It is impossible," replied Jimmy dramatically. "The difficulty--the
secret difficulty--may be got rid of--sooner, in fact, than I imagine.
But you must trust me. Surely, if you love me, there should be no
difficulty about that."

"Very well," said Alice after a pause. "It certainly sounds a little
romantic--and I love romance. And now, I suppose"--she glanced quickly
round the room, and then turned to him--"now, I suppose, we may consider
ourselves--what's the horrid word?"

"Engaged," said Jimmy, with a smile, but with secret misgiving.

Thus it happened that for a week or two Jimmy went to the house in a new
character; and Ashby Feak came no more. The Baffalls made no secret of
their delight; indeed, Mrs. Baffall said, more than once, that she had
"seen it coming for ages." And Jimmy, though very much in love, and
though telling himself again and again that it would all come right, and
that in some fashion or other the tangle could be smoothed out, yet went
to the house like a thief--even looking about him with the needless fear
that he might be watched. And now more than ever the quiet figure of the
woman in black, with her dark head bent over a sleeping child, was with
him; it sprang, indeed, between him and Alice when he would sometimes
have taken her into his arms.

It was on a night when his misgivings had been deeper than usual, and
when he had walked the streets for an hour or more, fighting out the
problem for himself, and finding no answer, that he went back to his new
rooms, to be told by the porter that a lady had come to see him, and had
been shown up. She would not give a name; but she wanted to see Mr.
Larrance particularly, and would wait. Mr. Larrance was an old friend,
she had said.

Jimmy climbed the stairs, wondering a little who could have called at
such an hour.

He went in a little eagerly; although he had left her but an hour or two
before, there was the vague possibility in his mind that this might be
Alice. Always expecting something to happen that should show him a way
out of the tangle, or increase it--for ever dreading that Alice should
confront him with a full knowledge of all the circumstances--he felt,
even as he mounted the stairs, that someone might have been to her, and
might have told her; and that here she was, hot and indignant, to tax
him with what he had done.

He opened the outer door, and went in. His visitor rose from a chair in
which she had been seated, and came towards him; it was Moira. And in
that moment--in the mere flash of a second, as it seemed--he saw with
something of astonishment that her hands were held out towards him, and
that she was smiling. So quick was it, that when, a moment later
(perhaps at sight of something in his face, or some gesture, half of
repulsion), she dropped her hands, and the smile faded from her eyes, he
could almost have sworn that she had not moved at all.

"You didn't mind my waiting--Jimmy," she said, a little hesitatingly.
"I wanted so much to see you--and it doesn't matter--with us--does it?"

"What doesn't matter?" he asked dully.

"My coming to see you--so late," she replied; and again he thought that
there was a tremor in her voice, and again it seemed almost as though
she would have stretched out her hands towards him. She stood still,
nervously clasping them together, her eyes devouring his face.

"Won't you sit down?" he asked, in a more kindly tone, as he moved a
chair for her. She seated herself, and he crossed the room and looked
out of the window; his back was almost turned towards her. "What can I
do for you?"

"I have not seen you, Jimmy, since--since our marriage day," she said at
last, in a low voice. "That--that seems funny--doesn't it; but then, of
course--everything is different--isn't it?"

"Of course," he replied. "How have you got on--and how are you living?"

"Very quietly; it is a little place--a mere tiny cottage, far away from
everyone; and Patience and I have spent a lot of time out of doors
lately. Patience tells me I have roses coming in my cheeks for the first
time in my life. That seems strange, too--doesn't it? But then, of
course, I'm very happy."

"I'm glad to know that," he forced himself to say.

"Very happy indeed. There is--there's the child; such a lot to do for
her. You don't ask about the child, Jimmy?"

"You are going to tell me about her," he said more gently.

She laughed softly, and leaned forward, with her elbows on her knees and
her hands clasped; she seemed to be looking far away beyond him. "I
think she's the prettiest baby in all the world, Jimmy," she said. "When
I wake up in the morning she is there to smile at me; and that begins
the day so well, you know. Sometimes she wakes me; a little soft hand
digging at me, and trying to open my eyes. I woke in a fright the other
night, dreaming that I had lost her; I was almost mad for a moment; I
cried out in the darkness; I called on God. And there she was, when the
dream had got out of my brain, lying soft and rosy and well beside me.
She has dark eyes--like mine; and little hands that double just round
one's finger, and hold it. I could sit all day with her holding me like
that. But there"--she laughed again, and sat upright--"I'm boring you
with all this that means so much to me--aren't I?"

"Oh--no," he replied. "I am--glad to know that you are so happy; I had
thought it might be otherwise. Why did you send back the money?"

"I did not need it," she replied. "Our wants are so few, Jimmy--just the
tiny house, and the garden--and the baby; I never thought I could be so

"You were very unhappy when I saw you last," he reminded her.

"I've tried to forget--I've almost succeeded," she whispered, with her
head bent. "Other thoughts have come to me as time has gone on--thoughts
that seemed to grow first when I knew that the child was to be born. I
could not tell you what they were, Jimmy; they were wonderful holy
thoughts, that came most to me at night; they made everything that had
happened seem so poor and so paltry." She sat for a minute or two in
silence, and then got up hastily. "Well--I must say good night, Jimmy; I
only waited to see you--just for a minute."

"You're not going back to the country to-night?" he said, holding her
hand for a moment.

"No--we are staying to-night in London, at the house of a friend of
Patience. Patience is looking after little Moira till I get back; so you
see I must hurry. It would be dreadful if she woke and called to me,
and I wasn't there--wouldn't it?" She laughed again, in that quick
nervous fashion of hers, and drew away her hand gently.

"You must let me put you in a cab, at any rate," he said, moving towards
the door. But she stopped him.

"It is only a little way, and I shall walk," she said. "I couldn't sit
still in any vehicle, however fast; I shall almost run to see her.
Good-bye, Jimmy; thank you for this long talk we've had. While I was
waiting for you I looked all round your rooms--just peeped at
everything, you know; I want to carry away the recollection of them in
my mind. I shall tell the child in a whisper where you live, and what it
looks like--and what a lot of books there are. Now I'm getting silly
again--so I'll go."

She was moving towards the door, with yet some hesitation in her
manner--some reluctance at going so abruptly--when there came a sharp
knock on the outer door. She drew back, and glanced at Jimmy.

"Someone to see me, I expect--or it may be a message," he said. "Wait
one moment, please."

Moira drew back into the room at his bidding. Jimmy strode through the
little lobby outside, and opened the door. Ashby Feak stood there,
lounging against the side of the doorway, with his hands thrust into his
pockets; he nodded coolly, and made a movement to come in. But Jimmy
barred the way.

"I'm sorry, Feak," he exclaimed quickly--"but you can't come in now;
I--I'm busy. What do you want?"

"I want to have a bit of a talk with you," replied Ashby Feak--"and I
mean to have it, if I wait here all night. Five minutes will do--or
perhaps less; but it's rather important."

As Jimmy in some dismay fell back before him, the man strode through the
lobby, and into the room. He stopped short on seeing Moira standing
there; glanced quickly round at Jimmy, who had followed.

"I beg your pardon," said Ashby Feak slowly, with a glance from one to
the other--"I did not know you were engaged; you said you were busy.
What I have to say----"

Moira broke in quickly. "I was just going. I need not stay a moment.
Good-night, Jimmy dear."

The last words were said in a lower tone as she crossed the room to
where Jimmy stood; but Ashby Feak heard them; he started, and turned

"'Jimmy dear'?" He looked from one to the other with a growing smile on
his face. "Won't you introduce me, Larrance?" he asked at last.

"No; this lady is nothing to you," said Jimmy, in a low voice. "Stand
aside, please; she is just going."

"She is not going," exclaimed Feak--"not until I know who she is. You
know why I ask the question; I am not going to drag in names, especially
of women--but this is more than life or death to me. Now, madam--perhaps
you'll answer for yourself. Who are you?"

Bewildered, she looked at him for a moment, and then glanced at Jimmy as
if for permission; he slowly bowed his head. "I am Mr. Larrance's wife,"
she said.

Jimmy put up a hand quickly as Ashby Feak would have spoken. "It's quite
true; you need not say anything, and I am not going to explain. This
leaves you free of course; I will write a letter to-night, putting
myself right in that quarter. Good night!"

Ashby Feak, with a nod and a shrug of the shoulders, went out; they
heard the door slam behind him. Jimmy moved slowly across to the window,
without looking at Moira at all; she was watching him intently. After a
pause, in which it seemed that they could hear their very hearts beat,
she whispered a question:

"Jimmy--is there someone else?" He did not reply. "Someone else you
love, I mean?"

He did not look round at her; he stared down into the dark street below.
Across it a man was going hurriedly, and he was going in one
direction--straight to Alice.

"Yes," he said at last, in a heavy tone--"there is someone else."



Much in the fashion of a bear that has hibernated through a long
winter, and has come out lean and hungry into the warmth and brightness
of the new summer--so Anthony Ditchburn crawled out of his mean
lodging one sunny morning, and looked about him. He was a frowsy,
unwholesome-looking bear at the best, and he blinked at the sunshine,
basking a little in it with some faint show of pleasure, and facing life
again with some show of hope.

Exactly how he had lived during the winter he did not know; it had been
a matter of crouching over fires in mean kitchens of lodging
houses--sometimes cooking poor food for himself, and sometimes begging
it, already cooked, from others; a mean, scraping, starveling existence,
going on from day to day. Some part of it had been spent in an
infirmary, where he had given much trouble, and had lectured the doctors
and nurses cantankerously about his own case and his own symptoms; they
had been rather glad to get rid of him. Now, with the sun warming his
veins, and putting some strength into his shrunken limbs, he cast about
in his mind for someone to whom he could appeal.

A pathetic letter from him had reached Patience in the country; the old
woman had been careful to reply, although, somewhat to his disgust, she
had merely expressed sorrow for his difficulties, but had sent no
money. Finding the letter now, after searching his pockets carefully, he
discovered that the address of the place was a comparatively short
distance from London; and, the country appealing to him on this bright
day, and the chance of free lodging appealing even more strongly, he
determined to make his way there. The shiftless life he had led had
taught him to make the most of small opportunities; he knew that he
might count on a lift in a cart now and then, and might even beg a
little on the way, so low had he sunk.

Behold him, therefore, once more stirring in our story--creeping into
it, as it were, with no thought of harm, and with only the desire for
food and to shelter himself. See him going on his way, counting small
possibilities in his mind, and wondering if by chance he might be able
to quarter himself upon the two women for some indefinite period.

Drivers proved obdurate, and he got but few lifts upon the road; more
than that, the begging was not a success, and he spent one night asleep
under a hedge, cursing the stars that shone down upon him and the wind
that ruffled his garments. But he went on hopefully, and came at last to
the place to which Moira had retreated, and where she lived with old
Patience and with the child.

Then it was that Anthony Ditchburn threw himself, with something of
zeal, into what appeared to be a curious story. For he was informed
merely that Moira was married, and that this was her child; he heard
with astonishment that her husband was that Jimmy Larrance who had done
great things in London, and who was reputed to be well-to-do. He
questioned Patience artfully, but got no nearer to the real heart of the

They were good friends, he was told; but they preferred to live apart.
Yes--Moira was perfectly happy; but they did not see anything of each
other, and Jimmy had never been down to the place at all. More than
that, they did not expect to see him there. The child, Anthony Ditchburn
was told, was more than a year old.

They did not exactly welcome him; but he was by this time an adept in
the art of forcing himself upon the unwary, and refusing to be got rid
of. There was a small odd room in the house that had in it some old
boxes and trunks; and out of these and some rugs and blankets he
contrived a bed without their knowledge; and was actually discovered
asleep there late at night. And there he camped for a week by night, and
shamelessly lived upon them by day.

Also, he made discoveries which might in the future prove useful to
himself. Creeping about in a noiseless fashion he had, he came upon
Moira and the child more than once in the garden, and listened to what
she said; saw her in tears, and saved up that picture in his mind for
future use. He meant to turn everything to account; he was presently to
visit a certain Mr. James Larrance in London, and to wring his heart
(and incidentally his purse) with harrowing tales of a devoted woman,
neglected and pining for love; of a child that was being taught to
prattle his name.

He made other discoveries too. He found that at a certain still hour of
the afternoon, when the child slept, and when old Patience nodded in a
shadowy corner of a darkened room, Moira stole out into the garden
carrying with her a worn, old writing-case, and that she wrote steadily
for quite a long time. And while she wrote she smiled always; the tears
were not for that time.

Yet the strange thing was that no letters were ever posted. The post
office was quite a long way off, and Anthony more than once proffered
his services; but he was smilingly told that there were no letters to
go. Yet he certainly saw envelopes; concealing himself in the garden one
afternoon, like the base unnatural creature he was, he saw without a
blush that she kissed a letter she had put into an envelope and sealed
and addressed. That evening he alluded pointedly to the carelessness of
people who omitted to post letters, and even told a lengthy anecdote
concerning a college friend of his who had lost a valuable appointment
by missing a mail; but Moira only smiled and said nothing.

Then he set himself to watch more carefully, and he found that the
letters were kept in an old box which stood under a table in the little
sitting-room, and that the old box was not locked. Patience not being
devoured by curiosity, and the baby taking no interest in such matters,
it had not occurred to Moira to put these things away more securely; so
that they were at Anthony's mercy. He slipped his shoes one night, and
crept down into the room; and went on his knees before the old box, and
opened it.

He took out a bundle of letters; noted that each envelope was addressed
carefully to "James Larrance, Esq." He noted also that in the bottom of
the box were some small garments, delicately made, for the child--mere
baby garments. He turned them over ruthlessly in his search for other
letters, but found none. He took all the underneath letters from the
packet, and deftly arranged the box again so that it should not seem
that they were gone--leaving a few of the more recent ones with the
garments. Then he closed the box, and crept back to his room.

He felt that he held in his hands material which should indirectly bring
him money. He saw a curious romance here, with misunderstandings marring
it; two young people separated--and the woman writing to the man, and
yet feeling too proud or too much afraid to post the letters. Anthony
Ditchburn had no ideas at all regarding the beauty of any such possible
story; nor was he working for the good of either side directly. He saw
only that they might--young fools that they were!--be brought to some
understanding which should make them feel that Anthony Ditchburn was a
man to be rewarded. He decided that he would go back to London next day,
and would seek out Jimmy; would bring him to his senses, as it were,
with a blow from this most powerful weapon; and would then claim his
reward afterwards. He slept well, and woke with that determination more
strongly in his mind in the morning.

Not daring to approach Patience for necessary money to return to London
(for this was a time for haste, and no mere walking methods would
serve), he decided that he would get something from Moira; that was
legitimate, because, in a sense, he was working for her, and for her
future happiness. He waited until he could find her alone in the garden;
he pitched a tale of a sudden chance that had come to him in London--a
chance for honest work not to be missed. She, for her part, saw only a
chance of getting rid of a disagreeable tenant cheaply; she gave him the
money at once.

He got back to London, but did not go at once in search of Jimmy; with
the little extra money in his pocket, and with the certainty, as he
felt, of much more to follow, he determined that he would find a
comfortable spot wherein to smoke many pipes, and to drink strong
waters, and to while away an hour or two. So that it was quite late in
the afternoon when he got to Jimmy's rooms.

The porter told him, with a strange sort of shrug, that Mr. Larrance was
at home; it seemed, as the man somewhat disdainfully put it, that Mr.
Larrance was generally at home. Not understanding, Anthony Ditchburn
climbed the stairs, and knocked at the door; after an extraordinary
delay the door was opened, and Jimmy stood there, blinking out at him.

A new Jimmy. A Jimmy with no smartness about him, as it seemed in that
first casual glance--a reckless-looking Jimmy, with unkempt hair and
unbrushed clothes; moreover, a Jimmy who swayed a little as he stood.

"Good-afternoon, my dear friend," said Anthony, hesitating on the
landing. "It is long since I have seen you. I trust you are well."

"No--I'm not; but that doesn't concern you," retorted Jimmy. "You can
come in if you like."

It seemed a new sort of room to which Anthony was introduced--not the
old hard-working place he had known before. The desk was an untidy
wilderness of papers--and yet not the untidy wilderness of the man who
works. This was the room of a drone; of a man who slept the days away,
and had no future to look to. Anthony Ditchburn saw more than ever, as
he thought, that this was an unhappy story which he was to set right; on
the one side of the picture--the woman who wept, and who wrote letters
that were never sent; on the other side--the man who sat here, gloomy
and miserable, and probably longing for the woman he loved and was too
proud to approach. This was going to be quite an easy matter, Anthony
thought--and the easy reward to follow.

Jimmy had gone back into his rooms, and had dropped in a listless
attitude into a chair. Anthony Ditchburn, glancing about, saw a bottle
and glass on the table, and smacked his lips audibly. The younger man
turned towards him, and after looking at him sourly for a moment, nodded
at the bottle.

"You'll find a glass over there; help yourself," he said.

Anthony lost no time in doing so; he mixed a generous measure, and
raised his glass to his host. "To your good fortune!" he exclaimed.

Jimmy laughed bitterly; then went to the table and mixed for himself.
"Good fortune?" he said, as he drank; "my good fortune has gone long
ago. You don't know what you're talking about, Ditchburn, when you talk
so glibly of good fortune. I was lucky once," he went on more excitedly,
and seeming scarcely to realise to whom he talked, so that he might have
a listener. "I had the world at my feet; I was envied by everyone; the
game was in my hands. Look at me now!"

He spread out his hands and looked about him; his eyes were bloodshot
and savage. Tears of bitterness sprang into them now, and he turned away
his head. Mr. Anthony Ditchburn, feeling that the right moment had
arrived, began warily to unfold his delicate plot.

"I have had the pleasure, during the past few days, of seeing Mrs.
Larrance--your wife," he said. "Sweet girl--I wish I could have seen her

He stopped on glancing at Jimmy; the young man's eyes were deadly. "So
you come from her--do you?" he asked; then, without giving Anthony time
to reply, he went on more quickly: "You bring something of a message
from her, I suppose? I don't want to hear it; I won't hear it."

Anthony Ditchburn, somewhat taken aback, hesitatingly drew the packet
from his pocket, and held it out. "I bring no actual message from her,"
he began; "but I have some letters here----"

"I won't read them."

"Letters which were never intended to be sent, I believe; quite a number
of them--all addressed to you. I saw her weeping once when she
mentioned your name to the child; I was quite moved, I assure you."

"Why did you bring them to me?" asked Jimmy. "They are nothing to me."

Anthony Ditchburn cleared his throat for an oration "I bring them," he
said, "in the faint hope that it may be my privilege to bring together
two young people who are most unhappily estranged. I am an old man, and
the world has not used me well; but I would like to think"--Anthony got
out a doubtful handkerchief, and dabbed at his eyes--"I would really
like to think, as I go down the desolate hill of life, that I have done
such a thing as this. You live apart--why? You refuse to see her--again,

"Give me the letters." Jimmy held out his hand for them; snatched them
from the hand of the old man, and flung them into a corner. "Sit down,"
he said roughly, "and listen to what I have to say."

Again it seemed as though he must talk to someone; again it seemed that
this old man, derelict though he was, would serve as well as any other.
Ditchburn was not particularly interested, because he saw, in the
attitude of the younger man, his own chances slipping away; this was not
the man who would be likely to reward the ambassador in such a business
as this. But he sat down, and listened with something of an air of
attention; also, he seized the opportunity to replenish his glass.

"I was a happy man before I married--before I was tricked into
marriage," he said. "I might have married in such a fashion as would
have gained for me a real helpmate; someone who understood me--someone
who would have lifted me up--inspired me. But circumstances I can't
explain prevented that; she went (I mean the woman I really loved) into
the arms of another man. They were married last week, and that finished
me--did for me completely."

"There seems to have been a blunder somewhere certainly," broke in
Anthony, a little helplessly.

"Blunder? I should think there has been a blunder," cried Jimmy, with a
laugh. "I set out so well; I meant to do such big things; and here, for
ever hung round my neck like a millstone, are a wife and child who are
nothing to me, and can be nothing. She drags me down, and keeps me down;
my work is not what it was; it will never be anything again. I can't
write; I can't think; I fly to that"--he flung out a hand towards the
bottle on the table--"and so get some relief. That's poor Jimmy
Larrance--who married a woman out of pity!"

Anthony Ditchburn coughed again, and shook his head; it seemed the only
thing he could do. "Sad--inexpressibly sad," he murmured.

"Sad, indeed," said Jimmy. "But what does it matter? Already people are
beginning to say that the work I've done lately--such as it is--isn't
what it was; the grip has gone out of it. They begin to hint at failure;
and you know how I started a year or two ago--eh?"

"I know--I remember well," murmured Anthony, with another melancholy
shake of the head.

"Exactly; even you can be sorry for me. Take another drink; it's the
best stuff in the world for a heartache--the best medicine for a
failure. You're a failure--aren't you, old Ditchburn; and I'm another;
we can shake hands on that!"

Anthony Ditchburn went away that evening--a little unsteadily as to the
stairs--but the richer by five pounds. Here was a gold mine indeed; here
was a man who, kept in a proper condition of insobriety, might spell
luxury for Anthony Ditchburn for some time to come. Only one regret the
old man had; that he had given up the letters; he might have done
something better with those in the future.

Let it not be supposed for a moment that this attitude on the part of
Jimmy had been a mere thing of a moment; it had been steadily growing.
He was of that temperament that must brood, and he had had loneliness
enough wherein to brood. It had begun on a particular day when Alice had
come to him, to demand weakly and tearfully the meaning of a certain
letter he had sent her.

He had had to tell her something; he had told her but half. To his
credit let it be put that he breathed no word against Moira; it had
merely been a mistaken marriage, and they had separated immediately. To
his credit, also, be it written that on reflection he decided not to
pose in any heroic attitude before Alice; simply as the pathetic victim
of a blunder. He had not loved Moira, he had said; he had felt pity for
her loneliness, and had married her; that was all. And he remembered now
the tears in the blue eyes, and the pathetic quiver in the voice, what
time Alice had told him that her heart was breaking.

Nevertheless, she had seen Ashby Feak for a few moments that night, and
Ashby Feak had had the good sense not to press his claims at that time.
A day or two later he had met her, apparently by chance, and from that
time all was smooth sailing. She had written a letter to Jimmy--the
letter of an old friend, who dwelt upon the past, but must make the best
of the present; and she had spoken with tenderness of the great kindness
of Mr. Ashby Feak. And after that--with a decent interval--the wedding.

Once or twice, in that time of his great loneliness, Jimmy had tried to
work; had set himself resolutely to it, determining that he would show
everyone the stuff that was in him. But always before him rose two
pictures--the one of the woman he believed he loved, and whom he had
last seen with tears in her blue eyes; the other of the woman to whom he
was tied, living her life quietly and happily, as he believed, in the
country. And at the thought of those two pictures the pen fell from his
hand, and he sought the old consolation.

There cannot be set down here all the incidents of that time--all the
slow processes of neglect and carelessness--all the constant telling
himself, day after day, that there was nothing for which he need strive.
Only in the course of many months certain pictures stand out, and may be

A day that arrived when, out of some curious hazy dream, he woke to find
that he had no money--or, at best, not sufficient for the demands upon
him. Which, in process of time, led to his abandonment of those
comfortable rooms of his, and a return to something like those he had
once occupied in a small court in the neighbourhood of Holborn. That was
necessary, for economic reasons; but it did but add to his bitterness
against what he regarded as the cause of it all.

Another day--set much further on in the record--when a play that had
been commissioned, and of which he had had great hopes, was curtly
returned to him, with the intimation that he had failed to work out his
own idea at all adequately; in a savage temper he ripped the pages
across and across, and flung them on the fire.

A day when he woke out of black night, as it were, and saw in his own
diseased and tortured mind a swift and sudden ending to his troubles.
Somewhere down in the quiet and peaceful country there was a smiling,
happy, contented woman, with a child that was not his, and that woman
was the very root of all his troubles; but for her he would have been a
great man. There might be an end; some dream that had belonged to the
black night suggested what that end should be. He would go down and see

In some blind, stumbling, halting fashion he got to the place; was
turned back, again and again, on his way by one circumstance and
another; finally, only reaching her late at night. And then a savage
Jimmy--hungry and forlorn--but with a purpose staring out of his
bloodshot eyes. That picture had been a horrible one, but he remembered
it often and often.

After endless journeyings, he seemed to have found himself alone in a
room with her. It seemed a pretty room, with dainty things about it such
as might properly indicate the presence of a dainty woman. He remembered
that she had come down from some upper room, singing; remembered that
she had stopped at sight of him as she came in; and yet had spoken
calmly and gently to him, while her dark eyes were fixed on his.

There had been no word of reproach from her, in spite of all he had
said. His words had stung and lashed her; he had not spared her; he had
set the thing fully and brutally before her. She was dragging him down;
she and the child were a burden upon him. He had stretched out
passionate hands to call attention to himself; had begged bitterly that
she would note the change in him; and then had cursed her for the cause
of it all. And she had looked at him, white faced but dry eyed, and had
told him that he did not mean what he said.

"I mean to find some way of escape--or you shall find one," he had said,
speaking as it seemed words that he remembered had come out of the black
night through which he had passed to this hour. "There must be a way;
there shall be a way. What are you to me? In all your life has there
been no man you have loved?"

Her unfaltering gaze did not change even at that; only her face flushed
a little. "Yes, Jimmy," she had said in a whisper; and still he had not

The end of that picture seemed to be, so far as he could remember, that
she stood straight and firm and fine before him, and that he had her
horribly by the throat. And still her eyes burnt into his; and still,
while he muttered that there was a way, and that this might be the way,
and that he could kill her, she looked steadily at him, and smiled.

"Yes--kill me," she had breathed; "I shall not flinch from you. That
might be the best thing, after all--at your hands."

And he had got away, and had gone out into the darkness; with a notion
in his head that she was calling after him as he ran and stumbled to get
away from the house.

Then black darkness again--a darkness through which figures flitted here
and there; and men came, and talked to him, and left him; men who
laughed, or men who drank, or men who clapped him on the shoulder, and
strove to advise him. And then all the figures merging impossibly, as it
seemed, into the one figure of Moira. Moira flitting about his rooms,
softly putting things straight; Moira, with grave eyes, looking into
his, and with lips that smiled. And for a time that dream did not fade.

Curiously, too, it seemed good and restful to have her there; broken
thing though he was, he yet was able to realise that. Not that he could
tell exactly from whence she came, or where she went when each day was
ended; sufficient for him then that she was there; that he heard her
voice speaking to him; that he could watch her moving about the room.
And gradually, as he came to realise what he was, and what he had been,
and how low he had fallen, a great shame came upon him that she should
see him like this. And it was part of the dream--almost the waking part
of it--that he should strive to tell her so; and that she, with a cry,
should take him for the first time in her arms, and hide his face upon
her breast and soothe him as she might have soothed a child. And from
that dream he woke to find her gone.

But she came again--and it was to find a Jimmy changed, by some curious
process, in her absence. Some of the bitterness remained; but here was a
man who looked out with eyes that had some eagerness in them in search
for the better things he had left behind so long. Presently, on an
impulse, he began to talk to her about that long neglected work; began
to discuss, half to himself and half to her, some point in it that had
baffled him. Found himself presently, indeed, talking eagerly about it,
while she sat on the opposite side of the fireplace with her chin
propped in her hands, and with her eyes upon his, listening--suggesting!

From that it was but a step to his desk--with a flying pen for music to
her ears. She had sent him there; she saw the old eager light in the
tired eyes and in the worn face; she answered quickly when he spoke, or
when he read a phrase to her. She sat there--eager, alert, and
ready--while the night wore itself away, and while he wrote. And in her
heart a song to match the flying pen.

The long night was ended, and the blessed dawn had come. When presently
the pen ceased, while his lamp died out beside him, and his head lay
upon his work where he slept, she stole softly from the room, and went
away. For she knew that she had won.



She was gone, but the spirit of her remained. Never again could he shame
himself as he had done before; always it seemed that her presence was in
the room; if his pen dropped from his hand, it was only that it might
be caught up again at the remembrance of her eager face when she had
urged him to work.

Not that the victory was gained in a moment. There were times when he
went back; times when, had he but recognised it, he needed her. He was
still resentful, in a sense; still felt, in fact, that what she had done
had been but something of a repayment for what he had done for her; more
than that, despite himself, he resented the fact that she had seen him
in such a condition, and had been able to help him. Yet, on the other
hand, that, in a zig-zag fashion, brought about in him a determination
to work--if only to show her that he could work without her direct aid.

She came again; and then a more generous mood was on him that urged him
half-shamefacedly to thank her. She came in brightly and yet
hesitatingly, as though not certain what she would find; relief was in
her face in an instant when she saw the difference in him. So for a
moment they looked at each other, with the gulf that had narrowed for a
time between them widening again.

"It's all right, you see," said Jimmy after a moment or two, and without
turning his head to look at her. "I've pulled straight; I'm working hard
once more."

"Of course--I knew you would, Jimmy," she replied.

"I'm not going to apologise--or make excuses----"

"Oh--please!" She held out hands of entreaty towards him.

"Things went all wrong with me; they'd have been worse but for you. I
don't know what you found me like"--the words were hard to say, but he
spoke them doggedly--"I only know how you left me. And I've done lots of
work--good work, too--since then, Moira."

"Oh, I'm glad," she said shyly. "And I didn't do anything--not any more
than another might have done."

He paced up and down the room for a moment or two, with bent head; then
began to talk as though he had some difficulty in saying what he had
determined to say--as though it were forced from him in a measure. She
stood straight and slim and tall, looking at him; for a time, after he
had finished speaking, she did not reply.

"The new play's all right, I believe; at any rate my man says so, and
backs his opinion with money. Things seem to be going better with
me--since--since you came to me. It's been a bit of a muddle, I know,
old lady; but I like to treat people as people treat me; and you've been
the one that has behaved well to me--the only one that hasn't deserted
me. The pity and the tragedy of it is that you and I are just two lonely
people--not loving anyone very much--and yet forced to remain lonely.
I've been thinking about it rather carefully, Moira, from a practical
common-sense point of view, and I don't see why we shouldn't cheat Fate,
in a manner of speaking, and come together. I'm not speaking on the
impulse of the moment. I'm simply saying what I've thought about very
carefully. We're married; you're Mrs. James Larrance; and I've no doubt
the child is a sweet little thing; we'll bring her up nicely. There'll
be plenty of money, and we shall live where you like. What do you think
of it?"

"No, Jimmy," she said at last; and he thought he had never heard her
speak in so quietly determined a voice before. "When you kept faith with
Charlie, and saved me and the child from shame, I asked nothing of
you--not even money--nothing but just the name the world demands. You
gave me that; I have blessed you on my knees many and many a time; but I
want nothing more. I helped you a little, perhaps, as I might have
helped any other dear friend; but I will not go even to your arms,
Jimmy, for pity. You do not love me; the thing would be a mockery. We
can at least keep our self-respect, each of us; in the years that are
coming we can look at each other with friendly eyes, and live our own
lives--apart. I speak with no bitterness, Jimmy dear! in my heart I am
very, very grateful. But I will live with my child alone."

"Of course I understand that anyone of so strong a nature as you must
find it hard to forget the--the other man--the man who should have been
your husband," he said. He waited for a moment, as though expecting her
to reply; but she said nothing. "At the same time," he went on, "I am
bound to say that I think you are wrong. For your own sake, and for the
sake of the child, you ought to establish yourself properly. If I'm
ready to give up all sorts of dreams and things, surely you should be
willing to meet me half way."

She shook her head, although she smiled at him. "We will not discuss it,
Jimmy; my mind is firmly made up," she replied.

He let her go, with something more of tenderness in his farewell than he
had ever shown before. He was disappointed, chiefly, perhaps, because he
felt that she had not shown a proper gratitude; he felt that in all
probability she would presently find that, for her own sake as well as
that of the child, it might be expedient for her to adopt his very
sensible suggestion.

For Jimmy had not yet learnt his lesson; still felt, in fact, even
without confessing it in so many words, that he had conferred a great
and singular favour upon the woman to whom he had given his name; he was
pained somewhat that she should not recognise how great that favour had
been; should not be more at his feet.

The coming of Anthony Ditchburn to him again (for although Jimmy, in
this better time, had moved again into fresh quarters, Anthony had
contrived to trace him) brought about a reminder of that stolen packet
of letters that had been flung so contemptuously into a corner. Mr.
Ditchburn could not understand yet why nothing substantial had come of
that carefully planned piece of business; the money he had had was gone;
and he went again with large hopes. But Jimmy was curt with him, and
dismissed him somewhat summarily. True, he gave him some money; and
Anthony, before leaving, jogged his memory as to the letters.

"She meant them for you, my dear young friend; they may contain
something of the utmost importance. It seems such a pity that two young
and loving hearts--beating naturally towards each other----."

Alone in his rooms again, Jimmy began a search for the things. In the
confusion attendant upon moving they had been lost sight of; he found
himself hunting somewhat anxiously for these curious epistles, written
by his wife, and yet never sent. It was possible that they might contain
some allusion to the business--might suggest some way out of the tangle
in which they both were placed.

He found the packet at last, and opened it, and began to read. And, once
beginning, seemed unable to leave off. There were many of the letters,
and the first of them dated back nearly two years. It was the time of
Charlie Purdue's death.

He read on and on steadily--stopping for nothing, save, when the light
failed, to get a lamp; carrying one letter in his hands even while he
did that. And while he read a curious feeling of solemnity came on him;
it seemed as though from some spirit-world the very soul of this woman
he had not understood cried to him--craved him--longed for him and loved
him. Just as he had learnt so much from her unconsciously before, so he
learnt from her again; saw the little things that might, but for his
blindness; have pointed him clearly to her, and shown him what was in
her mind.

Long afterwards little phrases and scraps from them lingered in his
mind, not to be lightly forgotten; little scraps and phrases, spoken as
it seemed by the dream-woman who had been so near him in all things, and
yet so far away. Imaginative always, he had yet not imagined this; had
seen, from the very circumstances under which she had come to him in her
sorrow, only a woman seeking for an escape from the consequences of her
sin; only a woman desiring to hide what she had shamefully done. Now he
read the truth.

"I write here, my love, what you may not ever read; unless it should
happen that at some time when I am dead, and the world goes on without
me, you may find this paper, and think that I am speaking to you--when
it is too late. I want to set down solemnly here what I dare not ever
tell you. I write it carefully, because the words are more precious than
anything I have ever written. And yet I turn away my face for a moment
before I write; because my face is hot with what I am going to say.
See--here it is! I LOVE YOU. There are no words like these anywhere in
any language; and they mean so much that I want to write them again and

"You are going to marry me. Out of that great heart of yours that is
sorry for me, and for the wreck I have made of my life, you take pity on
me, and shelter me. Yet you do something greater than that, although you
don't know it; you make me the happiest woman in all the world----"

He read no more then; he got up and paced about the room, holding the
letter in his hands. For he seemed to see her as she had once stood
before him, with the tears swimming in her eyes; he seemed to see
himself as a lower, meaner thing, because he had told her callously of
the arrangement he had made to save her honour. This woman--who could
write this and mean it all!

Another letter, further on, was written with beautiful tenderness, as
she might have written to him had she stood in the nearest and dearest
relation to him. It is scarcely too much to say that he read it with awe
and wonder.

"----For they tell me that women sometimes die at such a time as that;
and I was never strong. But I am not afraid; that might be best for
everyone. Only I want to tell you now--with all the earnestness that is
in me, and with all the strength that this change in me has given--that
I never loved him. On the night he asked me to marry him I came to you.
(Oh, do you remember the old shabby, shadowy room, and you in the light
of the lamp, my dear; and all the cold world outside?) I prayed then
that you might say something to me; that you might, out of some love for
me, snatch me from him. But you did not speak. Then I was sorry for
him--and I promised. But so surely as I believe in God, so surely do I
write here that I did not love him."

"_The child is yours!_ Don't look away from this when you read it, Jimmy
dear,--because it's true. The child that is to be mine--born of my body,
and part of my very soul--is the spirit-child that might in some better,
happier time have been yours. So much is that so, that I have felt,
through all the doubts and fears of these months, that the child is
yours; the other man has never for a moment entered into my thoughts. He
never did, and the sin was never mine. In the long, long dreams of my
girlhood, when thoughts and desires were mine that I did not understand,
it was always you--never anyone else. The only sorrow I have had--the
bitterest thought of all--was that I had been spoiled in your sight; I
never thought of anything else. So that if I die, I shall die with that
happiness; that I was your wife, not alone in name, but in thought. I
never have belonged to anyone else."

He laid it aside reverently with the others, and went on reading. All
the dear intimate thoughts of her--so innocent and so kindly--so sweet
and whimsical--were spread here for him; he wondered that he could ever
have thought of any other woman. His heart leaped at the thought that
she belonged to him; that he might claim her, and tell her that he loved
her. He went on reading.

"I scrawl this in pencil; because I want to write to you first of all,
my dear--I want to speak to you before I speak to anyone. It is all
right; the child lies warm within my arms, just as I used to hold that
poor, shabby old doll of mine you laughed at when I was a child. Do you
remember? Why do we grow up, I wonder; and yet it's beautiful to grow
up--wonderful to suffer, and to know for what we suffer. You won't read
this; I shall only dream that you read it, and that something impossible
keeps you away from me, and that you are a little sorry and yet a little
glad. For your baby--yours and mine, dear--is the prettiest baby in all
the world; quite what she ought to be. Aren't you proud of her?"

Proud of her? He longed then to go at once and find the child; wanted,
almost savagely, to take the mite in his arms, and hide his shamed face
upon her, and whisper his love for the woman who had waited so long for
it. For here was the record of all her patience--all the dear wonder of
her. He whispered her name brokenly while he read. "Moira!--Moira!"

"You were not kind to me to-day, Jimmy, dear," she wrote again. "I
wanted so much for you to be kind to me to-day; I came to tell you
about the baby. You were very patient; and once your eyes smiled at me.
But you were only sorry for me, as you always are; and I would have been
so glad for just a word of tenderness. You asked if you should get a cab
for me; you would have said that to any other woman--wouldn't you? And I
had dreamt the night before that your arms were about me, and that you
whispered to me something I have longed so often to hear you say."

"And the someone else? I am mad at the thought of it; wild at the
thought that I could have been so blind as not to understand. I have
thought sometimes that only your pride kept you from me--or perhaps a
little the thought of what I had done; and all the time you have thought
of her. What shall I do; how can I find a way? And yet in my selfish
heart I am glad to think that I hold you; that she can never come into
your life. Can you forget her? Can you presently come to love me a
little, and to think that after all I belong to you?"

A little further on she wrote in a more despondent tone; he remembered
by the date that this was the time when she had come to him in the hour
of his degradation, and had set him to his work again.

"I am no nearer to you; I have but done what any poor friend of yours
might have done. I wish that that first thought had been true; I wish
that you had killed me in your madness. It would have been the end--and
I so glad to die! For the thought of me has driven you down and held you
down, as you said; and I that love you so can do nothing. If I might
die, Jimmy dear----"

He read no more. Now, for the first time, he seemed to set these women,
who had been with him as it were through all his life, side by side; to
see the one, so strong, so fine, and so patient; the other--the gay
butterfly that had been good to look at. He had thought that Alice had
helped him; now, through his shamed memory, came the remembrance of the
monosyllables--the light laughter--the ready acquiescence in all he had
said or suggested. And set against that the woman who had come to him in
his rooms, and had not been ashamed to speak of the child and of her
love for it--to speak of the little hands that held her own and wound
themselves about her heart.

He thought savagely of all he had lost; triumphantly of all he would

But he was a little late. Mr. Anthony Ditchburn--that poor, wavering,
drifting wreck of humanity--had got the start of him; and Anthony
Ditchburn wanted money and craved shelter. He had gone down to that
quiet country place where Moira lived with Patience and the child; and
there had blurted out the truth.

He had been quite proud, in a sense, of what he had done; he seemed to
see a grateful Moira, blessing him for having brought those hidden
letters to the notice of her obdurate husband. Ashamed and afraid to
send the letters herself, she yet would welcome this messenger; would
understand the motive in the mind of the man who had done so daring a
thing. Therefore when, in due course, Anthony Ditchburn presented
himself again at the cottage, and presently (the better to establish a
temporary residence there) blurted out what he had done, he was a little
astonished at the result.

She stood for a moment as if stunned; opened her lips to speak once or
twice, but could get out no words. Then she sprang for the door, and he
and the wondering Patience heard her flying up the stairs; then the
sound of swift feet overhead. A few moments later she was down again;
and there was a look in her eyes before which Anthony Ditchburn

"Why did you do it?" she demanded. "Is nothing sacred to you; am I to be
shamed and degraded by such a creature as you? You have sheltered
here--you have eaten our bread, and slept secure under our roof; yet you
rob me of what was mine--steal the very soul of me!"

"But you addressed them to him," pleaded Ditchburn.

"Yes--for my own comfort--to cheat myself," she cried passionately. "And
now--now he has read them"--she beat her hands together, and suddenly
and surprisingly burst into tears. "I cannot see him again--cannot meet
him; and I that hoped some day to climb as high as his heart!"

Anthony Ditchburn had begun again a halting explanation; but she checked
him fiercely. She flung open the door, and pointed outside imperiously.

"Go!" she cried, "for I am in that mood when I might do you harm.
Go--and never let me see you again!"

"I'm a poor old man--and it's raining," he whimpered; but she thrust him
out of the house and shut the door upon him.

The money he had carried him, half crazily, back to London and to Jimmy.
To Jimmy he told his woes; told of this strange madness that had come
upon the woman he desired to help. And to his surprise and disgust Jimmy
seemed to have caught this new fever too; for he also turned him roughly
from the place, cursing him for a fool.

And here we may take our leave of Anthony Ditchburn; may see him, in
imagination, going on for years yet, borrowing innumerable coins, and
prating of his woes and of the treatment he had received from the world.
And dying at last obscurely, and still railing, to any who may hear him,
of the ingratitude of friends.

Meanwhile Jimmy made all speed to find Moira. All speed for him, that
is; for, hesitating as ever, he must needs sit down to think about her,
and to dream of how beautifully he was to bring her back into his life.
So that when, in sudden and desperate haste, he started from London for
the cottage where he had seen her under such different circumstances not
so long before, a fear began to creep into his heart that Anthony
Ditchburn might have spoiled the business after all. Which proved to be

He found Patience at the cottage; she shook her head even as he hurried
through the garden towards her. Moira was gone, the old woman said; had
left within an hour of Ditchburn's visit. She had implored Patience to
look after the child; when the old woman had clung to her, and begged to
know when she would return, she had said with tears: "Never!" But the
old woman was wiser than Jimmy; she smiled and shook her head, and
whispered what only a woman could whisper with perfect understanding of

"She will come back to the child," she said.

Jimmy looked at her sharply; seemed to understand a little what she
meant. He caught the hand of Patience and wrung it; laughed like a boy
at what he read in her eyes.

"Then--if I took the child----"

"Oh--Mr. Jimmy," said Patience with a sob, "she'll come back to the



THE thought that was growing in Jimmy's mind, and which had started from
what Patience had said, bore fruit upon the morrow. Jimmy slept that
night at the cottage--having in his mind perhaps the hope that Moira
might come back. Yet morning dawned and she had not been seen.

With the dawn he roused himself from his uneasy slumbers on a couch, and
went to find Patience, to seek the news of the night. He found her with
the baby; the baby a dark-eyed mite, scarcely dressed, and giving the
old woman a bad time in matters of hair pulling and general infantile
wickedness; yet Patience seemed to like it. Jimmy stood just within the
door, looking at the child shyly and awkwardly; Patience whispered what
she had to say over the child's head, much as though that small mortal
might have understood.

"No news, Mr. Jimmy; no word of her."

"You seemed so sure that she would come back," said Jimmy.

"Dear man--shouldn't I know her by this time!" exclaimed Patience very
impatiently. "What has she to live for but this baby? If only you would
understand--if only you would see that she has left the way clear for
you! Come in; the child won't eat you."

Jimmy came in, and introduced himself to the baby; she seemed to approve
of him; in the lonely heart of the man there was a curious stirring as
the soft fingers of the child closed on his. "She's a pretty baby," he
said with a smile.

"Not another like her in the world--and lots that'll tell her so as she
grows up. Girl babies growing up every day--and boy babies to match 'em,
and none of 'em knowing what's in store for 'em. It's just a big puzzle
they'll have to unravel for themselves in the years to come." Thus
Patience, wagging the head of experience over the baby.

"I've made up my mind what to do; I've been thinking about it all
night," said Jimmy presently. "She'll come back to the child, you said;
and I believe you're right. I want her, Patience; I seem to have grown
up years and years in the last day or two. I dare not lose her now; I
need her, as I never needed anyone in all my life."

"I wonder if that's true," said the old woman, bending over the child.
"Men are so sure of things one minute--and not at all sure the next. For
the love of God, Mr. Jimmy, be very sure before you meet her; she
deserves something better than any man has given her yet."

"I'm sure now, Patience," whispered Jimmy humbly. "I'm going to take the
child--_my_ child, she called it--and I'm going to trust to her to
follow. You must help me, Patience; I'll leave a message for her that
shall bring her--not to me, because I don't deserve it--but to the baby.
I didn't understand before; I've been a blind fool--groping in the

"You seem to understand yourself pretty well, Mr. Jimmy," replied the
old woman; and Jimmy laughed.

Behold, then, Jimmy in a hurry; see him writing a note (not literary
this time, but something from the old Jimmy to the old Moira) and
leaving it for her. See also Patience, keenly alive to what was in his
mind and eager to help him, and hear the baby crowing through it all!
This is the note he left:

     "I have taken the child; she is the prettiest baby I have ever
     seen, and you were right to say so. She belongs to me, and I shall
     keep her. She is a child, as we once were; she is going to teach me
     what is best and brightest in the world that once was good to us. I
     am taking her back to the beginning of things--I want to show her
     how her mother was once a child who loved the sun and the fields
     and the woods.


In the strangest fashion this new Jimmy and the conspiring Patience took
the child and went away; the note was left in a familiar place, where,
as the old woman assured him, Moira must be certain to discover it. They
travelled up to London, and later in the day started for Daisley Cross;
Patience marvelling, but trusting all things to this man who seemed at
last to have grasped the situation. Indeed when she looked at him in
surprise at his suggestion that they should go down there, he had
answered, as it seemed with perfect understanding: "I can speak to her
there as I cannot speak in any other place."

The old place, when he walked through it on the first night of their
arrival, seemed very familiar and yet very strange; it had not grown up
with him. More than that, people he met turned to stare after him as
after a stranger. He walked through the places he remembered so well,
with something of the thought in his mind of what he had lost--something
of a perception of what he had forgotten and thrown away. Almost it
seemed that he saw her swinging down the road before him, a slim girl in
short skirts, and with eyes that looked back at him with a friendly
smile. Eyes, he remembered now, always for him!

He had taken rooms for Patience and himself at the little old-fashioned
inn in the town; the landlord, whom he had seen standing at his door
many, many times on former sunny days, but who did not in the least
recognise him, seemed to wonder a little at the coming of this young man
and the old woman and the child; murmured about it, with lifted
eyebrows, to his spouse. For Jimmy, going in and out of the place, and
asking always if anyone had inquired for him, was a mystery in himself.

He went back to the old house they had known in their childhood; stood
looking over a low part of the wall he remembered into the grounds,
seeing alien lights in the windows of the rooms that once had been his
and Moira's. From there he dived down into the woods, to find the happy
places they had known as children; only to find them grown over and
changed. Yet he stood in one spot under the light of the moon and the
stars, and called her name softly, as though it might be possible that
she could come out of the shadows of the past, and look into his eyes
again, and touch his hand, as she had done when a child. Those eyes, he
remembered again with a pang, that had been always for him!

He wandered about miserably the next day; told Patience at intervals
that she had been wrong, and that Moira would not come back. More than
that, in his restlessness he rushed back to London, and from London down
to the cottage. Going to the place where the note had been secreted he
found it gone, and went back to Daisley Cross with renewed hope.

There Patience met him with great news. Patience, with the hope of
renewing some memories of her past life in the place, had entrusted the
child to a plump and sympathetic daughter of the landlady, and had gone
out to Daisley Place. The rest she told in whispers.

"I saw her, Mr. Jimmy--saw her like a ghost this late afternoon,
creeping round the old place. God knows what was in my mind that kept me
still; but I couldn't call to her then; she didn't seem to belong to me
any longer. I watched her flit away again, taking the road that leads
away from the town, and I lost her in the darkness. But she's here, Mr.
Jimmy--she's come back again!"

His fear was lest he might frighten her--lest he might send her flying
from him again, shamed and hurt and indignant. Patience had said that
the child would draw her surely, and Patience should know. He would have
given much to know if the child had drawn her, or if she had come in the
hope to see him; but in this later time Jimmy was learning
patience--learning, with a new humility, to understand the woman he had
never understood before.

He tramped for miles that evening, in the hope of finding her; came back
at last to the sleepy little inn, and went up to the sitting-room. A
fire had been lighted, for the autumn evening was chill; Patience,
seated beside it, looked up at him quickly, and then turned away her
eyes. Jimmy seated himself beside the fire, and took the child into his
arms; already they were quite friendly, and she nestled to him now
naturally enough. So he sat for a long time, with his arm about her,
looking into the fire, and thinking of the woman who was her mother,
wandering forlorn and frightened outside. So, as the shadows fell and
the fire died down, and old Patience, worn out with the excitements and
fatigue of the day, slumbered heavily in her chair, Jimmy, as in a
dream, talked half to himself and half to the child in his arms.

"Little Moira--in the days when you were a child I loved you--was
jealous for you--fought for you. You didn't understand that--did you? We
had not learnt our lesson then; the world was so busy with us that we
had not had time to learn the better lesson of love. I wonder if we
understand it now?"

Someone was listening. From the shadows of the house another shadow had
emerged, and had crept up the stairs; it stood now at the door,
listening. For Moira had travelled far that day, and now had come to the
point when, as it seemed, she could not go back, and yet dared not
remain where she was. She had seen the familiar figure of Patience in
the streets of Daisley Cross for a minute that afternoon, and so had
discovered where the three were to be found. More than once she had
ventured to the very doors of the inn, only to turn away again; for in a
strange fashion she was afraid of this man who knew her secret.

The passionate starved heart of her demanded him fully, or not at all.
Once in pity he had given her his name; once in charity he had offered
to take her and her child, and to give them the protection that was
their right; but she would not have that. Her tragedy was that she was
bound to the man whom she loved with all her heart and soul; but she
must know that what he might say to her, in this better time, was not a
matter of mere words, but a thing of the heart, before ever she
stretched out glad hands to meet his. She must be certain of
that--absolutely certain.

Again--the child. She yearned for that; passionately wanted her baby.
Almost she hated the man for a moment, in a laughing, whimsical way,
because he had tried to reach her like this; yet was glad to think now,
as she peered in through the doorway, that the child was so naturally in
the arms of the man. So she listened with her starved heart beating for
them both.

"You don't seem to understand, little Moira, what you've done for me--or
what I am--through you. Years ago you wove fairy tales for me--peopled
the great world for me with beings other than those my dull eyes could
see. Had I but known it, all that was best in me came from you; only I
did not understand. I love you, Moira----Can you hear me, dear woman,
out in the darkness"--(he could not know how near to him she
stood!)--"and will you love me a little, in pity for me?"

She drew away from the door, and covered her face with her hands; then
bent again a moment later, to listen to the murmuring voice within.

"I want to make up to you for all the wrong I've done you, dear," he
went on. "For it was I who did the deepest wrong of all, in that I drove
you away from me; I can never atone for that. I asked you if there was
no man in all the world you loved--shameful beast that I was!--and still
did not understand, when you said there was. Don't let me lose you now;
there is no life for me without you!"

She turned away and stole down the stairs. She could not trust herself
yet to meet him; she wanted to be alone. For now that this thing had
happened for which she had prayed and longed and hoped, she was fearful
of it; more than that, she wanted to hold it from her for a time the
better to grasp it afterwards. She sobbed and laughed like a mad thing
as she went; whispered to herself, over and over again, all that he had
said; saw, over and over again, that picture in the firelight of the man
with the child in his arms.

She came, as it were unconsciously, to the place towards which her heart
had yearned so often in the stony London streets--the grave of Old Paul.
To this everything had beautifully brought her; here, most of all
to-night, she desired to be; because, most of all others, Old Paul would
have understood. Old Paul had wondered what love would do to her in the
world; and lo! love that had threatened to fling her, bruised and
broken, to the mercy of the world, had but shown her, after all, that he
jested a little roughly, and that all was well. Love had been kind--and
Old Paul need not have feared. Before anything else she must tell Old
Paul that.

Jimmy, coming presently almost as by an instinct to that spot, found her
kneeling; and stood aloof for a time, watching her, and wondering what
she would say. But when she raised her eyes at last, and got to her
feet, she came towards him, smiling, with the glory of the autumn moon
as it seemed about her; and she came like a maid that meets her lover
shyly. And for a time they held hands, and looked into each other's
eyes, as though they could never look away again.

"Jimmy!" she whispered at last, with a lingering note of tenderness on
the name, "I was afraid before--but I heard all you said to the child.
You--you like the baby?"

In that most surprising love story, when she asked that most surprising
question she was in his arms, and he held her close, and looked deep
into her eyes. "She's mine--_my_ baby; you said so," he whispered, and
kissed her.

So in the end it was only a man and a woman walking hand in hand through
the darkness along a country lane; only an old woman peering out of a
window on a scene which had been familiar years and years before, the
while the tears dropped softly and yet happily on her withered hands.
Yet they were all satisfied.

Love had shown them the way, after all; love went before them now,
through the darkness--and into the brighter promise of a new day.


_Printed at The Chapel River Press, Kingston, Surrey._

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