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Title: Chantry House
Author: Yonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
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 [Picture: What I do remember, is my mother reading to me as I lay in my
                               crib.  p. 3]

                              CHANTRY HOUSE

                            CHARLOTTE M. YONGE


      [Picture: A feeble water-coloured drawing of the trio.  p. 2]

                      ILLUSTRATED BY W. J. HENNESSY

                                * * * * *

                        MACMILLAN AND CO., Limited
                     NEW YORK: THE MACMILLAN COMPANY

                          _All rights reserved_

                                * * * * *


                 CHAPTER I.
A NURSERY PROSE                            1
                CHAPTER II.
SCHOOLROOM DAYS                           11
                CHAPTER III.
WIN AND SLOW                              17
                CHAPTER IV.
UBI LAPSUS, QUID FECI                     25
                 CHAPTER V.
A HELPING HAND                            34
                CHAPTER VI.
THE VALLEY OF HUMILIATION                 43
                CHAPTER VII.
THE INHERITANCE                           50
               CHAPTER VIII.
THE OLD HOUSE                             59
                CHAPTER IX.
RATS                                      67
                 CHAPTER X.
OUR TUNEFUL CHOIR                         73
                CHAPTER XI.
‘THEY FORDYS’                             82
                CHAPTER XII.
MRS. SOPHIA’S FEUD                        89
               CHAPTER XIII.
A SCRAPE                                  96
                CHAPTER XIV.
THE MULLION CHAMBER                      107
                CHAPTER XV.
RATIONAL THEORIES                        117
                CHAPTER XVI.
CAT LANGUAGE                             126
               CHAPTER XVII.
THE SIEGE OF HILLSIDE                    136
               CHAPTER XVIII.
THE PORTRAIT                             149
                CHAPTER XIX.
THE WHITE FEATHER                        159
                CHAPTER XX.
VENI, VIDI, VICI                         171
                CHAPTER XXI.
               CHAPTER XXII.
BRISTOL DIAMONDS                         186
               CHAPTER XXIII.
QUICKSANDS                               198
               CHAPTER XXIV.
AFTER THE TEMPEST                        208
                CHAPTER XXV.
HOLIDAY-MAKING                           217
               CHAPTER XXVI.
C. MORBUS, ESQ.                          229
               CHAPTER XXVII.
PETER’S THUNDERBOLT                      236
              CHAPTER XXVIII.
A SQUIRE OF DAMES                        245
               CHAPTER XXIX.
LOVE AND OBEDIENCE                       251
                CHAPTER XXX.
UNA OR DUESSA                            260
               CHAPTER XXXI.
FACILIS DESCENSUS                        269
               CHAPTER XXXII.
WALY, WALY                               278
              CHAPTER XXXIII.
THE RIVER’S BANK                         284
               CHAPTER XXXIV.
NOT IN VAIN                              293
               CHAPTER XXXV.
GRIFF’S BIRD                             299
               CHAPTER XXXVI.
SLACK WATER                              307
              CHAPTER XXXVII.
OUTWARD BOUND                            316
              CHAPTER XXXVIII.
TOO LATE                                 328
               CHAPTER XXXIX.
A PURPOSE                                337
                CHAPTER XL.
THE MIDNIGHT CHASE                       344
                CHAPTER XLI.
WILLS OLD AND NEW                        350
               CHAPTER XLII.
ON A SPREE                               357
               CHAPTER XLIII.
THE PRICE                                364
               CHAPTER XLIV.
PAYING THE COST                          371
                CHAPTER XLV.
ACHIEVED                                 378
               CHAPTER XLVI.
RESTITUTION                              385
               CHAPTER XLVII.
THE FORDYCE STORY                        392
              CHAPTER XLVIII.
THE LAST DISCOVERY                       399


‘What I do remember, is my mother reading to me as     _Frontispiece_.
I lay in my crib’
A feeble water-coloured drawing of the trio                _Vignette_.
‘That is poor Margaret who married your ancestor’           _Page_ 154
Lady Margaret’s ghost                                              346


    ‘And if it be the heart of man
       Which our existence measures,
    Far longer is our childhood’s span
       Than that of manly pleasures.

    ‘For long each month and year is then,
       Their thoughts and days extending,
    But months and years pass swift with men
       To time’s last goal descending.’

                                                           ISAAC WILLIAMS.

THE united force of the younger generation has been brought upon me to
record, with the aid of diaries and letters, the circumstances connected
with Chantry House and my two dear elder brothers.  Once this could not
have been done without more pain than I could brook, but the lapse of
time heals wounds, brings compensations, and, when the heart has ceased
from aching and yearning, makes the memory of what once filled it a
treasure to be brought forward with joy and thankfulness.  Nor would it
be well that some of those mentioned in the coming narrative should be
wholly forgotten, and their place know them no more.

To explain all, I must go back to a time long before the morning when my
father astonished us all by exclaiming, ‘Poor old James Winslow!  So
Chantry House is came to us after all!’  Previous to that event I do not
think we were aware of the existence of that place, far less of its being
a possible inheritance, for my parents would never have permitted
themselves or their family to be unsettled by the notion of doubtful

My father, John Edward Winslow, was a barrister, and held an appointment
in the Admiralty Office, which employed him for many hours of the day at
Somerset House.  My mother, whose maiden name was Mary Griffith, belonged
to a naval family.  Her father had been lost in a West Indian hurricane
at sea, and her uncle, Admiral Sir John Griffith, was the hero of the
family, having been at Trafalgar and distinguished himself in cutting out
expeditions.  My eldest brother bore his name.  The second was named
after the Duke of Clarence, with whom my mother had once danced at a ball
on board ship at Portsmouth, and who had been rather fond of my uncle.
Indeed, I believe my father’s appointment had been obtained through his
interest, just about the time of Clarence’s birth.

We three boys had come so fast upon each other’s heels in the Novembers
of 1809, 10, and 11, that any two of us used to look like twins.  There
is still extant a feeble water-coloured drawing of the trio, in nankeen
frocks, and long white trowsers, with bare necks and arms, the latter
twined together, and with the free hands, Griffith holding a bat,
Clarence a trap, and I a ball.  I remember the emulation we felt at
Griffith’s privilege of eldest in holding the bat.

The sitting for that picture is the only thing I clearly remember during
those earlier days.  I have no recollection of the disaster, which, at
four years old, altered my life.  The catastrophe, as others have
described it, was that we three boys were riding cock-horse on the
balusters of the second floor of our house in Montagu Place, Russell
Square, when we indulged in a general _mêlée_, which resulted in all
tumbling over into the vestibule below.  The others, to whom I served as
cushion, were not damaged beyond the power of yelling, and were quite
restored in half-an-hour, but I was undermost, and the consequence has
been a curved spine, dwarfed stature, an elevated shoulder, and a
shortened, nearly useless leg.

What I do remember, is my mother reading to me Miss Edgeworth’s _Frank
and the little do Trusty_, as I lay in my crib in her bedroom.  I made
one of my nieces hunt up the book for me the other day, and the story
brought back at once the little crib, or the watered blue moreen canopy
of the big four-poster to which I was sometimes lifted for a change; even
the scrawly pattern of the paper, which my weary eyes made into purple
elves perpetually pursuing crimson ones, the foremost of whom always
turned upside down; and the knobs in the Marseilles counterpane with
which my fingers used to toy.  I have heard my mother tell that whenever
I was most languid and suffering I used to whine out, ‘O do read _Frank
and the little dog Trusty_,’ and never permitted a single word to be
varied, in the curious childish love of reiteration with its soothing

I am afraid that any true picture of our parents, especially of my
mother, will not do them justice in the eyes of the young people of the
present day, who are accustomed to a far more indulgent government, and
yet seem to me to know little of the loyal veneration and submission with
which we have, through life, regarded our father and mother.  It would
have been reckoned disrespectful to address them by these names; they
were through life to us, in private, papa and mamma, and we never
presumed to take a liberty with them.  I doubt whether the petting,
patronising equality of terms on which children now live with their
parents be equally wholesome.  There was then, however, strong love and
self-sacrificing devotion; but not manifested in softness or cultivation
of sympathy.  Nothing was more dreaded than spoiling, which was viewed as
idle and unjustifiable self-gratification at the expense of the objects
thereof.  There were an unlucky little pair in Russell Square who were
said to be ‘spoilt children,’ and who used to be mentioned in our nursery
with bated breath as a kind of monsters or criminals.  I believe our
mother laboured under a perpetual fear of spoiling Griff as the eldest,
Clarence as the beauty, me as the invalid, Emily (two years younger) as
the only girl, and Martyn as the after-thought, six years below our
sister.  She was always performing little acts of conscientiousness,
little as we guessed it.

Thus though her unremitting care saved my life, and was such that she
finally brought on herself a severe and dangerous illness, she kept me in
order all the time, never wailed over me nor weakly pitied me, never
permitted resistance to medicine nor rebellion against treatment,
enforced little courtesies, insisted on every required exertion, and
hardly ever relaxed the rule of Spartan fortitude in herself as in me.
It is to this resolution on her part, carried out consistently at
whatever present cost to us both, that I owe such powers of locomotion as
I possess, and the habits of exertion that have been even more valuable
to me.

When at last, after many weeks, nay months, of this watchfulness, she
broke down, so that her life was for a time in danger, the lack of her
bracing and tender care made my life very trying, after I found myself
transported to the nursery, scarcely understanding why, accused of having
by my naughtiness made ray poor mamma so ill, and discovering for the
first time that I was a miserable, naughty little fretful being, and with
nobody but Clarence and the housemaid to take pity on me.

Nurse Gooch was a masterful, trustworthy woman, and was laid under
injunctions not to indulge Master Edward.  She certainly did not err in
that respect, though she attended faithfully to my material welfare; but
woe to me if I gave way to a little moaning; and what I felt still
harder, she never said ‘good boy’ if I contrived to abstain.

I hear of carpets, curtains, and pictures in the existing nurseries.
They must be palaces compared with our great bare attic, where nothing
was allowed that could gather dust.  One bit of drugget by the fireside,
where stood a round table at which the maids talked and darned stockings,
was all that hid the bare boards; the walls were as plain as those of a
workhouse, and when the London sun did shine, it glared into my eyes
through the great unshaded windows.  There was a deal table for the meals
(and very plain meals they were), and two or three big presses painted
white for our clothes, and one cupboard for our toys.  I must say that
Gooch was strictly just, and never permitted little Emily, nor
Griff—though he was very decidedly the favourite,—to bear off my beloved
woolly dog to be stabled in the houses of wooden bricks which the two
were continually constructing for their menagerie of maimed animals.

Griff was deservedly the favourite with every one who was not, like our
parents, conscientiously bent on impartiality.  He was so bright and
winning, he had such curly tight-rolled hair with a tinge of auburn, such
merry bold blue eyes, such glowing dimpled cheeks, such a joyous smile
all over his face, and such a ringing laugh; he was so strong, brave, and
sturdy, that he was a boy to be proud of, and a perfect king in his own
way, making every one do as he pleased.  All the maids, and Peter the
footman, were his slaves, every one except nurse and mamma, and it was
only by a strong effort of principle that they resisted him; while he
dragged Clarence about as his devoted though not always happy follower.

Alas! for Clarence!  Courage was not in him.  The fearless infant boy
chiefly dwells in conventional fiction, and valour seldom comes before
strength.  Moreover, I have come to the opinion that though no one
thought of it at the time, his nerves must have had a terrible and
lasting shock at the accident and at the sight of my crushed and deathly
condition, which occupied every one too much for them to think of
soothing or shielding him.  At any rate, fear was the misery of his life.
Darkness was his horror.  He would scream till he brought in some one,
though he knew it would be only to scold or slap him.  The housemaid’s
closet on the stairs was to him an abode of wolves.  Mrs. Gatty’s tale of
_The Tiger in the Coal-box_ is a transcript of his feelings, except that
no one took the trouble to reassure him; something undefined and horrible
was thought to wag in the case of the eight-day clock; and he could not
bear to open the play cupboard lest ‘something’ should jump out on him.
The first time he was taken to the Zoological Gardens, the monkeys so
terrified him that a bystander insisted on Gooch’s carrying him away lest
he should go into fits, though Griffith was shouting with ecstasy, and
could hardly forgive the curtailment of his enjoyment.

Clarence used to aver that he really did see ‘things’ in the dark, but as
he only shuddered and sobbed instead of describing them, he was punished
for ‘telling fibs,’ though the housemaid used to speak under her breath
of his being a ‘Sunday child.’  And after long penance, tied to his stool
in the corner, he would creep up to me and whisper, ‘But, Eddy, I really

However, it was only too well established in the nursery that Clarence’s
veracity was on a par with his courage.  When taxed with any
misdemeanour, he used to look round scared and bewildered, and utter a
flat demur.  One scene in particular comes before me.  There were strict
laws against going into shops or buying dainties without express
permission from mamma or nurse; but one day when Clarence had by some
chance been sent out alone with the good natured housemaid, his fingers
were found sticky.

‘Now, Master Clarence, you’ve been a naughty boy, eating of sweets,’
exclaimed stern Justice in a mob cap and frills.

‘No—no—’ faltered the victim; but, alas!  Mrs. Gooch had only to thrust
her hand into the little pocket of his monkey suit to convict him on the

The maid was dismissed with a month’s wages, and poor Clarence underwent
a strange punishment from my mother, who was getting about again by that
time, namely, a drop of hot sealing-wax on his tongue, to teach him
practically the doom of the false tongue.  It might have done him good if
there had been sufficient encouragement to him to make him try to win a
new character, but it only added a fresh terror to his mind; and nurse
grew fond of manifesting her incredulity of his assertions by always
referring to Griff or to me, or even to little Emily.  What was worse,
she used to point him out to her congeners in the Square or the Park as
‘such a false child.’

He was a very pretty little fellow, with a delicately rosy face, wistful
blue eyes, and soft, light, wavy hair, and perhaps Gooch was jealous of
his attracting more notice than Griffith, and thought he posed for
admiration, for she used to tell people that no one could guess what a
child he was for slyness; so that he could not bear going out with her,
and sometimes bemoaned himself to me.

There must be a good deal of sneaking in the undeveloped nature, for in
those days I was ashamed of my preference for Clarence, the naughty one.
But there was no helping it, he was so much more gentle than Griff, and
would always give up any sport that incommoded me, instead of calling me
a stupid little ape, and becoming more boisterous after the fashion of
Griff.  Moreover, he fetched and carried for me unweariedly, and would
play at spillekins, help to put up puzzles, and enact little dramas with
our wooden animals, such as Griff scorned as only fit for babies.  Even
nurse allowed Clarence’s merits towards me and little Emily, but always
with the sigh: ‘If he was but as good in other respects, but them quiet
ones is always sly.’

Good Nurse Gooch!  We all owe much to her staunch fidelity, strong
discipline, and unselfish devotion, but nature had not fitted her to deal
with a timid, sensitive child, of highly nervous temperament.  Indeed,
persons of far more insight might have been perplexed by the fact that
Clarence was exemplary at church and prayers, family and
private,—whenever Griff would let him, that is to say,—and would add
private petitions of his own, sometimes of a startling nature.  He never
scandalised the nursery, like Griff, by unseemly pranks on Sundays, nor
by innovations in the habits of Noah’s ark, but was as much shocked as
nurse when the lion was made to devour the elephant, or the lion and wolf
fought in an embrace fatal to their legs.  Bible stories and Watt’s hymns
were more to Clarence than even to me, and he used to ask questions for
which Gooch’s theology was quite insufficient, and which brought the
invariable answers, ‘Now, Master Clarry, I never did!  Little boys should
not ask such questions!’  ‘What’s the use of your pretending, sir!  It’s
all falseness, that’s what it is!  I hates hypercrīting!’  ‘Don’t worrit,
Master Clarence; you are a very naughty boy to say such things.  I shall
put you in the corner!’

Even nurse was scared one night when Clarence had a frightful screaming
fit, declaring that he saw ‘her—her—all white,’ and even while being
slapped reiterated, ‘_her_, Lucy!’

Lucy was a kind elder girl in the Square gardens, a protector of little
timid ones.  She was known to be at that time very ill with measles, and
in fact died that very night.  Both my brothers sickened the next day,
and Emily and I soon followed their example, but no one had it badly
except Clarence, who had high fever, and very much delirium each night,
talking to people whom he thought he saw, so as to make nurse regret her
severity on the vision of Lucy.


    ‘In the loom of life-cloth pleasure,
       Ere our childish days be told,
    With the warp and woof enwoven,
       Glitters like a thread of gold.’—JEAN INGELOW.

Looking back, I think my mother was the leading spirit in our household,
though she never for a moment suspected it.  Indeed, the chess queen must
be the most active on the home board, and one of the objects of her life
was to give her husband a restful evening when he came home to the six
o’clock dinner.  She also had to make both ends meet on an income which
would seem starvation at the present day; but she was strong, spirited,
and managing, and equal to all her tasks till the long attendance upon
me, and the consequent illness, forced her to spare herself—a little—a
very little.

Previously she had been our only teacher, except that my father read a
chapter of the Bible with us every morning before breakfast, and heard
the Catechism on a Sunday.  For we could all read long before young
gentlefolks nowadays can say their letters.  It was well for me, since
books with a small quantity of type, and a good deal of frightful
illustration, beguiled many of my weary moments.  You may see my special
favourites, bound up, on the shelf in my bedroom.  Crabbe’s _Tales_,
_Frank_, _the Parent’s Assistant_, and later, Croker’s _Tales from
English History_, Lamb’s _Tales from Shakespeare_, _Tales of a
Grandfather_, and the _Rival Crusoes_ stand pre-eminent—also _Mrs.
Leicester’s School_, with the ghost story cut out.

Fairies and ghosts were prohibited as unwholesome, and not unwisely.  The
one would have been enervating to me, and the other would have been a
definite addition to Clarence’s stock of horrors.  Indeed, one story had
been cut out of Crabbe’s _Tales_, and another out of an Annual presented
to Emily, but not before Griff had read the latter, and the version he
related to us probably lost nothing in the telling; indeed, to this day I
recollect the man, wont to slay the harmless cricket on the hearth, and
in a storm at sea pursued by a gigantic cockroach and thrown overboard.
The night after hearing this choice legend Clarence was found crouching
beside me in bed for fear of the cockroach.  I am afraid the vengeance
was more than proportioned to the offence!

Even during my illness that brave mother struggled to teach my brothers’
daily lessons, and my father heard them a short bit of Latin grammar at
his breakfast (five was thought in those days to be the fit age to begin
it, and fathers the fit teachers thereof).  And he continued to give this
morning lesson when, on our return from airing at Ramsgate after our
recovery from the measles, my mother found she must submit to transfer us
to a daily governess.

Old Miss Newton’s attainments could not have been great, for her answers
to my inquiries were decidedly funny, and prefaced _sotto voce_ with,
‘What a child it is!’  But she was a good kindly lady, who had the
faculty of teaching, and of forestalling rebellion; and her little thin
corkscrew curls, touched with gray, her pale eyes, prim black silk apron,
and sandalled shoes, rise before me full of happy associations of tender
kindness and patience.  She was wise, too, in her own simple way.  When
nurse would have forewarned her of Clarence’s failings in his own
hearing, she cut the words short by declaring that she should like never
to find out which was the naughty one.  And when habit was too strong,
and he had denied the ink spot on the atlas, she persuasively wiled out a
confession not only to her but to mamma, who hailed the avowal as the
beginning of better things, and kissed instead of punishing.

Clarence’s queries had been snubbed into reserve, and I doubt whether
Miss Newton’s theoretic theology was very much more developed than that
of Mrs. Gooch, but her practice and devotion were admirable, and she
fostered religious sentiment among us, introducing little books which
were welcome in the restricted range of Sunday reading.  Indeed, Mrs.
Sherwood’s have some literary merit, and her _Fairchild Family_ indulged
in such delicious and eccentric acts of naughtiness as quite atoned for
all the religious teaching, and fascinated Griff, though he was apt to be
very impatient of certain little affectionate lectures to which Clarence
listened meekly.  My father and mother were both of the old-fashioned
orthodox school, with minds formed on Jeremy Taylor, Blair, South, and
Secker, who thought it their duty to go diligently to church twice on
Sunday, communicate four times a year (their only opportunities), after
grave and serious preparation, read a sermon to their household on Sunday
evenings, and watch over their children’s religious instruction, though
in a reserved undemonstrative manner.  My father always read one daily
chapter with us every morning, one Psalm at family prayers, and my mother
made us repeat a few verses of Scripture before our other studies began;
besides which there was special teaching on Sunday, and an abstinence
from amusements, such as would now be called Sabbatarian, but a walk in
the Park with papa was so much esteemed that it made the day a happy and
honoured one to those who could walk.

There was little going into society, comparatively, for people in our
station,—solemn dinner-parties from time to time—two a year, did we give,
and then the house was turned upside down,—and now and then my father
dined out, or brought a friend home to dinner; and there were so-called
morning calls in the afternoon, but no tea-drinking.  For the most part
the heads of the family dined alone at six, and afterwards my father read
aloud some book of biography or travels, while we children were expected
to employ ourselves quietly, threading beads, drawing, or putting up
puzzles, and listen or not as we chose, only not interrupt, as we sat at
the big, central, round, mahogany table.  To this hour I remember
portions of Belzoni’s Researches and Franklin’s terrible American
adventures, and they bring back tones of my father’s voice.  As an
authority ‘papa’ was seldom invoked, except on very serious occasions,
such as Griffith’s audacity, Clarence’s falsehood, or my obstinacy; and
then the affair was formidable, he was judicial and awful, and, though he
would graciously forgive on signs of repentance, he never was
sympathetic.  He had not married young, and there were forty years or
more between him and his sons, so that he had left too far behind him the
feelings of boyhood to make himself one with us, even if he had thought
it right or dignified to do so,—yet I cannot describe the depth of the
respect and loyalty he inspired in us nor the delight we felt in a word
of commendation or a special attention from him.

The early part of Miss Newton’s rule was unusually fertile in such
pleasures, and much might have been spared, could Clarence have been
longer under her influence; but Griff grew beyond her management, and was
taunted by ‘fellows in the Square’ into assertions of manliness, such as
kicking his heels, stealing her odd little fringed parasol, pitching his
books into the area, keeping her in misery with his antics during their
walks, and finally leading Clarence off after Punch into the Rookery of
St. Giles’s, where she could not follow, because Emily was in her charge.

This was the crisis.  She had to come home without the boys, and though
they arrived long before any of the authorities knew of their absence,
she owned with tears that she could not conscientiously be responsible
any longer for Griffith,—who not only openly defied her authority, but
had found out how little she knew, and laughed at her.  I have reason to
believe also that my mother had discovered that she frequented the
preachings of Rowland Hill and Baptist Noel; and had confiscated some
unorthodox tracts presented to the servants, thus being alarmed lest she
should implant the seeds of dissent.

Parting with her after four years under her was a real grief.  Even Griff
was fond of her; when once emancipated, he used to hug her and bring her
remarkable presents, and she heartily loved her tormentor.  Everybody
did.  It remained a great pleasure to get her to spend an evening with us
while the elders were gone out to dinner; nor do I think she ever did us
anything but good, though I am afraid we laughed at ‘Old Newton’ as we
grew older and more conceited.  We never had another governess.  My
mother read and enforced diligence on Emily and me, and we had masters
for different studies; the two boys went to school; and when Martyn began
to emerge from babyhood, Emily was his teacher.


   ‘The rude will shuffle through with ease enough:
   Great schools best suit the sturdy and the rough.’


AT school Griffith was very happy, and brilliantly successful, alike in
study and sport, though sports were not made prominent in those days, and
triumphs in them were regarded by the elders with doubtful pride, lest
they should denote a lack of attention to matters of greater importance.
All his achievements were, however, poured forth by himself and Clarence
to Emily and me, and we felt as proud of them as if they had been our

Clarence was industrious, and did not fail in his school work, but when
he came home for the holidays there was a cowed look about him, and
private revelations were made over my sofa that made my flesh creep.  The
scars were still visible, caused by having been compelled to grasp the
bars of the grate bare-handed; and, what was worse, he had been suspended
outside a third story window by the wrists, held by a schoolfellow of

‘But what was Griff about?’ I demanded, with hot tears of indignation.

‘Oh, Win!—that’s what they call him, and me Slow—he said it would do me
good.  But I don’t think it did, Eddy.  It only makes my heart beat fit
to choke me whenever I go near the passage window.’

I could only utter a vain wish that I had been there and able to fight
for him, and I attacked Griff on the subject on the first opportunity.

‘Oh!’ was his answer, ‘it is only what all fellows have to bear if
there’s no pluck in them.  They tried it on upon me, you know, but I soon
showed them it would not do’—with the cock of the nose, the flash of the
eyes, the clench of the fist, that were peculiarly Griff’s own; and when
I pleaded that he might have protected Clarence, he laughed scornfully.
‘As to Slow, wretched being, a fellow can’t help bullying him.  It comes
as natural as to a cat with a mouse.’  On further and reiterated
pleadings, Griff declared, first, that it was the only thing to do Slow
any good, or make a man of him; and next, that he heartily wished that
Winslow junior had been Miss Clara at once, as the fellows called him—it
was really hard on him (Griff) to have such a sneaking little coward tied
to him for a junior!

I particularly resented the term Slow, for Clarence had lately been the
foremost of us in his studies; but the idea that learning had anything to
do with the matter was derided, and as time went on, there was vexation
and displeasure at his progress not being commensurate with his
abilities.  It would have been treason to schoolboy honour to let the
elders know that though a strong, high-spirited popular boy like ‘Win’
might venture to excel big bullying dunces, such fair game as poor ‘Slow’
could be terrified into not only keeping below them, but into doing their
work for them.  To him Cowper’s ‘Tirocinium’ had only too much sad truth.

As to his old failing, there were no special complaints, but in those
pre-Arnoldian times no lofty code of honour was even ideal among
schoolboys, or expected of them by masters; shuffling was thought
natural, and allowances made for faults in indolent despair.

My mother thought the Navy the proper element of boyhood, and her uncle
the Admiral promised a nomination,—a simple affair in those happy days,
involving neither examination nor competition.  Griffith was, however,
one of those independent boys who take an aversion to whatever is forced
on them as their fate.  He was ready and successful with his studies, a
hero among his comrades, and preferred continuing at school to what he
pronounced, on the authority of the nautical tales freely thrown in our
way, to be the life of a dog, only fit for the fool of the family;
besides, he had once been out in a boat, tasted of sea-sickness, and been
laughed at.  My father was gratified, thinking his brains too good for a
midshipman, and pleased that he should wish to tread in his own steps at
Harrow and Oxford, and thus my mother could not openly regret his
degeneracy when all the rest of us were crazy over _Tom Cringle’s Log_,
and ready to envy Clarence when the offer was passed on to him, and he
appeared in the full glory of his naval uniform.  Not much choice had
been offered to him.  My mother would have thought it shameful and
ungrateful to have no son available, my father was glad to have the boy’s
profession fixed, and he himself was rejoiced to escape from the miseries
he knew only too well, and ready to believe that uniform and dirk would
make a man of him at once, with all his terrors left behind.  Perhaps the
chief drawback was that the ladies _would_ say, ‘What a darling!’
affording Griff endless opportunities for the good-humoured mockery by
which he concealed his own secret regrets.  Did not even Selina Clarkson,
whose red cheeks, dark blue eyes, and jetty profusion of shining curls,
were our notion of perfect beauty, select the little naval cadet for her
partner at the dancing master’s ball?

In the first voyage, a cruise in the Pacific, all went well.  The good
Admiral had carefully chosen ship and captain; there were an excellent
set of officers, a good tone among the midshipmen, and Clarence, who was
only twelve years old, was constituted the pet of the cockpit.  One lad
in especial, Coles by name, attracted by Clarence’s pleasant gentleness,
and impelled by the generosity that shields the weak, became his guardian
friend, and protected him from all the roughnesses in his power.  If
there were a fault in that excellent Coles, it was that he made too much
of a baby of his _protégé_, and did not train him to shift for himself:
but wisdom and moderation are not characteristics of early youth.  At
home we had great enjoyment of his long descriptive letters, which came
under cover to our father at the Admiralty, but were chiefly intended for
my benefit.  All were proud of them, and great was my elation when I
heard papa relate some fact out of them with the preface, ‘My boy tells
me, my boy Clarence, in the _Calypso_; he writes a capital letter.’

How great was our ecstasy when after three years and a half we had him at
home again; handsome, vigorous, well-grown, excellently reported of,
fully justifying my mother’s assurances that the sea would make a man of
him.  There was Griffith in the fifth form and a splendid cricketer, but
Clarence could stand up to him now, and Harrovian exploits were tame
beside stories of sharks and negroes, monkeys and alligators.  There was
one in particular, about a whole boat’s crew sitting down on what they
thought was a fallen tree, but which suddenly swept them all over on
their faces, and turned out to be a boa-constrictor, and would have
embraced one of them if he had not had the sail of the boat coiled round
the mast, and palmed off upon him, when he gorged it contentedly, and
being found dead on the next landing, his skin was used to cover the
captain’s sea-chest.  Clarence declined to repeat this tale and many
others before the elders, and was displeased with Emily for referring to
it in public.  As to his terrors, he took it for granted that an officer
of H.M.S. _Calypso_, had left them behind, and in fact, he naturally
forgot and passed over what he had not been shielded from, while his
hereditary love of the sea really made those incidental to his profession
much more endurable than the bullying he had undergone at school.

We were very happy that Christmas, and very proud of our boys.  One
evening we were treated to a box at the pantomime, and even I was able to
go to it.  We put our young sailor and our sister in the forefront, and
believed that every one was as much struck with them as with the
wonderful transformations of Goody-Two-Shoes under the wand of Harlequin.
Brother-like, we might tease our one girl, and call her an affected
little pussy cat, but our private opinion was that she excelled all other
damsels with her bright blue eyes and pretty curling hair, which had the
same chestnut shine as Griff’s—enough to make us correct possible vanity
by terming it red, though we were ready to fight any one else who
presumed to do so.  Indeed Griff had defended its hue in single combat,
and his eye was treated for it with beefsteak by Peter in the pantry.  We
were immensely, though silently, proud of her in her white embroidered
cambric frock, red sash and shoes, and coral necklace, almost an
heirloom, for it had been brought from Sicily in Nelson’s days by my
mother’s poor young father.  How parents and doctors in these days would
have shuddered at her neck and arms, bare, not only in the evening, but
by day!  When she was a little younger she could so shrink up from her
clothes that Griff, or little Martyn, in a mischievous mood, would put
things down her back, to reappear below her petticoats.  Once it was a
dead wasp, which descended harmlessly the length of her spine!  She was a
good-humoured, affectionate, dear sister, my valued companion, submitting
patiently to be eclipsed when Clarence was present, and everything to me
in his absence.  Sturdy little Martyn too, was held by us to be the most
promising of small boys.  He was a likeness of Clarence, only stouter,
hardier, and without the delicate, girlish, wistful look; imitating Griff
in everything, and rather a heavy handful to Emily and me when left to
our care, though we were all the more proud of his high spirit, and were
fast becoming a mutual admiration society.

What then were our feelings when Griff, always fearless, dashed to the
rescue of a boy under whom the ice had broken in St. James’ Park, and
held him up till assistance came?  Martyn, who was with him, was sent
home to fetch dry clothes and reassure my mother, which he did by dashing
upstairs, shouting, ‘Where’s mamma?  Here’s Griff been into the water and
pulled out a boy, and they don’t know if he is drowned; but he looks—oh!’

Even after my mother had elicited that Martyn’s _he_ meant the boy, and
not Griff, she could not rest without herself going to see that our
eldest was unhurt, greet him, and bring him home.  What happy tears stood
in her eyes, how my father shook hands with him, how we drank his health
after dinner, and how ungrateful I was to think Clarence deserved his
name of Slow for having stayed at home to play chess with me because my
back was aching, when he might have been winning the like honours!  How
red and gruff and shy the hero looked, and how he entreated no one to say
any more about it!

He would not even look publicly at the paragraph about it in the paper,
only vituperating it for having made him into ‘a juvenile Etonian,’ and
hoping no one from Harrow would guess whom it meant.

I found that paragraph the other day in my mother’s desk, folded over the
case of the medal of the Royal Humane Society, which Griff affected to
despise, but which, when he was well out of the way, used to be exhibited
on high days and holidays.  It seems now like the boundary mark of the
golden days of our boyhood, and unmitigated hopes for one another.


    ‘Clarence is come—false, fleeting, perjured Clarence.’

                                                       _King Richard III_.

THERE was much stagnation in the Navy in those days in the reaction after
the great war; and though our family had fair interest at the Admiralty,
it was seven months before my brother went to sea again.  To me they were
very happy months, with my helper of helpers, companion of companions,
who made possible to me many a little enterprise that could not be
attempted without him.  My father made him share my studies, and thus
they became doubly pleasant.  And oh, ye boys! who murmur at the Waverley
Novels as a dry holiday task, ye may envy us the zest and enthusiasm with
which we devoured them in their freshness.  Strangely enough, the last
that we read together was the _Fair Maid of Perth_.

Clarence and his friend Coles longed to sail together again, but Coles
was shelved; and when Clarence’s appointment came at last, it was to the
brig _Clotho_, Commander Brydone, going out in the Mediterranean Fleet,
under Sir Edward Codrington.  My mother did not like brigs, and my father
did not like what he heard of the captain; but there had been jealous
murmurs about appointments being absorbed by sons of officials—he durst
not pick and choose; and the Admiral pronounced that if the lad had been
spoilt on board the _Calypso_, it was time for him to rough it—a dictum
whence there was no appeal.

Half a year later the tidings of the victory of Navarino rang through
Europe, and were only half welcome to the conquerors; but in our
household it is connected with a terrible recollection.  Though more than
half a century has rolled by, I shrink from dwelling on the shock that
fell on us when my father returned from Somerset House with such a
countenance that we thought our sailor had fallen; but my mother could
brook the fact far less than if her son had died a gallant death.  The
_Clotho_ was on her way home, and Midshipman William Clarence Winslow was
to be tried by court-martial for insubordination, disobedience, and
drunkenness.  My mother was like one turned to stone.  She would hardly
go out of doors; she could scarcely bring herself to go to church; she
would have had my father give up his situation if there had been any
other means of livelihood.  She could not talk; only when my father
sighed, ‘We should never have put him into the Navy,’ she hotly replied,

‘How was I to suppose that a son of mine would be like that?’

Emily cried all day and all night.  Some others would have felt it a
relief to have cried too.  In more furious language than parents in those
days tolerated, Griff wrote to me his utter disbelief, and how he had
punched the heads of fellows who presumed to doubt that it was not all a
rascally, villainous plot.

When the time came my father went down by the night mail to Portsmouth.
He could scarcely bear to face the matter; but, as he said, he could not
have it on his conscience if the boy did anything desperate for want of
some one to look after him.  Besides, there might be some explanation.

‘Explanation,’ said my mother bitterly.  ‘That there always is!’

The ‘explanation’ was this—I have put together what came out in evidence,
what my father and the Admiral heard from commiserating officers, and
what at different times I learned from Clarence himself.  Captain Brydone
was one of the rough old description of naval men, good sailors and stern
disciplinarians, but wanting in any sense of moral duties towards their
ship’s company.  His lieutenant was of the same class, soured, moreover,
by tardy promotion, and prejudiced against a gentleman-like, fair-faced
lad, understood to have interest, and bearing a name that implied it.  Of
the other two midshipmen, one was a dull lad of low stamp, the other a
youth of twenty, a born bully, with evil as well as tyrannical
propensities;—the crew conforming to severe discipline on board, but
otherwise wild and lawless.  In such a ship a youth with good habits,
sensitive conscience, and lack of moral or physical courage, could not
but lead a life of misery, losing every day more of his self-respect and
spirit as he was driven to the evil he loathed, dreading the
consequences, temporal and eternal, with all his soul, yet without
resolution or courage to resist.

As every one knows, the battle of Navarino came on suddenly, almost by
mistake; and though it is perhaps no excuse, the hurly-burly and horror
burst upon him at unawares.  Though the English loss was comparatively
very small, the _Clotho_ was a good deal exposed, and two men were
killed—one so close to Clarence that his clothes were splashed with
blood.  This entirely unnerved him; he did not even know what he did, but
he was not to be found when required to carry an order, and was
discovered hidden away below, shuddering, in his berth, and then made
some shallow excuse about misunderstanding orders.  Whether this would
have been brought up against him under other circumstances, or whether it
would have been remembered that great men, including Charles V. and Henri
IV., have had their _moment de peur_, I cannot tell; but there were other
charges.  I cannot give date or details.  There is no record among the
papers before me; and I can only vaguely recall what could hardly be read
for the sense of agony, was never discussed, and was driven into the most
oblivious recesses of the soul fifty years ago.  There was a story about
having let a boat’s crew, of which he was in charge, get drunk and
over-stay their time.  One of them deserted; and apparently prevarication
ran to the bounds of perjury, if it did not overpass them.  (N.B.—Seeing
seamen flogged was one of the sickening horrors that haunted Clarence in
the _Clotho_.)  Also, when on shore at Malta with the young man whose
name I will not record—his evil genius—he was beguiled or bullied into a
wine-shop, and while not himself was made the cat’s-paw of some insolent
practical joke on the lieutenant; and when called to account, was so
bewildered and excited as to use unpardonable language.

Whatever it might have been in detail, so much was proved against him
that he was dismissed his ship, and his father was recommended to
withdraw him from the service, as being disqualified by want of nerve.
Also, it was added more privately, that such vicious tendencies needed
home restraint.  The big bully, his corrupter, bore witness against him,
but did not escape scot free, for one of the captains spoke to him in
scathing tones of censure.

Whenever my mother was in trouble, she always re-arranged the furniture,
and a family crisis was always heralded by a revolution of chairs,
tables, and sofas.  She could not sit still under suspense, and, during
these terrible days the entire house underwent a setting to rights.
Emily attended upon her, and I sat and dusted books.  No doubt it was
much better for us than sitting still.  My father’s letter came by the
morning mail, telling us of the sentence, and that he and our poor
culprit, as he said, would come home by the Portsmouth coach in the

One room was already in order when Sir John Griffith kindly came to see
whether he could bring any comfort to a spirit which would infinitely
have preferred death to dishonour, and was, above all, shocked at the
lack of physical courage.  Never had I liked our old Admiral so well as
when I heard how his chief anger was directed against the general
mismanagement, and the cruelty of blighting a poor lad’s life when not
yet seventeen.  His father might have been warned to remove him without
the public scandal of a court-martial and dismissal.

‘The guilt and shame would have been all the same to us,’ said my mother.

‘Come, Mary, don’t be hard on the poor fellow.  In quiet times like these
a poor boy can’t look over the wall where one might have stolen a horse,
ay, or a dozen horses, when there was something else to think about!’

‘You would not have forgiven such a thing, sir.’

‘It never would have happened under me, or in any decently commanded
ship!’ he thundered.  ‘There wasn’t a fault to be found with him in the
_Calypso_.  What possessed Winslow to let him sail with Brydone?  But the
service is going,’ etc. etc., he ran on—forgetting that it was he himself
who had been unwilling, perhaps rightly, to press the Duke of Clarence
for an appointment to a crack frigate for his namesake.  However, when he
took leave he repeated, as he kissed my mother, ‘Mind, Mary, don’t be set
against the lad.  That’s the way to make ’em desperate, and he is a mere
boy, after all.’

Poor mother, it was not so much hardness as a wounded spirit that made
her look so rigid.  It might have been better if the return could have
been delayed so as to make her yearn after her son, but there was nowhere
for him to go, and the coach was already on its way.  How strange it was
to feel the wonted glow at Clarence’s return coupled with a frightful
sense of disgrace and depression.

The time was far on in October, and it was thus quite dark when the
travellers arrived, having walked from Charing Cross, where the coach set
them down.  My father came in first, and my mother clung to him as if he
had been absent for weeks, while all the joy of contact with my brother
swept over me, even though his hand hung limp in mine, and was icy cold
like his cheeks.  My father turned to him with one of the little set
speeches of those days.  ‘Here is our son, Mary, who has promised me to
do his utmost to retrieve his character, as far as may be possible, and
happily he is still young.’

My mother’s embrace was in a sort of mechanical obedience to her
husband’s gesture, and her voice was not perhaps meant to be so severe as
it sounded when she said, ‘You are very cold—come and warm yourself.’

They made room for him by the fire, and my father stood up in front of
it, giving particulars of the journey.  Emily and Martyn were at tea in
the nursery, in a certain awe that hindered them from coming down;
indeed, Martyn seems to have expected to see some strange transformation
in his brother.  Indeed, there was alteration in the absence of the blue
and gold, and, still more, in the loss of the lightsome, hopeful
expression from the young face.

There is a picture of Ary Scheffer’s of an old knight, whose son had fled
from the battle, cutting the tablecloth in two between himself and the
unhappy youth.  Like that stern baron’s countenance was that with which
my mother sat at the head of the dinner-table, and we conversed by jerks
about whatever we least cared for, as if we could hide our wretchedness
from Peter.  When the children appeared each gave Clarence the shyest of
kisses, and they sat demurely on their chairs on either side of my father
to eat their almonds and raisins, after which we went upstairs, and there
was the usual reading.  It is curious, but though none of us could have
told at the time what it was about, on turning over not long ago a copy
of Head’s _Pampas and Andes_, one chapter struck me with an intolerable
sense of melancholy, such as the bull chases of South America did not
seem adequate to produce, and by and by I remembered that it was the book
in course of being read at that unhappy period.  My mother went on as
diligently as ever with some of those perpetual shirts which seemed to be
always in hand except before company, when she used to do tambour work
for Emily’s frocks.  Clarence sat the whole time in a dark corner, never
stirring, except that he now and then nodded a little.  He had gone
through many wakeful, and worse than wakeful, nights of wretched
suspense, and now the worst was over.

Family prayers took place, chill good-nights were exchanged, and nobody
interfered with his helping me up to my bedroom as usual; but there was
something in his face to which I durst not speak, though perhaps I
looked, for he exclaimed, ‘Don’t, Ned!’ wrung my hand, and sped away to
his own quarters higher up.  Then came a sound which made me open my door
to listen.  Dear little Emily!  She had burst out of her own room in her
dressing-gown, and flung herself upon her brother as he was plodding
wearily upstairs in the dark, clinging round his neck sobbing, ‘Dear,
dear Clarry!  I can’t bear it!  I don’t care.  You’re my own dear
brother, and they are all wicked, horrid people.’

That was all I heard, except hushings on Clarence’s part, as if the
opening of my door and the thread of light from it warned him that there
was risk of interruption.  He seemed to be dragging her up to her own
room, and I was left with a pang at her being foremost in comforting him.

My father enacted that he should be treated as usual.  But how could that
be when papa himself did not know how changed were his own ways from his
kindly paternal air of confidence?  All trust had been undermined, so
that Clarence could not cross the threshold without being required to
state his object, and, if he overstayed the time calculated, he was
cross-examined, and his replies received with a sigh of doubt.

He hung about the house, not caring to do much, except taking me out in
my Bath chair or languidly reading the most exciting books he could
get;—but there was no great stock of sensation then, except the Byronic,
and from time to time one of my parents would exclaim, ‘Clarence, I
wonder you can find nothing more profitable to occupy yourself with than
trash like that!’

He would lay down the book without a word, and take up Smith’s _Wealth of
Nations_ or Smollett’s _England_—the profitable studies recommended, and
speedily become lost in a dejected reverie, with fixed eyes and drooping


    ‘Though hawks can prey through storms and winds,
    The poor bee in her hive must dwell.’—HENRY VAUGHAN.

IN imagination the piteous dejection of our family seems to have lasted
for ages, but on comparison of dates it is plain that the first
lightening of the burthen came in about a fortnight’s time.

The firm of Frith and Castleford was coming to the front in the Chinese
trade.  The junior partner was an old companion of my father’s boyhood;
his London abode was near at hand, and he was a kind of semi-godfather to
both Clarence and me, having stood proxy for our nominal sponsors.  He
was as good and open-hearted a man as ever lived, and had always been
very kind to us; but he was scarcely welcome when my father, finding that
he had come up alone to London to see about some repairs to his house,
while his family were still in the country, asked him to dine and
sleep—our first guest since our misfortune.

My mother could hardly endure to receive any one, but she seemed glad to
see my father become animated and like himself while Roman Catholic
Emancipation was vehemently discussed, and the ruin of England hotly
predicted.  Clarence moped about silently as usual, and tried to avoid
notice, and it was not till the next morning—after breakfast, when the
two gentlemen were in the dining-room, nearly ready to go their several
ways, and I was in the window awaiting my classical tutor—that Mr.
Castleford said,

‘May I ask, Winslow, if you have any plans for that poor boy?’

‘Edward?’ said my father, almost wilfully misunderstanding.  ‘His
ambition is to be curator of something in the British Museum, isn’t it?’

Mr. Castleford explained that he meant the other, and my father sadly
answered that he hardly knew; he supposed the only thing was to send him
to a private tutor, but where to find a fit one he did not know and
besides, what could be his aim?  Sir John Griffith had said he was only
fit for the Church, ‘But one does not wish to dispose of a tarnished
article there.’

‘Certainly not,’ said Mr. Castleford; and then he spoke words that
rejoiced my heart, though they only made my father groan, bidding him
remember that it was not so much actual guilt as the accident of
Clarence’s being in the Navy that had given so serious a character to his
delinquencies.  If he had been at school, perhaps no one would ever have
heard of them, ‘Though I don’t say,’ added the good man, casting a new
light on the subject, ‘that it would have been better for him in the
end.’  Then, quite humbly, for he knew my mother especially had a disdain
for trade, he asked what my father would think of letting him give
Clarence work in the office for the present.  ‘I know,’ he said, ‘it is
not the line your family might prefer, but it is present occupation; and
I do not think you could well send a youth who has seen so much of the
world back to schooling.  Besides, this would keep him under your own

My father was greatly touched by the kindness, but he thought it right to
set before Mr. Castleford the very worst side of poor Clarence; declaring
that he durst not answer for a boy who had never, in spite of pains and
punishments, learnt to speak truth at home or abroad, repeating Captain
Brydone’s dreadful report, and even adding that, what was most grievous
of all, there was an affectation of piety about him that could scarcely
be anything but self-deceit and hypocrisy.  ‘Now,’ he said, ‘my eldest
son, Griffith, is just a boy, makes no profession, is not—as I am afraid
you have seen—exemplary at church, when Clarence sits as meek as a mouse,
but then he is always above-board, frank and straightforward.  You know
where to have a high-spirited fellow, who will tame down, but you never
know what will come next with the other.  I sometimes wonder for what
error of mine Providence has seen fit to give me such a son.’

Just then an important message came for Mr. Winslow, and he had to hurry
away, but Mr. Castleford still remained, and presently said,

‘Edward, I should like to know what your eyes have been trying to say all
this time.’

‘Oh, sir,’ I burst out, ‘do give him a chance.  Indeed he never means to
do wrong.  The harm is not in him.  He would have been the best of us all
if he had only been let alone.’

Those were exactly my own foolish words, for which I could have beaten
myself afterwards; but Mr. Castleford only gave a slight grave smile, and
said, ‘You mean that your brother’s real defect is in courage, moral and

‘Yes,’ I said, with a great effort at expressing myself.  ‘When he is
frightened, or bullied, or browbeaten, he does not know what he is doing
or saying.  He is quite different when he is his own self; only nobody
can understand.’

Strange that though the favoured home son and nearly sixteen years old,
it would have been impossible to utter so much to one of our parents.
Indeed the last sentence felt so disloyal that the colour burnt in my
cheeks as the door opened; but it only admitted Clarence, who, having
heard the front door shut, thought the coast was clear, and came in with
a load of my books and dictionaries.

‘Clarence,’ said Mr. Castleford, and the direct address made him start
and flush, ‘supposing your father consents, should you be willing to turn
your mind to a desk in my counting-house?’

He flushed deeper red, and his fingers quivered as he held by the table.
‘Thank you, sir.  Anything—anything,’ he said hesitatingly.

‘Well,’ said Mr. Castleford, with the kindest of voices, ‘let us have it
out.  What is in your mind?  You know, I’m a sort of godfather to you.’

‘Sir, if you would only let me have a berth on board one of your vessels,
and go right away.’

‘Aye, my poor boy, that’s what you would like best, I’ve no doubt; but
look at Edward’s face there, and think what that would come to at the

‘Yes, I know I have no right to choose,’ said Clarence, drooping his head
as before.

‘’Tis not that, my dear lad,’ said the good man, ‘but that packing you
off like that, among your inferiors in breeding and everything else,
would put an end to all hope of your redeeming the past—outwardly I mean,
of course—and lodge you in a position of inequality to your brothers and
sister, and all—’

‘That’s done already,’ said Clarence.

‘If you were a man grown it might be so,’ returned Mr. Castleford, ‘but
bless me, how old are you?’

‘Seventeen next 1st of November,’ said Clarence.

‘Not a bit too old for a fresh beginning,’ said Mr. Castleford cheerily.
‘God helping you, you will be a brave and good man yet, my boy—’ then as
my master rang at the door—‘Come with me and look at the old shop.’

Poor Clarence muttered something unintelligible, and I had to own for him
that he never went out without accounting for himself.  Whereupon our
friend caused my mother to be hunted up, and explained to her that he
wanted to take Clarence out with him—making some excuse about something
they were to see together.

That walk enabled him to say something which came nearer to cheering
Clarence than anything that had passed since that sad return, and made
him think that to be connected with Mr. Castleford was the best thing
that could befall him.  Mr. Castleford on his side told my father that he
was sure that the boy was good-hearted all the time, and thoroughly
repentant; but this had the less effect because plausibility, as my
father called it, was one of the qualities that specially annoyed him in
Clarence, and made him fear that his friend might be taken in.  However,
the matter was discussed between the elders, and it was determined that
this most friendly offer should be accepted experimentally.  It was
impressed on Clarence, with unnecessary care, that the line of life was
inferior; but that it was his only chance of regaining anything like a
position, and that everything depended on his industry and integrity.

‘Integrity!’ commented Clarence, with a burning spot on his cheek after
one of these lectures; ‘I believe they think me capable of robbing the

We found out, too, that the senior partner, Mr. Frith, a very crusty old
bachelor, did not like the appointment, and that it was made quite
against his will.  ‘You’ll be getting your clerks next from Newgate!’ was
what some amiable friend reported him to have said.  However, Mr.
Castleford had his way, and Clarence was to begin his work with the New
Year, being in the meantime cautioned and lectured on the crime and
danger of his evil propensities more than he could well bear.  ‘Oh!’ he
groaned, ‘it serves me right, I know that very well, but if my father
only knew how I hate and abhor all those things—and how I loathed them at
the very time I was dragged into them!’

‘Why don’t you tell him so?’ I asked.

‘That would make it no better.’

‘It is not so bad as if you had gone into it willingly, and for your own

‘He would only think that another lie.’

No more could be said, for the idea of Clarence’s untruthfulness and
depravity had become so deeply rooted in our father’s mind that there was
little hope of displacing it, and even at the best his manner was full of
grave constrained pity.  Those few words were Clarence’s first approach
to confidence with me, but they led to more, and he knew there was one
person who did not believe the defect was in the bent of his will so much
as in its strength.

All the time the prospect of the counting-house in comparison with the
sea was so distasteful to him that I was anxious whenever he went out
alone, or even with Griffith, who despised the notion of, as he said,
sitting on a high stool, dealing in tea, so much that he was quite
capable of aiding and abetting in an escape from it.  Two considerations,
however, held Clarence back; one, the timidity of nature which shrank
from so violent a step, and the other, the strong affections that bound
him to his home, though his sojourn there was so painful.  He knew the
misery his flight would have been to me; indeed I took care to let him
see it.

And Griffith’s return was like a fresh spring wind dispersing vapours.
He had gained an excellent scholarship at Brazenose, and came home
radiant with triumph, cheering us all up, and making a generous use of
his success.  He was no letter-writer, and after learning that the
disaster and disgrace were all too certain, he ignored the whole, and
hailed Clarence on his return as if nothing had happened.  As eldest son,
and almost a University man, he could argue with our parents in a manner
we never presumed on.  At least I cannot aver what he actually uttered,
but probably it was a revised version of what he thundered forth to me.
‘Such nonsense! such a shame to keep the poor beggar going about with
that hang dog look, as if he had done for himself for life!  Why, I’ve
known fellows do ever so much worse of their own accord, and nothing come
of it.  If it was found out, there might be a row and a flogging, and
there was an end of it.  As to going about mourning, and keeping the
whole house in doleful dumps, as if there was never to be any good again,
it was utter folly, and so I’ve told Bill, and papa and mamma, both of

How this was administered, or how they took it, there is no knowing, but
Griff would neither skate nor go to the theatre, nor to any other
diversion, without his brother; and used much kindly force and banter to
unearth him from his dismal den in the back drawing-room.  He was only
let alone when there were engagements with friends, and indeed, when
meetings in the streets took place, by tacit agreement, Clarence would
shrink off in the crowd as if not belonging to his companion; and these
were the moments that stung him into longing to flee to the river, and
lose the sense of shame among common sailors: but there was always some
good angel to hold him back from desperate measures—chiefly just then,
the love between us three brothers, a love that never cooled throughout
our lives, and which dear old Griff made much more apparent at this
critical time than in the old Win and Slow days of school.  That return
of his enlivened us all, and removed the terrible constraint from our
meals, bringing us back, as it were, to ordinary life and natural
intercourse among ourselves and with our neighbours.


    ‘But when I lay upon the shore,
       Like some poor wounded thing,
    I deemed I should not evermore
       Refit my wounded wing.
    Nailed to the ground and fastened there,
    This was the thought of my despair.’

                                                              ABP. TRENCH.

CLARENCE’S debut at the office was not wholly unsuccessful.  He wrote a
good hand, and had a good deal of method and regularity in his nature,
together with a real sense of gratitude to Mr. Castleford; and this bore
him through the weariness of his new employment, and, what was worse, the
cold reception he met with from the other clerks.  He was too quiet and
reserved for the wilder spirits, too much of a gentleman for others, and
in the eyes of the managers, and especially of the senior partner, a
disgraced, untrustworthy youth foisted on the office by Mr. Castleford’s
weak partiality.  That old Mr. Frith had, Clarence used to say, a
perfectly venomous way of accepting his salute, and seemed always
surprised and disappointed if he came in in time, or showed up correct
work.  Indeed, the old man was disliked and feared by all his
subordinates as much as his partner was loved; and while Mr. Castleford,
with his good-natured Irish wife and merry family, lived a life as
cheerful as it was beneficent, Mr. Frith dwelt entirely alone, in rooms
over the office, preserving the habits formed when his income had been
narrow, and mistrusting everybody.

At the end of the first month of experiment, Mr. Castleford declared
himself contented with Clarence’s industry and steadiness, and permanent
arrangements were made, to which Clarence submitted with an odd sort of
passive gratitude, such as almost angered my father, who little knew how
trying the position really was, nor how a certain home-sickness for the
seafaring life was tugging at the lad’s heart, and making each morning’s
entrance at the counting-house an effort—each merchant-captain, redolent
of the sea, an object of envy.  My mother would have sympathised here,
but Clarence feared her more than my father, and she was living in
continual dread of some explosion, so that her dark curls began to show
streaks of gray, and her face to lose its round youthfulness.

Lent brought the question of Confirmation.  Under the influence of good
Bishop Blomfield, and in the wave of evangelical revival—then at its
flood height—Confirmation was becoming a more prominent subject with
religious people than it had probably ever been in our Church, and it was
recognised that some preparation was desirable beyond the power of
repeating the Church Catechism.  This was all that had been required of
my father at Harrow.  My mother’s godfather, a dignified clergyman, had
simply said, ‘I suppose, my dear, you know all about it;’ and as for the
Admiral, he remarked, ‘Confirmed!  I never was confirmed anything but a

Our incumbent was more attentive to his duties, or rather recognised more
duties, than his predecessor.  He preached on the subject, and formed
classes, sixteen being then the limit of age,—since the idea of the vow,
having become far more prominent than that of the blessing, it was held
that full development of the will and understanding was needful.

I was of the requisite age, and my father spoke to the clergyman, who
called, and, as I could not attend the classes, gave me books to read and
questions to answer.  Clarence read and discussed the questions with me,
showing so much more insight into them, and fuller knowledge of Scripture
than I possessed, that I exclaimed, ‘Why should you not go up for
Confirmation too?’

‘No,’ he answered mournfully.  ‘I must take no more vows if I can’t keep
them.  It would just be profane.’

I had no more to say; indeed, my parents held the same view.  It was good
Mr. Castleford who saw things differently.  He was a clergyman’s son, and
had been bred up in the old orthodoxy, which was just beginning to put
forth fresh shoots, and, as a quasi-godfather, he held himself bound to
take an interest in our religious life, while the sponsors, whose names
stood in the family Bible, and whose spoons reposed in the plate-chest,
never troubled themselves on the matter.  I remember Clarence leaning
over me and saying, ‘Mr. Castleford thinks I might be confirmed.  He says
it is not so much the promise we make as of coming to Almighty God for
strength to keep what we are bound by already!  He is going to speak to

Perhaps no one except Mr. Castleford could have prevailed over the fear
of profanation in the mind of my father, who was, in his old-fashioned
way, one of the most reverent of men, and could not bear to think of holy
things being approached by one under a stigma, nor of exposing his son to
add to his guilt by taking and breaking further pledges.  However, he was
struck by his friend’s arguments, and I heard him telling my mother that
when he had wished to wait till there had been time to prove sincerity of
repentance by a course of steadiness, the answer had been that it was
hard to require strength, while denying the means of grace.  My mother
was scarcely convinced, but as he had consented she yielded without a
protest; and she was really glad that I should have Clarence at my side
to help me at the ceremony.  The clergyman was applied to, and consented
to let Clarence attend the classes, where his knowledge, comprehension,
and behaviour were exemplary, so that a letter was written to my father
expressive of perfect satisfaction with him.  ‘There,’ said my father, ‘I
knew it would be so!  It is not _that_ which I want.’

The Confirmation seemed at the time a very short and perfunctory result
of our preparation; and, as things were conducted or misconducted then,
involved so much crowding and distress that I recollect very little but
clinging to Clarence’s arm under a strong sense of my infirmities,—the
painful attempt at kneeling, and the big outstretched lawn sleeves while
the blessing was pronounced over six heads at once, and then the struggle
back to the pew, while the silver-pokered apparitor looked grim at us, as
though the maimed and halt had no business to get into the way.  Yet this
was a great advance upon former Confirmations, and the Bishop met my
father afterwards, and inquired most kindly after his lame son.

We were disappointed, and felt that we could not attain to the feelings
in the Confirmation poem in the _Christian Year_—Mr. Castleford’s gift to
me.  Still, I believe that, though encumbered with such a drag as myself,
Clarence, more than I did,

    ‘Felt Him how strong, our hearts how frail,
    And longed to own Him to the death.’

But the evangelical belief that dejection ought to be followed by a full
sense of pardon and assurance of salvation somewhat perplexed and dimmed
our Easter Communion.  For one short moment, as Clarence turned to help
my father lift me up from the altar-rail, I saw his face and eyes radiant
with a wonderful rapt look; but it passed only too fast, and the more
than ordinary glimpse his spiritual nature had had made him all the more
sad afterwards, when he said, ‘I would give everything to know that there
was any steadfastness in my purpose to lead a new life.’

‘But you are leading a new life.’

‘Only because there is no one to bully me,’ he said.  Still, there had
been no reproach against him all the time he had been at Frith and
Castleford’s, when suddenly we had a great shock.

Parties were running very high, and there were scurrilous papers about,
which my father perfectly abhorred; and one day at dinner, when
declaiming against something he had seen, he laid down strict commands
that none should be brought into the house.  Then, glancing at Clarence,
something possessed him to say, ‘You have not been buying any.’

‘No, sir,’ Clarence answered; but a few minutes later, when we were alone
together, the others having left him to help me upstairs, he exclaimed,
‘Edward, what is to be done?  I didn’t buy it; but there is one of those
papers in my great-coat pocket.  Pollard threw it on my desk; and there
was something in it that I thought would amuse you.’

‘Oh! why didn’t you say so?’

‘There I am again!  I simply could not, with his eye on me!  Miserable
being that I am!  Oh, where is the spirit of ghostly strength?’

‘Helping you now to take it to papa in the study and explain!’ I cried;
but the struggle in that tall fellow was as if he had been seven years
old instead of seventeen, ere he put his hand over his face and gave me
his arm to come out into the hall, fetch the paper, and make his
confession.  Alas! we were too late.  The coat had been moved, the paper
had fallen out; and there stood my mother with it in her hand, looking at
Clarence with an awful stony face of mute grief and reproach, while he
stammered forth what he had said before, and that he was about to give it
to my father.  She turned away, bitterly, contemptuously indignant and
incredulous; and my corroborations only served to give both her and my
father a certain dread of Clarence’s influence over me, as though I had
been either deceived or induced to back him in deceiving them.  The
unlucky incident plunged him back into the depths, just as he had begun
to emerge.  Slight as it was, it was no trifle to him, in spite of
Griffith’s exclamation, ‘How absurd!  Is a fellow to be bound to give an
account of everything he looks at as if he were six years old?  Catch me
letting my mother pry into my pockets!  But you are too meek, Bill; you
perfectly invite them to make a row about nothing!’


    ‘For he that needs five thousand pound to live
    Is full as poor as he that needs but five.
    But if thy son can make ten pound his measure,
    Then all thou addest may be called his treasure.’

                                                           GEORGE HERBERT.

IT was in the spring of 1829 that my father received a lawyer’s letter
announcing the death of James Winslow, Esquire, of Chantry House,
Earlscombe, and inviting him, as heir-at-law, to be present at the
funeral and opening of the will.  The surprise to us all was great.  Even
my mother had hardly heard of Chantry House itself, far less as a
possible inheritance; and she had only once seen James Winslow.  He was
the last of the elder branch of the family, a third cousin, and older
than my father, who had known him in times long past.  When they had last
met, the Squire of Chantry House was a married man, with more than one
child; my father a young barrister; and as one lived entirely in the
country and the other in town, without any special congeniality, no
intercourse had been kept up, and it was a surprise to hear that he had
left no surviving children.  My father greatly doubted whether being
heir-at-law would prove to avail him anything, since it was likely that
so distant a relation would have made a will in favour of some nearer
connection on his wife’s or mother’s side.  He was very vague about
Chantry House, only knowing that it was supposed to be a fair property,
and he would hardly consent to take Griffith with him by the Western
Royal Mail, warning him and all the rest of us that our expectations
would be disappointed.

Nevertheless we looked out the gentlemen’s seats in _Paterson’s Road
Book_, and after much research, for Chantry House lay far off from the
main road, we came upon—‘Chantry House, Earlscombe, the seat of James
Winslow, Esquire, once a religious foundation; beautifully situated on a
rising ground, commanding an extensive prospect—’

‘A religious foundation!’ cried Emily.  ‘It will be a dear delicious old
abbey, all Gothic architecture, with cloisters and ruins and ghosts.’

‘Ghosts!’ said my mother severely, ‘what has put such nonsense into your

Nevertheless Emily made up her mind that Chantry House would be another
Melrose, and went about repeating the moonlight scene in the _Lay of the
Last Minstrel_ whenever she thought no one was there to laugh at her.

My father and Griffith returned with the good news that there was no
mistake.  Chantry House was really his own, with the estate belonging to
it, reckoned at £5000 a year, exclusive of a handsome provision to Miss
Selby, the niece of the late Mrs. Winslow, a spinster of a certain age,
who had lived with her uncle, and now proposed to remove to Bath.  Mr.
Winslow had, it appeared, lost his only son as a schoolboy, and his
daughters, like their mother, had been consumptive.  He had always been
resolved that the estate should continue in the family; but reluctance to
see any one take his son’s place had withheld him from making any
advances to my father; and for several years past he had been in broken
health with failing faculties.

Of course there was much elation.  Griff described as charming the place,
perched on the southern slope of a wooded hill, with a broad fertile
valley lying spread out before it, and the woods behind affording every
promise of sport.  The house, my father said, was good, odd and
irregular, built at different times, but quite habitable, and with plenty
of furniture, though he opined that mamma would think it needed
modernising, to which she replied that our present chattels would make a
great difference; whereat my father, looking at the effects of more than
twenty years of London blacks, gave a little whistle, for she was always
the economical one of the pair.

Emily, with glowing cheeks and eager eyes, entreated to know whether it
was Gothic, and had a cloister!  Papa nipped her hopes of a cloister, but
there were Gothic windows and doorway, and a bit of ruin in the garden, a
fragment of the old chapel.

My father could not resign his office without notice, and, besides, he
wished Miss Selby to have leisure for leaving her home of many years;
after which there would be a few needful repairs.  The delay was not a
great grievance to any of us except little Martyn.  We were much more
Cockney than almost any one is in these days of railways.  We were
unusually devoid of kindred on both sides, my father’s holidays were
short, I was not a very movable commodity, and economy forbade long
journeys, so that we had never gone farther than Ramsgate, where we
claimed a certain lodging-house as a sort of right every summer.

Real country was as much unknown to us as the backwoods.  My father alone
had been born and bred to village life and habits, for my mother had
spent her youth in a succession of seaport towns, frequented by
men-of-war.  We heard, too, that Chantry House was very secluded, with
only a few cottages near at hand—a mile and a half from the church and
village of Earlscombe, three from the tiny country town of Wattlesea,
four from the place where the coach passed, connecting it with the
civilisation of Bath and Bristol, from each of which places it was about
half a day’s distance, according to the measures of those times.  It was
a sort of banishment to people accustomed to the stream of life in
London; and though the consequence and importance derived from being
raised to the ranks of the Squirearchy were agreeable, they were a dear
purchase at the cost of being out of reach of all our friends and
acquaintances, as well as of other advantages.

To my father, however, the retirement from his many years of drudgery was
really welcome, and he had preserved enough of country tastes to rejoice
that it was, as he said, a clear duty to reside on his estate and look
after his property.  My mother saw his relief in the prospect, and
suppressed her sighs at the dislocation of her life-long habits, and the
loss of intercourse with the acquaintance whom separation raised to the
rank of intimate friends, even her misgivings as to butchers, bakers, and
grocers in the wilderness, and still worse, as to doctors for me.

‘Humph!’ said the Admiral, ‘the boy will be all the better without them.’

And so I was; I can’t say they were the subject of much regret, but I was
really sorry to leave our big neighbour, the British Museum, where there
were good friends who always made me welcome, and encouraged me in
studies of coins and heraldry, which were great resources to me, so that
I used to spend hours there, and was by no means willing to resign my
ambition of obtaining an appointment there, when I heard my father say
that he was especially thankful for his good fortune because it enabled
him to provide for me.  There were lessons, too, from masters in
languages, music, and drawing, which Emily and I shared, and which she
had just begun to value thoroughly.  We had filled whole drawing-books
with wriggling twists of foliage in B B B marking pencil, and had just
been promoted to water-colours; and she was beginning to sing very
prettily.  I feared, too, that I should no longer have a chance of
rivalling Griffith’s university studies.  All this, with my sister’s girl
friends, and those kind people who used to drop in to play chess, and
otherwise amuse me, would all be left behind; and, sorest of all,
Clarence, who, whatever he was in the eyes of others, had grown to be my
mainstay during this last year.  He it was who fetched me from the
Museum, took me into the gardens, helped me up and down stairs, spared no
pains to rout out whatever my fanciful pursuits required from shops in
the City, and, in very truth, spoilt me through all his hours that were
free from business, besides being my most perfect sympathising and
understanding companion.

I feared, too, that he would be terribly lonesome, though of late he had
been less haunted by longings for the sea, had made some way with his
fellows, and had been commended by the managing clerk; and it was painful
to find the elders did not grieve on their own account at parting with
him.  My mother told the Admiral that she thought it would be good for
Mr. Winslow’s spirits not to be continually reminded of his trouble; and
my father might be heard confiding to Mr. Castleford that the separation
might be good for both her and her son, if only the lad could be trusted.
To which that good man replied by giving him an excellent character; but
was only met by a sigh, and ‘Well, we shall see!’

Clarence was to be lodged with Peter, whose devotion would not extend to
following us into barbarism, where, as he told us, he understood there
was no such thing as a ‘harea,’ and master would have to kill his own

Peter had been tranquilly engaged to Gooch for years untold.  They were
to be transformed into Mr. and Mrs. Robson, with some small appointment
about the Law Courts for him, and a lodging-house for her, where Clarence
was to abide, my mother feeling secure that neither his health, his
morals, nor his shirts could go much astray without her receiving warning

Meanwhile, by the help of an antiquarian friend of my father, Mr.
Stafford, who was great in county history, I hunted up in the Museum
library all I could discover about our new possession.

The Chantry of St. Cecily at Earlscombe, in Somersetshire, had, it
appeared, been founded and endowed by Dame Isabel d’Oyley, in the year of
grace 1434, that constant prayers might be offered for the souls of her
husband and son, slain in the French wars.  The poor lady’s intentions,
which to our Protestant minds appeared rather shocking than otherwise,
had been frustrated at the break up of such establishments, when the
Chantry, and the estate that maintained its clerks and bedesmen, was
granted to Sir Harry Power, from whom, through two heiresses, it had come
to the Fordyces, the last of whom, by name Margaret, had died childless,
leaving the estate to her stepson, Philip Winslow, our ancestor.

Moreover, we learnt that a portion of the building was of ancient date,
and that there was an ‘interesting fragment’ of the old chapel in the
grounds, which our good friend promised himself the pleasure of
investigating on his first holiday.

To add to our newly-acquired sense of consideration and of high pedigree,
the family chariot, after taking Miss Selby to Bath, came up post to
London to be touched up at the coachbuilder’s, have the escutcheon
altered so as to impale the Griffith coat instead of the Selby, and
finally to convey us to our new abode, in preparation for which all its
boxes came to be packed.

A chariot!  You young ones have as little notion of one as of a British
war-chariot armed with scythes.  Yet people of a certain grade were as
sure to keep their chariot as their silver tea-pot; indeed we knew one
young couple who started in life with no other habitation, but spent
their time as nomads, in visits to their relations and friends, for
visits _were_ visits then.

The capacities of a chariot were considerable.  Within, there was a
good-sized seat for the principal occupants, and outside a dickey behind,
and a driving box before, though sometimes there was only one of these,
and that transferable.  The boxes were calculated to hold family luggage
on a six months’ tour.  There they lay on the spare-room floor, ready to
be packed, the first earnest of our new possessions—except perhaps the
five-pound note my father gave each of us four elder ones, on the day the
balance at the bank was made over to him.  There was the imperial, a
grand roomy receptacle, which was placed on the top of the carriage, and
would not always go upstairs in small houses; the capbox, which fitted
into a curved place in front of the windows, and could not stand alone,
but had a frame to support it; two long narrow boxes with the like
infirmity of standing, which fitted in below; square ones under each
seat; and a drop box fastened on behind.  There were pockets beneath each
window, and, curious relic in name and nature of the time when every
gentleman carried his weapon, there was the sword case, an excrescence
behind the back of the best seat, accessible by lifting a cushion, where
weapons used to be carried, but where in our peaceful times travellers
bestowed their luncheon and their books.

Our chariot was black above, canary yellow below, beautifully varnished,
and with our arms blazoned on each door.  It was lined with dark blue
leather and cloth, picked out with blue and yellow lace in accordance
with our liveries, and was a gorgeous spectacle.  I am afraid Emily did
not share in Mistress Gilpin’s humility when

          ‘The chaise was brought,
       But yet was not allowed
    To drive up to the door, lest all
       Should say that she was proud!’

It was then that Emily and I each started a diary to record the events of
our new life.  Hers flourished by fits and starts; but I having perforce
more leisure than she, mine has gone on with few interruptions till the
present time, and is the backbone of this narrative, which I compile and
condense from it and other sources before destroying it.


    ‘Your history whither are you spinning?
       Can you do nothing but describe?
    A house there is, and that’s enough!’


How we did enjoy our journey, when the wrench from our old home was once
made.  We did not even leave Clarence behind, for Mr. Castleford had
given him a holiday, so that he might not appear to be kept at a
distance, as if under a cloud, and might help me through our travels.

My mother and I occupied the inside of the carriage, with Emily between
us at the outset; but when we were off the London stones she was often
allowed to make a third on the dickey with Clarence and Martyn, whose
ecstatic heels could be endured for the sake of the free air and the
view.  Of course we posted, and where there were severe hills we indulged
in four horses.  The varieties of the jackets of our post-boys, blue or
yellow, as supposed to indicate the politics of their inns, were
interesting to us, as everything was interesting then.  Otherwise their
equipment was exactly alike—neat drab corduroy breeches and top-boots,
and hats usually white, and they were all boys, though the red faces and
grizzled hair of some looked as if they had faced the weather for at
least fifty years.

It was a beautiful August, and the harvest fields were a sight perfectly
new, filling us with rapture unspeakable.  At every hill which offered an
excuse, our outsiders were on their feet, thrusting in their heads and
hands to us within with exclamations of delight, and all sorts of
discoveries—really new to us three younger ones.  Ears of corn, bearded
barley, graceful oats, poppies, corn-flowers, were all delicious
novelties to Emily and me, though Griff and my father laughed at our
ecstasies, and my mother occasionally objected to the wonderful
accumulation of curiosities thrust into her lap or the door pockets, and
tried to persuade Martyn that rooks’ wings, dead hedgehogs, sticks and
stones of various merits, might be found at Earlscombe, until Clarence,
by the judicious purchase of a basket at Salisbury, contrived to satisfy
all parties and safely dispose of the treasures.  The objects that stand
out in my memory on that journey were Salisbury Spire, and a long hill
where the hedgebank was one mass of the exquisite rose-bay willow herb—a
perfect revelation to our city-bred eyes; but indeed, the whole route was
like one panorama to us of _L’Allegro_ and other descriptions on which we
had fed.  For in those days we were much more devoted to poetry than is
the present generation, which has a good deal of false shame on that

Even dining and sleeping at an inn formed a pleasing novelty, though we
did not exactly sympathise with Martyn when he dashed in at breakfast
exulting in having witnessed the killing of a pig.  As my father
observed, it was too like realising Peter’s forebodings of our return to
savage life.

Demonstrations were not the fashion of these times, and there was a good
deal of dull discontent and disaffection in the air, so that no tokens of
welcome were prepared for us—not even a peal of bells; nor indeed should
we have heard them if they had been rung, for the church was a mile and a
half beyond the house, with a wood between cutting off the sound, except
in certain winds.  We did not miss a reception, which would rather have
embarrassed us.  We began to think it was time to arrive, and my father
believed we were climbing the last hill, when, just as we had passed a
remarkably pretty village and church, Griffith called out to say that we
were on our own ground.  He had made his researches with the game keeper
while my father was busy with the solicitor, and could point to our
boundary wall, a little below the top of the hill on the northern side.
He informed us that the place we had passed was Hillside—Fordyce
property,—but this was Earlscombe, our own.  It was a great stony bit of
pasture with a few scattered trees, but after the flat summit was past,
the southern side was all beechwood, where a gate admitted us into a
drive cut out in a slant down the otherwise steep descent, and coming out
into an open space.  And there we were!

The old house was placed on the widest part of a kind of shelf or natural
terrace, of a sort of amphitheatre shape, with wood on either hand, but
leaving an interval clear in the midst broad enough for house and
gardens, with a gentle green slope behind, and a much steeper one in
front, closed in by the beechwoods.  The house stood as it were sideways,
or had been made to do so by later inhabitants.  I know this is very
long-winded, but there have been such alterations that without minute
description this narrative will be unintelligible.

The aspect was northwards so far as the lie of the ground was concerned,
but the house stood across.  The main body was of the big symmetrical
Louis XIV. style—or, as it is now the fashion to call it, Queen
Anne—brick, with stone quoins, big sash-windows, and a great square hall
in the midst, with the chief rooms opening into it.  The principal
entrance had been on the north, with a huge front door and a flight of
stone steps, and just space enough for a gravel coach ring before the
rapid grassy descent.  Later constitutions, however, must have eschewed
that northern front door, and later nerves that narrow verge, and on the
eastern front had been added that Gothic porch of which Emily had
heard,—and a flagrantly modern Gothic porch it was, flanked by two
comical little turrets, with loopholes, from which a thread-paper or Tom
Thumb might have defended it.  Otherwise it resembled a church porch,
except for the formidable points of a sham portcullis; but there was no
denying that it greatly increased the comfort of the house, with its two
sets of heavy doors, and the seats on either side.  The great hall door
had been closed up, plastered over within, and rendered inoffensive.
Towards the west there was another modern addition of drawing and dining
rooms, and handsome bedchambers above, in Gothic taste, _i.e._ with
pointed arches filled up with glass over the sash-windows.  The
drawing-room was very pretty, with a glass door at the end leading into
an old-fashioned greenhouse, and two French windows to the south opening
upon the lawn, which soon began to slope upwards, curving, as I said,
like an amphitheatre, and was always shady and sheltered, tilting its
flower-beds towards the house as if to display them.  The dining-room
had, in like manner, one west and two north windows, the latter
commanding a grand view over the green meadow-land below, dotted with
round knolls, and rising into blue hills beyond.  We became proud of
counting the villages and church towers we could see from thence.

There was a still older portion, more ancient than the square _corps de
logis_, and built of the cream-coloured stone of the country.  It was at
the south-eastern angle, where the ground began sloping so near the house
that this wing—if it may so be called—containing two good-sized rooms
nearly on a level with the upper floor, had nothing below but some open
stone vaultings, under which it was only just possible for my tall
brothers to stand upright, at the innermost end.  These opened into the
cellars which, no doubt, belonged to the fifteenth-century structure.
There seemed to have once been a door and two or three steps to the
ground, which rose very close to the southern end; but this had been
walled up.  The rooms had deep mullioned windows east and west, and very
handsome groined ceilings, and were entered by two steps down from the
gallery round the upper part of the hall.  There was a very handsome
double staircase of polished oak, shaped like a Y, the stem of which
began just opposite the original front door—making us wonder if people
knew what draughts were in the days of Queen Anne, and remember Madame de
Maintenon’s complaint that health was sacrificed to symmetry.  Not far
from this oldest portion were some broken bits of wall and stumps of
columns, remnants of the chapel, and prettily wreathed with ivy and
clematis.  We rejoiced in such a pretty and distinctive ornament to our
garden, and never troubled ourselves about the desecration; and certainly
ours was one of the most delightful gardens that ever existed, what with
green turf, bright flowers, shapely shrubs, and the grand beech-trees
enclosing it with their stately white pillars, green foliage, and the
russet arcades beneath them.  The stillness was wonderful to ears
accustomed to the London roar—almost a new sensation.  Emily was found,
as she said, ‘listening to the silence;’ and my father declared that no
one could guess at the sense of rest that it gave him.

                       [Picture: Map of the house]

Of space within there was plenty, though so much had been sacrificed to
the hall and staircase; and this was apparently the cause of the modern
additions, as the original sitting-rooms, wainscotted and double-doored,
were rather small for family requirements.  One of these, once the
dining-room, became my father’s study, where he read and wrote, saw his
tenants, and by and by acted as Justice of the Peace.  The opposite one,
towards the garden, was termed the book-room.  Here Martyn was to do his
lessons, and Emily and I carry on our studies, and do what she called
keeping up her accomplishments.  My couch and appurtenances abode there,
and it was to be my retreat from company,—or on occasion could be made a
supplementary drawing-room, as its fittings showed it had been the
parlour.  It communicated with another chamber, which became my
own—sparing the difficulties that stairs always presented; and beyond
lay, niched under the grand staircase, a tiny light closet, a
passage-room, where my mother put a bed for a man-servant, not liking to
leave me entirely alone on the ground floor.  It led to a passage to the
garden door, also to my mother’s den, dedicated to housewifely cares and
stores, and ended at the back stairs, descending to the servants’ region.
This was very old, handsomely vaulted with stone, and, owing to the fall
of the ground, had ample space for light on the north side,—where, beyond
the drive, the descent was so rapid as to afford Martyn infinite delight
in rolling down, to the horror of all beholders and the detriment of his
white duck trowsers.

I don’t know much about the upper story, so I spare you that.  Emily had
a hankering for one of the pretty old mullioned-windowed rooms—the
mullion chambers, as she named them; but Griff pounced on them at once,
the inner for his repose, the outer for his guns and his studies—not
smoking, for young men were never permitted to smoke within doors, nor
indeed in any home society.  The choice of the son and heir was
undisputed, and he proceeded to settle his possessions in his new
domains, where they made an imposing appearance.


    ‘As louder and louder, drawing near,
    The gnawing of their teeth he could hear.’


‘WHAT a ridiculous old fellow that Chapman is,’ said Griff, coming in
from a conference with the gaunt old man who acted as keeper to our not
very extensive preserves.  ‘I told him to get some gins for the rats in
my rooms, and he shook his absurd head like any mandarin, and said,
“There baint no trap as will rid you of them kind of varmint, sir.”’

‘Of course,’ my father said, ‘rats are part of the entail of an old
house.  You may reckon on them.’

‘Those rooms of yours are the very place for them,’ added my mother.  ‘I
only hope they will not infest the rest of the house.’

To which Griff rejoined that they perpetrated the most extraordinary
noises he had ever heard from rats, and told Emily she might be thankful
to him for taking those rooms, for she would have been frightened out of
her little wits.  He meant, he said, to get a little terrier, and have a
thorough good rat hunt, at which Martyn capered about in irrepressible

This, however, was deferred by the unwillingness of old Chapman, of whom
even Griff was somewhat in awe.  His fame as a sportsman had to be made,
and he had had only such practice as could be attained by shooting at a
mark ever since he had been aware of his coming greatness.  So he was
desirous of conciliating Chapman, and not getting laughed at as the
London young gentleman who could not hit a hay-stack.  My father, who had
been used to carrying a gun in his younger days, was much amused, in his
quiet way, at seeing Griff watch Chapman off on his rounds, and then
betake himself to the locality most remote from the keeper’s ears to
practise on the rook or crow.  Martyn always ran after him, having
solemnly promised not to touch the gun, and to keep behind.  He was too
good-natured to send the little fellow back, though he often tried to
elude the pursuit, not wishing for a witness to his attempts; and he
never invited Clarence, who had had some experience of curious game but
never mentioned it.

Clarence devoted himself to Emily and me, tugging my garden-chair along
all the paths where it would go without too much jolting, and when I had
had enough, exploring those hanging woods, either with her or on his own
account.  They used to come home with their hands full of flowers, and
this resulted in a vehement attack of botany,—a taste that has lasted all
our lives, together with the _hortus siccus_ to which we still make
additions, though there has been a revolution there as well as everywhere
else, and the Linnæan system we learnt so eagerly from Martin’s _Letters_
is altogether exploded and antiquated.  Still, my sister refuses to own
the scientific merits of the natural system, and can point to school-bred
and lectured young ladies who have no notion how to discover the name or
nature of a live plant.

On the Friday after our arrival the noises had been so fearful that Griff
had been exasperated into going off across the hills, accompanied by his
constant shadow, Martyn, in search of the professional ratcatcher of the
neighbourhood, in spite of Chapman’s warning—that Tom Petty was the
biggest rascal in the neighbourhood, and a regular out and out poacher;
and as to the noises—he couldn’t ‘tackle the like of they.’  After
revelling in the beauty of the beechwoods as long as was good for me or
for Clarence, I was left in the garden to sketch the ruin, while my two
companions started on one of their exploring expeditions.

It was getting late enough to think of going to prepare for the six
o’clock dinner when Emily came forth alone from the path between the
trees, announcing—‘An adventure, Edward!  We have had such an adventure.’

‘Where’s Clarence?’

‘Gone for the doctor!  Oh, no; Griff hasn’t shot anybody.  He is gone for
the ratcatcher, you know.  It is a poor little herdboy, who tumbled out
of a tree; and oh! such a sweet, beautiful, young lady—just like a book!’

When Emily became less incoherent, it appeared that on coming out on the
bit of common above the wood, as she and Clarence were halting on the
brow of the hill to admire the view, they heard a call for help, and
hurrying down in the direction whence it proceeded they saw a stunted
ash-tree, beneath which were a young lady and a little child bending over
a village lad who lay beneath moaning piteously.  The girl, whom Emily
described as the most beautiful creature she ever saw, explained that the
boy, who had been herding the cattle scattered around, had been climbing
the tree, a limb of which had broken with him.  She had seen the fall
from a distance, and hurried up; but she hardly knew what to do, for her
little sister was too young to be sent in quest of assistance.  Clarence
thought one leg seriously injured, and as the young lady seemed to know
the boy, offered to carry him home.  School officers were yet in the
future; children were set to work almost as soon as they could walk, and
this little fellow was so light and thin as to shock Clarence when he had
been taken up on his back, for he weighed quite a trifle.  The young lady
showed the way to a wretched little cottage, where a bigger girl had just
come in with a sheaf of corn freshly gleaned poised on her head.  They
sent her to fetch her mother, and Clarence undertook to go for a doctor,
but to the surprise and horror of Emily, there was a demur.  Something
was said of old Molly and her ‘ile’ and ‘yarbs,’ or perhaps Madam could
step round.  When Clarence, on this being translated to him, pronounced
the case beyond such treatment, it was explained outside the door that
this was a terribly poor family, and the doctor would not come to parish
patients for an indefinite time after his summons, besides which, he
lived at Wattlesea.  ‘Indeed mamma does almost all the doctoring with her
medicine chest,’ said the girl.

On which Clarence declared that he would let the doctor know that he
himself would be responsible for the cost of the attendance, and set off
for Wattlesea, a kind of town village in the flat below.  He could not
get back till dinner was half over, and came in alarmed and apologetic;
but he had nothing worse to encounter than Griff’s unmerciful banter (or,
as you would call it, chaff) about his knight errantry, and Emily’s
lovely heroine in the sweetest of cottage bonnets.

Griff could be slightly tyrannous in his merry mockery, and when he found
that on the ensuing day Clarence proposed to go and inquire after the
patient, he made such wicked fun of the expectations the pair entertained
of hearing the sweet cottage bonnet reading a tract in a silvery voice
through the hovel window, that he fairly teased and shamed Clarence out
of starting till the renowned Tom Petty arrived and absorbed all the
three brothers, and even their father, in delights as mysterious to me as
to Emily.  How she shrieked when Martyn rushed triumphantly into the room
where we were arranging books with the huge patriarch of all the rats
dangling by his tail!  Three hopeful families were destroyed; rooms,
vaults, and cellars examined and cleared; and Petty declared the race to
be exterminated, picturesque ruffian that he was, in his shapeless hat,
rusty velveteen, long leggings, a live ferret in his pocket, and festoons
of dead rats over his shoulder.

Chapman, who regarded him much as the ferret did the rat, declared that
the rabbits and hares would suffer from letting ‘that there chap’ show
his face here on any plea; and, moreover, gave a grunt very like a scoff;
at the idea of slumbers in the mullion rooms (as they were called) being
secured by his good offices.

And Chapman was right.  The unaccountable noises broke out
again—screaming, wailing, sobbing—sounds scarcely within the power of cat
or rat, but possibly the effect of the wind in the old building.  At any
rate, Griff could not stand them, and declared that sleep was impossible
when the wind was in that quarter, so that he must shift his bedroom
elsewhere, though he still wished to retain the outer apartment, which he
had taken pleasure in adorning with his special possessions.  My mother
would scarcely have tolerated such fancies in any one else, but Griff had
his privileges.


    ‘The church has been whitewashed, but right long ago,
    As the cracks and the dinginess amply doth show;
    About the same time that a strange petrifaction
    Confined the incumbent to mere Sunday action.
    So many abuses in this place are rife,
    The only church things giving token of life
    Are the singing within and the nettles without—
    Both equally rampant without any doubt.’

                                                           F. R. HAVERGAL.

ALL Griff’s teasing could not diminish—nay, rather increased—Emily’s
excitement in the hope of seeing and identifying the sweet cottage bonnet
at church on Sunday.  The distance we had to go was nearly two miles, and
my mother and I drove thither in a donkey chair, which had been hunted up
in London for that purpose because the ‘pheeāton’ (as the servants
insisted on calling it) was too high for me.  My father had an
old-fashioned feeling about the Fourth Commandment, which made him
scrupulous as to using any animal on Sunday; and even when, in bad
weather, or for visitors, the larger carriage was used, he always walked.
He was really angry with Griff that morning for mischievously maintaining
that it was a greater breach of the commandment to work an ass than a

It was a pretty drive on a road slanting gradually through the brushwood
that clothed the steep face of the hillside, and passing farms and
meadows full of cattle—all things quieter and stiller than ever in their
Sunday repose.  We knew that the living was in Winslow patronage, but
that it was in the hands of one of the Selby connection, who held it,
together with it is not safe to say how many benefices, and found it
necessary for his health to reside at Bath.  The vicarage had long since
been turned into a farmhouse, and the curate lived at Wattlesea.  All
this we knew, but we had not realised that he was likewise assistant
curate there, and only favoured Earlscombe with alternate morning and
evening services on Sundays.

Still less were we prepared for the interior of the church.  It had a
picturesque square tower covered with ivy, and a general air of fitness
for a sketch; indeed, the photograph of it in its present beautified
state will not stand a comparison with our drawings of it, in those days
of dilapidation in the middle of the untidy churchyard, with little boys
astride on the sloping, sunken lichen-grown headstones, mullein spikes
and burdock leaves, more graceful than the trim borders and zinc crosses
which are pleasanter to the mental eye.

The London church we had left would be a fearful shock to the present
generation, but we were accustomed to decency, order, and reverence; and
it was no wonder that my father was walking about the churchyard,
muttering that he never saw such a place, while my brothers were full of
amusement.  Their spruce looks in their tall hats, bright ties, dark
coats, and white trowsers strapped tight under their boots, looked
incongruous with the rest of the congregation, the most distinguished
members of which were farmers in drab coats with huge mother-of-pearl
buttons, and long gaiters buttoned up to their knees and strapped up to
their gay waistcoats over their white corduroys.  Their wives and
daughters were in enormous bonnets, fluttering with ribbons; but then
what my mother and Emily wore were no trifles.  The rest of the
congregation were—the male part of it—in white or gray smock-frocks, the
elderly women in black bonnets, the younger in straw; but we had not long
to make our observations, for Chapman took possession of us.  He was
parish clerk, and was in great glory in his mourning coat and hat, and
his object was to marshal us all into our pew before he had to attend
upon the clergyman; and of course I was glad enough to get as soon as
possible out of sight of all the eyes not yet accustomed to my figure.

And hidden enough I was when we had been introduced through the little
north chancel door into a black-curtained, black-cushioned, black-lined
pew, well carpeted, with a table in the midst, and a stove, whose pipe
made its exit through the floriated tracery of the window overhead.  The
chancel arch was to the west of us, blocked up by a wooden parcel-gilt
erection, and to the east a decorated window that would have been very
handsome if two side-lights had not been obscured by the two Tables of
the Law, with the royal arms on the top of the first table, and over the
other our own, with the Fordyce in a scutcheon of pretence; for, as an
inscription recorded, they had been erected by Margaret, daughter of
Christopher Fordyce, Esquire, of Chantry House, and relict of Sir James
John Winslow, Kt., sergeant-at-law, A.D. 1700—the last date, I verily
believe, at which anything had been done to the church.  And on the wall,
stopping up the southern chancel window, was a huge marble slab,
supported by angels blowing trumpets, with a very long inscription about
the Fordyce family, ending with this same Margaret, who had married the
Winslow, lost two or three infants, and died on 1st January 1708, three
years later than her husband.

Thus far I could see; but Griff was standing lifting the curtain, and
showing by the working of his shoulders his amazement and diversion, so
that only the daggers in my mother’s eyes kept Martyn from springing up
after him.  What he beheld was an altar draped in black like a coffin,
and on the step up to the rail, boys and girls eating apples and
performing antics to beguile the waiting time, while a row of
white-smocked old men occupied the bench opposite to our seat, conversing
loud enough for us to hear them.

My father and Clarence came in; the bells stopped; there was a sound of
steps, and in the fabric in front of us there emerged a grizzled head and
the back of a very dirty surplice besprinkled with iron moulds, while
Chapman’s back appeared above our curtain, his desk (full of dilapidated
prayer-books) being wedged in between us and the reading-desk.

The duet that then took place between him and the curate must have been
heard to be credible, especially as, being so close behind the old man,
we could not fail to be aware of all the remarkable shots at long words
which he bawled out at the top of his voice, and I refrain from
recording, lest they should haunt others as they have done by me all my
life.  Now and then Chapman caught up a long switch and dashed out at
some obstreperous child to give an audible whack; and towards the close
of the litany he stumped out—we heard his tramp the whole length of the
church, and by and by his voice issued from an unknown height,
proclaiming—‘Let us sing to the praise and glory — in an anthem taken
from the 42d chapter of Genesis.’

There was an outburst of bassoon, clarionet, and fiddle, and the
performance that followed was the most marvellous we had ever heard,
especially when the big butcher—fiddling all the time—declared in a
mighty solo, ‘I am Jo—Jo—Jo—Joseph!’ and having reiterated this
information four or five times, inquired with equal pertinacity,
‘Doth—doth my fa-a-u-ther yet live?’  Poor Emily was fairly ‘convulsed;’
she stuffed her handkerchief into her mouth, and grew so crimson that my
mother was quite frightened, and very near putting her out at the little
door of excommunication.  To our last hour we shall never forget the
shock of that first anthem.

The Commandments were read from the desk, Chapman’s solitary response
coming from the gallery; and while the second singing—four verses from
Tate and Brady—was going on, we beheld the surplice stripped off,—like
the slough of a May-fly, as Griff said,—when a rusty black gown was
revealed, in which the curate ascended the pulpit and was lost to our
view before the concluding verse of the psalm, which we had reason to
believe was selected in compliment to us, as well as to Earlscombe,—

    ‘My lot is fall’n in that blest land
       Where God is truly know,
    He fills my cup with liberal hand;
       ’Tis He—’tis He—’tis He—supports my throne.’

We had great reason to doubt how far the second line could justly be
applied to the parish! but there was no judging of the sermon, for only
detached sentences reached us in a sort of mumble.  Griff afterwards
declared churchgoing to be as good as a comedy, and we all had to learn
to avoid meeting each other’s eyes, whatever we might hear.  When the
scuffle and tramp of the departing congregation had ceased, we came forth
from our sable box, and beheld the remnants of a once handsome church,
mauled in every possible way, green stains on the walls, windows bricked
up, and a huge singing gallery.  Good bits of carved stall work were
nailed anyhow into the pews; the floor was uneven; no font was visible;
there was a mouldy uncared-for look about everything.  The curate in
riding-boots came out of the vestry,—a pale, weary-looking man, painfully
meek and civil, with gray hair sleeked round his face.  He ‘louted low,’
and seemed hardly to venture on taking the hand my father held out to
him.  There was some attempt to enter into conversation with him, but he
begged to be excused, for he had to hurry back to Wattlesea to a funeral.
Poor man! he was as great a pluralist as his vicar, for he kept a boys’
school, partially day, partially boarding, and his eyes looked hungrily
at Martyn.

If the ‘sweet cottage bonnet’ had been at church there would have been
little chance of discovering her, but we found that we were the only
‘quality,’ as Chapman called it, or things might not have been so bad.
Old James Winslow had been a mere fox-hunting squire till he became a
valetudinarian; nor had he ever cared for the church or for the poor, so
that the village was in a frightful state of neglect.  There was a
dissenting chapel, old enough to be overgrown with ivy and not too
hideous, erected by the Nonconformists in the reign of the Great
Deliverer, but this partook of the general decadence of the parish, and,
as we found, the chapel’s principal use was to serve as an excuse for not
going to church.

My father always went to church twice, so he and Clarence walked to
Wattlesea, where appearances were more respectable; but they heard the
same sermon over again, and, as my father drily remarked, it was not a
composition that would bear repetition.

He was much distressed at the state of things, and intended to write to
the incumbent, though, as he said, whatever was done would end by being
at his own expense, and the move and other calls left him so little in
hand that he sighed over the difficulties, and declared that he was
better off in London, except for the honour of the thing.  Perhaps my
mother was of the same opinion after a dreary afternoon, when Griff and
Martyn had been wandering about aimlessly, and were at length betrayed by
the barking of a little terrier, purchased the day before from Tom Petty,
besieging the stable cat, who stood with swollen tail, glaring eyes, and
thunderous growls, on the top of the tallest pillar of the ruins.  Emily
nearly cried at their cruelty.  Martyn was called off by my mother, and
set down, half sulky, half ashamed, to _Henry and his Bearer_; and Griff,
vowing that he believed it was that brute who made the row at night, and
that she ought to be exterminated, strolled off to converse with Chapman,
who was a quaint compound of clerk and keeper—in the one capacity
upholding his late master, in the other bemoaning Mr. Mears’
unpunctualities, specially as regarded weddings and funerals; one ‘corp’
having been kept waiting till a messenger had been sent to Wattlesea, who
finding both clergy out for the day, had had to go to Hillside, ‘where
they was always ready, though the old Squire would have been mad with him
if he’d a-guessed one of they Fordys had ever set foot in the parish.’

The only school in the place was close to the meeting-house, ‘a very
dame’s school indeed,’ as Emily described it after a peep on Monday.
Dame Dearlove, the old woman who presided, was a picture of Shenstone’s
schoolmistress,—black bonnet, horn spectacles, fearful birch rod,
three-cornered buff ’kerchief, checked apron and all, but on meddling
with her, she proved a very dragon, the antipodes of her name.  Tattered
copies of the _Universal Spelling-Book_ served her aristocracy, ragged
Testaments the general herd, whence all appeared to be shouting aloud at
once.  She looked sour as verjuice when my mother and Emily entered, and
gave them to understand that ‘she wasn’t used to no strangers in her
school, and didn’t want ’em.’  We found that in Chapman’s opinion she
‘didn’t larn ’em nothing.’  She had succeeded her aunt, who had taught
him to read ‘right off,’ but ‘her baint to be compared with she.’  And
now the farmers’ children, and the little aristocracy, including his own
grand-children,—all indeed who, in his phrase, ‘cared for
eddication,’—went to Wattlesea.


    ‘Of honourable reckoning are you both,
    And pity ’tis, you lived at odds so long.’


MY father had a good deal of business in hand, and was glad of Clarence’s
help in writing and accounts,—a great pleasure, though it prevented his
being Griff’s companion in his exploring and essays at shooting.  He had
time, however, to make an expedition with me in the donkey chair to
inquire after the herdboy, Amos Bell, and carry him some kitchen physic.
To our horror we found him quite alone in the wretched cottage, while
everybody was out harvesting; but he did not seem to pity himself, or
think it otherwise than quite natural, as he lay on a little bed in the
corner, disabled by what Clarence thought a dislocation.  Miss Ellen had
brought him a pudding, and little Miss Anne a picture-book.

He was not so dense and shy as the children of the hamlet near us, and
Emily extracted from him that Miss Ellen was ‘Our passon’s young lady.’

‘Mr. Mears’!’ she exclaimed.

‘No: ourn be Passon Fordy.’

It turned out that this place was not in Earlscombe at all, but in
Hillside, a different parish; and the boy, Amos, further communicated
that there was old Passon Fordy, and Passon Frank, and Madam, what was
Mr. Frank’s lady.  Yes, he could read, he could; he went to Sunday
School, and was in Miss Ellen’s class; he had been to school worky days,
only father was dead, and Farmer Hartop gave him a job.

It was plain that Hillside was under a very different rule from
Earlscombe; and Emily was delighted to have discovered that the sweet
cottage bonnet’s owner was called Ellen, which just then was the pet
Christian name of romance, in honour of the _Lady of the Lake_.

In the midst of her raptures, however, just as we were about to turn in
at our own gate into the wood, we heard horses’ hoofs, and then came,
careering by on ponies, a very pretty girl and a youth of about the same
age.  Clarence’s hand rose to his hat, and he made his eager bow; but the
young lady did not vouchsafe the slightest acknowledgment, turned her
head away, and urged her pony to speed.

Emily broke out with an angry disappointed exclamation.  Clarence’s face
was scarlet, and he said low and hoarsely, ‘That’s Lester.  He was in the
_Argus_ at Portsmouth two years ago;’—and then, as our little sister
continued her indignant exclamations, he added, ‘Hush!  Don’t on any
account say a word about it.  I had better get back to my work.  I am
only doing you harm by staying here.’

At which Emily shed tears, and together we persuaded him not to curtail
his holiday, which, indeed, he could not have done without assigning the
reason to the elders, and this was out of the question.  Nor did he
venture to hang back when, as our service was to be on Sunday afternoon,
my father proposed to walk to Hillside Church in the morning.  They came
back well pleased.  There was care and decency throughout.  The psalms
were sung to a ‘grinder organ’—which was an advanced state of things in
those days—and very nicely.  Parson Frank read well and impressively, and
the old parson, a fine venerable man, had preached an excellent
sermon—really admirable, as my father repeated.  Our party had been
scarcely in time, and had been disposed of in seats close to the door,
where Clarence was quite out of sight of the disdainful young lady and
her squire, of whom Emily begged to hear no more.

She looked askance at the cards left on the hall table the next day—‘The
Rev. Christopher Fordyce,’ and ‘The Rev. F. C. Fordyce,’ also ‘Mrs. F. C.
Fordyce, Hillside Rectory.’

We had found out that Hillside was a family living, and that there was
much activity there on the part of the father and son—rector and curate;
and that the other clerical folk, ladies especially, who called on us,
spoke of Mrs. F. C. Fordyce with a certain tone, as if they were afraid
of her, as Sir Horace Lester’s sister,—very superior, very active, very
strict in her notions,—as if these were so many defects.  They were an
offshoot of the old Fordyces of Chantry House, but so far back that all
recollection of kindred or connection must have worn out.  Their
property—all in beautiful order—marched with ours, and Chapman was very
particular about the boundaries.  ‘Old master he wouldn’t have a bird
picked up if it fell over on they Fordys’ ground—not he!  He couldn’t
abide passons, couldn’t the old Squire—not Miss Hannah More, and all they
Cheddar lot, and they Fordys least of all.  My son’s wife, she was for
sending her little maid to Hillside to Madam Fordys’ school, but, bless
your heart, ’twould have been as much as my place was worth if master had
known it.’

The visit was not returned till after Clarence had gone back to his
London work.  Sore as was the loss of him from my daily life, I could see
that the new world and fresh acquaintances were a trial to him, and
especially since the encounter with young Lester had driven him back into
his shell, so that he would be better where he was already known and had
nothing new to overcome.  Emily, though not yet sixteen, was emancipated
from schoolroom habits, and the dear girl was my devoted slave to an
extent that perhaps I abused.

Not being ‘come out,’ she was left at home on the day when we set out on
a regular progress in the chariot with post-horses.  The britshka and
pair, which were our ambition, were to wait till my father’s next rents
came in.  Morning calls in the country were a solemn and imposing
ceremony, and the head of the family had to be taken on the first
circuit; nor was there much scruple as to making them in the forenoon, so
several were to be disposed of before fulfilling an engagement to
luncheon at the farthest point, where some old London friends had
borrowed a house for the summer, and had included me in their invitation.

Here alone did I leave the carriage, but I had Cooper’s _Spy_ and my
sketch-book as companions while waiting at doors where the inhabitants
were at home.  The last visit was at Hillside Rectory, a house of
architecture somewhat similar to our own, but of the soft creamy stone
which so well set off the vine with purple clusters, the myrtles and
fuchsias, that covered it.  I was wishing we had drawn up far enough off
for a sketch to be possible, when, from a window close above, I heard the
following words in a clear girlish voice—

‘No, indeed!  I’m not going down.  It is only those horrid Earlscombe
people.  I can’t think how they have the face to come near us!’

There was a reply, perhaps that the parents had made the first visit, for
the rejoinder was—‘Yes; grandpapa said it was a Christian duty to make an
advance; but they need not have come so soon.  Indeed, I wonder they show
themselves at all.  I am sure I would not if I had such a dreadful son.’
Presently, ‘I hate to think of it.  That I should have thanked him.
Depend upon it, he will never pay the doctor.  A coward like that is
capable of anything.’

The proverb had been realised, but there could hardly have been a more
involuntary or helpless listener.  Presently my parents came back,
escorted by both the gentlemen of the house, tall fine-looking men, the
elder with snowy hair, and the dignity of men of the old school; the
younger with a joyous, hearty, out-of-door countenance, more like a
squire than a clergyman.

The visit seemed to have been gratifying.  Mrs. Fordyce was declared to
be of higher stamp than most of the neighbouring ladies; and my father
was much pleased with the two clergymen, while as we drove along he kept
on admiring the well-ordered fields and fences, and contrasting the
pretty cottages and trim gardens with the dreary appearance of our own
village.  I asked why Amos Bell’s home had been neglected, and was
answered with some annoyance, as I pointed down the lane, that it was on
our land, though in Hillside parish.  ‘I am glad to have such
neighbours!’ observed my mother, and I kept to myself the remarks I had
heard, though I was still tingling with the sting of them.

We heard no more of ‘they Fordys’ for some time.  The married pair went
away to stay with friends, and we only once met the old gentleman, when I
was waiting in the street at Wattlesea in the donkey chair, while my
mother was trying to match netting silk in the odd little shop that
united fancy work, toys, and tracts with the post office.  Old Mr.
Fordyce met us as we drew up, handed her out with a grand seigneur’s
courtesy, and stood talking to me so delightfully that I quite forgot it
was from Christian duty.

My father corresponded with the old Rector about the state of the parish,
and at last went over to Bath for a personal conference, but without much
satisfaction.  The Earlscombe people were pronounced to be an ungrateful
good-for-nothing set, for whom it was of no use to do anything; and
indeed my mother made such discoveries in the cottages that she durst not
let Emily fulfil her cherished scheme of visiting them.  The only
resemblance to the favourite heroines of religious tales that could be
permitted was assembling a tiny Sunday class in Chapman’s lodge; and it
must be confessed that her brothers thought she made as much fuss about
it as if there had been a hundred scholars.

However, between remonstrances and offers of undertaking a share of the
expense, my father managed to get Mr. Mears’ services dispensed with from
the ensuing Lady Day, and that a resident curate should be appointed, the
choice of whom was to rest with himself.  It was then and there decided
that Martyn should be ‘brought up to the Church,’ as people then used to
term destination to Holy Orders.  My father said he should feel justified
in building a good house when he could afford it, if it was to be a
provision for one of his sons, and he also felt that as he had the charge
of the parish as patron, it was right and fitting to train one of his
sons up to take care of it.  Nor did Martyn show any distaste to the
idea, as indeed there was less in it then than at present to daunt the
imagination of an honest, lively boy, not as yet specially thoughtful or
devout, but obedient, truthful, and fairly reverent, and ready to grow as
he was trained.


    ‘O’er all there hung the shadow of a fear,
       A sense of mystery the spirit daunted,
    And said as plain as whisper in the ear,
       The place is haunted.’—HOOD.

WE had a houseful at Christmas.  The Rev. Charles Henderson, a Fellow of
Trinity College, Oxford, lately ordained a deacon, had been recommended
to us by our London vicar, and was willing not only to take charge of the
parish, but to direct my studies, and to prepare Martyn for school.  He
came to us for the Christmas vacation to reconnoitre and engage lodgings
at a farmhouse.  We liked him very much—my mother being all the better
satisfied after he had shown her a miniature, and confided to her that
the original was waiting till a college living should come to him in the
distant future.

Admiral Griffith could not tear himself from his warm rooms and his club,
but our antiquarian friend, Mr. Stafford, came with his wife, and
revelled in the ceilings of the mullion room, where he would much have
liked to sleep, but that its accommodations were only fit for a bachelor.

Our other visitor was Miss Selby, or rather Mrs. Sophia Selby, as she
designated herself, according to the becoming fashion of elderly
spinsters, which to my mind might be gracefully resumed.  It irked my
father to think of the good lady’s solitary Christmas at Bath, and he
asked her to come to us.  She travelled half-way in a post-chaise, and
then was met by the carriage.  A very nice old lady she was, with a meek,
delicate babyish face, which could not be spoilt by the cap of the
period, one of the most disfiguring articles of head gear ever devised,
though nobody thought so then.  She was full of kindness; indeed, if she
had a fault it was the abundant pity she lavished on me, and her
determination to amuse me.  The weather was of the kind that only the
healthy and hardy could encounter, and when every one else was gone out,
and I was just settling in with a new book, or an old crabbed Latin
document, that Mr. Stafford had entrusted to me to copy out fairly and
translate, she would glide in with her worsted work on a charitable
mission to enliven poor Mr. Edward.

However, this was the means of my obtaining some curious enlightenments.
A dinner-party was in contemplation, and she was dismayed at the choice
of the fashionable London hour of seven, and still more by finding that
the Fordyces were to be among the guests.  She was too well-bred to
manifest her feelings to her hosts, but alone with me, she could not
refrain from expressing her astonishment to me, all the more when she
heard this was reciprocity for an invitation that it had not been
possible to accept.  Her poor dear uncle would never hear of intercourse
with Hillside.  On being asked why, she repeated what Chapman had said,
that he could not endure any one connected with Mrs. Hannah More and her
canting, humbugging set, as the ungodly old man had chosen to call them,
imbuing even this good woman with evil prejudices against their noble
work at Cheddar.

‘Besides this, Fordyces and Winslows could never be friends, since the
Fordyces had taken on themselves to dispute the will, and say it had been
improperly obtained.’

‘What will?’

‘Mrs. Winslow’s—Margaret Fordyce that was.  She was the heiress, and had
every right to dispose of her property.’

‘But that was more than a hundred years ago!’

‘So it was, my dear; but though the law gave it to us—to my uncle’s
grandfather (or great-grandfather, was it?)—those Fordyces never could
rest content.  Why, one of them—a clergyman’s son too—shot young Philip
Winslow dead in a duel.  They have always grudged at us.  Does your papa
know it, my dear Mr. Edward?  He ought to be aware.’

‘I do not know,’ I said; ‘but he would hardly care about what happened in
the time of Queen Anne.’

It was curious to see how the gentle little lady espoused the family
quarrel, which, after all, was none of hers.

‘Well, you are London people, and the other branch, and may not feel as
we do down here; but I shall always say that Madam Winslow’s husband’s
son had every right to come before her cousin once removed.’

I asked if we were descended from her, for, having a turn for heraldry
and genealogy, I wanted to make out our family tree.  Mrs. Sophia was
ready to hold up her hands at the ignorance of the ‘other branch.’  This
poor heiress had lost all her children in their infancy, and bequeathed
the estate to her stepson, the Fordyce male heir having been endowed by
her father with the advowson of Hillside and a handsome estate there,
which Mrs. Selby thought ought to have contented him, ‘but some people
never know when they have enough;’ and, on my observing that it might
have been a matter of justice, she waxed hotter, declaring that what the
Winslows felt so much was the accusation of violence against the poor
lady.  She spoke as if it were a story of yesterday, and added, ‘Indeed,
they made the common people have all sorts of superstitious fancies about
the room where she died—that old part of the house.’  Then she added in a
low mysterious voice, ‘I hear that your brother Mr. Griffith Winslow
could not sleep there;’ and when the rats and the wind were
mentioned—‘Yes, that was what my poor dear uncle used to say.  He always
called it nonsense; but we never had a servant who would sleep there.
You’ll not mention it, Mr. Edward, but I could not help asking that very
nice housemaid, Jane, whether the room was used, and she said how Mr.
Griffith had given it up, and none of the servants could spend a night
there when they are sleeping round.  Of course I said all in my power to
dispel the idea, and told her that there was no accounting for all the
noises in old houses; but you never can reason with that class of

‘Did you ever hear the noises, Mrs. Selby?’

‘Oh, no; I wouldn’t sleep there for thousands!  Not that I attach any
importance to such folly,—my poor dear uncle would never hear of such a
thing; but I am such a nervous creature, I should lie awake all night
expecting the rats to run over me.  I never knew of any one sleeping
there, except in the gay times when I was a child, and the house used to
be as full as, or fuller than, it could hold, for the hunt breakfast or a
ball, and my poor aunt used to make up ever so many beds in the two
rooms, and then we never heard of any disturbance, except what they made

This chiefly concerned me, because home cosseting had made me old woman
enough to be uneasy about unaired beds; and I knew that my mother meant
to consign Clarence to the mullion chamber.  So, without betraying Jane,
I spoke to her, and was answered, ‘Oh, sir, I’ll take care of that; I’ll
light a fire and air the mattresses well.  I wish that was all, poor
young gentleman!’

To the reply that the rats were slaughtered and the wind stopped out,
Jane returned a look of compassion; but the subject was dropped, as it
was supposed to be the right thing to hush up, instead of fostering, any
popular superstition; but it surprised me that, as all our servants were
fresh importations, they should so soon have become imbued with these
undefined alarms.

My father was much amused at being successor to this family feud, and
said that when he had time he would look up the documents.

Mrs. Sophia was a sight when Mr. Fordyce and his son and daughter-in-law
were announced; she was so comically stiff between her deference to her
hosts and her allegiance to her poor dear uncle; but her coldness melted
before the charms of old Mr. Fordyce, who was one of the most delightful
people in the world.  She even was his partner at whist, and won the
game, and that she _did_ like.

Parson Frank, as we naughty young ones called him, was all good-nature
and geniality—a thorough clergyman after the ideas of the time, and a
thorough farmer too; and in each capacity, as well as in politics, he
suited my father or Mr. Henderson.  His lady, in a blonde cap, exactly
like the last equipment my mother had provided herself with in London,
and a black satin dress, had much more style than the more gaily-dressed
country dames, and far more conversation.  Mr. Stafford, who had dreaded
the party, pronounced her a sensible, agreeable woman, and she was
particularly kind and pleasant to me, coming and talking over the botany
of the country, and then speaking of my brother’s kindness to poor Amos
Bell, who was nearly recovered, but was a weakly child, for whom she
dreaded the toil of a ploughboy in thick clay with heavy shoes.

I was sorry when, after Emily’s well-studied performance on the piano,
Mrs. Fordyce was summoned away from me to sing, but her music and her
voice were both of a very different order from ordinary drawing-room
music; and when our evening was over, we congratulated ourselves upon our
neighbours, and agreed that the Fordyces were the gems of the party.

Only Mrs. Sophia sighed at us as degenerate Winslows, and Emily reserved
to herself the right of believing that the daughter was ‘a horrid girl.’


    ‘Though bound with weakness’ heavy chain
    We in the dust of earth remain;
    Not all remorseful be our tears,
    No agony of shame or fears,
    Need pierce its passion’s bitter tide.’

                                                     _Verses and Sonnets_.

PERHAPS it was of set purpose that our dinner-party had been given before
Clarence’s return.  Griffith had been expected in time for it, but he had
preferred going by way of London to attend a ball given by the daughter
of a barrister friend of my father’s.  Selina Clarkson was a fine showy
girl, with the sort of beauty to inspire boyish admiration, and Griff’s
had been a standing family joke, even my father condescending to tease
him when the young lady married Sir Henry Peacock, a fat vulgar old man
who had made his fortune in the commissariat, and purchased a baronetcy.
He was allowing his young wife her full swing of fashion and enjoyment.
My mother did not think it a desirable acquaintance, and was restless
until both the brothers came home together, long after dark on Christmas
Eve, having been met by the gig at the corner where the coach stopped.
The dinner-hour had been put off till half-past six, and we had to wait
for them, the coach having been delayed by setting down Christmas guests
and Christmas fare.  They were a contrast; Griffith looking very handsome
and manly, all in a ruddy glow from the frosty air, and Clarence, though
equally tall, well-made, and with more refined features, looked pale and
effaced, now that his sailor tan was worn off.  The one talked as eagerly
as he ate, the other was shy, spiritless, and with little appetite; but
as he always shrank into himself among strangers, it was the less wonder
that he sat in his drooping way behind my sofa, while Griffith kept us
all merry with his account of the humours of the ‘Peacock at home;’ the
lumbering efforts of old Sir Henry to be as young and gay as his wife, in
spite of gout and portliness; and the extreme delight of his lady in her
new splendours—a gold spotted muslin and white plumes in a diamond
agraffe.  He mimicked Sir Henry’s cockneyisms more than my father’s
chivalry approved towards his recent host, as he described the complaints
he had heard against ‘my Lady being refused the hentry at Halmack’s, but
treated like the wery canal;’ and how the devoted husband ‘wowed he would
get up a still more hexclusive circle, and shut hout these himpertinent
fashionables who regarded Halmack’s as the seventh ’eaven.’

My mother shook her head at his audacious fun about Paradise and the
Peri, but he was so brilliant and good-humoured that no one was ever long
displeased with him.  At night he followed when Clarence helped me to my
room, and carefully shutting the door, Griff began.  ‘Now, Teddy, you’re
always as rich as a Jew, and I told Bill you’d help him to set it
straight.  I’d do it myself, but that I’m cleaned out.  I’d give ten
times the cash rather than see him with that hang-dog look again for just
nothing at all, if he would only believe so and be rational.’

Clarence did look indescribably miserable while it was explained that he
had been commissioned to receive about £20 which was owing to my father,
and to discharge therewith some small debts to London tradesmen.  All
except the last, for a little more than four pounds, had been paid, when
Clarence met in the street an old messmate, a good-natured rattle-pated
youth,—one of those who had thought him harshly treated.  There was a
cordial greeting, and an invitation to dine at once at a hotel, where
they were joined by some other young men, and by and by betook themselves
to cards, when my poor brother’s besetting enemy prevented him from
withdrawing when he found the points were guineas.  Thus he lost the
remaining amount in his charge, and so much of his own that barely enough
was left for his journey.  His salary was not due till Lady Day; Mr.
Castleford was in the country, and no advances could be asked from Mr.
Frith.  Thus Griff had found him in utter despair, and had ever since
been trying to cheer him and make light of his trouble.  If I advanced
the amount, which was no serious matter to me, Clarence could easily get
Peter to pay the bill, and if my father should demand the receipt too
soon, it would be easy to put him off by saying there had been a delay in
getting the account sent in.

‘I couldn’t do that,’ said Clarence.

‘Well, I should not have thought you would have stuck at that,’ returned

‘There must be no untruth,’ I broke in; ‘but if without _that_, he can
avoid getting into a scrape with papa—’

Clarence interrupted in the wavering voice we knew so well, but growing
clearer and stronger.

‘Thank you, Edward, but—but—no, I can’t.  There’s the Sacrament

‘Oh—h!’ said Griff, in an indescribable tone.  But he will never believe
you, nor let you go.’

‘Better so,’ said Clarence, half choked, ‘than go profanely—deceiving—or
not knowing whether I shall—’

Just then we heard our father wishing the other gentlemen good-night, and
to our surprise Clarence opened the door, though he was deadly white and
with dew starting on his forehead.

My father turned good-naturedly.  ‘Boys, boys, you are glad to be
together, but mamma won’t have you talking here all night, keeping her
baby up.’

‘Sir,’ said Clarence, holding by the rail of the bed, ‘I was waiting for
you.  I have something to tell you—’

The words that followed were incoherent and wrong end foremost; nor had
many, indeed, been uttered before my father cut them short with—

‘No false excuses, sir; I know you too well to listen.  Go.  I have
ceased to hope for anything better.’

Clarence went without a word, but Griff and I burst out with entreaties
to be listened to.  Our father thought at first that ours were only the
pleadings of partiality, and endeavours to shield the brother we both so
heartily loved; but when he understood the circumstances, the real amount
of the transgression, and Clarence’s rejection of our united advice and
assistance to conceal it, he was greatly touched and softened.  ‘Poor
lad! poor fellow!’ he muttered, ‘he is really doing his best.  I need not
have cut him so short.  I was afraid of more falsehoods if I let him open
his mouth.  I’ll go and see.’

He went off, and we remained in suspense, Griff observing that he had
done his best, but poor Bill always would be a fool, and that no one who
had not always lived at home like me would have let out that we had been
for the suppression policy.  As I was rather shocked, he went off to bed,
saying he should look in to see what remained of Clarence after the
pelting of the pitiless storm he was sure to bring on himself by his
ridiculous faltering instead of speaking out like a man.

I longed to have been able to do the same, but my father kindly came back
to relieve my mind by telling me that he was better satisfied about
Clarence than ever he had been before.  When encouraged to speak out, the
narrative of the temptation had so entirely agreed with what we had said
as to show there had been no prevarication, and this had done more to
convince my father that he was on the right track than the having found
him on his knees.  He had had a patient hearing, and thus was able to
command his nerves enough to explain himself, and it had ended in my
father giving entire forgiveness for what, as Griff truly said, would
have been a mere trifle but for the past.  The voluntary confession had
much impressed my father, and he could not help adding a word of gentle
reproof to me for having joined in aiding him to withhold it, but he
accepted my explanation and went away, observing, ‘By the by, I don’t
wonder at what Griffith says of that room; I never heard such strange
effects of currents of air.’

Clarence was in my room before I was drest, full of our father’s
‘wonderful goodness’ to him.  He had never experienced anything like it,
he said.  ‘Why! he really seemed hopeful about me,’ were words uttered
with a gladness enough to go to one’s heart.  ‘O Edward, I feel as if
there was some chance of “steadfastly purposing” this time.’

It was not the way of the family to say much of religious feeling, and
this was much for Clarence to utter.  He looked white and tired, but
there was an air of rest and peace about him, above all when my mother
met him with a very real kiss.  Moreover, Mr. Castleford had taken care
to brighten our Christmas with a letter expressive of great satisfaction
with Clarence for steadiness and intelligence.  Even Mr. Frith allowed
that he was the most punctual of all those young dogs.

‘I do believe,’ said my father, ‘that his piety is doing him some good
after all.’

So our mutual wishes of a happy Christmas were verified, though not much
according to the notions of this half of the century.  People made their
Christmas day either mere merriment, or something little different from
the grave Sunday of that date.  And ours, except for the Admiral’s dining
with us, had always been of the latter description, all the more that
when celebrations of the Holy Communion were so rare they were treated
with an awe and reverence which frequency has perhaps diminished, and a
feeling (possibly Puritanical) prevailed which made it appear incongruous
to end with festivity a day so begun.  That we had a Christmas Day
Communion at all at Earlscombe was an innovation only achieved by Mr.
Henderson going to assist the old Rector at Wattlesea; and there were no
communicants except from our house, besides Chapman, his daughter-in-law,
and five old creatures between whom the alms were immediately divided.
We afterwards learnt that our best farmer and his wife were much
disappointed at the change from Sunday interfering with the family
jollification; and Mrs. Sophia Selby was annoyed at the contradiction to
her habits under the rule of her poor dear uncle.

Of the irregularities, irreverences, and squalor of the whole I will not
speak.  They were not then such stumbling-blocks as they would be now,
and many passed unperceived by us, buried as we were in our big pew, with
our eyes riveted on our books; yet even thus there was enough evident to
make my mother rejoice that Mr. Henderson would be with us before Easter.
Still this could not mar the thankful gladness that was with us all that
day, and which shone in Clarence’s eyes.  His countenance always had a
remarkable expression in church, as if somehow his spirit went farther
than ours did, and things unseen were more real to him.

Hillside, as usual, had two services, and my father and his friend were
going to walk thither in the afternoon, but it was a raw cold day,
threatening snow, and Emily was caught by my mother in the hail and
ordered back, as well as Clarence, who had shown symptoms of having
caught cold on his dismal journey.  Emily coaxed from her permission to
have a fire in the bookroom, and there we three had a memorably happy
time.  We read our psalms and lessons, and our _Christian Year_, which
was more and more the lodestar of our feelings.  We compared our
favourite passages, and discussed the obscurer ones, and Clarence was led
to talk out more of his heart than he had ever shown to us before.
Perhaps he had lost some of his reserve through his intercourse with our
good old governess, Miss Newton, who was still grinding away at her daily
mill, though with somewhat failing eyesight, so that she could do nothing
but knit in the long evenings, and was most grateful to her former pupil
for coming, as often as he could, to talk or read to her.

She was a most excellent and devout woman, and when Emily, who in
youthful _gaieté de cœur_ had got a little tired of her, exclaimed at his
taste, and asked if she made him read nothing but Pike’s Early _Piety_,
he replied gravely, ‘She showed me where to lay my burthen down,’ and
turned to the two last verses of the poem for ‘Good Friday’ in the
_Christian Year_, as well as to the one we had just read on the Holy

My father’s kindness had seemed to him the pledge of the Heavenly
Father’s forgiveness; and he added, perhaps a little childishly, that it
had been his impulse to promise never to touch a card again, but that he
dreaded the only too familiar reply, ‘What availed his promises?’

‘Do promise, Clarry!’ cried Emily, ‘and then you won’t have to play with
that tiresome old Mrs. Sophia.’

‘That would rather deter me,’ said Clarence good-humouredly.

‘A card-playing old age is despicable,’ pronounced Miss Emily, much to
our amusement.

After that we got into a bewilderment.  We knew nothing of the future
question of temperance _versus_ total abstinence; but after it had been
extracted that Miss Newton regarded cards as the devil’s books, the
inconsistent little sister changed sides, and declared it narrow and
evangelical to renounce what was innocent.  Clarence argued that what
might be harmless for others might be dangerous for such as himself, and
that his real difficulty in making even a mental vow was that, if broken,
there was an additional sin.

‘It is not oneself that one trusts,’ I said.

‘No,’ said Clarence emphatically; ‘and setting up a vow seems as if it
might be sticking up the reed of one’s own word, and leaning on
_that_—when it breaks, at least mine does.  If I could always get the
grasp of Him that I felt to-day, there would be no more bewildered heart
and failing spirit, which are worse than the actual falls they cause.’
And as Emily said she did not understand, he replied in words I wrote
down and thought over, ‘What we _are_ is the point, more than even what
we _do_.  We _do_ as we _are_; and yet we form ourselves by what we

‘And,’ I put in, ‘I know somebody who won a victory last night over
himself and his two brothers.  Surely _doing_ that is a sign that he _is_
more than he used to be.’

‘If he were, it would not have been an effort at all,’ said Clarence, but
with his rare sweet smile.

Just then Griff called him away, and Emily sat pondering and impressed.
‘It did seem so odd,’ she said, ‘that Clarry should be so much the best,
and yet so much the worst of us.’

I agreed.  His insight into spiritual things, and his enjoyment of them,
always humiliated us both, yet he fell so much lower in practice,—‘But
then we had not his temptations.’

‘Yes,’ said Emily; ‘but look at Griff!  He goes about like other young
men, and keeps all right, and yet he doesn’t care about religious things
a bit more than he can help.’

It was quite true.  Religion was life to the one and an insurance to the
other, and this had been a mystery to us all our young lives, as far as
we had ever reflected on the contrast between the practical failure and
success of each.  Our mother, on the other hand, viewed Clarence’s
tendencies as part of an unreal, self-deceptive nature, and regretted his
intimacy with Miss Newton, who, she said, had fostered ‘that kind of
thing’ in his childhood—made him fancy talk, feeling, and preaching were
more than truth and honour—and might lead him to run after Irving,
Rowland Hill, or Baptist Noel, about whose tenets she was rather
confused.  It would be an additional misfortune if he became a fanatical
Evangelical light, and he was just the character to be worked upon.

My father held that she might be thankful for any good influence or safe
resort for a young man in lodgings in London, and he merely bade Clarence
never resort to any variety of dissenting preacher.  We were of the
school called—a little later—high and dry, but were strictly orthodox
according to our lights, and held it a prime duty to attend our parish
church, whatever it might be; nor, indeed, had Clarence swerved from
these traditions.

Poor Mrs. Sophia was baulked of the game at whist, which she viewed as a
legitimate part of the Christmas pleasures; and after we had eaten our
turkey, we found the evening long, except that Martyn escaped to
snapdragon with the servants; and, by and by, Chapman, magnificent in
patronage, ushered in the church singers into the hall, and clarionet,
bassoon, and fiddle astonished our ears.


    ‘A lady with a lamp I see,
    Pass through the glimmering gloom,
       And flit from room to room.’


FOR want of being able to take exercise, the first part of the night had
always been sleepless with me, though my dear mother thought it wrong to
recognise the habit or allow me a lamp.  A fire, however, I had, and by
its light, on the second night after Christmas, I saw my door noiselessly
opened, and Clarence creeping in half-dressed and barefooted.  To my
frightened interrogation the answer came, through chattering teeth, ‘It’s
I—only I—Ted—no—nothing’s the matter, only I can’t stand it any longer!’

His hands were cold as ice when he grasped mine, as if to get hold of
something substantial, and he trembled so as to shake the bed.  ‘That
room,’ he faltered.  ‘’Tis not only the moans!  I’ve seen her!’


‘I don’t know.  There she stands with her lamp, crying!’  I could
scarcely distinguish the words through the clashing of his teeth, and as
I threw my arms round him the shudder seemed to pass to me; but I did my
best to warm him by drawing the clothes over him, and he began to gather
himself together, and speak intelligibly.  There had been sounds the
first night as of wailing, but he had been too much preoccupied to attend
to them till, soon after one o’clock, they ended in a heavy fall and long
shriek, after which all was still.  Christmas night had been undisturbed,
but on this the voices had begun again at eleven, and had a strangely
human sound; but as it was windy, sleety weather, and he had learnt at
sea to disregard noises in the rigging, he drew the sheet over his head
and went to sleep.  ‘I was dreaming that I was at sea,’ he said, ‘as I
always do on a noisy night, but this was not a dream.  I was wakened by a
light in the room, and there stood a woman with a lamp, moaning and
sobbing.  My first notion was that one of the maids had come to call me,
and I sat up; but I could not speak, and she gave another awful
suppressed cry, and moved towards that walled-up door.  Then I saw it was
none of the servants, for it was an antique dress like an old picture.
So I knew what it must be, and an unbearable horror came over me, and I
rushed into the outer room, where there was a little fire left; but I
heard her going on still, and I could endure it no longer.  I knew you
would be awake and would bear with me, so I came down to you.’

Then this was what Chapman and the maids had meant.  This was Mrs. Sophia
Selby’s vulgar superstition!  I found that Clarence had heard none of the
mysterious whispers afloat, and only knew that Griff had deserted the
room after his own return to London.  I related what I had learnt from
the old lady, and in that midnight hour we agreed that it could be no
mere fancy or rumour, but that cruel wrong must have been done in that
chamber.  Our feeling was that all ought to be made known, and in that
impression we fell asleep, Clarence first.

By and by I found him moving.  He had heard the clock strike four, and
thought it wiser to repair to his own quarters, where he believed the
disturbance was over.  Lucifer matches as yet were not, but he had always
been a noiseless being, with a sailor’s foot, so that, by the help of the
moonlight through the hall windows, he regained his room.

And when morning had come, the nocturnal visitation wore such a different
aspect to both our minds that we decided to say nothing to our parents,
who, said Clarence, would simply disbelieve him; and, indeed, I inclined
to suppose it had been an uncommonly vivid dream, produced in that
sensitive nature by the uncanny sounds of the wind in the chinks and
crannies of the ancient chamber.  Had not Scott’s _Demonology and
Witchcraft_, which we studied hard on that day, proved all such phantoms
to be explicable?  The only person we told was Griff, who was amused and
incredulous.  He had heard the noises—oh yes! and objected to having his
sleep broken by them.  It was too had to expose Clarence to them—poor
Bill—on whom they worked such fancies!

He interrogated Chapman, however, but probably in that bantering way
which is apt to produce reserve.  Chapman never ‘gave heed to them
fictious tales,’ he said; but, when hard pressed, he allowed that he had
‘heerd that a lady do walk o’ winter nights,’ and that was why the garden
door of the old rooms was walled up.  Griff asked if this was done for
fear she should catch cold, and this somewhat affronted him, so that he
averred that he knew nought about it, and gave no thought to such like.

Just then they arrived at the Winslow Arms, and took each a glass of ale,
when Griff, partly to tease Chapman, asked the landlady—an old Chantry
House servant—whether she had ever met the ghost.  She turned rather
pale, which seemed to have impressed him, and demanded if he had seen it.
‘It always walked at Christmas time—between then and the New Year.’  She
had once seen a light in the garden by the ruin in winter-time, and once
last spring it came along the passage, but that was just before the old
Squire was took for death,—folks said that was always the way before any
of the family died—‘if you’ll excuse it, sir.’  Oh no, she thought
nothing of such things, but she had heard tell that the noises were such
at all times of the year that no one could sleep in the rooms, but the
light wasn’t to be seen except at Christmas.

Griff with the philosophy of a university man, was certain that all was
explained by Clarence having imbibed the impression of the place being
haunted; and going to sleep nervous at the noises, his brain had shaped a
phantom in accordance.  Let Clarence declare as he might that the legends
were new to him, Griff only smiled to think how easily people forgot, and
he talked earnestly about catching ideas without conscious information.

However, he volunteered to sit up that night to ascertain the exact
causes of the strange noises and convince Clarence that they were nothing
but the effects of draughts.  The fire in his gunroom was surreptitiously
kept up to serve for the vigil, which I ardently desired to share.  It
was an enterprise; it would gratify my curiosity; and besides, though
Griffith was good-natured and forbearing in a general way towards
Clarence, I detected a spirit of mockery about him which might break out
unpleasantly when poor Clarry was convicted of one of his unreasonable

Both brothers were willing to gratify me, the only difficulty being that
the tap of my crutches would warn the entire household of the expedition.
However, they had—all unknown to my mother—several times carried me about
queen’s cushion fashion, as, being always much of a size, they could do
most handily; and as both were now fine, strong, well-made youths of
twenty and nineteen, they had no doubt of easily and silently conveying
me up the shallow-stepped staircase when all was quiet for the night.

Emily, with her sharp ears, guessed that something was in hand, but we
promised her that she should know all in time.  I believe Griff, being a
little afraid of her quickness, led her to suppose he was going to hold
what he called a symposium in his rooms, and to think it a mystery of
college life not intended for young ladies.

He really had prepared a sort of supper for us when, after my father’s
resounding turn of the key of the drawing-room door, my brothers, in
their stocking soles, bore me upstairs, the fun of the achievement for
the moment overpowering all sense of eeriness.  Griff said he could not
receive me in his apartment without doing honour to the occasion, and
that Dutch courage was requisite for us both; but I suspect it was more
in accordance with Oxford habits that he had provided a bottle of sherry
and another of ale, some brandy cherries, bread, cheese, and biscuits, by
what means I do not know, for my mother always locked up the wine.  He
was disappointed that Clarence would touch nothing, and declared that
inanition was the preparation for ghost-seeing or imagining.  I drank his
health in a glass of sherry as I looked round at the curious old room,
with its panelled roof, the heraldic devices and badges of the Power
family, and the trophy of swords, dirks, daggers, and pistols, chiefly
relics of our naval grandfather, but reinforced by the sword, helmet, and
spurs of the county Yeomanry which Griff had joined.

Griff proposed cards to drive away fancies, especially as the sounds were
beginning; but though we generally yielded to him we _could_ not give our
attention to anything but these.  There was first a low moan.  ‘No great
harm in that,’ said Griff; ‘it comes through that crack in the wainscot
where there is a sham window.  Some putty will put a stop to that.’

Then came a more decided wail and sob much nearer to us.  Griff hastily
swallowed the ale in his tumbler, and, striking a theatrical attitude,
exclaimed, ‘Angels and ministers of grace defend us!’

Clarence held up his hand in deprecation.  The door into his bedroom was
open, and Griff, taking up one of the flat candlesticks, pursued his
researches, holding the flame to all chinks or cracks in the wainscotting
to detect draughts which might cause the dreary sounds, which were much
more like suppressed weeping than any senseless gust of wind.  Of
draughts there were many, and he tried holding his hand against each
crevice to endeavour to silence the wails; but these became more human
and more distressful.  Presently Clarence exclaimed, ‘There!’ and on his
face there was a whiteness and an expression which always recurs to me on
reading those words of Eliphaz the Temanite, ‘Then a spirit passed before
my face, and the hair of my flesh stood up.’  Even Griff was awestruck as
we cried, ‘Where? what?’

‘Don’t you see her?  There!  By the press—look!’

‘I see a patch of moonlight on the wall,’ said Griff.

‘Moonlight—her lamp.  Edward, don’t you see her?’

I could see nothing but a spot of light on the wall.  Griff (plainly
putting a force on himself) came back and gave him a good-natured shake.
‘Dreaming again, old Bill.  Wake up and come to your senses.’

‘I am as much in my senses as you are,’ said Clarence.  ‘I see her as
plainly as I see you.’

Nor could any one doubt either the reality of the awe in his voice and
countenance, nor of the light—a kind of hazy ball—nor of the choking

‘What is she like?’ I asked, holding his hand, for, though infected by
his dread, my fears were chiefly for the effect on him; but he was much
calmer and less horror-struck than on the previous night, though still he
shuddered as he answered in a low voice, as if loth to describe a lady in
her presence, ‘A dark cloak with the hood fallen back, a kind of lace
headdress loosely fastened, brown hair, thin white face, eyes—oh, poor
thing!—staring with fright, dark—oh, how swollen the lids! all red below
with crying—black dress with white about it—a widow kind of look—a glove
on the arm with the lamp.  Is she beckoning—looking at us?  Oh, you poor
thing, if I could tell what you mean!’

I felt the motion of his muscles in act to rise, and grasped him.  Griff
held him with a strong hand, hoarsely crying, ‘Don’t!—don’t—don’t follow
the thing, whatever you do!’

Clarence hid his face.  It was very awful and strange.  Once the thought
of conjuring her to speak by the Holy Name crossed me, but then I saw no
figure; and with incredulous Griffith standing by, it would have been
like playing, nor perhaps could I have spoken.  How long this lasted
there is no knowing; but presently the light moved towards the walled-up
door and seemed to pass into it.  Clarence raised his head and said she
was gone.  We breathed freely.

‘The farce is over,’ said Griff.  ‘Mr. Edward Winslow’s carriage stops
the way!’

I was hoisted up, candle in hand, between the two, and had nearly reached
the stairs when there came up on the garden side a sound as of tipsy
revellers in the garden.  ‘The scoundrels! how can they have got in?’
cried Griff, looking towards the window; but all the windows on that side
had peculiarly heavy shutters and bars, with only a tiny heart-shaped
aperture very high up, so they somewhat hurried their steps downstairs,
intending to rush out on the intruders from the back door.  But suddenly,
in the middle of the staircase, we heard a terrible heartrending woman’s
shriek, making us all start and have a general fall.  My brothers managed
to seat me safely on a step without much damage to themselves, but the
candle fell and was extinguished, and we made too heavy a weight to fall
without real noise enough to bring the household together before we could
pick ourselves up in the dark.

We heard doors opening and hurried calls, and something about pistols,
impelling Griff to call out, ‘It’s nothing, papa; but there are some
drunken rascals in the garden.’

A light had come by this time, and we were detected.  There was a general
sally upon the enemy in the garden before any one thought of me, except a
‘You here!’ when they nearly fell over me.  And there I was left sitting
on the stair, helpless without my crutches, till in a few minutes all
returned declaring there was nothing—no signs of anything; and then as
Clarence ran up to me with my crutches my father demanded the meaning of
my being there at that time of night.

‘Well, sir,’ said Griff, ‘it is only that we have been sitting up to
investigate the ghost.’

‘Ghost!  Arrant stuff and nonsense!  What induced you to be dragging
Edward about in this dangerous way?’

‘I wished it,’ said I.

‘You are all mad together, I think.  I won’t have the house disturbed for
this ridiculous folly.  I shall look into it to-morrow!’


                  ‘These are the reasons, they are natural.’

                                                           _Julius Cæsar_.

IF anything could have made our adventure more unpleasant to Mr. and Mrs.
Winslow, it would have been the presence of guests.  However, inquiry was
suppressed at breakfast, in deference to the signs my mother made to
enjoin silence before the children, all unaware that Emily was nearly
frantic with suppressed curiosity, and Martyn knew more about the popular
version of the legend than any of us.

Clarence looked wan and heavy-eyed.  His head was aching from a bump
against the edge of a step, and his cold was much worse; no wonder, said
my mother; but she was always softened by any ailment, and feared that
the phantoms were the effect of coming illness.  I have always thought
that if Clarence could have come home from his court-martial with a brain
fever he would have earned immediate forgiveness; but unluckily for him,
he was a very healthy person.

All three of us were summoned to the tribunal in the study, where my
father and my mother sat in judgment on what they termed ‘this
preposterous business.’  In our morning senses our impressions were much
more vague than at midnight, and we betrayed some confusion; but Griff
and I had a strong instinct of sheltering Clarence, and we stoutly
declared the noises to be beyond the capacities of wind, rats, or cats;
that the light was visible and inexplicable; and that though we had seen
nothing else, we could not doubt that Clarence did.

‘Thought he did,’ corrected my father.

‘Without discussing the word,’ said Griff, ‘I mean that the effect on his
senses was the same as the actual sight.  You could not look at him
without being certain.’

‘Exactly so,’ returned my mother.  ‘I wish Dr. Fellowes were near.’

Indeed nothing saved Clarence from being consigned to medical treatment
but the distance from Bath or Bristol, and the contradictory advice that
had been received from our county neighbours as to our family doctor.
However, she formed her theory that his nervous imaginings—whether
involuntary or acted, she hoped the former, and wished she could be
sure—had infected us; and, as she was really uneasy about him, she would
not let him sleep in the mullion room, but having nowhere else to bestow
him, she turned out the man-servant and put him into the little room
beyond mine, and she also forbade any mention of the subject to him that

This was a sore prohibition to Emily, who had been discussing it with the
other ladies, and was in a mingled state of elation at the romance, and
terror at the supernatural, which found vent in excited giggle, and moved
Griff to cram her with raw-head and bloody-bone horrors, conventional
enough to be suspicious, and send her to me tearfully to entreat to know
the truth.  If by day she exulted in a haunted chamber, in the evening
she paid for it by terrors at walking about the house alone, and, when
sent on an errand by my mother, looked piteous enough to be laughed at or
scolded on all sides.

The gentlemen had more serious colloquies, and the upshot was a
determination to sit up together and discover the origin of the
annoyance.  Mr. Stafford’s antiquarian researches had made him familiar
with such mysteries, and enough of them had been explained by natural
causes to convince him that there was a key to all the rest.  Owls,
coiners, and smugglers had all been convicted of simulating ghosts.  In
one venerable mansion, behind the wainscot, there had been discovered
nine skeletons of cats in different stages of decay, having trapped
themselves at various intervals of time, and during the gradual
extinction of their eighty-one lives having emitted cries enough to
establish the ghastly reputation of the place.  Perhaps Mr. Henderson was
inclined to believe there were more things in heaven and earth than were
dreamt of in even an antiquary’s philosophy.  He owned himself perplexed,
but reserved his opinion.

At breakfast Clarence was quite well, except for the remains of his sore
throat, and the two seniors were gruff and brief as to their watch.  They
had heard odd noises, and should discover the cause; the carpenter had
already been sent for, and they had seen a light which was certainly due
to reflection or refraction.  Mr. Henderson committed himself to nothing
but that ‘it was very extraordinary;’ and there was a wicked look of
diversion on Griff’s face, and an exchange of glances.  Afterwards, in
our own domain, we extracted a good deal more from them.

Griff told us how the two elders started on politics, and denounced
Brougham and O’Connell loud enough to terrify any save the most undaunted
ghost, till Henderson said ‘Hush!’ and they paused at the moan with which
the performance always commenced, making Mr. Stafford turn, as Griff
said, ‘white in the gills,’ though he talked of the wind on the stillest
of frosty nights.  Then came the sobbing and wailing, which certainly
overawed them all; Henderson called them ‘agonising,’ but Griff was in a
manner inured to this, and felt as if master of the ceremonies.  Let them
say what they would by daylight about owls, cats, and rats, they owned
the human element then, and were far from comfortable, though they would
not compromise their good sense by owning what both their younger
companions had perceived—their feeling of some undefinable presence.
Vain attempts had been made to account for the light or get rid of it by
changing the position of candles or bright objects in the outer room; and
Henderson had shut himself into the bedroom with it; but there he still
only saw the hazy light—though all was otherwise pitch dark, except the
keyhole and the small gray patch of sky at the top of the
window-shutters.  ‘You saw nothing else?’ said Griff.  ‘I thought I heard
you break out as Clarence did, just before my father opened the door.’

‘Perhaps I did so.  I had the sense strongly on me of some being in
grievous distress very near me.’

‘And you should have power over it,’ suggested Emily.

‘I am afraid,’ he said, ‘that more thorough conviction and comprehension
are needed before I could address the thing with authority.  I should
like to have stayed longer and heard the conclusion.’

For Mr. Stafford had grown impatient and weary, and my father having
satisfied himself that there was something to be detected, would not
remain to the end, and not only carried his companions off, but locked
the doors, perhaps expecting to imprison some agent in a trick, and find
him in the morning.

Indeed Clarence had a dim remembrance of having been half wakened by some
one looking in on him in the night, when he was sleeping heavily after
his cold and the previous night’s disturbance, and we suspected, though
we would not say, that our father might have wished to ascertain that he
had no share in producing these appearances.  He was, however, fully
acquitted of all wilful deception in the case, and he was not surprised,
though he was disappointed, that his vision of the lady was supposed to
be the consequence of excited imagination.

‘I can’t help it,’ he said to me in private.  ‘I have always seen or
felt, or whatever you may call it, things that others do not.  Don’t you
remember how nobody would believe that I saw Lucy Brooke?’

‘That was in the beginning of the measles.’

‘I know; and I will tell you something curious.  When I was at Gibraltar
I met Mrs. Emmott—’

‘Mary Brooke?’

‘Yes; I spent a very happy Sunday with her.  We talked over old times,
and she told me that Lucy had all through her illness been very uneasy
about having promised to bring me a macaw’s feather the next time we
played in the Square gardens.  It could not be sent to me for fear of
carrying the infection, but the dear girl was too light-headed to
understand, and kept on fretting and wandering about breaking her word.
I have no doubt the wish carried her spirit to me the moment it was
free,’ he added, with tears springing to his eyes.  He also said that
before the court-martial he had, night after night, dreams of sinking and
drowning in huge waves, and his friend Coles struggling to come to his
aid, but being forcibly withheld; and he had since learnt that Coles had
actually endeavoured to come from Plymouth to bear testimony to his
previous character, but had been refused leave, and told that he could do
no good.

There had been other instances of perception of a presence and of a
prescient foreboding.  ‘It is like a sixth sense,’ he said, ‘and a very
uncomfortable one.  I would give much to be rid of it, for it is
connected with all that is worst in my life.  I had it before Navarino,
when no one expected an engagement.  It made me believe I should be
killed, and drove me to what was much worse—or at least I used to think

‘Don’t you now?’ I asked.

‘No,’ said Clarence.  ‘It was a great mercy that I did not die then.
There’s something to conquer first.  But you’ll never speak of this, Ted.
I have left off telling of such things—it only gives another reason for
disbelieving me.’

However, this time his veracity was not called in question,—but he was
supposed to be under a hallucination, the creation of the noises acting
on his imagination and memory of the persecuted widow, which must have
been somewhere dormant in his mind, though he averred that he had never
heard of it.  It had now, however, made a strong impression on him; he
was convinced that some crime or injustice had been perpetrated, and
thought it ought to be investigated; but Griffith made us laugh at his
championship of this shadow of a shade, and even wrote some mock heroic
verses about it,—nor would it have been easy to stir my father to seek
for the motives of an apparition which no one in the family save Clarence
professed to have seen.

The noises were indisputable, but my mother began to suspect a cause for
them.  To oblige a former cook we had brought down with us as stable-boy
her son, George Sims, an imp accustomed to be the pet and jester of a
mews.  Martyn was only too fond of his company, and he made no secret of
his contempt for the insufferable dulness of the country, enlivening it
by various acts of monkey-mischief, in some of which Martyn had been
implicated.  That very afternoon, as Mrs. Sophia Selby was walking home
in the twilight from Chapman’s lodge, in company with Mr. Henderson, an
eldritch yell proceeding from the vaults beneath the mullion chambers
nearly frightened her into fits.  Henderson darted in and captured the
two boys in the fact.  Martyn’s asseveration that he had taken the pair
for Griff and Emily would have pacified the good-natured clergyman, but
Mrs. Sophia was too much agitated, or too spiteful, as we declared, not
to make a scene.

Martyn spent the evening alone and in disgrace, and only his
unimpeachable character for truth caused the acceptance of his
affirmation that the yell was an impromptu fraternal compliment, and that
he had nothing to do with the noises in the mullion chamber.  He had been
supposed to be perfectly unconscious of anything of the kind, and to have
never so much as heard of a phantom, so my mother was taken somewhat
aback when, in reply to her demand whether he had ever been so naughty as
to assist George in making a noise in Clarence’s room, he said, ‘Why,
that’s the ghost of the lady that was murdered atop of the steps, and
always walks every Christmas!’

‘Who told you such ridiculous nonsense?’

The answer ‘George’ was deemed conclusive that all had been got up by
that youth; and there was considerable evidence of his talent for
ventriloquism and taste for practical jokes.  My mother was certain that,
having heard of the popular superstition, he had acted ghost.  She
appealed to _Woodstock_ to prove the practicability of such feats; and
her absolute conviction persuaded the maids (who had given warning _en
masse_) that the enemy was exorcised when George Sims had been sent off
on the Royal Mail under Clarence’s guardianship.

None of the junior part of the family believed him guilty, but he had
hunted the cows round the paddock, mounted on my donkey, had nearly shot
the kitchen-maid with Griff’s gun, and, if not much maligned, knew the
way to the apple-chamber only too well,—so that he richly deserved his
doom, rejoiced in it himself, and was unregretted save by Martyn.
Clarence viewed him in the light of a victim, and tried to keep an eye on
him, but he developed his talent as a ventriloquist, made his fortune,
and retired on a public-house.

My mother would fain have had the vaults under the mullion rooms bricked
up, but Mr. Stafford cried out on the barbarism of such a proceeding.
The mystery was declared to be solved, and was added to Mr. Stafford’s
good stories of haunted houses.

And at home my father forbade any further mention of such rank folly and
deception.  The inner mullion chamber was turned into a lumber-room, and
as weeks passed by without hearing or seeing any more of lady or of lamp,
we began to credit the wonderful freaks of the goblin page.


    Soon as she parted thence—the fearful twayne,
    That blind old woman and her daughter deare,
    Came forth, and finding Kirkrapine there slayne,
    For anguish greate they gan to rend their heare
    And beate their breasts, and naked flesh to teare;
    And when they both had wept and wayled their fill,
    Then forth they ran, like two amazèd deere,
    Half mad through malice and revenging will,
    To follow her that was the causer of their ill.’—SPENSER.

THE Christmas vacation was not without another breeze about Griffith’s
expenses at Oxford.  He held his head high, and declared that people
expected something from the eldest son of a man of property, and my
father tried to convince him that a landed estate often left less cash
available than did the fixed salary of an office.  Griff treated all in
his light, good-humoured way, promised to be careful, and came to me to
commiserate the poor old gentleman’s ignorance of the ways of the new

There ensued some trying weeks of dark days, raw frost, and black east
wind, when the home party cast longing, lingering recollections back to
the social intercourse, lamp-lit streets, and ready interchange of books
and other amenities we had left behind us.  We were not accustomed to
have our nearest neighbours separated from us by two miles of dirty lane,
or road mended with excruciating stones, nor were they very congenial
when we did see them.  The Fordyce family might be interesting, but we
younger ones could not forget the slight to Clarence, and, besides, the
girls seemed to be entirely in the schoolroom, Mrs. Fordyce was delicate
and was shut up all the winter, and the only intercourse that took place
was when my father met the elder Mr. Fordyce at the magistrates’ bench;
also there was a conference about Amos Bell, who was preferred to the
post left vacant by George Sims, in right of his being our tenant, but
more civilised than Earlscombers, a widow’s son, and not sufficiently
recovered from his accident to be exposed to the severe tasks of a
ploughboy in the winter.

Mrs. Fordyce was the manager of a book-club, which circulated volumes
covered in white cartridge paper, with a printed list of the subscribers’
names.  Two volumes at a time might be kept for a month by each member in
rotation, novels were excluded, and the manager had a veto on all orders.
We found her more liberal than some of our other neighbours, who looked
on our wants and wishes with suspicion as savouring of London notions.
Happily we could read old books and standard books over again, and we
gloated over _Blackwood_ and the _Quarterly_, enjoying, too, every
out-of-door novelty of the coming spring, as each revealed itself.  Emily
will never forget her first primroses, nor I the first thrush in early

Blankets, broth, and what were uncomfortably termed broken victuals had
been given away during the winter, and a bewildering amount of begging
women and children used to ask interviews with ‘the Lady Winslow,’ with
stories that crumbled on investigation so as to make us recollect the
Rector’s character of Earlscombe.

However, Mr. Henderson came in the second week of Lent, and what our
steps towards improvement introduced would have seemed almost as shocking
to you youngsters, as what they displaced.  For instance, a plain crimson
cloth covered the altar, instead of the rags in the colours of the
Winslow livery, presented, according to the queer old register, by the
unfortunate Margaret.  There was talk of velvet and the gold monogram,
surrounded by rays, alternately straight and wavy, as in our London
church, but this was voted ‘unfit for a plain village church.’  Still,
the new hangings of pulpit, desk, and altar were all good in quality and
colour, and huge square cushions were provided as essential to each.
Moreover, the altar vessels were made somewhat more respectable,—all this
being at my father’s expense.

He also carried in the Vestry, though not without strong opposition from
a dissenting farmer, that new linen and a fresh surplice should be
provided by the parish, which surplice would have made at least six of
such as are at present worn.  The farmers were very jealous of the
interference of the Squire in the Vestry—‘what he had no call to,’ and of
church rates applied to any other object than the reward of birdslayers,
as thus, in the register—

Hairy Wills, 1 score sprows heds        2d.
Jems Brown, 1 poulcat                   6d.
Jarge Bell, 2 howls                     6d.

It was several years before this appropriation of the church rates could
be abolished.  The year 1830, with a brand new squire and parson, was too
ticklish a time for many innovations.

Hillside Church was the only one in the neighbourhood where Holy Week or
Ascension Day had been observed in the memory of man.  When we proposed
going to church on the latter day the gardener asked my mother ‘if it was
her will to keep Thursday holy,’ as if he expected its substitution for
Sunday.  Monthly Communions and Baptisms after the Second Lesson were
viewed as ‘not fit for a country church,’ and every attempt at even more
secular improvements was treated with the most disappointing distrust and
aversion.  When my father laid out the allotment grounds, the labourers
suspected some occult design for his own profit, and the farmers objected
that the gardens would be used as an excuse for neglecting their work and
stealing their potatoes.  Coal-club and clothing-club were regarded in
like manner, and while a few took advantage of these offers in a grudging
manner, the others viewed everything except absolute gifts as ‘me-an’ on
our part, the principle of aid to self-help being an absolute novelty.
When I look back to the notes in our journals of that date I see how much
has been overcome.

Perhaps we listened more than was strictly wise to the revelations of
Amos Bell, when he attended Emily and me on our expeditions with the
donkey.  Though living over the border of Hillside, he had a family of
relations at Earlscombe, and for a time lodged with his grandmother
there.  When his shyness and lumpishness gave way, he proved so bright
that Emily undertook to carry on his education.  He soon had a wonderful
eye for a wild flower, and would climb after it with the utmost agility;
and when once his tongue was loosed, he became almost too communicative,
and made us acquainted with the opinions of ‘they Earlscoom folk’ with a
freedom not to be found in an elder or a native.

Moreover, he was the brightest light of the Sunday school which Mr.
Henderson opened at once—for want of a more fitting place—in the disused
north transept of the church.  It was an uncouth, ill-clad crew which
assembled on those dilapidated paving tiles.  Their own grandchildren
look almost as far removed from them in dress and civilisation as did my
sister in her white worked cambric dress, silk scarf, huge Tuscan bonnet,
and the little curls beyond the lace quilling round her bright face, far
rosier than ever it had been in town.  And what would the present
generation say to the odd little contrivances in the way of cotton
sun-bonnets, check pinafores, list tippets, and print capes, and other
wonderful manufactures from the rag-bag, which were then grand prizes and

Previous knowledge or intelligence scarcely existed, and then was not due
to Dame Dearlove’s tuition.  Mr. Henderson pronounced an authorised
school a necessity.  My father had scruples as to vested rights, for the
old woman was the last survivor of a family who had had recourse to
primer and hornbook after their ejection on ‘black Bartholomew’s Day;’
and when the meeting-house was built after the Revolution, had combined
preaching with teaching.  Monopoly had promoted degeneracy, and this last
of the race was an unfavourable specimen in all save outward
picturesqueness.  However, much against Henderson’s liking, an
accommodation was proposed, by which books were to be supplied to her,
and the Church Catechism be taught in her school, with the assistance of
the curate and Miss Winslow.

The terms were rejected with scorn.  No School Board could be more
determined against the Catechism, nor against ‘passons meddling wi’ she;’
and as to assistance, ‘she had been a governess this thirty year, and
didn’t want no one trapesing in and out of her school.’

She was warned, but probably did not believe in the possibility of an
opposition school; and really there were children enough in the place to
overfill both her room and that which was fitted up after a very humble
fashion in one of our cottages.  H.M. Inspector would hardly have thought
it even worth condemnation any more than the attainments of the mistress,
the young widow of a small Bristol skipper.  Her qualifications consisted
in her piety and conscientiousness, good temper and excellent needlework,
together with her having been a scholar in one of Mrs. Hannah More’s
schools in the Cheddar district.  She could read and teach reading well;
but as for the dangerous accomplishments of writing and arithmetic, such
as desired to pass beyond the rudiments of them must go to Wattlesea.

So nice did she look in her black that Earlscombe voted her a mere town
lady, and even at a penny a week hesitated to send its children to her.
Indeed it was currently reported that her school was part of a deep and
nefarious scheme of the gentlefolks for reducing the poor-rates by
enticing the children, and then shipping them off to foreign parts from

But the great crisis was one unlucky summer evening when Emily and I were
out with the donkey, and Griffith, just come home from Oxford, was airing
the new acquisition of a handsome black retriever.

Close by the old chapel, a black cat was leisurely crossing the road.  At
her dashed Nero, stimulated perhaps by an almost involuntary
scss—scss—from his master, if not from Amos and me.  The cat flew up a
low wall, and stood at bay on the top on tiptoe, with bristling tail,
arched back, and fiery eyes, while the dog danced round in agony on his
hind legs, barking furiously, and almost reaching her.  Female sympathy
ever goes to the cat, and Emily screamed out in the fear that he would
seize her, or even that Griff might aid him.  Perhaps Amos would have
done so, if left to himself; but Griff, who saw the cat was safe, could
not help egging on his dog’s impotent rage, when in the midst, out flew
pussy’s mistress, Dame Dearlove herself, broomstick in hand, using
language as vituperative as the cat’s, and more intelligible.

She was about to strike the dog—indeed I fancy she did, for there was a
howl, and Griff sprang to his defence with—‘Don’t hurt my dog, I say!  He
hasn’t touched the brute!  She can take care of herself.  Here, there’s
half-a-crown for the fright,’ as the cat sprang down within the wall, and
Nero slunk behind him.  But Dame Dearlove was not so easily appeased.
Her blood was up after our long series of offences, and she broke into a
regular tirade of abuse.

‘That’s the way with you fine folk, thinking you can tread down poor
people like the dirt under your feet, and insult ’em when you’ve taken
the bread out of the mouths of them that were here before you.  Passons
and ladies a meddin’ where no one ever set a foot before!  Ay, ay, but
ye’ll all be down before long.’

Griff signed to us to go on, and thundered out on her to take care what
she was about and not be abusive; but this brought a fresh volley on him,
heralded by a derisive laugh.  ‘Ha! ha! fine talking for the likes of
you, Winslows that you are.  But there’s a curse on you all!  The poor
lady as was murdered won’t let you be!  Why, there’s one of you, poor
humpy object—’

At this savage attack on me, Griff waxed furious, and shouted at her to
hold her confounded tongue, but this only diverted the attack on himself.
‘And as for you—fine chap as ye think yourself, swaggering and swearing
at poor folk, and setting your dog at them—your time’s coming.  Look out
for yourself.  It’s well known as how the curse is on the first-born.
The Lady Margaret don’t let none of ’em live to come after his father.’

Griff laughed and said, ‘There, we have had enough of this;’ and in fact
we had already moved on, so that he had to make some long steps to
overtake us, muttering, ‘So we’ve started a Meg Merrilies!  My father
won’t keep such a foul-mouthed hag in the parish long!’

To which I had to respond that her cottage belonged to the trustees of
the chapel, whereat he whistled.  I don’t think he knew that we had heard
her final denunciation, and we did not like to mention it to him,
scarcely to each other, though Emily looked very white and scared.

We talked it over afterwards in private, and with Henderson, who
confessed that he had heard of the old woman’s saying something of the
kind to other persons.  We consulted the registers in hopes of confuting
it, but did not satisfy ourselves.  The last Squire had lost his only son
at school.  He himself had been originally second in the family, and in
the generation before him there had been some child-deaths, after which
we came back to a young man, apparently the eldest, who, according to
Miss Selby’s story, had been killed in a duel by one of the Fordyces.  It
was not comfortable, till I remembered that our family Bible recorded the
birth, baptism, and death of a son who had preceded Griffith, and only
borne for a day the name afterwards bestowed on me.

And Henderson, who was so little our elder as to discuss things on fairly
equal grounds, had some very interesting talks with us two over ancestral
sin and its possible effects, dwelling on the 18th of Ezekiel as a
comment on the Second Commandment.  Indeed, we agreed that the
uncomfortable state of disaffection which, in 1830, was becoming only too
manifest in the populace, was the result of neglect in former ages, and
that, even in our own parish, the bitterness, distrust, and ingratitude
were due to the careless, riotous, and oppressive family whom we


    ‘Ferments arise, imprisoned factions roar,
    Represt ambition struggles round the shore;
    Till, overwrought, the general system feels
    Its motion stop, or frenzy fire the wheels.’


GRIFFITH had come straight home this year.  There were no Peacock
gaieties to tempt him in London, for old Sir Henry had died suddenly soon
after the ball in December; nor was there much of a season that year,
owing to the illness and death of George IV.

A regiment containing two old schoolmates of his was at Bristol, and he
spent a good deal of time there, and also in Yeomanry drill.  As autumn
came on we rejoiced in having so stalwart a protector, for the
agricultural riots had begun, and the forebodings of another French
Revolution seemed about to be realised.  We stayed on at Chantry House.
My father thought his duty lay there as a magistrate, and my mother would
not leave him; nor indeed was any other place much safer, certainly not
London, whence Clarence wrote accounts of formidable mobs who were
expected to do more harm than they accomplished; though their hatred of
the hero of our country filled us with direful prognostications, and made
us think of the guillotine, which was linked with revolution in our
minds, before we had I beheld the numerous changes that followed upon the
thirty years of peace in which we grew up.

The ladies did not much like losing so stalwart a defender when Griff
returned to Oxford; and Jane the housemaid went to bed every night with
the pepper-pot and a poker, the first wherewith to blind the enemy, the
second to charge them with.  From our height we could more than once see
blazing ricks, and were glad that the home farm was not in our own hands,
and that our only stack of hay was a good way from the house.  When the
onset came at last, it was December, and the enemy only consisted of
about thirty dreary-looking men and boys in smock-frocks and chalked or
smutted faces, armed only with sticks and an old gun diverted from its
purpose of bird-scaring.  They shouted for food, money, and arms; but my
father spoke to them from the hall steps, told them they had better go
home and learn that the public-house was a worse enemy to them than any
machine that had ever been invented, and assured them that they would get
no help from him in breaking the laws and getting themselves into
trouble.  A stone or two was picked up, whereupon he went back and had
the hall door shut and barred, the heavy shutters of the windows having
all been closed already, so that we could have stood a much more severe
siege than from these poor fellows.  One or two windows were broken, as
well as the glass of the conservatory, and the flower beds were trampled;
but finding our fortress impregnable they sneaked away before dark.  We
fared better than our neighbours, some of whom were seriously frightened,
and suffered loss of property.  Old Mr. Fordyce had for many years past
been an active magistrate—that a clergyman should be on the bench having
been quite correct according to the notions of his younger days; and in
spite of his beneficence he incurred a good deal of unpopularity for
withstanding the lax good-nature which made his brother magistrates give
orders for parish relief refused to able-bodied paupers by their own
Vestries.  This was a mischievous abuse of the old poor-law times, which
made people dispose of every one’s money save their own.  He had also
been a keen sportsman; and though his son had given up field sports in
deference to higher notions of clerical duty (his wife’s, as people
said), the old man’s feeling prompted him to severity on poachers.  Frank
Fordyce, while by far the most earnest, hardworking clergyman in the
neighbourhood, worked off his superfluous energy on scientific farming,
making the glebe and the hereditary estate as much the model farm as
Hillside was the model parish.  He had lately set up a threshing-machine
worked by horses, which was as much admired by the intelligent as it was
vituperated by the ignorant.

Neither paupers nor poachers abounded in Hillside; the natives were
chiefly tenants and employed on the property, and, between good
management and beneficence, there was little real want and much friendly
confidence and affection; and thus, in spite of surrounding riots,
Hillside seemed likely to be an exception, proving what could he done by
rightful care and attention.  Nor indeed did the attack come from thence;
but the two parsons were bitterly hated by outsiders beyond the reach of
their personal influence and benevolence.

It was on a Saturday evening, the day after Griff had come back for the
Christmas vacation, that, as Emily was giving Amos his lesson, she saw
that the boy was crying, and after examination he let out that ‘folk
should say that the lads were agoing to break Parson Fordy’s machine and
fire his ricks that very night;’ but he would not give his authority, and
when he saw her about to give warning, entreated, ‘Now, dont’ze say
nothing, Miss Emily—’

‘What?’ she cried indignantly; ‘do you think I could hear of such a thing
without trying to stop it?’

‘Us says,’ he blurted out, ‘as how Winslows be always fain of ought as
happens to the Fordys—’

‘We are not such wicked Winslows as you have heard of,’ returned Emily
with dignity; and she rushed off in quest of papa and Griff, but when she
brought them to the bookroom, Amos had decamped, and was nowhere to be
found that night.  We afterwards learnt that he lay hidden in the
hay-loft, not daring to return to his granny’s, lest he should be
suspected of being a traitor to his kind; for our lawless, untamed,
discontented parish furnished a large quota to the rioters, and he has
since told me that though all seemed to know what was about to be done,
he did not hear it from any one in particular.

It was no time to make light of a warning, but very difficult to know
what to do.  Rural police were non-existent; there were no soldiers
nearer than Keynsham, and the Yeomanry were all in their own homesteads.
However, the captain of Griff’s troop, Sir George Eastwood, lived about
three miles beyond Wattlesea, and had a good many dependants in the
corps, so it was resolved to send him a note by the gardener, good James
Ellis, a steady, resolute man, on Emily’s fast-trotting pony, while my
father and Griff should hasten to Hillside to warn the Fordyces, who were
not unlikely to be able to muster trustworthy defenders among their own
people, and might send the ladies to take shelter at Chantry House.

My mother’s brave spirit disdained to detain an effective man for her own
protection, and the groom was to go to Hillside; he was in the Yeomanry,
and, like Griff, put on his uniform, while my father had the Riot Act in
his pocket.  All the horses were thus absorbed, but Chapman and the
man-servant followed on foot.

Never did I feel my incapacity more than on that strange night, when
Emily was flying about with Martyn to all the doors and windows in a wild
state of excitement, humming to herself—

    ‘When the dawn on the mountain was misty and gray,
    My true love has mounted his steed and away.’

My mother was equally restless, prolonging as much as possible the
preparation of rooms for possible guests; and when she did come and sit
down, she netted her purse with vehement jerks, and scolded Emily for
jumping up and leaving doors open.

At last, after an hour according to the clock, but far more by our
feelings, wheels were heard in the distance; Emily was off like a shot to
reconnoitre, and presently Martyn bounced in with the tidings that a pair
of carriage lamps were coming up the drive.  My mother hurried out into
the hall; I made my best speed after her, and found her hastily undoing
the door-chain as she recognised the measured, courteous voice of old Mr.
Fordyce.  In a moment more they were all in the house, the old gentleman
giving his arm to his daughter-in-law, who was quite overcome with
distress and alarm; then came his tall, slim granddaughter, carrying her
little sister with arms full of dolls, and sundry maid-servants completed
the party of fugitives.

‘We are taking advantage of Mr. Winslow’s goodness,’ said the old Rector.
‘He assured us that you would be kind enough to receive those who would
only be an encumbrance.’

‘Oh, but I must go back to Frank now that you and the children are safe,’
cried the poor lady.  ‘Don’t send away the carriage; I must go back to

‘Nonsense, my dear,’ returned Mr. Fordyce, ‘Frank is in no danger.  He
will get on much better for knowing you are safe.  Mrs. Winslow will tell
you so.’

My mother was enforcing this assurance, when the little girl’s sobs burst
out in spite of her sister, who had been trying to console her.  ‘It is
Celestina Mary,’ she cried, pointing to three dolls whom she had carried
in clasped to her breast.  ‘Poor Celestina Mary!  She is left behind, and
Ellen won’t let me go and see if she is in the carriage.’

‘My dear, if she is in the carriage, she will be quite safe in the

‘Oh, but she will be so cold.  She had nothing on but Rosella’s old

The distress was so real that I had my hand on the bell to cause a search
to be instituted for the missing damsel, when Mrs. Fordyce begged me to
do no such thing, as it was only a doll.  The child, while endeavouring
to shelter with a shawl the dolls, snatched in their night-gear from
their beds, wept so piteously at the rebuff that her grandfather had
nearly gone in quest of the lost one, but was stopped by a special
entreaty that he would not spoil the child.  Martyn, however, who had
been standing in open-mouthed wonder at such feeling for a doll,
exclaimed, ‘Don’t cry, don’t cry.  I’ll go and get it for you;’ and
rushed off to the stable-yard.

This episode had restored Mrs. Fordyce, and while providing some of our
guests with wine, and others with tea, we heard the story, only
interrupted by Martyn’s return from a vain search, and Anne’s consequent
tears, which, however, were somehow hushed and smothered by fears of
being sent to bed, coupled with his promises to search every step of the
way to-morrow.

It appeared that while the Fordyce family were at dinner, shouts, howls
and yells had startled them.  The rabble had surrounded the Rectory,
bawling out abuse of the parsons and their machines, and occasionally
throwing stones.  There was no help to be expected; the only hope was in
the strength of the doors and windows, and the knowledge that personal
violence was very uncommon; but those were terrible moments, and poor
Mrs. Fordyce was nearly dead with suppressed terror when her husband
tried haranguing from an upper window, and was received with execrations
and a volley of stones, while the glass crashed round him.

At that instant the shouts turned to yells of dismay, ‘The so’diers! the

Our party had found everything still and dark in the village, for in
truth the men had hidden themselves.  They were being too much attached
to their masters to join in the attack, but were afraid of being
compelled to assist the rioters, and not resolute enough against their
own class either to inform against them or oppose them.

Through the midnight-like stillness of the street rose the tumult around
the Rectory; and by the light of a few lanterns, and from the upper
windows, they could see a mass of old hats, smock-frocked shoulders, and
the tops of bludgeons; while at soonest, Sir George Eastwood’s troop
could not be expected for an hour or more.

‘We must get to them somehow,’ said my father and Griff to one another;
and Griff added, ‘These rascals are arrant cowards, and they can’t see
the number of us.’

Then, before my father knew what he was about—certainly before he could
get hold of the Riot Act—he found the stable lantern made over to him,
and Griff’s sword flashing in light, as, making all possible clatter and
jingling with their accoutrements, the two yeomen dashed among the
throng, shouting with all their might, and striking with the flat of
their swords.  The rioters, ill-fed, dull-hearted men for the most
part—many dragged out by compulsion, and already terrified—went tumbling
over one another and running off headlong, bearing off with them (as we
afterwards learnt) their leaders by their weight, taking the blows and
pushes they gave one another in their pell-mell rush for those of the
soldiery, and falling blindly against the low wall of the enclosure.  The
only difficulty was in clearing them out at the two gates of the drive.

When Mr. Fordyce opened the door to hail his rescuers he was utterly
amazed to behold only three, and asked in a bewildered voice, ‘Where are
the others?’

There were two prisoners, Petty the ratcatcher, who had attempted some
resistance and had been knocked down by Griff’s horse, and a young lad in
a smock-frock who had fallen off the wall and hurt his knee, and who
blubbered piteously, declaring that them chaps had forced him to go with
them, or they would duck him in the horse-pond.  They were supposed to be
given in charge to some one, but were lost sight of, and no wonder!  For
just then it was discovered that the machine shed was on fire.  The
rioters had apparently detached one of their number to kindle the flame
before assaulting the house.  The matter was specially serious, because
the stackyard was on a line with the Rectory, at some distance indeed,
but on lower ground; and what with barns, hay and wheat ricks, sheds,
cowhouses and stables, all thatched, a big wood-pile, and a long
old-fashioned greenhouse, there was almost continuous communication.
Clouds of smoke and an ominous smell were already perceptible on the
wind, generated by the heat, and the loose straw in the centre of the
farmyard was beginning to be ignited by the flakes and sparks, carrying
the mischief everywhere, and rendering it exceedingly difficult to
release the animals and drive them to a place of safety.  Water was
scarce.  There were only two wells, besides the pump in the house, and a
shallow pond.  The brook was a quarter of a mile off in the valley, and
the nearest engine, a poor feeble thing, at Wattlesea.  Moreover, the
assailants might discover how small was the force of rescuers, and return
to the attack.  Thus, while Griff, who had given amateur assistance at
all the fires he could reach in London; was striving to organise
resistance to this new enemy, my father induced the gentlemen to cause
the horses to be put to the various vehicles, and employ them in carrying
the women and children to Chantry House.  The old Rector was persuaded to
go to take care of his daughter-in-law, and she only thought of putting
her girls in safety.  She listened to reason, and indeed was too much
exhausted to move when once she was laid on the sofa.  She would not hear
of going to bed, though her little daughter Anne was sent off with her
nurse, grandpapa persuading her that Rosella and the others were very
much tired.  When she was gone, he declared his fears that he had sat
down on Celestina’s head, and showed so much compunction that we were
much amused at his relief when Martyn assured him of having searched the
carriage with a stable lantern, so that whatever had befallen the lady he
was not the guilty person.  He really seemed more concerned about this
than at the loss of all his own barns and stores.  And little Anne was
certainly as lovely and engaging a little creature as ever I saw; while,
as to her elder sister, in all the trouble and anxiety of the night, I
could not help enjoying the sight of her beautiful eager face and form.
She was tall and very slight, sylph-like, as it was the fashion to call
it, but every limb was instinct with grace and animation.  Her face was,
perhaps, rather too thin for robust health, though this enhanced the idea
of her being all spirit, as also did the transparency of complexion,
tinted with an exquisite varying carnation.  Her eyes were of a clear,
bright, rather light brown, and were sparkling with the lustre of
excitement, her delicate lips parted, showing the pretty pearly teeth, as
she was telling Emily, in a low voice of enthusiasm, scarcely designed
for my ears, how glorious a sight our brother had been, riding there in
his glancing silver, bearing down all before him with his good sword,
like the Captal de Buch dispersing the Jacquerie.

To which Emily responded, ‘Oh, don’t you love the Captal de Buch?’  And
their friendship was cemented.

Next I heard, ‘And that you should have been so good after all my
rudeness.  But I thought you were like the old Winslows; and instead of
that you have come to the rescue of your enemies.  Isn’t it beautiful?’

‘Oh no, not enemies,’ said Emily.  ‘That was all over a hundred years

‘So my papa and grandpapa say,’ returned Miss Fordyce; ‘but the last Mr.
Winslow was not a very nice man, and never would be civil to us.’

A report was brought that the glare of the fire could be seen over the
hill from the top of the house, and off went the two young ladies to the
leads, after satisfying themselves that Anne was asleep among her
homeless dolls.

Old Mr. Fordyce devoted himself to keeping up the spirits of his
daughter-in-law as the night advanced without any tidings, except that
the girls, from time to time, rushed down to tell us of fresh outbursts
of red flame reflected in the sky, then that the glow was diminishing; by
which time they were tired out, and, both sinking into a big armchair,
they went to sleep in each other’s arms.  Indeed I believe we all dozed
more or less before any one returned from the scene of action—at about
three o’clock.

The struggle with the flames had been very unequal.  The long tongues
soon reached the roof of the large barn, which was filled with straw, nor
could the flakes of burning thatch be kept from the stable, while the
water of the pond was soon reduced to mud.  Helpers began to flock in,
but who could tell which were trustworthy? and all were uncomprehending.

There was so little hope of saving the house that the removal of
everything valuable was begun under my father’s superintendence.  Frank
Fordyce was here, there, and everywhere; while Griffith, like a gallant
general, fought the foe with very helpless unmanageable forces.
Villagers, male and female, had emerged and stood gaping round; but, let
him rage and storm as he might, they would not go and collect pails and
buckets and form a line to the brook.  Still less would they assist in
overthrowing and carrying away the faggots of a big wood-pile so as to
cut off the communication with the offices.  Only Chapman and one other
man gave any help in this; and presently the stack caught, and Griff, on
the top, was in great peril of the faggots rolling down with him into the
middle, and imprisoning him in the blazing pile.  ‘I never felt so like
Dido,’ said Griff.

That woodstack gave fearful aliment to the roaring flame, which came on
so fast that the destruction of the adjoining buildings quickly followed.
The Wattlesea engine had come, but the yard well was unattainable, and
all that could be done was to saturate the house with water from its own
well, and cover the side with wet blankets; but these reeked with steam,
and then shrivelled away in the intense glow of heat.

However, by this time the Eastwood Yeomanry, together with some
reasonable men, had arrived.  A raid was made on the cottages for
buckets, a chain formed to the river, and at last the fire was got under,
having made a wreck of everything out-of-doors, and consumed one whole
wing of the house, though the older and more esteemed portion was saved.


    ‘When day was gone and night was come,
       And all men fast asleep,
    There came the spirit of fair Marg’ret
       And stood at William’s feet.’

                                                          _Scotch Ballad_.

WHEN I emerged from my room the next morning the phaeton was at the door
to take the two clergymen to reconnoitre their abode before going to
church.  Miss Fordyce went with them, and my father was for once about to
leave his parish church to give them his sympathy, and join in their
thanksgiving that neither life nor limb had been injured.  He afterwards
said that nothing could have been more touching than old Mr. Fordyce’s
manner of mentioning this special cause for gratitude before the General
Thanksgiving; and Frank Fordyce, having had all his sermons burnt, gave a
short address extempore (a very rare and almost shocking thing at that
date), reducing half the congregation to tears, for they really loved
‘the fam’ly,’ though they had not spirit enough to defend it; and their
passiveness always remained a subject of pride and pleasure to the
Fordyces.  It was against the will of these good people that Petty, the
ratcatcher, was arrested, but he had been engaged in other outrages,
though this was the only one in which a dwelling-house had suffered.  And
Chapman observed that ‘there was nothing to be done with such chaps but
to string ’em up out of the way.’

Griff had toiled that night till he was as stiff as a rheumatic old man
when he came down only just in time for luncheon.  Mrs. Fordyce did not
appear at all.  She was a fragile creature, and quite knocked up by the
agitations of the night.  The gentlemen had visited the desolate rectory,
and found that though the fine ancient kitchen had escaped, the pleasant
living rooms had been injured by the water, and the place could hardly be
made habitable before the spring.  They proposed to take a house in Bath,
whence Frank Fordyce could go and come for Sunday duty and general
superintendence, but my parents were urgent that they should not leave us
until after Christmas, and they consented.  Their larger possessions were
to be stored in the outhouses, their lesser in our house, notably in the
inner mullion chamber, which would thus be so blocked that there would be
no question of sleeping in it.

Old Mr. Fordyce had ascertained that he might acquit himself of smashing
Celestina Mary, for no remains appeared in the carriage; but a miserable
trunk was discovered in the ruins, which he identified—though surely no
one else save the disconsolate parent could have done so.  Poor little
Anne’s private possessions had suffered most severely of all, for her
whole nursery establishment had vanished.  Her surviving dolls were left
homeless, and devoid of all save their night-clothing, which concerned
her much more than the loss of almost all her own garments.  For what
dolls were to her could never have been guessed by us, who had forced
Emily to disdain them; whereas they were children to the maternal heart
of this lonely child.

She was quite a new revelation to us.  All the Fordyces were handsome;
and her chestnut curls and splendid eyes, her pretty colour and
unconscious grace, were very charming.  Emily was so near our own age
that we had never known the winsomeness of a little maid-child amongst
us, and she was a perpetual wonder and delight to us.

Indeed, from having always lived with her elders, she was an odd little
old-fashioned person, advanced in some ways, and comically simple in
others.  Her doll-heart was kept in abeyance all Sunday, and it was only
on Monday that her anxiety for Celestina manifested itself with
considerable vehemence; but her grandfather gravely informed her that the
young lady was gone to an excellent doctor, who would soon effect a cure.
The which was quite true, for he had sent her to a toy-shop by one of the
maids who had gone to restore the ravage on the wardrobes, and who
brought her back with a new head and arms, her identity apparently not
being thus interfered with.  The hoards of scraps were put under
requisition to re-clothe the survivors; and I won my first step in Miss
Anne’s good graces by undertaking a knitted suit for Rosella.

The good little girl had evidently been schooled to repress her dread and
repugnance at my unlucky appearance, and was painfully polite, only
shutting her eyes when she came to shake hands with me; but after Rosella
condescended to adopt me, we became excellent friends.  Indeed the
following conversation was overheard by Emily, and set down:

‘Do you know, Martyn, there’s a fairies’ ring on Hillside Down?’

‘Mushrooms,’ quoth Martyn.

‘Yes, don’t you know?  They are the fairies’ tables.  They come out and
spread them with lily tablecloths at night, and have acorn cups for
dishes, with honey in them.  And they dance and play there.  Well,
couldn’t Mr. Edward go and sit under the beech-tree at the edge till they

‘I don’t think he would like it at all,’ said Martyn.  ‘He never goes out
at odd times.’

‘Oh, but don’t you know? when they come they begin to sing—

    ‘“Sunday and Monday,
    Monday and Tuesday.”

And if he was to sing nicely,

    ‘“Wednesday and Thursday,”

they would be so much pleased that they would make his back straight
again in a moment.  At least, perhaps Wednesday and Thursday would not
do, because the little tailor taught them those; but Friday makes them
angry.  But suppose he made some nice verse—

    ‘“Monday and Tuesday
    The fairies are gay,
    Tuesday and Wednesday
    They dance away—”

I think that would do as well, perhaps.  Do get him to do so, Martyn.  It
would be so nice if he was tall and straight.’

Dear little thing!  Martyn, who was as much her slave as was her
grandfather, absolutely made her shed tears over his history of our
accident, and then caressed them off; but I believe he persuaded her that
such a case might be beyond the fairies’ reach, and that I could hardly
get to the spot in secret, which, it seems, is an essential point.  He
had imagination enough to be almost persuaded of fairyland by her
earnestness, and she certainly took him into doll-land.  He had a turn
for carpentry and contrivance, and he undertook that the Ladies Rosella,
etc., should be better housed than ever.  A great packing-case was routed
out, and much ingenuity was expended, much delight obtained, in the
process of converting it into a doll’s mansion, and replenishing it with
furniture.  Some was bought, but Martyn aspired to make whatever he
could; I did a good deal, and I believe most of our achievements are
still extant.  Whatever we could not manage, Clarence was to accomplish
when he should come home.

His arrival was, as usual, late in the evening; and, as before, he had
the little room within mine.  In the morning, as we were crossing the
hall to the bright wood fire, around which the family were wont to
assemble before prayers, he came to a pause, asking under his breath,
‘What’s that?  Who’s that?’

‘It is one of the Hillside pictures.  You know we have a great many
things here from thence.’

‘It is _she_,’ he said, in a low, awe-stricken voice.  No need to say who
_she_ meant.

I had not paid much attention to the picture.  It had come with several
more, such as are rife in country houses, and was one of the worst of the
lot, a poor imitation of Lely’s style, with a certain air common to all
the family; but Clarence’s eyes were riveted on it.  ‘She looks younger,’
he said; ‘but it is the same.  I could swear to the lip and the whole
shape of the brow and chin.  No—the dress is different.’

For in the portrait, there was nothing on the head, and one long lock of
hair fell on the shoulder of the low-cut white-satin dress, done in very
heavy gray shading.  The three girls came down together, and I asked who
the lady was.

‘Don’t you know?  You ought; for that is poor Margaret who married your

No more was said then, for the rest of the world was collecting, and then
everybody went out their several ways.  Some tin tacks were wanted for
the dolls’ house, and there were reports that Wattlesea possessed a
doll’s grate and fire-irons.  The children were wild to go in quest of
them, but they were not allowed to go alone, and it was pronounced too
far and too damp for the elder sister, so that they would have been
disappointed, if Clarence—stimulated by Martyn’s kicks under the
table—had not offered to be their escort.  When Mrs. Fordyce demurred, my
mother replied, ‘You may perfectly trust her with Clarence.’

‘Yes; I don’t know a safer squire,’ rejoined my father.

Commendation was so rare that Clarence quite blushed with pleasure; and
the pretty little thing was given into his charge, prancing and dancing
with pleasure, and expecting much more from sixpence and from Wattlesea
than was likely to be fulfilled.

      [Picture: ‘That is poor Margaret who married your ancestor.’]

Griff went out shooting, and the two young ladies and I intended to spend
a very rational morning in the bookroom, reading aloud Mme. de La
Rochejaquelein’s _Memoirs_ by turns.  Our occupations were, on Emily’s
part, completing a reticule, in a mosaic of shaded coloured beads no
bigger than pins’ heads, for a Christmas gift to mamma—a most wearisome
business, of which she had grown extremely tired.  Miss Fordyce was
elaborately copying our Müller’s print of Raffaelle’s St. John in pencil
on cardboard, so as to be as near as possible a facsimile; and she had
trusted me to make a finished water-coloured drawing from a rough sketch
of hers of the Hillside barn and farm-buildings, now no more.

In a pause Ellen Fordyce suddenly asked, ‘What did you mean about that

‘Only Clarence said it was like—’ and here Emily came to a dead stop.

‘Grandpapa says it is like me,’ said Miss Fordyce.  ‘What, you don’t mean
_that_?  Oh! oh! oh! is it true?  Does she walk?  Have you seen her?
Mamma calls it all nonsense, and would not have Anne hear of it for
anything; but old Aunt Peggy used to tell me, and I am sure grandpapa
believes it, just a little.  Have you seen her?’

‘Only Clarence has, and he knew the picture directly.’

She was much impressed, and on slight persuasion related the story, which
she had heard from an elder sister of her grandfather’s, and which had
perhaps been the more impressed on her by her mother’s consternation at
‘such folly’ having been communicated to her.  Aunt Peggy, who was much
older than her brother, had died only four years ago, at eighty-eight,
having kept her faculties to the last, and handed down many traditions to
her great-niece.  The old lady’s father had been contemporary with the
Margaret of ghostly fame, so that the stages had been few through which
it had come down from 1708 to 1830.

I wrote it down at once, as it here stands.

Margaret was the only daughter of the elder branch of the Fordyces.  Her
father had intended her to marry her cousin, the male heir on whom the
Hillside estates and the advowson of that living were entailed; but
before the contract had been formally made, the father was killed by
accident, and through some folly and ambition of her mother’s (such
seemed to be the Fordyce belief), the poor heiress was married to Sir
James Winslow, one of the successful intriguers of the days of the later
Stewarts, and with a family nearly as old, if not older, than herself.
Her own children died almost at their birth, and she was left a young
widow.  Being meek and gentle, her step-sons and daughters still ruled
over Chantry House.  They prevented her Hillside relations from having
access to her whilst in a languishing state of health, and when she died
unexpectedly, she was found to have bequeathed all her property to her
step-son, Philip Winslow, instead of to her blood relations, the

This was certain, but the Fordyce tradition was that she had been kept
shut up in the mullion chambers, where she had often been heard weeping
bitterly.  One night in the winter, when the gentlemen of the family had
gone out to a Christmas carousal, she had endeavoured to escape by the
steps leading to the garden from the door now bricked up, but had been
met by them and dragged back with violence, of which she died in the
course of a few days; and, what was very suspicious, she had been
entirely attended by her step-daughter and an old nurse, who never would
let her own woman come near her.

The Fordyces had thought of a prosecution, but the Winslows had powerful
interest at Court in those corrupt times, and contrived to hush up the
matter, as well as to win the suit in which the Fordyces attempted to
prove that there was no right to will the property away.  Bitter enmity
remained between the families; they were always opposed in politics, and
their animosity was fed by the belief which arose that at the
anniversaries of her death the poor lady haunted the rooms, lamp in hand,
wailing and lamenting.  A duel had been fought on the subject between the
heirs of the two families, resulting in the death of the young Winslow.

‘And now,’ cried Ellen Fordyce, ‘the feud is so beautifully ended; the
doom must be appeased, now that the head of one hostile line has come to
the rescue of the other, and saved all our lives.’

My suggestion that these would hardly have been destroyed, even without
our interposition, fell very flat, for romance must have its swing.
Ellen told us how, on the news of our kinsman’s death and our
inheritance, the ancestral story had been discussed, and her grandfather
had said he believed there were letters about it in the iron deed-box,
and how he hoped to be on better terms with the new heir.

The ghost story had always been hushed up in the family, especially since
the duel, and we all knew the resemblance of the picture would be scouted
by our elders; but perhaps this gave us the more pleasure in dwelling
upon it, while we agreed that poor Margaret ought to be appeased by
Griffith’s prowess on behalf of the Fordyces.

The two young ladies went off to inspect the mullion chamber, which they
found so crammed with Hillside furniture that they could scarcely enter,
and returned disappointed, except for having inspected and admired all
Griff’s weapons, especially what Miss Fordyce called the sword of her

She had been learning German—rather an unusual study in those days, and
she narrated to us most effectively the story of _Die Weisse Frau_,
working herself up to such a pitch that she would have actually
volunteered to spend a night in the room, to see whether Margaret would
hold any communication with a descendant, after the example of the White
Woman and Lady Bertha, if there had been either fire or accommodation,
and if the only entrance had not been through Griff’s private


    ‘The white doe’s milk is not out of his mouth.’


CLARENCE had come home free from all blots.  His summer holiday had been
prevented by the illness of one of the other clerks, whose place, Mr.
Castleford wrote, he had so well supplied that ere long he would be sure
to earn his promotion.  That kind friend had several times taken him to
spend a Sunday in the country, and, as we afterwards had reason to think,
would have taken more notice of him but for the rooted belief of Mr.
Frith that it was a case of favouritism, and that piety and strictness
were assumed to throw dust in the eyes of his patron.

Such distrust had tended to render Clarence more reserved than ever, and
it was quite by the accident of finding him studying one of Mrs.
Trimmer’s Manuals that I discovered that, at the request of his good
Rector, he had become a Sunday-school teacher, and was as much interested
as the enthusiastic girls; but I was immediately forbidden to utter a
word on the subject, even to Emily, lest she should tell any one.

Such reserve was no doubt an outcome of his natural timidity.  He had to
bear a certain amount of scorn and derision among some of his
fellow-clerks for the stricter habits and observances that could not be
concealed, and he dreaded any fresh revelation of them, partly because of
the cruel imputation of hypocrisy, partly because he feared the bringing
a scandal on religion by his weakness and failures.

Nor did our lady visitors’ ways reassure him, though they meant to be
kind.  They could not help being formal and stiff, not as they were with
Griff and me.  The two gentlemen were thoroughly friendly and hearty;
Parson Frank could hardly have helped being so towards any one in the
same house with himself; and as to little Anne, she found in the
new-comer a carpenter and upholsterer superior even to Martyn; but her
candour revealed a great deal which I overheard one afternoon, when the
two children were sitting together on the hearth-rug in the bookroom in
the twilight.

‘I want to see Mr. Clarence’s white feather,’ observed Anne.

‘Griff has a white plume in his Yeomanry helmet,’ replied Martyn;
‘Clarence hasn’t one.’

‘Oh, I saw Mr. Griffith’s!’ she answered; ‘but Cousin Horace said Mr.
Clarence showed the white feather.’

‘Cousin Horace is an ape!’ cried Martyn.

‘I don’t think he is so nice as an ape,’ said Anne.  ‘He is more like a
monkey.  He tries the dolls by court-martial, and he shot Arabella with a
pea-shooter, and broke her eye; only grandpapa made him have it put in
again with his own money, and then he said I was a little sneak, and if I
ever did it again he would shoot me.’

‘Mind you don’t tell Clarence what he said,’ said Martyn.

‘Oh, no!  I think Mr. Clarence very nice indeed; but Horace did tease so
about that day when he carried poor Amos Bell home.  He said Ellen had
gone and made friends with the worst of all the wicked Winslows, who had
shown the white feather and disgraced his flag.  No; I know you are not
wicked.  And Mr. Griff came all glittering, like Richard Cœur de Lion,
and saved us all that night.  But Ellen cried to think what she had done,
and mamma said it showed what it was to speak to a strange young man; and
she has never let Ellen and me go out of the grounds by ourselves since
that day.’

‘It is a horrid shame,’ exclaimed Martyn, ‘that a fellow can’t get into a
scrape without its being for ever cast up to him.’

‘_I_ like him,’ said Anne.  ‘He gave Mary Bell a nice pair of boots, and
he made a new pair of legs for poor old Arabella, and she can really sit
down!  Oh, he is _very_ nice; but’—in an awful whisper—‘does he tell
stories?  I mean fibs—falsehoods.’

‘Who told you that?’ exclaimed Martyn.

‘Mamma said it.  Ellen was telling them something about the picture of
the white-satin lady, and mamma said, “Oh, if it is only that young man,
no doubt it is a mere mystification;” and papa said, “Poor young fellow,
he seems very amiable and well disposed;” and mamma said, “If he can
invent such a story it shows that Horace was right, and he is not to be
believed.”  Then they stopped, but I asked Ellen who it was, and she said
it was Mr. Clarence, and it was a sad thing for Emily and all of you to
have such a brother.’

Martyn began to stammer with indignation, and I thought it time to
interfere; so I called the little maid, and gravely explained the facts,
adding that poor Clarence’s punishment had been terrible, but that he was
doing his best to make up for what was past; and that, as to anything he
might have told, though he might be mistaken, he never said anything
_now_ but what he believed to be true.  She raised her brown eyes to mine
full of gravity, and said, ‘I _do_ like him.’  Moreover, I privately made
Martyn understand that if he told her what had been said about the
white-satin lady, he would never be forgiven; the others would be sure to
find it out, and it might shorten their stay.

That was a dreadful idea, for the presence of those two creatures, to say
nothing of their parents, was an unspeakable charm and novelty to us all.
We all worshipped the elder, and the little one was like a new discovery
and toy to us, who had never been used to such a presence.  She was not a
commonplace child; but even if she had been, she would have been as
charming a study as a kitten; and she had all the four of us at her feet,
though her mother was constantly protesting against our spoiling her, and
really kept up so much wholesome discipline that the little maid never
exceeded the bounds of being charming to us.  After that explanation
there was the same sweet wistful gentleness in her manner towards
Clarence as she showed to me; while he, who never dreamt of such a child
knowing his history was brighter and freer with her than with any one
else, played with her and Martyn, and could be heard laughing merrily
with them.  Perhaps her mother and sister did not fully like this, but
they could not interfere before our faces.  And Parson Frank was really
kind to him; took him out walking when going to Hillside, and talked to
him so as to draw him out; certifying, perhaps, that he would do no harm,
although, indeed, the family looked on dear good Frank as a sort of boy,
too kind-hearted and genial for his approval to be worth as much as that
of the more severe.

These were our only Christmas visitors, for the state of the country did
not invite Londoners; but we did not want them.  The suppression of
Clarence was the only flaw in a singularly happy time; and, after all I
believe I felt the pity of it more than he did, who expected nothing, and
was accustomed to being in the background.

For instance, one afternoon in the course of one of the grave discussions
that used to grow up between Miss Fordyce, Emily, and me, over subjects
trite to the better-instructed younger generation, we got quite out of
our shallow depths.  I think it was on the meaning of the ‘Communion of
Saints,’ for the two girls were both reading in preparation for a
Confirmation at Bristol, and Miss Fordyce knew more than we did on these
subjects.  All the time Clarence had sat in the window, carving a bit of
doll’s furniture, and quite forgotten; but at night he showed me the
exposition copied from _Pearson on the Creed_, a bit of Hooker, and
extracts from one or two sermons.  I found these were notes written out
in a blank book, which he had had in hand ever since his Confirmation—his
logbook as he called it; but he would not hear of their being mentioned
even to Emily, and only consented to hunt up the books on condition I
would not bring him forward as the finder.  It was of no use to urge that
it was a deprivation to us all that he should not aid us with his more
thorough knowledge and deeper thought.  ‘He could not do so,’ he said, in
a quiet decisive manner; ‘it was enough for him to watch and listen to
Miss Fordyce, when she could forget his presence.’

She often did forget it in her eagerness.  She was by nature one of the
most ardent beings that I ever saw, yet with enthusiasm kept in check by
the self-control inculcated as a primary duty.  It would kindle in those
wonderful light brown eyes, glow in the clear delicate cheek, quiver in
the voice even when the words were only half adequate to the feeling.
She was not what is now called gushing.  Oh, no! not in the least!  She
was too reticent and had too much dignity for anything of the kind.
Emily had always been reckoned as our romantic young lady, and teased
accordingly, but her enthusiasm beside Ellen’s was

    ‘As moonlight is to sunlight, as water is to wine,’—

a mere reflection of the tone of the period, compared with a real element
in the character.  At least so my sister tells me, though at the time all
the difference I saw was that Miss Fordyce had the most originality, and
unconsciously became the leader.  The bookroom was given up to us, and
there in the morning we drew, worked, read, copied and practised music,
wrote out extracts, and delivered our youthful minds to one another on
all imaginable topics from ‘slea silk to predestination.’

Religious subjects occupied us more than might have been held likely.  A
spirit of reflection and revival was silently working in many a heart.
Evangelicalism had stirred old-fashioned orthodoxy, and we felt its
action.  The _Christian Year_ was Ellen’s guiding star—as it was ours,
nay, doubly so in proportion to the ardour of her nature.  Certain poems
are dearer and more eloquent to me still, because the verses recall to me
the thrill of her sweet tones as she repeated them.  We were all very
ignorant alike of Church doctrine and history, but talking out and
comparing our discoveries and impressions was as useful as it was
pleasant to us.

What the _Christian Year_ was in religion to us Scott was in history.  We
read to verify or illustrate him, and we had little raving fits over his
characters, and jokes founded on them.  Indeed, Ellen saw life almost
through that medium; and the siege of Hillside, dispersed by the splendid
prowess of Griffith, the champion with silver helm and flashing sword,
was precious to her as a renewal of the days of Ivanhoe or Damian de

As may be believed, these quiet mornings were those when that true knight
was employed in field sports or yeomanry duties, such as the state of the
country called for.  When he was at home, all was fun and merriment and
noise—walks and rides on fine days, battledore and shuttlecock on wet
ones, music, singing, paper games, giggling and making giggle, and
sometimes dancing in the hall—Mr. Frank Fordyce joining with all his
heart and drollery in many of these, like the boy he was.

I could play quadrilles and country dances, and now and then a
reel—nobody thought of waltzes—and the three couples changed and
counterchanged partners.  Clarence had the sailor’s foot, and did his
part when needed; Emily generally fell to his share, and their silence
and gravity contrasted with the mirth of the other pairs.  He knew very
well he was the _pis aller_ of the party, and only danced when Parson
Frank was not dragged out, nothing loth, by his little daughter.  With
Miss Fordyce, Clarence never had the chance of dancing; she was always
claimed by Griff, or pounced upon by Martyn.

Miss Fordyce she always was to us in those days, and those pretty lips
scrupulously ‘Mistered’ and ‘Winslowed’ us.  I don’t think she would have
been more to us, if we had called her Nell, and had been Griff, Bill, and
Ted to her, or if there had not been all the little formalities of
avoiding tête à têtes and the like.  They were essentials of propriety
then—natural, and never viewed as prudish.  Nor did it detract from the
sweet dignity of maidenhood that there was none of the familiarity which
breeds something one would rather not mention in conjunction with a lady.

Altogether there was a sunshine around Miss Fordyce by which we all
seemed illuminated, even the least favoured and least demonstrative; we
were all her willing slaves, and thought her smile and thanks full

One day, when Griff and Martyn were assisting at the turn out of an
isolated barn at Hillside, where Frank Fordyce declared, all the
burnt-out rats and mice had taken refuge, the young ladies went out to
cater for house decorations for Christmas under Clarence’s escort.
Nobody but the clerk ever thought of touching the church, where there
were holes in all the pews to receive the holly boughs.

The girls came back, telling in eager scared voices how, while gathering
butcher’s broom in Farmer Hodges’ home copse, a savage dog had flown out
at them, but had been kept at bay by Mr. Clarence Winslow with an
umbrella, while they escaped over the stile.

Clarence had not come into the drawing-room with them, and while my
mother, who had a great objection to people standing about in out-door
garments, sent them up to doff their bonnets and furs, I repaired to our
room, and was horrified to find him on my bed, white and faint.

‘Bitten?’ I cried in dismay.

‘Yes; but not much.  Only I’m such a fool.  I turned off when I began
taking off my boots.  No, no—don’t!  Don’t call any one.  It is nothing!’

He was springing up to stop me, but was forced to drop back, and I made
my way to the drawing-room, where my mother happened to be alone.  She
was much alarmed, but a glass of wine restored Clarence; and inspection
showed that the thick trowser and winter stocking had so protected him
that little blood had been drawn, and there was bruise rather than bite
in the calf of the leg, where the brute had caught him as he was getting
over the stile as the rear-guard.  It was painful, though the faintness
was chiefly from tension of nerve, for he had kept behind all the way
home, and no one had guessed at the hurt.  My mother doctored it
tenderly, and he begged that nothing should be said about it; he wanted
no fuss about such a trifle.  My mother agreed, with the proud feeling of
not enhancing the obligations of the Fordyce family; but she absolutely
kissed Clarence’s forehead as she bade him lie quiet till dinner-time.

We kept silence at table while the girls described the horrors of the
monster.  ‘A tawny creature, with a hideous black muzzle,’ said Emily.
‘Like a bad dream,’ said Miss Fordyce.  The two fathers expressed their
intention of remonstrating with the farmer, and Griff declared that it
would be lucky if he did not shoot it.  Miss Fordyce generously took its
part, saying the poor dog was doing its duty, and Griff ejaculated, ‘If I
had been there!’

‘It would not have dared to show its teeth, eh?’ said my father, when
there was a good deal of banter.

My father, however, came at night with mamma to inspect the hurt and ask
details, and he ended with, ‘Well done, Clarence, boy; I am gratified to
see you are acquiring presence of mind, and can act like a man.’

Clarence smiled when they were gone, saying, ‘That would have been an
insult to any one else.’

Emily perceived that he had not come off unscathed, and was much
aggrieved at being bound to silence.  ‘Well,’ she broke out, ‘if the dog
goes mad, and Clarence has the hydrophobia, I suppose I may tell.’

‘In that pleasing contingency,’ said Clarence smiling.  ‘Don’t you see,
Emily, it is the worst compliment you can pay me not to treat this as a
matter of course?’  Still, he was the happier for not having failed.
Whatever strengthened his self-respect and gave him trust in himself was
a stepping-stone.

As to rivalry or competition with Griff, the idea seemingly never crossed
his mind, and envy or jealousy were equally aloof from it.  One subject
of thankfulness runs through these recollections—namely, that nothing
broke the tie of strong affection between us three brothers.  Griffith
might figure as the ‘vary parfite knight,’ the St. George of the piece,
glittering in the halo shed round him by the bright eyes of the rescued
damsel; while Clarence might drag himself along as the poor recreant to
be contemned and tolerated, and he would accept the position meekly as
only his desert, without a thought of bitterness.  Indeed, he himself
seemed to have imbibed Nurse Gooch’s original opinion, that his genuine
love for sacred things was a sort of impertinence and pretension in such
as he—a kind of hypocrisy even when they were the realities and helps to
which he clung with all his heart.  Still, this depression was only shown
by reserve, and troubled no one save myself, who knew him best guessed
what was lost by his silence, and burned in spirit at seeing him merely
endured as one unworthy.

In one of our varieties of Waverley discussions the crystal hardness and
inexperienced intolerance of youth made Miss Fordyce declare that had she
been Edith Plantagenet, she would never, never have forgiven Sir Kenneth.
‘How could she, when he had forsaken the king’s banner?  Unpardonable!’

Then came a sudden, awful silence, as she recollected her audience, and
blushed crimson with the misery of perceiving where her random shaft had
struck, nor did either of us know what to say; but to our surprise it was
Clarence who first spoke to relieve the desperate embarrassment.  ‘Is
forgiven quite the right word, when the offence was not personal?  I know
that such things can neither be repaired nor overlooked, and I think that
is what Miss Fordyce meant.’

‘Oh, Mr. Winslow,’ she exclaimed, ‘I am very sorry—I don’t think I quite
meant’—and then, as her eyes for one moment fell on his subdued face, she
added, ‘No, I said what I ought not.  If there is sorrow’—her voice
trembled—‘and pardon above, no one below has any right to say

Clarence bowed his head, and his lips framed, but he did not utter,
‘Thank you.’  Emily nervously began reading aloud the page before her,
full of the jingling recurring rhymes about Sir Thomas of Kent; but I saw
Ellen surreptitiously wipe away a tear, and from that time she was more
kind and friendly with Clarence.


    ‘None but the brave,
    None but the brave,
    None but the brave deserve the fair.’—_Song_.

CHRISTMAS trees were not yet heard of beyond the Fatherland, and both the
mothers held that Christmas parties were not good for little children,
since Mrs. Winslow’s strong common sense had arrived at the same
conclusion as Mrs. Fordyce had derived from Hannah More and Richard
Lovell Edgeworth.  Besides, rick-burning and mobs were far too recent for
our neighbours to venture out at night.

But as we were all resolved that little Anne should have a memorable
Christmas at Chantry House, we begged an innocent, though iced cake, from
the cook, painted a set of characters ourselves, including all the dolls,
and bespoke the presence of Frank Fordyce at a feast in the outer mullion
room—Griff’s apartment, of course.  The locality was chosen as allowing
more opportunity for high jinks than the bookroom, and also because the
swords and pistols in trophy over the mantelpiece had a great fascination
for the two sisters, and to ‘drink tea with Mr. Griffith’ was always
known to be a great ambition of the little queen of the festival.  As to
the mullion chamber legends, they had nearly gone out of our heads,
though Clarence did once observe, ‘You remember, it will be the 26th of
December;’ but we did not think this worthy of consideration, especially
as Anne’s entertainment, at its latest, could not last beyond nine
o’clock; and the ghostly performances—now entirely laid to the account of
the departed stable-boy—never began before eleven.

Nor did anything interfere with our merriment.  The fun of fifty years
ago must be intrinsically exquisite to bear being handed down to another
generation, so I will attempt no repetition, though some of those Twelfth
Day characters still remain, pasted into my diary.  We anticipated
Twelfth Day because our guests meant to go to visit some other friends
before the New Year, and we knew Anne would have no chance there of
fulfilling her great ambition of drawing for king and queen.  These
home-made characters were really charming.  Mrs. Fordyce had done several
of them, and she drew beautifully.  A little manipulation contrived that
the exquisite Oberon and Titania should fall to Martyn and Anne, for whom
crowns and robes had been prepared, worn by her majesty with complacent
dignity, but barely tolerated by him!  The others took their chance.
Parson Frank was Tom Thumb, and convulsed us all the evening by acting as
if no bigger than that worthy, keeping us so merry that even Clarence
laughed as I had never seen him laugh before.

Cock Robin and Jenny Wren—the best drawn of all—fell to Griff and Miss
Fordyce.  There was a suspicion of a tint of real carnation on her cheek,
as, on his low, highly-delighted bow, she held up her impromptu fan of
folded paper; and drollery about currant wine and hopping upon twigs went
on more or less all the time, while somehow or other the beauteous glow
on her cheeks went on deepening, so that I never saw her look so pretty
as when thus playing at Jenny Wren’s coyness, though neither she nor
Griff had passed the bounds of her gracious precise discretion.

The joyous evening ended at last.  With the stroke of nine, Jenny Wren
bore away Queen Titania to put her to bed, for the servants were having
an entertainment of their own downstairs for all the out-door retainers,
etc.  Oberon departed, after an interval sufficient to prove his own
dignity and advanced age.  Emily went down to report the success of the
evening to the elders in the drawing-room, but we lingered while Frank
Fordyce was telling good stories of Oxford life, and Griff capping them
with more recent ones.

We too broke up—I don’t remember how; but Clarence was to help me down
the stairs, and Mr. Fordyce, frowning with anxiety at the process, was
offering assistance, while we had much rather he had gone out of the way;
when suddenly, in the gallery round the hall giving access to the
bedrooms, there dawned upon us the startled but scarcely displeased
figure of Jenny Wren in her white dress, not turning aside that blushing
face, while Cock Robin was clasping her hand and pressing it to his lips.
The tap of my crutches warned them.  She flew back within her door and
shut it; Griff strode rapidly on, caught hold of her father’s hand,
exclaiming, ‘Sir, sir, I must speak to you!’ and dragged him back into
the mullion room leaving Clarence and me to convey ourselves downstairs
as best we might.

‘Our sister, our sweet sister!’

We were immensely excited.  All the three of us were so far in love with
Ellen Fordyce that her presence was an enchantment to us, and at any rate
none of us ever saw the woman we could compare to her; and as we both
felt ourselves disqualified in different ways from any nearer approach,
we were content to bask in the reflected rays of our brother’s happiness.

Not that he had gone that length as yet, as we knew before the night was
over, when he came down to us.  Even with the dear maiden herself, he had
only made sure that she was not averse, and that merely by her eyes and
lips; and he had extracted nothing from her father but that they were
both very young, a great deal too young, and had no business to think of
such things yet.  It must be talked over, etc. etc.

But just then, Griff told us, Frank Fordyce jumped up and turned round
with the sudden exclamation, ‘Ellen!’ looking towards the door behind him
with blank astonishment, as he found it had neither been opened nor shut.
He thought his daughter had recollected something left behind, and coming
in search of it, had retreated precipitately.  He had seen her, he said,
in the mirror opposite.  Griff told him there was no mirror, and had to
carry a candle across to convince him that he had only been looking at
the door into the inner room, which though of shining dark oak, could
hardly have made a reflection as vivid as he declared that his had been.
Indeed, he ascertained that Ellen had never left her own room at all.
‘It must have been thinking about the dear child,’ he said.  ‘And after
all, it was not quite like her—somehow—she was paler, and had something
over her head.’  We had no doubt who it was.  Griff had not seen her, but
he was certain that there had been none of the moaning nor crying, ‘In
fact, she has come to give her consent,’ he said with earnest in his
mocking tone.

‘Yes,’ said Clarence gravely, and with glistening eyes.  ‘You are happy
Griff.  It is given to you to right the wrong, and quiet that poor

‘Happy!  The happiest fellow in the world,’ said Griff, ‘even without
that latter clause—if only Madam and the old man will have as much sense
as she has!’

The next day was a thoroughly uncomfortable one.  Griff was not half so
near his goal as he had hoped last night when with kindly Parson Frank.

The commotion was as if a thunderbolt had descended among the elders.
What they had been thinking of, I cannot tell, not to have perceived how
matters were tending; but their minds were full of the Reform Bill and
the state of the country, and, besides, we were all looked on still as
mere children.  Indeed, Griff was scarcely one-and-twenty, and Ellen
wanted a month of seventeen; and the crisis had really been a sudden
impulse, as he said, ‘She looked so sweet and lovely, he could not help

The first effect was a serious lecture upon maidenliness and propriety to
poor Ellen from her mother, who was sure that she must have transgressed
the bounds of discretion, or such ill-bred presumption would have been
spared her, and bitterly regretted the having trusted her to take care of
herself.  There were sufficient grains of truth in this to make the poor
girl cry herself out of all condition for appearing at breakfast or
luncheon, and Emily’s report of her despair made us much more angry with
Mrs. Fordyce than was perhaps quite due to that good lady.

My parents were at first inclined to take the same line, and be vexed
with Griff for an act of impertinence towards a guest.  He had a great
deal of difficulty in inducing the elders to believe him in earnest, or
treat him as a man capable of knowing his own mind; and even thus they
felt as if his addresses to Miss Fordyce were, under present
circumstances, taking almost an unfair advantage of the other family—at
which our youthful spirits felt indignant.

Yet, after all, such a match was as obvious and suitable as if it had
been a family compact, and the only objection was the youth of the
parties.  Mrs. Fordyce would fain have believed her daughter’s heart to
be not yet awake, and was grieved to find childhood over, and the hero of
romance become the lover; and she was anxious that full time should be
given to perceive whether her daughter’s feelings were only the result of
the dazzling aureole which gratitude and excited fancy had cast around
the fine, handsome, winning youth.  Her husband, however, who had himself
married very young, and was greatly taken with Griff, besides being
always tender-hearted, did not enter into her scruples; but, as we had
already found out, the grand-looking and clever man of thirty-eight was,
chiefly from his impulsiveness and good-nature, treated as the boy of the
family.  His old father, too, was greatly pleased with Griff’s spirit,
affection, and purpose, as well as with my father’s conduct in the
matter; and so, after a succession of private interviews, very
tantalising to us poor outsiders, it was conceded that though an
engagement for the present was preposterous, it might possibly be
permitted when Ellen was eighteen if Griff had completed his university
life with full credit.  He was fervently grateful to have such an object
set before him, and my father was warmly thankful for the stimulus.

That last evening was very odd and constrained.  We could not help
looking on the lovers as new specimens over which some strange
transformation had passed, though for the present it had stiffened them
in public into the strictest good behaviour.  They would have been
awkward if it had been possible to either of them, and, save for a
certain look in their eyes, comported themselves as perfect strangers.

The three elder gentlemen held discussions in the dining-room, but we
were not trusted in our playground adjoining.  Mrs. Fordyce nailed Griff
down to an interminable game at chess, and my mother kept the two girls
playing duets, while Clarence turned over the leaves; and I read over
_The Lady of the Lake_, a study which I always felt, and still feel, as
an act of homage to Ellen Fordyce, though there was not much in common
between her and the maid of Douglas.  Indeed, it was a joke of her
father’s to tease her by criticising the famous passage about the tears
that old Douglas shed over his duteous daughter’s head—‘What in the world
should the man go whining and crying for?  He had much better have
laughed with her.’

Little did the elders know what was going on in the next room, where
there was a grand courtship among the dolls; the hero being a small
jointed Dutch one in Swiss costume, about an eighth part of the size of
the resuscitated Celestina Mary, but the only available male character in
doll-land!  Anne was supposed to be completely ignorant of what passed
above her head; and her mother would have been aghast had she heard the
remarkable discoveries and speculations that she and Martyn communicated
to one another.


    ‘Or framing, as a fair excuse,
    The book, the pencil, or the muse;
    Something to give, to sing, to say,
    Some modern tale, some ancient lay.’


IT seems to me on looking back that I have hardly done justice to Mrs.
Fordyce, and certainly we—as Griffith’s eager partisans—often regarded
her in the light of an enemy and opponent; but after this lapse of time,
I can see that she was no more than a prudent mother, unwilling to see
her fair young daughter suddenly launched into womanhood, and involved in
an attachment to a young and untried man.

The part of a drag is an invidious one; and this must have been her part
through most of her life.  The Fordyces, father and son, were of good
family, gentlemen to their very backbones, and thoroughly good, religious
men; but she came of a more aristocratic strain, had been in London
society, and brought with her a high-bred air which, implanted on the
Fordyce good looks, made her daughter especially fascinating.  But that
air did not recommend Mrs. Fordyce to all her neighbours, any more than
did those stronger, stricter, more thorough-going notions of religious
obligation which had led her husband to make the very real and painful
sacrifice of his sporting tastes, and attend to the parish in a manner
only too rare in those days.  She was a very well-informed and highly
accomplished woman, and had made her daughter the same, keeping her
children up in a somewhat exclusive style, away from all gossip or
undesirable intimacies, as recommended by Miss Edgeworth and other more
religious authorities, and which gave great offence in houses where there
were girls of the same age.  No one, however, could look at Ellen, and
doubt of the success of the system, or of the young girl’s entire content
and perfect affection for her mother, though her father was her beloved
playfellow—yet always with respect.  She never took liberties with him,
nor called him Pap or any other ridiculous name inconsistent with the
fifth Commandment, though she certainly was more entirely at ease with
him than ever we had been with our elderly father.  When once Mrs.
Fordyce found on what terms we were to be, she accepted them frankly and
fully.  Already Emily had been the first girl, not a relation, whose
friendship she had fostered with Ellen; and she had also become
thoroughly affectionate and at home with my mother, who suited her
perfectly on the conscientious, and likewise on the prudent and sensible,
side of her nature.

To me she was always kindness itself, so kind that I never felt, as I did
on so many occasions, that she was very pitiful and attentive to the
deformed youth; but that she really enjoyed my companionship, and I could
help her in her pursuits.  I have a whole packet of charming notes of
hers about books, botany, drawings, little bits of antiquarianism,
written with an arch grace and finish of expression peculiarly her own,
and in a very pointed hand, yet too definite to be illegible.  I owe her
more than I can say for the windows of wholesome hope and ambition she
opened to me, giving a fresh motive and zest even to such a life as mine.
I can hardly tell which was the most delightful companion, she or her
husband.  In spite of ill health, she knew every plant, and every bit of
fair scenery in the neighbourhood, and had fresh, amusing criticisms to
utter on each new book; while he, not neglecting the books, was equally
well acquainted with all beasts and birds, and shed his kindly light over
everything he approached.  He was never melancholy about anything but
politics, and even there it was an immense consolation to him to have the
owner of Chantry House staunch on the same side, instead of in chronic

The family party moved to a tall house at Bath, but there still was close
intercourse, for the younger clergyman rode over every week for the
Sunday duty, and almost always dined and slept at Chantry House.  He
acted as bearer of long letters, which, in spite of a reticulation of
crossings, were too expensive by post for young ladies’ pocket-money,
often exceeding the regular quarto sheet.  It was a favourite joke to ask
Emily what Ellen reported about Bath fashions, and to see her look of
scorn.  For they were a curious mixture, those girlish letters, of
village interests, discussion of books, and thoughts beyond their age;
Tommy Toogood and Prometheus; or Du Guesclin in the closest juxtaposition
with reports of progress in Abercrombie on the _Intellectual Powers_.  It
was the desire of Ellen to prove herself not unsettled but improved by
love, and to become worthy of her ideal Griffith, never guessing that he
would have been equally content with her if she had been as frivolous as
the idlest girl who lingered amid the waning glories of Bath.

We all made them a visit there when Martyn was taken to a preparatory
school in the place.  Mrs. Fordyce took me out for drives on the
beautiful hills; and Emily and I had a very delightful time, undisturbed
by the engrossing claims of love-making.  Very good, too, were our
friends, after our departure, in letting Martyn spend Sundays and
holidays with them, play with Anne as before, say his Catechism with her
to Mrs. Fordyce, and share her little Sunday lessons, which had, he has
since told, a force and attractiveness he had never known before, and
really did much, young as he was, in preparing the way towards the
fulfilment of my father’s design for him.

When the Rectory was ready, and the family returned, it was high summer,
and there were constant meetings between the households.  No doubt there
were the usual amount of trivial disappointments and annoyances, but the
whole season seems to me to have been bathed in sunlight.  The Reform
Bill agitations and the London mobs of which Clarence wrote to us were
like waves surging beyond an isle of peace.  Clarence had some unpleasant
walks from the office.  Once or twice the shutters had to be put up at
Frith and Castleford’s to prevent the windows from being broken; and once
Clarence actually saw our nation’s hero, ‘the Duke,’ riding quietly and
slowly through a yelling, furious mob, who seemed withheld from falling
on him by the perfect impassiveness of the eagle face and spare figure.
Moreover a pretty little boy, on his pony, suddenly pushed forward and
rode by the Duke’s side, as if proud and resolute to share his peril.

‘If Griffith had been there!’ said Ellen and Emily, though they did not
exactly know what they expected him to have done.

The chief storms that drifted across our sky were caused by Mrs.
Fordyce’s resolution that Griffith should enjoy none of the privileges of
an accepted suitor before the engagement was an actual fact.  Ellen was
obedient and conscientious; and would neither transgress nor endure to
have her mother railed at by Griff’s hasty tongue, and this affronted
him, and led to little breezes.

When people overstay their usual time, tempers are apt to get rather
difficult.  Griffith had kept all his terms at Oxford, and was not to
return thither after the long vacation, but was to read with a tutor
before taking his degree.  Moreover bills began to come from Oxford, not
very serious, but vexing my father and raising annoyances and frets, for
Griff resented their being complained of, and thought himself ill-used,
going off to see his own friends whenever he was put out.

One morning at breakfast, late in October, he announced that Lady Peacock
was in lodgings at Clifton, and asked my mother to call on her.  But
mamma said it was too far for the horse—she visited no one at that
distance, and had never thought much of Selina Clarkson before or after
her marriage.

‘But now that she is a widow, it would be such a kindness,’ pleaded

‘Depend upon it, a gay young widow needs no kindness from me, and had
better not have it from you,’ said my mother, getting up from behind her
urn and walking off, followed by my father.

Griff drummed on the table.  ‘I wonder what good ladies of a certain age
do with their charity,’ he said.

And while we were still crying out at him, Ellen Fordyce and her father
appeared, like mirth bidding good-morrow, at the window.  All was well
for the time, but Griff wanted Ellen to set out alone with him, and take
their leisurely way through the wood-path, and she insisted on waiting
for her father, who had got into an endless discussion with mine on the
Reform Bill, thrown out in the last Session.  Griff tried to wile her on
with him, but, though she consented to wander about the lawn before the
windows with him, she always resolutely turned at the great beech tree.
Emily and I watched them from the window, at first amused, then vexed, as
we could see, by his gestures, that he was getting out of temper, and her
straw bonnet drooped at one moment, and was raised the next in eager
remonstrance or defence.  At last he flung angrily away from her, and
went off to the stables, leaving her leaning against the gate in tears.
Emily, in an access of indignant sympathy, rushed out to her, and they
vanished together into the summer-house, until her father called her, and
they went home together.

Emily told me that Ellen had struggled hard to keep herself from crying
enough to show traces of tears which her father could observe, and that
she had excused Griff with all her might on the plea of her own

We were all the more angry with him for his selfishness and want of
consideration, for Ellen, in her torrent of grief, had even disclosed
that he had said she did not care for him—no one really in love ever
scrupled about a mother’s nonsense, etc., etc.

We were resolved, like two sages, to give him a piece of our minds, and
convince him that such dutifulness was the pledge of future happiness,
and that it was absolute cruelty to the rare creature he had won, to try
to draw her in a direction contrary to her conscience.

However, we saw him no more that day; and only learnt that he had left a
message at the stables that dinner was not to be kept waiting for him.
Such a message from Clarence would have caused a great commotion; but it
was quite natural and a matter of course from him in the eyes of the
elders, who knew nothing of his parting with Ellen.  However, there was
annoyance enough, when bedtime came, family prayers were over, and still
there was no sign of him.  My father sat up till one o’clock, to let him
in, then gave it up, and I heard his step heavily mounting the stairs.


    ‘_Stafford_.  And you that are the King’s friends, follow me.

    _Cade_.  And you that love the Commons, follow me;
    We will not leave one lord, one gentleman,
    Spare none but such as go in clouted shoon.’

                                                       Act I.  _Henry VI_.

THE next day was Sunday, and no Griff appeared in the morning.  Vexation,
perhaps, prevented us from attending as much as we otherwise might have
done to Mr. Henderson when he told us that there were rumours of a
serious disturbance at Bristol; until Emily recollected that Griff had
been talking for some days past of riding over to see his friend in the
cavalry regiment there stationed, and we all agreed that it was most
likely that he was there; and our wrath began to soften in the belief
that he might have been detained to give his aid in the cause of order,
though his single arm could not be expected to effect as much as at

Long after dark we heard a horse’s feet, and in another minute Griff,
singed, splashed, and battered, had hurried into the room—‘It has begun!’
he said.  ‘The revolution!  I have brought her—Lady Peacock.  She was at
Clifton, dreadfully alarmed.  She is almost at the door now, in her
carriage.  I’ll just take the pony, and ride over to tell Eastwood in
case he will call out the Yeomanry.’

The wheels were to be heard, and everybody hastened out to receive Lady
Peacock, who was there with her maid, full of gratitude.  I heard her
broken sentences as she came across the hall, about dreadful
scenes—frightful mob—she knew not what would have become of her but for
Griffith—the place was in flames when they left it—the military would not
act—Griffith had assured her that Mr. and Mrs. Winslow would be so
kind—as long as any place was a refuge—

We really did believe we were at the outbreak of a revolution or civil
war, and, all little frets forgotten, listened appalled to the tidings;
how the appearance of Sir Charles Wetherall, the Recorder of Bristol, a
strong opponent to the Reform Bill, seemed to have inspired the mob with
fury.  Griff and his friend the dragoon, while walking in Broad Street,
were astonished by a violent rush of riotous men and boys, hooting and
throwing stones as the Recorder’s carriage tried to make its way to the
Guildhall.  In the midst a piteous voice exclaimed—

‘Oh, Griffith!  Mr. Griffith Winslow!  Is it you?’ and Lady Peacock was
seen retreating upon the stone steps of a house either empty, or where
the inhabitants were too much alarmed to open the doors.  She was
terribly frightened, and the two gentlemen stood in front of her till the
tumultuary procession had passed by.  She was staying in lodgings at
Clifton, and had driven in to Bristol to shop, when she thus found
herself entangled in the mob.  They then escorted her to the place where
she was to meet her carriage, and found it for her with some difficulty.
Then, while the officer returned to his quarters, Griff accompanied her
far enough on the way to Clifton to see that everything was quiet before
her, and then returned to seek out his friend.  The court at the
Guildhall had had to be adjourned, but the rioters were hunting Sir
Charles to the Mansion-House.  Griff was met by one of the Town Council,
a tradesman with whom we dealt, who, having perhaps heard of his prowess
at Hillside, entreated him to remain, offering him a bed, and saying that
all friends of order were needed in such a crisis as this.  Griff wrote a
note to let us know what had become of him, but everything was
disorganised, and we did not get it till two days afterwards.

In the evening the mob became more violent, and in the midst of dinner a
summons came for Griff’s host to attend the Mayor in endeavouring to
disperse it.  Getting into the Mansion-House by private back ways, they
were able to join the Mayor when he came out, amid a shower of brickbats,
sticks, and stones, and read the Riot Act three times over, after warning
them of the consequences of persisting in their defiance.

‘But they were far past caring for that,’ said Griff.  ‘An iron rail from
the square was thrown in the midst of it, and if I had not caught it
there would have been an end of his Worship.’

The constables, with such help as Griff and a few others could give them,
defended the front of the Mansion-House, while the Recorder, for whom
they savagely roared, made his escape by the roof to another house.  A
barricade was made with beds, tables, and chairs, behind which the
defenders sheltered themselves, while volleys of stones smashed in the
windows, and straw was thrown after them.  But at last the tramp of
horses’ feet was heard, and the Dragoons came up.

‘We thought all over then,’ said Griff; ‘but Colonel Brereton would not
have a blow struck, far less a shot fired!  He would have it that it was
a good-humoured mob!  I heard him!  When one of his own men was brought
up badly hurt with a brickbat, I heard Ludlow, the Town-Clerk, ask him
what he thought of their good humour, and he had nothing to say but that
it was an accident!  And the rogues knew it!  He took care they should;
he walked about among them and shook hands with them!’

Griff waited at the Mansion-House all night, and helped to board up the
smashed windows; but at daylight Colonel Brereton came and insisted on
withdrawing the piquet on guard—not, however, sending a relief for them,
on the plea that they only collected a crowd.  The instant they were
withdrawn, down came the mob in fresh force, so desperate that all the
defences were torn down, and they swarmed in so that there was nothing
for it but to escape over the roofs.

Griffith was sent to rouse the inhabitants of College Green and St.
Augustine’s Back to come in the King’s name to assist the Magistrates,
and he had many good stories of the various responses he met with.  But
the rioters, inflamed by the wine they had found in sacking the
Mansion-House, and encouraged by the passiveness of the troops, had
become entirely masters of the situation.  And Colonel Brereton seems to
have imagined that the presence of the soldiers acted as an irritation;
for in this crisis he actually sent them out of the city to Keynsham,
then came and informed the mob, who cheered him, as well they might.

In the night the Recorder had left the city, and notices were posted to
that effect; also that the Riot Act had been read, and any further
disturbance would be capital felony.  This escape of their victim only
had the effect of directing the rage of the populace against Bishop Grey,
who had likewise opposed the Reform Bill.

Messages had been sent to advise the Bishop, who was to preach that day
at the Cathedral, to stay away and sanction the omission of the service;
but his answer to one of his clergy was—‘These are times in which it is
necessary not to shrink from danger!  Our duty is to be at our post.’
And he also said, ‘Where can I die better than in my own Cathedral?’

Since the bells were ringing, and it was understood that the Bishop was
actually going to dare the peril, Griff and others of the defenders
decided that it was better to attend the service and fill up the nave so
as to hinder outrage.  He said it was a most strange and wonderful
service.  Chants and Psalms and Lessons and prayers going on their course
as usual, but every now and then in the pauses of the organ, a howl or
yell of the voice of the multitude would break on the ear through the
thick walls.  Griff listened and hoped for a volley of musketry.  He was
not tender-hearted!  But none came, and by the time the service was over,
the mob had been greatly reinforced and had broken into the prisons, set
them on fire, and released the prisoners.  They were mustering on College
Green for an attack on the palace.  Griff aided in guarding the entrance
to the cloisters till the Bishop and his family had had time to drive
away to Almondsbury, four miles off, and then the rush became so strong
that they had to give way.  There was another great struggle at the door
of the palace, but it was forced open with a crowbar, while shouts rang
out ‘No King and no Bishops!’  A fire was made in the dining-room with
chairs and tables, and live coals were put into the beds, while the
plunder went on.

Griff meantime had made his way to the party headed by the magistrates,
and accompanied by the dragoons, and the mob began to flee; but Colonel
Brereton had given strict orders that the soldiers should not fire, and
the plunderers rallied, made a fire in the Chapter House, and burnt the
whole of the library, shouting with the maddest triumph.

They next attacked the Cathedral, intending to burn that likewise, but
two brave gentlemen, Mr. Ralph and Mr. Linne, succeeded in saving this
last outrage, at the head of the better affected.

Griff had fought hard.  He was all over bruises which he really had never
felt at the time, scarcely even now, though one side of his face was
turning purple, and his clothes were singed.  In a sort of council held
at the repulse of the attack on the Cathedral, it had been decided that
the best thing he could do would be to give notice to Sir George
Eastwood, in order that the Yeomanry might be called out, since the
troops were so strangely prevented from acting.  As he rode through
Clifton, he had halted at Lady Peacock’s, and found her in extreme alarm.
Indeed, no one could guess what the temper of the mob might be the next
day, or whether they might not fall upon private houses.  The
Mansion-House, the prisons, the palace were all burning and were an
astounding sight, which terrified her exceedingly, and she was sending
out right and left to endeavour to get horses to take her away.  In
common humanity, and for old acquaintance sake, it was impossible not to
help her, and Griff had delayed, to offer any amount of reward in her
name for posthorses, which he had at last secured.  Her own man-servant,
whom she had sent in quest of some, had never returned, and she had to
set off without him, Griff acting as outrider; but after the first there
was no more difficulty about horses, and she had been able to change them
at the next stage.

We all thought the days of civil war were really begun, as the heads of
this account were hastily gathered; but there was not much said, only Mr.
Frank Fordyce laid his hand on Griff’s shoulder and said, ‘Well done, my
boy; but you have had enough for to-day.  If you’ll lend me a horse,
Winslow, I’ll ride over to Eastwood.  That’s work for the clergy in these
times, eh?  Griffith should rest.  He may be wanted to-morrow.  Only is
there any one to take a note home for me, to say where I’m gone;’ and
then he added with that sweet smile of his, ‘Some one will be more the
true knight than ever, eh, you Griffith you—’

Griffith coloured a little, and Lady Peacock’s eyes looked interrogative.
When the horse was announced, Griff followed Mr. Fordyce into the hall,
and came back announcing that, unless summoned elsewhere, he should go to
breakfast at Hillside, and so hear what was decided on.  He longed to be
back at the scene of action, but was so tired out that he could not
dispense with another night’s rest; though he took all precautions for
being called up, in case of need.

However, nothing came, and he rode to the Rectory in Yeomanry equipment.
Nor could any one doubt that in the ecstasy of meeting such a hero, all
the little misunderstanding and grief of the night before was forgotten?
Ellen looked as if she trod on air, when she came down with her father to
report that Griffith had gone, according to the orders sent, to join the
rest of the Yeomanry, who were to advance upon Bristol.  They had seen,
and tried to turn back, some of the villagers who were starting with
bludgeons to share in the spoil, and who looked sullen, as if they were
determined not to miss their share.

I do not think we were very much alarmed for Griff’s safety or for our
own, not even the ladies.  My mother had the lion-heart of her naval
ancestors, and Ellen was in a state of exaltation.  Would that I could
put her before other eyes, as she stood with hands clasped and glowing

‘Oh!—think!—think of having one among us who is as real and true knight
as ever watched his armour—

                   ‘“For king, for church, for lady fight!”

It has all come gloriously true!’

‘Should not you like to bind on his spurs?’ I asked somewhat
mischievously; but she was serious as she said, ‘I am sure he has won
them.’  All the rest of the Fordyces came down afterwards, too anxious to
stay at home.  Our elders felt the matter more gravely, thinking of what
civil war might mean to us all, and what an awful thing it was for
Englishmen to be enrolled against each other.  Nottingham Castle had just
been burnt, and things looked only too like revolution, especially
considering the inaction of the dragoons.  After Griff had left Bristol,
there had been some terrible scenes at the Custom House, where the
ringleaders—unhappy men!—were caught in a trap of their own and perished

However, by the morning, the order sent from Lord Hill, the arrival of
Major Beckwith from Gloucester, and the proceedings of the good-humoured
mob had put an end to poor Brereton’s hesitations; a determined front had
been shown; the mob had been fairly broken up; troops from all quarters
poured into the city, and by dinner-time Griff came back with the news
that all was quiet and there was nothing more to fear.  Ellen and Emily
both flew out to meet him at the first sound of the horse’s feet, and
they all came into the drawing-room together—each young lady having hold
of one of his hands—and Ellen’s face in such a glow, that I rather
suspect that he had snatched a reward which certainly would not have been
granted save in such a moment of uplifted feeling, and when she was
thankful to her hero for forgetting how angry he had been with her two
days before.

Minor matters were forgotten in the details of his tidings, as he stood
before the fire, shining in his silver lace, and relating the tragedy and
the comedy of the scene.

It was curious, as the evening passed on, to see how Ellen and Lady
Peacock regarded each other, now that the tension of suspense was over.
To Ellen, the guest was primarily a distressed and widowed dame,
delivered by Griff, to whom she, as his lady love, was bound to be
gracious and kind; nor had they seen much of one another, the elder
ladies sitting in the drawing-room, and we in our own regions; but we
were all together at dinner and afterwards, and Lady Peacock, who had
been in a very limp, nervous, and terrified state all day, began to be
the Selina Clarkson we remembered, and ‘more too.’  She was still in
mourning, but she came down to dinner in gray satin sheen, and with her
hair in a most astonishing erection of bows and bands, on the very crown
of her head, raising her height at least four inches.  Emily assures me
that it was the mode in use, and that she and Ellen wore their hair in
the same style, appealing to portraits to prove it.  I can only say that
they never astonished my weak mind in the like manner; and that their
heads, however dressed, only appeared to me a portion of the general
woman, and part of the universal fitness of things.  Ellen was likewise
amazed, most likely not at the hair, but at the transformation of the
disconsolate, frightened widow, into the handsome, fashionable, stylish
lady, talking over London acquaintance and London news with my father and
Griff whenever they left the endless subject of the Bristol adventures.

The widow had gained a good deal in beauty since her early girlhood,
having regular features, eyes of an uncommon deep blue, very black brows,
eye-lashes, and hair, and a form of the kind that is better after early
youth is over.  ‘A fine figure of a woman,’ Parson Frank pronounced her,
and his wife, with the fine edge of her lips replied, ‘exactly what she

She looked upon us younger ones as mere children still—indeed she never
looked at me at all if she could help it—but she mortally offended Emily
by penning her up in a corner, and asking if Griff were engaged to that
sentimental little girl.

Emily coloured like a turkey cock between wrath and embarrassment, and
hotly protested against the word sentimental.

‘Ah yes, I see!’ she said in a patronising tone, ‘she is your bosom
friend, eh?  That’s the way those things always begin.  You need not
answer: I see it all.  And no doubt it is a capital thing for him;
properties joining and all.  And she will get a little air and style when
he takes her to London.’  It was a tremendous offence even to hint that
Ellen’s style was capable of improvement; perhaps an unprejudiced eye
would have said that the difference was between high-bred simplicity and
the air of fashion and society.

In our eyes Lady Peacock was the companion of the elders, and as such was
appreciated by the gentlemen; but neither of the two mothers was equally
delighted with her, nor was mine at all sorry when, on Tuesday, the boxes
were packed, posthorses sent for, and my Lady departed, with great
expressions of thankfulness to us all.

‘A tulip to a jessamine,’ muttered Griff as she drove off, and he looked
up at his Ellen’s sweet refined face.

The unfortunate Colonel Brereton put an end to himself when the
court-martial was half over.  How Clarence was shocked and how ardent was
his pity!  But Griffith received the thanks of the Corporation of Bristol
for his gallant conduct, when the special assize was held in January.
Mrs. Fordyce was almost as proud of him as we were, and there was much
less attempt at restraining the terms on which he stood with Ellen—though
still the formal engagement was not permitted.


                ‘Whither shall I go?
    Where shall I hide my forehead and my eyes?’


IT was in the May of the ensuing year, 1832, that Clarence was sent down
to Bristol for a few weeks to take the place of one of the clerks in the
office where the cargoes of the incoming vessels of the firm were
received and overhauled.

This was a good-natured arrangement of Mr. Castleford’s in order to give
him change of work and a sight of home, where, by the help of the coach,
he could spend his Sundays.  That first spring day on his way down was a
great delight and even surprise to him, who had never seen our profusion
of primroses, cowslips, and bluebells, nor our splendid blossom of
trees—apple, lilac, laburnum—all vieing in beauty with one another.
Emily conducted him about in great delight, taking him over to Hillside
to see Mrs. Fordyce’s American garden, blazing with azaleas, and glowing
with rhododendrons.  He came back with a great bouquet given to him by
Ellen, who had been unusually friendly with him, and he was more animated
and full of life than for years before.

Next time he came he looked less happy.  There was plenty of room in our
house, but he used, by preference, the little chamber within mine, and
there at night he asked me to lend him a few pounds, since Griffith had
written one of his off-hand letters asking him to discharge a little bill
or two at Bristol, giving the addresses, but not sending the accounts.
This was no wonder, since any enclosure doubled the already heavy
postage.  One of these bills was for some sporting equipments from the
gunsmith’s; another, much heavier, from a tavern for breakfasts, or
rather luncheons, to parties of gentlemen, mostly bearing date in the
summer and autumn of 1830, before the friendship with the Fordyces had
begun.  On Clarence’s defraying the first and applying for the second,
two more had come in, one from a jeweller for a pair of drop-earrings,
the other from a nurseryman for a bouquet of exotics.  Doubting of these
two last, Clarence had written to Griff, but had not yet received an
answer.  The whole amount was so much beyond what he had been led to
expect that he had not brought enough money to meet it, and wanted an
advance from me, promising repayment, to which latter point I could not
assent, as both of us knew, but did not say, we should never see the sum
again, and to me it only meant stinting in new books and curiosities.  We
were anxious to get the matter settled at once, as Griffith spoke of
being dunned; and it might be serious, if the tradesmen applied to my
father when he was still groaning over revelations of college expenses.

On the ensuing Saturday, Clarence showed me Griff’s answer—‘I had
forgotten these items.  The earrings were a wedding present to the pretty
little barmaid, who had been very civil.  The bouquet was for Lady
Peacock; I felt bound to do something to atone for mamma’s severe virtue.
It is all right, you best of brothers.’

It was consolatory that all the dates were prior to the Hillside fire,
except that of the bouquet.  As to the earrings, we all knew that Griff
could not see a pretty girl without talking nonsense to her.  Anyway, if
they were a wedding present, there was an end of it; and we were only
glad to prevent any hint of them from reaching the ears of the

Clarence had another trouble to confide to me.  He had strong reason to
believe that Tooke, the managing clerk at Bristol, was carrying on a
course of peculation, and feathering his nest at the expense of the firm.
What a grand discovery, thought I, for such a youth to have made.  The
firm would be infinitely obliged to him, and his fortune would be
secured.  He shook his head, and said that was all my ignorance; the man,
Tooke, was greatly trusted, especially by Mr. Frith the senior partner,
and was so clever and experienced that it would be almost impossible to
establish anything against him.  Indeed he had browbeaten Clarence, and
convinced him at the moment that his suspicions and perplexities were
only due to the ignorance of a foolish, scrupulous youth, who did not
understand the customs and perquisites of an agency.  It was only when
Clarence was alone, and reflected on the matter by the light of
experience gained on a similar expedition to Liverpool, that he had
perceived that Mr. Tooke had been throwing dust in his eyes.

‘I shall only get into a scrape myself,’ said Clarence despondently.  ‘I
have felt it coming ever since I have been at Bristol;’ and he pushed his
hair back with a weary hopeless gesture.

‘But you don’t mean to let it alone?’ I cried indignantly.

He hesitated in a manner that painfully recalled his failing, and said at
last, ‘I don’t know; I suppose I ought not.’

‘Suppose?’ I cried.

‘It is not so easy as you think,’ he answered, ‘especially for one who
has forfeited the right to be believed.  I must wait till I have an
opportunity of speaking to Mr. Castleford, and then I can hardly do more
than privately give him a hint to be watchful.  You don’t know how things
are in such houses as ours.  One may only ruin oneself without doing any

‘You cannot write to him?’

‘Certainly not.  He has taken his family to Mrs. Castleford’s home in the
north of Ireland for a month or six weeks.  I don’t know the address, and
I cannot run the risk of the letter being opened at the office.’

‘Can’t you speak to my father?’

‘Impossible! it would be a betrayal.  He would do things for which I
should never be forgiven.  And, after all, remember, it is no business of
mine.  I know of agents at the docks who do such things as a matter of
course.  It is only that I happen to know that Harris at Liverpool does
not.  Very possibly old Frith knows all about it.  I should only get
scored down as a meddlesome prig, worse hypocrite than they think me

He said a good deal more to this effect, and I remember exclaiming, ‘Oh,
Clarence, the old story!’ and then being frightened at the whiteness that
came over his face.

Little did I know the suffering to which those words of mine condemned
him.  For not only had he to make up his mind to resistance, which to his
nature was infinitely worse than it was to Griffith to face a raging mob,
but he knew very well that it would almost inevitably produce his own
ruin, and renew the disgrace out of which he was beginning to emerge.  I
did not—even while I prayed that he might do the right—guess at his own
agony of supplication, carried on incessantly, day and night, sleeping
and waking, that the Holy Spirit of might should brace his will and
govern his tongue, and make him say the right thing at the right time, be
the consequences what they might.  No one, not constituted as he was, can
guess at the anguish he endured.  I knew no more.  Clarence did not come
home the next Saturday, to my mother’s great vexation; but on Tuesday a
small parcel was given to me, brought from our point of contact with the
Bristol coach.  It contained some pencils I had asked him to get, and a
note marked _private_.  Here it is—

    ‘DEAR EDWARD—I am summoned to town.  Tooke has no doubt forestalled
    me.  We have had some curious interviews, in which he first, as I
    told you, persuaded me out of my senses that it was all right, and
    then, finding me still dissatisfied, tried in a delicate fashion to
    apprise me that I had a claim to a share of the plunder.  When I
    refused to appropriate anything without sanction from headquarters,
    he threatened me with the consequences of presumptuous interference.
    It came to bullying at last.  I hardly know what I answered, but I
    don’t think I gave in.  Now, a sharp letter from old Frith recalls
    me.  Say nothing at home; and whatever you do, do not betray Griff.
    He has more to lose than I.  Help me in the true way, as you know
    how.—Ever yours, W. C. W.

I need not dwell on the misery of those days.  It was well that my father
had ruled that our letters should not be family property.  Here were all
the others discussing a proposed tour in the north of Devon, to be taken
conjointly with the Fordyces, as soon as Griff should come home.  My
mother said it would do me good; she saw I was flagging, but she little
guessed at the continual torment of anxiety, and my wonder at the warning
about Griff.

At the end of the week came another letter.

    ‘You need not speak yet.  Papa and mamma will know soon enough.  I
    brought down £150 in specie, to be paid over to Tooke.  He avers that
    only £130 was received.  What is my word worth against his?  I am
    told that if I am not prosecuted it will only be out of respect to my
    father.  I am not dismissed yet, but shall get notice as soon as
    letters come from Ireland.  I have written, but it is not in the
    nature of things that Mr. Castleford should not accept such proofs as
    have been sent him.  I have no hope, and shall be glad when it is
    over.  The part of black sheep is not a pleasant one.  Say not a
    word, and do not let my father come up.  He could do no good, and to
    see him believing it all would be the last drop in the bucket.

    _N.B._—In this pass, nothing would be saved by bringing Griff into
    it, so be silent on your life.  Innocence does not seem to be much
    comfort at present.  Maybe it will come in time.  I know you will not
    drop me, dear Ted, wherever I may be.’

Need I tell the distress of those days of suspense and silence, when my
only solace was in being left alone, and in writing letters to Clarence
which were mostly torn up again.

My horror was lest he should be driven to go off to the sea, which he
loved so well, knowing, as nobody else did, the longing that sometimes
seized him for it, a hereditary craving that curiously conflicted with
the rest of his disposition; and, indeed, his lack was more of moral than
of physical courage.  It haunted me constantly that his entreaty that my
father should not come to London was a bad sign, and that he would never
face such another return home.  And was I justified in keeping all this
to myself, when my father’s presence might save him from the flight that
would indeed be the surrender of his character, and to the life of a
common sailor?  Never have I known such leaden days as these, yet the
misery was not a tithe of what Clarence was undergoing.

I was right in my forebodings.  Prosecution and a second return home in
shame and disgrace were alike hideous to Clarence, and the present was
almost equally terrible, for nobody at the office had any doubt of his
guilt, and the young men who had sneered at his strictness and religious
habits regarded him as an unmasked hypocrite, only waiting on sufferance
till his greatly deceived patron should write to decide on the steps to
be taken with him, while he knew he was thought to be brazening it out in
hopes of again deceiving Mr. Castleford.

The sea began to exert its power over him, and he thought with longing of
its freedom, as if the sails of the vessels were the wings of a dove to
flee away and be at rest.  He had no illusions as to the roughness of the
life and companionship; but in his present mood, the frank rudeness and
profanity of the sailors seemed preferable to his cramped life, and the
scowls of his fellows; and he knew himself to have seamanship enough to
rise quickly, even if he could not secure a mate’s berth at first.

Mr. Castleford could not be heard from till the end of the week.  Friday,
Saturday came and not a word.  That was the climax!  When the consignment
of cash, hitherto carried by Clarence to the Bank of England, was
committed to another clerk, the very office boy sniggered, and the
manager demonstratively waited to see him depart.

Unable to bear it any longer, he walked towards Wapping, bought a
Southwester, examined the lists of shipping, and entered into
conversation with one or two sailors about the vessels making up their
crews; intending to go down after dark, to meet the skipper of a craft
bound for Lisbon, who, he heard, was so much in want of a mate as perhaps
to overlook the lack of testimonials, and at any rate take him on board
on Sunday.

Going home to pick up a few necessaries, a book lent to him by Miss
Newton came in his way, and he felt drawn to carry it home, and see her
face for the last time.

All unconscious of his trouble and of his intentions, the good lady told
him of her strong desire to hear a celebrated preacher at a neighbouring
church on the Sunday evening, but said that in her partial blindness and
weakness, she was afraid to venture, unless he would have the extreme
goodness, as she said, to take care of her.  He saw that she wished it so
much that he had not the heart to refuse, and he recollected likewise
that very early on Monday morning would answer his purpose equally well.

It was the 7th of June.  The Psalm was the 37th—the supreme lesson of
patience.  ‘Hold thee still in the Lord; and abide patiently on Him; and
He shall bring it to pass.  He shall make thy righteousness as clear as
the light, and thy just dealing as the noonday.’

The awful sense of desolation seemed to pass away under those words, with
that gentle woman beside him.  And the sermon was on ‘Oh tarry thou the
Lord’s leisure; be strong, and He shall comfort thine heart; and put thou
thy trust in the Lord.’

Clarence remembered nothing but the text.  But it was borne in upon him
that his purpose of flight was ‘the old story,’—cowardice and virtual
distrust of the Lord, as well as absolute cruelty to us who loved him.

When he had deposited Miss Newton at her own door, he whispered thanks,
and an entreaty for her prayers.

And then he went home, and fought the battle of his life, with his own
horrible dread of Mr. Castleford’s disappointment; of possible
prosecution; of the shame at home; the misery of a life a second time
blighted.  He fought it out on his knees, many a time persuading himself
that flight would not be a sin, then returning to the sense that it was a
temptation of his worse self to be overcome.  And by morning he knew that
it would be a surrender of himself to his lower nature, and the evil
spirit behind it; while, by facing the worst that could befall him, he
would be falling into the hand of the Lord.


    ‘Nor deem the irrevocable past
    As wholly wasted, wholly vain,
    If rising on its wrecks at last
    To something nobler we attain.’


ALL the rest of the family were out, and I was relieved by being alone
with my distress, not forced to hide it, when the door opened and ‘Mr.
Castleford’ was announced.  After one moment’s look at me, one touch of
my hand, he must have seen that I was faint with anxiety, and said, ‘It
is all right, Edward; I see you know all.  I am come from Bristol to tell
your father that he may be proud of his son Clarence.’

I don’t know what I did.  Perhaps I sobbed and cried, but the first words
I could get out were, ‘Does he know?  Oh! it may be too late.  He may be
gone off to sea!’ I cried, breaking out with my chief fear.  Mr.
Castleford looked astounded, then said, ‘I trust not.  I sent off a
special messenger last night, as soon as I saw my way—’

Then I breathed a little more freely, and could understand what he was
telling me, namely, that Tooke had accused Clarence of abstracting £20
from the sum in his charge.  The fellow accounted for it by explaining
that young Winslow had been paying extravagant bills at a tavern, where
the barmaid showed his presents, and boasted of her conquest.  All this
had been written to Mr. Castleford by his partner, and he was told that
it was out of deference to himself that his _protégé_ was not in custody,
nor had received notice of dismissal; but, no doubt, he would give his
sanction to immediate measures, and communicate with the family.

The effect had been to make the good man hurry at once from the Giant’s
Causeway to Bristol, where he had arrived on Sunday, to investigate the
books and examine the underlings.  In the midst Tooke attempted to
abscond, but he was brought back as he was embarking in an American
vessel; and he then confessed the whole,—how speculation had led to
dishonesty, and following evil customs not uncommon in other firms.
Then, when the fugitive found that young Winslow was too acute to be
blinded, and that it had been a still greater mistake to try to overcome
his integrity, self-defence required his ruin, or at any rate his
expulsion, before he could gain Mr. Castleford’s ear.

Tooke really believed that the discreditable bills were the young man’s
own, and proofs of concealed habits of dissipation; but this excellent
man had gone into the matter, repaired to the tradesfolk, learnt the
date, and whose the accounts really were, and had even hunted up the
barmaid, who was not married after all, and had no hesitation in avowing
that her beau had been the handsome young Yeomanry lieutenant.  Mr.
Castleford had spent the greater part of Monday in this painful task, but
had not been clear enough till quite late in the evening to despatch an
express to his partner, and to Clarence, whom he desired to meet him

‘He has acted nobly,’ said our kind friend.  ‘His only error seems to
have been in being too good a brother.’

This made me implore that nothing should be said about Griffith’s bills,
showing those injunctions of Clarence’s which had so puzzled me, and
explaining the circumstances.

Mr. Castleford hummed and hawed, and perhaps wished he had seen my father
before me; but I prevailed at last, and when the others came in from
their drive, there was nothing to alloy the intelligence that Clarence
had shown rare discernment, as well as great uprightness, steadfastness,
and moral courage.

My mother, when she had taken in the fact, actually shed tears of joy.
Emily stood by me, holding my hand.  My father said, ‘It is all owing to
you, Castleford, and the helping hand you gave the poor boy.’

‘Nay,’ was the answer, ‘it seems to me that it was owing to his having
the root of the matter in him to overcome his natural failings.’

Still, in all the rejoicing, my heart failed me lest the express should
have come too late, and Clarence should be already on the high seas, for
there had been no letter from him on Sunday morning.  It was doubtful
whether Mr. Castleford’s messenger could reach London in time for tidings
to come down by the coach—far less did we expect Clarence—and we had
nearly finished the first course at dinner, when we heard the front door
open, and a voice speaking to the butler.  Emily screamed ‘It’s he!  Oh
mamma, may I?’ and flew out into the hall, dragging in a pale, worn and
weary wight, all dust and heat, having travelled down outside the coach
on a broiling day, and walked the rest of the way.  He looked quite
bewildered at the rush at him; my father’s ‘Well done, Clarence,’ and
strong clasp; and my mother’s fervent kiss, and muttered something about
washing his hands.

Formal folks, such as we were, had to sit in our chairs; and when he came
back apologising for not dressing, as he had left his portmanteau for the
carrier, he looked so white and ill that we were quite shocked, and began
to realise what he had suffered.  He could not eat the food that was
brought back for him, and allowed that his head was aching dreadfully;
but, after a glass of wine had been administered, it was extracted that
he had met Mr. Frith at the office door, and been gruffly told that Mr.
Castleford was satisfied, and he might consider himself acquitted.

‘And then I had your letter, sir, thank you,’ said Clarence, scarcely
restraining his tears.

‘The thanks are on our side, my dear boy,’ said Mr. Castleford.  ‘I must
talk it over with you, but not till you have had a night’s rest.  You
look as if you had not known one for a good while.’

Clarence gave a sort of trembling smile, not trusting himself to speak.
Approbation at home was so new and strange to him that he could scarcely
bear it, worn out as he was by nearly a month of doubt, distress,
apprehension, and self-debate.

My mother went herself to hasten the preparation of his room, and after
she had sent him to bed went again to satisfy herself that he was
comfortable and not feverish.  She came back wiping away a tear, and
saying he had looked up at her just as when she had the three of us in
our nursery cribs.  In truth these two had seldom been so happy together
since those days, though the dear mother, while thankful that he had not
failed, was little aware of the conflict his resolution had cost him, and
the hot journey and long walk came in for more blame for his exhaustion
than they entirely deserved.

My father perhaps understood more of the trial; for when she came back,
declaring that all that was needed was sleep, and forbidding me to go to
my room before bedtime, he said he must bid the boy good-night.

And he spoke as his reserve would have never let him speak at any other
time, telling Clarence how deeply thankful he felt for the manifestation
of such truthfulness and moral courage as he said showed that the man had
conquered the failings of the boy.

Nevertheless, when I retired for the night, it was to find Clarence
asleep indeed, but most uneasily, tossing, moaning, and muttering broken
sentences about ‘disgracing his pennant,’ ‘never bearing to see mamma’s
face’—and the like.  I thought it a kindness to wake him, and he started
up.  ‘Ted, is it you?  I thought I should never hear your dear old crutch
again!  Is it really all right’—then, sitting up and passing his hand
over his face, ‘I always mix it up with the old affair, and think the
court-martial is coming again.’

‘There’s all the difference now.’

‘Thank God! yes—He has dragged me through!  But it did not seem so in
one’s sleep, nor waking neither—though sleep is worst, and happily there
was not much of that!  Sit down, Ted; I want to look at you.  I can’t
believe it is not three weeks since I saw you last.’

We talked it all out, and I came to some perception of the fearful ordeal
it had been—first, in the decision neither to shut his eyes, nor to
conceal that they were open; and then in the lack of presence of mind and
the sense of confusion that always beset him when browbeaten and talked
down, so that, in the critical contest with Tooke, he felt as if his feet
were slipping from under him, and what had once been clear to him was
becoming dim, so that he had only been assured that he had held his
ground by Tooke’s redoubled persuasions and increased anger.  And for a
clerk, whose years were only twenty-one, to oppose a manager, who had
been in the service more than the whole of that space, was preposterous
insolence, and likely to result in the utter ruin of his own prospects,
and the character he had begun to retrieve.  It was just after this, the
real crisis, that he had the only dream which had not been misery and
distress.  In it she—she yonder—yes, the lady with the lamp, came and
stood by him, and said, ‘Be steadfast.’

‘It was a dream,’ said Clarence.  ‘She was not as she is in the mullion
room, not crying, but with a sweet, sad look, almost like Miss Fordyce—if
Miss Fordyce ever looked sad.  It was only a dream.’

Yet it had so refreshed and comforted him that we have often since
discussed whether the spirit really visited him, or whether this was the
manner in which conscience and imagination acted on his brain.  Indeed,
he always believed that the dream had been either heaven-sent or

The die had been cast in that interview when he had let it be seen that
he was dangerous, and could not be bought over.  The after consequences
had been the terrible distress and temptation I have before described,
only most inadequately.  ‘But that,’ said Clarence, half smiling, ‘only
came of my being such a wretched creature as I am.  There, dear old Miss
Newton saved me—yes, she did—most unconsciously, dear old soul.  Don’t
you remember how Griff used to say she maundered over the text.  Well,
she did it all the way home in my ear, as she clung to my arm—“Be strong,
and He shall comfort thine heart.”  And then I knew my despair and
determination to leave it all behind were a temptation—“the old story,”
as you told me, and I prayed God to help me, and just managed to fight it
out.  Thank God for her!’

If it had not been for that good woman, he would have been out of
reach—already out in the river—before Mr. Castleford’s messenger had
reached London!  He might call himself a poor creature—and certainly a
man of harder, bolder stuff would not have fared so badly in the strife;
but it always seemed to me in after years that much of what he called the
poor creature—the old, nervous, timid, diffident self—had been shaken off
in that desperate struggle, perhaps because it had really given him more
self-reliance, and certainly inspired others with confidence in him.

We talked late enough to have horrified my mother, but I did not leave
him till he was sleeping like a child, nor did he wake till I was leaving
the room at the sound of the bell.  It was alleged that it was the first
time in his life that he had been late for prayers.  Mr. Castleford said
he was very glad, and my mother, looking severely at me, said she knew we
had been talking all night, and then went off to satisfy herself whether
he ought to be getting up.

There was no doubt on that score, for he was quite himself again, though
he was, in looks and in weariness, just as if he had recovered from a bad
illness, or, as he put it himself, he felt as tired and bruised as if he
had been in a stiff gale.  Mr. Castleford was sorry to be obliged to ask
him to go through the whole matter with him in the study, and the result
was that he was pronounced to have an admirable head for business, as
well as the higher qualities that had been put to the test.  After that
his good friend insisted that he should have a long and complete holiday,
at first proposing to take him to Ireland, but giving the notion up on
hearing of our projected excursion to the north of Devon.  Pending this,
Clarence was, for nearly a week, fit for nothing but lying on the grass
in the shade, playing with the cats and dogs, or with little Anne,
looking over our drawings, listening to Wordsworth, our reigning
idol,—and enjoying, with almost touching gratitude, the first approach to
petting that had ever fallen to his share.

The only trouble on his mind was the Quarter-Session.  Mr. Castleford
would hardly have prosecuted an old employé, but Mr. Frith was furious,
and resolved to make an example.  Tooke had, however, so carefully
entrenched himself that nothing could be actually made a subject of
prosecution but the abstraction of the £20 of which he had accused
Clarence, who had to prove the having received and delivered it.

It was a very painful affair, and Tooke was sentenced to seven years’
transportation.  I believe he became a very rich and prosperous man in
New South Wales, and founded a family.  My father received warm
compliments upon his sons, and Clarence had the new sensation of being
honourably coupled with Griffith, though he laughed at the idea of mere
honesty with fierce struggles being placed beside heroism with no
struggle at all.


    ‘The child upon the mountain side
       Plays fearless and at ease,
    While the hush of purple evening
       Spreads over earth and seas.
    The valley lies in shadow,
       But the valley lies afar;
    And the mountain is a slope of light
       Upreaching to a star.’

                                                          MENELLA SMEDLEY.

HOW pleasant it was to hear Griffith’s cheery voice, as he swung himself
down, out of a cloud of dust, from the top of the coach at the wayside
stage-house, whither Clarence and I had driven in the new britshka to
meet him.  While the four fine coach-horses were led off, and their
successors harnessed in almost the twinkling of an eye, Griff was with
us; and we did nothing but laugh and poke fun at each other all the way
home, without a word of graver matters.

I was resolved, however, that Griff should know how terribly his
commission had added to Clarence’s danger, and how carefully the secret
had been guarded; and the first time I could get him alone, I told him
the whole.

The effect was one of his most overwhelming fits of laughter.  ‘Poor old
Bill!  To think of his being accused of gallanting about with barmaids!’
(an explosion at every pause) ‘and revelling with officers!  Poor old
Bill! it was as bad as Malvolio himself.’

When, indignant at the mirth excited by what had nearly cost us so dear,
I observed that these items had nearly turned the scale against our
brother, Griff demanded how we could have been such idiots as not to have
written to him; I might at least have had the sense to do so.  As to its
doing him harm at Hillside, Parson Frank was no fool, and knew what men
were made of!  Griff would have taken the risk, come at once, and thrust
the story down the fellow’s throat (as indeed he would have done).  The
idea of Betsy putting up with a pious young man like Bill, whose only
flame had ever been old Miss Newton!  And he roared again at the
incongruous pair.  ‘Oh, wasn’t she married after all, the hussy?  She
always had a dozen beaux, and professed to be on the point of putting up
her banns; so if the earrings were not a wedding present, they might have
been, ought to have been, and would be some time or other.’

Then he patted me, and declared there was no occasion for my disgusted
looks, for no one knew better than himself that he had the best brace of
brothers in existence, wanting in nothing but common sense and knowledge
of the world.  As to Betsy—faugh!  I need not make myself uneasy about
her; she knew what a civil word was worth much better than I did.

He showed considerable affection for Clarence after a fashion of his own,
which we three perfectly understood, and preferred to anything more
conventional.  Griff was always delightful, and he was especially so on
that vacation, when every one was in high spirits; so that the journey
is, as I look back on it, like a spot of brilliant sunshine in the
distant landscape.

Mrs. Fordyce kept house with her father-in-law, little Anne, and Martyn,
whose holidays began a week after we had started.  The two children were
allowed to make a desert island and a robbers’ cave in the beech wood;
and the adventures which their imaginations underwent there completely
threw ours into the shade.

The three ladies and I started in the big Hillside open carriage, with my
brothers on the box and the two fathers on horseback.  Frank Fordyce was
a splendid rider, as indeed was the old rector, who had followed the
hounds, made a leap over a fearful chasm, still known as the Parson’s
Stride, and had been an excellent shot.  The renunciation of field sports
had been a severe sacrifice to Frank Fordyce, and showed of what
excellent stuff he was made.  He used to say that it was his own fault
that he had to give them up; another man would have been less engrossed
by them.  Though he only read by fits and starts when his enthusiasm was
excited, he was thorough, able, and acute, and his intelligence and
sympathy were my father’s best compensation for the loss of London

The two riders were a great contrast.  Mr. Winslow had the thoroughly
well-appointed, somewhat precise, and highly-polished air of a barrister,
and a thin, somewhat worn and colourless face, with grizzled hair and
white whiskers; and though he rode well, with full command of his horse,
he was old enough to have chosen Chancery for her sterling qualities.
Parson Frank, on the other hand, though a thorough gentleman, was as
ruddy and weather-browned as any farmer, and—albeit his features were
handsome and refined, and his figure well poised and athletic—he lost
something of dignity by easiness of gesture and carelessness of dress,
except on state occasions, when he discarded his beloved rusty old coat
and Oxford mixture trousers, and came out magnificent enough for an
archdeacon, if not an archbishop; while his magnificent horse, Cossack,
was an animal that a sporting duke might have envied.

Nothing ever tired that couple, but my father had stipulated for
exchanges with Griffith.  On these occasions it almost invariably
happened that there was a fine view for Ellen to see, so that she was
exalted to the box with Griffith to show it to her, and Chancery was
consigned to Clarence.  Griff was wont to say that Chancery deserved her
name, and that he would defy the ninety-ninth part of a tailor to come to
harm with her; but Clarence was utterly unpractised in riding, did not
like it, was tormented lest Cossack’s antics should corrupt Chancery, and
was mortally afraid of breaking the knees of the precious mare.  Not all
Parson Frank’s good advice and kindly raillery would induce him to risk
riding her on a descent; and as our travels were entirely up and down
hill, he was often left leading her far behind, in hot sun or misty rain,
and then would come cantering hastily up, reckless of parallels with John
Gilpin, and only anxious to be in time to help me out at the
halting-place; but more than once only coming in when the beefsteaks were
losing their first charm, and then good-humouredly serving as the general
butt for his noble horsemanship.  Did any one fully comprehend how much
pleasanter our journey was through the presence of one person entirely at
the service of the others?  For my own part, it made an immense
difference to have one pair of strong arms and dextrous well-accustomed
hands always at my service, enabling me to accomplish what no one else,
kind as all were, would have ventured on letting me attempt.  Primarily,
he was my devoted slave; but he was at the beck and call of every one,
making the inquiries, managing the bargains, going off in search of
whatever was wanting—taking in fact all the ‘must be dones’ of the
journal.  The contemplation of Cossack and Chancery being rubbed down,
and devouring their oats was so delightful to Frank Fordyce and Griffith
that they seldom wished to shirk it; but if there were any more pleasing
occupation, it was a matter of course that Clarence should watch to see
that the ostlers did their duty by the animals—an obsolete ceremony, by
the bye.  He even succeeded in hunting up and hiring a side saddle when
the lovers, with the masterfulness of their nature, devised appropriating
the horses at all the most beautiful places, in spite of Frank’s murmur,
‘What will mamma say?’  But, as Griff said, it was a real mercy, for
Ellen was infinitely more at her ease with Chancery than was Clarence.
Then Emily had Clarence to walk up the hills with her, and help her in
botany—her special department in our tour.  Mine was sketching, Ellen’s,
keeping the journal, though we all shared in each other’s work at times;
and Griff, whose line was decidedly love-making, interfered considerably
with us all, especially with our chronicler.  I spare you the tour, young
people; it lies before me on the table, profusely illustrated and written
in many hands.  As I turn it over, I see noble Dunster on its rock;
Clarence leading Chancery down Porlock Hill; Parson Frank in vain pursuit
of his favourite ancient hat over that wild and windy waste, the sheep
running away from him; a boat tossing at lovely Minehead; a ‘native’
bargaining over a crab with my mother; the wonderful Valley of Rocks, and
many another scene, ludicrous or grand; for, indeed, we were for ever
taking the one step between the sublime and the ridiculous!  I am
inclined to believe it is as well worth reading as many that have rushed
into print, and it is full of precious reminiscences to Emily and me; but
the younger generation may judge for itself, and it would be an
interruption here.  The country we saw was of utterly unimagined beauty
to the untravelled eyes of most of us.  I remember Ellen standing on
Hartland Point, with her face to the infinite expanse of the Atlantic,
and waving back Griff with ‘Oh, don’t speak to me.’  Yet the sea was a
delight above all to my mother and Clarence.  To them it was a beloved
friend; and magnificent as was Lynmouth, wonderful as was Clovelly, and
glorious as was Hartland, I believe they would equally have welcomed the
waves if they had been on the flattest of muddy shores!  The ripple,
plash, and roar were as familiar voices, the salt smell as native air;
and my mother never had thawed so entirely towards Clarence as when she
found him the only person who could thoroughly participate her feeling.

At Minehead they stayed out, walking up and down together in the summer
twilight till long after every one else was tired out, and had gone in;
and when at last they appeared she was leaning on Clarence’s arm, an
unprecedented spectacle!

At Appledore, the only place on that rugged coast where boating tempted
them, there was what they called a pretty little breeze, but quite enough
to make all the rest of us decline venturing out into Bideford bay.
They, however, found a boatman and made a trip, which was evidently such
enjoyment to them, that my father, who had been a little restless and
uneasy all the time, declared on their return that he felt quite jealous
of Neptune, and had never known what a cruelty he was committing in
asking a sea-nymph to marry a London lawyer.

Mr. Fordyce told him he was afraid of being like the fisherman who wedded
a mermaid, and made Ellen tell the story in her own pretty way; but while
we were laughing over it, I saw my mother steal her hand into my father’s
and give it a strong grasp.  Such gestures, which she denominated pawing,
when she witnessed them in Emily, were so alien to her in general that no
doubt this little action was infinitely expressive to her husband.  She
was wonderfully softened, and Clarence implied to me that it was the
first time she had ever seemed to grieve for him more than she despised
him, or to recognise his deprivation more than his disgrace,—implied, I
say, for the words he used were little more than—‘You can’t think how
nice she was to me.’

The regaining of esteem and self-respect was lessening Clarence’s
bashfulness, and bringing out his powers of conversation, so that he
began to be appreciated as a pleasant companion, answering Griff’s
raillery in like fashion, and holding his own in good-natured repartee.
Mr. Fordyce got on excellently with him in their tête-à-têtes (who would
not with Parson Frank?), and held him in higher estimation than did
Ellen.  To her, honesty was common, tame, and uninteresting in comparison
with heroism; and Griff’s vague statement that Clarence was the best
brother in the world did not go for much.  Emily and I longed to get the
two better acquainted, but it did not become possible while Griff
absorbed the maiden as his exclusive property.

The engagement was treated as an avowed and settled thing, though I do
not know that there had been a formal ratification by the parents; but in
truth Mrs. Fordyce must have tacitly yielded her consent when she
permitted her daughter to make the journey under the guardianship of
Parson Frank.  After a walk in the ravine of Lynton, we became aware of a
ring upon Ellen’s finger; and Emily was allowed at night to hear how and
when it had been put on.

Ellen only slightly deepened her lovely carnation tints when her father
indulged in a little tender teasing and lamentation over himself.  She
was thoroughly happy and proud of her hero, and not ashamed of owning it.

There was one evening when she and I were sitting with our sketchbooks in
the shade on the beech at Ilfracombe, while the rest had gone, some to
bathe, the others to make purchases in the town.  We had been condoling
with one another over the impossibility of finding anything among our
water-colours that would express the wondrous tints before our eyes.

‘No, nothing can do it,’ I said at last; ‘we can only make a sort of blot
to assist our memories.’

‘Sunshine outside and in!’ said Ellen.  ‘The memory of such days as these
can never fade away,—no, nor thankfulness for them, I hope.’

Something then passed about the fact that it was quite possible to go on
in complete content in a quiet monotonous life, in an oyster-like way,
till suddenly there was an unveiling and opening of unimagined capacities
of enjoyment—as by a scene like this before us, by a great poem, an
oratorio, or, as I supposed, by Niagara or the Alps.  Ellen put it—‘Oh!
and by feelings for the great and good!’  Dear girl, her colour deepened,
and I am sure she meant her bliss in her connection with her hero.
Presently, however, she passed on to saying how such revelations of
unsuspected powers of enjoyment helped one to enter into what was meant
by ‘Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither hath it entered into the
heart of man to conceive, the things that God hath prepared for them that
love him.’  Then there was a silence, and an inevitable quoting of the
_Christian Year_, the guide to all our best thoughts—

    ‘But patience, there may come a time.’

And then a turning to the ‘Ode to Immortality,’ for Wordsworth was our
second leader, and we carried him on our tour as our one secular book, as
Keble was our one religious book.  We felt that the principal joy of all
this beauty and delight was because there was something beyond.
Presently Ellen said, prettily and shyly, ‘I am sure all this has opened
much more to me than I ever thought of.  I always used to be glad that we
had no brothers, because our cousins were not always pleasant with us;
but now I have learnt what valuable possessions they are,’ she added,
with the sweetest, prettiest glance of her bright eyes.

I ventured to say that I was glad she said they, and hoped it was a sign
that she was finding out Clarence.

‘I have found out that I behaved so ill to him that I have been ashamed
ever since to look at him or speak to him,’ said Ellen; ‘I long to ask
his pardon, but I believe that would distress him more than anything.’

In which she was right; and I was able to tell her of the excuses there
had been for the poor boy, how he had suffered, and how he had striven to
conquer his failings; and she replied that the words ‘Judge not, that ye
be not judged,’ always smote her with the remembrance of her disdainfully
cantering past him.  There was a tear on her eye-lashes, and it drew from
me an apology for having brought a painful recollection into our bright

‘There must be shade to throw up the lights,’ she said, with her
sparkling look.

Was it shade that we never fell into one of these grave talks when
Griffith was present, and that the slightest approach to them was sure to
be turned by him into jest?

We made our journey a little longer than we intended, crossing the moors
so as to spend a Sunday at Exeter; but Frank Fordyce left us, not liking
to give his father the entire duty of a third Sunday.

Emily says she has come to have a superstition that extensions of
original plans never turn out well, and certainly some of the charm of
our journey departed with the merry, genial Parson Frank.  Our mother was
more anxious about Ellen, and put more restrictions on the lovers than
when the father was present to sanction their doings.  Griffith
absolutely broke out against her in a way he had never ventured before,
when she forbade Ellen’s riding with him when he wanted to hire a horse
at Lydford and take an excursion on the moor before joining us at

My father looked up, and said, ‘Griffith, I am surprised at you.’  He was
constrained to mutter some apology, and I believe Ellen privately begged
my mother’s pardon, owning her to have been quite right; but, by the dear
girl, the wonderful cascade and narrow gorge were seen through swollen
eyes.  And poor Clarence must have had a fine time of it when Griffith
had to ride off with him _faute de mieux_.

All was cleared off, however, when we met again, for Griff’s storms were
very fleeting, and Ellen treated him as if she had to make her own peace
with him.  She sacrificed her own enjoyment of Exeter Cathedral to go
about with him when he had had enough of it, but on Sunday afternoon she
altogether declined to walk with him till after the second service.  He
laughed at her supposed passion for sacred music, and offered to wait
with her to hear the anthem from the nave.  ‘No,’ she said, ‘that would
be amusing ourselves instead of worshipping.’

‘We’ve done our devoir in that way already,’ said Griff.  ‘Paid our

‘One can’t,’ cried Ellen, with an eager look.  ‘One longs to do all the
more when He has just let us have such a taste of His beautiful things.’

‘_One_, perhaps, when one is a little saint,’ returned Griff.

‘Oh don’t, Griff!  I’m not _that_; but you know every one wants all the
help and blessing that can be got.  And then it is so delightful!’

He gave a long whistle.  ‘Every one to his taste,’ he said; ‘especially
you ladies.’

He did come to the Cathedral with us, but he had more than half spoilt
this last Sunday.  Did he value her for what was best in her, or was her
influence raising him?


    ‘Forgot were hatred, wrongs, and fears,
    The plaintive voice alone she hears,
       Sees but the dying man.’


C. MORBUS, Esq.  Such was the card that some wicked wag, one of
Clarence’s fellow-clerks probably, left at his lodgings in the course of
the epidemic which was beginning its ravages even while we were upon our
pleasant journey—a shade indeed to throw out the light.

In these days, the tidings of a visitation of cholera are heard with
compassion for crowded towns, but without special alarm for ourselves or
our friends, since its conditions and the mode of combating it have come
to be fairly understood.

In 1832, however, it was a disease almost unknown and unprecedented
except in its Indian abode, whence it had advanced city by city, seaport
by seaport, sweeping down multitudes before it; nor had science yet
discovered how to encounter or forestall it.  We heard of it in a
helpless sort of way, as if it had been the plague or the Black Death,
and thought of its victims as doomed.

That terrible German engraving, ‘Death as a Foe,’ which represents the
grisly form as invading a ballroom in Paris, is an expression of the
feeling with which the scourge was regarded on that first occasion.  _Two
Years Ago_ gives some notion of the condition of things in 1849, but by
that time there had been some experience, and means of prevention were
better understood.  On the alarm in that year there was a great
inspection of cottages throughout Earlscombe and Hillside, but in 1832
there was no notion of such precautions.  Nevertheless, on neither
visitation, nor any subsequent one, has the disease come nearer to us
than Bristol.

As far as memory serves me, the idea was that wholesome food, regular
habits, and cleanliness were some protection, but one locality might be
as dangerous as another.  There had been cases in London all the spring,
but no special anxiety was felt when Clarence returned to his work in the
end of July, much refreshed and invigorated by his holiday, and with the
understanding that he was to have a rise in position and salary on Mr.
Castleford’s return from Ireland, where he was still staying with his
wife’s relations.  Clarence was received at the office with a kind of
shamefaced cordiality, as if every one would fain forget the way in which
he had been treated; and he was struck by finding that all the talk was
of the advances of the cholera, chiefly at Rotherhithe.  And a great
shock awaited him.  He went, as soon as business hours were over, to
thank good old Miss Newton for the comfort and aid she had unwittingly
given him, and to tell her from what she had saved him.  Alas! it was the
last benefit she was ever to confer on her old pupil.  At the door he was
told by a weeping, terrified maid that she was very ill with cholera, and
that no hope was given.  He tried to send up a message, but she was in a
state of collapse and insensible; and when he inquired the next morning,
the gentle spirit had passed away.

He attended her funeral that same evening.  Griff said it was a proof how
your timid people will do the most foolhardy things; but Clarence always
held that the good woman had really done more for him than any one in
actually establishing a contact, so to say, between his spirit and
external truth, and he thought no mark of respect beyond her deserts.
She was a heavy loss to him, for no one else in town gave him the sense
of home kindness; and there was much more to depress him, for several of
his Sunday class were dead, and the school had been broken up for the
time, while the heats and the fruits of August contributed to raise the

His return had released a couple more clerks for their holiday; it was a
slack time of year, with less business in hand than usual, and the place
looked empty.  Mr. Frith worked on as usual, but preserved an ungracious
attitude, as though he were either still incredulous or, if convinced
against his will, resolved that ‘that prig of a Winslow’ should not
presume upon his services.  Altogether the poor fellow was quite
unhinged, and wrote such dismal bills of mortality, and meek, resigned
forebodings that my father was almost angry, declaring that he would
frighten himself into the sickness; yet I suppressed a good deal, and
never told them of the last will and testament in which he distributed
his possessions amongst us.  Griff said he had a great mind to go and
shake old Bill up and row him well, but he never did.

More than a week passed by, two of Clarence’s regular days for writing,
but no letter came.  My mother grew uneasy, and talked of writing to Mrs.
Robson, or, as we still called her, Gooch; but it was doubtful whether
the answer would contain much information, and it was quite certain that
any ill tidings would be sent to us.

At last we did hear, and found, as we had foreboded, that the letter had
not been written for fear of alarming us, or carrying infection, though
Clarence underlined the words ‘I am perfectly well.’

Having to take a message into the senior partner’s room, Clarence had
found the old man crouched over the table, writhing in the unmistakable
grip of the deadly enemy.  No one else was available; Clarence had to
collect himself, send for the doctor, and manage the conveyance of the
patient to his rooms, which fortunately adjoined the office; for, through
all his influx of wealth, Mr. Frith had retained the habits and
expenditure of his early struggling days.  His old housekeeper and her
drudge showed themselves terrified out of their senses, and as incapable
as unwilling.  Naval experience, and waiting on me, had taught Clarence
helpfulness and handiness; and though this was the very thing that had
appalled his imagination, he seemed, as he said afterwards, ‘to have got
beyond his fright’ to the use of his commonsense.  And when at last the
doctor came, and talked of finding a nurse, if possible, for they were
scarce articles, the sufferer only entreated between his paroxysms,
‘Stay, Winslow!  Is Winslow there?  Don’t go!  Don’t leave me!’

No nurse was to be found, but to Clarence’s amazement Gooch arrived.  He
had sent by the office boy to explain his absence; and before night the
faithful woman descended on him, intending, as in her old days of
authority, simply to put Master Clarry out of harm’s way, and take the
charge upon herself.  Then, as he proved unmanageable and would not leave
his patient, neither would she leave him, and through the frightful night
that ensued, there was quite employment enough for them both.  Gooch
fully thought the end would come before morning, and was murmuring
something about a clergyman, but was cut short by a sharp prohibition.
However, detecting Clarence’s lips moving, the old man said, ‘Eh! speak
it out!’  ‘And with difficulty, feeling as if I were somebody else,’ said
Clarence, ‘I did get out some short words of prayer.  It seemed so awful
for him to die without any.’

When the doctor came in early morning, the watchers were astonished to
hear that their charge had taken a turn for the better, and might recover
if their admirable care were continued.  The doctor had brought a nurse;
but Mr. Frith would not let her come into the room, and there was plenty
of need for her elsewhere.

Several days of unremitting care followed, during which Clarence durst
not write to us, so little were the laws of infection understood.  Good
Mrs. Robson stayed all the time, and probably saved Clarence from falling
a victim to his zeal, for she looked after him as anxiously as after the
sick man; and with a wondering and thankful heart, he found himself in
full health, when both were set free to return home.  Clarence had
written at the beginning of the illness to the only relations of whose
existence or address he was aware, an old sister, Mrs. Stevens, and a
young great-nephew in the office at Liverpool; and the consequence was
the arrival of a sour-looking, old widow sister, who came to take charge
of the convalescence, and, as the indignant Gooch overheard her say, ‘to
prevent that young Winslow from getting round him.’

There were no signs of such a feat having been performed, when, the panic
being past, my father went up to London with Griffith, who was to begin
eating his terms at the Temple.  He was to share Clarence’s lodgings, for
the Robsons had plenty of room, and Gooch was delighted to extend her
cares to her special favourite, as she already reigned over Clarence’s
wardrobe and table as entirely as in nursery days; and, to my great
exultation, my father said it would be good for Griffith to be with his
brother; and, moreover, we should hear of the latter.  Nothing could be a
greater contrast than his rare notifications or requests, scrawled on a
single side of the quarto sheet, with Clarence’s regular weekly lines of
clerkly manuscript, telling all that could interest any of us, and
covering every available flap up to the blank circle left for the trim
red seal.

Promotion had come to Clarence in the natural course of seniority, and a
small sum, due to him on his coming of age, was invested in the house of
business, so that the two brothers could take between them all the
Robsons’ available rooms.  Clarence’s post was one of considerable trust;
but there were no tokens of special favour, except that Mr. Frith was
more civil to my father than usual, and when he heard of the arrangement
about the lodgings, he snarled out, ‘Hm!  Law student indeed!  Don’t let
him spoil his brother!’

Which was so far an expression of gratitude that it showed that he
considered that there was something to be spoilt.  Mr. Castleford,
however, showed real satisfaction in the purchase of a share in the
concern for Clarence.  His own eldest son inherited a good deal of his
mother’s Irish nature, and was evidently unfit to be anything but a
soldier, and the next was so young that he was glad to have a promising
and trustworthy young man, from whom a possible joint head of the firm
might be manufactured.


    If you can separate yourself and your misdemeanours you are welcome
    to the house; if not, an it would please you to take leave of her,
    she is very willing to bid you farewell.’—_Twelfth Night_.

IN the early summer of 1833, we had the opportunity of borrowing a
friend’s house in Portman Square for six weeks, and we were allowed to
take Ellen with us for introduction to the Admiral and other old friends,
while we were to make acquaintance with her connections—the family of Sir
Horace Lester, M.P.

We were very civil; but there were a good many polite struggles for the
exclusive possession of Ellen, whom both parties viewed as their
individual right; and her unselfish good-humour and brightness must have
carried her over more worries than we guessed at the time.

She had stayed with the Lesters before, but in schoolroom days.  They
were indolent and uninterested, and had never shown her any of the
permanent wonders of London, despising these as only fit for country
cousins, whereas we had grown up to think of them with intelligent
affection.  To me, however, much was as new as to Ellen.  Country life
had done so much for me that I could venture on what I had never
attempted before.  The Admiral said it was getting away from doctors and
their experiments, but I had also done with the afflictions of attempts
at growth in wrong directions.  Old friends did not know me, and more
than once, as I sat in the carriage, addressed me for one of my
brothers—a compliment which, Griff said, turned my head.  Happily I was
too much accustomed to my own appearance, and people were too kind, for
me to have much shyness on that score.  Our small dinner parties were
great enjoyment to me, and the two girls were very happy in their little

Braham and Catalani, Fanny Kemble, and Turner’s landscapes at his best,
rise in my memory as supreme delights and revelations in their different
lines, and awakening trains of thought; and then there was that
entertainment which Griffith and Clarence gave us in their rooms, when
they regaled us with all the delicacies of the season, and Peter and
Gooch looked all pride and hospitality!  The dining-parlour, or what
served as such, was Griff’s property, as any one could see by the
pictures of horses, dogs, and ladies, the cups, whips, and boxing-gloves
that adorned it; the sitting-room had tokens of other occupation, in
Clarence’s piano, window-box of flowers, and his one extravagance in
engravings from Raffaelle, and a marine water-colour or two, besides all
my own attempts at family portraits, with a case of well-bound books.
Those two rooms were perfectly redolent of their masters—I say it
literally—for the scent of flowers was in Clarence’s room, and in
Griff’s, the odour of cigars had not wholly been destroyed even by much
airing.  For in those days it was regarded by parents and guardians as an
objectionable thing.

Peter was radiant on that occasion; but a few evenings later, when all
were gone to an evening party except my father and myself, Mr. Robson was
announced as wishing to speak to Mr. Winslow.  After the civilities
proper to the visit of an old servant had passed, he entered with obvious
reluctance on the purpose of his visit, namely, his dissatisfaction with
Griff as a lodger.  His wife, he said, would not have had him speak, she
was _that_ attached to Mr. Griffith, it couldn’t be more if he was her
own son; nor was it for want of liking for the young gentleman on his
part, as had known him from a boy, ‘but the wife of one’s bosom must come
first, sir, as stands to reason, and it’s for the good of the young
gentleman himself, and his family, as some one should speak.  I never
said one word against it when she would not be satisfied without running
the risk of her life after Mr. Clarence; hattending of Mr. Frith in the
cholery.  That was only her dooty, sir, and I have never a word to say
against dooty: but I cannot see her nearly wore out, and for no good to

It appeared that Mrs. Robson was ‘pretty nigh wore out, a setting up for
Mr. Griffith’s untimely hours.’  ‘He laughed and coaxed—what I calls
cajoling—did Mr. Griff, to get a latch-key; but we knows our dooty too
well for that, and Mrs. Winslow had made us faithfully promise, when
Master Clarence first came to us, that he should never have a
latch-key,—Mr. Clarence, as had only been five times later than eleven
o’clock, and then he was going to dine with Mr. Castleford, or to the
theayter, and spoke about it beforehand.  If he was not reading to poor
Miss Newton, as was gone, or with some of his language-masters, he was
setting at home with his books and papers, not giving no trouble to
nobody, after he had had his bit of bread and cheese and glass of beer to
his supper.’

Ay, Peter knew what young gentlemen was.  He did not expect to see them
all like poor Master Clarence, as had had his troubles; the very life
knocked out of him in his youth, as one might say.  Indeed Peter would be
pleased to see him a bit more sprightly, and taking more to society and
hamusements of his hage.  Nor would there be any objection if the late
’ours was only once a week or so, and things was done in a style fitting
the family; but when it came to mostly every night, often to two or three
o’clock, it was too much for Mrs. Robson, for she would never go to bed,
being mortal afraid of fire, and not always certain that Mr. Griffith
was—to say—fit to put out his candle.  ‘What do you mean, Peter?’
thundered my father, whose brow had been getting more and more furrowed
every moment.  ‘Say it out!—Drunk?’

‘Well sir, no, no, not to say that exactly, but a little excited, sir,
and women is timid.  No sir, not to call intoxicated.’

‘No, that’s to come,’ muttered my father.  ‘Has this often happened?’

Peter did not think that it had been noticed more than three times at the
most; but he went on to offer his candid and sensible advice that Mr.
Griffith should be placed in a family where there was a gentleman or lady
who would have some hauthority, and could not be put aside with his
good-’umoured haffability—‘You’re an old fogy, Peter.’  ‘Never mind,
Nursey, I’ll be a good boy next time,’ and the like.  ‘It is a
disadvantage you see, sir, to have been in his service, and ’tis for the
young gentleman’s own good as I speaks; but it would be better if he were
somewheres else—unless you would speak to him, sir.’

To the almost needless question whether Clarence had been with his
brother on these occasions, there was a most decided negative.  He had
never gone out with Griffith except once to the theatre, and to dine at
the Castlefords, and at first he had sat up for his return, ‘but it led
to words between the young gentlemen,’ said Peter, whose confidences were
becoming reckless; and it appeared that when Clarence had found that
Gooch would not let him spare her vigil, he had obeyed her orders and
ceased to share it.

Peter was thanked for the revelations, which had been a grievous effort
to him, and dismissed.  My father sat still in great distress and
perplexity, asking me whether Clarence had ever told me anything of this,
and I had barely time to answer ‘No’ before Clarence himself came in,
from what Peter called his language-master.  He was taking lessons in
French and Spanish, finding a knowledge of these useful in business.  To
his extreme distress, my father fell on him at once, demanding what he
knew of the way Griffith was spending his time, ‘coming home at all sorts
of hours in a disreputable condition.  No prevarication, sir,’ he added,
as the only too familiar look of consternation and bewilderment came over
Clarence’s face.  ‘You are doing your brother no good by conniving at his
conduct.  Speak truth, if you can,’ he added, with more cruelty than he
knew, in his own suffering.

‘Sir,’ gasped Clarence, ‘I know Griff often comes home after I am in bed,
but I do not know the exact time, nor anything more.’

‘Is this all you can tell me?  Really all?’

‘All I know—that is—of my own knowledge,’ said Clarence, recovering a
little, but still unable to answer without hesitation, which vexed my

‘What do you mean by that?  Do you hear nothing?’

‘I am afraid,’ said Clarence, ‘that I do not see as much of him as I had
hoped.  He is not up till after I have to be at our place, and he does
not often spend an evening at home.  He is such a popular fellow, and has
so many friends and engagements.’

‘Ay, and of what sort?  Can’t you tell? or will you not?  I sent him up
to you, thinking you a steady fellow who might influence him for good.’

The colour rushed into Clarence’s face, as he answered, looking up and
speaking low, ‘Have I not forfeited all such hopes?’

‘Nonsense!  You’ve lived down that old story long ago.  You would make
your mark, if you only showed a little manliness and force of character.
Griffith was always fond of you.  Can’t you do anything to hinder him
from ruining his own life and that sweet girl’s happiness?’

‘I would—I would give my life to do so!’ exclaimed Clarence, in warm,
eager tones.  ‘I have tried, but he says I know nothing about it, and it
is very dull at our rooms for him.  I have got used to it, but you can’t
expect a fellow like Griff to stay at home, with no better company than
me, and do nothing but read law.’

‘Then you _do_ know,’ began my father; but Clarence, with full
self-possession, said, ‘I think you had better ask me no more questions,
papa.  I really know nothing, or hardly anything, personally of his
proceedings.  I went to one supper with him, after going to the play, and
did not fancy it; besides, it almost unfitted me for my morning’s work;
nor does it answer for me to sit up for him—it only vexes him, as if I
were watching him.’

‘Did you ever see him come home showing traces of excess?’

‘No!’ said Clarence, ‘I never saw!’ and, under a stern, distressed look,
‘Once I heard tones that—that startled me, and Mrs. Robson has grumbled a
good deal—but I think Peter takes it for more than it is worth.’

‘I see,’ said my father more gently; ‘I will not press you farther.  I
believe I ought to be glad that these habits are only hearsay to you.’

‘As far as I can see,’ said Clarence diffidently, but quite restored to
himself, ‘Griff is only like most of his set, young men who go into

‘Oh!’ said my father, in a ‘that’s your opinion’ kind of tone; and as at
that moment the yell of a newsboy was heard in the street, he exclaimed
that he must go and get an evening paper.  Clarence made a step to go
instead, but was thrust back, as apparently my father merely wanted an
excuse for rushing into the open air to recover the shock or to think it

Clarence gave a kind of groan, and presently exclaimed, ‘If only untruth
were not such a sin!’ and, on my exclamation of dismay, he added, ‘I
don’t think a blowing up ever does good!’

‘But this state of things should not last.’

‘It will not.  It would have come to an end without Peter’s springing
this mine.  Griff says he can’t stand Gooch any longer!  And really she
does worry him intolerably.’

‘Peter professed to come without her knowledge or consent.’

‘Exactly so.  It will almost break the good old soul’s heart for Griff to
leave her; but she expects to have him in hand as if he was in the
nursery.  She is ever so much worse than she was with me, and he is
really good-nature itself to laugh off her nagging as he does—about what
he chooses to put on, or eating, or smoking, or leaving his room untidy,
as well as other things.’

‘And those other things?  Do you suspect more than you told papa?’

‘It amounts to no more.  Griff likes amusement, and everybody likes
him—that’s all.  Yes, I know my father read law ten hours a day, but his
whole nature and circumstances were different.  I don’t believe Griff
could go on in that way.’

‘Not with such a hope before him?  You would, Clarence.’

His face and not his tongue answered me, but he added, ‘Griff is sure of
_that_ without so much labour and trouble.’

‘And do you see so little of him?’

‘I can’t help it.  I can’t keep his hours and do my work.  Yes, I know we
are drifting apart; I wish I could help it, but being coupled up together
makes it rather worse than better.  It aggravates him, and he will really
get on better without Gooch to worry him, and thrust my droning old ways
down his throat,—as if Prince Hal could bear to be twitted with “that
sober boy, Lord John of Lancaster.”  Not,’ he added, catching himself up,
‘that I meant to compare him to the madcap Prince.  He is the finest of
fellows, if they only would let him alone.’

And that was all I could get from Clarence.


       ‘Spited with a fool—
    Spited and angered both.’


THIS long stay of Ellen’s in our family had made our fraternal relations
with her nearer and closer.  Familiarity had been far from lessening our
strong feeling for her goodness and sweetness.  Emily, who knew her best,
used to confide to me little instances of the spirit of devotion and
self-discipline that underlay all her sunny gaiety—how she never failed
in her morning’s devout readings; how she learnt a verse or two of
Scripture every day, and persuaded Emily to join with her in repeating it
ere they went downstairs for their evening’s pleasure; how she had set
herself a little task of plain work for the poor, which she did every day
in her own room; and the like dutiful habits, which seemed, as it were,
to help her to keep herself in hand, and not be carried away by what was
a whirl of pleasure to her, though a fashionable young lady would have
despised its mildness.

Indeed Lady Peacock, with whom we exchanged calls, made no secret of her
compassion when she found how many parties the ladies were _not_ going
to; and Ellen’s own relations, the Lesters, would have taken her out
almost every night if she had not staunchly held to her promise to her
mother not to go out more than three evenings in the week, for Mrs.
Fordyce knew her to be delicate, and feared late hours for her.  The
vexation her cousins manifested made her feel the more bound to give them
what time she could, at hours when Griffith was not at liberty.  She did
not like them to be hurt, and jealous of us, or to feel forsaken, and she
tried to put her affection for us on a different footing by averring that
‘it was not the same kind of thing—Emily was her sister.’

One day she had gone to luncheon with the Lesters in Cavendish Square,
and was to be called for in the carriage by me, on the way to take up the
other two ladies, who were shopping in Regent Street.

Ellen came running downstairs, with her cheeks in a glow under the pink
satin lining of her pretty bonnet, and her eyes sparkling with
indignation, which could not but break forth.

‘I don’t know how I shall ever go there again!’ she exclaimed; ‘they have
no right to say such things!’  Then she explained.  Mary and Louisa had
been saying horrid things about Griffith—her Griff!  It was always their
way.  Think how Horace had made her treat Clarence!  It was their way and
habit to tease, and call it fun, and she had never minded it before; but
this was too bad.  Would not I put it in her power to give a flat
contradiction, such as would make them ashamed of themselves?

Contradict what?

Then it appeared that the Misses Lester had laughed at her, who was so
very particular and scrupulous, for having taken up with a regular young
man about town.  Oh no, _they_ did not think much of it—no doubt he was
only just like other people; only the funny thing was that it should be
Ellen, for whom it was always supposed that no saint in the calendar, no
knight in all the Waverley novels, would be good enough!  And then, on
her hot desire to know what they meant, they quoted John, the brother in
the Guards, as having been so droll about poor Ellen’s perfect hero, and
especially at his straight-laced Aunt Fordyce having been taken in,—but
of course it was the convenience of joining the estates, and it was
agreeable to see that your very good folk could wink at things like other
people in such a case.  Then, when Ellen fairly drove her inquiries home,
in her absolute trust of confuting all slanders, she was told that
Griffith did, what she called ‘all sorts of things—billiards and all
that.’  And even that he was always running after a horrid Lady Peacock,
a gay widow.

‘They went on in fun,’ said Ellen, ‘and laughed the more when—yes, I am
afraid I did—I lost my temper.  No, don’t say I well might, I know I
ought not; but I told them I knew all about Lady Peacock, and that you
were all old friends, even before he rescued her from the Bristol riots
and brought her home to Chantry House; and that only made Mary merrier
than ever, and say, “What, another distressed damsel?  Take care, Ellen;
I would not trust such a squire of dames.”  And then Louisa chimed in,
“Oh no, you see this Peacock dame was only conducted, like Princess
Micomicona and all the rest of them, to the feet of his peerless
Dulcinea!”  And then I heard the knock, and I was never so glad in my

‘Well!’ I could not help remarking, ‘I have heard of women’s
spitefulness, but I never believed it till now.’

‘I really don’t think it was altogether what you call malice, so much as
the Lester idea of fun,’ said Ellen, recovering herself after her
outpouring.  ‘A very odd notion I always thought it was; and Mary and
Louisa are not really ill-natured, and cannot wish to do the harm they
might have done, if I did not know Griff too well.’

Then, after considering a little, she said, blushing, ‘I believe I have
told you more than I ought, Edward—I couldn’t help having it out; but
please don’t tell any one, especially that shocking way of speaking of
mamma, which they could not really mean.’

‘No one could who knew her.’

‘Of course not.  I’ll tell you what I mean to do.  I will write to Mary
when we go in, and tell her that I know she really cares for me enough to
be glad that her nonsense has done no mischief, and, though I was so
foolish and wrong as to fly into a passion, of course I know it is only
her way, and I do not believe one word of it.’

Somehow, as she looked with those radiant eyes full of perfect trust, I
could not help longing not to have heard Peter Robson’s last night’s
complaint; but family feeling towards outsiders overcomes many a
misgiving, and my wrath against the malignity of the Lesters was quite as
strong as if I had been devoid of all doubts whether Griff wore to all
other eyes the same halo of pure glory with which Ellen invested him.

Such doubts were very transient.  Dear old Griff was too delightful, too
bright and too brave, too ardent and too affectionate, not to dispel all
clouds by the sunshine he carried about with him.  If rest and reliance
came with Clarence, zest and animation came with Griffith.  He managed to
take the initiative by declining to remain any longer with the Robsons,
saying they had been spoilt by such a model lodger as Clarence, who would
let Gooch feed him on bread and milk and boiled mutton, and put on his
clean pinafore if she chose to insist; whereas her indignation, when
Griff found fault with the folding of his white ties, amounted to ‘_Et tu
Brute_,’ and he really feared she would have had a fit when he ordered
devilled kidneys for breakfast.  He was sure her determination to tuck
him up every night and put out his candle was shortening her life; and he
had made arrangements to share the chambers of a friend who had gone
through school and college with him.  There was no objection to the
friend, who had stayed at Chantry House and was an agreeable, lively,
young man, well reported of, satisfactorily connected, fairly
industrious, and in good society, so that Griff was likely to be much
less exposed to temptation of the lower kinds than when left to his own
devices, or only with Clarence, who had neither time nor disposition to
share his amusements.

There was a scene with my father, but in private; and all that came to
general knowledge was that Griff felt himself injured by any implication
that he was given to violent or excessive dissipation, such as could
wreck Ellen’s happiness or his own character.

He declared with all his heart that immediate marriage would be the best
thing for both, and pleaded earnestly for it; but my father could not
have arranged for it even if the Fordyces would have consented, and there
were matters of business, as well as other reasons, which made it
inexpedient for them to revoke their decision that the wedding should not
take place before Ellen was of age and Griffith called to the bar.

So we took our young ladies home, loaded with presents for their beloved
school children, of whom Emily said she dreamt, as the time for seeing
them again drew near.  After all the London enjoyment, it was pretty to
see the girls’ delight in the fresh country sights and sounds in full
summer glory, and how Ellen proved to have been hungering after all her
dear ones at home.  When we left her at her own door, our last sight of
her was in her father’s arms, little Anne clinging to her dress, mother
and grandfather as close to her as could be—a perfect tableau of a joyous


    ‘Unless he give me all in change
       I forfeit all things by him;
    The risk is terrible and strange.’

                                                            MRS. BROWNING.

YOU will be weary of my lengthiness; and perhaps I am lingering too long
over the earlier portion of my narrative.  Something is due to the
disproportion assumed in our memories by the first twenty years of
existence—something, perhaps, to reluctance to passing from comparative
sunshine to shadow.  There was still a period of brightness, but it was
so uneventful that I have no excuse for dwelling on it further than to
say that Henderson, our excellent curate, had already made a great
difference in the parish, and it was beginning to be looked on as almost
equal to Hillside.  The children were devoted to Emily, who was the
source of all the amenities of their poor little lives.  The needlework
of the school was my mother’s pride; and our church and its services,
though you would shudder at them now, were then thought presumptuously
superior ‘for a country parish.’  They were a real delight and blessing
to us, as well as to many more of the flock, who still, in their old age,
remember and revere Parson Henderson as a sort of apostle.

The dawning of the new Poor-Law led to investigations which revealed the
true conditions of the peasant’s life—its destitution, recklessness, and
dependence.  We tried to mend matters by inducing families to emigrate,
but this renewed the distrust which had at first beheld in the schools an
attempt to enslave the children.  Even accounts, sent home by the
exceptionally enterprising who did go to Canada, were, we found, scarcely
trusted.  Amos Bell, who would have gone, if he had not been growing into
my special personal attendant, was letter-writer and reader to all his
relations, and revealed to us that it had been agreed that no letter
should be considered as genuine unless it bore a certain private mark.
To be sure, the accounts of prosperity might well sound fabulous to the
toilers and moilers at home.  Harriet Martineau’s _Hamlets_, which we
lent to many of our neighbours, is a fair picture of the state of things.
We much enjoyed those tales, and Emily says they were the only political
economy she ever learnt.

The model arrangements of our vestries led to a summons to my father and
the younger Mr. Fordyce to London, to be examined on the condition of the
pauper, and the working of the old Elizabethan Poor-Law.

They were absent for about a fortnight of early spring, and Emily and I
could not help observing that our mother was unusually uncommunicative
about my father’s letters; and, moreover, there was a tremendous
revolution of the furniture, a far more ominous token in our household
than any comet.

The truth came on us when the two fathers returned.  Mine told me himself
that Frank Fordyce was so much displeased with Griffith’s conduct that he
had declared that the engagement could not continue with his consent.

This from good-natured, tender-hearted Parson Frank!

I cried out hotly that ‘those Lesters’ had done this.  They had always
been set against us, and any one could talk over Mr. Frank.  My father
shook his head.  He said Frank Fordyce was not weak, but all the stronger
for his gentleness and charity; and, moreover, that he was quite right—to
our shame and grief be it spoken—quite right.

It was true that the first information had been given by Sir Horace
Lester, Mrs. Fordyce’s brother, but it had not been lightly spoken like
the daughter’s chatter; and my father himself had found it only too true,
so that he could not conscientiously call Griffith worthy of such a
creature as Ellen Fordyce.

Poor Griff, he had been idle and impracticable over his legal studies,
which no persuasion would make him view as otherwise than a sort of
nominal training for a country gentleman; nor had he ever believed or
acted upon the fact that the Earlscombe property was not an unlimited
fortune, such as would permit him to dispense with any profession, and
spend time and money like the youths with whom he associated.  Still,
this might have been condoned as part of the effervescence which had
excited him ever since my father had succeeded to the estate, and
patience might still have waited for greater wisdom; but there had been
graver complaints of irregularities, which were forcing his friend to
dissolve partnership with him.  There was evidence of gambling, which he
not only admitted, but defended; and, moreover, he was known at parties,
at races, and at the theatre, as one of the numerous satellites who
revolved about that gay and conspicuous young fashionable widow, Lady

‘Yes, Frank has every right to be angry,’ said my father, pacing the
room.  ‘I can’t wonder at him.  I should do the same; but it is
destroying the best hope for my poor boy.’

Then he began to wish Clarence had more—he knew not what to call it—in
him; something that might keep his brother straight.  For, of course, he
had talked to Clarence and discovered how very little the brothers saw of
one another.  Clarence had been to look for Griff in vain more than once,
and they had only really met at a Castleford dinner-party.  In fact,
Clarence’s youthful spirits, and the tastes which would have made him
companionable to Griff, had been crushed out of him; and he was what more
recent slang calls ‘such a muff,’ that he had perforce drifted out of our
elder brother’s daily life, as much as if he had been a grave senior of
fifty.  It was, as he owned, a heavy penalty of his youthful fall that he
could not help his brother more effectually.

It appeared that Frank Fordyce, thoroughly roused, had had it out with
Griffith, and had declared that his consent was withdrawn and the
engagement annulled.  Griff, astounded at the resolute tone of one whom
he considered as the most good-natured of men, had answered hotly and
proudly that he should accept no dismissal except from Ellen herself, and
that he had done no more than was expected of any young man of position
and estate.  On the other indictment he scorned any defence, and the two
had parted in mutual indignation.  He had, however, shown himself so much
distressed at the threat of being deprived of Ellen, that neither my
father nor Clarence had the least doubt of his genuine attachment to her,
nor that his attentions to Lady Peacock were more than the effect of old
habit and love of amusement, and that they had been much exaggerated.  He
scouted the bare idea of preferring her to Ellen; and, in his second
interview with my father, was ready to make any amount of promises of
reformation, provided his engagement were continued.

This was on the last evening before leaving town, and he came to the
coach-office looking so pale, jaded, and unhappy that Parson Frank’s kind
heart was touched; and in answer to a muttered ‘I’ve been ten thousand
fools, sir, but if you will overlook it I will try to be worthy of her,’
he made some reply that could be construed into, ‘If you keep to that,
all may yet be well.  I’ll talk to her mother and grandfather.’

Perhaps this was cruel kindness, for, as we well knew, Mrs. Fordyce was
far less likely to be tolerant of a young man’s failings than was her
husband; and she was, besides, a Lester, and might take the same view.

Abusing the Lesters was our great resource; for we did not believe either
the sailor or the guardsman to be immaculate, and we knew them to be
jealous.  We had to remain in ignorance of what we most wished to know,
for Ellen was kept away from us, and my mother would not let Emily go in
search of her.  Only Anne, who was a high-spirited, independent little
person, made a sudden rush upon me as I sat in the garden.  She had no
business to be so far from home alone; but, said she, ‘I don’t care, it
is all so horrid.  Please, Edward, is it true that Griff has been so very
wicked?  I heard the maids talking, and they said papa had found out that
he was a bad lot, and that he was not to marry Ellen; but she would stick
to him through thick and thin, like poor Kitty Brown who would marry the
man that got transported for seven years.’  ‘Will he be transported,
Edward? and would Ellen go too, like the “nut-brown maid?”  Is that what
she cries so about?  Not by day, but all night.  I know she does, for her
handkerchief is wet through, and there is a wet place on her pillow
always in the morning; but she only says, “Never mind,” and nobody _will_
tell me.  They only say little girls should not think about such things.
And I am not so very little.  I am eight, and have read the _Lay of the
Last Minstrel_ and I know all about people in love.  So you might tell

I relieved Anne’s mind as to the chances of transportation, and, after
considering how many confidences might be honourably exchanged with the
child, I explained that her father thought Griff had been idle and
careless, and not fit as yet to be trusted with Ellen.

Her parish experience came into play.  ‘Does papa think he would be like
Joe Sparks?  But then gentlemen don’t beat their wives, nor go to the
public-house, nor let their children go about in rags.’

I durst not inquire much, but I gathered that there was a heavy shadow
over the house, and that Ellen was striving to do as usual, but breaking
down when alone.  Just then Parson Frank appeared.  Anne had run away
from him while on a farming inspection, when the debate over the turnips
with the factotum had become wearisome.  He looked grave and sorrowful,
quite unlike his usual hearty self, and came to me, leaning over my
chair, and saying, ‘This is sad work, Edward’; and, on an anxious venture
of an inquiry for Ellen, ‘Poor little maid, it is very sore work with
her.  She is a good child and obedient—wants to do her duty; but we
should never have let it go on so long.  We have only ourselves to
thank—taking the family character, you see’—and he made a kindly gesture
towards me.  ‘Your father sees how it is, and won’t let it make a split
between us.  I believe that not seeing as much of your sister as usual is
one of my poor lassie’s troubles, but it may be best—it may be best.’

He lingered talking, unwilling to tear himself away, and ended by
disclosing, almost at unawares, that Ellen had held out for a long time,
would not understand nor take in what she was told, accepted nothing on
Lester authority, declared she understood all about Lady Peacock, and
showed a strength of resistance and independence of view that had quite
startled her parents, by proving how far their darling had gone from them
in heart.  But they still held her by the bonds of obedience; and, by
dealing with her conscience, her mother had obtained from her a piteous
little note—

    ‘MY DEAR GRIFFITH—I am afraid it is true that you have not always
    seemed to be doing right, and papa and mamma forbid our going on as
    we are.  You know I cannot be disobedient.  It would not bring a
    blessing on you.  So I must break off, though—’

The ‘though’ could be read through an erasure, followed by the initials,
E. M. F.—as if the dismal conclusion had been felt to be only too
true—and there followed the postscript, ‘Forgive me, and, if we are
patient, it may come right.’

This letter was displayed, when, on the ensuing evening, it brought Griff
down in towering indignation, and trying to prove the coercion that must
have been exercised to extract even thus much from his darling.  Over he
went headlong to Hillside to insist on seeing her, but to encounter a
succession of stormy scenes.  Mrs. Fordyce was the most resolute, but was
ill for a week after.  The old Rector was gentle, and somewhat overawed
Griff by his compassion, and by representations that were only too true;
and Parson Frank, with his tender heart torn to pieces, showed symptoms
of yielding another probation.

The interview with Ellen was granted.  She, however, was intrenched in
obedience.  She had promised submission to the rupture of her engagement,
and she kept her word,—though she declared that nothing could hinder her
love, and that she would wait patiently till her lover had proved
himself, to everybody’s satisfaction, as good and noble as she knew him
to be.  When he told her she did not love him she smiled.  She was sure
that whatever mistakes there might have been, he would give no further
occasion against himself, and then every one would see that all had been
mere misunderstanding, and they should be happy again.

Such trust humbled him, and he was ready to make all promises and
resolutions; but he could not obtain the renewal of the engagement, nor
permission to correspond.  Only there was wrung out of Parson Frank a
promise that if he could come in two years with a perfectly unstained,
unblotted character, the betrothal might be renewed.

We were very thankful for the hope and motive, and Griff had no doubts of

‘One can’t look at the pretty creature and think of disappointing her,’
he said.  ‘She is altered, you know, Ted; they’ve bullied her till she is
more ethereal than ever, but it only makes her lovelier.  I believe if
she saw me kill some one on the spot she would think it all my
generosity; or, if she could not, she would take and die.  Oh no!  I’ll
not fail her.  No, I won’t; not if I have to spend seven years after the
model of old Bill, whose liveliest pastime is a good long sermon, when it
is not a ghost.’


    ‘Soone as the Elfin knight in presence came
    And false Duessa, seeming ladye fayre,
    A gentle husher, Vanitie by name,
    Made roome, and passage did for them prepare.’


THE two families were supposed to continue on unbroken terms of
friendship, and we men did so; but Mrs. Fordyce told my mother that she
had disapproved of the probation, and Mrs. Winslow was hurt.  Though the
two girls were allowed to be together as usual, it was on condition of
silence about Griff; and though, as Emily said, they really had not been
always talking about him in former times, the prohibition seemed to weigh
upon all they said.

Old Mr. Fordyce had long been talking of a round of visits among
relations whom he had not seen for many years; and it was decided to send
Ellen with him, chiefly, no doubt, to prevent difficulties about Griffith
in the long vacation.

There was no embargo on the correspondence with my sister, and letters
full of description came regularly, but how unlike they were to our
journal.  They were clear, intelligent, with a certain liveliness, but no
ring of youthful joy, no echo of the heart, always as if under restraint.
Griff was much disappointed.  He had been on his good behaviour for two
months, and expected his reward, and I could not here repeat all that he
said about her parents when he found she was absent.  Yet, after all, he
got more pity and sympathy from Parson Frank than from any one else.
That good man actually sent a message for him, when Emily was on honour
to do no such thing.  Poor Emily suffered much in consequence, when she
would neither afford Griff a blank corner of her paper, nor write even a
veiled message; while as to the letters she received and gave to him,
‘what was the use,’ he said, ‘of giving him what might have been read
aloud by the town-crier?’

‘You don’t understand, Griff; it is all dear Ellen’s conscientiousness—’

‘Oh, deliver me from such con-sci-en-tious-ness,’ he answered, in a tone
of bitter mimicry, and flung out of the room leaving Emily in tears.

He could not appreciate the nobleness of Ellen’s self-command and the
obedience which was the security of future happiness, but was hurt at
what he thought weak alienation.  One note of sympathy would have done
much for Griff just then.  I have often thought it over since, and come
to the conclusion that Mrs. Fordyce was justified in the entire
separation she brought about.  No one can judge of the strength with
which ‘true love’ has mastered any individual, nor how far change may be
possible; and, on the other hand, unless there were full appreciation of
Ellen’s character, she might only have been looked on as—

    ‘Puppet to a father’s threat,
    Servile to a shrewish tongue.’

Yet, after all, Frank Fordyce was very kind to Griff, making himself as
much of a medium of communication as he could consistently with his
conscience, but of course not satisfying one who believed that the
strength of love was to be proved not by obedience but disobedience.

Ellen’s letters showed increasing anxiety about her grandfather, who was
not favourably affected by the change of habits, consequent on a long
journey, and staying in different houses.  His return was fixed two or
three times, and then delayed by slight attacks of illness, till at last
he became anxious to get home, and set off about the end of September;
but after sleeping a night at an inn at Warwick, he was too ill to
proceed any farther.  His old man-servant was with him; but poor Ellen
went through a great deal of suspense and responsibility before her
parents reached her.  The attack was paralysis, and he never recovered
the full powers of mind or body, though they managed to bring him back to
Hillside—as indeed his restlessness longed for his native home.  When
once there he became calmer, but did not rally; and a second stroke
proved fatal just before Easter.  He was mourned alike by rich and poor,
‘He _was_ a gentleman,’ said even Chapman, ‘always the same to rich or
poor, though he was one of they Fordys.’

My father wrote to summon both his elder sons to the funeral at Hillside,
and in due time Clarence appeared by the coach, but alone.  He had gone
to Griffith’s chambers to arrange about coming down together, but found
my father’s letter lying unopened on the table, and learnt that his
brother was supposed to be staying at a villa in Surrey, where there were
to be private theatricals.  He had forwarded the letter thither, and it
would still be possible to arrive in time by the night mail.

So entirely was Griff expected that the gig was sent to meet him at seven
o’clock the next morning, but there was no sign of him.  My father and
Clarence went without him to the gathering, which showed how deeply the
good old man was respected and loved.

It was the only funeral Clarence had attended except Miss Newton’s
hurried one, and his sensitive spirit was greatly affected.  He had
learnt reserve when amongst others, but I found that he had a strong
foreboding of evil; he tossed and muttered in his sleep, and confessed to
having had a wretched night of dreams, though he would not describe them
otherwise than that he had seen the lady whose face he always looked on
as a presage of evil.

Two days later the _Morning Post_ gave a full account of the amateur
theatricals at Bella Vista, the seat of Benjamin Bullock, Esquire, and
the Lady Louisa Bullock; and in the list of _dramatis personæ_, there
figured Griffith Winslow, Esquire, as Captain Absolute, and the fair and
accomplished Lady Peacock as Lydia Languish.

Amateur theatricals were much less common in those days than at present,
and were held as the _ne plus ultra_ of gaiety.  Moreover, the Lady
Louisa Bullock was noted for fashionable extravagance of the
semi-reputable style; and there would have been vexation enough at
Griffith’s being her guest, even had not the performance taken place on
the very day of the funeral of Ellen’s grandfather, so as to be an
outrage on decorum.

At the same time, there came a packet franked by a not very satisfactory
peer, brother to Lady Louisa.  My father threw a note over to Clarence,
and proceeded to read a very properly expressed letter full of apologies
and condolences for the Fordyces.

‘He could not have got the letter in time’ was my father’s comment.
‘When did you forward the letter?  How was it addressed?  Clarence, I
say, didn’t you hear?’

Clarence lifted up his face from his letter, so much flushed that my
mother broke in—‘What’s the matter?  A mistake in the post-town would
account for the delay.  Has he had the letter?’

‘Oh yes.’

‘Not in time—eh?’

‘I’m afraid,’ and he faltered, ‘he did.’

‘Did he or did he not?’ demanded my mother.

‘What does he say?’ exclaimed my father.

‘Sir’ (always an unpropitious beginning for poor Clarence), ‘I should
prefer not showing you.’

‘Nonsense!’ exclaimed my mother: ‘you do no good by concealing it!’

‘Let me see his letter,’ said my father, in the voice there was no
gainsaying, and absolutely taking it from Clarence.  None of us will ever
forget the tone in which he read it aloud at the breakfast-table.

    ‘DEAR BILL—What possessed you to send a death’s-head to the feast?
    The letter would have bitten no one in my chambers.  A nice scrape I
    shall be in if you let out that your officious precision forwarded
    it.  Of course at the last moment I could not upset the whole affair
    and leave Lydia to languish in vain.  The whole thing went off
    magnificently.  Keep counsel and no harm is done.  You owe me that
    for sending on the letter.—Yours,

                                                                ‘J. G. W.’

Clarence had not read to the end when the letter was taken from him.
Indeed to inclose such a note in a dispatch sure to be opened _en
famille_ was one of Griffith’s haphazard proceedings, which arose from
the present being always much more to him than the absent.  Clarence was
much shocked at hearing these last sentences, and exclaimed, ‘He meant it
in confidence, papa; I implore you to treat it as unread!’

My father was always scrupulous about private letters, and said, ‘I beg
your pardon, Clarence; I should not have forced it from you.  I wish I
had not seen it.’

My mother gave something between a snort and a sigh.  ‘It is right for us
to know the truth,’ she said, ‘but that is enough.  There is no need that
they should know at Hillside what was Griffith’s alternative.’

‘I would not add a pang to that dear girl’s grief,’ said my father; ‘but
I see the Fordyces were right.  I shall never do anything to bring these
two together again.’

My mother chimed in with something about preferring Lady Peacock and the
Bella Vista crew to Ellen and Hillside, which made us rush into the
breach with incoherent defence.

‘I know how it was,’ said Clarence.  ‘His acting is capital, and of
course these people could not spare him, nor understand how much it
signified that he should be here.  They make so much of him.’

‘Who do?’ asked my mother.  ‘Lady Peacock?  How do you know?  Have you
been with them?’

‘I have dined at Mr. Clarkson’s,’ Clarence avowed; and, on further
pressure, it was extracted that Griffith—handsome, and with talents such
as tell in society—was a general favourite, and much engrossed by people
who found him an enlivenment and ornament to their parties.  There had
been little or nothing of late of the former noisy, boyish dissipation;
but that the more fashionable varieties were getting a hold on him became
evident under the cross-questioning to which Clarence had to submit.

My father said he felt like a party to a falsehood when he sent Griff’s
letter up to Hillside, and he indemnified himself by writing a letter
more indignant—not than was just, but than was prudent, especially in the
case of one little accustomed to strong censure.  Indeed Clarence could
not restrain a slight groan when he perceived that our mother was shut up
in the study to assist in the composition.  Her denunciations always
outran my father’s, and her pain showed itself in bitterness.  ‘I ought
to have had the presence of mind to refuse to show the letter,’ he said;
‘Griff will hardly forgive me.’

Ellen looked very thin, and with a transparent delicacy of complexion.
She had greatly grieved over her grandfather’s illness and the first
change in her happy home; and she must have been much disappointed at
Griffith’s absence.  Emily dreaded her mention of the subject when they
first met.

‘But,’ said my sister, ‘she said no word of him.  All she cared to tell
me was of the talks she had with her grandfather, when he made her read
his favourite chapters in the Bible; and though he had no memory for
outside things, his thoughts were as beautiful as ever.  Sometimes his
face grew so full of glad contemplation that she felt quite awestruck, as
if it were becoming like the face of an angel.  It made her realise, she
said, “how little the ups and downs of this life matter, if there can be
such peace at the last.”  And, after all, I could not help thinking that
it was better perhaps that Griff did not come.  Any other sort of talk
would have jarred on her just now, and you know he would never stand much
of that.’

Much as we loved our Griff, we had come to the perception that Ellen was
a treasure he could not esteem properly.

The Lester cousins, never remarkable for good taste, forced on her the
knowledge of his employment.  Her father could not refrain from telling
us that her exclamation had been, ‘Poor Griff, how shocked he must be!
He was so fond of dear grandpapa.  Pray, papa, get Mr. Winslow to let him
know that I am not hurt, for I know he could not help it.  Or may I ask
Emily to tell him so?’

I wish Mrs. Fordyce would have absolved her from the promise not to
mention Griff to us.  That innocent reliance might have touched him, as
Emily would have narrated it; but it only rendered my father more
indignant, and more resolved to reserve the message till a repentant
apology should come.  And, alas! none ever came.  Just wrath on a
voiceless paper has little effect.  There is reason to believe that Griff
did not like the air of my father’s letter, and never even read it.  He
diligently avoided Clarence, and the pain and shame his warm heart must
have felt only made him keep out of reach.


    ‘The slippery verge her feet beguiled;
       She tumbled headlong in.’


ONE of Griffith’s briefest notes in his largest hand announced that he
had accepted various invitations to country houses, for cricket matches,
archery meetings, and the like; nor did he even make it clear where his
address would be, except that he would be with a friend in Scotland when
grouse-shooting began.

Clarence, however, came home for a brief holiday.  He was startled at the
first sight of Ellen.  He said she was indeed lovelier than ever, with an
added sweetness in her clear eyes and the wild rose flush in her delicate
cheek; but that she looked as if she was being refined away to nothing,
and was more than ever like the vision with the lamp.

Of course the Fordyces had not been going into society, though Ellen and
Emily were as much together as before, helping one another in practising
their school children in singing, and sharing in one another’s studies
and pursuits.  There had been in the spring a change at Wattlesea; the
old incumbent died, and the new one was well reported of as a very
earnest hardworking man.  He seemed to be provided with a large family,
and there was no driving into Wattlesea without seeing members of it
scattered about the place.

The Fordyces being anxious to show them attention without a regular
dinner-party, decided on inviting all the family to keep Anne’s ninth
birthday, and Emily and Martyn were of course to come and assist at the

It was on the morning of the day fixed that a letter came to me whose
contents seemed to burn themselves into my brain.  Martyn called across
the breakfast-table, ‘Look at Edward!  Has any one sent you a young

‘I wish it was,’ I gasped out.

‘Don’t look so,’ entreated Emily.  ‘Tell us!  Is it Griff?’

‘Not ill-hurt?’ cried my mother.  ‘Oh no, no.  Worse!’ and then somehow I
articulated that he was married; and Clarence exclaimed, ‘Not the
Peacock!’ and at my gesture my father broke out.  ‘He has done for
himself, the unhappy boy.  A disgraceful Scotch marriage.  Eh?’

‘It was his sense of honour,’ I managed to utter.

‘Sense of fiddlestick!’ said my poor father.  ‘Don’t stop to excuse him.
We’ve had enough of that!  Let us hear.’

I cannot give a copy of the letter.  It was so painful that it was
destroyed; for there was a tone of bravado betraying his uneasiness, but
altogether unbecoming.  All that it disclosed was, that some one staying
in the same house had paid insulting attentions to Lady Peacock; she had
thrown herself on our brother’s protection, and after interfering on her
behalf, he had found that there was no means of sheltering her but by
making her his wife.  This had been effected by the assistance of the
lady of the house where they had been staying; and Griffith had written
to me two days later from Edinburgh, declaring that Selina had only to be
known to be loved, and to overcome all prejudices.

‘Prejudices,’ said my father bitterly.  ‘Prejudices in favour of truth
and honour.’

And my mother uttered the worst reproach of all, when in my agitation, I
slipped and almost fell in rising—‘Oh, my poor Edward! that I should have
lived to think yours the least misfortune that has befallen my sons!’

‘Nay, mother,’ said Clarence, putting Martyn toward her, ‘here is one to
make up for us all.’

‘Clarence,’ said my father, ‘your mother did not mean anything but that
you and Edward are the comfort of our lives.  I wish there were a chance
of Griffith redeeming the past as you have done; but I see no hope of
that.  A man is never ruined till he is married.’

At that moment there was a step in the hall, a knock at the door, and
there stood Mr. Frank Fordyce.  He looked at us and said, ‘It is true

‘To our shame and sorrow it is,’ said my father.  ‘Fordyce, how can we
look you in the face?’

‘As my dear good friend, and my father’s,’ said the kind man, shaking him
by the hand heartily.  ‘Do you think we could blame you for this youth’s
conduct?  Stay’—for we young ones were about to leave the room.  ‘My poor
girl knows nothing yet.  Her mother luckily got the letter in her
bedroom.  We can’t put off the Reynoldses, you know, so I came to ask the
young people to come up as if nothing had happened, and then Ellen need
know nothing till the day is over.’

‘If I can,’ said Emily.

‘You can be capable of self-command, I hope,’ said my mother severely,
‘or you do not deserve to be called a friend.’

Such speeches might not be pleasant, but they were bracing, and we all
withdrew to leave the elders to talk it over together, when, as I
believe, kind Parson Frank was chiefly concerned to argue my parents out
of their shame and humiliation.

Clarence told us what he knew or guessed; and we afterwards understood
the matter to have come about chiefly through poor Griff’s weakness of
character, and love of amusement and flattery.  The boyish flirtation
with Selina Clarkson had never entirely died away, though it had been
nothing more than the elder woman’s bantering patronage and easy
acceptance of the youth’s equally gay, jesting admiration.  It had,
however, involved some raillery on his attachment to the little
Methodistical country girl, and this gradually grew into jealousy of
her—especially as Griff became more of a man, and a brilliant member of
society.  The detention from the funeral had been a real victory on the
widow’s part, and the few times when Clarence had seen them together he
had been dismayed at the _cavaliere serviente_ terms on which Griff
seemed to stand; but his words of warning were laughed down.  The rest
was easy to gather.  He had gone about on the round of visits almost as
an appendage to Lady Peacock, till they came to a free and easy house,
where her coquetry and love of admiration brought on one of those
disputes which rendered his championship needful; and such defence could
only have one conclusion, especially in Scotland, where hasty private
marriages were still legal.  What an exchange!  Only had Griff ever
comprehended the worth of his treasure?

Emily went as late as she could, that there might be the less chance of a
tête-à-tête, in which she might be surprised into a betrayal of her
secret: indeed she only started at last when Martyn’s impatience had
become intolerable.

What was our amazement when, much earlier than we expected, we saw Mr.
Fordyce driving up in his phaeton, and heard the story he had to tell.

Emily’s delay had succeeded in bringing her only just in time for the
luncheon that was to be the children’s dinner.  There was a keen-looking,
active, sallow clergyman, grizzled, and with an air of having seen much
service; a pale, worn wife, with a gentle, sensible face; and a
bewildering flock of boys and girls, all apparently under the command of
a very brisk, effective-looking elder sister of fourteen or fifteen, who
seemed to be the readiest authority, and to decide what and how much each
might partake of, among delicacies, evidently rare novelties.

The day was late in August.  The summer had broken; there had been rain,
and, though fine, the temperature was fitter for active sports than
anything else.  Croquet was not yet invented, and, besides, most of the
party were of the age for regular games at play.  Ellen and Emily did
their part in starting these—finding, however, that the Reynolds boys
were rather rough, in spite of the objurgations of their sister, who
evidently thought herself quite beyond the age for romps.  The sports led
them to the great home-field on the opposite slope of the ridge from our
own.  The new farm-buildings were on the level ground at the bottom to
the right, where the declivity was much more gradual than to the left,
which was very steep, and ended in furze bushes and low copsewood.  It
was voted a splendid place for hide-and-seek, and the game was soon in
such full career that Ellen, who had had quite running enough, could fall
out of it, and with her, the other two elder girls.  Emily felt Fanny
Reynolds’ presence a sort of protection, ‘little guessing what she was up
to,’ to use her own expression.  Perhaps the girl had not earlier made
out who Emily was, or she had been too much absorbed in her cares; but,
as the three sat resting on a stump overlooking the hill, she was
prompted by the singular inopportuneness of precocious fourteen to
observe, ‘I ought to have congratulated you, Miss Winslow.’

Emily gabbled out, ‘Thank you, never mind,’ hoping thus to put a stop to
whatever might be coming; but there was no such good fortune.  ‘We saw it
in the paper.  It is your brother, isn’t it?’

‘What?’ asked unsuspicious Ellen, thinking, no doubt, of some fresh glory
to Griffith.

And before Emily could utter a word, if there were any she could have
uttered, out it came.  ‘The marriage—John Griffith Winslow, Esquire,
eldest son of John Edward Winslow of Chantry House, to Selina, relict of
Sir Henry Peacock and daughter of George Clarkson, Esquire, Q.C.  I
didn’t think it could be you at first, because you would have been at the

Emily had not even time to meet Ellen’s eyes before they were startled by
a shriek that was not the merry ‘whoop’ and ‘I spy’ of the game, and,
springing up, the girls saw little Anne Fordyce rushing headlong down the
very steepest part of the slope, just where it ended in an extremely
muddy pool, the watering-place of the cattle.  The child was totally
unable to stop herself, and so was Martyn, who was dashing after her.
Not a word was said, though, perhaps, there was a shriek or two, but the
elder sisters flew with one accord towards the pond.  They also were some
way above it, but at some distance off, so that the descent was not so
perpendicular, and they could guard against over-running themselves.
Ellen, perhaps from knowing the ground better, was far before the other
two; but already poor little Anne had gone straight down, and fallen flat
on her face in the water, Martyn after her, perhaps with a little more
free will, for, though he too fell, he was already struggling to lift
Anne up, and had her head above water, when Ellen arrived and dashed in
to assist.

The pond began by being shallow, but the bottom sloped down into a deep
hollow, and was besides covered several feet deep with heavy
cattle-trodden mire and weeds, in which it was almost impossible to gain
a footing, or to move.  By the time Emily and Miss Reynolds had come to
the brink, Ellen and Martyn were standing up in the water, leaning
against one another, and holding poor little Anne’s head up—all they
could do.  Ellen called out, ‘Don’t! don’t come in!  Call some one!  The
farm!  We are sinking in!  You can’t help!  Call—’

The danger was really terrible of their sinking in the mud and weeds, and
being sucked into the deep part of the pool, and they were too far in to
be reached from the bank.  Emily perceived this, and ran as she had never
run before, happily meeting on the way with the gentlemen, who had been
inspecting the new model farm-buildings, and had already taken alarm from
the screams.

They found the three still with their heads above water, but no more, for
every struggle to get up the slope only plunged them deeper in the
horrible mud.  Moreover, Fanny Reynolds was up to her ankles in the mud,
holding by one of her brothers, but unable to reach Martyn.  It seems she
had had some idea of forming a chain of hands to pull the others out.

Even now the rescue was not too easy.  Mr. Fordyce hurried in, and took
Anne in his arms; but, even with his height and strength, he found his
feet slipping away under him, and could only hand the little insensible
girl to Mr. Reynolds, bidding him carry her at once to the house, while
he lifted Martyn up only just in time, and Ellen clung to him.  Thus
weighted, he could not get out, till the bailiff and another man had
brought some faggots and a gate that were happily near at hand, and
helped him to drag the two out, perfectly exhausted, and Martyn hardly
conscious.  They both were carried to the Rectory,—Ellen by her father,
Martyn by the foreman,—and they were met at the door by the tidings that
little Anne was coming to herself.

Indeed, by the time Mr. Fordyce had put on dry clothes, all three were
safe in warm beds, and quite themselves again, so that he trusted that no
mischief was done; though he decided upon fetching my mother to satisfy
herself about Martyn.  However, a ducking was not much to a healthy
fellow like Martyn, and my mother found him quite fit to dress himself in
the clothes she brought, and to return home with her.  Both the girls
were asleep, but Ellen had had a shivering fit, and her mother was with
her, and was anxious.  Emily told her mother of Fanny Reynolds’
unfortunate speech, and it was thought right to mention it.  Mrs. Fordyce
listened kindly, kissed Emily, and told her not to be distressed, for
possibly it might turn out to have been the best thing for Ellen to have
learnt the fact at such a moment; and, at any rate, it had spared her
parents some doubt and difficulty as to the communication.


    ‘And am I then forgot, forgot?
    It broke the heart of Ellen!’


CLARENCE and Martyn walked over to Hillside the first thing the next
morning to inquire for the two sisters.  As to one, they were quickly
reassured, for Anne was in the porch feeding the doves, and no sooner did
she see them than out she flew, and was clinging round Martyn’s neck, her
hat falling back as she kissed him on both cheeks, with an eagerness that
made him, as Clarence reported, turn the colour of a lobster, and look
shy, not to say sheepish, while she exclaimed, ‘ Oh, Martyn! mamma says
she never thanked you, for you really and truly did save my life, and I
am so glad it was you—’

‘It was not I, it was Ellen,’ gruffly muttered Martyn.

‘Oh yes! but papa says I should have been smothered in that horrid mud,
before Ellen could get to me if you had not pulled me up directly.’

The elders came out by this time, and Clarence was able to get in his
inquiry.  Ellen had had a feverish night, and her chest seemed oppressed,
but her mother did not think her seriously ill.  Once she had asked, ‘Is
it true, what Fanny Reynolds said?’ and on being answered, ‘Yes, my dear,
I am afraid it is,’ she had said no more; and as the Fordyce habit of
treating colds was with sedatives, her mother thought her scarcely awake
to the full meaning of the tidings, and hoped to prevent her dwelling on
them till she had recovered the physical shock.  Having answered these
inquiries, the two parents turned upon Martyn, who, in an access of
shamefacedness, had crept behind Clarence and a great orange-tree, and
was thence pulled out by Anne’s vigorous efforts.  The full story had
come to light.  The Reynolds’ boys had grown boisterous as soon as the
restraint of the young ladies’ participation had been removed, and had,
whether intentionally or not, terrified little Anne in the chases of
hide-and-seek.  Finally, one of them had probably been unable to
withstand the temptation of seeing her timid nervous way of peeping and
prying about; and had, without waiting to be properly found, leapt out of
his lair with a roar that scared the little girl nearly out of her wits,
and sent her flying, she knew not whither.  Martyn was a few steps
behind, only not holding her hand, because the other children had derided
her for clinging to his protection.  He had instantly seen where she was
going, and shouted to her to stop and take care; but she was past
attending to him, and he had no choice but to dart after her, seeing what
was inevitable; while George Reynolds had sense to stop in time, and seek
a safer descent.  Had Martyn not been there to raise the child instantly
from the stifling mud, her sister could hardly have been in time to save

Mrs. Fordyce tearfully kissed him; her husband called him a little hero,
as if in joke, then gravely blessed him; and he looked, Clarence related,
as if he had been in the greatest possible disgrace.

It was the second time that one of us had saved a life from drowning, but
there was none of the exultation we had felt that time before in London.
It was a much graver feeling, where the danger had really been greater,
and the rescue had been of one so dear to us.  It was tempered likewise
by anxiety about our dear Ellen—ours, alas, no longer!  She was laid up
for several days, and it was thought better that she should not see Emily
till she had recovered; but after a week had passed, her father drove
over to discuss some plans for the Poor-Law arrangements, and begged my
sister to go back in the carriage and spend the day with his daughter.

We brothers could now look forward to some real intelligence; we became
restless; and in the afternoon Clarence and I set out with the
donkey-chair on the woodland path to meet Emily.  We gained more than we
had hoped, for as we came round one of the turns in the winding path, up
the hanging beech-wood, we came on the two friends—Ellen, a truly
Una-like figure, in her white dress with her black scarf making a sable
stole.  Perhaps we betrayed some confusion, for there was a bright flush
on her cheeks as she came towards us, and, standing straight up, said,
‘Clarence, Edward, I am so glad you are here; I wanted to see you.  I
wanted—to say—I know he could not help it.  It was his generosity—helping
those that need it; and—and—I’m not angry.  And though that’s all over,
you’ll always be my brothers, won’t you?’

She held her outstretched hands to us both.  I could not help it, I drew
her down, and kissed her brow; Clarence clasped her other hand and held
it to his lips, but neither of us could utter a word.

She turned back and went quietly away through the wood, while Emily sank
down under the beech-tree in a paroxysm of grief.  You may see which it
was, for Clarence cut out ‘E. M. F., 1835’ upon the bark.  He soothed and
caressed poor Emily as in old nursery troubles; and presently she told us
that it would be long before we saw that dear one again, for Mrs. Fordyce
was going to take her away on the morrow.

Mrs. Fordyce had seen Emily in private, before letting her go to Ellen.
There was evidently a great wish to be kind.  Mrs. Fordyce said she could
never forget what she owed to us all, and could not think of blaming any
of us.  ‘But,’ she said, ‘you are a sensible girl, Emily,’—‘how I hate
being called a sensible girl,’ observed the poor child, in
parenthesis,—‘and you must see that it is desirable not to encourage her
to indulge in needless discussion after she once understands the facts.’
She added that she thought a cessation of present intercourse would be
wise till the sore was in some degree healed.  She had not been satisfied
about her daughter’s health for some time, and meant to take her to Bath
the next day to consult a physician, and then decide what would be best.
‘And, my dear,’ she said, ‘if there should be a slackening of
correspondence, do not take it as unkindness, but as a token that my poor
child is recovering her tone.  Do not discontinue writing to her, but be
guarded, and perhaps less rapid, in replying.’

It was for her friendship that poor Emily wept so bitterly—the first
friendship that had been an enthusiasm to her; looking at it as a cruel
injustice that Griff’s misdoing should separate them.  The prediction
that all might be lived down and forgotten was too vague and distant to
be much consolation; indeed, we were too young to take it in.

We had it all over again in a somewhat grotesque form when, at another
turn in the wood, we came upon Martyn and Anne, loaded with treasures
from their robbers’ cave, some of which were bestowed in my chair, the
others carried off between Anne and her not very willing nursery-maid.

Anne kissed us all round, and augured cheerfully that she should lay up a
store of shells and rocks by the seaside to make ‘a perfect Robinson
Crusoe cavern,’ she said, ‘and then Clarence can come and be the
Spaniards and the savages.  But that won’t be till next summer,’ she
added, shaking her head.  ‘I shall get Ellen to tell Emily what shells I
find, and then she can tell Martyn; for mamma says girls never write to
boys unless they are their brothers!  And now Martyn will never be my
brother,’ she added ruefully.

‘You will always be our darling,’ I said.

‘That’s not the same as your sister,’ she answered.  However, amid
auguries of the combination of robbers and Robinson Crusoe, the parting
was effected, and Anne borne off by the maid; while we had Martyn on our
hands, stamping about and declaring that it was very hard that because
Griff chose to be a faithless, inconstant ruffian, all his pleasure and
comfort in life should be stopped!  He said such outrageous things that,
between scolding him and laughing at him, Emily had been somewhat cheered
by the time we reached the house.

My father had written to Griffith, in his first displeasure, curt wishes
that he might not have reason to repent of the step he had taken, though
he had not gone the right way to obtain a blessing.  As it was not
suitable that a man should be totally dependent on his wife, his
allowance should be continued; but under present circumstances he must
perceive that he and Lady Peacock could not be received at Chantry House.
We were shown the letter, and thought it terribly brief and cold; but my
mother said it would be weak to offer forgiveness that was not sought,
and my father was specially exasperated at the absence of all contrition
as to the treatment of Ellen.  All Griff had vouchsafed on that head
was—the rupture had been the Fordyces’ doing; he was not bound.  As to
intercourse with him, Clarence and I might act as we saw fit.

‘Only,’ said my father, as Clarence was leaving home, ‘I trust you not to
get yourself involved in this set.’

Clarence gave a queer smile, ‘They would not take me as a gift, papa.’

And as my father turned from the hall door, he laid his hand on his
wife’s arm, and said, ‘Who would have told us what that young fellow
would be to us.’

She sighed, and said, ‘He is not twenty-three; he has plenty of money,
and is very fond of Griff.’


    ‘And my friend rose up in the shadows,
       And turned to me,
    “Be of good cheer,” I said faintly,
       For He called thee.’

                                                                     B. M.

MR. FORDYCE waited at Hillside till after Sunday, and then went to Bath
to hear the verdict of the physician.  He returned as much depressed as
it was in his sanguine nature to be, for great delicacy of the lungs had
been detected; and to prevent the recent chill from leaving permanent
injury, Ellen must have a winter abroad, and warm sea or mountain air at
once.  Whether the disease were constitutional and would have come on at
all events no one could tell.

Consumption was much less understood half a century ago; codliver oil was
unknown; and stethoscopes were new inventions, only used by the more
advanced of the faculty.  The only escape poor Parson Frank had from
accepting the doom was in disbelieving that a thing like a trumpet could
really reveal the condition of the chest.  Moreover, Mrs. Fordyce had had
a brother who had, under the famous cowhouse cure, recovered enough to
return home, and be killed by the upsetting of a stage coach.

Mrs. Fordyce took her daughter to Lyme, and waited there till her husband
had found a curate and made all arrangements.  It must have been very
inconvenient not to come home; but, no doubt, she wanted to prevent any
more partings.  Then they went abroad, travelling slowly, and seeing all
the sights that came in their way, to distract Ellen’s thoughts.  She was
not allowed to hear what ailed her; but believed her languor and want of
interest in everything to be the effect of the blow she had received,
struggling to exert herself, and to enter gratefully into the enjoyments
provided for her.  She was not prevented from writing to Emily; indeed,
no one liked to hinder anything she wished, but they were guide-book
letters, describing all she saw as a kind of duty, but scarcely
concealing the trouble it was to look.  Such sentences would slip out as
‘This is a nice quiet place, and I am happy to say there is nothing that
one ought to see.’  Or, ‘I sat in the cathedral at Lucerne while the
others were going round.  The organ was playing, and it was such rest!’
Or, again, after a day on the Lago di Como, ‘It was glorious, and if you
and Edward were here, perhaps the beauty would penetrate my sluggish

Ellen’s sluggish soul!—when we remembered her keen ecstasy at the Valley
of Rocks.

Those letters were our chief interest in an autumn which seemed dreary to
us, in spite of friendly visitors; for had not our family hope and joy
been extinguished?  There was no direct communication with Griffith after
his unpleasant reply to my father’s letter; but Clarence saw the newly
married pair on their return to Lady Peacock’s house in London, and
reported that they were very kind and friendly to him, and gave him more
invitations than he could accept.  Being cross-examined when he came home
for Christmas, he declared his conviction that Lady Peacock had married
Griff entirely from affection, and that he had been—well—flattered into
it.  They seemed very fond of each other now, and were launching out into
all sorts of gaieties; but though he did not tell my father, he confided
to me that he feared that Griffith had been disappointed in the amount of
fortune at his wife’s disposal.

It was at that Christmas time, one night, having found an intrusive cat
upon my bed, Clarence carried her out at the back door close to his room,
and came back in haste and rather pale.  ‘It is quite true about the lady
and the light being seen out of doors,’ he said in an awe-stricken voice,
‘I have just seen her flit from the mullion room to the ruin.’

We only noted the fact in that ghost-diary of ours—we told nobody, and
looked no more.  We already believed that these appearances on the lawn
must be the cause that every window, up to the attics on the garden side
of the house, were so heavily shuttered and barred that there was no
opening them without noise.  Indeed, those on the ground floor had in
addition bells attached to them.  No doubt the former inhabitants had
done their best to prevent any one from seeing or inquiring into what was
unacknowledged and unaccountable.  It might be only a coincidence, but we
could not help remarking that we had seen and heard nothing of her during
the engagement which might have united the two families; though, of
course, it would be ridiculous to suppose her cognisant of it, like the
White Lady of Avenel, dancing for joy at Mary’s marriage with Halbert

The Fordyces had settled at Florence, where they suffered a great deal
more from cold than they would have done at Hillside; and there was such
a cessation of Ellen’s letters that Emily feared that Mrs. Fordyce had
attained her wish and separated the friends effectually.  However, Frank
Fordyce beguiled his enforced leisure with long letters to my father on
home business, Austrian misgovernment, and the Italian Church and people,
full of shrewd observations and new lights; and one of these ended thus,
‘My poor lassie has been in bed for ten days with a severe cold.  She
begs me to say that she has begun a letter to Emily, and hopes soon to
finish it.  We had thought her gaining ground, but she is sadly pulled
down.  _Fiat voluntas_.’

The letter, which had been begun, never came; but, after three long
weeks, there was one from the dear patient herself, mentioning her
illness, and declaring that it was so comfortable to be allowed to be
tired, and to go nowhere and see nothing except the fragment of beautiful
blue sky, and the corner of a campanile, and the flowers Anne brought in

As soon as she could be moved, they took her to Genoa, where she revived
enough to believe that she should be well if she were at home again, and
to win from her parents a promise to take her to Hillside as soon as the
spring winds were over.  So anxious was she that, as soon as there was
any safety in travelling, the party began moving northwards, going by sea
to Marseilles to avoid the Corniche, so early in the year.  There were
many fluctuations, and it was only her earnest yearning for home and
strong resolution that could have made her parents persevere; but at last
they were at Hillside, just after Whitsuntide, in the last week of May.

Frank Fordyce walked over to see us on the very evening after their
arrival.  He was much altered, his kindly handsome face looked almost as
if he had gone through an illness; and, indeed, apart from all his
anxiety and sorrow, he had pined in foreign parts for his human flock, as
well as his bullocks and his turnips.  He had also read, thought, and
observed a great deal, and had left his long boyhood behind him, during a
space for study and meditation such as he had never had before.

He was quite hopeless of his daughter’s recovery, and made no secret of
it.  In passing through London the best advice had been taken, but only
to obtain the verdict that the case was beyond all skill, and that it was
only a matter of weeks, when all that could be done was to give as much
gratification as possible.  The one thing that Ellen did care about was
to be at home—to have Emily with her, and once more see her school
children, her church, and her garden.  Tired as she was she had sprung up
in the carriage at the first glimpse of Hillside spire, and had leant
forward at the window, nodding and smiling her greetings to all the

She had been taken at once to her room and her bed, but her father had
promised to beg Emily to come up by noon on the morrow.  Then he sat
talking of local matters, not able to help showing what infinite relief
it was to him to be at home, and what music to his ears was the
Somersetshire dialect and deep English voice ‘after all those thin,
shrill, screeching foreigners.’

Poor Emily!  It was in mingled grief and gladness that she set off the
next day, with the trepidation of one to whom sickness and decay were
hitherto unknown.  When she returned, it was in a different mood, unable
to believe the doctors could be right, and in the delight of having her
own bright, sweet Ellen back again, all herself.  They had talked, but
more of home and village than of foreign experiences; and though Ellen
did not herself assist, she had much enjoyed watching the unpacking of
the numerous gifts which had cost a perfect fortune at the Custom House.
No one seemed forgotten—villagers, children, servants, friends.  Some of
these tokens are before me still.  The Florentine mosaic paper-weight she
brought me presses this very sheet; the antique lamp she gave my father
is on the mantelpiece; Clarence’s engraving of Raffaelle’s St. Michael
hangs opposite to me on the wall.  Most precious in our eyes was the
collection of plants, dried and labelled by herself, which she brought to
Emily and me—poor mummies now, but redolent of undying affection.  Her
desire was to bestow all her keepsakes with her own hands, and in most
cases she actually did so—a few daily, as her strength served her.  The
little figures in costume, coloured prints, Swiss carvings, French
knicknacks, are preserved in many a Hillside cottage as treasured relics
of ‘our young lady.’  Many years later, Martyn recognised a Hillside
native in a back street in London by a little purple-blue picture of
Vesuvius, and thereby reached the soft spot in a nearly dried-up heart.

So bright and playful was the dear girl over all her old familiar
interests that we inexperienced beings believed not only that the wound
to her affections was healed, but that she either did not know or did not
realise the sentence that had been pronounced on her; but when this was
repeated to her mother, it was met by a sad smile and the reply that we
only saw her in her best hours.  Still, through the summer, it was
impossible to us to accept the truth; she looked so lovely, was so
cheerful, and took such delight in all that was about her.

With the first cold, however, she seemed to shrivel up, and the bad
nights extended into the days.  Emily ascribed the change to the lack of
going out into the air, and always found reasons for the increased
languor and weakness; till at last there came a day when my poor little
sister seemed as if the truth had broken upon her for the first time,
when Ellen talked plainly to her of their parting, and had asked us both,
‘her dear brother and sister,’ to be with her at her Communion on All
Saints’ Day.

She had written a little letter to Clarence, begging his forgiveness for
having cut him, and treated him with the scorn which, I believe, was the
chief fault that weighed upon her conscience; and, hearing my father’s
voice in the house, she sent a message to beg him to come and see her in
her mother’s dressing-room—that very window where I had first heard her
voice, refusing to come down to ‘those Winslows.’  She had sent for him
to entreat him to forgive Griffith and recall the pair to Chantry House.
‘Not now,’ she said, ‘but when I am gone.’

My father could deny her nothing, though he showed that the sight of her
made the entreaty all the harder to him; and she pleaded, ‘But you know
this was not his doing.  I never was strong, and it had begun before.
Only think how sad it would have been for him.’

My father would have promised anything with that wasted hand on his,
those fervent eyes gazing on him, and he told her he would have given his
pardon long ago, if it had been sought, as it never had been.

‘Ah! perhaps he did not dare!’ she said.  ‘Won’t you write when all this
is over, and then you will be one family again as you used to be?’

He promised, though he scarcely knew where Griffith was.  Clarence,
however, did.  He had answered Ellen’s letter, and it had made him ask
for a few days’ leave of absence.  So he came down on the Saturday, and
was allowed a quarter of an hour beside Ellen’s sofa in the Sunday
evening twilight.  He brought away the calm, rapt expression I had
sometimes seen on his face at church, and Ellen made a special entreaty
that he might share the morrow’s feast.

There are some things that cannot be written of, and that was one.  Still
we had not thought the end near at hand, though on Tuesday morning a
message was sent that Ellen was suffering and exhausted, and could not
see Emily.  It was a wild, stormy day, with fierce showers of sleet, and
we clung to the hope that consideration for my sister had prompted the
message.  In the afternoon Clarence battled with a severe gale, made his
way to Hillside, and heard that the weather affected the patient, and
that there was much bodily distress.  For one moment he saw her father,
who said in broken accents that we could only pray that the spirit might
be freed without much more suffering, ‘though no doubt it is all right.’

Before daylight, before any one in the house was up, Clarence was
mounting the hill in the gusts that had done their work on the trees and
were subsiding with the darkness.  And just as he was beginning the
descent, as the sun tipped the Hillside steeple with light, he heard the
knell, and counted the twenty-one for the years of our Ellen—for ours she
will always be.

‘Somehow,’ he told me, ‘I could not help taking off my hat and giving
thanks for her, and then all the drops on all the boughs began sparkling,
and there was a hush on all around as if she were passing among the
angels, and a thrush broke out into a regular song of jubilee!’


    ‘Then cheerly to your work again,
       With hearts new braced and set
    To run untired love’s blessed race,
    As meet for those who face to face
       Over the grave their Lord have met.’


THAT dying request could not but be held sacred, and overtures were made
to Griffith, who returned an odd sort of answer, friendly and
affectionate, but rather as if my father were the offending party in need
of forgiveness.  He and his wife were obliged for the invitation, but
could not accept it, as they had taken a house near Melton-Mowbray for
the hunting season, and were entertaining friends.

In some ways it was disappointing, in others it was a relief, not to have
the restraint of Lady Peacock’s presence during the last days we were to
have with the Fordyces.  For a fresh loss came upon us.  Beachharbour was
a fishing-village on the north-western coast, which, within the previous
decade, had sprung into importance, on the one hand as a fashionable
resort, on the other as a minor port for colliers.  The living was
wretchedly poor, and had been held for many years by one of the old
inferior stamp of clergy, scarcely superior in habits or breeding to the
farmers, and only outliving the scandals of his youth to fall into a
state of indolent carelessness.  It was in the gift of a child, for whom
Sir Horace Lester was trustee, and that gentleman had written, about a
fortnight before Ellen’s death, to consult Mr. Fordyce on its disposal,
declaring the great difficulties and deficiencies of the place, which
made it impossible to offer it to any one without considerable private
means, and also able to attract and improve the utterly demoralised
population.  He ended, almost in joke, by saying, ‘In fact, I know no one
who could cope with the situation but yourself; I wish you could find me
your own counterpart, or come yourself in earnest.  It is just the air
that suits my sister—bracing sea-breezes; the parsonage, though a
wretched place, is well situated, and she would be all the stronger; but
in poor Ellen’s state there is no use in talking of it, and besides I
know you are wedded to your fertile fields and Somersetshire clowns.’

That letter (afterwards shown to us) had worked on Mr. Fordyce’s mind
during those mournful days.  He was still young enough to leave behind
him Parson Frank and the ‘squarson’ habits of Hillside in which he had
grown up; and the higher and more spiritual side of his nature had been
fostered by the impressions of the last year.  He was conscious, as he
said, that his talk had been overmuch of bullocks, and that his farm had
engrossed him more than he wished should happen again, though a change
would be tearing himself up by the roots; and as to his own people at
Hillside, the curate, an active young man, had well supplied his place,
and, in his _truly_ humble opinion, though by no means in theirs,
introduced several improvements even in that model parish.

What had moved him most, however, was a conversation he had had with
Ellen, with whom during this last year he had often held deep and serious
counsel, with a growing reverence on his side.  He had read her uncle’s
letter to her, and to his great surprise found that she looked on it as a
call.  Devotedly fond as she herself was of Hillside, she could see that
her father’s abilities were wasted on so small a field, in a manner
scarcely good for himself, and she had been struck with the greater force
of his sermons when preaching to educated congregations abroad.  If no
one else could or would take efficient charge of these Beachharbour
souls, she could see that it would weigh on his conscience to take
comparative ease in his own beloved meadows, among a flock almost his
vassals.  Moreover, she relieved his mind about her mother.  She had
discovered, what the good wife kept out of sight, that the north-country
woman never could entirely have affinities with the south, and she had
come to the conclusion that Mrs. Fordyce’s spirits would be heavily tried
by settling down at Hillside in the altered state of things.

After this talk, Mr. Fordyce had suggested a possible incumbent to his
brother-in-law, but left the matter open; and when Sir Horace came down
to the funeral, it was more thoroughly discussed; and, as soon as Mrs.
Fordyce saw that departure would not break her husband’s heart, she made
no secret of the way that both her opinion and her inclinations lay.  She
told my mother that she had always believed her own ill-health was caused
by the southern climate, and that she hoped that Anne would grow up
stronger than her sister in the northern breezes.

Poor little Anne!  Of all the family, to her the change was the greatest
grief.  The tour on the Continent had been a dull affair to her; she was
of the age to weary of long confinement in the carriage and in strange
hotels, and too young to appreciate ‘grown-up’ sights.  Picture-galleries
and cathedrals were only a drag to her, and if the experiences that were
put into Rosella’s mouth for the benefit of her untravelled sisters could
have been written down, they would have been as unconventional as Mark
Twain’s adventures.  Rosella went through the whole tour, and left a leg
behind in the hinge of a door, but in compensation brought home a Paris
bonnet and mantle.  She seemed to have been her young mistress’s chief
comfort, next to an occasional game of play with her father, or a walk,
looking in at the shop windows and watching marionettes, or, still
better, the wonderful sports of brown-legged street children, without
trying to make her speak French or Italian—in her eyes one of the
inflictions of the journey, in those of her elders the one benefit she
might gain.  She had missed the petting to which she had been accustomed
from her grandfather and from all of us; and she had absolutely counted
the days till she could get home again, and had fallen into dire disgrace
for fits of crying when Ellen’s weakness caused delays.  Martyn’s
holidays had been a time of rapture to her, for there was no one to
attend much to her at home, and she was too young to enter into the
weight of anxiety; so the two had run as wild together as a gracious
well-trained damsel of ten and a fourteen-year-old boy with tender
chivalry awake in him could well do.  To be out of the way was all that
was asked of her for the time, and all old delights, such as the robbers’
cave, were renewed with fresh zest.

    ‘It was the sweetest and the last.’

And though Martyn was gone back to school, the child felt the wrench from
home most severely.  As she told me on one of those sorrowful days, ‘She
did think she had come back to live at dear, dear little Hillside all the
days of her life.’  Poor child, we became convinced that this vehement
attachment to Griffith’s brothers was one factor in Mrs. Fordyce’s desire
to make a change that should break off these habits of intimacy and

Pluralities had not become illegal, and Frank Fordyce, being still the
chief landholder in Hillside, and wishing to keep up his connection with
his people, did not resign the rectory, though he put the curate into the
house, and let the farm.  Once or twice a year he came to fulfil some of
a landlord’s duties, and was as genial and affectionate as ever, but more
and more absorbed in the needs of Beachharbour, and unconsciously showing
his own growth in devotion and activity; while he brought his splendid
health and vigour, his talent, his wealth, and, above all, his winning
charm of manner and address, to that magnificent work at Beachharbour,
well known to all of you; though, perhaps, you never guessed that the
foundation of all those churches and their grand dependent works of
piety, mercy, and beneficence was laid in one young girl’s grave.  I
never heard of a fresh achievement there without remembering how the
funeral psalm ends with—

    ‘Prosper Thou the work of our hands upon us,
    O prosper Thou our handiwork.’

And Emily?  Her drooping after the loss of her friend was sad, but it
would have been sadder but for the spirit Ellen had infused.  We found
the herbs to heal our woe round our pathway, though the first joyousness
of life had departed.  The reports Mr. Henderson and the Hillside curate
brought from Oxford were great excitements to us, and we thought and
puzzled over church doctrine, and tried to impart it to our scholars.  We
I say, for Henderson had made me take a lads’ class, which has been the
chief interest of my life.  Even the roughest were good to their helpless
teacher, and some men, as gray-headed as myself, still come every Sunday
to read with Mr. Edward, and are among the most faithful friends of my


    ‘Shall such mean little creatures pretend to the fashion?
    Cousin Turkey Cock, well may you be in a passion.’

                                                    _The Peacock at Home_.

IT was not till the second Christmas after dear Ellen Fordyce’s death
that my eldest brother brought his wife and child to Chantry House, after
an urgent letter to Lady Peacock from my mother, who yearned for a sight
of Griffith’s boy.

I do not wish to dwell on that visit.  Selina, or Griff’s bird, as Martyn
chose to term her, was certainly handsome and stylish; but her complexion
had lost freshness and delicacy, and the ladies said her colour was
rouge, and her fine figure due to other female mysteries.  She meant to
be very gracious, and patronised everybody, especially Emily, who, she
said, would be quite striking if not sacrificed by her dress, and whom
she much wished to take to London, engaging to provide her with a husband
before the season was over, not for a moment believing my mother’s
assurance that it would be a trial to us all whenever we had to resign
our Emily.  Nay, she tried to condole with the poor moped family slave,
and was received with such hot indignation as made her laugh, for, to do
her justice, she was good-natured and easy-tempered.  However, I saw less
of her than did the others, for I believe she thought the sight of me
made her ill.  Griff, poor old fellow, was heartily glad to be with us
again, but quite under her dominion.  He had lost his glow of youth and
grace of figure, his complexion had reddened, and no one would have
guessed him only a year older than Clarence, whose shoulders did indeed
reveal something of the desk, but whose features, though pale, were still
fair and youthful.  The boy was another Clarence, not so much in
compliment to his godfather as because it was the most elegant name in
the family, and favoured an interesting belief, current among his
mother’s friends, that the king had actually stood sponsor to the uncle.
Poor little man, his grandmother shut herself into the bookroom and
cried, after her first sight of him.  He was a wretched, pinched morsel
of humanity, though mamma and Emily detected wonderful resemblances; I
never saw them, but then he inherited his mother’s repulsion towards me,
and roared doubly at the sight of me.  My mother held that he was the
victim of Selina’s dissipations and mismanagement of herself and him, and
gave many matronly groans at his treatment by the smart, flighty nurse,
who waged one continual warfare with the household.

Accustomed to absolute supremacy in domestic matters, it was very hard
for my mother to have her counsels and experience set at naught, and, if
she appealed to Griff, to find her notions treated with the polite
deference he might have shown to a cottage dame.

A course of dinner-parties could not hinder her ladyship from finding
Chantry House insufferably dull, ‘always like Sunday;’ and, when she
found that we were given to Saints’ Day services, her pity and
astonishment knew no bounds.  ‘It was all very well for a poor object
like Edward,’ she held, ‘but as to Mr. Winslow and Clarence, did they go
for the sake of example?  Though, to be sure, Clarence might be a Papist
any day.’

Popery, instead of Methodism, was just beginning to be the bugbear set up
for those whom the world held to be ultra-religious, and my mother was so
far disturbed at our interest in what was termed Oxford theology that the
warning would have alarmed her if it had come from any other quarter.
However, Lady Peacock was rather fond of Clarence, and entertained him
with schemes for improving Chantry House when it should have descended to
Griffith.  The mullion rooms were her special aversion, and were all to
be swept away, together with the vaultings and the ruin—‘enough to give
one the blues, if there were nothing else,’ she averred.

We really felt it to the credit of our country that Sir George Eastwood
sent an invitation to an early dance to please his young daughters; and
for this our visitors prolonged their stay.  My mother made Clarence go,
that she might have some one to take care of her and Emily, since Griff
was sure to be absorbed by his lady.  Emily had not been to a ball since
those gay days in London with Ellen.  She shrank back from the contrast,
and would have begged off; but she was told that she must submit; and
though she said she felt immeasurably older than at that happy time, I
believe she was not above being pleased with the pale pink satin dress
and wreath of white jessamine, which my father presented to her, and in
which, according to Martyn, she beat ‘Griff’s bird all to shivers.’

Clarence had grown much less bashful and embarrassed since the Tooke
affair had given him a kind of position and a sense of not being a
general disgrace.  He really was younger in some ways at five-and-twenty
than at eighteen; he enjoyed dancing, and especially enjoyed the
compliments upon our sister, whom in our usual fashion we viewed as the
belle of the ball.  He was standing by my fire, telling me the various
humours of the night, when a succession of shrieks ran through the house.
He dashed away to see what was the matter, and returned, in a few
seconds, saying that Selina had seen some one in the garden, and neither
she nor mamma would be satisfied without examination—‘though, of course,
I know what it must be,’ he added, as he drew on his coat.

‘Bill, are you coming?’ said Griff at the door.  ‘You needn’t, if you
don’t like it.  I bet it is your old friend.’

‘I’m coming!  I’m coming!  I’m sure it is,’ shouted Martyn from behind,
with the inconsistent addition, ‘I’ve got my gun.’

‘Enough to dispose of any amount of robbers or phantoms either,’ observed
Griff as they went forth by the back door, reinforced by Amos Bell with a
lantern in one hand and a poker in the other.

My father was fortunately still asleep, and my mother came down to see
whether I was frightened.

She said she had no patience with Selina, and had left her to Emily and
her maid; but, before many words had been spoken, they all came creeping
down after her, feeling safety in numbers, or perhaps in her entire
fearlessness.  The report of a gun gave us all a shock, and elicited
another scream or two.  My mother, hoping that no one was hurt, hastened
into the hall, but only to meet Griff, hurrying in laughing to reassure
us with the tidings that it was only Martyn, who had shot the old
sun-dial by way of a robber; and he was presently followed by the others,
Martyn rather crestfallen, but arguing with all his might that the
sun-dial was exactly like a man; and my mother hurried every one off
upstairs without further discussion.

Clarence was rather white, and when Martyn demanded, ‘Do you really think
it was the ghost?  Fancy her selection of the bird!’ he gravely answered,
‘Martyn, boy, if it were, it is not a thing to speak of in that tone.
You had better go to bed.’

Martyn went off, somewhat awed.  Clarence was cold and shivering, and
stood warming himself.  He was going to wind up his watch, but his hand
shook, and I did it for him, noting the hour—twenty minutes past one.

It appeared that Selina, on going upstairs, recollected that she had left
her purse in Griff’s sitting-room before going to dress, and had gone in
quest of it.  She heard strange shouts and screams outside, and, going to
one of the old windows, where the shutters were less unmanageable than
elsewhere, she beheld a woman rushing towards the house pursued by at
least a couple of men.  Filled with terror she had called out, and nearly
fainted in Griff’s arms.

‘It agrees with all we have heard before,’ said Clarence, ‘the very day
and hour!’

‘As Martyn said, the person is strange.’

‘Villagers, less concerned, have seen the like,’ he said; ‘and, indeed,
all unconsciously poor Selina has cut away the hope of redress,’ he
sighed.  ‘Poor, restless spirit! would that I could do anything for her.’

‘Let me ask, do you ever see her now?’

‘N-no, I suppose not; but whenever I am anxious or worried, the trouble
takes her form in my dreams.’

Lady Peacock had soon extracted the ghost story from her husband, and,
though she professed to be above the vulgar folly of belief in it, her
nerves were so upset, she said, that nothing would have induced her to
sleep another night in the house.  The rational theory on this occasion
was that one of the maids must have stolen out to join in the Christmas
entertainment at the Winslow Arms, and been pursued home by some tipsy
revellers; but this explanation was not productive of goodwill between
the mother and daughter-in-law, since mamma had from the first so
entirely suspected Selina’s smart nurse as actually to have gone straight
to the nursery on the plea of seeing whether the baby had been
frightened.  The woman was found asleep—apparently so—said my mother, but
all her clothes were in an untidy heap on the floor, which to my mother
was proof conclusive that she had slipped into the house in the
confusion, and settled herself there.  Had not my mother with her own
eyes watched from the window her flirtations with the gardener, and was
more evidence requisite to convict her?  Mamma entertained the hope that
her proposal would be adopted of herself taking charge of her grandson,
and fattening his poor little cheeks on our cows’ milk, while the rest of
the party continued their round of visits.

Lady Peacock, however, treated it as a personal imputation that _her_
nurse should be accused instead of any servant of Mrs. Winslow’s own,
though, as Griff observed, not only character, but years and features
might alike acquit them of any such doings; but even he could not laugh
long, for it was no small vexation to him that such offence should have
arisen between his mother and wife.  Of course there was no open
quarrel—my mother had far too much dignity to allow it to come to
that—but each said in private bitter things of the other, and my lady’s
manner of declining to leave her baby at Chantry House was almost

Poor Griffith, who had been growing more like himself every day, tried in
vain to smooth matters, and would have been very glad to leave his child
to my mother’s management, though, of course, he acquitted the nurse of
the midnight adventure.  He privately owned to us that he had no opinion
of the woman, but he defended her to my mother, in whose eyes this was
tantamount to accusing her own respectable maids, since it was incredible
that any rational person could accept the phantom theory.

Gladly would he have been on better terms, for he had had to confess that
his wife’s fortune had turned out to be much less than common report had
stated, or than her style of living justified, and that his marriage had
involved him in a sea of difficulties, so that he had to beg for a larger
allowance, and for assistance in paying off debts.

The surrender of the London house and of some of the chief expenses were
made conditions of such favours, and Griffith had assented gratefully
when alone with his father; but after an interview with his wife,
demonstrations were made that it was highly economical to have a house in
town, and horses, carriages, and servants and that any change would be
highly derogatory to the heir of Earlscombe and the sacred wishes of the
late Sir Henry Peacock.

In fact, it was impressed on us that we were mere homely, countrified
beings, who could not presume to dictate to her ladyship, but who had ill
requited her condescension in deigning to beam upon us.


    ‘O dinna look, ye prideful queen, on a’ aneath your ken,
    For he wha seems the farthest _but_ aft wins the farthest _ben_,
    And whiles the doubie of the schule tak’s lead of a’ the rest:
    The birdie sure to sing is the gorbal of the nest.

    ‘The cauld, grey, misty morn aft brings a sunny summer day;
    The tree wha’s buds are latest is longest to decay;
    The heart sair tried wi’ sorrow still endures the sternest test:
    The birdie sure to sing is the gorbal of the nest.

    ‘The wee wee stern that glints in heaven may be a lowin’ sun,
    Though like a speck of light it seem amid the welkin dun;
    The humblest sodger on the field may win a warrior’s crest:
    The birdie sure to sing is the gorbal of the nest.’

                                                       _Scotch Newspaper_.

THE wickedness of the nurse was confirmed in my mother’s eyes when the
doom on the first-born of the Winslows was fulfilled, and the poor little
baby, Clarence, succumbed to a cold on the chest caught while his nurse
was gossiping with a guardsman.

He was buried in London.  ‘It was better for Selina to get those things
over as quickly as possible,’ said Griff; but Clarence saw that he
suffered much more than his wife would let him show to her.  ‘It is so
bad for him to dwell on it,’ she said.  ‘You see.  I never let myself
give way.’

And she was soon going out, nearly as usual, till their one other infant
came to open its eyes only for a few hours on this troublesome world, and
owe its baptism to Clarence’s exertions.  My mother, who was in London
just after, attending on the good old Admiral’s last illness, was greatly
grieved and disgusted with all she heard and saw of the young pair, and
that was not much.  She felt their disregard of her uncle as heartless,
or rather as insulting, on Selina’s part, and weak on Griff’s; and on all
sides she heard of their reckless extravagance, which made her forebode
the worst.

All these disappointments much diminished my father’s pleasure and
interest in his inheritance.  He had little heart to build and improve,
when his eldest son’s wife made no secret of her hatred to the place, or
to begin undertakings only to be neglected by those who came after; and
thus several favourite schemes were dropped, or prevented by Griffith’s
applications for advances.

At last there was a crisis.  At the end of the second season after their
visit to us, Clarence sent a hasty note, begging my father to join him in
averting an execution in Griffith’s house.  I cannot record the
particulars, for just at that time I had a long low fever, and did not
touch my diary for many weeks; nor indeed did I know much about the
circumstances, since my good nurses withheld as much as possible, and
would not let me talk about what they believed to make me worse.  Nor can
I find any letters about it.  I believe they were all made away with long
ago, and thus I only know that my father hurried up to town, remained for
a fortnight, and came back looking ten years older.  The house in London
had been given up, and he had offered a vacant one of our own, near home,
to Griff to retrench in, but Selina would not hear of it, insisting on
going abroad.

This was a great grief to him and to us all.  There was only one side of
our lives that was not saddened.  Our old incumbent had died about six
months after the Fordyces had gone, and Mr. Henderson had gladly accepted
the living where the parsonage had been built.  The lady to whom he had
been so long engaged was a great acquisition.  Her home had been at
Oxford; and she was as thoroughly imbued with the spirit that there
prevailed as was the Hillside curate.  She talked to us of Littlemore,
and of the sermons there and at St. Mary’s, and Emily and I shared to the
full her hero-worship.  It was the nearest compensation my sister had had
for the loss of Ellen, with this difference, that Mrs. Henderson was
older, had read more, and had conversed thoughtfully with some of the
leading spirits in religious thought, so that she opened a new world to

People would hardly believe in our eagerness and enthusiasm over the
revelations of church doctrine; how we debated, consulted our books, and
corresponded with Clarence over what now seems so trite; how we viewed
the _British Critic_ and _Tracts for the Times_ as our oracles, and
worried the poor Wattlesea bookseller to get them for us at the first
possible moment.

Church restoration was setting in.  Henderson had always objected to
christening from a slop-basin on the altar, and had routed out a
dilapidated font; and now one, which was termed by the country paper
chaste and elegant, was by united efforts, in which Clarence had the
lion’s share, presented in time for the christening of the first child at
the Parsonage.  It is that which was sent off to the Mission Chapel as a
blot on the rest of Earlscombe Church.  Yet what an achievement it was
deemed at the time!

The same may be said of most of our doings at that era.  We effected them
gradually, and have ever since been undoing them, as our architectural
and ecclesiastical perceptions have advanced.  I wonder how the next
generation will deal with our alabaster reredos and our stained windows,
with which we are all as well pleased as we were fifty years ago with the
plain red cross with a target-like arrangement above and below it in the
east window, or as poor Margaret may have been with her livery
altar-cloth.  Indeed, it seems to me that we got more delight out of our
very imperfect work, designed by ourselves and sent to Clarence to be
executed by men in back streets in London, costing an immensity of
trouble, than can be had now by simply choosing out of a book of figures
of cut and dried articles.

What an enthusiastic description Clarence sent of the illuminated
commandments in the new Church of St. Katharine in the Regent’s Park!
How Emily and I gloated over the imitation of them when we replaced the
hideous old tables, and how exquisite we thought the initial I, which
irreverent youngsters have likened, with some justice, to an enormous
overfed caterpillar, enwreathed with red and green cabbage leaves!

My mother was startled at these innovations; but my father, who had kept
abreast with the thought of the day, owned to the doctrines as chiming in
with his unbroken belief, and transferred to the improvements in the
church the interest which he had lost in the estate.  The farmers had
given up their distrust of him, and accepted him loyally as friend and
landlord, submitting to the reseating of the church, and only growling
moderately at decorations that cost them nothing.  Daily service began as
soon as Henderson was his own master, and was better attended than it is
now; for the old people to whom it was a novelty took up the habit more
freely than their successors, to whom the bell has been familiar through
their days of toil.  We were too far off to be constant attendants; but
evensong made an object for our airings, and my father’s head, now quite
white, was often seen there.  He felt it a great relief amid the cares of
his later years.

Perhaps it was with a view to him that Mr. Castleford arranged that
Clarence should become manager for the firm at Bristol, with a good
salary.  The Robsons would not take a fresh lodger—they were getting too
old for fresh beginnings; but they kept their rooms ready for him,
whenever he had to be in town, and Gooch found him a trustworthy widow as
housekeeper.  He took a little cottage at Clifton, availing himself of
the coach to spend his Sundays with us; and it was an acknowledged joy to
every one that I should drive to meet him every Saturday afternoon at the
Carpenter’s Arms, and bring him home to be my father’s aid in all his
business, and a most valuable help in Sunday parish work, in which he had
an amount of experience which astonished us.

What would have become of the singing without him?  The first hint
against the remarkable anthems had long ago alienated our tuneful choir
placed on high, and they had deserted _en masse_.  Then Emily and the
schoolmistress had toiled at the school children, whose thin little pipes
and provincialisms were a painful infliction, till Mrs. Henderson, backed
by Clarence, worked up a few promising men’s voices to support them.  We
thought everything but the New and Old Versions smacked of dissent,
except the hymns at the end of the Prayer-book, though we did not go as
far as Chapman, who told Emily he understood as how all the tunes was
tried over in Doctor’s Commons afore they were sent out, and it was not
‘liable’ to change them.  One of Clarence’s amusements in his lonely life
had been the acquisition of a knowledge of music, and he had a really
good voice; while his adherence to our choir encouraged other young men
of the farmer and artisan class to join us.  Choir, however, did not mean
surplices and cassocks, but a collection of our best voices, male and
female, in the gallery.

Martyn began to be a great help when at home, never having wavered in his
purpose of becoming a clergyman.  On going to Oxford, he became imbued
with the influences that made Alma Mater the focus of the religious life
and progress of that generation which is now the elder one.  There might
in some be unreality, in others extravagance, in others mere imitation;
but there was a truly great work on the minds of the young men of that
era—a work which has stood the test of time, made saints and martyrs, and
sown the seed whereof we have witnessed a goodly growth, in spite of
cruel shocks and disappointments, fightings within and fears without,
slanders and follies to provoke them, such as we can now afford to laugh
over.  With Martyn, rubrical or extra-rubrical observances were the
outlet of the exuberance of youth, as chivalry and romance had been to
us; and on Frank Fordyce’s visits, it was delightful to find that he too
was in the full swing of these ideas and habits, partly from his own
convictions, partly from his parish needs, and partly carried along by
curates fresh from Oxford.

In the first of his summer vacations Martyn joined a reading party, with
a tutor of the same calibre, and assured them that if they took up their
quarters in a farmhouse not many miles by the map from Beachharbour, they
would have access to unlimited services, with the extraordinary luxury of
a surpliced choir, and intercourse with congenial spirits, which to him
meant the Fordyces.

On arriving, however, the bay proved to be so rocky and dangerous that
there was no boating across it, as he had confidently expected.  The farm
depended on a market town in the opposite direction, and though the
lights of Beachharbour could be seen at night, there was no way thither
except by a six-miles walk along a cliff path, with a considerable détour
in order to reach a bridge and cross the rapid river which was an element
of danger in the bay, on the north side of the promontory which sheltered
the harbour to the south.

So when Martyn started as pioneer on the morning before the others
arrived, he descended into Beachharbour later than he intended, but still
he was in time to meet Anne Fordyce, a tall, bright-faced girl of
fourteen, taking her after-lessons turn on the parade with a governess,
who looked amazed as the two met, holding out both hands to one another,
with eager joy and welcome.

It was not the same when Anne flew into the Vicarage with the rapturous
announcement, ‘Here’s Martyn!’  The vicar was gone to a clerical meeting,
and Mrs. Fordyce said nothing about staying to see him.  The luncheon was
a necessity, but with quiet courtesy Martyn was made to understand that
he was regarded as practically out of reach, and ‘Oh, mamma, he could
come and sleep,’ was nipped in the utterance by ‘Martyn is busy with his
studies; we must not disturb him.’  This was a sufficient intimation that
Mrs. Fordyce did not intend to have the pupils dropping in on her
continually, and making her house their resort; and while Martyn was
digesting the rebuff, the governess carried Anne off to prepare for a
music lesson, and her mother gave no encouragement to lingering or
repeating the visit.

Still Martyn, on his way homewards, based many hopes on the return of Mr.
Fordyce; but all that ensued was, three weeks later, a note regretting
the not having been able to call, and inviting the whole party to a great
school-feast on the anniversary of the dedication of the first of the
numerous new churches of Beachharbour.  There was no want of cordiality
on that occasion, but time was lacking for anything beyond greetings and
fleeting exchanges of words.  Parson Frank tried to talk to Martyn,
bemoaned the not seeing more of him, declared his intentions of coming to
the farm, began an invitation, but was called off a hundred ways; and
Anne was rushing about with all the children of the place, gentle and
simple, on her hands.  Whenever Martyn tried to help her, he was called
off some other way, and engaged at last in the hopeless task of teaching
cricket where these fisher boys had never heard of it.

That was all he saw of our old friends, and he was much hurt by such
ingratitude.  So were we all, and though we soon acquitted the head of
the family of more than the forgetfulness of over occupation, the
soreness at his wife’s coldness was not so soon passed over.  Yet from
her own point of view, poor woman, she might be excused for a panic lest
her second daughter might go the way of the first.


    ‘As slow our ship her foamy track
       Against the wind was cleaving,
    Her trembling pennant still looked back
       To the dear isle ’twas leaving.
    So loath we part from all we love,
       From all the links that bind us,
    So turn our hearts as on we rove
       To those we’ve left behind us.’

                                                                 T. MOORE.

THE first time I saw Clarence’s _ménage_ was in that same summer of poor
Martyn’s repulse.  My father had come in for a small property in his
original county of Shropshire, and this led to his setting forth with my
mother to make necessary arrangements, and then to pay visits to old
friends; leaving Emily and me to be guests to our brother at Clifton.

We told them it was their harvest honeymoon, and it was funny to see how
they enjoyed the scheme when they had once made up their minds to it, and
our share in the project was equally new and charming, for Emily and I,
though both some way on in our twenties, were still in many respects home
children, nor had I ever been out on a visit on my own account.  The
yellow chariot began by conveying Emily and me to our destination.

Clifton has grown considerably since those days, and terraces have
swallowed up the site of what the post-office knew as Prospect Cottage,
but we were apt to term the doll’s house, for, as Emily said, our visit
there had something the same effect as a picnic or tea drinking at little
Anne’s famous baby house.  In like manner, it was tiny, square, with one
sash-window on each side of the door, but it was nearly covered with
creepers, odds and ends which Clarence brought from home, and induced to
flourish and take root better than their parent stocks.  In his nursery
days his precision had given him the name of ‘the old bachelor,’ and he
had all a sailor’s tidiness.  Even his black cat and brown spaniel each
had its peculiar basket and mat, and had been taught never to transgress
their bounds or interfere with one another; and the effect of his
parlour, embellished as it was in our honour, was delightful.  The
outlook was across the beautiful ravine, into the wooded slopes on the
further side, and, on the other side, down the widening cleft to that
giddy marvel, the suspension bridge, with vessels passing under it, and
the expanse beyond.

Most entirely we enjoyed ourselves, making merry over Clarence’s
housekeeping, employing ourselves after our wonted semi-student,
semi-artist fashion in the morning; and, when our host came home from
business, starting on country expeditions, taking a carriage whenever the
distance exceeded Emily’s powers of walking beside my chair; sketching,
botanising, or investigating church architecture, our newest hobby.  I
sketched, and the other two rambled about, measuring and filling up
archæological papers, with details of orientation, style, and all the
rest, deploring barbarisms and dilapidations, making curious and
delightful discoveries, pitying those who thought the Dun Cow’s rib and
Chatterton’s loft the most interesting features of St. Mary’s Redcliff,
and above all rubbing brasses with heel ball, and hanging up their grim
effigies wherever there was a vacant space on the walls of our doll’s

And though we grumbled when Clarence was detained at the office later
than we expected, this was qualified by pride at feeling his importance
there as a man in authority.  It was, however, with much dismay and some
inhospitality that we learnt that a young man belonging to the office—in
fact, Mr. Frith’s great-nephew—was coming to sail for Canton in one of
the vessels belonging to the firm, and would have to be ‘looked after.’
He could not be asked to sleep at Prospect Cottage, for Emily had the
only spare bedchamber, and Clarence had squeezed himself into a queer
little dressing closet to give me his room; but the housekeeper (a
treasure found by Gooch) secured an apartment in the next house, and we
were to act hosts, much against our will.  Clarence had barely seen the
youth, who had been employed in the office at Liverpool, living with his
mother, who was in ill-health and had died in the last spring.  The only
time of seeing him, he had seemed to be a very shy raw lad; but, ‘poor
fellow, we can make the best of him,’ was the sentiment; ‘it is only for
one night.’  However, we were dismayed when, as Emily was in the crisis
of washing-in a sky, it was announced that a gentleman was asking for Mr.
Winslow.  Churlishness bade us despatch him to the office, but humanity
prevailed to invite him previously to share our luncheon.  Yet we doubted
whether it had not been a cruel mercy when he entered, evidently
unprepared to stumble on a young lady and a deformed man, and stammering
piteously as he hoped there was no mistake—Mr. Winslow—Prospect, etc.

Emily explained, frustrating his desire to flee at once to the office,
and pointing out his lodging, close at hand, whence he was invited to
return in a few minutes to the meal.

We had time for some amiable exclamations, ‘The oaf!’  ‘What a bore!’
‘He has spoilt my sky!’  ‘I shan’t finish this to-day!’  ‘Shall we order
a carriage and take him to the office; we can’t have him on our hands all
the afternoon?’  ‘And we might get the new number of _Nicholas

N.B.—Perhaps it was _Oliver Twist_ or _The Old Curiosity Shop_—I am not
certain which was the current excitement just then; but I am quite sure
it was Mrs. Nickleby who first disclosed to us that our guest had a
splendid pair of dark eyes.  Hitherto he had kept them averted in the
studious manner I have often noticed in persons who did not wish to
excite suspicion of staring at my peculiarities; but that lady’s feelings
when her neighbour’s legs came down her chimney were too much for his
self-consciousness, and he gave a glance that disclosed dark liquid
depths, sparkling with mirth.  He was one number in advance of us, and
could enlighten us on the next stage in the coming story; and this went
far to reconcile us to the invasion, and to restore him to the proper use
of his legs and arms—and very shapely limbs they were, for he was a slim,
well-made fellow, with a dark gipsy complexion, and intelligent, honest
face, altogether better than we expected.

Yet we could have groaned when in the evening, Clarence brought him back
with tidings that something had gone wrong with the ship.  If I tried to
explain, I might be twitted with,

    ‘The bowsprit got mixed with the rudder sometimes.’

But of course Clarence knew all about it, and he thought it unlikely that
the vessel would be in sailing condition for a week at soonest.  Great
was our dismay!  Getting through one evening by the help of walking and
then singing was one thing, having the heart of our visit consumed by an
interloper was another; though Clarence undertook to take him to the
office and find some occupation for him that might keep him out of our
way.  But it was Clarence’s leisure hours that we begrudged; though truly
no one could be meeker than this unlucky Lawrence Frith, nor more
conscious of being an insufferable burthen.  I even detected a tear in
his eye when Clarence and Emily were singing ‘Sweet Home.’

‘Do you know,’ said Clarence, on the second evening, when his guest had
gone to dress for dinner, ‘I am very sorry for that poor lad.  It is only
six weeks since he lost his mother, and he has not a soul to care for
him, either here or where he is going.  I had fancied the family were
under a cloud, but I find it was only that old Frith quarrelled with the
father for taking Holy Orders instead of going into our house.  Probably
there was some imprudence; for the poor man died a curate and left no
provision for his family.  The only help the old man would give was to
take the boy into the office at Liverpool, stopping his education just as
he was old enough to care about it.  There were a delicate mother and two
sisters then, but they are all gone now; scarlet fever carried off the
daughters, and Mrs. Frith never was well again.  He seems to have spent
his time in waiting on her when off duty, and to have made no friends
except one or two contemporaries of hers; and his only belongings are old
Frith and Mrs. Stevens, who are packing him off to Canton without caring
a rap what becomes of him.  I know what Mrs. Stevens is at; she comes up
to town much oftener now, and has got her husband’s nephew into the
office, and is trying to get everything for him; and that’s the reason
she wants to keep up the old feud, and send this poor Lawrence off to the
ends of the earth.’

‘Can’t you do anything for him?’ asked Emily.  ‘I thought Mr. Frith did
attend to you.’

Clarence laughed.  ‘I know that Mrs. Stevens hates me like poison; but
that is the only reason I have for supposing I might have any influence.’

‘And can’t you speak to Mr. Castleford?’

‘Set him to interfere about old Frith’s relations!  He would know better!
Besides, the fellow is too old to get into any other line—four-and-twenty
he says, though he does not look it; and he is as innocent as a baby,
indifferent just now to what becomes of him, or whither he goes; it is
all the same to him, he says; there is no one to care for him anywhere,
and I think he is best pleased to go where it is all new.  And there, you
see, the poor lad will be left to drift to destruction—mother’s darling
that he has been—just for want of some human being to care about him, and
hinder his getting heartless and reckless!’

Clarence’s voice trembled, and Emily had tears in her eyes as she asked
if absolutely nothing could be done for him.  Clarence meant to write to
Mr. Castleford, who would no doubt beg the chaplain at the station to
show the young man some kindness; also, perhaps, to the resident partner,
whom Clarence had looked at once over his desk, but in his rawest and
most depressed days.  The only clerk out there, whom he knew, would, he
thought, be no element of safety, and would not like the youth the better
either for bringing his recommendation or bearing old Frith’s name.

We were considerably softened towards our guest, though the next time
Emily came on him he was standing in the hall, transfixed in
contemplation of her greatest achievement in brass-rubbing, a severe and
sable knight with the most curly of nostrils, the stiffest and
straightest of mouths, hair straight on his brows, pointed toes joined
together below, and fingers touching over his breast.  There he hung in
triumph just within the front door, fluttering and swaying a little on
his pins whenever a draught came in; and there stood Lawrence Frith,
freshly aware of him, and unable to repress the exclamation, ‘I say!
isn’t he a guy?’

‘Sir Guy de Warrenne,’ began Emily composedly; ‘don’t you see his coat of
arms? “chequy argent and azure.”’

‘Does your brother keep him there to scare away the tramps?’

Emily’s countenance was a study.

The subject of brasses was unfolded to Lawrence Frith, and before the end
of the week he had spent an entire day on his hands and knees, scrubbing
away with the waxy black compound at a figure in the Cathedral—the
office-work, as we declared, which Clarence gave him to do.  In fact he
became so thoroughly infected that it was a pity that he was going where
there would be no exercise in ecclesiology—rather the reverse.
Embarrassment on his side, and hostility on ours, may be said to have
vanished under the influence of Sir Guy de Warrenne’s austere
countenance.  The youth seemed to regard ‘Mr. Winslow’ in the light of a
father, and to accept us as kindly beings.  He ceased to contort his
limbs in our awful presence, looked at me like as an ordinary person, and
even ventured on giving me an arm.  He listened with unfeigned pleasure
to our music, perilled his neck on St. Vincent’s rocks in search of
plants, and by and by took to hanging back with Emily, while Clarence
walked on with me, to talk to her out of his full heart about his mother
and sisters.

Three weeks elapsed before the _Hoang-ho_ was ready to sail, and by that
time Lawrence knew that there were some who would rejoice in his success,
or grieve if things went ill with him.  Clarence and I had promised him
long home letters, and impressed on him that we should welcome his
intelligence of himself.  For verily he had made his way into our hearts,
as a thoroughly good-hearted, affectionate being, yearning for something
to cling to; intelligent and refined, though his recent cultivation had
been restricted, soundly principled, and trained in religious feelings
and habits, but so utterly inexperienced that there was no guessing how
it might be with him when cast adrift, with no object save his own
maintenance, and no one to take an interest in him.

Clarence talked to him paternally, and took him to second-hand shops to
provide a cheap library of substantial reading, engaging to cater for him
for the future, not omitting Dickens; and Emily worked at providing him
with the small conveniences and comforts for the voyage that called for a
woman’s hand.  He was so grateful that it was like fitting out a dear
friend or younger brother.

‘I wonder,’ said Clarence, as he walked by my chair on one of the last
days, ‘whether it was altogether wise to have this young Frith here so
much, though it could hardly have been helped.’

To which I rejoined that it could hardly have displeased the uncle, and
that if it did, the youth’s welfare was worth annoying him for.

‘I meant something nearer home,’ said Clarence, and proceeded to ask if I
did not think Lawrence Frith a good deal smitten with Emily.

To me it seemed an idea not worth consideration.  Any youth, especially
one who had lived so secluded a life, would naturally be taken by the
first pleasing young woman who came in his way, and took a kindly
interest in him; but I did not think Emily very susceptible, being
entirely wrapped up in home and parish matters; and I reminded Clarence
that she had not been loverless.  She had rejected the Curate of
Hillside; and we all saw, though she did not, that only her evident
indifference kept Sir George Eastwood’s second son from making further

Clarence was not convinced.  He said he had never seen our sister look at
either of these as she did when Lawrence came into the room; and there
was no denying that there was a soft and embellishing light on her whole
countenance, and a fresh sweetness in her voice.  But then he seemed such
a boy as to make the notion ridiculous; and yet, on reckoning, it proved
that their years were equal.  All that could be hoped was that the
sentiment, if it existed, would not discover itself before they parted,
so as to open their eyes to the dreariness of the prospect, and cause our
mother to think we had betrayed our trust in the care of our sister.  As
we could do nothing, we were not sorry that this was the last day.
Clarence was to go on board with Frith, see him out of the river, and
come back with the pilot; and we all drove down to the wharf together;
nobody saying much by the way, except the few jerky remarks we brothers
felt bound to originate and reply to.

Emily sat very still, her head bent under her shading bonnet—I think she
was trying to keep back tears for the solitary exile; and Lawrence,
opposite, was unable to help watching her with wistful eyes, which would
have revealed all, if we had not guessed it already.  It might be
presumptuous, but it made us very sorry for him.

When the moment of parting came, there was a wringing of hands, and,
‘Thank you, thank you,’ in a low, broken, heartfelt voice, and to Emily,
‘You have made life a new thing to me.  I shall never forget,’ and the
showing of a tiny book in his waistcoat pocket.

When the two had disappeared, Emily, no longer restraining her tears,
told me that she had exchanged Prayer-books with him, and they were to
read the Psalms at the same time every day.  ‘I thought it might be a
help to him,’ she said simply.

Nor was there any consciousness in her talk as she related to me what he
had told her about his mother and sisters, and his dreary sense of
piteous loneliness, till we had adopted him as a brother—in which
capacity I trusted that she viewed him.

However, Clarence had been the recipient of all the poor lad’s fervent
feelings for Miss Winslow, how she had been a new revelation to his
desolate spirit, and was to be the guiding star of his life, etc., etc.,
all from the bottom of his heart, though he durst not dream of requital,
and was to live, not on hope, but on memory of the angelic kindness of
these three weeks.

It was impossible not to be touched, though we strove to be worldly wise
old bachelors, and assured one another that the best and most probable
thing that could happen to Lawrence Frith would be to have his dream
blown away by the Atlantic breezes, and be left open to the charms of
some Chinese merchant’s daughter.


    ‘Thus Esau-like, our Father’s blessing miss,
    Then wash with fruitless tears our faded crown.’


AFTER such a rebuff as Martyn had experienced at Beachharbour, he no
longer haunted its neighbourhood, but devoted the long vacation of the
ensuing year to a walking tour in Germany, with one or two congenial
spirits, who shared his delight in scenery, pictures, and architecture.

By and by he wrote to Clarence from Baden Baden—

‘Whom do you think I should find here but Griffith and his bird?  I first
spotted the old fellow smoking under a tree in the Grand Platz, but he
looked so seedy and altered altogether that I was not sure enough of him
to speak, especially as he showed no signs of knowing me.  (He says it
was my whiskers that stumped him.)  I made inquiries and found that they
figured as “Sir Peacock and lady,” but they were entered all right in the
book.  He is taking the “Kür”—he looks as if he wanted it—and she is
taking _rouge et noir_.  I saw her at the salon, with her neck grown as
long as her namesake’s, but not as pretty, claws to match, thin and
painted, as if the ruling passion was consuming her.  Poor old Griff! he
was glad enough to see me, but he is wofully shaky, and nearly came to
tears when he asked after Ted and all at home.  They had an upset of
their carriage in Vienna last winter, and he got some twist, or other
damage, which he thought nothing of, but it has never righted itself; I
am sure he is very ill, and ought to be looked after.  He has had only
foreign doctoring, and you know he never was strong in languages.  I
heard of the medico here inquiring what precise symptom _der Englander_
meant by being “down in zie mout!”  Poor Griff is that, whatever else he
is, and Selina does not see it, nor anything else but her _rouge et noir_
table.  I am afraid he plays too, when he is up to it, but he can’t stand
much of the stuffiness of the place, and he respects my innocence, poor
old beggar; so he has kept out of it, since we have been here.  He seems
glad to have me to look after him, but afraid to let me stay, for fear of
my falling a victim to the place.  I can’t well tell him that there is a
perpetual warning to youth in the persons of himself and his Peacock.
His mind might be vastly relieved if I were out of it, but scarcely his
body; and I shall not leave him till I hear from home.  Thomson says I am
right.  I should like to bring the poor old man home for advice,
especially if my lady could be left behind, and by all appearances she
would not object.  Could not you come, or mamma?  Speak to papa about it.
It is all so disgusting that I really could not write to him.  It is
enough to break one’s heart to see Griff when he hears about home, and
Edward, and Emily.  I told him how famously you were getting on, and he
said, “It has been all up, up with him, all down, down with me,” and then
he wanted me to fix my day for leaving Baden, as if it were a sink of
infection.  I fancy he thinks me a mere infant still, for he won’t heed a
word of advice about taking care of himself and _will_ do the most
foolish things imaginable for a man in his state, though I can’t make out
what is the matter with him.  I tried both French and Latin with his
doctor, equally in vain.’

There was a great consultation over this letter.  Our parents would fain
have gone at once to Baden, but my father was far from well; in fact, it
was the beginning of the break-up of his constitution.  He had been
ageing ever since his disappointment in Griffith, and though he had so
enjoyed his jaunt with my mother that he had seemed revived for the time,
he had been visibly failing ever since the winter, and my mother durst
not leave him.  Indeed she was only too well aware that her presence was
apt to inspire Selina with the spirit of contradiction, and that Clarence
would have a better chance alone.  He was to go up to London by the mail
train, see Mr. Castleford, and cross to Ostend.

A valise from the lumber-room was wanted, and at bedtime he went in quest
of it.  He came back white and shaken; and I said—

‘You have not seen _her_?’

‘Yes, I have.’

‘It is not her time of year.’

‘No; I was not even thinking of her.  There was none of the wailing, but
when I looked up from my rummaging, there was her face as if in a window
or mirror on the wall.’

‘Don’t dwell on it’ was all I could entreat, for the apparition at
unusual times had been mentioned as a note of doom, and not only did it
weigh on me, but it might send Clarence off in a desponding mood.
Tidings were less rapid when telegraphs were not, and railways
incomplete.  Clarence did not reach Baden till ten days after the
despatch of Martyn’s letter, and Griffith’s condition had in the meantime
become much more serious.  Low fever had set in, and he was confined to
his dreary lodgings, where Martyn was doing his best for him in an
inexperienced, helpless sort of way, while Lady Peacock was at the
_salle_, persisting in her belief that the ailment was a temporary
matter.  Martyn afterwards declared that he had never seen anything more
touching than poor Griff’s look of intense rest and relief at Clarence’s

On the way through London, by the assistance of Mr. Castleford, Clarence
had ascertained how to procure the best medical advice attainable, and he
was linguist enough to be an adequate interpreter.  Alas! all that was
achieved was the discovery that between difficulties of language, Griff’s
own indifference, and his wife’s carelessness, the injury had developed
into fatal disease.  An operation _might_ yet save him, if he could rally
enough for it, but the fever was rapidly destroying his remaining
strength.  Selina ascribed it to excitement at meeting Martyn, and indeed
he had been subject to such attacks every autumn.  Any way, he had no
spirits nor wish for improvement.  If his brothers told him he was
better, he smiled and said it was like a condemned criminal trying to
recover enough for the gallows.  His only desire was to be let alone and
have Clarence with him.  He had ceased to be uneasy as to Martyn’s
exposure to temptation, but he said he could hardly bear to watch that
bright, fresh young manhood, and recollect how few years had passed since
he had been such another, nor did he like to have any nurse save
Clarence.  His wife at first acquiesced, holding fast to the theory of
the periodical autumnal fever, and then that the operation would restore
him to health; and as her presence fretted him, and he received her small
attentions peevishly, she persisted in her usual habits, and heard with
petulance his brothers’ assurances of his being in a critical condition,
declaring that it was always thus with these fevers—he was always cross
and low-spirited, and no one could tell what she had undergone with him.

Then came days of positive pain, and nights of delirious, dreary
murmuring about home and all of us, more especially Ellen Fordyce.
Clarence had no time for letters, and Martyn’s became a call for mamma,
with the old childish trust in her healing and comforting powers,
declaring that he would meet her at Cologne, and steer her through the
difficulties of foreign travel.

Hesitation was over now.  My father was most anxious to send her, and she
set forth, secure that she could infuse life, energy, and resolution into
her son, when those two poor boys had failed.

It was not, however, Martyn who met her, but his friend Thomson, with the
tidings that the suffering had become so severe as to prevent Martyn from
leaving Baden, not only on his brother’s account, but because Lady
Peacock had at last taken alarm, and was so uncontrollable in her
distress that he was needed to keep her out of the sickroom, where her
presence, poor thing, only did mischief.

She evidently had a certain affection for her husband; and it was the
more piteous that in his present state he only regarded her as the
tempter who had ruined his life—his false Duessa, who had led him away
from Una.  On one unhappy evening he had been almost maddened by her
insisting on arguing with him; he called her a hag, declared she had been
the death of his children, the death of that dear one—could she not let
him alone now she had been the death of himself?

When Martyn took her away, she wept bitterly, and told enough to make the
misery of their life apparent, when the gaiety was over, and regrets and
recriminations set in.

However, there came a calmer interval, when the suffering passed off, but
in the manner which made the German doctor intimate that hope was over.
Would life last till his mother came?

His brothers had striven from the first to awaken thoughts of higher
things, and turn remorse into repentance; but every attempt resulted in
strange, sad wanderings about Esau, the birthright, and the blessing.
Indeed, these might not have been entirely wanderings, for once he said,
‘It is better this way, Bill.  You don’t know what you wish in trying to
bring me round.  Don’t be hard on me.  She drove me to it.  It is all
right now.  The Jews will be disappointed.’

For even at the crisis in London, he had concealed that he had raised
money on _post obits_, so that, had he outlived my father, Chantry House
would have been lost.  Lady Peacock’s fortune had been undermined when
she married him; extravagance and gambling had made short work of the

Why should I speak of such things here, except to mourn over our
much-loved brother, with all his fine qualities and powers wasted and
overthrown?  He clung to Clarence’s affection, and submitted to prayers
and psalms, but without response.  He showed tender recollection of us
all, but scarcely durst think of his father, and hardly appeared to wish
to see his mother.  Clarence’s object soon came to be to obtain
forgiveness for the wife, since bitterness against her seemed the great
obstacle to seeking pardon, peace, or hope; but each attempt only
produced such bitterness against her, and such regrets and mourning for
Ellen, as fearfully shook the failing frame, while he moaned forth
complaints of the blandishments and raillery with which his temptress had
beguiled him.  Clarence tried in vain to turn away this idea, but nothing
had any effect till he bethought himself of Ellen’s message, that she
knew even this fatal act had been prompted by generosity of spirit.
There was truth enough in it to touch Griff, but only so far as to cry,
‘What might I not have been with her?’  Still, there was no real
softening till my mother came.  He knew her at once, and all the old
childish relations were renewed between them.  There was little time left
now, but he was wholly hers.  Even Clarence was almost set aside, save
where strength was needed, and the mother seemed to have equal control of
spirit and body.  It was she, who, scarcely aware of what had gone
before, caused him to admit Selina.

‘Tell her not to talk,’ he said.  ‘But we have each much to forgive one

She came in, awed and silent, and he let her kiss him, sit near at hand,
and wait on my mother, whose coming had, as it were, insensibly taken the
bitterness away and made him as a little child in her hands.  He could
follow prayers in which she led him, as he could not, or did not seem to
do, with any one else, for he was never conscious of the presence of the
clergyman whom Thomson hunted up and brought, and who prayed aloud with
Martyn while the physical agony claimed both my mother and Clarence.

Once Griff looked about him and called out for our father, then
recollecting, muttered, ‘No—the birthright gone—no blessing.’

It grieved us much, it grieves me now, that this was his last distinct
utterance.  He _looked_ as if the comforting replies and the appeals to
the Source of all redemption did awaken a response, but he never spoke
articulately again; and only thirty-six hours after my mother’s arrival,
all was over.

Poor Selina went into passions of hysterics and transports of grief,
needing all the firmness of so resolute a woman as my mother to deal with
her.  She was wild in self-accusation, and became so ill that the care of
her was a not unwholesome occupation for my mother, who was one of those
with whom sorrow has little immediate outlet, and is therefore the more

She would not bring our brother’s coffin home, thinking the agitation
would be hurtful to my father, and anxious to get back to him as soon as
possible.  So Griff was buried at Baden, and from time to time some of us
have visited his grave.  Of course she proposed Selina’s return to
Chantry House with her; but Mr. Clarkson, the brother, had come out to
the funeral, and took his sister home with him, certainly much to our
relief, though all the sad party at Baden had drawn much nearer together
in these latter days.


       ‘It then draws near the season
    Wherein the spirit held his wont to walk.’


WE had really lost our Griffith long before—our bright, generous,
warm-hearted, promising Griff, the brilliance of our home; but his actual
death made the first breach in a hitherto unbroken family, and was a new
and strange shock.  It made my father absolutely an old man; and it also
changed Martyn.  His first contact with responsibility, suffering, and
death had demolished the light-hearted boyishness which had lasted in the
youngest of the family through all his high aspirations.  Till his return
to Oxford, his chief solace was in getting some one of us alone, going
through all the scenes at Baden, discussing his new impressions of the
trials and perplexities of life, and seeking out passages in the books
that were becoming our oracles.  What he had admired externally before,
he was grasping from within; nor can I describe what the _Lyra
Apostolica_, and the two first volumes of _Parochial Sermons preached at
Littlemore_, became to us.

Mr. Clarkson had been rather dry with my brothers at Baden, evidently
considering that poor Griffith had been as fatal to his sister as we
thought Selina had been to our brother.  It was hardly just, for there
had been much more to spoil in him than in her; and though she would
hardly have trod a much higher path, there is no saying what he might
have been but for her.

Griffith had said nothing about providing for her, not having forgiven
her till he was past recollecting the need, but her brother had intimated
that something was due from the family, and Clarence had assented—not,
indeed, as to her deserts, poor woman, but her claims and her needs—well
knowing that my father would never suffer Griff’s widow to be in want.

He judged rightly.  My father was nervously anxious to arrange for giving
her £500 a year, in the manner most likely to prevent her from making
away with it, and leaving herself destitute.  But there had already been
heavy pulls on his funded property, and ways and means had to be
considered, making Clarence realise that he had become the heir.
Somehow, there still remained, especially with my mother and himself, a
sense of his being a failure, and an inferior substitute, although my
father had long come to lean upon him, as never had been the case with
our poor Griff.

The first idea of raising the amount required was by selling an outlying
bit of the estate near the Wattlesea Station, for which an enterprising
builder was making offers, either to purchase or take on a building
lease.  My father had received several letters on the subject, and only
hesitated from a feeling against breaking up the estate, especially if
this were part of the original Chantry House property, and not a more
recent acquisition of the Winslows.  Moreover, he would do nothing
without Clarence’s participation.

The title-deeds were not in the house, for my father had had too much of
the law to meddle more than he could help with his own affairs, and had
left them in the hands of the family solicitor at Bristol, where Clarence
was to go and look over them.  He rejoiced in the opportunity of being
able to see whether anything would throw light on the story of the
mullion chamber; and the certainty that the Wattlesea property had never
been part of the old endowment of the Chantry did not seem nearly so
interesting as a packet of yellow letters tied with faded red tape.  Mr.
Ryder made no difficulty in entrusting these to him, and we read them by
our midnight lamp.

Clarence had seen poor Margaret’s will, bequeathing her entire property
to her husband’s son, Philip Winslow, and had noted the date, 1705; also
the copy of the decision in the Court of Probate that there was no
sufficient evidence of entail on the Fordyce family to bar her power of
disposing of it.  We eagerly opened the letters, but found them
disappointing, as they were mostly offerings of ‘Felicitations’ to Philip
Winslow on having established his ‘Just Claim,’ and ‘refuted the
malicious Accusations of Calumny.’  They only served to prove the fact
that he had been accused of something, and likewise that he had powerful
friends, and was thought worth being treated with adulation, according to
the fashion of his day.  Perhaps it was hardly to be expected that he
should have preserved evidence against himself, but it was baffling to
sift so little out of such a mass of correspondence.  If we could have
had access to the Fordyce papers, no doubt they would have given the
other phase of the transaction, but they were unattainable.  The only
public record that Clarence could discover was much abbreviated, and
though there was some allusion to intimidation, the decision seemed to
have been fixed by the non-existence of any entail.

Christmas was drawing on, and gathering together what was left of us.
Though Griffith had spent only one Christmas at home in nine years, it
was wonderful how few we seemed, even when Martyn returned.  My father
liked to have us about him, and even spoke of Clarence’s giving up his
post as manager at Bristol, and living entirely at home to attend to the
estate; but my mother did not encourage the idea.  She could not quite
bear to accept any one in Griff’s place, and rightly thought there was
not occupation enough to justify bringing Clarence home.  I was competent
to assist my father through all the landlord’s business that came to him
within doors, and Emily had ridden and walked about enough with him to be
an efficient inspector of crops and repairs, besides that Clarence
himself was within reach.

‘Indeed,’ he said to me, ‘I cannot loose my hold on Frith and Castleford
till I see my way into the future.’

I did not know what he intended either then or when he gave his voice
against dismembering the property by selling the Wattlesea estate, but
arranged for raising Selina’s income otherwise, persuading my father to
let him undertake the building of the required cottages out of his own
resources, on principles much more wholesome than were likely to be
employed by the speculator.  Nor did grasp what was in his mind when he
made me look out my ‘ghost journal,’ as we called my record of each
apparition reported in the mullion chamber or the lawn, with marks to
those about which we had no reasonable doubt.  Separately there might be
explanation, but conjointly and in connection with the date they had a
remarkable force.

‘I am resolved,’ said Clarence, ‘to see whether that figure can have a
purpose.  I have thought of it all those years.  It has hitherto had no
fair play.  I was too much upset by the sight, and beaten by the utter
incredulity of everybody else; but now I am determined to look into it.’

There was both awe and resolution in his countenance, and I only
stipulated that he should not be alone, or with no more locomotive
companion than myself.  Martyn was as old as I had been at our former
vigil, and a person to be relied on.

A few months ago he would have treated the matter as a curious
adventurous enterprise—a concession to superstition or imagination; but
now he took it up with much grave earnestness.  He had been discussing
the evidence for such phenomena with friends at Oxford, and the
conclusion had been that they were at times permitted, sometimes as
warnings, sometimes to accomplish the redress of a wrong, sometimes to
teach us the reality of the spiritual world about us; and, likewise, that
some constitutions were more susceptible than others to these influences.
Of course he had adduced all that he knew of his domestic haunted
chamber, but had found himself uncertain as to the amount of direct or
trustworthy evidence.  So he eagerly read our jottings, and was very
anxious to keep watch with Clarence, though there were greater
difficulties in the way than when the outer chamber was Griffith’s
sitting-room, and always had a fire lighted.

To our disappointment, likewise, there came an invitation from the
Eastwoods for the evening of the 27th of December, the second of the
recurring days of the phantom’s appearance.  My father could not, and my
mother would not go, but they so much wanted my brothers and sister to
accept it that it could not well be declined.  It was partly a political
affair, and my father was anxious to put Clarence forward, and make him
take his place as the future squire; and my mother thought depression had
lasted long enough with her children, and did not like to see Martyn so
grave and preoccupied.  ‘It was quite right and very nice in him, dear
boy, but it was not natural at his age, though he was to be a clergyman.’

As to Emily, her gentle cheerfulness had helped us all through our time
of sorrow, and just now we had been gratified by the tidings of young
Lawrence Frith.  That youth was doing extremely well.  There had been
golden reports from manager and chaplain, addressed to Mr. Castleford,
the latter adding that the young man evidently owed much to Mr. Winslow’s
influence.  Moreover, Lawrence had turned out an excellent correspondent.
Long letters, worthy of forming a book of travels, came regularly to
Clarence and me, indeed they were thought worth being copied into that
fat clasped MS. book in the study.  Writing them must have been a real
solace to the exile, in his island outside the town, whither all the
outer barbarians were relegated.  So, no doubt, was the packing of the
gifts that were gradually making Prospect Cottage into a Chinese
exhibition of nodding mandarins, ivory balls, exquisite little cups, and
faggots of tea.  Also, a Chinese walking doll was sent humbly as an
offering for the amusement of Miss Winslow’s school children, whom indeed
she astonished beyond measure; and though her wheels are out of order,
and her movements uncertain, she is still a stereotyped incident in the
Christmas entertainments.

There was no question but that these letters and remembrances gave great
pleasure to Emily; but I believe she was not in the least conscious that
though greater in degree, it was not of the same quality as that she felt
when a runaway scholar who had gone to sea presented her in token of
gratitude with a couple of dried sea-horses.


    ‘What human creature in the dead of night
       Had coursed, like hunted hare, that cruel distance,
    Had sought the door, the window in her flight
       Striving for dear existence?’


ON the night of the 26th of December, Clarence and Martyn, well wrapped
in greatcoats, stole into the outer mullion room; but though the usual
sounds were heard, and the mysterious light again appeared, Martyn
perceived nothing else, and even Clarence declared that if there were
anything besides, it was far less distinct to him than it had been
previously.  Could it be that his spiritual perceptions were growing
dimmer as he became older, and outgrew the sensitiveness of nerves and

We came to the conclusion that it would be best to watch the outside of
the house, rather than within the chamber; and the dinner-party
facilitated this, since it accounted for being up and about nearer to the
hour when the ghost might be expected.  Egress could be had through the
little garden door, and I undertook to sit up and keep up the fire.

All three came to my room on their return home, for Emily had become
aware of our scheme, and entreated to be allowed to watch with us.
Clarence had unfastened the alarum bell from my shutters, and taken down
the bar after the curtains had been drawn by the housemaid, and he now
opened them.  It was a frosty moonlight night, and the lawn lay white and
crisp, marked with fantastic shadows.  The others looked grave and pale,
Emily was in a thick white shawl and hood, with a swan’s down boa over
her black dress, a somewhat ghostly figure herself, but we were in far
too serious a mood for light observations.

There was something of a shudder about Clarence as he went to unbolt the
back door; Martyn kept close to him.  We saw them outside, and then Emily
flew after them.  From my window I could watch them advancing on the
central gravel walk, Emily standing still between her brothers, clasping
an arm of each.  I saw the light near the ruin, and caught some sounds as
of shrieks and of threatening voices, the light flitted towards the gable
of the mullion rooms, and then was the concluding scream.  All was over,
and the three came back much agitated, Emily sinking into an armchair,
panting, her hands over her face, and a nervous trembling through her
whole frame, Martyn’s eyes looking wide and scared, Clarence with the
well-known look of terror on his face.  He hurried to fetch the tray of
wine and water that was always left on the table when anyone went to a
party at night, but he shivered too much to prevent the glasses from
jingling, and I had to pour out the sherry and administer it to Emily.
‘Oh! poor, poor thing,’ she gasped out.

‘You saw?’ I exclaimed.

‘They did,’ said Martyn; ‘I only saw the light, and heard!  That was
enough!’ and he shuddered again.

‘Then Emily did,’ I began, but Clarence cut me short.  ‘Don’t ask her

‘Oh! let me tell,’ cried Emily; ‘I can’t go away to bed till I have had
it out.’

Then she gave the details, which were the more notable because she had
not, like Martyn, been studying our jottings, and had heard comparatively
little of the apparition.

‘When I joined the boys,’ she said, ‘I looked toward the mullion rooms; I
saw the windows lighted up, and heard a sobbing and crying inside.’

‘So did I,’ put in Martyn, and Clarence bent his head.

‘Then,’ added Emily, ‘by the moonlight I saw the gable end, not blank,
and covered by the magnolia as it is now, but with stone steps up to the
bricked-up doorway.  The door opened, the light spread, and there came
out a lady in black, with a lamp in one hand, and a kind of parcel in the
other, and oh, when she turned her face this way, it was Ellen’s!’

‘So you called out,’ whispered Martyn.

‘Dear Ellen, not as she used to be,’ added Emily, ‘but like what she was
when last I saw her; no, hardly that either, for this was sad, sad,
scared, terrified, with eyes all tears, as Ellen never, never was.’

‘I saw,’ added Clarence, ‘I saw the shape, but not the countenance and
expression as I used to do.’

                     [Picture: Lady Margaret’s ghost]

‘She came down the steps,’ continued Emily, ‘looking about her as if
making her escape, but, just as she came opposite to us, there was a
sound of tipsy laughing and singing from the gate up by the wood.’

‘I thought it real,’ said Martyn.

‘Then,’ continued Emily, ‘she wavered, then turned and went under an arch
in the ruin—I fancied she was hiding something—then came out and fled
across to the steps; but there were two dark men rushing after her, and
at the stone steps there was a frightful shriek, and then it was all
over, the steps gone, all quiet, and the magnolia leaves glistening in
the moonshine.  Oh! what can it all mean?’

‘Went under the arch,’ repeated Clarence.  ‘Is it what she hid there that
keeps her from resting?’

‘Then you believe it really happened?’ said Emily, ‘that some terrible
scene is being acted over again.  Oh! but can it be the real spirits!’

‘That is one of the great mysteries,’ answered Martyn; ‘but I could tell
you of other instances.’

‘Don’t now,’ I interposed; ‘Emily has had quite enough.’

We reminded her that the ghastly tragedy was over and would not recur
again for another year; but she was greatly shaken, and we were very
sorry for her, when the clock warned her to go to her own room, whither
Martyn escorted her.  He lighted every candle he could find, and revived
the fire; but she was sadly overcome by what she had witnessed, she lay
awake all the rest of the night, and in the morning, looked so unwell,
and had so little to tell about the party that my mother thought her
spirits had been too much broken for gaieties.

The real cause could not be confessed, for it would have been ascribed to
some kind of delirium, and have made a commotion for which my father was
unfit.  Besides, we had reached an age when, though we would not have
disobeyed, liberty of thought and action had become needful.  All our
private confabulations were on this extraordinary scene.  We looked for
the arch in the ruin, but there was, as our morning senses told us,
nothing of the kind.  She tried to sketch her remembrance of both that
and the gable of the mullion chamber, and Martyn prowled about in search
of some hiding-place.  Our antiquarian friend, Mr. Stafford, had made a
conjectural drawing of the Chapel restored, and all the portfolios about
the house were searched for it, disquieting mamma, who suspected Martyn’s
Oxford notions of intending to rebuild it, nor would he say that it ought
not to be done.  However, he with his more advanced ecclesiology,
pronounced Mr. Stafford’s reconstruction to be absolutely mistaken and
impossible, and set to work on a fresh plan, which, by the bye, he
derides at present.  It afforded, however, an excuse for routing under
the ivy and among the stones, but without much profit.  From the
mouldings on the materials and in the stables and the front porch, it was
evident that the chapel had been used as a quarry, and Emily’s arch was
very probably that of the entrance door.  In a dry summer, the
foundations of the walls and piers could be traced on the turf, and the
stumps of one or two columns remained, but the rest was only a confused
heap of fragments within which no one could have entered as in that
strange vision.

Another thing became clear.  There had once been a wall between the beech
wood and the lawn, with a gate or door in it; Chapman could just remember
its being taken down, in James Winslow’s early married life, when
landscape gardening was the fashion.  It must have been through this that
the Winslow brothers were returning, when poor Margaret perhaps expected
them to enter by the front.

We wished we could have consulted Dame Dearlove, but she had died a few
years before, and her school was extinct.


    ‘And that to-night thou must watch with me
       To win the treasure of the tomb.’


SOME seasons seem to be peculiarly marked, as if Death did indeed walk
forth in them.

Old Mr. Frith died in the spring of 1841, and it proved that he had shown
his gratitude to Clarence by a legacy of shares in the firm amounting to
about £2000.  The rest of his interest therein went to Lawrence Frith,
and his funded property to his sister, Mrs. Stevens, a very fair and
upright disposition of his wealth.

Only six weeks later, my father had a sudden seizure, and there was only
time to summon Clarence from London and Martyn from Oxford, before a
second attack closed his righteous and godly career upon earth.

My mother was very still and calm, hardly shedding a tear, but her whole
demeanour was as if life were over for her, and she had nothing to do
save to wait.  She seemed to care very little for tendernesses or
attentions on our part.  No doubt she would have been more desolate
without them, but we always had a baffled feeling, as though our
affection were contrasted with her perfect union with her husband.  Yet
they had been a singularly undemonstrative couple; I never saw a kiss
pass between them, except as greeting or farewell before or after a
journey; and if my mother could not use the terms papa or your father,
she always said, ‘Mr. Winslow.’  There was a large gathering at the
funeral, including Mr. Fordyce, but he slept at Hillside, and we scarcely
saw him—only for a few kind words and squeezes of the hand.  Holy Week
was begun, and he had to hurry back to Beachharbour that very night.

The will had been made on my father’s coming into the inheritance.  It
provided a jointure of £800 per annum for my mother, and gave each of the
younger children £3000.  A codicil had been added shortly after
Griffith’s death, written in my father’s hand, and witnessed by Mr.
Henderson and Amos Bell.  This put Clarence in the position of heir;
secured £500 a year to Griffith’s widow, charged on the estate, and
likewise an additional £200 a year to Emily and to me, hers till
marriage, mine for life, £300 a year to Martyn, until Earlscombe Rectory
should be voided, when it was to be offered to him.  The executors had
originally been Mr. Castleford and my mother, but by this codicil,
Clarence was substituted for the former.

The legacies did not come out of the Chantry House property, for my
father had, of course, means of his own besides, and bequests had accrued
to both him and my mother; but Clarence was inheriting the estate much
more burthened than it had been in 1829, having £2000 a year to raise out
of its proceeds.

My mother was quite equal to business, with a sort of outside sense,
which she applied to it when needful.  Clarence made it at once evident
to her that she was still mistress of Chantry House, and that it was
still to be our home; and she immediately calculated what each ought to
contribute to the housekeeping.  She looked rather blank when she found
that Clarence did not mean to give up business, nor even to become a
sleeping partner; but when she examined into ways and means, she allowed
that he was prudent, and that perhaps it was due to Mr. Castleford not to
deprive him of an efficient helper under present circumstances.  Meantime
she was content to do her best for Earlscombe ‘for the present,’ by which
she meant till her son brought home a wife; but we knew that to him the
words bore a different meaning, though he was still in doubt and
uncertainty how to act, and what might be the wrong to be undone.

He was anxious to persuade her to go from home for a short time, and
prevailed on her at last to take Emily and me to Dawlish, while the
repairs went on which had been deferred during my father’s feebleness; at
least that was the excuse.  We two, going with great regret, knew that
his real reason was to have an opportunity for a search among the ruins.

It was in June, just as Martyn came back from Oxford, eager to share in
the quest.  Those two brothers would trust no one to help them, but one
by one, in the long summer evenings, they moved each of those stones; I
believe the servants thought they were crazed, but they could explain
with some truth that they wanted to clear up the disputed points as to
the architecture, as indeed they succeeded in doing.

They had, however, nearly given up, having reached the original pavement
and disinterred the piscina of the side altar, also a beautiful coffin
lid with a floriated cross; when, in a kind of hollow, Martyn lit upon
the rotten remains of something silken, knotted together.  It seemed to
have enclosed a bundle.  There were some rags that might have been a
change of clothing, also a Prayer-book, decayed completely except the
leathern covering, inside which was the startling inscription, ‘Margaret
Winslow, her booke; Lord, have mercy on a miserable widow woman.’  There
was also a thick leathern roll, containing needles, pins, and scissors,
entirely corroded, and within these a paper, carefully folded, but almost
destroyed by the action of damp and the rust of the steel, so that only
thus much was visible.  ‘I, Margaret Winslow, being of sound mind, do
hereby give and bequeath—’

Then came stains that defaced every line, till the extreme end, where a
seal remained; the date 1707 was legible, and there were some scrawls,
probably the poor lady’s signature, and perhaps that of witnesses.
Clarence and Martyn said very little to one another, but they set out for
Dawlish the next day.

‘Found’ was indicated to us, but no more, for they arrived late, and had
to sleep at the hotel, after an evening when we were delighted to hear my
mother ask so many questions about household and parish affairs.  In the
morning she was pleased to send all ‘the children’ out on the beach, then
free from the railway.  It was a beautiful day, with the intensely blue
South Devon sea dancing in golden ripples, and breaking on the shore with
the sound Clarence loved so well, as, in the shade of the dark crimson
cliffs, Emily sat at my feet and my brothers unfolded their strange
discoveries into her lap.  There was a kind of solemnity in the thing; we
scarcely spoke, except that Emily said, ‘Oh, will she come again,’ and,
as the tears gathered at sight of the pathetic petition in the old book,
‘Was that granted?’

We reconstructed our theory.  The poor lady must have repented of the
unjust will forced from her by her stepsons, and contrived to make
another; but she must have been kept a captive until, during their
absence at some Christmas convivialities, she tried to escape; but
hearing sounds betokening their return, she had only time to hide the
bundle in the ruin before she was detected, and in the scuffle received a
fatal blow.

‘But why,’ I objected, ‘did she not remain hidden till her enemies were
safe in the house?’

‘Terrified beyond the use of her senses,’ said Clarence.

‘By all accounts,’ said Martyn, ‘the poor creature must have been rather
a silly woman.’

‘For shame, Martyn,’ cried Emily, ‘how can you tell?  They might have
seen her go in, or she might have feared being missed.’

‘Or if you watch next Christmas you may see it all explained.’

To which Emily replied with a shiver that nothing would induce her to go
through it again, and indeed she hoped the spirit would rest since the
discovery had been made.

‘And then?’—one of us said, and there was a silence, and another futile
attempt to read the will.

‘I shall take it to London and see what an expert can do with it,’ said
Clarence.  ‘I have heard of wonderful decipherings in the Record Office;
but you will remember that even if it can be made out, it will hardly
invalidate our possession after a hundred and thirty years.’

‘Clarence!’ cried Emily in a horrified voice; and I asked if the date
were not later than that by which we inherited.

‘Three years,’ Clarence said, ‘yes; but as things stand, it is absolutely
impossible for me to make restitution at present.’

‘On account of the burthens on the estate?’ I said.

‘Oh, but we could give up,’ said Emily.

‘I dare say!’ said Clarence, smiling; ‘but to say nothing of poor Selina,
my mother would hardly see it in the same light, nor should I deal
rightly, even if I could make any alterations; I doubt whether my father
would have held himself bound—certainly not while no one can read this

‘It would simply outrage his legal mind,’ said Martyn.

‘Then what is to be done?  Is the injustice to be perpetual?’ asked

‘This is what I have thought of,’ said Clarence.  ‘We must leave matters
as they are till I can realise enough either to pay off all these
bequests, or to offer Mr. Fordyce the value of the estate.’

‘It is not the whole,’ I said.

‘Not the Wattlesea part.  This means Chantry House and the three farms in
the village.  £10,000 would cover it.’

‘Is it possible?’ asked Emily.

‘Yes,’ returned Clarence, ‘God helping me.  You know our concern is
bringing in good returns, and Mr. Castleford will put me in the way of
doing more with my available capital.’

‘We will save so as to help you!’ added Emily.  At which he smiled.


    ‘Her eyes as stars of twilight fair,
    Like twilight too, her dusky hair,
    But all things else about her drawn
    From May-time and the cheerful dawn,
    A dancing shape, an image gay,
    To haunt, to startle, and waylay.’


CLARENCE went to London according to his determination, and as he had for
some time been urgent that I should try some newly-invented mechanical
appliances, he took me with him, this being the last expedition of the
ancient yellow chariot.  One of his objects was that I should see St.
Paul’s, Knightsbridge, which was then the most distinguished church of
our school of thought, and where there was to be some special preaching.
The Castlefords had a seat there, and I was settled there in good time,
looking at the few bits of stained glass then in the east window, when,
as the clergy came in from the vestry, I beheld a familiar face, and
recognised the fine countenance and bearing of our dear old friend Frank

Then, looking at the row of ladies in front of me, I beheld for a moment
an outline of a profile recalling many things.  No doubt, Anne Fordyce
was there, though instead of barely emulating my stunted stature, she
towered above her companions, looking to my mind most fresh and graceful
in her pretty summer dress; and I knew that Clarence saw her too.

I had never heard Mr. Fordyce preach before, as in his flying visits his
ministrations were due at Hillside; and I certainly should have been
struck with the force and beauty of his sermon if I had never known him
before.  It was curious that it was on the 49th Psalm, meant perhaps for
the fashionable congregation, but remarkably chiming in with the feelings
of us, who were conscious of an inheritance of evil from one who had
‘done well unto himself;’ though, no doubt, that was the last thing
honest Parson Frank was thinking of.

When the service was over, and Anne turned, she became aware of us, and
her face beamed all over.  It was a charming face, with a general
likeness to dear Ellen’s, but without the fragile ethereal look, and all
health, bloom, and enjoyment recalling her father’s.  She was only moving
to let her pew-fellows pass out, and was waiting for him to come for her,
as he did in a few moments, and he too was all pleasure and cordiality.
He told us when we were outside that he had come up to preach, and ‘had
brought Miss Anne up for a spree.’  They were at a hotel, Mrs. Fordyce
was at home, and the Lesters were not in town this season—a matter of
rejoicing to us.  Could we not come home and dine with them at once?  We
were too much afraid of disappointing Gooch to do so, but they made an
appointment to meet us at the Royal Academy as soon as it was open the
next morning.

There was a fortnight of enjoyment.  Parson Frank was like a boy out for
a holiday.  He had not spent more than a day or two in town for many
years; Anne had not been there since early childhood, and they adopted
Clarence as their lioniser, going through such a country-cousin course of
delights as in that memorable time with Ellen.  They even went down to
Eton and Windsor, Frank Fordyce being an old Etonian.  I doubt whether
Clarence ever had a more thoroughly happy time, not even in the north of
Devon, for there was no horse on his mind, and he was not suppressed as
in those days.  Indeed, I believe, it is the experience of others besides
ourselves that there is often more unmixed pleasure on casual holidays
like this than in those of early youth; for even if spirits are less high
(which is not always the case), anticipations are less eager, there is
more readiness to accept whatever comes, more matured appreciation, and
less fret and friction at _contretemps_.

I was not much of a drag, for when I could not be with the others, I had
old friends, and the museum was as dear to me as ever, in those recesses
that had been the paradise of my youth; but there was a good deal in
which we could all share, and as usual they were all kind consideration.

Anne overflowed with minute remembrances of her old home, and Clarence so
basked in her sunshine that it began to strike me that here might be the
solution of all the perplexities especially after the first evening, when
he had shown his strange discovery to Mr. Fordyce, who simply laughed and
said we need not trouble ourselves about it.  Illegible was it?  He was
heartily glad to hear that it was.  Even otherwise, forty years’
possession was quite enough, and then he pointed to the grate, and said
that was the best place for such things.  There was no fire, but Clarence
could hardly rescue the paper from being torn up.

As to the ghost, he knew much less than his daughter Ellen had done.  He
said his old aunt had some stories about Chantry House being haunted, and
had thought it incumbent on her to hate the Winslows, but he had thought
it all nonsense, and such stories were much better forgotten.  ‘Would he
not see if there were any letters?’

There might be, perhaps in the solicitor’s office at Bath, but if he ever
got hold of them, he should certainly burn them.  What was the use of
being Christians, if such quarrels were to be remembered?

Anne knew nothing.  Aunt Peggy had died before she could remember, and
even Martyn had been discreet.  Clarence said no more after that one
conversation, and seemed to me engrossed between his necessary business
at the office, and the pleasant expeditions with the Fordyces.  Only when
they were on the point of returning home, did he tell me that the will
had been pronounced utterly past deciphering, and that he thought he saw
a way of setting all straight.  ‘So do I,’ was my rejoinder, and there
must have been a foolishly sagacious expression about me that made him
colour up, and say, ‘No such thing, Edward.  Don’t put that into my

‘Isn’t it there already?’

‘It ought not to be.  It would be mere treachery in these sweet, fresh,
young, innocent, days of hers, knowing too what her mother would think of
it and of me.  Didn’t you observe in old Frank’s unguarded way of reading
letters aloud, and then trying to suppress bits, that Mrs. Fordyce was
not at all happy at our being so much about with them, poor woman.  No
wonder! the child is too young,’ he added, showing how much, after all,
he was thinking of it.  ‘It would be taking a base advantage of them

‘But by and by?’

‘If she should be still free when the great end is achieved and the evil
repaired, then I might dare.’

He broke off with a look of glad hope, and I could see it was forbearance
rather than constitutional diffidence that withheld him from awakening
the maiden’s feelings.  He was a very fine looking man, in his
prime—tall, strong, and well made, with a singularly grave, thoughtful
expression, and a rare but most winning smile; and Anne was overflowing
with affectionate gladness at intercourse with one who belonged to the
golden age of her childhood.  I could scarcely believe but that in the
friction of the parting the spark would be elicited, and I should even
have liked to kindle it for them myself, being tolerably certain that
warm-hearted, unguarded Parson Frank would forget all about his lady and
blow it with all his might.

We dined with the Fordyces at their hotel, and sat in the twilight with
the windows open, and we made Anne and Clarence sing, as both could do
without notes, but he would not undertake to remember anything with an
atom of sentiment in it, and when Anne did sing, ‘Auld lang syne,’ with
all her heart, he went and got into a dark corner, and barely said,
‘Thank you.’

Not a definite answer could be extracted from him in reply to all the
warm invitations to Beachharbour that were lavished on us by the father,
while the daughter expatiated on its charms; the rocks I might sketch,
the waves and the delicious boating, and above all the fisher children
and the church.  Nothing was wanting but to have us all there!  Why had
we not brought Mrs. Winslow, and Emily, and Martyn, instead of going to

Good creatures, they little knew the chill that had been cast upon
Martyn.  They even bemoaned the having seen so little of him.  And we
knew all the time that they were mice at play in the absence of their
excellent and cautious cat.

‘Now mind you do come!’ said Anne, as we were in the act of taking leave.
‘It would be as good as Hillside to have you by my Lion rock.  He has a
nose just like old Chapman’s, and you must sketch it before it crumbles
off.  Yes, and I want to show you all the dear old things you made for my
baby-house after the fire, your dear little wardrobe and all.’

She was coming out with us, oblivious that a London hotel was not like
her own free sea-side house.  Her father was out at the carriage door,
prepared to help me in, Clarence halted a moment—

‘Please, pray, go back, Anne,’ he said, and his voice trembled.  ‘This is
not home you know.’

She started back, but paused.  ‘You’ll not forget.’

‘Oh no; no fear of my forgetting.’

And when seated beside me, he leant back with a sigh.

‘How could you help?’ I said.

‘How?  Why the perfect, innocent, childish, unconsciousness of the
thing,’ he said, and became silent except for one murmur on the way.

‘Consequences must be borne—’


    ‘With thee, my bark, I’ll swiftly go
       Athwart the foaming brine.’

                                                               LORD BYRON.

CLARENCE would not tell me his purpose, he said, till he had considered
it more fully; nor could we have much conversation on the way home, as my
mother had arranged that we should bring an old friend of hers back with
us to pay her a visit.  So I had to sit inside and make myself agreeable
to Mrs. Wrightson, while Clarence had plenty of leisure for meditation
outside on the box seat.  The good lady said much on the desirableness of
marriage for Clarence, and the comfort it would be to my mother to see
Emily settled.

We had heard much in town of railway shares; and the fortunes of Hudson,
the railway king, were under discussion.  I suspected Clarence of
cogitating the using his capital in this manner; and hoped that when he
saw his way, he might not think it dishonourable to come into further
contact with Anne, and reveal his hopes.  He allowed that he was
considering of such investments, but would not say any more.

My mother and Emily had, in the meantime, been escorted home by Martyn.
The first thing Clarence did was to bespeak Emily’s company in a turn in
the garden.  What passed then I never knew nor guessed for years after.
He consulted her whether, in case he were absent from England for five,
seven, or ten years, she would be equal to the care of my mother and me.
Martyn, when ordained, would have duties elsewhere, and could only be
reckoned upon in emergencies.  My mother, though vigorous and practical,
had shown symptoms of gout, and if she were ill, I could hardly have done
much for her; and on the other hand, though my health and powers of
moving were at their best, and I was capable of the headwork of the
estate, I was scarcely fit to be the representative member of the family.
Moreover, these good creatures took into consideration that poor mamma
and I would have been rather at a loss as each other’s sole companions.
I could sort shades for her Berlin work, and even solve problems of
intricate knitting, and I could read to her in the evening; but I could
not trot after her to her garden, poultry-yard, and cottages; nor could
she enter into the pursuits that Emily had shared with me for so many
years.  Our connecting link, that dear sister, knew how sorely she would
be missed, and she told Clarence that she felt fully competent to
undertake, conjointly with us, all that would be incumbent on Chantry
House, if he really wanted to be absent.  For the rest, Clarence believed
my mother would be the happier for being left regent over the estate; and
his scheme broke upon me that very forenoon, when my mother and he were
settling some executor’s business together, and he told her that Mr.
Castleford wished him to go out to Hong Kong, which was then newly ceded
to the English, and where the firm wished to establish a house of

‘You can’t think of it,’ she exclaimed, and the sound fell like a knell
on my ears.

‘I think I must,’ was his answer.  ‘We shall be cut out if we do not get
a footing there, and there is no one who can quite answer the purpose.’

‘Not that young Frith—’

‘Ten to one but he is on his way home.  Besides, if not, he has his own
work at Canton.  We see our way to very considerable advantages, if—’

‘Advantages!’ she interrupted.  ‘I hate speculation.  I should have
thought you might be contented with your station; but that is the worst
of merchants,—they never know when to stop.  I suppose your ambition is
to make this a great overgrown mansion, so that your father would not
know it again.’

‘Certainly not that, mamma,’ said Clarence smiling; ‘it is the last thing
I should think of; but stopping would in this case mean going backward.’

‘Why can’t Mr. Castleford send one of his own sons?’

‘Probably Walter may come out by and by, but he has not experience enough
for this.’

Clarence had not in the least anticipated my mother’s opposition, for he
had come to underestimate her affection for and reliance on him.  He had
us all against him, for not only could we not bear to part with him; but
the climate of Hong-Kong was in evil repute, and I had become persuaded
that, with his knowledge of business, railway shares and scrip might be
made to realise the amount needed, but he said, ‘That is what _I_ call
speculation.  The other matter is trade in which, with Heaven’s blessing,
I can hope to prosper.’

He explained that Mr. Castleford had received him on his coming to London
with almost a request that he would undertake this expedition; but with
fears whether, in his new position, he could or would do so, although his
presence in China would be very important to the firm at this juncture;
and there would be opportunities which would probably result in very
considerable profits after a few years.  If Clarence had been, as before,
a mere younger brother, it would have been thought an excellent chance;
and he would almost have felt bound by his obligations to Mr. Castleford
to undertake the first starting of the enterprise, if it had not been for
our recent loss, and the doubt whether he could he spared from home.

He made light of the dangers of climate.  He had never suffered in that
way in his naval days, and scarcely knew what serious illness meant.
Indeed, he had outgrown much of that sensibility of nerve which had made
him so curiously open to spiritual or semi-spiritual impressions.

‘Any way,’ he said, ‘the thing is right to be done, provided my mother
does not make an absolute point of my giving it up; and whether she does
or not depends a good deal on how you others put it to her.’

‘Right on Mr. Castleford’s account?’ I asked.

‘That is one side of it.  To refuse would put him in a serious
difficulty; but I could perhaps come home sooner if it were not for this
other matter.  I told him so far as that it was an object with me to
raise this sum in a few years, and he showed me how there is every
likelihood of my being able to do so out there.  So now I feel in your
hands.  If you all, and Edward chiefly, set to and persuade my mother
that this undertaking is a dangerous business, and that I can only be led
to it by inordinate love of riches—’

‘No, no—’

‘That’s what she thinks,’ pursued Clarence, ‘and that I want to be a
grander man than my father.  That’s at the bottom of her mind, I see.
Well, if you deplore this, and let her think the place can’t do without
me, she will come out in her strength and make it my duty to stay at

‘It is very tempting,’ said Emily.

‘We all undertook to give up something.’

‘We never thought it would come in this way!’

‘We never do,’ said Clarence.

‘Tell me,’ said Martyn, ‘is this to content that ghost, poor thing?  For
it is very hard to believe in her, except in the mullion room in

‘Exactly so, Martyn,’ he answered.  ‘Impressions fade, and the intellect
fails to accept them.  But I do not think that is my motive.  We know
that a wicked deed was done by our ancestor, and we hardly have the right
to pray, “Remember not the sins of our forefathers,” unless, now that we
know the crime, we attempt what restitution in us lies.’

There was no resisting after this appeal, and after the first shock, my
mother was ready to admit that as Clarence owed everything to Mr.
Castleford, he could not well desert the firm, if it were really needful
for its welfare that he should go out.  We got her to look on Mr.
Castleford as captain of the ship, and Clarence as first lieutenant; and
when she was once convinced that he did not want to aggrandise the
family, but to do his duty, she dropped her objections; and we soon saw
that the occupations that his absence would impose on her would be a
fresh interest in life.

Just as the decision was thus ratified, a packet from Canton arrived for
Clarence from Bristol.  It was the first reply of young Frith to the
tidings of the bequest which had changed the poor clerk to a wealthy man,
owning a large proportion of the shares of the prosperous house.

I asked if he were coming home, and Clarence briefly replied that he did
not know,—‘it depended—’

‘Is he going to wed a fair Chinese with lily feet?’ asked Martyn, to
which the reply was an unusually discourteous ‘Bosh,’ as Clarence escaped
with his letter.  He was so reticent about it that I required a solemn
assurance that poor Lawrence’s head had not been turned by his fortune,
and that there was nothing wrong with him.  Indeed, there was great
stupidity in never guessing the purport of that thick letter, nor that it
contained one for Emily, where Lawrence Frith laid himself, and all that
he had, at her feet, ascribing to her all the resolution with which he
had kept from evil, and entreating permission to come home and endeavour
to win her heart.  We lived so constantly together that it is surprising
that Clarence contrived to give the letter to Emily in private.  She
implored him to say nothing to us, and brought him the next day her
letter of uncompromising refusal.

He asked whether it would have been the same if he had intended to remain
at home.

‘As if you were a woman, you conceited fellow,’ was all the answer she
vouchsafed him.

Nor could he ascertain, nor perhaps would she herself examine, on which
side lay her heart of hearts.  The proof had come whether she would abide
by her pledge to him to accept the care of us in his absence.  When he
asked it, it had not occurred to him that it might be a renunciation of
marriage.  Now he perceived that so it had been, but she kept her counsel
and so did he.  We others never guessed at what was going on between
those two.


    ‘But oh! the difference to me.’


SO Clarence was gone, and our new life begun in its changed aspect.
Emily showed an almost feverish eagerness to make it busy and cheerful,
getting up a sewing class in the village, resuming the study of Greek,
grappling with the natural system in botany, all of which had been
fitfully proposed but hindered by interruptions and my father’s

On a suggestion of Mr. Stafford’s, we set to work on that _History of
Letter Writing_ which, what with collecting materials, and making
translations, lasted us three years altogether, and was a great resource
and pleasure, besides ultimately bringing in a fraction towards the great
purpose.  Emily has confessed that she worked away a good deal of vague,
weary depression, and sense of monotony into those Greek choruses: but to
us she was always a sunbeam, with her ever ready attention, and the
playfulness which resumed more of genuine mirth after the first effort
and strain of spirits were over.

Then journal-letters on either side began to bridge the gulf of
separation,—those which, minus all the specially interesting portions,
are to be seen in the volume we culled from them, and which had
considerable success in its day.

Martyn worked in the parish and read with Mr. Henderson till he was old
enough for Ordination, and then took the curacy of St. Wulstan’s, under a
hardworking London vicar, and thenceforth his holidays were our
festivals.  Our old London friends pitied us for what they viewed as a
fearfully dull life, and in the visits they occasionally paid us thought
they were doing us a great favour by bringing us new ideas and shooting
our partridges.

We hardly deserved their compassion: our lives were full of interest to
ourselves—that interest which comes of doing ever so feeble a stroke of
work in one great cause; and there was much keen participation in the
general life of the Church in the crisis through which she was passing.
We found that, what with drawing pictures, writing little books,
preparing lessons for teachers, and much besides which is now ready done
by the National Society and Sunday School Institute, we could do a good
deal to assist Martyn in his London work, and our own grew upon us.

For the first year of her widowhood, my mother shrank from society, and
afterwards had only spasmodic fits of doubt whether it were not her duty
to make my sister go out more.  So that now and then Emily did go to a
party, or to make a visit of some days or weeks from home, and then we
knew how valuable she was.  It would be hard to say whether my mother
were relieved or disappointed when Emily refused James Eastwood, in spite
of many persuasions, not only from himself, but his family.  I believe
mamma thought it selfish to be glad, and that it was a failure in duty
not to have performed that weighty matter of marrying her daughter;
feeling in some way inferior to ladies who had disposed of a whole flock
under five and twenty, whereas she had not been able to get rid of a
single one!

Of Clarence’s doings in China I need not speak; you have read of them in
the book for yourselves, and you know how his work prospered, so that the
results more than fulfilled his expectations, and raised the firm to the
pitch of greatness and reputation which it has ever since preserved, and
this without soiling his hands with the miserable opium traffic.  Some of
the subordinates were so set on the gains to be thus obtained, that he
and Lawrence Frith had a severe struggle with them to prevent it, and
were forced conjointly to use all their authority as principals to make
it impossible.  Those two were the greatest of friends.  Their chief
relaxation was one another’s company, and their earnest aim was to
support the Christian mission, and to keep up the tone of their English
dependants, a terribly difficult matter, and one that made the time of
their return somewhat doubtful, even when Walter Castleford was gone out
to relieve them.  Their health had kept up so well that we had ceased to
be anxious on that point, and it was through the Castlefords that we
received the first hint that Clarence might not be as well as his absence
of complaint had led us to believe.

In fact he had never been well since a terrible tempest, when he had
worked hard and exposed himself to save life.  I never could hear the
particulars, for Lawrence was away, and Clarence could not write about it
himself, having been prostrated by one of those chills so perilous in hot
countries; but from all I have heard, no resident in Hong-Kong would have
believed that Mr. Winslow’s courage could ever have been called in
question.  He ought to have come home immediately after that attack of
fever; for the five years were over, and his work nearly done; but there
was need to consolidate his achievements, and a strong man is only too
apt to trifle with his health.  We might have guessed something by the
languor and brevity of his letters, but we thought the absence of detail
owing to his expectation of soon seeing us; and had gone on for months
expecting the announcement of a speedy return, when an unexpected shock
fell on us.  Our dear mother was still an active woman, with few signs of
age about her, when, in her sixty-seventh year, she was almost suddenly
taken from us by an attack of gout in the stomach.

I feel as if I had not done her justice, and as if she might seem stern,
unsympathising, and lacking in tenderness.  Yet nothing could be further
from the truth.  She was an old-fashioned mother, who held it her duty to
keep up her authority, and counted over-familiarity and indulgence as
sins.  To her ‘the holy spirit of discipline was the beginning of
wisdom,’ and to make her children godly, truthful, and honourable was a
much greater object than to win their love.  And their love she had, and
kept to a far higher degree than seems to be the case with those who
court affection by caresses and indulgence.  We knew that her approval
was of a generous kind, we prized enthusiastically her rare betrayals of
her motherly tenderness, and we depended on her in a manner we only
realised in the desolation, dreariness, and helplessness that fell upon
us, when we knew that she was gone.  She had not, nor had any of us,
understood that she was dying, and she had uttered only a few words that
could imply any such thought.  On hearing that there was a letter from
Clarence, she said, ‘Poor Clarence!  I should like to have seen him.  He
is a good boy after all.  I’ve been hard on him, but it will all be right
now.  God Almighty bless him!’

That was the only formal blessing she left among us.  Indeed, the last
time I saw her was with an ordinary good-night at the foot of the stairs.
Emily said she was glad that I had not to carry with me the remembrance
of those paroxysms of suffering.  My dear Emily had alone the whole force
of that trial—or shall I call it privilege?  Martyn did not reach home
till some hours after all was over, poor boy.

And in the midst of our desolateness, just as we had let the daylight in
again upon our diminished numbers round the table, came a letter from
Hong-Kong, addressed to me in Lawrence Frith’s writing, and the first
thing I saw was a scrawl, as follows:—

    ‘DEAREST TED—All is in your hands.  You can do _it_.  God bless you
    all.  W. C. W.’

When I came to myself, and could see and hear, Martyn was impressing on
me that where there is life there is hope, though indeed, according to
poor Lawrence’s letter, there was little of either.  He feared our
hearing indirectly, and therefore wrote to prepare us.

He had been summoned to Hong-Kong to find Clarence lying desperately ill,
for the most part semi-delirious, holding converse with invisible forms,
or entreating some one to let him alone—he had done his best.  In one of
his more lucid intervals he had made Lawrence find that note in a case
that lay near him, and promise to send it; and he had tried to send some
messages, but they had become confused, and he was too weak to speak

The next mail was sure to bring the last tidings of one who had given his
life for right and justice.  It was only a reprieve that what it actually
brought was the intelligence that he was still alive, and more sensible,
and had been able to take much pleasure in seeing the friend of his
youth, Captain Coles, who was there with his ship, the _Douro_.  Then
there had been a relapse.  Captain Coles had brought his doctor to see
him, and it had been pronounced that the best chance of saving him was a
sea-voyage.  The _Douro_ had just received orders to return to England,
and Coles had offered to take home both the friends as guests, though
there was evidently little hope that our brother would reach any earthly
home.  As we knew afterwards, he had smiled and said it was like
rehabilitation to have the chance of dying on board one of H.M. ships.
And he was held in such respect, and was so entirely one of the leading
men of the little growing colony, and had been known as such a friend to
the naval men, and had so gallantly aided a Queen’s ship in that
hurricane, that his passage home in this manner only seemed a natural
tribute of respect.  A few last words from Lawrence told us that he was
safely on board, all unconscious of the silent, almost weeping,
procession that had escorted his litter to the _Douro’s_ boat, only too
much as if it were his bier.  In fact, Captain Coles actually promised
him that if he died at sea he should be buried with the old flag.

We could not hope to hear more for at least six weeks, since our letter
had come by overland mail, and the _Douro_ would take her time.  It was a
comfort in this waiting time that Martyn could be with us.  His rector
had been promoted; there was a general change of curates; and as Martyn
had been working up to the utmost limits of his strength, we had no
scruple in inducing him to remain with us, and undertake nothing fresh
till this crisis was past.  Though as to rest, not one Sunday passed
without requests for his assistance from one or more of the neighbouring


    ‘And hopes and fears that kindle hope,
    An undistinguishable throng,
    And gentle wishes long subdued—
    Subdued and cherished long.’

                                                          S. T. COLERIDGE.

THE first that we did hear of our brother was a letter with a Falmouth
postmark, which we scarcely dared to open.  There was not much in it, but
that was enough.  ‘D. G.—I shall see you all again.  We put in at

There was no staying at home after that.  We three lost no time in
starting, for railways had become available, and by the time we had
driven from the station at Portsmouth the _Douro_ had been signalled.

Martyn took a boat and went on board alone, for besides that Emily did
not like to leave me, her dress would have been a revelation that _all_
were no longer there to greet the arrival.  The precaution was, however,
unnecessary.  There stood Clarence on deck, and after the first greeting,
he laid his hand on Martyn’s arm and said, ‘My mother is gone?’ and on
the wondering assent, ‘I was quite sure of it.’

So they came ashore, Clarence lying in the man-of-war’s boat, in which
his friend insisted on sending him, able now to give a smiling response
and salute to the three cheers with which the crew took leave of him.  He
was carried up to our hotel on a stretcher by half-a-dozen blue jackets.
Indeed he was grievously changed, looking so worn and weak, so
hollow-eyed and yellow, and so fearfully wasted, that the very memory is
painful; and able to do nothing but lie on the sofa holding Emily’s hand,
gazing at us with a face full of ineffable peace and gladness.  There was
a misgiving upon me that he had only come back to finish his work and bid
us farewell.

Kindly and considerately they had sent him on before with Martyn.  In a
quarter of an hour’s time his good doctor came in with Lawrence Frith, a
considerable contrast to our poor Clarence, for the slim gypsy lad had
developed into a strikingly handsome man, still slender and lithe, but
with a fine bearing, and his bronzed complexion suiting well with his
dark shining hair and beautiful eyes.  They had brought some of the
luggage, and the doctor insisted that his patient should go to bed
directly, and rest completely before trying to talk.

Then we heard that his condition, though still anxious, was far from
being hopeless, and that after the tropics had been passed, he had been
gradually improving.  The kind doctor had got leave to go up to London
with us, and talk over the case with L---, and he hoped Clarence might be
able to bear the journey by the next afternoon.

Presently after came Captain Coles, whom we had not seen since the short
visit when we had idolised the big overgrown midshipman, whom Clarence
exhibited to our respectful and distant admiration nearly twenty years
ago.  My mother used to call him a gentlemanly lad, and that was just
what he was still, with a singularly soft gentle manner, gallant officer
and post-captain as he was.  He cheered me much, for he made no doubt of
Clarence’s ultimate recovery, and he added that he had found the dear
fellow so valued and valuable, so useful in all good works, and so much
respected by all the English residents, ‘that really,’ said the captain,
‘I did not know whether to deplore that the service should have lost such
a man, or whether to think it had been a good thing for him, though not
for us, that—that he got into such a scrape.’

I said something of our thanks.

‘To tell you the truth,’ said Coles, ‘I had my doubts whether it had not
been a cruel act, for he had a terrible turn after we got him on board,
and all the sounds of a Queen’s ship revived the past associations, and
always of a painful kind in his delirium, till at last, just as I gave
him up, the whole character of his fancies seemed to change, and from
that time he has been gaining every day.’

We kept the captain to dinner, and gathered a good deal more
understanding of the important position to which Clarence had risen by
force of character and rectitude of purpose in that strange little
Anglo-Chinese colony; and afterwards, I was allowed to make a long visit
to Clarence, who, having eaten and slept, was quite ready to talk.

It seemed that the great distress of his illness had been the
recurrence—nay, aggravation—of the strange susceptibility of brain and
nerve that had belonged to his earlier days, and with it either
imagination or perception of the spirit-world.  Much that had seemed
delirium had belonged to that double consciousness, and he perfectly
recollected it.  As Coles had said, the sights and sounds of the ship had
been a renewal of the saddest time in his life; he could not at night
divest himself of the impression that he was under arrest, and the sins
of his life gathered themselves in fearful and oppressive array, as if to
stifle him, and the phantom of poor Margaret with her lamp—which had
haunted him from the beginning of his illness—seemed to taunt him with
having been too fainthearted and tardy to be worthy to espouse her cause.
The faith to which he tried to cling _would_ seem to fail him in those
awful hours, when he could only cry out mechanical prayers for mercy.
Then there had come a night when he had heard my mother say, ‘All right
now; God Almighty bless him.’  And therewith the clouds cleared from his
mind.  The power of _feeling_, as well as believing in, the blotting out
of sin, returned, the sense of pardon and peace calmed him, and from that
time he was fully himself again, ‘though,’ he said, ‘I knew I should not
see my mother here.’

If she could only have seen him come home under the Union Jack, cheered
by sailors, and carried ashore by them, it would have been to her like
restoration.  Perhaps Clarence in his dreamy weakness had so felt it, for
certainly no other mode of return to Portsmouth, the very place of his
degradation, could so have soothed him and effaced those memories.  The
English sounds were a perfect charm to him, as well as to Lawrence, the
commonest street cry, the very slices of bread and butter, anything that
was not Chinese, was as water to the thirsty!  And wasted as was his
face, the quiet rest and joy were ineffable.

Still Portsmouth was not the best place for him, and we were glad that he
was well enough to go up to London in the afternoon; intensely delighting
in the May beauty of the green meadows, and white blossoming hedgerows,
and the Church towers, especially the gray massiveness of Winchester
Cathedral.  ‘Christian tokens,’ he said, instead of the gay, gilded
pagodas and quaint crumpled roofs he had left.  The soft haze seemed to
be such a rest after the glare of perpetual clearness.

We were all born Londoners, and looked at the blue fog, and the broad,
misty river, and the brooding smoke, with the affection of natives, to
the amazement of Lawrence, who had never been in town without being
browbeaten and miserable.  That he hardly was now, as he sat beside Emily
all the way up, though they did not say much to one another.

He told us it was quite a new sensation to walk into the office without
timidity, and to have no fears of a biting, crushing speech about his
parents or himself; but to have the clerks getting up deferentially as
soon as he was known for Mr. Frith.  He had hardly ever been allowed by
his old uncle to come across Mr. Castleford, who was of course cordial
and delighted to receive him, and, without loss of time, set forth to see

The consultation with the physician had taken place, and it was not
concealed from us that Clarence’s health was completely shattered, and
his state still very precarious, needing the utmost care to give him any
chance of recovering the effects of the last two years, when he had
persevered, in spite of warning, in his eagerness to complete his
undertaking, and then to secure what he had effected.  The upshot of the
advice given him was to spend the summer by the seaside, and if he had by
that time gathered strength, and surmounted the symptoms of disease, to
go abroad, as he was not likely to be able as yet to bear English cold.
Business and cares were to be avoided, and if he had anything necessary
to be done, it had better be got over at once, so as to be off his mind.
Martyn and Frith gathered that the case was thought doubtful, and
entirely dependent on constitution and rallying power.  Clarence himself
seemed almost passive, caring only for our presence and the
accomplishment of his task.

We had a blessed thanksgiving for mercies received in the Margaret Street
Chapel, as we called what is now All Saints; but he and I were unfit for
crowds, and on Sunday morning availed ourselves of a friend’s seat in our
old church, which felt so natural and homelike to us elders that Martyn
was scandalised at our taste.  But it was the church of our Confirmation
and first Communion, and Clarence rejoiced that it was that of his first
home-coming Eucharist.  What a contrast was he now to the shrinking boy,
scarcely tolerated under his stigmatised name.  Surely the Angel had led
him all his life through!

How happy we two were in the afternoon, while the others conducted
Lawrence to some more noteworthy church.

‘Now,’ said Clarence, ‘let us go down to Beachharbour.  It must be done
at once.  I have been trying to write, and I can’t do it,’ and his face
lighted with a quiet smile which I understood.

So we wrote to the principal hotel to secure rooms, and set forth on
Tuesday, leaving Frith to finish with Mr. Castleford what could not be
settled in the one business interview that had been held with Clarence on
the Monday.


    ‘Ah! well for us all some sweet hope lies
    Deeply buried from human eyes.’


THINGS always happen in unexpected ways.  During the little hesitation
and difficulty that always attend my transits at a station, a voice was
heard to say, ‘Oh!  Papa, isn’t that Edward Winslow?’  Martyn gave a
violent start, and Mr. Fordyce was exclaiming, ‘Clarence, my dear fellow,
it isn’t you!  I beg your pardon; you have strength enough left nearly to
wring one’s hand off!’

‘I—I wanted very much to see you, sir,’ said Clarence.  ‘Could you be so
good as to appoint a time?’

‘See you!  We must always be seeing you of course.  Let me think.  I’ve
got three weddings and a funeral to-morrow, and Simpson coming about the
meeting.  Come to luncheon—all of you.  Mrs. Fordyce will be delighted,
and so will somebody else.’

There was no doubt about the somebody else, for Anne’s feet were as
nearly dancing round Emily as public propriety allowed, and the radiance
of her face was something to rejoice in.  Say what people will,
Englishwomen in a quiet cheerful life are apt to gain rather than lose in
looks up to the borders of middle age.  Our Emily at two-and-thirty was
fair and pleasant to look on; while as for Anne Fordyce at twenty-three,
words will hardly tell how lovely were her delicate features, brown eyes,
and carnation cheeks, illuminated by that sunshine brightness of her
father’s, which made one feel better all day for having been beamed upon
by either of them.  Clarence certainly did, when the good man turned back
to say, ‘Which hotel?  Eh?  That’s too far off.  You must come nearer.  I
would see you in, but I’ve got a woman to see before church time, and I’m
short of a curate, so I must be sharp to the hour.’

‘Can I be of any use?’ eagerly asked Martyn.  ‘I’ll follow you as soon as
I have got these fellows to their quarters.’

We had Amos with us, and were soon able to release Martyn, after a few
compliments on my not being as usual _the_ invalid; and by and by he came
back to take Emily to inspect a lodging, recommended by our friends,
close to the beach, and not a stone’s throw from the Rectory built by Mr.
Fordyce.  As we two useless beings sat opposite to each other, looking
over the roofs of houses at the blue expanse and feeling the salt breeze,
it was no fancy that Clarence’s cheek looked less wan, and his eyes
clearer, as a smile of content played on his lips.  ‘Years sit well on
her,’ he said gaily; and I thought of rewards in store for him.

Then he took this opportunity of consulting me on the chances for Frith,
telling of the original offer, and the quiet constancy of his friend, and
asking whether I thought Emily would relent.  And I answered that I
suspected that she would,—‘But you must get well first.’

‘I begin to think that more possible,’ he answered, and my heart bounded
as he added, ‘she would be satisfied since you would always have a home
with _us_.’

Oh, how much was implied in that monosyllable.  He knew it, for a little
faint colour came up, as he, shyly, laughed and hesitated, ‘That is—if—’

‘If’ included Mrs. Fordyce’s not being ungracious.  Nor was she.  Emily
had found her as kind as in the old days at Hillside, and perfectly ready
to bring us into close vicinity.  It was not caprice that had made this
change, but all possible doubt and risk of character were over, the old
wound was in some measure healed, and the friendship had been brought
foremost by our recent sorrow and our present anxiety.  Anne was in
ecstasies over Emily.  ‘It is so odd,’ she said, ‘to have grown as old as
you, whom I used to think so very grown up,’ and she had all her pet
plans to display in the future.  Moreover, Martyn had been permitted to
relieve the Rector from the funeral—a privilege which seemed to gratify
him as much as if it had been the liveliest of services.

We were to lunch at the Rectory, and the move of our goods was to be
effected while we were there.  We found Mrs. Fordyce looking much older,
but far less of an invalid than in old times, and there was something
more genial and less exclusive in her ways, owing perhaps to the
difference of her life among the many classes with whom she was called on
to associate.

Somersetshire, Beachharbour, and China occupied our tongues by turns, and
we had to begin luncheon without the Rector, who had been hindered by
numerous calls; in fact, as Anne warned us, it was a wonder if he got the
length of the esplanade without being stopped half-a-dozen times.

His welcome was like himself, but he needed a reminder of Clarence’s
request for an interview.  Then we repaired to the study, for Clarence
begged that his brothers might be present, and then the beginning was
made.  ‘Do you remember my showing you a will that I found in the ruins
at Chantry House?’

‘A horrid old scrap that you chose to call one.  Yes; I told you to burn

‘Sir, we have proved that a great injustice was perpetrated by our
ancestor, Philip Winslow, and that the poor lady who made that will was
cruelly treated, if not murdered.  This is no fancy; I have known it for
years past, but it is only now that restitution has become possible.’

‘Restitution?  What are you talking about?  I never wanted the place nor
coveted it.’

‘No, sir, but the act was our forefather’s.  You cannot bid us sit down
under the consciousness of profiting by a crime.  I could not do so
before, but I now implore you to let me restore you either Chantry House
and the three farms, or their purchase money, according to the valuation
made at my father’s death.  I have it in hand.’

Frank Fordyce walked about the room quite overcome.  ‘You foolish
fellow!’ he said, ‘Was it for this that you have been toiling and
throwing away your health in that pestiferous place?  Edward, did you
know this?’

‘Yes,’ I answered.  ‘Clarence has intended this ever since he found the

‘As if that was a will!  You consented.’

‘We all thought it right.’

He made a gesture of dismay at such folly.

‘I do not think you understand how it was, Mr. Fordyce,’ said Clarence,
who by this time was quivering and trembling as in his boyish days.

‘No, nor ever wish to do so.  Such matters ought to be forgotten, and you
don’t look fit to say another word.’

‘Edward will tell you,’ said Clarence, leaning back.

I had the whole written out, and was about to begin, when the person,
with whom there was an appointment, was reported, and we knew that the
rest of the day was mapped out.

‘Look here,’ said Mr. Fordyce, ‘leave that with me; I can’t give any
answer off-hand, except that Don Quixote is come alive again, only too
like himself.’

Which was true, for Clarence took long to rally from the effort, and had
to be kept quiet for some time in the study where we were left.  He
examined me on the contents of my paper, and was vexed to hear that I had
mentioned the ghost, which he said would discredit the whole.  Never was
the dear fellow so much inclined to be fretful, and when Martyn
restlessly observed that if we did not want him, he might as well go back
to the drawing-room, the reply was quite sharp—‘Oh yes, by all means.’

No wonder there was pain in the tone; for the next words, after some
interval, were, when two happy voices came ringing in from the garden
behind, ‘You see, Edward.’

Somehow I had never thought of Martyn.  He had simply seemed to me a boy,
and I had decided that Anne would be the crown of Clarence’s labours.  I
answered ‘Nonsense; they are both children together!’

‘The nonsense was elsewhere,’ he said.  ‘They always were devoted to each
other.  I saw how it was the moment he came into the room.’

‘Don’t give up,’ I said; ‘it is only the old habit.  When she knows all,
she must prefer—’

‘Hush!’ he said.  ‘An old scarecrow and that beautiful young creature!’
and he laughed.

‘You won’t be an old scarecrow long.’

‘No,’ he said in an ominous way, and cut short the discussion by going
back to Mrs. Fordyce.

He was worn out, had a bad night, and did not get up to breakfast; I was
waiting for it in the sitting-room, when Mr. Fordyce came in after matins
with Emily and Martyn.

‘I feel just like David when they brought him the water of Bethlehem,’ he
said.  ‘You know I think this all nonsense, especially this—this ghost
business; and yet, such—such doings as your brother’s can’t go for

His face worked, and the tears were in his eyes; then, as he partook of
our breakfast, he cross-examined us on my statement, and even tried to
persuade us that the phantom in the ruin was Emily; and on her observing
that she could not have seen herself, he talked of the Brocken Spectre
and fog mirages; but we declared the night was clear, and I told him that
all the rational theories I had ever heard were far more improbable than
the appearance herself, at which he laughed.  Then he scrupulously
demanded whether this—this (he failed to find a name for it) would be an
impoverishment of our family, and I showed how Clarence had provided that
we should be in as easy circumstances as before.  In the midst came in
Clarence himself, having hastened to dress, on hearing that Mr. Fordyce
was in the house, and looking none the better for the exertion.

‘Look here, my dear boy,’ said Frank, taking his hot trembling hand, ‘you
have put me in a great fix.  You have done the noblest deed at a terrible
cost, and whatever I may think, it ought not to be thrown away, nor you
be hindered from freeing your soul from this sense of family guilt.  But
here, my forefathers had as little right to the Chantry as yours, and
ever since I began to think about such things, I have been thankful it
was none of mine.  Let us join in giving it or its value to some good
work for God—pour it out to the Lord, as we may say.  Bless me! what have
I done now.’

For Clarence, muttering ‘thank you,’ sank out of his grasp on a chair,
and as nearly as possible fainted; but he was soon smiling and saying it
was all relief, and he felt as if a load he had been bearing had been
suddenly removed.

Frank Fordyce durst stay no longer, but laid his hand on Clarence’s head
and blessed him.


    ‘For soon as once the genial plain
    Has drunk the life-blood of the slain,
    Indelible the spots remain,
    And aye for vengeance call.’


STILL all was not over, for by the next day our brother was as ill, or
worse, than ever.  The doctor who came from London allowed that he had
expected something of the kind, but thought we must have let him exert
himself perilously.  Poor innocent Martyn and Anne, they little suspected
that their bright eyes and happy voices had something to do with the
struggle and disappointment, which probably was one cause of the
collapse.  As to poor Frank Fordyce, I never saw him so distressed; he
felt as if it were all his own fault, or that of his ancestors, and,
whenever he was not required by his duties, was lingering about for news.
I had little hope, though Clarence seemed to me the very light of my
eyes; it was to me as though, his task being accomplished, and the
earthly reward denied, he must be on his way to the higher one.

His complete quiescence confirmed me in the assurance that he thought so
himself.  He was too ill for speech, but Lawrence, who could not stay
away, was struck with the difference from former times.  Not only were
there no delusions, but there was no anxiety or uneasiness, as there had
always been in the former attacks, when he was evidently eager to live,
and still more solicitous to be told if he were in a hopeless state.  Now
he had plainly resigned himself—

    ‘Content to live, but not afraid to die;’

and perhaps, dear fellow, it was chiefly for my sake that he was willing
to live.  At least, I know that when the worst was over, he announced it
by putting those wasted fingers into mine, and saying—

‘Well, dear old fellow, I believe we shall jog on together, after all.’

That attack, though the most severe of all, brought, either owing to
skilful treatment or to his own calm, the removal of the mischief, and
the beginning of real recovery.  Previously he had given himself no time,
but had hurried on to exertions which retarded his cure, so as very
nearly to be fatal; but he was now perfectly submissive to whatever
physicians or nurses desired, and did not seem to find his slow
convalescence in the least tedious, since he was amongst us all again.

It was nearly a month before he was disposed to recur to the subject of
his old solicitude again, and then he asked what Mr. Fordyce had said or
done.  Just nothing at all; but on the next visit paid to the sick-room,
Parson Frank yielded to his earnest request to send for any documents
that might throw light on the subject, and after a few days he brought us
a packet of letters from his deed-box.  They were written from Hillside
Rectory to the son in the army in Flanders, chiefly by his mother, and
were full of hot, angry invective against our family, and pity for poor,
foolish ‘Madam,’ or ‘Cousin Winslow,’ as she was generally termed, for
having put herself in their power.

The one most to the purpose was an account of the examination of Molly
Cox, the waiting-woman, who had been in attendance on the unfortunate
Margaret, and whose story tallied fairly with Aunt Peggy’s tradition.
She declared that she was sure that her mistress had met with foul play.
She had left her as usual at ten o’clock on the fatal 27th of December
1707, in the inner one of the old chambers; and in the night had heard
the tipsy return home of the gentlemen, followed by shrieks.  In the
morning she (the maid) who usually was the first to go to her room, was
met by Mistress Betty Winslow, and told that Madam was ill, and
insensible.  The old nurse of the Winslows was called in; and Molly was
never left alone in the sick-room, scarcely permitted to approach the
bed, and never to touch her lady.  Once, when emptying out a cup at the
garden-door, she saw a mark of blood on the steps, but Mr. Philip came up
and swore at her for a prying fool.  Doctor Tomkins was sent for, but he
barely walked through the room, and ‘all know that he is a mere creature
of Philip Winslow,’ wrote the Mrs. Fordyce of that date to her son.  And
presently after, ‘Justice Eastwood declared there is no case for a Grand
Jury; but he is a known Friend and sworn Comrade of the Winslows, and
bound to suppress all evidence against them.  Nay, James Dearlove swears
he saw Edward Winslow slip a golden Guinea into his Clerk’s Hand.  But as
sure as there is a Heaven above us, Francis, poor Cousin Winslow was
trying to escape to us of her own Kindred, and met with cruel Usage.  Her
Blood is on their Heads.’

‘There!’ said Frank Fordyce.  ‘This Francis challenged Philip Winslow’s
eldest son, a mere boy, three days after he joined the army before Lille,
and shot him like a dog.  I turned over the letter about it in searching
for these.  I can’t boast of my ancestors more than you can.  But may God
accept this work of yours, and take away the guilt of blood from both of

‘And have you thought what is best to be done?’ asked Clarence, raising
himself on his cushions.

‘Have you?’ asked the Vicar.

‘Oh yes; I have had my dreams.’

They put their castles together, and they turned out to be for an
orphanage, or rather asylum, not too much hampered with strict rules,
combined with a convalescent home.  The battle of sisterhoods was not yet
fought out, and we were not quite prepared for them; but Frank Fordyce
had, as he said, ‘the two best women in the world in his eye’ to make a

There was full time to think and discuss the scheme, for our patient was
in no condition to move for many weeks, lying day after day on a couch
just within the window of our sitting-room, which was as nearly as
possible in the sea, so that he constantly had the freshness of its
breezes, the music of its ripple, and the sight of its waves, and seemed
to find endless pleasure in watching the red sails, the puffs of steam,
and the frolics of the children, simple or gentle, on the beach.

Something else was sometimes to be watched.  Martyn, all this time, was
doing the work of two curates, and was to be seen walking home with Anne
from church or school, carrying her baskets and bags, and, as we were
given to understand, discussing by turns ecclesiastical questions,
visionary sisterhoods, and naughty children.  At first I wished it were
possible to remove Clarence from the perpetual spectacle, but we had one
last talk over the matter, and this was quite satisfactory.

‘It does me no harm,’ he said; ‘I like to see it.  Yes, it is quite true
that I do.  What was personal and selfish in my fancies seems to have
been worn out in the great lull of my senses under the shadow of death;
and now I can revert with real joy and thankfulness to the old delight of
looking on our dear Ellen as our sister, and watch those two children as
we used when they talked of dolls’ fenders instead of the surplice war.
I have got you, Edward; and you know there is a love “passing the love of

A lively young couple passed by the window just then, and with untamed
voices observed—

‘There are those two poor miserable objects!  It is enough to make one
melancholy only to look at them.’

Whereat we simultaneously burst out laughing; perhaps because a choking,
very far from misery, was in our throats.

At any rate, Clarence was prepared to be the cordial, fatherly brother,
when Martyn came headlong in upon us with the tidings that utterly
indescribable, unimaginable joy had befallen him.  A revelation seemed
simultaneously to have broken upon him and Anne while they were copying
out the Sunday School Registers, that what they had felt for each other
all their lives was love—‘real, true love,’ as Anne said to Emily, ‘that
never could have cared for anybody else.’

Mrs. Fordyce’s sharp eyes had seen what was coming, and accepted the
inevitable, quite as soon as Clarence had.  She came and talked it over
with us, saying she was perfectly satisfied and happy.  Martyn was all
that could be wished, and she was sincerely glad of the connection with
her old friends.  So, in fact, was dear old Frank, but he had been
running about with his head full, and his eyes closed, so that it was
quite a shock to him to find that his little Anne, his boon companion and
playfellow, was actually grown up, and presuming to love and be loved;
and he could hardly believe that she was really seven years older than
her sister had been when the like had begun with her.  But if Anne must
be at those tricks, he said, shaking his head at her, he had rather it
was with Martyn than anybody else.

There was no difficulty as to money matters.  In truth, Martyn was not so
good a match as an heiress, such as was Anne Fordyce, might have aspired
to, and her Lester kin were sure to be shocked; but even if Clarence
married, the Earlscombe living went for something (though, by the bye, he
has never held it), and the Fordyces only cared that there should be easy
circumstances.  The living of Hillside would be resigned in favour of
Martyn in the spring, and meantime he would gain more experience at
Beachharbour, and this would break the separation to the Fordyces.

After all, however, theirs was not to be our first wedding.  I have said
little of Emily.  The fact was, that after that week of Clarence’s
danger, we said she lived in a kind of dream.  She fulfilled all that was
wanted of her, nursing Clarence, waiting on me, ordering dinner, making
the tea, and so forth; but it was quite evident that life began for her
on the Saturdays, when Lawrence came down, and ended on the Mondays, when
he went away.  If, in the meantime, she sat down to work, she went off
into a trance; if she was sent out for fresh air, she walked quarter-deck
on the esplanade, neither seeing nor hearing anything, we averred, but
some imaginary Lawrence Frith.

If she had any drawback, good girl, it was the idea of deserting me; but
then, as I could honestly tell her, nobody need fear for my happiness,
since Clarence was given back to me.  And she believed, and was ready to
go to China with her Lawrence.


    ‘Grief will be joy if on its edge
    Fall soft that holiest ray,
    Joy will be grief, if no faint pledge
    Be there of heavenly day.’


WE did not move from Beachharbour till September, and by that time it had
been decided that Chantry House itself should be given up to the new
scheme.  It was too large for us, and Clarence had never lived there
enough to have any strong home feeling for it; but he rather connected it
with disquiet and distress, and had a longing to make actual restitution
thereof, instead of only giving an equivalent, as he did in the case of
the farms.  Our feelings about the desecrated chapel were also
considerably changed from the days when we regarded it merely as a
picturesque ruin, and it was to be at once restored both for the benefit
of the orphanage, and for that of the neighbouring households.  For
ourselves, a cottage was to be built, suited to our idiosyncrasies; but
that could wait till after the yacht voyage, which we were to make
together for the winter.

Thus it came to pass that the last time we inhabited Chantry House was
when we gave Emily to Lawrence Frith.  We would fain have made it a
double wedding, but the Fordyces wished to wait for Easter, when Martyn
would have been inducted to Hillside.  They came, however, that Mrs.
Fordyce might act lady of the house, and Anne be bridesmaid, as well as
lay the first stone of St. Cecily’s restored chapel.

It was on the day on which they were expected, when the workmen were
digging foundations, and clearing away rubbish, that the foreman begged
Mr. Winslow to come out to see something they had found.  Clarence came
back, very grave and awe-struck.  It was an old oak chest, and within lay
a skeleton, together with a few fragments of female clothing, a wedding
ring, and some coins of the later Stewarts, in a rotten leathern purse.
This was ghastly confirmation, though there was nothing else to connect
the bones with poor Margaret.  We had some curiosity as to the coffin in
the niche in the family vault which bore her name, but both Clarence and
Mr. Fordyce shrank from investigations which could not be carried out
without publicity, and might perhaps have disturbed other remains.

So on the ensuing night there was a strange, quiet funeral service at
Earlscombe Church.  Mr. Henderson officiated, and Chapman acted as clerk.
These, with Amos Bell, alone knew the tradition, or understood what the
discovery meant to the two Fordyces and three Winslows who stood at the
opening of the vault, and prayed that whatever guilt there might be
should be put away from the families so soon to be made one.  The coins
were placed with those of Victoria, which the next day Anne laid beneath
the foundation-stone of St. Cecily’s.  I need not say that no one has
ever again heard the wailings, nor seen the lady with the lamp.

What more is there to tell?  It was of this first half of our lives that
I intended to write, and though many years have since passed, they have
not had the same character of romance and would not interest you.  Our
honeymoon, as Mr. Fordyce called the expedition we two brothers made in
the Mediterranean, was a perfect success; and Clarence regained health,
and better spirits than had ever been his; while contriving to show me
all that I was capable of being carried to see.  It was complete
enjoyment, and he came home, not as strong as in old times, but with fair
comfort and capability for the work of life, so as to be able to take Mr.
Castleford’s place, when our dear old friend retired from active
direction of the firm.

You all know how the two old bachelors have kept house together in London
and at Earlscombe cottage, and you are all proud of the honoured name
Clarence Winslow has made for himself, foremost in works for the glory of
God and the good of men—as one of those merchant princes of England whose
merchandise has indeed been Holiness unto the Lord.

Thus you must all have felt a shock on finding that he always looked on
that name as blotted, and that one of the last sayings I heard from him
was, ‘O remember not the sins and offences of my youth, but according to
Thy mercy, think upon me, O Lord, for Thy goodness.’

Then he almost smiled, and said, ‘Yes, He has so looked on me, and I am

Thankful, and so am I, for those thirty-four peaceful years we spent
together, or rather for the seventy years of perfect brotherhood that we
have been granted, and though he has left me behind him, I am content to
wait.  It cannot be for long.  My brothers and sisters, their children,
and my faithful Amos Bell, are very good to me; and in writing up to that
_mezzo termine_ of our lives, I have been living it over again with my
brother of brothers, through the troubles that have become like joys.


Uncle Edward has not said half enough about his dear old self.  I want to
know if he never was unhappy when he was young about being _like that_,
though mother says his face was always nearly as beautiful as it is now.
And it is not only goodness.  It _is_ beautiful with his sweet smile and
snowy white hair.

                                                            ELLEN WINSLOW.

And I wonder, though perhaps he could not have told, what Aunt Anne would
have done if Uncle Clarence had not been so forbearing before he went to

                                                              CLARE FRITH.

The others are highly impertinent questions, but we ought to know what
became of Lady Peacock.

                                                                 ED. G. W.


Poor woman, she drifted back to London after about ten years, with an
incurable disease.  Clarence put her into lodgings near us, and did his
best for her as long as she lived.  He had a hard task, but she ended by
saying he was her only friend.

To question No. 2 I have nothing to say; but as to No. 1, with its
extravagant compliment, Nature, or rather God, blessed me with even
spirits, a methodical nature that prefers monotony, and very little
morbid shyness; nor have I ever been devoid of tender care and love.  So
that I can only remember three severe fits of depression.  One, when I
had just begun to be taken out in the Square Gardens, and Selina Clarkson
was heard to say I was a hideous little monster.  It was a revelation,
and must have given frightful pain, for I remember it acutely after
sixty-five years.

The second fit was just after Clarence was gone to sea, and some very
painful experiments had been tried in vain for making me like other
people.  For the first time I faced the fact that I was set aside from
all possible careers, and should be, as I remember saying, ‘no better
than a girl.’  I must have been a great trial to all my friends.  My
father tried to reason on resignation, and tell me happiness could be
_in_ myself, till he broke down.  My mother attempted bracing by reproof.
Miss Newton endeavoured to make me see that this was my cross.  Every
word was true, and came round again, but they only made me for the time
more rebellious and wretched.  That attack was ended, of all things in
the world, by heraldry.  My attention somehow was drawn that way, and the
study filled up time and thought till my misfortunes passed into custom,
and haunted me no more.

My last was a more serious access, after coming into the country, when
improved health and vigour inspired cravings that made me fully sensible
of my blighted existence.  I had gone the length of my tether and
overdone myself; I missed London life and Clarence; and the more I blamed
myself, and tried to rouse myself, the more despondent and discontented I

This time my physician was Mr. Stafford; I had deciphered a bit of old
French and Latin for him, and he was very much pleased.  ‘Why, Edward,’
he said, ‘you are a very clever fellow; you can be a distinguished—or
what is better—a useful man.’

Somehow that saying restored the spring of hope, and gave an impulse!  I
have not been a distinguished man, but I think in my degree I have been a
fairly useful one, and I am sure I have been a happy one.

                                                                     E. W.

‘Useful! that you have, dear old fellow.  Even if you had done nothing
else, and never been an unconscious backbone to Clarence; your influence
on me and mine has been unspeakably blest.  But pray, Mistress Anne, how
about that question of naughty little Clare’s?’

                                                                     M. W.

‘Don’t you think you had better let alone that question, reverend sir?
Youngest pets are apt to be saucy, especially in these days, but I didn’t
expect it of you!  It might have been the worse for you if W. C. W. had
not held his tongue in those days.  Just like himself, but I am heartily
glad that so he did.

                                                                    A. W.’

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