Title: An elder brother
Author: Thorne, Eglanton
Language: English
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                         AN ELDER BROTHER


                                BY

                         EGLANTON THORNE

   Author of "The Old Worcester Jug," "Worthy of his Name," etc.



                              London
                    THE RELIGIOUS TRACT SOCIETY
           56 PATERNOSTER ROW AND 65 ST. PAUL'S CHURCHYARD



                          BUTLER & TANNER,
                   THE SELWOOD PRINTING WORKS,
                        FROME, AND LONDON.



                             CONTENTS

CHAPTER

   I. OLD BETTS

  II. A NEIGHBOUR

 III. LITTLE MARGERY'S LOSS

  IV. MICHAEL MAKES A GOOD BARGAIN

   V. UNRIGHTEOUS GAIN

  VI. AN UNWELCOME ENCOUNTER

 VII. IN THE GRIP OF PAIN

VIII. THE BURDEN MAKES ITSELF FELT

  IX. RESTITUTION

   X. MICHAEL FINDS A FRIEND

  XI. MUTUAL CONFESSION

 XII. MICHAEL'S HOUSE BECOMES A HOME



                      AN ELDER BROTHER

CHAPTER I

OLD BETTS

THERE are persons for whom no shop has a greater attraction than a
second-hand book-shop. It may be that they have a passion for
collecting the old and rare, and love to turn over the well-thumbed,
dusty volumes, in the hope of lighting upon a treasure in the form of
a first edition, or a work long out of print. Or they may be drawn
merely by a desire to acquire cheaply the coveted book which their
poverty will not permit them to purchase fresh from the publisher.
Whatever the nature of the attraction, the shop of Michael Betts,
which stood a few years ago at the corner of a narrow, quiet street
in Bloomsbury, had for such individuals, an irresistible fascination.

It was a small shop, but it had a high reputation of its kind, and
its importance was not to be measured by its size. It lay several
feet below the level of the street, and a flight of stone steps led
down to the door. Every available inch of space within the shop was
occupied by books. They crowded the shelves which lined the shop from
floor to ceiling; they filled the storey above, and a great part of
the tiny room at the back of the shop in which Michael took his
meals; they overflowed into the street, and stood on a bench before
the window, and were piled at the side of each step which led up to
the pavement. They were books of all sorts and conditions, of various
tongues and various styles.

Michael knew them perhaps as well as it was possible for a man to
know such a mixed multitude. He was not a scholarly man, having
received, indeed, but the most ordinary education; but in his leisure
hours, he had managed to acquaint himself with most of the classics
of our mother tongue. For the rest, by virtue of close observation,
and, where possible, a little judicious skimming or dipping, he
contrived to discover the nature of most books that came into his
hands, and to pretty accurately determine their worth.

Michael Betts struck most persons as being an elderly man, though he
was not so old as he appeared. Some of his customers were wont to
describe him as "Old Betts." He did not feel himself to be old,
however, and once when he happened to overhear some one so describe
him, the term struck him as singularly inappropriate.

He was a man about the middle height, but inclined to stoop. His
smooth, beardless face, surmounted by thick, wiry, iron-grey hair,
which curled about his brows, was broad and of the German type. Its
hue was pallid, rather as the result of the confined life he led in
the close, ill-lighted shop, than from positive ill-health. His dark,
deep-sunken eyes had often a dreamy, absent expression, but grew keen
at the call of business, for Michael Betts was a shrewd man of
business, and made few mistakes either in buying or selling.

He had kept that corner shop for nearly thirty years, and though his
business had steadily grown during that period, he had managed it
without assistance. It might be that he would have done better had he
not attempted to carry it on single-handed. He was a young man when
he started the business, but now that he was on the borderland of old
age he might have found the help of a youth of much service. But
Michael judged otherwise. He "was not fond of boys," he said. He felt
that he had not the patience to train one.

He could not bear to have his nice, orderly, methodical ways upset by
a careless youth. Moreover, from living constantly alone, he had
become of such a reserved, suspicious, even secretive disposition,
that the very thought of having any one constantly with him in the
shop was hateful to him. For his shop was his all. He had no life
behind or beyond it. He had no one to love him, or whom he could
love. Even his books he did not love as they should be loved. Though
he lived in them and with them, as well as by them, he prized them
chiefly for the sake of what they brought him. But he did not care
that another hand should meddle with them. Rather than that, he
preferred to adhere to his old-fashioned plan, so behind the day, of
locking his shop when he was called out on business, and affixing to
the door a notice of the hour at which he might be expected to return.

Early one gloomy afternoon in November, Michael was busy at the back
of the shop, sorting, as well as he could in the dim light, a
newly-acquired purchase. He looked round as the bell which hung at
the door gave a little tinkle announcing the entrance of a customer;
but though he looked he could not at once discern who it was who
entered with such a light tread, and strange, irregular movements. He
had to move to the other side of a high pile of books ere he
perceived his customer, and then he was very much surprised. Such a
pretty, dainty, wee one he had never seen in his shop before.

A little girl of six or seven years stood there alone, making a
bright, fair spot in the midst of the gloom and dust and piles of
dingy volumes. She wore a little serge cloak of a soft green shade,
lined with pink silk, and a tiny, close-fitting velvet hood of the
same green hue covered her golden locks, which, however, escaped from
it wherever they could, hanging in ringlets down her cheeks and over
her little shoulders. With her rosebud mouth, soft liquid blue eyes,
and fair pink and white complexion, she was the sweetest picture
imaginable; but she was a bewildering vision to Michael Betts. He
stood looking at her in amazement, quite at a loss how to address her.

She, in her turn, regarded him gravely for a few moments; but she
showed no sign of embarrassment. When she spoke, it was with the
simple, unconscious dignity of childhood.

"Are you old Mr. Betts?"

"My name is Betts, certainly," replied Michael; "I don't know about
the old. Can I do anything for you, missy?"

"Yes. I want a 'Pilgrim's Progress,' if you please. Noel and I want
to have one for our very own. On Sundays, we are allowed to have
mother's, which is a beautiful one, with such lovely pictures in it;
but she will not let us have it in the nursery during the week, and
we really must have one, for, you see, we like to play at being
Christian and Faithful, and we want the book in order to know exactly
what they do and say. We each like being Christian best, so we take
it in turns. That is the fairest way, I think, don't you?"

"I can't say, I am sure, my dear," said Betts, looking very puzzled.
"Do you wish me to see if I have a 'Pilgrim's Progress'?"

"Yes, please," said the child eagerly, with brightening face. "Father
said he'd no doubt you would have one you could let us have for a
shilling. He said he would see about it, but he generally forgets
when he says that, so I thought I had better come myself. I have the
shilling here," she added, fumbling in her glove. "It's in two
sixpences: one sixpence is mine, and the other is Noel's."

"And who is your father, little missy?" asked Michael.

"Why, father is father, of course," said the wee girl, as if she
considered the question rather unnecessary; adding, however, after a
moment's reflection, "but perhaps you would call him Professor
Lavers."

"Ah, to be sure," said Michael, nodding his head. He knew Professor
Lavers well. He was one of his best customers. But it was difficult
to think of the elderly, worn-looking professor as the father of this
sweet little maiden.

"Father is a very learned man," said the child, nodding her head
sagaciously; "mother says so. That's why they call him Professor. My
name is Margery, you know, and Noel's is Noel. Noel means Christmas
in French, and mother called him that because he was born on
Christmas Day."

"Is Noel older than you?" asked Michael, who was beginning to feel
interested in the child's frank confidences.

"Oh no. He is a year younger; but he's nearly as big as I am. That's
because he is a boy. Mother says boys ought to be big. What lots and
lots of books you have, Mr. Betts! My father has a great many books;
but not nearly so many as you have."

"No. I've got another room full of them upstairs, little missy."

"Have you?" said Margery, in an awestruck voice. "And have you read
them every one, Mr. Betts?"

"Oh dear no," said Betts, smiling as he shook his head; "life
wouldn't be long enough for that, missy. But I think I know something
about most of them, though."

"Do you?" Margery looked at him in wonder. "How clever you must be!
It takes me such a time to find out what is in a book. But then you
are very, very old. You have had a great many years to do it in."

"Humph!" said Betts, pushing his fingers through his thick, grizzly
hair, and hardly knowing what to make of this remark.

"Can you read Greek, Mr. Betts?" asked Margery eagerly. "My father
can read Greek—can you?"

"No, miss, that I can't," said Michael, looking as if he did not
quite like to own his inferiority; "but now, about this book you
want. I believe I have a 'Pilgrim's Progress' somewhere, if only I
can lay my hand on it. Ah, I think I know where it is."

He drew forward his library steps, mounted them, and after a brief
search amongst the books on an upper shelf came down with one in his
hand, which he dusted carefully ere he showed it to Margery.

"Here's the book you want, missy," he said, bending down to her as he
held it open. "The back's a bit shabby; but the reading is all right.
And there are pictures, too."

"Oh, how lovely!" exclaimed Margery, in delighted tones. "I do love
books with pictures, don't you? Ah, there is poor Christian with his
burden on his back. Oh, weren't you glad, Mr. Betts, when his burden
fell off?"

"I glad?" said Mr. Betts, looking puzzled. "I don't understand you."

He had once read the "Pilgrim's Progress," wading through it with
difficulty, many years ago; but had found it a book he "could make
nothing of."

"When you read about it, I mean," said Margery. "But p'raps it's so
long ago that you have forgotten. Mother says the burden means sin,
and every one has that burden to carry till Jesus takes it away. Have
you lost your burden, Mr. Betts?"

"My burden?" repeated Betts, more puzzled than ever.

"Yes—your burden of sin. You're a sinner, aren't you?"

"Indeed, miss, you're under a mistake," said Michael stiffly. "I know
there are plenty of sinners in London; but I am not to be counted
amongst them. I can honestly say that I never did anything wrong in
my life."

Margery stood looking at him, her blue eyes opened to their widest
extent, expressing the utmost wonder.

"Oh, Mr. Betts! Never in all your life! And you have lived so many
years! What a very, very good man you must be! Why, I am always doing
naughty things, though I do try to be good. And I thought everybody
did wrong things sometimes. But never in all your life—"

"Well, here's the book, little missy, if you like to take it," said
Michael, finding her remarks embarrassing, and wishing to put an end
to them. "The price is one shilling and fourpence."

"But I have only a shilling," said Margery, giving him her two
sixpences; "that won't be enough, will it?"

"That'll do, thank you, miss. Any day that you're passing you may
bring me the fourpence."

"Oh, thank you, Mr. Betts!" said Margery, delighted. "I won't forget.
How pleased Noel will be! But I must go now, or nurse will be angry.
I expect she will say it was naughty of me to come alone. Good-bye,
Mr. Betts."

"Good day, missy."

He opened the door for her, and she passed out, shaking back her
sunny curls. But when she was half-way up the steps she suddenly
stopped, stood in thought for a moment, and then turned back.

"Mr. Betts," she said, thrusting her pretty head inside the door
again.

"Well, missy?"

"I can't understand about your never doing wrong. Mother says Jesus
died for sinful people, and I thought that every one had sinned. But
if you've never done wrong, then Jesus can't have died for you. It's
very strange."

"Is it, miss?" said Michael, with a grim smile. "Well, don't you
trouble your pretty self about me. It's all right. There's some
things, you know, that little folks can't understand."

"Oh, there are, I know, lots. I'm always finding that out. But it's
horrid not to be able to understand. Well, good-bye."

She ran off again, and was quickly out of sight.

"What a little chatterbox!" said Michael to himself; "what an
extraordinary child! But why should they stuff her head with those
old-fashioned theological ideas? I suppose she was right in a sense
about my being a sinner. These old theologians would say so, at any
rate. And in church, people confess themselves miserable sinners, but
not one in a hundred means it. Anyhow, I'm sure of this, that if
there was no one worse than me in the world to-day, it would be a
very different world from what it is. So that is Professor Lavers'
little girl. I wonder if she'll remember the fourpence."



CHAPTER II

A NEIGHBOUR

THOUGH for many years, Michael Betts had lived in loneliness, his
life had not always been so lonely. As a young man, he had had his
widowed mother to care for, and a brother, some ten years younger
than himself, had shared their home. There had been other children
who had passed away in infancy. Only these two, the eldest and the
youngest, remained, and the mother loved them passionately, if not
wisely.

It was perhaps not strange that between brothers so widely parted by
years, there should be no very close bond of sympathy. But the
distinction between them was more marked than that which mere age
would effect. Their characters were wholly different. The disposition
of the elder brother had always been serious, his behaviour correct,
his words and ways prudent and cautious beyond his years. The bearing
of the other afforded a great contrast. Frank from boyhood was
distinguished by wild spirits; he was restless and reckless in his
ways, bent upon pleasure and regardless of its cost, and disposed to
chaff his grave, prudent brother.

The two could not understand each other. Michael, conscious of his
own rectitude, was keenly alive to his brother's faults, and disposed
to think the very worst of him. He was vexed with his mother when she
persistently found excuses for Frank's failings, and reiterated her
fond belief that he "meant no harm," and would "come right some day."

Whilst she lived to keep peace in the home, there was no open breach
between the brothers. Unhappily, she passed away ere Frank had fully
attained to manhood. His mother's death was a grief to Michael. He
had loved her truly, in spite of a sense of her incapacity and
wrong-headedness on many points, notably on those which concerned her
younger son. Sometimes it had almost seemed as if she loved Frank, in
spite of all his faults, better than the son whose meritoriousness
had ever been apparent.

Yet Michael meant well by his brother when their mother's death left
them together. He had promised her when she lay dying that he would
be as a father to Frank; and he intended to keep that promise. He
would do his duty by Frank; he would care for him and look after his
interests as an elder brother should. To be sure, he expected that
Frank would respond as he should to his fraternal kindness, and show
a fitting sense of what the bond between them entailed upon him. But
such an expectation was most vain. Frank was what he had always been.

Shortly after his mother's death, Michael, who had been saving money
carefully for years, whilst working diligently and acquiring business
experience, was able to take the corner house and open a book-shop on
his own account. He counted on Frank's assistance in working it. He
thought the business would provide a future for his young brother as
well as for himself. But it was a disastrous experiment he was now
undertaking. Frank had little inclination to work steadily as his
brother's assistant. His careless, irregular ways tried Michael's
patience beyond endurance. He reproached his brother bitterly; but
his rebukes only elicited insolence and defiance.

Frank left his brother in anger, and found a situation for himself
elsewhere. He did not keep it long, however. From idle, he fell into
sinful courses. Lower and lower he drifted, till Michael saw him only
when he came to beg for relief from the starvation to which his
profligacy had reduced him. Michael dreaded his appearance. He could
not bear that any of his customers should know that such a
disreputable man was his brother.

But he never refused Frank food or a night's lodging, till after one
of these brief visitations he missed a valuable classic, and was
convinced that his brother had stolen it. Then he vowed that he would
do nothing more for Frank. If his brother dared to come near him
again, thinking to lay thievish hands on his goods, he would give him
in charge. No one could say that he had failed in his duty towards
his brother. No, he had kept his promise to his mother as far as it
was in his power to keep it. He could do no more. Frank must reap as
he had sown.

Michael never had occasion to put his threat into execution. His
brother, perhaps, divined too well what he might expect. However that
might be, Michael saw his face no more, and was thankful not to see
it. As years passed on and he heard no more of Frank, he was able to
persuade himself that his brother was dead. And as this conviction
deepened within him, it became easier and easier to banish from his
mind the thought of his unhappy brother.

His business absorbed his whole attention. It prospered, and year by
year he was able to lay by money. This result he found most
satisfactory. Gradually, but surely, the love of gain became the
chief passion of his soul. His own wants were few and simple, and he
had no one besides himself on whom to spend money, so his savings
grew apace, and he hugged to his heart the knowledge that he was
making a nice little sum. He never asked himself what good the money
was to do, or for whom he was saving it. He forgot that he was
growing old, and that a time must soon come when he would have to
leave all that he possessed. He loved to think that he was growing
rich; never suspecting how miserably poor he was in all that makes
the true wealth of human life.

It was rarely now that Michael gave a thought to his unhappy brother;
but on the evening of the day which had surprised him by bringing
such a quaint little customer to his shop, he found his mind
strangely disposed to revert to his own early days. It was a most
unusual thing for him to speak with a little child. He could not
remember when he had done so before. Had he been asked if he liked
children, he would have answered the question decidedly in the
negative. He certainly detested the boys of the neighbourhood, who
were wont to annoy him by hanging about his shop of an evening, and
laying their careless fingers on his books, and who had very
objectionable ways of retaliating when he reproved them. But a fair,
dainty, blue-eyed, childlike Margery was quite another thing. Her
sweet, rosy face, shaded by drooping curls, rose again and again
before his mental vision, and her childish voice repeated itself in
his ears as he sat patching and mending some of the shabbier of his
books.

And somehow those sweet accents carried his memory back to the days
of his own childhood. He remembered a little sister who had died; he
recalled the bitterness of the tears he had shed as he looked on her
still, marble face, lying in the little coffin; he saw his mother
weeping as though her heart would break; he saw baby Frank looking in
surprise from one to the other, wondering at their tears, but
untouched by any sense of their sorrow. How vividly the scene rose
before him again! His mother's face, the well-worn, shabby furniture,
the very atmosphere of the old home seemed about him for the moment.

Yet how long ago it was! If the little sister had lived, she might
now have been an anxious-looking mother herself, with grown-up
children. And Frank—baby Frank—what had become of him? Dead,
probably,—yes, surely he was dead, and better dead. But Michael
heaved a sigh as he thought of his brother. He had not been so moved
for years. Certainly the visit of that little maiden had exercised a
softening influence upon him. How long it was since he had seen his
brother!

His life altogether seemed long, as he looked back on it. Very, very
old, the little girl had called him. She was wrong there; he was not
so very old. But he was getting old. He could not deny that, and the
thought caused him a throb of pain. For the first time, he felt his
life to be narrow and contracted and unsatisfactory. He rose and
walked up and down the limited space in which it was possible to move
between the piled-up books. He drew aside the curtain which hung over
the little door, and looked up at the stars shining brightly above
the tall houses opposite. And he sighed again. What was making him
feel so unlike himself to-night?

He half hoped that on the following day little Margery might again
make her appearance in his shop. Would she forget her little debt to
him? He hoped not. He did not care about the fourpence so much; but
he did want to see the pretty little creature again. But throughout
the day he looked for her in vain. Nor did she appear on the next,
nor the next. He was conscious of disappointment. On the third day,
however, he had news which concerned her.

A well-known customer entered the shop. But though he knew the man
well as a customer, Michael knew very little of him. He was not
interested in the lives of his customers, except where they touched
his own. He knew this one to be a minister of some kind, and from the
alacrity with which he dropped the theological books he desired, if
their price were at all high, the bookseller imagined that money was
not plentiful with him. The fact that this preacher often asked for
works by Mr. Spurgeon proved nothing, since Michael's experience had
taught him that the writings of that great preacher have a
fascination for every species of religious teacher who tries to open
his lips in public for the edification of his brother man.

"Good day, sir," said Michael, as his customer entered the shop.
"What can I do for you to-day?"

"Good day, Mr. Betts. I really do not know that I want anything in
particular, only, as I was passing close by, I could not resist the
temptation to look in, just to see what you have. Your wares are
always tempting to me."

"I'm glad to hear it, sir. Look round, and welcome. Take your time
over it. There's a new lot of books here that I've purchased lately.
Maybe you'd fancy some of them."

"Thanks, thanks," said the other, turning eagerly towards the books.
He stood for some minutes examining them in silence. Suddenly he
said, "Ah! Here is a book, I see, by Professor Lavers. It is very sad
about him, is it not?"

"What about him, sir?" asked Michael, in surprise.

"What? You have not heard? How strange! And he, a neighbour of yours!"

"He lives in Gower Street, certainly, if that makes him a neighbour
of mine," said Betts grimly; "but what is the matter with him, sir?"

"He is very ill indeed; the doctors think he cannot recover. It is a
sad pity. A scientific man of such ability can ill be spared."

Michael made no reply. He stood dismayed. A curious sensation of pain
smote him. He was not thinking of the loss to science. He was
thinking of a certain little fair-haired, blue-eyed child, who would
soon be fatherless, if this news were true.

"He was taken ill very suddenly, I believe," said the customer; "it
is acute pneumonia. He has not been ill more than three or four days.
Still, I wonder you have not heard, living so near."

"Such neighbourhood does not count for much in London, sir," replied
Michael, rousing himself from his abstraction. "Persons may live next
door to each other for years, and never learn each other's names. I
should know nothing of Professor Lavers if he did not happen to be a
customer of mine."

"I suppose that is so," said the minister thoughtfully. "I suppose
nowhere can one attain such complete isolation as in this London. Its
life must tend to harden human hearts into selfish indifference to
the needs of others. Sad indeed were the life of man, if he were left
to the mercies of his brother man. But it comforts me to think of the
great love of God enfolding the sinful, sorrowful city, and the heart
of God pitying the infinite struggles and woes of humanity. But I
must not linger now. Good day, Mr. Betts."

"Good day," said Michael. He had hardly followed what the other was
saying. It did not seem to him that the love of God in any
perceptible degree brightened the life of man. But what could a man
who was satisfied with himself, and never done anything wrong in his
life, know of the love of God?



CHAPTER III

LITTLE MARGERY'S LOSS

"I WONDER if he is any better?" Michael Betts said to himself as he
rose the next morning.

It was something new for him to give a thought to any one, save in
the way of business. It was strange indeed that he should actually
feel anxious concerning the health of a neighbour; but as he moved to
and fro, coaxing his fire into a blaze, and preparing his solitary
meal, Michael was exceedingly desirous of learning how the new day
had found Professor Lavers.

When the woman arrived who came every morning at nine to clean up his
place and do him such womanly services as he required, he broke
through the reserve he was wont to maintain towards her, and asked
her if she could tell him how Professor Lavers was.

"How who is?" she asked, with an air of surprise.

"Professor Lavers."

"And who's 'e? I never 'eard of 'im," she said.

"Oh," Michael answered, with some embarrassment, "he lives in Gower
Street—No. 48. He's a very learned, noted man. I thought you might
know about him."

"I never 'eard of 'im," she said again. "Is 'e ill, then? What's the
matter with 'im?"

Michael answered her very curtly. Since she could not satisfy his
curiosity, he was not disposed to gratify hers. He went back into the
shop, and busied himself with his books.

About noon the bell over his door tinkled, and looking up he saw with
pleasure that little Margery was entering the shop, accompanied by a
servant maid, who carried several small parcels.

"Good morning, Mr. Betts," she said, in her clear, high tones. "I've
come to pay you the fourpence I owe you."

"Thank you, missy," he said, looking with interest at the sweet
childish face and the blue eyes lifted so frankly to his.

"It's for the 'Pilgrim's Progress,' you know. I dare-say you thought
I had quite forgotten it, but I hadn't; only nurse would not let me
come before."

"It was no matter, miss. You need not have troubled about it. And do
you like the book as much as you thought you would?"

"Oh yes; the pictures are lovely. But it is such a pity: we can't
have any nice plays now; we're in dreadful trouble at home. My father
is very ill, and Noel has been sent away to Aunt Susie's because he
would make a noise, and I'm all alone, and I don't like it."

"Dear, dear! I'm very sorry to hear that," said Michael, feeling more
moved than he could have believed it possible that he would have been
by a matter which did not concern himself in the least; "but I hope
your father is a little better this morning, my dear."

"I don't think so," said the little girl, with unshed tears in her
eyes as she lifted them to his, "for mother was crying this morning,
and she would not have cried if father had been better. We're quite
in the Slough of Despond at home, aren't we, Jane?"

Jane smiled in response to the child's quaint words, but her eyes had
a troubled expression. She shook her head as she met Michael's
inquiring glance.

"He's no better," she said in a low tone, "and I'm sore afraid he'll
never be no better."

"It's horrid without Noel," said little Margery, as she sprang
lightly on to the top of a pile of big lexicons and then back again
to the floor. "I can't play alone, and Jane does not know how to play
properly. Besides, we must not make a noise."

She stood for a moment with a troubled look on her pretty pink and
white face. Then, as she looked up at the old bookseller, a new idea
occurred to her.

"Had you ever a little brother or sister to play with you, Mr.
Betts?—when you were a little boy, I mean. Of course it's a very
long time ago."

"Well, yes, miss, I had a little brother once; but, as you say, it's
a long time ago."

"Then I suppose he is grown-up now. Where is he?"

"I don't know, miss."

"You don't know?" repeated the child in amazement. "You don't know
where your brother is?"

The face of old Betts flushed as he caught the surprise in her tones.

"It's true, missy; I don't know where he is. Maybe he is dead; but I
can't say."

"Now, Miss Margery, it's time we were going," said Jane quickly. "You
know you promised me you would not stay a minute if I let you come
in."

"All right; I'm ready," responded Margery; but she turned again to
Michael ere she left the shop.

"Do you live here all by yourself, Mr. Betts? It's very lonely for
you, isn't it? But I suppose people don't mind that when they get
old."

He made no reply, except to bid her good day; and the next minute the
green cloak and long golden locks had floated on the wind round the
corner, and he was alone once more.

Was it very lonely for him? He had not thought so before; but to-day,
as he looked round on the dingy old shop, so closely packed with
books, and later, as he sat eating alone with little appetite the
ill-cooked, unsavoury meal which his charwoman had prepared for him,
he had a vague sense that his life was empty, and dull, and unlovely,
and that he wanted something more for happiness than his trade could
give him, even though he was making a good thing of it.

Almost the first thing Michael Betts saw when he unfolded his
newspaper the next morning was the announcement of the death of
Professor Lavers. After he had read the brief notice more than once,
he read nothing more for some time. He sat with his breakfast
untasted before him, gazing abstractedly at the row of bookshelves
opposite. But he did not see the titles printed on the dingy covers.
He was seeing a wee, winsome face, half hidden by drooping curls, and
hearing the music of a sweet, childish voice. When he roused himself,
it was to sigh heavily, and say half aloud, "It's a sad pity. It's a
sad pity for that sweet little maid."



CHAPTER IV

MICHAEL MAKES A GOOD BARGAIN

SOME weeks passed by, and Michael saw nothing more of little Margery.
He thought of her more than once, wondering how it was with her and
her little brother, now that their father was no more. Sometimes when
the sudden tinkling of the bell over the shop door warned him of the
approach of a customer, he would look up, half hoping that he might
see the wee figure in the green cloak and close-fitting velvet
bonnet. But Margery did not come, and if she had, she would not have
worn the green cloak. That had been exchanged for sombre black, which
gave a new and pathetic beauty to her sweet, round, pink and white
face.

More than a month had passed since the professor's death, when one
evening the servant who had accompanied little Margery when she came
to pay the fourpence entered the shop, and asked Michael if he could
call at No. 48, Gower Street, on the following morning, as her
mistress wished to see him. After a moment's reflection, Michael
replied that he would come, and added an inquiry as to the health of
the little lady who had accompanied her when she came before.

"Miss Margery is quite well, thank you," replied the maid, "and as
much of a chatterbox as ever. I never knew such a child for asking
you questions and saying queer things. There's no knowing how to
answer her."

"Did she grieve much for her father?" asked Michael.

"Well, yes, she cried a great deal. She was fond of her father, was
Miss Margery. And it upset her to see her mother crying. But she got
over it sooner than you would think. Children quickly forget their
troubles. If you could have seen her and her little brother playing
together on the day their father was buried, you'd have been
surprised. But, there, it wasn't to be expected they could miss their
father, for they saw so little of him. He was always shut up in his
study with his books. A regular bookworm he was. You couldn't call
him nothing else."

Michael made no reply; but he wondered whether, if he had been the
father of a sweet little girl like Margery, he would have been
content to live shut up with his books all day.

"Then I may tell Mrs. Lavers that you will come to-morrow morning at
ten o'clock?" said the maid as she turned to go.

Michael assented. He was not surprised that Mrs. Lavers should send
for him. It frequently happened that his attendance was requested at
houses where there had been a recent bereavement, necessitating
considerable changes. The professor's widow doubtless wished to
dispose of some or all of her husband's books.

Michael was not mistaken. On his arrival at the house he was at once
ushered into the late professor's library, and whilst he waited
there, he feasted his eyes on the contents of the ample bookshelves,
which were fully and richly stocked. He had time to form a good
estimate of the value of the books ere Mrs. Lavers came into the room.

The professor's widow was a delicate, graceful woman of about
thirty-five years of age. Her face was pale, and it had a very
careworn, sorrowful expression; but it still bore the traces of past
beauty, and the fair, rippling hair which showed beneath her widow's
cap, and her soft blue eyes, reminded Michael of little Margery. As
she addressed him, Michael knew instinctively that he had to deal
with a true lady in the highest sense of the term. And she, glancing
at him, was struck with his air of respectability, and believed that
she might trust in his integrity.

"I sent for you, Mr. Betts," she said, "because I am obliged to part
with my husband's books. I have to move into a very small house, into
which I cannot take them. And indeed for other reasons I feel it my
duty to sell them. I have been advised to show them to you; I have
been told that I may trust you to give me a fair price for them."

"I can give you as good a price for them as any one in the trade,
madam," replied Michael promptly. "Though I say it myself, it's true
that I understand the second-hand book market as well as any one can.
Do I understand that you wish to part with all the books in this
room?"

"Yes, all of them," said the lady, with a sigh; "I have taken away
such as I want to retain."

"Then with your permission, madam, I will make a brief inspection of
the shelves, after which I shall be able to tell you the sum I can
offer."

The lady made a sign of assent, and sank wearily into a large easy
chair which stood by the hearth. She watched him with a melancholy
expression on her face as he slowly directed his glance from shelf to
shelf, occasionally pausing to jot down certain titles in his
notebook.

Michael had already made up his mind as to the probable value of the
books; but he was not going to commit himself till he had made a
thorough survey of the shelves. When at last he had fully satisfied
himself as to the number and character of the books, he turned to the
lady and named the sum he was willing to give for them.

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Mrs. Lavers' delicate cheek flushed as she heard it. She looked at
him with troubled eyes. "No more than that!" she said. "It seems very
little. Why, my husband spent pounds and pounds every year upon
books."

"' I've no doubt he did, madam; but buying and selling are different
things. I know what I may expect to make by these books, and I assure
you it would not pay me to give more."

"No? Well, of course you know best." She looked disappointed and
anxious. "I must think more about it before I decide."

"Certainly, madam. You may like to consult other dealers, perhaps;
but I do not think any one in the trade will offer you more than I
do."

With that he bade her good day, and went back to his shop.

Apparently his words proved true, and Mrs. Lavers found no one
willing to give a larger price for the professor's books, for three
days later she sent him an intimation that she was willing to part
with them for the sum he had named. She requested that he would
remove them as quickly as possible, as she was about to quit the
house.

Michael Betts lost no time in sealing the bargain, from which he knew
he should reap good profit. He promptly waited on Mrs. Lavers and
handed her the sum he had agreed to give, and on the following
evening he began to remove the books, engaging for this purpose the
help of a man with a small hand-cart.

He did not see Mrs. Lavers ere he set about his task of dismantling
the bookshelves. Doubtless she felt it a cruel necessity which forced
her to dispose of her husband's books. It was little wonder if she
shrank from the pain of seeing them carried out of the house, and
therefore kept out of the way.

Michael had removed the books from several shelves, when he found
lying on the top of a row of books, as if thrust there by chance, the
copy of the "Pilgrim's Progress" which little Margery had purchased
of him with such pleasure. He took it up and looked at it in
surprise. He could not be mistaken in the book. He knew it by various
tokens. Moreover, a glance at the fly-leaf showed him that Margery
had written on it her own and her brother's name in a large, round,
childish hand.

"Margery and Noel Lavers—the book of them both," she had written,
that there might be no doubt as to the ownership of the volume.

Surely it was by accident that the book lay there! It could not be
intended that he should carry it away with the others. The children
could hardly have tired so soon of the book they had longed to
possess. Persuaded that it was a mistake, Michael laid the book
carefully aside in a safe place ere he went on with his task.

Presently he became aware of the sound of eager voices and noisy
little feet on the stairs, then suddenly the door of the room in
which he was working was flung back with a jerk, and little Margery
ran in, followed by a little boy with dark, curly hair and dark eyes,
who, however, started back on seeing a stranger, and sped away as
quickly as he had come.

Margery looked astonished at finding the room occupied and books
lying about in piles on the floor. She stood still for some moments,
too surprised to utter a word. She wore a black frock, and black
shoes and stockings covered her dainty feet and ankles; but a large
white pinafore hid most of the frock, and over it her golden curls
fell in rich profusion.

"Why, you're Mr. Betts, in whose shop I bought our 'Pilgrim's
Progress,' she said at last. What are you doing here in my father's
library?"

"I'm looking over the books, my dear," replied Michael; after a
moment's hesitation. "Was that your little brother I saw just now?"

"Yes, that's Noel; but he always runs away when he sees anybody. It's
riddiklus to be so shy. We were coming to look for a sermon book,
because we are going to play at church, and I must have a book to
read out of for the sermon—something with plenty of long, hard
words. It doesn't matter if I don't say them properly, you know, for
there's only Noel there."

"I see. So you play at going to church. That's a strange game."

"It's a very nice game," said Margery with eagerness. "I'm the
clergyman, and Noel's the congregation. Sometimes Noel wants to
preach; but he can't preach well. He means to preach when he is a
man, though. He says he shall drive an omnibus all the week and
preach on Sundays."

"Dear me!" said Michael, smiling, "that will be an unusual kind of
life. But look here, little missy, see what I've found! Your
'Pilgrim's Progress!' You don't want to lose that, do you?"

"Oh, where did you find it?" exclaimed the child. "Noel and I have
wanted it for days, and nurse said she did not know where it was."

"It was here on this shelf," said Michael, as he gave it to her.

"Oh, who could have put it there?" said little Margery, taking the
book and beginning to turn over its pages. "Do you know, I like the
pictures even better than I thought I should. See, here is Giant
Despair. Doesn't he look horrid! But this is the picture I like
best—'The Pilgrims Passing the River.' Mother says that father has
crossed the river and gone to be with Jesus in the beautiful city.
But I wish-oh, I do wish that he could have stayed here with us!"

The child's voice had suddenly grown mournful, and tears were dimming
the blue eyes. A strange feeling came over Michael Betts—a curious,
choking sensation which he could not understand. He longed to say
something to comfort the child; but what could he say?

"Mother says we must all cross the river some day," continued little
Margery, after a moment's silence. "We don't know when it will be. I
should think you would cross soon, Mr. Betts, for you are so very
old. You are older than my father was, aren't you?"

"I don't know, I am sure, miss," said Michael, turning hastily to the
shelves and beginning to lift down the books without much heeding
what he was doing.

"What are you going to do with those books, Mr. Betts?" demanded the
child.

"I am going to take them away, missy. You see, your poor father won't
want them any more, and they'd only be a trouble to your mother,
especially as she is leaving this house, so I am going to take them
to my shop."

Margery looked at him for a few moments in a troubled, bewildered
way. Then big tears gathered again in her eyes.

"Oh, I can't bear it!" she cried suddenly. "Father is gone, and now
his books are going, and everything will be different. I cannot bear
it."

And then, to Michael's consternation, she threw herself face
downwards on the rug and sobbed aloud with a child's passionate
vehemence. He was in utter dismay, not knowing in the least what to
say or do. It seemed to him quite a long time that he stood there,
helpless and embarrassed; but in truth only a few minutes passed ere
the door opened and a woman wearing a white cap and apron came
quickly into the room.

"Come, come, Miss Margery, this won't do," she said, not unkindly,
though in a tone of remonstrance, as she bent over the weeping child.
"You mustn't give way like this. Come, come now."

And taking the child in her arms, she carried her from the room.

There were tears in Michael's eyes as he turned back to the
bookshelves. The hands which tried to lift the books shook strangely.
He hated his task now. He was thankful when he had got through with
it, and the last load was conveyed to his shop.

He could not forget the child. He sat up late that night, still
busied with the books, for it was not easy to find room for them all
in the limited space which his premises afforded. Margery's words
kept ringing in his ears—"I should think you would cross soon, Mr.
Betts, for you are so very old. You are older than my father was,
aren't you?"

The child was right, though how she knew he could not imagine.
Michael had seen the professor's age recorded in the newspaper—he
was fifty-one, whereas Michael was fifty-nine. But what of that?

No one but a child would think him old. Many men lived to be eighty,
and some even to ninety. And he was so well and strong. No, he need
not think yet of that dark, chill river of death, the very thought of
which made him shiver. But he reflected, and the thought caused him
to breathe more than one heavy sigh, that when his time came to pass
that river there would be no one to go with him to the brink, no
loving voice to bid him farewell, no child to mourn for him as little
Margery mourned for her father. There had been no time in his
hard-working, self-centred, business absorbed life to cultivate love;
but Michael Betts was beginning to feel that its absence made a sore
and woeful lack in his life.



CHAPTER V

UNRIGHTEOUS GAIN

ON the following day, Michael was still busy with the late
professor's books. As he examined them more fully, he was disposed to
congratulate himself on the bargain he had made. There were several
valuable old books in the lot, and others which, if less aged, were
much in request. Michael foresaw that he would make money by them. It
was true his returns would come in slowly; but nevertheless, he must
in time gain a handsome profit on the sum he had expended.

As he reflected on this, Michael's spirits rose. He forgot the gloomy
thoughts which had troubled him on the previous evening. He ceased to
think with pity of little Margery and her mother. After all, theirs
was the common lot. Men must die, and women must weep. It was an ill
wind which blew nobody any good, and their wind of trouble had
brought him a good investment. Nothing pleased Michael more than a
prospect of making money. He loved to think that he was accumulating
capital.

He cherished the hope that he should die a rich man, though he had no
one to whom he could leave his savings when death called him hence.
He had never made a will. It seemed so unnecessary to trouble about
that yet. Some day he would make one, of course. He had no intention
of dying intestate and letting the Crown seize his hardly earned
money. No, he thought he would leave his property to charities. He
had a vague idea that in this way he might make amends for an
uncharitable life. But it was rarely that he gave the matter a
serious thought. Why should he, when death seemed so remote?

Michael began to realize money from the professor's books sooner than
he could have anticipated. Only a few days later a gentleman came to
the shop and asked for a copy of an old but still valuable
encyclopædia. Michael remembered that there was one amongst his
newly-acquired stock of books. He looked for the work, and soon
brought forward the two strongly-bound, bulky volumes which formed
it. He was half afraid that his customer would be frightened at the
somewhat high price he felt obliged to ask for them. But the
gentleman made no demur. He seemed so pleased to obtain them, indeed,
that Michael half wished he had asked more.

"I'll take them with me, if you will just put a piece of paper round
them," the gentleman said. "But, stay what is this?"

He had been turning over the pages of one volume when he came upon an
envelope which seemed as if it had been slipped between the leaves to
mark a place.

"That, sir? Oh, I don't suppose it's anything of consequence," said
Michael, as he took it. As he turned it over in his hand, he
perceived, to his astonishment, what appeared to be bank-notes within
the envelope. With his instinctive caution, however, he said nothing,
but thrust the envelope quickly out of sight. The gentleman concluded
that he had found its contents to be trivial, and said nothing more
about it; and as he waited whilst Michael did up the parcel, he gave
not another thought to the matter.

But as soon as his customer had quitted the shop, Michael turned
eagerly to the envelope. What was his amazement when he drew from it
five Bank of England notes for ten pounds each! He could hardly
believe his eyes. He looked at them carefully, holding each note up
to the light. There could be no doubt that they were genuine. Fifty
pounds! What a treasure to light upon!

But how did the notes come to be within the old book? Who had put
them there? Had they belonged to Professor Lavers?

In the first surprise of his discovery, Michael had not a doubt as to
the ownership of the money. His first impulse was to return them to
Mrs. Lavers forthwith. She certainly had the first right to anything
found within the books that he had purchased of her. The thing to be
done was clear enough to Michael in the earliest moments which
followed his great surprise.

But later, as he looked at the notes and shook them in his hand, and
thought of all that might be done with them, various doubts and
possibilities presented themselves to his mind. Who could say that
the professor had put the notes where he found them? The notes were
not fresh and crisp; they were soiled, and one was a little torn.
They might have lain for years within the thick volume. They might
have been there when Professor Lavers bought the encyclopædia.
Michael knew that he bought many of his books second-hand. Besides,
if he had left the notes there, they would have been missed, and
questions asked and search made. Evidently no one had missed the
money.

Why, then, Michael asked himself, need he proclaim what he had found?
If a man found a sum of money, he had a right to keep it till some
one claimed it, and could prove that it was his. If Mrs. Lavers came
and told him that she had lost this money, he would restore it to her
at once. But till then he had a perfect right to retain it. At any
rate, he would do nothing hastily. He would wait and see what
happened. So Michael locked the notes within his desk and tried to go
on with his work as usual. But this was not easy. He could not forget
that the notes were there, though he tried hard to do so. Nor, in
spite of the many excellent arguments by which he strove to persuade
himself that he was acting rightly, could he get the better of an
uneasy sense that he was swerving from the path of rectitude.

A week passed by, and the roll of notes remained within Michael's
desk. He was still trying to persuade himself that he was justified
in retaining them, and he still found that the voice of conscience
would not endorse his arguments. There were moments when that voice
would say to him that his action in keeping money that was not his
was little better than stealing.

One evening Michael Betts, goaded by these irritating suggestions,
started to walk up Gower Street, with the half-formed intention of
calling at Mrs. Lavers' house and asking to see her, that he might
tell her what he had found in the old encyclopædia. The struggle
within him was still so strong, the love of gain contending so
fiercely with the love of integrity, that it is probable he would in
any case have turned back when he reached Mrs. Lavers' house. But
when he came to the door he found the steps littered with straw and
paper; there was no light in the windows, and when he lifted the
knocker, its fall resounded hollowly through the now empty house.
Mrs. Lavers and her children had gone away, and the house was no
longer a home.

Michael's feeling was one of relief.

"Now there's an end to the matter," he said to himself. "She's gone
away, I don't know where, and it's not in my power to tell her. It's
clear she knows nothing about the money, and she does not want it. I
have therefore a perfect right to keep it."

And hugging this thought to his heart, and congratulating himself on
the lucky thing he had done when he purchased the professor's
library, Michael turned homewards.

As he approached his shop, he saw a girl standing beneath the
lamp-post at the corner. She was a girl about fifteen years of age,
with bright eyes showing beneath the thick black fringe which covered
her forehead. Her cheeks were flushed by the cold wind, which,
however, she did not seem to mind as she stood there. A large white
apron covered her dark gown; she wore a violet woollen shawl crossed
over her chest, and a hat with many feathers was on her head. She
turned and looked curiously at Michael as he passed her, eyeing him
so intently that he was conscious of her scrutiny, and resented it.
As he was opening the door of his shop, she came to the head of the
steps and called out in loud, clear tones:

"I say, are you Michael Betts?"

"That is my name, certainly," replied Michael, with dignity, "but I
cannot see what business that is of yours."

"Maybe not. And yet, p'raps it is my business. Maybe I know more of
you than you think for, Michael Betts."

"Then you know I'm a respectable man, and have nothing to say to a
girl like you," returned Michael angrily.

"Respectable, indeed!" cried the girl hotly. "I don't know about your
being so mighty respectable, but I'd have you know, other folks can
be respectable besides yourself. You might practise a little civility
along with your respectability."

Michael closed his door sharply, cutting short this tirade. The girl
made an angry, defiant gesture in his direction, and then ran off.

"The hussy!" said Michael to himself. "How did she get my name so
pat, I wonder? I hope none of the neighbours heard her calling it
out. Anyhow, they all know me for a respectable man."

Suddenly with the thought his face flushed, and a pang of shame smote
him. Was he indeed a respectable man? Would they respect him if they
knew how he had kept the notes? Could he say that in that instance he
had acted perfectly on the square? Alas! His conscience convicted
him. He was no longer satisfied of his own probity. He had given his
self-respect in exchange for those fifty pounds.



CHAPTER VI

AN UNWELCOME ENCOUNTER

MICHAEL paid the fifty pounds into his bank, and had the satisfaction
of seeing them entered in his pass-book. He was so much richer than
he had expected to be, yet somehow he did not feel richer, but
poorer. He had rather the feeling of one who had suffered loss. There
was a stain upon his conscience, and a weight upon his mind; yet,
with the strange perversity of human nature, he would not own this to
himself. He still professed to believe himself justified in keeping
the money he had found. He clung to it, and liked to think how it had
swelled his balance at the bank, even whilst he knew that he should
be filled with shame, if any one should ever learn how he had come by
that money.

In Michael's lonely life there was no one save Mrs. Wiggins, the
charwoman, to observe how he lived, and mark the variations in his
moods. She began at this time to observe a change in the bookseller.
He had never been what she would call a "pleasant-speaking"
gentleman. She had always found him short of speech, irritable, and
disposed to snub her whenever she attempted to inform him as to the
gossip of the neighbourhood; but now he was positively surly in his
manner towards her, and so quick of temper that it was almost more
than she could "put up" with.

One morning, she thought she was giving him intelligence in which he
could not fail to be interested, when she said:

"I've 'eard where that lady, the professor's widow, as you bought so
many books of, 'as gone to live."

Her words startled Michael, and he turned his eyes on her without
speaking. She took his silence as an encouragement to proceed.

"She's gone to live in Clarendon Gardens. That's not a very nice
place, is it? And even there, she 'as only part of a 'ouse. It seems
she's quite poor now she's lost 'er 'usband. She's sent away 'er
servants, and keeps only a bit of a girl now. She washes and dresses
the children 'erself, and does most of the cooking—and she such a
lady, too! It's 'ard, ain't it? I 'eard it all from my cousin, who
works for 'er landlady."

"I wish to goodness your cousin would mind her own business, or that
you would keep her gossip to yourself!" exclaimed Michael angrily.
"How can I help it, if Mrs. Lavers is poor and has to do without
servants? I've done what I can for her in buying her books. What more
can I do?"

"Oh, lor me! Nobody would expect you to do anything for her,"
exclaimed Mrs. Wiggins, with unconscious satire. "I just thought you
might like to know about the poor lady. You need not turn so fiercely
on me, Mr. Betts, for giving you a piece of news."

"Keep your news till it's wanted, and mind your own business,"
responded Michael crossly.

Mrs. Wiggins took up her dust-pan and brush, and retreated with much
clatter into the back premises, muttering words which were not
complimentary to her employer.

"Do, indeed! I'd like to see 'im ever do anything for anybody besides
'isself, the close-fisted old curmudgeon. I'd be sorry for a mouse
that had to live on 'is leavings. The idea of 'is turning on me like
that, as if a body couldn't speak about nothin'."

It was impossible for Mrs. Wiggins to understand how her words had
for Michael the force of an accusation. She did not know of the
secret consciousness which they awakened.

"So, then, it was a poor woman whom he had defrauded," said the voice
of Michael's conscience.

"Defrauded! What an absurd idea!" the voice of his other self
responded. "There was no fraud in the matter; the money had never
been Mrs. Lavers'. A man had a right to keep what he found, unless he
knew it to belong to some one else."

But reason as he might with himself, the information imparted by Mrs.
Wiggins had disturbed Michael's mind.

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An incident which occurred a few days later further destroyed its
peace.

Business had taken Michael to the south side of the river, and he was
returning late in the evening across one of the bridges on his way
back to Bloomsbury, when his attention was arrested by the appearance
of a man who stood leaning against one of the parapets and coughing
violently. Michael started, and a thrill ran through him. He had so
long thought of his brother as dead, that the sight of this man, who
bore so striking a resemblance to him, affected him almost with
terror, as though he conceived him to be a ghost.

To be sure, he had grey hair, and Frank's had been brown when Michael
last saw him, and his form was pitifully bent and wasted; but still
the resemblance was there, and so strong that Michael involuntarily
stood still as he saw him, whilst his heart began to beat more
painfully than was pleasant. The same instant the man ceased
coughing; he lifted his head and saw by the light of the gas-lamp on
the parapet above him the man who stood at his side. A low cry of
wonder—and was it of pleasure?—escaped him. He moved a step
nearer, exclaiming eagerly:

"Michael! Michael!"

"You don't mean to say it is you?" exclaimed the other, in tones
which expressed no pleasure at the meeting. "You, Frank, after all
these years! I thought you were dead."

"And perhaps hoped that I were," returned the other, retreating a
step or two, whilst an air of hopelessness came over him again.
"Well, it's no wonder. I'm not a brother you can be proud of."

Michael looked at him for a moment ere he made reply. The man
appeared thin, and cold, and ill; but his was not one of the most
abject-looking of the forms to be seen abroad in London. His clothes,
though worn and threadbare, were decently tidy.

"You've only yourself to thank for being what you are," Michael said.
"Drink and gambling and bad company bring a man to this."

"I've given up the drink, and gambling too, thank God!" said his
brother. "I've been a teetotaler for more than a year, Michael."

"I'm glad to hear it," replied Michael, his tone implying that he
doubted the statement. "But if that is so, how do you come to be in
such low water? How do you live?"

"I can scarcely tell you how I live," returned the other. "I
shouldn't live at all, if it were not for my little girl."

"Your little girl!" exclaimed Michael. "You don't mean to say that
you've been so foolish as to marry?"

"I married many years ago, and I had one of the best of wives,
though, God forgive me! I was often a brute to her. It was foolish of
her to take me, no doubt, but I could never regret it. Whilst she
lived, things were better with me; but when she died I went all wrong
again. And now, when I fain would live a different life, I can't find
any one willing to give me a chance."

"You could surely get work, if you exerted yourself."

"Could I? You don't know how hard it is to get work in London. And
who would employ a man like me, when there are plenty of big, strong
fellows to be hired? I haven't the strength to lift or carry. I'm
good for very little now. I was in the Infirmary for three months.
They patched me up a bit there, but I'm not much the better. If it
were not for my little girl, I shouldn't be living now. She works at
the match-making, and she keeps me more often than I keep her, bless
her!"

A feeling of cold disgust was creeping over Michael Betts. There was
no room for pity in his heart. He was conscious only of intense
annoyance that such a being as this should be his brother.

"I'm sorry for you," he said loftily, "but it's your own fault. You
made your bed, and you must lie upon it. I did what I could for you
years ago, and ill you repaid me for what I did. Now I must wipe my
hands of you. But here is a shilling for you."

He held out the coin as he spoke, but the chilled fingers of the
other made no attempt to take it. The shilling fell from them to the
pavement, and the ill-clad man did not pick it up.

"I don't want your money, Michael," he said hoarsely. "I could not
help speaking to you when I saw you by my side; but don't think that
I should ever have sought you out or asked you to do anything for me
again. I know too well that I deserve nothing from you."

"That is well," said Michael coldly. "I must confess that had you
come, you would not have found a welcome from me, since the last time
you were at my place, you left me with good cause to regret your
visit."

He turned on his heel without giving another glance at his unhappy
brother.

"Michael, Michael," the weak voice called after him.

But Michael strode on and paid no heed. He did not slacken speed till
he was the length of several streets from the river. Then he paused
and drew a deep breath as he wiped the heat from his forehead.

"To think that he should turn up again!" he said to himself. "And I
thought he was dead! But no, here he is again, and in the same
deplorable plight. A pretty sort of a brother!"

And Michael knew that in his heart, he wished that his brother were
dead.

"Of course, it's the same old story," he continued. "He's a sorry
scamp, and always will be. It's all gammon about his becoming a
teetotaler and trying to lead a better life. I don't believe a word
of it. No, that won't go down with me. I only hope he'll keep away
from me, as he says!"

Thinking thus, Michael arrived at his shop. It could hardly be called
his home. He drew out his key, unlocked the door, and went in. He
struck a match and kindled a lamp which he had placed just inside the
door. Seen by its dim light the shop looked gloomy indeed. He passed
through to the little room at the back. This, too, was littered with
books. The fire had fallen out, and the place looked unhomelike and
cheerless. Michael shivered. He became conscious of weariness and
depression. He placed the lamp on the table and looked about for some
means of rekindling the fire. The flame flickered feebly. Mrs.
Wiggins had forgotten to replenish the oil.

As he looked about him in the dim light, Michael's eyes fell on the
old leathern armchair which stood beside the fireplace. He had known
that ancient piece of furniture as long as he had known anything. His
mother, as her health grew feeble, had sat in it constantly, and now,
as Michael glanced at it in the uncertain light, it suddenly appeared
to him that he saw her form seated again in the old armchair. Most
vividly, he seemed to see her sitting there with her white muslin cap
resting on the dark hair which had been untouched by silver when she
died, her little grey shawl upon her shoulders, and her hands busied
with the socks she was perpetually knitting for her sons. Only an
instant, it was ere the lamp flame leaped up, and he knew that he had
been deceived by his fancy, but that instant left its impression. He
sank on to a chair, shaken in body and mind.

How his mother would have grieved if she could have foreseen what
Frank's future would be! Her darling son, a poverty-stricken tramp
wandering about in search of a job! And he, Michael, had promised her
that he would always be good to Frank. Had he kept that promise? Was
he keeping it when he turned away from his brother on the bridge,
telling him that he had made his bed and he must lie on it?

Michael sat for some minutes absorbed in painful thought. Then,
resolutely turning his back on the old armchair which had awakened
such unwelcome reflections, he began to pace to and fro the floor,
for his limbs had grown benumbed by the chill of that fireless room.

"No," he said, half aloud, "I have not failed in my duty towards my
brother. I have done all that could be expected of me. No one would
do more. I've helped him again and again, only to be repaid by the
basest ingratitude. Now, I will do no more."



CHAPTER VII

IN THE GRIP OF PAIN

MICHAEL went to bed that night feeling thoroughly chilled in body and
miserable in mind. Sleep would not come to him, nor could he get
warm, though he put all the wraps he could find upon his bed. As he
turned and tossed upon the mattress throughout the night, unable to
find ease, the form of his brother as he had seen him on the bridge
was ever before his eyes. What a wretched thing Frank had made of his
life! It was all his own fault, for he had had a good chance when he
was young. And then to think of his marrying, when he had not enough
to keep himself! What improvidence!

Michael wondered what the little girl was like of whom his brother
had spoken. With the thought, the image of the professor's
sunny-faced, winsome little daughter rose before his mind. But it was
not likely that his niece was at all like her. A girl who worked at
match-making! Well, it was hard on a respectable, hard-working man to
have relatives of such a description. Michael wished that he had
taken another way home than the way that had led him across that
bridge. He had been so much more comfortable under the persuasion
that his brother was dead.

When Michael woke from the brief sleep that visited him towards dawn,
it was past the hour at which he usually rose. But when he would fain
have bestirred himself in haste, he found it impossible to do so. His
back and limbs seemed to have grown strangely stiff, and when he
tried to move, an agonising pain shot through them. He struggled
against the unwelcome sensations, and did his best to persuade
himself that he was suffering only from a passing cramp. But the pain
was terrible. He felt as if he were held in a vice. How to get up he
did not know; but he must manage to do so somehow. It was necessary
that he should get downstairs to open the door for Mrs. Wiggins.
Setting his teeth together and often groaning aloud with the pain, he
managed at last to drag himself out of bed and to get on his clothes.
It was hard work getting downstairs. He felt faint and sick with
pain, when at length he reached the lower regions. It was impossible
to stoop to kindle a fire. He sank into the old armchair and sat
there bolt upright, afraid to move an inch, for fear of exciting
fresh pain, till he heard Mrs. Wiggins' knock. Then he compelled
himself to rise, and painfully dragged himself forth to the shop
door, where he presented to the eyes of the charwoman such a
spectacle of pain and helplessness as moved her to the utmost
compassion of which she was capable.

"Dear me! Mr. Betts, you do look bad. It's the rheumatics, that's
what it is. I've 'ad 'em myself. Is it your back that's so very bad?
Then it's lumbago, and you'd better let me iron it."

"I'll let you do nothing of the kind!" cried the old man angrily. "Do
for pity's sake keep away from me; I can't bear a touch or a jar.
Make haste and light me a fire, and get me a cup of tea. That's all I
want."

"You ought to be in bed, that's where you ought to be," said Mrs.
Wiggins. "Just let me help you upstairs, now do, and then I'll bring
you a cup of tea, all hot and nice."

"How can I go to bed?" he asked impatiently. "Who is to look after
the shop if I go to bed?"

"Oh dear! That's a bad look out. Have you no one to whom you could
send to come and take your place? Have you no brother now who would
come to you?"

"Of course I have not!" he cried, annoyance betraying him into a
quick movement, which was followed by a groan of pain. "I do wish you
would attend to your business, and not ask me stupid questions."

"Stupid or not, you're not fit to stand in that shop to-day. Why, you
couldn't lift a book without wincing. Ah me! It's bad enough to be
lonesome when you're well, but it's sad indeed when you're ill to
have no one to do a thing for you."

"Do be quiet," he cried; but Mrs. Wiggins, excited by the sight of
his suffering, was not disposed to hold her tongue till she had fully
relieved her mind. She began to suggest one patent remedy after
another, and showed a remarkable acquaintance with all the quack
medicines of the day. But Michael refused to try any of them. He had
hardly ever been ill in his life, and he did not in the least know
what to do with himself, or how to bear his pain.

It grew worse as the day wore on, and though Mrs. Wiggins made him a
good fire, and he sat over it, he could not get warm. It was hopeless
to think of attending to business. He was obliged to give in at last,
and allow the shop door to be closed, whilst he was ignominiously
helped up to bed by Mrs. Wiggins.

"Now you'd better let me send for a doctor," she said.

"No, indeed," he replied with energy. "I want no doctor yet. You
don't suppose I can afford to send for a doctor every time I have an
ache or pain?"

"Maybe not," she said, "but it seems to me you're pretty bad now."

"Folks don't die of rheumatics," he said.

"Oh, don't they?" she returned. "I've known a many cases in which
they 'ave. Rheumatics is no joke. They're apt to seize on the 'eart,
don't you know?"

And with this comforting reflection she left him.

As Michael lay there in pain and misery, he was reminded of a
childish voice, which had said:

"I should think you would cross soon, Mr. Betts, for you are so very
old."

Could it be that he was drawing near to the hour when he would have
to cross that river of death?

The pain grew worse. From shivering, he passed into burning fever.
Mrs. Wiggins felt very uneasy when the time came for her to go home.

"I don't like to leave you, Mr. Betts, I don't indeed," she said. "I
can't think it's right for you to be all alone in this house. If you
was to be took worse—"

"I shall not be worse," he said hoarsely; "the pain can't be worse
than it is now, and it would not make it any better to have some one
else in the house."

"But I wish you'd let me stay with you," she suggested. "Just let me
go and tell my 'usband, and come back directly."

"No, no, no," he said, for he was weary of her attentions. "Take the
house key with you, and lock the door on the outside, and come as
early as you can in the morning. But first bring a big jug of cold
water, and set it here beside the bed. I'm so thirsty, I could drink
the sea dry, I believe."

"Ah, you've got fever, that's what you've got," replied Mrs. Wiggins.
"Well, I suppose you must have your way."

So she did what he told her, and then went home.

But she was so impressed with the fact of his being very ill that she
bestirred herself unusually early the next morning, and was at Mr.
Betts' shop quite an hour before the time at which she generally
appeared. She unlocked the door and let herself into the shop.
Already the place seemed to have a deserted look. The dust lay thick
on the books. Mrs. Wiggins went quickly up the steep staircase and
knocked at the door of the attic, which was Michael's bedroom. She
knocked, but there was no response to her knock. She knocked again
more loudly, but Mr. Betts did not bid her enter, only she could hear
his voice talking in strange, far-off tones. After a little
hesitation she turned the handle and entered the room. Michael Betts
lay on the bed, his face flushed with fever, his brows contracted
with pain, his eyes wild and dilated. He was talking rapidly and
incoherently.

"Well, Mr. Betts," she said, as she approached the bed, "and 'ow do
you find yourself this mornin'?"

But he paid no heed to her words. They fell on unconscious cars. He
went on talking rapidly; but she could not understand what he was
saying. As she bent nearer, she could catch a few words now and then;
but there seemed no connection in them.

"The river—it's cold and deep—there's a little girl on the other
side—Oh, the pain—the awful, burning pain!—Oh, water—give me
water—there's water in the river—I don't care if he is my
brother. Give me water—water, I say. What are you telling me about
the money?—It's mine—I have a perfect right to it. Oh, this pain!
The water—the river."

"Lor' bless me! He's right off 'is 'ead," said Mrs. Wiggins; "'e's in
a raging fever. It's no good speakin' to 'im. I must just fetch a
doctor, whether 'e likes it or not."

A little later, a doctor stood beside Michael's bed. He pronounced it
a severe case of rheumatic fever, made some inquiries respecting the
circumstances of his patient, prescribed for him and departed, saying
that he would send a nurse to look after him, since he needed good
nursing more than medicine. The doctor showed his wisdom in so
acting, for had Michael been left to the tender mercies of Mrs.
Wiggins, well-meaning though they were, he would probably never have
risen from his bed. As it was, he had a hard struggle ere the force
of life within him overcame the power of disease. He was very ill,
and at one time, the medical man had but faint hope of his recovery.

He was confined to his bed for weeks, and the little book-shop
remained closed the while, for Michael was far too ill to give any
directions as to what should be done about the business. After the
fever left him, he was as weak as a baby: too weak to care about
anything, so weak that every effort was painful, and he felt as if he
had not the heart to struggle back to life again. Yet he shrank from
the thought of death, and one of the first questions he asked his
nurse, when he was able to think and speak connectedly, was if she
thought he would recover.

"Yes," she said cheerfully, "you've turned the corner now. All you
need is feeding up. Every day will see a change for the better now,
if you're good and do as I tell you."

"I'll try," said Michael, quite meekly. "You've been very good to me,
nurse."

"I should be a poor kind of nurse, if I hadn't been good to you," she
replied. "It's my business to look after people when they're ill, and
I have to take the greatest possible care of them, or things would go
seriously wrong."

"I never had any one do as much for me as you've done," said Betts;
"not since I lost my mother, I mean."

"Then you never had a wife?"

"No. I've never had time to think about getting one."

The nurse laughed.

"You're a strange man," she said; "but now eat some of this jelly."

"It is good," said Michael; "really I don't know as I ever tasted
anything better."

"It's real, strong calf's-foot jelly, and it was made by a lady on
purpose for you."

"That can't be," said Michael, looking at her in surprise; "there's
no lady would make jelly for me. You must be making a mistake."

"Indeed I am not. You have more friends than you think. She came here
and gave it into my very hands, so I must know. She said she'd heard
from the doctor that you were ill, and she felt sorry for your being
all alone. She said she'd done business with you, and when she saw
the shop shut up, she asked about you."

"Well, I never!" said Michael. "I can't imagine who it could be."

"She said her name was Lavers."

"What?" exclaimed Michael in amazement. "What name did you say?"

"Lavers—Mrs. Lavers."

Michael gave a groan.

"What is the matter?" asked the nurse, turning to look at him; "have
you the pain again?"

"No," he muttered, "not that sort of pain; but I wish she had not
done it."

"Why, you ungrateful man!" exclaimed the nurse.

Michael made no reply. A hot flush of shame was dyeing his cheeks,
and mounting to his forehead. The nurse observed it with some
anxiety. She took his hand to feel his pulse. Was the fever about to
return?



CHAPTER VIII

THE BURDEN MAKES ITSELF FELT

"MR. BETTS," said the nurse, three days later, as she came into the
room, "that lady is downstairs, and she wants to know if you would
like to see her."

"What lady?" asked Michael, though he thought he knew.

"The lady who made you the jelly—Mrs. Lavers, of course."

"Oh no," said Michael, shrinking down and drawing the bedclothes
closer about him, as if he would fain hide himself; "I don't want to
see her. I can't have her coming here. Tell her so, please."

"Don't you think that seems rather ungrateful, when she has been so
kind to you?" asked the nurse. "Shall I say that you do not feel
strong enough to see her to-day, but you hope to do so in a day or
two?"

"No, no, no!" cried Michael vehemently. "Say nothing of the kind. I
can't see her, I tell you. I can't and I won't, so there!"

"You're a strange man," said the nurse; and she went away, perhaps to
repeat the same remark below stairs.

When she came back into the room a little later, Michael's eyes were
fixed on her anxiously.

"Has she gone?" he asked.

"Yes, she has gone."

"What did she say?"

"Oh, she was sorry you would not see her, and she asked me to give
you this." And the nurse held out to him a little bunch of sweet
violets.

But Michael recoiled as if she were offering him something
disagreeable.

"I wish she hadn't," he said.

"Well, you are ungrateful," said the nurse. "Catch me ever giving you
flowers! And why you couldn't have let her come up to see you, I
can't think. She would have read a chapter of the Bible to you,
perhaps, and that would have done you good."

"I can read one to myself," said Michael.

"You're hardly strong enough for that yet. Have you a Bible?"

"Of course I've got a Bible," replied Michael indignantly. "What do
you take me for? There is one somewhere that belonged to my mother,
and there are plenty of them in the shop. Pretty old some of them
are, too. The older they are, the more precious they are, you know."

"The Bible is precious anyhow," said the nurse. "It is a grand
comfort, especially when one is weak and low. But you're thinking
only of the binding, and the paper, and the print, Mr. Betts."

"Of course I am," he said; "it's my business to think of them."

"And does it not concern you to think of what is written in the
Bible?"

"Oh, I know all about that. I was taught the Bible when I was young.
I used to go to Sunday School. You need not look at me, nurse, as if
you thought me a great sinner. I've always lived honest and
respectable. I've never—"

The words that Michael had been about to utter stuck in his throat.
It was no longer possible for him to declare that he had never done
wrong.

"Well, I know that I am a sinner," said the nurse, "and I'm glad I
know it, since it was not the righteous, but sinners, whom Jesus came
to save. And I can't help thinking that perhaps the worst sin of all
is not to be conscious of sin."

"I don't know what you mean," said Michael; "I can't profess to be a
worse man than I am. I've always tried to do my duty. And I've been
good to other people, though they've only repaid me with ingratitude."

"Ah, it's hard to meet with ingratitude," said the nurse; "it does
make you feel as if you would never do anything for people again. But
then we forget how often we ourselves are ungrateful to God. Now
don't you go and be ungrateful, Mr. Betts."

"Why should you say that?" he asked.

"Oh, I was only thinking how good God has been in restoring you to
health."

"Was I so very bad?" asked Michael.

"Indeed you were ill. There was one day when I almost gave you up.
But that seems long ago now, and you are making a good recovery.
You'll soon be as well as ever."

Michael looked grave. He doubted the nurse's last statement. He felt
that his illness had made an old man of him. Most people had thought
him one before. Michael heaved a deep sigh, and was silent. He lay
still for some time, his contracted brow showing that he was thinking
deeply, and when at last he spoke, his words puzzled the nurse, since
she had not been able to follow his train of thought.

"Was she smartly dressed?" he asked.

"She? Who? Of whom are you speaking, Mr. Betts?"

"The lady who brought those flowers," he said.

"Why, no; she's in widow's mourning, poor thing."

"Ah, to be sure, I forgot," he murmured.

"I don't fancy she would have been smart in any case," continued the
nurse. "I don't think she has much to be smart with. I noticed that
her gloves were shabby. And the little girl's frock was the worse for
wear."

"Ah, then the little girl was there," said Michael, with some
eagerness.

"Yes, indeed, and she's the sweetest little mite that ever I saw, and
with such a quick tongue. She asked me ever so many questions about
you, Mr. Betts. She wanted to know how old you were, and whether your
hair had turned white in your illness, and if you were able to read
in bed. I think she would have liked to come and see you. Oh, and I
was to be sure to tell you that if you would like her 'Pilgrim's
Progress' to read whilst you were ill she would lend it to you."

"Bless her!" murmured old Michael.

He felt it would be delightful to see her come into his room. How her
fair face and sunny locks would light up the old gloomy attic! Her
pretty tones would be like music in his ears. But then he remembered
that he had wronged her too. He could not look on her without feeling
that he had injured her. It would hurt him to receive kindness from
her. The wrong that he had done had raised a barrier between them.
How he wished that he had taken the notes to Mrs. Lavers at once! It
would have been so much easier to explain then. The thought of that
past action was beginning to weigh on his mind like a load.

As he felt it thus, there was suddenly recalled to his mind the
picture in the "Pilgrim's Progress" to which little Margery had drawn
his attention—the picture of the man with the heavy burden on his
back. He could hear the childish voice saying:

"Oh, weren't you glad, Mr. Betts, when his burden fell off? Have you
lost your burden, Mr. Betts?"

Well, if he had not known then, he knew now that he had a burden to
carry. With the thought he gave such a groan, that the nurse came in
haste to see what was the matter with him.

"Can't you rest comfortably?" she asked.

"No, I can't," he answered; "I'm very uneasy—very uneasy indeed."

The next day Michael was permitted to sit up for a little while. He
scarcely appreciated the privilege, for when he moved from the bed,
he realized how very, very weak he was, and felt so good-for-nothing
that he was thankful when he was allowed to lie down again. But the
following day he felt stronger, and was able to sit up a little
longer, and he continued to make progress till the day came when he
was able to go downstairs.

One day, Michael asked his nurse to go downstairs and fetch him a
Bible. She would have no difficulty in finding one in the shop, he
said, if she looked on a certain shelf to which he directed her. And
then Michael sighed as he thought of the shop. What would become of
his business with the shop shut up for so long? His rival in the
Tottenham Court Road was probably flourishing at his expense, and
drawing away some of his best customers. What a thing it was to be
all alone, with no one to depend on in time of need!

When his nurse brought him the Bible, Michael opened it and sat for
some time studying its pages. It was years since he had read the
Bible, and though he professed to "know all about it," the old,
almost forgotten words impressed him now with strange freshness and
vividness. But though he read passage after passage, what he read
gave him little comfort. The Book seemed to speak only to condemn
him. "He that loveth not his brother whom he has seen: how can he
love God whom he hath not seen?" Here were words that set him
thinking.

Michael knew that he did not love his poor outcast brother. No, he
had wished him dead. Nor did he love God. No, his heart was so cold
and dead he hardly knew what love meant.

Michael never forgot the evening when he first came downstairs, and
had his tea served to him in the little back sitting-room. It was a
dreary return to his old surroundings. There was no one to give him a
welcome except Mrs. Wiggins, and her greeting was of a lugubrious
character. According to her code of propriety, it was the correct
thing to express sympathy by assuring him that he looked "awful bad
yet," and that it would be long ere he lost the effects of his
illness, and indeed he could never hope to be the man he was, with
other such cheering truths.

His nurse had done her best to give to the dingy old room a cheerful
appearance. There was a bright fire in the grate, the table was set
quite daintily, and hot buttered toast, a poached egg and fresh
watercress were there to tempt his appetite. But Michael had never
felt so depressed in his life as when he looked round on his old
familiar haunt. On the morrow his nurse was to leave, and he would be
thrown entirely on himself again. The prospect filled him with
despair. The old, lonely, loveless life looked hateful to him now.

Michael had finished his tea, and was resting in the big armchair,
when the shop bell rang sharply, and Mrs. Wiggins came a few minutes
later to say that a messenger had come, who wished to speak with the
nurse. She went out to attend the summons, and Michael waited,
wondering what it might mean. In a few minutes she returned, her
demeanour betraying some excitement.

"I am sorry to say, Mr. Betts, that I must leave you this evening,"
she began; "at once, indeed. The doctor knows that you can do without
me now, and he has sent to beg that I will go at once to Mrs. Lavers'
house. Her little girl is very ill."

"Ill! The little girl!" exclaimed Michael, starting forward in his
chair. "You don't mean that?"

"Indeed I do, unhappily. It's diphtheria she has, poor little dear,
and that's a terrible thing with children. You won't mind my leaving
you a few hours earlier?"

"Mind! Of course not. Go at once, nurse; go and do all you can for
her. Oh, do try your utmost to save her life, for I—I love that
little girl, nurse. I could not bear to hear that she was dead."

"You may be sure I shall do my best for her," she responded, looking
at him in amazement. So he had the remnant of a heart after all, this
poor old man.



CHAPTER IX

RESTITUTION

THE night that followed was a wretched one for Michael Betts. He
could not sleep for thinking of poor little Margery stricken with the
dire disease of childhood, which so often proves fatal.

He had spoken truly when he said that he loved the little winsome
maiden; though it had but come to him as he spoke, with the flash of
a sudden inspiration, that it was love, the feeling that drew him to
little Margery and made him long to see her fair, wee face and to
hear her sweet, childish voice. It was terrible to think of her
dying, choked, poisoned by that terrible malady.

Ere he went upstairs to bed, Michael had hunted amongst the
encyclopædias in his shop till he found what he believed to be an
able and trustworthy article on diphtheria. Of this, he had read
every word more than once, with the result that his fears for the
little one's life were intensified, and he was tortured by a sense of
what her sufferings must be.

If only he could do anything to help her in the sore struggle! But,
alas! Of what use could a poor old man, weakened by recent illness,
be? And then, with a bitter pang, he remembered that though he loved
her, he had done her wrong. He had defrauded this little fatherless
child. He could no longer hide from himself the truth. He could no
longer justify his conduct respecting the notes he had found in the
professor's books. He saw that transaction now in its true light. He,
Michael Betts, had robbed the widow and the fatherless, and God would
surely visit upon him his sin.

He groaned aloud as he turned to and fro on his sleepless bed. His
action looked darker in every fresh aspect that he viewed it. How
could he have done such a thing, he, Michael Betts, who had always
prided himself on his uprightness? Well, he could never boast himself
now. He knew now that he was a sinner indeed. Again he recalled the
day when he had first seen little Margery standing within his shop.
He heard her sweet tones saying:

"Have you lost your burden, Mr. Betts?"

Ah, he had resented her speaking of him as a sinner then! He knew
better now. He saw now that he had always been a sinner, slighting
and neglecting the love of God, and living the hard, narrow, loveless
life into which God cannot enter.

But one thing was borne in upon Michael's mind with the force of an
irresistible conviction during those weary, restless hours. He must,
as far as possible, undo the wrong he had done. He must restore the
money he had stolen. Much as he shrank from all that restitution
involved, he knew he could have no peace of mind, or even rest of
body, till it was done.

Michael felt too ill to rise early the next morning; but as soon as
he could, he got up and went feebly downstairs, sadly conscious that
little Margery's words were coming true, and that he was getting to
be a very old man.

"My! you do look bad!" was Mrs. Wiggins' encouraging greeting. "I
declare you look worse than you did yesterday. You'll have to be very
careful of yourself, Mr. Betts, if you don't want to slip away
altogether."

"Do mind your own business and leave my looks alone," responded old
Betts fretfully. "I shall be all right when I've had some lunch."

"I'll get you some beef-tea at once," said Mrs. Wiggins, bustling
away.

But when she returned with the steaming cup, Michael seemed in no
haste to drink it.

"Mrs. Wiggins," he said slowly, as he held his spoon suspended, "do
you know where that lady lives?"

"What lady?" she asked.

"Why, the lady whose little girl is ill, Mrs. Lavers of course."

"Certainly I knows where she lives. It's in Clarendon Gardens, No.
48. My cousin works for 'er landlady, and she's told me about 'er
many times."

"Never mind that," said Michael. "I don't want to hear about your
cousin. I just want you to go round to the house and ask how the
little girl is. Never mind your work. Go at once; do you hear?"

Mrs. Wiggins did hear, and, startled by the peremptory manner in
which Michael spoke, she prepared to go at once.

The house was but a little way off, but she was gone more than half
an hour, having lingered to talk with her cousin. Michael awaited her
return in painful suspense.

"Well?" he said, when at last she appeared.

"She's no better," said Mrs. Wiggins; "the doctor gives little 'ope,
and 'er poor mar's in a terrible state about 'er."

Michael's face grew white.

"What doctor is attending her?" he asked hoarsely.

"Dr. Newman," she replied.

"There are other doctors in London cleverer than he is," said Michael
eagerly.

"P'raps so; but is it likely a poor widow like Mrs. Lavers can afford
to 'ave them? Not that they'd be any good," continued Mrs. Wiggins,
her tones expressive of supreme contempt for the medical profession.
"If she's goin' to die, she'll die, whatever they may do or say, and
my cousin says that if ever she saw death on a child's face she saw
it on 'ers this mornin'! But, good gracious! Mr. Betts, you're never
thinkin' of goin' out?"

"I am not thinking about it, I am going out," said Michael grimly, as
he reached down his great-coat from the peg behind the door.

"Oh, but you must not, Mr. Betts. You're not fit, indeed. Why, you
only came downstairs yesterday, and you're looking as white as a
sheet now."

She might as well not have spoken, for any heed Michael paid to her
words. He buttoned his coat across his chest, armed himself with a
stout walking-stick, and set out. He felt very weak and tremulous as
he walked along. He was glad to lean heavily on his stick for
support. Somehow the familiar streets seemed to have grown longer and
wider since he last trod them. His bank was at no great distance, yet
he felt as though he should never reach it. When he did arrive there,
he sank on to a bench just within the door, and was fain to rest and
take breath for a while ere he could attend to his business.

A little later, with fifty pounds carefully lodged in his pocket-book
within his breast-pocket, he quitted the bank, and, walking as
quickly as his strength permitted, turned in the direction of
Clarendon Gardens.

He found the house with little difficulty. A brougham stood at the
door. Michael waited a few minutes, pacing to and fro, till he saw
the doctor come out of the house and drive away. As he waited, he
noticed a girl standing close by, leaning against the palings, a girl
with a big white apron over her dark gown and a large
much-be-feathered hat upon her head; but he paid little heed to her,
nor she to him. As soon as the carriage drove off, he went up to the
door and gently knocked.

"Can I speak to Mrs. Lavers for a minute?" he asked of the maid who
opened the door.

The girl looked at him, and hesitated. Then she asked him to step
inside, and closed the door behind him, whilst she went to speak to
some one in the little back parlour. In a moment she reappeared and
beckoned to him to advance. He did so, and entering the room, found
himself in the presence of Mrs. Lavers.

She stood leaning against the mantel-piece. In her hand was the
prescription the doctor had just written. Her face was utterly
colourless, save for the pinkened eyelids which testified to recent
tears, and had the wan, strained look which tells of protracted
sleeplessness. She looked surprised to see Michael, but greeted him
kindly.

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"Are you better, Mr. Betts? You do not look good for much yet. Are
you wise to come out to-day?"

"How is the little lady, ma'am?" Michael asked, ignoring her
inquiries respecting himself.

"No better, I fear," answered the lady, with a quiver in her voice.
"It is terrible to see her suffer so. And the doctor holds out only
the faintest hope."

"There are other doctors in London, ma'am," said Michael. "If he
cannot find a remedy, another may."

"Ah, yes; but—"

Michael was trembling from excessive weakness and emotion. He could
not speak; it seemed impossible to explain. He could only go up to
her and put the bank-notes in her hand.

"Mr. Betts! What is the meaning of this?" she asked, and her manner
was not without a touch of pride.

"It is yours, ma'am, yours, all of it," he faltered.

"I do not understand," she said.

"It was yours, ma'am, and I—God forgive me!—I stole it from you."

"Mr. Betts!"

Then brokenly, incoherently, and with much shame and confusion,
Michael made his confession.

Mrs. Lavers listened in bewilderment at first; but gradually light
dawned on her mind.

"Oh, Mr. Betts!" she exclaimed, "If only I had known this before, it
would have saved me so much trouble. We have wondered so what could
have become of that fifty pounds. Some weeks after my husband's
death, a gentleman called on me and stated that some time previously
he had given Professor Lavers fifty pounds as a subscription to a
scientific society in which my husband was interested. He had made
inquiries of the treasurer of the society, and had learned that the
money had never been paid in. You may fancy how worried I was when I
heard that. I searched amongst my husband's papers, and could find no
entry of the money. Yet, of course, I could not doubt the gentleman's
word. Since it was impossible to trace the money, and I could not
imagine what my husband had done with it, I had to make the amount
good at considerable sacrifice. But now I see perfectly what he did.
That book must have been lying on his table at the time, and he just
slipped the notes inside its leaves, meaning to remove them
afterwards, and then forgot all about them. It was just like him. He
was so absent-minded, my poor husband."

"And I, in keeping them, acted like a common thief," said Michael
gloomily. "You had better send for a policeman, ma'am, and give me in
charge."

"No, no," said the lady, with a melancholy smile, "I will not do
that. You did not think what you were doing; you did not know the
trouble you were causing me. But oh! It made such a difference to me
having to find those fifty pounds in my poverty and widowhood. But
for that, I might have afforded to settle in a nicer neighbourhood,
and then, perhaps, my child would never have taken this terrible
disease."

Michael gave a groan. "If she dies, I shall have caused her death!"
he said.

"God forbid!" cried the mother, turning paler, and shivering.

"Oh, ma'am, won't you have another doctor?" said Michael.

"Yes, I will—I can, now I have this money," she said eagerly.
"There is a physician who is said to have great skill in treating
diphtheria. My doctor mentioned him just now."

"Where does he live?" asked Michael. "I'll go and fetch him. I'll go
and bring him at once, if you'll let me."

She looked at the old man, so eager, yet so weak and tremulous, and
hesitated.

"You don't look fit to go," she said. "No, I'll send some one else."

"Oh, let me go," he cried. "I'll take a cab. No one could go quicker
than I'll go. And it will be doing something for her, don't you see?
I can never make amends; but it will be doing something if I go."

So she yielded, and gave him the physician's address. He went
hurriedly from the house.



CHAPTER X

MICHAEL FINDS A FRIEND

WHEN Michael came out of the house, the girl he had before observed
was still leaning against the palings. She was bending forward, her
face resting on her hands, which were wrapped in her shawl; but she
raised her head as she heard the door close behind Michael, and
glancing at her, he saw to his surprise that her eyes were wet with
tears. The next moment she sprang to his side, saying imploringly,
"Do tell me how she is, sir. You have been in, and you must know the
latest."

"She is no better, poor little dear," said Michael, a lump rising in
his throat as he spoke. "They fear the worst; but I'm going to fetch
a doctor that I hope will cure her. Can you tell me where I can find
a cab?"

"Yes, yes," she answered eagerly; "there's a stand just round the
corner. I'll show you. Why, I declare if you ain't Michael Betts."

Michael looked at her in wonder. He had a dim idea that he had seen
the girl before, but where or how he could not determine.

"That is my name, certainly," he said. "Who are you, I wonder, that
you know me so well?"

"P'raps my name is Betts too," she said, giving him a quick glance of
her bright, dark eyes.

"Don't be impertinent," he said sternly, "and don't tell me lies,
please."

"You needn't fear," she said in a subdued tone. "I haven't the spirit
to be impertinent. My heart is like to break thinking of that little
angel lying there in such pain."

"Is she in great pain?" asked Michael sadly.

"To be sure. You never had diphtheria, I suppose? Well, I've had it,
and I can tell you it's awful. I had it years ago in the hospital,
and I'll never forget it, never."

"But the doctors saved your life," said Michael. "Why shouldn't they
save hers?"

"Ah! Why not? See, there are the cabs. Oh, Mr. Betts, I wish you
would let me come with you!"

"So you shall if you like," said Michael, touched by the grief the
girl displayed, and feeling drawn to her by a bond of sympathy.

The girl signalled to a cabman, and when the vehicle drew up by the
kerb, she helped Michael to get into it. She was struck by the
feebleness of his movements.

"Have you been ill, Mr. Betts?" she asked. "I really hardly knew you
when first I looked at you. You've altered sadly since I last saw
you."

"When was that?" he asked. "I can't remember where I've seen you
before, yet I seem to know your face."

"Oh, I'm about sometimes in the neighbourhood of your shop," she
answered vaguely.

"And how did you come to know Mrs. Lavers and her little girl?"

"Oh, I belongs to a girls' club, and Mrs. Lavers is one of the ladies
who comes there. But there ain't another like her; no, we all says
that. She's an angel of a woman, that's what she is. Sometimes she
would bring her little girl with her to the club. She's the
prettiest, daintiest little creature you ever could see."

"I know," said Michael, the choking sensation rising again in his
throat.

"She'd talk away to us girls, that wee mite,—my! You never heard
anything like it. The veriest little chatterbox, yet with such wisdom
in her words too. Oh, it would be terrible if she should die! It
would just break her mother's heart."

"Ay, it would," said Michael, thinking sorrowfully how heavy a burden
of guilt and remorse would rest on his conscience if the little one
were taken. "She's a gentle-hearted lady, is Mrs. Lavers."

"She's the dearest lady in the world!" cried the girl fervently. "Ah,
I can never tell you what she has been to me. Do you know what it is
to have a friend that helps you to be good, a friend who you know
would do anything for you, and for whom you'd do anything, even die,
if need be? Well, she's such a friend to me."

Michael could only listen in wonder. He had never had such a friend;
he had never felt such warm, passionate love as the girl's words
expressed.

"Have you no one belonging to you?" he asked. "No mother or father?"

"Ay, I've a father," she said; "but he's a poor creature, my father,
always weak and ailing. It's me has to take care of him, and not he,
of me. I've took care of him ever since my mother died, eight years
ago. It seems sometimes almost as if I were the parent, and he the
child. Men are helpless creatures, you know. But here we are in the
square. Now, which is the doctor's house?"

Happily the doctor was at home when Michael arrived at the house.
After waiting some minutes, Michael was able to see him, but, to his
despair, the busy physician was not to be persuaded to come with him
at once. He had engagements which prevented his doing so, he said;
but he listened patiently to all Michael could tell him about the
little child, and promised that he would see her during the
afternoon. Michael went away with his hopes somewhat dashed.

The girl drove back with him to his house. She sprang out there and
helped him to alight, stood by his side as he settled with the
driver, and then saw him safely down the stone steps to the door of
the shop. She did it with a careful, almost motherly air, which
seemed strange for so young a girl. Evidently she was used to taking
care of others. Michael invited her to enter his house, but she
declined resolutely.

"No, thank you," she said; "it's high time I went home to look after
father. He'll be wondering what has become of me. If you like, I'll
come round and tell you how she is this evening, after that doctor
has seen her, you know. You ought not to go out again to-day, Mr.
Betts; it's a bitter cold wind."

Michael thanked her and went inside. "She's a good girl," he said to
himself, as he walked through the shop, "a much nicer girl than any
one looking at her would take her to be. A rough kind of girl, of
course, but with good feelings."

Mrs. Wiggins had gone home, and Michael was sitting alone by his
fire, feeling very weary and depressed, when a loud, impetuous knock
on the street door resounded through the quiet house.

"There she is," said Michael, and he went out as quickly as he could
to open the door.

"Come in," he said, as he opened it; "come in quickly and tell me."

"No, thank you," said the girl decidedly, "I won't come inside. I
haven't much to tell. She's neither better nor worse; that's all they
can say."

"No better! Oh dear!" said Michael. Then, as the cold air blew in
upon him, he began to cough.

"Now do go in out of the cold," said the girl. "You'll be worse, if
you don't take more care of yourself, Mr. Betts."

"But I want to hear what the doctor said. I want to know all about
it," Michael protested. "If you won't come inside, I must stand here
and catch cold."

"Oh, well, then," said the girl, yielding, "I don't want you to catch
your death." And she stepped inside.

Michael led her into the inner room, and tried feebly to stir the
dull fire into a blaze.

"Let me do that," said the girl eagerly. "I'm a rare hand at making a
fire. But you did ought to keep a better fire than this, Mr. Betts.
You don't know how to take care of yourself."

"Don't I?" said Michael. "Ah, and I've no daughter to take care of
me, as your father has."

"Ah, poor father!" said the girl, her face clouding over.

"Is he worse?" asked Michael.

She nodded. "This cold wind is so bad for him," she said.

Observing the girl more closely, Michael saw that her face was wan
and thin, with dark circles beneath the eyes.

"Set the kettle on the fire," he said, "and make yourself a cup of
cocoa."

"No, thank you," she said. "I'll make a cup for you with pleasure;
but none for me—thank you all the same."

"Well, put the kettle on," he said, thinking she might change her
mind, "and then tell me all the doctor said."

"That's more than I can tell you," said the girl, with a smile; "but
they say he is not without hope of pulling her through. He says the
next twenty-four hours will decide it."

"Ah," said Michael, with a shiver.

"We must just hope for the best," said the girl, striving after
cheerfulness; "hope and pray, that's what we've got to do. Did I tell
you that Mrs. Lavers sent a message to us girls at the club, asking
us all to pray for her?"

"No," said Michael, "you did not tell me that."

They sat in silence for a few minutes. Presently the water began to
boil, and his new friend busied herself in making him a cup of cocoa.
She did it deftly, and waited upon him in a kind and gentle way; but
she was not to be persuaded to take any herself. Michael was hurt by
the determined manner in which she refused his hospitality. He could
not understand why she did so, for she really looked as if she needed
nourishment.

"What work do you do?" he asked presently.

"I make matches when I can get taken on," she replied; "but just now
is a slack time in the trade."

"Then you're badly off, I fear," he said.

"I haven't complained, have I?" she asked, turning upon him with an
air of defiance. Then, with an evident desire to turn the
conversation, she remarked, as she looked about her, "What a sight of
books you have, Mr. Betts!"

"Do you like books?" he asked.

She nodded her head. "I'm awful fond of reading."

"Well," he said, with the kindest intention, "if there are any of my
books that you would like to read, I'm willing to lend them to you."

"Oh no, thank you," she said hastily, colouring as she spoke, and
giving a quick little movement of the head, as if the suggestion
annoyed her. "I don't want to borrow your books, Mr. Betts."

He looked at her curiously. She was certainly a very strange girl.
But he liked her. He was beginning to feel considerable confidence in
her.

"I must go now," she said. "I don't like to leave father for long."

"Stay a moment," said Michael in a timid, hesitating way. "I wish
you'd do something for me before you go."

"What is it?" she asked.

"Just kneel down and say a prayer for that poor little child. I want
to pray, but I can't. My heart is so hard—and—and—it's years
since I tried—but I'd like to hear you."

She looked startled and alarmed.

"Oh, I can't," she said; "I can't pray out loud like that."

"Say it in a whisper," he suggested.

She hesitated, her colour coming and going under the strain of
excited emotion.

"I'll try," she said at last. "She says it don't matter what words we
use, as long as they come from the heart. God can read our heart, and
He will understand."

So she knelt down, and Michael bent beside her, whilst in broken,
childish utterance, the very quaintness of which seemed to prove its
sincerity, she asked the loving Father to spare the life of little
Margery. And Michael prayed too, breathing forth what was perhaps the
first true prayer of his life. The prayer seemed to bring the
assurance of its answer. There were tears in the eyes of each as they
rose; but God's comfort was in their hearts. The girl said not a word
as Michael shook hands with her; but when she quitted the house and
walked quickly homeward her heart was filled with a strange wonder
not unmixed with joy.



CHAPTER XI

MUTUAL CONFESSION

WHEN Michael rose the next day, he found to his satisfaction that the
wind had changed. It no longer blew from the north-east. There was a
soft, spring-like feeling in the air. It was time for Spring to
herald her approach. The winter had been long and hard. No one felt
more pleasure at the thought of its departure than did Michael Betts.

He opened his shop betimes on this fair morning, and then set to work
to put things in order there. He felt very weak as he did so. More
than once he dropped the heavy volumes he tried to lift. It was clear
he was not the man he had been. No, he was beginning to fail. And
then he thought with a smile and a sigh of the little fair-haired
maiden who had thought him "so very old." He was very anxious to know
how this morning found her. He kept hoping that the girl whose
acquaintance he had made in so strange a manner would come in to tell
him how the little sufferer was; but she did not come, and at last,
unable to wait longer, he sent Mrs. Wiggins round to the house to
make inquiries.

The news she brought cheered him greatly. She had been told that the
little girl had taken a turn for the better, and there now seemed
hope of her recovery.

"Thank God!" ejaculated old Michael.

He could not trust himself to say more. He felt so glad that he could
have cried like a child for very gladness. As it was he had to take
off his spectacles and wipe them very carefully more than once before
he could go on with his work.

"Thank God," he said to himself over and over again. God had heard
his prayer—their prayer. How he wished his new friend would come
in, that they might rejoice together! He had known her but for a day;
he did not even know her name; but the sorrow and anxiety they had
shared, the prayer they had joined in breathing forth as from one
heart, had united them by a close bond of sympathy which years of
ordinary acquaintance could not have wrought.

But the girl did not appear all that day, nor the second day, nor the
third. Michael began to feel a vague uneasiness concerning her.

"Surely she might have come round just to say how pleased she was,"
he thought. "Can it be that she wants to drop my acquaintance, or is
her father worse? If only I knew where she lived, I'd go and see."

Meanwhile each day Margery was reported to be a little better. Her
throat grew clearer, her voice more distinct, and signs of returning
strength gladdened the heart of her anxious mother, till at length
the little one's recovery no longer seemed doubtful.

How thankful Michael was, no words can tell. He felt that if the
little one had died, he could never have forgiven himself for what he
had done. As it was, the burden of his past weighed heavily on his
mind. He fell into the habit of walking round to Mrs. Lavers' house
every evening when his shop was closed. He would carry with him some
little gift of flowers or fruit for the child. And Mrs. Lavers never
refused these, never showed by word or look the least consciousness
of the wrong he had done her.

Once when he spoke of it, she said: "Dear friend, let us forget all
about that. Our Lord taught us that if we did not forgive the brother
who wronged us, we could have no blessed sense of God's forgiving
love. I forgive you from my heart, and God will forgive you too if
you ask Him."

But old Michael went home with a heavy heart. He remembered how he
had treated his own brother, and it seemed to him that he had no
right to expect that God would forgive him his sins.

One evening Michael was in his shop, setting things in order at the
close of the day. He had not yet put up his shutters; but he scarcely
expected to have any more customers that day, when suddenly the door
opened, the bell tinkled, and he looked up to see the worn,
weary-looking preacher entering the shop. It was some time since this
gentleman had been there, and Michael was pleased to see him again.

"Just in time, sir," he said; "in another ten minutes my shutters
would have been up."

"Ah, well, I am very glad to find you here," replied the gentleman;
"though I do not come as a purchaser. But what is the matter with
you, Betts? You are not looking at all well."

"I have not been well, sir; but I'm better now. I've had a sharp
attack of rheumatic fever, and it has left me as you see. I shall
never be again the man I was."

"Dear me! I am sorry to hear that. Rheumatism is a terrible thing.
You do look as if it had pulled you down. And unhappily I bring you
news that will distress you. Do you know I am visiting a poor man in
the district where my mission-hall is who tells me he is your
brother."

Michael started and changed colour.

"It's true, sir," he said, after a moment's pause; "he is my brother."

"I thought so. I could not doubt his story as he told it. It is a sad
story, Mr. Betts. He is now on his death-bed. I have come to entreat
you to go with me to him."

Michael sank on to the nearest chair. He was trembling so that he
could not stand. He said nothing, and the gentleman went on speaking.

"He feels that he has wronged you grievously, and he wants to make
what amends he can, and to hear you say you forgive him, ere he
passes away. I don't think you will find it hard to forgive him when
you see him as he is."

"There's no need to talk so, sir. You don't understand. I've most
need to ask his forgiveness. The wrong wasn't all on one side. I can
see that now, though I couldn't before. Where is he, if you please,
sir?"

"At no great distance. I will take you there at once, if you can
come."

"Ay, I can come, sir; I have only to put up the shutters, and I shall
be ready."

So in a few minutes they were on their way. In Oxford Street, the
gentleman hailed an omnibus going westward, into which he helped old
Michael, and then seated himself beside him. From this they alighted
when it had carried them about a couple of miles.

"Now, do you feel able to walk a few steps?" the minister asked
Michael.

"Yes, yes, I can walk," he replied; but in truth, he felt faint and
tremulous, and could not have walked far. Happily it took them but a
few minutes to reach their destination. A dreary, miserable street it
was, though it lay very near to the large and handsome dwellings of
the rich.

Michael looked with dismay on the dirty, squalid houses, the
ill-kempt, slatternly women who sat on the doorsteps, or hung about
the public-houses—there were three in the street, though it was not
long—and the ragged urchins who disported themselves in the road.
The minister paused before one of the houses. The wretched-looking
women crouched together on the doorstep slowly rose and made room for
them to pass into the house. The minister led the way up a foul and
rickety staircase. Not till he reached the top did he pause and tap
at a door. A voice within bade him enter, and he opened the door and
advanced into the room.

Michael was slowly following him. The steep stairs tried his
breathing, the close, ill-smelling atmosphere made him feel faint. He
had to pause at the top of the stairs, clinging for a moment to the
unsteady bannister, ere he could find strength to advance. As he
waited, he heard a weak voice within asking painfully:

"Will he not come, Mr. Mason? Oh, don't tell me that he refuses to
come!"

Michael went forward quickly into the room. It was a poor place. A
table, a couple of chairs, a box or two, and the bed on which the
sick man lay, were all the furniture; but it was fairly clean, and
there were tokens of womanly efforts to make things as comfortable as
they might be. By the bed stood the girl whose acquaintance Michael
had made at Mrs. Lavers' door.

He started, and an exclamation of surprise escaped him as he
recognised her; but she made a quick movement enjoining him to
silence, and he said nothing.

"I've come, Frank," he said, turning his eyes upon the bed; "I've
come, and with all my heart, I wish I had come sooner."

There could be little doubt that the hand of death was on the man who
lay there. His wasted face was deadly pale, the breath came with
difficulty through his parted lips; there was a look of anguish in
his eyes, and when he spoke it was by a painful effort.

"Thank God you've come in time, Michael. Will you come and sit here
close beside me, so you may hear what I have to say, though I can't
speak loud?"

Michael took the seat indicated without a word. Such emotions swept
over him at the sight of his brother that it was impossible to speak.

"Kate," said the sick man, making a sign which she understood in a
moment.

She knelt down beside the bed, and began fumbling for something
beneath the mattress. Presently she drew forth a tiny bag made of
faded scarlet flannel, which she placed beside her father.

"Michael," said the sick man feebly, "I was a sore trial to you
before we parted. You might well feel ashamed of me, as I know you
did. I was a bad, ungrateful brother."

"Don't speak of it," said Michael huskily; "never mind that now."

"But I must speak of it. I sent for you that I might speak of it, as
Mr. Mason knows. Michael, the last time you gave me shelter in your
home I was so ungrateful, so shameless, that I stole one of your
books and carried it off with me."

"I know that you did," replied Michael, "but never mind that now,
Frank."

"It was a Greek book," continued the other, without heeding his
words. "I'd heard you say that it was worth seven pounds. I could not
get that for it; but I found a dealer who was willing to give me
half, and for that I sold it. The money soon went in drink, and I
thought no more about it for a long time. Then I married. At first I
let my wife think that I had no one in the world belonging to me; but
one day when I'd taken a drop too much, I let out that I had a
brother who was a well-to-do tradesman, and then she set her heart on
seeing me reconciled to my brother. I had to tell her the whole story
at last, just to make her see it was impossible. But even then she
would not see it. No; she just said that I must save the money I'd
had for the book, and pay it back to you. It was she who began the
saving, you see. We did not get on very fast with the saving; but we
made a beginning. Then she fell ill. Mr. Mason began to visit us
then. He's been a good friend to us. He tried to make me a sober man
for a long, long while before he succeeded."

"Don't say that I succeeded," said Mr. Mason. "It was the grace of
Christ that delivered you from sin and enabled you to begin a new
life."

"It is more than a year ago," said the sick man slowly, "since I took
the pledge, and Kate and I have been trying ever since to add to the
money in the bag. My wife left it in Kate's hands; she knew she could
not trust it to me. It has not been easy to save. Kate put most into
it, not I. She's a good girl is Kate, though I say it."

"Ah, she's a good girl," said Michael, so fervently that his brother
looked at him in surprise.

"What, you say so too? But you do not know her."

"I can tell by the looks of her," said Michael evasively.

"Ah, well—it's true anyway. But now about this money, Michael. I
have so longed to make your loss good. I thought you'd believe I was
a changed man if I gave you back your money. But it's been hard work.
We've had to draw out some of the money since I've been ill. There's
only five pounds in the bag now, and I wanted to make it seven, for
you said the book was worth that to you. Here's the money; take it
and count it."

But Michael pushed the bag from it.

"No, no, Frank; keep the money. I don't want it, indeed. I would
rather not have it."

"But you must take it," cried the other excitedly. "I can't rest
unless you do. Ah, Michael, you don't know, an honest, respectable
man as you've always been, what it is to have the burden of such a
deed resting on your conscience."

"Don't say that, Frank—don't for goodness sake talk that way, for
it's not true!"

"But it is true," protested the other; "don't I know the good,
honest, steady man you've always been? Haven't I sometimes felt proud
that I had such a brother, and wished enough that I'd been more like
you? Why, I've told Kate here about you often enough. Once I sent her
round to the shop, to have a look at the place and to see the kind of
man you were."

"But all the while you were under a mistake concerning me," groaned
Michael, feeling himself compelled to confession. "What if I were to
tell you that I am a man who has robbed the fatherless and the widow?"

"I'd not believe it," returned his brother. "No, not if you said it
with your own lips, Michael."

"But it is true," he cried. And then brokenly, confusedly, he told
the story of how he had kept the bank-notes he had found in the
professor's book.

There was silence for some moments when he had ceased. Then the sick
man leaned forward and laid his wasted hand on his brother's.

"Oh, I am so sorry for you, Michael," he whispered. "I know what you
must have suffered with that burden on your heart. We are
fellow-sinners."

"But I am the worse," said Michael. "'The first shall be last,' the
Bible says. In the pride of my heart I thought myself far above you;
but you would never have done a thing like that. No, you have been a
better man than I all along. It's bad to be profligate; but I do
believe it is worse to have a hard, unloving, pharisaical heart."

"'If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our
sins,'" said the minister; and, as they all kept silence, he began to
pray aloud, expressing as he believed the desire of each heart as he
besought the Divine Father to forgive and blot out the sins of the
past.

And as he prayed, its burden fell from the spirit of Michael Betts;
his proud, hard heart was broken, and became as the heart of a little
child in its sorrow and contrition. It was the birth-hour of a new
life to him.



CHAPTER XII

MICHAEL'S HOUSE BECOMES A HOME

THE reconciliation so late effected between the brothers was
complete. Michael's one thought now was how he might, in the brief
time that remained to him, atone in some degree for the coldness and
indifference of years. He would fain have removed his brother to a
more comfortable dwelling; but the medical man whom he brought to
give his opinion refused to sanction the attempt. The risk was too
great. The excitement and fatigue involved in the removal would
probably hasten the end. All that could be done was to give as
homelike an appearance as possible to the dreary room in which the
sufferer lay, and to provide him with every comfort his condition
demanded.

These efforts were not without result. His heart relieved of the load
which had pressed on it, and gladdened by his brother's kindness, the
sick man now enjoyed an ease of mind which could not fail to
influence beneficially his bodily condition. He rallied wonderfully,
and Kate even began to hope that her father's life would yet be
spared. But Michael knew better. He was too old to be deceived by
such hope. He could see that death, though it had relaxed, had not
relinquished its grasp.

Every hour that Michael could spare, he spent by his brother's
bedside. He even engaged a young man to help him with his business,
that he might have more time at his disposal. But the new interest he
had found did not make him forgetful of little Margery. Every day he
sent to the house to enquire how she was doing. He knew that Kate,
when she saw him, would be sure to question him eagerly as to the
report he had received. She was not so absorbed by anxiety for her
father as to be forgetful of the dear little maiden who was ill, or
of her mother, the kind friend to whom she owed so much. She and
Michael, whom she was learning to call "uncle" now, a name which
sounded strangely in the ears of each, rejoiced together over the
good news of the little invalid which each day brought. Margery was
out of danger now and advancing steadily towards health.

One pleasant April afternoon, Michael determined to walk round to
Mrs. Lavers' house ere he went to see his brother. He had bought that
morning of a dealer at his door a pot of pretty pink cyclamen which
he thought would please little Margery, and he wished to carry it to
her ere the flowers began to fade.

As he was handing it to the servant at the door, Mrs. Lavers came
down stairs, and, seeing him, advanced to speak to him.

"How very kind of you!" she said, as she admired the pink blossoms.
"Margery will be so pleased. I never knew such a child as she is for
flowers. Won't you come upstairs and see her for a minute? I know she
would like to see you, and all fear of infection is past now."

Michael could not resist this invitation. He followed Mrs. Lavers
upstairs, treading as gently as he could.

Margery had been carried into the little sitting-room, and lay on a
sofa near the window. The room seemed full of flowers; there were so
many friends who loved to send flowers to little Margery. She looked
very fair and fragile as she lay there clad in a little blue
dressing-gown, with her golden curls tossed in wild disorder on the
pillow. Michael was dismayed to see how white she was, save for the
rosy spot which glowed in each cheek, and how plainly the blue veins
showed on her wasted temples. Her favourite doll reposed by her side,
and open on her knee lay a book with coloured pictures, which Michael
recognised at a glance as the "Pilgrim's Progress," with the purchase
of which their acquaintance had begun.

The smile with which Margery greeted him as soon as she caught sight
of him was reassuring to Michael. Surely no child who was not getting
well could look so radiant.

"Mr. Betts has just come up to say, 'How do you do?' to you, dear,"
said her mother, "and see what lovely flowers he has brought you."

"Oh, what beauties!" cried the child delightedly, "I haven't had any
like them, have I, mother? Thank you very, very much, Mr. Betts.
Please put them here, where I can see them, mother."

"And are you feeling a little better, missy?" asked Michael.

"Oh yes, much better, thank you. Mother says I shall soon be able to
run about again, but I don't feel as if I should be able to run fast
for some time to come. I can't even play with Noel yet. He seems so
rough and noisy."

"I see you are able to amuse yourself with your book," Michael said.

"I like looking at the pictures," she replied, "but it tires me to
read much. It is funny you should come just now, Mr. Betts, for I was
only thinking of you a moment ago. I often think of you when I look
at my 'Pilgrim's Progress.'"

"That's because you bought it of me, I suppose, missy."

She shook her head, and her little face grew thoughtful.

"No, that's not the reason. It's because I never can tell to what
part of the book you belong. You can't be Christian or Faithful,
don't you see, because you say you never did anything wrong in your
life."

A deep, dull red suddenly suffused Michael's face.

"Don't say that, miss," he exclaimed in a tone of pain; "I never
ought to have said it. When I spoke so I did not know myself."

"Then it wasn't true," said Margery.

"No, indeed, miss. If I'd spoken the truth, I should have said that
I'd been doing wrong all my life, and cherishing a hard, proud,
unloving spirit. I did not love God, nor even my own brother, and you
can't love one without loving the other, you know, miss."

"I could never help loving Noel," said little Margery, "but what did
you do that was so wicked, Mr. Betts?"

"Don't ask me, miss. I would not like to tell you the bad things I
have done. Why, you've been one of the sufferers by my wrong-doings.
You ask your mother, and she'll tell you how shamefully I wronged
both her and you."

"No, no," said Mrs. Lavers, laying her hand gently on the old man's
arm, "Margery will never hear of that from me, Mr. Betts. That's all
over and done with. Don't speak of that again, please."

Margery looked curiously from one to the other.

"Then you had a burden all the time, Mr. Betts?" she said.

"Ay, that I had, missy, and a burden which grew heavier and heavier,
when once I began to feel it."

"Why that was just like Christian," said little Margery, looking much
interested; "and have you lost your burden now, Mr. Betts?"

"Yes, thank God, I have lost it, miss. I lost it as Christian lost
his, at the foot of the cross. In other words, missy, I believe that
God has forgiven me my sins for the sake of Jesus Christ, who died
for me and such sinners as me."

"Then you are very happy now," said little Margery.

"I'm happier, miss; yes, truly, I'm happier than ever I was before,
but I can't forget the past. I'd give anything to be able to live the
years of my life over again."

"What a number you would have to live!" said little Margery
thoughtfully. "For you're very old, aren't you, Mr. Betts?"

"Ay, missy, I'm old," he answered.

He felt old indeed when a little later, he found himself by his
brother's bedside. To think that that big, sturdy girl was the
daughter of his brother Frank! It did not seem so very long ago that
he had been "little Frank," his mother's spoiled darling. He had
always seemed so very much younger than he, Michael, was; but now he
lay there a haggard, wasted, aged-looking man, drawing near to death.
His feet were on the brink of the dark river now. A change had set in
during the night. Michael needed not to be told that his brother had
but a few hours to live.

"I would not mind if it were not for Kate," the dying man murmured,
turning towards his daughter with love and yearning in his glance. "I
don't like to leave her alone in the world."

"She shall not be alone," said Michael, "there shall always be a home
for her with me."

"Do you hear that, Kate?" the sick man asked with brightening eyes.
"Your uncle says you shall have a home with him."

But the girl's look did not brighten.

"I don't care what becomes of me if you leave me, father," she said
almost sullenly; then added, with passionate emotion as she bent over
him, "If only you would get better, we might be so happy yet."

A lump rose in Michael's throat as he watched the girl's look, and
heard her words. No one had ever loved him like that.

"Frank," he said slowly, "folks reckon me a well-to-do man; but
you're richer than I am. I've no one to love me, or to care whether I
live or die."

His brother turned his eyes on him and understood.

"She'll love you, Michael; she'll love you too, if you're good to
her. She is a good girl, is Kate, though she has had a rough bringing
up. I called her Katharine, you know, after our mother. I've tried to
tell her what our mother was, that she might be like her. But I've
been a poor father to her. Mine has been a wasted, ill-spent life,
and now I can but give it back into the hands of God, trusting in His
mercy through Jesus Christ."

He lay back exhausted by the effort he had made in saying so much.
His life was ebbing fast. He said little more save in feeble, broken
utterances. The end came peacefully about midnight, and the life
which, with its errors and failures, God alone could truly judge, was
sealed by the hand of death.

Michael took the weeping girl to his own home, and did his best to
comfort her. Mrs. Wiggins predicted that Kate would not long live
with her uncle. It seemed to her impossible that so ill-assorted a
pair could get on together, or a girl accustomed to a free,
independent life, put up with an old man's fidgets. But the result
proved her prediction false. Kate was of a warm, affectionate nature,
and pity constrained her to be patient with the poor, lonely old man,
whilst he was disposed to cling at any cost to the only being who
belonged to him.

Their common interest in Mrs. Lavers and sweet little Margery was a
lasting bond of sympathy. Mrs. Lavers still showed herself a true
friend to Kate. She encouraged the girl to come often to her house,
and sometimes of an evening, she and her children would "drop in" to
pay a visit to old Michael and his niece. The little ones loved to
explore the marvels of Mr. Betts' shop, and never ceased to wonder at
"the heaps and heaps of books." Mrs. Lavers was able to give Kate
many a useful hint which helped her to adapt herself to her new
position.

By-and-by, Kate came to take an intelligent interest in the book
trade, and developed quite a talent for mending and covering
dilapidated volumes. Customers were surprised to find now in the shop
a bright, quick, dark-eyed damsel, who passed lightly to and fro,
fetching and carrying books as her uncle directed her. She learned
his ways more quickly than any youth would have done, and was careful
to observe them. She found her new work infinitely preferable to
making matches, and had a sense of responsibility in connection with
it, which heightened her self-respect, and made life seem well worth
living.

As for Michael, he was only now conscious of living a life that is
life indeed. Released from the prison house of a hard, unloving,
selfish heart, he had entered on a new existence. The touch of
affection had awakened new faculties within his soul. In finding
another to love and care for, he had truly found himself. New hopes
and aspirations were springing within him, which soared beyond this
mortal life, and would have their fruition in eternity. For only he
who loves has a hope which reaches beyond the life of earth. The man
who has no love for his brother man cannot love his Father in heaven,
nor can he, who has no sense of sin in himself, experience the peace
which comes from knowing the love of God in Christ Jesus.



THE END.



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