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Title: Benefits Forgot - A Story of Lincoln and Mother Love
Author: Morrow, Honoré, 1880-1940
Language: English
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[Illustration: "COME HERE AND SIT DOWN AND WRITE A LETTER TO YOUR
MOTHER!"--Page 74.]

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BENEFITS FORGOT

A Story Of Lincoln And Mother Love


BY HONORÉ WILLSIE

Author Of "Still Jim," "Lydia Of The Pines," Etc.


WITH ILLUSTRATIONS BY CHARLES E. CARTWRIGHT


Publishers

FREDERICK A. STOKES COMPANY

New York

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Copyright, 1917, by FREDERICK A. STOKES COMPANY

All rights reserved, including that of translation
into foreign languages

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CONTENTS

CHAPTER                                         PAGE

I   THE DONATION PARTY                             1

II  THE CIRCUIT RIDER                             27

III WAR                                           45

IV  MR. LINCOLN                                   63

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I

THE DONATION PARTY



[Illustration]

I

THE DONATION PARTY


Brother Meaker rose from his pew and looked at Jason appraisingly.

"I don't know, brethren," he said. "Of course, he's a growing boy. Just
turned twelve, didn't you say, ma'am?" Jason's mother nodded faintly
without looking up, and Brother Meaker went on. "As I said, he's a
growing boy, but he's dark and wiry. And I've always noted, the dark
wiry kind eat smaller than any other kind. I should take at least
twelve pounds of sugar off the allowance for the year and four gallon
less of molasses than you was calculatin' on."

He sat down and Sister Cantwell rose. She was a fat woman, famous in the
southern Ohio country for the lavish table she set.

"Short sweetening," she said in a thin high voice, "is dreadful high. I
said to Hiram yesterday that the last sugar loaf I bought was worth its
weight in silver. I should say, cut down on short sweetening. Long
sweetening is all right except for holidays."

Jason whispered to his mother, "What's long sweetening, mother?"

"They must mean molasses," she whispered in return, with a glance at
Jason's father, who sat at the far end of the pew reading his Bible as
he always did at this annual ordeal.

Jason looked from his mother's quiet, sensitive face, like yet so unlike
his own, to the bare pulpit of the little country church, then back at
Brother Ames, who was conducting the meeting. This annual conference and
the annual donation party were the black spots in Jason's year. His
mother, he suspected, suffered as he did: her face told him that. Her
tender lips, usually so wistful and eager, were at these times thin and
compressed. Her brown eyes, that except at times of death or illness
always held a remote twinkle, were inscrutable.

Jason's face was so like, yet already so unlike his mother's! The same
brown eyes, with the same twinkle, but tonight instead of being
inscrutable, boyishly hard. The same tender mouth, with tonight an
unboyish sardonic twist. What Jason's father's face might have said one
could not know, for it was hidden under a close-cropped brown beard. He
turned the leaves of his Bible composedly, looking up only as the
meeting reached a final triumphant conclusion with Brother Ames'
announcement:

"So, Brother Wilkins, there you are, a liberal allowance if I must say
it. Two hundred and fifty dollars for the year, with the usual donation
party to take place in the fall of the year."

Brother Wilkins, who was Jason's father, rose, bowed and said: "I thank
you, brethren. Let us pray!"

The fifty or sixty souls in the church knelt, and Jason's father, his
eyes closed, lifted his great bass voice in prayer:

"O God, You have led our feeble and trusting steps to this town of High
Hill, Ohio. You have put into the hearts and minds of these people, O
God, the purpose of feeding and clothing us. Whether they do it well or
ill, concerns them and You, O God, and not us. We are but Your humble
servants, doing Your divine bidding. Yet this is perhaps the proper
occasion, Our Heavenly Father, to thank You that You have sent us but
one child and that unlike Solomon, Your servant has but one wife. And
now, O God, bless these people in their giving. And make me, in my
solitary circuit riding in the hills and valleys a proper mouthpiece of
Your will. For Lord Jesus' sake, Amen."

There was a short pause after the rich voice stopped, then a few weak
"Amens" came from different corners of the church and Brother Ames,
jumping to his feet, exclaimed:

"Let us close the meeting by singing

    'How tedious and tasteless the hours
    When Jesus no longer I see--'"

This ended Jason's first day at High Hill. The salary was small, even
for a Methodist circuit rider, in the decade before the Civil War. It
was smaller by fifty dollars than what they had been allowed the year
before. Yet, High Hill, as Mrs. Wilkins pointed out to Jason the next
day, was much more attractive than any town they had been in for years.
There was a good school, and the Ohio river-packet stopped twice a week,
and a Mr. Inchpin in the town was reported to be the owner of a number
of books. Jason's mother was an Eastern woman and sometimes the
loneliness and hardship of her life made her find solace in what seemed
to Jason inconsequential things. Still, he was glad of the school, for
he was a first-class student and already had decided to take his
father's and mother's advice that he study medicine. And the packet,
warping in twice a week, was, after all, something to which one might
look forward and Mr. Inchpin's books would be wonderful.

Jason was sure that the Ohio valley in which he had spent the whole of
his short life was the most beautiful spot in the world. The lovely
green heights rolling back into the Kentucky sky line, were, he thought,
great enough for David, whose cattle fed upon a thousand hills. The fine
headlands on the Ohio side, wooded, mysterious, were, he was sure, clad
in verdure like the utmost bound of the everlasting hills of Jacob. And
High Hill with its fifteen hundred souls was "a city, builded on a hill
that could not be laid."

For Jason was brought up on the Bible. His father believed that it ought
to be, outside of his school text books, his only literature. His
mother, with her Eastern traditions, thought otherwise. A Methodist
circuit rider before the Civil War moved every year, and every year Mrs.
Wilkins combed each new community for books. It was wonderful how she
and Jason scented them out.

They had been in High Hill about a week when Jason came panting into the
house late one afternoon. His father was writing a sermon in the sitting
room. Jason tip-toed into the kitchen, where his mother was preparing
supper.

"The packet's in, mother, and I carried a man's carpet bag up to the
hotel and look--what he gave me!"

His slender boyish brown hands fairly trembled as he held a torn and
soiled magazine toward his mother. She dropped the biscuit she was
molding and seized it.

"_Harper's Monthly!_ O Jason dear, how wonderful! You shall read it
aloud to me after supper."

"It's prayer meeting night," said Jason in a sick voice.

His mother flushed a little. "So it is! My goodness, Jason! Print makes
a heathen of me and you're most as bad. You haven't fed the horse or
milked."

"So I won't get a look at it till tomorrow," cried Jason, bitterly.

Mrs. Wilkins glanced toward the closed door that led into the sitting
room. Then she looked at Jason's wide brown eyes, at the round-about she
had cut over from his father's old sermon coat, at the darned stockings
and the trousers that had belonged to the rich boy of the town they had
lived in the year before.

"Jason," she said, "you ought to get plenty of sleep because you're a
growing boy. But a thing like this won't happen for years
again--and--well, I've saved up several candle ends, hoping to get some
sewing done nights when your father was using the lamp. When you go up
to bed tonight, take those and read your magazine."

"But you ought to keep them," protested Jason.

"Not at all," exclaimed his mother, vigorously, "it's all for your
education. Run along now and milk."

So Jason reveled in his _Harper's Monthly_, and the next day as he wiped
the dishes for his mother, he produced his great idea.

"If I can earn the money, this summer, mother, can I subscribe to
_Harper's Monthly_ for a year?"

"My goodness, Jason, it's five dollars and this is the first of August!
School begins in a month."

"I know all that," replied Jason impatiently, "but if I earn the money
can I have it for _Harpers Monthly_?"

"Of course you can. It's all for your education, my dear. I never forget
that."

A money paying job for a boy of twelve was a hard thing to find in High
Hill and Jason was late for supper that night. But his brown eyes were
shining with triumph when he slid into his seat and held out his bowl
for his evening meal of mush and milk.

"I've got a job," he said.

"A job?" queried his father. He smiled a little at Jason's mother.

"Yes, sir. Mr. Inchpin is having a new barn built on the hill back of
his house. The brook runs at the foot of it and I'm going to haul gravel
and sand and water up to the building site. It'll take about a month. He
provides the horse and wagon."

"And how much will he pay you?" asked Mrs. Wilkins.

"He says he can't tell till he's through. But I'm going to ask him for
five dollars."

Jason's father looked amused and a little troubled. "Jason, I hope
you're not too interested in Mammon. But I must say I'm glad to see you
have your mother's energy."

"Or your father's," said Mrs. Wilkins, smiling into the blue eyes
opposite hers. "Nobody can say that a circuit rider lacks energy."

And so during the hot August days, Jason toiled on Mr. Inchpin's new
barn, never once visiting the swimming hole in the brook, never once
heeding the long-drawn invitation of the cicada to loll under the trees
with one of Mr. Inchpin's books, never once breaking away when the toot
of the packet reverberated among the hills.

"He's a fine lad," Mr. Inchpin told Jason's father. "I never have seen
such determination in a little fellow."

Brother Wilkins looked gratified, but when he repeated the little
compliment to Jason's mother he added, "I don't believe I understand
Jason altogether."

"I do," said Mrs. Wilkins, stoutly.

August came to an end with cool nights and shorter days and Mr.
Inchpin's barn was finished of a Saturday evening. He called Jason into
the house, into the library where there were bound volumes of _Godey's
Lady's Book_ and Blackwood, and handed him three paper dollars.

"There you are, my man. I'd intended to give you only two. But you've
done well, by ginger, so here's three dollars."

Jason looked up at him dumbly, mumbled something, stuffed the bills into
his trousers pocket and bolted for home. He burst in on his mother in
the kitchen, buried his face against her bosom and sobbed.

"I can't have it after all! He only gave me three dollars! I can't have
it! And now I'll never know how that story 'Bleak House' ended."

Jason's father came into the kitchen, hastily: "What in the world--"

"Jason! Jason! don't sob so!" cried Mrs. Wilkins. "We'll raise the rest
of the money some way. I'll find it. Hush, dear, hush! Mercy, the mush
is burning!"

Jason's father took the boy's grimy blistered hand, such a strong
slender hand and so like his mother's, and sitting down in the kitchen
chair, he pulled Jason to him.

"Tell me, Jason," he urged gently, "what money?"

Jason still torn with occasional sobs, managed to tell the story.

"_Harper's Monthly_," exclaimed Brother Wilkins. "Dear! Dear! I had
hoped you'd give the money to a foreign mission, Jason."

"Foreign mission!" cried Jason's mother. "Well, I guess not! Jason's
education is going to be taken care of before the heathen."

"But how'll we get the extra dollars?" asked Brother Wilkins,
helplessly.

"I'll manage," replied Jason's mother, her gentle voice a little louder
than usual.

"Then let us eat supper," said Jason's father, clearing his throat for
grace.

Jason's mother sold a girlhood treasure, a little silver-tipped
hair-pin, to the storekeeper's wife, the following Monday, for two
dollars, and the jubilant Jason exchanged the single bills for a single
note. The note was cut in two and sent in separate letters to New York,
this being the before the war method of safeguarding loss of money in
the mail. There was a period of several weeks of waiting during which
Jason met every mail. Then a third letter was sent by Jason's mother,
asking why the delay, and telling Jason's little story.

Jason met the return packet, his heart now high, now low. He had met so
many futile packets since the first of September. But this time there
was a letter explaining that but one-half of the note had arrived in New
York, but that on faith, the editors were sending the back numbers of
the magazine requested and that the rest of the year's subscription
would follow. And Jason never did know whether or not the second half of
the note arrived.

And there they were, a fat pile of magazines! Jason clasped them in his
arms and rushed home with them. A tag tail of boys followed him and by
nightfall most of the town knew that Jason Wilkins had four numbers of
_Harper's Monthly_ on hand.

Jason was out milking the cow when Mr. Inchpin arrived.

"Heard Jason had some new magazines in hand. Don't s'pose you could lend
me a few, over night?"

Jason's mother was in the kitchen. It was donation party night and she
had been cooking all day in preparation.

"Surely, surely," said Jason's father, picking up the pile of magazines.
"Jason can't get at them before the end of the week. Take them and
welcome."

Mr. Inchpin rode away. Jason came in with the milk pail and the family
sat down to a hasty supper.

"Won't I have a minute of time to look at my magazines, mother?" asked
Jason. "O, I hate donation parties!"

"Jason!" thundered his father. "Would you show ingratitude to God? And
the books are not here anyway. I loaned them to Mr. Inchpin."

"Father!"

"O Ethan!"

Brother Wilkins' eyes were steel gray, instead of blue. "Jason can read
his Bible until the end of the week. His ingratitude deserves
punishment."

Jason rushed from the table and flung himself sobbing into the hay loft.
His mother found him there a few moments later.

"I know, dear! I know! It's hard. But father doesn't love books as you
and I do, so he doesn't understand. And you must hurry and get ready for
the party."

"I don't want the donation party, I want my magazines," sobbed Jason.

"I know. But life seldom, so very seldom, gives us what we want, dear
heart. Just be thankful that you will be happy at the end of the week
and come and help mother with the party."

As donation parties go, this one was a huge success. Fully a hundred
people attended it. They played games, they sang hymns, they ate a
month's provisions and Mrs. Wilkins' chance of a new dress in the cake
and coffee she provided. They left behind them a pile of potatoes and
apples that filled two barrels and a heap of old clothing that Jason,
candle in hand, turned over with his foot.

"There's Billy Ames' striped pants," he grumbled. "Every time his mother
licked him into wearing 'em, I know he prayed I'd get 'em, the ugly
beasts, and I have. And there's seven old patched shirts. I suppose I'll
get the tails sewed together into school shirts for me and there's Old
Mrs. Arley's plush dress--I suppose poor mother'll have to fix that up
and wear it to church. Why don't they give stuff father'll have to wear,
too? I wonder why a minister's supposed to be so much better than his
wife or son."

"What's that you're saying, Jason?" asked his father sharply as he
brought the little oil lamp from the sitting room into the kitchen. Mrs.
Wilkins followed. This was a detestable job, the sorting of the donation
debris, and was best gotten through with, at once. Jason, shading the
candle light from his eyes, with one slender hand, looked at his father
belligerently.

"I was saying," he said, "that it was too bad you don't have to wear
some of the old rags sometimes, then you'd know how mother and I feel
about donation parties."

There was absolute silence for a moment in the little kitchen. A late
October cricket chirped somewhere.

Then, "O Jason!" gasped his mother.

The boy was only twelve, but he had been bred in a difficult school and
was old for his years. He looked again at the heaps of cast-off clothing
on the floor and his gorge rose within him.

"I tell you," he cried, before his father could speak, "that I'll never
wear another donation party pair of pants. No, nor a shirt-tail shirt,
either. I'm through with having the boys make fun of me. I'll earn my
own clothes every summer and I'll earn mother's too."

"You'll do nothing of the sort, sir," thundered Jason's father, his
great bass voice rising as it did in revival meetings. "You'll do
nothing but wear donation clothes as long as you're under my roof. I've
long noted your tendency to vanity and mammon. To my prayers, I shall
begin to add stout measures."

Jason threw back his head, a finely shaped head it was with good breadth
between the eyes.

"I tell you, sir, I'm through with donation pants. If folks don't think
enough of the religion you preach to pay you for it I'd--I'd advise you
to get another religion."

Under his beard, Ethan Wilkins went white, but not so white as Jason's
mother. But she spoke quietly.

"Jason, apologize to your father at once."

"I couldn't accept an apology now," said the minister. "I shall have to
pray to get my mind into shape. In the meantime Jason shall be punished
for this. Not until everyone in the town who desires to read his
_Harper's Monthlies_ has done so, can Jason touch them."

"O father, not that," cried Jason. "I'll apologize! I'll wear the pants!
Why, it would be Christmas before I'd see them again!"

"I can't accept your apology now. Neither your spirit nor mine is right.
And I cannot retract. Your punishment must stand."

Jason was all child now. "Mother," he cried, "don't let him! Don't let
him!"

Mrs. Wilkins' lips quivered. For a moment she could not speak. Then with
an inscrutable look into her husband's eyes she said:

"You must obey your father, Jason. You have been very wicked."

Jason put down his candle and sobbed. "I know it. But I'll be good. Let
me have my magazines. They're mine. I paid for them."

"No!" roared the minister. "Go to bed, sir, and see to it that you pray
for a better heart."

Jason's sobs sounded through the little house long after his father and
mother had gone to bed. The minister sighed and turned restlessly.

"Why was I given such a rebellious son, do you suppose?" he asked
finally.

"Perhaps God hopes it'll make you have a better understanding of
children," replied Mrs. Wilkins. "Christ said that unless you became
like one of them you could not enter the kingdom."

There was another silence with Jason's sobs growing fainter, then, "But
he was wicked, Mary, and he deserved punishment."

"But not such a punishment. Of course, I had to support you, no matter
what I thought. But O Ethan, Ethan, it's so easy to kill the fineness in
a proud and sensitive heart like Jason's."

"Nevertheless," returned the minister, "when he spurns the giving hand
of God, forgiveness is God's, not mine. We'll discuss it no more."

Nor was the matter discussed again. Jason appeared at breakfast, with
dark rings about his eyes, after having done his chores, as usual. Once,
it seemed to his mother that he looked at her with a gaze half
wondering, half hurt, as if she had failed him when his trust and need
had been greatest. But he said nothing and she hoped that her mind had
suggested what was in her aching heart and that Jason's was only a
child's hurt that would soon heal.

He never again asked for the magazines. On Christmas morning his father
placed them, tattered and marred, from their many lendings, beside his
plate. Jason did not take them when he left the table and later on his
mother carried them up to his room. Whether he read them or not, she did
not know. But she was glad to see him begin again to watch for the
packet and read the current numbers as they arrived.

She dyed Billy Ames' striped pants in walnut juice and they really
looked very well. Jason wore them without comment as he did the shirts
she fashioned for him from many shirt tails.

And in the spring they left High Hill for a valley town.

[Illustration]



II

THE CIRCUIT RIDER



[Illustration]

II

THE CIRCUIT RIDER


The years sped on with unbelievable swiftness as they are very prone to
do after the corner into the teens is turned.

Jason worked every summer, but he did not offer to buy his mother a
dress nor did he buy himself either clothing or books. He put all he
earned by toward his course in medicine. When he was a little fellow,
his mother had given him a lacquered sewing box that had belonged to her
French mother. It had proved an admirable treasure box for childish
hoardings. Jason, the summer he was thirteen, cleared it out and put
into it his summer earnings, ten dollars.

With his newly acquired reticence, he did not speak of the box, nor did
he mention the extra bills, quarters and dollars that appeared there
from time to time. The little hoard grew slowly, very slowly, in spite
of these anonymous additions--it grew as slowly as the years sped
rapidly, it seemed to Jason's mother.

Jason must have been sixteen, the summer he went with his father on one
of the Sunday circuit trips. He never had been on one before. But it had
been decided that he was to begin his medical studies in the fall. He
was to be apprenticed to a doctor in Baltimore and his mother was
anxious for father and son to draw together if possible before the son
went into the world. Not that Jason and the minister quarreled. But
there never had been the understanding between the two that except for
the unfortunate magazine episode, always had existed between Jason and
his mother.

The trip lay in the hills of West Virginia. Brother Wilkins rode his old
horse, Charley, a handsome gray. Jason rode an old brown mare, borrowed
from a parishioner for the trip.

Mrs. Wilkins, standing in the door, watched the two ride off together
with a thrill of pride. Jason was almost as tall in the saddle as his
father. He had shot up amazingly of late. The minister was getting very
gray. He had been late in his thirties when he married. But he sat a
horse as though bred to the saddle and Old Charley was a beauty.
Brother Wilkins was very fond of horses and was a good judge of horse
flesh. Sometimes Mrs. Wilkins had thought, that if Ethan had not chosen
to be a Methodist minister he would have made a first-class country
squire.

She watched the two out of sight down the valley road, then with a
little sigh turned back to the empty home.

Jason, though always a little self-conscious when alone with his father,
was delighted with the idea of the trip. They crossed the Ohio on the
ferry and rode rapidly into the West Virginia hills. The minister made a
great effort to be entertaining and Jason was astonished at his father's
intimate knowledge of the countryside.

"I don't see how you remember all the places, father," he said at noon,
when the minister had turned to a side road to find a farmer whom he
wished to greet.

"I had this circuit years ago before you were born, my boy. I know the
people intimately."

"Don't you get tired of it?" asked Jason, suddenly.

"Tired of saving souls?" returned his father. "Do you think you'll ever
get tired of saving bodies?"

"O that's different," answered the boy. "You've got something to take
hold of, with a body."

"And the body ceases to exist when the soul departs. Never forget that,
my boy."

"But you work so hard," insisted Jason, "and you get so little for it. I
don't mean money alone," flushing as if at some memory, "but it doesn't
seem as if the people care. They'll take all they can get out of each
minister as he comes along, and then forget him."

Brother Wilkins looked at Jason, thoughtfully. "Sixteen is very young,
Jason. I'm afraid you were born carnal minded. I pray every night of my
life that as you grow older, you'll grow toward Christ and not away
from Him."

Again Jason flushed uncomfortably and a silence fell that lasted until
they reached the remote hill settlement where service was to be held
that night. The settlement consisted of a log church, surrounded by a
scattered handful of log houses, each already with its tiny glow of
light, for night comes early in the hills. The two had eaten a cold
lunch in the saddles, for church service would begin as soon as they
arrived.

There were twenty-five or thirty people in the rough little church. They
crowded round Brother Wilkins enthusiastically when he entered and he
called them all by name as he shook hands with them. Jason slid into a
back seat. His father mounted to the pulpit.

"Let us open by singing

    'How tedious and tasteless the hours
    When Jesus no longer I see--'"

The old familiar tune! Jason wondered how many meetings his father had
opened with it. The audience sang it with a will. In fact with too much
will. A group of young men on the rear seat opposite Jason sang with
unnecessary fervor, quite drowning out the female voices in the
congregation. Jason saw his father, his face heavily shadowed in the
candle-light, glance askance at the rear seat.

"Let us pray," said Brother Wilkins. There was a rustle as the
congregation knelt. "O God, I have come to You again in this mountain
place after many years and many wanderings. I thank You for giving me
this privilege. I have greeted old friends who have not forgotten me and
who all these years have remembered You and Christ, Your only begotten
Son. Tonight, O Heavenly Father, I have brought with me to this sacred
fold my own one lamb that he might see how sacred and how great is Your
power. Look on him tonight, O Supreme Master, and mark him for Your
own. And remember, that if the young men in the rear seat plan any
disturbance tonight, O Heavenly Father, that the arm of Thy priest is
strong and the soul of Thy servant is resolute. For Jesus Christ's sake,
Amen."

The boom of "Amens" from the back seat was tremendous. Brother Wilkins,
rising after his prayer, looked at the four young men for a long moment,
over his glasses. Then he said:

"Let us sing

    'From Greenland's icy mountains
    To India's coral strands.'"

This was sung with tremendous vim, and the minister began his sermon.
Jason's father was a good preacher. His vocabulary was rich and his
ideas those of a thinking man whose religion was a passion. But the
young men on the rear seat were unimpressed. One of them snored. Brother
Wilkins stopped his sermon.

"Be silent, ye sons of Satan," he thundered. There was silence and he
took up the thread of his talk. A low cat call interrupted him. The
minister stopped and slipped off his coat, folding it carefully as he
laid it on his desk. It was old and the seams would not stand strain. He
rolled up his cuffs as he descended from the pulpit, the congregation
watching him spell-bound. Jason had seen his father in action before and
was deeply embarrassed but not surprised.

Brother Wilkins strode up to the pew where the offenders sat and seized
by the ear the largest of the group, a hulk of twenty-one or so, larger
than the minister. He led the young man into the aisle and reached up
and boxed his ears, with the sound of impact of a club on an empty
barrel.

"Now leave this house of God," roared the minister. The young fellow
sneaked out the door. Brother Wilkins turned back to the pew.

"Don't you tech me or I'll brain ye," cried the youth who was about
Brother Wilkins' own size.

"Hah!" snorted the minister. There was the sound of blows, a quick
scuffling of feet and the second offender was booted out of the door.
The remaining two made a quick and unassisted exit. Breathing a little
heavily, Brother Wilkins returned to his sermon; and to his hypnotized
and immensely regaled congregation it seemed that the rest of his
preaching was as from one inspired by God.

Jason sat brooding deeply. Something within him revolted at the
spectacle of his father descending from the pulpit to beat recalcitrant
members of his congregation. An old and familiar sense of shame
enveloped him, and he was thankful when once again darkness had
enveloped them and they were traveling rapidly along the mountain road.
They were to have a late supper and spend the night at a cabin well
along the road they must travel on the morrow.

Brother Wilkins was in the abstracted state that always followed his
preaching and Jason was glad to respect his silence, until it had lasted
so long that he became uneasy.

"Father, didn't you say that Herd's was five miles beyond the church?"

The minister pulled up his horse. In the darkness Jason could barely see
the outlines of his body.

"Heavens, Jason! Why didn't you rouse me sooner? This isn't the main
traveled road. When did we leave it?"

"I don't know, sir. I thought you knew this part of the country so
well--"

"So I do, ordinarily. But I can't recognize by-paths on a night like
this. Wait, isn't that a light up the mountainside yonder? Come along,
my boy, we'll find out where we are."

The light glowed only faintly from the open door of a cabin. An old
woman, with a pipe in her mouth, sat crooning over a little fire in the
crude fireplace. She looked up in astonishment when the two appeared in
the doorway.

"Why, it's Brother Wilkins!" she cackled. "Lord's sake, what you doin'
clar up hyar!"

"Why, Sister Clark! I am glad to see you," exclaimed Jason's father,
shaking one of the old woman's hands, and shouting into her other, which
she cupped round her ear. "My son and I must have got off the main road
five miles back. We're on our way to Milton."

Sister Clark was visibly excited. "Ye ain't going on a step tonight. I
can fix a shake-down for ye. Thing like this don't happen to a lone old
woman twice in a lifetime. Bring in your saddle-bags--but Lord!" she
stopped aghast. "I ain't got a bit of pork in the house, nor there ain't
a chicken on the place. All I got is corn-meal and molasses."

"Plenty, Sister Clark! Plenty! Get the saddle-bags, Jason, and tie the
horses to graze."

They ate their supper by candle-light after their hostess had cooked the
mush in a kettle hanging from the crane. Brother Wilkins had a violent
choking fit during the meal and Sister Clark pounded him on the back,
apologizing as she did so for her familiarity with the minister.

Jason slept profoundly on his share of the shake-down that night, and at
dawn, after more mush, they were up and away.

Twice on this day, Sunday, Brother Wilkins held service in the mountains
and it was nine o'clock at night when they started toward the Ohio
again. It was not until they had reached the river at dawn and had
roused the ferryman that the minister recovered from his Sunday
abstraction.

"Did you have a pleasant trip, Jason?" he asked as they led the horses
into the boat.

"Yes, father," answered Jason dutifully.

Brother Wilkins looked at the boy, as if he were beholding him from a
new angle.

"You don't look as much like your dear mother as you did in your
childhood, my boy. Sometimes--I wonder--Jason, do you think this life
has been too hard on your mother?"

"Yes, sir, I do. It's hard on a boy, why shouldn't it be doubly hard on
a woman?"

The minister sighed. "Your reply is hardly polite, Jason, though I
suppose my question merited it." Then with sudden heat: "Never mistake
this cold frankness of yours for courage, my son. It takes more courage
usually to be courteous than to be impolite. Did you notice that I
coughed violently yesterday evening at Sister Clark's?"

"Yes, sir."

"Well, the cause of it was this. She went down to the spring and fetched
a pail of water for the mush. When I was eating my helping, I felt a
lump in my mouth. But the old lady had her eye on me every minute for
fear I wouldn't enjoy the frugal meal, so I could only investigate with
my tongue. I found that she had cooked a little bit of a frog in the
mush. Now, Jason, if she had discovered that she never would have
recovered from the mortification. The only time in her life the minister
stopped with her. So, though it made me choke, I swallowed it. That,
sir, is my idea of courtesy. I wish you not to forget it."

Jason's cool, speculative young gaze was on his father's face as he
answered:

"I understand, father."

The minister turned away. "No, you don't. I doubt if you ever do." And
he did not speak again until they reached home.

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WAR



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III

WAR


And so Jason went away to study medicine. He worked very hard and
progressed very rapidly. By the time he was twenty he was no longer "the
doctor's boy." He was a real assistant in all but fees. He had no share
in the doctor's income and always was desperately hard up.

At first, he did not ask his father and mother for help. He did all
sorts of odd chores to pay his way. But as he progressed in his
profession, he had less and less time for earning his up-keep and had
finally to write home for money. His mother always answered his letters
and she never failed to send him money when he asked for it. How she
managed it, Jason never asked. Perhaps he was ashamed to know.

In all these four years he did not come home. He would have liked to but
the trip was prohibitively expensive.

Late in the fall of 1861, he received a letter from his mother
containing a ten-dollar bill. It was a short letter. "Your father can't
live more than a week. Come at once."

Jason put his head down on that letter and sobbed, then dried his eyes
and sought the doctor, who loaned him the rest of the money needed for
the trip.

The minister's circuit had swung him round again to High Hill. Jason
disembarked from the packet late one November afternoon, carrying his
carpet bag. Even in November, High Hill was beautiful. Through his
sadness, Jason again felt the thrill of the giant headlands, the
thousand hills of his boyish imaginings.

There was the same little cottage, more weather-beaten than he had
remembered it. His mother was waiting for him at the door. The four
years had changed her, yet she seemed to Jason more beautiful than his
mental picture of her had been.

She kissed him with trembling lips. "He's still with us," she whispered.
"I'm sure he waited for you."

"What is the matter with him?" asked Jason, huskily, as he deposited his
carpet bag on the sitting-room table.

"Lung fever. He took a bad cold a month ago coming home from West
Virginia in the rain. He was absent-minded, you know. If it hadn't been
for Pilgrim, I don't think he'd ever got here."

"Pilgrim?" asked Jason, warming his hands at the fire.

"Surely I've written you about Pilgrim. Father bought him soon after you
left. He's the wisest horse that ever lived. If you're warm, now, Jason,
come to your father."

He followed her into the bedroom which opened off the kitchen. His
father lay on the feather bed, his eyes closed. O how worn--O how
changed! Young Jason was hardened to suffering and death. He had not
realized that to the sickness and death of one's own, nothing can harden
us. He stood breathing hard while his mother stooped over the bed.

"Ethan," she said softly, "our boy is here."

Brother Wilkins opened his eyes and smiled faintly. He tried to say
something and Jason sprang to take his hand.

"Oh, he wants to speak to you and can't. O my poor dear! O Ethan, my
dearest."

Jason's mother broke down. Jason put his finger on his father's wrist.

After a long moment, "Mother, he's gone," he whispered.

After the funeral, Jason wandered about the village for a day or so,
trying to plan for his mother's future and his own. All the townspeople
were kind to him.

"Haven't forgot how you loaned me those _Harper's Monthlies_ before you
read 'em yourself," said Mr. Inchpin. "Anything I can do for you or your
mother, let me know."

The two had met in Hardwich's store, which was also the post office and
the evening club for the males of High Hill. Jason had dropped in to
post a letter.

A tall scraggly man joined in. "Your father was the best preacher in
Ohio. We was all glad when he got back here."

"He had the gift of prayer," said an old man, in the back of the store.

There was a silence which Jason struggled in vain to break.

Then a young fellow who carried a buggy whip and smoked a cigar said,
"How does the doctoring go, Jason?"

"Well, thanks," returned Jason, looking at the young fellow, intently.
It was Billy Ames, he of the striped pants.

Back through Jason's heart, until now strangely softened by the
happenings of the past few days, surged the accumulated bitterness of
his poverty-stricken youth. He turned abruptly and left the store.

His mother was watching for him, anxiously. "Jason, Pilgrim had an
accident. He's got a frightful cut on his right fore shoulder. He must
have got caught on a nail somehow."

"Let's have a look at him," said Jason.

The big gray was standing stolidly in his stall. Mrs. Wilkins held the
candle while Jason examined him. On the right fore shoulder was a great
three-cornered tear from which the skin hung in a bloody fold.

"I'll have to sew it up." Jason was all surgeon now. "Do you think he'll
stand still for us?"

"Stand still," replied Jason's mother, indignantly. "Why, he'll know
exactly what you are doing, and why."

"All right then. You get me some clean rags and a darning-needle and
I'll get the rest of the things I'll need."

In a few moments the operation was well in hand.

Pilgrim kept his ears back and his eyes on his mistress. He breathed
heavily, but otherwise he did not stir. He was a large horse, with a
small, intelligent head and a mighty chest. Jason's mother held the
candle with one hand while she stroked the big gray's nose with the
other.

"Be careful, Jason, do!" she said softly.

Jason grunted. "You keep him from biting or kicking and I'll do my
share," he said.

"Pilgrim bite!" cried Jason's mother indignantly.

Again Jason grunted, working swiftly, with the skill of trained and
accustomed fingers. The candle flickered on his cool young face, on his
black hair and on his long, strong, surgeon's fingers. It flickered too
on his mother's sweet lips, on her tired brown eyes and iron-gray hair.
It put high-lights on the cameo at her throat and made a grotesque
shadow of her hoop-skirts on the stable wall.

Finally Jason straightened himself with a sigh and wiped his hands on a
towel.

"That's a good job," he said. "Must be some bad spikes here or in the
pasture fence to have given him that rip. I'll hunt them up
tomorrow.--Get over there!"

This last to Pilgrim, who suddenly had put his head on Jason's shoulder
with a soft nuzzling of his nose against the young doctor's cheek and a
little whinny that was almost human.

"Why, Jason, he's thanking you!" cried his mother. "He'll never forget
what you've done for him tonight."

Jason gave the horse a careless slap and started out the stable door.

"You'll be having it that he speaks Greek next," he said.

"You don't know him," replied Jason's mother. "This is the first time
you ever saw him, remember. These last three years of your father's life
he's been like one of the family." She followed Jason into the cottage.
"Often and often before your poor father died he said he'd never have
been able to keep on with the circuit-riding and the preaching if he'd
had to depend on any other horse than Pilgrim. That horse just knew
father was forgetful. He wouldn't budge if father forgot the
saddle-bags. When Pilgrim balked, father always knew he'd forgotten
something and he'd go back for it. I'll have supper on by the time
you've washed up, Jason."

The little stove that was set in the fireplace roared lustily. The
kettle was singing. The old yellow cat slept cozily in the wooden rocker
on the patch-work cushion. All the furniture, so simple and worn, was as
familiar to Jason as the back of his hand.

Jason washed at the bench in the corner, then sat down while his mother
put the supper before him--fried mush, fried salt pork, tea and apple
sauce.

"Well," said Jason soberly, "what are we going to do now, mother?
Father's gone and--"

His mother's trembling lips warned him to stop.

"It doesn't seem possible," she said, "that it's only a week since we
laid him away."

Jason interrupted gently. "I know, mother; but you and I have got to go
on living!"

"It's you I'm worrying about," said his mother.

"I've been wondering if you hadn't better come back to Baltimore with
me," mused Jason. "I can eke out a living somehow for the two of us."

"No," said Mrs. Wilkins decidedly. "You've got burden enough to take
care of yourself. I can get along till you're doctoring for yourself.
Mr. Inchpin will let me have the cottage near the wharf if I'll go up to
his house and cook his dinner for him. Then with a little sewing and a
little nursing here in the village, the cow, the chickens and Pilgrim, I
can get along. But I don't see how I can send you anything, Jason."

Jason had brightened perceptibly. "If I can just get through this year,
mother, I'll be on my feet. But I've got to pay Dr. Edwards back. He's a
hard driver. If we can get together enough for that, I'll manage,
somehow."

Jason's mother sighed. "It does seem as if, all through the years, I
ought to have saved something, but I haven't, not a cent, except what I
raked and scraped together for your doctoring. Two hundred and fifty
dollars a year beside donation parties is quite a sum, Jason, and I feel
guilty that I haven't saved anything for you. But it all went,
especially after father got sickly. I've sold a lot of things, Jason, so
as to send you the money. I'm most at my wit's end now. Grandma's silver
teapot, that kept you three months, and your father's watch, nearly six.
That's the way the things have gone. My, how thankful I was we had 'em."

Jason was still so very like his mother, so very unlike. Where her face
was sweet and tremulous, his was cool and still. His brown eyes were
careless and yet eager. Hers were not inscrutable now. The light had
gone out of them from weeping. Jason's long, strong hands were smooth
and quiet. Hers were knotted and work calloused and a little uncertain.

As if something in her words irritated him, Jason said quickly, "Well,
what did you and father start me on this doctor idea for, if you thought
it was going to cost too much?"

"O, Jason, you know that thought never occurred to either of us! There
are still some things to go that I've sort of hung on to. Take the St.
Bartholomew candlestick to Mr. Inchpin. That will give you the money you
need right now."

Jason looked up at the queerly wrought silver candlestick that was more
like an old oil lamp than a candlestick. His mother's people had brought
it from France with them. The family legend was that some Huguenot
ancestor had come through the massacre of St. Bartholomew with this only
relic of his home wrapped in his bosom.

"Good!" said Jason eagerly. "The old thing is neither fish nor flesh,
anyhow. Too big mouthed for a candle and folks are going to use coal
oil more and more, anyhow. I can be off tomorrow."

"Tomorrow's Thanksgiving, Jason."

"I'll be glad to forget it," grumbled Jason. "What have we to be
thankful for?"

His mother looked at him a little curiously, but she said nothing. Jason
caught the expression in her eyes.

"Don't look at me that way, mother," he burst forth angrily, "I can't
forgive father, with his big brain and body for doing so little for you
and me. I can't forgive him for what he dragged us through--those
donation parties! He had no right to put me through what he did that
year at High Hill. And what did he get out of his life? They lay him
away with the remark that he had a gift of prayer! And his widow may
starve, for all of them."

"Jason, be silent," cried his mother. She had risen and stood facing
him, her face deathly white. "Not one word against your father. Because
you never could appreciate him, you needn't belittle him now. Not one
word," as Jason would have spoken. "He was my husband and I loved him,
God knows. O Ethan, Ethan, how shall I finish my span of years alone!"
she broke down utterly.

Jason put his arms about her. "Mother, I didn't mean to hurt you. Truly
I didn't. It's only that--" he stopped and set his lips tightly while he
petted her in silence.

"I pray, Jason," said his mother, finally, "that you will never have a
grief or a punishment great enough to soften your heart."

Jason did not answer. He went up to see Mr. Inchpin that night, and the
following day started back East again.

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MR. LINCOLN



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IV

MR. LINCOLN


Three times a week during the year that followed, Jason's mother saddled
Pilgrim and rode him to the post office after the shrieks of the whistle
had warned her that the tri-weekly packet had come and gone. Four times
during the year she heard from Jason.


    "April 3, 1862.

    "DEAR MOTHER:

    "I am very well indeed, and hope that you are not overworking.
    Things are not going very well here. Everybody is hard pressed
    because of the war and Dr. Edwards simply can't make any
    collections. We get a good many soldiers who are sent home half
    cured and, of course, we get nothing at all from them--don't want
    to, in fact. Is there any way we could raise just a little money?
    Not a cent that you've earned, understand, but perhaps you could
    sell your old mahogany hat-box. Mrs. Chadwick always wanted it. I
    never did care for those old things and I don't think you do. After
    I get started in practice, I'll buy you a dozen hat-boxes. Won't it
    be great when you can come down here and live with me?

                                                 "Your loving son,
                                                               "JASON."


    "June 7, 1862.

    "DEAR MOTHER:

    "I have been quite sick with a sore hand--almost got gangrene from a
    soldier. That's why you haven't been hearing from me. I received the
    ten dollars. Thank you very much. I didn't think the old trap would
    bring that much. Dr. Edwards said yesterday that I had a genius for
    surgery. The ten dollars paid my board for six weeks, giving me a
    chance to take some extra cases for the doctor. The war looks bad,
    doesn't it? They need surgeons and though I'm doing something in
    patching up these poor fellows and sending them back, I wonder often
    if I oughtn't to go into a war hospital. Do you remember the little
    cameo pin you used to wear till father thought it was too dressy for
    you? If you haven't lost it, I wish you'd send it down here for me
    to pawn. I can get it back after the war. I think of you often
    though I don't write. Don't work too hard.

                                                 "Your loving son,
                                                               "JASON."


    "Sept. 24, 1862.

    "DEAR MOTHER:

    "Could you possibly sell something to get five dollars to me by
    return packet? Will write fully later.

                                                               "JASON."


But there was nothing more to sell.


    "My dear boy," wrote Jason's mother, "I am heartbroken, for I know
    how hard you are working, but truly, I have nothing left of the
    least value. The cameo pin was the last. Am very much worried lest
    you are sick. Do let me know. I am very well and the neighbors are
    kind. Pilgrim is well, too, though the scar is there on his
    shoulder. I'm sure he will always remember what you did for him. He
    is all but human. _Please_ write me.

                                         "A hug and kiss, from Mother."


Jason's fourth letter was urgent and prompt in reply.


    "DEAR MOTHER:

    "I am going into the army, mother. The need for surgeons is urgent
    and I've got to help lick the South. I thought, barring the five
    from you, I could raise enough to buy into practice with Dr. Edwards
    before I leave, so that if I live, I will have that to return to. It
    will cost a hundred dollars. But I can't do it. So I guess you'll
    have to sell Pilgrim. I hate to ask it of you but after all he's
    only an expense to you and I'll buy you another, after the war. Sell
    him to the government for an army horse. Mr. Inchpin will attend to
    it for you.

                                                        "Lovingly,
                                                               "JASON."


Jason's mother read the letter with tears running down her cheeks. It
was November. Drearily the Kentucky hills rolled back from the river and
drearily the Ohio valleys stretched inland. Pilgrim plodded patiently
toward the stable and his mistress, huddled in the saddle, gave him no
heed until Pilgrim stamped impatiently at the stable door. Then she
dismounted and the great horse stamped into his stall.

"O Pilgrim," she sobbed, "Jason is going to war. Jason is going to war.
I can't lose him too!"

The horse turned his fine head and nickered softly as he rubbed his soft
nose on her shoulder.

"And I've got to let you go, old friend," she added. "I know that I
don't need you, Pilgrim. It's just that you are like a living bit of
father--and if Jason would only seem to understand that, it wouldn't be
so hard to let you go. I wonder if all young folks are like Jason?"

Old Pilgrim leaned his head over his stall and in the November gloaming
he looked long at his mistress with his wise and gentle eyes. It was as
if he would tell her that he had learned that youth is always a little
hard; that only long years in harness with always the back-breaking load
to pull, not for oneself, but for others, can make the really grateful
heart. One of the sweet, deep compensations of the years, the gray horse
seemed to say, is that gratitude grows in the soul.

So Jason and Old Pilgrim both went to war. They did not see each other,
but each one, in his own way, made a brilliant record. Pilgrim learned
the sights and sounds and smells of war. The fearful pools of blood
ceased to send him plunging and rearing in harness. The screams of utter
fear or of mortal agony no longer set him to neighing or sweating in
sympathy. Pilgrim, superb in strength and superb in intelligence,
plodded efficiently through a battle just as he had plodded efficiently
over the circuit of Jason's Methodist father.

And Jason, cool and clear-headed, with his wonderful long strong hands,
sawed and sewed and probed and purged his way through field hospital
after field hospital, until the men began to hear of his skill and to
ask for him when the fear of death was on them. His work absorbed him
more and more, until months went by, and he neglected to write to his
mother! Just why, who can say? Each of us looking into his heart,
perhaps can find some answer. But Jason was young, and work and world
hungry. He did not ask himself embarrassing questions. The months
slipped into a year, and the first year into a second year. Still Jason
did not write to his mother, nor did he longer hear from her.

In November of the second year Jason was stationed in a hospital near
Washington. One rainy morning as he made his way to the cot of a man who
was dying of gangrene, an orderly stopped him.

"This is Dr. Jason Wilkins?"

"Yes."

"Sorry, Doctor, but I've got to arrest you and take you to Washington--"

Jason looked the orderly over incredulously. "You've got the wrong man,
friend."

The soldier drew a heavy envelop carefully from his breast pocket, and
handed it to Jason. Jason opened it uneasily, and gasped. This is what
he read: "Show this to Surgeon Jason Wilkins, ---- Regiment. Arrest him.
Bring him to me immediately.--A. LINCOLN."

Jason whitened. "What's up?" he asked the orderly.

"I didn't ask the President," replied the orderly dryly. "We'll start at
once, if you please, Doctor."

In a daze, Jason left for Washington. He thought of all the minor
offenses he had committed. But they were only such as any young fellow
might have committed. He could not believe that any of them had reached
Mr. Lincoln's ears, or that, if they had, the great man in the White
House would have heeded them.

Jason was locked in a room in a Washington boarding-house for one night.
The next day at noon the orderly called for him. Weak-kneed, Jason
followed him up the long drive to the door of the White House, and into
a room where there were more orderlies and a man at a desk writing. An
hour of dazed waiting, then a man came out of a door and spoke to the
man at the desk.

"Surgeon Jason Wilkins," said the sentry.

"Here!" answered Jason.

"This way," jerked the orderly, and Jason found himself in the inner
room, with the door closed behind him. The room was empty, yet filled.
There was but one man in it besides Jason, but that man was Mr. Lincoln.
He sat at a desk, with his somber eyes on Jason's face--still a cool
young face, despite trembling knees.

"You are Jason Wilkins?" said Mr. Lincoln.

"Yes, Mr. President," replied the young surgeon.

"Where are you from?"

"High Hill, Ohio."

"Have you any relatives?"

"Only my mother is living."

"Yes, only a mother! Well, young man, how is your mother?"

Jason stammered. "Why, why--I don't know."

"You don't know!" thundered Lincoln. "And why don't you know? Is she
living or dead?"

"I don't know," said Jason. "To tell the truth, I've neglected to write
and I don't suppose she knows where I am."

There was a silence in the room. Mr. Lincoln clenched a great fist on
his desk, and his eyes scorched Jason. "I had a letter from her. She
supposes you dead and asked me to trace your grave. What was the matter
with her? No good? Like most mothers, a poor sort? Eh? Answer me, sir?"

Jason bristled a little. "The best woman that ever lived, Mr.
President."

"Ah!" breathed Mr. Lincoln. "Still you have no reason to be grateful to
her! How'd you get your training as a surgeon? Who paid for it? Your
father?"

Jason reddened. "Well, no; father was a poor Methodist preacher. Mother
raised the money, though I worked for my board mostly."

"Yes, how'd she raise the money?"

Jason's lips were stiff. "Selling things, Mr. President."

"What did she sell?"

"Father's watch--the old silver teapot--the mahogany hat-box--the St.
Bartholomew candlestick. Old things mostly; beyond use except in
museums."

Again silence in the room, while a look of contempt gathered in Abraham
Lincoln's eyes that seared Jason's cool young soul till it scorched him.
"You poor fool!" said Lincoln. "You poor worm! Her household
treasures--one by one--for you. 'Useless things--fit for museums!' Oh,
you fool!"

Jason flushed angrily and bit his lips. Suddenly the President rose and
pointed a long, bony finger at his desk. "Come here and sit down and
write a letter to your mother!"

Jason stalked obediently over and sat down in the President's seat.
Anger and mortification were ill inspirations for letter-writing, but
under Lincoln's burning eyes Jason seized a pen and wrote his mother a
stilted note. Lincoln paced the floor, pausing now and again to look
over Jason's shoulder.

"Address it and give it to me," said the President. "I'll see that it
gets to her." Then, his stern voice rising a little: "And now, Jason
Wilkins, as long as you are in the army, you write to your mother once a
week. If I have reason to correct you on the matter again, I'll have you
court-martialed."

Jason rose and handed the letter to the President, then stood, angry and
silent, awaiting further orders. Abraham Lincoln took another turn or
two up and down the room. Then he paused before the window and looked
from it a long, long time. Finally he turned to Jason.

"My boy," he said gently, "there's no finer quality in the world than
gratitude. There is nothing a man can have in his heart so mean, so low
as ingratitude. Even a dog appreciates a kindness, never forgets a soft
word, or a bone. To my mind, the noblest holiday in the world is
Thanksgiving. And, next the Creator, there is no one the holiday should
be dedicated to as much as to mothers."

Again Lincoln paused, and looked from the boyish face of the young
surgeon out of the window at the bleak November skies, and Lincoln said
to Jason, with God knows what tragedy of memory in his lonely heart:

    "Freeze, freeze, thou bitter sky,
    Thou dost not bite so nigh
      As benefits forgot."

Another pause. "You may go, my boy." And Lincoln shook hands with
Jason, who stumbled from the room, his mind a chaos of resentment and
anger. He made his way down Pennsylvania Avenue, pausing as two army
officers rode up to a hotel and dismounted, leaving their horses.
Something about the big gray that one of the officers rode seemed
vaguely familiar to the young doctor. The gray turned his small,
intelligent head toward Jason, then with a sudden soft whinny, laid his
head on Jason's shoulder and nuzzled his cheek gently. Jason looked at
the right fore shoulder. A three-cornered scar was there. Jason and Old
Pilgrim never had met but once, and yet--Jason was little more than a
boy. Suddenly he threw his arms around Old Pilgrim's neck, and sobbed
into the silky mane. Passers-by glanced curiously and then went on.
Washington was full of tears those days.

Pilgrim whinnied and waited patiently. Finally Jason dried his eyes,
then stood in thought. The officer who had ridden Pilgrim came out at
last. Jason saluted.

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"Captain, I'd like to buy that horse from you."

The captain laughed. "There are a number of others like you."

"No, but let me tell you about him, Captain. Give me ten minutes. I'm
Dr. Wilkins of ---- Hospital."

"O yes, I know of your work. What's the story, Doctor?"

Jason told Pilgrim's history. "She gave him up for me and now I've found
him," he finished. "I want to buy him back, get a furlough and take him
home to her, myself. I've been saving my money."

"You may have him for just what I paid for him, Doctor," said the
captain, who was considerably Jason's senior. "Tell your mother I wish
my own mother were living and that I do this in her memory."

"Thank you, sir," said Jason.

A week later Jason led Pilgrim out of the freight car in which he had
traveled from Washington to a railway station twenty-five miles from
home. The river packets were not running and this was the nearest
station to High Hill. It was noon and cold. Jason mounted and started
south briskly and once more the Ohio valley opened up before him.

It seemed to Jason that he was seeing the hills for absolutely the first
time. And yet that could not be, for back with the first sight of the
distant river came all his old boyish reverence for the headlands. The
last time he had ridden horseback in the hills had been in the West
Virginia circuit, with his father.

For the first time since his interview with the President, Jason began
to think of his father. All his newly awakened sense of gratitude had
been centered on his mother. Did he then owe his father nothing?

It took courage, it took nerve, it took stomach to patch together the
bloody wrecks on the field of battle. It had taken tenacity to an ideal
to starve and toil for his profession as he had done in Baltimore.
Whence had come these qualities to Jason? He thought once more of his
father on that trip on the West Virginian circuit, of the boys expelled
from the church, of Sister Clark, of his own sense of mortification and
his own contempt. And he dropped his head on his breast with a groan.

And so as the sun set, Pilgrim with the scar on his right fore shoulder
and Jason with the scar on his soul that only remorse implants there,
stopped before the cottage in High Hill. And through the window, Jason's
mother saw them. She rushed to the door and Jason, dismounting, ran up
to her, and dropping on his knees, threw his arms about her waist and
sobbed against her bosom:

"O mother! O mother! Forgive me! I didn't realize. I didn't know!" Just
as many, many sons have done before, and just as many more will do,
please God, as long as love and gratitude endure.





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