Title: The Doctor's Wife
Author: Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth), 1835-1915
Language: English
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THE DOCTOR'S WIFE

A Novel

By the Author of
"Lady Audley's Secret," "Aurora Floyd"
Etc. Etc. Etc.



London
John and Robert Maxwell
Milton House, Shoe Lane, Fleet Street



CONTENTS.

    I. A young man from the country
    II. A sensation author
    III. Isabel
    IV. The end of George Gilbert's holiday
    V. George at home
    VI. Too much alone
    VII. On the bridge
    VIII. About poor Joe Tillet's young wife
    IX. Miss Sleaford's engagement
    X. A bad beginning
    XI. "She only said, 'my life is weary!'"
    XII. Something like a birthday
    XIII. "Oh, my cousin, shallow-hearted!"
    XIV. Under Lord Thurston's oak
    XV. Roland says, "Amen"
    XVI. Mr. Lansdell relates an adventure
    XVII. The first warning
    XVIII. The second warning
    XIX. What might have been!
    XX. "Oceans should divide us!"
    XXI. "Once more the gate behind me falls"
    XXII. "My love's a noble madness"
    XXIII. A little cloud
    XXIV. Lady Gwendoline does her duty
    XXV. "For love himself took part against himself"
    XXVI. A popular preacher
    XXVII. "And now I live, and now my life is done!"
    XXVIII. Trying to be good.
    XXIX. The first whisper of the storm
    XXX. The beginning of a great change
    XXXI. Fifty pounds
    XXXII. "I'll not believe but Desdemona's honest"
    XXXIII. Keeping a promise
    XXXIV. Retrospective
    XXXV. "'Twere best at once to sink to peace"
    XXXVI. Between two worlds
    XXXVII. "If any calm, a calm despair"



THE DOCTORS WIFE.



CHAPTER I.

A YOUNG MAN FROM THE COUNTRY


There were two surgeons in the little town of
Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne, in pretty pastoral Midlandshire,--Mr.
Pawlkatt, who lived in a big, new, brazen-faced house in the middle of
the queer old High Street; and John Gilbert, the parish doctor, who
lived in his own house on the outskirts of Graybridge, and worked very
hard for a smaller income than that which the stylish Mr. Pawlkatt
derived from his aristocratic patients.

John Gilbert was an elderly man, with a young son. He had married late
in life, and his wife had died very soon after the birth of this son. It
was for this reason, most likely, that the surgeon loved his child as
children are rarely loved by their fathers--with an earnest,
over-anxious devotion, which from the very first had been something
womanly in its character, and which grew with the child's growth. Mr.
Gilbert's mind was narrowed by the circle in which he lived. He had
inherited his own patients and the parish patients from his father, who
had been a surgeon before him, and who had lived in the same house, with
the same red lamp over the little old-fashioned surgery-door, for
eight-and-forty years, and had died, leaving the house, the practice,
and the red lamp to his son.

If John Gilbert's only child had possessed the capacity of a Newton or
the aspirations of a Napoleon, the surgeon would nevertheless have shut
him up in the surgery to compound aloes and conserve of roses, tincture
of rhubarb and essence of peppermint. Luckily for the boy, he was only a
common-place lad, with a good-looking, rosy face; clear grey eyes, which
stared at you frankly; and a thick stubble of brown hair, parted in the
middle and waving from the roots. He was tall, straight, and muscular; a
good runner, a first-rate cricketer, tolerably skilful with a pair of
boxing-gloves or single-sticks, and a decent shot. He wrote a fair
business-like hand, was an excellent arithmetician, remembered a
smattering of Latin, a random line here, and there from those Roman
poets and philosophers whose writings had been his torment at a certain
classical and commercial academy at Wareham. He spoke and wrote
tolerable English, had read Shakespeare and Sir Walter Scott, and
infinitely preferred the latter, though he made a point of skipping the
first few chapters of the great novelist's fictions in order to get at
once to the action of the story. He was a very good young man, went to
church two or three times on a Sunday, and would on no account have
broken any one of the Ten Commandments on the painted tablets above the
altar by so much as a thought. He was very good; and, above all, he was
very good-looking. No one had ever disputed this fact: George Gilbert
was eminently good-looking. No one had ever gone so far as to call him
handsome; no one had ever presumed to designate him plain. He had those
homely, healthy good looks which the novelist or poet in search of a
hero would recoil from with actual horror, and which the practical mind
involuntarily associates with tenant-farming in a small way, or the sale
of butcher's meat.

I will not say that poor George was ungentlemanly, because he had kind,
cordial manners, and a certain instinctive Christianity, which had never
yet expressed itself in any very tangible form, but which lent a genial
flavour to every word upon his lips, to every thought in his heart. He
was a very trusting young man, and thought well of all mankind; he was a
Tory, heart and soul, as his father and grandfather had been before him;
and thought especially well of all the magnates round about Wareham and
Graybridge, holding the grand names that had been familiar to him from
his childhood in simple reverence, that was without a thought of
meanness. He was a candid, honest, country-bred young man, who did his
duty well, and filled a small place in a very narrow circle with credit
to himself and the father who loved him. The fiery ordeal of two years'
student-life at St. Bartholomew's had left the lad almost as innocent as
a girl; for John Gilbert had planted his son during those two awful
years in the heart of a quiet Wesleyan family in the Seven-Sisters Road,
and the boy had enjoyed very little leisure for disporting himself with
the dangerous spirits of St. Bartholomew's. George Gilbert was
two-and-twenty, and in all the course of those two-and-twenty years
which made the sum of the young man's life, his father had never had
reason to reproach him by so much as a look. The young doctor was held
to be a model youth in the town of Graybridge; and it was whispered that
if he should presume to lift his eyes to Miss Sophronia Burdock, the
second daughter of the rich maltster, he need not aspire in vain. But
George was by no means a coxcomb, and didn't particularly admire Miss
Burdock, whose eyelashes were a good deal paler than her hair, and whose
eyebrows were only visible in a strong light. The surgeon was young, and
the world was all before him; but he was not ambitious; he felt no sense
of oppression in the narrow High Street at Graybridge. He could sit in
the little parlour next the surgery reading Byron's fiercest poems,
sympathizing in his own way with Giaours and Corsairs; but with no
passionate yearning stirring up in his breast, with no thought of revolt
against the dull quiet of his life.

George Gilbert took his life as he found it, and had no wish to make it
better. To him Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne was all the world. He had been
in London, and had felt a provincial's brief sense of surprised delight
in the thronged streets, the clamour, and the bustle; but he had very
soon discovered that the great metropolis was a dirty and disreputable
place as compared to Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne, where you might have
taken your dinner comfortably off any doorstep as far as the matter of
cleanliness is concerned. The young man was more than satisfied with his
life; he was pleased with it. He was pleased to think that he was to be
his father's partner, and was to live and marry, and have children, and
die at last in the familiar rooms in which he had been born. His nature
was very adhesive, and he loved the things that he had long known,
because they were old and familiar to him; rather than for any merit or
beauty in the things themselves.

The 20th of July, 1852, was a very great day for George Gilbert, and
indeed for the town of Graybridge generally; for on that day an
excursion train left Wareham for London, conveying such roving spirits
as cared to pay a week's visit to the great metropolis upon very
moderate terms. George had a week's holiday, which he was to spend with
an old schoolfellow who had turned author, and had chambers in the
Temple, but who boarded and lodged with a family at Camberwell. The
young surgeon left Graybridge in the maltster's carriage at eight
o'clock upon that bright summer morning, in company with Miss Burdock
and her sister Sophronia, who were going up to London on a visit to an
aristocratic aunt in Baker Street, and who had been confided to George's
care during the journey.

The young ladies and their attendant squire were in very high spirits.
London, when your time is spent between St. Bartholomew's Hospital and
the Seven-Sisters Road, is not the most delightful city in the world;
but London, when you are a young man from the country, with a week's
holiday, and a five-pound note and some odd silver in your pocket,
assumes quite another aspect. George was not enthusiastic; but he looked
forward to his holiday with a placid sense of pleasure, and listened
with untiring good humour to the conversation of the maltster's
daughters, who gave him a good deal of information about their aunt in
Baker Street, and the brilliant parties given by that lady and her
acquaintance. But, amiable as the young ladies were, George was glad
when the Midlandshire train steamed into the Euston Terminus, and his
charge was ended. He handed the Misses Burdock to a portly and rather
pompous lady, who had a clarence-and-pair waiting for her, and who
thanked him with supreme condescension for his care of her nieces. She
even went so far as to ask him to call in Baker Street during his stay
in London, at which Sophronia blushed. But, unhappily, Sophronia did not
blush prettily; a faint patchy red broke out all over her face, even
where her eyebrows ought to have been, and was a long time dispersing.
If the blush had been Beauty's bright, transient glow, as brief as
summer lightning in a sunset sky, George Gilbert could scarcely have
been blind to its flattering import; but he looked at the young lady's
emotion from a professional point of view, and mistook it for
indigestion.

"You're very kind, ma'am," he said. "But I'm going to stay at
Camberwell; I don't think I shall have time to call in Baker Street."

The carriage drove away, and George took his portmanteau and went to
find a cab. He hailed a hansom, and he felt as he stepped into it that
he was doing a dreadful thing, which would tell against him in
Graybridge, if by any evil chance it should become known that he had
ridden in that disreputable vehicle. He thought the horse had a rakish,
unkempt look about the head and mane, like an animal who was accustomed
to night-work, and indifferent as to his personal appearance in the day.
George was not used to riding in hansoms; so, instead of balancing
himself upon the step for a moment while he gave his orders to the
charioteer, he settled himself comfortably inside, and was a little
startled when a hoarse voice at the back of his head demanded "Where to,
sir?" and suggested the momentary idea that he was breaking out into
involuntary ventriloquism.

"The Temple, driver; the Temple, in Fleet Street," Mr. Gilbert said,
politely.

The man banged down a little trap-door and rattled off eastwards.

I am afraid to say how much George Gilbert gave the cabman when he was
set down at last at the bottom of Chancery Lane; but I think he paid for
five miles at eightpence a mile, and a trifle in on account of a
blockade in Holborn; and even then the driver did not thank him.

George was a long time groping about the courts and quadrangles of the
Temple before he found the place he wanted, though he took a crumpled
letter out of his waistcoat-pocket, and referred to it every now and
then when he came to a standstill.

Wareham is only a hundred and twenty miles from London; and the
excursion train, after stopping at every station on the line, had
arrived at the terminus at half-past two o'clock. It was between three
and four now, and the sun was shining upon the river, and the flags in
the Temple were hot under Mr. Gilbert's feet.

He was very warm himself, and almost worn out, when he found at last the
name he was looking for, painted very high up, in white letters, upon a
black door-post,--"4th Floor: Mr. Andrew Morgan and Mr. Sigismund
Smith."

It was in the most obscure corner of the dingiest court in the Temple
that George Gilbert found this name. He climbed a very dirty staircase,
thumping the end of his portmanteau upon every step as he went up, until
he came to a landing, midway between the third and fourth stories; here
he was obliged to stop for sheer want of breath, for he had been lugging
the portmanteau about with him throughout his wanderings in the Temple,
and a good many people had been startled by the aspect of a well-dressed
young man carrying his own luggage, and staring at the names of the
different rows of houses, the courts and quadrangles in the grave
sanctuary.

George Gilbert stopped to take breath; and he had scarcely done so, when
he was terrified by the apparition of a very dirty boy, who slid
suddenly down the baluster between the floor above and the landing, and
alighted face to face with the young surgeon. The boy's face was very
black, and he was evidently a child of tender years, something between
eleven and twelve, perhaps; but he was in nowise discomfited by the
appearance of Mr. Gilbert; he ran up-stairs again, and placed himself
astride upon the slippery baluster with a view to another descent, when
a door above was suddenly opened, and a voice said, "You know where Mr.
Manders, the artist, lives?"

"Yes, sir;--Waterloo Road, sir, Montague Terrace, No. 2."

"Then run round to him, and tell him the subject for the next
illustration in the 'Smuggler's Bride.' A man with his knee upon the
chest of another man, and a knife in his hand. You can remember that?"

"Yes, sir."

"And bring me a proof of chapter fifty-seven."

"Yes, sir."

The door was shut, and the boy ran down-stairs, past George Gilbert, as
fast as he could go. But the door above was opened again, and the same
voice called aloud,--

"Tell Mr. Manders the man with the knife in his hand must have on
top-boots."

"All right, sir," the boy called from the bottom of the staircase.

George Gilbert went up, and knocked at the door above. It was a black
door, and the names of Mr. Andrew Morgan and Mr. Sigismund Smith were
painted upon it in white letters as upon the door-post below.

A pale-faced young man, with a smudge of ink upon the end of his nose,
and very dirty wrist-bands, opened the door.

"Sam!"

"George!" cried the two young men simultaneously, and then began to
shake hands with effusion, as the French playwrights say.

"My dear old George!"

"My dear old Sam! But you call yourself Sigismund now?"

"Yes; Sigismund Smith. It sounds well; doesn't it? If a man's evil
destiny makes him a Smith, the least he can do is to take it out in his
Christian name. No Smith with a grain of spirit would ever consent to be
a Samuel. But come in, dear old boy, and put your portmanteau down;
knock those papers off that chair--there, by the window. Don't be
frightened of making 'em in a muddle; they can't be in a worse muddle
than they are now. If you don't mind just amusing yourself with the
'Times' for half an hour or so, while I finish this chapter of the
'Smuggler's Bride,' I shall be able to strike work, and do whatever you
like; but the printer's boy is coming back in half an hour for the end
of the chapter."

"I won't speak a word," George said, respectfully. The young man with
the smudgy nose was an author, and George Gilbert had an awful sense of
the solemnity of his friend's vocation. "Write away, my dear Sam; I
won't interrupt you."

He drew his chair close to the open window, and looked down into the
court below, where the paint was slowly blistering in the July sun.



CHAPTER II.

A SENSATION AUTHOR.


Mr. Sigismund Smith was a sensation author. That bitter term of
reproach, "sensation," had not been invented for the terror of romancers
in the fifty-second year of this present century; but the thing existed
nevertheless in divers forms, and people wrote sensation novels as
unconsciously as Monsieur Jourdain talked prose. Sigismund Smith was the
author of about half-a-dozen highly-spiced fictions, which enjoyed an
immense popularity amongst the classes who like their literature as they
like their tobacco--very strong. Sigismund had never in his life
presented himself before the public in a complete form; he appeared in
weekly numbers at a penny, and was always so appearing; and except on
one occasion when he found himself, very greasy and dog's-eared at the
edges, and not exactly pleasant to the sense of smell, on the shelf of a
humble librarian and newsvendor, who dealt in tobacco and sweetstuff as
well as literature, Sigismund had never known what it was to be bound.
He was well paid for his work, and he was contented. He had his
ambition, which was to write a great novel; and the archetype of this
_magnum opus_ was the dream which he carried about with him wherever he
went, and fondly nursed by night and day. In the meantime he wrote for
his public, which was a public that bought its literature in the same
manner as its pudding--in penny slices.

There was very little to look at in the court below the window; so
George Gilbert fell to watching his friend, whose rapid pen scratched
along the paper in a breathless way, which indicated a dashing and
Dumas-like style of literature, rather than the polished composition of
a Johnson or an Addison. Sigismund only drew breath once, and then he
paused to make frantic gashes at his shirt-collar with an inky bone
paper-knife that lay upon the table.

"I'm only trying whether a man would cut his throat from right to left,
or left to right," Mr. Smith said, in answer to his friend's look of
terror; "it's as well to be true to nature; or as true as one can be,
for a pound a page--double-column pages, and eighty-one lines in a
column. A man would cut his throat from left to right: he couldn't do it
in the other way without making perfect slices of himself."

"There's a suicide, then, in your story?" George said, with a look of
awe.

"_A_ suicide!" exclaimed Sigismund Smith; "_a_ suicide in the
'Smuggler's Bride!' why, it teems with suicides. There's the Duke of
Port St. Martin's, who walls himself up alive in his own cellar; and
there's Leonie de Pasdebasque, the ballet-dancer, who throws herself out
of Count Cæsar Maraschetti's private balloon; and there's Lilia, the
dumb girl,--the penny public like dumb girls,--who sets fire to herself
to escape from the--in fact, there's lots of them," said Mr. Smith,
dipping his pen in his ink, and hurrying wildly along the paper.

The boy came back before the last page was finished, and Mr. Smith
detained him for five or ten minutes; at the end of which time he rolled
up the manuscript, still damp, and dismissed the printer's emissary.

"Now, George," he said, "I can talk to you."

Sigismund was the son of a Wareham attorney, and the two young men had
been schoolfellows at the Classical and Commercial Academy in the
Wareham Road. They had been schoolfellows, and were very sincerely
attached to each other. Sigismund was supposed to be reading for the
Bar; and for the first twelve months of his sojourn in the Temple the
young man had worked honestly and conscientiously; but finding that his
legal studies resulted in nothing but mental perplexity and confusion,
Sigismund beguiled his leisure by the pursuit of literature.

He found literature a great deal more profitable and a great deal easier
than the study of Coke upon Lyttleton, or Blackstone's Commentaries; and
he abandoned himself entirely to the composition of such works as are to
be seen, garnished with striking illustrations, in the windows of humble
newsvendors in the smaller and dingier thoroughfares of every large
town. Sigismund gave himself wholly to this fascinating pursuit, and
perhaps produced more sheets of that mysterious stuff which literary
people call "copy" than any other author of his age.

It would be almost impossible for me adequately to describe the
difference between Sigismund Smith as he was known to the very few
friends who knew anything at all about him, and Sigismund Smith as he
appeared on paper.

In the narrow circle of his home Mr. Smith was a very mild young man,
with the most placid blue eyes that ever looked out of a human head, and
a good deal of light curling hair. He was a very mild young man. He
could not have hit any one if he had tried ever so; and if you had hit
him, I don't think he would have minded--much. It was not in him to be
very angry; or to fall in love, to any serious extent; or to be
desperate about anything. Perhaps it was that he exhausted all that was
passionate in his nature in penny numbers, and had nothing left for the
affairs of real life. People who were impressed by his fictions, and
were curious to see him, generally left him with a strong sense of
disappointment, if not indignation.

Was this meek young man the Byronic hero they had pictured? Was this the
author of "Colonel Montefiasco, or the Brand upon the Shoulder-blade?"
They had imagined a splendid creature, half magician, half brigand, with
a pale face and fierce black eyes, a tumbled mass of raven hair, a bare
white throat, a long black velvet dressing-gown, and thin tapering
hands, with queer agate and onyx rings encircling the flexible fingers.

And then the surroundings. An oak-panelled chamber, of course--black
oak, with grotesque and diabolic carvings jutting out at the angles of
the room; a crystal globe upon a porphyry pedestal; a mysterious
picture, with a curtain drawn before it--certain death being the fate of
him who dared to raise that curtain by so much as a corner. A
mantel-piece of black marble, and a collection of pistols and scimitars,
swords and yataghans--especially yataghans--glimmering and flashing in
the firelight. A little show of eccentricity in the way of household
pets: a bear under the sofa, and a tame rattlesnake coiled upon the
hearth-rug. This was the sort of thing the penny public expected of
Sigismund Smith; and, lo, here was a young man with perennial
ink-smudges upon his face, and an untidy chamber in the Temple, with
nothing more romantic than a waste-paper basket, a litter of old letters
and tumbled proofs, and a cracked teapot simmering upon the hob.

This was the young man who described the reckless extravagance of a
Montefiasco's sumptuous chamber, the mysterious elegance of a Diana
Firmiani's dimly-lighted boudoir. This was the young man in whose works
there were more masked doors, and hidden staircases, and revolving
picture-frames and sliding panels, than in all the old houses in Great
Britain; and a greater length of vaulted passages than would make an
underground railway from the Scottish border to the Land's End. This was
the young man who, in an early volume of poems--a failure, as it is the
nature of all early volumes of poems to be--had cried in passionate
accents to some youthful member of the aristocracy, surname unknown--

     "Lady Mable, Lady May, no pæan in your praise I'll sing;
       My shattered lyre all mutely tells
     The tortured hand that broke the string.
       Go, fair and false, while jangling bells
     Through golden waves of sunshine ring;
       Go, mistress of a thousand spells:
     But know, midst those you've left forlorn,
       _One_, lady, gives you scorn for scorn."

"Now, George," Mr. Smith said, as he pushed away a very dirty inkstand,
and wiped his pen upon the cuff of his coat,--"now, George, I can attend
to the rights of hospitality. You must be hungry after your journey,
poor old boy! What'll you take?"

There were no cupboards in the room, which was very bare of furniture,
and the only vestiges of any kind of refreshment were a brown
crockery-ware teapot upon the hob, and a roll and pat of butter upon a
plate on the mantel-piece.

"Have something!" Sigismund said. "I know there isn't much, because, you
see, I never have time to attend to that sort of thing. Have some bread
and marmalade?"

He drew out a drawer in the desk before which he was sitting, and
triumphantly displayed a pot of marmalade with a spoon in it.

"Bread and marmalade and cold tea's capital," he said; "you'll try some,
George, won't you? and then we'll go home to Camberwell."

Mr. Gilbert declined the bread and marmalade; so Sigismund prepared to
take his departure.

"Morgan's gone into Buckinghamshire for a week's fishing," he said, "so
I've got the place to myself. I come here of a morning, you know, work
all day, and go home to tea and a chop or a steak in the evening. Come
along, old fellow."

The young men went out upon the landing. Sigismund locked the black door
and put the key in his pocket. They went down-stairs, and through the
courts, and across the quadrangles of the Temple, bearing towards that
outlet which is nearest Blackfriars Bridge.

"You'd like to walk, I suppose, George?" Mr. Smith asked.

"Oh, yes; we can talk better walking."

They talked a great deal as they went along. They were very fond of one
another, and had each of them a good deal to tell; but George wasn't
much of a talker as compared to his friend Sigismund. That young man
poured forth a perpetual stream of eloquence, which knew no exhaustion.

"And so you like the people at Camberwell?" George said.

"Oh yes, they're capital people; free and easy, you know, and no stupid
stuck-up gentility about them. Not but what Sleaford's a gentleman; he's
a barrister. I don't know exactly where his chambers are, or in what
court he practises when he's in town; but he _is_ a barrister. I suppose
he goes on circuit sometimes, for he's very often away from home for a
long time together; but I don't know what circuit he goes on. It doesn't
do to ask a man those sort of questions, you see, George; so I hold my
tongue. I don't think he's rich, that's to say not rich in a regular
way. He's flush of money sometimes, and then you should see the Sunday
dinners--salmon and cucumber, and duck and green peas, as if they were
nothing."

"Is he a nice fellow?"

"Oh yes; a jolly, out-spoken sort of a fellow, with a loud voice and
black eyes. He's a capital fellow to me, but he's not fond of company.
He seldom shows if I take down a friend. Very likely you mayn't see him
all the time you stay there. He'll shut himself up in his own room when
he's at home, and won't so much as look at you."

George seemed to be rather alarmed at this prospect.

"But if Mr. Sleaford objects to my being in the house," he began,
"perhaps I'd better--"

"Oh, he doesn't object, bless you!" Sigismund cried, hastily; "not a bit
of it. I said to Mrs. Sleaford the other morning at breakfast, 'A friend
of mine is coming up from Midlandshire; he's as good a fellow as ever
breathed,' I said, 'and good-looking into the bargain,'--don't you
blush, George, because it's spooney,--and I asked Mrs. S. if she could
give you a room and partially board you,--I'm a partial boarder, you
know,--for a week or so. She looked at her husband,--she's very sharp
with all of _us_, but she's afraid of _him_,--and Sleaford said yes; my
friend might come and should be welcome, as long as he wasn't bothered
about it. So your room's ready, George, and you come as my visitor; and
I can get orders for all the theatres in London, and I'll give you a
French dinner in the neighbourhood of Leicester Square every day of your
life, if you like; and we'll fill the cup of dissipation to the highest
top sparkle."

It was a long walk from the Temple to Camberwell; but the two young men
were good walkers, and as Sigismund Smith talked unceasingly all the
way, there were no awkward pauses in the conversation. They walked the
whole length of the Walworth Road, and turned to the left soon after
passing the turn-pike. Mr. Smith conducted his friend by mazy
convolutions of narrow streets and lanes, where there were pretty little
villas and comfortable cottages nestling amongst trees, and where there
was the perpetual sound of clattering tin pails and the slopping of
milk, blending pleasantly with the cry of the milkman. Sigismund led
George through these shady little retreats, and past a tall
stern-looking church, and along by the brink of a canal, till they came
to a place where the country was wild and sterile in the year 1852. I
dare say that railways have cut the neighbourhood all to pieces by this
time, and that Mr. Sleaford's house has been sold by auction in the form
of old bricks; but on this summer afternoon the place to which Sigismund
brought his friend was quite a lonely, countrified spot, where there was
one big, ill-looking house, shut in by a high wall, and straggling rows
of cottages dwindling away into pigsties upon each side of it.

Standing before a little wooden door in the wall that surrounded Mr.
Sleaford's garden, George Gilbert could only see that the house was a
square brick building, with sickly ivy straggling here and there about
it, and long narrow windows considerably obscured by dust and dirt. It
was not a pleasant house to look at, however agreeable it might be as a
habitation; and George compared it unfavourably with the trim
white-walled villas he had seen on his way,--those neat little mansions
at five-and-thirty pounds a year; those cosy little cottages, with
shining windows that winked and blinked in the sunshine by reason of
their cleanliness; those dazzling brass plates, which shone like brazen
shields upon the vivid green of newly-painted front doors. If Mr.
Sleaford's house had ever been painted within Mr Sleaford's memory, the
barrister must have been one of the oldest inhabitants of that sterile
region on the outskirts of Camberwell; if Mr. Sleaford held the house
upon a repairing lease, he must have anticipated a prodigious claim for
dilapidations at the expiration of his tenancy. Whatever could be broken
in Mr. Sleaford's house was broken; whatever could fall out of repair
had so fallen. The bricks held together, and the house stood; and that
was about all that could be said for the barrister's habitation.

The bell was broken, and the handle rattled loosely in a kind of basin
of tarnished brass, so it was no use attempting to ring; but Sigismund
was used to this. He stooped down, put his lips to a hole broken in the
wood-work above the lock of the garden-door, and gave a shrill whistle.

"They understand that," he said; "the bell's been broken ever since I've
lived here, but they never have anything mended."

"Why not?"

"Because they're thinking of leaving. I've been with them two years and
a half, and they've been thinking of leaving all the time. Sleaford has
got the house cheap, and the landlord won't do anything; so between them
they let it go. Sleaford talks about going to Australia some of these
days."

The garden-door was opened while Mr. Smith was talking, and the two
young men went in. The person who had admitted them was a boy who had
just arrived at that period of life when boys are most obnoxious. He had
ceased to be a boy pure and simple, and had not yet presumed to call
himself a young man. Rejected on one side by his juniors, who found him
arrogant and despotic, mooting strange and unorthodox theories with
regard to marbles, and evincing supreme contempt for boys who were not
familiar with the latest vaticinations of the sporting prophets in
"Bell's Life" and the "Sunday Times;" and flouted on the other hand by
his seniors, who offered him halfpence for the purchase of hardbake, and
taunted him with base insinuations when he was seized with a sudden
fancy for going to look at the weather in the middle of a strong
cheroot,--the hobbledehoy sought vainly for a standing-place upon the
social scale, and finding none, became a misanthrope, and wrapped
himself in scorn as in a mantle. For Sigismund Smith the gloomy youth
cherished a peculiar hatred. The young author was master of that proud
position to obtain which the boy struggled in vain. He was a man! He
could smoke a cigar to the very stump, and not grow ashy pale, or
stagger dizzily once during the operation; but how little he made of his
advantages! He could stay out late of nights, and there was no one to
reprove him, _He_ could go into a popular tavern, and call for
gin-and-bitters, and drink the mixture without so much as a wry face,
and slap his money upon the pewter counter, and call the barmaid "Mary;"
and there was no chance of _his_ mother happening to be passing at that
moment, and catching a glimpse of his familiar back-view through the
half-open swinging door, and rushing in, red and angry, to lead him off
by the collar of his jacket, amid the laughter of heartless bystanders.
No; Sigismund Smith was a MAN. He might have got tipsy if he had liked,
and walked about London half the night, ringing surgeons' bells, and
pulling off knockers, and being taken to the station-house early in the
morning, to be bailed out by a friend by-and-by, and to have his name in
the Sunday papers, with a sensational heading, "Another tipsy swell," or
"A modern spring-heeled Jack."

Yes; Horace Sleaford hated his mother's partial boarder; but his hatred
was tempered by disdain. What did Mr. Smith make of all his lofty
privileges? Nothing; absolutely nothing. The glory of manhood was thrown
away upon a mean-spirited cur, who, possessed of liberty to go where he
pleased, had never seen a fight for the championship of England, or the
last grand rush for the blue riband of the turf; and who, at
four-and-twenty years of age, ate bread and marmalade openly in the face
of contemptuous mankind. Master Sleaford shut the door with a bang, and
locked it. There was one exception to the rule of no repairs in Mr.
Sleaford's establishment, the locks were all kept in excellent order.
The disdainful boy took the key from the lock, and carried it in-doors
on his little finger. He had warts upon his hands, and warts are the
stigmata of boyhood; and the sleeves of his jacket were white and shiny
at the elbows, and left him cruelly exposed about the wrists. The
knowledge of his youth, and that shabby frouziness of raiment peculiar
to middle-class hobbledehoyhood, gave him a sulky fierceness of aspect,
which harmonized well with a pair of big black eyes and a tumbled shock
of blue-black hair. He suspected everybody of despising him, and was
perpetually trying to look-down the scorn of others with still deeper
scorn. He stared at George Gilbert, as the young man came into the
garden, but did not deign to speak. George was six feet high, and that
was in itself enough to make _him_ hateful.

"Well, Horace!" Mr. Smith said, good-naturedly.

"Well, young 'un," the boy answered, disdainfully, "how do _you_ find
yourself?"

Horace Sleaford led the way into the house. They went up a flight of
steps leading to a half-glass door. It might have been pretty once upon
a time, when the glass was bright, and the latticed porch sheltered by
clustering roses and clematis; but the clematis had withered, and the
straggling roses were choked with wild convolvulus tendrils, that wound
about the branches like weedy serpents, and stifled buds and blossoms in
their weedy embrace.

The boy banged open the door of the house, as he had banged-to the door
of the garden. He made a point of doing every thing with a bang; it was
one way of evincing his contempt for his species.

"Mother's in the kitchen," he said; "the boys are on the common flying a
kite, and Izzie's in the garden."

"Is your father at home?" Sigismund asked.

"No, he isn't, Clever; you might have known that without asking.
Whenever is he at home at this time of day?"

"Is tea ready?"

"No, nor won't be for this half-hour," answered the boy, triumphantly;
"so, if you and your friend are hungry, you'd better have some bread and
marmalade. There's a pot in your drawer up-stairs. I haven't taken any,
and I shouldn't have seen it if I hadn't gone to look for a steel pen;
so, if you've made a mark upon the label, and think the marmalade's gone
down lower, it isn't _me_. Tea won't be ready for half-an-hour; for the
kitchen-fire's been smokin', and the chops can't be done till that's
clear; and the kettle ain't on either; and the girl's gone to fetch a
fancy loaf,--so you'll have to wait."

"Oh, never mind that," Sigismund said; "come into the garden, George;
I'll introduce you to Miss Sleaford."

"Then _I_ shan't go with you," said the boy; "I don't care for girls'
talk. I say, Mr. Gilbert, you're a Midlandshire man, and you ought to
know something. What odds will you give me against Mr. Tomlinson's brown
colt, Vinegar Cruet, for the Conventford steeple-chase?"

Unfortunately Mr. Gilbert was lamentably ignorant of the merits or
demerits of Vinegar Cruet.

"I'll tell you what I'll do with you, then," the boy said; "I'll take
fifteen to two against him in fourpenny-bits, and that's one less than
the last Manchester quotation."

George shook his head. "Horse-racing is worse than Greek to me, Master
Sleaford," he said.

The "Master" goaded the boy to retaliate.

"Your friend don't seem to have seen much life," he said to Sigismund.
"I think we shall be able to show him a thing or two before he goes back
to Midlandshire, eh, Samuel?"

Horace Sleaford had discovered that fatal name, Samuel, in an old
prayer-book belonging to Mr. Smith; and he kept it in reserve, as a kind
of poisoned dart, always ready to be hurled at his foe.

"We'll teach him a little life, eh, SAMUEL?" he repeated, "Haw, haw,
haw!"

But his gaiety was cut suddenly short; for a door in the shadowy passage
opened, and a woman's face, thin and vinegary of aspect, looked out, and
a shrill voice cried:

"Didn't I tell you I wanted another penn'orth of milk fetched, you young
torment? But, law, you're like the rest of them, that's all! _I_ may
slave my life out, and there isn't one of you will as much as lift a
finger to help me."

The boy disappeared upon this, grumbling sulkily; and Sigismund opened a
door leading into a parlour.

The room was large, but shabbily furnished and very untidy. The traces
of half-a-dozen different occupations were scattered about, and the
apartment was evidently inhabited by people who made a point of never
putting anything away. There was a work-box upon the table, open, and
running over with a confusion of tangled tapes, and bobbins, and a mass
of different-coloured threads, that looked like variegated vermicelli.
There was an old-fashioned desk, covered with dusty green baize, and
decorated with loose brass-work, which caught at people's garments or
wounded their flesh when the desk was carried about; this was open, like
the work-box, and was littered with papers that had been blown about by
the summer breeze, and were scattered all over the table and the floor
beneath it. On a rickety little table near the window there was a
dilapidated box of colours, a pot of gum with a lot of brushes sticking
up out of it, half-a-dozen sheets of Skelt's dramatic scenes and
characters lying under scraps of tinsel, and fragments of coloured
satin, and neatly-folded packets of little gold and silver dots, which
the uninitiated might have mistaken for powders. There were some
ragged-looking books on a shelf near the fire-place; two or three
different kinds of inkstands on the mantel-piece; a miniature wooden
stage, with a lop-sided pasteboard proscenium and greasy tin lamps, in
one corner of the floor; a fishing-rod and tackle leaning against the
wall in another corner; and the room was generally pervaded by
copy-books, slate-pencils, and torn Latin grammars with half a
brown-leather cover hanging to the leaves by a stout drab thread.
Everything in the apartment was shabby, and more or less dilapidated;
nothing was particularly clean; and everywhere there was the evidence of
boys.

I believe Mr. Sleaford's was the true policy. If you have boys, "cry
havoc, and let loose the dogs of war;" shut your purse against the
painter and the carpenter, the plumber and glazier, the upholsterer and
gardener; "let what is broken, so remain,"--reparations are wasted
labour and wasted money. Buy a box of carpenter's tools for your boys,
if you like, and let them mend what they themselves have broken; and, if
you don't mind their sawing off one or two of their fingers
occasionally, you may end by making them tolerably useful.

Mr. Sleaford had one daughter and four sons, and the sons were all boys.
People ceased to wonder at the shabbiness of his furniture and the
dilapidation of his house, when they were made aware of this fact. The
limp chintz curtains that straggled from the cornice had been torn
ruthlessly down to serve as draperies for Tom when he personated the
ghost in a charade, or for Jack when he wanted a sail to fasten to his
fishing-rod, firmly planted on the quarter-deck of the sofa. The chairs
had done duty as blocks for the accommodation of many an imaginary Anne
Boleyn and Marie Antoinette, upon long winter evenings, when Horace
decapitated the sofa-pillow with a smoky poker, while Tom and Jack kept
guard upon the scaffold, and held the populace--of one--at bay with
their halberds--the tongs and shovel. The loose carpets had done duty as
raging oceans on many a night, when the easy-chair had gone to pieces
against the sideboard, with a loss of two wine-glasses, and all hands
had been picked up in a perishing state by the crew of the sofa, after
an undramatic interlude of slaps, cuffs, and remonstrances from the
higher powers, who walked into the storm-beaten ocean with cruel
disregard of the unities. Mr. Sleaford had a room to himself
up-stairs--a Bluebeard chamber, which the boys never entered; for the
barrister made a point of locking his door whenever he left his room,
and his sons were therefore compelled to respect his apartment. They
looked through the keyhole now and then, to see if there was anything of
a mysterious nature in the forbidden chamber; but, as they saw nothing
but a dingy easy-chair and an office-table, with a quantity of papers
scattered about it, their curiosity gradually subsided, and they ceased
to concern themselves in any manner about the apartment, which they
always spoke of as "Pa's room."



CHAPTER III.

ISABEL.


The garden at the back of Mr. Sleaford's house was a large square plot
of ground, with fine old pear-trees sheltering a neglected lawn. A row
of hazel-bushes screened all the length of the wall upon one side of the
garden; and wherever you looked, there were roses and sweet-brier,
espaliered apples, and tall straggling raspberry-bushes, all equally
unfamiliar with the gardener's pruning knife; though here and there you
came to a luckless bush that had been hacked at and mutilated in some
amateur operations of "the boys."

It was an old-fashioned garden, and had doubtless once been beautifully
kept; for bright garden-flowers grew up amongst the weeds summer after
summer, as if even neglect or cruel usage could not disroot them from
the familiar place they loved. Thus rare orchids sprouted up out of beds
that were half full of chickweed, and lilies-of-the-valley flourished
amongst the ground-sel in a shady corner under the water-butt. There
were vines, upon which no grape had ever been suffered to ripen during
Mr. Sleaford's tenancy, but which yet made a beautiful screen of verdant
tracery all over the back of the house, twining their loving tendrils
about the dilapidated Venetian shutters, that rotted slowly on their
rusted hinges. There were strawberry-beds, and there was an arbour at
one end of the garden in which the boys played at "beggar my neighbour,"
and "all fours," with greasy, dog's-eared cards in the long summer
afternoons; and there were some rabbit-hutches--sure evidence of the
neighbourhood of boys--in a sheltered corner under the hazel-bushes. It
was a dear old untidy place, where the odour of distant pigsties mingled
faintly with the perfume of the roses; and it was in this neglected
garden that Isabel Sleaford spent the best part of her idle, useless
life.

She was sitting in a basket-chair under one of the pear-trees when
Sigismund Smith and his friend went into the garden to look for her. She
was lolling in a low basket-chair, with a book on her lap, and her chin
resting on the palm of her hand, so absorbed by the interest of the page
before her that she did not even lift her eyes when the two young men
went close up to her. She wore a muslin dress a good deal tumbled and
not too clean, and a strip of black velvet was tied round her long
throat. Her hair was almost as black as her brother's, and was rolled up
in a great loose knot, from which a long untidy curl fell straggling on
her white throat--her throat was very white, with the dead, yellowish
whiteness of ivory.

"I wish that was 'Colonel Montefiasco,'" said Mr. Smith, pointing to the
book which the young lady was reading. "I should like to see a lady so
interested in one of _my_ books that she wouldn't so much as look up
when a gentleman was waiting to be introduced to her."

Miss Sleaford shut her book and rose from her low chair, abashed by this
reproach; but she kept her thumb between the pages, and evidently meant
to go on with the volume at the first convenient opportunity. She did
not wait for any ceremonious introduction to George, but held out her
hand to him, and smiled at him frankly.

"Yon are Mr. Gilbert, I know," she said. "Sigismund has been talking of
you incessantly for the last week. Mamma has got your room ready; and I
suppose we shall have tea soon. There are to be some chops on purpose
for your friend, Sigismund, mamma told me to tell you."

She glanced downwards at the book, as much as to say that she had
finished speaking, and wanted to get back to it.

"What is it, Izzie?" Sigismund asked, interpreting her look.

"Algerman Mountfort."

"Ah, I thought so. Always _his_ books."

A faint blush trembled over Miss Sleaford's pale face.

"They are so beautiful!" she said.

"Dangerously beautiful, I'm afraid, Isabel," the young man said,
gravely; "beautiful sweetmeats, with opium inside the sugar. These books
don't make you happy, do they, Izzie?"

"No, they make me unhappy; but"--she hesitated a little, and then
blushed as she said--"I like that sort of unhappiness. It's better than
eating and drinking and sleeping, and being happy that way."

George could only stare at the young lady's kindling face, which lighted
up all in a moment, and was suddenly beautiful, like some transparency
which seems a dingy picture till you put a lamp behind it. The young
surgeon could only stare wonderingly at Mr. Sleaford's daughter, for he
hadn't the faintest idea what she and his friend were talking about. He
could only watch her pale face, over which faint blushes trembled and
vanished like the roseate reflections of a sunset sky. George Gilbert
saw that Isabel Sleaford had eyes that were large and black, like her
brother's, but which were entirely different from his, notwithstanding;
for they were soft and sleepy, with very little light in them, and what
little light there was, only a dim dreamy glimmer in the depths of the
large pupils. Being a very quiet young man, without much to say for
himself, George Gilbert had plenty of leisure in which to examine the
young lady's face as she talked to her mother's boarder, who was on
cordial brotherly terms with her. George was not a very enthusiastic
young man, and he looked at Miss Sleaford's face with no more emotion
than if she had been a statue amongst many statues in a gallery of
sculpture. He saw that she had small delicate features and a pale face,
and that her great black eyes alone invested her with a kind of weird
and melancholy beauty, which kindled into warmer loveliness when she
smiled.

George did not see the full extent of Isabel Sleaford's beauty, for he
was merely a good young man, with a tolerable commonplace intellect, and
Isabel's beauty was of a poetical kind, which could only be fully
comprehended by a poet; but Mr. Gilbert arrived at a vague conviction
that she was what he called "pretty," and he wondered how it was that
her eyes looked a tawny yellow when the light shone full upon them, and
a dense black when they were shadowed by their dark lashes.

George was not so much impressed by Miss Sleaford's beauty as by the
fact that she was entirely different from any woman he had ever seen
before; and I think herein lay this young lady's richest charm, by right
of which she should have won the homage of an emperor. There was no one
like her. Whatever beauty she had was her own, and no common property
shared with a hundred other pretty girls. You saw her once, and
remembered her for ever; but you never saw any mortal face that reminded
you of hers.

She shut her book altogether at Sigismund's request, and went with the
two young men to show George the garden; but she carried the
dingy-looking volume lovingly under her arm, and she relapsed into a
dreamy silence every now and then, as if she had been reading the hidden
pages by some strange faculty of clairvoyance.

Horace Sleaford came running out presently, and summoned the wanderers
to the house, where tea was ready.

"The boys are to have theirs in the kitchen," he said; "and we elders
tea together in the front parlour."

Three younger boys came trooping out as he spoke, and one by one
presented a dingy paw to Mr. Gilbert. They had been flying a kite, and
fishing in the canal, and helping to stack some hay in the distant
meadow; and they were rough and tumbled, and smelt strongly of out-door
amusements. They were all three very much like their brother; and
George, looking at the four boys as they clustered round him, saw eight
of the blackest eyes he ever remembered having looked upon; but not one
of those four pairs of eyes bore any resemblance to Isabel's. The boys
were only Miss Sleaford's half-brothers. Mr. Sleaford's first wife had
died three years after her marriage, and Isabel's only memory of her
mother was the faint shadow of a loving, melancholy face; a transient
shadow, that came to the motherless girl sometimes in her sleep.

An old servant, who had come one day, long ago, to see the Sleafords,
told Isabel that her mother had once had a great trouble, and that it
had killed her. The child had asked what the great trouble was; but the
old servant only shook her head, and said, "Better for you not to know,
my poor, sweet lamb; better for you never to know."

There was a pencil-sketch of the first Mrs. Sleaford in the best
parlour; a fly-spotted pencil-sketch, which represented a young woman
like Isabel, dressed in a short-waisted gown, with big balloon sleeves;
and this was all Miss Sleaford knew of her mother.

The present Mrs. Sleaford was a shrewish little woman, with light hair,
and sharp grey eyes; a well-meaning little woman, who made everybody
about her miserable, and who worked from morning till night, and yet
never seemed to finish any task she undertook. The Sleafords kept one
servant, a maid-of-all-work, who was called the girl; but this young
person very rarely emerged from the back kitchen, where there was a
perpetual pumping of water and clattering of hardware, except to
disfigure the gooseberry-bushes with pudding-cloths and dusters, which
she hung out to dry in the sunshine. To the ignorant mind it would have
seemed that the Sleafords might have been very nearly as well off
without a servant; for Mrs. Sleaford appeared to do all the cooking and
the greater part of the house-work, while Isabel and the boys took it in
turns to go upon errands and attend to the garden-door.

The front parlour was a palatial chamber as compared to the back; for
the boys were chased away with slaps by Mrs. Sleaford when they carried
thither that artistic paraphernalia which she called their "rubbish,"
and the depredations of the race were, therefore, less visible in this
apartment. Mrs. Sleaford had made herself "tidy" in honour of her new
boarder, and her face was shining with the recent application of strong
yellow soap. George saw at once that she was a very common little woman,
and that any intellectual graces inherited by the boys must have
descended to them from their father. He had a profound reverence for the
higher branch of the legal profession, and he pondered that a barrister
should have married such a woman as Mrs. Sleaford, and should be content
to live in the muddle peculiar to a household where the mistress is her
own cook, and the junior branches are amateur errand boys.

After tea the two young men walked up and down the weedy pathways in the
garden, while Isabel sat under her favourite pear-tree reading the
volume she had been so loth to close. Sigismund and his Midlandshire
friend walked up and down, smoking cigars, and talking of what they
called old times; but those old times were only four or five years ago,
though the young men talked like greybeards, who look back half a
century or so, and wonder at the folly of their youth.

Isabel went on with her book; the light was dying away little by little,
dropping down behind the pear-trees at the western side of the garden,
and the pale evening star glimmered at the end of one of the pathways.
She read on more eagerly, almost breathlessly, as the light grew less;
for her step-mother would call her in by-and-by, and there would be a
torn jacket to mend, perhaps, or a heap of worsted socks to be darned
for the boys; and there would be no chance of reading another line of
that sweet sentimental story, that heavenly prose, which fell into a
cadence like poetry, that tender, melancholy music which haunted the
reader long after the book was shut and laid aside, and made the dull
course of common life so dismally unendurable.

Isabel Sleaford was not quite eighteen years of age. She had been taught
a smattering of everything at a day-school in the Albany Road; rather a
stylish seminary in the opinion of the Camberwellians. She knew a little
Italian, enough French to serve for the reading of novels that she might
have better left unread, and just so much of modern history as enabled
her to pick out all the sugar-plums in the historian's pages,--the Mary
Stuarts, and Joan of Arcs, and Anne Boleyns, the Iron Masks and La
Vallières, the Marie Antoinettes and Charlotte Cordays, luckless
Königsmarks and wicked Borgias; all the romantic and horrible stories
scattered amid the dry records of Magna Chartas and Reform Bills,
clamorous Third Estates and Beds of Justice. She played the piano a
little, and sang a little, and painted wishy-washy-looking flowers on
Bristol-board _from_ nature, but not at all _like_ nature; for the
passion-flowers were apt to come out like blue muslin frills, and the
fuchsias would have passed for prawns with short-sighted people.

Miss Sleaford had received that half-and-half education which is popular
with the poorer middle classes. She left the Albany Road seminary in her
sixteenth year, and set to work to educate herself by means of the
nearest circulating library. She did not feed upon garbage, but settled
at once upon the highest blossoms in the flower-garden of fiction, and
read her favourite novels over and over again, and wrote little extracts
of her own choosing in penny account-books, usually employed for the
entry of butcher's-meat and grocery. She knew whole pages of her pet
authors by heart, and used to recite long sentimental passages to
Sigismund Smith in the dusky summer evenings; and I am sorry to say that
the young man, going to work at Colonel Montefiasco next morning, would
put neat paraphrases of Bulwer, or Dickens, or Thackeray into that
gentleman's mouth, and invest the heroic brigand with the genial humour
of a John Brodie, the spirituality of a Zanoni, and the savage sarcasm
of a Lord Steyne. Perhaps there never was a wider difference between two
people than that which existed between Isabel Sleaford and her mother's
boarder. Sigismund wrote romantic fictions by wholesale, and yet was as
unromantic as the prosiest butcher who ever entered a cattle-market. He
sold his imagination, and Isabel lived upon hers. To him romance was
something which must be woven into the form most likely to suit the
popular demand. He slapped his heroes into marketable shape as coolly as
a butterman slaps a pat of butter into the semblance of a swan or a
crown, in accordance with the requirements of his customers. But poor
Isabel's heroes were impalpable tyrants, and ruled her life. She wanted
her life to be like her books; she wanted to be a heroine,--unhappy
perhaps, and dying early. She had an especial desire to die early, by
consumption, with a hectic flush and an unnatural lustre in her eyes.
She fancied every time she had a little cough that the consumption was
coming, and she began to pose herself, and was gently melancholy to her
half-brothers, and told them one by one, in confidence, that she did not
think she should be with them long. They were slow to understand the
drift of her remarks, and would ask her if she was going going out as a
governess; and, if she took the trouble to explain her dismal meaning,
were apt to destroy the sentiment of the situation by saying, "Oh, come
now, Hookee Walker. Who ate a plum-dumpling yesterday for dinner, and
asked for more? That's the only sort of consumption _you've_ got, Izzie;
two helps of pudding at dinner, and no end of bread-and-butter for
breakfast."

It was not so that Florence Dombey's friends addressed her. It was not
thus that little Paul would have spoken to his sister; but then, who
could tolerate these great healthy boys after reading about little Paul?

Poor Izzie's life was altogether vulgar and commonplace, and she could
not extract one ray of romance out of it, twist it as she would. Her
father was not a Dombey, or an Augustine Caxton, or even a Rawdon
Crawley. He was a stout, broad-shouldered, good-tempered-looking man,
who was fond of good eating, and drank three bottles of French brandy
every week of his life. He was tolerably fond of his children; but he
never took them out with him, and he saw very little of them at home.
There was nothing romantic to be got out of him. Isabel would have been
rather glad if he had ill-used her; for then she would have had a
grievance, and that would have been something. If he would have worked
himself up into a rage, and struck her on the stairs, she might have run
out into the lane by the canal; but, alas, she had no good Captain
Cuttle with whom to take refuge, no noble-hearted Walter to come back to
her, with his shadow trembling on the wall in the dim firelight! Alas,
alas! she looked north and south and east and west, and the sky was all
dark; so she was obliged to go back to her intellectual opium-eating,
and become a dreamer of dreams. She had plenty of grievances in a small
way, such as having to mend awkward three-cornered rents in her
brothers' garments, and being sent to fetch butter in the Walworth Road;
but she was willing enough to do these things when once you had wrenched
her away from her idolized books; and she carried her ideal world
wherever she went, and was tending delirious Byron at Missolonghi, or
standing by the deathbed of Napoleon the Great while the shopman slapped
the butter on the scale, and the vulgar people hustled her before the
greasy counter.

If there had been any one to take this lonely girl in hand and organize
her education, Heaven only knows what might have been made of her; but
there was no friendly finger to point a pathway in the intellectual
forest, and Isabel rambled as her inclination led her, now setting up
one idol, now superseding him by another; living as much alone as if she
had resided in a balloon, for ever suspended in mid air, and never
coming down in serious earnest to the common joys and sorrows of the
vulgar life about her.

George and Sigismund talked of Miss Sleaford when they grew tired of
discoursing upon the memories of their schoolboy life in Midlandshire.

"You didn't tell me that Mr. Sleaford had a daughter," George said.

"Didn't I?'

"No. She--Miss Sleaford--is very pretty."

"She's gorgeous," answered Sigismund, with enthusiasm; "she's lovely. I
do her for all my dark heroines,--the good heroines, not the wicked
ones. Have you noticed Isabel's eyes? People call them black; but
they're bright orange-colour, if you look at them in the sunshine.
There's a story of Balzac's called 'The Girl with the Golden Eyes.' I
never knew what golden eyes were till I saw Isabel Sleaford."

"You seem very much at home with her?"

"Oh, yes; we're like brother and sister. She helps me with my work
sometimes; at least she throws out suggestions, and I use them. But
she's dreadfully romantic. She reads too many novels."

"Too many?"

"Yes. Don't suppose that I want to depreciate the value of the article.
A novel's a splendid thing after a hard day's work, a sharp practical
tussle with the real world, a healthy race on the barren moorland of
life, a hearty wrestling match in the universal ring. Sit down then and
read 'Ernest Maltravers,' or 'Eugene Aram,' or the 'Bride of
Lammermoor,' and the sweet romance lulls your tired soul to rest, like
the cradle-song that soothes a child. No wise man or woman was ever the
worse for reading novels. Novels are only dangerous for those poor
foolish girls who read nothing else, and think that their lives are to
be paraphrases of their favourite books. That girl yonder wouldn't look
at a decent young fellow in a Government office with three hundred a
year and the chance of advancement," said Mr. Smith, pointing to Isabel
Sleaford with a backward jerk of his thumb. "_She's_ waiting for a
melancholy creature, with a murder on his mind."

They went across the grass to the pear-tree, under which Isabel was
still seated. It was growing dark, and her pale face and black eyes had
a mysterious look in the dusky twilight. George Gilbert thought she was
fitted to be the heroine of a romance, and felt himself miserably
awkward and commonplace as he stood before her, struggling with the
sensation that he had more arms and legs than he knew what to do with. I
like to think of these three people gathered in this neglected suburban
garden upon the 21st of July, 1852, for they were on the very threshold
of life, and the future lay before them like a great stage in a theatre;
but the curtain was down, and all beyond it was a dense mystery. These
three foolish children had their own ideas about the great mystery.
Isabel thought that she would meet a duke some day in the Walworth Road;
the duke would be driving his cab, and she would be wearing her best
bonnet and _not_ going to fetch butter; and the young patrician would be
struck by her, and would drive off to her father, and there and then
make a formal demand of her hand; and she would be married to him, and
wear ruby velvet and a diamond coronet ever after, like Edith Dombey in
Mr. Hablot Browne's grand picture. Poor George fashioned no such
romantic destiny in his day-dreams. He thought that he would marry some
pretty girl, and have plenty of patients, and perhaps some day be
engaged in a great case which would be mentioned in the "Lancet," and
live and die respected, as his grandfather had done before him, in the
old house with the red-tiled roof and oaken gable-ends painted black.
Sigismund had, of course, only one vision,--and that was the publication
of that great book, which should be written about by the reviewers and
praised by the public. He could afford to take life very quietly
himself; for was he not, in a vicarious manner, going through more
adventures than ever the mind of man imagined? He came home to
Camberwell of an afternoon, and took half a pound of rump-steak and
three or four cups of weak tea, and lounged about the weedy garden with
the boys; and other young men who saw what his life was, sneered at him
and called him "slow." Slow, indeed! Is it slow to be dangling from a
housetop with a frayed rope slipping through your hands and seventy feet
of empty space below you? Is it slow to be on board a ship on fire in
the middle of the lonely Atlantic, and to rescue the entire crew on one
fragile raft, with the handsomest female passenger lashed to your waist
by means of her back hair? Is it slow to go down into subterranean
passages, with a dark lantern and half-a-dozen bloodhounds, in pursuit
of a murderer? This was the sort of thing that Sigismund was doing all
day and every day--upon paper; and when the day's work was done, he was
very well contented to loll in a garden-chair and smoke his cigar, while
enthusiastic Isabel talked to him about Byron, and Shelley, and Napoleon
the First; for the two poets and the warrior were her three idols, and
tears came into her eyes when she talked of the sorrowful evening after
Waterloo, or the wasted journey to Missolonghi, just as if she had known
and loved these great men.

       *       *       *       *       *

The lower windows of the house were lighted by this time, and Mrs.
Sleaford came to the back-parlour window to call the young people to
supper. They kept primitive hours at Camberwell, and supper was the
pleasantest meal in the day; for Mrs. Sleaford's work was done by that
time, and she softened into amiability, and discoursed plaintively of
her troubles to Sigismund and her children. But to-night was to be a
kind of gala, on account of the young man from the country. So there was
a lobster and a heap of lettuces,--very little lobster in proportion to
the green-stuff,--and Sigismund was to make a salad. He was very proud
of his skill in this department of culinary art, and as he was generally
about five-and-twenty minutes chopping, and sprinkling, and stirring,
and tasting, and compounding, before the salad was ready, there was
ample time for conversation. To-night George Gilbert talked to Isabel;
while Horace enjoyed the privilege of sitting up to supper chiefly
because there was no one in the house strong enough to send him to bed,
since he refused to retire to his chamber unless driven there by force.
He sat opposite his sister, and amused himself by sucking the long
feelers of the lobster, and staring reflectively at George with his
elbows on the table, while Sigismund mixed the salad.

They were all very comfortable and very merry, for Isabel forgot her
heroes, and condescended to come down temporarily to George's level, and
talk about the Great Exhibition of the previous year, and the pantomime
she had seen last Christmas. He thought her very pretty, as she smiled
at him across the table; but he fell to wondering about her again, and
wondered why it was she was so different from Miss Sophronia Burdock and
the young ladies of Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne, whom he had known all
his life, and in whom he had never found cause for wonder.

The salad was pronounced ready at last, and the "six ale," as Horace
called it, was poured out into long narrow glasses, and being a light
frisky kind of beverage, was almost as good as champagne. George had
been to supper-parties at Graybridge at which there had been real
champagne, and jellies, and trifles, but where the talk had not been
half so pleasant as at this humble supper-table, on which there were not
two forks that matched one another, or a glass that was free from flaw
or crack. The young surgeon enjoyed his first night at Camberwell to his
heart's content; and Sigismund's spirits rose perceptibly with the six
ale. It was when the little party was gayest that Horace jumped up
suddenly with the empty lobster-shell in his hand, and told his
companions to "hold their noise."

"I heard him," he said.

A shrill whistle from the gate sounded as the boy spoke.

"That's him again!" he exclaimed, running to the door of the room. "He's
been at it ever so long, perhaps; and won't he just give it me if he
has!"

Everybody was silent; and George heard the boy opening the hall-door and
going out to the gate. He heard a brief colloquy, and a deep voice with
rather a sulky tone in it, and then heavy footsteps coming along the
paved garden-walk and counting the steps before the door.

"It's your pa, Izzie," Mrs. Sleaford said. "He'll want a candle: you'd
better take it out to him; I don't suppose he'll care about coming in
here."

George Gilbert felt a kind of curiosity about Isabel's father, and was
rather disappointed when he learnt that Mr. Sleaford was not coming into
the parlour. But Sigismund Smith went on eating bread and cheese, and
fishing pickled onions out of a deep stone jar, without any reference to
the movements of the barrister.

Isabel took a candle, and went out into the hall to greet her father.
She left the door ajar, and George could hear her talking to Mr.
Sleaford; but the barrister answered his daughter with a very ill grace,
and the speech which George heard plainest gave him no very favourable
impression of his host.

"Give me the light, girl, and don't bother!" Mr. Sleaford said. "I've
been worried this day until my head's all of a muddle. Don't stand
staring at me, child! Tell your mother I've got some work to do, and
mayn't go to bed all night."

"You've been worried, papa?"

"Yes; infernally. And I don't want to be bothered by stupid questions
now I've got home. Give me the light, can't you?"

The heavy footsteps went slowly up the uncarpeted staircase, a door
opened on the floor above, and the footsteps were heard in the room over
the parlour.

Isabel came in, looking very grave, and sat down, away from the table.

George saw that all pleasure was over for that night; and even Sigismund
came to a pause in his depredations on the cheese, and meditated, with a
pickled onion on the end of his fork.

He was thinking that a father who ill-used his daughter would not be a
bad subject for penny numbers; and he made a mental plan of the plot for
a new romance.

If Mr. Sleaford had business which required to be done that night, he
seemed in no great hurry to begin his work; for the heavy footsteps
tramped up and down, up and down the floor overhead, as steadily as if
the barrister had been some ascetic Romanist who had appointed a penance
for himself, and was working it out in the solitude of his own chamber.
A church clock in the distance struck eleven presently, and a Dutch
clock in the kitchen struck three, which was tolerably near the mark for
any clock in Mr. Sleaford's house. Isabel and her mother made a stir, as
if about to retire; so Sigismund got up, and lighted a couple of candles
for himself and his friend. He undertook to show George to the room that
had been prepared for him, and the two young men went up-stairs
together, after bidding the ladies good night. Horace had fallen asleep,
with his elbows upon the table, and his hair flopping against the
flaring tallow-candle near him. The young surgeon took very little
notice of the apartment to which he was conducted. He was worn out by
his journey, and all the fatigue of the long summer day; so he undressed
quickly, and fell asleep while his friend was talking to him through the
half-open door between the two bedrooms. George slept, but not soundly;
for he was accustomed to a quiet house, in which no human creature
stirred after ten o'clock at night; and the heavy tramp of Mr.
Sleaford's footsteps in a room near at hand disturbed the young man's
slumbers, and mixed themselves with his dreams.

It seemed to George Gilbert as if Mr. Sleaford walked up and down his
room all night, and long after the early daylight shone through the
dingy window-curtains. George was not surprised, therefore, when he was
told at breakfast next morning that his host had not yet risen, and was
not likely to appear for some hours. Isabel had to go to the Walworth
Road on some mysterious mission; and George overheard fragments of a
whispered conversation between the young lady and her mother in the
passage outside the parlour-door, in which the word "poor's rates," and
"summonses," and "silver spoons," and "backing," and "interest," figured
several times.

Mrs. Sleaford was busy about the house, and the boys were scattered; so
George and Sigismund took their breakfast comfortably together, and read
Mr. Sleaford's "Times," which was not as yet required for that
gentleman's own use. Sigismund made a plan of the day. He would take a
holiday for once in a way, he said, and would escort his friend to the
Royal Academy, and divers other picture-galleries, and would crown the
day's enjoyment by a French dinner.

The two young men left the house at eleven o'clock. They had seen
nothing of Isabel that morning, nor of the master of the house. All that
George Gilbert knew of that gentleman was the fact that Mr. Sleaford had
a heavy footstep and a deep sulky voice.

       *       *       *       *       *

The 21st of July was a blazing summer's day, and I am ashamed to confess
that George Gilbert grew very tired of staring at the pictures in the
Royal Academy. To him the finest works of modern art were only "pretty
pictures," more or less interesting according to the story they told;
and Sigismund's disquisitions upon "modelling," and "depth," and
"feeling," and tone, and colour, and distance, were so much
unintelligible jargon; so he was glad when the day's work was over, and
Mr. Smith led him away to a very dingy street a little way behind the
National Gallery.

"And now I'm going to give you a regular French dinner, George, old
fellow;" Sigismund said, in a triumphant tone.

Mr. Gilbert looked about him with an air of mystification. He had been
accustomed to associate French dinners with brilliantly lighted cafés
and gorgeous saloons, where the chairs were crimson velvet and gold, and
where a dozen vast sheets of looking-glass reflected you as you ate your
soup. He was a little disappointed, perhaps, when Sigismund paused
before a narrow doorway, on each side of which there was an
old-fashioned window with queer-shaped wine and liqueur bottles neatly
ranged behind the glass. A big lantern-shaped lamp hung over the door,
and below one of the windows was an iron grating, through which a subtle
flavour of garlic and mock-turtle soup steamed out upon the summer air.

"This is Boujeot's," said Mr. Smith. "It's the jolliest place; no
grandeur, you know, but capital wine and first-rate cooking. The Emperor
of the French used to dine here almost every day when he was in England;
but he never told any one his name, and the waiters didn't know who he
was till they saw his portrait as President in the 'Illustrated News.'"

It is a popular fiction that the Prince Louis Napoleon was in the habit
of dining daily at every French restaurant in London during the years of
his exile; a fiction which gives a romantic flavour to the dishes, and
an aroma of poetry to the wines. George Gilbert looked about him as he
seated himself at a little table chosen by his friend, and he wondered
whether Napoleon the Third had ever sat at that particular table, and
whether the table-cloth had been as dirty in his time. The waiters at
Boujeot's were very civil and accommodating, though they were nearly
harassed off their legs by the claims of desultory gentlemen in the
public apartments, and old customers dining by pre-arrangement in the
private rooms up-stairs. Sigismund pounced upon a great sheet of paper,
which looked something like a chronological table, and on the blank
margins of which the pencil records of dinners lately consumed and paid
for had been hurriedly jotted down by the harassed waiters. Mr. Smith
was a long time absorbed in the study of this mysterious document; so
George Gilbert amused himself by staring at some coffee-coloured marine
views upon the walls, which were supposed to represent the Bay of Biscay
and the Cape of Good Hope, with brown waves rolling tempestuously under
a brown sky. George stared at these, and at a gentleman who was engaged
in the soul-absorbing occupation of paying his bill; and then the
surgeon's thoughts went vagabondizing away from the little coffee-room
at Boujeot's to Mr. Sleaford's garden, and Isabel's pale face and
yellow-black eyes, glimmering mysteriously in the summer twilight. He
thought of Miss Sleaford because she was so unlike any other woman he
had ever seen, and he wondered how his father would like her. Not much,
George feared; for Mr. Gilbert senior expected a young woman to be very
neat about her back-hair, which Isabel was not, and handy with her
needle, and clever in the management of a house and the government of a
maid-of-all-work; and Isabel could scarcely be that, since her favourite
employment was to loll in a wicker-work garden-chair and read novels.

The dinner came in at last, with little pewter covers over the dishes,
which the waiter drew one by one out of a mysterious kind of wooden
oven, from which there came a voice, and nothing more. The two young men
dined; and George thought that, except for the fried potatoes, which
flew about his plate when he tried to stick his fork into them, and a
flavour of garlic, that pervaded everything savoury, and faintly hovered
over the sweets, a French dinner was not so very unlike an English one.
But Sigismund served out the little messes with an air of swelling
pride, and George was fain to smack his lips with the manner of a
connoisseur when his friend asked him what he thought of the _filets de
sole à la maître d'hôtel_, or the _rognons à la_ South African sherry.

Somehow or other, George was glad when the dinner was eaten and paid
for, and it was time to go home to Camberwell. It was only seven o'clock
as yet, and the sun was shining on the fountains as the young men went
across Trafalgar Square. They took an omnibus at Charing Cross, and rode
to the turnpike at Walworth, in the hope of being in time to get a cup
of tea before Mrs. Sleaford let the fire out; for that lady had an
aggravating trick of letting out the kitchen-fire at half-past seven or
eight o'clock on summer evenings, after which hour hot water was an
impossibility; unless Mr. Sleaford wanted grog, in which case a kettle
was set upon a bundle of blazing firewood.

George Gilbert did not particularly care whether or not there was any
tea to be procured at Camberwell, but he looked forward with a faint
thrill of pleasure to the thought of a stroll with Isabel in the twilit
garden. He thought so much of this, that he was quite pleased when the
big, ill-looking house and the dead wall that surrounded it became
visible across the barren waste of ground that was called a common. He
was quite pleased, not with any fierce or passionate emotion, but with a
tranquil sense of pleasure. When they came to the wooden door in the
garden-wall, Sigismund Smith stooped down and gave his usual whistle at
the keyhole; but he looked up suddenly, and cried:

"Well, I'm blest!"

"What's the matter?"

"The door's open."

Mr. Smith pushed it as he spoke, and the two young men went into the
front garden.

"In all the time I've lived with the Sleafords, that never happened
before," said Sigismund. "Mr. Sleaford's awfully particular about the
gate being kept locked. He says that the neighbourhood's a queer one,
and you never know what thieves are hanging about the place; though,
_inter nos_, I don't see that there's much to steal hereabouts," Mr.
Smith added, in a confidential whisper.

The door of the house, as well as that of the garden, was open.
Sigismund went into the hall, followed closely by George. The parlour
door was open too, and the room was empty--the room was empty, and it
had an abnormal appearance of tidiness, as if all the litter and rubbish
had been suddenly scrambled together and carried away. There was a scrap
of old frayed rope upon the table, lying side by side with some
tin-tacks, a hammer, and a couple of blank luggage-labels.

George did not stop to look at these; he went straight to the open
window and looked out into the garden. He had so fully expected to see
Isabel sitting under the pear-tree with a novel in her lap, that he
started and drew back with an exclamation of surprise at finding the
garden empty; the place seemed so strangely blank without the girlish
figure lolling in the basket-chair. It was as if George Gilbert had been
familiar with that garden for the last ten years, and had never seen it
without seeing Isabel in her accustomed place.

"I suppose Miss Sleaford--I suppose they're all out," the surgeon said,
rather dolefully.

"I suppose they _are_ out," Sigismund answered, looking about him with a
puzzled air; "and yet, that's strange. They don't often go out; at
least, not all at once. They seldom go out at all, in fact, except on
errands. I'll call the girl."

He opened the door and looked into the front parlour before going to
carry out this design, and he started back upon the threshold as if he
had seen a ghost.

"What is it?" cried George.

"My luggage and your portmanteau, all packed and corded; look!"

Mr. Smith pointed as he spoke to a couple of trunks, a hatbox, a
carpet-bag, and a portmanteau, piled in a heap in the centre of the
room. He spoke loudly in his surprise; and the maid-of-all-work came in
with her cap hanging by a single hair-pin to a knob of tumbled hair.

"Oh, sir!" she said, "they're all gone; they went at six o'clock this
evenin'; and they're going to America, missus says; and she packed all
your things, and she thinks you'd better have 'em took round to the
greengrocer's immediant, for fear of being seized for the rent, which is
three-quarters doo; but you was to sleep in the house to-night, if you
pleased, and your friend likewise; and I was to get you your breakfastes
in the morning, before I take the key round to the Albany Road, and tell
the landlord as they've gone away, which he don't know it yet."

"GONE AWAY!" said Sigismund; "GONE AWAY!"

"Yes, sir, every one of 'em; and the boys was so pleased that they would
go shoutin' 'ooray, 'ooray, all over the garding, though Mr. Sleaford
swore at 'em awful, and did hurry and tear so, I thought he was a-goin'
mad. But Miss Isabel, she cried about goin' so sudden and seemed all
pale and frightened like. And there's a letter on the chimbley-piece,
please, which she put it there."

Sigismund pounced upon the letter, and tore it open. George read it over
his friend's shoulder. It was only two lines.

"DEAR MR. SMITH,--Don't think hardly of us for going away so suddenly.
Papa says it must be so.

"Yours ever faithfully,

"ISABEL."

"I should like to keep that letter," George said, blushing up to the
roots of his hair. "Miss Sleaford writes a pretty hand."



CHAPTER IV.

THE END OF GEORGE GILBERT'S HOLIDAY.


The two young men acted very promptly upon that friendly warning
conveyed in Mrs. Sleaford's farewell message. The maid-of-all-work went
to the greengrocer's, and returned in company with a dirty-looking
boy--who was "Mrs. Judkin's son, please, sir"--and a truck. Mrs.
Judkin's son piled the trunks, portmanteau, and carpet-bag on the truck,
and departed with his load, which was to be kept in the custody of the
Judkin family until the next morning, when Sigismund was to take the
luggage away in a cab. When this business had been arranged, Mr. Smith
and his friend went out into the garden and talked of the surprise that
had fallen upon them.

"I always knew they were thinking of leaving," Sigismund said, "but I
never thought they'd go away like this. I feel quite cut up about it,
George. I'd got to like them, you know, old boy, and to feel as if I was
one of the family; and I shall never be able to partial-board with any
body else."

George seemed to take the matter quite as seriously as his friend,
though his acquaintance with the Sleafords was little more than
four-and-twenty hours old.

"They must have known before to-day that they were going," he said.
"People don't go to America at a few hours' notice."

Sigismund summoned the dirty maid-of-all-work, and the two young men
subjected her to a very rigorous cross-examination; but she could tell
them very little more than she had told them all in one breath in the
first instance.

"Mr. Sleaford 'ad 'is breakfast at nigh upon one o'clock, leastways she
put on the pertaturs for the boys' dinner before she biled 'is egg; and
then he went out, and he come tarin' 'ome agen in one of these 'ansom
cabs at three o'clock in the afternoon; and he told missus to pack up,
and he told the 'ansom cabman to send a four-wheeler from the first
stand he passed at six o'clock precise; and the best part of the luggage
was sent round to the greengrocer's on a truck, and the rest was took on
the roof of the cab, and Master 'Orace rode alongside the cabman, and
would smoke one of them nasty penny pickwicks, which they always made
'im bilious; and Mr. Sleaford he didn't go in the cab, but walked off as
cool as possible, swinging his stick, and 'olding his 'ead as 'igh as
hever."

Sigismund asked the girl if she had heard the address given to the
cabman who took the family away.

"No," the girl said. Mr. Sleaford had given no address. He directed the
cabman to drive over Waterloo Bridge, and that was all the girl heard.

Mr. Smith's astonishment knew no bounds. He walked about the deserted
house, and up and down the weedy pathways between the espaliers, until
long after the summer moon was bright upon the lawn, and every trailing
branch and tender leaflet threw its sharp separate, shadow on the
shining ground.

"I never heard of such a thing in all my life," the young author cried;
"it's like penny numbers. With the exception of their going away in a
four-wheeler cab instead of through a sliding panel and subterranean
passage, it's for all the world like penny numbers."

"But you'll be able to find out where they've gone, and why they went
away so suddenly," suggested George Gilbert; "some of their friends will
be able to tell you."

"Friends!" exclaimed Sigismund; "they never had any friends--at least
not friends that they visited, or anything of that kind. Mr. Sleaford
used to bring home some of his friends now and then of an evening, after
dark generally, or on a Sunday afternoon. But we never saw much of them,
for he used to take them up to his own room; and except for his wanting
French brandy and cigars fetched, and chops and steaks cooked, and
swearing at the girl over the balusters if the plates weren't hot
enough, we shouldn't have known that there was company in the house. I
suppose his chums were in the law, like himself," Mr. Smith added,
musingly; "but they didn't look much like barristers, for they had
straggling moustachios, and a kind of would-be military way; and if they
hadn't been Sleaford's friends, I should have thought them
raffish-looking."

Neither of the young men could think of anything or talk of anything
that night except the Sleafords and their abrupt departure. They roamed
about the garden, staring at the long grass and the neglected
flower-beds; at the osier arbour, dark under the shadow of a trailing
vine, that was half-smothered by the vulgar luxuriance of wild
hops,--the osier arbour in which the spiders made their home, and where,
upon the rotten bench, romantic Izzie had sat through the hot hours of
drowsy summer days, reading her favourite novels, and dreaming of a life
that was to be like the plot of a novel.

They went into the house, and called for candles, and wandered from room
to room, looking blankly at the chairs and tables, the open drawers, the
disordered furniture, as if from those inanimate objects they might
obtain some clue to the little domestic mystery that bewildered them.
The house was pervaded by torn scraps of paper, fragments of rag and
string, morsels of crumpled lace and muslin, bald hair-brushes lying in
the corners of the bedrooms, wisps of hay and straw, tin-tacks, and old
kid-gloves. Everywhere there were traces of disorder and hurry, except
in Mr. Sleaford's room. That sanctuary was wide open now, and Mr. Smith
and his friend went into it and examined it. To Sigismund a
newly-excavated chamber in a long-buried city could scarcely have been
more interesting. Here there was no evidence of reckless haste. There
was not a single fragment of waste paper in any one of the half-dozen
open drawers on either side of the desk. There was not so much as an old
envelope upon the floor. A great heap of grey ashes upon the cold
hearthstone revealed the fact that Mr. Sleaford had employed himself in
destroying papers before his hasty departure. The candlestick that
Isabel had given him upon the previous night stood upon his desk, with
the candle burnt down to the socket. George remembered having heard his
host's heavy footsteps pacing up and down the room; and the occasional
opening and shutting of drawers, and slamming of the lids of boxes,
which had mixed with his dreams all through that brief summer's night.
It was all explained now. Mr Sleaford had of course been making his
preparations for leaving Camberwell--for leaving England; if it was
really true that the family were going to America.

Early the next morning there came a very irate gentleman from the Albany
Road. This was the proprietor of the neglected mansion, who had just
heard of the Sleaford hegira, and who was in a towering passion because
of those three quarter's rent which he was never likely to behold. He
walked about the house with his hands in his pockets, kicking the doors
open, and denouncing his late tenants in very unpleasant language. He
stalked into the back parlour, where George and Sigismumd were taking
spongy French rolls and doubtful French eggs, and glared ferociously at
them, and muttered something to the effect that it was like their
impudence to be making themselves so "jolly comfortable" in his house
when he'd been swindled by that disreputable gang of theirs. He used
other adjectives besides that word "disreputable" when he spoke of the
Sleafords; but Sigismund got up from before the dirty table-cloth, and
protested, with his mouth full, that he believed in the honesty of the
Sleafords; and that, although temporarily under a cloud, Mr. Sleaford
would no doubt make a point of looking up the three quarter's rent, and
would forward post-office orders for the amount at the earliest
opportunity. To this the landlord merely replied, that he hoped
his--Sigismund's--head would not ache till Mr. Sleaford _did_ send the
rent; which friendly aspiration was about the only civil thing the
proprietor of the mansion said to either of the young men. He prowled
about the rooms, poking the furniture with his stick, and punching his
fist into the beds to see if any of the feathers had been extracted
therefrom. He groaned over the rents in the carpets, the notches and
scratches upon the mahogany, the entire absence of handles and knobs
wherever it was possible for handles or knobs to be wanting; and every
time he found out any new dilapidation in the room where the two young
men were taking their breakfast, he made as if he would have come down
upon them for the cost of the damage.

"Is that the best teapot you're a-having your teas out of? Where's the
Britannia metal as I gave thirteen-and-six for seven year ago? Where did
that twopenny-halfpenny blown-glass sugar-basin come from? It ain't
mine; mine was di'mond-cut. Why, they've done me two hundred pound
mischief. I could afford to forgive 'em the rent. The rent's the least
part of the damage they've done me."

And then the landlord became too forcible to be recorded in these pages,
and then he went groaning about the garden; whereupon George and
Sigismund collected their toilet-apparatus, and such trifling
paraphernalia as they had retained for the night's use, and hustled them
into a carpet-bag, and fled hastily and fearfully, after giving the
servant-maid a couple of half-crowns, and a solemn injunction to write
to Sigismund at his address in the Temple if she should hear any tidings
whatever of the Sleafords.

So, in the bright summer morning, George Gilbert saw the last of the old
house which for nearly seven years had sheltered Mr. Sleaford and his
wife and children, the weedy garden in which Isabel had idled away so
many hours of her early girlhood; the straggling vines under which she
had dreamed bright sentimental dreams over the open leaves of her
novels.

The young men hired a cab at the nearest cab-stand, and drove to the
establishment of the friendly greengrocer who had given shelter to their
goods. It was well for them, perhaps, that the trunks and portmanteau
had been conveyed to that humble sanctuary; for the landlord was in no
humour to hesitate at trifles, and would have very cheerfully impounded
Sigismund's simple wardrobe, and the bran-new linen shirts which George
Gilbert had brought to London.

They bestowed a small gratuity upon Mrs. Judkin, and then drove to
Sigismund's chambers, where they encamped, and contrived to make
themselves tolerably comfortable, in a rough gipsy kind of way.

"You shall have Morgan's room," Sigismund said to his friend, "and I can
make up a bed in the sitting-room; there's plenty of mattresses and
blankets."

They dined rather late in the evening at a celebrated tavern in the near
neighbourhood of those sacred precincts where law and justice have their
head-quarters, and after dinner Sigismund borrowed the "Law List."

"We may find out something about Mr. Sleaford in that," he said.

But the "Law List" told nothing of Mr. Sleaford. In vain Sigismund and
George took it in turn to explore the long catalogue of legal
practitioners whose names began with the letter S. There were St. Johns
and Simpsons, St. Evremonds and Smitherses, Standishes and Sykeses.
There was almost every variety of appellation, aristocratic and
plebeian; but the name of Sleaford was not in the list: and the young
men returned the document to the waiter, and went home wondering how it
was that Mr. Sleaford's name had no place among the names of his
brotherhood.

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I have very little to tell concerning the remaining days which the
conditions of George Gilbert's excursion ticket left him free to enjoy
in London. He went to the theatres with his friend, and sat in stifling
upper boxes, in which there was a considerable sprinkling of the "order"
element, during these sunshiny summer evenings. Sigismund also took him
to divers _al fresco_ entertainments, where there were fireworks, and
"polking," and bottled stout; and in the daytime George was fain to
wander about the streets by himself, staring at the shop-windows, and
hustled and frowned at for walking on the wrong side of the pavement; or
else to loll on the window-seat in Sigismund's apartment, looking down
into the court below, or watching his friend's scratching pen scud
across the paper. Sacred as the rites of hospitality may be, they must
yet give way before the exigencies of the penny press; and Sigismund was
rather a dull companion for a young man from the country who was bent
upon a week's enjoyment of London life.

For very lack of employment, George grew to take an interest in his
friend's labour, and asked him questions about the story that poured so
rapidly from his hurrying pen.

"What's it all about, Sigismund?" he demanded. "Is it funny?"

"Funny!" cried Mr. Smith, with a look of horror; "I should think not,
indeed. Who ever heard of penny numbers being funny? What the penny
public want is plot, and plenty of it; surprises, and plenty of 'em;
mystery, as thick as a November fog. Don't you know the sort of thing?
'The clock of St. Paul's had just sounded eleven hours;'--it's generally
a translation, you know, and St. Paul's stands for Notre Dame;--'a man
came to appear upon the quay which extends itself all the length between
the bridges of Waterloo and London.' There isn't any quay, you know; but
you're obliged to have it so, on account of the plot. 'This man--who had
a true head of vulture, the nose pointed, sharp, terrible; all that
there is of the most ferocious; the eyes cavernous, and full of a sombre
fire--carried a bag upon his back. Presently he stops himself. He
regards with all his eyes the quay, nearly desert; the water, black and
shiny, which stretches itself at his feet. He listens, but there is
nothing. He bends himself upon the border of the quay. He puts aside the
bag from his shoulders, and something of dull, heavy, slides slowly
downwards and falls into the water. At the instant that the heavy
burthen sinks with a dull noise to the bottom of the river, there is a
voice, loud and piercing, which seems to elevate itself out of the
darkness: 'Philip Launay, what dost thou do there with the corpse of thy
victim?'--That's the sort of thing for the penny public," said Mr.
Smith; "or else a good strong combination story."

"What do you call a combination story?" Mr. Gilbert asked, innocently.

"Why, you see, when you're doing four great stories a week for a public
that must have a continuous flow of incident, you can't be quite as
original as a strict sense of honour might prompt you to be; and the
next best thing you can do, if you haven't got ideas of your own, is to
steal other people's ideas in an impartial manner. Don't empty one man's
pocket, but take a little bit all round. The combination novel enables a
young author to present his public with all the brightest flowers of
fiction neatly arranged into every variety of garland. I'm doing a
combination novel now--the 'Heart of Midlothian' and the 'Wandering
Jew.' You've no idea how admirably the two stories blend. In the first
place, I throw my period back into the Middle Ages--there's nothing like
the Middle Ages for getting over the difficulties of a story. Good
gracious me! why, what is there that isn't possible if you go back to
the time of the Plantagenets? I make Jeannie Deans a dumb girl,--there's
twice the interest in her if you make her dumb,--and I give her a goat
and a tambourine, because, you see, the artist likes that sort of thing
for his illustrations. I think you'd admit that I've very much improved
upon Sir Walter Scott--a delightful writer, I allow, but decidedly a
failure in penny numbers--if you were to run your eye over the story,
George; there's only seventy-eight numbers out yet, but you'll be able
to judge of the plot. Of course I don't make Aureola,--I call my Jeannie
'Aureola;' rather a fine name, isn't it? and entirely my own
invention,--of course I don't make Aureola walk from Edinburgh to
London. What would be the good of that? why, anybody _could_ walk it if
they only took long enough about it. I make her walk from London to
ROME, to get a Papal Bull for the release of her sister from the Tower
of London. That's something like a walk, I flatter myself; over the
Alps--which admits of Aureola's getting buried in the snow, and dug out
again by a Mount St. Bernard's dog; and then walled up alive by the
monks because they suspect her of being friendly to the Lollards; and
dug out again by Cæsar Borgia, who happens to be travelling that way,
and asks a night's lodging, and heard Aureola's tambourine behind the
stone wall in his bedroom, and digs her out and falls in love with her;
and she escapes from his persecution out of a window, and lets herself
down the side of the mountain by means of her gauze scarf, and dances
her way to Rome, and obtains an audience of the Pope, and gets mixed up
with the Jesuits:--and that's where I work into the 'Wandering Jew,'"
concluded Mr. Smith.

George Gilbert ventured to suggest that in the days when the Plantagenet
ruled our happy isle, Ignatius Loyola had not yet founded his wonderful
brotherhood; but Mr. Smith acknowledged this prosaic suggestion with a
smile of supreme contempt.

"Oh, if you tie me down to facts," he said, "I can't write at all."

"But you like writing?"

"For the penny public? Oh, yes; I like writing for them. There's only
one objection to the style--it's apt to give an author a tendency
towards bodies."

Mr. Gilbert was compelled to confess that this last remark was
incomprehensible to him.

"Why, you see, the penny public require excitement," said Mr. Smith;
"and in order to get the excitement up to a strong point, you're obliged
to have recourse to bodies. Say your hero murders his father, and buries
him in the coal-cellar in No. 1. What's the consequence? There's an
undercurrent of the body in the coal-cellar running through every
chapter, like the subject in a fugue or a symphony. You drop it in the
treble, you catch it up in the bass; and then it goes sliding up into
the treble again, and then drops down with a melodious groan into the
bass; and so on to the end of the story. And when you've once had
recourse to the stimulant of bodies, you're like a man who's accustomed
to strong liquors, and to whose vitiated palate simple drinks seem flat
and wishy-washy. I think there ought to be a literary temperance pledge
by which the votaries of the ghastly and melodramatic school might bind
themselves to the renunciation of the bowl and dagger, the midnight
rendezvous, the secret grave dug by lantern-light under a black grove of
cypress, the white-robed figure gliding in the grey gloaming athwart a
lonely churchyard, and all the alcoholic elements of fiction. But, you
see, George, it isn't so easy to turn teetotaller," added Mr. Smith,
doubtfully; "and I scarcely know that it is so very wise to make the
experiment. Are not reformed drunkards the dullest and most miserable of
mankind? Isn't it better for a man to do his best in the style that is
natural to him than to do badly in another man's line of business? 'Box
and Cox' is not a great work when criticised upon sternly æsthetic
principles; but I would rather be the author of 'Box and Cox,' and hear
my audience screaming with laughter from the rise of the curtain to the
fall thereof, than write a dull five-act tragedy, in the unities of
which Aristotle himself could find no flaw, but from whose performance
panic-stricken spectators should slink away or ere the second act came
to its dreary close. I think I should like to have been Guilbert de
Pixérécourt, the father and prince of melodrama, the man whose dramas
were acted thirty thousand times in France before he died (and how many
times in England?); the man who reigned supreme over the playgoers of
his time, and has not yet ceased to reign. Who ever quotes any passage
from the works of Guilbert de Pixérécourt, or remembers his name? But to
this day his dramas are acted in every country theatre; his persecuted
heroines weep and tremble; his murderous scoundrels run their two hours'
career of villany, to be dragged off scowling to subterranean dungeons,
or to die impenitent and groaning at the feet of triumphant virtue.
Before nine o'clock to-night there will be honest country-folks
trembling for the fate of Theresa, the Orphan of Geneva, and simple
matrons weeping over the peril of the Wandering Boys. But Guilbert de
Pixérécourt was never a great man; he was only popular. If a man can't
have a niche in the Walhalla, isn't it something to have his name in big
letters in the play-bills on the boulevard? and I wonder how long my
friend Guilbert would have held the stage, if he had emulated Racine or
Corneille. He did what it was in him to do, honestly; and he had his
reward. Who would not wish to be great? Do you think I wouldn't rather
be the author of the 'Vicar of Wakefield' than of 'Colonel Montefiasco?'
I _could_ write the 'Vicar of Wakefield,' too, but--"

George stared aghast at his excited friend.

"But not Oliver Goldsmith's 'Vicar of Wakefield,'" Sigismund explained.

He had thrown down his pen now, and was walking up and down the room
with his hands thrust deep down in his pockets, and his face scarlet
with fierce excitement.

"I should do the Vicar in the detective pre-Raphaelite style. Moses
knows a secret of his father's--forged accommodation-bills, or something
of that kind; sets out to go to the fair on a drowsy summer morning, not
a leaf stirring in the vicarage garden. You hear the humming of the bees
as they bounce against the vicarage-windows; you see the faint light
trembling about Olivia's head, as she comes to watch her brother riding
along the road; you see him ride away, and the girl watching him, and
feel the hot sleepy atmosphere, and hear the swoop of the sickle in the
corn-fields on the other side of the road; and the low white gate
swings-to with a little click, and Miss Primrose walks slowly back to
the house, and says, 'Papa, it's very warm;' and you know there's
something going to happen.

"Then the second chapter comes, and Mr. Primrose has his dinner, and
goes out to visit his poor; and the two girls walk about the garden with
Mr. Burchell, watching for Moses, who NEVER COMES BACK. And then the
serious business of the story begins, and Burchell keeps his eye upon
the Vicar. Nobody else suspects good Mr. Primrose; but Burchell's eye is
never off him; and one night, when the curtains are drawn, and the girls
are sitting at their work, and dear Mrs. Primrose is cutting out
comfortable flannels for the poor, the Vicar opens his desk, and begins
to write a letter. You hear the faint sound of the light ashes falling
on the hearth, the slow ticking of an eight-day clock in the hall
outside the drawing-room door, the sharp snap of Mrs. Primrose's
scissors as they close upon the flannel. Sophia asks Burchell to fetch a
volume from the bookcase behind the Vicar's chair. He is a long time
choosing the book, and his eye looks over the Vicar's shoulder. He takes
a mental inventory of the contents of the open desk, and he sees amongst
the neatly-docketed papers, the receipted bills, and packets of
envelopes--what? a glove, a green kid-glove sewn with white, which he
distinctly remembers to have seen worn by Moses when he started on that
pleasant journey from which he never returned. Can't you see the Vicar's
face, as he looks round at Burchell, and knows that his secret is
discovered? I can. Can't you fancy the awful silent duel between the two
men, the furtive glances, the hidden allusions to that dreadful mystery,
lurking in every word that Burchell utters?

"That's how _I_ should do the 'Vicar of Wakefield,'" said Sigismund
Smith, triumphantly. "There wouldn't be much in it, you know; but the
story would be pervaded by Moses's body lying murdered in a ditch half a
mile from the vicarage, and Burchell's ubiquitous eye. I dare say some
people would cry out upon it, and declare that it was wicked and
immoral, and that the young man who could write about a murder would be
ready to commit the deed at the earliest convenient opportunity. But I
don't suppose the clergy would take to murdering their sons by reason of
my fiction, in which the rules of poetical justice would be sternly
adhered to, and Nemesis, in the shape of Burchell, perpetually before
the reader."

Poor George Gilbert listened very patiently to his friend's talk, which
was not particularly interesting to him. Sigismund preached "shop" to
whomsoever would listen to him, or suffer him to talk; which was pretty
much the same to this young man. I am afraid there were times when his
enthusiastic devotion to his profession rendered Mr. Smith a terrible
nuisance to his friends and acquaintance. He would visit a pleasant
country-house, and receive hospitable entertainment, and enjoy himself;
and then, when all that was morbid in his imagination had been
stimulated by sparkling burgundy and pale hochheimer, this wretched
young traitor would steal out into some peaceful garden, where dew-laden
flowers flung their odours on the still evening air, and sauntering in
the shadowy groves where the nightingale's faint "jug-jug" was beginning
to sound, would plan a diabolical murder, to be carried out in
seventy-five penny numbers. Sometimes he was honourable enough to ask
permission of the proprietor of the country mansion; and when, on one
occasion, after admiring the trim flower-gardens and ivied walls, the
low turreted towers and grassy moats, of a dear old place that had once
been a grange, he ventured to remark that the spot was so peaceful it
reminded him of slow poisoning, and demanded whether there would be any
objection to his making the quiet grange the scene of his next
fiction,--the cordial cheery host cried out, in a big voice that
resounded high up among the trees where the rooks were cawing, "People
it with fiends, my dear boy! You're welcome to people the place with
fiends, as far as I'm concerned."



CHAPTER V.

GEORGE AT HOME.


The young surgeon went home to Midlandshire with his
fellow-excursionists, when the appointed Monday came round. He met Miss
Burdock and her sister on the platform in Euston Square, and received
those ladies from the hands of their aunt. Sophronia did not blush now
when her eyes met George Gilbert's frank stare. She had danced twice
with a young barrister at the little quadrille-party which her aunt had
given in honour of the maltster's daughters; a young barrister who was
tall and dark and stylish, and who spoke of Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne
as a benighted place, which was only endurable for a week or so in the
hunting season. Miss Sophronia Burdock's ideas had expanded during that
week in Baker Street, and she treated her travelling companion with an
air of haughty indifference, which might have wounded George to the
quick had he been aware of the change in the lady's manner. But poor
George saw no alteration in the maltster's daughter; he watched no
changes of expression in the face opposite to him as the rushing engine
carried him back to Midlandshire. He was thinking of another face, which
he had only seen for a few brief hours, and which he was perhaps never
again to look upon; a pale girlish countenance, framed with dense black
hair; a pale face, out of which there looked large solemn eyes, like
stars that glimmer faintly through the twilight shadows.

Before leaving London, George had obtained a promise from his friend
Sigismund Smith. Whatever tidings Mr. Smith should at any time hear
about the Sleafords, he was to communicate immediately to the young
surgeon of Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne. It was, of course, very absurd of
George to take such an interest in this singular family; the young man
admitted as much himself; but, then, singular people are always more or
less interesting; and, having been a witness of Mr. Sleaford's abrupt
departure, it was only natural that George should want to know the end
of the story. If these people were really gone to America, why, of
course, it was all over; but if they had not left London, some one or
other of the family might turn up some day, and in that case Sigismund
was to write and tell his friend all about it.

George Gilbert's last words upon the platform at Euston Square had
relation to this subject; and all the way home he kept debating in his
mind whether it was likely the Sleafords had really gone to America, or
whether the American idea had been merely thrown out with a view to the
mystification of the irate landlord.

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Life at Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne was as slow and sleepy as the river
which widened in the flat meadows outside the town; the dear old river
which crept lazily past the mouldering wall of the churchyard, and
licked the moss-grown tombstones that had lurched against that ancient
boundary. Everything at Graybridge was more or less old and quaint and
picturesque; but the chief glory of Graybridge was the parish church; a
grand old edifice which was planted beyond the outskirts of the town,
and approached by a long avenue of elms, beneath whose shadow the
tombstones glimmered whitely in the sun. The capricious Wayverne, which
was perpetually winding across your path wheresoever you wandered in
pleasant Midlandshire, was widest here; and on still summer days the
grey towers of the old church looked down at other phantasmal towers in
the tranquil water.

George used to wander in this churchyard sometimes on his return from a
trout-fishing expedition, and, lounging among the tombstones with his
rod upon his shoulder, would abandon himself to the simple day-dreams he
loved best to weave.

But the young surgeon had a good deal of work to do, now that his father
had admitted him to the solemn rights of partnership, and very little
time for any sentimental musings in the churchyard. The parish work in
itself was very heavy, and George rode long distances on his
steady-going grey pony to attend to captious patients, who gave him
small thanks for his attendance. He was a very soft-hearted young man,
and he often gave his slender pocket-money to those of his patients who
wanted food rather than medicine. Little by little people grew to
understand that George Gilbert was very different from his father, and
had a tender pity for the sorrows and sufferings it was a part of his
duty to behold. Love and gratitude for this young doctor may have been
somewhat slow to spring up in the hearts of his parish patients; but
they took a deep root, and became hardy, vigorous plants before the
first year of George's service was over. Before that year came to a
close the partnership between the father and son had been irrevocably
dissolved, without the aid of legal practitioners, or any legal formulas
whatsoever; and George Gilbert was sole master of the old house with the
whitewashed plaster-walls and painted beams of massive oak.

The young man lamented the loss of his father with all that
single-minded earnestness which was the dominant attribute of his
character. He had been as obedient to his father at the last as he had
been at the first; as submissive in his manhood as in his childhood. But
in his obedience there had been nothing childish or cowardly. He was
obedient because he believed his father to be wise and good, reverencing
the old man with simple, unquestioning veneration. And now that the
father was gone, George Gilbert began life in real earnest. The poor of
Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne had good reason to rejoice at the change
which had given the young doctor increase of means and power. He was
elected unanimously to the post his father's death had left nominally
vacant; and wherever there was sickness and pain, his kindly face seemed
to bring comfort, his bright blue eyes seemed to inspire courage. He
took an atmosphere of youth and hope and brave endurance with him
everywhere, which was more invigorating than the medicines he
prescribed; and, next to Mr. Neate the curate, George Gilbert was the
best-beloved and most popular man in Graybridge.

He had never had any higher ambition than this. He had no wish to strive
or to achieve; he only wanted to be useful; and when he heard the
parable of the Talents read aloud in the old church, a glow of gentle
happiness thrilled through his veins as he thought of his own small
gifts, which had never yet been suffered to grow rusty for lack of
service.

The young man's life could scarcely have been more sheltered from the
storm and tempest of the world, though the walls of some mediæval
monastery had encircled his little surgery. Could the tumults of passion
ever have a home in the calm breast of these quiet provincials, whose
regular lives knew no greater change than the slow alternation of the
seasons, whose orderly existences were never disturbed by an event? Away
at Conventford there were factory strikes, and political dissensions,
and fighting and rioting now and then; but here the tranquil days crept
by, and left no mark by which they might be remembered.

Miss Sophronia Burdock did not long cherish the memory of the
dark-haired barrister she had met in Baker Street. To do so would have
been as foolish as to "love some bright particular star, and think to
wed it," in the young damsel's opinion. She wisely banished the
barrister's splendid image, and she smiled once more upon Mr. Gilbert
when she met him coming out of church in the cold wintry sunlight,
looking to especial advantage in his new mourning clothes. But George
was blind to the sympathetic smiles that greeted him. He was not in love
with Miss Sophronia Burdock. The image of Isabel's pale face had faded
into a very indistinct shadow by this time; nay, it was almost entirely
blotted out by the young man's grief for his father's death; but if his
heart was empty enough now, there was no place in it for Miss Burdock,
though it was hinted at in Graybridge that a dower of four thousand
pounds would accompany that fair damsel's hand. George Gilbert had no
high-flown or sentimental notions; but he would have thought it no
greater shame to rifle the contents of the maltster's iron safe, than to
enrich himself with the possessions of a woman he did not love.

In the meantime he lived his peaceful life in the house where he had
been born, mourning with simple, natural sorrow for the old father who
had so long sat at the opposite side of the hearth, reading a local
paper by the light of a candle held between his eyes and the small
print, and putting down the page every now and then to descant, at his
ease, upon the degeneracy of the times. The weak, loving, fidgety father
was gone now, and George looked blankly at the empty chair which had
taken the old man's shape; but his sorrow was unembittered by vain
remorse or cruel self-reproach: he had been a good son, and he could
look back at his life with his dead father, and thank God for the
peaceful life that they had spent together.

But he was very lonely now in the old house, which was a bare, blank
place, peopled by no bright inanimate creations by which art fills the
homes of wealthy hermits with fair semblances of life. The empty walls
stared down upon the young man as he sat alone in the dim candlelight,
till he was fain to go into the kitchen, which was the most cheerful
room in the house, and where he could talk to William and Tilly, while
he lounged against the quaint old angle of the high oaken chimney-piece
smoking his cigar.

William and Tilly were a certain Mr. and Mrs. Jeffson, who had come
southwards with the pretty young woman whom Mr. John Gilbert had
encountered in the course of a holiday-trip to a quiet Yorkshire town,
where the fair towers of a minster rose above a queer old street, beyond
whose gabled roofs lay spreading common-lands, fair pasture-farms, and
pleasant market-gardens. It was in the homestead attached to one of
these pasture-farms that John Gilbert had met the bright, rosy-faced
girl whom he made his wife; and Mr. and Mrs. Jeffson were poor relations
of the young lady's father. At Mrs. Gilbert's entreaty they consented to
leave the little bit of garden and meadow-land which they rented near
her father's farm, and followed the surgeon's wife to her new home,
where Matilda Jeffson took upon herself the duties of housekeeper,
general manager, and servant-of-all-work; while her husband looked after
the surgeon's table, and worked in the long, old-fashioned garden, where
the useful element very much preponderated over the ornamental.

I am compelled to admit that, in common with almost all those bright and
noble qualities which can make man admirable, Mr. William Jeffson
possessed one failing. He was lazy. But then his laziness gave such a
delicious, easy-going tone to his whole character, and was so much a
part of his good nature and benevolence, that to wish him faultless
would have been to wish him something less than he was. There are some
people whose faults are better than other people's virtues. Mr. Jeffson
was lazy. In the garden which it was his duty to cultivate, the snails
crawled along their peaceful way, unhindered by cruel rake or hoe; but
then, on the other hand, the toads grew fat in shadowy corners under the
broad dock-leaves, and the empty shells of their slimy victims attested
the uses of those ugly and venomous reptiles. The harmony of the
universe asserted itself in that Midlandshire garden, unchecked by any
presumptuous interference from Mr. Jeffson. The weeds grew high in waste
patches of ground, left here and there amongst the gooseberry-bushes and
the cabbages, the raspberries and potatoes; and William Jeffson offered
little hindrance to their rank luxuriance. "There was room enough for
all he wanted," he said philosophically; "and ground that wouldn't grow
weeds would be good for naught. Mr. Gilbert had more fruit and
vegetables than he could eat or cared to give away; and surely that was
enough for anybody." Officious visitors would sometimes suggest this or
that alteration or improvement in the simple garden; but Mr. Jeffson
would only smile at them with a bland, sleepy smile, as he lolled upon
his spade, and remark, "that he'd been used to gardens all his life, and
knew what could be made out of 'em, and what couldn't."

In short, Mr. Jeffson and Matilda Jeffson his wife did as they liked in
the surgeon's house, and had done so ever since that day upon which they
came to Midlandshire to take friendly service with their second cousin,
pretty Mrs. John Gilbert. They took very small wages from their
kinswoman's husband, but they had their own apartments, and lived as
they pleased, and ordered the lives of their master and mistress, and
idolized the fair-haired baby-boy who was born by-and-by, and who grew
day by day under their loving eyes, when the tender gaze of his mother
had ceased to follow his toddling footsteps, or yearn for the sight of
his frank, innocent face. Mr. Jeffson may have neglected the surgeon's
garden, by reason of that lymphatic temperament which was peculiar to
him; but there was one business in which he never lacked energy, one
pursuit in which he knew no weariness. He was never tired of any labour
which contributed to the pleasure or amusement of Mr. Gilbert's only
son. He carried the child on his shoulders for long journeys to distant
meadows in the sunshiny haymaking season, when all the air was fragrant
with the scent of grass and flowers; he clambered through thorny gaps
amidst the brambly underwood, and tore the flesh off his poor big hands
hunting for blackberries and cob-nuts for Master "Jarge." He persuaded
his master into the purchase of a pony when the boy was five years old,
and the little fellow trotted to Wareham at Mr. Jeffson's side when that
gentleman went on errands for the Graybridge household. William Jeffson
had no children of his own, and he loved the surgeon's boy with all the
fondness of a nature peculiarly capable of love and devotion.

It was a bitter day for him when Master Jarge went to the Classical and
Commercial Academy at Wareham; and but for those happy Saturday
afternoons on which he went to fetch the boy for a holiday that lasted
till Sunday evening, poor William Jeffson would have lost all the
pleasures of his simple life. What was the good of haymaking if George
wasn't in the thick of the fun, clambering on the loaded wain, or
standing flushed and triumphant, high up against the sunlit sky on the
growing summit of the new-made stack? What could be drearier work than
feeding the pigs, or milking the cow, unless Master Jarge was by to turn
labour into pleasure by the bright magic of his presence? William
Jeffson went about his work with a grave countenance during the boy's
absence, and only brightened on those delicious Saturday afternoons when
Master Jarge came hurrying to the little wooden gate in Dr. Mulder's
playground, shouting a merry welcome to his friend. There was no storm
of rain or hail, snow or sleet, that ever came out of the heavens, heavy
enough to hinder Mr. Jeffson's punctual attendance at that little gate.
What did he care for drenching showers, or thunderclaps that seemed to
shake the earth, so long as the little wooden gate opened, and the fair
young face he loved poked out at him with a welcoming smile?

"Our boys laid any money you wouldn't come to-day, Jeff," Master Gilbert
said sometimes; "but I knew there wasn't any weather invented that would
keep you away."

O blessed reward of fidelity and devotion! What did William Jeffson want
more than this?

Matilda Jeffson loved her master's son very dearly in her own way; but
her household duties were a great deal heavier than Mr. Jeffson's
responsibilities, and she had little time to waste upon the poetry of
affection. She kept the boy's wardrobe in excellent order; baked rare
batches of hot cakes on Saturday afternoons for his special
gratification; sent him glorious hampers, in which there were big jars
of gooseberry-jam, pork-pies, plum-loaves, and shrivelled apples. In all
substantial matters Mrs. Jeffson was as much the boy's friend as her
husband; but that tender, sympathetic devotion which William felt for
his master's son was something beyond her comprehension.

"My master's daft about the lad," she said, when she spoke of the two.

George Gilbert taught his companion a good deal in those pleasant
Saturday evenings, when the surgeon was away amongst his patients, and
the boy was free to sit in the kitchen with Mr. and Mrs. Jeffson. He
told the Yorkshireman all about those enemies of boyhood, the classic
poets; but William infinitely preferred Shakespeare and Milton, Byron
and Scott, to the accomplished Romans, whose verses were of the lamest
as translated by George. Mr. Jeffson could never have enough of
Shakespeare. He was never weary of Hamlet, Lear, Othello, and Romeo, the
bright young Prince who tried on his father's crown, bold Hotspur,
ill-used Richard, passionate Margaret, murderous Gloster, ruined Wolsey,
noble Katharine. All that grand gallery of pictures unrolled its
splendours for this man, and the schoolboy wondered at the enthusiasm he
was powerless to understand. He was inclined to think that practical
Mrs. Jeffson was right, and that her husband was a little "daft" upon
some matters.

The boy returned his humble friend's affection with a steady, honest
regard, that richly compensated the gardener, whose love was not of a
nature to need much recompense, since its growth was as spontaneous and
unconscious as that of the wild flowers amongst the long grass. George
returned William Jeffson's affection, but he could not return it in
kind. The poetry of friendship was not in his nature. He was honest,
sincere, and true, but not sympathetic or assimilative; he preserved his
own individuality wherever he went, and took no colour from the people
amongst whom he lived.

Mr. Gilbert would have been very lonely now that his father was gone,
had it not been for this honest couple, who managed his house and
garden, his stable and paddocks, and watched his interests as earnestly
as if he had been indeed their son. Whenever he had a spare half-hour,
the young man strolled into the old-fashioned kitchen, and smoked his
cigar in the chimney-corner, where he had passed so much of his boyhood.

"When I sit here, Jeff," he said sometimes, "I seem to go back to the
old school-days again, and I fancy I hear Brown Molly's hoofs upon the
frosty road, and my father's voice calling to you to open the gate."

Mr. Jeffson sighed, as he looked up from the mending of a bridle or the
patching of a horse-cloth.

"Them was pleasant days, Master Jarge," he said, regretfully. He was
thinking that the schoolboy had been more to him and nearer to him than
the young surgeon could ever be. They had been children together, these
two, and William had never grown weary of his childhood. He was left
behind now that his companion had grown up, and the happy childish days
were all over. There was a gigantic kite on a shelf in the back-kitchen;
a kite that Mr. Jeffson had made with his own patient hands. George
Gilbert would have laughed now if that kite had been mentioned to him;
but William Jeffson would have been constant to the same boyish sports
until his hair was grey, and would have never known weariness of spirit.

"You'll be marrying some fine lady, maybe now, Master Jarge," Mrs.
Jeffson said; "and she'll look down upon our north-country ways, and
turn us out of the old place where we've lived so long."

But George protested eagerly that, were he to marry the daughter of the
Queen of England, which was not particularly likely, that royal lady
should take kindly to his old servants, or should be no wife of his.

"When I marry, my wife must love the people I love," said, the surgeon,
who entertained those superb theories upon the management of a wife
which are peculiar to youthful bachelors.

George further informed his humble friends that he was not likely to
enter the holy estate of matrimony for many years to come, as he had so
far seen no one who at all approached his idea of womanly perfection. He
had very practical views upon this subject, and meant to wait patiently
until some faultless young person came across his pathway; some
neat-handed, church-going damsel, with tripping feet and smoothly-banded
hair; some fair young sage, who had never been known to do a foolish act
or say an idle word. Sometimes the image of Isabel Sleaford trembled
faintly upon the magic mirror of the young man's reveries, and he
wondered whether, under any combination of circumstances, she would ever
arrive at this standard. Oh, no, it was impossible. He looked back to
the drowsy summer-time, and saw her lolling in the garden-chair, with
the shadows of the branches fluttering upon her tumbled muslin dress,
and her black hair pushed anyhow away from the broad low brow.

"I hope that foolish Sigismund won't meet Miss Sleaford again," George
thought, very gravely; "he might be silly enough to marry her, and I'm
sure she'd never make a good wife for any man."

George Gilbert's father died in the autumn of '52; and early in the
following spring the young man received a letter from his friend Mr.
Smith. Sigismund wrote very discursively about his own prospects and
schemes, and gave his friend a brief synopsis of the romance he had last
begun. George skimmed lightly enough over this part of the letter; but
as he turned the leaf by-and-by, he saw a name that brought the blood to
his face. He was vexed with himself for that involuntary blush, and
sorely puzzled to know why he should be so startled by the unexpected
sight of Isabel Sleaford's name.

"You made me promise to tell you anything that turned up about the
Sleafords," Sigismund wrote. "You'll be very much surprised to hear that
Miss Sleaford came to me the other day here in my chambers, and asked me
if I could help her in any way to get her living. She wanted me to
recommend her as a nursery-governess, or companion, or something of that
kind, if I knew of any family in want of such a person. She was staying
at Islington with a sister of her step-mother's, she told me; but she
couldn't be a burthen on her any longer. Mrs. Sleaford and the boys have
gone to live in Jersey, it seems, on account of things being cheap
there; and I have no doubt that boy Horace will become an inveterate
smoker. Poor Sleaford is dead. You'll be as much astounded as I was to
hear this. Isabel did not tell me this at first; but I saw that she was
dressed in black, and when I asked her about her father, she burst out
crying, and sobbed as if heart would break. I should like to have
ascertained what the poor fellow died of, and all about it,--for
Sleaford was not an old man, and one of the most powerful-looking
fellows I ever saw,--but I could not torture Izzie with questions while
she was in such a state of grief and agitation. 'I'm very sorry you've
lost your father, my dear Miss Sleaford,' I said: and she sobbed out
something that I scarcely heard, and I got her some cold water to drink,
and it was ever so long before she came round again and was able to talk
to me. Well, I couldn't think of anybody that was likely to help her
that day; but I took the address of her aunt's house at Islington, and
promised to call upon her there in a day or two. I wrote by that day's
post to my mother, and asked her if she could help me; and she wrote
back by return to tell me that my uncle, Charles Raymond, at
Conventford, was in want of just such a person as Miss Sleaford (of
course I had endowed Isabel with all the virtues under the sun), and if
I really thought Miss S. would suit, and I could answer for the perfect
respectability of her connections and antecedents,--it isn't to be
supposed that I was going to say anything about that three quarters'
rent, or that I should own that Isabel's antecedents were lolling in a
garden-chair reading novels, or going on suspicious errands to the
_jeweller_ ('O my prophetic soul!' _et cetera_) in the Walworth
Road,--why, I was to engage Miss S. at twenty pounds a year salary. I
went up to Islington that very afternoon, although I was a number and a
half behind with 'The Demon of the Galleys' ('The D. of the G.' is a
sequel to 'The Brand upon the Shoulder-blade;' the proprietor of the
'Penny Parthenon' insisted upon having a sequel, and I had to bring
Colonel Montefiasco to life again, after hurling him over a precipice
three hundred feet high),--and the poor girl began to cry when I told
her I'd found a home for her. I'm afraid she's had a great deal of
trouble since the Sleafords left Camberwell; for she isn't at all the
girl she was. Her step-mother's sister is a vulgar woman who lets
lodgings, and there's only one servant--such a miserable slavey; and
Isabel went to the door three times while I was there. You know my uncle
Raymond, and you know what a dear jolly fellow he is; so you may guess
the change will be a very pleasant one for poor Izzie. By the bye, you
might call and see her the first time you're in Conventford, and write
me word how the poor child gets on. I thought she seemed a little
frightened at the idea of going among strangers. I saw her off at Euston
Square the day before yesterday. She went by the parliamentary train;
and I put her in charge of a most respectable family going all the way
through, with six children, and a birdcage, and a dog, and a pack of
cards to play upon a tea-tray on account of the train being slow."

Mr. Gilbert read this part of his friend's letter three times over
before he was able to realize the news contained in it. Mr. Sleaford
dead, and Isabel settled as a nursery-governess at Conventford! If the
winding Wayverne had overflowed its sedgy banks and flooded all
Midlandshire, the young surgeon could have been scarcely more surprised
than he was by the contents of his friend's letter. Isabel at
Conventford--within eleven miles of Graybridge; within eleven miles of
him at that moment, as he walked up and down the little room, with his
hair tumbled all about his flushed good-looking face, and Sigismund's
letter in his waistcoat!

What was it to him that Isabel Sleaford was so near? What was she to
him, that he should think of her, or be fluttered by the thought that
she was within his reach? What did he know of her? Only that she had
eyes that were unlike any other eyes he had ever looked at; eyes that
haunted his memory like strange stars seen in a feverish dream. He knew
nothing of her but this: and that she had a pretty, sentimental manner,
a pensive softness in her voice, and sudden flights and capricious
changes of expression that had filled his mind with wonder.

George went back to the kitchen and smoked another cigar in Mr.
Jeffson's company. He went back to that apartment fully determined to
waste no more of his thoughts upon Isabel Sleaford, who was in sober
truth a frivolous, sentimental creature, eminently adapted to make any
man miserable; but somehow or other, before the cigar was finished,
George had told his earliest friend and confidant all about Mr.
Sleaford's family, touching very lightly upon Isabel's attractions, and
speaking of a visit to Conventford as a disagreeable duty that
friendship imposed.

"Of course I shouldn't think of going all that way on purpose to see
Miss Sleaford," he said, "though Sigismund seems to expect me to do so;
but I must go to Conventford in the course of the week, to see about
those drugs Johnson promised to get me. They won't make a very big
parcel, and I can bring them home in my coat-pocket. You might trim
Brown Molly's fetlocks, Jeff; she'll look all the better for it. I'll go
on Thursday; and yet I don't know that I couldn't better spare the time
to-morrow."

"To-morrow's market-day, Master Jarge. I was thinkin' of goin' t'
Conventford mysen. I might bring t' droogs for thee, and thoo couldst
write a noate askin' after t' young leddy," Mr. Jeffson remarked,
thoughtfully.

George shook his head. "That would never do, Jeff," he said; "Sigismund
asks me to go and see her."

Mr. Jeffson relapsed into a thoughtful silence, out of which he emerged
by-and-by with a slow chuckle.

"I reckon Miss Sleaford'll be a pretty girl," he remarked, thoughtfully,
with rather a sly glance at his young master.

George Gilbert found it necessary to enter into an elaborate explanation
upon this subject. No; Miss Sleaford was not pretty. She had no colour
in her cheeks, and her nose was nothing particular,--not a beautiful
queenlike hook, like that of Miss Harleystone, the belle of Graybridge,
who was considered like the youthful members of the peerage,--and her
mouth wasn't very small, and her forehead was low; and, in short, some
people might think Miss Sleaford plain.

"But thoo doesn't, Master Jarge!" exclaimed Mr. Jeffson, clapping his
hand upon his knee with an intolerable chuckle; "thoo thinkst summoat of
her. I'll lay; and I'll trim Brown Molly's fetlocks till she looks as
genteel as a thoroughbred."

"Thoo'rt an old fondy!" cried Mrs. Jeffson, looking up from her
needlework. "It isn't one of these London lasses as'll make a good wife
for Master Jarge; and he'd never be that soft as to go running after
nursery-governesses at Conventford, when he might have Miss Burdock and
all her money, and be one of the first gentlefolks in Graybridge."

"Hold thy noise, Tilly. Thou knowst nowt aboot it. Didn't I marry thee
for loove, lass, when I might have had Sarah Peglock, as was only
daughter to him as kept t' Red Lion in Belminster; and didn't I come up
to London, where thou wast in service, and take thee away from thy
pleace; and wasn't Sarah a'most wild when she heard it? Master Jarge 'll
marry for loove, or he'll never marry at all. Don't you remember her as
wore the pink sash and shoes wi' sandals at the dancin' school, Master
Jarge; and us takin' her a ploom-loaf, and a valentine, and
sugar-sticks, and oranges, when you was home for th' holidays?"

Mr. Jeffson had been the confidant of all George's boyish love-affairs,
the innocent Leporello of this young provincial Juan; and he was eager
to be trusted with new secrets, and to have a finger once more in the
sentimental pie. But nothing could be more stern than Mr. Gilbert's
denial of any romantic fancy for Miss Sleaford.

"I should be very glad to befriend her in any way," he said gravely;
"but she's the very last person in the world that I should ever dream of
making my wife."

This young man discussed his matrimonial views with the calm grandiosity
of manner with which man, the autocrat, talks of his humble slaves
before he has tried his hand at governing them,--before he has received
the fiery baptism of suffering, and learned by bitter experience that a
perfect woman is not a creature to be found at every street-corner
waiting meekly for her ruler.



CHAPTER VI.

TOO MUCH ALONE.


Brown Molly's fetlocks were neatly trimmed by Mr. Jeffson's patient
hands. I fancy the old mare would have gone long without a clipping, had
it not been George's special pleasure that the animal should be
smartened up before he rode her to Conventford. Clipping is not a very
pleasant labour: but there is no task so difficult that William Jeffson
would have shrunk from it, if its achievement could give George Gilbert
happiness.

Brown Molly looked a magnificent creature when George came home, after a
hurried round of professional visits, and found her saddled and bridled,
at eleven o'clock, on the bright March morning which he had chosen for
his journey to Conventford. But though, the mare was ready, and had been
ready for a quarter of an hour, there was some slight delay while George
ran up to his room,--the room which he had slept in from his earliest
boyhood (there were some of his toys, dusty and forgotten, amongst the
portmanteaus and hat-boxes at the top of the painted deal
wardrobe),--and was for some little time engaged in changing his
neckcloth, brushing his hair and hat, and making other little
improvements in his personal appearance.

William Jeffson declared that his young master looked as if he was going
straight off to be married, as he rode away out of the stable-yard, with
a bright eager smile upon his face and the spring breezes blowing
amongst his hair. He looked the very incarnation of homely, healthy
comeliness, the archetype of honest youth and simple English manhood,
radiant with the fresh brightness of an unsullied nature, untainted by
an evil memory, pure as a new-polished mirror on which no foul breath
has ever rested.

He rode away to his fate, self-deluded, and happy in the idea that his
journey was a wise blending of the duties of friendship and the cares of
his surgery.

I do not think there can be a more beautiful road in all England than
that between Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne and Conventford, and I can
scarcely believe that in all England there is an uglier town than
Conventford itself. I envy George Gilbert his long ride on that bright
March morning, when the pale primroses glimmered among the underwood,
and the odour of early violets mingled faintly with the air. The country
roads were long avenues, which might have made the glory of a ducal
park; and every here and there, between a gap in the budding hedge, a
white-walled country villa or grave old red-brick mansion peeped out of
some nook of rustic beauty, with shining windows winking in the noontide
sun.

Midway between Graybridge and Conventford there is the village of
Waverly; the straggling village street over whose quaint Elizabethan
roofs the ruined towers of a grand old castle cast their protecting
shadows. John of Gaunt was master and founder of the grandest of those
old towers, and Henry the Eighth's wonderful daughter has feasted in the
great banqueting-hall, where the ivy hangs its natural garlands round
the stone mullions of the Tudor window. The surgeon gave his steed a
mouthful of hay and a drink of water before the Waverly Arms, and then
sauntered at a foot-pace into the long unbroken arcade which stretches
from the quiet village to the very outskirts of the bustling
Conventford. George urged Brown Molly into a ponderous kind of canter
by-and-by, and went at a dashing rate till he came to the little
turnpike at the end of the avenue, and left fair Elizabethan
Midlandshire behind him. Before him there was only the smoky, noisy,
poverty-stricken town, with hideous factory chimneys blackening the air,
and three tall spires rising from amongst the crowded roofs high up into
the clearer sky.

Mr. Gilbert drew rein on the green, which was quiet enough to-day,
though such an uproarious spot in fair-time; he drew rein, and began to
wonder what he should do. Should he go to the chemist's in the
market-place and get his drugs, and thence to Mr. Raymond's house, which
was at the other end of the town, or rather on the outskirts of the
country and beyond the town; or should he go first to Mr. Raymond's by
quiet back lanes, which were clear of the bustle and riot of the
market-people? To go to the chemist's first would be the wiser course,
perhaps; but then it wouldn't be very agreeable to have drugs in his
pocket, and to smell of rhubarb and camomile-flowers when he made his
appearance before Miss Sleaford. After a good deal of deliberation,
George decided on going by the back way to Mr. Raymond's house; and
then, as he rode along the lanes and back slums, he began to think that
Mr. Raymond would wonder why he called, and would think his interest in
the nursery-governess odd, or even intrusive; and from that a natural
transition of thought brought him to wonder whether it would not be
better to abandon all idea of seeing Miss Sleaford, and to content
himself with the purchase of the drugs. While he was thinking of this,
Brown Molly brought him into the lane at the end of which Mr. Raymond's
house stood, on a gentle eminence, looking over a wide expanse of grassy
fields, a railway cutting, and a white high-road, dotted here and there
by little knots of stunted trees. The country upon this side of
Conventford was bleak and bare of aspect as compared to that fair
park-like region which I venture to call Elizabethan Midlandshire.

If Mr. Raymond had resembled other people, I dare say he would have been
considerably surprised--or, it may be, outraged--by a young gentleman in
the medical profession venturing to make a morning call upon his
nursery-governess; but as Mr. Charles Raymond was the very opposite of
everybody else in the world, and as he was a most faithful disciple of
Mr. George Combe, and could discover by a glance at the surgeon's head
that the young man was neither a profligate nor a scoundrel, he received
George as cordially as it was his habit to receive every living creature
who had need of his friendliness; and sent Brown Molly away to his
stable, and set her master at his ease, before George had quite left off
blushing in his first paroxysm of shyness.

"Come into my room," cried Mr. Raymond, in a voice that had more
vibration in it than any other voice that ever rang out upon the air;
"come into my room. You've had a letter from Sigismund,--the idea of the
absurd young dog calling himself Sigismund!--and he's told you all about
Miss Sleaford. Very nice girl, but wants to be educated before she can
teach; keeps the little ones amused, however, and takes them out in the
meadows; a very nice, conscientious little thing; cautiousness very
large; can't get anything out of her about her past life; turns pale and
begins to cry when I ask her questions; has seen a good deal of trouble,
I'm afraid. Never mind; we'll try and make her happy. What does her past
life matter to us if her head's well balanced? Let me have my pick of
the young people in Field Lane, and I'll find you an undeveloped
Archbishop of Canterbury; take me into places where the crimes of
mankind are only known by their names in the Decalogue, and I'll find
you an embryo Greenacre. Miss Sleaford's a very good little girl; but
she's got too much Wonder and exaggerated Ideality. She opens her big
eyes when she talks of her favourite books, and looks up all scared and
startled if you speak to her while she's reading."

Mr. Raymond's room was a comfortable little apartment, lined with books
from the ceiling to the floor. There were books everywhere in Mr.
Raymond's house; and the master of the house read at all manner of
abnormal hours, and kept a candle burning by his bedside in the dead of
the night, when every other citizen of Conventford was asleep. He was a
bachelor, and the children whom it was Miss Sleaford's duty to educate
were a couple of sickly orphans, left by a pale-faced niece of Charles
Raymond's,--an unhappy young lady, who seemed only born to be
unfortunate, and who had married badly, and lost her husband, and died
of consumption, running through all the troubles common to womankind
before her twenty-fifth birthday. Of course Mr. Raymond took the
children; he would have taken an accidental chimney-sweep's children, if
it could have been demonstrated to him that there was no one else to
take them. He buried the pale-faced niece in a quiet suburban cemetery,
and took the orphans home to his pretty house at Conventford, and bought
black frocks for them, and engaged Miss Sleaford for their education,
and made less fuss about the transaction than many men would have done
concerning the donation of a ten-pound note.

It was Charles Raymond's nature to help his fellow-creatures. He had
been very rich once, the Conventford people said, in those far-off
golden days when there were neither strikes nor starvation in the grim
old town; and he had lost a great deal of money in the carrying out of
sundry philanthropic schemes for the benefit of his fellow-creatures,
and was comparatively poor in these latter days. But he was never so
poor as to be unable to help other people, or to hold his hand when a
mechanics' institution, or a working-men's club, or an evening-school,
or a cooking-dépôt, was wanted for the benefit and improvement of
Conventford.

And all this time,--while he was the moving spirit of half-a-dozen
committees, while he distributed cast-off clothing, and coals, and
tickets for soup, and orders for flannel, and debated the solemn
question as to whether Betsy Scrubbs or Maria Tomkins was most in want
of a wadded petticoat, or gave due investigation to the rival claims of
Mrs. Jones and Mrs. Green to the largess of the soup kitchen,--he was an
author, a philosopher, a phrenologist, a metaphysician, writing grave
books, and publishing them for the instruction of mankind. He was fifty
years of age; but, except that his hair was grey, he had no single
attribute of age. That grey hair framed the brightest face that ever
smiled upon mankind, and with the liberal sunshine smiled alike on all.
George Gilbert had seen Mr. Raymond several times before to-day.
Everybody in Conventford, or within a certain radius of Conventford,
knew Mr. Charles Raymond; and Mr. Charles Raymond knew everybody. He
looked through the transparent screen which shrouded the young surgeon's
thoughts: he looked down into the young man's heart, through depths that
were as clear as limpid water, and saw nothing there but truth and
purity. When I say that Mr. Raymond looked into George Gilbert's heart,
I use a figure of speech, for it was from the outside of the surgeon's
head he drew his deductions; but I like the old romantic fancy, that a
good man's heart is a temple of courage, love, and piety--an earthly
shrine of all the virtues.

Mr. Raymond's house was a pretty Gothic building, half villa, half
cottage, with bay windows opening into a small garden, which was very
different from the garden at Camberwell, inasmuch as here all was trimly
kept by an indefatigable gardener and factotum. Beyond the garden there
were the meadows, only separated from Mr. Raymond's lawn by a low privet
hedge; and beyond the meadows the roofs and chimneys of Conventford
loomed darkly in the distance.

Charles Raymond took George into the drawing-room by-and-by, and from
the bay window the young man saw Isabel Sleaford once more, as he had
seen her first, in a garden. But the scene had a different aspect from
that other scene, which still lingered in his mind, like a picture seen
briefly in a crowded gallery. Instead of the pear-trees on the low
disorderly grass-plat, the straggling branches green against the yellow
sunshine of July, George saw a close-cropped lawn and trim flower-beds,
stiff groups of laurel, amid bare bleak fields unsheltered from the
chill March winds. Against the cold blue sky he saw Isabel's slight
figure, not lolling in a garden-chair reading a novel, but walking
primly with two pale-faced children dressed in black. A chill sense of
pain crept through the surgeon's breast as he looked at the girlish
figure, the pale joyless face, the sad dreaming eyes. He felt that some
inexplicable change had come to Isabel Sleaford since that July day on
which she had talked of her pet authors, and glowed and trembled with
childish love for the dear books out of whose pages she took the joys
and sorrows of her life.

The three pale faces, the three black dresses, had a desolate look in
the cold sunlight. Mr. Raymond tapped at the glass, and beckoned to the
nursery-governess.

"Melancholy-looking objects, are they not?" he said to George, as the
three girls came towards the window. "I've told my housekeeper to give
them plenty of roast meat, not too much done; meat's the best antidote
for melancholy."

He opened the window and admitted Isabel and her two pupils.

"Here's a friend come to see you, Miss Sleaford," he said; "a friend of
Sigismund's; a gentleman who knew you in London."

George held out his hand, but he saw something like terror in the girl's
face as she recognized him; and he fell straightway into a profound gulf
of confusion and embarrassment.

"Sigismund asked me to call," he stammered. "Sigismund told me to write
and tell him how you were."

Miss Sleaford's eyes filled with tears. The tears came unbidden to her
eyes now with the smallest provocation.

"You are all very good to me," she said.

"There, you children, go out into the garden and walk about," cried Mr.
Raymond. "You go with them, Gilbert, and then come in and have some
stilton cheese and bottled beer, and tell us all about your Graybridge
patients."

Mr. Gilbert obeyed his kindly host. He went out on to the lawn, where
the brown shrubs were putting forth their feeble leaflets to be blighted
by the chill air of March. He walked by Isabel's side, while the two
orphans prowled mournfully here and there amongst the evergreens, and
picked the lonely daisies that had escaped the gardener's scythe. George
and Isabel talked a little; but the young man was fain to confine
himself to a few commonplace remarks about Conventford, and Mr. Raymond,
and Miss Sleaford's new duties; for he saw that the least allusion to
the old Camberwell life distressed and agitated her. There was not much
that these two could talk about as yet. With Sigismund Smith, Isabel
would have had plenty to say; indeed, it would have been a struggle
between the two as to which should do all the talking; but in George
Gilbert's company Isabel Sleaford's fancies folded themselves like
delicate buds whose fragile petals are shrivelled by a bracing northern
breeze. She knew that Mr. Gilbert was a good young man kindly disposed
towards her, and, after his simple fashion, eager to please her; but she
felt rather than knew that he did not understand her, and that in that
cloudy region where her thoughts for ever dwelt he could never be her
companion. So, after a little of that deliciously original conversation
which forms the staple talk of a morning call amongst people who have
never acquired the supreme accomplishment called small-talk, George and
Isabel returned to the drawing-room, where Mr. Raymond was ready to
preside over a banquet of bread-and-cheese and bottled ale; after which
refection the surgeon's steed was brought to the door.

"Come and see us again, Gilbert, whenever you've a day in Conventford,"
Mr. Raymond said, as he shook hands with the surgeon.

George thanked him for his cordial invitation, but he rode away from the
house rather depressed in spirit, notwithstanding. How stupid he had
been during that brief walk on Mr. Raymond's lawn; how little he had
said to Isabel, or she to him! How dismally the conversation had died
away into silence every now and then, only to be revived by some lame
question, some miserable remark apropos to nothing,--the idiotic
emanation of despair!

Mr. Gilbert rode to an inn near the market-place, where his father had
been wont to take his dinner whenever he went to Conventford. George
gave Brown Molly into the ostler's custody, and then walked away to the
crowded pavement, where the country people were jostling each other in
front of shop-windows and open stalls; the broad stony market-place,
where the voices of the hawkers were loud and shrill, where the brazen
boastings of quack-medicine vendors rang out upon the afternoon air. He
walked through the crowd, and rambled away into a narrow back street
leading to an old square, where the great church of Conventford stood
amidst a stony waste of tombstones, and where the bells that played a
hymn tune when they chimed the hour were booming up in the grand old
steeple. The young man went into the stony churchyard, which was lonely
enough even on a market-day, and walked about among the tombs, whiling
away the time--for the benefit of Brown Molly, who required considerable
rest and refreshment before she set out on the return journey--and
thinking of Isabel Sleaford.

He had only seen her twice, and yet already her image had fastened
itself with a fatal grip upon his mind, and was planted there--an
enduring picture, never again to be blotted out.

That evening at Camberwell had been the one romantic episode of this
young man's eventless life; Isabel Sleaford the one stranger who had
come across his pathway. There were pretty girls, and amiable girls, in
Graybridge: but then he had known them all his life. Isabel came to him
in her pale young beauty, and all the latent sentimentality--without
which youth is hideous--kindled and thrilled into life at the magic
spell of her presence. The mystic Venus rises a full-blown beauty from
the sea, and man the captive bows down before his divine enslaver. Who
would care for a Venus whose cradle he had rocked, whose gradual growth
he had watched, the divinity of whose beauty had perished beneath the
withering influence of familiarity?

It was dusk when George Gilbert went to the chemist and received his
parcels of drugs. He would not stop to dine at the White Lion, but paid
his eighteenpence for Brown Molly's accommodation, and took a hasty
glass of ale at the bar before he sprang into the saddle. He rode
homeward through the solemn avenue, the dusky cathedral aisle, the
infinite temple, fashioned by the great architect Nature. He rode
through the long ghostly avenue, until the twinkling lights at Waverly
glimmered on him faintly between the bare branches of the trees.

Isabel Sleaford's new life was a very pleasant one. There was no butter
to be fetched, no mysterious errands to the Walworth Road. Everything
was bright and smooth and trim in Mr. Raymond's household. There was a
middle-aged housekeeper who reigned supreme, and an industrious
maidservant under her sway. Isabel and her sickly charges had two
cheerful rooms over the drawing-room, and took their meals together, and
enjoyed the delight of one another's society all day long. The children
were rather stupid, but they were very good. They too had known the
sharp ills of poverty, the butter-fetching, the blank days in which
there was no bright oasis of dinner, the scraps of cold meat and
melancholy cups of tea. They told Isabel their troubles of an evening;
how poor mamma had cried when the sheriff's officer came in, and said he
was very sorry for her, but must take an inventory, and wouldn't leave
even papa's picture or the silver spoons that had been grandmamma's.
Miss Sleaford put her shoulder to the wheel very honestly, and went
through Pinnock's pleasant abridgments of modern and ancient history
with her patient pupils. She let them off with a very slight dose of the
Heptarchy and the Normans, and even the early Plantagenet monarchs; but
she gave them plenty of Anne Boleyn and Mary Queen of Scots,--fair
Princess Mary, Queen of France, and wife of Thomas Brandon,--Marie
Antoinette and Charlotte Corday.

The children only said "Lor'!" when they heard of Mademoiselle Corday's
heroic adventure; but they were very much interested in the fate of the
young princes of the House of York, and amused themselves by a
representation of the smothering business with the pillows on the
school-room sofa.

It was not to be supposed that Mr. Charles Raymond, who had all the
interests of Conventford to claim his attention, could give much time or
trouble to the two pupils or the nursery-governess. He was quite
satisfied with Miss Sleaford's head, and was content to entrust his
orphan nieces to her care.

"If they were clever children, I should be afraid of her exaggerated
ideality," he said; "but they're too stupid to be damaged by any
influence of that kind. She's got a very decent moral region--not equal
to that young doctor at Graybridge, certainly--and she'll do her duty to
the little ones very well, I dare say."

So no one interfered with Isabel or her pupils. The education of
association, which would have been invaluable to her, was as much
wanting at Conventford as it had been at Camberwell. She lived alone
with her books and the dreams which were born of them, and waited for
the prince, the Ernest Maltravers, the Henry Esmond, the Steerforth--it
was Steerforth's proud image, and not simple-hearted David's gentle
shadow, which lingered in the girl's mind when she shut the book. She
was young and sentimental, and it was not the good people upon whom her
fancy fixed itself. To be handsome and proud and miserable, was to
possess an indisputable claim to Miss Sleaford's worship. She sighed to
sit at the feet of a Byron, grand and gloomy and discontented, baring
his white brow to the midnight blast, and raving against the baseness
and ingratitude of mankind. She pined to be the chosen slave of some
scornful creature, who should perhaps ill-treat and neglect her. I think
she would have worshipped an aristocratic Bill Sykes, and would have
been content to die under his cruel hand, only in the ruined chamber of
some Gothic castle, by moonlight, with the distant Alps shimmering
whitely before her glazing eyes, instead of in poor Nancy's unromantic
garret. And then the Count Guilliaume de Syques would be sorry, and put
up a wooden cross on the mountain pathway, to the memory of--, ÂNÁTKH;
and he would be found some morning stretched at the foot of that
mysterious memorial, with a long black mantle trailing over his
king-like form, and an important blood-vessel broken.

There is no dream so foolish, there is no fancy however childish, that
did not find a lodgment in Isabel Sleaford's mind during the long idle
evenings in which she sat alone in her quiet school-room, watching the
stars kindle faintly in the dusk, and the darkening shadows gathering in
the meadows, while feeble lights began to twinkle in the distant streets
of Conventford. Sometimes, when her pupils were fast asleep in their
white-curtained beds, Izzie stole softly down, and went out into the
garden to walk up and down in the fair moonlight; the beautiful
moonlight in which Juliet had looked more lovely than the light of day
to Romeo's enraptured eyes; in which Hamlet had trembled before his
father's ghostly face. She walked up and down in the moonlight, and
thought of all her dreams; and wondered when her life was going to
begin. She was getting quite old; yes--she thought of it with a thrill
of horror--she was nearly eighteen! Juliet was buried in the tomb of the
Capulets before this age, and haughty Beatrix had lived her life, and
Florence Dombey was married and settled, and the story all over.

A dull despair crept over this foolish girl as she thought that perhaps
her life was to be only a commonplace kind of existence, after all; a
blank flat level, along which she was to creep to a nameless grave. She
was so eager to be _something_. Oh, why was not there a revolution, that
she might take a knife in her hand and go forth to seek the tyrant in
his lodging, and then die; so that people might talk of her, and
remember her name when she was dead?

I think Isabel Sleaford was just in that frame of mind in which a
respectable, and otherwise harmless, young person aims a bullet at some
virtuous sovereign, in a paroxysm of insensate yearning for distinction.
Miss Sleaford wanted to be famous. She wanted the drama of her life to
begin, and the hero to appear.

Vague, and grand, and shadowy, there floated before her the image of the
prince; but, oh, how slow he was to come! Would he ever come? Were there
any princes in the world? Were there any of those Beings whose manners
and customs her books described to her, but whose mortal semblances she
had never seen? The Sleeping Beauty in the woods slumbered a century
before the appointed hero came to awaken her. Beauty must wait, and wait
patiently, for the coming of her fate. But poor Isabel thought she had
waited so long, and as yet there was not even the distant shimmer of the
prince's plumes dimly visible on the horizon.

There were reasons why Isabel Sleaford should shut away the memory of
her past life, and solace herself with visions of a brighter existence.
A little wholesome drudgery might have been good for her, as a homely
antidote against the sentimentalism of her nature; but in Mr. Raymond's
house she had ample leisure to sit dreaming over her books, weaving
wonderful romances in which she was to be the heroine, and the hero--?

The hero was the veriest chameleon, inasmuch as he took his colour from
the last book Miss Sleaford had been reading. Sometimes he was Ernest
Maltravers, the exquisite young aristocrat, with violet eyes and silken
hair. Sometimes he was Eugene Aram, dark, gloomy, and intellectual, with
that awkward little matter of Mr. Clarke's murder preying upon his mind.
At another time he was Steerforth, selfish and haughty and elegant,
Sometimes, when the orphans were asleep. Miss Sleaford let down her long
black hair before the little looking-glass, and acted to herself in a
whisper. She saw her pale face, awful in the dusky glass, her lifted
arms, her great black eyes, and she fancied herself dominating a
terror-stricken pit. Sometimes she thought of leaving friendly Mr.
Raymond, and going up to London with a five-pound note in her pocket,
and coming out at one of the theatres as a tragic actress. She would go
to the manager, and tell him that she wanted to act. There might be a
little difficulty at first, perhaps, and he would be rather inclined to
be doubtful of her powers; but then she would take off her bonnet, and
let down her hair, and would draw the long tresses wildly through her
thin white fingers--so; she stopped to look at herself in the glass as
she did it,--and would cry, "I am not mad; this hair I tear is mine!"
and the thing would be done. The manager would exclaim, "Indeed, my dear
young lady, I was not prepared for such acting as this. Excuse my
emotion; but really, since the days of Miss O'Neil, I don't remember to
have witnessed anything to equal your delivery of that speech. Come
to-morrow evening and play Constance. You don't want a rehearsal?--no,
of course not; you know every syllable of the part. I shall take the
liberty of offering you fifty pounds a night to begin with, and I shall
place one of my carriages at your disposal." Isabel had read a good many
novels in which timid young heroines essay their histrionic powers, but
she had never read of a dramatically-disposed heroine who had not burst
forth a full-blown Mrs. Siddons without so much as the ordeal of a
rehearsal.

Sometimes Miss Sleaford thought that her Destiny--she clung to the idea
that she had a destiny--designed her to be a poet, an L.E.L.; oh, above
all she would have chosen to be L.E.L.; and in the evening, when she had
looked over the children's copy-books, and practised a new style of
capital B, in order to infuse a dash of variety into the next day's
studies, she drew the candles nearer to her, and posed herself, and
dipped her pen into the ink, and began to pour forth some melancholy
plaint upon the lonely blankness of her life, or some vague invocation
of the unknown prince. She rarely finished either the plaint or the
invocation, for there was generally some rhythmical difficulty that
brought her poetic musings to a dead lock; but she began a great many
verses, and spoiled several quires of paper with abortive sonnets, in
which "stars" and "streamlets," "dreams" and "fountains," recurred with
a frequency which was inimical to originality or variety of style.

The poor lonely untaught child looked right and left for some anchorage
on the blank sea of life, and could find nothing but floating masses of
ocean verdure, that drifted her here and there at the wild will of all
the winds of heaven. Behind her there was a past that she dared not look
back upon or remember; before her lay the unknown future, wrapped in
mysterious shadow, grand by reason of its obscurity. She was eager to
push onward, to pierce the solemn veil, to tear aside the misty curtain,
to penetrate the innermost chamber of the temple.

Late in the night, when the lights of Conventford had died out under the
starlit sky, the girl lay awake, sometimes looking up at those mystical
stars, and thinking of the future; but never once, in any dream or
reverie, in any fantastic vision built out of the stories she loved, did
the homely image of the Graybridge surgeon find a place.

George Gilbert thought of her, and wondered about her, as he rode Brown
Molly in the winding Midlandshire lanes, where the brown hedge-rows were
budding, and the whitethorn bursting into blossom. He thought of her by
day and by night, and was angry with himself for so thinking; and then
began straightway to consider when he could, with any show of grace,
present himself once more before Mr. Raymond's Gothic porch at
Conventford.



CHAPTER VII.

ON THE BRIDGE.


While George Gilbert was thinking of Isabel Sleaford's pale face and
black eyes; while, in his long rides to and fro among the cottages of
his parish patients, he solemnly debated as to whether he ought to call
upon Mr. Raymond when next he went to Conventford, or whether he ought
to go to Conventford for the express purpose of paying his respects to
Mr. Raymond,--the hand of Fate turned the wavering balance; and the
makeweight which she threw into the scale was no heavier than the
ordinary half-ounce of original composition which Government undertakes
to convey, not exactly from Indus to the Pole, but from the Land's End
to the Highlands, for the small charge of a penny. While George Gilbert
hesitated and doubted, and argued and debated with himself, after the
manner of every prudent home-bred young man who begins to think that he
loves well, and sadly fears that he may not love wisely,--Destiny, under
the form of a friend, gave him a push, and he went souse over head and
ears into the roaring ocean, and there was nothing left for him but to
swim as best he might towards the undiscovered shore upon the other
side.

The letter from Sigismund was dated Oakbank, Conventford, May 23rd,
1853.

"Dear George," wrote the author of "The Brand upon the Shoulder-blade,"
"I'm down here for a few days with my uncle Charles; and we've arranged
a picnic in Lord Hurstonleigh's grounds, and we want you to join us. So,
if your patients are not the most troublesome people in the world, you
can give yourself a holiday, and meet us on Wednesday morning, at
twelve, if fine, at the Waverly Road lodge-gate to Hurstonleigh Park.
Mrs. Pidgers--Pidgers is my uncle's housekeeper; a regular old dear, and
_such_ a hand at pie-crusts!--is going to pack up a basket,--and I know
what Pidgers's baskets are,--and we shall bring plenty of sparkling,
because, when my uncle does this sort of thing, he _does_ do it; and
we're to drink tea at one of Lord Hurstonleigh's model cottages, in his
model village, with a model old woman, who's had all manner of prizes
for the tidiest dust-holes, and the whitest hearth-stones, and the
neatest knife-boards, and all that kind of thing; and we're going to
make a regular holiday of it; and I shall forget that there's such a
creature as 'the Demon of the Galleys' in the world, and that I'm a
number behind with him,--which I am,--and the artist is waiting for a
subject for his next cut.

"The orphans are coming, of course, and Miss Sleaford; and, oh, by the
bye, _I_ want you to tell me all about poisoning by strychnine, because
I think I shall do a case or two in 'The D. of the G.'

"Twelve o'clock, sharp time, remember! We come in a fly. You can leave
your horse at Waverly.--Yours, S.S."

       *       *       *       *       *

Yes; Fate, impatient perhaps of any wavering of the balance in so
insignificant a matter as George Gilbert's destiny, threw this
penny-post letter into the scale, and, lo! it was turned. The young man
read the letter over and over again, till it was crumpled and soiled
with much unfolding and refolding, and taking out of, and putting back
into, his waistcoat-pocket. A picnic! a picnic in the Hurstonleigh
grounds, with Isabel Sleaford! Other people were to be of the party; but
George Gilbert scarcely remembered that. He saw himself, with Isabel by
his side, wandering along the winding pathways, straying away into
mysterious arcades of verdure, where the low branches of the trees would
meet above their heads, and shut them in from all the world. He fancied
himself talking to Mr. Sleaford's daughter as he never had talked, nor
was ever likely to talk, with any voice audible to mortal ears; he laid
out and arranged that day as we are apt to arrange the days that are to
come, and which--Heaven help our folly and presumption!--- are so
different when they do come from the dreams we have dreamed about them.
Mr. Gilbert lived that May holiday over and over again between the
Monday afternoon on which he received Sigismund's letter, and the
appointed Wednesday morning. He lay awake at night, when his day's work
was done, thinking of Isabel, and what she would say to him, and how she
would look at him, until those fancied words and looks thrilled him to
the heart's core, and he was deluded by the thought that it was all a
settled thing, and that his love was returned. His love! Did he love
her, then, already--this pale-faced young person, whom he had only seen
twice; who might be a Florence Nightingale, or a Madame de Laffarge, for
all that he knew either one way or the other? Yes, he loved her; the
wondrous flower that never yet "thrived by the calendar" had burst into
full bloom. He loved this young woman, and believed in her, and was
ready to bring her to his simple home whenever she pleased to come
thither; and had already pictured her sitting opposite to him in the
little parlour, making weak tea for him in a Britannia-metal teapot,
sewing commonplace buttons upon his commonplace shirts, debating with
Mrs. Jeffson as to whether there should be roast beef or boiled mutton
for the two o'clock dinner, sitting up alone in that most uninteresting
little parlour when the surgeon's patients were tiresome and insisted
upon being ill in the night, waiting to preside over little suppers of
cold meat and pickles, bread-and-cheese and celery. Yes; George pictured
Miss Sleaford the heroine of such a domestic story as this, and had no
power to divine that there was any incongruity in the fancy; no fineness
of ear to discover the dissonant interval between the heroine and the
story. Alas, poor Izzie! and are all your fancies, all the pretty
stories woven out of your novels, all your long day-dreams about Marie
Antoinette and Charlotte Corday, Edith Dombey and Ernest
Maltravers,--all your foolish pictures of a modern Byron, fever-stricken
at Missolonghi, and tended by you; a new Napoleon, exiled to St. Helena,
and followed, perhaps liberated, by you,--are they all oome to this? Are
none of the wonderful things that happen to women ever to happen to you?
Are you never to be Charlotte Corday, and die for your country? Are you
never to wear ruby velvet, and diamonds in your hair, and to lure some
recreant Carker to a foreign hostelry, and there denounce and scorn him?
Are all the pages of the great book of life to be closed upon you--you,
who seem to yourself predestined, by reason of so many dreams and
fancies, to such a wonderful existence? Is all the mystic cloudland of
your dreams to collapse and shrivel into this,--a commonplace
square-built cottage at Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne, with a commonplace
country surgeon for your husband?

George Gilbert was waiting at the low white gate before the ivy-coloured
lodge on the Waverly Road when the fly from Conventford drove up, with
Sigismund Smith sitting beside the coachman, and questioning him about a
murder that had been committed in the neighbourhood ten years before;
and Mr. Raymond, Miss Sleaford, and the orphans inside. The surgeon had
been waiting at the gate for a quarter of an hour, and he had been up
ever since six o'clock that morning, riding backwards and forwards
amongst his patients, doing a day's work in a few hours. He had been
home to dress, of course, and wore his newest and most fashionable
clothes, and was, in fact, a living realization of one of the figures in
a fly-blown fashion-plate for June 1852, still exhibited in the window
of a Graybridge tailor. He wore a monthly rosebud in his button-hole,
and be carried a bunch of spring flowers,--jonquils and polyanthuses,
pink hawthorn, peonies, and sweet-brier,--which Mr. Jeffson had gathered
and tied up, with a view to their presentation to Isabel,--although
there were better flowers in Mr. Raymond's garden, as George reminded
his faithful steward.

"Don't thee tew thyself about that, Master Jarge," said the
Yorkshireman; "th' young wench 'll like the flowers if thoo givest 'em
til her."

Of course it never for a moment entered into Mr Jeffson's mind that his
young master's attentions could be otherwise than welcome and agreeable
to any woman living, least of all to a forlorn young damsel who was
obliged to earn her bread amongst strangers.

"I'd like to see Miss Sleaford, Master Jarge," Mr. Jeffson said, in an
insinuating manner, as George gathered up the reins and patted Brown
Molly's neck, preparatory to riding away from the low white gate of his
domain.

George blushed like the peonies that formed the centre of his nosegay.

"I don't know why you should want to see Miss Sleaford any more than
other girls, Jeff," he said.

"Well, never you mind why, Master Jarge; I _should_ like to see her; I'd
give a deal to see her."

"Then we'll try and manage it, Jeff. We're to drink tea at Hurstonleigh;
and we shall be leaving there, I suppose, as soon as it's dark--between
seven and eight o'clock, I dare say. You might ride the grey pony to
Waverly, and bring Brown Molly on to Hurstonleigh, and stop at the
alehouse--there's an alehouse, you know, though it _is_ a model
village--until I'm ready to come home; and you can leave the horses with
the ostler, you know, and stroll about the village,--and you're sure to
find us."

"Yes, yes, Master Jarge; I'll manage it."

So George was at his post a quarter of an hour before the fly drove up
to the gate. He was there to open the door of the vehicle, and to give
his hand to Isabel when she alighted. He felt the touch of her fingers
resting briefly on his arm, and trembled and blushed like a girl as he
met the indifferent gaze of her great black eyes. Nobody took any notice
of his embarrassment. Mr. Raymond and his nephew were busy with the
hampers that had been stowed under the seats of the fly, and the orphans
were employed in watching their elders,--for to them the very cream of
the picnic was in those baskets.

There was a boy at the lodge who was ready to take the basket
whithersoever Mr. Raymond should direct; so all was settled very
quickly. The driver received his instructions respecting the return
journey, and went rumbling off to Hurstonleigh to refresh himself and
his horse. The lad went on before the little party, with the baskets
swinging on either side of him as he went; and in the bustle of these
small arrangements George Gilbert found courage to offer Isabel his arm.
She took it without hesitation, and Sigismund placed himself on the
other side of her. Mr. Raymond went on before with the orphans, who
affected the neighbourhood of the baskets; and the three young people
followed, walking slowly over the grass.

Isabel had put off her mourning. She had never had but one black dress,
poor child; and that being worn out, she was fain to fall back upon her
ordinary costume. If she had looked pretty in the garden at Camberwell,
with tumbled hair and a dingy dress, she looked beautiful to-day, in
clean muslin, fresh and crisp, fluttering in the spring breezes as she
walked, and with her hair smoothly banded under a broad-leaved straw
hat. Her face brightened with the brightness of the sunshine and the
charm of the landscape; her step grew light and buoyant as she walked
upon the springing turf. Her eyes lit up by-and-by, when the little
party came to a low iron gate, beyond which there was a grove, a winding
woodland patch, and undulating glades, and craggy banks half hidden
under foliage, and, in a deep cleft below, a brawling waterfall for ever
rushing over moss-grown rockwork, and winding far away to meet the
river.

"Oh, how beautiful it is!" cried Isabel; "how beautiful!"

She was a Cockney, poor child, and had spent the best part of her life
amidst the suburban districts of Camberwell and Peckham. All this
Midlandshire beauty burst upon her like a sudden revelation of Paradise.
Could the Garden of Eden have been more beautiful than this woodland
grove?--where the ground was purple with wild hyacinths that grew under
beeches and oaks centuries old; where the sunlight and shadows flickered
on the mossy pathways; where the guttural warble of the blackbirds made
perpetual music in the air. George looked wonderingly at the girl's rapt
countenance, her parted lips, that were faintly tremulous with the force
of her emotion.

"I did not think there could be any place in England so beautiful," she
said by-and-by, when George disturbed her with some trite remark upon
the scene. "I thought it was only in Italy and in Greece, and those sort
of places--where Childe Harold went--that it was beautiful like this. It
makes one feel as if one could never go back to the world again, doesn't
it?" she asked naïvely.

George was fain to confess that, although the grove was very beautiful,
it inspired him with no desire to turn hermit, and take up his abode
therein. But Isabel hardly heard what he said to her. She was looking
away into mysterious vistas of light and shadow, and thinking that in
such a spot as this the hero of a woman's life might appear in all his
shining glory. If she could meet him now, this wonderful unknown
being--the Childe Harold, the Lara, of her life! What if it was to be
so? what if she was to meet him now, and the story was appointed to
begin to-day,--this very day,--and all her life henceforth was to be
changed? The day was like the beginning of a story, somehow, inasmuch as
it was unlike the other days of her life. She had thought of the
holiday, and dreamt about it even more foolishly than George had done;
for there had been some foundation for the young man's visions, while
hers had been altogether baseless. What if Lord Hurstonleigh should
happen to be strolling in his grove, and should see her and rescue her
from death by drowning, or a mad bull, or something of that sort, and
thereupon fall in love with her? Nothing was more life-like or likely,
according to Izzie's experience of three-volume novels. Unhappily she
discovered from Mr. Raymond that Lord Hurstonleigh was an elderly
married man, and was, moreover, resident in the south of France; so
_that_ bright dream was speedily shattered. But there is no point of the
compass from which a hero may not come. There was hope yet; there was
hope that this bright spring-day might not close as so many days had
closed upon the same dull record, the same empty page.

Mr. Raymond was in his highest spirits to-day. He liked to be with young
people, and was younger than the youngest of them in his fresh enjoyment
of all that is bright and beautiful upon earth. He devoted himself
chiefly to the society of his orphan _protégées_, and contrived to
impart a good deal of information to them in a pleasant easy-going
manner, that took the bitterness out of those Pierian waters, for which
the orphans had very small affection. They were stupid and
unimpressionable; but, then, were they not the children of that unhappy
consumptive niece of his, who had acquired, by reason of her many
troubles, a kind of divine right to become a burden upon happy people?

"If she had left me such an orphan as that girl Isabel, I would have
thanked her kindly for dying," Mr. Raymond mused "That girl has mental
imitation,--the highest and rarest faculty of the human
brain,--ideality, and comparison. What could I not make of such a girl
as that? And yet--"

Mr. Raymond only finished the sentence with a sigh. He was thinking
that, after all, these bright faculties might not be the best gifts for
a woman. It would have been better, perhaps, for Isabel to have
possessed the organ of pudding-making and stocking-darning, if those
useful accomplishments are represented by an organ. The kindly
phrenologist was thinking that perhaps the highest fate life held for
that pale girl with the yellow tinge in her eyes was to share the home
of a simple-hearted country surgeon, and rear his children to be honest
men and virtuous women.

"I suppose that _is_ the best," Mr. Raymond said to himself.

He had dismissed the orphans now, and had sent them on to walk with
Sigismund Smith, who kindly related to them the story of "Lilian the
Deserted," with such suppressions and emendations as rendered the
romance suitable to their tender years. The philosopher of Conventford
had got rid of the orphans, and was strolling by himself in those
delicious glades, swinging his stick as he went, and throwing up his
head every now and then to scent all the freshness of the warm spring
air.

"Poor little orphan child!" he mused, "will anybody ever fathom her
fancies or understand her dreams? Will she marry that good, sheepish
country surgeon, who has fallen in love with her? He can give her a home
and a shelter; and she seems such a poor friendless little creature,
just the sort of girl to get into some kind of mischief if she were left
to herself. Perhaps it's about the best thing that could happen to her.
I should like to have fancied a brighter fate for her, a life with more
colour in it. She's so pretty--_so_ pretty; and when she talks, and her
face lights up, a sort of picture comes into my mind of what she would
be in a great saloon, with clusters of lights about her, and masses of
shimmering colour, making a gorgeous background for her pale young
beauty; and brilliant men and women clustering round her, to hear her
talk and see her smile. I can see her like this; and then, when I
remember what her life is likely to be, I begin to feel sorry for her,
just as if she were some fair young nun, foredoomed to be buried alive
by-and-by. Sometimes I have had a fancy that if _he_ were to come home
and see her--but that's an old busybody's dream. When did a matchmaker
ever create anything but matrimonial confusion and misery? I dare say
Beatrice kept her word, and _did_ make Benedick wretched. No; Miss
Sleaford must marry whom she may, and be happy or miserable, according
to the doctrine of averages; and as for _him_--"

Mr. Raymond stopped; and seeing the rest of the party happily engaged in
gathering hyacinths under the low branches of the trees, he seated
himself upon a clump of fallen timber, and took a book out of his
pocket. It was a book that had been sent by post, for the paper wrapper
was still about it. It was a neat little volume, bound in glistening
green cloth, with uncut edges, and the gilt-letter title on the back of
the volume set forth that the book contained "An Alien's Dreams." An
alien's dreams could be nothing but poetry; and as the name of the poet
was not printed under the title, it was perhaps only natural that Mr.
Raymond should, not open the book immediately, but should sit turning
and twisting the volume about in his hands, and looking at it with a
contemptuous expression of countenance.

"An alien!" he exclaimed; "why, in the name of all the affectations of
the present day, should a young man with fifteen thousand a year, and
one of the finest estates in Midlandshire, call himself an alien? 'An
Alien's Dreams'--and such dreams! I had a look at them this morning,
without cutting the leaves. It's always a mistake to cut the leaves of
young people's poetry. Such dreams! Surely no alien could have been
afflicted with anything like them, unless he was perpetually eating
heavy suppers of underdone pork, or drinking bad wine, or neglecting the
ventilation of his bedroom. Imperfect ventilation has a good deal to do
with it, I dare say. To think that Roland Lansdell should write such
stuff--such a clever young man as he is, too--such a generous-hearted,
high-minded young fellow, who might be--"

Mr. Raymond opened the volume in a very gingerly fashion, almost as if
he expected something unpleasant might crawl out of it, and looked in a
sideways manner between the leaves, muttering the first line or so of a
poem, and then skipping on to another, and giving utterance to every
species of contemptuous ejaculation between whiles.

"Imogen!" he exclaimed; "'To Imogen!' As if anybody was ever called
Imogen out of Shakespeare's play and Monk Lewis's ballad! 'To Imogen:'

     'Do you ever think of me, proud and cruel Imogen,
       As I think, ah! sadly think, of thee--
     When the shadows darken on the misty lea, Imogen,
       And the low light dies behind the sea?'

'Broken!' 'Shattered!' 'Blighted!' Lively titles to tempt the general
reader! Here's a nice sort of thing:

         'Like an actor in a play,
            Like a phantom in a dream,
          Like a lost boat left to stray
            Rudderless adown the stream,--
     This is what my life has grown, Ida Lee,
     Since thy false heart left me lone, Ida Lee.
     And I wonder sometimes when the laugh is loud,
     And I wonder at the faces of the crowd,
     And the strange fantastic measures that they tread,
     Till I think at last I must be dead--
     Till I half believe that I am dead.'

And to think that Roland Lansdell should waste his time in writing this
sort of thing! And here's his letter, poor boy!--his long rambling
letter,--in which he tells me how he wrote the verses, and how writing
them was a kind of consolation to him, a safety-valve for so much
passionate anger against a world that doesn't exactly harmonize with the
Utopian fancies of a young man with fifteen thousand a year and nothing
to do. If some rightful heir would turn up, in the person of one of
Roland's gamekeepers, now, and denounce my young friend as a wrongful
heir, and turn him out of doors bag and baggage, and with very little
bag and baggage, after the manner of those delightful melodramas which
hold the mirror up to nature so exactly, what a blessing it would be for
the author of 'An Alien's Dreams!' If he could only find himself without
a sixpence in the world, what a noble young soldier in the great battle
of life, what a triumphant hero, he might be! But as it is, he is
nothing better than a colonel of militia, with a fine uniform, and a
long sword that is only meant for show. My poor Roland! my poor Roland!"
Mr. Raymond murmured sadly, as he dropped the little volume back into
his pocket; "I am so sorry that you too should be infected with the
noxious disease of our time, the fatal cynicism that transforms youth
into a malady for which age is the only cure."

But he had no time to waste upon any regretful musings about Mr Roland
Lansdell, sole master of Lansdell Priory, one of the finest seats in
Midlandshire, and who was just now wandering somewhere in Greece, upon a
Byronic kind of tour that had lasted upwards of six months, and was
likely to last much longer.

It was nearly three o'clock now, and high time for the opening of the
hampers, Mr. Raymond declared, when he rejoined the rest of the party,
much to the delight of the orphans, who were always hungry, and who ate
so much, and yet remained so pale and skeleton-like of aspect, that they
presented a pair of perpetual phenomena to the eye of the physiologist.
The baskets had been carried to a little ivy-sheltered arbour, perched
high above the waterfall; and here Mr. Raymond unpacked them, bringing
out his treasures one after another; first a tongue, then a pair of
fowls, a packet of anchovy sandwiches, a great poundcake (at sight of
which the eyes of the orphans glistened), delicate caprices in the way
of pastry, semi-transparent biscuits, and a little block of Stilton
cheese, to say nothing of sundry bottles of Madeira and sparkling
Burgundy.

Perhaps there never was a merrier party. To eat cold chicken and drink
sparkling Burgundy in the open air on a bright May afternoon is always
an exhilarating kind of thing, though the scene of your picnic may be
the bleakest of the Sussex Downs, or the dreariest of the Yorkshire
Wolds; but to drink the sparkling wine in that little arbour of
Hurstonleigh, with the brawling of the waterfall keeping time to your
laughter, the shadows of patriarchal oaks sheltering you from all the
outer world, is the very acme of bliss in the way of a picnic. And then
Mr. Raymond's companions were so young! It was so easy for them to leave
all the Past on the threshold of that lovely grove, and to narrow their
lives into the life of that one bright day. Even Isabel forgot that she
had a Destiny, and consented to be happy in a simple girlish way,
without a thought of the prince who was so long coming.

It may be that the sparkling Burgundy had something to do with George
Gilbert's enthusiasm; but, by and bye, after then débris of the dinner
had been cleared away, and the little party lingered round the rustic
table, talking with that expansion of thought and eloquence of language
which is so apt to result from the consumption of effervescing wines in
the open air, the young surgeon thought that all the earth could
scarcely hold a more lovely creature than the girl who sat opposite to
him, with her head resting against the rustic wood-work of the arbour,
and her hat lying on her knee. She did not say very much, in comparison
with Sigismund and Mr. Raymond, who were neither of them indifferent
hands at talking; but when she spoke, there was generally something
vague and dreamy in her words,--something that set George wondering
about her anew, and made him admire her more than ever. He forgot all
the dictates of prudence now; he was false to all the grand doctrines of
young manhood; he only remembered that Isabel Sleaford was the loveliest
creature upon earth; he only knew that he loved her, and that his love,
like all true love, was mingled with modest doubtfulness of his own
merits, and exaggerated deference for hers. He loved her as purely and
truly as if he had been able to express his passion in the noblest poem
ever written; but not being able to express it, his love and himself
seemed alike tame and commonplace.

I must not dwell too long on this picnic, though it seemed half a
lifetime to George Gilbert, for he walked with Isabel through the lanes
between Hurstonleigh grove and Hurstonleigh village, and he loitered
with her in the little churchyard at Hurstonleigh, and stood upon the
bridge beneath which the Wayverne crept like a riband of silver, winding
in and out among the rushes. He lingered there by her side while the
orphans and Sigismund and Mr. Raymond were getting tea ready at the
model cottage, and putting the model old woman's wits into such a state
of "flustrification," as she herself expressed it, that she could
scarcely hold the tea-kettle, and was in imminent peril of breaking one
of her best "chaney" saucers, produced from a corner cupboard in honour
of her friend and patron, Charles Raymond.

George loitered on the little stone bridge with Isabel, and somehow or
other, still emboldened by the sparkling Burgundy, his passion all of a
sudden found a voice, and he told her that he loved her, and that his
highest hope upon earth was the hope of winning her for his wife.

I suppose that simple little story must be a pretty story, in its way;
for when a woman hears it for the first time, she is apt to feel kindly
disposed to the person who recites it, however poorly or tamely he may
tell his tale. Isabel listened with a most delightful complacency; not
because she reciprocated George's affection for her, but because this
was the first little bit of romance in her life, and she felt that the
story was beginning all at once, and that she was going to be a heroine.
She felt this; and with this a kind of grateful liking for the young man
at her side, through whose agency all these pleasant feelings came to
her.

And all this time George was pleading with her, and arguing, from her
blushes and her silence, that his suit was not hopeless. Emboldened by
the girl's tacit encouragement, he grew more and more eloquent, and went
on to tell her how he had loved her from the first; yes, from that first
summer's afternoon--when he had seen her sitting under the pear-trees in
the old-fashioned garden, with the low yellow light behind her.

"Of course I didn't know then that I loved you, Isabel--oh, may I call
you Isabel? it is such a pretty name. I have written it over and over
and over on the leaves of a blotting-book at home, very often without
knowing that I was writing it. I only thought at first that I admired
you, because you are so beautiful, and so different from other beautiful
women; and then, when I was always thinking of you, and wondering about
you, I wouldn't believe that it was because I loved you. It is only
to-day--this dear, happy day--that has made me understand what I have
felt all along; and now I know that I have loved you from the first,
Isabel, dear Isabel, from the very first."

All this was quite as it should be. Isabel's heart fluttered like the
wings of a young bird that essays its first flight.

"This is what it is to be a heroine," she thought, as she looked down at
the coloured pebbles, the floating river weeds, under the clear rippling
water; and yet knew all the time, by virtue of feminine second-sight,
that George Gilbert was gazing at her and adoring her. She didn't like
_him_, but she liked him to be there talking to her. The words she heard
for the first time were delightful to her because of their novelty, but
they took no charm from the lips that spoke them. Any other
good-looking, respectably-dressed young man would have been quite as
much to her as George Gilbert was. But then she did not know this. It
was so very easy for her to mistake her pleasure in the "situation;" the
rustic bridge, the rippling water, the bright spring twilight, even the
faint influence of that one glass of sparkling Burgundy, and, above all,
the sensation of being a heroine for the first time in her life--it was
so terribly easy to mistake all these for that which she did not
feel,--a regard for George Gilbert.

While the young man was still pleading, while she was still listening to
him, and blushing and glancing shyly at him out of those wonderful
tawny-coloured eyes, which seemed black just now under the shadow of
their drooping lashes, Sigismund and the orphans appeared at the distant
gate of the churchyard whooping and hallooing, to announce that the tea
was all ready.

"Oh, Isabel!" cried George, "they are coming, and it maybe ever so long
before I see you again alone. Isabel, dear Isabel! do tell me that you
will make me happy--tell me that you will be my wife!"

He did not ask her if she loved him; he was too much in love with
her--too entirely impressed with her grace and beauty, and his own
inferiority--to tempt his fate by such a question. If she would marry
him, and let him love her, and by-and-by reward his devotion by loving
him a little, surely that would be enough to satisfy his most
presumptuous wishes.

"Dear Isabel, you will marry me, won't you? You can't mean to say
no,--you would have said it before now. You would not be so cruel as to
let me hope, even for a minute, if you meant to disappoint me."

"I have known you--you have known me--such a short time," the girl
murmured.

"But long enough to love you with a love that will last all my life,"
George answered eagerly. "I shall have no thought except to make you
happy, Isabel. I know that you are so beautiful that you ought to marry
a very different fellow from me,--a man who could give you a grand
house, and carriages and horses, and all that sort of thing; but he
could never love you better than I, and he mightn't love you as well,
perhaps; and I'll work for you, Isabel, as no man ever worked before.
You shall never know what poverty is, darling, if you will be my wife."

"I shouldn't mind being poor," Isabel answered, dreamily.

She was thinking that Walter Gay had been poor, and that the chief
romance of Florence's life had been the quiet wedding in the little City
church, and the long sea voyage with her young husband. This sort of
poverty was almost as nice as poor Edith's miserable wealth, with
diamonds flung about and trampled upon, and ruby velvet for every-day
wear.

"I shouldn't mind so much being poor," repeated the girl; for she
thought, if she didn't marry a duke or a Donibey, it would be at least
something to experience the sentimental phase of poverty.

George Gilbert seized upon the words.

"Ah, then, you will marry me, dearest Isabel? you will marry me, my own
darling, my beautiful wife?"

He was almost startled by the intensity of his own feelings, as he bent
down and kissed the little ungloved hand lying on the moss-grown
stonework of the bridge.

"Oh, Isabel, if you could only know how happy you have made me! if you
could only know--"

She looked at him with a startled expression in her face. Was it all
settled, then, so suddenly--with so little consideration? Yes, it was
all settled; she was beloved with one of those passions that endure for
a lifetime. George had said something to that effect. The story had
begun, and she was a heroine.

"Good gracious me!" cried Mr. Smith, as he bounded on the parapet of the
little bridge, and disported himself there in the character of an
amateur Blondin; "if the model old woman who has had so many
prizes--we've been looking at her diplomas, framed and glazed, in a
parlour that I couldn't have believed to exist out of "Lilian the
Deserted" (who begins life as the cottager's daughter, you know, and
elopes with the squire in top-boots out of a diamond-paned window--and
I've been trying the model old woman's windows, and Lilian couldn't have
done it),--but I was about to remark, that if the old woman hasn't had a
prize for a model temper, you two will catch it for keeping the tea
waiting. Why, Izzie, what's the matter? you and George are both looking
as spooney as--is it, eh?--yes, it is: isn't it? Hooray! Didn't I see it
from the first?" cried Mr. Smith, striking an attitude upon the
balustrade, and pointing down to the two blushing faces with a
triumphant finger. "When George asked me for you? letter, Izzie,--the
little bit of a letter you wrote me when you left Camberwell,--didn't I
see him fold it up as gingerly as if it had been a fifty-pound note and
slip it into his waistcoat-pocket, and then try to look as if he hadn't
done it? Do you think I wasn't fly, then? A pretty knowledge of human
nature I should have, if I couldn't see through that. The creator of
Octavio Montefiasco, the Demon of the Galleys, flatters himself that he
understands the obscurest diagnostic of the complaint commonly
designated 'spoons.' Don't be downhearted, George," exclaimed Sigismund,
jumping suddenly off the parapet of the bridge, and extending his hand
to his friend. "Accept the congratulations of one who, with a heart long
ber-lighted by the ber-lasting in-fer-luence of ker-rime, can-er yet-er
feel a generous ther-rob in unison with virr-tue."

After this they all left the bridge, and went straight to the little
cottage, where Mr. Raymond had been holding a species of Yankee levée,
for the reception of the model villagers, every one of whom knew him,
and required his advice on some knotty point of law, medicine, or
domestic economy. The tea was laid upon a little round table, close to
the window, in the full light of the low evening sun. Isabel sat with
her back to that low western light, and George sat next to her, staring
at her in a silent rapture, and wondering at himself for his own
temerity in having asked her to be his wife. That tiresome Sigismund
called Mr. Raymond aside, before sitting down to tea, on the pretence of
showing him a highly-coloured representation of Joseph and his Brethren,
with a strong family likeness between the brethren; and told him in a
loud whisper what had happened on the little bridge. So it was scarcely
wonderful that poor George and Isabel took their tea in silence, and
were rather awkward in the handling of their teacups. But they were
spared any further congratulations from Sigismund, as that young
gentleman found it was as much as he could do to hold his own against
the orphans in the demolition of the poundcake, to say nothing of a lump
of honeycomb which the model old woman produced for the delectation of
the visitors.

The twilight deepened presently, and the stars began to glimmer faintly
in an opal-tinted sky. Mr. Raymond, Sigismund, and the orphans, employed
themselves in packing the baskets with the knives, plates, and glasses
which had been used for the picnic. The fly was to pick them all up at
the cottage. Isabel stood in the little doorway, looking dreamily out at
the village, the dim lights twinkling in the casement windows, the lazy
cattle standing in the pond upon the green, and a man holding a couple
of horses before the door of the little inn.

"That man with the horses is Jeffson, my father's gardener; I scarcely
like to call him a servant, for he is a kind of connection of my poor
mother's family," George said, with a little confusion; for he thought
that perhaps Miss Sleaford's pride might take alarm at the idea of any
such kindred between her future husband and his servant; "and he is
_such_ a good fellow! And what do you think, Isabel?" the young man
added, dropping his voice to a whisper; "poor Jeffson has come all the
way from Gray bridge on purpose to see you, because he has heard me say
that you are very beautiful; and I think he guessed ever so long ago
that I had fallen in love with you. Would you have any objection to walk
over yonder and see him, Isabel, or shall I call him here?"

"I'll go to him, if you like; I should like very much to see him," the
girl answered.

She took the arm George offered her. Of course it was only right that
she should take his arm. It was all a settled thing now.

"Miss Sleaford has come to see you, Jeff," the young man said, when they
came to where the Yorkshireman was standing.

Poor Jeff had very little to say upon this rather trying occasion. He
took off his hat, and stood bareheaded, smiling and blushing--as George
spoke of him and praised him--yet all the while keeping a sharp watch
upon Isabel's face. He could see that pale girlish face very well in the
evening light, for Miss Sleaford had left her hat in the cottage, and
stood bareheaded, with her face turned towards the west, while George
rambled on about Jeff and his old school-days, when Jeff and he had been
such friends and playfellows.

But the fly from Conventford came rumbling out of the inn-yard as they
stood there, and this was a signal for Isabel to hurry back to the
cottage. She held out her hand to Mr. Jeffson as she wished him good
night, and then went back, still attended by George, who handed her into
the fly presently, and wished her good night in a very commonplace
manner; for he was a young man whose feelings hid themselves from
indifferent eyes, and, indeed, only appeared under the influence of
extreme emotion.



CHAPTER VIII.

ABOUT POOR JOE TILLET'S YOUNG WIFE.


George went back to the Seven Stars, where Mr. Jeffson was waiting with
the horses. He went back, after watching the open vehicle drive away; he
went back with his happiness which was so new and strange, he thought a
fresh life was to begin for him from this day, and would have almost
expected to find the diseases of his patients miraculously cured, and a
new phase of existence opening for them as well as for himself.

He was going to be married; he was going to have this beautiful young
creature for his wife. He thought of her; and the image of this
pale-faced girl, sitting in the little parlour at Graybridge, waiting to
receive him when he came home from his patients, was such an
overpowering vision, that his brain reeled as he contemplated it. Was it
true--could it be true--that all this inexpressible happiness was to be
his?

By-and-by, when he was riding Brown Molly slowly along the shadowy lanes
that lie between Hurstonleigh and Waverly, his silent bliss overflowed
his heart and sought to utter itself in words. William Jeffson had
always been George's confidant; why should he not be so now, when the
young man had such need of some friendly ear to which to impart his
happiness?

Somehow or other, the Yorkshireman did not seem so eager as usual to
take his part in his master's pleasure; he had seemed to hang back a
little; for, under ordinary circumstances, George would have had no
occasion to break the ice. But to-night Mr. Jeffson seemed bent on
keeping silence, and George was obliged to hazard a preliminary
question.

"What do you think of her, Jeff?" he asked.

"What do I think to who, Master Jarge?" demanded the Yorkshireman, in
his simple vernacular.

"Why, Isa--Miss Sleaford, of course," answered George, rather
indignantly: was there any other woman in the world whom he could
possibly think of or speak of to-night?

Mr. Jeffson was silent for some moments, as if the question related to
so profound a subject that he had to descend into the farthest depths of
his mind before he could answer it. He was silent; and the slow
trampling of the horses' hoofs along the lane, and the twittering of
some dissipated bird far away in the dim woodland, were the only sounds
that broke the evening stillness.

"She's rare an' pretty, Master Jarge," the philosopher said at last, in
a very thoughtful tone; "I a'most think I never see any one so pretty;
though it isn't that high-coloured sort of prettiness they think so much
to in Graybridge. She's still and white, somehow, like the images in
York Minster; and her eyes seem far away as you look at her. Yes, she is
rare an' pretty."

"I've told her how I love her; and--and you like her, Jeff, don't you?"
asked George, in a rapture of happiness that was stronger than his
native shyness. "You like her, and she likes you, Jeff, and will like
you better as she comes to know you more. And she's going to be my wife,
old Jeff!"

The young man's voice grew tremulous as he made this grand announcement.
Whatever enthusiasm there was in his nature seemed concentrated in the
emotions of this one day.

He had loved for the first time, and declared his love. His true and
constant heart, that wondrous aloe which was to bear a single flower,
had burst into sudden blossom, and all the vigour of the root was in
that one bright bloom. The aloe-flower might bloom steadily on for ever,
or might fade and die; but it could never know a second blossoming.

"She's going to be my wife, Jeff," he repeated, as if to say these words
was in itself to taste an overpowering happiness.

But William Jeffson seemed very stupid to-night. His conversational
powers appeared to have undergone a kind of paralysis. He spoke slowly,
and made long pauses every now and then.

"You're going to marry her, Master Jarge?" he said.

"Yes, Jeff. I love her better than any living creature in this
world--better than the world itself, or my own life; for I think, if she
had answered me differently to-day, I should have died. Why, you're not
surprised, are you, Jeff? I thought you guessed at the very
first--before I knew it myself even--that I was in love with Isabel.
Isabel! Isabel! what a pretty name! It sounds like a flower, doesn't
it?"

"No; I'm not surprised, Master Jarge," the Yorkshireman said,
thoughtfully. "I knew you was in love with Miss Sleaford, regular fond
about her, you know; but I didn't think--I didn't think--as you'd ask
her to marry you so soon."

"But why not, Jeff?" cried the young man. "What should I wait for? I
couldn't love her better than I do if I knew her for years and years,
and every year were to make her brighter and lovelier than she is now.
I've got a home to bring her to, and I'll work for her--I'll work for
her as no man ever worked before to make a happy home for his wife."

He struck out his arm, with his fist clenched, as if he thought that the
highest round on the ladder of fortune was to be reached by any young
surgeon who had the desire to climb.

"Why shouldn't I marry at once, Jeff?" he demanded, with some touch of
indignation. "I can give my wife as good a home as that from which I
shall take her."

"It isn't that as I was thinkin' of, Master Jarge," William Jeffson
answered, growing slower of speech and graver of tone with every word he
spoke; "it isn't that. But, you see, you know so little of Miss
Sleaford; you know naught but that she's different, somehow, to all the
other lasses you've seen, and that she seems to take your fancy like,
because of that. You know naught about her, Master Jarge; and what's
still worse--ever so much worse than that--you don't know that she loves
you. You don't know that, Master Jarge. If you was only sure of _that_,
the rest wouldn't matter so much; for there's scarcely anything in this
world as true love can't do; and a woman that loves truly can't be aught
but a good woman at heart. I see Miss Sleaford when you was standin'
talkin' by the Seven Stars, Master Jarge, and there wasn't any look in
her face as if she knew what you was sayin', or thought about it; but
her eyes looked ever so far away like: and though there was a kind of
light in her face, it didn't seem as if it had anything to do with you.
And, Lor' bless your heart, Master Jarge, you should have seen my
Tilly's face when she come up the airey steps in the square where she
was head-housemaid, and see me come up to London on purpose to surprise
her. Why, it was all of a shine like with smiles and brightness, at the
sight o' _me_, Master Jarge; and I'm sure _I'm_ no great shakes to look
at," added Mr. Jeffson, in a deprecating tone.

The reins, lying loose upon Brown Molly's neck, shook with the sudden
trembling of the hand that held them. George Gilbert was seized with a
kind of panic as he listened to his Mentor's discourse. He had not
presumed to solicit any confession of love from Isabel Sleaford; he had
thought himself more than blest, inasmuch as she had promised to become
his wife; yet he was absolutely terror-stricken at Mr. Jeffson's
humiliating suggestion, and was withal very angry at his old playmate's
insolence.

"You mean that she doesn't love me?" he said sharply.

"Oh, Master Jarge, to be right down truthful with you, that's just what
I do mean. She _doan't_ love you; as sure as I've seen true love lookin'
out o' my Tilly's face, I see somethin' that wasn't love lookin' out o'
hearn to-night. I see just such a look in Miss Sleaford's eyes as I see
once in a pretty young creetur that married a mate o' mine down home; a
young man as had got a little bit o' land and cottage, and everything
comfortable, and it wasn't the young creetur herself that was in favour
o' marryin' him; but it was her friends that worried and bothered her
till she said yes. She was a poor foolish young thing, that didn't seem
to have the strength to say no. And I was at Joe Tillet's weddin',--his
name was Joe Tillet,--and I see the pretty young creetur standin', like
as I saw Miss Sleaford to-night, close alongside her husband while he
was talkin', and lookin' prettier nor ever in her straw bonnet and white
ribands; but her eyes seemed to fix themselves on somethin' far away
like; and when her husband turned of a sudden and spoke to her, she
started, like as if she was waked out of a dream. I never forgot that
look o' hearn, Master Jarge; and I saw the same kind o' look to-night."

"What nonsense you're talking, Jeff!" George answered, with considerable
impatience. "I dare say your friend and his wife were very happy?"

"No, Master Jarge, they wasn't. And that's just the very thing that
makes me remember the pretty young creetur's look that summer's day, as
she stood, dresssed out in her wedding-clothes, by her loving husband's
side. He was very fond of her, and for a good two year or so he seemed
very happy, and was allus tellin' his friends he'd got the best wife in
the three Ridin's, and the quietest and most industrious; but she seemed
to pine like; and by-and-by there was a young soldier came home that had
been to the Indies, and that was her first cousin, and had lived
neighbours with her family when she was a bit of a girl. I won't tell
you the story, Master Jarge; for it isn't the pleasantest kind o' thing
to tell, nor yet to hear; but the end of it was, my poor mate Joe was
found one summer's morning--just such a day as that when he was
married--hanging dead behind the door of one of his barns; and as for
the poor wretched young creetur as had caused his death, nobody ever
knew what came of her. And yet," concluded Mr. Jeffson, in a meditative
tone, "I've heard that poor chap Joe tell me so confident that his wife
would get to love him dearly by-and-by, because he loved her so true and
dear."

George Gilbert, made no answer to all this. He rode on slowly, with his
head drooping. The Yorkshireman kept an anxious watch upon his master;
he could not see the expression of the young man's face, but he could
see by his attitude that the story of Joseph Tillet's misadventure had
not been without a depressing influence upon him.

"Si'thee noo. Master Jarge," said William Jeffson, laying his hand upon
the surgeon's wrist, and speaking in a voice that was almost solemn,
"marryin' a pretty girl seems no more than gatherin' a wild rose out of
the hedge to some men, they do it so light and careless-like,--just
because the flower looks pretty where it's growin'. I'd known my Tilly
six year before I asked her to be my wife. Master Jarge; and it was only
because she'd been true and faithful to me all that time, and because
I'd never, look at her when I might, seen anything but love in her face,
that I ventured at last to say to mysen, 'William Jeffson, there's a
lass that'll make thee a true wife.' Doan't be in a hurry. Master Jarge;
doan't! Take the advice of a poor ignorant chap as has one great
advantage over all your learnin', for he's lived double your time in the
world. Doan't be in a hurry. If Miss Sleaford loves ye true to-night,
she'll love ye ten times truer this night twelvemonths, and truer still
this time ten years. If she _doan't_ love you, Master Jarge, keep clear
of her as you would of a venomous serpent; for she'll bring you worse
harm than ever that could do, if it stung you to the heart, and made an
end of you at once. I see Joe Tillet lyin' dead after the inquest that
was held upon him, Master Jarge; and the thought that the poor desperate
creeter had killed hisself warn't so bad to me as the sight of the
suffering on his poor dead face,--the suffering that he'd borne nigh
upon two year, Master Jarge, _and had held his tongue about_."



CHAPTER IX.

MISS SLEAFORD'S ENGAGEMENT.


Isabel Sleaford was "engaged." She remembered this when she woke on the
morning after that pleasant day in Hurstonleigh grove, and that
henceforward there existed a person who was bound to be miserable
because of her. She thought this as she stood before the modest
looking-glass, rolling the long plaits of hair into a great knot, that
seemed too heavy for her head. Her life was all settled. She was not to
be a great poetess or an actress. The tragic mantle of the Siddons might
have descended on her young shoulders, but she was never to display its
gloomy folds on any mortal stage. She was not to be anything great. She
was only to be a country surgeon's wife.

It was very commonplace, perhaps; and yet this lonely girl--this
untaught and unfriended creature--felt some little pride in her new
position. After all, she had read many novels in which the story was
very little more than this,--three volumes of simple love-making, and a
quiet wedding at the end of the chapter. She was not to be an Edith
Dombey or a Jane Eyre. Oh, to have been Jane Eyre, and to roam away on
the cold moorland and starve,--wouldn't _that_ have been delicious!

No, there was to be a very moderate portion of romance in her life; but
still some romance. George Gilbert would be very devoted, and would
worship her always, of course. She gave her head a little toss as she
thought that, at the worst, she could treat him as Edith treated Dombey,
and enjoy herself that way; though she was doubtful how far Edith
Dombey's style of treatment might answer without the ruby velvet, and
diamond coronet, and other "properties" appertaining to the rôle.

In the meanwhile, Miss Sleaford performed her duties as best she could,
and instructed the orphans in a dreamy kind of way, breaking off in the
middle of the preterperfect tense of a verb to promise them that they
should come to spend a day with her when she was married, and neglecting
their fingering of the overture to "Masaniello" while she pondered on
the colour of her wedding-dress.

And how much did she think of George Gilbert all this time? About as
much as she would have thought of the pages who were to support the
splendid burden of her trailing robes, if she had been about to be
crowned Queen of England. He was the bridegroom, the husband; a
secondary character in the play of which she was the heroine.

Poor George's first love-letter came to her on the following day--a
vague and rambling epistle, full of shadowy doubts and fears; haunted,
as it were, by the phantom of the poor dead-and-gone Joe Tillet, and
without any punctuation whatever:

"But oh dearest ever dearest Isabel for ever dear you will be to me if
you cast me from you and I should go to America for life in Graybridge
would be worse than odious without you Oh Isabel if you do not love me I
implore you for pity sake say so and end my misery I know I am not
worthy of your love who are so beautiful and accomplished but oh the
thought of giving you up is so bitter unless you yourself should wish it
and oh there is no sacrifice on earth I would not make for you."

The letter was certainly not as elegant a composition as Isabel would
have desired it to be; but then a love-letter is a love-letter, and this
was the first Miss Sleaford had ever received. George's tone of mingled
doubt and supplication was by no means displeasing to her. It was only
right that he should be miserable: it was only proper that he should be
tormented by all manner of apprehensions. They would have to quarrel
by-and-by, and to bid each other an eternal farewell, and to burn each
other's letters, and be reconciled again. The quietest story could not
be made out without such legitimate incidents in the course of the three
volumes.

Although Isabel amused herself by planning her wedding-dress, and
changed her mind very often as to the colour and material she had no
idea of a speedy marriage. Were there not three volumes of courtship to
be gone through first?

       *       *       *       *       *

Sigismund went back to town after the picnic which had been planned for
his gratification, and Isabel was left quite alone with her pupils. She
walked with them, and took her meals with them, and was with them all
day; and it was only of a Sunday that she saw much of Mr. Raymond.

That gentleman was very kind to the affianced lovers. George Gilbert
rode over to Conventford every alternate Sunday, and dined with the
family at Oakbank. Sometimes he went early enough to attend Isabel and
the orphans to church. Mr. Raymond himself was not a church-goer, but he
sent his grand-nieces to perform their devotions, as he sent them to
have their hair clipped by the hairdresser, or their teeth examined by
the dentist. George plunged into the wildest extravagance in the way of
waistcoats, in order to do honour to these happy Sundays; and left off
mourning for his father a month or so earlier than he had intended, in
order to infuse variety into his costume. Everything he wore used to
look new on these Sundays; and Isabel, sitting opposite to him in the
square pew would contemplate him thoughtfully when the sermon was dull,
and wonder, rather regretfully, why his garments never wore themselves
into folds, but always retained a hard angular look, as if they had been
originally worn by a wooden figure, and had never got over that
disadvantage. He wore a watch-chain that his father had given him,--a
long chain that went round his neck, but which he artfully twisted and
doubled into the semblance of a short one; and on this chain he hung a
lucky sixpence and an old-fashioned silver vinaigrette; which trifles,
when seen from a distance, looked almost like the gold charms which the
officers stationed at Conventford wore dangling on their waistcoats.

And so the engagement dawdled on through all the bright summer months;
and while the leaves were falling in the woods of Midlandshire, George
still entreating that the marriage might speedily take place, and Isabel
always deferring that ceremonial to some indefinite period.

Every alternate Sunday the young man's horse appeared at Mr. Raymond's
gate. He would have come every Sunday, if he had dared, and indeed had
been invited to do so by Isabel's kind employer; but he had sensitive
scruples about eating so much beef and mutton, and drinking so many cups
of tea, for which he could make no adequate return to his hospitable
entertainer. Sometimes he brought a present for one of the orphans,--a
work-box or a desk, fitted with scissors that wouldn't cut, and
inkstands that wouldn't open (for there are no Parkins and Gotto in
Graybridge or its vicinity), or a marvellous cake, made by Matilda
Jeffson. Once he got up a little entertainment for his betrothed and her
friends, and gave quite a dinner, with five sweets, and an elaborate
dessert, and with the most plum-coloured of ports, and the brownest of
sherries, procured specially from the Cock at Graybridge. But as the
orphans, who alone did full justice to the entertainment, were afflicted
with a bilious attack on the following day, the experiment was not
repeated.

But the dinner at Graybridge was not without its good effect. Isabel saw
the house that was to be her home; and the future began to take a more
palpable shape than it had worn hitherto. She looked at the little china
ornaments on the mantel-piece, the jar of withered rose-leaves, mingled
with faint odours of spices--the scent was very faint now, for the hands
of George's dead mother had gathered the flowers. George took Isabel
through the little rooms, and showed her an old-fashioned work-table,
with a rosewood box at the top, and a well of fluted silk, that had once
been rose-coloured, underneath.

"My mother used to sit at this table working, while she waited for my
father; I've often heard him say so. You'll use the old work-box, won't
you, Izzie?" George asked, tenderly.

He had grown accustomed to call her Izzie now, and was familiar with
her, and confided in her, as in a betrothed wife, whom no possible
chance could alienate from him. He had ceased to regard her as a
superior being, whom it was a privilege to know and worship. He loved
her as truly as he had ever loved her; but not being of a poetical or
sentimental nature, the brief access of romantic feeling which he had
experienced on first falling in love speedily wore itself out, and the
young man grew to contemplate his approaching marriage with perfect
equanimity. He even took upon himself to lecture Isabel, on sundry
occasions, with regard to her love of novel-reading, her neglect of
plain needlework, and her appalling ignorance on the subject of
puddings. He turned over her leaves, and found her places in the
hymn-book at church; he made her follow the progress of the Lessons,
with the aid of a church service printed in pale ink and a minute type;
and he frowned at her sternly when he caught her eyes wandering to
distant bonnets during the sermon. All the young man's old notions of
masculine superiority returned now that he was familiar with Miss
Sleaford; but all this while he loved her as only a good man can love,
and supplicated all manner of blessings for her every night when he said
his prayers.

Isabel Sleaford improved very much in this matter-of-fact companionship,
and in the exercise of her daily round of duty. She was no longer the
sentimental young lady, whose best employment was to loll in a
garden-chair reading novels, and who was wont to burst into sudden
rhapsodies about George Gordon Lord Byron and Napoleon the First upon
the very smallest provocation. She had tried George on both these
subjects, and had found him entirely wanting in any special reverence
for either of her pet heroes. Talking with him on autumn Sunday
afternoons in the breezy meadows near Conventford, with the orphans
loitering behind or straggling on before, Miss Sleaford had tested her
lover's conversational powers to the utmost; but as she found that he
neither knew nor wished to know anything about Edith Dombey or Ernest
Maltravers, and that he regarded the poems of Byron and Shelley as
immoral and blasphemous compositions, whose very titles should be
unknown to a well-conducted young woman, Isabel was fain to hold her
tongue about all the bright reveries of her girlhood, and to talk to Mr.
Gilbert about what he did understand.

He had read Cooper's novels, and a few of Lever's; and he had read Sir
Walter Scott and Shakespeare, and was fully impressed with the idea that
he could not over-estimate these latter writers; but when Isabel began
to talk about Edgar Ravenswood and Lucy, with her face all lighted up
with emotion, the young surgeon could only stare wonderingly at his
betrothed.

Oh, if he had only been like Edgar Ravenswood! The poor, childish,
dissatisfied heart was always wishing that he could be something
different from what he was. Perhaps during all that engagement the girl
never once saw her lover really as he was. She dressed him up in her own
fancies, and deluded herself by imaginary resemblances between him and
the heroes in her books. If he was abrupt and disagreeable in his manner
to her, he was Rochester; and she was Jane Eyre, tender and submissive.
If he was cold, he was Dombey; and she feasted on her own pride, and
scorned him, and made much of one of the orphans during an entire
afternoon. If he was clumsy and stupid, he was Rawdon Crawley; and she
patronized him, and laughed at him, and taunted him with little scraps
of French with the Albany-Road accent, and played off all green-eyed
Becky's prettiest airs upon him. But in spite of all this the young
man's sober common sense exercised a beneficial influence upon her; and
by-and-by, when the three volumes of courtship had been prolonged to the
uttermost, and the last inevitable chapter was close at hand, she had
grown to think affectionately of her promised husband, and was
determined to be very good and obedient to him when she became his wife.

But for the pure and perfect love which makes marriage thrice holy,--the
love which counts no sacrifice too great, no suffering too bitter,--the
love which knows no change but death, and seems instinct with such
divinity that death can be but its apotheosis,--such love as this had no
place in Isabel Sleaford's heart. Her books had given her some vague
idea of this grand passion, and on comparing herself with Lucy Ashton
and Zuleika, with Amy Robsart and Florence Dombey and Medora, she began
to think that the poets and novelists were all in the wrong, and that
there were no heroes or heroines upon this commonplace earth.

She thought this, and she was content to sacrifice the foolish dreams of
her girlhood, which were doubtless as impossible as they were beautiful.
She was content to think that her lot in life was fixed, and that she
was to be the wife of a good man, and the mistress of an old-fashioned
house in one of the dullest towns in England. The time had slipped so
quietly away since that spring twilight on the bridge at Hurstonleigh,
her engagement had been taken so much as a matter of course by every one
about her, that no thought of withdrawal therefrom had ever entered into
her mind. And then, again, why should she withdraw from the engagement?
George loved her; and there was no one else who loved her. There was no
wandering Jamie to come home in the still gloaming and scare her with
the sight of his sad reproachful face. If she was not George Gilbert's
wife, she would be nothing--a nursery-governess for ever and ever,
teaching stupid orphans, and earning five-and-twenty pounds a year. When
she thought of her desolate position, and of another subject which was
most painful to her, she clung to George Gilbert, and was grateful to
him, and fancied that she loved him.

The wedding-day came at last,--one bleak January morning, when
Conventford wore its barest and ugliest aspect; and Mr. Raymond gave his
nursery-governess away, after the fashion of that simple Protestant
ceremonial, which is apt to seem tame and commonplace when compared with
the solemn grandeur of a Roman Catholic marriage. He had given her the
dress she wore, and the orphans had clubbed their pocket-money to buy
their preceptress a bonnet as a surprise, which was a failure, after the
usual manner of artfully-planned surprises.

Isabel Sleaford pronounced the words that made her George Gilbert's
wife; and if she spoke them somewhat lightly, it was because there had
been no one to teach her their solemn import. There was no taint of
falsehood in her heart, no thought of revolt or disobedience in her
mind; and when she came out of the vestry, leaning on her young
husband's arm, there was a smile of quiet contentment on her face.

"Joe Tillet's wife could never have smiled like that," thought George,
as he looked at his bride.

The life that lay before Isabel was new; and, being little more than a
child as yet, she thought that novelty must mean happiness. She was to
have a house of her own, and servants, and an orchard and paddock, two
horses, and a gig. She was to be called Mrs. Gilbert: was not her name
so engraved upon the cards which George had ordered for her, in a
morocco card-case, that smelt like new boots, and was difficult to open,
as well as on those wedding-cards which the surgeon had distributed
among his friends?

George had ordered envelopes for these cards with his wife's maiden name
engraved inside; but, to his surprise, the girl had implored him, ever
so piteously, to counter-order them.

"Oh, don't have my name upon the envelopes, George," she said; "don't
send my name to your friends; don't ever tell them what I was called
before you married me."

"But why not, Izzie?"

"Because I hate my name," she answered, passionately. "I hate it; I hate
it! I would have changed it if I could when--when--I first came here;
but Sigismund wouldn't let me come to his uncle's house in a false name.
I hate my name; I hate and detest it."

And then suddenly seeing wonderment and curiosity plainly expressed in
her lover's face, the girl cried out that there was no meaning in what
she had been saying, and that it was only her own romantic folly, and
that he was to forgive her, and forget all about it.

"But am I to send your name, or not, Isabel?" George asked, rather
coolly. He did not rerish these flights of fancy on the part of the
young lady he was training with a view to his own ideal of a wife. "You
first say a thing, and then say you don't mean it. Am I to send the
envelopes or not?"

"No, no, George; don't send them, please; I really do dislike the name.
Sleaford is such an ugly name, you know."



CHAPTER X.

A BAD BEGINNING.


Mr. Gilbert took his young wife to an hotel at Murlington for a week's
honeymoon--to a family hotel; a splendid mansion, Isabel thought, where
there was a solemn church-like stillness all day long, only broken by
the occasional tinkling of silver spoons in the distance, or the musical
chime of fragile glasses carried hither and thither on salvers of
electro-plate. Isabel had never stayed at an hotel before; and she felt
a thrill of pleasure when she saw the glittering table, the wax-candles
in silver branches, the sweeping crimson curtains drawn before the lofty
windows, and the delightful waiter, whose manner was such a judicious
combination of protecting benevolence and obsequious humility.

Mrs. George Gilbert drew a long breath as she trifled with the shining
damask napkin, so wondrously folded into a bishop's mitre, and saw
herself reflected in the tall glass on the opposite side of the room.
She wore her wedding-dress still; a sombre brown-silk dress, which had
been chosen by George himself because of its homely merit of usefulness,
rather than for any special beauty or elegance. Poor Isabel had
struggled a little about the choice of that dress, for she had wanted to
look like Florence Dombey on her wedding-day; but she had given way. Her
life had never been her own yet, and never was to be her own, she
thought; for now that her step-mother had ceased to rule over her by
force of those spasmodic outbreaks of violence by which sorely-tried
matrons govern their households, here was George, with his strong will
and sound common sense,--oh, how Isabel hated common sense!--and she
must needs acknowledge him as her master.

But she looked at her reflection in the glass, and saw that she was
pretty. Was it only prettiness, or was it something more, even in spite
of the brown dress? She saw her pale face and black hair lighted up by
the wax-candles; and thought, if this could go on for ever,--the
tinkling silver and glittering glass, the deferential waiter, the
flavour of luxury and elegance, not to say Edith Dombeyism, that
pervaded the atmosphere,--she would be pleased with her new lot.
Unhappily, there was only to be a brief interval of this aristocratic
existence, for George had told his young wife confidentially that he
didn't mean to go beyond a ten-pound note; and by-and-by, when the
dinner-table had been cleared, he amused himself by making abstruse
calculations as to how long that sum would hold out against the charges
of the family hotel.

       *       *       *       *       *

The young couple stayed for a week at Murlington. They drove about the
neighbourhood in an open fly, conscientiously admiring what the
guide-books called the beauties of the vicinity; and the bleak winds of
January tweaked their young noses as they faced the northern sky. George
was happy--ah, how serenely happy!--in that the woman he so dearly loved
was his wife. The thought of any sorrow darkling in the distance now,
now that the solemn vows had been spoken, never entered into his mind.
He had thought of William Jeffson's warning sometimes, it is true, but
only to smile in superb contempt of the simple creature's foolish talk.
Isabel loved him; she smiled at him when he spoke to her, and was gentle
and obedient to his advice: he was, perhaps, a shade too fond of
advising her. She had given up novel-reading, and employed her leisure
in the interesting pursuit of plain needlework. Her husband watched her
complacently by the light of the wax-candles while she hemmed a cambric
handkerchief, threading and unthreading her needle very often, and
boggling a little when she turned the corners, and stopping now and then
to yawn behind her pretty little pink fingers; but then she had been out
in the open air nearly all day, and it was only natural that she should
be sleepy.

Perhaps it might have been better for George Gilbert if he had not
solicited Mr. Pawlkatt's occasional attendance upon the parish patients,
and thus secured a week's holiday in honour of his young wife. Perhaps
it would have been better if he had kept his ten-pound note in his
pocket, and taken Isabel straight to the house which was henceforth to
be her home. That week in the hotel at Murlington revealed one dreadful
fact of these young people; a fact which the Sunday afternoon walks at
Conventford had only dimly foreshadowed. They had very little to say to
each other. That dread discovery, which should bring despair whenever it
comes, dawned upon Isabel, at least, all at once; and a chill sense of
weariness and disappointment crept into her breast, and grew there,
while she was yet ignorant of its cause.

She was very young. She had not yet parted with one of her delusions,
and she ignorantly believed that she could keep those foolish dreams,
and yet be a good wife to George Gilbert. He talked to her of his
school-days, and then branched away to his youth, his father's decline
and death, his own election to the parish duties, his lonely
bachelorhood, his hope of a better position and larger income some day.
Oh, how dull and prosaic it all sounded to that creature, whose vague
fancies were for ever wandering towards wonderful regions of poetry and
romance! It was a relief to her when George left off talking, and left
her free to think her own thoughts, as she laboured on at the cambric
handkerchief, and pricked the points of her fingers, and entangled her
thread.

There were no books in the sitting-room at the family hotel; and even if
there had been, this honeymoon week seemed to Isabel a ceremonial
period. She felt as if she were on a visit, and was not free to read.
She sighed as she passed the library on the fashionable parade, and saw
the name of the new novels exhibited on a board before the door; but she
had not the courage to say how happy three cloth-covered volumes of
light literature would have made her. George was not a reading man. He
read the local papers and skimmed the "Times" after breakfast; and then,
there he was, all day long. There were two wet days during that week at
Murlington; and the young married people had ample opportunity of
testing each other's conversational powers, as they stood in the broad
window, watching occasional passers-by in the sloppy streets, and
counting the rain-drops on the glass.

The week came to an end at last; and on a wet Saturday afternoon George
Gilbert paid his bill at the family hotel. The ten-pound note had held
out very well; for the young bridegroom's ideas had never soared beyond
a daily pint of sherry to wash down the simple repast which the discreet
waiter provided for those humble guests in pitiful regard to their youth
and simplicity. Mr. Gilbert paid his bill, while Isabel packed her own
and her husband's things; oh, what uninteresting things!--double-soled
boots, and serviceable garments of grey woollen stuff. Then, when all
was ready, she stood in the window watching for the omnibus which was to
carry her to her new home. Murlington was only ten miles from
Graybridge, and the journey between the two places was performed in an
old-fashioned stunted omnibus,--a darksome vehicle, with a low roof, a
narrow door, and only one small square of glass on each side.

Isabel breathed a long sigh as she watched for the appearance of this
vehicle in the empty street. The dull wet day, the lonely pavement, the
blank empty houses to let furnished--for it was not the Murlington
season now--were not so dull or empty as her own life seemed to her this
afternoon. Was it to be for ever and for ever like this? Yes; she was
married, and the story was all over; her destiny was irrevocably sealed,
and she was tired of it already. But then she thought of her new home,
and all the little plans she had made for herself before her
marriage,--the alterations and improvements she had sketched out for the
beautification of her husband's house. Somehow or other, even these
ideas, which had beguiled her so in her maiden reveries, seemed to melt
and vanish now. She had spoken to George, and he had received her
suggestions doubtfully, hinting at the money which would be required for
the carrying out of her plans,--though they were very simple plans, and
did not involve much expense.

Was there to be nothing in her life, then? She was only a week married;
and already, as she stood at the window listening to the slop-slop of
the everlasting rain, she began to think that she had made a mistake.

The omnibus came to the door presently, and she was handed into it, and
her husband seated himself, in the dim obscurity, by her side. There was
only one passenger--a wet farmer, wrapped in so many greatcoats that
being wet outside didn't matter to him, as he only gave other people
cold. He wiped his muddy boots on Isabel's dress, the brown-silk
wedding-dress which she had worn all the week; and Mrs. Gilbert made no
effort to save the garment from his depredations. She leaned her head
back in the corner of the omnibus, while the luggage was being bumped
upon the roof above her, and let down her veil. The slow tears gathered
in her eyes, and rolled down her pale cheeks.

It was a mistake,--a horrible and irreparable mistake,--whose dismal
consequences she must bear for ever and ever. She felt no dislike of
George Gilbert. She neither liked nor disliked him--only he could not
give her the kind of life she wanted; and by her marriage with him she
was shut out for ever from the hope of such a life. No prince would ever
come now; no accidental duke would fall in love with her black eyes, and
lift her all at once to the bright regions she pined to inhabit. No; it
was all over. She had sold her birthright for a vulgar mess of potage.
She had bartered all the chances of the future for a little relief to
the monotony of the present,--for a few wedding-clothes, a card-case
with a new name on the cards contained in it, the brief distinction of
being a bride.

George spoke to her two or three times during the journey to Graybridge;
but she only answered him in monosyllables. She had a "headache," she
said,--that convenient feminine complaint which is an excuse for
anything. She never once looked out of the window, though the road was
new to her. She sat back in the dusky vehicle, while George and the
farmer talked local politics; and their talk mingled vaguely with her
own misery. The darkness grew thicker in the low-roofed carriage; the
voices of George and the farmer died drowsily away; and by-and-by there
was snoring, whether from George or the farmer Isabel did not care to
think. She was thinking of Byron and of Napoleon the First. Ah, to have
lived in his time, and followed him, and slaved for him, and died for
him in that lonely island far out in the waste of waters! The tears fell
faster as all her childish dreams came back upon her, and arrayed
themselves in cruel contrast with her new life. Mr. Buckstone's bright
Irish heroine, when she has been singing her song in the cold city
street,--the song which she has dreamt will be the means of finding her
lost nursling,--sinks down at last upon a snow-covered doorstep, and
sobs aloud because "it all seems so _real_!"

Life seemed "so real" now to Isabel. She awakened suddenly to the
knowledge that all her dreams were only dreams after all, and never had
been likely to come true. As it was, they could never come true; she had
set a barrier against the fulfilment of those bright visions, and she
must abide by her own act.

It was quite dark upon that wintry afternoon when the omnibus stopped at
the Cock at Graybridge; and then there was more bumping about of the
luggage before Isabel was handed out upon the pavement to walk home with
her husband. Yes; they were to walk home. What was the use of a
ten-pound note spent upon splendour in Murlington, when the honeymoon
was to close in degradation such as this? They walked home. The streets
were sloppy, and there was mud in the lane where George's house stood;
but it was only five or ten minutes' walk, as he said, and nobody in
Graybridge would have dreamed of hiring a fly.

So they walked home, with the luggage following on a truck; and when
they came to the house, there was only a dim glimmer in the red lamp
over the surgery-door. All the rest was dark, for George's letter to Mr.
Jeffson had been posted too late, and the bride and bridegroom were not
expected. Everybody knows the cruel bleakness which that simple fact
involves. There were no fires in the rooms; no cheery show of
preparation; and there was a faint odour of soft-soap, suggestive of
recent cleaning. Mrs. Jeffson was up to her elbows in a flour-tub when
the young master pulled his own door-bell; and she came out, with her
arms white and her face dirty, to receive the newly-married pair. She
set a flaring tallow-candle on the parlour-table, and knelt down to
light the fire, exclaiming and wondering all the while at the unexpected
arrival of Mr. Gilbert and his wife.

"My master's gone over to Conventford for some groceries, and we're all
of a moodle like, ma'am," she said; "but we moost e'en do th' best we
can, and make all coomfortable. Master Jarge said Moonday as plain as
words could speak when he went away, and th' letter's not coom yet; so
you may joost excuse things not bein' straight."

Mrs. Jeffson might have gone on apologizing for some time longer: but
she jumped up suddenly to attend upon Isabel, who had burst into a
passion of hysterical sobbing. She was romantic, sensitive,
impressionable--selfish, if you will; and her poor untutored heart
revolted against the utter ruin of her dreams.

"It is _so_ miserable!" she sobbed; "it all seems so miserable!"

George came in from the stables, where he had been to see Brown Molly,
and brought his wife some sal-volatile, in a wineglass of water; and
Mrs. Jeffson comforted the poor young creature, and took her up to the
half-prepared bedroom, where the carpets were still up, and where the
whitewashed walls--it was an old-fashioned house, and the upper rooms
had never been papered--and the bare boards looked cheerless and
desolate in the light of a tallow-candle. Mrs. Jeffson brought her young
mistress a cup of tea, and sat down by the bedside while she drank it,
and talked to her and comforted her, though she did not entertain a very
high opinion of a young lady who went into hysterics because there was
no fire in her sitting-room.

"I dare say it _did_ seem cold and lonesome and comfortless like," Mrs.
Jeffson said, indulgently; "but we'll get things nice in no time."

Isabel shook her head.

"You are very kind," she said; "but it wasn't that made me cry."

She closed her eyes, not because she was sleepy, but because she wanted
Mrs. Jeffson to go away and leave her alone. Then, when the good woman
had retired with cautious footsteps, and closed the door, Mrs. George
Gilbert slowly opened her eyes, and looked at the things on which they
were to open every morning for all her life to come.

There was nothing beautiful in the room, certainly. There was a narrow
mantel-piece, with a few blocks of Derbyshire spar and other mineral
productions; and above them there hung an old-fashioned engraving of
some scriptural subject, in a wooden frame painted black. There was a
lumbering old wardrobe--or press, as it was called--of painted wood,
with a good deal of the paint chipped off; there was a painted
dressing-table, a square looking-glass, with brass ornamentation about
the stand and frame,--a glass in which George Gilbert's grandfather had
looked at himself seventy years before. Isabel stared at the blank white
walls, the gaunt shadows of the awkward furniture, with a horrible
fascination. It was all so ugly, she thought, and her mind revolted
against her husband, as she remembered that he could have changed all
this, and yet had left it in its bald hideousness.

And all this time George was busy in his surgery, grinding his pestle in
so cheerful a spirit that it seemed to fall into a kind of tune, and
thinking how happy he was now that Isabel Sleaford was his wife.



CHAPTER XI.

"SHE ONLY SAID, 'MY LIFE IS WEARY!'"


When the chill discomfort of that first evening at Graybridge was past
and done with, Isabel felt a kind of remorseful regret for the mute
passion of discontent and disappointment that had gone along with it.
The keen sense of misery passed with the bad influence of the day and
hour. In the sunlight her new home looked a little better, her new life
seemed a little brighter. Yes, she would do her duty; she would be a
good wife to dear George, who was so kind to her, and loved her with
such a generous devotion.

She went to church with him at Graybridge for the first time on the
morning after that dreary wet Saturday evening; and all through the
sermon she thought of her new home, and what she would do to make it
bright and pretty. The Rector of Graybridge had chosen one of the
obscurest texts in St. Paul's Epistle to the Hebrews for his sermon that
morning, and Isabel did not even try to understand him. She let her
thoughts ramble away to carpets and curtains, and china flower-pots and
Venetian blinds, and little bits of ornamentation, which should
transform George's house from its square nakedness into a bowery
cottage. Oh, if the trees had only grown differently! if there had been
trailing parasites climbing up to the chimneys, and a sloping lawn, and
a belt of laurels, and little winding pathways, and a rustic seat
half-hidden under a weeping willow, instead of that bleak flat of
cabbages and gooseberry-bushes, and raw clods of earth piled in black
ridges across the dreary waste!

After church there was an early dinner of some baked meat, prepared by
Mrs. Jeffson. Isabel did not take much notice of what she ate. She was
at that early period of fife when a young person of sentimental
temperament scarcely knows roast beef from boiled veal; but she observed
that there were steel forks on the surgeon's table,--steel forks with
knobby horn handles suggestive of the wildest species of deer,--and a
metal mustard-pot lined with blue glass, and willow-pattern plates, and
a brown earthenware jug of home-brewed beer; and that everything was
altogether commonplace and vulgar.

After dinner Mrs. Gilbert amused herself by going over the house with
her husband. It was a very tolerable house, after all; but it wasn't
pretty; it had been inhabited by people who were fully satisfied so long
as they had chairs to sit upon, and beds to sleep on, and tables and
cups and plates for the common purposes of breakfast, dinner, and
supper, and who would have regarded the purchase of a chair that was not
intended to be sat upon, or a cup that was never designed to be drunk
out of, as something useless and absurd, or even, in an indirect manner,
sinful, because involving the waste of money that might be devoted to a
better use.

"George," said Isabel, gently, when she had seen all the rooms, "did you
never think of re-furnishing the house?"

"Re-furnishing it! How do you mean, Izzie?"

"Buying new furniture, I mean, dear. This is all so old-fashioned."

George the conservative shook his head.

"I like it all the better for that, Izzie," he said; "it was my
father's, you know, and his father's before him. I wouldn't change a
stick of it for the world. Besides, it's such capital substantial
furniture; they don't make such chairs and tables nowadays."

"No," Izzie murmured with a sigh; "I'm very glad they don't."

Then she clasped her hands suddenly upon his arm, and looked up at him
with her eyes opened to their widest extent, and shining with a look of
rapture.

"Oh, George," she cried, "there was an ottoman in one of the shops at
Conventford with seats for three people, and little stands for people to
put their cups and saucers upon, and a place in the middle for FLOWERS!
And I asked the price of it,--I often ask the price of things, for it's
almost like buying them, you know,--and it was only eleven pounds ten,
and I dare say they'd take less; and oh, George, if you'd make the best
parlour into a drawing-room, and have that ottoman in the centre, and
chintz curtains lined with rose-colour, and a white watered paper on the
walls, and Venetian shutters outside--"

George put his hand upon the pretty mouth from which the eager words
came so rapidly.

"Why, Izzie," he said, "you'd ruin me before the year was out. All that
finery would make a hole in a hundred pounds. No, no, dear; the best
parlour was good enough for my father and mother, and it ought to be
good enough for you and me. By-and-by, when my practice extends, Izzie,
as I've every reason to hope it will, we'll talk about a new
Kidderminster carpet,--a nice serviceable brown ground with a drab spot,
or something of that kind,--but until then--"

Isabel turned away from him with a gesture of disgust.

"What do I care about new carpets?" she said; "I wanted it all to look
pretty."

Yes; she wanted it to look pretty; she wanted to infuse some beauty into
her life--something which, in however remote a degree, should be akin to
the things she read of in her books. Everything that was beautiful gave
her a thrill of happiness; everything that was ugly gave her a shudder
of pain; and she had not yet learned that life was never meant to be all
happiness, and that the soul must struggle towards the upper light out
of a region of pain and darkness and confusion, as the blossoming plant
pushes its way to the sunshine from amongst dull clods of earth. She
wanted to be happy, and enjoy herself in her own way. She was not
content to wait till her allotted portion of joy came to her; and she
mistook the power to appreciate and enjoy beautiful things for a kind of
divine right to happiness and splendour.

To say that George Gilbert did not understand his wife is to say very
little. Nobody, except perhaps Sigismund Smith, had ever yet understood
Isabel. She did not express herself better than other girls of her age;
sometimes she expressed herself worse; for she wanted to say so much,
and a hopeless confusion would arise every now and then out of that
entanglement of eager thought and romantic rapture which filled her
brain. In Miss Sleaford's own home people had been a great deal too much
occupied with the ordinary bustle of life to trouble themselves about a
young lady's romantic reveries. Mrs. Sleaford had thought that she had
said all that was to be said about Isabel when she had denounced her as
a lazy, selfish thing, who would have sat on the grass and read novels
if the house had been blazing, and all her family perishing in the
flames. The boys had looked upon their half-sister with all that
supercilious mixture of pity and contempt with which all boys are apt to
regard any fellow-creature who is so weak-minded as to be a girl.

Mr. Sleaford had been very fond of his only daughter; but he had loved
her chiefly because she was pretty, and because of those dark eyes whose
like he had never seen except in the face of that young broken-hearted
wife so early lost to him.

Nobody had ever quite understood Isabel; and least of all could George
Gilbert understand the woman whom he had chosen for his wife. He loved
her and admired her, and he was honestly anxious that she should be
happy; but then he wanted her to be happy according to his ideas of
happiness, and not her own. He wanted her to be delighted with stiff
little tea-parties, at which the Misses Pawlkatt, and the Misses
Burdock, and young Mrs. Henry Palmer, wife of Mr. Henry Palmer junior,
solicitor, discoursed pleasantly of the newest patterns in crochet, and
the last popular memoir of some departed Evangelical curate. Isabel did
not take any interest in these things, and could not make herself happy
with these people. Unluckily she allowed this to be seen; and, after a
few tea-parties, the Graybridge aristocracy dropped away from her, only
calling now and then, out of respect for George, who was heartily
compassionated on account of his most mistaken selection of a wife.

So Isabel was left to herself, and little by little fell back into very
much the same kind of life as that which she had led at Camberwell.

She had given up all thought of beautifying the house which was now her
home. After that struggle about the ottoman, there had been many other
struggles in which Isabel had pleaded for smaller and less expensive
improvements, only to be blighted by that hard common sense with which
Mr. George Gilbert was wont--on principle--to crush his wife's
enthusiasm. He had married this girl because she was unlike other women;
and now that she was his own property, he set himself conscientiously to
work to smooth her into the most ordinary semblance of every-day
womanhood, by means of that moral flat-iron called common sense.

Of course he succeeded to admiration. Isabel abandoned all hope of
making her new home pretty, or transforming George Gilbert into a Walter
Gay. She had made a mistake, and she accepted the consequences of her
mistake; and fell back upon the useless dreamy life she had led so long
in her father's house.

The surgeon's duties occupied him all day long, and Isabel was left to
herself. She had none of the common distractions of a young matron. She
had no servants to scold, no china to dust, no puddings or pies or soups
or hashes to compound for her husband's dinner. Mrs. Jeffson did all
that kind of work, and would have bitterly resented any interference
from the "slip of a girl" whom Mr. Gilbert had chosen for his wife.
Isabel did as she liked; and this meant reading novels all day long, or
as long as she had a novel to read, and writing unfinished verses of a
lachrymose nature on half-sheets of paper.

When the spring came she went out--alone; for her husband was away among
his patients, and had no time to accompany her. She went for long
rambles in that lovely Elizabethan Midlandshire, and thought of the life
that never was to be hers. She wandered alone in the country lanes where
the hedgerows were budding; and sat alone, with her book on her lap,
among the buttercups and daisies in the shady angle of a meadow, where
the untrimmed hawthorns made a natural bower above her head. Stray
pedestrians crossing the meadows near Graybridge often found the
doctor's young wife sitting under a big green parasol, with a little
heap of gathered wild-flowers fading on the grass beside her, and with
an open book upon her knees. Sometimes she went as far as Thurston's
Crag, the Midlandshire seat of Lord Thurston; a dear old place, an
island of mediæval splendour amidst a sea of green pasture-land, where,
under the very shadow of a noble mansion, there was a waterfall and a
miller's cottage that was difficult to believe in out of a picture.
There was a wooden bridge across that noisiest of waterfalls, and a
monster oak, whose spreading branches shadowed all the width of the
water; and it was on a rough wooden bench under this dear old tree that
Isabel loved best to sit.

The Graybridge people were not slow to remark upon Mrs. Gilbert's
habits, and hinted that a young person who spent so much of her time in
the perusal of works of fiction could scarcely be a model wife. Before
George had been married three months, the ladies who had been familiar
with him in his bachelorhood had begun to pity him, and had already
mapped out for him such a career of domestic wretchedness as rarely
falls to the lot of afflicted man.

Mrs. Gilbert was _not_ pretty. The Graybridge ladies settled that
question at the very first tea-party from which George and his wife were
absent. She was not pretty--when you looked into her. That was the point
upon which the feminine critics laid great stress. At a distance,
certainly, Mrs. Gilbert might look showy. The lady who hit upon the
adjective "showy" was very much applauded by her friends. At a distance
Isabel might be called showy; always provided you like eyes that are so
large as only by a miracle to escape from being goggles, and lips that
are so red as to be unpleasantly suggestive of scarlet-fever. But _look
into_ Mrs. Gilbert, and even this show of beauty vanished, and you only
saw a sickly young person, with insignificant features and coarse black
hair--so coarse and common in texture, that its abnormal length and
thickness--of which Isabel was no doubt inordinately proud--were very
little to boast of.

But while the Graybridge ladies criticised his wife and prophesied for
him all manner of dismal sufferings, George Gilbert, strange to say, was
very happy. He had married the woman he loved, and no thought that he
had loved unwisely or married hastily ever entered his mind. When he
came home from a long day's work, he found a beautiful creature waiting
to receive him--a lovely and lovable creature, who put her arms around
his neck and kissed him, and smiled at him. It was not in his nature to
see that the graceful little embrace, and the welcoming kiss, and the
smile, were rather mechanical matters that came of themselves. He took
his dinner, or his weak tea, or his supper, as the case might be, and
stretched his long legs across the familiar hearth-rug, and talked to
his wife, and was happy. If she had an open book beside her plate, and
if her eyes wandered to the page every now and then while he was talking
to her, she had often told him that she could listen and read at the
same time; and no doubt she could do so. What more than sweet smiles and
gentle looks could the most exacting husband demand? And George Gilbert
had plenty of these; for Isabel was very grateful to him, because he
never grumbled at her idleness and novel-reading, or worried and scolded
as her step-mother had done. She was fond of him, as she would have been
fond of a big elder brother, who let her have a good deal of her own
way; and so long as he left her unassailed by his common sense, she was
happy, and tolerably satisfied with her life. Yes; she was satisfied
with her life, which was the same every day, and with the dull old town,
where no change ever came. She was satisfied as an opium-eater is
satisfied with the common every-day world; which is only the frame that
holds together all manner of splendid and ever-changing pictures. She
was content with a life in which she had ample leisure to dream of a
different existence.

Oh, how she thought of that other and brighter life! that life in which
there was passion, and poetry, and beauty, and rapture, and despair!
Here among these meadows, and winding waters, and hedgerows, life was a
long sleep: and one might as well be a brown-eyed cow, browsing from
week's end to week's end in the same pastures, as a beautiful woman with
an eager yearning soul.

Mrs. Gilbert thought of London--that wonderful West-End, May-Fair
London, which has no attribute in common with all the great metropolitan
wilderness around and about it. She thought of that holy of holies, that
inner sanctuary of life, in which all the women are beautiful and all
the men are wicked, in which existence is a perpetual whirlpool of balls
and dinner-parties and hothouse flowers and despair. She thought of that
untasted life, and pictured it, and thrilled with a sense of its
splendour and brightness, as she sat by the brawling waterfall, and
heard the creaking wheel of the mill, and the splashing of the trailing
weeds. She saw herself amongst the light and music of that other world;
queen of a lamplit boudoir, where loose patches of ermine gleamed
whitely upon carpets of velvet-pile; where, amid a confusion of glitter
and colour, she might sit, nestling among the cushions of a low gilded
chair, and listening contemptuously (she always imagined herself
contemptuous) to the eloquent compliments of a wicked prince. And then
the Row! She saw herself in the Row sometimes, upon an Arab--a black
Arab--that would run away with her at the most fashionable time in the
afternoon, and all but kill her; and then she would rein him up as no
mortal woman ever reined in an Arab steed before, and would ride slowly
back between two ranks of half-scared, half-admiring faces, with her
hair hanging over her shoulders and her eyelashes drooping on her
flushed cheeks. And then the wicked prince, goaded by an unvarying
course of contemptuous treatment, would fall ill, and be at the point of
death; and one night, when she was at a ball, with floating robes of
cloud-like lace and diamonds glimmering in her hair, he would send for
her--that wicked, handsome, adorable creature would send his valet to
summon her to his deathbed, and she would see him there in the dim
lamplight, pale and repentant, and romantic and delightful; and as she
fell on her knees in all the splendour of her lace and diamonds, he
would break a blood-vessel and die! And then she would go back to the
ball, and would be the gayest and most beautiful creature in all that
whirlpool of elegance and beauty. Only the next morning, when her
attendants came to awaken her, they would find her--_dead_!

Amongst the books which Mrs. Gilbert most often carried to the bench by
the waterfall was the identical volume which Charles Raymond had looked
at in such a contemptuous spirit in Hurstonleigh Grove--the little thin
volume of poems entitled "An Alien's Dreams." Mr. Raymond had given his
nursery-governess a parcel of light literature soon after her marriage,
and this poor little book of verses was one of the volumes in the
parcel; and as Isabel knew her Byron and her Shelley by heart, and could
recite long melancholy rhapsodies from the works of either poet by the
hour together, she fastened quite eagerly upon this little green-covered
volume by a nameless writer.

The Alien's dreams seemed like her own fancies, somehow; for they
belonged to that bright _other_ world which she was never to see. How
familiar the Alien was with that delicious region; and how lightly _he_
spoke of the hothouse flowers and diamonds, the ermine carpets and Arab
steeds! She read the poems over and over again in the drowsy June
weather, sitting in the shabby little common parlour when the afternoons
were too hot for out-door rambles, and getting up now and then to look
at her profile in the glass over the mantel-piece, and to wonder whether
she was like any of those gorgeous but hollow-hearted creatures upon
whom the Alien showered such torrents of melodious abuse.

Who was the Alien? Isabel had asked Mr. Raymond that question, and had
been a little crashed by the reply. The Alien was a Midlandshire squire,
Mr. Raymond had told her; and the word 'squire' suggested nothing but a
broad-shouldered, rosy-faced man, in a scarlet coat and top-boots.
Surely no squire could have written those half-heartbroken, half-cynical
verses, those deliciously scornful elegies upon the hollowness of lovely
woman and things in general! Isabel had her own image of the writer--her
own ideal poet, who rose in all his melancholy glory, and pushed the
red-coated country squire out of her mind when she sat with the "Alien's
Dreams" in her lap, or scribbled weak imitations of that gentleman's
poetry upon the backs of old envelopes and other scraps of waste paper.

Sometimes, when George had eaten his supper, Isabel would do him the
favour of reading aloud one of the most spasmodic of the Alien's dreams.
But when the Alien was most melodiously cynical, and the girl's voice
tremulous with sudden exaltation of feeling, her eyes, wandering by
chance to where her husband sat, would watch him yawning behind his
glass of ale, or reckoning a patient's account on the square tips of his
fingers. On one occasion poor George was terribly perplexed to behold
his wife suddenly drop her book upon her lap and burst into tears. He
could imagine no reason for her weeping, and he sat aghast, staring at
her for some moments before he could utter any word of consolation.

"You don't care for the poetry, George," she cried, with the sudden
passion of a spoiled child. "Oh, why do you let me read to you, if you
don't care for the poetry?"

"But I do care for it, Izzie, dear," Mr. Gilbert murmured,
soothingly,--"at least I like to hear you read, if it amuses _you_."

Isabel flung the "Alien" into the remotest corner of the little parlour,
and turned from her husband as if he had stung her.

"You don't understand me," she said; "you don't understand me."

"No, my dear Isabel," returned Mr. Gilbert, with dignity (for his common
sense reasserted itself after the first shock of surprise); "I certainly
do _not_ understand you when you give way to such temper as this without
any visible cause."

He walked over to the corner of the room, picked up the little volume,
and smoothed the crumpled leaves; for his habits were orderly, and the
sight of a book lying open upon the carpet was unpleasant to him.

Of course poor George was right, and Isabel was a very capricious,
ill-tempered young woman when she flew into a passion of rage and grief
because her husband counted his fingers while she was reading to him.
But then such little things as these make the troubles of people who are
spared from the storm and tempest of life. Such sorrows as these are the
Scotch mists, the drizzling rains of existence. The weather doesn't
appear so very bad to those who behold it from a window; but that sort
of scarcely perceptible drizzle chills the hapless pedestrian to the
very bone. I have heard of a lady who was an exquisite musician, and
who, in the dusky twilight of a honeymoon evening, played to her
husband,--played as some women play, pouring out all her soul upon the
keys of the piano, breathing her finest and purest thoughts in one of
Beethoven's sublime sonatas.

"That's a very _pretty tune_," said the husband, complacently.

She was a proud reserved woman, and she closed the piano without a word
of complaint or disdain; but she lived to be old, and she never touched
the keys again.



CHAPTER XII.

SOMETHING LIKE A BIRTHDAY.


It happened that the very day after Isabel's little outbreak of passion
was a peculiar occasion in George Gilbert's life. It was the 2nd of
July, and it was his wife's birthday,--the first birthday after her
marriage; and the young surgeon had planned a grand treat and surprise,
quite an elaborate festival, in honour of the day. He had been,
therefore, especially wounded by Isabel's ill-temper. Had he not been
thinking of her and of her pleasure at the very moment when she had
upbraided him for his lack of interest in the Alien? He did _not_ care
about the Alien. He did not appreciate

     "Clotilde, Clotilde, my dark Clotilde!
        With the sleepy light in your midnight glance.
        We let the dancers go by to dance;
     But we stayed out on the lamplit stair,
     And the odorous breath of your trailing hair
        Swept over my face as your whispers stole
        Like a gush of melody through my soul;
     Clotilde, Clotilde, my own Clotilde!"

But he loved his wife, and was anxious to please her; and he had schemed
and plotted to do her pleasure. He had hired a fly--an open fly--for the
whole day, and Mrs. Jeffson had prepared a basket with port and sherry
from the Cock, and all manner of north-country delicacies; and George
had written to Mr. Raymond, asking that gentleman, with the orphans of
course, to meet himself and his wife at Warncliffe Castle, the
show-place of the county. This Mr. Raymond had promised to do; and all
the arrangements had been carefully planned, and had been kept
profoundly secret from Isabel.

She was very much pleased when her husband told her of the festival
early on that bright summer morning, while she was plaiting her long
black hair at the little glass before the open lattice. She ran to the
wardrobe to see if she had a clean muslin dress. Yes, there it was; the
very lavender-muslin which she had worn at the Hurstonleigh picnic.
George was delighted to see her pleasure; and he sat on the window-sill
watching her as she arranged her collar and fastened a little bow of
riband at her throat, and admired herself in the glass.

"I want it to be like that day last year, Izzie; the day I asked you to
marry me. Mr. Raymond will bring the key of Hurstonleigh Grove, and
we're to drive there after we've seen the castle, and picnic there as we
did before; and then we're to go to the very identical model old woman's
to tea; and everything will be exactly the same."

Ah, Mr. George Gilbert, do you know the world so little as to be
ignorant that no day in life ever has its counterpart, and that to
endeavour to bring about an exact repetition of any given occasion is to
attempt the impossible?

It was a six-mile drive from Graybridge to Warncliffe, the grave old
country-town,--the dear old town, with shady pavements, and abutting
upper stories, pointed gables, and diamond-paned casements; the queer
old town, with wonderful churches, and gloomy archways, and steep stony
streets, and above all, the grand old castle, the black towers, and
keep, and turrets, and gloomy basement dungeons, lashed for ever and for
ever by the blue rippling water. I have never seen Warncliffe Castle
except in the summer sunshine, and my hand seems paralyzed when I try to
write of it. It is easy to invent a castle, and go into raptures about
the ivied walls and mouldering turrets; but I shrink away before the
grand reality, and can describe nothing; I see it all too plainly, and
feel the tameness of my words too much. But in summer-time this
Elizabethan Midlandshire is an English paradise, endowed with all the
wealth of natural loveliness, enriched by the brightest associations of
poetry and romance.

Mr. Raymond was waiting at the little doorway when the fly stopped, and
he gave Isabel his arm and led her into a narrow winding alley of
verdure and rockwork, and then across a smooth lawn, and under an arch
of solid masonry to another lawn, a velvety grass-plat, surrounded by
shrubberies, and altogether a triumph of landscape gardening.

They went into the castle with a little group of visitors who have just
collected on the broad steps before the door; and they were taken at
once under the convoy of a dignified housekeeper in a rustling silk
gown, who started off into a _vivâ-voce_ catalogue of the contents of
the castle-hall, a noble chamber with armour-clad effigies of
dead-and-gone warriors ranged along the walls, with notched battle-axes,
and cloven helmets, and monster antlers, and Indian wampum, and Canadian
wolf-skins, and Australian boomerangs hanging against the wainscot, with
carved oak and ebony muniment-chests upon the floor, and with three deep
embayed windows overhanging the brightest landscape, the fairest
streamlet in England.

While the housekeeper was running herself down like a musical box that
had been newly wound up, and with as much animation and expression in
her tones as there is in a popular melody interpreted by a musical box,
Mr. Raymond led Isabel to the window, and showed her the blue waters of
the Wayverne bubbling and boiling over craggy masses of rockwork, green
boulders, and pebbles that shimmered in the sunlight, and then, playing
hide-and-seek under dripping willows, and brawling away over emerald
moss and golden sand, to fall with a sudden impetus into the quiet
depths beneath the bridge.

"Look at that, my dear," said Mr. Raymond; "that isn't in the catalogue.
I'll tell you all about the castle: and we'll treat the lady in the silk
dress as they treat the organ boys in London. We'll give her
half-a-crown to move on, and leave us to look at the pictures, and the
boomerangs, and the armour, and the tapestry, and the identical
toilet-table and pin-cushion in which her gracious Majesty stuck the pin
she took out of her bonnet-string when she took luncheon with Lord
Warncliffe a year or two ago. That's the gem of the catalogue in the
housekeeper's opinion, I know. We'll look at the pictures by ourselves,
Mrs. Gilbert, and I'll tell you all about them."

To my mind, Warncliffe Castle is one of the pleasantest show-places in
the kingdom. There are not many rooms to see, nor are they large rooms.
There are not many pictures; but the few in every room are of the
choicest, and are hung on a level with the eye, and do not necessitate
that straining of the spinal column which makes the misery of most
picture galleries. Warncliffe Castle is like an elegant little dinner;
there are not many dishes, and everything is so good that you wish there
were more. And at Warncliffe the sunny chambers have the extra charm of
looking as if people lived in them. You see not only Murillos and
Titians, Lelys and Vandykes upon the walls; you see tables scattered
with books, and women's handiwork here and there; and whichever way you
turn, there is always the noisy Wayverne brawling and rippling under the
windows, and the green expanse of meadow and the glory of purple
woodland beyond.

Isabel moved through the rooms in a silent rapture; but yet there was a
pang of anguish lurking somewhere or other amid all that rapture.

Her dreams were all true, then; there were such places as this, and
people lived in them. Happy people, for whom life was all loveliness and
poetry, looked out of those windows, and lolled in those antique chairs,
and lived all their lives amidst caskets of Florentine mosaic, and
portraits by Vandyke, and marble busts of Roman emperors, and Gobelin
tapestries, and a hundred objects of art and beauty, whose very names
were a strange language to Isabel.

For some people life was like this; and for her--! She shuddered as she
remembered the parlours at Graybridge,--the shabby carpet, the faded
moreen curtains edged with rusty velvet, the cracked jars and vases on
the mantel-piece; and even if George had given her all that she had
asked--the ottoman, and the Venetian blind, and the rose-coloured
curtains--what would have been the use? her room would never have looked
like _this_. She gazed about her in a sort of walking dream, intoxicated
by the beauty of the place. She was looking like this when Mr. Raymond
led her into one of the larger rooms, and showed her a little picture in
a corner, a Tintoretto, which he said was a gem.

She looked at the Tintoretto in a drowsy kind of way. It was a very
brown gem, and its beauties were quite beyond Mrs Gilbert's
appreciation. She was not thinking of the picture. She was thinking if,
by some romantic legerdemain, she could "turn out" to be the rightful
heiress of such a castle as this, with a river like the Wayverne
brawling under her windows, and trailing willow-branches dipping into
the water. There were some such childish thoughts as these in her mind
while Mr. Raymond was enlarging upon the wonderful finish and modelling
of the Venetian's masterpiece; and she was aroused from her reverie not
by her companion's remarks, but by a woman's voice on the other side of
the room.

"You so rarely see that contrast of fair hair and black eyes," said the
voice; "and there is something peculiar in those eyes."

There was nothing particular in the words: it was the tone in which they
were spoken that caught Isabel Gilbert's ear--the tone in which Lady
Clara Vere de Vere herself might have spoken; a tone in winch there was
a lazy hauteur softened by womanly gentleness,--a drawling accent which
had yet no affectation, only a kind of liquid carrying on of the voice,
like a _legato_ passage in music.

"Yes," returned another voice, which had all the laziness and none of
the hauteur, "it is a pretty face. Joanna of Naples, isn't it? she was
an improper person, wasn't she? threw some one out of a window, and made
herself altogether objectionable."

Mr. Raymond wheeled round as suddenly as if he had received an electric
shock, and ran across the room to a gentleman who was lounging in a
half-reclining attitude upon one of the broad window-seats.

"Why, Roland, I thought you were at Corfu!"

The gentleman got up, with a kind of effort and the faintest suspicion
of a yawn; but his face brightened nevertheless, as he held out his hand
to Isabel's late employer.

"My dear Raymond, how glad I am to see you! I meant to ride over
to-morrow morning, for a long day's talk. I only came home last night,
to please my uncle and cousin, who met me at Baden and insisted on
bringing me home with them. You know Gwendoline? ah, yes, of course you
do."

A lady with fair banded hair and an aquiline nose--a lady in a bonnet
which was simplicity itself, and could only have been produced by a
milliner who had perfected herself in the supreme art of concealing her
art--dropped the double eye-glass through which she had been looking at
Joanna of Naples, and held out a hand so exquisitely gloved that it
looked as if it had been sculptured out of grey marble.

"I'm afraid Mr. Raymond has forgotten me," she said "papa and I have
been so long away from Midlandshire."

"And Lowlands was beginning to look quite a deserted habitation. I used
to think of Hood's haunted house whenever I rode by your gates, Lady
Gwendoline. But you have come home for good now? as if _you_ could come
for anything _but_ good," interjected Mr. Raymond, gallantly. "You have
come with the intention of stopping, I hope."

"Yes," Lady Gwendoline answered, with something like a sigh; "papa and I
mean to settle in Midlandshire; he has let the Clarges Street house for
a time; sold his lease, at least, I think; or something of that sort.
And we know every nook and corner of the Continent. So I suppose that
really the best thing we can do is to settle at Lowlands. But I suppose
we sha'n't keep Roland long in the neighbourhood. He'll get tired of us
in a fortnight, and run away to the Pyrenees, or Cairo, or Central
Africa; 'anywhere, anywhere, out of the world!'"

"It isn't of _you_ that I shall get tired, Gwendoline," said the
gentleman called Roland, who had dropped back into his old lounging
attitude on the window-seat. "It's myself that bores me; the only bore a
man can't cut. But I'm not going to run away from Midlandshire. I shall
go in for steam-farming, and agricultural implements, and drainage. I
should think drainage now would have a very elevating influence upon a
man's mind; and I shall send my short-horns to Smithfield next
Christmas. And you shall teach me political economy, Raymond; and we'll
improve the condition of the farm-labourer; and we'll offer a prize for
the best essay on, say, classical agriculture as revealed to us in the
writings of Virgil--that's the sort of thing for the farm-labourer, I
should think--and Gwendoline shall give the prizes: a blue riband and a
gold medal, and a frieze coat, or a pair of top-boots."

Isabel still lingered by the Tintoretto. She was aghast at the fact that
Mr. Raymond knew, and was even familiar with, these beings. Yes;
Beings--creatures of that remote sphere which she only knew in her
dreams. Standing near the Tintoretto, she ventured to look very timidly
towards these radiant creatures.

What did she see? A young man half reclining in the deep embrasure of a
window, with the summer sunshine behind him, and the summer breezes
fluttering his loose brown hair--that dark rich brown which is only a
warmer kind of black. She saw a man upon whom beneficent or capricious
Nature, in some fantastic moment, had lavished all the gifts that men
most covet and that women most admire. She saw one of the handsomest
faces ever seen since Napoleon, the young conqueror of Italy, first
dazzled regenerated France; a kind of face that is only familiar to us
in a few old Italian portraits; a beautiful, dreamy, perfect face,
exquisite alike in form and colour. I do not think that any words of
mine can realize Roland Lansdell's appearance; I can only briefly
catalogue the features, which were perfect in their way, and yet formed
so small an item in the homogeneous charm of this young man's
appearance. The nose was midway betwixt an aquiline and a Grecian, but
it was in the chiselling of the nostril, the firmness and yet delicacy
of the outline, that it differed from other noses; the forehead was of
medium height, broad, and full at the temples; the head was strong in
the perceptive faculties, very strong in benevolence, altogether wanting
in destructiveness; but Mr. Raymond could have told you that veneration
and conscientiousness were deficient in Roland Lansdell's cranium,--a
deficiency sorely to be lamented by those who knew and loved the young
man. His eyes and mouth formed the chief beauty of his face; and yet I
can describe neither, for their chief charm lay in the fact that they
were indescribable. The eyes were of a nondescript colour; the mouth was
ever varying in expression. Sometimes you looked at the eyes, and they
seemed to you a dark bluish-grey; sometimes they were hazel; sometimes
you were half beguiled into fancying them black. And the mouth was
somehow in harmony with the eyes; inasmuch as looking at it one minute
you saw an expression of profound melancholy in the thin flexible lips;
and then in the next a cynical smile. Very few people ever quite
understood Mr. Lansdell, and perhaps this was his highest charm. To be
puzzled is the next thing to being interested; to be interested is to be
charmed. Yes, capricious Nature had showered her gifts upon Roland
Lansdell. She had made him handsome, and had attuned his voice to a low
melodious music, and had made him sufficiently clever; and, beyond all
this, had bestowed upon him that subtle attribute of grace, which she
and she alone can bestow. He was always graceful. Involuntarily and
unconsciously he fell into harmonious attitudes. He could not throw
himself into a chair, or rest his elbow upon a table, or lean against
the angle of a doorway, or stretch himself full-length upon the grass to
fall asleep with his head upon his folded arms, without making himself
into a kind of picture. He looked like a picture just now as he lounged
in the castle window, with his face turned towards Mr. Raymond.

The lady, who was called Lady Gwendoline, put up her eye-glass to look
at another picture; and in that attitude Isabel had time to contemplate
her, and saw that she too was graceful, and that in every fold of her
simple dress--it was only muslin, but quite a different fabric from
Isabel's muslin--there was an indescribable harmony which stamped her as
the creature of that splendid sphere which the girl only knew in her
books. She looked longer and more earnestly at Lady Gwendoline than at
Roland Lansdell, for in this elegant being she saw the image of herself,
as she had fancied herself so often--the image of a heartless
aristocratic divinity, for whose sake people cut their throats, and
broke blood-vessels, and drowned themselves.

George came in while his wife was looking at Lady Gwendoline, and Mr.
Raymond suddenly remembered the young couple whom he had taken upon
himself to chaperone.

"I must introduce you to some new friends of mine, Roland," he said;
"and when you are ill you must send for Mr. Gilbert of Graybridge, who,
I am given to understand, is a very clever surgeon, and whom I _know_ to
have the best moral region I ever had under my hand. Gilbert, my dear
boy, this is Roland Lansdell of Mordred Priory; Lady Gwendoline, Mrs.
Gilbert--Mr. Lansdell. But you know something about my friend Roland, I
think, don't you, Isabel?"

Mrs. Gilbert bowed and smiled and blushed in a pleasant bewilderment. To
be introduced, to two Beings in this off-hand manner was almost too much
for Mr. Sleaford's daughter. A faint perfume of jasmine and
orange-blossom floated towards her from Lady Gwendoline's handkerchief,
and she seemed to see the fair-haired lady who smiled at her, and the
dark-haired gentleman who had risen at her approach, through an odorous
mist that confused her senses.

"I think you know something of my friend Roland," Mr. Raymond repeated;
"eh, my dear?"

"Oh, n--no indeed," Isabel stammered; "I never saw--"

"You never saw _him_ before to-day," answered Mr. Raymond, laying his
hand on the young man's shoulder with a kind of protecting tenderness in
the gesture. "But you've read his verses; those pretty drawing-room
Byronics, that refined and anglicised Alfred-de-Musset-ism, that you
told me you are so fond of:--don't you remember asking me who wrote the
verses, Mrs. Gilbert? I told you the Alien was a country squire; and
here he is--a Midlandshire squire of high degree, as the old ballad has
it."

Isabel's heart gave a great throb, and her pale face flushed all over
with a faint carnation. To be introduced to a Being was something, but
to be introduced to a Being who was also a poet, and the very poet whose
rhapsodies were her last and favourite idolatry! She could not speak.
She tried to say something--something very commonplace, to the effect
that the verses were very pretty, and she liked them very much, thank
you--but the words refused to come, and her lips only trembled. Before
she could recover her confusion, Mr. Raymond had hooked his arm through
that of Roland Lansdell, and the two men had walked off together,
talking with considerable animation; for Charles Raymond was a kind of
adopted father to the owner of Mordred Priory, and was about the only
man whom Roland had ever loved or trusted.

Isabel was left by the open window with Lady Gwendoline and George,
whose common sense preserved him serene and fearless in the presence of
these superior creatures.

"You like my cousin's poetry, then, Mrs. Gilbert?" said Lady Gwendoline.

Her cousin! The dark-haired being was cousin to this fair-haired being
in the Parisian bonnet,--a white-chip bonnet, with just one feathery
sprig of mountain heather, and broad thick white-silk strings, tied
under an aristocratic chin--a determined chin, Mr. Raymond would have
told Isabel.

Mrs. Gilbert took heart of grace now that Roland Lansdell was out of
hearing, and said, "Oh, yes; she was very, very fond of the 'Alien's
Dreams;' they were so sweetly pretty."

"Yes, they are pretty." Lady Gwendoline said, seating herself by the
window, and playing with her bonnet-strings as she spoke; "they are very
graceful. Do sit down, Mrs. Gilbert; these show-places are so fatiguing.
I am waiting for papa, who is talking politics with some Midlandshire
people in the hall. I am very glad you like Roland's verses. They're not
very original; all the young men write the same kind of poetry
nowadays--a sort of mixture of Tennyson, and Edgar Poe, and Alfred de
Musset. It reminds me of Balfe's music, somehow; it pleases, and one
catches the melody without knowing how or why. The book made quite a
little sensation. The 'Westminster' was very complimentary, but the
'Quarterly' was dreadful. I remember Roland reading the article and
laughing at it; but he looked like a man who tries to be funny in tight
boots, and he called it by some horrible slang term--'a slate,' I think
he said."

Isabel had nothing to say to this. She had never heard that the
"Quarterly" was a popular review; and, indeed, the adjective "quarterly"
had only one association for her, and that was rent, which had been
almost as painful a subject as taxes in the Camberwell household. Lady
Gwendoline's papa came in presently to look for his daughter. He was
Angus Pierrepoint Aubrey Amyott Pomphrey, Earl of Ruysdale; but he wore
a black coat and grey trousers and waistcoat, just like other people,
and had thick boots, and didn't look a bit like an earl, Isabel thought.

He said, "Haw, hum--yes, to be sure, my dear," when Lady Gwendoline told
him she was ready to go home; "been talking to Witherston--very good
fellow, Witherston--wants to get his son returned for Conventford,
gen'ral 'lection next year, lib'ral int'rest--very gentlemanly young
f'ler, the son;" and then he went to look for Roland, whom he found in
the next room with Charles Raymond; and then Lady Gwendoline wished
Isabel good morning, and said something very kind, to the effect that
they should most likely meet again before long, Lowlands being so near
Graybridge; and then the Earl offered his arm to his daughter.

She took it, but she looked back at her cousin, who was talking to Mr.
Raymond, and glancing every now and then in a half-amused, half-admiring
way at Isabel.

"I am so glad to think you like my wretched scribble, Mrs. Gilbert," he
said, going up to her presently.

Isabel blushed again, and said, "Oh, thank you; yes, they are very
pretty;" and it was as much as she could do to avoid calling Mr.
Lansdell "Sir" or "Your lordship."

"You are coming with us, I suppose, Roland?" Lady Gwendoline said.

"Oh, yes,--that is to say. I'll see you to the carriage."

"I thought you were coming to luncheon."

"No; I meant to come, but I must see that fellow Percival, the lawyer,
you know, Gwendoline, and I want to have a little more talk with
Raymond. You'll go on and show Mrs. Gilbert the Murillo in the next
room, Raymond? and I'll run and look for my cousin's carriage, and then
come back."

"We can find the carriage very well without you, Roland," Lady
Gwendoline answered quickly. "Come, papa."

The young man stopped, and a little shadow darkened over his face.

"Did you really ask me to luncheon?" he said.

"You really volunteered to come, after breakfast this morning, when you
proposed bringing us here."

"Did I? Oh, very well; in that case I shall let the Percival business
stand over; and I shall ride to Oakbank to-morrow morning, Raymond, and
lie on the grass and talk to you all day long, if you'll let me waste
your time for once in a way. Good-bye; good morning, Mrs. Gilbert. By
the bye, how do you mean to finish the day, Raymond?"

"I'm going to take Mr. and Mrs. Gilbert to Hurstonleigh Grove; or rather
they take me, for they've brought a basket that reminds one of the
Derby-day. We're going to picnic in the grove, and drink tea at a
cottage in honour of Isabel's--Mrs. Gilbert's--birthday."

"You must come and picnic at Mordred some day. It's not as pretty as
Hurstonleigh, but we'll manage to find a rustic spot. If you care for
partridges, Mr. Gilbert, you'll find plenty in the woods round Mordred
next September."

The young man put on his hat, and went after his cousin and her father.
Isabel saw him walk along the bright vista of rooms, and disappear in a
burst of sunshine that flooded the great hall when the door was opened.
The beings were gone. For a brief interval she had been breathing the
poetry of life; but she fell back now into the sober prose, and thought
that half the grandeur of the castle was gone with those aristocratic
visitors.

"And how do you like my young kinsman?" Mr. Raymond asked presently.

Isabel looked at him with surprise.

"He is your relation--Mr. Lansdell?"

"Yes. My mother was a Lansdell. There's a sort of cousin-ship between
Roland and me. He's a good fellow--a very noble-hearted, high-minded
young fellow; but--"

But what? Mr. Raymond broke off with so deep a sigh, that Isabel
imagined an entire romance upon the strength of the inspiration. Had he
done anything wicked? that dark beautiful creature, who only wanted the
soul-harrowing memory of a crime to render him perfect. Had he fled his
country, like Byron? or buried a fellow-creature in a cave, like Mr.
Aram? Isabel's eyes opened to their widest extent; and Charles Raymond
answered that inquiring glance.

"I sigh when I speak of Roland," he said, "because I know the young man
is not happy. He stands quite alone in the world, and has more money
than he knows how to spend; two very bad things for a young man. He's
handsome and fascinating,--another disadvantage; and he's brilliant
without being a genius. In short, he's just the sort of man to dawdle
away the brightest years of his life in the drawing-rooms of a lot of
women, and take to writing cynical trash about better men in his old
age. I can see only one hope of redemption for him, and that is a happy
marriage; a marriage with a sensible woman, who would get the whip-hand
of him before he knew where he was. All the luckiest and happiest men
have been henpecked. Look at the fate of the men who won't be henpecked.
Look at Swift: he was a lord of the creation, and made the women fear
him; look at him drivelling and doting under the care of a servant-maid.
Look at Sterne; and Byron, who outraged his wife in fact, and satirized
her in fiction. Were their lives so much the better because they scorned
the gentle guidance of the apron-string? Depend upon it, Mrs. Gilbert,
the men who lead great lives, and do noble deeds, and die happy deaths,
are married men who obey their wives. I'm a bachelor; so of course I
speak without prejudice. I do most heartily wish that Roland Lansdell
may marry a good and sensible woman."

"A good and sensible woman!"

Isabel gave an involuntary shudder. Surely, of all the creatures upon
this over-populated earth, a sensible woman was the very last whom
Roland Lansdell ought to marry. He should marry some lovely being in
perpetual white muslin, with long shimmering golden hair,--the dark men
always married fair women in Isabel's novels,--a creature who would sit
at his feet, and watch with him, as Astarte watched with Manfred, till
dismal hours in the silent night; and who should be consumptive, and
should die some evening--promiscuously, as Mrs. Gamp would say--with
flowers upon her breast, and a smile upon her face.

Isabel knew very little more of the pictures, or the men in armour, or
the cannon in the chambers that yet remained to be seen at Warncliffe
Castle. She was content to let Mr. Raymond and her husband talk. George
admired the cannon, and the old-fashioned locks and keys, and the model
of a cathedral made by a poor man out of old champagne corks, and a few
other curiosities of the same order; and he enjoyed himself, and was
happy to see that his wife was pleased. He could tell that, by the smile
upon her lips, though she said so little.

The drive from Warncliffe to Hurstonleigh Grove was as beautiful as the
drive from Graybridge to Warncliffe; for this part of Midlandshire is a
perpetual park. Isabel sat back in the carriage, and thought of Lady
Gwendoline's aristocratic face and white-chip bonnet, and wondered
whether she was the sensible woman whom Roland Lansdell would marry.
They would be a very handsome couple. Mrs. Gilbert could fancy them
riding Arabs--nobody worth speaking of ever rode anything but Arab
horses, in Isabel's fancy--in Rotten Row. She could see Lady Gwendoline
with a cavalier hat and a long sweeping feather, and Roland Lansdell
bending over her horse's neck to talk to her, as they rode along. She
fancied them in that glittering saloon, which was one of the stock
scenes always ready to be pushed on the stage of her imagination. She
fancied them in the midst of that brilliant supernumerary throng who
wait upon the footsteps of heroes and heroines. She pictured them to
herself going down to the grave through an existence of dinner-parties,
and Rotten Row, and balls, and Ascot cups. Ah, what a happy life! what a
glorious destiny!

The picnic seemed quite a tame thing after these reveries in the
carriage. The orphans met their uncle at the lodge-gate; and they all
went across the grass, just as they had gone before, to the little low
iron gate which Mr. Raymond was privileged to open with a special key;
and into the grove, where the wonderful beeches and oaks made a faint
summer darkness.

Was it the same grove? To Isabel it looked as if it had been made
smaller since that other picnic; and the waterfall, and the woodland
vistas, and the winding paths, and the arbour where they were to
dine,--it was all very well for the orphans to clap their hands, and
disport themselves upon the grass, and dart off at a tangent every now
and then to gather inconvenient wild-flowers; but, after all, there was
nothing so very beautiful in Hurstonleigh Grove.

Isabel wandered a little way by herself, while Mr. Raymond and George
and the orphans unpacked the basket. She liked to be alone, that she
might think of Lady Gwendoline and her cousin. Lady Gwendoline
Pomphrey--oh, how grand it sounded! Why, to have such a name as that
would alone be bliss; but to be called Gwendoline Pomphrey, and to wear
a white-chip bonnet with that heavenly sprig of heather just trembling
on the brim, and those broad, carelessly tied, unapproachable strings!
And then, like the sudden fall of a curtain in a brilliant theatre, the
scene darkened, and Isabel thought of her own life--the life to which
she must go back when it was dark that night: the common parlour, or the
best parlour,--what was the distinction, in their dismal wretchedness,
that one should be called better than the other?--- the
bread-and-cheese, the radishes,--and, oh, how George could eat radishes,
crunch, crunch, crunch!--till madness would have been relief. This
unhappy girl felt a blank despair as she thought of her commonplace
home,--her home for ever and ever,--unbrightened by a hope, unsanctified
by a memory; her home, in which she had a comfortable shelter, and
enough to eat and to drink, and decent garments with which to cover
herself; and where, had she been a good or a sensible young woman, she
ought of course to have been happy.

But she was not happy. The slow fever that had been burning so long in
her veins was now a rapid and consuming fire. She wanted a bright life,
a happy life, a beautiful life; she wanted to be like Lady Gwendoline,
and to live in a house like Warncliffe Castle. It was not that she
envied Lord Ruysdale's daughter, remember; envy had no part in her
nature. She admired Gwendoline Pomphrey too much to envy her. She would
like to have been that elegant creature's youngest sister, and to have
worshipped her and imitated her in a spirit of reverence. She had none
of the radical's desire to tear the trappings from the bloated
aristocrat; she only wanted to be an aristocrat too, and to wear the
same trappings, and to march through life to the same music.

George came presently, very much out of breath, to take her back to the
arbour where there was a lobster salad, and that fine high-coloured
Graybridge sherry, and some pale German wine which Mr. Raymond
contributed to the feast.

The orphans and the two gentlemen enjoyed themselves very much. Mr.
Raymond could talk about medicine as well as political economy; and he
and George entered into a conversation in which there were a great many
hard words. The orphans ate--to do that was to be happy; and Isabel sat
in a corner of the arbour, looking dreamily out at the shadows on the
grass, and wondering why Fate had denied her the privilege of being an
earl's daughter.

The drowsy atmosphere of the hot summer's afternoon, the Rhine wine, and
the sound of his companion's voice, had such a pleasant influence upon
Mr. Raymond, that he fell asleep presently while George was talking; and
the young man, perceiving this, produced a Midlandshire newspaper, which
he softly unfolded, and began to read.

"Will you come and gather some flowers, Izzie?" whispered one of the
orphans. "There are wild roses and honeysuckle in the lane outside. Do
come!"

Mrs. Gilbert was very willing to leave the arbour. She wandered away
with the two children along those lonely paths, which now sloped
downwards into a kind of ravine, and then wound upwards to the grove.
The orphans had a good deal to say to their late governess. They had a
new instructress, and "she isn't a bit like you, dear Mrs. Gilbert,"
they said; "and we love you best, though she's very kind, you know, and
all that; but she's old, you know, very old,--more than thirty; and she
makes us hem cambric frills, and does _go on so_ if we don't put away
our things; and makes us do such horrid sums; and instead of telling us
stories when we're out with her, as you used,--oh, don't you remember
telling us Pelham? how I love Pelham, and Dombey!--about the little boy
that died, and Florence--she teaches us botany and jology" (the orphans
called it 'jology'), "and tertiary sandstone, and old red formations,
and things like that; and oh, dear Izzie, I wish you never had been
married."

Isabel smiled at the orphans, and kissed them, when they entwined
themselves about her. But she was thinking of the Alien's dreams, and
whether Lady Gwendoline was the "Duchess! with the glittering hair and
cruel azure eyes," regarding whom the Alien was cynical, not to say
abusive. Mrs. Gilbert felt as if she had never read the Alien half
enough. She had seen him, and spoken to him,--a real poet, a real,
living, breathing poet, who only wanted to lame himself, and turn his
collars down, to become a Byron.

She was walking slowly along the woodland pathway, with the orphans
round about her, like a modern Laocoon family without the serpents, when
she was startled by a rustling of the branches a few paces from her, and
looking up, with a sudden half-frightened glance, she saw the tall
figure of a man between her and the sunlight.

The man was Mr. Roland Lansdell, the author of "An Alien's Dreams."

"I'm afraid I startled you, Mrs. Gilbert," he said, taking off his hat
and standing bareheaded, with the shadows of the leaves flickering and
trembling about him like living things. "I thought I should find Mr.
Raymond here, as he said you were going to picnic, and I want so much to
talk to the dear old boy. So, as they know me at the lodge, I got them
to let me in."

Isabel tried to say something; but the orphans, who were in no way
abashed by the stranger's presence, informed Mr. Lansdell that their
Uncle Charles was asleep in the arbour where they had dined.--"up
there." The elder orphan pointed vaguely towards the horizon as she
spoke.

"Thank you; but I don't think I shall find him very easily. I don't know
half the windings and twistings of this place."

The younger orphan informed Mr. Lansdell that the way to the arbour was
quite straight,--he couldn't miss it.

"But you don't know how stupid I am," the gentleman answered, laughing.
"Ask your uncle if I'm not awfully deficient in the organ of locality.
Would you mind--but you were going the other way, and it seems so
selfish to ask you to turn back; yet if you would take compassion upon
my stupidity, and show me the way--?"

He appealed to the orphans, but he looked at Isabel. He looked at her
with those uncertain eyes,--blue with a dash of hazel, hazel with a
tinge of blue,-yes that were always half hidden under the thick fringe
of their lashes, like a glimpse of water glimmering athwart
overshadowing rushes.

"Oh, yes, if you like," the orphans cried simultaneously; "we don't mind
going back a bit."

They turned as they spoke, and Isabel turned with them. Mr. Lansdell put
on his hat, and walked amongst the long grass beside the narrow pathway.

The orphans were very lively, and fraternized immediately with Mr.
Lansdell. They were Mr. Raymond's nieces? then they were his poor cousin
Rosa Harlow's children, of whom he had heard so much from that dear good
Raymond? If so, they were almost cousins of his, Mr. Lansdell went on to
say, and they must come and see him at Mordred. And they must ask Mrs.
Gilbert to come with them, as they seemed so fond of her.

The girls had plenty to say for themselves. Yes; they would like very
much to come to Mordred Priory; it was very pretty; their Uncle Charles
had shown them the house one day when he took them out for a drive. It
would be capital fun to come, and to have a picnic in the grounds, as
Mr. Lansdell proposed. The orphans were ready for anything in the way of
holiday-making. And for Isabel, she only blushed, and said, "Thank you,"
when Roland Lansdell talked of her visiting Mordred with her late
charges. She could not talk to this grand and beautiful creature, who
possessed in his own person all the attributes of her favourite heroes.

How often this young dreamer of dreams had fancied herself in such
companionship as this; discoursing with an incessant flow of brilliant
persiflage, half scornful, half playful; holding her own against a
love-stricken marquis; making as light of a duke as Mary Queen of Scots
ever made of a presumptuous Chastelar! And now that the dream was
realized; now that this splendid Byronic creature was by her side,
talking to her, trying to make her answer him, looking at her athwart
those wondrous eyelashes,--she was stricken and dumbfounded; a
miserable, stammering school-girl; a Pamela, amazed and bewildered by
the first complimentary address of her aristocratic persecutor.

She had a painful sense of her own deficiency; she knew all at once that
she had no power to play the part she had so often fancied herself
performing to the admiration of supernumerary beholders. But with all
this pain and mortification there mingled a vague delicious happiness.
The dream had come true at last. _This_ was romance--_this_ was life.
She knew now what a pallid and ghastly broker's copy of a picture that
last year's business had been; the standing on the bridge to be
worshipped by a country surgeon; the long tedious courtship; the dowdy,
vulgar, commonplace wedding,--she knew now how poor and miserable a
mockery all that had been. She looked with furtive glances at the tall
figure bending now and then under the branches of the trees; the tall
figure in loose garments, which, in the careless perfection of their
fashion, were so unlike anything she had ever seen before; the wonderful
face in which there was the mellow fight and colour of a Guido. She
stole a few timid glances at Mr. Lansdell, and made a picture of him in
her mind, which, like or unlike, must be henceforth the only image by
which she would recognize or think of him. Did she think of him as what
he was,--a young English gentleman, idle, rich, accomplished, and with
no better light to guide his erratic wanderings than an uncertain
glimmer which he called honour? Had she thought of him thus, she would
have been surely wiser than to give him so large a place in her mind, or
any place at all. But she never thought of him in this way. He was all
this; he was a shadowy and divine creature, amenable to no earthly laws.
He was here now, in this brief hour, under the flickering sunlight and
trembling shadows, and to-morrow he would melt away for ever and ever
into the regions of light, which were his every-day habitation.

What did it matter, then, if she was fluttered and dazed and intoxicated
by his presence? What did it signify if the solid earth became empyrean
air under this foolish girl's footsteps? Mrs. Gilbert did not even ask
herself these questions. No consciousness of wrong or danger had any
place in her mind. She knew nothing, she thought nothing; except that a
modern Lord Byron was walking by her side, and that it was a very little
way to the arbour.



CHAPTER XIII.

"OH, MY COUSIN, SHALLOW-HEARTED!"


Roland Lansdell dined with his uncle and cousin at Lowlands upon the day
after the picnic; but he said very little about his afternoon ramble in
Hurstonleigh Grove. He lounged upon the lawn with his cousin Gwendoline,
and played with the dogs, and stared at the old pictures in the long
dreary billiard-room, where the rattle of the rolling balls had been
unheard for ages; and he entered into a languid little political
discussion with Lord Ruysdale, and broke off--or rather dropped out of
it--in the middle with a yawn, declaring that he knew very little about
the matter, and was no doubt making a confounded idiot of himself, and
would his uncle kindly excuse him, and reserve his admirable arguments
for some one better qualified to appreciate them?

The young man had no political enthusiasm. He had been in the great
arena, and had done his little bit of wrestling, and had found himself
baffled, not by the force of his adversaries, but by the _vis inerticæ_
of things in general. Eight or nine years ago Roland Lansdell had been
very much in earnest,--too much in earnest, perhaps,--for he had been
like a racehorse that goes off with a rush and makes running for all the
other horses, and then breaks down ignominiously midway betwixt the
starting-post and the judge's chair. There was no "stay" in this bright
young creature. If the prizes of life could have been won by that fiery
rush, he would have won them; but as it was, he was fain to fall back
among the ranks nameless, and let the plodders rush on towards the
golden goal.

Thus it was that Roland Lansdell had been a kind of failure and
disappointment. He had begun so brilliantly, he had promised so much.
"If this young man is so brilliant at one-and-twenty," people had said
to one another, "what will he be by the time he is forty-five?" But at
thirty Roland was nothing. He had dropped out of public life altogether,
and was only a drawing-room favourite; a lounger in gay Continental
cities; a drowsy idler in fair Grecian islands; a scribbler of hazy
little verses about pretty women, and veils, and fans, and daggers, and
jealous husbands, and moonlit balconies, and withered orange-flowers,
and poisoned chalices, and midnight revels, and despair; a beautiful
useless, purposeless creature; a mark for manoeuvring mothers; a hero
for sentimental young ladies,--altogether a mockery, a delusion, and a
snare.

This was the man whom Lady Gwendoline and her father had found at Baden
Baden, losing his money _pour se distraire_. Gwendoline and her father
were on their way back to England. They had gone abroad for the benefit
of the Earl's income; but Continental residence is expensive nowadays,
and they were going back to Lowlands, Lord Ruysdale's family seat, where
at least they would live free of house-rent, and where they could have
garden-stuff and dairy produce, and hares and partridges, and silvery
trout from the fish-ponds in the shrubberies, for nothing: and where
they could have long credit from the country tradesfolk, and wax or
composition candles for something less than tenpence apiece.

Lord Ruysdale persuaded Roland to return with them, and the young man
assented readily enough. He was tired of the Cantinent; he was tired of
England too, for the matter of that; but those German gaming-places,
those Grecian islands, those papist cities where the bells were always
calling the faithful to their drowsy devotions in darksome old
cathedrals, were his last weariness, and he said, Yes; he should be glad
to see Mordred again; he should enjoy a month's shooting; and he could
spend the winter in Paris. Paris was as good as any other place in the
winter.

He had so much money and so much leisure, and so little knew what to do
with himself. He knew that his life was idle and useless; but he looked
about him, and saw that very little came of other men's work; he cried
with the Preacher, the son of David, king in Jerusalem, "Behold, all is
vanity and vexation of spirit, and there is no profit under the sun:
that which is crooked cannot be made straight, and that which is wanting
cannot be numbered: the thing that has been, it is that which shall be."

Do you remember that saying of Mirabeau's which Mr. Lewes has put upon
the title-page of his wonderful Life of Robespierre: "This man will do
great things," said the statesman,--I quote loosely from memory,--"for
he believes in himself?" Roland Lansdell did not believe in himself; and
lacking that grand faculty of self-confidence, he had grown to doubt and
question all other things, as he doubted and questioned himself.

"I will do my best to lead a good life, and be useful to my
fellow-creatures," Mr. Lansdell said, when he left Magdalen College,
Oxford, with a brilliant reputation, and the good wishes of all the
magnates of the place.

He began life with this intention firmly implanted in his mind. He knew
that he was a rich man, and that there was a great deal expected of him.
The parable of the Talents was not without its import to him, though he
had no belief in the divinity of the Teacher. There was no great
enthusiasm in his nature, but he was very sincere; and he went into
Parliament as a progressive young Liberal, and set to work honestly to
help his fellow-creatures.

Alas for poor humanity! he found the task more wearisome than the labour
of Sisyphus, or the toil of the daughters of Danäus. The stone was
always rolling back upon the labourer; the water was perpetually pouring
out of the perforated buckets. He cultivated the working man, and
founded a club for him, where he might have lectures upon geology and
astronomy, and where, after twelve hours' bricklaying or road-making, he
might improve his mind with the works of Stuart Mill or M'Culloch, and
where he could have almost anything; except those two simple things
which he especially wanted,--a pint of decent beer and a quiet puff at
his pipe. Roland Lansdell was the last man to plan any institution upon
puritanical principles; but he _did not believe in himself_, so he took
other people's ideas as the basis of his work; and by the time he opened
his eyes to the necessity of beer and tobacco, the workman had grown
tired and had abandoned him.

This was only one of many schemes which Mr. Lansdell attempted while he
was still very young, and had a faint belief in his fellow-creatures:
but this is a sample of the rest. Roland's schemes were not successful;
they were not successful because he had no patience to survive
preliminary failure, and wade on to ultimate success through a slough of
despond and discouragement. He picked his fruit before it was ripe, and
was angry when he found it sour, and would hew down the tree that bore
so badly, and plant another. His fairest projects fell to the ground,
and he left them there to rot; while he went away somewhere else to
build new schemes and make fresh failures.

Moreover, Mr. Lansdell was a hot-headed, impulsive young man, and there
were some things which he could not endure. He could bear ingratitude
better than most people, because he was generous-minded, and set a very
small price upon the favours he bestowed; but he could not bear to find
that the people whom he sought to benefit were bored by his endeavours
to help them. He had no ulterior object to gain, remember. He had no
solemn conviction of a sacred duty to be performed at any cost to
himself, in spite of every hindrance, in the face of every opposition.
He only wanted to be useful to his fellow-creatures; and when he found
that they repudiated his efforts, he fell away from them, and resigned
himself to be useless, and to let his fellow-creatures go their own
wilful way. So, almost immediately after making a brilliant speech about
the poor-laws, at the very moment when people were talking of him as one
of the most promising young Liberals of his day, Mr. Lansdell abruptly
turned his back upon St. Stephen's, accepted the Chiltern Hundreds, and
went abroad.

He had experienced another disappointment besides the failure of his
philanthropic schemes,--a disappointment that had struck home to his
heart, and had given him an excuse for the cynical indifference, the
hypochondriacal infidelity, which grew upon him from this time.

Mr. Lansdell had been his own master from his earliest manhood, for his
father and mother had died young. The Lansdells were not a long-lived
race; indeed, there seemed to be a kind of fatality attached to the
masters of Mordred Priory: and in the long galleries where the portraits
of dead-and-gone Lansdells looked gravely down upon the frivolous
creatures of to-day, the stranger was apt to be impressed by the youth
of all the faces--the absence of those grey beards and bald foreheads
which give dignity to most collections of family portraits. The
Lansdells of Mordred were not a long-lived race, and Roland's father had
died suddenly when the boy was away at Eton; but his mother, Lady Anna
Lansdell, only sister of the present Earl of Ruysdale, lived to be her
son's companion and friend in the best and brightest years of his life.
His life seemed to lose its brightness when he lost her; and I think
this one great grief, acting upon a naturally pensive temperament, must
have done much to confirm that morbid melancholy which overshadowed Mr.
Lansdell's mind.

His mother died; and the grand inducement to do something good and
great, which might have made her proud and happy, died with her. Roland
said that he left the purest half of his heart behind him in the
Protestant cemetery at Nice. He went back to England, and made those
brilliant speeches of which I have spoken; and was not too proud to seek
for sympathy and consolation from the person whom he loved next best to
her whom he had lost,--that person was Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey, his
betrothed wife, the beloved niece of his dead mother.

There had been so complete a sympathy between Lady Anna Lansdell and her
son, that the young man had suffered himself, half unconsciously, to be
influenced by his mother's predilections. She was very fond of
Gwendoline; and when the two families were in Midlandshire, Gwendoline
spent the greater part of her life with her aunt. She was two years
older than Roland, and she was a very beautiful young woman. A
fragile-looking, aristocratic beauty, with a lofty kind of gracefulness
in all her movements, and with cold blue eyes that would have frozen the
very soul of an aspiring young Lawrence. She was handsome,
self-possessed, and accomplished; and Lady Anna Lansdell was never tired
of sounding her praises. So young Roland, newly returned from Oxford,
fell--or imagined himself to have fallen--desperately in love with her;
and while his brief access of desperation lasted, the whole thing was
arranged, and Mr. Lansdell found himself engaged.

He was engaged, and he was very much in love with his cousin. That two
years' interval between their ages gave Gwendoline an immense advantage
over her lover; she practised a thousand feminine coquetries upon this
simple generous lad, and was proud of her power over him, and very fond
of him after her own fashion, which was not a very warm one. She was by
no means a woman to consider the world well lost for love. Her father
had told her all about Roland's circumstances, and that the settlements
would be very handsome. She was only sorry that poor Roland was a mere
nobody, after all; a country gentleman, who prided himself upon the
length of his pedigree and the grandeur of his untitled race; but whose
name looked very insignificant when you saw it at the tail of a string
of dukes and marquises in the columns of the "Morning Post."

But then he might distinguish himself in Parliament. There was something
in that; and Lady Gwendoline brought all her power to bear upon the
young man's career. She fanned tha faint flames of his languid ambition
with her own fiery breath. This girl, with her proud Saxon beauty, her
cold blue eyes, her pale auburn hair, was as ardent and energetic as
Joan of Arc or Elizabeth of England. She was a grand ambitious creature,
and she wanted to marry a ruler, and to rule him; and she was
discontented with her cousin because a crown did not drop on to his
brows the moment he entered the arena. His speeches had been talked
about; but, oh, what languid talk it had been! Gwendoline wanted all
Europe to vibrate with the clamour of the name that was so soon to be
her own.

At the end of his second session Roland went abroad with his dying
mother. He came back alone, six weeks after his mother's death, and went
straight to Gwendoline for consolation. He found her in deep mourning;
all a-glitter with bracelets and necklaces of shining jet; looking very
fair and stately in her trailing black robes; but he found her
drawing-room filled with callers, and he left her wounded and angry. He
thought her so much a part of himself, that he had expected to find her
grief equal to his own. He went to her again, in a passionate outbreak
of grief and anger; told her that she was cold-hearted and ungrateful,
and that she had never loved the aunt who had been almost a mother to
her. Lady Gwendoline was the last woman in the world to submit to any
such reproof. She was astounded by her lover's temerity.

"I loved my aunt very dearly, Mr. Lansdell," she said; "so dearly that I
could endure a great deal for her sake; but I can _not_ endure the
insolence of her son."

And then the Earl of Ruysdale's daughter swept out of the room, leaving
her cousin standing alone in a sunlit window, with the spring breezes
blowing in upon him, and the shrill voice of a woman crying primroses
sounding in the street below.

He went home, dispirited, disheartened, doubtful of himself, doubtful of
Lady Gwendoline, doubtful of all the world; and early the next morning
he received a letter from his cousin coolly releasing him from his
engagement. The experience of yesterday had proved that they were
unsuited to each other, she said; it was better that they should part
now, while it was possible for them to part friends. Nothing could be
more dignified or more decided than the dismissal.

Mr. Lansdell put the letter in his breast; the pretty perfumed letter,
with the Ruysdale arms emblazoned on the envelope, the elegant ladylike
letter, which recorded his sentence without a blot or a blister, without
one uncertain line to mark where the hand had trembled. The hand may
have trembled, nevertheless; for Lady Gwendoline was just the woman to
write a dozen copies of her letter rather than send one that bore the
faintest evidence of her weakness. Roland put the letter in his breast,
and resigned himself to his fate. He was a great deal too proud to
appeal against his cousin's decree; but he had loved her very sincerely,
and if she had recalled him, he would have gone back to her and would
have forgiven her. He lingered in England for a week or more after all
the arrangements for his departure had been made; he lingered in the
expectation that his cousin would recall him: but one morning, while he
was sitting in the smoking-room at his favourite club, with his face
hidden behind the pages of the "Post," he burst into a harsh strident
laugh.

"What the deuce is the matter with you, Lansdell?" asked a young man who
had been startled by that sudden outbreak of unharmonious hilarity.

"Oh, nothing particular; I was looking at the announcement of my cousin
Gwendoline's approaching marriage with the Marquis of Heatherland. I'm
rejoiced to see that our family is getting up in the world."

"Oh, yes, that's been in the wind a long time," the lounger answered,
coolly. "Everybody saw that Heatherland was very far gone six months
ago. He's been mooning about your cousin ever since they met at The
Bushes, Sir Francis Luxmoor's Leicestershire place. They used to say you
were rather sweet in that quarter; but I suppose it was only a cousinly
flirtation."

"Yes," said Mr. Lansdell, throwing down the paper, and taking out his
cigar-case; "I suppose it was only what Gwendoline would call a
flirtation. You see, I have been abroad six months attending the
deathbed of my mother. I could scarcely expect to be remembered all that
time. Will you give me a light for my cigar?"

The faces of the two young men were very close together as Roland
lighted his cigar. Mr. Lansdell's pale-olive complexion had blanched a
little, but his hand was quite steady, and he smoked half his Trabuco
before he left the club-room. The blow was sharp and unexpected, but
Lady Gwendoline's lover bore it like a philosopher.

"I am unhappy because I have lost her," he thought; "but should I have
been happy with her, if I had married her? Have I ever been happy in my
life, or is there such a thing as happiness upon this unequally divided
earth? I have played all my cards, and lost the game. Philanthropy,
ambition, love, friendship--I have lost upon every one of them. It is
time that I should begin to enjoy myself."

Thus it was that Mr. Lansdell accepted the Chiltern Hundreds, and turned
his back upon a country in which he had never been especially happy. He
had plenty of friends upon the Continent; and being rich, handsome, and
accomplished, was fêted and caressed wherever he went. He was very much
admired, and he might have been beloved; but that first disappointment
had done its fatal work, and he did not believe that there was in all
the world any such thing as pure and disinterested affection for a young
man with a landed estate and fifteen thousand a year.

So he lounged and dawdled away his time in drawing-rooms and boudoirs,
on moonlit balconies, in shadowy orange-groves, beside the rippling
Arno, in the colonnades of Venice, on the Parisian boulevards, under the
lime-trees of Berlin, in any region where there was life and colour and
gaiety, and the brightness of beautiful faces, and where a man of a
naturally gloomy temperament might forget himself and be amused. He
started with the intention of doing no harm; but with no better guiding
principle than the intention to be harmless, a man can contrive to do a
good deal of mischief.

Mr. Lansdell's life abroad was neither a good nor a useful one. It was
an artificial kind of existence, with spurious pleasures, spurious
brilliancy,--a life whose brightest moments but poorly compensated for
the dismal reaction that followed them. And in the meanwhile Lady
Gwendoline did not become Marchioness of Heatherland; for, only a month
before the day appointed for the wedding, young Lord Heatherland broke
his neck in an Irish steeple-chase.

It was a terrible and bitter disappointment; but Lady Gwendoline showed
her high breeding and her philosophy at the same time. She retired from
the world in which her career had been hitherto so brilliantly
successful, and bore her sorrow in silence. She, too, had played her
best card, and had lost; and now that the Marquis was dead, and Rowland
Lansdell far away, people began to say that the lady had jilted her
cousin, and that the loss of her titled lover was Heaven's special
judgment upon her iniquity,--though why poor Lord Heatherland should be
sacrificed to Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey's sin is rather a puzzling
question.

It may be that Lord Ruysdale's daughter hoped her cousin would return
when he heard of the Marquis's death. She knew that Roland had loved
her: and what was more likely than that he should come back to her, now
that he knew she was once more free to be his wife? Lady Gwendoline kept
the secrets of her own heart, and no one knew which of her two lovers
had been dearest to her. She kept her own secrets; and, by-and-by, when
she reappeared in the world, people saw that her beauty had suffered
very little from her sorrow for her disappointment.

She was still very handsome, but her prestige was gone. Impertinent
young _débutantes_ of eighteen called this splendid creature of
four-and-twenty "quite old." Wasn't she engaged to a Mr. Lansdell ever
so long ago, and then to the Marquis of Heatherland? Poor thing, how
very sad! They wondered she did not go over to Rome, or join Miss
Sellon's sisterhood, or something of that kind. Lady Gwendoline's
portrait still held its place in books of beauty, and she could see
herself smiling in West-end printshops, with a preternaturally high
forehead, and very long ringlets; but she felt that she was old--very
old. Gossipping dowagers talked aristocratic scandal openly before her,
and said, "We don't mind _your_ hearing it, Gwendoline dear, for of
course you know the world, and that such things _do_ happen;" and a
woman has seen the last of her youth when people say that sort of thing
to her.

She felt that she was very old. She had led a high-pressure kind of
existence, in which a year stands for a decade; and now in her lonely
old age she discovered that her father was very poor, and that his
estates were mortgaged, and that henceforth her existence must be a
wretched hand-to-mouth business, unless some distant relation, from whom
Lord Ruysdale had expectations, would be good enough to die.

The distant relation had died within the last twelve months, and the
fortune inherited from him, though by no means a large one, had set the
Earl's affairs tolerably straight; so he had returned to Lowlands, after
selling the lease and furniture of his town-house. It was absurd to keep
the town-house any longer for the sake of Gwendoline, who was
two-and-thirty years of age, and never likely to marry. Lord Ruysdale
argued. So he had paid his debts, and had released his estate from some
of its many incumbrances, and had come back to the home of his boyhood,
to set up as a model farmer and country gentleman.

So, in the bright July sunshine, Gwendoline and her cousin lounged upon
the lawn, and talked of old pleasures and old acquaintances, and the
things that happened to them when they were young. If the lady ever
cherished any hope that Roland would return to his allegiance, that hope
has now utterly vanished. He has forgiven her for all the past, and they
are friends and first-cousins again; but there is no room for hope that
they can ever be again what they have been. A man who can forgive so
generously must have long ceased to love: that strange madness, so
nearly allied to hatred, and jealousy, and rage, and despair, has no
kindred with forgiveness. Lady Gwendoline knew that her chance was gone.
She knew this; and there was a secret bitterness in her heart when she
thought of it, and she was jealous of her cousin's regard, and exacting
in her manner to him. He bore it all with imperturbable good temper. He
had been hot-headed and fiery-tempered long ago, when he was young and
chivalrous, and eager to be useful to his fellow-creatures; but now he
was only a languid loiterer upon the earth, and his creed was the creed
of the renowned American who has declared that "there is nothing new,
and nothing true; and it don't signify."

What did it matter? The crooked sticks would never be straight: that
which was wanting would never be numbered. Roland Lansdell suffered from
a milder form of that disease in a wild paroxysm of which Swift wrote
"Gulliver," and Byron horrified society with "Don Juan." He suffered
from that moody desperation of mind which came upon Hamlet after his
mother's wedding, and neither man nor woman delighted him.

But do not suppose that this young man gave himself melancholy or
Byronic airs upon the strength of the aching void at his own weary
heart. He was a sensible young man; and he did not pose himself _à la_
Lara, or turn down his collars, or let his beard grow. He only took life
very easily, and was specially indulgent to the follies and vices of
people from whom he expected so very little.

He had gone back to Midlandshire because he was tired of his Continental
wanderings; and now he was tired of Mordred already, before he had been
back a week. Lady Gwendoline catechised him rather closely as to what he
had done with himself upon the previous afternoon; and he told her very
frankly that he had strolled into Hurstonleigh Grove to see Mr. Raymond,
and had spent an hour or two talking with his old friend, while Mr. and
Mrs. Gilbert and the children enjoyed themselves, and prepared a rustic
tea, which would have been something like Watteau, if Watteau had been a
Dutchman.

"It was very pretty, Gwendoline, I assure you," he said. "Mrs. Gilbert
made tea, and we drank it in a scalding state; and the two children were
all of a greasy radiance with bread-and-butter. The doctor seems to be
an excellent fellow; his moral region is something tremendous, Raymond
tells me, and he entertained us at tea with a most interesting case of
fester."

"Oh, the doctor? that's Mr. Gilbert, is it not?" said Lady Gwendoline;
"and what do you think of his wife, Roland? You must have formed some
opinion upon that subject, I should think, by the manner in which you
stared at her."

"Did I stare at her?" cried Mr. Lansdell, with supreme carelessness. "I
dare say I did; I always stare at pretty women. Why should a man go into
all manner of stereotyped raptures about a Raffaelle or a Guido, and yet
feel no honest thrill of disinterested admiration when he looks at a
picture fresh from the hands of the supreme painter, Nature? who, by the
way, makes as many failures, and is as often out of drawing, as any
other artist. Yes, I admire Mrs. Gilbert, and I like to look at her. I
don't suppose she's any better than other people, but she's a great deal
prettier. A beautiful piece of animated waxwork, with a little machinery
inside, just enough to make her say, 'Yes, if you please,' and 'No,
thank you.' A lovely non-entity with yellow-black eyes. Did you observe
her eyes?"

"No!" Lady Gwendoline answered, sharply; "I observed nothing except that
she was a very dowdy-looking person. What, in Heaven's name, is Mr.
Raymond's motive for taking her up? He's always taking up some
extraordinary person."

"But Mrs. Gilbert is not an extraordinary person: she's very stupid and
commonplace. She was nursery-maid, or nursery-governess, or something of
that kind, to that dear good Raymond's penniless nieces."

There was no more said about Mr. and Mrs. Gilbert. Lady Gwendoline did
not care to talk about these common people, who came across her dull
pathway, and robbed her of some few accidental rays of that light which
was now the only radiance upon earth for her,--the light of her cousin's
presence.

Ah, me! with what a stealthy step, invisible in the early sunshine,
pitiless Nemesis creeps after us, and glides past us, and goes on before
to wait for us upon the other side of the hill, amidst the storm-clouds
and the darkness! From the very first Gwendoline had loved her cousin
Roland better than any other living creature upon this earth: but the
chance of bringing down the bird at whose glorious plumage so many a
fair fowler had levelled her rifle had dazzled and tempted her. The true
wine of life was not that mawkish, sickly-sweet compound of rose-leaves
and honey called Love, but an effervescing, intoxicating beverage known
as Success, Lady Gwendoline thought: and in the triumph of her splendid
conquest it seemed such an easy thing to resign the man she loved. But
now it was all different. She looked back, and remembered what her life
might have been: she looked forward, and saw what it was to be: and the
face of Nemesis was very terrible to look upon.

Thus it was that Lady Gwendoline was exacting of her cousin's attention,
impatient of his neglect. Oh, if she could have brought him back! if she
could have kindled a new flame in the cold embers! Alas! she knew that
to do that would be to achieve the impossible. She looked in the glass,
and saw that her aristocratic beauty was pale and faded; she felt that
the story of her life was ended. The sea might break against the crags
for ever and for ever; but the tender grace of a day that was dead could
never return to her.

"He loved me once," she thought, as she sat in the summer twilight,
watching her cousin strolling on the lawn, smoking his after-dinner
cigar, and looking so tired--so tired of himself and everything in the
world. "He loved me once; it is something to remember that."

The day was very dull at Lowlands, Mr. Lansdell thought. There was a
handsome house, a little old and faded, but very handsome
notwithstanding; and there was a well-cooked dinner, and good wines; and
there was an elegant and accomplished woman always ready to talk to him
and amuse him;--and yet, somehow, it was all flat, stale, and
unprofitable to this young man, who had lived the same kind of life for
ten years, and had drained its pleasures to the very dregs.

"We should laugh at a man who went on writing epic poems all his life,
though people refused to read a line of his poetry; and no man can be
expected to go on trying to improve the position of people who don't
want to be improved. I've tried my hand at the working-man, and he has
rejected me as an intrusive nuisance. I've no doubt he was 'in his
right.' How should I like a reformer who wanted to set _me_ straight,
and lay out my leisure hours by line and rule, and spend my money for
me, and show me how to get mild Turkish, and German wines, in the best
and cheapest market?"

Mr. Lansdell often thought about his life. It is not natural that a man,
originally well disposed, should lead a bad and useless life without
thinking of it. Mr. Lansdell was subject to gloomy fits of melancholy,
in which the Present seemed a burden, and the Future a blank,--a great
blank desert, or a long dreary bridge, like that which the genius showed
to Mirza in his morning vision, with dreadful pitfalls every here and
there, down which unwary foot-passengers sank, engulfed in the dreadful
blackness of a bottomless ocean.



CHAPTER XIV.

UNDER LORD THURSTON'S OAK.


While Mr. Lansdell remembered Isabel Gilbert as a pretty automaton, who
had simpered and blushed when he spoke to her, and stammered shyly when
she was called upon to answer him, the Doctor's Wife walked up and down
the flat commonplace garden at Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne, and thought
of her birthday afternoon, whose simple pleasures had been embellished
by the presence of a demigod. Yes, she walked up and down between two
rows of straggling gooseberry-bushes, in a rapturous day-dream; a
dangerous day-dream, in which Roland Lansdell's dark face shone dazzling
and beautiful. Was it wrong to think of him? She never asked herself
that question. She had read sentimental books all her life, and had been
passionately in love with heroes in three volumes, ever since she could
remember. What did it matter whether she was in love with Sir Reginald
Glanville or Mr. Roland Lansdell? One passion was as hopeless as the
other, and as harmless therefore. She was never likely to see the lord
of Mordred Priory again. Had she not heard him tell Mr. Raymond that he
should spend the winter in Paris? Mrs. Gilbert counted the months upon
her fingers. Was November the winter? If so, Mr. Lansdell would be gone
in four months' time. And in all those four months what likelihood was
there that she should see him,--she, who was such a low degraded wretch
as compared with this splendid being and those with whom it was his
right to associate? Never, no, never until now had she understood the
utter hideousness and horror of her life. The square miserable parlour,
with little stunted cupboards on each side of the fireplace, and shells
and peacocks' feathers, and penny-bottles of ink, and dingy unpaid
bills, upon the mantel-piece. She sat there with the July sun glaring in
upon her through the yellow-white blind; she sat there and thought of
her life and its squalid ugliness, and then thought of Lady Gwendoline
at Lowlands, and rebelled against the unkindness of a Providence that
had not made her an earl's daughter. And then she clasped her hands upon
her face, and shut out the vulgar misery of that odious parlour--a
_parlour_!--the very word was unknown in those bright regions of which
she was always dreaming--and thought of Roland Lansdell.

She thought of him, and she thought what her life might have
been--if----

If what? If any one out of a hundred different visions, all equally
childish and impossible, could have been realized. If she had been an
earl's daughter, like Lady Gwendoline! If she had been a great actress,
and Roland Lansdell had seen her and fallen in love with her from a
stage-box! If he had met her in the Walworth Road two or three years
ago; she fancied the meeting,--he in a cab, with the reins lightly held
between the tips of his gloved fingers, and a tiny tiger swinging
behind; and she standing on the kerbstone waiting to cross the road, and
not out to fetch anything vulgar, only going to pay a water-rate, or to
negotiate some mysterious "backing" of the spoons, or some such
young-ladylike errand. And then she got up and went to the looking-glass
to see if she really was pretty; or if her face, as she saw it in her
day-dreams, was only an invention of her own, like the scenery and the
dresses of those foolish dreams. She rested her elbows on the
mantel-piece, and looked at herself, and pushed her hair about, and
experimented with her mouth and eyes, and tried to look like Edith
Dombey in the grand Carker scene, and acted the scene in a whisper.

No, she wasn't a bit like Edith Dombey; she was more like Juliet, or
Desdemona. She lowered her eyelids, and then lifted them slowly,
revealing a tender penetrating glance in the golden black eyes.

     "I'm _very_ sorry that you are not well!"

she whispered. Yes, she would do for Desdemona. Oh, if instead of
marrying George Gilbert, she had only run away to London, and gone
straight to that enterprising manager, who would have been so sure to
engage her! If she had done this, she might have played Desdemona, and
Mr. Lansdell might have happened to go to the theatre, and might have
fallen desperately in love with her on the spot.

She took a dingy volume of the immortal William's from a dusty row of
books on one of the cupboards, and went up to her room and locked the
door, and pleaded for Cassio, and wept and protested opposite the
looking-glass, before which three matter-of-fact generations of Gilberts
had shaved themselves.

She was only nineteen, and she was a child, with all a child's eagerness
for something bright and happy. It seemed only a very short time since
she had longed for a gaily-dressed doll that adorned one of the Walworth
Road shop-windows. Her married life had not as yet invested her with any
matronly dignity. She had no domestic cares or duties; for the simple
household was kept in order by Mrs. Jeffson, who would have resented any
interference from the young mistress. Isabel went into the kitchen
sometimes, when she was very much at a loss as to what she should do
with herself, and sat in an old rocking-chair swinging languidly
backwards and forwards, and watching kind-hearted Tilly making a pie.

There are some young women who take kindly to a simple domestic life,
and have a natural genius for pies and puddings, and cutting and
contriving, in a cheery, pleasant way, that invests poverty with a grace
of its own; and when a gentleman wishes to marry on three hundred a
year, he should look out for one of those bright household fairies.
Isabel had no liking for these things; to her the making of pastry was a
wearisome business. It was all very well for Ruth Pinch to do it for
once in a way, and to be admired by John Westlock, and marry a rich and
handsome young husband offhand. No doubt Miss Pinch knew instinctively
that Mr. Westlock would come that morning while the beef-steak pudding
was in progress. But to go on making puddings for Tom Pinch for ever and
ever, with no John Westlock! Isabel left the house affairs to Mrs.
Jeffson, and acted Shakespearian heroines and Edith Dombey before her
looking-glass, and read her novels, and dreamed her dreams, and wrote
little scraps of poetry, and drew pen-and-ink profile portraits of Mr.
Lansdell--always looking from right to left. She gave him very black
eyes with white blanks in the centre, and streaky hair; she drew Lady
Gwendoline and the chip bonnet also very often, if not quite as often as
the gentleman; so there was no harm in it. Mrs. Gilbert was strictly
punctilious with herself, even in the matter of her thoughts. She only
thought of what _might_ have happened if Mr. Lansdell had met her long
ago before her marriage.

It is not to be supposed that she forgot Roland's talk of some picnic or
entertainment at Mordred. She thought of it a great deal, sometimes
fancying that it was too bright a thing to come to pass: at other times
thinking that Mr. Lansdell was likely to call at any moment with a
formal invitation for herself and her husband. The weather was very warm
just now, and the roads very dusty; so Mrs. Gilbert stayed at home a
good deal. He might come,--he might come at any unexpected moment. She
trembled and turned hot at the sound of a double knock, and ran to the
glass to smooth her disordered hair: but only the most commonplace
visitors came to Mr. Gilbert's mansion; and Isabel began to think that
she would never see Roland Lansdell again.

And then she plunged once more into the hot-pressed pages of the
"Alien," and read Mr. Lansdell's plaints, on toned paper, with long
_s_'s that looked like _f_'s. And she copied his verses, and translated
them into bad French. They were very difficult: how was she to render
even such a simple sentence as "My own Clotilde?" She tried such
locutions as, "_Ma propre Clotilde_," "_Ma Clotilde particulière_;" but
she doubted if they were quite academically correct. And she set the
Alien to tunes that he didn't match, and sang him in a low voice to the
cracked notes of an old harpsichord which George's mother had imported
from Yorkshire.

One day when she was walking with George,--one dreary afternoon, when
George had less to do than usual, and was able to take his wife for a
nice dusty walk on the high-road,--Mrs. Gilbert saw the man of whom she
had thought so much. She saw a brown horse and a well-dressed rider
sweep past her in a cloud of dust; and she knew, when he had gone by,
that he was Roland Lansdell. He had not seen her any more than if there
was no such creature upon this earth. He had not seen her. For the last
five weeks she had been thinking of him perpetually, and he rode by and
never saw that she was there. No doubt Lord Byron would have passed her
by in much the same manner if he had lived: and would have ridden on to
make a morning call upon that thrice-blessed Italian woman, whose
splendid shame it was to be associated with him. Was it not always so?
The moon is a cold divinity, and the brooks look up for ever and win no
special radiance in recompense for their faithful worship: the sunflower
is always turning to the sun, and the planet takes very little notice of
the flower. Did not Napoleon snub Madame de Staël? And if Isabel could
have lived thirty years earlier, and worked her passage out to St.
Helena as ship's needle-woman, or something of that kind, and expressed
her intention of sitting at the exile's feet for the rest of her natural
life, the hero would have doubtless sent her back by the first
homeward-bound vessel with an imperially proportioned flea in her ear.

No, she must be content to worship after the manner of the brooks. No
subtle power of sympathy was engendered out of her worship. She drew
rather fewer profile views of Mr. Lansdell after that wretched dusty
afternoon, and she left off hoping that he would call and invite her to
Mordred.

She resumed her old habits, and went out again with Shelley and the
"Alien," and the big green parasol.

One day--one never-to-be-forgotten day, which made a kind of chasm in
her life, dividing all the past from the present and the future--she sat
on her old seat under the great oak-tree, beside the creaking mill-wheel
and the plashing water; she sat in her favourite spot, with Shelley on
her lap and the green parasol over her head. She had been sitting there
for a long time in the drowsy midday atmosphere, when a great dog came
up to her, and stared at her, and snuffed at her hands, and made
friendly advances to her; and then another dog, bigger, if anything,
than the first, came bouncing over a stile and bounding towards her; and
then a voice, whose sudden sound made her drop her book all confused and
frightened, cried, "Hi, Frollo! this way, Frollo." And in the next
minute a gentleman, followed by a third dog, came along the narrow
bridge that led straight to the bench on which she was sitting.

Her parasol had fallen back as she stooped to pick up her book, and
Roland Lansdell could not avoid seeing her face. He thought her very
pretty, as we know, but he thought her also very stupid; and he had
quite forgotten his talk about her coming to Mordred.

"Let me pick up the book, Mrs. Gilbert," he said. "What a pretty place
you have chosen for your morning's rest! This is a favourite spot of
mine." He looked at the open pages of the book as he handed it to her,
and saw the title; and glancing at another book on the seat near her, he
recognized the familiar green cover and beveled edges of the "Alien." A
man always knows the cover of his own book, especially when the work has
hung rather heavily on the publisher's hands.

"You are fond of Shelley," he said. (He was considerably surprised to
find that this pretty nonentity beguiled her morning walks with the
perusal of the "Revolt of Islam.")

"Oh yes, I am very, very fond of him. Wasn't it a pity that he was
drowned?"

She spoke of that calamity as if it had been an event of the last week
or two. These things were nearer to her than all that common business of
breakfast and dinner and supper which made up her daily life. Mr.
Lansdell shot a searching glance at her from under cover of his long
lashes. Was this feminine affectation, provincial Rosa-Matilda-ism?

"Yes, it was a pity," he said; "but I fancy we're beginning to get over
the misfortune. And so you like all that dreamy, misty stuff?" he added,
pointing to the open book which Isabel held in her hands. She was
turning the leaves about, with her eyes cast down upon the pages. So
would she have sat, shy and trembling, if Sir Reginald Glanville, or
Eugene Aram, or the Giaour, or Napoleon the Great, or any other grand
melancholy creature, could have been conjured into life and planted by
her side. But she could not tolerate the substantive "stuff" as applied
to the works of the lamented Percy Bysshe Shelley.

"I think it is the most beautiful _poetry_ that was ever written," she
said.

"Better than Byron's?" asked Mr. Lansdell; "I thought most young ladies
made Byron their favourite."

"Oh yes, I love Byron. But then he makes one so unhappy, because one
feels that he was so unhappy when he wrote. Fancy his writing the
'Giaour' late at night, after being out at parties where everybody
adored him; and if he hadn't written it, he would have gone mad," said
Mrs. Gilbert, opening her eyes very wide. "Reading Shelley's poetry
seems like being amongst birds and flowers and blue rippling water and
summer. It always seems summer in his poetry. Oh, I don't know which I
like best."

Was all this affectation, or was it only simple childish reality? Mr.
Lansdell was so much given to that dreadful disease, disbelief, that he
was slow to accept even the evidence of those eloquent blushes, the
earnestness in those wonderful eyes, which could scarcely be assumed at
will, however skilled in the light comedy of every-day life Mrs. Gilbert
might be. The dogs, who had no misanthropical tendencies, had made
friends with Izzie already, and had grouped themselves about her, and
laid their big paws and cold wet noses on her knee.

"Shall I take them away?" asked Mr. Lansdell. "I am afraid they will
annoy you."

"Oh no, indeed; I am so fond of dogs."

She bent over them and caressed them with her ungloved hands, and
dropped Shelley again, and was ashamed of her awkwardness. Would Edith
Dombey have been perpetually dropping things? She bent over a big black
retriever till her lips touched his forehead, and he was emboldened to
flap his great slimy tongue over her face in token of his affection.
_His_ dog! Yes, it had come to that already. Mr. Lansdell was that awful
being, the mysterious "Lui" of a thousand romances. Roland had been
standing upon the bridge all this time; but the bridge was very narrow,
and as a labouring man came across at this moment with a reaping-hook
across his shoulder, Mr. Lansdell had no choice except to go away, or
else sit down on the bench under the tree. So he sat down at a
respectful distance from Mrs. Gilbert, and picked up Shelley again; and
I think if it had not been for the diversion afforded by the dogs,
Isabel would have been likely to drop over into the brawling mill-stream
in the intensity of her confusion.

He was there by her side, a real living hero and poet, and her weak
sentimental little heart swelled with romantic rapture; and yet she felt
that she ought to go away and leave him. Another woman might have looked
at her watch, and exclaimed at the lateness of the hour, and gathered up
her books and parasol, and departed with a sweeping curtsey and a
dignified adieu to Mr. Lansdell. But Isabel was planted to the spot,
held by some fearful but delicious charm,--a magic and a mystic
spell,--with which the plashing of the water, and the slow creaking of
the mill-wheel, and a faint fluttering of leaves and flowers, the drowzy
buzz of multitudinous insects, the thrilling song of Shelley's own
skylark in the blue heavens high above her head, blended in one sweet
confusion.

I acknowledge that all this was very hard upon the honest-hearted parish
doctor, who was at this moment sitting in the faint atmosphere of a
cottage chamber, applying fresh layers of cotton wool to the poor
tortured arm of a Sunday-school pupil, who had been all but burnt to
death in the previous week. But then, if a man chooses to marry a girl
because her eyes are black and large and beautiful, he must be contented
with the supreme advantage he derives from the special attribute for
which he has chosen her: and so long as she does not become a victim to
cataract, or aggravated inflammation of the eyelids, or chronic
ophthalmia, he has no right to complain of his bargain. If he selects
his wife from amongst other women because she is true-hearted and
high-minded and trustworthy, he has ample right to be angry with her
whenever she ceases to be any one of these things.

Mr. Lansdell and his dogs lingered for some considerable time under the
shadow of the big oak. The dogs were rather impatient, and gave
expression to their feelings by sundry yawns that were like half-stifled
howls, and by eager pantings, and sudden and purposeless leaps, and
short broken-off yelps or snaps; but Roland Lansdell was in no hurry to
leave the region of Thurston's Crag. Mrs. Gilbert was not stupid, after
all; she was something better than a pretty waxen image, animated by
limited machinery. That pretty head was tilled with a quaint confusion
of ideas, half-formed childish fancies, which charmed and amused this
elegant loiterer, who had lived in a world where all the women were
clever and accomplished, and able to express all they thought, and a
good deal more than they thought, with the clear precision and
self-possession of creatures who were thoroughly convinced of the
infallibility of their own judgment. Yes, Mr. Lansdell was amused by
Isabel's talk; and he led her on very gently, till her shyness vanished,
and she dared to look up at his face as she spoke to him; and he attuned
his own talk to the key of hers, and wandered with her in the Valhalla
of her heroes, from Eugene Aram to Napoleon Buonaparte. But in the midst
of all this she looked all in a hurry at the little silver watch that
George had given her, and found that it was past three.

"Oh, I must go, if you please," she said; "I have been out ever since
eleven o'clock, and we dine at half-past four."

"Let me carry your books a little way for you, then," said Mr. Lansdell.

"But are you going that way?"

"Yes, that is the very way I am going."

The dogs were all excitement at the prospect of a move; they barked and
careered about Isabel, and rushed off as if they were going to run ten
miles at a stretch, and then wheeled round with alarming suddenness and
flew back to Mrs. Gilbert and their master.

The nearest way to Graybridge lay across all that swelling sea of lovely
meadow-land, and there were a good many stiles to be crossed and gates
to be opened and shut, so the walk occupied some time; and Mr. Lansdell
must have had business to transact in the immediate neighbourhood of
Graybridge, for he walked all the way through those delicious meadows,
and only parted with Isabel at a gate that opened into the high-road
near the entrance of the town.

"I suppose you often stroll as far as Thurston's Crag?" Mr. Lansdell
said.

"Oh yes, very often. It isn't too long a walk, and it is so pretty."

"It is pretty. Mordred is quite as near to you, though, and I think that
you would like the garden at Mordred; there are ruins, you know, and
it's altogether very romantic. I will give you and Mr. Gilbert a key, if
you would like to come there sometimes. Oh, by the bye, I hope you
haven't forgotten your promise to come to luncheon and see the pictures,
and all that sort of thing."

No, Isabel had not forgotten; her face flushed suddenly at the thought
of this rapturous vista opening before her. She was to see _him_ again,
once more, in his own house, and then--and then it would be November,
and he would go away, and she would never see him again. No, Isabel had
not forgotten; but until this moment all recollection of that invitation
to the Priory had been blotted out of Mr. Lansdell's mind. It flashed
back upon him quite suddenly now, and he felt that he had been unduly
neglectful of these nice simple-hearted Gilberts, in whom his dear good
Raymond was so much interested.

"I dare say you are fond of pictures?" he said, interrogatively.

"Oh yes, I am very, very fond of them."

This was quite true. She was fond of everything that was
beautiful,--ready to admire everything with ignorant childish
enthusiasm,--pictures, and flowers, and fountains, and moonlit
landscapes, and wonderful foreign cities, and everything upon this earth
that was romantic, and different from her own life.

"Then will you ask Mr. Gilbert to accept an unceremonious invitation,
and to bring you to the Priory to luncheon,--say next Tuesday, as that
will give me time to invite my cousin Gwendoline, and your old friend
Mr. Raymond, and the two little girls who are so fond of you?"

Isabel murmured something to the effect that she would be very happy,
and she was sure her husband would be very happy. She thought that no
creature in the world could be otherwise than enraptured by such an
invitation: and then she began to think of what she would wear, and to
remember that there were greasy streaks and patches upon her brown silk
wedding-dress, which was the best and richest garment her wardrobe
contained. Oh, if George would only give her a pale pearly-coloured silk
that she had seen in a shop-window at Murlington, and a black silk
mantle, and white bonnet, and pearly gloves and boots and parasol to
match the dress! There were people in the world rich enough to have all
these things, she thought,--thrice-blessed creatures, who always walked
in silk attire.

Mr. Lansdell begged her to write him a line to say if Tuesday would suit
Mr. Gilbert. They were at the last gate by this time, and he lifted his
hat with one hand while he held out the other to Isabel. She touched it
very lightly, with fingers that trembled a little at the thrilling
contact. Her gloves were rolled up in a little ball in her pocket. She
was at an age when gloves are rather a nuisance than otherwise; it is
only when women come to years of discretion that they are learned as to
the conflicting merits of Houbigant and Piver.

"Good-bye. I shall see Gwendoline this afternoon; and I shall rely upon
you for Tuesday. Hi, Frollo, Quasimodo, Caspar!"

He was gone, with his dogs and a cloud of dust about his heels. Even the
dust imparted a kind of grandeur to him. He seemed a being who appeared
and disappeared in a cloud, after the manner of some African genii.

Graybridge church clock chimed the half-hour after four, and Mrs.
Gilbert hurried home, and went into the common parlour, where dinner was
laid, with her face a little flushed, and her dress dusty. George was
there already, whistling very loudly, and whittling a stick with a big
knobby-handled clasp-knife.

"Why, Izzie," he said, "what _have_ you been doing with yourself?"

"_Oh_, George!" exclaimed Mrs. Gilbert, in a tone of mingled triumph and
rapture, "I have met Mr. Lansdell, and he was so polite, and he stopped
and talked to me _ever_ so long; and we're to go there on Tuesday, and
Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey is to be there to meet us,--only think of
that!"

"Where?" cried George.

"Why, at Mordred Priory, of course. We're to go to luncheon: and, oh,
George, remember you must _never_ call it 'lunch.' And I'm to write and
say if you'll go; but of _course_ you will go, George."

"Humph!" muttered Mr. Gilbert, reflectively; "Tuesday's an awkward day,
rather. But still, as you say, Izzie, it's a splendid connection, and a
man oughtn't to throw away such a chance of extending his practice. Yes,
I think I'll manage it, my dear. You may write to say we'll go."

And this was all; no rapture, no spark of enthusiasm. To tell the truth,
the surgeon was hungry, and wanted his dinner. It came in presently,
smelling very savoury,--but, oh, so vulgar! It was Irish stew,--a
horrible, plebeian dinner, such as Hibernian labourers might devour
after a day's bricklaying. Isabel ate very little, and picked out all
the bits of onion and put them aside on her plate. Come what might, she
would never, never eat onions again. _That_ degradation, at least, it
was in her own power to avoid.

After dinner, while George was busy in the surgery, Mrs. Gilbert set to
work to compose her letter to Mr. Lansdell. She was to write to him--to
him! It was to be only a ceremonious letter, very brief and commonplace:
"Mr. and Mrs. Gilbert present their compliments to Mr. Lansdell, and
will be happy to," &c, &c. But even such a letter as this was a critical
composition. In that sublime region in which Mr. Lansdell lived, there
might be certain words and phrases that were indispensable,--there might
be some arbitrary mode of expression, not to know which would argue
yourself unknown. Isabel looked into "Dombey," but there was no help for
her there. She would have been very glad if she could have found "Mrs.
Grainger presents her compliments to Mr. Dombey," or "Miss F. Dombey has
the pleasure to inform Mr. Gay--" or something of that kind, anywhere
amongst those familiar pages. However, she was obliged to write her
letter as best she might, on a sheet of paper that was very thick and
slippery, and strongly impregnated with patchouli; and she sealed the
envelope with a profile of Lord Byron imprinted upon white wax, the only
stick that was to be had in Graybridge, and to find which good-natured
Mr. Jeffson scoured the town, while Isabel was writing her letter.

              _Roland Lansdell, Esqre.,_
                            _Mordred Priory._

To write such an address was in itself a pleasure. It was dark by the
time Mrs. Gilbert had finished her letter, and then she began to think
of her dress,--her dress for Tuesday,--the Tuesday which was henceforth
to stand out from amongst all the other days in her life.

Would George give her a new silk dress? No; that was impossible. He
would give her a sovereign, and she might "do up" the old one. She was
fain to be content and thankful for so much; and she went up-stairs with
a candle, and came down presently with two or three dresses on her arm.
Among them there was a white muslin, a good deal the worse for wear, but
prettier than the silk; a soft transparent fabric, and with lace about
it. Mrs. Gilbert determined upon wearing this dress; and early the next
morning she went out and consulted with a little dressmaker, and brought
the young woman home with her, and sat down with her in the sunny
parlour to unpick and refashion and improve this white muslin robe. She
told the dressmaker that she was going on a visit to Mordred Priory, and
by nightfall almost everybody in Graybridge knew that Mr. and Mrs.
Gilbert had received an invitation from Mr. Lansdell.



CHAPTER XV.

ROLAND SAYS, "AMEN."


Isabel had met Mr. Lansdell on Thursday; and by Saturday night all her
preparations were made, and the white dress, and a white muslin mantle
to match it, were in the hands of Mrs. Jeffson, who was to get them up
in the highest style of clear-starching. The sovereign had done a great
deal. Isabel had bought a new riband for her straw hat and a pair of
pale straw-coloured gloves, and all manner of small matters necessary to
the female toilet upon gala occasions. And now that everything was done,
the time between Saturday night and Tuesday lay all before them,--a
dreary blank, that must be endured somehow or other. I should be ashamed
to say how very little of the Rector's sermon Isabel heard on Sunday
morning. She was thinking of Mordred Priory all the time she was in
church, and the beautiful things that Mr. Lansdell would say to her, and
the replies that she would make. She imagined it all, as was her habit
to do.

And on this summer Sunday, this blessed day of quiet and repose, when
there was no sound of the sickle in the corn-fields, and only the slow
drip, drip, drip of the waterdrops from the motionless mill-wheel at
Thurston's Crag, Roland Lansdell lounged all day in the library at
Mordred Priory, reading a little, writing a little, smoking and
pondering a great deal. What should he do with himself? That was the
grand question which this young man found himself very often called upon
to decide. He would stop at Mordred till he was tired of Mordred, and
then he would go to Paris; and when he was weary of that brilliant city,
whose best delights familiarity had rendered indifferent to him, he
would go Rhine-ward, over all the old ground again, amongst all the old
people. Ten years is a very long time when you have fifteen thousand a
year and nothing particular to do with yourself or your money. Roland
Lansdell had used up all the delights of civilized Europe; and the
pleasures that seemed so freshly effervescent to other men were to him
as champagne that has grown flat and vapid in the unemptied glasses on a
deserted banquet-table.

He sat to-day in the great window of the library--a deeply-embayed Tudor
window, jutting out upon a broad stone terrace, along whose balustrade a
peacock stalked slowly in the sunshine. There were books on either side
of the window; solid ranges of soberly-bound volumes, that reached from
floor to ceiling on every side of the room; for the Lansdells had been a
studious and book-learned race time out of mind, and the library at
Mordred was worthy of its name.

There was only one picture--a portrait by Rembrandt, framed in a massive
border of carved oak--above the high chimney-piece; a grave grand face,
with solemn eyes that followed you wherever you went; a splendid earnest
face, with the forehead mysteriously shadowed by the broad brim of a
steeple-crowned hat.

In the dark melancholy of that sombre countenance there was some vague
resemblance to the face of the young man lounging in the sunny window
this afternoon, smoking and pondering, and looking up now and then to
call to the peacock on the balustrade.

Beyond that balustrade there was a fair domain, bounded far away by a
battlemented wall; a lofty ivy-mantled wall, propped every here and
there with mighty buttresses; a wall that had been built in the days
when William of Normandy enriched his faithful followers with the
fairest lands of his newly-conquered realm. Beyond that grand old
boundary arose the square turret of the village church, coeval with the
oldest part of Mordred Priory. The bells were swinging in the turret
now, and the sound of them floated towards Roland Lansdell as he lounged
in the open window.

"Only thirty years of age," he thought; "and how long it seems since I
sat on my mother's knee in the shadowy, sleepy old pew yonder, and heard
the vicar's voice humming under the sounding-board above our heads!
Thirty years-thirty profitless, tiresome years; and there is not a
reaper in the fields, or a shock-headed country lad that earns sixpence
a day by whooping to the birds amongst the corn, that is not of more use
to his fellow-creatures than I am. I suppose though, at the worst, I'm
good for trade. And I try my best not to do any harm--Heaven knows I
don't want to do any harm."

It must have been a strange transition of ideas that at this moment led
Mr. Lansdell to think of that chance meeting with the doctor's dark-eyed
wife under the dense foliage of Lord Thurston's oak.

"She's a pretty creature," he thought; "a pretty, inexperienced, shy
little creature. Just the sort of woman that a hardened profligate or a
roué would try to pervert and entangle. There's something really
bewitching in all that enthusiastic talk about Byron and Shelley. 'What
a pity he was drowned!' and 'Oh, if he had only fought for Greece, and
been victorious, like Leonidas, you know,'--poor little thing! I wonder
how much she knows about Leonidas?--'how splendid that would have been!
but, oh, to think that he should have a fever--a fever just such as
kills common people--and die, just when he had proved himself so great
and noble!' It's the newest thing to find all these silly school-girl
fancies confusing the brain of a woman who ought to be the most
practical person in Graybridge,--a parish surgeon's wife, who should
not, according to the fitness of things, have an idea above coarse
charity flannels and camomile-tea and gruel. How she will open her eyes
when she sees this room; and all the books in it! Poor little thing I
shall never forget what a pretty picture she made sitting under the oak,
with the greenish grey of the great knotted trunk behind her, and the
blue water in the foreground."

And then Mr. Lansdell's ideas, which seemed especially irrelevant this
afternoon, broke off abruptly. "I hope I may never do any harm," he
thought. "I am not a good man or a useful man; but I don't think I have
ever done much harm."

He lit another cigar, and strolled out upon the terrace, and from the
terrace to the great quadrangular stable-yard. Upon one side of the
quadrangle there was a cool arched way that had once been a cloister;
and I regret to say that the stone cells in which the monks of Mordred
had once spent their slow quiet days and meditative nights now did duty
as loose-boxes for Mr. Lansdell's hunters. Openings had been knocked
through the dividing walls; for horses are more socially-disposed
creatures than monks, and are apt to pine and sicken if entirely
deprived of companionship with their kind. Roland went into three or
four of the boxes, and looked at the horses, and sighed for the time
when the hunting season should commence and Midlandshire might be
tolerable.

"I want occupation," he thought, "physical wear and tear, and all that
sort of thing. I let my mind run upon all manner of absurd things for
want of occupation."

He yawned and threw away his cigar, and strode across the yard towards
the open window of a harness-room, at which a man was sitting in his
shirt-sleeves, and with a Sunday paper before him.

"You may bring the Diver round in half-an-hour, Christie," said Mr.
Lansdell; "I shall ride over to Conventford this afternoon."

"Yes, sir."

Roland Lansdell did ride to Conventford; galloping his hardest into
Waverly, to the scandal of the sober townspeople, who looked up from
their tea-tables half-scared at the sound of the clattering hoofs upon
the uneven pavement; and then dawdling at a foot-pace all along the
avenue which extends in unbroken beauty from Waverly to Conventford. The
streets of this latter town were crowded with gaily-dressed
factory-girls, and the bells from three separate spires were clanging
loudly in the summer air. Mr. Lansdell rode very slowly, thinking of
"all manner of absurd things" as he went along; and he entered Mr.
Raymond's pretty drawing-room at Oakbank just in time to catch that
gentleman drinking tea with the orphans.

Of course Roland had forgotten that his friend dined at an early hour on
Sundays, and he had come to dine; but it wasn't of the least
consequence, he would have some tea; yes, and cold beef, by all means,
if there was cold beef.

A side-table was laid for him, and a great sirloin was brought in. But
Mr. Lansdell did not make much havoc with the joint. He and Mr. Raymond
had a good deal to say to each other: and Mr. Lansdell took very kindly
to the orphans, and asked them a good many questions about their studies
and their present governess, who was a native of Conventford, and had
gone out that evening to drink tea with her friends: and then, somehow
or other, the conversation rambled on to their late governess, Isabel
Sleaford, and the orphans had a great deal to say about her. She was so
nice, and she told them such pretty things: "Eugene Aram" and the
"Giaour"--how wicked Black Hassan was to tie his poor "sister" up in a
sack and drown her, because he didn't wish her to marry the Giaour! Miss
Sleaford had modified the romantic story in deference to the tender ages
of her pupils. Yes, the young ladies said, they loved Miss Sleaford
_dearly_. She was _so nice_; and sometimes, at night, when they begged
her very, very hard, she would ACT (the orphans uttered this last word
in an awfully distinct whisper); and, oh, that was beautiful! She would
do Hamlet and the Ghost: when she stood one way, with a black cloak over
her shoulder, she was Hamlet; when she stood the other way, with a
mahogany ruler in her hand, she was the Ghost. And she acted the Ghost
so beautifully, that sometimes they were frightened, and wouldn't go
outside the schoolroom-door without a candle, and somebody's hand to
hold--tight.

And then Mr. Raymond laughed, and told Roland what he thought of Isabel,
phrenologically and otherwise.

"Poor little thing! I think there must be something sad about the story
of her early life," he said; "for she so evidently shrinks from all
allusion to it. It's the old story, I suppose,--an unkind step-mother
and an uncomfortable home. Under these circumstances, I was very glad to
see her married to a well-disposed, honest-hearted young man."

"She was very fond of Mr. Gilbert, I suppose,--very much in love with
him?" said Roland, after a little pause.

"In love with him! not a bit of it. She was very fond of him, I dare
say--not in the sentimental manner in which she discourses about her
poets and her heroes; but she has every reason to be fond of him as a
faithful protector and a good friend."

Mr. Raymond looked up suddenly, and fixed his eyes upon the face of his
young kinsman. But it was dusk by this time; and in the dim light of the
room Charles Raymond could not see the expression of Roland's face; he
could only see the attitude of his head, which drooped a little forward,
supported by his hand.

"I lent my voice to the bringing about of Isabel Gilbert's marriage,"
Mr. Raymond said, slowly; "and God grant that no man may ever be base
enough or cruel enough to interpose himself between these two!"

"Amen!" answered Roland Lansdell, in a deep solemn voice.

And then he walked to the window and looked out into the twilit garden,
above which the faint summer moon had newly arisen.

"If I could have believed in that splendid fable of a future life, that
grand compensating balance for all the sorrows and mistakes of this
lower world, what a good man I might have been!" he thought, as he stood
there looking out, with his arm resting upon the broad wooden sash, and
his head upon his arm.



CHAPTER XVI.

MR. LANSDELL RELATES AN ADVENTURE.


The Tuesday was a fine day. The August sunshine--the beautiful
harvest-time sunshine which was rejoicing the hearts of all the farmers
in Midlandshire--awoke Mrs. Gilbert very early. She was going to Mordred
Priory. For once she forgot to notice the ugliness of the shabby
furniture, the bare whitewashed walls upon which her eyes opened. She
was going to Mordred Priory. There are moments in our lives in which all
the great expanse of the past and future seems as nothing compared with
the consummate felicity of the present. It was very early; but not too
early for her to get up, Mrs. Gilbert thought. She seated herself before
the little glass at the open window, and brushed her long black hair;
while the birds twittered and shook themselves in the sunshine, and the
faint lowing of cattle came like a long drowsy murmur from the distant
fields.

The surgeon and his wife had held solemn conference with each other as
to the hour at which they ought to arrive at Mordred Priory. Luncheon
might be eaten at any time from one until three. Mr. Gilbert said; and
it was decided, therefore, that they should present themselves at the
gates of the Priory a short time before one o'clock.

How pretty the village of Mordred looked in the sleepy August
atmosphere, the hazy, Cuyp-like sunshine! How beautiful everything
looked just at the entrance to the village, where there was a long
straggling inn with a top-heavy roof, all dotted over with impossible
little windows, a dear old red-tiled roof, with pouters and fantails
brooding and cooing to themselves in the sunshine, and yellow stonecrop
creeping here and there in patches of gold! To the right of the inn a
shady road led away below the walls of the Priory to the square-turreted
church; and, grander than the church itself, the lofty gates of Mordred
dominated over all.

Isabel almost trembled as Mr. Gilbert got out of the gig and pulled the
iron ring that hung at the end of a long chain on one side of those
formidable oaken gates. It seemed like ringing at the door of the Past,
somehow; and the Doctor's Wife half expected to see quaintly-costumed
servants, with long points to their shoes and strange parti-coloured
garments, and a jester with a cap and bells, when those great gates were
opened. But the person who opened the gates was only a very harmless old
woman, who inhabited some stony chambers on one side of the ponderous
archway. George drove slowly under that splendid Norman gateway, and
Isabel looked with a shiver at the portcullis and the great rusty chains
high above her head. If it should fall some day upon Mr. Lansdell, as he
was riding out of his grand domain! Her mind was like a voluminous
picture-book, full of romantic incidents and dreadful catastrophes; and
she was always imagining such events as these. Brown Molly jogged slowly
along the winding drive,--oh, the beautiful shrubberies, and banks of
verdure, and dark shining foliage, and spreading cedars, making solemn
shadows yonder on the lawn, and peeps of glistening water in the
distance; how beautiful! how beautiful!--and stopped before a Gothic
porch, a grey old ivy-covered porch, beneath which there was an open
doorway that revealed a hall with armour on the walls, and helmed
classic heads of white marble on black marble pedestals, and skins of
savage beasts upon dark oak floors. Isabel had only caught a brief
glimpse of the dusky splendour of this interior, when a groom appeared
from behind a distant angle of the house and ran forward to take George
Gilbert's horse; and in the next moment Mr. Lansdell came out of the
porch, and bade his visitors welcome to Mordred.

"I am so glad to see you! What a lovely morning, is it not? I'm afraid
you must have found the roads rather dusty, though. Take care of Mr.
Gilbert's horse, Christie; you'd better put him into one of the
loose-boxes. You see my dogs know you, Mrs. Gilbert." A liver-coloured
pointer and a great black retriever were taking friendly notice of
Isabel. "Will you come and see my pictures at once? I expect Gwendoline
and her father, and your friend Mr. Raymond, and the children,
presently."

There was no special brilliancy or eloquence in all this, but it sounded
different from other people's talk, somehow. The languid, lingering
tones were very cordial in spite of their languor; and then how splendid
the speaker looked in his loose black velvet morning coat, which
harmonized so exquisitely with the Rembrandt hues of his complexion!
There was a waxen-looking hothouse flower in his button-hole, and across
that inspiration of a West-end tailor, his waistcoat, there glimmered a
slender chain of very yellow gold, with onyx cameos and antique golden
coins hanging to it,--altogether different from the clumsy yellow
lockets and fusee-boxes which dangled on the padded chests of the
officers at Conventford, whom Isabel had until lately so implicitly
believed in.

Mr. Lansdell led the way into a room, beyond which there were other
rooms opening one into the other in a long vista of splendour and
sunshine. Isabel had only a very faint idea of what she saw in those
beautiful rooms. It was all a confusion of brightness and colour, which
was almost too much for her poor sentimental brain. It was all a
splendid chaos, in which antique oak cabinets, and buhl and marqueterie,
and carved ebony chairs, and filagree-work and ivory, old Chelsea,
Battersea, Copenhagen, Vienna, Dresden, Sèvres, Derby, and Salopian
china, Majolica and Palissy ware, pictures and painted windows, revolved
like the figures in a kaleidoscope before her dazzled eyes. Mr. Lansdell
was very kind, and explained the nature of some of these beautiful
things as he loitered here and there with his guests. George walked
softly, with his hat in his hand, as if he had been in church, and
stared with equal reverence at everything. He was pleased with a
Vandevilde, because the sea was so nice and green, and the rigging so
neatly made out; and he stopped a minute before a Fyt to admire the
whiskers of a hare; and he thought that a plump-shouldered divinity by
Greuze, with melting blue eyes and a grey satin gown, was rather a fine
young woman; but he did not particularly admire the Murillos or the
Spagnolettis, and thought that the models who sat to those two masters
would have done better had they washed their faces and combed their hair
before doing so.

Mr. Gilbert was not enthusiastic about the pictures; but Isabel's eyes
wandered here and there in a rapture of admiration, and by-and-by those
great dark eyes filled with tears before the gem of Mr. Lansdell's
collection, a Raffaelle, a picture of the Man of Sorrows half fainting
under the cruel burden of His cross, sublime in resignation, unspeakably
sorrowful and tender; an exquisite half-length figure, sharply defined
against a vivid blue sky. "My father believed in that picture," said Mr.
Lansdell; "but connoisseurs shrug their shoulders and tell me that it
never stood upon the easel of Raffaelle d'Urbino."

"But it is so beautiful," Isabel answered in a low, awe stricken voice.
She had been very inattentive to the Rector's sermon on the previous
Sunday, but her heart filled with tender devotion as she looked at this
picture. "Does it matter much who painted it, if it is only beautiful?"

And then Mr. Lansdell began to explain in what manner the picture
differed from the best-authenticated productions of the prince of
painters; but in the middle of his little lecture Mr. Raymond and the
orphans came trooping through the rooms, and the conversation became
general. Soon after this Lady Gwendoline and her father made their
appearance, and then a very neatly-dressed maid conducted the ladies to
a dressing-room that had once belonged to Roland's mother, where the
window-curtains were sea-green silk, and the looking-glass was framed in
Sèvres-biscuit, and where there were ivory-backed brushes, and
glittering bottles of rich yellow-looking perfume in a casket of gold
and enamel.

Isabel took off her bonnet, and smoothed her hair with one of the
brushes, and remembered her dressing-table at home, and a broken black
brush of George's with all the unprotected wires sticking out at the
back. She thought of the drawer in the looking-glass, with a few bent
hair-pins, and her husband's razors with coloured bone handles, and a
flat empty bottle that had once held lavender-water, all jostling one
another when the drawer was pulled open. Mrs. Gilbert thought of these
things while Lady Gwendoline removed her bonnet--another marvellous
bonnet--and drew off the tightest coffee-with-plenty-of-milk-in-it-coloured
gloves, and revealed long white hands, luminous with opals and diamonds.
The Doctor's Wife had time to contemplate Lady Gwendoline's silk
dress--that exquisitely-fitting dress, whose soft golden brown was only
a little darker than the lady's hair; and the tiny embroidered collar,
fitting closely to the long slender throat, and clasped by one big
turquoise in a wide rim of lustreless gold, and the turquoise earrings
just peeping out under rich bands of auburn hair, Mrs. Gilbert admired
all these things, and she saw that Lady Gwendoline's face, which was so
handsome in profile, was just a little faded and wan when you had a full
view of it.

The orphans took the gold tops off the bottles one by one, and sniffed
energetically at the different perfumes, and disputed in whispers as to
which was nicest. Lady Gwendoline talked very kindly to Mrs. Gilbert.
She did not at all relish being asked to meet the Doctor's Wife, and she
was angry with her cousin for noticing these people; but she was too
well bred to be otherwise than kind to Roland's visitor.

They all went down-stairs presently, and were ushered into an
oak-paneled room, where there was an oval table laid for luncheon, and
where Isabel found herself seated presently on Mr. Lansdell's right
hand, and opposite to Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey.

This was life. There was a Lance-like group of hothouse grapes and
peaches, crowned with a pine-apple, in a high Dresden basket in the
centre of the table. Isabel had never been in company with a pine-apple
until to-day. There were flowers upon the table, and a faint odour of
orange blossoms and apricots pervaded the atmosphere. There were starry
white glasses, so fragile-looking that it seemed as if a breath would
have blown them away; cup-shaped glasses, broad shallow glasses like
water-lily leaves, glasses of the palest green, and here and there a
glimpse of ruby glass flashing in the sunshine Mrs. Gilbert had a very
vague idea of the nature of the viands which were served to her at that
wonderful feast. Somebody dropped a lump of ice into the shallow glass,
and filled it afterwards with a yellow bubbling wine, which had a faint
flavour of jargonelle pears, and which some one said was Moselle. Mr.
Lansdell put some white creamy compound on her plate, which might or
might not have been chicken: and one of the servants brought her an
edifice of airy pastry, filled with some mysterious concoction in which
there were little black lumps. She took a spoonful of the concoction,
seeing that other people had done so; but she was very doubtful about
the little black lumps, which she conjectured to be a mistake of the
cook's. And then some one brought her an ice, a real ice,--just as if
Mordred Priory had been a perpetual pastrycook's shop,--a pink ice in
the shape of a pear, which she ate with a pointed gold spoon; and then
the pine-apple was cut, and she had a slice of it, and was rather
disappointed in it, as hardly realizing the promise of its appearance.

But all the dishes in that banquet were of "such stuff as dreams are
made of." So may have tasted the dew-berries which Titania's attendants
gave to Bottom. To Isabel there was a dream-like flavour in everything.
Was not _he_ by her side, talking to her every now and then? The
subjects of which he spoke were commonplace enough, certainly, and he
talked to other people as well as to her. He talked about the plans of
the Cabinet and the hunting season to Lord Ruysdale, and he talked of
books and pictures with Mr. Raymond and Lady Gwendoline, and of parish
matters with George Gilbert. He seemed to know all about everything in
the world, Isabel thought. She could not say much. _How_ to admire was
all the art she knew. As to the orphans, those young ladies sat side by
side, and nudged each other when the sacrificial knife was plunged into
any fresh viand, and discoursed together every now and then in rapturous
whispers. No part of the banquet came amiss to these young persons, from
rout-cakes and preserved ginger to lobster-salad or the wall of a
fricandeau.

It was four o'clock by the time the pine-apple had been cut, and the
banquet concluded. The oak-painted room was lighted by one window--a
great square window--which almost filled one side of the room; a
splendid window, out of which you could walk into a square garden--an
old-fashioned garden--divided from the rest of the grounds by cropped
hedges of dense box; wonderful boundaries, that had taken a century or
two to grow. The bees were humming in this garden all luncheon-time, and
yellow butterflies shot backwards and forwards in the sunshine: tall
hollyhocks flowered gorgeously in the prim beds, and threw straight
shadows on the grass.

"Shall we go into the garden?" said Lady Gwendoline, as they rose from
the table, and everybody assented: so presently Isabel found herself
amidst a little group upon the miniature lawn, in the centre of which
there was a broad marble basin, filled with gold fish, and a feeble
little fountain, that made a faint tinkling sound in the still August
atmosphere.

Mr. Raymond and Roland Lansdell both having plenty to say for
themselves, and Lord Ruysdale and Lady Gwendoline being able to
discourse pleasantly upon any possible subject, there had been no lack
of animated conversation, though neither the doctor nor his wife had
done much to keep the ball rolling.

Mr. Lansdell and his guests had been talking of all manner of things;
flying off at tangents to all kinds of unlikely subjects; till they had
come, somehow or other, to discuss the question of length of days.

"I can't say that I consider long life an inestimable blessing," said
Roland, who was amusing himself with throwing minute morsels of a
macaroon to the gold fish. "They're not so interesting as Sterne's
donkey, are they, Mrs. Gilbert? No, I do _not_ consider long life an
advantage, unless one can be 'warm and young' for ever, like our dear
Raymond. Perhaps I am only depreciating the fruit because it hangs out
of my reach, though; for everybody knows that the Lansdells never live
to be old."

Isabel's heart gave a bump as Roland said this, and involuntarily she
looked at him with just one sudden startled glance. Of course he would
die young; Beings always have so died, and always must. A thrill of pain
shot through her breast as she thought of this; yet I doubt if she would
have had it otherwise. It would be almost better that he should break a
blood-vessel, or catch a fever, or commit suicide, than that he should
ever live to have grey hair, and wear spectacles and double-soled boots.

Brief as that sudden look of alarm had been, Roland had seen it, and
paused for a moment before he went on talking.

"No; we are not a long-lived race. We have been consumptive; and we have
had our heads cut off in the good old days, when to make a confidential
remark to a friend was very often leze majesty, or high treason; and we
have been killed in battle,--at Flodden, to wit, and at Fontenoy, and in
the Peninsula; and one of us was shot through the lungs in an Irish
duel, on the open sward of the 'Phaynix.' In short, I almost fancy some
fearful ban must have been set upon us in the Dark Ages, when one of our
progenitors, a wicked prior of Mordred, who had been a soldier and a
renegade before he crept into the bosom of the Church, appropriated some
of the sanctified plate to make a dowry for his handsome daughter, who
married Sir Anthony Lansdell, knight, and thus became the mother of our
race; and we are evidently a doomed race, for very few of us have ever
lived to see a fortieth birthday."

"And how is your doom to be brought about, Roland?" asked Lady
Gwendoline.

"Oh, _that's_ all settled," Mr. Lansdell answered. "I know my destiny."

"It has been predicted to you?"

"Yes."

"How very interesting!" exclaimed the lady, with a pretty silvery laugh.
Isabel's eyes opened wider and wider, and fixed themselves on Roland
Lansdell's face.

"Pray tell us all about it," continued Lady Gwendoline. "We won't
promise to be very much frightened, because the accessories are not
quite the thing for a ghost story. If it were midnight now, and we were
sitting in the oak room, with the lights burning low, and the shadows
trembling on the wall, you might do what you liked with our nerves. And
yet I really don't know that a ghost might not be more awful in the
broad sunshine--a ghost that would stalk across the grass, and then fade
slowly, till it melted into the water-drops of the fountain. Come,
Roland, you must tell us all about the prediction; was it made by a
pretty girl with a dove on her wrist, like the phantom that appeared to
Lord Lyttleton? Shall we have to put back the clock for an hour, in
order to foil the designs of your impalpable foe? Or was it a black cat,
or a gentleman usher, or a skeleton; or all three?"

"I dare say it was an abnormal state of the organs of form and colour,"
said Mr. Raymond. "That's the foundation of all ghost stories."

"But it isn't by any means a ghost story," answered Roland Lansdell.
"The gentleman who predicted my early death was the very reverse of a
phantom; and the region of the prediction was a place which has never
yet been invested with any supernatural horrors. Amongst all the legends
of the Old Bailey, I never heard of any ghostly record."

"The Old Bailey!" exclaimed Lady Gwendoline.

"Yes. The affair was quite an adventure, and the only adventure I ever
had in my life."

"Pray tell us the story."

"But it's rather a long one, and not particularly interesting."

"I insist upon hearing it," said Mr. Raymond; "you've stimulated our
organs of wonder, and you're bound to restore our brains to their normal
state by satisfying our curiosity."

"Most decidedly," exclaimed Lady Gwendoline, seating herself upon a
rustic bench, with the shining folds of her silk dress spread round her
like the plumage of some beautiful bird, and a tiny fringed parasol
sloping a little backward from her head, and throwing all manner of
tremulous pinky shadows upon her animated face.

She was very handsome when she was animated; it was only when her face
was in repose that you saw how much her beauty had faded since the
picture with the high forehead and the long curls was first exhibited to
an admiring public. It may be that Lady Gwendoline knew this, and was on
that, account rather inclined to be animated about trifles.

"Well, I'll tell you the story, if you like," said Roland, "but I warn
you that there's not much in it. I don't suppose you--any of you--take
much interest in criminal cases; but this one made rather a sensation at
the time."

"A criminal case?"

"Yes. I was in town on business a year or two ago. I'd come over from
Switzerland to renew some leases, and look into a whole batch of
tiresome business matters, which my lawyer insisted upon my attending to
in my own proper person, very much to my annoyance. While I was in
London I dropped into the United Joint-Stock Bank, Temple-Bar Branch, to
get circular notes and letters of credit upon their correspondent at
Constantinople, and so on. I was not in the office more than five
minutes. But while I was talking to one of the clerks at the counter, a
man came in, and stood close at my elbow while he handed in a cheque for
eighty-seven pounds ten, or some such amount--I know it came very close
upon the hundred--received the money, and went out. He looked like a
groom out of livery. I left the bank almost immediately after him, and
as he turned into a little alley leading down to the Temple. I followed
a few paces behind him, for I had business in Paper Buildings. At the
bottom of the alley my friend the groom was met by a big black-whiskered
man, who seemed to have been waiting for him, for he caught him suddenly
by the arm, and said, 'Well, did they do it?' 'Yes,' the other man
answered, and began fumbling in his waistcoat-pocket, making a chinking
sound as he did so. I had seen him put his money, which he took in notes
and gold, into this waistcoat-pocket. 'You needn't have pounced upon me
so precious sharp,' he said, rather sulkily; 'I wasn't going to bolt
with it, was I?' The black-whiskered man had seen me by this time, and
he muttered something to his companion, which evidently meant that he
was to hold his tongue, and then dragged him off without further
ceremony in the opposite direction to that in which I was going. This
was all I saw of the groom or the black-whiskered gentleman on that
occasion. I thought their method of cashing a cheque was rather a queer
one; but I thought no more about it, until three weeks afterwards, when
I went into the Temple-Bar Office of the United Joint-Stock again to
complete my Continental arrangements, and was told that the cheque for
eighty-seven pounds ten, more or less, which had been cashed in my
presence, was a forgery; one of a series of most audacious frauds,
perpetrated by a gang whose plans had only just come to light, and none
of whom had yet been arrested. 'They've managed to keep themselves dark
in the most extraordinary manner,' the clerk told me; 'the cheques are
supposed to have been all fabricated by one man, but three or four men
have been employed to get hold of the original signatures of our
customers, which they have obtained by a complicated system. No two
cheques have been presented by the same person,--that's the point that
has beaten the detectives; they don't know what sort of men to look
for.' 'Don't they?' said I; 'then I think I can assist them in the
matter.' Whereupon I told my little story of the black-whiskered
gentleman."

Mr. Lansdell paused to take breath, and stole a glance at Isabel. She
was pale always,--but she was very pale now, and was watching him with
an eager breathless expression.

"Silly romantic little thing," he thought, "to be so intensely absorbed
in my story."

"You're getting interesting, Roland," said Lady Gwendoline. "Pray, go
on."

"The upshot of the matter was, that at eight o'clock that evening a
grave little gentleman in a pepper-and-salt waistcoat came to me at
Mivart's, and cross-questioned me closely as to what I knew of the man
who had cashed the cheque. 'You think you could recognize this man with
the black whiskers?' he said. 'Yes; most decidedly I could.' 'And you'll
swear to him, if necessary?' 'With pleasure.' On this the detective
departed, and came to me the next day, to tell me that he fancied he was
on the track of the man he warded, but he was at a loss for means of
identification. He knew, or thought that he knew, who the man was; but
he didn't know the man himself from Adam. The gang had taken fright, and
it was believed that they had all started for Liverpool, with the
intention of getting off to America by a vessel that was expected to
sail at eight o'clock the following morning. The detective had only just
got his information, and he came to me for help. The result of the
business was, that I put on my great-coat, sent for a cab, and started
for Euston Square with my friend the detective, with a view to
identifying the black-whiskered gentleman. It was the first adventure I
had ever had in my life, and I assure you I most heartily enjoyed it.

"Well, we travelled by the mail, got into Liverpool in the dead of the
night, and in the bleak early dawn of the next morning I had the supreme
pleasure of pointing out my black-whiskered acquaintance, just as he was
going to step on board the steamer that was to convey him to the
_Atalanta_ screw-steam-ship, bound for New York. He looked very black at
first; but when he found that my companion was altogether _en règle_, he
went away with him, meekly enough, declaring that it was all a mistake,
and that it would be easily set right in town. I let the two go back
together, and returned by a later train, very well pleased with my
adventure.

"I was not so well pleased, however, when I found that I was wanted as a
witness at preliminary examinations, and adjourned examinations, and on
and off through a trial that lasted four days and a half; to say nothing
of being badgered and browbeaten by Old-Bailey practitioners,--who were
counsel for the prisoner,--and who asked me if it was my friend's
whiskers I recognized, or if I had never seen any other whiskers exactly
like his? if I should know him without his whiskers? whether I could
swear to the colour of his waistcoat? whether any member of my family
had ever been in a lunatic asylum? whether I usually devoted my leisure
time to travelling about with detective officers? whether I had been
plucked at Oxford? whether I should be able to recognize an acquaintance
whom I had only seen once in twenty years? whether I was short-sighted?
could I swear I was not short-sighted? would I be kind enough to read a
verse or so from a diamond edition of the works of Thomas Moore? and so
on. But question me as they would, the prisoner at the bar,--commonly
known as Jack the Scribe, _alias_ Jack the Gentleman, _alias_ ever so
many other names, which I have completely forgotten,--was the identical
person whom I had seen meet the groom at the entrance to the Temple. My
evidence was only a single link in a long chain; but I suppose it was
eminently damaging to my black-whiskered friend; for, when he and two of
his associates had received their sentence--ten years' penal
servitude--he turned towards where I was standing, and said:

"'I don't bear any grudge against the gentlemen of the jury, and I don't
bear any malice against the judge, though his sentence isn't a light
one; but when a languid swell mixes himself up in business that doesn't
concern him, he deserves to get it hot and strong. If ever I come out of
prison alive, I'll _kill you_!'"

"He shook his fist at me as he said it. There wasn't much in the words,
but there was a good deal in the way in which they were spoken. He tried
to say more; but the warders got hold of him and held him down, panting
and gasping, and with his face all of a dull livid white. I saw no more
of him; but if he does _live_ to come out of prison, I most firmly
believe he'll keep his word."

"Izzie," cried George Gilbert suddenly, "what's the matter?"

All the point of Mr. Lansdell's story was lost; for at this moment
Isabel tottered and fell slowly backward upon the sward, and all the
gold fish leaped away in a panic of terror as the doctor dipped his hat
into the marble basin. He splashed the water into his wife's face, and
she opened her eyes at last, very slowly, and looked round her.

"Did he say that----" she said,--"did he say that he'd kill----!"



CHAPTER XVII.

THE FIRST WARNING.


Mrs. Gilbert recovered very quickly from her fainting-fit. She had been
frightened by Mr. Lansdell's story, she said, and the heat had made her
dizzy. She sat very quietly upon a sofa, in the drawing-room, with one
of the orphans on each side of her, while Brown Molly was being
harnessed.

Lady Gwendoline went away with her father, after bidding Mrs. Gilbert
rather a cool good morning. The Earl of Ruysdale's daughter did not
approve of the fainting-fit, which she was pleased to call Mrs.
Gilbert's extraordinary demonstration.

"If she were a single woman, I should fancy she was trying to fascinate
Roland," Lady Gwendoline said to her father, as they drove homewards.
"What can possibly have induced him to invite those people to Mordred?
The man is a clod, and the woman a nonentity; except when she chooses to
make an exhibition of herself by fainting away. That sort of person is
always fainting away, and being knocked down by feathers, and going
unexpectedly into impossible hysterics; and so on."

But if Lady Gwendoline was unkind to the Doctor's Wife, Roland was kind;
dangerously, bewilderingly kind. He was _so_ anxious about Isabel's
health. It was his fault, entirely his fault, that she had fainted. He
had kept her standing under the blazing sun while he told his stupid
story. He should never forgive himself, he said. And he would scarcely
accept George Gilbert's assurance that his wife was all right. He rang
the bell, and ordered strong tea for his visitors. With his own hands he
closed the Venetian shutters, and reduced the light to a cool dusky
glimmer. He begged Mr. Gilbert to allow him to order a close carriage
for his wife's return to Graybridge.

"The gig shall be sent home to you to-night," he said; "I am sure the
air and dust will be too much for Mrs. Gilbert."

But Mr. Raymond hereupon interfered, and said the fresh air was just the
very thing that Isabel wanted, to which opinion the lady herself
subscribed. She did not want to cause trouble, she said: she would not
for all the world have caused _him_ trouble, she thought: so the gig
was brought round presently, and George drove his wife away, under the
Norman archway by which they had entered in the fresh noonday sun. The
young man was in excellent spirits, and declared that he had enjoyed
himself beyond measure--these undemonstrative people always declare that
they enjoy themselves--but Isabel was very silent and subdued; and when
questioned upon the subject, said that she was tired.

Oh, how blank the world seemed after that visit to Mordred Priory! It
was all over. This one supreme draught of bliss had been drained to the
very dregs. It would be November soon, and Roland Lansdell would go
away. He would go before November, perhaps: he would go suddenly,
whenever the fancy seized him. Who can calculate the arrangements of the
Giaour or Sir Reginald Glanville? At any moment, in the dead darkness of
the moonless night, the hero may call for his fiery steed, and only the
thunder of hurrying hoofs upon the hard high-road may bear witness of
his departure.

Mr. Lansdell might leave Mordred at any hour in the long summer day,
Isabel thought, as she stood at the parlour window looking out at the
dusty lane, where Mrs. Jeffson's fowls were pecking up stray grains of
wheat that had been scattered by some passing wain. He might be gone
now,--yes, now, while she stood there thinking of him. Her heart seemed
to stop beating as she remembered this. Why had he ever invited her to
Mordred? Was it not almost cruel to open the door of that paradise just
a little way, only to shut it again when she was half blinded by the
glorious light from within? Would he ever think of her, this grand
creature with the dark pensive eyes, the tender dreamy eyes that were
never the same colour for two consecutive minutes? Was she anything to
him, or was that musical lowering of his voice common to him when he
spoke to women? Again and again, and again and again, she went over all
the shining ground of that day at Mordred; and the flowers, and glass,
and pictures, and painted windows, and hothouse fruit, only made a kind
of variegated background, against which _he_ stood forth paramount and
unapproachable.

She sat and thought of Roland Lansdell, with some scrap of
never-to-be-finished work lying in her lap. It was better than reading.
A crabbed little old woman who kept the only circulating library in
Graybridge noted a falling-off in her best customer about this time. It
was better than reading, to sit through all the length of a hot August
afternoon thinking of Roland Lansdell. What romance had ever been
written that was equal to this story; this perpetual fiction, with a
real hero dominant in every chapter? There was a good deal of repetition
in the book, perhaps; but Isabel was never aware of its monotony.

It was all very wicked of course, and a deep and cruel wrong to the
simple country surgeon, who ate his dinner, and complained of the
underdone condition of the mutton, upon one side of the table, while
Isabel read the inexhaustible volume on the other. It was very wicked;
but Mrs. Gilbert had not yet come to consider the wickedness of her
ways. She was a very good wife, very gentle and obedient; and she
fancied she had a right to furnish the secret chambers of her mind
according to her own pleasure. What did it matter if a strange god
reigned in the temple, so long as the doors were for ever closed upon
his awful beauty; so long as she rendered all due service to her liege
lord and master? He was her lord and master, though his fingers were
square at the tips, and he had an abnormal capacity for the consumption
of spring-onions. Spring-onions! all-the-year-round onions, Isabel
thought; for those obnoxious bulbs seemed always in season at
Graybridge. She was very wicked; and she thought perpetually of Roland
Lansdell, as she had thought of Eugene Aram, and Lara, and Ernest
Maltravers--blue-eyed Ernest Maltravers. The blue-eyed heroes were out
of fashion now, for was not _he_ dark of aspect?

She was very wicked, she was very foolish, very childish. All her life
long she had played with her heroines and heroes, as other children play
with their dolls. Now Edith Dombey was the favourite, and now dark-eyed
Zuleika, kneeling for ever at Selim's feet, with an unheeded flower in
her hand. Left quite to herself through all her idle girlhood, this
foolish child had fed upon three volume novels and sentimental poetry:
and now that she was married and invested with the solemn duties of a
wife, she could not throw off the sweet romantic bondage all at once,
and take to pies and puddings.

So she made no endeavour to banish Mr. Lansdell's image from her mind.
If she had recognized the need of such an effort, she would have made
it, perhaps. But she thought that he would go away, and her life would
drop back to its dead level, and would be "all the same as if he had not
been."

But Mr. Lansdell did not leave Mordred just yet. Only a week after the
never-to-be-forgotten day at the Priory, he came again to Thurston's
Crag, and found Isabel sitting under the oak with her books in her lap.
She started up as he approached her, looking rather frightened, and with
her face flushed and her eyelids drooping. She had not expected him.
Demi-gods do not often drop out of the clouds. It is only once in a way
that Castor and Pollux are seen fighting in a mortal fray. Mrs. Gilbert
sat down again, blushing and trembling; but, oh, so happy, so foolishly,
unutterably happy; and Roland Lansdell seated himself by her side and
began to talk to her.

He did not make the slightest allusion to that unfortunate swoon which
had spoiled the climax of his story. That one subject, which of all
others would have been most embarrassing to the Doctor's Wife, was
scrupulously avoided by Mr. Lansdell. He talked of all manner of things.
He had been a _flâneur_ pure and simple for the last ten years, and was
a consummate master of the art of conversation; so he talked to this
ignorant girl of books, and pictures, and foreign cities, and wonderful
people, living and dead, of whom she had never heard before. He seemed
to know everything, Mrs Gilbert thought. She felt as if she was before
the wonderful gates of a new fairy-land, and Mr. Lansdell had the keys,
and could open them for her at his will, and could lead her through the
dim mysterious pathways into the beautiful region beyond.

Mr. Lansdell asked his companion a good many questions about her life at
Graybridge, and the books she read. He found that her life was a very
idle one, and that she was perpetually reading the same books,--the dear
dilapidated volumes of popular novels that were to be had at every
circulating library. Poor little childish creature, who could wonder at
her foolish sentimentality? Out of pure philanthropy Roland offered to
lend her any of the books in his library.

"If you can manage to stroll this way to-morrow morning, I'll bring you
the 'Life of Robespierre,' and Carlyle's 'French Revolution.' I don't
suppose you'll like Carlyle at first; but he's wonderful when you get
accustomed to his style--like a monster brass-band, you know, that stuns
you at first with its crashing thunder, until, little by little, you
discover the wonderful harmony, and appreciate the beauty of the
instrumentation. Shall I bring you Lamartine's 'Girondists' as well?
That will make a great pile of books, but you need not read them
laboriously; you can pick out the pages you like here and there, and we
can talk about them afterwards."

The French Revolution was one of Isabel's pet oases in the history of
the universe. A wonderful period, in which a quiet country-bred young
woman had only to make her way up to Paris and assassinate a tyrant,
and, lo, she became "a feature" throughout all time. Mr. Lansdell had
discovered this special fancy in his talk with the Doctor's Wife, and he
was pleased to let in the light of positive knowledge on her vague ideas
of the chiefs of the Mountain and the martyrs of the Gironde. Was it not
an act of pure philanthropy to clear some of the sentimental mistiness
out of that pretty little head? Was it not a good work rather than a
harmful one to come now and then to this shadowy resting-place under the
oak, and while away an hour or so with this poor little half-educated
damsel, who had so much need of some sounder instruction than she had
been able to glean, unaided, out of novels and volumes of poetry?

There was no harm in these morning rambles, these meetings, which arose
out of the purest chance. There was no harm whatever: especially as Mr.
Lansdell meant to turn his back upon Midlandshire directly the
partridge-shooting was over.

He told Isabel, indirectly, of this intended departure, presently.

"Yes," he said, "you must ask me for whatever books yon would like to
read: and by-and-by, when I have left Mordred----"

He paused for a moment, involuntarily, for he saw that Isabel gave a
little shiver.

"When I leave Mordred, at the end of October, you must go to the Priory,
and choose the books for yourself. My housekeeper is a very good woman,
and she will be pleased to wait upon you."

So Mrs. Gilbert began quite a new course of reading, and eagerly
devoured the books which Mr. Lansdell brought her; and wrote long
extracts from them, and made profile sketches of the heroes, all looking
from right to left, and all bearing a strong family resemblance to the
master of Mordred Priory. The education of the Doctor's Wife took a
grand stride by this means. She sat for hours together reading in the
little parlour at Graybridge; and George, whose life was a very busy
one, grew to consider her only in her normal state with a book in her
hand, and was in nowise offended when she ate her supper with an open
volume by the side of her plate, or responded vaguely to his simple
talk. Mr. Gilbert was quite satisfied. He had never sought for more than
this: a pretty little wife to smile upon him when he came home, to brush
his hat for him now and then in the passage after breakfast, before he
went out for his day's work, and to walk to church twice every Sunday
hanging upon his arm. If any one had ever said that such a marriage as
this in any way fell short of perfect and entire union, Mr. Gilbert
would have smiled upon that person as on a harmless madman.

Mr. Lansdell met the Doctor's Wife very often: sometimes on the bridge
beside the water-mill; sometimes in the meadow-land which surged in
emerald billows all about Graybridge and Mordred and Warncliffe. He met
her very often. It was no new thing for Isabel to ramble here and there
in that lovely rustic paradise: but it was quite a new thing for Mr.
Lansdell to take such a fancy for pedestrian exercise. The freak could
not last long, though: the feast of St. Partridge the Martyr was close
at hand, and then Mr. Lansdell would have something better to do than to
dawdle away his time in country lanes and meadows, talking to the
Doctor's Wife.

Upon the very eve of that welcome morning which was to set all the guns
in Midlandshire popping at those innocent red-breasted victims, George
Gilbert received a letter from his old friend and comrade, Mr. Sigismund
Smith, who wrote in very high spirits, and with a great many blots.

"I'm coming down to stop a few days with you, dear old boy," he wrote,
"to get the London smoke blown out of my hyacinthines, and to go abroad
in the meadows to see the young lambs--are there any young lambs in
September, by the bye? I want to see what sort of a matron you have made
of Miss Isabel Sleaford. Do you remember that day in the garden when you
first saw her? A palpable case of spoons there and then! K-k-c-k-k! as
Mr. Buckstone remarks when he digs his knuckles into the walking
gentleman's ribs. Does she make puddings, and sew on buttons, and fill
up the holes in your stockings with wonderful trellis-work? She never
would do that sort of thing at Camberwell. I shall give you a week, and
I shall spend another week in the bosom of my family; and I shall bring
a gun, because it looks well in the railway carriage, you know,
especially if it doesn't go off, which I suppose it won't, if it isn't
loaded; though, to my mind, there's always something suspicious about
the look of fire-arms, and I should never be surprised to see them
explode by spontaneous combustion, or something of that kind. I suppose
you've heard of my new three-volume novel--a legitimate three-volume
romance, with all the interest concentrated upon one body,--'The Mystery
of Mowbray Manor,'--pleasant alliteration of M's, eh?--which is taking
the town by storm; that's to say, Camden Town, where I partial board,
and have some opportunity of pushing the book myself by going into all
the circulating libraries I pass, and putting my name down for an early
perusal of the first copy. Of course I never go for the book; but if I
am the means of making any one simple-minded librarian take a copy of
'The M. of M. M.' more than he wants, I feel I have not laboured in
vain."

Mr. Smith arrived at Warncliffe by an early train next morning, and came
on to Graybridge in an omnibus, which was quite spiky with guns. He was
in very high spirits, and talked incessantly to Isabel, who had stayed
at home to receive him; who had stayed at home when there was just a
faint chance that Mr. Lansdell might take his morning walk in the
direction of Lord Thurston's Crag,--only a faint chance, for was it not
the 1st of September; and might not he prefer the slaughter of
partridges to those lazy loiterings under the big oak?

Mrs. Gilbert gave her old friend a very cordial welcome. She was fond of
him, as she might have been of some big brother less objectionable than
the ordinary run of big brothers. He had never seen Mr. Sleaford's
daughter looking so bright and beautiful. A new element had been
introduced into her life. She was happy, unutterably happy, on the
mystical threshold of a new existence. She did not want to be Edith
Dombey any longer. Not for all the ruby-velvet gowns and diamond
coronets in the world would she have sacrificed one accidental half-hour
on the bridge under Lord Thurston's oak.

She sat at the little table smiling and talking gaily, while the author
of "The Mystery of Mowbray Manor" ate about half a quartern of dough
made up into puffy Yorkshire cakes, and new-laid eggs and frizzled bacon
in proportion. Mr. Smith deprecated the rampant state of his appetite
by-and-by, and made a kind of apology for his ravages.

"You see, the worst of going into society is _that_," he remarked
vaguely, "they see one eat; and it's apt to tell against one in three
volumes. It's a great pity that fiction is not compatible with a healthy
appetite; but it isn't; and society is so apt to object to one, if one
doesn't come up to its expectations. You've no idea what a lot of people
have invited me out to tea--ladies, you know--since the publication of
'The Mystery of Mowbray Manor.' I used to go at first. But they
generally said to me, 'Lor', Mr. Smith, you're not a bit like what I
fancied you were! I thought you'd be TALL, and DARK, and
HAUGHTY-LOOKING, like Montague Manderville in 'The Mystery of ---- ',
&c, &c.; and that sort of thing is apt to make a man feel himself an
impostor. And if a writer of fiction can't drink hot tea without
colouring up as if he had just pocketed a silver spoon, and it was his
guilty conscience, why, my idea is, he'd better stay at home. I don't
think any man was ever as good or as bad as his books," continued
Sigismund, reflectively, scraping up a spoonful of that liquid grease
which Mrs. Jeffson tersely entitled "dip." "There's a kind of righteous
indignation, and a frantic desire to do something splendid for his
fellow-creatures, like vaccinating them all over again, or founding a
hospital for everybody, which a man feels when he's writing--especially
late at night, when he's been keeping himself awake--with bitter
ale--that seems to ooze away somehow when his copy has gone to the
printers. And it's pretty much the same with one's scorn and hate and
cynicism. Nobody ever quite comes up to his books. Even Byron, but for
turning down his collars, and walking lame, and dining on biscuits and
soda-water, might have been a social failure. I think there's a good
deal of Horace Walpole's Inspired Idiocy in this world. The morning sun
shines, and the statue is musical; but all the day there is silence; and
at night--in society, I suppose--the sounds are lugubrious. How I do
talk, Izzie, and _you_ don't say anything! But I needn't ask if you're
happy. I never saw you looking so pretty."

Isabel blushed. Was she pretty? Oh, she wanted so much to be pretty!

"And I think George may congratulate himself upon having secured the
dearest little wife in all Midlandshire."

Mrs. Gilbert blushed a deeper red; but the happy smile died away on her
lips. Something, a very vague something as yet, was lurking in what Mr.
Raymond would have called her "inner consciousness;".and she thought,
perhaps, George had not such very great reason for self-gratulation.

"I always do as he tells me,"' she said naïvely; "and he's kinder than
mamma used to be, and doesn't mind my reading at meals. You know how ma
used to go on about it. And I mend his socks--sometimes." She drew open
a drawer, where there were some little bundles of grey woollen stuff,
and balls of worsted with big needles stuck across them. "And, oh,
Sigismund," she exclaimed, rather inconsecutively, "we've been to
Mordred--to Mordred Priory--to a luncheon; quite a grand
luncheon--pine-apple and ices, and nearly half-a-dozen different kinds
of glasses for each person."

She could talk to Sigismund about Mordred and the master of Mordred. He
was not like George, and he would sympathize with her enthusiasm about
that earthly paradise.

"Do you know Mordred?" she asked. She felt a kind of pleasure in calling
the mansion "Mordred," all short, as _he_ called it.

"I know the village of Mordred well enough," Mr. Smith answered, "and I
_ought_ to know the Priory precious well. The last Mr. Lansdell gave my
father a good deal of business; and when Roland Lansdell was being
coached-up in the Classics by a private tutor, I used to go up to the
Priory and read with him. The governor was very glad to get such a
chance for me; but I can't say I intensely appreciated the advantage
myself, on hot summer afternoons, when there was cricketing on
Warncliffe meads."

"You knew him--you knew Mr. Roland Lansdell when he was a boy?" said
Isabel, with a little gasp.

"I certainly did, my dear Izzie; but I don't think there's anything
wonderful in that. You couldn't open your eyes much wider if I'd said
I'd known Eugene Aram when he was a boy. I remember Roland Lansdell,"
continued Mr. Smith, slapping his breakfast-napkin across his dusty
boots, "and a very jolly young fellow he was; a regular young swell,
with a chimney-pot hat and dandy boots, and a gold hunter in his
waistcoat-pocket, and no end of pencil-cases, and cricket-bats, and
drawing-portfolios, and single-sticks, and fishing-tackle. He taught me
fencing," added Sigismund, throwing himself suddenly into a position
that covered one entire side of the little parlour, and making a
postman's knock upon the carpet with the sole of his foot.

"Come, Mrs. Gilbert," he said, presently, "put on your bonnet, and come
out for a walk. I suppose there's no chance of our seeing George till
dinner-time."

Isabel was pleased to go out. All the world seemed astir upon this
bright September morning; and out of doors there was always just a
chance of meeting _him_. She put on her hat, the broad-leaved straw that
cast such soft shadows upon her face, and she took up the big green
parasol, and was ready to accompany her old friend in a minute.

"I don't want the greetings in the market-place," Mr. Smith said, as
they went out into the lane, where it was always very dusty in dry
weather, and very muddy when there was rain. "I know almost everybody in
Graybridge; and there'll be a round of stereotyped questions and answers
to go through as to how I'm getting on 'oop in London.' I can't tell
those people that I earn my bread by writing 'The Demon of the Galleys,'
or 'The Mystery of Mowbray Manor.' Take me for a country walk, Izzie; a
regular rustic ramble."

Mrs. Gilbert blushed. That habit of blushing when she spoke or was
spoken to had grown upon her lately. Then, after a little pause, she
said, shyly:

"Thurston's Crag is a pretty place; shall we go there?"

"Suppose we do. That's quite a brilliant thought of yours, Izzie.
Thurston's Crag is a pretty place, a nice, drowsy, lazy old place, where
one always goes to sleep, and wishes one had bottled beer. It reminds
one of bottled beer, you know, the waterfall,--bottled beer in a rampant
state of effervescence."

Isabel's face was all lighted up with smiles.

"I am so glad you have come to see us, Sigismund," she said.

She was very glad. She might go to Thurston's Crag now as often as she
could beguile Sigismund thitherward, and that haunting sense of
something wrong would no longer perplex her in the midst of her
unutterable joy. It was unutterable! She had tried to write poetry about
it, and had failed dismally, though her heart was making poetry all day
long, as wildly, vaguely beautiful as Solomon's Song. She had tried to
set her joy to music; but there were no notes on the harpsichord that
could express such wondrous melody; though there was indeed one little
simple theme, an old-fashioned air, arranged as a waltz, "'Twere vain to
tell thee all I feel," which Isabel would play slowly, again and again,
for an hour together, dragging the melody out in lingering legato notes,
and listening to its talk about Roland Lansdell.

But all this was very wicked, of course. To-day she could go to
Thurston's Crag with a serene front, an unburdened conscience. What
could be more intensely proper than this country walk with her mother's
late partial boarder?

They turned into the meadows presently, and as they drew nearer and
nearer to the grassy hollow under the cliff, where the miller's cottage
and the waterfall were nestled together like jewels in a casket of
emerald velvet, the ground seemed to grow unsubstantial under her feet,
as if Thurston's Crag had been a phantasmal region suspended in mid air.
Would he be there? Her heart was perpetually beating out the four
syllables of that simple sentence: Would he be there? It was the 1st of
September, and he would be away shooting partridges, perhaps. Oh, was
there even the remotest chance that he would be there?

Sigismund handed her across the stile in the last meadow, and then there
was only a little bit of smooth verdure between them and the waterfall;
but the overhanging branches of the trees intervened, and Isabel could
not see yet whether there was any one on the bridge.

But presently the narrow winding path brought them to a break in the
foliage. Isabel's heart gave a tremendous bound, and then the colour,
which had come and gone so often on her face, faded away altogether. He
was there: leaning with his back against the big knotted trunk of the
oak, and making a picture of himself, with one arm above his head,
plucking the oak-leaves and dropping them into the water. He looked down
at the glancing water and the hurrying leaves with a moody dissatisfied
scowl. Had he been anything less than a hero, one might have thought
that he looked sulky.

But when the light footsteps came rustling through the long grass,
accompanied by the faint fluttering of a woman's garments, his face
brightened as suddenly as if the dense foliage above his head had been
swept away by a Titan's axe, and all the sunshine let in upon him. That
very expressive face darkened a little when Mr. Lansdell saw Sigismund
behind the Doctor's Wife; but the cloud was transient. The jealous
delusions of a monomaniac could scarcely have transformed Mr. Smith into
a Cassio. Desdemona might have pleaded for him all day long, and might
have supplied him with any number of pocket-handkerchiefs hemmed and
marked by her own fair hands, without causing the Moor a single
apprehensive pang.

Mr. Lansdell did not recognize the youthful acquaintance who had
stumbled a little way in the thorny path of knowledge by his side; but
he saw that Sigismund was a harmless creature; and after he had bared
his handsome head before Isabel, he gave Mr. Smith a friendly little nod
of general application.

"I have let the keepers shoot the first of the partridges," he said,
dropping his voice almost to a whisper as he bent over Mrs. Gilbert,
"and I have been here ever since ten o'clock."

It was past one now. He had been there three hours, Isabel thought,
waiting for her.

Yes, it had gone so far as this already. But he was to go away at the
end of October. He was to go away, it would all be over, and the world
come to an end by the 1st of November.

There was a little pile of books upon the seat under the tree. Mr.
Lansdell pushed them off the bench, and tumbled them ignominiously among
the long grass and weeds beneath it. Isabel saw them fall; and uttered a
little exclamation of surprise.

"You have brought me-" she began; but to her astonishment Roland checked
her with a frown, and began to talk about the waterfall, and the trout
that were to be caught in the season lower down in the stream. Mr.
Lansdell was more worldly wise than the Doctor's Wife, and he knew that
the books brought there for her might seem slightly suggestive of an
appointment. There had been no appointment, of course; but there was
always a chance of finding Isabel under Lord Thurston's oak. Had she not
gone there constantly, long ago, when Mr. Lansdell was lounging in
Grecian Islands, and eating ices under, the colonnades of Venice? and
was it strange that she should go there now?

I should become very wearisome, were I to transcribe all that was said
that morning. It was a very happy morning,--a long, idle sunshiny pause
in the business of life. Roland recognized an old acquaintance in
Sigismund Smith presently, and the two young men talked gaily of those
juvenile days at Mordred. They talked pleasantly of all manner of
things. Mr. Lansdell must have been quite ardently attached to Sigismund
in those early days, if one might judge of the past by the present; for
he greeted his old acquaintance with absolute effusion, and sketched out
quite a little royal progress of rustic enjoyment for the week Sigismund
was to stay at Graybridge.

"We'll have a picnic," he said: "you remember we talked about a picnic,
Mrs. Gilbert. We'll have a picnic at Waverly Castle; there isn't a more
delightfully inconvenient place for a picnic in all Midlandshire. One
can dine on the top of the western tower, in actual danger of one's
life. You can write to your uncle Raymond, Smith, and ask him to join
us, with the two nieces, who are really most amiable children; so
estimably unintellectual, and no more in the way than a little extra
furniture: you mayn't want it; but if you've space enough for it in your
rooms, it doesn't in the least inconvenience you. This is Thursday;
shall we say Saturday for my picnic? I mean it to be my picnic, you
know; a bachelor's picnic, with all the most obviously necessary items
forgotten, I dare say. I think the salad-dressing and the
champagne-nippers are the legitimate things to forget, are they not? Do
you think Saturday will suit you and the Doctor, Mrs. Gilbert? I should
like it to be Saturday, because you must all dine with me at Mordred on
Sunday, in order that we may drink success and a dozen editions to
the--what's the name of your novel, Smith? Shall it be Saturday, Mrs.
Gilbert?"

Isabel only answered by deepening blushes and a confused murmur of
undistinguishable syllables. But her face lighted up with a look of
rapture that was wont to illuminate it now and then, and which, Mr.
Lansdell thought was the most beautiful expression of the human
countenance that he had ever seen, out of a picture or in one. Sigismund
answered for the Doctor's Wife. Yes, he was sure Saturday would do
capitally. He would settle it all with George, and he would answer for
his uncle Raymond and the orphans; and he would answer for the weather
even, for the matter of that. He further accepted the invitation to dine
at Mordred on Sunday, for himself and his host and hostess.

"You know you can, Izzie," he said, in answer to Mrs. Gilbert's
deprecating murmur; "it's mere nonsense talking about prior engagements
in a place like Graybridge, where nobody ever does go out to dinner, and
a tea-party on a Sunday is looked upon as wickedness. Lansdell always
was a jolly good fellow, and I'm not a bit surprised to find that he's a
jolly good fellow still; because if you train up a twig in the way it's
inclined, the tree will not depart from it, as the philosopher has
observed. I want to see Mordred again, most particularly; for, to tell
you the truth, Lansdell," said Mr. Smith, with a gush of candour, "I was
thinking of taking the Priory for the scene of my next novel. There's a
mossy kind of gloom about the eastern side of the house and the old
square garden, that I think would take with the general public; and with
regard to the cellarage," cried Sigismund, kindling with sudden
enthusiasm, "I've been through it with a lantern, and I'm sure there's
accommodation for a perfect regiment of bodies, which would be a
consideration if I was going to do the story in penny numbers; for in
penny numbers one body always leads on to another, and you never know,
when you begin, how far you may be obliged to go. However, my present
idea is three volumes. What do you think now, Lansdell, of the eastern
side of the Priory; deepening the gloom, you know, and letting the
gardens all run to seed, with rank grass and a blasted cedar or so, and
introducing rats behind the panelling, and a general rottenness, and
perhaps a ghostly footstep in the corridor, or a periodical rustling
behind the tapestry? What do you say, now, to Mordred, taken in
connection with twin brothers hating each other from infancy, and both
in love with the same woman, and one of them--the darkest twin, with a
scar on his forehead--walling up the young female in a deserted room,
while the more amiable twin without a scar devotes his life to searching
for her in foreign climes, accompanied by a detective officer and a
bloodhound? It's only a rough idea at present," concluded Mr. Smith,
modestly; "but I shall work it out in railway trains and pedestrian
exercise. There's nothing like railway travelling or pedestrian exercise
for working out an idea of that kind."

Mr. Lansdell declared that his house and grounds were entirely at the
service of his young friend; and it was settled that the picnic should
take place on Saturday, and the dinner-party on Sunday; and George
Gilbert's acquiescence in the two arrangements was guaranteed by his
friend Sigismund. And then the conversation wandered away into more
fanciful regions; and Roland and Mr. Smith talked of men and books,
while Isabel listened, only chiming in now and then with little
sentimental remarks, to which the master of Mordred Priory listened as
intently as if the speaker had been a Madame de Staël. She may not have
said anything very wonderful; but those were wonderful blushes that came
and went upon her pale face as she spoke, fluttering and fitful as the
shadow of a butterfly's wing hovering above a white rose; and the golden
light in her eyes was more wonderful than anything out of a fairy tale.

But he always listened to her, and he always looked at her from a
certain position which he had elected for himself in relation to her.
She was a beautiful child; and he, a man of the world, very much tired
and worn out by the ordinary men and women of the world, was half
amused, half interested, by her simplicity and sentimentality. He did no
wrong, therefore, by cultivating her acquaintance when accident threw
her, as had happened so often lately, in his way. There was no harm, so
long as he held firmly to the position he had chosen for himself; so
long as he contemplated this young gushing creature from across all the
width of his own wasted youth and useless days; so long as he looked at
her as a bright unapproachable being, as much divided from him by the
difference in their natures, as by the fact that she was the lawful wife
of Mr. George Gilbert of Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne.

Mr. Lansdell tried his uttermost to hold firmly to this self-elected
position with regard to Isabel. He was always alluding to his own age;
an age not to be computed, as he explained to Mrs. Gilbert, by the
actual number of years in which he had inhabited this lower world, but
to be calculated rather by the waste of those wearisome years, and the
general decadence that had fallen upon him thereby.

"I suppose, according to the calendar, I am only your senior by a
decade," he said to Izzie one day; "but when I hear you talk about your
books and your heroes, I feel as if I had lived a century."

He took the trouble to make little speeches of this kind very often, for
Mrs. Gilbert's edification; and there were times when the Doctor's Wife
was puzzled, and even wounded, by his talk and his manner, which were
both subject to abrupt transitions, that were perplexing to a simple
person. Mr. Lansdell was capricious and fitful in his moods, and would
break off in the middle of some delicious little bit of sentiment,
worthy of Ernest Maltravers or Eugene Aram himself, with a sneering
remark about the absurdity of the style of conversation into which he
had been betrayed; and would sit moodily pulling his favourite
retriever's long ears for ten minutes or so, and then get up and wish
Isabel an abrupt good morning. Mrs. Gilbert took these changes of manner
very deeply to heart. It was her fault, no doubt; she had said something
silly; or affected, perhaps. Had not her brother Horace been apt to jeer
at her as a mass of affectation, because she preferred Byron to "Bell's
Life," and was more interested in Edith Dombey than in the favourite for
the Oaks? She had said something that had sounded affected, though
uttered in all simplicity of heart; and Mr. Lansdell had been disgusted
by her talk. Contempt from _him_--she always thought of him in
italics--was very bitter! She would never, never go to Thurston's Crag
again. But then, after one of those abruptly-unpleasant "good mornings,"
Mr. Lansdell was very apt to call at Graybridge. He wanted Mr. Gilbert
to go and see one of the men on the home-farm, who seemed in a very bad
way, poor fellow, and ought not to be allowed to go on any longer
without medical advice. Mr. Lansdell was very fond of looking up cases
for the Graybridge surgeon. How good he was! Isabel thought; he in whom
goodness was in a manner a supererogatory attribute; since heroes who
were dark, and pensive, and handsome, were not called upon to be
otherwise virtuous. How good he was! he who was as scornfully
depreciative of his own merits as if the bones of another Mr. Clarke had
been bleaching in some distant cave in imperishable evidence of his
guilt. How good he was! and he had not been offended or disgusted with
her when he left her so suddenly; for to-day he was kinder to her than
ever, and lingered for nearly an hour in the unshaded parlour, in the
hope that the surgeon would come in.

But when Mr. Lansdell walked slowly homeward after such a visit as this,
there was generally a dissatisfied look upon his face, which was
altogether inconsistent with the pleasure he had appeared to take in his
wasted hour at Graybridge. He was inconsistent. It was in his nature, as
a hero, to be so, no doubt. There were times when he forgot all about
that yawning chasm of years which was supposed to divide him from any
possibility of sympathy with Isabel Gilbert; there were times when he
forgot himself so far as to be very young and happy in his loitering
visits at Graybridge, playing idle scraps of extempore melody on the
wizen old harpsichord, sketching little bunches of foliage and frail
Italian temples, and pretty girlish faces with big black eyes, not
altogether unlike Isabel's, or strolling out into the flat old-fashioned
garden, where Mr. Jeffson lolled on his spade, and made a rustic figure
of himself, between a middle distance of brown earth and a foreground of
cabbage-plants. I am bound to say that Mr. Jeffson, who was generally
courtesy itself to every living creature, from the pigs to whom he
carried savoury messes of skim-milk and specky potatoes, to the rector
of Graybridge, who gave him "good evening" sometimes as he reposed
himself in the cool twilight, upon the wooden gate leading into George
Gilbert's stable-yard,--I am bound to say that Mr. Jeffson was
altogether wanting in politeness to Roland Lansdell, and was apt to
follow the young man with black and evil looks as he strolled by Izzie's
side along the narrow walks, or stooped now and then to extricate her
muslin dress from the thorny branches of a gooseberry-bush.

Once, and once only, did Isabel Gilbert venture to remonstrate with her
husband's retainer on the subject of his surly manner to the master of
Mordred Priory. Her remonstrance was a very faint one, and she was
stooping over a rose-bush while she talked, and was very busy plucking
off the withered leaves, and now and then leaves that were not withered.

"I am afraid you don't like Mr. Lansdell, Jeff," she said. She had been
very much attached to the gardener, and very confidential to him, before
Roland's advent, and had done a little amateur gardening under his
instructions, and had told him all about Eugene Aram and the murder of
Mr. Clarke "You seemed quite cross to him this morning when he called to
see George, and to inquire about the man that had the rheumatic fever;
I'm afraid you don't like him."

She bent her face very low over the rose-bush; so low that her hair,
which, though much tidier than of old, was never quite as neatly or
compactly adjusted as it might have been, fell forward like a veil, and
entangled itself among the spiky branches. "Oh yes, Mrs. George; I like
him well enough. There's not a young gentleman that I ever set eyes on
as I think nobler to look at, or pleasanter to talk to, than Mr.
Lansdell, or more free and open-like in his manner to poor folk. But,
like a many other good things, Mrs. George, Mr. Lansdell's only good, to
my mind, when he's in his place; and I tell you, frank and candid, as I
think he's never more out of his place than when he's hanging about your
house, or idling away his time in this garden. It isn't for me, Mrs.
George, to say who should come here, and who shouldn't; but there was a
kind of relationship between me and my master's dead mother. I can see
her now, poor young thing, with her bright fair face, and her fair hair
blowing across it, as she used to come towards me along the very pathway
on which you're standing now, Mrs. George; and all that time comes back
to me as if it was yesterday. I never knew any one lead a better or a
purer life. I stood beside her deathbed, and I never saw a happier
death, nor one that seemed to bring it closer home to a man's mind that
there was something happier and better still to come afterwards. But
there was never no Mr. Roland Lansdell in those days, Mrs. George,
scribbling heads with no bodies to 'em, and trees without any stumps, on
scraps of paper, or playing tunes, or otherwise dawdling like, while my
master was out o' doors. And I remember, as almost the last words that
sweet young creature says, was something about having done her duty to
her dear husband, and never having known one thought as she could wish
to keep hid from him or Heaven."

Mrs. Gilbert dropped down on her knees before the rose-bush, with her
face still shrouded by her hair, and her hands still busy among the
leaves. When she looked up, which was not until after a lapse of some
minutes, Mr. Jeffson was ever so far off, digging potatoes, with his
back turned towards her. There had been nothing unkind in his manner of
speaking to her; indeed, there had even been a special kindness and
tenderness in his tones, a sorrowful gentleness, that went home to her
heart.

She thought of her husband's dead mother a good deal that night, in a
reverential spirit, but with a touch of envy also. Was not the first
Mrs. Gilbert specially happy to have died young? was it not an enormous
privilege so to die, and to be renowned ever afterwards as having done
something meritorious, when, for the matter of that, other people would
be very happy to die young, if they could? Isabel thought of this with
some sense of injury. Long ago, when her brothers had been rude to her,
and her step-mother had upbraided her on the subject of a constitutional
unwillingness to fetch butter, and "back" teaspoons, she had wished to
die young, leaving a legacy of perpetual remorse to those unfeeling
relatives. But the gods had never cared anything about her. She had kept
on wet boots sometimes after "backing" spoons in bad weather, in the
fond hope that she might thereby fall into a decline. She had pictured
herself in the little bedroom at Camberwell, fading by inches, with
becoming hectic spots on her cheeks, and imploring her step-mother to
call her early; which desire would have been the converse of the popular
idea of the ruling passion, inasmuch as in her normal state of health
Miss Sleaford was wont to be late of a morning, and remonstrate
drowsily, with the voice of the sluggard, when roughly roused from some
foolish dream, in which she wore a ruby-velvet gown that _wouldn't_ keep
hooked, and was beloved by a duke who was always inconsistently changing
into the young man at the butter-shop.

All that evening Isabel pondered upon the simple history of her
husband's mother, and wished that she could be very, very good, like
her, and die early, with holy words upon her lips. But in the midst of
such thoughts as these, she found herself wondering whether the hands of
Mr. Gilbert the elder were red and knobby like those of his son, whether
he employed the same bootmaker, and entertained an equal predilection
for spring-onions and Cheshire cheese. And from the picture of her
deathbed Isabel tried in vain to blot away a figure that had no right to
be there,--the figure of some one who would be fetched post-haste, at
the last moment, to hear her dying words, and to see her die.



CHAPTER XVIII.

THE SECOND WARNING.


Mr. Roland Lansdell did not invite Lady Gwendoline or her father to that
bachelor picnic which he was to give at Waverly Castle. He had a kind of
instinctive knowledge that Lord Ruysdale's daughter would not relish
that sylvan entertainment.

"She'd object to poor Smith. I dare say," Roland said to himself, "with
his sporting-cut clothes, and his slang phrases, and his perpetual talk
about three-volume novels and penny numbers. No, I don't think it would
do to invite Gwendoline; she'd be sure to object to Smith."

Mr. Lansdell said this, or thought this, a good many times upon the day
before the picnic; but it may be that there was a lurking idea in his
mind that Lady Gwendoline might object to the presence of some one other
than Mr. Smith in the little assembly that had been planned under Lord
Thurston's oak. Perhaps Roland Lansdell,--who hated hypocrisy as men who
are by no means sinless are yet apt to hate the base and crawling vices
of mankind,--had become a hypocrite all at once, and wanted to deceive
himself; or it may be that the weak slope of his handsome chin, and the
want of breadth in a certain region of his skull, were the outward and
visible signs of such a weak and vacillating nature, that what was true
with regard to him one minute was false the next; so that out of this
perpetual changefulness of thought and purpose there grew a confusion in
the young man's mind, like the murmur of many streamlets rushing into
one broad river, along whose tide the feeble swimmer was drifted to the
very sea he wanted so much to avoid.

"The picnic will be a pleasant thing for young Smith," Mr. Lansdell
thought; "and it'll please the children to make themselves bilious
amongst ruins; and that dear good Raymond always enjoys himself with
young and happy people. I cannot see that the picnic can be anything but
pleasant; and for the matter of that, I've a good mind to send the
baskets early by Stephens, who could make himself useful all day, and
not go at all myself. I could run up to town under pretence of
particular business, and amuse myself somehow for a day or two. Or, for
that matter, I might go over to Baden or Hombourg, and finish the autumn
there. Heaven knows I don't want to do any harm."

But, in spite of all this uncertainty and vacillation of mind, Mr.
Lansdell took a great deal of interest in the preparations for the
picnic. He did not trouble himself about the magnificent game-pie which
was made for the occasion, the crust of which was as highly glazed as a
piece of modern Wedgwood. He did not concern himself about the tender
young fowls, nestling in groves of parsley; nor the tongue, floridly
decorated with vegetable productions chiselled into the shapes of
impossible flowers; nor the York ham, also in a high state of polish,
like fine Spanish mahogany, and encircled about the knuckle by pure
white fringes of cut paper.

The comestibles to which Mr. Lansdell directed his attention were of a
more delicate and fairy-like description, such as women and children are
apt to take delight in. There must be jellies and creams, Mr. Lansdell
said, whatever difficulty there might be in the conveyance of such
compositions. There must be fruit; he attended himself to the cutting of
hothouse grapes and peaches, the noblest pine-apple in the long range of
forcing-houses, and picturesque pears with leaves still clinging to the
stalk. He ordered bouquets to be cut, one a very pyramid of choice
flowers, chiefly white and innocent-looking, and he took care to select
richly-scented blossoms, and he touched the big nosegay caressingly with
his slim white fingers, and looked at it with a tender smile on his dark
face, as if the flowers had a language for him,--and so they had; but it
was by no means that stereotyped dictionary of substantives and
adjectives popularly called the language of flowers.

It was nothing new for him to choose a bouquet. Had he not dispensed a
small fortune in the Rue de la Paix and in the Faubourg St. Honoré, in
exchange for big bunches of roses and myosotis, and Cape-jasmine and
waxy camellias; which he saw afterwards lying on the velvet cushion of
an opera-box, or withering in the warm atmosphere of a boudoir? He was
not a good man,--he had not led a good life. Pretty women had called him
"Enfant!" in the dim mysterious shades of lamplit conservatories, upon
the curtain-shrouded thresholds of moonlit balconies. Arch soubrettes in
little Parisian theatres, bewitching Marthons and Margots and
Jeannettons, with brooms in their hands and diamonds in their ears, had
smiled at him, and acted at him, and sung at him, as he lounged in the
dusky recesses of a cavernous box. He had not led a good life. He was
not a good man. But he was a man who had never sinned with impunity.
With him remorse always went hand-in-hand with wrong-doing.

In all his life, I doubt if there was any period in which Mr. Lansdell
had ever so honestly and truly wished to do aright as he did just now.
His mind seemed to have undergone a kind of purification in the still
atmosphere of those fair Midlandshire glades and meads. There was even a
purifying influence in the society of such a woman as Isabel Gilbert, so
different from all the other women he had known, so deficient in the
merest rudiments of worldly wisdom.

Mr. Lansdell did not go to London. When the ponderous old fly from
Graybridge drove up a narrow winding lane and emerged upon the green
rising ground below the gates of Waverly Castle, Roland was standing
under the shadow of the walls, with a big bunch of hothouse flowers in
his hand. He was in very high spirits; for to-day he had cast care to
the winds. Why should he not enjoy this innocent pleasure of a rustic
ramble with simple country-bred people and children? He laid some little
stress upon the presence of the orphans. Yes, he would enjoy himself for
to-day; and then to-morrow--ah! by the bye, to-morrow Mr. and Mrs.
Gilbert and Sigismund Smith were to dine with him. After to-morrow it
would be all over, and he would be off to the Continent again, to begin
the old wearisome rounds once more; To eat the same dinners at the same
restaurants; the same little suppers after the opera, in stuffy entresol
chambers, all crimson velvet, and gaslight, and glass, and gilding; to
go to the same balls in the same gorgeous saloons, and to see the same
beautiful faces shining upon him in their monotonous splendour.

"I might have turned country gentleman, and have been good for something
in this world," thought Roland, "if----"

Mr. Lansdell was not alone. Charles Raymond and the orphans had arrived;
and they all came forward together to welcome Isabel and her companions.
Mr. Raymond had always been very kind to his nieces' governess, but he
seemed especially kind to her to-day. He interposed himself between
Roland and the door of the fly, and assisted Isabel to alight. He
slipped her hand under his arm with a pleasant friendliness of manner,
and looked with a triumphant smile at the rest of the gentlemen.

"I mean to appropriate Mrs. Gilbert for the whole of this day," he said,
cheerily; "and I shall give her a full account of Waverly, looked upon
from an archæological, historical, and legendary point of view. Never
mind your flowers now, Roland; it's a very charming bouquet, but you
don't suppose Mrs. Gilbert is going to carry it about all day? Take it
into the lodge yonder, and ask them to put it in water; and in the
evening, if you're very good, Mrs. Gilbert shall take it home to
ornament her parlour at Graybridge."

The gates were opened, and they went in; Isabel arm-in-arm with Mr.
Raymond.

Roland placed himself presently on one side of Isabel; but Mr. Raymond
was so very instructive about John of Gaunt and the Tudors, that all
Mrs. Gilbert's attention was taken up in the effort to understand his
discourse, which was very pleasant and lively, in spite of its
instructive nature. George Gilbert looked at the ruins with the same
awful respect with which he had regarded the pictures at Mordred. He was
tolerably familiar with those empty halls, those roofless chambers, and
open doorways, and ivy-festooned windows; but he always looked at them
with the same reverence, mingled with a vague wonder as to what it was
that people admired in ruins, seeing that they generally made such short
work of inspecting them, and seemed so pleased to get away and take
refreshment. Ruins and copious refreshment ware associated in Mr.
Gilbert's mind; and, indeed, there does seem to be a natural union
between ivied walls and lobster-salad, crumbling turrets and cold
chicken; just as the domes of Greenwich Hospital, the hilly park beyond,
and the rippling water in the foreground, must be for ever and ever
associated with floundered souchy and devilled whitebait. Mr. Sigismund
Smith was delighted with Waverly. He had rambled amongst the ruins often
enough in his boyhood; but to-day he saw everything from a new point of
view, and he groped about in all manner of obscure corners, with a
pencil and pocket-book in his hand, laying the plan of a thrilling
serial, and making himself irrecognizable with dust. His friends found
him on one occasion stretched at full length amongst crisp fallen leaves
in a recess that had once been a fireplace, with a view to ascertain
whether it was long enough to accommodate a body. He climbed fearful
heights, and planned perilous leaps and "hairbreadth 'scapes," deadly
dangers in the way of walks along narrow cornices high up above empty
space; such feats as hold the reader with suspended breath, and make the
continued expenditure of his weekly penny almost a certainty.

The orphans accompanied Mr. Smith, and were delighted with the little
chambers that they found in nooks and corners of the mouldering castle.
How delightful to have chairs and tables and kitchen utensils, and to
live there for ever and ever, and keep house for themselves! They envied
the vulgar children who lived in the square tower by the gate, and saw
ruins every day of their lives.

It was a very pleasant morning altogether. There was a strangely mingled
feeling of satisfaction and annoyance in Roland Lansdell's mind as he
strolled beside Isabel, and listened, or appeared to listen, to Mr.
Raymond's talk. He would like to have had Isabel's little hand lying
lightly on his arm; he would like to have seen those wondering black
eyes lifted to his face; he would like her to have heard the romantic
legends belonging to the ruined walls and roofless banquet-chambers from
him. And yet, perhaps, it was better as it was. He was going away very
soon--immediately, indeed; he was going where that simple pleasure would
be impossible to him, and it was better not to lull himself in soft
delights that were so soon to be taken away from his barren life. Yes,
his barren life. He had come to think of his fate with bitter repining,
and to look upon himself as, somehow or other, cruelly ill-used by
Providence.

But, in spite of Mr. Raymond, he contrived to sit next Isabel at dinner,
which was served by-and-by in a lovely sheltered nook under the walls,
where there was no chance of the salt being blown into the greengage
tart, or the custard spilt over the lobster-salad. Mr. Lansdell had sent
a couple of servants to arrange matters; and the picnic was not a bit
like an ordinary picnic, where things are lost and forgotten, and where
there is generally confusion by reason of everybody's desire to assist
in the preparations. This was altogether a _recherché_ banquet; but
scarcely so pleasant as those more rural feasts, in which there is a
paucity of tumblers, and no forks to speak of. The champagne was iced,
the jellies quivered in the sunlight, everything was in perfect order;
and if Mr. Raymond had not insisted upon sending away the two men, who
wanted to wait at table, with the gloomy solemnity of every-day life, it
would scarcely have been worthy the name of picnic. But with the two
solemn servants out of the way, and with Sigismund, very red and dusty
and noisy, to act as butler, matters were considerably improved.

The sun was low when they left the ruins of the feast for the two solemn
men to clear away. The sun was low, and the moon had risen, so pale as
to be scarcely distinguishable from a faint summer cloud high up in the
clear opal heaven. Mr. Raymond took Isabel up by a winding staircase to
the top of a high turret, beneath which spread green meads and slopes of
verdure, where once had been a lake and pleasaunce. The moon grew
silvery before they reached the top of the turret, where there was room
enough for a dozen people. Roland went with them, of course, and sat on
one of the broad stone battlements looking out at the still night, with
his profile defined as sharply as a cameo against the deepening blue of
the sky. He was very silent, and his silence had a distracting influence
on Isabel, who made vain efforts to understand what Mr. Raymond was
saying to her, and gave vague answers every now and then; so vague that
Charles Raymond left off talking presently, and seemed to fall into as
profound a reverie as that which kept Mr. Lansdell silent.

To Isabel's mind there was a pensive sweetness in that silence, which
was in some way in harmony with the scene and the atmosphere. She was
free to watch Roland's face now that Mr. Raymond had left off talking to
her, and she did watch it; that still profile whose perfect outline grew
more and more distinct against the moonlit sky. If anybody could have
painted his portrait as he sat there, with one idle hand hanging
listless among the ivy-leaves, blanched in the moonlight, what a picture
it would have made! What was he thinking of? Were his thoughts far away
in some foreign city with dark-eyed Clotilde? or the Duchess with the
glittering hair, who had loved him and been false to him long ago, when
he was an alien, and recorded the history of his woes in heart-breaking
verse, in fitful numbers, larded with scraps of French and Latin,
alternately despairing and sarcastic? Isabel solemnly believed in
Clotilde and the glittering Duchess, and was steeped in self-abasement
and humiliation when she compared herself with those vague and splendid
creatures.

Roland spoke at last: if there had been anything common-place or worldly
wise in what he said, there must have been a little revulsion in
Isabel's mind; but his talk was happily attuned to the place and the
hour; incomprehensible and mysterious,--like the deepening night in the
heavens.

"I think there is a point at which a man's life comes to an end," he
said. "I think there is a fitting and legitimate close to every man's
existence, that is as palpable as the falling of a curtain when a play
is done. He goes on living; that is to say, eating and drinking, and
inhaling so many cubic feet of fresh air every day, for half a century
afterwards, perhaps; but that is nothing. Do not the actors live after
the play is done, and the curtain has fallen? Hamlet goes home and eats
his supper, and scolds his wife and snubs his children; but the
exaltation and the passion that created him Prince of Denmark have died
out like the coke ashes of the green-room fire. Surely that after-life
is the penalty, the counter-balance, of brief golden hours of hope and
pleasure. I am glad the Lansdells are not a long-lived race, Raymond;
for I think the play is finished, and the dark curtain has dropped for
me!"

"Humph!" muttered Mr. Raymond; "wasn't there something to that effect in
the 'Alien?' It's very pretty, Roland,--that sort of dismal prettiness
which is so much in fashion nowadays; but don't you think if you were to
get up a little earlier in the morning, and spend a couple of hours
amongst the stubble with your clogs and gun, so as to get an appetite
for your breakfast, you might get over that sort of thing?"

Isabel turned a mutely reproachful gaze upon Mr. Raymond, but Roland
burst out laughing.

"I dare say I talk like a fool," he said; "I feel like one sometimes."

"When are you going abroad again?"

"In a month's time. But why should I go abroad?" asked Mr. Lansdell,
with a dash of fierceness in the sudden change of his tone; "why should
I go? what is there for me to do there better than here? what good am I
there more than I am here?" He asked these questions of the sky as much
as of Mr. Raymond; and the philosopher of Conventford did not feel
himself called upon to answer them. Mr. Lansdell relapsed into the
silence that so puzzled Isabel; and nothing more was said until the
voice of George Gilbert sounded from below, deeply sonorous amongst the
walls and towers, calling to Isabel.

"I must go," she said; "I dare say the fly is ready to take us back.
Goodnight, Mr. Raymond; goodnight, Mr. Lansdell."

She held out her hand, as if doubtful to whom she should first offer it;
Roland had never changed his position until this moment, but he started
up suddenly now, like a man awakened from a dream. "You are going?" he
said; "so soon!"

"So soon! it is very late, I think," Mrs. Gilbert answered; "at least, I
mean we have enjoyed ourselves very much; and the time has passed so
quickly."

She thought it was her duty to say something of this kind to him, as the
giver of the feast; and then she blushed and grew confused, thinking she
had said too much.

"Good night, Mr. Lansdell."

"But I am coming down with you to the gate," said Roland; "do you think
we could let you go down those slippery stairs by yourself, to fall and
break your neck and haunt the tower by moonlight for ever afterwards, a
pale ghost in shadowy muslin drapery? Here's Mr. Gilbert," he added, as
the top of George's hat made itself visible upon the winding staircase;
"but I'm sure I know the turret better than he does, and I shall take
you under my care."

He took her hand as he spoke, and led her down the dangerous winding way
as carefully and tenderly as if she had been a little child. Her hand
did not tremble as it rested in his; but something like a mysterious
winged creature that had long been imprisoned in her breast seemed to
break his bonds all at once, and float away from her towards him. She
thought it was her long-imprisoned soul, perhaps, that so left her to
become a part of his. If that slow downward journey could have lasted
for ever--if she could have gone down, down, down with Roland Lansdell
into some fathomless pit, until at last they came to a luminous cavern
and still moonlit water, where there was a heavenly calm--and death! But
the descent did not last very long, careful as Roland was of every step;
and there was the top of George's hat bobbing about in the moonlight all
the time; for the surgeon had lost his way in the turret, and only came
down at last very warm and breathless when Isabel called to him from the
bottom of the stairs.

Sigismund and the orphans appeared at the same moment.

Mr. Raymond had followed Roland and Isabel very closely, and they all
went together to the fly.

"Remember to-morrow," Mr. Lansdell said generally to the Graybridge
party as they took their seats. "I shall expect you as soon as the
afternoon service is over. I know you are regular church-goers at
Graybridge. Couldn't you come to Mordred for the afternoon service, by
the bye?--the church is well worth seeing." There was a little
discussion; and it was finally agreed that Mr. and Mrs. George Gilbert
and Sigismund should go to Mordred church on the following afternoon;
and then there was a good deal of hand-shaking before the carriage drove
away, and disappeared behind the sheltering edges that screened the
winding road.

"I'll see you and the children off, Raymond," Mr. Lansdell said, "before
I go myself."

"I'm not going away just this minute," Mr. Raymond answered gravely; "I
want to have a little talk with you first. There's something I
particularly want to say to you. Mrs. Primshaw," he cried to the
landlady of a little inn just opposite the castle-gates, a good-natured
rosy-faced young woman, who was standing on the threshold of her door
watching the movements of the gentlefolks, "will you take care of my
little girls, and see whether their wraps are warm enough for the drive
home, while I take a moonlight stroll with Mr. Lansdell?"

Mrs. Primshaw declared that nothing would give her greater pleasure than
to see to the comfort of the young ladies. So the orphans skipped across
the moonlit road, nowise sorry to take shelter in the pleasant
bar-parlour, all rosy and luminous with a cosy handful of bright fire in
the tiniest grate ever seen out of a doll's house.

Mr. Lansdell and Mr. Raymond walked along the lonely road under the
shadow of the castle wall, and for some minutes neither of them spoke.
Roland evinced no curiosity about, or interest in, that unknown
something which Mr. Raymond had to say to him; but there was a kind of
dogged sullenness in the carriage of his head, the fixed expression of
his face, that seemed to promise badly for the pleasantness of the
interview.

Perhaps Mr. Raymond saw this, and was rather puzzled how to commence the
conversation; at any rate, when he did begin, he began very abruptly,
taking what one might venture to call a conversational header.

"Roland," he said, "this won't do!"

"What won't do?" asked Mr. Lansdell, coolly.

"Of course, I don't set up for being your Mentor," returned Mr. Raymond,
"or for having any right to lecture you, or dictate to you. The tie of
kinsmanship between us is a very slight one: though, as far as that
goes, God knows that I could scarcely love you better than I do, if I
were your father. But if I were your father, I don't suppose you'd
listen to me, or heed me. Men never do in such matters as these. I've
lived my life, Roland, and I know too well how little good advice can do
in such a case as this. But I can't see you going wrong without trying
to stop you: and for that poor honest-hearted fellow yonder, for his
sake, I must speak, Roland. Have you any consciousness of the mischief
you're doing? have you any knowledge of the bottomless pit of sin, and
misery, and shame, and horror that you are digging before that foolish
woman's feet?"

"Why, Raymond," cried Mr. Lansdell, with a laugh,--not a very hearty
laugh, but something like that hollow mockery of merriment with which a
man greets the narration of some old Joe-Millerism that has been
familiar to him from his childhood,--"why, Raymond, you're as obscure as
a modern poet! What do you mean? Who's the honest-hearted fellow? and
who's the foolish woman? and what's the nature of the business
altogether?"

"Roland, let us be frank with each other, at least. Do you remember how
you told me once that, when every bright illusion had dropped away from
you one by one, honour still remained,--- a poor pallid star, compared
to those other lights that had perished in the darkness, but still
bright enough to keep you in the straight road? Has that last light gone
out with the rest, Roland, my poor melancholy boy,--my boy whom I have
loved as my own child?--will the day ever come when I shall have to be
ashamed of Anna Lansdell's only son?"

His mother's name had always something of a spell for Roland. His head,
so proudly held before, drooped suddenly, and he walked on in silence
for some little time. Mr. Raymond was also silent. He had drawn some
good augury from the altered carriage of the young man's head, and was
loth to disturb the current of his thoughts. When Roland did at last
raise his head, he turned and looked his friend and kinsman full in the
face.

"Raymond," he said, "I am not a good man;" he was very fond of making
this declaration, and I think he fancied that in so doing he made some
vague atonement for his short-comings: "I am not a good man, but I am no
hypocrite; I will not lie to you, or prevaricate with you. Perhaps there
may be some justification for what you said just now, or there might be,
if I were a different sort of man. But, as it is, I give you my honour
you are mistaken. I have been digging no pit for a woman's innocent
footsteps to stray into. I have been plotting no treachery against that
honest fellow yonder. Remember, I do not by any means hold myself
blameless. I have admired Mrs. Gilbert just as one admires a pretty
child, and I have allowed myself to be amused by her sentimental talk,
and have lent her books, and may perhaps have paid her a little more
attention than I ought to have done. But I have done nothing
deliberately. I have never for one moment had any purpose in my mind, or
mixed her image with so much as a dream of--of--any tangible form. I
have drifted into a dangerous position, or a position that might be
dangerous to another man; but I can drift out of it as easily as I
drifted in. I shall leave Midlandshire next month."

"And to-morrow the Gilberts dine with you at Mordred; and all through
this month there will be the chance of your seeing Mrs. Gilbert, and
lending her more books, and paying her more attention; and so on. It is
not so much that I doubt you, Roland; I cannot think so meanly of you as
to doubt your honour in this business. But you are doing mischief; you
are turning this silly girl's head. It is no kindness to lend her books;
it is no kindness to invite her to Mordred, and to show her brief
glimpses of a life that never can be hers. If you want to do a good
deed, and to elevate her life out of its present dead level, make her
your almoner, and give her a hundred a year to distribute among her
husband's poor patients. The weak unhappy child is perishing for want of
some duty to perform upon this earth; some necessary task to keep her
busy from day to day, and to make a link between her husband and
herself. Roland, I do believe that you are as good and generous-minded a
fellow as ever an old bachelor was proud of. My dear boy, let me feel
prouder of you than I have ever felt yet. Leave Midlandshire to-morrow
morning. It will be easy to invent some excuse for going. Go to-morrow,
Roland."

"I will," answered Mr. Lansdell, after a brief pause; "I will go,
Raymond," he repeated, holding out his hand, and clasping that of his
friend. "I suppose I have been going a little astray lately; but I only
wanted the voice of a true-hearted fellow like you to call me back to
the straight road. I shall leave Midlandshire to-morrow, Raymond; and it
may be a very long time before you see me back again."

"Heaven knows I am sorry enough to lose you, my boy," Mr. Raymond said
with some emotion; "but I feel that it's the only thing for you to do. I
used sometimes to think, before George Gilbert offered to marry Isabel,
that you and she would have been suited to each other somehow; and I
have wished that--"

And here Mr. Raymond stopped abruptly, feeling that this speech was
scarcely the wisest he could have made.

But Roland Lansdell took no notice of that unlucky observation.

"I shall go to-morrow," he repeated. "I'm very glad you've spoken to me,
Raymond; I thank you most heartily for the advice you have given me this
night; and I shall go to-morrow."

And then his mind wandered away to his boyish studies in mythical Roman
history; and he wondered how Marcus Curtius felt just after making up
his mind to take the leap that made him famous. And then, with a sudden
slip from ancient to modern history, he thought of poor tender-hearted
Louise la Vallière running away and hiding herself in a convent, only to
have her pure thoughts and aspirations scattered like a cluster of frail
wood-anemones in a storm of wind--only to have her holy resolutions
trampled upon by the ruthless foot of an impetuous young king.



CHAPTER XIX.

WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN!


Mrs. Gilbert spoke very little during the homeward drive through the
moonlight. In her visions of that drive--or what that drive might
be--she had fancied Roland Lansdell riding by the carriage-window, and
going a few miles out of his way in order to escort his friends back to
Graybridge.

"If he cared to be with us, he would have come," Isabel thought, with a
pensive reproachful feeling about Mr. Lansdell.

It is just possible that Roland might have ridden after the fly from
Graybridge, and ridden beside it along the quiet country roads, talking
as he only in all the world could talk, according to Mrs. Gilbert's
opinion. It is possible that, being so sorely at a loss as to what he
should do with himself, Mr. Lansdell might have wasted an hour thus, had
he not been detained by his old friend Charles Raymond.

As it was, he rode straight home to Mordred Priory, very slowly,
thinking deeply as he went along; thinking bitter thoughts about himself
and his destiny.

"If my cousin Gwendoline had been true to me, I should have been an
utterly different man," he thought; "I should have been a middle-aged
steady-going fellow by this time, with a boy at Eton, and a pretty
fair-haired daughter to ride her pony by my side. I think I might have
been good for something if I had married long ago, when my mother died,
and my heart was ready to shelter the woman she had chosen for me.
Children! A man who has children has some reason to be good, and to do
his duty, But to stand quite alone in a world that one has grown tired
of; with every pleasure exhausted, and every faith worn threadbare; with
a dreary waste of memory behind, a barren desert of empty years
before;--to be quite alone in the world, the last of a race that once
was brave and generous; the feeble, worn-out remnant of a lineage that
once did great deeds, and made a name for itself in this world;--that
indeed is bitter!"

Mr. Lansdell's thoughts dwelt upon his loneliness to-night, as they had
never dwelt before, since the day when his mother's death and cousin's
inconstancy first left him lonely.

"Yes, I shall go abroad again," he thought presently, "and go over the
whole dreary beat once more--like Marryat's phantom captain turned
landsman, like the Wandering Jew in a Poole-built travelling dress. I
shall eat fish at Philippe's again, and buy more bouquets in the Rue
Castiglione, and lose more money at Hombourg, and shoot more crocodiles
on the banks of the Nile, and be laid up with another fever in the Holy
Land. It will be all the same over again, except that it will be a great
deal more tiresome this time."

And then Mr. Lansdell began to think what his life might have been, if
the woman he loved, or rather the woman for whom he had a foolish
sentimental fancy,--he did not admit to himself that his predilection
for Isabel Gilbert was more than this,--had been free to become his
wife. He imagined himself returning from those tiresome Continental
wanderings a twelve-month earlier than he had actually returned. "Ah,
me!" he thought, "only one little year earlier, and all things would
have been different!" He would have gone to Conventford to see his dear
old friend Charles Raymond, and there, in the sunny drawing-room, he
would have found a pale-faced, dark-eyed girl bending over a child's
lesson-book, or listening while a child strummed on the piano. He could
fancy that scene,--he could see it all, like a beautiful cabinet
picture; ah, how different, how different everything would have been
then! It would have been no sin then to be inexplicably happy in that
girlish presence; there would have been no vague remorseful pang, no
sting of self-reproach, mingling with every pleasant emotion, contending
with every thrill of mystic joy. And then--and then, some night in the
twilit garden, when the stars were hovering dim about the city roofs
still and hushed in the distance, he would have told her that he loved
her; that, after a decade of indifference to all the brightest things of
earth, he had found a pure unutterable happiness in the hope and belief
that she would be his wife. He fancied her shy blushes, her drooping
eyes suddenly tearful in the depth of her joy; and he fancied what his
life might have been for ever afterwards, transformed and sublimated by
its new purpose, its new delights; transfigured by a pure and exalted
affection. He fancied all this as it all might have been; and turned and
bowed his face before an image that bore his own likeness, and yet was
not himself--the image of a good man, happy husband and father, true
friend and gentle master, dwelling for ever and ever amidst that
peaceful English landscape; beloved, respected, the centre of a happy
circle, the key-stone of a fair domestic arch,--a necessary link in the
grand chain of human love and life.

"And, instead of all this, I am a wandering nomad, who never has been,
and never can be, of any use in this world; who fills no place in life,
and will leave no blank when he dies. When Louis the Well-beloved was
disinclined for the chase, the royal huntsmen were wont to announce that
to-day his majesty would do nothing. I have been doing nothing all my
life, and cannot even rejoice in a stag-hunt."

Mr. Lansdell beguiled his homeward way with many bitter reflections of
this kind. But, inconsistent and vacillating in his thoughts, as he had
been ever inconsistent and vacillating in his actions, he thought of
himself at one time as being deeply and devotedly in love with Isabel
Gilbert, and at another time as being only the victim of a foolish
romantic fancy, which would perish by a death as speedy as its birth.

"What an idiot I am for my pains!" he said to himself, presently. "In
six weeks' time this poor child's pale face will have no more place in
my mind than the snows of last winter have on this earth, or only in
far-away nooks and corners of memory, like the Alpine peaks, where the
snows linger undisturbed by the hand of change. Poor little girl! how
she blushes and falters sometimes when she speaks to me, and how pretty
she looks then! If they could get such an Ingénue at the Français, all
Paris would be mad about her. We are very much in love with each other,
I dare say; but I don't think it's a passion to outlast six weeks'
absence on either side, not on her side certainly, dear romantic child!
I have only been the hero of a story-book; and all this folly has been
nothing more than a page out of a novel set in action. Raymond is very
right. I must go away; and she will go back to her three-volume novels,
and fall in love with a fair-haired hero, and forget me."

He sighed as he thought this. It was infinitely better that he should be
forgotten, and speedily; and yet it is hard to have no place in the
universe--not even one hidden shrine in a foolish woman's heart. Mr.
Lansdell was before the Priory gates by this time. The old woman stifled
a yawn as she admitted the master of the domain. He went in past the
little blinking light in the narrow Gothic window, and along the winding
roadway between cool shrubberies that shed an aromatic perfume on the
still night air. Scared fawns flitted ghost-like away into deep recesses
amid the Mordred oaks; and in the distance the waterdrops of a cascade,
changed by the moonbeams into showers of silver, fell with a little
tinkling sound amongst great blocks of moss-grown granite and wet fern.

Mordred Priory, seen in the moonlight, was not a place upon which a man
would willingly turn his back. Long ago Roland Lansdell had grown tired
of its familiar beauties; but to-night the scene seemed transformed. He
looked at it with a new interest; he thought of it with a sad tender
regret, that stung him like a physical pain.

As he had thought of what his life might have been under other
circumstances, he thought now of what the place might have been. He
fancied the grand old rooms resonant with the echoes of children's
voices; he pictured one slender white-robed figure on the moonlit
terrace; he fancied a tender earnest face turned steadily towards the
path along which he rode; he felt the thrilling contact of a caressing
arm twining itself shyly in his; he heard the low murmur of a loving
voice--his wife's voice!--bidding him welcome home.

But it was never to be! The watch-dog's honest bark--or rather the bark
of several watch-dogs--made the night clamorous presently, when Mr.
Lansdell drew rein before the porch; but there was no eye to mark his
coming, and be brighter when he came; unless, indeed, it was the eye of
his valet, which had waxed dim over the columns of the "Morning Post,"
and may have glimmered faintly, in evidence of that functionary's
satisfaction at the prospect of being speedily released from duty.

If it was so, the valet was doomed to disappointment; for Mr.
Lansdell--usually the least troublesome of masters-wanted a great deal
done for him to-night.

"You may set to work at once with my portmanteau, Jadis," he said, when
he met his servant in the hall. "I must leave Mordred to-morrow morning
in time for the seven o'clock express from Warncliffe. I want you to
pack my things, and arrange for Wilson to be ready to drive me over. I
must leave here at six. Perhaps, by the bye, you may as well pack one
portmanteau for me to take with me, and you can follow with the rest of
the luggage on Monday."

"You are going abroad, sir?"

"Yes, I am tired of Mordred. I shall not stop for the hunting season.
You can go up-stairs now and pack the portmanteau. Don't forget to make
all arrangements about the carriage; for six precisely. You can go to
bed when you've finished packing, I've some letters to write, and shall
be late."

The man bowed and departed, to grumble, in an undertone, over Mr.
Lansdell's shirts and waistcoats, while Roland went into the library to
write his letters.

The letters which he had to write turned out to be only one letter, or
rather a dozen variations upon the same theme, which he tore up, one
after another, almost as soon as they were written. He was not wont to
be so fastidious in the wording of his epistles, but to-night he could
not be satisfied with what he wrote. He wrote to Mrs. Gilbert; yes, to
her! Why should he not write to her when he was going away to-morrow
morning; when he was going to offer up that vague bright dream which had
lately beguiled him, a willing sacrifice, on the altar of duty and
honour?

"I am not much good," he said: for ever excusing his shortcomings by his
self-depreciation. "I never set up for being a good man; but I have some
feeling of honour left in me at the worst." He wrote to Isabel,
therefore, rather than to her husband, and he destroyed many letters
before he wrote what he fancied suitable to the occasion. Did not the
smothered tenderness, the regret, the passion, reveal itself in some of
those letters, in spite of his own determination to be strictly
conventional and correct? But the letter which he wrote last was stiff
and commonplace enough to have satisfied the sternest moralist.

"Dear Mrs. Gilbert,-I much regret that circumstances, which only came to
my knowledge after your party left last night, will oblige me to leave
Mordred early to-morrow morning. I am therefore compelled to forego the
pleasure which I had anticipated from our friendly little dinner
to-morrow evening; but pray assure Smith that the Priory is entirely at
his disposal whenever he likes to come here, and that he is welcome to
make it the scene of half-a-dozen fictions, if he pleases. I fear the
old place will soon look gloomy and desolate enough to satisfy his ideas
of the romantic, for it may be some years before I again see the
Midlandshire woods and meadows."

("The dear old bridge across the waterfall, the old oak under which I
have spent such pleasant hours," Mr. Lansdell had written here in one of
the letters which he destroyed.)

"I hope you will convey to Mr. Gilbert my warmest thanks, with the
accompanying cheque, for the kindness and skill which have endeared him
to my cottagers. I shall be very glad if he will continue to look after
them, and I will arrange for the carrying out of any sanitary
improvements he may suggest to Hodgeson, my steward.

"The library will be always prepared for you whenever you feel inclined
to read and study there, and the contents of the shelves will be
entirely at the service of yourself and Mr. Gilbert.

"With regards to your husband, and all friendly wishes for Smith's
prosperity and success,

                       "I remain, dear Mrs. Gilbert,
                                     "Yery truly yours,
                                        "ROLAND LANSDELL.
  _"Mordred Priory, Saturday night."_

"It may be some years before I again see the Midlandshire woods and
meadows!" This sentence was the gist of the letter, the stiff unmeaning
letter, which was as dull and laboured as a schoolboy's holiday missive
to his honoured parents.

"My poor, innocent, tender-hearted darling! will she be sorry when she
reads it?" thought Mr. Lansdell, as he addressed his letter. "Will this
parting be a new grief to her, a shadowy romantic sorrow, like her
regret for drowned Shelley, or fever-stricken Byron? My darling, my
darling! if fate had sent me here a twelvemonth earlier, you and I might
have been standing side by side in the moonlight, talking of the happy
future before us. Only a year! and there were so many accidents that
might have caused my return. Only one year! and in that little space I
lost my one grand chance of happiness."

Mr. Lansdell had done his duty. He had given Charles Raymond a promise
which he meant to keep; and having done so, he gave his thoughts and
fancies a license which he had never allowed them before. He no longer
struggled to retain the attitude from which he had hitherto endeavoured
to regard Mrs. Gilbert. He no longer considered it his duty to think of
her as a pretty, grown-up child, whose childish follies amused him for
the moment. No; he was going away now, and had no longer need to set any
restraint upon his thoughts. He was going away, and was free to
acknowledge to himself that this love which had grown up so suddenly in
his breast was the one grand passion of his life, and, under different
circumstances, might have been his happiness and redemption.



CHAPTER XX.

"OCEANS SHOULD DIVIDE US."


Mr. and Mrs. Gilbert went to church arm-in-arm as usual on the morning
after the picnic; but Sigismund stayed at home to sketch the rough
outline of that feudal romance which he had planned among the ruins of
Waverly. The day was very fine,--a real summer day, with a blazing sun
and a cloudless blue sky. The sunshine seemed like a good omen, Mrs.
Gilbert thought, as she dressed herself in the white muslin robe that
she was to wear at Mordred. An omen of what? She did not ask herself
that question; but she was pleased to think that the heavens should
smile upon her visit to Mordred. She was thinking of the dinner at the
Priory while she sat by her husband's side in church, looking demurely
down at the Prayer-book in her lap. It was a common thing for her now to
be thinking of _him_ when she ought to have been attending to the
sermon. To-day she did not even try to listen to the rector's discourse.
She was fancying herself in the dusky drawing-room at Mordred, after
dinner, hearing _him_ talk. She saw his face turned towards her in the
twilight--the pale dark face--the dreamy, uncertain eyes. When the
congregation rose suddenly, at the end of the sermon, she sat bewildered
for a moment, like a creature awakened from a dream; and when the people
knelt, and became absorbed in silent meditation on the injunctions of
their pastor, Mrs. Gilbert remained so long in a devotional attitude,
that her husband was fain to arouse her by a gentle tap upon the
shoulder. She had been thinking of _him_ even on her knees. She could
not shut his image from her thoughts; she walked about in a perpetual
dream, and rarely awakened to the consciousness that there was
wickedness in so dreaming; and even when she did reflect upon her sin,
it was very easy to excuse it and make light of it. _He_ would never
know. In November he would be gone, and the dream would be nothing but a
dream.

It was only one o'clock, by the old-fashioned eight-day clock in the
passage, when they went home after church. The gig was to be ready at a
quarter before three, and at that hour they were to start for Mordred.
George meant to put up his horse at the little inn near the Priory
gates, and then they could walk quietly from the church to Mr.
Lansdell's after the service. Mr. Gilbert felt that Brown Molly appeared
rather at a disadvantage in Roland's grand stables.

Sigismund was still sitting in the little parlour, looking very warm,
and considerably the worse for ink. He had tried all the penny bottles
in the course of his labours, and had a little collection of them
clustered at his elbow.

"I don't think any one ever imagined so many ink-bottles compatible with
so little ink," he said, plaintively. "I've had my test ideas baulked by
perpetual hairs in my pen, to say nothing of flies' wings, and even
bodies. There's nothing like unlimited ink for imparting fluency to a
man's language; you cut short his eloquence the moment you limit his
ink. However, I'm down here for pleasure, old fellow," Mr. Smith added,
cheerfully; "and all the printing-machines in the city of London may be
waiting for copy for aught I care."

An hour and three quarters must elapse before it would be time even to
start for Mordred. Mrs. Gilbert went up-stairs and rearranged her hair,
and looked at herself in the glass, and wondered if she was pretty. _He_
had never told her so. He had never paid her any compliment. But she
fancied, somehow, that he thought her pretty, though she had no idea
whence that fancy was derived. She went down-stairs again, and out into
the garden, whence Mr. Smith was calling to her--the little garden in
front of the house, where there were a few common flowers blooming
dustily in oval beds like dishes; and where, in a corner, there was an
erection of shells and broken bits of coloured glass, which Mr. Jeffson
fondly imagined to be the exact representation of a grotto.

Mr. Smith had a good deal to say for himself, as indeed he had on all
occasions; but as his discourse was entirely of a personal character, it
may have been rather wanting in general interest. Isabel strolled up and
down the narrow pathway by his side, and turned her face politely
towards him, and said, "Yes," and "Did you really!" and "Well, how very
strange!" now and then. But she was thinking as she had thought in
church; she was thinking of the wonderful happiness that lay before
her,--an evening in _his_ companionship, amongst pictures and hothouse
flowers and marble busts and trailing silken curtains, and with glimpses
of a moonlit expanse of lawn and shrubbery gleaming through every open
window.

She was thinking of this when a bell rang loud and shrill in her ear:
and looking round suddenly, she saw a man in livery--a man who looked
like a groom--standing outside the garden gate.

She was so near the gate that it would have been a mere affectation to
keep the man waiting there while Mrs. Jeffson made her way from the
remote premises at the back of the house. The Doctor's Wife turned the
key in the lock and opened the gate; but the man only wanted to deliver
a letter, which he gave her with one hand while he touched the brim of
his hat with the other.

"From Mr. Lansdell, ma'am," he said.

In the next moment he was gone, and the open gate and the white dusty
lane seemed to reel before Isabel Gilbert's eyes.

There had been no need for the man to tell her that the letter was from
his master. She knew the bold dashing hand, in which she had read pencil
annotations upon the margins of those books which Mr. Lansdell had lent
her. And even if she had not known the hand, she would have easily
guessed whence the letter came. Who else should send her so
grand-looking a missive, with that thick cream-coloured envelope (a big
official-looking envelope), and the broad coat-of-arms with tall winged
supporters on the seal? But why should he have written to her? It was to
put off the dinner, no doubt. Her lips trembled a little, like the lips
of a child who is going to cry, as she opened the letter.

She read it very hurriedly twice, and then all at once comprehended that
Roland was going away for some years,--for ever,--it was all the same
thing; and that she would never, never, never, never,--the word seemed
to repeat itself in her brain like the dreadful clanging of a
bell,--never see him again!

She knew that Sigismund was looking at her, and asking her some question
about the contents of the letter. "What did Lansdell say? was it a
put-off, or what?" Mr. Smith demanded; but Isabel did not answer him.
She handed him the open letter, and then, suddenly turning from him, ran
into the house, up-stairs, and into her room. She locked the door, flung
herself face downwards upon the bed, and wept as a woman weeps in the
first great agony of her life. The sound of those passionate sobs was
stifled by the pillows amidst which her face was buried, but the anguish
of them shook her from head to foot. It was very wicked to have thought
of him so much, to have loved him so dearly. The punishment of her sin
came to her all at once, and was very bitter.

Mr. Smith stood for some moments staring at the doorway through which
Isabel had disappeared, with the open letter in his hand, and his face a
perfect blank in the intensity of his amazement.

"I suppose it is a put-off," he said to himself; "and she's disappointed
because we're not going. Why, what a child she is still! I remember her
behaving just like that once at Camberwell, when I'd promised her
tickets for the play, and couldn't get 'em. The manager of the T. R. D.
L. said he didn't consider the author of 'The Brand upon the
Shoulder-blade' entitled to the usual privilege. Poor little Izzie! I
remember her running away, and not coming back for ever so long; and
when she did make her appearance, her eyelids were red and swollen."

Mr. Smith stooped to pick up a narrow slip of lavender-tinted paper from
the garden-walk. It was the cheque which Roland Lansdell had written in
payment of the Doctor's services. Sigismund read the letter, and
reflected over it.

"I'm almost as much disappointed as Izzie, for the matter of that," he
thought to himself; "we should have had a jolly good dinner at the
Priory, and any amount of sparkling; and Chateau what's-its-name and
Clos de thingamy to follow, I dare say. I'll take George the letter and
the cheque--it's just like Izzie to leave the cheque on the ground--and
resign myself to a dullish Sunday."

It was a dud Sunday. The unacademical "ish" with which Mr. Smith had
qualified the adjective was quite unnecessary. It was a very dull
Sunday. Ah, reader, if Providence has some desperate sorrow in store for
you, pray that it may not befall you on a Sunday, in the blazing
sunshine, when the church bells are ringing on the still drowsy air. Mr.
Gilbert went up-stairs by-and-by, when the bells were at their loudest,
and, finding the door of his chamber locked, knocked on the panel, and
asked Isabel if she did not mean to go to church. But she told him she
had a dreadful headache, and wanted to stay at home. He asked her ever
so many questions, as to why her head ached, and how long it had ached,
and wanted to see her, from a professional point of view.

"Oh, no, no!" she cried, from the bed upon which she was lying; "I don't
want any medicine; I only want to rest my head; I was asleep when you
knocked."

Ah, what a miserable falsehood that was! as if she could ever hope to
sleep again!

"But, Izzie," remonstrated Mr. Gilbert, "you've had no dinner. There's
cold lamb in the house, you know; and we're going to have that and a
salad after church. You'll come down to dinner, eh?"

"No, no; I don't want any dinner. Please, leave me alone. I _only_ want
to rest," she answered, piteously.

Poor honest George Gilbert little knew how horrible an effort it had
cost his wife to utter even these brief sentences without breaking down
in a passion of sobbing and weeping. She buried her face in the pillows
again as her husband's footsteps went slowly down the narrow stairs. She
was very wretched, very foolish. It was only a dream--nothing more than
a dream--that was lost to her. Again, had she not known all along that
Roland Lansdell would go away, and that all her bright dreams and
fancies must go with him? Had she not counted upon his departure? Yes;
but in November, not in September; not on the day that was to have been
such a happy day.

"Oh, how cruel, how cruel!" she thought. "How cruel of him to go away
like that! without even saying good-bye,--without even saying he was
sorry to go. And I fancied that he liked to talk to me; I fancied that
he was pleased to see me sometimes, and would be sorry when the time
came for him to go away. But to think that he should go away two months
before the time he spoke of,--to think that he should not even be sorry
to go!"

Mrs. Gilbert got up by-and-by, when the western sky was all one lurid
glow of light and colour. She got up because there was little peace for
a weary spirit in that chamber; to the door of which some considerate
creature came every half-hour or so to ask Isabel if her head was any
better by this time, if she would have a cup of tea, if she would come
down-stairs and lie on the sofa, and to torment her with many other
thoughtful inquiries of the like nature. She was not to be alone with
her great sorrow. Sooner or later she must go out and begin life again,
and face the blank world in which _he_ was not. Better, since it must be
so, that she should begin her dreary task at once. She bathed her face
and head, she plaited her long black hair before the little glass,
behind which the lurid sky glared redly at her. Ah, how often in the
sunny morning she had stood before that shabby old-fashioned glass
thinking of him, and the chance of meeting him beside the mill-stream,
under the flickering shadows of the oak-leaves at Thurston's Crag! And
now it was all over, and she would never, never, never, never see him
again! Her life was finished. Ah, how truly he had spoken on the
battlements of the ruined tower! and how bitterly the meaning of his
words came home to her to-day! Her life was finished. The curtain had
fallen, and the lights were out; and she had nothing more to do but to
grope blindly about upon a darkened stage until she sank in the great
vampire-trap--the grave. A pale ghost, with sombre shadowy hair, looked
back at her from the glass. Oh, if she could die, if she could die! She
thought of the mill-stream. The wheel would be idle; and the water low
down in the hollow beyond the miller's cottage would be still to-night,
still and placid and glassy, shining rosy red in the sunset like the
pavement of a cathedral stained with the glory of a painted window. Why
should she not end her sorrows for ever in the glassy pool, so deep, so
tranquil? She thought of Ophelia, and the miller's daughter on the banks
of Allan Water. Would she be found floating on the stream, with weeds of
water-lilies tangled in her long dark hair? Would she look pretty when
she was dead? Would _he_ be sorry when he heard of her death? Would he
read a paragraph in the newspapers some morning at breakfast, and break
a blood-vessel into his coffee-cup? Or would he read and not care? Why
should he care? If he had cared for her, he could never have gone away,
he could never have written that cruel formal letter, with not a word of
regret--no, not one. Vague thoughts like these followed one another in
her mind. If she could have the courage to go down to the water's brink,
and to drop quietly into the stream where Roland Lansdell had once told
her it was deepest.

She went down-stairs by-and-by, in the dusk, with her face as white as
the tumbled muslin that hung about her in limp and flabby folds. She
went down into the little parlour, where George and Sigismund were
waiting for their tea, and where two yellow mould-candles were flaring
in the faint evening breeze. She told them that her head was better; and
then began to make the tea, scooping up vague quantities of congou and
gunpowder with the little silver scollop-shell, which had belonged to
Mr. Gilbert's grandmother, and was stamped with a puffy profile of
George, the Third.

"But you've been crying, Izzie!" George exclaimed presently, for Mrs.
Gilbert's eyelids looked red and swollen in the light of the candles.

"Yes, my head was so bad it made me cry; but please don't ask me any
more about it," Isabel pleaded, piteously. "I suppose it was the
p-pic-nic"--she nearly broke down upon the word, remembering how good
_he_ had been to her all through the happy day--"yesterday that made me
ill."

"I dare say it was that lobster-salad," Mr. Gilbert answered, briskly:
"I ought to have told you not to eat it. I don't think there's anything
more bilious than lobster-salad dressed with cream."

Sigismund Smith watched his hostess with a grave countenance, while she
poured out the tea and handed the cups right and left. Poor Isabel
managed it all with tolerable steadiness; and then, when the miserable
task was over, she sat by the window alone, staring blankly out at the
dusty shrubs distinct in the moonlight, while her husband and his friend
smoked their cigars in the lane outside.

How was she to bear her life in that dull dusty lane--her odious life,
which would go on and on for ever, like a slow barge crawling across
dreary flats upon the black tideless waters of a canal? How was she to
endure it? All its monotony, all its misery, its shabby dreariness, its
dreary shabbiness, rose up before her with redoubled force; and the
terror of that hideous existence smote her like a stroke from a giant's
hand.

It all came back. Yes, it came back. For the last two months it had
ceased to be; it had been blotted out--hidden, forgotten; there had been
no such thing. An enchanter's wand had been waved above that dreary
square-built house in the dusty lane, and a fairy palace had arisen for
her habitation; a fairy-land of beauty and splendour had spread itself
around her, a paradise in which she wandered hand in hand with a
demigod. The image of Roland Lansdell had rilled her life, to the
exclusion of every other shape, animate or inanimate. But the fairy-land
melted away all at once, like a mirage in the desert; like the last
scene in a pantomime, the rosy and cerulean lights went out in foul
sulphurous vapours. The mystic domes and minarets melted into thin air;
but the barren sands remained real and dreary, stretching away for ever
and for ever before the wanderer's weary feet.

In all Mrs. Gilbert's thoughts there was no special horror or aversion
of her husband. He was only a part of the dulness of her life; he was
only one dreary element of that dreary world in which Roland Lansdell
was not. He was very good to her, and she was vaguely sensible of his
goodness, and thankful to him. But his image had no abiding place in her
thoughts. At stated times he came home and ate his dinner, or drank his
tea, with substantial accompaniment of bread and butter and crisp
garden-stuff; but, during the last two months, there had been many times
when his wife was scarcely conscious of his presence. She was happy in
fairy-land, with the prince of her perpetual fairy tale, while poor
George Gilbert munched bread and butter and crunched overgrown radishes.
But the fairy tale was finished now, with an abrupt and cruel climax;
the prince had vanished; the dream was over. Sitting by that open
window, with her folded arms resting on the dusty sill, Mrs. Gilbert
wondered how she was to endure her life.

And then her thoughts went back to the still pool below the mill-stream.
She remembered the happy, drowsy summer afternoon on which Roland
Lansdell had stood by her side and told her the depth of the stream. She
closed her eyes, and her head sank forward upon her folded arms, and all
the picture came back to her. She heard the shivering of the rushes, the
bubbling splash of a gudgeon leaping out of the water: she saw the
yellow sunlight on the leaves, the beautiful sunlight creeping in
through every break in the dense foliage; and she saw his face turned
towards her with that luminous look, that bright and tender smile, which
had only seemed another kind of sunshine.

Would he be sorry if he opened the newspaper and read a little paragraph
in a corner to the effect that she had been found floating amongst the
long rushes in that very spot? Would he remember the sunny afternoon,
and the things he had said to her? His talk had been very dreamy and
indefinite; but there had been, or had seemed to be, an undercurrent of
mournful tenderness in all he said, as vague and fitful, as faint and
mysterious, as the murmuring of the summer wind among the rushes.

The two young men came in presently, smelling of dust and tobacco smoke.
They found Isabel lying on the sofa, with her face turned to the wall.
Did her head still ache? Yes, as badly as ever.

George sat down to read his Sunday paper. He was very fond of a Sunday
paper; and he read all the accidents and police reports, and the
indignant letters from liberal-minded citizens, who signed themselves
Aristides, and Diogenes, and Junius Brutus, and made fiery protests
against the iniquities of a bloated aristocracy. While the surgeon
folded the crackling newspaper and cut the leaves, he told Isabel about
Roland Lansdell's cheque.

"He has sent me five-and-twenty pounds," he said. "It's very liberal;
but of course I can't think of taking such a sum, I've been a good deal
about amongst his farm-people,--for there's been so much low fever this
last month,--but I've been looking over the account I'd made out against
him, and it doesn't come to a five-pound note. I suppose he's been used
to deal with physicians, who charge a guinea for every visit. I shall
send him back his cheque."

Isabel shuddered as she listened to her husband's talk. How low and mean
all this discussion about money seemed! Had not the enclosure of the
cheque in that cruel letter been almost an insult? What was her husband
better than a tradesman, when there could be this question of accounts
and payment between him and Roland Lansdell?

And then she thought of Clotilde and the Duchess,--the Duchess with her
glittering hair and the cruel azure eyes. She thought of "marble pillars
gleaming white against the purple of the night;" of "crimson curtains
starred with gold, and high-bred beauty brightly cold." She thought of
all that confusion of colour and glitter and perfume and music which was
the staple commodity in Mr. Lansdell's poetic wares; and she wondered,
in self-abasement and humiliation, how she could have ever for a moment
deluded herself with the idea that he could feel one transient sentiment
of regard or admiration for such a degraded being as herself. She
thought of her scanty dresses, that never had the proper number of
breadths in the skirt; she thought of her skimpy sleeves made in last
year's fashion, her sunburnt straw hat, her green parasol faded like
sickly grass at the close of a hot summer. She thought of the gulf
between herself and the master of Mordred, and wondered at her madness
and presumption.

       *       *       *       *       *

Poor George Gilbert was quite puzzled by his wife's headache, which was
of a peculiarly obstinate nature, lasting for some days. He gave her
cooling draughts, and lotions for her forehead, which was very hot under
his calm professional hand. Her pulse was rapid, her tongue was white,
and the surgeon pronounced her to be bilious. He had not the faintest
suspicion of any mental ailment lurking at the root of these physical
derangements. He was very simple-minded, and, being incapable of wrong
himself, measured all his decent fellow-creatures by a fixed standard.
He thought that the good and the wicked formed two separate classes as
widely apart as the angels of heaven and the demons of the fiery depths.
He knew that there were, somewhere or other in the universe, wives who
wronged their husbands and went into outer darkness, just as he knew
that in dismal dens of crime there lurked robbers and murderers, forgers
and pickpockets, the newspaper record of whose evil deeds made no
unpleasant reading for quiet Sunday afternoons. But of vague sentimental
errors, of shadowy dangers and temptations, he had no conception. He had
seen his wife pleased and happy in Roland Lansdell's society; and the
thought that any wrong to himself, how small soever, could arise out of
that companionship, had never entered his mind. Mr. Raymond had remarked
of the young surgeon that a man with such a moral region was born to be
imposed upon.

The rest of the week passed in a strange dreary way for Isabel. The
weather was very fine, cruelly fine; and to Mrs. Gilbert the universe
seemed all dust and sunshine and blankness. Sigismund was very kind to
her, and did his best to amuse her, reciting the plots of numerous
embryo novels, which were to take Camden Town by storm in the future.
But she sat looking at him without seeing him, and his talk sounded a
harsh confusion on her ear. Oh, for the sound of that other voice,--that
other voice, which had attuned itself to such a tender melody! Oh, for
the beautiful cynical talk about the hollowness of life, and the
wretchedness of things in general! Poor simple-hearted Mr. Smith made
himself positively hateful to Isabel during that dismal week by reason
of his efforts to amuse her.

"If he would only let me alone!" she thought. "If people would only have
mercy upon me and let me alone!"

But that was just what every one seemed determined not to do. Sigismund
devoted himself exclusively to the society of his young hostess. William
Jeffson let the weeds grow high amongst the potatoes while he planted
standard rose-bushes, and nailed up graceful creepers, and dug, and
improved, and transplanted in that portion of the garden which made a
faint pretence to prettiness. Was it that he wished to occupy Mrs.
Gilbert's mind, and to force her to some slight exertion? He did not
prune a shrub, or trim a scrap of box, without consulting the Doctor's
Wife upon the subject; and Isabel was called out into the garden
half-a-dozen times in an hour.

And then during his visit Sigismund insisted upon taking Mrs. Gilbert to
Warncliffe to dine with his mother and sisters. Mr. Smith's family made
quite a festival for the occasion: there was a goose for dinner,--a
vulgar and savoury bird; and a big damson pie, and apples and pears in
green leaf-shaped dishes for dessert; and of course Isabel's thoughts
wandered away from that homely mahogany, with its crimson worsted
d'oyleys and dark-blue finger-glasses, to the oval table at Mordred and
all its artistic splendour of glass and fruit and flowers.

The Smith family thought Mrs. Gilbert very quiet and insipid; but
luckily Sigismund had a great deal to say about his own achievements,
past, present, and future; so Isabel was free to sit in the twilight
listening dreamily to the slow footsteps in the old-fashioned street
outside--the postman's knock growing fainter and fainter in the
distance--and the cawing of the rooks in a grove of elms on the
outskirts of the town.

Mr. Smith senior spent the evening in the bosom of his family, and was
put through rather a sharp examination upon abstruse questions in
chancery and criminal practice by his aspiring son, who was always
getting into morasses of legal difficulty, from which he required to be
extricated by professional assistance.

The evening seemed a very long one to poor Isabel; but it was over at
last, and Sigismund conducted her back to Graybridge in a jolting
omnibus; and during that slow homeward drive she was free to sit in a
corner and think of _him_.

Mr. Smith left his friends on the following day; and before going, he
walked with Isabel in the garden, and talked to her a little of her
life.

"I dare say it is a little dull at Graybridge," he said, as if in answer
to some remark of Isabel's, and yet she had said nothing. "I dare say
you do find it a little dull, though George is one of the best fellows
that ever lived, and devoted to you; yes, Izzie, devoted to you, in his
quiet way. He isn't one of your demonstrative fellows, you know; can't
go into grand romantic raptures, or anything of that kind. But we were
boys together, Izzie, and I know him thoroughly: and I know that he
loves you dearly, and would break his honest heart if anything happened
to you; or he was--anyhow to take it into his head that you didn't love
him. But still, I dare say, you do find life rather slow work down here;
and I can't help thinking that if you were to occupy yourself a little
more than you do, you'd be happier. Suppose, now," cried Mr. Smith,
palpably swelling with the importance of his idea,--"suppose you were to
WRITE A NOVEL! THERE! You don't know how happy it would make you. Look
at me. I always used to be sighing and lamenting, and wishing for this,
that, or the other: wishing I had ten thousand a year, or a Grecian
nose, or some worldly advantage of that sort; but since I've taken to
writing novels, I don't think I've a desire unsatisfied. There's nothing
I haven't done--on paper. The beautiful women I've loved and married;
the fortunes I've come into, always unexpectedly, and when I was at the
very lowest ebb, with a tendency to throw myself into the Serpentine in
the moonlight; the awful vengeance I've wreaked upon my enemies; the
murders I've committed would make the life of a Napoleon Buonaparte seem
tame and trivial by comparison. I suppose it isn't I that steal up the
creaking stair, with a long knife tightly grasped and gleaming blue in
the moonbeams that creep through a chink in the shutter; but I'm sure I
enjoy myself as much as if it was. And if I were a young lady,"
continued Mr. Smith, speaking with some slight hesitation, and glancing
furtively at Isabel's face,--"if I were a young lady, and had a kind of
romantic fancy for a person I ought not to care about, I'll tell you
what I'd do with him,--I'd put him into a novel, Izzie, and work him out
in three volumes; and if I wasn't heartily sick of him by the time I got
to the last chapter, nothing on earth would cure me."

This was the advice which Sigismund gave to Isabel at parting. She
understood his meaning, and resented his interference. She was beginning
to feel that people guessed her wickedness, and tried to cure her of her
madness. Yes; she was very wicked--very mad. She acknowledged her sin,
but she could not put it away from her. And now that he was gone, now
that he was far away, never to come back, never to look upon her face
again, surely there could be no harm in thinking of him. She did think
of him, daily and hourly; no longer with any reservation, no longer with
any attempt at self-deception. Eugene Aram and Ernest Maltravers, the
Giaour and the Corsair, were alike forgotten. The real hero of her life
had come, and she bowed down before his image, and paid him perpetual
worship. What did it matter? He was gone! He was as far away from her
life now as those fascinating figments of the poetic brain, Messrs. Aram
and Maltravers. He was a dream, like all the other dreams of her life;
only he could never melt away or change as they had done.



CHAPTER XXI.

"ONCE MORE THE GATE BEHIND ME FALLS."


All through the autumnal months, all through the dreary winter, George
Gilbert's wife endured her existence, and hated it. The days were all
alike, all "dark and cold and dreary;" and her life was "dark and cold
and dreary" like the days. She did not write a novel. She did not
accomplish any task, or carry out any intention; but she began a great
many undertakings, and grew tired of them, and gave them up in despair.
She wrote a few chapters of a novel; a wild weird work of fiction, in
which Mr. Roland Lansdell reigned paramount over all the rules of
Lindley Murray, and was always nominative when he ought to have been
objective, and _vice versa_, and did altogether small credit to the
university at which he was described to have gained an impossible
conglomeration of honours. Mrs. Gilbert very soon got tired of the
novel, though it was pleasant to imagine it in a complete form taking
the town by storm. _He_ would read it, and would know that she had
written it. Was there not a minute description of Lord Thurston's oak in
the very first chapter? It was pleasant to think of the romance, neatly
bound in three volumes. But Mrs. Gilbert never got beyond a few random
chapters, in which the grand crisis of the work--the first meeting of
the hero and heroine, the death of the latter by drowning and of the
former by rupture of a blood-vessel, and so on--were described. She
could not do the every-day work; she could erect a fairy palace, and
scatter lavish splendour in its spacious halls; but she could not lay
down the stair-carpets, or fit the window-blinds, or arrange the planned
furniture. She tore up her manuscript; and then for a little time she
thought that she would be very good; kind to the poor, affectionate to
her husband, and attentive to the morning and afternoon sermons at
Graybridge church. She made a little book out of letter-paper, and took
notes of the vicar's and the curate's discourses; but both those
gentlemen had a fancy for discussing abstruse points of doctrine far
beyond Mrs. Gilbert's comprehension, and the Doctor's Wife found the
business of a reporter very difficult work. She made her poor little
unaided effort to repent of her sins, and to do good. She cut up her
shabbiest dresses and made them into frocks for some poor children, and
she procured a packet of limp tracts from a Conventford bookseller, and
distributed them with the frocks; having a vague idea that no charitable
benefaction was complete unless accompanied by a tract.

Alas for this poor sentimental child! the effort to be good, and pious,
and practical did not sit well upon her. She got on very well with some
of the cottagers' daughters, who had been educated at the national
school, and were as fond of reading novels as herself; she fraternized
with these damsels, and lent them odd volumes out of her little library,
and even read aloud to them on occasion; and the vicar of Graybridge,
entering one day a cottage where she was sitting, was pleased to hear a
humming noise, as of the human voice, and praised Mrs. Gilbert for her
devotion to the good cause. He might not have been quite so well pleased
had he heard the subject of her lecture, winch had relation to a
gentleman of loose principles and buccaneering propensities--a gentleman
who

           "Left a Corsair's name to other times,
     Link'd with one virtue and a thousand crimes."

But even these feeble attempts to be good-ah! how short a time it seemed
since Isabel Gilbert had been a child, subject to have her ears boxed by
the second Mrs. Sleaford! how short a time since to "be good" meant to
be willing to wash the teacups and saucers, or to darn a three-cornered
rent in a hobbledehoy's jacket!--even these feeble efforts ceased
by-and-by, and Mrs. Gilbert abandoned herself to the dull monotony of
her life, and solaced herself with the thought of Roland Lansdell as an
opium-eater beguiles his listless days with the splendid visions that
glorify his besotted stupor. She resigned herself to her life, and was
very obedient to her husband, and read novels as long as she could get
one to read, and was for ever thinking of what might have been--if she
had been free, and if Roland Lansdell had loved her. Alas! he had only
too plainly proved that he did not love her, and had never loved her. He
had made this manifest by cruelly indisputable evidence at the very time
when she was beginning to be unutterably happy in the thought that she
was somehow or another nearer and dearer to him than she ought to have
been.

The dull autumn days and the dark winter days dragged themselves out,
and Mr. Gilbert came in and went out, and attended to his duties, and
ate his dinner, and rode Brown Molly between the leafless hedgerows,
beside the frozen streams, as contentedly as he had done in the bright
summer time, when his rides had lain through a perpetual garden. His was
one of those happy natures which are undisturbed by any wild yearnings
after the unattainable. He had an idea of exchanging his Graybridge
practice for a better one by-and-by, and he used to talk to Isabel of
this ambitious design, but she took little interest in the subject. She
had evinced very little interest in it from the first, and she displayed
less now. What would be the use of such a change? It could only bring
her a new kind of dreariness; and it was something to stand shivering on
the little bridge under Lord Thurston's oak, so bare and leafless now;
it was something to see even the chimney-pots of Mordred, the wonderful
clusters of dark red-brick chimneys, warm against the chill December
sky.

Mrs. Gilbert did not forget that passage in Roland Lansdell's letter, in
which he had placed the Mordred library at her disposal. But she was
very slow to avail herself of the privilege thus offered to her. She
shrank away shyly from the thought of entering _his_ house, even though
there was no chance of meeting him in the beautiful rooms; even though
he was at the other end of Europe, gay and happy, and forgetful of her.
It was only by-and-by, when Mr. Lansdell had been gone some months, and
when the dulness of her life had grown day by day more oppressive, that
Isabel Gilbert took courage to enter the noble gates of Mordred. Of
course she told her husband whither she was going--was it not her duty
so to do?--and George good-naturedly approving--"though I'm sure you've
got books enough already," he said; "for you seem to be reading all
day"--she set out upon a wintry afternoon and walked alone to the
Priory. The old housekeeper received her very cordially.

"I've been expecting to see you every day, ma'am, since Mr Lansdell left
us," the worthy woman exclaimed: "for he said as you were rare and fond
of books, and was to take away any that you fancied; and John's to carry
them for you, ma'am; and I was to pay you every attention. But I was
beginning to think you didn't mean to come at all, ma'am."

There were fires in many of the rooms, for Mr. Lansdell's servants had a
wholesome terror of that fatal blue mould which damp engenders upon the
surface of a picture. The firelight glimmered upon golden frames, and
glowed here and there in the ruby depths of rich Bohemian glass, and
flashed in fitful gleams upon rare porcelain vases and groups of
stainless marble; but the rooms had a desolate look, somehow, in spite
of the warmth and light and splendour.

Mrs. Warman, the housekeeper, told Isabel of Mr. Lansdell's whereabouts.
He was at Milan, Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey had been good enough to tell
Mrs. Warman; somewheres in Italy that was, the housekeeper believed; and
he was to spend the rest of the winter in Rome, and then he was going on
to Constantinople, and goodness knows where! For there never was such a
traveller, or any one so restless-like.

"Isn't it a pity he don't marry his cousin, Lady Gwendoline, and settle
down like his pa?" said Mrs. Warman. "It do seem a shame for such a
place as this to be shut up from year's end to year's end, till the very
pictures get quite a ghastly way with them, and seem to stare at one
reproachful-like, as if they was asking, over and over again, 'Where is
he? Why don't he come home?'"

Isabel was standing with her back to the chill wintry sky outside the
window, and the housekeeper did not perceive the effect of her
discourse. That simple talk was very painful to Mrs. Gilbert. It seemed
to her as if Roland Lansdell's image receded farther and farther from
her in this grand place, where all the attributes of his wealth and
station were a standing evidence of the great gulf between them.

"What am I to him?" she thought. "What can such a despicable wretch as I
am ever be to him? If he comes home it will be to marry Lady Gwendoline.
Perhaps he will tell her how he used to meet me by the mill-stream, and
they will laugh together about me."

Had her conduct been shameless and unwomanly, and would he remember her
only to despise her? She hoped that if Roland Lansdell ever returned to
Midlandshire it would be to find her dead. He could not despise her if
she was dead. The only pleasant thought she had that afternoon was the
fancy that Mr. Lansdell might come back to Mordred, and engage himself
to his cousin, and the marriage would take place at Graybridge church;
and as he was leading his bride along the quiet avenue, he would start
back, anguish-stricken, at the sight of a newly-erected headstone--"To
the memory of Isabel Gilbert, aged 20." 20! that seemed quite old, Mrs.
Gilbert thought. She had always fancied that the next best thing to
marrying a duke would be to fade into an early grave before the age of
eighteen.

The first visit to Mordred made the Doctor's Wife very unhappy. Was it
not a reopening of all the old wounds? Did it not bring too vividly back
to her the happy summer day when _he_ had sat beside her at luncheon,
and bent his handsome head and subdued his deep voice as he talked to
her?

Having broken the ice, however, she went very often to the Priory; and
on one or two occasions even condescended to take an early cup of tea
with Mrs. Warman, the housekeeper, though she felt that by so doing she
in some small measure widened the gulf between Mr. Lansdell and herself.
Little by little she grew to feel quite at home in the splendid rooms.
It was very pleasant to sit in a low easy-chair in the library,--_his_
easy-chair,--with a pile of books on the little reading-table by her
side, and the glow of the great fire subdued by a noble screen of
ground-glass and brazen scroll-work. Mrs. Gilbert was honestly fond of
reading, and in the library at Mordred her life seemed less bitter than
elsewhere. She read a great deal of the lighter literature upon Mr.
Lansdell's book-shelves,--poems and popular histories, biographies and
autobiographies, letters, and travels in bright romantic lands. To read
of the countries through which Mr. Lansdell wandered seemed almost like
following him.

As Mrs. Gilbert grew more and more familiar with the grand old mansion,
and more and more friendly with Mrs. Warman the housekeeper, she took to
wandering in and out of all the rooms at pleasure, sometimes pausing
before one picture, sometimes sitting before another for half an hour at
a time lost in reverie. She knew all the pictures, and had learned their
histories from Mrs. Warman, and ascertained which of them were most
valued by Mr. Lansdell. She took some of the noble folios from the lower
shelves of the library, and read the lives of her favourite painters,
and stiff translations of Italian disquisitions on art. Her mind
expanded amongst all the beautiful things around her, and the graver
thoughts engendered out of grave books pushed away many of her most
childish fancies, her simple sentimental yearnings. Until now she had
lived too entirely amongst poets and romancers; but now grave volumes of
biography opened to her a new picture of life. She read the stories of
real men and women, who had lived and suffered real sorrows, prosaic
anguish, hard commonplace trial and misery. Do you remember how, when
young Caxton's heart had been wrung by youth's bitterest sorrows, the
father sends his son to the "Life of Robert Hall" for comfort? Isabel,
very foolish and blind as compared with the son of Austin Caxton, was
yet able to take some comfort from the stories of good men's sorrows.
The consciousness of her ignorance increased as she became less
ignorant; and there were times when this romantic girl was almost
sensible, and became resigned to the fact that Roland Lansdell could
have no part in the story of her life. If the drowsy life, the quiet
afternoons in the deserted chambers of the Priory, could have gone
smoothly on for ever, Isabel Gilbert might have, little by little,
developed into a clever and sensible woman; but the current of her
existence was not to glide with one dull motion to the end. There were
to be storms and peril of shipwreck, and fear and anguish, before the
waters flowed into a quiet haven, and the story of her life was ended.

One day in March, one bleak day, when the big fires in the rooms at
Mordred seemed especially comfortable, Mrs. Gilbert carried her books
into an inner apartment, half boudoir, half drawing-room, at the end of
a long suite of splendid chambers. She took off her bonnet and shawl,
and smoothed her dark hair before the glass. She had altered a little
since the autumn, and the face that looked out at her to-day was thinner
and older than that passionate tear-blotted face which she had seen in
the glass on the night of Roland Lansdell's departure. Her sorrow had
not been the less real because it was weak and childish, and had told
considerably upon her appearance. But she was getting over it. She was
almost sorry to think that it was so. She was almost grieved to find
that her grief was less keen than it had been six months ago, and that
the splendour of Roland Lansdell's image was perhaps a trifle faded.

But to-day Mrs. Warman was destined to undo the good work so newly
effected by grave books, and to awaken all Isabel's regrets for the
missing squire of Mordred. The worthy housekeeper had received a letter
from her master, which she brought in triumph to Mrs. Gilbert. It was a
very brief epistle, enclosing cheques for divers payments, and giving a
few directions about the gardens and stables. "See that pines and grapes
are sent to Lord Ruysdale's, whenever he likes to have them; and I shall
be glad if you send hothouse fruit and flowers occasionally to Mr.
Gilbert, the surgeon of Graybridge. He was very kind to some of my
people. Be sure that every attention is shown to Mrs. Gilbert whenever
she comes to Mordred."

Isabel's eyes grew dim as she read this part of the letter. He thought
of her far away--at the other end of the world almost, as it seemed to
her, for his letter was dated from Corfu; he remembered her existence,
and was anxious for her happiness! The books were no use to her that
day. She sat, with a volume open in her lap, staring at the fire, and
thinking of _him_. She went back into the old italics again. His image
shone out upon her in all its ancient splendour. Oh, dreary, dreary life
where he was not! How was she to endure her existence? She clasped her
hands in a wild rapture. "Oh, my darling, if you could know how I love
you!" she whispered, and then started, confused and blushing. Never
until that moment had she dared to put her passion into words. The
Priory clocks struck three succeeding hours, but Mrs. Gilbert sat in the
same attitude, thinking of Roland Lansdell. The thought of going home
and facing her daily life again was unutterably painful to her. That
fatal letter--so commonplace to a common reader--had revived all the old
exaltation of feeling. Once more Isabel Gilbert floated away upon the
wings of sentiment and fancy, into that unreal region where the young
squire of Mordred reigned supreme, beautiful as a prince in a fairy
tale, grand as a demigod in some classic legend.

The French clock on the mantel-piece chimed the half-hour after four,
and Mrs. Gilbert looked up, aroused for a moment from her reverie.

"Half-past four," she thought; "it will be dark at six, and I have a
long walk home."

Home! she shuddered at the simple monosyllable which it is the special
glory of our language to possess. The word is very beautiful, no doubt;
especially so to a wealthy country magnate,--happy owner of a grand old
English mansion, with fair lands and coverts, home-farm and model-farm
buildings, shadowy park and sunlit pleasaunce, and wonderful dairies
lined with majolica ware, and musical with the plashing of a fountain.

But for Mrs. Gilbert "home" meant a square-built house in a dusty lane,
and was never likely to mean anything better or brighter. She got up
from her low seat, and breathed a long-drawn sigh as she took her bonnet
and shawl from a table near her, and began to put them on before the
glass.

"The parlour at home always looks ugliest and barest and shabbiest when
I have been here," she thought, as she turned away from the glass and
moved towards the door.

She paused suddenly. The door of the boudoir was ajar; all the other
doors in the long range of rooms were open, and she heard a footstep
coming rapidly towards her: a man's footstep! Was it one of the
servants? No; no servant's foot ever touched the ground with that firm
and stately tread. It was a stranger's footstep, of course. Who should
come there that day except a stranger? _He_ was far away--at the other
end of the world almost. It was not within the limits of possibility
that _his_ foot-fall should sound on the floors of Mordred Priory.

And yet! and yet! Isabel stopped, with her heart beating violently, her
hands clasped, her lips apart and tremulous. And in the next moment the
step was close to the threshold, the door was pushed open, and she was
face to face with Roland Lansdell; Roland Lansdell, whom she never
thought to see again upon this earth! Roland Lansdell, whose face had
looked at her in her dreams by day and night any time within these last
six months!

"Isabel--Mrs. Gilbert!" he said, holding out both his hands, and taking
hers, which were as cold as death.

She tried to speak, but no sound came from her tremulous lips. She could
utter no word of welcome to this restless wanderer, but stood before him
breathless and trembling. Mr. Lansdell drew a chair towards her, and
made her sit down.

"I startled you," he said; "you did not expect to see me. I had no right
to come to you so suddenly; but they told me you were here, and I wanted
so much to see you,--I wanted so much to speak to you."

The words were insignificant enough, but there was a warmth and
earnestness in the tones that was new to Isabel. Faint blushes flickered
into her cheeks, so deathly pale a few moments before; her eyelids fell
over the dark unfathomable eyes; a look of sudden happiness spread
itself upon her face and made it luminous.

"I thought you were at Corfu," she said. "I thought you would never,
never, never come back again."

"I have been at Corfu, and in Italy, and in innumerable places. I meant
to stay away; but--but I changed my mind, and I came back. I hope you
are glad to see me again."

What could she say to him? Her terror of saying too much kept her
silent; the beating of her heart sounded in her ears, and she was afraid
that he too must hear that tell-tale sound. She dared not raise her
eyes, and yet she knew that he was looking at her earnestly,
scrutinizingly even.

"Tell me that you are glad to see me," he said. "Ah, if you knew why I
went away--why I tried so hard to stay away--why I have come back after
all--after all--so many resolutions made and broken--so many
deliberations--so much doubt and hesitation! Isabel! tell me you are
glad to see me once more!"

She tried to speak, and faltered out a word or two, and broke down, and
turned away from him. And then she looked round at him again with a
sudden impulse, as innocently and childishly us Zuleika may have looked
at Selim; forgetful for a moment of the square-built house in the dusty
lane, of George Gilbert, and all the duties of her life.

"I have been so unhappy," she exclaimed: "I have been so miserable; and
you will go away again by-and-by, and I shall never, never see you any
more!"

Her voice broke, and she burst into tears; and then, remembering the
surgeon all in a moment, she brushed them hastily away with her
handkerchief.

"You frightened me so, Mr. Lansdell," she said: "and I'm very late, and
I was just going home, and my husband will be waiting for me. He comes
to meet me sometimes when he can spare time. Good-bye."

She held out her hand, looking at Roland nervously as she did so. Did he
despise her very much? she wondered. No doubt he had come home to marry
Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey, and there would be a fine wedding in the
bright May weather. There was just time to go into a consumption between
March and May, Mrs. Gilbert thought; and her tombstone might be ready
for the occasion, if the gods who bestow upon their special favourites
the boon of early death would only be kind to her.

"Good-bye, Mr. Lansdell," she repeated.

"Let me walk with you a little way. Ah, if you knew how I have travelled
night and day; if you knew how I have languished for this hour, and for
the sight of----"

For the sight of what? Roland Lansdell was looking down at the pale face
of the Doctor's Wife as he uttered that unfinished sentence. But amongst
all the wonders that ever made the story of a woman's life wonderful, it
could never surely come to pass that a demigod would descend from the
ethereal regions which were his common habitation, on _her_ account,
Mrs. Gilbert thought. She went home in the chill March twilight; but not
through the bleak and common atmosphere which other people breathed that
afternoon; for Mr. Lansdell walked by her side, and, not encountering
the surgeon, went all the way to Graybridge, and only left Mrs. Gilbert
at the end of the dusty lane in which the doctor's red lamp already
glimmered faintly in the dusk. Would the master of Mordred Priory have
been stricken with any sense of shame if he had met George Gilbert?
There was an air of decision in Lansdell's manner which seemed like that
of a man who acts upon a settled purpose, and has no thought of shame.



CHAPTER XXII.

"MY LOVE'S A NOBLE MADNESS."


Mr. Lansdell did not seem in a hurry to make any demonstration of his
return to Mordred. He did not affect any secrecy, it is true; but he
shut himself a good deal in his own rooms, and seldom went out except to
walk in the direction of Lord Thurston's oak, whither Mrs. Gilbert also
rambled in the chilly spring afternoons, and where Mr. Lansdell and the
Doctor's Wife met each other very frequently: not quite by accident now;
for, at parting, Roland would say, with supreme carelessness, "I suppose
you will be walking this way to-morrow,--it is the only walk worth
taking hereabouts,--and I'll bring you the other volume."

Lord Ruysdale and his daughter were still at Lowlands; but Mr. Lansdell
did not betake himself thither to pay his respects to his uncle and
cousin, as he should most certainly have done in common courtesy. He did
not go near the grey old mansion where the Earl and his daughter
vegetated in gloomy and economical state; but Lady Gwendoline heard from
her maid that Mr. Lansdell had come home; and bitterly resented his
neglect. She resented it still more bitterly by-and-by, when the maid,
who was a little faded like her mistress, and perhaps a little spiteful
into the bargain, let drop a scrap of news she had gleaned in the
servants' hall. Mr. Lansdell had been seen walking on the Graybridge
road with Mrs. Gilbert, the doctor's wife; "and it wasn't the first time
either; and people do say it looks odd when a gentleman like Mr.
Lansdell is seen walking and talking oftentimes with such as her."

The maid saw her mistress's face turn pale in the glass. No matter what
the rank or station or sex of poor Othello; he or she is never suffered
to be at peace, or to be happy--knowing nothing. There is always "mine
ancient," male or female, as the case may be, to bring home the freshest
information about the delinquent.

"I have no wish to hear the servants' gossip about my cousin's
movements," Lady Gwendoline said, with supreme hauteur. "He is the
master of his own actions, and free to go where he pleases and with whom
he pleases."

"I'm sure I beg pardon, my lady, and meant no offence," the maid
answered, meekly. "But she don't like it for all that," the damsel
thought, with an inward chuckle.

Roland Lansdell kept himself aloof from his kindred; but he was not
suffered to go his own way unmolested. The road to perdition is not
quite so smooth and flower-bestrewn a path as we are sometimes taught to
believe. A merciful hand often flings stumbling-blocks and hindering
brambles in our way. It is our own fault if we insist upon clambering
over the rocky barriers, and scrambling through the briery hedges, in a
mad eagerness to reach the goal. Roland had started upon the fatal
descent, and was of course going at that rapid rate at which we always
travel downhill; but the road was not all clear for him. Charles Raymond
of Conventford was amongst the people who heard accidentally of the
young man's return; and about a week after Roland's arrival, the kindly
philosopher presented himself at the Priory, and was fortunate enough to
find his kinsman at home. In spite of Mr. Lansdell's desire to be at his
ease, there was some restraint in his manner as he greeted his old
friend.

"I am very glad to see you, Raymond," he said. "I should have ridden
over to Conventford in a day or two. I've come home, you see."

"Yes, and I am very sorry to see it. This is a breach of good faith,
Roland."

"Of what faith? with whom?"

"With me," answered Mr. Raymond, gravely. "You promised me that you
would go away."

"I did; and I went away."

"And now you have come back again."

"Yes," replied Mr. Lansdell, folding his arms and looking full at his
kinsman, with an ominous smile upon his face,--"yes; the fact is a
little too evident for the basis of an argument. I have come back."

Mr. Raymond was silent for a minute or so. The younger man stood with
his back against the angle of the embayed window, and he never took his
eyes from his friend's face. There was something like defiance in the
expression of his face, and even in his attitude, as he stood with
folded arms leaning against the wainscot.

"I hope, Roland, that since you have come home, it is because the reason
which took you away from this place has ceased to exist. You come back
because you are cured. I cannot imagine it to be otherwise, Roland; I
cannot believe that you have broken faith with me."

"What if I have come home because I find my disease is past all cure!
What if I have kept faith with you, and have tried to forget, and come
back at last because I cannot!"

"Roland!"

"Ah! it is a foolish fever, is it not? very foolish, very contemptible
to the solemn-faced doctor who looks on and watches the wretched patient
tossing and writhing, and listens to his delirious ravings. Have you
ever seen a man in the agonies of _delirium tremens_, catching imaginary
flies, and shrieking about imps and demons capering on his counterpane?
What a pitiful disease it is!--only the effect of a few extra bottles of
brandy: but you can't cure it. You may despise the sufferer, but you
shrink back terror-stricken before the might of the disease. You've done
your duty, doctor: you tried honestly to cure my fever, and I submitted
honestly to your remedies: but you're only a quack, after all: and you
pretended--what all charlatans pretend--to be able to cure the
incurable."

"You have come back with the intention of remaining, then, Roland?"

"_C'est selon_! I have no present idea of remaining here very long."

"And in the meantime you allow people to see you walking the Graybridge
road and loitering about Thurston's Crag with Mrs. Gilbert. Do you know
that already that unhappy girl's name is compromised? The Graybridge
people are beginning to couple her name with yours."

Mr. Lansdell laughed aloud, but not with the pleasant laugh which was
common to him.

"Did you ever look in a British atlas for Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne?"
he asked. "There are some atlases which do not give the name of the
place at all: in others you'll find a little black dot, with the word
'Graybridge' printed in very small letters. The 'British Gazetteer' will
tell you that Graybridge is interesting on account of its church, which,
&c. &c.; that an omnibus plies to and fro between the village and
Warncliffe station; and that the nearest market-town is Wareham. In all
the literature of the world, that's about all the student can learn of
Graybridge. What an affliction it must be to a traveller in the Upper
Pyrenees, or on the banks of the Amazon, to know that people at
Graybridge mix his name sometimes with their tea-table gossip! What an
enduring torture for a loiterer in fair Grecian isles--an idle dreamer
beside the blue depths of a Southern sea--to know that Graybridge
disapproves of him!"

"I had better go away, Roland," Mr. Raymond said, looking at his kinsman
with a sad reproachful gaze, and stretching out his hand to take up the
hat and gloves he had thrown upon a chair near him; "I can do no good
here."

"You cannot separate me from the woman I love," answered Roland, boldly.
"I am a scoundrel, I suppose; but I am not a hypocrite. I might tell you
a lie, and send you away hoodwinked and happy. No, Raymond, I will not
do that. If I am foolish and wicked, I have not sinned deliberately. I
have striven against my folly and my wickedness. When you talked to me
that night at Waverly, you only echoed the reproaches of my own
conscience. I accepted your counsel, and ran away. My love for Isabel
Gilbert was only a brief infatuation, I thought, which would wear itself
out like other infatuations, with time and absence. I went away, fully
resolved never to look upon her face again; and then, and then only, I
knew how truly and how dearly I loved her. I went from place to place;
but I could no more fly from her image than from my own soul. In vain I
argued with myself--as better men have done before my time--that this
woman was in no way superior to other women. Day by day I took my lesson
deeper to heart. I cannot talk of these things to you. There is a kind
of profanation in such a discussion. I can only tell you that I came
back to England with a rooted purpose in my mind. Do not thrust yourself
upon me; you have done your duty, and may wash your hands of me with
Christian-like self-satisfaction; you have nothing further to do in this
_galère_."

"Oh, Roland, that you should ever come to talk to me like this! Have you
no sense of truth or honour? not even the common instinct of a
gentleman? Have you no feeling for that poor honest-hearted fellow who
has judged you by his own simple standard, and has trusted you
implicitly? have you no feeling for him, Roland?"'

"Yes, I am very sorry for him; I am sorry for the grand mistake of his
life. But do you think he could ever be happy with that woman? I have
seen them together, and know the meaning of that grand word 'union' as
applied to them. All the width of the universe cannot divide them more
entirely than they are divided now. They have not one single sentiment
in common. Charles Raymond, I tell you I am not entirely a villain; I do
still possess some lingering remnant of that common instinct of which
you spoke just now. If I had seen Isabel Gilbert happy with a husband
who loved her, and understood her, and was loved by her, I would have
held myself aloof from her pure presence; I would have stifled every
thought that was a wrong to that holy union. I am not base enough to
steal the lamp which lights a good man's home. But if I find a man who
has taken possession of a peerless jewel, as ignorant of its value, and
as powerless to appreciate its beauty, as a soldier who drags a
Raffaelle from the innermost shrine of some ransacked cathedral and
makes a knapsack for himself out of the painted canvas; if I find a pig
trampling pearls under his ruthless feet,--am I to leave the gems for
ever in his sty, in my punctilious dread that I may hurt the feelings of
the animal by taking his unvalued treasure away from him?"

"Other men have argued as you argue to-day, Roland," answered Mr.
Raymond. "Other men have reasoned as you reason, Roland; but they have
not the less brought anguish and remorse upon themselves and upon the
victims of their sin. Did not Rousseau declare that the first man who
enclosed a lot of ground and called it 'mine' was the enemy of the human
race? You young philosophers of our modern day twist the argument
another way, and are ready to avow that the man who marries a pretty
woman is the foe to all unmarried mankind. He should have held himself
aloof, and waited till _the_ man arrived upon the scene,--the man with
poetic sympathies and sublime appreciation of womanly grace and beauty,
and all manner of hazy attributes which are supposed to be acceptable to
sentimental womanhood. Bah, Roland! all this is very well on toned
paper, in a pretty little hot-pressed volume published by Messrs. Moxon;
but the universe was never organized for the special happiness of poets.
There must be jog-trot existences, and commonplace contentment, and
simple every-day households, in which husbands and wives love each
other, and do their duty to each other in a plain prosaic manner. Life
can't be all rapture and poetry. Ah, Roland, it has pleased you of late
years to play the cynic. Let your cynicism save you now. Is it worth
while to do a great wrong, to commit a terrible sin, for the sake of a
pretty face and a pair of black eyes--for the gratification of a passing
folly?"

"It is not a passing folly," returned Mr. Lansdell, fiercely. "I was
willing to think that it was so last autumn, when I took your advice and
went away from this place. I know better now. If there is depth and
truth anywhere in the universe, there is depth and truth in my love for
Isabel Gilbert. Do not talk to me, Raymond. The arguments which would
have weight with other men, have no power with me. It is my fault or my
misfortune that I cannot believe in the things in which other men
believe. Above all, I cannot believe in formulas. I cannot believe that
a few words shuffled over by a parson at Conventford last January
twelvemonth can be strong enough to separate me for ever from the woman
I love, and who loves me. Yes, she loves me, Raymond!" cried the young
man, his face lighting up suddenly with a smile, which imparted a warmth
to his dark complexion like the rich glow of a Murillo. "She loves me,
my beautiful unvalued blossom, that I found blooming all alone and
unnoticed in a desert--she loves me. If I had discovered coldness or
indifference, coquetry or pretence of any kind in her manner the other
day when I came home, I would have gone back even then; I would have
acknowledged my mistake, and would have gone away to suffer alone. My
dear old Raymond, it is your duty, I know, to lecture me and argue with
me; but I tell you again it is only wasted labour; I am past all that.
Try to pity me, and sympathize with me, if you can. Solitude is not such
a pleasant thing, and people do not go through the world alone without
some sufficient reason for their loneliness. There must have been some
sorrow in your life, dear old friend, some mistake, some disappointment.
Remember that, and have pity upon me."

Mr. Raymond was silent for some minutes; he sat with his face shaded
with his hand, and the hand was slightly tremulous.

"There was a sorrow in my life, Roland," he said by-and-by, "a deep and
lasting one; and it is the memory of that sorrow which makes you so dear
to me; but it was a sorrow in which shame had no part. I am proud to
think that I suffered, and suffered silently. I think you can guess,
Roland, why you have always been, and always must be, as dear to me as
my own son."

"I can," answered the young man, holding out his hand, "you loved my
mother."

"I did, Roland, and stood aloof and saw her married to the man she
loved. I held her in my arms and blessed her on her wedding-day in the
church yonder; but never from that hour to this have I ceased to love
and honour her. I have worshipped a shadow all my life; but her image
was nearer and dearer to me than the living beauty of other women. I can
sympathize with a wasted love, Roland; but I cannot sympathize with a
love that seeks to degrade its object."

"Degrade her!" cried Roland; "degrade Isabel! There can be no
degradation in such a love as mine. But, you see, we think differently,
we see things from a different point of view. You look through the
spectacles of Graybridge, and see an elopement, a scandal, a paragraph
in the county papers. I recognize only the immortal right of two free
souls, who know that they have been created for each other."

"Do you ever think of your mother, Roland? I remember how dearly she
loved you, and how proud she was of the qualities that made you worthy
to be her son. Do you ever think of her as a living presence, conscious
of your sorrows, compassionate of your sins? I think, if you considered
her thus, Roland, as I do,--she has never been dead to me; she is the
ideal in my life, and lifts my life above its common level,--if you
thought of her as I do, I don't think you could hold to the bad purpose
that has brought you back to this place."

"If I believed what you believe," cried Mr. Lansdell, with sudden
animation, "I should be a different man from what I am--a better man
than you are, perhaps. I sometimes wonder at such as you, who believe in
all the glories of unseen worlds, and yet are so eager and so worldly in
all your doings upon this shabby commonplace earth. If _I_ believed, I
think I should be blinded and intoxicated by the splendour of my
heritage; I would turn Trappist, and live in a dumb rapture from year's
end to year's end. I would go and hide myself amid the mountain-tops,
high up amongst the eagles and the stars, and ponder upon my glory. But
you see it is my misfortune not to believe in that beautiful fable. I
must take my life as it is; and if, after ten foolish, unprofitable
years, Fate brings one little chance of supreme happiness in my way, who
shall tell me to withhold my hand? who shall forbid me to grasp my
treasure?"

Mr. Raymond was not a man to be easily put off. He stayed at Mordred for
the remainder of the day and dined with his young cousin, and sat
talking with him until late at night; but he went away at last with a
sad countenance and a heavy heart. Roland's disease was past the cure of
philosophy. What chance have Friar Lawrence and philosophy ever had
against Miss Capulet's Grecian nose and dark Italian eyes, the balmy air
of a warm Southern night, the low harmonious murmur of a girlish voice,
the gleaming of a white arm on a moonlit balcony?



CHAPTER XXIII.

A LITTLE CLOUD.


Isabel was happy. He had returned; he had returned to her; never again
to leave her! Had he not said something to that effect? He had returned,
because he had found existence unendurable away from her presence. Mr.
Lansdell had told the Doctor's Wife all this, not once, but twenty
times; and she had listened, knowing that it was wicked to listen, and
yet powerless to shut her ears against the sweet insidious words. She
was beloved; for the first time in her life really, truly, sentimentally
beloved, like the heroine of a novel. She was beloved; despite of her
shabby dresses, her dowdy bonnets, her clumsy country-made boots. All at
once, in a moment, she was elevated into a queen, crowned with woman's
noblest diadem, the love of a poet. She was Beatrice, and Roland
Lansdell was Dante; or she was Leonora, and he was Tasso; she did not
particularly care which. Her ideas of the two poets and their loves were
almost as vague as the showman's notion of the rival warriors of
Waterloo. She was the shadowy love of the poet, the pensive impossible
love, who never could be more to him than a perpetual dream.

This was how Isabel Gilbert thought of the master of Mordred, who met
her so often now in the chill spring sunshine. There was a kind of
wickedness in these stolen meetings, no doubt, she thought; but her
wickedness was no greater than that of the beautiful princess who smiled
upon the Italian poet. In that serene region of romance, that mystic
fairy-land in which Isabel's fancies dwelt, sin, as the world
comprehends it, had no place. There was no such loathsome image in that
fair kingdom of fountains and flowers. It was very wrong to meet Mr.
Lansdell; but I doubt if the happiness of those meetings would have had
quite such an exquisite flavour to Isabel had that faint _soupçon_ of
wickedness been wanting.

Did Mrs. Gilbert ever think that the road which seemed so pleasant, the
blossoming pathway along which she wandered hand in hand with Roland
Lansdell, was all downhill, and that there was a black and hideous goal
hidden below in the farther-most valley? No; she was enraptured and
intoxicated by her present happiness, blinded by the glory of her
lover's face. It had been very difficult for her to realize the splendid
fact of his love and devotion; but once believing, she was ready to
believe for ever. She remembered a sweet sentimental legend of the
Rhineland: the story of a knight who, going away to the wars, was
reported as dead: whereon his lady-love, despairing, entered a convent,
and consecrated the sad remainder of her days to heaven. But by-and-by
the knight, who had not been killed, returned, and finding that his
promised bride was lost to him, devoted the remainder of _his_ days to
constancy and solitude; building for himself a hermitage upon a rock
high above the convent where his fair and faithful Hildegonde spent her
pure and pious days. And every morning with the earliest flush of light
in the low Eastern sky, and all day long, and when the evening-star rose
pale and silvery beneath the purpling heavens, the hermit of love sat at
the door of his cell gazing upon the humble casement behind which it
pleased him to fancy his pure mistress kneeling before her crucifix,
sometimes mingling his name with her prayers. And was not the name of
the knight Roland--_his_ name? It was such a love as this which Isabel
imagined she had won for herself. It is such a love as this which is the
dearest desire of womankind,--a beautiful, useless, romantic
devotion,--a wasted life of fond regretful worship. Poor weak
sentimental Mary of Scotland accepts Chastelar's poetic homage, and is
pleased to think that the poet's heart is breaking because of her grace
and loveliness, and would like it to go on breaking for ever. But the
love-sick poet grows weary of that distant worship, and would scale the
royal heavens to look nearer at the brightness of his star; whence come
confusions and troubles, and the amputation of that foolish
half-demented head.

So there was no thought of peril to herself or to others in Mrs.
Gilbert's mind when she stood on the bridge above the mill-stream
talking with Roland Lansdell. She had a vague idea that she was not
exactly doing her duty to her husband; but poor George's image only
receded farther and farther from her. Did she not still obey his
behests, and sit opposite to him at the little dinner-table, and pour
out his tea at breakfast, and assist him to put on his overcoat in the
passage before he went out? Could she do more for him than that? No; he
had himself rejected all further attention. She had tried to brush his
hat once in a sudden gush of dutiful feeling; but she had brushed the
nap the wrong way, and had incurred her husband's displeasure. She had
tried to read poetry to him, and he had yawned during her lecture. She
had put flowers on his dressing-table--white fragile-looking flowers--in
a tall slender vase with a tendril of convolvulus twined artfully round
the stem, like a garland about a classic column; and Mr. Gilbert had
objected to the perfumed blossoms as liable to generate carbonic-acid
gas. What could any one do for such a husband as this? The tender
sentimental raptures, the poetic emotions, the dim aspirations, which
Isabel revealed to Roland, would have been as unintelligible as the
Semitic languages to George. Why should she not bestow this other half
of her nature upon whom she chose? If she gave her duty and obedience to
Othello, surely Cassio might have all the poetry of her soul, which the
matter-of-fact Moor despised and rejected.

It was something after this wise that Isabel reasoned when she did
reason at all about her platonic attachment for Roland Lansdell. She was
very happy, lulled to rest by her own ignorance of all danger, rather
than by any deeply-studied design on the part of her lover. His manner
to her was more tender than a father's manner to his favourite
child,--more reverential than Raleigh's to Elizabeth of England,--but in
all this he had no thought of deception. The settled purpose in his mind
took a firmer root every day; and he fancied that Isabel understood him,
and knew that the great crisis of her life was fast approaching, and had
prepared herself to meet it.

One afternoon, late in the month, when the March winds were bleaker and
more pitiless than usual, Isabel went across the meadows where the
hedgerows were putting forth timid little buds to be nipped by the chill
breezes, and where here and there a violet made a tiny speck of purple
on the grassy bank. Mr. Lansdell was standing on the bridge when Isabel
approached the familiar trysting-place, and turned with a smile to greet
her. But although he smiled as he pressed the slender little hand that
almost always trembled in his own, the master of Mordred was not very
cheerful this afternoon. It was the day succeeding that on which Charles
Raymond had dined with him, and the influence of his kinsman's talk
still hung about him and oppressed him. He could not deny that there had
been truth and wisdom in his friend's earnest pleading; but he could not
abandon his purpose now. Long vacillating and irresolute, long doubtful
of himself and all the world, he was resolved at last, and obstinately
bent upon carrying out his resolution.

"I am going to London, Isabel," he said, after standing by Mrs. Gilbert
for some minutes, staring silently at the water; "I am going to London
to-morrow morning, Isabel." He always called her Isabel now, and
lingered with a kind of tenderness upon the name. Edith Dombey would
have brought confusion upon him for this presumption, no doubt, by one
bright glance of haughty reproof; but poor Isabel had found out long ago
that she in no way resembled Edith Dombey.

"Going to London!" cried the Doctor's Wife, piteously; "ah, I knew, I
knew that you would go away again, and I shall never see you any more."
She clasped her hands in her sudden terror, and looked at him with a
world of sorrow and reproach in her pale face. "I knew that it would be
so!" she repeated; "I dreamt the other night that you had gone away, and
I came here; and, oh, it seemed such a dreadful way to come, and I kept
taking the wrong turnings, and going through the wrong meadows; and when
I came, there was only some one--some stranger, who told me that you
were gone, and would never come back."

"But, Isabel--my love--my darling!--" the tender epithets did not
startle her; she was so absorbed by the fear of losing the god of her
idolatry,--"I am only going to town for a day or two to see my
lawyer--to make arrangements--arrangements of vital importance;--I
should be a scoundrel if I neglected them, or incurred the smallest
hazard by delaying them an hour. You don't understand these sort of
things, Isabel; but trust me, and believe that your welfare is dearer to
me than my own. I must go to town; but I shall only be gone a day or
two--two days at the most--perhaps only one. And when I come back,
Izzie, I shall have something to say to you--something very
serious--something that had better be said at once--something that
involves all the happiness of my future life. Will you meet me here two
days hence,--on Wednesday, at three o'clock? You will, won't you,
Isabel? I know I do wrong in exposing you to the degradation of these
stolen meetings. If I feel the shame so keenly, how much worse it must
be for you--my own dear girl--my sweet innocent darling. But this shall
be the last time, Isabel,--the last time I will ask you to incur any
humiliation for me. Henceforward we will hold our heads high, my love;
for at least there shall be no trickery or falsehood in our lives."

Mrs. Gilbert stared at Roland Lansdell in utter bewilderment. He had
spoken of shame and degradation, and had spoken in the tone of a man who
had suffered, and still suffered, very bitterly. This was all Isabel
could gather from her lover's speech, and she opened her eyes in blank
amazement as she attended to him. Why should he be ashamed, or
humiliated, or degraded? Was Dante degraded by his love for Beatrice?
was Waller degraded by his devotion to Saccharissa--for ever evidenced
by so many charming versicles, and never dropping down from the rosy
cloud-land of poetry into the matter-of-fact regions of prose? Degraded!
ashamed!--her face grew crimson all in a moment as these cruel words
stung her poor sentimental heart.

She wanted to run away all at once, and never see Mr. Lansdell again.
Her heart would break, as a matter of course; but how infinitely
preferable to shame would be a broken heart and early death with an
appropriate tombstone! The tears rolled down her flushed cheek, as she
turned away her face from Roland. She was almost stifled by mingled
grief and indignation.

"I did not think you were ashamed to meet me here sometimes," she sobbed
out; "you asked me to come. I did not think that you were humiliated by
talking to me--I----"

"Why, Izzie--Isabel darling!" cried Roland, "can you misunderstand me so
utterly? Ashamed to meet you--ashamed of your society! Can you doubt
what would have happened had I come home a year earlier than it was my
ill fortune to come? Can you doubt for a moment that I would have chosen
you for my wife out of all the women in the universe, and that my
highest pride would have been the right to call you by that dear name? I
was too late, Izzie, too late; too late to win that pure and perfect
happiness which would have made a new man of me, which would have
transformed me into a good and useful man, as I think. I suppose it is
always so; I suppose there is always one drop wanting in the cup of joy,
that one mystic drop which would change the commonplace potion into an
elixir. I came too late! Why should I have everything in this world? Why
should I have fifteen thousand a year, and Mordred Priory, and the right
to acknowledge the woman I love in the face of all creation, while there
are crippled wretches sweeping crossings for the sake of a daily crust,
and men and women wasting away in great prison-houses called Unions,
whose first law is the severance of every earthly tie? I came too late,
and I suppose it was natural that I should so come. Millions of
destinies have been blighted by as small a chance as that which has
blighted mine, I dare say. We must take our fate as we find it, Isabel;
and if we are true to each other, I hope and believe that it may be a
bright one even yet--even yet."

A woman of the world would have very quickly perceived that Mr.
Lansdell's discourse must have relation to more serious projects than
future meetings under Lord Thurston's oak, with interchange of divers
volumes of light literature. But Isabel Gilbert was not a woman of the
world. She had read novels while other people perused the Sunday papers;
and of the world out of a three-volume romance she had no more idea than
a baby. She believed in a phantasmal universe, created out of the pages
of poets and romancers; she knew that there were good people and bad
people--Ernest Maltraverses and Lumley Ferrerses, Walter Gays and
Carkers; but beyond this she had very little notion of mankind; and
having once placed Mr. Lansdell amongst the heroes, could not imagine
him to possess one attribute in common with the villains. If he seemed
intensely in earnest about these meetings under the oak, she was in
earnest too; and so had been the German knight, who devoted the greater
part of his life to watching the casement of his lady-love.

"I shall see you sometimes," she said, with timid hesitation,--"I shall
see you sometimes, shan't I, when you come home from town? Not often, of
course; I dare say it isn't right to come here often, away from George;
and the last time I kept him waiting for his dinner; but I told him
where I had been, and that I'd seen you, and he didn't mind a bit."

Roland Lansdell sighed.

"Ah, don't you understand, Isabel," he said, "that doubles our
degradation? It is for the very reason that he 'doesn't mind,' it is
precisely because he is so simple-hearted and trusting, that we ought
not to deceive the poor fellow any longer. That's the degradation,
Izzie; the deception, not the deed itself. A man meets his enemy in fair
fight and kills him, and nobody complains. The best man must always win,
I suppose; and if he wins by fair means, no one need grudge him his
victory. I mystify you, don't I, my darling, by all this rambling talk?
I shall speak plainer on Wednesday. And now let me take you homewards,"
added Mr. Lansdell, looking at his watch, "if you are to be at home at
five."

He knew the habits of the doctor's little household, and knew that five
o'clock was Mr. Gilbert's dinner-hour. There was no conversation of any
serious nature during the homeward walk--only dreamy talk about books
and poets and foreign lands. Mr. Lansdell told Isabel of bright spots in
Italy and Greece, wonderful villages upon the borders of blue lakes
deeply hidden among Alpine slopes, and snow-clad peaks like stationary
clouds--beautiful and picturesque regions which she must see by-and-by,
Roland added gaily.

But Mrs. Gilbert opened her eyes very wide and laughed aloud. How should
she ever see such places? she asked, smiling. George would never go
there; he would never be rich enough to go; nor would he care to go,
were he ever so rich.

And while she was speaking, Isabel thought that, after all, she cared
very little for those lovely lands; much as she had dreamed about them
and pined to see them, long ago in the Camberwell garden, on still
moonlight nights, when she used to stand on the little stone step
leading from the kitchen, with her arms resting on the water-butt, like
Juliet's on the balcony, and fancy it was Italy. Now she was quite
resigned to the idea of never leaving Graybridge-on-the-Wayverne. She
was content to live there all her life, as long as she could see Mr.
Lansdell now and then; so long as she could know that he was near her,
thinking of her and loving her, and that at any moment his dark face
might shine out of the dulness of her life. A perfect happiness had come
to her--the happiness of being beloved by the bright object of her
idolatry; nothing could add to that perfection; the cup was full to the
very brim, filled with an inexhaustible draught of joy and delight.

Mr. Lansdell stopped to shake hands with Isabel when they came to the
gate leading into the Graybridge road.

"Good-bye," he said softly: "good-bye, until Wednesday, Isabel.
Isabel--what a pretty name it is! You have no other Christian name?"

"Oh no."

"Only Isabel--Isabel Gilbert. Good-bye."

He opened the gate and stood watching the Doctor's Wife as she passed
out of the meadow, and walked at a rapid pace towards the town. A man
passed along the road as Mr. Lansdell stood there, and looked at him as
he went by, and then turned and looked after Isabel.

"Raymond is right, then," thought Roland; "they have begun to stare and
chatter already. Let them talk about me at their tea-tables, and
paragraph me in their newspapers, to their hearts' content! My soul is
as much above them as the eagle soaring sunward is above the sheep that
stare up at him from the valleys. I have set my foot upon the fiery
ploughshare, but my darling shall be carried across it scatheless, in
the strong arms of her lover."

Mrs. Gilbert went home to her husband, and sat opposite to him at dinner
as usual; but Roland's words, dimly as she had comprehended their
meaning, had in some manner influenced her, for she blushed when George
asked her where she had been that cold afternoon. Mr. Gilbert did not
see the blush, for he was carving the joint as he asked the question,
and indeed had asked it rather as a matter of form than otherwise. This
time Mrs. Gilbert did not tell her husband that she had met Roland
Lansdell. The words "shame and degradation" were ringing in her ears all
dinner-time. She had tasted, if ever so little, of the fruit of the
famous tree, and she found the flavour thereof very bitter. It must be
wrong to meet Roland under Lord Thurston's oak, since he said it was so;
and the meeting on Wednesday was to be the last; and yet their fate was
to be a happy one; had he not said so, in eloquently mysterious words,
whose full meaning poor Isabel was quite unable to fathom? She brooded
over what Mr. Lansdell said all that evening, and a dim sense of
impending trouble crept into her mind. He was going away for ever,
perhaps; and had only told her otherwise in order to lull her to rest
with vain hopes, and thus spare himself the trouble of her lamentations.
Or he was going to London to arrange for a speedy marriage with Lady
Gwendoline. Poor Isabel could not shake off her jealous fears of that
brilliant high-bred rival, whom Mr. Lansdell had once loved. Yes; he had
once loved Lady Gwendoline. Mr. Raymond had taken an opportunity of
telling Isabel all about the young man's early engagement to his cousin;
and he had added a hope that, after all, a marriage between the two
might yet be brought about; and had not the housekeeper at Mordred said
very much the same thing?

"He will marry Lady Gwendoline," Isabel thought, in a sudden access of
despair; "and that is what he is going to tell me on Wednesday. He was
different to-day from what he has been since he came back to Mordred.
And yet--and yet--" And yet what? Isabel tried in vain to fathom the
meaning of all Roland Lansdell's wild talk--now earnestly grave--now
suddenly reckless--one moment full of hope, and in the next tinctured
with despair. What was this simple young novel-reader to make of a man
of the world, who was eager to defy the world, and knew exactly what a
terrible world it was that he was about to outrage and defy?

Mrs. Gilbert lay awake all that night, thinking of the meeting by the
waterfall. Roland's talk had mystified and alarmed her. The ignorant
happiness, the unreflecting delight in her lover's presence, the daily
joy that in its fulness had no room for a thought of the morrow, had
vanished all at once like a burst of sunlight eclipsed by the darkening
clouds that presage a storm. Eve had listened to the first whispers of
the serpent, and Paradise was no longer entirely beautiful.



CHAPTER XXIV.

LADY GWENDOLINE DOES HER DUTY.


Mrs. Gilbert stayed at home all through the day which succeeded her
parting from Roland Lansdell. She stayed in the dingy parlour, and read
a little, and played upon the piano a little, and sketched a few profile
portraits of Mr. Lansdell, desperately inky and sentimental, with
impossibly enormous eyes. She worked a little, wounding her fingers, and
hopelessly entangling her thread; and she let the fire out two or three
times, as she was accustomed to do very often, to the aggravation of
Mrs. Jeffson. That hard-working and faithful retainer came into the
parlour at two o'clock, carrying a little plate of seed-cake and a glass
of water for her mistress's frugal luncheon; and finding the grate black
and dismal for the second time that day, fetched a bundle of wood and a
box of matches, and knelt down to rekindle the cavernous cinders in no
very pleasant humour.

"I'm sorry I've let the fire out again, Mrs. Jeffson," Isabel said
meekly. "I think there must be something wrong in the grate somehow, for
the fire always _will_ go out."

"It usen't to go out in Master George's mother's time," Mrs. Jeffson
answered, rather sharply, "and it was the same grate then. But my dear
young mistress used to sit in yon chair, stitch, stitch, stitch at the
Doctor's cambric shirt-fronts, and the fire was always burning bright
and pleasant when he came home. She was a regular stay-at-home, she
was," added the housekeeper, in a musing tone; "and it was very rare as
she went out beyond the garden, except on a summer's evening, when the
Doctor took her for a walk. She didn't like going out alone, poor dear;
for there was plenty of young squires about Graybridge as would have
been glad enough to follow her and talk to her, and set people's
malicious tongues chattering about her, if she'd have let 'em. But she
never did; she was as happy as the day was long, sitting at home,
working for her husband, and always ready to jump up and run to the door
when she heard his step outside--God bless her innocent heart!"

Mrs. Gilbert's face grew crimson as she bent over a sheet of paper on
which the words "despair" and "prayer," "breath" and "death," were
twisted into a heartrending rhyme. Ah, this was a part of the shame and
degradation of which Roland had spoken. Everybody had a right to lecture
her, and at every turn the perfections of the dead were cast
reproachfully in her face. As if _she_ did not wish to be dead and at
rest, regretted and not lectured, deplored rather than slandered and
upbraided. These vulgar people laid their rude hands upon her cup of
joy, and changed its contents into the bitter waters of shame. These
commonplace creatures set themselves up as the judges of her life, and
turned all its purest and brightest poetry into a prosaic record of
disgrace. The glory of the Koh-i-noor would have been tarnished by the
print of such base hands as these. How could these people read her
heart, or understand her love for Roland Lansdell? Very likely the
serene lady of the Rhineland, praying in her convent-cell, was slandered
and misrepresented by vulgar boors, who, passing along the roadway
beneath, saw the hermit-knight sitting at the door of his cell and
gazing fondly at his lost love's casement.

Such thoughts as this arose in Isabel's mind, and she was angry and
indignant at the good woman who presumed to lecture her. She pushed away
the plate of stale cake, and went to the window flushed and resentful.
But the flush faded all in a moment from her face when she saw a lady in
a carriage driving slowly towards the gate,--a lady who wore a great
deal of soft brown fur, and a violet velvet bonnet with drooping
features, and who looked up at the house as if uncertain as to its
identity. The lady was Lord Ruysdale's daughter; and the carriage was
only a low basket-phaeton, drawn by a stout bay cob, and attended by a
groom in a neat livery of dark blue. But if the simple equipage had been
the fairy chariot of Queen Mab herself, Mrs. Gilbert could scarcely have
seemed more abashed and astounded by its apparition before her door. The
groom descended from his seat at an order from his mistress, and rang
the bell at the surgeon's gate; and then Lady Gwendoline, having
recognized Isabel at the window, and saluted her with a very haughty
inclination of the head, abandoned the reins to her attendant, and
alighted.

Mrs. Jeffson had opened the gate by this time, and the visitor swept by
her into the little passage, and thence into the parlour, where she
found the Doctor's Wife standing by the table, trifling nervously with
that scrap of fancy-work whose only progress was to get grimier and
grimier day by day under Isabel's idle fingers.

Oh, what a dingy shabby place that Graybridge parlour was always! how
doubly and trebly dingy it seemed to-day by contrast with that gorgeous
Millais-like figure of Gwendoline Pomphrey, rich and glorious in violet
velvet and Russian sable, with the yellow tints of her hair contrasted
by the deep purple shadows under her bonnet. Mrs. Gilbert almost sank
under the weight of all that aristocratic splendour. She brought a chair
for her visitor, and asked in a tremulous voice if Lady Gwendoline would
be pleased to sit. There was a taint of snobbishness in her reverential
awe of the Earl's handsome daughter. Was not Lady Gwendoline the very
incarnation of all her own foolish dreams of the beautiful? Long ago, in
the Camberwell garden, she had imagined such a creature; and now she
bowed herself before the splendour, and was stricken with fear and
trembling in the dazzling presence. And then there were other reasons
that she should tremble and turn pale Might not Lady Gwendoline have
come to announce her intended marriage with Mr. Lansdell, and to smite
the poor wretch before her with sudden madness and despair? Isabel felt
that some calamity was coming down upon her: and she stood pale and
silent, meekly waiting to receive her sentence.

"Pray sit down, Mrs. Gilbert," said Lady Gwendoline; "I wish to have a
little conversation with you. I am very glad to have found you at home,
and alone."

The lady spoke very kindly, but her kindness had a stately coldness that
crept like melted ice through Isabel's veins, and chilled her to the
bone.

"I am older than you, Mrs. Gilbert," said Lady Gwendoline, after a
little pause, and she slightly winced as she made the confession; "I am
older than you; and if I speak to you in a manner that you may have some
right to resent as an impertinent interference with your affairs, I
trust that you will believe I am influenced only by a sincere desire for
your welfare."

Isabel's heart sank to a profounder depth of terror than before when she
heard this. She had never in her life known anything but unpleasantness
to come from people's desire for her welfare: from the early days in
which her step-mother had administered salutary boxes on the ear, and
salts and senna, with an equal regard to her moral and physical
improvement. She looked up fearfully at Lady Gwendoline, and saw that
the fair Saxon face of her visitor was almost as pale as her own.

"I am older than you, Mrs. Gilbert," repeated Gwendoline, "and I know my
cousin Roland Lansdell much better than you can possibly know him."

The sound of the dear name, the sacred name, which to Isabel's mind
should only have been spoken in a hushed whisper, like a tender
pianissimo passage in music, shot home to the foolish girl's heart. Her
face flushed crimson, and she clasped her hands together, while the
tears welled slowly up to her eyes.

"I know my cousin better than you can know him; I know the world better
than you can know it. There are some women, Mrs. Gilbert, who would
condemn you unheard, and who would consider their lips sullied by any
mention of your name. There are many women in my position who would hold
themselves aloof from you, content to let you go your own way. But I
take leave to think for myself in all matters. I have heard Mr. Raymond
speak very kindly of you; I cannot judge you as harshly as other people
judge you; I cannot believe you to be what your neighbours think you."

"Oh, what, what can they think me?" cried Isabel, trembling with a vague
fear--an ignorant fear of some deadly peril utterly unknown to her, and
yet close upon her; "what harm have I done, that they should think ill
of me? what can they say of me? what can they say?"

Her eyes were blinded by tears, that blotted Lady Gwendoline's stern
face from her sight. She was still so much a child, that she made no
effort to conceal her terror and confusion. She bared all the foolish
secrets of her heart before those cruel eyes.

"People say that you are a false wife to a simple-hearted and trusting
husband," Lord Ruysdale's daughter answered, with pitiless calmness; "a
false wife in thought and intention, if not in deed; since you have
lured my cousin back to this place; and are ready to leave it with him
as his mistress whenever he chooses to say 'Come.' That is what people
think of you; and you have given them only too much cause for their
suspicion. Do you imagine that you could keep any secret from
Graybridge? do you think your actions or even your thoughts could escape
the dull eyes of these country people, who have nothing better to do
than watch the doings of their neighbours?" demanded Lady Gwendoline,
bitterly. Alas! she knew that her name had been bandied about from
gossip to gossip; and that her grand disappointment in the matter of
Lord Heatherland, her increasing years, and declining chances of a prize
in the matrimonial lottery had been freely discussed at all the
tea-tables in the little country town.

"Country people find out everything, Mrs. Gilbert," she said, presently.
"You have been watched in your sentimental meetings and rambles with Mr.
Lansdell; and you may consider yourself very fortunate if no officious
person has taken the trouble to convey the information to your husband."

Isabel had been crying all this time, crying bitterly, with her head
bent upon her clasped hands; but to Lady Gwendoline's surprise she
lifted it now, and looked at her accuser with some show of indignation,
if not defiance.

"I told George every--almost every time I met Mr. Lansdell," she
exclaimed; "and George knows that he lends me books; and he likes me to
have books--nice, in-st-structive books," said Mrs. Gilbert, stifling
her sobs as best she might; "and I n-never thought that anybody could be
so wicked as to fancy there was any harm in my meeting him. I don't
suppose any one ever said anything to Beatrice Portinari, though she was
married, and Dante loved her very dearly; and I only want to see him now
and then, and to hear him talk; and he has been very, very kind to me."

"Kind to you!" cried Lady Gwendoline, scornfully. "Do you know the value
of such kindness as his? Did you ever hear of any good coming of it? Did
such kindness ever bear any fruit but anguish and misery and
mortification? You talk like a baby, Mrs. Gilbert, or else like a
hypocrite. Do you know what my cousin's life has been? Do you know that
he is an infidel, and outrages his friends by opinions which he does not
even care to conceal? Do you know that his name has been involved with
the names of married women before to-day? Are you besotted enough to
think that his new fancy for you is anything more than the caprice of an
idle and dissipated man of the world, who is ready to bring ruin upon
the happiest home in England for the sake of a new sensation, a little
extra aliment for the vanity which a host of foolish women have pampered
into his ruling vice?"

"Vanity!" exclaimed Mrs. Gilbert; "oh, Lady Gwendoline, how can you say
that _he_ is vain? It is you who do not know him. Ah, if you could only
know how good he is, how noble, how generous! I know that he would never
try to injure me by so much as a word or a thought. Why should I not
love him; as we love the stars, that are so beautiful and so distant
from us? Why should I not worship him as Helena worshipped Bertram, as
Viola loved Zanoni? The wicked Graybridge people may say what they like;
and if they tell George anything about me, I will tell him the truth;
and then--and then, if I was only a Catholic, I would go into a convent
like Hildegonde! Ah, Lady Gwendoline, you do not understand such love as
mine!" added Isabel, looking at the Earl's daughter with an air of
superiority that was superb in its simplicity.

She was proud of her love, which was so high above the comprehension of
ordinary people. It is just possible that she was even a little proud of
the slander which attached to her. She had all her life been pining for
the glory of martyrdom, and lo, it had come upon her. The fiery circlet
had descended upon her brow; and she assumed a dignified pose in order
to support it properly.

"I only understand that you are a very foolish person," Lady Gwendoline
answered, coldly; "and I have been extremely foolish to trouble myself
about you. I considered it my duty to do what I have done, and I wash my
hands henceforward of you and your affairs. Pray go your own way, and do
not fear any further interference from me. It is quite impossible that I
can have the smallest association with my cousin's mistress."

She hurled the cruel word at the Doctor's Wife, and departed with a
sound of silken rustling in the narrow passage. Isabel heard the
carriage drive away, and then flung herself down upon her knees, to sob
and lament her cruel destiny. That last word had stung her to the very
heart. It took all the poetry out of her life; it brought before her, in
its fullest significance, the sense of her position. If she met Roland
under Lord Thurston's oak,--if she walked with him in the meadows that
his footsteps beautified into the smooth lawns of Paradise,--people,
vulgar, ignorant people, utterly unable to comprehend her or her love,
would say that she was his mistress. His mistress! To what people she
had heard that word applied! And Beatrice Portinari, and Viola, and
Leila, and Gulnare, and Zelica, what of them? The visions of all those
lovely and shining creatures arose before her; and beside them, in
letters of fire, blazed the odious word that transformed her fond
platonic worship, her sentimental girlish idolatry, into a shame and
disgrace.

"I will see him to-morrow and say farewell to him," she thought. "I will
bid him good-bye for ever and ever, though my heart should break,--ah,
how I hope it may, as I say the bitter word!--and never, never will see
him again. I know now what he meant by shame and humiliation; I can
understand all he said now."

       *       *       *       *       *

Mrs. Gilbert had another of her headaches that evening, and poor George
was obliged to dine alone. He went up-stairs once or twice in the course
of the evening to see his wife, and found her lying very quietly in the
dimly-lighted room with her face turned to the wall. She held out her
hand to him as he bent over her, and pressed his broad palm with her
feverish fingers.

"I'm afraid I've been neglectful of you sometimes, George," she said;
"but I won't be so again. I won't go out for those long walks, and keep
you waiting for dinner; and if you would like a set of new shirts
made--you said the other day that yours were nearly worn out--I should
like to make them for you myself. I used to help to make the shirts for
my brothers, and I don't think I should pucker so much now; and, oh,
George, Mrs. Jeffson was talking of your poor mother to-day, and I want
you to tell me what it was she died of."

Mr. Gilbert patted his wife's hand approvingly, and laid it gently down
on the coverlet.

"That's a melancholy subject, my love," he said, "and I don't think it
would do either of us any good to talk about it. As for the shirts, my
dear, it's very good of you to offer to make them; but I doubt if you'd
manage them as well as the work-woman at Wareham, who made the last.
She's very reasonable; and she's lame, poor soul; so it's a kind of
charity to employ her. Good-bye for the present, Izzie; try to get a
nap, and don't worry your poor head about anything."

He went away, and Isabel listened to his substantial boots creaking down
the stairs, and away towards the surgery. He had come thence to his
wife's room, and he left a faint odour of drugs behind him. Ah, how that
odious flavour of senna and camomile flowers brought back a magical
exotic perfume that had floated towards her one day from _his_ hair as
he bent his head to listen to her foolish talk! And now the senna and
camomile were to flavour all her life. She was no longer to enjoy that
mystical double existence, those delicious glimpses of dreamland, which
made up for all the dulness of the common world that surrounded her.

If she could have died, and made an end of it all! There are moments in
life when death seems the _only_ issue from a dreadful labyrinth of
grief and horror. I suppose it is only very weak-minded people--doubtful
vacillating creatures like Prince Hamlet of Denmark--who wish to die,
and make an easy end of their difficulties; but Isabel was not by any
means strong-minded, and she thought with a bitter pang of envy of the
commonplace young women whom she had known to languish and fade in the
most interesting pulmonary diseases, while she so vainly yearned for the
healing touch which makes a sure end of all mortal fevers. But there was
something--one thing in the world yet worth the weariness of
existence--that meeting with _him_--that meeting which was to be also an
eternal parting. She would see him once more; he would look down at her
with his mysterious eyes--the eyes of Zanoni himself could scarcely have
been more mystically dark and deep. She would see him, and perhaps that
strangely intermingled joy and anguish would be more fatal than earthly
disease, and she would drop dead at his feet, looking to the last at the
dark splendour of his face--dying under the spell of his low tender
voice. And then, with a shudder, she remembered what Lady Gwendoline had
said of her demi-god. Dissipated and an infidel; vain, selfish! Oh,
cruel, cruel slander,--the slander of a jealous woman, perhaps, who had
loved him and been slighted by him. The Doctor's Wife would not believe
any treasonous whisper against her idol. Only from his own lips could
come the words that would be strong enough to destroy her illusions. She
lay awake all that night thinking of her interview with Lady Gwendoline,
acting the scene over and over again; hearing the cruel words repeated
in her ears with dismal iteration throughout the dark slow hours. The
pale cheerless spring daylight came at last, and Mrs. Gilbert fell
asleep just when it was nearly time for her to think of getting up.

The doctor breakfasted alone that morning, as he had dined the day
before. He begged that Isabel might not be disturbed, A good long spell
of rest was the best thing for his wife's head, he told Mrs. Jeffson; to
which remark that lady only replied by a suspicious kind of sniff,
accompanied by a jerk of the head, and followed by a plaintive sigh, all
of which were entirely lost upon the parish surgeon.

"Females whose headaches keep 'em a-bed when they ought to be seeing
after their husband's meals hadn't ought to marry," Mrs. Jeffson
remarked, with better sense than grammar, when she took George's
breakfast paraphernalia back to the kitchen. "I heard down the street
just now, as _he_ come back to the Priory late last night, and I'll lay
she'll be goin' out to meet him this afternoon, William."

Mr. Jeffson, who was smoking his matutinal pipe by the kitchen fire,
shook his head with a slow melancholy gesture as his wife made this
remark.

"It's a bad business, Tilly," he said, "a bad business first and last.
If _he_ was anything of a man, he'd keep away from these parts, and 'ud
be above leadin' a poor simple little thing like that astray. Them
poetry-hooks and such like, as she's allus a-readin', has half turned
her head long ago, and it only needs a fine chap like him to turn it
altogether. I mind what I say to Muster Jarge the night as I fust see
her; and I can see her face now, Tilly, as I see it then, with the eyes
fixed and lookin' far away like; and I knew then what I know better
still now, my lass,--them two'll never get on together. They warn't made
for one another. I wonder sometimes to see the trouble a man'll take
before he gets a pair o' boots, to find out as they're a good fit and
won't gall his foot when he comes to wear 'em; but t' same man'll go and
get married as careless and off-hand like, as if there weren't the
smallest chance of his wife's not suiting him. I was took by thy good
looks, lass, I won't deny, when I first saw thee," Mr. Jeffson added,
with diplomatic gallantry; "but it wasn't because of thy looks as I
asked thee to be my true wife, and friend, and companion, throughout
this mortal life and all its various troubles."



CHAPTER XXV.

"FOR LOVE HIMSELF TOOK PART AGAINST HIMSELF."


It was eleven o'clock when Isabel woke; and it was twelve when she sat
down to make some pretence of eating the egg and toast which Mrs.
Jeffson set before her. The good woman regarded her young mistress with
a grave countenance, and Mrs. Gilbert shrank nervously from that honest
gaze. Shame and disgrace--she had denied the application of those
hideous words to herself: but the cup which she had repudiated met her
lips at every turn, and the flavour of its bitter waters was
intermingled with everything she tasted. She turned away from Mrs.
Jeffson, and felt angry with her. Presently, when the faithful
housekeeper was busy in the kitchen, Mrs. Gilbert went softly up-stairs
to her room, and put on her bonnet and shawl.

She was not to meet _him_ till three o'clock in the afternoon, and it
was now only a little after twelve; but she could not stay in the house.
A terrible fever and restlessness had taken possession of her lately.
Had not her life been altogether one long fever since Roland Lansdell's
advent in Midlandshire? She looked back, and remembered that she had
lived once, and had been decently contented, in utter ignorance of this
splendid being's existence. She had lived, and had believed in the
shadowy heroes of books, and in great clumsy grey-coated officers
stationed at Conventford, and in a sickly curate at Camberwell; and
long, long ago--oh, unutterable horror!--in a sentimental-looking young
chemist's apprentice in the Walworth Road, who had big watery-looking
blue eyes, and was not so very unlike Ernest Maltravers, and who gave
more liberal threepenny-worths of lavender-water or hair-oil than any
other chemist on the Surrey side of the water--to Isabel! not to other
people! Miss Sleaford sent one of the boys for the usual
threepenny-worth on one occasion, and the chemist's measure was very
different, and the young lady was not a little touched by this proof of
her admirer's devotion.

And looking back now she remembered these things, and wondered at them,
and hated herself because of them. There was no low image of a chemist's
assistant lurking dimly in the background of Viola's life when she met
her fate in the person of Zanoni. All Isabel's favourite heroines seemed
to look out at her reproachfully from their cloudland habitations, as
she remembered this portion of her existence. She had lived, and there
had been no prophetic vision of _his_ face among all her dreams. And now
there was nothing for her but to try to go back to the same dull life
again, since to-day she was to part from him for ever.

The day was a thorough March day--changeable in mood--now brightened by
a sudden glimpse of the sun, now grey and threatening, dull and
colourless as the life which lay before Isabel Gilbert when _he_ should
be gone, and the sweet romance of her existence closed abruptly, like a
story that is never to be finished. The Doctor's Wife shuddered as she
went out into the lane, where the dust was blowing into eddying circles
every now and then by a frolicsome north-easter. She closed the gate
safely behind her and went away, and to-day for the first time she felt
that her errand was a guilty one. She went into the familiar meadow
pathway; she tried to walk slowly, but her feet seemed to carry her
towards Thurston's Crag in spite of herself; and when she was far from
Graybridge, and looked at her watch, it was only one o'clock, and there
were two long hours that must elapse before Roland Lansdell's coming. It
was only a quarter past one when she came in sight of the miller's
cottage--the pretty little white-walled habitation nestling low down
under big trees, which made a shelter even in winter time. A girl was
standing at a door feeding chickens and calling to them in a loud
cheerful voice. There was no sorrowful love story in her life, Mrs.
Gilbert thought, as she looked at the bouncing red-elbowed young woman.
She would marry some floury-visaged miller's man, most likely, and be
happy ever after. But it was only a momentary thrill of envy that shot
through Isabel's breast. Better to die for Roland Lansdell than to live
for a miller's man in thick clumpy boots and an elaborately-stitched
smock-frock. Better to have lived for the briefest summer time of joy
and triumph, and then to stand aloof upon a rock for ever afterwards,
staring at the wide expanse of waters, and thinking of the past, like
Napoleon at St. Helena.

"He has loved me!" thought Isabel; "I ought never to be unhappy, when I
remember that."

She had brought Shelley with her, and she seated herself upon the bench
under the oak; but she only turned the leaves over and over, and
listened to the brawling waters at her feet, and thought of Roland
Lansdell. Sometimes she tried to think of what her life would be after
she had parted from him; but all the future after four o'clock that
afternoon seemed to recede far away from her, beyond the limits of her
understanding. She had a vague idea that after this farewell meeting she
would be like Louise de la Vallière in the days of her seclusion and
penitence. If Father Newman, or any other enthusiastic Romanist, could
have found her sitting by the brawling water that afternoon, he would
have secured a willing convert to his tender sentimental creed. The poor
bewildered spirit pined for the shadowy aisles of some conventual
sanctuary, the low and solemn music, the glimmering shrines, the dreamy
exaltation and rapture, the separation from a hard commonplace world.
But no sympathetic stranger happened to pass that way while Isabel sat
there, watching the path by which Roland Lansdell must come. She took
out her watch every now and then, always to be disappointed at the slow
progress of the time; but at last--at last--just as a sudden gleam of
sunshine lighted the waterfall, and flickered upon the winding pathway,
a distant church clock struck three, and the master of Mordred Priory
pushed open a little gate, and came in and out among the moss-grown
trunks of the bare elms. In the next minute he was on the bridge; in the
next moment, as it seemed, he was seated by Isabel's side, and had taken
her passive hand in his. For the last time--for the last time! she
thought. Involuntarily her fingers closed on his. How closely they
seemed linked together now; they who so soon were to be for ever parted;
they between whom all the expanse of the Atlantic would have been only
too narrow a barrier!

Mrs. Gilbert looked up sadly and shrinkingly at Roland's face, and saw
that it was all flushed and radiant. There was just the faintest
expression of nervous hesitation about his mouth; but his dark eyes
shone with a resolute glance, and seemed more definite in colour than
Isabel had ever seen them yet.

"My darling," he said, "I am very punctual, am I not? I did not think
you would be here before me. You can never guess how much I have thought
of our meeting to-day, Isabel:--seriously; solemnly even. Do you
remember the garden-scene in 'Romeo and Juliet,' Izzie? What pretty
sportive boy-and-girl gallantry the love-making seems; and yet what a
tragedy comes of it directly after! When I look at you to-day, Isabel,
and think of my sleepless nights, my restless weary days, my useless
wanderings, my broken vows and wasted resolutions, I look back and
remember our first meeting at Warncliffe Castle--our chance meeting. If
I had gone away ten minutes sooner, I might not have seen you--I might
never have seen you. I look back and see it all. I looked up so
indifferently when poor Raymond introduced you to us; it was almost a
bore to get up and bow to you. I thought you were very pretty, a
beautiful pale-faced automaton, with wonderful eyes that belonged of
right to some Italian picture, and not to a commonplace little person
like you. And then--having so little to do, being altogether such an
idle purposeless wretch, and being glad of any excuse for getting away
from my stately cousin and my dear prosy old uncle--I must needs stroll
to Hurstonleigh Grove, and meet you again under the changing shadows of
the grand old trees. Oh, what was it, Isabel? why was it? Was it only
idle curiosity, as I believed, that took me there? Or had the cruel
arrow shot home already; was my destiny sealed even then? I don't
know--I don't know. I am not a good man, Izzie; but I am not utterly bad
either. I went away from you, my dear; I _did_ try to avoid the great
peril of my life; but--you remember the monk in Hugo's 'Notre Dame.' It
seems a grand story in that book, Izzie, but it's the commonest story in
all the world. Some day--some careless day--we look out of the window
and see the creature dancing in the sunshine, and from that moment every
other purpose of our life is done with and forgotten; we can do nothing
but go out and follow her wherever she beckons us. If she is a wicked
siren, she may lure us into the dark recesses of her cave and pick our
bones at her leisure. If she is Undine, and plunges deep down into the
blue water, we can only take a header and go to the bottom after her.
But if she is a dear little innocent creature, worthy of our best love
and worship, why should we not be happy with her ever afterwards, like
the good people in the story-books? why should we not plan a bright life
of happiness and fidelity? Isabel, my darling, I want to talk very
seriously to you to-day. The crisis has come in our lives, and I am to
find out to-day whether you are the true woman I believe you to be, or
only a pretty little village coquette, who has fooled me to the top of
my bent, and who can whistle me off and let me down the wind to prey at
fortune directly I become a nuisance. Izzie, I want you to answer a
serious question to-day, and all the happiness of my future life depends
upon your answer."

"Mr. Lansdell!"

She looked up at him--very much frightened by his manner, but with her
hand still clasping his. The link must so soon be broken for ever. Only
for a little while longer might she retain that dear hand in hers. Half
an hour more, and they would be parted for ever and ever. The pain of
that thought was strangely mingled with the delicious joy of being with
him, of hearing from his lips that she was beloved. What did she care
for Lady Gwendoline now?--cruel jealous Lady Gwendoline, who had
outraged and insulted the purity of her love.

"Isabel," Roland said, very gravely, bending his head to a level with
hers, as he spoke, but looking at the ground rather than at her, "It is
time that we ended this farce of duty and submission to the world; we
have tried to submit, and to rule our lives by the laws which other
people have made for us. But we cannot--we cannot, my dear. We are only
hypocrites, who try to mask our revolt under the pretence of submission.
You come here and meet me, and we are happy together--unutterably and
innocently happy. But you leave me and go home to your husband, and
smile at him, and tell him that, while you were out walking, you met Mr.
Lansdell, and so on; and you hoodwink and fool him, and act a perpetual
lie for his delusion. All that must cease, Isabel. That Preacher, whom
_I_ think the noblest reformer, the purest philosopher whose voice was
ever heard upon this earth, said that we cannot serve two masters. You
cannot go on living the life you have lived for the last three weeks,
Isabel. That is impossible. You have made a mistake. The world will tell
you that, having made it, you must abide by it, and atone for your folly
by a life of dissimulation. There are women brave enough--good enough,
if you like--to do this, and to bear their burden patiently; but you are
not one of them. You cannot dissimulate. Your soul has flown to me like
a bird out of a cage; it is mine henceforth and for ever; as surely as
that I love you,--fatally, unaccountably, mysteriously, but eternally. I
know the strength of my chain, for I have tried to break it. I have held
aloof, and tested the endurance of my love. If I ask you now to accept
that love, it is because I know that it is true and pure,--the true
metal, Izzie, the real virgin gold! I suppose a narrow vein of it runs
through every man's nature; but it is only one woman's hand that has
power to strike upon the precious ore. I love you, Isabel; and I want
you to make an end of your present life, and leave this place for ever.
I have written to an agent to get me a little villa on the outskirts of
Naples. I went there alone, Izzie, two months ago, and set up your image
in the empty rooms, and fancied you hovering here and there in your
white dress, upon the broad marble terrace, with the blue sea below you,
and the mountains above. I have made a hundred plans for our life,
Izzie. There is not a whim or fancy of yours that I have not remembered.
Ah, what happiness! to show you wonderful things and beautiful scenes!
What delicious joy to see your eyes open their widest before all the
fairest pictures of earth! I fancy you with me, Isabel, and, behold, my
life is transformed. I have been so tired of everything in the world;
and yet, with you by my side, all the world will be as fresh as Eden was
to Adam on the first day of his life. Isabel, you need have no doubt of
me. I have doubted myself, and tested myself. Mine is no light love,
that time or custom can change or lessen: if it were, I would have done
my duty, and stayed away from you for ever. I have thought of your
happiness as well as my own, darling; and I ask you now to trust me, and
leave this place for ever."

Something like a cry of despair broke from Isabel's lips. "You ask me to
go away with you!" she exclaimed, looking at Roland as if she could
scarcely believe the testimony of her own ears. "You ask me to leave
George, and be your--mistress! Oh, Lady Gwendoline only spoke the truth,
then. You don't understand--no one understands--how I love you!"

She had risen as she spoke, and flung herself passionately against the
balustrade of the bridge, sobbing bitterly, with her face hidden by her
clasped hands.

"Isabel, for Heaven's sake, listen to me! Can you doubt the purity of my
love--the truth, the honesty of my intentions? I ask you to sign no
unequal compact. Give me your life, and I'll give you mine in
exchange--every day--every hour. Whatever the most exacting wife can
claim of her husband, you shall receive from me. Whatever the truest
husband can be to his wife, I swear to be to you. It is only a question
of whether you love me, Isabel. You have only to choose between me and
that man yonder."

"Oh, Roland! Roland! I have loved you so--and you could think that
I----. Oh, you must despise me--you must despise me very much, and think
me very wicked, or you would never----"

She couldn't say any more; but she still leant against the bridge,
sobbing for her lost delusion.

Lady Gwendoline had been right, after all,--this is what Isabel
thought,--and there had been no platonism, no poet-worship on Roland
Lansdell's side; only the vulgar every-day wish to run away with another
man's wife. From first to last she had been misunderstood; she had been
the dupe of her own fancies, her own dreams. Lady Gwendoline's cruel
words were only cruel truths. It was no Dante, no Tasso, who had
wandered by her side; only a dissipated young country squire, in the
habit of running away with other people's wives, and glorying in his
iniquity. There was no middle standing-place which Roland Lansdell could
occupy in this foolish girl's mind. If he was not a demi-god, he must be
a villain. If he was not an exalted creature, full of poetic aspirations
and noble fancies, he must be a profligate young idler, ready to whisper
any falsehood into the ears of foolish rustic womanhood. All the stories
of aristocratic villany that she had ever read flashed suddenly back
upon Mrs. Gilbert's mind, and made a crowd of evidence against Lady Anna
Lansdell's son. If he was not the one grand thing which she had believed
him to be--a poetic and honourable adorer--he was in nothing the hero of
her dreams. She loved him still, and must continue to love him, in spite
of all his delinquencies; but she must love him henceforward with fear
and trembling, as a splendid iniquitous creature, who had not even one
virtue to set against a thousand crimes. Such thoughts as these crowded
upon her, as she leaned sobbing on the narrow wooden rail of the bridge;
while Roland Lansdell stood by, watching her with a grave and angry
countenance.

"Is this acting, Mrs. Gilbert? Is this show of surprise and indignation
a little comedy, which you play when you want to get rid of your lovers?
Am I to accept my dismissal, and bid you good afternoon, and put up
patiently with having been made the veriest fool that ever crossed this
bridge?"

"Oh, Roland!" cried Isabel, lifting her head and looking piteously round
at him, "I loved you so--I l-loved so!"

"You love me so, and prove your love by fooling me with tender looks and
blushes, till I believe that I have met the one woman in all the world
who is to make my life happy. Oh, Isabel, I have loved you because I
thought you unlike other women. Am I to find that it is only the old
story after all--falsehood, and trick, and delusion? It was a feather in
your cap to have Mr. Lansdell of the Priory madly in love with you; and
now that he grows troublesome, you send him about his business. I am to
think this, I suppose. It has all been coquetry and falsehood, from
first to last."

"Falsehood! Oh, Roland, when I love you so dearly--so dearly and truly;
not as you love me,--with a cruel love that would bring shame and
disgrace upon me. You never can be more to me than you are now. We may
part; but there is no power on earth that can part my soul from yours,
or lessen my love. I came to you this afternoon to say good-bye for
ever, because I have heard that cruel things have been said of me by
people who do not understand my love. Ah, how should those common people
understand, when even you do not, Roland? I came to say good-bye; and
then, after to-day, my life will be finished. You know what you said
that night: 'The curtain goes down, and all is over!' I shall think of
you for ever and ever, till I die. Ah, is there any kind of death that
can ever make me forget you? but I will never come here again to see
you. I will always try to do my duty to my husband."

"Your husband!" cried Mr. Lansdell, with a strident laugh; "had we not
better leave _his_ name out of the question? Oh, Isabel!" he exclaimed,
suddenly changing his tone, "so help me Heaven, I cannot understand you.
Are you only an innocent child, after all, or the wiliest coquette that
ever lived? You must be one or the other. You speak of your husband. My
poor dear, it is too late in the day now to talk of him. You should have
thought of him when we first met; when your eyelids first drooped
beneath my gaze; when your voice first grew tremulous as you spoke my
name. From the very first you have lured me on. I am no trickster or
thief, to steal another man's property. If your heart had been your
husband's when first I met you, the beauty of an angel in a cathedral
fresco would not have been farther away from me than yours. Depend upon
it, Eve was growing tired of Eden when the serpent began to talk to her.
If you had loved your husband, Isabel, I should have bowed my head
before the threshold of your home, as I would at the entrance to a
chapel. But I saw that you did not love him; I very soon saw that you
did love, or seemed to love, me. Heaven knows how I struggled against
the temptation, and only yielded at last when my heart told me that my
love was true and honest, and worthy of the sacrifice I ask from you. I
do ask that sacrifice; boldly, as a man who is prepared to give measure
for measure. The little world to which you will say good-bye, Isabel, is
a world whose gates will close on me in the same hour. Henceforth your
life will be mine, with all its forfeitures. I am not an ambitious man,
and have long ceased to care about making any figure in a world which
has always seemed to me more or less like a show at a fair, with
clanging cymbals and brazen trumpets, and promise and protestation, and
boasting outside, and only delay and disappointment and vexation within.
I do not give up very much, therefore, but what I have I freely resign.
Come with me, Isabel, and I will take you away to the beautiful places
you have been pleased to hear me talk about. All the world is ours, my
darling, except this little corner of Midlandshire. Great ships are
waiting to waft us away to far Southern shores, and tropical paradises,
and deep unfathomable forests. All the earth is organized for our
happiness. The money that has been so useless to me until now shall have
a new use henceforward, for it shall be dedicated to your pleasure. Do
you remember opening your eyes very wide the other day, Isabel, and
crying out that you would like to see Rome, and poor Keats's grave, and
the Colosseum,--Byron's Colosseum,--where the poetic gladiator thought
of his wife and children, eh, Izzie? I made such a dream out of that
little childish exclamation. I know the balcony in which we will sit,
darling, after dark nights, in carnival time, to watch the crowd in the
streets below, and, on one grandest night of all, the big dome of St.
Peter's shining like a canopy of light, and all the old classic
pediments and pillars blazing out of the darkness, as in a city of
living fire. Isabel, you cannot have been ignorant of the end to which
our fate was chaffing us; you must have known that I should sooner or
later say what I have said to-day."

"Oh, no, no, no!" cried Mrs. Gilbert, despairingly, "I never thought
that you would ask me to be more to you than I am now: I never thought
that it was wicked to come here and meet you. I have read of people, who
by some fatality could never marry, loving each other, and being true to
others for years and years--till death sometimes; and I fancied that you
loved me like that: and the thought of your love made me so happy; and
it was such happiness to see you sometimes, and to think of you
afterwards, remembering every word you had said, and seeing your face as
plainly as I see it now. I thought, till yesterday, that this might go
on for ever, and never, never believed that you would think me like
those wicked women who run away from their husbands."

"And yet you love me?"

"With all my heart."

She looked at him with eyes still drowned in tears, but radiant with the
truth of her sentimental soul, which had never before revealed itself so
artlessly as now. Fondly as she worshipped her idol, his words had
little power to move her, now that he was false to his attributes, and
came down upon common ground and wooed her as an every-day creature. If
Mr. Lansdell had declared his intention of erecting a marble mausoleum
in the grounds of Mordred, and had requested Isabel to commit suicide in
order to render herself competent to occupy it with him immediately, she
would have thought his request both appropriate and delightful, and
would have assented on the spot. But his wild talk of foreign travel had
no temptation for her. True, she saw as in a bright and changing vision
a picture of what her life might be far away amidst wild romantic
regions in that dear companionship. But between herself and those
far-away visions there was a darkly-brooding cloud of shame and
disgrace. The Graybridge people might say what they chose of her: she
could afford to hold her head high and despise their slanderous
whispers: but she could _not_ afford to tarnish her love--her love which
had no existence out of bright ideal regions wherein shame could never
enter.

Roland Lansdell watched her face in silence for some moments, and
faintly comprehended the exaltation of spirit which lifted this foolish
girl above him to-day. But he was a weak vacillating young man, who was
unfortunate enough not to believe in anything, and he was, in his own
fashion, truly and honestly in love,--too much in love to be just or
reasonable,--and he was very angry with Isabel. The tide of his feelings
had gathered strength day by day, and had relentlessly swept away every
impediment, to be breasted at last by a rocky wall; here, where he
thought to meet only the free boundless ocean, ready to receive and
welcome him.

"Isabel," he said at last, "have you ever thought what your life is to
be, always, after this parting to-day? You are likely to live forty
years, and even when you have got through them you will not be an old
woman. Have you ever contemplated those forty years, with three hundred
and sixty-five days in every one of them; every day to be spent with a
man you don't love--a man with whom you have not one common thought?
Think of that, Isabel; and then, if you do love me, think of the life I
offer you, and choose between them."

"I can only make one choice," Mrs. Gilbert answered, in a low sad voice.
"I shall be very unhappy, I dare say; but I will do my duty to my
husband--and think of you."

"So be it!" exclaimed Mr. Lansdell, with a long-drawn sigh. "In that
case, good-bye." He held out his hand, and Isabel was startled by the
coldness of its touch.

"You are not angry with me?" she asked, piteously.

"I have no right to be angry with any one but myself. I do not suppose
you meant any harm; but you have done me the deepest wrong a woman can
do to a man. I have nothing to say to you except good-bye. For mercy's
sake go away, and leave me to myself."

She had no pretence for remaining with him after this, so she went away,
very slowly, frightened and sorrowful. But when she had gone a few yards
along the pathway under the trees, she felt all at once that she could
not leave him thus. She must see his face once more: she must know for
certain whether he was angry with her or not.

She crept slowly back to the spot where she had left him, and found him
lying at full length upon the grass, with his face hidden on his folded
arms. With a sudden instinct of grief and terror she knew that he was
crying, and falling down on her knees by his side, murmured amidst her
sobs,--

"Oh, pray forgive me! Pray do not be angry with me! I love you so dearly
and so truly! Only say that you forgive me."

Roland Lansdell lifted his face and looked at her. Ah, what a
reproachful look it was, and how long it lived in her memory and
disturbed her peace!

"I will forgive you," he answered, sternly, "when I have learnt to
endure my life without you."

He dropped his head again upon his folded arms, and Isabel knelt by his
side for some minutes watching him silently; but he never stirred and
she was too much frightened and surprised by his anger; and remorsefully
impressed with a vague sense of her own wrong-doing, to dare address him
further. So at last she got up and went away. She began to feel that she
had been, somehow or other, very wicked, and that her sin had brought
misery upon this man whom she loved.



CHAPTER XXVI.

A POPULAR PREACHER.


What could Isabel Gilbert do? The fabric of all her dreams was shivered
like a cobweb in a sudden wind, and floated away from her for ever.
Everybody had misunderstood her. Even _he_, who should have been a
demi-god in power of penetration as in every other attribute,--even he
had wronged and outraged her, and never again could she look trustfully
upward to the dark beauty of his face; never again could her hand rest,
oh, so lightly, for one brief instant on his arm; never again could she
tell him in childish confidence all the vague yearnings, the
innocently-sentimental aspirations, of her childish soul.

Never any more. The bright ideal of her life had melted away from her
like a spectral cloud of silvery spray hovering above an Alpine
waterfall, and had left behind only a cynical man of the world, who
boldly asked her to run away from her husband, and was angry with her
because she refused to comply with his cruel demand.

Not for one moment did the Doctor's Wife contemplate the possibility of
taking the step which Roland Lansdell had proposed to her. Far off--as
far away from her as some dim half-forgotten picture of
fairy-land--there floated a vision of what her life might have been with
him, if she had been Clotilde, or the glittering Duchess, or Lady
Gwendoline, or some one or other utterly different from herself. But the
possibility of deliberately leaving her husband to follow the footsteps
of this other man, was as far beyond her power of comprehension as the
possibility that she might steal a handful of arsenic out of one of the
earthenware jars in the surgery, and mix it with the sugar that
sweetened George Gilbert's matutinal coffee.

She wandered away from Thurston's Crag, not following the meadow pathway
that would have taken her homeward; but going anywhere,
half-unconscious, wholly indifferent where she went; and thinking with
unutterable sadness of her broken dreams.

She had been so childish, so entirely childish, and had given herself up
so completely to that one dear day-dream. I think her childhood floated
away from her for ever in company with that broken dream; and that the
grey dawn of her womanhood broke upon her, cold and chill, as she walked
slowly away from the spot where Roland Lansdell lay face downwards on
the grass, weeping over the ruin of _his_ dream. It seemed as if in that
hour she crossed Mr. Longfellow's typical rivulet and passed on to the
bleak and sterile country beyond. Well may the maiden linger ere she
steps across that narrow boundary; for the land upon this hither side is
very bare and desolate as compared with the fertile gardens and pleasant
meads she abandons for ever. The sweet age of enchantment is over; the
fairy companions of girlhood, who were loveliest even when most they
deluded, spread their bright wings and flutter away; and the grave
genius of common sense--a dismal-looking person, who dresses in grey
woollen stuff, warranted not to shrink under the ordeal of the wash-tub,
and steadfastly abjures crinoline--stretches out her hand, and offers,
with a friendly but uncompromising abruptness, to be the woman's future
guide and monitress.

Isabel Gilbert was a woman all at once; ten years older by that bleak
afternoon's most bitter discovery. Since there was no one in the world
who understood her, since even he so utterly failed to comprehend her,
it must be that her dreams were foolish and impossible of comprehension
to any one but herself. But those foolish dreams had for ever vanished.
She could never think of Roland Lansdell again as she had thought of
him. All her fancies about him had been so many fond and foolish
delusions. He was not the true and faithful knight who could sit for
ever at the entrance of his hermitage gazing fondly at the distant
convent-casement, which might or might not belong to his lost love's
chamber. No; he was quite another sort of person. He was the fierce
dissolute cavalier, with a cross-handled sword a yard and a half long,
and pointed shoes with long cruel spurs and steel chain-work jingling
and clanking as he strode across his castle-hall. He was the false and
wicked lover who would have scaled the wall of Hildegonde's calm retreat
some fatal night, and would have carried the shrieking nun away, to go
mad and throw herself into the Rhine on the earliest opportunity. He was
a heartless Faust, ready to take counsel of Mephistopheles and betray
poor trusting Gretchen. He was Robert the Devil, about whose accursed
footsteps a whole graveyard of accusing spirits might arise at any
moment. It may be that Isabel did not admire Mr. Lansdell less when she
thought of him thus; but there was an awful shuddering horror mingled
with her admiration. She was totally unable to understand him as he
really was--a benevolently disposed young man, desirous of doing as
little mischief in the world as might be compatible with his being
tolerably happy himself; and fully believing that no great or
irreparable harm need result from his appropriation of another man's
wife.

The tears rolled slowly down Mrs. Gilbert's pale cheeks as she walked
along the Midlandshire lanes that afternoon. She did not weep violently,
or abandon herself to any wild passion of grief. As yet she was quite
powerless to realize, the blankness of her future life, now that her
dream was broken for ever. Her grief was not so bitter as it had been on
the day of Roland's sudden departure from Mordred. He had loved her--she
knew that now; and the supreme triumph of that thought supported her in
the midst of her sorrow. He had loved her. His love was not the sort of
thing she had so often read of, and so fondly believed in; it was only
the destroying passion of the false knight, the cruel fancy of the
wicked squire in top-boots, whom she had frequently seen--per favour of
a newspaper-order--from the back boxes of the Surrey Theatre. But he
_did_ love her! He loved her so well as to cast himself on the ground
and weep because she had rejected him; and the wicked squire in
top-boots had never gone so far as that, generally contenting himself
with more practical evidences of his vexation, such as the levying of an
execution on the goods and chattels of the heroine's father, or the
waylaying and carrying off of the heroine herself by lured ruffians. How
oddly it happens that the worthy farmer in the chintz waistcoat is
_always_ in arrear with his rent, and always stands in the relation of
tenant to the dissolute squire!

Would Mr. Lansdell do anything of that kind? Isabel gave a little shiver
as she glanced at the lonely landscape, and thought how a brace of
hireling scoundrels might spring suddenly across the hedge, and bear her
off to a convenient postchaise. Were there any postchaises in the world
now, Isabel wondered. A strange confusion of thoughts filled her mind.
She could not become _quite_ a woman all in a moment; the crossing of
the mystic brook is not so rapid an operation as that. Some remnants of
the old delusions hung about her, and merely took a new form.

She sat down on the lower step of a stile to rest herself by-and-by, and
smoothed back her hair, which had been blown about her face by the March
wind, and re-tied the strings of her bonnet, before she went out on the
high-road, that lay on the other side of the stile. When she did emerge
upon the road, she found herself ever so far from home, and close to the
model village where Mr. Raymond had given his simple entertainment of
tea and pound-cake, and in which George Gilbert had stood by her side
pleading to her with such profound humility. Poor George! The quiet
aspect of the village-green, the tiny cottages, trim and bright in the
fading March sunshine; the low wooden gate opening into the
churchyard,--all these, so strange and yet so familiar, brought back the
memory of a time that seemed unspeakably far away now.

It was Passion-week,--for Easter fell very late in March this year,--and
the model village being a worthy model in the matter of piety as well as
in all other virtues, there was a great deal of church-going among the
simple inhabitants. The bells were ringing for evening service now, as
Mrs. Gilbert lingered in the road between the village and the
churchyard; and little groups of twos and threes, and solitary old women
in black bonnets, passed her by, as she loitered quite at a loss whither
to go, or what to do. They looked at her with solemn curiosity expressed
in their faces. She was a stranger there, though Graybridge was only a
few miles away; she was a stranger, and that alone, in any place so
circumscribed as the model village, was enough to excite curiosity; and
it may be that, over and above this, there was something in the look of
her pale face and heavy eyelids, and a certain absent expression in her
downcast eyes, calculated to arouse suspicion. Even in the midst of her
trouble she could see that people looked at her suspiciously; and all in
a moment there flashed back upon her mind the cruel things that Lady
Gwendoline Pomphrey had said to her. Yes; all at once she remembered
those bitter sentences. She had made herself a subject for slanderous
tongues, and the story of her wicked love for Roland Lansdell was on
every lip. If _he_, who should have known her--if he before whom she had
bared all the secrets of her sentimental soul--if even he thought so
badly of her as to believe that she could abandon her husband and become
the thing that Mr. Dombey believed his wife to be when he struck his
daughter on the stairs--the sort of creature whom grave Judge Brandon
met one night under a lamp-post in a London street--how could she wonder
that other people slandered and despised her? Very suddenly had the
gates of Paradise closed upon her: very swiftly had she been dropped
down from the fairy regions of her fancy to this cold, hard, cruel
workaday world; and being always prone to exaggeration, she fancied it
even colder, harder, and more cruel than it was. She fancied the people
pointing at her in the little street at Graybridge; the stern rector
preaching at her in his Sunday sermon. She pictured to herself
everything that is most bitterly demonstrative in the way of scorn and
contumely. The days were past in which solemn elders of Graybridge could
send her out to wander here and there with bare bleeding feet and a
waxen taper in her hand. There was no scarlet letter with which these
people could brand her as the guilty creature they believed her to be;
but short of this, what could they not do to her? She imagined it all:
her husband would come to know what was thought of her, and to think of
her as others thought, and she would be turned out of doors.

The groups of quiet people--almost all of them were women, and very few
of them were young--melted slowly into the shadowy church-porch, like
the dusky unsubstantial figures in a dioramic picture. The bells were
still ringing in the chill twilight; but the churchyard was very lonely
now; and the big solemn yew-trees looked weird and ghost-like against
the darkening grey sky. Only one long low line of pale yellow light
remained of the day that was gone! the day in which Isabel had said
farewell to Roland Lansdell! It was a real farewell; no lovers' quarrel,
wherefrom should spring that re-renewal of love so dismally associated
with the Eton Latin Grammar. It was an eternal parting: for had he not
told her to go away from him--to leave him for ever? Not being the
wicked thing for which he had mistaken her, she was nothing in the world
for him. He did not require perpetual worship; he did not want her to
retire to a convent, in order that he might enjoy himself for the rest
of his existence by looking up at her window; he did not want her to sit
beside a brazier of charcoal with her hand linked in his--and die. He
was not like that delightful Henry von Kleist, who took his Henriette to
a pleasant inn about a mile from Potsdam, supped gaily with her, and
then shot her and himself beside a lake in the neighbourhood. Mr.
Lansdell wanted nothing that was poetical or romantic, and had not even
mentioned suicide in the course of his passionate talk.

She went into the churchyard, and walked towards the little bridge upon
which she had stood with George Gilbert by her side. The Wayverne flowed
silently under the solid moss-grown arch; the wind had gone down by this
time, and there was only now and then a faint shiver of the long dark
rushes, as if the footsteps of the invisible dead, wandering in the
twilight, had stirred them. She stood on the bridge, looking down at the
quiet water. The opportunity had come now, if she really wanted to drown
herself. Happily for weak mankind, self-destruction is a matter in which
opportunity and inclination very seldom go together. The Doctor's Wife
was very miserable; but she did not feel quite prepared to take that
decisive plunge which might have put an end to her earthly troubles,
Would they hear the splash yonder in the church, if she dropped quietly
in among the rushes from the sloping bank under the shadow of the
bridge? Would they hear the water surging round her as she sank, and
wonder what the sound meant, and then go on with their prayers,
indifferent to the drowning creature, and absorbed by their devotions?
She wondered what these people were like, who kept their houses so
tidily, and went to church twice a day in Passion-week, and never fell
in love with Roland Lansdell. Long ago, in her childhood, when she went
to see a play, she had wondered about the people she met in the street;
the people who were not going to the theatre. Were they very happy? did
they know that she had a free admission to the upper boxes of the
Adelphi, and envy her? How would _they_ spend the evening,--they who
were not going to weep with Mr. Benjamin Webster, or Miss Sarah Woolgar?
Now she wondered about people who were not miserable like
herself--simple commonplace people, who had no yearnings after a life of
poetry and splendour. She thought of them as a racer, who had just run
second for the Derby, might think of a quiet pack-horse plodding along a
dusty road and not wanting to win any race whatsoever.

"Even if they knew him, they wouldn't care about him," she thought. They
did know him, perhaps,--saw him ride by their open windows, on a
summer's afternoon, gorgeous on a two-hundred-guinea hack, and did not
feel the world to be a blank desert when he was gone.

Did she wish to be like these people? No! Amid all her sorrow she could
acknowledge, in the words of the poet, that it was better to have loved
and lost him, than never to have loved him at all. Had she not lived her
life, and was she not entitled to be a heroine for ever and ever by
reason of her love and despair?

For a long time she loitered on the bridge, thinking of all these
things, and thinking very little of how she was to go back to
Graybridge, where her absence must have created some alarm by this time.
She had often kept the surgeon waiting for his dinner before to-day; but
she had never been absent when he ate it. There was a station at the
model village; but there was no rail to Graybridge; there was only a
lumbering old omnibus, that conveyed railway passengers thither. Isabel
left the churchyard, and went to the little inn before which George had
introduced her to his gardener and factotum. A woman standing at the
door of this hostelry gave her all needful information about the
omnibus, which did not leave the station till half-past eight o'clock;
until that time she must remain where she was. So she went slowly back
to the churchyard, and being tired of the cold and darkness without,
crept softly into the church.

The church was very old and very irregular. There were only patches of
yellow light here and there, about the pulpit and reading-desk, up in
the organ-loft, and near the vestry-door. A woman came out of the dense
obscurity as Isabel emerged from the porch, and hustled her into a pew;
scandalized by her advent at so late a stage of the service, and eager
to put her away somewhere as speedily as possible. It was a very big
pew, square and high, and screened by faded curtains, hanging from
old-fashioned brass rods. There were a great many hassocks, and a whole
pile of prayer and hymn books in the darkest corner; and Isabel, sitting
amongst these, felt as completely hidden as if she had been in a tomb.
The prayers were just finished,--the familiar prayers, which had so
often fallen like a drowsy cadence of meaningless words upon her
unheeding ears, while her erring and foolish thoughts were busy with the
master of Mordred Priory.

She heard the footsteps of the clergyman coming slowly along the matted
aisle--the rustling of his gown as he drew it on his shoulders; she
heard the door of the pulpit closed softly, and then a voice, a low
earnest voice, that sounded tender and solemn in the stillness, recited
the preliminary prayer. There are voices which make people cry,--voices
which touch too acutely on some hidden spring within us, and open the
floodgates of our tears; and the voice of the curate of Hurstonleigh was
one of these. He was only a curate; but he was very popular in the model
village, and the rumour of his popularity had already spread to
neighbouring towns and villages. People deserted their parish churches
on a Sunday afternoon and came to hear Mr. Austin Colborne preach one of
his awakening sermons. He was celebrated for awakening sermons. The
stolid country people wept aloud sometimes in the midst of one of his
discourses. He was always in earnest; tenderly earnest, sorrowfully
earnest, terribly earnest sometimes. His life, too, outside the church
was in perfect harmony with the precepts he set forth under the shadow
of the dark oaken sounding-board. There are some men who can believe,
who can look forward to a prize so great and wonderful as to hold the
pain and trouble of the race of very small account when weighed against
the hope of victory. Austin Colborne was one of these men. The priestly
robes he wore had not been loosely shuffled on by him because there was
no other lot in life within his reach. He had assumed his sacred office
with all the enthusiasm of a Loyola or an Irving, and he knew no looking
back. It was such a man as this whom people came to hear at the little
church beside the wandering Wayverne. It was such a man as this whose
deep-toned voice fell with a strange power upon Isabel Gilbert's ears
to-night. Ah, now she could fancy Louise de la Vallière low on her knees
in the black shadow of a gothic pillar, hearkening to the cry of the
priest who called upon her to repent and be saved. For some little time
she only heard the voice of the preacher--the actual words of his
discourse fell blankly on her ear. At first it was only a beautiful
voice, a grand and solemn voice, rising and sinking on its course like
the distant murmur of mighty waves for ever surging towards the shore.
Then, little by little, the murmurs took a palpable form, and Isabel
Gilbert found that the preacher was telling a story. Ah, that story,
that exquisite idyl, that solemn tragedy, that poem so perfect in its
beauty, that a sentimental Frenchman has only to garnish it with a few
flowery periods, and lo, all the world is set reading it on a sudden,
fondly believing that they have found something new. Mr. Austin Colborne
was very fond of dwelling on the loveliness of that sublime history, and
more frequently founded his discourse upon some divine incident in the
records of the four Evangelists than on any obscure saying in St. Paul's
Epistles to the Corinthians or the Hebrews. This is no place in which to
dwell upon Mr. Austin Colborne, or the simple Christian creed it was his
delight to illustrate. He was a Christian, according to the purest and
simplest signification of the word. His sermons were within the
comprehension of a rustic or a child, yet full and deep enough in
meaning to satisfy the strictest of logicians, the sternest of critics.
Heaven knows I write of him and of his teaching in all sincerity, and
yet the subject seems to have so little harmony with the history of a
foolish girl's errors and shortcomings, that I approach it with a kind
of terror. I only know that Isabel Gilbert, weeping silently in the dark
corner of the curtained pew, felt as she had never felt in all her
Graybridge church-going; felt at once distressed and comforted.

Was it strange that, all at once, Isabel Gilbert should open her ears
to the sublime story, which, in one shape or other, she had heard so
often? Surely the history of all popular preachers goes far to
demonstrate that Heaven gives a special power to some voices. When
Whitfield preached the Gospel to the miners at Kingswood,--to rugged
creatures who were little better than so many savages, but who, no
doubt, in some shape or other, had heard that Gospel preached to them
before,--the scalding tears ploughed white channels upon the black
cheeks as the men listened. At last the voice of all others that had
power to move them arose, and melted the stubborn ignorant hearts. Is it
inspiration or animal magnetism which gives this power to some special
persons? or is it not rather the force of faith, out of which is
engendered a will strong enough to take hold of the wills of other
people, and bend them howsoever it pleases? When Danton, rugged and
gigantic, thundered his hideous demands for new hecatombs of victims,
there must have been something in the revolutionary monster strong
enough to trample out the common humanity in those who heard him, and
mould a mighty populace to his own will and purpose as easily as a giant
might fashion a mass of clay. Surely Mirabeau was right. There can be
nothing impossible to the man who believes in himself. The masses of
this world, being altogether incapable of lasting belief in anything,
are always ready to be beaten into any shape by the chosen individual
who _believes_, and is thus of another nature--something so much
stronger than all the rest as to seem either a god or a demon. Cromwell
appears, and all at once a voice is found for the wrongs of a nation.
See how the king and his counsellors go down like corn before the blast
of the tempest, while the man with a dogged will, and a sublime
confidence in his own powers, plants himself at the helm of a disordered
state, and wins for himself the name of Tiger of the Seas. Given Mr.
John Law, with ample confidence in his own commercial schemes, and all
France is rabid with a sudden madness, beating and trampling one another
to death in the Rue Quincampoix. Given a Luther, and all the old
papistical abuses are swept away like so much chaff before the wind.
Given a Wesley, the believer, the man who is able to preach forty
thousand sermons and travel a hundred thousand miles, and, behold, a
million disciples exist in this degenerate day to bear testimony to his
power.

Was it strange, then, that Isabel Gilbert, so dangerously susceptible of
every influence, should be touched and melted by Mr. Colborne's
eloquence? She had not been religiously brought up. In the Camberwell
household Sunday had been a day on which people got up later than usual,
and there were pies or puddings to be made. It had been a day associated
with savoury baked meats, and a beer-stained "Weekly Dispatch" newspaper
borrowed from the nearest tavern. It had been a day on which Mr.
Sleaford slept a good deal on the sofa, excused himself from the trouble
of shaving, and very rarely put on his boots. Raffish-looking men had
come down to Camberwell in the Sunday twilight, to sit late into the
night smoking and drinking, and discoursing in a mysterious jargon known
to the household as "business talk." Sometimes of a summer evening, Mrs.
Sleaford, awakened to a sense of her religious duties, would suddenly
run a raid amongst the junior branches of the family, and hustle off
Isabel and one or two of the boys to evening service at the big bare
church by the canal. But the spasmodic attendance at divine service had
very little effect upon Miss Sleaford, who used to sit staring at the
holes in her gloves; or calculating how many yards of riband, at how
much per yard, would be required for the trimming of any special bonnet
to which her fancy leaned; or thinking how a decent-looking young man up
in the gallery might be a stray nobleman, with a cab and tiger waiting
somewhere outside the church, who would perhaps fall in love with her
before the sermon was finished. She had not been religiously brought up;
and the church-going at Graybridge had been something of a bore to her;
or at best a quiet lull in her life, which left her free to indulge the
foolish vagaries of her vagabond fancy. But now, for the first time, she
was touched and melted; the weak sentimental heart was caught at the
rebound. She was ready to be anything in the world except a commonplace
matron, leading a dull purposeless life at Graybridge. She wanted to
find some shrine, some divinity, who would accept her worship; some
temple lifted high above the sordid workaday earth, in which she might
kneel for ever and ever. If not Roland Lansdell, why then Christianity.
She would have commenced her novitiate that night had she been in a
Roman Catholic land, where convent-doors were open to receive such as
her. As it was, she could only sit quietly in the pew and listen. She
would have liked to go to the vestry when the service came to an end,
and cast herself at the feet of the curate, and make a full confession
of her sins; but she had not sufficient courage for that. The curate
might misunderstand her, as Roland Lansdell had done. He might see in
her only an ordinarily wicked woman, who wanted to run away from her
husband. Vague yearnings towards Christian holiness filled her foolish
breast; but as yet she knew not how to put them into any shape. When the
congregation rose to leave the church, she lingered to the last, and
then crept slowly away, resolved to come again to hear this wonderful
preacher. She went to the little station whence the Graybridge omnibus
was to start at half-past eight; and after waiting a quarter of an hour
took her place in a corner of the vehicle. It was nearly ten when she
rang the bell at her husband's gate, and Mrs. Jeffson came out with a
grave face to admit her.

"Mr. George had his dinner and tea alone, ma'am," she said in tones of
awful reproof, while Isabel stood before the little glass in the
sitting-room taking off her bonnet; "and he's gone out again to see some
sick folks in the lanes on the other side of the church. He was right
down uneasy about you."

"I've been to Hurstonleigh, to hear Mr. Colborne preach," Isabel
answered, with a very feeble effort to appear quite at her ease. "I had
heard so much about his preaching, and I wanted so to hear him."

It was true that she had heard Austin Colborne talked of amongst her
church-going acquaintance at Graybridge; but it was quite untrue that
she had ever felt the faintest desire to hear him preach. Had not her
whole life been bounded by a magic circle, of which Roland Lansdell was
the resplendent centre?



CHAPTER XXVII.

"AND NOW I LIVE, AND NOW MY LIFE IS DONE!"


George Gilbert accepted his wife's explanation of her prolonged absence
on that March afternoon. She had carried her books to Thurston's Crag,
and had sat there reading, while the time slipped by unawares, and it
was too late to come back to dinner; and so she had bethought herself
that there was evening service at Hurstonleigh during Passion-week, and
she might hear Mr. Colborne preach. George Gilbert received this
explanation as he would have received any other statement from the lips
in whose truth he believed. But Mrs. Jeffson treated her young mistress
with a stately politeness that wounded Isabel to the quick. She endured
it very meekly, however; for she felt that she had been wicked, and that
all her sufferings were the fruit of her own sin. She stayed at home for
the rest of the week, except when she attended the Good-Friday's
services at Graybridge church with her husband; and on Sunday afternoon
she persuaded George to accompany her to Hurstonleigh. She was making
her feeble effort to be good; and if the enthusiasm awakened in her
breast by Mr. Colborne's preaching died out a little after she left the
church, there was at the worst something left which made her a better
woman than she had been before. But did she forget Roland Lansdell all
this time? No; with bitter anguish and regret she thought of the man who
had been as powerless to comprehend her as he was intellectually her
superior.

"He knows so much, and yet did not know that I was not a wicked woman,"
she thought, in simple wonder. She did not understand Roland's sceptical
manner of looking at everything, which could perceive no palpable
distinction between wrong and right. She could not comprehend that this
man had believed himself justified in what he had done.

But she thought of him incessantly. The image of his pale reproachful
face--so pale, so bitterly reproachful--never left her mental vision.
The sound of his voice bidding her leave him was perpetually in her
ears. He had loved her: yes; however deep his guilt, he had loved her,
and had wept because of her. There were times when the memory of his
tears, flashing back upon her suddenly, nearly swept away all her
natural purity, her earnest desire to be good; there were times when she
wanted to go to him and fall at his feet, crying out, "Oh, what am I,
that my life should be counted against your sorrow? How can it matter
what becomes of me, if you are happy?"

There were times when the thought of Roland Lansdell's sorrow overcame
every other thought in Isabel Gilbert's mind. Until the day when he had
thrown himself upon the ground in a sudden passion of grief, she had
never realized the possibility of his being unhappy because of her. For
him to love her in a patronizing far-off kind of manner was very much.
Was it not the condescension of a demigod, who smiles upon some earthly
creature? Was it not a reversal of the story of Diana and Endymion? It
was not the goddess, but the god, who came down to earth. But that he
should love her desperately and passionately, and be grief-stricken
because he could not win her for his own,--this was a stupendous fact,
almost beyond Isabel Gilbert's comprehension. Sometimes she thought he
was only the wicked squire who pretends to be very much in earnest in
the first act, and flings aside his victim with scorn and contumely in
the second. Sometimes the whole truth burst upon her, sudden as a
thunder-clap, and she felt that she had indeed done Roland Lansdell a
great and cruel wrong.

       *       *       *       *       *

And where was he all this time--the man who had judged Isabel Gilbert by
a common standard, and had believed her quite ready to answer to his
summons whenever he chose to call her to his side? Who shall tell the
bitter sinful story of his grief and passion? Never once in all his
anger against Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey, when she jilted him for the sake
of young Lord Heatherland, had he felt so desperate a rage, so deep an
indignation, as that which now possessed him when he thought of Isabel
Gilbert. Wounded in his pride, his vanity; shaken in the self-confidence
peculiar to a man of the world; he could not all at once forgive this
woman who had so entirely duped and deceived him. He was mad with
mingled anger and disappointment when he thought of the story of the
last twelve-month. The bitterness of all his struggles with himself; his
heroic resolutions--young and fresh in the early morning, old and grey
and wasted before the brief day was done--came back to him; and he
laughed aloud to think how useless all those perplexities and
hesitations had been, when the obstacle, the real resistance, to his
sinful yearnings was _here_--here, in the shape of a simple woman's
will.

There may be some men who would not have thought the story finished with
that farewell under Lord Thurston's oak; but Roland Lansdell was not one
of those men. He had little force of mind or strength of purpose with
which to fight against temptation: but he had, on the other hand, few of
the qualifications which make a tempter. So long as he had been
uncertain of himself, and the strength of his love for Isabel, he had
indeed dissembled, so far as to make a poor show of indifference. So
long as he meant to go away from Midlandshire without "doing any harm,"
he had thought it a venial sin to affect some little friendship for the
husband of the woman he loved. But from the moment in which all
vacillation gave way before a settled purpose--from the hour of his
return to Midlandshire--he had made no secret of his feelings or
intentions. He had urged this girl to do a dishonourable act, but he had
used no dishonourable means. No words can tell how bitterly he felt his
disappointment. For the first time in his life this favourite of
bountiful nature, this spoiled child of fortune, found there was
something in the world he could not have, something that was denied to
his desire. It was such a very little time since he had bewailed the
extinction of all youthful hope and ardour in pretty cynical little
verses, all sparkling with scraps of French and Latin, and Spanish and
Italian, cunningly woven into the native pattern of the rhyme. It was
only a few months since he had amused himself by scribbling melodious
lamentations upon the emptiness of life in general, and that "mortal
coldness of the soul" to which a young man of seven-and-twenty, with a
great deal of money, and nothing particular to do, is especially
subject. Ah, how pitilessly he had laughed at other men's tenderest
sentiments! What cruel aphorisms from Scarron and Rochefoucauld, and
Swift and Voltaire, and Wilkes and Mirabeau, he had quoted upon the
subject of love and woman! How resolutely he had refused to believe in
the endurance of passion! how coldly he had sneered at the holy power of
affection! He had given himself cynical airs upon the strength of his
cousin's falsehood: and had declared there was no truth in woman,
because Lady Gwendoline Pomphrey had been true to the teaching of her
life, and had tried to make the best market of her Saxon face and her
long ringlets. And now he was utterly false to his own creed. He was in
love, passionately, earnestly in love, with a foolish sentimental little
woman, whose best charm was--what? That was the question which he tried
in vain to answer. He gnashed his teeth in an access of rage when he
sought to discover why he loved this woman. Other women more beautiful,
and how much more accomplished, had spread enchanted webs of delicious
flattery and tenderness about him; and he had broken through the
impalpable meshes, and had gone away unscathed from the flashing glances
of bright eyes, unmoved by the smiles for which other men were ready to
peril so much. Why was it that his heart yearned for this woman's
presence? She was in no way his intellectual equal: she was not a
companion for him, even at her best, when she murmured pretty little
feminine truisms about Shelley and Byron. In all his loiterings by Lord
Thurston's waterfall, he could recall no wise or witty saying that had
ever fallen from those childish lips. And yet, and yet--she was
something to him that no other woman had ever been, or, as he firmly
believed, ever could become. Oh, for one upward glance of those dark
eyes, so shyly tender, so pensively serene! Oh, for the deep delight of
standing by her side upon the border of a still Italian lake; for the
pure happiness of opening all the wild realms of wisdom and poetry
before those youthful feet! And then in after years, when she had risen
little by little to the standard which the world would deem befitting
his wife,--then, fate, or chance, the remote abstraction most men call
Providence, having favoured the truest and purest love upon this
earth,--then he might proclaim the ownership of the prize he had won for
himself; then he might exhibit before shallow, sceptical mankind, one
bright and grand example of a perfect union.

Mr. Lansdell's thoughts wandered very much after this fashion as he wore
out the long dreary days in his solitary home. He went nowhere; he
received no one. He gave the servants standing orders to say that he was
out, or engaged, to whomsoever came to Mordred. His portmanteaus were
packed, and had been packed ever since the night of his last meeting
with Isabel Gilbert. Every day he gave fresh orders respecting his
departure. He would have the carriage at such an hour, to catch a
certain train: but when the hour came, the groom was sent back to the
stables, and Mr. Lansdell lingered yet another day at Mordred Priory.

He could not go away. In vain, in vain he wrestled with himself: most
bitterly did he despise and hate himself for his unmanly weakness; but
he could not go away. She would repent: she would write to summon him to
another meeting beneath the bare old oak. With an imagination as ardent
as her own, he could picture that meeting; he could almost hear her
voice as he fancied the things she would say. "My love, my love!" she
would cry, clasping those slender hands about his arm; "I cannot live
without you: I cannot, I cannot!"

The weeks went slowly by, and Mr. Lansdell's body-servant had what that
individual was pleased to designate "a precious time of it." Never was
gentleman's gentleman so tormented by the whims and vagaries of his
master. One day "we" were off to Swisserland--Mr. Lansdell's valet
always called it Swisserland--and we were to go as fast as the railway
service could carry us, and not get a wink of sleep anywheres, except in
railway-carriages, until we got to Paw or Bas-el--the valet called it
Bas-el. Another day we were going to St. Petersburg, with our friend
Hawkwood, the Queen's messenger; and a pretty rate we were going at,
knocking the very lives out of us. Sometimes we were, for tearing across
the Balkan range, on those blessed Turkish horses, that jolt a man's
life half out of him; or we were going on a yachting-cruise in the
Mediterranean; or fishing in the wildest regions of Norway. And all
about a trumpery minx at Graybridge! Mr. Lansdell's body-servant would
wind up, with unmitigated contempt: all about a young person who was not
fit to hold a candle to Sarah Jane the housemaid, or Eliza in the
laundry! Alas for Roland Lansdell, the servants who waited upon him knew
quite as well as he knew himself the nature of the fever which had made
him so restless! They knew that he was in love with a woman who could
never be his wife; and they despised him for his folly, and discussed
all the phases of his madness over their ponderous meat-suppers in the
servants' hall.

The weeks went slowly by. To Roland, the days were weary and the nights
intolerable. He went up to London several times, always leaving Mordred
alone and at abnormal hours, and every time intending to remain away.
But he could not: a sudden fever seized him as the distance grew wider
between him and Midlandshire. She would repent of her stern
determination: she would write to him, avowing that she could not live
without him. Ah, how long he had expected that letter! She would grow
suddenly unable to endure her life, perhaps, and would be rash and
desperate enough to go to Mordred in the hope of seeing him. This would
happen while he was away: the chance of happiness would be offered to
him, and he would not be there to seize it. She, his love, the sole joy
and treasure of his life, would be there, trembling on his threshold,
and he would not be near to welcome and receive her. The people at the
Clarendon thought that Mr. Lansdell had gone mad, so sudden were his
flights from their comfortable quarters.

And all this time he could hear nothing of the woman he loved. He could
not talk to his servants, and he had closed his doors against all
visitors. What was she doing? Was she at Graybridge still? Was she
leading the old quiet life, sitting in that shabby parlour, where he had
sat by her side? He remembered the pattern of the Kidderminster carpet,
the limp folds of the muslin-curtains, the faded crimson silk that
decorated the front of the piano upon which she had sometimes played to
him, oh, so indifferently. Day after day he haunted the bridge under
Lord Thurston's oak; day after day he threw tribute of cigar-ends into
the waterfall, while he waited in the faint hope that the Doctor's Wife
might wander thither. Oh, how cruel she was; how cruel! If she had ever
loved him, she too would have haunted that spot. She would have come to
the place associated with his memory: she would have come, as he came,
in the hope of another meeting.

Sometimes Mr. Lansdell ventured to ride along the little street at
Graybridge and through the dusty lane in which the doctor's house stood.
On horseback the master of Mordred Priory was almost on a level with the
bedroom windows of George Gilbert's habitation, and could look down into
the little parlour where Isabel was wont to sit. Once and once only he
saw her there, sitting before the table with some needlework in her
hands, so deeply absorbed, as it seemed, in her commonplace labour that
she did not see the cavalier who rode so slowly past her window. How
should he know how often she had run eagerly to that very window--her
face pale, her heart beating tempestuously--only to find that it was not
his horse whose hoof she had heard in the lane?

Perhaps the sight of George Gilbert's wife sitting at her needlework
gave Roland Lansdell a sharper pang than he would have felt had he seen
two mutes from Wareham keeping guard at the gate, and Mrs. Gilbert's
coffin being carried out at the door. She was not dead, then: she could
live and be happy, while he----! Well, he was not dead himself,
certainly; but he was the very next thing to being dead; and he felt
indignant at the sight of Isabel's apparent composure.

He walked to Lowlands in the course of a week or so after this, and
strolled into the drawing-rooms with some undefined intention of
flirting desperately with his cousin Gwendoline; of making her an offer
of marriage, perhaps. Why should he not marry? He could scarcely be more
miserable than he was; and a marriage with Gwendoline would be some kind
of revenge upon Isabel. He was inclined to do anything desperate and
foolish, if by so doing he could sting that cruel, obdurate heart. Was
this generous? Ah, no. But then, in spite of all that is said and sung
in its honour, love is not such a very generous passion. Roland found
his cousin alone, in the long low morning-room looking out into her
flower-garden. She was making wax flowers, and looked almost as tired of
her employment as if she had been some poor little artisan toiling for
scanty wages.

"I'm very glad you have interrupted me, Roland," she said, pushing away
all the paraphernalia of her work; "they are very tiresome; and, after
all, the roses are as stiff as camellias, and at the very best a vase of
wax-flowers only reminds one of an hotel at a watering-place. They
always have wax-flowers and Bohemian-glass candelabra at sea-side
hotels. And now tell me what you have been doing, Roland; and why you
have never come to us. We are so terribly dull."

"And do you think my presence would enliven you?" demanded Mr. Lansdell,
with a sardonic laugh. "No, Gwendoline; I have lived my life, and I am
only a dreary bore whom people tolerate in their drawing-rooms out of
deference to the West-end tailor who gets me up. I am only so much old
clothes, and I have to thank Mr. Poole for any position that I hold in
the world. What is the use of me, Gwendoline? what am I good for? Do I
ever say anything new, or think anything new, or do anything for which
any human creature has cause to say, Thank you? I have lived my life.
Does this kind of thing usually grow old, I wonder?" he asked, striking
himself lightly on the breast. "Does it wear well? Shall I live to write
gossiping old letters and collect china? Will Christie and Manson sell
my pictures when I am dead? and shall I win a posthumous reputation by
reason of the prices given for my wines, especially Tokay?--all
connoisseurs go in for Tokay. What is to become of me, Gwendoline? Will
any woman have pity upon me and marry me, and transform me into a family
man, with a mania for short-horned cattle and subsoil-drainage? Is there
any woman in all the world capable of caring a little for such a
worn-out wretch as I?"

It almost depended upon Gwendoline Pomphrey whether this speech should
constitute an offer of marriage. A pretty lackadaisical droop of the
head; a softly-murmured, "Oh, Roland, I cannot bear to hear you talk
like this; I cannot bear to think such qualities as yours can be so
utterly wasted;" any sentimental, womanly little speech, however
stereotyped; and the thing would have been done. But Lady Gwendoline was
a great deal too proud to practise any of those feminine arts affected
by manoeuvring mothers. She might jilt a commoner for the chance of
winning a marquis; but even that she would only do in a grand off-hand
way befitting a daughter of the house of Ruysdale. She looked at her
cousin now with something like contempt in the curve of her thin upper
lip. She loved this man perhaps as well as the Doctor's Wife loved him,
or it may be even with a deeper and more enduring love; but she was of
his world, and could see his faults and shortcomings as plainly as he
saw them himself.

"I am very sorry you have sunk so low as this, Roland," she said,
gravely. "I fancy it would be much better for you if you employed your
life half as well as other men, your inferiors in talent, employ their
lives. You were never meant to become a cynical dawdler in a country
house. If I were a man, a fortnight in the hunting season would exhaust
the pleasures of Midlandshire for me; I would be up and doing amongst my
compeers."

She looked, not at Roland, but across the flower-beds in the garden as
she spoke, with an eager yearning gaze in her blue eyes. Her beauty, a
little sharp of outline for a woman, would have well become a young
reformer, enthusiastic and untiring in a noble cause. There are these
mistakes sometimes--these _mesalliances_ of clay and spirit. A bright
ambitious young creature, with the soul of a Pitt, sits at home and
works sham roses in Berlin wool; while her booby brother is thrust out
into the world to fight the mighty battle.

The cousins sat together for some time, talking of all manner of things.
It was a kind of relief to Roland to talk to some one--to some one who
was not likely to lecture him, or to pry into the secrets of his heart.
He did not know how very plainly those secrets were read by Gwendoline
Pomphrey. He did not know that he had aroused a scornful kind of anger
in that proud heart by his love for Isabel Gilbert.

"Have you seen anything of your friends lately-that Graybridge surgeon
and his wife, whom we met one day last summer at Mordred?" Lady
Gwendoline asked by-and-by, with supreme carelessness. She had no
intention of letting Roland go away with his wound unprobed.

"No; I have seen very little of them," Mr. Lansdell answered. He was not
startled by Lady Gwendoline's question: he was perpetually thinking of
Isabel, and felt no surprise at any allusion made to her by other
people. "I have not seen Mr. Gilbert since I returned to England."

"Indeed! I thought he had inspired you with an actual friendship for
him: though I must confess, for my own part, I never met a more
commonplace person. My maid, who is an intolerable gossip, tells me that
Mrs. Gilbert has been suddenly seized with a religions mania, and
attends all the services at Hurstonleigh. The Midlandshire people seem
to have gone mad about that Mr. Colborne. I went to hear him last Sunday
myself, and was very much pleased. I saw Mr. Gilbert's wife sitting in a
pew near the pulpit, with her great unmeaning eyes fixed upon the
curate's face all through the sermon. She is just the sort of person to
fall in love with a popular preacher."

Mr. Lansdell's face flushed a vivid scarlet, and then grew pale. "With
her great unmeaning eyes fixed upon the curate's face." Those wondrous
eyes that had so often looked up at him, mutely eloquent, tenderly
pensive. Oh, had he been fooled by his own vanity? was this woman a
sentimental coquette, ready to fall in love with any man who came across
her path, learned in stereotyped schoolgirl phrases about platonic
affection? Lady Gwendoline's shaft went straight home to his heart. He
tried to talk about a few commonplace subjects with a miserable
assumption of carelessness; and then, looking suddenly up at the clock
on the chimney-piece, made a profuse apology for the length of his
visit, and hurried away. It was four o'clock when he left the gates of
Lowlands, and the next day was Sunday.

"I will see for myself," he muttered, as he walked along a narrow lane,
slashing the low hedge-rows with his stick as he went; "I will see for
myself to-morrow."



CHAPTER XXVIII.

TRYING TO BE GOOD.


The Sunday after Roland Lansdell's visit to his cousin was a warm May
day, and the woodland lanes and meadows through which the master of
Mordred Priory walked to Hurstonleigh were bright with wild-flowers.
Nearly two months had gone by since he and the Doctor's Wife bad parted
on the dull March afternoon which made a crisis in Isabel's life. The
warm breath of the early summer fanned the young man's face as he
strolled through the long grass under the spreading branches of elm and
beech. He had breakfasted early, and had set out immediately after that
poor pretence of eating and drinking. He had set out from Mordred in
feverish haste; and now that he had walked two or three miles, he looked
wan and pale in the vivid light of the bright May morning. To-day he
looked as if his cynical talk about himself was not altogether such
sentimental nonsense as genial, practical Mr. Raymond thought it. He
looked tired, worn, mentally and physically, like a man who has indeed
lived his life. Looking at him this morning, young, handsome, clever,
and prosperous though he was, there were very few people who would have
ventured to prophesy for him a bright and happy existence, a long and
useful career. He had a wan, faded, unnatural look in the summer
daylight, like a lamp that has been left burning all night. He had only
spoken the truth that day in the garden at Mordred. The Lansdells had
never been a long-lived race; and a look that lurked somewhere or other
in the faces of all the portraits at the Priory might have been seen in
the face of Roland Lansdell to-day. He was tired, very tired. He had
lived too fast, and had ran through his heritage of animal spirits and
youthful enthusiasm like the veriest spendthrift who squanders a fortune
in a few nights spent at a gaming-house. The nights are very brilliant
while they last, riotous with a wild excitement that can only be
purchased at this monstrous cost. But, oh, the blank grey mornings, the
freezing chill of that cheerless dawn, from which the spendthrift's eyes
shrink appalled when the night is done!

Roland Lansdell was most miserably tired of himself, and all the world
except Isabel Gilbert. Life, which is so short when measured by art,
science, ambition, glory; life, which always closes too soon upon the
statesman or the warrior, whether he dies in the prime of life, like
Peel, or flourishes a sturdy evergreen like Palmerston; whether he
perishes like Wolfe on the heights of Quebec, or sinks to his rest like
Wellington in his simple dwelling by the sea: life, so brief when
estimated by a noble standard, is cruelly long when measured by the
empty pleasures of an idle worldling with fifteen thousand a year. Emile
Angier has very pleasantly demonstrated that the world is much smaller
for a rich man than it is for a poor one. My lord the millionaire rushes
across wide tracts of varied landscape asleep in the padded corner of a
first-class carriage, and only stops for a week or so here and there in
great cities, to be bored almost to death by cathedrals and valhallas,
picture-galleries and ruined Roman baths, "done" in the stereotyped
fashion. While the poorer traveller, jogging along out-of-the-way
country roads, with his staff in his hand, and his knapsack on his
shoulder, drops upon a hundred pleasant nooks in this wide universe, and
can spend a lifetime agreeably in seeing the same earth that the
millionaire, always booked and registered all the way through, like his
luggage, grows tired of in a couple of years. We have only to read
Sterne's "Sentimental Journey" and Dickens's "Uncommercial Traveller,"
in order to find out how much there is in the world for the wanderer who
has eyes to see. Read the story of Mr. Dickens's pedestrian rambles, and
then read William Beckford's delicious discontented _blasé_ letters, and
see the difference between the great writer, for whom art is long and
life is only too short, and the man of pleasure, who squandered all the
wealth of his imagination upon the morbid phantasma of "Vathek," and
whose talent could find no higher exercise than the planning of
objectionable towers.

The lesson which Mr. Lansdell was called upon to learn just now was a
very difficult one. For the first time in his life he found that there
was something in the world that he could not have; for the first time he
discovered what it was to wish wildly, madly for one precious treasure
out of all the universe; and to wish in vain.

This morning he was not such a purposeless wanderer as he usually was;
he was going to Hurstonleigh church, in the hope of seeing Isabel
Gilbert, and ascertaining for himself whether there was any foundation
for Lady Gwendoline's insinuation. He wanted to ascertain this; but
above all, he wanted to _see_ her--only to see her; to look at the pale
face and the dark eyes once more. Yes, though she were the basest and
shallowest-hearted coquette in all creation.

Mr. Lansdell was doomed to be disappointed that morning, for the
Doctor's Wife was not at Hurstonleigh church. Graybridge would have been
scandalized if Mr. and Mrs. Gilbert had not attended morning service in
their own parish; so it was only in the afternoon or evening that Isabel
was free to worship at the feet of the popular preacher.

The church was very full in the morning, and Roland sat in a pew near
the door, waiting patiently until the service concluded. Isabel might be
lurking somewhere in the rambling old edifice, though he had not been
able to see her. He listened very attentively to the sermon, and bent
his head approvingly once or twice during Mr. Colborne's discourse. He
had heard so many bad sermons, delivered in divers languages, during his
wandering existence, that he had no wish to depreciate a good one. When
all was over, he stood at the door of his pew, watching the congregation
file slowly and quietly out of the church, and looking for Isabel. But
she was not there. When the church was quite empty, he breathed a long
regretful sigh, and then followed the rest of the congregation.

"She will come in the afternoon, perhaps," he thought. "Oh, how I love
her! what a weak pitiful wretch I must be to feel like this; to feel
this sinking at my heart because she is not here; to consider all the
universe so much emptiness because her face is missing!"

He went away into a secluded corner of the churchyard, a shadowy corner,
where there was an angle in the old wall, below which the river crept in
and out among the sedges. Here the salutations of the congregation
loitering about the church-door seemed only a low distant hum; here Mr.
Lansdell could sit at his ease upon the bank, staring absently at the
blue Wayverne, and thinking of his troubles.

The distant murmur of voices, the sound of footsteps, and the rustling
of women's light garments in the summer breeze died away presently, and
a death-like stillness fell upon the churchyard. All Hurstonleigh was at
dinner, being a pious village that took its sabbath meal early, and
dined chiefly on cold meats and crisp salads. The place was very still:
and Roland Lansdell, lolling idly with his back against the moss-grown
wall, had ample leisure for contemplation.

What did he think of during those two long hours in which he sat in the
churchyard waiting for the afternoon service? What did he think of? His
wasted life; the good things he might have done upon this earth? No! His
thoughts dwelt with a fatal persistency upon one theme. He thought of
what his life might have been, if Isabel Gilbert had not balked all his
plans of happiness. He thought of how he might have been sitting, that
very day, at that very hour, on one of the fairest islands in the
Mediterranean, with the woman he loved by his side: if she had chosen,
if she had only chosen that it should be so. And he had been so mistaken
in her, so deluded by his own fatuity, as to believe that any obstacle
on her part was utterly out of the question. He had believed that it was
only for him to weigh the matter in the balance and decide the turning
of the scale.

He sat by the water listening to the church bells as they rang slowly
out upon the tranquil atmosphere. It was one of those bright summer days
which come sometimes at the close of May, and the sky above Hurstonleigh
church was cloudless. When the bells had been ringing for a long time,
slow footsteps sounded on the gravel walks upon the other side of the
churchyard, with now and then the creaking of a gate or the murmur of
voices. The people were coming to church. Roland's heart throbbed
heavily in his breast. Was _she_ amongst them? Ah, surely he would have
recognized her lightest foot-fall even at that distance. Should he go
and stand by the gate, to make sure of seeing her as she came in? No, he
could not make a show of himself before all those inquisitive country
people; he would wait till the service began, and then go into the
church. That half-hour, during which the bells swung to and fro in the
old steeple with a weary monotonous clang, seemed intolerably long to
Roland Lansdell; but at last, at last, all was quiet, and the only bell
to be heard in the summer stillness was the distant tinkle of a
sheep-bell far away in the sunlit meadows. Mr. Lansdell got up as the
clock struck three, and walked at a leisurely pace to the church.

Mr. Colborne was reading that solemn invitation to the wicked man to
repent of his wickedness as the squire of Mordred went into the low
porch. The penetrating voice reached the remotest corners of the old
building; and yet its tone was low and solemn as an exhortation by a
dying man's bed. The church was not by any means so full as it had been
in the morning; and there was none of that fluttering noise of
bonnet-strings and pocket-handkerchiefs which is apt to disturb the
quiet of a crowded edifice. The pew-opener--always on the lookout to
hustle stray intruders into pews--pounced immediately upon Mr. Lansdell.

"I should like to sit up-stairs," he whispered, dropping a half-crown
into her hand; "can you put me somewhere up-stairs?"

He had reflected that from the gallery he should be better able to see
Isabel, if she was in the church. The woman curtsied and nodded, and
then led the way up the broad wooden stairs: where would she not have
put Mr. Lansdell for such a donation as that which he had bestowed upon
her!

The gallery at Hurstonleigh church was a very special and aristocratic
quarter. It consisted only of half-a-dozen roomy old pews at one end of
the church, immediately opposite the altar, and commanding an excellent
view of the pulpit. The chief families of the neighbourhood occupied
these six big open pews; and the common herd in the aisles below
contemplated these aristocratic persons admiringly in the pauses of the
service. As the grand families in the outskirts of Hurstonleigh were not
quite such unbating church-goers as the model villagers themselves,
these gallery-pews were not generally filled of an afternoon; and it was
into one of these that the grateful pew-opener ushered Mr. Lansdell.

She was there; yes, she was there. She was alone, in a pew near the
pulpit, on her knees, with her hands clasped and her eyes looking
upwards. The high old-fashioned pew shut her in from the congregation
about her, but Mr. Lansdell could look down upon her from his post of
observation in the gallery. Her face was pale and worn, and her eyes
looked larger and brighter than when he had last seen her. Was she in a
consumption? Ah, no; it was only the eager yearning soul which was
always consuming itself; it was no physical illness, but the sharp pain
of a purely mental struggle that had left those traces on her face. Her
lover watched her amidst the kneeling congregation; and a kind of holy
exaltation in her face reminded him of pictures of saints and angels
that he had seen abroad. Was it real, that exalted expression of the
pale still face? was it real, or had she begun a new flirtation, a
little platonic sentimentalism in favour of the popular preacher?

"The fellow has something in him, and is not by any means bad-looking,"
thought Mr. Lansdell; "I wonder whether she is laying traps for him with
her great yellow-black eyes?" And then in the next moment he thought
how, if that look in her pale face were real, and she was really
striving to be good,--how then? Had he any right to come into that holy
place? for the place was holy, if only by virtue of the simple prayers
so simply spoken by happy and pious creatures who were able to believe.
Had he any right to come there and trouble this girl in the midst of her
struggle to forget him?

"I think she loved me," he mused; "surely I could not be mistaken in
that; surely I have known too many coquettes in my life to be duped by
one at the last! Yes, I believe she loved me."

The earlier prayers and the psalms were over by this time; and Mrs.
Gilbert was seated in her pew facing the gallery, but with the pulpit
and reading-desk between. Mr. Colborne began to read the first lesson;
and there was a solemn hush in the church. Roland was seized with a
sudden desire that Isabel should see him. He wanted to see the
recognition of him in her face. Might he not learn the depth of her
love, the strength of her regret, by that one look of recognition? A
green serge curtain hung before him. He pushed the folds aside; and the
brazen rings made a little clanging noise as they slipped along the rod.
The sound was loud enough to startle the woman whom Mr. Lansdell was
watching so intently. She looked up and recognized him. He saw a white
change flit across her face; he saw her light muslin garments fluttered
by a faint shiver; and then in the next moment she was looking demurely
downwards at the book on her lap, something as she had looked on that
morning when he first met her under Lord Thurston's oak.

All through the service Roland Lansdell sat watching her. He made no
pretence of joining in the devotions of the congregation; but he
disturbed no one. He only sat, grim and sombre-looking, staring down at
that one pale face in the pew near the pulpit. A thousand warring
thoughts and passionate emotions waged in his breast. He loved her so
much that he could not be chivalrous; he could not even be just or
reasonable. All through the service he sat watching the face of the
woman he loved. If Austin Colborne could have known how strangely his
earnest, pleading words fell upon the ears of two of his listeners that
afternoon! Isabel Gilbert sat very quietly under all the angry fire of
that dark gaze. Only now and then were her eyelids lifted; only now and
then did her eyes steal one brief imploring glance at the face in the
gallery. In all the church she could see nothing but that face. It
absorbed and blotted out all else: and shone down upon her, grand and
dazzling, as of old.

She was trying to be good. For the last two months she had been
earnestly trying to be good. There was nothing else for her in the world
but goodness, seeing that he was lost to her--seeing that a romantic
Beatrice-Portinari kind of existence was an impossibility. If she had
been a dweller in a Catholic country, she would have gone into a
convent; as it was, she could only come to Hurstonleigh to hear Mr.
Colborne, whose enthusiasm answered to the vague aspirations of her own
ignorant heart. She was trying to be good. She and worthy plain-spoken
Mrs. Jeffson were on the best possible terms now, for the Doctor's Wife
had taken to staying at home a great deal, and had requested honest
Tilly to instruct her in the art of darning worsted socks.

Would the sight of the wicked squire's dark reproachful face undo all
the work of these two months? Surely not. To meet him once more--to hear
his voice--to feel the strong grasp of his hand--ah, what deep joy! But
what good could come of such a meeting? She could never confide in him
again. It would be only new pain--wasted anguish. Besides, was there not
some glory, some delight, in trying to be good? She felt herself a
Louise de la Vallière standing behind a grating in the convent-parlour,
while a kingly Louis pleaded and stormed on the other side of the iron
bars.

Some such thoughts as these sustained her all through that afternoon
service. The sermon was over; the blessing had been spoken; the
congregation began to disperse slowly and quietly. Would he go now?
Would he linger to meet her and speak to her? would he go away at once?
He did linger, looking at her with an appealing expression in his
haggard face. He stood up, as if waiting until she should leave her pew,
in order to leave his at the same moment. But she never stirred. Ah, if
Louise de la Vallière suffered as much as that! What wonder that she
became renowned for ever in sentimental story!

Little by little the congregation melted out of the aisle. The charity
boys from the neighbourhood of the organ-loft came clumping down the
stairs. Still Mr. Lansdell stood waiting and watching the Doctor's Wife
in the pew below. Still Isabel Gilbert kept her place, rigid and
inflexible, until the church was quite empty!

Then Mr. Lansdell looked at her--only one look--but with a world of
passion concentrated in its dark fury. He looked at her, slowly folding
his arms, and drawing himself to his fullest height. He shrugged his
shoulders, with one brief contemptuous movement, as if he flung some
burden off him by the gesture, and then turned and left the pew. Mrs.
Gilbert heard his firm tread upon the stairs, and she rose from her seat
in time to see him pass out of the porch. It is very nice to have a
place in romantic story: but there are some bitter pangs to be endured
in the life of a Mademoiselle de la Vallière.



CHAPTER XXIX.

THE FIRST WHISPER OF THE STORM.


There was no omnibus to take Mrs. Gilbert back to Graybridge after the
service at Hurstonleigh; but there had been some Graybridge people at
church, and she found them lingering in the churchyard talking to some
of the model villagers, enthusiastic in their praises of Mr. Colborne's
eloquence.

Amongst these Graybridge people was Miss Sophronia Burdock, the
maltster's daughter, very radiant in a bright pink bonnet, so vivid as
almost to extinguish her freckles, and escorted by young Mr. Pawlkatt,
the surgeon's son, and his sister, a sharp-nosed, high-cheek-boned
damsel, who looked polite daggers at the Doctor's Wife. Was not Mr.
George Gilbert a rising man in Graybridge? and was it likely that the
family of his rival should have any indulgence for the shortcomings of
his pale-faced wife?

But Miss Sophronia was in the humour to heap coals of fire on the head
of the nursery-governess whom George Gilbert had chosen to marry.
Sophronia was engaged, with her father's full consent, to the younger
Pawlkatt, who was to insure his life for the full amount of the fair
damsel's dower, which was to be rigidly tied up for her separate use and
maintenance, &c., and who looked of so sickly and feeble a constitution
that the maltster may have reasonably regarded the matrimonial
arrangement as a very fair speculation. Sophronia was engaged, and
displayed the little airs and graces that Graybridge considered
appropriate to the position of an engaged young lady. "The only way to
make love _now_," said Mr. Nash to Goldsmith, "is to take no manner of
notice of the lady." And Graybridge regarded the art of polite courtship
very much in this fashion, considering that a well-bred damsel could not
possibly be too contemptuously frigid in her treatment of the man whom
she had chosen from all other men to be her partner for life. Acting on
this principle, Miss Burdock, although intensely affectionate in her
manner to Julia Pawlkatt, and warmly gushing in her greeting of the
Doctor's Wife, regarded her future husband with a stony glare, only
disturbed by a scornful smile when the unfortunate young man ventured to
make any remark. To reduce a lover to a state of coma, and exhibit him
in that state to admiring beholders for an entire evening, was reckoned
high art in Graybridge.

Everybody in the little Midlandshire town knew that Miss Burdock and Mr.
Pawlkatt were engaged; and people considered that Augustus Pawlkatt had
done a very nice thing for himself by becoming affianced to a young lady
who was to have four thousand pounds tightly tied up for her separate
use and maintenance.

The consciousness of being engaged and having a fortune, combined to
render Sophronia especially amiable to everybody but the comatose
"future." Was Isabel alone, and going to walk back? "Oh, then, in that
case you _must_ go with us!" cried Miss Burdock, with a view to the
exhibition of the unfortunate Augustus in peripatetic coma.

What could Mrs. Gilbert say, except that she would be delighted to go
home with them? She was thinking of _him_; she was looking to see his
head towering above the crowd. Of course it would tower above that
crowd, or any crowd; but he was like the famous Spanish fleet in the
"Critic," inasmuch as she could not see him because he was not to be
seen. She went with Miss Burdock and her companions out of the
churchyard, towards the meadow-path that led across country towards
Graybridge. They walked in a straggling, uncomfortable manner, for
Sophronia resolutely refused all offers of her future husband's arm; and
he was fain to content himself with the cold comfort of her parasol, and
a church-service of ruby velvet, with a great many ribands between the
pages.

The conversation during that Sabbath afternoon walk was not very
remarkable for liveliness or wisdom. Isabel only spoke when she was
spoken to, and even then like a bewildered creature newly awakened from
a dream. Miss Julia Pawlkatt, who was an intellectual young person, and
prided herself upon not being frivolous, discoursed upon the botanical
names and attributes of the hedge-blossoms beside the path, and made a
few remarks on the science of medicine as adapted to female study, which
would have served for the ground-work of a letter in a Sunday paper.

Miss Burdock, who eschewed intellectual acquirements, and affected to be
a gushing thing of the Dora Spenlow stamp, entreated her future
sister-in-law not to be "dreadful," and asked Isabel's opinion upon
several "dears" of bonnets exhibited that afternoon in Hurstonleigh
church; and the comatose future, who so rarely spoke that it seemed hard
he should always commit himself when he did speak, ventured a few
remarks, which were received with black and frowning looks by the idol
of his heart.

"I say, Sophronia, weren't you surprised to see Mr. Lansdell in the
gallery?" the young man remarked, interrupting his betrothed in a
discussion of a bunch of artificial may on the top of a white-tulle
bonnet so sweet and innocent-looking. "You know, dear, he isn't much of
a church-goer, and people _do_ say that he's an atheist; yet there he
was as large as life this afternoon, and I thought him looking very ill.
I've heard my father say that all those Lansdells are consumptive."

Miss Burdock made frowning and forbidding motions at the unhappy youth
with her pale-buff eyebrows, as if he had mentioned an improper French
novel, or started some other immoral subject. Poor Isabel's colour went
and came. Consumptive! Ah, what more likely, what more proper, if it
came to that? These sort of people were intended to die early. Fancy the
Giaour pottering about in his eightieth year, and boasting that he could
read small print without spectacles! Imagine the Corsair on the parish;
or Byron, or Keats, or Shelley grown old, and dim, and grey! Ah, how
much better to be erratic and hapless Shelley, drowned in an Italian
lake, than worthy respectable Samuel Rogers, living to demand, in feeble
bewilderment, "And who are you, ma'am?" of an amiable and distinguished
visitor! Of course Roland Lansdell would die of consumption; he would
fade little by little, like that delightful Lionel in "Rosalind and
Helen."

Isabel improved the occasion by asking, Mr. Augustus Pawlkatt if many
people died of consumption. She wanted to know what her own chances
were. She wanted so much to die, now that she was good. The unhappy
Augustus was quite relieved by this sudden opening for a professional
discourse, and he and his sister became scientific, and neglected
Sophronia, while they gave Isabel a good deal of useful information
respecting tubercular disease, phthisis, &c. &c.; whereon Miss Burdock,
taking offence, lapsed into a state of sullen gloom highly approved by
Graybridge as peculiarly befitting an engaged, young lady who wished to
sustain the dignity of her position.

At last they came out of a great corn-field into the very lane in which
George Gilbert's house was situated; and Isabel's friends left her at
the gate. She had done something to redeem her character in Graybridge
by her frequent attendance at Hurstonleigh church, which was as patent
to the gossips as ever her visits to Lord Thurston's oak had been. She
had been cured of running after Mr. Lansdell, people said. No doubt
George Gilbert had discovered her goings-on, and had found a means of
clipping her wings. It was not likely that Graybridge would credit her
with any such virtue as repentance, or a wish to be a better woman than
she had been. Graybridge regarded her as an artful and presuming
creature, whose shameful goings-on had been stopped by marital
authority.

She went into the parlour, and found the tea-things laid on the little
table, and Mr. Gilbert lying on the sofa, which was too short for him by
a couple of feet, and was eked out by a chair, on which his clumsy boots
rested. Isabel had never seen him give way to any such self-indulgence
before; but as she bent over him, gently enough, if not tenderly, he
told her that his head ached and he was tired, very tired; he had been
in the lanes all the afternoon,--the people about there were very
bad,--and he had been at work in the surgery since coming in. He put his
hand in Isabel's, and pressed hers affectionately. A very little
attention from his pretty young wife gratified him and made him happy.

"Why, George," cried Mrs. Gilbert, "your hand is as hot as a burning
coal!"

Yes, he was very warm, he told her; the weather was hot and oppressive;
at least, he had found it so that afternoon. Perhaps he had been
hurrying too much, walking too fast; he had upset himself somehow or
other.

"If you'll pour out the tea. Izzie, I'll take a cup, and then go to
bed," he said; "I'm regularly knocked up."

He took not one cup only, but four cups of tea, pouring the mild
beverage down his throat at a draught; and then he went up to the room
overhead, walking heavily, as if he were very tired.

"I'm sure you're ill, George," Isabel said, as he left the parlour; "do
take something--some of that horrid medicine you give me sometimes."

"No, my dear, there's nothing the matter with me. What should there be
amiss with me, who never had a day's illness in my life? I must have an
assistant, Izzie; my work's too hard--that's what is the matter."

Mrs. Gilbert sat in the dusk for a little while after her husband had
left her, thinking of that last look which Roland Lansdell had given her
in the church.

Heaven knows how long she might have sat thinking of him, if Mrs.
Jeffson had not come in with those two miserable mould-candles, which
were wont to make feeble patches of yellow haze, not light, in the
doctor's parlour. After the candles had been brought Isabel took a book
from the top of the little chiffonier by the fireplace. It was a
religious book. Was she not trying to be good now, and was not goodness
incompatible with the perusal of Shelley's poetry on a Sunday? It was a
very dry religious book, being in fact a volume of Tillotson's sermons,
with more hard logic, and firstly, secondly, and thirdly, than ordinary
human nature could support. Isabel sat with the volume open before her,
staring hopelessly at the pale, old-fashioned type, and going back a
little way every now and then when she caught her thoughts far away from
the Reverend Tillotson. She sat thus till after the clock had struck
ten. She was all alone in the lower part of the house at that hour, for
the Jeffsons had gone clumping up-stairs to bed at half-past eight. She
sat alone, a poor childish, untaught, unguided creature, staring at
Tillotson, and thinking of Roland Lansdell; yet trying to be good all
the time in her own feeble way. She sat thus, until she was startled by
a cautious single knock at the door. She started from her seat at the
sound; but she went boldly enough, with the candle in her hand, to
answer the summons.

There was nothing uncommon in a late knocking at the doctor's
door,--some one from the lanes wanted medicine, no doubt; the people in
the lanes were always wanting medicine. Mrs. Gilbert opened the door,
and looked out into the darkness. A man was standing there, a well-clad,
rather handsome-looking man, with broad shoulders, bold black eyes, and
a black beard that covered all the lower part of his face. He did not
wait to be invited to enter, but walked across the threshold like a man
who had a right to come into that house, and almost pushed Isabel on one
side as he did so. At first she only stared at him with a blank look of
wonder, but all at once her face grew as white as the plaster on the
wall behind her.

"You!" she gasped, in a whisper; "you here!"

"Yes, me! You needn't stare as if you saw a ghost. There's nothing so
very queer about me, is there? You're a nice young lady, I don't think,
to stand there shivering and staring. Where's your husband?"

"Up-stairs. Oh, why, why did you come here?" cried the Doctor's Wife,
piteously, clasping her hands like a creature in some extremity of fear
and trouble; "how could you be so cruel as to come here; how could you
be so cruel as to come?"

"How could I be so--fiddlesticks!" muttered the stranger, with supreme
contempt. "I came here because I had nowhere else to go, my lassie. You
needn't whimper; for I shan't trouble you very long--this is not exactly
the sort of place I should care to hang-out in: if you can give me a bed
in this house for to-night, well and good; if not, you can give me a
sovereign, and I'll find one elsewhere. While I am here, remember my
name's Captain Morgan, and I'm in the merchant service,--just home from
the Mauritius."



CHAPTER XXX.

THE BEGINNING OF A GREAT CHANGE.


George Gilbert was something more than "knocked up." There had been a
great deal of typhoid fever amongst the poorer inhabitants of Graybridge
and the neighbouring villages lately--a bad infectious fever, which hung
over the narrow lanes and little clusters of cottages like a black
cloud; and the parish surgeon, working early and late, subject to sudden
chills when his work was hottest, exposed to every variety of
temperature at all times, fasting for long hours, and altogether setting
at naught those very first principles of health, wherein it was his duty
to instruct other people, had paid the common penalty to which all of
his profession are, more or less, subject. George Gilbert had caught a
touch of the fever. Mr. Pawlkatt senior called early on Monday
morning,--summoned by poor terrified Isabel, who was a stranger to
sickness, and was frightened at the first appearance of the malady,--and
spoke of his rival's illness very lightly, as a "touch of the fever."

"I always said it was infectious," he remarked; "but your husband would
have it that it wasn't. It was all the effect of dirty habits, and low
living, he said, and not any special and periodical influence in the
air. Well, poor fellow, he knows now who is right. You must keep him
very quiet. Give him a little toast-and-water, and the lime-draughts I
shall send you," and Mr. Pawlkatt went on to give all necessary
directions about the invalid.

Unhappily for the patient, it was not the easiest matter in the world to
keep him quiet. There was not so much in George Gilbert, according to
any poetic or sentimental standard; but there was a great deal in him,
when you came to measure him by the far nobler standard of duty. He was
essentially "thorough;" and in his own quiet way he was very fond of his
profession. He was attached to those rough Midlandshire peasants, whom
it had been his duty to attend from his earliest manhood until now.
Never before had he known what it was to have a day's illness; and he
could not lie tranquilly watching Isabel sitting at work near the
window, with the sunlight creeping in at the edges of the dark curtain
that had been hastily nailed up to shut out the glaring day;--he could
not lie quietly there, while there were mothers of sick children, and
wives of sick husbands, waiting for hope and comfort from his lips.
True, Mr. Pawlkatt had promised to attend to George's patients; but
then, unhappily, George did not believe in Mr. Pawlkatt.--the two
surgeons' views were in every way opposed,--and the idea of Mr. Pawlkatt
attending the sick people in the lanes, and seizing with delight on the
opportunity of reversing his rival's treatment, was almost harder to
bear than the thought of the same sufferers being altogether unattended.
And, beyond this, Mr. Gilbert, so clever while other people were
concerned, was not the best possible judge of his own case; and he would
not consent to believe that he had the fever.

"I dare say Pawlkatt likes to see me laid by the heels here, Izzie," he
said to his wife, "while he goes interfering with my patients, and
bringing his old-fashioned theories to bear. He'll shut up the poor
wretched little windows of all those cottages in the lanes, I dare say;
and make the rooms even more stifling than they have been made by the
builder. He'll frighten the poor women into shutting out every breath of
fresh air, and then take every atom of strength away from those poor
wasted creatures by his drastic treatment. Dr. Robert James Graves said
he only wanted three words for his epitaph, and those words were, 'HE
FED FEVERS.' Pawlkatt will be for starving these poor feeble creatures
in the lanes. It's no use talking, my dear; I'm a little knocked up, but
I've no more fever about me than you have, and I shall go out this
evening. I shall go round and see those people. There's a woman in the
lane behind the church, a widow, with three children lying ill; and she
seems to believe in me, poor creature, as if I was Providence itself. I
can't forget the look she gave me yesterday, when she stood on the
threshold of her wretched hovel, asking me to save her children, as if
she thought it rested with me to save them. I can't forget her look,
Izzie. It haunted me all last night, when I lay tossing about; for I was
too tired to sleep, somehow or other. And when I think of Pawlkatt
pouring his drugs down those children's throats, I--I tell you it's no
use, my dear; I'll take a cup of tea, and then get up and dress."

It was in vain that Isabel pleaded; in vain that she brought to her aid
Mrs. Jeffson, the vigorous and outspoken, who declared that it would be
nothing short of self-murder if Mr. Gilbert insisted on going out that
evening; equally in vain the threat of summoning Mr. Pawlkatt. George
was resolute; these quiet people always are resolute, not to say
obstinate. It is your animated, impetuous, impulsive creatures who can
be turned by a breath from the pursuit or purpose they have most
vehemently sworn to accomplish. Mr. Gilbert put aside all arguments in
the quietest possible manner. He was a medical man, and he was surely
the best judge of his own health. He was wanted yonder among his
patients, and he must go. Isabel and Mrs. Jeffson retired in melancholy
resignation to prepare the tea, which was to fortify the surgeon for his
evening's work. George came down-stairs half an hour afterwards,
looking, not ill, or even weak; but at once flushed and haggard.

"There's nothing whatever the matter with me, my dear Izzie," he said,
as his wife followed him to the door; "I'm only done up by very hard
work. I feel tired and cramped in my limbs, as if I'd caught cold
somehow or other. I was out all day in the wet, last week, you know; but
there's nothing in that. I shall just look in at those people at
Briargate, and come back by the lanes; and then an hour or so in the
surgery will finish my work, and I shall be able to get a good night's
rest. I must have an assistant, my dear. The agricultural population
gets very thick about Graybridge; and unless some one takes pity on the
poor people, and brings about some improvement in the places they live
in, we may look for plenty of fever."

He went out at the little gate, and Isabel watched him going along the
lane. He walked a little slower than usual, and that was all. She
watched him with a quiet affection on her face. There was no possible
phase of circumstance by which she could ever have been brought to love
him; but she knew that he was good, she knew that there was something
praiseworthy in what he was doing to-night,--this resolute visiting of
wretched sick people. It was not the knightly sort of goodness she had
adored in the heroes of her choice; but it was good; and she admired her
husband a little, in a calm unenthusiastic manner,--as she might have
admired a very estimable grandfather, had she happened to possess such a
relative. She was trying to be good, remember; and all the sentimental
tenderness of her nature had been aroused by George's illness. He was a
much more agreeable person lying faint and languid in a shaded room, and
requiring his head constantly bathed with vinegar-and-water, than when
in the full vigour of health and clumsiness.

Mr. Pawlkatt came in for his second visit half an hour after George had
left the house. He was very angry when he was told what had happened,
and inveighed solemnly upon his patient's imprudence.

"I sent my son round amongst your husband's patients," he said, "and I
must say, I am a little hurt by the want of confidence in me which Mr.
Gilbert's conduct exhibits."

Isabel was too much occupied by all manner of contending thoughts to be
able to do much towards the soothing of Mr. Pawlkatt's indignation. That
gentleman went away with his heart full of bitterness against the
younger practitioner.

"If your husband's well enough to go about amongst his patients, he
can't want _me_, Mrs. Gilbert," he said, as Isabel opened the gate for
him; "but if you find him much worse, as you are very likely to do after
his most imprudent conduct, you know where to send for me. I shall not
come again till I'm sent for. Good night."

Isabel sighed as she shut the gate upon the offended surgeon. The world
seemed to her quite full of trouble just now. Roland Lansdell was angry
with her. Ah! what bitter anger and contempt had been exhibited in his
face in the church yesterday! George was ill, and bent on making himself
worse, as it seemed; a Person--the person whom of all others the
Doctor's Wife most feared--had dropped as it were from the clouds into
Midlandshire; and here, added to all this trouble, was Mr. Pawlkatt
indignant and offended. She did not go indoors at once; the house seemed
gloomy and hot in the summer dusk. She lingered by the gate, looking
over the top of the rails at the dusty lane,--the monotonous
uninteresting lane, of whose changeless aspect she was so very tired.
She was sorry for her husband now that he was ill. It was her nature to
love and pity every weak thing in creation. The same kind of tenderness
that she had felt long ago for a sick kitten, or a wounded bird, or a
forlorn street wanderer of the canine species looking pleadingly at her
with great hungry eyes, filled her heart now, as she thought of George
Gilbert. Out of the blank emptiness into which he had melted long ago at
Roland Lansdell's advent, he emerged now, distinct and palpable, as a
creature who wanted pity and affection.

"Is he very ill?" she wondered. "He says himself that he is not: and he
is much cleverer than Mr. Pawlkatt."

She looked out into the lane, watching for her husband's coming. Two or
three people went slowly by at considerable intervals; and at last, when
it was growing quite dark, the figure of a boy, a slouching
country-built lad, loomed out of the obscurity.

"Be this Muster Gilbert's the doctor's?" he asked of Isabel. "Yes; do
you want him?"

"I doan't want him; but I've got a letter for his wife, from a man
that's staying up at our place. Be you she?"

"Yes; give me the letter," answered Isabel, putting her hand over the
gate.

She took the missive from the hand of the boy, who resigned it in a slow
unwilling manner, and then slouched away. Mrs. Gilbert put the letter in
her pocket, and went into the house. The candles had just been taken
into the parlour. The Doctor's Wife seated herself at the little table,
and took the letter from her pocket and tore it open. It was a very
brief and unceremonious kind of epistle, containing only these words:

"I've found comfortable quarters, for the nonce, in a little crib called
the Leicester Arms, down in Nessborough Hollow, to the left of the
Briargate Road. I suppose you know the place; and I shall expect to see
you in the course of to-morrow. Don't forget the sinews of war; and be
sure you ask for Captain Morgan.

                                         Yours truly."

There was no signature. The letter was written in a big dashing hand,
which had sprawled recklessly over a sheet of old-fashioned
letter-paper; it seemed a riotous, improvident kind of writing, that
gloried in the wasted space and squandered ink.

"How cruel of him to come here!" muttered Isabel, as she tore the letter
into a little heap of fragments; "how cruel of him to come! As if I had
not suffered enough already; as if the misery and disgrace had not been
bitter enough and hard enough to bear."

She rested her elbows on the table, and sat quite still for some time
with her face hidden in her hands. Her thoughts were very painful; but,
for once in a way, they were not entirely devoted to Roland Lansdell;
and yet the master of Mordred Priory did figure in that long reverie.
George came in by-and-by, and found her sitting in the attitude into
which she had fallen after destroying the letter. She had been very
anxious about her husband some time ago; but for the last half-hour her
thoughts had been entirely removed from him; and she looked up at him
confusedly, almost startled by his coming, as if he had been the last
person in the world whom she expected to see. Mr. Gilbert did not notice
that look of confusion, but dropped heavily into the nearest chair, like
a man who feels himself powerless to go one step farther.

"I'm very ill, Izzie," he said; "it's no use mincing the matter; I _am_
ill. I suppose Pawlkatt is right after all, and I've got a touch of the
fever."

"Shall I send for him?" asked Isabel, starting up; "he said I was to
send for him if you were worse."

"Not on any account. I know what to do as well as he does. If I should
happen to get delirious by-and-by, you can send for him, because I dare
say you'd be frightened, poor girl, and would feel more comfortable with
a doctor pottering about me. And now listen to me, my dear, while I give
you a few directions; for my head feels like a ton weight, and I don't
think I shall be able to sit upright much longer."

The doctor proceeded to give his wife all necessary instructions for the
prevention of infection. She was to have a separate room prepared for
herself immediately; and she was to fumigate the room in which he was to
lie, in such and such a manner. As for any attendance upon himself, that
would be Mrs. Jeffson's task.

"I don't believe the fever is infectious," Mr. Gilbert said; "I've
caught it from the same causes that give it to the poor people: hard
work, exposure to bad weather, and the foul air of the places I have to
visit. Still we can't be too careful. You'd better keep away from my
room as much as possible, Izzie; and let Mrs. Jeffson look after me.
She's a strong-minded sort of a woman, who wouldn't be likely to catch a
fever, because she'd be the last in the world to trouble her head about
the risk of catching it."

But Isabel declared that she herself would wait upon her sick husband.
Was she not trying to be good; and did not all Mr. Colborne's sermons
inculcate self-sacrifice and compassion, tenderness and pity? The
popular curate of Hurstonleigh was perhaps the kind of teacher that some
people would have designated a sentimentalist; but his tender, loving
exhortations had a fascination which could surely never belong to the
tenable threats and awful warnings of a sterner preacher. In spite of
Austin Colborne's deep faith in an infinitely grand and beautiful region
beyond this lower earth, he did not look upon the world as a howling
wilderness, in which Providence intended people to be miserable. He
might certainly behold in it a place of probation, a kind of preparatory
school, in which very small virtues were expected of ignorant and
helpless scholars, wandering dimly towards a starry future: but he did
not consider it a universal Dotheboys Hall, presided over by a
Providence after the model of Mr. Squeers. He looked into the simple
narratives of four historians who flourished some eighteen centuries
ago; and in those solemn pages he saw no possible justification for the
gloomy view of life entertained by many of his clerical compeers. He
found in those sacred histories a story that opened like an idyl; he
found bright glimpses of a life in which there were marriage festivals
and pleasant gatherings, social feasts and happy Sabbath wanderings
through rustic paths betwixt the standing corn; he found pure earthly
friendship counted no sin against the claims of Heaven, and passionate
parental love not reproved as an unholy idolatry of the creature, but
hallowed for ever, by two separate miracles, that stand eternal records
of a love so entirely divine as to be omnipotent, so tenderly human as
to change the sternest laws of the universe in pity for weak human
sorrow.

Mr. Pawlkatt was summoned to his rival's bedside early on the following
morning. George's case was quite out of his own hands by this time; for
he had grown much worse in the night, and was fain to submit to whatever
people pleased to do to him. He was very ill. Isabel sat in the
half-darkened room, sometimes reading, sometimes working in the dim
light that crept through the curtain, sometimes sitting very quietly
wrapt in thought--painful and perplexing thought. Mr. Gilbert was
wakeful all through the day, as he had been all through the night,
tossing uneasily from side to side, and now and then uttering
half-suppressed groans that wrung his wife's heart. She was very
foolish--she had been very wicked--but there was a deep fount of
tenderness in that sentimental and essentially feminine breast; and I
doubt if George Gilbert was not more lovingly watched by his weak erring
young wife than ever he could have been by a strong-minded helpmate, who
would have frozen any lurking sentiment in Mr. Lansdell's breast by one
glance from her pitiless eyes. The Doctor's Wife felt a remorseful
compassion for the man who, after his own matter-of-fact fashion, had
been very good to her.

"He has never, never been cross to me, as my step-mother used to be,"
she thought; "he married me without even knowing who I was, and never
asked any cruel questions; and even now, if he knew, I think he would
have pity upon me and forgive me."

She sat looking at her husband with an earnest yearning expression in
her eyes. It seemed as if she wanted to say something to him, but lacked
the courage to approach the subject. He was very ill; it was no time to
make any unpleasant communication to him. He had been delirious in the
night, and had fancied that Mr. Pawlkatt was present, at an hour when
that gentleman was snoring comfortably in his own bed. Isabel had been
specially enjoined to keep her husband as quiet as it was possible for
an active industrious man, newly stricken down by some unlooked-for
malady, to be kept. No; whatever she might have to say to him must be
left unspoken for the present. Whatever help he might, under ordinary
circumstances, have given her, he was utterly powerless to give her now.

The day in that sick chamber seemed terribly long. Not because Isabel
felt any selfish weariness of her task; she was only too anxious to be
of use to the man she had so deeply wronged; she was only too eager to
do something,--something that Mr. Colborne himself might approve,--as an
atonement for her sin. But she was quite unused to sickness; and, being
of a hyper-sensitive nature, suffered keenly at the sight of any
suffering whatever. If the invalid was restless, she fancied directly
that he was worse--much worse--in imminent danger, perhaps: if he
rambled a little in his talk betwixt sleeping and waking, she sat with
his burning hands clasped in hers, trembling from head to foot: if he
fell into a profound slumber, she was seized with a sudden terror,
fancying him unnaturally quiet, and was fain to disturb him, in her fear
lest he should be sinking into some ominous lethargy.

The Doctor's Wife was not one of those excellent nurses who can settle
themselves with cheerful briskness in a sick room, and improve the
occasion by the darning of a whole basketful of invalided stockings,
reserved for some such opportunity. She was not a nurse who could accept
the duties of her position in a businesslike way, and polish off each
separate task as coolly as a clerk in a banking-house transacts the work
assigned to him. Yet she was very quiet withal,--soft of foot,
gentle-handed, tender; and George was pleased to see her sitting in the
shadowy room, when he lifted his heavy eyelids a little now and then; he
was pleased in a dim kind of way to take his medicine from her
hand,--the slender little white hand with tapering fingers,--the hand he
had admired as it lay lightly on the moss-grown brickwork of the bridge
in Hurstonleigh churchyard on the afternoon when he asked her to be his
wife.

Mrs. Gilbert sat all day in her husband's room; but about five in the
afternoon George fell into a deep slumber, in which Mr. Pawlkatt found
him at a little after six o'clock. Nothing could be better than that
tranquil sleep, the surgeon said; and when he was gone, Mrs. Jeffson,
who had been sitting in the room for some time, anxious to be of use to
her master, suggested that Isabel should go down-stairs and out into the
garden to get a breath of fresh air.

"You must be a'most stifled, I should think, sitting all day in this
room," Tilly said, compassionately. Mrs. Gilbert's face crimsoned all
over, as she answered in a timid, hesitating way:

"Yes; I should like to go down-stairs a little, if you think that George
is sure to sleep soundly for a long time; and I know you'll take good
care of him. I want to go out somewhere--not very far; but I must go
to-night."

The Doctor's Wife sat with her back to the light; and Mrs. Jeffson did
not see that sudden tide of crimson that rushed into her face, and
faded, as she said this; but George Gilbert's housekeeper gave a sniff
of disapproval notwithstanding.

"I should have thought if you was the greatest gadderabout that ever
was, you'd have stayed quietly at home while your husband was lying ill,
Mrs. Gilbert," she said, sharply; "but of course you know your own
business best."

"I'm not going far; only--only a little way on the Briargate Road,"
Isabel answered, piteously; and then her head sank back against the wall
behind her, and she sighed a plaintive, almost heart-broken sigh. Her
life was very hard just now,--hard and difficult,--begirt with terror
and peril, as she thought.

She put on her bonnet and shawl--the darkest and shabbiest she
possessed. Mrs. Jeffson watched her, as she stood before the
old-fashioned looking-glass, and perceived that she did not even take
the trouble to brush the rumpled hair which she pushed under her dingy
bonnet. "She can't be going to meet _him_ in that plight, anyhow,"
thought honest Matilda, considerably pacified by the contemplation of
her mistress's toilette. She lifted the curtain and looked out of the
window as the garden-gate closed on Isabel, and she saw the Doctor's
Wife hurrying away with her veil pulled over her face. There was some
kind of mystery about this evening's walk: something that filled the
Yorkshirewoman's mind with vague disquietude.

       *       *       *       *       *

The "touch of the fever," alluded to so lightly by Mr. Pawlkatt, turned
out to be a great deal more serious in its nature than either he or
George Gilbert had anticipated. The week came to an end, and the parish
surgeon was still a prisoner in the room in which his father and mother
had died. It seemed quite a long time now since he had been active and
vigorous, going about his work all day, mixing medicines in the surgery,
and coming into the parlour at stated times to eat hearty meals of
commonplace substantial food. Now that he was so weak, and that it was a
matter for rejoicing when he took a couple of spoonfuls of beef-tea,
Isabel's conscience smote her cruelly as she remembered how she had
despised him because of his healthy appetite; with what bitter scorn she
had regarded him when he ate ponderous slices of underdone meat, and
mopped up the last drop of the goriest-looking gravy with great pieces
of bread. He had been ill for only a week, and yet already it seemed
quite a normal state of things for him to be lying in that darkened
chamber, helpless and uneasy, all through the long summer day. The state
of the doctor's health was common talk in Graybridge; as common a
subject for idle people's converse as the heat of the weather, or the
progress of the green corn in the fields beyond the little town. All
manner of discreditable-looking parish patients came every day to the
surgery door to inquire after the surgeon's health; and went away
downcast and lamenting, when they were told that he grew daily worse.
Mrs. Gilbert, going down to answer these people's questions, discovered
for the first time how much he was beloved; he who had not one of the
attributes of a hero. She wondered sometimes whether it might not be
better to wear thick boots, and go about doing good, than to be a
used-up aristocratic wanderer, with white hands, and, oh, such
delightful varnished boots wrinkled over an arched instep. She was
trying to be good herself now--pleased and fascinated by Mr. Colborne's
teaching as by some newly-discovered romance--she wanted to be good, and
scarcely knew how to set about the task; and, behold, here was the man
whom she had so completely ignored and despised, infinitely above her in
the region she had entered. But was her romantic attachment to Roland
Lansdell laid down at the new altar she had found for herself? Ah, no;
she tried very hard to do her duty; but the old sentimental worship
still held its place in her heart. She was like some classic pagan newly
converted to Christianity, and yet entertaining a lurking love and
reverence for the old heathen deities, too grand and beautiful to be
cast off all at once.

The first week came to an end, and still Mr. Pawlkatt came twice a day
to visit his patient; and still he gave very much the same directions to
the untiring nurses who waited on George Gilbert. He was to be kept very
quiet; he was to continue the medicine; all the old stereotyped rules
were to be observed.

Throughout her husband's illness, Isabel had taken very little rest;
though Mr. and Mrs. Jeffson would gladly have kept watch alternately
with her in the sick room, and were a little wounded when banished
therefrom. But Mrs. Gilbert wanted to be good; the harder the task was,
the more gladly did she undertake it. Very often, quite alone in that
quiet room, she sat watching through the stillest hours of the night.

During all those solemn watches did any bad thoughts enter her mind? did
she ever think that she might be free to marry Roland Lansdell if the
surgeon's illness should terminate fatally? Never--never once did such a
dark and foul fancy enter the regions of her imagination. Do not believe
that because she had been a foolish woman she must necessarily be a
vicious woman. Again and again, on her knees by her husband's bed, she
supplicated that his life might be spared. She had never encountered
death, and her imagination shrank appalled from the thought of that
awful presence. A whole after-life of happiness could not have atoned to
her for the one pang of seeing a dreadful change come upon the familiar
face. Sometimes, in spite of herself, though she put away the thought
from her with shuddering horror, the idea that George Gilbert might not
recover _would_ come into her mind. He might not recover: the horror
which so many others had passed through might overtake her. Oh, the
hideous tramp of the undertaker's men upon the stairs; the knocking,
unlike all other knocking; the dreadful aspect of the shrouded house!
If--if any such sorrow came upon her, Mrs. Gilbert thought that she
would join some community of holy women, and go about doing good until
she died.

Was it so very strange, this sudden conversion? Surely not! In these
enthusiastic natures sentiment may take any unexpected form. It is a
question whether a Madame de Chantal shall write hazy devotional letters
to a St. Francis de Sales, or peril her soul for the sake of an earthly
lover.



CHAPTER XXXI.

FIFTY POUNDS.


After that scene in the church at Hurstonleigh, Roland Lansdell went
back to Mordred; to think, with even greater bitterness, of the woman he
loved. That silent encounter--the sight of the pale face, profoundly
melancholy, almost statuesque in its air of half-despairing
resignation--had exercised no softening influence on the mind of this
young man, who could not understand why the one treasure for which he
languished should be denied to him. He could not be generous or just
towards the woman who had fooled him with false hopes, and then left him
to despair; he could not have pity upon the childish creature who had
wandered unawares upon the flowery margin of a hideous gulf, and had
fled, aghast and horrified, at the first glimpse of the yawning depths
below. No; his anger against Isabel could not have been more intense had
she been a hardened and practised coquette who had deliberately lured
him to his ruin.

"I suppose this is what the world calls a virtuous woman," he cried,
bitterly. "I dare say Lucretia was this sort of person; and dropped her
eyelids to show off the dark lashes, and made the most of her tapering
arms over the spinning-wheel, and summoned conscious blushes into her
cheeks when Tarquin looked at her. These virtuous women delight in
clamour and scandal. I've no doubt Mrs. Gilbert profoundly enjoyed
herself during our rencontre in the church, and went away proud of the
havoc she had made in me--the haggard lines about my mouth, and the
caverns under my eyes."

"It is _not_ because she is a good woman, it is not because she loves
her husband, that she refuses to listen to me," he thought; "it is only
a paltry provincial terror of an _esclandre_ that ties her to this
wretched place. And when she has broken my heart, and when she has
ruined my life, she goes to church at Hurstonleigh, and sits in a
devotional pose, with her big eyes lifted up to the parson's face, like
a Madonna by Giorgione, in order that she may rehabilitate herself in
the consideration of Graybridge."

He could neither be just nor patient. Sometimes he laughed aloud at his
own folly. Was he, who had prided himself on his cynical disbelief in
the depth or endurance of any emotion--was he the man to go mad for love
of a pale face, and darkly pensive eyes? Ah, yes! it is just these
scoffers who take the fever most deeply, when the infection seizes them.

"I--I, who have lived my life out, as I thought, wherever life is most
worth living,--I suffer like this at last for the sake of a village
surgeon's half-educated wife? I--who have given myself the airs of a
Lauzun or a Brummel--am perishing for the love of a woman who doesn't
even know how to put on her gloves!"

Every day Mr. Lansdell resolved to leave Midlandshire to-morrow; but
to-morrow found him still lingering at the Priory, in a hopeless,
purposeless way,-lingering for he knew not what,--lingering, perhaps,
for want of the mere physical energy required for the brief effort of
departure. He would go to Constantinople overland; there would be more
fatigue in the journey that way. Might not a walk across Mount Cenis
cure him of his foolish love for Isabel Gilbert? Did not D'Alembert
retire from the world and all its troubles into the peaceful pleasures
of geometry? Did not Goethe seek relief from some great sorrow in the
study of a new language? Roland Lansdell made a faint effort to acquire
the Arabic alphabet during those wretched idle days and nights at
Mordred. He would study the Semitic languages; all of them. He would go
in for the Book of Job. Many people have got plenty of hard work out of
the Book of Job. But the curly little characters in the Arabic alphabet
slipped out of Mr. Lansdell's brain as if they had been so many lively
young serpents; and he only made so much headway in the attainment of
the Semitic languages as enabled him to scrawl an Arabic rendering of
Isabel Gilbert's name over the leaves of a blotting-book. He was in
love. No schoolboy, bewitched by a pretty blue-eyed, blue-ribanded,
white-robed partner at a dancing-school, was ever more foolishly in love
than the young squire of Mordred, who had filled a whole volume with
various metrical versions of his profound contempt for his species in
general, and the feminine portion of them in particular. He had set up
that gladsome halloo before he was safely out of the wood; and now he
found to his cost that he had been premature; for lo, the dense forest
hemmed him in on every side, and there seemed no way of escape out of
the sombre labyrinth.

       *       *       *       *       *

George Gilbert had been ill nearly a fortnight, and the master of
Mordred Priory still lingered in Midlandshire. He had heard nothing of
the surgeon's illness, for he had never been much given to gossiping
with his body-servant; and that gentleman was especially disinclined to
offer his master any unasked-for information just now; for, as he
expressed himself in the servants' hall, "Mr. Lansdell's been in a devil
of a temper almost ever since we come back to the Priory; and you might
as lief talk to a tiger as speak to him, except when you're spoken to
and goodness knows _that_ ain't very often; for anything as gloomy as
his ways has become of late, I never remember to have met with; and if
it wasn't that the remuneration is high, and the perquisites never
greasy about the elbows, or frayed at the edges,--which I've been with a
member of the peerage that wore his clothes till they was shameful
shabby,--it wouldn't be very long as I should trouble this dismal old
dungeon with my presence."

Only from Lady Gwendoline was Roland likely to hear of George Gilbert's
illness; and he had not been to Lowlands lately. He had a vague idea
that he would go there some morning, and ask his cousin to marry him,
and so make an end of it; but he deferred the carrying out of that idea
indefinitely, as a man who contemplates suicide may postpone the ghastly
realization of his purpose, keeping his loaded pistol or his prussic
acid handy against the time when it shall be wanted. He had never ridden
past the surgeon's house since that day on which he had seen Isabel
seated in the parlour. He had indeed shunned Graybridge and the
Graybridge road altogether.

"She shall not triumph in the idea that I pursue her," he thought; "her
vain shallow heart shall not be gratified by the knowledge of my pitiful
weakness. I bared my foolish breast before her once, and she sat in her
pew playing at devotion, and let me go away with my despair. She might
have thrown herself in my way that afternoon, if only for a few moments.
She might have spoken to me, if only half-a-dozen commonplace words of
comfort; but it pleased her better to exhibit her piety. I dare say she
knows as well as I do how that devotional air harmonizes with her
beauty; and she went home happy, no doubt, in the knowledge that she had
made one man miserable. And that's the sort of woman whom the world
calls virtuous,--a creature in whom vanity is strong enough to usurp the
place of every other passion. For a really good woman, for a
true-hearted wife who loves her husband, and before whose quiet presence
the veriest libertine bows his head abashed and reverent,--for such a
woman as that I have no feeling but respect and admiration; but I hate
and despise these sentimental coquettes, who preach secondhand
platonism, borrowed from the misty pages of Shelley."

But it was not always that Roland Lansdell was thus bitter against the
woman he loved. Sometimes in the midst of his rage and anger a sudden
current of tenderness swept across the dark waters of his soul, and for
a little while the image of Isabel Gilbert appeared to him in its true
colours. He saw her as she really was: foolish, but not base; weak, but
not hypocritical; sentimental, and with some blemish of womanly vanity
perhaps, but not designing. Sometimes amidst all contending emotions, in
which passion, and selfishness, and wounded pride, and mortified vanity,
made a very whirlpool of bitter feeling,--sometimes amidst such baser
emotions as these, true love--the sublime, the clear-sighted--arose for
a brief interval triumphant, and Roland Lansdell thought tenderly of the
woman who had shattered his future.

"My poor little girl,-my poor innocent childish love," he thought, in
these moments of purer feeling; "if I could only be noble, and go away,
and forgive you, and leave you to grow into a good woman, with that
well-meaning commonplace husband, whom it is your duty to honour and
obey."

Nothing could be more irregular than Mr. Lansdell's habits during this
period. The cook at Mordred declared that such a thing as a _soufflé_
was a simple impossibility with an employer who might require his dinner
served at any time between the hours of seven and nine. The fish was
flabby, the joints were leathery; and all the hot-water reservoirs in
the Mordred dinner-service could not preserve the cook's most special
_plats_ from stagnation. That worthy artist shrugged his shoulders over
the ruins of his work, and turned his attention to the composition of a
menu in which the best things were to be eaten cold. He might have
spared himself the trouble. The young man, who, naturally careless as to
what he ate, had, out of pure affectation, been wont to outrival the
insolence of the oldest _bon-vivants_, now scarcely knew the nature of
the dishes that were set before him. He ate and drank mechanically; and
it may be drank a little deeper than he had been accustomed to drink of
the famous clarets his father and grandfather had collected. But eating
delighted him not, nor drinking neither. The wine had no exhilarating
effect upon him; he sat dull and gloomy after a magnum of the famous
claret--sat with the Arabic grammar open before him, wondering what was
to become of him, now that his life was done.

He was sitting thus in the library, with the sombre Rembrandt face that
was something like his own looking gravely down upon him; he was sitting
thus by the lamplit table one sultry June evening, when George Gilbert
had been ill nearly a fortnight. The light of the lamp--a soft subdued
light, shining dimly through a great moon-like orb of thick
ground-glass--fell chiefly on the open book, and left the student's face
in shadow. But even in that shadow the face looked wan and haggard, and
the something that lurked somewhere in all the Lansdell portraits--the
something that you may see in every picture of Charles the First of
England and Marie Antoinette of France, whensoever and by whomsoever
painted--was very visible in Roland's face to-night. He had been sitting
brooding over his books, but scarcely reading half-a-dozen pages, ever
since nine o'clock, and it was now half-past eleven. He was stretching
his hand towards the bell in order to summon his valet, and release that
personage from the task of sitting up any longer, yawning alone in the
housekeeper's room,--for the habits of Mordred Priory had never lost the
sobriety of Lady Anna Lansdell's régime, and all the servants except
Roland's valet went to bed at eleven,--when that gentleman entered the
library.

"Would you please to see any one, sir?" he asked.

"Would I please to see any one?" cried Roland, turning in his low
easy-chair, and staring at the solemn face of his valet; "who should
want to see me at such a time of night? Is there anything wrong? Is it
any one from-from Lowlands?"

"No, sir, it's a strange lady; leastways, when I say a strange lady, I
_think_, sir,--though, her veil being down, and a very thick veil, I
should not like to speak positive,--I think it's Mrs. Gilbert, the
doctor's lady, from Graybridge."

Mr. Lansdell's valet coughed doubtfully behind his hand, and looked
discreetly at the carved oaken bosses in the ceiling. Roland started to
his feet.

"Mrs. Gilbert," he muttered, "at such an hour as this! It can't be; she
would never--Show the lady here, whoever she is," he added aloud to his
servant. "There must be something wrong; it must be some very important
business that brings any one to this place to-night."

The valet departed, closing the door behind him, and Roland stood alone
upon the hearth, waiting for his late visitor. All the warmer tints--he
never had what people call "a colour"--faded out of his face, and left
him very pale. Why had she come to him at such a time? What purpose
could she have in coming to that house, save one? She had come to revoke
her decision. For a moment a flood of rapture swept into his soul, warm
and revivifying as the glory of a sudden sunburst on a dull grey autumn
day; but in the next moment,--so strange and subtle an emotion is that
which we call love,--a chill sense of regret crept into his mind, and he
was almost sorry that Isabel should come to him thus, even though she
were to bring him the promise of future happiness.

"My poor ignorant, innocent girl--how hard it seems that my love must
for ever place her at a disadvantage!" he thought.

The door was opened by the valet, with as bold a sweep as if a duchess
had been entering in all the glory of her court-robes, and Isabel came
into the room. One glance showed Mr. Lansdell that she was very nervous,
that she was suffering cruelly from the terror of his presence; and it
may be that even before she had spoken, he understood that she had not
come to announce any change in her decision, any modification of the
sentiments that had led to their parting at Thurston's Crag. There was
nothing desperate in her manner--nothing of the dramatic _aplomb_ that
belongs to the grand crises of life. She stood before him pale and
irresolute, with pleading eyes lifted meekly to his face.

Mr. Lansdell wheeled forward a chair, but he was obliged to ask her to
sit down; and even then she seated herself with the kind of timid
irresolution he had so often seen in a burly farmer come to supplicate
abnormal advantages in the renewal of a lease.

"I hope you are not angry with me for coming here at such a time," she
said, in a low tremulous voice; "I could not come any earlier, or I----"

"It can never be anything but a pleasure to me to see you," Roland
answered, gravely, "even though the pleasure is strangely mingled with
pain. You have come to me, perhaps, because you are in some kind of
trouble, and have need of my services in some way or other. I am very
much pleased to think that you can so far confide in me; I am very glad
to think that you can rely on my friendship."

Mr. Lansdell said this because he saw that the Doctor's Wife had come to
demand some favour at his hands, and he wished to smooth the way for
that demand. Isabel looked up at him with something like surprise in her
gaze. She had not expected that he would be like this--calm,
self-possessed, reasonable. A mournful feeling took possession of her
heart. She thought that his love must have perished altogether, or he
could not surely have been so kind to her, so gentle and dispassionate.
She looked at him furtively as he lounged against the farther angle of
the massive mantel-piece. His transient passion had worn itself out, no
doubt, and he was deep in the tumultuous ocean of a new love affair,--a
glittering duchess, a dark-eyed Clotilde,--some brilliant creature after
one of the numerous models in the pages of the "Alien."

"You are very, very good not to be angry with me," she said; "I have
come to ask you a favour--a very great favour--and I----"

She stopped, and sat silently twisting the handle of her parasol--the
old green parasol under whose shadow Roland had so often seen her. It
was quite evident that her courage had failed her altogether at this
crisis.

"It is not for myself I am going to ask you this favour," she said,
still hesitating, and looking down at the parasol; "it is for another
person, who--it is a secret, in fact, and----"

"Whatever it is, it shall be granted," Roland answered, "without
question, without comment."

"I have come to ask you to lend me,--or at least I had better ask you to
give it me, for indeed I don't know when I should ever be able to repay
it,--some money, a great deal of money,--fifty pounds."

She looked at him as if she thought the magnitude of the sum must
inevitably astonish him, and she saw a tender half-melancholy smile upon
his face.

"My dear Isabel--my dear Mrs. Gilbert--if all the money I possess in the
world could secure your happiness, I would willingly leave Midlandshire
to-morrow a penniless man. I would not for the world that you should be
embarrassed for an hour, while I have more money than I know what to do
with. I will write you a cheque immediately,--or, better still,
half-a-dozen blank cheques, which you can fill up as you require them."

But Isabel shook her head at this proposal. "You are very kind," she
said; "but a cheque would not do. It must be money, if you please; the
person for whom I want it would not take a cheque."

Roland Lansdell looked at her with a sudden expression of doubt,--of
something that was almost terror in his face.

"The person for whom you want it," he repeated. "It is not for yourself,
then, that you want this money?"

"Oh no, indeed! What should I want with so much money?"

"I thought you might be in debt. I thought that----Ah, I see; it is for
your husband that you want the money."

"Oh no; my husband knows nothing about it. But, oh, pray, pray don't
question me. Ah, if you knew how much I suffered before I came here
to-night! If there had been any other person in the world who could have
helped me, I would never have come here; but there is no one, and I must
get the money."

Roland's face grew darker as Mrs. Gilbert spoke. Her agitation, her
earnestness, mystified and alarmed him.

"Isabel," he cried, "God knows I have little right to question you; but
there is something in the manner of your request that alarms me. Can you
doubt that I am your friend,--next to your husband your best and truest
friend, perhaps?--forget every word that I have ever said to you, and
believe only what I say to-night--to-night, when all my better feelings
are aroused by the sight of you. Believe that I am your friend, Isabel,
and for pity's sake trust me. Who is this person who wants money of you?
Is it your step-mother? if so, my cheque-book is at her disposal."

"No," faltered the Doctor's Wife, "it is not for my step-mother,
but----"

"But it is for some member of your family?"

"Yes," she answered, drawing a long breath; "but, oh, pray do not ask me
any more questions. You said just now that you would grant me the favour
I asked without question or comment. Ah, if you knew how painful it was
to me to come here!"

"Indeed! I am sorry that it was so painful to you to trust me."

"Ah, if you knew----" Isabel murmured in a low voice, speaking to
herself rather than to Roland.

Mr. Lansdell took a little bunch of keys from his pocket, and went
across the room to an iron safe, cunningly fashioned after the
presentment of an antique ebony cabinet. He opened the ponderous door,
and took a little cash-box from one of the shelves.

"My steward brought me a bundle of notes yesterday. Will you take what
you want?" he asked, handing the open box to Isabel.

"I would rather you gave me the money; I do not want more than fifty
pounds."

Roland counted five ten-pound notes and handed them to Isabel. She rose
and stood for a few moments, hesitating as if she had something more to
say,--something almost as embarrassing in its nature as the
money-question had been.

"I--I hope you will not think me troublesome," she said; "but there is
one more favour that I want to ask of you."

"Do not hesitate to ask anything of me; all I want is your confidence."

"It is only a question that I wish to ask. You talked some time since of
going away from Midlandshire--from England; do you still think of doing
so?"

"Yes, my plans are all made for an early departure."

"A very early departure? You are going almost immediately?"

"Immediately,--to-morrow, perhaps. I am going to the East. It may be a
long time before I return to England."

There was a little pause, during which Roland saw that a faint flush
kindled in Isabel Gilbert's face, and that her breath came and went
rather quicker than before.

"Then I must say good-bye to-night," she said.

"Yes, it is not likely we shall meet again. Good night--good-bye.
Perhaps some day, when I am a pottering old man, telling people the same
anecdotes every time I dine with them, I shall come back to
Midlandshire, and find Mr. Gilbert a crack physician in Kylmington,
petted by rich old ladies, and riding in a yellow barouche;--till then,
good-bye."

He held Isabel's hand for a few moments,--not pressing it ever so
gently,--only holding it, as if in that frail tenure he held the last
link that bound him to love and life. Isabel looked at him wonderingly.
How different was this adieu from that passionate farewell under Lord
Thurston's oak, when he had flung himself upon the ground and wept aloud
in the anguish of parting from her! The melodramas she had witnessed at
the Surrey Theatre were evidently true to nature. Nothing could be more
transient than the wicked squire's love.

"Only one word more, Mrs. Gilbert," Roland said, after that brief pause.
"Your husband--does he know about this person who asks for money from
you?"

"No--I--I should have told him--I think--and asked him to give me the
money, only he is so very ill; he must not be troubled about anything."

"He is very ill--your husband--is ill?"

"Yes,--I thought every one knew. He is very, very ill. It is on that
account I came here so late. I have been sitting in his room all day.
Good night."

"But you cannot go back alone; it is such a long way. It will be two
o'clock in the morning before you can get back to Graybridge. I will
drive you home; or it will be better to let my coachman--my mother's old
coachman--drive you home."

It was in vain that Mrs. Gilbert protested against this arrangement.
Roland Lansdell reflected that as the Doctor's Wife had been admitted by
his valet, her visit would of course be patent to all the other servants
at their next morning's breakfast. Under these circumstances, Mrs.
Gilbert could not leave Mordred with too much publicity; and a steady
old man, who had driven Lady Anna Lansdell's fat white horses for slow
jog-trot drives along the shady highways and by-ways of Midlandshire,
was aroused from his peaceful slumbers and told to dress himself, while
a half-somnolent stable-boy brought out a big bay horse and an
old-fashioned brougham. In this vehicle Isabel returned very comfortably
to Graybridge; but she begged the coachman to stop at the top of the
lane, where she alighted and bade him good night.

She found all dark in the little surgery, which she entered by means of
her husband's latch-key; and she crept softly up the stairs to the room
opposite that in which George Gilbert lay, watched over by Mrs. Jeffson.



CHAPTER XXXII.

"I'LL NOT BELIEVE BUT DESDEMONA'S HONEST."


"See that some hothouse grapes and a pine are sent to Mr. Gilbert at
Graybridge," Roland said to his valet on the morning after Isabel's
visit. "I was sorry to hear of his serious illness from his wife last
night."

Mr. Lansdell's valet, very busily occupied with a hat-brush, smiled
softly to himself as his employer made this speech. The master of
Mordred Priory need scarcely have stained his erring soul by any
hypocritical phrases respecting the Graybridge surgeon.

"I shouldn't mind laying a twelvemonth's wages that if her husband dies,
he marries her within six months," Roland's man-servant remarked, as he
sipped his second cup of coffee; "I never did see such an infatuated
young man in all my life."

A change came over the spirit of Mr. Lansdell's dreams. The thought, the
base and cruel thought, which had never entered Isabel's mind, was not
to be shut out of Roland's breast after that midnight interview in the
library. Do what he would, struggle against the foul temptation as he
might,--and he was not naturally wicked, he was not utterly
heartless,--he could not help thinking of what might happen--if--if
Death, who carries in his fleshless hand so many orders for release,
should cut the knot that bound Isabel Gilbert.

"God knows I am not base enough to wish any harm to that poor fellow at
Graybridge," thought Mr. Lansdell; "but if--"

And then the Tempter's hand swept aside a dark curtain, and revealed a
lovely picture of the life that might be, if George Gilbert would only
be so obliging as to sink under that tiresome low fever which had done
so much mischief in the lanes about Graybridge. Roland Lansdell was not
a hero; he was only a very imperfect, vacillating young man, with noble
impulses for ever warring against the baser attributes of his mind; a
spoiled child of fortune, who had almost always had his own way until
just now.

"I ought to go away," he thought; "I ought to go away all the more
because of this man's illness. There seems something horrible in my
stopping here watching and waiting for the result, when I should gain
such an unutterable treasure by George Gilbert's death."

But he lingered, nevertheless. A man may fully appreciate the enormity
of his sin, and yet go on shining. Mr. Lansdell did not go away from
Mordred; he contented himself with sending the Graybridge surgeon a
basket of the finest grapes and a couple of the biggest pines to be
found in the Priory hothouses; and it may be that his conscience derived
some small solace from the performance of this courtesy.

Lord Ruysdale called upon his nephew in the course of the bright summer
morning that succeeded Isabel's visit to the Priory; and as the young
man happened to be smoking his cigar in front of the porch at the moment
when the Earl's quiet cob came jogging along the broad carriage-drive,
there was no possibility of avoiding the elderly gentleman's visit.
Roland threw aside his cigar, and resigned himself to the prospect of an
hour's prosy discussion of things in which he felt no kind of interest,
no ray of pleasure. What was it to him that there was every prospect of
a speedy dissolution, unless----? There almost always was every prospect
of a dissolution unless something or other took place; but nothing
special ever seemed to come of all the fuss and clamour. The poor people
were always poor, and grumbled at being starved to death; the rich
people were always rich, and indignant against the oppression of an
exorbitant income-tax. Poor Roland behaved admirably during the
infliction of his uncle's visit; and if he gave vague answers and asked
irrelevant questions now and then, Lord Ruysdale was too much engrossed
by his own eloquence to find out his nephew's delinquencies. Roland only
got rid of him at last by promising to dine at Lowlands that evening.

"If there's a dissolution, our party must inevitably come in," the Earl
said at parting; "and in that case you must stand for Wareham. The
Wareham people look to you as their legitimate representative. I look
forward to great things, my boy, if the present ministry go out. I've
been nursing my little exchequer very comfortably for the last twelve
months; and I shall take a furnished house in town, and begin life again
next year, if things go well; and I expect to see you make a figure in
the world yet, Roland."

And in all that interview Lord Ruysdale did not once remark the tired
look in his nephew's face; that nameless look which gave a sombre cast
to all the Lansdell portraits, and which made the _blasé_ idler of
thirty seem older of aspect than the hopeful country gentleman of sixty.

Roland went to Lowlands in the evening. Why should he not do this to
please his uncle; inasmuch as it mattered so very little what he did, or
where he went, in a universe where everything was weariness. He found
Lady Gwendoline in the drawing-room, looking something like Marie
Antoinette in a _demi-toilette_ of grey silk, with a black-lace scarf
crossed upon her stately shoulders, and tied in a careless bow at the
back of her waist. Mr. Raymond was established in a big chintz-covered
easy-chair, turning over a box of books newly arrived from London, and
muttering scornful comments on their titles and contents.

"At last!" he exclaimed, as Mr. Lansdell's name was announced. "I've
called at Mordred about half-a-dozen times within the last two months;
but as your people always said you were out, and as I could always see
by their faces that you were at home, I have given up the business in
despair."

Lord Ruysdale came in presently with the "Times" newspaper open in his
hand, and insisted on reading a leader, which he delivered with amazing
energy, and all the emphasis on the beginnings of the sentences. Dinner
was announced before the leader was finished, and Mr. Raymond led Lady
Gwendoline to the dining-room, while Roland stayed to hear the
Thunderer's climax murdered by his uncle's defective elocution. The
dinner went off very quietly. The Earl talked politics, and Mr. Raymond
discoursed very pleasantly on the principles of natural philosophy as
applied to the rulers of the nation. There was a strange contrast
between the animal spirits of the two men who had passed the meridian of
life, and were jogging quietly on the shady slope of the lull, and the
dreamy languor exhibited by the two young people who sat listening to
them. George Sand has declared that nowadays all the oldest books are
written by the youngest authors; might she not go even farther, and say
that nowadays the young people are older than their seniors? We have got
rid of our Springheeled Jacks and John Mittons, and Tom and Jerry are no
more popular either on or off the stage; our young aristocrats no longer
think it a fine thing to drive a hearse to Epsom races, or to set
barrels of wine running in the Haymarket; but in place of all this
foolish riot and confusion a mortal coldness of the soul seems to have
come down upon the youth of our nation, a deadly languor and stagnation
of spirit, from which nothing less than a Crimean war or an Indian
rebellion can arouse the worn-out idlers in a weary world. The dinner
was drawing to a close, when Lord Ruysdale mentioned a name that
awakened all Mr. Lansdell's attention.

"I rode into Graybridge after leaving you, Roland," he said, "and made a
call or two. I am sorry to hear that Mr. Gilmore--Gilson--Gilbert,--ah,
yes, Gilbert,--that very worthy young doctor, whom we met at your house
the other day--last year, by the bye--egad, how the time spins round!--I
was sorry to hear that he is ill. Low fever--really in a very dangerous
state, Saunders the solicitor told me. _You'll_ be sorry to hear it,
Gwendoline."

Lady Gwendoline's face darkened, and she glanced at Roland, before she
spoke.

"I am sorry to hear it," she said. "I am sorry for Mr. Gilbert, for more
than one reason. I am sorry he has so very bad a wife."

Roland's face flushed crimson, and he turned to his cousin as if about
to speak; but Mr. Raymond was too quick for him.

"I think the less we say upon that subject the better," he exclaimed,
eagerly; "I think, Lady Gwendoline, that is a subject that had much,
better not be discussed here."

"Why should it not be discussed?" cried Roland, looking--if people can
look daggers--a perfect arsenal of rage and scorn at his cousin. "Of
course, we understand that slander of her own sex is a woman's
privilege. Why should not Lady Gwendoline avail herself of her special
right? Here is only a very paltry subject, certainly--a poor little
provincial nobody; but she will serve for want of a better;--lay her on
the table, by all means, and bring out your dissecting-tools, Lady
Gwendoline. What have you to say against Mrs. Gilbert?" He waited,
breathless and angry, for his cousin's answer, looking at her with
sullen defiance in his face.

"Perhaps Mr. Raymond is right, after all," Gwendoline said, quietly. She
was very quiet, but very pale, and looked her cousin as steadily in the
eyes as if she had been fighting a small-sword duel with him. "The
subject is one that will scarcely bear discussion here or elsewhere; but
since you accuse me of feminine malice, I am bound to defend myself. I
say that Mrs. Gilbert is a very bad wife and a very wicked woman. A
person who is seen to attend a secret rendezvous with a stranger, not
once, but several times, with all appearance of stealth and mystery,
while her husband lies between life and death, must surely be one of the
worst and vilest of women."

Mr. Lansdell burst into a discordant laugh.

"What a place this Midlandshire is!" he cried; "and what a miraculous
power of invention lies uncultivated amongst the inhabitants of our
country towns! I withdraw any impertinent insinuations about your talent
for scandal, my dear Gwendoline; for I see you are the merest novice in
that subtle art. The smallest rudimentary knowledge would teach you to
distinguish between the stories that are _ben trovato_ and those that
are not; their being true or false is not of the least consequence.
Unfortunately, this Graybridge slander is one of the very lamest of
_canards_. A newspaper correspondent sending it in to fill the bottom of
a column would be dismissed for incompetency, on the strength of his
blunder. Tell your maid to be a little more circumspect in future,
Gwendoline."

Lady Gwendoline did not condescend to discuss the truth or probability
of her story. She saw that her cousin was ashy pale to the lips, and she
knew that her shot had gone home to the very centre of the bull's-eye.
After this there was very little conversation. Lord Ruysdale started one
or two of his favourite topics; but he understood dimly that there was
something not quite pleasant at work amongst his companions. Roland sat
frowning at his plate; and Charles Raymond watched him with an uneasy
expression in his face; as a man who is afraid of lightning might watch
the gathering of a storm-cloud. The dinner drew to a close amidst dense
gloom and awful silence, dismally broken by the faint chinking of spoons
and jingling of glass. Ah, what funeral-bell can fall more solemnly upon
the ear than those common every-day sounds amidst the awful stillness
that succeeds or precedes a domestic tempest! There is nothing very
terrible in the twittering of birds; yet how ominous sound the voices of
those innocent feathered warblers in the dread pauses of a storm!

Lady Gwendoline rose from the table when her father filled his second
glass of Burgundy, and Mr. Raymond hurried to open the door for her. But
Roland's eyes were never lifted from his empty plate; he was waiting for
something; now and then a little convulsive movement of his lower lip
betrayed that he was agitated; but that was all.

Lord Ruysdale seemed relieved by his daughter's departure. He had a
vague idea that there had been some little passage-at-arms between
Roland and Gwendoline, and fancied that serenity would be restored by
the lady's absence. He went twaddling on with his vapid discourse upon
the state of the political atmosphere, placid as some babbling stream,
until the dusky shadows began to gather in the corners of the low
old-fashioned chamber. Then the Earl pulled out a fat ponderous old
hunter, and exclaimed at the lateness of the hour.

"I've some letters to write that must go by to-night's post," he said.
"Raymond, I know you'll excuse me if I leave you for an hour or so.
Roland, I expect you and Raymond to do justice to that Chambertin."

Charles Raymond murmured some polite conventionality as the Earl left
the room; but he never removed his eyes from Roland's face. He had
watched the brewing of the storm, and was prepared for a speedy
thunder-clap. Nor was he mistaken in his calculations.

"Raymond, is this true?" Mr. Lansdell asked, as the door closed upon his
uncle. He spoke as if there had been no break or change in the
conversation since Mrs. Gilbert's name had been mentioned.

"Is what true, Roland?"

"This dastardly slander against Isabel Gilbert. Is it true? Pshaw! I
know that it is not. But I want to know if there is any shadow of an
excuse for such a scandal. Don't trifle with me, Raymond; I have kept no
secrets from you; and I have a right to expect that you will be candid
with me."

"I do not think you have any right to question me upon the subject," Mr.
Raymond answered, very gravely: "when last it was mentioned between us,
you rejected my advice, and protested against my further interference in
your affairs. I thought we finished with the subject then, Roland, at
your request; and I certainly do not care to renew it now."

"But things have changed since then," Mr. Lansdell said, eagerly. "It is
only common justice to Mrs. Gilbert that I should tell you as much as
that, Raymond. I was very confident, very presumptuous, I suppose, when
I last discussed this business with you. It is only fair that you should
know that the schemes I had formed, when I came back to England, have
been entirely frustrated by Mrs. Gilbert herself."

"I am very glad to hear it."

There was very little real gladness in Mr. Raymond's tone as he said
this; and the uneasy expression with which he had watched Roland for the
last hour was, if anything, intensified now.

"Yes; I miscalculated when I built all those grand schemes for a happy
future. It is not so easy to persuade a good woman to run away from her
husband, however intolerable may be the chain that binds her to him.
These provincial wives accept the marriage-service in its sternest
sense. Mrs. Gilbert is a good woman. You can imagine, therefore, how
bitterly I felt Gwendoline's imputations against her. I suppose these
women really derive some kind of pleasure from one another's
destruction. And now set my mind quite at rest: there is not one
particle of truth--not so much as can serve as the foundation for a
lie--in this accusation, is there, Raymond?"

If the answer to this question had involved a sentence of death, or a
reprieve from the gallows, Roland Lansdell could not have asked it more
eagerly. He ought to have believed in Isabel so firmly as to be quite
unmoved by any village slander; but he loved her too much to be
reasonable; Jealousy the demon--closely united as a Siamese twin to Love
the god--was already gnawing at his entrails. It could not be, it could
not be, that she had deceived and deluded him; but _if_ she had--ah,
what baseness, what treachery!

"Is there any truth in it, Raymond?" he repeated, rising from his chair,
and glowering across the table at his kinsman.

"I decline to answer that question. I have nothing to do with Mrs.
Gilbert, or with any reports that may be circulated against her."

"But I insist upon your telling me all you know; or, if you refuse to do
so, I will go to Lady Gwendoline, and obtain the truth from her."

Mr. Raymond shrugged his shoulders, as if he would have said, "All
further argument is useless; this demented creature must go to perdition
his own way."

"You are a very obstinate young man, Roland," he said aloud; "and I am
very sorry you ever made the acquaintance of this Doctor's Wife, than
whom there are scores of prettier women to be met with in any
summer-day's walk; but I dare say there were prettier women than Helen,
if it comes to that. However, as you insist upon hearing the whole of
this village scandal--which may or may not be true--you must have your
own way; and I hope, when you have heard it, you will be contented to
turn your back for some time to come upon Midlandshire and Mrs. George
Gilbert. I _have_ heard something of the story Lady Gwendoline told you
at dinner; and from a tolerably reliable source. I have heard----"

"What? That she--that Isabel has been seen with some stranger?"

"Yes."

"With whom? when? where?"

"There is a strange man staying at a little rustic tavern in Nessborough
Hollow. You know what gossips these country people are; Heaven knows I
have never put myself out of the way to learn other people's business;
but these things get bruited about in all manner of places."

Roland chafed impatiently during this brief digression.

"Tell your story plainly, Raymond," he said. "There is a strange man
staying in Nessborough Hollow--well; what then?"

"He is rather a handsome-looking fellow; flashily dressed--a Londoner,
evidently--and----"

"But what has all this to do with Mrs. Gilbert?"

"Only this much,--she has been seen walking alone with this man, after
dark, in Nessborough Hollow."

"It must be a lie; a villanous invention! or if--if she has been seen to
meet this man, he is some relation. Yes, I have reason to think that she
has some relation staying in this neighbourhood."

"But why, in that case, should she meet the man secretly, at such an
hour, while her husband is lying ill?"

"There may be a hundred reasons."

Mr. Raymond shrugged his shoulders. "Can you suggest one?" he asked.

Roland Lansdell's head sank forward on his breast. No; he could think of
no reason why Isabel Gilbert should meet this stranger secretly--unless
there were some kind of guilt involved in their association. Secrecy and
guilt go so perpetually together, that it is almost difficult for the
mind to dissever them.

"But _has_ she been seen to meet him?" cried Roland, suddenly. "No; I
will not believe it. Some woman has been seen walking with some man; and
the Graybridge vultures, eager to swoop down upon my poor innocent dove,
must have it that the woman is Isabel Gilbert. No; I will not believe
this story."

"So be it, then," answered Mr. Raymond. "In that case we can drop the
subject."

But Roland was not so easily to be satisfied. The poisoned arrow had
entered far into his soul, and he must needs drag the cruel barb
backwards and forwards in the wound.

"Not till you have given me the name of your authority," he said.

"Pshaw! my dear Roland, have I not already told you that my authority is
the common Graybridge gossip?"

"I'll not believe that. You are the last man in the world to be
influenced by paltry village scandal. You have better grounds for what
you told me. Some one has seen Isabel and this man. Who was that
person?"

"I protest against this cross-examination. I have been weak enough to
sympathize with a dishonourable attachment, so far as to wish to spare
you pain. You refuse to be spared, and must take the consequences of
your own obstinacy. I was the person who saw Isabel Gilbert walking with
a stranger--a showily-dressed disreputable-looking fellow--in
Nessborough Hollow. I had been dining with Hardwick the lawyer at
Graybridge, and rode home across country by the Briargate and
Hurstonleigh Road, instead of going through Waverly. I heard the scandal
about Mrs. Gilbert at Graybridge,--heard her name linked with that of
some stranger staying at the Leicester Arms, Nessborough Hollow, who had
been known to send letters to her and to meet her after dark. Heaven
only knows how country people find out these things; but these things
always are discovered somehow or other. I defended Isabel,--I know her
head is a good one, though by no means so well balanced as it might
be,--I defended Isabel throughout a long discussion with the lawyer's
wife; but riding home by the Briargate Road, I met Mrs. Gilbert walking
arm-in-arm with a man who answered to the description I had heard at
Graybridge."

"When was this?"

"The night before last. It must have been some time between ten and
eleven when I met them, for it was broad moonlight, and I saw Isabel's
face as plainly as I see yours."

"And did she recognize you?"

"Yes; and turned abruptly away from the road into the waste grass
between the highway and the tall hedgerow beyond."

For some moments after this there was a dead silence, and Raymond saw
the young man standing opposite him in the dusk, motionless as a stone
figure--white as death. Then after that pause, which seemed so long,
Roland stretched out his hand and groped among the decanters and glasses
on the table for a water-jug; he filled a goblet with water; and Charles
Raymond knew, by the clashing of the glass, that his kinsman's hand was
shaken by a convulsive trembling; After taking a long draught of water,
Roland stretched his hand across the table.

"Shake hands, Raymond," he said, in a dull, thick kind of voice; "I
thank you heartily for having told me the truth; it was much better to
be candid; it was better to let me know the truth. But, oh, if you could
know how I loved her--if you could know! You think it was only the
dishonourable passion of a profligate, who falls in love with a married
woman, and pursues his fancy, heedless of the ruin he may entail on
others. But it was not, Raymond; it was nothing like that. So help me
Heaven, amidst all selfish sorrow for my own most bitter disappointment,
I have sometimes felt a thrill of happiness in the thought that my poor
girl's name was still untarnished. I have felt this, in spite of my
ruined life, the cruel destruction of every hope that had grown up out
of my love for her; and to think that she,--that she who saw my truth
and my despair, saw my weak heart laid bare in all its abject folly,--to
think that she would dismiss me with school-girl speeches about duty and
honour; and then,--then, when my grief was new,--while I still lingered
here, too infatuated to leave the place in which I had so cruelly
suffered,--to think that she should fall into some low intrigue, some
base and secret association with----. It is too bitter, Raymond; it is
too bitter!"

The friendly dusk sheltered him as he dropped into a chair and buried
his face upon the broad-cushioned elbow. The tears that gathered slowly
in his eyes now were even more bitter than those that he had shed two
months ago under Lord Thurston's oak. If this sort of thing is involved
in a man's being in earnest, he had not need be in earnest about
anything more than once in his life. Happily for us, the power to
suffer, like every other power, becomes enfeebled and wears out at last
by extravagant usage. If Othello had survived to marry a second time, he
would not have dropped down in a fit when a new Iago began to whisper
poisonous hints about the lady.

"I never loved any one but her," murmured Roland Lansdell, "I have been
a hard judge of other women; but I believed in her."

"My poor boy, my poor impetuous Roland," Mr. Raymond said, softly, "men
have to suffer like this once in a lifetime. Fight it out, and have done
with it. Look at the foul phantasm straight in the eyes, and it will
melt into so much empty air; and then, 'being gone,' you are 'a man
again.' My dear boy, before this year is out, you will be sipping
absinthe--most abominable stuff!--after supper at the Maison Dorée, and
entertaining your companions with a satirical history of your little
caprice for the Doctor's Wife."

"And Heaven forgive me for talking like Major Pendennis, or any other
wicked old worldling!" Mr. Raymond added, mentally.

Roland Lansdell got up by-and-by, and walked to the open French window.
There was a silvery shimmer of moonlight upon the lawn, and the great
clock in the stables was striking ten.

"Good night, Raymond," said Mr. Lansdell, turning on the threshold of
the window. "You can make some kind of apology for me to my uncle and
Gwendoline. I won't stop to say good night to them."

"But where are you going?"

"To Nessborough Hollow."

"Are you mad, Roland?"

"That's a great deal too subtle a question to be answered just now. I am
going to Nessborough Hollow to see Isabel Gilbert and her lover."



CHAPTER XXXIII.

KEEPING A PROMISE.


The moon was slowly rising behind a black belt of dense foliage,--a
noble screen of elm and beech that sheltered Lord Ruysdale's domain from
the common world without,--as Roland Lansdell crossed the lawn, and went
in amongst the thickest depths of the park. At Lowlands there were no
smooth glades, and romantic waterfalls, no wonderful effects of
landscape-gardening, such as adorned Mordred Priory. The Earls of
Ruysdale had been more or less behind the world for the last century and
a half; and the land about the old red-brick mansion was only a tangled
depth of forest, in which the deer browsed peacefully, undisturbed by
the ruthless handiwork of trim modern improvement.

The lonely wildness of the place suited Roland Lansdell's mood to-night.
At first he had walked very rapidly, even breaking into a run now and
then; so feverishly and desperately did he desire to reach the spot
where he might perhaps find that which would confirm his despair. But
all at once, when he had gone some distance from the house, and the
lights in Lady Gwendoline's drawing-room were shut from him by half the
width of the park, he stopped suddenly, leaning against a tree, faint
and almost breathless. He stopped for the first time to think of what he
had heard. The hot passion of anger, the fierce sense of outraged pride,
had filled his breast so entirely as to sweep away every softer feeling,
as flowers growing near a volcanic mountain may be scattered by the
rolling lava-flood that passes over them. Now, for the first time, he
lingered a little to reflect upon what he had heard. Could it be true?
Could it be that this woman had deceived him,--this woman for whom he
had been false to all the teaching of his life,--this woman, at whose
feet he had offered up that comfortable philosophy which found an
infallible armour against sorrow in supreme indifference to all things
under heaven,--this woman, for whose sake he had consented to reassume
the painful heritage of humanity, the faculty of suffering?

"And she is like the rest, after all," he thought; "or only a little
worse than the rest. And I had forgotten so much for her sake. I had
blotted out the experience of a decade in order that I might believe in
the witchery of her dark eyes. I, the man of half-a-dozen seasons in
London and Paris, Vienna and St. Petersburg, had sponged away every base
record in the book of my memory, so that I might scrawl her name upon
the blank pages; and now I am angry with her--with her, poor pitiful
creature, who I suppose is only true to her nature when she is base and
false. I am angry with her, when I have only my own folly to blame for
the whole miserable business. I am angry with her, just as if she were a
responsible being; as if she could be anything but what she is. And yet
there have been good women in the world," he thought, sadly. "My mother
was a good woman. I used to fancy sometimes what might have happened if
I had known her in my mother's lifetime. I have even made a picture in
my mind of the two women, happy together, and loving each other. Heaven
forgive me! And after all her pretty talk about platonism and poetry,
she betrays me for a low intrigue, and a rendezvous kept in an
ale-house."

In all his anger against the Doctor's Wife, no thought of her husband's
far deeper wrong ever entered into Mr. Lansdell's mind. It was
_he_--Roland--who had been betrayed: it was he whose love was outraged,
whose pride was humiliated to the very dust. That there was a man, now
lying ill and helpless at Graybridge, who had a better right to resent
Isabel Gilbert's treachery, and wreak vengeance upon the unknown wretch
for whose sake she was thus base and guilty, never occurred to this
angry young man. It had been, for a long time past, his habit to forget
George Gilbert's existence; he had resolutely shut from his mind the
image of the Graybridge surgeon ever since his return to Midlandshire;
ever since the wrong he was doing against George Gilbert had fallen into
a deliberate and persistent course, leading steadily to a foregone
conclusion. He had done this, and little by little it had become very
easy for him to forget so insignificant and unobtrusive a person as the
simple-hearted parish surgeon, whose only sin against mankind was that
he had chosen a pretty woman for his wife.

So now it was of his own wrongs, and of those wrongs alone, that Mr.
Lansdell thought. All the circumstances of Isabel's visit to the Priory
came back to him. Came back? When had they left his mind, except for
that brief interval of passion during which his mind had been a chaos?

"The money she wanted was for this man, of course!" he thought. "For
whom else should it be? for whom else should she come to ask for
money--of her rejected lover--in the dead of the night, with all the
mean, miserable circumstances of a secret and guilty action? If she had
wanted money from me for any legitimate purpose--in any foolish feminine
confusion of debt and difficulty--why should she not have written to me
boldly for the sum she required? She must have known that my purse was
hers to command whenever she required it. But that she should come
secretly, trembling like a guilty creature,--compromising herself and me
by a midnight visit,--afraid to confess why she wanted the
money,--answering my straight questions by hesitation and prevarication!
What construction can I put upon her conduct of last night except
one--except one? And yet, even after last night, I believed in her. I
thought that she might have wanted the money for some relation. Some
relation! What relation should she meet alone, secretly, late at night,
in such a place as Nessborough Hollow? She who never, in all the course
of our acquaintance, mentioned a living creature beyond her step-mother
who had any claim upon her; and all at once some one comes--some one for
whom she must have fifty pounds; not in the form of a cheque, which
might be traced home to the person who received it. I cannot forget
that; I cannot forget that she refused to take my cheque for the money
she wanted. That alone makes a mystery of the business; and the meeting
that Raymond witnessed tells all the rest. This strange man is some old
lover; some jilted admirer of a bygone era, who comes now and is
clamorous and dangerous, and will only be bought off by a bribe. Oh,
shame, shame, shame upon her, and upon my own folly! And I thought her
an innocent child, who had ignorantly broken a strong man's heart!"

He walked on slowly now, and with his head bent, no longer trying to
make a short cut for himself among the trees, but absently following a
narrow winding path worn by slow peasants' feet upon the grass.

"Why should I be so eager to see this man?" he thought. "What can I
discover that I do not already know? If there is any one upon earth
whose word I can trust in, it is Raymond. He would be the very last to
slander this wretched woman, or to be self-deluded by a prejudice; and
he saw her--he saw her. And even beyond this, the base intrigue has
become common talk. Gwendoline would not have dared to say what she said
to-day without good grounds for her statement. It is only I,--I who have
lived apart from all the world to think and dream about her,--it is only
I who am the last to be told of her shame. But I will try to see this
fellow notwithstanding. I should like to see the man who has been
preferred to me."

Nessborough Hollow was some distance from Lowlands; and Mr. Lansdell,
who was familiar with almost every inch of his native county, made his
way thither by shadowy lanes and rarely trodden by-ways, where the
summer wild-flowers smelt sweetly in the dewy night. Never surely had
brighter heavens shone upon a fairer earth. The leaves and blossoms, the
long lush grasses faintly stirred by lazy summer winds, made a perpetual
whisper that scarcely broke the general stillness: and now and then the
gurgling notes of a nightingale sounded amongst the clustering foliage
that loomed darkly above tangled hedgerows, and broad wastes of moonlit
grass.

"I wonder why people are not happy," mused Mr. Lansdell, impressed in
spite of himself by the quiet beauty of the summer landscape. Intensely
subjective though our natures may be, external things will not be quite
put away, strive as we may to shut them out. Did not Fagin think about
the broken rail when he stood in the dock, and wonder who would mend it?
Was not Manfred, the supremely egotistical and subjective, perpetually
dragging the mountain-tops and Alpine streamlets into his talk of his
own troubles? So to-night, deeply absorbed though he was by the
consciousness of his own wrongs, there was a kind of double action in
Roland Lansdells mind, by means of which he was conscious of every
flickering shadow of the honeysuckle blossoms dark upon the silver
smoothness of the moonlit grass.

"I wonder how it is that people cannot be happy," he thought; "why can't
they take a sensuous pleasure out of this beautiful universe, and enjoy
the moonlight, and the shadows, and the perfume of new-mown hay upon the
summer air; and then, when they are tired of one set of sensations, move
on to another: from rural England to tropical India; from the southern
prairies to the snow-mantled Alps; playing a game at hide-and-seek with
the disagreeable seasons, and contriving to go down to the grave through
the rosy sunsets of a perpetual summer, indifferent as to who dies or
suffers, so long as the beauty of the world endures? Why can't people be
reasonable, and take life wisely? I begin to think that Mr. Harold
Skimpole was the only true philosopher. If he had been rich enough to
indulge his sensuous simplicity out of his own pocket, he would have
been perfect. It is only when the Skimpole philosopher wants other
people's pounds that he becomes objectionable. Ah, how pleasantly life
might glide by, taken à la Skimpole;--a beautiful waveless river,
drifting imperceptibly on to darkness! But we make our own election.
When we are wise enough to abjure all the glittering battle-grounds of
man's ambition, we must needs fall in love, and go mad because a
shallow-hearted woman has black eyes and a straight nose. With red hair
and freckles Mrs. Gilbert might go to perdition, unwept and unhindered;
but because the false creature has a pretty face we want to tear her all
to pieces for her treachery."

In that moonlight walk from Lowlands to Nessborough Hollow there was
time enough for Mr. Lansdell to fall into many moods. At one time he was
ready to laugh aloud, in bitter contempt for his own weakness; at
another time, moved almost to tears by the contemplation of his ruined
dreams. It was so difficult for him to separate the ideal Isabel of
yesterday from the degraded creature of to-night. He believed what
Charles Raymond had told him, but he could not realize it; the hard and
cruel facts slipped away from him every now and then, and he found
himself thinking of the Doctor's Wife with all the old tenderness. Then
suddenly, like a glare of phosphoric light, the memory of her treachery
would flash back upon him. Why should he lament the innocent idol of his
dreams? There was not, there never had been, any such creature. But he
could not hold this in his mind. He could not blot out of his brain the
Isabel of the past. It was easier for him to think of her as he might
have thought of the dead, dwelling fondly on vain dreams of happiness
which once might have been, but now could never be, because _she_ was no
more.

There was not a scheme that he had ever made; for that impossible future
which did not come back to his mind to-night. The places in which he had
fancied himself lingering in tranquil happiness with the woman he loved
arose before him in all their brightest colouring; fair lonely Alpine
villages, whose very names he had forgotten, emerged from the dim mists
of memory, bright as an eastern city rising out of night's
swiftly-melting vapours into the clear light of morning; and he saw
Isabel Gilbert leaning from a rustic balcony jutting out upon broad
purple waters, screened and sheltered by the tall grandeur of
innumerable snow-peaks. Ah, how often he had painted these things; the
moonlit journeys on nights as calm as this, under still bluer skies lit
by a larger moon; the varied ways and waters by which they might have
gone, always leading them farther and farther away from the common world
and the base thoughts of common people; the perfect isolation in which
there should have been no loneliness! And all this might have been,
thought Mr. Lansdell, if she had not been so base and degraded a
creature as to cling blindly to a vulgar lover, whose power over her
most likely lay in some guilty secret of the past.

Twenty times in the course of that long summer night's walk Roland
Lansdell stopped for a minute or so, doubtful whether he should go
farther or not. What motive had he in seeking out this stranger staying
at a rustic public-house? What right had he to interfere in a wicked
woman's low intrigue? If Isabel Gilbert was the creature she was
represented to be,--and he could not doubt his authority,--what could it
matter to him how low she sank? Had she not coolly and deliberately
rejected his love--his devotion, so earnestly and solemnly offered to
her? Had she not left him to his despair and desolation, with no better
comfort than the stereotyped promise that she would "think of him?" What
was she to him, that he should trouble himself about her, and bring
universal scorn upon his name, perhaps, by some low tavern brawl? No; he
would go no farther; he would blot this creature out of his mind, and
turn his back upon the land which held her. Was not all the world before
him, and all creation designed for his pleasure? Was there anything upon
earth denied him, except the ignis-fatuus light of this woman's black
eyes?

"Perhaps this is a turning-point in my life," he thought during one of
these pauses; "and there maybe some chance for me after all. Why should
I not have a career like other men, and try like them to be of some use
to my species? Better, perhaps, to be always trying and always failing,
than to stand aloof for ever, wasting my intellect upon vain
calculations as to the relative merits of the game and the candle. An
outsider cannot judge the merits of the strife. To a man of my
temperament it may have seemed a small matter whether Spartans or
Persians were victors in the pass of Thermopylæ; but what a glorious
thing the heat and din of the struggle must have been for those who were
in it! I begin to think it is a mistake to lounge luxuriously on the
grand stand, looking down at the riders. Better, perhaps, wear a
jockey's jacket; even to be thrown and trampled to death in the race. I
will wash my hands of Mrs. George Gilbert, and go back to the Priory and
sleep peacefully; and to-morrow morning I will ask Lady Gwendoline to be
my wife; and then I can stand for Wareham, and go in for
liberal-conservatism and steam-farming."

But the picture of Isabel Gilbert and the stranger meeting in
Nessborough Hollow was not to be so easily erased from Mr. Lansdell's
brain. The habit of vacillation, which had grown out of the idleness of
his life, was stronger in him to-night than usual; but the desire to see
for himself how deeply he was wronged triumphed over every other
feeling, and he never turned his face from the direction in which
Nessborough Hollow lay,--a little rustic nook in fertile Midlandshire,
almost as beautiful, after its own simple English fashion, as those
sublime Alpine villages which shone upon Roland Lansdell in his dreams.
He came near the place at last; a little tired by the long walk from
Lowlands; a good deal wearied by all the contending emotions of the last
few hours. He came upon the spot at last, not by the ordinary roadway,
but across a strip of thickly wooded waste land lying high above the
hollow--a dense and verdant shelter, in which the fern grew tall beneath
the tangled branches of the trees. Here he stopped, upon the top-most
edge of a bank that sloped down into the rustic roadway. The place
beneath him was a kind of glen, sheltered from all the outer world,
solemnly tranquil in that silent hour. He saw the road winding and
narrowing under the trees till it reached a little rustic bridge. He
heard the low ripple of the distant brook; and close beside the bridge
he saw the white wall of the little inn, chequered with broad black
beams, and crowned by high peaked gables jutting out above the quaint
latticed casements. In one low window he saw a feeble candle gleaming
behind a poor patch of crimson curtain, and through the half-open door a
narrow stream of light shone in a slanting line upon the ground.

He saw all this; and then from the other end of the still glade he saw
two figures coming slowly towards the inn. Two figures, one of which was
so familiar and had been so dear that despair, complete and absolute,
came upon him for the first time, in that one brief start of
recognition. Ah, surely he had never believed in her falsehood until
this moment; surely, if he had believed Charles Raymond, the agony of
seeing her here could not have been so great as this!

He stood upon the crown of the steep slope, with his hands grasping the
branches on each side of him, looking down at those two quiet figures
advancing slowly in the moonlight. There was nothing between him and
them except the grassy bank, broken here and there by patches of gorse
and fern, and briers and saplings; there was nothing to intercept his
view, and the moonlight shone full upon them. He did not look at the
man. What did it matter to him what _he_ was like? He looked at her--at
_her_ whom he had loved so tenderly--at her for whose sake he had
consented to believe in woman's truth and purity. He looked at her, and
saw her face, very pale in the moonlight,--blanched, no doubt, by the
guilty pallor of fear. Even the pattern of her dress was familiar to
him. Had she not worn it in one of their meetings at Thurston's Crag?

"Fool!" he thought, "to think that she, who found it so easy a matter to
deceive her husband, must needs be true to _me_. _I_ was ill at ease and
remorseful when I went to meet her; but she came to me smiling, and went
away, placid and beautiful as a good angel, to tell her husband that she
had been to Thurston's Crag, and had happened to meet Mr. Lansdell."

He stood as still as death, not betraying his presence by so much as the
rustling of a leaf, while the two figures approached the spot above
which he stood. But a little way off they paused, and were parting, very
coolly, as it seemed, when Mrs. Gilbert lifted up her face, and said
something to the man. He stood with his back turned towards Roland, to
whom the very expression of Isabel's face was visible in the moonlight.

It seemed to him as if she was pleading for something, for he had never
seen her face more earnest,--no, not even when she had decided the
question of his life's happiness in that farewell meeting beneath
Thurston's oak. She seemed to be pleading for something, since the man
nodded his head once or twice while she was speaking, with a churlish
gesture of assent; and when they were about to part he bent his head and
kissed her. There was an insolent indifference about his manner of doing
this that stung Roland more keenly than any display of emotion could
have done.

After this the Doctor's Wife went away. Roland watched her as she turned
once, and stood for a moment looking back at the man from whom she had
just parted, and then disappeared amongst the shadows in the glade. Ah,
if she had been nothing more than a shadow--if he could have awakened to
find all this the brief agony of a dream! The man stood where Isabel had
left him, while he took a box of fusees from his waistcoat-pocket and
lighted a cigar; but his back was still turned to Mr. Lansdell.

He drew two or three puffs of smoke from the cigar, assured himself that
it was fully lighted, and then strolled slowly towards the spot above
which Roland stood.

All that was left of the original savage in the fine gentleman arose at
that moment in Roland Lansdell's breast. He had come there, only to
ascertain for himself that he had been betrayed and deluded; he had come
with no vengeful purpose in his mind; or, at any rate, with no
consciousness of any such purpose. He had come to be cool, indifferent,
ironical; to slay with cruel and cutting words, perhaps, but to use no
common weapons. But in a moment all his modern philosophy of
indifference melted away, and left him with the original man's murderous
instincts and burning sense of wrong raging fiercely in his breast.

He leapt down the sloping bank with scarcely any consciousness of
touching the slippery grass; but he dragged the ferns and brambles from
the loose earth in his descent, and a shower of torn verdure flew up
into the summer air. He had no weapon, nothing but his right arm,
wherewith to strike the broad-chested black-bearded stranger. But he
never paused to consider that, or to count the chances of a struggle. He
only knew that he wanted to kill the man for whose sake Isabel Gilbert
had rejected and betrayed him. In the next moment his hands were on the
stranger's throat.

"You scoundrel!" he gasped, hoarsely, "you consummate coward and
scoundrel, to bring that woman to this place!"

There was a brief struggle, and then the stranger freed himself from Mr.
Lansdell's grasp. There was no comparison between the physical strength
and weight of the two men; and the inequality was sensibly increased by
a stout walking-stick of the bludgeon order carried by the black-bearded
stranger.

"Hoity-toity!" cried that gentleman, who seemed scarcely disposed to
take Mr. Lansdell's attack seriously; "have you newly escaped from some
local lunatic asylum, my friend, that you go about the country flying at
people's throats in this fashion? What's the row? Can't a gentleman in
the merchant navy take a moonlight stroll with his daughter for once in
a way, to wish her good-bye before he fits out for a fresh voyage,
without all this hullabaloo?"

"Your daughter!" cried Roland Lansdell. "Your daughter?"

"Yes, my daughter Isabel, wife of Mr. Gilbert, surgeon."

"Thank God!" murmured Roland, slowly, "thank God!"

And then a pang of remorse shot through his heart, as he thought how
little his boasted love had been worth, after all; how ready he had been
to disbelieve in her purity; how easily he had accepted the idea of her
degradation.

"I ought to have known," he thought,--"I ought to have known that she
was innocent. If all the world had been banded together against her, I
should have been her champion, and defender. But my love was only a
paltry passion after all. The gold changed to brass in the fire of the
first ordeal."

He thought this, or something like this, and then in the next moment he
said courteously:

"Upon my word, I have to apologize for my----" he hesitated a little
here, for he really was ashamed of himself; all the murderous instincts
were gone, as if they had never been, and the Englishman's painfully
acute perception of the ridiculous being fully aroused, he felt that he
had made a consummate fool of himself. "I have to apologize for my very
absurd behaviour just now; but having heard a very cruel and slanderous
report, connecting you as a stranger, and not as a near relation, with
Mrs. Gilbert, and entertaining a most sincere respect for that lady and
her husband, to say nothing of the fact that I had been lately
dining,"--Mr. Lansdell had not drunk so much as one glassful of wine
during the last four-and-twenty hours; but he would have been quite
willing to admit himself a drunkard if that could have lessened the
ridiculous element of his position--"in point of fact, I completely lost
my head. I am very happy to think you are so nearly related to the lady
I so much esteem; and if I can be of service to you in any manner,
I----"

"Stop a bit," cried Mr. Sleaford the barrister,--"stop a bit! I thought
I knew your voice. _You're_ the languid swell, who was so jolly knowing
at the Old Bailey,--the languid swell who had nothing better to do than
join the hunt against a poor devil that never cheated you out of
sixpence. I said, if ever I came out of prison alive, _I'd kill you_;
and I'll keep my promise."

He hissed out these last words between his set teeth. His big muscular
hands were fastened on Roland Lansdell's throat; and his face was pushed
forward until it almost touched that other handsome face which defied
him in the proud insolence of a moral courage that rose above all
physical superiority. The broad bright moonlight streaming through a
wide gap in the foliage fell fall upon the two men; and in the dark face
glowering at his, Mr. Lansdell recognized the man whom he had followed
down to Liverpool for the mere amusement of the chase,--the man
described in the police records by a dozen aliases, and best known by
his familiar sobriquet of "Jack the Scribe."

"You dog!" cried Mr. Sleaford, "I've dreamt about such a meeting as this
when I was working the pious dodge at Portland. I've dreamt about it;
and it did me good to feel my fingers at your throat, even in my dreams.
You dog! I'll do for you, if I swing for this night's work."

There was a struggle,--a brief and desperate struggle,--in which the two
men wrestled with each other, and the chances of victory seemed
uncertain. Then Mr. Sleaford's bludgeon went whirling up into the air,
and descended with a dull thud, once, twice, three times upon Roland
Lansdell's bare head. After the third blow, Jack the Scribe loosed his
grasp from the young man's throat, and the master of Mordred Priory fell
crashing down among the fern and wild-flowers, with a shower of
opal-tinted rose-petals fluttering about him as he fell.

He lay very quietly where he had fallen. Mr. Sleaford looked about him
right and left along the pleasant moon-lighted glade. There was not a
living creature to be seen either way. The light behind the red curtain
in the little rustic tavern still glimmered feebly in the distance; but
the stillness of the place could scarcely have seemed more profound had
Nessborough Hollow been a hidden glade in some primeval forest.

Jack the Scribe knelt down beside the figure lying so quietly amongst
the tangled verdure, and laid his strong bare hand very gently above Mr.
Lansdell's waistcoat.

"He'll do," muttered the Scribe; "I've spoiled him for some time to
come, anyhow. Perhaps it's all for the best if I haven't gone too far."

He rose from his knees, looked about him again, and assured himself of
the perfect loneliness of the place. Then he walked slowly towards the
little inn.

"A low blackguard would have taken the fellow's watch," he mused, "and
got himself into trouble that way. What did he mean by flying at me
about Isabel, I wonder; and how does he come to know her? He belongs to
this part of the country, I suppose. And to think that I should have
been so near him all this time without knowing it. I knew his name, and
that's about all I did know; but I thought he was a London swell."

He pushed open the door of the little tavern presently--the door through
which the slanting line of light had streamed out upon the pathway. All
within was very quiet, for the rustic owners of the habitation had long
since retired to their peaceful slumbers, leaving Mr. Sleaford what he
called "the run of the house." They had grown very familiar with their
lodger, and placed implicit confidence in him as a jolly outspoken
fellow of the seafaring order; for these Midlandshire rustics were not
very keen to detect any small shortcomings in Mr. Sleaford's assumption
of the mercantile mariner.

He went into the room where the light was burning. It was the room which
he had occupied during his residence at the Leicester Arms. He seated
himself at the table, on which there were some writing materials, and
scrawled a few lines to the effect that he found himself obliged to go
away suddenly that night, on his way to Liverpool, and that he left a
couple of sovereigns, at a rough guess, to pay his score. He wrapped the
money up in the letter, sealed it with a great sprawling red seal,
directed it to the landlord, and placed it on a conspicuous corner of
the mantel-piece. Then he took off his boots, and crept softly up the
creaking corkscrew staircase leading to his bedroom, with the candle in
his hand. He came down-stairs again about ten minutes afterwards
carrying a little valise, which he slung across his shoulder by a strap;
then he took up his bludgeon and prepared to depart.

But before leaving the room he bent over the table, and examined the
heaviest end of his stick by the light of the candle. There was blood
upon it, and a little tuft of dark hair, which he burned in the flame of
the candle; and when he looked at his waistcoat he saw that there were
splashes of blood on that and on his shirt.

He held the end of the stick over the candle till it was all smoked and
charred; he buttoned his cut-away coat over his chest, and then took a
railway-rug from a chair in a corner and threw it across his shoulder.

"It's an ugly sight to look at, that is," he muttered; "but I don't
think I went too far."

He went out at the little door, and into the glade, where a nightingale
was singing high up amongst the clustering foliage, and where the air
was filled with the faint perfume of honeysuckle and starry wild roses.
Once he looked, with something like terror in his face, towards the spot
where he had left his prostrate enemy; and then he turned and walked
away at a rapid pace in the other direction, crossing the rustic wooden
bridge, and ascending the rising ground that led towards the Briargate
Road.



CHAPTER XXXIV.

RETROSPECTIVE.


The parish surgeon lay in his darkened bedchamber at Graybridge day
after day and night after night, and Mr. Pawlkatt, coming twice a day to
look at him, could give very small comfort to the watchers. George
Gilbert had been ill nearly a fortnight--not quite a fortnight--but it
seemed now a common thing for the house to be hushed and darkened, and
the once active master lying dull, heavy, and lethargic, under the
shadow of the dimity bed-curtains. Those who watched him lost all count
of time. It seemed almost as if the surgeon had always been ill. It was
difficult, somehow, to remember that not quite two weeks ago he had been
one of the most active inhabitants of Graybridge; it was still more
difficult to imagine that he could ever again be what he had been.

No patient, in the dull anguish of an obstinate fever, could have
desired better or more devoted nurses than those who waited on George
Gilbert. To Isabel this experience of a sick room was altogether a new
thing. She had known her father to be laid up for the space of a day
with a vague sort of ailment which he called "bile," but which generally
arose after a dinner in London with certain choice spirits of his
acquaintance, and a stealthy return to the sanctuary of his Camberwell
home in the chill grey glimmer of early morning. She had known her
step-mother to complain perpetually of divers aches, and pains, and
"stitches," and stiffness of her ribs and shoulder-blades and loins, and
other complicated portions of her bony structure, and to throw out
dismal prophecies to the effect that she would be worried into a
premature grave by the breakage and waste of boys, and the general
aggravation of a large family. But illness, a real and dangerous malady,
with all its solemn accompaniments of hushed voices and darkness, and
grave faces and stealthy footsteps, was quite new to the Doctor's Wife.

If she had loved her sick husband with that romantic love which it had
been her sin and her misfortune to bestow elsewhere, she could not have
watched quietly in that darkened chamber. She would have fled away from
the patient's presence to fling herself on the ground somewhere, wholly
abandoned to her anguish. But she had never loved George Gilbert; only
that womanly tenderness, which was the chief attribute of her nature,
that sympathetic affection for everything that was suffering or
sorrowful, held her to the invalid's bedside. She was so sorry for him,
and she was so horribly afraid that he would die. The thought that she
might step across the darksome chasm of his grave into those fair
regions inhabited by Roland Lansdell, could not hold a place in her
heart. Death, the terrible and the unfamiliar, stood a black and gaunt
figure between her and all beyond the sick room. Edith Dombey and Ernest
Maltravers were alike forgotten during those long days and nights in
which the surgeon's rambling delirious talk only broke the silence.
Isabel Gilbert's ever-active imagination was busy with more terrible
images than any to be found in her books. The pictures of a funeral
_cortège_ in the dusky lane, a yawning grave in the familiar churchyard,
forced themselves upon her as she sat watching the black shadow of the
perforated lantern that held the rushlight, looming gigantic on the
whitewashed wall.

And, thinking thus of that dark hour which might be before her, she
thought much less of Roland Lansdell than in the days before her
husband's illness. She was not a wicked woman; she was only very
foolish. The thought that there was a handsome young country gentleman
with a fine estate and fifteen thousand a year waiting to be her second
husband, if death loosened her present bondage, could not have a place
amongst those tender poetical dreams engendered out of her books. A
woman of the world, hardened by worldly experience, might have sat in
that dusky chamber watching the sick man, and brooding, half
remorsefully, half impatiently, upon the thought of what might happen if
his malady should have a fatal ending. But this poor sentimental girl,
nourished upon the airiest fancies of poets and romancers, had no such
loathsome thoughts. Roland Lansdell's wealth and position had never
tempted her; it had only dazzled her; it had only seemed a bright and
splendid atmosphere radiating from and belonging to the Deity himself.
If, in some dreamy rapture, she had ever fancied herself far away from
all the common world, united to the man she loved, she had only pictured
herself as a perpetual worshipper in white muslin, kneeling at the feet
of her idol, with wild-flowers in her hair. The thought that he had
fifteen thousand a year, and a superb estate, never disturbed by its
gross influence her brighter dreams; it was not in her to be mercenary,
or even ambitious. That yearning for splendour and glitter which had
made her envious of Edith Dombey's fate was only a part of her vague
longing for the beautiful; she wanted to be amongst beautiful things,
made beautiful herself by their influence; but whether their splendour
took the form of a boudoir in May Fair all a-glow with wonderful
pictures and Parian statues, rare old china and tapestry hangings, or
the floral luxuriance of a forest on the banks of the Amazon, was of
very little consequence to this sentimental young dreamer. If she could
not be Mrs. Dombey, sublime in scornful indignation and ruby silk
velvet, she would have been contented to be simple Dorothea, washing her
tired feet in the brook, with her hair about her shoulders. She only
wanted the vague poetry of life, the mystic beauty of romance infused
somehow into her existence; and she was as yet too young to understand
that latent element of poetry which underlies the commonest life.

In the meantime a very terrible trouble had come to her--the trouble
occasioned by her father's presence in the neighbourhood of Graybridge.
Never, until some days after his apprehension at Liverpool, had Mr.
Sleaford's wife and children known the nature of the profession by which
the master of the house earned a fluctuating income,--enough for
reckless extravagance sometimes, at others barely enough to keep the
wolf from the door. This is not a sensation novel. I write here what I
know to be the truth. Jack the Scribe's children were as innocently
ignorant of their father's calling as if that gentleman had been indeed
what he represented himself--a barrister. He went every day to his
professional duties, and returned at night to his domestic hearth; he
was a very tolerable father; a faithful, and not unkind husband; a
genial companion amongst the sort of men with whom he associated. He had
only that awkward little habit of forging other people's names; by which
talent, exercised in conjunction with a gang whose cunningly-organized
plan of operations won for them considerable celebrity, he had managed
to bring up a numerous family in comparative comfort and respectability.
If any one had been good enough to die and leave Mr. Sleaford a thousand
a year, Jack the Scribe would have willingly laid down his pen and
retired into respectability; but in the meantime he found it necessary
to provide for himself and a hungry family; and having no choice between
a clerk's place with a pound a week and the vaguely-glorious chances of
it modern freebooter, he had joined the gang in question, to whom he was
originally made known by some very pretty little amateur performances in
the accommodation-bill line.

Never, until after his apprehension, had the truth been revealed to any
one member of that Camberwell household. Long ago, when Jack the Scribe
was a dashing young articled clerk, with bold black eyes and a handsome
face,--long ago, when Isabel was only a baby, the knowledge of a
bill-discounting transaction which the clerk designated an awkward
scrape, but which his employers declared to be a felony, had come
suddenly upon Mr. Sleaford's first wife, and had broken her heart. But
when the amateur artist developed into the accomplished professional,
Isabel's father learned the art of concealing the art. His sudden
departure from Camberwell, the huddling of the family into an Islington
lodging, and his subsequent flight to Liverpool, were explained to his
household as an attempt to escape an arrest for debt; and as angry
creditors and sheriffs' officers had been but common intruders upon the
peace of the household, there seemed nothing very unnatural in such a
flight. It was only when Mr. Sleaford was safely lodged within the fatal
walls of Newgate, when the preliminary investigations of the great
forgeries were published in every newspaper, that he communicated the
real state of the case to his horror-stricken wife and children.

There is little need to dwell upon the details of that most bitter time.
People get over these sort of things somehow; and grief and shame are
very rarely fatal, even to the most sensitive natures. "Alas, sweet
friend," says Shelley's Helen, "you must believe this heart is stone; it
did not break!" There seems to be a good deal of the stony element in
all our hearts, so seldom are the arrows of affliction fatal. To Isabel
the horror of being a forger's daughter was something very terrible; but
even in its terror there was just the faintest flavour of romance: and
if she could have smuggled her father out of Newgate in a woman's cap
and gown, like Lady Nithisdale, she might have forgiven him the crimes
that had helped to make her a heroine. The boys, after the first shock
of the revelation, took a very lenient view of their father's case, and
were inclined to attribute his shortcomings to the tyranny and prejudice
of society.

"If a rich cove has a jolly lot of money in the bank, and poor coves are
starving, the rich cove must expect to have it forged away from him,"
Horace Sleaford remarked, moodily, when debating the question of his
father's guilt. Nor did the hobbledehoy's sympathy end here; for he
borrowed a dirty and dilapidated copy of Mr. Ainsworth's delightful
romance from a circulating library, and minutely studied that
gentleman's description of Newgate in the days of Jack Sheppard, with a
view to Mr. Sleaford's evasion of his jailers.

It was not so very bad to bear, after all; for of course Jack the Scribe
was not so imprudent as to make any admission of his guilt. He
represented himself as the victim of circumstances, the innocent
associate of wicked men, entrapped into the folly of signing other
people's names by a conspiracy on the part of his companions. Hardened
as he was by the experiences of a long and doubtful career, he felt some
natural shame; and he did all in his power to keep his wife and children
dissociated from himself and his crimes. Bitterly though the cynic may
bewail the time-serving and mercenary nature of his race, a man can
generally find some one to help him in the supreme crisis of his fate.
Mr. Sleaford found friends, obscure and vulgar people, by whose
assistance he was enabled to get his family out of the way before his
trial came on at the Old Bailey. The boys, ever athirst for information
of the Jack-Sheppard order, perused the daily record of that Old Bailey
ordeal by stealth in the attic where they slept; but Isabel saw nothing
of the newspapers, which set forth the story of her father's guilt, and
only knew at the last, when all was decided, what Mr. Sleaford's fate
was to be. Thus it was that she never saw Mr. Lansdell's name amongst
those of the witnesses against her father; and even if she had seen that
name, it is doubtful whether it would have lived in her memory until the
day when she met the master of Mordred Priory.

No language can describe the horror that she felt on her father's sudden
appearance in Midlandshire. Utterly ignorant of the practices of prison
life, and the privileges of a ticket-of-leave, she had regarded Mr.
Sleaford's dismal habitation as a kind of tomb in which he was to be
buried alive for the full term of his imprisonment. Vaguely and afar off
she saw the shadow of danger to Roland, in the ultimate release of his
enemy; but the shadow seemed so very far away, that after the first
shock of Mr. Lansdell's story, it had almost faded from her mind,
blotted out by nearer joys and sorrows. It was only when her father
stood before her, fierce and exacting, hardened and brutalized by
prison-life, a wretch for ever at war with the laws he had outraged,--it
was only then that the full measure of Roland Lansdell's danger was
revealed to her.

"If ever I come out of prison alive, I will kill you!"

Never had she forgotten the words of that threat. But she might hope
that it was only an empty threat, the harmless thunder of a moment's
passion; not a deliberate promise, to be fulfilled whenever the chance
of its fulfilment arose. She did hope this; and in her first stolen
interview with her father, she led him to talk of his trial, and
contrived to ascertain his present sentiments regarding the man who had
so materially helped to convict him. The dusky shadows of the summer
evening hid the pallor of her earnest face, as she walked by Mr.
Sleaford's side in the sheltered hollow; and that gentleman was too much
absorbed by the sense of his own wrongs to be very observant of his
daughter's agitation.

Isabel Gilbert heard enough during that interview to convince her that
Roland Lansdell's danger was very real and near. Mr. Sleaford's vengeful
passions had fed and battened upon the solitude of the past years. Every
privation and hardship endured in his prison life had been a fresh item
in his long indictment against Mr. Lansdell, the "languid swell," whom
he had never wronged to the extent of a halfpenny, but who, for the mere
amusement of the chase, had hunted him down. This was what he could not
forgive. He _could not_ recognize the right of an amateur detective, who
bore witness against a criminal for the general benefit of society.

After this first meeting in Nessborough Hollow, the Doctor's Wife had
but one thought, one purpose and desire; and that was, to keep her
father in ignorance of his enemy's near neighbourhood, and to get him
away before mischief arose between the two men. But this was not such an
easy matter. Mr. Sleaford refused to leave his quarters at the Leicester
Arms until he obtained that which he had come to Midlandshire to
seek--money enough for a new start in life. He had made his way to
Jersey immediately after getting his release, and had there seen his
wife and the boys. From them he heard of Isabel's marriage. She had
married well, they said: a doctor at a place called Graybridge-on-the
-Wayverne--an important man, no doubt; and she had not been unkind to
them upon the whole, writing nice long letters to her step-mother now
and then, and sending post-office orders for occasional sovereigns.

Heaven only knows with what difficulty the poor girl had contrived to
save those occasional sovereigns. Mr. Sleaford demanded money of his
daughter. He had made all manner of inquiries about George Gilbert's
position, and had received very satisfactory answers to those inquiries.
The young doctor was a "warm" man, the gossips in the little parlour at
the Leicester Arms told Jack the Scribe; a prudent young man, who had
inherited a nice little nest-egg--perpetually being hatched at a
moderate rate of interest in the Wareham bank--from his father, and had
saved money himself, no doubt. And then the gossips entered into
calculations as to the value of Mr. Gilbert's practice, and the simple
eeonomy of his domestic arrangements; all favourable to the idea that
the young surgeon had a few thousands snugly invested in the county
bank.

Under these circumstances, Mr. Sleaford considered himself entirely
justified in standing out for what he called his rights, namely, a sum
of money--say fifty or a hundred pounds--from his daughter; and Isabel,
with the thought of Roland's danger perpetually in her mind, felt that
the money must be obtained at any price. Had her husband been well
enough to talk of business matters, she might have made her appeal to
him; but as it was, there was an easier and more speedy method of
getting the money. Roland, Roland himself, who was rich, and to whom
fifty pounds,--large as the sum seemed to this girl, who had never had
an unbroken ten-pound note in her life,--must be a very small matter; he
was the only person who could give her immediate help. It was to him
therefore she appealed. Ah, with what bitter shame and anguish! And it
was to deliver up the money thus obtained that she met her father in
Nessborough Hollow on the night of that dismal dinner at Lowlands. The
idea of telling Roland of his danger never for a moment entered her
mind. Was he not a hero, and would he not inevitably have courted that
or any other peril?

She thought of his position with all a weak woman's illogical terror;
and the only course that presented itself to her mind was that which she
pursued. She wanted to get her father away before any chance allusion
upon a stranger's lips told him that the man he so bitterly hated was
within his reach.



CHAPTER XXXV.

"'TWERE BEST AT ONCE TO SINK TO PEACE."


After that farewell meeting with Mr. Sleaford in Nessborough Hollow, a
sense of peace came upon Isabel Gilbert. She had questioned her father
about his plans, and he had told her that he should leave Midlandshire
by the seven o'clock train from Wareham on the following morning. He
should be heartily rejoiced to get to London, he said, and to leave a
place where he felt like a fox in a hole. The sentimental element was by
no means powerfully developed in the nature of Jack the Scribe, to whom
the crowded pavements of Fleet Street and the Strand were infinitely
more agreeable than the wild roses and branching fern of Midlandshire.

His daughter slept tranquilly that night for the first time after Mr.
Sleaford's appearance before the surgeon's door. She slept in peace,
worn out by the fatigue and anxiety of the last fortnight; and no evil
dream disturbed her slumbers. The odic forces must be worth very little
after all, for there was no consciousness in the sleeper's mind of that
quiet figure lying among the broken fern; no shadow, however dim, of the
scene that had been enacted in the tranquil, summer moonlight, while she
was hurrying homeward through the dewy lanes, triumphant in the thought
that her difficult task was accomplished. Only once in a century does
the vision of Maria Martin appear to an anxious dreamer; only so often
as to shake the formal boundary-wall of common sense which we have so
rigidly erected between the visible and invisible, and to show us that
there are more things in heaven and earth than our dull philosophy is
prepared to recognize.

Isabel woke upon the morning after that interview in the Hollow, with a
feeling of relief still in her mind. Her father was gone, and all was
well. He was not likely to return; for she had told him, with most
solemn protestations, that she had obtained the money with extreme
difficulty, and would never be able to obtain more. She had told him
this, and he had promised never again to assail her with any demands. It
was a very easy thing for Jack the Scribe to make that or any other
promise; but even if he broke his word, Isabel thought, there was every
chance that Roland Lansdell would leave Midlandshire very speedily, and
become once more an alien and a wanderer.

The Doctor's Wife was at peace, therefore; the dreadful terror of the
past fortnight was lifted away from her mind, and she was prepared to do
her duty; to be true to Mr. Colborne's solemn teaching, and to watch
dutifully, undistracted by any secret fear and anguish, by George
Gilbert's sick bed.

Very dismal faces greeted her beside that bed. Mr. Jeffson never left
his post now at the pillow of his young master. The weeds grew unheeded
in the garden; and Brown Molly missed her customary grooming. The
gardener had thrown half a load of straw in the lane, below the doctor's
window, so that no rumbling of the waggon-wheels carrying home the
new-mown hay should disturb George Gilbert's feverish sleep, if the
brief fitful dozes into which he fell now and then could be called by so
sweet a name.

Mr. Pawlkatt sat looking at his patient longer than usual that morning.
George Gilbert lay in a kind of stupor, and did not recognize his
medical attendant, and sometime rival. He had long since ceased to be
anxious about his poor patients in the lanes behind the church, or about
anything else upon this earth, as it seemed; and now that her great
terror had been lifted from her mind, Isabel saw a new and formless
horror gliding swiftly towards her, like a great iceberg sailing fast
upon an arctic sea. She followed Mr. Pawlkatt out of the room, and down
the little staircase, and clung to his arm as he was about to leave her.

"Oh, do you think he will die?" she said. "I did not know until this
morning that he was so very ill. Do you think he will die?"

The surgeon looked inquisitively into the earnest face lifted to
his--looked with some expression of surprise upon his countenance.

"I am very anxious, Mrs. Gilbert," he answered, gravely. "I will not
conceal from you that I am growing very anxious. The pulse is feeble and
intermittent; and these low fevers--there, there, don't cry. I'll drive
over to Wareham, as soon as I've seen the most important of my cases;
and I'll ask Dr. Herstett to come and look at your husband. Pray try to
be calm."

"I am so frightened," murmured Isabel, between her low half-stifled
sobs. "I never saw any one ill--like that--before."

Mr. Pawlkatt watched her gravely as he drew on his gloves.

"I am not sorry to see this anxiety on your part, Mrs. Gilbert," he
remarked sententiously. "As the friend and brother-professional of your
husband, and as a man who is--ahem!--old enough to be your father, I
will go so far as to say that I am gratified to find that you--I may
say, your heart is in the right place. There have been some very awkward
reports about you, Mrs. Gilbert, during the last few days. I--I--of
course should not presume to allude to those reports, if I did not
believe them to be erroneous," the surgeon added, rather hastily, not
feeling exactly secure as to the extent and bearing of the law of libel.

But Isabel only looked at him with bewilderment and distress in her
face.

"Reports about me!" she repeated. "What reports?"

"There has been a person--a stranger--staying at a little inn down in
Nessborough Hollow; and you,--in fact, I really have no right to
interfere in this matter, but my very great respect for your
husband,-and, in short----"

"Oh, that person is gone now," Isabel answered frankly. "It was very
unkind of people to say anything against him, or against me. He was a
relation,-a very near relation,--and I could not do otherwise than see
him now and then while he was in the neighbourhood. I went late in the
evening, because I did not wish to leave my husband at any other time. I
did not think that the Graybridge people watched me so closely, or were
so ready to think that what I do must be wrong."

Mr. Pawlkatt patted her hand soothingly.

"A relation, my dear Mrs. Gilbert?" he exclaimed. "That, of course,
quite alters the case. I always said that you were no doubt perfectly
justified in doing as you did; though it would have been better to
invite the person here. Country people will talk, you know. As a medical
man, with rather a large field of experience, I see all these little
provincial weaknesses. They will talk; but keep up your courage, Mrs.
Gilbert. We shall do our best for our poor friend. We shall do our very
best."

He gave Isabel's tremulous hand a little reassuring squeeze, and
departed complacently.

The Doctor's Wife stood absently watching him as he walked away, and
then turned and went slowly into the parlour--the empty,
miserable-looking parlour, which had not been used now for more than a
week. The dust lay thick upon the shabby old furniture, and the
atmosphere was hot and oppressive.

Here Isabel sat down beside the chiffonier, where her poor little
collection of books was huddled untidily in a dusty corner. She sat down
to think--trying to realize the nature of that terror which seemed so
close to her, trying to understand the full significance of what Mr.
Pawlkatt had said of her husband.

The surgeon had given no hope that George Gilbert would recover; he had
only made little conventional speeches about calmness and fortitude.

She tried to think, but could not. She had only spoken the truth just
now, when she cried out that she was frightened. This kind of terror was
so utterly new to her that she could not understand the calm
business-like aspect of the people who watched and waited on her
husband. Could he be dying? That strong active man, whose rude health
and hearty appetite had once jarred so harshly upon all her schoolgirl
notions of consumptive and blood-vessel-breaking heroes! Could he be
dying?--dying as heroic a death as any she had ever read of in her
novels: the death of a man who speculates his life for the benefit of
his fellow-creatures, and loses by the venture. The memory of every
wrong that she had ever done him--small wrongs of neglect, or
contemptuous opinions regarding his merits--wrongs that had been quite
impalpable to the honest unromantic doctor,--crowded upon her now, and
made a dull remorseful anguish in her breast. The dark shadow brooding
over George Gilbert--the dread gigantic shadow, growing darker day by
day--made him a new creature in the mind of this weak girl. No thought
of her own position had any place in her mind. She could not think; she
could only wait, oppressed by a dread whose nature she dared not
realize. She sat for a long time in the same forlornly listless
attitude, almost as helpless as the man who lay in the darkened chamber
above her. Then, rousing herself with effort, she crept up-stairs to the
room where the grave faces of the watchers greeted her, with very little
sympathy in their gaze.

Had not Mr. and Mrs. Jeffson heard the reports current in Graybridge;
and was it likely they could have any pity for a woman who crept
stealthily at nightfall from her invalid husband's house to meet a
stranger?

Isabel would have whispered some anxious question about the patient; but
Matilda Jeffson frowned sternly at her, commanding silence with an
imperious forefinger; and she was fain to creep into a dark corner,
where it had been her habit to sit since the Jeffsons had, in a manner,
taken possession of her husband's sick bed. She could not dispute their
right to do so. What was she but a frivolous, helpless creature,
fluttering and trembling like a leaf when she essayed to do any little
service for the invalid?

The day seemed painfully long. The ticking of an old clock on the
stairs, and the heavy troubled breathing of the sick man, were the only
sounds that broke the painful silence of the house. Once or twice Isabel
took an open Testament from a little table near her, and tried to take
some comfort from its pages. But she could not feel the beauty of the
words as she had in the little church at Hurstonleigh, when her mind had
been exalted by all manner of vague spiritualistic yearnings; now it
seemed deadened by the sense of dread and horror. She did not love her
husband; and those tidings of heavenly love which have so subtle an
affinity with earthly affection could not touch her very nearly in her
present frame of mind. She did not love her husband well enough to pray
that something little short of a miracle might be wrought for his sake.
She was only sorry for him; tenderly compassionate of his suffering;
very fearful that he might die. She did pray for him; but there was no
exaltation in her prayers, and she had a dull presentiment that her
supplications would not be answered.

It was late in the afternoon when the physician from Wareham came with
Mr. Pawlkatt; and when he did arrive, he seemed to do very little,
Isabel thought. He was a grey-whiskered important-looking man, with
creaking boots; he seated himself by the bedside, and felt the patient's
pulse, and listened to his breathing, and lifted his heavy eyelids, and
peered into his dim blood-shot eyes. He asked a good many questions, and
then went down-stairs with Mr. Pawlkatt, and the two medical men were
closeted together some ten or twelve minutes in the little parlour.

Isabel did not follow Mr. Pawlkatt down-stairs this time. She was awed
by the presence of the strange physician, and there was nothing in the
manner of the two men that inspired hope or comfort. She sat quite still
in her dusky corner; but Mrs. Jeffson stole out of the room soon after
the medical men had quitted it, and went slowly down-stairs. George was
asleep; in a very sound and heavy sleep this time; and his breathing was
more regular than it had been--more regular, but still a laboured
stertorous kind of respiration that was very painful to hear. In less
than ten minutes Mrs. Jeffson came back, looking very pale, and with
traces of tears upon her face. The good woman had been listening to the
medical consultation in the little parlour below.

Perhaps Isabel dimly comprehended this; for she got up from her chair,
and went a little way towards her husband's housekeeper.

"Oh, tell me the truth," she whispered, imploringly; "do they think that
he will die?"

"Yes," Matilda Jeffson answered, in a hard cruel voice, strangely at
variance with her stifled sobs, "yes, Mrs. Gilbert; and you'll be free
to take your pleasure, and to meet Mr. Lansdell as often as you like;
and go gadding about after dark with strange men. You might have waited
a bit, Mrs. Gilbert; you wouldn't have had to wait very long--for they
say my poor dear master--and I had him in my arms the day he was born,
so I've need to love him dearly, even if others haven't!--I heard the
doctor from Wareham tell Mr. Pawlkatt that he will never live to see
to-morrow morning's light. So you might have waited, Mrs. Gilbert; but
you're a wicked woman and a wicked wife!"

But just at this moment the sick man started suddenly from his sleep,
and lifted himself into a sitting position. Mr. Jeffson's arm was about
him directly, supporting the wasted figure that had very lately been so
strong.

George Gilbert had heard Matilda's last words, for he repeated them in a
thick strange voice, but with sufficient distinctness. It was a surprise
to those who nursed him to hear him speak reasonably, for it was some
time since he had been conscious of passing events.

"Wicked! no! no!" he said. "Always a good wife; always a very good
wife! Come, Izzie; come here. I'm afraid it has been a dull life, my
dear," he said very gently, as she came to him, clinging to him,
and looking at him with a white scared face,--"dull--very dull;
but it wouldn't have been always so. I thought--by-and-by to--new
practice--Helmswell--market-town--seven thousand inhabitants--and
you--drive--pony-carriage, like Laura Pawlkatt--but--the Lord's will be
done, my dear!--I hope I've done my duty--the poor people--better
rooms--ventilation--please God, by-and-by. I've seen a great deal of
suffering--and--my duty----"

He slid heavily back upon William Jeffson's supporting arm; and a rain
of tears--passionate remorseful tears never to be felt by him--fell on
his pallid face. His death was very sudden, though his illness had been,
considering the nature of his disease, a long and tedious one. He died
supremely peaceful in the consciousness of having done his duty. He
died, with Isabel's hand clasped in his own; and never, throughout his
simple life, had one pang of doubt or jealousy tortured his breast.



CHAPTER XXXVI.

BETWEEN TWO WORLDS.


A solemn calm came down upon the house at Graybridge, and for the first
time Isabel Gilbert felt the presence of death about and around her,
shutting out all the living world by its freezing influence. The great
iceberg had come down upon the poor frail barque. It almost seemed to
Isabel as if she and all in that quiet habitation had been encompassed
by a frozen wall, through which the living could not penetrate.

She suffered very much; the morbid sensibility of her nature made her
especially liable to such suffering. A dull, remorseful pain gnawed at
her heart. Ah, how wicked she had been! how false, how cruel, how
ungrateful! But if she had known that he was to die--if she had only
known--it might all have been different. The foreknowledge of his doom
would have insured her truth and tenderness; she could not have wronged,
even by so much as a thought, a husband whose days were numbered. And
amid all her remorse she was for ever labouring with the one grand
difficulty--the difficulty of realizing what had happened. She had
needed the doctor's solemn assurance that her husband was really dead
before she could bring herself to believe that the white swoon, the
chill heaviness of the passive hand, did indeed mean death. And even
when she had been told that all was over, the words seemed to have very
little influence upon her mind. It could not be! All the last fortnight
of anxiety and trouble was blotted out, and she could only think of
George Gilbert as she had always known him until that time, in the full
vigour of health and strength.

She was very sorrowful; but no passionate grief stirred her frozen
breast. It was the shock, the sense of horror that oppressed her, rather
than any consciousness of a great loss. She would have called her
husband back to life; but chiefly because it was so horrible to her to
know that he was there--near her--what he was. Once the thought came to
her--the weak selfish thought--that it would have been much easier for
her to bear this calamity if her husband had gone away, far away from
her, and only a letter had come to tell her that he was dead. She
fancied herself receiving the letter, and wondering at its black-edged
border. The shock would have been very dreadful; but not so horrible as
the knowledge that George Gilbert was in that house, and yet there was
no George Gilbert. Again and again her mind went over the same beaten
track; again and again the full realization of what had happened slipped
away from her, and she found herself framing little speeches--penitent,
remorseful speeches--expressive of her contrition for all past
shortcomings. And then there suddenly flashed back upon her the too
vivid picture of that deathbed scene, and she heard the dull thick voice
murmuring feebly words of love and praise.

In all this time Roland Lansdell's image was shut out of her mind. In
the dense and terrible shadow that filled all the chambers of her brain,
that bright and splendid figure could have no place. She thought of Mr.
Colborne at Hurstonleigh now and then, and felt a vague yearning for his
presence. He might have been able to comfort her perhaps, somehow; he
might have made it easier for her to bear the knowledge of that dreadful
presence in the room up-stairs. She tried once or twice to read some of
the chapters that had seemed so beautiful on the lips of the popular
curate; but even out of that holy volume dark and ghastly images arose
to terrify her, and she saw Lazarus emerging from the tomb livid in his
grave-clothes: and death and horror seemed to be everywhere and in
everything.

After the first burst of passionate grief, bitterly intermingled with
indignation against the woman whom she believed to have been a wicked
and neglectful wife, Matilda Jeffson was not ungentle to the
terror-stricken girl so newly made a widow. She took a cup of scalding
tea into the darkened parlour where Isabel sat, shivering every now and
then as if with cold, and persuaded the poor frightened creature to take
a little of that comforting beverage. She wiped away her own tears with
her apron while she talked to Isabel of patience and resignation,
submission to the will of Providence, and all those comforting theories
which are very sweet to the faithful mourner, even when the night-time
of affliction is darkest.

But Isabel was not a religious woman. She was a child again, weak and
frivolous, frightened by the awful visitant who had so newly entered
that house. All through the evening of her husband's death she sat in
the little parlour, sometimes trying to read a little, sometimes idly
staring at the tall wick of the tallow-candle, which was only snuffed
once in a way--when Mrs. Jeffson came into the room "to keep the scared
creature company for a bit," she said to her husband, who sat by the
kitchen fire with his elbows on his knees and his face hidden in his
hands, brooding over those bygone days when he had been wont to fetch
his master's son from that commercial academy in the Wareham Road.

There was a good deal of going in and out, a perpetual tramp of hushed
footsteps moving to and fro, as it seemed to Isabel; and Mrs. Jeffson,
even in the midst of her grief, appeared full of some kind of business
that kept her astir all the evening. The Doctor's Wife had imagined that
all voice and motion must come to an end--that life itself must make a
pause--in a house where death was. Others might feel a far keener grief
for the man that was gone; but no one felt so deep an awe of death as
she did. Mrs. Jeffson brought her some supper on a little tray late in
the evening; but she pushed it away from her and burst into tears. There
seemed a kind of sacrilege in this carrying in and out of food and drink
while he lay up-stairs; he whose hat still hung in the passage without,
whose papers and ink-bottles and medical books were all primly arranged
on one of the little vulgar cupboards by the fireplace. Ah, how often
she had hated those medical books for being what they were, instead of
editions of "Zanoni" and "Ernest Maltravers!" and it seemed wicked even
to have thought unkindly of them, now that he to whom they belonged was
dead.

It was quite in vain that Mrs. Jeffson urged her to go up-stairs to the
room opposite that in which the surgeon lay; it was quite as vainly that
the good woman entreated her to go and look at him, now that he was
lying so peacefully in the newly-arranged chamber, to lay her hand on
his marble forehead, so that no shadow of him should trouble her in her
sleep. The girl only shook her head forlornly.

"I'm afraid," she said, piteously--"I'm afraid of that room. I never
thought that he would die. I know that I wasn't good. It was wicked to
think of other people always, and not of him; but I never thought that
he would die. I knew that he was good to me; and I tried to obey him:
but I think I should have been different if I had known that he would
die."

She pulled out the little table-drawer where the worsted socks were
rolled up in fluffy balls, with needles sticking out of them here and
there. Even these were a kind of evidence of her neglect. She had
cobbled them a little during the later period of her married
life,--during the time of her endeavour to be good,--but she had not
finished this work or any other. Ah, what a poor creature she was, after
all!--a creature of feeble resolutions, formed only to be broken; a weak
vacillating creature, full of misty yearnings and aspirings--resolving
nobly in one moment, to yield sinfully in the next.

She begged to be allowed to spend the night down-stairs on the rickety
little sofa; and Mrs. Jeffson, seeing that she was really oppressed by
some childish terror of that upper story, brought her some blankets and
pillows, and a feeble little light that was to burn until daybreak.

So in that familiar room, whose every scrap of shabby furniture had been
a part of the monotony of her life, Isabel Gilbert spent the first night
of her widowhood, lying on the little sofa, nervously conscious of every
sound in the house; feverishly wakeful until long after the morning sun
was shining through the yellow-white blind, when she fell into an uneasy
doze, in which she dreamt that her husband was alive and well. She did
not arouse herself out of this, and yet she was never thoroughly asleep
throughout the time, until after ten o'clock; and then she found Mrs.
Jeffson sitting near the little table, on which the inevitable cup of
tea was smoking beside a plate of the clumsy kind of bread-and-butter
inseparably identified with George Gilbert in Isabel's mind.

"There's somebody wants to see you, if you're well enough to be spoken
to, my dear," Matilda said, very gently; for she had been considerably
moved by Mrs. Gilbert's penitent little confession of her shortcomings
as a wife; and was inclined to think that perhaps, after all, Graybridge
had judged this helpless schoolgirl creature rather harshly. "Take the
tea, my dear; I made it strong on purpose for you; and try and cheer up
a bit, poor lassie; you're young to wear widow's weeds; but he was fit
to go. If all of us had worked as hard for the good of other folks, we
could afford to die as peaceful as he did."

Isabel pushed the heavy tangled hair away from her pallid face, and
pursed-up her pale lips to kiss the Yorkshire-woman.

"You're very kind to me," she said; "you used to think that I was
wicked, I know; and then you seemed very unkind. But I always wished to
be good. I should like to have been good, and to die young, like
George's mother."

It is to be observed that, with Isabel's ideal of goodness there was
always the association of early death. She had a vague idea that very
religious and self-denying people got through their quota of piety with
tolerable speed, and received their appointed reward. As yet her notions
of self-sacrifice were very limited; and she could scarcely have
conceived a long career of perfection. She thought of nuns as creatures
who bade farewell to the world, and had all their back-hair cut off, and
retired into a convent, and died soon afterwards, while they were still
young and interesting. She could not have imagined an elderly nun, with
all a long monotonous life of self-abnegation behind her, getting up at
four o'clock every morning, and being as bright and vivacious and
cheerful as any happy wife or mother outside the convent-walls. Yet
there are such people.

       *       *       *       *       *

Mrs. Gilbert took a little of the hot tea, and then sat quite still,
with her head lying on Matilda Jeffson's shoulder, and her hand clasped
in Matilda's rough fingers. That living clasp seemed to impart a kind of
comfort, so terribly had death entered into Isabel's narrow world.

"Do you think you shall be well enough to see him presently, poor
lassie?" Mrs. Jeffson said, after a long silence. "I shouldn't ask you,
only he seems anxious-like, as if there was something particular on his
mind; and I know he's been very kind to you."

Isabel stared at her in bewilderment.

"I don't know who you are talking of," she said.

"It's Mr. Raymond, from Coventford! It's early for him to be so far as
Graybridge; but he looks as pale and worn-like as if he'd been up and
about all night. He was all struck of a heap-like when I told him about
our poor master."

Here Mrs. Jeffson had recourse to the cotton apron which had been so
frequently applied to her eyes during the last week. Isabel huddled a
shabby little shawl about her shoulders; she had made no change in her
dress when she had lain down the night before; and she was very pale and
wan, and tumbled and woebegone, in the bright summer light.

"Mr. Raymond! Mr. Raymond!" She repeated his name to herself once or
twice, and made a faint effort to understand why he should have come to
her. He had always been very kind to her, and associated with his image
there was a sense of sound wisdom and vigorous cheerfulness of spirit.
His presence would bring some comfort to her, she thought. Next to Mr.
Colborne, he was the person whom she would most have desired to see.

"I will go to him, Mrs. Jeffson," she said, rising slowly from the sofa.
"He was always very good to me. But, oh, how the sight of him will bring
back the time at Conventford, when George used to come and see me on
Sunday afternoons, and we used to walk together in the cold bare
meadows!"

That time did come back to her as she spoke: a grey colourless pause in
her life, in which she had been--not happy, perhaps, but contented. And
since that time what, tropical splendors, what a gorgeous oasis of light
and colour had spread itself suddenly about her path! a forest of
miraculous flowers and enchanted foliage that had shut out all the
every-day world in which other people dragged out their tiresome
existences--a wonderful Asiatic wilderness, in which there were hidden
dangers lurking, terrible as the cobras that drop down upon the
traveller from some flowering palm-tree, or the brindled tigers that
prowl in the shadowy jungle. She looked back across that glimpse of an
earthly paradise to the old dull days at Conventford; and a hot blast
from the tropical oasis seemed to rush in upon her, beyond which the
past spread far away like a cool grey sea. Perhaps that quiet
neutral-tinted life was the best, after all. She saw herself again as
she had been; "engaged" to the man who lay dead up-stairs; and weaving a
poor little web of romance for herself even out of that prosaic
situation.

Mr. Raymond was waiting in the best parlour,--that sacred chamber, which
had been so rarely used during the parish surgeon's brief wedded
life,--that primly-arranged little sitting-room, which always had a
faint odour of old-fashioned _pot pourri_; the room which Isabel had
once yearned to beautify into a bower of chintz and muslin. The blind
was down, and the shutters half-closed; and in the dim light Charles
Raymond looked very pale.

"My dear Mrs. Gilbert," he said, taking her hand, and leading her to a
seat; "my poor child,--so little more than a child,--so little wiser or
stronger than a child,--it seems cruel to come to you at such a time;
but life is very hard sometimes----"

"It was very kind of you to come," Isabel exclaimed, interrupting him.
"I wanted to see you, or some one like you; for everything seems so
dreadful to me. I never thought that he would die."

She began to cry, in a weary helpless way, not like a person moved by
some bitter grief; rather like a child that finds itself in a strange
place and is frightened.

"My poor child, my poor child!"

Charles Raymond still held Isabel's passive hand, and she felt tears
dropping on it; the tears of a man, of all others the last to give way
to any sentimental weakness. But even then she did not divine that he
must have some grief of his own--some sorrow that touched him more
nearly than George Gilbert's death could possibly touch him. Her state
of feeling just now was a peculiarly selfish state, perhaps; for she
could neither understand nor imagine anything outside that darkened
house, where death was supreme. The shock had been too terrible and too
recent. It was as if an earthquake had taken place, and all the
atmosphere round her was thick with clouds of blinding dust produced by
the concussion. She felt Mr. Raymond's tears dropping slowly on her
hand; and if she thought about them at all, she thought them only the
evidence of his sympathy with her childish fears and sorrows.

"I loved him like my own son," murmured Charles Raymond, in a low tender
voice. "If he had not been what he was,--if he had been the veriest cub
that ever disgraced a good old stock,--I think even then I should have
loved him as dearly and as truly, for her sake. Her only son! I've seen
him look at me as she looked when I kissed her in the church on her
wedding-day. So long as he lived, I should have never felt that she was
really lost to me."

Isabel heard nothing of these broken sentences. Mr. Raymond uttered them
in low musing tones, that were not intended to reach any mortal ears.
For some little time he sat silently by the girl's side, with her hand
still lying in his; then he rose and walked up and down the room with a
soft slow step, and with his head drooping.

"You have been very much shocked by your husband's death?" he said at
last.

Isabel began to cry again at this question,--weak hysterical tears, that
meant very little, perhaps.

"Oh, very, very much," she answered. "I know I was not so good as I
ought to have been; and I can never ask him to forgive me now."

"You were very fond of him, I suppose?"

A faint blush flickered and faded upon Isabel's pallid face; and then
she answered, hesitating a little,----

"He was very good to me, and I--I tried always to be grateful--almost
always," she added, with a remorseful recollection of rebellious moments
in which she had hated her husband because he ate spring-onions, and
wore Graybridge-made boots.

Just the slightest indication of a smile glimmered upon Mr. Raymond's
countenance as he watched Isabel's embarrassment. We are such weak and
unstable creatures at the very best, that it is just possible this man,
who loved Roland Lansdell very dearly, was not entirely grieved by the
discovery of Isabel's indifference for her dead husband. He went back to
the chair near hers, and seated himself once more by her side. He began
to speak to her in a very low earnest voice; but he kept his eyes bent
upon the ground; and in that dusky light she was quite unable to see the
expression of his face.

"Isabel," he began, very gravely, "I said just now that life seems very
hard to us sometimes,--not to be explained by any doctrine of averages,
by any of the codes of philosophy which man frames for his own comfort;
only to be understood very dimly by one sublime theory, which some of us
are not strong mough to grasp and hold by. Ah, what poor tempest-tossed
vessels we are without that compass! I have had a great and bitter grief
to bear within the last four-and-twenty hours, Isabel; a sorrow that has
come upon me more suddenly than even the shock of your husband's death
can have fallen on you."

"I am very sorry for you," Isabel answered, dreamily; "the world must be
full of trouble, I think. It doesn't seem as if any one was ever really
happy."

She was thinking of her own life, so long to look back upon, though she
was little more than twenty years of age; she was thinking of the petty
sordid miseries of her girlhood,--the sheriff's officers and
tax-gatherers, and infuriated tradespeople,--the great shock of her
father's disgrace; the dull monotony of her married life; and Roland
Lansdell's sudden departure; and his stubborn anger against her when she
refused to run away with him; and then her husband's death. It seemed
all one dreary record of grief and trouble.

"I am growing old. Isabel," resumed Mr. Raymond; "but I have never lost
my sympathy with youth and all its brightness. I think, perhaps, that
sympathy has grown wider and stronger with increase of years. There is
one young man who has been always very dear to me--more dear to me than
I can ever make you comprehend, unless I were to tell you the subtle
link that has bound him to me. I suppose there are some fathers who have
as deep a love for their sons as I have for the man of whom I speak; but
I have always fancied fatherly love a very lukewarm feeling compared
with my affection for Roland Lansdell."

Roland Lansdell! It was the first time she had heard his name spoken
since that Sunday on which her husband's illness had begun. The name
shot through her heart with a thrill that was nearly akin to pain. A
little glimpse of lurid sunshine burst suddenly in upon the darkness of
her life. She clasped her hands before her face almost as if it had been
actual light that she wanted to shut out.

"Oh, don't speak of him!" she said, piteously. "I was so wicked; I
thought of him so much; but I did not know that my husband would die.
Please don't speak of him; it pains me so to hear his name."

She broke down into a torrent of hysterical weeping as she uttered this
last entreaty. She remembered Roland's angry face in the church; his
studied courtesy during that midnight interview at the Priory, the calm
reserve of manner which she had mistaken for indifference. He was
nothing to her; he was not even her friend; and she had sinned so deeply
against the dead man for his sake.

"I should be the last to mention Roland Lansdell's name in your
hearing," Mr. Raymond answered presently, when she had grown a little
quieter, "if the events of the last day or two had not broken down all
barriers. The time is very near at hand, Isabel, when no name ever
spoken upon this earth will be an emptier sound than the name of Roland
Lansdell."

She lifted her tear-stained face suddenly and looked at him. All the
clouds floated away, and a dreadful light broke in upon her; she looked
at him, trembling from head to foot, with her hands clasped convulsively
about his arm.

"You came here to tell me something!" she gasped; "something has
happened--to him! Ah, if it has, life is _all_ sorrow!"

"He is dying, Isabel."

"Dying!"

Her lips shaped the words, and her fixed eyes stared at Charles
Raymond's face with an awful look.

"He is dying. It would be foolish to deceive you with any false hope,
when in four-and-twenty hours' time all will be finished. He went
out--riding--the other night, and fell from his horse, as it is
supposed. He was found by some haymakers early the next morning, lying
helpless, some miles from the Priory, and was carried home. The medical
men give no hope of his recovery; but he has been sensible at intervals
ever since. I have been a great deal with him--constantly with him; and
his cousin Gwendoline is there. He wants to see you, Isabel; of course
he knows nothing of your husband's death; I did not know of it myself
till I came here this morning. He wants to see you, my poor child. Do
you think you can come?"

She rose and bent her head slowly as if in assent, but the fixed look of
horror never left her face. She moved towards the door, and seemed as if
she wanted to go at once--dressed as she was, with the old faded shawl
wrapped about her.

"You'd better get your housekeeper to make you comfortable and tidy,
while I go and engage a fly," said Mr. Raymond; and then looking her
full in the face, he added, "Can you promise me to be very calm and
quiet when you see him? You had better not come unless you can promise
me as much as that. His hours are numbered, as it is; but any violent
emotion would be immediately fatal. A man's last hours are very precious
to him, remember; the hours of a man who knows his end is near make a
sacred mystical period in which the world drops far away from him, and
he is in a kind of middle region between this life and the next. I want
you to recollect this, Isabel. The man you are going to see is not the
man you have known in the past. There would be very little hope for us
after death, if we found no hallowing influence in its approach."

"I will recollect," Isabel answered. She had shed no tears since she had
been told of Roland's danger. Perhaps this new and most terrible shock
had nerved her with an unnatural strength. And amid all the anguish
comprehended in the thought of his death, it scarcely seemed strange to
her that Roland Lansdell should be dying. It seemed rather as if the end
of the world had suddenly come about; and it mattered very little who
should be the first to perish. Her own turn would come very soon, no
doubt.

Mr. Raymond met Mrs. Jeffson in the passage, and said a few words to her
before he went out of the house. The good woman was shocked at the
tidings of Mr. Lansdell's accident. She had thought very badly of the
elegant young master of Mordred Priory; but death and sorrow take the
bitterness out of a true-hearted woman's feelings, and Matilda was
womanly enough to forgive Roland for the wish that summoned the Doctor's
Wife to his deathbed. She went up-stairs, and came down with Isabel's
bonnet and cloak and simple toilet paraphernalia; and presently Mrs.
Gilbert had a consciousness of cold water splashed upon her face, and a
brush passed over her tangled hair. She felt only half conscious of
these things, as she might have felt had they been the events of a
dream. So presently, when Mr. Raymond came back, accompanied by the
muffled rolling of wheels in the straw-bestrewn lane, and she was half
lifted into the old-fashioned, mouldy-smelling Graybridge fly,--so all
along the familiar high-road, past the old inn with the sloping roof,
where the pigeons were cooing to each other, as if there had been no
such thing as death or sorrow in the world,--so under the grand gothic
gates of monastic Mordred, it was all like a dream--a terrible
oppressive dream--hideous by reason of some vague sense of horror rather
than by the actual vision presented to the eyes of the sleeper. In a
troubled dream it is always thus,--it is always a hidden, intangible
something that oppresses the dreamer.

The leaves were fluttering in the warm midsummer wind, and the bees were
humming about the great flower-beds. Far away the noise of the waterfall
blended with all other summer sounds in a sweet confusion. And he was
dying! Oh, what wonderful patches of shadow and sunlight on the wide
lawns! what marvellous glimpses down long glades, where the young fern
heaved to and fro in the fitful breezes like the emerald wavelets of a
summer sea! And he was dying! It is such an old, old feeling, this
unwillingness to comprehend that there can be death anywhere upon an
earth that is so beautiful. Eve may have felt very much as Isabel felt
to-day, when she saw a tropical sky, serenely splendid, above the corpse
of murdered Abel. Hero may have found the purple distances of the
classic mountains, the yellow glory of the sunlit sands, almost more
difficult to bear than the loss of her drowned lover.

There was the same solemn hush at Mordred Priory that there had been in
the surgeon's house at Graybridge; only there seemed a deeper solemnity
here amid all the darkened splendour of the spacious rooms, stretching
far away, one beyond another, like the chambers of a palace. Isabel saw
the long vista, not as she had seen it once, when _he_ came into the
hall to bid her welcome, but with the haunting dreamlike oppression
strong upon her. She saw little glimmering patches of gilding and colour
here and there in the cool gloom of the shaded rooms, and long bars of
light shining through the Venetian shutters upon the polished oaken
floors. One of the medical men--there were three or four of them in the
house--came out of the library and spoke in a whisper to Mr. Raymond.
The result of the whispering seemed tolerably favourable, for the doctor
went back to his companions in the library, and Charles Raymond led
Isabel up the broad staircase; the beautiful staircase which seemed to
belong to a church or a cathedral rather than to any common habitation.

They met a nurse in the corridor; a prim, pleasant-looking woman, who
answered Mr. Raymond's questions in a cheerful business-like manner, as
if a Roland Lansdell or so more or less in the world were a matter of
very small consequence. And then a mist came before Isabel's eyes, and
she lost consciousness of the ground on which she trod; and presently
there was a faint odour of hartshorn and aromatic medicines, and she
felt a soft hand sponging her forehead with eau-de-Cologne, and a
woman's muslin garments fluttering near her. And then she raised her
eyelids with a painful sense of their weight, and a voice very close to
her said,--

"It was very kind of you to come. I am afraid the heat of the room makes
you faint. If you could contrive to let in a little more air, Raymond.
It was very good of you to come."

Oh, he was _not_ dying! Her heart seemed to leap out of a dreadful
frozen region into an atmosphere of warmth and light. He was not dying!
Death was not like this. He spoke to her to-day as he had always spoken.
It was the same voice, the same low music which she had heard so often
mingled with the brawling of the mill-stream: the voice that had sounded
perpetually in her dreams by day and night.

She slipped from her chair and fell upon her knees by the bedside. There
was nothing violent or melodramatic in the movement; it seemed almost
involuntary, half unconscious.

"Oh, I am so glad to hear you speak!" she said; "it makes me so
happy--to see you like this. They told me that you were very, very ill;
they told me that----"

"They told you the truth," Roland answered gravely. "Oh, dear Mrs.
Gilbert, you must try and forget what I have been, or you will never be
able to understand what I am. And I was so tired of life, and thought I
had so little interest in the universe; and yet I feel so utterly
changed a creature now that all earthly hope has really slipped away
from me. I sent for you, Isabel, because in this last interview I want
to acknowledge all the wrong I have done you; I want to ask your
forgiveness for that wrong."

"Forgiveness--from me! Oh, no, no!"

She could not abandon her old attitude of worship. He was a prince
always--noble or wicked--a prince by divine right of his splendour and
beauty! If he stooped from his high estate to smile upon her, was he not
entitled to her deepest gratitude, her purest devotion? If it pleased
him to spurn and trample her beneath his feet, what was she, when
counted against the magnificence of her idol, that she should complain?
There is always some devoted creature prostrate in the road when the car
comes by; and which of them would dream of upbraiding Juggernaut for the
anguish inflicted by the crushing wheels?

The same kind hands which had bathed Mrs. Gilbert's forehead half lifted
her from her kneeling attitude now; and looking up, Isabel saw Lady
Gwendoline bending over her, very pale, very grave, but with a sweet
compassionate smile upon her face. Lord Ruysdale and his daughter had
come to the Priory immediately after hearing of Roland's dangerous
state; and during the four-and-twenty hours that had elapsed, Lady
Gwendoline had been a great deal with her cousin. The hidden love which
had turned to jealous anger against Roland's folly regained all its
purer qualities now, and there was no sacrifice of self or self-love
that Gwendoline Pomphrey would have hesitated to make, if in so doing
she could have restored life and vigour to the dying man. She had heard
the worst the doctors had to tell. She knew that her cousin was dying.
She was no woman to delude herself with vain hopes, to put away the cup
for awhile because it was bitter, knowing that its last drop must be
drained sooner or later. She bowed her head before the inevitable, and
accepted her sorrow. Never in her brightest day, when her portrait had
been in every West-end print-shop, and her name a synonym for all that
is elegant and beautiful--never had she seemed so perfect a woman as
now, when she sat pale and quiet and resigned, by the deathbed of the
man she loved.

During that long night of watching, Mr. Lansdell's mind had seemed at
intervals peculiarly clear,--the fatal injuries inflicted upon his brain
had not blotted out his intellect. That had been obscured in occasional
periods of wandering and stupor, but every now and then the supremacy of
spirit over matter reasserted itself, and the young man talked even more
calmly than usual. All the fitfulness of passion, the wavering of
purpose--now hot, now cold, now generous, now cruel,--all natural
weakness seemed to have been swept away, and an unutterable calm had
fallen upon his heart and mind.

Once, on waking from a brief doze, he found his cousin watching, but the
nurse asleep, and began to talk of Isabel Gilbert. "I want you to know
all about her," he said; "you have only heard vulgar scandal and gossip.
I should like you to know the truth. It is very foolish, that little
history--wicked perhaps; but those provincial gossips may have garbled
and disfigured the story. I will tell you the truth, Gwendoline; for I
want you to be a friend to Isabel Gilbert when I am dead and gone."

And then he told the history of all those meetings under Lord Thurston's
oak; dwelling tenderly on Isabel's ignorant simplicity, blaming himself
for all that was guilty and dishonourable in that sentimental
flirtation. He told Gwendoline how, from being half amused, half
gratified, by Mrs. Gilbert's unconcealed admiration of him, so naïvely
revealed in every look and tone, he had, little by little, grown to find
the sole happiness of his life in those romantic meetings; and then he
spoke of his struggles with himself, real, earnest struggles--his
flight--his return--his presumptuous belief that Isabel would freely
consent to any step he might propose--his anger and disappointment after
the final interview, which proved to him how little he had known the
depths of that girlish sentimental heart.

"She was only a child playing with fire, Gwendoline," he said; "and had
not the smallest desire to walk through the furnace. That was my
mistake. She was a child, and I mistook her for a woman--a woman who saw
the gulf before her, and was prepared to take the desperate leap. She
was only a child, pleased with my pretty speeches and town-made clothes
and perfumed handkerchiefs,--a schoolgirl; and I set my life upon the
chance of being happy with her. Will you try and think of her as she
really is, Gwendoline,--not as these Graybridge people see her,--and be
kind to her when I am dead and gone? I should like to think she was sure
of one wise and good woman for a friend. I have been very cruel to her,
very unjust, very selfish. I was never in the same mind about her for an
hour together,--sometimes thinking tenderly of her, sometimes upbraiding
and hating her as a trickstress and a coquette. But I can understand her
and believe in her much better now. The sky is higher, Gwendoline."

If Roland had told his cousin this story a week before, when his life
seemed all before him, she might have received his confidence in a very
different spirit from that in which she now accepted it; but he was
dying, and she had loved him, and had been loved by him. It was by her
own act that she had lost that love. She of all others had least right
to resent his attachment to another woman. She remembered that day,
nearly ten years ago, on which she had quarrelled with him, stung by his
reproaches, insolent in the pride of her young beauty and the knowledge
that she might marry a man so high above Roland Lansdell in rank and
position. She saw herself as she had been, in all the early splendour of
her Saxon beauty, and wondered if she really was the same creature as
that proud worldly girl who thought the supremest triumph in life was to
become the wife of a marquis.

"I will be her friend, Roland," she said, presently. "I know she is very
childish; and I will be patient with her and befriend her, poor lonely
girl."

Lady Gwendoline was thinking, as she said this, of that interview in the
surgeon's parlour at Graybridge--that interview in which Isabel had not
scrupled to confess her folly and wickedness.

"I ought to have been more patient," Gwendoline thought; "but I think I
was angry with her because she had dared to love Roland. I was jealous
of his love for her, and I could not be kind or tolerant."

Thus it was that Isabel found Lady Gwendoline so tender and
compassionate to her. She only raised her eyes to the lady's face with a
grateful look. She forgot all about the interview at Graybridge; what
_could_ she remember in that room, except that _he_ was ill? in danger,
people had told her; but she could not believe that. The experience of
her husband's deathbed had impressed her with an idea that dangerous
illness must be accompanied by terrible prostration, delirium, raging
fever, dull stupor. She saw Roland in one of his best intervals,
reasonable, cheerful, self-possessed, and she could not believe that he
was going to die. She looked at him, and saw that his face was
bloodless, and that his head was bound by linen bandages, which
concealed his forehead. A fall from his horse! She remembered how she
had seen him once ride by upon the dusty road, unconscious of her
presence, grand and self-absorbed as Count Lara; but amongst all her
musings she had never imagined any danger coming to him in that shape.
She had fancied him always as a dauntless rider, taming the wildest
steed with one light pressure of his hand upon the curb. She looked at
him sorrowfully, and the vision of his accident arose before her; she
saw the horse tearing across a moonlit waste, and then a fall, and then
a figure dragged along the ground. She had read of such things: it was
only some old half-forgotten scene out of one of her books that rose in
her mind.

No doubt as to the nature of Mr. Lansdell's accident, no glimmering
suspicion of the truth, ever entered her brain. She believed most fully
that she had herself prevented all chance of an encounter between her
father and his enemy. Had she not seen the last of Mr. Sleaford in
Nessborough Hollow, whence he was to depart for Wareham station at break
of day? and what should take Roland Lansdell to that lonely glade in
which the little rustic inn was hidden,--a resting-place for haymakers
and gipsy-hawkers?

She never guessed the truth. The medical men who attended Roland
Lansdell knew that the injuries from which he was dying had never been
caused by any fall from a horse; and they said as much to Charles
Raymond, who was unutterably distressed by the intelligence. But neither
he nor the doctors could obtain any admission from the patient, though
Mr. Raymond most earnestly implored him to reveal the truth.

"Cure me, if you can," he said; "nothing that I can tell you will give
you any help in doing that. If it is my fancy to keep the cause of my
death a secret, it is the whim of a dying man, and it ought to be
respected. No living creature upon this earth except one man will ever
know how I came by these injuries. But I do hope that you gentlemen will
be discreet enough to spare my friends any useless pain. The gossips are
at work already, I dare say, speculating as to what became of the horse
that threw me. For pity's sake, do your best to stop their talk. My life
has been sluggish enough; do not let there be any _esclandre_ about my
death."

Against such arguments as these Charles Raymond could urge nothing. But
his grief for the loss of the young man he loved was rendered doubly
bitter by the mystery which surrounded Roland's fate. The doctors told
him that the wounds on Mr. Lansdell's head could only have been caused
by merciless blows inflicted with some blunt instrument. Mr. Raymond in
vain distracted himself with the endeavour to imagine how or why the
young man had been attacked. He had not been robbed; for his watch and
purse, his rings, and the little trinkets hanging at his chain, all of
them costly in their nature, had been found upon him when he was brought
home to the Priory. That Roland Lansdell could have counted one enemy
amongst all mankind, never entered into his kinsman's calculations. He
had no recollection of that little story told so lightly by the young
man in the flower-garden; he was entirely without a clue to the
catastrophe; and he perceived very plainly that Roland's resolution was
not to be shaken. There was a quiet determination in Mr. Lansdell's
refusal, which left no hope that he might be induced to change his mind.
He spoke with all apparent frankness of the result of his visit to
Nessborough Hollow. He had found Isabel there, he said, with a man who
was related to her,--a poor relation, who had come to Graybridge to
extort money from her. He had seen and spoken to the man, and was fully
convinced that his account of himself was true.

"So you see the Graybridge gossips had lighted on the usual mare's
nest," Roland said, in conclusion; "the man was a relation,--an uncle or
cousin, I believe,--I heard it from his own lips. If I had been a
gentleman, I should have been superior to the foul suspicions that
maddened me that night. What common creatures we are, Raymond, some of
us! Our mothers believe in us, and worship us, and watch over us, and
seem to fancy they have dipped us in a kind of moral Styx, and that
there is something of the immortal infused into our vulgar clay; but
rouse our common passions, and we sink to the level of the navigator who
beats his wife to death with a poker in defence of his outraged honour.
They put a kind of varnish over us at Eton and Oxford; but the colouring
underneath is very much the same, after all. Your King Arthur, or Sir
Philip Sidney, or Bayard, crops up once in a century or so, and the
world bows down before a gentleman; but, oh, what a rare creature he
is!"

       *       *       *       *       *

"I want you to forgive me," Roland said to Isabel, after she had been
sitting some minutes in the low chair in which Lady Gwendoline had
placed her. There was no one in the room but Charles Raymond and
Gwendoline Pomphrey; and Mr. Raymond had withdrawn himself to a distant
window that had been pushed a little way open, near which he sat in a
very mournful attitude, with his face averted from the sick bed. "I want
you to forgive me for having been very unjust and cruel to you, Mrs.
Gilbert--Isabel. Ah, I may call you Isabel now, and no one will cry out
upon me! Dying men have all manner of pleasant privileges. I was very
cruel, very unjust, very selfish and wicked, my poor girl; and your
childish ignorance was wiser than my worldly experience. A man has no
right to desire perfect happiness: I can understand that now. He has no
right to defy the laws made by wiser men for his protection, because
there is a fatal twist in the fabric of his life, and those very laws
happen to thwart him in his solitary insignificance. How truly Thomas
Carlyle has told us that Manhood only begins when we have surrendered to
Necessity! We must submit, Isabel. I struggled; but I never submitted. I
tried to crush and master the pain; but I never resigned myself to
endure it; and endurance is so much grander than conquest. And then,
when I had yielded to the tempter, when I had taken my stand, prepared
to defy heaven and earth, I was angry with you, poor child, because you
were not alike rash and desperate. Forgive me, my dear; I loved you very
much; and it is only now--now when I am dying, that I know how fatal and
guilty my love was. But it was never a profligate's brief passion,
Isabel. It was wicked to love you; but my love was pure. If you had been
free to be my wife, I should have been a true and faithful husband to my
childish love. Ah, even now, when life seems so far away; even now,
Isabel, the old picture rises before me, and I fancy what might have
been if I had found you free."

The low penetrating voice reached Charles Raymond, and he bent his head
and sobbed aloud. Dimly, as the memory of a dream, came back upon him
the recollection of that time in which he had sat amongst the shadows of
the great beech-trees at Hurstonleigh, with the young man's poems open
in his hand, and had been beguiled into thinking of what might happen if
Roland returned to England to see Isabel in her girlish beauty. And
Roland had returned, and had seen her; but too late; and now she was
free once more,--free to be loved and chosen,--and again it was too
late. Perhaps Mr. Raymond seems only a foolish sentimentalist, weeping
because of the blight upon a young man's love-story; but then he had
loved the young man's mother,--and in vain!

"Gwendoline has promised to be your friend, Isabel," Roland said
by-and-by; "it makes me very happy to know that. Oh, my darling, if I
could tell you the thoughts that came to me as I lay there, with the
odour of leaves and flowers about me, and the stars shining above the
tall branches over my head. What is impossible in a universe where there
are such stars? It seemed as if I had never seen them until then."

He rambled on thus, with Isabel's hand held loosely in his. He seemed to
be very happy--entirely at peace. Gwendoline had proposed to read to
him; and the parish rector had been with him, urging the duty of some
religious exercises, eager to exhort and to explain; but the young man
had smiled at him with some shade of contempt in his expression.

"There is very little you could read from that book which I do not
already know by heart," he said, pointing to the Bible lying open under
the clergyman's hand. "It is not your unbeliever who least studies his
gospel. Imagine a man possessed of a great crystal that looks like a
diamond. His neighbours tell him that the gem is priceless--matchless
--without crack or flaw. But some evil thing within the man suggests
that it may be valueless after all--only a big beautiful lump of glass.
You may fancy that he would examine it very closely; he would scrutinize
every facet, and contemplate it in every light, and perhaps know a good
deal more about it than the believing possessor, who, feeling confident
in the worth of his jewel, puts it safely away in a strong box against
the hour when it may be wanted. I know all about the gospel, Mr. Matson;
and I think, as my hours are numbered, it may be better for me to lie
and ponder upon those familiar words. The light breaks upon me very
slowly; but it all comes from a far distant sky; and no earthly hand can
lift so much as the uttermost edge of the curtain that shuts out the
fuller splendour. I am very near him now; I am very near 'the shadow,
cloaked from head to foot, who keeps the keys of all the creeds!'"

The conscientious rector thought Mr. Lansdell a very unpromising
penitent; but it was something to hear that the young man did not rail
or scoff at religion on his dying bed; and even that might have been
expected of a person who had attended divine service only once in six
weeks, and had scandalized a pious and well-bred congregation by
undisguised yawns, and absent-minded contemplation of his finger-nails,
during the respectable prosiness of a long sermon.

The rector did not understand this imperfect conversion, expressed in
phrases that sounded the reverse of orthodox; but the state of matters
in that death-chamber was much better than he had expected. He had heard
it hinted that Mr. Lansdell was a Freethinker--a Deist; even an Atheist,
some people had said; and he had half anticipated to find the young man
blaspheming aloud in the throes of his dying agony. He had not been
prepared for this quiet deathbed; this man, who was dying with a smile
upon his face, murmuring alternate fragments of St. John's Gospel and
Tennyson's "In Memoriam."

"I was with my mother when she died." Roland said by-and-by, "and yet
could not accept the simple faith that made her so happy. But I dare say
Saul had seen many wonderful things before that journey to Damascus. Had
he not witnessed the martyrdom of Stephen, and had yet been unmoved? The
hour comes, and the miracle comes with it. Oh, what an empty wasted life
mine has been for the last ten years! because I could not understand--I
could not see beyond. I might have done so much perhaps, if I could only
have seen my way beyond the contradictions and perplexities of this
lower life. But I could not--I could not; and so I fell back into a
sluggish idleness, 'without a conscience or an aim.' I 'basked and
battened in the woods.'"

The rector lingered in the house even after he had left Roland's
chamber. He would be summoned by-and-by, perhaps, and the dying man
would require some more orthodox consolation than was to be derived from
Mr. Tennyson's verses.

But Roland seemed very happy. There was a brightness upon his face, in
spite of its death-like pallor--a spiritual brightness, unaffected by
any loss of blood, or languor of that slow pulse which the London
physicians felt so often. For some two or three hours after the struggle
in Nessborough Hollow he had lain stunned and unconscious; then he had
slowly awakened to see the stars fading above the branches over his
head, and to hear the early morning breeze creeping with a ghostly
rustling noise amidst the fern. He awoke to feel that something of an
unwonted nature had happened to him, but not for some time to any
distinct remembrance of his encounter with Mr. Sleaford.

He tried to move, but found himself utterly powerless,--a partial
paralysis seemed to have changed his limbs to lead; he could only lie as
he had fallen; dimly conscious of the fading stars above, the faint
summer wind rippling a distant streamlet, and all the vague murmur of
newly-awakened nature. He knew as well as if a whole conclave of
physicians had announced their decision upon his case,--he knew that for
him life was over; and that if there was any vitality in his mind, any
sense of a future in his breast, that sense, so vague and imperfect as
yet, could only relate to something beyond this earth.

Very rambling fancies filled Mr. Lansdell's mind as he lay amongst the
bruised fern, with the wild-rose brambles and blossoms above him. He
knew that his life was done; he knew that for him all interest in this
earth and its creatures had ceased for ever; and a perfect calm came
down upon him. He was like a man who had possessed a great fortune, and
had been perpetually tormented by doubts and perplexities about it, and
who, waking one morning to discover himself a beggar, found a strange
relief in the knowledge that he was penniless. The struggle was all
over. No longer could the tempter whisper in his ear, urging him to
follow this or that wandering exhalation of the world's foul
marsh-lands. No more for him irresolution or perplexity. The problem of
life was solved; a new and unexpected way was opened for him out of the
blank weariness which men call existence. At first, the thought of his
approaching release brought with it no feeling but a sense of release.
It was only afterwards, when the new aspect of things became familiar to
him, that he began to think with remorseful pain of all the empty life
that lay behind him. He seemed to be thinking of this even when Isabel
was with him; for after lying for some time quite silent, in a doze, as
they thought who watched him,--he raised his heavy eyelids, and said to
her,--

"If ever you should find yourself with the means of doing great good, of
being very useful to your fellow-creatures, I should like you to
remember my wasted life, Isabel. You will try to be patient, won't you,
my dear? You will not think, because you are baulked in your first pet
scheme for the regeneration of mankind, that you are free to wash your
hands of the business, and stand aloof shrugging your shoulders at other
people's endeavours. Ten years ago I fancied myself a philanthropist;
but I was like a child who plants an acorn over-night, and expects to
see the tender leaflets of a sapling oak sprouting through the brown
earth next morning. I wanted to do great things all at once. My courage
failed before the battle had well begun. But I want you to be different
from me, my dear. You were wiser than I when you left me that day; when
you left me to my foolish anger, my sinful despair. Our love _was_ too
pure to have survived the stain of treachery and guilt. It would have
perished like some beautiful flame that expires in a tainted atmosphere.
Impure love may flourish in a poisoned habitation; but the true god
sickens and dies if you shut him from the free air of heaven. I know now
that we should not have been happy, Isabel; and I acknowledge the
mysterious wisdom that has saved us. My darling, do not look at me with
those despairing eyes; death will unite us rather than separate us,
Isabel. I should have been farther away from you if I had lived; for I
was tired of my life. I was like a spoilt child, who has possessed all
the toys ever devised by mortal toymaker, and has played with them all,
and grown weary of them, and broken them. Only his nurses know what an
abomination that child is. I might have become a very bad man if I had
lived, Isabel. As it is, I begin to understand what Tennyson means. He
has written the gospel of his age, Isabel. He has told me what I am: 'an
infant crying in the night; an infant crying for the light; and with no
language but a cry.'"

These were the last words that Roland Lansdell ever spoke to the
Doctor's Wife. He fell back into the same half-slumber from which he had
awakened to talk to her; and some one--she scarcely knew who it was--led
her out of the sick chamber, and a little way along the corridor into
another room, where the Venetian shutters were half open, and there was
sunshine and splendour.

Then, as if in a dream, she found herself lying on a bed; a bed that
seemed softer than the billows of the sea, and around which there were
curtains of pale green silk and shadowy muslin, and a faint odour like
incense hovering about everything. As in a dream, Isabel saw Lady
Gwendoline and the nurse bending over her; and then one of them told her
to go to sleep; she must want rest; she had been sorely tried lately.

"You are among friends," the soft patrician voice murmured. "I know that
I wronged you very much, poor child; but I have promised _him_ that I
will be your friend."

The soft curtains fell with a rustling noise between Isabel and the
light, and she knew that she was alone; but still the dream-like feeling
held her senses as in a spell. Does not simple, practical Sir Walter
Scott, writing of the time of his wife's burial, tell us that it was all
like a dream to him; he could not comprehend or lay hold of the dread
reality? And is it any wonder, therefore, if to this romantic girl the
calamity that had so suddenly befallen her seemed like a dream? He was
dying! every one said that it was so; he himself spoke of his death
calmly as a settled thing; and no one gainsayed him. And yet she could
not believe in the cruel truth. Was he not there, talking to her and
advising her? his intellect unclouded as when he had taught her how to
criticise her favourite poets in the bright summer days that were gone.
No, a thousand times no; she would _not_ believe that he was to die.
Like all people who have enjoyed a very close acquaintance with poverty,
she had an exaggerated idea of the power of wealth. Those great
physicians, summoned from Savile Row, and holding solemn conclave in the
library,--they would surely save him; they would fan that feeble flame
back into new life. What was medical science worth, if it was powerless
to save this one sick man? And then the prayers which had seemed cold
and lifeless on her lips when she had supplicated for George Gilbert's
restoration took a new colour, and were as if inspired.

She pushed aside the curtains and got up from the bed where they had
told her to sleep. She went to the door and opened it a little way; but
there was no sound to be heard in the long corridor where the portraits
of dead-and-gone Lansdells--all seeming to her more or less like
him--looked sadly down from the wainscot. A flood of hot sunshine poured
into the room, but she had no definite idea of the hour. She had lost
all count of time since the sudden shock of her husband's death; and she
did not even know the day of the week. She only knew that the world
seemed to have come to an end, and that it was very hard to be left
alone in a deserted universe.

For a long time she knelt by the bedside praying that Roland Lansdell
might live--only that he might live. She would be contented and happy,
she thought, to know that all the world lay between her and him, if she
could only know that he lived. There was no vestige of any selfish
desire in her mind. Childishly, ignorantly, as a child might supplicate
for the life of its mother, did this girl pray for the recovery of
Roland Lansdell. No thought of her new freedom, no foreshadowing of what
might happen if he could be restored to health, disturbed the simple
fervour of her prayers. She only wanted him to live.

The sun sloped westward, and still shone upon that kneeling figure.
Perhaps Isabel had a vague notion that the length of her prayers might
prevail. They were very rambling, unorthodox petitions. It is not every
mourner who can cry, "Thy will be done!" Pitiful and weak and foolish
are some of the lamentations that rise to the Eternal Throne.

At last, when Isabel had been some hours alone and undisturbed in that
sunlit chamber, an eager yearning to see Roland Lansdell once more came
upon her,--to see him, or at least to hear tidings of him; to hear that
a happy change had come about; that he was sleeping peacefully, wrapt in
a placid slumber that gave promise of recovery. Ah, what unspeakable
delight it would be to hear something like this! And sick men had been
spared before to-day.

Her heart thrilled with a sudden rapture of hope. She went to the door
and opened it, and then stood upon the threshold listening. All was
silent as it had been before. No sound of footsteps, no murmur of
voices, penetrated the massive old walls. There was no passing servant
in the corridor whom she could question as to Mr. Lansdell's state. She
waited with faint hope that Lady Gwendoline or the sick-nurse might come
out of Roland's room; but she waited in vain. The western sunlight
shining redly through a lantern in the roof of the corridor illumined
the sombre faces of the dead Lansdells with a factitious glow of life
and colour; pensive faces, darkly earnest faces--all with some look of
the man who was lying in the chamber yonder. The stillness of that long
corridor seemed to freeze Isabel's childish hopes. The flapping of a
linen blind outside the lantern sounded like the fluttering of a sail at
sea; but inside the house there was not so much as a breath or a
whisper.

The stillness and the suspense grew unendurable. The Doctor's Wife moved
away from the door, and crept nearer and nearer the dark oaken door at
the end of the corridor--the ponderous barrier that shut her from Roland
Lansdell. She dared not knock at that door, lest the sound should
disturb _him_. Some one must surely come out into the corridor before
long,--Mr. Raymond, or Lady Gwendoline, or the nurse,--some one who
could give her hope and comfort.

She went towards the door, and suddenly saw that the door of the next
room was ajar. From this room came the low murmur of voices; and Isabel
remembered all at once that she had seen an apartment opening out of
that in which Roland Lansdell lay--a large pleasant-looking chamber,
with a high oaken mantel-piece, above which she had seen the glimmer of
guns and pistols, and a picture of a horse.

She went into this room. It was empty, and the murmur of voices came
from the adjoining chamber. The door between the two rooms was open, and
she heard something more than voices. There was the sound of low
convulsive sobbing; very subdued, but very terrible to hear. She could
not see the sick man, for there was a little group about his bed, a
group of bending figures, that made a screen between her and him. She
saw Lady Gwendoline on her knees at the bottom of the bed, with her face
buried in the silken coverlet, and her arms thrown up above her head;
but in the next moment Charles Raymond saw her, and came to her. He
closed the door softly behind him, and shut out that group of bending
figures. She would have spoken; but he lifted his hand with a solemn
gesture.

"Come away, my dear," he said softly. "Come with me, Isabel."

"Oh, let me see him! let me speak to him! Only once more--only once!"

"Never again, Isabel,--never upon this earth any more! You must think of
him as something infinitely better and brighter than you ever knew him
here. I never saw such a smile upon a human face as I saw just now on
his."

She had no need of any plainer words to tell her he was dead. She felt
the ground reel suddenly beneath her feet, and saw the gradual rising of
a misty darkness that shut out the world, and closed about her like the
silent waters through which a drowning man goes down to death.



CHAPTER THE LAST.

"IF ANY CALM, A CALM DESPAIR."


Lady Gwendoline kept her promise. What promises are so sacred as those
that are made to the dying, and which become solemn engagements binding
us to the dead--the dead whom we have wronged, most likely; for who is
there amongst us who does not do some wrong to the creature he most
tenderly loves? Gwendoline Pomphrey repented her jealous anger against
her cousin; she bitterly lamented those occasions upon which she had
felt a miserable joy in the probing of his wounds. She looked back, now
that the blindness of passion had passed away with the passing of the
dead, and saw herself as she had really been-unchristian, intolerant,
possessed by a jealous anger, which she had hidden under the useful
womanly mask of outraged propriety. It was not Roland's sin that had
stung her proud spirit to the quick: it was her love for the sinner that
had been outraged by his devotion to another woman.

She never knew that she had sent the man she loved to his death.
Inflexible to the last, Roland Lansdell had kept the secret of that
fatal meeting in Nessborough Hollow. The man who had caused his death
was Isabel's father. If Roland had been vindictively disposed towards
his enemy, he would, for her sake, have freely let him go: but no very
vengeful impulse had stirred the failing pulses of his heart. He was
scarcely angry with Jack the Scribe; but rather recognized in what had
occurred the working of a strange fatality, or the execution of a divine
judgment.

"I was ready to defy heaven and earth for the sake of this girl," he
thought. "I fancied it was an easy thing for a man to make his own
scheme of life, and be happy after his own fashion. It was well that I
should be made to understand my position in the universe. Mr. Sleaford
was only a brutal kind of Nemesis waiting for me at the bottom of the
hill. If I had tried to clamber upwards,--if I had buckled on my armour,
and gone away from this castle of indolence, to fight in the ranks of my
fellow-men,--I need never have met the avenger. Let him go, then. He has
only done his appointed work; and I, who made so pitiful a use of my
life, have small ground for complaint against the man who has shortened
it by a year or two."

Thus it was that Mr. Sleaford went his own way. In spite of that
murderous threat uttered by him in the Old Bailey dock, in spite of the
savage violence of his attack upon Roland Lansdell, he had not, perhaps,
meant to kill his enemy. In his own way of expressing it, he had not
meant to go too far. There is a wide gulf between the signing of other
people's names, or the putting an additional y after the word _eight_,
and an unauthorized 0 after the numeral on the face of a cheque--there
is an awful distance between such illegal accomplishments and an act of
deliberate homicide. Mr. Sleaford had only intended to "punish" the
"languid swell" who had borne witness against him; to spoil his beauty
for the time being; and, in short, to give him just cause for
remembering that little amateur-detective business by which he had
beguiled the elegant idleness of his life. Isabel's father had scarcely
intended to do more than this. But when you beat a man about the head
with a loaded bludgeon, it is not so very easy to draw the line of
demarcation between an assault and a murder; and Mr. Sleaford did go a
little too far: as he learned a few days afterwards, when he read in the
"Times" supplement an intimation of the sudden death of Roland Lansdell,
Esq., of Mordred Priory, Midlandshire.

The strong man, reading this announcement in the parlour of a low
public-house in one of the most obscure purlieus of Lambeth, felt an icy
sensation of fear that he had never experienced before amidst all the
little difficulties attendant upon the forging of negotiable autographs.
This was something more than he had bargained for. _This_ Midlandshire
business was murder, or something so nearly resembling that last and
worst of crimes, that a stupid jury might fail to recognize the
distinction. Jack the Scribe, armed with Roland Lansdell's fifty pounds,
had already organized a plan of operations which was likely to result in
a very comfortable little income, without involving anything so
disagreeable to the feelings of a gentleman as the illegal use of other
people's names. It was to the science of money-lending that Mr. Sleaford
had turned his attention; and during the enforced retirement of the last
few years he had woven for himself a very neat little system, by which a
great deal of interest, in the shape of inquiry-fees and preliminary
postage-stamps, could be extorted out of simple-minded borrowers without
any expenditure in the way of principal on the part of the lender. With
a view to the worthy carrying out of this little scheme, Mr. Sleaford
had made an appointment with one of his old associates, who appeared to
him a likely person to act as clerk or underling, and to double that
character with the more dignified _rôle_ of solicitor to the MUTUAL AND
CO-OPERATIVE FRIEND-IN-NEED AND FRIEND-IN-DEED SOCIETY; but after
reading that dismal paragraph respecting Mr. Lansdell in the supplement
of the "Times," Jack the Scribe's ideas underwent a considerable change.
It might be that this big pleasant metropolis, in which there is always
such a nice little crop of dupes and simpletons ready to fall prone
beneath the sickle of the judicious husbandman, would become, in vulgar
parlance, a little too hot to hold Mr. Sleaford. The contemplation of
this unpleasant possibility led that gentleman's thoughts away to fairer
and more distant scenes. He had a capital of fifty pounds in his pocket.
With such a sum for his fulcrum, Jack the Scribe felt himself capable of
astonishing--not to say uprooting--the universe; and if an indiscreet
use of his bludgeon had rendered it unadvisable for him to remain in his
native land, there were plenty of opportunities in the United States of
America for a man of his genius. In America--on the "other side," as he
had heard his Transatlantic friends designate their country--he might
find an appropriate platform for the MUTUAL AND CO-OPERATIVE
FRIEND-IN-NEED AND FRIEND-IN-DEED SOCIETY. The genus dupe is
cosmopolitan, and the Transatlantic Arcadian would be just as ready with
his postage-stamps as the confiding denizen of Bermondsey or Camden
Town. Already in his mind's eye Mr. Sleaford beheld a flaming
advertisement of his grand scheme slanting across the back page of a
daily newspaper. Already he imagined himself thriving on the simplicity
of the New Yorkers; and departing, enriched and rejoicing, from that
delightful city just as the Arcadians were beginning to be a little
impatient about the conclusion of operations, and a little backward in
the production of postage-stamps.

Having once decided upon the advisability of an early departure from
England, Mr. Sleaford lost no time in putting his plans into operation.
He strolled out in the dusk of the evening, and made his way to some
dingy lanes and waterside alleys in the neighbourhood of London Bridge.
Here he obtained all information about speedily-departing steam-vessels
bound for New York; and early the following morning, burdened only with
a carpet-bag and the smallest of portmanteaus, Jack the Scribe left
Euston Square on his way to Liverpool, whence he departed, this time
unhindered and unobserved, in the steam-vessel _Washington_ bound for
New York. And here he drops out of my story, as the avenging goddess
might disappear from a classic stage when her work was done. For him too
a Nemesis waits, lurking darkly in some hidden turning of the sinuous
way along which a scoundrel walks.

       *       *       *       *       *

"If any calm, a calm despair." Such a calm fell at last upon Isabel
Gilbert; but it was slow to come. For a long time it seemed to her as if
a dreadful darkness obscured all the world; a darkness in which she
groped blindly for a grave, where she might lie down and die. Was not
_he_ dead? What was there left in all the universe now that he was gone?

Happily for the sufferer there is attendant upon all great mental
anguish a kind of numbness, a stupefaction of the senses, which in some
manner deadens the sharpness of the torture. For a long time Isabel
could not think of what had happened within the last few troubled weeks.
She could only sit hopeless and tearless in the little parlour at
Graybridge while the funeral preparations went quietly on about her, and
while Mrs. Jeffson and the young woman, who went on to work at
eighteenpence a day, came in every now and then to arouse her from her
dull stupor for the trying-on of mourning garments which smelt of dye
and size, and left black marks upon her neck and arms. She heard the
horrible snipping of crape and bombazine going on all day, like the
monotonous accompaniment of a nightmare; and sometimes when the door had
been left ajar, she heard people talking in the opposite room. She heard
them talking in stealthy murmurs of the two funerals which were to take
place on successive days--one at Graybridge, one at Mordred. She heard
them speculate respecting Mr. Lansdell's disposal of his wealth; she
heard the name, the dear romantic name, that was to be nothing
henceforward but an empty sound, bandied from lip to lip; and all this
pain was only some portion of the hideous dream which bound her night
and day.

People were very kind to her. Even Graybridge took pity upon her youth
and desolation; though every pang of her foolish heart was the subject
of tea-table speculation. But the accomplished slanderer is not always a
malevolently disposed person. He is only like the wit, who loves his
jest better than his friend; but who will yet do his friend good service
in the day of need. The Misses Pawlkatt, and many other young ladies of
standing in Graybridge, wrote Isabel pretty little notes of condolence,
interlarded with quotations from Scripture, and offered to go and "sit
with her." To "sit with her;" to beguile with their frivolous stereotype
chatter the anguish of this poor stupefied creature, for whom all the
universe seemed obscured by one impenetrable cloud.

It was on the second day after the surgeon's funeral, the day following
that infinitely more stately ceremonial at Mordred church, that Mr.
Raymond came to see Isabel. He had been with her several times during
the last few days; but he had found all attempts at consolation utterly
in vain, and he, who had so carefully studied human nature, knew that it
was wisest and kindest to let her alone. But on this occasion he came on
a business errand; and he was accompanied by a grave-looking person,
whom he introduced to Isabel as the late Mr. Lansdell's solicitor.

"I have come to bring you strange news, Mrs. Gilbert," he said--"news
that cannot fail to be very startling to you."

She looked up at Charles Raymond with a sad smile, whose meaning he was
not slow to interpret. It said so plainly, "Do you think anything that
can happen henceforward upon this earth could ever seem strange to me?"

"When you were with--him--on the last day of his life, Isabel," Mr.
Raymond continued, "he talked to you very seriously. He changed--changed
wonderfully with the near approach of death. It seemed as if the last
ten years had been blotted away, and he was a young man again, just
entering life, full of noble yearnings and aspirations. I pray God those
ten idle years may never be counted against him. He spoke to you very
earnestly, my dear; and he urged you, if ever great opportunities were
given you, which they might be, to use them faithfully for his sake. I
heard him say this, and was at a loss to understand his full meaning. I
comprehend it perfectly now."

He paused; but Isabel did not even look up at him. The tears were slowly
pouring down her colourless cheeks. She was thinking of that last day at
Mordred; and Roland's tenderly-earnest voice seemed still sounding in
her ears.

"Isabel, a great charge has been entrusted to you. Mr. Lansdell has left
you the bulk of his fortune."

It is certain that Mr. Raymond expected some cry of surprise, some token
of astonishment, to follow this announcement; but Isabel's tears only
flowed a little faster, and her head sank forward on the sofa-cushion by
her side.

"Had you any idea that Roland intended to leave his money in this
manner?"

"Oh, no, no! I don't want the money; I can do nothing with it. Oh, give
it to some hospital, please: and let the hospital be called by his name.
It was cruel of him to think that I should care for money when he was
dead."

"I have reason to believe that this will was made under very peculiar
circumstances," Mr. Raymond said presently; "when Roland was labouring
under a delusion about you--a delusion which you yourself afterwards
dispelled. Mr. Lansdell's solicitor fully understands this; Lord
Ruysdale and his daughter also understand it; and no possible discredit
can attach to you from the inheritance of this fortune. Had Roland
lived, he might very possibly have made some alteration and
modifications of this will. As it stands, it is as good a will as any
ever proved at Doctors' Commons. You are a very rich woman, Isabel. Lady
Gwendoline, her father, and myself are all legatees to a considerable
amount; but Mordred Priory and the bulk of the Lansdell property are
left to you."

And then Mr. Raymond went on to explain the nature of the will, which
left everything to himself and Mr. Meredith (the London solicitor) as
trustees, for the separate use and maintenance of Isabel Gilbert, and a
great deal more, which had no significance for the dull indifferent ears
of the mourner. There had been a time when Mrs. Gilbert would have
thought it a grand thing to be rich, and would have immediately imagined
a life spent in ruby velvet and diamonds; but that time was past. The
blessings we sigh for are very apt to come to us too late; like that
pension the tidings of which came to the poet as he lay upon his
deathbed.

Mordred Priory became the property of Isabel Gilbert; and for a time all
that Shakespearian region of Midlandshire had enough to employ them in
the discussion of Mr. Lansdell's will. But even the voice of slander was
hushed when Mrs. Gilbert left England in the company of Lord Ruysdale
and his daughter for a lengthened sojourn on the Continent. I quote here
from the "Wareham Gazette," which found Isabel's proceedings worthy of
record since her inheritance of Mr. Lansdell's property.

Lady Gwendoline had promised to be the friend of Isabel; and she kept
her word. There was no bitterness in her heart now; and perhaps she
liked George Gilbert's widow all the better on account of that foolish
wasted love that made a kind of link between them.

Lord Ruysdale's daughter was not the sort of woman to feel any base envy
of Mrs. Gilbert's fortune. The Earl had been very slow to understand the
motives of his kinsman's will; but as he and his daughter received a
legacy of ten thousand pounds apiece, to say nothing of sundry
Cromwellian tankards, old-fashioned brooches and bracelets in
rose-diamonds, a famous pearl necklace that had belonged to Lady Anna
Lansdell, a Murillo and a Rembrandt, and nineteen dozen of Madeira that
connoisseurs considered unique, Lord Ruysdale could scarcely esteem
himself ill-treated by his late nephew.

So Mrs. Gilbert was permitted to possess her new wealth in peace,
protected from any scandal by the Ruysdale influence. She was permitted
to be at peace; and she went away with Lady Gwendoline and the Earl to
those fair foreign lands for which she had pined in the weedy garden at
Camberwell. Even during the first bitterness of her sorrow she was not
utterly selfish. She sent money to Mrs. Sleaford and the boys--money
which seemed enormous wealth to them; and she instructed her solicitor
to send them quarterly instalments of an income which would enable her
half-brothers to receive a liberal education.

"I have had a great sorrow," she wrote to her step-mother, "and I am
going away with people who are very kind to me; not to forget--I would
not for the world find forgetfulness, if such a thing was to be found;
only that I may learn to bear my sorrow and to be good. When I come
back, I shall be glad to see you and my brothers."

She wrote this, and a good deal more that was kind and dutiful, to poor
Mrs. Sleaford, who had changed that tainted name to Singleton, in the
peaceful retirement of Jersey; and then she went away, and was taken to
many beautiful cities, over all of which there seemed to hang a kind of
mist that shut out the sunshine. It was only when Roland Lansdell had
been dead more than two years, that she began to understand that no
grief, however bitter, can entirely obscure the beauty of the universe.
She began to feel that there is something left in life even when a first
romantic love is nothing but a memory; a peace which is so nearly akin
to happiness, that we scarcely regret the flight of the brighter spirit;
a calm which lies beyond the regions of despair, and which is unruffled
by those vague fears, those shadowy forebodings, that are apt to trouble
the joyful heart.

And now it seems to me that I have little more to do with Isabel
Gilbert. She passes away from me into a higher region than that in which
my story has lain,--useful, serene, almost happy, but very constant to
the memory of sorrow,--she is altogether different from the foolish wife
who neglected all a wife's duties while she sat by the mill-stream at
Thurston's Crag reading the "Revolt of Islam." There is a great gulf
between a girl of nineteen and a woman of five-and twenty; and Isabel's
foolish youth is separated from her wiser womanhood by a barrier that is
formed by two graves. Is it strange, then, that the chastening influence
of sorrow has transformed a sentimental girl into a good and noble
woman--a woman in whom sentiment takes the higher form of universal
sympathy and tenderness? She has faithfully employed the trust confided
to her. The money bequeathed to her by the ardent lover, who fancied
that he had won the woman of his choice, and that his sole duty was to
protect her from worldly loss or trouble,--the fortune bequeathed under
such strange circumstances has become a sacred trust, to be accounted
for to the dead. Only the mourner knows the exquisite happiness involved
in any act performed for the sake of the lost. Our Protestant creed,
which will not permit us to pray for our dead, cannot forbid the
consecration of our good works to those departed and beloved creatures.

Charles Raymond has transferred to Isabel something of that affection
which he felt for Roland Lansdell; and he and the orphans, grown into
estimable young persons of sixteen and seventeen, spend a great deal of
their time at Mordred Priory. The agricultural labourer, who had known
the Doctor's Wife only as a pale-faced girlish creature, sitting under
the shelter of a hedgerow, with a green parasol above her head, and a
book in her lap, has good reason to bless the Doctor's Widow; for model
cottages have arisen in many a pleasant corner of the estate which was
once Roland Lansdell's--pretty Elizabethan cottages, with peaked gables
and dormer windows. Allotment gardens have spread themselves here and
there on pleasant slopes; and coming suddenly upon some woody hollow,
you find yourself face to face with the Tudor windows of a schoolhouse,
a substantial modern building, set in an old-world garden, where there
are great gnarled pear-trees, and a cluster of beehives in a bowery
corner, sheltered by bushes of elder and hazel.

Sigismund Smith appears sometimes at Mordred Priory, always accompanied
by a bloated and dilapidated leathern writing-case, unnaturally
distended by stuff which he calls "copy," and other stuff which he
speaks of as "proofs."

Telegrams from infuriated proprietors of penny journals pursue him in
his calm retreat, and a lively gentleman in a white hat has been known
to arrive per express-train, vaguely declaring his intention of
"standing over" Mr. Smith during the production of an urgently-required
chapter of "The Bride of the Bosphorus; or, the Fourteen Corpses of the
Caspian Sea."

He is very happy and very inky; and the rustic wanderers who meet a
pale-faced and mild-looking gentleman loitering in the green lanes about
Mordred, with his hat upon the back of his head, and his insipid blue
eyes fixed on vacancy, would be slow to perceive in him the deliberate
contriver of one of the most atrocious and cold-blooded schemes of
vengeance that ever outraged the common dictates of human nature and
adorned the richly-illustrated pages of a penny periodical. Amongst the
wild roses and new-mown hay of Midlandshire, Mr. Smith finds it sweet to
lie at ease, weaving the dark webs of crime which he subsequently works
out upon paper in the dingy loneliness of his Temple chambers. He is
still a bachelor, and complains that he is not the kind of man to fall
in love, as he is compelled to avail himself of the noses and eyes, ruby
lips, and golden or raven tresses--there are no other hues in Mr.
Smith's vocabulary--of every eligible young lady he meets, for the
decking out of his numerous heroines. "Miss Binks?" he will perhaps
remark, when a lady's name is mentioned to him; "oh yes: _she's_ Bella
the Ballet Girl (one of Bickers's touch-and-go romances; the first five
numbers, and a magnificent engraving of one of Landseer's best pictures,
for a penny); I finished her off last week. She poisoned herself with
insect-powder in a garret near Drury Lane, after setting fire to the
house and grounds of her destroyer. She ran through a hundred and
thirteen numbers, and Bickers has some idea of getting me to write a
sequel. You see there _might_ be an antidote to the insect-powder, or
the oilman's shop-boy might have given Bella patent mustard in mistake."

But it has been observed of late that Mr. Smith pays very special
attention to the elder of the two orphans, whom he declares to be too
good for penny numbers, and a charming subject for three volumes of the
quiet and domestic school, and he has consulted Mr. Raymond respecting
the investment of his deposit-account, which is supposed to be something
considerable; for a gentleman who lives chiefly upon bread-and marmalade
and weak tea may amass a very comfortable little independence from the
cultivation of sensational literature in penny numbers.





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