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´╗┐Title: John Halifax, Gentleman
Author: Craik, Dinah Maria Mulock, 1826-1887
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JOHN HALIFAX, GENTLEMAN


by

Dinah Maria Mulock (Mrs. Craik)



CHAPTER I

"Get out o' Mr. Fletcher's road, ye idle, lounging, little--"

"Vagabond," I think the woman (Sally Watkins, once my nurse), was going
to say, but she changed her mind.

My father and I both glanced round, surprised at her unusual reticence
of epithets:  but when the lad addressed turned, fixed his eyes on each
of us for a moment, and made way for us, we ceased to wonder.  Ragged,
muddy, and miserable as he was, the poor boy looked anything but a
"vagabond."

"Thee need not go into the wet, my lad.  Keep close to the wall, and
there will be shelter enough both for us and thee," said my father, as
he pulled my little hand-carriage into the alley, under cover, from the
pelting rain.  The lad, with a grateful look, put out a hand likewise,
and pushed me further in.  A strong hand it was--roughened and browned
with labour--though he was scarcely as old as I.  What would I not have
given to have been so stalwart and so tall!

Sally called from her house-door, "Wouldn't Master Phineas come in and
sit by the fire a bit?"--But it was always a trouble to me to move or
walk; and I liked staying at the mouth of the alley, watching the
autumnal shower come sweeping down the street:  besides, I wanted to
look again at the stranger-lad.

He had scarcely stirred, but remained leaning against the wall--either
through weariness, or in order to be out of our way.  He took little or
no notice of us, but kept his eyes fixed on the pavement--for we
actually boasted pavement in the High Street of our town of Norton
Bury--watching the eddying rain-drops, which, each as it fell, threw up
a little mist of spray.  It was a serious, haggard face for a boy of
only fourteen or so.  Let me call it up before me--I can, easily, even
after more than fifty years.

Brown eyes, deep-sunken, with strongly-marked brows, a nose like most
other Saxon noses, nothing particular; lips well-shaped, lying one upon
the other, firm and close; a square, sharply outlined, resolute chin,
of that type which gives character and determination to the whole
physiognomy, and without which in the fairest features, as in the best
dispositions, one is always conscious of a certain want.

As I have stated, in person the lad was tall and strongly-built; and I,
poor puny wretch! so reverenced physical strength.  Everything in him
seemed to indicate that which I had not:  his muscular limbs, his
square, broad shoulders, his healthy cheek, though it was sharp and
thin--even to his crisp curls of bright thick hair.

Thus he stood, principal figure in a picture which is even yet as clear
to me as yesterday--the narrow, dirty alley leading out of the High
Street, yet showing a glimmer of green field at the further end; the
open house-doors on either side, through which came the drowsy burr of
many a stocking-loom, the prattle of children paddling in the gutter,
and sailing thereon a fleet of potato parings.  In front the High
Street, with the mayor's house opposite, porticoed and grand: and
beyond, just where the rain-clouds were breaking, rose up out of a nest
of trees, the square tower of our ancient abbey--Norton Bury's boast
and pride.  On it, from a break in the clouds, came a sudden stream of
light.  The stranger-lad lifted up his head to look at it.

"The rain will be over soon," I said, but doubted if he heard me. What
could he be thinking of so intently?--a poor working lad, whom few
would have given credit for thinking at all.

I do not suppose my father cast a second glance or thought on the boy,
whom, from a sense of common justice, he had made take shelter beside
us.  In truth, worthy man, he had no lack of matter to occupy his mind,
being sole architect of a long up-hill but now thriving trade.  I saw,
by the hardening of his features, and the restless way in which he
poked his stick into the little water-pools, that he was longing to be
in his tan-yard close by.

He pulled out his great silver watch--the dread of our house, for it
was a watch which seemed to imbibe something of its master's character;
remorseless as justice or fate, it never erred a moment.

"Twenty-three minutes lost by this shower.  Phineas, my son, how am I
to get thee safe home? unless thee wilt go with me to the tan-yard--"

I shook my head.  It was very hard for Abel Fletcher to have for his
only child such a sickly creature as I, now, at sixteen, as helpless
and useless to him as a baby.

"Well, well, I must find some one to go home with thee."  For though my
father had got me a sort of carriage in which, with a little external
aid, I could propel myself, so as to be his companion occasionally in
his walks between our house, the tanyard, and the Friends'
meeting-house--still he never trusted me anywhere alone. "Here,
Sally--Sally Watkins! do any o' thy lads want to earn an honest penny?"

Sally was out of earshot; but I noticed that as the lad near us heard
my father's words, the colour rushed over his face, and he started
forward involuntarily.  I had not before perceived how wasted and
hungry-looking he was.

"Father!" I whispered.  But here the boy had mustered up his courage
and voice.

"Sir, I want work; may I earn a penny?"

He spoke in tolerably good English--different from our coarse, broad,
G----shire drawl; and taking off his tattered old cap, looked right up
into my father's face, The old man scanned him closely.

"What is thy name, lad?"

"John Halifax."

"Where dost thee come from?"

"Cornwall."

"Hast thee any parents living?"

"No."

I wished my father would not question thus; but possibly he had his own
motives, which were rarely harsh, though his actions often appeared so.

"How old might thee be, John Halifax?"

"Fourteen, sir."

"Thee art used to work?"

"Yes."

"What sort of work?"

"Anything that I can get to do."

I listened nervously to this catechism, which went on behind my back.

"Well," said my father, after a pause, "thee shall take my son home,
and I'll give thee a groat.  Let me see; art thee a lad to be trusted?"
And holding him at arm's length, regarding him meanwhile with eyes that
were the terror of all the rogues in Norton Bury, Abel Fletcher jingled
temptingly the silver money in the pockets of his long-flapped brown
waistcoat.  "I say, art thee a lad to be trusted?"

John Halifax neither answered nor declined his eyes.  He seemed to feel
that this was a critical moment, and to have gathered all his mental
forces into a serried square, to meet the attack.  He met it, and
conquered in silence.

"Lad, shall I give thee the groat now?"

"Not till I've earned it, sir."

So, drawing his hand back, my father slipped the money into mine, and
left us.

I followed him with my eyes, as he went sturdily plashing down the
street; his broad, comfortable back, which owned a coat of true Quaker
cut, but spotless, warm, and fine; his ribbed hose and leathern
gaiters, and the wide-brimmed hat set over a fringe of grey hairs, that
crowned the whole with respectable dignity.  He looked precisely what
he was--an honest, honourable, prosperous tradesman. I watched him down
the street--my good father, whom I respected perhaps even more than I
loved him.  The Cornish lad watched him likewise.

It still rained slightly, so we remained under cover.  John Halifax
leaned in his old place, and did not attempt to talk.  Once only, when
the draught through the alley made me shiver, he pulled my cloak round
me carefully.

"You are not very strong, I'm afraid?"

"No."

Then he stood idly looking up at the opposite--the mayor's--house, with
its steps and portico, and its fourteen windows, one of which was open,
and a cluster of little heads visible there.

The mayor's children--I knew them all by sight, though nothing more;
for their father was a lawyer, and mine a tanner; they belonged to
Abbey folk and orthodoxy, I to the Society of Friends--the mayor's rosy
children seemed greatly amused by watching us shivering shelterers from
the rain.  Doubtless our position made their own appear all the
pleasanter.  For myself it mattered little; but for this poor,
desolate, homeless, wayfaring lad to stand in sight of their merry
nursery window, and hear the clatter of voices, and of not unwelcome
dinner-sounds--I wondered how he felt it.

Just at this minute another head came to the window, a somewhat older
child; I had met her with the rest; she was only a visitor.  She looked
at us, then disappeared.  Soon after, we saw the front door half
opened, and an evident struggle taking place behind it;  we even heard
loud words across the narrow street.

"I will--I say I will."

"You shan't, Miss Ursula."

"But I will!"

And there stood the little girl, with a loaf in one hand and a
carving-knife in the other.  She succeeded in cutting off a large
slice, and holding it out.

"Take it, poor boy!--you look so hungry.  Do take it."  But the servant
forced her in, and the door was shut upon a sharp cry.

It made John Halifax start, and look up at the nursery window, which
was likewise closed.  We heard nothing more.  After a minute he crossed
the street, and picked up the slice of bread.  Now in those days bread
was precious, exceedingly.  The poor folk rarely got it; they lived on
rye or meal.  John Halifax had probably not tasted wheaten bread like
this for months:  it appeared not, he eyed it so ravenously;--then,
glancing towards the shut door, his mind seemed to change.  He was a
long time before he ate a morsel; when he did so, it was quietly and
slowly; looking very thoughtful all the while.

As soon as the rain ceased, we took our way home, down the High Street,
towards the Abbey church--he guiding my carriage along in silence.  I
wished he would talk, and let me hear again his pleasant Cornish accent.

"How strong you are!" said I, sighing, when, with a sudden pull, he had
saved me from being overturned by a horseman riding past--young Mr.
Brithwood of the Mythe House, who never cared where he galloped or whom
he hurt--"So tall and so strong."

"Am I?  Well, I shall want my strength."

"How?"

"To earn my living."

He drew up his broad shoulders, and planted on the pavement a firmer
foot, as if he knew he had the world before him--would meet it
single-handed, and without fear.

"What have you worked at lately?"

"Anything I could get, for I have never learned a trade."

"Would you like to learn one?"

He hesitated a minute, as if weighing his speech.  "Once I thought I
should like to be what my father was."

"What was he?"

"A scholar and a gentleman."

This was news, though it did not much surprise me.  My father, tanner
as he was, and pertinaciously jealous of the dignity of trade, yet held
strongly the common-sense doctrine of the advantages of good descent;
at least, in degree.  For since it is a law of nature, admitting only
rare exceptions, that the qualities of the ancestors should be
transmitted to the race--the fact seems patent enough, that even
allowing equal advantages, a gentleman's son has more chances of
growing up a gentleman than the son of a working man.  And though he
himself, and his father before him, had both been working men, still, I
think, Abel Fletcher never forgot that we originally came of a good
stock, and that it pleased him to call me, his only son, after one of
our forefathers, not unknown--Phineas Fletcher, who wrote the "Purple
Island."

Thus it seemed to me, and I doubted not it would to my father, much
more reasonable and natural that a boy like John Halifax--in whom from
every word he said I detected a mind and breeding above his outward
condition--should come of gentle than of boorish blood.

"Then, perhaps," I said, resuming the conversation, "you would not like
to follow a trade?"

"Yes, I should.  What would it matter to me?  My father was a
gentleman."

"And your mother?"

And he turned suddenly round; his cheeks hot, his lips quivering: "She
is dead.  I do not like to hear strangers speak about my mother."

I asked his pardon.  It was plain he had loved and mourned her; and
that circumstances had smothered down his quick boyish feelings into a
man's tenacity of betraying where he had loved and mourned.  I, only a
few minutes after, said something about wishing we were not "strangers."

"Do you?"  The lad's half amazed, half-grateful smile went right to my
heart.

"Have you been up and down the country much?"

"A great deal--these last three years; doing a hand's turn as best I
could, in hop-picking, apple-gathering, harvesting; only this summer I
had typhus fever, and could not work."

"What did you do then?"

"I lay in a barn till I got well--I'm quite well now; you need not be
afraid."

"No, indeed; I had never thought of that."

We soon became quite sociable together.  He guided me carefully out of
the town into the Abbey walk, flecked with sunshine through overhanging
trees.  Once he stopped to pick up for me the large brown fan of a
horse-chestnut leaf.

"It's pretty, isn't it?--only it shows that autumn is come."

"And how shall you live in the winter, when there is no out-of-door
work to be had?"

"I don't know."

The lad's countenance fell, and that hungry, weary look, which had
vanished while we talked, returned more painfully than ever.  I
reproached myself for having, under the influence of his merry talk,
temporarily forgotten it.

"Ah!" I cried eagerly, when we left the shade of the Abbey trees, and
crossed the street; "here we are, at home!"

"Are you?"  The homeless lad just glanced at it--the flight of spotless
stone-steps, guarded by ponderous railings, which led to my father's
respectable and handsome door.  "Good day, then--which means good-bye."

I started.  The word pained me.  On my sad, lonely life--brief indeed,
though ill health seemed to have doubled and trebled my sixteen years
into a mournful maturity--this lad's face had come like a flash of
sunshine; a reflection of the merry boyhood, the youth and strength
that never were, never could be, mine.  To let it go from me was like
going back into the dark.

"Not good-bye just yet!" said I, trying painfully to disengage myself
from my little carriage and mount the steps.  John Halifax came to my
aid.

"Suppose you let me carry you.  I could--and--and it would be great
fun, you know."

He tried to turn it into a jest, so as not to hurt me; but the tremble
in his voice was as tender as any woman's--tenderer than any woman's
_I_ ever was used to hear.  I put my arms round his neck; he lifted me
safely and carefully, and set me at my own door.  Then with another
good-bye he again turned to go.

My heart cried after him with an irrepressible cry.  What I said I do
not remember, but it caused him to return.

"Is there anything more I can do for you, sir?"

"Don't call me 'sir'; I am only a boy like yourself.  I want you; don't
go yet.  Ah! here comes my father!"

John Halifax stood aside, and touched his cap with a respectful
deference, as the old man passed.

"So here thee be--hast thou taken care of my son?  Did he give thee thy
groat, my lad?"

We had neither of us once thought of the money.

When I acknowledged this my father laughed, called John an honest lad,
and began searching in his pocket for some larger coin.  I ventured to
draw his ear down and whispered something--but I got no answer;
meanwhile, John Halifax for the third time was going away.

"Stop, lad--I forget thy name--here is thy groat, and a shilling added,
for being kind to my son."

"Thank you, but I don't want payment for kindness."

He kept the groat, and put back the shilling into my father's hand.

"Eh!" said the old man, much astonished, "thee'rt an odd lad; but I
can't stay talking with thee.  Come in to dinner, Phineas.  I say,"
turning back to John Halifax with a sudden thought, "art thee hungry?"

"Very hungry."  Nature gave way at last, and great tears came into the
poor lad's eyes.  "Nearly starving."

"Bless me! then get in, and have thy dinner.  But first--" and my
inexorable father held him by the shoulder; "thee art a decent lad,
come of decent parents?"

"Yes," almost indignantly.

"Thee works for thy living?"

"I do, whenever I can get it."

"Thee hast never been in gaol?"

"No!" thundered out the lad, with a furious look.  "I don't want your
dinner, sir; I would have stayed, because your son asked me, and he was
civil to me, and I liked him.  Now I think I had better go.  Good day,
sir."

There is a verse in a very old Book--even in its human histories the
most pathetic of all books--which runs thus:

"And it came to pass when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul,
that the soul of Jonathan was knit unto the soul of David; and Jonathan
loved him as his own soul."

And this day, I, a poorer and more helpless Jonathan, had found my
David.

I caught him by the hand, and would not let him go.

"There, get in, lads--make no more ado," said Abel Fletcher, sharply,
as he disappeared.

So, still holding my David fast, I brought him into my father's house.



CHAPTER II

Dinner was over; my father and I took ours in the large parlour, where
the stiff, high-backed chairs eyed one another in opposite rows across
the wide oaken floor, shiny and hard as marble, and slippery as glass.
Except the table, the sideboard and the cuckoo clock, there was no
other furniture.

I dared not bring the poor wandering lad into this, my father's
especial domain; but as soon as he was away in the tan-yard I sent for
John.

Jael brought him in; Jael, the only womankind we ever had about us, and
who, save to me when I happened to be very ill, certainly gave no
indication of her sex in its softness and tenderness.  There had
evidently been wrath in the kitchen.

"Phineas, the lad ha' got his dinner, and you mustn't keep 'un long. I
bean't going to let you knock yourself up with looking after a
beggar-boy."

A beggar-boy!  The idea seemed so ludicrous, that I could not help
smiling at it as I regarded him.  He had washed his face and combed out
his fair curls; though his clothes were threadbare, all but ragged,
they were not unclean; and there was a rosy, healthy freshness in his
tanned skin, which showed he loved and delighted in what poor folk
generally abominate--water.  And now the sickness of hunger had gone
from his face, the lad, if not actually what our scriptural Saxon terms
"well-favoured," was certainly "well-liking." A beggar-boy, indeed!  I
hoped he had not heard Jael's remark.  But he had.

"Madam," said he, with a bow of perfect good-humour, and even some sly
drollery, "you mistake:  I never begged in my life:  I'm a person of
independent property, which consists of my head and my two hands, out
of which I hope to realise a large capital some day."

I laughed.  Jael retired, abundantly mystified, and rather cross. John
Halifax came to my easy chair, and in an altered tone asked me how I
felt, and if he could do anything for me before he went away.

"You'll not go away; not till my father comes home, at least?"  For I
had been revolving many plans, which had one sole aim and object, to
keep near me this lad, whose companionship and help seemed to me,
brotherless, sisterless, and friendless as I was, the very thing that
would give me an interest in life, or, at least, make it drag on less
wearily.  To say that what I projected was done out of charity or pity
would not be true; it was simple selfishness, if that be selfishness
which makes one leap towards, and cling to, a possible strength and
good, which I conclude to be the secret of all those sudden likings
that spring more from instinct than reason.  I do not attempt to
account for mine:  I know not why "the soul of Jonathan clave to the
soul of David."  I only know that it was so, and that the first day I
beheld the lad John Halifax, I, Phineas Fletcher, "loved him as my own
soul."

Thus, my entreaty, "You'll not go away?" was so earnest, that it
apparently touched the friendless boy to the core.

"Thank you," he said, in an unsteady voice, as leaning against the
fire-place he drew his hand backwards and forwards across his face:
"you are very kind; I'll stay an hour or so, if you wish it."

"Then come and sit down here, and let us have a talk."

What this talk was, I cannot now recall, save that it ranged over many
and wide themes, such as boys delight in--chiefly of life and
adventure.  He knew nothing of my only world--books.

"Can you read?" he asked me at last, suddenly.

"I should rather think so."  And I could not help smiling, being
somewhat proud of my erudition.

"And write?"

"Oh, yes; certainly."

He thought a minute, and then said, in a low tone, "I can't write, and
I don't know when I shall be able to learn; I wish you would put down
something in a book for me."

"That I will."

He took out of his pocket a little case of leather, with an under one
of black silk; within this, again, was a book.  He would not let it go
out of his hands, but held it so that I could see the leaves.  It was a
Greek Testament.

"Look here."

He pointed to the fly-leaf, and I read:

"Guy Halifax, his Book.

"Guy Halifax, gentleman, married Muriel Joyce, spinster, May 17, in the
year of our Lord 1779.

"John Halifax, their son, born June 18, 1780."

There was one more entry, in a feeble, illiterate female hand:  "Guy
Halifax, died January 4, 1781."

"What shall I write, John?" said I, after a minute or so of silence.

"I'll tell you presently.  Can I get you a pen?"

He leaned on my shoulder with his left hand, but his right never once
let go of the precious book.

"Write--'Muriel Halifax, died January 1, 1791.'"

"Nothing more?"

"Nothing more."

He looked at the writing for a minute or two, dried it carefully by the
fire, replaced the book in its two cases, and put it into his pocket.
He said no other word but "Thank you," and I asked him no questions.

This was all I ever heard of the boy's parentage:  nor do I believe he
knew more himself.  He was indebted to no forefathers for a family
history:  the chronicle commenced with himself, and was altogether his
own making.  No romantic antecedents ever turned up:  his lineage
remained uninvestigated, and his pedigree began and ended with his own
honest name--John Halifax.

Jael kept coming in and out of the parlour on divers excuses, eyeing
very suspiciously John Halifax and me; especially when she heard me
laughing--a rare and notable fact--for mirth was not the fashion in our
house, nor the tendency of my own nature.  Now this young lad, hardly
as the world had knocked him about even already, had an overflowing
spirit of quiet drollery and healthy humour, which was to me an
inexpressible relief.  It gave me something I did not
possess--something entirely new.  I could not look at the dancing brown
eyes, at the quaint dimples of lurking fun that played hide-and-seek
under the firm-set mouth, without feeling my heart cheered and
delighted, like one brought out of a murky chamber into the open day.

But all this was highly objectionable to Jael.

"Phineas!"--and she planted herself before me at the end of the
table--"it's a fine, sunshiny day:  thee ought to be out."

"I have been out, thank you, Jael."  And John and I went on talking.

"Phineas!"--a second and more determined attack--"too much laughing
bean't good for thee; and it's time this lad were going about his own
business."

"Hush!--nonsense, Jael."

"No--she's right," said John Halifax, rising, while that look of
premature gravity, learned doubtless out of hard experience, chased all
the boyish fun from his face.  "I've had a merry day--thank you kindly
for it! and now I'll be gone."

Gone!  It was not to be thought of--at least, not till my father came
home.  For now, more determinedly than ever, the plan which I had just
ventured to hint at to my father fixed itself on my mind. Surely he
would not refuse me--me, his sickly boy, whose life had in it so little
pleasure.

"Why do you want to go?  You have no work?"

"No; I wish I had.  But I'll get some."

"How?"

"Just by trying everything that comes to hand.  That's the only way. I
never wanted bread, nor begged it, yet--though I've often been rather
hungry.  And as for clothes"--he looked down on his own, light and
threadbare, here and there almost burst into holes by the stout muscles
of the big growing boy--looked rather disconsolately.  "I'm afraid SHE
would be sorry--that's all!  She always kept me so tidy."

By the way he spoke, "SHE" must have meant his mother.  There the
orphan lad had an advantage over me; alas! I did not remember mine.

"Come," I said, for now I had quite made up my mind to take no denial,
and fear no rebuff from my father; "cheer up.  Who knows what may turn
up?"

"Oh yes, something always does; I'm not afraid!"  He tossed back his
curls, and looked smiling out through the window at the blue sky; that
steady, brave, honest smile, which will meet Fate in every turn, and
fairly coax the jade into good humour.

"John, do you know you're uncommonly like a childish hero of mine--Dick
Whittington?  Did you ever hear of him?"

"No."

"Come into the garden then"--for I caught another ominous vision of
Jael in the doorway, and I did not want to vex my good old nurse;
besides, unlike John, I was anything but brave.  "You'll hear the Abbey
bells chime presently--not unlike Bow bells, I used to fancy sometimes;
and we'll lie on the grass, and I'll tell you the whole true and
particular story of Sir Richard Whittington."

I lifted myself, and began looking for my crutches.  John found and put
them into my hand, with a grave, pitiful look.

"You don't need those sort of things," I said, making pretence to
laugh, for I had not grown used to them, and felt often ashamed.

"I hope you will not need them always."

"Perhaps not--Dr. Jessop isn't sure.  But it doesn't matter much; most
likely I shan't live long."  For this was, God forgive me, always the
last and greatest comfort I had.

John looked at me--surprised, troubled, compassionate--but he did not
say a word.  I hobbled past him; he following through the long passage
to the garden door.  There I paused--tired out.  John Halifax took
gentle hold of my shoulder.

"I think, if you did not mind, I'm sure I could carry you.  I carried a
meal-sack once, weighing eight stone."

I burst out laughing, which maybe was what he wanted, and forthwith
consented to assume the place of the meal-sack.  He took me on his
back--what a strong fellow  he was!--and fairly trotted with me down
the garden walk.  We were both very merry; and though I was his senior
I seemed with him, out of my great weakness and infirmity, to feel
almost like a child.

"Please to take me to that clematis arbour; it looks over the Avon.
Now, how do you like our garden?"

"It's a nice place."

He did not go into ecstasies, as I had half expected; but gazed about
him observantly, while a quiet, intense satisfaction grew and diffused
itself over his whole countenance.

"It's a VERY nice place."

Certainly it was.  A large square, chiefly grass, level as a
bowling-green, with borders round.  Beyond, divided by a low hedge, was
the kitchen and fruit garden--my father's pride, as this old-fashioned
pleasaunce was mine.  When, years ago, I was too weak to walk, I knew,
by crawling, every inch of the soft, green, mossy, daisy-patterned
carpet, bounded by its broad gravel walk; and above that, apparently
shut in as with an impassable barrier from the outer world, by a
three-sided fence, the high wall, the yew-hedge, and the river.

John Halifax's comprehensive gaze seemed to take in all.

"Have you lived here long?" he asked me.

"Ever since I was born."

"Ah!--well, it's a nice place," he repeated, somewhat sadly.  "This
grass plot is very even--thirty yards square, I should guess.  I'd get
up and pace it; only I'm rather tired."

"Are you?  Yet you would carry--"

"Oh--that's nothing.  I've often walked farther than to-day.  But still
it's a good step across the country since morning."

"How far have you come?"

"From the foot of those hills--I forget what they call them--over
there.  I have seen bigger ones--but they're steep enough--bleak and
cold, too, especially when one is lying out among the sheep.  At a
distance they look pleasant.  This is a very pretty view."

Ay, so I had always thought it; more so than ever now, when I had some
one to say to how "very pretty" it was.  Let me describe it--this first
landscape, the sole picture of my boyish days, and vivid as all such
pictures are.

At the end of the arbour the wall which enclosed us on the riverward
side was cut down--my father had done it at my asking--so as to make a
seat, something after the fashion of Queen Mary's seat at Stirling, of
which I had read.  Thence, one could see a goodly sweep of country.
First, close below, flowed the Avon--Shakspeare's Avon--here a narrow,
sluggish stream, but capable, as we at Norton Bury sometimes knew to
our cost, of being roused into fierceness and foam. Now it slipped on
quietly enough, contenting itself with turning a flour-mill hard by,
the lazy whirr of which made a sleepy, incessant monotone which I was
fond of hearing.

From the opposite bank stretched a wide green level, called the
Ham--dotted with pasturing cattle of all sorts.  Beyond it was a second
river, forming an arch of a circle round the verdant flat.  But the
stream itself lay so low as to be invisible from where we sat; you
could only trace the line of its course by the small white sails that
glided in and out, oddly enough, from behind clumps of trees, and
across meadow lands.

They attracted John's attention.  "Those can't be boats, surely.  Is
there water there?"

"To be sure, or you would not see the sails.  It is the Severn; though
at this distance you can't perceive it; yet it is deep enough too, as
you may see by the boats it carries.  You would hardly believe so, to
look at it here--but I believe it gets broader and broader, and turns
out a noble river by the time it reaches the King's Roads, and forms
the Bristol Channel."

"I've seen that!" cried John, with a bright look.  "Ah, I like the
Severn."

He stood gazing at it a good while, a new expression dawning in his
eyes.  Eyes in which then, for the first time, I watched a thought
grow, and grow, till out of them was shining a beauty absolutely divine.

All of a sudden the Abbey chimes burst out, and made the lad start.

"What's that?"

"Turn again, Whittington, Lord Mayor of London," I sang to the bells;
and then it seemed such a commonplace history, and such a very low
degree of honour to arrive at, that I was really glad I had forgotten
to tell John the story.  I merely showed him where, beyond our garden
wall, and in the invisible high road that interposed, rose up the grim
old Abbey tower.

"Probably this garden belonged to the Abbey in ancient time--our
orchard is so fine.  The monks may have planted it; they liked fruit,
those old fellows."

"Oh! did they!"  He evidently did not quite comprehend, but was trying,
without asking, to find out what I referred to.  I was almost ashamed,
lest he might think I wanted to show off my superior knowledge.

"The monks were parsons, John, you know.  Very good men, I dare say,
but rather idle."

"Oh, indeed.  Do you think they planted that yew hedge?"  And he went
to examine it.

Now, far and near, our yew-hedge was noted.  There was not its like in
the whole country.  It was about fifteen feet high, and as many thick.
Century after century of growth, with careful clipping and training,
had compacted it into a massive green barrier, as close and impervious
as a wall.

John poked in and about it--peering through every interstice--leaning
his breast against the solid depth of branches; but their close shield
resisted all his strength.

At last he came back to me, his face glowing with the vain efforts he
had made.

"What were you about?  Did you want to get through?"

"I wanted just to see if it were possible."

I shook my head.  "What would you do, John, if you were shut up here,
and had to get over the yew-hedge?  You could not climb it?"

"I know that, and, therefore, should not waste time in trying."

"Would you give up, then?"

He smiled--there was no "giving up" in that smile of his.  "I'll tell
you what I'd do--I'd begin and break it, twig by twig, till I forced my
way through, and got out safe at the other side."

"Well done, lad!--but if it's all the same to thee, I would rather thee
did not try that experiment upon MY hedge at present."

My father had come behind, and overheard us, unobserved.  We were both
somewhat confounded, though a grim kindliness of aspect showed that he
was not displeased--nay, even amused.

"Is that thy usual fashion of getting over a difficulty, friend--what's
thy name?"

I supplied the answer.  The minute Abel Fletcher appeared, John seemed
to lose all his boyish fun, and go back to that premature gravity and
hardness of demeanour which I supposed his harsh experience of the
world and of men had necessarily taught him; but which was very sad to
see in a lad so young.

My father sat down beside me on the bench--pushed aside an intrusive
branch of clematis--finally, because it would come back and tickle his
bald pate, broke it off, and threw it into the river:  then, leaning on
his stick with both hands, eyed John Halifax sharply, all over, from
top to toe.

"Didn't thee say thee wanted work?  It looks rather like it."

His glance upon the shabby clothes made the boy colour violently.

"Oh, thee need'st not be ashamed; better men than thee have been in
rags.  Hast thee any money?"

"The groat you gave, that is, paid me; I never take what I don't earn,"
said the lad, sticking a hand in either poor empty pocket.

"Don't be afraid--I was not going to give thee anything--except,
maybe--Would thee like some work?"

"O sir!"

"O father!"

I hardly know which was the most grateful cry.

Abel Fletcher looked surprised, but on the whole not ill-pleased.
Putting on and pulling down his broad-brimmed hat, he sat meditatively
for a minute or so; making circles in the gravel walk with the end of
his stick.  People said--nay, Jael herself, once, in a passion, had
thrown the fact at me--that the wealthy Friend himself had come to
Norton Bury without a shilling in his pocket.

"Well, what work canst thee do, lad?"

"Anything," was the eager answer.

"Anything generally means nothing," sharply said my father; "what hast
thee been at all this year?--The truth, mind!"

John's eyes flashed, but a look from mine seemed to set him right
again.  He said quietly and respectfully, "Let me think a minute, and
I'll tell you.  All spring I was at a farmer's, riding the
plough-horses, hoeing turnips; then I went up the hills with some
sheep:  in June I tried hay-making, and caught a fever--you needn't
start, sir, I've been well these six weeks, or I wouldn't have come
near your son--then--"

"That will do, lad--I'm satisfied."

"Thank you, sir."

"Thee need not say 'sir'--it is folly.  I am Abel Fletcher."  For my
father retained scrupulously the Friend's mode of speech, though he was
practically but a lax member of the Society, and had married out of its
pale.  In this announcement of his plain name appeared, I fancy, more
pride than humility.

"Very well, I will remember," answered the boy fearlessly, though with
an amused twist of his mouth, speedily restrained.  "And now, Abel
Fletcher, I shall be willing and thankful for any work you can give me."

"We'll see about it."


I looked gratefully and hopefully at my father--but his next words
rather modified my pleasure.

"Phineas, one of my men at the tan-yard has gone and 'listed this
day--left an honest livelihood to be a paid cut-throat.  Now, if I
could get a lad--one too young to be caught hold of at every pot-house
by that man of blood, the recruiting sergeant--Dost thee think this lad
is fit to take the place?"

"Whose place, father?"

"Bill Watkins'."

I was dumb-foundered!  I had occasionally seen the said Bill Watkins,
whose business it was to collect the skins which my father had bought
from the farmers round about.  A distinct vision presented itself to me
of Bill and his cart, from which dangled the sanguinary exuviae of
defunct animals, while in front the said Bill sat enthroned,
dirty-clad, and dirty-handed, with his pipe in his mouth.  The idea of
John Halifax in such a position was not agreeable.

"But, father--"

He read deprecation in my looks--alas! he knew too well how I disliked
the tan-yard and all belonging to it.  "Thee'rt a fool, and the lad's
another.  He may go about his business for me."

"But, father, isn't there anything else?"

"I have nothing else, or if I had I wouldn't give it.  He that will not
work neither shall he eat."

"I will work," said John, sturdily--he had listened, scarcely
comprehending, to my father and me.  "I don't care what it is, if only
it's honest work."

Abel Fletcher was mollified.  He turned his back on me--but that I
little minded--and addressed himself solely to John Halifax.

"Canst thee drive?"

"That I can!" and his eyes brightened with boyish delight.

"Tut! it's only a cart--the cart with the skins.  Dost thee know
anything of tanning?"

"No, but I can learn."

"Hey, not so fast! still, better be fast than slow.  In the meantime,
thee can drive the cart."

"Thank you, sir--Abel Fletcher, I mean--I'll do it well.  That is, as
well as I can."

"And mind! no stopping on the road.  No drinking, to find the king's
cursed shilling at the bottom of the glass, like poor Bill, for thy
mother to come crying and pestering.  Thee hasn't got one, eh?  So much
the better, all women are born fools, especially mothers."

"Sir!"  The lad's face was all crimson and quivering; his voice choked;
it was with difficulty he smothered down a burst of tears. Perhaps this
self-control was more moving than if he had wept--at least, it answered
better with my father.

After a few minutes more, during which his stick had made a little
grave in the middle of the walk, and buried something there--I think
something besides the pebble--Abel Fletcher said, not unkindly:

"Well, I'll take thee; though it isn't often I take a lad without a
character of some sort--I suppose thee hast none."

"None," was the answer, while the straightforward, steady gaze which
accompanied it unconsciously contradicted the statement; his own honest
face was the lad's best witness--at all events I thought so.

"'Tis done then," said my father, concluding the business more quickly
than I had ever before known his cautious temper settle even such a
seemingly trifling matter.  I say SEEMINGLY.  How blindly we talk when
we talk of "trifles."

Carelessly rising, he, from some kindly impulse, or else to mark the
closing of the bargain, shook the boy's hand, and left in it a shilling.

"What is this for?"

"To show I have hired thee as my servant."

"Servant!" John repeated hastily, and rather proudly.  "Oh yes, I
understand--well, I will try and serve you well."

My father did not notice that manly, self-dependent smile.  He was too
busy calculating how many more of those said shillings would be a fair
equivalent for such labour as a lad, ever so much the junior of Bill
Watkins, could supply.  After some cogitation he hit upon the right
sum.  I forget how much--be sure it was not over much; for money was
scarce enough in this war-time; and besides, there was a belief afloat,
so widely that it tainted even my worthy father, that plenty was not
good for the working-classes; they required to be kept low.

Having settled the question of wages, which John Halifax did not debate
at all, my father left us, but turned back when half-way across the
green-turfed square.

"Thee said thee had no money; there's a week in advance, my son being
witness I pay it thee; and I can pay thee a shilling less every
Saturday till we get straight."

"Very well, sir; good afternoon, and thank you."

John took off his cap as he spoke--Abel Fletcher, involuntarily almost,
touched his hat in return of the salutation.  Then he walked away, and
we had the garden all to ourselves--we, Jonathan and his new-found
David.

I did not "fall upon his neck," like the princely Hebrew, to whom I
have likened myself, but whom, alas! I resembled in nothing save my
loving.  But I grasped his hand, for the first time, and looking up at
him, as he stood thoughtfully by me, whispered, "that I was very glad."

"Thank you--so am I," said he, in a low tone.  Then all his old manner
returned; he threw his battered cap high up in the air, and shouted
out, "Hurrah!"--a thorough boy.

And I, in my poor, quavering voice, shouted too.



CHAPTER III

When I was young, and long after then, at intervals, I had the very
useless, sometimes harmful, and invariably foolish habit of keeping a
diary.  To me, at least, it has been less foolish and harmful than to
most; and out of it, together with much drawn out of the stores of a
memory, made preternaturally vivid by a long introverted life, which,
colourless itself, had nothing to do but to reflect and retain clear
images of the lives around it--out of these two sources I have compiled
the present history.

Therein, necessarily, many blank epochs occur.  These I shall not try
to fill up, but merely resume the thread of narration as recollection
serves.

Thus, after this first day, many days came and went before I again saw
John Halifax--almost before I again thought of him.  For it was one of
my seasons of excessive pain; when I found it difficult to think of
anything beyond those four grey-painted walls; where morning, noon, and
night slipped wearily away, marked by no changes, save from daylight to
candle-light, from candle-light to dawn.

Afterwards, as my pain abated, I began to be haunted by occasional
memories of something pleasant that had crossed my dreary life; visions
of a brave, bright young face, ready alike to battle with and enjoy the
world.  I could hear the voice that, speaking to me, was always tender
with pity--yet not pity enough to wound:  I could see the peculiar
smile just creeping round his grave mouth--that irrepressible smile,
indicating the atmosphere of thorough heart-cheerfulness, which ripens
all the fruits of a noble nature, and without which the very noblest
has about it something unwholesome, blank, and cold.

I wondered if John had ever asked for me.  At length I put the question.

Jael "thought he had--but wasn't sure.  Didn't bother her head about
such folk."

"If he asked again, might he come up-stairs?"

"No."

I was too weak to combat, and Jael was too strong an adversary; so I
lay for days and days in my sick room, often thinking, but never
speaking, about the lad.  Never once asking for him to come to me; not
though it would have been life to me to see his merry face--I longed
after him so.

At last I broke the bonds of sickness--which Jael always riveted as
long and as tightly as she could--and plunged into the outer world
again.

It was one market-day--Jael being absent--that I came down-stairs.  A
soft, bright, autumn morning, mild as spring, coaxing a wandering robin
to come and sing to me, loud as a quire of birds, out of the thinned
trees of the Abbey yard.  I opened the window to hear him, though all
the while in mortal fear of Jael.  I listened, but caught no tone of
her sharp voice, which usually came painfully from the back regions of
the house; it would ill have harmonised with the sweet autumn day and
the robin's song.  I sat, idly thinking so, and wondering whether it
were a necessary and universal fact that human beings, unlike the year,
should become harsh and unlovely as they grow old.

My robin had done singing, and I amused myself with watching a spot of
scarlet winding down the rural road, our house being on the verge where
Norton Bury melted into "the country."  It turned out to be the cloak
of a well-to-do young farmer's wife riding to market in her cart beside
her jolly-looking spouse.  Very spruce and self-satisfied she appeared,
and the market-people turned to stare after her, for her costume was a
novelty then.  Doubtless, many thought as I did, how much prettier was
scarlet than duffle grey.

Behind the farmer's cart came another, which at first I scarcely
noticed, being engrossed by the ruddy face under the red cloak.  The
farmer himself nodded good-humouredly, but Mrs. Scarlet-cloak turned up
her nose.  "Oh, pride, pride!" I thought, amused, and watched the two
carts, the second of which was with difficulty passing the farmer's, on
the opposite side of the narrow road.  At last it succeeded in getting
in advance, to the young woman's evident annoyance, until the driver,
turning, lifted his hat to her with such a merry, frank, pleasant smile.

Surely, I knew that smile, and the well-set head with its light curly
hair.  Also, alas! I knew the cart with relics of departed sheep
dangling out behind.  It was our cart of skins, and John Halifax was
driving it.

"John! John!" I called out, but he did not hear, for his horse had
taken fright at the red cloak, and required a steady hand.  Very steady
the boy's hand was, so that the farmer clapped his two great fists, and
shouted "Bray-vo!"

But John--my John Halifax--he sat in his cart, and drove.  His
appearance was much as when I first saw him--shabbier, perhaps, as if
through repeated drenchings; this had been a wet autumn, Jael had told
me.  Poor John!--well might he look gratefully up at the clear blue sky
to-day; ay, and the sky never looked down on a brighter, cheerier face,
the same face which, whatever rags it surmounted, would, I believe,
have ennobled them all.

I leaned out, watching him approach our house; watching him with so
great pleasure that I forgot to wonder whether or no he would notice
me.  He did not at first, being busy over his horse; until, just as the
notion flashed across my mind that he was passing by our house--also,
how keenly his doing so would pain me--the lad looked up.

A beaming smile of surprise and pleasure, a friendly nod, then all at
once his manner changed; he took off his cap, and bowed ceremoniously
to his master's son.

For the moment I was hurt; then I could not but respect the honest
pride which thus intimated that he knew his own position, and wished
neither to ignore nor to alter it; all advances between us must
evidently come from my side.  So, having made his salutation, he was
driving on, when I called after him,

"John!  John!"

"Yes, sir.  I am so glad you're better again."

"Stop one minute till I come out to you."  And I crawled on my crutches
to the front door, forgetting everything but the pleasure of meeting
him--forgetting even my terror of Jael.  What could she say? even
though she held nominally the Friends' doctrine--obeyed in the letter
at least, 'Call no man your master'--what would Jael say if she found
me, Phineas Fletcher, talking in front of my father's respectable
mansion with the vagabond lad who drove my father's cart of skins?

But I braved her, and opened the door.  "John, where are you?"

"Here" (he stood at the foot of the steps, with the reins on his arm);
"did you want me?"

"Yes.  Come up here; never mind the cart."

But that was not John's way.  He led the refractory horse, settled him
comfortably under a tree, and gave him in charge to a small boy. Then
he bounded back across the road, and was up the steps to my side in a
single leap.

"I had no notion of seeing you.  They said you were in bed yesterday."
(Then he HAD been inquiring for me!)  "Ought you to be standing at the
door this cold day?"

"It's quite warm," I said, looking up at the sunshine, and shivering.

"Please go in."

"If you'll come too."

He nodded, then put his arm round mine, and helped me in, as if he had
been a big elder brother, and I a little ailing child.  Well nursed and
carefully guarded as I had always been, it was the first time in my
life I ever knew the meaning of that rare thing, tenderness.  A quality
different from kindliness, affectionateness, or benevolence; a quality
which can exist only in strong, deep, and undemonstrative natures, and
therefore in its perfection is oftenest found in men.  John Halifax had
it more than any one, woman or man, that I ever knew.

"I'm glad you're better," he said, and said no more.  But one look of
his expressed as much as half-a-dozen sympathetic sentences of other
people.

"And how have you been, John?  How do you like the tan-yard?  Tell me
frankly."

He pulled a wry face, though comical withal, and said, cheerily,
"Everybody must like what brings them their daily bread.  It's a grand
thing for me not to have been hungry for nearly thirty days."

"Poor John!"  I put my hand on his wrist--his strong, brawny wrist.
Perhaps the contrast involuntarily struck us both with the truth--good
for both to learn--that Heaven's ways are not so unequal as we
sometimes fancy they seem.

"I have so often wanted to see you, John.  Couldn't you come in now?"

He shook his head, and pointed to the cart.  That minute, through the
open hall-door, I perceived Jael sauntering leisurely home from market.

Now, if I was a coward, it was not for myself this time.  The avalanche
of ill-words I knew must fall--but it should not fall on him, if I
could help it.

"Jump up on your cart, John.  Let me see how well you can drive.
There--good-bye, for the present.  Are you going to the tan-yard?"

"Yes--for the rest of the day."  And he made a face as if he did not
quite revel in that delightful prospect.  No wonder!

"I'll come and see you there this afternoon."

"No?"--with a look of delighted surprise.  "But you must not--you ought
not."

"But I WILL!"  And I laughed to hear myself actually using that phrase.
What would Jael have said?

What--as she arrived just in time to receive a half-malicious,
half-ceremonious bow from John, as he drove off--what that excellent
woman did say I have not the slightest recollection.  I only remember
that it did not frighten and grieve me as such attacks used to do;
that, in her own vernacular, it all "went in at one ear, and out at
t'other;" that I persisted in looking out until the last glimmer of the
bright curls had disappeared down the sunshiny road--then shut the
front door, and crept in, content.

Between that time and dinner I sat quiet enough even to please Jael. I
was thinking over the beautiful old Bible story, which latterly had so
vividly impressed itself on my mind; thinking of Jonathan, as he walked
"by the stone Ezel," with the shepherd-lad, who was to be king of
Israel.  I wondered whether he would have loved him, and seen the same
future perfection in him, had Jonathan, the king's son, met the poor
David keeping his sheep among the folds of Bethlehem.

When my father came home he found me waiting in my place at table. He
only said, "Thee art better then, my son?"  But I knew how glad he was
to see me.  He gave token of this by being remarkably conversible over
our meal--though, as usual, his conversation had a sternly moral tone,
adapted to the improvement of what he persisted in considering my
"infant" mind.  It had reference to an anecdote Dr.  Jessop had just
been telling him--about a little girl, one of our doctor's patients,
who in some passionate struggle had hurt herself very much with a knife.

"Let this be a warning to thee, my son, not to give way to violent
passions."  (My good father, thought I, there is little fear.)  "For,
this child--I remember her father well, for he lived at Kingswell here;
he was violent too, and much given to evil ways before he went
abroad--Phineas, this child, this miserable child, will bear the mark
of the wound all her life."

"Poor thing!" said I, absently.

"No need to pity her; her spirit is not half broken yet.  Thomas Jessop
said to me, 'That little Ursula--'"

"Is her name Ursula?"  And I called to mind the little girl who had
tried to give some bread to the hungry John Halifax, and whose cry of
pain we heard as the door shut upon her.  Poor little lady! how sorry I
was.  I knew John would be so infinitely sorry too--and all to no
purpose--that I determined not to tell him anything about it.  The next
time I saw Dr. Jessop I asked him after the child, and learned she had
been taken away somewhere, I forgot where; and then the whole affair
slipped from my memory.

"Father," said I, when he ceased talking--and Jael, who always ate her
dinner at the same time and table as ourselves, but "below the salt,"
had ceased nodding a respectful running comment on all he
said--"Father?"

"Well, my son."

"I should like to go with thee to the tan-yard this afternoon."

Here Jael, who had been busy pulling back the table, replacing the long
row of chairs, and re-sanding the broad centre Sahara of the room to
its dreary, pristine aridness, stopped, fairly aghast with amazement.

"Abel--Abel Fletcher! the lad's just out of his bed; he is no more fit
to--"

"Pshaw, woman!" was the sharp answer.  "So, Phineas, thee art really
strong enough to go out?"

"If thou wilt take me, father."

He looked pleased, as he always did when I used the Friends' mode of
phraseology--for I had not been brought up in the Society; this having
been the last request of my mother, rigidly observed by her husband.
The more so, people said, as while she lived they had not been quite
happy together.  But whatever he was to her, in their brief union, he
was a good father to me, and for his sake I have always loved and
honoured the Society of Friends.

"Phineas," said he (after having stopped a volley of poor Jael's
indignations, beseechings, threats, and prognostications, by a resolute
"Get the lad ready to go")--"Phineas, my son, I rejoice to see thy mind
turning towards business.  I trust, should better health be vouchsafed
thee, that some day soon--"

"Not just yet, father," said I, sadly--for I knew what he referred to,
and that it would never be.  Mentally and physically I alike revolted
from my father's trade.  I held the tan-yard in abhorrence--to enter it
made me ill for days; sometimes for months and months I never went near
it.  That I should ever be what was my poor father's one desire, his
assistant and successor in his business, was, I knew, a thing totally
impossible.

It hurt me a little that my project of going with him to-day should in
any way have deceived him; and rather silently and drearily we set out
together; progressing through Norton Bury streets in our old way, my
father marching along in his grave fashion, I steering my little
carriage, and keeping as close as I could beside him.  Many a person
looked at us as we passed; almost everybody knew us, but few, even of
our own neighbours, saluted us; we were Nonconformists and Quakers.

I had never been in the town since the day I came through it with John
Halifax.  The season was much later now, but it was quite warm still in
the sunshine, and very pleasant looked the streets, even the close,
narrow streets of Norton Bury.  I beg its pardon; antiquaries hold it a
most "interesting and remarkable" place:  and I myself have sometimes
admired its quaint, overhanging, ornamented house-fronts--blackened,
and wonderfully old.  But one rarely notices what has been familiar
throughout life; and now I was less struck by the beauty of the
picturesque old town than by the muddiness of its pathways, and the
mingled noises of murmuring looms, scolding women, and squabbling
children, that came up from the alleys which lay between the High
Street and the Avon.  In those alleys were hundreds of our poor folk
living, huddled together in misery, rags, and dirt.  Was John Halifax
living there too?

My father's tan-yard was in an alley a little further on.  Already I
perceived the familiar odour; sometimes a not unpleasant barky smell;
at other times borne in horrible wafts, as if from a lately forsaken
battle-field.  I wondered how anybody could endure it--yet some did;
and among the workmen, as we entered, I looked round for the lad I knew.

He was sitting in a corner in one of the sheds, helping two or three
women to split bark, very busy at work; yet he found time to stop now
and then, and administered a wisp of sweet hay to the old blind mare,
as she went slowly round and round, turning the bark mill.  Nobody
seemed to notice him, and he did not speak to anybody.

As we passed John did not even see us.  I asked my father, in a
whisper, how he liked the boy.

"What boy?--eh, him?--Oh, well enough--there's no harm in him that I
know of.  Dost thee want him to wheel thee about the yard?  Here, I
say, lad--bless me!  I've forgot thy name."

John Halifax started up at the sharp tone of command; but when he saw
me he smiled.  My father walked on to some pits where he told me he was
trying an important experiment, how a hide might be tanned completely
in five months instead of eight.  I stayed behind.

"John, I want you."

John shook himself free of the bark-heap, and came rather hesitatingly
at first.

"Anything I can do for you, sir?"

"Don't call me 'sir'; if I say 'John,' why don't you say 'Phineas'?"

And I held out my hand--his was all grimed with bark-dust.

"Are you not ashamed to shake hands with me?"

"Nonsense, John."

So we settled that point entirely.  And though he never failed to
maintain externally a certain gentle respectfulness of demeanour
towards me, yet it was more the natural deference of the younger to the
elder, of the strong to the weak, than the duty paid by a serving-lad
to his master's son.  And this was how I best liked it to be.

He guided me carefully among the tan-pits--those deep fosses of
abomination, with a slender network of pathways thrown between--until
we reached the lower end of the yard.  It was bounded by the Avon only,
and by a great heap of refuse bark.

"This is not a bad place to rest in; if you liked to get out of the
carriage I'd make you comfortable here in no time."

I was quite willing; so he ran off and fetched an old horserug, which
he laid upon the soft, dry mass.  Then he helped me thither, and
covered me with my cloak.  Lying thus, with my hat over my eyes, just
distinguishing the shiny glimmer of the Avon running below, and beyond
that the green, level Ham, dotted with cows, my position was anything
but unpleasant.  In fact, positively agreeable--ay, even though the
tan-yard was close behind; but here it would offend none of my senses.

"Are you comfortable, Phineas?"

"Very, if you would come and sit down too."

"That I will."

And we then began to talk.  I asked him if he often patronised the
bark-heap, he seemed so very much at home there.

"So I am," he answered, smiling; "it is my castle--my house."

"And not unpleasant to live at, either."

"Except when it rains.  Does it always rain at Norton Bury?"

"For shame, John!" and I pointed to the bluest of autumn skies, though
in the distance an afternoon mist was slowly creeping on.

"All very fine now, but there's a fog coming over Severn; and it is
sure to rain at nightfall.  I shall not get my nice little bit of
October evening."

"You must spend it within doors then."  John shook his head.  "You
ought; it must be dreadfully cold on this bark-heap after sunset."

"Rather, sometimes.  Are you cold now?  Shall I fetch--but I haven't
anything fit to wrap you in, except this rug."

He muffled it closer round me; infinitely light and tender was his
rough-looking boy's hand.

"I never saw anybody so thin as you; thinner much since I saw you. Have
you been very, very ill, Phineas?  What ailed you?"

His anxiety was so earnest, that I explained to him what I may as well
explain here, and dismiss, once for all; the useless topic, that from
my birth I had been puny and diseased; that my life had been a
succession of sicknesses, and that I could hope for little else until
the end.

"But don't think I mind it; John;" for I was grieved to see his shocked
and troubled look.  "I am very content; I have a quiet home, a good
father, and now I think and believe I have found the one thing I
wanted--a good friend."

He smiled, but only because I did.  I saw he did not understand me. In
him, as in most strong and self-contained temperaments, was a certain
slowness to receive impressions, which, however, being once received,
are indelible.  Though I, being in so many things his opposite, had
none of this peculiarity, but felt at once quickly and keenly, yet I
rather liked the contrary in him, as I think we almost always do like
in another those peculiarities which are most different from our own.
Therefore I was neither vexed nor hurt because the lad was slow to
perceive all that he had so soon become, and all that I meant him to
become, to me.  I knew from every tone of his voice, every chance
expression of his honest eyes, that he was one of those characters in
which we may be sure that for each feeling they express lies a
countless wealth of the same, unexpressed, below; a character the
keystone of which was that whereon is built all liking and all
love--DEPENDABLENESS.  He was one whom you may be long in knowing, but
whom the more you know the more you trust; and once trusting, you trust
for ever.

Perhaps I may be supposed imaginative, or, at least, premature in
discovering all these characteristics in a boy of fourteen; and
possibly in thus writing of him I may unwittingly be drawing a little
from after-experience; however, being the truth, let it stand.

"Come," said I, changing the conversation, "we have had enough of me;
how goes the world with you?  Have you taken kindly to the tan-yard?
Answer frankly."

He looked at me hard, put both his hands in his pockets, and began to
whistle a tune.

"Don't shirk the question, please, John.  I want to know the real
truth."

"Well, then, I hate the tan-yard."

Having relieved his mind by this ebullition, and by kicking a small
heap of tan right down into the river, he became composed.

"But, Phineas, don't imagine I intend to hate it always; I intend to
get used to it, as many a better fellow than I has got used to many a
worse thing.  It's wicked to hate what wins one's bread, and is the
only thing one is likely to get on in the world with, merely because
it's disagreeable."

"You are a wise lad of your age, John."

"Now don't you be laughing at me."  (But I was not, I was in solemn
earnest).  "And don't think I'm worse than I am; and especially that
I'm not thankful to your good father for giving me a lift in the
world--the first I ever really had.  If I get one foot on the ladder,
perhaps I may climb."

"I should rather believe so," answered I, very confidently.  "But you
seem to have thought a good deal about these sort of things."

"Oh, yes!  I have plenty of time for thinking, and one's thoughts
travel fast enough lying on this bark-heap--faster than indoors.  I
often wish I could read--that is, read easily.  As it is, I have
nothing to do but to think, and nothing to think of but myself, and
what I should like to be."

"Suppose, after Dick Whittington's fashion, you succeeded to your
master's business, should you like to be a tanner?"

He paused--his truthful face betraying him.  Then he said, resolutely,
"I would like to be anything that was honest and honourable.  It's a
notion of mine, that whatever a man may be, his trade does not make
him--he makes his trade.  That is--but I know I can't put the subject
clear, for I have not got it clear in my own head yet--I'm only a lad.
However, it all comes to this--that whether I like it or not, I'll
stick to the tanning as long as I can."

"That's right; I'm so glad.  Nevertheless"--and I watched him as he
stood, his foot planted firmly, no easy feat on the shifting bark-heap,
his head erect, and his mouth close, but smiling--"Nevertheless, John,
it's my opinion that you might be anything you liked."

He laughed.  "Questionable that--at least at present.  Whatever I may
be, I am just now the lad that drives your father's cart, and works in
your father's tan-yard--John Halifax, and very much at your service,
Mr. Phineas Fletcher."

Half in fun, half in earnest, he uncovered his fair locks, with a bow
so contradictory to the rest of his appearance, that I involuntarily
recalled the Greek Testament and "Guy Halifax, Gentleman."  However,
that could be no matter to me, or to him either, now.  The lad, like
many another, owed nothing to his father but his mere existence--Heaven
knows whether that gift is oftenest a curse or a boon.

The afternoon had waned during our talk; but I was very loth to part
with my friend.  Suddenly, I thought of asking where his home was.

"How do you mean?"

"Where do you live? where do you take your meals and sleep?"

"Why, as to that, I have not much time for eating and drinking.
Generally I eat my dinner as I go along the road, where there's lots of
blackberries by way of pudding--which is grand!  Supper, when I do get
it, I like best on this bark-heap, after the men are away, and the
tan-yard's clear.  Your father lets me stay."

"And where is your lodging, then?  Where do you sleep?"

He hesitated--coloured a little.  "To tell the truth--anywhere I can.
Generally, here."

"What, out-of-doors?"

"Just so."

I was much shocked.  To sleep out-of-doors seemed to me the very lowest
ebb of human misery:  so degrading, too--like a common tramp or
vagabond, instead of a decent lad.

"John, how can you--why do you--do such a thing?"

"I'll tell you," said he, sitting down beside me in a dogged way, as if
he had read my thoughts, guessed at my suspicions, and was determined
to show that he feared neither--that he would use his own judgment, and
follow his own will, in spite of anybody.  "Look here. I get three
shillings a week, which is about fivepence a day; out of that I eat
threepence--I'm a big, growing lad, and it's hard to be hungry.
There's twopence left to pay for lodging.  I tried it once--twice--at
the decentest place I could find, but--" here an expression of
intolerable disgust came over the boy's face--"I don't intend to try
that again.  I was never used to it.  Better keep my own company and
the open air.  Now you see."

"Oh, John!"

"Nay--there's no need to be sorry.  You don't know how comfortable it
is to sleep out of doors; and so nice to wake in the middle of the
night and see the stars shining over your head."

"But isn't it very cold?"

"No--not often.  I scoop out a snug little nest in the bark and curl up
in it like a dormouse, wrapped in this rug, which one of the men gave
me.  Besides, every morning early I take a plunge and a swim in the
stream, and that makes me warm all day."

I shivered--I who feared the touch of cold water.  Yet there with all
his hardships, he stood before me, the model of healthy boyhood. Alas!
I envied him.

But this trying life, which he made so light of, could not go on. "What
shall you do when winter comes?"

John looked grave.  "I don't know:  I suppose I shall manage
somehow--like the sparrows," he answered, perceiving not how apposite
his illustration was.  For truly he seemed as destitute as the birds of
the air, whom ONE feedeth, when they cry to Him.

My question had evidently made him thoughtful; he remained silent a
good while.

At last I said:  "John, do you remember the woman who spoke so sharply
to you in the alley that day?"

"Yes.  I shall never forget anything which happened that day," he
answered, softly.

"She was my nurse once.  She is not such a bad woman, though trouble
has sharpened her temper.  Her biggest boy Bill, who is gone off for a
soldier, used to drive your cart, you know."

"Yes?" said John, interrogatively; for I was slow in putting forth my
plans--that is, as much of them as it was needful he should know.

"Sally is poor--not so very poor, though.  Your twopence a night would
help her; and I dare say, if you'll let me speak to her, you might have
Bill's attic all to yourself.  She has but one other lad at home:  it's
worth trying for."

"It is indeed.  You are very kind, Phineas."  He said no more words
than these--but their tone spoke volumes.

I got into my little carriage again, for I was most anxious not to lose
a day in this matter.  I persuaded John to go at once with me to Sally
Watkins.  My father was not to be seen; but I ventured to leave word
for him that I was gone home, and had taken John Halifax with me:  it
was astonishing how bold I felt myself growing, now that there was
another beside myself to think and act for.

We reached Widow Watkins' door.  It was a poor place--poorer than I had
imagined;  but I remembered what agonies of cleanliness had been
inflicted on me in nursery days; and took hope for John.

Sally sat in her kitchen, tidy and subdued, mending an old jacket that
had once been Bill's, until, being supplanted by the grand red coat, it
descended upon Jem, the second lad.  But Bill still engrossed the poor
mother's heart--she could do nothing but weep over him, and curse
"Bonyparty."  Her mind was so full of this that she apparently failed
to recognise in the decent young workman, John Halifax, the
half-starved lad she had belaboured with her tongue in the alley.  She
consented at once to his lodging with her--though she looked up with an
odd stare when I said he was "a friend" of mine.

So we settled our business, first all together, then Sally and I alone,
while John went up to look at his room.  I knew I could trust Sally,
whom I was glad enough to help, poor woman!  She promised to make him
extra-comfortable, and keep my secret too.  When John came down she was
quite civil to him--even friendly.

She said it would really be a comfort to her, that another fine,
strapping lad should sleep in Bill's bed, and be coming in and out of
her house just like her poor dear boy.

I felt rather doubtful of the resemblance, and indeed half-angry, but
John only smiled.

"And if, maybe, he'd do a hand's turn now and then about the kitchen--I
s'pose he bean't above it?"

"Not a bit!" said John Halifax, pleasantly.

Before we left I wanted to see his room; he carried me up, and we both
sat down on the bed that had been poor Bill's.  It was nothing to boast
of, being a mere sacking stuffed with hay--a blanket below, and another
at top; I had to beg from Jael the only pair of sheets John owned for a
long time.  The attic was very low and small, hardly big enough "to
whip a cat round," or even a kitten--yet John gazed about it with an
air of proud possession.

"I declare I shall be as happy as a king.  Only look out of the window!"

Ay, the window was the grand advantage; out of it one could crawl on to
the roof, and from the roof was the finest view in all Norton Bury.  On
one side, the town, the Abbey, and beyond it a wide stretch of meadow
and woodland as far as you could see; on the other, the broad Ham, the
glittering curve of Severn, and the distant country, sloping up into
"the blue bills far away."  A picture, which in its incessant variety,
its quiet beauty, and its inexpressibly soothing charm, was likely to
make the simple, everyday act of "looking out o' window," unconsciously
influence the mind as much as a world of books.

"Do you like your 'castle,' John?" said I, when I had silently watched
his beaming face; "will it suit you?"

"I rather think it will!" he cried in hearty delight.  And my heart
likewise was very glad.

Dear little attic room! close against the sky--so close, that many a
time the rain came pattering in, or the sun beating down upon the roof
made it like a furnace, or the snow on the leads drifted so high as to
obscure the window--yet how merry, how happy, we have been there!  How
often have we both looked back upon it in after days!



CHAPTER IV

Winter came early and sudden that year.

It was to me a long, dreary season, worse even than my winters
inevitably were.  I never stirred from my room, and never saw anybody
but my father, Dr. Jessop, and Jael.  At last I took courage to say to
the former that I wished he would send John Halifax up some day.

"What does thee want the lad for?"

"Only to see him."

"Pshaw! a lad out o' the tan-yard is not fit company for thee.  Let him
alone; he'll do well enough if thee doesn't try to lift him out of his
place."

Lift John Halifax out of his "place"!  I agreed with my father that
that was impossible; but then we evidently differed widely in our
definition of what the "place" might be.  So, afraid of doing him harm,
and feeling how much his future depended on his favour with his master,
I did not discuss the matter.  Only at every possible opportunity--and
they were rare--I managed to send John a little note, written carefully
in printed letters, for I knew he could read that; also a book or two,
out of which he might teach himself a little more.

Then I waited, eagerly but patiently, until spring came, when, without
making any more fruitless efforts, I should be sure to see him.  I knew
enough of himself, and was too jealous over his dignity, to wish either
to force him by entreaties, or bring him by stratagem, into a house
where he was not welcome, even though it were the house of my own
father.

One February day, when the frost had at last broken up, and soft,
plentiful rain had half melted the great snow-drifts, which, Jael told
me, lay about the country everywhere, I thought I would just put my
head out of doors, to see how long the blessed spring would be in
coming.  So I crawled down into the parlour, and out of the parlour
into the garden; Jael scolding, my father roughly encouraging.  My poor
father! he always had the belief that people need not be ill unless
they chose, and that I could do a great deal if I would.

I felt very strong to-day.  It was delicious to see again the green
grass, which had been hidden for weeks; delicious to walk up and down
in the sunshine, under the shelter of the yew hedge.  I amused myself
by watching a pale line of snowdrops which had come up one by one, like
prisoners of war to their execution.

But the next minute I felt ashamed of the heartless simile, for it
reminded me of poor Bill Watkins, who, taken after the battle of Mentz,
last December, had been shot by the French as a spy.  Poor, rosy, burly
Bill! better had he still been ingloriously driving our cart of skins.

"Have you been to see Sally lately?" said I, to Jael, who was cutting
winter cabbages hard by; "is she getting over her trouble?"

"She bean't rich, to afford fretting.  There's Jem and three little
'uns yet to feed, to say nought of another big lad as lives there, and
eats a deal more than he pays, I'm sure."

I took the insinuation quietly, for I knew that my father had lately
raised John's wages, and he his rent to Sally.  This, together with a
few other facts which lay between Sally and me, made me quite easy in
the mind as to his being no burthen, but rather a help to the widow--so
I let Jael have her say; it did no harm to me nor anybody.

"What bold little things snowdrops are--stop, Jael, you are setting
your foot on them."

But I was too late; she had crushed them under the high-heeled shoe.
She was even near pulling me down, as she stepped back in great hurry
and consternation.

"Look at that young gentleman coming down the garden; and here I be in
my dirty gown, and my apron full o' cabbages."

And she dropped the vegetables all over the path as the "gentleman"
came towards us.

I smiled--for, in spite of his transformation, I, at least, had no
difficulty in recognising John Halifax.

He had on new clothes--let me give the credit due to that wonderful
civiliser, the tailor--clothes neat, decent, and plain, such as any
'prentice lad might wear.  They fitted well his figure, which had
increased both in height, compactness, and grace.  Round his neck was a
coarse but white shirt frill; and over it fell, carefully arranged, the
bright curls of his bonny hair.  Easily might Jael or any one else have
"mistaken" him, as she cuttingly said, for a young gentleman.

She looked very indignant, though, when she found out the aforesaid
"mistake."

"What may be thy business here?" she said, roughly.

"Abel Fletcher sent me on a message."

"Out with it then--don't be stopping with Phineas here.  Thee bean't
company for him, and his father don't choose it."

"Jael!" I cried, indignantly.  John never spoke, but his cheek burnt
furiously.

I took his hand, and told him how glad I was to see him--but, for a
minute, I doubt if he heard me.

"Abel Fletcher sent me here," he repeated, in a well-controlled voice,
"that I might go out with Phineas; if HE objects to my company, it's
easy to say so."

And he turned to me.  I think he must have been satisfied then.

Jael retired discomfited, and in her wrath again dropped half of her
cabbages.  John picked them up and restored them; but got for thanks
only a parting thrust.

"Thee art mighty civil in thy new clothes.  Be off, and be back again
sharp; and, I say, don't thee be leaving the cart o' skins again under
the parlour windows."

"I don't drive the cart now," was all he replied.

"Not drive the cart?" I asked, eagerly, when Jael had disappeared, for
I was afraid some ill chance had happened.

"Only, that this winter I've managed to teach myself to read and add
up, out of your books, you know; and your father found it out, and he
says I shall go round collecting money instead of skins, and it's much
better wages, and--I like it better--that's all."

But, little as he said, his whole face beamed with pride and pleasure.
It was, in truth, a great step forward.

"He must trust you very much, John," said I, at last, knowing how
exceedingly particular my father was in his collectors.

"That's it--that's what pleases me so.  He is very good to me, Phineas,
and he gave me a special holiday, that I might go out with you.  Isn't
that grand?"

"Grand, indeed.  What fun we'll have!  I almost think I could take a
walk myself."

For the lad's company invariably gave me new life, and strength, and
hope.  The very sight of him was as good as the coming of spring.

"Where shall we go?" said he, when we were fairly off, and he was
guiding my carriage down Norton Bury streets.

"I think to the Mythe."  The Mythe was a little hill on the outskirts
of the town, breezy and fresh, where Squire Brithwood had built himself
a fine house ten years ago.

"Ay, that will do; and as we go, you will see the floods out--a
wonderful sight, isn't it?  The river is rising still, I hear; at the
tan-yard they are busy making a dam against it.  How high are the
floods here, generally, Phineas?"

"I'm sure I can't remember.  But don't look so serious.  Let us enjoy
ourselves."

And I did enjoy, intensely, that pleasant stroll.  The mere sunshine
was delicious; delicious, too, to pause on the bridge at the other end
of the town, and feel the breeze brought in by the rising waters, and
hear the loud sound of them, as they poured in a cataract over the
flood-gates hard by.

"Your lazy, muddy Avon looks splendid now.  What masses of white foam
it makes, and what wreaths of spray; and see! ever so much of the Ham
is under water.  How it sparkles in the sun."

"John, you like looking at anything pretty."

"Ah! don't I!" cried he, with his whole heart.  My heart leaped too, to
see him so happy.

"You can't think how fine this is from my window; I have watched it for
a week.  Every morning the water seems to have made itself a fresh
channel.  Look at that one, by the willow-tree--how savagely it pours!"

"Oh, we at Norton Bury are used to floods."

"Are they ever very serious?"

"Have been--but not in my time.  Now, John, tell me what you have been
doing all winter."

It was a brief and simple chronicle--of hard work, all day over, and
from the Monday to the Saturday--too hard work to do anything of
nights, save to drop into the sound, dreamless sleep of youth and
labour.

"But how did you teach yourself to read and add up, then?"

"Generally at odd minutes going along the road.  It's astonishing what
a lot of odd minutes one can catch during the day, if one really sets
about it.  And then I had Sunday afternoons besides.  I did not think
it wrong--"

"No," said I; decisively.  "What books have you got through?"

"All you sent--Pilgrim's Progress, Robinson Crusoe, and the Arabian
Nights.  That's fine, isn't it?" and his eyes sparkled.

"Any more?"

"Also the one you gave me at Christmas.  I have read it a good deal."

I liked the tone of quiet reverence in which he spoke.  I liked to hear
him own, nor be ashamed to own--that he read "a good deal" in that rare
book for a boy to read--the Bible.

But on this subject I did not ask him any more questions; indeed, it
seemed to me, and seems still, that no more were needed.

"And you can read quite easily now, John?"

"Pretty well, considering."  Then, turning suddenly to me:  "You read a
great deal, don't you?  I overheard your father say you were very
clever.  How much do you know?"

"Oh--nonsense!"  But he pressed me, and I told him.  The list was short
enough; I almost wished it were shorter when I saw John's face.

"For me--I can only just read, and I shall be fifteen directly!"

The accent of shame, despondency, even despair, went to my very heart.

"Don't mind," I said, laying my feeble, useless hand upon that which
guided me on so steady and so strong; "how could you have had time,
working as hard as you do?"

"But I ought to learn; I must learn."

"You shall.  It's little I can teach; but, if you like, I'll teach you
all I know."

"O Phineas!"  One flash of those bright, moist eyes, and he walked
hastily across the road.  Thence he came back, in a minute or two,
armed with the tallest, straightest of briar-rose shoots.

"You like a rose-switch, don't you?  I do.  Nay, stop till I've cut off
the thorns."  And he walked on beside me, working at it with his knife,
in silence.

I was silent, too, but I stole a glance at his mouth, as seen in
profile.  I could almost always guess at his thoughts by that mouth, so
flexible, sensitive, and, at times, so infinitely sweet.  It wore that
expression now.  I was satisfied, for I knew the lad was happy.

We reached the Mythe.  "David," I said (I had got into a habit of
calling him "David;" and now he had read a certain history in that Book
I supposed he had guessed why, for he liked the name), "I don't think I
can go any further up the hill."

"Oh! but you shall!  I'll push behind; and when we come to the stile
I'll carry you.  It's lovely on the top of the Mythe--look at the
sunset.  You cannot have seen a sunset for ever so long."

No--that was true.  I let John do as he would with me--he who brought
into my pale life the only brightness it had ever known.

Ere long we stood on the top of the steep mound.  I know not if it be a
natural hill, or one of those old Roman or British remains, plentiful
enough hereabouts, but it was always called the Mythe. Close below it,
at the foot of a precipitous slope, ran the Severn, there broad and
deep enough, gradually growing broader and deeper as it flowed on,
through a wide plain of level country, towards the line of hills that
bounded the horizon.  Severn looked beautiful here; neither grand nor
striking, but certainly beautiful; a calm, gracious, generous river,
bearing strength in its tide and plenty in its bosom, rolling on
through the land slowly and surely, like a good man's life, and
fertilising wherever it flows.

"Do you like Severn still, John?"

"I love it."

I wondered if his thoughts had been anything like mine.

"What is that?" he cried, suddenly, pointing to a new sight, which even
I had not often seen on our river.  It was a mass of water, three or
four feet high, which came surging along the midstream, upright as a
wall.

"It is the eger; I've often seen it on Severn, where the swift seaward
current meets the spring-tide.  Look what a crest of foam it has, like
a wild boar's mane.  We often call it the river-boar."

"But it is only a big wave."

"Big enough to swamp a boat, though."

And while I spoke I saw, to my horror, that there actually was a boat,
with two men in it, trying to get out of the way of the eger.

"They never can! they'll assuredly be drowned!  O John!"

But he had already slipped from my side and swung himself by
furze-bushes and grass down the steep slope to the water's edge.

It was a breathless moment.  The eger travelled slowly in its passage,
changing the smooth, sparkling river to a whirl of conflicting
currents, in which no boat could live--least of all that light
pleasure-boat, with its toppling sail.  In it was a youth I knew by
sight, Mr. Brithwood of the Mythe House, and another gentleman.

They both pulled hard--they got out of the mid-stream, but not close
enough to land; and already there was but two oars' length between them
and the "boar."

"Swim for it!" I heard one cry to the other:  but swimming would not
have saved them.

"Hold there!" shouted John at the top of his voice; "throw that rope
out and I will pull you in!"

It was a hard tug:  I shuddered to see him wade knee-deep in the
stream--but he succeeded.  Both gentlemen leaped safe on shore.  The
younger tried desperately to save his boat, but it was too late.
Already the "water-boar" had clutched it--the rope broke like a
gossamer-thread--the trim, white sail was dragged down--rose up once,
broken and torn, like a butterfly caught in a mill-stream--then
disappeared.

"So it's all over with her, poor thing!"

"Who cares?--We might have lost our lives," sharply said the other, an
older and sickly-looking gentleman, dressed in mourning, to whom life
did not seem a particularly pleasant thing, though he appeared to value
it so highly.

They both scrambled up the Mythe, without noticing John Halifax: then
the elder turned.

"But who pulled us ashore?  Was it you, my young friend?"

John Halifax, emptying his soaked boots, answered, "I suppose so."

"Indeed, we owe you much."

"Not more than a crown will pay," said young Brithwood, gruffly; "I
know him, Cousin March.  He works in Fletcher the Quaker's tan-yard."

"Nonsense!" cried Mr. March, who had stood looking at the boy with a
kindly, even half-sad air.  "Impossible!  Young man, will you tell me
to whom I am so much obliged?"

"My name is John Halifax."

"Yes; but WHAT are you?"

"What he said.  Mr. Brithwood knows me well enough:  I work in the
tan-yard."

"Oh!"  Mr. March turned away with a resumption of dignity, though
evidently both surprised and disappointed.  Young Brithwood laughed.

"I told you so, cousin.  Hey, lad!" eyeing John over, "you've been out
at grass, and changed your coat for the better:  but you're certainly
the same lad that my curricle nearly ran over one day; you were driving
a cart of skins--pah! I remember."

"So do I," said John, fiercely; but when the youth's insolent laughter
broke out again he controlled himself.  The laughter ceased.

"Well, you've done me a good turn for an ill one,
young--what's-your-name, so here's a guinea for you."  He threw it
towards him; it fell on the ground, and lay there.

"Nay, nay, Richard," expostulated the sickly gentleman, who, after all,
WAS a gentleman.  He stood apparently struggling with conflicting
intentions, and not very easy in his mind.  "My good fellow," he said
at last, in a constrained voice, "I won't forget your bravery.  If I
could do anything for you--and meanwhile if a trifle like this"--and he
slipped something into John's hand.

John returned it with a bow, merely saying "that he would rather not
take any money."

The gentleman looked very much astonished.  There was a little more of
persistence on one side and resistance on the other; and then Mr. March
put the guineas irresolutely back into his pocket, looking the while
lingeringly at the boy--at his tall figure, and flushed, proud face.

"How old are you?"

"Fifteen, nearly."

"Ah!" it was almost a sigh.  He turned away, and turned back again. "My
name is March--Henry March; if you should ever--"

"Thank you, sir.  Good-day."

"Good-day."  I fancied he was half inclined to shake hands--but John
did not, or would not, see it.  Mr. March walked on, following young
Brithwood; but at the stile he turned round once more and glanced at
John.  Then they disappeared.

"I'm glad they're gone:  now we can be comfortable."  He flung himself
down, wrung out his wet stockings, laughed at me for being so afraid he
would take cold, and so angry at young Brithwood's insults. I sat
wrapped in my cloak, and watched him making idle circles in the sandy
path with the rose-switch he had cut.

A thought struck me.  "John, hand me the stick and I'll give you your
first writing lesson."

So there, on the smooth gravel, and with the rose-stem for a pen, I
taught him how to form the letters of the alphabet and join them
together.  He learned them very quickly--so quickly, that in a little
while the simple copy-book that Mother Earth obliged us with was
covered in all directions with "J O H N--John."

"Bravo!" he cried, as we turned homeward, he flourishing his gigantic
pen, which had done such good service; "bravo! I have gained something
to-day!"

Crossing the bridge over the Avon, we stood once more to look at the
waters that were "out."  They had risen considerably, even in that
short time, and were now pouring in several new channels, one of which
was alongside of the high road; we stopped a good while watching it.
The current was harmless enough, merely flooding a part of the Ham; but
it awed us to see the fierce power of waters let loose.  An old
willow-tree, about whose roots I had often watched the king-cups
growing, was now in the centre of a stream as broad as the Avon by our
tan-yard, and thrice as rapid.  The torrent rushed round it--impatient
of the divisions its great roots caused--eager to undermine and tear it
up.  Inevitably, if the flood did not abate, within a few hours more
there would be nothing left of the fine old tree.

"I don't quite like this," said John, meditatively, as his quick eye
swept down the course of the river, with the houses and wharves that
abutted on it, all along one bank.  "Did you ever see the waters thus
high before?"

"Yes, I believe I have; nobody minds it at Norton Bury; it is only the
sudden thaw, my father says, and he ought to know, for he has had
plenty of experience, the tan-yard being so close to the river."

"I was thinking of that; but come, it's getting cold."

He took me safe home, and we parted cordially--nay, affectionately--at
my own door.

"When will you come again, David?"

"When your father sends me."

And I felt that HE felt that our intercourse was always to be limited
to this.  Nothing clandestine, nothing obtrusive, was possible, even
for friendship's sake, to John Halifax.

My father came in late that evening; he looked tired and uneasy, and
instead of going to bed, though it was after nine o'clock, sat down to
his pipe in the chimney-corner.

"Is the river rising still, father?  Will it do any harm to the
tan-yard?"

"What dost thee know about the tan-yard!"

"Only John Halifax was saying--"

"John Halifax had better hold his tongue."

I held mine.

My father puffed away in silence till I came to bid him good-night. I
think the sound of my crutches on the floor stirred him out of a long
meditation, in which his ill-humour had ebbed away.

"Where didst thee go out to-day, Phineas?--thee and the lad I sent."

"To the Mythe:"  and I told him the incident that had happened there.
He listened without reply.

"Wasn't it a brave thing to do, father?"

"Um!"--and a few meditative puffs.  "Phineas, the lad thee hast such a
hankering after is a good lad--a very decent lad--if thee doesn't make
too much of him.  Remember; he is but my servant; thee'rt my son--my
only son."

Alas! my poor father, it was hard enough for him to have such an "only
son" as I.

In the middle of the night--or else to me, lying awake, it seemed
so--there was a knocking at our hall door.  I slept on the ground flat,
in a little room opposite the parlour.  Ere I could well collect my
thoughts, I saw my father pass, fully dressed, with a light in his
hand.  And, man of peace though he was, I was very sure I saw in the
other--something which always lay near his strong box, at his bed's
head at night.  Because ten years ago a large sum had been stolen from
him, and the burglar had gone free of punishment.  The law refused to
receive Abel Fletcher's testimony--he was "only a Quaker."

The knocking grew louder, as if the person had no time to hesitate at
making a noise.  "Who's there?" called out my father; and at the answer
he opened the front door, first shutting mine.

A minute afterwards I heard some one in my room.  "Phineas, are you
here?--don't be frightened."

I was not--as soon as his voice reached me, John's own familiar voice.
"It's something about the tan-yard?"

"Yes; the waters are rising, and I have come to fetch your father; he
may save a good deal yet.  I am ready, sir"--in answer to a loud call.
"Now, Phineas, lie you down again, the night's bitter cold. Don't
stir--you'll promise?--I'll see after your father."

They went out of the house together, and did not return the whole night.

That night, February 5, 1795, was one long remembered at Norton Bury.
Bridges were destroyed--boats carried away--houses inundated, or sapped
at their foundations.  The loss of life was small, but that of property
was very great.  Six hours did the work of ruin, and then the flood
began to turn.

It was a long waiting until they came home--my father and John.  At
daybreak I saw them standing on the doorstep.  A blessed sight!

"O father! my dear father!" and I drew him in, holding fast his
hands--faster and closer than I had done since I was a child.  He did
not repel me.

"Thee'rt up early, and it's a cold morning for thee, my son.  Go back
to the fire."

His voice was gentle; his ruddy countenance pale; two strange things in
Abel Fletcher.

"Father, tell me what has befallen thee?"

"Nothing, my son, save that the Giver of all worldly goods has seen fit
to take back a portion of mine.  I, like many another in this town, am
poorer by some thousands than I went to bed last night."

He sat down.  I knew he loved his money, for it had been hardly earned.
I had not thought he would have borne its loss so quietly.

"Father, never mind; it might have been worse."

"Of a surety.  I should have lost everything I had in the world--save
for--Where is the lad?  What art thee standing outside for?  Come in,
John, and shut the door."

John obeyed, though without advancing.  He was cold and wet.  I wanted
him to sit down by the fireside.

"Ay! do, lad," said my father, kindly.

John came.

I stood between the two--afraid to ask what they had undergone; but
sure, from the old man's grave face, and the lad's bright one--flushed
all over with that excitement of danger so delicious to the young--that
the peril had not been small.

"Jael," cried my father, rousing himself, "give us some breakfast; the
lad and me--we have had a hard night's work together."

Jael brought the mug of ale and the bread and cheese; but either did
not or could not notice that the meal had been ordered for more than
one.

"Another plate," said my father, sharply.

"The lad can go into the kitchen, Abel Fletcher:  his breakfast is
waiting there."

My father winced--even her master was sometimes rather afraid of Jael.
But conscience or his will conquered.

"Woman, do as I desired.  Bring another plate, and another mug of ale."

And so, to Jael's great wrath, and to my great joy, John Halifax was
bidden, and sat down to the same board as his master.  The fact made an
ineffaceable impression on our household.

After breakfast, as we sat by the fire, in the pale haze of that
February morning, my father, contrary to his wont, explained to me all
his losses; and how, but for the timely warning he had received, the
flood might have nearly ruined him.

"So it was well John came," I said, half afraid to say more.

"Ay, and the lad has been useful, too:  it is an old head on young
shoulders."

John looked very proud of this praise, though it was grimly given. But
directly after it some ill or suspicious thought seemed to come into
Abel Fletcher's mind.

"Lad," suddenly turning round on John Halifax, "thee told me thee saw
the river rising by the light of the moon.  What wast THEE doing then,
out o' thy honest bed and thy quiet sleep, at eleven o'clock at night?"

John coloured violently; the quick young blood was always ready enough
to rise in his face.  It spoke ill for him with my father.

"Answer.  I will not be hard upon thee--to-night, at least."

"As you like, Abel Fletcher," answered the boy, sturdily.  "I was doing
no harm.  I was in the tan-yard."

"Thy business there?"

"None at all.  I was with the men--they were watching, and had a
candle; and I wanted to sit up, and had no light."

"What didst thee want to sit up for?" pursued my father, keen and sharp
as a ferret at a field-rat's hole, or a barrister hunting a witness in
those courts of law that were never used by, though often used against,
us Quakers.

John hesitated, and again his painful, falsely-accusing blushes tried
him sore.  "Sir, I'll tell you; it's no disgrace.  Though I'm such a
big fellow I can't write; and your son was good enough to try and teach
me.  I was afraid of forgetting the letters; so I tried to make them
all over again, with a bit of chalk, on the bark-shed wall.  It did
nobody any harm that I know of."

The boy's tone, even though it was rather quick and angry, won no
reproof.  At last my father said gently enough--

"Is that all, lad?"

"Yes."

Again Abel Fletcher fell into a brown study.  We two lads talked softly
to each other--afraid to interrupt.  He smoked through a whole
pipe--his great and almost his only luxury, and then again called out--

"John Halifax."

"I'm here."

"It's time thee went away to thy work."

"I'm going this minute.  Good-bye, Phineas.  Good day, sir.  Is there
anything you want done?"

He stood before his master, cap in hand, with an honest manliness
pleasant to see.  Any master might have been proud of such a
servant--any father of such a son.  My poor father--no, he did not once
look from John Halifax to me.  He would not have owned for the world
that half-smothered sigh, or murmured because Heaven had kept back from
him--as, Heaven knows why, it often does from us all!--the one desire
of the heart.

"John Halifax, thee hast been of great service to me this night. What
reward shall I give thee?"

And instinctively his hand dived down into his pocket.  John turned
away.

"Thank you--I'd rather not.  It is quite enough reward that I have been
useful to my master, and that he acknowledges it."

My father thought a minute, and then offered his hand.  "Thee'rt in the
right, lad.  I am very much obliged to thee, and I will not forget it."

And John--blushing brightly once more--went away, looking as proud as
an emperor, and as happy as a poor man with a bag of gold.

"Is there nothing thou canst think of, Phineas, that would pleasure the
lad?" said my father, after we had been talking some time--though not
about John.

I had thought of something--something I had long desired, but which
seemed then all but an impossibility.  Even now it was with some doubt
and hesitation that I made the suggestion that he should spend every
Sunday at our house.

"Nonsense!--thee know'st nought of Norton Bury lads.  He would not
care.  He had rather lounge about all First-day at street corners with
his acquaintance."

"John has none, father.  He knows nobody--cares for nobody--but me. Do
let him come."

"We'll see about it."

My father never broke or retracted his word.  So after that John
Halifax came to us every Sunday; and for one day of the week, at least,
was received in his master's household as our equal and my friend.



CHAPTER V

Summers and winters slipped by lazily enough, as the years seemed
always to crawl round at Norton Bury.  How things went in the outside
world I little knew or cared.  My father lived his life, mechanical and
steady as clock-work, and we two, John Halifax and Phineas Fletcher,
lived our lives--the one so active and busy, the other so useless and
dull.  Neither of us counted the days, nor looked backwards or forwards.

One June morning I woke to the consciousness that I was twenty years
old, and that John Halifax was--a man:  the difference between us being
precisely as I have expressed it.

Our birthdays fell within a week of each other, and it was in
remembering his--the one which advanced him to the dignity of
eighteen--that I called to mind my own.  I say, "advanced him to the
dignity"--but in truth that is an idle speech; for any dignity which
the maturity of eighteen may be supposed to confer he had already in
possession.  Manhood had come to him, both in character and demeanour,
not as it comes to most young lads, an eagerly-desired and
presumptuously-asserted claim, but as a rightful inheritance, to be
received humbly, and worn simply and naturally.  So naturally, that I
never seemed to think of him as anything but a boy, until this one June
Sunday, when, as before stated, I myself became twenty years old.

I was talking over that last fact, in a rather dreamy mood, as he and I
sat in our long-familiar summer seat, the clematis arbour by the garden
wall.

"It seems very strange, John, but so it is--I am actually twenty."

"Well, and what of that?"

I sat looking down into the river, which flowed on, as my years were
flowing, monotonous, dark, and slow,--as they must flow on for ever.
John asked me what I was thinking of.

"Of myself:  what a fine specimen of the noble genus homo I am."

I spoke bitterly, but John knew how to meet that mood.  Very patient he
was with it and with every ill mood of mine.  And I was grateful, with
that deep gratitude we feel to those who bear with us, and forgive us,
and laugh at us, and correct us,--all alike for love.

"Self-investigation is good on birthdays.  Phineas, here goes for a
catalogue of your qualities, internal and external."

"John, don't be foolish."

"I will, if I like; though perhaps not quite so foolish as some other
people; so listen:--'Imprimis,' as saith Shakspeare--Imprimis, height,
full five feet four; a stature historically appertaining to great men,
including Alexander of Macedon and the First Consul."

"Oh, oh!" said I, reproachfully; for this was our chief bone of
contention--I hating, he rather admiring, the great ogre of the day,
Napoleon Bonaparte.

"Imprimis, of a slight, delicate person, but not lame as once was."

"No, thank God!"

"Thin, rather-"

"Very--a mere skeleton!"

"Face elongated and pale-"

"Sallow, John, decidedly sallow."

"Be it so, sallow.  Big eyes, much given to observation, which means
hard staring.  Take them off me, Phineas, or I'll not lie on the grass
a minute longer.  Thank you.  To return:  Imprimis and finis (I'm grand
at Latin now, you see)--long hair, which, since the powder tax, has
resumed its original blackness, and is--any young damsel would say,
only we count not a single one among our acquaintance--exceedingly
bewitching."

I smiled, feeling myself colour a little too, weak invalid as I was. I
was, nevertheless, twenty years old; and although Jael and Sally were
the only specimens of the other sex which had risen on my horizon, yet
once or twice, since I had read Shakspeare, I had had a boy's lovely
dreams of the divinity of womanhood.  They began, and ended--mere
dreams.  Soon dawned the bare, hard truth, that my character was too
feeble and womanish to be likely to win any woman's reverence or love.
Or, even had this been possible, one sickly as I was, stricken with
hereditary disease, ought never to seek to perpetuate it by marriage.
I therefore put from me, at once and for ever, every feeling of that
kind; and during my whole life--I thank God!--have never faltered in my
resolution.  Friendship was given me for love--duty for happiness.  So
best, and I was satisfied.

This conviction, and the struggle succeeding it--for, though brief, it
was but natural that it should have been a hard struggle--was the only
secret that I had kept from John.  It had happened some months now, and
was quite over and gone, so that I could smile at his fun, and shake at
him my "bewitching" black locks, calling him a foolish boy.  And while
I said it, the notion slowly dawning during the long gaze he had
complained of, forced itself upon me, clear as daylight, that he was
not a "boy" any longer.

"Now let me turn the tables.  How old are YOU, John?"

"You know.  Eighteen next week."

"And how tall?"

"Five feet eleven inches and a half."  And, rising, he exhibited to its
full advantage that very creditable altitude, more tall perhaps than
graceful, at present; since, like most youths, he did not as yet quite
know what to do with his legs and arms.  But he was--

I cannot describe what he was.  I could not then.  I only remember that
when I looked at him, and began jocularly "Imprimis," my heart came up
into my throat and choked me.

It was almost with sadness that I said, "Ah! David, you are quite a
young man now."

He smiled, of course only with pleasure, looking forward to the new
world into which he was going forth; the world into which, as I knew
well, I could never follow him.

"I am glad I look rather old for my years," said he, when, after a
pause, he had again flung himself down on the grass.  "It tells well in
the tan-yard.  People would be slow to trust a clerk who looked a mere
boy.  Still, your father trusts me."

"He does, indeed.  You need never have any doubt of that.  It was only
yesterday he said to me that now he was no longer dissatisfied with
your working at all sorts of studies, in leisure hours, since it made
you none the worse man of business."

"No, I hope not, or I should be much ashamed.  It would not be doing my
duty to myself any more than to my master, if I shirked his work for my
own.  I am glad he does not complain now, Phineas."

"On the contrary; I think he intends to give you a rise this Midsummer.
But oh!" I cried, recurring to a thought which would often come when I
looked at the lad, though he always combated it so strongly, that I
often owned my prejudices were unjust:  "how I wish you were something
better than a clerk in a tan-yard.  I have a plan, John."

But what that plan was, was fated to remain unrevealed.  Jael came to
us in the garden, looking very serious.  She had been summoned, I knew,
to a long conference with her master the day before--the subject of
which she would not tell me, though she acknowledged it concerned
myself.  Ever since she had followed me about, very softly, for her,
and called me more than once, as when I was a child, "my dear."  She
now came with half-dolorous, half-angry looks, to summon me to an
interview with my father and Doctor Jessop.

I caught her parting mutterings, as she marched behind me:  "Kill or
cure, indeed,"--"No more fit than a baby,"--"Abel Fletcher be clean
mad,"--"Hope Thomas Jessop will speak out plain, and tell him so," and
the like.  From these, and from her strange fit of tenderness, I
guessed what was looming in the distance--a future which my father
constantly held in terrorem over me, though successive illness had kept
it in abeyance.  Alas! I knew that my poor father's hopes and plans
were vain!  I went into his presence with a heavy heart.

There is no need to detail that interview.  Enough, that after it he
set aside for ever his last lingering hope of having a son able to
assist, and finally succeed him in his business, and that I set aside
every dream of growing up to be a help and comfort to my father.  It
cost something on both our parts; but after that day's discussion we
tacitly covered over the pain, and referred to it no more.

I came back into the garden, and told John Halifax all.  He listened
with his hand on my shoulder, and his grave, sweet look--dearer
sympathy than any words!  Though he added thereto a few, in his own
wise way; then he and I, also, drew the curtain over an inevitable
grief, and laid it in the peaceful chamber of silence.

When my father, Dr. Jessop, John Halifax, and I, met at dinner, the
subject had passed into seeming oblivion, and was never afterwards
revived.

But dinner being over, and the chatty little doctor gone, while Abel
Fletcher sat mutely smoking his pipe, and we two at the window
maintained that respectful and decorous silence which in my young days
was rigidly exacted by elders and superiors, I noticed my father's eyes
frequently resting, with keen observance, upon John Halifax.  Could it
be that there had recurred to him a hint of mine, given faintly that
morning, as faintly as if it had only just entered my mind, instead of
having for months continually dwelt there, until a fitting moment
should arrive?--Could it be that this hint, which he had indignantly
scouted at the time, was germinating in his acute brain, and might bear
fruit in future days?  I hoped so--I earnestly prayed so.  And to that
end I took no notice, but let it silently grow.

The June evening came and went.  The service-bell rang out and ceased.
First, deep shadows, and then a bright star, appeared over the
Abbey-tower.  We watched it from the garden, where, Sunday after
Sunday, in fine weather, we used to lounge, and talk over all manner of
things in heaven and in earth, chiefly ending with the former, as on
Sunday nights, with stars over our head, was natural and fit we should
do.

"Phineas," said John, sitting on the grass with his hands upon his
knees, and the one star, I think it was Jupiter, shining down into his
eyes, deepening them into that peculiar look, worth any so-called
"handsome eyes;"--"Phineas, I wonder how soon we shall have to rise up
from this quiet, easy life, and fight our battles in the world? Also, I
wonder if we are ready for it?"

"I think you are."

"I don't know.  I'm not clear how far I could resist doing anything
wrong, if it were pleasant.  So many wrong things are pleasant--just
now, instead of rising to-morrow, and going into the little dark
counting-house, and scratching paper from eight till six, shouldn't I
like to break away!--dash out into the world, take to all sorts of wild
freaks, do all sorts of grand things, and perhaps never come back to
the tanning any more."

"Never any more?"

"No! no! I spoke hastily.  I did not mean I ever should do such a wrong
thing; but merely that I sometimes feel the wish to do it.  I can't
help it; it's my Apollyon that I have to fight with--everybody keeps a
private Apollyon, I fancy.  Now, Phineas, be content; Apollyon is
beaten down."

He rose up, but I thought that, in the red glow of the twilight, he
looked rather pale.  He stretched his hand to help me up from the
grass.  We went into the house together, silently.

After supper, when the chimes struck half-past nine, John prepared to
leave as usual.  He went to bid good-night to my father, who was
sitting meditatively over the fireless hearth-place, sometimes poking
the great bow-pot of fennel and asparagus, as in winter he did the
coals:  an instance of obliviousness, which, in my sensible and acute
father, argued very deep cogitation on some subject or other.

"Good-night," said John, twice over, before his master heard him.

"Eh?--Oh, good-night, good-night, lad!  Stay!  Halifax, what hast thee
got to do to-morrow?"

"Not much, unless the Russian hides should come in; I cleared off the
week's accounts last night, as usual."

"Ay, to-morrow I shall look over all thy books and see how thee
stand'st, and what further work thou art fit for.  Therefore, take a
day's holiday, if thee likes."

We thanked him warmly.  "There, John," whispered I, "you may have your
wish, and run wild to-morrow."

He said, "the wish had gone out of him."  So we planned a sweet lazy
day under the Midsummer sky, in some fields about a mile off, called
the Vineyards.

The morning came, and we took our way thither, under the Abbey walls,
and along a lane, shaded on one side by the "willows in the
water-courses."  We came out in those quiet hay-fields, which,
tradition says, had once grown wine for the rosy monks close by, and
history avers, were afterwards watered by a darker stream than the
blood of grapes.  The Vineyards had been a battle-field; and under the
long wavy grass, and the roots of the wild apple trees, slept many a
Yorkist and Lancastrian.  Sometimes an unusually deep furrow turned out
a white bone--but more often the relics were undisturbed, and the
meadows used as pastures or hay-fields.

John and I lay down on some wind-rows, and sunned ourselves in the warm
and delicious air.  How beautiful everything was! so very still! with
the Abbey-tower--always the most picturesque point in our Norton Bury
views--showing so near, that it almost seemed to rise up out of the
fields and hedge-rows.

"Well, David," and I turned to the long, lazy figure beside me, which
had considerably flattened the hay, "are you satisfied?"

"Ay."

Thus we lounged out all the summer morning, recurring to a few of the
infinitude of subjects we used to compare notes upon; though we were
neither of us given to wordiness, and never talked but when we had
something to say.  Often--as on this day--we sat for hours in a
pleasant dreaminess, scarcely exchanging a word; nevertheless, I could
generally track John's thoughts, as they went wandering on, ay, as
clearly as one might track a stream through a wood; sometimes--like
to-day--I failed.

In the afternoon, when we had finished our bread and cheese--eaten
slowly and with graceful dignity, in order to make dinner a more
important and lengthy affair--he said abruptly--

"Phineas, don't you think this field is rather dull?  Shall we go
somewhere else? not if it tires you, though."

I protested the contrary, my health being much above the average this
summer.  But just as we were quitting the field we met two rather
odd-looking persons entering it, young-old persons they seemed, who
might own to any age or any occupation.  Their dress, especially that
of the younger, amused us by its queer mixture of fashionableness and
homeliness, such as grey ribbed stockings and shining paste
shoe-buckles, rusty velvet small-clothes and a coatee of blue cloth.
But the wearer carried off this anomalous costume with an easy,
condescending air, full of pleasantness, humour, and grace.

"Sir," said he, approaching John Halifax with a bow that I feel sure
the "first gentleman of his day," as loyal folk then entitled the
Prince Regent, could not have surpassed--"Sir, will you favour me by
informing us how far it is to Coltham?"

"Ten miles, and the stage will pass here in three hours."

"Thank you; at present I have little to do with the--at least with THAT
stage.  Young gentlemen, excuse our continuing our dessert, in fact, I
may say our dinner.  Are you connoisseurs in turnips?"

He offered us--with a polite gesture--one of the "swedes" he was
munching.  I declined; but John, out of a deeper delicacy than I could
boast, accepted it.

"One might dine worse," he said; "I have done, sometimes."

"It was a whim of mine, sir.  But I am not the first remarkable person
who has eaten turnips in your Norton Bury fields--ay, and turned
field-preacher afterwards--the celebrated John Philip--"

Here the elder and less agreeable of the two wayfarers interposed with
a nudge, indicating silence.

"My companion is right, sir," he continued.  "I will not betray our
illustrious friend by mentioning his surname; he is a great man now,
and might not wish it generally known that he had dined off turnips.
May I give you instead my own humble name?"

He gave it me; but I, Phineas Fletcher, shall copy his reticence, and
not indulge the world therewith.  It was a name wholly out of my
sphere, both then and now; but I know it has since risen into note
among the people of the world.  I believe, too, its owner has carried
up to the topmost height of celebrity always the gay, gentlemanly
spirit and kindly heart which he showed when sitting with us and eating
swedes.  Still, I will not mention his surname--I will only call him
"Mr. Charles."

"Now, having satisfactorily 'munched, and munched, and munched,' like
the sailor's wife who had chestnuts in her lap--are you acquainted with
my friend, Mr. William Shakspeare, young gentleman?--I must try to
fulfil the other duties of existence.  You said the Coltham mail passed
here in three hours?  Very well.  I have the honour of wishing you a
very good day, Mr.--"

"Halifax."

"And yours?"

"Fletcher."

"Any connection with him who went partnership with the worthy Beaumont?"

"My father has no partner, sir," said I.  But John, whose reading had
lately surpassed mine, and whom nothing ever puzzled, explained that I
came from the same old stock as the brothers Phineas and Giles
Fletcher.  Upon which Mr. Charles, who till now had somewhat overlooked
me, took off his hat, and congratulated me on my illustrious descent.

"That man has evidently seen a good deal of the world," said John,
smiling; "I wonder what the world is like!"

"Did you not see something of it as a child?"

"Only the worst and lowest side; not the one I want to see now.  What
business do you think that Mr. Charles is?  A clever man, anyhow; I
should like to see him again."

"So should I."

Thus talking at intervals and speculating upon our new acquaintance, we
strolled along till we came to a spot called by the country people,
"The Bloody Meadow," from being, like several other places in the
neighbourhood, the scene of one of those terrible slaughters chronicled
in the wars of the Roses.  It was a sloping field, through the middle
of which ran a little stream down to the meadow's end, where, fringed
and hidden by a plantation of trees, the Avon flowed. Here, too, in all
directions, the hay-fields lay, either in green swathes, or tedded, or
in the luxuriously-scented quiles.  The lane was quite populous with
waggons and hay-makers--the men in their corduroys and blue hose--the
women in their trim jackets and bright calamanco petticoats.  There
were more women than men, by far, for the flower of the peasant youth
of England had been drafted off to fight against "Bonyparty."  Still
hay-time was a glorious season, when half our little town turned out
and made holiday in the sunshine.

"I think we will go to a quieter place, John.  There seems a crowd down
in the meadow; and who is that man standing on the hay-cart, on the
other side the stream?"

"Don't you remember the bright blue coat?  'Tis Mr. Charles.  How he's
talking and gesticulating!  What can he be at?"

Without more ado John leaped the low hedge, and ran down the slope of
the Bloody Meadow.  I followed less quickly.

There, of a surety, stood our new friend, on one of the
simple-fashioned hay-carts that we used about Norton Bury, a low
framework on wheels, with a pole stuck at either of the four corners.
He was bare-headed, and his hair hung in graceful curls, well powdered.
I only hope he had honestly paid the tax, which we were all then
exclaiming against--so fondly does custom cling to deformity. Despite
the powder, the blue coat, and the shabby velvet breeches, Mr. Charles
was a very handsome and striking-looking man.  No wonder the poor
hay-makers had collected from all parts to hear him harangue.

What was he haranguing upon?  Could it be, that like his friend, "John
Philip," whoever that personage might be, his vocation was that of a
field preacher?  It seemed like it, especially judging from the
sanctified demeanour of the elder and inferior person who accompanied
him; and who sat in the front of the cart, and folded his hands and
groaned, after the most approved fashion of a methodistical "revival."

We listened, expecting every minute to be disgusted and shocked:  but
no! I must say this for Mr. Charles, that in no way did he trespass the
bounds of reverence and decorum.  His harangue, though given as a
sermon, was strictly and simply a moral essay, such as might have
emanated from any professor's chair.  In fact, as I afterwards learnt,
he had given for his text one which the simple rustics received in all
respect, as coming from a higher and holier volume than Shakspeare--

          "Mercy is twice blessed:
      It blesseth him that gives and him that takes.
      'Tis mightiest in the mightiest."

And on that text did he dilate; gradually warming with his subject,
till his gestures--which at first had seemed burthened with a queer
constraint, that now and then resulted in an irrepressible twitch of
the corners of his flexible mouth--became those of a man beguiled into
real earnestness.  We of Norton Bury had never heard such eloquence.

"Who CAN he be, John?  Isn't it wonderful?"

But John never heard me.  His whole attention was riveted on the
speaker.  Such oratory--a compound of graceful action, polished
language, and brilliant imagination, came to him as a positive
revelation, a revelation from the world of intellect, the world which
he longed after with all the ardour of youth.

What that harangue would have seemed like, could we have heard it with
maturer ears, I know not; but at eighteen and twenty it literally
dazzled us.  No wonder it affected the rest of the audience.  Feeble
men, leaning on forks and rakes, shook their old heads sagely, as if
they understood it all.  And when the speaker alluded to the horrors of
war--a subject which then came so bitterly home to every heart in
Britain--many women melted into sobs and tears.  At last, when the
orator himself, moved by the pictures he had conjured up, paused
suddenly, quite exhausted, and asked for a slight contribution "to help
a deed of charity," there was a general rush towards him.

"No--no, my good people," said Mr. Charles, recovering his natural
manner, though a little clouded, I thought, by a faint shade of
remorse; "no, I will not take from any one more than a penny; and then
only if they are quite sure they can spare it.  Thank you, my worthy
man.  Thanks, my bonny young lass--I hope your sweetheart will soon be
back from the wars.  Thank you all, my 'very worthy and approved good
masters,' and a fair harvest to you!"

He bowed them away, in a dignified and graceful manner, still standing
on the hay-cart.  The honest folk trooped off, having no more time to
waste, and left the field in possession of Mr. Charles, his co-mate,
and ourselves; whom I do not think he had as yet noticed.

He descended from the cart.  His companion burst into roars of
laughter; but Charles looked grave.

"Poor, honest souls!" said he, wiping his brows--I am not sure that it
was only his brows--"Hang me if I'll be at this trick again, Yates."

"It was a trick then, sir," said John, advancing.  "I am sorry for it."

"So am I, young man," returned the other, no way disconcerted; indeed,
he seemed a person whose frank temper nothing could disconcert.  "But
starvation is--excuse me,--unpleasant; and necessity has no law.  It is
of vital consequence that I should reach Coltham to-night; and after
walking twenty miles one cannot easily walk ten more, and afterwards
appear as Macbeth to an admiring audience."

"You are an actor?"

"I am, please your worship--

            'A poor player,
      That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
      And then is seen no more.'"

There was inexpressible pathos in his tone, and his fine face looked
thin and worn--it did not take much to soften both John's feelings and
mine towards the "poor player."  Besides, we had lately been studying
Shakspeare, who for the first time of reading generally sends all young
people tragedy-mad.

"You acted well to-day," said John; "all the folk here took you for a
methodist preacher."

"Yet I never meddled with theology--only common morality.  You cannot
say I did."

John thought a moment, and then answered--

"No.  But what put the scheme into your head?"

"The fact that, under a like necessity, the same amusing play was
played out here years ago, as I told you, by John Philip--no, I will
not conceal his name, the greatest actor and the truest gentleman our
English stage has ever seen--John Philip Kemble."

And he raised his hat with sincere reverence.  We too had heard--at
least John had--of this wonderful man.

I saw the fascination of Mr. Charles's society was strongly upon him.
It was no wonder.  More brilliant, more versatile talent I never saw.
He turned "from grave to gay, from lively to severe"--appearing in all
phases like the gentleman, the scholar, and the man of the world. And
neither John nor I had ever met any one of these characters, all so
irresistibly alluring at our age.

I say OUR, because though I followed where he led, I always did it of
my own will likewise.

The afternoon began to wane, while we, with our two companions, yet sat
talking by the brook-side.  Mr. Charles had washed his face, and his
travel-sore, blistered feet, and we had induced him, and the man he
called Yates, to share our remnants of bread and cheese.

"Now," he said, starting up, "I am ready to do battle again, even with
the Thane of Fife--who, to-night, is one Johnson, a fellow of six feet
and twelve stone.  What is the hour, Mr. Halifax?"

"Mr. Halifax"--(I felt pleased to hear him for the first time so
entitled)--had, unfortunately, no watch among his worldly possessions,
and candidly owned the fact.  But he made a near guess by calculating
the position of his unfailing time-piece, the sun.--It was four o'clock.

"Then I must go.  Will you not retract, young gentlemen?  Surely you
would not lose such a rare treat as 'Macbeth,' with--I will not say my
humble self--but with that divine Siddons.  Such a woman! Shakspeare
himself might lean out of Elysium to watch her.  You will join us?"

John made a silent, dolorous negative; as he had done once or twice
before, when the actor urged us to accompany him to Coltham for a few
hours only--we might be back by midnight, easily.

"What do you think, Phineas?" said John, when we stood in the
high-road, waiting for the coach; "I have money--and--we have so little
pleasure--we would send word to your father.  Do you think it would be
wrong?"

I could not say; and to this minute, viewing the question nakedly in a
strict and moral sense, I cannot say either whether or no it was an
absolute crime; therefore, being accustomed to read my wrong or right
in "David's" eyes, I remained perfectly passive.

We waited by the hedge-side for several minutes--Mr. Charles ceased his
urging, half in dudgeon, save that he was too pleasant a man really to
take offence at anything.  His conversation was chiefly directed to me.
John took no part therein, but strolled about plucking at the hedge.

When the stage appeared down the winding of the road I was utterly
ignorant of what he meant us to do, or if he had any definite purpose
at all.

It came--the coachman was hailed.  Mr. Charles shook hands with us and
mounted--paying his own fare and that of Yates with their handful of
charity-pennies, which caused a few minutes' delay in counting, and a
great deal of good-humoured joking, as good-humouredly borne.

Meanwhile, John put his two hands on my shoulders, and looked hard into
my face--his was slightly flushed and excited, I thought.

"Phineas, are you tired?"

"Not at all."

"Do you feel strong enough to go to Coltham?  Would it do you no harm?
Would you LIKE to go?"

To all these hurried questions I answered with as hurried an
affirmative.  It was sufficient to me that he evidently liked to go.

"It is only for once--your father would not grudge us the pleasure, and
he is too busy to be out of the tan-yard before midnight.  We will be
home soon after then, if I carry you on my back all the ten miles.
Come, mount, we'll go."

"Bravo!" cried Mr. Charles, and leaned over to help me up the coach's
side.  John followed, and the crisis was past.

But I noticed that for several miles he hardly spoke one word.



CHAPTER VI

Near as we lived to Coltham, I had only been there once in my life; but
John Halifax knew the town pretty well, having latterly in addition to
his clerkship been employed by my father in going about the
neighbourhood buying bark.  I was amused when the coach stopped at an
inn, which bore the ominous sign of the "Fleece," to see how well
accustomed he seemed to be to the ways of the place.  He deported
himself with perfect self-possession; the waiter served him
respectfully.  He had evidently taken his position in the world--at
least, our little world--he was no longer a boy, but a man.  I was glad
to see it; leaving everything in his hands, I lay down where he placed
me in the inn parlour, and watched him giving his orders and walking
about.  Sometimes I thought his eyes were restless and unquiet, but his
manner was as composed as usual.

Mr. Charles had left us, appointing a meeting at Coffee-house Yard,
where the theatre then was.

"A poor barn-like place, I believe," said John, stopping in his walk up
and down the room to place my cushions more easy; "they should build a
new one, now Coltham is growing up into such a fashionable town.  I
wish I could take you to see the "Well-walk," with all the fine people
promenading.  But you must rest, Phineas."

I consented, being indeed rather weary.

"You will like to see Mrs. Siddons, whom we have so often talked about?
She is not young now, Mr. Charles says, but magnificent still.  She
first came out in this same theatre more than twenty years ago.  Yates
saw her.  I wonder, Phineas, if your father ever did."

"Oh, no my father would not enter a play-house for the world."

"What!"

"Nay, John, you need not look so troubled.  You know he did not bring
me up in the Society, and its restrictions are not binding upon me."

"True, true."  And he resumed his walk, but not his cheerfulness. "If
it were myself alone, now, of course what I myself hold to be a lawful
pleasure I have a right to enjoy; or, if not, being yet a lad and under
a master--well, I will bear the consequences," added he, rather
proudly; "but to share them--Phineas," turning suddenly to me, "would
you like to go home?--I'll take you."

I protested earnestly against any such thing; told him I was sure we
were doing nothing wrong--which was, indeed, my belief; entreated him
to be merry and enjoy himself, and succeeded so well, that in a few
minutes we had started in a flutter of gaiety and excitement for
Coffee-house Yard.

It was a poor place--little better than a barn, as Mr. Charles had
said--built in a lane leading out of the principal street.  This lane
was almost blocked up with play-goers of all ranks and in all sorts of
equipages, from the coach-and-six to the sedan-chair, mingled with a
motley crowd on foot, all jostling, fighting, and screaming, till the
place became a complete bear-garden.

"Oh, John! take care!" and I clung to his arm.

"Never mind!  I'm big enough and strong enough for any crowd.  Hold on,
Phineas."  If I had been a woman, and the woman that he loved, he could
not have been more tender over my weakness.  The physical
weakness--which, however humiliating to myself, and doubtless
contemptible in most men's eyes--was yet dealt by the hand of Heaven,
and, as such, regarded by John only with compassion.

The crowd grew denser and more formidable.  I looked beyond it, up
towards the low hills that rose in various directions round the town;
how green and quiet they were, in the still June evening!  I only
wished we were safe back again at Norton Bury.

But now there came a slight swaying in the crowd, as a sedan-chair was
borne through--or attempted to be--for the effort failed.  There was a
scuffle, one of the bearers was knocked down and hurt.  Some cried
"shame!" others seemed to think this incident only added to the frolic.
At last, in the midst of the confusion, a lady put her head out of the
sedan and gazed around her.

It was a remarkable countenance; once seen, you could never forget it.
Pale, rather large and hard in outline, an aquiline nose--full,
passionate, yet sensitive lips--and very dark eyes.  She spoke, and the
voice belonged naturally to such a face.  "Good people, let me pass--I
am Sarah Siddons."

The crowd divided instantaneously, and in moving set up a cheer that
must have rang through all the town.  There was a minute's pause, while
she bowed and smiled--such a smile!--and then the sedan curtain closed.

"Now's the time--only hold fast to me!" whispered John, as he sprang
forward, dragging me after him.  In another second he had caught up the
pole dropped by the man who was hurt; and before I well knew what we
were about we both stood safe inside the entrance of the theatre.

Mrs. Siddons stepped out, and turned to pay her bearers--a most simple
action--but so elevated in the doing that even it, I thought, could not
bring her to the level of common humanity.  The tall, cloaked, and
hooded figure, and the tones that issued thence, made her, even in that
narrow passage, under the one flaring tallow-candle, a veritable Queen
of tragedy--at least so she seemed to us two.

The one man was paid--over-paid, apparently, from his thankfulness--and
she turned to John Halifax.

"I regret, young man, that you should have had so much trouble.  Here
is some requital."

He took the money, selected from it one silver coin, and returned the
rest.

"I will keep this, madam, if you please, as a memento that I once had
the honour of being useful to Mrs. Siddons."

She looked at him keenly, out of her wonderful dark eyes, then curtsied
with grave dignity--"I thank you, sir," she said, and passed on.

A few minutes after some underling of the theatre found us out and
brought us, "by Mrs. Siddons' desire," to the best places the house
could afford.

It was a glorious night.  At this distance of time, when I look back
upon it my old blood leaps and burns.  I repeat, it was a glorious
night!

Before the curtain rose we had time to glance about us on that scene,
to both entirely new--the inside of a theatre.  Shabby and small as the
place was, it was filled with all the beau monde of Coltham, which
then, patronized by royalty, rivalled even Bath in its fashion and
folly.  Such a dazzle of diamonds and spangled turbans and
Prince-of-Wales' plumes.  Such an odd mingling of costume, which was
then in a transition state, the old ladies clinging tenaciously to the
stately silken petticoats and long bodices, surmounted by the prim and
decent bouffantes, while the younger belles had begun to flaunt in the
French fashions of flimsy muslins, shortwaisted--narrow-skirted.  These
we had already heard Jael furiously inveighing against:  for Jael,
Quakeress as she was, could not quite smother her original propensity
towards the decoration of "the flesh," and betrayed a suppressed but
profound interest in the same.

John and I quite agreed with her, that it was painful to see gentle
English girls clad, or rather un-clad, after the fashion of our enemies
across the Channel; now, unhappy nation! sunk to zero in politics,
religion, and morals--where high-bred ladies went about dressed as
heathen goddesses, with bare arms and bare sandalled feet, gaining none
of the pure simplicity of the ancient world, and losing all the
decorous dignity of our modern times.

We two--who had all a boy's mysterious reverence for womanhood in its
most ideal, most beautiful form, and who, I believe, were, in our
ignorance, expecting to behold in every woman an Imogen, a Juliet, or a
Desdemona--felt no particular attraction towards the ungracefully
attired, flaunting, simpering belles of Coltham.

But--the play began.

I am not going to follow it:  all the world has heard of the Lady
Macbeth of Mrs. Siddons.  This, the first and last play I ever
witnessed, stands out to my memory, after more than half a century, as
clear as on that night.  Still I can see her in her first scene,
"reading a letter"--that wondrous woman, who, in spite of her modern
black velvet and point lace, did not act, but WAS, Lady Macbeth: still
I hear the awe-struck, questioning, weird-like tone, that sent an
involuntary shudder through the house, as if supernatural things were
abroad--"THEY MADE THEMSELVES--AIR!"  And still there quivers through
the silence that piteous cry of a strong heart broken--"ALL THE
PERFUMES OF ARABIA WILL NEVER SWEETEN THIS LITTLE HAND!"

Well, she is gone, like the brief three hours when we hung on her every
breath, as if it could stay even the wheels of time.  But they have
whirled on--whirled her away with them into the infinite, and into
earthly oblivion!  People tell me that a new generation only smiles at
the traditional glory of Sarah Siddons.  They never saw her.  For me, I
shall go down to the grave worshipping her still.

Of him whom I call Mr. Charles I have little to say.  John and I both
smiled when we saw his fine, frank face and manly bearing subdued into
that poor, whining, sentimental craven, the stage Macbeth.  Yet I
believe he acted it well.  But we irresistibly associated his idea with
that of turnip munching and hay-cart oratory.  And when, during the
first colloquy of Banquo with the witches, Macbeth took the opportunity
of winking privately at us over the foot-lights, all the paraphernalia
of the stage failed to make the murderous Thane of Cawdor aught else
than our humorous and good-natured Mr. Charles.  I never saw him after
that night.  He is still living--may his old age have been as peaceful
as his youth was kind and gay!

The play ended.  There was some buffoonery still to come, but we would
not stay for that.  We staggered, half-blind and dazzled, both in eyes
and brain, out into the dark streets, John almost carrying me.  Then we
paused, and leaning against a post which was surmounted by one of the
half-dozen oil lamps which illumined the town, tried to regain our
mental equilibrium.

John was the first to do it.  Passing his hand over his brow he bared
it to the fresh night-air, and drew a deep, hard breath.  He was very
pale, I saw.

"John?"

He turned, and laid a hand on my shoulder.  "What did you say?  Are you
cold?"

"No."  He put his arm so as to shield the wind from me, nevertheless.

"Well," said he, after a pause, "we have had our pleasure, and it is
over.  Now we must go back to the old ways again.  I wonder what
o'clock it is?"

He was answered by a church clock striking, heard clearly over the
silent town.  I counted the strokes--ELEVEN!

Horrified, we looked at one another by the light of the lamp.  Until
this minute we had taken no note of time.  Eleven o'clock!  How should
we get home to Norton Bury that night?

For, now the excitement was over, I turned sick and faint; my limbs
almost sank under me.

"What must we do, John?"

"Do! oh! 'tis quite easy.  You cannot walk--you shall not walk--we must
hire a gig and drive home.  I have enough money--all my month's
wages--see!"  He felt in his pockets one after the other; his
countenance grew blank.  "Why! where is my money gone to?"

Where, indeed! But that it was gone, and irretrievably--most likely
stolen when we were so wedged in the crowd--there could be no manner of
doubt.  And I had not a groat.  I had little use for money, and rarely
carried any.

"Would not somebody trust us?" suggested I.

"I never asked anybody for credit in my life--and for a horse and
gig--they'd laugh at me.  Still--yes--stay here a minute, and I'll try."

He came back, though not immediately, and took my arm with a reckless
laugh.

"It's of no use, Phineas--I'm not so respectable as I thought. What's
to be done?"

Ay! what indeed!  Here we were, two friendless youths, with not a penny
in our pockets, and ten miles away from home.  How to get there, and at
midnight too, was a very serious question.  We consulted a minute, and
then John said firmly:

"We must make the best of it and start.  Every instant is precious.
Your father will think we have fallen into some harm.  Come, Phineas,
I'll help you on."

His strong, cheery voice, added to the necessity of the circumstances,
braced up my nerves.  I took hold of his arm, and we marched on bravely
through the shut-up town, and for a mile or two along the high-road
leading to Norton Bury.  There was a cool fresh breeze:  and I often
think one can walk so much further by night than by day.  For some
time, listening to John's talk about the stars--he had lately added
astronomy to the many things he tried to learn--and recalling with him
all that we had heard and seen this day, I hardly felt my weariness.

But gradually it grew upon me; my pace lagged slower and slower--even
the scented air of the midsummer-night imparted no freshness.  John
wound his young arm, strong and firm as iron, round my waist, and we
got on awhile in that way.

"Keep up, Phineas.  There's a hayrick near.  I'll wrap you in my coat,
and you shall rest there:  an hour or two will not matter now--we shall
get home by daybreak."

I feebly assented; but it seemed to me that we never should get
home--at least I never should.  For a short way more, I dragged
myself--or rather, was dragged--along; then the stars, the shadowy
fields, and the winding, white high-road mingled and faded from me.  I
lost all consciousness.

When I came to myself I was lying by a tiny brook at the roadside, my
head resting on John's knees.  He was bathing my forehead:  I could not
see him, but I heard his smothered moan.

"David, don't mind.  I shall be well directly."

"Oh! Phineas--Phineas; I thought I had killed you."

He said no more; but I fancied that under cover of the night he yielded
to what his manhood might have been ashamed of--yet need not--a few
tears.

I tried to rise.  There was a faint streak in the east.  "Why, it is
daybreak!  How far are we from Norton Bury?"

"Not very far.  Don't stir a step.  I shall carry you."

"Impossible!"

"Nonsense; I have done it for half-a-mile already.  Come, mount!  I am
not going to have Jonathan's death laid at David's door."

And so, masking command with a jest, he had his way.  What strength
supported him I cannot tell, but he certainly carried me--with many
rests between, and pauses, during which I walked a quarter of a mile or
so--the whole way to Norton Bury.

The light broadened and broadened.  When we reached my father's door,
haggard and miserable, it was in the pale sunshine of a summer morning.

"Thank God!" murmured John, as he set me down at the foot of the steps.
"You are safe at home."

"And you.  You will come in--you would not leave me now?"

He thought a moment--then said, "No!"

We looked up doubtfully at the house; there were no watchers there. All
the windows were closed, as if the whole peaceful establishment were
taking its sleep, prior to the early stirring of Norton Bury
households.  Even John's loud knocking was some time before it was
answered.

I was too exhausted to feel much; but I know those five awful minutes
seemed interminable.  I could not have borne them, save for John's
voice in my ear.

"Courage!  I'll bear all the blame.  We have committed no absolute sin,
and have paid dearly for any folly.  Courage!"

At the five minutes' end my father opened the door.  He was dressed as
usual, looked as usual.  Whether he had sat up watching, or had
suffered any anxiety, I never found out.

He said nothing; merely opened the door, admitted us, and closed it
behind us.  But we were certain, from his face, that he knew all.  It
was so; some neighbour driving home from Coltham had taken pains to
tell Abel Fletcher where he had seen his son--at the very last place a
Friend's son ought to be seen--the play-house.  We knew that it was by
no means to learn the truth, but to confront us with it, that my
father--reaching the parlour, and opening the shutters that the hard
daylight should shame us more and more--asked the stern question--

"Phineas, where hast thee been?"

John answered for me.  "At the theatre at Coltham.  It was my fault. He
went because I wished to go."

"And wherefore didst thee wish to go?"

"Wherefore?" the answer seemed hard to find.  "Oh! Mr Fletcher, were
you never young like me?"

My father made no reply; John gathered courage.

"It was, as I say, all my fault.  It might have been wrong--I think now
that it was--but the temptation was hard.  My life here is dull; I long
sometimes for a little amusement--a little change."

"Thee shall have it."

That voice, slow and quiet as it was, struck us both dumb.

"And how long hast thee planned this, John Halifax?"

"Not a day--not an hour! it was a sudden freak of mine."  (My father
shook his head with contemptuous incredulity.)  "Sir!--Abel
Fletcher--did I ever tell you a lie?  If you will not believe me,
believe your own son.  Ask Phineas--No, no, ask him nothing!"  And he
came in great distress to the sofa where I had fallen.  "Oh, Phineas!
how cruel I have been to you!"

I tried to smile at him, being past speaking--but my father put John
aside.

"Young man, _I_ can take care of my son.  Thee shalt not lead him into
harm's way any more.  Go--I have been mistaken in thee!"

If my father had gone into a passion, had accused us, reproached us,
and stormed at us with all the ill-language that men of the world use!
but that quiet, cold, irrevocable, "I have been mistaken in thee!" was
ten times worse.

John lifted to him a mute look, from which all pride had ebbed away.

"I repeat, I have been mistaken in thee!  Thee seemed a lad to my mind;
I trusted thee.  This day, by my son's wish, I meant to have bound thee
'prentice to me, and in good time to have taken thee into the business.
Now--"

There was silence.  At last John muttered, in a low broken-hearted
voice, "I deserve it all.  I can go away.  I might perhaps earn my
living elsewhere; shall I?"

Abel Fletcher hesitated, looked at the poor lad before him (oh, David!
how unlike to thee), then said, "No--I do not wish that.  At least, not
at present."

I cried out in the joy and relief of my heart.  John came over to me,
and we clasped hands.

"John, you will not go?"

"No, I will stay to redeem my character with your father.  Be content,
Phineas--I won't part with you."

"Young man, thou must," said my father, turning round.

"But--"

"I have said it, Phineas.  I accuse him of no dishonesty, no crime, but
of weakly yielding, and selfishly causing another to yield, to the
temptation of the world.  Therefore, as my clerk I retain him; as my
son's companion--never!"

We felt that "never" was irrevocable.

Yet I tried, blindly and despairingly, to wrestle with it; I might as
well have flung myself against a stone wall.

John stood perfectly silent.

"Don't, Phineas," he whispered at last; "never mind me.  Your father is
right--at least so far as he sees.  Let me go--perhaps I may come back
to you some time.  If not--"

I moaned out bitter words--I hardly knew what I was saying.  My father
took no notice of them, only went to the door and called Jael.

Then, before the woman came, I had strength enough to bid John go.

"Good-bye--don't forget me, don't!"

"I will not," he said; "and if I live we shall be friends again.
Good-bye, Phineas."  He was gone.

After that day, though he kept his word, and remained in the tan-yard,
and though from time to time I heard of him--always
accidentally,--after that day for two long years I never once saw the
face of John Halifax.



CHAPTER VII

It was the year 1800, long known in English households as "the dear
year."  The present generation can have no conception of what a
terrible time that was--War, Famine, and Tumult stalking hand-in-hand,
and no one to stay them.  For between the upper and lower classes there
was a great gulf fixed; the rich ground the faces of the poor, the poor
hated, yet meanly succumbed to, the rich. Neither had Christianity
enough boldly to cross the line of demarcation, and prove, the humbler,
that they were men,--the higher and wiser, that they were gentlemen.

These troubles, which were everywhere abroad, reached us even in our
quiet town of Norton Bury.  For myself, personally, they touched me
not, or, at least, only kept fluttering like evil birds outside the
dear home-tabernacle, where I and Patience sat, keeping our solemn
counsel together--for these two years had with me been very hard.

Though I had to bear so much bodily suffering that I was seldom told of
any worldly cares, still I often fancied things were going ill both
within and without our doors.  Jael complained in an under-key of
stinted housekeeping, or boasted aloud of her own ingenuity in making
ends meet:  and my father's brow grew continually heavier, graver,
sterner; sometimes so stern that I dared not wage, what was, openly or
secretly, the quiet but incessant crusade of my existence--the bringing
back of John Halifax.

He still remained my father's clerk--nay, I sometimes thought he was
even advancing in duties and trusts, for I heard of his being sent long
journeys up and down England to buy grain--Abel Fletcher having added
to his tanning business the flour-mill hard by, whose lazy whirr was so
familiar to John and me in our boyhood.  But of these journeys my
father never spoke; indeed, he rarely mentioned John at all.  However
he might employ and even trust him in business relations, I knew that
in every other way he was inexorable.

And John Halifax was as inexorable as he.  No under-hand or clandestine
friendship would he admit--no, not even for my sake.  I knew quite
well, that until he could walk in openly, honourably, proudly, he never
would re-enter my father's doors.  Twice only he had written to me--on
my two birthdays--my father himself giving me in silence the unsealed
letters.  They told me what I already was sure of--that I held, and
always should hold, my steadfast place in his friendship.  Nothing more.

One other fact I noticed:  that a little lad, afterward discovered to
be Jem Watkins, to whom had fallen the hard-working lot of the lost
Bill, had somehow crept into our household as errand-boy, or gardener's
boy; and being "cute," and a "scholard," was greatly patronized by
Jael.  I noticed, too, that the said Jem, whenever he came in my way,
in house or garden, was the most capital "little foot-page" that ever
invalid had; knowing intuitively all my needs, and serving me with an
unfailing devotion, which quite surprised and puzzled me at the time.
It did not afterwards.

Summer was passing.  People began to watch with anxious looks the thin
harvest-fields--as Jael often told me, when she came home from her
afternoon walks.  "It was piteous to see them," she said; "only July,
and the quartern loaf nearly three shillings, and meal four shillings a
peck."

And then she would glance at our flour-mill, where for several days a
week the water-wheel was as quiet as on Sundays; for my father kept his
grain locked up, waiting for what, he wisely judged, might be a worse
harvest than the last.  But Jael, though she said nothing, often looked
at the flour-mill and shook her head.  And after one market-day--when
she came in rather "flustered," saying there had been a mob outside the
mill, until "that young man Halifax" had gone out and spoken to
them--she never once allowed me to take my rare walk under the trees in
the Abbey-yard; nor, if she could help it, would she even let me sit
watching the lazy Avon from the garden-wall.

One Sunday--it was the 1st of August, for my father had just come back
from meeting, very much later than usual, and Jael said he had gone, as
was his annual custom on that his wedding-day, to the Friends' burial
ground in St. Mary's Lane, where, far away from her own kindred and
people, my poor young mother had been laid,--on this one Sunday I began
to see that things were going wrong.  Abel Fletcher sat at dinner
wearing the heavy, hard look which had grown upon his face not
unmingled with the wrinkles planted by physical pain.  For, with all
his temperance, he could not quite keep down his hereditary enemy,
gout; and this week it had clutched him pretty hard.

Dr. Jessop came in, and I stole away gladly enough, and sat for an hour
in my old place in the garden, idly watching the stretch of meadow,
pasture, and harvest land.  Noticing, too, more as a pretty bit in the
landscape than as a fact of vital importance, in how many places the
half-ripe corn was already cut, and piled in thinly-scattered sheaves
over the fields.

After the doctor left, my father sent for me and all his household: in
the which, creeping humbly after the woman-kind, was now numbered the
lad Jem.  That Abel Fletcher was not quite himself was proved by the
fact that his unlighted pipe lay on the table, and his afternoon
tankard of ale sank from foam to flatness untouched.

He first addressed Jael.  "Woman, was it thee who cooked the dinner
to-day?"

She gave a dignified affirmative.

"Thee must give us no more such dinners.  No cakes, no pastry
kickshaws, and only wheaten bread enough for absolute necessity.  Our
neighbours shall not say that Abel Fletcher has flour in his mill, and
plenty in his house, while there is famine abroad in the land. So take
heed."

"I do take heed," answered Jael, staunchly.  "Thee canst not say I
waste a penny of thine.  And for myself, do I not pity the poor?  On
First-day a woman cried after me about wasting good flour in
starch--to-day, behold."

And with a spasmodic bridling-up, she pointed to the bouffante which
used to stand up stiffly round her withered old throat, and stick out
in front like a pouter pigeon.  Alas! its glory and starch were alike
departed; it now appeared nothing but a heap of crumpled and yellowish
muslin.  Poor Jael!  I knew this was the most heroic personal sacrifice
she could have made, yet I could not help smiling; even my father did
the same.

"Dost thee mock me, Abel Fletcher?" cried she angrily.  "Preach not to
others while the sin lies on thy own head."

And I am sure poor Jael was innocent of any jocular intention, as
advancing sternly she pointed to her master's pate, where his long-worn
powder was scarcely distinguishable from the snows of age. He bore the
assault gravely and unshrinkingly, merely saying, "Woman, peace!"

"Nor while"--pursued Jael, driven apparently to the last and most
poisoned arrow in her quiver of wrath--"while the poor folk be starving
in scores about Norton Bury, and the rich folk there will not sell
their wheat under famine price.  Take heed to thyself, Abel Fletcher."

My father winced, either from a twinge of gout or conscience; and then
Jael suddenly ceased the attack, sent the other servants out of the
room, and tended her master as carefully as if she had not insulted
him.  In his fits of gout my father, unlike most men, became the
quieter and easier to manage the more he suffered.  He had a long fit
of pain which left him considerably exhausted.  When, being at last
relieved, he and I were sitting in the room alone, he said to me--

"Phineas, the tan-yard has thriven ill of late, and I thought the mill
would make up for it.  But if it will not it will not.  Wouldst thee
mind, my son, being left a little poor when I am gone?"

"Father!"

"Well, then, in a few days I will begin selling my wheat, as that lad
has advised and begged me to do these weeks past.  He is a sharp lad,
and I am getting old.  Perhaps he is right."

"Who, father?" I asked, rather hypocritically.

"Thee knowest well enough--John Halifax."

I thought it best to say no more; but I never let go one thread of hope
which could draw me nearer to my heart's desire.

On the Monday morning my father went to the tan-yard as usual.  I spent
the day in my bed-room, which looked over the garden, where I saw
nothing but the waving of the trees and the birds hopping over the
smooth grass; heard nothing but the soft chime, hour after hour, of the
Abbey bells.  What was passing in the world, in the town, or even in
the next street, was to me faint as dreams.

At dinner-time I rose, went down-stairs, and waited for my father;
waited one, two, three hours.  It was very strange.  He never by any
chance overstayed his time, without sending a message home.  So after
some consideration as to whether I dared encroach upon his formal
habits so much, and after much advice from Jael, who betrayed more
anxiety than was at all warranted by the cause she assigned, viz. the
spoiled dinner, I despatched Jem Watkins to the tan-yard to see after
his master.

He came back with ill news.  The lane leading to the tan-yard was
blocked up with a wild mob.  Even the stolid, starved patience of our
Norton Bury poor had come to an end at last--they had followed the
example of many others.  There was a bread-riot in the town.

God only knows how terrible those "riots" were; when the people rose in
desperation, not from some delusion of crazy, blood-thirsty
"patriotism," but to get food for themselves, their wives, and
children.  God only knows what madness was in each individual heart of
that concourse of poor wretches, styled "the mob," when every man took
up arms, certain that there were before him but two alternatives,
starving or--hanging.

The riot here was scarcely universal.  Norton Bury was not a large
place, and had always abundance of small-pox and fevers to keep the
poor down numerically.  Jem said it was chiefly about our mill and our
tan-yard that the disturbance lay.

"And where is my father?"

Jem "didn't know," and looked very much as if he didn't care.

"Jael, somebody must go at once, and find my father."

"I am going," said Jael, who had already put on her cloak and hood. Of
course, despite all her opposition, I went too.

The tan-yard was deserted; the mob had divided, and gone, one half to
our mill, the rest to another that was lower down the river.  I asked
of a poor frightened bark-cutter if she knew where my father was? She
thought he was gone for the "millingtary;" but Mr. Halifax was at the
mill now--she hoped no harm would come to Mr. Halifax.

Even in that moment of alarm I felt a sense of pleasure.  I had not
been in the tan-yard for nearly three years.  I did not know John had
come already to be called "Mr. Halifax."

There was nothing for me but to wait here till my father returned. He
could not surely be so insane as to go to the mill--and John was there.
Terribly was my heart divided, but my duty lay with my father.

Jael sat down in the shed, or marched restlessly between the tan-pits.
I went to the end of the yard, and looked down towards the mill.  What
a half-hour it was!

At last, exhausted, I sat down on the bark heap where John and I had
once sat as lads.  He must now be more than twenty; I wondered if he
were altered.

"Oh, David! David!" I thought, as I listened eagerly for any sounds
abroad in the town; "what should I do if any harm came to thee?"

This minute I heard a footstep crossing the yard.  No, it was not my
father's--it was firmer, quicker, younger.  I sprang from the barkheap.

"Phineas!"

"John!"

What a grasp that was--both hands! and how fondly and proudly I looked
up in his face--the still boyish face.  But the figure was quite that
of a man now.

For a minute we forgot ourselves in our joy, and then he let go my
hands, saying hurriedly--

"Where is your father?"

"I wish I knew!--Gone for the soldiers, they say."

"No, not that--he would never do that.  I must go and look for him.
Good-bye."

"Nay, dear John!"

"Can't--can't," said he, firmly, "not while your father forbids.  I
must go."  And he was gone.

Though my heart rebelled, my conscience defended him; marvelling how it
was that he who had never known his father should uphold so sternly the
duty of filial obedience.  I think it ought to act as a solemn warning
to those who exact so much from the mere fact and name of parenthood,
without having in any way fulfilled its duties, that orphans from birth
often revere the ideal of that bond far more than those who have known
it in reality.  Always excepting those children to whose blessed lot it
has fallen to have the ideal realized.

In a few minutes I saw him and my father enter the tan-yard together.
He was talking earnestly, and my father was listening--ay,
listening--and to John Halifax!  But whatever the argument was, it
failed to move him.  Greatly troubled, but staunch as a rock, my old
father stood, resting his lame foot on a heap of hides.  I went to meet
him.

"Phineas," said John, anxiously, "come and help me.  No, Abel
Fletcher," he added, rather proudly, in reply to a sharp, suspicious
glance at us both; "your son and I only met ten minutes ago, and have
scarcely exchanged a word.  But we cannot waste time over that matter
now.  Phineas, help me to persuade your father to save his property. He
will not call for the aid of the law, because he is a Friend. Besides,
for the same reason, it might be useless asking."

"Verily!" said my father, with a bitter and meaning smile.

"But he might get his own men to defend his property, and need not do
what he is bent on doing--go to the mill himself."

"Surely," was all Abel Fletcher said, planting his oaken stick firmly,
as firmly as his will, and taking his way to the river-side, in the
direction of the mill.

I caught his arm--"Father, don't go."

"My son," said he, turning on me one of his "iron looks," as I used to
call them--tokens of a nature that might have ran molten once, and had
settled into a hard, moulded mass, of which nothing could afterwards
alter one form, or erase one line--"My son, no opposition. Any who try
that with me fail.  If those fellows had waited two days more I would
have sold all my wheat at a hundred shillings the quarter; now they
shall have nothing.  It will teach them wisdom another time.  Get thee
safe home, Phineas, my son; Jael, go thou likewise."

But neither went.  John held me back as I was following my father.

"He will do it, Phineas, and I suppose he must.  Please God, I'll take
care no harm touches him--but you go home."

That was not to be thought of.  Fortunately, the time was too brief for
argument, so the discussion soon ended.  He followed my father and I
followed him.  For Jael, she disappeared.

There was a private path from the tan-yard to the mill, along the
river-side; by this we went, in silence.  When we reached the spot it
was deserted; but further down the river we heard a scuffling, and saw
a number of men breaking down our garden wall.

"They think he is gone home," whispered John; "we'll get in here the
safer.  Quick, Phineas."

We crossed the little bridge; John took a key out of his pocket, and
let us into the mill by a small door--the only entrance, and that was
barred and trebly barred within.  It had good need to be in such times.

The mill was a queer, musty, silent place, especially the machinery
room, the sole flooring of which was the dark, dangerous stream.  We
stood there a good while--it was the safest place, having no windows.
Then we followed my father to the top story, where he kept his bags of
grain.  There were very many; enough, in these times, to make a large
fortune by--a cursed fortune wrung out of human lives.

"Oh! how could my father--"

"Hush!" whispered John, "it was for his son's sake, you know."

But while we stood, and with a meaning but rather grim smile Abel
Fletcher counted his bags, worth almost as much as bags of gold--we
heard a hammering at the door below.  The rioters were come.

Miserable "rioters!"--A handful of weak, starved men--pelting us with
stones and words.  One pistol-shot might have routed them all--but my
father's doctrine of non-resistance forbade.  Small as their force
seemed, there was something at once formidable and pitiful in the low
howl that reached us at times.

"Bring out the bags!--Us mun have bread!"

"Throw down thy corn, Abel Fletcher!"

"Abel Fletcher WILL throw it down to ye, ye knaves," said my father,
leaning out of the upper window; while a sound, half curses, half
cheers of triumph, answered him from below.

"That is well," exclaimed John, eagerly.  "Thank you--thank you, Mr.
Fletcher--I knew you would yield at last."

"Didst thee, lad?" said my father, stopping short.

"Not because they forced you--not to save your life--but because it was
right."

"Help me with this bag," was all the reply.

It was a great weight, but not too great for John's young arm, nervous
and strong.  He hauled it up.

"Now, open the window--dash the panes through--it matters not.  On to
the window, I tell thee."

"But if I do, the bag will fall into the river.  You cannot--oh,
no!--you cannot mean that!"

"Haul it up to the window, John Halifax."

But John remained immovable.

"I must do it myself, then;" and, in the desperate effort he made,
somehow the bag of grain fell, and fell on his lame foot.  Tortured
into frenzy with the pain--or else, I will still believe, my old father
would not have done such a deed--his failing strength seemed doubled
and trebled.  In an instant more he had got the bag half through the
window, and the next sound we heard was its heavy splash in the river
below.

Flung into the river, the precious wheat, and in the very sight of the
famished rioters!  A howl of fury and despair arose.  Some plunged into
the water, ere the eddies left by the falling mass had ceased--but it
was too late.  A sharp substance in the river's bed had cut the bag,
and we saw thrown up to the surface, and whirled down the Avon,
thousands of dancing grains.  A few of the men swam, or waded after
them, clutching a handful here or there--but by the mill-pool the river
ran swift, and the wheat had all soon disappeared, except what remained
in the bag when it was drawn on shore.  Over even that they fought like
demons.

We could not look at them--John and I.  He put his hand over his eyes,
muttering the Name that, young man as he was, I had never yet heard
irreverently and thoughtlessly on his lips.  It was a sight that would
move any one to cry for pity unto the Great Father of the human family.

Abel Fletcher sat on his remaining bags, in an exhaustion that I think
was not all physical pain.  The paroxysm of anger past, he, ever a just
man, could not fail to be struck with what he had done. He seemed
subdued, even to something like remorse.

John looked at him, and looked away.  For a minute he listened in
silence to the shouting outside, and then turned to my father.

"Sir, you must come now.  Not a second to lose--they will fire the mill
next."

"Let them."

"Let them?--and Phineas is here!"

My poor father!  He rose at once.

We got him down-stairs--he was very lame--his ruddy face all drawn and
white with pain; but he did not speak one word of opposition, or utter
a groan of complaint.

The flour-mill was built on piles, in the centre of the narrow river.
It was only a few steps of bridge-work to either bank.  The little door
was on the Norton Bury side, and was hid from the opposite shore, where
the rioters had now collected.  In a minute we had crept forth, and
dashed out of sight, in the narrow path which had been made from the
mill to the tan-yard.

"Will you take my arm? we must get on fast."

"Home?" said my father, as John led him passively along.

"No, sir, not home:  they are there before you.  Your life's not safe
an hour--unless, indeed, you get soldiers to guard it."

Abel Fletcher gave a decided negative.  The stern old Quaker held to
his principles still.

"Then you must hide for a time--both of you.  Come to my room.  You
will be secure there.  Urge him, Phineas--for your sake and his own."

But my poor broken-down father needed no urging.  Grasping more tightly
both John's arm and mine, which, for the first time in his life, he
leaned upon, he submitted to be led whither we chose.  So, after this
long interval of time, I once more stood in Sally Watkins' small attic;
where, ever since I first brought him there, John Halifax had lived.

Sally knew not of our entrance; she was out, watching the rioters. No
one saw us but Jem, and Jem's honour was safe as a rock.  I knew that
in the smile with which he pulled off his cap to "Mr. Halifax."

"Now," said John, hastily smoothing his bed, so that my father might
lie down, and wrapping his cloak round me--"you must both be very
still.  You will likely have to spend the night here.  Jem shall bring
you a light and supper.  You will make yourself easy, Abel Fletcher?"

"Ay."  It was strange to see how decidedly, yet respectfully, John
spoke, and how quietly my father answered.

"And, Phineas"--he put his arm round my shoulder in his old way--"you
will take care of yourself.  Are you any stronger than you used to be?"

I clasped his hand without reply.  My heart melted to hear that tender
accent, so familiar once.  All was happening for the best, if it only
gave me back David.

"Now good-bye--I must be off."

"Whither?" said my father, rousing himself.

"To try and save the house and the tan-yard--I fear we must give up the
mill.  No, don't hold me, Phineas.  I run no risk:  everybody knows me.
Besides, I am young.  There! see after your father.  I shall come back
in good time."

He grasped my hands warmly--then unloosed them; and I heard his step
descending the staircase.  The room seemed to darken when he went away.

The evening passed very slowly.  My father, exhausted with pain, lay on
the bed and dozed.  I sat watching the sky over the housetops, which
met in the old angles, with the same blue peeps between.  I half forgot
all the day's events--it seemed but two weeks, instead of two years
ago, that John and I had sat in this attic-window, conning our
Shakspeare for the first time.

Ere twilight I examined John's room.  It was a good deal changed; the
furniture was improved; a score of ingenious little contrivances made
the tiny attic into a cosy bed-chamber.  One corner was full of
shelves, laden with books, chiefly of a scientific and practical
nature.  John's taste did not lead him into the current literature of
the day:  Cowper, Akenside, and Peter Pindar were alike indifferent to
him.  I found among his books no poet but Shakspeare.

He evidently still practised his old mechanical arts.  There was lying
in the window a telescope--the cylinder made of pasteboard--into which
the lenses were ingeniously fitted.  A rough telescope-stand, of common
deal, stood on the ledge of the roof, from which the field of view must
have been satisfactory enough to the young astronomer.  Other fragments
of skilful handiwork, chiefly meant for machinery on a Lilliputian
scale, were strewn about the floor; and on a chair, just as he had left
it that morning, stood a loom, very small in size, but perfect in its
neat workmanship, with a few threads already woven, making some fabric
not so very unlike cloth.

I had gone over all these things without noticing that my father was
awake, and that his sharp eye had observed them likewise.

"The lad works hard," said he, half to himself.  "He has useful hands
and a clear head."  I smiled, but took no notice whatever.

Evening began to close in--less peacefully than usual--over Norton
Bury; for, whenever I ventured to open the window, we heard unusual and
ominous sounds abroad in the town.  I trembled inwardly.  But John was
prudent, as well as brave:  besides, "everybody knew him." Surely he
was safe.

Faithfully, at supper-time, Jem entered.  But he could tell us no news;
he had kept watch all the time on the staircase by desire of "Mr.
Halifax"--so he informed me.  My father asked no questions--not even
about his mill.  From his look, sometimes, I fancied he yet beheld in
fancy these starving men fighting over the precious food, destroyed so
wilfully--nay, wickedly.  Heaven forgive me, his son, if I too harshly
use the word; for I think, till the day of his death, that cruel sight
never wholly vanished from the eyes of my poor father.

Jem seemed talkatively inclined.  He observed that "master was looking
sprack agin; and warn't this a tidy room, like?"

I praised it; and supposed his mother was better off now?

"Ay, she be.  Mr. Halifax pays her a good rent; and she sees 'un made
comfortable.  Not that he wants much, being out pretty much all day."

"What is he busy about of nights?"

"Larning," said Jem, with an awed look.  "He's terrible wise.  But for
all that, sometimes he'll teach Charley and me a bit o' the
Readamadeasy."  (Reading-made-easy, I suppose, John's hopeful pupil
meant.)  "He's very kind to we, and to mother too.  Her says, that her
do, Mr. Halifax--"

"Send the fellow away, Phineas," muttered my father, turning his face
to the wall.

I obeyed.  But first I asked, in a whisper, if Jem had any idea when
"Mr. Halifax" would be back?

"He said, maybe not till morning.  Them's bad folk about.  He was going
to stop all night, either at your house or at the tan-yard, for fear of
a BLAZE."

The word made my father start; for in these times well we knew what
poor folk meant by "a blaze."

"My house--my tan-yard--I must get up this instant--help me.  He ought
to come back--that lad Halifax.  There's a score of my men at
hand--Wilkes, and Johnson, and Jacob Baines--I say, Phineas--but thee
know'st nothing."

He tried to dress, and to drag on his heavy shoes; but fell back, sick
with exhaustion and pain.  I made him lie down again on the bed.

"Phineas, lad," said he, brokenly, "thy old father is getting as
helpless as thee."

So we kept watch together, all the night through; sometimes dozing,
sometimes waking up at some slight noise below, or at the flicker of
the long-wicked candle, which fear converted into the glare of some
incendiary fire--doubtless our own home.  Now and then I heard my
father mutter something about "the lad being safe."  I said nothing. I
only prayed.

Thus the night wore away.



CHAPTER VIII

After Midnight--I know not how long, for I lost count of the hours by
the Abbey chimes, and our light had gone out--after midnight I heard by
my father's breathing that he was asleep.  I was thankful to see it for
his sake, and also for another reason.

I could not sleep--all my faculties were preternaturally alive; my weak
body and timid mind became strong and active, able to compass anything.
For that one night, at least, I felt myself a man.

My father was a very sound sleeper.  I knew nothing would disturb him
till daylight; therefore my divided duty was at an end.  I left him,
and crept down-stairs into Sally Watkins' kitchen.  It was silent, only
the faithful warder, Jem, dozed over the dull fire.  I touched him on
the shoulder--at which he collared me and nearly knocked me down.

"Beg pardon, Mr. Phineas--hope I didn't hurt 'ee, sir?" cried he, all
but whimpering; for Jem, a big lad of fifteen, was the most
tender-hearted fellow imaginable.  "I thought it were some of them folk
that Mr. Halifax ha' gone among."

"Where is Mr. Halifax?"

"Doan't know, sir--wish I did! wouldn't be long a finding out,
though--on'y he says:  'Jem, you stop 'ere wi' they'" (pointing his
thumb up the staircase).  "So, Master Phineas, I stop."

And Jem settled himself with a doggedly obedient, but most dissatisfied
air down by the fire-place.  It was evident nothing would move him
thence:  so he was as safe a guard over my poor old father's slumber as
the mastiff in the tan-yard, who was as brave as a lion and as docile
as a child.  My last lingering hesitation ended.

"Jem, lend me your coat and hat--I'm going out into the town."

Jem was so astonished, that he stood with open mouth while I took the
said garments from him, and unbolted the door.  At last it seemed to
occur to him that he ought to intercept me.

"But, sir, Mr. Halifax said--"

"I am going to look for Mr. Halifax."

And I escaped outside.  Anything beyond his literal duty did not strike
the faithful Jem.  He stood on the door-sill, and gazed after me with a
hopeless expression.

"I s'pose you mun have your way, sir; but Mr. Halifax said, 'Jem, you
stop y'ere,'--and y'ere I stop."

He went in, and I heard him bolting the door, with a sullen
determination, as if he would have kept guard against it--waiting for
John--until doomsday.

I stole along the dark alley into the street.  It was very silent--I
need not have borrowed Jem's exterior, in order to creep through a
throng of maddened rioters.  There was no sign of any such, except that
under one of the three oil-lamps that lit the night-darkness at Norton
Bury lay a few smouldering hanks of hemp, well resined.  They, then,
had thought of that dreadful engine of destruction--fire.  Had my
terrors been true?  Our house--and perhaps John within it!

On I ran, speeded by a dull murmur, which I fancied I heard; but still
there was no one in the street--no one except the Abbey-watchman
lounging in his box.  I roused him, and asked if all was safe?--where
were the rioters?

"What rioters?"

"At Abel Fletcher's mill; they may be at his house now--"

"Ay, I think they be."

"And will not one man in the town help him; no constables--no law?"

"Oh! he's a Quaker; the law don't help Quakers."

That was the truth--the hard, grinding truth--in those days. Liberty,
justice, were idle names to Nonconformists of every kind; and all they
knew of the glorious constitution of English law was when its iron hand
was turned against them.

I had forgotten this; bitterly I remembered it now.  So wasting no more
words, I flew along the church-yard, until I saw, shining against the
boles of the chestnut-trees, a red light.  It was one of the hempen
torches.  Now, at last, I had got in the midst of that small body of
men, "the rioters."

They were a mere handful--not above two score--apparently the relics of
the band which had attacked the mill, joined with a few plough-lads
from the country around.  But they were desperate; they had come up the
Coltham road so quietly, that, except this faint murmur, neither I nor
any one in the town could have told they were near. Wherever they had
been ransacking, as yet they had not attacked my father's house; it
stood up on the other side the road--barred, black, silent.

I heard a muttering--"Th' old man bean't there."--"Nobody knows where
he be."  No, thank God!

"Be us all y'ere?" said the man with the torch, holding it up so as to
see round him.  It was well then that I appeared as Jem Watkins. But no
one noticed me, except one man, who skulked behind a tree, and of whom
I was rather afraid, as he was apparently intent on watching.

"Ready, lads?  Now for the rosin!  Blaze 'un out."

But, in the eager scuffle, the torch, the only one alight, was knocked
down and trodden out.  A volley of oaths arose, though whose fault it
was no one seemed to know; but I missed my man from behind the
tree--nor found him till after the angry throng had rushed on to the
nearest lamp.  One of them was left behind, standing close to our own
railings.  He looked round to see if none were by, and then sprang over
the gate.  Dark as it was I thought I recognized him.

"John?"

"Phineas?"  He was beside me in a bound.  "How could you do--"

"I could do anything to-night.  But you are safe; no one has harmed
you.  Oh, thank God, you are not hurt!"

And I clung to his arm--my friend, whom I had missed so long, so sorely.

He held me tight--his heart felt as mine, only more silently.

"Now, Phineas, we have a minute's time.  I must have you safe--we must
get into the house."

"Who is there?"

"Jael; she is as good as a host of constables; she has braved the
fellows once to-night, but they're back again, or will be directly."

"And the mill?"

"Safe, as yet; I have had three of the tan-yard men there since
yesterday morning, though your father did not know.  I have been going
to and fro all night, between there and here, waiting till the rioters
should come back from the Severn mills.  Hist!--here they are--I say,
Jael?"

He tapped at the window.  In a few seconds Jael had unbarred the door,
let us in, and closed it again securely, mounting guard behind it with
something that looked very like my father's pistols, though I would not
discredit her among our peaceful society by positively stating the fact.

"Bravo!" said John, when we stood all together in the barricaded house,
and heard the threatening murmur of voices and feet outside. "Bravo,
Jael!  The wife of Heber the Kenite was no braver woman than you."

She looked gratified, and followed John obediently from room to room.

"I have done all as thee bade me--thee art a sensible lad, John
Halifax.  We are secure, I think."

Secure? bolts and bars secure against fire?  For that was threatening
us now.

"They can't mean it--surely they can't mean it," repeated John, as the
cry of "Burn 'un out!" rose louder and louder.

But they did mean it.  From the attic window we watched them light
torch after torch, sometimes throwing one at the house,--but it fell
harmless against the staunch oaken door, and blazed itself out on our
stone steps.  All it did was to show more plainly than even daylight
had shown, the gaunt, ragged forms and pinched faces, furious with
famine.

John, as well as I, recoiled at that miserable sight.

"I'll speak to them," he said.  "Unbar the window, Jael;" and before I
could hinder, he was leaning right out.  "Holloa, there!"

At his loud and commanding voice a wave of up-turned faces surged
forward, expectant.

"My men, do you know what you are about?  To burn down a gentleman's
house is--hanging."

There was a hush, and then a shout of derision.

"Not a Quaker's! nobody'll get hanged for burning out a Quaker!"

"That be true enough," muttered Jael between her teeth.  "We must e'en
fight, as Mordecai's people fought, hand to hand, until they slew their
enemies."

"Fight!" repeated John, half to himself, as he stood at the now-closed
window, against which more than one blazing torch began to rattle.
"Fight--with these?--What are you doing, Jael?"

For she had taken down a large Book--the last Book in the house she
would have taken under less critical circumstances, and with it was
trying to stop up a broken pane.

"No, my good Jael, not this;" and he carefully replaced the volume;
that volume, in which he might have read, as day after day, and year
after year, we Christians generally do read, such plain words as
these--"Love your enemies;" "bless them that curse you;" "pray for them
that despitefully use you and persecute you."

A minute or two John stood with his hand on the Book, thinking.  Then
he touched me on the shoulder.

"Phineas, I'm going to try a new plan--at least, one so old, that it's
almost new.  Whether it succeeds or no, you'll bear me witness to your
father that I did it for the best, and did it because I thought it
right.  Now for it."

To my horror, he threw up the window wide, and leant out.

"My men, I want to speak to you."

He might as well have spoken to the roaring sea.  The only answer was a
shower of missiles, which missed their aim.  The rioters were too far
off--our spiked iron railings, eight feet high or more, being a barrier
which none had yet ventured to climb.  But at length one random stone
hit John on the chest.

I pulled him in, but he declared he was not hurt.  Terrified, I
implored him not to risk his life.

"Life is not always the first thing to be thought of," said he, gently.
"Don't be afraid--I shall come to no harm.  But I MUST do what I think
right, if it is to be done."

While he spoke, I could hardly hear him for the bellowings outside.
More savage still grew the cry--

"Burn 'em out! burn 'em out!  They be only Quakers!"

"There's not a minute to lose--stop--let me think--Jael, is that a
pistol?"

"Loaded," she said, handing it over to him with a kind of stern
delight.  Certainly, Jael was not meant to be a Friend.

John ran down-stairs, and before I guessed his purpose, had unbolted
the hall-door, and stood on the flight of steps, in full view of the
mob.

There was no bringing him back, so of course I followed.  A pillar
sheltered me--I do not think he saw me, though I stood close behind him.

So sudden had been his act, that even the rioters did not seem to have
noticed, or clearly understood it, till the next lighted torch showed
them the young man standing there, with his back to the door--OUTSIDE
the door.

The sight fairly confounded them.  Even I felt that for the moment he
was safe.  They were awed--nay, paralyzed, by his daring.

But the storm raged too fiercely to be lulled, except for one brief
minute.  A confusion of voices burst out afresh--

"Who be thee?"--"It's one o' the Quakers."--"No, he bean't."--"Burn
'un, anyhow."--"Touch 'un, if ye dare."

There was evidently a division arising.  One big man, who had made
himself very prominent all along, seemed trying to calm the tumult.

John stood his ground.  Once a torch was flung at him--he stooped and
picked it up.  I thought he was going to hurl it back again, but he did
not; he only threw it down, and stamped it out safely with his foot.
This simple action had a wonderful effect on the crowd.

The big fellow advanced to the gate and called John by his name.

"Is that you, Jacob Baines?  I am sorry to see you here."

"Be ye, sir."

"What do you want?"

"Nought wi' thee.  We wants Abel Fletcher.  Where is 'um?"

"I shall certainly not tell you."

As John said this again the noise arose, and again Jacob Baines seemed
to have power to quiet the rest.

John Halifax never stirred.  Evidently he was pretty well known.  I
caught many a stray sentence, such as "Don't hurt the lad."--"He were
kind to my lad, he were."--"No, he be a real gentleman."--"No, he comed
here as poor as us," and the like.  At length one voice, sharp and
shrill, was heard above the rest.

"I zay, young man, didst ever know what it was to be pretty nigh
vamished?"

"Ay, many a time."

The answer, so brief, so unexpected, struck a great hush into the
throng.  Then the same voice cried--

"Speak up, man! we won't hurt 'ee!  You be one o' we!"

"No, I am not one of you.  I'd be ashamed to come in the night and burn
my master's house down."

I expected an outbreak, but none came.  They listened, as it were by
compulsion, to the clear, manly voice that had not in it one shade of
fear.

"What do you do it for?" John continued.  "All because he would not
sell you, or give you, his wheat.  Even so--it was HIS wheat, not
yours.  May not a man do what he likes with his own?"

The argument seemed to strike home.  There is always a lurking sense of
rude justice in a mob--at least a British mob.

"Don't you see how foolish you were?--You tried threats, too.  Now you
all know Mr. Fletcher; you are his men--some of you.  He is not a man
to be threatened."

This seemed to be taken rather angrily; but John went on speaking, as
if he did not observe the fact.

"Nor am I one to be threatened, neither.  Look here--the first one of
you who attempted to break into Mr. Fletcher's house I should most
certainly have shot.  But I'd rather not shoot you, poor, starving
fellows!  I know what it is to be hungry.  I'm sorry for you--sorry
from the bottom of my heart."

There was no mistaking that compassionate accent, nor the murmur which
followed it.

"But what must us do, Mr. Halifax?" cried Jacob Baines: "us be starved
a'most.  What's the good o' talking to we?"

John's countenance relaxed.  I saw him lift his head and shake his hair
back, with that pleased gesture I remember so well of old.  He went
down to the locked gate.

"Suppose I gave you something to eat, would you listen to me
afterwards?"

There arose up a frenzied shout of assent.  Poor wretches! they were
fighting for no principle, true or false, only for bare life.  They
would have bartered their very souls for a mouthful of bread.

"You must promise to be peaceable," said John again, very resolutely,
as soon as he could obtain a hearing.  "You are Norton Bury folk, I
know you.  I could get every one of you hanged, even though Abel
Fletcher is a Quaker.  Mind, you'll be peaceable?"

"Ay--ay!  Some'at to eat; give us some'at to eat."

John Halifax called out to Jael; bade her bring all the food of every
kind that there was in the house, and give it to him out of the
parlour-window.  She obeyed--I marvel now to think of it--but she
implicitly obeyed.  Only I heard her fix the bar to the closed front
door, and go back, with a strange, sharp sob, to her station at the
hall-window.

"Now, my lads, come in!" and he unlocked the gate.

They came thronging up the steps, not more than two score, I imagined,
in spite of the noise they had made.  But two score of such famished,
desperate men, God grant I may never again see!

John divided the food as well as he could among them; they fell to it
like wild beasts.  Meat, cooked or raw, loaves, vegetables, meal; all
came alike, and were clutched, gnawed, and scrambled for, in the fierce
selfishness of hunger.  Afterwards there was a call for drink.

"Water, Jael; bring them water."

"Beer!" shouted some.

"Water," repeated John.  "Nothing but water.  I'll have no drunkards
rioting at my master's door."

And, either by chance or design, he let them hear the click of his
pistol.  But it was hardly needed.  They were all cowed by a mightier
weapon still--the best weapon a man can use--his own firm indomitable
will.

At length all the food we had in the house was consumed.  John told
them so; and they believed him.  Little enough, indeed, was sufficient
for some of them; wasted with long famine, they turned sick and faint,
and dropped down even with bread in their mouths, unable to swallow it.
Others gorged themselves to the full, and then lay along the steps,
supine as satisfied brutes.  Only a few sat and ate like rational human
beings; and there was but one, the little, shrill-voiced man, who asked
me if he might "tak a bit o' bread to the old wench at home?"

John, hearing, turned, and for the first time noticed me.

"Phineas, it was very wrong of you; but there is no danger now."

No, there was none--not even for Abel Fletcher's son.  I stood safe by
John's side, very happy, very proud.

"Well, my men," he said, looking round with a smile, "have you had
enough to eat?"

"Oh, ay!" they all cried.

And one man added--"Thank the Lord!"

"That's right, Jacob Baines:  and, another time, trust the Lord.  You
wouldn't then have been abroad this summer morning"--and he pointed to
the dawn just reddening in the sky--"this quiet, blessed summer
morning, burning and rioting, bringing yourselves to the gallows, and
your children to starvation."

"They be nigh that a'ready," said Jacob, sullenly.  "Us men ha' gotten
a meal, thankee for it; but what'll become o' the little 'uns at home?
I say, Mr. Halifax," and he seemed waxing desperate again, "we must get
some food somehow."

John turned away, his countenance very sad.  Another of the men plucked
at him from behind.

"Sir, when thee was a poor lad I lent thee a rug to sleep on; I doan't
grudge 'ee getting on; you was born for a gentleman, sure-ly. But
Master Fletcher be a hard man."

"And a just one," persisted John.  "You that work for him, did he ever
stint you of a halfpenny?  If you had come to him and said, 'Master,
times are hard, we can't live upon our wages,' he might--I don't say
that he would--but he MIGHT even have given you the food you tried to
steal."

"D'ye think he'd give it us now?"  And Jacob Baines, the big, gaunt,
savage fellow, who had been the ringleader--the same, too, who had
spoken of his "little 'uns"--came and looked steadily in John's face.

"I knew thee as a lad; thee'rt a young man now, as will be a father
some o' these days.  Oh! Mr. Halifax, may 'ee ne'er want a meal o' good
meat for the missus and the babbies at home, if ee'll get a bit o'
bread for our'n this day."

"My man, I'll try."

He called me aside, explained to me, and asked my advice and consent,
as Abel Fletcher's son, to a plan that had come into his mind.  It was
to write orders, which each man presenting at our mill, should receive
a certain amount of flour.

"Do you think your father would agree?"

"I think he would."

"Yes," John added, pondering--"I am sure he would.  And besides, if he
does not give some, he may lose all.  But he would not do it for fear
of that.  No, he is a just man--I am not afraid.  Give me some paper,
Jael."

He sat down as composedly as if he had been alone in the
counting-house, and wrote.  I looked over his shoulder, admiring his
clear, firm hand-writing; the precision, concentrativeness, and
quickness, with which he first seemed to arrange and then execute his
ideas.  He possessed to the full that "business" faculty, so frequently
despised, but which, out of very ordinary material, often makes a
clever man; and without which the cleverest man alive can never be
altogether a great man.

When about to sign the orders, John suddenly stopped.  "No; I had
better not."

"Why so?"

"I have no right; your father might think it presumption."

"Presumption? after to-night!"

"Oh, that's nothing!  Take the pen.  It is your part to sign them,
Phineas."

I obeyed.

"Isn't this better than hanging?" said John to the men, when he had
distributed the little bits of paper--precious as pound-notes--and made
them all fully understand the same.  "Why, there isn't another
gentleman in Norton Bury, who, if you had come to burn HIS house down,
would not have had the constables or the soldiers, have shot down
one-half of you like mad dogs, and sent the other half to the county
gaol.  Now, for all your misdoings, we let you go quietly home, well
fed, and with food for children, too.  WHY, think you?"

"I don't know," said Jacob Baines, humbly.

"I'll tell you.  Because Abel Fletcher is a Quaker and a Christian."

"Hurrah for Abel Fletcher! hurrah for the Quakers!" shouted they,
waking up the echoes down Norton Bury streets; which, of a surety, had
never echoed to THAT shout before.  And so the riot was over.

John Halifax closed the hall-door and came in--unsteadily--staggering.
Jael placed a chair for him--worthy soul! she was wiping her old eyes.
He sat down, shivering, speechless.  I put my hand on his shoulder; he
took it and pressed it hard.

"Oh! Phineas, lad, I'm glad; glad it's safe over."

"Yes, thank God!"

"Ay, indeed; thank God!"

He covered his eyes for a minute or two, then rose up pale, but quite
himself again.

"Now let us go and fetch your father home."

We found him on John's bed, still asleep.  But as we entered he woke.
The daylight shone on his face--it looked ten years older since
yesterday--he stared, bewildered and angry, at John Halifax.

"Eh, young man--oh! I remember.  Where is my son--where's my Phineas?"

I fell on his neck as if I had been a child.  And almost as if it had
been a child's feeble head, mechanically he smoothed and patted mine.

"Thee art not hurt?  Nor any one?"

"No," John answered; "nor is either the house or the tan-yard injured."

He looked amazed.  "How has that been?"

"Phineas will tell you.  Or, stay--better wait till you are at home."

But my father insisted on hearing.  I told the whole, without any
comments on John's behaviour; he would not have liked it; and, besides,
the facts spoke for themselves.  I told the simple, plain
story--nothing more.

Abel Fletcher listened at first in silence.  As I proceeded he felt
about for his hat, put it on, and drew its broad brim close down over
his eyes.  Not even when I told him of the flour we had promised in his
name, the giving of which would, as we had calculated, cost him
considerable loss, did he utter a word or move a muscle.

John at length asked him if he were satisfied.

"Quite satisfied."

But, having said this, he sat so long, his hands locked together on his
knees, and his hat drawn down, hiding all the face except the rigid
mouth and chin--sat so long, so motionless, that we became uneasy.

John spoke to him gently, almost as a son would have spoken.

"Are you very lame still?  Could I help you to walk home?"

My father looked up, and slowly held out his hand.

"Thee hast been a good lad, and a kind lad to us; I thank thee."

There was no answer, none.  But all the words in the world could not
match that happy silence.

By degrees we got my father home.  It was just such another summer
morning as the one, two years back, when we two had stood, exhausted
and trembling, before that sternly-bolted door.  We both thought of
that day:  I knew not if my father did also.

He entered, leaning heavily on John.  He sat down in the very seat, in
the very room, where he had so harshly judged us--judged him.

Something, perhaps, of that bitterness rankled in the young man's
spirit now, for he stopped on the threshold.

"Come in," said my father, looking up.

"If I am welcome; not otherwise."

"Thee art welcome."

He came in--I drew him in--and sat down with us.  But his manner was
irresolute, his fingers closed and unclosed nervously.  My father, too,
sat leaning his head on his two hands, not unmoved.  I stole up to him,
and thanked him softly for the welcome he had given.

"There is nothing to thank me for," said he, with something of his old
hardness.  "What I once did, was only justice--or I then believed so.
What I have done, and am about to do, is still mere justice. John, how
old art thee now?"

"Twenty."

"Then, for one year from this time I will take thee as my 'prentice,
though thee knowest already nearly as much of the business as I do. At
twenty-one thee wilt be able to set up for thyself, or I may take thee
into partnership--we'll see.  But"--and he looked at me, then sternly,
nay, fiercely, into John's steadfast eyes--"remember, thee hast in some
measure taken that lad's place.  May God deal with thee as thou dealest
with my son Phineas--my only son!"

"Amen!" was the solemn answer.

And God, who sees us both now--ay, NOW! and, perhaps, not so far apart
as some may deem--He knows whether or no John Halifax kept that vow.



CHAPTER IX

"Well done, Phineas--to walk round the garden without once resting! now
I call that grand, after an individual has been ill a month. However,
you must calm your superabundant energies, and be quiet."

I was not unwilling, for I still felt very weak.  But sickness did not
now take that heavy, overpowering grip of me, mind and body, that it
once used to do.  It never did when John was by.  He gave me strength,
mentally and physically.  He was life and health to me, with his brave
cheerfulness--his way of turning all minor troubles into pleasantries,
till they seemed to break and vanish away, sparkling, like the foam on
the top of the wave.  Yet, all the while one knew well that he could
meet any great evil as gallantly as a good ship meets a heavy
sea--breasting it, plunging through it, or riding over it, as only a
good ship can.

When I recovered--just a month after the bread-riot, and that month was
a great triumph to John's kind care--I felt that if I always had him
beside me I should never be ill any more; I said as much, in a laughing
sort of way.

"Very well; I shall keep you to that bargain.  Now, sit down; listen to
the newspaper, and improve your mind as to what the world is doing.  It
ought to be doing something, with the new century it began this year.
Did it not seem very odd at first to have to write '1800'?"

"John, what a capital hand you write now!"

"Do I!  That's somebody's credit.  Do you remember my first lesson on
the top of the Mythe?"

"I wonder what has become of those two gentlemen?"

"Oh! did you never hear?  Young Mr. Brithwood is the 'squire now.  He
married, last month, Lady Somebody Something, a fine lady from abroad."

"And Mr. March--what of him?"

"I haven't the least idea.  Come now, shall I read the paper?"

He read well, and I liked to listen to him.  It was, I remember,
something about "the spacious new quadrangles, to be called Russell and
Tavistock Squares, with elegantly laid out nursery-grounds adjoining."

"It must be a fine place, London."

"Ay; I should like to see it.  Your father says, perhaps he shall have
to send me, this winter, on business--won't that be fine?  If only you
would go too."

I shook my head.  I had the strongest disinclination to stir from my
quiet home, which now held within it, or about it, all I wished for and
all I loved.  It seemed as if any change must be to something worse.

"Nevertheless, you must have a change.  Doctor Jessop insists upon it.
Here have I been beating up and down the country for a week
past--'Adventures in Search of a Country Residence'--and, do you know,
I think I've found one at last.  Shouldn't you like to hear about it?"

I assented, to please him.

"Such a nice, nice place, on the slope of Enderley Hill.  A
cottage--Rose Cottage--for it's all in a bush of cluster-roses, up to
the very roof."

"Where is Enderley?"

"Did you never hear of Enderley Flat, the highest tableland in England?
Such a fresh, free, breezy spot--how the wind sweeps over it!  I can
feel it in my face still."

And even the description was refreshing, this heavy, sultry day, with
not a breath of air moving across the level valley.

"Shouldn't you like to live on a hill-side, to be at the top of
everything, overlooking everything?  Well, that's Enderley:  the
village lies just under the brow of the Flat."

"Is there a village?"

"A dozen cottages or so, at each door of which half-a-dozen white
little heads and a dozen round eyes appeared staring at me.  But oh,
the blessed quiet and solitude of the place!  No fights in filthy
alleys! no tan-yards--I mean"--he added, correcting himself--"it's a
thorough country spot; and I like the country better than the town."

"Do you, still?  Would you really like to take to the 'shepherd's life
and state,' upon which my namesake here is so eloquent?  Let us see
what he says."

And from the handful of books that usually lay strewn about wherever we
two sat, I took up one he had lately got, with no small pains I was
sure, and had had bound in its own proper colour, and presented it to
me--"The Purple Island," and "Sicelides," of Phineas Fletcher. People
seldom read this wise, tender, and sweet-voiced old fellow now; so I
will even copy the verses I found for John to read.

"Here is the place.  Thyrsis is just ending his 'broken lay.'

     'Lest that the stealing night his later song might stay--'"

"Stop a minute," interrupted John.  "Apropos of 'stealing night,' the
sun is already down below the yew-hedge.  Are you cold?"

"Not a bit of it."

"Then we'll begin:--

     'Thrice, oh, thrice happy, shepherd's life and state:
      When courts are happiness, unhappy pawns!'

That's not clear," said John, laying down the book.  "Now I do like
poetry to be intelligible.  A poet ought to see things more widely, and
express them more vividly, than ordinary folk."

"Don't you perceive--he means the pawns on the chess-board--the common
people."

"Phineas, don't say the common people--I'm a common person myself. But
to continue:--

        'His cottage low, and safely humble gate,
      Shuts out proud Fortune, with her scorns and fawns:
         No feared treason breaks his quiet sleep.
         Singing all day, his flocks he learns to keep,
      Himself as innocent as are his quiet sheep.'

(Not many sheep at Enderley, I fancy; the Flat chiefly abounds in
donkeys.  Well--)

        'No Serian worms he knows, that with their thread,
      Drew out their silken lives--nor silken pride--'

Which reminds me that--"

"David, how can you make me laugh at our reverend ancestor in this way?
I'm ashamed of you."

"Only let me tell you this one fact--very interesting, you'll
allow--that I saw a silken gown hanging up in the kitchen at Rose
Cottage. Now, though Mrs. Tod is a decent, comely woman, I don't think
it belonged to her."

"She may have lodgers."

"I think she said she had--an old gentleman--but HE wouldn't wear a
silken gown."

"His wife might.  Now, do go on reading."

"Certainly; I only wish to draw a parallel between Thyrsis and
ourselves in our future summer life at Enderley.  So the old
gentleman's wife may appropriate the 'silken pride,' while we emulate
the shepherd.

     'His lambs' warm fleece well fits his little need--'

I wear a tolerably good coat now, don't I, Phineas?"

"You are incorrigible."

Yet, through all his fun, I detected a certain under-tone of
seriousness, observable in him ever since my father's declaration of
his intentions concerning him, had, so to speak, settled John's future
career.  He seemed aware of some crisis in his life, arrived or
impending, which disturbed the generally even balance of his
temperament.

"Nay, I'll be serious;" and passing over the unfinished verse, with
another or two following, he began afresh, in a new place, and in an
altogether changed tone.

        "'His certain life, that never can deceive him,
      Is full of thousand sweets and rich content;
          The smooth-leaved beeches in the field receive him
      With coolest shades till noon-tide's rage is spent;
          His life is neither tost on boisterous seas
          Of troublous worlds, nor lost in slothful ease.
      Pleased and full blest he lives, when he his God can please.

         'His bed of wool yields safe and quiet sleeps,
      While by his side his faithful spouse hath place;
          His little son into his bosom creeps,
      The lively image of his father's face;
          Never his humble house or state torment him,
          Less he could like, if less his God had sent him;
      And when he dies, green turfs with grassy tomb content him.'"

John ceased.  He was a good reader--but I had never heard him read like
this before.  Ending, one missed it like the breaking of music, or like
the inner voice of one's own heart talking when nobody is by.

"David," I said, after a pause, "what are you thinking about?"

He started, with his old quick blush--"Oh, nothing--No, that's not
quite true.  I was thinking that, so far as happiness goes, this
'shepherd's' is my ideal of a happy life--ay, down to the 'grassy
tomb.'"

"Your fancy leaps at once to the grassy tomb; but the shepherd enjoyed
a few intermediate stages of felicity before that."

"I was thinking of those likewise."

"Then you do intend some day to have a 'faithful spouse and a little
son'?"

"I hope so--God willing."

It may seem strange, but this was the first time our conversation had
ever wandered in a similar direction.  Though he was twenty and I
twenty-two--to us both--and I thank Heaven that we could both look up
in the face of Heaven and say so!--to us both, the follies and
wickednesses of youth were, if not equally unknown, equally and alike
hateful.  Many may doubt, or smile at the fact; but I state it now, in
my old age, with honour and pride, that we two young men that day
trembled on the subject of love as shyly, as reverently, as delicately,
as any two young maidens of innocent sixteen.

After John's serious "God willing," there was a good long silence.
Afterwards, I said--

"Then you propose to marry?"

"Certainly! as soon as I can."

"Have you ever--" and, while speaking, I watched him narrowly, for a
sudden possibility flashed across my mind--"Have you ever seen any one
whom you would like for your wife?"

"No."

I was satisfied.  John's single "No" was as conclusive as a score of
asseverations.

We said no more; but after one of those pauses of conversation which
were habitual to us--John used to say, that the true test of friendship
was to be able to sit or walk together for a whole hour in perfect
silence, without wearying of one another's company--we again began
talking about Enderley.

I soon found, that in this plan, my part was simply acquiescence; my
father and John had already arranged it all.  I was to be in charge of
the latter; nothing could induce Abel Fletcher to leave, even for a
day, his house, his garden, and his tan-yard.  We two young men were to
set up for a month or two our bachelor establishment at Mrs. Tod's:
John riding thrice a-week over to Norton Bury to bring news of me, and
to fulfil his duties at the tan-yard.  One could see plain enough--and
very grateful to me was the sight--that whether or no Abel Fletcher
acknowledged it, his right hand in all his business affairs was the lad
John Halifax.

On a lovely August day we started for Enderley.  It was about eight
miles off, on a hilly, cross-country road.  We lumbered slowly along in
our post-chaise; I leaning back, enjoying the fresh air, the changing
views, and chiefly to see how intensely John enjoyed them too.

He looked extremely well to-day--handsome, I was about to write; but
John was never, even in his youth, "handsome."  Nay, I have heard
people call him "plain"; but that was not true.  His face had that
charm, perhaps the greatest, certainly the most lasting, either in
women or men--of infinite variety.  You were always finding out
something--an expression strange as tender, or the track of a swift,
brilliant thought, or an indication of feeling different from, perhaps
deeper than, anything which appeared before.  When you believed you had
learnt it line by line it would startle you by a phase quite new, and
beautiful as new.  For it was not one of your impassive faces, whose
owners count it pride to harden into a mass of stone those lineaments
which nature made as the flesh and blood representation of the man's
soul.  True, it had its reticences, its sacred disguises, its noble
powers of silence and self-control.  It was a fair-written, open book;
only, to read it clearly, you must come from its own country, and
understand the same language.

For the rest, John was decidedly like the "David" whose name I still
gave him now and then--"a goodly person;" tall, well-built, and strong.
"The glory of a young man is his strength;" and so I used often to
think, when I looked at him.  He always dressed with extreme
simplicity; generally in grey, he was fond of grey; and in something of
our Quaker fashion.  On this day, I remember, I noticed an especial
carefulness of attire, at his age neither unnatural nor unbecoming.
His well-fitting coat and long-flapped vest, garnished with the
snowiest of lawn frills and ruffles; his knee-breeches, black silk
hose, and shoes adorned with the largest and brightest of steel
buckles, made up a costume, which, quaint as it would now appear, still
is, to my mind, the most suitable and graceful that a young man can
wear.  I never see any young men now who come at all near the picture
which still remains in my mind's eye of John Halifax as he looked that
day.

Once, with the natural sensitiveness of youth, especially of youth that
has struggled up through so many opposing circumstances as his had
done, he noticed my glance.

"Anything amiss about me, Phineas?  You see I am not much used to
holidays and holiday clothes."

"I have nothing to say against either you or your clothes," replied I,
smiling.

"That's all right; I beg to state, it is entirely in honour of you and
of Enderley that I have slipped off my tan-yard husk, and put on the
gentleman."

"You couldn't do that, John.  You couldn't put on what you were born
with."

He laughed--but I think he was pleased.

We had now come into a hilly region.  John leaped out and gained the
top of the steep road long before the post-chaise did.  I watched him
standing, balancing in his hands the riding-whip which had replaced the
everlasting rose-switch, or willow-wand, of his boyhood.  His figure
was outlined sharply against the sky, his head thrown backward a
little, as he gazed, evidently with the keenest zest, on the breezy
flat before him.  His hair--a little darker than it used to be, but of
the true Saxon colour still, and curly as ever--was blown about by the
wind, under his broad hat.  His whole appearance was full of life,
health, energy, and enjoyment.

I thought any father might have been proud of such a son, any sister of
such a brother, any young girl of such a lover.  Ay, that last tie, the
only one of the three that was possible to him--I wondered how long it
would be before times changed, and I ceased to be the only one who was
proud of him.

We drove on a little further, and came to the chief landmark of the
high moorland--a quaint hostelry, called the "Bear."  Bruin swung aloft
pole in hand, brown and fierce, on an old-fashioned sign, as he and his
progenitors had probably swung for two centuries or more.

"Is this Enderley?" I asked.

"Not quite, but near it.  You never saw the sea?  Well, from this point
I can show you something very like it.  Do you see that gleaming bit in
the landscape far away?  That's water--that's our very own Severn,
swelled to an estuary.  But you must imagine the estuary--you can only
get that tiny peep of water, glittering like a great diamond that some
young Titaness has flung out of her necklace down among the hills."

"David, you are actually growing poetical."

"Am I?  Well, I do feel rather strange to-day--crazy like; a high wind
always sends me half crazy with delight.  Did you ever feel such a
breeze?  And there's something so gloriously free in this high level
common--as flat as if my Titaness had found a little Mont Blanc, and
amused herself with patting it down like a dough-cake."

"A very culinary goddess."

"Yes! but a goddess after all.  And her dough-cake, her mushroom, her
flattened Mont Blanc, is very fine.  What a broad green sweep--nothing
but sky and common, common and sky.  This is Enderley Flat. We shall
come to its edge soon, where it drops abruptly into such a pretty
valley.  There, look down--that's the church.  We are on a level with
the top of its tower.  Take care, my lad,"--to the post-boy, who was
crossing with difficulty the literally "pathless waste."--"Don't lurch
us into the quarry-pits, or topple us at once down the slope, where we
shall roll over and over--facilis descensus Averni--and lodge in Mrs.
Tod's garden hedge."

"Mrs. Tod would feel flattered if she knew Latin.  You don't look upon
our future habitation as a sort of Avernus?"

John laughed merrily.  "No, as I told you before, I like Enderley Hill.
I can't tell why, but I like it.  It seems as if I had known the place
before.  I feel as if we were going to have great happiness here."

And as he spoke, his unwonted buoyancy softened into a quietness of
manner more befitting that word "happiness."  Strange word! hardly in
my vocabulary.  Yet, when he uttered it, I seemed to understand it and
to be content.

We wound a little way down the slope, and came in front of Rose
Cottage.  It was well named.  I never in my life had seen such a bush
of bloom.  They hung in clusters--those roses--a dozen in a group;
pressing their pinky cheeks together in a mass of family fragrance,
pushing in at the parlour window, climbing up even to the very attic.
There was a yellow jasmine over the porch at one front door, and a
woodbine at the other; the cottage had two entrances, each distinct.
But the general impression it gave, both as to sight and scent, was of
roses--nothing but roses.

"How are you, Mrs. Tod?" as a comely, middle-aged body appeared at the
right-hand doorway, dressed sprucely in one of those things Jael called
a "coat and jacket," likewise a red calamanco petticoat tucked up at
the pocket-holes.

"I be pretty fair, sir--be you the same?  The children ha' not
forgotten you--you see, Mr. Halifax."

"So much the better!" and he patted two or three little white heads,
and tossed the youngest high up in the air.  It looked very strange to
see John with a child in his arms.

"Don't 'ee make more noise than 'ee can help, my lad," the good woman
said to our post-boy, "because, sir, the sick gentleman bean't so well
again to-day."

"I am sorry for it.  We would not have driven up to the door had we
known.  Which is his room?"

Mrs. Tod pointed to a window--not on our side of the house, but the
other.  A hand was just closing the casement and pulling down the
blind--a hand which, in the momentary glimpse we had of it, seemed less
like a man's than a woman's.

When we were settled in the parlour John noticed this fact.

"It was the wife, most likely.  Poor thing! how hard to be shut up
in-doors on such a summer evening as this!"

It did seem a sad sight--that closed window, outside which was the
fresh, balmy air, the sunset, and the roses.

"And how do you like Enderley?" asked John, when, tea being over, I lay
and rested, while he sat leaning his elbow on the window-sill, and his
cheek against a bunch of those ever-intruding, inquisitive roses.

"It is very, very pretty, and so comfortable--almost like home."

"I feel as if it were home," John said, half to himself.  "Do you know,
I can hardly believe that I have only seen this place once before; it
is so familiar.  I seem to know quite well that slope of common before
the door, with its black dots of furze-bushes.  And that wood below;
what a clear line its top makes against the yellow sky!  There, that
high ground to the right; it's all dusky now, but it is such a view by
daylight.  And between it and Enderley is the prettiest valley, where
the road slopes down just under those chestnut-trees."

"How well you seem to know the place already."

"As I tell you, I like it.  I hardly ever felt so content before.  We
will have a happy time, Phineas."

"Oh, yes!"  How--even if I had felt differently--could I say anything
but "yes" to him then?

I lay until it grew quite dark, and I could only see a dim shape
sitting at the window, instead of John's known face; then I bade him
good-night, and retired.  Directly afterwards, I heard him, as I knew
he would, dash out of the house, and away up the Flat.  In the deep
quiet of this lonely spot I could distinguish, for several minutes, the
diminishing sound of his footsteps along the loose, stony road; and the
notes, clear and shrill, of his whistling.  I think it was "Sally in
our Alley," or some such pleasant old tune.  At last it faded far off,
and I fell into sleep and dreams.



CHAPTER X

"That Mrs. Tod is an extraordinary woman.  I  repeat it--a most
extraordinary woman."

And leaning his elbows on the table, from which the said extraordinary
woman had just removed breakfast, John looked over to me with his own
merry brown eyes.

"Wherefore, David?"

"She has a house full of children, yet manages to keep it quiet and her
own temper likewise.  Astonishing patience!  However people attain it
who have to do with brats, _I_ can't imagine."

"John! that's mean hypocrisy.  I saw you myself half-an-hour ago
holding the eldest Tod boy on a refractory donkey, and laughing till
you could hardly stand."

"Did I?" said he, half-ashamed.  "Well, it was only to keep the little
scamp from making a noise under the windows.  And that reminds me of
another remarkable virtue in Mrs. Tod--she can hold her tongue."

"How so?"

"In two whole days she has not communicated to us a single fact
concerning our neighbours on the other half of Rose Cottage."

"Did you want to know?"

John laughingly denied; then allowed that he always had a certain
pleasure in eliciting information on men and things.

"The wife being indicated, I suppose, by that very complimentary word
'thing.'  But what possible interest can you have in either the old
gentleman or the old lady?"

"Stop, Phineas:  you have a bad habit of jumping at conclusions.  And
in our great dearth of occupation here, I think it might be all the
better for you to take a little interest in your neighbours.  So I've a
great mind to indulge you with an important idea, suggestion,
discovery.  Harkee, friend!"--and he put on an air of sentimental
mystery, not a bad copy of our old acquaintance, Mr. Charles--"what if
the--the individual should not be an old lady at all?"

"What!  The old gentleman's wife?"

"Wife?  Ahem! more jumping at conclusions.  No; let us keep on the safe
side, and call her the--individual.  In short; the owner of that grey
silk gown I saw hanging up in the kitchen.  I've seen it again."

"The grey gown! when and where?"

"This morning, early.  I walked after it across the Flat, a good way
behind, though; for I thought that it--well, let me say SHE--might not
like to be watched or followed.  She was trotting along very fast, and
she carried a little basket--I fancy a basket of eggs."

"Capital housekeeper! excellent wife!"

"Once more--I have my doubts on that latter fact.  She walked a great
deal quicker and merrier than any wife ought to walk when her husband
is ill!"

I could not help laughing at John's original notions of conjugal duty.

"Besides, Mrs. Tod always calls her invalid 'the old gentleman!' and I
don't believe this was an elderly lady."

"Nay, old men do sometimes marry young women."

"Yes, but it is always a pity; and sometimes not quite right.
No,"--and I was amused to see how gravely and doggedly John kept to his
point--"though this lady did not look like a sylph or a
wood-nymph--being neither very small nor very slight, and having a
comfortable woollen cloak and hood over the grey silk gown--still, I
don't believe she's an old woman, or married either."

"How can you possibly tell?  Did you see her face?"

"Of course not," he answered, rather indignantly.  "I should not think
it manly to chase a lady as a schoolboy does a butterfly, for the mere
gratification of staring at her.  I stayed on the top of the Flat till
she had gone indoors."

"Into Rose Cottage?"

"Why--yes."

"She had, doubtless, gone to fetch new-laid eggs for her--I mean for
the sick gentleman's breakfast.  Kind soul!"

"You may jest, Phineas, but I think she is a kind soul.  On her way
home I saw her stop twice; once to speak to an old woman who was
gathering sticks; and again, to scold a lad for thrashing a donkey."

"Did you hear her?"

"No; but I judge from the lad's penitent face as I passed him.  I am
sure she had been scolding him."

"Then she's not young, depend upon it.  Your beautiful young creatures
never scold."

"I'm not so sure of that," said John, meditatively.  "For my part, I
should rather not cheat myself, or be cheated after that manner.
Perfection is impossible.  Better see the young woman as she really is,
bad and good together."

"The young woman! The fair divinity, you mean!"

"No;" shutting his mouth over the negative in his firm way--"I strongly
object to divinities.  How unpleasant it would be to woo an angel of
perfection, and find her out at last to be only--only Mrs.--"

"Halifax," suggested I; at which he laughed, slightly colouring.

"But how woeful must be our dearth of subjects, when we talk such
nonsense as this!  What suggested it?"

"Your friend in the grey gown, I suppose."

"Requiescat in Pace!  May she enjoy her eggs!  And now I must go saddle
the brown mare, and be off to Norton Bury.  A lovely day for a ride.
How I shall dash along!"

He rose up cheerily.  It was like morning sunshine only to see his
face.  No morbid follies had ever tainted his healthy nature,
whatsoever romance was there--and never was there a thoroughly noble
nature without some romance in it.  But it lay deep down, calm and
unawakened.  His heart was as light and free as air.

Stooping over my easy chair, he wheeled it to the window, in sight of
the pleasant view.

"Now, Phineas, what more books do you want?  You'll take a walk before
dinner?  You'll not be moping?"

No; why should I, who knew I had always, whether absent or present, the
blessing, the infinite blessing, of being first in his thoughts and
cares?  Who, whether he expressed it or not--the best things never are
expressed or expressible--knew by a thousand little daily acts like
these, the depth and tenderness of his friendship, his brotherly love
for me.  As yet, I had it all.  And God, who knows how little else I
had, will pardon, if in my unspeakable thankfulness lurked a taint of
selfish joy in my sole possession of such a priceless boon.

He lingered about, making me "all right," as he called it, and planning
out my solitary day.  With much merriment, too, for we were the gayest
couple of young bachelors, when, as John said, "the duties of our
responsible position" would allow.

"Responsible position!  It's our good landlady who ought to talk about
that.  With two sets of lodgers, a husband, and an indefinite number of
children.  There's one of them got into mischief at last. Hark!"

"It's Jack, my namesake.  Bless my life!  I knew he would come to grief
with that donkey.  Hey, lad! never mind.  Get up again."

But soon he perceived that the accident was more serious; and
disappeared like a shot, leaping out through the open window.  The next
minute I saw him carrying in the unlucky Jack, who was bleeding from a
cut in the forehead, and screaming vociferously.

"Don't be frightened, Mrs. Tod; it is very slight--I saw it done. Jack,
my lad!--be a man, and never mind it.  Don't scream so; you alarm your
mother."

But as soon as the good woman was satisfied that there was no real
cause for terror, hers changed into hearty wrath against Jack for his
carelessness, and for giving so much trouble to the gentleman.

"But he be always getting into mischief, sir--that boy.  Three months
back, the very day Mr. March came, he got playing with the
carriage-horse, and it kicked him and broke his arm.  A deal he cares:
he be just as sprack as ever.  As I say to Tod--it bean't no use
fretting over that boy."

"Have patience," answered John, who had again carried the unfortunate
young scapegrace from our parlour into Mrs. Tod's kitchen--the centre
room of the cottage; and was trying to divert the torrent of maternal
indignation, while he helped her to plaster up the still ugly looking
wound.  "Come, forgive the lad.  He will be more sorry afterwards than
if you had punished him."

"Do'ee think so?" said the woman, as, struck either by the words, the
manner, or the tone, she looked up straight at him.  "Do'ee really
think so, Mr. Halifax?"

"I am sure of it.  Nothing makes one so good as being forgiven when one
has been naughty.  Isn't it so, Jack, my namesake?"

"Jack ought to be proud o' that, sir," said the mother, respectfully;
"and there's some sense in what you say, too.  You talk like my man
does, o' Sundays.  Tod be a Scotchman, Mr. Halifax; and they're good
folks, the Scotch, and read their Bibles hard.  There's a deal about
forgiving in the Bible; isn't there, sir?"

"Exactly," John answered, smiling.  "And so, Jack, you're safe this
time; only you must not disobey your mother again, for the sake of
donkeys or anything else."

"No, sir--thank'ee, sir," sobbed Jack, humbly.  "You be a
gentleman--Mr. March bean't--he said it served me right for getting
under his horses."

"Hold thy tongue!" said Jack's mother, sharply; for the latch of the
opposite door was just then lifted, and a lady stood there.

"Mrs. Tod; my father says--"

Seeing strangers, the lady paused.  At the sound of her voice--a
pleasant voice, though somewhat quick and decided in tone--John and I
both involuntarily turned.  We felt awkward! doubtful whether to stay
or retire abruptly.  She saved us the choice.

"Mrs. Tod, my father will take his soup at eleven.  You will remember?"

"Yes, Miss March."

Upon which, Miss March shut the door at once, and vanished.

She wore a grey silken gown.  I glanced at John, but he did not see me,
his eyes were fixed on the door, which had disclosed and concealed the
momentary picture.  Its momentariness impressed it the more vividly on
my memory--I have it there still.

A girl, in early but not precocious maturity, rather tall, of a figure
built more for activity and energy than the mere fragility of
sylph-like grace:  dark-complexioned, dark-eyed, dark-haired--the whole
colouring being of that soft darkness of tone which gives a sense of
something at once warm and tender, strong and womanly. Thorough woman
she seemed--not a bit of the angel about her. Scarcely beautiful; and
"pretty" would have been the very last word to have applied to her; but
there was around her an atmosphere of freshness, health, and youth,
pleasant as a breeze in spring.

For her attire, it was that notable grey silk gown--very simply made,
with no fripperies or fandangos of any sort--reaching up to her throat
and down to her wrists, where it had some kind of trimming of white
fur, which made the skin beneath show exquisitely delicate.

"That is Miss March," said our landlady, when she had disappeared.

"Is it?" said John, removing his eyes from the shut door.

"She be very sensible-like, for a young body of seventeen; more
sensible and pleasanter than her father, who is always ailing, and
always grumbling.  Poor gentleman!--most like he can't help it.  But it
be terrible hard for the daughter--bean't it, sir?"

"Very," said John.  His laconism was extraordinary.

Still he kept standing by the kitchen-table, waiting till the last
bandage had been sewn on Jack's cut forehead, and even some minutes
after his protege had begun playing about as usual.  It was I who had
to suggest that we should not intrude in Mrs. Tod's kitchen any longer.

"No--certainly not.  Come, Phineas.  Mrs. Tod, I hope our presence did
not inconvenience--the young lady?"

"Bless your heart, sir! nothing ever inconveniences she.  There bean't
a pleasanter young body alive.  She'll often come into this
kitchen--just as you did, gentlemen, and very happy to see you always,"
added Mrs. Tod, curtseying.  "When Mr. March is asleep she'll come and
sit for half an hour, talking to Tod and me; and playing with the
baby--"

Here, probably at sound of its name, the individual alluded to set up,
from its cradle in the corner, such a terrific squall, that we young
men beat a precipitate retreat.

"So, John, your grey gown is discovered at last.  She's young,
certainly--but not exactly a beauty."

"I never said she was."

"A pleasant person, though; hearty, cheerful-looking, and strong.  I
can easily imagine her trotting over the common with her basket of
eggs--chatting to the old woman, and scolding the naughty boy."

"Don't make fun of her.  She must have a hard life with her old father."

Of course, seeing him take it up so seriously, I jested no more.

"By-the-by, did not the father's name strike you?  MARCH--suppose it
should turn out to be the very Mr. March you pulled out of Severn five
years ago.  What a romantic conjuncture of circumstances?"

"Nonsense," said John, quickly--more quickly than he usually spoke to
me; then came back to wish me a kind goodbye.  "Take care of yourself,
old fellow.  It will be nightfall before I am back from Norton Bury."

I watched him mount, and ride slowly down the bit of common--turning
once to look back at Rose Cottage, ere he finally disappeared between
the chestnut trees:  a goodly sight--for he was an admirable horseman.

When he was gone, I, glancing lazily up at Mr. March's window, saw a
hand, and I fancied a white-furred wrist, pulling down the blind.  It
amused me to think Miss March might possibly have been watching him
likewise.

I spent the whole long day alone in the cottage parlour, chiefly
meditating; though more than once friendly Mrs. Tod broke in upon my
solitude.  She treated me in a motherly, free-and-easy way:  not half
so deferentially as she treated John Halifax.

The sun had gone down over Nunnely Hill, behind the four tall Italian
poplars, which stood on the border of our bit of wilderness--three
together and one apart.  They were our landmarks--and skymarks too--for
the first sunbeam coming across the common struck their tops of a
morning, and the broad western glimmer showed their forms distinctly
until far in the night.  They were just near enough for me to hear
their faint rustling in windy weather; on calm days they stood up
straight against the sky, like memorial columns.  They were friends of
mine--those four poplars; sometimes they almost seemed alive.  We made
acquaintance on this first night, when I sat watching for John; and we
kept up the friendship ever afterwards.

It was nine o'clock before I heard the old mare's hoofs clattering up
the road:  joyfully I ran out.

David was not quite his youthful, gay self that night; not quite, as he
expressed it, "the David of the sheep-folds."  He was very tired, and
had what he called "the tan-yard feeling," the oppression of business
cares.

"Times are hard," said he, when we had finally shut out the starlight,
and Mrs. Tod had lit candles, bade us good-night in her free,
independent way, and "hoped Mr. Halifax had everything he wanted."  She
always seemed to consider him the head of our little menage.

"The times are very hard," repeated John, thoughtfully.  "I don't see
how your father can rightly be left with so many anxieties on his
shoulders.  I must manage to get to Norton Bury at least five days a
week.  You will have enough of solitude, I fear."

"And you will have little enough of the pleasant country life you
planned, and which you seem so to delight in."

"Never mind--perhaps it's good for me.  I have a life of hard work
before me, and can't afford to get used to too much pleasure.  But
we'll make the most of every bit of time we have.  How have you felt
to-day?  Strong?"

"Very strong.  Now what would you like us to do tomorrow?"

"I want to show you the common in early morning--the view there is so
lovely."

"Of Nature, or human nature?"

He half smiled, though only at my mischievousness.  I could see it did
not affect him in the least.  "Nay, I know what you mean; but I had
forgotten her, or, if not absolutely forgotten, she was not in my mind
just then.  We will go another way, as indeed I had intended: it might
annoy the young lady, our meeting her again."

His grave, easy manner of treating and dismissing the subject was a
tacit reproach to me.  I let the matter drop; we had much more serious
topics afloat than gossip about our neighbours.

At seven next morning we were out on the Flat.

"I'm not going to let you stand here in the dews, Phineas.  Come a
little farther on, to my terrace, as I call it.  There's a panorama!"

It was indeed.  All around the high flat a valley lay, like a moat, or
as if some broad river had been dried up in its course, and, century
after century, gradually converted into meadow, woodland, and town.
For a little white town sat demurely at the bottom of the hollow, and a
score or two of white cottages scattered themselves from this small
nucleus of civilisation over the opposite bank of this imaginary river,
which was now a lovely hill-side.  Gorges, purple with shadow, yellow
corn-fields, and dark clumps of woodland dressed this broad hill-side
in many colours; its highest point, Nunnely Hill, forming the horizon
where last night I had seen the sun go down, and which now was tinted
with the tenderest western morning grey.

"Do you like this, Phineas?  I do, very much.  A dear, smiling, English
valley, holding many a little nest of an English home.  Fancy being
patriarch over such a region, having the whole valley in one's hand, to
do good to, or ill.  You can't think what primitive people they are
hereabouts--descendants from an old colony of Flemish cloth-weavers:
they keep to the trade.  Down in the valley--if one could see through
the beech wood--is the grand support of the neighbourhood, a large
cloth mill!"

"That's quite in your line, John;" and I saw his face brighten up as it
had done when, as a boy, he had talked to me about his machinery. "What
has become of that wonderful little loom you made?"

"Oh! I have it still.  But this is such a fine cloth-mill!--I have been
all over it.  If the owner would put aside his old Flemish stolidity!
I do believe he and his ancestors have gone on in the same way, and
with almost the same machinery, ever since Queen Elizabeth's time.
Now, just one or two of our modern improvements, such as--but I forget,
you never could understand mechanics."

"You can, though.  Explain clearly, and I'll try my best."

He did so, and so did I.  I think he even managed to knock something of
the matter into my stupid head, where it remained--for ten minutes!
Much longer remained the impression of his energetic talk--his
clear-headed way of putting before another what he understood so well
himself.  I marvelled how he had gained all his information.

"Oh! it's easy enough, when one has a natural propensity for catching
hold of facts; and then, you know, I always had a weakness for
machinery; I could stand for an hour watching a mill at work,
especially if it's worked by a great water-wheel."

"Would you like to be a mill-owner?"

"Shouldn't I!"--with a sunshiny flash, which soon clouded over.
"However, 'tis idle talking; one cannot choose one's calling--at least,
very few can.  After all, it isn't the trade that signifies--it's the
man.  I'm a tanner, and a capital tanner I intend to be. By-the-by, I
wonder if Mrs. Tod, who talks so much about 'gentlefolk,' knows that
latter fact about you and me?"

"I think not; I hope not.  Oh, David! this one month at least let us
get rid of the tan-yard."

For I hated it more than ever now, in our quiet, free, Arcadian life;
the very thought of it was insupportable, not only for myself, but for
John.

He gently blamed me, yet, I think, he involuntarily felt much as I did,
if he would have allowed himself so to feel.

"Who would guess now that I who stand here, delighting myself in this
fresh air and pleasant view, this dewy common, all thick with
flowers--what a pretty blue cluster that is at your foot, Phineas!--who
would guess that all yesterday I had been stirring up tan-pits,
handling raw hides?  Faugh! I wonder the little harebells don't sicken
in these, my hands--such ugly hands, too!"

"Nonsense, John! they're not so bad, indeed; and if they were, what
does it matter?"

"You are right; lad; it does not matter.  They have done me good
service, and will yet, though they were not made for carrying nosegays."

"There is somebody besides yourself plucking posies on the Flat. See,
how large the figure looks against the sky.  It might be your Titaness,
John--

          'Like Proserpina gathering flowers,
      Herself the fairest--'

--no, not fairest; for I declare she looks very like your friend
Grey-gown--I beg her pardon--Miss March."

"It is she," said John, so indifferently that I suspect that fact had
presented itself to him for at least two minutes before I found it out.

"There's certainly a fatality about your meeting her."

"Not the least.  She has this morning taken her walk in a different
direction, as I did; and we both chanced again to hit upon the same,"
answered John, gravely and explanatorily.  "Come away down the slope.
We must not intrude upon a lady's enjoyments."

He carried me off, much against my will, for I had a great wish to see
again that fresh young face, so earnest, cheerful, and good. Also, as I
laboured in vain to convince my companion, the said face indicated an
independent dignity which would doubtless make its owner perfectly
indifferent whether her solitary walk were crossed by two gentlemen or
two hundred.

John agreed to this; nevertheless, he was inexorable.  And, since he
was "a man of the world"--having, in his journeys up and down the
country for my father, occasionally fallen into "polite" society--I
yielded the point to him and submitted to his larger experience of good
breeding.

However, Fate, kinder than he, took the knot of etiquette into her own
hands, and broke it.

Close to the cottage door, our two paths converging, and probably our
breakfast-hours likewise, brought us suddenly face to face with Miss
March.

She saw us, and we had a distinct sight of her.

I was right:  we and our contiguity were not of the smallest importance
to Miss March.  Her fresh morning roses did not deepen, nor her eyes
droop, as she looked for a moment at us both--a quiet, maidenly look of
mere observation.  Of course no recognition passed; but there was a
merry dimple beside her mouth, as if she quite well knew who we were,
and owned to a little harmless feminine curiosity in observing us.

She had to pass our door, where stood Mrs. Tod and the baby.  It
stretched out its little arms to come to her, with that pretty, babyish
gesture which I suppose no woman can resist.  Miss March could not.
She stopped, and began tossing up the child.

Truly, they made a pleasant picture, the two--she with her hooded cloak
dropping off, showing her graceful shape, and her dark-brown hair, all
gathered up in a mass of curls at the top of her head, as the fashion
then was.  As she stood, with her eyes sparkling, and the young blood
flushing through her clear brunette cheeks, I was not sure whether I
had not judged too hastily in calling her "no beauty."

Probably, by his look, John thought the same.

She stood right before our wicket-gate; but she had evidently quite
forgotten us, so happy was she with Mrs. Tod's bonny boy, until the
landlady made some remark about "letting the gentlemen by."  Then, with
a slight start, drawing her hood back over her head, the young lady
stepped aside.

In passing her, John raised his eyes, as was natural enough.  For me, I
could hardly take mine from her, such a pleasant creature was she to
behold.  She half smiled--he bowed, which she returned, courteously,
and we both went in-doors.  I told him this was a good beginning of
acquaintance with our neighbour.

"Not at all, no acquaintance; a mere civility between two people living
under the same roof.  It will never be more."

"Probably not."

I am afraid John was disappointed at my "probably."  I am afraid that
when he stood at our window, contemplating the little group which
filled up our wicket-gate, he missed some one out of the three--which,
I suspect, was neither Mrs. Tod nor yet the baby.

"I like her face very much better now, David.  Do you?"

It was a very curious fact, which I never noticed till afterwards, that
though there had been some lapse of time before I hazarded this remark,
we both intuitively supplied the noun to that indefinite personal
pronoun.

"A good--nay, a noble face; though still, with those irregular
features, I can't--really I can't--call her beautiful."

"Nor I."

"She bowed with remarkable grace, too.  I think, John, for the first
time in our lives, we may say we have seen a LADY."

"Most certainly a lady."

"Nay, I only meant that, girl as she is, she is evidently accustomed to
what is called 'society.'  Which makes it the more likely that her
father is the Mr. March who was cousin to the Brithwoods.  An odd
coincidence."

"A very odd coincidence."

After which brief reply John relapsed into taciturnity.

More than once that morning we recurred to the subject of our
neighbours--that is, I did--but John was rather saturnine and
uncommunicative.  Nay, when, as Mrs. Tod was removing the breakfast, I
ventured to ask her a harmless question or two--who Mr. March was, and
where he came from?--I was abruptly reproved, the very minute our good
landlady had shut the door, for my tendency to "gossip."

At which I only laughed, and reminded him that he had ingeniously
scolded me after, not before, I had gained the desired
information--namely, that Mr. March was a gentleman of independent
property--that he had no friends hereabouts, and that he usually lived
in Wales.

"He cannot be our Mr. March, then."

"No," said John, with an air of great relief.

I was amused to see how seriously he took such a trifle; ay, many a
time that day I laughed at him for evincing such great sympathy over
our neighbours, and especially--which was plain enough to see, though
he doubtless believed he entirely disguised it--for that interest which
a young man of twenty would naturally take in a very charming and
personable young woman.  Ay, naturally, as I said to myself, for I
admired her too, extremely.

It seems strange now to call to mind that morning, and our
light-hearted jests about Miss March.  Strange that Destiny should
often come thus, creeping like a child to our very doors; we hardly
notice it, or send it away with a laugh; it comes so naturally, so
simply, so accidentally, as it were, that we recognise it not.  We
cannot believe that the baby intruder is in reality the king of our
fortunes; the ruler of our lives.  But so it is continually; and since
IT IS, it must be right.

We finished the morning by reading Shakspeare--Romeo and Juliet--at
which the old folio seemed naturally to open.  There is a time--a sweet
time, too, though it does not last--when to every young mind the play
of plays, the poem of poems, is Romeo and Juliet.  We were at that
phase now.

John read it all through to me--not for the first time either; and
then, thinking I had fallen asleep, he sat with the book on his knee,
gazing out of the open window.

It was a warm summer day--breathless, soundless--a day for quietness
and dreams.  Sometimes a bee came buzzing among the roses, in and away
again, like a happy thought.  Nothing else was stirring; not a single
bird was to be seen or heard, except that now and then came a coo of
the wood-pigeons among the beech-trees--a low, tender voice--reminding
one of a mother's crooning over a cradled child; or of two true lovers
standing clasped heart to heart, in the first embrace, which finds not,
and needs not, a single word.

John sat listening.  What was he thinking about?  Why that strange
quiver about his mouth?--why that wonderful new glow, that infinite
depth of softness in his eyes?

I closed mine.  He never knew I saw him.  He thought I slept placidly
through that half-hour; which seemed to him as brief as a minute.  To
me it was long--ah, so long! as I lay pondering with an intensity that
was actual pain, on what must come some time, and, for all I knew,
might even now be coming.



CHAPTER XI

A week slipped by.  We had grown familiar with Enderley Hill--at least
I had.  As for John, he had little enough enjoyment of the pretty spot
he had taken such a fancy to, being absent five days out of the seven;
riding away when the morning sun had slid down to the boles of my four
poplars, and never coming home till Venus peeped out over their heads
at night.  It was hard for him; but he bore the disappointment well.

With me one day went by just like another.  In the mornings I crept
out, climbed the hill behind Rose Cottage garden, and there lay a
little under the verge of the Flat, in a sunny shelter, watching the
ants running in and out of the numerous ant-hills there; or else I
turned my observation to the short velvet herbage that grew everywhere
hereabouts; for the common, so far from being barren, was a perfect
sheet of greenest, softest turf, sowed with minute and rare flowers.
Often a square foot of ground presented me with enough of beauty and
variety in colour and form to criticise and contemplate for a full hour.

My human interests were not extensive.  Sometimes the Enderley
villagers, or the Tod children, who were a grade above these, and
decidedly "respectable," would appear and have a game of play at the
foot of the slope, their laughter rising up to where I lay.  Or some
old woman would come with her pails to the spring below, a curious and
very old stone well, to which the cattle from the common often rushed
down past me in bevies, and stood knee-deep, their mouths making
glancing circles in the water as they drank.

Being out of doors almost all day, I saw very little of the inhabitants
of our cottage.  Once or twice a lady and gentleman passed, creeping at
the foot of the slope so slowly, that I felt sure it must be Mr. March
and his daughter.  He was tall, with grey hair; I was not near enough
to distinguish his features.  She walked on the further side,
supporting him with her arm.  Her comfortable morning hood was put off,
and she had on her head that ugly, stiff thing which ladies had lately
taken to wearing, and which, Jael said, was called a "bonnet."

Except on these two occasions, I had no opportunity of making any
observations on the manners and customs of our neighbours. Occasionally
Mrs. Tod mentioned them in her social chatter, while laying the cloth;
but it was always in the most cursory and trivial way, such as "Miss
March having begged that the children might be kept quiet--Mrs. Tod
hoped their noise didn't disturb ME? but Mr. March was such a very
fidgety gentleman--so particular in his dress, too--Why, Miss March had
to iron his cravats with her own hands. Besides, if there was a pin
awry in her dress he did make such a fuss--and, really, such an active,
busy young lady couldn't look always as if she came trim out of a
band-box.  Mr. March wanted so much waiting on, he seemed to fancy he
still had his big house in Wales, and his seven servants."

Mrs. Tod conversed as if she took it for granted I was fully acquainted
with all the prior history of her inmates, or any others that she
mentioned--a habit peculiar to Enderley folk with strangers. It was
generally rather convenient, and it saved much listening; but in this
case, I would rather have had it broken through.  Sometimes I felt
strongly inclined to question her; but on consulting John, he gave his
veto so decidedly against seeking out people's private affairs in such
an illicit manner that I felt quite guilty, and began to doubt whether
my sickly, useless, dreaming life, was not inclining me to curiosity,
gossip, and other small vices which we are accustomed--I know not
why--to insult the other sex by describing as "womanish."

As I have said, the two cottages were built distinct, so that we could
have neither sound nor sight of our neighbours, save upon the neutral
ground of Mrs. Tod's kitchen; where, however I might have felt inclined
to venture, John's prohibition stopped me entirely.

Thus--save the two days when he was at home, when he put me on his
mare's back, and led me far away, over common, and valley, and hill,
for miles, only coming back at twilight--save those two blithe days, I
spent the week in dignified solitude, and was very thankful for Sunday.

We determined to make it a long, lovely, country Sunday; so we began it
at six a.m.  John took me a new walk across the common, where--he said,
in answer to my question--we were quite certain NOT to meet Miss March.

"Do you experimentalize on the subject, that you calculate her paths
with such nicety?  Pray, have you ever met her again, for I know you
have been out most mornings?"

"Morning is the only time I have for walking, you know, Phineas."

"Ah, true!  You have little pleasure at Enderley.  I almost wish we
could go home."

"Don't think of such a thing.  It is doing you a world of good. Indeed,
we must not, on any account, go home."

I know, and knew then, that his anxiety was in earnest; that whatever
other thoughts might lie underneath, the sincere thought of me was the
one uppermost in his mind.

"Well, we'll stay--that is, if you are happy, John."

"Thoroughly happy; I like the dashing rides to Norton Bury.  Above all,
I like coming back.  The minute I begin to climb Enderley Hill, the
tan-yard, and all belonging to it, drops off like an incubus, and I
wake into free, beautiful life.  Now, Phineas, confess; is not this
common a lovely place, especially of a morning?"

"Ay," said I, smiling at his energy.  "But you did not tell me whether
you had met Miss March again."

"She has never once seen me."

"But you have seen her?  Answer honestly."

"Why should I not?--Yes, I have seen her--once or twice or so--but
never in any way that could annoy her."

"That explains why you have become so well acquainted with the
direction of her walks?"

He coloured deeply.  "I hope, Phineas, you do not think that--that in
any way I should intrude on or offend a lady?"

"Nay, don't take it so seriously--indeed, I meant nothing of the kind.
It would be quite natural if a young man like you did use some pains to
look at such a 'cunning piece of Nature's handiwork' as that
apple-cheeked girl of seventeen."

"Russet apple.  She is brown, you know--a real 'nut-brown mayde,'" said
John, recovering his gay humour.  "Certainly, I like to look at her.  I
have seen many a face that was more good-looking--never one that looked
half so good."

"Sententious that;" yet I could not smile--he spoke with such
earnestness.  Besides, it was the truth.  I myself would have walked
half-way across the common any day for a glance at Miss March.  Why not
he?

"But, John, you never told me that you had seen her again!"

"Because you never asked me."

We were silent.  Silent until we had walked along the whole length of a
Roman encampment, the most perfect of the various fosses that seamed
the flat--tokens of many a battle fought on such capital battleground,
and which John had this morning especially brought me to look at.

"Yes," I said at last, putting the ending affirmative to a long train
of thought, which was certainly not about Roman encampments; "yes, it
is quite natural that you should admire her.  It would even be quite
natural, and not unlikely either, if she--"

"Pshaw!" interrupted he.  "What nonsense you are talking! Impossible!"
and setting his foot sharply upon a loose stone, he kicked it down into
the ditch, where probably many a dead Roman had fallen before it in
ages gone by.

The impetuous gesture--the energetic "impossible," struck me less than
the quickness with which his mind had worked out my unexpressed
thought--carrying it to a greater length than I myself had ever
contemplated.

"Truly, no possibilities or impossibilities of THAT sort ever entered
my head.  I only thought you might admire her, and be unsettled thereby
as young men are when they take fancies.  That would grieve me very
much, John."

"Don't let it then?  Why, I have only seen her five times; I never
spoke to her in my life, and most probably never shall do.  Could any
one be in a safer position?  Besides," and his tone changed to extreme
gravity, "I have too many worldly cares to think of; I can't afford the
harmless little amusement of falling in love--so be easy, Phineas."

I smiled; and we began a discussion on camps and fosses, vallum and
praetorium; the Danes, Saxons, and Normans; which, doubtless, we
carried on to a most learned length:  but at this distance of time, and
indeed the very day after, I plead guilty to having forgotten all about
it.

That long, quiet Sunday, when, I remember, the sun never came out all
day, but the whole earth and sky melted together in a soft, grey haze;
when we lay on the common and heard church-bells ringing, some distant,
some near; and, after all was quiet, talked our own old sabbath talks,
of this world and the world to come; when, towards twilight, we went
down into the beech-wood below the house, and sat idly there among the
pleasant-smelling ferns; when, from the morning to the evening, he
devoted himself altogether to my comfort and amusement--to perfect
which required of him no harder duty than to be near me always;--that
Sunday was the last I ever had David altogether for my own--my very own.

It was natural, it was just, it was right.  God forbid that in any way
I should have murmured.

About ten o'clock--just as he was luring me out to see how grand the
common looked under the black night, and we were wondering whether or
no the household were in bed--Mrs. Tod came mysteriously into the
parlour and shut the door after her.  Her round, fresh face looked
somewhat troubled.

"Mr. Halifax, might I speak a word to 'ee, sir?"

"With pleasure.  Sit down, Mrs. Tod.  There's nothing wrong with your
children?"

"No, I thank'ee.  You are very kind, sir.  No, it be about that poor
Miss March."

I could see John's fingers twitch over the chair he was leaning on. "I
hope--" he began, and stopped.

"Her father is dreadful bad to-night, and it's a good seven-mile walk
to the doctor's at S----; and Miss March says--that is, she don't, for
I bean't going to tell her a word about it--but I think, Mr. Halifax,
if I might make so bold, it would be a great kindness in a young
gentleman like you to lend Tod your mare to ride over and fetch the
doctor."

"I will, gladly.  At once?"

"Tod bean't come in yet."

"He shall have the mare with pleasure.  Tell Miss March so--I mean, do
not tell her, of course.  It was very right of you to come to us in
this way, Mrs. Tod.  Really, it would be almost a treat to be ill in
your house--you are so kind."

"Thank'ee, Mr. Halifax," said the honest landlady, greatly delighted.
"But a body couldn't help doing anything for Miss March.  You would
think so yourself, if you only knew her."

"No doubt," returned John, more politely than warmly, I fancied, as he
closed the door after the retreating figure of Mrs. Tod.  But when he
came and sat down again I saw he was rather thoughtful.  He turned the
books restlessly, one after the other, and could not settle to
anything.  To all my speculations about our sick neighbour, and our
pearl of kind-hearted landladies, he only replied in monosyllables; at
last he started up and said,--

"Phineas, I think I'll go myself."

"Where?"

"To fetch Doctor Brown.  If Tod is not come in it would be but a common
charity.  And I know the way."

"But the dark night?"

"Oh, no matter; the mare will be safer under me than a stranger.  And
though I have taken good care that the three horses in the tan-yard
shall have the journey, turn and turn about; still it's a good pull
from here to Norton Bury, and the mare's my favourite.  I would rather
take her myself."

I smiled at his numerous good reasons for doing such a very simple
thing; and agreed that it was right and best he should do it.

"Then shall I call Mrs. Tod and inquire?  Or perhaps it might make less
fuss just to go and speak to her in the kitchen.  Will you, Phineas, or
shall I?"

Scarcely waiting my answer, we walked from our parlour into what I
called the Debateable Land.

No one was there.  We remained several minutes all alone, listening to
the groaning overhead.

"That must be Mr. March, John."

"I hear.  Good heavens! how hard for her.  And she such a young thing,
and alone," muttered he, as he stood gazing into the dull wood embers
of the kitchen fire.  I saw he was moved; but the expression on his
face was one of pure and holy compassion.  That at this moment no less
unselfish feeling mingled with it I am sure.

Mrs. Tod appeared at the door leading to the other half of the cottage;
she was apparently speaking to Miss March on the staircase. We heard
again those clear, quick, decided tones, but subdued to a half-whisper.

"No, Mrs. Tod, I am not sorry you did it--on my father's account, 'tis
best.  Tell Mr.--the young gentleman--I forget his name--that I am very
much obliged to him."

"I will, Miss March--stay, he is just here.--Bless us! she has shut the
door already.--Won't you take a seat, Mr. Halifax?  I'll stir up the
fire in a minute, Mr. Fletcher.  You are always welcome in my kitchen,
young gentlemen."  And Mrs. Tod bustled about, well aware what a cosy
and cheerful old-fashioned kitchen it was, especially of evenings.

But when John explained the reason of our intrusion there was no end to
her pleasure and gratitude.  He was the kindest young gentleman that
ever lived.--She would tell Miss March so; as, indeed, she had done
many a time.

"'Miss,' said I to her the very first day I set eyes on you, when I had
told her how you came hunting for lodgings--(she often has a chat with
me quite freely, being so lonesome-like, and knowing I to be too proud
to forget that she's a born lady)--'Miss,' said I, 'who Mr. Halifax may
be I don't know, but depend upon it he's a real gentleman.'"

I was the sole amused auditor of this speech, for John had vanished. In
a few minutes more he had brought the mare round, and after a word or
two with me was clattering down the road.

I wondered whether this time any white-furred wrist stirred the blind
to watch him.

John was away a wonderfully short time, and the doctor rode back with
him.  They parted at the gate, and he came into our parlour, his cheeks
all glowing with the ride.  He only remarked, "that the autumn nights
were getting chill," and sat down.  The kitchen clock struck one.

"You ought to have been in bed hours ago, Phineas.  Will you not go? I
shall sit up just a little while, to hear how Mr. March is."

"I should like to hear, too.  It is curious the interest that one
learns to take in people that are absolute strangers, when shut up
together in a lonely place like this, especially when they are in
trouble."

"Ay, that's it," said he, quickly.  "It's the solitude, and their being
in trouble.  Did you hear anything more while I was away?"

"Only that Mr. March was rather better, and everybody had gone to bed
except his daughter and Mrs. Tod."

"Hark! I think that's the doctor going away.  I wonder if one might
ask--No! they would think it intrusive.  He must be better.  But Dr.
Brown told me that in one of these paroxysms he might--Oh, that poor
young thing!"

"Has she no relatives, no brothers or sisters?  Doctor Brown surely
knows."

"I did not like to ask, but I fancy not.  However, that's not my
business:  my business is to get you off to bed, Phineas Fletcher, as
quickly as possible."

"Wait one minute, John.  Let us go and see if we can do anything more."

"Ay--if we can do anything more," repeated he, as we again recrossed
the boundary-line, and entered the Tod country.

All was quiet there.  The kitchen fire burnt brightly, and a cricket
sang in merry solitude on the hearth; the groans overhead were stilled,
but we heard low talking, and presently stealthy footsteps crept
down-stairs.  It was Mrs. Tod and Miss March.

We ought to have left the kitchen:  I think John muttered something to
that effect, and even made a slight movement towards the door; but--I
don't know how it was--we stayed.

She came and stood by the fire, scarcely noticing us.  Her fresh cheeks
were faded, and she had the weary look of one who has watched for many
hours.  Some sort of white dimity gown that she wore added to this
paleness.

"I think he is better, Mrs. Tod--decidedly better," said she, speaking
quickly.  "You ought to go to bed now.  Let all the house be quiet.  I
hope you told Mr.--Oh--"

She saw us, stopped, and for the moment the faintest tinge of her roses
returned.  Presently she acknowledged us, with a slight bend.

John came forward.  I had expected some awkwardness on his part; but
no--he was thinking too little of himself for that.  His
demeanour--earnest, gentle, kind--was the sublimation of all manly
courtesy.

"I hope, madam"--young men used the deferential word in those days
always--"I do hope that Mr. March is better.  We were unwilling to
retire until we had heard."

"Thank you!  My father is much better.  You are very kind," said Miss
March, with a maidenly dropping of the eyes.

"Indeed he is kind," broke in the warm-hearted Mrs. Tod.  "He rode all
the way to S----, his own self, to fetch the doctor."

"Did you, sir? I thought you only lent your horse."

"Oh! I like a night-ride.  And you are sure, madam, that your father is
better?  Is there nothing else I can do for you?"

His sweet, grave manner, so much graver and older than his years,
softened too with that quiet deference which marked at once the man who
reverenced all women, simply for their womanhood--seemed entirely to
reassure the young lady.  This, and her own frankness of character,
made her forget, as she apparently did, the fact that she was a young
lady and he a young gentleman, meeting on unacknowledged neutral
ground, perfect strangers, or knowing no more of one another than the
mere surname.

Nature, sincerity, and simplicity conquered all trammels of formal
custom.  She held out her hand to him.

"I thank you very much, Mr. Halifax.  If I wanted help I would ask you;
indeed I would."

"Thank YOU.  Good-night."

He pressed the hand with reverence--and was gone.  I saw Miss March
look after him:  then she turned to speak and smiled with me.  A light
word, an easy smile, as to a poor invalid whom she had often pitied out
of the fulness of her womanly heart.

Soon I followed John into the parlour.  He asked me no questions, made
no remarks, only took his candle and went up-stairs.

But, years afterwards, he confessed to me that the touch of that
hand--it was a rather peculiar hand in the "feel" of it, as the
children say, with a very soft palm, and fingers that had a habit of
perpetually fluttering, like a little bird's wing--the touch of that
hand was to the young man like the revelation of a new world.



CHAPTER XII

The next day John rode away earlier even than was his wont, I thought.
He stayed but a little while talking with me.  While Mrs. Tod was
bustling over our breakfast he asked her, in a grave and unconcerned
manner, "How Mr. March was this morning?" which was the only allusion
he made to the previous night's occurrences.

I had a long, quiet day alone in the beech-wood, close below our
cottage, sitting by the little runnel, now worn to a thread with the
summer weather, but singing still.  It talked to me like a living thing.

When I came home in the evening Miss March stood in front of the
cottage, with--strange to say--her father.  But I had heard that his
paroxysms were often of brief continuance, and that, like most
confirmed valetudinarians, when real danger stared him in the face he
put it from him, and was glad to be well.

Seeing me coming, Miss March whispered to him; he turned upon me a
listless gaze from over his fur collar, and bowed languidly, without
rising from his easy chair.  Yes, it was Mr. March--the very Mr. March
we had met!  I knew him, changed though he was; but he did not know me
in the least, as, indeed, was not likely.

His daughter came a step or two to meet me.  "You are better, I see,
Mr. Fletcher.  Enderley is a most healthy place, as I try to persuade
my father.  This is Mr. Fletcher, sir, the gentleman who--"

"Was so obliging as to ride to S----, last night, for me?  Allow me to
thank him myself."

I began to disclaim, and Miss March to explain; but we must both have
been slightly incoherent, for I think the poor gentleman was never
quite clear as to who it was that went for Dr. Brown.  However, that
mattered little, as his acknowledgments were evidently dictated more by
a natural habit of courtesy than by any strong sense of service
rendered.

"I am a very great invalid, sir; my dear, will you explain to the
gentleman?"  And he leaned his head back wearily.

"My father has never recovered his ten years' residence in the West
Indies."

"'Residence?'  Pardon me, my dear, you forget I was governor of--"

"Oh, yes!--The climate is very trying there, Mr. Fletcher.  But since
he has been in England--five years only--he has been very much better.
I hope he will be quite well in time."

Mr. March shook his head drearily.  Poor man! the world of existence to
him seemed to have melted lazily down into a mere nebula, of which the
forlorn nucleus was--himself.  What a life for any young creature--even
his own daughter, to be bound to continually!

I could not help remarking the strong contrast between them.  He, with
his sallow, delicately-shaped features--the thin mouth and long
straight nose, of that form I have heard called the "melancholy nose,"
which usually indicates a feeble, pensive, and hypochondriac
temperament; while his daughter--But I have described her already.

"Mr. Fletcher is an invalid too, father," she said; so gently, that I
could feel no pain in her noticing my infirmity; and took gratefully a
seat she gave me, beside that of Mr. March.  She seemed inclined to
talk to me; and her manner was perfectly easy, friendly, and kind.

We spoke of commonplace subjects, near at hand, and of the West Indian
island, which its late "governor" was apparently by no means inclined
to forget.  I asked Miss March whether she had liked it?

"I was never there.  Papa was obliged to leave me behind, in
Wales--poor mamma's country.  Were you ever in Wales?  I like it so!
Indeed, I feel as if I belonged altogether to the mountains."

And saying this, she looked the very incarnation of the free mountain
spirit--a little rugged, perhaps, and sharply outlined; but that would
soften with time, and was better and wholesomer than any tame green
level of soft perfection.  At least, one inclined to think so, looking
at her.

I liked Miss March very much, and was glad of it.

In retiring, with her father leaning on her arm, to which he hung
trustingly and feebly as a child, she turned abruptly, and asked if she
could lend me any books to read?  I must find the days long and dull
without my friend.

I assented with thanks; and shortly afterwards she brought me an armful
of literature--enough to have caused any young damsel to have been
dubbed a "blue," in those matter-of-fact days.

"I have no time to study much myself," said she, in answer to my
questions; "but I like those who do.  Now, good evening, for I must
run.  You and your friend can have any books of ours.  You must not
think"--and she turned back to tell me this--"that because my father
said little he and I are not deeply grateful for the kindness Mr.
Halifax showed us last night."

"It was a pleasure to John--it always is--to do a kind office for any
one."

"I well believe that, Mr. Fletcher."  And she left me.

When John came home I informed him of what had passed.  He listened,
though he made no comment whatever.  But all the evening he sat turning
over Miss March's books, and reading either aloud or to himself
fragments out of one--which I had expected he would have scouted,
inasmuch as it was modern not classical poetry: in fact, a collection
of Lyrical Ballads, brought out that year by a young man named Mr.
William Wordsworth, and some anonymous friend, conjointly. I had opened
it, and found therein great nonsense; but John had better luck--he hit
upon a short poem called "Love," by the Anonymous Friend, which he
read, and I listened to, almost as if it had been Shakspeare.  It was
about a girl named Genevieve--a little simple story--everybody knows it
now; but it was like a strange, low, mystic music, luring the very
heart out of one's bosom, to us young visionaries then.

I wonder if Miss March knew the harm she did, and the mischief that has
been done among young people in all ages (since Caxton's days), by the
lending books, especially books of poetry.

The next day John was in a curious mood.  Dreamy, lazy, mild; he sat
poring in-doors, instead of roaming abroad--in truth, was a changed
lad.  I told him so, and laid it all to the blame of the Anonymous
Friend:  who held him in such fascinated thrall that he only looked up
once all the morning,--which was when Mr. and Miss March went by. In
the afternoon he submitted, lamb-like, to be led down to the
beech-wood--that the wonderful talking stream might hold forth to him
as it did to me.  But it could not--ah, no! it could not.  Our lives,
though so close, were yet as distinct as the musical living water and
the motionless grey rock beside which it ran.  The one swept joyfully
on to its appointed course:  the other--was what Heaven made it, abode
where Heaven placed it, and likewise fulfilled its end.

Coming back out of the little wood, I took John a new way I had
discovered, through the prettiest undulating meadow, half-field,
half-orchard, where trees loaded with ripening cider apples and green
crabs made a variety among the natural foresters.  Under one of these,
as we climbed the slope--for field, beech-wood, and common formed a
gradual ascent--we saw a vacant table laid.

"A pretty piece of rusticity--domestic Arcadia on a small scale," said
John; "I should like to invite myself to tea with them.  Who can they
be?"

"Probably visitors.  Resident country-folks like their meals best under
a decent roof-tree.  I should not wonder if this were not one of Mr.
March's vagaries."

"Don't say vagaries--he is an old man."

"Don't be reproachful--I shall say nought against him.  Indeed, I have
no opportunity, for there they both are coming hither from the house."

Sure enough they were--Miss March helping her father across the uneven
bit of common to the gate which led to the field.  Precisely at that
gate we all four met.

"'Tis useless to escape them," whispered I to John.

"I do not wish--why should I?" he answered, and held the gate open for
the father and daughter to go through.  She looked up and acknowledged
him, smiling.  I thought that smile and his courteous, but far less
frank, response to it, would have been all the greeting; but no! Mr.
March's dull perceptions had somehow been brightened up. He stopped.

"Mr. Halifax, I believe?"

John bowed.

They stood a moment looking at one another; the tall, stalwart young
man, so graceful and free in bearing, and the old man, languid, sickly,
prematurely broken down.

"Sir," said the elder, and in his fixed gaze I fancied I detected
something more than curiosity--something of the lingering pensiveness
with which, years ago, he had turned back to look at John--as if the
lad reminded him of some one he knew.  "Sir, I have to thank you--"

"Indeed, no thanks are needed.  I sincerely hope you are better to-day?"

Mr. March assented:  but John's countenance apparently interested him
so much that he forgot his usual complainings.  "My daughter tells me
you are our neighbours--I am happy to have such friendly ones.  My
dear," in a half audible, pensive whisper to her, "I think your poor
brother Walter would have grown up extremely like Mr.--Mr.--"

"Mr. Halifax, papa."

"Mr. Halifax, we are going to take tea under the trees there--my
daughter's suggestion--she is so fond of rurality.  Will you give us
the pleasure of your company?  You and"--here, I must confess, the
second invitation came in reply to a glance of Miss March's--"your
friend."

Of course we assented:  I considerably amused, and not ill-pleased, to
see how naturally it fell out that when John appeared in the scene, I,
Phineas, subsided into the secondary character of John's "friend."

Very soon--so soon that our novel position seemed like an adventure out
of the Arabian Nights--we found ourselves established under the
apple-tree, between whose branches the low sun stole in, kissing into
red chestnut colour the hair of the "nut-browne mayde," as she sat,
bareheaded, pouring into small white china cups that dainty luxury,
tea.  She had on--not the grey gown, but a white one, worked in
delicate muslin.  A bunch of those small pinky-white roses that grew in
such clusters about our parlour window nestled, almost as if they were
still growing, in her fair maiden bosom.

She apologized for little Jack's having "stolen" them from our domains
for her--lucky Jack! and received some brief and rather incoherent
answer from John about being "quite welcome."

He sat opposite her--I by her side--she had placed me there.  It struck
me as strange, that though her manner to us both was thoroughly frank
and kind, it was a shade more frank, more kind, to me than to him.
Also, I noted, that while she chatted gaily with me, John almost
entirely confined his talk to her father.

But the young lady listened--ay, undoubtedly she listened--to every
word that was said.  I did not wonder at it:  when his tongue was once
unloosed few people could talk better than John Halifax.  Not that he
was one of your showy conversationalists; language was with him neither
a science, an art, nor an accomplishment, but a mere vehicle for
thought; the garb, always chosen as simplest and fittest, in which his
ideas were clothed.  His conversation was never wearisome, since he
only spoke when he had something to say; and having said it, in the
most concise and appropriate manner that suggested itself at the time,
he was silent; and silence is a great and rare virtue at twenty years
of age.

We talked a good deal about Wales; John had been there more than once
in his journeyings; and this fact seemed to warm Miss March's manner,
rather shy and reserved though it was, at least to him.  She told us
many an innocent tale of her life there--of her childish days, and of
her dear old governess, whose name, I remember, was Cardigan.  She
seemed to have grown up solely under that lady's charge.  It was not
difficult to guess--though I forget whether she distinctly told us
so--that "poor mamma" had died so early as to become a mere name to her
orphan daughter.  She evidently owed everything she was to this good
governess.

"My dear," at last said Mr. March, rather testily, "you make rather too
much of our excellent Jane Cardigan.  She is going to be married, and
she will not care for you now."

"Hush! papa, that is a secret at present.  Pray, Mr. Halifax, do you
know Norton Bury?"

The abruptness of the question startled John, so that he only answered
in a hurried affirmative.  Indeed, Mr. March left him no time for
further explanation.

"I hate the place.  My late wife's cousins, the Brithwoods of the
Mythe, with whom I have had--ahem!--strong political differences--live
there.  And I was once nearly drowned in the Severn, close by."

"Papa, don't speak of that, please," said Miss March, hurriedly; so
hurriedly that I am sure she did not notice what would otherwise have
been plain enough--John's sudden and violent colour.  But the flush
died down again--he never spoke a word.  And, of course, acting on his
evident desire, neither did I.

"For my part," continued the young lady, "I have no dislike to Norton
Bury.  Indeed, I rather admired the place, if I remember right."

"You have been there?"  Though it was the simplest question, John's
sudden look at her, and the soft inflection of his voice, struck me as
peculiar.

"Once, when I was about twelve years old.  But we will talk of
something papa likes better.  I am sure papa enjoys this lovely
evening.  Hark! how the doves are cooing in the beech-wood."

I asked her if she had ever been in the beech-wood.

No; she was quite unacquainted with its mysteries--the fern-glades, the
woodbine tangles, and the stream, that, if you listened attentively,
you could hear faintly gurgling even where we sat.

"I did not know there was a stream so near.  I have generally taken my
walks across the Flat," said Miss March, smiling, and then blushing at
having done so, though it was the faintest blush imaginable.

Neither of us made any reply.

Mr. March settled himself to laziness and his arm-chair; the
conversation fell to the three younger persons--I may say the two--for
I also seceded, and left John master of the field.  It was enough for
me to sit listening to him and Miss March, as they gradually became
more friendly; a circumstance natural enough, under the influence of
that simple, solitary place, where all the pretences of etiquette
seemed naturally to drop away, leaving nothing but the forms dictated
and preserved by true manliness and true womanliness.

How young both looked, how happy in their frank, free youth, with the
sun-rays slanting down upon them, making a glory round either head,
and--as glory often does--dazzling painfully.

"Will you change seats with me, Miss March?--The sun will not reach
your eyes here."

She declined, refusing to punish any one for her convenience.

"It would not be punishment," said John, so gravely that one did not
recognize it for a "pretty speech" till it had passed--and went on with
their conversation.  In the course of it he managed so carefully, and
at the same time so carelessly, to interpose his broad hat between the
sun and her, that the fiery old king went down in splendour before she
noticed that she had been thus guarded and sheltered.  Though she did
not speak--why should she? of such a little thing,--yet it was one of
those "little things" which often touch a woman more than any words.

Miss March rose.  "I should greatly like to hear your stream and its
wonderful singing."  (John Halifax had been telling how it held forth
to me during my long, lonely days)--"I wonder what it would say to me?
Can we hear it from the bottom of this field?"

"Not clearly; we had better go into the wood."  For I knew John would
like that, though he was too great a hypocrite to second my proposal by
a single word.

Miss March was more single-minded, or else had no reason for being the
contrary.  She agreed to my plan with childish eagerness.  "Papa, you
wouldn't miss me--I shall not be away five minutes.  Then, Mr.
Fletcher, will you go with me?"

"And I will stay beside Mr. March, so that he will not be left alone,"
said John, reseating himself.

What did the lad do that for?--why did he sit watching us so intently,
as I led Miss March down the meadow, and into the wood?  It passed my
comprehension.

The young girl walked with me, as she talked with me, in perfect
simplicity and frankness, free from the smallest hesitation.  Even as
the women I have known have treated me all my life--showing me that
sisterly trust and sisterly kindness which have compensated in a
measure for the solitary fate which it pleased Heaven to lay upon me;
which, in any case, conscience would have forced me to lay upon
myself--that no woman should ever be more to me than a sister.

Yet I watched her with pleasure--this young girl, as she tripped on
before me, noticing everything, enjoying everything.  She talked to me
a good deal too about myself, in her kindly way, asking what I did all
day?--and if I were not rather dull sometimes, in this solitary country
lodging?

"I am dull occasionally myself, or should be, if I had time to think
about it.  It is hard to be an only child."

I told her I had never found it so.

"But then you have your friend.  Has Mr. Halifax any brothers or
sisters?"

"None.  No relatives living."

"Ah!" a compassionate ejaculation, as she pulled a woodbine spray, and
began twisting it with those never-quiet fingers of hers.  "You and he
seem to be great friends."

"John is a brother, friend, everything in the world to me."

"Is he?  He must be very good.  Indeed, he looks so," observed Miss
March, thoughtfully.  "And I believe--at least I have often heard--that
good men are rare."

I had no time to enter into that momentous question, when the origin of
it himself appeared, breaking through the bushes to join us.

He apologized for so doing, saying Mr. March had sent him.

"You surely do not mean that you come upon compulsion?  What an ill
compliment to this lovely wood."

And the eyes of the "nut-browne mayde" were a little mischievous. John
looked preternaturally grave, as he said, "I trust you do not object to
my coming?"

She smiled--so merrily, that his slight haughtiness evaporated like
mist before the sunbeams.

"I was obliged to startle you by jumping through the bushes; for I
heard my own name.  What terrible revelations has this friend of mine
been making to you, Miss March?"

He spoke gaily; but I fancied he looked uneasy.  The young lady only
laughed.

"I have a great mind not to tell you, Mr. Halifax."

"Not when I ask you?"

He spoke so seriously that she could choose but reply.

"Mr. Fletcher was telling me three simple facts:--First, that you were
an orphan, without relatives.  Secondly, that you were his dearest
friend.  Thirdly--well, I never compromise truth--that you were good."

"And you?"

"The first I was ignorant of; the second I had already guessed; the
third--"

He gazed at her intently.

"The third I had likewise--not doubted."

John made some hurried acknowledgment.  He looked greatly pleased--nay,
more than pleased--happy.  He walked forward by Miss March's side,
taking his natural place in the conversation, while I as naturally as
willingly fell behind.  But I heard all they said, and joined in it now
and then.

Thus, sometimes spoken to, and sometimes left silent, watching their
two figures, and idly noting their comparative heights--her head came
just above John's shoulder--I followed these young people through the
quiet wood.

Let me say a word about that wood--dear and familiar as it was.  Its
like I have never since seen.  It was small--so small that in its
darkest depths you might catch the sunshine lighting up the branches of
its outside trees.  A young wood, too--composed wholly of smooth-barked
beeches and sturdy Scotch firs, growing up side by side--the Adam and
Eve in this forest Eden.  No old folk were there--no gnarled and
withered foresters--every tree rose up, upright in its youth, and
perfect after its kind.  There was as yet no choking under-growth of
vegetation; nothing but mosses, woodbine, and ferns; and between the
boles of the trees you could trace vista after vista, as between the
slender pillars of a cathedral aisle.

John pointed out all this to Miss March, especially noticing the
peculiar character of the two species of trees--the masculine and
feminine--fir and beech.  She smiled at the fancy; and much graceful
badinage went on between them.  I had never before seen John in the
company of women, and I marvelled to perceive the refinement of his
language, and the poetic ideas it clothed.  I forgot the truth--of
whose saying was it?--"that once in his life every man becomes a poet."

They stood by the little rivulet, and he showed her how the water came
from the spring above; the old well-head where the cattle drank; how it
took its course merrily through the woods, till at the bottom of the
valley below it grew into a wide stream.

"Small beginnings make great endings," observed Miss March,
sententiously.

John answered her with the happiest smile!  He dipped his hollowed palm
into the water and drank:  she did the same.  Then, in her free-hearted
girlish fun, she formed a cup out of a broad leaf, which, by the
greatest ingenuity, she managed to make contain about two teaspoonfuls
of water for the space of half a minute, and held it to my mouth.

"I am like Rebecca at the well.  Drink, Eleazer," she cried, gaily.

John looked on.  "I am very thirsty, too," said he, in a low voice.

The young girl hesitated a moment; then filled and offered to him the
Arcadian cup.  I fear he drank out of it a deeper and more subtle
draught than that innocent water.

Both became somewhat grave, and stood, one on either side the stream,
looking down upon it, letting its bubbling murmur have all the talk.
What it said I know not:  I only know that it did not, could not, say
to those two what it said to me.

When we took leave of our acquaintances Mr. March was extremely
courteous, and declared our society would always be a pleasure to
himself and his daughter.

"He always says so formally, 'my daughter,'" I observed, breaking the
silence in which they had left us.  "I wonder what her Christian name
is."

"I believe it is Ursula."

"How did you find that out?"

"It is written in one of her books."

"Ursula!" I repeated, wondering where I had heard it before.  "A pretty
name."

"A very pretty name."

When John fell into this echo mood I always found it best to fall into
taciturnity.



CHAPTER XIII

Next day, the rain poured down incessantly, sweeping blindingly across
the hills as I have rarely seen it sweep except at Enderley. The
weather had apparently broken up, even thus early in the autumn; and
for that day, and several days following, we had nothing but wind,
rain, and storm.  The sky was as dusky as Miss March's grey gown;
broken sometimes in the evening by a rift of misty gold, gleaming over
Nunnely Hill, as if to show us what September sunsets might have been.

John went every day to Norton Bury that week.  His mind seemed
restless--he was doubly kind and attentive to me; but every night I
heard him go out in all the storm to walk upon the common.  I longed to
follow him, but it was best not.

On the Saturday morning, coming to breakfast, I heard him ask Mrs. Tod
how Mr. March was?  We knew the invalid had been ailing all the week,
nor had we seen him or his daughter once.

Mrs. Tod shook her head ominously.  "He is very bad, sir; badder than
ever, I do think.  She sits up wi' him best part of every night."

"I imagined so.  I have seen her light burning."

"Law, Mr. Halifax! you don't be walking abroad of nights on the Flat?
It's terrible bad for your health," cried the honest soul, who never
disguised the fact that Mr. Halifax was her favourite of all her
lodgers, save and except Miss March.

"Thank you for considering my health," he replied, smiling.  "Only tell
me, Mrs. Tod, can anything be done--can we do anything for that poor
gentleman?"

"Nothing, sir--thank'ee all the same."

"If he should grow worse let me go for Doctor Brown.  I shall be at
home all day."

"I'll tell Miss March of your kindness, sir," said Mrs. Tod, as with a
troubled countenance she disappeared.

"Were you not going to Norton Bury to-day, John?"

"I was--but--as it is a matter of no moment, I have changed my mind.
You have been left so much alone lately.  Nay--I'll not disguise the
truth; I had another reason."

"May I know it?"

"Of course you may.  It is about our fellow-lodgers.  Doctor Brown--I
met him on the road this morning--told me that her father cannot live
more than a few days--perhaps a few hours.  And she does not know it."

He leaned on the mantelpiece.  I could see he was very much affected.

So was I.

"Her relatives--surely they ought to be sent for?"

"She has none.  Doctor Brown said she once told him so:  none nearer
than the Brithwoods of the Mythe--and we know what the Brithwoods are."

A young gentleman and his young wife--proverbially the gayest,
proudest, most light-hearted of all our country families.

"Nay, Phineas, I will not have you trouble yourself.  And after all,
they are mere strangers--mere strangers.  Come, sit down to breakfast."

But he could not eat.  He could not talk of ordinary things.  Every
minute he fell into abstractions.  At length he said, suddenly:

"Phineas, I do think it is wicked, downright wicked, for a doctor to be
afraid of telling a patient he is going to die--more wicked, perhaps,
to keep the friends in ignorance until the last stunning blow falls.
She ought to be told:  she must be told:  she may have many things to
say to her poor father.  And God help her! for such a stroke she ought
to be a little prepared.  It might kill her else!"

He rose up and walked about the room.  The seal once taken from his
reserve, he expressed himself to me freely, as he had used to
do--perhaps because at this time his feelings required no disguise.
The dreams which might have peopled that beautiful sunset wood
necessarily faded in an atmosphere like this--filled with the solemn
gloom of impending death.

At last he paused in his hurried walk, quieted, perhaps, by what he
might have read in my ever-following eyes.

"I know you are as grieved as I am, Phineas.  What can we do?  Let us
forget that they are strangers, and act as one Christian ought to
another.  Do YOU not think she ought to be told?"

"Most decidedly.  They might get further advice."

"That would be vain.  Dr. Brown says it is a hopeless case, has been so
for long; but he would not believe it, nor have his daughter told. He
clings to life desperately.  How horrible for her!"

"You think most of her."

"I do," said he, firmly.  "He is reaping what he sowed, poor man! God
knows I pity him.  But she is as good as an angel of heaven."

It was evident that, somehow or other, John had learnt a great deal
about the father and daughter.  However, now was not the time to
question him.  For at this moment, through the opened doors, we heard
faint moans that pierced the whole house, and too surely came from the
sick--possibly, the dying--man.  Mrs. Tod, who had been seeing Dr.
Brown to his horse, now entered our parlour--pale, with swollen eyes.

"Oh, Mr. Halifax!" and the kind soul burst out into crying afresh. John
made her sit down, and gave her a glass of wine.

"I've been with them since four this morning, and it makes me weakly
like," said she.  "That poor Mr. March!--I didn't like him very much
alive, but I do feel so sorry now he's a-dying."

Then he WAS dying.

"Does his daughter know?" I asked.

"No--no--I dare not tell her.  Nobody dare."

"Does she not guess it?"

"Not a bit.  Poor young body! she's never seen anybody so.  She fancies
him no worse than he has been, and has got over it.  She WOULDN'T think
else.  She be a good daughter to him--that she be!"

We all sat silent; and then John said, in a low voice--"Mrs. Tod, she
ought to be told--and you would be the best person to tell her."

But the soft-hearted landlady recoiled from the task.  "If Tod were at
home now--he that is so full o' wisdom learnt in 'the kirk'--"

"I think," said John, hastily interrupting, "that a woman would be the
best.  But if you object, and as Doctor Brown will not be here till
to-morrow--and as there is no one else to perform such a trying
duty--it seems--that is, I believe"--here his rather formal speech
failed.  He ended it abruptly--"If you like I will tell her myself."

Mrs. Tod overwhelmed him with thankfulness.

"How shall I meet her, then?  If it were done by chance it would be
best."

"I'll manage it somehow.  The house is very quiet:  I've sent all the
children away, except the baby.  The baby'll comfort her, poor dear!
afterwards."  And, again drying her honest eyes, Mrs. Tod ran out of
the room.

We could do nothing at all that morning.  The impending sorrow might
have been our own, instead of that of people who three weeks ago were
perfect strangers.  We sat and talked--less, perhaps, of them
individually, than of the dark Angel, whom face to face I at least had
never yet known--who even now stood at the door of our little
habitation, making its various inmates feel as one family, in the
presence of the great leveller of all things--Death.

Hour by hour of that long day the rain fell down--pouring,
pouring--shutting us up, as it were, from the world without, and
obliterating every thought, save of what was happening under our one
roof--that awful change which was taking place in the upper room, in
the other half of the house, whence the moans descended, and whence
Mrs. Tod came out from time to time, hurrying mournfully to inform "Mr.
Halifax" how things went on.

It was nearly dusk before she told us Mr. March was asleep, that his
daughter had at last been persuaded to come down-stairs, and was
standing drinking "a cup o' tea" by the kitchen fire.

"You must go now, sir; she'll not stop five minutes.  Please go."

"I will," he answered; but he turned frightfully pale.  "Phineas--don't
let her see us both.  Stay without the door.  If there were anybody to
tell her this but me!"

"Do you hesitate?"

"No--No."

And he went out.  I did not follow him; but I heard afterwards, both
from himself and Mrs. Tod, what transpired.

She was standing so absorbed that she did not notice his entrance. She
looked years older and sadder than the young girl who had stood by the
stream-side less than a week ago.  When she turned and spoke to John it
was with a manner also changed.  No hesitation, no shyness; trouble had
put aside both.

"Thank you, my father is indeed seriously ill.  I am in great trouble,
you see, though Mrs. Tod is very, very kind.  Don't cry so, good Mrs.
Tod; I can't cry, I dare not.  If I once began I should never stop, and
then how could I help my poor father?  There now, there!"

She laid her hand, with its soft, fluttering motions, on the good
woman's shoulder, and looked up at John.  He said afterwards that those
dry, tearless eyes smote him to the heart.

"Why does she sob so, Mr Halifax?  Papa will be better tomorrow, I am
sure."

"I HOPE so," he answered, dwelling on the word; "we should always hope
to the very last."

"The last?" with a quick, startled glance.

"And then we can only trust."

Something more than the MERE words struck her.  She examined him
closely for a minute.

"You mean--yes--I understand what you mean.  But you are mistaken. The
doctor would have told me--if--if--" she shivered, and left the
sentence unfinished.

"Dr. Brown was afraid--we were all afraid," broke in Mrs. Tod, sobbing.
"Only Mr. Halifax, he said--"

Miss March turned abruptly to John.  That woeful gaze of hers could be
answered by no words.  I believe he took her hand, but I cannot tell.
One thing I can tell, for she said it to me herself afterwards, that he
seemed to look down upon her like a strong, pitiful, comforting angel;
a messenger sent by God.

Then she broke away, and flew up-stairs.  John came in again to me, and
sat down.  He did not speak for many minutes.

After an interval--I know not how long--we heard Mrs. Tod calling
loudly for "Mr. Halifax."  We both ran through the empty kitchen to the
foot of the stairs that led to Mr. March's room.

Mr. March's room!  Alas, he owned nothing now on this fleeting,
perishable earth of ours.  He had gone from it:  the spirit stealing
quietly away in sleep.  He belonged now to the world everlasting.

Peace be to him! whatever his life had been, he was HER father.

Mrs. Tod sat half-way down the stair-case, holding Ursula March across
her knees.  The poor creature was insensible, or nearly so. She--we
learnt--had been composed under the terrible discovery made when she
returned to his room; and when all restorative means failed, the fact
of death became certain, she had herself closed her father's eyes, and
kissed him, then tried to walk from the room--but at the third step she
dropped quietly down.

There she lay; physical weakness conquering the strong heart:  she lay,
overcome at last.  There was no more to bear.  Had there been, I think
she would have been able to have borne it still.

John took her in his arms; I know not if he took her, or Mrs. Tod gave
her to him--but there she was.  He carried her across the kitchen into
our own little parlour, and laid her down on my sofa.

"Shut the door, Phineas.  Mrs. Tod, keep everybody out.  She is waking
now."

She did, indeed, open her eyes, with a long sigh, but closed them
again.  Then with an effort she sat upright, and looked at us all
around.

"Oh, my dear! my dear!" moaned Mrs. Tod, clasping her, and sobbing over
her like a child.  "Cry, do cry!"

"I CAN'T," she said, and lay down again.

We stood awed, watching that poor, pale face, on every line of which
was written stunned, motionless, impassive grief.  For John--two
minutes of such a gaze as his might in a man's heart do the work of
years.

"She must be roused," he said at last.  "She MUST cry.  Mrs. Tod, take
her up-stairs.  Let her look at her father."

The word effected what he desired; what almost her life demanded. She
clung round Mrs. Tod's neck in torrents of weeping.

"Now, Phineas, let us go away."

And he went, walking almost like one blindfold, straight out of the
house, I following him.



CHAPTER XIV

"I am quite certain, Mrs. Tod, that it would be much better for her;
and, if she consents, it shall be so," said John, decisively.

We three were consulting, the morning after the death, on a plan which
he and I had already settled between ourselves, namely, that we should
leave our portion of the cottage entirely at Miss March's disposal,
while we inhabited hers--save that locked and silent chamber wherein
there was no complaining, no suffering now.

Either John's decision, or Mrs. Tod's reasoning, was successful; we
received a message to the effect that Miss March would not refuse our
"kindness."  So we vacated; and all that long Sunday we sat in the
parlour lately our neighbour's, heard the rain come down, and the
church bells ring; the wind blowing autumn gales, and shaking all the
windows, even that of the room overhead.  It sounded awful THERE.  We
were very glad the poor young orphan was away.

On the Monday morning we heard going up-stairs the heavy footsteps that
every one at some time or other has shuddered at; then the hammering.
Mrs. Tod came in, and told us that no one--not even his daughter--could
be allowed to look at what had been "poor Mr. March," any more.  All
with him was ended.

"The funeral is to be soon.  I wonder what she will do then, poor
thing!"

John made me no answer.

"Is she left well provided for, do you think?"

"It is impossible to say."

His answers were terse and brief enough, but I could not help talking
about the poor young creature, and wondering if she had any relative or
friend to come to her in this sad time.

"She said--do you remember, when she was crying--that she had not a
friend in the wide world?"

And this fact, which he expressed with a sort of triumph, seemed to
afford the greatest possible comfort to John.

But all our speculations were set at rest by a request brought this
moment by Mrs. Tod--that Mr. Halifax would go with her to speak to Miss
March.

"I! only I?" said John, starting.

"Only you, sir.  She wants somebody to speak to about the funeral--and
I said, 'There be Mr. Halifax, Miss March, the kindest gentleman'; and
she said, 'if it wouldn't trouble him to come--'"

"Tell her I am coming."

When, after some time, he returned, he was very serious.

"Wait a minute, Phineas, and you shall hear; I feel confused, rather.
It is so strange, her trusting me thus.  I wish I could help her more."

Then he told me all that had passed--how he and Mrs. Tod had conjointly
arranged the hasty funeral--how brave and composed she had been--that
poor child, all alone!

"Has she indeed no one to help her?"

"No one.  She might send for Mr. Brithwood, but he was not friendly
with her father; she said she had rather ask this 'kindness' of me,
because her father had liked me, and thought I resembled their Walter,
who died."

"Poor Mr. March!--perhaps he is with Walter, now.  But, John, can you
do all that is necessary for her?  You are very young."

"She does not seem to feel that.  She treats me as if I were a man of
forty.  Do I look so old and grave, Phineas?"

"Sometimes.  And about the funeral?"

"It will be very simple.  She is determined to go herself.  She wishes
to have no one besides Mrs. Tod, you, and me."

"Where is he to be buried?"

"In the little churchyard close by, which you and I have looked at many
a time.  Ah, Phineas, we did not think how soon we should be laying our
dead there."

"Not OUR dead, thank God!"

But the next minute I understood.  "OUR dead"--the involuntary
admission of that sole feeling, which makes one, erewhile a stranger,
say to, or think of another--"All thine are mine, and mine are thine,
henceforward and for ever."

I watched John as he stood by the fire; his thoughtful brow and
firm-set lips contradicting the youthfulness of his looks.  Few as were
his years, he had learnt much in them.  He was at heart a man, ready
and able to design and carry out a man's work in the world. And in his
whole aspect was such grave purity, such honest truth, that no wonder,
young as they both were, and little as she knew of him, this poor
orphan should not have feared to trust him entirely. And there is
nothing that binds heart to heart, of lovers or friends, so quickly and
so safely, as to trust and be trusted in time of trouble.

"Did she tell you any more, John?  Anything of her circumstances?"

"No.  But from something Mrs. Tod let fall, I fear"--and he vainly
tried to disguise his extreme satisfaction--"that she will be left with
little or nothing."

"Poor Miss March!"

"Why call her poor?  She is not a woman to be pitied, but to be
honoured.  You would have thought so, had you seen her this morning. So
gentle--so wise--so brave.  Phineas,"--and I could see his lips
tremble--"that was the kind of woman Solomon meant, when he said, 'Her
price was above rubies.'"

"I think so too.  I doubt not that when she marries Ursula March will
be 'a crown to her husband.'"

My words, or the half sigh that accompanied them--I could not help
it--seemed to startle John, but he made no remark.  Nor did we recur to
the subject again that day.

Two days after, our little company followed the coffin out of the
woodbine porch--where we had last said good-bye to poor Mr.
March--across the few yards of common, to the churchyard, scarcely
larger than a cottage garden, where, at long intervals, the few
Enderley dead were laid.

A small procession--the daughter first, supported by good Mrs. Tod,
then John Halifax and I.  So we buried him--the stranger who, at this
time, and henceforth, seemed even, as John had expressed it, "our
dead," our own.

We followed the orphan home.  She had walked firmly, and stood by the
grave-side motionless, her hood drawn over her face.  But when we came
back to Rose Cottage door, and she gave a quick, startled glance up at
the familiar window, we saw Mrs. Tod take her, unresisting, into her
motherly arms--then we knew how it would be.

"Come away," said John, in a smothered voice--and we came away.

All that day we sat in our parlour--Mr. March's parlour that had
been--where, through the no longer darkened casement, the unwonted sun
poured in.  We tried to settle to our ordinary ways, and feel as if
this were like all other days--our old sunshiny days at Enderley. But
it would not do.  Some imperceptible but great change had taken place.
It seemed a year since that Saturday afternoon, when we were drinking
tea so merrily under the apple-tree in the field.

We heard no more from Miss March that day.  The next, we received a
message of thanks for our "kindness."  She had given way at last, Mrs.
Tod said, and kept her chamber, not seriously ill, but in spirit
thoroughly broken down.  For three days more, when I went to meet John
returning from Norton Bury, I could see that his first glance, as he
rode up between the chestnut trees, was to the window of the room that
had been mine.  I always told him, without his asking, whatever Mrs.
Tod had told me about her state; he used to listen, generally in
silence, and then speak of something else.  He hardly ever mentioned
Miss March's name.

On the fourth morning, I happened to ask him if he had told my father
what had occurred here?

"No."

I looked surprised.

"Did you wish me to tell him?  I will, if you like, Phineas."

"Oh, no.  He takes little interest in strangers."

Soon after, as he lingered about the parlour, John said:

"Probably I may be late to-night.  After business hours I want to have
a little talk with your father."

He stood irresolutely by the fire.  I knew by his countenance that
there was something on his mind.

"David."

"Ay, lad."

"Will you not tell me first what you want to say to my father?"

"I can't stay now.  To-night, perhaps.  But, pshaw! what is there to be
told?  'Nothing.'"

"Anything that concerns you can never be to me quite 'nothing.'"

"I know that," he said, affectionately, and went out of the room.

When he came in he looked much more cheerful--stood switching his
riding-whip after the old habit, and called upon me to admire his
favourite brown mare.

"I do; and her master likewise.  John, when you're on horseback you
look like a young knight of the Middle Ages.  Maybe, some of the old
Norman blood was in 'Guy Halifax, gentleman.'"

It was a dangerous allusion.  He changed colour so rapidly and
violently that I thought I had angered him.

"No--that would not matter--cannot--cannot--never shall.  I am what God
made me, and what, with His blessing, I will make myself."

He said no more, and very soon afterwards he rode away.  But not
before, as every day, I had noticed that wistful wandering glance up at
the darkened window of the room, where sad and alone, save for kindly
Mrs. Tod, the young orphan lay.

In the evening, just before bed-time, he said to me with a rather sad
smile, "Phineas, you wanted to know what it was that I wished to speak
about to your father?"

"Ay, do tell me."

"It is hardly worth telling.  Only to ask him how he set up in business
for himself.  He was, I believe, little older than I am now."

"Just twenty-one."

"And I shall be twenty-one next June."

"Are you thinking of setting up for yourself?"

"A likely matter!" and he laughed, rather bitterly, I thought--"when
every trade requires capital, and the only trade I thoroughly
understand, a very large one.  No, no, Phineas; you'll not see me
setting up a rival tan-yard next year.  My capital is NIL."

"Except youth, health, courage, honour, honesty, and a few other such
trifles."

"None of which I can coin into money, however.  And your father has
expressly told me that without money a tanner can do nothing."

"Unless, as was his own case, he was taken into some partnership where
his services were so valuable as to be received instead of capital.
True, my father earned little at first, scarcely more than you earn
now; but he managed to live respectably, and, in course of time, to
marry."

I avoided looking at John as I said the last word.  He made no answer,
but in a little time he came and leaned over my chair.

"Phineas, you are a wise counsellor--'a brother born for adversity.' I
have been vexing myself a good deal about my future, but now I will
take heart.  Perhaps, some day, neither you nor any one else will be
ashamed of me."

"No one could, even now, seeing you as you really are."

"As John Halifax, not as the tanner's 'prentice boy?  Oh! lad--there
the goad sticks.  Here I forget everything unpleasant; I am my own free
natural self; but the minute I get back to Norton Bury--however, it is
a wrong, a wicked feeling, and must be kept down.  Let us talk of
something else."

"Of Miss March?  She has been greatly better all day."

"She?  No, not her to-night!" he said, hurriedly.  "Pah! I could almost
fancy the odour of these hides on my hands still.  Give me a candle."

He went up-stairs, and only came down a few minutes before bed-time.

Next morning was Sunday.  After the bells had done ringing we saw a
black-veiled figure pass our window.  Poor girl!--going to church
alone.  We followed--taking care that she should not see us, either
during service or afterwards.  We did not see anything more of her that
day.

On Monday a message came, saying that Miss March would be glad to speak
with us both.  Of course we went.

She was sitting quite alone, in our old parlour, very grave and pale,
but perfectly composed.  A little more womanly-looking in the dignity
of her great grief, which, girl as she was, and young men as we were,
seemed to be to her a shield transcending all worldly "proprieties."

As she rose, and we shook hands, in a silence only broken by the rustle
of her black dress, not one of us thought--surely the most evil-minded
gossip could not have dared to think--that there was anything strange
in her receiving us here.  We began to talk of common things--not THE
thing.  She seemed to have fought through the worst of her trouble, and
to have put it back into those deep quiet chambers where all griefs go;
never forgotten, never removed, but sealed up in silence, as it should
be.  Perhaps, too--for let us not exact more from Nature than Nature
grants--the wide, wide difference in character, temperament, and
sympathies between Miss March and her father unconsciously made his
loss less a heart-loss, total and irremediable, than one of mere habit
and instinctive feeling, which, the first shock over, would insensibly
heal.  Besides, she was young--young in life, in hope, in body, and
soul; and youth, though it grieves passionately, cannot for ever grieve.

I saw, and rejoiced to see, that Miss March was in some degree herself
again; at least, so much of her old self as was right, natural, and
good for her to be.

She and John conversed a good deal.  Her manner to him was easy and
natural, as to a friend who deserved and possessed her warm gratitude:
his was more constrained.  Gradually, however, this wore away; there
was something in her which, piercing all disguises, went at once to the
heart of things.  She seemed to hold in her hand the touchstone of
truth.

He asked--no, I believe _I_ asked her, how long she intended staying at
Enderley?

"I can hardly tell.  Once I understood that my cousin Richard Brithwood
was left my guardian.  This my fa--this was to have been altered, I
believe.  I wish it had been.  You know Norton Bury, Mr. Halifax?"

"I live there."

"Indeed!"--with some surprise.  "Then you are probably acquainted with
my cousin and his wife?"

"No; but I have seen them."

John gave these answers without lifting his eyes.

"Will you tell me candidly--for I know nothing of her, and it is rather
important that I should learn--what sort of person is Lady Caroline?"

This frank question, put directly, and guarded by the battery of those
innocent, girlish eyes, was a very hard question to be answered; for
Norton Bury had said many ill-natured things of our young 'squire's
wife, whom he married at Naples, from the house of the well-known Lady
Hamilton.

"She was, you are aware, Lady Caroline Ravenel, the Earl of Luxmore's
daughter."

"Yes, yes; but that does not signify.  I know nothing of Lord
Luxmore--I want to know what she is herself."

John hesitated, then answered, as he could with truth, "She is said to
be very charitable to the poor, pleasant and kind-hearted.  But, if I
may venture to hint as much, not exactly the friend whom I think Miss
March would choose, or to whom she would like to be indebted for
anything but courtesy."

"That was not my meaning.  I need not be indebted to any one.  Only, if
she were a good woman, Lady Caroline would have been a great comfort
and a useful adviser to one who is scarcely eighteen, and, I believe,
an heiress."

"An heiress!"  The colour flashed in a torrent over John's whole face,
then left him pale.  "I--pardon me--I thought it was otherwise. Allow
me to--to express my pleasure--"

"It does not add to mine," said she, half-sighing.  "Jane Cardigan
always told me riches brought many cares.  Poor Jane! I wish I could go
back to her--but that is impossible!"

A silence here intervened, which it was necessary some one should break.

"So much good can be done with a large fortune," I said.

"Yes.  I know not if mine is very large; indeed, I never understood
money matters, but have merely believed what--what I was told. However,
be my fortune much or little, I will try to use it well."

"I am sure you will."

John said nothing; but his eyes, sad indeed, yet lit with a proud
tenderness, rested upon her as she spoke.  Soon after, he rose up to
take leave.

"Do not go yet; I want to ask about Norton Bury.  I had no idea you
lived there.  And Mr. Fletcher too?"

I replied in the affirmative.

"In what part of the town?"

"On the Coltham Road, near the Abbey."

"Ah, those Abbey chimes!--how I used to listen to them, night after
night, when the pain kept me awake!"

"What pain?" asked John, suddenly, alive to any suffering of hers.

Miss March smiled almost like her old smile.  "Oh! I had nearly
forgotten it, though it was very bad at the time; only that I cut my
wrist rather dangerously with a bread knife, in a struggle with my
nurse."

"When was that?" eagerly inquired John.

For me, I said nothing.  Already I guessed all.  Alas! the tide of fate
was running strong against my poor David.  What could I do but stand
aside and watch?

"When was it?  Let me see--five, six years ago.  But, indeed, 'tis
nothing."

"Not exactly 'nothing.'  Do tell me!"

And John stood, listening for her words, counting them even, as one
would count, drop by drop, a vial of joy which is nearly empty, yet
Time's remorseless hand still keeps on, pouring, pouring.

"Well, if you must know it, it was one of my naughtinesses--I was very
naughty as a child.  They would not let me have a piece of bread that I
wanted to give away to a poor lad."

"Who stood opposite--under an alley--in the rain?--was it not so?"

"How could you know?  But he looked so hungry; I was so sorry for him."

"Were you?"--in a tone almost inaudible.

"I have often thought of him since, when I chanced to look at this
mark."

"Let me look at it--may I?"

Taking her hand, he softly put back the sleeve, discovering, just above
the wrist, a deep, discoloured seam.  He gazed at it, his features all
quivering, then, without a word either of adieu or apology, he quitted
the room.



CHAPTER XV

I was left with Miss March alone.  She sat looking at the door where
John had disappeared, in extreme surprise, not unmingled with a certain
embarrassment.

"What does he mean, Mr. Fletcher?  Can I have offended him in any way?"

"Indeed, no."

"Why did he go away?"

But that question, simple as it was in itself, and most simply put,
involved so much, that I felt I had no right to answer it; while, at
the same time, I had no possible right to use any of those disguises or
prevarications which are always foolish and perilous, and very
frequently wrong.  Nor, even had I desired, was Miss March the woman to
whom one dared offer the like; therefore I said to her plainly:

"I know the reason.  I would tell you, but I think John would prefer
telling you himself."

"As he pleases," returned Miss March, a slight reserve tempering her
frank manner; but it soon vanished, and she began talking to me in her
usual friendly way, asking me many questions about the Brithwoods and
about Norton Bury.  I answered them freely--my only reservation being,
that I took care not to give any information concerning ourselves.

Soon afterwards, as John did not return, I took leave of her, and went
to our own parlour.

He was not there.  He had left word with little Jack, who met him on
the common, that he was gone a long walk, and should not return till
dinner-time.  Dinner-time came, but I had to dine alone.  It was the
first time I ever knew him break even such a trivial promise.  My heart
misgave me--I spent a miserable day.  I was afraid to go in search of
him, lest he should return to a dreary, empty parlour. Better, when he
did come in, that he should find a cheerful hearth and--me.

Me, his friend and brother, who had loved him these six years better
than anything else in the whole world.  Yet what could I do now? Fate
had taken the sceptre out of my hands--I was utterly powerless; I could
neither give him comfort nor save him pain any more.

What I felt then, in those long, still hours, many a one has felt
likewise; many a parent over a child, many a sister over a brother,
many a friend over a friend.  A feeling natural and universal.  Let
those who suffer take it patiently, as the common lot; let those who
win hold the former ties in tenderest reverence, nor dare to flaunt the
new bond cruelly in the face of the old.

Having said this, which, being the truth, it struck me as right to say,
I will no more allude to the subject.

In the afternoon there occurred an incident.  A coach-and-four,
resplendent in liveries, stopped at the door; I knew it well, and so
did all Norton Bury.  It was empty; but Lady Caroline's own maid--so I
heard afterwards--sat in the rumble, and Lady Caroline's own black-eyed
Neapolitan page leaped down, bearing a large letter, which I concluded
was for Miss March.

I was glad that John was not at home; glad that the coach, with all its
fine paraphernalia, was away, empty as it had arrived, before John came
in.

He did not come till it was nearly dusk.  I was at the window, looking
at my four poplar-trees, as they pointed skywards like long fingers
stretching up out of the gloom, when I saw him crossing the common.  At
first I was going to meet him at the gate, but on second thoughts I
remained within, and only stirred up the fire, which could be seen
shining ever so far.

"What a bright blaze!--  Nay, you have not waited dinner, I hope?--
Tea--yes, that's far better; I have had such a long walk, and am so
tired."

The words were cheerful, so was the tone.  TOO cheerful--oh, by far!
The sort of cheerfulness that strikes to a friend's heart, like the
piping of soldiers as they go away back from a newly-filled grave.

"Where have you been, John?"

"All over Nunnely Hill.  I must take you there--such expansive views.
As Mrs. Tod informed me, quoting some local ballad, which she said was
written by an uncle of hers:

                    "'There you may spy
      Twenty-three churches with the glass and the eye.'

Remarkable fact, isn't it?"

Thus he kept on talking all tea-time, incessantly, rapidly talking. It
was enough to make one weep.

After tea I insisted on his taking my arm-chair; saying, that after
such a walk, in that raw day, he must be very cold.

"Not the least--quite the contrary--feel my hand."  It was burning.
"But I am tired--thoroughly tired."

He leaned back and shut his eyes.  Oh, the utter weariness of body and
soul that was written on his face!

"Why did you go out alone?  John, you know that you have always me."

He looked up, smiling.  But the momentary brightness passed.  Alas! I
was not enough to make him happy now.

We sat silent.  I knew he would speak to me in time; but the gates of
his heart were close locked.  It seemed as if he dared not open them,
lest the flood should burst forth and overwhelm us.

At nine o'clock Mrs. Tod came in with supper.  She had always something
or other to say, especially since the late events had drawn the whole
household of Rose Cottage so closely together; now, she was brim-full
of news.

She had been all that evening packing up for poor dear Miss March;
though why she should call her "poor," truly, she didn't know.  Who
would have thought Mr. March had such grand relations?  Had we seen
Lady Caroline Brithwood's coach that came that day?  Such a beautiful
coach it was!--sent on purpose for Miss March--only she wouldn't go.
"But now she has made up her mind, poor dear.  She is leaving
to-morrow."

When John heard this he was helping Mrs. Tod, as usual, to fasten the
heavy shutters.  He stood, with his hand on the bolt, motionless, till
the good woman was gone.  Then he staggered to the mantelpiece, and
leaned on it with both his elbows, his hands covering his face.

But there was no disguise now--no attempt to make it.  A young man's
first love--not first fancy, but first love--in all its passion,
desperation, and pain--had come to him, as it comes to all.  I saw him
writhing under it--saw, and could not help him.  The next few silent
minutes were very bitter to us both.

Then I said gently, "David!"

"Well?"

"I thought things were so."

"Yes."

"Suppose you were to talk to me a little--it might do you good."

"Another time.  Let me go out--out into the air; I'm choking."

Snatching up his hat, he rushed from me.  I did not dare to follow.

After waiting some time, and listening till all was quiet in the house,
I could bear the suspense no longer and went out.

I thought I should find him on the Flat--probably in his favourite
walk, his "terrace," as he called it, where he had first seen, and must
have seen many a day after, that girlish figure tripping lightly along
through the morning sunshine and morning dew.  I had a sort of instinct
that he would be there now; so I climbed up the shortest way, often
losing my footing; for it was a pitch-dark night, and the common looked
as wide, and black, and still, as a midnight sea.

John was not there; indeed, if he had been I could scarcely have seen
him; I could see nothing but the void expanse of the Flat, or, looking
down, the broad river of mist that rolled through the valley, on the
other side of which twinkled a few cottage lights, like unearthly
beacons from the farthest shore of an impassable flood.

Suddenly I remembered hearing Mrs. Tod say that, on account of its pits
and quarries, the common was extremely dangerous after dark, except to
those who knew it well.  In a horrible dread I called out John's
name--but nothing answered.  I went on blindly, desperately shouting as
I went.  At length, in one of the Roman fosses, I stumbled and fell.
Some one came, darting with great leaps through the mist, and lifted me
up.

"Oh! David--David!"

"Phineas--is that you?  You have come out this bitter night--why did
you?"

His tenderness over me, even then, made me break down.  I forgot my
manhood, or else it slipped from me unawares.  In the old Bible
language, "I fell on his neck and wept."

Afterwards I was not sorry for this, because I think my weakness gave
him strength.  I think, amidst the whirl of passion that racked him it
was good for him to feel that the one crowning cup of life is not
inevitably life's sole sustenance; that it was something to have a
friend and brother who loved him with a love--like Jonathan's--"passing
the love of women."

"I have been very wrong," he kept repeating, in a broken voice; "but I
was not myself.  I am better now.  Come--let us go home."

He put his arm round me to keep me warm, and brought me safely into the
house.  He even sat down by the fire to talk with me.  Whatever
struggle there had been, I saw it was over, he looked his own
self--only so very, very pale--and spoke in his natural voice; ay, even
when mentioning HER, which he was the first to do.

"She goes to-morrow, you are sure, Phineas?"

"I believe so.  Shall you see her again?"

"If she desires it."

"Shall you say anything to her?"

"Nothing.  If for a little while--not knowing or not thinking of all
the truth--I felt I had strength to remove all impediments, I now see
that even to dream of such things makes me a fool, or possibly worse--a
knave.  I will be neither--I will be a man."

I replied not:  how could one answer such words?--calmly uttered,
though each syllable must have been torn out like a piece of his heart.

"Did she say anything to you?  Did she ask why I left her so abruptly
this morning?"

"She did; I said you would probably tell her the reason yourself."

"I will.  She must no longer be kept in ignorance about me or my
position.  I shall tell her the whole truth--save one thing.  She need
never know that."

I guessed by his broken voice what the "one thing" was;--which he
counted as nothing; but which, I think, any true woman would have
counted worth everything--the priceless gift of a good man's love.
Love, that in such a nature as his, if once conceived, would last a
lifetime.  And she was not to know it!  I felt sorry--ay, even sorry
for Ursula March.

"Do you not think I am right, Phineas?"

"Perhaps.  I cannot say.  You are the best judge."

"It is right," said he, firmly.  "There can be no possible hope for me;
nothing remains but silence."

I did not quite agree with him.  I could not see that to any young man,
only twenty years old, with the world all before him, any love could be
absolutely hopeless; especially to a young man like John Halifax.  But
as things now stood I deemed it best to leave him altogether to
himself, offering neither advice nor opinion.  What Providence willed,
through HIS will, would happen:  for me to interfere either way would
be at once idle and perilous; nay, in some sense, exceedingly wrong.

So I kept my thoughts to myself, and preserved a total silence.

John broke it--talking to himself as if he had forgotten I was by.

"To think it was she who did it--that first kindness to a poor
friendless boy.  I never forgot it--never.  It did me more good than I
can tell.  And that scar on her poor arm--her dear little tender
arm;--how this morning I would have given all the world to--"

He broke off--instinctively, as it were--with the sort of feeling every
good man has, that the sacred passion, the inmost tenderness of his
love, should be kept wholly between himself and the woman he has chosen.

I knew that too; knew that in his heart had grown up a secret, a
necessity, a desire, stronger than any friendship--closer than the
closest bond of brotherly love.  Perhaps--I hardly know why--I sighed.

John turned round--"Phineas, you must not think--because of this--which
you will understand for yourself, I hope, one day; you must not think I
could ever think less, or feel less, about my brother."

He spoke earnestly, with a full heart.  We clasped hands warmly and
silently.  Thus was healed my last lingering pain--I was thenceforward
entirely satisfied.

I think we parted that night as we had never parted before; feeling
that the trial of our friendship--the great trial, perhaps, of any
friendship--had come and passed, safely:  that whatever new ties might
gather round each, our two hearts would cleave together until death.

The next morning rose, as I have seen many a morning rise at
Enderley--misty and grey; but oh, so heavenly fair! with a pearly
network of dewy gossamer under foot, and overhead countless thistle
downs flying about, like fairy chariots hurrying out of sight of the
sun, which had only mounted high enough above the Flat to touch the
horizon of hills opposite, and the tops of my four poplars, leaving
Rose Cottage and the valley below it all in morning shadow.  John
called me to go with him on the common; his voice sounded so cheerful
outside my door that it was with a glad heart I rose and went.

He chose his old walk--his "terrace."  No chance now of meeting the
light figure coming tripping along the level hill.  All that dream was
now over.  He did not speak of it--nor I.  He seemed contented--or, at
least, thoroughly calmed down; except that the sweet composure of his
mien had settled into the harder gravity of manhood.  The crisis and
climax of youth had been gone through--he never could be a boy again.

We came to that part of John's terrace which overhung the churchyard.
Both of us glanced instinctively down to the heap of loose red
earth--the as yet nameless grave.  Some one stood beside it--the only
one who was likely to be there.

Even had I not recognized her, John's manner would have told me who it
was.  A deadly paleness overspread his face--its quietness was
gone--every feature trembled.  It almost broke my heart to see how
deeply this love had struck its roots down to the very core of his;
twisting them with every fibre of his being.  A love which, though it
had sprung up so early, and come to maturity so fast, might yet be the
curse of his whole existence.  Save that no love conceived virtuously,
for a good woman, be it ever so hopeless, can be rightly considered as
a curse.

"Shall we go away?" I whispered--"a long walk--to the other side of the
Flat?  She will have left Rose Cottage soon."

"When?"

"Before noon, I heard.  Come, David."

He suffered me to put my arm in his, and draw him away for a step or
two, then turned.

"I can't, Phineas, I can't!  I MUST look at her again--only for one
minute--one little minute."

But he stayed--we were standing where she could not see us--till she
had slowly left the grave.  We heard the click of the churchyard gate:
where she went afterward we could not discern.

John moved away.  I asked him if we should take our walk now?  But he
did not seem to hear me; so I let him follow his own way--perhaps it
might be for good--who could tell?

He descended from the Flat, and came quickly round the corner of the
cottage.  Miss March stood there, trying to find one fresh rose among
the fast-withering clusters about what had been our parlour window and
now was hers.

She saw us, acknowledged us, but hurriedly, and not without some
momentary signs of agitation.

"The roses are all gone," she said rather sadly.

"Perhaps, higher up, I can reach one--shall I try?"

I marvelled to see that John's manner as he addressed her was just like
his manner always with her.

"Thank you--that will do.  I wanted to take some away with me--I am
leaving Rose Cottage to-day, Mr. Halifax."

"So I have heard."

He did not say "sorry to hear."  I wondered did the omission strike
her?  But no--she evidently regarded us both as mere acquaintances,
inevitably, perhaps even tenderly, bound up with this time; and as
such, claiming a more than ordinary place in her regard and
remembrance.  No man with common sense or common feeling could for a
moment dare to misinterpret the emotion she showed.

Re-entering the house, she asked us if we would come in with her; she
had a few things to say to us.  And then she again referred gratefully
to our "kindness."

We all went once more--for the last time--into the little parlour.
"Yes--I am going away," said she, mournfully.

"We hope all good will go with you--always and everywhere."

"Thank you, Mr. Fletcher."

It was strange, the grave tone our intercourse now invariably assumed.
We might have been three old people, who had long fought with and
endured the crosses of the world, instead of two young men and a young
woman, in the very dawn of life.

"Circumstances have fixed my plans since I saw you yesterday.  I am
going to reside for a time with my cousins, the Brithwoods.  It seems
best for me.  Lady Caroline is very kind, and I am so lonely."

She said this not in any complaint, but as if accepting the fact, and
making up her mind to endure it.  A little more fragmentary
conversation passed, chiefly between herself and me--John uttered
scarcely a word.  He sat by the window, half shading his face with his
hand.  Under that covert, the gaze which incessantly followed and dwelt
on her face--oh, had she seen it!

The moments narrowed.  Would he say what he had intended, concerning
his position in the world?  Had she guessed or learned anything, or
were we to her simply Mr. Halifax and Mr. Fletcher--two "gentlemen" of
Norton Bury?  It appeared so.

"This is not a very long good-bye, I trust?" said she to me, with
something more than courtesy.  "I shall remain at the Mythe House some
weeks, I believe.  How long do you purpose staying at Enderley?"

I was uncertain.

"But your home is in Norton Bury?  I hope--I trust, you will allow my
cousin to express in his own house his thanks and mine for your great
kindness during my trouble?"

Neither of us answered.  Miss March looked surprised--hurt--nay,
displeased; then her eye, resting on John, lost its haughtiness, and
became humble and sweet.

"Mr. Halifax, I know nothing of my cousin, and I do know you.  Will you
tell me--candidly, as I know you will--whether there is anything in Mr.
Brithwood which you think unworthy of your acquaintance?"

"He would think me unworthy of his," was the low, firm answer.

Miss March smiled incredulously.  "Because you are not very rich? What
can that signify?  It is enough for me that my friends are gentlemen."

"Mr. Brithwood, and many others, would not allow my claim to that
title."

Astonished--nay, somewhat more than astonished--the young gentlewoman
drew back a little.  "I do not quite understand you."

"Let me explain, then;" and her involuntary gesture seeming to have
brought back all honest dignity and manly pride, he faced her, once
more himself.  "It is right, Miss March, that you should know who and
what I am, to whom you are giving the honour of your kindness. Perhaps
you ought to have known before; but here at Enderley we seemed to be
equals--friends."

"I have indeed felt it so."

"Then you will the sooner pardon my not telling you--what you never
asked, and I was only too ready to forget--that we are not equals--that
is, society would not regard us as such--and I doubt if even you
yourself would wish us to be friends."

"Why not?"

"Because you are a gentlewoman and I am a tradesman."

The news was evidently a shock to her--it could not but be, reared as
she had been.  She sat--the eye-lashes dropping over her flushed
cheeks--perfectly silent.

John's voice grew firmer--prouder--no hesitation now.

"My calling is, as you will soon hear at Norton Bury, that of a tanner.
I am apprentice to Abel Fletcher--Phineas's father."

"Mr. Fletcher!"  She looked up at me--a mingled look of kindliness and
pain.

"Ay, Phineas is a little less beneath your notice than I am.  He is
rich--he has been well educated; I have had to educate myself.  I came
to Norton Bury six years ago--a beggar-boy.  No, not quite that--for I
never begged!  I either worked or starved."

The earnestness, the passion of his tone, made Miss March lift her
eyes, but they fell again.

"Yes, Phineas found me in an alley--starving.  We stood in the rain,
opposite the mayor's house.  A little girl--you know her, Miss
March--came to the door, and threw out to me a bit of bread."

Now indeed she started.  "You--was that you?"

"It was I."

John paused, and his whole manner changed into softness, as he resumed.
"I never forgot that little girl.  Many a time, when I was inclined to
do wrong, she kept me right--the remembrance of her sweet face and her
kindness."

That face was pressed down against the sofa where she sat.  I think
Miss March was all but weeping.

John continued.

"I am glad to have met her again--glad to have been able to do her some
small good in return for the infinite good she once did me.  I shall
bid her farewell now--at once and altogether."

A quick, involuntary turn of the hidden face asked him "Why?"

"Because," John answered, "the world says we are not equals, and it
would neither be for Miss March's honour nor mine did I try to force
upon it the truth--which I may prove openly one day--that we ARE
equals."

Miss March looked up at him--it were hard to say with what expression,
of pleasure, or pride, or simple astonishment; perhaps a mingling of
all--then her eyelids fell.  She silently offered her hand, first to me
and then to John.  Whether she meant it as friendliness, or as a mere
ceremony of adieu, I cannot tell.  John took it as the latter, and rose.

His hand was on the door--but he could not go.

"Miss March," he said, "perhaps I may never see you again--at least,
never as now.  Let me look once more at that wrist which was hurt."

Her left arm was hanging over the sofa--the scar being visible enough.
John took the hand, and held it firmly.

"Poor little hand--blessed little hand!  May God bless it evermore."

Suddenly he pressed his lips to the place where the wound had been--a
kiss long and close, such as only a lover's kiss could be.  Surely she
must have felt it--known it.

A moment afterward, he was gone.

That day Miss March departed, and we remained at Enderley alone.



CHAPTER XVI

It was winter-time.  All the summer-days at Enderley were gone, "like a
dream when one awaketh."  Of her who had been the beautiful centre of
the dream we had never heard nor spoken since.

John and I were walking together along the road towards the Mythe; we
could just see the frosty sunset reflected on the windows of the Mythe
House, now closed for months, the family being away.  The meadows
alongside, where the Avon had overflowed and frozen, were a popular
skating-ground:  and the road was alive with lookers-on of every class.
All Norton Bury seemed abroad; and half Norton Bury exchanged
salutations with my companion, till I was amused to notice how large
John's acquaintance had grown.

Among the rest there overtook us a little elderly lady, as prim and
neat as an old maid, and as bright-looking as a happy matron.  I saw at
once who it was--Mrs. Jessop, our good doctor's new wife, and old love:
whom he had lately brought home, to the great amazement and curiosity
of Norton Bury.

"She seems to like you very much," I said; as, after a cordial
greeting, which John returned rather formally, she trotted on.

"They were both very kind to me in London, last month, as I think I
told you."

"Ay!"  It was one of the few things he had mentioned about that same
London journey, for he had grown into a painful habit of silence now.
Yet I dreaded to break it, lest any wounds rankling beneath might
thereby be caused to smart once more.  And our love to one another was
too faithful for a little reserve to have power to influence it in any
way.

We came once more upon the old lady, watching the skaters.  She again
spoke to John, and looked at me with her keen, kind, blue eyes.

"I think I know who your friend is, though you do not introduce him."
(John hastily performed that ceremony.)  "Tom, and I" (how funny to
hear her call our old bachelor doctor, "Tom!") "were wondering what had
become of you, Mr. Halifax.  Are you stronger than you were in London?"

"Was he ill in London, madam?"

"No, indeed, Phineas!  Or only enough to win for me Dr. and Mrs.
Jessop's great kindness."

"Which you have never come to thank us for.  Never crossed our
door-sill since we returned home!  Does not your conscience sting you
for your ingratitude?"

He coloured deeply.

"Indeed, Mrs. Jessop, it was not ingratitude."

"I know it; I believe it," she answered, with much kindness.  "Tell me
what it was?"

He hesitated.

"You ought to believe the warm interest we both take in you.  Tell me
the plain truth."

"I will.  It is that your kindness to me in London was no reason for my
intruding on you at Norton Bury.  It might not be agreeable for you and
Dr. Jessop to have my acquaintance here.  I am a tradesman."

The little old lady's eyes brightened into something beyond mere
kindness as she looked at him.

"Mr. Halifax, I thank you for that 'plain truth.'  Truth is always
best.  Now for mine.  I had heard you were a tradesman; I found out for
myself that you were a gentleman.  I do not think the two facts
incompatible, nor does my husband.  We shall be happy to see you at our
house at all times and under all circumstances."

She offered him her hand.  John bowed over it in silence, but it was
long since I had seen him look more pleased.

"Well, then, suppose you come this evening, both of you?"

We assented; and on her further invitation John and I and the little
old lady walked on together.

I could not help watching Mrs. Jessop with some amusement.  Norton Bury
said she had been a poor governess all her days; but that hard life had
left no shadow on the cheerful sunset of her existence now. It was a
frank, bright, happy face, in spite of its wrinkles, and its somewhat
hard Welsh features.  And it was pleasant to hear her talk, even though
she talked a good deal, and in a decidedly Welsh accent. Sometimes a
tone or two reminded me slightly of--Ay, it was easy to guess why John
evidently liked the old lady.

"I know this road well, Mr. Halifax.  Once I spent a summer here, with
an old pupil, now grown up.  I am going to-day to inquire about her at
the Mythe House.  The Brithwoods came home yesterday."

I was afraid to look at John.  Even to me the news was startling. How I
blessed Mrs. Jessop's innocent garrulousness.

"I hope they will remain here some time.  I have a special interest in
their stay.  Not on Lady Caroline's account, though.  She patronizes me
very kindly; but I doubt if she ever forgets--what Tom says I am rather
too proud of remembering--that I was the poor governess, Jane Cardigan."

"Jane Cardigan!" I exclaimed.

"What, Mr. Fletcher, you know my name!  And really, now I think of it,
I believe I have heard yours.  Not from Tom, either.  It couldn't
possibly be--Yes! it certainly was--How strange!  Did you ever hear
tell of a Miss Ursula March?"

The live crimson rushed madly over John's face.  Mrs. Jessop saw it;
she could not but see.  At first she looked astounded, then exceedingly
grave.

I replied, "that we had had the honour of meeting Miss March last
summer at Enderley."

"Yes," the old lady continued, somewhat formally.  "Now I recollect,
Miss March told me of the circumstance; of two gentlemen there, who
were very kind to her when her father died; a Mr. Fletcher and his
friend--was that Mr. Halifax?"

"It was," I answered:  for John was speechless.  Alas! I saw at once
that all my hopes for him, all the design of my long silence on this
subject, had been in vain.  No, he had not forgotten her.  It was not
in his nature to forget.

Mrs. Jessop went on, still addressing herself to me.

"I am sure I ought, on behalf of my dear pupil, to offer you both my
warmest thanks.  Hers was a most trying position.  She never told me of
it till afterwards, poor child!  I am thankful her trouble was softened
to her by finding that STRANGERS" (was it only my fancy that detected a
slight stress on the word?) "mere strangers could be at once so
thoughtful and so kind."

"No one could be otherwise to Miss March.  Is she well?  Has she
recovered from her trial?"

"I hope so.  Happily, few sorrows, few feelings of any kind, take
lasting hold at eighteen.  She is a noble girl.  She did her duty, and
it was no light one, to him who is gone; now her life begins anew.  It
is sure to be prosperous--I trust it may be very happy.--Now I must bid
you both good-bye."

She stopped at the gates of the Mythe House; great iron gates, a
barrier as proud and impassable as that which in these times the rich
shut against the poor, the aristocrat against the plebeian.  John,
glancing once up at them, hurriedly moved on.

"Stay; you will come and see us, Mr. Halifax?  Promise!"

"If you wish it."

"And promise, too, that under all circumstances you will tell me, as
you did this morning, the 'plain truth'?  Yes, I see you will.
Good-bye."

The iron gates closed upon her, and against us.  We took our silent way
up to the Mythe to our favourite stile.  There we leaned--still in
silence, for many minutes.

"The wind is keen, Phineas; you must be cold."

Now I could speak to him--could ask him to tell me of his pain.

"It is so long since you have told me anything.  It might do you good."

"Nothing can do me good.  Nothing but bearing it.  My God! what have I
not borne!  Five whole months to be dying of thirst, and not a drop of
water to cool my tongue."

He bared his head and throat to the cutting wind--his chest heaved, his
eyes seemed in a flame.

"God forgive me!--but I sometimes think I would give myself body and
soul to the devil for one glimpse of her face, one touch of her little
hand."

I made no answer.  What answer could be made to such words as these? I
waited--all I could do--till the paroxysm had gone by.  Then I
hinted--as indeed seemed not unlikely--that he might see her soon.

"Yes, a great way off, like that cloud up there.  But I want her
near--close--in my home--at my heart;--Phineas," he gasped, "talk to
me--about something else--anything.  Don't let me think, or I shall go
clean mad."

And indeed he looked so.  I was terrified.  So quiet as I had always
seen him when we met, so steadily as he had pursued his daily duties;
and with all this underneath--this torment, conflict, despair, of a
young man's love.  It must come out--better it should.

"And you have gone on working all this while?"

"I was obliged.  Nothing but work kept me in my senses.  Besides"--and
he laughed hoarsely--"I was safest in the tan-yard.  The thought of her
could not come there.  I was glad of it.  I tried to be solely and
altogether what I am--a 'prentice lad--a mere clown."

"Nay, that was wrong."

"Was it?  Well, at last it struck me so.  I thought I would be a
gentleman again--just for a pretence, you know--a dream--a bit of the
old dream back again.  So I went to London."

"And met the Jessops there?"

"Yes; though I did not know she was Jane Cardigan.  But I liked her--I
liked my life with them.  It was like breathing a higher air, the same
air that--Oh, Phineas, it was horrible to come back to my life here--to
that accursed tan-yard!"

I said nothing.

"You see, now"--and that hard laugh smote me to the heart again--"you
see, Phineas, how wicked I am growing.  You will have to cut my
acquaintance presently."

"Tell me the rest--I mean, the rest of your life in London," I said,
after a pause.  "Did you ever hear of her?"

"Of course not; though I knew she was there.  I saw it in the Court
Circular.  Fancy a lady, whose name was in the Court Circular, being
inquired after by a tanner's lad!  But I wanted to look at her--any
beggar might do that, you know--so I watched in streets and parks, by
theatre-doors at night, and by church-doors on Sunday mornings; yet I
never saw her once.  Only think, not once for five whole months."

"John, how could you tell me you were happy?"

"I don't know.  Perhaps because of my pride; perhaps because--Ah, don't
look so wretched!  Why did you let me say all this?  You are too good
for such as I."

Of course I took no heed of idle words like these.  I let him stand
there, leaning against the stile, now and then grasping it with his
nervous, muscular hands, as if he would tear it down; then I said
quietly:

"What do you intend to do?"

"Do?  Nothing!  What can I do?  Though sometimes a score of wild plans
rush into my mind, such as to run away to the Indies, like that young
Warren Hastings we were talking of, come back twenty years hence a
nabob, and--marry her."

"Marry her," I repeated, mournfully.

"Ay, I could.  That is what maddens me.  If now she and I were to meet
and stand together, equal man and woman, I could make her love me; I
feel I could.  Instead of crawling after her thus I would go boldly in
at those very gates--do you think she is there?"

He trembled, actually trembled, at the mere thought of her being so
near.

"Oh, it's hard, hard!  I could despise myself.  Why cannot I trust my
manhood, my honest manhood that I was born with, go straight to her and
tell her that I love her; that God meant her for me and me for
her--true husband and true wife?  Phineas, mark my words"--and, wild as
his manner was, it had a certain force which sounded almost like
prophecy--"if ever Ursula March marries she will be my wife--MY wife!"

I could only murmur--"Heaven grant it!"

"But we shall never marry, neither one nor the other of us; we shall go
on apart and alone till the next world.  Perhaps she will come to me
then:  I may have her in my heart there."

John looked upward:  there was in the west a broad, red frosty cloud,
and just beyond it, nay, all but resting on it, the new moon--a little,
wintry, soft new moon.  A sight that might well have hushed the maddest
storm of passion:  it hushed his.  He stood, still looking up, for many
minutes, then his eyes closed, the lashes all wet.

"We'll never speak of this again, Phineas; I'll not grieve thee any
more; I'll try and be a better brother to thee for the future.  Come
along!"

He drew my arm in his, and we went home.

Passing the tan-yard John proposed that we should call for my father.
My poor father; now daily growing more sour and old, and daily leaning
more and more upon John, who never ceased to respect, and make every
one else respect, his master.  Though still ostensibly a 'prentice, he
had now the business almost entirely in his hands.  It was pleasant to
see how my father brightened up at his coming--how readily, when he
turned homeward, he leaned upon John's strong arm, now the support of
both him and me.  Thus we walked through Norton Bury streets, where
everybody knew us, and indeed, as it seemed to me this morning, nearly
everybody greeted us--at least, one of us; but my father walked along
soberly and sternly, frowning at almost every salutation John Halifax
received.

"Thee art making far too many friends, John.  I warn thee!"

"Not FRIENDS--only friendly acquaintance," was the gentle answer:  he
was well used to turn away, daily and hourly, Abel Fletcher's wrath.
But it was roused beyond control when Dr. Jessop's neat little
carriage, and neatest of little wives, stopped at the curb-stone and
summoned John.

"I want you and Mr. Fletcher to come to us to-morrow instead of this
evening.  Lady Caroline Brithwood wishes to see you."

"Me?"

"Yes, you," smiled the old lady; "you, John Halifax, the hero of the
people, who quelled the bread riots, and gave evidence thereupon to Mr.
Pitt, in London.  Nay! why didn't you tell me the wonderful story?  Her
Ladyship is full of it.  She will torment me till she sees you--I know
her ways.  For my sake, you MUST come."

Waiting no refusal, Mrs. Jessop drove on.

"What's that?" said my father, sharply.  "John, where art thee going?"

I knew this was the first warning-gun of a battle which broke out
afresh every time John appeared in any livelier garb than his favourite
grey, or was suspected of any more worldly associates than our quiet
selves.  He always took my father's attacks patiently--this time
peculiarly so.  He made no answer, but passed his hand once or twice
over his brow, as if he could not see clearly.

Abel Fletcher repeated the question.

"Yes; that was Mrs. Jessop, sir."

"I know," grumbled my father.  "The doctor is a fool in his old age.
Who did she want thee to meet?"

"She!--Oh, Lady Caroline, you mean?"

"Lady Caroline wishes particularly to see John."

Abel Fletcher stopped, planted his stick in the ground, released his
arm from John's, and eyed him from top to toe.

"Thee?--a woman of quality wanting to see THEE?  Young man, thee art a
hypocrite."

"Sir!"

"I knew it!  I foresaw how thy fine ways would end!  Going to
 London--crawling at the heels of grand folk--despising thy honest trade--trying to make thyself appear a gentleman!"

"I hope I am a gentleman."

Words could not describe my father's horrified astonishment.  "Oh,
lad!" he cried; "poor, misguided lad!--the Lord have mercy upon thee!"

John smiled--his mind evidently full of other things.  Abel Fletcher's
anger grew.

"And thee wants to hang on to the tail of other 'gentlemen,' such as
Richard Brithwood, forsooth!--a fox-hunting, drinking, dicing fool!"

I was shocked; I had not believed him so bad as that--the young
'squire--Miss March's cousin.

"Or," pursued my father, waxing hotter and hotter, "or a 'lady' such as
his wife is, the Jezebel daughter of an Ahab father!--brought up in the
impious atrocities of France, and the debaucheries of Naples, where,
though she keeps it close here, she abode with that vile woman whom
they call Lady Hamilton."

John started.  Well he might, for even to our quiet town had come, all
this winter, foul newspaper tales about Nelson and Lady Hamilton.

"Take care," he said, in much agitation.  "Any taint upon a woman's
fame harms not her alone but all connected with her.  For God's sake,
sir, whether it be true or not, do not whisper in Norton Bury that Lady
Caroline Brithwood is a friend of Lady Hamilton."

"Pshaw!  What is either woman to us?"

And my father climbed the steps to his own door, John following.

"Nay, young gentleman, my poor house is hardly good enough for such as
thee."

John turned, cruelly galled, but recovered himself.

"You are unjust to me, Abel Fletcher; and you yourself will think so
soon.  May I come in?"

My father made no answer, and I brought John in as usual.  In truth, we
had both more to think of than Abel Fletcher's temporary displeasure.
This strange chance--what might it imply?--to what might it not lead?
But no:  if I judged Mrs. Jessop aright, it neither implied, nor would
lead to, what I saw John's fancy had at once sprang toward, and
revelled in, madly.  A lover's fancy--a lover's hope.  Even I could see
what will-o'-the-wisps they were.

But the doctor's good wife, Ursula March's wise governess, would never
lure a young man with such phantoms as these.  I felt
sure--certain--that if we met the Brithwoods we should meet no one
else. Certain, even when, as we sat at our dish of tea, there came in
two little dainty notes--the first invitations to worldly festivity
that had ever tempted our Quaker household, and which Jael flung out of
her fingers as if they had been coals from Gehenna.  Notes, bidding us
to a "little supper" at Dr. Jessop's, with Mr. and Lady Caroline
Brithwood, of the Mythe House.

"Give them to your father, Phineas."  And John vainly tried to hide the
flash of his eye--the smiles that came and went like summer
lightning--"To-morrow--you see, it is to-morrow."

Poor lad! he had forgotten every worldly thing in the hope of that
to-morrow.

My father's sharp voice roused him.  "Phineas, thee'lt stay at home.
Tell the woman I say so."

"And John, father?"

"John may go to ruin if he chooses.  He is his own master."

"I have been always."  And the answer came less in pride than sadness.
"I might have gone to ruin years ago, but for the mercy of Heaven and
your kindness.  Do not let us be at warfare now."

"All thy own fault, lad.  Why cannot thee keep in thy own rank? Respect
thyself.  Be an honest tradesman, as I have been."

"And as I trust always to be.  But that is only my calling, not me.
I--John Halifax--am just the same, whether in the tan-yard or Dr.
Jessop's drawing-room.  The one position cannot degrade, nor the other
elevate, me.  I should not 'respect myself' if I believed otherwise."

"Eh?"--my father absolutely dropped his pipe in amazement.  "Then, thee
thinkest thyself already quite a gentleman?"

"As I told you before, sir--I hope I am."

"Fit to associate with the finest folk in the land?"

"If they desire it, and I choose it, certainly."

Now, Abel Fletcher, like all honest men, liked honesty; and something
in John's bold spirit, and free bright eye, seemed to-day to strike him
more than ordinarily.

"Lad, lad, thee art young.  But it won't last--no, it won't last."

He knocked the white ashes out of his pipe--it had been curling in
brave wreaths to the very ceiling two minutes before--and sat musing.

"But about to-morrow?" persisted John, after watching him some little
time.  "I could go--I could have gone, without either your knowledge or
permission; but I had rather deal openly with you.  You know I always
do.  You have been the kindest master--the truest friend to me; I hope,
as long as I live, rarely to oppose, and never to deceive you."

His manner--earnest, yet most respectful--his candid looks, under which
lurked an evident anxiety and pain, might have mollified a harder man
than Abel Fletcher.

"John, why dost thee want to go among those grand folk?"

"Not because they are grand folk.  I have other reasons--strong
reasons."

"Be honest.  Tell me thy strong reasons."

Here was a strait.

"Why dost thee blush, young man?  Is it aught thee art ashamed of?"

"Ashamed!  No!"

"Is it a secret, then, the telling of which would be to thee, or to any
else, dishonour?"

"Dishonour!"  And the bright eye shot an indignant gleam.

"Then, tell the truth."

"I will.  I wish first to find out, for myself, whether Lady Caroline
Brithwood is fitted to have under her charge one who is
young--innocent--good."

"Has she such an one?  One thee knows?"

"Yes."

"Man or woman?"

"Woman."

My father turned, and looked John full in the eyes.  Stern as that look
was, I traced in it a strange compassion.

"Lad, I thought so.  Thee hast found the curse of man's life--woman."

To my amazement, John replied not a syllable.  He seemed even as if he
had forgotten himself and his own secret--thus, for what end I knew
not, voluntarily betrayed--so absorbed was he in contemplating the old
man.  And truly, in all my life I had never seen such a convulsion pass
over my father's face.  It was like as if some one had touched and
revived the torment of a long-hidden, but never-to-be-healed wound.
Not till years after did I understand the full meaning of John's gaze,
or why he was so patient with my father.

The torment passed--ended in violent anger.

"Out with it.  Who is deluding thee?  Is it a matter of wedlock, or
only--"

"Stop!" John cried; his face all on fire.  "The lady--"

"It is a 'lady'!  Now I see why thee would fain be a gentleman."

"Oh, father--how can you?"

"So thee knowest it too--I see it in thy face--Wouldst thee be led away
by him a second time!  But thee shall not.  I'll put thee under lock
and key before thee shalt ruin thyself and disgrace thy father."

This was hard to bear; but I believe--it was John's teaching--that one
ought to bear anything, however hard, from a just and worthy parent.
And it was John himself who now grasped my hand, and whispered
patience.  John--who knew, what I myself, as I have said, did not learn
for years, concerning my father's former history.

"Sir, you mistake; Phineas has nothing whatever to do with this matter.
He is altogether blameless.  So am I too, if you heard all."

"Tell me all; honour is bold--shame only is silent."

"I feel no shame--an honest love is no disgrace to any man.  And my
confessing it harms no one.  She neither knows of it nor returns it."

As he said this, slowly, gravely, John moved a step back and sat down.
His face was in shadow; but the fire shone on his hands, tightly locked
together, motionless as stone.

My father was deeply moved.  Heaven knows what ghosts of former days
came and knocked at the old man's heart.  We all three sat silent for a
long time, then my father said:

"Who is she?"

"I had rather not tell you.  She is above me in worldly station."

"Ah!" a fierce exclamation.  "But thee wouldst not humble thyself--ruin
thy peace for life?  Thee wouldst not marry her?"

"I would--if she had loved me.  Even yet, if by any honourable means I
can rise to her level, so as to be able to win her love, marry her I
will."

That brave "I will"--it seemed to carry its own fulfilment.  Its
indomitable resolution struck my father with wonder--nay, with a sort
of awe.

"Do as thee thinks best, and God help thee," he said, kindly.  "Mayst
thee never find thy desire a curse.  Fear not, lad--I will keep thy
counsel."

"I knew you would."

The subject ceased:  my father's manner indicated that he wished it to
cease.  He re-lit his pipe, and puffed away, silently and sadly.

Years afterwards, when all that remained of Abel Fletcher was a green
mound beside that other mound, in the Friends' burying-ground in St.
Mary's Lane, I learnt--what all Norton Bury, except myself, had long
known--that my poor mother, the young, thoughtless creature, whose
married life had been so unhappy and so brief, was by birth a
"gentlewoman."



CHAPTER XVII

Mrs. Jessop's drawing-room, ruddy with fire-light, glittering with
delicate wax candle-light; a few women in pale-coloured gauzy dresses,
a few men, sublime in blue coats, gold buttons, yellow waistcoats, and
smiles--this was all I noticed of the scene, which was quite a novel
scene to me.

The doctor's wife had introduced us formally to all her guests, as the
custom then was, especially in these small cosy supper-parties. How
they greeted us I do not now remember; no doubt, with a kind of
well-bred formal surprise; but society was generally formal then.  My
chief recollection is of Mrs. Jessop's saying pointedly and aloud,
though with a smile playing under the corners of her good little mouth:

"Mr. Halifax, it is kind of you to come; Lady Caroline Brithwood will
be delighted.  She longs to make your acquaintance."

After that everybody began to talk with extraordinary civility to Mr.
Halifax.

For John, he soon took his place among them, with that modest
self-possession which best becomes youth.  Society's dangerous waters
accordingly became smooth to him, as to a good swimmer who knows his
own strength, trusts it, and struggles not.

"Mr. Brithwood and Lady Caroline will be late," I overheard the hostess
say.  "I think I told you that Miss March--"

But here the door was flung open, and the missing guests announced.
John and I were in the alcove of the window; I heard his breathing
behind me, but I dared not look at or speak to him.  In truth, I was
scarcely calmer than he.  For though it must be clearly understood I
never was "in love" with any woman, still the reflected glamour of
those Enderley days had fallen on me.  It often seems now as if I too
had passed the golden gate, and looked far enough into youth's Eden to
be able ever after to weep with those that wept without the doors.

No--she was not there.

We both sat down.  I know not if I was thankful or sorry.

I had seldom seen the 'squire or Lady Caroline.  He was a portly young
man, pinched in by tight light-coloured garments.  She was a lady
rather past her first youth, but very handsome still, who floated
about, leaving a general impression of pseudo-Greek draperies, gleaming
arms and shoulders, sparkling jewellery, and equally sparkling smiles.
These smiles seemed to fall just as redundantly upon the family
physician, whom by a rare favour--for so, I suppose, it must have
been--she was honouring with a visit, as if worthy Dr. Jessop were the
noblest in the land.  He, poor man, was all bows and scrapes and pretty
speeches, in the which came more than the usual amount of references to
the time which had made his fortune, the day when Her Majesty Queen
Charlotte had done him the honour to be graciously taken ill in passing
through Norton Bury. Mrs. Jessop seemed to wear her honours as hostess
to an earl's daughter very calmly indeed.  She performed the ordinary
courtesies, and then went over to talk with Mr. Brithwood.  In their
conversation I sought in vain the name of Ursula.

So it ended--the sickening expectation which I had read in the lad's
face all day.  He would not see her--perhaps it was best.  Yet my heart
bled when I looked at him.  But such thoughts could not be indulged in
now, especially as Mrs. Jessop's quick eyes seemed often upon him or
me, with an expression that I could not make out at all, save that in
such a good woman, whom Miss March so well loved, could lurk nothing
evil or unkindly.

So I tried to turn my attention to the Brithwoods.  One could not
choose but look at her, this handsome Lady Caroline, whom half Norton
Bury adored, the other half pursed up their lips at the mention of--but
these were of the number she declined to "know."  All that she did
know--all that came within her influence, were irresistibly attracted,
for to please seemed a part of her nature.  To-night nearly every one
present stole gradually into the circle round her; men and women alike
charmed by the fascination of her ripe beauty, her lively manner, her
exquisite smile and laugh.

I wondered what John thought of Lady Caroline Brithwood.  She could not
easily see him, even though her acute glance seemed to take in
everything and everybody in the room.  But on her entrance John had
drawn back a little, and our half-dozen of fellow-guests, who had been
conversing with him, crept shyly out of his way; as if, now the visible
reality appeared, they were aghast at the great gulf that lay between
John Halifax the tanner and the Brithwoods of the Mythe.  A few even
looked askance at our hostess, as though some terrible judgment must
fall upon poor ignorant Mrs. Jessop, who had dared to amalgamate such
opposite ranks.

So it came to pass, that while everybody gathered round the Brithwoods
John and I stood alone, and half concealed by the window.

Very soon I heard Lady Caroline's loud whisper;

"Mrs. Jessop, my good friend, one moment.  Where is your 'jeune heros,'
'l'homme du peuple?'  I do not see him.  Does he wear clouted shoes and
woollen stockings?  Has he a broad face and turned-up nose, like your
'paysans Anglais'?"

"Judge for yourself, my lady--he stands at your elbow.  Mr. Halifax,
let me present you to Lady Caroline Brithwood."

If Lord Luxmore's fair daughter ever looked confounded in her life she
certainly did at this minute.

"Lui?  Mon dieu!  Lui!"  And her shrug of amazement was stopped, her
half-extended hand drawn back.  No, it was quite impossible to
patronise John Halifax.

He bowed gravely, she made a gracious curtsey; they met on equal terms,
a lady and gentleman.

Soon her lively manner returned.  She buckled on her spurs for a new
conquest, and left the already vanquished gentilities of Norton Bury to
amuse themselves as they best might.

"I am enchanted to meet you, Mr. Halifax; I adore 'le peuple.'
Especially"--with a sly glance at her husband, who, with Tory Dr.
Jessop, was vehemently exalting Mr. Pitt and abusing the First Consul,
Bonaparte--"especially le peuple Francais.  Me comprenez vous?"

"Madame, je vous comprends."

Her ladyship looked surprised.  French was not very common among the
honest trading class, or indeed any but the higher classes in England.

"But," John continued, "I must dissent from Lady Caroline Brithwood, if
she mingles the English people with 'le peuple Francais.'  They are a
very different class of beings."

"Ah, ca ira, ca ira"--she laughed, humming beneath her breath a few
notes out of that terrible song.  "But you know French--let us talk in
that language; we shall horrify no one then."

"I cannot speak it readily; I am chiefly self-taught."

"The best teaching.  Mon dieu!  Truly you are made to be 'un
hero'--just the last touch of grace that a woman's hand gives--had you
ever a woman for your friend?--and you would be complete.  But I cannot
flatter--plain, blunt honesty for me.  You must--you shall be--'l'homme
du peuple.'  Were you born such?--Who were your parents?"

I saw John hesitate; I knew how rarely he ever uttered those names
written in the old Bible--how infinitely sacred they were to him. Could
he blazon them out now, to gratify this woman's idle curiosity?

"Madam," he said, gravely, "I was introduced to you simply as John
Halifax.  It seems to me that, so long as I do no discredit to it, the
name suffices to the world."

"Ah--I see! I see!"  But he, with his downcast eyes, did not detect the
meaning smile that just flashed in hers was changed into a tone of soft
sympathy.  "You are right; rank is nothing--a cold, glittering marble,
with no soul under.  Give me the rich flesh-and-blood life of the
people.  Liberte--fraternite--egalite.  I would rather be a gamin in
Paris streets than my brother William at Luxmore Hall."

Thus talked she, sometimes in French, sometimes in English, the young
man answering little.  She only threw her shining arts abroad the more;
she seemed determined to please.  And Nature fitted her for it. Even if
not born an earl's daughter, Lady Caroline would have been everywhere
the magic centre of any society wherein she chose to move. Not that her
conversation was brilliant or deep, but she said the most frivolous
things in a way that made them appear witty; and the grand art, to
charm by appearing charmed, was hers in perfection. She seemed to float
altogether upon and among the pleasantnesses of life; pain, either
endured or inflicted, was to her an impossibility.

Thus her character struck me on this first meeting, and thus, after
many years, it strikes me still.  I look back upon what she appeared
that evening--lovely, gay, attractive--in the zenith of her rich
maturity.  What her old age was the world knows, or thinks it knows.
But Heaven may be more merciful--I cannot tell.  Whatever is now said
of her, I can only say, "Poor Lady Caroline!"

It must have indicated a grain of pure gold at the bottom of the
gold-seeming dross, that, from the first moment she saw him, she liked
John Halifax.

They talked a long time.  She drew him out, as a well-bred woman always
can draw out a young man of sense.  He looked pleased; he conversed
well.  Had he forgotten?  No; the restless wandering of his eyes at the
slightest sound in the room told how impossible it was he should
forget.  Yet he comported himself bravely, and I was proud that
Ursula's kindred should see him as he was.

"Lady Caroline" (her ladyship turned, with a slightly bored expression,
to her intrusive hostess), "I fear we must give up all expectation of
our young friend to-night."

"I told you so.  Post-travelling is very uncertain, and the Bath roads
are not good.  Have you ever visited Bath, Mr. Halifax?"

"But she is surely long on the road," pursued Mrs. Jessop, rather
anxiously.  "What attendants had she?"

"Her own maid, and our man Laplace.  Nay, don't be alarmed, excellent
and faithful gouvernante!  I assure you your fair ex-pupil is quite
safe.  The furore about her has considerably abated since the
heiress-hunters at Bath discovered the melancholy fact that Miss
March--"

"Pardon me," interrupted the other; "we are among strangers.  I assure
you I am quite satisfied about my dear child."

"What a charming thing is affectionate fidelity," observed her
ladyship, turning once more to John, with a sweet, lazy dropping of the
eyelids.

The young man only bowed.  They resumed their conversation--at least,
she did, talking volubly; satisfied with monosyllabic answers.

It was now almost supper-time--held a glorious hour at Norton Bury
parties.  People began to look anxiously to the door.

"Before we adjourn," said Lady Caroline, "I must do what it will be
difficult to accomplish after supper;" and for the first time a sharp,
sarcastic tone jarred in her smooth voice.  "I must introduce you
especially to my husband.  Mr. Brithwood?"

"Madam."  He lounged up to her.  They were a diverse pair.  She, in her
well-preserved beauty, and Gallic artificial grace--he, in his coarse,
bloated youth, coarser and worse than the sensualism of middle age.

"Mr. Brithwood, let me introduce you to a new friend of mine."

The 'squire bowed, rather awkwardly; proving the truth of what Norton
Bury often whispered, that Richard Brithwood was more at home with
grooms than gentlemen.

"He belongs to this your town--you must have heard of him, perhaps met
him."

"I have more than had the pleasure of meeting Mr. Brithwood, but he has
doubtless forgotten it."

"By Jove!  I have.  What might your name be, sir?"

"John Halifax."

"What, Halifax the tanner?"

"The same."

"Phew!"--He began a low whistle, and turned on his heel.

John changed colour a little.  Lady Caroline laughed--a thoughtless,
amused laugh, with a pleasant murmur of "Bete!"--"Anglais!"--
Nevertheless, she whispered to her husband--

"Mon ami--you forget; I have introduced you to this gentleman."

"Gentleman indeed!  Pooh! rubbish!  Lady Caroline--I'm busy talking."

"And so are we, most pleasantly.  I only called you as a matter of
form, to ratify my invitation.  Mr. Halifax will, I hope, dine with us
next Sunday?"

"The devil he will!"

"Richard--you hurt me!"--with a little scream, as she pushed his rough
fingers from her arm, so soft, and round, and fair.

"Madam, you must be crazy.  The young man is a tradesman--a tanner. Not
fit for MY society."

"Precisely; I invite him for my own."

But the whispers and responses were alike unheeded by their object.
For, at the doorway, entering with Mrs. Jessop, was a tall girl in deep
mourning.  We knew her--we both knew her--our dream at Enderley--our
Nut-browne Mayde.

John was near to the door--their eyes met.  She bowed--he returned it.
He was very pale.  For Miss March, her face and neck were all in a
glow.  Neither spoke, nor offered more than this passing
acknowledgment, and she moved on.

She came and sat down beside me, accidentally, I believe; but when she
saw me she held out her hand.  We exchanged a word or two--her manner
was unaltered; but she spoke hurriedly, and her fingers had their old
nervous twitch.  She said this meeting was to her "unexpected," but
"she was very glad to see me."

So she sat, and I looked sideways at her dropped eyes--her forehead
with its coronet of chestnut curls.  How would he bear the sight--he of
whose heart mine was the mere faint echo?  Yet truly an echo, repeating
with cruel faithfulness every throb.

He kept his position, a little aloof from the Brithwoods, who were
holding a slight altercation--though more of looks than words.  John
heeded them not.  I was sure, though he had never looked directly
towards us, that he had heard every syllable Miss March said to me.

The 'squire called across the room, in a patronising tone:  "My good
fellow--that is, ahem!  I say, young Halifax?"

"Were you addressing me, Mr. Brithwood?"

"I was.  I want a quiet word or two--between ourselves."

"Certainly."

They stood face to face.  The one seemed uncomfortable, the other was
his natural self--a little graver, perhaps, as if he felt what was
coming, and prepared to meet it, knowing in whose presence he had to
prove himself--what Richard Brithwood, with all his broad acres, could
never be--a gentleman.

Few could doubt that fact, who looked at the two young men, as all were
looking now.

"On my soul, it's awkward--I'll call at the tan-yard and explain."

"I had rather you would explain here."

"Well then, though it's a confounded unpleasant thing to say--and I
really wish I had not been brought into such a position--you'll not
heed my wife's nonsense?"

"I do not understand you."

"Come, it's no use running to cover in that way.  Let's be open and
plain.  I mean no offence.  You may be a very respectable young man for
aught I know, still rank is rank.  Of course Doctor Jessop asks whom he
likes to his house--and, by George! I'm always civil to everybody--but
really, in spite of my lady's likings, I can't well invite you to my
table!"

"Nor could I humiliate myself by accepting any such invitation."

He said the words distinctly, so that the whole circle might have
heard, and was turning away, when Mr. Brithwood fired up--as an angry
man does in a losing game.

"Humiliate yourself!  What do you mean, sir?  Wouldn't you be only too
thankful to crawl into the houses of your betters, any how, by hook or
by crook?  Ha! ha!  I know you would.  It's always the way with you
common folk, you rioters, you revolutionists.  By the Lord! I wish you
were all hanged."

The young blood rose fiercely in John's cheek, but he restrained
himself.  "Sir, I am neither a rioter nor a revolutionist."

"But you are a tradesman?  You used to drive Fletcher's cart of skins."

"I did."

"And are you not--I remember you now--the very lad, the tanner's lad,
that once pulled us ashore from the eger--Cousin March and me?"

I heard a quick exclamation beside me, and saw Ursula listening
intently--I had not noticed how intently till now.  Her eyes were fixed
on John, waiting for his answer.  It came.

"Your memory is correct; I was that lad."

"Thank'ee for it too.  Lord! what a jolly life I should have missed!
You got no reward, though.  You threw away the guinea I offered you;
come, I'll make it twenty guineas to-morrow."

The insult was too much.  "Sir, you forget that whatever we may have
been, to-night we meet as equals."

"Equals!"

"As guests in the same house--most certainly for the time being,
equals."

Richard Brithwood stared, literally dumb with fury.  The standers-by
were dumb too, though such fracas were then not uncommon even in
drawing-rooms, and in women's presence, especially with men of Mr.
Brithwood's stamp.  His wife seemed quite used to it.  She merely
shrugged her shoulders and hummed a note or two of "Ca ira."  It
irritated the husband beyond all bounds.

"Hold your tongue, my lady.  What, because a 'prentice-lad once saved
my life, and you choose to patronise him as you do many another
vagabond, with your cursed liberty and equality, am I to have him at my
table, and treat him as a gentleman?  By ----, madam, never!"

He spoke savagely, and loud.  John was silent; he had locked his hands
together convulsively; but it was easy to see that his blood was at
boiling heat, and that, did he once slip the leash of his passions, it
would go hard with Richard Brithwood.

The latter came up to him with clenched fist.  "Now mark me, you--you
vagabond!"

Ursula March crossed the room, and caught his arm, her eyes gleaming
fire.

"Cousin, in my presence this gentleman shall be treated as a gentleman.
He was kind to my father."

"Curse your father!"

John's right hand burst free; he clutched the savage by the shoulder.

"Be silent.  You had better."

Brithwood shook off the grasp, turned and struck him; that last fatal
insult, which offered from man to man, in those days, could only be
wiped out with blood.

John staggered.  For a moment he seemed as if he would have sprung on
his adversary and felled him to the ground--but--he did it not.

Some one whispered,--"He won't fight.  He is a Quaker."

"No!" he said, and stood erect; though he was ghastly pale, and his
voice sounded hoarse and strange--"But I am a Christian.  I shall not
return blow for blow."

It was a new doctrine; foreign to the practice, if familiar to the ear,
of Christian Norton Bury.  No one answered him; all stared at him; one
or two sheered off from him with contemptuous smiles.  Then Ursula
March stretched out her friendly hand.  John took it, and grew calm in
a moment.

There arose a murmur of "Mr. Brithwood is going."

"Let him go!" Miss March cried, anger still glowing in her eyes.

"Not so--it is not right.  I will speak to him.  May I?"  John softly
unclosed her detaining hand, and went up to Mr. Brithwood.  "Sir, there
is no need for you to leave this house--I am leaving it.  You and I
shall not meet again if I can help it."

His proud courtesy, his absolute dignity and calmness, completely
overwhelmed his blustering adversary; who gazed open-mouthed, while
John made his adieu to his host and to those he knew.  The women
gathered round him--woman's instinct is usually true.  Even Lady
Caroline, amid a flutter of regrets, declared she did not believe there
was a man in the universe who would have borne so charmingly such a
"degradation."

At the word Miss March fired up.  "Madam," she said, in her impetuous
young voice, "no insult offered to a man can ever degrade him; the only
real degradation is when he degrades himself."

John, passing out at the doorway, caught her words.  As he quitted the
room no crowned victor ever wore a look more joyful, more proud.

After a minute we followed him; the Doctor's wife and I.  But now the
pride and joy had both faded.

"Mrs. Jessop, you see I am right," he murmured.  "I ought not to have
come here.  It is a hard world for such as I.  I shall never conquer
it--never."

"Yes--you will."  And Ursula stood by him, with crimsoned cheek, and
eyes no longer flashing, but fearless still.

Mrs. Jessop put her arm round the young girl.  "I also think you need
not dread the world, Mr. Halifax, if you always act as you did tonight;
though I grieve that things should have happened thus, if only for the
sake of this, my child."

"Have I done any harm? oh! tell me, have I done any harm?"

"No!" cried Ursula, with the old impetuosity kindling anew in every
feature of her noble face.  "You have but showed me what I shall
remember all my life--that a Christian only can be a true gentleman."

She understood him--he felt she did; understood him as, if a man be
understood by one woman in the world, he--and she too--is strong, safe,
and happy.  They grasped hands once more, and gazed unhesitatingly into
each other's eyes.  All human passion for the time being set aside,
these two recognized each in the other one aim, one purpose, one faith;
something higher than love, something better than happiness.  It must
have been a blessed moment for both.

Mrs. Jessop did not interfere.  She had herself known what true love
was, if, as gossips said, she had kept constant to our worthy doctor
for thirty years.  But still she was a prudent woman, not unused to the
world.

"You must go now," she said, laying her hand gently on John's arm.

"I am going.  But she--what will she do?"

"Never mind me.  Jane will take care of me," said Ursula, winding her
arms round her old governess, and leaning her cheek down on Mrs.
Jessop's shoulder.

We had never seen Miss March show fondness, that is, caressing
fondness, to any one before.  It revealed her in a new light; betraying
the depths there were in her nature; infinite depths of softness and of
love.

John watched her for a minute; a long, wild, greedy minute, then
whispered hoarsely to me, "I must go."

We made a hasty adieu, and went out together into the night--the cold,
bleak night, all blast and storm.



CHAPTER XVIII

For weeks after then, we went on in our usual way; Ursula March living
within a stone's throw of us.  She had left her cousin's, and come to
reside with Dr.  Jessop and his wife.

It was a very hard trial for John.

Neither of us were again invited by Mrs. Jessop.  We could not blame
her; she held a precious charge, and Norton Bury was a horrible place
for gossip.  Already tale after tale had gone abroad about Miss March's
"ingratitude" to her relations.  Already tongue after tongue had
repeated, in every possible form of lying, the anecdote of "young
Halifax and the 'squire."  Had it been "young Halifax and Miss March,"
I truly believe John could not have borne it.

As it was, though he saw her constantly, it was always by chance--a
momentary glimpse at the window, or a passing acknowledgment in the
street.  I knew quite well when he had thus met her, whether he
mentioned it or not--knew by the wild, troubled look, which did not
wear off for hours.

I watched him closely, day by day, in an agony of doubt and pain.

For, though he said nothing, a great change was creeping over "the
lad," as I still fondly called him.  His strength, the glory of a young
man, was going from him--he was becoming thin, weak, restless-eyed.
That healthy energy and gentle composure, which had been so beautiful
in him all his life through, were utterly lost.

"What am I to do with thee, David?" said I to him one evening, when he
had come in, looking worse than usual--I knew why; for Ursula and her
friend had just passed our house taking their pleasant walk in the
spring twilight.  "Thou art very ill, I fear?"

"Not at all.  There is not the least thing the matter with me.  Do let
me alone."

Two minutes afterwards he begged my pardon for those sharp-spoken
words.  "It was not THEE that spoke, John," I said.

"No, you are right, it was not I.  It was a sort of devil that lodges
here:" he touched his breast.  "The chamber he lives in is at times a
burning hell."

He spoke in a low tone of great anguish.  What could I answer? Nothing.

We stood at the window, looking idly out.  The chestnut trees in the
Abbey-yard were budding green:  there came that faint, sweet sound of
children at play, which one hears as the days begin to lengthen.

"It's a lovely evening," he said.

"John!"  I looked him in the face.  He could not palm off that kind
deceit upon me.  "You have heard something about her?"

"I have," he groaned.  "She is leaving Norton Bury."

"Thank God!" I muttered.

John turned fiercely upon me--but only for a moment.  "Perhaps I too
ought to say, 'Thank God.'  This could not have lasted long, or it
would have made me--what I pray His mercy to save me from, or to let me
die.  Oh, lad, if I could only die."

He bent down over the window-sill, crushing his forehead on his hands.

"John," I said, in this depth of despair snatching at an equally
desperate hope, "what if, instead of keeping this silence, you were to
go to her and tell her all?"

"I have thought of that:  a noble thought, worthy of a poor 'prentice
lad!  Why, two several evenings I have been insane enough to walk to
Dr. Jessop's door, which I have never entered, and--mark you well! they
have never asked me to enter since that night.  But each time ere I
knocked my senses came back, and I went home--luckily having made
myself neither a fool nor a knave."

There was no answer to this either.  Alas! I knew as well as he did,
that in the eye of the world's common sense, for a young man not
twenty-one, a tradesman's apprentice, to ask the hand of a young
gentlewoman, uncertain if she loved him, was most utter folly.  Also,
for a penniless youth to sue a lady with a fortune, even though it was
(the Brithwoods took care to publish the fact) smaller than was at
first supposed--would, in the eye of the world's honour, be not very
much unlike knavery.  There was no help--none!

"David," I groaned, "I would you had never seen her."

"Hush!--not a word like that.  If you heard all I hear of
her--daily--hourly--her unselfishness, her energy, her generous, warm
heart!  It is blessedness even to have known her.  She is an angel--no,
better than that, a woman!  I did not want her for a saint in a
shrine--I wanted her as a help-meet, to walk with me in my daily life,
to comfort me, strengthen me, make me pure and good.  I could be a good
man if I had her for my wife.  Now--"

He rose, and walked rapidly up and down.  His looks were becoming
altogether wild.

"Come, Phineas, suppose we go to meet her up the road--as I meet her
almost every day.  Sometimes she merely bends and smiles, sometimes she
holds out her little hand, and 'hopes I am quite well!'  And then they
pass on, and I stand gaping and staring after them like an idiot.
There--look--there they are now."

Ay! walking leisurely along the other side of the road--talking and
smiling to one another, in their own merry, familiar way, were Mrs.
Jessop and Miss March.

They were not thinking of us, not the least.  Only just ere they passed
our house Ursula turned slightly round, and looked behind; a quiet,
maidenly look, with the smile still lingering on her mouth. She saw
nothing, and no one; for John had pulled me from the window, and placed
himself out of sight.  So, turning back again, she went on her way.
They both disappeared.

"Now, Phineas, it is all ended."

"What do you mean?"

"I have looked on her for the last time."

"Nay--she is not going yet."

"But I am--fleeing from the devil and his angels.  Hurrah, Phineas,
lad!  We'll have a merry night.  To-morrow I am away to Bristol, to set
sail for America."

He wrung my hands with a long, loud, half-mad laugh; and then dropped
heavily on a chair.

A few hours after, he was lying on my bed, struck down by the first
real sickness he had ever known.  It was apparently a low agueish
fever, which had been much about Norton Bury since the famine of last
year.  At least, so Jael said; and she was a wise doctoress, and had
cured many.  He would have no one else to attend him--seemed terrified
at the mere mention of Dr. Jessop.  I opposed him not at first, for
well I knew, whatever the proximate cause of his sickness might be, its
root was in that mental pang which no doctors could cure.  So I trusted
to the blessed quiet of a sick-room--often so healing to misery--to
Jael's nursing, and his brother's love.

After a few days we called in a physician--a stranger from Coltham--who
pronounced it to be this Norton Bury fever, caught through living, as
he still persisted in doing, in his old attic, in that unhealthy alley
where was Sally Watkins's house.  It must have been coming on, the
doctor said, for a long time; but it had no doubt now reached its
crisis.  He would be better soon.

But he did not get better.  Days slid into weeks, and still he lay
there, never complaining, scarcely appearing to suffer, except from the
wasting of the fever; yet when I spoke of recovery he "turned his face
unto the wall"--weary of living.

Once, when he had lain thus a whole morning, hardly speaking a word, I
began to feel growing palpable the truth which day by day I had thrust
behind me as some intangible, impossible dread--that ere now people had
died of mere soul-sickness, without any bodily disease.  I took up his
poor hand that lay on the counterpane;--once, at Enderley, he had
regretted its somewhat coarse strength:  now Ursula's own was not
thinner or whiter.  He drew it back.

"Oh, Phineas, lad, don't touch me--only let me rest."

The weak, querulous voice--that awful longing for rest!  What if,
despite all the physician's assurances, he might be sinking,
sinking--my friend, my hope, my pride, all my comfort in this
life--passing from it and from me into another, where, let me call
never so wildly, he could not answer me any more, nor come back to me
any more.

Oh, God of mercy! if I were to be left in this world without my brother!

I had many a time thought over the leaving him, going quietly away when
it should please the Giver of all breath to recall mine, falling
asleep, encompassed and sustained by his love until the last; then, a
burden no longer, leaving him to work out a glorious life, whose rich
web should include and bring to beautiful perfection all the poor
broken threads in mine.  But now, if this should be all vain, if he
should go from me, not I from him--I slid down to the ground, to my
knees, and the dumb cry of my agony went up on high.

How could I save him?

There seemed but one way; I sprung at it; stayed not to think if it
were right or wrong, honourable or dishonourable.  His life hung in the
balance, and there was but one way; besides, had I not cried unto God
for help?

I put aside the blind, and looked out of doors.  For weeks I had not
crossed the threshold; I almost started to find that it was spring.
Everything looked lovely in the coloured twilight; a blackbird was
singing loudly in the Abbey trees across the way; all things were fresh
and glowing, laden with the hope of the advancing year.  And there he
lay on his sick-bed, dying!

All he said, as I drew the curtain back, was a faint moan--"No light! I
can't bear the light!  Do let me rest!"

In half-an-hour, without saying a word to human being, I was on my way
to Ursula March.

She sat knitting in the summer-parlour alone.  The doctor was out; Mrs.
Jessop I saw down the long garden, bonnetted and shawled, busy among
her gooseberry-bushes--so we were safe.

As I have said, Ursula sat knitting, but her eyes had a soft
dreaminess.  My entrance had evidently startled her, and driven some
sweet, shy thought away.

But she met me cordially--said she was glad to see me--that she had not
seen either of us lately; and the knitting pins began to move quickly
again.

Those dainty fingers--that soft, tremulous smile--I could have hated
her!

"No wonder you did not see us, Miss March; John has been very ill, is
ill now--almost dying."

I hurled the words at her, sharp as javelins, and watched to see them
strike.

They struck--they wounded; I could see her shiver.

"Ill!--and no one ever told me!"

"You?  How could it affect you?  To me, now"--and my savage words, for
they were savage, broke down in a burst of misery--"nothing in this
world to me is worth a straw in comparison with John.  If he dies--"

I let loose the flood of my misery.  I dashed it over her, that she
might see it--feel it; that it might enter all the fair and sightly
chambers of her happy life, and make them desolate as mine.  For was
she not the cause?

Forgive me!  I was cruel to thee, Ursula; and thou wert so good--so
kind!

She rose, came to me, and took my hand.  Hers was very cold, and her
voice trembled much.

"Be comforted.  He is young, and God is very merciful."

She could say no more, but sat down, nervously twisting and untwisting
her fingers.  There was in her looks a wild sorrow--a longing to escape
from notice; but mine held her fast, mercilessly, as a snake holds a
little bird.  She sat cowering, almost like a bird, a poor,
broken-winged, helpless little bird--whom the storm has overtaken.

Rising, she made an attempt to quit the room.

"I will call Mrs. Jessop:  she may be of use--"

"She cannot.  Stay!"

"Further advice, perhaps?  Doctor Jessop--you must want help--"

"None save that which will never come.  His bodily sickness is
conquered--it is his mind.  Oh, Miss March!" and I looked up at her
like a wretch begging for life--"Do YOU not know of what my brother is
dying?"

"Dying!"  A long shudder passed over her, from head to foot--but I
relented not.

"Think--a life like his, that might be made a blessing to all he
loves--to all the world--is it to be sacrificed thus?  It may be--I do
not say it will--but it may be.  While in health he could fight against
this--this which I must not speak of; but now his health is gone.  He
cannot rally.  Without some change, I see clearly, even I, who love him
better than any one can love him--"

She stirred a little here.

"Far better," I repeated; "for while John does NOT love me best, he to
me is more than any one else in the world.  Yet even I have given up
hope, unless--But I have no right to say more."

There was no need.  She began to understand.  A deep, soft red,
sun-rise colour, dawned all over her face and neck, nay, tinged her
very arms--her delicate, bare arms.  She looked at me once--just
once--with a mute but keen inquiry.

"It is the truth, Miss March--ay, ever since last year.  You will
respect it?  You will, you shall respect it?"

She bent her head in acquiescence--that was all.  She had not uttered a
single syllable.  Her silence almost drove me wild.

"What! not one word? not one ordinary message from a friend to a
friend?--one who is lying ill, too!"

Still silence.

"Better so!" I cried, made desperate at last.  "Better, if it must be,
that he should die and go to the God who made him--ay, made him, as you
shall yet see, too noble a man to die for any woman's love."

I left her--left her where she sat, and went my way.

Of the hours that followed the less I say the better.  My mind was in a
tumult of pain, in which right and wrong were strangely confused. I
could not decide--I can scarcely decide now--whether what I had done
ought to have been done; I only know that I did it--did it under an
impulse so sudden and impetuous that it seemed to me like the guidance
of Providence.  All I could do afterwards was to trust the result where
we say we trust all things, and yet are for ever disquieting ourselves
in vain--we of little faith!

I have said, and I say again, that I believe every true marriage--of
which there is probably one in every five thousand of conjugal
unions--is brought about by heaven, and heaven only; and that all human
influence is powerless either to make or to mar that happy end.
Therefore, to heaven I left this marriage, if such it was destined to
be.  And so, after a season, I calmed myself enough to dare entering
that quiet sick-chamber, where no one ever entered but Jael and me.

The old woman met me at the door.

"Come in gently, Phineas; I do think there is a change."

A change!--that awful word!  I staggered rather than walked to John's
bed-side.

Ay, there was a change, but not THAT one--which made my blood run cold
in my veins even to think of.  Thank God for evermore for His great
mercies--not THAT change!

John was sitting up in bed.  New life shone in his eyes, in his whole
aspect.  Life and--no, not hope, but something far better, diviner.

"Phineas, how tired you look; it is time you were in bed."

The old way of speaking--the old, natural voice, as I had not heard it
for weeks.  I flung myself by the bed-side--perhaps I wept
outright--God knows!  It is thought a shame for a man to weep; yet One
Man wept, and that too was over His friend--His brother.

"You must not grieve over me any more, dear lad; to-morrow, please God!
I mean to be quite well again."

Amidst all my joy I marvelled over what could be the cause of so
miraculous a change.

"You would smile if I told you--only a dream."

No, I did not smile; for I believed in the Ruler of all our spirits,
sleeping or waking.

"A dream so curious, that I have scarcely lost the impression of it
yet.  Do you know, Phineas, she has been sitting by me, just where you
sit now."

"She?"

"Ursula."

If I could express the tone in which he uttered the word, which had
never fallen from his lips before--it was always either "Miss March,"
or the impersonal form used by all lovers to disguise the beloved
name--"URSULA," spoken as no man speaks any woman's name save the one
which is the music of his heart, which he foresees shall be the one
fireside tune of his life, ever familiar, yet ever sweet.

"Yes, she sat there, talking.  She told me she knew I loved her--loved
her so much that I was dying for her; that it was very wrong; that I
must rise up and do my work in the world--do it for heaven's sake, not
for hers; that a true man should live, and live nobly for the woman he
loves--it is only a coward who dies for her."

I listened, wonder-struck--for these were the very words that Ursula
March might have uttered; the very spirit that seemed to shine in her
eyes that night--the last night she and John spoke to one another.  I
asked him if there was any more of the dream?

"Nothing clear.  I thought we were on the Flat at Enderley, and I was
following her; whether I reached her or not I cannot tell.  And whether
I ever shall reach her I cannot tell.  But this I know, Phineas, I will
do as she bade me; I will arise and walk."

And so he did.  He slept quietly as an infant all that night.  Next
morning I found him up and dressed.  Looking like a spectre, indeed;
but with health, courage, and hope in his eyes.  Even my father noticed
it, when at dinner-time, with Jael's help--poor old Jael! how proud she
was--John crawled downstairs.

"Why, thee art picking up, lad!  Thee'lt be a man again in no time."

"I hope so.  And a better man than ever I was before."

"Thee might be better, and thee might be worse.  Anyhow, we couldn't do
without thee, John.  Hey, Phineas! who's been meddling with my
spectacles?"

The old man turned his back upon us, and busily read his newspaper
upside down.

We never had a happier meal in our house than that dinner.

In the afternoon my father stayed at home--a rare thing for him to do;
nay, more, he went and smoked his peaceful pipe in the garden. John lay
on an extempore sofa, made of three of our high-backed chairs and the
window-sill.  I read to him--trying to keep his attention, and mine
too, solely to the Great Plague of London and Daniel Defoe.  When, just
as I was stealthily glancing at his face, fancying it looked whiter and
more sunken, that his smile was fading, and his thoughts were
wandering--Jael burst in.

"John Halifax, there be a woman asking for thee."

No, John--no need for that start--that rush of impetuous blood to thy
poor thin cheek, as if there were but one woman in all the world. No,
it was only Mrs. Jessop.

At sight of him, standing up, tall, and gaunt, and pale, the good
lady's eyes brimmed over.

"You have been very ill, my poor boy!  Forgive me--but I am an old
woman, you know.  Lie down again."

With gentle force she compelled him, and sat down by his side.

"I had no idea--why did you not let us know--the doctor and me?  How
long have you been ill?"

"I am quite well now--I am indeed.  I shall be about again tomorrow,
shall I not, Phineas?" and he looked eagerly to me for confirmation.

I gave it, firmly and proudly.  I was glad she should know it--glad she
should see that the priceless jewel of his heart would not lie tossing
in the mire because a haughty girl scorned to wear it.  Glad that she
might one day find out there lived not the woman of whom John Halifax
was not worthy.

"But you must be very careful--very careful of yourself, indeed."

"He will, Mrs. Jessop.  Or, if not, he has many to take care of him.
Many to whom his life is most precious and most dear."

I spoke--perhaps more abruptly than I ought to have spoken to that good
old lady--but her gentle answer seemed at once to understand and
forgive me.

"I well believe that, Mr. Fletcher.  And I think Mr. Halifax hardly
knows how much we--we all--esteem him."  And with a kind motherly
gesture she took John's hand.  "You must make haste and get well now.
My husband will come and see you to-morrow.  For Ursula--" here she
carefully busied herself in the depths of her pocket--"my dear child
sends you this."

It was a little note--unsealed.  The superscription was simply his
name, in her clear, round, fair hand-writing--"John Halifax."

His fingers closed over it convulsively.  "I--she is--very kind." The
words died away--the hand which grasped, ay, for more than a minute,
the unopened letter, trembled like an aspen leaf.

"Yes, hers is a grateful nature," observed Mrs. Jessop, sedulously
looking at and speaking to me.  "I would not wish it otherwise--I would
not wish her to forget those whose worth she proved in her season of
trouble."

I was silent.  The old lady's tongue likewise failed her.  She took off
her glove, wiped a finger across each eyelash, and sat still.

"Have you read your little note, Mr. Halifax?"

No answer.

"I will take your message back.  She told me what she had said to you."

Ay, all the world might have read those simple lines:


"MY DEAR FRIEND,

"I did not know till yesterday that you had been ill.  I have
not forgotten how kind you were to my poor father.  I should like to
come and see you if you would allow me.

     "Yours sincerely,
          "URSULA MARCH."


This was all the note.  I saw it, more than thirty years afterwards,
yellow and faded, in the corner of his pocket-book.

"Well, what shall I say to my child?"

"Say"--he half rose, struggling to speak--"ask her to come."

He turned his head towards the window, and the sunshine glittered on
two great drops, large as a child's tear.

Mrs. Jessop went away.  And now for a long hour we waited--scarcely
moving.  John lay, his eyes sometimes closed, sometimes fixed dreamily
on the bit of blue sky that shone out above the iron railings between
the Abbey trees.  More than once they wandered to the little letter,
which lay buried in his hands.  He felt it there--that was enough.

My father came in from the garden, and settled to his afternoon doze;
but I think John hardly noticed him--nor I.  My poor old father!  Yet
we were all young once--let youth enjoy its day!

At length Ursula came.  She stood at the parlour door, rosy with
walking--a vision of youth and candid innocence, which blushed not, nor
had need to blush, at any intent or act that was sanctified by the law
of God, and by her own heart.

John rose to meet her.  They did not speak, but only clasped hands.

He was not strong enough for disguises now--in his first look she might
have seen, have felt, that I had told her the truth.  For hers--but it
dropped down, down, as Ursula March's clear glance had never dropped
before.  Then I knew how all would end.

Jael's voice broke in sharply.  "Abel Fletcher, the doctor's wife is
wanting thee down in the kitchen-garden, and she says her green
gooseberries bean't half as big as our'n."

My father awoke--rubbed his eyes--became aware of a lady's
presence--rubbed them again, and sat staring.

John led Ursula to the old man's chair.

"Mr. Fletcher, this is Miss March, a friend of mine, who, hearing I was
ill, out of her great kindness--"

His voice faltered.  Miss March added, in a low tone, with downcast
eyelids:

"I am an orphan, and he was kind to my dear father."

Abel Fletcher nodded--adjusted his spectacles--eyed her all over--and
nodded again; slowly, gravely, with a satisfied inspection.  His hard
gaze lingered, and softened while it lingered, on that young face,
whereon was written simplicity, dignity, truth.

"If thee be a friend of John's, welcome to my house.  Wilt thee sit
down?"

Offering his hand, with a mixture of kindness and ceremonious grace
that I had never before seen in my Quaker father, he placed her in his
own arm-chair.  How well I remember her sitting there, in her black
silk pelisse, trimmed with the white fur she was so fond of wearing,
and her riding-hat, the soft feathers of which drooped on her shoulder,
trembling as she trembled.  For she did tremble very much.

Gradually the old man's perception opened to the facts before him. He
ceased his sharp scrutiny, and half smiled.

"Wilt thee stay, and have a dish of tea with us?"

So it came to pass, I hardly remember how, that in an hour's space our
parlour beheld the strangest sight it had beheld since--Ah, no wonder
that when she took her place at the table's foot, and gave him his dish
of tea with her own hand--her pretty ringed lady's hand--my old father
started, as if it had been another than Miss March who was sitting
there.  No wonder that, more than once, catching the sound of her low,
quiet, gentlewomanlike speech, different from any female voices here,
he turned round suddenly with a glance, half-scared, half-eager, as if
she had been a ghost from the grave.

But Mrs. Jessop engaged him in talk, and, woman-hater as he was, he
could not resist the pleasantness of the doctor's little wife.  The
doctor, too, came in after tea, and the old folk all settled themselves
for a cosy chat, taking very little notice of us three.

Miss March sat at a little table near the window, admiring some
hyacinths that Mrs. Jessop had brought us.  A wise present:  for all
Norton Bury knew that if Abel Fletcher had a soft place in his heart it
was for his garden and his flowers.  These were very lovely; in colour
and scent delicious to one who had been long ill.  John lay looking at
them and at her, as if, oblivious of past and future, his whole life
were absorbed into that one exquisite hour.

For me--where I sat I do not clearly know, nor probably did any one
else.

"There," said Miss March to herself, in a tone of almost childish
satisfaction, as she arranged the last hyacinth to her liking.

"They are very beautiful," I heard John's voice answer, with a strange
trembling in it.  "It is growing too dark to judge of colours; but the
scent is delicious, even here."

"I could move the table closer to you."

"Thank you--let me do it--will you sit down?"

She did so, after a very slight hesitation, by John's side.  Neither
spoke--but sat quietly there, with the sunset light on their two heads,
softly touching them both, and then as softly melting away.

"There is a new moon to-night," Miss March remarked, appositely and
gravely.

"Is there?  Then I have been ill a whole month.  For I remember
noticing it through the trees the night when--"

He did not say what night, and she did not ask.  To such a very
unimportant conversation as they were apparently holding my involuntary
listening could do no harm.

"You will be able to walk out soon, I hope," said Miss March again.
"Norton Bury is a pretty town."

John asked, suddenly--"Are you going to leave it?"

"Not yet--I do not know for certain--perhaps not at all.  I mean," she
added, hurriedly, "that being independent, and having entirely
separated from, and been given up by, my cousins, I prefer residing
with Mrs. Jessop altogether."

"Of course--most natural."  The words were formally spoken, and John
did not speak again for some time.

"I hope,"--said Ursula, breaking the pause, and then stopping, as if
her own voice frightened her.

"What do you hope?"

"That long before this moon has grown old you will be quite strong
again."

"Thank you!  I hope so too.  I have need for strength, God knows!" He
sighed heavily.

"And you will have what you need, so as to do your work in the world.
You must not be afraid."

"I am not afraid.  I shall bear my burthen like other men.  Every one
has some inevitable burthen to bear."

"So I believe."

And now the room darkened so fast that I could not see them; but their
voices seemed a great way off, as the children's voices playing at the
old well-head used to sound to me when I lay under the brow of the
Flat--in the dim twilights at Enderley.

"I intend," John said, "as soon as I am able, to leave Norton Bury, and
go abroad for some time."

"Where?"

"To America.  It is the best country for a young man who has neither
money, nor kindred, nor position--nothing, in fact, but his own right
hand with which to carve out his own fortunes--as I will, if I can."

She murmured something about this being "quite right."

"I am glad you think so."  But his voice had resumed that formal tone
which ever and anon mingled strangely with its low, deep tenderness.
"In any case, I must quit England.  I have reasons for so doing."

"What reasons?"

The question seemed to startle John--he did not reply at once.

"If you wish I will tell you; in order that, should I ever come
back--or if I should not come back at all, you who were kind enough to
be my friend will know I did not go away from mere youthful
recklessness, or love of change."

He waited, apparently for some answer--but it came not, and he
continued:

"I am going because there has befallen me a great trouble, which, while
I stay here, I cannot get free from or overcome.  I do not wish to sink
under it--I had rather, as you said, 'Do my work in the world' as a man
ought.  No man has a right to say unto his Maker, 'My burthen is
heavier than I can bear.'  Do you not think so?"

"I do."

"Do you not think I am right in thus meeting, and trying to conquer, an
inevitable ill?"

"IS it inevitable?"

"Hush!" John answered, wildly.  "Don't reason with me--you cannot
judge--you do not know.  It is enough that I must go.  If I stay I
shall become unworthy of myself, unworthy of--Forgive me, I have no
right to talk thus; but you called me 'friend,' and I would like you to
think kindly of me always.  Because--because--" and his voice
shook--broke down utterly.  "God love thee and take care of thee,
wherever I may go!"

"John, stay!"

It was but a low, faint cry, like that of a little bird.  But he heard
it--felt it.  In the silence of the dark she crept up to him, like a
young bird to its mate, and he took her into the shelter of his love
for evermore.  At once all was made clear between them; for whatever
the world might say, they were in the sight of heaven equal, and she
received as much as she gave.

          *          *          *          *          *

When Jael brought in lights the room seemed to me, at first, all in a
wild dazzle.  Then I saw John rise, and Miss March with him.  Holding
her hand, he led her across the room.  His head was erect, his eyes
shining--his whole aspect that of a man who declares before all the
world, "This is MY OWN."

"Eh?" said my father, gazing at them from over his spectacles.

John spoke brokenly, "We have no parents, neither she nor I.  Bless
her--for she has promised to be my wife."

And the old man blessed her with tears.



CHAPTER XIX

"I hardly like taking thee out this wet day, Phineas--but it is a
comfort to have thee."

Perhaps it was, for John was bent on a trying errand.  He was going to
communicate to Mr. Brithwood of the Mythe, Ursula's legal guardian and
trustee, the fact that she had promised him her hand--him, John
Halifax, the tanner.  He did it--nay, insisted upon doing it--the day
after he came of age, and just one week after they had been
betrothed--this nineteenth of June, one thousand eight hundred and one.

We reached the iron gate of the Mythe House;--John hesitated a minute,
and then pulled the bell with a resolute hand.

"Do you remember the last time we stood here, John?  I do, well!"

But soon the happy smile faded from his lips, and left them pressed
together in a firm, almost painful gravity.  He was not only a lover
but a man.  And no man could go to meet what he knew he must meet in
this house, and on this errand, altogether unmoved.  One might foresee
a good deal--even in the knowing side-glance of the servant, whom he
startled with his name, "Mr. Halifax."

"Mr. Brithwood's busy, sir--better come to-morrow," suggested the
man--evidently knowing enough upon his master's affairs.

"I am sorry to trouble him--but I must see Mr. Brithwood to-day."

And John determinedly followed the man into the grand empty
dining-room, where, on crimson velvet chairs, we sat and contemplated
the great stag's head with its branching horns, the silver flagons and
tankards, and the throstles hopping outside across the rainy lawn:  at
our full leisure, too, for the space of fifteen minutes.

"This will not do," said John--quietly enough, though this time it was
with a less steady hand that he pulled the bell.

"Did you tell your master I was here?"

"Yes, sir."  And the grin with which the footman came in somehow slid
away from his mouth's corners.

"How soon may I have the honour of seeing him?"

"He says, sir, you must send up your business by me."

John paused, evidently subduing something within him--something
unworthy of Ursula's lover--of Ursula's husband that was to be.

"Tell your master my business is solely with himself, and I must
request to see him.  It is important, say, or I would not thus intrude
upon his time."

"Very well, sir."

Ere long, the man brought word that Mr. Brithwood would be at liberty,
for five minutes only, in the justice-room.  We were led out, crossing
the court-yard once more--where, just riding out, I saw two ladies, one
of whom kissed her hand gaily to John Halifax--to the magistrate's
office.  There, safely separated from his own noble mansion, Mr.
Brithwood administered justice.  In the outer room a stout young
fellow--a poacher, probably--sat heavily ironed, sullen and fierce; and
by the door a girl with a child in her arms, and--God pity her!--no
ring on her finger, stood crying; another ill-looking fellow, maudlin
drunk, with a constable by him, called out to us as we passed for "a
drop o' beer."

These were the people whom Richard Brithwood, Esquire, magistrate for
the county of ----, had to judge and punish, according to his own sense
of equity and his knowledge of his country's law.

He sat behind his office-table, thoroughly magisterial, dictating so
energetically to his clerk behind him, that we had both entered, and
John had crossed the room, before he saw us, or seemed to see.

"Mr. Brithwood."

"Oh--Mr. Halifax.  Good-morning."

John returned the salutation, which was evidently meant to show that
the giver bore no grudge; that, indeed, it was impossible so dignified
a personage as Richard Brithwood, Esquire, in his public capacity, too,
could bear a grudge against so inferior an individual as John Halifax.

"I should be glad, sir, of a few minutes' speech with you."

"Certainly--certainly; speak on;" and he lent a magisterial ear.

"Excuse me, my business is private," said John, looking at the clerk.

"No business is private here," returned the 'squire, haughtily.

"Then shall I speak with you elsewhere?  But I must have the honour of
an interview with you, and immediately."

Whether Mr. Brithwood was seized with some indefinite alarm, he himself
best knew why, or whether John's manner irresistibly compelled him to
civility, as the stronger always compels the weaker, I cannot tell--but
he signed to the clerk to leave the room.

"And, Jones, send back all the others to the lock-up house till
tomorrow.  Bless my life! it's near three o'clock.  They can't expect
to keep a gentleman's dinner waiting--these low fellows."

I suppose this referred only to the culprits outside; at all events, we
chose to take it so.

"Now--you, sir--perhaps you'll despatch your business; the sooner the
better."

"It will not take long.  It is a mere matter of form, which
nevertheless I felt it my duty to be the first to inform you.  Mr.
Brithwood, I have the honour of bearing a message to you from your
cousin--Miss Ursula March."

"She's nothing to me--I never wish to see her face again, the--the
vixen!"

"You will be kind enough, if you please, to avoid all such epithets; at
least, in my hearing."

"Your hearing!  And pray who are you, sir?"

"You know quite well who I am."

"Oh, yes!  And how goes the tanning?  Any offers in the horseflesh
line?  Always happy to meet you in the way of business.  But what can
you possibly have to do with me, or with any member of my family?"

John bit his lip; the 'squire's manner was extremely galling; more so,
perhaps, in its outside civility than any gross rudeness.

"Mr. Brithwood, I was not speaking of myself, but of the lady whose
message I have the honour to bring you."

"That lady, sir, has chosen to put herself away from her family, and
her family can hold no further intercourse with her," said the 'squire,
loftily.

"I am aware of that," was the reply, with at least equal hauteur.

"Are you?  And pray what right may you have to be acquainted with Miss
March's private concerns?"

"The right--which, indeed, was the purport of her message to you--that
in a few months I shall become her husband."

John said this very quietly--so quietly that, at first, the 'squire
seemed hardly to credit his senses.  At last, he burst into a hoarse
laugh.

"Well, that is the best joke I ever did hear."

"Pardon me; I am perfectly serious."

"Bah! how much money do you want, fellow?  A pretty tale! you'll not
get me to believe it--ha! ha!  She wouldn't be so mad.  To be sure,
women have their fancies, as we know, and you're a likely young fellow
enough; but to marry you--"

John sprang up--his whole frame quivering with fury.  "Take care, sir;
take care how you insult my WIFE!"

He stood over the wretch--the cowardly shrinking wretch--he did not
touch him, but he stood over him till, terrified out of his life,
Richard Brithwood gasped out some apology.

"Sit down--pray sit down again.  Let us proceed in our business."

John Halifax sat down.

"So--my cousin is your wife, I think you were saying?"

"She will be, some months hence.  We were engaged a week ago, with the
full knowledge and consent of Doctor and Mrs. Jessop, her nearest
friends."

"And of yours?" asked Mr. Brithwood, with as much sarcasm as his blunt
wits could furnish him.

"I have no relatives."

"So I always understood.  And that being the case, may I ask the
meaning of the visit?  Where are your lawyers, your marriage
settlements, hey?  I say, young man--ha! ha!  I should like to know
what you can possibly want with me, Miss March's trustee?"

"Nothing whatever.  Miss March, as you are aware, is by her father's
will left perfectly free in her choice of marriage; and she has chosen.
But since, under certain circumstances, I wish to act with perfect
openness, I came to tell you, as her cousin and the executor of this
will, that she is about to become my wife."

And he lingered over that name, as if its very utterance strengthened
and calmed him.

"May I inquire into those 'certain circumstances'?" asked the other,
still derisively.

"You know them already.  Miss March has a fortune and I have none; and
though I wish that difference were on the other side--though it might
and did hinder me from seeking her--yet now she is sought and won, it
shall not hinder my marrying her."

"Likely not," sneered Mr. Brithwood.

John's passion was rising again.

"I repeat, it shall not hinder me.  The world may say what it chooses;
we follow a higher law than the world--she and I.  She knows me, she is
not afraid to trust her whole life with me; am I to be afraid to trust
her?  Am I to be such a coward as not to dare to marry the woman I
love, because the world might say I married her for her money?"

He stood, his clenched hand resting on the table, looking full into
Richard Brithwood's face.  The 'squire sat dumfoundered at the young
man's vehemence.

"Your pardon," John added, more calmly.  "Perhaps I owe her some pardon
too, for bringing her name thus into discussion; but I wished to have
everything clear between myself and you, her nearest relative.  You now
know exactly how the matter stands.  I will detain you no longer--I
have nothing more to say."

"But I have," roared out the 'squire, at length recovering himself,
seeing his opponent had quitted the field.  "Stop a minute."

John paused at the door.

"Tell Ursula March she may marry you, or any other vagabond she
pleases--it's no business of mine.  But her fortune is my business, and
it's in my hands too.  Might's right, and possession's nine-tenths of
the law.  Not one penny shall she get out of my fingers as long as I
can keep hold of it."

John bowed, his hand still on the door.  "As you please, Mr. Brithwood.
That was not the subject of our interview. Good-morning."

And we were away.

Re-crossing the iron gates, and out into the open road, John breathed
freely.

"That's over--all is well."

"Do you think what he threatened is true?  Can he do it?"

"Very likely; don't let us talk about that."  And he walked on lightly,
as if a load were taken off his mind, and body and soul leaped up to
meet the glory of the summer sunshine, the freshness of the summer air.

"Oh! what a day is this!--after the rain, too!  How she will enjoy it!"

And coming home through Norton Bury, we met her, walking with Mrs.
Jessop.  No need to dread that meeting now.

Yet she looked up, questioning, through her blushes.  Of course he had
told her where we were going to-day; her who had a right to know every
one of his concerns now.

"Yes, dear, all is quite right.  Do not be afraid."

Afraid, indeed!  Not the least fear was in those clear eyes.  Nothing
but perfect content--perfect trust.

John drew her arm through his.  "Come, we need not mind Norton Bury
now," he said, smiling.

So they two walked forward, talking, as we could see, earnestly and
rather seriously to one another; while Mrs. Jessop and I followed
behind.

"Bless their dear hearts!" said the old lady, as she sat resting on the
stile of a bean-field.  "Well, we have all been young once."

Not all, good Mrs. Jessop, thought I; not all.

Yet, surely it was most pleasant to see them, as it is to see all true
lovers--young lovers, too, in the morning of their days. Pleasant to
see written on every line of their happy faces the blessedness of
Nature's law of love--love began in youth-time, sincere and pure, free
from all sentimental shams, or follies, or shames--love mutually
plighted, the next strongest bond to that in which it will end, and is
meant to end, God's holy ordinance of marriage.

We came back across the fields to tea at Mrs. Jessop's.  It was John's
custom to go there almost every evening; though certainly he could not
be said to "go a-courting."  Nothing could be more unlike it than his
demeanour, or indeed the demeanour of both.  They were very quiet
lovers, never making much of one another "before folk." No whispering
in corners, or stealing away down garden walks.  No public show of
caresses--caresses whose very sweetness must consist in their entire
sacredness; at least, _I_ should think so.  No coquettish exactions, no
testing of either's power over the other, in those perilous small
quarrels which may be the renewal of passion, but are the death of true
love.

No, our young couple were well-behaved always.  She sat at her work,
and he made himself generally pleasant, falling in kindly to the
Jessop's household ways.  But whatever he was about, at Ursula's
lightest movement, at the least sound of her voice, I could see him
lift a quiet glance, as if always conscious of her presence; her who
was the delight of his eyes.

To-night, more than ever before, this soft, invisible link seemed to be
drawn closer between them, though they spoke little together, and even
sat at opposite sides of the table; but whenever their looks met, one
could trace a soft, smiling interchange, full of trust, and peace, and
joy.  He had evidently told her all that had happened to-day, and she
was satisfied.

More, perhaps, than I was; for I knew how little John would have to
live upon besides what means his wife brought him; but that was their
own affair, and I had no business to make public my doubts or fears.

We all sat round the tea-table, talking gaily together, and then John
left us, reluctantly enough; but he always made a point of going to the
tan-yard for an hour or two, in my father's stead, every evening.
Ursula let him out at the front door; this was her right, silently
claimed, which nobody either jested at or interfered with.

When she returned, and perhaps she had been away a minute or two longer
than was absolutely necessary, there was a wonderful brightness on her
young face; though she listened with a degree of attention, most
creditable in its gravity, to a long dissertation of Mrs. Jessop's on
the best and cheapest way of making jam and pickles.

"You know, my dear, you ought to begin and learn all about such things
now."

"Yes," said Miss March, with a little droop of the head.

"I assure you"--turning to me--"she comes every day into the
kitchen--never mind, my dear, one can say anything to Mr. Fletcher.
And what lady need be ashamed of knowing how a dinner is cooked and a
household kept in order?"

"Nay, she should rather be proud; I know John thinks so."

At this answer of mine Ursula half smiled:  but there was a colour in
her cheek, and a thoughtfulness in her eyes, deeper than any that our
conversation warranted or occasioned.  I was planning how to divert
Mrs. Jessop from the subject, when it was broken at once by a sudden
entrance, which startled us all like a flash of lightning.

"Stole away! stole away! as my husband would say.  Here have I come in
the dusk, all through the streets to Dr. Jessop's very door.  How is
she? where is she, ma petite!"

"Caroline!"

"Ah! come forward.  I haven't seen you for an age."

And Lady Caroline kissed her on both cheeks in her lively French
fashion, which Ursula received patiently, and returned--no, I will not
be certain whether she returned it or not.

"Pardon--how do you do, Mrs. Jessop, my dear woman?  What trouble I
have had in coming!  Are you not glad to see me, Ursula?"

"Yes, very."  In that sincere voice which never either falsified or
exaggerated a syllable.

"Did you ever expect to see me again?"

"No, certainly I did not.  And I would almost rather not see you now,
if--"

"If Richard Brithwood did not approve of it?  Bah! what notions you
always had of marital supremacy.  So, ma chere, you are going to be
married yourself, I hear?"

"Yes."

"Why, how quietly you seem to take it!  The news perfectly electrified
me this morning.  I always said that young man was 'un heros de
romans!'  Ma foi! this is the prettiest little episode I ever heard of.
Just King Cophetua and the beggar-maid--only reversed.  How do you
feel, my Queen Cophetua?"

"I do not quite understand you, Caroline."

"Neither should I you, for the tale seems incredible.  Only you gave me
such an honest 'yes,' and I know you never tell even white lies. But it
can't be true; at least, not certain.  A little affaire de coeur,
maybe--ah! I had several before I was twenty--very pleasant,
chivalrous, romantic, and all that; and such a brave young fellow, too!
Helas! love is sweet at your age!"--with a little sigh--"but marriage!
My dear child, you are not surely promised to this youth?"

"I am."

"How sharply you say it!  Nay, don't be angry.  I liked him greatly. A
very pretty fellow.  But then he belongs to the people."

"So do I."

"Naughty child, you will not comprehend me.  I mean the lower orders,
the bourgeoisie.  My husband says he is a tanner's 'prenticeboy."

"He was apprentice; he is now partner in Mr. Fletcher's tan-yard."

"That is nearly as bad.  And so you are actually going to marry a
tanner?"

"I am going to marry Mr. Halifax.  We will, if you please, cease to
discuss him, Lady Caroline."

"La belle sauvage!" laughed the lady; and, in the dusk, I fancied I saw
her reach over to pat Ursula's hand in her careless, pretty way. "Nay,
I meant no harm."

"I am sure you did not; but we will change the subject."

"Not at all.  I came to talk about it.  I couldn't sleep till I had. Je
t'aime bien, tu le sais, ma petite Ursule."

"Thank you," said Ursula, gently.

"And I would like well to see you married.  Truly we women must marry,
or be nothing at all.  But as to marrying for love, as we used to think
of, and as charming poets make believe--my dear, now-a-days, nous avons
change tout cela."

Ursula replied nothing.

"I suppose my friend the young bourgeois is very much in love with you?
With 'les beaux yeux de votre cassette,' Richard swears; but I know
better.  What of that?  All men say they love one--but it will not
last.  It burns itself out.  It will be over in a year, as we wives all
know.  Do we not, Mrs. Jessop?  Ah! she is gone away."

Probably they thought I was away too--or else they took no notice of
me--and went talking on.

"Jane would not have agreed with you, Cousin Caroline; she loved her
husband very dearly when she was a girl.  They were poor, and he was
afraid to marry; so he let her go.  That was wrong, I think."

"How wise we are growing in these things now!" laughed Lady Caroline.
"But come, I am not interested in old turtle-doves.  Say about
yourself."

"I have nothing more to say."

"Nothing more?  Mon Dieu! are you aware that Richard is furious; that
he vows he will keep every sou he has of yours--law or no law--for as
long as ever he can?  He declared so this morning.  Did young Halifax
tell you?"

"Mr. Halifax has told me."

"'MR. Halifax!' how proudly she says it.  And are you still going to be
married to him?"

"Yes."

"What! a bourgeois--a tradesman? with no more money than those sort of
people usually have, I believe.  You, who have had all sorts of
comforts, have always lived as a gentlewoman.  Truly, though I adore a
love-marriage in theory, practically I think you are mad--quite mad, my
dear."

"Do you?"

"And he, too!  Verily, what men are!  Especially men in love.  All
selfish together."

"Caroline!"

"Isn't it selfish to drag a pretty creature down, and make her a
drudge, a slave--a mere poor man's wife?"

"She is proud of being such!" burst in the indignant young voice. "Lady
Caroline, you may say what you like to me; you were kind always, and I
was fond of you; but you shall not say a word against Mr. Halifax.  You
do not know him--how could you?"

"And you do?  Ah! ma petite, we all think that, till we find out to the
contrary.  And so he urges you to be married at once--rich or poor--at
all risks, at all costs?  How lover-like--how like a man!  I guess it
all.  Half beseeches--half persuades--"

"He does not!"  And the girl's voice was sharp with pain.  "I would not
have told you, but I must--for his sake.  He asked me this afternoon if
I was afraid of being poor? if I would like to wait, and let him work
hard alone, till he could give me a home like that I was born to?  He
did, Caroline."

"And you answered--"

"No--a thousand times, no!  He will have a hard battle to fight--would
I let him fight it alone? when I can help him--when he says I can."

"Ah, child! you that know nothing of poverty, how can you bear it?"

"I will try."

"You that never ruled a house in your life--"

"I can learn."

"Ciel! 'tis wonderful!  And this young man has no friends, no
connections, no fortune! only himself."

"Only himself," said Ursula, with a proud contempt.

"Will you tell me, my dear, why you marry him?"

"Because"--and Ursula spoke in low tones, that seemed wrung out of her
almost against her will--"because I honour him, because I trust him;
and, young as I am, I have seen enough of the world to be thankful that
there is in it one man whom I can trust, can honour, entirely.
Also--though I am often ashamed lest this be selfish--because when I
was in trouble he helped me; when I was misjudged he believed in me;
when I was sad and desolate he loved me.  And I am proud of his love--I
glory in it.  No one shall take it from me--no one will--no one can,
unless I cease to deserve it."

Lady Caroline was silent.  Despite her will, you might hear a sigh
breaking from some deep corner of that light, frivolous heart.

"Bien! chacun a son gout!  But you have never stated one trifle--not
unnecessary, perhaps, though most married folk get on quite well
without it--'Honour,' 'trust,'--pshaw!  My child--do you LOVE Mr.
Halifax?"

No answer.

"Nay, why be shy?  In England, they say, and among the people--no
offence, ma petite--one does sometimes happen to care for the man one
marries.  Tell me, for I must be gone, do you love him? one word,
whether or no?"

Just then the light coming in showed Ursula's face, beautiful with more
than happiness, uplifted even with a religious thankfulness, as she
said simply:

"John knows."



CHAPTER XX

In the late autumn, John married Ursula March.  He was twenty-one, and
she eighteen.  It was very young--too young, perhaps, prudent folk
might say:  and yet sometimes I think a double blessing falls on unions
like this.  A right and holy marriage, a true love-marriage, be it
early or late, is--must be--sanctified and happy; yet those have the
best chance of happiness, who, meeting on the very threshold of life,
enter upon its duties together; with free, fresh hearts, easily moulded
the one to the other, rich in all the riches of youth, acute to enjoy,
brave and hopeful to endure.

Such were these two--God bless them!

They were married quite privately, neither having any near kindred.
Besides, John held strongly the opinion that so solemn a festival as
marriage is only desecrated by outward show.  And so, one golden autumn
morning, Ursula walked quietly up the Abbey aisle in her plain white
muslin gown; and John and she plighted their faithful vows, no one
being present except the Jessops and I.  They then went away for a
brief holiday--went away without either pomp or tears, entirely
happy--husband and wife together.

When I came home and said what had happened my good father seemed
little surprised.  He had expressly desired not to be told anything of
the wedding till all was over--he hated marriages.

"But since it is done, maybe 'tis as well," said he, grimly.  "She
seems a kindly young thing; wise, even--for a woman."

"And pleasant too, father?"

"Ay, but favour is deceitful, and beauty vain.  So the lad's gone;" and
he looked round, as if missing John, who had lived in our house ever
since his illness.  "I thought as much, when he bade me goodnight, and
asked my leave to take a journey.  So he's married and gone!  Come,
Phineas, sit thee down by thy old father; I am glad thee wilt always
remain a bachelor."

We settled ourselves, my father and I; and while the old man smoked his
meditative pipe I sat thinking of the winter evenings when we two lads
had read by the fire-side; the summer days when we had lounged on the
garden wall.  He was a married man now, the head of a household; others
had a right--the first, best, holiest right--to the love that used to
be all mine; and though it was a marriage entirely happy and hopeful,
though all that day and every day I rejoiced both with and for my
brother, still it was rather sad to miss him from our house, to feel
that his boyish days were quite over--that his boyish place would know
him no more.

But of course I had fully overcome, or at least suppressed, this
feeling when, John having brought his wife home, I went to see them in
their own house.

I had seen it once before; it was an old dwelling-house, which my
father bought with the flour-mill, situated in the middle of the town,
the front windows looking on the street, the desolate garden behind
shut in by four brick walls.  A most un-bridal-like abode.  I feared
they would find it so, even though John had been busy there the last
two months, in early mornings and late evenings, keeping a comical
secrecy over the matter as if he were jealous that any one but himself
should lend an eye, or put a finger, to the dear task of making ready
for his young wife.

They could not be great preparations, I knew, for the third of my
father's business promised but a small income.  Yet the gloomy outside
being once passed, the house looked wonderfully bright and clean; the
walls and doors newly-painted and delicately stencilled:--("Master did
all that himself," observed the proud little handmaid, Jenny--Jem
Watkins's sweetheart.  I had begged the place for her myself of
Mistress Ursula.)  Though only a few rooms were furnished, and that
very simply, almost poorly, all was done with taste and care; the
colours well mingled, the wood-work graceful and good.

They were out gardening, John Halifax and his wife.

Ay, his wife; he was a husband now.  They looked so young, both of
them, he kneeling, planting box-edging, she standing by him with her
hand on his shoulder--the hand with the ring on it.  He was laughing at
something she had said, thy very laugh of old, David!  Neither heard me
come till I stood close by.

"Phineas, welcome, welcome!"  He wrung my hand fervently, many times;
so did Ursula, blushing rosy red.  They both called me "brother," and
both were as fond and warm as any brother and sister could be.

A few minutes after, Ursula--"Mrs. Halifax," as I said I ought to call
her now--slipped away into the house, and John and I were left
together.  He glanced after his wife till she was out of sight, played
with the spade, threw it down, placed his two hands on my shoulders,
and looked hard in my face.  He was trembling with deep emotion.

"Art thou happy, David?"

"Ay, lad, almost afraid of my happiness.  God make me worthy of it, and
of her!"

He lifted his eyes upwards; there was in them a new look, sweet and
solemn, a look which expressed the satisfied content of a life now
rounded and completed by that other dear life which it had received
into and united with its own--making a full and perfect whole, which,
however kindly and fondly it may look on friends and kindred outside,
has no absolute need of any, but is complete in and sufficient to
itself, as true marriage should be.  A look, unconsciously fulfilling
the law--God's own law--that a man shall leave father and mother,
brethren and companions, and shall cleave unto his wife, and "they two
shall become one flesh."

And although I rejoiced in his joy, still I felt half-sadly for a
moment, the vague, fine line of division which was thus for evermore
drawn between him and me of no fault on either side, and of which he
himself was unaware.  It was but the right and natural law of things,
the difference between the married and unmarried, which only the latter
feel.  Which, perhaps, the Divine One meant them to feel--that out of
their great solitude of this world may grow a little inner Eden, where
they may hear His voice, "walking in the garden in the cool of the day."

We went round John's garden; there was nothing Eden-like about it,
being somewhat of a waste still, divided between ancient cabbage-beds,
empty flower-beds, and great old orchard-trees, very thinly laden with
fruit.

"We'll make them bear better next year," said John, hopefully.  "We may
have a very decent garden here in time."  He looked round his little
domain with the eye of a master, and put his arm, half proudly, half
shyly, round his wife's shoulders--she had sidled up to him, ostensibly
bringing him a letter, though possibly only for an excuse, because in
those sweet early days they naturally liked to be in each other's sight
continually.  It was very beautiful to see what a demure, soft, meek
matronliness had come over the high spirit of the "Nut-browne Mayde."

"May I read?" she said, peeping over him.

"Of course you may, little one."  A comical pet name for him to give
her, who was anything but small.  I could have smiled, remembering the
time when John Halifax bowed to the stately and dignified young
gentlewoman who stood at Mrs. Tod's door.  To think he should ever have
come to call Miss Ursula March "little one!"

But this was not exactly a time for jesting, since, on reading the
letter, I saw the young wife flush an angry red, and then look grave.
Until John, crumpling up the paper, and dropping it almost with a
boyish frolic into the middle of a large rosemary-bush, took his wife
by both her hands, and gazed down into her troubled face, smiling.

"You surely don't mind this, love?  We knew it all before.  It can make
no possible difference."

"No!  But it is so wrong--so unjust.  I never believed he dared do
it--to you."

"Hear her, Phineas!  She thinks nobody dare do anything ill to her
husband--not even Richard Brithwood."

"He is a--"

"Hush, dear!--we will not talk about him; since, for all his threats,
he can do us no harm, and, poor man! he never will be half as happy as
we."

That was true.  So Mr. Brithwood's insulting letter was left to moulder
harmlessly away in the rosemary-bush, and we all walked up and down the
garden, talking over a thousand plans for making ends meet in that
little household.  To their young hopefulness even poverty itself
became a jest; and was met cheerfully, like an honest, hard-featured,
hard-handed friend, whose rough face was often kindly, and whose harsh
grasp made one feel the strength of one's own.

"We mean," John said gaily, "to be two living Essays on the Advantages
of Poverty.  We are not going to be afraid of it or ashamed of it.  We
don't care who knows it.  We consider that our respectability lies
solely in our two selves."

"But your neighbours?"

"Our neighbours may think of us exactly what they like.  Half the sting
of poverty is gone when one keeps house for one's own comfort, and not
for the comments of one's neighbours."

"I should think not," Ursula cried, tossing back her head in merry
defiance.  "Besides, we are young, we have few wants, and we can easily
reduce our wants to our havings."

"And no more grey silk gowns?" said her husband, half-fondly,
half-sadly.

"You will not be so rude as to say I shall not look equally well in a
cotton one?  And as for being as happy in it--why, I know best."

He smiled at her once more,--that tender, manly smile which made all
soft and lustrous the inmost depths of his brown eyes; truly no woman
need be afraid, with a smile like that, to be the strength, the
guidance, the sunshine of her home.

We went in, and the young mistress showed us her new house; we
investigated and admired all, down to the very scullery; then we
adjourned to the sitting-room--the only one--and, after tea, Ursula
arranged her books, some on stained shelves, which she proudly informed
me were of John's own making, and some on an old spinet, which he had
picked up, and which, he said, was of no other use than to hold books,
since she was not an accomplished young lady, and could neither sing
nor play.

"But you don't dislike the spinet, Ursula?  It caught my fancy.  Do you
know I have a faint remembrance that once, on such a thing as this, my
mother used to play?"

He spoke in a low voice; Ursula stole up to him with a fond, awed look.

"You never told me anything about your mother?"

"Dear, I had little to tell.  Long ago you knew whom you were going to
marry--John Halifax, who had no friends, no kindred, whose parents left
him nothing but his name."

"And you cannot remember them?"

"My father not at all; my mother very little."

"And have you nothing belonging to them?"

"Only one thing.  Should you like to see it?"

"Very much."  She still spoke slowly, and with slight hesitation. "It
was hard for him not to have known his parents," she added, when John
had left the room.  "I should like to have known them too.  But
still--when I know HIM--"

She smiled, tossed back the coronet of curls from her forehead--her
proud, pure forehead, that would have worn a coronet of jewels more
meekly than it now wore the unadorned honour of being John Halifax's
wife.  I wished he could have seen her.

That minute he re-appeared.

"Here, Ursula, is all I have of my parents.  No one has seen it, except
Phineas there, until now."

He held in his hand the little Greek Testament which he had showed me
years before.  Carefully, and with the same fond, reverent look as when
he was a boy, he undid the case, made of silk, with ribbon
strings--doubtless a woman's work--it must have been his mother's. His
wife touched it, softly and tenderly.  He showed her the fly-leaf; she
looked over the inscription, and then repeated it aloud.

"'Guy Halifax, gentleman.'  I thought--I thought--"

Her manner betrayed a pleased surprise:  she would not have been a
woman, especially a woman reared in pride of birth, not to have felt
and testified the like pleasure for a moment.

"You thought that I was only a labourer's son:  or--nobody's.  Well,
does it signify?"

"No," she cried, as, clinging round his neck and throwing her head
back, she looked at him with all her heart in her eyes.  "No, it does
NOT signify.  Were your father the king on his throne, or the beggar in
the streets, it would be all the same to me; you would still be
yourself--MY husband--MY John Halifax."

"God bless thee--my own wife that He has given me!" John murmured,
through his close embrace.

They had altogether forgotten any one's presence, dear souls! so I kept
them in that happy oblivion by slipping out to Jenny in the kitchen,
and planning with her how we could at least spare Jem Watkins two days
a week to help in the garden, under Mr. Halifax's orders.

"Only, Jenny," smiled I, with a warning finger, "no idling and
chattering.  Young folk must work hard if they want to come to the
happy ending of your master and mistress."

The little maid grew the colour of her swain's pet peonies, and
promised obedience.  Conscientious Jem there was no fear of--all the
rosy-cheeked damsels in Christendom would not have turned him aside
from one iota of his duty to Mr. Halifax.  Thus there was love in the
parlour and love in the kitchen.  But, I verily believe, the young
married couple were served all the better for their kindness and
sympathy to the humble pair of sweethearts in the rank below them.

John walked home with me--a pleasure I had hardly expected, but which
was insisted upon both by him and Ursula.  For from the very first of
her betrothal there had been a thorough brother-and-sisterly bond
established between her and me.  Her womanly, generous nature would
have scorned to do what, as I have heard, many young wives do--seek to
make coldness between her husband and his old friends.  No; secure in
her riches, in her rightful possession of his whole heart, she took
into hers everything that belonged to John, every one he cared for; to
be for ever held sacred and beloved, being his, and therefore her own.
Thus we were the very best of friends, my sister Ursula and me.

John and I talked a little about her--of her rosy looks, which he hoped
would not fade in their town dwelling--and of good Mrs. Tod's wonderful
delight at seeing her, when last week they had stayed two days in the
dear old cottage at Enderley.  But he seemed slow to speak about his
wife, or to dilate on a joy so new that it was hardly to be breathed
on, lest it might melt into air.

Only when, as we were crossing the street, a fine equipage passed, he
looked after it with a smile.

"Grey ponies! she is so fond of long-tailed grey ponies.  Poor child!
when shall I be able to give her a carriage?  Perhaps some day--who
knows!"

He turned the conversation, and began telling me about the cloth
mill--his old place of resort; which he had been over once again when
they were at Rose Cottage.

"And do you know, while I was looking at the machinery, a notion came
into my head that, instead of that great water-wheel--you remember
it?--it might be worked by steam."

"What sort of steam?"

"Phineas, your memory is no better, I see.  Have you forgotten my
telling you how, last year, some Scotch engineer tried to move boats by
steam, on the Forth and Clyde canal?  Why should not the same power be
turned to account in a cloth-mill?  I know it could--I have got the
plan of the machinery in my head already.  I made a drawing of it last
night, and showed it to Ursula; SHE understood it directly."

I smiled.

"And I do believe, by common patience and skill, a man might make his
fortune with it at those Enderley cloth-mills."

"Suppose you try!" I said in half jest, and was surprised to see how
seriously John took it.

"I wish I could try--if it were only practicable.  Once or twice I have
thought it might be.  The mill belongs to Lord Luxmore.  His steward
works it.  Now, if one could get to be a foreman or overseer--"

"Try--you can do anything you try."

"No, I must not think of it--she and I have agreed that I must not,"
said he, steadily.  "It's my weakness--my hobby, you know.  But--no
hobbies now.  Above all, I must not, for a mere fancy, give up the work
that lies under my hand.  What of the tan-yard, Phineas?"

"My father missed you, and grumbled after you a good deal.  He looks
anxious, I think.  He vexes himself more than he needs about business."

"Don't let him.  Keep him as much at home as you can.  I'll manage the
tan-yard:  you know--and he knows too--that everything which can be
done for us all I shall do."

I looked up, surprised at the extreme earnestness of his manner.

"Surely, John--"

"Nay, there is nothing to be uneasy about--nothing more than there has
been for this year past.  All trade is bad just now.  Never fear, we'll
weather the storm--I'm not afraid."

Cheerfully as he spoke, I began to guess--what he already must have
known--that our fortunes were as a slowly leaking ship, of which the
helm had slipped from my old father's feeble hand.  But John had taken
it--John stood firm at the wheel.  Perhaps, with God's blessing, he
might guide us safe to land.

I had not time to say more, when, with its pretty grey ponies, the
curricle once more passed our way.  Two ladies were in it:  one leaned
out and bowed.  Presently a lacquey came to beg Mr. Halifax would come
and speak with Lady Caroline Brithwood.

"Shall you go, John?"

"Certainly--why not?"  And he stepped forward to the carriage-side.

"Ah! delighted to see mon beau cousin.  This is he, Emma," turning to
the lady who sat by her--oh, what a lovely face that lady had! no
wonder it drove men mad; ay, even that brave man in whose honest life
can be chronicled only this one sin, of being bewitched by her.

John caught the name--perhaps, too, he recognized the face--it was only
too public, alas!  His own took a sternness, such as I had never before
seen, and yet there was a trace of pity in it too.

"You are quite well.  Indeed, he looks so--n'est-ce pas, ma chere?"

John bore gravely the eyes of the two ladies fixed on him, in rather
too plain admiration--very gravely, too, he bowed.

"And what of our young bride, our treasure that we stole--nay, it was
quite fair--quite fair.  How is Ursula?"

"I thank you, Mrs. Halifax is well."

Lady Caroline smiled at the manner, courteous through all its coldness,
which not ill became the young man.  But she would not be repelled.

"I am delighted to have met you.  Indeed, we must be friends.  One's
friends need not always be the same as one's husband's, eh, Emma? You
will be enchanted with our fair bride.  We must both seize the first
opportunity, and come as disguised princesses to visit Mrs. Halifax."

"Again let me thank you, Lady Caroline.  But--"

"No 'buts.'  I am resolved.  Mr. Brithwood will never find it out. And
if he does--why, he may.  I like you both; I intend us to be excellent
friends, whenever I chance to be at Norton Bury.  Don't be proud, and
reject me, there's good people--the only good people I ever knew who
were not disagreeable."

And leaning on her large ermine muff, she looked right into John's
face, with the winning sweetness which Nature, not courts, lent to
those fair features--already beginning to fade, already trying to hide
by art their painful, premature decay.

John returned the look, half sorrowfully; it was so hard to give back
harshness to kindliness.  But a light laugh from the other lady caught
his ear, and his hesitation--if hesitation he had felt-was over.

"No, Lady Caroline, it cannot be.  You will soon see yourself that it
cannot.  Living, as we do, in the same neighbourhood, we may meet
occasionally by chance, and always, I hope, with kindly feeling; but,
under present circumstances--indeed, under any circumstances--intimacy
between your house and ours would be impossible."

Lady Caroline shrugged her shoulders with a pretty air of pique.  "As
you will!  I never trouble myself to court the friendship of any one.
Le jeu ne vaut pas la chandelle."

"Do not mistake me," John said, earnestly.  "Do not suppose I am
ungrateful for your former kindness to my wife; but the difference
between her and you--between your life and hers--is so extreme."

"Vraiment!" with another shrug and smile, rather a bitter one.

"Our two paths lie wide apart--wide as the poles; our house and our
society would not suit you; and that my wife should ever enter
yours"--glancing from one to the other of those two faces, painted with
false roses, lit by false smiles,--"No, Lady Caroline," he added,
firmly, "it is impossible."

She looked mortified for a moment, and then resumed her gaiety, which
nothing could ever banish long.

"Hear him, Emma!  So young and so unkindly!  Mais nous verrons.  You
will change your mind.  Au revoir, mon beau cousin."

They drove off quickly, and were gone.

"John, what will Mrs. Halifax say?"

"My innocent girl! thank God she is safe away from them all--safe in a
poor man's honest breast."  He spoke with much emotion.

"Yet Lady Caroline--"

"Did you see who sat beside her?"

"That beautiful woman?"

"Poor soul! alas for her beauty!  Phineas, that was Lady Hamilton."

He said no more, nor I.  At my own door he left me, with his old merry
laugh, his old familiar grasp of my shoulder.

"Lad, take care of thyself, though I'm not by to see.  Remember, I am
just as much thy tyrant as if I were living here still."

I smiled, and he went his way to his own quiet, blessed, married home.



CHAPTER XXI

The winter and spring passed calmly by.  I had much ill-health, and
could go out very little; but they came constantly to me, John and
Ursula, especially the latter.  During this illness, when I learned to
watch longingly for her kind face, and listen for her cheerful voice
talking pleasantly and sisterly beside my chair, she taught me to give
up "Mrs. Halifax," and call her Ursula.  It was only by slow degrees I
did so, truly; for she was not one of those gentle creatures whom,
married or single, one calls instinctively by their Christian names.
Her manner in girlhood was not exactly either "meek" or "gentle";
except towards him, the only one who ever ruled her, and to whom she
was, through life, the meekest and tenderest of women.  To every one
else she comported herself, at least in youth, with a dignity and
decision--a certain stand-offishness--so that, as I said, it was not
quite easy to speak to or think of her as "Ursula."  Afterwards, when
seen in the light of a new character, for which Heaven destined and
especially fitted her, and in which she appeared altogether
beautiful--I began to give her another name--but it will come by and by.

In the long midsummer days, when our house was very quiet and rather
dreary, I got into the habit of creeping over to John's home, and
sitting for hours under the apple-trees in his garden.  It was now
different from the wilderness he found it; the old trees were pruned
and tended, and young ones planted.  Mrs. Halifax called it proudly
"our orchard," though the top of the tallest sapling could be reached
with her hand.  Then, in addition to the indigenous cabbages, came long
rows of white-blossomed peas, big-headed cauliflowers, and all
vegetables easy of cultivation.  My father sent contributions from his
celebrated gooseberry-bushes, and his wall-fruit, the pride of Norton
Bury; Mrs. Jessop stocked the borders from her great parterres of
sweet-scented common flowers; so that, walled in as it was, and in the
midst of a town likewise, it was growing into a very tolerable garden.
Just the kind of garden that I love--half trim, half wild--fruits,
flowers, and vegetables living in comfortable equality and fraternity,
none being too choice to be harmed by their neighbours, none esteemed
too mean to be restricted in their natural profusion. Oh, dear
old-fashioned garden! full of sweet-Williams and white-Nancies, and
larkspur and London-pride, and yard-wide beds of snowy saxifrage, and
tall, pale evening primroses, and hollyhocks six or seven feet high,
many-tinted, from yellow to darkest ruby-colour; while for scents,
large blushing cabbage-roses, pinks, gilly-flowers, with here and there
a great bush of southern-wood or rosemary, or a border of thyme, or a
sweet-briar hedge--a pleasant garden, where all colours and perfumes
were blended together; ay, even a stray dandelion, that stood boldly up
in his yellow waistcoat, like a young country bumpkin, who feels
himself a decent lad in his way--or a plant of wild marjoram, that had
somehow got in, and kept meekly in a corner of the bed, trying to turn
into a respectable cultivated herb. Dear old garden!--such as one
rarely sees now-a-days!--I would give the finest modern pleasure-ground
for the like of thee!

This was what John's garden became; its every inch and every flower
still live in more memories than mine, and will for a generation yet;
but I am speaking of it when it was young, like its gardeners.  These
were Mrs. Halifax and her husband, Jem and Jenny.  The master could not
do much; he had long, long hours in his business; but I used to watch
Ursula, morning after morning, superintending her domain, with her
faithful attendant Jem--Jem adored his "missis."  Or else, when it was
hot noon, I used to lie in their cool parlour, and listen to her voice
and step about the house, teaching Jenny, or learning from her--for the
young gentlewoman had much to learn, and was not ashamed of it either.
She laughed at her own mistakes, and tried again; she never was idle or
dull for a minute.  She did a great deal in the house herself.  Often
she would sit chatting with me, having on her lap a coarse brown pan,
shelling peas, slicing beans, picking gooseberries; her fingers--Miss
March's fair fingers--looking fairer for the contrast with their
unaccustomed work.  Or else, in the summer evenings, she would be at
the window sewing--always sewing--but so placed that with one glance
she could see down the street where John was coming.  Far, far off she
always saw him; and at the sight her whole face would change and
brighten, like a meadow when the sun comes out.  Then she ran to open
the door, and I could hear his low "my darling!" and a long, long
pause, in the hall.

They were very, very happy in those early days--those quiet days of
poverty; when they visited nobody, and nobody visited them; when their
whole world was bounded by the dark old house and the garden, with its
four high walls.

One July night, I remember, John and I were walking up and down the
paths by star-light.  It was very hot weather, inclining one to stay
without doors half the night.  Ursula had been with us a good while,
strolling about on her husband's arm; then he had sent her in to rest,
and we two remained out together.

How soft they were, those faint, misty, summer stars! what a
mysterious, perfumy haze they let fall over us!--A haze through which
all around seemed melting away in delicious intangible sweetness, in
which the very sky above our heads--the shining, world-besprinkled
sky--was a thing felt rather than seen.

"How strange all seems! how unreal!" said John, in a low voice, when he
had walked the length of the garden in silence.  "Phineas, how very
strange it seems!"

"What seems?"

"What?--oh, everything."  He hesitated a minute.  "No, not
everything--but something which to me seems now to fill and be mixed up
with all I do, or think, or feel.  Something you do not know--but
to-night Ursula said I might tell you."

Nevertheless he was several minutes before he told me.

"This pear-tree is full of fruit--is it not?  How thick they hang and
yet it seems but yesterday that Ursula and I were standing here, trying
to count the blossoms."

He stopped--touching a branch with his hand.  His voice sank so I could
hardly hear it.

"Do you know, Phineas, that when this tree is bare--we shall, if with
God's blessing all goes well--we shall have--a little child."

I wrung his hand in silence.

"You cannot imagine how strange it feels.  A child--hers and
mine--little feet to go pattering about our house--a little voice to
say--Think, that by Christmas-time I shall be a FATHER."

He sat down on the garden-bench, and did not speak for a long time.

"I wonder," he said at last, "if, when I was born, MY father was as
young as I am:  whether he felt as I do now.  You cannot think what an
awful joy it is to be looking forward to a child; a little soul of
God's giving, to be made fit for His eternity.  How shall we do it! we
that are both so ignorant, so young--she will be only just nineteen
when, please God, her baby is born.  Sometimes, of an evening, we sit
for hours on this bench, she and I, talking of what we ought to do, and
how we ought to rear the little thing, until we fall into silence, awed
at the blessing that is coming to us."

"God will help you both, and make you wise."

"We trust He will; and then we are not afraid."

A little while longer I sat by John's side, catching the dim outline of
his face, half uplifted, looking towards those myriad worlds, which we
are taught to believe, and do believe, are not more precious in the
Almighty sight than one living human soul.

But he said no more of the hope that was coming, or of the thoughts
which, in the holy hush of that summer night, had risen out of the deep
of his heart.  And though after this time they never again formed
themselves into words, yet he knew well that not a hope, or joy, or
fear of his, whether understood or not, could be unshared by me.

In the winter, when the first snow lay on the ground, the little one
came.

It was a girl--I think they had wished for a son; but they forgot all
about it when the tiny maiden appeared.  She was a pretty baby--at
least, all the women-kind said so, from Mrs. Jessop down to Jael, who
left our poor house to its own devices, and trod stately in Mrs.
Halifax's, exhibiting to all beholders the mass of white draperies with
the infinitesimal human morsel inside them, which she vehemently
declared was the very image of its father.

For that young father--

But I--what can _I_ say?  How should _I_ tell of the joy of a man over
his first-born?

I did not see John till a day afterwards--when he came into our house,
calm, happy, smiling.  But Jael told me, that when she first placed his
baby in his arms he had wept like a child.

The little maiden grew with the snowdrops.  Winter might have dropped
her out of his very lap, so exceedingly fair, pale, and pure-looking
was she.  I had never seen, or at least never noticed, any young baby
before; but she crept into my heart before I was aware.  I seem to have
a clear remembrance of all the data in her still and quiet infancy,
from the time her week-old fingers, with their tiny pink nails--a
ludicrous picture of her father's hand in little--made me smile as they
closed over mine.

She was named Muriel--after the rather peculiar name of John's mother.
Her own mother would have it so; only wishing out of her full heart,
happy one! that there should be a slight alteration made in the second
name.  Therefore the baby was called Muriel Joy--Muriel Joy Halifax.

That name--beautiful, sacred, and never-to-be-forgotten among us--I
write it now with tears.

          *          *          *          *          *

In December, 1802, she was born--our Muriel.  And on February
9th--alas! I have need to remember the date!--she formally received her
name.  We all dined at John's house--Dr. and Mrs. Jessop, my father and
I.

It was the first time my father had taken a meal under any roof but his
own for twenty years.  We had not expected him, since, when asked and
entreated, he only shook his head; but just when we were all sitting
down to the table, Ursula at the foot, her cheeks flushed, and her lips
dimpling with a house-wifely delight that everything was so nice and
neat, she startled us by a little cry of pleasure.  And there, in the
doorway, stood my father!

His broad figure, but slightly bent even now, his smooth-shaven face,
withered, but of a pale brown still, with the hard lines softening
down, and the keen eyes kinder than they used to be; dressed carefully
in his First-day clothes, the stainless white kerchief supporting his
large chin, his Quaker's hat in one hand, his stick in the other,
looking in at us, a half-amused twitch mingling with the gravity of his
mouth--thus he stood--thus I see thee, O my dear old father!

The young couple seemed as if they never could welcome him enough. He
only said, "I thank thee, John," "I thank thee, Ursula;" and took his
place beside the latter, giving no reason why he had changed his mind
and come.  Simple as the dinner was--simple as befitted those who,
their guests knew, could not honestly afford luxuries; though there
were no ornaments, save the centre nosegay of laurustinus and white
Christmas roses--I do not think King George himself ever sat down to a
nobler feast.

Afterwards we drew merrily round the fire, or watched outside the
window the thickly falling snow.

"It has not snowed these two months," said John; "never since the day
our little girl was born."

And at that moment, as if she heard herself mentioned, and was
indignant at our having forgotten her so long, the little maid
up-stairs set up a cry--that unmistakable child's cry, which seems to
change the whole atmosphere of a household.

My father gave a start--he had never seen or expressed a wish to see
John's daughter.  We knew he did not like babies.  Again the little
helpless wail; Ursula rose and stole away--Abel Fletcher looked after
her with a curious expression, then began to say something about going
back to the tan-yard.

"Do not, pray do not leave us," John entreated; "Ursula wants to show
you our little lady."

My father put out his hands in deprecation; or as if desiring to thrust
from him a host of thronging, battling thoughts.  Still, came faintly
down at intervals the tiny voice, dropping into a soft coo of pleasure,
like a wood-dove in its nest--every mother knows the sound. And then
Mrs. Halifax entered holding in her arms her little winter flower, her
baby daughter.

Abel Fletcher just looked at it and her--closed his eyes against both,
and looked no more.

Ursula seemed pained a moment, but soon forgot it in the general
admiration of her treasure.

"She might well come in a snow-storm," said Mrs. Jessop, taking the
child.  "She is just like snow, so soft and white."

"And as soundless--she hardly ever cries.  She just lies in this way
half the day over, cooing quietly, with her eyes shut.  There, she has
caught your dress fast.  Now, was there ever a two months' old baby so
quick at noticing things? and she does it all with her fingers--she
touches everything;--ah! take care, doctor," the mother added,
reproachfully, at a loud slam of the door, which made the baby tremble
all over.

"I never knew a child so susceptible of sounds," said John, as he began
talking to it and soothing it;--how strange it was to see him! and yet
it seemed quite natural already.  "I think even now she knows the
difference between her mother's voice and mine; and any sudden noise
always startles her in this way."

"She must have astonishingly quick hearing," said the doctor, slightly
annoyed.  Ursula wisely began to talk of something else--showed
Muriel's eyelashes, very long for such a baby--and descanted on the
colour of her eyes, that fruitful and never-ending theme of mothers and
friends.

"I think they are like her father's; yes, certainly like her father's.
But we have not many opportunities of judging, for she is such a lazy
young damsel, she hardly ever opens them--we should often fancy her
asleep, but for that little soft coo; and then she will wake up all of
a sudden.  There now! do you see her?  Come to the window, my beauty!
and show Dr. Jessop your bonny brown eyes."

They were bonny eyes! lovely in shape and colour, delicately fringed;
but there was something strange in their expression--or rather, in
their want of it.  Many babies have a round, vacant stare--but this was
no stare, only a wide, full look--a look of quiet blankness--an
UNSEEING look.

It caught Dr. Jessop's notice.  I saw his air of vexed dignity change
into a certain anxiety.

"Well, whose are they like--her father's or mine?  His, I hope--it will
be the better for her beauty.  Nay, we'll excuse all compliments."

"I--I can't exactly tell.  I could judge better by candlelight."

"We'll have candles."

"No--no!  Had we not better put it off altogether, till another
day?--I'll call in to-morrow and look at her eyes."

His manner was hesitating and troubled.  John noticed it.

"Love, give her to me.  Go and get us lights, will you?"

When she was gone, John took his baby to the window, gazed long and
intently into her little face, then at Dr. Jessop.  "Do you
think--no--it's not possible--that there can be anything the matter
with the child's eyes?"

Ursula coming in, heard the last words.

"What was that you said about baby's eyes?"

No one answered her.  All were gathered in a group at the window, the
child being held on her father's lap, while Dr. Jessop was trying to
open the small white lids, kept so continually closed.  At last the
baby uttered a little cry of pain--the mother darted forward, and
clasped it almost savagely to her breast.

"I will not have my baby hurt!  There is nothing wrong with her sweet
eyes.  Go away; you shall not touch her, John."

"Love!"

She melted at that low, fond word; leaning against his shoulder--trying
to control her tears.

"It shocked me so--the bare thought of such a thing.  Oh! husband,
don't let her be looked at again."

"Only once again, my darling.  It is best.  Then we shall be quite
satisfied.  Phineas, give me the candle."

The words--caressing, and by strong constraint made calm and
soothing--were yet firm.  Ursula resisted no more, but let him take
Muriel--little, unconscious, cooing dove!  Lulled by her father's voice
she once more opened her eyes wide.  Dr. Jessop passed the candle
before them many times, once so close that it almost touched her face;
but the full, quiet eyes, never blenched nor closed.  He set the light
down.

"Doctor!" whispered the father, in a wild appeal against--ay, it was
against certainty.  He snatched the candle, and tried the experiment
himself.

"She does not see at all.  Can she be blind?"

"Born blind."

Yes, those pretty baby-eyes were dark--quite dark.  There was nothing
painful nor unnatural in their look, save, perhaps, the blankness of
gaze which I have before noticed.  Outwardly, their organization was
perfect; but in the fine inner mechanism was something wrong--something
wanting.  She never had seen--never would see--in this world.

"BLIND!"  The word was uttered softly, hardly above a breath, yet the
mother heard it.  She pushed every one aside, and took the child
herself.  Herself, with a desperate incredulity, she looked into those
eyes, which never could look back either her agony or her love. Poor
mother!

"John! John! oh, John!"--the name rising into a cry, as if he could
surely help her.  He came and took her in his arms--took both, wife and
babe.  She laid her head on his shoulder in bitter weeping.  "Oh, John!
it is so hard.  Our pretty one--our own little child!"

John did not speak, but only held her to him--close and fast.  When she
was a little calmer he whispered to her the comfort--the sole comfort
even her husband could give her--through whose will it was that this
affliction came.

"And it is more an affliction to you than it will be to her, poor pet!"
said Mrs. Jessop, as she wiped her friendly eyes.  "She will not miss
what she never knew.  She may be a happy little child. Look, how she
lies and smiles."

But the mother could not take that consolation yet.  She walked to and
fro, and stood rocking her baby, mute indeed, but with tears falling in
showers.  Gradually her anguish wept itself away, or was smothered
down, lest it should disturb the little creature asleep on her breast.

Some one came behind her, and placed her in the arm-chair, gently. It
was my father.  He sat down by her, taking her hand.

"Grieve not, Ursula.  I had a little brother who was blind.  He was the
happiest creature I ever knew."

My father sighed.  We all marvelled to see the wonderful softness, even
tenderness, which had come into him.

"Give me thy child for a minute."  Ursula laid it across his knees; he
put his hand solemnly on the baby-breast.  "God bless this little one!
Ay, and she shall be blessed."

These words, spoken with as full assurance as the prophetic benediction
of the departing patriarchs of old, struck us all.  We looked at little
Muriel as if the blessing were already upon her; as if the mysterious
touch which had scaled up her eyes for ever had left on her a sanctity
like as of one who has been touched by the finger of God.

"Now, children, I must go home," said my father.

They did not detain us:  it was indeed best that the poor young parents
should be left alone.

"You will come again soon?" begged Ursula, tenderly clasping the hand
which he had laid upon her curls as he rose with another murmured "God
bless thee!"

"Perhaps.  We never know.  Be a good wife to thy husband, my girl. And
John, never be thou harsh to her, nor too hard upon her little
failings.  She is but young--but young."

He sighed again.  It was plain to see he was thinking of another than
Ursula.

As we walked down the street he spoke to me only once or twice, and
then of things which startled me by their strangeness--things which had
happened a long time ago; sayings and doings of mine in my childhood,
which I had not the least idea he had either known of or remembered.

When we got in-doors I asked if I should come and sit with him till his
bed-time.

"No--no; thee looks tired, and I have a business letter to write.
Better go to thy bed as usual."

I bade him good-night, and was going, when he called me back.

"How old art thee, Phineas--twenty-four or five?"

"Twenty-five, father."

"Eh! so much?"  He put his hand on my shoulder, and looked down on me
kindly, even tenderly.  "Thee art but weakly still, but thee must pick
up, and live to be as old a man as thy father.  Goodnight.  God be with
thee, my son!"

I left him.  I was happy.  Once I had never expected my old father and
I would have got on together so well, or loved one another so dearly.

In the middle of the night Jael came into my room, and sat down on my
bed's foot, looking at me.  I had been dreaming strangely, about my own
childish days, and about my father and mother when we were young.

What Jael told me--by slow degrees, and as tenderly as when she was my
nurse years ago--seemed at first so unreal as to be like a part of the
dream.

At ten o'clock, when she had locked up the house, she had come as usual
to the parlour door, to tell my father it was bed-time.  He did not
answer, being sitting with his back to the door, apparently busy
writing.  So she went away.

Half an hour afterwards she came again.  He sat there still--he had not
moved.  One hand supported his head; the other, the fingers stiffly
holding the pen, lay on the table.  He seemed intently gazing on what
he had written.  It ran thus:

"GOOD FRIEND,

          "To-morrow I shall be--"

But there the hand had stopped--for ever.

O dear father! on that to-morrow thou wert with God.



CHAPTER XXII

It was the year 1812.  I had lived for ten years as a brother in my
adopted brother's house, whither he had brought me on the day of my
father's funeral; entreating that I should never leave it again. For,
as was shortly afterwards made clear, fate--say Providence--was now
inevitably releasing him from a bond, from which, so long as my poor
father lived, John would never have released himself.  It was
discovered that the profits of the tanning trade had long been merely
nominal--that of necessity, for the support of our two families, the
tan-yard must be sold, and the business confined entirely to the
flour-mill.

At this crisis, as if the change of all things broke her stout old
heart, which never could bend to any new ways--Jael died.  We laid her
at my father's and mother's feet--poor old Jael! and that grave-yard in
St. Mary's Lane now covered over all who loved me, all who were of my
youth day--my very own.

So thought I--or might have thought--but that John and Ursula then
demanded with one voice, "Brother, come home."

I resisted long:  for it is one of my decided opinions that married
people ought to have no one, be the tie ever so close and dear, living
permanently with them, to break the sacred duality--no, let me say the
unity of their home.

I wished to try and work for my living, if that were possible--if not,
that out of the wreck of my father's trade might be found enough to
keep me, in some poor way.  But John Halifax would not hear of that.
And Ursula--she was sitting sewing, while the little one lay on her
lap, cooing softly with shut eyes--Ursula took my hand to play with
Muriel's.  The baby fingers closed over mine--"See there, Phineas; SHE
wants you too."  So I stayed.

Perhaps it was on this account that better than all his other children,
better than anything on earth except himself, I loved John's eldest
daughter, little blind Muriel.

He had several children now.  The dark old house, and the square town
garden, were alive with their voices from morning till night.  First,
and loudest always, was Guy--born the year after Muriel.  He was very
like his mother, and her darling.  After him came two more, Edwin and
Walter.  But Muriel still remained as "sister"--the only sister either
given or desired.

If I could find a name to describe that child it would be not the one
her happy mother gave her at her birth, but one more sacred, more
tender.  She was better than Joy--she was an embodied Peace.

Her motions were slow and tranquil--her voice soft--every expression of
her little face extraordinarily serene.  Whether creeping about the
house, with a foot-fall silent as snow, or sitting among us, either
knitting busily at her father's knee, or listening to his talk and the
children's play, everywhere and always Muriel was the same. No one ever
saw her angry, restless, or sad.  The soft dark calm in which she lived
seemed never broken by the troubles of this our troublous world.

She was, as I have said, from her very babyhood a living peace.  And
such she was to us all, during those ten struggling years, when our
household had much to contend with, much to endure.  If at night her
father came home jaded and worn, sickened to the soul by the hard
battle he had to fight daily, hourly, with the outside world, Muriel
would come softly and creep into his bosom, and he was comforted. If,
busying herself about, doing faithfully her portion too, that the
husband when he came in of evenings might find all cheerful and never
know how heavy had been the household cares during the day--if, at
times, Ursula's voice took too sharp a tone, at sight of Muriel it
softened at once.  No one could speak any but soft and sweet words when
the blind child was by.

Yet, I think either parent would have looked amazed had any one pitied
them for having a blind child.  The loss--a loss only to them, and not
to her, the darling!--became familiar, and ceased to wound; the
blessedness was ever new.  "Ay, and she shall be blessed," had said my
dear father.  So she was.  From her, or for her, her parents never had
to endure a single pain.  Even the sicknesses of infancy and childhood,
of which the three others had their natural share, always passed her
by, as if in pity.  Nothing ever ailed Muriel.

The spring of 1812 was an era long remembered in our family.  Scarlet
fever went through the house--safely, but leaving much care behind.
When at last they all came round, and we were able to gather our pale
little flock to a garden feast, under the big old pear-tree, it was
with the trembling thankfulness of those who have gone through great
perils, hardly dared to be recognized as such till they were over.

"Ay, thank God it is over!" said John, as he put his arm round his
wife, and looked in her worn face, where still her own smile
lingered--her bright, brave smile, that nothing could ever drive away.
"And now we must try and make a little holiday for you."

"Nonsense!  I am as well as possible.  Did not Dr. Jessop tell me, this
morning, I was looking younger than ever?  I--a mother of a family,
thirty years old?  Pray, Uncle Phineas, do I look my age?"

I could not say she did not--especially now.  But she wore it so
gracefully, so carelessly, that I saw--ay, and truly her husband saw--a
sacred beauty about her jaded cheek, more lovely and lovable than all
the bloom of her youth.  Happy woman! who was not afraid of growing old.

"Love"--John usually called her "Love"--putting it at the beginning of
a sentence, as if it had been her natural Christian name--which, as in
all infant households, had been gradually dropped or merged into the
universal title of "Mother."  My name for her was always emphatically
"The Mother"--the truest type of motherhood I ever knew.

"Love," her husband began again, after a long look in her face--ah,
John, thine was altered too, but himself was the last thing he thought
of--"say what you like--I know what we'll do:  for the children's sake.
Ah, that's her weak point;--see, Phineas, she is yielding now.  We'll
go for three months to Longfield."

Now Longfield was the Utopia of our family, old and young.  A very
simple family we must have been--for this Longfield was only a small
farm-house, about six miles off, where once we had been to tea, and
where ever since we had longed to live.  For, pretty as our domain had
grown, it was still in the middle of a town, and the children, like all
naturally-reared children, craved after the freedom of the
country--after corn-fields, hay-fields, nuttings,
blackberryings--delights hitherto known only at rare intervals, when
their father could spare a whole long day, and be at once the sun and
the shield of the happy little band.

"Hearken, children! father says we shall go for three whole months to
live at Longfield."

The three boys set up a shout of ecstacy.

"I'll swim boats down the stream, and catch and ride every one of the
horses.  Hurrah!" shouted Guy.

"And I'll see after the ducks and chickens, and watch all the threshing
and winnowing," said Edwin, the practical and grave.

"And I'll get a 'ittle 'amb to p'ay wid me," lisped Walter--still "the
baby"--or considered such, and petted accordingly.

"But what does my little daughter say?" said the father, turning--as he
always turned, at the lightest touch of those soft, blind fingers,
creeping along his coat sleeve.  "What will Muriel do at Longfield?"

"Muriel will sit all day and hear the birds sing."

"So she shall, my blessing!"  He often called her his "blessing," which
in truth she was.  To see her now leaning her cheek against his--the
small soft face, almost a miniature of his own, the hair, a paler shade
of the same bright colour, curling in the same elastic rings--they
looked less like ordinary father and daughter, than like a man and his
good angel; the visible embodiment of the best half of his soul.  So
she was ever to him, this child of his youth--his first-born and his
dearest.

The Longfield plan being once started, father and mother and I began to
consult together as to ways and means; what should be given up, and
what increased, of our absolute luxuries, in order that the children
might this summer--possibly every summer--have the glory of "living in
the country."  Of these domestic consultations there was never any
dread, for they were always held in public.  There were no secrets in
our house.  Father and mother, though sometimes holding different
opinions, had but one thought, one aim--the family good. Thus, even in
our lowest estate there had been no bitterness in our poverty; we met
it, looked it in the face, often even laughed at it. For it bound us
all together, hand in hand; it taught us endurance, self-dependence,
and, best of all lessons, self-renunciation.  I think, one's whole
after-life is made easier and more blessed by having known what it was
to be very poor when one was young.

Our fortunes were rising now, and any little pleasure did not take near
so much contrivance.  We found we could manage the Longfield visit--ay,
and a horse for John to ride to and fro--without any worse sacrifice
than that of leaving Jenny--now Mrs. Jem Watkins, but our cook
still--in the house at Norton Bury, and doing with one servant instead
of two.  Also, though this was not publicly known till afterwards, by
the mother's renouncing a long-promised silk dress--the only one since
her marriage, in which she had determined to astonish John by choosing
the same colour as that identical grey gown he had seen hanging up in
the kitchen at Enderley.

"But one would give up anything," she said, "that the children might
have such a treat, and that father might have rides backwards and
forwards through green lanes all summer.  Oh, how I wish we could
always live in the country!"

"Do you?"  And John looked--much as he had looked at long-tailed grey
ponies in his bridegroom days--longing to give her every thing she
desired.  "Well, perhaps, we may manage it some time."

"When our ship comes in--namely, that money which Richard Brithwood
will not pay, and John Halifax will not go to law to make him.  Nay,
father dear, I am not going to quarrel with any one of your crotchets."
She spoke with a fond pride, as she did always, even when arguing
against the too Quixotic carrying out of the said crotchets.  "Perhaps,
as the reward of forbearance, the money will come some day when we
least expect it; then John shall have his heart's desire, and start the
cloth-mills at Enderley."

John smiled, half-sadly.  Every man has a hobby--this was his, and had
been for fifteen years.  Not merely the making a fortune, as he still
firmly believed it could be made, but the position of useful power, the
wide range of influence, the infinite opportunities of doing good.

"No, love; I shall never be 'patriarch of the valley,' as Phineas used
to call it.  The yew-hedge is too thick for me, eh, Phineas?"

"No!" cried Ursula--we had told her this little incident of our
boyhood--"you have got half through it already.  Everybody in Norton
Bury knows and respects you.  I am sure, Phineas, you might have heard
a pin fall at the meeting last night when he spoke against hanging the
Luddites.  And such a shout as rose when he ended--oh, how proud I was!"

"Of the shout, love?"

"Nonsense!--but of the cause of it.  Proud to see my husband defending
the poor and the oppressed--proud to see him honoured and looked up to,
more and more every year, till--"

"Till it may come at last to the prophecy in your birthday verse--'Her
husband is known in the gates; he sitteth among the elders of the
land.'"

Mrs. Halifax laughed at me for reminding her of this, but allowed that
she would not dislike its being fulfilled.

"And it will be too.  He is already 'known in the gates'; known far and
near.  Think how many of our neighbours come to John to settle their
differences, instead of going to law!  And how many poachers has he not
persuaded out of their dishonest--"

"Illegal," corrected John.

"Well, their illegal ways, and made decent, respectable men of them!
Then, see how he is consulted, and his opinion followed, by rich folk
as well as poor folk, all about the neighbourhood.  I am sure John is
as popular, and has as much influence, as many a member of parliament."

John smiled with an amused twitch about his mouth, but he said nothing.
He rarely did say anything about himself--not even in his own
household.  The glory of his life was its unconsciousness--like our own
silent Severn, however broad and grand its current might be, that
course seemed the natural channel into which it flowed.

"There's Muriel," said the father, listening.

Often thus the child slipped away, and suddenly we heard all over the
house the sweet sounds of "Muriel's voice," as some one had called the
old harpsichord.  When almost a baby she would feel her way to it, and
find out first harmonies, then tunes, with that quickness and delicacy
of ear peculiar to the blind.

"How well she plays!  I wish I could buy her one of those new
instruments they call 'pianofortes;' I was looking into the mechanism
of one the other day."

"She would like an organ better.  You should have seen her face in the
Abbey church this morning."

"Hark! she has stopped playing.  Guy, run and bring your sister here,"
said the father, ever yearning after his darling.

Guy came back with a wonderful story of two gentlemen in the parlour,
one of whom had patted his head--"Such a grand gentleman, a great deal
grander than father!"

That was true, as regarded the bright nankeens, the blue coat with gold
buttons, and the showiest of cambric kerchiefs swathing him up to the
very chin.  To this "grand" personage John bowed formally, but his wife
flushed up in surprised recognition.

"It is so long since I had the happiness of meeting Miss March, that I
conclude Mrs. Halifax has forgotten me?"

"No, Lord Luxmore, allow me to introduce my husband."

And, I fancied, some of Miss March's old hauteur returned to the
mother's softened and matronly mien;--pride, but not for herself or in
herself, now.  For, truly, as the two men stood together--though Lord
Luxmore had been handsome in his youth, and was universally said to
have as fine manners as the Prince Regent himself--any woman might well
have held her head loftily, introducing John Halifax as "my husband."

Of the two, the nobleman was least at his ease, for the welcome of both
Mr. and Mrs. Halifax, though courteous, was decidedly cold. They did
not seem to feel--and, if rumour spoke true, I doubt if any honest,
virtuous, middle-class fathers and mothers would have felt--that their
house was greatly honoured or sanctified by the presence of the Earl of
Luxmore.

But the nobleman was, as I have said, wonderfully fine-mannered.  He
broke the ice at once.

"Mr. Halifax, I have long wished to know you.  Mrs. Halifax, my
daughter encouraged me to pay this impromptu visit."

Here ensued polite inquiries after Lady Caroline Brithwood; we learned
that she was just returned from abroad, and was entertaining, at the
Mythe House, her father and brother.

"Pardon--I was forgetting my son--Lord Ravenel."

The youth thus presented merely bowed.  He was about eighteen or so,
tall and spare, with thin features and large soft eyes.  He soon
retreated to the garden-door, where he stood, watching the boys play,
and shyly attempting to make friends with Muriel.

"I believe Ravenel has seen you years ago, Mrs. Halifax.  His sister
made a great pet of him as a child.  He has just completed his
education--at the College of St. Omer, was it not, William?"

"The Catholic college of St. Omer," repeated the boy.

"Tut--what matters!" said the father, sharply.  "Mr. Halifax, do not
imagine we are a Catholic family still.  I hope the next Earl of
Luxmore will be able to take the oaths and his seat, whether or no we
get Emancipation.  By the by, you uphold the Bill?"

John assented; expressing his conviction, then unhappily a rare one,
that every one's conscience is free; and that all men of blameless life
ought to be protected by, and allowed to serve, the state, whatever be
their religious opinions.

"Mr. Halifax, I entirely agree with you.  A wise man esteems all faiths
alike worthless."

"Excuse me, my lord, that was the very last thing I meant to say.  I
hold every man's faith so sacred, that no other man has a right to
interfere with it, or to question it.  The matter lies solely between
himself and his Maker."

"Exactly!  What facility of expression your husband has, Mrs. Halifax!
He must be--indeed, I have heard he is--a first-rate public speaker."

The wife smiled, wife-like; but John said, hurriedly:

"I have no pretention or ambition of the kind.  I merely now and then
try to put plain truths, or what I believe to be such, before the
people, in a form they are able to understand."

"Ay, that is it.  My dear sir, the people have no more brains than the
head of my cane (his Royal Highness's gift, Mrs. Halifax); they must be
led or driven, like a flock of sheep.  We"--a lordly "we!"--"are their
proper shepherds.  But, then, we want a middle class--at least, an
occasional voice from it, a--"

"A shepherd's dog, to give tongue," said John, dryly.  "In short, a
public orator.  In the House, or out of it?"

"Both."  And the earl tapped his boot with that royal cane, smiling.
"Yes; I see you apprehend me.  But, before we commence that somewhat
delicate subject, there was another on which I desired my agent, Mr.
Brown, to obtain your valuable opinion."

"You mean, when, yesterday, he offered me, by your lordship's express
desire, the lease, lately fallen in, of your cloth-mills at Enderley?"

Now, John had not told us that!--why, his manner too plainly showed.

"And all will be arranged, I trust?  Brown says you have long wished to
take the mills; I shall be most happy to have you for a tenant."

"My lord, as I told your agent, it is impossible.  We will say no more
about it."

John crossed over to his wife with a cheerful air.  She sat looking
grave and sad.

Lord Luxmore had the reputation of being a keen-witted, diplomatic
personage; undoubtedly he had, or could assume, that winning charm of
manner which had descended in perfection to his daughter.  Both
qualities it pleased him to exercise now.  He rose, addressing with
kindly frankness the husband and wife.

"If I may ask--being a most sincere well-wisher of yours, and a sort of
connection of Mrs. Halifax's, too--why is it impossible?"

"I have no wish to disguise the reason:  it is because I have no
capital."

Lord Luxmore looked surprised.  "Surely--excuse me, but I had the
honour of being well acquainted with the late Mr. March--surely, your
wife's fortune--"

Ursula rose, in her old impetuous way--"His wife's fortune! (John, let
me say it!--I will, I must!)--of his wife's fortune, Lord Luxmore, he
has never received one farthing.  Richard Brithwood keeps it back; and
my husband would work day and night for me and our children rather than
go to law."

"Oh! on principle, I suppose?  I have heard of such opinions," said the
earl, with the slightest perceptible sneer.  "And you agree with him?"

"I do, heartily.  I would rather we lived poor all our days than that
he should wear his life out, trouble his spirit, perhaps even soil his
conscience, by squabbling with a bad man over money matters."

It was good to see Ursula as she spoke; good to see the look that
husband and his wife interchanged--husband and wife, different in many
points, yet so blessedly, so safely ONE!  Then John said, in his quiet
way,

"Love, perhaps another subject than our own affairs would be more
interesting to Lord Luxmore."

"Not at all--not at all!"  And the earl was evidently puzzled and
annoyed.  "Such extraordinary conduct," he muttered:  "so
very--ahem!--unwise.  If the matter were known--caught up by those
newspapers--I must really have a little conversation with Brithwood."

The conversation paused, and John changed it entirely by making some
remarks on the present minister, Mr. Perceval.

"I liked his last speech much.  He seems a clear-headed, honest man,
for all his dogged opposition to the Bill."

"He will never oppose it more."

"Nay, I think he will, my lord--to the death."

"That may be--and yet--" his lordship smiled.  "Mr. Halifax, I have
just had news by a carrier pigeon--my birds fly well--most important
news for us and our party.  Yesterday, in the lobby of the House of
Commons, Mr. Perceval was shot."

We all started.  An hour ago we had been reading his speech.  Mr.
Perceval shot!

"Oh, John," cried the mother, her eyes full of tears; "his poor
wife--his fatherless children!"

And for many minutes they stood, hearing the lamentable history, and
looking at their little ones at play in the garden; thinking, as many
an English father and mother did that day, of the stately house in
London, where the widow and orphans bewailed their dead.  He might or
might not be a great statesman, but he was undoubtedly a good man; many
still remember the shock of his untimely death, and how, whether or not
they liked him living, all the honest hearts of England mourned for Mr.
Perceval.

Possibly that number did not include the Earl of Luxmore.

"Requiescat in pace!  I shall propose the canonization of poor
Bellingham.  For now Perceval is dead there will be an immediate
election; and on that election depends Catholic Emancipation.  Mr.
Halifax," turning quickly round to him, "you would be of great use to
us in parliament."

"Should I?"

"Will you--I like plain speaking--will you enter it?"

Enter parliament!  John Halifax in parliament!  His wife and I were
both astounded by the suddenness of the possibility; which, however,
John himself seemed to receive as no novel idea.

Lord Luxmore continued.  "I assure you nothing is more easy; I can
bring you in at once, for a borough near here--my family borough."

"Which you wish to be held by some convenient person till Lord Ravenel
comes of age?  So Mr. Brown informed me yesterday."

Lord Luxmore slightly frowned.  Such transactions, as common then in
the service of the country as they still are in the service of the
Church, were yet generally glossed over, as if a certain discredit
attached to them.  The young lord seemed to feel it; at sound of his
name he turned round to listen, and turned back again, blushing
scarlet.  Not so the earl, his father.

"Brown is--(may I offer you a pinch, Mr. Halifax?--what, not the Prince
Regent's own mixture?)--is indeed a worthy fellow, but too hasty in his
conclusions.  As it happens, my son is yet undecided between the
Church--that is, the priesthood, and politics.  But to our
conversation--Mrs. Halifax, may I not enlist you on my side?  We could
easily remove all difficulties, such as qualification, etc. Would you
not like to see your husband member for the old and honourable borough
of Kingswell?"

"Kingswell!"  It was a tumble-down village, where John held and managed
for me the sole remnant of landed property which my poor father had
left me.  "Kingswell! why there are not a dozen houses in the place."

"The fewer the better, my dear madam.  The election would cost me
scarcely any--trouble; and the country be vastly the gainer by your
husband's talents and probity.  Of course he will give up the--I forget
what is his business now--and live independent.  He is made to shine as
a politician:  it will be both happiness and honour to myself to have
in some way contributed to that end.  Mr. Halifax, you will accept my
borough?"

"Not on any consideration your lordship could offer me."

Lord Luxmore scarcely credited his ears.  "My dear sir--you are the
most extraordinary--may I again inquire your reasons?"

"I have several; one will suffice.  Though I wish to gain
influence--power perhaps; still the last thing I should desire would be
political influence."

"You might possibly escape that unwelcome possession," returned the
earl.  "Half the House of Commons is made up of harmless dummies, who
vote as we bid them."

"A character, my lord, for which I am decidedly unfitted.  Until
political conscience ceases to be a thing of traffic, until the people
are allowed honestly to choose their own honest representatives, I must
decline being of that number.  Shall we dismiss the subject?"

"With pleasure, sir."

And courtesy being met by courtesy, the question so momentous was
passed over, and merged into trivialities.  Perhaps the earl, who, as
his pleasures palled, was understood to be fixing his keen wits upon
the pet profligacy of old age, politics--saw, clearly enough, that in
these chaotic days of contending parties, when the maddened outcry of
the "people" was just being heard and listened to, it might be as well
not to make an enemy of this young man, who, with a few more, stood as
it were midway in the gulf, now slowly beginning to narrow, between the
commonalty and the aristocracy.  He stayed some time longer, and then
bowed himself away with a gracious condescension worthy of the Prince
of Wales himself, carrying with him the shy, gentle Lord Ravenel, who
had spoken scarcely six words the whole time.

When he was gone the father and mother seemed both relieved.

"Truly, John, he has gained little by his visit, and I hope it may be
long before we see an earl in our quiet house again.  Come in to
dinner, my children."

But his lordship had left an uncomfortable impression behind him.  It
lasted even until that quiet hour--often the quietest and happiest of
our day--when, the children being all in bed, we elders closed in round
the fire.

Ursula and I sat there, longer alone than usual.

"John is late to-night," she said more than once; and I could see her
start, listening to every foot under the window, every touch at the
door-bell; not stirring, though:  she knew his foot and his ring quite
well always.

"There he is!" we both said at once--much relieved; and John came in.

Brightness always came in with him.  Whatever cares he had without--and
they were heavy enough, God knows--they always seemed to slip off the
moment he entered his own door; and whatever slight cares we had at
home, we put them aside; as they could not but be put aside, nay,
forgotten--at the sight of him.

"Well, Uncle Phineas!  Children all right, my darling?  A fire!  I'm
glad of it.  Truly to-night is as cold as November."

"John, if you have a weakness, it is for fire.  You're a regular
salamander."

He laughed--warming his hands at the blaze.  "Yes, I would rather be
hungry than cold, any day.  Love, our one extravagance is certainly
coals.  A grand fire this!  I do like it so!"

She called him "foolish;" but smoothed down with a quiet kiss the
forehead he lifted up to her as she stood beside him, looking as if she
would any day have converted the whole house into fuel for his own
private and particular benefit.

"Little ones all in bed, of course?"

"Indeed, they would have lain awake half the night--those naughty
boys--talking of Longfield.  You never saw children so delighted."

"Are they?"  I thought the tone was rather sad, and that the father sat
listening with less interest than usual to the pleasant little
household chronicle, always wonderful and always new, which it was his
custom to ask for and have, night after night, when he came
home,--saying it was to him, after his day's toil, like a "babbling o'
green fields."  Soon it stopped.

"John dear, you are very tired?"

"Rather."

"Have you been very busy all day?"

"Very busy."

I understood, almost as well as his wife did, what those brief answers
indicated; so, stealing away to the table where Guy's blurred copy-book
and Edwin's astonishing addition sums were greatly in need of Uncle
Phineas, I left the fire-side corner to those two.  Soon John settled
himself in my easy chair, and then one saw how very weary he was--weary
in body and soul alike--weary as we seldom beheld him.  It went to my
heart to watch the listless stretch of his large, strong frame--the
sharp lines about his mouth--lines which ought not to have come there
in his two-and-thirty years.  And his eyes--they hardly looked like
John's eyes, as they gazed in a sort of dull quietude, too anxious to
be dreamy, into the red coals--and nowhere else.

At last he roused himself, and took up his wife's work.

"More little coats!  Love, you are always sewing."

"Mothers must--you know.  And I think never did boys outgrow their
things like our boys.  It is pleasant, too.  If only clothes did not
wear out so fast."

"Ah!"  A sigh--from the very depths of the father's heart.

"Not a bit too fast for my clever fingers, though," said Ursula,
quickly.  "Look, John, at this lovely braiding.  But I'm not going to
do any more of it.  I shall certainly have no time to waste over
fineries at Longfield."

Her husband took up the fanciful work, admired it, and laid it down
again.  After a pause he said:

"Should you be very much disappointed if--if we do not go to Longfield
after all?"

"Not go to Longfield!"  The involuntary exclamation showed how deep her
longing had been.

"Because I am afraid--it is hard, I know--but I am afraid we cannot
manage it.  Are you very sorry?"

"Yes," she said frankly and truthfully.  "Not so much for myself,
but--the children."

"Ay, the poor children."

Ursula stitched away rapidly for some moments, till the grieved look
faded out of her face; then she turned it, all cheerful once more, to
her husband.  "Now, John, tell me.  Never mind about the children. Tell
me."

He told her, as was his habit at all times, of some losses which had
to-day befallen him--bad debts in his business--which would make it, if
not impracticable, at least imprudent, to enter on any new expenses
that year.  Nay, he must, if possible, retrench a little. Ursula
listened, without question, comment, or complaint.

"Is that all?" she said at last, very gently.

"All."

"Then never mind.  I do not.  We will find some other pleasures for the
children.  We have so many pleasures, ay, all of us.  Husband, it is
not so hard to give up this one."

He said, in a whisper, low almost as a lover's, "I could give up
anything in the world but them and thee."

So, with a brief information to me at supper-time--"Uncle Phineas, did
you hear? we cannot go to Longfield,"--the renunciation was made, and
the subject ended.  For this year, at least, our Arcadian dream was
over.

But John's troubled looks did not pass away.  It seemed as if this
night his long toil had come to that crisis when the strongest man
breaks down--or trembles within a hair's breadth of breaking down;
conscious too, horribly conscious, that if so, himself will be the
least part of the universal ruin.  His face was haggard, his movements
irritable and restless; he started nervously at every sound.  Sometimes
even a hasty word, an uneasiness about trifles, showed how strong was
the effort he made at self-control.  Ursula, usually by far the most
quick-tempered of the two, became to-night mild and patient.  She
neither watched nor questioned him--wise woman as she was; she only sat
still, busying herself over her work, speaking now and then of little
things, lest he should notice her anxiety about him.  He did at last.

"Nay, I am not ill, do not be afraid.  Only my head aches so--let me
lay it here as the children do."

His wife made a place for it on her shoulder; there it rested--the poor
tired head, until gradually the hard and painful expression of the
features relaxed, and it became John's own natural face--as quiet as
any of the little faces on their pillows up-stairs, whence, doubtless,
slumber had long banished all anticipation of Longfield. At last he too
fell asleep.

Ursula held up her finger, that I might not stir.  The clock in the
corner, and the soft sobbing of the flame on the hearth, were the only
sounds in the parlour.  She sewed on quietly, to the end of her work;
then let it drop on her lap, and sat still.  Her cheek leaned itself
softly against John's hair, and in her eyes, which seemed so intently
contemplating the little frock, I saw large bright tears gather--fall.
But her look was serene, nay, happy; as if she thought of these beloved
ones, husband and children--her very own--preserved to her in health
and peace,--ay, and in that which is better than either, the unity of
love.  For that priceless blessing, for the comfort of being HIS
comfort, for the sweetness of bringing up these his children in the
fear of God and in the honour of their father--she, true wife and
mother as she was, would not have exchanged the wealth of the whole
world.

"What's that?"  We all started, as a sudden ring at the bell pealed
through the house, waking John, and frightening the very children in
their beds.  All for a mere letter too, brought by a lacquey of Lord
Luxmore's.  Having--somewhat indignantly--ascertained this fact, the
mother ran upstairs to quiet her little ones.  When she came down, John
still stood with the letter in his hand.  He had not told me what it
was; when I chanced to ask he answered in a low tone--"Presently!"  On
his wife's entrance he gave her the letter without a word.

Well might it startle her into a cry of joy.  Truly the dealings of
heaven to us were wonderful!


"Mr. John Halifax.

"SIR,

"Your wife, Ursula Halifax, having some time since attained
the age fixed by her late father as her majority, I will, within a
month after date, pay over to your order all moneys, principal and
interest, accruing to her, and hitherto left in my hands, as trustee,
according to the will of the late Henry March, Esquire.

          "I am, sir,
              "Yours, etc.,
                    "RICHARD BRITHWOOD."


"Wonderful--wonderful!"

It was all I could say.  That one bad man, for his own purposes, should
influence another bad man to an act of justice--and that their double
evil should be made to work out our good!  Also, that this should come
just in our time of need--when John's strength seemed ready to fail.

"Oh John--John! now you need not work so hard!"

That was his wife's first cry, as she clung to him almost in tears.

He too was a good deal agitated.  This sudden lifting of the burthen
made him feel how heavy it had been--how terrible the
responsibility--how sickening the fear.

"Thank God!  In any case, you are quite safe now--you and the children!"

He sat down, very pale.  His wife knelt beside him, and put her arms
around his neck--I quietly went out of the room.

When I came in again, they were standing by the fire-side--both
cheerful, as two people to whom had happened such unexpected good
fortune might naturally be expected to appear.  I offered my
congratulations in rather a comical vein than otherwise; we all of us
had caught John's habit of putting things in a comic light whenever he
felt them keenly.

"Yes, he is a rich man now--mind you treat your brother with extra
respect, Phineas."

"And your sister too.

    'For she sall walk in silk attire,
        And siller hae to spare.'

She's quite young and handsome still--isn't she?  How magnificent
she'll look in that grey silk gown!"

"John, you ought to be ashamed of yourself! you--the father of a
family! you--that are to be the largest mill-owner at Enderley--"

He looked at her fondly, half deprecatingly.  "Not till I have made you
and the children all safe--as I said."

"We are safe--quite safe--when we have you.  Oh, Phineas! make him see
it as I do.  Make him understand that it will be the happiest day in
his wife's life when she knows him happy in his heart's desire."

We sat a little while longer, talking over the strange change in our
fortunes--for they wished to make me feel that now, as ever, what was
theirs was mine; then Ursula took her candle to depart.

"Love!" John cried, calling her back as she shut the door, and watching
her stand there patient--watching with something of the old mischievous
twinkle in his eyes.  "Mrs. Halifax, when shall I have the honour of
ordering your long-tailed grey ponies?"



CHAPTER XXIII

Not many weeks afterwards we went to live at Longfield, which
henceforth became the family home for many years.

Longfield! happy Longfield! little nest of love, and joy, and
peace--where the children grew up, and we grew old--where season after
season brought some new change ripening in us and around us--where
summer and winter, day and night, the hand of God's providence was over
our roof, blessing our goings out and our comings in, our basket and
our store; crowning us with the richest blessing of all, that we were
made a household where "brethren dwelt together in unity." Beloved
Longfield! my heart, slow pulsing as befits one near the grave, thrills
warm and young as I remember thee!

Yet how shall I describe it--the familiar spot; so familiar that it
seems to need no description at all.

It was but a small place when we first came there.  It led out of the
high-road by a field-gate--the White Gate; from which a narrow path
wound down to a stream, thence up a green slope to the house; a mere
farm-house, nothing more.  It had one parlour, three decent bedrooms,
kitchen and out-houses; we built extempore chambers out of the barn and
cheese-room.  In one of these the boys, Guy and Edwin, slept, against
the low roof of which the father generally knocked his head every
morning when he came to call the lads.  Its windows were open all
summer round, and birds and bats used oftentimes to fly in, to the
great delight of the youthful inmates.

Another infinite pleasure to the little folk was that for the first
year, the farm-house kitchen was made our dining-room.  There, through
the open door, Edwin's pigeons, Muriel's two doves, and sometimes a
stately hen, walked in and out at pleasure.  Whether our live stock,
brought up in the law of kindness, were as well-trained and
well-behaved as our children, I cannot tell; but certain it is that we
never found any harm from this system, necessitated by our early
straits at Longfield--this "liberty, fraternity, and equality."

Those words, in themselves true and lovely, but wrested to false
meaning, whose fatal sound was now dying out of Europe, merged in the
equally false and fatal shout of "Gloire! gloire!" remind me of an
event which I believe was the first that broke the delicious monotony
of our new life.

It was one September morning.  Mrs. Halifax, the children, and I were
down at the stream, planning a bridge across it, and a sort of stable,
where John's horse might be put up--the mother had steadily resisted
the long-tailed grey ponies.  For with all the necessary improvements
at Longfield, with the large settlement that John insisted upon making
on his wife and children, before he would use in his business any
portion of her fortune, we found we were by no means so rich as to make
any great change in our way of life advisable. And, after all, the
mother's best luxuries were to see her children merry and strong, her
husband's face lightened of its care, and to know he was now placed
beyond doubt in the position he had always longed for; for was he not
this very day gone to sign the lease of Enderley Mills?

Mrs. Halifax had just looked at her watch, and she and I were
wondering, with quite a childish pleasure, whether he were not now
signing the important deed, when Guy came running to say a
coach-and-four was trying to enter the White Gate.

"Who can it be?--But they must be stopped, or they'll spoil John's new
gravel road that he takes such pride in.  Uncle Phineas, would you mind
going to see?"

Who should I see, but almost the last person I expected--who had not
been beheld, hardly spoken of, in our household these ten years--Lady
Caroline Brithwood, in her travelling-habit of green cloth, her velvet
riding-hat, with its Prince of Wales' feathers, gayer than ever--though
her pretty face was withering under the paint, and her lively manner
growing coarse and bold.

"Is this Longfield?--Does Mr. Halifax--mon Dieu, Mr. Fletcher, is that
you?"

She held out her hand with the frankest condescension, and in the
brightest humour in the world.  She insisted on sending on the
carriage, and accompanying me down to the stream, for a "surprise"--a
"scene."

Mrs. Halifax, seeing the coach drive on, had evidently forgotten all
about it.  She stood in the little dell which the stream had made,
Walter in her arms--her figure thrown back, so as to poise the child's
weight.  Her right hand kept firm hold of Guy, who was paddling
barefoot in the stream:  Edwin, the only one of the boys who never gave
any trouble, was soberly digging away, beside little Muriel.

The lady clapped her hands.  "Brava! bravissima! a charming family
picture, Mrs. Halifax."

"Lady Caroline!"

Ursula left her children, and came to greet her old acquaintance, whom
she had never once seen since she was Ursula Halifax.  Perhaps that
fact touched her, and it was with a kind of involuntary tenderness that
she looked into the sickly face, where all the smiles could not hide
the wrinkles.

"It is many years since we met; and we are both somewhat altered,
Cousin Caroline."

"You are, with those three great boys.  The little girl yours also?--Oh
yes, I remember William told me--poor little thing!"  And with uneasy
awe she turned from our blind Muriel, our child of peace.

"Will you come up to the house? my husband has only ridden over to
Enderley; he will be home soon."

"And glad to see me, I wonder?  For I am rather afraid of that husband
of yours--eh, Ursula?  Yet I should greatly like to stay."

Ursula laughed, and repeated the welcome.  She was so happy
herself--she longed to distribute her happiness.  They walked, the
children following, towards the house.

Under the great walnut-tree, by the sunk fence which guarded the
flower-garden from the sheep and cows, Mrs. Halifax stopped and pointed
down the green slope of the field, across the valley, to the wooded
hills opposite.

"Isn't it a pretty view?" said Guy, creeping up and touching the
stranger's gown; our children had lived too much in an atmosphere of
love to know either shyness or fear.

"Very pretty, my little friend."

"That's One-tree Hill.  Father is going to take us all a walk there
this afternoon."

"Do you like going walks with your father?"

"Oh, don't we!"  An electric smile ran through the whole circle.  It
told enough of the blessed home-tale.

Lady Caroline laughed a sharp laugh.  "Eh, my dear, I see how things
are.  You don't regret having married John Halifax, the tanner?"

"Regret!"

"Nay, be not impetuous.  I always said he was a noble fellow--so does
the earl now.  And William--you can't think what a hero your husband is
to William."

"Lord Ravenel?"

"Ay, my little brother that was--growing a young man now--a frightful
bigot, wanting to make our house as Catholic as when two or three of us
lost our heads for King James.  But he is a good boy--poor William!  I
had rather not talk about him."

Ursula inquired courteously if her Cousin Richard were well.

"Bah!--I suppose he is; he is always well.  His late astonishing
honesty to Mr. Halifax cost him a fit of gout--mais n'importe.  If they
meet, I suppose all things will be smooth between them?"

"My husband never had any ill-feeling to Mr. Brithwood."

"I should not bear him an undying enmity if he had.  But you see, 'tis
election time, and the earl wishes to put in a gentleman, a friend of
ours, for Kingswell.  Mr. Halifax owns some cottages there, eh?"

"Mr. Fletcher does.  My husband transacts business--"

"Stop! stop!" cried Lady Caroline.  "I don't understand business; I
only know that they want your husband to be friendly with mine.  Is
this plain enough?"

"Certainly:  be under no apprehension.  Mr. Halifax never bears malice
against any one.  Was this the reason of your visit, Lady Caroline?"

"Eh--mon Dieu! what would become of us if we were all as
straightforward as you, Mistress Ursula?  But it sounds charming--in
the country.  No, my dear; I came--nay, I hardly know why.  Probably,
because I liked to come--my usual reason for most actions.  Is that
your salle-a-manger?  Won't you ask me to dinner, ma cousine?"

"Of course," the mother said, though I fancied, afterwards, the
invitation rather weighed upon her mind, probably from the doubt
whether or no John would like it.  But in little things, as in great,
she had always this safe trust in him--that conscientiously to do what
she felt to be right was the surest way to be right in her husband's
eyes.

So Lady Caroline was our guest for the day--a novel guest--but she made
herself at once familiar and pleasant.  Guy, a little gentleman from
his cradle, installed himself her admiring knight attendant everywhere:
Edwin brought her to see his pigeons; Walter, with sweet, shy blushes,
offered her "a 'ittle f'ower!" and the three, as the greatest of all
favours, insisted on escorting her to pay a visit to the beautiful calf
not a week old.

Laughing, she followed the boys; telling them how lately in Sicily she
had been presented to a week-old prince, son of Louis Philippe the
young Duke of Orleans and the Princess Marie-Amelie.  "And truly,
children, he was not half so pretty as your little calf.  Ursula, I am
sick of courts sometimes.  I would turn shepherdess myself, if we could
find a tolerable Arcadia."

"Is there any Arcadia like home?"

"Home!"--Her face expressed the utmost loathing, fear, and scorn.  I
remembered hearing that the 'Squire since his return from abroad had
grown just like his father; was drunk every day and all day long. "Is
your husband altered, Ursula?  He must be quite a young man still.  Oh,
what it is to be young!"

"John looks much older, people say; but I don't see it."

"Arcadia again!  Can such things be? especially in England, that
paradise of husbands, where the first husband in the realm sets such an
illustrious example.  How do you stay-at-home British matrons feel
towards my friend the Princess of Wales?"

"God help her, and make her as good a woman as she is a wronged and
miserable wife," said Ursula, sadly.

"Query, Can a 'good woman' be made out of a 'wronged and miserable
wife'?  If so, Mrs. Halifax, you should certainly take out a patent for
the manufacture."

The subject touched too near home.  Ursula wisely avoided it, by
inquiring if Lady Caroline meant to remain in England.

"Cela depend."  She turned suddenly grave.  "Your fresh air makes me
feel weary.  Shall we go in-doors?"

Dinner was ready laid out--a plain meal; since neither the father nor
any of us cared for table dainties; but I think if we had lived in a
hut, and fed off wooden platters on potatoes and salt, our repast would
have been fair and orderly, and our hut the neatest that a hut could
be.  For the mother of the family had in perfection almost the best
genius a woman can have--the genius of tidiness.

We were not in the least ashamed of our simple dinner-table, where no
difference was ever made for anybody.  We had little plate, but plenty
of snow-white napery and pretty china; and what with the scents of the
flower-garden on one side, and the green waving of the elm-tree on the
other, it was as good as dining out-of-doors.

The boys were still gathered round Lady Caroline, in the little closet
off the dining-room where lessons were learnt; Muriel sat as usual on
the door-sill, petting one of her doves that used to come and perch on
her head and her shoulder, of their own accord, when I heard the child
say to herself:

"Father's coming."

"Where, darling?"

"Up the farm-yard way.  There--he is on the gravel-walk.  He has
stopped; I dare say it is to pull some of the jessamine that grows over
the well.  Now, fly away, dove! Father's here."

And the next minute a general shout echoed, "Father's here!"

He stood in the doorway, lifting one after the other up in his arms;
having a kiss and a merry word for all--this good father!

O solemn name, which Deity Himself claims and owns!  Happy these
children, who in its fullest sense could understand the word "father!"
to whom, from the dawn of their little lives, their father was what all
fathers should be--the truest representative here on earth of that
Father in heaven, who is at once justice, wisdom, and perfect love.

Happy, too--most blessed among women--the woman who gave her children
such a father!

Ursula came--for his eye was wandering in search of her--and received
the embrace, without which he never left her, or returned.

"All rightly settled, John?"

"Quite settled."

"I am so glad."  With a second kiss, not often bestowed in public, as
congratulation.  He was going to tell more, when Ursula said, rather
hesitatingly, "We have a visitor to-day."

Lady Caroline came out of her corner, laughing.  "You did not expect
me, I see.  Am I welcome?"

"Any welcome that Mrs. Halifax has given is also mine."

But John's manner, though polite, was somewhat constrained; and he
felt, as it seemed to my observant eye, more surprise than
gratification in this incursion on his quiet home.  Also I noticed that
when Lady Caroline, in the height of her condescension, would have
Muriel close to her at dinner, he involuntarily drew his little
daughter to her accustomed place beside himself,

"She always sits here, thank you."

The table-talk was chiefly between the lady and her host; she rarely
talked to women when a man was to be had.  Conversation veered between
the Emperor Napoleon and Lord Wellington, Lord William Bentinck and
Sardinian policy, the conjugal squabbles of Carlton House, and the
one-absorbing political question of this year--Catholic emancipation.

"You are a staunch supporter of the Bill, my father says.  Of course,
you aid him in the Kingswell election to-morrow?"

"I can scarcely call it an election," returned John.  He had been
commenting on it to us that morning rather severely.  An election! it
was merely a talk in the King's Head parlour, a nomination, and show of
hands by some dozen poor labourers, tenants of Mr. Brithwood and Lord
Luxmore, who got a few pounds a-piece for their services--and the thing
was done.

"Who is the nominee, Lady Caroline?"

"A young gentleman of small fortune, but excellent parts, who returned
with us from Naples."

The lady's manner being rather more formal than she generally used,
John looked up quickly.

"The election being to-morrow, of course his name is no secret?"

"Oh, no!  Vermilye.  Mr. Gerard Vermilye.  Do you know him?"

"I have heard of him."

As he spoke--either intentionally or no--John looked full at Lady
Caroline.  She dropped her eyes and began playing with her bracelets.
Both immediately quitted the subject of Kingswell election.

Soon after we rose from table; and Guy, who had all dinner-time fixed
his admiring gaze upon the "pretty lady," insisted on taking her down
the garden and gathering for her a magnificent arum lily, the mother's
favourite lily.  I suggested gaining permission first; and was sent to
ask the question.

I found John and his wife in serious, even painful conversation.

"Love," he was saying, "I have known it for very long; but if she had
not come here, I would never have grieved you by telling it."

"Perhaps it is not true," said Ursula, warmly.  "The world is ready
enough to invent cruel falsehoods about us women."

"'Us women!'  Don't say that, Ursula.  I will not have my wife named in
the same breath with HER."

"John!"

"I will not, I say.  You don't know what it cost me even to see her
touch your hand."

"John!"

The soft tone recalled him to his better self.

"Forgive me! but I would not have the least taint come near this wife
of mine.  I could not bear to think of her holding intercourse with a
light woman--a woman false to her husband."

"I do not believe it.  Caroline was foolish, she was never wicked.
Listen!--If this were true, how could she be laughing with our children
now?  Oh! John--think--she has no children."

The deep pity passed from Ursula's heart to her husband's.  John
clasped fondly the two hands that were laid on his shoulders, as,
looking up in his face, the happy wife pleaded silently for one whom
all the world knew was so wronged and so unhappy.

"We will wait a little before we judge.  Love, you are a better
Christian than I."

All afternoon they both showed more than courtesy--kindness, to this
woman, at whom, as any one out of our retired household would have
known, and as John did know well--all the world was already pointing
the finger, on account of Mr. Gerard Vermilye.  She, on her part, with
her chameleon power of seizing and sunning herself in the delight of
the moment, was in a state of the highest enjoyment.  She turned
"shepherdess," fed the poultry with Edwin, pulled off her jewelled
ornaments, and gave them to Walter for playthings; nay, she even washed
off her rouge at the spring, and came in with faint natural roses upon
her faded cheeks.  So happy she seemed, so innocently, childishly
happy; that more than once I saw John and Ursula exchange satisfied
looks, rejoicing that they had followed after the divine charity which
"thinketh no evil."

After tea we all turned out, as was our wont on summer evenings; the
children playing about; while the father and mother strolled up and
down the sloping field-path, arm in arm like lovers, or sometimes he
fondly leaning upon her.  Thus they would walk and talk together in the
twilight, for hours.

Lady Caroline pointed to them.  "Look! Adam and Eve modernized; Baucis
and Philemon when they were young.  Bon Dieu! what it is to be young!"

She said this in a gasp, as if wild with terror of the days that were
coming upon her--the dark days.

"People are always young," I answered, "who love one another as these
do."

"Love! what an old-fashioned word.  I hate it!  It is so--what would
you say in English?--so dechirant.  I would not cultivate une grande
passion for the world."

I smiled at the idea of the bond between Mr. and Mrs. Halifax taking
the Frenchified character of "une grande passion."

"But home-love, married love, love among children and at the
fire-side;--you believe in that?"

She turned upon me her beautiful eyes; they had a scared look, like a
bird's driven right into the fowler's net.

"C'est impossible--impossible!"

The word hissed itself out between her shut teeth--"impossible." Then
she walked quickly on, and was her lively self once more.

When the evening closed, and the younger children were gone to bed, she
became rather restless about the non-appearance of her coach.  At last
a lacquey arrived on foot.  She angrily inquired why a carriage had not
been sent for her?

"Master didn't give orders, my lady," answered the man, somewhat rudely.

Lady Caroline turned pale--with anger or fear--perhaps both.

"You have not properly answered your mistress's question," said Mr.
Halifax.

"Master says, sir--begging my lady's pardon for repeating it--but he
says, 'My lady went out against his will, and she may come home when
and how she likes.'"

"My lady" burst out laughing, and laughed violently and long.

"Tell him I will.  Be sure you tell him I will.  It is the last and the
easiest obedience."

John sent the lacquey out of the room; and Ursula said something about
"not speaking thus before a servant."

"Before a servant!  Why, my dear, we furnish entertainment for our
whole establishment, my husband and I.  We are at the Mythe what the
Prince Regent and the Princess of Wales are to the country at large. We
divide our people between us; I fascinate--he bribes.  Ha! ha! Well
done, Richard Brithwood!  I may come home 'when and how I like!' Truly,
I'll use that kind permission."

Her eyes glittered with an evil fire:  her cheeks were hot and red.

"Mrs. Halifax, I shall be thrown on your hospitality for an hour or two
longer.  Could you send a letter for me?"

"To your husband?  Certainly."

"My husband?--Never!--Yes, to MY HUSBAND."  The first part of the
sentence was full of fierce contempt; the latter, smothered, and slowly
desperate.  "Tell me, Ursula, what constitutes a man one's husband?
Brutality, tyranny--the tyranny which the law sanctions? Or kindness,
sympathy, devotion, everything that makes life beautiful--everything
that constitutes happiness and--"

"Sin."

The word in her ear was so low, that she started as if conscience only
had uttered it--conscience, to whom only her intents were known.

John came forward, speaking gravely, but not unkindly.

"Lady Caroline, I am deeply grieved that this should have happened in
my house, and through your visiting us against your husband's will."

"His will!"

"Pardon me; but I think a wife is bound to the very last to obey in all
things, not absolutely wrong, her husband's will.  I am glad you
thought of writing to Mr. Brithwood."

She shook her head, in mocking denial.

"May I ask, then--since I am to have the honour of sending it--to whom
is this letter?"

"To--"  I think she would have told a falsehood, if John's eyes had not
been so keenly fixed upon her.  "To--a friend."

"Friends are at all times dangerous to a lady who--"

"Hates her husband--ha! ha!  Especially male friends?"

"Especially male friends."

Here Guy, who had lingered out of his little bed most
unlawfully--hovering about, ready to do any chivalrous duty to his idol
of the day--came up to bid her good-night, and held up his rosy mouth,
eagerly.

"I--kiss a little child!  I!"--and from her violent laughter she burst
into a passion of tears.

The mother signed me to carry Guy away; she and John took Lady Caroline
into the parlour, and shut the door.

Of course I did not then learn what passed--but I did afterwards.

Lady Caroline's tears were evanescent, like all her emotions.  Soon she
became composed--asked again for writing materials--then countermanded
the request.

"No, I will wait till to-morrow.  Ursula, you will take me in for the
night?"

Mrs. Halifax looked appealingly to her husband, but he gave no assent.

"Lady Caroline, you should willingly stay, were it not, as you must
know, so fatal a step.  In your position, you should be most careful to
leave the world and your husband no single handle against you."

"Mr. Halifax, what right have you--"

"None, save that of an honest man, who sees a woman cruelly wronged,
and desperate with her wrong; who would thankfully save her if he
could."

"Save me?  From what--or whom?"

"From Mr. Gerard Vermilye, who is now waiting down the road, and whom,
if Lady Caroline Brithwood once flies to, or even sees, at this crisis,
she loses her place among honourable English matrons for ever."

John said this, with no air of virtuous anger or contempt, but as the
simple statement of a fact.  The convicted woman dropped her face
between her hands.

Ursula, greatly shocked, was some time before she spoke.

"Is it true, Caroline?"

"What is true?"

"That which my husband has heard of you?"

"Yes," she cried, springing up, and dashing back her beautiful
hair--beautiful still, though she must have been five or six and thirty
at least--"Yes, it is true--it shall be true.  I will break my bonds
and live the life I was made for.  I would have done it long ago, but
for--no matter.  Why, Ursula, he adores me; young and handsome as he
is, he adores me.  He will give me my youth back again, ay, he will."

And she sang out a French chanson, something about "la liberte et ses
plaisirs, la jeunesse, l'amour."

The mother grew sterner--any such wife and mother would.  Then and
there, compassion might have died out of even her good heart, had it
not been for the sudden noise over-head of children's feet--children's
chattering.  Once more the pitiful thought came--"She has no children."

"Caroline," she said, catching her gown as she passed, "when I was with
you, you had a child which only breathed and died.  It died spotless.
When you die, how dare you meet that little baby?"

The singing changed to sobbing.  "I had forgotten.  My little baby! Oh,
mon Dieu, mon Dieu!"

Mrs. Halifax, taking in earnest those meaningless French ejaculations,
whispered something about Him who alone can comfort and help us all.

"Him!  I never knew Him, if indeed He be.  No, no, there is no
after-life."

Ursula turned away in horror.  "John, what shall we do with her?  No
home!--no husband!--no God!"

"He never leaves Himself without a witness.  Look, love."

The wretched woman sat rocking to and fro--weeping and wringing her
hands.  "It was cruel--cruel!  You should not have spoken about my
baby.  Now--"

"Tell me--just one word--I will not believe anybody's word except your
own.  Caroline, are you--still innocent?"

Lady Caroline shrank from her touch.  "Don't hold me so.  You may have
one standard of virtue, I another."

"Still, tell me."

"And if I did, you, an 'honourable English matron'--was not that your
husband's word?--would turn from me, most likely."

"She will not," John said.  "She has been happy, and you most
miserable."

"Oh, most miserable."

That bitter groan went to both their hearts, Ursula leaned over
her--herself almost in tears.  "Cousin Caroline, John says true--I will
not turn from you.  I know you have been sinned
against--cruelly--cruelly.  Only tell me that you yourself have not
sinned."

"I HAVE 'sinned,' as you call it."

Ursula started--drew closer to her husband.  Neither spoke.

"Mrs. Halifax, why don't you take away your hand?"

"I?--let me think.  This is terrible.  Oh, John!"

Again Lady Caroline said, in her sharp, bold tone, "Take away your
hand."

"Husband, shall I?"

"No."

For some minutes they stood together, both silent, with this poor
woman.  I call her "poor," as did they, knowing, that if a sufferer
needs pity, how tenfold more does a sinner!

John spoke first.  "Cousin Caroline."  She lifted up her head in
amazement.  "We are your cousins, and we wish to be your friends, my
wife and I.  Will you listen to us?"

She sobbed still, but less violently.

"Only, first--you must promise to renounce for ever guilt and disgrace."

"I feel it none.  He is an honourable gentleman--he loves me, and I
love him.  That is the true marriage.  No, I will make you no such
promise.  Let me go."

"Pardon me--not yet.  I cannot suffer my wife's kinswoman to elope from
my own house, without trying to prevent it."

"Prevent!--sir!--Mr. Halifax!  You forget who you are, and who I
am--the daughter of the Earl of Luxmore."

"Were you the King's daughter it would make no difference.  I will save
you in spite of yourself, if I can.  I have already spoken to Mr.
Vermilye, and he has gone away."

"Gone away! the only living soul that loves me.  Gone away!  I must
follow him--quick--quick."

"You cannot.  He is miles distant by this time.  He is afraid lest this
story should come out to-morrow at Kingswell; and to be an M.P. and
safe from arrest is better to Mr. Vermilye than even yourself, Lady
Caroline."

John's wife, unaccustomed to hear him take that cool, worldly,
half-sarcastic tone, turned to him somewhat reproachfully; but he
judged best.  For the moment, this tone had more weight with the woman
of the world than any homilies.  She began to be afraid of Mr. Halifax.
Impulse, rather than resolution, guided her, and even these impulses
were feeble and easily governed.  She sat down again, muttering:

"My will is free.  You cannot control me."

"Only so far as my conscience justifies me in preventing a crime."

"A crime?"

"It would be such.  No sophistries of French philosophy on your part,
no cruelty on your husband's, can abrogate the one law, which if you
disown it as God's, is still man's--being necessary for the peace,
honour, and safety of society."

"What law?"

"THOU SHALT NOT COMMIT ADULTERY."

People do not often utter this plain Bible word.  It made Ursula start,
even when spoken solemnly by her own husband.  It tore from the
self-convicted woman all the sentimental disguises with which the world
then hid, and still hides, its corruptions.  Her sin arose and stared
her blackly in the face--AS SIN.  She cowered before it.

"Am I--THAT?  And William will know it.  Poor William!"  She looked up
at Ursula--for the first time with the guilty look; hitherto, it had
been only one of pain or despair.  "Nobody knows it, except you. Don't
tell William.  I would have gone long ago, but for him.  He is a good
boy;--don't let him guess his sister was--"

She left the word unspoken.  Shame seemed to crush her down to the
earth; shame, the precursor of saving penitence--at least, John thought
so.  He quitted the room, leaving her to the ministry of his other
self, his wife.  As he sat down with me, and told me in a few words
what indeed I had already more than half guessed, I could not but
notice the expression of his own face.  And I recognized how a man can
be at once righteous to judge, tender to pity, and strong to save; a
man the principle of whose life is, as John's was--that it should be
made "conformable to the image" of Him, who was Himself on earth the
image of God.

Ursula came out and called her husband.  They talked some time
together.  I guessed, from what I heard, that she wished Lady Caroline
to stay the night here, but that he with better judgment was urging the
necessity of her returning to the protection of her husband's home
without an hour's delay.

"It is her only chance of saving her reputation.  She must do it. Tell
her so, Ursula."

After a few minutes, Mrs. Halifax came out again.

"I have persuaded her at last.  She says she will do whatever you think
best.  Only before she goes, she wants to look at the children. May
she?"

"Poor soul!--yes," John murmured, turning away.

Stepping out of sight, we saw the poor lady pass through the quiet,
empty house into the children's bed-room.  We heard her smothered sob,
at times, the whole way.

Then I went down to the stream, and helped John to saddle his horse,
with Mrs. Halifax's old saddle--in her girlish days, Ursula used to be
very fond of riding.

"She can ride back again from the Mythe," said John.  "She wishes to
go, and it is best she should; so that nothing need be said, except
that Lady Caroline spent a day at Longfield, and that my wife and I
accompanied her safe home."

While he spoke, the two ladies came down the field-path.  I fancied I
heard, even now, a faint echo of that peculiarly sweet and careless
laugh, indicating how light were all impressions on a temperament so
plastic and weak--so easily remoulded by the very next influence that
fate might throw across her perilous way.

John Halifax assisted her on horseback, took the bridle under one arm
and gave the other to his wife.  Thus they passed up the path, and out
at the White Gate.

I delayed a little while, listening to the wind, and to the prattle of
the stream, that went singing along in daylight or in darkness, by our
happy home at Longfield.  And I sighed to myself, "Poor Lady Caroline!"



CHAPTER XXIV

Midnight though it was, I sat up until John and his wife came home.
They said scarcely anything, but straightway retired.  In the morning,
all went on in the house as usual, and no one ever knew of this night's
episode, except us three.

In the morning, Guy looked wistfully around him, asking for the "pretty
lady;" and being told that she was gone, and that he would not be
likely to see her again, seemed disappointed for a minute; but soon he
went down to play at the stream, and forgot all.

Once or twice I fancied the mother's clear voice about the house was
rarer than its wont; that her quick, active, cheerful
presence--penetrating every nook, and visiting every creature, as with
the freshness of an April wind--was this day softer and sadder; but she
did not say anything to me, nor I to her.

John had ridden off early--to the flour-mill, which he still kept on,
together with the house at Norton Bury--he always disliked giving up
any old associations.  At dinner-time he came home, saying he was going
out again immediately.

Ursula looked uneasy.  A few minutes after, she followed me under the
walnut-tree, where I was sitting with Muriel, and asked me if I would
go with John to Kingswell.

"The election takes place to-day, and he thinks it right to be there.
He will meet Mr. Brithwood and Lord Luxmore; and though there is not
the slightest need--my husband can do all that he has to do
alone--still, for my own satisfaction, I would like his brother to be
near him."

They invariably called me their brother now; and it seemed as if the
name had been mine by right of blood always.

Of course, I went to Kingswell, riding John's brown mare, he himself
walking by my side.  It was not often that we were thus alone together,
and I enjoyed it much.  All the old days seemed to come back again as
we passed along the quiet roads and green lanes, just as when we were
boys together, when I had none I cared for but David, and David cared
only for me.  The natural growth of things had made a difference in
this, but our affection had changed its outward form only, not its
essence.  I often think that all loves and friendships need a certain
three days' burial before we can be quite sure of their truth and
immortality.  Mine--it happened just after John's marriage, and I may
confess it now--had likewise its entombment, bitter as brief.  Many
cruel hours sat I in darkness, weeping at the door of its sepulchre,
thinking that I should never see it again; but, in the dawn of the
morning, it rose, and I met it in the desolate garden, different, yet
the very same.  And after that, it walked with me continually, secure
and imperishable evermore.

I rode, and John sauntered beside me along the footpath, now and then
plucking a leaf or branch off the hedge, and playing with it, as was
his habit when a lad.  Often I caught the old smile--not one of his
three boys, not even handsome Guy, had their father's smile.

He was telling me about Enderley Mill, and all his plans there, in the
which he seemed very happy.  At last, his long life of duty was merging
into the life he loved.  He looked as proud and pleased as a boy, in
talking of the new inventions he meant to apply in cloth-weaving; and
how he and his wife had agreed together to live for some years to come
at little Longfield, strictly within their settled income, that all the
remainder of his capital might go to the improvement of Enderley Mills
and mill-people.

"I shall be master of nearly a hundred, men and women.  Think what good
we may do!  She has half-a-dozen plans on foot already--bless her dear
heart!"

It was easy to guess whom he referred to--the one who went hand-in-hand
with him in everything.

"Was the dinner in the barn, next Monday, her plan, too?"

"Partly.  I thought we would begin a sort of yearly festival for the
old tan-yard people, and those about the flour-mill, and the Kingswell
tenants--ah, Phineas, wasn't I right about those Kingswell folk?"

These were about a dozen poor families, whom, when our mortgage fell
in, he had lured out of Sally Watkins' miserable alley to these old
houses, where they had at least fresh country air, and space enough to
live wholesomely and decently, instead of herding together like pigs in
a sty.

"You ought to be proud of your tenants, Phineas.  I assure you, they
form quite a contrast to their neighbours, who are Lord Luxmore's."

"And his voters likewise, I suppose?--the 'free and independent
burgesses' who are to send Mr. Vermilye to Parliament?"

"If they can," said John, biting his lip with that resolute
half-combative air which I now saw in him at times, roused by things
which continually met him in his dealings with the world--things
repugnant alike to his feelings and his principles, but which he had
still to endure, not having risen high enough to oppose, single-handed,
the great mass of social corruption which at this crisis of English
history kept gathering and gathering, until out of the very horror and
loathsomeness of it an outcry for purification arose.

"Do you know, Phineas, I might last week have sold your houses for
double price?  They are valuable, this election year, since your five
tenants are the only voters in Kingswell who are not likewise tenants
of Lord Luxmore.  Don't you see how the matter stands?"

It was not difficult, for that sort of game was played all over
England, connived at, or at least winked at, by those who had political
influence to sell or obtain, until the Reform Bill opened up the
election system in all its rottenness and enormity.

"Of course I knew you would not sell your houses; and I shall use every
possible influence I have to prevent your tenants selling their votes.
Whatever may be the consequence, the sort of thing that this Kingswell
election bids fair to be, is what any honest Englishman ought to set
his face against, and prevent if he can."

"Can you?"

"I do not feel sure, but I mean to try.  First, for simple right and
conscience; secondly, because if Mr. Vermilye is not saved from arrest
by being placed in Parliament, he will be outlawed and driven safe out
of the country.  You see?"

Ay, I did, only too well.  Though I foresaw that whatever John was
about to do, it must necessarily be something that would run directly
counter to Lord Luxmore--and he had only just signed the lease of
Enderley Mills.  Still, if right to be done, he ought to do it at all
risks, at all costs; and I knew his wife would say so.

We came to the foot of Kingswell Hill, and saw the little hamlet--with
its grey old houses, its small, ancient church, guarded by enormous
yew-trees, and clothed with ivy that indicated centuries of growth.

A carriage overtook us here; in it were two gentlemen, one of whom
bowed in a friendly manner to John.  He returned it.

"This is well; I shall have one honest gentleman to deal with to-day."

"Who is he?"

"Sir Ralph Oldtower, from whom I bought Longfield.  An excellent man--I
like him--even his fine old Norman face, like one of his knightly
ancestors on the tomb in Kingswell church.  There's something pleasant
about his stiff courtesy and his staunch Toryism; for he fully believes
in it, and acts up to his belief.  A true English gentleman, and I
respect him."

"Yet, John, Norton Bury calls you a democrat."

"So I am, for I belong to the people.  But I nevertheless uphold a true
aristocracy--the BEST MEN of the country,--do you remember our Greeks
of old?  These ought to govern, and will govern, one day, whether their
patent of nobility be births and titles, or only honesty and brains."

Thus he talked on, and I liked to hear him, for talking was rare in his
busy life of constant action.  I liked to observe how during these ten
years his mind had brooded over many things; how it had grown,
strengthened, and settled itself, enlarging both its vision and its
aspirations; as a man does, who, his heart at rest in a happy home, has
time and will to look out from thence into the troublous world outside,
ready to do his work there likewise.  That John was able to do it--ay,
beyond most men--few would doubt who looked into his face; strong with
the strength of an intellect which owed all its development to himself
alone; calm with the wisdom which, if a man is ever to be wise, comes
to him after he has crossed the line of thirty years.  In that face,
where day by day Time was writing its fit lessons--beautiful, because
they were so fit--I ceased to miss the boyish grace, and rejoiced in
the manhood present, in the old age that was to be.

It seemed almost too short a journey, when, putting his hand on the
mare's bridle--the creature loved him, and turned to lick his arm the
minute he came near--John stopped me to see the view from across
Kingswell churchyard.

"Look, what a broad valley, rich in woods, and meadow-land, and corn.
How quiet and blue lie the Welsh hills far away.  It does one good to
look at them.  Nay, it brings back a little bit of me which rarely
comes uppermost now, as it used to come long ago, when we read your
namesake, and Shakspeare, and that Anonymous Friend who has since made
such a noise in the world.  I delight in him still.  Think of a man of
business liking Coleridge."

"I don't see why he should not."

"Nor I.  Well, my poetic tastes may come out more at Enderley.  Or
perhaps when I am an old man, and have fought the good fight,
and--holloa, there!  Matthew Hales, have they made you drunk already?"

The man--he was an old workman of ours--touched his hat, and tried to
walk steadily past "the master," who looked at once both stern and sad.

"I thought it would be so!--I doubt if there is a voter in all
Kingswell who has not got a bribe."

"It is the same everywhere," I said.  "What can one man do against it,
single-handed?"

"Single-handed or not, every man ought to do what he can.  And no man
knows how much he can do till he tries."

So saying, he went into the large parlour of the Luxmore Arms, where
the election was going on.

A very simple thing, that election!  Sir Ralph Oldtower, who was
sheriff, sat at a table, with his son, the grave-looking young man who
had been with him in the carriage; near them were Mr. Brithwood of the
Mythe, and the Earl of Luxmore.

The room was pretty well filled with farmers' labourers and the like.
We entered, making little noise; but John's head was taller than most
heads present; the sheriff saw him at once, and bowed courteously. So
did young Mr. Herbert Oldtower, so did the Earl of Luxmore. Richard
Brithwood alone took no notice, but turned his back and looked another
way.

It was now many years since I had seen the 'squire, Lady Caroline's
husband.  He had fulfilled the promise of his youth, and grown into a
bloated, coarse-featured, middle-aged man; such a man as one rarely
meets with now-a-days; for even I, Phineas Fletcher, have lived to see
so great a change in manners and morals, that intemperance, instead of
being the usual characteristic of "a gentleman," has become a rare
failing--a universally-contemned disgrace.

"Less noise there!" growled Mr. Brithwood.  "Silence, you fellows at
the door!  Now, Sir Ralph, let's get the business over, and be back for
dinner."

Sir Ralph turned his stately grey head to the light, put on his gold
spectacles, and began to read the writ of election.  As he finished,
the small audience set up a feeble cheer.

The sheriff acknowledged it, then leaned over the table talking with
rather frosty civility to Lord Luxmore.  Their acquaintance seemed
solely that of business.  People whispered that Sir Ralph never forgot
that the Oldtowers were Crusaders when the Ravenels were--nobody.  Also
the baronet, whose ancestors were all honourable men and stainless
women, found it hard to overlook a certain royal bar-sinister, which
had originated the Luxmore earldom, together with a few other blots
which had tarnished that scutcheon since.  So folk said; but probably
Sir Ralph's high principle was at least as strong as his pride, and
that the real cause of his dislike was founded on the too well-known
character of the Earl of Luxmore.

They ceased talking; the sheriff rose, and briefly stated that Richard
Brithwood, Esquire, of the Mythe, would nominate a candidate.

The candidate was Gerard Vermilye, Esquire; at the mention of whose
name one Norton Bury man broke into a horse-laugh, which was quenched
by his immediate ejection from the meeting.

Then, Mr. Thomas Brown, steward of the Earl of Luxmore, seconded the
nomination.

After a few words between the sheriff, his son, and Lord Luxmore, the
result of which seemed rather unsatisfactory than otherwise, Sir Ralph
Oldtower again rose.

"Gentlemen and electors, there being no other candidate proposed,
nothing is left me but to declare Gerard Vermilye, Esquire--"

John Halifax made his way to the table.  "Sir Ralph, pardon my
interruption, but may I speak a few words?"

Mr. Brithwood started up with an angry oath.

"My good sir," said the baronet, with a look of reprehension which
proved him of the minority who thought swearing ungentlemanly.

"By ----, Sir Ralph, you shall not hear that low fellow!"

"Excuse me, I must, if he has a right to be heard.  Mr. Halifax, you
are a freeman of Kingswell?"

"I am."

This fact surprised none more than myself.

Brithwood furiously exclaimed that it was a falsehood.  "The fellow
does not belong to this neighbourhood at all.  He was picked up in
Norton Bury streets--a beggar, a thief, for all I know."

"You do know very well, Mr. Brithwood.  Sir Ralph, I was never either a
beggar or a thief.  I began life as a working lad--a
farm-labourer--until Mr. Fletcher, the tanner, took me into his employ."

"So I have always understood," said Sir Ralph, courteously.  "And next
to the man who is fortunate enough to boast a noble origin, I respect
the man who is not ashamed of an ignoble one."

"That is not exactly my position either," said John, with a half smile.
"But we are passing from the question in hand, which is simply my claim
to be a freeman of this borough."

"On what grounds?"

"You will find in the charter a clause, seldom put in force, that the
daughter of a freeman can confer the freedom on her husband.  My wife's
late father, Mr. Henry March, was a burgess of Kingswell.  I claimed my
rights, and registered, this year.  Ask your clerk, Sir Ralph, if I
have not spoken correctly."

The old white-headed clerk allowed the fact.

Lord Luxmore looked considerably surprised, and politely incredulous
still.  His son-in-law broke out into loud abuse of this "knavery."

"I will pass over this ugly word, Mr. Brithwood, merely stating that--"

"We are quite satisfied," interrupted Lord Luxmore, blandly.  "My dear
sir, may I request so useful a vote and so powerful an interest as
yours, for our friend, Mr. Vermilye?"

"My lord, I should be very sorry for you to misapprehend me for a
moment.  It is not my intention, except at the last extremity, to vote
at all.  If I do, it will certainly not be for Mr. Brithwood's nominee.
Sir Ralph, I doubt if, under some circumstances, which by your
permission I am about to state, Mr. Gerard Vermilye can keep his seat,
even if elected."

A murmur arose from the crowd of mechanics and labourers, who, awed by
such propinquity to gentry and even nobility, had hitherto hung
sheepishly back; but now, like all English crowds, were quite ready to
"follow the leader," especially one they knew.

"Hear him! hear the master!" was distinguishable on all sides.  Mr.
Brithwood looked too enraged for words; but Lord Luxmore, taking snuff
with a sarcastic smile, said:

"Honores mutant mores!--I thought, Mr. Halifax, you eschewed politics?"

"Mere politics I do, but not honesty, justice, morality; and a few
facts have reached my knowledge, though possibly not Lord Luxmore's,
which make me feel that Mr. Vermilye's election would be an insult to
all three; therefore, I oppose it."

A louder murmur rose.

"Silence, you scoundrels!" shouted Mr. Brithwood; adding his usual
formula of speech, which a second time extorted the old baronet's grave
rebuke.

"It seems, Sir Ralph, that democracy is rife in your neighbourhood.
True, my acquaintance has not lain much among the commonalty, but still
I was not aware that the people choose the Member of Parliament."

"They do not, Lord Luxmore," returned the sheriff, somewhat haughtily.
"But we always hear the people.  Mr. Halifax, be brief. What have you
to allege against Mr. Brithwood's nominee?"

"First, his qualification.  He has not three hundred, nor one hundred
a-year.  He is deeply in debt, at Norton Bury and elsewhere. Warrants
are out against him; and only as an M.P. can he be safe from outlawry.
Add to this, an offence common as daylight, yet which the law dare not
wink at when made patent--that he has bribed, with great or small sums,
every one of the fifteen electors of Kingswell; and I think I have said
enough to convince any honest Englishman that Mr. Gerard Vermilye is
not fit to represent them in Parliament."

Here a loud cheer broke from the crowd at the door and under the open
windows, where, thick as bees, the villagers had now collected. They,
the un-voting, and consequently unbribable portion of the community,
began to hiss indignantly at the fifteen unlucky voters. For though
bribery was, as John had truly said, "as common as daylight," still, if
brought openly before the public, the said virtuous public generally
condemned it, if they themselves had not been concerned therein.

The sheriff listened uneasily to a sound, very uncommon at elections,
of the populace expressing an opinion contrary to that of the lord of
the soil.

"Really, Mr. Brithwood, you must have been as ignorant as I was of the
character of your nominee, or you would have chosen some one else.
Herbert"--he turned to his son, who, until the late dissolution, had
sat for some years as member for Norton Bury--"Herbert, are you
acquainted with any of these facts?"

Mr. Herbert Oldtower looked uncomfortable.

"Answer," said his father.  "No hesitation in a matter of right and
wrong.  Gentlemen, and my worthy friends, will you hear Mr. Oldtower,
whom you all know?  Herbert, are these accusations true?"

"I am afraid so," said the grave young man, more gravely.

"Mr. Brithwood, I regret extremely that this discovery was not made
before.  What do you purpose doing?"

"By the Lord that made me, nothing!  The borough is Lord Luxmore's; I
could nominate Satan himself if I chose.  My man shall stand."

"I think," Lord Luxmore said, with meaning, "it would be better for all
parties that Mr. Vermilye should stand."

"My lord," said the baronet; and one could see that not only rigid
justice, but a certain obstinacy, marked his character, especially when
anything jarred against his personal dignity or prejudices; "you forget
that, however desirous I am to satisfy the family to whom this borough
belongs, it is impossible for me to see with satisfaction--even though
I cannot prevent--the election of any person so unfit to serve His
Majesty.  If, indeed, there were another candidate, so that the popular
feeling might decide this very difficult matter--"

"Sir Ralph," said John Halifax, determinedly, "this brings me to the
purpose for which I spoke.  Being a landholder, and likewise a freeman
of this borough, I claim the right of nominating a second candidate."

Intense, overwhelming astonishment struck all present.  Such a right
had been so long unclaimed, that everybody had forgotten it was a right
at all.  Sir Ralph and his clerk laid their venerable heads together
for some minutes, before they could come to any conclusion on the
subject.  At last the sheriff rose.

"I am bound to say, that, though very uncommon, this proceeding is not
illegal."

"Not illegal?" almost screamed Richard Brithwood.

"Not illegal.  I therefore wait to hear Mr. Halifax's nomination. Sir,
your candidate is, I hope, no democrat?"

"His political opinions differ from mine, but he is the only gentleman
whom I in this emergency can name; and is one whom myself, and I
believe all my neighbours, will be heartily glad to see once more in
Parliament.  I beg to nominate Mr. Herbert Oldtower."

A decided sensation at the upper half of the room.  At the lower half
an unanimous, involuntary cheer; for among our county families there
were few so warmly respected as the Oldtowers.

Sir Ralph rose, much perplexed.  "I trust that no one present will
suppose I was aware of Mr. Halifax's intention.  Nor, I understand, was
Mr. Oldtower.  My son must speak for himself."

Mr. Oldtower, with his accustomed gravity, accompanied by a not
unbecoming modesty, said, that in this conjuncture, and being
personally unacquainted with both Mr. Brithwood and the Earl of
Luxmore, he felt no hesitation in accepting the honour offered to him.

"That being the case," said his father, though evidently annoyed, "I
have only to fulfil my duty as public officer to the Crown."

Amidst some confusion, a show of hands was called for; and then a cry
rose of "Go to the poll!"

"Go to the poll!" shouted Mr. Brithwood.  "This is a family borough.
There has not been a poll here these fifty years.  Sir Ralph, your
son's mad."

"Sir, insanity is not in the family of the Oldtowers.  My position here
is simply as sheriff of the county.  If a poll be called for--"

"Excuse me, Sir Ralph, it would be hardly worth while.  May I offer
you--"

It was--only his snuff-box.  But the Earl's polite and meaning smile
filled up the remainder of the sentence.

Sir Ralph Oldtower drew himself up haughtily, and the fire of youth
flashed indignantly from his grand old eyes.

"Lord Luxmore seems not to understand the duties and principles of us
country gentlemen," he said coldly, and turned away, addressing the
general meeting.  "Gentlemen, the poll will be held this afternoon,
according to the suggestion of my neighbour here."

"Sir Ralph Oldtower has convenient neighbours," remarked Lord Luxmore.

"Of my neighbour, Mr Halifax," repeated the old baronet, louder, and
more emphatically.  "A gentleman,"--he paused, as if doubtful whether
in that title he were awarding a right or bestowing a courtesy, looked
at John, and decided--"a gentleman for whom, ever since I have known
him, I have entertained the highest respect."

It was the first public recognition of the position which for some time
had been tacitly given to John Halifax in his own neighbourhood. Coming
thus, from this upright and honourable old man, whose least merit it
was to hold, and worthily, a baronetage centuries old, it made John's
cheek glow with an honest gratification and a pardonable pride.

"Tell her," he said to me, when, the meeting having dispersed, he asked
me to ride home and explain the reason of his detention at
Kingswell--"Tell my wife all.  She will be pleased, you know."

Ay, she was.  Her face glowed and brightened as only a wife's can--a
wife whose dearest pride is in her husband's honour.

Nevertheless, she hurried me back again as quickly as I came.

As I once more rode up Kingswell Hill, it seemed as if the whole parish
were agog to see the novel sight.  A contested election! truly, such a
thing had not been known within the memory of the oldest inhabitant.
The fifteen voters--I believe that was the number--were altogether
bewildered by a sense of their own importance.  Also, by a new and
startling fact--which I found Mr. Halifax trying to impress upon a few
of them, gathered under the great yew-tree in the churchyard--that a
man's vote ought to be the expression of his own conscientious opinion;
and that for him to sell it was scarcely less vile than to traffic in
the liberty of his son or the honour of his daughter.  Among those who
listened most earnestly, was a man whom I had seen before to-day--Jacob
Baines, once the ringleader of the bread-riots, who had long worked
steadily in the tan-yard, and then at the flour-mill.  He was the
honestest and faithfulest of all John's people--illustrating
unconsciously that Divine doctrine, that often they love most to whom
most has been forgiven.

The poll was to be held in the church--a not uncommon usage in country
boroughs, but which from its rarity struck great awe into the Kingswell
folk.  The churchwarden was placed in the clerk's desk to receive
votes.  Not far off, the sheriff sat in his family-pew, bare-headed; by
his grave and reverent manner imposing due decorum, which was carefully
observed by all except Lord Luxmore and Mr. Brithwood.

These two, apparently sure of their cause, had recovered their spirits,
and talked and laughed loudly on the other side of the church.  It was
a very small building, narrow and cruciform; every word said in it was
distinctly audible throughout.

"My lord, gentlemen, and my friends all," said Sir Ralph, rising
gravely, "let me hope that every one will respect the sanctity of this
place."

Lord Luxmore, who had been going about with his dazzling diamond
snuff-box and equally dazzling smile, stopped in the middle of the
aisle, bowed, replied, "With pleasure--certainly!" and walked inside
the communion rail, as if believing that his presence there conveyed
the highest compliment he could pay the spot.

The poll began in perfect silence.  One after the other, three farmers
went up and voted for Mr. Vermilye.  There was snuff under their
noses--probably something heavier than snuff in their pockets.

Then came up the big, grey-headed fellow I have before mentioned--Jacob
Baines.  He pulled his fore-lock to Sir Ralph, rather shyly; possibly
in his youth he had made the sheriff's acquaintance under less
favourable circumstances.  But he plucked up courage.

"Your honour, might a man say a word to 'ee?"

"Certainly! but be quick, my good fellow," replied the baronet, who was
noted for his kindly manner to humble folk.

"Sir, I be a poor man.  I lives in one o' my lord's houses.  I hanna
paid no rent for a year.  Mr. Brown zays to me, he zays--'Jacob, vote
for Vermilye, and I'll forgive 'ee the rent, and here be two pound ten
to start again wi'.  So, as I zays to Matthew Hales (he be Mr.
Halifax's tenant, your honour, and my lord's steward ha' paid 'un nigh
four pound for his vote), I sure us be poor men, and his lordship a
lord and all that--it's no harm, I reckon."

"Holloa! cut it short, you rascal; you're stopping the poll.  Vote, I
say."

"Ay, ay, 'squire;" and the old fellow, who had some humour in him,
pulled his hair again civilly to Mr. Brithwood.  "Wait till I ha' got
shut o' these."

And he counted out of his ragged pockets a handful of guineas.  Poor
fellow! how bright they looked; those guineas, that were food,
clothing, life.

"Three was paid to I, two to Will Horrocks, and the rest to Matthew
Hales.  But, sir, we has changed our minds; and please, would 'ee give
back the money to them as owns it?"

"Still, my honest friend--"

"Thank 'ee, Sir Ralph, that's it:  we be honest; we couldn't look the
master in the face else.  Twelve year ago, come Michaelmas, he kept
some on us from starving--may be worse.  We bean't going to turn
rascals on's hands now.  Now I'll vote, sir,--and it won't be for
Vermilye."

A smothered murmur of applause greeted old Jacob, as he marched back
down the aisle, where on the stone benches of the porch was seated a
rural jury, who discussed not over-favourably the merits of Lord
Luxmore's candidate.

"He owes a power o' money in Norton Bury--he do."

"Why doesn't he show his face at the 'lection, like a decent gen'leman?"

"Fear'd o' bailiffs!" suggested the one constable, old and rheumatic,
who guarded the peace of Kingswell.  "He's the biggest swindler in all
England."

"Curse him!" muttered an old woman.  "She was a bonny lass--my Sally!
Curse him!"

All this while, Lord Luxmore sat in lazy dignity in the
communion-chair, apparently satisfied that as things always had been so
they would continue to be; that despite the unheard-of absurdity of a
contested election, his pocket-borough was quite secure.  It must have
been, to say the least, a great surprise to his lordship, when, the
poll being closed, its result was found thus:  Out of the fifteen
votes, six were for Mr. Vermilye, nine for his opponent.  Mr. Herbert
Oldtower was therefore duly elected as member for the borough of
Kingswell.

The earl received the announcement with dignified, incredulous silence;
but Mr. Brithwood never spared language.

"It's a cheat--an infamous conspiracy!  I will unseat him--by my soul I
will!"

"You may find it difficult," said John Halifax, counting out the
guineas deposited by Jacob Baines, and laying them in a heap before Mr.
Brown, the steward.  "Small as the number is, I believe any Committee
of the House of Commons will decide that nine honester votes were never
polled.  But I regret, my lord--I regret deeply, Mr. Brithwood,"--and
there was a kind of pity in his eye--"that in this matter I have been
forced, as it were, to become your opponent.  Some day, perhaps, you
may both do me the justice that I now can only look for from my own
conscience."

"Very possibly," replied the earl, with a satirical bow.  "I believe,
gentlemen, our business is ended for to-day, and it is a long drive to
Norton Bury.  Sir Ralph, might we hope for the honour of your company?
No?  Good day, my friends.  Mr. Halifax, your servant."

"One word, my lord.  Those workmen of mine, who are your tenants--I am
aware what usually results when tenants in arrear vote against their
landlords--if, without taking any harsher measures, your agent will be
so kind as to apply to me for the rent--"

"Sir, my agent will use his own discretion."

"Then I rely on your lordship's kindliness--your sense of honour."

"Honour is only spoken of between equals," said the earl, haughtily.
"But on one thing Mr. Halifax may always rely--my excellent memory."

With a smile and bow as perfect as if he were victoriously quitting the
field, Lord Luxmore departed.  Soon not one remained of all those who
had filled the church and churchyard, making there a tumult that is
chronicled to this very day by some ancient villagers, who still think
themselves greatly ill-used because the Reform Act has blotted out of
the list of English boroughs the "loyal and independent" borough of
Kingswell.

Sir Ralph Oldtower stood a good while talking with John; and finally,
having sent his carriage on, walked with him down Kingswell Hill
towards the manor-house.  I, riding alongside, caught fragments of
their conversation.

"What you say is all true, Mr. Halifax; and you say it well.  But what
can we do?  Our English constitution is perfect--that is, as perfect as
anything human can be.  Yet corruptions will arise; we regret, we even
blame--but we cannot remove them.  It is impossible."

"Do you think, Sir Ralph, that the Maker of this world--which, so far
as we can see, He means like all other of His creations gradually to
advance toward perfection--do you think He would justify us in
pronouncing any good work therein 'impossible'?"

"You talk like a young man," said the baronet, half sadly.  "Coming
years will show you the world and the ways of it in a clearer light."

"I earnestly hope so."

Sir Ralph glanced sideways at him--perhaps with a sort of envy of the
very youth which he thus charitably excused as a thing to be allowed
for till riper wisdom came.  Something might have smote the old man
with a conviction, that in this youth was strength and life, the spirit
of the new generation then arising, before which the old worn-out
generation would crumble into its natural dust.  Dust of the dead ages,
honourable dust, to be reverently inurned, and never parricidally
profaned by us the living age, who in our turn must follow the same
downward path.  Dust, venerable and beloved--but still only dust.

The conversation ending, we took our diverse ways; Sir Ralph giving Mr.
Halifax a hearty invitation to the manor-house, and seeing him
hesitate, added, that "Lady Oldtower would shortly have the honour of
calling upon Mrs. Halifax."

John bowed.  "But I ought to tell you, Sir Ralph, that my wife and I
are very simple people--that we make no mere acquaintances, and only
desire friends."

"It is fortunate that Lady Oldtower and myself share the same
peculiarity."  And, shaking hands with a stately cordiality, the old
man took his leave.

"John, you have made a step in the world to-day."

"Have I?" he said, absently, walking in deep thought, and pulling the
hedge-leaves as he went along.

"What will your wife say?"

"My wife? bless her!" and he seemed to be only speaking the conclusion
of his thinking.  "It will make no difference to her--though it might
to me.  She married me in my low estate--but some day, God willing, no
lady in the land shall be higher than my Ursula."

Thus as in all things each thought most of the other, and both of
Him--whose will was to them beyond all human love, ay, even such love
as theirs.

Slowly, slowly, I watched the grey turrets of the manor-house fade away
in the dusk; the hills grew indistinct, and suddenly we saw the little
twinkling light that we knew was the lamp in Longfield parlour, shine
out like a glow-worm across the misty fields.

"I wonder if the children are gone to bed, Phineas?"

And the fatherly eyes turned fondly to that pretty winking light; the
fatherly heart began to hover over the dear little nest of home.

"Surely there's some one at the white gate.  Ursula!"

"John!  Ah--it is you."

The mother did not express her feelings after the fashion of most
women; but I knew by her waiting there, and by the nervous tremble of
her hand, how great her anxiety had been.

"Is all safe, husband?"

"I think so.  Mr. Oldtower is elected--HE must fly the country."

"Then she is saved."

"Let us hope she is.  Come, my darling!" and he wrapped his arm round
her, for she was shivering.  "We have done all we could and must wait
the rest.  Come home.  Oh!" with a lifted look and a closer strain,
"thank God for home!"



CHAPTER XXV

We always rose early at Longfield.  It was lovely to see the morning
sun climbing over One-Tree Hill, catching the larch-wood, and creeping
down the broad slope of our field; thence up toward Redwood and
Leckington--until, while the dews yet lay thick on our shadowed valley,
Leckington Hill was all in a glow of light.  Delicious, too, to hear
the little ones running in and out, bright and merry as children ought
to be in the first wholesome hours of the day--to see them feeding
their chickens and petting their doves--calling every minute on father
or mother to investigate and enjoy some wonder in farm-yard or garden.
And either was ever ready to listen to the smallest of these little
mysteries, knowing that nothing in childhood is too trivial for the
notice, too foolish for the sympathy, of those on whom the Father of
all men has bestowed the holy dignity of parenthood.

I could see them now, standing among the flower-beds, out in the sunny
morning, the father's tall head in the centre of the group--for he was
always the important person during the brief hour or two that he was
able to be at home.  The mother close beside him, and both knotted
round with an interlaced mass of little arms and little eager faces,
each wanting to hear everything and to look at everything--everybody to
be first and nobody last.  None rested quiet or mute for a second,
except the one who kept close as his shadow to her father's side, and
unwittingly was treated by him less like the other children, than like
some stray spirit of another world, caught and held jealously, but
without much outward notice, lest haply it might take alarm, and vanish
back again unawares.  Whenever he came home and did not see her waiting
at the door, his first question was always--"Where's Muriel?"

Muriel's still face looked very bright this morning--the Monday morning
after the election--because her father was going to be at home the
whole day.  It was the annual holiday he had planned for his
work-people.  This only "dinner-party" we had ever given, was in its
character not unlike that memorable feast, to which were gathered the
poor, the lame, the halt, and the blind--all who needed, and all who
could not return, the kindness.  There were great cooking
preparations--everything that could make merry the heart of man--tea,
to comfort the heart of woman, hard-working woman--and lots of bright
pennies and silver groats to rejoice the very souls of youth.

Mrs. Halifax, Jem Watkins, and his Jenny, were as busy as bees all
morning.  John did his best to help, but finally the mother pleaded how
hard it was that the children should miss their holiday-walk with him,
so we were all dismissed from the scene of action, to spend a long,
quiet two hours, lying under the great oak on One-Tree Hill. The little
ones played about till they were tired; then John took out the
newspaper, and read about Ciudad Rodrigo and Lord Wellington's entry
into Madrid--the battered eagles and the torn and bloody flags of
Badajoz, which were on their way home to the Prince Regent.

"I wish the fighting were over, and peace were come," said Muriel.

But the boys wished quite otherwise; they already gloried in the
accounts of battles, played domestic games of French and English, acted
garden sieges and blockades.

"How strange and awful it seems, to sit on this green grass, looking
down on our quiet valley, and then think of the fighting far away in
Spain--perhaps this very minute, under this very sky.  Boys, I'll never
let either of you be a soldier."

"Poor little fellows!" said I, "they can remember nothing but war time."

"What would peace be like?" asked Muriel.

"A glorious time, my child--rejoicings everywhere, fathers and brothers
coming home, work thriving, poor men's food made cheap, and all things
prospering."

"I should like to live to see it.  Shall I be a woman, then, father?"

He started.  Somehow, she seemed so unlike an ordinary child, that
while all the boys' future was merrily planned out--the mother often
said, laughing, she knew exactly what sort of a young man Guy would
be--none of us ever seemed to think of Muriel as a woman.

"Is Muriel anxious to be grown up?  Is she not satisfied with being my
little daughter always?"

"Always."

Her father drew her to him, and kissed her soft, shut, blind eyes.
Then, sighing, he rose, and proposed that we should all go home.

This first feast at Longfield was a most merry day.  The men and their
families came about noon.  Soon after, they all sat down to dinner; Jem
Watkins' plan of the barn being universally scouted in favour of an
open-air feast, in the shelter of a hay-rick, under the mild blue
September sky.  Jem presided with a ponderous dignity which throughout
the day furnished great private amusement to Ursula, John, and me.

In the afternoon, all rambled about as they liked--many under the
ciceroneship of Master Edwin and Master Guy, who were very popular and
grand indeed.  Then the mother, with Walter clinging shy-eyed to her
gown, went among the other poorer mothers there; talked to one,
comforted another, counselled a third, and invariably listened to all.
There was little of patronizing benevolence about her; she spoke
freely, sometimes even with some sharpness, when reproving comment was
needed; but her earnest kindness, her active goodness, darting at once
to the truth and right of things, touched the women's hearts.  While a
few were a little wholesomely afraid of her--all recognized the
influence of "the mistress," penetrating deep and sure, extending far
and wide.

She laughed at me when I told her so--said it was all nonsense--that
she only followed John's simple recipe for making his work-people feel
that he was a friend as well as a master.

"What is that?"

"To pay attention and consideration to all they say; and always to take
care and remember to call them by their right Christian names."

I could not help smiling--it was an answer so like Mrs. Halifax, who
never indulged in any verbal sentimentalism.  Her part in the world was
deeds.

It was already evening, when, having each contributed our quota, great
or small, to the entertainment, we all came and sat on the long bench
under the walnut-tree.  The sun went down red behind us, throwing a
last glint on the upland field, where, from top to bottom, the young
men and women were running in a long "Thread-the-needle." Their voices
and laughter came fairly down to us.

"I think they have had a happy day, John.  They will work all the
better to-morrow."

"I am quite sure of it."

"So am I," said Guy, who had been acting the young master all day,
condescendingly stating his will and giving his opinion on every
subject, greatly petted and looked up to by all, to the no small
amusement of us elders.

"Why, my son?" asked the father, smiling.

But here Master Guy was posed, and everybody laughed at him.  He
coloured up with childish anger, and crept nearer his mother.  She made
a place for him at her side, looking appealingly at John.

"Guy has got out of his depth--we must help him into safe waters
again," said the father.  "Look here, my son, this is the reason--and
it is well not to be 'quite sure' of a thing unless one knows the
reason.  Our people will work the better, because they will work from
love.  Not merely doing their duty, and obeying their master in a blind
way, but feeling an interest in him and all that belongs to him;
knowing that he feels the same in them.  Knowing, too, that although,
being their superior in many things, he is their master and they his
servants, he never forgets that saying, which I read out of the Bible,
children, this morning:  'ONE IS YOUR MASTER--EVEN CHRIST, AND ALL YE
ARE BRETHREN.'  Do you understand?"

I think they did, for he was accustomed to talk with them thus--even
beyond their years.  Not in the way of preachifying--for these little
ones had in their childish days scarcely any so-called "religious
instruction," save the daily chapter out of the New Testament, and the
father and mother's daily life, which was a simple and literal carrying
out of the same.  To that one test was brought all that was thought, or
said, or done, in our household, where it often seemed as if the Master
were as visibly obeyed and followed as in the household which He loved
at Bethany.

As to what doctrinal creed we held, or what sect we belonged to, I can
give but the plain answer which John gave to all such inquiries--that
we were CHRISTIANS.

After these words from the Holy Book (which the children always
listened to with great reverence, as to the Book which their parents
most loved and honoured, the reading and learning of which was granted
as a high reward and favour, and never carelessly allowed, or--horrible
to think!--inflicted as a punishment), we ceased smiling at Guy, who in
his turn ceased to frown.  The little storm blew over, as our domestic
storms usually did, leaving a clear, free heaven. Loving one another,
of course we quarrelled sometimes; but we always made it up again,
because we loved one another.

"Father, I hear the click of the gate.  There's somebody coming," said
Muriel.

The father paused in a great romp with his sons--paused, as he ever did
when his little daughter's soft voice was heard.  "'Tis only a poor
boy--who can he be?"

"One of the folk that come for milk most likely--but we have none to
give away to-day.  What do you want, my lad?"

The lad, who looked miserable and scared, opened his mouth with a
stupid "Eh?"

Ursula repeated the question.

"I wants Jacob Baines."

"You'll find him with the rest, in front of that hay-rick, over his
pipe and ale."

The lad was off like a shot.

"He is from Kingswell, I think.  Can anything be the matter, John?"

"I will go and see.  No, boys, no more games--I will be back presently."

He went, apparently rather anxious--as was easy to find out by only a
glance at the face of Ursula.  Soon she rose and went after him.  I
followed her.

We saw, close by the hay-rick, a group of men, angrily talking.  The
gossiping mothers were just joining them.  Far off, in the field, the
younger folk were still dancing merrily down their long line of
"Thread-the-needle."

As we approached, we heard sobbing from one or two women, and loud
curses from the men.

"What's amiss?" said Mr. Halifax, as he came in the midst--and both
curses and sobbings were silenced.  All began a confused tale of
wrongs.  "Stop, Jacob--I can't make it out."

"This lad ha' seen it all.  And he bean't a liar in big things--speak
up, Billy."

Somehow or other, we extracted the news brought by ragged Billy, who on
this day had been left in charge of the five dwellings rented of Lord
Luxmore.  During the owners' absence there had been a distraint for
rent; every bit of the furniture was carried off; two or three aged and
sick folk were left lying on the bare floor--and the poor families here
would have to go home to nothing but their four walls.

Again, at repetition of the story, the women wept and the men swore.

"Be quiet," said Mr. Halifax again.  But I saw that his honest English
blood was boiling within him.  "Jem"--and Jem Watkins started, so
unusually sharp and commanding was his master's tone--"Saddle the
mare--quick.  I shall ride to Kingswell, and thence to the sheriff's."

"God bless 'ee, sir!" sobbed Jacob Baines' widowed daughter-in-law, who
had left, as I overheard her telling Mrs. Halifax, a sick child to-day
at home.

Jacob Baines took up a heavy knobbed stick which happened to be leaning
against the hay-rick, and eyed it with savage meaning.

"Who be they as has done this, master?"

"Put that bludgeon down, Jacob."

The man hesitated--met his master's determined eye--and obeyed him,
meek as a lamb.

"But what is us to do, sir?"

"Nothing.  Stay here till I return--you shall come to no harm.  You
will trust me, my men?"

They gathered round him--those big, fierce-looking fellows, in whom was
brute force enough to attack or resist anything--yet he made them
listen to reason.  He explained as much as he could of the injustice
which had apparently been done them--injustice which had overstepped
the law, and could only be met by keeping absolutely within the law.

"It is partly my fault, that I did not pay the rent to-day--I will do
so at once.  I will get your goods back to-night, if I can.  If not,
you hale fellows can rough it, and we'll take the women and children in
till morning--can we not, love?"

"Oh, readily!" said the mother.  "Don't cry, my good women.  Mary
Baines, give me your baby.  Cheer up, the master will set all right!"

John smiled at her in fond thanks--the wife who hindered him by no
selfishness or weakness, but was his right hand and support in
everything.  As he mounted, she gave him his whip, whispering--

"Take care of yourself, mind.  Come back as soon as you can."

And lingeringly she watched him gallop down the field.

It was a strange three hours we passed in his absence.  The misty night
came down, and round about the house crept wailing the loud September
wind.  We brought the women into the kitchen--the men lit a fire in the
farm-yard, and sat sullenly round it.  It was as much as I could do to
persuade Guy and Edwin to go to bed, instead of watching that
"beautiful blaze."  There, more than once, I saw the mother standing,
with a shawl over her head, and her white gown blowing, trying to
reason into patience those poor fellows, savage with their wrongs.

"How far have they been wronged, Phineas?  What is the strict law of
the case?  Will any harm come to John for interfering?"

I told her, no, so far as I knew.  That the cruelty and illegality lay
in the haste of the distraint, and in the goods having been carried off
at once, giving no opportunity of redeeming them.  It was easy to grind
the faces of the poor, who had no helper.

"Never mind; my husband will see them righted--at all risks."

"But Lord Luxmore is his landlord."

She looked troubled.  "I see what you mean.  It is easy to make an
enemy.  No matter--I fear not.  I fear nothing while John does what he
feels to be right--as I know he will; the issue is in higher hands than
ours or Lord Luxmore's.  But where's Muriel?"

For as we sat talking, the little girl--whom nothing could persuade to
go to bed till her father came home--had slipped from my hand, and gone
out into the blustering night.  We found her standing all by herself
under the walnut-tree.

"I wanted to listen for father.  When will he come?"

"Soon, I hope," answered the mother, with a sigh.  "You must not stay
out in the cold and the dark, my child."

"I am not cold, and I know no dark," said Muriel, softly.

And thus so it was with her always.  In her spirit, as in her outward
life, so innocent and harmless, she knew no dark.  No cold looks--no
sorrowful sights--no winter--no age.  The hand laid upon her clear eyes
pressed eternal peace down on her soul.  I believe she was, if ever
human being was, purely and entirely happy.  It was always sweet for us
to know this--it is very sweet still, Muriel, our beloved!

We brought her within the house, but she persisted in sitting in her
usual place, on the door-sill, "waiting" for her father.  It was she
who first heard the white gate swing, and told us he was coming.

Ursula ran down to the stream to meet him.

When they came up the path, it was not alone--John was helping a lame
old woman, and his wife carried in her arms a sick child, on whom, when
they entered the kitchen, Mary Baines threw herself in a passion of
crying.

"What have they been doing to 'ee, Tommy?--'ee warn't like this when I
left 'ee.  Oh, they've been killing my lad, they have!"

"Hush!" said Mrs. Halifax; "we'll get him well again, please God.
Listen to what the master's saying."

He was telling to the men who gathered round the kitchen-door the
results of his journey.

It was--as I had expected from his countenance the first minute he
appeared--fruitless.  He had found all things at Kingswell as stated.
Then he rode to the sheriff's; but Sir Ralph was absent, sent for to
Luxmore Hall on very painful business.

"My friends," said the master, stopping abruptly in his narrative, "for
a few hours you must make up your minds to sit still and bear it.
Every man has to learn that lesson at times.  Your landlord has--I
would rather be the poorest among you than Lord Luxmore this night.  Be
patient; we'll lodge you all somehow.  To-morrow I will pay your
rent--get your goods back--and you shall begin the world again, as my
tenants, not Lord Luxmore's."

"Hurrah!" shouted the men, easily satisfied; as working people are, who
have been used all their days to live from hand to mouth, and to whom
the present is all in all.  They followed the master, who settled them
in the barn; and then came back to consult with his wife as to where
the women could be stowed away.  So, in a short time, the five homeless
families were cheerily disposed of--all but Mary Baines and her sick
boy.

"What can we do with them?" said John, questioningly to Ursula.

"I see but one course.  We must take him in; his mother says hunger is
the chief thing that ails the lad.  She fancies that he has had the
measles; but our children have had it too, so there's no fear. Come
up-stairs, Mary Baines."

Passing, with a thankful look, the room where her own boys slept, the
good mother established this forlorn young mother and her two children
in a little closet outside the nursery door; cheered her with
comfortable words; helped her ignorance with wise counsels--for Ursula
was the general doctress of all the poor folk round.  It was almost
midnight before she came down to the parlour where John and I sat, he
with little Muriel asleep in his arms.  The child would gladly have
slumbered away all night there, with the delicate, pale profile pressed
close into his breast.

"Is all right, love?  How tired you must be!"  John put his left arm
round his wife as she came and knelt by him, in front of the cheerful
fire.

"Tired?  Oh, of course; but you can't think how comfortable they are
up-stairs.  Only poor Mary Baines does nothing but cry, and keep
telling me that nothing ails her lad but hunger.  Are they so very
poor?"

John did not immediately answer; I fancied he looked suddenly uneasy,
and imperceptibly pressed his little girl closer to him.

"The lad seems very ill.  Much worse than our children were with
measles."

"Yet how they suffered, poor pets! especially Walter.  It was the
thought of them made me pity her so.  Surely I have not done wrong?"

"No--love; quite right and kind.  Acting so, I think one need not fear.
See, mother, how soundly Muriel sleeps.  It's almost a pity to waken
her--but we must go to bed now."

"Stay one minute," I said.  "Tell us, John--I quite forgot to ask till
now--what is that 'painful business' you mentioned, which called the
sheriff to Lord Luxmore's?"

John glanced at his wife, leaning fondly against him, her face full of
sweet peace, then at his little daughter asleep, then round the
cheerful fire-lit room, outside which the autumn night-wind went
howling furiously.

"Love, we that are so happy, we must not, dare not condemn."

She looked at him with a shocked inquiry.  "You don't mean--No; it is
impossible!"

"It is true.  She has gone away."

Ursula sank down, hiding her face.  "Horrible!  And only two days since
she was here, kissing our children."

We all three kept a long silence; then I ventured to ask when she went
away?

"This morning, early.  They took--at least, Mr. Vermilye did--all the
property of Lord Luxmore's that he could lay his hands upon--family
jewels and money to a considerable amount.  The earl is pursuing him
now, not only as his daughter's seducer, but as a swindler and a thief."

"And Richard Brithwood?"

"Drinks--and drinks--and drinks.  That is the beginning and the end of
all."

There was no more to be said.  She had dropped for ever out of her old
life, as completely as a star out of the sky.  Henceforth, for years
and years, neither in our home, nor, I believe, in any other, was there
the slightest mention made of Lady Caroline Brithwood.

          *          *          *          *          *

All the next day John was from home, settling the Kingswell affair. The
ejected tenants--our tenants now--left us at last, giving a parting
cheer for Mr. Halifax, the best master in all England.

Sitting down to tea, with no small relief that all was over, John asked
his wife after the sick lad.

"He is very ill still, I think."

"Are you sure it is measles?"

"I imagine so; and I have seen nearly all childish diseases,
except--no, THAT is quite impossible!" added the mother, hastily.  She
cast an anxious glance on her little ones; her hand slightly shook as
she poured out their cups of milk.  "Do you think, John--it was hard to
do it when the child is so ill--I ought to have sent them away with the
others?"

"Certainly not.  If it were anything dangerous, of course Mary Baines
would have told us.  What are the lad's symptoms?"

As Ursula informed him, I thought he looked more and more serious; but
he did not let her see.

"Make your mind easy, love; a word from Dr. Jessop will decide all. I
will fetch him after tea.  Cheer up!  Please God, no harm will come to
our little ones!"

The mother brightened again; with her all the rest; and the tea-table
clatter went on merry as ever.  Then, it being a wet night, Mrs.
Halifax gathered her boys round her knee for an evening chat over the
kitchen-fire; while through the open door, out of the dim parlour came
"Muriel's voice," as we called the harpsichord.  It seemed sweeter than
ever this night, like--as her father once said, but checked himself,
and never said it afterwards--like Muriel talking with angels.

He sat listening awhile, then, without any remark, put on his coat and
went out to fetch the good doctor.  I followed him down to the stream.

"Phineas," he said, "will you mind--don't notice it to the mother--but
mind and keep her and the children down-stairs till I come back?"

I promised.  "Are you uneasy about Mary Baines's lad?"

"No; I have full trust in human means, and above all, in--what I need
not speak of.  Still, precautions are wise.  Do you remember that day
when, rather against Ursula's wish, I vaccinated the children?"

I remembered.  Also that the virus had taken effect with all but
Muriel; and we had lately talked of repeating the much-blamed and
miraculous experiment upon her.  I hinted this.

"Phineas, you mistake," he answered, rather sharply.  "She is quite
safe--as safe as the others.  I wrote to Dr. Jenner himself.  But don't
mention that I spoke about this."

"Why not?"

"Because to-day I heard that they have had the small-pox at Kingswell."

I felt a cold shudder.  Though inoculation and vaccination had made it
less fatal among the upper classes, this frightful scourge still
decimated the poor, especially children.  Great was the obstinacy in
refusing relief; and loud the outcry in Norton Bury, when Mr. Halifax,
who had met and known Dr. Jenner in London--finding no practitioner
that would do it, persisted in administering the vaccine virus himself
to his children.  But still, with a natural fear, he had kept them out
of all risk of taking the small-pox until now.

"John, do you think--"

"No; I will not allow myself to think.  Not a word of this at home,
mind.  Good-bye!"

He walked away, and I returned up the path heavily, as if a cloud of
terror and dole were visibly hanging over our happy Longfield.

The doctor appeared; he went up to the sick lad; then he and Mr.
Halifax were closeted together for a long time.  After he was gone,
John came into the kitchen, where Ursula sat with Walter on her knee.
The child was in his little white night-gown, playing with his elder
brothers, and warming his rosy toes.

The mother had recovered herself entirely:  was content and gay.  I saw
John's glance at her, and then--and then I feared.

"What does the doctor say?  The child will soon be well?"

"We must hope so."

"John, what do you mean?  I thought the little fellow looked better
when I went up to see him last.  And there--I hear the poor mother
up-stairs crying."

"She may cry; she has need," said John, bitterly.  "She knew it all the
while.  She never thought of our children; but they are safe.  Be
content, love--please God, they are quite safe.  Very few take it after
vaccination."

"It--do you mean the small-pox?  Has the lad got small-pox?  Oh, God
help us!  My children--my children!"

She grew white as death; long shivers came over her from head to foot.
The little boys, frightened, crept up to her; she clasped them all
together in her arms, turning her head with a wild savage look, as if
some one were stealing behind to take them from her.

Muriel, perceiving the silence, felt her way across the room, and
touching her mother's face, said, anxiously, "Has anybody been naughty?"

"No, my darling; no!"

"Then never mind.  Father says, nothing will harm us, except being
naughty.  Did you not, father?"

John snatched his little daughter up to his bosom, and called her for
the hundredth time the name my poor old father had named her--the
"blessed" child.

We all grew calmer; the mother wept a little, and it did her good: we
comforted the boys and Muriel, telling them that in truth nothing was
the matter, only we were afraid of their catching the little lad's
sickness, and they must not go near him.

"Yes; she shall quit the house this minute--this very minute," said the
mother, sternly, but with a sort of wildness too.

Her husband made no immediate answer; but as she rose to leave the
room, he detained her.  "Ursula, do you know the child is all but
dying?"

"Let him die!  The wicked woman!  She knew it, and she let me bring him
among my children--my own poor children!"

"I would she had never come.  But what is done, is done.  Love,
think--if YOU were turned out of doors this bleak, rainy night--with a
dying child."

"Hush! hush!"--She sank down with a sob.

"My darling!" whispered John, as he made her lean against him--her
support and comfort in all things:  "do you think my heart is not ready
to break, like yours?  But I trust in God.  This trouble came upon us
while we were doing right; let us do right still, and we need not fear.
Humanly speaking, our children are safe; it is only our own terror
which exaggerates the danger.  They may not take the disease at all.
Then, how could we answer it to our conscience if we turned out this
poor soul, and HER child died?"

"No! no!"

"We will use all precautions.  The boys shall be moved to the other end
of the house."

I proposed that they should occupy my room, as I had had smallpox, and
was safe.

"Thank you, Phineas; and even should they take it, Dr. Jenner has
assured me that in every case after vaccination it has been the very
slightest form of the complaint.  Be patient, love; trust in God, and
have no fear."

Her husband's voice gradually calmed her.  At last, she turned and
clung round his neck, silently and long.  Then she rose up and went
about her usual duties, just as if this horrible dread were not upon us.

Mary Baines and her children stayed in the house.  Next day, about
noon, the little lad died.

It was the first death that had ever happened under our roof.  It
shocked us all very much, especially the children.  We kept them far
away on the other side of the house--out of the house, when
possible--but still they would be coming back and looking up at the
window, at which, as Muriel declared, the little sick boy "had turned
into an angel and flown away."  The mother allowed the fancy to remain;
she thought it wrong and horrible that a child's first idea should be
"putting into the pit-hole."  Truer and more beautiful was Muriel's
instinctive notion of "turning into an angel and flying away."  So we
arranged that the poor little body should be coffined and removed
before the children rose next morning.

It was a very quiet tea-time.  A sense of awe was upon the little ones,
they knew not why.  Many questions they asked about poor Tommy Baines,
and where he had gone to, which the mother only answered after the
simple manner of Scripture--he "was not, for God took him." But when
they saw Mary Baines go crying down the field-path, Muriel asked "why
she cried? how could she cry, when it was God who had taken little
Tommy?"

Afterwards she tried to learn of me privately, what sort of place it
was he had gone to, and how he went; whether he had carried with him
all his clothes, and especially the great bunch of woodbine she sent to
him yesterday; and above all, whether he had gone by himself, or if
some of the "angels," which held so large a place in Muriel's thoughts,
and of which she was ever talking, had come to fetch him and take care
of him.  She hoped--indeed, she felt sure--they had. She wished she had
met them, or heard them about in the house.

And seeing how the child's mind was running on the subject, I thought
it best to explain to her as simply as I could, the solemn putting off
of life and putting on of immortality.  I wished that my darling, who
could never visibly behold death, should understand it as no image of
terror, but only as a calm sleep and a joyful waking in another
country, the glories of which eye had not seen nor ear heard.

"Eye has not seen!" repeated Muriel, thoughtfully; "can people SEE
there, Uncle Phineas?"

"Yes, my child.  There is no darkness at all."

She paused a minute, and said earnestly, "I want to go--I very much
want to go.  How long do you think it will be before the angels come
for me?"

"Many, many years, my precious one," said I, shuddering; for truly she
looked so like them, that I began to fear they were close at hand.

But a few minutes afterwards she was playing with her brothers and
talking to her pet doves, so sweet and humanlike, that the fear passed
away.

We sent the children early to bed that night, and sat long by the fire,
consulting how best to remove infection, and almost satisfied that in
these two days it could not have taken any great hold on the house.
John was firm in his belief in Dr. Jenner and vaccination. We went to
bed greatly comforted, and the household sank into quiet slumbers, even
though under its roof slept, in deeper sleep, the little dead child.

That small closet, which was next to the nursery I occupied, safely
shut out by it from the rest of the house, seemed very still now.  I
went to sleep thinking of it, and dreamed of it afterwards.

In the middle of the night a slight noise woke me, and I almost fancied
I was dreaming still; for there I saw a little white figure gliding
past my bed's foot; so softly and soundlessly--it might have been the
ghost of a child--and it went into the dead child's room.

For a moment, that superstitious instinct which I believe we all have,
paralyzed me.  Then I tried to listen.  There was most certainly a
sound in the next room--a faint cry, quickly smothered--a very human
cry.  All the stories I had ever heard of supposed death and premature
burial rushed horribly into my mind.  Conquering alike my superstitious
dread or fear of entering the infected room, I leaped out of bed, threw
on some clothes, got a light, and went in.

There laid the little corpse, all safe and still--for ever.  And like
its own spirit watching in the night at the head of the forsaken clay,
sat Muriel.

I snatched her up and ran with her out of the room, in an agony of fear.

She hid her face on my shoulder, trembling, "I have not done wrong,
have I?  I wanted to know what it was like--that which you said was
left of little Tommy.  I touched it--it was so cold.  Oh! Uncle
Phineas! THAT isn't poor little Tommy?"

"No, my blessed one--no, my dearest child!  Don't think of it any more."

And, hardly knowing what was best to be done, I called John, and told
him where I had found his little daughter.  He never spoke, but
snatched her out of my arms into his own, took her in his room, and
shut the door.

From that time our fears never slumbered.  For one whole week we
waited, watching the children hour by hour, noting each change in each
little face; then Muriel sickened.

It was I who had to tell her father, when as he came home in the
evening I met him by the stream.  It seemed to him almost like the
stroke of death.

"Oh, my God! not her!  Any but her!"  And by that I knew, what I had
long guessed, that she was the dearest of all his children.

Edwin and Walter took the disease likewise, though lightly.  No one was
in absolute danger except Muriel.  But for weeks we had what people
call "sickness in the house;" that terrible overhanging shadow which
mothers and fathers well know; under which one must live and move,
never resting night nor day.  This mother and father bore their
portion, and bore it well.  When she broke down, which was not often,
he sustained her.  If I were to tell of all he did--how, after being
out all day, night after night he would sit up watching by and nursing
each little fretful sufferer, patient as a woman, and pleasant as a
child play-mate--perhaps those who talk loftily of "the dignity of man"
would smile.  I pardon them.

The hardest minute of the twenty-four hours was, I think, that when,
coming home, he caught sight of me afar off waiting for him, as I
always did, at the white gate; and many a time, as we walked down to
the stream, I saw--what no one else saw but God.  After such times I
used often to ponder over what great love His must be, who, as the
clearest revelation of it, and of its nature, calls Himself "the
Father."

And He brought us safe through our time of anguish:  He left us every
one of our little ones.

One November Sunday, when all the fields were in a mist, and the rain
came pouring softly and incessantly upon the patient earth which had
been so torn and dried up by east winds, that she seemed glad enough to
put aside the mockery of sunshine and melt in quiet tears, we once more
gathered our flock together in thankfulness and joy.

Muriel came down-stairs triumphantly in her father's arms, and lay on
the sofa smiling; the firelight dancing on her small white face--white
and unscarred.  The disease had been kind to the blind child; she was,
I think, more sweet-looking than ever.  Older, perhaps; the round
prettiness of childhood gone--but her whole appearance wore that
inexpressible expression, in which, for want of a suitable word, we all
embody our vague notions of the unknown world, and call "angelic."

"Does Muriel feel quite well--quite strong and well?" the father and
mother both kept saying every now and then, as they looked at her. She
always answered, "Quite well."

In the afternoon, when the boys were playing in the kitchen, and John
and I were standing at the open door, listening to the dropping of the
rain in the garden, we heard, after its long  silence, Muriel's "voice."

"Father, listen!" whispered the mother, linking her arm through his as
he stood at the door.  Soft and slow came the notes of the old
harpsichord--she was playing one of the abbey anthems.  Then it melted
away into melodies we knew not--sweet and strange.  Her parents looked
at one another--their hearts were full of thankfulness and joy.

"And Mary Baines's little lad is in the churchyard."



CHAPTER XXVI

"What a comfort! the day-light is lengthening.  I think this has been
the very dreariest winter I ever knew.  Has it not, my little daughter?
Who brought her these violets?"

And John placed himself on a corner of my own particular armchair,
where, somehow or other, Muriel always lay curled up at tea-time
now--(ay, and many hours in the day-time, though we hardly noticed it
at first).  Taking between his hands the little face, which broke into
smiles at the merest touch of the father's fingers, he asked her "when
she intended to go a walk with him?"

"To-morrow."

"So we have said for a great many to-morrows, but it is always put off.
What do you think, mother--is the little maid strong enough?"

Mrs. Halifax hesitated; said something about "east winds."

"Yet I think it would do her good if she braved east winds, and played
out of doors as the boys do.  Would you not like it, Muriel?"

The child shrank back with an involuntary "Oh, no."

"That is because she is a little girl, necessarily less strong than the
lads are.  Is it not so, Uncle Phineas?" continued her father, hastily,
for I was watching them.

"Muriel will be quite strong when the warm weather comes.  We have had
such a severe winter.  Every one of the children has suffered," said
the mother, in a cheerful tone, as she poured out a cup of cream for
her daughter, to whom was now given, by common consent, all the richest
and rarest of the house.

"I think every one has," said John, looking round on his apple-cheeked
boys; it must have been a sharp eye that detected any decrease of
health, or increase of suffering, there.  "But my plan will set all to
rights.  I spoke to Mrs. Tod yesterday.  She will be ready to take us
all in.  Boys, shall you like going to Enderley? You shall go as soon
as ever the larch-wood is green."

For, at Longfield, already we began to make a natural almanack and
chronological table.  "When the may was out"--"When Guy found the first
robin's nest"--"When the field was all cowslips"--and so on.

"Is it absolutely necessary we should go?" said the mother, who had a
strong home-clinging, and already began to hold tiny Longfield as the
apple of her eye.

"I think so, unless you will consent to let me go alone to Enderley."

She shook her head.

"What, with those troubles at the mills?  How can you speak so lightly?"

"Not lightly, love--only cheerfully.  The troubles must be borne; why
not bear them with as good heart as possible?  They cannot last--let
Lord Luxmore do what he will.  If, as I told you, we re-let Longfield
for this one summer to Sir Ralph, we shall save enough to put the mill
in thorough repair.  If my landlord will not do it, I will; and add a
steam-engine, too."

Now the last was a daring scheme, discussed many a winter night by us
three in Longfield parlour.  At first, Mrs. Halifax had looked
grave--most women would, especially wives and mothers, in those days
when every innovation was regarded with horror, and improvement and
ruin were held synonymous.  She might have thought so too, had she not
believed in her husband.  But now, at mention of the steam-engine, she
looked up and smiled.

"Lady Oldtower asked me about it to-day.  She said, 'she hoped you
would not ruin yourself, like Mr. Miller of Glasgow!'  I said I was not
afraid."

Her husband returned a bright look.  "It is easier to make the world
trust one, when one is trusted by one's own household."

"Ah! never fear; you will make your fortune yet, in spite of Lord
Luxmore."

For, all winter, John had found out how many cares come with an
attained wish.  Chiefly, because, as the earl had said, his lordship
possessed an "excellent memory."  The Kingswell election had worked its
results in a hundred small ways, wherein the heavy hand of the landlord
could be laid upon the tenant.  He bore up bravely against it; but hard
was the struggle between might and right, oppression and staunch
resistance.  It would have gone harder, but for one whom John now began
to call his "friend;" at least, one who invariably called Mr. Halifax
so--our neighbour, Sir Ralph Oldtower.

"How often has Lady Oldtower been here, Ursula?"

"She called first, you remember, after our trouble with the children;
she has been twice since, I think.  To-day she wanted me to bring
Muriel and take luncheon at the Manor House.  I shall not go--I told
her so."

"But gently, I hope?--you are so very outspoken, love.  You made her
clearly understand that it is not from incivility we decline her
invitations?--Well--never mind!  Some day we will take our place, and
so shall our children, with any gentry in the land."

I think--though John rarely betrayed it--he had strongly this
presentiment of future power, which may often be noticed in men who
have carved out their own fortunes.  They have in them the instinct to
rise; and as surely as water regains its own level, so do they, from
however low a source, ascend to theirs.

Not many weeks after, we removed in a body to Enderley.  Though the
chief reason was, that John might be constantly on the spot,
superintending his mills, yet I fancied I could detect a secondary
reason, which he would not own even to himself; but which peered out
unconsciously in his anxious looks.  I saw it when he tried to rouse
Muriel into energy, by telling her how much she would enjoy Enderley
Hill; how sweet the primroses grew in the beechwood, and how wild and
fresh the wind swept over the common, morning and night.  His daily
longing seemed to be to make her love the world, and the things
therein.  He used to turn away, almost in pain, from her smile, as she
would listen to all he said, then steal off to the harpsichord, and
begin that soft, dreamy music, which the children called "talking to
angels."

We came to Enderley through the valley, where was John's cloth-mill.
Many a time in our walks he and I had passed it, and stopped to listen
to the drowsy fall of the miniature Niagara, or watch the incessant
turning--turning of the great water-wheel.  Little we thought he should
ever own it, or that John would be pointing it out to his own boys,
lecturing them on "undershot," and "overshot," as he used to lecture me.

It was sweet, though half-melancholy, to see Enderley again; to climb
the steep meadows and narrow mule-paths, up which he used to help me so
kindly.  He could not now; he had his little daughter in his arms. It
had come, alas! to be a regular thing that Muriel should be carried up
every slight ascent, and along every hard road.  We paused half-way up
on a low wall, where I had many a time rested, watching the sunset over
Nunneley Hill--watching for John to come home.  Every night--at least
after Miss March went away--he usually found me sitting there.

He turned to me and smiled.  "Dost remember, lad?" at which appellation
Guy widely stared.  But, for a minute, how strangely it brought back
old times, when there were neither wife nor children--only he and I!
This seat on the wall, with its small twilight picture of the valley
below the mill, and Nunneley heights, with that sentinel row of sun-set
trees--was all mine--mine solely--for evermore.

"Enderley is just the same, Phineas.  Twelve years have made no
change--except in us."  And he looked fondly at his wife, who stood a
little way off, holding firmly on the wall, in a hazardous group, her
three boys.  "I think the chorus and comment on all life might be
included in two brief phrases given by our friend Shakspeare, one to
Hamlet, the other to Othello:  ''Tis very strange,' and ''Tis better as
it is.'"

"Ay, ay," said I thoughtfully.  Better as it was; better a thousand
times.

I went to Mrs. Halifax, and helped her to describe the prospect to the
inquisitive boys; finally coaxing the refractory Guy up the winding
road, where, just as if it had been yesterday, stood my old friends, my
four Lombardy poplars, three together and one apart.

Mrs. Tod descried us afar off and was waiting at the gate; a little
stouter, a little rosier--that was all.  In her delight, she so
absolutely forgot herself as to address the mother as Miss March; at
which long-unspoken name Ursula started, her colour went and came, and
her eyes turned restlessly towards the church hard by.

"It is all right--Miss--Ma'am, I mean.  Tod bears in mind Mr. Halifax's
orders, and has planted lots o' flower-roots and evergreens."

"Yes, I know."

And when she had put all her little ones to bed--we, wondering where
the mother was, went out towards the little churchyard, and found her
quietly sitting there.

We were very happy at Enderley.  Muriel brightened up before she had
been there many days.  She began to throw off her listlessness, and go
about with me everywhere.  It was the season she enjoyed most--the time
of the singing of birds, and the springing of delicate-scented flowers.
I myself never loved the beech-wood better than did our Muriel.  She
used continually to tell us this was the happiest spring she had ever
had in her life.

John was much occupied now.  He left his Norton Bury business under
efficient care, and devoted himself almost wholly to the cloth-mill.
Early and late he was there.  Very often Muriel and I followed him, and
spent whole mornings in the mill meadows.  Through them the stream on
which the machinery depended was led by various contrivances, checked
or increased in its flow, making small ponds, or locks, or waterfalls.
We used to stay for hours listening to its murmur, to the sharp,
strange cry of the swans that were kept there, and the twitter of the
water-hen to her young among the reeds.  Then the father would come to
us and remain a few minutes--fondling Muriel, and telling me how things
went on at the mill.

One morning, as we three sat there, on the brick-work of a little
bridge, underneath an elm tree, round the roots of which the water made
a pool so clear, that we could see a large pike lying like a black
shadow, half-way down; John suddenly said:

"What is the matter with the stream?  Do you notice, Phineas?"

"I have seen it gradually lowering--these two hours.  I thought you
were drawing off the water."

"Nothing of the kind--I must look after it.  Good-bye, my little
daughter.  Don't cling so fast; father will be back soon--and isn't
this a sweet sunny place for a little maid to be lazy in?"

His tone was gay, but he had an anxious look.  He walked rapidly down
the meadows, and went into his mill.  Then I saw him retracing his
steps, examining where the stream entered the bounds of his property.
Finally, he walked off towards the little town at the head of the
valley--beyond which, buried in woods, lay Luxmore Hall.  It was two
hours more before we saw him again.

Then he came towards us, narrowly watching the stream.  It had sunk
more and more--the muddy bottom was showing plainly.

"Yes--that's it--it can be nothing else!  I did not think he would have
dared to do it."

"Do what, John?  Who?"

"Lord Luxmore."  He spoke in the smothered tones of violent passion.
"Lord Luxmore has turned out of its course the stream that works my
mill."

I tried to urge that such an act was improbable; in fact, against the
law.

"Not against the law of the great against the little.  Besides, he
gives a decent colouring--says he only wants the use of the stream
three days a week, to make fountains at Luxmore Hall.  But I see what
it is--I have seen it coming a whole year.  He is determined to ruin
me!"

John said this in much excitement.  He hardly felt Muriel's tiny
creeping hands.

"What does 'ruin' mean?  Is anybody making father angry?"

"No, my sweet--not angry--only very, very miserable!"

He snatched her up, and buried his head in her soft, childish bosom.
She kissed him and patted his hair.

"Never mind, dear father.  You say nothing signifies, if we are only
good.  And father is always good."

"I wish I were."

He sat down with her on his knee; the murmur of the elm-leaves, and the
slow dropping of the stream, soothed him.  By and by, his spirit rose,
as it always did, the heavier it was pressed down.

"No, Lord Luxmore shall not ruin me!  I have thought of a scheme. But
first I must speak to my people--I shall have to shorten wages for a
time."

"How soon?"

"To-night.  If it must be done--better done at once, before winter sets
in.  Poor fellows! it will go hard with them--they'll be hard upon me.
But it is only temporary; I must reason them into patience, if I
can;--God knows, it is not they alone who want it."

He almost ground his teeth as he saw the sun shining on the far white
wing of Luxmore Hall.

"Have you no way of righting yourself?  If it is an unlawful act, why
not go to law?"

"Phineas, you forget my principle--only mine, however; I do not force
it upon any one else--my firm principle, that I will never go to law.
Never!  I would not like to have it said, in contradistinction to the
old saying, 'See how these Christians FIGHT!'"

I urged no more; since, whether abstractedly the question be right or
wrong, there can be no doubt that what a man believes to be evil, to
him it is evil.

"Now, Uncle Phineas, go you home with Muriel.  Tell my wife what has
occurred--say, I will come to tea as soon as I can.  But I may have
some little trouble with my people here.  She must not alarm herself."

No, the mother never did.  She wasted no time in puerile
apprehensions--it was not her nature; she had the rare feminine virtue
of never "fidgetting"--at least, externally.  What was to be borne--she
bore:  what was to be done--she did; but she rarely made any "fuss"
about either her doings or her sufferings.

To-night, she heard all my explanation; understood it, I think, more
clearly than I did--probably from being better acquainted with her
husband's plans and fears.  She saw at once the position in which he
was placed; a grave one, to judge by her countenance.

"Then you think John is right?"

"Of course I do."

I had not meant it as a question, or even a doubt.  But it was pleasant
to hear her thus answer.  For, as I have said, Ursula was not a woman
to be led blindfold, even by her husband.  Sometimes they differed on
minor points, and talked their differences lovingly out; but on any
great question she had always this safe trust in him--that if one were
right and the other wrong, the erring one was much more likely to be
herself than John.

She said no more; but put the children to bed; then came downstairs
with her bonnet on.

"Will you come with me, Phineas?  Or are you too tired?  I am going
down to the mill."

She started, walking quickly--yet not so quick but that on the slope of
the common she stooped to pick up a crying child, and send it home to
its mother in Enderley village.

It was almost dark, and we met no one else except a young man, whom I
had occasionally seen about of evenings.  He was rather odd looking,
being invariably muffled up in a large cloak and a foreign sort of hat.

"Who is that, watching our mills?" said Mrs. Halifax, hastily.

I told her all I had seen of the person.

"A Papist, most likely--I mean a Catholic."  (John objected to the
opprobrious word "Papist.")  "Mrs. Tod says there are a good many
hidden hereabouts.  They used to find shelter at Luxmore."

And that name set both our thoughts anxiously wandering; so that not
until we reached the foot of the hill did I notice that the person had
followed us almost to the mill-gates.

In his empty mill, standing beside one of its silenced looms, we found
the master.  He was very much dejected--Ursula touched his arm before
he even saw her.

"Well, love--you know what has happened?"

"Yes, John.  But never mind."

"I would not--except for my poor people."

"What do you intend doing?  That which you have wished to do all the
year?"

"Our wishes come as a cross to us sometimes," he said, rather bitterly.
"It is the only thing I can do.  The water-power being so greatly
lessened, I must either stop the mills, or work them by steam."

"Do that, then.  Set up your steam-engine."

"And have all the country down upon me for destroying hand-labour? Have
a new set of Luddites coming to burn my mill, and break my machinery?
That is what Lord Luxmore wants.  Did he not say he would ruin
me?--Worse than this--he is ruining my good name.  If you had heard
those poor people whom I sent away tonight!  What must they, who will
have short work these two months, and after that machinery-work, which
they fancy is taking the very bread out of their mouths--what must they
think of the master?"

He spoke--as we rarely heard John speak:  as worldly cares and worldly
injustice cause even the best of men to speak sometimes.

"Poor people!" he added, "how can I blame them?  I was actually dumb
before them to-night, when they said I must take the cost of what I
do--they must have bread for their children.  But so must I for mine.
Lord Luxmore is the cause of all."

Here I heard--or fancied I heard--out of the black shadow behind the
loom, a heavy sigh.  John and Ursula were too anxious to notice it.

"Could anything be done?" she asked.  "Just to keep things going till
your steam-engine is ready?  Will it cost much?"

"More than I like to think of.  But it must be;--nothing
venture--nothing have.  You and the children are secure anyhow, that's
one comfort.  But oh, my poor people at Enderley!"

Again Ursula asked if nothing could be done.

"Yes--I did think of one plan--but--"

"John, I know what you thought of."

She laid her hand on his arm, and looked straight up at him--eye to
eye.  Often, it seemed that from long habit they could read one
another's minds in this way, clearly as a book.  At last John said:

"Would it be too hard a sacrifice, love?"

"How can you talk so!  We could do it easily, by living in a plainer
way; by giving up one or two trifles.  Only outside things, you know.
Why need we care for outside things?"

"Why, indeed?" he said, in a low, fond tone.

So I easily found out how they meant to settle the difficulty; namely,
by setting aside a portion of the annual income which John, in his
almost morbid anxiety lest his family should take harm by any possible
non-success in his business, had settled upon his wife. Three months of
little renunciations--three months of the old narrow way of living, as
at Norton Bury--and the poor people at Enderley might have full wages,
whether or no there was full work.  Then in our quiet valley there
would be no want, no murmurings, and, above all, no blaming of the
master.

They decided it all--in fewer words than I have taken to write it--it
was so easy to decide when both were of one mind.

"Now," said John, rising, as if a load were taken off his breast--"now,
do what he will Lord Luxmore cannot do me any harm."

"Husband, don't let us speak of Lord Luxmore."

Again that sigh--quite ghostly in the darkness.  They heard it likewise
this time.

"Who's there?"

"Only I, Mr. Halifax--don't be angry with me."

It was the softest, mildest voice--the voice of one long used to
oppression; and the young man whom Ursula had supposed to be a Catholic
appeared from behind the loom.

"I do not know you, sir.  How came you to enter my mill?"

"I followed Mrs. Halifax.  I have often watched her and your children.
But you don't remember me."

Yes; when he came underneath the light of the one tallow candle, we all
recognized the face--more wan than ever--with a sadder and more
hopeless look in the large grey eyes.

"I am surprised to see you here, Lord Ravenel."

"Hush!  I hate the very sound of the name.  I would have renounced it
long ago.  I would have hid myself away from him and from the world, if
he would have let me."

"He--do you mean your father?"

The boy--no, he was a young man now, but scarcely looked more than a
boy--assented silently, as if afraid to utter the name.

"Would not your coming here displease him?" said John, always tenacious
of trenching a hair's breadth upon any lawful authority.

"It matters not--he is away.  He has left me these six months alone at
Luxmore."

"Have you offended him?" asked Ursula, who had cast kindly looks on the
thin face, which perhaps reminded her of another--now for ever banished
from our sight, and his also.

"He hates me because I am a Catholic, and wish to become a monk."

The youth crossed himself, then started and looked round, in terror of
observers.  "You will not betray me?  You are a good man, Mr. Halifax,
and you spoke warmly for us.  Tell me--I will keep your secret--are you
a Catholic too?"

"No, indeed."

"Ah! I hoped you were.  But you are sure you will not betray me?"

Mr. Halifax smiled at such a possibility.  Yet, in truth, there was
some reason for the young man's fears; since, even in those days,
Catholics were hunted down both by law and by public opinion, as
virulently as Protestant nonconformists.  All who kept out of the pale
of the national church were denounced as schismatics, deists,
atheists--it was all one.

"But why do you wish to leave the world?"

"I am sick of it.  There never was but one in it I cared for, or who
cared for me--and now--Sancta Maria, ora pro nobis."

His lips moved in a paroxysm of prayer--helpless, parrot-learnt, Latin
prayer; yet, being in earnest, it seemed to do him good.  The mother,
as if she heard in fancy that pitiful cry, which rose to my memory
too--"Poor William!--don't tell William!"--turned and spoke to him
kindly, asking him if he would go home with us.

He looked exceedingly surprised.  "I--you cannot mean it?  After Lord
Luxmore has done you all this evil?"

"Is that any reason why I should not do good to his son--that is, if I
could?  Can I?"

The lad lifted up those soft grey eyes, and then I remembered what his
sister had said of Lord Ravenel's enthusiastic admiration of Mr.
Halifax.  "Oh, you could--you could."

"But I and mine are heretics, you know!"

"I will pray for you.  Only let me come and see you--you and your
children."

"Come, and welcome."

"Heartily welcome, Lord--"

"No--not that name, Mrs. Halifax.  Call me as they used to call me at
St.  Omer--Brother Anselmo."

The mother was half inclined to smile; but John never smiled at any
one's religious beliefs, howsoever foolish.  He held in universal
sacredness that one rare thing--sincerity.

So henceforward "Brother Anselmo" was almost domesticated at Rose
Cottage.  What would the earl have said, had a little bird flown over
to London and told him that his only son, the heir-apparent to his
title and political opinions, was in constant and open association--for
clandestine acquaintance was against all our laws and rules--with John
Halifax the mill-owner, John Halifax the radical, as he was still
called sometimes; imbibing principles, modes of life and of thought,
which, to say the least, were decidedly different from those of the
house of Luxmore!

Above all, what would that noble parent have said, had he been aware
that this, his only son, for whom, report whispered, he was already
planning a splendid marriage--as grand in a financial point of view as
that he planned for his only daughter--that Lord Ravenel was spending
all the love of his loving nature in the half paternal, half lover-like
sentiment which a young man will sometimes lavish on a mere child--upon
John Halifax's little blind daughter, Muriel!

He said, "She made him good"--our child of peace.  He would sit, gazing
on her almost as if she were his guardian angel--his patron saint.  And
the little maid in her quiet way was very fond of him; delighting in
his company when her father was not by.  But no one ever was to her
like her father.

The chief bond between her and Lord Ravenel--or "Anselmo," as he would
have us call him--was music.  He taught her to play on the organ, in
the empty church close by.  There during the long midsummer evenings,
they two would sit for hours in the organ-gallery, while I listened
down below; hardly believing that such heavenly sounds could come from
those small child-fingers; almost ready to fancy she had called down
some celestial harmonist to aid her in playing.  Since, as we used to
say--but by some instinct never said now--Muriel was so fond of
"talking with the angels."

Just at this time, her father saw somewhat less of her than usual. He
was oppressed with business cares; daily, hourly vexations.  Only twice
a week the great water-wheel, the delight of our little Edwin as it had
once been of his father, might be seen slowly turning; and the
water-courses along the meadows, with their mechanically-forced
channels, and their pretty sham cataracts, were almost always low or
dry.  It ceased to be a pleasure to walk in the green hollow, between
the two grassy hills, which heretofore Muriel and I had liked even
better than the Flat.  Now she missed the noise of the water--the cry
of the water-hens--the stirring of the reeds.  Above all, she missed
her father, who was too busy to come out of his mill to us, and hardly
ever had a spare minute, even for his little daughter.

He was setting up that wonderful novelty--a steam-engine.  He had
already been to Manchester and elsewhere, and seen how the new power
was applied by Arkwright, Hargreaves, and others; his own ingenuity and
mechanical knowledge furnished the rest.  He worked early and
late--often with his own hands--aided by the men he brought with him
from Manchester.  For it was necessary to keep the secret--especially
in our primitive valley--until the thing was complete.  So the
ignorant, simple mill people, when they came for their easy Saturday's
wages, only stood and gaped at the mass of iron, and the
curiously-shaped brickwork, and wondered what on earth "the master" was
about?  But he was so thoroughly "the master," with all his kindness,
that no one ventured either to question or interfere.



CHAPTER XXVII

Summer waned.  Already the beech-wood began to turn red, and the little
yellow autumn flowers to show themselves all over the common, while in
the midst of them looked up the large purple eye of the ground-thistle.
The mornings grew hazy and dewy.  We ceased to take Muriel out with us
in our slow walk along John's favourite "terrace" before any one else
was stirring.  Her father at first missed her sorely, but always kept
repeating that "early walks were not good for children."  At last he
gave up the walk altogether, and used to sit with her on his knee in
front of the cottage till breakfast-time.

After that, saying with a kind of jealousy "that every one of us had
more of his little daughter than he," he got into a habit of fetching
her down to the mill every day at noon, and carrying her about in his
arms, wherever he went, during the rest of his work.

Many a time I have seen the rough, coarse, blue-handed, blue-pinafored
women of the mill stop and look wistfully after "master and little
blind miss."  I often think that the quiet way in which the Enderley
mill people took the introduction of machinery, and the peaceableness
with which they watched for weeks the setting up of the steam-engine,
was partly owing to their strong impression of Mr. Halifax's goodness
as a father, and the vague, almost superstitious interest which
attached to the pale, sweet face of Muriel.

Enderley was growing dreary, and we began to anticipate the cosy
fireside of Longfield.

"The children will all go home looking better than they came; do you
not think so, Uncle Phineas?--especially Muriel?"

To that sentence I had to answer with a vague assent; after which I was
fain to rise and walk away, thinking how blind love was--all love save
mine, which had a gift for seeing the saddest side of things.

When I came back, I found the mother and daughter talking mysteriously
apart.  I guessed what it was about, for I had overheard Ursula saying
they had better tell the child--it would be "something for her to look
forward to--something to amuse her next winter."

"It is a great secret, mind," the mother whispered, after its
communication.

"Oh, yes!"  The tiny face, smaller than ever, I thought, flushed
brightly.  "But I would much rather have a little sister, if you
please.  Only"--and the child suddenly grew earnest--"will she be like
me?"

"Possibly; sisters often are alike."

"No, I don't mean that; but--you know?"  And Muriel touched her own
eyes.

"I cannot tell, my daughter.  In all things else, pray God she may be
like you, Muriel, my darling--my child of peace!" said Ursula,
embracing her with tears.

After this confidence, of which Muriel was very proud, and only
condescended, upon gaining express permission, to re-confide it to me,
she talked incessantly of the sister that was coming, until "little
Maud"--the name she chose for her--became an absolute entity in the
household.

The dignity and glory of being sole depositary of this momentous fact,
seemed for a time to put new life--bright human life--into this little
maid of eleven years old.  She grew quite womanly, as it were; tried to
help her mother in a thousand little ways, and especially by her own
solitary branch of feminine industry--poor darling!  She set on a pair
of the daintiest elfin socks that ever were knitted.  I found them,
years after--one finished, one with the needles (all rusty) stuck
through the fine worsted ball, just as the child had laid it out of her
hand.  Ah, Muriel, Muriel!

The father took great delight in this change, in her resuming her
simple work, and going about constantly with her mother.

"What a comfort she will be to Ursula one day--an eldest daughter
always is.  So will she:  will she not, Uncle Phineas?"

I smiled assentingly.  Alas! his burthens were heavy enough!  I think I
did right to smile.

"We must take her down with us to see the steam-engine first worked. I
wish Ursula would have gone home without waiting for to-morrow. But
there is no fear--my men are so quiet and good-humoured.  What in most
mills has been a day of outrage and dread, is with us quite a festival.
Boys, shall you like to come?  Edwin, my practical lad, my lad that is
to carry on the mills--will you promise to hold fast by Uncle Phineas,
if I let you see the steam-engine work?"

Edwin lifted up from his slate bright, penetrating eyes.  He was quite
an old man in his ways--wise even from his babyhood, and quiet even
when Guy snubbed him; but, I noticed, he did not come to "kiss and make
friends" so soon as Guy.  And though Guy was much the naughtiest, we
all loved him best.  Poor Guy! he had the frankest, warmest, tenderest
boy-heart, always struggling to be good, and never able to accomplish
it.

"Father," cried Guy, "I want to see the steam-engine move, but I'll not
be a baby like Edwin; I'll not hold Uncle Phineas' hand."

Hereupon ensued one of those summer storms which sometimes swept across
the family horizon, in the midst of which Muriel and I stole out into
the empty church, where, almost in the dark--which was no dark to
her--for a long hour she sat and played.  By and by the moon looked in,
showing the great gilt pipes of the organ, and the little fairy figure
sitting below.

Once or twice she stooped from the organ-loft to ask me where was
Brother Anselmo, who usually met us in the church of evenings, and whom
to-night--this last night before the general household moved back to
Longfield--we had fully expected.

At last he came, sat down by me, and listened.  She was playing a
fragment of one of his Catholic masses.  When it ended, he called
"Muriel!"

Her soft, glad answer came down from the gallery.

"Child, play the 'Miserere' I taught you."

She obeyed, making the organ wail like a tormented soul.  Truly, no
tales I ever heard of young Wesley and the infant Mozart ever surpassed
the wonderful playing of our blind child.

"Now, the 'Dies Irae.'--It will come," he muttered, "to us all."

The child struck a few notes, heavy and dolorous, filling the church
like a thunder-cloud, then suddenly left off, and opening the
flute-stop, burst into altogether different music.

"That is Handel--'I know that my Redeemer liveth.'"

Exquisitely she played it, the clear treble notes seemed to utter like
a human voice the very words:

    "I know that my Redeemer liveth, and He shall stand
          at the latter day upon the earth.
     And though worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh
          shall I see God."

With that she ceased.

"More, more!" we both cried.

"Not now--no more now."

And we heard her shutting up the stops and closing the organ lid.

"But my little Muriel has not finished her tune?"

"She will, some day," said the child.

So she came down from the organ-loft, feeling her way along the aisles;
and we all went out together, locking the church-door.

Lord Ravenel was rather sad that night; he was going away from Luxmore
for some time.  We guessed why--because the earl was coming. Bidding us
good-bye, he said, mournfully, to his little pet, "I wish I were not
leaving you.  Will you remember me, Muriel?"

"Stoop down; I want to see you."

This was her phrase for a way she had of passing her extremely
sensitive fingers over the faces of those she liked.  After which she
always said she "saw" them.

"Yes; I shall remember you."

"And love me?"

"And love you, Brother Anselmo."

He kissed, not her cheek or mouth, but her little child-hands,
reverently, as if she had been the saint he worshipped, or, perhaps,
the woman whom afterwards he would learn to adore.  Then he went away.

"Truly," said the mother, in an amused aside to me, as with a kind of
motherly pride she watched him walk hastily down between those
chestnut-trees, known of old--"truly, time flies fast.  Things begin to
look serious--eh, father?  Five years hence we shall have that young
man falling in love with Muriel."

But John and I looked at the still, soft face, half a child's and half
an angel's.

"Hush!" he said, as if Ursula's fancy were profanity; then eagerly
snatched it up and laughed, confessing how angry he should be if
anybody dared to "fall in love" with Muriel.

Next day was the one fixed for the trial of the new steam-engine; which
trial being successful, we were to start at once in a post-chaise for
Longfield; for the mother longed to be at home, and so did we all.

There was rather a dolorous good-bye, and much lamenting from good Mrs.
Tod, who, her own bairns grown up, thought there were no children
worthy to compare with our children.  And truly, as the three boys
scampered down the road--their few regrets soon over, eager for
anything new--three finer lads could not be seen in the whole country.

Mrs. Halifax looked after them proudly--mother-like, she gloried in her
sons; while John, walking slowly, and assuring Mrs. Tod over and over
again that we should all come back next summer, went down the steep
hill, carrying, hidden under many wraps and nestled close to his warm
shoulder, his little frail winter-rose--his only daughter.

In front of the mill we found a considerable crowd; for the time being
ripe, Mr. Halifax had made public the fact that he meant to work his
looms by steam, the only way in which he could carry on the mill at
all.  The announcement had been received with great surprise and
remarkable quietness, both by his own work-people and all along
Enderley valley.  Still there was the usual amount of contemptuous
scepticism, incident on any new experiment.  Men were peering about the
locked door of the engine-room with a surly curiosity; and one village
oracle, to prove how impossible it was that such a thing as steam could
work anything, had taken the trouble to light a fire in the yard and
set thereon his wife's best tea-kettle, which, as she snatched angrily
away, scalded him slightly, and caused him to limp away swearing, a
painful illustration of the adage, that "a little knowledge is a
dangerous thing."

"Make way, my good people," said Mr. Halifax; and he crossed the
mill-yard, his wife on his arm, followed by an involuntary murmur of
respect.

"He be a fine fellow, the master; he sticks at nothing," was the
comment heard made upon him by one of his people, and probably it
expressed the feeling of the rest.  There are few things which give a
man more power over his fellows than the thoroughly English quality of
daring.

Perhaps this was the secret why John had as yet passed safely through
the crisis which had been the destruction of so many mill-owners,
namely, the introduction of a power which the mill-people were
convinced would ruin hand-labour.  Or else the folk in our valley, out
of their very primitiveness, had more faith in the master; for
certainly, as John passed through the small crowd, there was only one
present who raised the old fatal cry of "Down with machinery!"

"Who said that?"

At the master's voice--at the flash of the master's eye--the little
knot of work-people drew back, and the malcontent, whoever he was,
shrunk into silence.

Mr. Halifax walked past them, entered his mill, and unlocked the door
of the room which he had turned into an engine-room, and where, along
with the two men he had brought from Manchester, he had been busy
almost night and day for this week past in setting up his machinery.
They worked--as the Manchester fellows said they had often been obliged
to work--under lock and key.

"Your folk be queer 'uns, Mr. Halifax.  They say there's six devils
inside on her, theer."

And the man pointed to the great boiler which had been built up in an
out-house adjoining.

"Six devils, say they?--Well, I'll be Maister Michael Scot--eh,
Phineas?--and make my devils work hard."

He laughed, but he was much excited.  He went over, piece by piece, the
complicated but delicate machinery; rubbed here and there at the
brass-work, which shone as bright as a mirror; then stepped back, and
eyed it with pride, almost with affection.

"Isn't it a pretty thing?--If only I have set it up right--if it will
but work."

His hands shook--his cheeks were burning--little Edwin came peering
about at his knee; but he pushed the child hastily away; then he found
some slight fault with the machinery, and while the workmen rectified
it stood watching them, breathless with anxiety.  His wife came to his
side.

"Don't speak to me,--don't, Ursula.  If it fails I am ruined."

"John!"--she just whispered his name, and the soft, firm fold of her
fingers closed round his, strengthening, cheering.  Her husband faintly
smiled.

"Here!"--He unlocked the door, and called to the people outside. "Come
in, two of you fellows, and see how my devils work.  Now then! Boys,
keep out of the way; my little girl"--his voice softened--"my pet will
not be frightened?  Now, my men--ready?"

He opened the valve.

With a strange noise, that made the two Enderley men spring back as if
the six devils were really let loose upon them, the steam came rushing
into the cylinder.  There was a slight motion of the piston-rod.

"All's right! it will work?"

No, it stopped.

John drew a deep breath.

It went on again, beginning to move slowly up and down, like the strong
right arm of some automaton giant.  Greater and lesser cog-wheels
caught up the motive power, revolving slowly and majestically, and with
steady, regular rotation, or whirling round so fast you could hardly
see that they stirred at all.  Of a sudden a soul had been put into
that wonderful creature of man's making, that inert mass of wood and
metal, mysteriously combined.  The monster was alive!

Speechless, John stood watching it.  Their trial over, his energies
collapsed; he sat down by his wife's side, and taking Muriel on his
knee, bent his head over hers.

"Is all right, father?" the child whispered.

"All quite right, my own."

"You said you could do it, and you have done it," cried his wife, her
eyes glowing with triumph, her head erect and proud.

John dropped his lower, lower still.  "Yes," he murmured; "yes, thank
God."

Then he opened the door, and let all the people in to see the wondrous
sight.

They crowded in by dozens, staring about in blank wonder, gaping
curiosity, ill-disguised alarm.  John took pains to explain the
machinery, stage by stage, till some of the more intelligent caught up
the principle, and made merry at the notion of "devils."  But they all
looked with great awe at the master, as if he were something more than
man.  They listened open-mouthed to every word he uttered, cramming the
small engine-room till it was scarcely possible to breathe, but keeping
at a respectful distance from the iron-armed monster, that went
working, working on, as if ready and able to work on to everlasting.

John took his wife and children out into the open air.  Muriel, who had
stood for the last few minutes by her father's side, listening with a
pleasing look to the monotonous regular sound, like the breathing of
the demon, was unwilling to go.

"I am very glad I was with you to-day,--very glad, father," she kept
saying.

He said, as often--twice as often--that next summer, when he came back
to Enderley, she should be with him at the mills every day, and all day
over, if she liked.

There was now nothing to be done but to hasten as quickly and as
merrily as possible to our well-beloved Longfield.

Waiting for the post-chaise, Mrs. Halifax and the boys sat down on the
bridge over the defunct and silenced water-fall, on the muddy steps of
which, where the stream used to dash musically over, weeds and long
grasses, mingled with the drooping water-fern, were already beginning
to grow.

"It looks desolate, but we need not mind that now," said Mrs. Halifax.

"No," her husband answered.  "Steam power once obtained, I can apply it
in any way I choose.  My people will not hinder; they trust me, they
like me."

"And, perhaps, are just a little afraid of you.  No matter, it is
wholesome fear.  I should not like to have married a man whom nobody
was afraid of."

John smiled; he was looking at the horseman riding towards us along the
high road.  "I do believe that is Lord Luxmore.  I wonder whether he
has heard of my steam-engine.  Love, will you go back into the mill or
not?"

"Certainly not."  The mother seated herself on the bridge, her boys
around her; John avouched, with an air like the mother of the Gracchi,
or like the Highland woman who trained one son after another to fight
and slay their enemy--their father's murderer.

"Don't jest," said Ursula.  She was much more excited than her husband.
Two angry spots burnt on her cheeks when Lord Luxmore came up, and, in
passing, bowed.

Mrs. Halifax returned it, haughtily enough.  But at the moment a loud
cheer broke out from the mill hard by, and "Hurrah for the master!"
"Hurrah for Mr. Halifax!" was distinctly heard.  The mother smiled,
right proudly.

Lord Luxmore turned to his tenant--they might have been on the best
terms imaginable from his bland air.

"What is that rather harsh noise I hear, Mr. Halifax?"

"It is my men cheering me."

"Oh, how charming! so grateful to the feelings.  And WHY do they cheer
you, may I ask?"

John briefly told him, speaking with perfect courtesy as he was
addressed.

"And this steam-engine--I have heard of it before--will greatly
advantage your mills?"

"It will, my lord.  It renders me quite independent of your stream, of
which the fountains at Luxmore can now have the full monopoly."

It would not have been human nature if a spice of harmless malice--even
triumph--had not sparkled in John's eye, as he said this.  He was
walking by the horse's side, as Lord Luxmore had politely requested him.

They went a little way up the hill together, out of sight of Mrs.
Halifax, who was busy putting the two younger boys into the chaise.

"I did not quite understand.  Would you do me the favour to repeat your
sentence?"

"Merely, my lord, that your cutting off of the water-course has been to
me one of the greatest advantages I ever had in my life; for which,
whether meant or not, allow me to thank you."

The earl looked full in John's face, without answering; then spurred
his horse violently.  The animal started off, full speed.

"The children.  Good God--the children!"

Guy was in the ditch-bank, gathering flowers--but Muriel--For the first
time in our lives, we had forgotten Muriel.

She stood in the horse's path--the helpless, blind child.  The next
instant she was knocked down.

I never heard a curse on John Halifax's lips but once--that once. Lord
Luxmore heard it too.  The image of the frantic father, snatching up
his darling from under the horse's heels, must have haunted the earl's
good memory for many a day.

He dismounted, saying, anxiously, "I hope the little girl is not
injured?  It was accident--you see--pure accident."

But John did not hear; he would scarcely have heard heaven's thunder.
He knelt with the child in his arms by a little runnel in the
ditch-bank.  When the water touched her she opened her eyes with that
wide, momentary stare so painful to behold.

"My little darling!"

Muriel smiled, and nestled to him.  "Indeed, I am not hurt, dear
father."

Lord Luxmore, standing by, seemed much relieved, and again pressed his
apologies.

No answer.

"Go away," sobbed out Guy, shaking both his fists in the nobleman's
face.  "Go away--or I'll kill you--wicked man!  I would have done it if
you had killed my sister."

Lord Luxmore laughed at the boy's fury--threw him a guinea, which Guy
threw back at him with all his might, and rode placidly away.

"Guy--Guy--" called the faint, soft voice which had more power over him
than any other, except his mother's.  "Guy must not be angry. Father,
don't let him be angry."

But the father was wholly occupied in Muriel--looking in her face, and
feeling all her little fragile limbs, to make sure that in no way she
was injured.

It appeared not; though the escape seemed almost miraculous.  John
recurred, with a kind of trembling tenacity, to the old saying in our
house, that "nothing ever harmed Muriel."

"Since it is safe over, and she can walk--you are sure you can, my
pet?--I think we will not say anything about this to the mother; at
least not till we reach Longfield."

But it was too late.  There was no deceiving the mother.  Every change
in every face struck her instantaneously.  The minute we rejoined her
she said:

"John, something has happened to Muriel."

Then he told her, making as light of the accident as he could; as,
indeed, for the first ten minutes we all believed, until alarmed by the
extreme pallor and silence of the child.

Mrs. Halifax sat down by the roadside, bathed Muriel's forehead and
smoothed her hair; but still the little curls lay motionless against
the mother's breast,--and still to every question she only answered
"that she was not hurt."

All this while the post-chaise was waiting.

"What must be done?" I inquired of Ursula; for it was no use asking
John anything.

"We must go back again to Enderley," she said decidedly.

So, giving Muriel into her father's arms, she led the way, and, a
melancholy procession, we again ascended the hill to Rose Cottage door.



CHAPTER XXVIII

Without any discussion, our plans were tacitly changed--no more was
said about going home to dear Longfield.  Every one felt, though no one
trusted it to words, that the journey was impossible.  For Muriel lay,
day after day, on her little bed in an upper chamber, or was carried
softly down in the middle of the day by her father, never complaining,
but never attempting to move or talk.  When we asked her if she felt
ill, she always answered, "Oh, no! only so very tired." Nothing more.

"She is dull, for want of the others to play with her.  The boys should
not run out and leave their sister alone," said John, almost sharply,
when one bright morning the lads' merry voices came down from the Flat,
while he and I were sitting by Muriel's sofa in the still parlour.

"Father, let the boys play without me, please.  Indeed, I do not mind.
I had rather lie quiet here."

"But it is not good for my little girl always to be quiet, and it
grieves father."

"Does it?"  She roused herself, sat upright, and began to move her
limbs, but wearily.

"That is right, my darling.  Now let me see how well you can walk."

Muriel slipped to her feet and tried to cross the room, catching at
table and chairs--now, alas! not only for guidance but actual support.
At last she began to stagger, and said, half crying:

"I can't walk, I am so tired.  Oh, do take me in your arms, dear
father."

Her father took her, looked long in her sightless face, then buried his
against her shoulder, saying nothing.  But I think in that moment he
too saw, glittering and bare, the long-veiled Hand which, for this year
past, _I_ had seen stretched out of the immutable heavens, claiming
that which was its own.  Ever after there was discernible in John's
countenance a something which all the cares of his anxious yet happy
life had never written there--an ineffaceable record, burnt in with
fire.

He held her in his arms all day.  He invented all sorts of tales and
little amusements for her; and when she was tired of these he let her
lie in his bosom and sleep.  After her bed-time he asked me to go out
with him on the Flat.

It was a misty night.  The very cows and asses stood up large and
spectral as shadows.  There was not a single star to be seen.

We took our walk along the terrace and came back again, without
exchanging a single word.  Then John said hastily:

"I am glad her mother was so busy to-day--too busy to notice."

"Yes," I answered; unconnected as his words were.

"Do you understand me, Phineas?  Her mother must not on any account be
led to imagine, or to fear--anything.  You must not look as you looked
this morning.  You must not, Phineas."

He spoke almost angrily.  I answered in a few quieting words.  We were
silent, until over the common we caught sight of the light in Muriel's
window.  Then I felt rather than heard the father's groan.

"Oh, God! my only daughter--my dearest child!"

Yes, she was the dearest.  I knew it.  Strange mystery, that He should
so often take, by death or otherwise, the DEAREST--always the dearest.
Strange that He should hear us cry--us writhing in the dust, "O Father,
anything, anything but this!"  But our Father answers not; and
meanwhile the desire of our eyes--be it a life, a love, or a
blessing--slowly, slowly goes--is gone.  And yet we have to believe in
our Father.  Perhaps of all trials to human faith this is the sorest.
Thanks be to God if He puts into our hearts such love towards Him that
even while He slays us we can trust Him still.

This father--this broken-hearted earthly father--could.

When we sat at the supper-table--Ursula, John, and I, the children
being all in bed--no one could have told that there was any shadow over
us, more than the sadly-familiar pain of the darling of the house being
"not so strong as she used to be."

"But I think she will be, John.  We shall have her quite about again,
before--"

The mother stopped, slightly smiling.  It was, indeed, an especial
mercy of heaven which put that unaccountable blindness before her eyes,
and gave her other duties and other cares to intercept the thought of
Muriel.  While, from morning till night, it was the incessant secret
care of her husband, myself, and good Mrs. Tod, to keep her out of her
little daughter's sight, and prevent her mind from catching the danger
of one single fear.

Thus, within a week or two, the mother lay down cheerfully upon her
couch of pain, and gave another child to the household--a little sister
to Muriel.

Muriel was the first to whom the news was told.  Her father told it.
His natural joy and thankfulness seemed for the moment to efface every
other thought.

"She is come, darling! little Maud is come.  I am very rich--for I have
two daughters now."

"Muriel is glad, father."  But she showed her gladness in a strangely
quiet, meditative way, unlike a child--unlike even her old self.

"What are you thinking of, my pet?"

"That--though father has another daughter, I hope he will remember the
first one sometimes."

"She is jealous!" cried John, in the curious delight with which he
always detected in her any weakness, any fault, which brought her down
to the safe level of humanity.  "See, Uncle Phineas, our Muriel is
actually jealous."

But Muriel only smiled.

That smile--so serene--so apart from every feeling or passion
appertaining to us who are "of the earth, earthy," smote the father to
the heart's core.

He sat down by her, and she crept up into his arms.

"What day is it, father?"

"The first of December."

"I am glad.  Little Maud's birthday will be in the same month as mine."

"But you came in the snow, Muriel, and now it is warm and mild."

"There will be snow on my birthday, though.  There always is.  The snow
is fond of me, father.  It would like me to lie down and be all covered
over, so that you could not find me anywhere."

I heard John try to echo her weak, soft laugh.

"This month it will be eleven years since I was born, will it not,
father?"

"Yes, my darling."

"What a long time!  Then, when my little sister is as old as I am, I
shall be--that is, I should have been--a woman grown.  Fancy me twenty
years old, as tall as mother, wearing a gown like her, talking and
ordering, and busy about the house.  How funny!" and she laughed again.
"Oh! no, father, I couldn't do it.  I had better remain always your
little Muriel, weak and small, who liked to creep close to you, and go
to sleep in this way."

She ceased talking--very soon she was sound asleep.  But--the father!

Muriel faded, though slowly.  Sometimes she was so well for an hour or
two that the Hand seemed drawn back into the clouds, till of a sudden
again we discerned it there.

One Sunday--it was ten days or so after Maud's birth, and the weather
had been so bitterly cold that the mother had herself forbidden our
bringing Muriel to the other side of the house where she and the baby
lay--Mrs. Tod was laying the dinner, and John stood at the window
playing with his three boys.

He turned abruptly, and saw all the chairs placed round the table--all
save one.

"Where is Muriel's chair, Mrs. Tod?"

"Sir, she says she feels so tired like, she'd rather not come down
to-day," answered Mrs. Tod, hesitatingly.

"Not come down?"

"Maybe better not, Mr. Halifax.  Look out at the snow.  It'll be warmer
for the dear child to-morrow."

"You are right.  Yes, I had forgotten the snow.  She shall come down
to-morrow."

I caught Mrs. Tod's eyes; they were running over.  She was too wise to
speak of it--but she knew the truth as well as we.

This Sunday--I remember it well--was the first day we sat down to
dinner with the one place vacant.

For a few days longer, her father, every evening when he came in from
the mills, persisted in carrying her down, as he had said, holding her
on his knee during tea, then amusing her and letting the boys amuse her
for half-an-hour or so before bed-time.  But at the week's end even
this ceased.

When Mrs. Halifax, quite convalescent, was brought triumphantly to her
old place at our happy Sunday dinner-table, and all the boys came
pressing about her, vying which should get most kisses from little
sister Maud--she looked round, surprised amidst her smiling, and asked:

"Where is Muriel?"

"She seems to feel this bitter weather a good deal," John said; "and I
thought it better she should not come down to dinner."

"No," added Guy, wondering and dolefully, "sister has not been down to
dinner with us for a great many days."

The mother started; looked first at her husband, and then at me.

"Why did nobody tell me this?"

"Love--there was nothing new to be told."

"Has the child had any illness that I do not know of?"

"No."

"Has Dr. Jessop seen her?"

"Several times."

"Mother," said Guy, eager to comfort--for naughty as he was sometimes,
he was the most tender-hearted of all the boys, especially to Muriel
and to his mother,--"sister isn't ill a bit, I know.  She was laughing
and talking with me just now--saying she knows she could carry baby a
great deal better than I could.  She is as merry as ever she can be."

The mother kissed him in her quick, eager way--the sole indication of
that maternal love which was in her almost a passion.  She looked more
satisfied.

Nevertheless, when Mrs. Tod came into the parlour, she rose and put
little Maud into her arms.

"Take baby, please, while I go up to see Muriel."

"Don't--now don't, please, Mrs. Halifax," cried earnestly the good
woman.

Ursula turned very pale.  "They ought to have told me," she muttered;
"John, YOU MUST let me go and see my child."

"Presently--presently--Guy, run up and play with Muriel.  Phineas, take
the others with you.  You shall go up-stairs in one minute, my darling
wife!"

He turned us all out of the room, and shut the door.  How he told her
that which was necessary she should know--that which Dr. Jessop himself
had told us this very morning--how the father and mother had borne this
first open revelation of their unutterable grief--for ever remained
unknown.

I was sitting by Muriel's bed, when they came up-stairs.  The darling
laid listening to her brother, who was squatted on her pillow, making
all sorts of funny talk.  There was a smile on her face; she looked
quite rosy:  I hoped Ursula might not notice, just for the time being,
the great change the last few weeks had made.

But she did--who could ever blindfold a mother?  For a moment I saw her
recoil--then turn to her husband with a dumb, piteous, desperate look,
as though to say, "Help me--my sorrow is more than I can bear!"

But Muriel, hearing the step, cried with a joyful cry, "Mother! it's my
mother!"

The mother folded her to her breast.

Muriel shed a tear or two there--in a satisfied, peaceful way; the
mother did not weep at all.  Her self-command, so far as speech went,
was miraculous.  For her look--but then she knew the child was blind.

"Now," she said, "my pet will be good and not cry?  It would do her
harm.  We must be very happy to-day."

"Oh, yes."  Then, in a fond whisper, "Please, I do so want to see
little Maud."

"Who?" with an absent gaze.

"My little sister Maud--Maud that is to take my place, and be
everybody's darling now."

"Hush, Muriel," said the father, hoarsely.

A strangely soft smile broke over her face--and she was silent.

The new baby was carried up-stairs proudly, by Mrs. Tod, all the boys
following.  Quite a levee was held round the bed, where, laid close
beside her, her weak hands being guided over the tiny face and form,
Muriel first "saw" her little sister.  She was greatly pleased.  With a
grave elder-sisterly air she felt all over the baby-limbs, and when
Maud set up an indignant cry, began hushing her with so quaint an
imitation of motherliness, that we were all amused.

"You'll be a capital nurse in a month or two, my pretty!" said Mrs. Tod.

Muriel only smiled.  "How fat she is!--and look, how fast her fingers
take hold!  And her head is so round, and her hair feels so soft--as
soft as my dove's neck at Longfield.  What colour is it?  Like mine?"

It was; nearly the same shade.  Maud bore, the mother declared, the
strongest likeness to Muriel.

"I am so glad.  But these"--touching her eyes anxiously.

"No--my darling.  Not like you there," was the low answer.

"I am VERY glad.  Please, little Maud, don't cry--it's only sister
touching you.  How wide open your eyes feel!  I wonder,"--with a
thoughtful pause--"I wonder if you can see me.  Little Maud, I should
like you to see sister."

"She does see, of course; how she stares!" cried Guy.  And then Edwin
began to argue to the contrary, protesting that as kittens and puppies
could not see at first, he believed little babies did not: which
produced a warm altercation among the children gathered round the bed,
while Muriel lay back quietly on her pillow, with her little sister
fondly hugged to her breast.

The father and mother looked on.  It was such a picture--these five
darlings, these children which God had given them--a group perfect and
complete in itself, like a root of daisies, or a branch of ripening
fruit, which not one could be added to, or taken from--

No.  I was sure, from the parents' smile, that, this once, Mercy had
blinded their eyes, so that they saw nothing beyond the present moment.

The children were wildly happy.  All the afternoon they kept up their
innocent little games by Muriel's bed-side; she sometimes sharing,
sometimes listening apart.  Only once or twice came that wistful,
absent look, as if she were listening partly to us, and partly to those
we heard not; as if through the wide-open orbs the soul were straining
at sights wonderful and new--sights unto which HER eyes were the
clear-seeing, and ours the blank and blind.

It seems strange now, to remember that Sunday afternoon, and how merry
we all were; how we drank tea in the queer bed-room at the top of the
house; and how afterwards Muriel went to sleep in the twilight, with
baby Maud in her arms.  Mrs. Halifax sat beside the little bed, a
sudden blazing up of the fire showing the intentness of her watch over
these two, her eldest and youngest, fast asleep; their breathing so
soft, one hardly knew which was frailest, the life slowly fading or the
life but just begun.  Their breaths seemed to mix and mingle, and the
two faces, lying close together, to grow into a strange likeness each
to each.  At least, we all fancied so.

Meanwhile, John kept his boys as still as mice, in the broad
window-seat, looking across the white snowy sheet, with black bushes
peering out here and there, to the feathery beech-wood, over the tops
of which the new moon was going down.  Such a little young moon! and
how peacefully--nay, smilingly--she set among the snows!

The children watched her till the very last minute, when Guy startled
the deep quiet of the room by exclaiming--"There--she's gone."

"Hush!"

"No, mother, I am awake," said Muriel.  "Who is gone, Guy?"

"The moon--such a pretty little moon."

"Ah, Maud will see the moon some day."  She dropped her cheek down
again beside the baby sister, and was silent once more.

This is the only incident I remember of that peaceful, heavenly hour.

Maud broke upon its quietude by her waking and wailing; and Muriel very
unwillingly let the little sister go.

"I wish she might stay with me--just this one night; and to-morrow is
my birthday.  Please, mother, may she stay?"

"We will both stay, my darling.  I shall not leave you again."

"I am so glad;" and once more she turned round, as if to go to sleep.

"Are you tired, my pet?" said John, looking intently at her.

"No, father."

"Shall I take your brothers down-stairs?"

"Not yet, dear father."

"What would you like, then?"

"Only to lie here, this Sunday evening, among you all."

He asked her if she would like him to read aloud? as he generally did
on Sunday evenings.

"Yes, please; and Guy will come and sit quiet on the bed beside me and
listen.  That will be pleasant.  Guy was always very good to his
sister--always."

"I don't know that," said Guy, in a conscience-stricken tone.  "But I
mean to be when I grow a big man--that I do."

No one answered.  John opened the large Book--the Book he had taught
all his children to long for and to love--and read out of it their
favourite history of Joseph and his brethren.  The mother sat by him at
the fireside, rocking Maud softly on her knees.  Edwin and Walter
settled themselves on the hearth-rug, with great eyes intently fixed on
their father.  From behind him the candle-light fell softly down on the
motionless figure in the bed, whose hand he held, and whose face he
every now and then turned to look at--then, satisfied, continued to
read.

In the reading his voice had a fatherly, flowing calm--as Jacob's might
have had, when "the children were tender," and he gathered them all
round him under the palm-trees of Succoth--years before he cried unto
the Lord that bitter cry--(which John hurried over as he read)--"IF I
AM BEREAVED OF MY CHILDREN, I AM BEREAVED."

For an hour, nearly, we all sat thus--with the wind coming up the
valley, howling in the beech-wood, and shaking the casement as it
passed outside.  Within, the only sound was the father's voice.  This
ceased at last; he shut the Bible, and put it aside.  The group--that
last perfect household picture--was broken up.  It melted away into
things of the past, and became only a picture, for evermore.

"Now, boys--it is full time to say good-night.  There, go and kiss your
sister."

"Which?" said Edwin, in his funny way.  "We've got two now; and I don't
know which is the biggest baby."

"I'll thrash you if you say that again," cried Guy.  "Which, indeed?
Maud is but the baby.  Muriel will be always 'sister.'"

"Sister" faintly laughed, as she answered his fond kiss--Guy was often
thought to be her favourite brother.

"Now, off with you, boys; and go down-stairs quietly--mind, I say
quietly."

They obeyed--that is, as literally as boy-nature can obey such an
admonition.  But an hour after I heard Guy and Edwin arguing
vociferously in the dark, on the respective merits and future treatment
of their two sisters, Muriel and Maud.

John and I sat up late together that night.  He could not rest--even
though he told me he had left the mother and her two daughters as cosy
as a nest of wood-pigeons.  We listened to the wild night, till it had
almost howled itself away; then our fire went out, and we came and sat
over the last faggot in Mrs. Tod's kitchen--the old Debateable Land.
We began talking of the long-ago time, and not of this time at all.
The vivid present--never out of either mind for an instant--we in our
conversation did not touch upon, by at least ten years.  Nor did we
give expression to a thought which strongly oppressed me, and which I
once or twice fancied I could detect in John likewise--how very like
this night seemed to the night when Mr. March died; the same silentness
in the house--the same windy whirl without--the same blaze of the
wood-fire on the same kitchen ceiling.

More than once I could almost have deluded myself that I heard the
faint moans and footsteps over-head--that the staircase door would
open, and we should see there Miss March, in her white gown, and her
pale, steadfast look.

"I think the mother seemed very well and calm to-night," I said,
hesitatingly, as we were retiring.

"She is.  God help her--and us all!"

"He will."

This was all we said.

He went up-stairs the last thing, and brought down word that mother and
children were all sound asleep.

"I think I may leave them until daylight to-morrow.  And now, Uncle
Phineas, go you to bed, for you look as tired as tired can be."

I went to bed; but all night long I had disturbed dreams, in which I
pictured over and over again, first the night when Mr. March died--then
the night at Longfield, when the little white ghost had crossed by my
bed's foot, into the room where Mary Baines' dead boy lay.  And
continually, towards morning, I fancied I heard through my window,
which faced the church, the faint, distant sound of the organ, as when
Muriel used to play it.

Long before it was light I rose.  As I passed the boy's room Guy called
out to me:

"Halloa!  Uncle Phineas, is it a fine morning?--for I want to go down
into the wood and get a lot of beech-nuts and fir-cones for sister.
It's her birthday to-day, you know."

It WAS, for her.  But for us--Oh, Muriel, our darling--darling child!

Let me hasten over the story of that morning, for my old heart quails
before it still.

John went early to the room up-stairs.  It was very still.  Ursula lay
calmly asleep, with baby Maud in her bosom; on her other side, with
eyes wide open to the daylight, lay--that which for more than ten years
we had been used to call "blind Muriel."  She saw, now.

          *          *          *          *          *

The same day at evening we three were sitting in the parlour; we elders
only--it was past the children's bed-time.  Grief had spent itself dry;
we were all very quiet.  Even Ursula, when she came in from fetching
the boys' candle, as had always been her custom, and though afterwards
I thought I had heard her going up-stairs, likewise from habit,--where
there was no need to bid any mother's good-night now--even Ursula sat
in the rocking-chair, nursing Maud, and trying to still her crying with
a little foolish baby-tune that had descended as a family lullaby from
one to the other of the whole five--how sad it sounded!

John--who sat at the table, shading the light from his eyes, an open
book lying before him, of which he never turned one page--looked up at
her.

"Love, you must not tire yourself.  Give me the child."

"No, no!  Let me keep my baby--she comforts me so."  And the mother
burst into uncontrollable weeping.

John shut his book and came to her.  He supported her on his bosom,
saying a soothing word or two at intervals, or when the paroxysm of her
anguish was beyond all bounds supporting her silently till it had gone
by; never once letting her feel that, bitter as her sorrow was, his was
heavier than hers.

Thus, during the whole of the day, had he been the stay and consolation
of the household.  For himself--the father's grief was altogether dumb.

At last Mrs. Halifax became more composed.  She sat beside her husband,
her hand in his, neither speaking, but gazing, as it were, into the
face of this their great sorrow, and from thence up to the face of God.
They felt that He could help them to bear it; ay, or anything else that
it was His will to send--if they might thus bear it, together.

We all three sat thus, and there had not been a sound in the parlour
for ever so long, when Mrs. Tod opened the door and beckoned me.

"He will come in--he's crazy-like, poor fellow!  He has only just
heard--"

She broke off with a sob.  Lord Ravenel pushed her aside and stood at
the door.  We had not seen him since the day of that innocent jest
about his "falling in love" with Muriel.  Seeing us all so quiet, and
the parlour looking as it always did when he used to come of
evenings--the young man drew back, amazed.

"It is not true!  No, it could not be true!" he muttered.

"It is true," said the father.  "Come in."

The mother held out her hand to him.  "Yes, come in.  You were very
fond of--"

Ah! that name!--now nothing but a name!  For a little while we all wept
sore.

Then we told him--it was Ursula who did it chiefly--all particulars
about our darling.  She told him, but calmly, as became one on whom had
fallen the utmost sorrow and crowning consecration of motherhood--that
of yielding up her child, a portion of her own being, to the corruption
of the grave--of resigning the life which out of her own life had been
created, unto the Creator of all.

Surely, distinct and peculiar from every other grief, every other
renunciation, must be that of a woman who is thus chosen to give her
very flesh and blood, the fruit of her own womb, unto the Lord!

This dignity, this sanctity, seemed gradually to fall upon the mourning
mother, as she talked about her lost one; repeating often--"I tell you
this, because you were so fond of Muriel."

He listened silently.  At length he said, "I want to see Muriel."

The mother lit a candle, and he followed her up-stairs.

Just the same homely room--half-bedchamber, half-nursery--the same
little curtainless bed where, for a week past, we had been accustomed
to see the wasted figure and small pale face lying, in smiling
quietude, all day long.

It lay there still.  In it, and in the room, was hardly any change. One
of Walter's playthings was in a corner of the window-sill, and on the
chest of drawers stood the nosegay of Christmas roses which Guy had
brought for his sister yesterday morning.  Nay, her shawl--a white,
soft, furry shawl, that she was fond of wearing--remained still hanging
up behind the door.  One could almost fancy the little maid had just
been said "good-night" to, and left to dream the childish dreams on her
nursery pillow, where the small head rested so peacefully, with that
pretty babyish nightcap tied over the pretty curls.

There she was, the child who had gone out of the number of our
children--our earthly children--for ever.

Her mother sat down at the side of the bed, her father at its foot,
looking at her.  Lord Ravenel stood by, motionless; then stooping down,
he kissed the small marble hand.

"Good-bye, good-bye, my little Muriel!"

And he left the room abruptly, in such an anguish of grief that the
mother rose and followed him.

John went to the door and locked it, almost with a sort of impatience;
then came back and stood by his darling, alone.  Me he never saw--no,
nor anything in the world except that little face, even in death so
strangely like his own.  The face which had been for eleven years the
joy of his heart, the very apple of his eye.

For a long time he remained gazing, in a stupor of silence; then,
sinking on his knee, he stretched out his arms across the bed, with a
bitter cry:

"Come back to me, my darling, my first-born!  Come back to me, Muriel,
my little daughter--my own little daughter!"

But thou wert with the angels, Muriel--Muriel!



CHAPTER XXIX

We went home, leaving all that was mortal of our darling sleeping at
Enderley, underneath the snows.

For twelve years after then, we lived at Longfield; in such unbroken,
uneventful peace, that looking back seems like looking back over a
level sea, whose leagues of tiny ripples make one smooth glassy plain.

Let me recall--as the first wave that rose, ominous of change--a
certain spring evening, when Mrs. Halifax and I were sitting, as was
our wont, under the walnut-tree.  The same old walnut-tree, hardly a
bough altered, though many of its neighbours and kindred had grown from
saplings into trees--even as some of us had grown from children almost
into young men.

"Edwin is late home from Norton Bury," said Ursula.

"So is his father."

"No--this is just John's time.  Hark! there are the carriage-wheels!"

For Mr. Halifax, a prosperous man now, drove daily to and from his
mills, in as tasteful an equipage as any of the country gentry between
here and Enderley.

His wife went down to the stream to meet him, as usual, and they came
up the field-path together.

Both were changed from the John and Ursula of whom I last wrote. She,
active and fresh-looking still, but settling into that fair largeness
which is not unbecoming a lady of middle-age, he, inclined to a slight
stoop, with the lines of his face more sharply defined, and the hair
wearing away off his forehead up to the crown.  Though still not a grey
thread was discernible in the crisp locks at the back, which
successively five little ones had pulled, and played with, and nestled
in; not a sign of age, as yet, in "father's curls."

As soon as he had spoken to me, he looked round as usual for his
children, and asked if the boys and Maud would be home to tea?

"I think Guy and Walter never do come home in time when they go over to
the manor-house."

"They're young--let them enjoy themselves," said the father, smiling.
"And you know, love, of all our 'fine' friends, there are none you so
heartily approve of as the Oldtowers."

These were not of the former race.  Good old Sir Ralph had gone to his
rest, and Sir Herbert reigned in his stead; Sir Herbert, who in his
dignified gratitude never forgot a certain election day, when he first
made the personal acquaintance of Mr. Halifax.  The manor-house family
brought several other "county families" to our notice, or us to theirs.
These, when John's fortunes grew rapidly--as many another fortune grew,
in the beginning of the thirty years' peace, when unknown, petty
manufacturers first rose into merchant princes and cotton lords--these
gentry made a perceptible distinction, often amusing enough to us,
between John Halifax, the tanner of Norton Bury, and Mr. Halifax, the
prosperous owner of Enderley Mills.  Some of them, too, were clever
enough to discover, what a pleasant and altogether "visitable" lady was
Mrs. Halifax, daughter of the late Mr. March, a governor in the West
Indies, and cousin of Mr. Brithwood of the Mythe.  But Mrs. Halifax,
with quiet tenacity, altogether declined being visited as anything but
Mrs. Halifax, wife of John Halifax, tanner, or mill-owner, or whatever
he might be.  All honours and all civilities that did not come through
him, and with him, were utterly valueless to her.

To this her peculiarity was added another of John's own, namely, that
all his life he had been averse to what is called "society;" had
eschewed "acquaintances,"--and--but most men might easily count upon
their fingers the number of those who, during a life-time, are found
worthy of the sacred name of "friend."  Consequently, our circle of
associations was far more limited than that of many families holding an
equal position with us--on which circumstance our neighbours commented
a good deal.  But little we cared; no more than we had cared for the
chit-chat of Norton Bury.  Our whole hearts were bound up within our
own home--our happy Longfield.

"I do think this place is growing prettier than ever," said John, when,
tea being over--a rather quiet meal, without a single child--we elders
went out again to the walnut-tree bench.  "Certainly, prettier than
ever;" and his eye wandered over the quaint, low house, all odds and
ends--for nearly every year something had been built, or something
pulled down; then crossing the smooth bit of lawn, Jem Watkins's
special pride, it rested on the sloping field, yellow with tall
buttercups, wavy with growing grass.  "Let me see--how long have we
lived here?  Phineas, you are the one for remembering dates.  What year
was it we came to Longfield?"

"Eighteen hundred and twelve.  Thirteen years ago."

"Ah, so long!"

"Not too long," said Mrs. Halifax, earnestly.  "I hope we may end our
days here.  Do not you, John?"

He paused a little before answering.  "Yes, I wish it; but I am not
sure how far it would be right to do it."

"We will not open that subject again," said the mother, uneasily.  "I
thought we had all made up our minds that little Longfield was a
thousand times pleasanter than Beechwood, grand as it is.  But John
thinks he never can do enough for his people at Enderley."

"Not that alone, love.  Other reasons combined.  Do you know, Phineas,"
he continued, musingly, as he watched the sun set over Leckington
Hill--"sometimes I fancy my life is too easy--that I am not a wise
steward of the riches that have multiplied so fast.  By fifty, a man so
blest as I have been, ought to have done really something of use in the
world--and I am forty-five.  Once, I hoped to have done wonderful
things ere I was forty-five.  But somehow the desire faded."

His wife and I were silent.  We both knew the truth; that calm as had
flowed his outer existence, in which was omitted not one actual duty,
still, for these twelve years, all the high aims which make the glory
and charm of life as duties make its strength, all the active energies
and noble ambitions which especially belong to the prime of manhood, in
him had been, not dead perhaps, but sleeping.  Sleeping, beyond the
power of any human voice to waken them, under the daisies of a child's
grave at Enderley.

I know not if this was right--but it was scarcely unnatural.  In that
heart, which loved as few men love, and remembered as few men remember,
so deep a wound could never be thoroughly healed.  A certain something
in him seemed different ever after, as if a portion of the father's own
life had been taken away with Muriel, and lay buried in the little dead
bosom of his first-born, his dearest child.

"You forget," said Mrs. Halifax, tenderly--"you forget, John, how much
you have been doing, and intend to do.  What with your improvements at
Enderley, and your Catholic Emancipation--your Abolition of Slavery and
your Parliamentary Reform--why, there is hardly any scheme for good,
public or private, to which you do not lend a helping hand."

"A helping purse, perhaps, which is an easier thing, much."

"I will not have you blaming yourself.  Ask Phineas, there--our
household Solomon."

"Thank you, Ursula," said I, submitting to the not rare fortune of
being loved and laughed at.

"Uncle Phineas, what better could John have done in all these years,
than look after his mills and educate his three sons?"

"Have them educated, rather," corrected he, sensitive over his own
painfully-gained and limited acquirements.  Yet this feeling had made
him doubly careful to give his boys every possible advantage of study,
short of sending them from home, to which he had an invincible
objection.  And three finer lads, or better educated, there could not
be found in the whole country.

"I think, John, Guy has quite got over his fancy of going to Cambridge
with Ralph Oldtower."

"Yes; college life would not have done for Guy," said the father
thoughtfully.

"Hush! we must not talk about them, for here come the children."

It was now a mere figure of speech to call them so, though in their
home-taught, loving simplicity, they would neither have been ashamed
nor annoyed at the epithet--these two tall lads, who in the dusk looked
as man-like as their father.

"Where is your sister, boys?"

"Maud stopped at the stream with Edwin," answered Guy, rather
carelessly.  His heart had kept its childish faith; the youngest, pet
as she was, was never anything to him but "little Maud."  One--whom the
boys still talked of, softly and tenderly, in fireside evening talks,
when the winter winds came and the snow was falling--one only was ever
spoken of by Guy as "sister."

Maud, or Miss Halifax, as from the first she was naturally called--as
naturally as our lost darling was never called anything else than
Muriel--came up, hanging on Edwin's arm, which she was fond of doing,
both because it happened to be the only arm low enough to suit her
childish stature, and because she was more especially "Edwin's girl,"
and had been so always.  She had grown out of the likeness that we
longed for in her cradle days, or else we had grown out of the
perception of it; for though the external resemblance in hair and
complexion still remained, nothing could be more unlike in spirit than
this sprightly elf, at once the plague and pet of the family--to our
Muriel.

"Edwin's girl" stole away with him, merrily chattering.  Guy sat down
beside his mother, and slipped his arm round her waist.  They still
fondled her with a child-like simplicity--these her almost grown-up
sons; who had never been sent to school for a day, and had never
learned from other sons of far different mothers, that a young man's
chief manliness ought to consist in despising the tender charities of
home.

"Guy, you foolish boy!" as she took his cap off and pushed back his
hair, trying not to look proud of his handsome face, "what have you
been doing all day?"

"Making myself agreeable, of course, mother."

"That he has," corroborated Walter, whose great object of hero-worship
was his eldest brother.  "He talked with Lady Oldtower, and he sang
with Miss Oldtower and Miss Grace.  Never was there such a fellow as
our Guy."

"Nonsense!" said his mother, while Guy only laughed, too accustomed to
this family admiration to be much disconcerted or harmed thereby.

"When does Ralph return to Cambridge?"

"Not at all.  He is going to leave college, and be off to help the
Greeks.  Father, do you know everybody is joining the Greeks?  Even
Lord Byron is off with the rest.  I only wish I were."

"Heaven forbid!" muttered the mother.

"Why not?  I should have made a capital soldier, and liked it too,
better than anything."

"Better than being my right hand at the mills, and your mother's at
home?--Better than growing up to be our eldest son, our comfort and our
hope?--I think not, Guy."

"You are right, father," was the answer, with an uneasy look.  For this
description seemed less what Guy was than what we desired him to be.
With his easy, happy temper, generous but uncertain, and his showy,
brilliant parts, he was not nearly so much to be depended on as the
grave Edwin, who was already a thorough man of business, and plodded
between Enderley mills and a smaller one which had taken the place of
the flour mill at Norton Bury, with indomitable perseverance.

Guy fell into a brown study, not unnoticed by those anxious eyes, which
lingered oftener upon his face than on that of any of her sons. Mrs.
Halifax said, in her quick, decisive way, that it was "time to go in."

So the sunset picture outside changed to the home-group within; the
mother sitting at her little table, where the tall silver candlestick
shed a subdued light on her work-basket, that never was empty, and her
busy fingers, that never were still.  The father sat beside her; he
kept his old habit of liking to have her close to him; ay, even though
he was falling into the middle-aged comforts of an arm-chair and
newspaper.  There he sat, sometimes reading aloud, or talking;
sometimes lazily watching her, with silent, loving eyes, that saw
beauty in his old wife still.

The young folk scattered themselves about the room.  Guy and Walter at
the unshuttered window--we had a habit of never hiding our
home-light--were looking at the moon, and laying bets, sotto voce, upon
how many minutes she would be in climbing over the oak on the top of
One-tree Hill.  Edwin sat, reading hard--his shoulders up to his ears,
and his fingers stuck through his hair, developing the whole of his
broad, knobbed, knotted forehead, where, Maud declared, the wrinkles
had already begun to show.  For Mistress Maud herself, she flitted
about in all directions, interrupting everything, and doing nothing.

"Maud," said her father, at last, "I am afraid you give a great deal of
trouble to Uncle Phineas."

Uncle Phineas tried to soften the fact, but the little lady was
certainly the most trying of his pupils.  Her mother she had long
escaped from, for the advantage of both.  For, to tell the truth, while
in the invisible atmosphere of moral training the mother's influence
was invaluable, in the minor branch of lesson-learning there might have
been found many a better teacher than Ursula Halifax.  So the
children's education was chiefly left to me; other tutors succeeding as
was necessary; and it had just begun to be considered whether a lady
governess ought not to "finish" the education of Miss Halifax.  But
always at home.  Not for all the knowledge and all the accomplishments
in the world would these parents have suffered either son or
daughter--living souls intrusted them by the Divine Father--to be
brought up anywhere out of their own sight, out of the shelter and
safeguard of their own natural home.

"Love, when I was waiting to-day in Jessop's bank--"

(Ah! that was another change, to which we were even yet not familiar,
the passing away of our good doctor and his wife, and his brother and
heir turning the old dining-room into a "County Bank--open from ten
till four.")

"While waiting there I heard of a lady who struck me as likely to be an
excellent governess for Maud."

"Indeed!" said Mrs. Halifax, not over-enthusiastically.  Maud became
eager to know "what the lady was like?"  I at the same time inquiring
"who she was?"

"Who?  I really did not ask," John answered, smiling.  "But of what she
is, Jessop gave me first-rate evidence--a good daughter, who teaches in
Norton Bury anybody's children for any sort of pay, in order to
maintain an ailing mother.  Ursula, you would let her teach our Maud, I
know?"

"Is she an Englishwoman?"--For Mrs. Halifax, prejudiced by a certain
French lady who had for a few months completely upset the peace of the
manor-house, and even slightly tainted her own favourite, pretty Grace
Oldtower, had received coldly this governess plan from the beginning.
"Would she have to live with us?"

"I think so, decidedly."

"Then it can't be.  The house will not accommodate her.  It will hardly
hold even ourselves.  No, we cannot take in anybody else at Longfield."

"But--we may have to leave Longfield."

The boys here turned to listen; for this question had already been
mooted, as all family questions were.  In our house we had no secrets:
the young folk, being trusted, were ever trustworthy; and the parents,
clean-handed and pure-hearted, had nothing that they were afraid to
tell their children.

"Leave Longfield!" repeated Mrs. Halifax; "surely--surely--"  But
glancing at her husband, her tone of impatience ceased.

He sat gazing into the fire with an anxious air.

"Don't let us discuss that question--at least, not to-night.  It
troubles you, John.  Put it off till to-morrow."

No, that was never his habit.  He was one of the very few who, a thing
being to be done, will not trust it to uncertain "to-morrows." His wife
saw that he wanted to talk to her, and listened.

"Yes, the question does trouble me a good deal.  Whether, now that our
children are growing up, and our income is doubling and trebling year
by year, we ought to widen our circle of usefulness, or close it up
permanently within the quiet bound of little Longfield.  Love, which
say you?"

"The latter, the latter--because it is far the happiest."

"I am afraid, NOT the latter, because it IS the happiest."

He spoke gently, laying his hand on his wife's shoulder, and looking
down on her with that peculiar look which he always had when telling
her things that he knew were sore to hear.  I never saw that look on
any living face save John's; but I have seen it once in a picture--of
two Huguenot lovers.  The woman is trying to fasten round the man's
neck the white badge that will save him from the massacre (of St.
Bartholomew)--he, clasping her the while, gently puts it aside--not
stern, but smiling.  That quiet, tender smile, firmer than any frown,
will, you feel sure, soon control the woman's anguish, so that she will
sob out--any faithful woman would--"Go, die!  Dearer to me than even
thyself are thy honour and thy duty!"

When I saw this noble picture, it touched to the core this old heart of
mine--for the painter, in that rare expression, might have caught
John's.  Just as in a few crises of his life I have seen it, and
especially in this one, when he first told to his wife that
determination which he had slowly come to--that it was both right and
expedient for us to quit Longfield, our happy home for so many years,
of which the mother loved every flower in the garden, every nook and
stone in the walls.

"Leave Longfield!" she repeated again, with a bitter sigh.

"Leave Longfield!" echoed the children, first the youngest, then the
eldest, but rather in curiosity than regret.  Edwin's keen, bright eyes
were just lifted from his book, and fell again; he was not a lad of
much speech, or much demonstration of any kind.

"Boys, come and let us talk over the matter."

They came at once and joined in the circle; respectfully, yet with
entire freedom, they looked towards their father--these, the sons of
his youth, to whom he had been from their birth, not only parent and
head, but companion, guide, and familiar friend.  They honoured him,
they trusted him, they loved him; not, perhaps, in the exact way that
they loved their mother; for it often seems Nature's own ordinance,
that a mother's influence should be strongest over her sons, while the
father's is greatest over his daughters.  But even a stranger could not
glance from each to each of those attentive faces, so different, yet
with a curious "family look" running through them all, without seeing
in what deep, reverent affection, such as naturally takes the place of
childish fondness, these youths held their father.

"Yes, I am afraid, after much serious thought on the matter, and much
consultation with your mother here,--that we ought to leave Longfield."

"So I think," said Mistress Maud, from her footstool; which putting
forward of her important opinion shook us all from gravity to
merriment, that compelled even Mrs. Halifax to join.  Then, laying
aside her work, and with it the saddened air with which she had bent
over it, she drew her chair closer to her husband, slipping her hand in
his, and leaning against his shoulder.  Upon which Guy, who had at
first watched his mother anxiously, doubtful whether or no his father's
plan had her approval, and therefore ought to be assented to,--relapsed
into satisfied, undivided attention.

"I have again been over Beechwood Hall.  You all remember Beechwood?"

Yes.  It was the "great house" at Enderley, just on the slope of the
hill, below Rose Cottage.  The beech-wood itself was part of its
pleasure ground, and from its gardens honest James Tod, who had them in
keeping, had brought many a pocketful of pears for the boys, many a
sweet-scented nosegay for Muriel.

"Beechwood has been empty a great many years, father?  Would it be a
safe investment to buy it?"

"I think so, Edwin, my practical lad," answered the father, smiling.
"What say you, children?  Would you like living there?"

Each one made his or her comment.  Guy's countenance brightened at the
notion of "lots of shooting and fishing" about Enderley, especially at
Luxmore; and Maud counted on the numerous visitors that would come to
John Halifax, Esquire, of Beechwood Hall.

"Neither of which excellent reasons happen to be your father's," said
Mrs. Halifax, shortly.  But John, often tenderer over youthful
frivolities than she, answered:

"I will tell you, boys, what are my reasons.  When I was a young man,
before your mother and I were married, indeed before I had ever seen
her, I had strongly impressed on my mind the wish to gain influence in
the world--riches if I could--but at all events, influence.  I thought
I could use it well, better than most men; those can best help the poor
who understand the poor.  And I can; since, you know, when Uncle
Phineas found me, I was--"

"Father," said Guy, flushing scarlet, "we may as well pass over that
fact.  We are gentlefolks now."

"We always were, my son."

The rebuke, out of its very mildness, cut the youth to the heart.  He
dropped his eyes, colouring now with a different and a holier shame.

"I know that.  Please will you go on, father."

"And now," the father continued, speaking as much out of his own
thoughts as aloud to his children--"now, twenty-five years of labour
have won for me the position I desired.  That is, I might have it for
the claiming.  I might take my place among the men who have lately
risen from the people, to guide and help the people--the Cannings,
Huskissons, Peels."

"Would you enter parliament?  Sir Herbert asked me to-day if you ever
intended it.  He said there was nothing you might not attain to if you
would give yourself up entirely to politics."

"No, Guy, no.  Wisdom, like charity, begins at home.  Let me learn to
rule in my own valley, among my own people, before I attempt to guide
the state.  And that brings me back again to the pros and cons about
Beechwood Hall."

"Tell them, John; tell all out plainly to the children."

The reasons were--first, the advantage of the boys themselves; for John
Halifax was not one of those philanthropists who would benefit all the
world except their own household and their own kin.  He wished--since
the higher a man rises, the wider and nobler grows his sphere of
usefulness--not only to lift himself, but his sons after him; lift them
high enough to help on the ever-advancing tide of human improvement,
among their own people first, and thence extending outward in the world
whithersoever their talents or circumstances might call them.

"I understand," cried the eldest son, his eyes sparkling; "you want to
found a family.  And so it shall be--we will settle at Beechwood Hall;
all coming generations shall live to the honour and glory of your
name--our name--"

"My boy, there is only one Name to whose honour we should all live. One
Name 'in whom all the generations of the earth are blessed.'  In thus
far only do I wish to 'found a family,' as you call it, that our light
may shine before men--that we may be a city set on a hill--that we may
say plainly unto all that ask us, 'For me and my house, we will serve
the Lord.'"

It was not often that John Halifax spoke thus; adopting solemnly the
literal language of the Book--his and our life's guide, no word of
which was ever used lightly in our family.  We all listened, as in his
earnestness he rose, and, standing upright in the firelight, spoke on.

"I believe, with His blessing, that one may 'serve the Lord' as well in
wealth as in poverty, in a great house as in a cottage like this. I am
not doubtful, even though my possessions are increased.  I am not
afraid of being a rich man.  Nor a great man neither, if I were called
to such a destiny."

"It may be--who knows?" said Ursula, softly.

John caught his wife's eyes, and smiled.

"Love, you were a true prophet once, with a certain 'Yes, you will,'
but now--Children, you know when I married your mother I had nothing,
and she gave up everything for me.  I said I would yet make her as high
as any lady in the land,--in fortune I then meant, thinking it would
make her happier; but she and I are wiser now.  We know that we never
can be happier than we were in the old house at Norton Bury, or in this
little Longfield.  By making her lady of Beechwood I should double her
responsibilities and treble her cares; give her an infinitude of new
duties, and no pleasures half so sweet as those we leave behind.
Still, of herself and for herself, my wife shall decide."

Ursula looked up at him; tears stood in her eyes, though through them
shone all the steadfastness of faithful love.  "Thank you, John.  I
have decided.  If you wish it, if you think it right, we will leave
Longfield and go to Beechwood."

He stooped and kissed her forehead, saying only:  "We will go."

Guy looked up, half-reproachfully, as if the father were exacting a
sacrifice; but I question whether the greater sacrifice were not his
who took rather than hers who gave.

So all was settled--we were to leave beloved Longfield.  It was to be
let, not sold; let to a person we knew, who would take jealous care of
all that was ours, and we might come back and see it continually; but
it would be ours--our own home--no more.

Very sad--sadder even than I had thought--was the leaving all the
familiar things; the orchard and the flower-garden, the meadow and the
stream, the woody hills beyond, every line and wave of which was
pleasant and dear almost as our children's faces.  Ay, almost as that
face which for a year--one little year, had lived in sight of, but
never beheld, their beauty; the child who one spring day had gone away
merrily out of the white gate with her three brothers, and never came
back to Longfield any more.

Perhaps this circumstance, that her fading away and her departure
happened away from home, was the cause why her memory--the memory of
our living Muriel, in her human childhood--afterwards clung more
especially about the house at Longfield.  The other children altered,
imperceptibly, yet so swiftly, that from year to year we half forgot
their old likenesses.  But Muriel's never changed.  Her image, only a
shade, yet often more real than any of these living children, seemed
perpetually among us.  It crept through the house at dusk; in winter
fire-light it sat smiling in dim corners; in spring mornings it moved
about the garden borders, with tiny soft footsteps neither seen nor
heard.  The others grew up--would be men and women shortly--but the one
child that "was not," remained to us always a child.

I thought, even the last evening--the very last evening that John
returned from Enderley, and his wife went down to the stream to meet
him, and they came up the field together, as they had done so for many,
many years;--ay, even then I thought I saw his eyes turn to the spot
where a little pale figure used to sit on the door-sill, listening and
waiting for him, with her dove in her bosom.  We never kept doves now.

And the same night, when all the household was in bed--even the mother,
who had gone about with a restless activity, trying to persuade herself
that there would be at least no possibility of accomplishing the
flitting to-morrow--the last night, when John went as usual to fasten
the house-door, he stood a long time outside, looking down the valley.

"How quiet everything is.  You can almost hear the tinkle of the
stream.  Poor old Longfield!"  And I sighed, thinking we should never
again have such another home.

John did not answer.  He had been mechanically bending aside and
training into its place a long shoot of wild clematis--virgin's bower,
which Guy and Muriel had brought in from the fields and planted, a tiny
root; it covered the whole front of the house now. Then he came and
leaned beside me over the wicket-gate, looking fixedly up into the
moon-light blue.

"I wonder if she knows we are leaving Longfield?"

"Who?" said I; for a moment forgetting.

"The child."



CHAPTER XXX

Father and son--a goodly sight, as they paced side by side up and down
the gravel walk--(alas! the pretty field-path belonged to days that
were!)--up and down the broad, sunshiny walk, in front of the
breakfast-room windows of Beechwood Hall.

It was early--little past eight o'clock; but we kept Longfield hours
and Longfield ways still.  And besides, this was a grand day--the day
of Guy's coming of age.  Curious it seemed to watch him, as he walked
along by his father, looking every inch "the young heir;" and perhaps
not unconscious that he did so;--curious enough, remembering how meekly
the boy had come into the world, at a certain old house at Norton Bury,
one rainy December morning, twenty-one years ago.

It was a bright day to-day--bright as all our faces were, I think, as
we gathered round the cosy breakfast-table.  There, as heretofore, it
was the mother's pride and the father's pleasure that not one face
should be missing--that, summer and winter, all should assemble for an
hour of family fun and family chat, before the busy cares of the day;
and by general consent, which had grown into habit, every one tried to
keep unclouded this little bit of early sunshine, before the father and
brothers went away.  No sour or dreary looks, no painful topics, were
ever brought to the breakfast-table.

Thus it was against all custom when Mr. Halifax, laying down his paper
with a grave countenance, said:

"This is very ill news.  Ten Bank failures in the Gazette to-day."

"But it will not harm us, father."

"Edwin is always thinking of 'us,' and 'our business,'" remarked Guy,
rather sharply.  It was one of the slight--the very slight--jars in our
household, that these two lads, excellent lads both, as they grew into
manhood did not exactly "pull together."

"Edwin is scarcely wrong in thinking of 'us,' since upon us depend so
many," observed the father, in that quiet tone with which, when he did
happen to interfere between his sons, he generally smoothed matters
down and kept the balance even.  "Yet though we are ourselves secure, I
trust the losses everywhere around us make it the more necessary that
we should not parade our good fortune by launching out into any of
Guy's magnificences--eh, my boy?"

The youth looked down.  It was well known in the family that since we
came to Beechwood his pleasure-loving temperament had wanted all sorts
of improvements on our style of living--fox-hounds, dinner-parties,
balls; that the father's ways, which, though extended to liberal
hospitalities, forbade outward show, and made our life a thorough
family life still--were somewhat distasteful to that most fascinating
young gentleman, Guy Halifax, Esquire, heir of Beechwood Hall.

"You may call it 'magnificence,' or what you choose; but I know I
should like to live a little more as our neighbours do.  And I think we
ought too--we that are known to be the wealthiest family--"

He stopped abruptly--for the door opened; and Guy had too much good
taste and good feeling to discuss our riches before Maud's poor
governess--the tall, grave, sad-looking, sad-clothed Miss Silver; the
same whom John had seen at Mr. Jessop's bank; and who had been with us
four months--ever since we came to Beechwood.

One of the boys rose and offered her a chair; for the parents set the
example of treating her with entire respect--nay, would gladly have
made her altogether one of the family, had she not been so very
reserved.

Miss Silver came forward with the daily nosegay which Mrs. Halifax had
confided to her superintendence.

"They are the best I can find, madam--I believe Watkins keeps all his
greenhouse flowers for to-night."

"Thank you, my dear.  These will do very well.--Yes, Guy, persuade Miss
Silver to take your place by the fire.  She looks so cold."

But Miss Silver, declining the kindness, passed on to her own seat
opposite.

Ursula busied herself over the breakfast equipage rather nervously.
Though an admirable person, Miss Silver in her extreme and all but
repellant quietness was one whom the mother found it difficult to get
on with.  She was scrupulously kind to her; and the governess was as
scrupulously exact in all courtesy and attention; still that
impassible, self-contained demeanour, that great reticence--it might be
shyness, it might be pride--sometimes, Ursula privately admitted,
"fidgeted" her.

To-day was to be a general holiday for both masters and servants; a
dinner at the mills; and in the evening something which, though we call
it a tea-drinking, began to look, I was amused to see, exceedingly like
"a ball."  But on this occasion both parents had yielded to their young
people's wishes, and half the neighbourhood had been invited, by the
universally-popular Mr. Guy Halifax to celebrate his coming of age.

"Only once in a way," said the mother, half ashamed of herself for thus
indulging the boy--as, giving his shoulder a fond shake, she called him
"a foolish fellow."

Then we all dispersed; Guy and Walter to ride to the manor-house, Edwin
vanishing with his sister, to whom he was giving daily Latin lessons in
the school-room.

John asked me to take a walk on the hill with him.

"Go, Phineas," whispered his wife--"it will do him good.  And don't let
him talk too much of old times.  This is a hard week for him."

The mother's eyes were mournful, for Guy and "the child" had been born
within a year and three days of each other; but she never hinted--it
never would have struck her to hint--"this is a hard week for ME."

That grief--the one great grief of their life, had come to her more
wholesomely than to her husband:  either because men, the very best of
men, can only suffer, while women can endure; or because in the
mysterious ordinance of nature Maud's baby lips had sucked away the
bitterness of the pang from the bereaved mother, while her loss was yet
new.  It had never been left to rankle in that warm heart, which had
room for every living child, while it cherished, in tenderness above
all sorrow, the child that was no more.

John and I, in our walk, stood a moment by the low churchyard wall, and
looked over at that plain white stone, where was inscribed her name,
"Muriel Joy Halifax,"--a line out of that New Testament miracle-story
she delighted in, "WHEREAS I WAS BLIND, NOW I SEE,"--and the date when
SHE SAW.  Nothing more:  it was not needed.

"December 5, 1813," said the father, reading the date.  "She would have
been quite a woman now.  How strange!  My little Muriel!"

And he walked thoughtfully along, almost in the same footprints where
he had been used to carry his darling up the hillside to the brow of
Enderley Flat.  He seemed in fancy to bear her in his arms still--this
little one, whom, as I have before said, Heaven in its compensating
mercy, year by year, through all changes, had made the one treasure
that none could take away--the one child left to be a child for ever.

I think, as we rested in the self-same place, the sunshiny nook where
we used to sit with her for hours together, the father's heart took
this consolation so closely and surely into itself that memory
altogether ceased to be pain.  He began talking about the other
children--especially Maud--and then of Miss Silver, her governess.

"I wish she were more likeable, John.  It vexes me sometimes to see how
coldly she returns the mother's kindness."

"Poor thing!--she has evidently not been used to kindness.  You should
have seen how amazed she looked yesterday when we paid her a little
more than her salary, and my wife gave her a pretty silk dress to wear
to-night.  I hardly knew whether  she would refuse it, or burst out
crying--in girlish fashion."

"Is she a girl?  Why, the boys say she looks thirty at least.  Guy and
Walter laugh amazingly at her dowdy dress and her solemn, haughty ways."

"That will not do, Phineas.  I must speak to them.  They ought to make
allowance for poor Miss Silver, of whom I think most highly."

"I know you do; but do you heartily like her?"

"For most things, yes.  And I sincerely respect her, or, of course, she
would not be here.  I think people should be as particular over
choosing their daughter's governess as their son's wife; and having
chosen, should show her almost equal honour."

"You'll have your sons choosing themselves wives soon, John.  I fancy
Guy has a soft place in his heart for that pretty Grace Oldtower."

But the father made no answer.  He was always tenacious over the
slightest approach to such jests as these.  And besides, just at this
moment Mr. Brown, Lord Luxmore's steward, passed--riding solemnly
along.  He barely touched his hat to Mr. Halifax.

"Poor Mr. Brown!  He has a grudge against me for those Mexican
speculations I refused to embark in; he did, and lost everything but
what he gets from Lord Luxmore.  I do think, Phineas, the country has
been running mad this year after speculation.  There is sure to come a
panic afterwards, and indeed it seems already beginning."

"But you are secure?  You have not joined in the mania, the crash
cannot harm you?  Did I not hear you say that you were not afraid of
losing a single penny?"

"Yes--unfortunately," with a troubled smile.

"John, what do you mean?"

"I mean, that to stand upright while one's neighbours are falling on
all sides is a most trying position.  Misfortune makes people unjust.
The other day at the sessions I got cold looks enough from my brother
magistrates--looks that would have set my blood boiling twenty years
ago.  And--you saw in the Norton Bury Mercury that article about
'grasping plebeian millionaires'--'wool-spinners, spinning out of their
country's vitals.'  That's meant for me, Phineas.  Don't look
incredulous.  Yes--for me."

"How disgraceful!"

"Perhaps so--but to them more than to me.  I feel sorry, because of the
harm it may do me--especially among working people, who know nothing
but what they hear, and believe everything that is told them. They see
I thrive and others fail--that my mills are the only cloth mills in
full work, and I have more hands than I can employ.  Every week I am
obliged to send new-comers away.  Then they raise the old cry--that my
machinery has ruined labour.  So, you see, for all that Guy says about
our prosperity, his father does not sleep exactly upon a bed of roses."

"It is wicked--atrocious!"

"Not at all.  Only natural--the penalty one has to pay for success. It
will die out most likely; meantime, we will mind it as little as we
can."

"But are you safe?--your life--"  For a sudden fear crossed me--a fear
not unwarranted by more than one event of this year--this terrible 1825.

"Safe?--Yes--" and his eyes were lifted, "I believe my life is safe--if
I have work to do.  Still, for others' sake, I have carried this month
past whenever I go to and from the Coltham bank, besides my
cash-box--this."

He showed me, peering out of his breast-pocket, a small pistol.

I was greatly startled.

"Does your wife know?"

"Of course.  But she knows too that nothing but the last extremity
would force me to use it:  also that my carrying it, and its being
noised about that I do so, may prevent my ever having occasion to use
it.  God grant I never may!  Don't let us talk about this."

He stopped, gazing with a sad abstraction down the sunshiny
valley--most part of which was already his own property.  For whatever
capital he could spare from his business he never sunk in speculation,
but took a patriarchal pleasure in investing it in land, chiefly for
the benefit of his mills and those concerned therein.

"My poor people--they might have known me better!  But I suppose one
never attains one's desire without its being leavened with some
bitterness.  If there was one point I was anxious over in my youth, it
was to keep up through life a name like the Chevalier Bayard--how folk
would smile to hear of a tradesman emulating Bayard--'sans peur et sans
reproche!'  And so things might be--ought to be.  So perhaps they shall
be yet, in spite of this calumny."

"How shall you meet it?  What shall you do?"

"Nothing.  Live it down."

He stood still, looking across the valley to where the frosty line of
the hill-tops met the steel-blue, steadfast sky.  Yes, I felt sure he
WOULD 'live it down.'

We dismissed the subject, and spent an hour more in pleasant chat,
about many things.  Passing homeward through the beech-wood, where
through the bare tree-tops a light snow was beginning to fall, John
said, musingly:

"It will be a hard winter--we shall have to help our poor people a
great deal.  Christmas dinners will be much in request."

"There's a saying, that the way to an Englishman's heart is through his
stomach.  So, perhaps, you'll get justice by spring."

"Don't be angry, Phineas.  As I tell my wife, it is not worth while.
Half the wrongs people do to us are through sheer ignorance.  We must
be patient.  'IN YOUR PATIENCE POSSESS YE YOUR SOULS.'"

He said this, more to himself than aloud, as if carrying out the thread
of his own thought.  Mine following it, and observing him,
involuntarily turned to another passage in our Book of books, about the
blessedness of some men, even when reviled and persecuted.

Ay, and for all his many cares, John Halifax looked like a man who was
"blessed."

Blessed, and happy too, throughout that day, especially in the midst of
the mill-yard dinner--which reminded me forcibly of that feast at which
guests were gathered out of the highways and hedges--guests such as
John Halifax liked to have--guests who could not, by any possibility,
"recompense"' him.  Yet it did one's heart good to hear the cheer that
greeted the master, ay, and the young master too, who was to-day for
the first time presented as such:  as the firm henceforward was to be,
"Halifax and Son."

And full of smiling satisfaction was the father's look, when in the
evening he stood in the midst of his children waiting for "Guy's
visitors," as he pertinaciously declared them to be--these fine people,
for whose entertainment our house had been these three days turned
upside down; the sober old dining-room converted into a glittering
ball-room, and the entrance-hall a very "bower of bliss"--all green
boughs and Chinese lanterns.  John protested he should not have known
his own study again; and that, if these festive transformations were to
happen frequently he should soon not even know himself!

Yet for all that, and in spite of the comical horror he testified at
this first bouleversement of our quiet home ways, I think he had a real
pleasure in his children's delight; in wandering with them through the
decorated rooms, tapestried with ivy and laurel, and arbor vitae; in
making them all pass in review before him, and admiring their handiwork
and themselves.

A goodly group they made--our young folk; there were no "children"
now--for even Maud, who was tall and womanly for her age, had bloomed
out in a ball dress, all white muslin and camellias, and appeared every
inch "Miss Halifax."  Walter, too, had lately eschewed jackets, and
began to borrow razors; while Edwin, though still small, had a keen,
old-man-like look, which made him seem--as he was, indeed, in
character--the eldest of the three.  Altogether, they were "a fine
family," such as any man might rejoice to see growing, or grown up,
around him.

But my eyes naturally sought the father as he stood among his boys,
taller than any of them, and possessing far more than they that quality
for which John Halifax had always been remarkable--dignity. True,
Nature had favoured him beyond most men, giving him the stately,
handsome presence, befitting middle age, throwing a kind of apostolic
grace over the high, half-bald crown, and touching with a softened grey
the still curly locks behind.  But these were mere accidents; the true
dignity lay in himself and his own personal character, independent of
any exterior.

It was pleasant to watch him, and note how advancing years had given
rather than taken away from his outward mien.  As ever, he was
distinguishable from other men, even to his dress--which had something
of the Quaker about it still, in its sober colour, its rarely-changed
fashion, and its exceeding neatness.  Mrs. Halifax used now and then to
laugh at him for being so particular over his daintiest of cambric and
finest of lawn--but secretly she took the greatest pride in his
appearance.

"John looks well to-night," she said, coming in and sitting down by me,
her eyes following mine.  One would not have guessed from her quiet
gaze that she knew--what John had told me she knew, this morning.  But
these two in their perfect union had a wonderful strength--a wonderful
fearlessness.  And she had learned from him--what perhaps originally
was foreign to her impressible and somewhat anxious mind--that
steadfast faith, which, while ready to meet every ill when the time
comes, until the time waits cheerfully, and will not disquiet itself in
vain.

Thus, for all their cares, her face as well as his, was calm and
bright.  Bright, even with the prettiest girlish blush, when John came
up to his wife and admired her--as indeed was not surprising.

She laughed at him, and declared she always intended to grow lovely in
her old age.  "I thought I ought to dress myself grandly, too, on Guy's
birthday.  Do you like me, John?"

"Very much:  I like that black velvet gown, substantial, soft, and
rich, without any show.  And that lace frill round your throat--what
sort of lace is it?"

"Valenciennes.  When I was a girl, if I had a weakness it was for black
velvet and Valenciennes."

John smiled, with visible pleasure that she had even a "weakness"
gratified now.  "And you have put on my brooch at last, I see."

"Yes; but--" and she shook her head--"remember your promise!"

"Phineas, this wife of mine is a vain woman.  She knows her own price
is 'far above rubies'--or diamonds either.  No, Mrs. Halifax, be not
afraid; I shall give you no more jewels."

She did not need them.  She stood amidst her three sons with the smile
of a Cornelia.  She felt her husband's eyes rest on her, with that
quiet perfectness of love--better than any lover's love--

     "The fulness of a stream that knew no fall"--
the love of a husband who has been married nearly twenty-five years.

Here a troop of company arrived, and John left me to assume his duty as
host.

No easy duty, as I soon perceived; for times were hard, and men's minds
troubled.  Every one, except the light-heeled, light-hearted
youngsters, looked grave.

Many yet alive remember this year--1825--the panic year.  War having
ceased, commerce, in its worst form, started into sudden and unhealthy
overgrowth.  Speculations of all kinds sprung up like fungi, out of
dead wood, flourished a little, and dropped away.  Then came ruin, not
of hundreds, but thousands, of all ranks and classes. This year, and
this month in this year, the breaking of many established firms,
especially bankers, told that the universal crash had just begun.

It was felt even in our retired country neighbourhood, and among our
friendly guests this night, both gentle and simple--and there was a
mixture of both, as only a man in Mr. Halifax's position could mix such
heterogeneous elements--towns-people and country-people, dissenters and
church-folk, professional men and men of business. John dared to do
it--and did it.  But though through his own personal influence many of
different ranks whom he liked and respected, meeting in his own house,
learned to like and respect one another, still, even to-night, he could
not remove the cloud which seemed to hang over all--a cloud so heavy
that none present liked referring to it.  They hit upon all sorts of
extraneous subjects, keeping far aloof from the one which evidently
pressed upon all minds--the universal distress abroad, the fear that
was knocking at almost every man's door but ours.

Of course the talk fell on our neighbours--country talk always does. I
sat still, listening to Sir Herbert Oldtower, who was wondering that
Lord Luxmore suffered the Hall to drop into disgraceful decay, and had
begun cutting down the pine-woods round it.

"Woods, older than his title by many a century--downright sacrilege!
And the property being entailed, too--actual robbery of the heir! But I
understand anybody may do anything with Lord Ravenel--a mere selfish,
cynical, idle voluptuary!"

"Indeed you are mistaken, Sir Herbert!" cried Mr. Jessop of Norton
Bury--a very honest fellow was Josiah Jessop.  "He banks with me--that
is, there are some poor Catholics in this neighbourhood whom I pay--but
bless me! he told me not to tell.  No, indeed.  Cynical he may be;
idle, perhaps--most men of fashion are--but Lord Ravenel is not the
least like his father--is he, Mr. Halifax?"

"I have not seen Lord Ravenel for many years."

And as if, even to this day, the mention of the young man's name
brought back thoughts of the last day we had seen him--a day which, its
sadness having gone by, still kept its unspoken sacredness, distinct
from all other days--John moved away and went and talked to a girl whom
both he and the mother liked above most young girls we knew--simple,
sunny-faced Grace Oldtower.

Dancing began.  Spite of my Quaker education, or perhaps for that very
reason, I delighted to see dancing.  Dancing, such as it was then, when
young folk moved breezily and lightly, as if they loved it; skimming
like swallows down the long lines of the Triumph--gracefully winding in
and out through the graceful country dance--lively always, but always
decorous.  In those days people did not think it necessary to the
pleasures of dancing that any stranger should have liberty to snatch a
shy, innocent girl round the waist, and whirl her about in mad waltz or
awkward polka, till she stops, giddy and breathless, with burning cheek
and tossed hair, looking,--as I would not have liked to see our pretty
Maud look.

No; though while watching the little lady to-night, I was inclined to
say to her:

               "When you do dance, I wish you
      A wave o' the sea, that you might ever do
      Nothing but that."

And in her unwearied spirits she seemed as if she would readily have
responded to the wish.

We did not see Guy among the dancers, who were now forming in a
somewhat confused square, in order to execute a new dance called
quadrilles, of which Miss Grace Oldtower was to be the instructress.

"Where is Guy?" said the mother, who would have missed him among a room
full of people.  "Have you seen Guy anywhere, Miss Silver?"

Miss Silver, who sat playing tunes--she had declined dancing--turned,
colouring visibly.

"Yes, I have seen him; he is in the study."

"Would you be so kind as to fetch him?"

The governess rose and crossed the room, with a stately walk--statelier
than usual.  Her silk gown, of some rich soft colour, fashioned after
Mrs. Halifax's taste, and the chaplet of bay-leaves, which Maud had
insisted upon putting in her dark hair, made an astonishing change in
Miss Silver.  I could not help noticing it to Mrs. Halifax.

"Yes, indeed, she looks well.  John says her features are fine; but for
my part, I don't care for your statuesque faces; I like
colour--expression.  See that bright little Grace Oldtower!--a
thoroughly English rose;--I like HER.  Poor Miss Silver!  I wish--"

What, out of compunction for a certain sharpness with which she had
spoken, Mrs. Halifax was about to wish, remained undeclared.  For, just
this minute, Guy entered, and leaning his handsome head and his tender
petits soins over the "English rose," as his mother called her, led her
out to the dancing.

We sat down and looked on.

"Guy dances lazily; he is rather pale too, I fancy."

"Tired, probably.  He was out far too long on the ice to-day, with Maud
and Miss Silver.  What a pretty creature his partner is!" added Ursula,
thoughtfully.

"The children are growing up fast," I said.

"Ay, indeed.  To think that Guy is actually twenty-one--the age when
his father was married!"

"Guy will be reminding you of that fact some day soon."

Mrs. Halifax smiled.  "The sooner the better, if only he makes a worthy
choice--if only he brings me a daughter whom I can love."

And I fancied there was love--motherly love--in the eyes that followed
through the graceful mazes of her dancing, the bonny English rose.

Guy and his partner sat down beside us.  His mother noticed that he had
turned very pale again, and the lad owned to be in some pain:  he had
twisted his foot that morning, in helping Maud and Miss Silver across
the ice; but it was a mere trifle--not worth mentioning.

It passed over, with one or two anxious inquiries on the mother's part,
and a soft, dewy shadow over the down-dropped cheek of the little rose,
who evidently did not like to think of any harm coming to her old
play-fellow.  Then Sir Herbert appeared to lead Mrs. Halifax in to
supper, Guy limped along with pretty Grace on his arm, and all the
guests, just enough to fill our longest table in John's study, came
thronging round in a buzz of mirthfulness.

Either the warm, hospitable atmosphere, or the sight of the merry
youngsters, or the general influence of social pleasantness, had for
the time being dispelled the cloud.  But certainly it was dispelled.
The master of the feast looked down two long lines of happy faces--his
own as bright as theirs--down to where, at the foot of the table, the
mother and mistress sat.  She had been slightly nervous at times during
the evening, but now she appeared thoroughly at ease and glad--glad to
see her husband take his place at the head of his own hospitable board,
in the midst of his own friends and his own people honoured and
beloved.  It seemed a good omen--an omen that the bitter things outside
would pass away.

How bitter they had been, and how sore the wife's heart still felt, I
could see from the jealous way in which, smiling and cheerful as her
demeanour was, she caught every look, every word of those around her
which might chance to bear reference to her husband; in her quick
avoidance of every topic connected with these disastrous times, and,
above all, in her hurried grasp of a newspaper that some careless
servant brought in fresh from the night-mail, wet with sleet and snow.

"Do you get your country paper regularly?" asked some one at table. And
then some others appeared to recollect the Norton Bury Mercury, and its
virulent attacks on their host--for there ensued an awkward pause,
during which I saw Ursula's face beginning to burn.  But she conquered
her wrath.

"There is often much interest in our provincial papers, Sir Herbert. My
husband makes a point of taking them all in--bad and good--of every
shade of politics.  He believes it is only by hearing all sides that
you can truly judge of the state of the country."

"Just as a physician must hear all symptoms before he decides on the
patient's case.  At least, so our good old friend Doctor Jessop used to
say."

"Eh?" said Mr. Jessop the banker, catching his own name, and waking up
from a brown study, in which he had seemed to see nothing--except,
perhaps, the newspaper, which, in its printed cover, lay between
himself and Mrs. Halifax.  "Eh? did any one--Oh, I beg pardon--beg
pardon--Sir Herbert," hastily added the old man; who was a very meek
and worthy soul, and had been perhaps more subdued than usual this
evening.

"I was referring," said Sir Herbert, with his usual ponderous civility,
"to your excellent brother, who was so much respected among us,--for
which respect, allow me to say, he did not leave us without an
inheritor."

The old banker answered the formal bow with a kind of nervous hurry;
and then Sir Herbert, with a loud premise of his right as the oldest
friend of our family, tried to obtain silence for the customary speech,
prefatory to the customary toast of "Health and prosperity to the heir
of Beechwood."

There was great applause and filling of glasses; great smiling and
whispering; everybody glancing at poor Guy, who turned red and white,
and evidently wished himself a hundred miles off.  In the confusion I
felt my sleeve touched, and saw leaning towards me, hidden by Maud's
laughing happy face, the old banker.  He held in his hand the newspaper
which seemed to have so fascinated him.

"It's the London Gazette.  Mr. Halifax gets it three hours before any
of us.  I may open it?  It is important to me.  Mrs. Halifax would
excuse, eh?"

Of course she would.  Especially if she had seen the old man's look, as
his trembling fingers vainly tried to unfold the sheet without a single
rustle's betraying his surreptitious curiosity.

Sir Herbert rose, cleared his throat, and began:

"Ladies and gentlemen, I speak as a father myself, and as son of a
father whom--whom I will not refer to here, except to say that his good
heart would have rejoiced to see this day.  The high esteem in which
Sir Ralph always held Mr. Halifax, has descended, and will descend--"

Here some one called out:

"Mr. Jessop!  Look at Mr. Jessop!"

The old man had suddenly sank back, with a sort of choking groan. His
eyes were staring blankly, his cheek was the colour of ashes. But when
he saw every one looking at him he tried desperately to recover himself.

"'Tis nothing.  Nothing of the slightest moment.  Eh?" clutching
tightly at the paper which Mrs. Halifax was kindly removing out of his
hand.  "There's no news in it--none, I assure you."

But from his agitation--from the pitiful effort he made to disguise
it--it was plain enough that there was news.  Plain also, as in these
dangerous and critical times men were only too quick to divine, in what
that news consisted.  Tidings, which now made every newspaper a sight
of fear,--especially this--the London Gazette.

Edwin caught and read the fatal page--the fatal column--known only too
well.

"W----'s have stopped payment."

W----'s was a great London house, the favourite banking-house in our
country, with which many provincial banks, and Jessop's especially,
were widely connected, and would be no one knew how widely involved.

"W----'s stopped payment!"

A murmur--a hush of momentary suspense, as the Gazette was passed
hurriedly from hand to hand; and then our guests, one and all, sat
looking at one another in breathless fear, suspicion, or assured
dismay.  For, as every one was aware (we knew our neighbours' affairs
so well about innocent Enderley), there was not a single household of
that merry little company upon whom, near or remote, the blow would not
fall--except ours.

No polite disguise could gloss over the general consternation.  Few
thought of Jessop--only of themselves.  Many a father turned pale; many
a mother melted into smothered tears.  More than one honest countenance
that five minutes before had beamed like the rising sun, all
friendliness and jocularity, I saw shrink into a wizened, worldly face
with greedy selfishness peering out of the corners of its eyes, eager
to conceal its own alarms and dive as far as possible into the terrors
of its neighbours.

"There will be a run on Jessop's bank to-morrow," I heard one person
saying; glancing to where the poor old banker still sat, with a vacant,
stupefied smile, assuring all around him that "nothing had happened;
really, nothing."

"A run?  I suppose so.  Then it will be 'Sauve qui peut,' and the devil
take the hindmost."

"What say you to all this, Mr. Halifax?"

John still kept his place.  He sat perfectly quiet, and had never
spoken a syllable.

When Sir Herbert, who was the first to recover from the shock of these
ill-tidings, called him by his name, Mr. Halifax looked quickly up.  It
was to see, instead of those two lines of happy faces, faces already
gathering in troubled groups, faces angry, sullen, or miserable, all of
which, with a vague distrust, seemed instinctively turned upon him.

"Mr. Halifax," said the baronet, and one could see how, in spite of his
steadfast politeness, he too was not without his anxieties--"this is an
unpleasant breaking-in upon your kindly hospitalities.  I suppose,
through this unpropitious event, each of us must make up our minds to
some loss.  Let me hope yours will be trifling."

John made no answer.

"Or, perhaps--though I can hardly hope anything so fortunate--perhaps
this failure will not affect you at all?"

He waited--as did many others, for Mr. Halifax's reply; which was long
in coming.  However, since all seemed to expect it, it did come at
last; but grave and sad as if it were the announcement of some great
misfortune.

"No, Sir Herbert; it will not affect me at all."

Sir Herbert, and not he alone--looked surprised--uneasily surprised.
Some mutters there were of "congratulation."  Then arose a troubled
murmur of talking, in which the master of the house was forgotten;
until the baronet said, "My friends, I think we are forgetting our
courtesy.  Allow me to give you without more delay--the toast I was
about to propose,--'Health, long life, and happiness to Mr. Guy
Halifax.'"

And so poor Guy's birthday toast was drunk; almost in silence; and the
few words he said in acknowledgment were just listened to, scarcely
heard.  Every one rose from table, and the festivities were over.

One by one all our guests began to make excuse.  One by one,
involuntarily perhaps, yet not the less painfully and plainly, they all
shrunk away from us, as if in the universal trouble we, who had nothing
to fear, had no part nor lot.  Formal congratulations, given with pale
lips and wandering eyes; brusque adieux, as some of the more honest or
less courteous showed but too obviously how cruelly, even resentfully,
they felt the inequalities of fortune; hasty departures, full of a
dismay that rejected angrily every shadow of consolation;--all these
things John had to meet and to bear.

He met them with composure; scarcely speaking a word, as indeed what
was there to say?  To all the friendly speeches, real or pretended, he
listened with a kind of sad gravity:  of all harsher words than
these--and there were not a few--he took not the least notice, but held
his place as master of the house; generously deaf and blind to
everything that it were as well the master of the house should neither
hear nor see.

At last he was left, a very Pariah of prosperity, by his own hearth,
quite alone.

The last carriage had rolled away; the tired household had gone to bed;
there was no one in the study but me.  John came in and stood leaning
with both his arms against the fireplace, motionless and silent.  He
leant there so long, that at last I touched him.

"Well, Phineas!"

I saw this night's events had wounded him to the core.

"Are you thinking of these honest, friendly, disinterested guests of
ours?  Don't!  They are not worth a single thought."

"Not an angry thought, certainly."  And he smiled at my wrath--a sad
smile.

"Ah, Phineas! now I begin to understand what is meant by the curse of
prosperity."



CHAPTER XXXI

A great, eager, but doggedly-quiet crowd, of which each had his or
her--for it was half women--individual terror to hide, his or her
individual interest to fight for, and cared not a straw for that of any
one else.

It was market-day, and this crowd was collected and collecting every
minute, before the bank at Norton Bury.  It included all classes, from
the stout farmer's wife or market-woman, to the pale, frightened lady
of "limited income," who had never been in such a throng before; from
the aproned mechanic to the gentleman who sat in his carriage at the
street corner, confident that whatever poor chance there was, his would
be the best.

Everybody was, as I have said, extremely quiet.  You heard none of the
jokes that always rise in and circulate through a crowd; none of the
loud outcries of a mob.  All were intent on themselves and their own
business; on that fast-bolted red-baize door, and on the green blind of
the windows, which informed them that it was "open from ten till four."

The Abbey clock struck three quarters.  Then there was a slight
stirring, a rustling here and there of paper, as some one drew out and
examined his bank notes; openly, with small fear of theft--they were
not worth stealing.

John and I, a little way off, stood looking on, where we had once
watched a far different crowd; for Mr. Jessop owned the doctor's former
house, and in sight of the green bank blinds were my dear old father's
known windows.

Guy's birthday had fallen on a Saturday.  This was Monday morning. We
had driven over to Norton Bury, John and I, at an unusually early hour.
He did not exactly tell me why, but it was not difficult to guess.  Not
difficult to perceive how strongly he was interested, even affected--as
any man, knowing all the circumstances, could not but be affected--by
the sight of that crowd, all the sadder for its being such a patient,
decent, respectable crowd, out of which so large a proportion was women.

I noticed this latter fact to John.

"Yes, I was sure it would be so.  Jessop's bank has such a number of
small depositors and issues so many small notes.  He cannot cash above
half of them without some notice.  If there comes a run, he may have to
stop payment this very day; and then, how wide the misery would spread
among the poor, God knows."

His eye wandered pitifully over the heaving mass of anxious faces blue
with cold, and growing more and more despondent as every minute they
turned with a common impulse from the closed bank door to the Abbey
clock, glittering far up in the sunshiny atmosphere of morning.

Its finger touched the one heel of the great striding X--glided on to
the other--the ten strokes fell leisurely and regularly upon the clear
frosty air; then the chimes--Norton Bury was proud of its Abbey
chimes--burst out in the tune of "Life let us Cherish."

The bells went through all the tune, to the very last note--then ensued
silence.  The crowd were silent too--almost breathless with intent
listening--but, alas! not to the merry Abbey chimes.

The bank door remained closed--not a rattle at the bolts, not a clerk's
face peering out above the blind.  The house was as shut-up and
desolate as if it were entirely empty.

Five whole minutes--by the Abbey clock--did that poor, patient crowd
wait on the pavement.  Then a murmur arose.  One or two men hammered at
the door; some frightened women, jostled in the press, begun to scream.

John could bear it no longer.  "Come along with me," he said,
hurriedly.  "I must see Jessop--we can get in at the garden door."

This was a little gate round the corner of the street, well known to us
both in those brief "courting days," when we came to tea of evenings,
and found Mrs. Jessop and Ursula March in the garden watering the
plants and tying up the roses.  Nay, we passed out of it into the same
summer parlour, where--I cannot tell if John ever knew of the incident,
at all events he never mentioned it to me--there had been transacted a
certain momentous event in Ursula's life and mine. Entering by the
French window, there rose up to my mental vision, in vivid contrast to
all present scenes, the picture of a young girl I had once seen sitting
there, with head drooped, knitting.  Could that day be twenty-five
years ago?

No summer parlour now--its atmosphere was totally changed.  It was a
dull, dusty room, of which the only lively object was a large fire, the
under half of which had burnt itself away unstirred into black dingy
caverns.  Before it, with breakfast untasted, sat Josiah Jessop--his
feet on the fender, his elbows on his knees, the picture of despair.

"Mr. Jessop, my good friend!"

"No, I haven't a friend in the world, or shall not have an hour hence.
Oh! it's you, Mr. Halifax?--You have not an account to close? You don't
hold any notes of mine, do you?"

John put his hand on the old man's shoulder, and repeated that he only
came as a friend.

"Not the first 'friend' I have received this morning.  I knew I should
be early honoured with visitors;" and the banker attempted a dreary
smile.  "Sir Herbert and half-a-dozen more are waiting for me
up-stairs.  The biggest fish must have the first bite--eh, you know?"

"I know," said John, gloomily.

"Hark! those people outside will hammer my door down!--Speak to them,
Mr. Halifax--tell them I'm an old man--that I was always an honest
man--always.  If only they would give me time--hark--just hark! Heaven
help me! do they want to tear me in pieces?"

John went out for a few moments, then came back and sat down beside Mr.
Jessop.

"Compose yourself,"--the old man was shaking like an aspen leaf. "Tell
me, if you have no objection to give me this confidence, exactly how
your affairs stand."

With a gasp of helpless thankfulness, looking up in John's face, while
his own quivered like a frightened child's--the banker obeyed. It
seemed that great as was his loss by W----'s failure, it was not
absolute ruin to him.  In effect, he was at this moment perfectly
solvent, and by calling in mortgages, etc., could meet both the
accounts of the gentry who banked with him, together with all his own
notes now afloat in the country, principally among the humbler ranks,
petty tradespeople, and such like, if only both classes of customers
would give him time to pay them.

"But they will not.  There will be a run upon the bank and then all's
over with me.  It's a hard case--solvent as I am--ready and able to pay
every farthing--if only I had a week's time.  As it is I must stop
payment to-day.  Hark! they are at the door again!  Mr. Halifax, for
God's sake quiet them!"

"I will; only tell me first what sum, added to the cash you have
available, would keep the bank open--just for a day or two."

At once guided and calmed, the old man's business faculties seemed to
return.  He began to calculate, and soon stated the sum he needed; I
think it was three or four thousand pounds.

"Very well; I have thought of a plan.  But first--those poor fellows
outside.  Thank Heaven, I am a rich man, and everybody knows it.
Phineas, that inkstand, please."

He sat down and wrote:  curiously the attitude and manner reminded me
of his sitting down and writing at my father's table, after the bread
riot--years and years ago.  Soon a notice, signed by Josiah Jessop, and
afterwards by himself, to the effect that the bank would open, "without
fail," at one o'clock this day,--was given by John to the astonished
clerk, to be posted in the window.

A responsive cheer outside showed how readily those outside had caught
at even this gleam of hope.  Also--how implicitly they trusted in the
mere name of a gentleman who all over the country was known for "his
word being as good as his bond,"--John Halifax.

The banker breathed freer; but his respite was short:  an imperative
message came from the gentlemen above-stairs, desiring his presence.
With a kind of blind dependence he looked towards John.

"Let me go in your stead.  You can trust me to manage matters to the
best of my power?"

The banker overwhelmed him with gratitude.

"Nay, that ought to be my word, standing in this house, and
remembering"--His eyes turned to the two portraits--grimly-coloured
daubs, yet with a certain apology of likeness too, which broadly smiled
at one another from opposite walls--the only memorials now remaining of
the good doctor and his cheery little old wife.  "Come, Mr. Jessop,
leave the matter with me; believe me, it is not only a pleasure, but a
duty."

The old man melted into senile tears.

I do not know how John managed the provincial magnates, who were
sitting in council considering how best to save, first themselves, then
the bank, lastly--If the poor public outside had been made acquainted
with that ominous "lastly!"  Or if to the respectable conclave
above-stairs, who would have recoiled indignantly at the vulgar word
"jobbing," had been hinted a phrase--which ran oddly in and out of the
nooks of my brain, keeping time to the murmur in the street, "Vox
populi, vox Dei"--truly, I should have got little credit for my
Latinity.

John came out in about half an hour, with a cheerful countenance; told
me he was going over to Coltham for an hour or two--would I wait his
return?

"And all is settled?" I asked.

"Will be soon, I trust.  I can't stay to tell you more now. Goodbye."

I was no man of business, and could assist in nothing.  So I thought
the best I could do was to pass the time in wandering up and down the
familiar garden, idly watching the hoar-frost on the arbutus leaves,
and on the dry stems of what had been dear little Mrs. Jessop's
favourite roses--the same roses I had seen her among on that momentous
evening--the evening when Ursula's bent neck flushed more crimson than
the sunset itself, as I told her John Halifax was "too noble to die for
any woman's love."

No--he had lived for it--earned it--won it.  And musing over these
long-ago times, my heart melted--foolish old heart that it was! with a
trembling joy, to think that Providence had, in some way, used my poor
useless hand to give to him this blessing, a man's chiefest blessing of
a virtuous and loving wife--which had crowned his life for all these
wonderful years.

As it neared one o'clock, I could see my ancient friend the Abbey clock
with not a wrinkle in his old face, staring at me through the bare
Abbey trees.  I began to feel rather anxious.  I went into the deserted
office; and thence, none forbidding, ensconced myself behind the
sheltering bank blinds.

The crowd had scarcely moved; a very honest, patient, weary crowd dense
in the centre, thinning towards the edges.  On its extremest verge,
waiting in a curricle, was a gentleman, who seemed observing it with a
lazy curiosity.  I, having like himself apparently nothing better to
do, observed this gentleman.

He was dressed in the height of the mode, combined with a novel and
eccentric fashion, which had been lately set by that extraordinary
young nobleman whom everybody talked about--my Lord Byron.  His
neckcloth was loose, his throat bare, and his hair fell long and
untidy.  His face, that of a man about thirty--I fancied I had seen it
before, but could not recall where,--was delicate, thin, with an
expression at once cynical and melancholy.  He sat in his carriage,
wrapped in furs, or looked carelessly out on the scene before him, as
if he had no interest therein--as if there was nothing in life worth
living for.

"Poor fellow!" said I to myself, recalling the bright, busy, laughing
faces of our growing up lads, recalling especially their father's--full
of all that active energy and wise cheerfulness which gives zest to
existence; God forbid any man should die till he has lived to learn
it!--"poor fellow!  I wish his moodiness could take a lesson from us at
home!"

But the gentleman soon retired from my observation under his furs; for
the sky had gloomed over, and snow began to fall.  Those on the
pavement shook it drearily off, and kept turning every minute to the
Abbey clock--I feared it would take the patience of Job to enable them
to hold out another quarter of an hour.

At length some determined hand again battered at the door.  I fancied I
heard a clerk speaking out of the first-floor window.

"Gentlemen"--how tremblingly polite the voice was!--"Gentlemen, in five
minutes--positively five minutes--the bank will--"

The rest of the speech was drowned and lost.  Dashing round the street
corner, the horses all in a foam, came our Beechwood carriage. Mr.
Halifax leaped out.

Well might the crowd divide for him--well might they cheer him.  For he
carried a canvas bag--a great, ugly, grimy-coloured bag--a precious,
precious bag, with the consolation--perhaps the life--of hundreds in it!

I knew, almost by intuition, what he had done--what, in one or two
instances, was afterwards done by other rich and generous Englishmen,
during the crisis of this year.

The bank door flew open like magic.  The crowd came pushing in; but
when John called out to them, "Good people, pray let me pass!" they
yielded and suffered him to go in first.  He went right up to the desk,
behind which, flanked by a tolerable array of similar canvas bags, full
of gold--but nevertheless waiting in mortal fear, and as white as his
own neck-cloth--the old banker stood.

"Mr. Jessop," John said, in a loud, distinct voice, that all might hear
him, "I have the pleasure to open an account with you.  I feel
satisfied that in these dangerous times no credit is more safe than
yours.  Allow me to pay in to-day the sum of five thousand pounds."

"Five thousand pounds!"

The rumour of it was repeated from mouth to mouth.  In a small
provincial bank, such a sum seemed unlimited.  It gave universal
confidence.  Many who had been scrambling, swearing, almost fighting,
to reach the counter and receive gold for their notes, put them again
into their pockets, uncashed.  Others, chiefly women, got them cashed
with a trembling hand--nay, with tears of joy.  A few who had come to
close accounts, changed their minds, and even paid money in.  All were
satisfied--the run upon the bank ceased.

Mr. Halifax stood aside, looking on.  After the first murmur of
surprise and pleasure no one seemed to take any notice of him, or of
what he had done.  Only one old widow woman, as she slipped three
bright guineas under the lid of her market-basket, dropped him a
curtsey in passing by.

"It's your doing, Mr. Halifax.  The Lord reward you, sir."

"Thank you," he said, and shook her by the hand.  I thought to myself,
watching the many that came and went, unmindful, "ONLY THIS SAMARITAN!"

No--one person more, standing by, addressed him by name.  "This is
indeed your doing, and an act of benevolence which I believe no man
alive would have done, except Mr. Halifax."

And the gentleman who spoke--the same I had seen outside in his
curricle--held out a friendly hand.

"I see you do not remember me.  My name is Ravenel."

"Lord Ravenel!"

John uttered this exclamation--and no more.  I saw that this sudden
meeting had brought back, with a cruel tide of memory, the last time
they met--by the small nursery bed, in that upper chamber at Enderley.

However, this feeling shortly passed away, as must needs be; and we all
three began to converse together.

While he talked, something of the old "Anselmo" came back into Lord
Ravenel's face:  especially when John asked him if he would drive over
with us to Enderley.

"Enderley--how strange the word sounds!--yet I should like to see the
place again.  Poor old Enderley!"

Irresolutely--all his gestures seemed dreamy and irresolute--he drew
his hand across his eyes--the same white long-fingered, womanish hand
which had used to guide Muriel's over the organ keys.

"Yes--I think I will go back with you to Enderley.  But first I must
speak to Mr. Jessop here."

It was about some poor Catholic families, who, as we had before learnt,
had long been his pensioners.

"You are a Catholic still then?" I asked.  "We heard the contrary."

"Did you?--Oh, of course.  One hears such wonderful facts about
oneself.  Probably you heard also that I have been to the Holy Land,
and turned Jew--called at Constantinople, and come back a Mohammedan."

"But are you of your old faith?" John said.  "Still a sincere Catholic?"

"If you take Catholic in its original sense, certainly.  I am a
Universalist.  I believe everything--and nothing.  Let us change the
subject."  The contemptuous scepticism of his manner altered, as he
inquired after Mrs. Halifax and the children.  "No longer children now,
I suppose?"

"Scarcely.  Guy and Walter are as tall as yourself; and my daughter--"

"Your daughter?"--with a start--"oh yes, I recollect.  Baby Maud.  Is
she at all like--like--"

"No."

Neither said more than this; but it seemed as if their hearts warmed to
one another, knitted by the same tender remembrance.

We drove home.  Lord Ravenel muffled himself up in his furs,
complaining bitterly of the snow and sleet.

"Yes, the winter is setting in sharply," John replied, as he reined in
his horses at the turnpike gate.  "This will be a hard Christmas for
many."

"Ay, indeed, sir," said the gate-keeper, touching his hat.

"And if I might make so bold--it's a dark night and the road's
lonely--" he added, in a mysterious whisper.

"Thank you, my friend.  I am aware of all that."  But as John drove on,
he remained for some time very silent.

On, across the bleak country, with the snow pelting in our faces--along
roads so deserted, that our carriage-wheels made the only sound
audible, and that might have been heard distinctly for miles.

All of a sudden, the horses were pulled up.  Three or four ill-looking
figures had started out of a ditch-bank, and caught hold of the reins.

"Holloa there!--What do you want?"

"Money."

"Let go my horses!  They're spirited beasts.  You'll get trampled on."

"Who cares?"

This brief colloquy passed in less than a minute.  It showed at once
our position--miles away from any house--on this desolate moor; showed
plainly our danger--John's danger.

He himself did not seem to recognize it.  He stood upright on the box
seat, the whip in his hand.

"Get away, you fellows, or I must drive over you!"

"Thee'd better!"  With a yell, one of the men leaped up and clung to
the neck of the plunging mare--then was dashed to the ground between
her feet.  The poor wretch uttered one groan and no more.  John sprang
out of his carriage, caught the mare's head, and  backed her.

"Hold off!--the poor fellow is killed, or may be in a minute.  Hold
off, I say."

If ever these men, planning perhaps their first ill deed, were struck
dumb with astonishment, it was to see the gentleman they were intending
to rob take up their comrade in his arms, drag him towards the
carriage-lamps, rub snow on his face, and chafe his heavy hands. But
all in vain.  The blood trickled down from a wound in the temples--the
head, with its open mouth dropping, fell back upon John's knee.

"He is quite dead."

The others gathered round in silence, watching Mr. Halifax, as he still
knelt, with the dead man's head leaning against him, mournfully
regarding it.

"I think I know him.  Where does his wife live?"

Some one pointed across the moor, to a light, faint as a glow-worm.
"Take that rug out of my carriage--wrap him in it."  The order was at
once obeyed.  "Now carry him home.  I will follow presently."

"Surely not," expostulated Lord Ravenel, who had got out of the
carriage and stood, shivering and much shocked, beside Mr. Halifax.
"You would not surely put yourself in the power of these scoundrels?
What brutes they are--the lower orders!"

"Not altogether--when you know them.  Phineas, will you drive Lord
Ravenel on to Beechwood?"

"Excuse me--certainly not," said Lord Ravenel, with dignity.  "We will
stay to see the result of the affair.  What a singular man Mr. Halifax
is, and always was," he added, thoughtfully, as he muffled himself up
again in his furs, and relapsed into silence.

Soon, following the track of those black figures across the snow, we
came to a cluster of peat huts, alongside of the moorland road.  John
took one of the carriage-lamps in his hand, and went in, without saying
a word.  To my surprise Lord Ravenel presently dismounted and followed
him.  I was left with the reins in my hand, and two or three of those
ill-visaged men hovered about the carriage; but no one attempted to do
me any harm.  Nay, when John reappeared, after a lapse of some minutes,
one of them civilly picked up the whip and put it into his hand.

"Thank you.  Now, my men, tell me what did you want with me just now?"

"Money," cried one.  "Work," shouted another.

"And a likely way you went about to get it!  Stopping me in the dark,
on a lonely road, just like common robbers.  I did not think any
Enderley men would have done a thing so cowardly."

"We bean't cowards," was the surly answer.  "Thee carries pistols, Mr.
Halifax."

"You forced me to do it.  My life is as precious to my wife and
children, as--as that poor fellow's to his."  John stopped.  "God help
us, my men! it's a hard world for us all sometimes.  Why did you not
know me better?  Why not come to my house and ask honestly for a dinner
and a half-crown?--you should have had both, any day."

"Thank'ee sir," was the general cry.  "And, sir," begged one old man,
"you'll hush up the 'crowner's 'quest--you and this gentleman here. You
won't put us in jail, for taking to the road, Mr. Halifax?"

"No;--unless you attack me again.  But I am not afraid--I'll trust you.
Look here!"  He took the pistol out of his breast-pocket, cocked it,
and fired its two barrels harmlessly into the air.  "Now, good-night;
and if ever I carry fire-arms again, it will be your fault, not mine."

So saying, he held the carriage-door open for Lord Ravenel, who took
his place with a subdued and thoughtful air:  then mounting the
box-seat, John drove, in somewhat melancholy silence, across the snowy,
starlit moors to Beechwood.



CHAPTER XXXII

In the home-light.

It was a scene--glowing almost as those evening pictures at Longfield.
Those pictures, photographed on memory by the summer sun of our lives,
and which no paler after-sun could have power to reproduce.  Nothing
earthly is ever reproduced in the same form.  I suppose Heaven meant it
to be so; that in the perpetual progression of our existence we should
be reconciled to loss, and taught that change itself is but another
form for aspiration.  Aspiration which never can rest, or ought to
rest, in anything short of the One absolute Perfection--the One
all-satisfying Good "IN WHOM IS NO VARIABLENESS, NEITHER SHADOW OF
TURNING."

I say this, to excuse myself for thoughts, which at times made me
grave--even in the happy home-light of John's study; where, for several
weeks after the last incident I have recorded, the family were in the
habit of gathering every evening.  For poor Guy was a captive.  The
"mere trifle" had turned out to be a sprained foot, which happening to
a tall and strong young man became serious.  He bore his imprisonment
restlessly enough at first, but afterwards grew more reconciled--took
to reading, drawing, and society--and even began to interest himself in
the pursuits of his sister Maud, who every morning had her lessons in
the study.

Miss Silver first proposed this.  She had evinced more feeling than was
usual to her, since Guy's accident; showed him many little feminine
kindnesses--out of compunction, it seemed; and altogether was much
improved.  Of evenings, as now, she always made one of the "young
people," who were generally grouped together round Guy's sofa--Edwin,
Walter, and little Maud.  The father and mother sat opposite--as usual,
side by side, he with his newspaper, she with her work. Or sometimes,
falling into pleasant idleness, they would slip hand in hand, and sit
talking to one another in an under-tone, or silently and smilingly
watch the humours of their children.

For me, I generally took to my nook in the chimney-corner--it was a
very ancient fire-place, with settles on each side, and dogs instead of
a grate, upon which many a faggot hissed and crackled its merry brief
life away.  Nothing could be more cheery and comfortable than this
old-fashioned, low-roofed room, three sides of which were peopled with
books--all the books which John had gathered up during the course of
his life.  Perhaps it was their long-familiar, friendly faces which
made this his favourite room, his own especial domain. But he did not
keep it tabooed from his family; he liked to have them about him, even
in his studious hours.

So, of evenings, we all sat together as now, each busy, and none
interrupting the rest.  At intervals, flashes of talk or laughter broke
out, chiefly from Guy, Walter, or Maud, when Edwin would look up from
his everlasting book, and even the grave governess relax into a smile.
Since she had learnt to smile, it became more and more apparent how
very handsome Miss Silver was.  "Handsome" is, I think, the fittest
word for her; that correctness of form and colour which attracts the
eye chiefly, and perhaps the eye of men rather than of women;--at
least, Mrs. Halifax could never be brought to see it.  But then her
peculiar taste was for slender, small brunettes, like Grace Oldtower;
whereas Miss Silver was large and fair.

Fair, in every sense, most decidedly.  And now that she evidently began
to pay a little more attention to her dress and her looks, we found out
that she was also young.

"Only twenty-one to-day, Guy says," I remarked one day to Ursula.

"How did Guy know it?"

"I believe he discovered the wonderful secret from Maud."

"Maud and her brother Guy have grown wonderful friends since his
illness.  Do you not think so?"

"Yes, I found the two of them--and even Miss Silver--as merry as
possible, when I came into the study this morning."

"Did you?" said the mother, with an involuntary glance at the group
opposite.

There was nothing particular to observe.  They all sat in most harmless
quietude, Edwin reading, Maud at his feet, playing with the cat, Miss
Silver busy at a piece of that delicate muslin-work with which young
women then used to ornament their gowns.  Guy had been drawing a
pattern from it, and now leant back upon his sofa, shading off the fire
with his hand, and from behind it gazing, as I had often seen him gaze
lately, with a curious intentness--at the young governess.

"Guy," said his mother (and Guy started), "what were you thinking
about?"

"Oh, nothing; that is--" here, by some accident, Miss Silver quitted
the room.  "Mother, come over here, I want your opinion.  There, sit
down--though it's nothing of the least importance."

Nevertheless, it was with some hesitation that he brought out the
mighty question, namely, that it was Miss Silver's birthday to-day;
that he thought we ought to remember it, and give her some trifle as a
present.

"And I was considering this large Flora I ordered from London,--she
would like it extremely:  she is so fond of botany."

"What do you know about botany?" said Edwin, sharply and rather
irrelevantly as it seemed, till I remembered how he plumed himself upon
his knowledge of this science, and how he had persisted in taking Maud,
and her governess also, long wintry walks across the country, "in order
to study the cryptogamia."

Guy vouchsafed no answer to his brother; he was too much absorbed in
turning over the pages of the beautiful Flora on his knee.

"What do you say, all of you?  Father, don't you think she would like
it?  Then, suppose you give it to her?"

At this inopportune moment Miss Silver returned.

She might have been aware that she was under discussion--at least so
much of discussion as was implied by Guy's eager words and his mother's
silence, for she looked around her uneasily, and was about to retire.

"Do not go," Guy exclaimed, anxiously.

"Pray do not," his mother added; "we were just talking about you, Miss
Silver.  My son hopes you will accept this book from him, and from us
all, with all kind birthday wishes."

And rising, with a little more gravity than was her wont, Mrs. Halifax
touched the girl's forehead with her lips, and gave her the present.

Miss Silver coloured, and drew back.  "You are very good, but indeed I
would much rather not have it."

"Why so?  Do you dislike gifts, or this gift in particular?"

"Oh, no; certainly not."

"Then," said John, as he too came forward and shook hands with her with
an air of hearty kindness, "pray take the book.  Do let us show how
much we respect you; how entirely we regard you as one of the family."

Guy turned a look of grateful pleasure to his father; but Miss Silver,
colouring more than ever, still held back.

"No, I cannot; indeed I cannot."

"Why can you not?"

"For several reasons."

"Give me only one of them--as much as can be expected from a young
lady," said Mr. Halifax, good-humouredly.

"Mr. Guy ordered the Flora for himself.  I must not allow him to
renounce his pleasure for me."

"It would not be renouncing it if YOU had it," returned the lad, in a
low tone, at which once more his younger brother looked up, angrily.

"What folly about nothing! how can one read with such a clatter going
on?"

"You old book-worm! you care for nothing and nobody but yourself," Guy
answered, laughing.  But Edwin, really incensed, rose and settled
himself in the far corner of the room.

"Edwin is right," said the father, in a tone which indicated his
determination to end the discussion, a tone which even Miss Silver
obeyed.  "My dear young lady, I hope you will like your book; Guy,
write her name in it at once."

Guy willingly obeyed, but was a good while over the task; his mother
came and looked over his shoulder.

"Louisa Eugenie--how did you know that, Guy?  Louisa Eugenie Sil--is
that your name, my dear?"

The question, simple as it was, seemed to throw the governess into much
confusion, even agitation.  At last, she drew herself up with the old
repulsive gesture, which of late had been slowly wearing off.

"No--I will not deceive you any longer.  My right name is Louise
Eugenie D'Argent."

Mrs. Halifax started.  "Are you a Frenchwoman?"

"On my father's side--yes."

"Why did you not tell me so?"

"Because, if you remember, at our first interview, you said no
Frenchwoman should educate your daughter.  And I was
homeless--friendless."

"Better starve than tell a falsehood," cried the mother, indignantly.

"I told no falsehood.  You never asked me of my parentage."

"Nay," said John, interfering, "you must not speak in that manner to
Mrs. Halifax.  Why did you renounce your father's name?"

"Because English people would have scouted my father's daughter.  You
knew him--everybody knew him--he was D'Argent the Jacobin--D'Argent the
Bonnet Rouge."

She threw out these words defiantly, and quitted the room.

"This is a dreadful discovery.  Edwin, you have seen most of her--did
you ever imagine--"

"I knew it, mother," said Edwin, without lifting his eyes from his
book.  "After all, French or English, it makes no difference."

"I should think not, indeed!" cried Guy, angrily.  "Whatever her father
is, if any one dared to think the worse of her--"

"Hush!--till another time," said the father, with a glance at Maud,
who, with wide-open eyes, in which the tears were just springing, had
been listening to all these revelations about her governess.

But Maud's tears were soon stopped, as well as this painful
conversation, by the entrance of our daily, or rather nightly, visitor
for these six weeks past, Lord Ravenel.  His presence, always welcome,
was a great relief now.  We never discussed family affairs before
people.  The boys began to talk to Lord Ravenel:  and Maud took her
privileged place on a footstool beside him.  From the first sight she
had been his favourite, he said, because of her resemblance to Muriel.
But I think, more than any fancied likeness to that sweet lost face,
which he never spoke of without tenderness inexpressible, there was
something in Maud's buoyant youth--just between childhood and girlhood,
having the charms of one and the immunities of the other--which was
especially attractive to this man, who, at three-and-thirty, found life
a weariness and a burthen--at least, he said so.

Life was never either weary or burthensome in our house--not even
to-night, though our friend found us less lively than usual--though
John maintained more than his usual silence, and Mrs. Halifax fell into
troubled reveries.  Guy and Edwin, both considerably excited, argued
and contradicted one another more warmly than even the Beechwood
liberty of speech allowed.  For Miss Silver, she did not appear again.

Lord Ravenel seemed to take these slight desagremens very calmly.  He
stayed his customary time, smiling languidly as ever at the boys'
controversies, or listening with a half-pleased, half-melancholy
laziness to Maud's gay prattle, his eye following her about the room
with the privileged tenderness that twenty years' seniority allows a
man to feel and show towards a child.  At his wonted hour he rode away,
sighingly contrasting pleasant Beechwood with dreary and solitary
Luxmore.

After his departure we did not again close round the fire.  Maud
vanished; the younger boys also; Guy settled himself on his sofa,
having first taken the pains to limp across the room and fetch the
Flora, which Edwin had carefully stowed away in the book-case.  Then
making himself comfortable, as the pleasure-loving lad liked well
enough to do, he lay dreamily gazing at the title-page, where was
written her name, and "From Guy Halifax, with--"

"What are you going to add, my son?"

He, glancing up at his mother, made her no answer, and hastily closed
the book.

She looked hurt; but, saying nothing more, began moving about the room,
putting things in order before retiring.  John sat in the
arm-chair--meditative.  She asked him what he was thinking about?

"About that man, Jacques D'Argent."

"You have heard of him, then?"

"Few had not, twenty years ago.  He was one of the most 'blatant
beasts' of the Reign of Terror.  A fellow without honesty, conscience,
or even common decency."

"And that man's daughter we have had in our house, teaching our
innocent child!"

Alarm and disgust were written on every feature of the mother's face.
It was scarcely surprising.  Now that the ferment which had convulsed
society in our younger days was settling down,--though still we were
far from that ultimate calm which enables posterity to judge fully and
fairly such a remarkable historical crisis as the French
Revolution,--most English people looked back with horror on the extreme
opinions of that time.  If Mrs. Halifax had a weak point, it was her
prejudice against anything French or Jacobinical.  Partly, from that
tendency to moral conservatism which in most persons, especially women,
strengthens as old age advances; partly, I believe, from the terrible
warning given by the fate of one--of whom for years we had never
heard--whose very name was either unknown to, or forgotten by, our
children.

"John, can't you speak?  Don't you see the frightful danger?"

"Love, try and be calmer."

"How can I?  Remember--remember Caroline."

"Nay, we are not talking of her, but of a girl whom we know, and have
had good opportunity of knowing.  A girl, who, whatever may have been
her antecedents, has lived for six months blamelessly in our house."

"Would to Heaven she had never entered it!  But it is not too late. She
may leave--she shall leave, immediately."

"Mother!" burst out Guy.  Never since she bore him had his mother heard
her name uttered in such a tone.

She stood petrified.

"Mother, you are unjust, heartless, cruel.  She shall NOT leave; she
shall NOT, I say!"

"Guy, how dare you speak to your mother in that way?"

"Yes, father, I dare.  I'll dare anything rather than--"

"Stop.  Mind what you are saying--or you may repent it."

And Mr. Halifax, speaking in that low tone to which his voice fell in
serious displeasure, laid a heavy hand on the lad's shoulder.  Father
and son exchanged fiery glances.  The mother, terrified, rushed between
them.

"Don't, John!  Don't be angry with him.  He could not help it,--my poor
boy!"

At her piteous look Guy and his father both drew back.  John put his
arm round his wife, and made her sit down.  She was trembling
exceedingly.

"You see, Guy, how wrong you have been.  How could you wound your
mother so?"

"I did not mean to wound her," the lad answered.  "I only wished to
prevent her from being unjust and unkind to one to whom she must show
all justice and kindness.  One whom I respect, esteem--whom I LOVE."

"Love!"

"Yes, mother!  Yes, father!  I love her.  I intend to marry her."

Guy said this with an air of quiet determination, very different from
the usual impetuosity of his character.  It was easy to perceive that a
great change had come over him; that in this passion, the silent growth
of which no one had suspected, he was most thoroughly in earnest.  From
the boy he had suddenly started up into the man; and his parents saw it.

They looked at him, and then mournfully at one another.  The father was
the first to speak.

"All this is very sudden.  You should have told us of it before."

"I did not know it myself till--till very lately," the youth answered
more softly, lowering his head and blushing.

"Is Miss Silver--is the lady aware of it?"

"No."

"That is well," said the father, after a pause.  "In this silence you
have acted as an honourable lover should towards her; as a dutiful son
should act towards his parents."

Guy looked pleased.  He stole his hand nearer his mother's, but she
neither took it nor repelled it; she seemed quite stunned.

At this point I noticed that Maud had crept into the room;--I sent her
out again as quickly as I could.  Alas! this was the first secret that
needed to be kept from her; the first painful mystery in our happy,
happy home!

In any such home the "first falling in love," whether of son or
daughter, necessarily makes a great change.  Greater if the former than
the latter.  There is often a pitiful truth--I know not why it should
be so, but so it is--in the foolish rhyme which the mother had
laughingly said over to me this morning!

     "My son's my son till he gets him a wife,
      My daughter's my daughter all her life."

And when, as in this case, the son wishes to marry one whom his father
may not wholly approve, whom his mother does not heartily love, surely
the pain is deepened tenfold.

Those who in the dazzled vision of youth see only the beauty and
splendour of love--first love, who deem it comprises the whole of life,
beginning, aim, and end--may marvel that I, who have been young and now
am old, see as I saw that night, not only the lover's but the parents'
side of the question.  I felt overwhelmed with sadness, as, viewing the
three, I counted up in all its bearings and consequences, near and
remote, this attachment of poor Guy's.

"Well, father," he said at last, guessing by intuition that the
father's heart would best understand his own.

"Well, my son," John answered, sadly.

"YOU were young once."

"So I was;" with a tender glance upon the lad's heated and excited
countenance.  "Do not suppose I cannot feel with you.  Still, I wish
you had been less precipitate."

"You were little older than I am when you married?"

"But my marriage was rather different from this projected one of yours.
I knew your mother well, and she knew me.  Both of us had been
tried--by trouble which we shared together, by absence, by many and
various cares.  We chose one another, not hastily or blindly, but with
free will and open eyes.  No, Guy," he added, speaking earnestly and
softly, "mine was no sudden fancy, no frantic passion.  I honoured your
mother above all women.  I loved her as my own soul."

"So do I love Louise.  I would die for her any day."

At the son's impetuosity the father smiled; not incredulously, only
sadly.

All this while the mother had sat motionless, never uttering a sound.
Suddenly, hearing a footstep and a light knock at the door, she darted
forward and locked it, crying, in a voice that one could hardly have
recognized as hers--

"No admittance!  Go away."

A note was pushed in under the door.  Mrs. Halifax picked it up--opened
it, read it mechanically, and sat down again; taking no notice, even
when Guy, catching sight of the hand-writing, eagerly seized the paper.

It was merely a line, stating Miss Silver's wish to leave Beechwood
immediately; signed, with her full name--her right name--"Louise
Eugenie D'Argent."

A postscript added:  "Your silence I shall take as permission to
depart; and shall be gone early to-morrow."

"To-morrow!  Gone to-morrow!  And she does not even know that--that I
love her.  Mother, you have ruined my happiness.  I will never forgive
you--never!"

Never forgive his mother!  His mother, who had borne him, nursed him,
reared him; who had loved him with that love--like none other in the
world--the love of a woman for her firstborn son, all these twenty-one
years!

It was hard.  I think the most passionate lover, in reasonable moments,
would allow that it was hard.  No marvel that even her husband's clasp
could not remove the look of heart-broken, speechless suffering which
settled stonily down in Ursula's face, as she watched her boy--storming
about, furious with uncontrollable passion and pain.

At last, mother-like, she forgot the passion in pity of the pain.

"He is not strong yet; he will do himself harm.  Let me go to him!
John, let me!"  Her husband released her.

Faintly, with a weak, uncertain walk, she went up to Guy and touched
his arm.

"You must keep quiet, or you will be ill.  I cannot have my son
ill--not for any girl.  Come, sit down--here, beside your mother."

She was obeyed.  Looking into her eyes, and seeing no anger there,
nothing but grief and love, the young man's right spirit came into him
again.

"O mother, mother, forgive me!  I am so miserable--so miserable."

He laid his head on her shoulder.  She kissed and clasped him
close--her boy who never could be wholly hers again, who had learned to
love some one else dearer than his mother.

After a while she said, "Father, shake hands with Guy.  Tell him that
we forgive his being angry with us; that perhaps, some day--"

She stopped, uncertain as to the father's mind, or seeking strength for
her own.

"Some day," John continued, "Guy will find out that we can have nothing
in the world--except our children's good--so dear to us as their
happiness."

Guy looked up, beaming with hope and joy.  "O father!  O mother! will
you, indeed--"

"We will indeed say nothing," the father answered, smiling; "nothing,
until to-morrow.  Then we will all three talk the matter quietly over,
and see what can be done."

Of course I knew to a certainty the conclusion they would come to.



CHAPTER XXXIII

Late that night, as I sat up pondering over all that had happened, Mrs.
Halifax came into my room.

She looked round; asked me, according to her wont, if there was
anything I wanted before she retired for the night?--(Ursula was as
good to me as any sister)--then stood by my easy-chair.  I would not
meet her eyes, but I saw her hands fluttering in their restless way.

I pointed to her accustomed chair.

"No, I can't sit down.  I must say good-night."  Then, coming at once
to the point--"Phineas, you are always up first in the morning.  Will
you--John thinks it had better be you--will you give a message from us
to--Maud's governess?"

"Yes.  What shall I say?"

"Merely, that we request she will not leave Beechwood until we have
seen her."

If Miss Silver had overheard the manner and tone of that "request," I
doubt if it would not have hastened rather than delayed her departure.
But, God help the poor mother! her wounds were still fresh.

"Would it not be better," I suggested, "if you were to write to her?"

"I can't; no, I can't,"--spoken with the sharpness of exceeding pain.
Soon after, as in faint apology, she added, "I am so tired; we are very
late to-night."

"Yes; it is almost morning.  I thought you were both in bed."

"No; we have been sitting talking in Guy's room.  His father thought it
would be better."

"And is all settled?"

"Yes."

Having told me this, and having as it were by such a conclusion
confessed it was right the question should be thus "settled," Guy's
mother seemed more herself.

"Yes," she repeated; "John thinks it ought to be.  At least, that she
should know Guy's--the feeling with which Guy regards her.  If, after
the probation of a year, it still remains, and he is content to begin
life on a small income, we have given our consent to our son's
marriage."

It struck me how the mother's mind entirely dwelt on the one party in
this matter--"Guy's feelings"--"Our son's marriage"--and so on.  The
other side of the question, or the possibility of any hindrance there,
never seemed to enter her imagination.  Perhaps it would not, even into
mine, for I shared the family faith in its best-beloved Guy; but for
Mrs. Halifax's so entirely ignoring the idea that any consent except
her son's and his parents' was necessary to this marriage.

"It will not part him from us so very much, you see, Phineas," she
said, evidently trying to view the bright side--"and she has no
relatives living--not one.  For income--Guy will have the entire profit
of the Norton Bury mills; and they might begin, as we did, in the old
Norton Bury house--the dear old house."

The thought of her own young days seemed to come, soothingly and sweet,
taking the sting out of her pain, showing her how it was but right and
justice that Nature's holy law should be fulfilled--that children, in
their turn, should love, and marry, and be happy, like their parents.

"Yes," she answered, as I gently hinted this; "I know you are right;
all is quite right, and as it should be, though it was a shock at
first.  No matter:  John esteems her--John likes her.  For me--oh, I
shall make a capital--what is it?--a capital MOTHER-IN-LAW--in time!"

With that smile, which was almost cheerful, she bade me
good-night--rather hastily, perhaps, as if she wished to leave me while
her cheerfulness lasted.  Then I heard her step along the passage,
pausing once--most likely at Guy's room door; her own closed, and the
house was in silence.

I rose early in the morning;--not one whit too early, for I met Miss
Silver in the hall, bonneted and shawled, carrying down with her own
hands a portion of her chattels.  She evidently contemplated an
immediate departure.  It was with the greatest difficulty that, without
betraying my reasons, which, of course, was impossible, I could
persuade her to change her determination.

Poor girl! last night's events had apparently shaken her from that
indifference which she seemed to think the best armour of a helpless,
proud governess against the world.  She would scarcely listen to a
word.  She was in extreme agitation; half-a-dozen times she insisted on
leaving, and then sat down again.

I had not given her credit for so much wholesome irresolution--so much
genuine feeling.  Her manner almost convinced me of a fact which every
one else seemed to hold as certain, but which I myself should have
liked to see proved; namely, that Guy, in asking her love, would
have--what in every right and happy marriage a man ought to have--the
knowledge that the love was his before he asked for it.

Seeing this, my heart warmed to the girl.  I respected her brave
departure--I rejoiced that it was needless.  Willingly I would have
quieted her distress with some hopeful, ambiguous word, but that would
have been trenching, as no one ever ought to trench, on the lover's
sole right.  So I held my tongue, watching with an amused pleasure the
colour hovering to and fro over that usually impassive face.  At last,
at the opening of the study-door--we stood in the hall still--those
blushes rose up to her forehead in one involuntary tide.

But it was only Edwin, who had lately taken to a habit of getting up
very early,--to study mathematics.  He looked surprised at seeing me
with Miss Silver.

"What is that box?  She is not going?"

"No; I have been entreating her not.  Add your persuasions, Edwin."

For Edwin, with all his quietness, was a lad of much wisdom, great
influence, and no little penetration.  I felt inclined to believe that
though as yet he had not been let into the secret of last night, he
guessed it pretty well already.

He might have done, by the peculiar manner in which he went up to the
governess and took her hand.

"Pray stay; I beg of you."

She made no more ado, but stayed.

I left her with Edwin, and took my usual morning walk, up and down the
garden, till breakfast-time.

A strange and painful breakfast it was, even though the most important
element in its painfulness, Guy, was happily absent.  The rest of us
kept up a fragmentary, awkward conversation, every one round the table
looking as indeed one might have expected they would look--with one
exception.

Miss Silver, who, from her behaviour last night, and her demeanour to
me this morning, I had supposed would now have gathered up all her
haughtiness to resist Guy's parents--as, ignorant both of his feelings
and their intentions towards her, a young lady of her proud spirit
might well resist--was, to my astonishment, as mild and meek as this
soft spring morning.  Nay, like it, seemed often on the very verge of
the melting mood.  More than once her drooping eyelashes were gemmed
with tears.  And when, the breakfast-table being quickly
deserted--Edwin, indeed, had left it almost immediately--she, sitting
absently in her place, was gently touched by Mrs. Halifax, she started
up, with the same vivid rush of colour that I had before noticed.  It
completely altered the expression of her face; made her look ten years
younger--ten years happier, and, being happier, ten times more amiable.

This expression--I was not the only one to notice it--was, by some
intuition, reflected on the mother's.  It made softer than any speech
of hers to Miss Silver--the few words--

"My dear, will you come with me into the study?"

"To lessons?  Yes.  I beg your pardon!  Maud--where is Maud?"

"Never mind lessons just yet.  We will have a little chat with my son.
Uncle Phineas, you'll come?  Will you come, too, my dear?"

"If you wish it."  And with an air of unwonted obedience, she followed
Mrs. Halifax.

Poor Guy!--confused young lover!--meeting for the first time after his
confession the acknowledged object of his preference--I really felt
sorry for him!  And, except that women have generally twice as much
self-control in such cases as men--and Miss Silver proved it--I might
even have been sorry for her.  But then her uncertainties would soon be
over.  She had not to make--all her family being aware she was then and
there making it--that terrible "offer of marriage," which, I am given
to understand, is, even under the most favourable circumstances, as
formidable as going up to the cannon's mouth.

I speak of it jestingly, as we all jested uneasily that morning, save
Mrs. Halifax, who scarcely spoke a word.  At length, when Miss Silver,
growing painfully restless, again referred to "lessons," she said:

"Not yet.  I want Maud for half an hour.  Will you be so kind as to
take my place, and sit with my son the while?"

"Oh, certainly!"

I was vexed with her--really vexed--for that ready assent; but then,
who knows the ins and outs of women's ways?  At any rate, for Guy's
sake this must be got over--the quicker the better.  His mother rose.

"My son, my dear boy!"  She leant over him, whispering--I think she
kissed him--then slowly, quietly, she walked out of the study.  I
followed.  Outside the door we parted, and I heard her go up-stairs to
her own room.

It might have been half an hour afterwards, when Maud and I, coming in
from the garden, met her standing in the hall.  No one was with her,
and she was doing nothing; two very remarkable facts in the daily life
of the mother of the family.

Maud ran up to her with some primroses.

"Very pretty, very pretty, my child."

"But you don't look at them--you don't care for them--I'll go and show
them to Miss Silver."

"No," was the hasty answer.  "Come back, Maud--Miss Silver is occupied."

Making some excuse, I sent the child away, for I saw that even Maud's
presence was intolerable to her mother.  That poor mother, whose
suspense was growing into positive agony.

She waited--standing at the dining-room window--listening--going in and
out of the hall,--for another ten minutes.

"It is very strange--very strange indeed.  He promised to come and tell
me; surely at least he ought to come and tell me first--me, his
mother--"

She stopped at the word, oppressed by exceeding pain.

"Hark! was that the study door?"

"I think so; one minute more and you will be quite certain."

Ay! one minute more, and we WERE quite certain.  The young lover
entered--his bitter tidings written on his face.

"She has refused me, mother.  I never shall be happy more."

Poor Guy!--I slipped out of his sight and left the lad alone with his
mother.

Another hour passed of this strange, strange day.  The house seemed
painfully quiet.  Maud, disconsolate and cross, had taken herself away
to the beech-wood with Walter; the father and Edwin were busy at the
mills, and had sent word that neither would return to dinner.  I
wandered from room to room, always excepting that shut-up room where,
as I took care, no one should disturb the mother and son.

At last I heard them both going up-stairs--Guy was still too lame to
walk without assistance.  I heard the poor lad's fretful tones, and the
soothing, cheerful voice that answered them.  "Verily," thought I, "if,
since he must fall in love, Guy had only fixed his ideal standard of
womanhood a little nearer home--if he had only chosen for his wife a
woman a little more like his mother!"  But I suppose that would have
been expecting impossibilities.

Well, he had been refused!--our Guy, whom we all would have imagined
irresistible--our Guy, "whom to look on was to love."  Some harsh folk
might say this might be a good lesson for the lad--nay, for most lads;
but I deny it.--I doubt if any young man, meeting at the outset of life
a rejection like this, which either ignorance or heedlessness on the
woman's part had made totally unexpected, ever is the better for it:
perhaps, for many years, cruelly the worse.  For, most women being
quick-sighted about love, and most men--especially young men--blind
enough in its betrayal,--any woman who wilfully allows an offer only to
refuse it, lowers not only herself but her whole sex, for a long, long
time after, in the lover's eyes.  At least, I think so;--as I was
thinking, in the way old bachelors are prone to moralize over such
things, when, coming out of Guy's room, I met Mrs. Halifax.

She crossed the passage, hastily but noiselessly, to a small ante-room
which Miss Silver had for her own private study--out of which
half-a-dozen stairs led to the chamber where she and her pupil slept.
The ante-room was open, the bed-chamber door closed.

"She is in there?"

"I believe she is."

Guy's mother stood irresolute.  Her knit brow and nervous manner
betrayed some determination she had come to, which had cost her hard:
suddenly she turned to me.

"Keep the children out of the way, will you, Phineas?  Don't let them
know--don't let anybody know--about Guy."

"Of course not."

"There is some mistake--there MUST be some mistake.  Perhaps she is not
sure of our consent--his father's and mine; very right of her--very
right!  I honour her for her indecision.  But she must be assured to
the contrary--my boy's peace must not be sacrificed.  You understand,
Phineas?"

Ay, perhaps better than she did herself, poor mother!

Yet, when in answer to the hasty knock, I caught a glimpse of Miss
Silver opening the door--Miss Silver, with hair all falling down
dishevelled, and features swollen with crying,--I went away completely
at fault, as the standers-by seemed doomed to be in all love affairs.
I began to hope that this would settle itself somehow--in all parties
understanding one another after the good old romantic fashion, and
"living very happy to the end of their lives."

I saw nothing more of any one until tea-time; when Mrs. Halifax and the
governess came in together.  Something in their manner struck me--one
being subdued and gentle, the other tender and kind.  Both, however,
were exceedingly grave--nay, sad, but it appeared to be that sadness
which is received as inevitable, and is quite distinct from either
anger or resentment.

Neither Guy nor Edwin, nor the father were present.  When John's voice
was heard in the hall, Miss Silver had just risen to retire with Maud.

"Good-night, for I shall not come down-stairs again," she said hastily.

"Good-night," the mother answered in the same whisper--rose, kissed her
kindly, and let her go.

When Edwin and his father appeared, they too looked remarkably
grave--as grave as if they had known by intuition all the trouble in
the house.  Of course, no one referred to it.  The mother merely
noticed how late they were, and how tired they both looked.  Supper
passed in silence, and then Edwin took up his candle to go to bed.

His father called him back.  "Edwin, you will remember?"

"I will, father."

"Something is amiss with Edwin," said his mother, when the two younger
boys had closed the door behind them.  "What did you wish him to
remember?"

Her husband's sole reply was to draw her to him with that peculiarly
tender gaze, which she knew well to be the forewarning of trouble;
trouble he could not save her from--could only help her to bear. Ursula
laid her head on his shoulder with one deep sob of long-smothered pain.

"I suppose you know all.  I thought you would soon guess.  Oh, John,
our happy days are over!  Our children are children no more."

"But ours still, love--always will be ours."

"What of that when we can no longer make them happy?  When they look
for happiness to others and not to us?  My own poor boy!  To think that
his mother can neither give him comfort, nor save him pain, any more."

She wept bitterly.

When she was somewhat soothed, John, making her sit down by him, but
turning a little from her, bade her tell him all that had happened
to-day.  A few words explained the history of Guy's rejection and its
cause.

"She loves some one else.  When I--as his mother--went and asked her
the question she confessed this."

"And what did you say?"

"What could I say?  I could not blame her.  I was even sorry for her.
She cried so bitterly, and begged me to forgive her.  I said I did
freely, and hoped she would be happy."

"That was right.  I am glad you said so.  Did she tell you who he--this
lover, was?"

"No.  She said she could not, until he gave her permission.  That
whether they would ever be married she did not know.  She knew nothing,
save that he was good and kind, and the only creature in the world who
had ever cared for her."

"Poor girl!"

"John,"--startled by his manner--"you have something to tell me?  You
know who this is--this man who has stood between my son and his
happiness?"

"Yes, I do know."

I cannot say how far the mother saw--what, as if by a flash of
lightning, _I_ did; but she looked up in her husband's face, with a
sudden speechless dread.

"Love, it is a great misfortune, but it is no one's blame--neither
ours, nor theirs--they never thought of Guy's loving her.  He says
so--Edwin himself."

"Is it Edwin?"--in a cry as if her heart was breaking.  "His own
brother--his very own brother!  Oh, my poor Guy!"

Well might the mother mourn!  Well might the father look as if years of
care had been added to his life that day!  For a disaster like this
happening in any household--especially a household where love is
recognized as a tangible truth, neither to be laughed at, passed
carelessly over, nor lectured down--makes the family cease to be a
family, in many things, from henceforward.  The two strongest feelings
of life clash; the bond of brotherly unity, in its perfectness, is
broken for ever.

For some minutes we sat, bewildered as it were, thinking of the tale as
if it had been told of some other family than ours.  Mechanically the
mother raised her eyes; the first object they chanced to meet was a
rude water-colour drawing, kept, coarse daub as it was, because it was
the only reminder we had of what never could be recalled--one
red-cheeked child with a hoop, staring at another red-cheeked child
with a nosegay--supposed to represent little Edwin and little Guy.

"Guy taught Edwin to walk.  Edwin made Guy learn his letters.  How fond
they were of one another--those two boys.  Now--brother will be set
against brother!  They will never feel like brothers--never again."

"Love--"

"Don't, John! don't speak to me just yet.  It is so terrible to think
of.  Both my boys--both my two noble boys! to be made miserable for
that girl's sake.  Oh! that she had never darkened our doors.  Oh! that
she had never been born."

"Nay, you must not speak thus.  Remember--Edwin loves her--she will be
Edwin's wife."

"Never!" cried the mother, desperately; "I will not allow it.  Guy is
the eldest.  His brother has acted meanly.  So has she.  No, John, I
will NOT allow it."

"You will not allow what has already happened--what Providence has
permitted to happen?  Ursula, you forget--they love one another."

This one fact--this solemn upholding of the pre-eminent right and law
of love,--which law John believed in, they both believed in, so
sacredly and firmly--appeared to force itself upon Mrs. Halifax's mind.
Her passion subsided.

"I cannot judge clearly.  You can--always.  Husband, help me!"

"Poor wife!--poor mother!" he muttered, caressing her, and in that
caress himself all but giving way--"Alas! that I should have brought
thee into such a sea of trouble."

Perhaps he referred to the circumstance of his bringing Miss Silver
into our house; perhaps to his own blindness, or want of parental
caution, in throwing the young people continually together.  However,
John was not one to lament over things inevitable; or by overweening
blame of his own want of foresight, to imply a doubt of the foreseeing
of Providence.

"Love," he said, "I fear we have been too anxious to play Deus ex
machina with our children, forgetting in whose Hands are marrying and
giving in marriage--life's crosses and life's crowns.  Trouble has come
when we looked not for it.  We can but try to see the right course, and
seeing it, to act upon it."

Ursula assented--with a bursting heart it seemed--but still she
assented, believing, even as in her young days, that her husband's will
was wisest, best.

He told her, in few words, all that Edwin had that day confessed to his
father; how these two, being much together, had become attached to one
another, as young folks will--couples whom no one would ever think
suited each for each, except Nature, and the instinct of their own
hearts.  Absorbed in this love--which, Edwin solemnly declared, was
never openly declared till this morning--they neither of them thought
of Guy.  And thus things had befallen--things which no earthly power
could remove or obliterate--things in which, whatever way we looked,
all seemed darkness.  We could but walk blindly on, a step at a time,
trusting to that Faith, of which all our lives past had borne
confirmation--the firm faith that evil itself is to the simple and
God-fearing but the disguised messenger of good.

Something like this John said, talking as his wife loved to hear him
talk--every quiet, low word dropping like balm upon her grieved heart;
not trying to deceive her into the notion that pain is not pain, but
showing her how best to bear it.  At length she looked up, as if with
God's help--and her husband's comforting--she could bear it.

"Only one thing--Guy does not know.  He need not know just yet--not
till he is stronger.  Surely, Edwin will not tell him?"

"No; he promised me he would not.  Do not start so.  Indeed, there is
no fear."

But that very assurance seemed to rouse it.  She began straining her
ears to catch the least noise in the rooms overhead--the boys' rooms.
Guy and Walter shared one; Edwin had his to himself.

"They surely will not meet.  Yet Guy sometimes likes sitting over
Edwin's fire.  Hark!--was not that the creaking of Guy's room-door?"

"Love--" detaining her.

"I know, John.  I am not thinking of going.  Guy might suspect
something.  No, indeed I am not afraid.  They were always fond of one
another--my boys."

She sat down, violently forcing herself not to listen, not to fear. But
the truth was too strong for her.

"Hark!  I am sure they are talking.  John, you said Edwin promised?"

"Faithfully promised."

"But if, by some accident, Guy found out the truth?  Hark! they are
talking very loud.  That is a chair fallen.  Oh, John--don't keep me!
My boys--my boys."  And she ran up-stairs in an agony.

What a sight for a mother's eyes.  Two brothers of whom it had been our
boast that from babyhood they had never been known to lift a hand
against each other--now struggling together like Cain and Abel.  And
from the fury in their faces, the quarrel might have had a similar
ending.

"Guy!--Edwin!"  But the mother might as well have shrieked to the winds.

The father came and parted them.  "Boys, are you gone mad? fighting
like brutes in this way.  Shame, Guy!  Edwin, I trusted you."

"I could not help it, father.  He had no right to steal into my room;
no right to snatch her letter from me."

"It was her letter, then?" cried Guy, furiously.  "She writes to you?
You were writing back to her?"

Edwin made no answer; but held out his hand for the letter, with that
look of white passion in him so rarely seen--perhaps not thrice since
his infancy.  Guy took no heed.

"Give it me back, Guy; I warn you."

"Not till I have read it.  I have a right."

"You have none.  She is mine."

"Yours?"  Guy laughed in his face.

"Yes, mine.  Ask my father--ask my mother.  They know."

"Mother!"--the letter fell from the poor lad's hand.  "Mother, YOU
would not deceive me.  He only says it to vex me.  I was in a passion,
I know.  Mother, it isn't true?"

His piteous tone--the almost childish way in which he caught at her
sleeve, as she turned from him--ah, poor Guy!

"Edwin, is it my brother Edwin?  Who would have thought it?"
Half-bewildered, he looked from one to the other of us all; but no one
spoke, no one contradicted him.

Edwin, his passion quite gone, stooped in a sorrowful and humble way to
pick up his betrothed's letter.  Then Guy flew at him, and caught him
by the collar.

"You coward!--how dared you?--No, I won't hurt him; she is fond of him.
Go away, every one of you.  Oh, mother, mother, mother!"

He fell on her neck, sobbing.  She gathered him in her arms, as she had
used to do in his childhood; and so we left them.

"AS ONE WHOM HIS MOTHER COMFORTETH."

Ay, Prophet of Israel, thou wert wise.



CHAPTER XXXIV

John and I sat over the study fire till long after midnight.

Many an anxious watch I had kept with him, but none sadder than this.
Because now, for the first time, our house was divided against itself.
A sorrow had entered it, not from without but from within--a sorrow
which we could not meet and bear, as a family.  Alas! darker and darker
had the bitter truth forced itself upon us, that neither joy nor
affliction would ever find us as a family again.

I think all parents must feel cruelly a pang like this--the first
trouble in which they cannot help their children--the first time when
those children must learn to stand alone, each for himself, compelled
to carry his own burthen and work out, well or ill, his individual
life.  When the utmost the wisest or tenderest father can do, is to
keep near with outstretched hand that the child may cling to, assured
of finding sympathy, counsel, and love.

If this father had stood aloof all his life, on some pinnacle of
paternal "pride," paternal "dignity"--if he had not made himself his
boys' companion, counsellor, and friend, how great would have been his
terrors now!

For, as we both knew well--too well to trust ourselves to say it--if
there was one thing in the world that ruins a lad, drives him to
desperation, shuts the door of home upon him, and opens many another
door, of which the entrance is the very gate of hell--it is such a
disappointment as this which had happened to our Guy.

His father saw it all.  Saw it clearer, crueller, than even his mother
could see.  Yet when, very late, almost at dawn, she came in, with the
tidings that Guy was himself again now--sleeping as quietly as a
child--her husband was able to join in her deep thankfulness, and give
her hope for the days to come.

"But what is to be done with Guy?"

"God knows," John answered.  But his tone expressed a meaning different
from that generally conveyed in the words:  a meaning which the mother
caught at once, and rested on.

"Ay--you are right.  He knows!"--And so they went away together, almost
content.

Next morning, I woke late; the sunshine falling across my bed, and the
sparrows chattering loud in the ivy.  I had been dreaming, with a
curious pertinacity, of the old days at Rose Cottage, the days when
John first fell in love with Ursula.

"Uncle Phineas."  I heard myself called.

It was John's son, who sat opposite, with wan, wild eyes, and a settled
anguish on his mouth--that merry, handsome mouth--the only really
handsome mouth in the family.

"You are up early, my boy."

"What was the good of lying in bed?  I am not ill.  Besides, I wish to
go about as usual.  I don't wish anybody to think that--that I care."

He stopped--evidently fighting hard against himself.  A new lesson,
alas! for our Guy.

"Was I too violent last night?  I did not mean it.  I mean to be a man.
Not the first man whom a lady has refused--eh?"  And braving it out, he
began to whistle; but the lips fell--the frank brow grew knotted with
pain.  The lad broke into a passion of misery.

The chief bitterness was that he had been deceived.  Unwittingly, we
well believed--but still deceived.  Many little things he told
me--Guy's was a nature that at once spent and soothed itself by
talking--of Miss Silver's extreme gentleness and kindness towards him;
a kindness which seemed so like, so cruelly like love.

"Love!--Oh, she loved me.  She told me so.  Of course!--I was Edwin's
brother."

Ay, there was the sting, which never could be removed; which might
rankle in the boy's heart for life.  He had not only lost his love, but
what is more precious than love--faith in womankind.  He began to make
light of his losings--to think the prize was not so great after all.
He sat on my bed, singing--Guy had a fine voice and ear--singing out of
mockery, songs which I had an especial aversion to--light songs written
by an Irishman, Mr. Thomas Moore, about girls and wine, and being "far
from the lips we love," but always ready enough "to make love to the
lips we are near."  Then, laughing at me, he threw up the window and
looked out.

I think it was wrong of those two, wrong and selfish, as all lovers
are--young lovers in the flush of their happiness; I think it was cruel
of Edwin and Louise to walk up and down there in the elder brother's
very eyes.

For a moment he struggled against his passion.

"Uncle Phineas, just look here.  How charming!  Ha, ha!  Did you ever
see such a couple of fools?"

Fools, maybe, but happy; happy to the very core--thoroughly engrossed
in their happiness.  The elder brother was almost maddened by it.

"He must mind what he does--tell him so, Uncle Phineas--it would be
safer.  He MUST mind, or I will not answer for myself.  I was fond of
Edwin--I was indeed--but now it seems sometimes as if I HATED him."

"Guy!"

"Oh, if it had been a stranger, and not he!  If it had been any one in
the world except my brother!"

And in that bitter cry the lad's heart melted again; it was such a
tender heart--his mother's heart.

After a time he recovered himself, and came down with me to breakfast,
as he had insisted upon doing; met them all, even Miss Silver--and
Edwin, who had placed himself by her side with an air of right.  These
lovers, however deeply grieved they looked--and, to do justice, it was
really so--needed not to be grieved over by any of us.

Nor, looking at the father and mother, would we have dared to grieve
over THEM.  In the silent watches of the night, heart to heart, husband
and wife had taken council together; together had carried their sorrow
to the only Lightener of burthens.  It seemed that theirs was
lightened; that even in this strange entanglement of fate they were
able to wait patiently--trusting unto the Almighty Mercy not only
themselves but the children He had given them.

When, breakfast being over, John according to his custom read the
chapter and the prayer--no one rose up or went out; no one refused,
even in this anguish of strife, jealousy, and disunion--to repeat after
him the "Our Father" of their childhood.

I believe every one of us remembered for years, with an awe that was
not altogether pain, this morning's chapter and prayer.

When it was ended, worldly troubles closed round us again.

Nothing seemed natural.  We hung about in twos and threes, uncertain
what to do.  Guy walked up and down, alone.  His mother asked him if,
seeing his foot was so well, he would like to go down to the mills as
usual; but he declined.  Miss Silver made some suggestion about
"lessons," which Edwin jealously negatived immediately, and proposed
that she and Maud should take a drive somewhere.

Mrs. Halifax eagerly assented.  "Lady Oldtower has been wanting them
both for some time.  You would like to go, would you not, for a day or
two?" said she, addressing the governess.

Guy caught at this.  "Going away, are you?  When?"

He put the question to Miss Silver direct--his eyes blazing right into
her own.  She made some confused reply, about "leaving immediately."

"In the carriage, of course?  Shall I have the honour of driving you?"

"No," said Edwin, decisively.

A fierce, vindictive look passed between the brothers--a look terrible
in itself--more terrible in its warning of days to come.  No wonder the
mother shuddered--no wonder the young betrothed, pale and alarmed,
slipped out of the room.  Edwin followed her.  Then Guy, snatching up
his sister, lifted her roughly on his knee.

"Come along, Maud.  You'll be my girl now.  Nobody else wants you. Kiss
me, child."

But the little lady drew back.

"So, you hate me too?  Edwin has been teaching you?  Very well.  Get
away, you cheat!"

He pushed her violently aside.  Maud began to cry.

Her father looked up from his book--the book he had not been
reading--though he had seemingly thought it best to take no notice of
what was passing around him.

"Come here, Maud, my child.  Guy, you should not be unkind to your
little sister.  Try and command yourself, my dear boy!"

The words, though spoken gently, almost in a whisper, were more than
the lad's chafed spirit could brook.

"Father, you insult me.  I will not bear it.  I will quit the room."

He went out, shutting the door passionately after him.  His mother rose
up to follow him--then sat down again.  The eyes that she lifted to her
husband were deprecating, beseeching, heavy with a speechless pain.

For John--he said nothing.  Not though, as was plain to see, this, the
first angry or disrespectful word he had ever received from any one of
his children, struck him like an arrow; for a moment stirred him even
to wrath--holy wrath--the just displeasure of a father who feels that
the least portion of his child's sin is the sin against him.  Perhaps
this very feeling, distinct from, and far beyond, all personal
indignation, all sense of offended dignity, made the anger strangely
brief--so brief, that when the other children, awed and startled,
looked for some ebullition of it--lo! it was all gone.  In its stead
was something at which the children, more awed still, crept out of the
room.

Ursula even, alarmed, looked in his face as if for the first time she
could not comprehend her husband.

"John, you should forgive poor Guy! he did not intend any harm."

"No--no."

"And he is so very miserable.  Never before did he fail in his duty to
you."

"But what if I have failed in mine to him?--What if--you used to say I
could not understand Guy--what if I have come short towards him? I,
that am accountable to God for every one of my children."

"John--John"--she knelt down and put her arms round his neck. "Husband,
do not look unhappy.  I did not mean to blame you--we may be wrong,
both of us--all of us.  But we will not be afraid.  We know Who pities
us, even as we pity our children."

Thus she spoke, and more to the same purport; but it was a long time
before her words brought any consolation.  Then the parents talked
together, trying to arrange some plan whereby Guy's mind might be
occupied and soothed, or else Edwin removed out of his sight for a
little while.  Once I hinted at the advantage of Guy's leaving home;
but Mrs. Halifax seemed to shrink from this project as though it were a
foreboding of perpetual exile.

"No, no; anything but that.  Beside, Guy would not wish it.  He has
never left me in his life.  His going would seem like the general
breaking up of the family."

Alas! she did not, would not see that the family was already "broken."
Broken, more than either absence, marriage, or death itself could have
effected.

One thing more we had to consider--a thing at once natural and right in
any family, namely, how to hide its wounds from the chattering,
scandalous world.  And so, when by a happy chance there came over that
morning our good friend Lady Oldtower and her carriage full of
daughters, Mrs. Halifax communicated, with a simple dignity that
quelled all comment, the fact of "my son Edwin's engagement," and
accepted the invitation for Maud and Miss Silver, which was willingly
repeated and pressed.

One thing I noticed, that in speaking of or to the girl who in a single
day from merely the governess had become, and was sedulously treated
as, our own, Mrs. Halifax invariably called her, as heretofore, "Miss
Silver," or "my dear;" never by any chance "Louise," or "Mademoiselle
D'Argent."

Before she left Beechwood, Edwin came in and hurriedly spoke to his
mother.  What he said was evidently painful to both.

"I am not aware of it, Edwin; I had not the slightest intention of
offending her.  Is she already made your judge and referee as to the
actions of your mother?"

Edwin was a good lad, though perhaps a little less loving than the rest
of the boys.  His self-restraint, his exceeding patience, lulled the
threatened storm.

"But you will be kind to her, mother?--I know you will."

"Did I not say so?"

"And may I bring her to you here?"

"If you choose."

It was the first open recognition between the mother and her son's
betrothed.  Their other meeting had been in public, when, with a
sedulous dread, both had behaved exactly as usual, and no word or
manner had betrayed their altered relations.  Now, when for the first
time it was needful for Miss Silver to be received as a daughter elect,
with all the natural sympathy due from one woman to another under
similar circumstances, all the warmth of kindness due from a mother to
her son's chosen wife--then the want, the mournful want, made itself
felt.

Mrs. Halifax stood at the dining-room window, trying vainly to regain
self-control.

"If I could only love her!  If only she had made me love her!" she
muttered, over and over again.

I hoped, from the bottom of my soul, that Edwin had not heard her--had
not seen her involuntarily recoil, as he led to his mother his handsome
girl that he seemed so proud of, his happy, affianced wife. Happiness
melts some natures, like spring and sunshine.  Louise looked up with
swimming eyes.

"Oh! be kind to me!  Nobody was ever kind to me till I came here!"

The good heart gave way:  Mrs. Halifax opened her arms.

"Be true to Edwin--love Edwin, and I shall love you--I am sure I shall."

Kissing her once or twice, the mother let fall a few tears; then sat
down, still keeping the girl's hand, and busying herself with various
little kindnesses about her.

"Are you sure you are well wrapped up?  Edwin, see that she has my fur
cloak in the carriage.  What cold fingers!  Have some wine before you
start, my dear."

Miss Silver altogether melted; sobbing, she murmured something about
forgiveness.

"Nay, did I say a word about forgiveness?  Then, do not you.  Let us be
patient--we shall all be happy in time."

"And--Guy?"

"Guy will be himself soon," returned the mother, rather proudly.  "We
will not mention him, if you please, my dear."

At this moment, Guy must have heard the carriage-wheels and guessed
Miss Silver was going, for he appeared at the parlour door.  He found
his mother toying with Miss Silver's hand; Edwin standing by, proud and
glad, with his arm clasped round Louise.

He did not remove it.  In his brother's very face--perhaps because of
the expression of that face--the lover held fast his own.

Mrs. Halifax rose up, alarmed.  "She is just going, Guy.  Shake hands,
and bid her good-bye."

The girl's hand, which was sorrowfully and kindly extended, Guy
snatched and held fast.

"Let her pass," cried Edwin, angrily.

"Most certainly.  I have not the least wish to detain her.  Good-bye! A
pleasant journey!"  And, still keeping her hand, he gazed with burning
eyes on the features he had so loved--as boys do love--with a wild
imaginative passion, kindled by beauty alone.  "I shall claim my
right--just for once--may I, sister Louise?"

With a glance of defiance at Edwin, Guy caught his brother's betrothed
round the waist and kissed her--once--twice--savagely.

It was done so suddenly and under such an ingenious disguise of
"right," that open vengeance was impossible.  But as Edwin hurried
Louise away, the look that passed between the two young men was enough
to blot out henceforward all friendship, all brotherhood. That insult
would never be forgotten.

She was gone--the house was free of her and Edwin too.  Guy was left
alone with me and his mother.

Mrs. Halifax sat sewing.  She seemed to take no note of his comings and
goings--his restless starts--his fits of dark musing, when his face
grew like the face of some stranger, some one whom he would have shrunk
from--any one but our own merry Guy.

"Mother,"--the voice startled me, such irritable, intolerable
bitterness marred its once pleasant tones--"when do they come back?"

"Do you mean--"

"I mean those people."

"In a week or so.  Your brother returns to-night, of course."

"My BROTHER, eh?  Better not say it--it's an ugly word."

Mrs. Halifax attempted no reproof; she knew that it would have been
useless--worse than useless--then.

"Mother," Guy said at last, coming up and leaning against her chair,
"you must let me go."

"Where, my son?"

"Anywhere--out of their sight--those two.  You see, I cannot bear it.
It maddens me--makes me wicked--makes me not myself.  Or rather makes
me truly MYSELF, which is altogether wicked."

"No, Guy--no, my own boy.  Have patience--all this will pass away."

"It might, if I had anything to do.  Mother," kneeling down by her with
a piteous gaze--"mother, you need not look so wretched.  I wouldn't
harm Edwin--would not take from him his happiness; but to live in sight
of it day after day, hour after hour--I can't do it! Do not ask me--let
me get away."

"But where?"

"Anywhere, as I said; only let me go far away from them, where no
possible news of them can reach me.  In some place, oh, mother darling!
where I can trouble no one and make no one miserable."

The mother feebly shook her head.  As if such a spot could be found on
earth, while SHE lived.

But she saw that Guy was right.  To expect him to remain at home was
cruelty.  As he had said, he could not bear it--few could.  Few even
among women--of men much fewer.  One great renunciation is possible,
sometimes easy, as death may be; but to "die daily?"  In youth, too,
with all the passions vehement, the self-knowledge and self-control
small?  No; Nature herself, in that universal desire to escape, which
comes with such a trial, hints at the unnaturalness of the ordeal; in
which, soon or late, the weak become paralysed or callous; the
strong--God help them!--are apt to turn wicked.

Guy's instinct of flight was, his mother felt, wisest, safest, best.

"My boy, you shall have your desire; you shall go."

I had not expected it of her--at least, not so immediately.  I had
thought, bound up in him as she was, accustomed to his daily sight, his
daily fondness--for he was more with her, and "petted" her more than
any other of the children--I had thought to have seen some reluctance,
some grieved entreaty--but no!  Not even when, gaining her consent, the
boy looked up as if her allowing him to quit her was the greatest
kindness she had ever in his life bestowed.

"And when shall I go?"

"Whenever you choose."

"To-day; perhaps I might get away to-day?"

"You can, if you wish, my dear boy."

But no sooner had she said it, than the full force and meaning of the
renunciation seemed to burst upon her.  Her fingers, which had been
smoothing Guy's hand as it lay on her lap, tightly closed round it;
with the other hand she put back his hair, gazing--gazing, as if it
were impossible to part with him.

"Guy--oh, Guy, my heart is breaking!  Promise that you will try to be
yourself again--that you will never be anything other than my own good
boy, if I agree to let you go?"  What he answered, or what further
passed between them, was not for me either to hear or to know.  I left
the room immediately.

When, some time after John's hour for returning from the mills, I also
returned to the house, I found that everything was settled for Guy's
immediate departure.

There was some business in Spain--something about Andalusian
wool--which his father made the ostensible reason for the journey.  It
would occupy him and distract his mind, besides giving him constant
necessity of change.  And, they say, travel is the best cure for the
heart-ache.  We hoped it might prove so.

Perhaps the sorest point, and one that had been left undecided till
both parents saw that in Guy's present mood any opposition was hurtful,
even dangerous, was the lad's obstinate determination to depart alone.
He refused his mother's companionship to London, even his father's
across the country to the nearest point where one of those new and
dangerous things called railways tempted travellers to their
destruction.  But Guy would go by it--the maddest and strangest way of
locomotion pleased him best.  So it was settled he should go, as he
pleaded, this very day.

A strange day it seemed--long and yet how short!  Mrs. Halifax was
incessantly busy.  I caught sight of her now and then, flitting from
room to room, with Guy's books in her hand--Guy's linen thrown across
her arm.  Sometimes she stood a few minutes by the window, doing a few
stitches of necessary work, which, when even nurse Watkins offered to
do--Jenny, who had been a rosy lass when Guy was born--she refused
abruptly, and went stitching on.

There were no regular meals that day; better not, perhaps.  I saw John
come up to his wife as she stood sewing, and bring her a piece of bread
and a glass of wine--but she could not touch either.

"Mother, try," whispered Guy, mournfully.  "What will become of me if I
have made you ill?"

"Oh, no fear, no fear!"  She smiled, took the wine and swallowed
it--broke off a bit of the bread,--and went on with her work.

The last hour or two passed so confusedly that I do not well remember
them.  I can only call to mind seeing Guy and his mother everywhere
side by side, doing everything together, as if grudging each instant
remaining till the final instant came.  I have also a vivid impression
of her astonishing composure, of her calm voice when talking to Guy
about indefinite trifles, or, though that was seldom, to any other of
us.  It never faltered--never lost its rich, round, cheerfulness of
tone; as if she wished him to carry it as such, and no other--the
familiar mother's voice--in his memory across the seas.

Once only it grew sharp, when Walter, who hovered about disconsolately,
knelt down to fasten his brother's portmanteau.

"No!  Let go!  I can do everything myself."

And now the time was fast flying--her boy must depart.

All the household collected in the hall to bid Mr. Guy good-bye--Mr.
Guy whom everybody was so fond of.  They believed--which was all that
any one, save ourselves, ever knew--that sudden business had called him
away on a long and anxious journey.  They lingered about him,
respectfully, with eager, honest blessings, such as it was good the lad
should have--good that he should bear away with him from England and
from home.

Finally, Guy, his father, and his mother went into the study by
themselves.  Soon even his father came out and shut the door, that
there should be not a single witness to the last few words between
mother and son.  These being over, they both came into the hall
together, brave and calm--which calmness was maintained even to the
last good-bye.

Thus we sent our Guy away, cheerfully and with blessings--away into the
wide, dangerous world; alone, with no guard or restraint, except (and
in that EXCEPT lay the whole mystery of our cheerfulness)--the fear of
God, his father's counsels, and his mother's prayers.



CHAPTER XXXV

Two years rolled over Beechwood--two uneventful years.  The last of the
children ceased to be a child; and we prepared for that great era in
all household history, the first marriage in the family.  It was to be
celebrated very quietly, as Edwin and Louise both desired. Time had
healed over many a pang, and taught many a soothing lesson; still it
could not be supposed that this marriage was without its painfulness.

Guy still remained abroad; his going had produced the happy result
intended.  Month after month his letters came, each more hopeful than
the last, each bringing balm to the mother's heart.  Then he wrote to
others beside his mother:  Maud and Walter replied to him in long
home-histories; and began to talk without hesitation--nay, with great
pride and pleasure--"of my brother who is abroad."

The family wound was closing, the family peace about to be restored;
Maud even fancied Guy ought to come home to "our wedding;"--but then
she had never been told the whole of past circumstances; and, besides,
she was still too young to understand love matters.  Yet so mercifully
had time smoothed down all things, that it sometimes appeared even to
us elders as if those three days of bitterness were a mere dream--as if
the year we dreaded had passed as calmly as any other year.  Save that
in this interval Ursula's hair had begun to turn from brown to grey;
and John first mentioned, so cursorily that I cannot even now remember
when or where, that slight pain, almost too slight to complain of,
which he said warned him in climbing Enderley Hill that he could not
climb so fast as when he was young. And I returned his smile, telling
him we were evidently growing old men; and must soon set our faces to
descend the hill of life.  Easy enough I was in saying this, thinking,
as I often did, with great content, that there was not the faintest
doubt which of us would reach the bottom first.

Yet I was glad to have safely passed my half century of life--glad to
have seen many of John's cares laid to rest, more especially those
external troubles which I have not lately referred to--for, indeed,
they were absorbed and forgotten in the home-troubles that came after.
He had lived down all slanders, as he said he would.  Far and near
travelled the story of the day when Jessop's bank was near breaking;
far and near, though secretly--for we found it out chiefly by its
results--poor people whispered the tale of a gentleman who had been
attacked on the high roads, and whose only attempt at bringing the
robbers to justice was to help the widow of one and send the others
safe out of the country, at his own expense, not Government's. None of
these were notable or showy deeds--scarcely one of them got, even under
the disguise of asterisks, into the newspaper; the Norton Bury Mercury,
for its last dying sting, still complained (and very justly) that there
was not a gentleman in the county whose name so seldom headed a charity
subscription as that of John Halifax, Esquire, of Beechwood.  But the
right made its way, as, soon or late, the right always does; he
believed his good name was able to defend itself, and it did defend
itself; he had faith in the only victory worth having--the universal
victory of Truth; and Truth conquered at last.

To drive with him across the country--he never carried pistols now,--or
to walk with him, as one day before Edwin's wedding we walked, a goodly
procession, through the familiar streets of Norton Bury, was a
perpetual pleasure to the rest of the family.  Everybody knew him,
everybody greeted him, everybody smiled as he passed--as though his
presence and his recognition were good things to have and to win. His
wife often laughed, and said she doubted whether even Mr. O'Connell of
Derrynane, who was just now making a commotion in Ireland, lighting the
fire of religious and political discord from one end to the other of
County Clare;--she doubted if even Daniel O'Connell had more popularity
among his own people than John Halifax had in the primitive
neighbourhood where he had lived so long.

Mrs. Halifax herself was remarkably gay this morning.  She had had
letters from Guy; together with a lovely present, for which he said he
had ransacked all the magazins des modes in Paris--a white embroidered
China shawl.  It had arrived this morning--Lord Ravenel being the
bearer.  This was not the first time by many that he had brought us
news of our Guy, and thereby made himself welcome at Beechwood.  More
welcome than he might have been otherwise; for his manner of life was
so different from ours.  Not that Lord Ravenel could be accused of any
likeness to his father; but blood is blood, and education and habits
are not to be easily overcome.  The boys laughed at him for his
aristocratic, languid ways; Maud teased him for his mild cynicism and
the little interest he seemed to take in anything; while the mother
herself was somewhat restless about his coming, wondering what possible
good his acquaintance could do to us, or ours to him, seeing we moved
in totally different spheres.  But John himself was invariably kind,
nay, tender over him--we all guessed why.  And perhaps even had not the
young man had so many good points, while his faults were more negations
than positive ill qualities, we likewise should have been tender over
him--for Muriel's sake.

He had arrived at Beechwood this morning, and falling as usual into our
family routine, had come with us to Norton Bury.  He looked up with
more interest than usual in his pensive eyes, as he crossed the
threshold of our old house, and told Maud how he had come there many
years ago with his father.

"That was the first time I ever met your father," I overheard him say
to Maud--not without feeling; as if he thought he owed fate some
gratitude for the meeting.

Mrs. Halifax, in the casual civil inquiry which was all the old earl
ever won in our house, asked after the health of Lord Luxmore.

"He is still at Compiegne.  Does not Guy mention him?  Lord Luxmore
takes the greatest pleasure in Guy's society."

By her start, this was evidently new and not welcome tidings to Guy's
mother.  No wonder.  Any mother in England would have shrank from the
thought that her best-beloved son--especially a young man of Guy's
temperament, and under Guy's present circumstances--was thrown into the
society which now surrounded the debauched dotage of the too-notorious
Earl of Luxmore.

"My son did not mention it.  He has been too much occupied in business
matters to write home frequently, since he reached Paris. However his
stay there is limited;" and this seemed to relieve her. "I doubt if he
will have much time left to visit Compiegne."

She said no more than this, of course, to Lord Luxmore's son; but her
disquiet was sufficiently apparent.

"It was I who brought your son to Compiegne--where he is a universal
favourite, from his wit and liveliness.  I know no one who is a more
pleasant companion than Guy."

Guy's mother bowed--but coldly.

"I think, Mrs. Halifax, you are aware that the earl's tastes and mine
differ widely--have always differed.  But he is an old man, and I am
his only son.  He likes to see me sometimes, and I go:--though, I must
confess, I take little pleasure in the circle he has around him."

"In which circle, as I understand, my son is constantly included?"

"Why not?  It is a very brilliant circle.  The whole court of Charles
Dix can afford none more amusing.  For the rest, what matters?  One
learns to take things as they seem, without peering below the surface.
One wearies of impotent Quixotism against unconquerable evils."

"That is not our creed at Beechwood," said Mrs. Halifax, abruptly, as
she ceased the conversation.  But ever and anon it seemed to recur to
her mind--ay, through all the mirth of the young people, all the graver
pleasure which the father took in the happiness of his son Edwin; his
good son, who had never given him a single care.  He declared this
settling of Edwin had been to him almost like the days when he himself
used to come of evenings, hammer in hand, to put up shelves in the
house, or nail the currant-bushes against the wall, doing everything
con amore, and with the utmost care, knowing it would come under the
quick observant eyes of Ursula March.

"That is, of Ursula Halifax--for I don't think I let her see a single
one of my wonderful doings until she was Ursula Halifax.  Do you
remember, Phineas, when you came to visit us the first time, and found
us gardening?"

"And she had on a white gown and a straw hat with blue ribbons.  What a
young thing she looked!--hardly older than Mistress Maud here."

John put his arm round his wife's waist--not so slender as it had been,
but comely and graceful still, repeating--with something of the musical
cadence of his boyish readings of poetry--a line or two from the sweet
old English song:

     "And when with envy Time transported
        Shall think to rob us of our joys,
      You'll in your girls again be courted,
        And I'll go wooing with my boys."

Ursula laughed, and for the time being the shadow passed from her
countenance.  Her husband had happily not noticed it:  and apparently,
she did not wish to tell him her trouble.  She let him spend a happy
day, even grew happy herself in response to his care to make her so, by
the resolute putting away of all painful present thoughts, and calling
back of sweet and soothing memories belonging to this their old married
home.  John seemed determined that, if possible, the marriage that was
to be should be as sacred and as hopeful as their own.

So full of it were we all, that not until the day after, when Lord
Ravenel had left us,--longing apparently to be asked to stay for the
wedding, but John did not ask him,--I remembered what he had said about
Guy's association with Lord Luxmore's set.  It was recalled to me by
the mother's anxious face, as she gave me a foreign letter to post.

"Post it yourself, will you, Phineas?  I would not have it miscarry, or
be late in its arrival, on any account."

No, for I saw it was to her son, at Paris.

"It will be the last letter I shall need to write," she added, again
lingering over it, to be certain that all was correct--the address
being somewhat illegible for that free, firm hand of hers.  "My boy is
coming home."

"Guy coming home!  To the marriage?"

"No; but immediately after.  He is quite himself now.  He longs to come
home."

"And his mother?"

His mother could not speak.  Like light to her eyes, like life to her
heart, was the thought of Guy's coming home.  All that week she looked
ten years younger.  With a step buoyant as any girl's she went about
the marriage preparations; together with other preparations, perhaps
dearer still to the motherly heart, where, if any preference did lurk,
it was for the one for whom--possibly from whom--she had suffered most,
of all her children.

John, too, though the father's joy was graver and not unmixed with some
anxiety--anxiety which he always put aside in his wife's
presence--seemed eager to have his son at home.

"He is the eldest son," he repeated more than once, when talking to me
of his hope that Guy would now settle permanently at Beechwood. "After
myself, the head of the family."

After John!  It was almost ridiculous to peer so far into the future as
that.

Of all the happy faces I saw the day before the marriage, I think the
happiest was Mrs. Halifax's, as I met her coming out of Guy's room,
which ever since he left had been locked up, unoccupied.  Now his
mother threw open the door with a cheerful air.

"You may go in if you like, Uncle Phineas.  Does it not look nice?"

It did indeed, with the fresh white curtains; the bed laid all in
order; the book-shelves arranged, and even the fowling-piece and
fishing-rod put in the right places.

The room looked very neat, I said, with an amused doubt as to how long
it was to remain so.

"That is true, indeed.  How he used to throw his things about!  A sad
untidy boy!"  And his mother laughed; but I saw all her features were
trembling with emotion.

"He will not be exactly a boy now.  I wonder if we shall find him much
changed."

"Very likely.  Brown, with a great beard; he said so in one of his
letters.  I shall hardly know my boy again."--With a lighting-up of the
eye that furnished a flat contradiction to the mother's statement.

"Here are some of Mrs. Tod's roses, I see."

"She made me take them.  She said Master Guy always used to stop and
pick a bunch as he rode past.  She hopes she shall see him ride past on
Sunday next.  Guy must pay her one of his very first visits; the good
old soul!"

I hinted that Guy would have to pay visits half over the country, to
judge by the number of invitations I had heard of.

"Yes.  Everybody wants to steal my boy.  Everybody has a welcome for
him.--How bright old Watkins has polished that gun!--Sir Herbert says,
Guy must come over to the shooting next week.  He used to be
exceedingly fond of going to the manor-house."

I smiled to see the innocent smile of this good mother, who would have
recoiled at the accusation of match-making.  Yet I knew she was
thinking of her great favourite, pretty Grace Oldtower; who was Grace
Oldtower still, and had refused, gossip said, half the brilliant
matches in the county, to the amazement and strong disapprobation of
all her friends--excepting Mrs. Halifax.

"Come away, Phineas!" slightly sighing, as if her joy weighed her down,
or as if conscious that she was letting fancy carry her too far into
the unknown future.  "His room is quite ready now, whatever time the
boy arrives.  Come away."

She shut and locked the door.  To be opened--when?

Morning broke, and none could have desired a brighter marriage-morning.
Sunshine out of doors--sunshine on all the faces within; only family
faces,--for no other guests had been invited, and we had kept the day
as secret as we could; there was nothing John disliked more than a
show-wedding.  Therefore it was with some surprise that while they were
all up-stairs adorning themselves for church, Maud and I, standing at
the hall-door, saw Lord Ravenel's travelling carriage drive up to it,
and Lord Ravenel himself, with a quicker and more decided gesture than
was natural to him, spring out.

Maud ran into the porch; startling him much, apparently; for indeed she
was a sweet vision of youth, happiness, and grace, in her pretty
bridesmaid's dress.

"Is this the wedding-morning?  I did not know--I will come again
to-morrow;" and he seemed eager to escape back to his carriage.

This action relieved me from a vague apprehension of ill tidings, and
made less painful the first question which rose to my lips, "Had he
seen Guy?"

"No."

"We thought for the moment it might be Guy come home," Maud cried. "We
are expecting him.  Have you heard of him since we saw you?  Is he
quite well?"

"I believe so."

I thought the answer brief; but then he was looking intently upon Guy's
sister, who held his hands in her childish, affectionate way; she had
not yet relinquished her privilege of being Lord Ravenel's "pet."
When, hesitatingly, he proposed returning to Luxmore, unwilling to
intrude upon the marriage, the little lady would not hear of it for a
moment.  She took the unexpected guest to the study, left him there
with her father, explained to her mother all about his arrival and his
having missed seeing Guy--appearing entirely delighted.

I came into the drawing-room, and sat watching the sun shining on
marriage-garments and marriage-faces, all as bright as bright could
be,--including the mother's.  It had clouded over for a few moments
when the postman's ring was heard; but she said at once that it was
most unlikely Guy would write--she had told him there was no need to
write.  So she stood content, smoothing down the soft folds of her
beautiful shawl, which Guy meant her to wear to-day.  This, together
with his fond remembrance of her, seemed almost as comfortable as the
visible presence of her boy.  Her boy, who was sure to come to-morrow.

"John, is that you?  How softly you came in.  And Lord Ravenel!  He
knows we are glad to see him.  Shall we make him one of our own family
for the time being, and take him with us to see Edwin married?"

Lord Ravenel bowed.

"Maud tells us you have not seen Guy.  I doubt if he will be able to
arrive to-day; but we fully expect him tomorrow."

Lord Ravenel bowed again.  Mrs. Halifax said something about this
unexpected arrival of his.

"He came on business," John answered quickly, and Ursula made no more
inquiries.

She stood, talking with Lord Ravenel--as I could see her stand now,
playing with the deep fringe of her shawl; the sun glancing on that
rich silk dress, of her favourite silver-grey; a picture of matronly
grace and calm content, as charming as even the handsome, happy bride.

I was still looking at her, when John called me aside.  I followed him
to the study.

"Shut the door."

By his tone and look I knew in a moment that something had happened.

"Yes.  I'll tell you presently--if there's time."

While he was speaking some violent pain--physical or mental, or
both--seemed to seize him.  I had my hand on the door to call Ursula,
but he held me fast with a kind of terror.

"Call no one.  I am used to it.  Water!"

He drank a glassful, which stood by, breathed once or twice heavily,
and gradually recovered himself.  The colour had scarcely come back
into his face when he heard Maud run laughing through the hall.

"Father, where are you?  We are waiting for you."

"I will come in two minutes, my child."

Having said this, in his own natural voice, he closed the door again,
and spoke to me rapidly.

"Phineas, I want you to stay away from church; make some excuse, or I
will for you.  Write a letter for me to this address in Paris.
Say--Guy Halifax's father will be there, without fail, within a week,
to answer all demands."

"All demands!" I echoed, bewildered.

He repeated the sentence word for word.  "Can you remember it?
Literally, mind!  And post it at once, before we return from church."

Here the mother's call was heard.  "John, are you coming?"

"In a moment, love," for her hand was on the door outside; but her
husband held the other handle fast.  He then went on, breathlessly,
"You understand, Phineas?  And you will be careful, very careful? SHE
MUST NOT KNOW--not till tonight."

"One word.  Guy is alive and well?"

"Yes--yes."

"Thank God!"

But Guy's father was gone while I spoke.  Heavy as the news might
be--this ill news which had struck me with apprehension the moment I
saw Lord Ravenel--it was still endurable.  I could not conjure up any
grief so bitter as the boy's dying.

Therefore, with a quietness that came naturally under the compulsion of
such a necessity as the present, I rejoined the rest, made my excuses,
and answered all objections.  I watched the marriage-party leave the
house.  A simple procession--the mother first, leaning on Edwin; then
Maud, Walter, and Lord Ravenel; John walked last, with Louise upon his
arm.  Thus I saw them move up the garden, and through the beech-wood,
to the little church on the hill.

I then wrote the letter and sent it off.  That done, I went back into
the study.  Knowing nothing--able to guess nothing--a dull patience
came over me, the patience with which we often wait for unknown,
inevitable misfortunes.  Sometimes I almost forgot Guy in my startled
remembrance of his father's look as he called me away, and sat down--or
rather dropped down--into his chair.  Was it illness? yet he had not
complained; he hardly ever complained, and scarcely had a day's
sickness from year to year.  And as I watched him and Louise up the
garden, I had noticed his free, firm gait, without the least sign of
unsteadiness or weakness.  Besides, he was not one to keep any but a
necessary secret from those who loved him.  He could not be seriously
ill, or we should have known it.

Thus I pondered, until I heard the church bells ring out merrily. The
marriage was over.

I was just in time to meet them at the front gates, which they
entered--our Edwin and his wife--through a living line of smiling
faces, treading upon a carpet of strewn flowers.  Enderley would not be
defrauded of its welcome--all the village escorted the young couple in
triumph home.  I have a misty recollection of how happy everybody
looked, how the sun was shining, and the bells ringing, and the people
cheering--a mingled phantasmagoria of sights and sounds, in which I
only saw one person distinctly,--John.

He waited while the young folk passed in--stood on the hall-steps--in a
few words thanked his people, and bade them to the general rejoicing.
They, uproarious, answered in loud hurrahs, and one energetic voice
cried out:

"One cheer more for Master Guy!"

Guy's mother turned delighted--her eyes shining with proud tears.

"John--thank them; tell them that Guy will thank them himself
to-morrow."

The master thanked them, but either he did not explain--or the honest
rude voices drowned all mention of the latter fact--that Guy would be
home to-morrow.

All this while, and at the marriage-breakfast likewise, Mr. Halifax
kept the same calm demeanour.  Once only, when the rest were all
gathered round the bride and bridegroom, he said to me:

"Phineas, is it done?"

"What is done?" asked Ursula, suddenly passing.

"A letter I asked him to write for me this morning."

Now I had all my life been proud of John's face--that it was a safe
face to trust in--that it could not, or if it could, it would not,
boast that stony calm under which some men are so proud of disguising
themselves and their emotions from those nearest and dearest to them.
If he were sad, we knew it; if he were happy, we knew it too.  It was
his principle, that nothing but the strongest motive should make a man
stoop to even the smallest hypocrisy.

Therefore, hearing him thus speak to his wife, I was struck with great
alarm.  Mrs. Halifax herself seemed uneasy.

"A business letter, I suppose?"

"Partly on business.  I will tell you all about it this evening."

She looked re-assured.  "Just as you like; you know I am not curious."
But passing on, she turned back.  "John, if it was anything important
to be done--anything that I ought to know at once, you would not keep
me in ignorance?"

"No--my dearest!  No!"

Then what had happened must be something in which no help availed;
something altogether past and irremediable; something which he rightly
wished to keep concealed, for a few hours at least, from his other
children, so as not to mar the happiness of this day, of which there
could be no second, this crowning day of their lives--this wedding-day
of Edwin and Louise.

So, he sat at the marriage-table; he drank the marriage-health; he gave
them both a marriage-blessing.  Finally, he sent them away, smiling and
sorrowful--as is the bounden duty of young married couples to
depart--Edwin pausing even on the carriage-step to embrace his mother
with especial tenderness, and whisper her to "give his love to Guy."

"It reminds one of Guy's leaving," said the mother, hastily brushing
back the tears that would spring and roll down her smiling face.  She
had never, until this moment, reverted to that miserable day.  "John,
do you think it possible the boy can be at home to-night?"

John answered emphatically, but very softly, "No."

"Why not?  My letter would reach him in full time.  Lord Ravenel has
been to Paris and back since then.  But--" turning full upon the young
nobleman--"I think you said you had not seen Guy?"

"No."

"Did you hear anything of him?"

"I--Mrs. Halifax--"

Exceedingly distressed, almost beyond his power of self-restraint, the
young man looked appealingly to John, who replied for him:

"Lord Ravenel brought me a letter from Guy this morning."

"A letter from Guy--and you never told me.  How very strange!"

Still, she seemed only to think it "strange."  Some difficulty or folly
perhaps--you could see by the sudden flushing of her cheek, and her
quick, distrustful glance at Lord Ravenel, what she imagined it
was--that the boy had confessed to his father.  With an instinct of
concealment--the mother's instinct--for the moment she asked no
questions.

We were all still standing at the hall-door.  Unresisting, she suffered
her husband to take her arm in his and bring her into the study.

"Now--the letter, please!  Children, go away; I want to speak to your
father.  The letter, John?"

Her hand, which she held out, shook much.  She tried to unfold the
paper--stopped, and looked up piteously.

"It is not to tell me he is not coming home?  I can bear anything, you
know--but he MUST come."

John only answered, "Read,"--and took firm hold of her hand while she
read--as we hold the hand of one undergoing great torture,--which must
be undergone, and which no human love can either prepare for, or
remove, or alleviate.

The letter, which I saw afterwards, was thus:

"DEAR FATHER AND MOTHER,

"I have disgraced you all.  I have been drunk--in a gaming-house. A man
insulted me--it was about my father--but you will hear--all the world
will hear presently.  I struck him--there was something in my hand,
and--the man was hurt.

"He may be dead by this time.  I don't know.

"I am away to America to-night.  I shall never come home any more.  God
bless you all.

"GUY HALIFAX.

"P.S.  I got my mother's letter to-day.  Mother--I was not in my right
senses, or I should not have done it.  Mother, darling! forget me.
Don't let me have broken your heart."


Alas, he had broken it!

"Never come home any more!--  Never come home any more!"

She repeated this over and over again, vacantly:  nothing but these
five words.

Nature refused to bear it; or rather, Nature mercifully helped her to
bear it.  When John took his wife in his arms she was insensible; and
remained so, with intervals, for hours.

This was the end of Edwin's wedding-day.



CHAPTER XXXVI

Lord Ravenel knew--as all Paris did by this time--the whole story.
Though, as he truly said, he had not seen Guy.  The lad was hurried off
immediately, for fear of justice:  but he had written from shipboard to
Lord Ravenel, begging him himself to take the letter and break the news
to us at Beechwood.

The man he had struck was not one of Lord Luxmore's set--though it was
through some of his "noble" friends Guy had fallen into his company.
He was an Englishman, lately succeeded to a baronetcy and estate; his
name--how we started to hear it, though by Lord Ravenel and by us, for
his sake, it was both pronounced and listened to, as if none of us had
ever heard it before--Sir Gerard Vermilye.

As soon as Ursula recovered, Mr. Halifax and Lord Ravenel went to Paris
together.  This was necessary, not only to meet justice, but to track
the boy--to whose destination we had no clue but the wide world,
America.  Guy's mother hurried them away--his mother, who rose from her
bed, and moved about the house like a ghost--up-stairs and
down-stairs--everywhere--excepting in that room, which was now once
more locked, and the outer blind drawn down, as if Death himself had
taken possession there.

Alas! we learned now that there may be sorrows bitterer even than death.

Mr. Halifax went away.  Then followed a long season of torpid
gloom--days or weeks, I hardly remember--during which we, living shut
up at Beechwood, knew that our name--John's stainless, honourable
name--was in everybody's mouth--parrotted abroad in every
society--canvassed in every newspaper.  We tried, Walter and I, to stop
them at first, dreading lest the mother might read in some foul print
or other scurrilous tales about her boy; or, as long remained doubtful,
learn that he was proclaimed through France and England as a
homicide--an assassin.  But concealments were idle--she would read
everything--hear everything--meet everything--even those neighbours who
out of curiosity or sympathy called at Beechwood.  Not many times,
though; they said they could not understand Mrs. Halifax.  So, after a
while, they all left her alone, except good little Grace Oldtower.

"Come often," I heard her say to this girl, whom she was fond of: they
had sat talking a whole morning--idly and pensively; of little things
around them, never once referring to things outside.  "Come often,
though the house is dull.  Does it not feel strange, with Mr. Halifax
away?"

Ay, this was the change--stranger at first than what had befallen
Guy--for that long seemed a thing we could not realise; like a story
told of some other family than ours.  The present tangible blank was
the house with its head and master away.

Curiously enough, but from his domestic habits easily accountable, he
had scarcely ever been more than a few days absent from home before. We
missed him continually; in his place at the head of the table; in his
chair by the fire; his quick ring at the hall bell, when he came up
from the mills--his step--his voice--his laugh.  The life and soul of
the house seemed to have gone out of it from the hour the father went
away.

I think in the wonderful workings of things--as we know all things do
work together for good--this fact was good for Ursula.  It taught her
that, in losing Guy, she had not lost all her blessings.  It showed her
what in the passion of her mother-love she might have been tempted to
forget--many mothers do--that beyond all maternal duty, is the duty
that a woman owes to her husband:  beyond all loves, is the love that
was hers before any of them were born.

So, gradually, as every day John's letters came,--and she used to watch
for them and seize them as if they had been love-letters; as every day
she seemed to miss him more, and count more upon his return; referring
all decisions, and all little pleasures planned for her, to the time
"when your father comes home;"--hope and comfort began to dawn in the
heart of the mourning mother.

And when at last John fixed the day of his coming back, I saw Ursula
tying up the small bundle of his letters--his letters, of which in all
her happy life she had had so few--his tender, comforting, comfortable
letters.

"I hope I shall never need to have any more," she said,
half-smiling--the faint smile which began to dawn in her poor face, as
if she must accustom it to look bright again in time for her husband's
coming.

And when the day arrived, she put all the house in trim order, dressed
herself in her prettiest gown, sat patient while Maud brushed and
curled her hair--how white it had turned of late!--and then waited,
with a flush on her cheek--like that of a young girl waiting for her
lover--for the sound of carriage-wheels.

All that had to be told about Guy--and it was better news than any one
of us had hoped for--John had already told in his letters.  When he
came back, therefore, he was burthened with no trouble
undisclosed--greeted with no anguish of fear or bitter remembrance. As
he sprang out of the post-chaise, it was to find his wife standing at
the door, and his home smiling for him its brightest welcome.  No
blessing on earth could be like the blessing of the father's return.

John looked pale, but not paler than might have been expected. Grave,
too--but it was a soft seriousness altogether free from the
restlessness of keen anxiety.  The first shock of this heavy misfortune
was over.  He had paid all his son's debts; he had, as far as was
possible, saved his good name; he had made a safe home for the lad, and
heard of his safely reaching it, in the New World.  Nothing more was
left but to cover over the inevitable grief, and hope that time would
blot out the intolerable shame.  That since Guy's hand was clear of
blood--and, since his recovery, Sir Gerard Vermilye had risen into a
positive hero of society--men's minds would gradually lose the
impression of a deed committed in heat of youth, and repented of with
such bitter atonement.

So the father took his old place, and looked round on the remnant of
his children, grave indeed, but not weighed down by incurable
suffering.  Something, deeper even than the hard time he had recently
passed through, seemed to have made his home more than ever dear to
him.  He sat in his arm-chair, never weary of noticing everything
pleasant about him, of saying how pretty Beechwood looked, and how
delicious it was to be at home.  And perpetually, if any chance
unlinked it, his hand would return to its clasp of  Ursula's; the
minute she left her place by his side, his restless "Love, where are
you going?" would call her back again.  And once, when the children
were out of the room, and I, sitting in a dark corner, was probably
thought absent likewise, I saw John take his wife's face between his
two hands, and look in it--the fondest, most lingering, saddest
look!--then fold her tightly to his breast.

"I must never be away from her again.  Mine--for as long as I live,
mine--MY wife, MY Ursula!"

She took it all naturally, as she had taken every expression of his
love these nine-and-twenty years.  I left them, standing eye to eye,
heart to heart, as if nothing in this world could ever part them.

Next morning was as gay as any of our mornings used to be, for, before
breakfast, came Edwin and Louise.  And after breakfast, the father and
mother and I walked up and down the garden for an hour, talking over
the prospects of the young couple.  Then the post came--but we had no
need to watch for it now.  It only brought a letter from Lord Ravenel.

John read it, somewhat more seriously than he had been used to read
these letters--which for the last year or so had come often enough--the
boys usually quizzing, and Mistress Maud vehemently defending, the
delicate small hand-writing, the exquisite paper, the coronetted seal,
and the frank in the corner.  John liked to have them, and his wife
also--she being not indifferent to the fact, confirmed by many other
facts, that if there was one man in the world whom Lord Ravenel
honoured and admired, it was John Halifax of Beechwood.  But this time
her pleasure was apparently damped; and when Maud, claiming the letter
as usual, spread abroad, delightedly, the news that "her" Lord Ravenel
was coming shortly, I imagined this visit was not so welcome as usual
to the parents.

Yet still, as many a time before, when Mr. Halifax closed the letter,
he sighed, looked sorrowful, saying only, "Poor Lord Ravenel!"

"John," asked his wife, speaking in a whisper, for by tacit consent all
public allusion to his doings at Paris was avoided in the family--"did
you, by any chance, hear anything of--You know whom I mean?"

"Not one syllable."

"You inquired?"  He assented.  "I knew you would.  She must be almost
an old woman now, or perhaps she is dead.  Poor Caroline!"

It was the first time for years and years that this name had been
breathed in our household.  Involuntarily it carried me back--perhaps
others besides me--to the day at Longfield when little Guy had devoted
himself to his "pretty lady;" when we first heard that other name,
which by a curious conjuncture of circumstances had since become so
fatally familiar, and which would henceforward be like the sound of a
death-bell in our family--Gerard Vermilye.

On Lord Ravenel's re-appearance at Beechwood--and he seemed eager and
glad to come--I was tempted to wish him away.  He never crossed the
threshold but his presence brought a shadow over the parents'
looks--and no wonder.  The young people were gay and friendly as ever;
made him always welcome with us; and he rode over daily from desolate,
long-uninhabited Luxmore, where, in all its desolation, he appeared so
fond of abiding.

He wanted to take Maud and Walter over there one day, to see some
magnificent firs that were being cut down in a wholesale massacre,
leaving the grand old Hall as bare as a workhouse front.  But the
father objected; he was clearly determined that all the hospitalities
between Luxmore and Beechwood should be on the Beechwood side.

Lord Ravenel apparently perceived this.  "Luxmore is not Compiegne," he
said to me, with his dreary smile, half-sad, half-cynical.  "Mr.
Halifax might indulge me with the society of his children."

And as he lay on the grass--it was full summer now--watching Maud's
white dress flit about under the trees, I saw, or fancied I saw,
something different to any former expression that had ever lighted up
the soft languid mien of William Lord Ravenel.

"How tall that child has grown lately!  She is about nineteen, I think?"

"Not seventeen till December."

"Ah, so young?--Well, it is pleasant to be young!--Dear little Maud!"

He turned on one side, hiding the sun from his eyes with those delicate
ringed hands--which many a time our boys had laughed at, saying they
were mere lady's hands, fit for no work at all.

Perhaps Lord Ravenel felt the cloud that had come over our intercourse
with him; a cloud which, considering late events, was scarcely
unnatural:  for when evening came, his leave-taking, always a regret,
seemed now as painful as his blase indifference to all emotions,
pleasant or unpleasant, could allow.  He lingered--he hesitated--he
repeated many times how glad he should be to see Beechwood again; how
all the world was to him "flat, stale, and unprofitable," except
Beechwood.

John made no special answer; except that frank smile not without a
certain kindly satire, under which the young nobleman's Byronic
affectations generally melted away like mists in the morning.  He
kindled up into warmth and manliness.

"I thank you, Mr. Halifax--I thank you heartily for all you and your
household have been to me.  I trust I shall enjoy your friendship for
many years.  And if, in any way, I might offer mine, or any small
influence in the world--"

"Your influence is not small," John returned earnestly.  "I have often
told you so.  I know no man who has wider opportunities than you have."

"But I have let them slip--for ever."

"No, not for ever.  You are young still; you have half a lifetime
before you."

"Have I?"  And for the moment one would hardly have recognized the
sallow, spiritless face, that with all the delicacy of boyhood still,
at times looked so exceedingly old.  "No, no, Mr. Halifax, who ever
heard of a man beginning life at seven-and-thirty?"

"Are you really seven-and-thirty?" asked Maud.

"Yes--yes, my girl.  Is it so very old?"

He patted her on the shoulder, took her hand, gazed at it--the round,
rosy, girlish hand--with a melancholy tenderness; then bade "Good-bye"
to us all generally, and rode off.

It struck me then, though I hurried the thought away--it struck me
afterwards, and does now with renewed surprise--how strange it was that
the mother never noticed or took into account certain possibilities
that would have occurred naturally to any worldly mother.  I can only
explain it by remembering the unworldliness of our lives at Beechwood,
the heavy cares which now pressed upon us from without, and the notable
fact--which our own family experience ought to have taught us, yet did
not--that in cases like this, often those whom one would have expected
to be most quick-sighted, are the most strangely, irretrievably,
mournfully blind.

When, the very next day, Lord Ravenel, not on horse-back but in his
rarely-used luxurious coronetted carriage, drove up to Beechwood, every
one in the house except myself was inconceivably astonished to see him
back again.

He said that he had delayed his journey to Paris, and gave no
explanation of that delay.  He joined as usual in our midday dinner;
and after dinner, still as usual, took a walk with me and Maud.  It
happened to be through the beech-wood, almost the identical path that I
remembered taking, years and years ago, with John and Ursula.  I was
surprised to hear Lord Ravenel allude to the fact, a well-known fact in
our family; for I think all fathers and mothers like to relate, and all
children to hear, the slightest incidents of the parents' courting days.

"You did not know father and mother when they were young?" said Maud,
catching our conversation and flashing back her innocent, merry face
upon us.

"No, scarcely likely."  And he smiled.  "Oh, yes--it might have been--I
forget, I am not a young man now.  How old were Mr. and Mrs. Halifax
when they married?"

"Father was twenty-one and mother was eighteen--only a year older than
I."  And Maud, half ashamed of this suggestive remark, ran away. Her
gay candour proved to me--perhaps to others besides me--the girl's
entire free-heartedness.  The frank innocence of childhood was still
hers.

Lord Ravenel looked after her and sighed.  "It is good to marry early;
do you not think so, Mr. Fletcher?"

I told him--(I was rather sorry after I had said it, if one ought to be
sorry for having, when questioned, given one's honest opinion)--I told
him that I thought those happiest who found their happiness early, but
that I did not see why happiness should be rejected because it was the
will of Providence that it should not be found till late.

"I wonder," he said, dreamily, "I wonder whether I shall ever find it."

I asked him--it was by an impulse irresistible--why he had never
married?

"Because I never found any woman either to love or to believe in.
Worse," he added, bitterly, "I did not think there lived the woman who
could be believed in."

We had come out of the beech-wood and were standing by the low
churchyard wall; the sun glittered on the white marble head-stone on
which was inscribed, "Muriel Joy Halifax."

Lord Ravenel leaned over the wall, his eyes fixed upon that little
grave.  After a while, he said, sighing:

"Do you know, I have thought sometimes that, had she lived, I could
have loved--I might have married--that child!"

Here Maud sprang towards us.  In her playful tyranny, which she loved
to exercise and he to submit to, she insisted on knowing what Lord
Ravenel was talking about.

"I was saying," he answered, taking both her hands and looking down
into her bright, unshrinking eyes, "I was saying, how dearly I loved
your sister Muriel."

"I know that," and Maud became grave at once.  "I know you care for me
because I am like my sister Muriel."

"If it were so, would you be sorry or glad?"

"Glad, and proud too.  But you said, or you were going to say,
something more.  What was it?"

He hesitated long, then answered:

"I will tell you another time."

Maud went away, rather cross and dissatisfied, but evidently suspecting
nothing.  For me, I began to be seriously uneasy about her and Lord
Ravenel.

Of all kinds of love, there is one which common sense and romance have
often combined to hold obnoxious, improbable, or ridiculous, but which
has always seemed to me the most real and pathetic form that the
passion ever takes--I mean, love in spite of great disparity of age.
Even when this is on the woman's side, I can imagine circumstances that
would make it far less ludicrous and pitiful; and there are few things
to me more touching, more full of sad earnest, than to see an old man
in love with a young girl.

Lord Ravenel's case would hardly come under this category; yet the
difference between seventeen and thirty-seven was sufficient to warrant
in him a trembling uncertainty, and eager catching at the skirts of
that vanishing youth whose preciousness he never seemed to have
recognized till now.  It was with a mournful interest that all day I
watched him follow the child about, gather her posies, help her to
water her flowers, and accommodate himself to those whims and fancies,
of which, as the pet and the youngest, Mistress Maud had her full share.

When, at her usual hour of half-past nine, the little lady was summoned
away to bed, "to keep up her roses," he looked half resentful of the
mother's interference.

"Maud is not a child now; and this may be my last night--" he stopped,
sensitively, at the involuntary foreboding.

"Your last night?  Nonsense! you will come back soon again.  You
must--you shall!" said Maud, decisively.

"I hope I may--I trust in Heaven I may!"

He spoke low, holding her hand distantly and reverently, not attempting
to kiss it, as in all his former farewells he had invariably done.

"Maud, remember me!  However or whenever I come back, dearest child, be
faithful, and remember me!"

Maud fled away with a sob of childish pain--partly anger, the mother
thought--and slightly apologized to the guest for her daughter's
"naughtiness."

Lord Ravenel sat silent for a long, long time.

Just when we thought he purposed leaving, he said, abruptly, "Mr.
Halifax, may I have five minutes' speech with you in the study?"

The five minutes extended to half an hour.  Mrs. Halifax wondered what
on earth they were talking about.  I held my peace.  At last the father
came in alone.

"John, is Lord Ravenel gone?"

"Not yet."

"What could he have wanted to say to you?"

John sat down by his wife, picked up the ball of her knitting, rolled
and unrolled it.  She saw at once that something had grieved and
perplexed him exceedingly.  Her heart shrunk back--that still sore
heart!--recoiled with a not unnatural fear.

"Oh, husband, is it any new misfortune?"

"No, love," cheering her with a smile; "nothing that fathers and
mothers in general would consider as such.  He has asked me for our
Maud."

"What for?" was the mother's first exceedingly simple question--and
then she guessed its answer.  "Impossible!  Ridiculous--absolutely
ridiculous!  She is only a child."

"Nevertheless, Lord Ravenel wishes to marry our little Maud!"

"Lord Ravenel wishes to marry our Maud!"

Mrs. Halifax repeated this to herself more than once before she was
able to entertain it as a reality.  When she did, the first impression
it made upon her mind was altogether pain.

"Oh, John!  I hoped we had done with these sort of things; I thought we
should have been left in peace with the rest of our children."

John smiled again; for, indeed, there was a comical side to her view of
the subject; but its serious phase soon returned; doubly so, when,
looking up, they both saw Lord Ravenel standing before them.  Firm his
attitude was, firmer than usual; and it was with something of his
father's stately air, mingled with a more chivalric and sincerer grace,
that he stooped forward and kissed the hand of Maud's mother.

"Mr. Halifax has told you all, I believe?"

"He has."

"May I then, with entire trust in you both, await my answer?"

He waited it, patiently enough, with little apparent doubt as to what
it would be.  Besides, it was only the prior question of parental
consent, not the vital point of Maud's preference.  And, with all his
natural humility, Lord Ravenel might be forgiven if, brought up in the
world, he was aware of his position therein--nor quite unconscious that
it was not merely William Ravenel, but the only son and heir of the
Earl of Luxmore, who came a-wooing.

Not till after a long pause, and even a whispered word or two between
the husband and wife, who knew each other's minds so well that no more
consultation was needed--did the suitor again, with a more formal air,
ask for an answer.

"It is difficult to give.  I find that my wife, like myself, had no
idea of your feelings.  The extreme suddenness--"

"Pardon me; my intention has not been sudden.  It is the growth of many
months--years, I might almost say."

"We are the more grieved."

"Grieved?"

Lord Ravenel's extreme surprise startled him from the mere suitor into
the lover; he glanced from one to the other in undisguised alarm.  John
hesitated:  the mother said something about the "great difference
between them."

"In age, do you mean?  I am aware of that," he answered, with some
sadness.  "But twenty years is not an insuperable bar in marriage."

"No," said Mrs. Halifax, thoughtfully.

"And for any other disparity--in fortune--or rank--"

"I think, Lord Ravenel,"--and the mother spoke with her "dignified"
air--"you know enough of my husband's character and opinions to be
assured how lightly he would hold such a disparity--if you allude to
that supposed to exist between the son of the Earl of Luxmore and the
daughter of John Halifax."

The young nobleman coloured, as if with ingenuous shame at what he had
been implying.  "I am glad of it.  Let me assure you there will be no
impediments on the side of my family.  The earl has long wished me to
marry.  He knows well enough that I can marry whom I please--and shall
marry for love only.  Give me your leave to win your little Maud."

A dead silence.

"Again pardon me," Lord Ravenel said with some hauteur; "I cannot have
clearly explained myself.  Let me repeat, Mr. Halifax, that I ask your
permission to win your daughter's affection, and, in due time, her
hand."

"I would that you had asked of me anything that it could be less
impossible to give you."

"Impossible!  What do you mean?--Mrs. Halifax--"  He turned
instinctively to the woman--the mother.

Ursula's eyes were full of a sad kindness--the kindness any mother must
feel towards one who worthily woos her daughter--but she replied
distinctly--

"I feel, with my husband, that such a marriage would be impossible."

Lord Ravenel grew scarlet--sat down--rose again, and stood facing them,
pale and haughty.

"If I may ask--your reasons?"

"Since you ask--certainly," John replied.  "Though, believe me, I give
them with the deepest pain.  Lord Ravenel, do you not yourself see that
our Maud--"

"Wait one moment," he interrupted.  "There is not, there cannot be, any
previous attachment?"

The supposition made the parents smile.  "Indeed, nothing of the kind:
she is a mere child."

"You think her too young for marriage, then?" was the eager answer. "Be
it so.  I will wait, though my youth, alas! is slipping from me; but I
will wait--two years, three--any time you choose to name."

John needed not to reply.  The very sorrow of his decision showed how
inevitable and irrevocable it was.

Lord Ravenel's pride rose against it.

"I fear in this my novel position I am somewhat slow of comprehension.
Would it be so great a misfortune to your daughter if I made her
Viscountess Ravenel, and in course of time Countess of Luxmore?"

"I believe it would.  Her mother and I would rather see our little Maud
lying beside her sister Muriel than see her Countess of Luxmore."

These words, hard as they were, John uttered so softly and with such
infinite grief and pain, that they struck the young man, not with
anger, but with an indefinite awe, as if a ghost from his youth--his
wasted youth--had risen up to point out that truth, and show him that
what seemed insult or vengeance was only a bitter necessity.

All he did was to repeat, in a subdued manner--"Your reasons?"

"Ah, Lord Ravenel!" John answered sadly, "do you not see yourself that
the distance between us and you is wide as the poles?  Not in worldly
things, but in things far deeper;--personal things, which strike at the
root of love, home--nay, honour."

Lord Ravenel started.  "Would you imply that anything in my past life,
aimless and useless as it may have been, is unworthy of my honour--the
honour of our house?"

Saying this he stopped--recoiled--as if suddenly made aware by the very
words himself had uttered, what--contrasted with the unsullied dignity
of the tradesman's life, the spotless innocence of the tradesman's
daughter--what a foul tattered rag, fit to be torn down by an honest
gust, was that flaunting emblazonment, the so-called "honour" of
Luxmore!

"I understand you now.  'The sins of the fathers shall be visited upon
the children,' as your Bible says--your Bible, that I had half begun to
believe in.  Be it so.  Mr. Halifax, I will detain you no longer."

John intercepted the young man's departure.

"No, you do NOT understand me.  I hold no man accountable for any
errors, any shortcomings, except his own."

"I am to conclude, then, that it is to myself you refuse your daughter?"

"It is."

Lord Ravenel once more bowed, with sarcastic emphasis.

"I entreat you not to mistake me," John continued, most earnestly. "I
know nothing of you that the world would condemn, much that it would
even admire; but your world is not our world, nor your aims our aims.
If I gave you my little Maud, it would confer on you no lasting
happiness, and it would be thrusting my child, my own flesh and blood,
to the brink of that whirlpool where, soon or late, every miserable
life must go down."

Lord Ravenel made no answer.  His new-born energy, his pride, his
sarcasm, had successively vanished; dead, passive melancholy resumed
its empire over him.  Mr. Halifax regarded him with mournful compassion.

"Oh, that I had foreseen this!  I would have placed the breadth of all
England between you and my child."

"Would you?"

"Understand me.  Not because you do not possess our warm interest, our
friendship:  both will always be yours.  But these are external ties,
which may exist through many differences.  In marriage there must be
perfect unity; one aim, one faith, one love, or the marriage is
incomplete, unholy--a mere civil contract and no more."

Lord Ravenel looked up amazed at this doctrine, then sat awhile
pondering drearily.

"Yes, you may be right," at last he said.  "Your Maud is not for me,
nor those like me.  Between us and you is that 'great gulf
fixed;'--what did the old fable say?  I forget.--Che sara sara!  I am
but as others:  I am but what I was born to be."

"Do you recognize what you were born to be?  Not only a nobleman, but a
gentleman; not only a gentleman, but a man--man, made in the image of
God.  How can you, how dare you, give the lie to your Creator?"

"What has He given me?  What have I to thank Him for?"

"First, manhood; the manhood His Son disdained not to wear; worldly
gifts, such as rank, riches, influence, things which others have to
spend half an existence in earning; life in its best prime, with much
of youth yet remaining--with grief endured, wisdom learnt, experience
won.  Would to Heaven, that by any poor word of mine I could make you
feel all that you are--all that you might be!"

A gleam, bright as a boy's hope, wild as a boy's daring, flashed from
those listless eyes--then faded.

"You mean, Mr. Halifax, what I might have been.  Now it is too late."

"There is no such word as 'too late,' in the wide world--nay, not in
the universe.  What! shall we, whose atom of time is but a fragment out
of an ever-present eternity--shall we, so long as we live, or even at
our life's ending, dare to cry out to the Eternal One, 'It is too
late!'"

As John spoke, in much more excitement than was usual to him, a sudden
flush or rather spasm of colour flushed his face, then faded away,
leaving him pallid to the very lips.  He sat down hastily, in his
frequent attitude, with the left arm passed across his breast.

"Lord Ravenel."  His voice was faint, as though speech was painful to
him.

The other looked up, the old look of reverent attention, which I
remembered in the boy-lord who came to see us at Norton Bury; in the
young "Anselmo," whose enthusiastic hero-worship had fixed itself, with
an almost unreasoning trust, on Muriel's father.

"Lord Ravenel, forgive anything I have said that may have hurt you. It
would grieve me inexpressibly if we did not part as friends."

"Part?"

"For a time, we must.  I dare not risk further either your happiness or
my child's."

"No, not hers.  Guard it.  I blame you not.  The lovely, innocent
child!  God forbid she should ever have a life like mine!"

He sat silent, his clasped hands listlessly dropping, his countenance
dreamy; yet, it seemed to me, less hopelessly sad:  then with a sudden
effort he rose.

"I must go now."

Crossing over to Mrs. Halifax, he thanked her, with much emotion, for
all her kindness.

"For your husband, I owe him more than kindness, as perhaps I may prove
some day.  If not, try to believe the best of me you can. Good-bye."

They both said good-bye, and bade God bless him; with scarcely less
tenderness than if things had ended as he desired, and, instead of this
farewell, sad and  indefinite beyond most farewells, they were giving
the parental welcome to a newly-chosen son.

Ere finally quitting us, Lord Ravenel turned back to speak to John once
more, hesitatingly and mournfully.

"If she--if the child should ask or wonder about my absence--she likes
me in her innocent way you know--you will tell her--What shall you tell
her?"

"Nothing.  It is best not."

"Ay, it is, it is."

He shook hands with us all three, without saying anything else;  then
the carriage rolled away, and we saw his face--that pale, gentle,
melancholy face--no more.

It was years and years before any one beyond ourselves knew what a near
escape our little Maud had had of becoming Viscountess Ravenel--future
Countess of Luxmore.



CHAPTER XXXVII

It was not many weeks after this departure of Lord Ravenel's--the pain
of which was almost forgotten in the comfort of Guy's first long home
letter, which came about this time--that John one morning, suddenly
dropping his newspaper, exclaimed:

"Lord Luxmore is dead."

Yes, he had returned to his dust, this old bad man; so old, that people
had begun to think he would never die.  He was gone; the man who, if we
owned an enemy in the world, had certainly proved himself that enemy.
Something peculiar is there in a decease like this--of one whom,
living, we have almost felt ourselves justified in condemning,
avoiding--perhaps hating.  Until Death, stepping in between, removes
him to another tribunal than this petty justice of ours, and laying a
solemn finger on our mouths, forbids us either to think or utter a word
of hatred against that which is now--what?--a disembodied spirit--a
handful of corrupting clay.

Lord Luxmore was dead.  He had gone to his account; it was not ours to
judge him.  We never knew--I believe no one except his son ever fully
knew--the history of his death-bed.

John sat in silence, the paper before him, long after we had passed the
news and discussed it, not without awe, all round the breakfast-table.

Maud stole up--hesitatingly, and asked to see the announcement of the
earl's decease.

"No, my child; but you shall hear it read aloud, if you choose."

I guessed the reason of his refusal; when, looking over him as he read,
I saw, after the long list of titles owned by the new Earl of Luxmore,
one bitter line; how it must have cut to the heart of him whom we first
heard of as "poor William!"

"HAD LIKEWISE ISSUE, CAROLINE, MARRIED IN 17--, TO RICHARD BRITHWOOD,
ESQUIRE, AFTERWARDS DIVORCED."

And by a curious coincidence, about twenty lines further down I read
among the fashionable marriages:

"AT THE BRITISH EMBASSY, PARIS, SIR GERARD VERMILYE, BART., TO THE
YOUTHFUL AND BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER OF--"

I forget who.  I only saw that the name was not her name, of whom the
"youthful and beautiful" bride had most likely never heard.  He had not
married Lady Caroline.

This morning's intelligence brought the Luxmore family so much to our
thoughts, that driving out after breakfast, John and I involuntarily
recurred to the subject.  Nay, talking on, in the solitude of our front
seat--for Mrs. Halifax, Miss Halifax, and Mrs. Edwin Halifax, in the
carriage behind, were deep in some other subject--we fell upon a topic
which by tacit consent had been laid aside, as in our household we held
it good to lay aside any inevitable regret.

"Poor Maud! how eager she was to hear the news to-day.  She little
thinks how vitally it might have concerned her."

"No," John answered thoughtfully; then asked me with some abruptness,
"Why did you say 'poor Maud'?"

I really could not tell; it was a mere accident, the unwitting
indication of some crotchets of mine, which had often come into my mind
lately.  Crotchets, perhaps peculiar to one, who, never having known a
certain possession, found himself rather prone to over-rate its value.
But it sometimes struck me as hard, considering how little honest and
sincere love there is in the world, that Maud should never have known
of Lord Ravenel's.

Possibly, against my will, my answer implied something of this; for
John was a long time silent.  Then he began to talk of various matters;
telling me of many improvements he was planning and executing, on his
property, and among his people.  In all his plans, and in the carrying
out of them, I noticed one peculiarity, strong in him throughout his
life, but latterly grown stronger than ever--namely, that whatever he
found to do, he did immediately. Procrastination had never been one of
his faults; now, he seemed to have a horror of putting anything off
even for a single hour. Nothing that could be done did he lay aside
until it was done; his business affairs were kept in perfect order,
each day's work being completed with the day.  And in the
thousand-and-one little things that were constantly arising, from his
position as magistrate and land-owner, and his general interest in the
movements of the time, the same system was invariably pursued.  In his
relations with the world outside, as in his own little valley, he
seemed determined to "work while it was day."  If he could possibly
avoid it, no application was ever unattended to; no duty left
unfinished; no good unacknowledged; no evil unremedied, or at least
unforgiven.

"John," I said, as to-day this peculiarity of his struck me more than
usual, "thou art certainly one of the faithful servants whom the Master
when He cometh will find watching."

"I hope so.  It ought to be thus with all men--but especially with me."

I imagined from his tone that he was thinking of his responsibility as
father, master, owner of large wealth.  How could I know--how could I
guess--beyond this!

"Do you think she looks pale, Phineas?" he asked suddenly.

"Who--your wife?"

"No--Maud.  My little Maud."

It was but lately that he called her "his" little Maud; since with that
extreme tenacity of attachment which was a part of his nature--refusing
to put any one love in another love's place--his second daughter had
never been to him like the first.  Now, however, I had noticed that he
took Maud nearer to his heart, made her more often his companion,
watching her with a sedulous tenderness--it was easy to guess why.

"She may have looked a little paler of late, a little more thoughtful.
But I am sure she is not unhappy."

"I believe not--thank God!"

"Surely," I said anxiously, "you have never repented what you did about
Lord Ravenel?"

"No--not once.  It cost me so much, that I know it was right to be
done."

"But if things had been otherwise--if you had not been so sure of
Maud's feelings--"

He started, painfully; then answered--"I think I should have done it
still."

I was silent.  The paramount right, the high prerogative of love, which
he held as strongly as I did, seemed attacked in its liberty divine.
For the moment, it was as if he too had in his middle-age gone over to
the cold-blooded ranks of harsh parental prudence, despotic paternal
rule; as if Ursula March's lover and Maud's father were two distinct
beings.  One finds it so, often enough, with men.

"John," I said, "could you have done it? could you have broken the
child's heart?"

"Yes, if it was to save her peace, perhaps her soul, I could have
broken my child's heart."

He spoke solemnly, with an accent of inexpressible pain, as if this
were not the first time by many that he had pondered over such a
possibility.

"I wish, Phineas, to make clear to you, in case of--of any future
misconceptions--my mind on this matter.  One right alone I hold
superior to the right of love,--duty.  It is a father's duty, at all
risks, at all costs, to save his child from anything which he believes
would peril her duty--so long as she is too young to understand fully
how beyond the claim of any human being, be it father or lover, is
God's claim to herself and her immortal soul. Anything which would
endanger that should be cut off--though it be the right hand--the right
eye.  But, thank God, it was not thus with my little Maud."

"Nor with him either.  He bore his disappointment well."

"Nobly.  It may make a true nobleman of him yet.  But, being what he
is, and for as long as he remains so, he must not be trusted with my
little Maud.  I must take care of her while I live:  afterwards--"

His smile faded, or rather was transmuted into that grave
thoughtfulness which I had lately noticed in him, when, as now, he fell
into one of his long silences.  There was nothing sad about it; rather
a serenity which reminded me of that sweet look of his boyhood, which
had vanished during the manifold cares of his middle life.  The
expression of the mouth, as I saw it in profile--close and calm--almost
inclined me to go back to the fanciful follies of our youth, and call
him "David."

We drove through Norton Bury, and left Mrs. Edwin there.  Then on,
along the familiar road, towards the manor-house; past the white gate,
within sight of little Longfield.

"It looks just the same--the tenant takes good care of it."  And John's
eyes turned fondly to his old home.

"Ay, just the same.  Do you know your wife was saying to me this
morning, that when Guy comes back, when all the young folk are married,
and you retire from business and settle into the otium cum dignitate,
the learned leisure you used to plan--she would like to give up
Beechwood.  She said, she hopes you and she will end your days together
at little Longfield."

"Did she?  Yes, I know that has been always her dream."

"Scarcely a dream, or one that is not unlikely to be fulfilled.  I like
to fancy you both two old people, sitting on either side the fire--or
on the same side if you like it best; very cheerful--you will make such
a merry old man, John, with all your children round you, and indefinite
grandchildren about the house continually.  Or else you two will sit
alone together, just as in your early married days--you and your old
wife--the dearest and handsomest old lady that ever was seen."

"Phineas--don't--don't."  I was startled by the tone in which he
answered the lightness of mine.  "I mean--don't be planning out the
future.  It is foolish--it is almost wrong.  God's will is not as our
will; and He knows best."

I would have spoken; but just then we reached the manor-house gate, and
plunged at once into present life, and into the hospitable circle of
the Oldtowers.

They were all in the excitement of a wonderful piece of gossip; gossip
so strange, sudden, and unprecedented, that it absorbed all lesser
matters.  It burst out before we had been in the house five minutes.

"Have you heard this extraordinary report about the Luxmore family?"

I could see Maud turn with eager attention--fixing her eyes wistfully
on Lady Oldtower.

"About the earl's death.  Yes, we saw it in the newspaper."  And John
passed on to some other point of conversation.  In vain.

"This news relates to the present earl.  I never heard of such a
thing--never.  In fact, if true, his conduct is something which in its
self-denial approaches absolute insanity.  Is it possible that, being
so great a friend of your family, he has not informed you of the
circumstances?"

These circumstances, with some patience, we extracted from the voluble
Lady Oldtower.  She had learnt them--I forget how:  but news never
wants a tongue to carry it.

It seemed that on the earl's death it was discovered, what had already
been long suspected, that his liabilities, like his extravagances, were
enormous.  That he was obliged to live abroad to escape in some degree
the clamorous haunting of the hundreds he had ruined:  poor
tradespeople, who knew that their only chance of payment was during the
old man's life-time, for his whole property was entailed on the son.

Whether Lord Ravenel had ever been acquainted with the state of things,
or whether, being in ignorance of it, his own style of living had in
degree imitated his father's, rumour did not say, nor indeed was it of
much consequence.  The facts subsequently becoming known immediately
after Lord Luxmore's death, made all former conjectures unnecessary.

Not a week before he died, the late earl and his son--chiefly it was
believed on the latter's instigation--had cut off the entail, thereby
making the whole property saleable, and available for the payment of
creditors.  Thus by his own act, and--as some one had told somebody
that somebody else had heard Lord Ravenel say:  "for the honour of the
family," the present earl had succeeded to an empty title, and--beggary.

"Or," Lady Oldtower added, "what to a man of rank will be the same as
beggary--a paltry two hundred a year or so--which he has reserved, they
say, just to keep him from destitution.  Ah--here comes Mr. Jessop; I
thought he would.  He can tell us all about it."

Old Mr. Jessop was as much excited as any one present.

"Ay--it's all true--only too true, Mr. Halifax.  He was at my house
last night."

"Last night!"  I do not think anybody caught the child's exclamation
but me; I could not help watching little Maud, noticing what strong
emotion, still perfectly child-like and unguarded in its demonstration,
was shaking her innocent bosom, and overflowing at her eyes.  However,
as she sat still in the corner, nobody observed her.

"Yes, he slept at my house--Lord Ravenel, the Earl of Luxmore, I mean.
Much good will his title do him!  My head clerk is better off than he.
He has stripped himself of every penny, except--bless me, I forgot; Mr.
Halifax, he gave me a letter for you."

John walked to the window to read it; but having read it, passed it
openly round the circle; as indeed was best.

  "MY DEAR FRIEND,
     "You will have heard that my father is no more."


("He used always to say 'the earl,'" whispered Maud, as she looked over
my shoulder.)


"I write this merely to say, what I feel sure you will already
have believed--that anything which you may learn concerning his
affairs, I was myself unaware of, except in a very slight degree, when
I last visited Beechwood.

"Will you likewise believe that in all I have done, or intend
doing, your interests as my tenant--which I hope you will remain--have
been, and shall be, sedulously guarded?

"My grateful remembrance to all your household.
                           "Faithfully yours and theirs,
                                             "LUXMORE."


"Give me back the letter, Maud my child."

She had been taking possession of it, as in right of being his "pet"
she generally did of all Lord Ravenel's letters.  But now, without a
word of objection, she surrendered it to her father.

"What does he mean, Mr. Jessop, about my interests as his tenant?"

"Bless me--I am so grieved about the matter that everything goes astray
in my head.  He wished me to explain to you that he has reserved one
portion of the Luxmore property intact--Enderley Mills. The rent you
pay will, he says, be a sufficient income for him; and then while your
lease lasts no other landlord can injure you.  Very thoughtful of
him--very thoughtful indeed, Mr. Halifax."

John made no answer.

"I never saw a man so altered.  He went over some matters with
me--private charities, in which I have been his agent, you know--grave,
clear-headed, business-like; my clerk himself could not have done
better.  Afterwards we sat and talked, and I tried--foolishly enough,
when the thing was done!--to show him what a frantic act it was both
towards himself and his heirs.  But he could not see it.  He said
cutting off the entail would harm nobody--for that he did not intend
ever to marry.  Poor fellow!"

"Is he with you still?" John asked in a low tone.

"No; he left this morning for Paris; his father is to be buried there.
Afterwards, he said, his movements were quite uncertain.  He bade me
good-bye--I--I didn't like it, I can assure you."

And the old man, blowing his nose with his yellow pocket-handkerchief,
and twitching his features into all manner of shapes, seemed determined
to put aside the melancholy subject, and dilated on the earl and his
affairs no more.

Nor did any one.  Something in this young nobleman's noble act--it has
since been not without a parallel among our aristocracy--silenced the
tongue of gossip itself.  The deed was so new--so unlike anything that
had been conceived possible, especially in a man like Lord Ravenel, who
had always borne the character of a harmless, idle misanthropic
nonentity--that society was really nonplussed concerning it.  Of the
many loquacious visitors who came that morning to pour upon Lady
Oldtower all the curiosity of Coltham--fashionable Coltham, famous for
all the scandal of haut ton--there was none who did not speak of Lord
Luxmore and his affairs with an uncomfortable, wondering awe.  Some
suggested he was going mad--others, raking up stories current of his
early youth, thought he had turned Catholic again, and was about to
enter a monastery.  One or two honest hearts protested that he was a
noble fellow, and it was a pity he had determined to be the last of the
Luxmores.

For ourselves--Mr. and Mrs. Halifax, Maud and I--we never spoke to one
another on the subject all the morning.  Not until after luncheon, when
John and I had somehow stolen out of the way of the visitors, and were
walking to and fro in the garden.  The sunny fruit garden--ancient,
Dutch, and square--with its barricade of a high hedge, a stone wall,
and between it and the house a shining fence of great laurel trees.

Maud appeared suddenly before us from among these laurels, breathless.

"I got away after you, father.  I--I wanted to find some
strawberries--and--I wanted to speak to you."

"Speak on, little lady."

He linked her arm in his, and she paced between us up and down the
broad walk--but without diverging to the strawberry-beds.  She was
grave, and paler than ordinary.  Her father asked if she were tired?

"No, but my head aches.  Those Coltham people do talk so.  Father, I
want you to explain to me, for I can't well understand all this that
they have been saying about Lord Ravenel."

John explained, as simply and briefly as he could.

"I understand.  Then, though he is Earl of Luxmore, he is quite
poor--poorer than any of us?  And he has made himself poor in order to
pay his own and his father's debts, and keep other people from
suffering from any fault of his?  Is it so?"

"Yes, my child."

"Is it not a very noble act, father?"

"Very noble."

"I think it is the noblest act I ever heard of.  I should like to tell
him so.  When is he coming to Beechwood?"

Maud spoke quickly, with flushed cheeks, in the impetuous manner she
inherited from her mother.  Her question not being immediately
answered, she repeated it still more eagerly.

Her father replied--"I do not know."

"How very strange!  I thought he would come at once--to-night,
probably."

I reminded her that Lord Ravenel had left for Paris, bidding goodbye to
Mr. Jessop.

"He ought to have come to us instead of to Mr. Jessop.  Write and tell
him so, father.  Tell him how glad we shall be to see him.  And perhaps
you can help him:  you who help everybody.  He always said you were his
best friend."

"Did he?"

"Ah now, do write, father dear--I am sure you will."

John looked down on the little maid who hung on his arm so
persuasively, then looked sorrowfully away.

"My child--I cannot."

"What, not write to him?  When he is poor and in trouble?  That is not
like you, father," and Maud half-loosed her arm.

Her father quietly put the little rebellious hand back again to its
place.  He was evidently debating within himself whether he should tell
her the whole truth, or how much of it.  Not that the debate was new,
for he must already have foreseen this possible, nay, certain,
conjuncture.  Especially as all his dealings with his family had
hitherto been open as daylight.  He held that to prevaricate, or
wilfully to give the impression of a falsehood, is almost as mean as a
direct lie.  When anything occurred that he could not tell his
children, he always said plainly, "I cannot tell you," and they asked
no more.

I wondered exceedingly how he would deal with Maud.

She walked with him, submissive yet not satisfied, glancing at him from
time to time, waiting for him to speak.  At last she could wait no
longer.

"I am sure there is something wrong.  You do not care for Lord Ravenel
as much as you used to do."

"More, if possible."

"Then write to him.  Say, we want to see him--I want to see him.  Ask
him to come and stay a long while at Beechwood."

"I cannot, Maud.  It would be impossible for him to come.  I do not
think he is likely to visit Beechwood for some time."

"How long?  Six months?  A year, perhaps?"

"It may be several years."

"Then, I was right.  Something HAS happened; you are not friends with
him any longer.  And he is poor--in trouble--oh, father!"

She snatched her hand away, and flashed upon him reproachful eyes. John
took her gently by the arm, and made her sit down upon the wall of a
little stone bridge, under which the moat slipped with a quiet murmur.
Maud's tears dropped into it fast and free.

That very outburst, brief and thundery as a child's passion, gave
consolation both to her father and me.  When it lessened, John spoke.

"Now has my little Maud ceased to be angry with her father?"

"I did not mean to be angry--only I was so startled--so grieved. Tell
me what has happened, please, father?"

"I will tell you--so far as I can.  Lord Ravenel and myself had some
conversation, of a very painful kind, the last night he was with us.
After it, we both considered it advisable he should not visit us again
for the present."

"Why not?  Had you quarrelled? or if you had, I thought my father was
always the first to forgive everybody."

"No, Maud, we had not quarrelled."

"Then, what was it?"

"My child, you must not ask, for indeed I cannot tell you."

Maud sprang up--the rebellious spirit flashing out again.  "Not tell
me--me, his pet--me, that cared for him more than any of you did.  I
think you ought to tell me, father."

"You must allow me to decide that, if you please."

After this answer Maud paused, and said humbly, "Does any one else
know?"

"Your mother, and your uncle Phineas, who happened to be present at the
time.  No one else:  and no one else shall know."

John spoke with that slight quivering and blueness of the lips which
any mental excitement usually produced in him.  He sat down by his
daughter's side and took her hand.

"I knew this would grieve you, and I kept it from you as long as I
could.  Now you must only be patient, and like a good child trust your
father."

Something in his manner quieted her.  She only sighed and said, "she
could not understand it."

"Neither can I--often times, my poor little Maud.  There are so many
sad things in life that we have to take upon trust, and bear, and be
patient with--yet never understand.  I suppose we shall some day."

His eyes wandered upward to the wide-arched blue sky, which in its calm
beauty makes us fancy that Paradise is there, even though we know that
"THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN IS WITHIN US," and that the kingdom of spirits
may be around us and about us everywhere.

Maud looked at her father, and crept closer to him--into his arms.

"I did not mean to be naughty.  I will try not to mind losing him. But
I liked Lord Ravenel so much--and he was so fond of me."

"Child"--and her father himself could not help smiling at the
simplicity of her speech--"it is often easiest to lose those we are
fond of and who are fond of us, because, in one sense, we never can
really lose them.  Nothing in this world, nor, I believe, in any other,
can part those who truly and faithfully love."

I think he was hardly aware how much he was implying, at least not in
its relation to her, else he would not have said it.  And he would
surely have noticed, as I did, that the word "love," which had not been
mentioned before--it was "liking," "fond of," "care for," or some such
round-about, childish phrase--the word "love" made Maud start.  She
darted from one to the other of us a keen glance of inquiry, and then
turned the colour of a July rose.

Her attitude, her blushes, the shy tremble about her mouth, reminded me
vividly, too vividly, of her mother twenty-eight years ago.

Alarmed, I tried to hasten the end of our conversation, lest,
voluntarily or involuntarily, it might produce the very results which,
though they might not have altered John's determination, would almost
have broken his heart.

So, begging her to "kiss and make friends," which Maud did, timidly,
and without attempting further questions, I hurried the father and
daughter into the house; deferring for mature consideration, the
question whether or not I should trouble John with any too-anxious
doubts of mine concerning her.

As we drove back through Norton Bury, I saw that while her mother and
Lady Oldtower conversed, Maud sat opposite rather more silent than her
wont; but when the ladies dismounted for shopping, she was again the
lively independent Miss Halifax,

               "Standing with reluctant feet,
      Where womanhood and childhood meet;"

and assuming at once the prerogatives and immunities of both.

Her girlish ladyship at last got tired of silks and ribbons, and stood
with me at the shop-door, amusing herself with commenting on the
passers-by.

These were not so plentiful as I once remembered, though still the old
town wore its old face--appearing fairer than ever, as I myself grew
older.  The same Coltham coach stopped at the Lamb Inn, and the same
group of idle loungers took an interest in its disemboguing of its
contents.  But railways had done an ill turn to the coach and to poor
Norton Bury:  where there used to be six inside passengers, to-day was
turned out only one.

"What a queer-looking little woman!  Uncle Phineas, people shouldn't
dress so fine as that when they are old."

Maud's criticism was scarcely unjust.  The light-coloured flimsy gown,
shorter than even Coltham fashionables would have esteemed decent, the
fluttering bonnet, the abundance of flaunting curls--no wonder that the
stranger attracted considerable notice in quiet Norton Bury.  As she
tripped mincingly along, in her silk stockings and light shoes, a
smothered jeer arose.

"People should not laugh at an old woman, however conceited she may
be," said Maud, indignantly.

"Is she old?"

"Just look."

And surely when, as she turned from side to side, I caught her full
face--what a face it was! withered, thin, sallow almost to deathliness,
with a bright rouge-spot on each cheek, a broad smile on the ghastly
mouth.

"Is she crazy, Uncle Phineas?"

"Possibly.  Do not look at her."  For I was sure this must be the wreck
of such a life as womanhood does sometimes sink to--a life, the mere
knowledge of which had never yet entered our Maud's pure world.

She seemed surprised, but obeyed me and went in.  I stood at the
shop-door, watching the increasing crowd, and pitying, with that pity
mixed with shame that every honest man must feel towards a degraded
woman, the wretched object of their jeers.  Half-frightened, she still
kept up that set smile, skipping daintily from side to side of the
pavement, darting at and peering into every carriage that passed.
Miserable creature as she looked, there was a certain grace and ease in
her movements, as if she had fallen from some far higher estate.

At that moment, the Mythe carriage, with Mr. Brithwood in it, dozing
his daily drive away, his gouty foot propped up before him--slowly
lumbered up the street.  The woman made a dart at it, but was held back.

"Canaille!  I always hated your Norton Bury!  Call my carriage.  I will
go home."

Through its coarse discordance, its insane rage, I thought I knew the
voice.  Especially when, assuming a tone of command, she addressed the
old coachman:

"Draw up, Peter; you are very late.  People, give way!  Don't you see
my carriage?"

There was a roar of laughter, so loud that even Mr. Brithwood opened
his dull, drunken eyes and stared about him.

"Canaille!"--the scream was more of terror than anger, as she almost
flung herself under the horses' heads in her eagerness to escape from
the mob.  "Let me go!  My carriage is waiting.  I am Lady Caroline
Brithwood!"

The 'squire heard her.  For a single instant they gazed at one
another--besotted husband, dishonoured, divorced wife--gazed with
horror and fear, as two sinners who had been each other's undoing,
might meet in the poetic torments of Dante's "Inferno," or the tangible
fire and brimstone of many a blind but honest Christian's hell.  One
single instant,--and then Richard Brithwood made up his mind.

"Coachman, drive on!"

But the man--he was an old man--seemed to hesitate at urging his horses
right over "my lady."  He even looked down on her with a sort of
compassion--I remembered having heard say that she was always kind and
affable to her servants.

"Drive on, you fool!  Here"--and Mr. Brithwood threw some coin amongst
the mob--"Fetch the constable--some of you; take the woman to the
watch-house!"

And the carriage rolled on, leaving her there, crouched on the
kerbstone, gazing after it with something between a laugh and a moan.

Nobody touched her.  Perhaps some had heard of her; a few might even
have seen her--driving through Norton Bury in her pristine state, as
the young 'squire's handsome wife--the charming Lady Caroline.

I was so absorbed in the sickening sight, that I did not perceive how
John and Ursula, standing behind me, had seen it likewise--evidently
seen and understood it all.

"What is to be done?" she whispered to him.

"What ought we to do?"

Here Maud came running out to see what was amiss in the street.

"Go in, child," said Mrs. Halifax, sharply.  "Stay till I fetch you."

Lady Oldtower also advanced to the door; but catching some notion of
what the disturbance was, shocked and scandalised, retired into the
shop again.

John looked earnestly at his wife, but for once she did not or would
not understand his meaning; she drew back uneasily.

"What must be done?--I mean, what do you want me to do?"

"What only a woman can do--a woman like you, and in your position."

"Yes, if it were only myself.  But think of the household--think of
Maud.  People will talk so.  It is hard to know how to act."

"Nay; how did One act--how would He act now, if He stood in the street
this day?  If we take care of aught of His, will He not take care of us
and of our children?"

Mrs. Halifax paused, thought a moment, hesitated--yielded.

"John, you are right; you are always right.  I will do anything you
please."

And then I saw, through the astonished crowd, in face of scores of
window-gazers, all of whom knew them, and a great number of whom they
also knew, Mr. Halifax and his wife walk up to where the miserable
woman lay.

John touched her lightly on the shoulder--she screamed and cowered down.

"Are you the constable?  He said he would send the constable."

"Hush--do not be afraid.  Cousin--Cousin Caroline."

God knows how long it was since any woman had spoken to her in that
tone.  It seemed to startle back her shattered wits.  She rose to her
feet, smiling airily.

"Madam, you are very kind.  I believe I have had the pleasure of seeing
you somewhere.  Your name is--"

"Ursula Halifax.  Do you remember?"--speaking gently as she would have
done to a child.

Lady Caroline bowed--a ghastly mockery of her former sprightly grace.
"Not exactly; but I dare say I shall presently--au revoir, madame!"

She was going away, kissing her hand--that yellow, wrinkled, old
woman's hand,--but John stopped her.

"My wife wants to speak to you, Lady Caroline.  She wishes you to come
home with us."

"Plait il?--oh yes; I understand.  I shall be happy--most happy."

John offered her his arm with an air of grave deference; Mrs. Halifax
supported her on the other side.  Without more ado, they put her in the
carriage and drove home, leaving Maud in my charge, and leaving
astounded Norton Bury to think and say exactly what it pleased.



CHAPTER XXXVIII

For nearly three years Lady Caroline lived in our house--if that
miserable existence of hers could be called living--bedridden, fallen
into second childhood:

     "Pleased with a rattle, tickled with a straw;"

oblivious to both past and present, recognising none of us, and taking
no notice of anybody, except now and then of Edwin's little daughter,
baby Louise.

We knew that all our neighbours talked us over, making far more than a
nine days' wonder of the "very extraordinary conduct" of Mr. and Mrs.
Halifax.  That even good Lady Oldtower hesitated a little before she
suffered her tribe of fair daughters to visit under the same roof where
lay, quite out of the way, that poor wreck of womanhood, which would
hardly have tainted any woman now.  But in process of time the gossip
ceased of itself; and when, one summer day, a small decent funeral
moved out of our garden gate to Enderley churchyard, all the comment
was:

"Oh! is she dead?--What a relief it must be!  How very kind of Mr. and
Mrs. Halifax!"

Yes, she was dead, and had "made no sign," either of repentance, grief,
or gratitude.  Unless one could consider as such a moment's lightening
before death, which Maud declared she saw in her--Maud, who had tended
her with a devotedness which neither father nor mother forbade,
believing that a woman cannot too soon learn womanhood's best
"mission"--usefulness, tenderness, and charity.  Miss Halifax was
certain that a few minutes before the last minute, she saw a gleam of
sense in the filmy eyes, and stooping down, had caught some feeble
murmur about "William--poor William!"

She did not tell me this; she spoke of it to no one but her mother, and
to her briefly.  So the wretched life, once beautiful and loveful, was
now ended, or perhaps born in some new sphere to begin again its
struggle after the highest beauty, the only perfect love. What are we
that we should place limits to the infinite mercy of the Lord and Giver
of Life, unto whom all life returns?

We buried her and left her--poor Lady Caroline!

No one interfered with us, and we appealed to no one.  In truth, there
was no one unto whom we could appeal.  Lord Luxmore, immediately after
his father's funeral, had disappeared, whither, no one knew except his
solicitor; who treated with and entirely satisfied the host of
creditors, and into whose hands the sole debtor, John Halifax, paid his
yearly rent.  Therewith, he wrote several times to Lord Luxmore; but
the letters were simply acknowledged through the lawyer:  never
answered.  Whether in any of them John alluded to Lady Caroline I do
not know; but I rather think not, as it would have served no purpose
and only inflicted pain.  No doubt, her brother had long since believed
her dead, as we and the world had done.

In that same world one man, even a nobleman, is of little account. Lord
Ravenel sank in its wide waste of waters, and they closed over him.
Whether he were drowned or saved was of small moment to any one.  He
was soon forgotten--everywhere except at Beechwood; and sometimes it
seemed as if he were even forgotten there.  Save that in our family we
found it hard to learn this easy, convenient habit--to forget.

Hard, though seven years had passed since we saw Guy's merry face, to
avoid missing it keenly still.  The mother, as her years crept on,
oftentimes wearied for him with a yearning that could not be told. The
father, as Edwin became engrossed in his own affairs, and Walter's
undecided temperament kept him a boy long after boyhood, often seemed
to look round vaguely for an eldest son's young strength to lean upon,
often said anxiously, "I wish Guy were at home."

Yet still there was no hint of his coming; better he never came at all
than came against his will, or came to meet the least pain, the shadow
of disgrace.  And he was contented and prosperous in the western world,
leading an active and useful life, earning an honourable name.  He had
taken a partner, he told us; there was real friendship between them,
and they were doing well; perhaps might make, in a few years, one of
those rapid fortunes which clever men of business do make in America,
and did especially at that time.

He was also eager and earnest upon other and higher cares than mere
business; entered warmly into his father's sympathy about many
political measures now occupying men's minds.  A great number of
comparative facts concerning the factory children in England and
America; a mass of evidence used by Mr. Fowell Buxton in his arguments
for the abolition of slavery; and many other things, originated in the
impulsive activity, now settled into mature manly energy, of Mr. Guy
Halifax, of Boston, U.S.--"our Guy."

"The lad is making a stir in the world," said his father one day, when
we had read his last letter.  "I shall not wonder if when he comes home
a deputation from his native Norton Bury were to appear, requesting him
to accept the honour of representing them in Parliament.  He would suit
them--at least, as regards the canvassing and the ladies--a great deal
better than his old father--eh, love?"

Mrs. Halifax smiled, rather unwillingly, for her husband referred to a
subject which had cost her some pain at the time.  After the Reform
Bill passed, many of our neighbours, who had long desired that one of
John's high character, practical knowledge, and influence in the town,
should be its M.P., and were aware that his sole objection to entering
the House was the said question of Reform, urged him very earnestly to
stand for Norton Bury.

To everybody's surprise, and none more than our own, he refused.

Publicly he assigned no reason for this except his conviction that he
could not discharge as he ought, and as he would once have done, duties
which he held so sacred and indispensable.  His letter, brief and
simple, thanking his "good neighbours," and wishing them "a younger and
worthier" member, might be found in some old file of the Norton Bury
Herald still.  Even the Norton Bury Mercury, in reprinting it,
commented on its touching honesty and brevity, and--concluding his
political career was ended with it--condescended to bestow on Mr.
Halifax the usual obituary line--

     "We could have better spared a better man."

When his family, and even his wife, reasoned with him, knowing that to
enter Parliament had long been his thought, nay, his desire, and
perhaps herself taking a natural pride in the idea of seeing M.P.--M.P.
of a new and unbribed House of Commons--after his well-beloved name; to
us and to her he gave no clearer motive for his refusal than to the
electors of Norton Bury.

"But you are not old, John," I argued with him one day; "you possess to
the full the mens sana in corpore sano.  No man can be more fitted than
yourself to serve his country, as you used to say it might be served,
and you yourself might serve it, after Reform was gained."

He smiled, and jocularly thanked me for my good opinion.

"Nay, such service is almost your duty; you yourself once thought so
too.  Why have you changed your mind?"

"I have not changed my mind, but circumstances have changed my actions.
As for duty--duty begins at home.  Believe me, I have thought well over
the subject.  Brother, we will not refer to it again."

I saw that something in the matter pained him, and obeyed his wish.
Even when, a few days after, perhaps as some compensation for the
mother's disappointment, he gave this hint of Guy's taking his place
and entering Parliament in his room.

For any one--nay, his own son--to take John's place, to stand in John's
room, was not a pleasant thought, even in jest; we let it pass by
unanswered, and John himself did not recur to it.

Thus time went on, placidly enough; the father and mother changed into
grandfather and grandmother, and little Maud into Auntie Maud. She bore
her new honours and fulfilled her new duties with great delight and
success.  She had altered much of late years:  at twenty was as old as
many a woman of thirty--in all the advantages of age. She was sensible,
active, resolute, and wise; sometimes thoughtful, or troubled with fits
of what in any less wholesome temperament would have been melancholy;
but as it was, her humours only betrayed themselves in some slight
restlessness or irritability, easily soothed by a few tender words or a
rush out to Edwin's, and a peaceful coming back to that happy home,
whose principal happiness she knew that she, the only daughter, made.

She more than once had unexceptionable chances of quitting it; for Miss
Halifax possessed plenty of attractions, both outwardly and inwardly,
to say nothing of her not inconsiderable fortune.  But she refused all
offers, and to the best of our knowledge was a free-hearted damsel
still.  Her father and mother seemed rather glad of this than
otherwise.  They would not have denied her any happiness she wished
for; still it was evidently a relief to them that she was slow in
choosing it; slow in quitting their arms of love to risk a love
untried.  Sometimes, such is the weakness of parental humanity, I
verily believe they looked forward with complacency to the possibility
of her remaining always Miss Halifax.  I remember one day, when Lady
Oldtower was suggesting--half jest, half earnest--"better any marriage
than no marriage at all;" Maud's father replied, very seriously--

"Better no marriage, than any marriage that is less than the best."

"How do you mean?"

"I believe," he said, smiling, "that somewhere in the world every man
has his right wife, every woman her right husband.  If my Maud's come
he shall have her.  If not, I shall be well content to see her a happy
old maid."

Thus after many storms, came this lull in our lives; a season of busy
yet monotonous calm,--I have heard say that peace itself, to be
perfect, ought to be monotonous.  We had enough of it to satisfy our
daily need; we looked forward to more of it in time to come, when Guy
should be at home, when we should see safely secured the futures of all
the children, and for ourselves a green old age,

     "Journeying in long serenity away."

A time of heavenly calm--which as I look back upon it grows heavenlier
still!  Soft summer days and autumn afternoons, spent under the
beech-wood, or on the Flat.  Quiet winter evenings, all to
ourselves--Maud and her mother working, Walter drawing.  The father
sitting with his back to the lamp--its light making a radiance over his
brow and white bald crown, and as it thrilled through the curls behind,
restoring somewhat of the youthful colour to his fading hair. Nay, the
old youthful ring of his voice I caught at times, when he found
something funny in his book and read it out loud to us; or laying it
down, sat talking as he liked to talk about things speculative,
philosophical, or poetical--things which he had necessarily let slip in
the hurry and press of his business life, in the burthen and heat of
the day; but which now, as the cool shadows of evening were drawing on,
assumed a beauty and a nearness, and were again caught up by
him--precious as the dreams of his youth.

Happy, happy time--sunshiny summer, peaceful winter--we marked neither
as they passed; but now we hold both--in a sacredness inexpressible--a
foretaste of that Land where there is neither summer nor winter,
neither days nor years.

The first break in our repose came early in the new year.  There had
been no Christmas letter from Guy, and he never once in all his
wanderings had missed writing home at Christmas time.  When the usual
monthly mail came in, and no word from him--a second month, and yet
nothing, we began to wonder about his omission less openly--to cease
scolding him for his carelessness.  Though over and over again we still
eagerly brought up instances of the latter--"Guy is such a thoughtless
boy about his correspondence."

Gradually, as his mother's cheek grew paler, and his father more
anxious-eyed, more compulsorily cheerful, we gave up discussing
publicly the many excellent reasons why no letters should come from
Guy.  We had written, as usual, by every mail.  By the last--by the
March mail, I saw that in addition to the usual packet for Mr. Guy
Halifax--his father, taking another precautionary measure, had written
in business form to "Messrs. Guy Halifax and Co."  Guy had always,
"just like his carelessness!" omitted to give the name of his partner;
but addressed thus, in case of any sudden journey or illness of Guy's,
the partner, whoever he was, would be sure to write.

In May--nay, it was on May day, I remember, for we were down in the
mill-meadows with Louise and her little ones going a-maying--there came
in the American mail.

It brought a large packet--all our letters of this year sent back
again, directed in a strange hand, to "John Halifax, Esquire,
Beechwood," with the annotation, "By Mr. Guy Halifax's desire."

Among the rest--though the sickening sight of them had blinded even his
mother at first, so that her eye did not catch it, was one that
explained--most satisfactorily explained, we said--the reason they were
thus returned.  It was a few lines from Guy himself, stating that
unexpected good fortune had made him determine to come home at once.
If circumstances thwarted this intention, he would write without fail;
otherwise he should most likely sail by an American merchantman--the
"Stars-and-Stripes."

"Then he is coming home.  On his way home!"

And the mother, as with one shaking hand she held fast the letter, with
the other steadied herself by the rail of John's desk--I guessed now
why he had ordered all the letters to be brought first to his
counting-house.  "When do you think we shall see--Guy?"

At thought of that happy sight, her bravery broke down.  She wept
heartily and long.

John sat still, leaning over the front of his desk.  By his sigh, deep
and glad, one could tell what a load was lifted off the father's heart
at the prospect of his son's return.

"The liners are only a month in sailing; but this is a barque most
likely, which takes longer time.  Love, show me the date of the boy's
letter."

She looked for it herself.  It was in JANUARY!

The sudden fall from certainty to uncertainty--the wild clutch at that
which hardly seemed a real joy until seen fading down to a mere hope, a
chance, a possibility--who has not known all this?

I remember how we all stood, mute and panic-struck, in the dark little
counting-house.  I remember seeing Louise, with her children in the
door-way, trying to hush their laughing, and whispering to them
something about "poor Uncle Guy."

John was the first to grasp the unspoken dread, and show that it was
less than at first appeared.

"We ought to have had this letter two months ago; this shows how often
delays occur--we ought not to be surprised or uneasy at anything.  Guy
does not say when the ship was to sail--she may be on her voyage still.
If he had but given the name of her owners!  But I can write to Lloyd's
and find out everything.  Cheer up, mother. Please God, you shall have
that wandering, heedless boy of yours back before long."

He replaced the letters in their enclosure--held a general
consultation, into which he threw a passing gleam of faint gaiety, as
to whether being ours we had a right to burn them, or whether having
passed through the post-office they were not the writer's but the
owner's property, and Guy could claim them, with all their useless
news, on his arrival in England.  This was finally decided, and the
mother, with faint smile, declared that nobody should touch them; she
would put them under lock and key "till Guy came home."

Then she took her husband's arm; and the rest of us followed them as
they walked slowly up the hill to Beechwood.

But after that day Mrs. Halifax's strength decayed.  Not suddenly,
scarcely perceptibly; not with any outward complaint, except what she
jested over as "the natural weakness of old age;" but there was an
evident change.  Week by week her long walks shortened; she gave up her
village school to me; and though she went about the house still and
insisted on keeping the keys, gradually, "just for the sake of
practice," the domestic surveillance fell into the hands of Maud.

An answer arrived from Lloyd's:  the "Stars-and-Stripes" was an
American vessel, probably of small tonnage and importance, was the
under-writers knew nothing of it.

More delay--more suspense.  The summer days came--but not Guy.  No news
of him--not a word--not a line.

His father wrote to America--pursuing inquiries in all directions. At
last some tangible clue was caught.  The "Stars-and-Stripes" had
sailed, had been spoken with about the Windward Isles--and never heard
of afterwards.

Still, there was a hope.  John told the hope first, before he ventured
to speak of the missing ship, and even then had to break the news
gently, for the mother had grown frail and weak, and could not bear
things as she used to do.  She clung as if they had been words of life
or death to the ship-owner's postscript--"that they had no recollection
of the name of Halifax; there might have been such a gentleman on
board--they could not say.  But it was not probable; for the
'Stars-and-Stripes' was a trading vessel, and had not good
accommodation for passengers."

Then came week after week--I know not how they went by--one never does,
afterwards.  At the time they were frightfully vivid, hour by hour; we
rose each morning, sure that some hope would come in the course of the
day; we went to bed at night, heavily, as if there were no such thing
as hope in the world.  Gradually, and I think that was the worst
consciousness of all, our life of suspense became perfectly natural;
and everything in and about the house went on as usual, just as though
we knew quite well--what the Almighty Father alone knew!--where our
poor lad was, and what had become of him.  Or rather, as if we had
settled in the certainty, which perhaps the end of our own lives alone
would bring us, that he had slipped out of life altogether, and there
was no such being as Guy Halifax under this pitiless sun.

The mother's heart was breaking.  She made no moan, but we saw it in
her face.  One morning--it was the morning after John's birthday, which
we had made a feint of keeping, with Grace Oldtower, the two little
grandchildren, Edwin and Louise--she was absent at breakfast and
dinner; she had not slept well, and was too tired to rise.  Many days
following it happened the same; with the same faint excuse, or with no
excuse at all.  How we missed her about the house!--ay, changed as she
had been.  How her husband wandered about, ghost-like, from room to
room!--could not rest anywhere, or do anything. Finally, he left our
company altogether, and during the hours that he was at home rarely
quitted for more than a few minutes the quiet bed-chamber, where, every
time his foot entered it, the poor pale face looked up and smiled.

Ay, smiled; for I noticed, as many another may have done in similar
cases, that when her physical health definitely gave way, her mental
health returned.  The heavy burthen was lighter; she grew more
cheerful, more patient; seemed to submit herself to the Almighty will,
whatever it might be.  As she lay on her sofa in the study, where one
or two evenings John carried her down, almost as easily as he used to
carry little Muriel, his wife would rest content with her hand in his,
listening to his reading, or quietly looking at him, as though her lost
son's face, which a few weeks since she said haunted her continually,
were now forgotten in his father's.  Perhaps she thought the one she
should soon see--while the other--

"Phineas," she whispered one day, when I was putting a shawl over her
feet, or doing some other trifle that she thanked me for,--"Phineas, if
anything happens to me, you will comfort John!"

Then first I began seriously to contemplate a possibility, hitherto as
impossible and undreamed of as that the moon should drop out of the
height of heaven--What would the house be without the mother?

Her children never suspected this, I saw; but they were young.  For her
husband--

I could not understand John.  He, so quick-sighted; he who meeting any
sorrow looked steadily up at the Hand that smote him, knowing neither
the coward's dread nor the unbeliever's disguise of pain--surely he
must see what was impending.  Yet he was as calm as if he saw it not.
Calm, as no man could be contemplating the supreme parting between two
who nearly all their lives had been not two, but one flesh.

Yet I had once heard him say that a great love, and only that, makes
parting easy.  Could it be that this love of his, which had clasped his
wife so firmly, faithfully, and long, fearlessly clasped her still, by
its own perfectness assured of its immortality?

But all the while his human love clung about her, showing itself in a
thousand forms of watchful tenderness.  And hers clung to him, closely,
dependently; she let herself be taken care of, ruled and guided, as if
with him she found helplessness restful and submission sweet.  Many a
little outward fondness, that when people have been long married
naturally drops into disuse, was revived again; he would bring her
flowers out of the garden, or new books from the town; and many a time,
when no one noticed, I have seen him stoop and press his lips upon the
faded hand, where the wedding-ring hung so loosely;--his own for so
many years, his own till the dust claimed it, that well-beloved hand!

Ay, he was right.  Loss, affliction, death itself, are powerless in the
presence of such a love as theirs.

It was already the middle of July.  From January to July--six months!
Our neighbours without--and there were many who felt for us--never
asked now, "Is there any news of Mr. Guy?"  Even pretty Grace
Oldtower--pretty still, but youthful no longer--only lifted her eyes
inquiringly as she crossed our doorway, and dropped them again with a
hopeless sigh.  She had loved us all, faithfully and well, for a great
many years.

One night, when Miss Oldtower had just gone home after staying with us
the whole day--Maud and I sat in the study by ourselves, where we
generally sat now.  The father spent all his evenings up-stairs.  We
could hear his step overhead as he crossed the room or opened the
window, then drew his chair back to its constant place by his wife's
bedside.  Sometimes there was a faint murmur of reading or talk; then
long silence.

Maud and I sat in silence too.  She had her own thoughts--I mine.
Perhaps they were often one and the same:  perhaps--for youth is youth
after all--they may have diverged widely.  Hers were deep, absorbed
thoughts, at any rate, travelling fast--fast as her needle travelled;
for she had imperceptibly fallen into her mother's ways and her
mother's work.

We had the lamp lit, but the windows were wide open; and through the
sultry summer night we could hear the trickle of the stream and the
rustle of the leaves in the beech-wood.  We sat very still, waiting for
nothing, expecting nothing; in the dull patience which always fell upon
us about this hour--the hour before bed-time, when nothing more was to
be looked for but how best to meet another dreary day.

"Maud, was that the click of the front gate swinging?"

"No, I told Walter to lock it before he went to bed.  Last night it
disturbed my mother."

Again silence.  So deep that the maid's opening the door made us both
start.

"Miss Halifax--there's a gentleman wanting to see Miss Halifax."

Maud sprung up in her chair, breathless.

"Any one you know, is it?"

"No, Miss."

"Show the gentleman in."

He stood already in the doorway,--tall, brown, bearded.  Maud just
glanced at him, then rose, bending stiffly, after the manner of Miss
Halifax of Beechwood.

"Will you be seated?  My father--"

"Maud, don't you know me?  Where's my mother?  I am Guy."



CHAPTER XXXIX

Guy and his mother were together.  She lay on a sofa in her
dressing-room; he sat on a stool beside her, so that her arm could rest
on his neck and she could now and then turn his face towards her and
look at it--oh, what a look!

She had had him with her for two whole days--two days to be set against
eight years!  Yet the eight years seemed already to have collapsed into
a span of time, and the two days to have risen up a great mountain of
happiness, making a barrier complete against the woeful past, as
happiness can do--thanks to the All-merciful for His mercies.  Most
especially for that mercy--true as His truth to the experience of all
pure hearts--that one bright, brief season of joy can outweigh, in
reality and even in remembrance, whole years of apparently interminable
pain.

Two days only since the night Guy came home, and yet it seemed months
ago!  Already we had grown familiar to the tall, bearded figure; the
strange step and voice about the house; all except Maud, who was rather
shy and reserved still.  We had ceased the endeavour to reconcile this
our Guy--this tall, grave man of nearly thirty, looking thirty-five and
more--with Guy, the boy that left us, the boy that in all our lives we
never should find again.  Nevertheless, we took him, just as he was, to
our hearts, rejoicing in him one and all with inexpressible joy.

He was much altered, certainly.  It was natural, nay, right, that he
should be.  He had suffered much; a great deal more than he ever told
us--at least, not till long after; had gone through poverty, labour,
sickness, shipwreck.  He had written home by the
"Stars-and-Stripes"--sailed a fortnight later by another vessel--been
cast away--picked up by an outward-bound ship--and finally landed in
England, he and his partner, as penniless as they left it.

"Was your partner an Englishman, then?" said Maud, who sat at the foot
of the sofa, listening.  "You have not told us anything about him yet."

Guy half smiled.  "I will by and by.  It's a long story.  Just now I
don't want to think of anybody or anything except my mother."

He turned, as he did twenty times a day, to press his rough cheek upon
her hand and look up into her thin face, his eyes overflowing with love.

"You must get well now, mother.  Promise!"

Her smile promised--and even began the fulfilment of the same.

"I think she looks stronger already--does she, Maud?  You know her
looks better than I; I don't ever remember her being ill in old times.
Oh, mother, I will never leave you again--never!"

"No, my boy."

"No, Guy, no."--John came in, and stood watching them both contentedly.
"No, my son, you must never leave your mother."

"I will not leave either of you, father," said Guy, with a reverent
affection that must have gladdened the mother's heart to the very core.
Resigning his place by her, Guy took Maud's, facing them; and father
and son began to talk of various matters concerning their home and
business arrangements; taking counsel together, as father and son ought
to do.  These eight years of separation seemed to have brought them
nearer together; the difference between them--in age, far less than
between most fathers and sons, had narrowed into a meeting-point.
Never in all his life had Guy been so deferent, so loving, to his
father.  And with a peculiar trust and tenderness, John's heart turned
to his eldest son, the heir of his name, his successor at Enderley
Mills.  For, in order that Guy might at once take his natural place,
and feel no longer a waif and stray upon the world, already a plan had
been started, that the firm of Halifax and Sons should become Halifax
Brothers.  Perhaps, ere very long--only the mother said privately,
rather anxiously too, that she did not wish this part of the scheme to
be mentioned to Guy just now--perhaps, ere long it would be "Guy
Halifax, Esquire, of Beechwood;" and "the old people" at happy little
Longfield.

As yet Guy had seen nobody but ourselves, and nobody had seen Guy.
Though his mother gave various good reasons why he should not make his
public appearance as a "ship-wrecked mariner," costume and all, yet it
was easy to perceive that she looked forward not without apprehension
to some meetings which must necessarily soon occur, but to which Guy
made not the smallest allusion.  He had asked, cursorily and generally,
after "all my brothers and sisters," and been answered in the same
tone; but neither he nor we had as yet mentioned the names of Edwin or
Louise.

They knew he was come home; but how and where the first momentous
meeting should take place we left entirely to chance, or, more rightly
speaking, to Providence.

So it happened thus.  Guy was sitting quietly on the sofa at his
mother's feet, and his father and he were planning together in what way
could best be celebrated, by our school-children, tenants, and
work-people, an event which we took a great interest in, though not
greater than in this year was taken by all classes throughout the
kingdom--the day fixed for the abolition of Negro Slavery in our
Colonies--the 1st of August, 1834.  He sat in an attitude that reminded
me of his boyish lounging ways; the picture of content; though a stream
of sunshine pouring in upon his head, through the closed Venetian
blind, showed many a deep line of care on his forehead, and more than
one silver thread among his brown hair.

In a pause--during which no one exactly liked to ask what we were all
thinking about--there came a little tap at the door, and a little voice
outside.

"Please, me want to come in."

Maud jumped up to refuse admission; but Mr. Halifax forbade her, and
himself went and opened the door.  A little child stood there--a little
girl of three years old.

Apparently guessing who she was, Guy rose up hastily, and sat down in
his place again.

"Come in, little maid," said the father; "come in, and tell us what you
want."

"Me want to see Grannie and Uncle Guy."

Guy started, but still he kept his seat.  The mother took her
grandchild in her feeble arms, and kissed her, saying softly,

"There--that is Uncle Guy.  Go and speak to him."

And then, touching his knees, Guy felt the tiny, fearless hand.  He
turned round, and looked at the little thing, reluctantly,
inquisitively.  Still he did not speak to or touch her.

"Are you Uncle Guy?"

"Yes."

"Why don't you kiss me?  Everybody kisses me," said everybody's pet;
neither frightened nor shy; never dreaming of a repulse.

Nor did she find it.  Her little fingers were suffered to cling round
the tightly-closed hand.

"What is your name, my dear?"

"Louise--mamma's little Louise."

Guy put back the curls, and gazed long and wistfully into the childish
face, where the inherited beauty was repeated line for line. But
softened, spiritualised, as, years after its burial, some ghost of a
man's old sorrows may rise up and meet him, the very spirit of peace
shining out of its celestial eyes.

"Little Louise, you are very like--"

He stopped--and bending down, kissed her.  In that kiss vanished for
ever the last shadow of his boyhood's love.  Not that he forgot it--God
forbid that any good man should ever either forget or be ashamed of his
first love!  But it and all its pain fled far away, back into the
sacred eternities of dreamland.

When, looking up at last, he saw a large, fair, matronly lady sitting
by his mother's sofa, Guy neither started nor turned pale.  It was
another, and not his lost Louise.  He rose and offered her his hand.

"You see, your little daughter has made friends with me already.  She
is very like you; only she has Edwin's hair.  Where is my brother
Edwin?"

"Here, old fellow.  Welcome home."

The two brothers met warmly, nay, affectionately.  Edwin was not given
to demonstration; but I saw how his features twitched, and how he
busied himself over the knots in his little girl's pinafore for a
minute or more.  When he spoke again it was as if nothing had happened
and Guy had never been away.

For the mother, she lay with her arms folded, looking from one to the
other mutely, or closing her eyes with a faint stirring of the lips,
like prayer.  It seemed as if she dared only THUS to meet her exceeding
joy.

Soon, Edwin and Louise left us for an hour or two, and Guy went on with
the history of his life in America and his partner who had come home
with him, and, like himself, had lost his all.

"Harder for him than for me; he is older than I am.  He knew nothing
whatever of business when he offered himself as my clerk; since then he
has worked like a slave.  In a fever I had he nursed me; he has been to
me these three years the best, truest friend.  He is the noblest
fellow.  Father, if you only knew--"

"Well, my son, let me know him.  Invite the gentleman to Beechwood; or
shall I write and ask him?  Maud, fetch me your mother's desk. Now
then, Guy--you are a very forgetful fellow still; you have never yet
told us your friend's name."

Guy looked steadily at his father, in his own straightforward way;
hesitated--then apparently made up his mind.

"I did not tell you because he wished me not; not till you understood
him as well as I do.  You knew him yourself once--but he has wisely
dropped his title.  Since he came over to me in America he has been
only Mr. William Ravenel."

This discovery--natural enough when one began to think over it, but
incredible at first, astounded us all.  For Maud--well was it that the
little Louise seated in her lap hid and controlled in some measure the
violent agitation of poor Auntie Maud.

Ay--Maud loved him.  Perhaps she had guessed the secret cause of his
departure, and love creates love often times.  Then his brave
renunciation of rank, fortune, even of herself--women glory in a moral
hero--one who has strength to lose even love, and bear its loss, for
the sake of duty or of honour.  His absence, too, might have done
much:--absence which smothers into decay a rootless fancy, but often
nourishes the least seed of a true affection into full-flowering love.
Ay--Maud loved him.  How, or why, or when, at first no one could
tell--perhaps not even herself; but so it was, and her parents saw it.

Both were deeply moved--her brother likewise.

"Father," he whispered, "have I done wrong?  I did not know--how could
I guess?"

"No, no--my son.  It is very strange--all things just now seem so
strange.  Maud, my child,"--and John roused himself out of a long
silence into which he was falling,--"go, and take Louise to her mother."

The girl rose, eager to get away.  As she crossed the room--the little
creature clinging round her neck, and she clasping it close, in the
sweet motherliness of character which had come to her so early--I
thought--I hoped--

"Maud!" said John, catching her hand as she passed him by--"Maud is not
afraid of her father?"

"No,"--in troubled uncertainty--then with a passionate decision, as if
ashamed of herself--

"No!"

She leaned over his chair-back and kissed him--then went out.

"Now--Guy."

Guy told, in his own frank way, all the history of himself and William
Ravenel; how the latter had come to America, determined to throw his
lot for good or ill, to sink or swim, with Maud's brother--chiefly, as
Guy had slowly discovered, because he was Maud's brother. At last--in
the open boat, on the Atlantic, with death the great revealer of all
things staring them in the face--the whole secret came out.  It made
them better than friends--brothers.

This was Guy's story, told with a certain spice of determination too,
as if--let his father's will be what it might, his own, which had now
also settled into the strong "family" will, was resolute on his
friend's behalf.  Yet when he saw how grave, nay sad, the father sat,
he became humble again, and ended his tale even as he had begun, with
the entreaty--"Father, if you only knew--"

"My knowing and my judging seem to have been of little value, my son.
Be it so.  There is One wiser than I--One in whose hands are the issues
of all things."

The sort of contrition with which he spoke--thus retracting, as it
costs most men so much to retract, a decision given however justly at
the time, but which fate has afterwards pronounced unjust, affected his
son deeply.

"Father, your decision was right--William says it was.  He says also,
that it could not have been otherwise; that whatever he has become
since, he owes it all to you, and to what passed that day.  Though he
loves her still, will never love any one else; yet he declares his loss
of her has proved his salvation."

"He is right," said Mrs. Halifax.  "Love is worth nothing that will not
stand trial--a fiery trial, if needs be.  And as I have heard John say
many and many a time--as he said that very night--in this world there
is not, ought not to be, any such words as 'too late.'"

John made no answer.  He sat, his chin propped on his right hand, the
other pressed against his bosom--his favourite attitude.  Once or
twice, with a deep-drawn, painful breath, he sighed.

Guy's eagerness could not rest.  "Father, I told him I would either
write to or see him to-day."

"Where is he?"

"At Norton Bury.  Nothing could induce him to come here, unless certain
that you desired it."

"I do desire it."

Guy started up with great joy.  "Shall I write, then?"

"I will write myself."

But John's hand shook so much, that instead of his customary free, bold
writing, he left only blots upon the page.  He leant back in his chair,
and said faintly--

"I am getting an old man, I see.  Guy, it was high time you came home."

Mrs. Halifax thought he was tired, and made a place for his head on her
pillow, where he rested some minutes, "just to please her," he said.
Then he rose and declared he would himself drive over to Norton Bury
for our old friend.

"Nay, let me write, father.  To-morrow will do just as well."

The father shook his head.  "No--it must be to-day."

Bidding good-bye to his wife--he never by any chance quitted her for an
hour without a special tender leave-taking--John went away.

Guy was, he avouched, "as happy as a king."  His old liveliness
returned; he declared that in this matter, which had long weighed
heavily on his mind, he had acted like a great diplomatist, or like the
gods themselves, whom some unexacting, humble youth calls upon to

         "Annihilate both time and space,
      And make two lovers happy!"

"And I'm sure I shall be happy too, in seeing them.  They shall be
married immediately.  And we'll take William into partnership--that was
a whim of his, mother--we call one another 'Guy' and 'William,' just
like brothers.  Heigho!  I'm very glad.  Are not you?"

The mother smiled.

"You will soon have nobody left but me.  No matter.  I shall have you
all to myself, and be at once a spoiled child, and an uncommonly merry
old bachelor."

Again the mother smiled, without reply.  She, too, doubtless thought
herself a great diplomatist.

William Ravenel--he was henceforward never anything to us but
William--came home with Mr. Halifax.  First, the mother saw him; then I
heard the father go to the maiden bower where Maud had shut herself up
all day--poor child!--and fetch his daughter down.  Lastly, I watched
the two--Mr. Ravenel and Miss Halifax--walk together down the garden
and into the beech-wood, where the leaves were whispering and the
stock-doves cooing; and where, I suppose, they told and listened to the
old tale--old as Adam--yet for ever beautiful and new.

That day was a wonderful day.  That night we gathered, as we never
thought we should gather again in this world, round the family
table--Guy, Edwin, Walter, Maud, Louise, and William Ravenel--all
changed, yet not one lost.  A true love-feast it was:  a renewed
celebration of the family bond, which had lasted through so much
sorrow, now knitted up once more, never to be broken.

When we came quietly to examine one another and fall into one another's
old ways, there was less than one might have expected even of outward
change.  The table appeared the same; all took instinctively their old
places, except that the mother lay on her sofa and Maud presided at the
urn.

It did one's heart good to look at Maud, as she busied herself about,
in her capacity as vice-reine of the household; perhaps, with a natural
feeling, liking to show some one present how mature and sedate she
was--not so very young after all.  You could see she felt deeply how
much he loved her--how her love was to him like the restoring of his
youth.  The responsibility, sweet as it was, made her womanly, made her
grave.  She would be to him at once wife and child, plaything and
comforter, sustainer and sustained.  Ay, love levels all things.  They
were not ill-matched, in spite of those twenty years.

And so I left them, and went and sat with John and Ursula--we, the
generation passing away, or ready to pass, in Heaven's good time, to
make room for these.  We talked but little, our hearts were too full.
Early, before anybody thought of moving, John carried his wife
up-stairs again, saying that, well as she looked, she must be compelled
to economise both her good looks and her happiness.

When he came down again he stood talking for some time with Mr.
Ravenel.  While he talked I thought he looked wearied--pallid even to
exhaustion; a minute or two afterwards he silently left the room.

I followed him, and found him leaning against the chimney-piece in his
study.

"Who's that?"  He spoke feebly; he looked--ghastly!

I called him by his name.

"Come in.  Fetch no one.  Shut the door."

The words were hoarse and abrupt, but I obeyed.

"Phineas," he said, again holding out a hand, as if he thought he had
grieved me; "don't mind.  I shall be better presently.  I know quite
well what it is--ah, my God--my God!"

Sharp, horrible pain--such as human nature shrinks from--such as makes
poor mortal flesh cry out in its agony to its Maker, as if, for the
time being, life itself were worthless at such a price.  I know now
what it must have been; I know now what he must have endured.

He held me fast, half unconscious as he was, lest I should summon help;
and when a step was heard in the passage, as once before--the day Edwin
was married--how, on a sudden, I remembered all!--he tottered forward
and locked, double-locked, the door.

After a few minutes the worst suffering abated, and he sat down again
in his chair.  I got some water; he drank, and let me bathe his face
with it--his face, grey and death-like--John's face!

But I am telling the bare facts--nothing more.

A few heavy sighs, gasped as it were for life, and he was himself again.

"Thank God, it is over now!  Phineas, you must try and forget all you
have seen.  I wish you had not come to the door."

He said this, not in any tone that could wound me, but tenderly, as if
he were very sorry for me.

"What is it?"

"There is no need for alarm;--no more than that day--you recollect?--in
this room.  I had an attack once before then--a few times since. It is
horrible pain while it lasts, you see; I can hardly bear it. But it
goes away again, as you also see.  It would be a pity to tell my wife,
or anybody; in fact, I had rather not.  You understand?"

He spoke thus in a matter-of-fact way, as if he thought the explanation
would satisfy me and prevent my asking further.  He was mistaken.

"John, what is it?"

"What is it?  Why, something like what I had then; but it comes rarely,
and I am well again directly.  I had much rather not talk about it.
Pray forget it."

But I could not; nor, I thought, could he.  He took up a book and sat
still; though often times I caught his eyes fixed on my face with a
peculiar earnestness, as if he would fain test my strength--fain find
out how much I loved him; and loving, how much I could bear.

"You are not reading, John; you are thinking--what about?"

He paused a little, as if undetermined whether or not to tell me; then
said:  "About your father.  Do you remember him?"

I looked surprised at the question.

"I mean, do you remember how he died?"

Somehow--though, God knows, not at that dear and sacred remembrance--I
shuddered.  "Yes; but why should we talk of it now?"

"Why not?  I have often thought what a happy death it was--painless,
instantaneous, without any wasting sickness beforehand--his sudden
passing from life present to life eternal.  Phineas, your father's was
the happiest death I ever knew."

"It may be--I am not sure.  John," for again something in his look and
manner struck me--"why do you say this to me?"

"I scarcely know.  Yes, I do know."

"Tell me, then."

He looked at me across the table--steadily, eye to eye, as if he would
fain impart to my spirit the calmness that was in his own.  "I believe,
Phineas, that when I die my death will be not unlike your father's."

Something came wildly to my lips about "impossibility," the utter
impossibility, of any man's thus settling the manner of his death, or
the time.

"I know that.  I know that I may live ten or twenty years, and die of
another disease after all."

"Disease!"

"Nay--it is nothing to be afraid of.  You see I am not afraid.  I have
guessed it for many years.  I have known it for a certainty ever since
I was in Paris."

"Were you ill in Paris?--You never said so."

"No--because--Phineas, do you think you could bear the truth?  You know
it makes no real difference.  I shall not die an hour sooner for being
aware of it."

"Aware of--what?  Say quickly."

"Dr. K---- told me--I was determined to be told--that I had the disease
I suspected; beyond medical power to cure.  It is not immediately
fatal; he said I might live many years, even to old age; and I might
die, suddenly, at any moment, just as your father died."

He said this gently and quietly--more quietly than I am writing the
words down now; and I listened--I listened.

"Phineas!"

I felt the pressure of his warm hand on my shoulder--the hand which had
led me like a brother's all my life.

"Phineas, we have known one another these forty years.  Is our love,
our faith, so small, that either of us, for himself or his brother,
need be afraid of death?--"

"Phineas!"--and the second time he spoke there was some faint reproach
in the tone; "no one knows this but you.  I see I was right to
hesitate; I almost wish I had not told you at all."

Then I rose.

At my urgent request, he explained to me fully and clearly the whole
truth.  It was, as most truths are, less terrible when wholly known. It
had involved little suffering as yet, the paroxysms being few and rare.
They had always occurred when he was alone, or when feeling them coming
on he could go away and bear them in solitude.

"I have always been able to do so until to-night.  She has not the
least idea--my wife, I mean."

His voice failed.

"It has been terrible to me at times, the thought of my wife. Perhaps I
ought to have told her.  Often I resolved I would, and then changed my
mind.  Latterly, since she has been ill, I have believed, almost hoped,
that she would not need to be told at all."

"Would you rather, then, that she--"

John calmly took up the word I shrank from uttering.  "Yes; I would
rather of the two that she went away first.  She would suffer less, and
it would be such a short parting."

He spoke as one would speak of a new abode, an impending journey.  To
him the great change, the last terror of humanity, was a
thought--solemn indeed, but long familiar and altogether without fear.
And, as we sat there, something of his spirit passed into mine; I felt
how narrow is the span between the life mortal and the life
immortal--how, in truth, both are one with God.

"Ay," he said, "that is exactly what I mean.  To me there is always
something impious in the 'preparing for death' that people talk about;
as if we were not continually, whether in the flesh or out of it,
living in the Father's presence; as if, come when He will, the Master
should not find all of us watching?  Do you remember saying so to me,
one day?"

Ah, that day!

"Does it pain you, my talking thus?  Because if so, we will cease."

"No--go on."

"That is right.  I thought, this attack having been somewhat worse than
my last, some one ought to be told.  It has been a comfort to me to
tell you--a great comfort, Phineas.  Always remember that."

I have remembered it.

"Now, one thing more, and my mind is at ease.  You see, though I may
have years of life--I hope I shall--many busy years--I am never sure of
a day, and I have to take many precautions.  At home I shall be quite
safe now."  He smiled again, with evident relief.  "And rarely I go
anywhere without having one of my boys with me.  Still, for fear--look
here."

He showed me his pocket-book; on a card bearing his name and address
was written in his own legible hand, "HOME, AND TELL MY WIFE CAREFULLY."

I returned the book.  As I did so, there dropped out a little note--all
yellow and faded--his wife's only "love-letter,"--signed, "Yours
sincerely, Ursula March."

John picked it up, looked at it, and put it back in its place.

"Poor darling! poor darling!"  He sighed, and was silent for a while.
"I am very glad Guy has come home; very glad that my little Maud is so
happily settled.  Hark! how those children are laughing!"

For the moment a natural shade of regret crossed the father's face, the
father to whom all the delights of home had been so dear.  But it soon
vanished.

"How merry they are!--how strangely things have come about for us and
ours!  As Ursula was saying to-night, at this moment we have not a
single care."

I grasped at that, for Dr. K---- had declared that if John had a quiet
life--a life without many anxieties--he might, humanly speaking, attain
a good old age.

"Ay, your father did.  Who knows? we may both be old men yet, Phineas."

And as he rose, he looked strong in body and mind, full of health and
cheer--scarcely even on the verge of that old age of which he spoke.
And I was older than he.

"Now, will you come with me to say good-night to the children?"

At first I thought I could not--then, I could.  After the rest had
merrily dispersed, John and I stood for a long time in the empty
parlour, his hand on my shoulder, as he used to stand when we were
boys, talking.

What we said I shall not write, but I remember it, every word.  And
he--I KNOW he remembers it still.

Then we clasped hands.

"Good-night, Phineas."

"Good-night, John."



CHAPTER XL

Friday, the first of August, 1834.

Many may remember that day; what a soft, grey, summer morning it was,
and how it broke out into brightness; how everywhere bells were
ringing, club fraternities walking with bands and banners,
school-children having feasts and work-people holidays; how, in town
and country, there was spread abroad a general sense of benevolent
rejoicing--because honest old England had lifted up her generous voice,
nay, had paid down cheerfully her twenty millions, and in all her
colonies the negro was free.

Many may still find, in some forgotten drawer, the medal bought by
thousands and tens of thousands, of all classes, in copper, silver, or
gold--distributed in charity-schools, and given by old people to their
grandchildren.  I saw Mrs. Halifax tying one with a piece of blue
ribbon round little Louise's neck, in remembrance of this day. The
pretty medal, with the slave standing upright, stretching out to Heaven
free hands, from which the fetters are dropping--as I overheard John
say to his wife, he could fancy the freeman Paul would stand in the
Roman prison, when he answered to those that loved him, "I HAVE FOUGHT
THE GOOD FIGHT.  I HAVE FINISHED MY COURSE.  I HAVE KEPT THE FAITH."


Now, with my quickened ears, I often heard John talking quietly to his
wife on this wise.

He remained by her side the  whole forenoon--wheeling her about in her
garden-chair; taking her to see her school-children in their glory on
our lawn--to hear the shouts rising up from the people at the mill-yard
below.  For all Enderley, following the master's example, took an
interest, hearty even among hearty hard-working England, in the
Emancipation of the Slaves.

We had our own young people round us, and the day was a glorious day,
they declared one and all.

John was happy too--infinitely happy.  After dinner he carried his wife
to her chair beside the weeping ash, where she could smell the late hay
in the meadow, and hear the ripple of the stream in the
beech-wood--faint, for it was almost dried up now, but pleasant still.
Her husband sat on the grass, making her laugh with his quaint
sayings--admiring her in her new bonnet, and in the lovely white
shawl--Guy's shawl--which Mr. Guy himself had really no time for
admiring.  He had gone off to the school tea-drinking, escorting his
sister and sister-in-law, and another lady, whose eyes brightened with
most "sisterly" joy whenever she glanced at her old playfellow. Guy's
"sister" she nevertheless was not, nor was ever likely to be--and I
questioned whether, in his secret heart, he had not begun already to
feel particularly thankful for that circumstance.

"Ah, mother," cried the father, smiling, "you'll see how it will end:
all our young birds will soon be flown--there will be nobody left but
you and me."

"Never mind, John;" and stooping over him, she gave him one of her
quiet, soft kisses, precious now she was an old woman as they had been
in the days of her bloom.  "Never mind.  Once there were only our two
selves--now there will be only our two selves again.  We shall be very
happy.  We only need one another."

"Only one another, my darling."

This last word, and the manner of his saying it, I can hear if I listen
in silence, clear as if yet I heard its sound.  This last sight--of
them sitting under the ash-tree, the sun making still whiter Ursula's
white shawl, brightening the marriage ring on her bare hand, and
throwing, instead of silver, some of their boyish gold colour into the
edges of John's curls--this picture I see with my shut eyes, vivid as
yesterday.

I sat for some time in my room--then John came to fetch me for our
customary walk along his favourite "terrace" on the Flat.  He rarely
liked to miss it--he said the day hardly seemed complete or perfect
unless one had seen the sun set.  Thus, almost every evening, we used
to spend an hour or more, pacing up and down, or sitting in that little
hollow under the brow of the Flat, where, as from the topmost seat of a
natural amphitheatre, one could see Rose Cottage and the old well-head
where the cattle drank; our own green garden-gate, the dark mass of the
beech-wood, and far away beyond that Nunneley Hill, where the sun went
down.

There, having walked somewhat less time than usual, for the evening was
warm and it had been a fatiguing day, John and I sat down together.  We
talked a little, ramblingly--chiefly of Longfield--how I was to have my
old room again--and how a new nursery was to be planned for the
grandchildren.

"We can't get out of the way of children, I see clearly," he said,
laughing.  "We shall have Longfield just as full as ever it was, all
summer time.  But in winter we'll be quiet, and sit by the
chimney-corner, and plunge into my dusty desert of books--eh, Phineas?
You shall help me to make notes for those lectures I have intended
giving at Norton Bury, these ten years past.  And we'll rub up our old
Latin, and dip into modern poetry--great rubbish, I fear!  Nobody like
our old friend Will of Avon, or even your namesake, worthy Phineas
Fletcher."

I reminded him of the "Shepherd's life and fate," which he always liked
so much, and used to say was his ideal of peaceful happiness.

"Well, and I think so still.  'Keep true to the dreams of thy youth,'
saith the old German; I have not been false to mine.  I have had a
happy life, thank God; ay, and what few men can say, it has been the
very sort of happiness I myself would have chosen.  I think most lives,
if, while faithfully doing our little best, day by day, we were content
to leave their thread in wiser hands than ours, would thus weave
themselves out; until, looked back upon as a whole, they would seem as
bright a web as mine."

He sat, talking thus, resting his chin on his hands--his eyes, calm and
sweet, looking out westward--where the sun was about an hour from the
horizon.

"Do you remember how we used to lie on the grass in your father's
garden, and how we never could catch the sunset except in fragments
between the abbey trees!  I wonder if they keep the yew hedge clipped
as round as ever."

I told him Edwin had said to-day that some strange tenants were going
to make an inn of the old house, and turn the lawn into a bowling-green.

"What a shame!  I wish I could prevent it.  And yet, perhaps not," he
added, after a silence.  "Ought we not rather to recognise and submit
to the universal law of change?  How each in his place is fulfilling
his day, and passing away, just as that sun is passing.  Only we know
not whither he passes; while whither we go we know, and the Way we
know--the same yesterday, to-day, and for ever."

Almost before he had done speaking--(God grant that in the Kingdom I
may hear that voice, not a tone altered--I would not wish it altered
even there)--a whole troop of our young people came out of Mrs. Tod's
cottage, and nodded to us from below.

There was Mrs. Edwin, standing talking to the good old soul, who
admired her baby-boy very much, but wouldn't allow there could be any
children like Mrs. Halifax's children.

There was Edwin, deep in converse with his brother Guy, while beside
them--prettier and younger-looking than ever--Grace Oldtower was making
a posy for little Louise.

Further down the slope, walking slowly, side by side, evidently seeing
nobody but one another, were another couple.

"I think, sometimes, John, that those two, William and Maud, will be
the happiest of all the children."

He smiled, looked after them for a minute, and then laid himself
quietly down on his back along the slope, his eyes still directed
towards the sunset.  When, brightening as it descended, the sun shone
level upon the place where we were sitting, I saw John pull his broad
straw hat over his face, and compose himself, with both hands clasped
upon his breast, in the attitude of sleep.

I knew he was very tired, so I spoke no more, but threw my cloak over
him.  He looked up, thanked me silently, with his old familiar smile.
One day--one day I shall know him by that smile!  I sat half an hour or
more watching the sun, which sank steadily, slowly, round, and red,
without a single cloud.  Beautiful, as I had never before seen it; so
clear, that one could note the very instant its disc touched the
horizon's grey.

Maud and Mr. Ravenel were coming up the slope.  I beckoned them to come
softly, not to disturb the father.  They and I sat in silence, facing
the west.  The sun journeyed down to his setting--lower--lower; there
was a crescent, a line, a dim sparkle of light; then--he was gone.  And
still we sat--grave, but not sad--looking into the brightness he had
left behind; believing, yea, knowing, we should see his glorious face
again to-morrow.

"How cold it has grown," said Maud.  "I think we ought to wake my
father."

She went up to him, laid her hand upon his, that were folded together
over the cloak--drew back startled--alarmed.

"Father!"

I put the child aside.  It was I who moved the hat from John's
face--THE face--for John himself was far, far away.  Gone from us unto
Him whose faithful servant he was.  While he was sleeping thus the
Master had called him.

His two sons carried him down the slope.  They laid him in the upper
room in Mrs. Tod's cottage.  Then I went home to tell his wife.

          *          *          *          *          *

She was at last composed, as we thought, lying on her bed, death-like
almost, but calm.  It was ten o'clock at night.  I left her with all
her children watching round her.

I went out, up to Rose Cottage, to sit an hour by myself alone, looking
at him whom I should not see again for--as he had said--"a little
while."

"A little while--a little while."  I comforted myself with those words.
I fancied I could almost hear John saying them, standing near me, with
his hand on my shoulder.  John himself, quite distinct from that which
lay so still before me; beautiful as nothing but death can be, younger
much than he had looked this very morning--younger by twenty years.

Farewell, John!  Farewell, my more than brother!  It is but for a
little while.

As I sat, thinking how peacefully the hands lay, clasped together
still, how sweet was the expression of the close mouth, and what a
strange shadowy likeness the whole face bore to Muriel's little face,
which I had seen resting in the same deep rest on the same pillow; some
one touched me.  It was Mrs. Halifax.

How she came I do not know; nor how she had managed to steal out from
among her children.  Nor how she, who had not walked for weeks, had
found her way up hither, in the dark, all alone.  Nor what strength,
almost more than mortal, helped her to stand there, as she did stand,
upright and calm--gazing--gazing as I had done.

"It is very like him; don't you think so, Phineas?"  The voice low and
soft, unbroken by any sob.  "He once told me, in case of--this, he
would rather I did not come and look at him; but I can, you see."

I gave her my place, and she sat down by the bed.  It might have been
ten minutes or more that she and I remained thus, without exchanging a
word.

"I think I hear some one at the door.  Brother, will you call in the
children?"

Guy, altogether overcome, knelt down beside his mother, and besought
her to let him take her home.

"Presently--presently, my son.  You are very good to me; but--your
father.  Children, come in and look at your father."

They all gathered round her--weeping; but she spoke without single tear.

"I was a girl, younger than any of you, when first I met your father.
Next month we shall have been married thirty-three years. Thirty-three
years."

Her eyes grew dreamy, as if fancy had led her back all that space of
time; her fingers moved to and fro, mechanically, over her wedding-ring.

"Children, we were so happy, you cannot tell.  He was so good; he loved
me so.  Better than that, he made me good; that was why I loved him.
Oh, what his love was to me from the first! strength, hope, peace;
comfort and help in trouble, sweetness in prosperity.  How my life
became happy and complete--how I grew worthier to myself because he had
taken me for his own!  And what HE was--Children, no one but me ever
knew all his goodness, no one but himself ever knew how dearly I loved
your father.  We were more precious each to each than anything on
earth; except His service, who gave us to one another."

Her voice dropped all but inaudible; but she roused herself, and made
it once more clear and firm, the mother's natural voice.

"Guy, Edwin, all of you, must never forget your father.  You must do as
he wishes, and live as he lived--in all ways.  You must love him, and
love one another.  Children, you will never do anything that need make
you ashamed to meet your father."

As they hung round her she kissed them all--her three sons and her
daughter, one by one; then, her mind being perhaps led astray by the
room we were in, looked feebly round for one more
child--remembered--smiled--

"How glad her father will be to have her again--his own little Muriel."

"Mother! mother darling! come home," whispered Guy, almost in a sob.

His mother stooped over him, gave him one kiss more--him her favourite
of all her children--and repeated the old phrase:

"Presently, presently!  Now go away, all of you; I want to be left for
a little, alone with my husband."

As we went out, I saw her turn toward the bed--"John, John!"  The same
tone, almost the same words, with which she had crept up to him years
before, the day they were betrothed.  Just a low, low murmur, like a
tired child creeping to fond protecting arms.  "John, John!"

We closed the door.  We all sat on the stairs outside; it might have
been for minutes, it might have been for hours.  Within or without--no
one spoke--nothing stirred.

At last Guy softly went in.

She was still in the same place by the bed-side, but half lying on the
bed, as I had seen her turn when I was shutting the door.  Her arm was
round her husband's neck; her face, pressed inwards to the pillow, was
nestled close to his hair.  They might have been asleep--both of them.

One of her children called her, but she neither answered nor stirred.

Guy lifted her up, very tenderly; his mother, who had no stay left but
him--his mother--a widow--

No, thank God! she was not a widow now.





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