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´╗┐Title: Far Away and Long Ago: A History of My Early Life
Author: Hudson, W. H. (William Henry)
Language: English
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Author of "Idle Days In Patagonia," "The Purple Land,"
"A Crystal Age," "Adventures Among Birds," Etc.



Preamble--The house where I was born--The singular ombu tree--A tree
without a name--The plain--The ghost of a murdered slave--Our
playmate, the old sheep-dog--A first riding-lesson--The cattle: an
evening scene--My mother--Captain Scott--The hermit and his awful


We quit our old home--A winter day journey--Aspect of the country--Our
new home--A prisoner in the barn--The plantation--A paradise of rats--
An evening scene--The people of the house--A beggar on horseback--Mr.
Trigg our schoolmaster--His double nature--Impersonates an old woman--
Reading Dickens--Mr. Trigg degenerates--Once more a homeless wanderer
on the great plain


The old dog Caesar--His powerful personality--Last days and end--The
old dog's burial--The fact of death is brought home to me--A child's
mental anguish--My mother comforts me--Limitations of the child's
mind--Fear of death--Witnessing the slaughter of cattle--A man in the
moat--Margarita, the nursery-maid--Her beauty and lovableness--Her
death--I refuse to see her dead


Living with trees--Winter violets--The house is made habitable--Red
willow--Scizzor-tail and carrion-hawk--Lombardy poplars--Black acacia
--Other trees--The fosse or moat--Rats--A trial of strength with an
armadillo--Opossums living with a snake--Alfalfa field and
butterflies--Cane brake--Weeds and fennel--Peach trees in blossom--
Paroquets--Singing of a field finch--Concert-singing in birds--Old
John--Cow-birds' singing--Arrival of summer migrants


Appearance of a green level land--Cardoon and giant thistles--Villages
of the _vizcacha_, a large burrowing rodent--Groves and plantations
seen like islands on the wide level plains--Trees planted by the early
colonists--Decline of the colonists from an agricultural to a pastoral
people--Houses as part of the landscape--Flesh diet of the gauchos--
Summer change in the aspect of the plain--The water-like mirage--The
giant thistle and a "thistle year"--Fear of fires--An incident at a
fire--The _pampero_, or south-west wind, and the fall of the thistles
--Thistle-down and thistle-seed as food for animals--A great pampero
storm--Big hailstones--Damage caused by hail--Zango, an old horse,
killed--Zango and his master


Visit to a river on the pampas--A first long walk--Water-fowl--My
first sight of flamingoes--A great dove visitation--Strange tameness
of the birds--Vain attempts at putting salt on their tails--An ethical
question: When is a lie not a lie?--The _carancho_, a vulture-eagle--
Our pair of _caranchos_--Their nest in a peach tree--I am ambitious to
take their eggs--The birds' crimes--I am driven off by the birds--The
nest pulled down


Happiest time--First visit to the capital--Old and New Buenos Ayres--
Vivid impressions--Solitary walk--How I learnt to go alone--Lost--The
house we stayed at and the sea-like river--Rough and narrow streets--
Rows of posts--Carts and noise--A great church festival--Young men in
black and scarlet--River scenes--Washerwomen and their language--Their
word-fights with young fashionables--Night watchmen--A young
gentleman's pastime--A fishing dog--A fine gentleman seen stoning
little birds--A glimpse of Don Eusebio, the Dictator's fool


The portraits in our drawing-room--The Dictator Rosas who was like an
Englishman--The strange face of his wife, Encarnacion--The traitor
Urquiza--The Minister of War, his peacocks and his son--Home again
from the city--The war deprives us of our playmate--Natalia, our
shepherd's wife--Her son, Medardo--The Alcalde, our grand old man--
Battle of Monte Caseros--The defeated army--Demands for fresh horses--
In peril--My father's shining defects--His pleasure in a thunderstorm
--A childlike trust in his fellow-men--Soldiers turn upon their
officer--A refugee given up and murdered--Our Alcalde again--On
cutting throats--Ferocity and cynicism--Native blood-lust and its
effects on a boy's mind--Feeling about Rosas--A bird poem or tale--
Vain search for lost poem and story of its authorship--The Dictator's
daughter--Time, the old god


Homes on the great green plain--Making the acquaintance of our
neighbours--The attraction of birds--Los Alamos and the old lady of
the house--Her treatment of St. Anthony--The strange Barboza family--
The man of blood--Great fighters--Barboza as a singer--A great quarrel
but no fight--A cattle-marking--Dona Lucia del Ombu--A feast--Barboza
sings and is insulted by El Rengo--Refuses to fight--The two kinds of
fighters--A poor little angel on horseback--My feeling for Anjelita--
Boys unable to express sympathy--A quarrel with a friend--Enduring
image of a little girl


Casa Antigua, our nearest English neighbour's house--Old Lombardy
poplars--Cardoon thistle or wild artichoke--Mr. Royd, an English
sheep-farmer--Making sheep's-milk cheeses under difficulties--Mr.
Royd's native wife--The negro servants--The two daughters: a striking
contrast--The white blue-eyed child and her dusky playmate--A happy
family--Our visits to Casa Antigua--Gorgeous dinners--Estanislao and
his love of wild life--The Royds' return visit--A home-made carriage--
The gaucho's primitive conveyance--The happy home broken up


La Tapera, a native estancia--Don Gregorio Gandara--His grotesque
appearance and strange laugh--Gandara's wife and her habits and pets--
My dislike of hairless dogs--Gandara's daughters--A pet ostrich--In
the peach orchard--Gandara's herds of piebald brood mares--His
masterful temper--His own saddle-horses--Creating a sensation at
gaucho gatherings--The younger daughter's lovers--Her marriage at our
house--The priest and the wedding breakfast--Demetria forsaken by her


The Estancia Canada Seca--Low lands and floods--Don Anastacio, a
gaucho exquisite--A greatly respected man--Poor relations--Don
Anastacio a pig-fancier--Narrow escape from a pig--Charm of the low
green lands--The flower called _macachina_--A sweet-tasting bulb
--Beauty of the green flower-sprinkled turf--A haunt of the golden
plover--The _bolas_--My plover-hunting experience--Rebuked by a
gaucho--A green spot, our playground in summer and lake in winter--The
venomous toad-like _Ceratophrys_--Vocal performance of the toad-like
creature--We make war on them--The great lake battle and its results


The grand old man of the plains--Don Evaristo Penalva, the Patriarch--
My first sight of his estancia house--Don Evaristo described--A
husband of six wives--How he was esteemed and loved by every one--On
leaving home I lose sight of Don Evaristo--I meet him again after
seven years--His failing health--His old first wife and her daughter,
Cipriana--The tragedy of Cipriana--Don Evaristo dies and I lose sight
of the family


A favourite climbing tree--The desire to fly--Soaring birds-A
peregrine falcon--The dovecote and pigeon-pies--The falcon's
depredations--A splendid aerial feat--A secret enemy of the dovecote--
A short-eared owl in a loft--My father and birds--A strange flower--
The owls' nesting-place--Great owl visitations


My pleasure in bird life--Mammals at our new home--Snakes and how
children are taught to regard them--A colony of snakes in the house--
Their hissing confabulations--Finding serpent sloughs--A serpent's
saviour--A brief history of our English neighbours, the Blakes


A new feeling about snakes--Common snakes of the country--A barren
weedy patch--Discovery of a large black snake--Watching for its
reappearance--Seen going to its den--The desire to see it again--A
vain search--Watching a bat--The black serpent reappears at my feet--
Emotions and conjectures--Melanism--My baby sister and a strange
snake--The mystery solved


The animistic faculty and its survival in us--A boy's animism and its
persistence--Impossibility of seeing our past exactly as it was--Serge
Aksakoff's history of his childhood--The child's delight in nature
purely physical--First intimations of animism in the child--How it
affected me--Feeling with regard to flowers--A flower and my mother
--History of a flower--Animism with regard to trees--Locust trees by
moonlight--Animism and nature-worship--Animistic emotion not uncommon
--Cowper and the Yardley oak--The religionist's fear of nature--
Pantheistic Christianity--Survival of nature-worship in England--
The feeling for nature--Wordsworth's pantheism and animistic emotion
in poetry


Mr. Trigg recalled--His successor--Father O'Keefe--His mild rule and
love of angling--My brother is assisted in his studies by the priest--
Happy fishing afternoons--The priest leaves us--How he had been
working out his own salvation--We run wild once more--My brother's
plan for a journal to be called _The Tin Box_--Our imperious editor's
exactions--My little brother revolts--_The Tin Box_ smashed up--The
loss it was to me


Our third and last schoolmaster--His many accomplishments--His
weakness and final breakdown--My important brother--Four brothers,
unlike in everything except the voice--A strange meeting--Jack the
Killer, his life and character--A terrible fight--My brother seeks
instructions from Jack--The gaucho's way of fighting and Jack's
contrasted--Our sham fight with knives--A wound and the result--My
feeling about Jack and his eyes--Bird-lore--My two elder brothers'
practical joke


Visiting the marshes--Pajonales and juncales--Abundant bird life--A
coots' metropolis--Frightening the coots--Grebe and painted snipe
colonies--The haunt of the social marsh hawk--The beautiful jacana and
its eggs--The colony of marsh trupials--The bird's music--The aquatic
plant durasmillo--The trupial's nest and eggs--Recalling a beauty
that has vanished--Our games with gaucho boys--I am injured by a bad
boy--The shepherd's advice--Getting my revenge in a treacherous
manner--Was it right or wrong?--The game of hunting the ostrich


My sporting brother and the armoury--I attend him on his shooting
expeditions--Adventure with golden plover--A morning after wild duck--
Our punishment--I learn to shoot--My first gun--My first wild duck--My
ducking tactics--My gun's infirmities--Duck-shooting with a
blunderbuss--Ammunition runs out--An adventure with rosy-bill duck--
Coarse gunpowder and home-made shot--The war danger comes our way--We
prepare to defend the house--The danger over and my brother leaves


The book--The Saladero, or killing-grounds, and their smell--Walls
built of bullocks' skulls--A pestilential city--River water and Aljibe
water--Days of lassitude--Novel scenes--Home again--Typhus--My first
day out--Birthday reflections--What I asked of life--A boy's mind--A
brother's resolution--End of our thousand and one nights--A reading
spell--My boyhood ends in disaster


A severe illness--Case pronounced hopeless--How it affected me--
Religious doubts and a mind distressed--Lawless thoughts--Conversation
with an old gaucho about religion--George Combe and the desire for


The soul's loneliness--My mother and her death--A mother's love for
her son--Her character--Anecdotes--A mystery and a revelation--The
autumnal migration of birds--Moonlight vigils--My absent brother's
return--He introduces me to Darwin's works--A new philosophy of life--



Preamble--The house where I was born--The singular Ombu tree--A tree
without a name--The plain--The ghost of a murdered slave--Our
playmate, the old sheep-dog--A first riding-lesson--The cattle: an
evening scene--My mother--Captain Scott--The hermit and his awful

It was never my intention to write an autobiography. Since I took to
writing in my middle years I have, from time to time, related some
incident of my boyhood, and these are contained in various chapters in
_The Naturalist in La Plata, Birds and Man, Adventures among Birds,_
and other works, also in two or three magazine articles: all this
material would have been kept back if I had contemplated such a book
as this. When my friends have asked me in recent years why I did not
write a history of my early life on the pampas, my answer was that I
had already told all that was worth telling in these books. And I
really believed it was so; for when a person endeavours to recall his
early life in its entirety he finds it is not possible: he is like
one who ascends a hill to survey the prospect before him on a day of
heavy cloud and shadow, who sees at a distance, now here, now there,
some feature in the landscape--hill or wood or tower or spire--touched
and made conspicuous by a transitory sunbeam while all else remains in
obscurity. The scenes, people, events we are able by an effort to call
up do not present themselves in order; there is no order, no sequence
or regular progression--nothing, in fact, but isolated spots or
patches, brightly illumined and vividly seen, in the midst of a wide
shrouded mental landscape.

It is easy to fall into the delusion that the few things thus
distinctly remembered and visualized are precisely those which were
most important in our life, and on that account were saved by memory
while all the rest has been permanently blotted out. That is indeed
how our memory serves and fools us; for at some period of a man's
life--at all events of some lives--in some rare state of the mind, it
is all at once revealed to him as by a miracle that nothing is ever
blotted out.

It was through falling into some such state as that, during which I
had a wonderfully clear and continuous vision of the past, that I was
tempted--forced I may say--to write this account of my early years. I
will relate the occasion, as I imagine that the reader who is a
psychologist will find as much to interest him in this incident as in
anything else contained in the book.

I was feeling weak and depressed when I came down from London one
November evening to the south coast: the sea, the clear sky, the
bright colours of the afterglow kept me too long on the front in an
east wind in that low condition, with the result that I was laid up
for six weeks with a very serious illness. Yet when it was over I
looked back on those six weeks as a happy time! Never had I thought so
little of physical pain. Never had I felt confinement less--I who
feel, when I am out of sight of living, growing grass, and out of
sound of birds' voices and all rural sounds, that I am not properly

On the second day of my illness, during an interval of comparative
ease, I fell into recollections of my childhood, and at once I had
that far, that forgotten past with me again as I had never previously
had it. It was not like that mental condition, known to most persons,
when some sight or sound or, more frequently, the perfume of some
flower, associated with our early life, restores the past suddenly and
so vividly that it is almost an illusion. That is an intensely
emotional condition and vanishes as quickly as it comes. This was
different. To return to the simile and metaphor used at the beginning,
it was as if the cloud shadows and haze had passed away and the entire
wide prospect beneath me made clearly visible. Over it all my eyes
could range at will, choosing this or that point to dwell on, to
examine it in all its details; and, in the case of some person known
to me as a child, to follow his life till it ended or passed from
sight; then to return to the same point again to repeat the process
with other lives and resume my rambles in the old familiar haunts.

What a happiness it would be, I thought, in spite of discomfort and
pain and danger, if this vision would continue! It was not to be
expected; nevertheless it did not vanish, and on the second day I set
myself to try and save it from the oblivion which would presently
cover it again. Propped up with pillows I began with pencil and
writing-pad to put it down in some sort of order, and went on with it
at intervals during the whole six weeks of my confinement, and in this
way produced the first rough draft of the book.

And all this time I never ceased wondering at my own mental state; I
thought of it when, quickly tired, my trembling fingers dropped the
pencil; or when I woke from uneasy sleep to find the vision still
before me, inviting, insistently calling to me, to resume my childish
rambles and adventures of long ago in that strange world where I first
saw the light.

It was to me a marvellous experience; to be here, propped up with
pillows in a dimly-lighted room, the night-nurse idly dosing by the
fire; the sound of the everlasting wind in my ears, howling outside
and dashing the rain like hailstones against the window-panes; to be
awake to all this, feverish and ill and sore, conscious of my danger
too, and at the same time to be thousands of miles away, out in the
sun and wind, rejoicing in other sights and sounds, happy again with
that ancient long-lost and now recovered happiness!

During the three years that have passed since I had that strange
experience, I have from time to time, when in the mood, gone back to
the book and have had to cut it down a good deal and to reshape it, as
in the first draft it would have made too long and formless a history.

The house where I was born, on the South American pampas, was quaintly
named _Los Veinte-cinco Ombues,_ which means "The Twenty-five Ombu
Trees," there being just twenty-five of these indigenous trees--
gigantic in size, and standing wide apart in a row about 400 yards
long. The ombu is a very singular tree indeed, and being the only
representative of tree-vegetation, natural to the soil, on those great
level plains, and having also many curious superstitions connected
with it, it is a romance in itself. It belongs to the rare Phytolacca
family, and has an immense girth--forty or fifty feet in some cases;
at the same time the wood is so soft and spongy that it can be cut
into with a knife, and is utterly unfit for firewood, for when cut up
it refuses to dry, but simply rots away like a ripe water-melon. It
also grows slowly, and its leaves, which are large, glossy and deep
green, like laurel leaves, are poisonous; and because of its
uselessness it will probably become extinct, like the graceful pampas
grass in the same region. In this exceedingly practical age men
quickly lay the axe at the root of things which, in their view, only
cumber the ground; but before other trees had been planted the
antiquated and grand-looking ombu had its uses; it served as a
gigantic landmark to the traveller on the great monotonous plains, and
also afforded refreshing shade to man and horse in summer; while the
native doctor or herbalist would sometimes pluck a leaf for a patient
requiring a very violent remedy for his disorder. Our trees were about
a century old and very large, and, as they stood on an elevation, they
could be easily seen at a distance of ten miles. At noon in summer the
cattle and sheep, of which we had a large number, used to rest in
their shade; one large tree also afforded us children a splendid play-
house, and we used to carry up a number of planks to construct safe
bridges from branch to branch, and at noon, when our elders were
sleeping their siesta, we would have our arboreal games unmolested.

Besides the famous twenty-five, there was one other tree of a
different species, growing close to the house, and this was known all
over the neighbourhood as "The Tree," this proud name having been
bestowed on it because it was the only one of the kind known in that
part of the country; our native neighbours always affirmed that it was
the only one in the world. It was a fine large old tree, with a white
bark, long smooth white thorns, and dark-green undeciduous foliage.
Its blossoming time was in November--a month about as hot as an
English July--and it would then become covered with tassels of minute
wax-like flowers, pale straw-colour, and of a wonderful fragrance,
which the soft summer wind would carry for miles on its wings. And in
this way our neighbours would discover that the flowering season had
come to the tree they so much admired, and they would come to beg for
a branch to take home with them to perfume their lowly houses.

The pampas are, in most places, level as a billiard-table; just where
we lived, however, the country happened to be undulating, and our
house stood on the summit of one of the highest elevations. Before the
house stretched a great grassy plain, level to the horizon, while at
the back it sloped abruptly down to a broad, deep stream, which
emptied itself in the river Plata, about six miles to the east. This
stream, with its three ancient red willow-trees growing on the banks,
was a source of endless pleasure to us. Whenever we went down to play
on the banks, the fresh penetrating scent of the moist earth had a
strangely exhilarating effect, making us wild with joy. I am able now
to recall these sensations, and believe that the sense of smell, which
seems to diminish as we grow older, until it becomes something
scarcely worthy of being called a sense, is nearly as keen in little
children as in the inferior animals, and, when they live with nature,
contributes as much to their pleasure as sight or hearing. I have
often observed that small children, when brought on to low, moist
ground from a high level, give loose to a sudden spontaneous gladness,
running, shouting, and rolling over the grass just like dogs, and I
have no doubt that the fresh smell of the earth is the cause of their
joyous excitement.

Our house was a long low structure, built of brick, and, being very
old, naturally had the reputation of being haunted. A former
proprietor, half a century before I was born, once had among his
slaves a very handsome young negro, who, on account of his beauty and
amiability, was a special favourite with his mistress. Her preference
filled his poor silly brains with dreams and aspirations, and,
deceived by her gracious manner, he one day ventured to approach her
in the absence of his master and told her his feelings. She could not
forgive so terrible an insult to her pride, and when her husband
returned went to him, white with indignation, and told him how this
miserable slave had abused their kindness. The husband had an
implacable heart, and at his command the offender was suspended by the
wrists to a low, horizontal branch of "The Tree," and there, in sight
of his master and mistress, he was scourged to death by his fellow-
slaves. His battered body was then taken down and buried in a deep
hollow at some little distance from the last of the long row of ombu
trees. It was the ghost of this poor black, whose punishment had been
so much heavier than his offence deserved, that was supposed to haunt
the place. It was not, however, a conventional ghost, stalking about
in a white sheet; those who had seen it averred that it invariably
rose up from the spot where the body had been buried, like a pale,
luminous exhalation from the earth, and, assuming a human shape,
floated slowly towards the house, and roamed about the great trees,
or, seating itself on an old projecting root, would remain motionless
for hours in a dejected attitude. I never saw it.

Our constant companion and playmate in those days was a dog, whose
portrait has never faded from remembrance, for he was a dog with
features and a personality which impressed themselves deeply on the
mind. He came to us in a rather mysterious manner. One summer evening
the shepherd was galloping round the flock, and trying by means of
much shouting to induce the lazy sheep to move homewards. A strange-
looking lame dog suddenly appeared on the scene, as if it had dropped
from the clouds, and limping briskly after the astonished and
frightened sheep, drove them straight home and into the fold; and,
after thus earning his supper and showing what stuff was in him, he
established himself at the house, where he was well received. He was a
good-sized animal, with a very long body, a smooth black coat, tan
feet, muzzle, and "spectacles," and a face of extraordinary length,
which gave him a profoundly-wise baboon-like expression. One of his
hind legs had been broken or otherwise injured, so that he limped and
shuffled along in a peculiar lopsided fashion; he had no tail, and his
ears had been cropped close to his head: altogether he was like an old
soldier returned from the wars, where he had received many hard
knocks, besides having had sundry portions of his anatomy shot away.

No name to fit this singular canine visitor could be found, although
he responded readily enough to the word _Pechicho,_ which is used to
call any unnamed pup by, like pussy for a cat. So it came to pass that
this word _pechicho_--equivalent to "doggie" in English--stuck to him
for only name until the end of the chapter; and the end was that,
after spending some years with us, he mysteriously disappeared.

He very soon proved to us that he understood children as well as
sheep; at all events he would allow them to tease and pull him about
most unmercifully, and actually appeared to enjoy it. Our first
riding-lessons were taken on his back; but old Pechicho eventually
made one mistake, after which he was relieved from the labour of
carrying us. When I was about four years old, my two elder brothers,
in the character of riding-masters, set me on his back, and, in order
to test my capacity for sticking on under difficulties, they rushed
away, calling him. The old dog, infected with the pretended
excitement, bounded after them, and I was thrown and had my leg
broken, for, as the poet says--

     Children, they are very little,
     And their bones are very brittle.

Luckily their little brittle bones quickly solder, and it did not take
me long to recover from the effects of this mishap.

No doubt my canine steed was as much troubled as any one at the
accident. I seem to see the wise old fellow now, sitting in that
curious one-sided fashion he had acquired so as to rest his lame leg,
his mouth opened to a kind of immense smile, and his brown benevolent
eyes regarding us with just such an expression as one sees in a
faithful old negress nursing a flock of troublesome white children--so
proud and happy to be in charge of the little ones of a superior race!

All that I remember of my early life at this place comes between the
ages of three or four and five; a period which, to the eye of memory,
appears like a wide plain blurred over with a low-lying mist, with
here and there a group of trees, a house, a hill, or other large
object, standing out in the clear air with marvellous distinctness.
The picture that most often presents itself is of the cattle coming
home in the evening; the green quiet plain extending away from the
gate to the horizon; the western sky flushed with sunset hues, and the
herd of four or five hundred cattle trotting homewards with loud
lowings and bellowings, raising a great cloud of dust with their
hoofs, while behind gallop the herdsmen urging them on with wild
cries. Another picture is of my mother at the close of the day, when
we children, after our supper of bread and milk, join in a last grand
frolic on the green before the house. I see her sitting out of doors
watching our sport with a smile, her book lying in her lap, and the
last rays of the setting sun shining on her face.

When I think of her I remember with gratitude that our parents seldom
or never punished us, and never, unless we went too far in our
domestic dissensions or tricks, even chided us. This, I am convinced,
is the right attitude for parents to observe, modestly to admit that
nature is wiser than they are, and to let their little ones follow, as
far as possible, the bent of their own minds, or whatever it is they
have in place of minds. It is the attitude of the sensible hen towards
her ducklings, when she has had frequent experience of their
incongruous ways, and is satisfied that they know best what is good
for them; though, of course, their ways seem peculiar to her, and she
can never entirely sympathize with their fancy for going into water. I
need not be told that the hen is after all only step-mother to her
ducklings, since I am contending that the civilized woman--the
artificial product of our self-imposed conditions--cannot have the
same relation to her offspring as the uncivilized woman really has to
hers. The comparison, therefore, holds good, the mother with us being
practically step-mother to children of another race; and if she is
sensible, and amenable to nature's teaching, she will attribute their
seemingly unsuitable ways and appetites to the right cause, and not to
a hypothetical perversity or inherent depravity of heart, about which
many authors will have spoken to her in many books:

     But though they wrote it all by rote
     They did not write it right.

Of all the people outside of the domestic circle known to me in those
days, two individuals only are distinctly remembered. They were
certainly painted by memory in very strong unfading colours, so that
now they seem to stand like living men in a company of pale phantom
forms. This is probably due to the circumstance that they were
considerably more grotesque in appearance than the others, like old
Pechicho among our dogs--all now forgotten save him.

One was an Englishman named Captain Scott, who used to visit us
occasionally for a week's shooting or fishing, for he was a great
sportsman. We were all extremely fond of him, for he was one of those
simple men that love and sympathize with children; besides that, he
used to come to us from some distant wonderful place where sugar-plums
were made, and to our healthy appetites, unaccustomed to sweets of any
description, these things tasted like an angelic kind of food. He was
an immense man, with a great round face of a purplish-red colour, like
the sun setting in glory, and surrounded with a fringe of silvery-
white hair and whiskers, standing out like the petals round the disc
of a sunflower. It was always a great time when Captain Scott arrived,
and while he alighted from his horse we would surround him with loud
demonstrations of welcome, eager for the treasures which made his
pockets bulge out on all sides. When he went out gunning he always
remembered to shoot a hawk or some strangely-painted bird for us; it
was even better when he went fishing, for then he took us with him,
and while he stood motionless on the bank, rod in hand, looking, in
the light-blue suit he always wore, like a vast blue pillar crowned
with that broad red face, we romped on the sward, and revelled in the
dank fragrance of the earth and rushes.

I have not the faintest notion of who Captain Scott was, or of what he
was ever captain, or whether residence in a warm climate or hard
drinking had dyed his broad countenance with that deep magenta red,
nor of how and when he finished his earthly career; for when we moved
away the huge purple-faced strange-looking man dropped for ever out of
our lives; yet in my mind how beautiful his gigantic image looks! And
to this day I bless his memory for all the sweets he gave me, in a
land where sweets were scarce, and for his friendliness to me when I
was a very small boy.

The second well-remembered individual was also only an occasional
visitor at our house, and was known all over the surrounding country
as the Hermit, for his name was never discovered. He was perpetually
on the move, visiting in turn every house within a radius of forty or
fifty miles; and once about every seven or eight weeks he called on us
to receive a few articles of food--enough for the day's consumption.
Money he always refused with gestures of intense disgust, and he would
also decline cooked meat and broken bread. When hard biscuits were
given him, he would carefully examine them, and if one was found
chipped or cracked he would return it, pointing out the defect, and
ask for a sound one in return. He had a small, sun-parched face, and
silvery long hair; but his features were fine, his teeth white and
even, his eyes clear grey and keen as a falcon's. There was always a
set expression of deep mental anguish on his face, intensified with
perhaps a touch of insanity, which made it painful to look at him. As
he never accepted money or anything but food, he of course made his
own garments--and what garments they were! Many years ago I used to
see, strolling about St. James's Park, a huge hairy gentleman, with a
bludgeon in his hand, and clothed with a bear's skin to which the head
and paws were attached. It may be that this eccentric individual is
remembered by some of my readers, but I assure them that he was quite
a St. James's Park dandy compared with my hermit. He wore a pair of
gigantic shoes, about a foot broad at the toes, made out of thick cow-
hide with the hair on; and on his head was a tall rimless cow-hide hat
shaped like an inverted flower-pot. His bodily covering was, however,
the most extraordinary: the outer garment, if garment it can be
called, resembled a very large mattress in size and shape, with the
ticking made of innumerable pieces of raw hide sewn together. It was
about a foot in thickness and stuffed with sticks, stones, hard lumps
of clay, rams' horns, bleached bones, and other hard heavy objects; it
was fastened round him with straps of hide, and reached nearly to the
ground. The figure he made in this covering was most horribly uncouth
and grotesque, and his periodical visits used to throw us into a great
state of excitement. And as if this awful burden with which he had
saddled himself--enough to have crushed down any two ordinary men--was
not sufficient, he had weighted the heavy stick used to support his
steps with a great ball at the end, also with a large circular bell-
shaped object surrounding the middle. On arriving at the house, where
the dogs would become frantic with terror and rage at sight of him, he
would stand resting himself for eight or ten minutes; then in a
strange language, which might have been Hebrew or Sanscrit, for there
was no person learned enough in the country to understand it, he would
make a long speech or prayer in a clear ringing voice, intoning his
words in a monotonous sing-song. His speech done, he would beg, in
broken Spanish, for the usual charity; and, after receiving it, he
would commence another address, possibly invoking blessings of all
kinds on the donor, and lasting an unconscionable time. Then, bidding
a ceremonious farewell, he would take his departure.

From the sound of certain oft-recurring expressions in his recitations
we children called him "Con-stair Lo-vair"; perhaps some clever pundit
will be able to tell me what these words mean--the only fragment saved
of the hermit's mysterious language. It was commonly reported that he
had at one period of his life committed some terrible crime, and that,
pursued by the phantoms of remorse, he had fled to this distant
region, where he would never be met and denounced by any former
companion, and had adopted his singular mode of life by way of
penance. This was, of course, mere conjecture, for nothing could be
extracted from him. When closely questioned or otherwise interfered
with, then old Con-stair Lo-vair would show that his long cruel
penance had not yet banished the devil from his heart. A terrible
wrath would disfigure his countenance and kindle his eyes with
demoniac fire; and in sharp ringing tones, that wounded like strokes,
he would pour forth a torrent of words in his unknown language,
doubtless invoking every imaginable curse on his tormentor.

For upwards of twenty years after I as a small child made his
acquaintance he continued faithfully pursuing his dreary rounds,
exposed to cold and rain in winter and to the more trying heats of
summer; until at last he was discovered lying dead on the plain,
wasted by old age and famine to a mere skeleton, and even in death
still crushed down with that awful burden he had carried for so many
years. Thus, consistent to the end, and with his secret untold to any
sympathetic human soul, perished poor old Con-stair Lo-vair, the
strangest of all strange beings I have met with in my journey through



We quit our old home--A winter day journey--Aspect of the country--Our
new home--A prisoner in the barn--The plantation--A paradise of rats--
An evening scene--The people of the house--A beggar on horseback--Mr.
Trigg our schoolmaster--His double nature--Impersonates an old woman--
Reading Dickens--Mr. Trigg degenerates--Once more a homeless wanderer
on the great plain.

The incidents and impressions recorded in the preceding chapter
relate, as I have said, to the last year or two of my five years of
life in the place of my birth. Further back my memory refuses to take
me. Some wonderful persons go back to their second or even their first
year; I can't, and could only tell from hearsay what I was and did up
to the age of three. According to all accounts, the clouds of glory I
brought into the world--a habit of smiling at everything I looked at
and at every person that approached me--ceased to be visibly trailed
at about that age; I only remember myself as a common little boy--just
a little wild animal running about on its hind legs, amazingly
interested in the world in which it found itself.

Here, then, I begin, aged five, at an early hour on a bright, cold
morning in June--midwinter in that southern country of great plains or
pampas; impatiently waiting for the loading and harnessing to be
finished; then the being lifted to the top with the other little ones
--at that time we were five; finally, the grand moment when the start
was actually made with cries and much noise of stamping and snorting
of horses and rattling of chains. I remember a good deal of that long
journey, which began at sunrise and ended between the lights some time
after sunset; for it was my very first, and I was going out into the
unknown. I remember how, at the foot of the slope at the top of which
the old home stood, we plunged into the river, and there was more
noise and shouting and excitement until the straining animals brought
us safely out on the other side. Gazing back, the low roof of the
house was lost to view before long, but the trees--the row of twenty-
five giant ombu-trees which gave the place its name--were visible,
blue in the distance, until we were many miles on our way.

The undulating country had been left behind; before us and on both
sides the land, far as one could see, was absolutely flat, everywhere
green with the winter grass, but flowerless at that season, and with
the gleam of water, over the whole expanse. It had been a season of
great rains, and much of the flat country had been turned into shallow
lakes. That was all there was to see, except the herds of cattle and
horses and an occasional horseman galloping over the plain, and the
sight at long distances of a grove or small plantation of trees,
marking the site of an estancia, or sheep and cattle farm, these
groves appearing like islands on the sea-like flat country. At length
this monotonous landscape faded and vanished quite away, and the
lowing of cattle and tremulous bleating of sheep died out of hearing,
so that the last leagues were a blank to me, and I only came back to
my senses when it was dark and they lifted me down, so stiff with cold
and drowsy that I could hardly stand on my feet.

Next morning I found myself in a new and strange world. The house to
my childish eyes appeared of vast size: it consisted of a long range
of rooms on the ground, built of brick, with brick floors and roof
thatched with rushes. The rooms at one end, fronting the road, formed
a store, where the people of the surrounding country came to buy and
sell, and what they brought to sell was "the produce of the country"--
hides and wool and tallow in bladders, horsehair in sacks, and native
cheeses. In return they could purchase anything they wanted-knives,
spurs, rings for horse-gear, clothing, yerba mate and sugar; tobacco,
castor-oil, salt and pepper, and oil and vinegar, and such furniture
as they required--iron pots, spits for roasting, cane-chairs, and
coffins. A little distance from the house were the kitchen, bakery,
dairy, huge barns for storing the produce, and wood-piles big as
houses, the wood being nothing but stalks of the cardoon thistle or
wild artichoke, which burns like paper, so that immense quantities had
to be collected to supply fuel for a large establishment.

Two of the smallest of us were handed over to the care of a sharp
little native boy, aged about nine or ten years, who was told to take
us out of the way and keep us amused. The first place he took us to
was the great barn, the door of which stood open; it was nearly empty
just then, and was the biggest interior I had ever seen; how big it
really was I don't know, but it seemed to me about as big as Olympia
or the Agricultural Hall, or the Crystal Palace would be to any
ordinary little London boy. No sooner were we in this vast place than
we saw a strange and startling thing--a man, sitting or crouching on
the floor, his hands before him, the wrists tied together, his body
bound with thongs of raw hide to a big post which stood in the centre
of the floor and supported the beam of the loft above. He was a young
man, not more than twenty perhaps, with black hair and a smooth, pale,
sallow face. His eyes were cast down, and he paid no attention to us,
standing there staring at him, and he appeared to be suffering or ill.
After a few moments I shrank away to the door and asked our conductor
in a frightened whisper why he was tied up to a post there. Our native
boy seemed to be quite pleased at the effect on us, and answered
cheerfully that he was a murderer--he had committed a murder
somewhere, and had been caught last evening, but as it was too late to
take him to the lock-up at the village, which was a long distance
away, they had brought him here as the most convenient place, and tied
him in the barn to keep him safe. Later on they would come and take
him away.

Murder was a common word in those days, but I had not at that time
grasped its meaning; I had seen no murder done, nor any person killed
in a fight; I only knew that it must be something wicked and horrible.
Nevertheless, the shock I had received passed away in the course of
that first morning in a new world; but what I had seen in the barn was
not forgotten: the image of that young man tied to the post, his bent
head and downward gaze, and ghastly face shaded by lank black hair, is
as plain to me now as if I had seen him but yesterday.

A little back from the buildings were gardens and several acres of
plantation--both shade and fruit trees. Viewed from the outside, it
all looked like an immense poplar grove, on account of the double rows
of tall Lombardy poplar trees at the borders. The whole ground,
including the buildings, was surrounded by an immense ditch or moat.

Up till now I had lived without trees, with the exception of those
twenty-five I have spoken of, which formed a landmark for all the
country round; so that this great number--hundreds and thousands--of
trees was a marvel and delight. But the plantation and what it was to
me will form the subject of a chapter by itself. It was a paradise of
rats, as I very soon discovered. Our little native guide and
instructor was full of the subject, and promised to let us see the
rats with our own eyes as soon as the sun went down; that would finish
the day of strange sights with the strangest of all.

Accordingly, when the time came he led us to a spot beyond the barns
and wood-piles, where all the offal of slaughtered animals, bones, and
unconsumed meats from the kitchen, and rubbish from a wasteful,
disorderly establishment, were cast out each day. Here we all sat down
in a row on a log among the dead weeds on the border of the evil-
smelling place, and he told us to be very still and speak no word;
for, said he, unless we move or make a sound the rats will not heed
us; they will regard us as so many wooden images. And so it proved,
for very soon after the sun had gone down we began to see rats
stealing out of the woodpile and from the dead weeds on every side,
all converging to that one spot where a generous table was spread for
them and for the brown carrion hawks that came by day. Big, old, grey
rats with long, scaly tails, others smaller, and smaller still, the
least of all being little bigger than mice, until the whole place
swarmed with them, all busily hunting for food, feeding, squealing,
fighting, and biting. I had not known that the whole world contained
so many rats as I now saw congregated before me.

Suddenly our guide jumped up and loudly clapped his hands, which
produced a curious effect--a short, sharp little shriek of terror from
the busy multitude, followed by absolute stillness, every rat frozen
to stone, which lasted for a second or two; then a swift scuttling
away in all directions, vanishing with a rustling sound through the
dead grass and wood.

It had been a fine spectacle, and we enjoyed it amazingly; it raised
_Mus decumanus_ to a beast of immense importance in my mind. Soon he
became even more important in an unpleasant way when it was discovered
that rats were abundant indoors as well as out. The various noises
they made at night were terrifying; they would run over our beds and
sometimes we would wake up to find that one had got in between the
sheets and was trying frantically to get out. Then we would yell, and
half the house would be roused and imagine some dreadful thing. But
when they found out the cause, they would only laugh at and rebuke us
for being such poor little cowards.

But what an astonishing place was this to which we had come! The great
house and many buildings and the people in it, the foss, the trees
that enchanted me, the dirt and disorder, vile rats and fleas and
pests of all sorts! The place had been for some years in the hands of
a Spanish or native family--indolent, careless, happy-go-lucky people.
The husband and wife were never in harmony or agreement about anything
for five minutes together, and by and by he would go away to the
capital "on business," which would keep him from home for weeks, and
even months, at a stretch. And she, with three light-headed, grown-up
daughters, would be left to run the establishment with half-a-dozen
hired men and women to assist her. I remember her well, as she stayed
on a few days in order to hand over the place to us--an excessively
fat, inactive woman, who sat most of the day in an easy-chair,
surrounded by her pets--lap-dogs, Amazon parrots, and several
shrieking parakeets.

Before many days she left, with all her noisy crowd of dogs and birds
and daughters, and of the events of the succeeding days and weeks
nothing remains in memory except one exceedingly vivid impression--my
first sight of a beggar on horseback. It was by no means an uncommon
sight in those days when, as the gauchos were accustomed to say, a man
without a horse was a man without legs; but it was new to me when one
morning I saw a tall man on a tall horse ride up to our gate,
accompanied by a boy of nine or ten on a pony. I was struck with the
man's singular appearance, sitting upright and stiff in his saddle,
staring straight before him. He had long grey hair and beard, and wore
a tall straw hat shaped like an inverted flower-pot, with a narrow
brim--a form of hat which had lately gone out of fashion among the
natives but was still used by a few. Over his clothes he wore a red
cloak or poncho, and heavy iron spurs on his feet, which were cased in
the _botas de potro_, or long stockings made of a colt's untanned

Arrived at the gate he shouted _Ave Maria purissima_ in a loud voice,
then proceeded to give an account of himself, informing us that he was
a blind man and obliged to subsist on the charity of his neighbours.
They in their turn, he said, in providing him with all he required
were only doing good to themselves, seeing that those who showed the
greatest compassion towards their afflicted fellow-creatures were
regarded with special favour by the Powers above.

After delivering himself of all this and much more as if preaching a
sermon, he was assisted from his horse and led by the hand to the
front door, after which the boy drew back and folding his arms across
his breast stared haughtily at us children and the others who had
congregated at the spot. Evidently he was proud of his position as
page or squire or groom of the important person in the tall straw hat,
red cloak, and iron spurs, who galloped about the land collecting
tribute from the people and talking loftily about the Powers above.

Asked what he required at our hands the beggar replied that he wanted
yerba mate, sugar, bread, and some hard biscuits, also cut tobacco and
paper for cigarettes and some leaf tobacco for cigars. When all these
things had been given him, he was asked (not ironically) if there was
anything else we could supply him with, and he replied, Yes, he was
still in want of rice, flour, and farina, an onion or two, a head or
two of garlic, also salt, pepper, and pimento, or red pepper. And when
he had received all these comestibles and felt them safely packed in
his saddle-bags, he returned thanks, bade good-bye in the most
dignified manner, and was led back by the haughty little boy to his
tall horse.

 We had been settled some months in our new home, and I was just about
half way through my sixth year, when one morning at breakfast we
children were informed to our utter dismay that we could no longer be
permitted to run absolutely wild; that a schoolmaster had been engaged
who would live in the house and would have us in the schoolroom during
the morning and part of the afternoon.

Our hearts were heavy in us that day, while we waited apprehensively
for the appearance of the man who would exercise such a tremendous
power over us and would stand between us and our parents, especially
our mother, who had ever been our shield and refuge from all pains and
troubles. Up till now they had acted on the principle that children
were best left to themselves, that the more liberty they had the
better it was for them. Now it almost looked as if they were turning
against us; but we knew that it could not be so--we knew that every
slightest pain or grief that touched us was felt more keenly by our
mother than by ourselves, and we were compelled to believe her when
she told us that she, too, lamented the restraint that would be put
upon us, but knew that it would be for our ultimate good.

And on that very afternoon the feared man arrived, Mr. Trigg by name,
an Englishman, a short, stoutish, almost fat little man, with grey
hair, clean-shaved sunburnt face, a crooked nose which had been broken
or was born so, clever mobile mouth, and blue-grey eyes with a
humorous twinkle in them and crow's-feet at the corners. Only to us
youngsters, as we soon discovered, that humorous face and the
twinkling eyes were capable of a terrible sternness. He was loved, I
think, by adults generally, and regarded with feelings of an opposite
nature by children. For he was a schoolmaster who hated and despised
teaching as much as children in the wild hated to be taught. He
followed teaching because all work was excessively irksome to him, yet
he had to do something for a living, and this was the easiest thing he
could find to do. How such a man ever came to be so far from home in a
half-civilized country was a mystery, but there he was, a bachelor and
homeless man after twenty or thirty years on the pampas, with little
or no money in his pocket, and no belongings except his horse--he
never owned more than one at a time--and its cumbrous native saddle,
and the saddle-bags in which he kept his wardrobe and whatever he
possessed besides. He didn't own a box. On his horse, with his saddle-
bags behind him, he would journey about the land, visiting all the
English, Scotch, and Irish settlers, who were mostly sheep-farmers,
but religiously avoiding the houses of the natives. With the natives
he could not affiliate, and not properly knowing and incapable of
understanding them he regarded them with secret dislike and suspicion.
And by and by he would find a house where there were children old
enough to be taught their letters, and Mr. Trigg would be hired by the
month, like a shepherd or cowherd, to teach them, living with the
family. He would go on very well for a time, his failings being
condoned for the sake of the little ones; but by and by there would be
a falling-out, and Mr. Trigg would saddle his horse, buckle on the
saddle-bags, and ride forth over the wide plain in quest of a new
home. With us he made an unusually long stay; he liked good living and
comforts generally, and at the same time he was interested in the
things of the mind, which had no place in the lives of the British
settlers of that period; and now he found himself in a very
comfortable house, where there were books to read and people to
converse with who were not quite like the rude sheep- and cattle-
farmers he had been accustomed to live with. He was on his best
behaviour, and no doubt strove hard and not unsuccessfully to get the
better of his weaknesses. He was looked on as a great acquisition, and
made much of; in the school-room he was a tyrant, and having been
forbidden to punish us by striking, he restrained himself when to
thrash us would have been an immense relief to him. But pinching was
not striking, and he would pinch our ears until they almost bled. It
was a poor punishment and gave him little satisfaction, but it had to
serve. Out of school his temper would change as by magic. He was then
the life of the house, a delightful talker with an inexhaustible fund
of good stories, a good reader, mimic, and actor as well.

One afternoon we had a call from a quaint old Scotch dame, in a queer
dress, sunbonnet, and spectacles, who introduced herself as the wife
of Sandy Maclachlan, a sheep-farmer who lived about twenty-five miles
away. It wasn't right, she said, that such near neighbours should not
know one another, so she had ridden those few leagues to find out what
we were like. Established at the tea-table, she poured out a torrent
of talk in broadest Scotch, in her high-pitched cracked old-woman's
voice, and gave us an intimate domestic history of all the British
residents of the district. It was all about what delightful people
they were, and how even their little weaknesses--their love of the
bottle, their meannesses, their greed and low cunning--only served to
make them more charming. Never was there such a funny old dame or one
more given to gossip and scandal-mongering! Then she took herself off,
and presently we children, still under her spell, stole out to watch
her departure from the gate. But she was not there--she had vanished
unaccountably; and by and by what was our astonishment and disgust to
hear that the old Scotch body was none other than our own Mr. Trigg!
That our needle-sharp eyes, concentrated for an hour on her face, had
failed to detect the master who was so painfully familiar to us seemed
like a miracle.

Mr. Trigg confessed that play-acting was one of the things he had done
before quitting his country; but it was only one of a dozen or twenty
vocations which he had taken up at various times, only to drop them
again as soon as he made the discovery that they one and all entailed
months and even years of hard work if he was ever to fulfil his
ambitious desire of doing and being something great in the world. As a
reader he certainly was great, and every evening, when the evenings
were long, he would give a two hours' reading to the household.
Dickens was then the most popular writer in the world, and he usually
read Dickens, to the delight of his listeners. Here he could display
his histrionic qualities to the full. He impersonated every character
in the book, endowing him with voice, gestures, manner, and expression
that fitted him perfectly. It was more like a play than a reading.

"What should we do without Mr. Trigg?" our elders were accustomed to
say; but we little ones, remembering that it would not be the
beneficent countenance of Mr. Pickwick that would look on us in the
schoolroom on the following morning, only wished that Mr. Trigg was
far, far away.

Perhaps they made too much of him: at all events he fell into the
habit of going away every Saturday morning and not returning until the
following Monday. His week-end visit was always to some English or
Scotch neighbour, a sheep-farmer, ten or fifteen or twenty miles
distant, where the bottle or demi-john of white Brazilian rum was
always on the table. It was the British exile's only substitute for
his dear lost whisky in that far country. At home there was only tea
and coffee to drink. From these outings he would return on Monday
morning, quite sober and almost too dignified in manner, but with
inflamed eyes and (in the schoolroom) the temper of a devil. On one of
these occasions, something--our stupidity perhaps, or an exceptionally
bad headache--tried him beyond endurance, and taking down his
_revenque_, or native horse-whip made of raw hide, from the wall,
he began laying about him with such extraordinary fury that the room
was quickly in an uproar. Then all at once my mother appeared on the
scene, and the tempest was stilled, though the master, with the whip
in his uplifted hand, still stood, glaring with rage at us. She stood
silent a moment or two, her face very white, then spoke: "Children,
you may go and play now. School is over;" then, lest the full purport
of her words should not be understood, she added, "Your schoolmaster
is going to leave us."

It was an unspeakable relief, a joyful moment; yet on that very day,
and on the next before he rode away, I, even I who had been unjustly
and cruelly struck with a horsewhip, felt my little heart heavy in me
when I saw the change in his face--the dark, still, brooding look, and
knew that the thought of his fall and the loss of his home was
exceedingly bitter to him. Doubtless my mother noticed it, too, and
shed a few compassionate tears for the poor man, once more homeless on
the great plain. But he could not be kept after that insane outbreak.
To strike their children was to my parents a crime; it changed their
nature and degraded them, and Mr. Trigg could not be forgiven.

Mr. Trigg, as I have said before, was a long time with us, and the
happy deliverance I have related did not occur until I was near the
end of my eighth year. At the present stage of my story I am not yet
six, and the incident related in the following chapter, in which Mr.
Trigg figures, occurred when I was within a couple of months of
completing my sixth year.



The old dog Caesar--His powerful personality--Last days and end--The
old dog's burial--The fact of death is brought home to me--A child's
mental anguish--My mother comforts me--Limitations of the child's
mind--Fear of death--Witnessing the slaughter of cattle--A man in the
moat--Margarita, the nursery maid--Her beauty and lovableness--Her
death--I refuse to see her dead.

When recalling the impressions and experiences of that most eventful
sixth year, the one incident which looks biggest in memory, at all
events in the last half of that year, is the death of Caesar. There is
nothing in the past I can remember so well: it was indeed the most
important event of my childhood--the first thing in a young life which
brought the eternal note of sadness in.

It was in the early spring, about the middle of August, and I can even
remember that it was windy weather and bitterly cold for the time of
year, when the old dog was approaching his end.

Caesar was an old valued dog, although of no superior breed: he was
just an ordinary dog of the country, short-haired, with long legs and
a blunt muzzle. The ordinary dog or native cur was about the size of a
Scotch collie; Caesar was quite a third larger, and it was said of him
that he was as much above all other dogs of the house, numbering about
twelve or fourteen, in intelligence and courage as in size. Naturally,
he was the leader and master of the whole pack, and when he got up
with an awful growl, baring his big teeth, and hurled himself on the
others to chastise them for quarrelling or any other infringement of
dog law, they took it lying down. He was a black dog, now in his old
age sprinkled with white hairs all over his body, the face and legs
having gone quite grey. Caesar in a rage, or on guard at night, or
when driving cattle in from the plains, was a terrible being; with us
children he was mild-tempered and patient, allowing us to ride on his
back, just like old Pechicho the sheep-dog, described in the first
chapter. Now, in his decline, he grew irritable and surly, and ceased
to be our playmate. The last two or three months of his life were very
sad, and when it troubled us to see him so gaunt, with his big ribs
protruding from his sides, to watch his twitchings when he dozed,
groaning and wheezing the while, and marked, too, how painfully he
struggled to get up on his feet, we wanted to know why it was so--why
we could not give him something to make him well? For answer they
would open his great mouth to show us his teeth--the big blunt canines
and old molars worn down to stumps. Old age was what ailed him--he was
thirteen years old, and that did verily seem to me a great age, for I
was not half that, yet it seemed to me that I had been a very, very
long time in the world.

No one dreamed of such a thing as putting an end to him--no hint of
such a thing was ever spoken. It was not the custom in that country to
shoot an old dog because he was past work. I remember his last day,
and how often we came to look at him and tried to comfort him with
warm rugs and the offer of food and drink where he was lying in a
sheltered place, no longer able to stand up. And that night he died:
we knew it as soon as we were up in the morning. Then, after
breakfast, during which we had been very solemn and quiet, our
schoolmaster said: "We must bury him today--at twelve o'clock, when I
am free, will be the best time; the boys can come with me, and old
John can bring his spade." This announcement greatly excited us, for
we had never seen a dog buried, and had never even heard of such a
thing having ever been done.

About noon that day old Caesar, dead and stiff, was taken by one of
the workmen to a green open spot among the old peach trees, where his
grave had already been dug. We followed our schoolmaster and watched
while the body was lowered and the red earth shovelled in. The grave
was deep, and Mr. Trigg assisted in filling it, puffing very much over
the task and stopping at intervals to mop his face with his coloured
cotton handkerchief.

Then, when all was done, while we were still standing silently around,
it came into Mr. Trigg's mind to improve the occasion. Assuming his
schoolroom expression he looked round at us and said solemnly: "That's
the end. Every dog has his day and so has every man; and the end is
the same for both. We die like old Caesar, and are put into the ground
and have the earth shovelled over us."

Now these simple, common words affected me more than any other words I
have heard in my life. They pierced me to the heart. I had heard
something terrible--too terrible to think of, incredible--and yet--and
yet if it was not so, why had he said it? Was it because he hated us,
just because we were children and he had to teach us our lessons, and
wanted to torture us? Alas! no, I could not believe that! Was this,
then, the horrible fate that awaited us all? I had heard of death--I
knew there was such a thing; I knew that all animals had to die, also
that some men died. For how could any one, even a child in its sixth
year, overlook such a fact, especially in the country of my birth--a
land of battle, murder, and sudden death? I had not forgotten the
young man tied to the post in the barn who had killed some one, and
would perhaps, I had been told, be killed himself as a punishment. I
knew, in fact, that there was good and evil in the world, good and bad
men, and the bad men--murderers, thieves, and liars--would all have to
die, just like animals; but that there was any life after death I did
not know. All the others, myself and my own people included, were good
and would never taste death. How it came about that I had got no
further in my system or philosophy of life I cannot say; I can only
suppose that my mother had not yet begun to give me instruction in
such matters on account of my tender years, or else that she had done
so and that I had understood it in my own way. Yet, as I discovered
later, she was a religious woman, and from infancy I had been taught
to kneel and say a little prayer each evening: "Now I lay me down to
sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep"; but who the Lord was or what
my soul was I had no idea. It was just a pretty little way of saying
in rhyme that I was going to bed. My world was a purely material one,
and a most wonderful world it was, but how I came to be in it I didn't
know; I only knew (or imagined) that I would be in it always, seeing
new and strange things every day, and never, never get tired of it. In
literature it is only in Vaughan, Traherne, and other mystics, that I
find any adequate expression of that perpetual rapturous delight in
nature and my own existence which I experienced at that period.

And now these never-to-be-forgotten words spoken over the grave of our
old dog had come to awaken me from that beautiful dream of perpetual

When I recall this event I am less astonished at my ignorance than at
the intensity of the feeling I experienced, the terrible darkness it
brought on so young a mind. The child's mind we think, and in fact
know, is like that of the lower animals; or if higher than the animal
mind, it is not so high as that of the simplest savage. He cannot
concentrate his thought--he cannot think at all; his consciousness is
in its dawn; he revels in colours, in odours, is thrilled by touch and
taste and sound, and is like a well-nourished pup or kitten at play on
a green turf in the sunshine. This being so, one would have thought
that the pain of the revelation I had received would have quickly
vanished--that the vivid impressions of external things would have
blotted it out and restored the harmony. But it was not so; the pain
continued and increased until it was no longer to be borne; then I
sought my mother, first watching until she was alone in her room. Yet
when with her I feared to speak lest with a word she should confirm
the dreadful tidings. Looking down, she all at once became alarmed at
the sight of my face, and began to question me. Then, struggling
against my tears, I told her of the words which had been spoken at the
old dog's burial, and asked her if it was true, if I--if she--if all
of us had to die and be buried in the ground? She replied that it was
not wholly true; it was only true in a way, since our bodies had to
die and be buried in the earth, but we had an immortal part which
could not die. It was true that old Caesar had been a good, faithful
dog, and felt and understood things almost like a human being, and
most persons believed that when a dog died he died wholly and had no
after-life. We could not know that; some very great, good men had
thought differently; they believed that the animals, like us, would
live again. That was also her belief--her strong hope; but we could
not know for certain, because it had been hidden from us. For
ourselves, we knew that we could not really die, because God Himself,
who made us and all things, had told us so, and His promise of eternal
life had been handed down to us in His Book--in the Bible.

To all this and much more I listened trembling, with a fearful
interest, and when I had once grasped the idea that death when it came
to me, as it must, would leave me alive after all--that, as she
explained, the part of me that really mattered, the myself, the I am
I, which knew and considered things, would never perish, I experienced
a sudden immense relief. When I went out from her side again I wanted
to run and jump for joy and cleave the air like a bird. For I had been
in prison and had suffered torture, and was now free again--death
would not destroy me!

There was another result of my having unburdened my heart to my
mother. She had been startled at the poignancy of the feeling I had
displayed, and, greatly blaming herself for having left me too long in
that ignorant state, began to give me religious instruction. It was
too early, since at that age it was not possible for me to rise to the
conception of an immaterial world. That power, I imagine, comes later
to the normal child at the age of ten or twelve. To tell him when he
is five or six or seven that God is in all places at once and sees all
things, only produces the idea of a wonderfully active and quick-
sighted person, with eyes like a bird's, able to see what is going on
all round. A short time ago I read an anecdote of a little girl who,
on being put to bed by her mother, was told not to be afraid in the
dark, since God would be there to watch and guard her while she slept.
Then, taking the candle, the mother went downstairs; but presently her
little girl came down too, in her nightdress, and, when questioned,
replied, "I'm going to stay down here in the light, mummy, and you can
go up to my room and sit with God." My own idea of God at that time
was no higher. I would lie awake thinking of him there in the room,
puzzling over the question as to how he could attend to all his
numerous affairs and spend so much time looking after me. Lying with
my eyes open, I could see nothing in the dark; still, I knew he was
there, because I had been told so, and this troubled me. But no sooner
would I close my eyes than his image would appear standing at a
distance of three or four feet from the head of the bed, in the form
of a column five feet high or so and about four feet in circumference.
The colour was blue, but varied in depth and intensity; on some nights
it was sky-blue, but usually of a deeper shade, a pure, soft,
beautiful blue like that of the morning-glory or wild geranium.

It would not surprise me to find that many persons have some such
material image or presentment of the spiritual entities they are
taught to believe in at too tender an age. Recently, in comparing
childish memories with a friend, he told me that he too always saw God
as a blue object, but of no definite shape.

That blue column haunted me at night for many months; I don't think it
quite vanished, ceasing to be anything but a memory, until I was
seven--a date far ahead of where we are now.

To return to that second blissful revelation which came to me from my
mother. Happy as it made me to know that death would not put an end to
my existence, my state after the first joyful relief was not one of
perfect happiness. All she said to comfort and make me brave had
produced its effect--I knew now that death was but a change to an even
greater bliss than I could have in this life. How could I, not yet
six, think otherwise than as she had told me to think, or have a
doubt? A mother is more to her child than any other being, human or
divine, can ever be to him in his subsequent life. He is as dependent
on her as any fledgling in the nest on its parent--even more, since
she warms his callow mind or soul as well as body.

Notwithstanding all this, the fear of death came back to me in a
little while, and for a long time disquieted me, especially when the
fact of death was brought sharply before me. These reminders were only
too frequent; there was seldom a day on which I did not see something
killed. When the killing was instantaneous, as when a bird was shot
and dropped dead like a stone, I was not disturbed; it was nothing but
a strange, exciting spectacle, but failed to bring the fact of death
home to me. It was chiefly when cattle were slaughtered that the
terror returned in its full force. And no wonder! The native manner of
killing a cow or bullock at that time was peculiarly painful.
Occasionally it would be slaughtered out of sight on the plain, and
the hide and flesh brought in by the men, but, as a rule, the beast
would be driven up close to the house to save trouble. One of the two
or three mounted men engaged in the operation would throw his lasso
over the horns, and, galloping off, pull the rope taut; a second man
would then drop from his horse, and running up to the animal behind,
pluck out his big knife and with two lightning-quick blows sever the
tendons of both hind legs. Instantly the beast would go down on his
haunches, and the same man, knife in hand, would flit round to its
front or side, and, watching his opportunity, presently thrust the
long blade into its throat just above the chest, driving it in to the
hilt and working it round; then when it was withdrawn a great torrent
of blood would pour out from the tortured beast, still standing on his
fore-legs, bellowing all the time with agony. At this point the
slaughterer would often leap lightly on to its back, stick his spurs
in its sides, and, using the flat of his long knife as a whip, pretend
to be riding a race, yelling with fiendish glee. The bellowing would
subside into deep, awful, sob-like sounds and chokings; then the
rider, seeing the animal about to collapse, would fling himself nimbly
off. The beast down, they would all run to it, and throwing themselves
on its quivering side as on a couch, begin making and lighting their

Slaughtering a cow was grand sport for them, and the more active and
dangerous the animal, the more prolonged the fight, the better they
liked it; they were as joyfully excited as at a fight with knives or
an ostrich hunt. To me it was an awful object-lesson, and held me
fascinated with horror. For this was death! The crimson torrents of
blood, the deep, human-like cries, made the beast appear like some
huge, powerful man caught in a snare by small, weak, but cunning
adversaries, who tortured him for their delight and mocked him in his

There were other occurrences about that time to keep the thoughts and
fear of death alive. One day a traveller came to the gate, and, after
unsaddling his horse, went about sixty or seventy yards away to a
shady spot, where he sat down on the green slope of the foss to cool
himself. He had been riding many hours in a burning sun, and wanted
cooling. He attracted everybody's attention on his arrival by his
appearance: middle-aged, with good features and curly brown hair and
beard, but huge--one of the biggest men I had ever seen; his weight
could not have been under about seventeen stone. Sitting or reclining
on the grass, he fell asleep, and rolling down the slope fell with a
tremendous splash into the water, which was about six feet deep. So
loud was the splash that it was heard by some of the men at work in
the barn, and running out to ascertain the cause, they found out what
had happened. The man had gone under and did not rise; with a good
deal of trouble he was raised up and drawn with ropes to the top of
the bank.

I gazed on him lying motionless, to all appearances stone dead--the
huge, ox-like man I had seen less than an hour ago, when he had
excited our wonder at his great size and strength, and now still in
death--dead as old Caesar under the ground with the grass growing over
him! Meanwhile the men who had hauled him out were busy with him,
turning him over and rubbing his body, and after about twelve or
fifteen minutes there was a gasp and signs of returning life, and by
and by he opened his eyes. The dead man was alive again; yet the shock
to me was just as great and the effect as lasting as if he had been
truly dead.

Another instance which will bring me down to the end of my sixth year
and the conclusion of this sad chapter. At this time we had a girl in
the house, whose sweet face is one of a little group of half a dozen
which I remember most vividly. She was a niece of our shepherd's wife,
an Argentine woman married to an Englishman, and came to us to look
after the smaller children. She was nineteen years old, a pale, slim,
pretty girl, with large dark eyes and abundant black hair. Margarita
had the sweetest smile imaginable, the softest voice and gentlest
manner, and was so much loved by everybody in the house that she was
like one of the family. Unhappily she was consumptive, and after a few
months had to be sent back to her aunt. Their little place was only
half a mile or so from the house, and every day my mother visited her,
doing all that was possible with such skill and remedies as she
possessed to give her ease, and providing her with delicacies. The
girl did not want a priest to visit her and prepare her for death; she
worshipped her mistress, and wished to be of the same faith, and in
the end she died a pervert or convert, according to this or that
person's point of view.

The day after her death we children were taken to see our beloved
Margarita for the last time; but when we arrived at the door, and the
others following my mother went in, I alone hung back. They came out
and tried to persuade me to enter, even to pull me in, and described
her appearance to excite my curiosity. She was lying all in white,
with her black hair combed out and loose, on her white bed, with our
flowers on her breast and at her sides, and looked very, very
beautiful. It was all in vain. To look on Margarita dead was more than
I could bear. I was told that only her body of clay was dead--the
beautiful body we had come to say good bye to; that her soul--she
herself, our loved Margarita--was alive and happy, far, far happier
than any person could ever be on this earth; that when her end was
near she had smiled very sweetly, and assured them that all fear of
death had left her--that God was taking her to Himself. Even this was
not enough to make me face the awful sight of Margarita dead; the very
thought of it was an intolerable weight on my heart; but it was not
grief that gave me this sensation, much as I grieved; it was solely my
fear of death.



Living with trees--Winter violets--The house is made habitable--Red
willow--Scissor-tail and carrion-hawk--Lombardy poplars-Black acacia--
Other trees--The foss or moat--Rats--A trial of strength with an
armadillo--Opossums living with a snake--Alfalfa field and butterflies
--Cane brake---Weeds and fennel--Peach trees in blossom--Paroquets--
Singing of a field finch--Concert-singing in birds--Old John--Cow-
birds' singing--Arrival of summer migrants.

I remember--better than any orchard, grove, or wood I have ever
entered or seen, do I remember that shady oasis of trees at my new
home on the illimitable grassy plain. Up till now I had never lived
with trees excepting those twenty-five I have told about and that
other one which was called _el arbol_ because it was the only tree of
its kind in all the land. Here there were hundreds, thousands of
trees, and to my childish unaccustomed eyes it was like a great
unexplored forest. There were no pines, firs, nor eucalyptus (unknown
in the country then), nor evergreens of any kind; the trees being all
deciduous were leafless now in mid-winter, but even so it was to me a
wonderful experience to be among them, to feel and smell their rough
moist bark stained green with moss, and to look up at the blue sky
through the network of interlacing twigs. And spring with foliage and
blossom would be with us by and by, in a month or two; even now in
midwinter there was a foretaste of it, and it came to us first as a
delicious fragrance in the air at one spot beside a row of old
Lombardy poplars--an odour that to the child is like wine that maketh
the heart glad to the adult. Here at the roots of the poplars there
was a bed or carpet of round leaves which we knew well, and putting
the clusters apart with our hands, lo! there were the violets already
open--the dim, purple-blue, hidden violets, the earliest, sweetest, of
all flowers the most loved by children in that land, and doubtless in
many other lands.

There was more than time enough for us small children to feast on
violets and run wild in our forest; since for several weeks we were
encouraged to live out of doors as far away as we could keep from the
house where we were not wanted. For just then great alterations were
being made to render it habitable: new rooms were being added on to
the old building, wooden flooring laid over the old bricks and tiles,
and the half-rotten thatch, a haunt of rats and the home of centipedes
and of many other hybernating creeping things, was being stripped off
to be replaced by a clean healthy wooden roof. For me it was no
hardship to be sent away to make my playground in that wooded
wonderland. The trees, both fruit and shade, were of many kinds, and
belonged to two widely-separated periods. The first were the old trees
planted by some tree-loving owner a century or more before our time,
and the second the others which had been put in a generation or two
later to fill up some gaps and vacant places and for the sake of a
greater variety.

The biggest of the old trees, which I shall describe first, was a red
willow growing by itself within forty yards of the house. This is a
native tree, and derives its specific name _rubra,_ as well as its
vernacular name, from the reddish colour of the rough bark. It grows
to a great size, like the black poplar, but has long narrow leaves
like those of the weeping willow. In summer I was never tired of
watching this tree, since high up in one of the branches, which in
those days seemed to me "so close against the sky," a scissor-tail
tyrant-bird always had its nest, and this high open exposed nest was a
constant attraction to the common brown carrion-hawk, called
_chimango_--a hawk with the carrion-crow's habit of perpetually
loitering about in search of eggs and fledglings.

The scissor-tail is one of the most courageous of that hawk-hating,
violent-tempered tyrant-bird family, and every time a _chimango_
appeared, which was about forty times a day, he would sally out to
attack him in mid-air with amazing fury. The marauder driven off, he
would return to the tree to utter his triumphant rattling castanet-
like notes and (no doubt) to receive the congratulations of his mate;
then to settle down again to watch the sky for the appearance of the
next _chimango_.

A second red willow was the next largest tree in the plantation, but
of this willow I shall have more to say in a later chapter.

The tall Lombardy poplars were the most numerous of the older trees,
and grew in double rows, forming walks or avenues, on three sides of
the entire enclosed ground. There was also a cross-row of poplars
dividing the gardens and buildings from the plantation, and these were
the favourite nesting-trees of two of our best-loved birds--the
beautiful little goldfinch or Argentine siskin, and the bird called
firewood-gatherer by the natives on account of the enormous collection
of sticks which formed the nest.

Between the border poplar walk and the foss outside, there grew a
single row of trees of a very different kind--the black acacia, a rare
and singular tree, and of all our trees this one made the strongest
and sharpest impression on my mind as well as flesh, pricking its
image in me, so to speak. It had probably been planted originally by
the early first planter, and, I imagine, experimentally, as a possible
improvement on the wide-spreading disorderly aloe, a favourite with
the first settlers; but it is a wild lawless plant and had refused to
make a proper hedge. Some of these acacias had remained small and were
like old scraggy bushes, some were dwarfish trees, while others had
sprung up like the fabled bean-stalk and were as tall as the poplars
that grew side by side with them. These tall specimens had slender
boles and threw out their slender horizontal branches of great length
on all sides, from the roots to the crown, the branches and the bole
itself being armed with thorns two to four inches long, hard as iron,
black or chocolate-brown, polished and sharp as needles; and to make
itself more formidable every long thorn had two smaller thorns growing
out of it near the base, so that it was in shape like a round tapering
dagger with a crossguard to the handle. It was a terrible tree to
climb, yet, when a little older. I had to climb it a thousand times,
since there were certain birds which would make their nests in it,
often as high up as they could, and some of these were birds that laid
beautiful eggs, such as those of the Guira cuckoo, the size of
pullets' eggs, of the purest turquoise blue flecked with snowy white.

Among our old or ancient trees the peach was the favourite of the
whole house on account of the fruit it gave us in February and March,
also later, in April and May, when what we called our winter peach
ripened. Peach, quince, and cherry were the three favourite fruit-
trees in the colonial times, and all three were found in some of the
quintas or orchards of the old estancia houses. We had a score of
quince trees, with thick gnarled trunks and old twisted branches like
rams' horns, but the peach trees numbered about four to five hundred
and grew well apart from one another, and were certainly the largest I
have ever seen. Their size was equal to that of the oldest and largest
cherry trees one sees in certain favoured spots in Southern England,
where they grow not in close formation but wide apart with ample room
for the branches to spread on all sides.

The trees planted by a later generation, both shade and fruit, were
more varied. The most abundant was the mulberry, of which there were
many hundreds, mostly in rows, forming walks, and albeit of the same
species as our English mulberry they differed from it in the great
size and roughness of the leaves and in producing fruit of a much
smaller size. The taste of the fruit was also less luscious and it was
rarely eaten by our elders. We small children feasted on it, but it
was mostly for the birds. The mulberry was looked on as a shade, not a
fruit tree, and the other two most important shade trees, in number,
were the _acacia blanca,_ or false acacia, and the paradise tree or
pride of China. Besides these there was a row of eight or ten
ailanthus trees, or tree of heaven as it is sometimes called, with
tall white smooth trunk crowned with a cluster of palm-like foliage.
There was also a modern orchard, containing pear, apple, plum, and
cherry trees.

The entire plantation, the buildings included, comprising an area of
eight or nine acres, was surrounded by an immense ditch or foss about
twelve feet deep and twenty to thirty feet wide. It was undoubtedly
very old and had grown in width owing to the crumbling away of the
earth at the sides. This in time would have filled and almost
obliterated it, but at intervals of two or three years, at a time when
it was dry, quantities of earth were dug up from the bottom and thrown
on the mound inside. It was in appearance something like a prehistoric
earthwork. In winter as a rule it became full of water and was a
favourite haunt, especially at night, of flocks of teal, also duck of
a few other kinds--widgeon, pintail, and shoveller. In summer it
gradually dried up, but a few pools of muddy water usually remained
through all the hot season and were haunted by the solitary or summer
snipe, one of the many species of sandpiper and birds of that family
which bred in the northern hemisphere and wintered with us when it was
our summer. Once the water had gone down in the moat, long grass and
herbage would spring up and flourish on its sloping sides, and the
rats and other small beasties would return and riddle it with
innumerable burrows.

The rats were killed down from time to time with the "smoking
machine," which pumped the fumes of sulphur, bad tobacco, and other
deadly substances into their holes and suffocated them; and I recall
two curious incidents during these crusades. One day I was standing on
the mound at the side of the moat or foss some forty yards from where
the men were at work, when an armadillo bolted from his earth and
running to the very spot where I was standing began vigorously digging
to escape by burying himself in the soil. Neither men nor dogs had
seen him, and I at once determined to capture him unaided by any one
and imagined it would prove a very easy task. Accordingly I laid hold
of his black bone-cased tail with both hands and began tugging to get
him off the ground, bait couldn't move him. He went on digging
furiously, getting deeper and deeper into the earth, and I soon found
that instead of my pulling him out he was pulling me in after him. It
hurt my small-boy pride to think that an animal no bigger than a cat
was going to beat me in a trial of strength, and this made me hold on
more tenaciously than ever and tug and strain more violently, until
not to lose him I had to go flat down on the ground. But it was all
for nothing: first my hands, then my aching arms were carried down
into the earth, and I was forced to release my hold and get up to rid
myself of the mould he had been throwing up into my face and all over
my head, neck, and shoulders.

In the other case, one of my older brothers seeing the dogs sniffing
and scratching at a large burrow, took a spade and dug a couple of
feet into the soil and found an adult black-and-white opossum with
eight or nine half-grown young lying together in a nest of dry grass,
and, wonderful to tell, a large venomous snake coiled up amongst them.
The snake was the dreaded _vivora de la cruz_, as the gauchos call it,
a pit-viper of the same family as the fer-de-lance, the bush-master,
and the rattlesnake. It was about three feet long, very thick in
proportion, and with broad head and blunt tail. It came forth hissing
and striking blindly right and left when the dogs pulled the opossums
out, but was killed with a blow of the spade without injuring the

This was the first _serpent with a cross_ I had seen, and the sight of
the thick blunt body of a greenish-grey colour blotched with dull
black, and the broad flat head with its stony-white lidless eyes, gave
me a thrill of horror. In after years I became familiar with it and
could even venture to pick it up without harm to myself, just as now
in England I pick up the less dangerous adder when I come upon one.
The wonder to us was that this extremely irascible and venomous
serpent should be living in a nest with a large family of opossums,
for it must be borne in mind that the opossum is a rapacious and an
exceedingly savage-tempered beast.

This then was the world in which I moved and had my being, within the
limits of the old rat-haunted foss among the enchanted trees. But it
was not the trees only that made it so fascinating, it had open spaces
and other forms of vegetation which were exceedingly attractive too.

There was a field of alfalfa about half an acre in size, which
flowered three times a year, and during the flowering time it drew the
butterflies from all the surrounding plain with its luscious bean-like
fragrance, until the field was full of them, red, black, yellow, and
white butterflies, fluttering in flocks round every blue spike.

Canes, too, in a large patch or "brake" as we called it, grew at
another spot; a graceful plant about twenty-five feet high, in
appearance unlike the bamboo, as the long pointed leaves were of a
glaucous blue-green colour. The canes were valuable to us as they
served as fishing-rods when we were old enough for that sport, and
were also used as lances when we rode forth to engage in mimic battles
on the plain. But they also had an economic value, as they were used
by the natives when making their thatched roofs as a substitute for
the bamboo cane, which cost much more as it had to be imported from
other countries. Accordingly at the end of the summer, after the cane
had flowered, they were all cut down, stripped of their leaves, and
taken away in bundles, and we were then deprived till the following
season of the pleasure of hunting for the tallest and straightest
canes to cut them down and strip off leaves and bark to make beautiful
green polished rods for our sports.

There were other open spaces covered with a vegetation almost as
interesting as the canes and the trees: this was where what were
called "weeds" were allowed to flourish. Here were the thorn-apple,
chenopodium, sow-thistle, wild mustard, redweed, viper's bugloss, and
others, both native and introduced, in dense thickets five or six feet
high. It was difficult to push one's way through these thickets, and
one was always in dread of treading on a snake. At another spot fennel
flourished by itself, as if it had some mysterious power, perhaps its
peculiar smell, of keeping other plants at a proper distance. It
formed quite a thicket, and grew to a height of ten or twelve feet.
This spot was a favourite haunt of mine, as it was in a waste place at
the furthest point from the house, a wild solitary spot where I could
spend long hours by myself watching the birds. But I also loved the
fennel for itself, its beautiful green feathery foliage and the smell
of it, also the taste, so that whenever I visited that secluded spot I
would rub the crushed leaves in my palms and chew the small twigs for
their peculiar fennel flavour.

Winter made a great change in the plantation, since it not only
stripped the trees of their leaves but swept away all that rank
herbage, the fennel included, allowing the grass to grow again. The
large luxuriantly-growing annuals also disappeared from the garden and
all about the house, the big four-o'clock bushes with deep red stems
and wealth of crimson blossoms, and the morning-glory convolvulus with
its great blue trumpets, climbing over and covering every available
place with its hop-like mass of leaves and abundant blooms. My life in
the plantation in winter was a constant watching for spring. May,
June, and July were the leafless months, but not wholly songless. On
any genial and windless day of sunshine in winter a few swallows would
reappear, nobody could guess from where, to spend the bright hours
wheeling like house-martins about the house, revisiting their old
breeding-holes under the eaves, and uttering their lively little
rippling songs, as of water running in a pebbly stream. When the sun
declined they would vanish, to be seen no more until we had another
perfect spring-like day.

On such days in July and on any mild misty morning, standing on the
mound within the moat I would listen to the sounds from the wide open
plain, and they were sounds of spring--the constant drumming and
rhythmic cries of the spur-wing lapwings engaged in their social
meetings and "dances," and the song of the pipit soaring high up and
pouring out its thick prolonged strains as it slowly floated downwards
to the earth.

In August the peach blossomed. The great old trees standing wide apart
on their grassy carpet, barely touching each other with the tips of
their widest branches, were like great mound-shaped clouds of
exquisite rosy-pink blossoms. There was then nothing in the universe
which could compare in loveliness to that spectacle. I was a
worshipper of trees at this season, and I remember my shocked and
indignant feeling when one day a flock of green paroquets came
screaming down and alighted on one of the trees near me. This paroquet
never bred in our plantation; they were occasional visitors from their
home in an old grove about nine miles away, and their visits were
always a great pleasure to us. On this occasion I was particularly
glad, because the birds had elected to settle on a tree close to where
I was standing. But the blossoms thickly covering every twig annoyed
the parrots, as they could not find space enough to grasp a twig
without grasping its flower as well; so what did the birds do in their
impatience but begin stripping the blossoms off the branches on which
they were perched with their sharp beaks, so rapidly that the flowers
came down in a pink shower, and in this way in half a minute every
bird made a twig bare where he could sit perched at ease. There were
millions of blossoms; only one here and there would ever be a peach,
yet it vexed me to see the parrots cut them off in that heedless way:
it was a desecration, a crime even in a bird.

Even now when I recall the sight of those old flowering peach trees,
with trunks as thick as a man's body, and the huge mounds or clouds of
myriads of roseate blossoms seen against the blue ethereal sky, I am
not sure that I have seen anything in my life more perfectly
beautiful. Yet this great beauty was but half the charm I found in
these trees: the other half was in the bird-music that issued from
them. It was the music of but one kind of bird, a small greenish
yellow field finch, in size like the linnet though with a longer and
slimmer body, and resembling a linnet too in its general habits. Thus,
in autumn it unites in immense flocks, which keep together during the
winter months and sing in concert and do not break up until the return
of the breeding season. In a country where there were no bird-catchers
or human persecutors of small birds, the flocks of this finch, called
_Misto_ by the natives, were far larger than any linnet flocks ever
seen in England. The flock we used to have about our plantation
numbered many thousands, and you would see them like a cloud wheeling
about in the air, then suddenly dropping and vanishing from sight in
the grass, where they fed on small seeds and tender leaves and buds.
On going to the spot they would rise with a loud humming sound of
innumerable wings, and begin rushing and whirling about again, chasing
each other in play and chirping, and presently all would drop to the
ground again.

In August, when the spring begins to infect their blood, they repair
to the trees at intervals during the day, where they sit perched and
motionless for an hour or longer, all singing together. This singing
time was when the peach trees were in blossom, and it was invariably
in the peach trees they settled and could be seen, the little yellow
birds in thousands amid the millions of pink blossoms, pouring out
their wonderful music.

One of the most delightful bird sounds or noises to be heard in
England is the concert-singing of a flock of several hundreds, and
sometimes of a thousand or more linnets in September and October, and
even later in the year, before these great congregations have been
broken up or have migrated. The effect produced by the small field
finch of the pampas was quite different. The linnet has a little
twittering song with breaks in it and small chirping sounds, and when
a great multitude of birds sing together the sound at a distance of
fifty or sixty yards is as of a high wind among the trees, but on a
nearer approach the mass of sound resolves itself into a tangle of
thousands of individual sounds, resembling that of a great concourse
of starlings at roosting time, but more musical in character. It is as
if hundreds of fairy minstrels were all playing on stringed and wind
instruments of various forms, every one intent on his own performance
without regard to the others.

The field finch does not twitter or chirp and has no break or sudden
change in his song, which is composed of a series of long-drawn notes,
the first somewhat throaty but growing clearer and brighter towards
the end, so that when thousands sing together it is as if they sang in
perfect unison, the effect on the hearing being like that on the sight
of flowing water or of rain when the multitudinous falling drops
appear as silvery-grey lines on the vision. It is an exceedingly
beautiful effect, and so far as I know unique among birds that have
the habit of singing in large companies.

I remember that we had a carpenter in those days, an Englishman named
John, a native of Cumberland, who used to make us laugh at his slow
heavy way when, after asking him some simple question, we had to wait
until he put down his tools and stared at us for about twenty seconds
before replying. One of my elder brothers had dubbed him the
"Cumberland boor." I remember one day on going to listen to the choir
of finches in the blossoming orchard, I was surprised to see John
standing near the trees doing nothing, and as I came up to him he
turned towards me with a look which astonished me on his dull old
face--that look which perhaps one of my readers has by chance seen on
the face of a religious mystic in a moment of exaltation. "Those
little birds! I never heard anything like it!" he exclaimed, then
trudged off to his work. Like most Englishmen, he had, no doubt, a
vein of poetic feeling hidden away somewhere in his soul.

We also had the other kind of concert-singing by another species in
the plantation. This was the common purple cow-bird, one of the
Troupial family, exclusively American, but supposed to have affinities
with the starlings of the Old World. This cow-bird is parasitical
(like the European cuckoo) in its breeding habits, and having no
domestic affairs of its own to attend to it lives in flocks all the
year round, leading an idle vagabond life. The male is of a uniform
deep purple-black, the female a drab or mouse-colour. The cow-birds
were excessively numerous among the trees in summer, perpetually
hunting for nests in which to deposit their eggs: they fed on the
ground out on the plain and were often in such big flocks as to look
like a huge black carpet spread out on the green sward. On a rainy day
they did not feed: they congregated on the trees in thousands and sang
by the hour. Their favourite gathering-place at such times was behind
the house, where the trees grew pretty thick and were sheltered on two
sides by the black acacias and double rows of Lombardy poplars,
succeeded by double rows of large mulberry trees, forming walks, and
these by pear, apple and cherry trees. From whichever side the wind
blew it was calm here, and during the heaviest rain the birds would
sit here in their thousands, pouring out a continuous torrent of song,
which resembled the noise produced by thousands of starlings at
roosting-time, but was louder and differed somewhat in character owing
to the peculiar song of the cow-bird, which begins with hollow
guttural sounds, followed by a burst of loud clear ringing notes.

These concert-singers, the little green and yellow field finch and the
purple cow-bird, were with us all the year round, with many others
which it would take a whole chapter to tell of. When, in July and
August, I watched for the coming spring, it was the migrants, the
birds that came annually to us from the far north, that chiefly
attracted me. Before their arrival the bloom was gone from the peach
trees, and the choir of countless little finches broken up and
scattered all over the plain. Then the opening leaves were watched,
and after the willows the first and best-loved were the poplars.
During all the time they were opening, when they were still a
yellowish-green in colour, the air was full of the fragrance, but not
satisfied with that I would crush and rub the new small leaves in my
hands and on my face to get the delicious balsamic smell in fuller
measure. And of all the trees, after the peach, the poplars appeared
to feel the new season with the greatest intensity, for it seemed to
me that they felt the sunshine even as I did, and they expressed it in
their fragrance just as the peach and other trees did in their
flowers. And it was also expressed in the new sound they gave out to
the wind. The change was really wonderful when the rows on rows of
immensely tall trees which for months had talked and cried in that
strange sibilant language, rising to shrieks when a gale was blowing,
now gave out a larger volume of sound, more continuous, softer,
deeper, and like the wash of the sea on a wide shore.

The other trees would follow, and by and by all would be in full
foliage once more, and ready to receive their strange beautiful guests
from the tropical forests in the distant north.

The most striking of the newcomers was the small scarlet tyrant-bird,
which is about the size of our spotted flycatcher; all a shining
scarlet except the black wings and tail. This bird had a delicate
bell-like voice, but it was the scarlet colour shining amid the green
foliage which made me delight in it above all other birds. Yet the
humming-bird, which arrived at the same time, was wonderfully
beautiful too, especially when he flew close to your face and remained
suspended motionless on mist-like wings for a few moments, his
feathers looking and glittering like minute emerald scales.

Then came other tyrant-birds and the loved swallows--the house-
swallow, which resembles the English house-martin, the large purple
martin, the _Golodrina domestica_, and the brown tree-martin. Then,
too, came the yellow-billed cuckoo--the _kowe-kowe_ as it is called
from its cry. Year after year I listened for its deep mysterious call,
which sounded like _gow-gow-gow-gow-gow,_ in late September, even as
the small English boy listens for the call of _his_ cuckoo, in April;
and the human-like character of the sound, together with the
startlingly impressive way in which it was enunciated, always produced
the idea that it was something more than a mere bird call. Later, in
October when the weather was hot, I would hunt for the nest, a frail
platform made of a few sticks with four or five oval eggs like those
of the turtledove in size and of a pale green colour.

There were other summer visitors, but I must not speak of them as this
chapter contains too much on that subject. My feathered friends were
so much to me that I am constantly tempted to make this sketch of my
first years a book about birds and little else. There remains, too,
much more to say about the plantation, the trees and their effect on
my mind, also some adventures I met with, some with birds and others
with snakes, which will occupy two or three or more chapters later on.



Appearance of a green level land--Cardoon and giant thistles--Villages
of the Vizcacha, a large burrowing rodent--Groves and plantations seen
like islands on the wide level plains--Trees planted by the early
colonists--Decline of the colonists from an agricultural to a pastoral
people--Houses as part of the landscape--Flesh diet of the gauchos--
Summer change in the aspect of the plain--The water-like mirage--The
giant thistle and a "thistle year"--Fear of fires--An incident at a
fire--The _pampero_, or south-west wind, and the fall of the thistles
--Thistle-down and thistle-seed as food for animals--A great pampero
storm--Big hailstones--Damage caused by hail--Zango, an old horse,
killed--Zango and his master.

As a small boy of six but well able to ride bare-backed at a fast
gallop without falling off, I invite the reader, mounted too, albeit
on nothing but an imaginary animal, to follow me a league or so from
the gate to some spot where the land rises to a couple or three or
four feet above the surrounding level. There, sitting on our horses,
we shall command a wider horizon than even the tallest man would have
standing on his own legs, and in this way get a better idea of the
district in which ten of the most impressionable years of my life,
from five to fifteen, were spent.

We see all round us a flat land, its horizon a perfect ring of misty
blue colour where the crystal-blue dome of the sky rests on the level
green world. Green in late autumn, winter, and spring, or say from
April to November, but not all like a green lawn or field: there were
smooth areas where sheep had pastured, but the surface varied greatly
and was mostly more or less rough. In places the land as far as one
could see was covered with a dense growth of cardoon thistles, or wild
artichoke, of a bluish or grey-green colour, while in other places the
giant thistle flourished, a plant with big variegated green and white
leaves, and standing when in flower six to ten feet high.

There were other breaks and roughnesses on that flat green expanse
caused by the _vizcachas,_ a big rodent the size of a hare, a mighty
burrower in the earth. _Vizcachas_ swarmed in all that district where
they have now practically been exterminated, and lived in villages,
called _vizcacheras,_ composed of thirty or forty huge burrows--about
the size of half a dozen badgers' earths grouped together. The earth
thrown out of these diggings formed a mound, and being bare of
vegetation it appeared in the landscape as a clay-coloured spot on the
green surface. Sitting on a horse one could count a score to fifty or
sixty of these mounds or _vizcacheras_ on the surrounding plain.

On all this visible earth there were no fences, and no trees excepting
those which had been planted at the old estancia houses, and these
being far apart the groves and plantations looked like small islands
of trees, or mounds, blue in the distance, on the great plain or
pampa. They were mostly shade trees, the commonest being the Lombardy
poplar, which of all trees is the easiest one to grow in that land.
And these trees at the estancias or cattle-ranches were, at the time I
am writing about, almost invariably aged and in many instances in an
advanced state of decay. It is interesting to know how these old
groves and plantations ever came into existence in a land where at
that time there was practically no tree-planting.

The first colonists who made their homes in this vast vacant space,
called the pampas, came from a land where the people are accustomed to
sit in the shade of trees, where corn and wine and oil are supposed to
be necessaries, and where there is salad in the garden. Naturally they
made gardens and planted trees, both for shade and fruit, wherever
they built themselves a house on the pampas, and no doubt for two or
three generations they tried to live as people live in Spain, in the
rural districts. But now the main business of their lives was cattle-
raising, and as the cattle roamed at will over the vast plains and
were more like wild than domestic animals, it was a life on horseback.
They could no longer dig or plough the earth or protect their crops
from insects and birds and their own animals. They gave up their oil
and wine and bread and lived on flesh alone. They sat in the shade and
ate the fruit of trees planted by their fathers or their great-
grandfathers until the trees died of old age, or were blown down or
killed by the cattle, and there was no more shade and fruit.

It thus came about that the Spanish colonists on the pampas declined
from the state of an agricultural people to that of an exclusively
pastoral and hunting one; and later, when the Spanish yoke, as it was
called, was shaken off, the incessant throat-cutting wars of the
various factions, which were like the wars of "crows and pies," except
that knives were used instead of beaks, confirmed and sunk them deeper
in their wild and barbarous manner of life.

Thus, too, the tree-clumps on the pampas were mostly remains of a
vanished past. To these clumps or plantations we shall return later on
when I come to describe the home life of some of our nearest
neighbours; here the houses only, with or without trees growing about
them, need be mentioned as parts of the landscape. The houses were
always low and scarcely visible at a distance of a mile and a half:
one always had to stoop on entering a door. They were built of burnt
or unburnt brick, more often clay and brushwood, and thatched with
sedges or bulrushes. At some of the better houses there would be a
small garden, a few yards of soil protected in some way from the
poultry and animals, in which a few flowers and herbs were grown,
especially parsley, rue, sage, tansy, and horehound. But there was no
other cultivation attempted, and no vegetables were eaten except
onions and garlic, which were bought at the stores, with bread, rice,
mate tea, oil, vinegar, raisins, cinnamon, pepper, cummin seed, and
whatever else they could afford to season their meat-pies or give a
flavour to the monotonous diet of cow's flesh and mutton and pig.
Almost the only game eaten was ostrich, armadillo, and tinamou (the
partridge of the country), which the boys could catch by snaring or
running them down. Wild duck, plover, and such birds they rarely or
never tasted, as they could not shoot; and as to the big rodent, the
vizcacha, which swarmed everywhere, no gaucho would touch its flesh,
although to my taste it was better than rabbit.

The summer change in the aspect of the plain would begin in November:
the dead dry grass would take on a yellowish-brown colour, the giant
thistle a dark rust brown, and at this season, from November to
February, the grove or plantation at the estancia house, with its deep
fresh unchanging verdure and shade, was a veritable refuge on the vast
flat yellow earth. It was then, when the water-courses were gradually
drying up and the thirsty days coming to flocks and herds, that the
mocking illusion of the mirage was constantly about us. Quite early in
spring, on any warm cloudless day, this water-mirage was visible, and
was like the appearance on a hot summer's day of the atmosphere in
England when the air near the surface becomes visible, when one sees
it dancing before one's eyes, like thin wavering and ascending tongues
of flame--crystal-clear flames mixed with flames of a faint pearly or
silver grey. On the level and hotter pampas this appearance is
intensified, and the faintly visible wavering flames change to an
appearance of lakelets or sheets of water looking as if ruffled by the
wind and shining like molten silver in the sun. The resemblance to
water is increased when there are groves and buildings on the horizon,
which look like dark blue islands or banks in the distance, while the
cattle and horses feeding not far from the spectator appear to be
wading knee or belly deep in the brilliant water.

The aspect of the plain was different in what was called a "thistle
year," when the giant thistles, which usually occupied definite areas
or grew in isolated patches, suddenly sprang up everywhere, and for a
season covered most of the land. In these luxuriant years the plants
grew as thick as sedges and bulrushes in their beds, and were taller
than usual, attaining a height of about ten feet. The wonder was to
see a plant which throws out leaves as large as those of the rhubarb,
with its stems so close together as to be almost touching. Standing
among the thistles in the growing season one could in a sense _hear_
them growing, as the huge leaves freed themselves with a jerk from a
cramped position, producing a crackling sound. It was like the
crackling sound of the furze seed-vessels which one hears in June in
England, only much louder.

To the gaucho who lives half his day on his horse and loves his
freedom as much as a wild bird, a thistle year was a hateful period of
restraint. His small, low-roofed, mud house was then too like a cage
to him, as the tall thistles hemmed it in and shut out the view on all
sides. On his horse he was compelled to keep to the narrow cattle
track and to draw in or draw up his legs to keep them from the long
pricking spines. In those distant primitive days the gaucho if a poor
man was usually shod with nothing but a pair of iron spurs.

By the end of November the thistles would be dead, and their huge
hollow stalks as dry and light as the shaft of a bird's feather--a
feather-shaft twice as big round as a broomstick and six to eight feet
long. The roots were not only dead but turned to dust in the ground,
so that one could push a stalk from its place with one finger, but it
would not fall since it was held up by scores of other sticks all
round it, and these by hundreds more, and the hundreds by thousands
and millions. The thistle dead was just as great a nuisance as the
thistle living, and in this dead dry condition they would sometimes
stand all through December and January when the days were hottest and
the danger of fire was ever present to people's minds. At any moment a
careless spark from a cigarette might kindle a dangerous blaze. At
such times the sight of smoke in the distance would cause every man
who saw it to mount his horse and fly to the danger-spot, where an
attempt would be made to stop the fire by making a broad path in the
thistles some fifty to a hundred yards ahead of it. One way to make
the path was to lasso and kill a few sheep from the nearest flock and
drag them up and down at a gallop through the dense thistles until a
broad space was clear where the flames could be stamped and beaten out
with horse-rugs. But sheep to be used in this way were not always to
be found on the spot, and even when a broad space could be made, if a
hot north wind was blowing it would carry showers of sparks and
burning sticks to the other side and the fire would travel on.

I remember going to one of these big fires when I was about twelve
years old. It broke out a few miles from home and was travelling in
our direction; I saw my father mount and dash off, but it took me half
an hour or more to catch a horse for myself, so that I arrived late on
the scene. A fresh fire had broken out a quarter of a mile in advance
of the main one, where most of the men were fighting the flames; and
to this spot I went first, and found some half a dozen neighbours who
had just arrived on the scene. Before we started operations about
twenty men from the main fire came galloping up to us. They had made
their path, but seeing this new fire so far ahead, had left it in
despair after an hour's hard hot work, and had flown to the new danger
spot. As they came up I looked in wonder at one who rode ahead, a tall
black man in his shirt sleeves who was a stranger to me. "Who is this
black fellow, I wonder?" said I to myself, and just then he shouted to
me in English, "Hullo, my boy, what are you doing here?" It was my
father; an hour's fighting with the flames in a cloud of black ashes
in that burning sun and wind had made him look like a pure-blooded

During December and January when this desert world of thistles dead
and dry as tinder continued standing, a menace and danger, the one
desire and hope of every one was for the _pampero_--the south-west
wind, which in hot weather is apt to come with startling suddenness,
and to blow with extraordinary violence. And it would come at last,
usually in the afternoon of a close hot day, after the north wind had
been blowing persistently for days with a breath as from a furnace. At
last the hateful wind would drop and a strange gloom that was not from
any cloud would cover the sky; and by and by a cloud would rise, a
dull dark cloud as of a mountain becoming visible on the plain at an
enormous distance. In a little while it would cover half the sky, and
there would be thunder and lightning and a torrent of rain, and at the
same moment the wind would strike and roar in the bent-down trees and
shake the house. And in an hour or two it would perhaps be all over,
and next morning the detested thistles would be gone, or at all events
levelled to the ground.

After such a storm the sense of relief to the horseman, now able to
mount and gallop forth in any direction over the wide plain and see
the earth once more spread out for miles before him, was like that of
a prisoner released from his cell, or of the sick man, when he at
length repairs his vigour lost and breathes and walks again.

To this day it gives me a thrill, or perhaps it would be safer to say
the ghost of a vanished thrill, when I remember the relief it was in
my case, albeit I was never so tied to a horse, so parasitical, as the
gaucho, after one of these great thistle-levelling _pampero_ winds. It
was a rare pleasure to ride out and gallop my horse over wide brown
stretches of level land, to hear his hard hoofs crushing the hollow
desiccated stalks covering the earth in millions like the bones of a
countless host of perished foes. It was a queer kind of joy, a mixed
feeling with a dash of gratified revenge to give it a sharp savour.

After all this abuse of the giant thistle, the _Cardo asnal_ of the
natives and _Carduus mariana_ of the botanists, it may sound odd to
say that a "thistle year" was a blessing in some ways. It was an
anxious year on account of the fear of fire, and a season of great
apprehension too when reports of robberies and other crimes were
abroad in the land, especially for the poor women who were left so
much alone in their low-roofed hovels, shut in by the dense prickly
growth. But a thistle year was called a fat year, since the animals--
cattle, horses, sheep, and even pigs--browsed freely on the huge
leaves and soft sweetish-tasting stems, and were in excellent
condition. The only drawbacks were that the riding-horses lost
strength as they gained in fat, and cow's milk didn't taste nice.

The best and fattest time would come when the hardening plant was no
longer fit to eat and the flowers began to shed their seed. Each
flower, in size like a small coffee-cup, would open out in a white
mass and shed its scores of silvery balls, and these when freed of
heavy seed would float aloft in the wind, and the whole air as far as
one could see would be filled with millions and myriads of floating
balls. The fallen seed was so abundant as to cover the ground under
the dead but still standing plants. It is a long, slender seed, about
the size of a grain of Carolina rice, of a greenish or bluish-grey
colour, spotted with black. The sheep feasted on it, using their
mobile and extensible upper lips like a crumb-brush to gather it into
their mouths. Horses gathered it in the same way, but the cattle were
out of it, either because they could not learn the trick, or because
their lips and tongues cannot be used to gather a crumb-like food.
Pigs, however, flourished on it, and to birds, domestic and wild, it
was even more than to the mammals.

In conclusion of this chapter I will return for a page or two to the
subject of the _pampero_, the south-west wind of the Argentine pampas,
to describe the greatest of all the great _pampero_ storms I have
witnessed. This was when I was in my seventh year.

The wind blowing from this quarter is not like the south-west wind of
the North Atlantic and Britain, a warm wind laden with moisture from
hot tropical seas--that great wind which Joseph Conrad in his _Mirror
of the Sea_ has personified in one of the sublimest passages in recent
literature. It is an excessively violent wind, as all mariners know
who have encountered it on the South Atlantic off the River Plate, but
it is cool and dry, although it frequently comes with great thunder-
clouds and torrents of rain and hail. The rain may last half-an-hour
to half-a-day, but when over the sky is without a vapour and a spell
of fine weather ensues.

It was in sultry summer weather, and towards evening all of us boys
and girls went out for a ramble on the plain, and were about a quarter
of a mile from home when a blackness appeared in the south-west, and
began to cover the sky in that quarter so rapidly that, taking alarm,
we started homewards as fast as we could run. But the stupendous
slaty-black darkness, mixed with yellow clouds of dust, gained on us,
and before we got to the gate the terrified screams of wild birds
reached our ears, and glancing back we saw multitudes of gulls and
plover flying madly before the storm, trying to keep ahead of it. Then
a swarm of big dragon-flies came like a cloud over us, and was gone in
an instant, and just as we reached the gate the first big drops
splashed down in the form of liquid mud. We had hardly got indoors
before the tempest broke in its full fury, a blackness as of night, a
blended uproar of thunder and wind, blinding flashes of lightning, and
torrents of rain. Then as the first thick darkness began to pass away,
we saw that the air was white with falling hailstones of an
extraordinary size and appearance. They were big as fowls' eggs, but
not egg-shaped: they were flat, and about half-an-inch thick, and
being white, looked like little blocks or bricklets made of compressed
snow. The hail continued falling until the earth was white with them,
and in spite of their great size they were driven by the furious wind
into drifts two or three feet deep against the walls of the buildings.

It was evening and growing dark when the storm ended, but the light
next morning revealed the damage we had suffered. Pumpkins, gourds,
and water-melons were cut to pieces, and most of the vegetables,
including the Indian corn, were destroyed. The fruit trees, too, had
suffered greatly. Forty or fifty sheep had been killed outright, and
hundreds more were so much hurt that for days they went limping about
or appeared stupefied from blows on the head. Three of our heifers
were dead, and one horse--an old loved riding-horse with a history,
old Zango--the whole house was in grief at his death! He belonged
originally to a cavalry officer who had an extraordinary affection for
him--a rare thing in a land where horseflesh was too cheap, and men as
a rule careless of their animals and even cruel. The officer had spent
years in the Banda Oriental, in guerilla warfare, and had ridden Zango
in every fight in which he had been engaged. Coming back to Buenos
Ayres he brought the old horse home with him. Two or three years later
he came to my father, whom he had come to know very well, and said he
had been ordered to the upper provinces and was in great trouble about
his horse. He was twenty years old, he said, and no longer fit to be
ridden in a fight; and of all the people he knew there was but one man
in whose care he wished to leave his horse. I know, he said, that if
you will take him and promise to care for him until his old life ends,
he will be safe; and I should be happy about him--as happy as I can be
without the horse I have loved more than any other being on earth. My
father consented, and had kept the old horse for over nine years when
he was killed by the hail. He was a well-shaped dark brown animal,
with long mane and tail, but, as I knew him, always lean and old-
looking, and the chief use he was put to was for the children to take
their first riding-lessons on his back.

My parents had already experienced one great sadness on account of
Zango before his strange death. For years they had looked for a
letter, a message, from the absent officer, and had often pictured his
return and joy at finding alive still and embracing his beloved old
friend again. But he never returned, and no message came and no news
could be heard of him, and it was at last concluded that he had lost
his life in that distant part of the country, where there had been
much fighting.

To return to the hailstones. The greatest destruction had fallen on
the wild birds. Before the storm immense numbers of golden plover had
appeared and were in large flocks on the plain. One of our native boys
rode in and offered to get a sackful of plover for the table, and
getting the sack he took me up on his horse behind him. A mile or so
from home we came upon scores of dead plover lying together where they
had been in close flocks, but my companion would not pick up a dead
bird. There were others running about with one wing broken, and these
he went after, leaving me to hold his horse, and catching them would
wring their necks and drop them in the sack. When he had collected two
or three dozen he remounted and we rode back.

Later that morning we heard of one human being, a boy of six, in one
of our poor neighbours' houses, who had lost his life in a curious
way. He was standing in the middle of the room, gazing out at the
falling hail, when a hailstone, cutting through the thatched roof,
struck him on the head and killed him instantly.



Visit to a river on the pampas--A first long walk--Waterfowl--My first
sight of flamingoes--A great dove visitation--Strange tameness of the
birds--Vain attempts at putting salt on their tails--An ethical
question: When is a lie not a lie?--The carancho, a vulture-eagle--Our
pair of caranchos--Their nest in a peach tree--I am ambitious to take
their eggs--The birds' crimes--I am driven off by the birds--The nest
pulled down.

Just before my riding days began in real earnest, when I was not yet
quite confident enough to gallop off alone for miles to see the world
for myself, I had my first long walk on the plain. One of my elder
brothers invited me to accompany him to a water-course, one of the
slow-flowing shallow marshy rivers of the pampas which was but two
miles from home. The thought of the half-wild cattle we would meet
terrified me, but he was anxious for my company that day and assured
me that he could see no herd in that direction and he would be careful
to give a wide berth to anything with horns we might come upon. Then I
joyfully consented and we set out, three of us, to survey the wonders
of a great stream of running water, where bulrushes grew and large
wild birds, never seen by us at home, would be found. I had had a
glimpse of the river before, as, when driving to visit a neighbour, we
had crossed it at one of the fords and I had wished to get down and
run on its moist green low banks, and now that desire would be
gratified. It was for me a tremendously long walk, as we had to take
many a turn to avoid the patches of cardoon and giant thistles, and by
and by we came to low ground where the grass was almost waist-high and
full of flowers. It was all like an English meadow in June, when every
grass and every herb is in flower, beautiful and fragrant, but tiring
to a boy six years old to walk through. At last we came out to a
smooth grass turf, and in a little while were by the stream, which had
overflowed its banks owing to recent heavy rains and was now about
fifty yards wide. An astonishing number of birds were visible--chiefly
wild duck, a few swans, and many waders-ibises, herons, spoonbills,
and others, but the most wonderful of all were three immensely tall
white-and-rose-coloured birds, wading solemnly in a row a yard or so
apart from one another some twenty yards out from the bank. I was
amazed and enchanted at the sight, and my delight was intensified when
the leading bird stood still and, raising his head and long neck
aloft, opened and shook his wings. For the wings when open were of a
glorious crimson colour, and the bird was to me the most angel-like
creature on earth.

What were these wonderful birds? I asked of my brothers, but they
could not tell me. They said they had never seen birds like them
before, and later I found that the flamingo was not known in our
neighbourhood as the water-courses were not large enough for it, but
that it could be seen in flocks at a lake less than a day's journey
from our home.

It was not for several years that I had an opportunity of seeing the
bird again; later I have seen it scores and hundreds of times, at rest
or flying, at all times of the day and in all states of the
atmosphere, in all its most beautiful aspects, as when at sunset or in
the early morning it stands motionless in the still water with its
clear image reflected below; or when seen flying in flocks--seen from
some high bank beneath one--moving low over the blue water in a long
crimson line or half moon, the birds at equal distances apart, their
wing-tips all but touching; but the delight in these spectacles has
never equalled in degree that which I experienced on this occasion
when I was six years old.

The next little bird adventure to be told exhibits me more in the
character of an innocent and exceedingly credulous baby of three than
of a field naturalist of six with a considerable experience of wild

One spring day an immense number of doves appeared and settled in the
plantation. It was a species common in the country and bred in our
trees, and in fact in every grove or orchard in the land--a pretty
dove-coloured bird with a pretty sorrowful song, about a third less in
size than the domestic pigeon, and belongs to the American genus
_Zenaida._ This dove was a resident with us all the year round, but
occasionally in spring and autumn they were to be seen travelling
in immense flocks, and these were evidently strangers in the land and
came from some sub-tropical country in the north where they had no
fear of the human form. At all events, on going out into the
plantation I found them all about on the ground, diligently searching
for seeds, and so tame and heedless of my presence that I actually
attempted to capture them with my hands. But they wouldn't be caught:
the bird when I stooped and put out my hands slipped away, and flying
a yard or two would settle down in front of me and go on looking for
and picking up invisible seeds.

My attempts failing I rushed back to the house, wildly excited, to
look for an old gentleman who lived with us and took an interest in me
and my passion for birds, and finding him I told him the whole place
was swarming with doves and they were perfectly tame but wouldn't let
me catch them--could he tell me how to catch them? He laughed and said
I must be a little fool not to know how to catch a bird. The only way
was to put salt on their tails. There would be no difficulty in doing
that, I thought, and how delighted I was to know that birds could be
caught so easily! Off I ran to the salt-barrel and filled my pockets
and hands with coarse salt used to make brine in which to dip the
hides; for I wanted to catch a great many doves--armfuls of doves.

In a few minutes I was out again in the plantation, with doves in
hundreds moving over the ground all about me and taking no notice of
me. It was a joyful and exciting moment when I started operations, but
I soon found that when I tossed a handful of salt at the bird's tail
it never fell on its tail--it fell on the ground two or three or four
inches short of the tail. If, I thought, the bird would only keep
still a moment longer! But then it wouldn't, and I think I spent quite
two hours in these vain attempts to make the salt fall on the right
place. At last I went back to my mentor to confess that I had failed
and to ask for fresh instructions, but all he would say was that I was
on the right track, that the plan I had adopted was the proper one,
and all that was wanted was a little more practice to enable me to
drop the salt on the right spot. Thus encouraged I filled my pockets
again and started afresh, and then finding that by following the
proper plan I made no progress I adopted a new one, which was to take
a handful of salt and hurl it at the bird's tail. Still I couldn't
touch the tail; my violent action only frightened the bird and caused
it to fly away, a dozen yards or so, before dropping down again to
resume its seed-searching business.

By-and-by I was told by somebody that birds could not be caught by
putting salt on their tails; that I was being made a fool of, and this
was a great shock to me, since I had been taught to believe that it
was wicked to tell a lie. Now for the first time I discovered that
there were lies and lies, or untruths that were not lies, which one
could tell innocently although they were invented and deliberately
told to deceive. This angered me at first, and I wanted to know how I
was to distinguish between real lies and lies that were not lies, and
the only answer I got was that I could distinguish them by not being
a fool!

In the next adventure to be told we pass from the love (or tameness)
of the turtle to the rage of the vulture. It may be remarked in
passing that the vernacular name of the dove I have described is
_Torcasa,_ which I take it is a corruption of Tortola, the name first
given to it by the early colonists on account of its slight
resemblance to the turtle-dove of Europe.

Then, as to the vulture, it was not a true vulture nor a strictly true
eagle, but a carrion-hawk, a bird the size of a small eagle, blackish
brown in colour with a white neck and breast suffused with brown and
spotted with black; also it had a very big eagle-shaped beak, and
claws not so strong as an eagle's nor so weak as a vulture's. In its
habits it was both eagle and vulture, as it fed on dead flesh, and was
also a hunter and killer of animals and birds, especially of the
weakly and young. A somewhat destructive creature to poultry and young
sucking lambs and pigs. Its feeding habits were, in fact, very like
those of the raven, and its voice, too, was raven-like, or rather like
that of the carrion-crow at his loudest and harshest. Considering the
character of this big rapacious bird, the _Polyborus tharus_ of
naturalists and the _carancho_ of the natives, it may seem strange
that a pair were allowed to nest and live for years in our plantation,
but in those days people were singularly tolerant not only of
injurious birds and beasts but even of beings of their own species
of predaceous habits.

On the outskirts of our old peach orchard, described in a former
chapter, there was a solitary tree of a somewhat singular shape,
standing about forty yards from the others on the edge of a piece of
waste weedy land. It was a big old tree like the others, and had a
smooth round trunk standing about fourteen feet high and throwing out
branches all round, so that its upper part had the shape of an open
inverted umbrella. And in the convenient hollow formed by the circle
of branches the _caranchos_ had built their huge nest, composed of
sticks, lumps of turf, dry bones of sheep and other animals, pieces
of rope and raw hide, and any other object they could carry. The nest
was their home; they roosted in it by night and visited it at odd
times during the day, usually bringing a bleached bone or thistle-
stalk or some such object to add to the pile.

Our birds never attacked the fowls, and were not offensive or
obtrusive, but kept to their own end of the plantation furthest away
from the buildings. They only came when an animal was killed for meat,
and would then hang about, keeping a sharp eye on the proceedings and
watching their chance. This would come when the carcass was dressed
and lights and other portions thrown to the dogs; then the _carancho_
would swoop down like a kite, and snatching up the meat with his beak
would rise to a height of twenty or thirty yards in the air, and
dropping his prize would deftly catch it again in his claws and soar
away to feed on it at leisure. I was never tired of admiring this feat
of the _carancho_, which is, I believe, unique in birds of prey.

The big nest in the old inverted-umbrella-shaped peach tree had a
great attraction for me; I used often to visit it and wonder if I
would ever have the power of getting up to it. Oh, what a delight it
would be to get up there, above the nest, and look down into the great
basin-like hollow lined with sheep's wool and see the eggs, bigger
than turkey's eggs, all marbled with deep red, or creamy white
splashed with blood-red! For I had seen _carancho_ eggs brought in by
a gaucho, and I was ambitious to take a clutch from a nest with my own
hands. It was true I had been told by my mother that if I wanted wild
birds' eggs I was never to take more than one from a nest, unless it
was of some injurious species. And injurious the _carancho_ certainly
was, in spite of his good behaviour when at home. On one of my early
rides on my pony I had seen a pair of them, and I think they were our
own birds, furiously attacking a weak and sickly ewe; she had refused
to lie down to be killed, and they were on her neck, beating and
tearing at her face and trying to pull her down. Also I had seen a
litter of little pigs a sow had brought forth on the plain attacked by
six or seven _caranchos_, and found on approaching the spot that they
had killed half of them (about six, I think), and were devouring them
at some distance from the old pig and the survivors of the litter. But
how could I climb the tree and get over the rim of the huge nest? And
I was afraid of the birds, they looked so unspeakably savage and
formidable whenever I went near them. But my desire to get the eggs
was over-mastering, and when it was spring and I had reason to think
that eggs were being laid, I went oftener than ever to watch and wait
for an opportunity. And one evening just after sunset I could not see
the birds anywhere about and thought my chance had now come. I managed
to swarm up the smooth trunk to the branches, and then with wildly
beating heart began the task of trying to get through the close
branches and to work my way over the huge rim of the nest. Just then I
heard the harsh grating cry of the bird, and peering through the
leaves in the direction it came from I caught sight of the two birds
flying furiously towards me, screaming again as they came nearer. Then
terror seized me, and down I went through the branches, and catching
hold of the lowest one managed to swing myself clear and dropped to
the ground. It was a good long drop, but I fell on a soft turf, and
springing to my feet fled to the shelter of the orchard and then on
towards the house, without ever looking back to see if they were

That was my only attempt to raid the nest, and from that time the
birds continued in peaceful possession of it, until it came into some
person's mind that this huge nest was detrimental to the tree, and was
the cause of its producing so little fruit compared with any other
tree, and the nest was accordingly pulled down, and the birds forsook
the place.

In the description in a former chapter of our old peach trees in their
blossoming time I mentioned the paroquets which occasionally visited
us but had their breeding-place some distance away. This bird was one
of the two common parrots of the district, the other larger species
being the Patagonian parrot, _Conarus patagonus_, the _Loro
barranquero_ or Cliff Parrot of the natives. In my early years this
bird was common on the treeless pampas extending for hundreds of miles
south of Buenos Ayres as well as in Patagonia, and bred in holes it
excavated in cliffs and steep banks at the side of lakes and rivers.
These breeding-sites were far south of my home, and I did not visit
them until my boyhood's days were over.

In winter these birds had a partial migration to the north: at that
season we were visited by flocks, and as a child it was a joy to me
when the resounding screams of the travelling parrots, heard in the
silence long before the birds became visible in the sky, announced
their approach. Then, when they appeared flying at a moderate height,
how strange and beautiful they looked, with long pointed wings and
long graduated tails, in their sombre green plumage touched with
yellow, blue, and crimson colour! How I longed for a nearer
acquaintance with these winter visitors and hoped they would settle on
our trees! Sometimes they did settle to rest, perhaps to spend half a
day or longer in the plantation; and sometimes, to my great happiness,
a flock would elect to remain with us for whole days and weeks,
feeding on the surrounding plain, coming at intervals to the trees
during the day, and at night to roost. I used to go out on my pony to
follow and watch the flock at feed, and wondered at their partiality
for the bitter-tasting seeds of the wild pumpkin. This plant, which
was abundant with us, produced an egg-shaped fruit about half the size
of an ostrich's egg, with a hard shell-like rind, but the birds with
their sharp iron-hard beaks would quickly break up the dry shell and
feast on the pips, scattering the seed-shells about till the ground
was whitened with them. When I approached the feeding flock on my pony
the birds would rise up and, flying to and at me, hover in a compact
crowd just above my head, almost deafening me with their angry

The smaller bird, the paroquet, which was about the size of a turtle-
dove, had a uniform rich green colour above and ashy-grey beneath,
and, like most parrots, it nested in trees. It is one of the most
social birds I know; it lives all the year round in communities and
builds huge nests of sticks near together as in a rookery, each nest
having accommodation for two or three to half-a-dozen pairs. Each pair
has an entrance and nest cavity of its own in the big structure.

The only breeding-place in our neighbourhood was in a grove or remains
of an ancient ruined plantation at an estancia house, about nine miles
from us, owned by an Englishman named Ramsdale. Here there was a
colony of about a couple of hundred birds, and the dozen or more trees
they had built on were laden with their great nests, each one
containing as much material as would have filled a cart.

Mr. Ramsdale was not our nearest English neighbour--the one to be
described in another chapter; nor was he a man we cared much about,
and his meagre establishment was not attractive, as his old slatternly
native housekeeper and the other servants were allowed to do just what
they liked. But he was English and a neighbour, and my parents made it
a point of paying him an occasional visit, and I always managed to go
with them--certainly not to see Mr. Ramsdale, who had nothing to say
to a shy little boy and whose hard red face looked the face of a hard
drinker. _My_ visits were to the paroquets exclusively. Oh, why,
thought I many and many a time, did not these dear green people come
over to us and have their happy village in our trees! Yet when I
visited them they didn't like it; no sooner would I run out to the
grove where the nests were than the place would be in an uproar. Out
and up they would rush, to unite in a flock and hover shrieking over
my head, and the commotion would last until I left them.

On our return late one afternoon in early spring from one of our rare
visits to Mr. Ramsdale, we witnessed a strange thing. The plain at
that place was covered with a dense growth of cardoon-thistle or wild
artichoke, and leaving the estancia house in our trap, we followed the
cattle tracks as there was no road on that side. About half-way home
we saw a troop of seven or eight deer in an open green space among the
big grey thistle-bushes, but instead of uttering their whistling
alarm-cry and making off at our approach they remained at the same
spot, although we passed within forty yards of them. The troop was
composed of two bucks engaged in a furious fight, and five or six does
walking round and round the two fighters. The bucks kept their heads
so low down that their noses were almost touching the ground, while
with their horns locked together they pushed violently, and from time
to time one would succeed in forcing the other ten or twenty feet
back. Then a pause, then another violent push, then with horns still
together they would move sideways, round and round, and so on until we
left them behind and lost sight of them.

This spectacle greatly excited us at the time and was vividly recalled
several months afterwards when one of our gaucho neighbours told us of
a curious thing he had just seen. He had been out on that cardoon-
covered spot where we had seen the fighting deer, and at that very
spot in the little green space he had come upon the skeletons of two
deer with their horns interlocked.

Tragedies of this kind in the wild animal world have often been
recorded, but they are exceedingly rare on the pampas, as the smooth
few-pronged antlers of the native deer, _corvus campestris_, are not
so liable to get hopelessly locked as in many other species.

Deer were common in our district in those days, and were partial to
land overgrown with cardoon thistle, which in the absence of trees and
thickets afforded them some sort of cover. I seldom rode to that side
without getting a sight of a group of deer, often looking exceedingly
conspicuous in their bright fawn colour as they stood gazing at the
intruder amidst the wide waste of grey cardoon bushes.

These rough plains were also the haunt of the rhea, our ostrich, and
it was here that I first had a close sight of this greatest and most
unbird-like bird of our continent. I was eight years old then, when
one afternoon in late summer I was just setting off for a ride on my
pony, when I was told to go out on the east side till I came to the
cardoon-covered land about a mile beyond the shepherd's ranch. The
shepherd was wanted in the plantation and could not go to the flock
just yet, and I was told to look for the flock and turn it towards

I found the flock just where I had been told to look for it, the sheep
very widely scattered, and some groups of a dozen or two to a hundred
were just visible at a distance among the rough bushes. Just where
these furthest sheep were grazing there was a scattered troop of
seventy or eighty horses grazing too, and when I rode to that spot I
all at once found myself among a lot of rheas, feeding too among the
sheep and horses. Their grey plumage being so much like the cardoon
bushes in colour had prevented me from seeing them before I was right
among them.

The strange thing was that they paid not the slightest attention to
me, and pulling up my pony I sat staring in astonishment at them,
particularly at one, a very big one and nearest to me, engaged in
leisurely pecking at the clover plants growing among the big prickly
thistle leaves, and as it seemed carefully selecting the best sprays.

What a great noble-looking bird it was and how beautiful in its loose
grey-and-white plumage, hanging like a picturesquely-worn mantle about
its body! Why were they so tame? I wondered. The sight of a mounted
gaucho, even at a great distance, will invariably set them off at
their topmost speed; yet here I was within a dozen yards of one of
them, with several others about me, all occupied in examining the
herbage and selecting the nicest-looking leaves to pluck, just as if I
was not there at all! I suppose it was because I was only a small boy
on a small horse and was not associated in the ostrich brain with the
wild-looking gaucho on his big animal charging upon him with a deadly
purpose. Presently I went straight at the one near me, and he then
raised his head and neck and moved carelessly away to a distance of a
few yards, then began cropping the clover once more. I rode at him
again, putting my pony to a trot, and when within two yards of him he
all at once swung his body round in a quaint way towards me, and
breaking into a sort of dancing trot brushed past me.

Pulling up again and looking back I found he was ten or twelve yards
behind me, once more quietly engaged in cropping clover leaves!

Again and again this bird, and one of the others I rode at, practised
the same pretty trick, first appearing perfectly unconcerned at my
presence and then, when I made a charge at them, with just one little
careless movement placing themselves a dozen yards behind me.

But this same trick of the rhea is wonderful to see when the hunted
bird is spent with running and is finally overtaken by one of the
hunters who has perhaps lost the bolas with which he captures his
quarry, and who endeavours to place himself side by side with it so as
to reach it with his knife. It seems an easy thing to do: the bird is
plainly exhausted, panting, his wings hanging, as he lopes on, yet no
sooner is the man within striking distance than the sudden motion
comes into play, and the bird as by a miracle is now behind instead of
at the side of the horse. And before the horse going at top speed can
be reined in and turned round, the rhea has had time to recover his
wind and get a hundred yards away or more. It is on account of this
tricky instinct of the rhea that the gauchos say, "El avestruz es el
mas _gaucho_ de los animales," which means that the ostrich, in its
resourcefulness and the tricks it practises to save itself when
hard pressed, is as clever as the gaucho knows himself to be.



Happiest time--First visit to the Capital--Old and New Buenos Ayres--
Vivid impressions--Solitary walk--How I learnt to go alone--Lost--The
house we stayed at and the sea-like river--Rough and narrow streets--
Rows of posts--Carts and noise--A great church festival--Young men in
black and scarlet--River scenes--Washerwomen and their language--Their
word-fights with young fashionables--Night watchmen--A young
gentleman's pastime--A fishing dog--A fine gentleman seen stoning
little birds--A glimpse of Don Eusebio, the Dictator's fool.

The happiest time of my boyhood was at that early period, a little
past the age of six, when I had my own pony to ride on, and was
allowed to stay on his back just as long and go as far from home as I
liked. I was like the young bird when on first quitting the nest it
suddenly becomes conscious of its power to fly. My early flying days
were, however, soon interrupted, when my mother took me on my first
visit to Buenos Ayres; that is to say, the first I remember, as I must
have been taken there once before as an infant in arms, since we lived
too far from town for any missionary-clergyman to travel all that
distance just to baptize a little baby. Buenos Ayres is now the
wealthiest, most populous, Europeanized city in South America: what it
was like at that time these glimpses into a far past will serve to
show. Coming as a small boy of an exceptionally impressionable mind,
from that green plain where people lived the simple pastoral life,
everything I saw in the city impressed me deeply, and the sights which
impressed me the most are as vivid in my mind to-day as they ever
were. I was a solitary little boy in my rambles about the streets, for
though I had a younger brother who was my only playmate, he was not
yet five, and too small to keep me company in my walks. Nor did I mind
having no one with me. Very, very early in my boyhood I had acquired
the habit of going about alone to amuse myself in my own way, and it
was only after years, when my age was about twelve, that my mother
told me how anxious this singularity in me used to make her. She would
miss me when looking out to see what the children were doing, and I
would be called and searched for, to be found hidden away somewhere in
the plantation. Then she began to keep an eye on me, and when I was
observed stealing off she would secretly follow and watch me, standing
motionless among the tall weeds or under the trees by the half-hour,
staring at vacancy. This distressed her very much; then to her great
relief and joy she discovered that I was there with a motive which she
could understand and appreciate: that I was watching some living
thing, an insect perhaps, but oftener a bird--a pair of little scarlet
flycatchers building a nest of lichen on a peach tree, or some such
beautiful thing. And as she loved all living things herself she was
quite satisfied that I was not going queer in my head, for that was
what she had been fearing.

The strangeness of the streets was a little too much for me at the
start, and I remember that on first venturing out by myself a little
distance from home I got lost. In despair of ever finding my way back
I began to cry, hiding my face against a post at a street corner, and
was there soon surrounded by quite a number of passers-by; then a
policeman came up, with brass buttons on his blue coat and a sword at
his side, and taking me by the arm he asked me in a commanding voice
where I lived--the name of the street and the number of the house. I
couldn't tell him; then I began to get frightened on account of his
sword and big black moustache and loud rasping voice, and suddenly ran
away, and after running for about six or eight minutes found myself
back at home, to my surprise and joy.

The house where we stayed with English friends was near the front, or
what was then the front, that part of the city which faced the Plata
river, a river which was like the sea, with no visible shore beyond;
and like the sea it was tidal, and differed only in its colour, which
was a muddy red instead of blue or green. The house was roomy, and
like most of the houses at that date had a large courtyard paved with
red tiles and planted with small lemon trees and flowering shrubs of
various kinds. The streets were straight and narrow, paved with round
boulder stones the size of a football, the pavements with brick or
flagstones, and so narrow they would hardly admit of more than two
persons walking abreast. Along the pavements on each side of the
street were rows of posts placed at a distance of ten yards apart.
These strange-looking rows of posts, which foreigners laughed to see,
were no doubt the remains of yet ruder times, when ropes of hide were
stretched along the side of the pavements to protect the foot-
passengers from runaway horses, wild cattle driven by wild men from
the plains, and other dangers of the narrow streets. As they were then
paved the streets must have been the noisiest in the world, on account
of the immense numbers of big springless carts in them. Imagine the
thunderous racket made by a long procession of these carts, when they
were returning empty, and the drivers, as was often the case, urged
their horses to a gallop, and they bumped and thundered over the big
round stones!

Just opposite the house we stayed at there was a large church, one of
the largest of the numerous churches of the city, and one of my most
vivid memories relates to a great annual festival at the church--that
of the patron saint's day. It had been open to worshippers all day,
but the chief service was held about three o'clock in the afternoon;
at all events it was at that hour when a great attendance of
fashionable people took place. I watched them as they came in couples,
families and small groups, in every case the ladies, beautifully
dressed, attended by their cavaliers. At the door of the church the
gentleman would make his bow and withdraw to the street before the
building, where a sort of outdoor gathering was formed of all those
who had come as escorts to the ladies, and where they would remain
until the service was over. The crowd in the street grew and grew
until there were about four or five hundred gentlemen, mostly young,
in the gathering, all standing in small groups, conversing in an
animated way, so that the street was filled with the loud humming
sound of their blended voices. These men were all natives, all of the
good or upper class of the native society, and all dressed exactly
alike in the fashion of that time. It was their dress and the uniform
appearance of so large a number of persons, most of them with young,
handsome, animated faces, that fascinated me and kept me on the spot
gazing at them until the big bells began to thunder at the conclusion
of the service and the immense concourse of gaily-dressed ladies
swarmed out, and immediately the meeting broke up, the gentlemen
hurrying back to meet them.

They all wore silk hats and the glossiest black broadcloth, not even a
pair of trousers of any other shade was seen; and all wore the scarlet
silk or fine cloth waistcoat which, at that period, was considered the
right thing for every citizen of the republic to wear; also, in lieu
of buttonhole, a scarlet ribbon pinned to the lapel of the coat. It
was a pretty sight, and the concourse reminded me of a flock of
military starlings, a black or dark-plumaged bird with a scarlet
breast, one of my feathered favourites.

My rambles were almost always on the front, since I could walk there a
mile or two from home, north or south, without getting lost, always
with the vast expanse of water on one hand, with many big ships
looking dim in the distance, and numerous lighters or belanders coming
from them with cargoes of merchandise which they unloaded into carts,
these going out a quarter of a mile in the shallow water to meet them.
Then there were the water-carts going and coming in scores and
hundreds, for at that period there was no water supply to the houses,
and every house-holder had to buy muddy water by the bucket at his own
door from the watermen.

One of the most attractive spots to me was the congregating place of
the _lavanderas_, south of my street. Here on the broad beach under
the cliff one saw a whiteness like a white cloud, covering the ground
for a space of about a third of a mile; and the cloud, as one drew
near, resolved itself into innumerable garments, sheets and quilts,
and other linen pieces, fluttering from long lines, and covering the
low rocks washed clean by the tide and the stretches of green turf
between. It was the spot where the washerwomen were allowed to wash
all the dirty linen of Buenos Ayres in public. All over the ground the
women, mostly negresses, were seen on their knees, beside the pools
among the rocks, furiously scrubbing and pounding away at their work,
and like all negresses they were exceedingly vociferous, and their
loud gabble, mingled with yells and shrieks of laughter, reminded me
of the hubbub made by a great concourse of gulls, ibises, godwits,
geese, and other noisy water-fowl on some marshy lake. It was a
wonderfully animated scene, and drew me to it again and again: I
found, however, that it was necessary to go warily among these women,
as they looked with suspicion at idling boys, and sometimes, when I
picked my way among the spread garments, I was sharply ordered off.
Then, too, they often quarrelled over their right to certain places
and spaces among themselves; then very suddenly their hilarious gabble
would change to wild cries of anger and torrents of abuse. By and by I
discovered that their greatest rages and worst language were when
certain young gentlemen of the upper classes visited the spot to amuse
themselves by baiting the _lavanderas_. The young gentleman would
saunter about in an absent-minded manner and presently walk right on
to a beautifully embroidered and belaced nightdress or other dainty
garment spread out to dry on the sward or rock, and, standing on it,
calmly proceed to take out and light a cigarette. Instantly the black
virago would be on her feet confronting him and pouring out a torrent
of her foulest expressions and deadliest curses. He, in a pretended
rage, would reply in even worse language. That would put her on her
mettle; for now all her friends and foes scattered about the ground
would suspend their work to listen with all their ears; and the
contest of words growing louder and fiercer would last until the
combatants were both exhausted and unable to invent any more new and
horrible expressions of opprobrium to hurl at each other. Then the
insulted young gentleman would kick the garment away in a fury and
hurling the unfinished cigarette in his adversary's face would walk
off with his nose in the air.

I laugh to recall these unseemly word-battles on the beach, but they
were shocking to me when I first heard them as a small, innocent-
minded boy, and it only made the case worse when I was assured that
the young gentleman was only acting a part, that the extreme anger he
exhibited, which might have served as an excuse for using such
language, was all pretence.

Another favourite pastime of these same idle, rich young gentlemen
offended me as much as the one I have related. The night-watchmen,
called _Serenos,_ of that time interested me in an extraordinary way.
When night came it appeared that the fierce policemen, with their
swords and brass buttons, were no longer needed to safeguard the
people, and their place in the streets was taken by a quaint, frowsy-
looking body of men, mostly old, some almost decrepit, wearing big
cloaks and carrying staffs and heavy iron lanterns with a tallow
candle alight inside. But what a pleasure it was to lie awake at night
and listen to their voices calling the hours! The calls began at the
stroke of eleven, and then from beneath the window would come the
wonderful long drawling call of _Las on--ce han da--do y se--re--no,_
which means eleven of the clock and all serene, but if clouded the
concluding word would be _nu--bla--do,_ and so on, according to the
weather. From all the streets, from all over the town, the long-drawn
calls would float to my listening ears, with infinite variety in the
voices--the high and shrill, the falsetto, the harsh, raucous note
like the caw of the carrion crow, the solemn, booming bass, and then
some fine, rich, pure voice that soared heavenwards above all the
others and was like the pealing notes of an organ.

I loved the poor night-watchmen and their cries, and it grieved my
little soft heart to hear that it was considered fine sport by the
rich young gentlemen to sally forth at night and do battle with them,
and to deprive them of their staffs and lanterns, which they took home
and kept as trophies.

Another human phenomenon which annoyed and shocked my tender mind,
like that of the contests on the beach between young gentlemen and
washerwomen, was the multitude of beggars which infested the town.
These were not like our dignified beggar on horseback, with his red
poncho, spurs and tall straw hat, who rode to your gate, and having
received his tribute, blessed you and rode away to the next estancia.
These city beggars on the pavement were the most brutal, even
fiendish, looking men I had ever seen. Most of them were old soldiers,
who, having served their ten, fifteen, or twenty years, according to
the nature of the crime for which they had been condemned to the army,
had been discharged or thrown out to live like carrion-hawks on what
they could pick up. Twenty times a day at least you would hear the
iron gate opening from the courtyard into the street swung open,
followed by the call or shout of the beggar demanding charity in the
name of God. Outside you could not walk far without being confronted
by one of these men, who would boldly square himself in front of you
on the narrow pavement and beg for alms. If you had no change and
said, _"Perdon, por Dios,"_ he would scowl and let you pass; but if
you looked annoyed or disgusted, or ordered him out of the way, or
pushed by without a word, he would glare at you with a concentrated
rage which seemed to say, "Oh, to have you down at my mercy, bound
hand and foot, a sharp knife in my hand!" And this would be followed
by a blast of the most horrible language.

One day I witnessed a very strange thing, the action of a dog, by the
waterside. It was evening and the beach was forsaken; cartmen,
fishermen, boatmen all gone, and I was the only idler left on the
rocks; but the tide was coming in, rolling quite big waves on to the
rocks, and the novel sight of the waves, the freshness, the joy of it,
kept me at that spot, standing on one of the outermost rocks not yet
washed over by the water. By and by a gentleman, followed by a big
dog, came down on to the beach and stood at a distance of forty or
fifty yards from me, while the dog bounded forward over the flat,
slippery rocks and through pools of water until he came to my side,
and sitting on the edge of the rock began gazing intently down at the
water. He was a big, shaggy, round-headed animal, with a greyish coat
with some patches of light reddish colour on it; what his breed was I
cannot say, but he looked somewhat like a sheep-dog or an otter-hound.
Suddenly he plunged in, quite disappearing from sight, but quickly
reappeared with a big shad of about three and a half or four pounds'
weight in his jaws. Climbing on to the rock he dropped the fish, which
he did not appear to have injured much, as it began floundering about
in an exceedingly lively manner. I was astonished and looked back at
the dog's master; but there he stood in the same place, smoking and
paying no attention to what his animal was doing. Again the dog
plunged in and brought out a second big fish and dropped it on the
flat rock, and again and again he dived, until there were five big
shads all floundering about on the wet rock and likely soon to be
washed back into the water. The shad is a common fish in the Plata and
the best to eat of all its fishes, resembling the salmon in its rich
flavour, and is eagerly watched for when it comes up from the sea by
the Buenos Ayres fishermen, just as our fishermen watch for mackerel
on our coasts. But on this evening the beach was deserted by every
one, watchers included, and the fish came and swarmed along the rocks,
and there was no one to catch them--not even some poor hungry idler to
pounce upon and carry off the five fishes the dog had captured. One by
one I saw them washed back into the water, and presently the dog,
hearing his master whistling to him, bounded away.

For many years after this incident I failed to find any one who had
even seen or heard of a dog catching fish. Eventually, in reading I
met with an account of fishing-dogs in Newfoundland and other

One other strange adventure met with on the front remains to be told.
It was about eleven o'clock in the morning and I was on the parade,
walking north, pausing from time to time to look over the sea-wall to
watch the flocks of small birds that came to feed on the beach below.
Presently my attention was drawn to a young man walking on before me,
pausing and peering too from time to time over the wall, and when he
did so throwing something at the small birds. I ran on and overtook
him, and was rather taken aback at his wonderfully fine appearance. He
was like one of the gentlemen of the gathering before the church,
described a few pages back, and wore a silk hat and fashionable black
coat and trousers and scarlet silk waistcoat; he was also a remarkably
handsome young gentleman, with a golden-brown curly beard and
moustache and dark liquid eyes that studied my face with a half-amused
curiosity when I looked up at him. In one hand he carried a
washleather bag by its handle, and holding a pebble in his right hand
he watched the birds, the small parties of crested song sparrows,
yellow house sparrows, siskins, field finches, and other kinds, and
from time to time he would hurl a pebble at the bird he had singled
out forty yards down below us on the rocks. I did not see him actually
hit a bird, but his precision was amazing, for almost invariably the
missile, thrown from such a distance at so minute an object, appeared
to graze the feathers and to miss killing by but a fraction of an

I followed him for some distance, my wonder and curiosity growing
every minute to see such a superior-looking person engaged in such a
pastime. For it is a fact that the natives do not persecute small
birds. On the contrary, they despise the aliens in the land who shoot
and trap them. Besides, if he wanted small birds for any purpose, why
did he try to get them by throwing pebbles at them? As he did not
order me off, but looked in a kindly way at me every little while,
with a slight smile on his face, I at length ventured to tell him that
he would never get a bird that way--that it would be impossible at
that distance to hit one with a small pebble. "Oh, no, not
impossible," he returned, smiling and walking on, still with an eye
on the rocks. "Well, you haven't hit one yet," I was bold enough to
say, and at that he stopped, and putting his finger and thumb in his
waistcoat pocket he pulled out a dead male siskin and put it in my

This was the bird called "goldfinch" by the English resident in La
Plata, and to the Spanish it is also goldfinch; it is, however, a
siskin, _Chrysomitris magellanica,_ and has a velvet-black head, the
rest of its plumage being black, green, and shining yellow. It was
one of my best-loved birds, but I had never had one in my hand, dead
or alive, before, and now its wonderful unimagined loveliness, its
graceful form, and the exquisitely pure flower-like yellow hue
affected me with a delight so keen that I could hardly keep from

After gloating a few moments over it, touching it with my finger-tips
and opening the little black and gold wings, I looked up pleadingly
and begged him to let me keep it. He smiled and shook his head: he
would not waste his breath talking; all his energy was to be spent in
hurling pebbles at other lovely little birds.

"Oh, senor, will you not give it to me?" I pleaded still; and then,
with sudden hope, "Are you going to sell it?"

He laughed, and taking it from my hand put it back in his waistcoat
pocket; then, with a pleasant smile and a nod to say that the
interview was now over, he went on his way.

Standing on the spot where he left me, and still bitterly regretting
that I had failed to get the bird, I watched him until he disappeared
from sight in the distance, walking towards the suburb of Palermo; and
a mystery he remains to this day, the one and only Argentine
gentleman, a citizen of the Athens of South America, amusing himself
by killing little birds with pebbles. But I do not know that it was an
amusement. He had perhaps in some wild moment made a vow to kill so
many siskins in that way, or a bet to prove his skill in throwing a
pebble; or he might have been practising a cure for some mysterious
deadly malady, prescribed by some wandering physician from Bagdad or
Ispaham; or, more probable still, some heartless, soulless woman he
was in love with had imposed this fantastical task on him.

Perhaps the most wonderful thing I saw during that first eventful
visit to the capital was the famed Don Eusebio, the court jester or
fool of the President or Dictator Rosas, the "Nero of South America,"
who lived in his palace at Palermo, just outside the city. I had been
sent with my sisters and little brother to spend the day at the house
of an Anglo-Argentine family in another part of the town, and we were
in the large courtyard playing with the children of the house when
some one opened a window above us and called out, "Don Eusebio!" That
conveyed nothing to me, but the little boys of the house knew what it
meant; it meant that if we went quickly out to the street we might
catch a glimpse of the great man in all his glory. At all events, they
jumped up, flinging their toys away, and rushed to the street door,
and we after them. Coming out we found quite a crowd of lookers-on,
and then down the street, in his general's dress--for it was one of
the Dictator's little jokes to make his fool a general--all scarlet,
with a big scarlet three-cornered hat surmounted by an immense
aigrette of scarlet plumes, came Don Eusebio. He marched along with
tremendous dignity, his sword at his side, and twelve soldiers, also
in scarlet, his bodyguard, walking six on each side of him with drawn
swords in their hands.

We gazed with joyful excitement at this splendid spectacle, and it
made it all the more thrilling when one of the boys whispered in my
ear that if any person in the crowd laughed or made any insulting or
rude remark, he would be instantly cut to pieces by the guard. And
they looked truculent enough for anything.

The great Rosas himself I did not see, but it was something to have
had this momentary sight of General Eusebio, his fool, on the eve of
his fall after a reign of over twenty years, during which he proved
himself one of the bloodiest as well as the most original-minded of
the Caudillos and Dictators, and altogether, perhaps, the greatest of
those who have climbed into power in this continent of republics and



The portraits in our drawing-room--The Dictator Rosas who was like an
Englishman--The strange face of his wife, Encarnacion--The traitor
Urquiza--The Minister of War, his peacocks, and his son--Home again
from the city--The War deprives us of our playmate--Natalia, our
shepherd's wife--Her son, Medardo--The Alcalde our grand old man--
Battle of Monte Caseros--The defeated army--Demands for fresh horses--
In peril--My father's shining defects--His pleasure in a thunder
storm--A childlike trust in his fellow-men--Soldiers turn upon their
officer--A refugee given up and murdered--Our Alcalde again--On
cutting throats--Ferocity and cynicism--Native blood-lust and its
effect on a boy's mind--Feeling about Rosas--A bird poem or tale--Vain
search for lost poem and story of its authorship--The Dictator's
daughter--Time, the old god.

At the end of the last chapter, when describing my one sight of the
famous jester, Don Eusebio, in his glory, attended by a body-guard
with drawn swords who were ready to cut down any one of the spectators
who failed to remove his hat or laughed at the show, I said it was on
the eve of the fall of the President of the Republic, or Dictator,
"the Tyrant," as he was called by his adversaries when they didn't
call him the "Nero of South America" or the "Tiger of Palermo"--this
being the name of a park on the north side of Buenos Ayres where Rosas
lived in a white stuccoed house called his palace.

At that time the portrait, in colours, of the great man occupied the
post of honour above the mantelpiece in our _sala_, or drawing-room--
the picture of a man with fine clear-cut regular features, light
reddish-brown hair and side-whiskers, and blue eyes; he was sometimes
called "Englishman" on account of his regular features and blonde
complexion. That picture of a stern handsome face, with flags and
cannon and olive-branch--the arms of the republic--in its heavy gold
frame, was one of the principal ornaments of the room, and my father
was proud of it, since he was, for reasons to be stated by and by, a
great admirer of Rosas, an out-and-out Rosista, as the loyal ones were
called. This portrait was flanked by two others; one of Dona
Encarnacion, the wife, long dead, of Rosas; a handsome, proud-looking
young woman with a vast amount of black hair piled up on her head in a
fantastic fashion, surmounted by a large tortoiseshell comb. I
remember that as small children we used to look with a queer, almost
uncanny sort of feeling at this face under its pile of black hair,
because it was handsome but not sweet nor gentle, and because she was
dead and had died long ago; yet it was like the picture of one alive
when we looked at it, and those black unloving eyes gazed straight
back into ours. Why did those eyes, unless they moved, which they
didn't, always look back into ours no matter in what part of the room
we stood?--a perpetual puzzle to our childish uninformed brains.

On the other side was the repellent, truculent countenance of the
Captain-General Urquiza, who was the Dictator's right-hand man, a
ferocious cut-throat if ever there was one, who had upheld his
authority for many years in the rebellious upper provinces, but who
had just now raised the standard of revolt against him and in a little
while, with the aid of a Brazilian army, would succeed in overthrowing

The central portrait inspired us with a kind of awe and reverential
feeling, since even as small children we were made to know that he was
the greatest man in the republic, that he had unlimited power over all
men's lives and fortunes and was terrible in his anger against evil-
doers, especially those who rebelled against his authority.

Two more portraits of the famous men of the republic of that date
adorned the same wall. Next to Urquiza was General Oribe, commander of
the army sent by Rosas against Montevideo, which maintained the siege
of that city for the space of ten years. On the other side, next to
Dona Encarnacion, was the portrait of the Minister of War, a face
which had no attraction for us children, as it was not coloured like
that of the Dictator, nor had any romance or mystery in it like that
of his dead wife; yet it served to bring all these pictured people
into our actual world--to make us realize that they were the
counterfeit presentments of real men and women. For it happened that
this same Minister of War was in a way a neighbour of ours, as he
owned an estancia, which he sometimes visited, about three leagues
from us, on that part of the plain to the east of our place which I
have described in a former chapter as being covered with a dense
growth of the bluish-grey wild artichoke, the _cardo de Castilla_, as
it is called in the vernacular. Like most of the estancia houses of
that day it was a long low building of brick with thatched roof,
surrounded by an enclosed _quinta_, or plantation, with rows of
century-old Lombardy poplars conspicuous at a great distance, and many
old acacia, peach, quince, and cherry trees. It was a cattle and
horse-breeding establishment, but the beasts were of less account to
the owner than his peacocks, a fowl for which he had so great a
predilection that he could not have too many of them; he was always
buying more peacocks to send out to the estate, and they multiplied
until the whole place swarmed with them. And he wanted them all for
himself, so that it was forbidden to sell or give even an egg away.
The place was in the charge of a major-domo, a good-natured fellow,
and when he discovered that we liked peacocks' feathers for decorative
purposes in the house, he made it a custom to send us each year at the
moulting-time large bundles, whole armfuls, of feathers.

Another curious thing in the estancia was a large room set apart for
the display of trophies sent from Buenos Ayres by the Minister's
eldest son. I have already given an account of a favourite pastime of
the young gentlemen of the capital--that of giving battle to the
night-watchmen and wresting their staffs and lanterns from them. Our
Minister's heir was a leader in this sport, and from time to time sent
consignments of his trophies to the country place, where the walls of
the room were covered with staffs and festoons of lanterns.

Once or twice as a small boy I had the privilege of meeting this young
gentleman and looked at him with an intense curiosity which has served
to keep his image in my mind till now. His figure was slender and
graceful, his features good, and he had a rather long Spanish face;
his eyes were grey-blue, and his hair and moustache a reddish golden-
brown. It was a handsome face, but with a curiously repelling,
impatient, reckless, almost devilish expression.

I was at home again, back in the plantation among my beloved birds,
glad to escape from the noisy dusty city into the sweet green
silences, with the great green plain glittering with the false water
of the mirage spreading around our shady oasis, and the fact that war,
which for the short period of my own little life and for many long
years before I was born, had not visited our province, thanks to Rosas
the Tyrant, the man of blood and iron, had now come to us did not make
the sunshine less sweet and pleasant to behold. Our elders, it is
true, showed anxious faces, but they were often anxious about matters
which did not affect us children, and therefore didn't matter. But by
and by even we little ones were made to realize that there was a
trouble in the land which touched us too, since it deprived us of the
companionship of the native boy who was our particular friend and
guardian during our early horseback rambles on the plain. This boy,
Medardo, or Dardo, was the fifteen-years-old son--illegitimate of
course--of the native woman our English shepherd had made his wife.
Why he had done so was a perpetual mystery and marvel to every one on
account of her person and temper. The very thought of this poor
Natalia, or Dona Nata as she was called, long dead and turned to dust
in that far pampa, troubles my spirit even now and gives me the
uncomfortable feeling that in putting her portrait on this paper I am
doing a mean thing.

She was an excessively lean creature, careless, and even dirty in her
person, with slippers but no stockings on her feet, an old dirty gown
of a coarse blue cotton stuff and a large coloured cotton handkerchief
or piece of calico wound turban-wise about her head. She was of a
yellowish parchment colour, the skin tight-drawn over the small bony
aquiline features, and it would have seemed like the face of a corpse
or mummy but for the deeply-sunken jet-black eyes burning with a
troubled fire in their sockets. There was a tremor and strangely
pathetic note in her thin high-pitched voice, as of a woman speaking
with effort between half-suppressed sobs, or like the mournful cry of
some wild bird of the marshes. Voice and face were true indications of
her anxious mind. She was in a perpetual state of worry over some
trifling matter, and when a real trouble came, as when our flock "got
mixed" with a neighbour's flock and four or five thousand sheep had to
be parted, sheep by sheep, according to their ear-marks, or when her
husband came home drunk and tumbled off his horse at the door instead
of dismounting in the usual manner, she would be almost out of her
mind and wring her hands and shriek and cry out that such conduct
would not be endured by his long-suffering master, and they would no
longer have a roof over their heads!

Poor anxious-minded Nata, who moved us both to pity and repulsion, it
was impossible not to admire her efforts to keep her stolid
inarticulate husband in the right path and her intense wild animal-
like love of her children--the three dirty-faced English-looking
offspring of her strange marriage, and Dardo, her firstborn, the son
of the wind. He, too, was an interesting person; small or short for
his years, he was thick and had a curiously solid mature appearance,
with a round head, wide open, startlingly bright eyes, and aquiline
features which gave him a resemblance to a sparrow-hawk. He was mature
in mind, too, and had all the horse lore of the seasoned gaucho, and
at the same time he was like a child in his love of fun and play, and
wanted nothing better than to serve us as a perpetual playmate. But he
had his work, which was to look after the flock when the shepherd's
services were required elsewhere; an easy task for him on his horse,
especially in summer when for long hours the sheep would stand
motionless on the plain. Dardo, who was teaching us to swim, would
then invite us to go to the river--to one of two streams within half
an hour's ride from home, where there were good bathing-pools! but
always before starting he would have to go and ask his mother's
consent. Mounting my pony I would follow him to the _puesto_ or
shepherd's ranche, only to be denied permission: "No, you are not to
go to-day: you must not think of such a thing. I forbid you to take
the boys to the river this day!"

Then Dardo, turning his horse's head, would exclaim, "Oh, caram-bam-
bam-ba!" And she, seeing him going, would rush out after us,
shrieking, "Don't caram-bam-bam-ba me! You are not to go to the river
this day--I forbid it! I know if you go to the river this day there
will be a terrible calamity! Listen to me, Dardo, rebel, devil that
you are, you shall not go bathing to-day!" And the cries would
continue until, breaking into a gallop, we would quickly be out of
earshot. Then Dardo would say, "Now we'll go back to the house for the
others and go to the river. You see, she made me kneel before the
crucifix and promise never to take you to bathe without asking her
consent. And that's all I've got to do; I never promised to obey her
commands, so it's all right."

These pleasant adventures with Dardo on the plain were suddenly put a
stop to by the war. One morning a number of persons on foot and on
horseback were seen coming to us over the green plain from the
shepherd's ranche, and as they drew nearer we recognized our old
Alcalde on his horse as the leader of the procession, and behind him
walked Dona Nata, holding her son by the hand; then followed others on
foot, and behind them all rode four old gauchos, the Alcalde's
henchmen, wearing their swords.

What matter of tremendous importance had brought this crowd to our
house? The Alcalde, Don Amaro Avalos, was not only the representative
of the "authorities" in our parts--police officer, petty magistrate of
sorts, and several other things besides--but a grand old man in
himself, and he looms large in memory among the old gaucho patriarchs
in our neighbourhood. He was a big man, about six feet high,
exceedingly dignified in manner, his long hair and beard of a silvery
whiteness; he wore the gaucho costume with a great profusion of silver
ornaments, including ponderous silver spurs weighing about four
pounds, and heavy silver whip-handle. As a rule he rode on a big black
horse which admirably suited his figure and the scarlet colour and
silver of his costume.

On arrival Don Amaro was conducted to the drawing-room, followed by
all the others; and when all were seated, including the four old
gauchos wearing swords, the Alcalde addressed my parents and informed
them of the object of the visit. He had received an imperative order
from his superiors, he said, to take at once and send to headquarters
twelve more young men as recruits for the army from his small section
of the district. Now most of the young men had already been taken, or
had disappeared from the neighbourhood in order to avoid service, and
to make up this last twelve he had even to take boys of the age of
this one, and Medardo would have to go. But this woman would not have
her boy taken, and after spending many words in trying to convince her
that she must submit he had at last, to satisfy her, consented to
accompany her to her master's house to discuss the matter again in her
master and mistress's presence.

It was a long speech, pronounced with great dignity; then, almost
before it finished, the distracted mother jumped up and threw herself
on her knees before my parents, and in her wild tremulous voice began
crying to them, imploring them to have compassion on her and help her
to save her boy from such a dreadful destiny. What would he be, she
cried, a boy of his tender years dragged from his home, from his
mother's care, and thrown among a crowd of old hardened soldiers, and
of evil-minded men--murderers, robbers, and criminals of all
descriptions drawn from all the prisons of the land to serve in the

It was dreadful to see her on her knees wringing her hands, and to
listen to her wild lamentable cries; and again and again while the
matter was being discussed between the old Alcalde and my parents, she
would break out and plead with such passion and despair in her voice
and words, that all the people in the room were affected to tears. She
was like some wild animal trying to save her offspring from the
hunters. Never, exclaimed my mother, when the struggle was over, had
she passed so painful, so terrible, an hour! And the struggle had all
been in vain, and Dardo was taken from us.

One morning, some weeks later, the dull roar from distant big guns
came to our ears, and we were told that a great battle was being
fought, that Rosas himself was at the head of his army--a poor little
force of 25,000 men got together in hot haste to oppose a mixed
Argentine and Brazilian force of about 40,000 men commanded by the
traitor Urquiza. During several hours of that anxious day the dull,
heavy sound of firing continued and was like distant thunder: then in
the evening came the tidings of the overthrow of the defending army,
and of the march of the enemy on Buenos Ayres city! On the following
day, from dawn to dark, we were in the midst of an incessant stream of
the defeated men, flying to the south, in small parties of two or
three to half a dozen men, with some larger bands, all in their
scarlet uniforms and armed with lances and carbines and broadswords,
many of the bands driving large numbers of horses before them.

My father was warned by the neighbours that we were in great danger,
since these men were now lawless and would not hesitate to plunder and
kill in their retreat, and that all riding-horses would certainly be
seized by them. As a precaution he had the horses driven in and
concealed in the plantation, and that was all he would do. "Oh no," he
said, with a laugh, "they won't hurt us," and so we were all out and
about all day with the front gate and all doors and windows standing
open. From time to time a band on tired horses rode to the gate and,
without dismounting, shouted a demand for fresh horses. In every case
he went out and talked to them, always with a smiling, pleasant face,
and after assuring them that he had no horses for them they slowly and
reluctantly took their departure.

About three o'clock in the afternoon, the hottest hour of the day, a
troop of ten men rode up at a gallop, raising a great cloud of dust,
and coming in at the gate drew rein before the verandah. My father as
usual went out to meet them, whereupon they demanded fresh horses in
loud menacing voices.

Indoors we were all gathered in the large sitting-room, waiting the
upshot in a state of intense anxiety, for no preparations had been
made and no means of defence existed in the event of a sudden attack
on the house. We watched the proceedings from the interior, which was
too much in shadow for our dangerous visitors to see that they were
only women and children there and one man, a visitor, who had
withdrawn to the further end of the room and sat leaning back in an
easy chair, trembling and white as a corpse, with a naked sword in his
hand. He explained to us afterwards, when the danger was all over,
that fortunately he was an excellent swordsman, and that having found
the weapon in the room, he had resolved to give a good account of the
ten ruffians if they had made a rush to get in.

My father replied to these men as he had done to the others, assuring
them that he had no horses to give them. Meanwhile we who were indoors
all noticed that one of the ten men was an officer, a beardless young
man of about twenty-one or two, with a singularly engaging face. He
took no part in the proceedings, but sat silent on his horse, watching
the others with a peculiar expression, half contemptuous and half
anxious, on his countenance. And he alone was unarmed, a circumstance
which struck us as very strange. The others were all old veterans,
middle-aged and oldish men with grizzled beards, all in scarlet jacket
and scarlet _chiripa_ and a scarlet cap of the quaint form then worn,
shaped like a boat turned upside down, with a horn-like peak in front,
and beneath the peak a brass plate on which was the number of the

The men appeared surprised at the refusal of horses, and stated
plainly that they would not accept it; at which my father shook his
head and smiled. One of the men then asked for water to quench his
thirst. Some one in the house then took out a large jug of cold water,
and my father taking it handed it up to the man; he drank, then passed
the jug on to the other thirsty ones, and after going its rounds the
jug was handed back and the demand for fresh horses renewed in
menacing tones. There was some water left in the jug, and my father
began pouring it out in a thin stream, making little circles and
figures on the dry dusty ground, then once more shook his head and
smiled very pleasantly on them. Then one of the men, fixing his eyes
on my father's face, bent forward and suddenly struck his hand
violently on the hilt of his broadsword and, rattling the weapon, half
drew it from its sheath. This nerve-trying experiment was a complete
failure, its only effect being to make my father smile up at the man
even more pleasantly than before, as if the little practical joke had
greatly amused him.

The strange thing was that my father was not playing a part--that it
was his nature to act in just that way. It is a curious thing to say
of any person that his highest or most shining qualities were nothing
but defects, since, apart from these same singular qualities, he was
just an ordinary person with nothing to distinguish him from his
neighbours, excepting perhaps that he was not anxious to get rich and
was more neighbourly or more brotherly towards his fellows than most
men. The sense of danger, the instinct of self-preservation supposed
to be universal, was not in him, and there were occasions when this
extraordinary defect produced the keenest distress in my mother. In
hot summers we were subject to thunderstorms of an amazing violence,
and at such times, when thunder and lightning were nearest together
and most terrifying to everybody else, he would stand out of doors
gazing calmly up at the sky as if the blinding flashes and world-
shaking thunder-crashes had some soothing effect, like music, on his
mind. One day, just before noon, it was reported by one of the men
that the saddle-horses could not be found, and my father, with his
spy-glass in his hand, went out and ran up the wooden stairs to the
_mirador_ or look-out constructed at the top of the big barn-like
building used for storing wool. The _mirador_ was so high that
standing on it one was able to see even over the tops of the tall
plantation trees, and to protect the looker-out there was a high
wooden railing round it, and against this the tall flag-staff was
fastened. When my father went up to the look-out a terribly violent
thunderstorm was just bursting on us. The dazzling, almost continuous
lightning appeared to be not only in the black cloud over the house
but all round us, and crash quickly followed crash, making the doors
and windows rattle in their frames, while there high above us in the
very midst of the awful tumult stood my father calm as ever. Not
satisfied that he was high enough on the floor of the look-out he had
got up on the topmost rail, and standing on it, with his back against
the tall pole, he surveyed the open plain all round through his spy-
glass in search of the lost horses. I remember that indoors my mother
with white terror-stricken face stood gazing out at him, and that the
whole house was in a state of terror, expecting every moment to see
him struck by lightning and hurled down to the earth below.

A second and in its results a more disastrous shining quality was a
childlike trust in the absolute good faith of every person with whom
he came into business relations. Things being what they are this
inevitably led to his ruin.

To return to our unwelcome visitors. On this occasion my father's
perfectly cool smiling demeanour, resulting from his foolhardiness,
served him and the house well: it deceived them, for they could not
believe that he would have acted in that way if they had not been
watched by men with rifles in their hands from the interior who would
open fire on the least hostile movement on their part.

Suddenly the scowling spokesman of the troop, with a shouted "Vamos!"
turned his horse's head and, followed by all the others, rode out and
broke into a gallop. We too then hurried out, and from the screen of
poplar and black acacia trees growing at the side of the moat, watched
their movements, and saw, when they had got away a few hundred yards
from the gate, the young unarmed officer break away from them and
start off at the greatest speed he could get out of his horse. The
others quickly gave chase and at length disappeared from sight in the
direction of the Alcalde's or local petty magistrate's house, about a
mile and a half away. It was a long low thatched ranch without trees,
and could not be seen from our house as it stood behind a marshy lake
overgrown with all bulrushes.

While we were straining our eyes to see the result of the chase, and
after the hunted man and his pursuers had vanished from sight among
the herds of cattle and horses grazing on the plain, the tragedy was
being carried out in exceedingly painful circumstances. The young
officer, whose home was more than a day's journey from our district,
had visited the neighbourhood on a former occasion and remembered that
he had relations in it; and when he broke away from the men, divining
that it was their intention to murder him, he made for the old
Alcalde's house. He succeeded in keeping ahead of his pursuers until
he arrived at the gate, and throwing himself from his horse and
rushing into the house, and finding the old Alcalde surrounded by the
women of the house, addressed him as uncle and claimed his protection.
The Alcalde was not, strictly speaking, his uncle but was his mother's
first cousin. It was an awful moment: the nine armed ruffians were
already standing outside, shouting to the owner of the place to give
them up their prisoner, and threatening to burn down the house and
kill all the inmates if he refused. The old Alcalde stood in the
middle of the room, surrounded by a crowd of women and children, his
own two handsome daughters, aged about twenty and twenty-two
respectively, among them, fainting with terror and crying for him to
save them, while the young officer on his knees implored him for the
sake of his mother's memory, and of the Mother of God and of all he
held sacred, to refuse to give him up to be slaughtered.

The old man was not equal to the situation: he trembled and sobbed
with anguish, and at last faltered out that he could not protect him--
that he must save his own daughters and the wives and children of his
neighbours who had sought refuge in his house. The men outside,
hearing how the argument was going, came to the door, and finally
seizing the young man by the arm led him out and made him mount his
horse again and ride with them. They rode back the way they had gone
for half a mile towards our house, then pulled him off his horse and
cut his throat.

On the following day a mulatto boy who looked after the flock and went
on errands for the Alcalde, came to me and said that if I would mount
my pony and go with him he would show me something. It was not seldom
this same little fellow came to me to offer to show me something, and
it usually turned out to be a bird's nest, an object which keenly
interested us both. I gladly mounted my pony and followed. The broken
army had ceased passing our way by now, and it was peaceful and safe
once more on the great plain. We rode about a mile, and he then pulled
up his horse and pointed to the turf at our feet, where I saw a great
stain of blood on the short dry grass. Here, he told me, was where
they had cut the young officer's throat: the body had been taken by
the Alcalde to his house, where it had been lying since the evening
before, and it would be taken for burial next day to our nearest
village, about eight miles distant.

The murder was the talk of the place for some days, chiefly on account
of the painful facts of the case--that the old Alcalde, who was
respected and even loved by every one, should have failed in so
pitiful a way to make any attempt at saving his young relation. But
the mere fact that the soldiers had cut the throat of their officer
surprised no one; it was a common thing in the case of a defeat in
those days for the men to turn upon and murder their officers. Nor was
throat-cutting a mere custom or convention: to the old soldier it was
the only satisfactory way of finishing off your adversary, or prisoner
of war, or your officer who had been your tyrant, on the day of
defeat. Their feeling was similar to that of the man who is inspired
by the hunting instinct in its primitive form, as described by Richard
Jefferies. To kill the creatures with bullets at a distance was no
satisfaction to him: he must with his own hands drive the shaft into
the quivering flesh--he must feel its quivering and see the blood gush
up beneath his hand. One smiles at a vision of the gentle Richard
Jefferies slaughtering wild cattle in the palaeolithic way, but that
feeling and desire which he describes with such passion in his _Story
of My Heart_, that survival of the past, is not uncommon in the hearts
of hunters, and if we were ever to drop out of our civilization I
fancy we should return rather joyfully to the primitive method. And so
in those dark times in the Argentine Republic when, during half a
century of civil strife which followed on casting off the Spanish
"yoke," as it was called, the people of the plains had developed an
amazing ferocity, they loved to kill a man not with a bullet but in a
manner to make them know and feel that they were really and truly

As a child those dreadful deeds did not impress me, since I did not
witness them myself, and after looking at that stain of blood on the
grass the subject faded out of my mind. But as time went on and I
heard more about this painful subject I began to realize what it
meant. The full horror of it came only a few years later, when I was
big enough to go about to the native houses and among the gauchos in
their gatherings, at cattle-partings and brandings, races, and on
other occasions. I listened to the conversation of groups of men whose
lives had been mostly spent in the army, as a rule in guerilla
warfare, and the talk turned with surprising frequency to the subject
of cutting throats. Not to waste powder on prisoners was an unwritten
law of the Argentine army at that period, and the veteran gaucho
clever with the knife took delight in obeying it. It always came as a
relief, I heard them say, to have as victim a young man with a good
neck after an experience of tough, scraggy old throats: with a person
of that sort they were in no hurry to finish the business; it was
performed in a leisurely, loving way. Darwin, writing in praise of the
gaucho in his _Voyage of a Naturalist_, says that if a gaucho cuts
your throat he does it like a gentleman: even as a small boy I knew
better--that he did his business rather like a hellish creature
revelling in his cruelty. He would listen to all his captive could say
to soften his heart--all his heartrending prayers and pleadings; and
would reply: "Ah, friend,"--or little friend, or brother--"your words
pierce me to the heart and I would gladly spare you for the sake of
that poor mother of yours who fed you with her milk, and for your own
sake too, since in this short time I have conceived a great friendship
towards you; but your beautiful neck is your undoing, for how could I
possibly deny myself the pleasure of cutting such a throat--so
shapely, so smooth and soft and so white! Think of the sight of warm
red blood gushing from that white column!" And so on, with wavings of
the steel blade before the captive's eyes, until the end.

When I heard them relate such things--and I am quoting their very
words, remembered all these years only too well--laughingly, gloating
over such memories, such a loathing and hatred possessed me that ever
afterwards the very sight of these men was enough to produce a
sensation of nausea, just as when in the dog days one inadvertently
rides too near the putrid carcass of some large beast on the plain.

As I have said, all this feeling about throat-cutting and the power to
realize and visualize it, came to me by degrees long after the sight
of a blood-stain on the turf near our home; and in like manner the
significance of the tyrant's fall and the mighty changes it brought
about in the land only came to me long after the event. People were in
perpetual conflict about the character of the great man. He was
abhorred by many, perhaps by most; others were on his side even for
years after he had vanished from their ken, and among these were most
of the English residents of the country, my father among them. Quite
naturally I followed my father and came to believe that all the
bloodshed during a quarter of a century, all the crimes and cruelties
practised by Rosas, were not like the crimes committed by a private
person, but were all for the good of the country, with the result that
in Buenos Ayres and throughout our province there had been a long
period of peace and prosperity, and that all this ended with his fall
and was succeeded by years of fresh revolutionary outbreaks and
bloodshed and anarchy. Another thing about Rosas which made me ready
to fall in with my father's high opinion of him was the number of
stories about him which appealed to my childish imagination. Many of
these related to his adventures when he would disguise himself as a
person of humble status and prowl about the city by night, especially
in the squalid quarters, where he would make the acquaintance of the
very poor in their hovels. Most of these stories were probably
inventions and need not be told here; but there was one which I must
say something about because it is a bird story and greatly excited my
boyish interest.

I was often asked by our gaucho neighbours when I talked with them
about birds--and they all knew that that subject interested me above
all others--if I had ever heard _el canto_, or _el cuento del Bien-te-
veo_. That is to say, the ballad or tale of the _Bien-te-veo_--a
species of tyrant-bird quite common in the country, with a brown back
and sulphur-yellow under parts, a crest on its head, and face barred
with black and white. It is a little larger than our butcher-bird and,
like it, is partly rapacious in its habits. The barred face and long
kingfisher-like beak give it a peculiarly knowing or cunning look, and
the effect is heightened by the long trisyllabic call constantly
uttered by the bird, from which it derives its name of Bien-te-veo,
which means I-can-see-you. He is always letting you know that he is
there, that he has got his eye on you, so that you had better be
careful about your actions.

The Bien-te-veo, I need hardly say, was one of my feathered
favourites, and I begged my gaucho friends to tell me this _cuento_,
but although I met scores of men who had heard it, not one remembered
it: they could only say that it was very long--very few persons could
remember such a long story; and I further gathered that it was a sort
of history of the bird's life and his adventures among the other
birds; that the Bien-te-veo was always doing clever naughty things and
getting into trouble, but invariably escaping the penalty. From all I
could hear it was a tale of the Reynard the Fox order, or like the
tales told by the gauchos of the armadillo and how that quaint little
beast always managed to fool his fellow-animals, especially the fox,
who regarded himself as the cleverest of all the beasts and who looked
on his honest, dull-witted neighbour the armadillo as a born fool. Old
gauchos used to tell me that twenty or more years ago one often met
with a reciter of ballads who could relate the whole story of the
Bien-te-veo. Good reciters were common enough in my time: at dances it
was always possible to find one or two to amuse the company with long
poems and ballads in the intervals of dancing, and first and last I
questioned many who had this talent, but failed to find one who knew
the famous bird-ballad, and in the end I gave up the quest.

The story invariably told was that a man convicted of some serious
crime and condemned to suffer the last penalty, and left, as the
custom then was, for long months in the gaol in Buenos Ayres, amused
himself by composing the story of the Bien-te-veo, and thinking well
of it he made a present of the manuscript to the gaoler in
acknowledgment of some kindness he had received from that person. The
condemned man had no money and no friends to interest themselves on
his behalf; but it was not the custom at that time to execute a
criminal as soon as he was condemned. The prison authorities preferred
to wait until there were a dozen or so to execute; these would then be
taken out, ranged against a wall of the prison, opposite a file of
soldiers with muskets in their hands, and shot, the soldiers after the
first discharge reloading their weapons and going up to the fallen men
to finish off those who were still kicking. This was the prospect our
prisoner had to look forward to. Meanwhile his ballad was being
circulated and read with immense delight by various persons in
authority, and one of these who was privileged to approach the
Dictator, thinking it would afford him a little amusement, took the
ballad and read it to him. Rosas was so pleased with it that he
pardoned the condemned man and ordered his liberation.

All this, I conjectured, must have happened at least twenty years
before I was born. I also concluded that the ballad had never been
printed, otherwise I would most probably have found it; but some
copies in writing had evidently been made and it had become a
favourite composition with the reciters at festive gatherings, but had
now gone out and was hopelessly lost.

These, as I have already intimated, were but the little things that
touched a child's fancy; there was another romantic circumstance in
the life of Rosas which appealed to everybody, adult as well as child.

He was the father of Dona Manuela, known by the affectionate
diminutive, Manuelita, throughout the land, and loved and admired by
all, even by her father's enemies, for her compassionate disposition.
Perhaps she was the one being in the world for whom he, a widower and
lonely man, cherished a great tenderness. It is certain that her power
over him was very great and that many lives that would have been taken
for State reasons were saved by her interposition. It was a beautiful
and fearful part that she, a girl, was called on to play on that
dreadful stage; and very naturally it was said that she, who was the
very spirit of mercy incarnate, could not have acted as the loving,
devoted daughter to one who was the monster of cruelty his enemies
proclaimed him to be.

Here, in conclusion to this chapter, I had intended to introduce a few
sober reflections on the character of Rosas--certainly the greatest
and most interesting of all the South America Caudillos, or leaders,
who rose to absolute power during the long stormy period that followed
on the war of independence--reflections which came to me later, in my
teens, when I began to think for myself and form my own judgments.
This I now perceive would be a mistake, if not an impertinence, since
I have not the temper of mind for such exercises and should give too
much importance to certain singular acts on the Dictator's part which
others would perhaps regard as political errors, or due to sudden fits
of passion or petulance rather than as crimes. And some of his acts
are inexplicable, as for instance the public execution in the
interests of religion and morality of a charming young lady of good
family and her lover, the handsome young priest who had captivated the
town with his eloquence. Why he did it will remain a puzzle for ever.
There were many other acts which to foreigners and to those born in
later times might seem the result of insanity, but which were really
the outcome of a peculiar, sardonic, and somewhat primitive sense of
humour on his part which appeals powerfully to the men of the plains,
the gauchos, among whom Rosas lived from boyhood, when he ran away
from his father's house, and by whose aid he eventually rose to
supreme power.

All these things do not much affect the question of Rosas as a ruler
and his place in history. Time, the old god, says the poet, invests
all things with honour, and makes them white. The poet-prophet is not
to be taken literally, but his words so undoubtedly contain a
tremendous truth. And here, then, one may let the question rest. If
after half a century, and more, the old god is still sitting, chin on
hand, revolving this question, it would be as well to give him, say,
another fifty years to make up his mind and pronounce a final



Homes on the great green plain--Making the acquaintance of our
neighbours--The attraction of birds--Los Alamos and the old lady of
the house--Her treatment of St. Anthony--The strange Barboza family--
The man of blood--Great fighters--Barboza as a singer--A great quarrel
but no fight--A cattle-marking--Dona Lucia del Ombu--A feast--Barboza
sings and is insulted by El Rengo--Refuses to fight--The two kinds of
fighters--A poor little angel on horseback--My feeling for Anjelita--
Boys unable to express sympathy--A quarrel with a friend--Enduring
image of a little girl.

In a former chapter on the aspects of the plain I described the groves
and plantations, which marked the sites of the estancia houses, as
appearing like banks or islands of trees, blue in the distance, on the
vast flat sea-like plain. Some of these were many miles away and were
but faintly visible on the horizon, others nearer, and the nearest of
all was but two miles from us, on the hither side of that shallow
river to which my first long walk was taken, where I was amazed and
enchanted with my first sight of flamingoes. This place was called Los
Alamos, or The Poplars, a name which would have suited a large
majority of the estancia houses with trees growing about them, seeing
that the tall Lombardy poplar was almost always there in long rows
towering high above all other trees and a landmark in the district. It
is about the people dwelling at Los Alamos I have now to write.

When I first started on my riding rambles about the plain I began to
make the acquaintance of some of our nearest neighbours, but at first
it was a slow process. As a child I was excessively shy of strangers,
and I also greatly feared the big savage house-dogs that would rush
out to attack any one approaching the gate. But a house with a grove
or plantation fascinated me, for where there were trees there were
birds, and I had soon made the discovery that you could sometimes meet
with birds of a new kind in a plantation quite near to your own.
Little by little I found out that the people were invariably friendly
towards a small boy, even the child of an alien and heretic race; also
that the dogs in spite of all their noise and fury never really tried
to pull me off my horse and tear me to pieces. In this way, thinking
of and looking only for the birds, I became acquainted with some of
the people individually, and as I grew to know them better from year
to year I sometimes became interested in them too, and in this and
three or four succeeding chapters I will describe those I knew best or
that interested me the most. Not only as I first knew or began to know
them in my seventh year, but in several instances I shall be able to
trace their lives and fortunes for some years further on.

When out riding I went oftenest in the direction of Los Alamos, which
was west of us, or as the gauchos would say, "on the side where the
sun sets." For just behind the plantation, enclosed in its rows of
tall old poplars, was that bird-haunted stream which was an
irresistible attraction. The sight of running water, too, was a never-
failing joy, also the odours which greeted me in that moist green
place--odours earthy, herby, fishy, flowery, and even birdy,
particularly that peculiar musky odour given out on hot days by large
flocks of the glossy ibis.

The person--owner or tenant, I forget which--who lived in the house
was an old woman named Dona Pascuala, whom I never saw without a cigar
in her mouth. Her hair was white, and her thousand-wrinkled face was
as brown as the cigar, and she had fun-loving eyes, a loud
authoritative voice and a masterful manner, and she was esteemed by
her neighbours as a wise and good woman. I was shy of her and avoided
the house while anxious to get peeps into the plantation to watch the
birds and look for nests, as whenever she caught sight of me she would
not let me off without a sharp cross-examination as to my motives and
doings. She would also have a hundred questions besides about the
family, how they were, what they were all doing, and whether it was
really true that we drank coffee every morning for breakfast; also if
it was true that all of us children, even the girls, when big enough
were going to be taught to read the almanac.

I remember once when we had been having a long spell of wet weather,
and the low-lying plain about Los Alamos was getting flooded, she came
to visit my mother and told her reassuringly that the rain would not
last much longer. St. Anthony was the saint she was devoted to, and
she had taken his image from its place in her bedroom and tied a
string round its legs and let it down the well and left it there with
its head in the water. He was her own saint, she said, and after all
her devotion to him, and all the candles and flowers, this was how he
treated her! It was all very well, she told her saint, to amuse
himself by causing the rain to fall for days and weeks just to find
out whether men would be drowned or turn themselves into frogs to save
themselves: now she, Dona Pascuala, was going to find out how _he_
liked it. There, with his head in the water, he would have to hang in
the well until the weather changed.

Four years later, in my tenth year, Dona Pascuala moved away and was
succeeded at Los Alamos by a family named Barboza: strange people!
Half a dozen brothers and sisters, one or two married, and one, the
head and leader of the tribe, or family, a big man aged about forty
with fierce eagle-like eyes under bushy black eyebrows that looked
like tufts of feathers. But his chief glory was an immense crow-black
beard, of which he appeared to be excessively proud and was usually
seen stroking it in a slow deliberate manner, now with one hand, then
with both, pulling it out, dividing it, then spreading it over his
chest to display its full magnificence. He wore at his waist, in
front, a knife or _facon,_ with a sword-shaped hilt and a long curved
blade about two-thirds the length of a sword.

He was a great fighter: at all events he came to our neighbourhood
with that reputation, and I at that time, at the age of nine, like my
elder brothers had come to take a keen interest in the fighting
gaucho. A duel between two men with knives, their ponchas wrapped
round their left arms and used as shields, was a thrilling spectacle
to us; I had already witnessed several encounters of this kind; but
these were fights of ordinary or small men and were very small affairs
compared with the encounters of the famous fighters, about which we
had news from time to time. Now that we had one of the genuine big
ones among us it would perhaps be our great good fortune to witness a
real big fight; for sooner or later some champion duellist from a
distance would appear to challenge our man, or else some one of our
own neighbours would rise up one day to dispute his claim to be cock
of the walk. But nothing of the kind happened, although on two
occasions I thought the wished moment had come.

The first occasion was at a big gathering of gauchos when Barboza was
asked and graciously consented to sing a _decima_--a song or ballad
consisting of four ten-line stanzas. Now Barboza was a singer but not
a player on the guitar, so that an accompanist had to be called for. A
stranger at the meeting quickly responded to the call. Yes, he could
play to any man's singing--any tune he liked to call. He was a big,
loud-voiced, talkative man, not known to any person present; he was a
passer-by, and seeing a crowd at a rancho had ridden up and joined
them, ready to take a hand in whatever work or games might be going
on. Taking the guitar he settled down by Barboza's side and began
tuning the instrument and discussing the question of the air to be
played. And this was soon settled.

Here I must pause to remark that Barboza, although almost as famous
for his _decimas_ as for his sanguinary duels, was not what one would
call a musical person. His singing voice was inexpressibly harsh, like
that, for example, of the carrion crow when that bird is most vocal in
its love season and makes the woods resound with its prolonged grating
metallic calls. The interesting point was that his songs were his own
composition and were recitals of his strange adventures, mixed with
his thoughts and feelings about things in general--his philosophy of
life. Probably if I had these compositions before me now in manuscript
they would strike me as dreadfully crude stuff; nevertheless I am
sorry I did not write some of them down and that I can only recall a
few lines.

The _decima_ he now started to sing related to his early experiences,
and swaying his body from side to side and bending forward until his
beard was all over his knees he began in his raucous voice:

      En el ano mil ochocientos y quarenta,
      Quando citaron todos los enrolados,

which, roughly translated, means:

      Eighteen hundred and forty was the year
      When all the enrolled were cited to appear.

Thus far he had got when the guitarist, smiting angrily on the strings
with his palm, leaped to his feet, shouting, "No, no--no more of that!
What! do you sing to me of 1840--that cursed year! I refuse to play to
you! Nor will I listen to you, nor will I allow any person to sing of
that year and that event in my presence."

Naturally every one was astonished, and the first thought was, What
will happen now? Blood would assuredly flow, and I was there to see--
and how my elder brothers would envy me!

Barboza rose scowling from his seat, and dropping his hand on the hilt
of his _facon_ said: "Who is this who forbids me, Basilio Barboza, to
sing of 1840?"

"I forbid you!" shouted the stranger in a rage and smiting his breast.
"Do you know what it is to me to hear that date--that fatal year? It
is like the stab of a knife. I, a boy, was of that year; and when the
fifteen years of my slavery and misery were over there was no longer a
roof to shelter me, nor father nor mother nor land nor cattle!"

Every one instantly understood the case of this poor man, half crazed
at the sudden recollection of his wasted and ruined life, and it did
not seem right that he should bleed and perhaps die for such a cause,
and all at once there was a rush and the crowd thrust itself between
him and his antagonist and hustled him a dozen yards away. Then one in
the crowd, an old man, shouted: "Do you think, friend, that you are
the only one in this gathering who lost his liberty and all he
possessed on earth in that fatal year? I, too, suffered as you have

"And I!" "And I!" shouted others, and while this noisy demonstration
was going on some of those who were pressing close to the stranger
began to ask him if he knew who the man was he had forbidden to sing
of 1840? Had he never heard of Barboza, the celebrated fighter who had
killed so many men in fights?

Perhaps he had heard and did not wish to die just yet: at all events a
change came over his spirit; he became more rational and even
apologetic, and Barboza graciously accepted the assurance that he had
no desire to provoke a quarrel.

And so there was no fight after all!

The second occasion was about two years later--a long period, during
which there had been a good many duels with knives in our
neighbourhood; but Barboza was not in any of them, no person had come
forward to challenge his supremacy. It is commonly said among the
gauchos that when a man has proved his prowess by killing a few of his
opponents, he is thereafter permitted to live in peace.

One day I attended a cattle-marking at a small native estancia a few
miles from home, owned by an old woman whom I used to think the oldest
person in the world as she hobbled about supporting herself with two
sticks, bent nearly double, with her half-blind, colourless eyes
always fixed on the ground. But she had granddaughters living with her
who were not bad-looking: the eldest, Antonia, a big loud-voiced young
woman, known as the "white mare" on account of the whiteness of her
skin and large size, and three others. It was not strange that cattle-
branding at this estancia brought all the men and youths for leagues
around to do a service to the venerable Dona Lucia del Ombu. That was
what she was called, because there was a solitary grand old ombu tree
growing about a hundred yards from the house--a well-known landmark in
the district. There were also half a dozen weeping willows close to
the house, but no plantation, no garden, and no ditch or enclosure of
any kind. The old mud-built rancho, thatched with rushes, stood on the
level naked plain; it was one of the old decayed establishments, and
the cattle were not many, so that by midday the work was done and the
men, numbering about forty or fifty, trooped to the house to be
entertained at dinner.

As the day was hot and the indoor accommodation insufficient, the
tables were in the shade of the willows, and there we had our feast of
roast and boiled meat, with bread and wine and big dishes of _aros
con leche_--rice boiled in milk with sugar and cinnamon. Next to
cummin-seed cinnamon is the spice best loved of the gaucho: he will
ride long leagues to get it.

The dinner over and tables cleared, the men and youths disposed
themselves on the benches and chairs and on their spread ponchos on
the ground, and started smoking and conversing. A guitar was produced,
and Barboza being present, surrounded as usual by a crowd of his
particular friends or parasites, all eagerly listening to his talk and
applauding his sallies with bursts of laughter, he was naturally first
asked to sing. The accompanist in this case was Goyo Montes, a little
thick-set gaucho with round staring blue eyes set in a round pinky-
brown face, and the tune agreed on was one known as _La Lechera_--the

Then, while the instrument was being tuned and Barboza began to sway
his body about, and talking ceased, a gaucho named Marcos but usually
called _El Rengo_ on account of his lameness, pushed himself into the
crowd surrounding the great man and seated himself on a table and put
his foot of his lame leg on the bench below.

El Rengo was a strange being, a man with remarkably fine aquiline
features, piercing black eyes, and long black hair. As a youth he had
distinguished himself among his fellow-gauchos by his daring feats of
horsemanship, mad adventures, and fights; then he met with the
accident which lamed him for life and at the same time saved him from
the army; when, at a cattle-parting, he was thrown from his horse and
gored by a furious bull, the animal's horn having been driven deep
into his thigh. From that time Marcos was a man of peace and was liked
and respected by every one as a good neighbour and a good fellow. He
was also admired for the peculiarly amusing way of talking he had,
when in the proper mood, which was usually when he was a little
exhilarated by drink. His eyes would sparkle and his face light up,
and he would set his listeners laughing at the queer way in which he
would play with his subject; but there was always some mockery and
bitterness in it which served to show that something of the dangerous
spirit of his youth still survived in him.

On this occasion he was in one of his most wilful, mocking, reckless
moods, and was no sooner seated than he began smilingly, in his quiet
conversational tone, to discuss the question of the singer and the
tune. Yes, he said, the Milkmaid was a good tune, but another name to
it would have suited the subject better. Oh, the subject! Any one
might guess what that would be. The words mattered more than the air.
For here we had before us not a small sweet singer, a goldfinch in a
cage, but a cock--a fighting cock with well-trimmed comb and tail and
a pair of sharp spurs to its feet. Listen, friends, he is now about to
flap his wings and crow.

I was leaning against the table on which he sat and began to think it
was a dangerous place for me, since I was certain that every word was
distinctly heard by Barboza; yet he made no sign, but went on swaying
from side to side as if no mocking word had reached him, then launched
out in one of his most atrocious _decimas_, autobiographical and
philosophical. In the first stanza he mentions that he had slain
eleven men, but using a poet's license he states the fact in a
roundabout way, saying that he slew six men, and then five more,
making eleven in all:

     Seis muertes e hecho y cinco son once.

which may be paraphrased thus:

      Six men had I sent to hades or heaven,
      Then added five more to make them eleven.

The stanza ended, Marcos resumed his comments. What I desire to know,
said he, is, why eleven? It is not the proper number in this case. One
more is wanted to make the full dozen. He who rests at eleven has not
completed his task and should not boast of what he has done. Here am I
at his service: here is a life worth nothing to any one waiting to be
taken if he is willing and has the power to take it.

This was a challenge direct enough, yet strange to say no sudden
furious action followed, no flashing of steel and blood splashed on
table and benches; nor was there the faintest sign of emotion in the
singer's face, or any tremor or change in his voice when he resumed
his singing. And so it went on to the end--boastful stanza and
insulting remarks from Marcos; and by the time the _decima_ ended a
dozen or twenty men had forced themselves in between the two so that
there could be no fight on this occasion.

Among those present was an old gaucho who took a peculiar interest in
me on account of my bird lore and who used to talk and expound gaucho
philosophy to me in a fatherly way. Meeting him a day or two later I
remarked I did not think Barboza deserving of his fame as a fighter. I
thought him a coward. No, he said, he was not a coward. He could have
killed Marcos, but he considered that it would be a mistake, since it
would add nothing to his reputation and would probably make him
disliked in the district. That was all very well, I replied, but how
could any one who was not a poltroon endure to be publicly insulted
and challenged without flying into a rage and going for his enemy?

He smiled and answered that I was an ignorant boy and would understand
these things better some day, after knowing a good many fighters.
There were some, he said, who were men of fiery temper, who would fly
at and kill any one for the slightest cause--an idle or imprudent word
perhaps. There were others of a cool temper whose ambition it was to
be great fighters, who fought and killed people not because they hated
or were in a rage with them, but for the sake of the fame it would
give them. Barboza was one of this cool kind, who when he fought
killed, and he was not to be drawn into a fight by any ordinary person
or any fool who thought proper to challenge him.

Thus spoke my mentor and did not wholly remove my doubts. But I must
now go back to the earlier date, when this strange family were newly
come to our neighbourhood.

All of the family appeared proud of their strangeness and of the
reputation of their fighting brother, their protector and chief. No
doubt he was an unspeakable ruffian, and although I was accustomed to
ruffians even as a child and did not find that they differed much from
other men, this one with his fierce piercing eyes and cloud of black
beard and hair, somehow made me uncomfortable, and I accordingly
avoided Los Alamos. I disliked the whole tribe, except a little girl
of about eight, a child, it was said, of one of the unmarried sisters.
I never discovered which of her aunts, as she called all these tall,
white-faced heavy-browed women, was her mother. I used to see her
almost every day, for though a child she was out on horseback early
and late, riding barebacked and boy fashion, flying about the plain,
now to drive in the horses, now to turn back the flock when it was
getting too far afield, then the cattle, and finally to ride on
errands to neighbours' houses or to buy groceries at the store. I can
see her now at full gallop on the plain, bare-footed and bare-legged,
in her thin old cotton frock, her raven-black hair flying loose
behind. The strangest thing in her was her whiteness: her beautifully
chiselled face was like alabaster, without a freckle or trace of
colour in spite of the burning hot sun and wind she was constantly
exposed to. She was also extremely lean, and strangely serious for a
little girl: she never laughed and rarely smiled. Her name was Angela,
and she was called Anjelita, the affectionate diminutive, but I doubt
that much affection was ever bestowed on her.

To my small-boy's eyes she was a beautiful being with a cloud on her,
and I wished it had been in my power to say something to make her
laugh and forget, though but for a minute, the many cares and
anxieties which made her so unnaturally grave for a little girl.
Nothing proper to say ever came to me, and if it had come it would no
doubt have remained unspoken. Boys are always inarticulate where their
deepest feelings are concerned; however much they may desire it they
cannot express kind and sympathetic feelings. In a halting way they
may sometimes say a word of that nature to another boy, or pal, but
before a girl, however much she may move their compassion, they remain
dumb. I remember, when my age was about nine, the case of a quarrel
about some trivial matter I once had with my closest friend, a boy of
my own age who, with his people, used to come yearly on a month's
visit to us from Buenos Ayres. For three whole days we spoke not a
word and took no notice of each other, whereas before we had been
inseparable. Then he all at once came up to me and holding out his
hand said, "Let's be friends." I seized the proffered hand, and was
more grateful to him than I have ever felt towards any one since, just
because by approaching me first I was spared the agony of having to
say those three words to him. Now that boy--that is to say, the
material part of him--is but a handful of grey ashes, long, long ago
at rest; but I can believe that if the other still living part should
by chance be in this room now, peeping over my shoulder to see what I
am writing, he would burst into as hearty a laugh as a ghost is
capable of at this ancient memory, and say to himself that it took him
all his courage to speak those three simple words.

And so it came about that I said no gentle word to white-faced
Anjelita, and in due time she vanished out of my life with all that
queer tribe of hers, the bloody uncle included, to leave an enduring
image in my mind which has never quite lost a certain disturbing



Casa Antigua, our nearest English neighbour's house--Old Lombardy
poplars--Cardoon thistle or wild artichoke--Mr. Royd, an English
sheep-farmer--Making sheep's-milk cheeses under difficulties--Mr.
Royd's native wife--The negro servants--The two daughters: a striking
contrast--The white blue-eyed child and her dusky playmate--A happy
family--Our visits to Casa Antigua--Gorgeous dinners--Estanislao and
his love of wild life--The Royds' return visits--A homemade carriage--
The gaucho's primitive conveyance--The happy home broken up.

One of the most important estancias in our neighbourhood, at all
events to us, was called Casa Antigua, and that it was an ancient
dwelling-place in that district appeared likely enough, since the
trees were the largest and had an appearance of extreme age. It must,
however, be remembered that in speaking of ancient things on the
pampas we mean things a century or two old, not many hundreds or
thousands of years as in Europe. Three centuries in that part of South
America takes us back to prehistoric times. These Lombardy poplars,
planted in long rows, were the largest I had seen: they were very
tall; many of them appeared to be dying of old age, and all had
enormous rough-barked buttressed trunks. The other shade-trees were
also old and gnarled, some of them dying. The house itself did not
look ancient, and was built of unburnt bricks and thatched, and had a
broad corridor supported by wooden posts or pillars.

The Casa Antigua was situated about six miles from our house, but
looked no more than three on account of the great height of the trees,
which made it appear large and conspicuous on that wide level plain.
The land for miles round it was covered with a dense growth of cardoon
thistles. Now the cardoon is the European artichoke run wild and its
character somewhat altered in a different soil and climate. The large
deep-cut leaves are of a palish grey-green colour, the stalks covered
with a whitish-grey down, and the leaves and stems thickly set with
long yellow spines. It grows in thick bushes, and the bushes grow
close together to the exclusion of grasses and most other plant-life,
and produces purple blossoms big as a small boy's head, on stems four
or five feet high. The stalks, which are about as thick as a man's
wrist, were used when dead and dry as firewood; and this indeed was
the only fuel obtainable at that time in the country, except "cow
chips," from the grazing lands and "peat" from the sheepfold. At the
end of summer, in February, the firewood-gatherers would set to work
gathering the cardoon-stalks, their hands and arms protected with
sheep-skin gloves, and at that season our carters would bring in huge
loads, to be stacked up in piles high as a house for the year's use.

The land where the cardoon grows so abundantly is not good for sheep,
and at Casa Antigua all the land was of this character. The tenant was
an Englishman, a Mr. George Royd, and it was thought by his neighbours
that he had made a serious mistake which would perhaps lead to
disastrous consequences, when investing his capital in the expensive
fine-wool breeds to put them on such land. All this I heard years
afterwards. At that time I only knew that he was our nearest English
neighbour, and more to us on that account than any other. We certainly
had other English neighbours--those who lived half a day's journey on
horseback from us were our neighbours there--English, Welsh, Irish,
Scotch, but they were not like Mr. Royd. These others, however
prosperous (and some were the owners of large estates), came mostly
from the working or lower middle class in their own country and were
interested solely in their own affairs. Mr. Royd was of a different
order. He was about forty-five when my years were seven, a handsome
clean-shaved man with bright blue humorous eyes and brown hair. He was
an educated man, and loved to meet with others of like mind with
himself, with whom he could converse in his own language. There was no
English in his house. He had a bright genial disposition, a love of
fun, and a hearty ringing laugh it was a pleasure to hear. He was an
enthusiast about his sheep-farming, always full of fine projects,
always dreaming of the things he intended doing and of the great
results which would follow. One of his pet notions was that cheeses
made with sheep's milk would be worth any price he liked to put on
them, and he accordingly began to make them under very great
difficulties, since the sheep had to be broken to it and they yielded
but a small quantity compared with the sheep of certain districts in
France and other countries where they have been milked for many
generations and have enlarged their udders. Worst of all, his native
servants considered it a degradation to have to stoop to milk such
creatures as sheep. "Why not milk the cats?" they scornfully demanded.
However, he succeeded in making cheeses, and very nice they were, far
nicer in fact than any native cheeses made from cows' milk we had ever
tasted. But the difficulties were too great for him to produce them in
sufficient quantity for the market, and eventually the sheep-milking
came to an end.

Unfortunately Mr. Royd had no one to help him in his schemes, or to
advise and infuse a little more practicality into him. His family
could never have been anything but a burden and drag on him in his
struggle, and his disaster probably resulted from his romantic and
over-sanguine temper, which made him the husband of his wife and
caused him to dream of a fortune built on cheeses made from sheep's

His wife was a native; in other words, a lady of Spanish blood, of a
good family, city born and bred. They had met in Buenos Ayres when in
their bloom, at the most emotional period of life, and in spite of
opposition from her people and of the tremendous difficulties in the
way of a union between one of the Faith and a heretic in those
religious days, they were eventually made man and wife. As a girl she
had been beautiful; now, aged about forty, she was only fat--a large
fat woman, with an extremely white skin, raven-black hair and
eyebrows, and velvet-black eyes. That was Dona Mercedes as I knew her.
She did no work in the house, and never went for a walk or a ride on
horseback: she spent her time in an easy-chair, always well dressed,
and in warm weather always with a fan in her hand. I can hear the
rattle of that fan now as she played with it, producing a succession
of graceful waving motions and rhythmic sounds as an accompaniment to
the endless torrent of small talk which she poured out; for she was an
exceedingly voluble person, and to assist in making the conversation
more lively there were always two or three screaming parrots on their
perches near her. She also liked to be surrounded by all the other
females in the house, her two daughters and the indoor servants, four
or five in number, all full-blooded negresses, black but comely, fat,
pleasant-looking, laughing young and middle-aged women, all as a rule
dressed in white. They were unmarried, but two or three of them were
the mothers of certain small darkies to be seen playing about and
rolling in the dust near the servants' quarters at the far end of the
long low house.

The eldest daughter, Eulodia, was about fifteen as I first remember
her, a tall slim handsome girl with blue-black hair, black eyes,
coral-red lips, and a remarkably white skin without a trace of red
colour in it. She was no doubt just like what her mother had been when
the dashing impressionable young George Royd had first met her and
lost his heart--and soul. The younger sister, about eight at that
time, was a perfect contrast to Eulodia: she had taken after her
father, and in colour and appearance generally was a perfect little
English girl of the usual angel type, with long shining golden hair,
worn in curls, eyes of the purest turquoise blue, and a complexion
like the petals of a wild rose. Adelina was her pretty name, and to us
Adelina was the most beautiful human being in the world, especially
when seen with her dusky little playmate Liberata, who was of the same
age and height and was the child of one of the black servants. These
two had grown fond of each other from the cradle, and so Liberata had
been promoted to be Adelina's constant companion in the house and to
wear pretty dresses. Being a _mulatita_ she was dark or dusky skinned,
with a reddish tinge in the duskiness, purple-red lips, and liquid
black eyes with orange-brown reflections in them--the eyes called
tortoiseshell in America. Her crisp cast-iron coloured hair was worn
like a fleece round her small head, and her features were so refined
one could only suppose that her father had been a singularly handsome
as well as a white man. Adelina and Liberata were inseparable, except
at meal-times, when the dusky little girl had to go back among her own
tribe on the mother's side; and they formed an exquisite picture as
one often saw them, standing by the Senora's chair with their arms
round each other's necks--the pretty dark-skinned child and the
beautiful white child with shining hair and blue forget-me-not eyes.

Adelina was her father's favourite, but he was fond of all his people,
the black servants included, and they of him, and the life at Casa
Antigua appeared to be an exceedingly happy and harmonious one.

Looking back at this distance of time it strikes me when I come to
think of it, that it was a most extraordinary _menage_, a collection
of the most incongruous beings it would be possible to bring together
--a sort of Happy Family in the zoological sense. It did not seem so
at the time, when in any house on the wide pampas one would meet with
people whose lives and characters would be regarded in civilized
countries as exceedingly odd and almost incredible.

It was a red-letter day to us children when, about once a month, we
were packed into a trap and driven with our parents to spend a day at
Casa Antigua. The dinner at noon was the most gorgeous affair of the
kind we knew. One of Mr. Royd's enthusiasms was cookery--the making of
rare and delicate dishes--and the servants had been taught so well
that we used to be amazed at the richness and profusion of the repast.
These dinners were to us like the "collations" and feasts so minutely
and lovingly described in the _Arabian Nights_, especially that dinner
of many courses given by the Barmecide to his hungry guest which
followed the first tantalizing imaginary one. The wonder was that any
man in the position of a sheep-farmer in a semi-barbarous land, far
from any town, could provide such dinners for his visitors.

After dinner my best time would come, when I would steal off to look
for Estanislao, the young native horseman, who was only too
enthusiastic about wild life and spent more time hunting rheas than in
attending to his duties. "When I see an ostrich," he would say, "I
leave the flock and drop my work no matter what it is. I would rather
lose my place on the estancia than not chase it." But he never lost
his place, since it appeared that no one could do anything wrong on
the estancia and not be forgiven by its master.

Then Estanislao, a big fellow in gaucho dress, wearing a red
handkerchief tied round his head in place of hat, and a mass or cloud
of blackish crinkled hair on his neck and shoulders, would take me
round the plantation to show me any nests he had found and any rare
birds that happened to be about.

Towards evening we would be bundled back into the trap and driven
home. Then, when the day came round for the return visit, Mr. Royd
would bundle his family into their "carriage," which he, without being
a carriage-builder or even a carpenter, had made with his own hands.
It had four solid wooden wheels about a yard in diameter, and upright
wooden sides about four or five feet high. It was springless and
without seats, and had a long pole to which two horses were fastened,
and Estanislao, mounted on one, would thrash them into a gallop and
carry the thing bounding over the roadless plain. The fat lady and
other passengers were saved from being bumped to death by several
mattresses, pillows, and cushions heaped inside. It was the strangest,
most primitive conveyance I ever saw, except the one commonly used by
a gaucho to take his wife on a visit to a neighbour's house when she
was in a delicate condition or too timid to ride on a horse or not
well enough off to own a side-saddle. This was a well-stretched, dried
horse-hide, with a lasso attached at one end to the head or fore-part
of the hide and the other end to the gaucho's horse, as a rule to the
surcingle. A stool or cushion was placed in the centre of the big hide
for the lady to sit on, and when she had established herself on it the
man would whip up his horse and away he would gallop, dragging the
strange conveyance after him--a sight which filled the foreigner with

Our intimate happy relations with the Royd family continued till about
my twelfth year, then came rather suddenly to an end. Mr. Royd, who
had always seemed one of the brightest, happiest men we knew, all at
once fell into a state of profound melancholy. No one could guess the
cause, as he was quite well and appeared to be prosperous. He was at
length persuaded by his friends to go to Buenos Ayres to consult a
doctor, and went alone and stayed in the house of an Anglo-Argentine
family who were also friends of ours. By-and-by the dreadful news came
that he had committed suicide by cutting his throat with a razor. His
wife and daughters then left the Casa Antigua, and not long afterwards
Dona Mercedes wrote to my mother that they were left penniless; that
their flocks and other possessions at the estancia were to be sold for
the benefit of their creditors, and that she and her daughters were
living on the charity of some of her relations who were not well off.
Her only hope was that her two daughters, being good-looking girls,
would find husbands and be in a position to keep her from want. Her
one word about her dead husband, the lovable, easy-going George Royd,
the bright handsome English boy who had wooed and won her so many
years before, was that she looked upon her meeting with him in
girlhood as the great calamity of her life, that in killing himself
and leaving his wife and daughters to poverty and suffering, he had
committed an unpardonable crime.

So ends the story of our nearest English neighbour.



La Tapera, a native estancia--Don Gregorio Gandara--His grotesque
appearance and strange laugh--Gandara's wife and her habits and pets--
My dislike of hairless dogs--Gandara's daughters--A pet ostrich--In
the peach orchard--Gandara's herds of piebald brood mares--His
masterful temper--His own saddle-horses--Creating a sensation at
gaucho gatherings--The younger daughter's lovers--Her marriage at our
house--The priest and the wedding breakfast--Demetria forsaken by her

When, standing by the front gate of our home, we looked out to the
north over the level plain and let our eyes rove west from the tall
Lombardy poplars of Casa Antigua, they presently rested on another
pile or island of trees, blue in the distance, marking the site of
another estancia house. This was the estancia called La Tapera, with
whose owner we also had friendly relations during all the years we
lived in that district. The owner was Don Gregorio Gandara, a native,
and like our nearest English neighbour, Mr. Royd, an enthusiast, and
was also like him in being the husband of a fat indolent wife who kept
parrots and other pet animals, and the father of two daughters. In
this case, too, there were no sons. There, however, all resemblance
ceased, since two men more unlike in their appearance, character, and
fortune it would not be easy to find. Don Gregorio was an
extraordinary person to look at; he had a round or barrel-shaped body,
short bow legs, and a big round head, which resembled a ball fashioned
out of a block of dark-coloured wood with a coarse human face and huge
ears rudely carved on it. He had a curly head, the crisp dark hair
growing as knobs, which gave his round skull the appearance of being
embossed like the head of a curly retriever. The large brown eyes were
extremely prominent, with a tremendous staring power in them, and the
whole expression was one of toad-like gravity. But he could laugh on
occasion, and his laugh to us children was the most grotesque and
consequently the most delightful thing about him. Whenever we saw him
ride up and dismount, and after fastening his magnificently
caparisoned horse to the outer gate come in to make a call on our
parents, we children would abandon our sports or whatever we were
doing and joyfully run to the house; then distributing ourselves about
the room on chairs and stools, sit, silent and meek, listening and
watching for Don Gregorio's laugh. He talked in a startlingly emphatic
way, almost making one jump when he assented to what was being said
with his loud sudden _si-si-si-si-si,_ and when he spoke bringing
out his sentences two or three words at a time, sounding like angry
barks. And by and by something would be said to touch his risible
faculties, which would send him off in a sort of fit; and throwing
himself back in his chair, closing his eyes and opening wide his big
mouth he would draw his breath in with a prolonged wailing or sibilant
sound until his lungs were too full to hold any more, and it would
then be discharged with a rush, accompanied by a sort of wild animal
scream, something like the scream of a fox. Then instantly, almost
before the scream was over, his countenance would recover its
preternatural gravity and intense staring attention.

Our keen delight in this performance made it actually painful since
the feeling could not be expressed--since we knew that our father knew
that we were only too liable to explode in the presence of an honoured
guest, and nothing vexed him more. While in the room we dared not
change glances or even smile; but after seeing and hearing the
wonderful laugh a few times we would steal off and going to some quiet
spot sit in a circle and start imitating it, finding it a very
delightful pastime.

After I had learnt to ride I used sometimes to go with my mother and
sisters for an afternoon's visit to La Tapera. The wife was the
biggest and fattest woman in our neighbourhood and stood a head and
shoulders taller than her barrel-shaped husband. She was not, like
Dona Mercedes, a lady by birth, nor an educated person, but resembled
her in her habits and tastes. She sat always in a large cane easy-
chair, outdoors or in, invariably with four hairless dogs in her
company, one on her broad lap, another on a lambskin rug at her feet,
and one on rugs at each side. The three on the floor were ever
patiently waiting for their respective turns to occupy the broad warm
lap when the time came to remove the last-favoured one from that
position. I had an invincible dislike to these dogs with their shiny
blue-black naked skins, like the bald head of an old negro, and their
long white scattered whiskers. These white stiff hairs on their faces
and their dim blinking eyes gave them a certain resemblance to very
old ugly men with black blood in them, and made them all the more

The two daughters, both grown to womanhood, were named Marcelina and
Demetria; the first big, brown, jolly, and fat like her mother, the
other with better features, a pale olive skin, dark melancholy eyes,
and a gentle pensive voice and air which made her seem like one of a
different family and race. The daughters would serve mate to us, a
beverage which as a small boy I did not like, but there was no
chocolate or tea in that house for visitors, and in fruit-time I was
always glad to get away to the orchard. As at our own home the old
peach trees grew in the middle part of the plantation, the other parts
being planted with rows of Lombardy poplars and other large shade
trees. A tame ostrich, or rhea, was kept at the house, and as long as
we remained indoors or seated in the verandah he would hang about
close by, but would follow us as soon as we started off to the
orchard. He was like a pet dog and could not endure to be left alone
or in the uncongenial company of other domestic creatures--dogs, cats,
fowls, turkeys, and geese. He regarded men and women as the only
suitable associates for an ostrich, but was not allowed in the rooms
on account of his inconvenient habit of swallowing metal objects such
as scissors, spoons, thimbles, bodkins, copper coins, and anything of
the kind he could snatch up when no one was looking. In the orchard
when he saw us eating peaches he would do the same, and if he couldn't
reach high enough to pluck them for himself he would beg of us. It was
great fun to give him half a dozen or more at a time, then, when they
had been quickly gobbled up, watch their progress as the long row of
big round lumps slowly travelled down his neck and disappeared one by
one as the peaches passed into his crop.

Gandara's great business was horse-breeding, and as a rule he kept
about a thousand brood mares, so that the herds usually numbered about
three thousand head. Strange to say, they were nearly all piebalds.
The gaucho, from the poorest worker on horseback to the largest owner
of lands and cattle, has, or had in those days, a fancy for having all
his riding-horses of one colour. Every man as a rule had his
_tropilla_--his own half a dozen or a dozen or more saddle-horses, and
he would have them all as nearly alike as possible, so that one man
had chestnuts, another browns, bays, silver- or iron-greys, duns,
fawns, cream-noses, or blacks, or whites, or piebalds. On some
estancias the cattle, too, were all of one colour, and I remember
one estate where the cattle, numbering about six thousand, were all
black. Our neighbour's fancy was for piebald horses, and so strong was
it that he wished not to have any one-coloured animals in his herd,
despite the fact that he bred horses for sale and that piebalds were
not so popular as horses of a more normal colouring. He would have
done better if, sticking to one colour, he had bred iron-greys, cream-
noses, chestnuts, or fawns or duns--all favourite colours; or better
still if he had not confined himself to any one colour. The stallions
were all piebalds, but many of the brood mares were white, as he had
discovered that he could get as good if not better results from
keeping white as well as pie-bald mares. Nobody quarrelled with
Gandara on account of his taste in horses; on the contrary, he and his
vast parti-coloured herds were greatly admired, but his ambition to
have a monopoly in piebalds was sometimes a cause of offence. He sold
two-year-old geldings only, but never a mare unless for slaughter, for
in those days the half-wild horses of the pampas were annually
slaughtered in vast numbers just for the hides and grease. If he found
a white or piebald mare in a neighbour's herd he would not rest until
he got possession of it, and by giving double its value in money or
horses he seldom found any difficulty in getting what he wanted. But
occasionally some poor gaucho with only a few animals would refuse to
part with a piebald mare, either out of pride, or "cussedness" as an
American would say, or because he was attached to it, and this would
stir Gandara's soul to its deepest depth and bring up all the
blackness in him to the surface. "What do you want, then?" he would
shout, sitting on his horse and making violent gestures with his right
hand and arm, barking out his words. "Have I not offered you enough?
Listen! What is a white mare to you--to you, a poor man--more than a
mare of any other colour? If your riding-horses must be of one colour,
tell me the colour you want. Black or brown or bay or chestnut, or
what? Look! you shall have two young unbroken geldings of two years in
exchange for the mare. Could you make a better exchange? Were you ever
treated more generously? If you refuse it will be out of spite, and I
shall know how to treat you. When you lose your animals and are
broken, when your children are sick with fever, when your wife is
starving, you shall not come to me for a horse to ride on, nor for
money, nor meat, nor medicine, since you will have me for an enemy
instead of a friend."

That, they say, was how he raged and bullied when he met with a
repulse from a poor neighbour. So fond was Don Gregorio of his
piebalds that he spent the greater part of every day on horseback with
his different herds of mares, each led by its own proud piebald
stallion. He was perpetually waiting and watching with anxious
interest for the appearance of a new foal. If it turned out not a
piebald he cared nothing more about it, no matter how beautiful in
colour it might be or what good points it had: it was to go as soon as
he could get rid of it; but if a piebald, he would rejoice, and if
there was anything remarkable in its colouring he would keep a sharp
eye on it, to find out later perhaps that he liked it too well to part
with it. Eventually, when broken, it would go into his private
_tropilla_, and in this way he would always possess three or four
times as many saddle-horses as he needed. If you met Gandara every day
for a week or two you would see him each time on a different horse,
and every one of them would be more or less a surprise to you on
account of its colouring.

There was something fantastic in this passion. It reminds one of the
famous eighteenth-century miller of Newhaven, described by Mark Antony
Lower in his book about the strange customs and quaint characters in
the Sussex of the old days. The miller used to pay weekly visits on
horseback to his customers in the neighbouring towns and villages, his
horse, originally a white one, having first been painted some
brilliant colour--blue, green, yellow, orange, purple, or scarlet. The
whole village would turn out to look at the miller's wonderful horse
and speculate as to the colour he would exhibit on his next
appearance. Gandara's horses were strangely coloured by nature aided
by artificial selection, and I remember that as a boy I thought them
very beautiful. Sometimes it was a black- or brown- or bay-and-white,
or a chestnut- or silver-grey- or strawberry-red-and-white, but the
main point was the pleasing arrangement and shading of the dark
colour. Some of his best selected specimens were iron- or blue-grey-
and-white; others, finer still, fawn-and-white and dun-and-white, and
the best of all, perhaps, white and a metallic tawny yellow, the
colour the natives call bronze or brassy, which I never see in
England. Horses of this colour have the ears edged and tipped with
black, the muzzle, fetlocks, mane, and tail also black. I do not know
if he ever succeeded in breeding a tortoiseshell.

Gandara's pride in the horses he rode himself--the rare blooms
selected from his equine garden--showed itself in the way in which he
decorated them with silver headstalls and bit and the whole gear
sparkling with silver, while he was careless of his own dress, going
about in an old rusty hat, unpolished boots, and a frayed old Indian
poncho or cloak over his gaucho garments. Probably the most glorious
moment of his life was when he rode to a race-meeting or cattle-
marking or other gathering of the gaucho population of the district,
when all eyes would be turned to him on his arrival. Dismounting, he
would hobble his horse, tie the glittering reins to the back of the
saddle, and leave him proudly champing his big native bit and tossing
his decorated head, while the people gathered round to admire the
strangely-coloured animal as if it had been a Pegasus just alighted
from the skies to stand for a while exhibiting itself among the horses
of the earth.

My latest recollections of La Tapera are concerned more with Demetria
than the piebalds. She was not an elegant figure, as was natural in a
daughter of the grotesque Don Gregorio, but her countenance, as I have
said, was attractive on account of its colour and gentle wistful
expression, and being the daughter of a man rich in horses she did not
want for lovers. In those far-off days the idle, gay, well-dressed
young gambler was always a girl's first and often most successful
wooer, but at La Tapera the young lovers had to reckon with one who,
incredible as it seemed in a gaucho, hated gambling and kept a hostile
and rather terrifying eye on their approaches. Eventually Demetria
became engaged to a young stranger from a distance who had succeeded
in persuading the father that he was an eligible person and able to
provide for a wife.

Now it happened that the nearest priest in our part of the country
lived a long distance away, and to get to him and his little thatched
chapel one had to cross a swamp two miles wide in which one's horse
would sink belly-deep in miry holes at least a dozen times before one
could get through. In these circumstances the Gandara family could not
go to the priest, but managed to persuade him to come to them, and as
La Tapera was not considered a good enough place in which to hold so
important a ceremony, my parents invited them to have the marriage in
our house. The priest arrived on horseback about noon on a sultry day,
hot and tired and well splashed with dried mud, and in a rather bad
temper. It must also have gone against him to unite these young people
in the house of heretics who were doomed to a dreadful future after
their rebellious lives had ended. However, he got through with the
business, and presently recovered his good temper and grew quite
genial and talkative when he was led into the dining-room and found a
grand wedding-breakfast with wine in plenty on the table. During the
breakfast I looked often and long at the faces of the newly-married
pair, and pitied our nice gentle Demetria, and wished she had not
given herself to that man. He was not a bad-looking young man and was
well-dressed in the gaucho costume, but he was strangely silent and
ill at ease the whole time and did not win our regard. I never saw him
again. It soon came out that he was a gambler and had nothing but his
skill with a pack of cards to live by, and Don Gregorio in a rage told
him to go back to his native place. And go he did very soon, leaving
poor Demetria on her parents' hands.

Shortly after this unhappy experience Don Gregorio bought a house in
Buenos Ayres for his wife and daughters, so that they could go and
spend a month or two when they wanted a change, and I saw them on one
or two occasions when in town. He himself would have been out of his
element in such a place, shut up in a close room or painfully waddling
over the rough boulder-stones of the narrow streets on his bow legs.
Life for him was to be on the back of a piebald horse on the wide
green plain, looking after his beloved animals.



The Estancia Canada Seca--Low lands and floods--Don Anastacio, a
gaucho exquisite--A greatly respected man--Poor relations--Don
Anastacio a pig-fancier--Narrow escape from a pig--Charm of the low
green lands--The flower called _macachina_--A sweet-tasting bulb--
Beauty of the green flower-sprinkled turf--A haunt of the golden
plover--The _Bolas_--My plover-hunting experience--Rebuked by a
gaucho--A green spot, our playground in summer and lake in winter--The
venomous toad-like Ceratophrys--Vocal performance of the toad-like
creature--We make war on them--The great lake battle and its results.

In this chapter I wish to introduce the reader to the last but one of
the half a dozen of our nearest neighbours, selected as typical of the
smaller estancieros--a class of landowners and cattle-breeders then in
their decay and probably now fast vanishing. This was Don Anastacio
Buenavida, who was an original person too in his little way. He was
one of our very nearest neighbours, his estancia house being no more
than two short miles from us on the south side. Like most of these old
establishments, it was a long low building with a thatched roof,
enclosures for cattle and sheep close by, and an old grove or
plantation of shade-trees bordered with rows of tall Lombardy poplars.
The whole place had a decayed and neglected appearance, the grounds
being weedy and littered with bleached bones and other rubbish: fences
and ditches had also been destroyed and obliterated, so that the
cattle were free to rub their hides on the tree trunks and gnaw at the
bark. The estancia was called Canada Seca, from a sluggish muddy
stream near the house which almost invariably dried up in summer; in
winter after heavy rains it overflowed its low banks, and in very wet
seasons lake-like ponds of water were formed all over the low-lying
plain between Canada Seca and our house. A rainy season was welcome to
us children: the sight of wide sheets of clear shallow water with a
vivid green turf beneath excited us joyfully, and also afforded us
some adventurous days, one of which will be related by and by.

Don Anastacio Buenavida was a middle-aged man, a bachelor, deeply
respected by his neighbours, and even looked on as a person of
considerable importance. So much did I hear in his praise that as a
child I had a kind of reverential feeling for him, which lasted for
years and did not, I think, wholly evaporate until I was in my teens
and began to form my own judgments. He was quite a little man, not
more than an inch or two over five feet high, slim, with a narrow
waist and small ladylike hands and feet. His small oval face was the
colour of old parchment; he had large dark pathetic eyes, a
beautifully shaped black moustache, and long black hair, worn in
symmetrical ringlets to his shoulders. In his dress too he was
something of an exquisite. He wore the picturesque gaucho costume; a
_camiseta_, or blouse, of the finest black cloth, profusely decorated
with silver buttons, puffs and pleats, and scarlet and green
embroidery; a _chiripa_, the shawl-like garment worn in place of
trousers, of the finest yellow or vicuna-coloured wool, the white
_carsoncillos_, or wide drawers, showing below, of the finest linen,
with more fringe and lace-work than was usual in that garment. His
boots were well polished, and his poncho, or cloak, of the finest
blue cloth, lined with scarlet.

It must have taken Don Anastacio a couple of hours each morning to get
himself up in this fashion, ringlets and all, and once up he did
nothing but sit in the living-room, sipping bitter mate and taking
part from time to time in the general conversation, speaking always in
low but impressive tones. He would say something about the weather,
the lack or superabundance of water, according to the season, the
condition of his animals and the condition of the pasture--in fact,
just what everybody else was saying but of more importance as coming
from him. All listened to his words with the profoundest attention and
respect, and no wonder, since most of those who sat in his living-
room, sucking mate, were his poor relations who fed on his bounty.

Don Anastacio was the last of a long line of estancieros once rich in
land and cattle, but for generations the Canada Seca estate had been
dwindling as land was sold, and now there was little left, and the
cattle and horses were few, and only a small flock of sheep kept just
to provide the house with mutton. His poor relations living scattered
about the district knew that he was not only an improvident but an
exceedingly weak and soft-hearted man, in spite of his grand manner,
and many of the poorest among them had been allowed to build their
ranches on his land and to keep a few animals for their sustenance:
most of these had built their hovels quite close to the estancia
house, behind the plantation, so that it was almost like a hamlet at
this point. These poor neighbours had the freedom of the kitchen or
living-room; it was usually full of them, especially of the women,
gossiping, sipping endless mate, and listening with admiring attention
to the wise words which fell at intervals from the lips of the head of
the family or tribe.

Altogether, Don Anastacio in his ringlets was an ineffectual,
colourless, effeminate person, a perfect contrast to his ugly, barrel-
shaped, badly-dressed but robust-minded neighbour, Gandara. Yet he too
had a taste in animals which distinguished him among his fellow-
landowners, and even reminded one of Gandara in a ridiculous way. For
just as Gandara was devoted to piebald horses, so Don Anastacio was
devoted to pigs. It would not have been like him if these had been
pigs for profit: they were not animals fit to be fattened for the
market, and no person would have thought of buying such beasts. They
were of the wild-pig breed, descended originally from the European
animal introduced by the early Spanish colonists, but after two or
three centuries of feral life a good deal changed in appearance from
their progenitors. This feral pig was called _barraco_ in the
vernacular, and was about a third less in size than the domestic
animal, with longer legs and more pointed face, and of a uniform deep
rust-red in colour. Among hundreds I never saw one with any black or
white on it.

I believe that before Don Anastacio's time a few of these wild pigs
had been kept as a curiosity at the estancia, and that when he came
into possession he allowed them to increase and roam in herds all over
the place, doing much harm by rooting up many acres of the best
grazing land in their search after grubs, earthworms, mole-crickets,
and blind snakes, along with certain roots and bulbs which they liked.
This was their only provender when there happened to be no carcasses
of cows, horses, or sheep for them to feed on in company with the dogs
and carrion hawks. He would not allow his pigs to be killed, but
probably his poor relations and pensioners were out occasionally by
night to stick a pig when beef and mutton were wanting. I never tasted
or wanted to taste their flesh. The gaucho is inordinately fond of the
two gamiest-flavoured animals in the pampas--the ostrich or rhea and
the hairy armadillo. These I could eat and enjoy eating, although I
was often told by English friends that they were too strong for their
stomachs; but the very thought of this wild pig-flesh produced a
sensation of disgust.

One day when I was about eight years old I was riding home at a lonely
spot three or four miles out, going at a fast gallop by a narrow path
through a dense growth of giant thistles seven or eight feet high,
when all at once I saw a few yards before me a big round heap of
thistle plants, which had been plucked up entire and built into a
shelter from the hot sun about four feet high. As I came close to it a
loud savage grunt and the squealing of many little piglets issued from
the mound, and out from it rushed a furious red sow and charged me.
The pony suddenly swerved aside in terror, throwing me completely over
on one side, but luckily I had instinctively gripped the mane with
both hands, and with a violent effort succeeded in getting a leg back
over the horse, and we swiftly left the dangerous enemy behind. Then,
remembering all I had been told about the ferocity of these pigs, it
struck me that I had had an extremely narrow escape, since if I had
been thrown off the savage beast would have had me at her mercy and
would have certainly killed me in a couple of minutes; and as she was
probably mad with hunger and thirst in that lonely hot spot, with a
lot of young to feed, it would not have taken her long to devour me,
bones and boots included.

This set me thinking on the probable effect of my disappearance, of my
mother's terrible anxiety, and what they would think and do about it
They would know from the return of the pony that I had fallen
somewhere: they would have searched for me all over the surrounding
plain, especially in all the wilder, lonelier places where birds
breed; on lands where the cardoon thistle flourished most, and in the
vast beds of bulrushes in the marshes, but would not have found me.
And at length when the searching was all over, some gaucho riding by
that cattle-path through the thistles would catch sight of a piece of
cloth, a portion of a boy's garment, and the secret of my end would be

I had never liked the red pigs, on account of the way they ploughed up
and disfigured the beautiful green sward with their iron-hard snouts,
also because of the powerful and disgusting smell they emitted, but
after this adventure with the sow the feeling was much stronger, and I
wondered more and more why that beautiful soul, Don Anastacio,
cherished an affection for such detestable beasts.

In spring and early summer the low-lying areas about Canada Seca were
pleasant places to see and ride on where the pigs had not defaced
them: they kept their bright verdure when the higher grounds were
parched and brown; then too, after rain, they were made beautiful with
the bright little yellow flower called _macachina_.

As the _macachina_ was the first wild flower to blossom in the land it
had as great an attraction to us children as the wild strawberry,
ground-ivy, celandine, and other first blooms for the child in
England. Our liking for our earliest flower was all the greater
because we could eat it and liked its acid taste, also because it had
a bulb very nice to eat--a small round bulb the size of a hazel nut,
of a pearly white, which tasted like sugar and water. That little
sweetness was enough to set us all digging the bulbs up with table
knives, but even little children can value things for their beauty as
well as taste. The _macachina_ was like the wood-sorrel in shape, both
flower and leaf, but the leaves were much smaller and grew close to
the ground, as the plant flourished most where the grass was close-
cropped by the sheep, forming a smooth turf like that of our chalk
downs. The flowers were never crowded together like the buttercup,
forming sheets of shining yellow, but grew two or three inches apart,
each slender stem producing a single flower, which stood a couple of
inches above the turf. So fine were the stems that the slightest
breath of wind would set the blossoms swaying, and it was then a
pretty sight, and often held me motionless in the midst of some green
place, when all around me for hundreds of yards the green carpet of
grass was abundantly sprinkled with thousands of the little yellow
blossoms all swaying to the light wind.

These green level lands were also a favourite haunt of the golden
plover on their first arrival in September from their breeding-places
many thousands of miles away in the arctic regions. Later in the
season, as the water dried up, they would go elsewhere. They came in
flocks and were then greatly esteemed as a table-bird, especially by
my father, but we could only have them when one of my elder brothers,
who was the sportsman of the family, went out to shoot them. As a very
small boy I was not allowed to use a gun, but as I had been taught to
throw the _bolas_ by the little native boys I sometimes associated
with, I thought I might be able to procure a few of the birds with it.
The _bolas_, used for such an object, is a string a couple of yards
long, made from fine threads cut from a colt's hide, twisted or
braided, and a leaden ball at each end, one being the size of a hen's
egg, the other less than half the size. The small ball is held in the
hand, the other swung round three or four times and the _bolas_ then
launched at the animal or bird one wishes to capture.

I spent many hours on several consecutive days following the flocks
about on my pony, hurling the _bolas_ at them without bringing down
more than one bird. My proceedings were no doubt watched with
amusement by the people of the estancia house, who were often sitting
out of doors at the everlasting mate-drinking; and perhaps Don
Anastacio did not like it, as he was, I imagine, something of a St.
Francis with regard to the lower animals. He certainly loved his
abominable pigs. At all events on the last day of my vain efforts to
procure golden plover, a big, bearded gaucho, with hat stuck on the
back of his head, rode forth from the house on a large horse, and was
passing at a distance of about fifty yards when he all at once
stopped, and turning came at a gallop to within a few feet of me and
shouted in a loud voice: "Why do you come here, English boy,
frightening and chasing away God's little birds? Don't you know that
they do no harm to any one, and it is wrong to hurt them?" And with
that he galloped off.

I was angry at being rebuked by an ignorant ruffianly gaucho, who like
most of his kind would tell lies, gamble, cheat, fight, steal, and do
other naughty things without a qualm. Besides, it struck me as funny
to hear the golden plover, which I wanted for the table, called "God's
little birds," just as if they were wrens or swallows or humming-
birds, or the darling little many-coloured kinglet of the bulrush
beds. But I was ashamed, too, and gave up the chase.

The nearest of the moist green low-lying spots I have described as
lying south of us, between our house and Canada Seca, was not more
than twenty minutes' walk from the gate. It was a flat, oval-shaped
area of about fifty acres, and kept its vivid green colour and
freshness when in January the surrounding land was all of a rusty
brown colour. It was to us a delightful spot to run about and play on,
and though the golden plover did not come there it was haunted during
the summer by small flocks of the pretty buff-coloured sandpiper, a
sandpiper with the habits of a plover, one, too, which breeds in the
arctic regions and spends half the year in southern South America.
This green area would become flooded after heavy rains. It was then
like a vast lake to us, although the water was not more than about
three feet deep, and at such times it was infested with the big
venomous toad-like creature called _escuerzo_ in the vernacular, which
simply means toad, but naturalists have placed it in quite a different
family of the batrachians and call it _Ceratophrys ornata_ It is toad-
like in form but more lumpish, with a bigger head; it is big as a
man's fist, of a vivid green with black symmetrical markings on its
back, and primrose-yellow beneath. A dreadful looking creature, a toad
that preys on the real or common toads, swallowing them alive just as
the hamadryad swallows other serpents, venomous or not, and as the
Cribo of Martinique, a big non-venomous serpent, kills and swallows
the deadly fer-de-lance.

In summer we had no fear of this creature, as it buries itself in the
soil and aestivates during the hot, dry season, and comes forth in wet
weather. I never knew any spot where these creatures were more
abundant than in that winter lake of ours, and at night in the flooded
time we used to lie awake listening to their concerts. The
_Ceratophrys_ croaks when angry, and as it is the most truculent
of all batrachians it works itself into a rage if you go near it. Its
first efforts at chanting or singing sounds like the deep, harsh,
anger-croak prolonged, but as the time goes on they gradually acquire,
night by night, a less raucous and a louder, more sustained and far-
reaching sound. There was always very great variety in the tones; and
while some continued deep and harsh--the harshest sound in nature--
others were clearer and not unmusical; and in a large number there
were always a few in the scattered choir that out-soared all the
others in high, long-drawn notes, almost organ-like in quality.

Listening to their varied performance one night as we lay in bed, my
sporting brother proposed that on the following morning we should drag
one of the cattle-troughs to the lake to launch it and go on a voyage
in quest of these dangerous, hateful creatures and slay them with our
javelins. It was not an impossible scheme, since the creatures were to
be seen at this season swimming or floating on the surface, and in our
boat or canoe we should also detect them as they moved about over the
green sward at the bottom.

Accordingly, next morning after breakfast we set out, without
imparting our plans to any one, and with great labour dragged the
trough to the water. It was a box-shaped thing, about twenty feet long
and two feet wide at the bottom and three at the top. We were also
provided with three javelins, one for each of us, from my brother's
extensive armoury.

He had about that time been reading ancient history, and fired with
the story of old wars when men fought hand to hand, he had dropped
guns and pistols for the moment and set himself with furious zeal to
manufacture the ancient weapons--bows and arrows, pikes, shield,
battle-axes and javelins. These last were sticks about six feet long,
nicely made of pine-wood--he had no doubt bribed the carpenter to make
them for him--and pointed with old knife-blades six or seven inches
long, ground to a fearful sharpness. Such formidable weapons were not
required for our purpose: they would have served well enough if we had
been going out against Don Anastacio's fierce and powerful swine; but
it was his order, and to his wild and warlike imagination the toad-
like creatures were the warriors of some hostile tribe opposing us, I
forget if in Asia or Africa, which had to be conquered and extirpated.

No sooner had we got into our long, awkwardly-shaped boat than it
capsized and threw us all into the water; that was but the first of
some dozens of upsets and fresh drenchings we experienced during the
day. However, we succeeded in circumnavigating the lake and crossing
it two or three times from side to side, and in slaying seventy or
eighty of the enemy with our javelins.

At length, when the short, mid-winter day was in its decline, and we
were all feeling stiff and cold and half-famished, our commander
thought proper to bring the great lake battle, with awful slaughter of
our barbarian foes, to an end, and we wearily trudged home in our
soaking clothes and squeaking shoes. We were too tired to pay much
heed to the little sermon we had expected, and glad to get into dry
clothes and sit down to food and tea. Then to sit by the fire as close
as we could get to it, until we all began to sneeze and to feel our
throats getting sore and our faces burning hot. And, finally, when we
went burning and shivering with cold to bed we could not sleep; and
hark! the grand nightly chorus was going on just as usual. No, in
spite of the great slaughter we had not exterminated the enemy; on the
contrary, they appeared to be rejoicing over a great victory,
especially when high above the deep harsh notes the long-drawn, organ-
like sounds of the leaders were heard.

How I then wished, when tossing and burning feverishly in bed, that I
had rebelled and refused to take part in that day's adventure! I was
too young for it, and again and again, when thrusting one of the
creatures through with my javeline, I had experienced a horrible
disgust and shrinking at the spectacle. Now in my wakeful hours, with
that tremendous chanting in my ears, it all came back to me and was
like a nightmare.



The grand old man of the plains--Don Evaristo Penalva, the Patriarch--
My first sight of his estancia house--Don Evaristo described--A
husband of six wives--How he was esteemed and loved by every one--On
leaving home I lose sight of Don Evaristo--I meet him again after
seven years--His failing health--His old first wife and her daughter,
Cipriana--The tragedy of Cipriana--Don Evaristo dies and I lose sight
of the family.

Patriarchs were fairly common in the land of my nativity: grave,
dignified old men with imposing beards, owners of land and cattle and
many horses, though many of them could not spell their own names;
handsome too, some of them with regular features, descendants of good
old Spanish families who colonized the wide pampas in the seventeenth
and early eighteenth centuries. I do not think I have got one of this
sort in the preceding chapters which treat of our neighbours, unless
it be Don Anastacio Buenavida of the corkscrew curls and quaint taste
in pigs. Certainly he was of the old landowning class, and in his
refined features and delicate little hands and feet gave evidence of
good blood, but the marks of degeneration were equally plain; he was
an effeminate, futile person, and not properly to be ranked with the
patriarchs. His ugly grotesque neighbour of the piebald horses was
more like one. I described the people that lived nearest to us, our
next-door neighbours so to speak, because I knew them from childhood
and followed their fortunes when I grew up, and was thus able to give
their complete history. The patriarchs, the grand old gaucho
estancieros, I came to know, were scattered all over the land, but,
with one exception, I did not know them intimately from childhood, and
though I could fill this chapter with their portraits I prefer to give
it all to the one I knew best, Don Evaristo Penalva, a very fine
patriarch indeed.

I cannot now remember when I first made his acquaintance, but I was
not quite six, though very near it, when I had my first view of his
house. In the chapter on "Some Early Bird Adventures," I have
described my first long walk on the plains, when two of my brothers
took me to a river some distance from home, where I was enchanted with
my first sight of that glorious waterfowl, the flamingo. Now, as we
stood on the brink of the flowing water, which had a width of about
two hundred yards at that spot when the river had overflowed its
banks, one of my elder brothers pointed to a long low house, thatched
with rushes, about three-quarters of a mile distant on the other side
of the stream, and informed me that it was the estancia house of Don
Evaristo Penalva, who was one of the principal landowners in that

That was one of the images my mind received on that adventurous day
which have not faded--the long, low, mud built house, standing on the
wide, empty, treeless plain, with three ancient, half-dead, crooked
acacia trees growing close to it, and a little further away a corral
or cattle-enclosure and a sheep-fold. It was a poor, naked, dreary-
looking house without garden or shade, and I dare say a little English
boy six years old would have smiled, a little incredulous, to be told
that it was the residence of one of the principal land-owners in that

Then, as we have seen, I got my horse, and being delivered from the
fear of evil-minded cows with long, sharp horns, I spent a good deal
of my time on the plain, where I made the acquaintance of other small
boys on horseback, who took me to their homes and introduced me to
their people. In this way I came to be a visitor to that lonely-
looking house on the other side of the river, and to know all the
interesting people in it, including Don Evaristo himself, its lord and
master. He was a middle-aged man at that date, of medium height, very
white-skinned, with long black hair and full beard, straight nose,
fine broad forehead, with large dark eyes. He was slow and deliberate
in all his movements, grave, dignified, and ceremonious in his manner
and speech; but in spite of this lofty air he was known to have a
sweet and gentle disposition and was friendly towards every one, even
to small boys who are naturally naughty and a nuisance to their
elders. And so it came about that even as a very small shy boy, a
stranger in the house, I came to know that Don Evaristo was not one to
be afraid of.

I hope that the reader, forgetting all he has learnt about the
domestic life of the patriarchs of an older time, will not begin to
feel disgusted at Don Evaristo when I proceed to say that he was the
husband of six wives, all living with him at that same house. The
first, the only one he had been permitted to marry in a church, was
old as or rather older than himself; she was very dark and was getting
wrinkles, and was the mother of several grown-up sons and daughters,
some married. The others were of various ages, the youngest two about
thirty; and these were twin sisters, both named Ascension, for they
were both born on Ascension Day. So much alike were these Ascensions
in face and figure that one day, when I was a big boy, I went into the
house and finding one of the sisters there began relating something,
when she was called out. Presently she came back, as I thought, and I
went on with my story just where I had left off, and only when I saw
the look of surprise and inquiry on her face did I discover that I was
now talking to the other sister.

How was this man with six wives regarded by his neighbours? He was
esteemed and beloved above most men in his position. If any person was
in trouble or distress, or suffering from a wound or some secret
malady, he would go to Don Evaristo for advice and assistance and for
such remedies as he knew; and if he was sick unto death he would send
for Don Evaristo to come to him to write down his last will and
testament. For Don Evaristo knew his letters and had the reputation of
a learned man among the gauchos. They considered him better than any
one calling himself a doctor. I remember that his cure for shingles, a
common and dangerous ailment in that region, was regarded as
infallible. The malady took the form of an eruption, like erysipelas,
on the middle of the body and extending round the waist till it formed
a perfect zone. "If the zone is not complete I can cure the disease,"
Don Evaristo would say. He would send some one down to the river to
procure a good-sized toad, then causing the patient to strip, he would
take pen and ink and write on the skin in the space between the two
ends of the inflamed region, in stout letters, the words, _In the
name of the Father_, etc. This done, he would take the toad in his
hand and gently rub it on the inflamed part, and the toad, enraged at
such treatment, would swell himself up almost to bursting and exude a
poisonous milky secretion from his warty skin. That was all, and the
man got well!

If it pleased such a man as that to have six wives instead of one it
was right and proper for him to have them; no person would presume to
say that he was not a good and wise and religious man on that account.
It may be added that Don Evaristo, like Henry VIII, who also had six
wives, was a strictly virtuous man. The only difference was that when
he desired a fresh wife he did not barbarously execute or put away the
one, or the others, he already possessed.

I lost sight of Don Evaristo when I was sixteen, having gone to live
in another district about thirty miles from my old home. He was then
just at the end of the middle period of life, with a few grey hairs
beginning to show in his black beard, but he was still a strong man
and more children were being added to his numerous family. Some time
later I heard that he had acquired a second estate a long day's
journey on horseback from the first, and that some of his wives and
children had emigrated to the new esctancia and that he divided his
time between the two establishments. But his people were not wholly
separated from each other; from time to time some of them would take
the long journey to visit the absent ones and there would be an
exchange of homes between them. For, incredible as it may seem, they
were in spirit, or appeared to be, a united family.

Seven years had passed since I lost sight of them, when it chanced
that I was travelling home from the southern frontier, with only two
horses to carry me. One gave out, and I was compelled to leave him on
the road. I put up that evening at a little wayside pulperia, or
public-house, and was hospitably entertained by the landlord, who
turned out to be an Englishman. But he had lived so long among the
gauchos, having left his country when very young, that he had almost
forgotten his own language. Again and again during the evening he
started talking in English as if glad of the opportunity to speak his
native tongue once more; but after a sentence or two a word wanted
would not come, and it would have to be spoken in Spanish, and
gradually he would relapse into unadulterated Spanish again, then,
becoming conscious of the relapse, he would make a fresh start in

As we sat talking after supper I expressed my intention of leaving
early in the morning so as to get over a few leagues while it was
fresh, as the weather was very hot and I had to consider my one horse.
He was sorry not to be able to provide me with another, but at one of
the large estancias I would come to next morning I would no doubt be
able to get one. He then mentioned that in about an hour and a half or
two hours I should arrive at an estancia named La Paja Brava, where
many riding-horses were kept.

This was good news indeed! La Paja Brava was the name of the estate my
ancient friend and neighbour, Don Evaristo, had bought so many years
before: no doubt I should find some of the family, and they would give
me a horse and anything I wanted.

The house, when I approached it next morning, strongly reminded me of
the old home of the family many leagues away, only it was if possible
more lonely and dreary in appearance, without even an old half-dead
acacia tree to make it less desolate. The plain all round as far as
one could see was absolutely flat and treeless, the short grass burnt
by the January sun to a yellowish-brown colour; while at the large
watering-well, half a mile distant, the cattle were gathering in vast
numbers, bellowing with thirst and raising clouds of dust in their
struggles to get to the trough.

I found Don Evaristo himself in the house, and with him his first and
oldest wife, with several of the grown-up children. I was grieved to
see the change in my old friend; he had aged greatly in seven years;
his face was now white as alabaster, and his full beard and long hair
quite grey. He was suffering from some internal malady, and spent most
of the day in the large kitchen and living-room, resting in an easy-
chair. The fire burnt all day in the hearth in the middle of the clay
floor, and the women served mate and did their work in a quiet way,
talking the while; and all day long the young men and big boys came
and went, coming in, one or two at a time, to sip mate, smoke, and
tell the news--the state of the well, the time the water would last,
the condition of the cattle, of horses strayed, and so on.

The old first wife had also aged--her whole dark, anxious face had
been covered with little interlacing wrinkles; but the greatest change
was in the eldest child, her daughter Cipriana, who was living
permanently at La Paja Brava. The old mother had a dash of dark or
negrine blood in her veins, and this strain came out strongly in the
daughter, a tall woman with lustreless crinkled hair of a wrought-iron
colour, large voluptuous mouth, pale dark skin, and large dark sad

I remembered that they had not always been sad, for I had known her in
her full bloom--an imposing woman, her eyes sparkling with intense
fire and passion, who, despite her coarse features and dark skin, had
a kind of strange wild beauty which attracted men. Unhappily she
placed her affections on the wrong person, a dashing young gaucho who,
albeit landless and poor in cattle, made a brave appearance,
especially when mounted and when man and horse glittered with silver
ornaments. I recalled how one of my last sights of her had been on a
Sunday morning in summer when I had ridden to a spot on the plain
where it was overgrown with giant thistles, standing about ten feet
high, in full flower and filling the hot air with their perfume.
There, in a small open grassy space I had dismounted to watch a hawk,
in hopes of finding its nest concealed somewhere among the thistles
close by. And presently two persons came at a swift gallop by the
narrow path through the thistles, and bursting out into that small
open spot I saw that it was Cipriana, in a white dress, on a big bay
horse, and her lover, who was leading the way. Catching sight of me
they threw me a "Good morning" and galloped on, laughing gaily at the
unexpected encounter. I thought that in her white dress, with the hot
sun shining on her, her face flushed with excitement, on her big
spirited horse, she looked splendid that morning.

But she gave herself too freely to her lover, and by and by there was
a difference, and he rode away to return no more. It was hard for her
then to face her neighbours, and eventually she went away with her
mother to live at the new estancia; but even now at this distance of
time it is a pain to remember her when her image comes back to my mind
as I saw her on that chance visit to La Paja Brava.

Every evening during my stay, after mate had been served and there was
a long vacant interval before night, she would go out from the gate to
a distance of fifty or sixty yards, where an old log was lying on a
piece of waste ground overgrown with nettles, burdock, and redweed,
now dead and brown, and sitting on the log, her chin resting on her
hand, she would fix her eyes on the dusty road half a mile away, and
motionless in that dejected attitude she would remain for about an
hour. When you looked closely at her you could see her lips moving,
and if you came quite near her you could hear her talking in a very
low voice, but she would not lift her gaze from the road nor seem to
be aware of your presence. The fit or dream over, she would get up and
return to the house, where she would quietly set to work with the
other women in preparing the great meal of the day--the late supper of
roast and boiled meat, when all the men would be back from their work
with the cattle.

That was my last sight of Cipriana; what her end was I never heard,
nor what was done with the Paja Brava after the death of Don Evaristo,
who was gathered to his fathers a year or so after my visit. I only
know that the old place where as a child I first knew him, where his
cattle and horses grazed and the stream where they were watered was
alive with herons and spoonbills, black-necked swans, glossy ibises in
clouds, and great blue ibises with resounding voices, is now possessed
by aliens, who destroy all wild bird life and grow corn on the land
for the markets of Europe.



A favourite climbing tree--The desire to fly--Soaring birds--A
peregrine falcon--The dovecote and pigeon-pies--The falcon's
depredations--A splendid aerial feat--A secret enemy of the dovecote--
A short-eared owl in a loft--My father and birds--A strange flower--
The owls' nesting-place--Great owl visitations.

By the side of the moat at the far end of the enclosed ground there
grew a big red willow, the tree already mentioned in a former chapter
as the second largest in the plantation. It had a thick round trunk,
wide-spreading horizontal branches, and rough bark. In its shape, when
the thin foliage was gone, it was more like an old oak than a red
willow. This was my favourite tree when I had once mastered the
difficult and dangerous art of climbing. It was farthest from the
house of all the trees, on a waste weedy spot which no one else
visited, and this made it an ideal place for me, and whenever I was in
the wild arboreal mood I would climb the willow to find a good stout
branch high up on which to spend an hour, with a good view of the wide
green plain before me and the sight of grazing flocks and herds, and
of houses and poplar groves looking blue in the distance. Here, too,
in this tree, I first felt the desire for wings, to dream of the
delight it would be to circle upwards to a great height and float on
the air without effort, like the gull and buzzard and harrier and
other great soaring land and water birds. But from the time this
notion and desire began to affect me I envied most the great crested
screamer, an inhabitant then of all the marshes in our vicinity. For
here was a bird as big or bigger than a goose, as heavy almost as I
was myself, who, when he wished to fly, rose off the ground with
tremendous labour, and then as he got higher and higher flew more and
more easily, until he rose so high that he looked no bigger than a
lark or pipit, and at that height he would continue floating round and
round in vast circles for hours, pouring out those jubilant cries at
intervals which sounded to us so far below like clarion notes in the
sky. If I could only get off the ground like that heavy bird and rise
as high, then the blue air would make me as buoyant and let me float
all day without pain or effort like the bird! This desire has
continued with me through my life, yet I have never wished to fly in a
balloon or airship, since I should then be tied to a machine and have
no will or soul of my own. The desire has only been gratified a very
few times in that kind of dream called levitation, when one rises and
floats above the earth without effort and is like a ball of
thistledown carried by the wind.

My favourite red willow was also the chosen haunt of another being, a
peregrine falcon, a large handsome female that used to spend some
months each year with us, and would sit for hours every day in the
tree. It was an ideal tree for the falcon, too, not only because it
was a quiet spot where it could doze the hot hours away in safety, but
also on account of the numbers of pigeons we used to keep. The pigeon-
house, a round, tower-shaped building, whitewashed outside, with a
small door always kept locked, was usually tenanted by four or five
hundred birds. These cost us nothing to keep, and were never fed, as
they picked up their own living on the plain, and being strong fliers
and well used to the dangers of the open country abounding in hawks,
they ranged far from home, going out in small parties of a dozen or
more to their various distant feeding-grounds. When out riding we used
to come on these flocks several miles from home, and knew they were
our birds since no one else in that neighbourhood kept pigeons. They
were highly valued, especially by my father, who preferred a broiled
pigeon to mutton cutlets for breakfast, and was also fond of pigeon-
pies. Once or twice every week, according to the season, eighteen or
twenty young birds, just ready to leave the nest, were taken from the
dovecote to be put into a pie of gigantic size, and this was usually
the grandest dish on the table when we had a lot of people to dinner
or supper.

Every day the falcon, during the months she spent with us, took toll
of the pigeons, and though these depredations annoyed my father he did
nothing to stop them. He appeared to think that one or two birds a day
didn't matter much as the birds were so many. The falcon's custom was,
after dozing a few hours in the willow, to fly up and circle high in
the air above the buildings, whereupon the pigeons, losing their heads
in their terror, would rush up in a cloud to escape their deadly
enemy. This was exactly what their enemy wanted them to do, and no
sooner would they rise to the proper height than she would make her
swoop, and singling out her victim strike it down with a blow of her
lacerating claws; down like a stone it would fall, and the hawk, after
a moment's pause in mid-air, would drop down after it and catch it in
her talons before it touched the tree-tops, then carry it away to feed
on at leisure out on the plain. It was a magnificent spectacle, and
although witnessed so often it always greatly excited me.

One day my father went to the _galpon_, the big barn-like building
used for storing wood, hides, and horse-hair, and seeing him go up the
ladder I climbed up after him. It was an immense vacant place
containing nothing but a number of empty cases on one side of the
floor and empty flour-barrels, standing upright, on the other. My
father began walking about among the cases, and by and by called me to
look at a young pigeon, apparently just killed, which he had found in
one of the empty boxes. Now, how came it to be there? he asked. Rats,
no doubt, but how strange and almost incredible it seemed that a rat,
however big, had been able to scale the pigeon-house, kill a pigeon
and drag it back a distance of twenty-five yards, then mount with it
to the loft, and after all that labour to leave it uneaten! The wonder
grew when he began to find more young pigeons, all young birds almost
of an age to have left the nest, and only one or two out of half a
dozen with any flesh eaten.

Here was an enemy to the dovecote who went about at night and did his
killing quietly, unseen by any one, and was ten times more destructive
than the falcon, who killed her adult old pigeon daily in sight of all
the world and in a magnificent way!

I left him pondering over the mystery, gradually working himself up
into a rage against rats, and went off to explore among the empty
barrels standing upright on the other side of the loft.

"Another pigeon!" I shouted presently, filled with pride at the
discovery and fishing the bird up from the bottom. He came over to me
and began to examine the dead bird, his wrath still increasing; then I
shouted gleefully again, "Another pigeon!" and altogether I shouted
"Another pigeon!" about five times, and by that time he was in a quite
furious temper. "Rats--rats!" he exclaimed, "killing all these pigeons
and dragging them up here just to put them away in empty barrels--who
ever heard of such a thing!" No stronger language did he use. Like the
vicar's wonderfully sober-minded daughter, as described by Marjory
Fleming, "he never said a single dam," for that was the sort of man he
was, but he went back fuming to his boxes.

Meanwhile I continued my investigations, and by and by, peering into
an empty barrel received one of the greatest shocks I had ever
experienced. Down at the bottom of the barrel was a big brown-and-
yellow mottled owl, one of a kind I had never seen, standing with its
claws grasping a dead pigeon and its face turned up in alarm at mine.
What a face it was!--a round grey disc, with black lines like spokes
radiating from the centre, where the beak was, and the two wide-open
staring orange-coloured eyes, the wheel-like head surmounted by a pair
of ear-or horn-like black feathers! For a few moments we stared at one
another, then recovering myself I shouted, "Father--an owl!" For
although I had never seen its like before I knew it was an owl. Not
until that moment had I known any owl except the common burrowing-owl
of the plain, a small grey-and-white bird, half diurnal in its habits,
with a pretty dove-like voice when it hooted round the house of an

In a few moments my father came running over to my side, an iron bar
in his hand, and looking into the barrel began a furious assault on
the bird. "This then is the culprit!" he cried. "This is the rat that
has been destroying my birds by the score! Now he's going to pay for
it;" and so on, striking down with the bar while the bird struggled
frantically to rise and make its escape; but in the end it was killed
and thrown out on the floor.

That was the first and only time I saw my father kill a bird, and
nothing but his extreme anger against the robber of his precious
pigeons would have made him do a thing so contrary to his nature. He
was quite willing to have birds killed--young pigeons, wild ducks,
plover, snipe, whimbrel, tinamou or partridge, and various others
which he liked to eat--but the killing always had to be done by
others. He hated to see any bird killed that was not for the table,
and that was why he tolerated the falcon, and even allowed a pair of
_caranchos_, or carrion-eagles--birds destructive to poultry, and
killers when they got the chance of newly-born lambs and sucking-
pigs--to have their huge nest in one of the old peach-trees for
several years. I never saw him angrier than once when a visitor
staying in the house, going out with his gun one day suddenly threw it
up to his shoulder and brought down a passing swallow.

That was my first encounter with the short-eared owl, a world-
wandering species, known familiarly to the sportsman in England as the
October or woodcock owl; an inhabitant of the whole of Europe, also of
Asia, Africa, America, Australasia, and many Atlantic and Pacific
islands. No other bird has so vast a range; yet nobody in the house
could tell me anything about it, excepting that it was an owl, which I
knew, and no such bird was found in our neighbourhood. Several months
later I found out more about it, and this was when I began to ramble
about the plain on my pony.

One of the most attractive spots to me at that time, when my
expeditions were not yet very extended, was a low-lying moist stretch
of ground about a mile and a half from home, where on account of the
moisture it was always a vivid green. In spring it was like a moist
meadow in England, a perfect garden of wild flowers, and as it was
liable to become flooded in wet winters it was avoided by the
_vizcachas_, the big rodents that make their warrens or villages
of huge burrows all over the plain. Here I used to go in quest of the
most charming flowers which were not found in other places; one, a
special favourite on account of its delicious fragrance, being the
small lily called by the natives _Lagrimas de la Virgin_--Tears
of the Virgin. Here at one spot the ground to the extent of an acre or
so was occupied by one plant of a peculiar appearance, to the complete
exclusion of the tall grasses and herbage in other parts. It grew in
little tussocks like bushes, each plant composed of twenty or thirty
stalks of a woody toughness and about two and a half feet high. The
stems were thickly clothed with round leaves, soft as velvet to the
touch and so dark a green that at a little distance they looked almost
black against the bright green of the moist turf. Their beauty was in
the blossoming season, when every stem produced its dozen or more
flowers growing singly among the leaves, in size and shape like dog-
roses, the petals of the purest, loveliest yellow. As the flowers grew
close to the stalk, to gather them it was necessary to cut the stalk
at the root with all its leaves and flowers, and this I sometimes did
to take it to my mother, who had a great love of wild flowers. But no
sooner would I start with a bunch of flowering stalks in my hand than
the lovely delicate petals would begin to drop off, and before I was
half way home there would not be a petal left. This extreme frailty or
sensitiveness used to infect me with the notion that this flower was
something more than a mere flower, something like a sentient being,
and that it had a feeling in it which caused it to drop its shining
petals and perish when removed from its parent root and home.

One day in the plant's blossoming time, I was slowly walking my pony
through the dark bottle-green tufts, when a big yellowish-tawny owl
got up a yard or so from the hoofs, and I instantly recognized it as
the same sort of bird as our mysterious pigeon-killer. And there on
the ground where it had been was its nest, just a slight depression
with a few dry bents by way of lining and five round white eggs. From
that time I was a frequent visitor to the owls, and for three summers
they bred at the same spot in spite of the anxiety they suffered on my
account, and I saw and grew familiar with their quaint-looking young,
clothed in white down and with long narrow pointed heads more like the
heads of aquatic birds than of round-headed flat-faced owls.

Later, I became even better acquainted with the short-eared owl. A
year or several years would sometimes pass without one being seen,
then all at once they would come in numbers, and this was always when
there had been a great increase in field mice and other small rodents,
and the owl population all over the country had in some mysterious way
become aware of the abundance and had come to get their share of it.
At these times you could see the owls abroad in the late afternoon,
before sunset, in quest of prey, quartering the ground like harriers,
and dropping suddenly into the grass at intervals, while at dark the
air resounded with their solemn hooting, a sound as of a deep-voiced
mastiff baying at a great distance.

As I have mentioned our famous pigeon-pies, when describing the
dovecote, I may as well conclude this chapter with a fuller account of
our way of living as to food, a fascinating subject to most persons.
The psychologists tell us a sad truth when they say that taste, being
the lowest or least intellectual of our five senses, is incapable of
registering impressions on the mind; consequently we cannot recall or
recover vanished flavours as we can recover, and mentally see and
hear, long past sights and sounds. Smells, too, when we cease
smelling, vanish and return not, only we remember that blossoming
orange grove where we once walked, and beds of wild thyme and penny-
royal when we sat on the grass, also flowering bean and lucerne
fields, filled and fed us, body and soul, with delicious perfumes. In
like manner we can recollect the good things we consumed long years
ago--the things we cannot eat now because we are no longer capable of
digesting and assimilating them; it is like recalling past perilous
adventures by land and water in the brave young days when we loved
danger for its own sake. There was, for example, the salad of cold
sliced potatoes and onions, drenched in oil and vinegar, a glorious
dish with cold meat to go to bed on! Also hot maize-meal cakes eaten
with syrup at breakfast, and other injudicious cakes. As a rule it was
a hot breakfast and midday dinner; an afternoon tea, with hot bread
and scones and peach-preserve, and a late cold supper. For breakfast,
mutton cutlets, coffee, and things made with maize. Eggs were
plentiful--eggs of fowl, duck, goose, and wild fowl's eggs--wild duck
and plover in their season. In spring--August to October--we
occasionally had an ostrich or rhea's egg in the form of a huge
omelette at breakfast, and it was very good. The common native way of
cooking it by thrusting a rod heated red through the egg, then burying
it in the hot ashes to complete the cooking, did not commend itself to
us. From the end of July to the end of September we feasted on
plovers' eggs at breakfast. In appearance and taste they were
precisely like our lapwings' eggs, only larger, the Argentine lapwing
being a bigger bird than its European cousin. In those distant days
the birds were excessively abundant all over the pampas where sheep
were pastured, for at that time there were few to shoot wild birds and
nobody ever thought of killing a lapwing for the table. The country
had not then been overrun by bird-destroying immigrants from Europe,
especially by Italians. Outside of the sheep zone in the exclusively
cattle-raising country, where the rough pampas grasses and herbage had
not been eaten down, the plover were sparsely distributed.

I remember that one day, when I was thirteen, I went out one morning
after breakfast to look for plovers' eggs, just at the beginning of
the laying season when all the eggs one found were practically new-
laid. My plan was that of the native boys, to go at a fast gallop over
the plain and mark the spot far ahead where a lapwing was seen to rise
and fly straight away to some distance. For this method some training
is necessary to success, as in many cases more birds than one--
sometimes as many as three or four--would be seen to rise at various
points and distances, and one had to mark and keep in memory the exact
spots to visit them successively and find the nests. The English
method of going out and quartering the ground in search of a nest in
likely places where the birds breed was too slow for us.

The nests I found that morning contained one or two and sometimes
three eggs--very rarely the full clutch of four. Before midday I had
got back with a bag of sixty-four eggs; and that was the largest
number I ever gathered at one time.

Our dinner consisted of meat and pumpkin, boiled or baked, maize "in
the milk" in its season and sweet potatoes, besides the other common
vegetables and salads. Maize-meal puddings and pumpkin pies and tarts
were common with us, but the sweet we loved best was a peach-pie, made
like an apple-pie with a crust, and these came in about the middle of
February and lasted until April or even May, when our late variety,
which we called "winter peach," ripened.

My mother was a clever and thrifty housekeeper, and I think she made
more of the peach than any other resident in the country who possessed
an orchard. Her peach preserves, which lasted us the year round, were
celebrated in our neighbourhood. Peach preserves were in most English
houses, but our house was alone in making pickled peaches: I think
this was an invention of her own; I do not know if it has taken on,
but we always had pickled peaches on the table and preferred them to
all other kinds, and so did every person who tasted them.

I here recall an amusing incident with regard to our pickled peaches,
and will relate it just because it serves to bring in yet another of
our old native neighbours. I never thought of him when describing the
others, as he was not so near us and we saw little of him and his
people. His name was Bentura Gutierres, and he called himself an
estanciero--a landowner and head of a cattle establishment; but there
was very little land left and practically no cattle--only a few cows,
a few sheep, a few horses. His estate had been long crumbling away and
there was hardly anything left; but he was a brave spirit and had a
genial, breezy manner, and dressed well in the European mode, with
trousers and coat and waistcoat--this last garment being of satin and
a very bright blue. And he talked incessantly of his possessions: his
house, his trees, his animals, his wife and daughters. And he was
immensely popular in the neighbourhood, no doubt because he was the
father of four rather good-looking, marriageable girls; and as he kept
open house his kitchen was always full of visitors, mostly young men,
who sipped mate by the hour, and made themselves agreeable to the

One of Don Ventura's most delightful traits--that is, to us young
people--was his loud voice. I think it was a convention in those days
for estancieros or cattlemen to raise their voices according to their
importance in the community. When several gauchos are galloping over
the plain, chasing horses, hunting or marking cattle, the one who is
head of the gang shouts his directions at the top of his voice.
Probably in this way the habit of shouting at all times by landowners
and persons in authority had been acquired. And so it pleased us very
much when Don Ventura came one evening to see my father and consented
to sit down to partake of supper with us. We loved to listen to his
shouted conversation.

My parents apologized for having nothing but cold meats to put before
him--cold shoulder of mutton, a bird, and pickles, cold pie and so on.
True, he replied, cold meat is never or rarely eaten by man on the
plains. People do have cold meat in the house, but that as a rule is
where there are children, for when a child is hungry, and cries for
food, his mother gives him a bone of cold meat, just as in other
countries where bread is common you give a child a piece of bread.

However, he would try cold meat for once. It looked to him as if there
were other things to eat on the table. "And what is this?" he shouted,
pointing dramatically at a dish of large, very green-looking pickled
peaches. Peaches--peaches in winter! This is strange indeed!

It was explained to him that they were pickled peaches, and that it
was the custom of the house to have them on the table at supper. He
tried one with his cold mutton, and was presently assuring my parents
that never in his life had he partaken of anything so good--so tasty,
so appetizing, and whether or not it was because of the pickled
peaches, or some quality in our mutton which made it unlike all other
mutton, he had never enjoyed a meal as much. What he wanted to know
was how the thing was done. He was told that large, sound fruit, just
ripening, must be selected for pickling; when the finger dents a peach
it is too ripe. The selected peaches are washed and dried and put into
a cask, then boiling vinegar, with a handful of cloves is poured in
till it covers the fruit, the cask closed and left for a couple of
months, by which time the fruit would be properly pickled. Two or
three casks-full were prepared in this way each season and served us
for the entire year.

It was a revelation, he said, and lamented that he and his people had
not this secret before. He, too, had a peach orchard, and when the
fruit ripened his family, assisted by all their neighbours, feasted
from morning till night on peaches, and hardly left room in their
stomachs for roast meat when it was dinner-time. The consequence was
that in a very few weeks--he could almost say days--the fruit was all
gone, and they had to say, "No more peaches for another twelve
months!" All that would now be changed. He would command his wife and
daughters to pickle peaches--a cask-full, or two or three if one would
not be enough. He would provide vinegar--many gallons of it, and
cloves by the handful. And when they had got their pickled peaches he
would have cold mutton for supper every day all the year round, and
enjoy his life as he had never done before!

This amused us very much, as we knew that poor Don Ventura,
notwithstanding his loud commanding voice, had little or no authority
in his house; that it was ruled by his wife, assisted by a council of
four marriageable daughters, whose present objects in life were little
dances and other amusements, and lovers with courage enough to marry
them or carry them off.



My pleasure in bird life--Mammals at our new home--Snakes and how
children are taught to regard them--A colony of snakes in the house--
Their hissing confabulations--Finding serpent sloughs--A serpent's
saviour--A brief history of our English neighbours, the Blakes.

It is not an uncommon thing, I fancy, for a child or boy to be more
deeply impressed and stirred at the sight of a snake than of any other
creature. This at all events is my experience. Birds certainly gave me
more pleasure than other animals, and this too is no doubt common with
children, and I take the reason of it to be not only because birds
exceed in beauty, but also on account of the intensity of life they
exhibit--a life so vivid, so brilliant, as to make that of other
beings, such as reptiles and mammals, seem a rather poor thing by
comparison. But while birds were more than all other beings to me,
mammals too had a great attraction. I have already spoken of rats,
opossums, and armadillos; also of the vizcacha, the big burrowing
rodent that made his villages all over the plain. One of my early
experiences is of the tremendous outcry these animals would make at
night when suddenly startled by a very loud noise, as by a clap of
thunder. When we had visitors from town, especially persons new to the
country who did not know the vizcacha, they would be taken out after
supper, a little distance from the house, when the plain was all dark
and profoundly silent, and after standing still for a few minutes to
give them time to feel the silence, a gun would be discharged, and
after two or three seconds the report would be followed by an
extraordinary hullabaloo, a wild outcry of hundreds and thousands of
voices, from all over the plain for miles round, voices that seemed to
come from hundreds of different species of animals, so varied they
were, from the deepest booming sounds to the high shrieks and squeals
of shrill-voiced birds. Our visitors used to be filled with

Another animal that impressed us deeply and painfully was the skunk.
They were fearless little beasts and in the evening would come quite
boldly about the house, and if seen and attacked by a dog, they would
defend themselves with the awful-smelling liquid they discharge at an
adversary. When the wind brought a whiff of it into the house, when
all the doors and windows stood open, it would create a panic, and
people would get up from table feeling a little sea-sick, and go in
search of some room where the smell was not. Another powerful-smelling
but very beautiful creature was the common deer. I began to know it
from the age of five, when we went to our new home, and where we
children were sometimes driven with our parents to visit some
neighbours several miles away. There were always herds of deer on the
lands where the cardoon thistle flourished most, and it was a delight
to come upon them and to see their yellow figures standing among the
grey-green cardoon bushes, gazing motionless at us, then turning and
rushing away with a whistling cry, and sending out gusts of their
powerful musky smell, which the wind sometimes brought to our

But there was a something in the serpent which produced a quite
different and a stronger effect on the mind than bird or mammal or any
other creature. The sight of it was always startling, and however
often seen always produced a mixed sense of amazement and fear. The
feeling was no doubt acquired from our elders. They regarded snakes as
deadly creatures, and as a child I did not know that they were mostly
harmless, that it was just as senseless to kill them as to kill
harmless and beautiful birds. I was told that when I saw a snake I
must turn and run for my life until I was a little bigger, and then on
seeing a snake I was to get a long stick and kill it; and it was
furthermore impressed on me that snakes are exceedingly difficult to
kill, that many persons believe that a snake never really dies until
the sun sets, therefore when I killed a snake, in order to make it
powerless to do any harm between the time of killing it and sunset, it
was necessary to pound it to a pulp with the aforesaid long stick.

With such teaching it was not strange that even as a small boy I
became a persecutor of snakes.

Snakes were common enough about us; snakes of seven or eight different
kinds, green in the green grass, and yellow and dusky-mottled in dry
and barren places and in withered herbage, so that it was difficult to
detect them. Sometimes they intruded into the dwelling-rooms, and at
all seasons a nest or colony of snakes existed in the thick old
foundations of the house, and under the flooring. In winter they
hibernated there, tangled together in a cluster no doubt; and in
summer nights when they were at home, coiled at their ease or gliding
ghost-like about their subterranean apartments, I would lie awake and
listen to them by the hour. For although it may be news to some closet
ophiologists, serpents are not all so mute as we think them. At all
events this kind, the _Philodryas aestivus_--a beautiful and harmless
colubrine snake, two and a half to three feet long, marked all over
with inky black on a vivid green ground--not only emitted a sound when
lying undisturbed in his den, but several individuals would hold a
conversation together which seemed endless, for I generally fell
asleep before it finished. A hissing conversation it is true, but
not unmodulated or without considerable variety in it; a long
sibilation would be followed by distinctly-heard ticking sounds, as of
a husky-ticking clock, and after ten or twenty or thirty ticks another
hiss, like a long expiring sigh, sometimes with a tremble in it as of
a dry leaf swiftly vibrating in the wind. No sooner would one cease
than another would begin; and so it would go on, demand and response,
strophe and antistrope; and at intervals several voices would unite in
a kind of low mysterious chorus, death-watch and flutter and hiss;
while I, lying awake in my bed, listened and trembled. It was dark in
the room, and to my excited imagination the serpents were no longer
under the floor, but out, gliding hither and thither over it, with
uplifted heads in a kind of mystic dance; and I often shivered to
think what my bare feet might touch if I were to thrust a leg out and
let it hang down over the bedside.

"I'm shut in a dark room with the candle blown out," pathetically
cried old Farmer Fleming, when he heard of his beautiful daughter
Dahlia's clandestine departure to a distant land with a nameless
lover. "I've heard of a sort of fear you have in that dilemma, lest
you should lay your fingers on edges of sharp knives, and if I think a
step--if I go thinking a step, and feel my way, I do cut myself, and I
bleed, I do." Only in a comparatively snakeless country could such
fancies be born and such metaphors used--snakeless and highly
civilized, where the blades of Sheffield are cheap and abundant. In
ruder lands, where ophidians abound, as in India and South America, in
the dark one fears the cold living coil and deadly sudden fang.

Serpents were fearful things to me at that period; but whatsoever is
terrible and dangerous, or so reported, has an irresistible attraction
for the mind, whether of child or man; it was therefore always a
pleasure to have seen a snake in the day's rambles, although the sight
was a startling one. Also in the warm season it was a keen pleasure to
find the cast slough of the feared and subtle creature. Here was
something not the serpent, yet so much more than a mere picture of it;
a dead and cast-off part of it, but in its completeness, from the
segmented mask with the bright unseeing eyes, to the fine whip-like
tail end, so like the serpent itself; I could handle it, handle the
serpent as it were, yet be in no danger from venomous tooth or
stinging tongue. True, it was colourless, but silvery bright, soft as
satin to the touch, crinkling when handled with a sound that to the
startled fancy recalled the dangerous living hiss from the dry
rustling grass! I would clutch my prize with a fearful joy, as if I
had picked up a strange feather dropped in passing from the wing of
one of the fallen but still beautiful angels. And it always increased
my satisfaction when, on exhibiting my treasure at home, the first
sight of it caused a visible start or an exclamation of alarm.

When my courage and strength were sufficient I naturally began to take
an active part in the persecution of serpents; for was not I also of
the seed of Eve? Nor can I say when my feelings towards our bruised
enemy began to change; but an incident which I witnessed at this time,
when I was about eight, had, I think, a considerable influence on me.
At all events it caused me to reflect on a subject which had not
previously seemed one for reflection. I was in the orchard, following
in the rear of a party of grown-up persons, mostly visitors to the
house; when among the foremost there were sudden screams, gestures of
alarm, and a precipitate retreat: a snake had been discovered lying in
the path and almost trodden upon. One of the men, the first to find a
stick or perhaps the most courageous, rushed to the front and was
about to deal a killing blow when his arm was seized by one of the
ladies and the blow arrested. Then, stooping quickly, she took the
creature up in her hands, and going away to some distance from the
others, released it in the long green grass, green in colour as its
glittering skin and as cool to the touch. Long ago as this happened it
is just as vivid to my mind as if it had happened yesterday. I can see
her coming back to us through the orchard trees, her face shining with
joy because she had rescued the reptile from imminent death, her
return greeted with loud expressions of horror and amazement, which
she only answered with a little laugh and the question, "Why should
you kill it?" But why was she glad, so innocently glad as it seemed to
me, as if she had done some meritorious and no evil thing? My young
mind was troubled at the question, and there was no answer.
Nevertheless, I think that this incident bore fruit later, and taught
me to consider whether it might not be better to spare than to kill;
better not only for the animal spared, but for the soul.

And the woman who did this unusual thing and in doing it unknowingly
dropped a minute seed into a boy's mind, who was she? Perhaps it would
be as well to give a brief account of her, although I thought that I
had finished with the subject of our neighbours. She and her husband,
a man named Matthew Blake, were our second nearest English neighbours,
but they lived a good deal further than the Royds and were seldom
visited by us. To me there was nothing interesting in them and their
surroundings, as they had no family and no people but the native peons
about them, and, above all, no plantation where birds could be seen.
They were typical English people of the lower middle class, who read
no books and conversed, with considerable misuse of the aspirate,
about nothing but their own and their neighbours' affairs. Physically
Mr. Blake was a very big man, being six feet three in height and
powerfully built. He had a round ruddy face, clean-shaved except for a
pair of side-whiskers, and pale-blue shallow eyes. He was invariably
dressed in black cloth, his garments being home-made and too large for
him, the baggy trousers thrust into his long boots. Mr. Blake was
nothing to us but a huge, serious, somewhat silent man who took no
notice of small boys, and was clumsy and awkward and spoke very bad
Spanish. He was well spoken of by his neighbours, and was regarded as
a highly respectable and dignified person, but he had no intimates and
was one of those unfortunate persons, not rare among the English, who
appear to stand behind a high wall and, whether they desire it or not,
have no power to approach and mix with their fellow-beings.

I think he was about forty-five to fifty years old when I was eight.
His wife looked older and was a short ungraceful woman with a stoop,
wearing a sun-bonnet and sack and a faded gown made by herself. Her
thin hair was of a yellowish-grey tint, her eyes pale blue, and there
was a sunburnt redness on her cheeks, but the face had a faded and
weary look. But she was better than her giant husband and was glad to
associate with her fellows, and was also a lover of animals--horses,
dogs, cats, and any and every wild creature that came in her way.

The Blakes had been married a quarter of a century or longer and had
spent at least twenty years of their childless solitary life in a mud-
built ranch, sheep-farming on the pampas, and had slowly accumulated a
small fortune, until now they were possessed of about a square league
of land with 25,000 or 30,000 sheep, and had built themselves a big
ugly brick house to live in. They had thus secured the prize for which
they had gone so many thousands of miles and had toiled for so many
years, but they were certainly not happy. Poor Mr. Blake, cut off from
his fellow-creatures by that wall that stood before him, had found
companionship in the bottle, and was seen less and less of by his
neighbours; and when his wife came to us to spend two or three days
"for a change," although her home was only a couple of hours' ride
away, the reason probably was that her husband was in one of his bouts
and had made the place intolerable to her. I remember that she always
came to us with a sad, depressed look on her face, but after a few
hours she would recover her spirits and grow quite cheerful and
talkative. And of an evening when there was music she would sometimes
consent, after some persuasion, to give the company a song. That was a
joy to us youngsters, as she had a thin cracked voice that always at
the high notes went off into a falsetto. Her favourite air was "Home,
sweet Home," and her rendering in her wailing cracked voice was as
great a feast to us as the strange laugh of our grotesque neighbour

And that is all I can say about her. But now when I remember that
episode of the snake in the orchard, she looks to me not unbeautiful
in memory, and her voice in the choir invisible sounds sweet enough.



A new feeling about snakes--Common snakes of the country--A barren
weedy patch--Discovery of a large black snake--Watching for its
reappearance--Seen going to its den--The desire to see it again--A
vain search--Watching a bat--The black serpent reappears at my feet--
Emotions and conjectures--Melanism--My baby sister and a strange
snake--The mystery solved.

It was not until after the episode related in the last chapter and the
discovery that a serpent was not necessarily dangerous to human
beings, therefore a creature to be destroyed at sight and pounded to a
pulp lest it should survive and escape before sunset, that I began to
appreciate its unique beauty and singularity. Then, somewhat later, I
met with an adventure which produced another and a new feeling in me,
that sense of something supernatural in the serpent which appears to
have been universal among peoples in a primitive state of culture and
still survives in some barbarous or semi-barbarous countries, and in
others, like Hindustan, which have inherited an ancient civilization.

The snakes I was familiar with as a boy up to this time were all of
comparatively small size, the largest being the snake-with-a-cross,
described in an early chapter. The biggest specimen I have ever found
of this ophidian was under four feet in length; but the body is thick,
as in all the pit vipers. Then, there was the green-and-black snake
described in the last chapter, an inhabitant of the house, which
seldom exceeded three feet; and another of the same genus, the most
common snake in the country. One seldom took a walk or ride on the
plain without seeing it. It was in size and shape like our common
grass-snake, and was formerly classed by naturalists in the same
genus, Coronella. It is quite beautiful, the pale greenish-grey body,
mottled with black, being decorated with two parallel bright red lines
extending from the neck to the tip of the fine-pointed tail. Of the
others the most interesting was a still smaller snake, brightly
coloured, the belly with alternate bands of crimson and bright blue.
This snake was regarded by every one as exceedingly venomous and most
dangerous on account of its irascible temper and habit of coming at
you and hissing loudly, its head and neck raised, and striking at your
legs. But this was all swagger on the snake's part: it was not
venomous at all, and could do no more harm by biting than a young dove
in its nest by puffing itself up and striking at an intrusive hand
with its soft beak.

Then one day I came upon a snake quite unknown to me: I had never
heard of the existence of such a snake in our parts, and I imagine its
appearance would have strongly affected any one in any land, even in
those abounding in big snakes. The spot, too, in our plantation, where
I found it, served to make its singular appearance more impressive.

There existed at that time a small piece of waste ground about half an
acre in extent, where there were no trees and where nothing planted by
man would grow. It was at the far end of the plantation, adjoining the
thicket of fennel and the big red willow tree on the edge of the moat
described in another chapter. This ground had been ploughed and dug up
again and again, and planted with trees and shrubs of various kinds
which were supposed to grow on any soil, but they had always
languished and died, and no wonder, since the soil was a hard white
clay resembling china clay. But although trees refused to grow there
it was always clothed in a vegetation of its own; all the hardiest
weeds were there, and covered the entire barren area to the depth of a
man's knees. These weeds had thin wiry stalks and small sickly leaves
and flowers, and would die each summer long before their time. This
barren piece of ground had a great attraction for me as a small boy,
and I visited it daily and would roam about it among the miserable
half-dead weeds with the sun-baked clay showing between the brown
stalks, as if it delighted me as much as the alfalfa field, blue and
fragrant in its flowering-time and swarming with butterflies.

One hot day in December I had been standing perfectly still for a few
minutes among the dry weeds when a slight rustling sound came from
near my feet, and glancing down I saw the head and neck of a large
black serpent moving slowly past me. In a moment or two the flat head
was lost to sight among the close-growing weeds, but the long body
continued moving slowly by--so slowly that it hardly appeared to move,
and as the creature must have been not less than six feet long, and
probably more, it took a very long time, while I stood thrilled with
terror, not daring to make the slightest movement, gazing down upon
it. Although so long it was not a thick snake, and as it moved on over
the white ground it had the appearance of a coal-black current flowing
past me--a current not of water or other liquid but of some such
element as quicksilver moving on in a rope-like stream. At last it
vanished, and turning I fled from the ground, thinking that never
again would I venture into or near that frightfully dangerous spot in
spite of its fascination.

Nevertheless I did venture. The image of that black mysterious serpent
was always in my mind from the moment of waking in the morning until I
fell asleep at night. Yet I never said a word about the snake to any
one: it was my secret, and I knew it was a dangerous secret, but I did
not want to be told not to visit that spot again. And I simply could
not keep away from it; the desire to look again at that strange being
was too strong. I began to visit the place again, day after day, and
would hang about the borders of the barren weedy ground watching and
listening, and still no black serpent appeared. Then one day I
ventured, though in fear and trembling, to go right in among the
weeds, and still finding nothing began to advance step by step until I
was right in the middle of the weedy ground and stood there a long
time, waiting and watching. All I wanted was just to see it once more,
and I had made up my mind that immediately on its appearance, if it
did appear, I would take to my heels. It was when standing in this
central spot that once again that slight rustling sound, like that of
a few days before, reached my straining sense and sent an icy chill
down my back. And there, within six inches of my toes, appeared the
black head and neck, followed by the long, seemingly endless body. I
dared not move, since to have attempted flight might have been fatal.
The weeds were thinnest here, and the black head and slow-moving black
coil could be followed by the eye for a little distance. About a yard
from me there was a hole in the ground about the circumference of a
breakfast-cup at the top, and into this hole the serpent put his head
and slowly, slowly drew himself in, while I stood waiting until the
whole body to the tip of the tail had vanished and all danger was

I had seen my wonderful creature, my black serpent unlike any serpent
in the land, and the excitement following the first thrill of terror
was still on me, but I was conscious of an element of delight in it,
and I would not now resolve not to visit the spot again. Still, I was
in fear, and kept away three or four days. Thinking about the snake I
formed the conclusion that the hole he had taken refuge in was his
den, where he lived, that he was often out roaming about in search of
prey, and could hear footsteps at a considerable distance, and that
when I walked about at that spot my footsteps disturbed him and caused
him to go straight to his hole to hide himself from a possible danger.
It struck me that if I went to the middle of the ground and stationed
myself near the hole, I would be sure to see him. It would indeed be
difficult to see him any other way, since one could never know in
which direction he had gone out to seek for food. But no, it was too
dangerous: the serpent might come upon me unawares and would probably
resent always finding a boy hanging about his den. Still, I could not
endure to think I had seen the last of him, and day after day I
continued to haunt the spot, and going a few yards into the little
weedy wilderness would stand and peer, and at the slightest rustling
sound of an insect or falling leaf would experience a thrill of
fearful joy, and still the black majestical creature failed to appear.

One day in my eagerness and impatience I pushed my way through the
crowded weeds right to the middle of the ground and gazed with a mixed
delight and fear at the hole: would he find me there, as on a former
occasion? Would he come? I held my breath, I strained my sight and
hearing in vain, the hope and fear of his appearance gradually died
out, and I left the place bitterly disappointed and walked to a spot
about fifty yards away, where mulberry trees grew on the slope of the
mound inside the moat.

Looking up into the masses of big clustering leaves over my head I
spied a bat hanging suspended from a twig. The bats, I must explain,
in that part of the world, that illimitable plain where there were no
caverns and old buildings and other dark places to hide in by day, are
not so intolerant of the bright light as in other lands. They do not
come forth until evening, but by day they are content to hitch
themselves to the twig of a tree under a thick cluster of leaves and
rest there until it is dark.

Gazing up at this bat suspended under a big green leaf, wrapped in his
black and buff-coloured wings as in a mantle, I forgot my
disappointment, forgot the serpent, and was so entirely taken up with
the bat that I paid no attention to a sensation like a pressure or a
dull pain on the instep of my right foot. Then the feeling of pressure
increased and was very curious and was as if I had a heavy object like
a crowbar lying across my foot, and at length I looked down at my
feet, and to my amazement and horror spied the great black snake
slowly drawing his long coil across my instep! I dared not move, but
gazed down fascinated with the sight of that glistening black
cylindrical body drawn so slowly over my foot. He had come out of the
moat, which was riddled at the sides with rat-holes, and had most
probably been there hunting for rats when my wandering footsteps
disturbed him and sent him home to his den; and making straight for
it, as his way was, he came to my foot, and instead of going round
drew himself over it. After the first spasm of terror I knew I was
perfectly safe, that he would not turn upon me so long as I remained
quiescent, and would presently be gone from sight. And that was my
last sight of him; in vain I watched and waited for him to appear on
many subsequent days: but that last encounter had left in me a sense
of a mysterious being, dangerous on occasion as when attacked or
insulted, and able in some cases to inflict death with a sudden blow,
but harmless and even friendly or beneficent towards those who
regarded it with kindly and reverent feelings in place of hatred. It
is in part the feeling of the Hindoo with regard to the cobra which
inhabits his house and may one day accidently cause his death, but is
not to be persecuted.

Possibly something of that feeling about serpents has survived in me;
but in time, as my curiosity about all wild creatures grew, as I
looked more on them with the naturalist's eyes, the mystery of the
large black snake pressed for an answer. It seemed impossible to
believe that any species of snake of large size and black as jet or
anthracite coal in colour could exist in any inhabited country without
being known, yet no person I interrogated on the subject had ever seen
or heard of such an ophidian. The only conclusion appeared to be that
this snake was the sole one of its kind in the land. Eventually I
heard of the phenomenon of melanism in animals, less rare in snakes
perhaps than in animals of other classes, and I was satisfied that the
problem was partly solved. My serpent was a black individual of a
species of some other colour. But it was not one of our common
species-not one of those I knew. It was not a thick blunt-bodied
serpent like our venomous pit-viper, our largest snake, and though in
shape it conformed to our two common harmless species it was twice as
big as the biggest specimens I had ever seen of them. Then I recalled
that two years before my discovery of the black snake, our house had
been visited by a large unknown snake which measured two or three
inches over six feet and was similar in form to my black serpent. The
colour of this strange and unwelcome visitor was a pale greenish grey,
with numerous dull black mottlings and small spots. The story of its
appearance is perhaps worth giving.

It happened that I had a baby sister who could just toddle about on
two legs, having previously gone on all-fours. One midsummer day she
was taken up and put on a rug in the shade of a tree, twenty-five
yards from the sitting-room door, and left alone there to amuse
herself with her dolls and toys. After half an hour or so she appeared
at the door of the sitting-room where her mother was at work, and
standing there with wide-open astonished eyes and moving her hand and
arm as if to point to the place she came from, she uttered the
mysterious word _ku-ku_. It is a wonderful word which the southern
South American mother teaches her child from the moment it begins to
toddle, and is useful in a desert and sparsely inhabited country where
biting, stinging, and other injurious creatures are common. For babies
when they learn to crawl and to walk are eager to investigate and have
no natural sense of danger. Take as an illustration the case of the
gigantic hairy brown spider, which is excessively abundant in summer
and has the habit of wandering about as if always seeking something--
"something it cannot find, it knows not what"; and in these wanderings
it comes in at the open door and rambles about the room. At the sight
of such a creature the baby is snatched up with the cry of _ku-ku_ and
the intruder slain with a broom or other weapon and thrown out. _Ku-
ku_ means dangerous, and the terrified gestures and the expression of
the nurse or mother when using the word sink into the infant mind, and
when that sound or word is heard there is an instant response, as in
the case of a warning note or cry uttered by a parent bird which
causes the young to fly away or crouch down and hide.

The child's gestures and the word it used caused her mother to run to
the spot where it had been left in the shade, and to her horror she
saw there a huge serpent coiled up in the middle of the rug. Her cries
brought my father on the scene, and seizing a big stick he promptly
dispatched the snake.

The child, said everybody, had had a marvellous escape, and as she had
never previously seen a snake and could not intuitively know it as
dangerous, or _ku-ku_, it was conjectured that she had made some
gesture or attempted to push the snake away when it came on to the
rug, and that it had reared its head and struck viciously at her.

Recalling this incident I concluded that this unknown serpent, which
had been killed because it wanted to share my baby sister's rug, and
my black serpent were one and the same species--possibly they had been
mates--and that they had strayed a distance away from their native
place or else were the last survivors of a colony of their kind in our
plantation. It was not until twelve or fourteen years later that I
discovered that it was even as I had conjectured. At a distance of
about forty miles from my home, or rather from the home of my boyhood
where I no longer lived, I found a snake that was new to me, the
_Philodryas scotti_ of naturalists, a not uncommon Argentine snake,
and recognized it as the same species as the one found coiled up on my
little sister's rug and presumably as my mysterious black serpent.
Some of the specimens which I measured exceeded six feet in length.



The animistic faculty and its survival in us--A boy's animism and its
persistence--Impossibility of seeing our past exactly as it was--Serge
Aksakoff's history of his childhood--The child's delight in nature
purely physical--First intimations of animism in the child--How it
affected me--Feeling with regard to flowers--A flower and my mother--
History of a flower--Animism with regard to trees--Locust-trees by
moonlight--Animism and nature-worship--Animistic emotion not
uncommon--Cowper and the Yardley oak--The religionist's fear of
nature--Pantheistic Christianity--Survival of nature-worship in
England--The feeling for nature--Wordsworth's pantheism and animistic
emotion in poetry.

These serpent memories, particularly the enduring image of that black
serpent which when recalled restores most vividly the emotion
experienced at the time, serve to remind me of a subject not yet
mentioned in my narrative: this is animism, or that sense of something
in nature which to the enlightened or civilized man is not there, and
in the civilized man's child, if it be admitted that he has it at all,
is but a faint survival of a phase of the primitive mind. And by
animism I do not mean the theory of a soul in nature, but the tendency
or impulse or instinct, in which all myth originates, to animate all
things; the projection of ourselves into nature; the sense and
apprehension of an intelligence like our own but more powerful in all
visible things. It persists and lives in many of us, I imagine, more
than we like to think, or more than we know, especially in those born
and bred amidst rural surroundings, where there are hills and woods
and rocks and streams and waterfalls, these being the conditions which
are most favourable to it--the scenes which have "inherited
associations" for us, as Herbert Spencer has said. In large towns and
all populous places, where nature has been tamed until it appears like
a part of man's work, almost as artificial as the buildings he
inhabits, it withers and dies so early in life that its faint
intimations are soon forgotten and we come to believe that we have
never experienced them. That such a feeling can survive in any man, or
that there was ever a time since his infancy when he could have
regarded this visible world as anything but what it actually is--the
stage to which he has been summoned to play his brief but important
part, with painted blue and green scenery for background--becomes
incredible. Nevertheless, I know that in me, old as I am, this same
primitive faculty which manifested itself in my early boyhood, still
persists, and in those early years was so powerful that I am almost
afraid to say how deeply I was moved by it.

It is difficult, impossible I am told, for any one to recall his
boyhood exactly as it was. It could not have been what it seems to the
adult mind, since we cannot escape from what we are, however great our
detachment may be; and in going back we must take our present selves
with us: the mind has taken a different colour, and this is thrown
back upon our past. The poet has reversed the order of things when he
tells us that we come trailing clouds of glory, which melt away and
are lost as we proceed on our journey. The truth is that unless we
belong to the order of those who crystallize or lose their souls on
their passage, the clouds gather about us as we proceed, and as cloud-
compellers we travel on to the very end.

Another difficulty in the way of those who write of their childhood is
that unconscious artistry will steal or sneak in to erase unseemly
lines and blots, to retouch, and colour, and shade and falsify the
picture. The poor, miserable autobiographer naturally desires to make
his personality as interesting to the reader as it appears to himself.
I feel this strongly in reading other men's recollections of their
early years. There are, however, a few notable exceptions, the best
one I know being Serge Aksakoff's _History of His Childhood;_ and
in his case the picture was not falsified, simply because the temper,
and tastes, and passions of his early boyhood--his intense love of his
mother, of nature, of all wildness, and of sport--endured unchanged in
him to the end and kept him a boy in heart, able after long years to
revive the past mentally, and picture it in its true, fresh, original

And I can say of myself with regard to this primitive faculty and
emotion--this sense of the supernatural in natural things, as I have
called it--that I am on safe ground for the same reason; the feeling
has never been wholly outlived. And I will add, probably to the
disgust of some rigidly orthodox reader, that these are childish
things which I have no desire to put away.

The first intimations of the feeling are beyond recall; I only know
that my memory takes me back to a time when I was unconscious of any
such element in nature, when the delight I experienced in all natural
things was purely physical. I rejoiced in colours, scents, sounds, in
taste and touch: the blue of the sky, the verdure of earth, the
sparkle of sunlight on water, the taste of milk, of fruit, of honey,
the smell of dry or moist soil, of wind and rain, of herbs and
flowers; the mere feel of a blade of grass made me happy; and there
were certain sounds and perfumes, and above all certain colours in
flowers, and in the plumage and eggs of birds, such as the purple
polished shell of the tinamou's egg, which intoxicated me with
delight. When, riding on the plain, I discovered a patch of scarlet
verbenas in full bloom, the creeping plants covering an area of
several yards, with a moist, green sward sprinkled abundantly with the
shining flower-bosses, I would throw myself from my pony with a cry of
joy to lie on the turf among them and feast my sight on their
brilliant colour.

It was not, I think, till my eighth year that I began to be distinctly
conscious of something more than this mere childish delight in nature.
It may have been there all the time from infancy--I don't know; but
when I began to know it consciously it was as if some hand had
surreptitiously dropped something into the honeyed cup which gave it
at certain times a new flavour. It gave me little thrills, often
purely pleasurable, at other times startling, and there were occasions
when it became so poignant as to frighten me. The sight of a
magnificent sunset was sometimes almost more than I could endure and
made me wish to hide myself away. But when the feeling was roused by
the sight of a small and beautiful or singular object, such as a
flower, its sole effect was to intensify the object's loveliness.
There were many flowers which produced this effect in but a slight
degree, and as I grew up and the animistic sense lost its intensity,
these too lost their magic and were almost like other flowers which
had never had it. There were others which never lost what for want of
a better word I have just called their magic, and of these I will give
an account of one.

I was about nine years old, perhaps a month or two more, when during
one of my rambles on horseback I found at a distance of two or three
miles from home, a flower that was new to me. The plant, a little over
a foot in height, was growing in the shelter of some large cardoon
thistle, or wild artichoke, bushes. It had three stalks clothed with
long, narrow, sharply-pointed leaves, which were downy, soft to the
feel like the leaves of our great mullein, and pale green in colour.
All three stems were crowned with clusters of flowers, the single
flower a little larger than that of the red valerian, of a pale red
hue and a peculiar shape, as each small pointed petal had a fold or
twist at the end. Altogether it was slightly singular in appearance
and pretty, though not to be compared with scores of other flowers of
the plains for beauty. Nevertheless it had an extraordinary
fascination for me, and from the moment of its discovery it became one
of my sacred flowers. From that time onwards, when riding on the
plain, I was always on the look-out for it, and as a rule I found
three or four plants in a season, but never more than one at any spot.
They were usually miles apart.

On first discovering it I took a spray to show to my mother, and was
strangely disappointed that she admired it merely because it was a
pretty flower, seen for the first time. I had actually hoped to hear
from her some word which would have revealed to me why I thought so
much of it: now it appeared as if it was no more to her than any other
pretty flower and even less than some she was peculiarly fond of, such
as the fragrant little lily called Virgin's Tears, the scented pure
white and the rose-coloured verbenas, and several others. Strange that
she who alone seemed always to know what was in my mind and who loved
all beautiful things, especially flowers, should have failed to see
what I had found in it!

Years later, when she had left us and when I had grown almost to
manhood and we were living in another place, I found that we had as
neighbour a Belgian gentleman who was a botanist. I could not find a
specimen of my plant to show him, but gave him a minute description of
it as an annual, with very large, tough, permanent roots, also that it
exuded a thick milky juice when the stem was broken, and produced its
yellow seeds in a long, cylindrical, sharply-pointed pod full of
bright silvery down, and I gave him sketches of flower and leaf. He
succeeded in finding it in his books: the species had been known
upwards of thirty years, and the discoverer, who happened to be an
Englishman, had sent seed and roots to the Botanical Societies abroad
he corresponded with; the species had been named after him, and it was
to be found now growing in some of the Botanical Gardens of Europe.

All this information was not enough to satisfy me; there was nothing
about the man in his books. So I went to my father to ask him if he
had ever known or heard of an Englishman of that name in the country.
Yes, he said, he had known him well; he was a merchant in Buenos
Ayres, a nice gentle-mannered man, a bachelor and something of a
recluse in his private house, where he lived alone and spent all his
week-ends and holidays roaming about the plains with his vasculum in
search of rare plants. He had been long dead--oh, quite twenty or
twenty-five years.

I was sorry that he was dead, and was haunted with a desire to find
out his resting-place so as to plant the flower that bore his name on
his grave. He, surely, when he discovered it, must have had that
feeling which I had experienced when I first beheld it and could never
describe. And perhaps the presence of those deep ever-living roots
near his bones, and of the flower in the sunshine above him, would
bring him a beautiful memory in a dream, if ever a dream visited him,
in his long unawakening sleep.

No doubt in cases of this kind, when a first impression and the
emotion accompanying it endures through life, the feeling changes
somewhat with time; imagination has worked on it and has had its
effect; nevertheless the endurance of the image and emotion serves to
show how powerful the mind was moved in the first instance.

I have related this case because there were interesting circumstances
connected with it; but there were other flowers which produced a
similar feeling, which, when recalled, bring back the original
emotion; and I would gladly travel many miles any day to look again at
any one of them. The feeling, however, was evoked more powerfully by
trees than by even the most supernatural of my flowers; it varied in
power according to time and place and the appearance of the tree or
trees, and always affected me most on moonlight nights. Frequently,
after I had first begun to experience it consciously, I would go out
of my way to meet it, and I used to steal out of the house alone when
the moon was at its full to stand, silent and motionless, near some
group of large trees, gazing at the dusky green foliage silvered by
the beams; and at such times the sense of mystery would grow until a
sensation of delight would change to fear, and the fear increase until
it was no longer to be borne, and I would hastily escape to recover
the sense of reality and safety indoors, where there was light and
company. Yet on the very next night I would steal out again and go to
the spot where the effect was strongest, which was usually among the
large locust or white acacia trees, which gave the name of Las Acacias
to our place. The loose feathery foliage on moonlight nights had a
peculiar hoary aspect that made this tree seem more intensely alive
than others, more conscious of my presence and watchful of me.

I never spoke of these feelings to others, not even to my mother,
notwithstanding that she was always in perfect sympathy with me with
regard to my love of nature. The reason of my silence was, I think, my
powerlessness to convey in words what I felt; but I imagine it would
be correct to describe the sensation experienced on those moonlight
night among the trees as similar to the feeling a person would have
if visited by a supernatural being, if he was perfectly convinced that
it was there in his presence, albeit silent and unseen, intently
regarding him, and divining every thought in his mind. He would be
thrilled to the marrow, but not terrified if he knew that it would
take no visible shape nor speak to him out of the silence.

This faculty or instinct of the dawning mind is or has always seemed
to me essentially religious in character; undoubtedly it is the root
of all nature-worship, from fetishism to the highest pantheistic
development. It was more to me in those early days than all the
religious teaching I received from my mother. Whatever she told me
about our relations with the Supreme Being I believed implicitly, just
as I believed everything else she told me, and as I believed that two
and two make four and that the world is round in spite of its flat
appearance; also that it is travelling through space and revolving
round the sun instead of standing still, with the sun going round it,
as one would imagine. But apart from the fact that the powers above
would save me in the end from extinction, which was a great
consolation, these teachings did not touch my heart as it was touched
and thrilled by something nearer, more intimate, in nature, not only
in moonlit trees or in a flower or serpent, but, in certain exquisite
moments and moods and in certain aspects of nature, in "every grass"
and in all things, animate and inanimate.

It is not my wish to create the impression that I am a peculiar person
in this matter; on the contrary, it is my belief that the animistic
instinct, if a mental faculty can be so called, exists and persists in
many persons, and that I differ from others only in looking steadily
at it and taking it for what it is, also in exhibiting it to the
reader naked and without a fig-leaf expressed, to use a Baconian
phrase. When the religious Cowper confesses in the opening lines of
his address to the famous Yardley oak, that the sense of awe and
reverence it inspired in him would have made him bow himself down and
worship it but for the happy fact that his mind was illumined with the
knowledge of the truth, he is but saying what many feel without in
most cases recognizing the emotion for what it is--the sense of the
supernatural in nature. And if they have grown up, as was the case
with Cowper, with the image of an implacable anthropomorphic deity in
their minds, a being who is ever jealously watching them to note which
way their wandering thoughts are tending, they rigorously repress the
instinctive feeling as a temptation of the evil one, or as a lawless
thought born of their own inherent sinfulness. Nevertheless it is not
uncommon to meet with instances of persons who appear able to
reconcile their faith in revealed religion with their animistic
emotion. I will give an instance. One of the most treasured memories
of an old lady friend of mine, recently deceased, was of her visits,
some sixty years or more ago, to a great country-house where she met
many of the distinguished people of that time, and of her host, who
was then old, the head of an ancient and distinguished family, and of
his reverential feeling for his trees. His greatest pleasure was to
sit out of doors of an evening in sight of the grand old trees in his
park, and before going in he would walk round to visit them, one by
one, and resting his hand on the bark he would whisper a goodnight. He
was convinced, he confided to his young guest, who often accompanied
him in these evening walks, that they had intelligent souls and knew
and encouraged his devotion.

There is nothing surprising to me in this; it is told here only
because the one who cherished this feeling and belief was an orthodox
Christian, a profoundly religious person; also because my informant
herself, who was also deeply religious, loved the memory of this old
friend of her early life mainly because of his feeling for trees,
which she too cherished, believing, as she often told me, that trees
and all living and growing things have souls. What has surprised me is
that a form of tree-worship is still found existing among a few of the
inhabitants in some of the small rustic villages in out-of-the-world
districts in England. Not such survivals as the apple tree folk-songs
and ceremonies of the west, which have long become meaningless, but
something living, which has a meaning for the mind, a survival such as
our anthropologists go to the end of the earth to seek among barbarous
and savage tribes.

The animism which persists in the adult in these scientific times has
been so much acted on and changed by dry light that it is scarcely
recognizable in what is somewhat loosely or vaguely called a "feeling
for nature": it has become intertwined with the aesthetic feeling and
may be traced in a good deal of our poetic literature, particularly
from the time of the first appearance of _Lyrical Ballads_, which
put an end to the eighteenth-century poetic convention and made the
poet free to express what he really felt. But the feeling, whether
expressed or not, was always there. Before the classic period we find
in Traherne a poetry which was distinctly animistic, with Christianity
grafted on it. Wordsworth's pantheism is a subtilized animism, but
there are moments when his feeling is like that of the child or savage
when he is convinced that the flower enjoys the air it breathes.

I must apologize to the reader for having gone beyond my last, since I
am not a student of literature, nor catholic in my literary tastes,
and on such subjects can only say just what I feel. And this is, that
the survival of the sense of mystery, or of the supernatural, in
nature, is to me in our poetic literature like that ingredient of a
salad which "animates the whole"; that the absence of that emotion has
made a great portion of the eighteenth century poetic literature
almost intolerable to me, so that I wish the little big man who
dominated his age (and till a few months ago still had in Mr.
Courthope one follower among us) had emigrated west when still young,
leaving _Windsor Forest_ as his only monument and sole and sufficient
title to immortality.



Mr. Trigg recalled--His successor--Father O'Keefe--His mild rule and
love of angling--My brother is assisted in his studies by the priest--
Happy fishing afternoons--The priest leaves us--How he had been
working out his own salvation--We run wild once more--My brother's
plan for a journal to be called _The Tin Box_--Our imperious editor's
exactions--My little brother revolts--_The Tin Box_ smashed up--The
loss it was to me.

The account of our schooling days under Mr. Trigg was given so far
back in this history that the reader will have little recollection of
it. Mr. Trigg was in a small way a sort of Jekyll and Hyde, all
pleasantness in one of his states and all black looks and truculence
in the other; so that out of doors and at table we children would say
to ourselves in astonishment, "Is this our schoolmaster?" but when in
school we would ask, "Is this Mr. Trigg?" But, as I have related, he
had been forbidden to inflict corporal punishment on us, and was
finally got rid of because in one of his demoniacal moods he thrashed
us brutally with his horsewhip. When this occurred we, to our regret,
were not permitted to go back to our aboriginal condition of young
barbarians: some restraint, some teaching was still imposed upon us by
our mother, who took, or rather tried to take, this additional burden
on herself. Accordingly, we had to meet with our lesson-books and
spend three or four hours every morning with her, or in the schoolroom
without her, for she was constantly being called away, and when
present a portion of the time was spent in a little talk which was not
concerned with our lessons. For we moved and breathed and had our
being in a strange moral atmosphere, where lawless acts were common
and evil and good were scarcely distinguishable, and all this made her
more anxious about our spiritual than our mental needs.

My two elder brothers did not attend, as they had long discovered that
their only safe plan was to be their own schoolmasters, and it was
even more than she could manage very well to keep the four smaller
ones to their tasks. She sympathized too much with our impatience at
confinement when sun and wind and the cries of wild birds called
insistently to us to come out and be alive and enjoy ourselves in our
own way.

At this stage a successor to Mr. Trigg, a real schoolmaster, was
unexpectedly found for us in the person of Father O'Keefe, an Irish
priest without a cure and with nothing to do. Some friends of my
father, on one of his periodical visits to Buenos Ayres, mentioned
this person to him-this priest who in his wanderings about the world
had drifted hither and was anxious to find some place to stay at out
on the plains while waiting for something to turn up. As he was
without means he said he would be glad of the position of schoolmaster
in the house for a time, that it would exactly suit him.

Father O'Keefe, who now appeared on the scene, was very unlike Mr.
Trigg; he was a very big man in black but rusty clerical garments. He
also had an extraordinarily big head and face, all of a dull, reddish
colour, usually covered with a three or four days' growth of grizzly
hair. Although his large face was unmistakably, intensely Irish, it
was not the gorilla-like countenance so common in the Irish peasant-
priest--the priest one sees every day in the streets of Dublin. He
was, perhaps, of a better class, as his features were all good. A
heavy man as well as a big one, he was not so amusing and so fluent a
talker out of school as his predecessor, nor, as we were delighted to
discover, so exacting and tyrannical in school. On the contrary, in
and out of school he was always the same, mild and placid in temper,
with a gentle sort of humour, and he was also very absent-minded. He
would forget all about school hours, roam about the gardens and
plantations, get into long conversations with the workmen, and
eventually, when he found that he was somewhat too casual to please
his employer, he enjoined us to "look him up" and let him know when it
was school-time. Looking him up usually took a good deal of time. His
teaching was not very effective. He could not be severe nor even
passably strict, and never punished us in any way. When lessons were
not learned he would sympathize with and comfort us by saying we had
done our best and more could not be expected. He was also glad of any
excuse to let us off for half-a-day. We found out that he was
exceedingly fond of fishing--that with a rod and line in his hand he
would spend hours of perfect happiness, even without a bite to cheer
him, and on any fine day that called us to the plain we would tell him
that it was a perfect day for fishing, and ask him to let us off for
the afternoon. At dinner time he would broach the subject and say the
children had been very hard at their studies all the morning, and that
it would be a mistake to force their young minds too much, that all
work and no play makes Jack a dull boy, and so on and so forth, and
that he considered it would be best for them, instead of going back to
more lessons in the afternoon, to go for a ride. He always gained his
point, and dinner over we would rush out to catch and saddle our
horses, and one for Father O'Keefe.

The younger of our two elder brothers, the sportsman and fighter, and
our leader and master in all our outdoor pastimes and peregrinations,
had taken to the study of mathematics with tremendous enthusiasm, the
same temper which he displayed in every subject and exercise that
engaged him--fencing, boxing, shooting, hunting, and so on; and on
Father O'Keefe's engagement he was anxious to know if the new master
would be any use to him. The priest had sent a most satisfactory
reply; he would be delighted to assist the young gentleman with his
mathematics, and to help him over all his difficulties; it was
accordingly arranged that my brother was to have an early hour each
morning with the master before school hours, and an hour or two in the
evening. Very soon it began to appear that the studies were not
progressing smoothly; the priest would come forth as usual with a
smiling, placid countenance, my brother with a black scowl on his
face, and gaining his room, he would hurl his books down and protest
in violent language that the O'Keefe was a perfect fraud, that he knew
as much of the infinitesimal calculus as a gaucho on horseback or a
wild Indian. Then, beginning to see it in a humorous light, he would
shout with laughter at the priest's pretentions to know anything, and
would say he was only fit to teach babies just out of the cradle to
say their ABC. He only wished the priest had also pretended to some
acquaintance with the manly art, so that they could have a few bouts
with the gloves on, as it would have been a great pleasure to bruise
that big humbugging face black and blue.

The mathematical lessons soon ceased altogether, but whenever an
afternoon outing was arranged my brother would throw aside his books
to join us and take the lead. The ride to the river, he would say,
would give us the opportunity for a little cavalry training and lance-
throwing exercise. In the cane-brake he would cut long, straight canes
for lances, which at the fishing-ground would be cut down to a proper
length for rods. Then, mounting, we would set off, O'Keefe ahead,
absorbed as usual in his own thoughts, while we at a distance of a
hundred yards or so would form in line and go through our evolutions,
chasing the flying enemy, O'Keefe; and at intervals our commander
would give the order to charge, whereupon we would dash forward with a
shout, and when about forty yards from him we would all hurl our
lances so as to make them fall just at the feet of his horse. In this
way we would charge him a dozen or twenty times before getting to our
destination, but never once would he turn his head or have any inkling
of our carryings-on in the rear, even when his horse lashed out
viciously with his hind legs at the lances when they fell too near his

We enjoyed the advantage of the O'Keefe regime for about a year, then
one day, in his usual casual manner, without a hint as to how his
private affairs were going, he said that he had to go somewhere to see
some one about something, and we saw him no more. However, news of his
movements and a good deal of information about him reached us
incidentally, from all which it appeared that during his time with us,
and for some months previously, Father O'Keefe had been working out
his own salvation in a quiet way in accordance with a rather elaborate
plan which he had devised. Before he became our teacher he had lived
in some priestly establishment in the capital, and had been a hanger-
on at the Bishop's palace, waiting for a benefice or for some office,
and at length, tired of waiting in vain, he had quietly withdrawn
himself from this society and had got into communication with one of
the Protestant clergymen of the town. He intimated or insinuated that
he had long been troubled with certain scruples, that his conscience
demanded a little more liberty than his church would allow its
followers, and this had caused him to cast a wistful eye on that other
church whose followers were, alas! accorded a little more liberty than
was perhaps good for their souls. But he didn't know, and in any case
he would like to correspond on these important matters with one on the
other side. This letter met with a warm response, and there was much
correspondence and meetings with other clerics-Anglican or
Episcopalian, I forget which. But there were also Presbyterians,
Lutherans, and Methodist ministers, all with churches of their own in
the town, and he may have flirted a little with all of them. Then he
came for his year of waiting to us, during which he amused himself by
teaching the little ones, smoothing the way for my mathematical
brother, and fishing. But the authorities of the church had not got
rid of him; they heard not infrequently from him, and it was not
pleasant hearing. He had come, he told them, a Roman Catholic priest
to a Roman Catholic country, and had found himself a stranger in a
strange land. He had waited patiently for months, and had been put off
with idle promises or thrust aside, while every greedy pushing priest
that arrived from Spain and Italy was received with open arms and a
place provided for him. Then, when his patience and private means had
been exhausted, he had accidently been thrown among those who were not
of the Faith, yet had received him with open arms. He had been
humiliated and pained at the disinterested hospitality and Christian
charity shown to him by those outside the pale, after the treatment he
had received from his fellow-priests.

Probably he said more than this: for it is a fact that he had been
warmly invited to preach in one or two of the Protestant churches in
the town. He did not go so far as to accept that offer: he was wise in
his generation, and eventually got his reward.

Our schoolmaster gone, we were once more back in the old way; we did
just what we liked. Our parents probably thought that our life would
be on the plains, with sheep and cattle-breeding for only vocations,
and that should any one of us, like my mathematical-minded brother,
take some line of his own, he would find out the way of it for
himself: his own sense, the light of nature, would be his guide. I had
no inclination to do anything with books myself: books were lessons,
therefore repellent, and that any one should read a book for pleasure
was inconceivable. The only attempt to improve our minds at this
period came, oddly enough, from my masterful brother who despised our
babyish intellects--especially mine. However, one day he announced
that he had a grand scheme to put before us. He had heard or read of a
family of boys living just like us in some wild isolated land where
there were no schools or teachers and no newspapers, who amused
themselves by writing a journal of their own, which was issued once a
week. There was a blue pitcher on a shelf in the house, and into this
pitcher every boy dropped his contribution, and one of them--of course
the most intelligent one--carefully went through them, selected the
best, and copied them all out in one large sheet, and this was their
weekly journal called _The Blue Pitcher_, and it was read and enjoyed
by the whole house. He proposed that we should do the same; he, of
course, would edit the paper and write a large portion of it; it would
occupy two or four sheets of quarto paper, all in his beautiful
handwriting, which resembled copper-plate, and it would be issued for
all of us to read every Saturday. We all agreed joyfully, and as the
title had taken our fancy we started hunting for a blue pitcher all
over the house, but couldn't find such a thing, and finally had to put
up with a tin box with a wooden lid and a lock and key. The
contributions were to be dropped in through a slit in the lid which
the carpenter made for us, and my brother took possession of the key.
The title of the paper was to be _The Tin Box,_ and we were instructed
to write about the happenings of the week and anything in fact which
had interested us, and not to be such little asses as to try to deal
with subjects we knew nothing about. I was to say something about
birds: there was never a week went by in which I didn't tell them a
wonderful story of a strange bird I had seen for the first time: well,
I could write about that strange bird and make it just as wonderful as
I liked.

We set about our task at once with great enthusiasm, trying for the
first time in our lives to put our thoughts into writing. All went
well for a few days. Then our editor called us together to hear an
important communication he wished to make. First he showed us, but
would not allow us to read or handle, a fair copy of the paper, or of
the portion he had done, just to enable us to appreciate the care he
was taking over it. He then went on to say that he could not give so
much time to the task and pay for stationery as well without a small
weekly contribution from us. This would only be about three-halfpence
or twopence from our pocket-money, and would not be much missed. To
this we all agreed at once except my younger brother, aged about seven
at that time. Then, he was told, he would not be allowed to contribute
to the paper. Very well, he wouldn't contribute to it, he said. In
vain we all tried to coax him out of his stubborn resolve: he would
not part with a copper of his money and would have nothing to do with
_The Tin Box_. Then the Editor's wrath broke out, and he said he had
already written his editorial, but would now, as a concluding article,
write a second one in order to show up the person who had tried to
wreck the paper, in his true colours. He would exhibit him as the
meanest, most contemptible insect that ever crawled on the surface
of the earth.

In the middle of this furious tirade my poor little brother burst out
crying. "Keep your miserable tears till the paper is out," shouted the
other, "as you will have good reason to shed them then. You will be a
marked being, every one will then point the finger of scorn at you and
wonder how he could ever have thought well of such a pitiful little

This was more than the little fellow could stand, and he suddenly fled
from the room, still crying; then we all laughed, and the angry editor
laughed too, proud of the effect his words had produced.

Our little brother did not join us at play that afternoon: he was in
hiding somewhere, keeping watch on the movements of his enemy, who was
no doubt engaged already in writing that dreadful article which would
make him a marked being for the rest of his life.

In due time the editor, his task finished, came forth, and mounting
his horse, galloped off; and the little watcher came out, and stealing
into the room where the _Tin Box_ was kept, carried it off to the
carpenter's shop. There with chisel and hammer he broke the lid to
pieces, and taking out all the papers, set to work to tear them up
into the minutest fragments, which were carried out and scattered all
over the place.

When the big brother came home and discovered what had been done he
was in a mighty rage, and went off in search of the avaricious little
rebel who had dared to destroy his work. But the little rebel was not
to be caught; at the right moment he fled from the coming tempest to
his parents and claimed their protection. Then the whole matter had to
be inquired into, and the big boy was told that he was not to thrash
his little brother, that he himself was to blame for everything on
account of the extravagant language he had used, which the poor little
fellow had taken quite seriously. If he actually believed _The Tin
Box_ article was going to have that disastrous effect on him, who
could blame him for destroying it?

That was the end of _The Tin Box_; not a word about starting it
afresh was said, and from that day my elder brother never mentioned
it. But years later I came to think it a great pity that the scheme
had miscarried. I believe, from later experience, that even if it had
lasted but a few weeks it would have given me the habit of recording
my observations, and that is a habit without which the keenest
observation and the most faithful memory are not sufficient for the
field naturalist. Thus, through the destruction of the Tin Box, I
believe I lost a great part of the result of six years of life with
wild nature, since it was not until six years after my little
brother's rebellious act that I discovered the necessity of making a
note of every interesting thing I witnessed.



Our third and last schoolmaster--His many accomplishments--His
weakness and final breakdown--My important brother--Four brothers,
unlike in everything except the voice--A strange meeting--Jack the
Killer, his life and character--A terrible fight--My brother seeks
instructions from Jack--The gaucho's way of fighting and Jack's
contrasted--Our sham fight with knives--A wound and the result--My
feeling about Jack and his eyes--Bird-lore--My two elder brothers'
practical joke.

The vanishing of the unholy priest from our ken left us just about
where we had been before his large red face had lifted itself above
our horizon. At all events the illumination had not been great. And
thereafter it was holiday once more for a goodish time until yet a
third tutor came upon the scene:--yet another stranger in a strange
land who had fallen into low (and hot) water and was willing to fill a
vacant time in educating us. Just as in the case of the O'Keefe, he
was thrust upon my good-natured and credulous father by his friends in
the capital, who had this gentleman with them and were anxious to get
him off their hands. He was, they assured my father, just the man he
wanted, a fine fellow of good family, highly educated and all that;
but he had been a bit wild, and all that was wanted to bring him round
was to get him out a good distance from the capital and its
temptations and into a quiet, peaceful home like ours. Strange to say,
he actually turned out to be all they had said, and more. He had
studied hard at college and when reading for a profession; he was a
linguist, a musician, he had literary tastes, and was well read in
science, and above all he was a first-rate mathematician. Naturally,
to my studious brother he came as an angel beautiful and bright, with
no suggestion of the fiend in him; for not only was he a
mathematician, but he was also an accomplished fencer and boxer. And
so the two were soon fast friends, and worked hard together over their
books, and would then repair for an hour or two every day to the
plantation to fence and box and practise with pistol and rifle at the
target. He also took to the humbler task of teaching the rest of us
with considerable zeal, and succeeded in rousing a certain enthusiasm
in us. We were, he told us, grossly ignorant--simply young barbarians;
but he had penetrated beneath the thick crust that covered our minds,
and was pleased to find that there were possibilities of better
things; that if we would but second his efforts and throw ourselves,
heart and soul, into our studies, we should eventually develop from
the grub condition to that of purple-winged butterflies.

Our new teacher was tremendously eloquent, and it looked as if he had
succeeded in conquering that wildness or weakness or whatever it was
which had been his undoing in the past. Then came a time when he would
ask for a horse and go for a long ride. He would make a call at some
English estancia, and drink freely of the wine or spirits hospitably
set on the table. And the result would be that he would come home
raving like a lunatic:--a very little alcohol would drive him mad.
Then would follow a day or two of repentance and black melancholy;
then recovery and a fresh fair start.

All this was somewhat upsetting to all of us: to my mother it was
peculiarly distressing, and became more so when, in one of his
repentant fits and touched by her words, he gave her a packet of his
mother's letters to read:--the pathetic letters of a broken-hearted
woman to her son, her only and adored child, lost to her for ever in a
distant country, thousands of miles from home. These sad appeals only
made my mother more anxious to save him, and it was no doubt her
influence that for a while did save and make him able to succeed in
his efforts to overcome his fatal weakness. But he was of too sanguine
a temper, and by and by began to think that he had conquered, that he
was safe, that it was time for him to do something great; and with
some brilliant scheme he had hatched in his mind, he left us and went
back to the capital to work it out. But alas! before many months, when
he was getting seriously to work, with friends and money to help him
and every prospect of success, he broke down once more, so hopelessly
that once more he had to be got rid of, and he was sent out of the
country, but whether back to his own people or to some other remote
district in Argentina I do not remember, nor do I know what became of

Thus disastrously ended the third and last attempt my father made to
have us instructed at home. Nor could he send us to town, where there
was but one English school for boys, run by a weak, sickly gentleman,
whose house was a nest of fevers and every sort of ailment incidental
to boys herded together in an unhealthy boarding-school. Prosperous
English people sent their children home to be educated at that time,
but it was enormously expensive and we were not well off enough. A
little later an exception had to be made in the case of my elder
brother, who would not settle down to sheep-farming or any other
occupation out on the pampas, but had set his heart on pursuing his
studies abroad.

At this period of my life this brother was so important a person to me
that I shall have to give even more space to him in this chapter than
he had in the last one. Yet of my brothers he was not the one nearest
to my heart. He was five full years my senior, and naturally
associated with an elder brother, while we two smaller ones were left
to amuse ourselves together in our own childish way. With a younger
brother for only playmate, I prolonged my childhood, and when I was
ten my brother of fifteen appeared a young man to me. We were all four
extremely unlike in character as well as appearance, and alike in one
thing only--the voice, inherited from our father; but just as our
relationship appeared in that one physical character, so I think that
under all the diversities in our minds and temperaments there was a
hidden quality, a something of the spirit, which made us one; and
this, I believe, came from the mother's side.

That family likeness in the voice was brought home to us in a curious
way just about this time, when I was in my tenth year. My brother went
one day to Buenos Ayres, and arriving at the stable where our horses
were always put up, long after dark, he left his horse, and on going
out called to the stableman, giving him some direction. As soon as he
had spoken, a feeble voice was heard from the open door of a dark room
near the gate, calling, "That's a Hudson that spoke! Father or son--
who is it?"

My brother turned back and groped his way into the dark room, and
replied: "Yes, I'm a Hudson--Edwin's my name. Who are you?"

"Oh, I'm glad you're here! I'm your old friend Jack," returned the
other, and it was a happy meeting between the boy in his sixteenth
year and the grey-headed old battered vagabond and fighter, known far
and wide in our part of the country as Jack the Killer, and by other
dreadful nicknames, both English and Spanish. Now he was lying there
alone, friendless, penniless, ill, on a rough bed the stableman had
given him in his room. My brother came home full of the subject, sad
at poor old Jack's broken-down condition and rejoicing that he had by
chance found him there and had been able to give him help.

Jack the Killer was one of those strange Englishmen frequently to be
met with in those days, who had taken to the gaucho's manner of life,
when the gaucho had more liberty and was a more lawless being than he
is now or can ever be again, unless that vast level area of the pampas
should at some future time become dispeopled and go back to what it
was down to half a century ago. He had drifted into that outlandish
place when young, and finding the native system of life congenial had
made himself as much of a native as he could, and dressed like them
and talked their language, and was horse-breaker, cattle-drover, and
many other things by turn, and like any other gaucho he could make his
own bridle and whip and horse-gear and lasso and bolas out of raw
hide. And when not working he could gamble and drink like any gaucho
to the manner born--and fight too. But here there was a difference.
Jack could affiliate with the natives, yet could never be just like
them. The stamp of the foreigner, of the Englishman, was never wholly
eradicated. He retained a certain dignity, a reserve, almost a
stiffness, in his manner which made him a marked man among them, and
would have made him a butt to the wits and bullies among his comrades
but for his pride and deadly power. To be mocked as a foreigner, a
gringo, an inferior being, was what he could not stand, and the result
was that he had to fight, and it then came as a disagreeable
revelation that when Jack fought he fought to kill. This was
considered bad form; for though men were often killed when fighting,
the gaucho's idea is that you do not fight with that intention, but
rather to set your mark upon and conquer your adversary, and so give
yourself fame and glory. Naturally, they were angry with Jack and
became anxious to get rid of him, and by and by he gave them an
excuse. He fought with and killed a man, a famous young fighter, who
had many relations and friends, and some of these determined to avenge
his death. And one night a band of nine men came to the rancho where
Jack was sleeping, and leaving two of their number at the door to kill
him if he attempted to escape that way, the others burst into his
room, their long knives in their hands. As the door was thrown open
Jack woke, and instantly divining the cause of the intrusion, he
snatched up the knife near his pillow and sprang like a cat out of his
bed; and then began a strange and bloody fight, one man, stark naked,
with a short-bladed knife in his hand, against seven men with their
long facons, in a small pitch-dark room. The advantage Jack had was
that his bare feet made no sound on the clay floor, and that he knew
the exact position of a few pieces of furniture in the room. He had,
too, a marvellous agility, and the intense darkness was all in his
favour, as the attackers could hardly avoid wounding one another. At
all events, the result was that three of them were killed and the
other four wounded, all more or less seriously. And from that time
Jack was allowed to live among them as a harmless, peaceful member of
the community, so long as no person twitted him with being a gringo.

Quite naturally, my brother regarded Jack as one of his greatest
heroes, and whenever he heard of his being in our neighbourhood he
would mount his horse and go off in search of him, to spend long hours
in his company and persuade him to talk about that awful fight in a
dark room with so many against him. One result of his intimacy with
Jack was that he became dissatisfied with his own progress in the
manly art of self-defence. It was all very well to make himself
proficient with the foils and as a boxer, and to be a good shot, but
he was living among people who had the knife for sole weapon, and if
by chance he were attacked by a man with a knife, and had no pistol or
other weapon, he would find himself in an exceedingly awkward
position. There was then nothing to do but to practise with the knife,
and he wanted Jack, who had been so successful with that weapon, to
give him some lessons in its use.

Jack shook his head. If his boy friend wanted to learn the gaucho way
of fighting he could easily do so. The gaucho wrapped his poncho on
his left arm to use it as a shield, and flourished his facon, or knife
with a sword-like blade and a guard to the handle. This whirling about
of the knife was quite an art, and had a fine look when two
accomplished fighters stood up to each other and made their weapons
look like shining wheels or revolving mirrors in the sun. Meanwhile,
the object of each man was to find his opportunity for a sweeping blow
which would lay his opponent's face open. Now all that was pretty to
look at, but it was mere playing at fighting and he never wanted to
practise it. He was not a fighter by inclination; he wanted to live
with and be one with the gauchos, but not to fight. There were numbers
of men among them who never fought and were never challenged to fight,
and he would be of those if they would let him. He never had a pistol,
he wore a knife like everybody else, but a short knife for use and not
to fight. But when he found that, after all, he had to fight or else
exist on sufferance as a despised creature among them, the butt of
every fool and bully, he did fight in a way which he had never been
taught and could not teach to another. It was nature: it was in him.
When the dangerous moment came and knives flashed out, he was
instantly transformed into a different being. He was on springs, he
couldn't keep still or in one place for a second, or a fraction of a
second; he was like a cat, like india rubber, like steel--like
anything you like, but something that flew round and about his
opponent and was within striking distance one second and a dozen yards
away the next, and when an onset was looked for it never came where it
was expected but from another side, and in two minutes his opponent
became confused, and struck blindly at him, and his opportunity came,
not to slash and cut but to drive his knife with all his power to the
heart in the other's body and finish him for ever. That was how he had
fought and had killed, and because of that way of fighting he had got
his desire and had been permitted to live in peace and quiet until he
had grown grey, and no fighter or swashbuckler had said to him, "Do
you still count yourself a killer of men? then kill me and prove your
right to the title," and no one had jeered at or called him "gringo."

In spite of this discouragement my brother was quite determined to
learn the art of defending himself with a knife, and he would often go
out into the plantation and practise for an hour with a tree for an
opponent, and try to capture Jack's unpremeditated art of darting
hither and thither about his enemy and making his deadly strokes. But
as the tree stood still and had no knife to oppose him, it was
unsatisfactory, and one day he proposed to me and my younger brother
to have a fight with knives, just to find out if he was making any
progress. He took us out to the far end of the plantation, where no
one would see us, and produced three very big knives, with blades like
butchers' knives, and asked us to attack him with all our might and
try our best to wound him, while he would act solely on the defensive.
At first we declined, and reminded him that he had punished us
terribly with gloves and foils and singlestick, and that it would be
even worse with knives-he would cut us in pieces! No, he said, he
would not dream of hurting us: it would be absolutely safe for us, and
for him too, as he didn't for a moment believe that we could touch him
with our weapons, no matter how hard we tried. And at last we were
persuaded, and taking off our jackets and wrapping them, gaucho-
fashion, on our left arms as a protection, we attacked him with the
big knives, and getting excited we slashed and lunged at him with all
our power, while he danced and jumped and flew about a la Jack the
Killer, using his knife only to guard himself and to try and knock
ours out of our hands; but in one such attempt at disarming me his
weapon went too far and wounded my right arm about three inches below
the shoulder. The blood rushed out and dyed my sleeve red, and the
fight came to an end. He was greatly distressed, and' running off to
the house, quickly returned with a jug of water, sponge, towel, and
linen to bind the wounded arm. It was a deep long cut, and the scar
has remained to this day, so that I can never wash in the morning
without seeing it and remembering that old fight with knives.
Eventually he succeeded in stopping the flow of blood, and binding my
arm tightly round; and then he made the desponding remark, "Of course
they will have to know all about it now."

"Oh no," I returned, "why should they? My arm has stopped bleeding,
and they won't find out. If they notice that I can't use it--well, I
can just say I had a knock."

He was immensely relieved, and so pleased that he patted me on the
back--the first time he had ever done so--and praised me for my
manliness in taking it that way; and to be praised by him was such a
rare and precious thing that I felt very proud, and began to think I
was almost as good as a fighter myself. And when all traces of blood
had been removed and we were back in the house and at the supper-
table, I was unusually talkative and hilarious, not only to prevent
any one from suspecting that I had just been seriously wounded in a
fight with knives, but also to prove to my brother that I could take
these knocks with proper fortitude. No doubt he was amused; but he
didn't laugh at me, he was too delighted to escape being found out.

There were no more fights with knives, although when my wound was
healed he did broach the subject again on two or three occasions, and
was anxious to convince me that it would be greatly to our advantage
to know how to defend ourselves with a knife while living among people
who were always as ready on any slight provocation to draw a knife on
you as a cat was to unsheathe its claws. Nor could all he told us
about the bloody and glorious deeds of Jack _el Matador_ arouse any
enthusiasm in me; and though in his speech and manner Jack was as
quiet and gentle a being as one could meet, I could never overcome a
curious shrinking, an almost uncanny feeling, in his presence,
particularly when he looked straight at me with those fine eyes of
his. They were light grey in colour, clear and bright as in a young
man, but the expression pained me; it was too piercing, too
concentrated, and it reminded me of the look in a cat's eyes when it
crouches motionless just before making its dash at a bird.

Nevertheless, the fight and wound had one good result for me; my
brother had all at once become less masterful, or tyrannical, towards
me, and even began to show some interest in my solitary disposition
and tastes. A little bird incident brought out this feeling in a way
that was very agreeable to me. One evening I told him and our eldest
brother that I had seen a strange thing in a bird which had led me to
find out something new. Our commonest species was the parasitic
cowbird, which laid its eggs anywhere in the nests of all the other
small birds. Its colour was a deep glossy purple, almost black; and
seeing two of these birds flying over my head, I noticed that they had
a small chestnut-coloured spot beneath the wing, which showed that
they were not the common species. It had then occurred to me that I
had heard a peculiar note or cry uttered by what I took to be the
cowbird, which was unlike any note of that bird; and following this
clue, I had discovered that we had a bird in our plantation which was
like the cowbird in size, colour, and general appearance, but was a
different species. They appeared amused by my story, and a few days
later they closely interrogated me on three consecutive evenings as to
what I had seen that was remarkable that day, in birds especially, and
were disappointed because I had nothing interesting to tell them.

The next day my brother said he had a confession to make to me. He and
the elder brother had agreed to play a practical joke on me, and had
snared a common cowbird and dyed or painted its tail a brilliant
scarlet, then liberated it, expecting that I should meet with it in my
day's rambles and bird-watching in the plantation and would be greatly
excited at the discovery of yet a third purple cowbird, with a scarlet
tail, but otherwise not distinguishable from the common one. Now, on
reflection, he was glad I had not found their bird and given them
their laugh, and he was ashamed at having tried to play such a mean
trick on me!



Visiting the marshes--Pajonales and Juncales--Abundant bird life--A
Coots' metropolis--Frightening the Coots--Grebe and Painted Snipe
colonies--The haunt of the Social Marsh Hawk--The beautiful Jacana and
its eggs--The colony of Marsh Trupials--The bird's music--The aquatic
plant Durasmillo--The Trupial's nest and eggs--Recalling a beauty that
has vanished--Our games with gaucho boys--I am injured by a bad boy--
The shepherd's advice--Getting my revenge in a treacherous manner--Was
it right or wrong?--The game of Hunting the Ostrich.

At this time of my boy-life most of the daylight hours were spent out
of doors, as when not watching the birds in our plantation or asked to
go and look at the flock grazing somewhere a mile or so from home, in
the absence of the shepherd or his boy, I was always away somewhere on
the plain with my small brother on egg-hunting or other expeditions.
In the spring and summer we often visited the lagoons or marshes, the
most fascinating places I knew on account of their abundant wild bird
life. There were four of these lagoons, all in different directions
and all within two or three miles from home. They were shallow
lakelets, called _lagunas,_ each occupying an area of three or four
hundred acres, with some open water and the rest overgrown with bright
green sedges in dense beds, called _pajonales,_ and immense beds of
bulrushes, called _juncales._ These last were always the best to
explore when the water was not deeper than the saddle-girth, and where
the round dark polished stems, crowned with their bright brown tufts,
were higher than our heads when we urged our horses through them.
These were the breeding-places of some small birds that had their
beautifully-made nests a couple of feet or so above the water,
attached in some cases to single, in others to two or three, rush
stems. And here, too, we found the nests of several large species--
egret, night-heron, cormorant, and occasionally a hawk--birds which
build on trees in forest districts, but here on the treeless region of
the pampas they made their nests among the rushes. The fourth lakelet
had no rush-or sedge-beds and no reeds, and was almost covered with a
luxuriant growth of the floating _camalote,_ a plant which at a
distance resembles the wild musk or mimulus in its masses of bright
green leaves and brilliant yellow blossoms. This, too, was a
fascinating spot, as it swarmed with birds, some of them being kinds
which did not breed in the reeds and rushes. It was a sort of
metropolis of the coots, and before and after the breeding season they
would congregate in flocks of many hundreds on the low wet shore,
where their black forms had a singular appearance on the moist green
turf. It looked to me like a reproduction in small size of a scene I
had witnessed--the vast level green pampa with a scattered herd of two
or three thousand black cattle grazing on it, on a large cattle estate
where only black beasts were bred. We always thought it great fun when
we found a big assembly of coots at some distance from the margin.
Whipping up our horses, we would suddenly charge the flock to see them
run and fly in a panic to the lake and rush over the open water,
striking the surface with their feet and raising a perfect cloud of
spray behind them.

Coots, however, were common everywhere, but this water was the only
breeding-place of the grebe in our neighbourhood; yet here we could
find scores of nests any day--scores with eggs and a still greater
number of false nests, and we could never tell which had eggs in it
before pulling off the covering of wet weeds. Another bird rarely seen
at any other spot than this was the painted snipe, a prettily-marked
species with a green curved bill. It has curiously sluggish habits,
rising only when almost trodden upon, and going off in a wild sacred
manner like a nocturnal species, then dropping again into hiding at a
short distance. The natives call it _dormilon_--sleepy-head. On one
side of the lagoon, where the ground was swampy and wet, there was
always a breeding-colony of these quaint birds; at every few yards one
would spring up close to the hoofs, and dismounting we would find the
little nest on the wet ground under the grass, always with two eggs so
thickly blotched all over with black as to appear almost entirely

There were other rushy lagoons at a greater distance which we visited
only at long intervals, and one of these I must describe, as it was
almost more attractive than any one of the others on account of its
bird life. Here, too, there were some kinds which we never found
breeding elsewhere.

It was smaller than the other lagoons I have described and much
shallower, so that the big birds, such as the stork, wood-ibis,
crested screamer, and the great blue ibis, called _vanduria,_ and the
roseate spoonbill, could wade almost all over it without wetting their
feathers. It was one of those lakes which appear to be drying up, and
was pretty well covered with a growth of _camalote_ plant, mixed with
reed, sedge, and bulrush patches. It was the only water in our part of
the country where the large water-snail was found, and the snails had
brought the bird that feeds on them--the large social marsh hawk, a
slate-coloured bird resembling a buzzard in its size and manner of
flight. But being exclusively a feeder on snails, it lives in peace
and harmony with the other bird inhabitants of the marsh. There was
always a colony of forty or fifty of these big hawks to be seen at
this spot. A still more interesting bird was the jacana, as it is
spelt in books, but pronounced ya-sa-NA by the Indians of Paraguay, a
quaint rail-like bird supposed to be related to the plover family:
black and maroon-red in colour, the wing-quills a shining greenish
yellow, it has enormously long toes, spurs on its wings, and yellow
wattles on its face. Here I first saw this strange beautiful fowl, and
here to my delight I found its nest in three consecutive summers, with
three or four clay-coloured eggs spotted with chestnut-red.

Here, too, was the breeding-place of the beautiful black-and-white
stilt, and of other species too many to mention. But my greatest
delight was in finding breeding in this place a bird I loved more than
all the others I have named--a species of marsh trupial, a bird about
the size of the common cowbird, and like it, of a uniform deep purple,
but with a cap of chestnut-coloured feathers on its head. I loved this
bird for its song--the peculiar delicate tender opening notes and
trills. In spring and autumn large flocks would occasionally visit our
plantation, and the birds in hundreds would settle on a tree and all
sing together, producing a marvellous and beautiful noise, as of
hundreds of small bells all ringing at one time. It was by the water I
first found their breeding-place, where about three or four hundred
birds had their nests quite near together, and nests and eggs and the
plants on which they were placed, with the solicitous purple birds
flying round me, made a scene of enchanting beauty. The nesting-site
was on a low swampy piece of ground grown over with a semi-aquatic
plant called _durasmillo_ in the vernacular. It has a single white
stalk, woody in appearance, two to three feet high, and little
thicker than a man's middle finger, with a palm-like crown of large
loose lanceolate leaves, so that it looks like a miniature palm, or
rather an ailanthus tree, which has a slender perfectly white bole.
The solanaceous flowers are purple, and it bears fruit the size of
cherries, black as jet, in clusters of three to five or six. In this
forest of tiny palms the nests were hanging, attached to the boles,
where two or three grew close together; it was a long and deep nest,
skilfully made of dry sedge leaves woven together, and the eggs were
white or skim-milk blue spotted with black at the large end.

That enchanting part of the marsh, with its forest of graceful
miniature trees, where the social trupials sang and wove their nests
and reared their young in company--that very spot is now, I dare say,
one immense field of corn, lucerne, or flax, and the people who now
live and labour there know nothing of its former beautiful
inhabitants, nor have they ever seen or even heard of the purple-
plumaged trupial, with its chestnut cap and its delicate trilling
song. And when I recall these vanished scenes, those rushy and flowery
meres, with their varied and multitudinous wild bird life--the cloud
of shining wings, the heart-enlivening wild cries, the joy unspeakable
it was to me in those early years--I am glad to think I shall never
revisit them, that I shall finish my life thousands of miles removed
from them, cherishing to the end in my heart the image of a beauty
which has vanished from earth.

My elder brother occasionally accompanied us on our egg-hunting visits
to the lagoons, and he also joined us in our rides to the two or three
streams where we used to go to bathe and fish; but he took no part in
our games and pastimes with the gaucho boys: they were beneath him. We
ran races on our ponies, and when there were race-meetings in our
neighbourhood my father would give us a little money to go and enter
our ponies in a boys' race. We rarely won when there were any stakes,
as the native boys were too clever on horseback for us, and had all
sorts of tricks to prevent us from winning, even when our ponies were
better than theirs. We also went tinamou, or partridge, catching, and
sometimes we had sham fights with lances, or long canes with which we
supplied the others. These games were very rough, and one day when we
were armed, not with canes but long straight pliant green poplar
boughs we had cut for the purpose, we were having a running fight,
when one of the boys got in a rage with me for some reason and,
dropping behind, then coming quietly up, gave me a blow on the face
and head with his stick which sent me flying off my pony. They all
dashed on, leaving me there to pick myself up, and mounting my pony I
went home crying with pain and rage. The blow had fallen on my head,
but the pliant stick had come down over my face from the forehead to
the chin, taking the skin off. On my way back I met our shepherd and
told him my story, and said I would go to the boy's parents to tell
them. He advised me not to do so; he said I must learn to take my own
part, and if any one injured me and I wanted him punished I must do
the punishing myself. If I made any fuss and complaint about it I
should only get laughed at, and he would go scot free. What, then, was
I to do? I asked, seeing that he was older and stronger than myself,
and had his heavy whip and knife to defend himself against attack.

"Oh, don't be in a hurry to do it," he returned. "Wait for an
opportunity, even if you have to wait for days; and when it comes, do
to him just what he did to you. Don't warn him, but simply knock him
off his horse, and then you will be quits."

Now this shepherd was a good man, much respected by every one, and I
was glad that in his wisdom and sympathy he had put such a simple,
easy plan into my head, and I dried my tears and went home and washed
the blood from my face, and when asked how I had got that awful wound
that disfigured me I made light of it. Two days later my enemy
appeared on the scene. I heard his voice outside the gate calling to
some one, and peering out I saw him sitting on his horse. His guilty
conscience made him afraid to dismount, but he was anxious to find out
what was going to be done about his treatment of me, also, if he could
see me, to discover my state of mind after two days.

I went out to the timber pile and selected a bamboo cane about twenty
feet long, not too heavy to be handled easily, and holding it up like
a lance I marched to the gate and started swinging it round as I
approached him, and showing a cheerful countenance. "What are you
going to do with that cane?" he shouted, a little apprehensively.
"Wait and see," I returned. "Something to make you laugh." Then, after
whirling it round half a dozen times more, I suddenly brought it down
on his head with all my force, and did exactly what I had been
counselled to do by the wise shepherd--knocked him clean off his
horse. But he was not stunned, and starting up in a screeching fury,
he pulled out his knife to kill me. And I, for strategic reasons,
retreated, rather hastily. But his wild cries quickly brought several
persons on the scene, and, recovering courage, I went back and said
triumphantly, "Now we are quits!" Then my father was called and asked
to judge between us, and after hearing both sides he smiled and said
his judgment was not needed, that we had already settled it all
ourselves, and there was nothing now between us. I laughed, and he
glared at me, and mounting his horse, rode off without another word.
It was, however, only because he was suffering from the blow on his
head; when I met him we were good friends again.

More than once during my life, when recalling that episode, I have
asked myself if I did right in taking the shepherd's advice? Would it
have been better, when I went out to him with the bamboo cane, and he
asked me what I was going to do with it, if I had gone up to him and
shown him my face with that broad band across it from the chin to the
temple, where the skin had come off and a black crust had formed, and
had said to him: "This is the mark of the blow you gave me the day
before yesterday, when you knocked me off my horse; you see it is on
the right side of my face and head; now take the cane and give me
another blow on the left side"? Tolstoy (my favourite author, by the
way) would have answered: "Yes, certainly it would have been better
for you--better for your soul." Nevertheless, I still ask myself:
"Would it?" and if this incident should come before me half a second
before my final disappearance from earth, I should still be in doubt.

One of our favourite games at this period--the only game on foot we
ever played with the gaucho boys--was hunting the ostrich. To play
this game we had bolas, only the balls at the end of the thong were
not of lead like those with which the grown-up gaucho hunter captures
the real ostrich or rhea. We used light wood to make balls, so as not
to injure each other. The fastest boy was chosen to play the ostrich,
and would be sent off to roam ostrich-fashion on the plain, pretending
to pick clover from the ground as he walked in a stooping attitude, or
making little runs and waving his arms about like wings, then standing
erect and mimicking the hollow booming sounds the cock bird emits when
calling the flock together.

The hunters would then come on the scene and the chase begin, the
ostrich putting forth all his speed, doubling to this side and that,
and occasionally thinking to escape by hiding, dropping upon the
ground in the shelter of a cardoon thistle, only to jump up again when
the shouts of the hunters drew near, to rush on as before. At
intervals the bolas would come whirling through the air, and he would
dodge or avoid them by a quick turn, but eventually he would be hit
and the thong would wind itself about his legs and down he would come.

Then the hunters would gather round him, and pulling out their knives
begin operations by cutting off his head; then the body would be cut
up, the wings and breast removed, these being the best parts for
eating, and there would be much talk about the condition and age of
the bird, and so on. Then would come the most exciting part of the
proceedings--the cutting the gizzard open and the examination of its
varied contents; and by and by there would be an exultant shout, and
one of the boys would pretend to come on a valuable find--a big silver
coin perhaps, a _patacon,_ and there would be a great gabble over
it and perhaps a fight for its possession, and they would wrestle and
roll on the grass, struggling for the imaginary coin. That finished,
the dead ostrich would get up and place himself among the hunters,
while the boy who had captured him with his bolas would then play
ostrich, and the chase would begin anew.

When this game was played I was always chosen as first ostrich, as at
that time I could easily outrun and out-jump any of my gauche
playmates, even those who were three or four years older than myself.
Nevertheless, these games--horse-racing, sham fights, and ostrich-
hunting, and the like--gave me no abiding satisfaction; they were no
sooner over than I would go back, almost with a sense of relief, to my
solitary rambles and bird-watching, and to wishing that the day would
come when my masterful brother would allow me to use a gun and
practise the one sport of wild-duck shooting I desired.

That was soon to come, and will form the subject of the ensuing



My sporting brother and the armoury--I attend him on his shooting
expeditions--Adventure with Golden Plover--A morning after Wild Duck--
Our punishment--I learn to shoot--My first gun--My first wild duck--My
ducking tactics--My gun's infirmities--Duck-shooting with a
blunderbus--Ammunition runs out--An adventure with Rosy-bill Duck--
Coarse gunpowder and home-made shot--The war danger comes our way--We
prepare to defend the house--The danger over and my brother leaves

I have said I was not allowed to shoot before the age of ten, but the
desire had come long before that; I was no more than seven when I used
to wish to be a big, or at all events a bigger, boy, so that, like my
brother, I too might carry a gun and shoot big wild birds. But he said
"No" very emphatically, and there was an end of it.

He had virtually made himself the owner of all the guns and weapons
generally in the house. These included three fowling-pieces, a rifle,
an ancient Tower musket with a flint-lock--doubtless dropped from the
dead hands of a slain British soldier in one of the fights in Buenos
Ayres in 1807 or 1808; a pair of heavy horse pistols, and a ponderous,
formidable-looking old blunderbuss, wide at the mouth as a tea-cup
saucer. His, too, were the swords. To our native neighbours this
appeared an astonishingly large collection of weapons, for in those
days they possessed no fire-arm except, in some rare instances, a
carbine, brought home by a runaway soldier and kept concealed lest the
authorities should get wind of it.

As the next best thing to doing the shooting myself, I attended my
brother in his expeditions, to hold his horse or to pick up and carry
the birds, and was deeply grateful to him for allowing me to serve him
in this humble capacity. We had some exciting adventures together. One
summer day he came rushing home to get his gun, having just seen an
immense flock of golden plover come down at a spot a mile or so from
home. With his gun and a sack to put the birds in, he mounted his
pony, I with him, as our ponies were accustomed to carry two and even
three at a pinch. We found the flock where he had seen it alight--
thousands of birds evenly scattered, running about busily feeding on
the wet level ground.

The bird I speak of is the _Charadrius dominicanca_, which breeds in
Arctic America and migrates in August and September to the plains of
La Plata and Patagonia, so that it travels about sixteen thousand
miles every year. In appearance it is so like our golden plover,
_Charadrius pluvialis_, as to be hardly distinguishable from it. The
birds were quite tame: all our wild birds were if anything too tame,
although not _shockingly_ so as Alexander Selkirk found them on his
island--the poet's, not the real Selkirk. The birds being so
scattered, all he could do was to lie flat down and fire with the
barrel of his fowling-piece level with the flock, and the result was
that the shot cut through the loose flock to a distance of thirty or
forty yards, dropping thirty-nine birds, which we put into the sack,
and remounting our pony set off home at a fast gallop. We were riding
barebacked, and as our pony's back had a forward slope we slipped
further and further forward until we were almost on his neck, and I,
sitting behind my brother, shouted for him to stop. But he had his gun
in one hand and the sack in the other, and had lost the reins; the
pony, however, appeared to have understood, as he came to a dead stop
of his own accord on the edge of a rain-pool, into which we were
pitched headlong. When I raised my head I saw the bag of birds at my
side, and the gun lying under water at a little distance; about three
yards further on my brother was just sitting up, with the water
streaming from his long hair, and a look of astonishment on his face.
But the pool was quite clean, with the soft grass for bottom, and we
were not hurt.

However, we did sometimes get into serious trouble. On one occasion he
persuaded me and the little brother to accompany him on a secret
shooting expedition he had planned. We were to start on horseback
before daybreak, ride to one of the marshes about two miles from home,
shoot a lot of duck, and get back about breakfast-time. The main thing
was to keep the plan secret, then it would be all right, since the
sight of the number of wild duck we should have to show on our return
would cause our escapade to be overlooked.

In the evening, instead of liberating our ponies as usual, we took and
tethered them in the plantation, and next morning about three o'clock
we crept cautiously out of the house and set off on our adventure. It
was a winter morning, misty and cold when the light came, and the
birds were excessively wild at that hour. In vain we followed the
flocks, my brother stalking them through the sedges, above his knees
in the water; not a bird could he get, and at last we were obliged to
go back empty-handed to face the music. At half-past ten we rode to
the door, wet and hungry and miserable, to find the whole house in a
state of commotion at our disappearance. When we were first missed in
the morning, one of the workmen reported that he had seen us taking
our horses to conceal them in the plantation at a little after dark,
and it was assumed that we had run away--that we had gone south where
the country was more thinly settled and wild animals more abundant, in
quest of new and more stirring adventures. They were greatly relieved
to see us back, but as we had no ducks to placate them we could not be
forgiven, and as a punishment we had to go breakfastless that day, and
our leader was in addition sternly lectured and forbidden to use a gun
for the future.

We thought this a very hard thing, and for the following days were
inclined to look at life as a rather tame, insipid business; but soon,
to our joy, the ban was removed. In forbidding us the use of the guns
my father had punished himself as well as us, since he never
thoroughly enjoyed a meal--breakfast, dinner, or supper--unless he had
a bird on the table, wild duck, plover, or snipe. A cold roast duck
was his favourite breakfast dish, and he was never quite happy when he
didn't get it.

Still, I was not happy, and could not be so long as I was not allowed
to shoot. It was a privilege to be allowed to attend, but it seemed to
me that at the age of ten I was quite old enough to have a gun. I had
been a rider on horseback since the age of six, and in some exercises
I was not much behind my brother, although when we practised with the
foils or with the gloves he punished me in rather a barbarous manner.
He was my guide and philosopher, and had also been a better friend
ever since our fight with knives and the cowbird episode; nevertheless
he still managed to dissemble his love, and when I revolted against
his tyranny I generally got well punished for it.

About that time an old friend of the family, who took an interest in
me and wished to do something to encourage me in my natural history
tastes, made me a present of a set of pen-and-ink drawings. There was,
however, nothing in these pictures to help me in the line I had taken:
they were mostly architectural drawings made by himself of buildings--
houses, churches, castles, and so on, but my brother fell in love with
them and began to try to get them from me. He could not rest without
them, and was continually offering me something of his own in exchange
for them; but though I soon grew tired of looking at them I refused to
part with them, either because his anxiety to have them gave them a
fictitious value in my sight, or because it was pleasing to be able to
inflict a little pain on him in return for the many smarts I had
suffered at his hands. At length one day, finding me still unmoved, he
all at once offered to teach me to shoot and to allow me the use of
one of the guns in exchange for the pictures. I could hardly believe
my good fortune: it would have surprised me less if he had offered to
give me his horse with "saddle and bridle also."

As soon as the drawings were in his hand he took me to our gun-room
and gave me a quite unneeded lesson in the art of loading a gun--first
so much powder, then a wad well rammed down with the old obsolete
ramrod; then so much shot and a second wad and ramming down; then a
percussion cap on the nipple. He then led the way to the plantation,
and finding two wild pigeons sitting together in a tree, he ordered me
to fire. I fired, and one fell, quite dead, and that completed my
education, for now he declared he was not going to waste any more time
on my instruction.

The gun he had told me to use was a single-barrel fowling-piece, an
ancient converted flintlock, the stock made of an iron-hard black wood
with silver mountings. When I stood it up and measured myself by it I
found it was nearly two inches taller than I was, but it was light to
carry and served me well: I became as much attached to it as to any
living thing, and it was like a living being to me, and I had great
faith in its intelligence.

My chief ambition was to shoot wild duck. My brother shot them in
preference to anything else: they were so much esteemed and he was so
much commended when he came in with a few in his bag that I looked on
duck-shooting as the greatest thing I could go in for. Ducks were
common enough with us and in great variety; I know not in what country
more kinds are to be found. There were no fewer than five species of
teal, the commonest a dark brown bird with black mottlings; another,
very common, was pale grey, the plumage beautifully barred and
pencilled with brown and black; then we had the blue-winged teal, a
maroon-red duck which ranges from Patagonia to California; the ringed
teal, with salmon-coloured breast and velvet-black collar; the
Brazilian teal, a lovely olive-brown and velvet-black duck, with
crimson beak and legs. There were two pintails, one of which was the
most abundant species in the country; also a widgeon, a lake duck, a
shoveller duck, with red plumage, grey head and neck, and blue wings;
and two species of the long-legged whistling or tree duck. Another
common species was the rosy-billed duck, now to be seen on ornamental
waters in England; and occasionally we saw the wild Muscovy duck,
called Royal duck by the natives, but it was a rare visitor so far
south. We also had geese and swans: the upland geese from the
Megellanic Straits that came to us in winter--that is to say, our
winter from May to August. And there were two swans, the black-necked,
which has black flesh and is unfit to eat, and the white or Coscoroba
Swan, as good a table bird as there is in the world. And oddly enough
this bird has been known to the natives as a "goose" since the
discovery of America, and now after three centuries our scientific
ornithologists have made the discovery that it is a link between the
geese and swans, but is more goose than swan. It is a beautiful white
bird, with bright red bill and legs, the wings tipped with black; and
has a loud musical cry of three notes, the last prolonged note with a
falling inflection.

These were the birds we sought after in winter; but we could shoot for
the table all the year round, for no sooner was it the duck's pairing
and breeding season than another bird-population from their breeding-
grounds in the arctic and sub-arctic regions came on the scene--
plover, sandpiper, godwit, curlew, whimbrel,--a host of northern
species that made the summer-dried pampas their winter abode.

My first attempt at duck-shooting was made at a pond not many minutes'
walk from the house, where I found a pair of shoveller ducks, feeding
in their usual way in the shallow water with head and neck immersed.
Anxious not to fail in this first trial, I got down flat on the ground
and crawled snake-fashion for a distance of fifty or sixty yards,
until I was less than twenty yards from the birds, when I fired and
killed one.

That first duck was a great joy, and having succeeded so well with my
careful tactics, I continued in the same way, confining my attention
to pairs or small parties of three or four birds, when by patiently
creeping a long distance through the grass I could get very close to
them. In this way I shot teal, widgeon, pintail, shovellers, and
finally the noble rosy-bill, which was esteemed for the table above
all the others.

My brother, ambitious of a big bag, invariably went a distance from
home in quest of the large flocks, and despised my way of duck-
shooting; but it sometimes vexed him to find on his return from a
day's expedition that I had succeeded in getting as many birds as
himself without having gone much more than a mile from home.

Some months after I had started shooting I began to have trouble with
my beloved gun, owing to a weakness it had developed in its lock--one
of the infirmities incidental to age which the gunsmiths of Buenos
Ayres were never able to cure effectually. Whenever it got bad I was
permitted to put it into the cart sent to town periodically, to have
it repaired, and would then go gunless for a week or ten days. On one
of these occasions I one day saw a party of shoveller duck dibbling in
a small rain-pool at the side of the plantation, within a dozen yards
of the old moat which surrounded it. Ducks always appeared to be
exceptionally tame and bold when I was without a gun, but the boldness
of those shovellers was more than I could stand, and running to the
house I got out the old blunderbuss, which I had never been forbidden
to use, since no one had ever thought it possible that I should want
to use such a monster of a gun. But I was desperate, and loading it
for the first (and last) time, I went after those shovellers.

I had once been told that it would be impossible to shoot wild duck or
anything with the blunderbuss unless one could get within a dozen
yards of them, on account of its tremendous scattering power. Well, by
going along the bottom of the moat, which was luckily without water
just then, I could get as near the birds as I liked and kill the whole
flock. When I arrived abreast of the pool I crept up the grassy
crumbling outside bank, and resting the ponderous barrel on the top of
the bank, fired at the shovellers at a distance of about fifteen
yards, and killed nothing, but received a kick which sent me flying to
the bottom of the foss. It was several days before I got over that
pain in my shoulder.

Later on there was a period of trouble and scarcity in the land. There
was war, and the city from which we obtained our supplies was besieged
by an army from the "upper provinces" which had come down to break the
power and humble the pride of Buenos Ayres. Our elders missed their
tea and coffee most, but our anxiety was that we should soon be
without powder and shot. My brother constantly warned me not to be so
wasteful, although he fired half a dozen shots to my one without
getting more birds for the table. At length there came a day when
there was little shot left--just about enough to fill one shot-pouch--
and knowing it was his intention to have a day out, I sneaked into the
gun-room and loaded my fowling-piece just to have one shot more. He
was going to try for upland geese that day, and, as I had expected,
carried off all the shot.

After he had gone I took my gun, and being determined to make the most
of my one shot, refused to be tempted by any of the small parties of
duck I found in the pools near home, even when they appeared quite
tame. At length I encountered a good-sized flock of rosy-bills by the
side of a marshy stream about two miles from home. It was a still,
warm day in mid-winter, and the ducks were dozing on the green bank in
a beautiful crowd, and as the land near them was covered with long
grass, I saw it would be possible to get quite close to them. Leaving
my pony at a good distance, I got down flat on the ground and began my
long laborious crawl, and got within twenty-five yards of the flock.
Never had I had such a chance before! As I peeped through the grass
and herbage I imagined all sorts of delightful things--my brother far
away vainly firing long shots at the wary geese, and his return and
disgust at the sight of my heap of noble rosy-bills, all obtained near
home at one shot!

Then I fired just as the birds, catching sight of my cap, raised their
long necks in alarm. Bang! Up they rose with a noise of wings, leaving
not one behind! Vainly I watched the flock, thinking that some of the
birds I must have hit would soon be seen to waver in their course and
then drop to earth. But none wavered or fell. I went home as much
puzzled as disappointed. Late in the day my brother returned with one
upland goose and three or four ducks, and inquired if I had had any
luck. I told him my sad story, whereupon he burst out laughing and
informed me that he had taken care to draw the shot from my gun before
going out. He was up to my little tricks, he said; he had seen what I
had done, and was not going to allow me to waste the little shot we
had left!

Our duck-shooting was carried on under difficulties during those days.
We searched for ammunition at all the houses for some leagues around,
and at one house we found and purchased a quantity of exceedingly
coarse gunpowder, with grain almost the size of canary-seed. They told
us it was cannon-powder, and to make it fit for use in our fowling-
pieces we ground it fine with glass and stone bottles for rollers on a
tin plate. Shot we could not find, so had to make it for ourselves by
cutting up plates of lead into small square bits with a knife and

Eventually the civil war, which had dragged on for a long time,
brought an unexpected danger to our house and caused us to turn our
minds to more important things than ducks. I have said that the city
was besieged by an army from the provinces, but away on the southern
frontier of the province of Buenos Ayres the besieged party, or
faction, had a powerful friend in an estanciero in those parts who was
friendly with the Indians, and who collected an army of Indians hungry
for loot, and gauchos, mostly criminals and deserters, who in those
days were accustomed to come from all parts of the country to put
themselves under the protection of this good man.

This horde of robbers and enthusiasts was now advancing upon the
capital to raise the siege, and each day brought us alarming reports--
whether true or false we could not know--of depredations they were
committing on their march. The good man, their commander, was not a
soldier, and there was no pretence of discipline of any kind; the men,
it was said, did what they liked, swarming over the country on the
line of march in bands, sacking and burning houses, killing or driving
off the cattle, and so on. Our house was unfortunately on the main
road running south from the capital, and directly in the way of the
coming rabble. That the danger was a real and very great one we could
see in the anxious faces of our elders; besides, nothing was now
talked of but the coming army and of all we had to fear.

At this juncture my brother took it upon himself to make preparations
for the defence of the house Our oldest brother was away, shut up in
the besieged city, but the three of us at home determined to make a
good fight, and we set to work cleaning and polishing up our firearms-
the Tower musket, the awful blunderbuss, the three fowling-pieces,
double and single-barrelled, and the two big horse-pistols and an old
revolver. We collected all the old lead we could find about the place
and made bullets in a couple of bullet-moulds we had found--one for
ounce and one for small bullets, three to the ounce. The fire to melt
the lead was in a shelter we had made behind an outhouse, and here one
day, in spite of all our precautions, we were discovered at work, with
rows and pyramids of shining bullets round us, and our secret was out.
We were laughed at as a set of young fools for our pains. "Never
mind," said my brother. "Let them mock now; by and by when it comes to
choosing between having our throats cut and defending ourselves, they
will probably be glad the bullets were made."

But though they laughed, our work was not interfered with, and some
hundreds of bullets were turned out and made quite a pretty show.

Meanwhile the besiegers were not idle: they had in their army a
cavalry officer who had had a long experience of frontier warfare and
had always been successful in his fights with the pampas Indians; and
this man, with a picked force composed of veteran fighters, was
dispatched against the barbarians. They had already crossed the Salado
river and were within two or three easy marches of us, when the small
disciplined force met and gave them battle and utterly routed them.
Indians and gauchos were sent flying south like thistle-down before
the wind; but all being well-mounted, not many were killed.

So ended that danger, and I think we boys were all a little
disappointed that no use had been made of our bright beautiful
bullets. I am sure my brother was; but soon after that he left home
for a distant country, and our shooting and other adventures together
were ended for ever.



The book--The Saledero, or killing-grounds, and their smell--Walls
built of bullocks' skulls--A pestilential city--River water and Aljibe
water--Days of lassitude--Novel scenes--Home again--Typhus--My first
day out--Birthday reflections--What I asked of life--A boy's mind--A
brother's resolution--End of our thousand and one nights--A reading
spell--My boyhood ends in disaster.

This book has already run to a greater length than was intended;
nevertheless there must be yet another chapter or two to bring it to a
proper ending, which I can only find by skipping over three years of
my life, and so getting at once to the age of fifteen. For that was a
time of great events and serious changes, bodily and mental, which
practically brought the happy time of my boyhood to an end.

On looking back over the book, I find that on three or four occasions
I have placed some incident in the wrong chapter or group, thus making
it take place a year or so too soon or too late. These small errors of
memory are, however, not worth altering now: so long as the scene or
event is rightly remembered and pictured it doesn't matter much
whether I was six or seven, or eight years old at the time. I find,
too, that I have omitted many things which perhaps deserved a place in
the book--scenes and events which are vividly remembered, but which
unfortunately did not come up at the right moment, and so were left

Of these scenes unconsciously omitted, I will now give one which
should have appeared in the chapter describing my first visit to
Buenos Ayres city: placed here it will serve very well as an
introduction to this last chapter.

In those days, and indeed down to the seventies of last century, the
south side of the capital was the site of the famous Saladero, or
killing-grounds, where the fat cattle, horses and sheep brought in
from all over the country were slaughtered every day, some to supply
the town with beef and mutton and to make _charque,_ or sun-dried
beef, for exportation to Brazil, where it was used to feed the slaves,
but the greater number of the animals, including all the horses, were
killed solely for their hides and tallow. The grounds covered a space
of three or four square miles, where there were cattle enclosures made
of upright posts placed close together, and some low buildings
scattered about To this spot were driven endless flocks of sheep, half
or wholly wild horses and dangerous-looking, long-horned cattle in
herds of a hundred or so to a thousand, each moving in its cloud of
dust, with noise of bellowings and bleatings and furious shouting of
the drovers as they galloped up and down, urging the doomed animals
on. When the beasts arrived in too great numbers to be dealt with in
the buildings, you could see hundreds of cattle being killed in the
open all over the grounds in the old barbarous way the gauchos use,
every animal being first lassoed, then hamstrung, then its throat cut
--a hideous and horrible spectacle, with a suitable accompaniment of
sounds in the wild shouts of the slaughterers and the awful bellowings
of the tortured beasts. Just where the animal was knocked down and
killed, it was stripped of its hide and the carcass cut up, a portion
of the flesh and the fat being removed and all the rest left on the
ground to be devoured by the pariah dogs, the carrion hawks, and a
multitude of screaming black-headed gulls always in attendance. The
blood so abundantly shed from day to day, mixing with the dust, had
formed a crust half a foot thick all over the open space: let the
reader try to imagine the smell of this crust and of tons of offal and
flesh and bones lying everywhere in heaps. But no, it cannot be
imagined. The most dreadful scenes, the worst in Dante's _Inferno_,
for example, can be visualized by the inner eye; and sounds, too, are
conveyed to us in a description so that they can be heard mentally;
but it is not so with smells. The reader can only take my word for it
that this smell was probably the worst ever known on the earth, unless
he accepts as true the story of Tobit and the "fishy fumes" by means
of which that ancient hero defended himself in his retreat from the
pursuing devil.

It was the smell of carrion, of putrifying flesh, and of that old and
ever-newly moistened crust of dust and coagulated blood. It was, or
seemed, a curiously substantial and stationary smell; travellers
approaching or leaving the capital by the great south road, which
skirted the killing-grounds, would hold their noses and ride a mile or
so at a furious gallop until they got out of the abominable stench.

One extraordinary feature of the private _quintas_ or orchards and
plantations in the vicinity of the Saladeros was the walls or hedges.
These were built entirely of cows' skulls, seven, eight, or nine deep,
placed evenly like stones, the horns projecting. Hundreds of thousands
of skulls had been thus used, and some of the old, very long walls,
crowned with green grass and with creepers and wild flowers growing
from the cavities in the bones, had a strangely picturesque but
somewhat uncanny appearance. As a rule there were rows of old Lombardy
poplars behind these strange walls or fences.

In those days bones were not utilized: they were thrown away, and
those who wanted walls in a stoneless land, where bricks and wood for
palings were dear to buy, found in the skulls a useful substitute.

The abomination I have described was but one of many--the principal
and sublime stench in a city of evil smells, a populous city built on
a plain without drainage and without water-supply beyond that which
was sold by watermen in buckets, each bucketful containing about half
a pound of red clay in solution. It is true that the best houses had
_algibes,_ or cisterns, under the courtyard, where the rainwater from
the flat roofs was deposited. I remember that water well: you always
had one or two to half-a-dozen scarlet wrigglers, the larvae of
mosquitoes, in a tumblerful, and you drank your water, quite calmly,
wrigglers and all!

All this will serve to give an idea of the condition of the city of
that time from the sanitary point of view, and this state of things
lasted down to the 'seventies of the last century, when Buenos Ayres
came to be the chief pestilential city of the globe and was obliged to
call in engineers from England to do something to save the inhabitants
from extinction.

When I was in my fifteenth year, before any changes had taken place
and the great outbreaks of cholera and yellow fever were yet to come,
I spent four or five weeks in the city, greatly enjoying the novel
scenes and new life. After about ten or twelve days I began to feel
tired and languid, and this feeling grew on me day by day until it
became almost painful to exert myself to visit even my most favoured
haunts--the great South Market, where cage-birds were to be seen in
hundreds, green paroquets, cardinals, and bishop-birds predominating;
or to the river front, where I spent much time fishing for little
silvery king-fishes from the rocks; or further away to the quintas and
gardens on the cliff, where I first feasted my eyes on the sight of
orange groves laden with golden fruit amidst the vivid green polished
foliage, and old olive trees with black egg-shaped fruit showing among
the grey leaves.

And through it all the feeling of lassitude continued, and was, I
thought, due to the fact that I was on foot instead of on horseback,
and walking on a stony pavement instead of on a green turf. It never
occurred to me that there might be another cause, that I was breathing
in a pestilential atmosphere and that the poison was working in me.

Leaving town I travelled by some conveyance to spend a night at a
friend's house, and next morning set out for home on horseback. I had
about twenty-seven miles across country to ride and never touched a
road, and I was no sooner on my way than my spirits revived; I was
well and unspeakably happy again, on horseback on the wide green
plain, drinking in the pure air like a draught of eternal life. It was
autumn, and the plain as far as one could see on every side a moist
brilliant green, with a crystal blue sky above, over which floated
shining white clouds. The healthy glad feeling lasted through my ride
and for a day or two after, during which I revisited my favourite
haunts in the grounds, rejoicing to be with my beloved birds and trees
once more.

Then the hateful town feeling of lassitude returned on me and all my
vigour was gone, all pleasure in life ended. Thereafter for a
fortnight I spent the time moping about the house; then there was a
spell of frosty weather with a bleak cutting wind to tell us that it
was winter, which even in those latitudes can be very cold. One day
after early dinner my mother and sisters went in the carriage to pay a
visit to a neighbouring estancia, and my brothers being out or absent
from home I was left alone. The verandah appeared to me the warmest
place I could find, as the sun shone on it warm and bright, and there
I settled down on a chair placed against the wall at the side of a
heap of sacks of meal or something which had been left there, and
formed a nice shelter from the wind.

The house was strangely quiet, and the westering sun shining full on
me made me feel quite comfortable, and in a little while I fell
asleep. The sun set and it grew bitterly cold, but I did not wake, and
when my mother returned and inquired for me I could not be found.
Finally the whole household turned out with lanterns and searched for
me up and down through the plantation, and the hunt was still going on
when, about ten o'clock at night, some one hurrying along the verandah
stumbled on me in my sheltered corner by the sacks, still in my chair
but unconscious and in a burning fever. It was the dread typhus, an
almost obsolete malady in Europe, and in fact in all civilized
countries, but not uncommon at that date in the pestilential city. It
was wonderful that I lived through it in a place where we were out of
reach of doctors and apothecaries, with only my mother's skill in
nursing and her knowledge of such drugs as were kept in the house to
save me. She nursed me day and night for the three weeks during which
the fever lasted, and when it left me, a mere shadow of my former
self, I was dumb-not even a little Yes or No could I articulate
however hard I tried, and it was at last concluded that I would never
speak again. However, after about a fortnight, the lost faculty came
back, to my mother's inexpressible joy.

Winter was nearing its end when one morning in late July I ventured
out of doors for the first time, though still but a skeleton, a shadow
of my former self. It was a windy day of brilliant sunshine, a day I
shall never forget, and the effect of the air and the sun and smell of
earth and early flowers, and the sounds of wild birds, with the sight
of the intensely green young grass and the vast crystal dome of heaven
above, was like deep draughts of some potent liquor that made the
blood dance in my veins. Oh what an inexpressible, immeasurable joy to
be alive and not dead, to have my feet still on the earth, and drink
in the wind and sunshine once more! But the pleasure was more than I
could endure in that feeble state; the chilly wind pierced me like
needles of ice, my senses swam, and I would have fallen to the ground
if my elder brother had not caught me in his arms and taken me back to
the house.

In spite of that fainting fit I was happy again with the old
happiness, and from day to day I regained strength, until one day in
early August I was suddenly reminded that it was my anniversary by my
brothers and sisters all coming to me with birthday presents, which
they had been careful to provide beforehand, and congratulations on my

Fifteen years old! This was indeed the most memorable day of my life,
for on that evening I began to think about myself, and my thoughts
were strange and unhappy thoughts to me-what I was, what I was in the
world for, what I wanted, what destiny was going to make of me! Or was
it for me to do just what I wished, to shape my own destiny, as my
elder brothers had done? It was the first time such questions had come
to me, and I was startled at them. It was as though I had only just
become conscious; I doubt that I had ever been fully conscious before.
I had lived till now in a paradise of vivid sense-impressions in which
all thoughts came to me saturated with emotion, and in that mental
state reflection is well-nigh impossible. Even the idea of death,
which had come as a surprise, had not made me reflect. Death was a
person, a monstrous being who had sprung upon me in my flowery
paradise and had inflicted a wound with a poisoned dagger in my flesh.
Then had come the knowledge of immortality for the soul, and the wound
was healed, or partly so, for a time at all events; after which the
one thought that seriously troubled me was that I could not always
remain a boy. To pass from boyhood to manhood was not so bad as dying;
nevertheless it was a change painful to contemplate. That everlasting
delight and wonder, rising to rapture, which was in the child and boy
would wither away and vanish, and in its place there would be that
dull low kind of satisfaction which men have in the set task, the
daily and hourly intercourse with others of a like condition, and in
eating and drinking and sleeping. I could not, for example, think of
so advanced an age as fifteen without the keenest apprehension. And
now I was actually at that age-at that parting of the ways, as it
seemed to me.

What, then, did I want?-what did I ask to have? If the question had
been put to me then, and if I had been capable of expressing what was
in me, I should have replied: I want only to keep what I have; to rise
each morning and look out on the sky and the grassy dew-wet earth from
day to day, from year to year. To watch every June and July for
spring, to feel the same old sweet surprise and delight at the
appearance of each familiar flower, every new-born insect, every bird
returned once more from the north. To listen in a trance of delight to
the wild notes of the golden plover coming once more to the great
plain, flying, flying south, flock succeeding flock the whole day
long. Oh, those wild beautiful cries of the golden plover! I could
exclaim with Hafiz, with but one word changed: "If after a thousand
years that sound should float o'er my tomb, my bones uprising in their
gladness would dance in the sepulchre!" To climb trees and put my hand
down in the deep hot nest of the Biente-veo and feel the hot eggs--the
five long pointed cream-coloured eggs with chocolate spots and
splashes at the larger end. To lie on a grassy bank with the blue
water between me and beds of tall bulrushes, listening to the
mysterious sounds of the wind and of hidden rails and coots and
courlans conversing together in strange human-like tones; to let my
sight dwell and feast on the _camalote_ flower amid its floating
masses of moist vivid green leaves--the large alamanda-like flower of
a purest divine yellow that when plucked sheds its lovely petals, to
leave you with nothing but a green stem in your hand. To ride at noon
on the hottest days, when the whole earth is a-glitter with illusory
water, and see the cattle and horses in thousands, covering the plain
at their watering-places; to visit some haunt of large birds at that
still, hot hour and see storks, ibises, grey herons, egrets of a
dazzling whiteness, and rose-coloured spoonbills and flamingoes,
standing in the shallow water in which their motionless forms are
reflected. To lie on my back on the rust-brown grass in January and
gaze up at the wide hot whitey-blue sky, peopled with millions and
myriads of glistening balls of thistle-down, ever, ever floating by;
to gaze and gaze until they are to me living things and I, in an
ecstasy, am with them, floating in that immense shining void!

And now it seemed that I was about to lose it--this glad emotion which
had made the world what it was to me, an enchanted realm, a nature at
once natural and supernatural; it would fade and lessen imperceptibly
day by day, year by year, as I became more and more absorbed in the
dull business of life, until it would be lost as effectually as if I
had ceased to see and hear and palpitate, and my warm body had grown
cold and stiff in death, and, like the dead and the living, I should
be unconscious of my loss.

It was not a unique nor a singular feeling: it is known to other boys,
as I have read and heard; also I have occasionally met with one who,
in a rare moment of confidence, has confessed that he has been
troubled at times at the thought of all he would lose. But I doubt
that it was ever more keenly felt than in my case; I doubt, too, that
it is common or strong in English boys, considering the conditions in
which they exist. For restraint is irksome to all beings, from a
black-beetle or an earthworm to an eagle, or, to go higher still in
the scale, to an orang-u-tan or a man; it is felt most keenly by the
young, in our species at all events, and the British boy suffers the
greatest restraint during the period when the call of nature, the
instincts of play and adventure, are most urgent. Naturally, he looks
eagerly forward to the time of escape, which he fondly imagines will
be when his boyhood is over and he is free of masters.

To come back to my own case: I did not and could not know that it was
an exceptional case, that my feeling for nature was something more
than the sense of pleasure in sun and rain and wind and earth and
water and in liberty of motion, which is universal in children, but
was in part due to a faculty which is not universal or common. The
fear, then, was an idle one, but I had good reason for it when I
considered how it had been with my elder brothers, who had been as
little restrained as myself, especially that masterful adventurous
one, now in a distant country thousands of miles from home, who, at
about the age at which I had now arrived, had made himself his own
master, to do what he liked with his own life. I had seen him at his
parting of the ways, how resolutely he had abandoned his open-air
habits, everything in fact that had been his delight, to settle down
to sheer hard mental work, and this at our home on the pampas where
there were no masters, and even the books and instruments required for
his studies could only be procured with great difficulty and after
long delays. I remember one afternoon when we were gathered in the
dining-room for tea, he was reading, and my mother coming in looked
over his shoulder and said, "You are reading a novel: don't you think
all that romantic stuff will take your mind off your studies?"

Now he'll flare up, said I to myself; he's so confoundedly independent
and touchy no one can say a word to him. It surprised me when he
answered quietly, "Yes, mother, I know, but I must finish this book
now; it will be the last novel I shall read for some years." And so it
was, I believe.

His resolution impressed us even more in another matter. He had an
extraordinary talent for inventing stories, mostly of wars and wild
adventures with plenty of fighting in them, and whenever we boys were
all together, which was usually after we had gone to bed and put the
candle out, he would begin one of his wonderful tales and go on for
hours, we all wide awake, listening in breathless silence. At length
towards midnight the flow of the narrative would suddenly stop, and
after an interval we would all begin to cry out to him to go on. "Oh,
you are awake!" he would exclaim, with a chuckle of laughter. "Very
well, then, you know just where we are in our history, to be resumed
another day. Now you can go to sleep." On the following evening he
would take up the tale, which would often last an entire week, to be
followed by another just as long, then another, and so on-our thousand
and one nights. And this delightful yarn-spinning was also dropped as
he became more and more absorbed in his mathematical and other

To this day I can recall portions of those tales, especially those in
which birds and beasts instead of men were the actors, and so much did
we miss them that sometimes when we were all assembled of an afternoon
we would start begging him for a story---"just one more, and the
longer the better," we would say to tempt him. And he, a little
flattered at our keen appreciation of his talent as a yarn-spinner,
would appear inclined to yield. "Well, now, what story shall I tell
you?" he would say; and then, just when we were settling down to
listen, he would shout, "No, no, no more stories," and to put the
matter from him he would snatch up a book and order us to hold our
tongues or clear out of the room!

It was not for me to follow his lead; I had not the intellect or
strength of will for such tasks, and not only on that memorable
evening of my anniversary, but for days afterwards I continued in a
troubled state of mind, ashamed of my ignorance, my indolence, my
disinclination to any kind of mental work-ashamed even to think that
my delight in nature and wish for no other thing in life was merely
due to the fact that while the others were putting away childish
things as they grew up, I alone refused to part with them.

The result of all these deliberations was that I temporized: I would
not, I could not, give up the rides and rambles that took up most of
my time, but I would try to overcome my disinclination to serious
reading. There were plenty of books in the house-it was always a
puzzle to me how we came to have so many. I was familiar with their
appearance on the shelves-they had been before me since I first opened
my eyes---their shape, size, colour, even their titles, and that was
all I knew about them. A general Natural History and two little works
by James Ronnie on the habits and faculties of birds was all the
literature suited to my wants in the entire collection of three or
four hundred volumes. For the rest, I had read a few story-books and
novels: but we had no novels; when one came into the house it would be
read and lent to our next neighbour five or six miles away, and he in
turn would lend to another, twenty miles further on, and so on until
it disappeared in space.

I made a beginning with Rollin's _Ancient History_ in two huge quarto
volumes; I fancy it was the large clear type and numerous plates which
illustrated it that determined my choice. Rollin, the good old priest,
opened a new wonderful world to me, and instead of the tedious task I
had feared the reading would prove, it was as delightful as it had
formerly been to listen to my brother's endless histories of imaginary
heroes and their wars and adventures.

Still athirst for history, after finishing Rollin I began fingering
other works of that kind: there was Whiston's Josephus, too ponderous
a book to be held in the hands when read out of doors; and there was
Gibbon in six stately volumes. I was not yet able to appreciate the
lofty artificial style, and soon fell on something better suited to my
boyish taste in letters---a History of Christianity in, I think,
sixteen or eighteen volumes of a convenient size. The simple natural
diction attracted me, and I was soon convinced that I could not have
stumbled on more fascinating reading than the lives of the Fathers of
the Church included in some of the earlier volumes, especially that of
Augustine, the greatest of all: how beautiful and marvellous his life
was, and his mother Monica's! what wonderful books he wrote!-his
_Confessions and City of God_ from which long excerpts were given
in this volume.

These biographies sent me to another old book, _Leland on Revelation_,
which told me much I was curious to know about the mythologies and
systems of philosophy of the ancients--the innumerable false cults
which had flourished in a darkened world before the dawn of the true

Next came _Carlyle's French Revolution_ and at last Gibbon, and I was
still deep in the _Decline and Fall_ when disaster came to us: my
father was practically ruined, owing, as I have said in a former
chapter, to his childlike trust in his fellow-men, and we quitted the
home he had counted as a permanent one, which in due time would have
become his property had he but made his position secure by a proper
deed on first consenting to take over the place in its then ruinous

Thus ended, sadly enough, the enchanting years of my boyhood; and
here, too, the book should finish: but having gone so far, I will
venture a little further and give a brief account of what followed and
the life which, for several succeeding years, was to be mine--the
life, that is to say, of the mind and spirit.



A severe illness-Case pronounced hopeless-How it affected me-Religious
doubts and a mind distressed-Lawless thoughts--Conversation with an
old gaucho about religion--George Combe and the desire for

After we had gone back impoverished to our old home where I first saw
the light-which was still my father's property and all he had left-I
continued my reading, and was so taken up with the affairs of the
universe, seen and unseen, that I did not feel the change in our
position and comforts too greatly. I took my share in the rough work
and was much out-of-doors on horseback looking after the animals, and
not unhappy. I was already very tall and thin at that time, in my
sixteenth year, still growing rapidly, and though athletic, it was
probable that some weakness had been left in me by the fever. At all
events, I had scarcely settled down to the new way of life before a
fresh blow fell upon me, a malady which, though it failed to kill me,
yet made shipwreck of all my new-born earthly hopes and dreams, and a
dismal failure of my after life.

One day I undertook, unaided, to drive home a small troop of cattle we
had purchased at a distance of a good many leagues, and was in the
saddle from morning till after dark in a continuous flooding rain and
violent wind. The wind was against me, and the beasts were incessantly
trying to turn and rush back to the place they had been taken from,
and the fight with wind and cattle went wearily on, the driving rain
gradually soaking through my woollen poncho, theft through my clothes
to my skin, and trickling down until my long boots were full and
slopping over at the knees. For the last half of that midwinter day my
feet and legs were devoid of feeling. The result of it was rheumatic
fever and years of bad health, with constant attacks of acute pain and
violent palpitation of the heart which would last for hours at a
stretch. From time to time I was sent or taken to consult a doctor in
the city, and in that way from first to last I was in the hands of
pretty well all the English doctors in the place, but they did me no
permanent good, nor did they say anything to give me a hope of
complete recovery. Eventually we were told that it was a practically
hopeless case, that I had "outgrown my strength," and had a
permanently bad heart and might drop down at any moment.

Naturally this pronouncement had a most disastrous effect on me. That
their diagnosis proved in the end to be wrong mattered nothing, since
the injury had been done and could not be undone if I lived a century.
For the blow had fallen at the most critical period in life, the
period of transition when the newly-awakened mind is in its freshest,
most receptive stage, and is most curious, most eager, when knowledge
is most readily assimilated, and, above everything, when the
foundations of character and the entire life of the man are laid.

I speak, it will be understood, of a mind that had not been trained or
pressed into a mould or groove by schoolmasters and schools-of a mind
that was a forest wilding rather than a plant, one in ten thousand
like it, grown under glass in a prepared soil, in a nursery.

That I had to say good-bye to all thoughts of a career, all bright
dreams of the future which recent readings had put into my mind, was
not felt as the chief loss, it was in fact a small matter compared
with the dreadful thought that I must soon resign this earthly life
which was so much more to me, as I could not help thinking, than to
most others. I was like that young man with a ghastly face I had seen
bound to a post in our barn; or like any wretched captive, tied hand
and foot and left to lie there until it suited his captor to come back
and cut his throat or thrust him through with a spear, or cut him into
strips with a sword, in a leisurely manner so as to get all the
satisfaction possible out of the exercise of his skill and the
spectacle of gushing blood and his victim's agony.

Nor was this all nor even the worst which had befallen me; I now
discovered that in spite of all my strivings after the religious mind,
that old dread of annihilation which I had first experienced as a
small child was not dead as I had fondly imagined, but still lived and
worked in me. This visible world--this paradise of which I had had so
far but a fleeting glimpse-the sun and moon and other worlds peopling
all space with their brilliant constellations, and still other suns
and systems, so utterly remote, in such inconceivable numbers as to
appear to our vision as a faint luminous mist in the sky-all this
universe which had existed for millions and billions of ages, or from
eternity, would have existed in vain, since now it was doomed with my
last breath, my last gleam of consciousness, to come to nothing. For
that was how the thought of death presented itself to me.

Against this appalling thought I struggled with all my power, and
prayed and prayed again, morning, noon and night, wrestling with God,
as the phrase was, trying as it were to wring something from His hands
which would save me, and which He, for no reason that I could
discover, withheld from me.

It was not strange in these circumstances that I became more and more
absorbed in the religious literature of which we had a good amount on
our bookshelves--theology, sermons, meditations for every day in the
year, _The Whole Duty of Man, A Call to the Unconverted_, and many
other old works of a similar character.

Among these I found one entitled, if I remember rightly, _An Answer
to the Infidel_, and this work, which I took up eagerly in the
expectation that it would allay those maddening doubts perpetually
rising in my mind and be a help and comfort to me, only served to make
matters worse, at all events for a time. For in this book I was first
made acquainted with many of the arguments of the freethinkers, both
of the Deists who were opposed to the Christian creed, and of those
who denied the truth of all supernatural religion. And the answers to
the arguments were not always convincing. It was idle, then, to seek
for proofs in the books. The books themselves, after all their
arguments, told me as much when they said that only by faith could a
man be saved. And to the sad question: "How was it to be attained?"
the only answer was, by striving and striving until it came. And as
there was nothing else to do I continued striving, with the result
that I believed and did not believe, and my soul, or rather my hope of
immortality, trembled in the balance.

This, from first to last, was the one thing that mattered; so much was
it to me that in reading one of the religious books entitled _The
Saints' Everlasting Rest_, in which the pious author, Richard Baxter,
expatiates on and labours to make his readers realize the condition of
the eternally damned, I have said to myself: "If an angel, or one
returned from the dead, could come to assure me that life does not end
with death, that we mortals are destined to live for ever, but that
for me there can be no blessed hereafter on account of my want of
faith, and because I loved or worshipped Nature rather than the Author
of my being, it would be, not a message of despair, but of
consolation; for in that dreadful place to which I should be sent, I
should be alive and not dead, and have my memories of earth, and
perhaps meet and have communion there with others of like mind with
myself, and with recollections like mine."

This was but one of many lawless thoughts which assailed me at this
time. Another, very persistent, was the view I took of the sufferings
of the Saviour of mankind. Why, I asked, were they made so much of?---
why was it said that He suffered as no man had suffered? It was
nothing but the physical pain which thousands and millions have had to
endure! And if I could be as sure of immortality as Jesus, death would
be to me no more than the prick of a thorn. What would it matter to be
nailed to a cross and perish in a slow agony if I believed that, the
agony over, I should sit down refreshed to sup in paradise? The worst
of it was that when I tried to banish these bitter, rebellious ideas,
taking them to be the whisperings of the Evil One, as the books
taught, the quick reply would come that the supposed Evil One was
nothing but the voice of my own reason striving to make itself heard.

But the contest could not be abandoned; devil or reason, or whatever
it was, must be overcome, else there was no hope for me; and such is
the powerful effect of fixing all one's thoughts on one object,
assisted no doubt by the reflex effect on the mind of prayer, that in
due time I did succeed in making myself believe all I wished to
believe, and had my reward, since after many days or weeks of mental
misery there would come beautiful intervals of peace and of more than
peace, a new and surprising experience, a state of exaltation, when it
would seem to me that I was lifted or translated into a purely
spiritual atmosphere and was in communion and one with the unseen

It was wonderful. At last and for ever my Dark Night of the Soul was
over; no more bitter broodings and mocking whispers and shrinking from
the awful phantom of death continually hovering near me; and, above
all, no more "difficulties"--the rocky barriers I had vainly beat and
bruised myself against. For I had been miraculously lifted over them
and set safely down on the other side, where it was all plain walking.

Unhappily, these blissful intervals would not last long. A
recollection of something I had heard or read would come back to
startle me out of the confident happy mood; reason would revive as
from a benumbed or hypnotized condition, and the mocking voice would
be heard telling me that I had been under a delusion. Once more I
would abhor and shudder at the black phantom, and when the thought of
annihilation was most insistent, I would often recall the bitter,
poignant words about death and immortality spoken to me about two
years before by an old gaucho landowner who had been our neighbour in
my former home.

He was a rough, rather stern-looking man, with a mass of silver-white
hair and grey eyes; a gaucho in his dress and primitive way of life,
the owner of a little land and a few animals-the small remnant of the
estancia which had once belonged to his people. But he was a vigorous
old man, who spent half of his day on horseback, looking after the
animals, his only living. One day he was at our house, and coming out
to where I was doing something in the grounds, he sat down on a bench
and called me to him. I went gladly enough, thinking that he had some
interesting bird news to give me. He remained silent for some time,
smoking a cigar, and staring at the sky as if watching the smoke
vanish in the air. At length he opened fire.

"Look," he said, "you are only a boy, but you can tell me something I
don't know. Your parents read books, and you listen to their
conversation and learn things. We are Roman Catholics, and you are
Protestants. We call you heretics and say that for such there is no
salvation. Now I want you to tell me what is the difference between
our religion and yours."

I explained the matter as well as I knew how, and added, somewhat
maliciously, that the main difference was his religion was a corrupt
form of Christianity and ours a pure one.

This had no effect on him; he went on smoking and staring at the sky
as if he hadn't heard me. Then he began again: "Now I know. These
differences are nothing to me, and though I was curious to know what
they were, they are not worth talking about, because, as I know, all
religions are false."

"What did he mean--how did he know?" I asked, very much surprised.

"The priests tell us," he replied, "that we must believe and live a
religious life in this world to be saved. Your priests tell you the
same, and as there is no other world and we have no souls, all they
say must be false. You see all this with your eyes," he continued,
waving his hands to indicate the whole visible world. "And when you
shut them or go blind you see no more. It is the same with our brains.
We think of a thousand things and remember, and when the brain decays
we forget everything, and we die, and everything dies with us. Have
not the cattle eyes to see and brains to think and remember too? And
when they die no priest tells us that they have a soul and have to go
to purgatory, or wherever he likes to send them. Now, in return for
what you told me, I've told you something you didn't know."

It came as a great shock to me to hear this. Hitherto I had thought
that what was wrong with our native friends was that they believed too
much, and this man--this good honest old gaucho we all respected--
believed nothing! I tried to argue with him and told him he had said a
dreadful thing, since every one knew in his heart that he had an
immortal soul and had to be judged after death. He had distressed and
even frightened me, but he went on calmly smoking and appeared not to
be listening to me, and as he refused to speak I at last burst out:
"How do you know? Why do you say you know?"

At last he spoke. "Listen. I was once a boy too, and I know that a boy
of fourteen can understand things as well as a man. I was an only
child, and my mother was a widow, and I was more than all the world to
her, and she was more than everything else to me. We were alone
together in the world--we two. Then she died, and what her loss was to
me--how can I say it?--how could you understand? And after she was
taken away and buried, I said: 'She is not dead, and wherever she now
is, in heaven or in purgatory, or in the sun, she will remember and
come to me and comfort me.' When it was dark I went out alone and sat
at the end of the house, and spent hours waiting for her. 'She will
surely come,' I said, 'but I don't know whether I shall see her or
not. Perhaps it will be just a whisper in my ear, perhaps a touch of
her hand on mine, but I shall know that she is with me.' And at last,
worn out with waiting and watching, I went to my bed and said she will
come to-morrow. And the next night and the next it was the same.
Sometimes I would go up the ladder, always standing against the gable
so that one could go up, and standing on the roof, look out over the
plain and see where our horses were grazing. There I would sit or lie
on the thatch for hours. And I would cry: 'Come to me, my mother! I
cannot live without you! Come soon-come soon, before I die of a broken
heart!' That was my cry every night, until worn out with my vigil I
would go back to my room. And she never came, and at last I knew that
she was dead and that we were separated for ever--that there is no
life after death."

His story pierced me to the heart, and without another word I left
him, but I succeeded in making myself believe that grief for his
mother had made him mad, that as a boy he had got these delusions in
his mind and had kept them all his life. Now this recollection haunted
me. Then one day, with my mind in this troubled state, in reading
George Combe's Physiology I came on a passage in which the question of
the desire for immortality is discussed, his contention being that it
is not universal, and as a proof of this he affirms that he himself
had no such desire.

This came as a great shock to me, since up to the moment of reading it
I had in my ignorance taken It for granted that the desire is inherent
in every human being from the dawn of consciousness to the end of
life, that it is our chief desire, and is an instinct of the soul like
that physical instinct of the migratory bird which calls it annually
from the most distant regions back to its natal home. I had also taken
it for granted that our hope of immortality, or rather our belief in
it, was founded on this same passion in us and in its universality.
The fact that there were those who had no such desire was sufficient
to show that it was no spiritual instinct or not of divine origin.

There were many more shocks of this kind--when I go back in memory to
that sad time, it seems almost incredible to me that that poor
doubtful faith in revealed religion still survived, and that the
struggle still went on, but go on it certainly did.

To many of my readers, to all who have interested themselves in the
history of religion and its effect on individual minds--its
psychology--all I have written concerning my mental condition at that
period, will come as a twice-told tale, since thousands and millions
of men have undergone similar experiences and have related them in
numberless books. And here I must beg my reader to bear in mind that
in the days of my youth we had not yet fallen into the indifference
and scepticism which now infects the entire Christian world. In those
days people still believed; and here in England, in the very centre
and mind of the world, many thousands of miles from my rude
wilderness, the champions of the Church were in deadly conflict with
the Evolutionists. I knew nothing about all that: I had no modern
books--those we had were mostly about a hundred years old. My fight up
to this period was all on the old lines, and on this account I have
related it as briefly as possible; but it had to be told, since it
comes into the story of the development of my mind at that period. I
have no doubt that my sufferings through these religious experiences
were far greater than in the majority of cases, and this for the
special reason which I have already intimated.



The soul's loneliness--My mother and her death-A mother's love for her
son--Her character-Anecdotes-A mystery and a revelation--The autumnal
migration of birds--Moonlight vigils--My absent brother's return--He
introduces me to Darwin's works--A new philosophy of life--Conclusion.

The mournful truth that a man--every man-must die alone, had been
thrust sharply into my mind and kept there by the frequent violent
attacks of my malady I suffered at that time, every one of which
threatened to be the last. And this sense and apprehension of
loneliness at the moment of the severance of all earthly ties and
parting with light and life, was perhaps the cause of the idea or
notion which possessed me, that in all our most intimate thoughts and
reflections concerning our destiny and our deepest emotions, we are
and must be alone. Anyhow, in so far as these matters are concerned, I
never had nor desired a confidant. In this connection I recall the
last words spoken to me by my younger brother, the being I loved best
on earth at that time and the one I had been more intimate with than
with any other person I have ever known. This was after the dark days
and years had been overpass, when I had had long periods of fairly
good health and had known happiness in the solitary places I loved to
haunt, communing with wild nature, with wild birds for company.

He was with me in the ship in which I had taken my passage "home," as
I insisted on calling England, to his amusement, and when we had
grasped hands for the last time and had said our last good-bye, he
added this one more last word: "Of all the people I have ever known
you are the only one I don't know."

It was a word, I imagine, never spoken by a mother of a loved son, her
insight, born of her exceeding love, being so much greater than that
of the closest friend and brother. I never breathed a word of my
doubts and mental agonizing to my mother; I spoke to her only of my
bodily sufferings; yet she knew it all, and I knew that she knew. And
because she knew and understood the temper of my mind as well, she
never questioned, never probed, but invariably when alone with me she
would with infinite tenderness in her manner touch on spiritual things
and tell me of her own state, the consolations of her faith which gave
her peace and strength in all our reverses and anxieties.

I knew, too, that her concern at my state was the greater because it
was not her first experience of a trouble of this kind. My elder long-
absent brother had scarcely ceased to be a boy before throwing off all
belief in the Christian creed and congratulating himself on having got
rid of old wives' fables, as he scornfully expressed it. But never a
word did he say to her of this change, and without a word she knew it,
and when she spoke to us on the subject nearest to her heart and he
listened in respectful silence, she knew the thought and feeling--that
was in him-that he loved her above everybody but was free of her

He had been able to cast it off with a light heart because of his
perfect health, since in that condition death is not in the mind--the
mind refuses to admit the thought of it, so remote is it in that state
that we regard ourselves as practically immortal. And, untroubled by
that thought, the mind is clear and vigorous and unfettered. What, I
have asked myself, even when striving after faith, would faith in
another world have mattered to me if I had not been suddenly sentenced
to an early death, when the whole desire of my soul was life, nothing
but life--to live for ever!

Then my mother died. Her perfect health failed her suddenly, and her
decline was not long. But she suffered much, and on the last occasion
of my being with her at her bedside she told me that she was very
tired and had no fear of death, and would be glad to go but for the
thought of leaving me in such a precarious state of health and with a
mind distressed. Even then she put no questions to me, but only
expressed the hope that her prayers for me would be answered and that
at the last we should be together again.

I cannot say, as I might say in the case of any other relation or
friend, that I had lost her. A mother's love for the child of her body
differs essentially from all other affections, and burns with so clear
and steady a flame that it appears like the one unchangeable thing in
this earthly mutable life, so that when she is no longer present it is
still a light to our steps and a consolation.

It came to me as a great surprise a few years ago to have my secret
and most cherished feelings about my own mother expressed to me as I
had never heard them expressed before by a friend who, albeit still
young, has made himself a name in the world, one who had never known a
mother, she having died during his infancy. He lamented that it had
been so, not only on account of the motherless childhood and boyhood
he had known, but chiefly because in after life it was borne in on him
that he had been deprived of something infinitely precious which
others have--the enduring and sustaining memory of a love which is
unlike any other love known to mortals, and is almost a sense and
prescience of immortality.

In reading, nothing goes to my heart like any true account of a mother
and son's love for one another, such as we find in that true book I
have already spoken of in a former chapter, Serge Aksakoff's _History
of my Childhood_. Of other books I may cite Leigh Hunt's
_Autobiography_ in the early chapters. Reading the incidents he
records of his mother's love and pity for all in trouble and her self-
sacrificing acts, I have exclaimed: "How like my mother! It is just
how she would have acted!" I will give an instance here of her loving-

Some days after her death I had occasion to go to the house of one of
our native neighbours--the humble rancho of poor people. It was not in
my mind at the moment that I had not seen these people since my mother
died, and on coming into the living-room the old mother of the family,
who had grandchildren of my age, rose from her seat with tottering
steps to meet me, and taking my hand in hers, with tears streaming
from her eyes, cried: "She has left us! She who called me mother on
account of my years and her loving heart. It was she who was my mother
and the mother of us all. What shall we do without her?"

Only after going out and getting on my horse it occurred to me that
the old woman's memory went back to the time when she first knew my
mother, a girl-wife, many years before I was born. She could remember
numerous acts of love and compassion: that when one of her daughters
died in childbirth in that very house, my mother, who was just then
nursing me, went to give them whatever aid and comfort she could, and
finding the child alive, took it home and nursed it, with me, at her
own breasts for several days until a nurse was found.

From the time when I began to think for myself I used to wonder at her
tolerance; for she was a saint in her life, spiritually-minded in the
highest degree. To her, a child of New England parents and ancestors,
reared in an intensely religious atmosphere, the people of the pampas
among whom her lot was cast must have appeared almost like the
inhabitants of another world. They were as strange to her soul,
morally and spiritually, as they were unlike her own people outwardly
in language, dress, and customs. Yet she was able to affiliate with
them, to visit and sit at ease with them in their lowliest ranches,
interesting herself as much in their affairs as if she belonged to
them. This sympathy and freedom endeared her to them, and it was a
grief to some who were much attached to her that she was not of their
faith. She was a Protestant, and what that exactly meant they didn't
know, but they supposed it was something very bad. Protestants, some
of them held, had been concerned in the crucifixion of the Saviour; at
all events, they would not go to mass or confessional, and despised
the saints, those glorified beings who, under the Queen of Heaven, and
with the angels, were the guardians of Christian souls in this life
and their intercessors in the next. They were anxious to save her, and
when I was born, the same old dame I have told about a page or two
back, finding that I had come into the world on St. Dominic's Day, set
herself to persuade my mother to name me after that saint, that being
the religious custom of the country. For if they should succeed in
this it would be taken as a sign of grace, that she was not a despiser
of the saints and her case hopeless. But my mother had already fixed
on a name for me and would not change it for another, even to please
her poor neighbours--certainly not for such a name as Dominic; perhaps
there is not one in the calendar more obnoxious to heretics of all

They were much hurt-it was the only hurt she ever caused them-and the
old dame and some of her people, who had thought the scheme too good
to be dropped altogether, insisted always on calling me Dominic!

My mother's sympathy and love for everybody appeared, too, in the
hospitality she delighted to exercise. That, indeed, was the common
virtue of the country, especially in the native population; but from
all my experience during my wanderings on these great plains in
subsequent years, when every night would find me a guest in a
different establishment, I never saw anything quite on a par with my
parents' hospitality. Nothing seemed to make them happier than having
strangers and travellers taking their rest with us; there were also a
good number of persons who were accustomed to make periodical visits
to the city from the southern part of the province who, after a night
with us, with perhaps half a day's rest to follow, would make our
house a regular resting-place. But no distinctions were made. The
poorest, even men who would be labelled tramps in England, travellers
on foot perhaps where cattle made it dangerous to be on foot, would be
made as welcome as those of a better class. Our delight as children,
loving fun too well, was when we had a guest of this humble
description at the supper-table. Settling down in our places at the
long table laden with good things, a stern admonitory glance from our
father would let us into the secret of the new guest's status--his
unsuitability to his surroundings. It was great fun to watch him
furtively and listen to his blundering conversational efforts, but we
knew that the least sound of a titter on our part would have been an
unpardonable offence. The poor and more uncouth, or ridiculous, from
our childish point of view, they appeared, the more anxious my mother
would be to put them at their ease. And she would sometimes say to us
afterwards that she could not laugh with us because she remembered the
poor fellow probably had a mother somewhere in a distant country who
was perhaps thinking of him at the very time he was at the table with
us, and hoping and praying that in his wanderings he would meet with
some who would be kind to him.

I remember many of these chance guests, and will give a particular
account of one--the guest and the evening we passed in his company--as
this survives with a peculiar freshness in my memory, and it was also
a cherished recollection of my mother's.

I was then nine or ten years old, and our guest was a young Spanish
gentleman, singularly handsome, with a most engaging expression and
manner. He was on a journey from Buenos Ayres to a part in our
province some sixty or seventy leagues further south, and after asking
permission to pass the night at our house, he explained that he had
only one horse, as he liked that way of travelling rather than the
native way of driving a _tropilla_ before him, going at a furious
gallop from dawn to dark, and changing horses every three or four
leagues. Having but one horse, he had to go in a leisurely way with
many rests, and he liked to call at many houses every day just to talk
with the people.

After supper, during which he charmed us with his conversation and
pure Castilian, which was like music as he spoke it, we formed a
circle before a wood fire in the dining-room and made him take the
middle seat. For he had confessed that he performed on the guitar, and
we all wanted to sit where we could see as well as listen. He tuned
the instrument in a leisurely way, pausing often to continue the
conversation with my parents, until at last, seeing how eager we all
were, he began to play, and his music and style were strange to us,
for he had no jigging tunes with fantastic flights and flourishes so
much affected by our native guitarists. It was beautiful but serious

Then came another long pause and he talked again, and said the pieces
he had been playing were composed by his chief favourite, Sarasate.
He said that Sarasate had been one of the most famous guitarists in
Spain, and had composed a good deal of music for the guitar before he
had given it up for the violin. As a violinist he would win a European
reputation, but in Spain they were sorry that he had abandoned the
national instrument.

All he said was interesting, but we wanted more and more of his music,
and he played less and less and at longer intervals, and at last he
put the guitar down, and turning to my parents, said with a smile that
he begged to be excused--that he could play no more for thinking. He
owed it to them, he said, to tell them what he was thinking about;
they would then know how much they had done for his pleasure that
evening and how he appreciated it. He was, he continued, one of a
large family, very united, all living with their parents at home; and
in winter, which was cold in his part of Spain, their happiest time
was in the evening when they would gather before a big fire of oak
logs in their _solar_ and pass the time with books and conversation
and a little music and singing. Naturally, since he had left his
country years ago, the thought of that time and those evenings had
occasionally been in his mind--a passing thought and memory. On this
evening it had come in a different way, less like a memory than a
revival of the past, so that as he sat there among us, he was a boy
back in Spain once more, sitting by the fire with his brothers and
sisters and parents. With that feeling in him he could not go on
playing. And he thought it most strange that such an experience should
have come to him for the first time in that place out on that great
naked pampa, sparsely inhabited, where life was so rough, so

And while he talked we all listened--how eagerly!--drinking in his
words, especially my mother, her eyes bright with the moisture rising
in them; and she often afterwards recalled that evening guest, who was
seen no more by us but had left an enduring image in our hearts.

This is a picture of my mother as she appeared to all who knew her. In
my individual case there was more, a secret bond of union between us,
since she best understood my feeling for Nature and sense of beauty,
and recognized that in this I was nearest to her. Thus, besides and
above the love of mother and son, we had a spiritual kinship, and this
was so much to me that everything beautiful in sight or sound that
affected me came associated with her to my mind. I have found this
feeling most perfectly expressed in some lines to the Snowdrop by our
lost poet, Dolben. I am in doubt, he wrote,

     If summer brings a flower so lovable
     Of such a meditative restfulness
     As this, with all her roses and carnations.
     The morning hardly stirs their noiseless bells;
     Yet could I fancy that they whispered "Home,"
     For all things gentle, all things beautiful,
     I hold, my mother, for a part of thee.

So have I held. All things beautiful, but chiefly flowers. Her feeling
for them was little short of adoration. Her religious mind appeared to
regard them as little voiceless messengers from the Author of our
beings and of Nature, or as divine symbols of a place and a beauty
beyond our power to imagine.

I think it likely that when Dolben penned those lines to the Snowdrop
it was in his mind that this was one of his mother's favourites. My
mother had her favourites too; not the roses and carnations in our
gardens, but mostly among the wild flowers growing on the pampas--
flowers which I never see in England. But I remember them, and if by
some strange chance I should find myself once more in that distant
region, I should go out in search of them, and seeing them again, feel
that I was communing with her spirit.

These memories of my mother are a relief to me in recalling that
melancholy time, the years of my youth that were wasted and worse,
considering their effect and that the very thought of that period,
which is to others the fullest, richest, and happiest in life, has
always been painful to me. Yet to it I am now obliged to return for
the space of two or three pages to relate how I eventually came out of

My case was not precisely like that of Cooper's Castaway, but rather
like that of a fugitive from his ship on some tropical coast who, on
swimming to the shore, finds himself in a mangrove swamp, waist-deep
in mire, tangled in rope-like roots, straining frantically to escape
his doom.

I have told how after my fifteenth anniversary, when I first began to
reflect seriously on my future life, the idea still persisted that my
perpetual delight in Nature was nothing more than a condition or phase
of my child's and boy's mind, and would inevitably fade out in time. I
might have guessed at an earlier date that this was a delusion, since
the feeling had grown in strength with the years, but it was only
after I took to reading at the beginning of my sixteenth year that I
discovered its true character. One of the books I read then for the
first time was White's Selborne, given to me by an old friend of our
family, a merchant in Buenos Ayres, who had been accustomed to stay a
week or two with us once a year when he took his holiday. He had been
on a visit to Europe, and one day, he told me, when in London on the
eve of his departure, he was in a bookshop, and seeing this book on
the counter and glancing at a page or two, it occurred to him that it
was just the right thing to get for that bird-loving boy out on the
pampas. I read and re-read it many times, for nothing so good of its
kind had ever come to me, but it did not reveal to me the secret of my
own feeling for Nature--the feeling of which I was becoming more and
more conscious, which was a mystery to me, especially at certain
moments, when it would come upon me with a sudden rush. So powerful it
was, so unaccountable, I was actually afraid of it, yet I would go out
of my way to seek it. At the hour of sunset I would go out half a mile
or so from the house, and sitting on the dry grass with hands clasped
round my knees, gaze at the western sky, waiting for it to take me.
And I would ask myself: What does it mean? But there was no answer to
that in any book concerning the "life and conversation of animals." I
found it in other works: in Brown's Philosophy--another of the ancient
tomes on our shelves--and in an old volume containing appreciations of
the early nineteenth-century poets; also in other works. They did not
tell me in so many words that it was the mystical faculty in me which
produced those strange rushes or bursts of feeling and lifted me out
of myself at moments; but what I found in their words was sufficient
to show me that the feeling of delight in Nature was an enduring one,
that others had known it, and that it had been a secret source of
happiness throughout their lives.

This revelation, which in other circumstances would have made me
exceedingly happy, only added to my misery when, as it appeared, I had
only a short time to live. Nature could charm, she could enchant me,
and her wordless messages to my soul were to me sweeter than honey and
the honeycomb, but she could not take the sting and victory from
death, and I had perforce to go elsewhere for consolation. Yet even
so, in my worst days, my darkest years, when occupied with the
laborious business of working out my own salvation with fear and
trembling, with that spectre of death always following me, even so I
could not rid my mind of its old passion and delight. The rising and
setting sun, the sight of a lucid blue sky after cloud and rain, the
long unheard familiar call-note of some newly-returned migrant, the
first sight of some flower in spring, would bring back the old emotion
and would be like a sudden ray of sunlight in a dark place--a
momentary intense joy, to be succeeded by ineffable pain. Then there
were times when these two opposite feelings mingled and would be
together in my mind for hours at a time, and this occurred oftenest
during the autumnal migration, when the great wave of bird-life set
northwards, and all through March and April the birds were visible in
flock succeeding flock from dawn to dark, until the summer visitants
were all gone, to be succeeded in May by the birds from the far south,
flying from the Antarctic winter.

This annual spectacle had always been a moving one, but the feeling it
now produced--this mingled feeling--was most powerful on still
moonlight nights, when I would sit or lie on my bed gazing out on the
prospect, earth and sky, in its changed mysterious aspect. And, lying
there, I would listen by the hour to the three-syllable call-note of
the upland or solitary plover, as the birds went past, each bird alone
far up in the dim sky, winging his way to the north. It was a strange
vigil I kept, stirred by strange thoughts and feelings, in that
moonlit earth that was strange too, albeit familiar, for never before
had the sense of the supernatural in Nature been stronger. And the
bird I listened to, that same solitary plover I had known and admired
from my earliest years, the most graceful of birds, beautiful to see
and hear when it would spring up before my horse with its prolonged
wild bubbling cry of alarm and go away with swift, swallow-like
flight--what intensity and gladness of life was in it, what a
wonderful inherited knowledge in its brain, and what an inexhaustible
vigour in its slender frame to enable it to perform that annual double
journey of upwards of ten thousand miles! What a joy it would be to
live for ages in a world of such fascinating phenomena! If some great
physician, wise beyond all others, infallible, had said to me that all
my doctors had been wrong, that, barring accidents, I had yet fifty
years to live, or forty, or even thirty, I should have worshipped him
and would have counted myself the happiest being on the globe, with so
many autumns and winters and springs and summers to see yet.

With these supernatural moonlight nights I finish the story of that
dark time, albeit the darkness had not yet gone; to have recalled it
and related it briefly as I could once in my life is enough. Let me
now go back to the simile of the lost wretch struggling for life in
the mangrove swamp. The first sense of having set my foot on a firmer
place in that slough of fetid slime, of a wholesome breath of air
blown to me from outside the shadow of the black abhorred forest, was
when I began to experience intervals of relief from physical pain,
when these grew more and more frequent and would extend to entire
days, then to weeks, and for a time I would become oblivious of my
precarious state. I was still and for a long time subject to attacks,
when the pain was intolerable and was like steel driven into my heart,
always followed by violent palpitations, which would last for hours.
But I found that exercise on foot or horseback made me no worse, and I
became more and more venturesome, spending most of my time out of
doors, although often troubled with the thought that my passion for
Nature was a hindrance to me, a turning aside from the difficult way I
had been striving to keep.

Then my elder brother returned, an event of the greatest importance in
my life; and as he had not been expected so soon, I was for a minute
in doubt that this strange visitor could be my brother, so greatly had
he altered in appearance in those five long years of absence, which
had seemed like an age to me. He had left us as a smooth-faced youth,
with skin tanned to such a deep colour that with his dark piercing
eyes and long black hair he had looked to me more like an Indian than
a white man. Now his skin was white, and he had grown a brown beard
and moustache. In disposition, too, he had grown more genial and
tolerant, but I soon discovered that in character he had not changed.

As soon as an opportunity came he began to interrogate and cross-
question me as to my mind--life and where I stood, and expressed
himself surprised to hear that I still held to the creed in which we
had been reared. How, he demanded, did I reconcile these ancient
fabulous notions with the doctrine of evolution? What effect had
Darwin produced on me? I had to confess that I had not read a line of
his work, that with the exception of Draper's History of Civilisation,
which had come by chance in my way, I had during all those five years
read nothing but the old books which had always been on our shelves.
He said he knew Draper's History, and it was not the sort of book for
me to read at present. I wanted a different history, with animals as
well as men in it. He had a store of books with him, and would lend me
the Origin of Species to begin with.

When I had read and returned the book, and he was eager to hear my
opinion, I said it had not hurt me in the least, since Darwin had to
my mind only succeeded in disproving his own theory with his argument
from artificial selection. He himself confessed that no new species
had ever been produced in that way.

That, he said in reply, was the easy criticism that any one who came
to the reading in a hostile spirit would make. They would fasten on
that apparently weak point and not pay much attention to the fact that
it is fairly met and answered in the book. When he first read the book
it convinced him; but he had come to it with an open mind and I with a
prejudiced mind on account of my religious ideas. He advised me to
read it again, to read and consider it carefully with the sole purpose
of getting at the truth. "Take it," he said, "and read it again in the
right way for you to read it--as a naturalist."

He had been surprised that I, an ignorant boy or youth on the pampas,
had ventured to criticise such a work. I, on my side, had been equally
surprised at his quiet way of reasoning with me, with none of the old
scornful spirit flaming out. He was gentle with me, knowing that I had
suffered much, and was not free yet.

I read it again in the way he had counselled, and then refused to
think any more on the subject. I was sick of thinking. Like the wretch
who long has tossed upon the thorny bed of pain, I only wanted to
repair my vigour lost and breathe and walk again. To be on horseback,
galloping over the green pampas, in sun and wind. For after all it was
only a reprieve, not a commutation of sentence--though one of a kind
unknown in the Courts, in which the condemned man is allowed out on
bail. My pardon was not received until a few years later. I returned
with a new wonderful zest to my old sports, shooting and fishing, and
would spend days and weeks from home, sometimes staying with old
gaucho friends and former neighbours at their ranches, attending
cattle-markings and partings, dances, and other gatherings, and also
made longer expeditions to the southern and western frontiers of the
province, living out of doors for months at a time.

Despite my determination to put the question off, my mind, or sub-
conscious mind, like a dog with a bone which it refuses to drop in
defiance of its master's command, went on revolving it. It went to bed
and got up with me, and was with me the day long, and whenever I had a
still interval, when I would pull up my horse to sit motionless
watching some creature, bird or beast or snake, or sat on the ground
poring over some insect occupied with the business of its little life,
I would become conscious of the discussion and argument going on. And
every creature I watched, from the great soaring bird circling in the
sky at a vast altitude to the little life at my feet, was brought into
the argument, and was a type, representing a group marked by a family
likeness not only in figure and colouring and language, but in mind as
well, in habits and the most trivial traits and tricks of gesture and
so on; the entire group in its turn related to another group, and to
others, still further and further away, the likeness growing less and
less. What explanation was possible but that of community of descent?
How incredible it appeared that this had not been seen years ago--yes,
even before it was discovered that the world was round and was one of
a system of planets revolving round the sun. All this starry knowledge
was of little or no importance compared to that of our relationship
with all the infinitely various forms of life that share the earth
with us. Yet it was not till the second half of the nineteenth century
that this great, almost self-evident truth had won a hearing in the

No doubt this is a common experience: no sooner has the inquirer been
driven to accept a new doctrine than it takes complete possession of
his mind, and has not then the appearance of a strange and unwelcome
guest, but rather that of a familiar friendly one, and is like a long-
established housemate. I suppose the explanation is that when we throw
open the doors to the new importunate visitor, it is virtually a
ceremony, since the real event has been already accomplished, the
guest having stolen in by some other way and made himself at home in
the sub-conscious mind. Insensibly and inevitably I had become an
evolutionist, albeit never wholly satisfied with natural selection as
the only and sufficient explanation of the change in the forms of
life. And again, insensibly and inevitably, the new doctrine has led
to modifications of the old religious ideas and eventually to a new
and simplified philosophy of life. A good enough one so far as this
life is concerned, but unhappily it takes no account of another, a
second and perdurable life without change of personality.

This subject has been much in men's minds during the past two or three
dreadful years, often reminding me of that shock I received as a boy
of fourteen at the old gaucho's bitter story of his soul; I have also
again been reminded of the theory in which that younger and greatly-
loved brother of mine was able to find comfort. He had become deeply
religious, and after much reading in Herbert Spencer and other modern
philosophers and evolutionists, he told me he thought it was idle for
Christians to fight against the argument of the materialists that the
mind is a function of the brain. Undoubtedly it was that, and our
mental faculties perished with the brain; but we had a soul that was
imperishable as well. _He knew it_, which meant that he too was a
mystic, and being wholly preoccupied with religion, his mystical
faculty found its use and exercise there. At all events, his notion
served to lift him over _his_ difficulties and to get him out of
_his_ mangrove swamp--a way perhaps less impossible than the one
recently pointed out by William James.

Thus I came out of the contest a loser, but as a compensation had the
knowledge that my physicians were false prophets; that, barring
accidents, I could count on thirty, forty, even fifty years with their
summers and autumns and winters. And that was the life I desired--
the life the heart can conceive--the earth life. When I hear people
say they have not found the world and life so agreeable or interesting
as to be in love with it, or that they look with equanimity to its
end, I am apt to think they have never been properly alive nor seen
with clear vision the world they think so meanly of, or anything in
it--not a blade of grass. Only I know that mine is an exceptional
case, that the visible world is to me more beautiful and interesting
than to most persons, that the delight I experienced in my communing
with Nature did not pass away, leaving nothing but a recollection of
vanished happiness to intensify a present pain. The happiness was
never lost, but owing to that faculty I have spoken of, had a
cumulative effect on the mind and was mine again, so that in my worst
times, when I was compelled to exist shut out from Nature in London
for long periods, sick and poor and friendless, I could yet always
feel that it was infinitely better to be than not to be.


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