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Title: A Modern Legionary
Author: Poer, John Patrick le
Language: English
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 Methuen's Colonial Library



 By Roger Pocock



 _Colonial Library_



On a January morning in the early eighties I found myself in Paris
with less than a dozen francs in my purse, or rather my pockets, for I
have always had a habit of distributing my money between waistcoat and
trousers, so that if one pocket be picked the contents of the others
may have a chance of remaining still in my possession.

How I arrived in Paris is easily explained. After two years and a
half in a boarding-school I had become so tired of its monotonous
routine and, indeed, of the idleness which prevailed there--for the
masters never tried to teach, and, naturally, the boys never tried to
learn--that I resolved, when the Christmas vacation came to an end,
to leave my home in the south of Ireland and seek my fortune through
the world. Accordingly, instead of going back to school, I set out
for Dublin, whence I started for London by the first boat. In London
I spent a day, and then came on to Paris, filled with vague hopes and
vaguer misgivings as to my future. Thus it happened that I at the age
of sixteen was walking the streets of Paris on the 6th of January 188-.

I considered anxiously what lay before me. I could not go home, even
if pride did not forbid. True, I could write for money, having enough
to maintain myself until it came, but that would be too great a
humiliation. To dig I was not able, and to beg I was ashamed, so I saw
but one course open to me--to enlist. Having made up my mind, which I
did the more easily as I had been brought up in a garrison town, and
like most boys loved to follow the soldiers in their bright uniforms
and to march along with head erect, keeping step to the music of the
band, I at once set about carrying my resolve into effect. I was not
long in beginning. As I walked along the streets I saw a soldier with a
gold chevron on his arm, and, going across the road, I addressed him. I
did not speak French very well, but had something more than the usual
schoolboy knowledge of it, as I had read a good many French books and
papers when I should have been at Greek or Mathematics in the study
hall. Very soon, therefore, he learned my purpose, and a conversation
ensued, somewhat as follows:--

"You are English; is it not so?"

"No; I am Irish, from the south of Ireland."

"Very well, my friend; but you must go to the Foreign Legion, and that
will not be very pleasant, you may well believe. Always in Algeria,
except when serving in Tonquin and other devil's colonies on the earth."

"I do not mind that; in the English army one has to go to India and
South Africa, so what matter?"

"Ah! and you are doubtless without money, and one has to live."

"Let us go in here," said I, pointing to a wine shop. "We can talk
better over a glass."

"Good comrade! good comrade!" he cried, slapping me on the shoulder;
"I see that you will be a soldier after my own heart. Have no fear,"
he continued; "I will tell you all, and you may rely on me as a loyal

When we entered the shop my new-found friend asked me whether I should
drink _eau-de-vie_ or _vin ordinaire_, and, on my refusing the brandy,
commended my discretion, saying that young soldiers should never touch
brandy as it interfered with their chances of promotion, and, moreover,
they did not usually have money enough to pay for it. Thereupon he
called for _eau-de-vie_ for himself and some wine, rather sour I
thought it, for his young friend, and when we had clinked glasses and
drunk, our conversation was resumed.

I shall not try to reproduce the dialogue, which would, indeed,
be wearisome, as we sat and talked for full two hours, with many
repetitions. During this time I drank little, and the sergeant, though
he had his glass filled more than once, took no more than he could
safely bear. One thing I must say of him, that although he painted
the soldier's life in glowing colours yet he always kept me in mind
of the fact that he spoke of the French army in general and his own
regiment in particular. What he said had no reference to the Foreign
Legion. That corps was not to be compared to his. There were in it men
who had fled from justice; from Russia, though, indeed, the offences
of these were in most cases political; from Germany, and yet many were
Alsatians and Lorrainers who wished to become French citizens; from
Austria, Belgium, Spain; from every country in the world. And, whatever
their crimes had been, they were of a surety being punished, for their
stations were on the borders of the great desert, where were sand and
sun and tedium so great that an Arab raid was a pleasant relief.

"But there were French soldiers also there, were there not?"

"Oh yes; the zephyrs, the bad ones who could not be reclaimed to duty,
to discipline, or even to decency, and who were sent to form what one
might call convict battalions in places to which no one wished to send
good soldiers--men who respected themselves and the flag."

"But the Foreign Legion could not be always in Algeria, on the borders
of the desert?"

"Oh no; there were many of them in Tonquin on active service, and
these, of course, were just as well or as ill-off as the regular French
troops, but still they were rascals, though, he would confess, very
good fighting men. There was a war in Tonquin against great bands of
marauders who carried a variety of flags, by the colours of which they
were known: I must have heard of the principal ones--the infamous
Black Flags, who gave no quarter to the wounded and who mutilated the
dead. These were helped by the regular Chinese soldiers, and had among
them many Europeans, dogs that they were, who gave them advice and
instruction, because these Europeans were Prussians or English who
hated the great French Republic and viewed its expansion with dislike
and distrust."

"But was there not a good chance of promotion in the Legion?"

"Oh yes; if one did one's duty and willingly obeyed orders and did not
get into trouble. Oh yes; there was always justice for the good as
well as for the bad. If one was not a corporal in five years there was
little use in staying; one could take his discharge and go away."

That decided me. I was sixteen--in five years I should be
twenty-one--better spend the time learning experience in the world
than in the dull, dreary idleness to which I was accustomed, and which
filled me with disgust. I said so to the sergeant. He looked me up and
down, and said:

"How old?"

"Sixteen," I replied.

"You cannot enlist; the recruit must be at least eighteen."

I thought a moment. "I will be eighteen; they cannot see the registers
of my parish."

"Very well, very well, my son; you are resolved. I will say no more to
prevent you--I will help you--you shall be a soldier of the Republic

He kept his word. We spent the day together; he showed me his barrack,
his room in it, where to dine and sleep, and leaving me at nine
o'clock, with a parting injunction to meet him at eight in the morning
at the barrack gate, went away saying:

"Poor devil! poor devil!"

On the following morning at ten minutes to eight I was at the gate.
Indeed, I might easily have been there at six, but as the morning was
cold and nothing could be gained by being out and about too soon I
remained snugly between the sheets until seven. Punctually at eight
the sergeant appeared, and we walked towards one another smiling. I
asked him to join me at breakfast. He readily consented, and soon we
were seated together in a small restaurant before a table at which we
appeased the hunger induced by the sharp morning air with eggs, bread
and butter, and coffee. Breakfast over, the sergeant asked, as he said,
for the last time, if I were still resolved to join the Foreign Legion.
I replied that I was, if I should be accepted.

"Very good; we have half-an-hour, let us walk about until it is time to
meet the doctor."

While strolling through the streets he gave me much advice. I was to be
respectful, alert, step smartly, and, above all, be observant.

"Watch the others," he said, "and you will very soon learn soldiers'

I promised to do so, and reminded him that I had grown two years older
in a single night. He smiled, and said encouragingly:

"Good child! good child!--alas! poor devil!"

I asked him what he meant by alluding to me as a poor devil, and again
he abused the Foreign Legion with a vocabulary as insulting as it was
extensive. I had never heard or read one-tenth of the words, but it was
not hard to guess the meaning. I stopped him by laying my hand upon his
arm, and said:

"You forget that I may be one of the Foreign Legion before noon."

"True, true; but I do not apply the expressions to you, only to those
who are already there." And he pointed with his finger towards the

"Very good; but surely not to all? What can you say against the
political refugees from Russia?"

"Ah! they are different; they----"

I stopped him again, and said:

"And what can you say against a political refugee from Ireland?"

"Ah, ah! I understand; now I see clearly. Oh, my friend, why did you
not tell me yesterday?"

From that moment he believed me, a schoolboy of sixteen, to be a head
centre of the Fenians, or at least a prominent member of some Irish
league. This belief had consequences shortly afterwards, pleasant and
unpleasant, but we live down our sorrows as, unfortunately, we live
down our joys.

Well, soon it was time to "meet the doctor," so we went towards the
barrack, and passing the gate approached a portion of the square where
about twelve men in civil dress were already assembled. I was told
that these also were would-be recruits, not all, however, for the
Foreign Legion, as some were Frenchmen who volunteered at as early
an age as possible instead of waiting to be called up. Not far off a
small party of _sous-officiers_ stood, criticising the recruits, and
laughing sarcastically at an occasional witticism. These the sergeant
joined, and I was at leisure to observe my companions. They were of
all sorts and conditions. One, a tall man with white hands, at least
I saw that the right one was white, but the left one was gloved, who
wore a silk hat, frock coat, and excellently got-up linen, looked
rather superciliously at us all. Another, in a workman's blouse and
dirt-covered trousers and boots, had his hands in his pockets, and,
curving his shoulders, looked intently at the ground. A third,
about eighteen, in a schoolboy's cap and jacket, was humming the
Marseillaise; he was a French lad who _would_ be a soldier. There was
a dark-browed man, a Spaniard as I learnt afterwards, tugging at his
small moustache; a few others whom I have forgotten; and, lastly,
standing somewhat apart from the crowd, three or four medium-sized,
heavily-built men, with the look of the farm about them, and, indeed,
the smell of it too, who proved to be Alsatians.

I was still engaged in observing the others when a door was thrown
open, and we were all ordered into a large room on the ground floor
of a building, over the entrance to which were painted some words
which I now forget. Here we had to strip to shirt and trousers, but
as there was a stove in the place, and the windows and doors were
closed, that did not hurt too much. After a short delay the tall man
was summoned, and left the room by a door opposite to that by which
we had entered. Others were called afterwards, and I, as it happened,
was the last. As I passed out the sergeant--I forgot to mention that
he and the other _sous-officiers_ had come in with us, and all had
spoken encouragingly to me, having been told that I was a rebel against
"perfide Albion"--the sergeant, I say, tapped me on the shoulder, and

"Have no fear, be quiet, respectful, attentive, good lad."

I thanked him with a nod and a smile and passed in. I now found myself
in a smaller room, where an old soldier with a long grey moustache--I
thought at once of the old guard--gruffly bade me take off my shirt
and trousers. I did so, and felt a slight shiver--it was January--as I
stood naked on the floor. I had scarcely finished shivering when the
schoolboy came from the doctor's room looking as happy and proud as
a king on his coronation day. It was quite evident that he had been
accepted, and already his early dreams of military renown seemed on the
point of realisation. Poor devil! as the sergeant said of me. I met
him afterwards twice; the first time he was a prisoner under guard for
some offence, the second time he was calling out huskily for water in
the delirium before death.

As he went towards his clothing I entered the apartment he had just
left It was a large white-walled room, with a couple of chairs and
tables, a desk and stool, and a weighing machine in a corner, as its
chief furniture. A couple of soldiers were present, but evidently the
chief personage in the room was a tall, thin man with a hooked nose
and sharp grey eyes, whose moustache bristled out on each side. He was
dressed in uniform, and wore some decorations, but I cannot recall more
than that now. I doubt, indeed, if I ever fully grasped how he was
dressed--his eyes attracted my attention so much.

A few questions were asked--my name, age, country, occupation, and
others--which were answered by me at once and shortly. I did not forget
the sergeant's advice. Then followed a most careful observation of my
body. My height and weight were noted, as well as other things which I
did not understand. I remember I had to breathe deeply, and then hold
my breath as long as I could, to jump, to hop, and to go through every
form of work of which the human body or any part of it is capable. My
eyes were examined in various ways, and there was not a region of my
person left unexplored by the stethoscope or by the bony fingers of
my examiner. All the while he called out various words and sentences,
just as a tailor calls out while he measures you for a suit of clothes,
and a soldier at the desk took them down. The other soldier acted as
his chief's assistant, covering my right eye with his hand while the
left one was being tested, holding a stick for me to jump and hop over,
putting on the weights while I was on the machine, and doing all these
things at a nod or other sign from the doctor.

At last the examination was over. The doctor took the sheet of blue
paper on which the soldier at the desk had been writing, and, looking
alternately at it and at me, seemed carefully considering. I stood
erect, hands by my sides, looking steadily and respectfully at him. It
was very quiet. After some time he said:

"How old are you?" (in English, with just a trace of an accent). I
waited a moment, but that moment was enough.

"Eighteen, sir."

Had I answered on the spot he would have learned the truth. He paused
a little, still keeping his eyes on me, and then, slightly lifting his
eyelids, asked:


"No, sir," I replied; "eighteen to-day."

"When and where were you born?"

"Seventh of January, sir, in the year ----, and at the town of ----, in
the south of Ireland."

He still gazed at me in doubt, but I met his gaze steadily. Suddenly a
door opened--not the one through which I had come--and a short, stout,
bustling man, dressed in blue coat and red trousers, with a gold-laced
cap on his head, came in and, glancing carelessly at me, shook hands
warmly with the doctor. In the conversation which ensued it was
apparent by their glances and gestures that I had more than my share of
their attention. Finally they approached, and the short man asked me
my age. I replied as before. Turning sharp round he said with a merry
smile, which ended in a short, quick laugh:

"Oh, my friend, he is eighteen; he says so, and who knows better? Would
you destroy the enthusiasm of a volunteer by doubting his word? My fine
fellow"--this to me--"you will be eighteen before you leave us."

That settled it I was accepted, sent away to dress, and, as I had said
to the sergeant, before noon I was a sworn member of the Foreign
Legion, sworn in for five years.

The swearing-in was not impressive. All I remember about it is that in
a room with a very wide door an officer in a gold-laced cap sat at a
table, repeated a form of words which I in turn repeated, holding up
my right hand the while, and then I kissed a book tendered to me by a
_sous-officier_. Some questions were asked, and I answered, telling
the truth, as, indeed, I had told the truth all through, except about
my age, and also except about the insinuation that I was a political

That night I slept in the barrack. About eighteen or twenty other
recruits for the Foreign Legion occupied a large room with me. We
were of all countries in Europe, but the Alsatians outnumbered the
representatives of any other, and next to them came the Belgians and
Lorrainers. A couple of Poles, a Russian, a Hungarian, a Croat, the
Spaniard whom I have already mentioned, and myself completed the list.
We looked at one another rather suspiciously at first, but after some
time we became more sociable, and tried to explain, each in his own
execrable French, how we had come to enlist, and it struck me that,
if all were to be believed, my comrades were the most unfortunate
and persecuted set of honest men that the sun had ever shone upon. I
changed my opinion in the morning when I found that the last franc I
had, nay the last sou, had been taken from my pockets during the night,
but what was the use of complaining? It was a lesson I had to learn,
therefore the sooner I learned it the better, and it was well that I
learned it at no greater expense than a couple of francs. When we got a
blue tunic, red trousers, and kepi, with boots and other things, I sold
my civilian clothes to a Jew for one-tenth of their original cost, and
that money did not leave my possession without my consent. I did not
spend it all upon myself, but neither did I spend it indiscriminately,
a jolly Belgian and the Russian had most of the benefit.

A little circumstance occurred which at first gave me great pleasure,
though afterwards its effects were rather serious, at least in my
opinion at the time. I had not been an hour in the room when the
sergeant came and gave me some tobacco and a small bottle of wine. I
insisted on his sharing the latter; as for the tobacco, that went in
the night along with my money. I saw some very like it afterwards with
one of the Poles. When going he shook hands warmly, bade me be of good
courage, and was about turning away when someone, an Alsatian, I think,
jostled against him. Immediately the flood-gates of his eloquence were
opened, he cursed and swore, and that not alone at the cause of his
anger but also at others who were near. No reply was made, and he went
away, still cursing and fuming with anger. How this event affected me
will be told in due course; suffice it to say that, young as I was, I
saw that his evident partiality for me and his undoubted contempt for
the others would likely bring unpleasant results before long.

In two days our numbers had increased to about thirty, and we were
despatched to Algeria under the orders of a sergeant and two corporals.
During the journey we learned a little more about discipline, but all
that and the journey itself must wait for a new chapter.


Let me first describe the sergeant who was in chief command of our
party. He was a small, active, sharp-tongued man, wearing a couple of
medals and the Cross of the Legion of Honour on his breast, neat in his
dress--I believe he would, if it were possible, polish his boots forty
times a day--having a constant eye to us, such an eye as a collie has
for the flock. When he gave an order, it was clear and abrupt; when he
censured, you felt no doubt about his meaning, for tongue and tone and
eye and gesture all united to convey contempt and abuse; if he gave
ten minutes for a meal, we had to fill our stomachs in that time or
go half hungry; and as for accepting a drink from one of us--for some
had a little money--he would as soon have thought, he let us know, of
accepting a glass of hell-fire from Satan. He was one of those men
found in every army in the world--men who cannot live out of barracks,
who feel comfortable only in uniform, who look upon civilians as beings
to be pitied for not having the military sense, just as the ordinary
man pities the blind, the deaf, or the dumb. Such men's minds receive
few, and these transient, impressions from outside their own corps. To
hear the regiment rated soundly on inspection day is a greater calamity
than the cutting off of a squadron by Berbers or the ambushing of half
a battalion by Black Flags; in fine, they are soldiers of the regiment
rather than of the army.

We were divided into two squads, each under the immediate control
of a corporal. My corporal was a jolly, good-humoured fellow, a bit
malicious, a Parisian gamin in uniform. He told us terrible stories of
the Foreign Legion, and said that we should get through our purgatory
if we only lived in it long enough. But in the end he defeated his own
object, for, as some tales were obviously untrue, we had no difficulty
in persuading ourselves that all were lies. The other corporal, a
tall, lank man, seemed to me moody or, perhaps I should say, pensive.
However, he had nothing to do with me, so I scarcely observed him.

With regard to the journey, I can only say that we marched from the
barrack to a railway station, travelled by train to Marseilles, thence
by transport to Oran, where we were handed over by the sergeant to a
_sous-officier_ of our own corps. Some incidents and scenes of the
journey I must relate, as they show how my military education began.
And first I must tell about the unpleasantness which I spoke of in the
first chapter.

Of course, a woman was the exciting cause--the match to the gunpowder.
Women can't help it; they are born with the desire of getting you to
do something for them. The average woman merely gets her husband to
support her; she would like to have every other woman in the parish
there to see the weekly wages handed over, the wages which, if he were
a bachelor, would represent so much fun and frolic and reckless gaiety.
But there are women who would incite you to commit murder or to save a
life with equal eagerness, just to feel that their influence over you
was unbounded. However, this has little to do with the present case,
which was merely a casual flirtation and its ending.

At a certain station, which had more than its due share of loungers,
our train was stopped for some reason. We were allowed to get out
during the delay, and the report quickly spread that a squad or two
of recruits for the Foreign Legion had halted at the place. We were
soon surrounded by a curious group, many of which passed by no means
complimentary remarks upon our personal appearance and the crimes they
supposed us to have committed in our own countries before we came, or
rather escaped, to France.

In the crowd was a rather handsome woman of about thirty who pretended
great fear of us, as if we were cannibals from the Congo. The sergeant,
however, reassured her, told her that we were quite quiet under his
control--pleasant for us to listen to, wasn't it?--and volunteered to
give her all information about us. Well, he gave us information about
ourselves too.

He described the Pole as a dirty Prussian who had robbed his employer
and then made his escape to Paris. The Spaniard became a South American
who had more murders on his soul than a professional bravo of the
Middle Ages. The Russian was a Nihilist who had first attempted to blow
up the Tsar and afterwards betrayed his accomplices, so that in the
Foreign Legion, and there only, could he hope to escape at once justice
and revenge. An Alsatian was described as a Hungarian brute: "these
Hungarian dogs are so mean, sneaking, filthy, and cowardly"; while the
poor Hungarian, who had heard all this, almost at once found himself
pointed out as an Austrian, a slave of an emperor who was afraid of
Germany. Unfortunately, as it turned out afterwards, I escaped his
notice, and what I congratulated myself upon at the time I had reason
afterwards to regret.

While the sergeant was thus trying to advance himself--the vain
fool!--in the handsome woman's favour and was getting on to his own
satisfaction, if not to ours, into the crowd struts a young corporal
of chasseurs. As soon as she saw him the woman turned her back upon
our sergeant, put her arm affectionately through the corporal's, and
brought him, vacuously smiling, down to us to tell the sergeant's
stories over again. She muddled them, but that was of course. We
never minded anything she said; but weren't we delighted to see our
_sous-officier_ so excellently snubbed!

"And where, my dear Marie, did you learn all this?" queried the happy
and smiling chasseur.

"Oh, pioupiou told me." And she pointed with the tip of her parasol
at the man who a moment before had mentally added her to the list
of his conquests. And pioupiou was angry; his cheeks got all white
with just a spot of red in the centre, his eyes glared, he twisted
his moustache savagely; he turned on us and ordered us back to the
carriages. But that was not all: the crowd laughed, Marie laughed, the
corporal--another fool--laughed. Some of us laughed, and we paid for
all the laughter in the end.

Nothing was said while we were in the station, but as soon as the
train was again on the move the sergeant began. The first to feel
uncomfortable was the corporal of my squad. He was told that he did
not enforce discipline, that he was too free with these rascals, these
pigs, that he had no self-respect, that he was ill-bred, and much more
to the same effect. We came in for worse abuse, the Hungarian and a
Belgian being made special marks for the sergeant's anger because they
had been the first to laugh when Marie called him "pioupiou." The abuse
was kept up, with occasional intermissions, for over half-an-hour, and
no one was sorry when our tormentor sought solace of a more soothing
nature in his pipe. It is very hard for men to listen to angry words
which they know they cannot resent, and, sooner than have no relief for
their pent-up passion, they will vent it on one of themselves, as I
found out before long.

We had stopped for ten minutes' interval at a station, and the three
_sous-officiers_ had gone to a small refreshment room after ordering
us, on various pains and penalties, not to leave our seats. Scarcely
were they on the platform when the Belgian, who had been most insulted,
began to rail at me. I was astonished. My surprise increased when the
others joined with him. I was asked why I should be spared while better
men were being treated as dogs and worse than dogs. The visit of my
friend, the kindly sergeant who brought me wine and tobacco, was raked
up as an instance of favouritism, and the rather violent language which
he had applied to others in the barrack room was also recalled. I felt
indignant at the injustice but knew not how to reply. Indeed, there was
but a small chance of doing so, as all were speaking loudly, and some
even shaking their fists at me. At last the Belgian, who had started
the affair, struck me lightly on the cheek. This was too much. I jumped
at him, had him tightly by the throat with the left hand, and set to
giving him the right hand straight from the shoulder as quickly and as
strongly as I could. He was altogether taken aback, and, moreover, was
almost stunned by my assault, for every blow drove the back of his head
against the woodwork of the carriage. Before anyone could interfere
I had given him his fill of fighting, and when I was torn off his
mouth and nose were bleeding and the skin around both eyes was rapidly
changing colour. Before the fight could be renewed the sub-officers
returned, and we all sat silent and sullen in our places.

The sergeant at once grasped the situation.

"What, fighting like wolves with one another already! Very well, my
fine fellows, it does not end here; to-day the fight and the arrest,
to-morrow the inquiry and the punishment."

Thereupon he ordered the men on each side of us to consider themselves
our warders. "If they escape, if they fight again, there will be a more
severe punishment for you, whose prisoners they are."

"A beautiful way to begin soldiering," he continued, looking
alternately at the Belgian and myself; "go on like this, and life will
be most happy for you."

At the next station he ordered the Belgian to be transferred to the
compartment in which the other squad, under the silent corporal,
travelled. When he left, to give orders, I suppose, about the prisoner,
the jolly corporal turned to me, and said:

"My worthy fellow, you have begun well; where did you learn to use your
hands? No matter, the commandant will talk to you; he will settle all.
But, my son, what was it about; did he insult you?"

"It was all the fault of the sergeant," I cried----

"Hold, hold!" interrupted the corporal; "take care, you are foolish to
accuse your officer, and, besides, he was not present."

This gave me a hint.

"No; he was not here, and the corporals were not here either."

"Then it was my fault too?"

"Not yours so much as the sergeant's--you merely deserted your
post--but he in addition to that abused the men so much before going
away that their passion was aroused, and when men are angry they cannot
help fighting."

"Yes, yes," said the corporal; "he did abuse people, there is no doubt
that he was in bad humour, and would have abused his own brother at the

Little more was said, but the corporal was very thoughtful, and
evidently was chewing a cud he did not like.

At the first opportunity, it was when we halted for a meal, the
corporal took the sergeant aside, and a long conversation ensued. The
upshot was that I was taken from my guards and brought by the corporal
to where his comrade stood. The latter asked me to tell him the
truth about the quarrel, and I spoke as he wished me to. I mentioned
everything--the kindness of the first sergeant to me and his abuse of
the others, his own harsh treatment of us from the beginning, his wrong
and malicious descriptions to the woman--he winced when I mentioned her
name--his fearful abuse of the men afterwards, and I took care to point
out that I was the one who had been least hurt by his tongue, and I
wound up by declaring that, if he and the corporals had not gone away,
leaving us without any _sous-officier_ in charge, the affair would not
have taken place.

"I believe you have told me the truth," he said. And I knew well that
he knew it, for all the time that I was speaking he kept his keen eyes
fixed upon mine, and they seemed to read me through and through.

The Belgian and I were almost immediately relieved from arrest, but
my opponent received strict orders to stay in the centre of the squad
while marching, so that as little chance as possible might be given
to the curious to note his bruises. He was furthermore told that for
his own sake he had better tell anyone in authority who might chance
to make inquiries that he had been suddenly, and when off his guard,
assaulted by a drunken man at a wayside railway station. He afterwards
did tell this tale when interrogated by an officer, and, as we others
corroborated his statement, he escaped all punishment, and so did I.
All the same, the sneers and whisperings of my companions during the
remainder of the journey were at least as painful to me as his injuries
were to the Belgian. In fact, I was more than boycotted by all, and
the fact that none of my comrades would associate with me in even the
slightest degree was gall and wormwood to the mind of a sensitive
youth. How I wished that the first sergeant had not been so kind and
the second so sparing of abuse to me. I was glad that in the depot for
recruits I was altogether separated from the rest, and I may add now
that, when I met some of them afterwards in the East, they seemed to
have forgotten all the little annoyances of our first acquaintance.

I wish to say but little now about the rest of the way. The chief
thing that remains in my memory is the scene aboard the transport that
carried us from Marseilles to Oran. It was so striking that I fancy I
shall never forget it.

There were troops of all arms aboard. I need not describe the party I
was with, as I have said enough about it already, and of most of the
others I can only recall that the various uniforms, the different
numbers on the caps, all impressed me with the idea that I belonged to
one of the great armies of the world. Having been, as I have already
mentioned, brought up in a garrison town I at once noticed distinctions
which another might pass over as trivial. I saw, for instance, that all
the soldiers of the line did not belong to the same regiment in spite
of the strong likeness the various corps showed to one another, and I
knew that the same held true of the chasseurs and zouaves. I admired
the way in which disorder was reduced to order; the steady composure of
those who had no work to do, which contrasted so much with the quick
movement and tireless exertion of the men told off for fatigue; the
sharp eyes and short, clear orders of the sergeants; and, above all,
the calm, assured air of authority of the officer who superintended the

While I was noting all this my glance fell on a party of men, about
fifty in number, wearing the usual blue tunic and red trousers, who
had no mark or number in their caps. Now the Frenchmen of the line
had each the number of his regiment on the front of the kepi, and we
of the Foreign Legion had grenades on ours. Moreover, these men were
set apart from all the rest and were guarded by a dozen soldiers with
fixed bayonets. The men seemed sullen and careless of their personal
appearance, and when a Frenchman forgets his neatness you may be sure
that he has already forgotten his self-respect. Curiosity made me apply
for information to the corporal over my squad, and he told me that
these were men who for their offences in regiments stationed in France
were now being transferred to disciplinary battalions in Algeria,
where they would forfeit, practically, all a soldier's privileges and
be treated more like convicts than recruits. I at once remembered
what the sergeant whose acquaintance I had first made had said about
the zephyrs, the men that could not be reclaimed. I saw them often
afterwards, and, though in most of the battalions they are not very bad
and are treated fairly enough, in others which contain the incorrigible
ones the officers and sub-officers have to go armed with revolvers, and
the giving out of cartridges, when it can't be helped, is looked upon
as the sure forerunner of a murder. Figure to yourself what a hated
warder's life would be worth if the convicts in Dartmoor had rifles and
bayonets and if the governor had occasionally to serve out packets of
cartridges, it being well understood that all--governor, warders, and
convicts--are supposed to be transferred to, let us say, Fashoda, where
there is now and then a chance of a Baggara raid.

I don't know much about the voyage across the Mediterranean as I was
almost, but not quite, sea-sick. It has always been so with me, the
gentlest sea plays havoc with my stomach. We got into Oran at about
six o'clock in the evening, and our party at once disembarked. We were
met on the quay by a sergeant of the Foreign Legion, who showed us the
way to a barrack, where we were formally handed over to his control.
That night we stayed in the barrack, and I suffered a little annoyance
from my comrades, from all of whom I was separated next day, when we
were transferred to our depot at a place called Saida. I do not know
whether this is to-day the depot for the Foreign Legion or not, as I
heard men say that an intention existed on the part of the military
authorities to place it farther south. Here I spent some time learning
drill, discipline, and all the duties of a soldier, and this was the
hardest period of my military life, for my knowledge of French had to
be considerably increased before I could quite grasp the meaning of an
order, and very often I was abused by a corporal for laziness when I
had the best will in the world to do what I was told, if I could only
understand it.


When we arrived at the depot we were at once divided into small
parties, each of which was sent to a company for drill. I was attached
to No. 1 Company, and though four others of my comrades came to it with
me they did not remain there long. Two of them were Belgians, one an
Alsatian, and the fourth a Pole. All spoke French well, and it was very
soon seen that they had learned something about drill already in other
armies, and, therefore, they were sent almost at once to the battalions
on service at the edge of the great desert. Thus it was that I found
myself the only member of the detachment in No. 1, and of this I was
very glad, for my last experience with them had not been of the most
pleasant kind.

And now let me put on record the only complaint I have to make about my
life at Saida. On account of my speaking English all agreed that I must
be an Englishman, and the Englishman is well hated abroad. Consequently
on the drill ground and in the barrack room I was continually addressed
by the expressive sobriquet of "English pig." Now "cochon anglais"
is not a nice nickname, and though I dared not resent it from the
corporals and other sub-officers I made up my mind that from my equals
in rank it was not to be endured. There was a big Alsatian in my squad
who was most persistent in insulting me, though I had often tried to
explain to him that I was neither a pig nor an Englishman. With him,
therefore, I resolved to deal, confident that, if I could put a stop
to his insolence, the rest would be quiet enough. I determined, as he
was my superior in age, strength, weight, and length of arm, that it
would be only right to take him unawares and, if possible, finish the
business before he could quite understand what I was about. For three
or four days after settling this matter in my mind I got no opportunity
such as I wished for. Seeing me take the nickname quietly, for I no
longer even remonstrated with him, the Alsatian went further than
before and raised my anger to boiling point. At last the chance came.
As I entered the room one afternoon I noticed lying near the door a
rather large billet of wood. The corporal was out, so were most of
the men, and those who remained, five or six in number, were lazily
lounging in various attitudes about the room. I put aside rifle, belt,
and bayonet, for I had just come in from a punishment parade--that is,
an extra parade ordered to men for some slight irregularity--and looked
straight at the big brute, as if to challenge him.

"Ah, my fine fellow, how do English pigs like punishment parades in
this weather?" he began.

"As well," I answered, picking up, carelessly as it were, the billet,
"as Alsatian dogs like this." And I brought the heavy block down upon
his head with all my strength. The cap, though utterly destroyed,
saved his head, but still he was so stupefied by the sudden assault
and by the force of the blow that I had time to strike him again and
again. The others jumped up quickly and seized me, crying out that the
Alsatian was dead. And, indeed, he looked as if he were dead, for his
head was covered with blood, and one almost imagined that his brains
would protrude through the wounds. However, after some time he came to
himself again, and truly no one was better pleased than I, for as I
cooled down I began to be fearful of consequences.

When the corporal heard about the affair he told the sergeant, the
sergeant went to the captain, and the captain came down to investigate
the matter for himself. I told him how I was continually annoyed, and
when he asked me why I struck the other when off his guard, I pointed
out that to do so gave me the only chance of revenge. He measured us
both with his eyes and seemed to agree with me. Anyway, the Alsatian
was sent to get his wounds dressed and I was ordered extra drills,
extra fatigues, and to remain altogether in barracks for a fortnight.

Now I wondered how I got off so lightly. Well, in the Foreign Legion a
fight between men of the same squad is not considered half so serious
as one between men belonging to different squads, just as no one minds
so much about a fight between brothers as about one between members
of separate families. If a soldier of No. 1 squad beats a soldier of
No. 2 all the men of No. 2 will look for revenge, and all the men of
No. 1 will know that, and, therefore, at any moment thirty or more men
may be, to use an expressive phrase, "into" one another with Nature's
weapons and anything lying handy that will do a man damage. Sometimes
when the quarrel is more serious than usual--as, for instance, when it
is about women--bayonets may be used, but, indeed, the soldier very
seldom has recourse to his accustomed weapons in a fight with comrades.
But if a dispute arises between a battalion of zephyrs and another of
the Foreign Legion there is but one way of restoring order--call out
the cavalry and the guns.

As the Alsatian and I belonged to the same squad the captain contented
himself with punishing me slightly and warning us both against a
renewal of the quarrel. The story went around, and I don't believe I
was called an English pig ever afterwards except by an Irishman or an
Irish-American, who, of course, spoke only in jest.

Our company consisted of from 160 to 200 men. Sometimes it was strong
for a week after the arrival of a number of recruits, then again it
would go down as a squad or two departed for the regiment. My squad
varied, I think, from ten to seventeen, and, taking us all round, we
weren't very bad, as soldiers go. What language did we speak? French on
the drill ground and on duty and in reply to superior officers; amongst
ourselves a Lingua Franca, made up chiefly of French, especially the
Argot, but with a plentiful admixture of German, Spanish, Italian,
Portuguese, and other languages, including in some squads even Russian,
Turkish, and Arabic. What I say now refers not merely to the depot
but to the Foreign Legion in general: every battalion, every company,
I might almost say every squad, had its own peculiarity of idiom;
Sapristi and Parbleu gave place often to Caramba, Diavolo, and Mein
Gott. In fact, before I was six months in the Legion I could swear
fluently in every European language except English; the only English
curse they taught me was Goddam.

The _sous-officiers_ were pretty strict with us in the depot, but the
punishments were not too severe. The favourite one was to keep you
altogether in the barrack and compel you to sleep during the night in
your ordinary uniform on a plank bed in the guard room. That was the
worst of it, in the day no one minded the confinement to barracks--for
what was the use in wandering about a dirty town if one had no money in
his pocket, and our pay did not last long?--but in the night the plank
bed was not an ideal resting-place. I did not get into much trouble,
the row with the Alsatian was my chief offence, and what kept me right
was the dread of sleeping in the guard room at night.

We drilled every day except Sunday, but there is no use in telling
about that, as drill is the same all the world over. Our drill
instructors were certainly eloquent--all had copious vocabularies--and
the wealth of abuse and cursing that any of them could expend in an
hour's work was, indeed, extraordinary. While I was unable to fully
understand I felt angry; by the time I understood every word I was too
philosophical to care. Moreover, I am sorry to have to say that I was
rapidly acquiring a fairly extensive vocabulary of my own, and every
time I heard a curse directed at myself I thought one for the benefit
of the drill instructor's soul. It's a tradition in every army just
as it is in every navy, fighting and mercantile, that nothing can be
got out of men without bad language, and I do believe that there is a
good deal of truth in the tradition. One would fancy that skippers and
sergeants wish to familiarise their men with the names at least of the
lower regions and their ruler, in the firm belief that the men will
at some time make the acquaintance of both. That's as it may be; at
anyrate we learned a good deal more than our drill from our instructors.

We had a remarkably fine band. It was chiefly composed of Germans,
I think, and it does seem strange that ten years after the
Franco-Prussian war the majority of a French regimental band should
be composed of the sons of the men who crushed Napoleon the Third at
Sedan. The band played very often in the square, and every evening that
it turned out I felt no desire to leave the barrack. I don't understand
music but I like it. In the square the women and children of the depot
used to walk about listening, talking and laughing; the officers' wives
at one side and the wives of the _sous-officiers_ at another. As for
us, we lounged about at a short distance and made remarks, not always
in the best taste, about the women of both classes. A good deal of
quiet, oh, very quiet, flirtation used to go on, and this gave rise
amongst us to rather broad jests and hints. Of course, many people from
the town came in also, and these we considered fair game as well. One
very fat man, accompanied by a tall, extremely thin woman, evidently
his wife--they seemed to have no children--came regularly at least
three times a week to listen to the music. If he and his lady knew all
the fun they provided for us and the jokes uttered at their expense, I
fancy that the square would never see them again. What they did not
know did not trouble them, and so they came as long as I remained in
the depot and I daresay for long enough after I left it.

A very important consideration with a soldier, as with any other man,
is his food. I think we got nearly enough--that is, the fellows who
were used to it got enough--but the poor devils who were not used to
slops and bread were badly off, especially those who, like myself, had
schoolboy appetites. I have seen--this was in the battalion--veterans
leaving part of their rations untouched and young soldiers, men under
twenty-five, hungry the whole day long. Early in my soldiering I
learned the blessed consolation of tobacco. Often when I was more
hungry after a meal than before it, the soup and bread rather exciting
my stomach than satisfying it, I have smoked till no sensation of
emptiness remained. I don't know what a soldier in a Continental army
would do without tobacco. Nearly all our scanty pay went to buy it,
and, wretched stuff as it was, I have never enjoyed the best Havana as
I used to enjoy the delicious smoke when all work and drill for the
day were over and the pipe of comfort and blessed forgetfulness made
paradise of a barrack room.

We were good enough to one another. If the Spaniard had no tobacco he
could generally get some, unless it were too scarce indeed, and then
he had to be satisfied with half-a-dozen puffs from every pipe in the
room. I say the Spaniard advisedly, for he was always without money;
he had such an unfortunate trick of getting into trouble and losing
his pay. At the same time I too have had to do with the whiffs when
I longed for a pipeful of my own, and when you wanted to feel the
taste of the weed in your mouth it was very good to get even them.
When tobacco was very scarce with all we had more than one device for
getting a smoke; but there, these are only silly things, not that they
seemed silly to us at the time.

While at our drill we were the most obedient fellows in the world, so
were we too when doing the ordinary work of the soldier. But when the
day's labour was done we were not to be ordered about at the will of
any sergeant or corporal. Well they knew it too. Why, when a squad in
No. 2 Company was bullied--out of hours, be it well understood--by
their corporal a strange thing occurred. The corporal was found one
afternoon--at least the corporal's body was found--in one of the
latrines, and it was quite evident to the doctors that he had been
suffocated. Suspicion fell at once upon the squad he commanded, but,
and this was the strange thing, every one of them could prove that it
was impossible for him to have hand, act or part, in the business,
for some were on guard, and others were at drill, and others--rather
peculiar, wasn't it?--had been directly under the eyes of the
sergeant-major of the company. There was a sentry near the latrine,
who, of course, had not left his post, and this man could tell within
five minutes the time the corporal entered. He saw no others enter
at or about the same time, but that was easily explained: a large
hole had been broken through the back of one of the compartments, and
half-a-dozen men could easily get through this in as many seconds,
and, once in without being observed, the rest was easy. Nobody was
ever even court-martialled for the murder, and, though many might be
able to guess the names of the murderers, he would be a fool who did
his guessing within earshot of even a corporal. One thing is certain,
we had a fairly quiet time afterwards while I was in the depot, not
that we weren't sworn at and abused just as much on parade--oh yes,
we were--but when the quiet time came the _sous-officiers_ had sense
enough to leave us to ourselves. Well, it's all over now. The man who
carried the business through died in Tonquin--he was a Russian--and he
will turn up again in this narrative as ringleader of one of the most
exciting incidents of my life.

I did not form any friendships in the depot. True, there were fellows
in the squad whom I liked better than others, but I never showed
preference even for them. One thing chiefly prevented me from making
friends: I was beginning to learn something about the world and
its ways, or perhaps I should say about human nature, for with us
conventionality was dropped when the belt came off for the last time
in the evening and we spoke very freely to one another. If you liked
something in a comrade's words or acts you told him so; if you disliked
anything you were equally outspoken. Did a thought enter your mind
worthy of being communicated, in your opinion, to the rest it made no
difference whether it were immoral, or blasphemous, or against the
law, or contrary to discipline, out it came, and generally with a
garnishment of oaths and obscene expressions. We very seldom spoke of
what is good, except to laugh at and revile it. When we saw a woman
evidently very fond of her husband we said: "Ah, she is throwing dust
in his eyes; she has more than one lover." If we noticed a husband very
devoted to his wife, why, it was certain that the devotion was only an
excuse for watchfulness. Everything good was looked on with suspicion;
everything bad was natural, right, and obviously true.

We were always looking forward to the future. When in the depot we
yearned to be with the regiment; afterwards, when with the regiment in
the south of Algeria, I found my comrades and myself thinking eagerly
of the chances of going to the East. Life in Tonquin could not be so
monotonous; there was always fighting going on, and in any case you
got the chance of looting on the sly after a battle or even a petty
skirmish. This looking forward is, however, common to most men, but we
had a special reason for it, inasmuch as we were never comfortable or
content, our lives being made up for the most part of work and drill
and punishment, with an occasional fight, which wonderfully enlivened
the time for those who had not to pay for it.

When we had learned our drill pretty well the officers began to take
more interest in us. Don't imagine that they were kind and nice to us,
that they complimented us on our smartness and intelligence, or that
they even dreamt of standing us a drink in the canteen. Oh no; they
were somewhat worse than the sergeants, and if their language was not
so coarse it was equally cutting and abusive. By this time, however, we
were case-hardened, and, besides, we knew that at last we were leaving
the depot for ever, and the excitement induced by the expected change
was in itself a source of joy. We who were about to go went around
smiling and in good humour with ourselves and all the world. The men
who knew that their stay would last for some time longer consoled
themselves with the thought that at last it too must come to an end.
Simple philosophy, wasn't it? but wonderfully comforting.

We speculated about the battalions, about the stations, about the
Arabs, about the Moors, about the war in Tonquin, about everything
that we could think of as possibly affecting our after-life. I, mere
schoolboy that I was, was one of the most excited, and indulged in the
most extravagant fancies and dreamt the most extraordinary dreams.

At last the glorious day came. We were aroused at three o'clock in the
morning, had finished breakfast, and were on the parade-ground at a
little after four in full marching order. There we were addressed in a
farewell speech by the commandant, who called us "my children," as if
he cared especially for each and all of us. I had almost to smile, but
a smile at such a time would surely entail punishment.

The band played us out of the gate, and off we marched, about 200
strong, all in good health and spirits, for the little station where
lay the battalion for which we were designed.


We went altogether by march route to our destination. Every day was
like the preceding one, and a short description of any day will do for
all. Reveille at four o'clock, then while some pulled down and folded
up the tents others cooked the morning coffee, at five or a little
after we were _en route_, at eight usually, but sometimes later, a
halt was called for the morning soup; that over, we put our best foot
foremost until about eleven or half-past. Now came the pleasantest and
sleepiest part of the twenty-four hours. We ate a little, we smoked a
little, we slept, or rather dozed, a little, until the bugles warned us
at half-past three that another stretch of dry, dusty, throat-provoking
road had to be accounted for. On again at four until six or seven or
eight, with occasional rests of ten minutes each, and then there was
nothing but cleaning up after the evening soup. When all was right and
the sentries had been posted for the night you might talk and smoke if
you liked, but as a rule you smoked first and fell asleep afterwards.

It was not strange that we, who had been cooped up in the depot so
long, enjoyed this march. It seemed to us that we were soldiers at
last, not mere recruits, and dust and thirst and other inconveniences
were matters to be put up with and laughed at. On the road we often
sang; at the end of the midday halt, while we helped one another
with knapsack and belts, you might often hear songs of every country
from the Urals to the Atlantic. Every man's spirits were high; the
long-expected change had worked wonders, and the officers, nay, even
the sergeants and the corporals, had little of abuse or swearing
for us. True, our _sous-officiers_ were not drill instructors; of
all things in the world teaching is the most wearing on the temper,
and perhaps that is why there was so great a difference between the
sergeants in the depot and the sergeants on the march.

I think we did on an average about three miles an hour. It was good
enough too, for there were the rifle and the knapsack to be carried,
and the greatcoat and the blanket and the ammunition, and all the other
impedimenta of the soldier. The straps of the knapsack galled me a bit,
and I soon found out the difference between a march out from barracks
for a few hours and a day-after-day tramp through the heat and the dust
with the knowledge that you carried your bed and most of your board
upon your person. The rest at the end of the hour, for we always halted
for ten minutes after a fifty minutes' march, was a great help; and,
again, I was a little too proud, or too vain if you like to call it
so, to fall out of the ranks while my comrades were steadily marching
on. After all, pride or vanity, call it what you will, never hurts
a youngster, though it should make him slightly overwork himself in
trying to keep up with those who are his seniors in age and his betters
in endurance. All the same, when the day's march was over, it was
delightful to pull off knapsack, boots and all, and to feel that there
were before you eight or nine hours of complete freedom from toil.

One night, however, things were not quite so well with me. It was my
turn for guard, and when we halted for the night I with others was
turned out of the ranks at once. The first sentries were soon posted,
and the remainder of us had a couple of hours in or near the guard
tent to enjoy our evening meal. When that was over we all had a smoke,
and at nine--we had halted at seven--the reliefs were wanted. I felt
very lazy as I got up, took my rifle, and set out with the corporal
of the guard to my post. There I remained until eleven, was relieved
until one, and went again on sentinel duty until three. At four the
usual routine began, and I remember that, after the wakeful night, the
day's march seemed very long. When we halted at midday I fell asleep,
and when the march was over I forgot to smoke, and, curling myself
up in my greatcoat and blanket, became utterly oblivious of all that
occurred until the reveille next morning awakened me to another day.
I don't remember much of the country through which we passed. Most of
the time my ears were more engaged than my eyes, for many a good story
was told and many a happy jest passed as we tramped along in the dust
and sun. Some fellows told us stories of life in their own countries,
and if they did not adhere exactly to the truth, why, that only made
the stories better. Others could not see a man or a woman--especially
a woman--on either flank but straightway they criticised and joked,
and very clever we used to fancy the criticisms and jokes were. Some
again were good singers, and these were constantly shouted at to sing,
especially the men who sang comic songs. I daresay some of these songs,
if not all, were scarcely fit for a drawing-room, but as no ladies were
present it did not seem to make much difference. Then we had a bugle
march occasionally--say half-a-dozen times a day--and I for one found
the bugles wonderfully inspiriting. While the bugles were playing none
of us seemed to feel the road beneath our feet; we stopped talking, we
almost gave up smoking, the step became more regular, and the ranks
closed up. I suppose a musician would call a bugle march monotonous;
well, it may be so, but how many men out of 200 are musicians? But we
had more music than that. Some of the fellows had brought along musical
instruments of small size--tin whistles, flageolets, and such things.
Very well they played too. Many were fairly good whistlers, and so
there was a variety of means to drive away dull care; indeed, I think
we were the jolliest and most careless set in the world. Even when
the sun had been very hot and the road more than usually dusty we had
always the thought that the end of the annoyance would come when we
reached our battalion and that every day brought us nearer to the men
who were to take the place of home and country, friends and relations,
for five years. We fancied that they would be just like ourselves, and
we liked one another too well not to be satisfied.

It was while on this march that I first saw how soldiers are punished
when there is no prison near or when it is deemed best to give a short,
sharp punishment to an offender. Of course, I refer to cases where the
offence does not merit a court-martial. We had halted for the evening
near a small village, and some fellows had gone to it, more, I suppose,
out of curiosity than because they had any business there. I was not
with them, and I never fully learned what occurred but I know there
was a woman in the case. Whether she deserted the corporal for the
private soldier, or refused to leave the private when his superior
made advances to her I cannot tell, but some words passed between the
men, and the corporal made a report to the sergeant, who passed it on
to the captain. Very few questions were asked; the man was taken to a
spot near the guard tent, where he would be directly under the eyes
of a sentry, and there he was put, as we termed it, _en crapaudine_.
This is how it was done. First his hands were pinioned behind his back,
then his ankles were shackled tightly to each other, afterwards the
fastenings of his wrists were bound closely to the ankle bonds, so that
he was compelled to remain in a kneeling posture with his head and
body drawn back. After some time pains began to be felt in the arms,
across the abdomen, and at the knees and ankles. These pains increased
rapidly, and at last became intolerable. Yet he dared not cry out, or
at least no one would cry out until he could not help it, for the
sleeping men ought not to be disturbed, and at the first cry a gag was
placed between the teeth. This poor devil did not get much punishment.
I think he was _en crapaudine_ for only an hour or so, but, take my
word for it, if you place a man in that position for four, five, or
six hours, he will be in no hurry to get himself into trouble again.
There are other punishments too--the silo, for instance--but I shall
not describe these now, as I shall have occasion further on to tell all
about them when I am dealing with life in the regiment.

We did not always lie under canvas on the march. Sometimes we halted
at a garrison town or at cantonments, and then some, if not all, of us
were placed in huts for the night. We saw all kinds of soldiers there.
We met zouaves, chasseurs, turcos, spahis, zephyrs, but with none had
we much intercourse. This was due to several reasons. We came in hot
and tired and with little desire for anything except food and rest, and
besides we had to clean up clothes, boots, and arms for the parade and
inspection in the early morning. Then the regular French troops, and
even, I must admit, the native Algerian soldiers, looked with contempt
upon us, and you may be sure that we of the Legion returned the
contempt and the contemptuous words with interest. They never went very
far in showing their feelings towards our fellows, for we had an ugly
reputation; more than once a company or two of Legionaries had made a
desperate attack on a battalion even, and it was well known through
Algeria that when the Legionaries began a fight there would be, as was
often said, "blood upon shirts" before the fight was over. Therefore
the others stood rather in awe of our men, and they did not quite like
the idea of having anything to do with us, even though we were only
recruits on the way to the battalion, for every soldier knows that the
recruit is even more anxious to follow the regimental tradition than
the veteran. The latter feels that he is part and parcel of the corps
and that his reputation is not likely to suffer; the former is only
too eager to show that he accepts, wholly and unreservedly, the ideas
handed down to him, and, besides, he has not been altogether brought
under discipline. Thus, though we saw men in many uniforms we got to
know very little about them--indeed, all our information came from the
corporals--and I may add here that the corporals impressed upon us that
we were never to fight individually with Frenchmen or natives, but
that, if a general quarrel took place, we were to remember our duty to
the Legion and make it "warm weather" for our opponents. Afterwards on
more than one occasion we followed that advice.

Once or twice a little unpleasantness arose amongst ourselves. It
never went very far; the others, who were not desirous of seeing their
comrades get into trouble, always put an end to the business before
any real harm was done. I had nothing to do with any of these disputes
save once, when, in the _rôle_ of peacemaker, I sat with another fellow
for more than half-an-hour on an Italian who was thirsting for the
blood of a Portuguese. The Portuguese was receiving similar attentions
from two others at the opposite side of the tent. It was funny how
the thing came about. The Italian had got, somewhere or somehow--I
suppose he stole it--a bottle of brandy, and, instead of sharing all
round, gave half to his comrade the Portuguese and drank the other
half himself. When they returned to the tent they were quarrelling,
and evidently drunk. After some time they began to fight, and we left
them alone, as they had been so mean about the liquor, until we saw the
Italian reaching for his bayonet. Then the rest of us joined in, and
the precious pair of rascals, who had forgotten their comrades when
they were happy, got something which made them rise in the morning with
more aches in the body than they had in the head. They apologised the
next day and we forgave them. This was another lesson to me. I saw that
when a man got anything outside his ordinary share of good things he
was supposed to go share and share alike with the rest of his squad.
Many a time afterwards I have seen men who had at one time been of good
position at home, and whose relatives could and would send them money,
openly show the amount received in tent or hut or barrack room, and we
others went out to spend that money when the evening came with just
as much belief in our right to do so as if the money had been sent to
the squad and not to the man. Well, the rich ones did not lose in the
end, for they got many a favour from their comrades which the average
soldier would be a fool to expect.

The corporal of my squad on the march south was a rather good fellow. I
am not quite sure whether he was a German or an Austrian by birth. He
had seen a good deal of Algerian life, and was determined as soon as
his term was up to get clear away for ever from Africa. This was not
pleasant news. Here was a corporal, a man of over four years' service,
whose whole and sole idea it was to leave the Legion and the country.
It plainly proved that the life before us was not the most attractive
in the world, and the thought often crossed my mind that perhaps I had
been a fool to try soldiering in such a corps. With the happy-go-lucky
recklessness of youth, however, I quickly got rid of these fancies, and
I could console myself that five years would not be long passing, and
at the very worst I should have learned more, situated as I was, than
if I were to spend the term at school, and at such a school as the one
I had been attending.

I got on fairly well with the others of my squad. I have never been
inclined to affront people, and I can honestly say that I have never
shirked my work, and these qualities, added to a natural cheerfulness
of disposition which caused me to look at the bright side of things,
helped me very much all through my stay in the Foreign Legion. Indeed,
there was only one man who was disliked by all. He was a Pole, a
German Pole, I believe, and he had the most sarcastic tongue of all
the men I've ever met. His sneering smile was almost as bad as his
cutting tongue. While speaking politely he said little things that
one could not very well resent, and that, therefore, hurt one the
more. It's bad to be an idler, and worse to have a nasty way of openly
abusing and insulting people, but the worst gift of God to a man is the
gift of sarcasm. The sarcastic man never has a friend. There are, of
course, always men who will fawn upon and flatter him, but that will be
only through fear of his tongue--even they who most court him rejoice
inwardly at his misfortunes. He can't be always lucky, he must take his
bad fortune as it comes, and when it does come he cannot help knowing
that all who know him are glad.

It was well, I think, for our friend the Pole that the journey did not
last a week longer. Somebody or other would be sure to lose his temper,
and if one blow were struck, twenty would surely follow, for we all
hated him. He said something about a gorilla one day, looking hard all
the while at the Italian already mentioned, and it was a wonder that
there was no fight. There would have been, I feel sure, but that the
bugles sounded the assemble for the last march of the day, and the
Italian, who was no beauty, had a few hours of marching to get cool.
The Pole was quiet enough for the next couple of days, and by that time
we were within six hours' march of our destination.

Before describing the battalion to which I now belonged I must say a
few words about the Foreign Legion in general, so that the peculiar
characteristics of the corps may be understood. All that I shall
mention in this chapter is that one sunny afternoon about four o'clock
we marched into camp on the borders of the Sahara amid the cheers of
our future comrades, and that within an hour our 200 men were divided
amongst the four companies that constituted the 2nd Battalion of the
First Regiment of the _Légion étrangère_.


For centuries the armies of France have had a certain proportion of
foreign troops. Readers of Scott will remember the Scottish archers,
and there is a regiment in the British army to-day which was at one
time a Scottish corps in the service of the Most Christian Kings of
France. Almost everyone has heard of the Irish Brigade, a force whose
records fill many a bloody and glorious page of European history
and whose prowess more than once turned the ebb-tide of defeat into
the full flood of victory. It has been computed that almost 500,000
Irishmen died in the French service; and we may well imagine that
half-a-million dashing soldiers did not yield up their lives for

In the time of the great Napoleon there were many foreign brigades
in the grand army. Everybody has read of the famous Polish lancers
who time and again shattered the chivalry of Prussia, Austria, and
Muscovy in those combats of giants, when kingdoms were the prizes and
marshalships and duchies mere consolations for the less lucky ones.
These Poles were magnificent fools. Poniatowski and his riders clung
to Napoleon, led the way in his advances, covered the rear in his
retreats, and all the while the cynical emperor had little, if any,
thought of restoring the ancient glories of Poland, and thus repaying
the country for the valour and devotion of her sons. Other foreign
cavalry he had as well, but they became more or less mixed with the
native Frenchmen, and thus do not stand out so boldly to our mental
vision as the Poles. Chief amongst the great emperor's foreign infantry
brigades was the Irish one. Indeed, to this one alone of them an eagle
was entrusted, and it may do no harm to remark here that that eagle,
much as it was coveted by certain enemies, was never lost, and was
handed back to French custody when the Irish Brigade ceased to exist
as an independent body after the final defeat at Waterloo. Most of
the brigade, not caring for the monarchy after having so long and so
faithfully served the empire, took advantage of the offer made to them
of taking service under the British monarch, and were incorporated in
various regiments of the British army. Indeed, in the late twenties and
early thirties of the nineteenth century it was by no means uncommon to
meet in Irish villages a war-worn veteran who had been in most of the
great European battles--Jena, Austerlitz, Borodino, Waterloo--and had
finished his soldiering under the burning suns of Hindostan.

In the Crimea, again, a foreign legion, somewhat like the legion formed
by the British Government for the same campaign, was amongst the troops
sent out by Napoleon the Third. I know very little about this corps,
but I am quite sure that it got its full share, and more, of danger,
hard work, and privations. Anyway the Crimean campaign, except for a
few battles, was more a contest against nature than against the enemy.

In the Franco-Prussian war we next find mention of the Legionaries. At
the battle of Orleans, when that city was captured by the Prussians,
the Foreign Legion and the Pontifical Zouaves covered the French
retreat. When we learn that out of 1500 of the former only 36 remained
at the end of the day there will be little need to ask where were the
Legionaries during the rest of the war. It must be remembered also,
that the 1500 men who fought and fell outside Orleans were the remains
of the Legionaries brought from Algeria, and that their comrades left
behind were amongst the most distinguished of those who quelled the
rebellion of the Kabyles in the year '71. It is only just to mention
that the Pontifical Zouaves covered themselves with glory at this
fight; they went into action along with the Legion on the 11th of
October 1870, 370 strong, of whom only 17 survived the day.

The Foreign Legion, as I knew it, consisted, as I believe it still
consists, of two regiments, each containing four battalions. As a
battalion numbers 1000 men the total strength of the service soldiers
may be put at 8000. In addition there are depot men, including band,
drill instructors, and recruits; but I have said enough about the
depot already, so I shall now confine myself altogether to the service

Every battalion is divided into four companies, and thus a company
contains, approximately, 250 officers, sub-officers, and soldiers.
The officers are three--captain, lieutenant, and sub-lieutenant. Next
comes the sergeant-major of the company, a sub-officer who keeps the
accounts. There are two sergeants, one for each of the two sections
into which the company is divided, and under them a number of corporals
in command of squads, every squad being, be it understood, a distinct
unit in the economy of the section to which it belongs. The men are
divided into two classes, the first and the second, and from the first
class are chosen the corporals as vacancies arise.

The uniform consists of kepi with a brass grenade in front, blue tunic
with black belt, red trousers, or white, according to the season. With
the red trousers go black gaiters, with the white ones white spats,
somewhat like those worn by Highland soldiers in the British army. The
knapsack, greatcoat, and other impedimenta are rather heavy, especially
when 150 rounds of ball cartridge are included. I don't know the exact
weight, but I remember that I used to feel an ugly drag on my shoulders
at the end of a day's march. The pouch for ammunition at the side also
pressed heavily against the body, and we often wished that those who
had the arrangement of a man's equipment should wear it on the march,
day in day out, if only for a month. There might be some common-sense
displayed by them after that. But in all ages and nations a man's
accoutrements--I use the word in the most general sense--have been
decided on by tailors and good-for-nothing generals--oh, there are
plenty of them in every army in the world--and, worst of all, by women,
who twist and turn the said generals around their little fingers. Look
at a private soldier of any army when standing at attention in full
marching order; you are pleased with the sight; his head is erect, his
straightened shoulders seem easily to support the heavy pack behind;
the twin pouches look so beautifully symmetrical. Ask that soldier how
he feels at the end of a thirty-mile march. If he isn't a liar, he will
tell you that the rifle is rather heavy, but he doesn't mind that; that
the pack galls a bit, but that's to be expected; and that the pouches
weighted with ammunition have given him a dull, heavy pain in each
side just above, he imagines, where the kidneys are, and if that pain
could be avoided he would think little of all the rest. Many a time I
have taken the packets of cartridges from the pouches before we had
gone a quarter of a mile and stowed them away between the buttons of my
tunic--there they had ribs and breast bone to rest against. Why don't
the people whose business and interest it is to get the best out of
the private soldier give the private soldier a chance? But they won't.
Of all the humbugs on the face of God's earth the military officer of,
say, twenty years' service is the worst.

The soldier of the second class wore no decoration on his sleeve, the
soldier of the first class had a red chevron, the corporal wore two
red chevrons, the sergeant a single gold one, and the sergeant-major
two gold ones. It was a good thing to be a soldier of the first class,
not because you wore a chevron or got extra pay, but because, when a
charge was made against you by sergeant or corporal, the officers
would listen carefully to your defence, and you generally got what the
second-class man rarely got--a fair chance as well as a patient hearing.

Squad etiquette was rather peculiar. You were assigned to a squad, and
on entering were made free, as I may say, of the mess, and how you got
on afterwards with your enforced comrades depended largely on yourself.
You might be very well liked, or thoroughly disliked, but violent likes
and dislikes were rather uncommon. As a rule, you had just a little
trouble in asserting your right to a fair share, and that always, of
what was going. If you had a dispute with another your comrades looked
on and listened; if you came to blows they prevented the affair from
going too far; and unless the corporal was a brute he allowed his squad
to arrange their own affairs out of working hours in their own way.
But you dared not form friendships with men outside the squad; if you
did you were set upon and punished in every way by your comrades, and
your friend was served in the same way by his. Let me give an instance.
A rather nice, quiet fellow, an Alsatian, was in my squad at a place
called Zenina when we received a new draft of recruits from the depot.
Amongst these was another Alsatian, who came from the same place as
my comrade, and, as was natural, the two became fast friends. Under
the circumstances nothing was said at first, and had either asked for
a transfer to his friend's squad all would have been well. After some
time, however, the comrades of both began to object. Why, we asked one
another, should Schmidt openly abandon us and our genial company for a
man who should by right be good comrade with others? Well, Schmidt was
abused, and bore the abuse calmly; he got only half a share at meals,
and still did not go further than a meek protest; he came back after
seeing his chum, and found all his kit flung outside the door of the
hut, his rifle fouled, his bayonet covered with salt water, his straps
dirty, and his buckles dull; still he bore with all. Next evening
he went to visit his friend, and, while he was absent, we formed a
soldiers' court-martial and tried him. One man represented the accuser,
another took the part of Schmidt, but the result was quite evident from
the first. He was found guilty of neglecting his duties as a comrade,
and as he had openly abandoned his squad and thereby shown his contempt
for it, at the same time exposing us to the derision of all the
battalion, it was high time that the squad should adequately punish him
and thus vindicate its character.

The chief difficulty was about the punishment. It was first proposed
that we should put him _en crapaudine_ for a night, seizing and binding
him while all in the cantonments were asleep, and releasing him in
the morning before the reveille. However, it was pointed out that the
corporal would not be likely to permit that, and, if he did permit it,
Schmidt might report the matter and get the corporal into trouble. Now
the corporal was a good fellow. He swore at us and abused us and would
allow not even a sullen muttering in reply, but he would not, if he
could help it, of course, get a man into trouble with the sergeant or
the captain or the commandant. Occasionally he would find a bottle of
wine, half-a-bottle of brandy, or a score or two of cigarettes in his
corner. He said nothing, and as soon as the bottle was empty he did not
have anything more to do with it: it was removed without a word by some
one of us and quietly, I may say unostentatiously, deposited where its
presence need not be accounted for by any of our squad.

After a good deal of talking we finally settled on a plan. What it
was will appear in a short time. That night we could not do as we had
resolved, for the corporal came in at an early hour in the evening
as drunk and as abusive as a man could be. He rolled against me, and
cursed me for a dirty, drunken pig, who could not carry his liquor like
a soldier. He stood tottering in his corner of the room, and gave out
more bad language than he had ever done before. And we were not quiet.
He got quite as much as he gave; we described for his benefit our
conceptions of his father and his mother--his father was a dog and his
mother the female of the same species--we attributed to himself all the
bad qualities that we could think of; we even called him coward, and
dared him to report us at once to the sergeant or the captain. He knew,
and we knew, that if he did so his arrest would at once follow and that
the chevrons on his arm would not be worth one of the brass buttons on
his tunic. We overpowered him with abuse at length, and he fell asleep
muttering curses and threats, which were altogether forgotten in the

Next evening the chance came. The corporal had taken a hint that it
would be just as well for him for his own sake to have some appointment
that would keep him away until the last moment before roll call. I may
admit that when he woke in the morning he looked, and I suppose felt,
very ill, and even refused his morning coffee when it was first offered
to him. I took the coffee then from the man who had offered it, and,
while all the rest, as it had been arranged, turned their backs, poured
into it nearly a quarter of a pint of brandy. He saw what I was doing
and took the mixture from me. Smelling it carefully first, he swallowed
a little; liking the taste, he swallowed some more; and in less than
two minutes he handed back the empty vessel to me, with a wink and
a nod of the head that told me how delightful had been the little
surprise prepared for him.

As he was going out another man held out his hand with a couple
of cigarettes. "Thanks, my comrade, how you are kind!" said the

When he came in for soup, I again poured some brandy from the bottle
into a tin cup in such a way that the corporal saw but the rest did
not, being discreetly engaged. He did not wait to have it carried
to him, he came swiftly round, took the cup, and drained it at a
gulp. Then somebody left six or eight cigarettes near the corporal's
bedplace, and all walked out except the corporal and myself. I went
to the door, looked out, came back to my own bunk, took out a bottle
of wine nearly three-quarters full and the tin cup, walked over to
the corporal, filled the cup to the brim, and dutifully offered it
to my superior officer. He drank, and returned the empty cup to me.
Filling it for myself, I finished the contents, and then asked him
for a cigarette--just one. The corporal gave it me, and I began the

"Bad for us others if you lost the chevrons, corporal."

"Why? Why? what did I say last night?"

"Oh, nothing to speak about; but, corporal----" Then I stopped and
looked straight at him.

"Well, my comrade, what do you wish to say?"

Now he was afraid; he began to fear something hidden by the kindness.

"But, my corporal, could you not make an appointment now, so that after
the evening soup you would be engaged until roll call--away from this
place and in good company?"

"Oh yes, yes; that is easy."

"And your comrade might like to smoke and drink a little; if so, my
corporal, after the evening soup, when we others leave the room, look
behind your knapsack."

"Good comrade; but will anything happen?"

"Yes; a man will go to hospital for a week."

"To hospital?"


"Only to hospital?"

"My honour; only to hospital."

"And for a week?"

"Well, perhaps for ten days."

"But only to hospital?"

"Have I not pledged my honour?"

"Very good; I will see my good friend Jean this evening. But you, you
will remember, only the hospital."

After the evening soup, as all were going out, he called me.

"It is settled, my comrade; only the hospital?"

"But yes," I answered.

"Not this?" said the corporal, fingering a bayonet.

I shook my head.

"Not this?" and he touched the butt of a rifle.

I answered as before.

"And only hospital; word of honour?"

"Word of honour," I replied.

"Be it so then; I am well content."

Then he looked behind his knapsack and found half-a-bottle of brandy, a
bottle of wine, and six cigars. He turned, put out his hand to me, and

"You are my good comrade. Have no fear; if there should be trouble, it
is you, it is you that I will save." I laughed and shook his hand; he
gave me a cigar, and the next moment was sorry for his generosity.

Schmidt went off after the evening soup to see his chum.

"Very well, very well," we said to one another. Lots were quickly
drawn--we had not a son amongst us to toss with--and Nicholas the
Russian, Guillaume the Belgian, Jean Jacques from Lorraine, and I
were chosen as executioners of justice. The others lounged outside
in different places, all anxious to let us know in good time of the
arrival of the condemned. About an hour after soup we were warned that
he was coming towards the hut. At once the blanket which was ready was
laid on the ground directly inside the door, and each man stood at his
corner waiting for the victim. The others outside gaily saluted him,
and the fool did not suspect the unusual courtesy; he was humming an
air to himself as he stepped through the doorway on to the blanket. In
a second we had raised it at the corners; he stumbled and fell, in a
limp heap, in the bottom. We jerked the blanket upward, and crash came
his head against the roof of the hut. We let go at the word of command,
given by the Russian; flop went his body against the floor. Again and
again this was repeated, till our arms were tired, and the others who
had crowded in and had been excited by the fun swore that he had not
been punished sufficiently and that they would take our places. I was
glad enough to surrender my corner to an Italian, for, indeed, my arms
were weary, and my feelings--I was only a boy, you must remember--were
shocked at the sight of the unresisting and almost insensible bit of
humanity in the blanket.

After a short time the Russian said the game should stop, and we, the
other appointed dispensers of punishment, backed him up. Some grumbled,
but Nicholas, to give him his due, was not a man to be turned from his
purpose, and his reputation was such that nobody was very anxious to
fall out with him. So the blanket was dropped for the last time, pulled
from under the Alsatian, replaced on his bed, and we all went out,
leaving the wretched fellow groaning on the ground. After a short talk
we came back, gave him a drink, put him to bed, and prepared to meet
the corporal on his return.

The corporal came in a little before roll call.

"What's wrong?" he asked as he heard the moaning of the Alsatian.
Nobody answered. The corporal went across to the injured man's cot and
again inquired. The poor devil told him as well as he could, and the
_sous-officier_ at once ordered us all not to leave the hut until his
return. He went out, and came back in a few minutes with the sergeant
of the section. There is no need in telling all about the inquiry that
followed; suffice it to say that the corporal was the only man sleeping
in the room that night--the Alsatian was in hospital and we others
under guard.

Of course, our conduct was approved of throughout the battalion.
Regimental tradition is dearer than justice, and we were regarded as
good soldiers and good comrades who had merely vindicated our honour.
But the army tradition is: when a charge is made and proved, punish.
Officers _may_ sympathise, but they _must_ punish. Therefore we of the
squad, corporal and Alsatian excepted, were sentenced to do extra drill
every day for a month and sleep in our clothes under guard every night.
It was a hard punishment. The weather was hot, we had little change of
underclothing, and when we lay down on the planks for the night with
the shirts and drawers on that we had worn during the day our sleep
was restless, fitful, and uneasy. It is a wonder we did not mutiny;
however, that would be going too far, so we counted the days and nights
that intervened until we should be free soldiers again. The Alsatian
was transferred from the hospital to another battalion, and I came
across him again, and was glad to find that he bore no malice; indeed,
he admitted that we were justified in acting as we had done and that it
was his own fault, as he had not asked for a transfer.

The incident I have related will give some idea of my life in the
corps. I shall have soon to relate another story, which will show that
jealousy might arise between companies as well as in a squad.


About this time there were signs of a disturbance amongst the
semi-savage tribes that hold the oases on the borders of the great
desert. These are not, and I daresay never will be, brought completely
under subjection. They are to the French in Algeria what the hill
tribes of the Himalayas are to the British in Hindostan. They are
by nature, proud, fierce, suspicious; by religion, contemptuous of
Christian dogs; by habit, predatory. They are fairly well armed,
indeed, they make their own weapons and ammunition. When they go on the
warpath there is always more trouble than one would expect, considering
their numbers; they are so elusive, so trained to forced marches, so
dashing in attack and swift in retreat, that the Government has to
allow at least three men for every Arab. If a general could corner
them and get well home with the bayonet after the usual preliminaries
of shell firing and musketry, or if the rascals would only come on and
have done with it, a quarter of the number would suffice. But these
pleasant things don't occur--I mean pleasant for the man with the
modern rifle--at least, if they do, it is only when all the oases of
the district have been seized, and then the Arabs may prefer to hazard
all on a big fight, but as a rule they bow to destiny and surrender.

Well, one morning we noticed the commandant and other officers
jubilant and smiling, and very soon the news got down to us through
the _sous-officiers_ that our battalion was for active service. How
delighted we were! All punishments in the battalion were at once
remitted; we had no more to suffer for the affair of the Alsatian; and
the other squad, which had treated Alsatian number two in a similar
manner, was also included in the pardon.

We were not long getting ready for the march. The day after the good
news came the battalion tramped out of cantonments nearly 1100 strong,
every man in good condition, and with 150 cartridges in his pouches.
A significant order was given on the parade ground, when we formed
up for the last time in column of companies. We were told to break
open each man a packet of cartridges and to load. We did so, and the
commandant addressed us, and gave us fair warning that he could not
permit _accidents_--he laid great stress on the word and repeated it
more than once--he told us that if an _accident_ did occur it would
be bad for the man whose rifle should be found to be discharged; he
quoted the Bible to us, saying something about "a life for a life and
a tooth"--yes, I think it was a tooth--"for a tooth." The old soldiers
understood, and we others learned the meaning before we came to the
first halting-place.

The fact is, in every regiment, and nowhere more than in the Foreign
Legion, there are unpopular officers and sub-officers, and there are
feuds amongst the men, and what is easier than to loose off a rifle
accidentally and, accidentally as it were, hit the man you dislike? In
action the thing is done far more commonly than people suppose--and
that is the safest time to do it; but after a fight, when all the men's
rifles are foul, and when a cartridge can be flung away as soon as
used, a bullet is sometimes sent through a tent on the off-chance of
hitting the right man within. So the commandant was justified when he
warned and threatened us about accidents.

We marched about twenty-five kilometres every day, and did it
cheerfully. We did not mind the country through which we passed, for
all our thoughts were turned to the work before us. The veterans were
in good humour. What advice they gave! "When the Arab charges you, mon
enfant, or when you charge the Arab, which is better, thrust at his
face the first time and at his body the second." "But why?" "Ah, my
boy, give him the bayonet in the body and still he will strike; give
it to him in the head, and then you can finish with a second stroke.
And, again, the glint of the bayonet will disturb his aim, and, even
should you miss with the first thrust, you can always get your weapon
back and send it home before he recovers--of course, that is if you are
quick enough. Moreover, the Arab expects you to lunge at his body, and
you must always, if you are a good soldier, disappoint your enemy. Then
there is no protection for his face; but a button or a piece of brass,
even a secretly-worn cuirass, may turn your point and leave you at his

We eagerly drank in all this and similar hints from the men of
experience. The old soldiers were delighted. We were all as happy as
schoolboys out for a holiday; we endured the heat and dust without
muttering a complaint; nay, even old quarrels were forgotten, and the
man who would not look at his detested comrade a month before now
helped him with his knapsack or offered some tobacco, with a friendly

When the halt was called in the evening, the sentries were posted,
the fires lit, the little tents put up, the messes cooked for the
squads; but very soon the air of bustle and activity gave place to
an appearance of quiet ease. When the last meal of the day was over,
and the rifles, bayonets, straps, clothes, and everything else had
been cleaned, we lay about the camp in small parties, here two or
three, there half-a-dozen, yonder a full squad. Again we listened to
the _vieux soldats_; we made them repeat their stories of war and
pillage; we eagerly questioned them about the chances of loot. Some
of our fellows had fought in the Russo-Turkish war of '78; Nicholas,
whom I have mentioned, was believed to have commanded a company of
Russian guards at the siege of Plevna, and, though he never said in
so many words that he had even carried a rifle and knapsack in that
war, he told us stories of it that could be told only by an onlooker,
and it was easy to see that he was a man of birth and education, and,
judging by the money with which his purse was often filled--not for
long though, as he was a prince to spend--of wealth as well. It was
during this march that I learned for the first time the privileges
of a soldier as the soldier conceives them--I mean his chances when
the fighting is over and the enemy's camp, village, or town is in his
hands. Perhaps I had best say nothing or, if anything at all, but
little of them. One thing I may mention; it is foolish for people to
suppose that fighting men of to-day are at all different from their
compeers of yore--the only change is that the rapine and the pillage
are not boasted of so openly--but there is just as little of the spirit
of Christianity in a so-called civilised army as there used to be in
a legion of Julius Cæsar, perhaps even less. Many people will regret
this, and yet you always find the goody-goodies and even the women
loudest in crying out for war to avenge the wrongs, or fancied wrongs,
of their country or to acquire new territory and new trade. I say this:
if the women of the world only once realised to the full what war means
to the women of the losers they would throw all their weight into the
scale of peace. And remember, armaments are such to-day that no nation
is absolutely safe from invasion; social questions, the relations
between capital and labour, the currency, slave labour amongst whites,
even in the United States--most happily situated of all countries--the
eternal feud between whites and blacks in the South--any of these may
at any moment cause a war worse than a war of invasion, because more
bitter, more relentless, more capable of leaving a heritage of hate.
Who is the more to be blamed: the rigid moralist at home who admits
that most wars are the devil's work but proclaims that the war which he
favours and shouts for is really blessed by God; or the soldier who,
after dreary weeks or months of weary marching, with broken boots or no
boots at all during the day, and chilling nights with only a tattered
greatcoat or a ragged blanket to save him from the dew, with the
memory upon him of hunger and thirst, of dust and fatigue, of constant
knowledge that any moment may see him a corpse or a maimed weakling on
the ground, forgets the Ten Commandments and even his natural humanity
when the final charge has been successful and the chance has at last
come for, in part at least, repaying himself, as soldiers have since
war began repaid themselves, for toil and trouble and danger in the
conquered town? Blame the man who does wrong if you will, but blame
more the foolish people who, fancying that rapine and pillage can never
stalk abroad in their own happy land, let loose the dogs of war upon
their neighbours. The Carthaginian maids and matrons acclaimed their
returning heroes; the day came when the Roman legionaries taught those
very maids and matrons the real meaning of war. How proud the Roman
women were of their gallant warriors when the gorgeous triumph unfolded
itself on the long road to the Capitol! With what different feelings
did they look on war as the news came that Attila had forced his way
into the rich plains of Lombardy; or, even before that, with what
agonised apprehension did they not look forth from the walls at the
red glare in the sky that told of the presence of Hannibal? We abuse
Turks and Arabs, Filipinos and Chinese, the Baggara from the desert
and the tribal mountaineers from the borders of Afghanistan because,
forsooth, they do not make war as Christianity dictates. And what about
the allied armies in China of late? They were Christians--by repute
at least; but what were they in reality? Just a little worse than the
Boxers, that is all. Do I blame them? No; I know the temptations; I
know how quickly the soldiers of Christian, so-called Christian, armies
are taught to forget the Ten Commandments. I am not surprised, nor do
I feel called upon to censure. I shall leave the casting of stones to
the people who are always strong to resist their passions, especially
those passions which soldiers feel and yield to most readily--lust of
others' property, which your virtuous stockbroker will never allow to
enter into his bosom; lust of strong drink, which never affects the
shouters for war in the streets; lust of--well, another lust which need
not be spoken of here, as I have already hinted more than enough of it
and its consequences.

However, I've done with moralising. We young soldiers heard, and heard
with an awakening of delight, of pleasurable anticipation, the things
that might happen when the fighting for the day was done. And war does
not seem all war. You've got to cook and eat, to forage and drink, to
mount guard or sleep, just as if you were back in cantonments, and the
daily routine soon grows upon a man--at any rate it soon grew upon me.

At last we joined the general. We were the first of his reinforcements,
and very soon, as others arrived, the defensive gave place to the
offensive. I can't tell about the progress of the little campaign; all
I know is our share of it, and for me that was quite enough. For a few
weeks we were cornering the enemy, seizing a well here, a caravan of
provisions there, and having slight brushes, in which a dozen or two
men killed and wounded represented our losses. The Arabs, having been
beaten back by the men originally attacked, did not seem to care to
give the general a good stand-up fight now that his forces had been
increased, and after some time we began to fancy that they were merely
holding out for good terms and would at last surrender in the usual
way. Not that we grew careless about our guards, pickets, and vedettes,
discipline prevented that, and luckily, for when all the oases had been
seized and garrisoned except one, the Arabs, in desperation I believe,
determined to throw all upon the hazard of a battle. This was my first
real experience of fighting, for I don't count it fighting to advance
in skirmishing order and fire at constantly moving figures half-a-mile
away. I judged their opinion of us by ours of them, and, indeed, we
never even ducked the head, for we could not fear bullets at such a

Our cavalry had been pushed forward to locate the enemy and hold him if
possible. My company and two companies of native infantry and three or
four guns were sent in support, and the main body, coming along slowly
and laboriously owing to difficulties of transport, moved in our rear,
the flanks well protected by outlying horse. One evening when we were
about fifteen kilometres in front of the general--too far, of course,
but some officers do so want to distinguish themselves when they get a
separate command--the chasseurs d'Afrique and the spahis rode back upon
us. They reported the enemy in a strong position at the last oasis left
to them, about twelve kilometres away, and our commanding officer sent
back the news at once, halting meanwhile for instructions. He acted
somewhat wisely too in getting us to throw up a sort of fortification
on a piece of rising ground. A circular trench was dug; the stuff taken
out formed a weak rampart; a biscuit or two and a glass of brandy
were served out to every man; and then we lay down on the hard ground
without a tent or even a blanket for shelter or covering. The horsemen
fell back on the main body; their work was done, and they would be
worse than useless in a night attack.

Most of the night passed quietly, and I, who had done two hours
sentry-go before midnight without seeing or hearing anything which
could disquiet me, began to hope that the savage devils would wait to
be attacked. About an hour before sunrise the corporal in charge of
the outlying picket called me for another turn of duty. I arose from
where I lay, took my rifle from the ground, and prepared to set out for
my post, about eighty paces in front. I was to relieve Nicholas the
Russian. As I took his place he whispered: "Look out, young one; the
dangerous hour!"

When the corporal and his party went away I gazed intently into the
darkness towards the south. I knew by experience gained in many a night
watch that very soon the sun would, as it always seemed to me, born and
bred in a northern land, jump up on the horizon and send his welcome
arrows of light across shrub and rock and sand. Once the light came
the sudden rush in upon the camp would be impossible; the modern rifle
would stave off all attack; spear and bayonet would clash together only
when our leaders saw that the time had come when we should be on the
rush and the enemy on the run.

As I gazed I fancied that there was a movement in my front. I could
not at the time, nor can I now, though I am a man of wider experience
to-day, swear that I actually saw anything, but that an impalpable,
strange, indefinite change was coming over the blackness of the desert,
I neither doubted nor misunderstood. Raising my rifle to my shoulder,
quietly and cautiously as one does whose own body may be in a second
the target for countless bullets, I aimed steadily at the blackest
part of the blackness and fired. As I turned to run to the picket an
awful shriek rang out, telling me that my bullet had found a billet,
and then, while I ran shouting: "Aux armes, aux armes!" a hideous,
savage cry ran in a great circle all about the camp. When I closed on
the picket the corporal was giving his orders: "One volley, and run
for the camp." The volley was fired, and we all ran madly back to the
entrenchments, crying: "Aux armes, les ennemis!" not, indeed, to warn
our comrades of their danger, but to let them know that we were the men
of the outlying picket fleeing to camp and not the mad vanguard of the
attack. We got inside the little rampart, helped over by willing arms,
and at once the crash of musketry began. Our men had their bayonets
fixed; for a double purpose this--for defence if the Arabs came home
in the charge, to lower the muzzle if only shooting were necessary.
Luckily our firing became so successful that the Arabs stopped to
reply, and, you may take my word for it, when a charging man halts to
fire he is already weakening for retreat.

Well, we kept the enemy at a safe distance till the blessed sun sprang
up and turned the chances to our side. Yet still they hung around, and
a dropping fire was maintained on both sides. They did not now surround
the little camp; they had all collected in almost a semicircle on
the southern side. While the desultory firing went on our commandant
eagerly turned his gaze from time to time towards the north, and he
was at last rewarded. He sent orders to give a ration of brandy to
every man--the rascal! He had seen the glint of lance heads on the
horizon, and he wanted to take a little of the pursuer's glory from the
cavalrymen. Glory, glory! what follies are committed in thy name! The
brandy was given out, the news went around that the horse were coming
up at the gallop, the men looked with blood-lust in their eyes at the
lying-down semicircle to the south, the commandant flung off jacket,
belt, scabbard, keeping only sabre and pistol, and with a wild cheer
and cries of "Kill, kill!" we rushed from the camp straight at the
enemy. They were not cowards. They gave us a wild, scattered fire, and
then, flinging away their rifles and flintlocks, came daringly, with
loud cries of "Allah!" to meet us. And in their charge they covered a
greater distance than we did in ours, for they came along every man
at racing speed, and their line grew more and more irregular, whereas
we, disciplined and trained to move all as one man, easily fell into
the regulation _pas gymnastique_, and so went forward a solid, steady,
cheering line, officers leading, and clarions at our backs sounding the

As we neared one another a great shout went up from us. Nicholas
the Russian, who was my front-rank man, dashed forward and stabbed
a yelling demon rushing at him with uplifted spear. I ran into his
place, and saw almost at once a dusky madman, with a short, scanty
beard, coming straight at me with murder in his eyes. I remembered
the advice given by the _vieux soldats_, and as he raised his sword I
plunged my bayonet with all my force into his face. He half reeled, he
almost fell, and as he recovered again I lunged and struck him fair
and full on the breast bone. Again he reeled, yet still he tried to
strike; I thrust a third time, and now at his bare neck; the spouting
blood followed out the bayonet as I drew it forth and back to strike
again. Before I had time to do so the Arab fell, a convulsive tremor
passed over his body, the limbs contracted, the eyes opened wide to
the sky, the jaw fell, and for the first time I saw my enemy lie
stark and cold in death before me. I stood watching, with a curious
feeling at my heart, the body that lay so strangely still upon the
sand. I felt no desire that life should return to the corpse, nor did
I feel at all inclined to drive my weapon home again; it seemed to
me that my assailant and the dead were not one and the same, and the
animosity which I had felt for the living foe was lost, nay, utterly
extinguished, in wonder at the awful change my handiwork had produced.
Remember, I was only a boy, and I had taken that which no man can
restore. Many times since have I looked without a shudder, almost
without a thought, on the face of my dead foeman, but on that morning
in the desert my mind was shocked by the new experience.

Suddenly I heard a trumpet and a cry. I looked towards the right; the
spahis were riding at top speed with levelled lances on the foe. Our
men were scattered, fighting in squads and parties over the plain,
driving the Arabs back. The press of battle had gone beyond me. In a
moment the horsemen swept into the Arab ranks; the lances rose and fell
with terrible significance as the mass rolled on. Our work was over;
the cavalry so rushed and harried the fleeing enemy that the rebellion
was practically at an end, for that time of course, before noon. When
the main body came up the chiefs were in our camp, prepared to accept
any terms offered by the general. These were hard enough. All arms to
be surrendered, a heavy fine to be paid, their villages to be kept in
our possession till all the petty fortifications should be dismantled.
Yes; my company kept a village and an oasis, and I fancy that the next
generation of Arabs was whiter than their forbears. But that is war;
and the people--the goody-goodies and the stockbrokers and the foolish
women--who believe that honour dwells in the heart of a soldier on
active service will lament our wickedness and get ready for the next
occasion when they can send off their own soldiers to war, glorious


Not long after the end of the little war my company and another were
ordered on garrison duty to a place which we called, for what reason
I know not, Three Fountains. I never saw three springs in the place;
of course, there was an oasis but whether this, before being walled
in, had really been divided into three separate wells I cannot say.
Probably the name was a fanciful one given by a soldier and taken up by
his comrades.

Alongside us lay about five or six hundred Turcos. They did not like
us and we did not care overmuch for them, so you might imagine that
here were pretty grounds and opportunity for a quarrel. Not so, indeed;
they kept away from us, for they knew well what would happen should
one of them dare to enter our lines. We gave them a wide berth, for
the African is always--like the Asiatic and the American and the
European--ripe for treachery to men of another race and colour. No; the
races did not fight, but we of the higher breed,--how angels and devils
must laugh when people speak of higher breeds!--had a very pretty fight
amongst ourselves.

It came about in an unusual way, but for the invariable cause. There
was a Portuguese in No. 4 Company who loved a girl--a Cooloolie girl
who had followed him in all his marches and campaignings. A Cooloolie,
I may explain, is the offspring of a Turkish father and an Arab or
Christian mother, and as a rule when a Cooloolie woman gives herself to
a man she does it in a thorough manner and without any reservation save
one--the woman's right to change her mind. And this lassie did change
her mind, and of her own accord made love to a Greek who belonged to
my company, as handsome and well-formed a man as I have ever had the
good fortune to see, and a downright good soldier. Certainly I should
not care to see him too near my knapsack--brushes and such things have
a strange knack of disappearing--but I know very well that he was a
right man in a fight and a trump to spend his money when he had it.
He did not have it often, and when he had you generally heard next
morning that an officer's tent had been visited--yes, visited is a good
word--by someone not invited.

Well, the Cooloolie girl flung over the Portuguese, with bad words
and worse insinuations, and openly followed the Greek around, like
a dog after its master. And Apollo, of course, who probably did not
care a button about the woman, must go here and there, head up, with
smiling face, cheery talk, and queer jests. He visited every corner of
the camp: first the part where we, his own company lay; then, still
followed by the woman, the Turcos, who showed their white teeth and
grinned and muttered: by Jove, he was a handsome man, and she, though
rather dusky and stout, looked a perfect beauty in such a place, remote
from civilisation; last of all he came towards us through the company
of his predecessor in the Cooloolie girl's favour. Flesh and blood,
least of all the hot blood of a Peninsular, could not stand it; with a
hoarse cry and an awful oath the Portuguese rushed at the Greek, but
Apollo was quite prepared. Slipping aside he struck the poor devil
full under the ear at the base of the skull and sent him headlong to
the earth, senseless. Apollo, seeing that his opponent did not rise,
calmly walked to his own quarters, the girl now hanging upon his arm
and uttering all the endearing words she could think of, looking up the
while into his face as one entranced. None of the men of No. 4 Company
interfered. It was a common thing enough for two men to quarrel about
a woman, and, though they must have felt sore that their comrade had
been worsted, still that was no reason why outsiders should interfere.
The matter would have been settled by the interested parties for
themselves had it not been for the devilish desire of creating mischief
that always possessed Nicholas the Russian. Indeed, Nicholas loved
mischief like a woman.

Now Nicholas was a man who often had money and spent it like a
gentleman, a soldier, and a rascal. He never got all that was sent to
him, any more than the Crown gets all the revenues collected in its
name: to greasy palms coins will always stick. If 1000 francs were his
due--sent by friends, of course--he reckoned himself lucky to be able
to spend half. This time he must have received a more than ordinary
sum, for instead of following the custom of the Legion and showing us,
his comrades, a little bit of paper, which the commandant would cash
next day, so that we, his good comrades, the men who liked and loved
him, might know exactly how much drink and other things to be had for
money each might fairly reckon on, he said:

"Our comrade, Apollo I mean, has taken the girl; let us be good
comrades to him; let us take the two cabarets to-morrow, and keep all
the drink and all the tobacco and all the cigars for ourselves, and
give the happy pair a right good wedding."

He pulled his moustache as he spoke, and then, turning his eyes round
the squad, he showed devilment and fun enough in them to entice the
ordinary good man to break not only the laws of God but to do a still
more risky thing--to break the laws of his society.

The word was passed around quickly that the Russian would be a good
friend to all the company, and not merely to his own section or his
own squad. Everybody was happy; we forgot squad distinctions and shook
hands with one another and handed freely round our tobacco, for was not
to-morrow the glorious day when _eau-de-vie_ and wine and cigars and
tobacco were to be had by every one of us, even without the asking? Ah!
the good Russian, the worthy comrade! Ah! the handsome Greek! Ah! the
wise woman, who knows the company to select her lover from! Ah! you,
good soldier, of another squad it is true; shall we not drink and smoke
together to-morrow and curse the pigs of No. 4? How they will groan and
curse and envy us to-morrow! Good-night, brave comrade; good-bye till I
see you again to-morrow!

The morrow came, with its drills and fatigues and duties. Some of ours
were for guard, others for camp picket; how they envied us who were
free for all the fun of the evening! The last meal was over, the last
duty for the day done, when Nicholas and Le Grand and I went out to
negotiate with the two cabaret keepers of the place.

Let me say something here about Le Grand. He was the biggest man in the
battalion, some fellows said in the Legion, but there were others who
denied this; anyway he was a fine, strapping Dubliner, whose real name
I do not care to give. He was in my company, but not in my squad, not
even in my section, so he and I passed each other when we met with a
friendly "English pig!" "Irish pig!" "Go to the devil!" "Yes, yes; have
you any tobacco?" "Yes; here, do not forget me to-morrow." Another word
and we separated.

But let me pay here my tribute to the comrade of whom I shall more
than once have occasion to speak. He was brave--I learned that on the
battlefield, I have it not by hearsay; he was generous--I learned
that many a time when we were together in Tonquin; he was kind and
honest--that is, honest for a soldier--to all he met with, and his only
fault was hastiness of temper, which made him knock you down one moment
and, with the corresponding virtue, pick you up the next. But he never
struck a boy, he never struck a veteran whose limbs and features showed
the effects of war, he would die of thirst sooner than take a drop of
water from the hot-tongued youngster in the fight who had the desire
to go forward and the weariness of the rifle and pack, and the moist
heat of socks and the dull, heavy, deadly pain of pouches at the sides.
I do not know where you are to-day, Le Grand; wherever you are take a
little, a very little, tribute from one of your comrades. Great as was
your frame, our liking and love for you were greater.

Well, we walked slowly, as befitted men bent on so important a mission,
down to the collection of mud huts where the sutlers were. Nicholas,
as the giver of the feast, had the centre, Le Grand was on his right,
and I, the youngest and least of the three, supported the Russian on
the left. We did not speak, but Nicholas now and then laughed, while
a constant smile, cynical, sarcastic, and malicious, was on his lips.
The Russian was evidently calculating on the fun he would have, for he,
if no one else did, forecasted accurately the result. He was paying,
and paying for a purpose; excitement was to him the breath of life;
he had no fear of consequences; if he were punished he would take his
punishment with that calm ease of manner which was the despair of all
his superiors from the commandant down.

The first cabaret we visited was kept by a retired soldier--a man
who had spent most of his life in Algeria, who had in fact, almost
forgotten France. An ugly, old Kabyle woman, whom, I daresay, he had
picked up a young girl in some forgotten desert raid, lived with him,
cooked his meals, and helped to swindle us poor fellows out of the
wretched pittance we were paid.

When we entered the host came forward, smiling, gloating I should say,
on Nicholas. The fellow evidently knew about the money. The Russian
came straight to the point.

"How much, _mon vieux_, for all in this hole?"

"What! all?"

"Well, you may leave out madame and the domestic furniture. How much, I
ask you, for the hut, the drink, the tobacco, the glasses, the tables
and forms, and all the rest of your property?"

"Well, well, I do not understand."

"Let us go to the Jew then," said Nicholas to Le Grand.

"Very well."

"What do you say, my friend?" This to me.

"A Jew can't swindle more than this old ruffian."

We turned to leave.

"No, no, no; I will sell all," cried the sutler.

"Very well," said Nicholas; "show me all you have, and quickly. I will
make an offer; if you take it I will pay the money at once."

The sutler showed us what he had: so much brandy, the strongest in
France, he said--so much wine; how beautiful, would we not take a
glass?--so much tobacco, and so on; he praising and Nicholas critically
valuing as the goods were shown. When everything had been shown
Nicholas offered 500 francs for all.

"Oh no, not at all; that would ruin me."

"Very well; let us go to the Jew."

As we were passing out he ran out after Nicholas, and said:

"Six hundred."

"Five," said Nicholas.

The sutler shook his head.

"Give me five hundred and fifty and take all, in the name of the devil."

"For the last time, five hundred."

"Oh, you have a hard heart, very hard for so young and brave a soldier."

The temptation was too great; he would not let us go to the Jew, so he
accepted. The money was paid, and Nicholas gave the old soldier and his
wife ten minutes to get out their personal belongings, leaving me on
guard to see that nothing else went out by mistake.

A similar scene, Le Grand afterwards told me, took place in the Jew's.
At anyrate, in about a quarter of an hour Nicholas came back alone,
having left our comrade to watch the other sutler's departure, and told
me that he was going away to summon the rest.

"Fill a couple of glasses for ourselves first," he said; "I want to
give the Jew time to get his things away."

The old soldier cocked his ears.

"You have bought the Jew's stuff too, my boy?"

"Yes," said Nicholas; "my company will drink, this evening. Get madame
and your property to a safe distance, as there may be trouble."

The old man took the hint and hurried away; he was too experienced a
soldier not to easily guess what would happen when a poor and thirsty
company looked on at the carousal of a rich and happy one.

Well, down came the company, laughing, clapping one another on the
back, jumping about, for all the world looking partly like schoolboys
out for an unexpected and unhoped-for holiday, partly like a commando,
as the Dutch say, from the lower regions. There was not room for all
in the huts, but the barrels were quickly rolled out and broached with
due care, for who would spill good liquor? There was no scrambling or
pushing; in spite of the excitement every man waited good-humouredly
for his turn, for was there not enough for all? Eight or ten of us
selected by Nicholas were filling the glasses; a man came to me and
asked for brandy, I gave him a glassful, he drank, passed on to a
second and got a ration of wine, and then went off to the place where
the tobacco was distributed, giving way to another. This went on
continuously until all had received an allowance of brandy and another
of wine and a third of tobacco, and then Nicholas, this time also
accompanied by Le Grand and me, went for the _nouveaux mariés_, as
he called them. We brought them down in triumph, Apollo smiling and
bowing, the Cooloolie girl beaming with happiness, Nicholas as solemn
as a judge, Le Grand and I breaking our sides with laughter. Such
cheering and such compliments! Such a babel of tongues! The soldiers
were all shouting out, every man, or almost every man, in his own
tongue, and those words I caught and understood did not certainly err
on the score of modesty. Nicholas amidst renewed cheering handed an
immense vessel of wine to the lady; she drank some and passed it to
Apollo, who drained it to the bottom.

When the cries had somewhat subsided Nicholas made a short speech.
He alluded in graceful terms to the happy pair, and hoped that their
children's children would in the years to come follow the flag in the
old Legion, in the old regiment, in the old battalion, above all, in
the old company. He praised the company; he said we could fight any
other company on the face of the earth; as, he concluded by saying,
our well-loved comrade has taken, and will keep, the woman he wants
without asking any man's permission, so we have taken, and will keep
for ourselves, the liquor in the camp.

He spoke in a loud tone, so that certain men of the other company might
hear. These were looking enviously on at the orgy, and were quite near
enough to make out the general tenor of his remarks. And Nicholas meant
them to hear his words. He was no fool, and he knew what his speech
would provoke; he was no coward, when the fight came, he stood up to
his work like a man; he was no liar, for at the investigation he told
exactly what he had done, and kept back only his purpose in doing it.

I may mention here that there were no _sous-officiers_ and no soldiers
of the first class at the carousal. We were all men of the second
class, who neither hoped nor wished for promotion, therefore we were
quite careless as to what might happen.

Very soon the fellows of No. 4 Company began to come out of their
quarters by twos and threes. As we saw them approaching we raised our
voices, we shouted, sang, danced, cried out toasts, and did everything
in our power to make them at once angry and jealous. The Cooloolie
was in the centre, seated in Apollo's lap, the Greek himself having
improvised a sort of arm-chair out of the staves and ends of an empty
barrel. Even then things might not have been too bad, but nothing can
keep a woman quiet, especially when her tongue is loosened with wine.
She called to the men of No. 4 to go and fetch the Portuguese, and we
all laughed. She openly and without shame showered kisses and other
endearments on her lover, and the laughter was redoubled. She called
out to the poor, thirsty and tantalised devils outside the charmed
circle that her old sweetheart was--well, let me leave her words to
the imagination of those who have ever listened to an angry, reckless
woman's tongue--and she ended by saying that the Portuguese was only a
fair sample of his comrades. The men of No. 4 were now all around us,
and those of us who, like myself, had partaken only sparingly of the
wine began to scent a fight. There was no premeditation, I believe,
on the part of the others; indeed, the only man who desired to make
trouble from the beginning was Nicholas the Russian, and truly he got
his wish gratified to the full. A few bad words passed between some of
theirs and some of ours, a blow was struck and replied to; in a moment
a wild rush towards the combatants was made by all. A general melee
ensued, and in a second almost, as it seemed, a little spot of ground
was covered with the struggling, twisting, writhing bodies of four
hundred angry, swearing men.

As I was running down to where the press of fighting was, I came full
tilt against a man of No. 4. He and I staggered and almost fell from
the shock. Luckily I had a half-empty bottle in my hand, and though
when he recovered himself he almost made me totter with a swinging blow
on the chest, yet I sent him fairly down with an ugly stroke of the
bottle across the head.

The next man I crossed tumbled me fairly over. What followed
immediately afterwards I do not know. The next thing I remember is that
I was standing on a table, striking out on all sides with the leg of
a chair. A sudden rush on the part of the men of No. 4 drove back our
company, the table was overturned, and I found myself sprawling on the
ground, trying as best I could to regain my feet. Our fellows rallied
and pushed back the others, and a tacit armistice took place. Not for
long, though. The others got together in a mass, we formed up in a
circle round the barrels and the tobacco, and the fight re-commenced.
And the Cooloolie woman was the best combatant of all, for though she
herself did not do more than claw a man or two, who broke away at once,
not wishing to hurt a woman beloved by men of both companies, yet
with her cries and execrations she lashed them and us into a fury of
fighting which made all men perfect devils. I have seen worse fighting,
but then we had weapons. This fight was really the most savage save
one, which I shall speak of afterwards, for there was no care of
hurting comrades, there was no hanging back in the rush, there was no
yielding of even a foot in the defence, and all the while the white
guards looked on in horror, and the Turcos crept back to their part of
the encampment with deadly terror in their hearts.

Half-a-dozen times we stopped for a moment or two to take breath. Then
one of ours would rush at a man of No. 4, or one of No. 4 would come
with an oath against a man of ours, and in a second the fray would be
re-commenced. The officers and the _sous-officiers_, the guard and the
picket, tried to separate us. It was all in vain; they might just as
well have tried to pull apart two packs of wolves. Moreover, half of
the soldiers brought down to quell the trouble belonged to ours, and
half to No. 4, and the commanding officer was very much afraid that
these might join in the fight, and they carried arms and ammunition.
But, you will say, why not use the Turcos? Ah, that would never
do. The commanding officer might succeed in putting an end to the
disturbance with their assistance, it is true, but the consequences
which were sure to follow were too serious, for the Turcos would never
afterwards be safe from an attack. All the legionaries, not merely the
men of the companies in the camp, but all the legionaries throughout
Algeria, would resent the interference of the native troops, and
heaven only knows what scenes of bloodshed might arise in unexpected
quarters, and from trivial causes. Had there been even half-a-company
of Frenchmen in camp all would have been well, but the nearest French
soldiers, a squadron or two of chasseurs, lay a few kilometres away.
To them, however, a mounted messenger was sent, and when we were
almost weary of fighting, and began to think it time to look after the
wounded--the place looked like a battlefield where regular weapons
had been employed--we heard the trumpets of the cavalry and saw not
a hundred yards away the long line of horsemen thundering down with
raised swords at the charge. Before the chasseurs we broke and fled,
but they were on us too soon for safety, and many a man went down
before the charge.

As I was running to a hut a sergeant of chasseurs overtook me.
Instinctively I jumped aside and lifted my right arm to protect my
head. It was no use; down came the flat of the heavy sabre on my
shoulder, and almost at the same time the charger's forequarter
struck me sideways on the breast. I fell, and wisely remained quiet
and motionless on the ground until the charge had passed. I then got
up and reached the hut, which I found almost packed with men of both
companies, whose appetite for fighting had altogether disappeared.
In a short time we were all prisoners. My company was marched to the
north side of the camp and No. 4 to the south, and we lay out all the
night; and nights are very cold in these warm countries--the more so by
contrast with the heat of the day.

Now about the casualties. I cannot tell the exact number killed
outright in the quarrel or charge, or of wounded who afterwards
died, but it was certainly not less than a score. More than 100 were
seriously injured, and there was not a man of all the fighters without
several ugly marks on his body. The Greek, who had fought well until,
as I heard, a blow of a stone brought him insensible to the ground, had
his brains knocked out by a horse's hoof; the Portuguese, we learned,
died in hospital of his hurts. As for the Cooloolie girl--well, what
would you expect? She wept for a week, and then took to herself a
new lover out of the many who sought her favour, for your famous or
notorious woman does not long lack suitors.

How we made up the quarrel and escaped severe punishment--heaven knows
we punished ourselves enough as it was--must be told in a new chapter.


Nobody was surprised when, on the morning after the affray, a corporal
of chasseurs and half-a-dozen men came to escort Nicholas, Le Grand,
and me to the commandant's quarters in the camp. Nicholas had his head
swathed in rags, and limped more than slightly with the left foot;
Le Grand showed a beautiful pair of black eyes and confessed to a
racking headache. Every part of my body felt its own particular pain,
my right eye was closed up, and I had an ugly cut on the forehead, the
scar of which still remains. When we arrived at the place of inquiry,
we found every officer in the camp, our own officers and those of
the chasseurs and Turcos, assembled around the commandant. For a few
moments there was silence, while they eyed us and we looked steadily at
the commandant. At last this officer spoke, slowly and in a quiet tone:
"The affair of yesterday was serious, indeed serious." He fixed his
gaze on Nicholas. "You, I hear, bought all the drink and tobacco from
the sutlers. Did that lead to the quarrel?"

Nicholas saluted respectfully and asked permission to make a statement.
When it was accorded he began to tell all the story, just, indeed,
as it happened, or almost as it happened. In narrating the dispute
between the rivals he placed all the blame upon the Greek, for he
knew at the time that the Greek was dead and therefore could not be
punished. He said nothing, however, about certain encouragement that
Apollo had received before and during his vainglorious parade through
the camp with his new love on his arm; nor did he mention certain
sarcastic expressions concerning the Portuguese which he himself had
uttered in the hearing of the Cooloolie girl; also, he seemed to forget
that these very expressions were used most frequently and with most
infuriating effect by her when she was sitting, almost lying indeed,
in the Greek's arms just before the fight. No; he told the truth, but
not all the truth, and he told everything in so open and candid a way
that Le Grand and I were almost deceived. He let fall the nickname
Apollo, as it were by accident, and then, turning respectfully to the
captain of chasseurs, who could not be supposed to know the man, he
explained: "We called him so, monsieur le capitaine, because he was so
handsome." "Quite true, quite true," acquiesced the commandant; "he
was a veritable Apollo." Afterwards we heard that the cavalry officers
went to see the Greek as he lay stripped in the hut of the dead, and,
although the face was disfigured out of all human semblance by the
horse's hoof, yet the beautiful curves and splendid proportions of
his body, marked even as it was by countless bruises, proved that the
nickname was well deserved.

One good effect was produced by Nicholas' statement. Everything was so
honest and straightforward, so natural and true-seeming, that anything
he might afterwards say was likely to be believed. Moreover, though the
officers had not seen the parade of the lovers through the camp, yet
they had evidently heard of it; and, again, the _sous-officiers_ could
be brought to prove the truth of that part of the story.

When the Russian was asked about the buying of the sutlers' property
for the use of only one company, he again begged leave to make a
rather long statement, partly, he admitted, about himself, but chiefly
about the customs of the corps. He said that without such a statement
the business could not be clearly and thoroughly understood by the
officers, especially by those officers who did not belong to the
Legion. Again leave was granted to him to tell his story in his own
way, and the commandant was graciously pleased to allow Le Grand and
me to stand at ease; he even said to Nicholas: "You need not stand
altogether to attention, make gestures if you wish, speak freely, just
as if you were telling a story to your friends." Nicholas bowed with a
courtier's grace; he wore no kepi, being a prisoner at the tribunal;
the chasseurs looked at one another in astonishment, wondering at the
aristocratic air that could not be concealed even under a private
soldier's tunic or by a bruised and battered face. Ah! little they
knew of the wrecked lives, the lost souls, that came to us from every
country in Europe, that made the Foreign Legion, if I may say so, a
real cemetery of the living.

Nicholas explained that, when a man had money, he was bound by all
the rules of the corps to spend it with the men of his squad; that,
when the money was more than usually plentiful, he was supposed to
entertain his section; that, in the rare cases when thousands of
francs--how the chasseurs opened their eyes at this!--were in a man's
possession, all the rules of regimental etiquette obliged him to spend
the money royally and loyally with his comrades of the company. Beyond
the company one could not go. Were one as rich as a Rothschild one
could not do more than give a few francs to a man of another company
if he were a fellow-countryman--all, or nearly all, had to be spent
with one's comrades of the company. Our officers recognised the truth
of this, they understood our unwritten laws, and again Nicholas added
to his reputation for veracity. But he said nothing at all about
giving a percentage to the sergeant-major, nor about the taxes levied
by the sergeant of the section and the corporal of the squad. The
sergeant-major, who was present, looked relieved when this part of the
Russian's statement came to an end--for were not two hundred francs
of the Russian's money in his pocket at the time? Nicholas knew what
to tell and what to keep back; there would be no use in alluding to
the money which he was practically compelled to give to his superior
officers; it would only cause anger at the time and produce trouble and
a heavier punishment for us afterwards.

Nicholas went on to state that he had received a large amount of money
from a friend in Europe, and that he had at once resolved to pay for
a good spree for his comrades. For a joke he called the affair a
wedding _déjeuner_ in honour of the Greek and the Cooloolie girl. He
thought--at least he said he thought--that the other company would not
mind; they knew the rules of the Legion as well as he; a little fun
about the new connection ought to hurt nobody except the Portuguese.
But, poor, misguided fellow that he was, he had never calculated the
damage that might be done by a woman's tongue; he, simple, ignorant
baby, thought that we should have a couple of hours of jollity and
drinking and that then all would go quietly back to quarters. He had
always held the men of No. 4 in great respect; he would, indeed, be the
last in the world to insult them, or in the slightest degree to make
little of the company. He admitted with sorrow--the hypocrite--that
his action had been injudicious--it would have been all right only for
the woman; he had paid for drink and tobacco, but not for insults to
any man or men of No. 4; it was the woman who insulted people; he did
not want to fight with anybody, least of all with the men of No. 4,
but, when his company became engaged in an affray, he would have been
indeed a bad comrade, nay, a coward, had he remained out of the fight.
We wished for only the drink and the tobacco; we soldiers had no desire
but to enjoy ourselves in peace and quietness in the evening after the
hard work of a hot and dusty day; we had no malice, not even now did we
harbour evil thoughts, towards our fellow-soldiers of No. 4; but what
will you? who can stop a woman's tongue?--we could not even expostulate
with her without insulting our good comrade Apollo; if she drove
the others to attack us by her ugly words, were we, men not afraid
of death, to tamely surrender? That, they all knew, was impossible.
Without actually saying it he flung the whole blame for the fight on
the woman's shoulders. I thought at first that this was not quite fair,
but I soon saw that Nicholas was really doing his best to save us all.
Everybody knew the wild way she spoke and acted before the first blow
was struck, but Nicholas knew quite well that nobody would hold her
accountable for her language, while everybody would admit that the
men of No. 4 had reasonable grounds for attacking us, and, of course,
we when attacked were quite justified in defending ourselves. This
was what the Russian was aiming at all along: to put the blame on the
Cooloolie girl, who in the first place could not be court-martialled
for a soldiers' quarrel, and in the second would most undoubtedly be
sympathised with for the loss of her lover. At the same time, a case
of extenuating circumstances was made out for No. 4 Company, and we,
the attacked party, who did not apparently seek to provoke an attack,
would be adjudged guiltless of offence because we merely resisted. It
was a splendid plan--it saved us--but we had, in addition to becoming
reconciled with our comrades and getting some punishment, to volunteer
for the war. That, however, will be told of in its own time and place.

When the Russian had finished his statement a few questions were asked
of him, not in the nature of a cross-examination, but for the evident
purpose of clearing up matters that were not quite understood by the
hearers. He answered these with readiness and to the point, preserving
always the bearing and language of an aristocrat, with the tone and
temper of a simple soldier in presence of his superiors. When they had
done with him the commandant questioned first Le Grand and then me, but
we merely corroborated our comrade's story. Not that there was at the
time any doubt in our minds that Nicholas had desired a fight and had
paid for the gratification of his desire, but who can give evidence
of what has passed in another's mind, and who would betray a generous

At last the commandant sent us away, and we returned under escort to
the place where our company lay under guard, hungry, thirsty, without
change of clothing, and every man aching all over, and cursing as the
effects of the fight began to make themselves felt. The other men
crowded around us to learn what had happened. Nicholas, in the centre
of a ring of eager, interested listeners, told exactly, without change,
addition or omission, in a loud voice so that all might hear, the
tale of the inquiry. All were satisfied so far, many, indeed, gave up
their preconceived beliefs, and thought that the Russian's account of
the affray and what led up to it was "the truth, the whole truth, and
nothing but the truth." We, Le Grand and I, confirmed the account, we
made no secret of our belief that all would yet be well, we swore it
was the woman who led our good friends of No. 4 to assault us, and
surely no one could blame us for defending ourselves.

After some time Nicholas called Le Grand and me apart, and we held a
consultation for nearly a quarter of an hour. The others marked us,
they noted the earnest words and persuasive gestures of the Russian,
they watched the eager, attentive looks of Le Grand and me. When we had
settled the matter to our own satisfaction apparently Nicholas led the
way to the centre of the little camp--prison I should call it, for the
sentries looked inwards and not outwards. In a moment, as it seemed,
every man that was able to drag himself forward was in a group around
our little party. Nicholas waited until a hush fell upon the meeting,
and then addressed them somewhat in the words that follow. I have no
doubt about the essence of what he said, but I cannot hope to reproduce
the eloquent language, the expressive features, the seductive tones,
above all, the general air of the born orator that Nicholas assumed.
From time to time he appealed to Le Grand or to me for confirmation of
his words. There was, indeed, no necessity, the men were at his will
before he had spoken for two minutes.

In brief, this was what he said:

"My comrades, we have had an ugly quarrel with our fellow-soldiers of
No. 4, and we cannot, I think, blame them for attacking us, nor can
they with justice blame us for defending ourselves. But there is no
doubt about the real origin of the affair. The woman used to belong
to one of theirs; she chose, as she had a right to do--that everyone
admits--to give up her lover in their company and to give herself to a
man of ours. Well, we must acknowledge that she and the Greek were not
discreet, and I will confess that, for my own part, I did not act with
discretion either, but what could I do when I had money in my pocket
but spend it with my companions of the encampment and the battlefield?
If there had been no jealousy about a woman, we should have had a
peaceful, enjoyable evening; if there had been no money in the company,
the jealousy would have been settled by a fair fight between the rivals
in the usual way that we all understand and appreciate, without four
or five hundred men being drawn into the quarrel. We are under guard
and are sure of punishment; in all respects they are faring, and will
fare, no better than we. Let us try, now that the Greek is dead and the
Portuguese, as I hear, is dying, to become reconciled to our comrades
of No. 4. Trust me, if we can settle the matter amongst ourselves,
so that all may understand that we shall not renew the quarrel, the
officers will be only too glad to have an excuse for passing over the
affair as lightly as possible. What I recommend then is this: let a
deputation of four be appointed from amongst us; let us ask permission
to visit the prison camp of No. 4; let us ask them to appoint four of
their number to confer with us; believe me, we shall soon, for the
sake of the men of both companies, come to a satisfactory arrangement,
and we all shall be friends again, and, indeed, be better friends than
ever before, because we have learned to respect one another."

The Russian's proposal was agreed to on the spot. Someone said that
Nicholas ought to be chief of our embassy, but this he would not agree
to. He would be a member, if they wished, but only with the same rights
and the same responsibilities as the others. Le Grand, a Hungarian, and
I were chosen as his partners in the delicate business, and some way or
other we all seemed to be satisfied that our troubles would soon come
to an end.

The first thing to be done was to get permission to go across, under
escort be it well understood, to the prisoners of No. 4. This was
obtained by the aid of our sergeant-major. He must have spoken very
strongly to the commandant, for the latter came down to us in a great
hurry, asked Nicholas point-blank whether we were serious in the
attempt to settle the affair amicably, and if he thought we had any
chance of succeeding. Things were bad enough, heaven knows, as they
were, but it was rather risky to keep nearly 400 fighting men without
their weapons and ammunition in the very centre of the scene of the
recent operations. Had the Kabyles attacked the camp on the night after
the quarrel, they would have slaughtered us, the unarmed ones, like
sheep, and in all probability would have easily carried with a rush the
little fortification that had been set up around the huts. Therefore
the commandant was only too glad to get a chance to put us under arms
again, if he could only believe that we would not use them against one
another. The quarrel was an ugly thing, but that could be explained,
and we should in any case receive punishment, but a disaster to his
command would spell ruin for his chances of promotion. He was pleased,
therefore, when Nicholas laid his hand upon his heart and promised upon
his honour--yes, he said upon his honour--that we would do our best to
settle matters, that we would in no way again raise the anger of the
men of No. 4, and, finally, that he was himself prepared to apologise
for his part in the affair. This expression, I am sure, the commandant
took to refer to the buying up of all the drink and the tobacco; we,
who knew better, remembered the irritating speech that the Russian had
made after the _nouveaux mariés_ had pledged each other.

Well, after a little hesitation he let us go across. We were escorted
this time by the men of our own company--soldiers of the first class,
who had taken no part in the fight, and soldiers of the second
class who had been either on guard or on camp picket. The escort
was under the command of our sergeant-major, and I am sure that he
was sent so that the commandant might get a trustworthy account of
the negotiations. We could not object to any arrangement; we were
very well satisfied to get the chance of making it up again with our
fellow-soldiers, for, as I have already said, the nights are cold in
Algeria, and we feared that news of the quarrel might have already
spread amongst the Kabyles, and we knew that the exposed position
in which we were placed left us completely at their mercy, should
they make up their minds to attack. Moreover, the soldier, even in a
peaceful country, hates to be deprived of his weapons and his belts;
how much more then did we, in a hostile land, dislike the deprivation
of them!

When we arrived at the cordon of sentries around No. 4 Company we
were halted, and Nicholas, standing slightly in advance of us, his
fellow-ambassadors, told them why we came and asked them to be so
kind as to appoint four men of theirs to confer with us, so that the
dispute might be settled and the companies be at peace with each other
again. He was listened to with attention, and when he had finished his
message he said that we four should wait, with the sergeant-major's
kind permission, for half-an-hour to give them time to deliberate and,
if they should agree to the proposal, to select their delegates.

Before the half-hour was over the men of No. 4 Company had made up
their minds to accept the proposal, and at once appointed four of
theirs to arrange matters with us. Two of the four were Alsatians, one
a Lorrainer, and the fourth, and, indeed, the most important--their
Nicholas, as I may say--a bronzed, sharp-eyed and sharp-witted Italian.
As soon as these ambassadors were nominated, our sergeant-major took
the eight of us away a short distance from the escort and told us that
we might speak freely, as he and the sergeant-major of No. 4 would be
the only listeners, and they would in every way respect our confidence.
The second sergeant-major said the same thing: "Speak freely," he
continued, "and, for the love of God, settle the affair for ever. It
is not pleasant to see so many brave soldiers without arms in such a
region; who knows when the Kabyles will attack?" The hint was not lost
upon us, and I believe that the seven others felt, as I did, that the
sooner we were again good friends and under arms the better.

Nicholas made the first speech, and said in almost the same words what
he had already told the commandant. He did this, I believe, purposely.
Our sergeant-major was very attentive, and Nicholas guessed, as all
did, that he would make a report to the officers, and it would be just
as well that the statement made then at this meeting should be on
all-fours with the statement made previously at the tribunal. But he
went further. He explained that he had made up his mind to give a good
evening to his company when money came to him from Europe, and surely
no one would blame him for that. Then he went on to say that he was
truly sorry for the affray and for any language or acts of his that
might have brought it about. Had he but remotely guessed what would be
the result, he would have burned the money sooner than let it be the
cause of strife between companies which had been so lately fighting
side by side against the enemy and which had never before fallen out
with each other. For his own part, he hoped and prayed that the former
good relations might once more exist between us, and he believed that
they would, and that we should respect one another more than ever on
account of the gallantry which No. 4 Company and his own had displayed
in that unfortunate struggle. Many other things he said to the same
effect, and when he had finished it was easy to see that all, with the
exception of the Italian, were satisfied. Not that the Italian desired
to prolong the disagreement, but he saw--what his fellow-delegates
either did not see, or, for the sake of peace, pretended not to
see--that Nicholas had deliberately resolved, when the money arrived,
to get up a quarrel between the companies through pure devilment and
love of excitement. The Italian wanted to show clearly to all that
he at least understood and was determined to publish his opinion,
and it must be admitted that he was quite within his rights in doing
so, though it would have been more discreet on his part to keep his
thoughts, for the moment any way, to himself. He developed his plan of
attack in a Socratic manner.

"Why," he questioned the Russian (I may mention that all through he
ignored the rest of us), "why did you not spend the money with all?"

"Because I never go outside my company," replied Nicholas.

"Very good; but why did you buy up all the drink in the two cabarets?
Why did you not leave some in one of them for us?"

"Because I thought that all would be scarcely enough for my own
comrades, and one thinks only of his own."

"True," continued the Italian; "but then why did you not give us
notice that you were taking all for yourself and your companions?"

"Because I thought that such a notice would be an insult and would
certainly provoke a quarrel, a thing which I was most anxious to avoid."

A low muttering of approval followed this, but Cecco only smiled like
one unconvinced. I was looking at Nicholas at the time; truly he had
the air and bearing of one who would suffer martyrdom rather than tell
a lie. He puzzled me. For a moment I almost believed him innocent, he
seemed so calm and steadfast, his manner was so open and ingenuous.
Here, a stranger might remark, is an upright, God-fearing man, whose
heart knows no guile, whose mind is lofty and self-respecting, whose
bosom swells with love and friendship for his fellow-man. Cecco's
comrades seemed almost to believe, but the Italian was too cunning, too
experienced in the world--above all, too full of knowledge of his own
rascality--to be convinced.

"Well, well, well," he said; "we were insulted, and you best of all
know it. Shall we not have even an apology? There cannot," he went on,
"be an excuse. No matter about the woman and her fickleness; no matter
about the wine and the tobacco; what can be said of the ugly words
spoken of us, the comrades of the Portuguese?"

"Ah," replied Nicholas in a tone of contrition and with an assumption
of sorrow that would have deceived Vidocq himself, "that is what wounds
me. I, alas! have been indiscreet. I confess that I was overjoyed when
I saw around me my comrades happy and free from care, and that in a
moment of excitement I said things which were altogether wrong and
uncalled for. Let me beg your forgiveness for my offence, and, as an
evidence of my regret and a proof of your forgiveness, let us spend,
both companies together, the remainder of the money sent to me by a
kind friend in my own country."

The admission that the Russian still had money, and enough too to
provide fun and pleasure for both companies, was quite sufficient to
settle the whole affair. Even Cecco was satisfied, as he remarked:
"What was the use of abusing one another for a thing that could not be
undone, when it was so much better to shake hands and clink glasses and
be good friends as of old?"

"What indeed?" assented the Lorrainer. "What indeed?" said we all.

We shook hands earnestly and gladly with one another, and each
quartette departed to its own company. All were pleased to hear the
report. The men of No. 4, indeed, cheered Nicholas as loudly as we
did. The commandant was satisfied; he knew well that the men were only
too glad to become reconciled, but he took care when the rest of the
Russian's money was spent that it was spent in the encampment and that
half-a-squadron of chasseurs were standing by their saddled horses
until the last man had gone quietly home to quarters. They were not
wanted, indeed, but the cunning fox was taking no chances, as a serious
renewal of the fight would, if not at once put down, be bad for his
military reputation.

So we became friends again. But we suffered a little, and judged
it best to volunteer for the war in Tonquin, for the soldier going
on active service, especially as a volunteer, generally gets his
punishments remitted, and is received back again into the favour of his


Of course, the affair did not altogether end with the reconciliation of
the companies. Punishment had to be awarded to both, and as ours was
the more guilty one we received more than the men of No. 4. As so many
were included it was obviously impossible to punish us in any of the
ordinary ways, but we got extra drills, extra duties, unnecessary most
of them, and in addition each of the companies had to furnish all the
guards and pickets for the little camp on alternate days. This relieved
the Turcos and those of our men who had not been in the fight, but it
was very hard for us others to do double drill and double fatigue, let
us say on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, and on Tuesdays, Thursdays,
and Saturdays to be on sentry or on picket during the day and to sleep
in our clothes, with only a greatcoat to cover us, during the night.
And even then there was no chance of sleeping much, for when night
fell one of the sections was on guard and outlying picket for two
hours, and then the other relieved the first for the next two. Thus,
if my section went on duty at eight o'clock in the evening after, be
it well understood, doing our fair share of guard and camp-picket work
from eight in the morning, we were relieved at ten for a little rest,
went on again at midnight, and were relieved at two; took up the duty
once more at four, and remained on until six, and then we had two
hours to get our morning coffee and clean up our things to come off
guard at eight. You might think that it was hardest on the officers,
sergeants, and corporals; but no, only one officer and one-third of the
_sous-officiers_ mounted guard on any morning, so that all of these got
five nights in bed out of every six, whereas we, the troublesome ones,
got only one night in every two.

We bore it well enough, however, though I must admit that we used bad
language occasionally, but, as there were so many of us included in the
punishment, no one minded it so much as if he were the only delinquent.
It helps a man wonderfully to bear hardship and disgrace when he sees
many others undergoing the same misfortunes as himself, and this is the
rule even though he does not wish evil to his comrades in distress. One
man on a sinking raft will in all probability go mad before it takes
its final plunge beneath the waves; a dozen men similarly situated will
have less fear of the great deep and the great unknown, because each
is, as it were, consoled by the knowledge that others too must pass
through the grim portals of death at the same time and place and by
the same means as he. Thus it was that, though we grumbled and cursed
one minute, the next we laughed and rallied one another; and we had,
moreover, one great consolation--we knew that the story would rapidly
run through the Legion, and that our good comrades, 8000 in number,
would laugh with fierce delight when they heard of the encounter and
its causes, and would admire and envy the men who had the spirit and
the devilment to provide such a relief from _ennui_ in the little camp
on the border of the desert. We eagerly figured to ourselves how they
would gloat over the story of the Cooloolie girl and her lovers--the
handsome Greek and the passionate Portuguese; we knew how they would
envy Nicholas and his money; we felt quite certain that the story would
go down to succeeding legionaries with embelishments, as was natural,
and finally become one of the best-loved traditions of the corps. It
is still too early to call it a tradition; but, take my word for it,
the fight between the two companies at Three Fountains is talked of
to-day in many a barrack-room, in many a lonely village round an oasis
in the Sahara, over many a camp and watch fire, in many a canteen and
cabaret, where the _vieux soldats_ pull their grey moustaches and tell
the eager-eyed recruits over the _eau-de-vie_ and the _vin ordinaire_
the wonderful story of what happened when a Cooloolie girl changed her
lover and a Russian prince, in exile and disgrace, received thousands
of francs from a friend, "most likely a woman, _mes enfants_," in
Europe and spent it as a soldier should. Ay, even the officers are
proud of the story to-day, and, when they go to France on leave, our
little escapade is told in the family circle and to all the friends
and relations who are continually asking for tales of _ces affreux

I had almost forgotten another part of our punishment. While all the
others turned out for parade without knapsacks, those of us who had
been in the affray had to appear in heavy marching order, as English
soldiers say--that is, with all our _buffleterie_, knapsack, and
pouches on our persons. In fact, looking at us one would imagine that
we were just about to start on a campaign. Another thing was that
Nicholas, Le Grand, and I, as to all appearance the ringleaders in the
affair, were not allowed to stir out of the camp or even to go much
through it; a sergeant or a corporal would quickly order us back to
our own quarters, if we were seen at any distance from them. Moreover,
we three lost all our pay; but that made little difference, it was not
much anyway, and our comrades gave us as much tobacco as we wanted and
as much wine as we really cared about or they could spare.

While we were thus getting a foretaste of purgatory, into the camp
one sultry afternoon rode the colonel of the regiment. That evening
he spent in talking to the officers and examining some sergeants and
corporals, who were believed to have most knowledge of the quarrel and
of those engaged in it, especially the corporals who commanded the
squads in which the Russian, Le Grand, and I were. Le Grand, I have
already said, did not belong to our squad, not even to our section.
Next morning at six a company of Turcos relieved No. 4 Company, which
had been on guard and outlying picket all the night, and at seven,
immediately after the morning coffee, the two companies of legionaries
were formed up in line first and inspected, and then in column of
sections, No. 1 section of mine being the front, and No. 2 of No. 4
Company the rear, of the half-battalion. While in this formation we
were addressed by the colonel of the regiment. I cannot give a detailed
account here of what he said; all I remember is that he abused,
threatened and cursed us for nearly half-an-hour. We did not mind that,
however, as we were case-hardened enough already; but what we did mind
was the Parthian shaft he let fly as he turned to leave the ground:
"Remember, remember well, that all the punishment has not been endured;
when the commandant is satisfied I shall wish to be satisfied too." To
say truth, then, he frightened us.

When we were dismissed from parade, we indulged in many gloomy
speculations as to the extra punishment awaiting us. We knew, or rather
guessed, two things at once--first, that the extra fatigues and guards
would soon be discontinued, for our officers were not likely to make
us disgusted with our duties, because we should then become careless,
and who could foretell what danger might arise from the inattention
of a sentry or the unwilling response to orders on the part of an
advance-guard? Secondly, we quite understood that very soon we should
turn our backs on Three Fountains, where everything kept us from
forgetting the dispute and the fight, especially the little mound at
the eastern side of the camp, that marked the last resting-place of the
Greek and the Portuguese and our other comrades who had fallen--an ugly
reminder of an ugly fray. As soon, therefore, as other white troops
could be sent to our camp we should pack and march--the question was,
whither? Now, there are many bad stations in the south of Algeria.
There are places where one may often not wash his face and hands for
a week, so scarce is water there. To do the French Government justice,
these places are usually held by native troops who do not mind thirst
and dirt so much as Europeans, but it was well known that white men
had on more than one occasion been sent to such stations and kept
there until they almost despaired of ever becoming civilised again.
Moreover, in these spots there is a great lack of other things besides
water; there is no wine save that which comes to the officers; there
is only the tobacco sold to one by the Government. Worst of all, a
woman must be very much in love or very ugly before she will consent
to follow a man thither. These are the suicide stations, if I may call
them so--the stations where a shot rings out in the night and all rush
to arms, fearing an attack of Touareks or Kabyles, but when dawn comes
there is only a dead sentry making black the yellow sand at a post.
When one man shoots himself an epidemic seems to set in; men hear every
day in hut or tent or guard room the ill-omened report; soon they go
about looking fearfully at one another, for no one knows but that he is
looking into the eyes of a comrade who has made up his mind to die. The
corporal counts his squad, "fourteen, fifteen--ah! there were sixteen
yesterday," so he says; he thinks: How long until I have only fourteen,
and who will be the next man to quit _la gamelle_?

We thought of all these things during the day, and we noted, more with
anxiety than relief, that for us there were no drills or fatigues. My
company was, indeed, warned to be ready to relieve the Turcos on guard
at eight o'clock in the evening, but we were allowed to lounge about
our quarters and talk with one another all the day. The different
squads kept to themselves; a grave crisis either dispels all squad
distinctions or accentuates them, and it was the latter that took
place on this occasion. We ate our meals in gloomy silence, but in
the intervals between them we speculated incessantly on what the
colonel meant by saying that when the commandant had punished us he
would take care to punish us too. Though we thought of everything that
might occur, yet we were not satisfied; the indefiniteness of the
threat was its chief terror. If one knows with certainty the worst,
why, one can prepare to meet it, but when some fate, terrible but not
tangible, certain but not understood, hangs over a man or a number of
men courage is apt to ooze out at the finger ends. Talk of the sword of
Damocles, that was nothing;--it simply meant death at some uncertain
time--why, we all have such swords over our heads, and yet we eat and
drink and sleep, we pray and curse, we laugh and weep, we hurt or help
our neighbour, we gain or spend, as if life were the one thing safe and
sure, safe and sure for ever. No one thinks much of his future beyond
the grave; it is the future on this side of the Styx that we most
earnestly dwell on. Why, even the man condemned to death thinks far
less of what may happen to his soul, if he believes that he has a soul,
when it leaves the body, than of the years of gladness and fellowship
with men that the law is about to take from him. The uncertainty and
the suspense united made us discontented and gloomy; we spoke to one
another, it is true, but not in the old and pleasant way. There was not
much cursing or swearing--we had gone beyond such solace or relief--but
there was plenty of morose ill-humour, and as for _bonne camaraderie_,
there was less of it in a company than there had been the day before in
a single squad.

After the evening soup Nicholas nodded to me to come over to him. I was
not sorry to go across the little space between us; he was the first
who had even been commonly polite to me that day. When we were together
he spoke in a low tone and in English--I may remark here that Nicholas
was very well educated and spoke at least half-a-dozen languages with
purity and ease--asking me what I intended to do.

"Nothing," I replied. "I see nothing that I can do."

"Nothing?" he queried.

"Nothing. And you?"

"Oh! I," said he, "do not intend to stay in Algeria any longer; my
physician orders me to a warmer climate somewhere in the East."

"Yes," he went on; "I fancy that Tonquin will suit my present ailment;
anyway, better see life along with the others who are now campaigning
there than stagnate in a desert hole."

"You do not mean----" I began, but he interrupted me.

"Yes, I do mean it; and I know that they will be only too glad to get
such volunteers as we are."

"They" (by "they" he meant the military authorities) "know very well
that we shall be trying to escape from the fire to the frying-pan,
and that we shall have only two things to depend upon to get us out
of the latter--valour and good conduct. So we shall be the very best
of soldiers, because, while others have merely to keep their good
reputation, we shall have to earn ours over again. Trust me, they will
be glad to accept us as volunteers for the war, and, listen, I know
these French, when we volunteer they will almost altogether forgive
us. They are very hard and strict, especially with us, and they are
too nice about their honour, and they stand overmuch on ceremony and
punctilio, but they are really generous, often more generous than just.
When they find us trying to retrieve our good name they will give us
every opportunity to do so. We shall have many vacancies in the ranks,
it is true, and many a good comrade will not answer at the evening
roll call, but it will be well with the survivors. In any case, I am
tired of soldiering here. Why should I not see the world, not as I saw
it before," he smiled sadly, as I thought, when he said this, "but as
millions of men have seen it--a nameless unit in a crowd? After all,
many of Cæsar's legionaries had happier lives than Cæsar." When he
ceased speaking there was silence between us for some moments. Then he

"And you, young one, what will you do?"

"I will volunteer," I answered; "there surely cannot be worse fighting
in Tonquin than there was here at Three Fountains a short while ago."

He smiled, and said: "Was it not good practice for war? Was it not
better than all the drill in the world?"

"Yes," I replied; "if someone got a thousand francs every week, we
should be the finest fighting men on the earth. I mean those of us who
did not go out there," and I nodded towards the mound on the eastern
side of the camp. He shook his head. "Say nothing about that; it is all
over now. I do not mind your saying what you think to me alone, but do
not, I ask you, speak too freely to our comrades. They will soon forget
everything, if they are not constantly reminded of things."

After some further conversation we separated.

I said nothing to the others about our resolve, as I wished that the
Russian should be the first to explain matters to our comrades. I had
more than one reason for doing this. In the first place, Nicholas, as
he was known in the corps--what his real name and rank were we never
learned--was my senior in age and experience; in the second, he was a
man of infinitely greater influence than I or any other in the company,
partly on account of his money and generosity, but still more because
of his manner, bearing, and unconscious air of authority; moreover,
he was the clearest and most convincing speaker I have ever heard.
Again, he had brought us into trouble and had done a good deal to get
us out of it; to him, therefore, all looked for further deliverance. I
felt sure that, when he told the rest of his intention, all of ours,
and probably all of No. 4 Company, would volunteer along with him.
It would be much better for us if companies volunteered instead of
merely men or squads or sections. The greater the number going of their
own accord to the war, the more lenient would our officers be; and,
furthermore, no man would be likely to be sent amongst strangers--we
should probably all soldier together. Should Nicholas and I go out by
ourselves, we should be transferred with bad reputations to a company
already in Tonquin, and for that neither he nor I had any liking. If
all volunteered, we might still remain an unchanged unit, even though
in a new battalion, and one must never forget that when a man has been
for some time living and working and fighting, yes, and looting, and
perhaps doing worse, along with certain companions, he has a feeling of
_camaraderie_, of yearning for their society, which makes it very hard
for him to leave them, though it must be acknowledged that a soldier
easily makes new friends and new attachments wherever he goes.

Nicholas did not ponder long before he announced his intention of
volunteering for Tonquin. I don't think it took the others much by
surprise, perhaps because recent events had prepared them for anything,
perhaps because the Russian's acts, no matter how strange they might
appear in another man, were only ordinary, natural, and to be expected
in him. Any way they merely nodded or smiled, and at first no one asked
for an explanation. This, however, the Russian gave of his own accord.

"You know, _mes camarades_," he began, "that the colonel is very
angry with us and that he has it in his power to make things very
uncomfortable for those who have displeased him. Now I do not care to
stay under his command if I can get away from it, and there is but one
course, as far as I know, by which I can avoid his anger and perhaps
regain the reputation of being a good soldier and one not likely to
disgrace the flag. There is, as we all are aware, a war against savages
going on at this moment in Tonquin. I mean to volunteer to go thither;
it will be easier to campaign against Black Flags, who will kill me
if they can and whom I will kill if I am able, than to suffer in a
camp of hell in the desert, where one cannot resist nor even complain.
Better, far better, will it be to march and fight, even to starve and
die, like a soldier in an enemy's country than to live a life worse
than a convict's in some one of those awful cantonments where even the
native soldiers are discontented and restless. You all have heard,
as I have, of the woes of poor soldiers in such places. The officers
and sub-officers are hard enough here--I mean no offence to our own
corporal, he has always been good comrade to his squad--but there they
are veritable demons, there they carry revolvers by day and by night,
and, if a sergeant should lose his temper and shoot a simple soldier,
there is no redress, there is no punishment, unless the dead man's
comrades themselves take a just vengeance on the murderer. And then
there will be executions and deprivation of pay, and the last state of
the company will be worse than the first. Again, in those places, where
not even our poor amusements and relaxations are possible, where one
can enjoy neither wine nor the society of women, men go mad and men
commit suicide, and men deliberately break the laws in sheer despair,
and, worst of all, men die lingering deaths from settled melancholy,
thinking always, as they cannot help thinking, of home and former
friends and the pleasant, happy days of youth. But I, for my part, will
not, if I can avoid those places, go thither to starve, to mope, to rot
alive, and to die--hopeless, friendless--for there men are not friends
but only associates--with a curse upon my lips and heavy anger with God
and man in my heart. No; rather will I volunteer for Tonquin. There I
shall be, if no better, at least no worse than thousands of others who
are fighting bravely, and are ready, if need be, to bravely die."

When Nicholas stopped speaking an Alsatian said: "I too will
volunteer." That was all; Alsatians are not inclined to talk much,
but they are good, hardworking, steadfast men in action. If you are
fighting and an Alsatian is your comrade, your rear-rank man let us
say, don't be a bit afraid to go forward, the Alsatian will be always
there, backing you up. They are not men who are anxious to lead a
bayonet charge, but they won't refuse to follow, and where they go they
generally stay, for just as they don't begin an advance they won't,
on the other hand, begin a retreat. Put a Parisian, a Gascon, or a
Breton at the head of a company of Alsatians and you have practically
resurrected a company of the Old Guard.

There was some confused talking after this. Nicholas, the Alsatian,
and I kept out of the conversation, smoking our pipes in quiet
contemplation of the rest; the corporal of the squad was seated on his
camp-cot, a cigarette between his lips, looking with a cynical smile at
the Russian. At last it was decided--all the squad would volunteer. As
soon as the corporal found that we were unanimous he seized his kepi
and ran out of the hut without uttering a word save: _Bons soldats,
bons camarades_. We learned afterwards that he rushed straight off to
the captain and told him of our decision. This was welcome news, as
all the officers were chafing and fuming because they had not been
selected for the front. I may here mention that our corporal was the
first to gladden the captain's heart and bring him some hope of gaining
glory and promotion, and, when the captain got the chance of giving
promotion, our corporal exchanged the two red chevrons on his sleeve
for the single gold one of a sergeant.

Well, when the others heard of this, there was much earnest
conversation and still more earnest gesticulation in the little camp.
All were excited; the desire to get away from the punishment stations,
the eager wish for change, the natural impulse of soldiers to put
into practice the teaching of the drill-ground and the manoeuvres,
all combined to render the men anxious to follow the example of our
squad. Before we went on duty that night my company had volunteered
to a man, and, when we dismounted guard in the morning, we were not a
whit surprised to find ourselves relieved by native troops, for that
told us that we had guessed aright and that No. 4 Company, our friends
and erstwhile foes, had thrown in their lot with us and would be our
_compagnons d'armes et de voyage_. We were very glad of that. Together
we were a half battalion, a weak one, it is true--the mound on the east
and the hospital held so many of our comrades--but still strong enough
to demand and command respect.

While we were enjoying our morning soup the officers of the company
came round. How different everything was then compared with the day
before! The captain, a bronzed, heavy-moustached man, whose military
career had not been very successful--he was a good soldier and a good
officer, but he had made the great mistake of falling in love, as a
_sous-lieutenant_, with his colonel's wife, and the colonel, now a
general, had not forgotten--was in great good humour. He remembered
our crime, only to laugh at it, and said that the men who could give
so good an account of themselves against the heroes of No. 4 were
just the soldiers he wished to lead into action. He told us to be
very careful. If we misconducted ourselves again the company might be
distributed amongst the four battalions of the other regiment of the
Legion, and that would be bad for us and bad for him as well. "Let us
only be allowed to remain together," he said. "We shall all go out to
Tonquin, and then there will be plenty of excitement, and promotion
must come." He was thinking, I suppose, of his own disappointments. It
must be very hard on a man to be passed in the race by others who were
boys at school when he was wearing a sword; why, the commandant of the
battalion was younger than he. The other officers were also pleased;
the lieutenant a handsome fellow of twenty-five or so, was anxious to
get his company; the sub-lieutenant, a stern, hard-featured man of
forty, who had risen from the ranks, was quite satisfied to go to a
place where he might have a chance of picking up unconsidered trifles.
Ah! _ces vieux militaires_ are the quietest and most thorough-going
pillagers in the world. Nothing comes amiss to them--they could teach
even Cossacks how to loot--and how they manage to keep this loot and
get it safely home to wife or mistress--for they have always a woman
on their private pay-sheet--I cannot for the life of me imagine. They
do it, however, and they are not only in the Foreign Legion or in the
French army--you will find them in every army, nay, in every regiment
in the world.

Well, the sergeants and corporals were well pleased too. They kept us
for all that under strict discipline until the day we found ourselves
aboard the transport at Marseilles. But I am anticipating.

At about five o'clock in the evening both companies were paraded and
inspected just as on the day before, but there was a great change in
the colonel's manner. He was not over friendly with us, but he did not
abuse or threaten. He called us sharply to attention, and then said:
"Every man in the front rank who wishes to volunteer for Tonquin will
march one pace to the front; every man in the rear rank who wishes to
volunteer for Tonquin will march one pace to the rear. Volunteers,
march!" At once the ranks separated. All in front stepped one pace
forward; all in the rear took one pace backward. He walked down between
the ranks, saw that all had volunteered, took up his former position
in front of us, and ordered us back to our original formation. "All
have volunteered. I am well satisfied. Dismiss the parade, monsieur le

For some time after we were busy getting ready to leave Three
Fountains, and no one was sorry when we presented arms to a detachment
of zephyrs that came to take our place. As soon as they had returned
the compliment we fell into marching array in columns of fours, wheeled
to the left, passed by the flank of the zephyrs, saluted the Turcos
of the main guard at the gate, and stepped out on our first march
northward. Truly, we were glad to leave behind the cantonment of Three
Fountains and its associations. Always fond of change, we dropped our
sadness, the sadness which one cannot choose but feel when leaving
behind for ever even one's temporary home. Before we had finished the
first league spirits were as high, laughter as gay, jests as plentiful
as on my very first march, when with the other two hundred recruits I
went from the depot to the battalion. Normally the two companies should
be about five hundred strong, but death and the doctor detained so many
that I do not believe we were quite four hundred all told. However,
at the depot, which we reached in good time, doing a fair day's
march every day, we received additions to our numbers--self-styled
recruits, really men who had learned more than a little of soldiering
in other armies, and whom ill-luck or bad character or desire of French
citizenship had driven or induced into the Foreign Legion.

At the depot we received our outfit for the East. The kepi was
exchanged for the white helmet, lighter underclothing was served out
to us, all clothing and footwear was renewed, and I may say without
boasting that when, fully five hundred strong, we paraded for the
last time before entraining for Oran, in order to hear the farewell
address of the depot commandant, we presented as smart and soldier-like
an appearance as any commanding officer could wish to see. The depot
commandant made a short speech, shook hands with our commanding
officer, wished him and us _bon voyage et prompt retour_, and then,
with the band at the head of the column, we marched out of the gate,
saluting the guard as we passed, amidst the ringing cheers of the
veterans and recruits left behind. When we were safely in the train
all discipline was at an end: we shouted, cheered, laughed and sang,
and so began our journey to the land where more than half my comrades
lie--as quiet as the Greek and the Portuguese under the little mound on
the eastern side of the mud huts of _Trois Fontaines_.


On a beautiful summer morning we marched down to the quay to join the
transport that was to carry us and five or six hundred others to our
destination in the East. All was bustle, excitement, and confusion
for some time, but matters quickly arranged themselves, and, when the
last of the stores had been safely stowed away, we marched in single
file up the gangway and stood to attention by squads on the deck. Each
squad was led off by its corporal to the place assigned to it, and in
a short time our quarters looked for all the world like a barrack on
shore, save that one saw no bed-cots there. Our rifles and equipments
were put in their proper places, the roll was called below for the last
time, we were reported "all present and all correct," and then we were
allowed to troop up on deck, to get our last glimpse of the land that
many of us would never see again. As the ship cast off, we raised a
cheer which was responded to by the people on the quay, a band ashore
struck up the Marseillaise, the Frenchmen first, and then we others
of the Legion took up the refrain, and thus amid cheering, singing,
and waving of helmets and handkerchiefs we started on our voyage to
Tonquin. There were not many friends of those aboard weeping on the
quay; we legionaries had none, and the Frenchmen were zephyrs--that is,
men of bad character who had been assigned to convict battalions, and
their friends, no doubt, were not over sad about their departure. There
were some ladies and children who were affected, but they belonged
to the officers--the sub-officers and the men had no friends, no
relations, no home, one might say, save the barrack, the cantonment
hut, the tent, or, as at the time, the troopship. Well, so much the
better: having nothing to lose but life, and that as a rule a wretched
one, we should be the more reckless when recklessness was needed, and
the French generals took care that we, the zephyrs and the legionaries,
were put in the fighting line as much as possible and that the good
men, the respectable soldiers, should only come into the fray when the
burden of the fight was over and when we others were so spent with
toil that reliefs were absolutely necessary. Let no one misunderstand
me. I do not wish to convey that the French soldier or officer shirks
danger; on the contrary, I believe Frenchmen to be amongst the most
daring soldiers in the world and the most cheerful under hardships, but
the generals did not see any good in putting worthy citizens, future
fathers of respectable families, into the most dangerous positions
when they had ready to their hands men who bore so bad a reputation
as the zephyrs and the legionaries gathered from every country under
the sun. They were quite right in this, but all the same we might
sometimes, just once in a while, have been allowed to dawdle along with
the reserve instead of being continually on the jump where the bullets
were. Of course, though we grumbled, we were proud too that the most
difficult and most dangerous work fell to our share.

For the first couple of days out I was very sea-sick, but the horrible
_mal-de-mer_ in the end passed off, and I was able to take an interest
in things around me as before. I don't mean to say much of the life
aboard. Such a tale would be only a recital of troubles and grievances,
but troops on a transport cannot expect a very pleasant time. One thing
we were glad of--there were no women and children aboard. The veterans
told us why we should rejoice at this, and any man who has travelled on
a troopship with women and their babies will easily guess the reason.
The worst part of the voyage was while we were going through the Red
Sea. There one loathed his morning coffee and growled at his evening
soup. The dull, deadly, oppressive heat in that region almost killed
us. We lay around, unable almost to curse, and the soldier who finds
himself too weak to do that, must be in a very bad way indeed. Only
once in the Red Sea did we show signs of life. It was when a French
troopship passed us on her way home with sick and wounded from the
war. The convalescents crowded on her deck and raised a feeble shout.
We cheered heartily in reply, and we kept up the cheering until it was
impossible for them any longer to hear. We pitied them, poor devils.
How they must have in turn pitied us, going as we were to the wretched
land where they had left behind health and many good comrades, and
where we too should pay our quota of dead and receive our quota of
wounds and illness. Anyway the sight of them roused us for a time, but
we quickly fell back into the languor induced by the excessive heat.

Here let me make a remark which may be of interest to many. We
legionaries had men, as I have already said more than once, from
every country in Europe, and from some outside of it, and one might
imagine that men of different nations would be differently affected
by the heat, aggravated, as it was, by cramped quarters and wretched
food. Well, I cannot single out any country whose natives endured the
discomfort better or worse than the others, but there were undoubtedly
two classes of men aboard, one of which was far more lively, far less
given to grumbling, and altogether possessed of more buoyancy and
resilience of temperament than the other. These were the men of fair
complexion. All the fair-haired, blue-eyed soldiers seemed to be able
to withstand bad conditions of living more easily and better than their
dark-complexioned comrades. I offer no explanation of the fact, but I
noted during the voyage for the first time, and afterwards I had many
opportunities of confirming my original impression, that fair men are
superior to dark ones in endurance and in everything connected with
war except the actual fighting; with regard to that, complexion does
not count. I have noticed in fever hospitals that the black moustaches
far outnumbered the reddish ones; in a field hospital there was never
such a disparity. I cannot say that other observers agree with me. I
merely put on record a thing that I noticed and that produced a deep
impression on me, but I never mentioned it to my comrades, nor shall I
now write down the various speculations with regard to men and nations
that I was led by it to indulge in. All I say is: I thank my stars that
my moustache is rather red--that seems to me a token of endurance, if
not of strength.

In due time we arrived off Singapore, and put in there. I must now
mention a few incidents of our stay in that harbour; they were, indeed,
the chief events of the voyage.

The reason why we put into Singapore was that coal had run short, and
the captain of the troopship did not like to go on to Saigon with
the small supply left. Those of us who did not know that Singapore
belonged to Great Britain soon learned the fact, and more than one
eagerly desired to get clear of the ship to land, and thus regain his
freedom. Now, I am no apologist for desertion. I think it a mean and
cowardly crime, but, if there be any excuse for it, surely many of
ours must be held excused. Remember that we were foreigners in the
French service, that many of ours had had good reason to flee from
justice in their own countries, that we all had a bad reputation with
our officers and our French comrades, and, above all, that recent
events--the fight at Three Fountains and the morbidly suggestive mound
at the east side of the camp there; the ugly fear of a horrible desert
station and the intolerable heat of the Red Sea--had made many men
think anxiously, constantly, longingly of getting away, at a stroke as
it were, from ugly memories and gloomy forebodings begotten of them.
Men don't desert from their colours without grave reason. Even the
most flighty man will think twice and thrice before taking the risk of
the court-martial that awaits detection or recapture. Moreover, in our
case sentries with loaded rifles were on duty at all points; one would
imagine that not even a rat could leave the ship unnoticed.

Well, the vessel was brought near the wharf and two gangways were run
out, one for the coolies carrying in the full baskets, the other for
the coolies going out with the empty ones. These coolies carried their
baskets on their heads, as you often see women carrying loads in other
countries. As each one passed the bunker he tipped the contents of his
basket in, and then went under a little archway, and crossed out by the
second gangway for a new load. Now there was one man of my company--a
Bulgarian--who was under confinement for some slight offence against
discipline, and, as the heat was almost unbearable, he had been brought
up by the guard--acting with the commandant's permission, be it well
understood--and allowed to sit under this archway during the heat of
the day. I was the nearest sentry to him, being placed at the outgoing
gangway, and one of my orders was to watch this man. Like many other
orders I remembered this one only in order to be able to repeat it to
the officer of the day, and never imagined that there was any necessity
of caring more about it. I was mistaken.

As the coolies passed under the archway, a good deal of coal dust
accumulated there. This dropped from the baskets, which they often
carried mouth downward in their hands, when empty. The prisoner had a
vessel of water, and this he carefully mixed with coal dust until he
had enough to stain all his body black. I must mention that part of
his little apartment was screened off from view by a half-partition,
and while in this recess he could be seen only by the coolies as they
passed through. Here he undressed and carefully blackened his person,
and then, watching a favourable opportunity when my attention was
completely taken up by a dispute on the quay, he throttled a coolie
passing through, forcibly seized his basket, gave him--as payment, I
suppose--a knock-down blow on the point of the jaw, and started for the
gangway. This he gained unperceived by me. Half-a-dozen steps carried
him ashore, and once on British soil he was safe from all arrest. He
flung the basket on the ground, and at once ran at his utmost speed
towards the town. A cry from those on shore called my notice to the
running man, and I knew at once, by his size and carriage, that the
Bulgarian had escaped. The moaning of the coolie, who was rapidly
coming to after the sudden and savage assault on him, was another
intimation that I had of the escape. I was put under arrest at once,
and kept in close confinement until we reached Saigon, but the officer
in command did not punish me further. The ingenuity displayed by
the deserter was so evident, that no one blamed me very much for
being taken off my guard and allowing a wrong man to go ashore, and,
moreover, as we neared Tonquin, all thought more and more of the
fighting and less and less of punishing a man who was not flagrantly in
the wrong. Of course, there was no chance of recapturing the Bulgarian;
he had reached foreign soil, and there is no act of extradition
affecting men guilty of merely military offences. It was well for him,
however, that my eyes were turned towards the dispute on the quay; all
the blackening would scarcely have deceived me, and I should have shot
him dead on the gangway before he could have time to reach the land.
For all that I was glad that he got safely away, for, though a man will
do his duty no matter how disagreeable it may be, yet he is not at
all sorry when he misses the chance of doing such duty as mine would
have been, had I noticed the runaway in time. Further on I shall have
occasion to mention the case of another deserter, a man who deserted
from a certain European army to French soil, and it was strange--oh,
very strange--that neither the French nor the other sentries could
hit him at less than a hundred yards' range, while he was making a
desperate rush across the strip of undefined territory that marked the

Some other incidents occurred at Singapore, but, as I was under arrest,
I can only speak of them as I heard about them from my comrades. After
the Bulgarian's escape a far stricter watch was kept--double sentries
were posted--but to a determined man nothing is impossible. More than
one was found absent at morning roll call, and at last it became
evident that, in some cases at least, connivance on the part of a pair
of sentries had permitted the escape. If a man once got down into the
water, he was practically free. Certainly a shark--and sharks do abound
in these waters, and especially in the harbours, where they pick up all
sorts of garbage--might cross his path, but there was not much danger,
as the distance to the land was so small. No one of ours, as far as
we could know, was caught in such a way. One, however, was caught by
something almost as bad, but I must give a new paragraph to describing
the hero of the tale before I begin the story about him.

The man I refer to I have already mentioned in connection with the
negotiations between the companies after the fight at Three Fountains.
He was the Italian that held the same leading place in the deputation
from No. 4 Company as Nicholas the Russian did in ours. Without
education--I don't believe that he could write his name--he possessed
a fund of shrewdness and a faculty of quick observation that made him
more than the equal of scholars--and many men of good education were
in our ranks. Not at all desirous of a quarrel, he was pre-eminently
one to avoid fighting with, for in a row he forgot all about his own
safety and seemed not to care what hurt he received so long as he
hurt his enemy, and any weapon that lay at hand would be used by him
without hesitation at the time or remorse or shame afterwards. A smart,
clean, active soldier; yet he was always getting into trouble and
disgrace, now with his corporal, at another time with the sergeant of
the section, but never with the officers. Fellows said that he belonged
either to the Mafia or the Camorra, but opinions were divided as to
whether he came to the Legion to avoid arrest by the Italian Government
for crimes committed in the course of business or punishment from his
association for treachery or some other offence against their laws.
Anyway he was with us, and though not liked, still respected; though
we did not fear him, yet we took good care to let him alone. He was
not a man--to his credit be it said--who interfered with others. Why,
then, should others interfere with him? About five feet five in height,
of carriage alert rather than steady, with quick, black eyes, dark
complexion, small, black moustache, regular features and even, white
teeth, he was certainly one to attract anyone's attention, especially
a woman's. He was very cynical with regard to the sex, not valuing
woman's fondness much, but, all the same, so long as he was a girl's
lover he allowed no poaching on his preserves. He sang well--French
songs as well as Italian--and played on more than one musical
instrument, his favourite one being a small flageolet, and with this
he lightened more than one weary hour for us on shipboard. He never
told anyone, I believe, of his intention to desert. I fancy he was too
cautious for that. When he did go, no sentry connived at the business,
for, even had our men been doing duty, not one of us cared so much for
the Italian as to risk a court-martial for his sake.

I must here remark that the legionaries had been relieved of sentry
duty, as so many of them had gone away without even bidding good-bye
to anyone. The French soldiers, the zephyrs, were now doing all this
duty; and they did it so well, I must admit, that no man got clear
away while they were on the watch--at least until the Italian left
the ship--but his absence was not a long one. All our coal had been
taken in, and the vessel had moved away from the wharf out into the
harbour, so that it lay about 200 yards from shore. The sentries must
have thought that no man would be so mad as to attempt to swim such a
distance, since the water was full of sharks, and in all probability
their vigilance had decreased. The morning after the ship had moved out
the Italian did not answer at roll call, and it was at once assumed,
and truly, that he had escaped, and, as no cry from the water had
been heard by the men on duty, that he had got safely to land. Before
the hour of departure the French consul came off in his own boat, to
see the officers of the ship and of the troops. This, of course, was
natural, but everyone was surprised to see him, as soon as he gained
the deck, rush forward with malicious joy in his eyes to greet the

"Ah, mon commandant, I have a present for you."

"Thanks, thanks, my friend; how you are good!"

"A most charming present. I bring you a friend whom you most earnestly
desire to see."

Leaning over the side he shouted out some orders to his sailors, and
they, going under an awning at the stern, carried out the Italian
bound hand and foot. How the commandant cursed him; how the Frenchmen
smiled and jeered; how we, his comrades, felt sad that our worthy
comrade should have been caught almost on the threshold of liberty!
_Camaraderie_ overcame all other feelings, and we pitied the poor
wretch, for we guessed that a court-martial would have little mercy
on a soldier, especially a soldier of the Legion, captured in the act
of deserting from his company while on the way to the seat of war. As
for the Italian, he was calm and collected, but, if he were free and
had a knife and were within striking distance of the commandant, that
officer would surely have had an end put to his cursing on the spot. In
a moment the Italian was brought aboard and at once sent down to the
prisoners' quarters, where he found several comrades, myself among the
number, eagerly speculating on the noise and confusion above.

As soon as the guard had gone away someone asked the Italian what the
noise on deck was about. He answered sharply:

"About a better man than you--about me."

None of us cared to put any further questions; Cecco was in very bad
humour indeed. However, in about ten minutes he told us all, saying he
had slipped over the side of the vessel when four sentries had come
close enough to chat--this, you must remember, meant only the approach
to one another of two posts, as all sentries had been doubled--that he
had been in the water for about three minutes when he came close to
a boat, which he boarded; that, like a fool, he made himself and his
intention known before he found out the character of his hosts; that he
was at once seized, and was told, when bound, that the boat belonged
to the French consul and therefore he was still on French territory.
"The rest you know," said he, "or can guess." We were sorry, and told
him so. He thanked us graciously enough, and hoped we might have
better luck in our enterprises than he had had in his, and, in reply
to a question as to what he thought would happen, he said at first
that he did not know and he did not care, but he would dearly like to
have the commandant at his mercy just long enough to kill him. "Listen
carefully," he went on. "I shall be shot in all probability, but they
will give me a chance of saying a prayer and making my confession
before I die. The commandant will also be shot, but he will get no
notice, and, unless he be very lucky indeed, no priest will be present
to send him absolved from sin into the presence of God." For the rest
of the voyage the Italian and we got on well together. He got the best
of the dinner, not that he thanked us or that we wanted thanks; he knew
why we did it, and we should have been very bad soldiers indeed if we
did not do a little to keep up the spirits of a man doomed, as we knew
him to be, to a sudden and early death.

Let me anticipate once more. After our arrival at Saigon, Cecco was
court-martialled, openly insulted the officers composing the court, was
sentenced to death, and shot the following morning. And the commandant
was shot in the back in a little skirmish in Tonquin--a brilliant
little affair that would have brought him promotion had he lived. It
may have been an accident, but there was at least a dozen Italians in
the company immediately behind him, and in the heat of action bullets
do occasionally go astray. How do I know that he was shot in the back?
Well, I don't _know_, but I suspect for two reasons: first, there was a
sort of investigation, which naturally led to nothing; and, secondly,
the Italian's words came back to my mind directly I heard of the
commandant's death. After all, is it not bad enough for an officer to
punish a man or to get him punishment? Why should he swear at the poor
devil and abuse him as if he had no spirit, no sense of shame, no soul?
Any man will take his punishment fairly and honestly, if he believes
that he has deserved it; no man will stand abuse without paying in full
for it when he gets his chance, for abuse is not fair to the man who
is waiting for his court-martial. But all, or nearly all, officers are
either fools or brutes.

Another thing that happened at Singapore Le Grand told me afterwards.
In the early days of desertion a fellow--I think he was a Belgian--came
to Le Grand and proposed that they should go away together.

"I am," said the Belgian, "a baker by trade; you speak English well and
can teach me. Let us go together. You will interpret for me and I will
work for both. We shall get enough of money in six months to carry us
to the United States, and there we shall separate as soon as I know
enough of the language to make myself understood."

"No," replied Le Grand; "I volunteered for the war, and I mean to see
what fighting means in Tonquin. Moreover, if I went away now, no one I
care about would ever have any respect for me again. It is bad enough
with me as it is; I will do nothing to make it worse. The most people
can allege against me now is folly; no one shall ever be able to charge
me with cowardice as well."

Many times the baker renewed his entreaties to Le Grand to go away. Le
Grand would not: he knew that hardships--perhaps sickness or wounds or
death--lay before him, but better anything than self-reproach and loss
of self-respect. Le Grand was right in his own way, because he was, and
is (for he is still alive and in a good position), a gentleman; the
Belgian baker was wise too in his generation and according to his own
lights. He slipped off before the Frenchmen were ordered to supply all
the guards. No one knows whether he fell a prey to the sharks or not,
and, I may add, no one--not even Le Grand--cares.

The only other important thing that was told to me was that our fellows
and the zephyrs became rather dangerous to one another. From the
beginning we were not too amiable, but when the commandant put us--at
least the other legionaries, for I was at the time in the prisoners'
quarters on account of the Bulgarian's escape--to do most of the
duties about the ship and put Frenchmen only on sentry, so that no
more men of the Legion might desert, things rapidly came to a head.
The commandant was lucky in two respects--the voyage to Saigon was
short, and a French war vessel accompanied the transport. Had there
been a twenty days' voyage without an escort the decks would have been
washed red with blood, for, be it remembered, though the average
French soldier can conduct himself with propriety in almost any place,
the zephyr is a military convict pure and simple. No matter how bad we
were, the zephyrs were worse. Well, let me put it in another way: the
zephyrs aboard were the bad characters of the French army; we others,
the legionaries, were the bad characters of all the other armies of
Europe. They, the zephyrs, had no chance of regaining their characters
in their own country, where their misdeeds were known; our fellows
had started, each with a clean sheet, on joining an alien army. Thus
our reputation as a body was bad, but no man had any very ugly charge
against his name; the zephyrs were bad by man, by squad, by company,
and by battalion. However, they are really amongst the finest fighting
men in the world; some people, indeed, say that the zephyrs are second
only to the legionaries.

There was no fight. The big war-vessel lay not so far away, and
all knew what its shells could do. Strange that we met these very
zephyrs afterwards, and our companies and theirs, certainly aided by
others, did a hard afternoon's bayonet-work together. We were friends
after that, so much so that I believe that one battalion, and that a
battalion of zephyrs, is the only one of the French army to speak with
liking--all, of course, speak with respect, unless at a distance--of
the Foreign Legion. But everything to its own place.

At last we reached Pingeh--a fine harbour. I was set free, as well as
all other prisoners save the Italian, and we disembarked, happy again
at the change, to take our share in the war against the Black Flags,
thinking more of the relief from the cramped quarters than of any
dangers that lay before us.


When we arrived at Pingeh, the port of Saigon, the zephyrs disembarked
first, and we followed. Straightway most of us were marched off to
a camping-field where tents and other impedimenta were awaiting us,
and in a short time we had formed a fairly creditable camp. Those of
ours who were kept behind on the quay were employed in sorting out our
baggage as the coolies carried the troopship's load ashore. Considering
that all except the officers carried their belongings on their backs,
this was not hard work, and most of them were satisfied, but the dozen
or so left on guard over the ammunition cases brought out by the
transport were not at all lucky, as they got no meal, not even a cup of
coffee, for fully twelve hours. That's always the way. Your ordinary
officer can't understand why everybody is not satisfied when he is. If
the captain has a good lunch and a better dinner, the simple soldier
may tighten his belt and put a bit of tobacco between his teeth--that
is good enough for him. Well, there are officers who care for their
men, but they are so few that, if you know a hundred captains, you
may easily reckon the good ones on the fingers of a hand. Some are
inclined to be good, but though physically brave they are morally
cowards; they cannot stand the sneering of those who look upon the men
as mere instruments for gaining decorations and promotion, and it is
so very easy to acquire the habit of doing as most of your equals do.
It is wrong--oh! I who have felt it know how wrong it is!--for a man
who has rank and a better lot than others to forget the responsibility
attached to his position, to let the men under him understand hour
by hour and day by day and week by week how little he cares for their
comfort, to swear at the sick, to sneer at the wounded, to order the
dead to be thrown any way into a trench, and to abuse the burial party
because they did not cover the carcasses quickly enough. War is war, as
an Alsatian in my company used to say; but why should a man, or rather
men, come into camp for the night after a long march, and perhaps a
sharp fight, to be sworn at and abused by the officers who, for their
own sakes even, should try to make things cheerful for all? But again I
am digressing.

We spent about a week at Saigon, under canvas all the time. Of course,
we got our share of inspection; first the chief officer--I forget
now who he was, not that he was at all worth remembering--then the
medical officer, then a quartermaster--the best of all, for he supplied
deficiencies in clothing. I must say this: when a French soldier goes
on campaign he is well fitted out--they took from us every article that
showed any signs of wear, and a new one was at once issued. At first
we thought that we should have to pay out of our scanty means for the
new supplies. We were only too glad to find that, instead of taking our
money under false pretences, as they do in other armies, our pay was
increased, and we were told, and truly told, that the increase would
last while we were on active service. Take my word for it, no matter
how bad the officers may be, the French Government is the best in the
world to its troops on active service. If men suffer, it is not the
fault of those in Paris; put the blame rather on the underlings--I mean
the commandants and the captains. But, remember, what I have just said
I have said only of the Republic--of the monarchy and the empire I know

Another reason for this delay was that the French, if they can by any
chance do it, keep men quiet on land for some days after a voyage. This
is very sensible. No man gets what I may call his land legs until some
time after he has come ashore from a transport, where space is small
and men are many, where food is wretched, and water mawkishly warm and
suspiciously sweet. The rest did us good; the new clothing and the
extra pay put us in good humour. When at last we put on our knapsacks
for the march into the interior, we were altogether different from the
500 semi-mutinous scarecrows who had landed from the troopship only six
or seven days before.

Every man had 150 rounds of ball cartridge in his pouch; all rifles
were loaded; we were evidently to be kept on the _qui vive_ from the
earliest possible moment; talking in the ranks was often stopped
without any visible cause; the sentries were visited half-a-dozen times
a night; discipline was in all respects as strict as it could be; and
we were made to understand, as if we had learned nothing in Algeria,
that we were in front of a cautious, skilful, and sometimes daring,
enemy, and that every man was responsible for his own and his comrades'

Now I have no intention of writing a history of the war in Tonquin.
I shall merely give details of the most important events of my life
there, and of these the first in order was the battle of Noui-Bop.

We had not been long in the East, and were by no means acclimatised,
when the battalion to which our two companies had been sent was ordered
to join a mixed force of French soldiers and natives under the command
of a distinguished French general, whose name is of no importance to my
narrative. This general was operating against a large force of Black
Flags, and, as a result of his operations, there was every prospect
of a hot engagement, and this was exactly to our taste. Ever since we
had joined the battalion we had been looked upon with suspicion by the
officers, for the news of the fight between the companies at Three
Fountains had travelled to Tonquin, and many believed that it was a
foolish thing to allow both companies to soldier together, as there
might be at any moment a renewal of the fray. Even our comrades of the
two other companies in the battalion at first thought that we might
again fall out, but very soon they saw what the officers could not, or
would not, see--that No. 4 and ours were as friendly as possible to
each other and that there was not the slightest chance of ill-feeling
showing itself between us. Thus we were anxious to be in a big battle;
we trusted in ourselves, and every man was determined, by showing
reckless bravery in the field, to wipe away the disgrace which we
knew attached to us, partly for our little fight and partly for the
desertions at Singapore.

After a good deal of manoeuvring, of which we bore our share, at last
it was evident that the eventful day had come. Some chasseurs d'Afrique
who were with us had located the Black Flags and their allies, many of
whom were regular soldiers of the Chinese army, in a strong position
at a place called Noui-Bop. Our native scouts confirmed this, and also
reported that there were several white officers amongst them--these
we guessed to be English or Prussians, or a mixture of both. We knew
that the enemy had good rifles and plenty of ammunition, that they held
favourable ground, that there was no chance of outflanking them owing
to their superiority in numbers and the nature of the country, and that
the frontal attack should be pushed well home if it were to succeed.
Well, so much the better, we said to ourselves.

On the morning of the battle we were aroused a little after sunrise.
This was because, in the East, it is best for European soldiers to
get the work of the day done before the sun becomes too hot. After
breakfast my battalion was ordered to leave knapsacks, greatcoats,
blankets--everything, indeed, save our arms and the clothing we stood
up in--in the quarters which we had occupied during the night, and
about fifty men were told off to see that there was no looting of
their comrades' belongings while the fight was going on. Then we went
forward, and took up our position in the centre of the fighting line.
On our right there were Annamite tirailleurs, backed up by some French
soldiers, I think zouaves; on our left a half-battalion of a French
regiment of the line--if I do not mistake, the 143rd. We waited and
smoked awhile, some laughed and joked, others puffed at their pipes in
silence, the officers were talking and looking always to the rear. At
last a dull booming was heard--the guns were beginning behind us--we
could see the shells passing over our heads and bursting more than a
thousand yards away in our front. Pipes were put up, but still we sat
quietly on the ground, listening to the roar of the guns and watching
the shells as they searched the line where our enemies lay. A staff
officer galloped up to our commandant, and we all got up without
waiting for the word of command. After a short colloquy the staff
officer galloped back to the general, the orders came clear and abrupt
from commandant and captains, and before we could well understand what
we were doing No. 4 Company and mine were extended in skirmishing
order, with the other two companies of the battalion behind us in

We had not advanced very far in this formation when a man, five or six
files on my right, flung up his arms and came to the ground with a
groan. Just then we began to fire, our firing being kept strictly under
control by the officers and sub-officers, who saw no use in allowing
us, as soldiers naturally do, to blaze away all our ammunition at too
long a range against a well-protected enemy. We went along almost too
well; not alone had the officers to control our fire, they had also to
work hard to keep us in hand as we went forward in the attack. All was
well. A man fell here and another there, but the losses were not enough
to speak about until we came to the dangerous zone.

Now let me explain what is meant by the dangerous zone. I did not
understand it at the time, but I afterwards learned all about it, and
many a time I thanked my stars when the order came to fix bayonets,
for then I knew that I was safely through the ugly place and that most,
if not all, of the chances were in my favour.

The Chinese--at least those of them whom we were fighting--never put
the rifle to the shoulder as Europeans do when about to fire. Instead,
they tuck the rifle-butt into the armpit and try to drop the bullet,
as it were, on the attacking party. They cannot well do this until the
attack comes within five hundred yards of the defence, nor can they do
it when the enemy is within two hundred yards of their line, but they
succeed fairly well--that is, well for such clumsy shooters--while
the fighting line of the advance is between five hundred and two
hundred yards of their position. This was pointed out to us by our
officers, and we could easily see for ourselves that what they said was
true. Looking back--of course, when the battle was over--we saw only
scattered bodies lying for the first three or four hundred yards of our
advance, then a comparatively large number in the dangerous zone, after
that few, for, as we closed with the bayonet and were practically at
point-blank range, the Black Flags wavered and fired at the sky rather
than at us.

Well, we had got along fairly until we came to within about five
hundred yards of the enemy's trenches. Then the men went down fast,
and the officers, sergeants, corporals, and veterans shouted out to
us neophytes to run. And we did run; we covered about three hundred
yards of heavy ground--we were attacking through rice fields, you must
know--as quickly as men ever did before or since. I was pretty blown
when I heard the order given to lie down, and down we lay, with bullets
flying overhead, until we regained our breath. Above us the shells
from our guns were shrieking, in front they were exploding; it gave us
all--at least it gave me--a feeling of heartfelt gratitude that the big
guns were on our side. After some time we were ordered forward again.
We ran a bit, fired a round, ran again a little way and fired another
cartridge, not at the foe, for as yet we could see no men in our front,
but at the long line of smoke that overhung the trenches where the
Black Flags and their allies, the Chinese regulars, were waiting for
our charge.

In this fashion we managed to get to within about eighty yards of the
enemy's trenches, and were then ordered to halt, lie down, and fire as
often as possible at the heads and figures that we were now beginning
to distinguish where the little puffs of smoke arose. A light breeze
was sweeping down the battlefield, and this lifted the blue-white
clouds, so that men on both sides could easily make out their enemies.
An officer sprang up about twenty yards away from me, waved his sword,
and shouted out something which I could not hear, so incessant was
the rattle of musketry. I saw the others fixing their bayonets, and I
reached round to my left side to pluck out mine. As I did so, I saw the
supporting companies of ours running up to join us. Very soon they were
at our side, and the four companies, nearly a thousand strong, poured
in a hot fire for a minute or two. Then we heard the clear notes of the
charge. In a second, commandant, officers, sub-officers, and simple
soldiers were all racing for the trenches like madmen, shouting: "Kill,
kill!" How I got there I do not know. I was in, anyway, if not amongst
the first, certainly not amongst the last, and when there a horrible
scene lay before my eyes. On all sides were dead and dying men, some of
the dead quiet and calm in appearance, as if only sleeping, with just a
little spot of red on the forehead or staining the breast; others torn
to pieces by the deadly shells. Some of the wounded were quite passive
and resigned; others were crying out, I suppose for mercy. But it was
not of them we thought, our business lay with a large body of men,
led by a big chief in yellow tunic and wide yellow trousers, who met
us with bayonet, sword, and spear and tried to retrieve the fortunes
of the day. Our officers--bad as they were, they were brave--rushed
straight at this band. We followed like wolf-hounds rushing at wolves.
Their hoarse cries and imprecations soon died away as with bloody
bayonets we thrust and dug our way through them from front to rear.
Once more the Asiatic went down before the European, and in five
minutes from the time our foremost entered the trenches we had left
not a single Black Flag or Chinese regular standing on his feet. Some
of the wounded fired at us as they lay upon the ground; that work,
however, was very soon stopped.

Meanwhile the half-battalion of French troops of the line had gallantly
carried their part of the entrenchments, but on the right the native
troops, the Annamite tirailleurs, were in trouble. Some Frenchmen were
with them, but these were too few of themselves to make head against
the enemy, who thronged like bees to flowers where they saw a good
chance of throwing back the attack. My captain, a good soldier and a
bad man, hastily collected about a hundred of his men, and getting
us into some sort of order gave us the word--and the example too,
indeed--to charge. We fell upon the exposed flank of the barbarians. In
a couple of minutes we drove it in upon the main left of the enemy, and
very soon the Annamites, taking their courage in both hands, returned
to the attack. Some of ours again went round and charged the enemy
in the rear, and then the game was up--the battle was over. I wish I
need say no more about the fighting, but many would not surrender, and
these, of course, were promptly shot or bayoneted where they stood.
Some wounded also suffered, but I must say that when a white man,
zouave or legionary, put a wounded enemy out of pain it was only after
the savage had tried to shoot or stab a passing soldier. Well, if a
wounded man will try to kill there is only one thing to do--put it as
soon as possible out of his power to do serious damage. I don't blame
the savages much for firing or cutting at our fellows; as they never
gave quarter to whites, they naturally believed, I suppose, that
whites would give no quarter to them.

Some of the Annamite tirailleurs did, I am afraid, a little
unjustifiable killing. Well, it's the way with these people; they
think as little of killing a wounded man as a hungry legionary would
of killing a providentially sent chicken. We must make allowances; but
I am very doubtful about the wisdom of European nations in supplying
arms and teaching modern drill to the yellows, the blacks, and the
browns. You may make any of these very good imitations of white
soldiers, but the leopard cannot change his spots, and the effects of
centuries of cruelty cannot be eradicated in a day. The Annamites had
one excuse--they were merely doing to the Black Flags what the Black
Flags would have done to them and to us had the issue of the fight
been different. This is a poor excuse, I admit, but then any excuse
is better than none at all. The white officers attached to our native
levies did their best to keep their men in hand, but orders are not
always minded, even by the very best soldiers, in the heat of action or
the flush of victory.

No one must assume that what I have written is a full account of the
battle of Noui-Bop. I merely tell what happened under my own eyes. I
know nothing whatever of the events that occurred in other parts of the
battlefield, nor must it be considered that the troops I have mentioned
were the only attacking ones. There were others advancing far away to
the right and to the left--we were only the centre of the advance--and
when I speak of right and left, I mean right and left of the central
attack, not extreme right and left of the firing line.

When we had cleared the Black Flags and their comrades out of the
entrenchments, we had a short rest under arms. Very soon, however, we
received orders to advance, but cautiously, so as not to get too far in
front of the rest. In our rear we could see the artillerymen bringing
up their guns to new positions. Occasionally a gun would be unlimbered
and a shell or two thrown into a part of the enemy trying to re-form.
These shells did not do much damage to the enemy, but they did a great
deal of good to us; it was so pleasant to watch the projectiles hissing
through the air and to know that our friends the Black Flags were also
watching them, but with very different feelings. One of our fellows, a
happy-go-lucky Andalusian, called the shells _lettres d'avis_--warning
notices that we were coming and that it would be best for the
barbarians to be "not at home." Only twice in this advance had we to
make a regular attack, and in each case the men who opposed us did not
wait to allow us to get to close quarters; they fled with a hail of
bullets about their ears before we got within two hundred yards. The
French advance on the extreme right seemed to have more difficulty. I
fancy an attempt was made to take them in flank. Anyway, we heard a
continuous roll of musketry, with the heavy booming of guns, for about
ten or fifteen minutes, and then only a dropping fire, when the attack
had evidently been repulsed. On the left no trouble was experienced;
our comrades there swept forward, driving the men opposed to them like
sheep. About eleven o'clock we were halted. The native levies were
sent on in pursuit, as they were better able than European soldiers to
follow up a retreating enemy in the heat of the noonday sun. We lay
down and rested, happy in the thought that our first fight in Tonquin
was over and won. We were not allowed to remain long at our ease after
the fight. First two companies, and afterwards the other two, were
sent back to get the knapsacks and other impedimenta left behind by
the general's order before the advance. About half-past four in the
afternoon we got some bread and soup, and a little after five, when
the great heat of the day was over, we set forward on our march in the
track of the retreating enemy and the pursuing tirailleurs. We kept on
until nearly nine o'clock at night, occasionally halting for a rest.
In spite of the Annamite levies being in front of us on this march we
took all possible precautions against a surprise; we had a section
of a company in front, and, in advance of that again, one of its
squads. Other squads were out far to the right and to the left. These
precautions may seem unnecessary, as our own friends were in front,
but, indeed, they were very useful for several reasons. In the first
place we saw that, no matter how triumphant our arms might be, there
was to be no relaxation of precaution or of discipline; in the second,
it was possible that our irregulars might have allowed a large body of
the enemy to slip in behind them, and these might ambush us; again, all
the men of the main body felt a sense of security, and consequently
their nerves were not kept constantly strained--a material advantage in
warfare. It is a good maxim to put all the watchfulness on a few and to
allow the main body to rest or march in security; so an officer will
have better soldiers in action. The best men in the world can't help
feeling worried and depressed by constant expectation of an attack.
A battle is nothing--very often it is, indeed, a relief--but always
waiting and always speculating on an attack, and always wondering
from what side it will come, will wear out the strongest nerves. Then
come dogged sullenness, loss of interest in one's work, carelessness
in duty, and slovenliness in the little things that all soldiers take
pride in, and in the end disaster.

That night we lay about fifteen or sixteen kilometres from the place
where we had rested the previous night. It was lucky that it was not
my turn for guard; I felt so sleepy after the morning fight and the
evening march. I had scarcely rolled myself up snugly in my greatcoat
and blanket when I fell into a heavy, dreamless sleep, and I could
almost swear that I had not had two minutes' rest when the reveille
went in the morning. I felt very hungry, and that made me get up
quickly from the spot of hard ground on which I had been sleeping,
to help the others to light the fire for the squad's morning coffee.
Nicholas the Russian asked me how I felt.

"Hungry, my comrade, hungry," I replied. And everyone, even the
captain, who was passing at the time, laughed as if I had said a good
thing. Soldiers are very like schoolboys; the simplest thing said
or done by one they know far surpasses anything said, no matter how
brilliant, anything done, no matter how renowned, by those they do not
know. On active service they are even more easily amused. We often
laughed heartily at sayings that, considered calmly by me now, show not
the slightest trace of humour.

When the tale of dead and wounded was made up it was seen that our
battalion had suffered more than any other corps in the fight, and that
of the four companies constituting it mine had the greatest number of
losses. This was not bad for me. For some reason or other the captain
made me a soldier of the first class, and I was very glad indeed that
Nicholas the Russian and Le Grand were also promoted to wear the single
red stripe on their right sleeves. We laughed heartily as we thought of
our advance in rank and of what we should have got instead of promotion
if all were known about the quarrel at Three Fountains. Well, what
people don't know won't trouble them.

For some time after this our battalion was always on hard duty. We
on some days marched only ten or twelve kilometres; on others, in
pursuit of a band of marauders, we covered as much as twenty-five or
thirty. Remember, we had to do all this in a country where roads are
bad and travelling over fields almost impossible, with heavy packs
on our backs, and never less than a hundred rounds of ball cartridge
in our pouches. Then no matter how pleasant the greatcoat and the
blanket might be at night, they were no light load during the day, and
especially between the hours of eleven in the forenoon and four in
the afternoon, when we had to go forward if there was the slightest
chance of catching up with some or other band of scoundrels. Moreover,
when soldiers are on flying duty, they seldom get enough to eat, and
what they do get is not the very best or nicest food in the world. One
day we came in at the hour of evening soup to a little camp where some
zouaves and marine fusiliers were. They were very good to us indeed;
the soup they had just prepared for themselves they gave to us, and
they took, good fellows that they were, the dry bread and unboiled
rice that we had in our haversacks. They were decent men, these French
soldiers; they saw that we had been on tramp for some time, and they
hesitated not a moment to give us the savoury soup when they saw the
hungry longing in our eyes and the convulsive twitch of nostrils, as
the grateful odour was perceived. They did more; they gave us some wine
and native spirit, and I do not know whether we were more pleased with
the gifts or with the free, generous dispositions of the givers. Well,
we did as much afterwards for Frenchmen.

This victory at Noui-Bop gave the French control over a large strip of
country. Moreover, many new recruits joined the Annamite tirailleurs,
for the Asiatic, like all others, wants to be on the winning side.
There were promotions, of course, but the only ones I was at all
interested in were those that gave the single red chevrons to Nicholas,
Le Grand, and myself. We had got to like one another very much, and I
believe that the promotion of one gave more pleasure to his comrades
than to himself. I may say here that Nicholas and Le Grand afterwards
refused further promotion; I, a boy and fool, took it when offered, but
I must tell how that came about in another chapter.


I will not weary the reader with an account of our marches to and
fro, hunting straggling bands of marauders. This work soon became
monotonous, and the recital of our doings would, I am sure, prove
monotonous as well. Only one thing impressed itself strongly on my mind
at the time, and this was that a man who fell out of the ranks had no
chance of getting mercy from the Black Flags. Occasionally, we came
across the horribly mutilated body of a French soldier or an Annamite
tirailleur, and the sight was sickening. One circumstance, which I must
now relate, made our blood boil over and, if we learned to give no
quarter, the enemy had no one to blame but themselves.

We arrived at a small village one morning about nine o'clock, having
been on the march continuously since five. Here we rested during the
heat of the day, and one of the men of my squad and I went to a little
shop to buy tobacco. We saw some fruit there--I don't know what kind
it was--and my comrade purchased some and gave a share to me. We ate
it, and thought no more about the business, but the fruit cost my poor
friend his life.

When we were on the march that afternoon, I felt very sick. My
comrade--I forgot to mention that he came from Lorraine and was serving
with us in order that, when his time was up, he might become a French
citizen--was even worse, and both of us had to fall out of the ranks.
However, we again caught up with the company, but a second time we were
compelled to stay behind, and this time the captain ordered our rifles
and ammunition to be taken from us and carried by our comrades.

"The Black Flags," he said, "may get you if they like, but they sha'n't
have your arms or ammunition."

I don't blame the officer, he was quite right. The same thing was done
with every man who showed signs of weakness or weariness, for we had
no ambulance in these hurried pursuits, and the abandoned soldier kept
only his bayonet for defence against the human wolves that hung on our
flanks and rear. Not much good that, for the cowards used to overpower
the poor devils with stones, and, as soon as they were beaten to the
ground, the brutes would seize them and execute their horrible tortures
on their bodies before death came--a merciful release. Again, however,
we struggled back to the company. Nicholas, who was carrying my rifle
and ammunition in addition to his own, said: "Cheer up, my good friend;
keep on a little longer; we shall soon be in camp." Le Grand, who
was in the squad immediately behind mine, got permission to carry my
knapsack, another man took my greatcoat, and still another my blanket,
but, in spite of the relief thus afforded me, it was with the utmost
difficulty that I kept on. The Lorrainer was similarly aided, but he
was too unwell, and had for the third and last time to fall out. He
never rejoined the company, and we could at the time only speculate
upon his fate, but very soon we were to learn the truth.

Helped on by my comrades, I managed to stagger into the little
collection of huts where we were to pass the night. Nicholas and
Le Grand foraged for me, and got somewhere and somehow a supply of
native spirit. Le Grand made me a stiff glass of boiling hot punch,
and this I was compelled to drink, though my stomach rebelled at all
things. I fell asleep soon after, and woke in the morning, qualmish,
indeed, and weak, but completely rid of all the bad effects brought
on by indulgence in the fruit. Nicholas insisted on my taking some
of the spirit in my morning coffee, and also filled my water bottle
with coffee containing about a glass of the fiery stuff, so that I
might have medicine on the march. All the others of the squad were
sympathetic, and Le Grand, though not of my squad, came over to our
hut to inquire about me. Nobody minded this--it was no breach of squad
etiquette, as we were both Irishmen--but, of course, it would not do
for us to be too much together--we remembered the punishment given to
the Alsatians.

Some information received by our officers made us return by the route
passed over on the previous day. When we came near the place where the
unfortunate Lorrainer had fallen out, a great cloud of birds rose up
from the ground and flew, crying hoarsely, away. Very soon we learned
the meaning of this. The captain of my company, who was riding in
front, suddenly shouted out: "Halt!" and dismounting, gave the reins
to his orderly and crossed into a rice field that bordered the way.
What he saw there seemed to fill him with disgust and horror. He called
out to the other officers to come and see; then the sergeants and the
corporals were summoned; finally we private soldiers went by fours to
view the sight. What a horrible thing met our gaze! On the ground lay
the dead body of the Lorrainer, hacked and mutilated in a fashion that
I cannot describe. We were almost sickened by the sight. Often before
we had seen mutilated bodies, but never one so savagely disfigured as
this, and, moreover, this was the body of one who had been our good
comrade only the day before.

"Ah," said the captain to me, "was it not well that you struggled on?"

"My captain," said Nicholas, speaking before I could get out a word, "I
will never again give mercy to a Black Flag. As they do to us, let us
do to them."

The captain answered nothing to this, but sent us back to our ranks.
Before we left the spot we buried the poor Lorrainer.

All that day we spoke of nothing but the horrible sight we had seen
in the morning. We were angry; we made resolutions to take a sharp and
speedy vengeance for the death of our comrade and the indignity shown
to his corpse; we encouraged one another in the desire for revenge; we
spoke of what might happen to any one of us who fell faint or wounded
on the way; we were gloomy and sullen, not with despair, but with the
gloom and sullenness of incensed men. Had we met any enemies that day,
not even the commander-in-chief of the army in Tonquin could have
prevented us from treating them as they had treated our poor comrade,
and, when we did get the chance, we took a bloody vengeance on the
barbarians--such a vengeance as even in the Legion was spoken of with
bated breath.

Now at this time the battalion had been divided into three parts--two
companies held a depot of stores and ammunition, the remaining two
were out as small flying columns through the country. It was our turn
to go into garrison and rest a while, and two days after burying
our unfortunate comrade we marched into the depot. The day after
our friends of No. 4 Company came in, and the two companies, Nos. 1
and 2, that we relieved started off on a ten days' trip through the
country, seeking the enemy but, as a rule, not finding them. While
we were resting in garrison we told the story of the Lorrainer's sad
fate to the men of No. 4, and we also made them acquainted with our
determination to have satisfaction at all costs for the brutality of
those who had tortured to death a poor, sick soldier, to all intents
and purposes unarmed, and then disfigured his body in so revolting a
manner. I give no details of the mutilation here, but we described it
fully to our comrades, and they too were filled with horror and anger.
The two companies had got a strange sort of liking for each other,
arising out of the fight at Three Fountains, and we could not have met
men more willing to back us up in our resolve than they were, and fate
sent us other allies almost as good too.

A few days before our turn came to go out on the tiresome tramp after
quickly disappearing enemies, two companies of Frenchmen came into our
little camp. To our surprise, and, indeed, at first to our disgust,
they were the two companies of zephyrs that had come out with us in the
transport. We had not lain alongside of them since we parted at Saigon,
and then our feelings towards one another were not at all friendly.
However, if soldiers quickly fall out, often they become friends again
as easily, and so it happened with us. The zephyrs were not a day in
camp before they knew all about the Lorrainer and our desire to avenge
him, and, since they considered the people of Lorraine as their own
flesh and blood, they felt almost as angry as we did. Very soon we all
were, if not friends, at least allies for the purpose of obtaining
vengeance on the Black Flags, and it was tacitly understood amongst the
soldiers of the four companies that, when next we went into action, no
quarter was to be given and that the commands, even the entreaties,
of our officers to show mercy were to be disregarded. As soldiers we
all recognised that it would be impossible to punish so many men, and
we saw also that, if we took a terrible vengeance, the officers would
do their best to hide the fact, and, though it might become known
throughout the army, yet there was no chance of the general giving it
official recognition by giving us official punishment.

Now the two companies of zephyrs numbered at the time about 300 men and
No. 4 and mine about 350; the rest were in the hospital or the grave.

When No. 1 and No. 2 Companies of my battalion came into camp, the
zephyrs and we others marched out. At the end of the first day's march
we picked up a couple of companies of Annamite tirailleurs, weak ones
they were, and angry, as they had had a couple of fights recently
with the Black Flags and got by no means the best of the fighting.
Another weak company of native levies joined us the next day, so that
altogether our commandant had at his disposal about 650 Europeans and
about 300 Asiatic tirailleurs. There were no guns with us, but we did
not mind their absence, this time we meant to depend solely on the

I have often wondered whether or not our officers knew of our
resolution. Certainly the corporals and sergeants did, but these
_sous-officiers_ were too experienced to say anything to us about it;
they might as well have tried to turn back Niagara as to change our
minds. That they knew, and they knew also that we were dangerous men to
cross when united and feeling strongly about anything. Bullets don't
always fly towards the enemy. Many a man with a private grudge against
sergeant or corporal might be only too glad to salve his conscience,
or what stood for his conscience, by saying to himself that he was
merely executing justice on behalf of his section or his squad. If the
officers knew, they kept silent, but one thing was certain, however
it came about: we were the quietest and most subdued force, to all
appearance, in the world. The officers and sub-officers were strangely
easy with us; we in the ranks dropped all the boisterous gaiety that
usually distinguishes soldiers; we were well behaved, respectful,
attentive to our duties--in short, for the time being we were model

One evening our scouts brought in word that a fairly large body of the
enemy, from two to three thousand strong, lay within two hours' march
of our encampment. These were evidently the men who had driven back
the Annamite tirailleurs, and our yellow friends were quite well aware
of what had happened to their wounded, whom they had been compelled
to abandon on the field. "So much the better," whispered we to one
another; "the native levies will be our very good brothers this time."

Next morning we were aroused without sound of bugle, and after the
morning meal had been disposed of, every man received a ration of
wine. Some fellows drank this at once, most of us, however, put it into
our water bottles for use during the day. Soon we were on the march,
due precautions being taken against a flank attack or a surprise,
and about eight o'clock or half-past we arrived within sight of the
enemy. They were not disposed to stir on our account, and we were quite
satisfied. We had begun to despise them--I mean when we met them in
fair fight. That is the way with all Europeans; a white man gets to
know his yellow brother only to despise him.

Towards nine o'clock the regular advance began. No. 4 Company of
legionaries attacked on the right, my company being in support, with
half-a-section, supported by some Annamite tirailleurs, flung out to
guard against a flank attack on the part of the enemy; on the left a
company of zephyrs were extended, the second company of Frenchmen doing
the same duty on the left as mine did on the right; in reserve were the
rest of the Annamite tirailleurs.

Our men advanced in the usual way until they came within charging
distance of the enemy's entrenchment. At this time a slight diversion
was caused on the left by a feeble attempt to outflank and throw into
confusion the white soldiers and native levies advancing in support.
This attempt failed, and, just as we knew that it had failed, a
similar one was made on us. We quickly put an end to it, pouring in
a heavy fire at short range, and when these attacks were repulsed
a considerable body of the Black Flags left the field. But the
firing line in front had still to reckon with the soldiers manning
the trenches, and these certainly fought with admirable spirit and
determination. Better for them had they run away!

When the time came, in the commandant's opinion, for the charge which
was to end the fight, one section of my company was ordered forward to
join No. 4, the other section, the one to the right, with about 100
Annamite tirailleurs, to overlap the enemy in that direction and, if
possible, to take them in the rear.

As we ran along we heard first the heavy, continuous firing that always
precedes the bayonet charge, and then the hoarse roar of "Kill, kill!"
that told us that our comrades were going up with the bayonet.

We redoubled our exertions, slaughtered to a man a small body of Black
Flags that tried to block the way, and very soon we were clear past
the end of the entrenchments and were moving inwards--that is, to the
left--to catch the savages in the rear. We just succeeded. The enemy,
driven out of the entrenchments by the frontal attack, were pouring out
in hundreds along their line of retreat We rushed at them with cries of
exultation and revenge, and as we drove back the fugitives on one side
a section of zephyrs and some natives drove them back on the other.
We had now completely hemmed them in. Roughly speaking, on the south
were a company and a half of legionaries and a company and a half of
zephyrs, with a few Annamites who had come up from the reserves; on the
north, half a company of legionaries, half a company of zephyrs, and
about a hundred and fifty native tirailleurs; between these two forces
about six or seven hundred Black Flags and their allies. It was now a
game of battledore and shuttlecock: our comrades on the south drove the
savages on to our bayonets; we sent them yelling back again. Once more
our fellows attacked and pushed them towards us; we, who had re-formed
the ranks, again closed and used the bayonet mercilessly until they
tried to break away. This went on for some time, but every charge
brought the opposed lines of white soldiers closer, and thus diminished
the little space in which the Black Flags could move. At last we were
all a dense crowd, in the centre a mob of savages so closely packed
together that they had scarcely room to thrust or cut, around this a
circle of maddened men stabbing furiously and crying out:

"Vengeance for our comrade; kill, kill!" By scores the central mob went
down. At last not more than fifty or sixty were left, and these were on
their knees or thrown prone upon the ground crying out for quarter. We
opened our ranks and let all the Annamites through; in three minutes
not a Black Flag was left alive.

In plain words, this was a massacre--of that there can be no doubt.
It is only fair, however, to put the responsibility on the proper
shoulders. Therefore I say that it was meditated upon and carried out
by the simple soldiers; the officers and sub-officers merely fought
well while there was any show of resistance. It would be unjust to
the men to say that the officers led us, for we were far too anxious
to get to close quarters to require leading, but when the resistance
had ceased the captains and lieutenants vehemently ordered, and, when
orders were disregarded, begged of us to stop. The sergeants and
the corporals asked us to refrain from killing, but they were not
over-earnest about it--they understood us better than the leaders of
higher rank--and they knew quite well that our desire of vengeance
could be appeased only by blood. The corporal of my squad said to us

"No doubt it was wrong, but perhaps it was necessary."

But, it will be asked, were there no leaders in the affair? Yes;
there were leaders--indeed, the very best leaders that could be found
for such a deed. You must understand that we had in our ranks men of
education and refinement; gentlemen, let me say, who had gone astray.
These were of many nations and of various crimes. I have already
mentioned Nicholas the Russian. I could also tell you something of a
Prussian ex-lieutenant of hussars; of an English infantry officer,
son of a high official in the Colonies, who had sent in his papers
after a five minutes' interview with his colonel; of the Austrian
_beau sabreur_ who loved women better than their honour and preferred
cards to his own; of many others who came to the Legion as a means
of committing social suicide, and who--unhappy rascals that they
were--were yet good, honest, fighting men, and not bad comrades if one
only put a guard upon his tongue. Two of them could not live in the
same squad, and the authorities knew it. Every one of them was a second
corporal, so to speak, and really, to take the case of the man I knew
best, Nicholas was far more respected amongst us than our authorised
superior, and the corporal was as well aware of the fact as we. Well,
these were the leaders. When the officers and sub-officers, who
thought only of victory and perhaps promotion, would have had us show
mercy when the fight was over, these men, born and trained leaders,
encouraged us to slay and spare not, and showed us an example of fierce
brutality which we, angry on account of the murder and mutilation
of our comrade, only too faithfully followed. We should certainly
have done some unfair killing in any case, but we others should not,
I believe, have been guilty of such excesses were it not for the
ruined gentlemen who for once saw a chance of giving vent to their
long pent-up feelings of anger with all the world--especially their
world--that had for ever cast them out Long ago there was an Italian
proverb: "Inglese Italianato e diavolo incarnato," and I believe it to
have contained a good deal of truth at the time. Nowadays the "devil
incarnate" is the gentleman by birth and breeding who has been rejected
by his natural society because he has been so unlucky as to be found

Well, the fight was over, and we, having cleaned our bayonets, rested
quietly on the field. Nobody in the ranks said a word; the sergeants
stood apart from us and from each other; a little knot of officers
gathered together and spoke in whispers. The commandant rode up and
spoke in a low tone to them, then he went away, and the sections were
ordered to fall into ranks. The zephyrs and we were marched a little
way from the place, and were ordered to prepare a small encampment; the
Annamite tirailleurs were sent out scouting while this was being done;
there was not the slightest thought in any man's mind of pursuing the
flying enemy. Indeed, pursuit would have been useless; those who had
got away had too long a start, and we were very tired and in no mood
for further fighting that day. About two hundred legionaries and some
zephyrs were after a short time sent out to bury the dead. I should
mention that our wounded had been first carried to the place where
we were forming the little camp. I was glad that I was not with the
burial party; those who formed it had no stomach for their evening
soup. Towards nightfall all things necessary had been done--the wounded
cared for, the dead buried four deep in a long trench, this for the
Black Flags, and two shorter trenches, one for the legionaries and the
zephyrs, the other for the Annamite tirailleurs. The camp was very
quiet; the men not on guard or outlying picket lay about smoking, but
with very little conversation; the officers of all detachments had
assembled in the centre, and were talking earnestly about the events of
the day.

Nothing was ever said to us about this ugly affair. It was over and
done with; there was no use in talking about it In any case, how
could eight or nine hundred men--that is, including the Annamite
tirailleurs--be punished? Cæsar could decimate his legions--the day
is gone by for such punishment; moreover, even if special soldiers
were selected for trial by court-martial their comrades would surely
have revenge on the officers, the sergeants, and the corporals. It is
dangerous--take my word for it, very dangerous--to go too far with any
regiment in any army. With us it would be even worse, for no one, not
even the general in chief command, would be safe from our bullets if
only a chance arose. I believe that we were at once the worst used and
the most feared corps on the face of the earth.

Not long afterwards No. 4 Company and mine rejoined our comrades of
Nos. 1 and 2. We parted from the zephyrs in a very friendly way; they
told us that they liked us very much, and we paid them a similar
compliment. Often afterwards we heard from other legionaries that a
certain corps of zephyrs had shown them singular friendliness. In a
short time the story went round about the affair, and people began to
understand why this battalion of zephyrs was so well able to get on
with the soldiers of the Legion. Our fellows were good comrades to
them, just as they were good comrades to ours. If the zephyr had money,
the legionary had a share; if the legionary had money, the zephyr did
not find himself without wine and tobacco and the other things that
money procures. Frenchmen of other corps did not mind. After all,
it was none of their business; besides, the zephyr as well as the
legionary had a rather ugly camp reputation; both were too ready to
fight with men of other regiments on the slightest provocation.

In a short time we received some recruits, and the four companies of
the battalion were brought up to a fairly respectable strength. Every
company now numbered more than two hundred men, and at long last
promotion came in the ranks. The sergeant of my section had died of
wounds soon after the little affair I have just mentioned. My corporal
was promoted in his stead. It will be remembered that the corporal
of my squad had given the first intimation to the captain that we
were about to volunteer for active service; the captain now took the
opportunity of rewarding him for bringing the joyful news. There were
only two soldiers of the first class in the squad--Nicholas the Russian
and I. Nicholas, as the older and better soldier, was offered the rank
of corporal. He refused it, as was natural. It was all right to become
a soldier of the first class, because that rank saved him from many
disagreeable duties, but the idea of one who had commanded a company
accepting the control of a squad and receiving curses and abuse from
the company officers when a soldier got into trouble was not to be
entertained for a moment. The second chevron was then offered to me. I
accepted it on the spot, and by none was I more heartily congratulated
than by Nicholas. He went further than mere compliments and good
wishes: he asked me if I wanted money to pay for some drink and tobacco
for the men. Luckily, I had a few francs saved out of my scanty pay,
and so I was able to decline his generous offer. At the same time I
assured him that, if I wanted the loan of money from any man, I would
rather be in his debt than in another's. And I paid him the further
compliment--its truth pleased him--that I was, indeed, corporal on
parade but that he was corporal in camp, and that I should find it hard
to prove superior rank to his in a fight I knew--everybody knew--that
Nicholas had more influence than any corporal or, for that matter,
than either of the sergeants. He was glad that I openly admitted it
to him, and a more loyal soldier never helped a sub-officer when help
was really needed than he. I, probably the youngest corporal in the
army--not yet seventeen--had a more orderly and well-disciplined squad
than any other corporal in the service. Partly, I believe, this was
due to my own desire to give fair play to all the men, but chiefly,
I know, to the thorough-going way in which Nicholas supported me in
everything. Every man under me felt that I would do my best to screen
him if he broke the regulations, to save him as much as possible if
he were brought before the captain or the commandant by sergeant or
sergeant-major. Often I deliberately shut my eyes to things that were
wrong in themselves but dear to the heart of the soldier, and one day
I went so far as warmly to defend before the captain a man charged by
the sergeant-major with a serious military offence, though everybody
knew that the man's sole claim to be helped by me was that he was a
member of my squad. Nicholas told me that I had acted imprudently.
"The sergeant-major," he said, "will be your enemy; but there is one
consolation, the squad is more than pleased. The Austrian, however,"
he went on, "had no right to get himself into such trouble and, as it
were, compel you to save him from the consequences of his own guilt. We
will punish him; get permission to go outside the camp this evening,
and leave him to us." I understood. I got permission to be absent for
four hours--from seven in the evening until eleven. When I came back
the Austrian was lying on the floor of the hut with a blanket thrown
over him, dead.

"It was an accident, my corporal," said Nicholas.

"Yes; an accident," said a Belgian; "we did not mean to break his neck."

I examined the body. It was quite true that he was dead; already his
jaw had fallen, and a coldness and rigidity had seized upon his limbs.
I thought for a minute. The lights were out, only a feeble ray of
moonlight shone through the door.

"Is there anything to be done?" said I to Nicholas.

"Yes," he replied; "if we are all true comrades."

The others swore that they would be loyal to the death; as for me,
there was no need of asseveration: if I tried to save the men of the
squad, it was sink or swim for me with all.

"Let us bring him out," said Nicholas, "and put him outside the camp.
Then let nobody know anything of him save that he lay down at the usual
hour. You, corporal, must say that he was present when you came in; I
will give the rest of the evidence."

We had some difficulty in getting out the dead body, but when Nicholas
had interviewed a sentry we managed the rest easily enough. We left
it about two hundred paces from the camp, fully dressed, and with a
bayonet in the right hand. In the morning the nearest sentry called out
for the sergeant of the guard. He on coming up recognised the body as
that of a French soldier. It was carried to the guard-hut, and there
lay awaiting identification. I reported the absence of the Austrian
when the sergeant came round, and soon afterwards I was ordered to go
to the guard-hut. There I identified the body. All the squad and myself
were examined about the matter. Nicholas was the only one who knew
anything, and his story was that, lying awake at night, he had heard
the Austrian getting up, and asked him was he unwell. The Austrian had
said: "A little, not much; don't disturb anyone about me." He had then
gone out, and Nicholas had fallen asleep. Everyone believed that he
had left the camp to visit some female friend, and that he had been
suddenly fallen upon by natives and beaten to death. Such a little
thing was quickly forgotten, and we of the squad took particular pains
to avoid even mentioning his name.

After this event the squad would do anything for Nicholas and for me.
That was why it was so good a squad. Why, the captain looked surprised
when a man of mine was brought up before him. Well, if I were good to
them, they were good to me, and I had the pleasant consciousness that
no man would try to shoot me in the back when the bayonets were fixed
for the charge.

I kept aloof from the other corporals, and was rather distant with
the men--that is, with all except Nicholas. To him I never hesitated
to confide my thoughts, and many a time he gave me advice well worth
the having. He had read much and had travelled and mixed constantly
with men, and all the worldly wisdom he had gained was at my disposal;
indeed, I often felt secretly pleased that the Prince, as we
sometimes called him in his absence, was so frank and free with me.
He had, I knew, been exiled by the Tsar, or at any rate compelled
by circumstances to leave his country. I knew of some things he had
done--and they were guilty deeds--but he was so clever, so superior to
us others in manner and bearing, so generous when he had money, and,
best of all virtues in a soldier's eyes, so loyal to his comrades, that
a far more experienced man than I might have easily fallen under his

I shall have more to say of the Russian in the next chapter, and soon
after that he will disappear for ever from these pages. I shall not
anticipate, however, but let the tale unfold itself in its proper
order, making but one more observation here--namely, that when the
account of the last fight which I have mentioned went through the
Legion, and I believe I may say through all the army, it, coupled with
the story of the fight at Three Fountains, gave No. 4 Company and mine
a most unenviable reputation. In a way this was good; nobody felt
inclined to quarrel with us, and a most unusual calm and quietness
prevailed in every camp where we lay. At the same time the generals
gave us our fill of fighting--more than our share, indeed--but these
things will come in their own place afterwards. And so I close this
chapter--the chapter of the slaughter.


The next important event of my life in Tonquin was the first battle of
Lang-Son. This was, to put it bluntly, a defeat for our troops and a
really creditable victory for our enemies. Of course, reasons are given
by the beaten side for every mishap. "Rank bad luck," for instance,
unknown and unforeseen difficulties of country, unsuspected numerical
superiority of the victors--anything and everything except a fair and
straight admission of an honest beating in open warfare. Now these
are all nonsense. Why should a general talk of "rank bad luck"? If he
ascribes a defeat to this, may not people fairly ascribe his victories
to good luck, and that alone? As for saying that the lie of the land
was not known, that is merely a confession of ignorance, and worse--of
carelessness in using his mounted men and his scouts. That an enemy
may succeed in massing a great number of men at a given point without
the knowledge or even suspicion of his opponent is quite conceivable;
is it not what every general who knows his business tries to do? Read
the history of any campaign and you will find that all the decisive
actions were won by a swift and secret concentration of troops against
an important place held by comparatively weak numbers. If I were a
general, I should try to divide my enemy's forces and concentrate
my own. Ah, when a man is beaten let him say so honestly; let him
point out, if he wishes, how his opponent out-manoeuvred him; and let
him, in the name of all the gods, say nothing about luck, and, above
all, be discreetly silent about anything that might hint at his own
carelessness or the worthlessness of his scouts.

Now, let me try to show how our defeat came about. But first let me
again say that the enemy beat us fairly and squarely in the engagement;
that we retreated is good enough proof of that. Well, in the first
place, the generals and the other officers firmly believed that the
Black Flags and their allies would never be able to stand up against
either our rifle fire or our charge. They had good reason, I admit, for
assuming this. Unfortunately, they never reckoned on having to fight
regular troops, officered and disciplined by Europeans, and it was
these regular troops, well armed, well drilled, well led, and showing
an amount of courage and staying power which one does not usually
attribute to Asiatics, that drove us off the field. There were Black
Flags and other barbarians in the fight, but these we could have easily
first stalled off with the rifle and afterwards cut to pieces with the
bayonet: it was really the men in uniforms who won the fight.

In the second place, we soldiers had learned to depend implicitly on
our commanders. They had led us so well that we had as much confidence
in their foresight and military skill as they had in our courage and
steadfastness. The day before we were driven from Lang-Son no man
even dreamt that our generals could be ignorant of anything occurring
within a radius of a hundred miles; that a numerous and well-appointed
army was within striking distance without their knowledge seemed, or
would seem, if such a thing entered our minds, the fancy of a fool or
the vain imagining of a coward. When the fight was going on we were
surprised at the gallant manner in which our foes stood up against us.
After a time, when more than once we had hurled them back with the
bayonet, we recognised that we were dealing with the most formidable
force that we had yet encountered. They gave us bullet for bullet,
thrust for thrust. They were good men, and when the bayonets crossed
they fought quietly and earnestly, and died without a murmur, almost
without a groan. They could never hold out long against us in a
charge--they were too light--and, another point to be noted, though
the Asiatic will face death by the hands of the executioner with far
more stoicism than the European, in the press of the battle the white
man's enthusiasm is infinitely better than the yellow man's contempt of
death. But in the firing they more than held their own, they were more
numerous, their ammunition was evidently plentiful, and, to tell the
plain truth, in spite of our bayonet charges they fairly shot us off
the field.

To put the matter in a nutshell: we were defeated because our generals
did not know the kind and the number of troops opposed to them. Let
me add, our overweening confidence in our own prowess gave way to
something very different as we saw ourselves slowly but surely forced
back, and noted that the bayonet was not used to gain ground for a
fresh advance but merely to drive back for a moment a too closely
pressing enemy. At the same time it is but justice to admit that
the defence was a good one. We retired, undoubtedly, but we showed
no confusion beyond that certain amount that always shows on a
battlefield, nay, even at a peaceful review.

I must now go on to my own part in the unlucky fight. After the first
repulse my battalion had been constantly engaged in covering the rear
of the retreat. On our right flank some French line regiment was busy
in the same way. All the other troops, as far as I could judge--but
a corporal sees very little of a battle outside the part borne in it
by his own company--had been withdrawn, and were hard at work getting
ready a new line of defence, while we who were just in front of the
enemy kept them back in order to gain time. At last we could scarcely
hold them at bay, and the order was given that our battalion should
retire by companies. Nos. 2 and 4 quickly left the firing line; No. 1
was the next to leave, and my company poured in as hot a fire as we
could until the order was given to run at top speed to the rear. I,
as luck had it, had just loaded. I fired deliberately at a white man
I saw about three hundred yards away cheering on the enemy, and saw
him fall. I then turned and ran as fast as I could after my comrades.
These were now some distance in advance, but as I went along I saw a
good path leading slightly away from the point where the company would
naturally fall into ranks again for another volley or two at the enemy
and to allow the men time to regain their breath. This path, though
slightly diverging from my route, at any rate would bring me away from
the enemy, and I could, when at a safe distance from the Chinese, cut
across country to rejoin my squad. I was running through rice-fields,
and I knew that I could vastly increase my speed on the path. My one
object at the time was to get away; I had no desire to fall, wounded or
unwounded, into my pursuers' hands. I therefore turned and fled along
the path, which ran by the side of a small stream.

As I ran, I noticed that the ground on the other side of the path
gradually rose and at length formed a fairly high mound. This,
however, I did not mind; every step took me further from the savages.
I gradually slackened speed as my breath gave out, and instinctively
flung away the cartridge, that I had fired at the white officer and put
my hand into the pouch at my right side for a fresh one. Just as my
thumb and forefinger closed on a cartridge, a sudden apparition met my
gaze. I was rounding a corner, and there, not twenty yards away, was a
Chinaman, evidently as astonished as I at the rencontre. I have never
been so frightened in my life as at this totally unexpected meeting
with an enemy in such a place. I had no power to take the cartridge
from the pouch and fit it into the rifle. I was thunderstruck; I felt
an awful horror of impending death. The Chinaman--he seemed a giant in
my eyes--hastily tucked the butt of his gun into his right armpit and
fired. I ducked instinctively, and at once knew that he had missed.
The awkward way he fired and the sudden movement on my part had saved
my life. In a second I had a cartridge in the rifle and the rifle at
my shoulder; the Chinaman dropped his weapon and fled. Now the pathway
was quite straight and level for a distance of about two hundred yards.
There was no means of making a hasty escape to one side or the other;
on the right ran the stream, on the left stood up a mound about eight
or nine feet high. I saw, therefore, that I could let my man go a good
distance without firing at him. This I desired, for my rifle kicked
a little. When he was about a hundred and fifty yards away I aimed
carefully at the back of his knee, pulled the trigger, and probably
took him fairly in the small of the back. He flung up his arms, reeled,
and fell face downwards in the water, and lay there quite still. I was
satisfied. I felt a natural and yet an unreasonable anger with the man
who had sought to take my life--natural, because every man hates those
who attack him; unreasonable, because why should not he try to do to
me as I should have tried to do to him were the positions changed? But
soon my anger gave place to caution. I reloaded and clambered up the
bank, determined to leave the path, as I could not know that other
Chinese might not stop my way with better success than the first. After
crossing through some low shrubs and brushwood the sound of volleys
quickly repeated led me to the company. I fell into my proper place.
Nobody said anything except the captain--a new man not with us a
month--who sarcastically asked if I had seen a ghost.

We gradually fell back towards the new line of defence. The regulars
attacking wasted no time, and pushed us rather rapidly along. At last
a staff officer came with a message to our captain, and we hurriedly
poured a heavy fire into the advancing enemy, then we all turned and
ran towards the point whither the captain led us. We got a good start
and covered the ground quickly; at a little line of small trees and
underwood lay safety. As we straggled into this we were ordered to
face about and lie down. We saw the Chinese regulars coming along with
hoarse cries of joy, not extended in skirmishing order, but in dense
masses of men, who pressed and struggled to the front.

A bugle call rang out, and suddenly a horrible rattle of musketry
began. The enemy were fairly caught. Every rifle of ours was blazing
away at about two hundred yards' range at the easy target they
presented. In a moment, as it seemed to me, the attack withered away.
Where a minute before were triumphant soldiers rushing in pursuit
of a fleeing foe, one saw now nothing but prostrate bodies on the
ground. Many, no doubt, flung themselves down as the first shots rang
out, but the vast majority must have been swept into eternity by our
fire. But this was not all. Our guns began, and even those who were a
thousand yards away felt staggered in their advance. For ten minutes
we heard nothing but the rattle of musketry, the booming of the guns,
the noise of the shells as they hurtled through the air, and then
the explosions a thousand yards away. The cries and shrieking of the
wounded were unheard and unheeded. If the enemy had driven us from
the field and could fairly claim a victory, we in the end taught them
such a lesson surely as defeated never before taught their conquerors.
That last firing more than equalised losses, and, better still, gave
us the bitter-sweet of vengeance, and restored the old feeling of
self-confidence that had been so rudely shaken on that day.

This was really the close of the battle. In various parts firing
still went on, but an attack in force by either side was manifestly
impossible. The Chinese regulars had been too much cut up towards the
close of the fighting; as for us, there was only one course to be
taken--retreat towards our base in order to prevent being outflanked.
The new line of defence had served its purpose. It was not strong
enough, nor were we numerous enough, to withstand an attack in force
on the morrow, especially as our opponents were strong enough to hold
us in front while flanking columns got round even to our rear. After
an hour's rest, which we badly wanted, the order was given to retire,
and for seven hours we struggled on, angry, weary and hungry. At last
we formed a little camp; some rice and brandy were served out--we had
no soup or coffee--and so, in bad humour with ourselves, the enemy, and
our rations, we lay down on the ground to forget in sleep discomfort
and defeat.

Luckily, the enemy did not press their advantage as they should. We
were soon reinforced, and when we had recovered from the fatigue of the
fight and the retreat, we again tried conclusions with them with better
success. The story of the second battle of Lang-Son will be told in
due course. I must now narrate an incident that occurred between the
battles, while we were still retreating and somewhat pressed by the foe.

First, it must be understood that my battalion formed part of the
rear-guard. There were French soldiers of several corps and native
levies as well, and I may say here that the Frenchmen showed as much
steady courage in retiring before overwhelming masses of the enemy as
they usually show of gallantry and _élan_ in a charge. I can never
again believe that the Frenchman is good only when advancing; given
capable officers, he is a perfect soldier at all points. This retreat
proved the fact. We were half starved; there was the continual fear
of being wounded and left to the merciless Black Flags; for all that,
while the legionaries were furious and occasionally downcast, though
doing their duty like brave men, the men of the line, the zouaves,
the marine fusiliers, the chasseurs--and I believe the rear-guard
had men of all these--were, after the first feeling of anger and
disappointment, cheerful, making light of difficulties, almost gaily
prophesying a speedy revenge.

Now one evening my battalion halted after a weary, heart-breaking tramp
during the day. We had had little food, and that unsuitable, for some
time. In my squad was a man whose country I have good reasons for not
mentioning; suffice it to say that he came from a land lying on the
eastern frontier of France. I shall call him Jean, though that was not
his name. All the day he was saying: "Quelle misère, quelle misère!"
until we were sick of the words, and I told him, rather roughly I am
sorry to say, to keep his troubles to himself. When we came into camp
great precautions were adopted to prevent surprise, and I may detail
these so that everything may be quite plain. Moreover, they will show
how careful our officers were.

Now, as I have often mentioned, a battalion has four companies.
Normally a company has two hundred and fifty men, but at this time the
strongest company of my battalion numbered only about a hundred and
sixty. In the camp the battalion lay in square, so that each company
had one side of the square to protect in case of attack, and had to
furnish all the guards and outlying pickets on that side. My company
lay on the side nearest the enemy, or, as I should rather say, nearest
the quarter whence an attack would most probably come.

When the company was halted and faced outwards, a corporal and his
squad--say seventeen all told--were detached to furnish the inner
sentries. Of these eight men were posted at intervals about fifty paces
from the main body; the corporal and the eight reliefs lay half-way
between them and the company. Thus every soldier was on sentry for two
hours at a time, and then had two hours to rest as well as he could on
the bare ground. This squad constituted the guard.

Now two squads with their respective corporals, having an officer
or sergeant in chief command, formed the outlying pickets of the
company or, if you wish, of one side of the square encampment. Half of
each squad acted as sentries about seventy-five yards from the inner
line of watching men; between the two lines of sentries the reliefs
of the outlying pickets rested. The sentries of the guard stood up,
the sentries of the outlying pickets lay down; no glint of buckle or
bayonet was allowed to show. It was next to impossible to surprise the
camp, even if the darkness should prevent the outer line of sentinels
from seeing the approach of an enemy, by placing their ears to the
ground they could easily hear the tread of any considerable body
of troops, and it would require a very considerable body of men to
surprise effectively--that is, to annihilate--about six hundred good
soldiers, who knew how useless it was to ask for quarter from such
enemies. I hope I have made this matter clear: military men, I know,
will understand, and I hope that others may be able to comprehend it

My squad was for outlying picket that night, and as it contained only
fifteen men I had to borrow one from the corporal of the next squad
for duty. This happened to be the one in which Le Grand was, and I
asked for him. My request was granted, and Le Grand was attached for
twelve hours to my little party. The sub-lieutenant of the company
was in charge of the picket, and having led us out to our places he
ordered the other corporal and me to post the first sentries. I posted
eight men, amongst them Jean, who was still suffering from melancholy,
and returned to the spot where the reliefs were to lie. Nicholas, Le
Grand, and I lay near one another on the ground and began a whispered
conversation in English, a language that the Russian spoke with great
purity and ease. In the course of this I mentioned to Le Grand the
strange way in which Jean had been speaking all the day, and Nicholas
volunteered to tell us the poor fellow's strange story. I can only give
the merest outline of it. I wish I could tell it just as I heard it
that night, but Nicholas was a born storyteller; indeed, he was clever
in all things.

I must try to give it in my own words.

Jean had been a light cavalryman in the army of his own country, which
bordered on France. He was, in his own words, a _mauvais sujet_, always
getting into trouble. He could not resist the charms of female society,
and many a dreary hour he passed in prison for staying away from his
duties because he could not tear himself away from some newly-found
angel. Things in the end came to such a pass that his life in barracks
became unbearable, as his comrades had now turned against him. A
cavalryman's horse must be attended to, and if the rider be absent
his comrades have to do extra work. Now extra work is merely a cause
of extra swearing when the proper man for the duty is ill or absent
on leave, or even absent without permission once in a while, but when
a man is continually staying out and then getting sent to cells the
affair is altogether different. In no army will soldiers stand that. It
is quite enough, men say, for each to groom and feed his own charger,
but it is very unfair that a soldier, his own work done, should be
ordered to do the work of another who is away enjoying himself or
paying for his pleasure in the guard-room. So Jean had been rather
roughly disciplined by his fellow-soldiers, and this punishment did him
so much more good than any inflicted by the officers that for nearly
two months he was a fairly steady soldier. Seeing this, the other
fellows became again friendly with him, never, indeed, having borne
malice, and only desiring that he should do his share of the work.

Well, one night a big gamble was carried on in the barrack-room. Some
recruits had come in for training, and two or three of these were
fairly well off. The old soldiers thought that card-playing would
tend to a more equal distribution of the money, and preparations
were accordingly made for a wakeful night. A few bottles of brandy
and wine were smuggled in, and when all the lights were out blankets
were judiciously placed over the windows, the lower edge of the
door, and even the keyhole, so that by no accident might the game be
interrupted. Then some candles were lit, and after the men had been
cordially invited to drink, some game or other was begun, and, as was
natural, the more equable distribution of the money began. Now Jean was
a very good card-player, and the little pile of silver and coppers at
his corner of the table steadily increased, and when the little party
broke up at reveille, his head was heavy with sleep and his pockets
with money. He got through the duties of the day as well as he could,
and when evening came dressed to go out, just merely, as he said to
Nicholas afterwards, for a walk and a glass of wine. Of course, he took
all his money with him: that was an obvious precaution.

Soon after passing through the gate he met a lady whose acquaintance
he had made some time before. She was pretty and clever, knew how to
dress, and was by no means averse to the society of a handsome light
cavalryman whose pockets were well lined and whose reputation for
generosity in his dealings with the fair sex was so well established as
our friend's.

The pair had ever so much to say to each other, and Jean admitted that
he had a little money, sent to him by a rich aunt, he said, who would
some day die and leave him a nice little property--oh, merely a few
thousand shillings a year. (I use the word shillings as it gives no
clue to Jean's country.) "How good she was!" said the pretty girl. "And
I," she went on; "oh, you would never guess what I am doing now." Jean
guessed, and guessed, and guessed again. It was all no use; he had to
pay for a pair of gloves before his curiosity would be gratified. Then
she told him that a certain rich bachelor, a Government official, had
gone for a cure to some watering-place and had left her in sole charge
of his domicile until his return.

"Oh," said Jean, "I guessed the rich man, and yet I had to pay for the

"True, my friend, very true indeed," she answered; "but you did not
guess the visit to the baths, and is not that, my handsome fellow, the
most important thing?"

There was no denying this. Surely it must rejoice youth and health to
find age and pain so careful, so thoughtful, for self and others!

Jean was generous; he could well afford to be, as he had won a
large sum, for a soldier; the girl, to give her her due, was not
too exacting. An idyllic life was lived by both in the beautifully
furnished house of Dives Senex for almost a week. Jean went out only
at dark, and then merely for a walk around the unfrequented parts of
the town for an hour. As he wore the old man's clothes, which fitted
fairly well, there was little danger of his being recognised. At last
the dreaded morning came when Jean should leave the house. He knew that
sharp punishment awaited him at the barracks, but he had made up his
mind to make a bold bid for liberty. This time he feared the anger of
his comrades more than a court-martial, for he had been guilty of the
unpardonable sin of winning money and spending it without the aid of
the other troopers, while all the work of barrack-room and stable was
left to them. He knew very well that the consequences would be ugly,
and he determined to desert from his corps, more from fear of the squad
court-martial than of the regular one presided over by an officer. Of
course, his desertion was nothing--that is common in all armies--but
Jean's plan of deserting was unique. I at least have never heard of a
similar case.

Now the town in which Jean's regiment lay was not very far from the
French frontier. At this place there was a debatable ground about a
hundred yards wide, and on each side a line of sentries, French on
the west, Jean's countrymen on the east. Jean had quite made up his
mind to cross to French territory; he believed that, if he could only
get there and get a few kilometres away from the frontier, the French
authorities would not trouble themselves to capture him and send him
back. Moreover, desertion, as I have already had occasion to mention,
is not an extraditable offence. The difficulties were to get to the
frontier, to cross it safely, and to travel some distance into France.

Well, Jean knew that at a certain hour that day his regiment would be
out of barracks for cavalry drill. He also knew a way of getting into
his quarters without passing any men of his own regiment on duty. An
infantry guard lay at a certain gate. They would in all probability let
him pass; he could then cross the infantry parade ground, go under an
archway or through a gate--I am not quite certain about this--and enter
the cavalry barracks. Once there he would act as circumstances required.

To make as certain as possible of passing the guard, he bought a
blue envelope, put a sheet of paper inside, fastened the edges, and
wrote the address of some high officer upon it, and then placed the
seemingly official document between his belt and tunic. Anybody
would thus mistake him for an orderly carrying a despatch, and so no
one would think of interfering. Thus prepared he easily passed the
infantry guard, nodding genially to some of the men, and made his way
across the parade ground to the entrance to the cavalry quarters. Here
he was in luck; no one was about except a couple of recruits doing
sentry duty--one at the stables, the other about fifty yards away.
Jean was not recognised by either, and, going to his room, put on his
sword, and dressed himself as if for general parade. He then went
down to the stables, saddled his charger, which was the only animal
in the place, mounted, and rode back the way he came. Again he passed
without suspicion the infantry guard at the gate, and soon found
himself smartly trotting towards the frontier. He was in high spirits.
Everything had gone so well, surely luck would not desert him now.

As he neared the frontier he trotted towards a guard-house on the
side of the road. The sentry near the door looked carelessly at him
as he came up, the sergeant did not condescend to come forward to
meet him: he was evidently only a light cavalryman sent with some
ridiculous message or other from the town. When only a few yards from
the guard-house, instead of pulling up and delivering the blue envelope
which he now held in his hand, he flung it on the ground, and driving
the spurs into his horse's sides he passed the astonished sentry and
galloped into the debatable land. A gap in the hedge allowed him into
the fields that bordered the road. He heard as he went through the
report of a rifle behind, but the sudden turn saved him. He now went
towards the French line at a spot about equidistant from two French
sentries, and as he did so he lowered his head to his horse's neck. The
French sentries also fired and missed. You can scarcely blame them;
their surprise must have been so great when they saw a presumably mad
light horseman invading single-handed the sacred soil of France. In
less time than it takes to tell Jean was through the second line of
guards and careering wildly across country, taking hedges, streams and
ditches like the winning jockey of the Grand National. A few scattered
bullets whizzed about his ears, but rider and horse were untouched. He
was now safe from the fire of his fellow-countrymen, and the French
sentinels probably did not want to hit him; his escapade, serious
though it might be for the others, was only a good joke to them.
Moreover, a private soldier must be very bad-minded indeed when he
tries to shoot another private, though of a different army, who has
evidently got into trouble and is seeking to escape. Certain things
excite compassionate feelings amongst men of all armies--amongst the
simple soldiers, I mean. As for the sergeants and corporals, the
thoughts of the chevrons they have and those they hope for make them
dead to all feelings of pity for a man in trouble.

After some time Jean began to feel somewhat at ease. He pulled up under
cover of a small wood and began to consider his next move. If he could
only get rid of the uniform he fancied he should be comparatively safe.
This had to be done quickly, as he was not more than three miles from
the frontier, and the French cavalry would soon be on his track. While
he was thinking he glanced around to see if he were observed, and
saw an old man, evidently of the farming class, looking at him with
surprise. Jean determined to appeal for aid, and going towards the
peasant frankly told his story. The peasant smiled at first and then
laughed heartily.

"My good friend," said he, "take off the saddle and bridle and put them
here," at the same time pointing to a place where the underwood was
very thick. Jean did so, and the old man carefully concealed them.

"Now lead your horse by the mane to that field where you see the cows
grazing, and return."

Jean obeyed.

"Now come to my house"--he pointed it out--"in ten minutes: no one will
be within. You will find clothes on a chair, but be sure to take away
again your uniform, belts and sword--they would be of no use to me;
hide them where they will not be likely to be found."

Jean did as he was told. He found some old clothes on the chair
just inside the door; on a table were some bread and milk. He drank
the latter and pocketed the former when he had put on the disguise,
and then flung all his military clothing and equipments into a
stagnant pool. On that day he did not travel far, but found a secure
hiding-place until the darkness should allow him to go his way in
safety. During the night he tramped about twenty-five kilometres,
keeping his eyes and ears on guard, but only once was he in danger.
He heard the footfalls of horses at a distance and left the road. Two
mounted gendarmes passed, and after a short interval Jean resumed his
journey. At daybreak again he sought and found a hiding-place, and
there slept for some hours. When he awoke he felt hungry and thirsty,
and resolved to try to buy something at a farmhouse that was visible
about five hundred yards away. As Jean spoke good French he anticipated
no difficulty on the score of language, and, having some silver in his
pockets, there surely ought to be no difficulty in the way of obtaining
supplies. When he went to the farmhouse he was met by an old woman, who
at once pitied the tired wayfarer with the handsome face and the ragged
clothes; she gave him bread and meat and a glass of wine, refusing all
payment. She was so good and looked so trustworthy that Jean told her
his story, omitting, however, all mention of women, and explaining
that his desertion was due altogether to the tyranny of the officers.
The good old woman pitied him the more for his sad tale; she even gave
him a suit of fairly good clothing belonging to her son, at the time
serving with his regiment. How the women of Europe love and honour the
soldier and pity his misfortunes! There the army has hostages from all
homes. She even pressed money on him, but this he refused to take. He
had money enough in his pocket to carry him a good way towards Paris,
and, even if he had to tramp a bit of the way, with his new clothing he
felt independent and free from care.

In the end Jean entered Paris, and immediately volunteered for the
Foreign Legion. At once he was accepted, and after a short time in
Algeria was sent to Tonquin. There he was taken into my battalion, and
handed over to me to help to make up the number of the squad. And now
he was amongst us, calling out every moment the unlucky words: "Quelle
misère, quelle misère!"

Nicholas took up a longer time in telling this story than I, but you
must remember that the Russian was very clever and had the story at
first-hand. I have only given the general outline; most of the details
have been forgotten by me after so many years.

Well, at last the sub-lieutenant in charge of both squads of the
outlying picket ordered the reliefs to be posted. I took Nicholas the
Russian, Le Grand the Irishman, and six others of various nationalities
to relieve the half-squad that had done sentry duty for the previous
two hours. I remember I put Le Grand in place of poor Jean. When
we--that is, I, the corporal, and the eight men relieved--came back
to the lying-down place I dismissed quietly the men, of course only
from duty, not from the place, and lay down on my back, shut my eyes,
and began to muse. Almost before I felt it I was in a half-doze, when
suddenly the report of a rifle caused me to jump up. As I opened my
eyes I saw, so quickly did the alarm arouse me, the falling body of a
man. I hurriedly called out the names of the reliefs--the men relieved
were now the reliefs--all answered except Jean.

"I think, my corporal," said an Alsatian, "that he has shot himself."

The whole camp was roused; the sub-lieutenant ran down and called me
to account for the alarm. I went over to the prone figure, passed my
hand across the face, and found it at once warm and wet. Poor Jean, as
we saw when dawn came, had blown away the top of his head. There was
no enemy, it was true, but I fancy the legionaries did not sleep any
more that night; a dead comrade in the camp is worse, a thousand times
worse, than a living foe outside.

Now I won't moralise over this. Jean, as I have called him, was a good
comrade, especially when he had money; he was fickle, but so were all,
amongst the women; he chose to shoot himself, that was his business and
not mine. And that is all that I, his corporal, have to say.


A little time after the suicide of Jean we found ourselves in a
position to attempt the recapture of Lang-Son. We went forward
cautiously, doing at most ten kilometres a day. Then even at the end
of a day's march we were in fit condition for a battle, in case the
enemy elected to attack us in the evening or during the night. As we
again went forward our spirits rose. We were extremely glad to have
done with the constant retirement in front of the enemy; of all things
in the world the most disheartening is a withdrawal after a defeat.
A victory means hard work, and a pursuit harder, but a retreat is
the hardest of all. I am not speaking of the glory of victory or the
disgrace of defeat. Like most soldiers I think only of my private
troubles and the troubles of my comrades, and I can assure the reader
that, when a battalion is falling back on the base, supplies are bad
and insufficient, anxiety on the part of all is heart-breaking, an
attack in force is always to be expected, and no one can safely say
that those who have beaten his side once may not do so again and more
decisively. Even in a pursuit, when the rations are short, one feels
that the enemy is suffering more than himself, and the thought that
the battalion is pressing on their rear, giving them no peace or ease
or quietness, adds a zest to the bad and scanty food which makes it
palatable and satisfying. Let no one run away with the idea that we
simple soldiers did not feel the sting of defeat--indeed, we felt it,
and sorely too--but while one can forgive himself for a disaster, he
finds it very hard to forgive the enemy for following it up. It is bad
enough to be driven off a stricken field; it is infinitely worse to
be harassed afterwards. War is like gambling: if you win first, even
though you lose afterwards, you like to keep on playing the game; but
if you lose in the beginning, you will at once imagine that the game is
not worth the candle. The young soldier who in his first battle tastes
the bitterness of defeat and endures the hardships of the hurried
march, the wakeful rest under arms, the wretched food, the dirt and
worse than dirt, the continual strain upon the nerves, and all things
else which are the portion of the conquered, will see war divested of
all its seeming glory; his voice at least will never be for war.

The Black Flags and their allies, the Chinese regulars, gave us very
little trouble on our march towards Lang-Son. What little fighting did
take place on the way cannot be described by me, as my battalion had
nothing to do with it. Annamite tirailleurs with some French soldiers
and legionaries formed the first line of the advance. They easily
overcame all the opposition offered to them; it was only when the grand
assault in force had to be made that we others came into the fighting
line. While advancing rations again were both good and sufficient;
occasionally too we got an allowance of wine or brandy, and these
extra rations pleased us very much, for it is wonderfully easy to make
soldiers happy. Our guards and pickets were just as well set and kept
as ever--our officers were taking no risks--and God help the man of
ours who slept at his post. We acquiesed cheerfully in this; and in any
case we were so accustomed to exact discipline and perfect precautions
against surprise that constant guard and picket-mounting seemed as
natural as getting one's morning coffee or evening soup. Since we did
not march much any day there was always a fairly long time in camp,
and when we entered camp in the evening, the men who had been up the
night before lay down and rested while the others, who had had, thanks
to their comrades' watchfulness, a good night's rest, lit the fires
and cooked the evening meal and performed all the other duties that
soldiers have to do in the field. This had a good effect upon all; it
was just as if one man said to another: "You watched last night while I
slept in safety, I will now work while you rest in comfort and wait for
your soup." The officers, I am sure, noted this and were glad: anything
that makes soldiers better comrades tends also to make them better
fighting men.

At last the day came when we were within striking distance of the
enemy. All ranks were satisfied. We knew that very soon the disgrace
of the last action would be wiped away, and we in the ranks were just
as eager to clean the slate as our officers. I do not think that many
were thinking of gaining promotion or distinction in the fight. The
important thing was to show to all the world, or at least to that part
of it which was interested in the campaign, that our reverse was but an
accident of war and its effects only temporary. Again, we all desired
satisfaction for the torments and annoyances of the retreat; these were
too recent to be easily forgotten.

The battle was begun, as usual, by the artillery. They, however, were
not long the only men engaged, for very soon after the cannonade had
begun the long lines of infantry were extended to right and left.
My company was in the right attack, and we went gaily forward in
skirmishing order until a man or two fell. Then we opened fire at a
pretty long range at the place where the cloud of smoke told us that
our friends the enemy lay. This firing did not delay the advance. On
the contrary, it hastened it, for now we fired and ran forward, fired
again and made another dash towards the front. Indeed, our officers
and sergeants had a good deal of work to keep us from going along too
quickly, and in the end we corporals were commanded to cease firing
and to devote our attention exclusively to keeping our squads well in
hand, so that the line might advance evenly and the men be brought up
in sound wind and condition to the point where the bayonets would be
fixed for the final charge. Of course, I know you will say that the
corporals should have been doing this from the very outset, but it is
very hard for a man to carry a rifle and cartridges without making some
use of them. Why, I have seen officers, and those of high rank too,
take the rifle of a dead man and half-a-dozen cartridges from his pouch
in order to have the satisfaction of firing a few shots at the enemy.
It is human nature, or rather the nature of soldiers in a fight; one
likes to feel that he is doing something on his own account to help his
comrades and to hurt the foe.

Well, the officers and the sub-officers worked well together, and
the men, to give them their due, obeyed orders willingly, especially
when the excitement of the first firing had passed away and they had
settled down to the steady work of the advance. When we came within
about four hundred yards of the entrenchments the rushes succeeded one
another more rapidly, and men went a greater distance between shots.
Thus we gradually approached, until finally we were all ordered to lie
down and fix bayonets. As we did so the supports joined the fighting
line--they were somewhat blown with the last race forward--and so we
lay about eighty yards or less from the enemy's position, firing as
quickly as possible. The Chinese regulars and the Black Flags were not
remiss either in their volleys. A hail of bullets crossed the zone
between us, but their fire slowly slackened, especially as a very
storm of shells was falling towards their rear. Their supports, we
saw, could not easily come up. At length the guns in our rear ceased
shelling the position; at the same time the fire had greatly diminished
in front. The commandant saw that the time had come, and at the sound
of the charge we sprang up, ran at the regulation _pas gymnastique_
towards the trenches, and, when about twenty yards away, rushed at
the top of our speed, with the usual charging cry of "Kill, kill," at
the fortifications, which had been already so badly damaged by the
guns. In a few seconds we were in and using the bayonet with deadly
earnestness and a grim determination to wash away in blood the memory
of our recent defeat. The Black Flags flung down their weapons and ran
out at the back of the entrenchments, but the Chinese regulars fought
very well indeed. Well as the Chinese fought they could not long stand
up against us. I have already mentioned that they are very light;
indeed, I doubt if the average weight is much more than seven stone and
a half. Then they can stand bayoneting without shrinking, but they are
by no means quick in using the bayonet themselves; again, if a Chinaman
gets you on the ground he will drive his weapon home six or seven times
more than are needed, and will never notice your comrade coming along,
quietly, with lowered head and levelled bayonet to attack. It seems to
me that the Chinese go into a fight with something ugly to foreigners
to meet, but altogether unlike what we Europeans call courage; they
just go in, they kill, they are killed, and that is all there is about
it. Yet they are not cowards; if they are, why did they not run like
the Black Flags? And they will charge wounded men with spirit, if I may
use the word in that connection; and with just as much steady calmness
they will await the onset of the foreign devils when they rush the
mound, get into the ditch and slay, and, not yet slaked with blood,
rush out at the rear of the entrenchments with bloody bayonets, and
loot and murder and rapine in their minds.

We got in, and in a few moments not a man was left standing up in the
trenches. We looked around. What was the next thing to do? "No. 1
Company, remain here," shouted the commandant as he tried to staunch
the blood that ran down the left side of his face from an ugly sabre
slash on the temple; "the other companies advance." We three companies
got out at the rear of the field fortifications and awaited orders
again. "Go up that hill, captain"--this to my captain from the
commandant--"and help the soldiers of the line to carry it." "Yes, my
commandant," said the captain. We turned towards the right and looked
at the little hill. It was about three hundred yards only from level
ground to crest; the top was fortified, but only slightly; the soldiers
of the line were half-way up on their side, but they were meeting
with a very gallant resistance. The rifles above showed no signs of
slackening; a heavy, dense smoke covered the crest of the hill; midway
down you saw the spirts of flame and little smoke clouds where the
French were going up. That smoke quickly disappeared, for the men never
fired twice in the same spot. We ran at first up the hill, and were
not noticed; very soon we went more easily, as the hill grew steeper
and the rifles above began to pay us attention. Then we fired upwards
in return, but our bayonets were fixed, and we knew very well that in
these alone lay any chance of success. How could we hit men above us
whom we could not see? It was impossible, but we could, and did, send
bullets so near their heads that aiming down was almost as fruitless
for them as aiming up was for the soldiers of the line and ourselves.

As we went along an officer ran up almost to the top, waving his sword,
and crying out to the men to follow. We went a little more quickly.
Just as he reached a point about ten paces from the outer face of the
entrenchments he fell, shot through the heart. A great cry arose from
us; we sprang up, disregarding all cover, and madly raced for the
summit of the little hill. Volley after volley was fired at us, but
with little damage. Take my word for it, when the Asiatic sees the
European charging with bayonet on rifle-barrel his aim is not quite so
good as usual, and in any case his best is not much. So we rushed, and
when we came to the little fortification we had small difficulty in
getting in; by that time the French soldiers of the line had crowned
the height on their side and were over the entrenchments. We were
almost shoved back by the fugitives running from the Frenchmen, but
we steadied ourselves and gave them the bayonet, until at last they
were all down, and the soldiers of the line and the legionaries alone
stood facing one another on the little hill with ugly curses and bloody
steel. Not that they cursed us or we them; only when you are using the
bayonet, and for a while afterwards, your language is a real reflex of
your thoughts.

It was the Frenchmen who really carried the hill; we had only come in
towards the end to their assistance. So we left them on the ground
that they had so gallantly won, and, going down the side nearest the
remnants of our opponents, we looked for more work, more excitement,
more glory, and more revenge. And we found them all very soon.

We had scarcely reached the bottom of the hill when a crowd of Chinese
regulars, with some Black Flags who had not run away, charged us with
loud cries and imprecations. We met them fairly and squarely, and
pushed them at the point of the bayonet a few yards back. They were
reinforced, and by sheer weight of numbers made us for a time give way.
Our officers fought like devils; truth to tell, though we did not like
them, we could not help admiring their courage in a fight. The captain
was down, so was the sub-lieutenant, the lieutenant had been wounded at
the beginning of the battle; the one sergeant who was left took up the
command and led us back from a short retreat in an ugly rush against
the enemy. I saw a Black Flag carrying a standard in his left hand,
while he cut all around at our fellows with the sword in his right. I
determined to have that flag, or at least to make a bold try for it,
and went with levelled bayonet at the barbarian. He cut down a man of
ours as I came, and had not time to parry my thrust with his sword, and
failed to do so with the staff of the banner. He took the point fairly
in the left side, and I had only just time to get my weapon back when
he delivered a furious slash at my head. Receiving this on the middle
of the rifle-barrel I thrust a second time, and sent him fairly to
the ground. Reversing my rifle--that is, holding it at the left side
instead of the right--I stabbed straight down, and pinned his right
hand to the ground. Pressing then on the rifle with my left hand, so
that he could not free his sword arm, I plucked away the banner with
my right. Nicholas at the time shouted out: "Look out, corporal, look
out." And, looking up, I saw half-a-dozen Black Flags coming straight
at me. I flung the banner on the ground, pulled my bayonet out of the
savage's hand, and, just in time, got into a posture of defence. The
first man I stopped with a lunge in the face just between the eyes, but
the others would have killed me were it not that now the squad came to
my assistance. Nicholas and the others soon finished the half-dozen who
had attacked me, but others came up too, and very soon about a dozen of
us were desperately resisting a desperate attack. They outnumbered us
by about four to one, but we were heavier, steadier, and, above all,
quicker with the bayonet. All the same, man after man of ours went down
till half our number lay dead or dying on the ground. Luckily, Le Grand
noticed our difficulty and, calling together six or eight men of his
own squad, came to our assistance. Le Grand and his comrades took the
Black Flags in the flank; the new assailants overwhelmed them; they
gave way sullenly at first, but in the end broke and fled, leaving
more than half their number on the field. I was happy in retaining
the banner, but I almost at once learned how dear that banner was to
me. A cry from Le Grand made me turn round, and I saw Nicholas lying
on the ground and a wounded Black Flag cutting at him with a sabre,
while the poor Russian did his best to ward off the blows with his
hands. As I looked, a Spaniard of Le Grand's squad drove his bayonet
up to the rifle-muzzle three times in quick succession into the body
of the wounded savage who was trying to kill our good comrade. I ran
to Nicholas and, laying down rifle and captured flag, asked him how he
felt, was he badly wounded, and without waiting for an answer began to
bind his wounded arms and hands. He shook his head sadly.

"It is no use, my comrade; I have got worse than that."

Indeed he had, for his left side was torn open. Nicholas nodded his
head towards a dead Black Flag, and we saw at once the weapon that had
inflicted so horrible a wound. It was shaped somewhat like a bill-hook,
but could be used for thrusting as well as cutting, about four inches
of the end being shaped like a broad-bladed knife, the remainder of
the steel rather resembling a narrow-bladed hatchet. The poor Russian,
in spite of the severe wound, had managed to kill his enemy. I am glad
he did so, for, had the barbarian been only wounded, I should have
been sorely tempted to finish the work, and though one may kill a
helpless man without pity when "seeing red" or to avenge a friend, yet
afterwards the thought of such slaughter is unpleasant. After some time
we stopped the bleeding, and were glad to be able to give him a good
long drink, and then to refill his own water bottle with the few drops
still remaining in the bottoms of ours. We left him only when we had to
rejoin the company. The sergeant who now commanded it asked me gruffly
where I had been. I showed him the captured banner, and in a few words
told of the desperate fight made by the Black Flags to regain it. He
seemed satisfied, and asked how many men I had lost.

"Nine," I replied.

He counted us, and said: "Nine lost and nine left; that is rather
serious; a banner is not worth so many men."

But you may be sure that it would have been worth a whole section in
the sergeant's eyes, had he taken it.

There was little more fighting to be done that day. All along the
line the French had been successful, and already linesmen, chasseurs,
zouaves, legionaries, and tirailleurs were bivouacking in Lang-Son. My
battalion searched out its wounded and brought them to an appointed
spot; you may be sure that poor Nicholas was carried as gently as
possible to the place. I went back for him before I thought of looking
for anyone else, even an officer. He was lying quietly where we had
left him, and I found that already he had drunk all the water in the
bottle. Luckily, as I was going back, I passed the dead body of a
white officer of our opponents; he was dressed in a yellow tunic and
trousers, with tan boots; his white helmet lay a foot or so from his
head; a heavy, fair moustache curled outwards on both cheeks; his jaw
had fallen, and his wide-open blue eyes were staring upwards at the
sky; at least a dozen gashes showed red upon the body, and a bloody
sword in one hand, an empty revolver in the other, were evidence that
his death had been amply paid for. A white man fights well when he
knows that there is no quarter for him. Luckily, as I have said, I came
across this body, for slung round the right shoulder and resting at the
left hip was a leather bottle. I took this, and was glad to find that
it was more than half full of brandy and water.

"A share, corporal," said a comrade.

"No," I answered; "all for Nicholas."

"Pardon me, corporal; I forgot."

Nicholas thanked me with a glance and a nod. With some rifles and a
couple of greatcoats we made a fairly good litter, and bore him to the
quarter where the surgeons were working in their shirt sleeves. There
we left him with the attendants and went out to bring in others. When
I was leaving the hospital, if I may call it so, for the last time, as
every wounded man had been brought in, Nicholas beckoned to me. I went
over, and he whispered:

"I am dying. I make you the heir to all I possess. Very little--but
still all; here it is."

He pressed a small bag into my hand. I said:

"Not at all, good comrade; you will want it when you recover, or at
least to get better attendance and a few delicacies in hospital."

"No, my friend; I am leaving _la gamelle_. Take it and I shall be
pleased. Try to see me in the morning; to-morrow evening it will be too

He forced the little bag again into my hand. I had to take it, but I
resolved to see him in the morning and to return it if he were still
alive, though I could not help feeling an ugly presentiment that my
poor friend was really dying and that the best friend I had in the
little world of the Foreign Legion was about to leave me for ever.

After soup had been served out to all the men the sergeant, who still
commanded the company, told me that I was wanted at the hospital. I,
thinking only of Nicholas, said that I should go thither at once.

"Do you know, corporal," said he, "where it is?"

"Certainly, yes," I answered. "Did I not help to bring many wounded
there to-day?"

"Of whom are you thinking?" he asked.

"Nicholas, the prince, you understand. Do you not remember Three

"Very well--too well, indeed," the sergeant replied; "but it is not
the Russian who desires to see you, it is the captain." Calling to a
hospital attendant passing at the time he inquired if the man were
going to the officers' hospital. He was not going there, but would pass
it on his way to his own destination.

"Go with him," said the sergeant to me; "he will show you the place.
Ask for our captain."

I went away with the hospital orderly, and was shown the officers'
hospital quarters by him. On giving name, company, and battalion--they
saw my rank upon my sleeve--I was told to wait until the
surgeon-in-charge could be told that I wished to see a patient. Very
soon the surgeon came. He asked me quite abruptly whom I desired to
see. I told him with military directness, but respectfully, and he said
that I might be brought to where the captain lay. I went there with an
orderly. The captain had a wound on the right arm not of much account;
it certainly did not keep him in hospital, but, as he had been knocked
down and stunned by a blow of a musket-butt on the left temple, the
surgeons would, and did, detain him for awhile. Several times while
I was with him he put his hands to his head and swore a little. But,
of course, that was none of my business. He asked me about the banner
I had taken--"not, you must remember," said he, "that that was very
useful or very creditable."

I told the story, and especially laid stress on the facts that poor
Nicholas had warned me of the first attack and that he was now dying in
the simple soldiers' hospital.

"You are sorry?" he queried.

"Very; he was my good comrade."

"Had he much money?"

"He gave me all." And I showed the little bag.

"How much?"

I counted, and replied:

"One thousand four hundred and fifty francs, twenty or thirty piastres."

"You are rich."

"My captain, he will share with me if he lives, and if he dies I am the
poorer by a friend."

"Pouf! a sergeant does not want friends amongst the simple soldiers."

"No, my captain, nor enemies; but I am not a sergeant."

"You are; the commandant will announce it to-morrow. He was with me an
hour ago."

"Thanks, my captain; I did not see a ghost this time."

"Ah, you remember! What made you look so pale that day?" I told him,
and his only remark was:

"It might have frightened a man, and you are only a boy. How old are

"Oh, in truth," I said, "not yet seventeen."

"But you are over eighteen in the records."

"That, my captain, is my official age."

"Very well, very well; it has nothing to do with me."

After awhile the captain said:

"Who was Nicholas? What was he?"

I answered truly that I did not know--that nobody knew--that he had
often plenty of money, and was a good comrade.

"We could not fail to see, my captain," I went on, "that he had been
in a high position once; there is, indeed, a story that he commanded a
company of Russian guards at Plevna, but no one knows with certainty.
He did not tell, and we did not like to inquire." Then I asked the
captain for permission to leave the company for half-an-hour in the

"Why do you ask that?"

"I want to see Nicholas; he will be disappointed if I do not go to see

"Perhaps he will be dead."

"I think not so."

"Perhaps he will ask for his money."

"I mean to offer it to him."

The captain smiled, and said:

"You are a strange legionary; you do not care for money."

"On the contrary, my captain, I do like money and what it buys; but
Nicholas is my friend."

"You may go; stay away an hour if you like. Tell the sergeant that I,
the captain, have given you permission."

"A thousand thanks, my captain."

After some further questions and answers the captain ordered me to
go. I saluted, and was just turning to leave when he called me back.
Pointing to a cigar-box on a rickety table, he told me to give it to
him. I did so. He opened it and took out two cigars.

"Give that to monsieur the prince, with his captain's compliments, and
keep this for yourself. Tell him, sergeant"--he laid stress upon the
word--"that I am sorry for his misfortune and proud to have had such a
man in my company. Say to him exactly what I have said to you."

"Yes, my captain," I answered, saluted again, thanked him for the
cigars, and went away. Let me say here, though it does somewhat
anticipate events, that the captain was my good friend afterwards,
and more than once broke my fall when I got into trouble. The death
of Nicholas deprived me of a good comrade. By it I gained a friend
in a higher position, but I would any day have surrendered the
captain's good will if by so doing I could regain the companion of the
barrack-room and the canteen.

When I got back to the company, I reported my return at once to the
sergeant. He asked me what the captain wanted me for, and I told him
that the officer had questioned me about the affair of the banner and
about Nicholas. I said nothing of the money or the cigars.

"Did he tell you anything?"

"Yes; he said that I was to be sergeant to-morrow."

"Indeed," said the sergeant.

"I suppose, sergeant, I may thank you for a favourable report about
to-day's fight."

"I only told the truth," said the sergeant, "and I always liked you
when I was corporal of the squad."

Then I told him about the captain's permission to me to absent myself
for an hour in the morning so that I might pay a visit to Nicholas.

"You must tell that," he replied, "to the sub-lieutenant in charge; an
officer has been sent to us from another company."

"Very well," said I. "Where is he?"

He brought me to the sub-lieutenant's quarters. I told the officer
of my permission; he was satisfied. Before I went he asked about the
captain's wounds and a few questions of curiosity about Nicholas. I
told him all I knew about the captain and almost nothing about my
comrade. As I was leaving, the sergeant drew my attention to the fact
that I had omitted speaking about my promotion.

"You captured a flag, you say?"

"Yes, sir; and there was a hard fight to retain it."

"And the commandant will promote you sergeant to-morrow?"

"Monsieur le capitaine said so, sir."

"Very good, very good; somebody must be sergeant, I suppose, and why
not you as well as another? You may withdraw."

As we went away I asked the sergeant if there were any place where I
could get a drink of wine or brandy.

"Certainly, yes--if you have money, my comrade."

"Come then," I said, "let us go there together."

He brought me to a small hut, where I had to pay a stiff price for
his brandy and my wine, and when he saw that I had plenty of money he
unbent and congratulated me more than once on my promotion. He ended by
borrowing twenty francs, which I willingly lent; of course, he forgot
to repay me.

The next morning on parade the commandant praised me a little and
ordered me to take over the duties of No. 1 section. The sergeant who
had borrowed the twenty francs from me the day before was appointed
sergeant-major, and the corporal of a squad of No. 2 was made
sergeant of that section. When we were dismissed, I reminded the new
sergeant-major of my permission to visit Nicholas. He remembered the
money I had shown the evening before and promptly brought me up before
the sub-lieutenant in temporary command of the company, in order that I
might report my intention of taking advantage of the leave given me by
the captain. The sub-lieutenant offered no opposition. As I was going
away the sergeant-major, no doubt remembering that I was comparatively
rich--that is, rich for a sergeant of legionaries--told me that he
would take care that my section was all right during my absence.

"Many thanks," I said; "perhaps monsieur le sergent-majeur would wet
the promotion in the evening."

"But yes, but yes, with pleasure. Do not hurry, you will be back in
good time; sometimes the sergeant-major is a better friend than a
simple sub-lieutenant." He was right, and we both knew it.

I went across as quickly as I could to where the field hospital for the
wounded of the right attack lay. I had little difficulty in finding
Nicholas; he visibly brightened at seeing me, and, when I tried to
shake hands, he put his finger on my sleeve, where the single gold
chevron was that a sergeant of a section wears.

"It pleases me," he whispered; "but don't be too ambitious, other men
have lost all through ambition."

I said nothing. I was glad that he was pleased, but I cannot tell how
sorry to see him weak, worn out, and, as one may say, with the dews of
death already gathering on his forehead. He could not speak, even in a
low tone, he could only whisper; I had to bend down to catch his words.

He asked about a few men of the squad, and I told him who were dead,
who dying, who still in the ranks. He was anxious too about Le Grand,
and was very glad to hear that the latter had gone through the fight
without even a scratch, though he had had one narrow escape.

"Le Grand," I said to Nicholas, "had to take a dead man's helmet."

"Why, why?" he eagerly whispered.

"Because his own was cut in two by a sabre-stroke. Had the cut been
downwards, Le Grand would be alongside you to-day."

"I am glad he escaped so well; I like him."

After a little more conversation I was told that my visit must end.

"Who is chiefly with you, Nicholas?" I asked.

He nodded towards an attendant. I went to this man and gave him a
hundred francs.

"Be good to my comrade," I said.

"Yes; yes," he replied, astonished at such a gift from a mere sergeant
of legionaries; "I will do all I can, but that, alas! is little."

"I know," I answered, "there is no hope; but smooth the way for him as
well as you can to Eternity."

He promised with many oaths that he would do so. I don't know whether
or not he kept his word, but I really do think that the unexpected
money, and still more the unexpected amount of it, made him a good
friend to the last to my poor comrade.

So Nicholas the Russian passes out of my story. I never saw him
afterwards, for that evening my company left Lang-Son for an outside
station about ten miles from the place. Some time afterwards a
legionary of No. 2 Company told me that he had been in hospital with
Nicholas, and that the Russian had died about four o'clock in the
afternoon of the day I visited him, and was buried in the evening of
the same day. He is out of the turmoil of the world now, and I wonder,
had he in early youth understood life as he learned it in the Foreign
Legion, would he have "played the game" in the same way? One never
knows. Perhaps he would have lived and died that wretched nonentity,
the respectable member of society--the Pharisee who has neither
courage to do evil nor heart to do good--but who lives his life out in
constant endeavour to equate God and the devil, to balance, for his
own benefit of course, his duty to his fellow-man and his so-called
duty to himself; perhaps he unknowingly thought at the end as the Dying
Stockrider spoke:

 "I've had my share of trouble, and I've done my share of toil,
   And life is short, the longest life a span,
 I care not now to tarry for the corn or for the oil
   Or the wine that maketh glad the heart of man.
 For gifts misspent, and chances lost, and resolutions vain
   'Tis somewhat late to trouble: this I know--
 I would live the same life over if I had to live again,
   And the chances are, I go where most men go."

Anyway, whatever he was to others, he was good friend and good comrade
to me, and if no one else regrets, I regret.

_Amice mi, vale, vale, vale!_


One evening the sergeants and corporals were ordered to forewarn the
men that the battalion would leave the neighbourhood of Lang-Son early
the following morning. Where we were going we did not know; indeed, I
believe that even the commandant himself was unaware of our destination
when he ordered the battalion to hold itself in readiness for a march.
When the morning parade had been inspected--we, of course, paraded in
full marching order--the commandant ordered us to stand at ease. While
thus waiting in the ranks, an officer of the staff came and gave a
written paper to the commandant. Shortly afterwards the staff-officer
went away, and we were marched off in column of fours for some place
or other, where, we--sub-officers and men--knew not, nor did we care.
Restlessness is the chief characteristic of the soldier; he stagnates
in garrison, or, if he doesn't, he avoids _ennui_ by illegitimate
amusements--excitements, I should say, that sooner or later get him
into trouble.

I am ashamed to confess that I was as happy as the others as we tramped
along. Of course, I was sorry for Nicholas, and as I spent the money
he had left me with the other sergeant and the sergeant-major of the
company, I felt that all the fun and gaiety that money can produce
cannot make up for the loss of a good comrade. I took care to do as
Nicholas would wish me towards my late associates, the corporals, and
my former associates, the simple soldiers--they were not forgotten when
the money was spent. Of course, I did not go outside my section, and I
took good care that my former squad, the squad I had soldiered in ever
since I was sent from the depot to a battalion, first as soldier of the
second class in the little trouble with the Arabs in Algeria, in the
big trouble at Three Fountains, in the troopship, at Noui-Bop; then as
soldier of the first class till the end of the vengeance at a place I
have not named--you may be sure it gets scant mention in the official
records; then as corporal in the defeat at Lang-Son and the retreat
afterwards, and at the second battle, when we recaptured the town:--oh
no, I did not forget the men who were what Xenophon would call my
table-companions; for their part, they thanked me but little, but we
all understood.

There is no use in detailing our life for the next few weeks. We were
always marching, now to the north, anon to the west, then a sudden turn
to east, perhaps, or south or back towards the north again. It was all
one; we looked for the enemy; we did not find him. At last a momentous
order came for us. We were much reduced in strength, and the general
commanding-in-chief determined to send most of the battalion to the sea
coast and, if the doctors should recommend, back to Algeria. I don't
think that we mustered six hundred of all ranks at the time, possibly
we did not exceed five hundred. When I tell you that we were constantly
receiving batches of fresh men--almost every troopship brought out a
hundred or two hundred soldiers of the Foreign Legion--you will be
surprised at this; but then the country is bad for Europeans, and we
were always in the fighting line of the battles and on tramp here,
there, and everywhere between them. Anyway, the commandant asked for
volunteers to form a company to be left behind, and officers as well as
men were asked to come forward.

"First," said the commandant, "I want a captain."

All the captains stepped out He selected mine. I forgot to state that
my captain had been sent back to duty, as soon as the surgeons found
that the blow on the head had produced only temporary ill-effects.

"Now," said the commandant, "a lieutenant."

Forward stepped every officer of that rank. The sub-lieutenant--now a
lieutenant--who had come out with my company, the _vieux militaire_
who had risen from the ranks, the man who was good at fighting and
better at pillage, the man who could overlook much if you were a
good looter and handed him over a decent percentage of your gains,
the man with the piercing eye, the hooked nose, the spike-like grey
moustache was taken on the spot. I believe this selection gave the old
soldier immense pleasure. "Ah," I can fancy him saying to himself,
"the commandant knows better than to take boys fresh from school."
Everybody under forty was to him a boy fresh from school, except, be
it noted, Nicholas. He did not understand Nicholas, but he was too
old a soldier, too experienced in the Legion, not to know the ruined
nobleman, the dangerous man, when he met him. A sub-lieutenant was
selected in turn, a mere boy who had been sent to us for some little
peccadillo, some little indiscretion, probably in connection with a
senior officer's wife. Then a sergeant-major was taken, an Alsatian
from No. 3. The sergeants were now called on for volunteers, and, just
as we all stepped forward, a French officer of chasseurs approached the
commandant to speak with him.

"Select your own sergeants and corporals, captain," the commandant
cried out to my captain; "the doctor will select the men, for I assume
that all will volunteer."

The captain promptly selected the two sergeants of his own company. I
was delighted. I, a boy of less than seventeen, as the captain knew,
though in the records of the battalion I was approaching nineteen,
found myself senior sergeant of a company that was evidently to be
a separate unit for some time. How I mentally thanked the officer
of chasseurs for his timely intervention, for I felt sure that the
commandant would not have selected me. The corporals were quickly
chosen as the captain took all his own corporals who had not been
seriously wounded and who did not show signs of breaking down, the
others were taken by him from corporals of other companies after
a hasty walk down the line of volunteers. He was a clever man,
that captain of mine: all the outside corporals he selected were
fair-haired. I have already mentioned that such men can stand hardships
better than the black-haired ones.

When the commandant had finished his chat with the chasseur, he said:

"All men in the front ranks"--we were drawn up in column of
companies--"that wish to volunteer, step one pace to the front; all men
in the rear ranks that wish to volunteer, step one pace to the rear.

All stepped forward or backward, as the case might be; the commandant
went down the right flank and saw all the companies opened out.

"Very well, _mes enfants_, since you all volunteer, the doctor will
make a selection."

The doctor examined every man. As he marched down the ranks he cast
out almost half, one glance told him that these could not be accepted,
wounds and disease and semi-starvation and hardship had worn them
out; the rest he carefully examined in the afternoon, and, to cut
the matter short, next morning the commandant and other officers and
other sub-officers and other soldiers said good-bye to a fairly strong
company--we were more than two hundred and twenty all told--and started
on their march to the coast. We felt sad as our comrades went away.
In twenty-four hours we had forgotten them, as, undoubtedly, they had
forgotten us. Wrong! you say; well, the soldier who can't forget will
die of brooding over his memories.

In a day or two a few Annamite tirailleurs and eight or ten French
engineers had came into camp. The chief officer of the tirailleurs
brought a message for our captain, and in accordance with this we
pushed forward about seventy or eighty miles and seized a strong
position, right, as one may say, in the heart of the enemy's country.
This we proceeded to fortify, the engineers superintending, the
legionaries working, and the Annamites out on all sides to give us
notice of any movements against our little post on the part of our
foes. These, however, allowed us to finish the little fortification
in peace; once it was finished, we cared not a jot for them. We
had brought along a good deal of supplies; more of every kind that
the country produced were collected from all sides; ammunition was
plentiful, so why should we care?

This was my captain's first separate command, and he had a nice
little force to help him to keep the post. First, there were the
legionaries, two hundred and twenty seasoned soldiers; then about a
hundred and eighty native levies under French officers; last, a really
admirable demi-squad of engineers. No artillery, of course; but who
wants artillery when he has enough of rifles? My captain did not, and
he was really a clever man. Not that guns and gunners have not their
uses--oh, they have--but they are wanted with brigades and divisions
for big battles; they are useless, they are worse than useless, to
small parties on the trail of the enemy or holding some out-of-the-way
position which may have to be abandoned at a minute's notice. In a
retreat, when you are burdened with guns, one or two things must be
done--destroy the artillery, and so produce a bad effect on the men;
keep it, and by so doing slow down your march in swampy ground. We were
all glad that no guns had been sent to us. We were quite confident that
we could maintain our ground with the rifle alone; then, if we really
had to withdraw, we felt more confident of cutting our way through
with steady bayonet fighting than if we had to depend on the spasmodic
assistance of artillery in a retreat.

When the little fortification was finished to the satisfaction of the
captain and the sergeant in command of the engineers, the little force
was divided into four parts. Every part had a special duty every day.
If No. 1 were employed guarding the camp for the twenty-four hours, No.
2 would be out in the day gathering stores of all kinds and getting
information; No. 3 would be cooking and doing the other work of the
camp, except guarding it; and No. 4 would be quietly resting. Thus
every part had three days' work for one day of rest, but, be it well
understood, every man was on guard-duty only one night in four. Every
party, I may mention, had one-fourth of the legionaries and one-fourth
of the Annamite tirailleurs. As for the engineers, they examined the
fortifications every day, and did nothing then but cook and eat,
mend and wash their clothing, and lie about and smoke. The officers
commanding the parties were the lieutenant and the sub-lieutenant of
the legionaries, the lieutenant and the sub-lieutenant of the native
levies, while the captain exercised a general supervision over all,
especially the entrenchments, the engineers, and the stores.

Things went on well and pleasantly for some time. In fact we were all
getting tired of the monotony--that is, all except the Annamites, who
were quite satisfied--and we sergeants and corporals especially were
desirous of some excitement. This we got, and in full measure. That
everything may be understood I must give a brief description of the
post--the fortified encampment I may call it.

The main post was almost rectangular in shape, but a little way out
from one corner stood a block-house, its nearest angle pointing towards
an angle of the fort. This block-house was built with the intention of
protecting the portion of the camp nearest to it, and also in order
to prevent the enemy from taking up a commanding position within less
than half musket-shot of our quarters. Furthermore, it dominated a
spring from which a stream flowed in close proximity to the main
fortification. This was very necessary, for the Black Flags have no
compunction about poisoning "foreign devils." The block-house had two
storeys, and was generally occupied by about twenty men, detached, of
course, from the party on guard for the day. It was rather exposed on
the two sides away from the main position, but being well and solidly
built no one dreamed that it could ever be in any great danger. Well,
it was; but that came afterwards, and will be dwelt on in due course.
As for the big position being in danger, everyone scouted the thought.
Ah, it's well for men that they are generally fools!

Well, the time came at last when the Black Flags came to visit us. The
first token of their arrival in force was given by the cutting off of
a squad of Annamite tirailleurs; the second, firing at long range on a
party of legionaries; the third, the burning of a couple of villages.
I suppose they thought that the people in these hamlets were friendly
to us; they were, indeed, friendly, but so they would have been to any
men who carried arms. The poor people who remain quietly at home and
take no part in fighting always suffer most. We took their property and
paid them for it, at least our officers did; the Black Flags came, took
their money, their women, and often their lives, and then set fire to
their wretched habitations. In war both sides live very much, if not
altogether, on the country. You can imagine how pleasant that is for
the cultivators and others who seek to continue the occupations which
can be profitable only in time of peace. Well, cowards sow and brave
men reap.

After the burning of the villages we scouted much more cautiously. Up
to the first appearance of the Black Flags the Annamites were often
by themselves, but afterwards we never went in smaller parties than
thirty, of whom two-thirds were legionaries. So long as we had the
natives, we could not very well be surprised; and so long as they had
us with them, they knew that they would not be asked to bear the brunt
of the fighting, if the enemy only showed himself in force.

One day I was in command of a small party that cautiously felt its way
towards the north-east, where a village had been seen burning the night
before. I had two weak squads of my section and a dozen natives, in all
we were about thirty-five rifles. As we went slowly on, the corporal
of the tirailleurs gave me to understand that there was danger ahead.
I did not thank him for the information--I knew as much myself--but,
as the ground was fairly open, I determined to push on a little
farther. At the same time I took the precaution of sending a couple
of men to reinforce the little party guarding each flank, and four to
the corporal of legionaries who commanded the advance-guard. Scarcely
had these soldiers reached their respective destinations, when heavy
firing began in front, followed almost at once by scattered shots on
the right. The Annamite tirailleurs came back at once, the legionaries
did not retreat so quickly; they fired as they retreated, and showed
no signs of panic. I steadied the natives by telling them very plainly
that the man who moved without orders would be at once shot. When they
understood this, they stood up to their fight fairly well.

As the outlying squads closed on my command, I asked the corporal
who had led and the legionary of the first class who had commanded
on the right, what they thought of the attack. The corporal said it
seemed serious; the soldier of the first class, that we ought to move
off to the base at once, as many men were trying to creep round to
our rear. Now both of these might be depended on. The corporal was a
man of much service; the other a Prussian who had found life in his
own country too exciting, but who was a good soldier in all respects
on active service; in garrison, of course, it was different. I fell
back, therefore, showing a bold front, keeping the Annamites and six
legionaries together--the latter to hold the former--and leaving all
the other legionaries to fight in skirmishing order as we went away.
A few of ours were wounded, and these the natives had to carry, but
we managed to withdraw for more than half-a-mile without any serious
casualty. Then a legionary was shot through the heart; an Annamite was
sent for his rifle and ammunition, and the retreat went on as before.
Once only did the enemy attempt to rush us. I hurried to the right with
tirailleurs and legionaries when I saw them nearing for the charge, but
our rifle fire was so effective that no man reached our bayonets.

Not very long afterwards the lieutenant of my company came up with
about forty men, two-thirds of whom were legionaries. He at once took
over the chief command, and had little difficulty in getting us all
back to camp. I fancy, however, that the Black Flags could have done
a great deal of harm to us if they had tried more resolutely to come
to close quarters, for they outnumbered us certainly by six to one.
They made only faint-hearted attempts to rush us, and every time they
tried that game, we concentrated our fire on the men concentrated for
the charge. They made a great mistake in massing themselves together,
for our bullets could not fail to find a man or men amongst them in
the too close formation they assumed. We, on the contrary, kept a very
open formation in the firing line, but behind there were always two
little squads ready to hurry up to the part where there was any danger
of a serious attack. For my part, I was glad to see that the lieutenant
practised the same tactics as I; in the first place, it was a sort of
compliment to me; and in the second, no one could blame the sergeant
for doing what the officer, a most experienced fighter, did. To end
this portion of my story, I may say that the little party got back
safely to the fortification with the loss of three legionaries and one
Annamite tirailleur killed and about seven or eight wounded severely
enough to go into hospital. There were other men wounded, but their
wounds did not count--they were only bullet-grazings or flesh wounds.

When we were safely inside the little post, the captain ordered us to
see first to our wounded and then to hold ourselves in readiness to go
to any part of the defence where we might be required. The Black Flags,
however, did not press the attack; evidently they were only part of the
enemy who meant to assault our position, probably a few hundred sent
out for raiding purposes.

Nothing of any importance occurred for two or three days. We knew that
the Black Flags were closing round us; in fact, we could not go five
hundred yards from the camp without being fired on, but that gave us no
uneasiness. Ammunition and stores were plentiful, the block-house made
our water supply safe, our friends were only a hundred miles away, and
we guessed that very soon a general or other high officer would come to
inspect the post, and, of course, such people are always accompanied by
at least a couple of thousand men. A gold-laced cap and an escort are
not a sufficient outfit for a general; you must, to satisfy his _amour
propre_, give him an army as well. One thing must be noted here. Though
the block-house commanded the spring from which arose the rivulet that
ran by the outer side of the fortification, yet the captain was not
satisfied. He feared that in spite of all vigilance the well might be
poisoned or polluted, so that orders were given that no water was to
be taken into camp until four hours after sunrise. By that time all
poisons that might have been deposited in the spring during the dark
hours would be washed away, and a fatigue-party would have examined
the stream carefully for dead bodies of men or animals. As I shall not
allude to this again, I must tell here that on several occasions we
found putrid bodies in the stream. We always took them out on the spot,
and the men would take no water from the parts below where they were
found for at least twenty-four hours. If the carcasses were got in the
spring itself, a couple of engineers and two or three legionaries went
out and cleansed it.

At last we recognised that regular siege was being laid to our
position. The Black Flags, assisted by a fair number of Chinese
regulars--we knew these by their uniforms--had possession of every
natural vantage-point around the camp. In some places, the nearest
enemies were fifteen hundred yards away from the outer face of the
entrenchments, in one or two the ground permitted them to come with
safety as near as six or seven hundred yards. The average distance
between the opposing forces was, I believe, about a thousand yards.
They did not carry round a big fortified line--that would be too much
trouble and would require a large number of soldiers to man it at all
points--but they selected six or eight places of natural strength,
erected forts upon them, and crowded these forts with defenders. The
intervals between these were held by constantly moving bands, numbering
anything from half-a-dozen to a hundred.

For some time the fighting was desultory. We did not fire at them
unless they came within easy range, for there was no use in throwing
away ammunition, and, besides, it would be a good thing if they would
only learn to despise us. They knew our strength to a man. If they saw
or believed that we were short of cartridges, they would surely reckon
us a certain prey. At the same time they would be doubtful of the
success of a mere blockade, as our stores were plentiful, and any day
might bring a relieving force. As for us, we eagerly desired a grand
attack. We had enough of men to provide all parts of the entrenchment
with a sustained rifle fire, and even if they did get up to our
fortifications we trusted to our bayonet work too much to have any fear
of the issue. Moreover, since the second battle of Lang-Son and our
selection to remain behind when our comrades went down to the coast,
we had conceived, unconsciously, I believe, a very high idea of our
prowess both as individual soldiers and as a company.

The grand attack which we had been expecting and praying for--I mean
that we should have prayed for, if we ever prayed--was delivered at
last. For a couple of days and nights the enemy kept up a brisk fire,
giving us no rest. To this we made but little reply. The Black Flags
became bolder every hour, and on the second day of the fusilade some
were so contemptuous of our fire that they crawled up to within less
than two hundred yards of the entrenchments to burn their powder.
Our arrangements for the second night did credit to the captain. He
divided his little force into two parts. The first of these kept watch
and ward from sunset until half-past one in the morning; the second,
which had been resting with rifles by their sides, took up guard duty
in turn until six. Thus, along the entrenchments half the men, clad
in greatcoats, were standing up, looking out for any movement of the
enemy, while the other half, wrapped up in greatcoats and blankets,
lay down only a yard away from their watching comrades. Thus half the
rifles in garrison were ready for instant use; the remaining half could
be in action in thirty seconds. Our captain was clever--I have always
said so, and I will always assert it; other captains are creatures of
routine, and will do the same thing in a fortified post in the enemy's
country as they were in the habit of doing in a quiet town in the heart
of France. Routine, so admirable in time of peace, is a thing rather to
be neglected in time of war.

The moiety to which I was attached lay down just behind the men on
guard from sunset to half-past one. Then we were called to take our
turn of duty. I had only dozed off once or twice while lying down, but
for all that I was as wakeful as if I had slept for a week, when I
turned out of the blanket and stood up in my greatcoat in the chilly
air. Very soon I had the men under my charge at their posts. First, the
lieutenant came round to ask in an undertone if all were ready within
and if all seemed right outside; then the captain visited me and bade
me pass the word up and down my command that the attack, if made at
all, would be made within an hour, or an hour and a half at most, and
that all should be thoroughly on their guard, for on every man's rifle
a good deal depended. I, standing at the centre of my section, told
the men on my right and left what the captain had said, each of them
whispered the message to his next man, and so the words went down the
ranks. After this all was quiet; the men seemed like so many bronze
statues, but one knew that every eye was peering out intently into the
blackness and that every ear was straining to catch the lightest sound.
As for me, I looked now to the front, then to the right, and then
towards the left; I neither saw nor heard anything which could betoken
the approach of an enemy.

We were nearly an hour so waiting, watching, and listening, and the
constant strain had just begun to tell upon the nerves, when from the
eastern side of the camp a report of a rifle came. Almost at once this
was followed by a constant fire, not firing by volleys, be it well
understood, but a well kept-up fire on both sides, never ceasing, but
swaying, as it were, up and down, as now the reports came almost all
together, now they came in twos and threes, or in dozens and in scores.
The eastern side was not engaged long when the northern and southern
ones joined in. A moment afterwards the red spirts came to us out of
the darkness of the night. We replied, and a hot fusilade was well
maintained without and within. The block-house garrison was also hotly
engaged. They had little trouble with two faces, for the fronts of
them were swept by the fire from the nearest angle of the fort, but on
the other faces their work was far harder than ours. As was obvious
afterwards, when the light came and gave us the advantage, the Black
Flags had tried to catch the main position unawares, if possible,
but at least to give its garrison enough to do. The chief object was
to win the block-house; that captured, we others could be poisoned
out. I afterwards learned that in the block-house there were two
engineers and twenty-one legionaries, the whole being commanded by the
sergeant-major I spoke of, the Alsatian who came from No. 3. They were
good men; one engineer and seven legionaries, all simple soldiers, were
killed; almost all the others were wounded, but even wounded men who
could stand remained at their posts, and those others who had to stay
out of the fight loaded their rifles and the rifles of the dead, and
passed them to the fighting men, so that two shots often went through a
loophole when, in the Black Flags' minds, only one should be expected.
They were good men; I am proud of having soldiered with such.

But one attempt was made to rush the fort. This occurred at the angle
where the fire from the two sides swept the ground in front of two
faces of the block-house. I don't believe that the enemy dreamt of
taking our place by storm, but one thing was certain, the attack in
force took away all aid for the block-house from the main position
and made the men outside dependent altogether on themselves. That the
determined attack on the little garrison outside, weakened as it was by
death and wounds, did not succeed was due, first to their determined
resistance, and secondly to the fact that, just as the attack became
fiercest, the light became good enough for us to see our foes, to
reckon their strength, and then to allow our captain to withdraw men
from the two sides that were but feebly fired at to the others where
the firing was practically point-blank. The sudden reinforcement
overpowered the attack. A rapid and unexpected sally by fifty or sixty
legionaries with fixed bayonets relieved the pressure round the
block-house. The little garrison received from the sortie party a dozen
men as reinforcements, the rest returned, and that really finished the
engagement. A few shots still continued to be exchanged, but the firing
after the sally was of no account--a man killed or wounded on either
side "did not count in the tale of the battle."

After this we had a little peace. We buried our dead outside the
ramparts, but we left no mounds to afford shelter to enemies. All the
earth that would in ordinary cases form heaps above the graves was
taken to strengthen our defences; the plain outside was left as level
as before. Was he not a clever captain? As for the enemy's killed and
wounded, the uniformed men amongst them took them away under a flag
of truce. We never allowed more than twenty-five to be engaged on the
work within a hundred yards of the outer face of the fortifications,
because we never trusted the Chinese. One thing else we did, we sent
out the Annamites to gather all the weapons and ammunition of those who
had fallen near the camp. These were of no use to us, but we deprived
the enemy of them. Some of the wounded fell out with the Annamite
tirailleurs; well, it was so much the worse for the wounded.

When the burials were over and the wounded were going along well, we
began to look forward to another attack. The Chinese regulars evidently
took the business in hand this time, for there was no attempt to carry
the main post or the block-house by assault; now we had to contend
with mines. It was very well for us that there were engineers in the
garrison; without them we should in all probability have seen most of
our defences blown into the air. As it was, the Chinese mined and our
engineers countermined. At first the mining was comparatively simple,
as far as we were concerned. The Chinese had not the skill of the
French sappers, and the result was that we always found out where they
were boring, before they even imagined that we could know anything
about their operations, but after we had destroyed a few mines, and
with them a certain number of men, the underground attack became more
skilful and more concealed. On more than one occasion both parties of
tunnellers discovered each other at the same time, and the earth was
quickly put back by both; we did not want a communication between mine
and countermine, for that might give passage to a couple of thousand
Chinese and Black Flags into our camp; the enemy did not want to come
to close quarters with us, for more than once they had learned that,
bayonet to bayonet, the Asiatic stood no chance against the European.
I shall not say much about the underground operations, as I am not an
engineer; moreover, my duties as sergeant kept me almost always above
ground; we allowed the military engineers to direct everything below.
Of course, it will be understood that the legionaries, and sometimes
the Annamite tirailleurs, furnished the working parties; the regular
engineers chiefly concerned themselves with planning the works first
and overseeing them afterwards. There is a story of one countermine
which, however, I must narrate, as it intimately concerned myself.

Our fellows had cautiously dug forward for a considerable distance.
No sound of tunnelling on the side of the Chinese had been heard; as
the _dénoûment_ proved, they had been as cautious as we. The working
party was tearing down the earth with the sharp edge of the pick, not
striking with all their strength. Thus very little noise was made,
and, besides, it was enjoined on all who were at work in the mine that
talking could not be allowed. The men loyally obeyed orders, even if
they had not felt inclined to do so through the spirit of discipline,
the knowledge that the others were doing their best to tunnel under
the fortification and then blow part of it to pieces prior to a grand
attack with rifle and bayonet, would have made them obedient enough. I
had gone down into the mine, more out of curiosity than because I had
business there; my excuse was that I wished to get the names of the
men of my section working in the pit. When I went down, I stayed for
a moment or two. While I was holding a whispered conversation with a
sub-officer of engineers, a cry from a worker drew our attention. In a
moment the engineer saw what had happened, and cried out: "Les Chinois,
les Chinois!"

As a matter of fact, the Chinese miners and we were separated only by
a thin wall of loose earth; a blow or two struck by I know not which
party tumbled this down, and we were all mixed up together, French and
Chinese, in the tunnel. All struck out at random. I drew my bayonet,
which, of course, I always wore, and dashed the point in the face of a
yellow man from outside.

The lamps were extinguished in the struggle that ensued; we were all
striking blindly about with pick-axe, shovel, and bayonet; no man knew
who might receive his blow. It was a horrible time. In the darkness I
heard the cries and oaths and groans; I shoved forward my bayonet, it
met something soft; I drew it back and lunged again; again it met the
soft, yielding substance, or perhaps the blow was lost on empty air. If
I struggled forward, I tripped over a body; if I went back, surely a
miner would knock my brains out with his pick. This went on for a short
space that seemed an eternity. At last hurrying footsteps and shouts
of encouragement and a welcome gleaming of lights told of the arrival
of aid. When our comrades came up, we found that all the Chinese able
to flee had fled; fourteen of them, however, and eight or nine men
of ours, were lying pressed against and on top of one another in a
narrow space. All, dead and wounded alike, were carried out; the place
was blocked up at once, and the countermine that had taken so much
time and work on our part was filled in. When the dead and wounded
were examined two legionaries and two engineers were found dead, four
legionaries and an Annamite tirailleur wounded, ten Chinese killed
outright, four just alive. An ugly list for the small place in which
the fight was, but it was the darkness that caused so heavy a casualty
list amongst comparatively few combatants. It was a most unpleasant
struggle. After that experience I shall never care to fight again in
the dark.

For some time afterwards the siege went on in a less exciting way. The
enemy had evidently resolved to starve us out. We had, as we thought,
enough of stores in the beginning to last until relief came, but when
the relief did not make its appearance at or after the time expected,
the captain began to have serious misgivings for the future. We were
utterly shut off from all communication with the outside world; for all
we knew, another disaster might have befallen the French troops, and,
if that were the case, there could be no hope of relief in time. A full
fortnight had now elapsed since the date that we had confidently set
for the coming up of reinforcements; we were all asking one another the
reason of the delay. Other questions also arose. Would our comrades
come soon? If they did not, would our provisions hold out? Should we be
able to fight our way through, in case the post had to be abandoned?
There was no thought of surrender, for all understood that it was
better to die fighting than to give ourselves up to the diabolical
tortures inflicted by the Black Flags and their allies on unlucky
prisoners of war.

One day rations were reduced by one half. In some way to make up for
this an allowance of native spirit was served out every afternoon, but
the brandy and the wine were carefully kept for the use of the sick
and wounded. These were by no means few, and when the dead were added
to the ineffectives the total reached almost fifty per cent. of the
original force. Indeed, after we had been on half-rations for a time,
we legionaries formed a skeleton company of skeletons; we were so few
and so reduced in weight. But through all we were resolute and, nearly
to the last, cheerful. Certainly when the half-rations were further
diminished, our spirits markedly sank, but no one expects starving men
to show much gaiety.

The soldiers were kept constantly on the alert both by the enemy and by
us, their sub-officers. The captain told the sergeants and corporals
that the men were to be always engaged in some work or other, as he
did not wish to give them time to annoy themselves by thinking. This
instruction made me a busy man. I was always on the look-out for little
duties for my section, at the same time taking care not to overwork the
men, and I tried to be as cheerful as possible with them. My fellows
and I got along well together on the whole. I never brought a man
before the captain if I could help it, and I let the corporals of the
section understand that the squads were not to be sworn at more than
was absolutely necessary. At the same time all knew that an order once
given had to be at once obeyed.

Things had been going on in this fashion for some time when the enemy
again plucked up courage to attack. We were very glad of this, because
it showed that they feared the arrival of a French force before they
could reduce us to extremity by a mere blockade. The second big
fight was a replica of the first one, only that on this occasion the
assault on the block-house was more determined than before. It lasted
longer too, for we were too few in number to risk fifty or sixty
men in a sortie, but, in spite of all, the defence was successfully
maintained. Two days afterwards some Annamites captured a Chinese.
He was in a state of abject terror when brought before the captain,
and on the promise that his life would be spared and liberty given
him, he soon told us all he knew of the French movements. We learned
then that a strong force was approaching and might be expected almost
at any moment; we were also told that a third and last attack was in
preparation. This attack, however, and the relief of the post will be
told in the next chapter, as they deserve a chapter to themselves.


It was quite evident that the block-house would have to stand the
brunt of the attack this time as before. Now we were rather weak in
numbers for the adequate defence of the main position, yet not a single
man could be withdrawn from the little garrison of the outside post.
Even with the full number of rifles allowed to it the block-house
might be taken--taken, that is, in the event of the death or the
rendering ineffective of all its men, and that this was by no means
an impossibility was proved by the losses in the last fight. Out of
twenty-two sub-officers and men only seven were unscathed, and of the
others three were slightly, five severely, wounded, and seven killed.
With a more desperate and better sustained attack upon more exhausted
troops, might not the Chinese fairly hope for complete success?

To make up in some degree for the anticipated loss of the outpost the
captain gave orders that all vessels in camp should be filled, that, as
these were emptied they should be refilled, and that no soldier should
drink out of any vessel except his own water-bottle. All the rest,
filled as they were, were placed in a central position in the camp,
and this place all were forbidden to approach under pain of death. The
sentries on guard had strict orders to allow no one to go near the
precious stock of water. The captain said:

"If you do not shoot or bayonet the trespasser, I will drive you forth
unarmed to become the prey of the Black Flags."

If their own brothers had dared to approach the water, the sentries
would have shot them after hearing that.

A strong party was sent to the block-house, for there was a chance
that it might hold out, and in any case the captain resolved that the
enemy should not have it for nothing. The lieutenant of my company was
in command. I was second; there were two corporals, one an Alsatian,
the other a Lorrainer, and twenty men. This was as many as could be
conveniently accommodated in the small space. We were all well supplied
with ammunition; we carried, every man, three days' provisions. When
we paraded before going out, the captain told us that we should hold
our ground as well and as long as we could; if we managed to repel one
assault, only one, our lives would be saved and the honour of the corps

Our small party took up its quarters, relieving the others, who were,
you may be sure, not sorry to be relieved, and was at once divided into
three parts. I commanded one, a corporal each of the others; as for
the lieutenant, he was over all, and seemed to be ever watchful and
absolutely incapable of feeling fatigue. While one party watched, the
rest lay down and slept or tried to sleep. There was no cooking to be
done, as our provisions were of the cast-iron pattern--baked bread and
cooked meat; as for drink, we had a small allowance of native spirit
and as much water as we should want for three days.

For twenty-four hours we were undisturbed, except when once the door
was opened and a man looked out. Then a regular fusilade of shots came
towards us. We saw that we were fairly cooped up, and that the only
chance of our ever leaving the block-house alive lay in the arrival
of French troops. We fancied, but this was perhaps imagination, that
we could hear firing in the distance; this gave us hope and renewed
our courage. Early in the evening of our second day on duty a strong
attack was made not only on our post, but on the main position as well.
At first this was confined to a hot fire, and four of ours, one the
Alsatian corporal, were shot at the loopholes. As night came down,
the enemy approached to short range, and even in the dark we were a
splendid target for them. All the night they fired, and twice they set
the block-house on fire, but volunteers quickly put out the flames,
though at a fearful sacrifice of life. As the first beams of the rising
sun illuminated the battlefield, the Chinese regulars, followed by
a crowd of Black Flags, tried to storm the post. They succeeded in
breaking down two upright beams on one side and tried to pour in, but
our bayonets soon piled up a heap of bodies in the narrow entrance that
they had made. We got a short respite now, and heard with feelings
of indescribable joy a steady, well-sustained firing outside the
position held by the enemy. Once more, however, the Chinese attacked.
With battering rams of wood tipped with iron they broke down a clear
half of one wall. Some of the superstructure fell and delayed them
for a time, but this they quickly tore away, and the remains of the
little garrison, having no longer power to hold the fort or hope of
escape, sallied desperately forth, to sell their lives as dearly as
possible. The lieutenant leading fell shot between the eyes; the rest
of us rushed straight at the Chinese and bore them back. They rallied
and again attacked. We fought with the courage of despair. We could
make little head against them, but for all that we steadily piled up
a rampart of bodies in our front. I heard as I fought the familiar
war cry of the legionaries; I shouted out in reply. Just as a Chinese
lifted his musket to fell me to the earth, I saw the advancing line of
reinforcements. There was a sudden shock, and then came darkness on my
eyes, and, when I came to, the block-house, now on fire, was blazing in
the sunlight, and I felt a terrible agony in head and limbs and body.
But the post had been held and relieved; the enemy were scattered in
all directions, with hundreds of pursuers at their heels; there were no
more short rations to be dreaded, no more night attacks, nothing now
but rest and peace and warm congratulations.

Let me tell the fate of the little guard of the block-house. The
lieutenant, both corporals, and eighteen soldiers were dead; two
soldiers and I, the sergeant and second in command, were wounded.
Both the soldiers died that night; I, the sole survivor, was promoted
sergeant-major and recommended for the military medal. Had I been a
Frenchman, I should have got the cross and a commission; as it was,
I was more than satisfied, for did not I get the rewards won by my
comrades as well as by me? For a few days I lay in hospital, and the
doctors feared that I might suffer from concussion of the brain as a
result of the heavy blow dealt me by the Chinese. However, all bad
effects passed away quickly, and I returned to duty on the day that
my promotion to the rank of sergeant-major was confirmed. The captain
visited me in hospital; he would not allow me to talk, and merely said
that he was glad I had survived, and then laughingly told me that "the
devil's children had their father's luck." He could be sarcastic on
occasion, but I did not mind; I can take a joke as well as another.

After the post had been relieved the remains of the original garrison
were transferred to the sea-coast. The march down was exactly similar
to all the other marches, except in one important matter, we did not
have to break camp hurriedly and run after rapidly vanishing enemies.
No; our daily marches were not too long, our nightly rest was unbroken,
and, as we approached the coast, we got better quarters and better
supplies. The men too had the proud consciousness of a dangerous and
difficult duty well done. The other soldiers whom we met used to cook
our soup and prepare the camps for us; that's the soldier's way of
offering congratulations, and these were the compliments we liked.

When we marched one afternoon into Saigon, I was in very bad health.
The reaction after the siege, with its reduced rations, its constant
watchfulness, and all the little annoyances that beset a poor devil
of a sergeant trying to keep the men of his section content under
difficulties, together with the fatigue of the march, made me feel very
ill by the time we came to the base. Moreover, I was troubled about
the accounts of the company. The sergeant-major who preceded me, and
who was killed in the last attack, had left the company's accounts in
an unintelligible state; no one could tell whether any man had or had
not been paid a piastre since the beginning of the siege, nor could you
find out who had drawn occasional rations of wine and extra tobacco.
The captain knew nothing; he had been too busy with fighting and
looking after stores. I went to him and said that it was not fair to
ask me to make up a dead man's accounts. He agreed with me, and asked
me what the devil I was going to do about the affair.

"Let the clerks at headquarters settle all," I replied; "it ought to be
their business and not mine."

"Very well," said the captain; "but how will you throw the work on
their shoulders?"

"Easily enough," I answered; "I need but refuse to accept the books
until they are set right."

"But suppose you are ordered to take them and to set them in order

"Very well, sir; I will then claim money for every man, dead or alive.
When the clerks point out to me that a certain man is dead, I will
withdraw his name: in that way I shall give them more trouble than if
they were to make up the accounts themselves."

"Do what you like," said the captain; "only pay the survivors--the dead
may rest."

I took the hint, and made out the accounts in such a way, that it
appeared that all the dead had been paid in full up to the day of
death, and that none of the survivors had obtained a centime for
months. The paymasters grumbled, and I was called on more than once
for an explanation. I could only say that I knew nothing about the
men's accounts beyond what they told me.

"But how do you know," asked a commandant one day, "that the dead men
were paid in full?"

"I don't know it, sir," I answered; "but I have marked them as paid
because I cannot afford time to look for their heirs."

Everybody laughed at this--the idea of a legionary leaving legacies to
his relations was too ridiculous. In the end, however, we survivors got
nearly all the money we claimed, and everybody was satisfied.

It was easy to see that most of our company were unfit for further duty
at the time. Many were in hospital, and those of us who remained in
camp were listless and easily fatigued. The medical officers did not
like our looks, and it became a current report that we should all be
very soon sent back to Algeria. The transport was in harbour on which
we were ordered to embark for transportation home--that is, to the
legionaries' home, the wastes and sands of Northern Africa. Yet to us
these very places seemed like heaven compared with Tonquin: we were
all tired of the harassing warfare, the starvation, the marches, and
the constant watchfulness. It was fated that I should not return in
this vessel, as, only two days before it sailed, I had to go into the
military hospital, a place dreaded above all others by soldiers. There
I lay with an attack of fever, but my naturally strong constitution
shook this off, and in a few weeks I was ready to embark in a hospital
ship, with a few hundred others of all ranks and regiments, for
Marseilles. I had a relapse while in the Red Sea, and thought for the
first time that there was no longer hope for me. What made it worse was
that every day a dead body went overboard, and, though the officials
tried to keep this fact from us, sick men are too clever and too
suspicious to be easily imposed upon. One morning I saw the cot near
me empty--a poor marine fusilier had occupied it the day before. I had
known that he was sinking rapidly, but still the fact of his death gave
me a great shock. I got up with difficulty from my couch and made my
way on hands and knees to the companion-ladder, ascended this in the
same posture, and at length gained the deck unperceived. I felt the
cool breeze of the Mediterranean on my face, and thanked Heaven that
I was out of the horrors of Tonquin and the almost worse horrors of
the Red Sea. I remember no more until I woke up to find myself back in
my cot, with a couple of doctors and an orderly or two around me. The
doctors spoke in a friendly way to me, and asked me why I had gone up
to the deck. I said that I was restless, and scarcely knew what I was
doing, but that the fresh breeze above had done me much good. They then
said that very soon we should be at Marseilles and that I should be
better off there. I thanked them, promised not to leave my cot again,
and they withdrew. As they went, however, I overheard one say--so sharp
are sick men's ears: "He will come up again, probably to-morrow." I
wondered vaguely whether he doubted my word or whether he was merely
alluding to my probable death, but after a time I thought of other
things. I made no further attempt to go up on deck; even had I not
promised to stay quietly below, I had not strength enough to climb the
companion-way again.

A few days after we arrived at Marseilles and were carefully
transferred to a large hospital on land. There, I must admit, we
received excellent treatment. Not only were the doctors and the
orderlies kind and attentive, but the ladies of the town were also
extremely good to us. Chaplains also came round the wards frequently,
and, of all the places in which I have ever been, the military hospital
at Marseilles was one of the best. I could thoroughly appreciate the
kindness then, for my health came back quickly from the day I landed
from the hospital ship.

One day when I was allowed to get up and go to a convalescent ward for
a few hours an orderly came into the room, in a great hurry apparently,
and called out my name. I said:

"Here I am. What do you want?"

He replied: "Monsieur le général will be here soon."

"Does he come to tell me that I have been appointed his aide-de-camp?"
I inquired, laughing at my own little joke.

"No, my fine fellow," cried a corporal of some line regiment in a
corner; "he has come to ask you to be so kind as to marry his daughter,
who has a fortune of only one hundred thousand francs."

"Ah," said a cuirassier--I forget his rank, "the request is that our
friend the sergeant-major will consent to act as the general's second
in a duel with the Tsar of Russia."

A chasseur believed that that was not true, as he had learned from a
morning paper that I was to be ambassador to His Holiness the Pope,
"who knows," he went on to say, "how moral and virtuous are the lives
the legionaries lead, they being, in fact, monks in uniform." This
settled the matter; nobody could invent a more improbable--let me say
impossible--reason for the general's visit. I was asked continually
afterwards how the Pope was. Did he still hold the idea of asking
France to give him the sanctified legionaries as a new army? If we went
to Rome, should we have to soldier with the Swiss and other guards?
And a number of other questions were asked, all of which I answered
to the best of my ability, trying in every case to give a "Roland for
an Oliver," and often succeeding. I told the chasseur one day that
the Pope would not take us of the Legion as his guards; he preferred
the chasseurs: by converting them to decent practices he would gain
greater glory in heaven. The cuirassier learned that His Holiness would
soon send him the shield of faith--he already had the breastplate of
caution. The cuirassier did not like this. He indignantly protested
that he would rather fight in his shirt sleeves.

"Very well," I answered. "Do as the Austrians do--take off your cuirass
in time of war."

He asked me how I knew that. I replied: "Easily enough. I have many
Austrian comrades, but I have no French ones. We legionaries are
seemingly in the French army, but not, in real truth, soldiers of it."
Truth to tell, I was getting a little angry, because all wished to
unite against the solitary soldier of the Legion in the room. I let the
rest see that I was tired of their jokes, and afterwards they left me

Well, the general came in a short time into the room and called out my
name and rank. I stepped forward and stood to attention.

"You the sergeant-major?" he asked, in a tone of surprise.

"Yes, sir."

"Why, you are only a boy. How long have you been in the Legion?"

I told him. Then he asked me a number of questions about my service, to
all of which I answered clearly and respectfully.

"You are a young sergeant-major--very young." And he turned to speak
to a surgeon. Both looked at me often during this conversation. I
maintained always the stiff, erect attitude of the soldier in front of
his superior officer.

"You have been recommended for the military medal," at last the general

"Yes, sir; my captain told me that he would recommend me for the

"The recommendation has been confirmed," said the general, "and I have
come to give you the medal. I thought," he went on, "that I should
meet a veteran, and I find a schoolboy."

I said nothing; indeed, I did not know what to say.

"It does not matter about your age or the length of your service," the
general continued; "you have won rank and distinction, and I wish you a
prosperous career."

"Thanks, my general."

"Is there anything you want?"

"Yes, my general."

"What is it?"

"A Little Corporal to lead a schoolboy sergeant-major, that is all."

He drew back and looked at me. A susurrus of approbation went through
the room. Very little more was said. The general gave me the medal that
I had won, paid me a compliment or two, and went away. But the story
went round, and what would be hurtful to a Frenchman, who was at once
soldier and citizen, was a cause of no offence in a legionary, who
was only a soldier. But what I said was liked, and many a present I
received afterwards. The French know that the legionary is a soldier
pure and simple--well, not always pure, and very seldom simple--and
they know that the soldier of the French army who gives up for life
the clothes of the pékin and who dreams of nothing except fighting
and promotion looks on Napoleon the Great as a terrestrial Archangel
Michael. Him would we follow, him would we serve. God grant us
another like him, and then----. And the legionaries understood, and
wished as warmly as any Frenchman for the advent of another ideal
restless man and restless man's idol. The Little Corporal when he
was the great commander was bad, let us admit, to many, but he was
never bad to the man who served him well. It was not birth or wealth
that brought promotion under him but courage and devotion to duty.
True, he made mistakes, and these great ones--the imprisonment of the
Pope, the invasion of the white Tsar's frozen land, the too early
return from Elba were such--but in his mistakes even he was colossal,

It was after this visit and the receipt of the military medal that the
jesting conversations began amongst us. However, I have told of them
already, and there is no use in going back upon a told story. That does
very well in conversation, especially when the glasses are filled and
the pipes going merrily, but in writing it is of no account.

Very soon after this I was strong enough, the surgeons said, to cross
to Algeria. All the men whose acquaintance I had made were good enough
to say that, though they were glad I was able to leave hospital, yet
they were sorry to lose my companionship. I thanked them all, told them
that I had had a pleasant time, and hoped to meet them again. In this I
was sincere. I have very pleasant memories of the hospital, but all the
same I wanted to get back to my own comrades.

Shortly after the surgeons had put my name on the outgoing list I left
the hospital for the troopship. I was brought to Oran, and there sent
again to hospital, but only for a few days. Here I was treated very
well indeed by those in charge, and I made a few casual acquaintances,
whose comradeship helped very much to pass the dreary time of waiting
until the principal surgeon should order me to be sent back to the
regiment. I think they kept me longer than was absolutely necessary,
and this for two reasons--my youth and the military medal. The surgeons
were quite as curious as my hospital companions to hear my story, to
learn all about my country and why I left it to join the Legion, how I
liked the French service, and every other thing that they could think
of. For the first time in my life I was made much of as a man of good
service and tried valour; if I gave somewhat exaggerated accounts of
the perils I had passed who can blame me? There was no sneering now
at the Foreign Legion; oh no! we were in Algeria, _la patrie des

At last the surgeon-in-chief told me that I should soon leave the
hospital. I thanked him for the information, and said that the only
cause of regret at leaving was that I should leave so many good
comrades behind.

"Have you been well treated here, sergeant-major?" he asked.

"Very well, sir; so well that I have lost the simple soldier's fear of
the hospital."

He laughed, and said: "I am glad. Take the advice of a friend, always
seek the surgeon when you are ill or wounded. The old prejudice was, in
its time, a just one; nowadays things are different."

I promised that I would do so. At the same time even to-day I fear the
surgeon's knife more than an enemy's bayonet or sword or even lance,
and the lance is what the infantry man most dreads--that is, of course,
of weapons. However, I have not since the day I left the hospital at
Oran ever been the occupant of a bed in one, and I sincerely hope that
I may never see, as a patient at least, the whitewashed wall of a
hospital again.

From Oran I was sent to the depot at Saida, where I remained for some
time. I did ordinary duty there as sergeant-major of a company of
recruits during the illness of the regular sub-officer, and so learned
a good deal more of my new duties than I knew when leaving Tonquin. I
was very glad of this, especially as the officers were very decent to
me. I was a different man now--a sergeant-major without a moustache but
with the military medal--from the young recruit who was sworn at and
abused every day by the drill instructors. No swearing or abuse now,
only compliments and flirtation and general friendliness. A happy time
indeed, too happy to last, as I learned before I was many months older.

I must now tell about my love and my sorrows and how I came to leave
the Legion for ever. Truly, I cannot say that I am sorry; truly, I
cannot say that I am glad. If the service of the legionary was a
hard service, yet it had its consolations; if you did wrong nobody
minded--that is, so long as you broke only the ten commandments. Of
course, military regulations and the rules of our society were very
different things; the first had to be kept if one did not wish for
punishment, you had to respect the second, or else lose the respect of
your associates, and though boycotting is a comparatively new word yet
it denotes an old and universal practice.

And now to tell of my _grande passion_, its course and its results, the
story of which was at one time, and may be even still, a classic tale
of the Legion.


I left the depot one morning with a large party of recruits for a
battalion in the inland parts of Algeria. We were about a hundred and
eighty strong, and as a lieutenant was the only officer I ranked as
second in command. We had two sergeants and eight or nine corporals
to help to maintain discipline, but the men acted in a very good way
on the march. I can recall no incident worth relating, but I remember
one circumstance that made the march very pleasant. As the lieutenant
had no brother officer to speak to and was naturally talkative, he
had to associate very much with me. It must not be supposed that this
diminished the respect in which I was bound to hold his rank; on the
contrary, since he made the time pass agreeably for me, I felt more
and more disposed to render him all outward signs of honour; and if
I did address him as "my lieutenant" as we marched 20 paces ahead of
the party, when others were within earshot I fell back on the more
respectful "sir." I am sure he noted this, but he said nothing about
it. This officer was a most entertaining talker; he was naturally
clever, had received a good education, and was full of stories of Paris
which were well worth hearing. He saw that I enjoyed his tales of life
there, and thus had the best of all incentives to story-telling--a good
listener. On the other hand, I told him more than he, as an officer,
could learn of the Legion and the men who were in it. I did not trouble
about the Alsatians and Lorrainers, who had enlisted solely to gain
the rights of French citizens, but I let him know the life-history of
more than one of the Russians, Austrians, Germans and Spaniards who
filled our ranks. I did more. I allowed him to see the trend of thought
in the corps; I told him of our traditions, our jealousies, our loves
and our hates; by the time that we arrived at our goal he understood
better than most officers the character of the men whom he would have
under his command. So the lieutenant and the sergeant-major were good

When we came to the battalion at the borders of the Great Desert the
recruits were distributed amongst the companies, the sergeants and
corporals were appointed to sections and squads, the lieutenant took
the place of an officer who had died of fever, and so all were settled
in the new battalion except myself. The commandant did not know what
to do with me; he had enough sub-officers of my rank already, and
yet he did not like to put me to any duties except those of the rank
I held. This was on account of the military medal. If I had not had
that, I should very soon have found myself acting as simple sergeant
of a section. However, a way was found out of the difficulty--a way
which led me into many sorrows--though these I have never regretted,
counterbalanced as they were by so many joys.

There was a woman in the place who kept a canteen. She always
remained with this battalion, and where others might starve she waxed
wealthy--that is, wealthy for a _cantinière_. Her husband had been a
sergeant of the third company. He had fallen fighting bravely in an
obscure skirmish at some desert village, and when he fell he left a
wife and baby daughter to the care of his comrades. The story of the
pair was never fully known. They were Italians, and both of evidently
gentle birth. When I heard about them first I thought of a Romeo and
a Juliet giving up all for love, leaving behind family animosities
with family riches, and seeking security from all search in the safest
retreat in the world--the "legion of the lost ones." All the men saw
and admired the heroic self-sacrifice of the gently-nurtured lady who
left all to follow the chosen one in such a career, and I am proud
to be able to say that during her husband's life and after his death
no man ever said in her hearing anything that would bring a blush to
her cheeks; in her presence even the most hardened rascal put on the
semblance of a gentleman. People say that even the best man has some
fault or imperfection of nature. It may be so. At any rate even the
worst man has some good, some respect for virtue and honour, even
though he possesses them not himself.

After the death of her husband the widow opened a small shop, in which
she sold wine, tobacco, and other things that soldiers spend their
money on. The officers of the battalion stocked this for her, but in
a short time she was able to pay them back, and she insisted on their
accepting the money though they did not at all desire repayment. The
regimental convoys were allowed to bring her goods as she required
them, and the legionaries of her dead husband's battalion loyally spent
most of their scanty pay in her canteen.

Whenever anyone received money from friends or relations in Europe
her stock would be all cleared off at once, and so by the exercise of
a little frugality she was able gradually to put by some money for
the little daughter whom she idolised. At the time when I came to the
battalion this girl was about fifteen years of age, slight, graceful,
lively, bright-eyed, the pet of the battalion. Everyone jested freely
with her, she jested freely with everybody, but no one ever thought of
saying anything which her mother, a model of virtue, would not like to

I had been but two or three days in my new quarters when an alarm of
fire was raised one night, and we all turned out promptly as the cry
went around. There was no danger for us, as the huts were one-storeyed
and did not contain more than a squad each, but there might be some for
the officers, whose quarters were more elaborate, and who, of course,
were more isolated. A dozen or a score of men in a hut will all get
clear, because some at least will be aroused, and these can pull out
their suffocating comrades; a single officer may be smothered in his
bed before even the watchful sentry realises the outbreak. When I
came out of my quarters, in shirt and drawers, I glanced around, and
saw at once that all the cantonment was safe. Then I heard a cry from
the direction of the main guard-house that the village was on fire,
but this was afterwards proved to be false. I flung on my clothes
hurriedly and ran to the guard-house, for I had no assigned place on
the parade that was now rapidly forming on the parade-ground, not being
sergeant-major of any company, and asked the sergeant of the guard
where the fire was.

"Madame's canteen," he replied; "twenty or thirty men have already gone
to put it out."

"May I go to help?" (Of course, though I was of higher rank, he was the
man in charge of the guard, and could prevent me, if he wished, from
going out.)

"Certainly, my sergeant-major."

"Thanks, comrade, thanks." And I ran out and went to the widow's
canteen. There I found the whole a mass of flames, and I saw at a
glance that there was no hope of saving even the smallest portion of
the house or its contents, especially as there was a sad lack of water.
I asked a man if the woman and the girl had been saved. He told me that
the girl had discovered the fire and awakened her mother, that both had
made good their escape, and that then the widow had run back to recover
her little store of money, the hiding-place of which no one else knew.
"Then," he went on, "the daughter tried to go into the blazing house to
bring back her mother, but she was forcibly prevented by some soldiers,
and one or two of the legionaries who tried to enter were driven
back, severely burned, by the fire and smoke." The flames, indeed,
were terrible, all the wine barrels and spirit casks were blazing
fiercely; there was no hope of life for anyone in such a hell. The
poor widow fell a victim to her desire to regain for her daughter the
money she had hoarded with so much anxious care, and nothing remained
of her except a few charred bones, which were reverently gathered up
and decently interred on the morrow. As for the money, it must have
been chiefly in paper, for very little metal could be found in the
ashes, and so the poor daughter was left completely alone in the world,
without relations, at least as far as she knew, without means, and with
only the friendship and the pity of the battalion to look to for aid.

The Italian girl was taken charge of by a sergeant's wife--one of
those few noble women, few, I mean, comparatively speaking, who will
go anywhere with their husbands, and who furnish in the most abandoned
communities examples of unselfish heroism and exalted virtue, which
make even men whose knowledge of the sex is confined to its most
vicious members have some respect for purity and some doubts as to
their favourite axiom: A man may be good, but a woman cannot be. The
officers proposed that she should continue as _cantinière_ in place of
her mother, and generously offered to put her in a position to do so.
As for us sub-officers and simple soldiers, our duty was plain: as soon
as she was in a new home and shop, to go there, and there only, with
the constant copper, the occasional silver, the God-sent gold. She knew
this, the officers knew it; we made no resolutions; and said scarcely
anything about the matter amongst ourselves, but all understood that it
would be bad for the legionary who bought his wine or brandy elsewhere.

The commandant sent for the four sergeant-majors of the companies and
for me, the supernumerary. He asked us how much it would cost to erect
a new house. We said that it would cost nothing; the soldiers would
build one in their spare time.

"Very well, my friends, very well. How much will it cost to put in a
new supply."

We did not answer this at once, but after some time we all agreed that
2000 francs would put in a fairly good stock--that is, if carriage cost

"Oh, the carriage will be settled; I will see to that," said the
commandant. "Now, sergeant-major," he went on, turning to me, "you have
no company whose accounts you must make up, will you undertake to look
after this business for Mademoiselle Julie?"

"I will do my best, sir, in this matter if you wish it."

"That will do," he replied; "you shall be sergeant-major of the canteen
company. Is it not so?"

Every other sergeant-major laughed at me. They were glad that I had
been sent to some duty, for a sergeant-major with the military medal
is not long employed as simple sergeant, and each man, so long as I
was unemployed in my proper rank, would fear for himself and his own
position. Thus I became sergeant-major responsible for a canteen and
the curious crowd assembled there. Some time afterwards, when the new
quarters had been built by the legionaries and the little stock of
_eau-de-vie_, wine, tobacco, and cigars had arrived, there was a grand
opening. All the men had been saving up for awhile, and more than half
the stock was sold at a good profit on the first evening. The girl was
asked to do nothing except to take the money; four men willingly acted
as assistants, pouring out the wine and the _eau-de-vie_, and, indeed,
now and then tasting them too, for "you must not muzzle the ox treading
out the corn," nor ask a man to help others to good things without
occasionally helping himself as well.

One of them took so much brandy that I had to turn him out, a couple
of comrades brought him away to his hut, and nothing was said about
it, as the poor little _cantinière_ begged him off with tears in her
eyes. Just as things were becoming almost too lively the commandant and
the other officers came down and entered the little shop. The first
intimation we inside had of their arrival was the silence of the men
who were laughing, singing, and carousing outside. The commandant put
down a couple of gold pieces and asked for two bottles of wine. He and
the others took each a sip of this and wished mademoiselle a prosperous
business. Then the commandant gave me a strong hint that enough of
business had been done for that day, and I promptly shut up shop after
his departure. When all had left Giulia and I counted the money. We
had a little gold, a good deal of silver, and a great quantity of
copper--altogether over fourteen hundred francs. I congratulated her
upon the successful evening's trading, and then we went to reckon up
the supply still left. We found that at the same rate of sale the
two thousand francs would be changed into at least two thousand six
hundred, and that surely was excellent profit in an out-of-the-way camp
of legionaries where money was rather scarce.

Then Giulia asked me to take a glass of wine and a cigar. I did not
refuse. What legionary, what man, indeed, would, when pressed by so
lovely a girl? Of late I had seen her constantly, as my management
of her affairs and my continual reports about the progress of her
new house brought me daily into her society. We always got on well
together--fifteen and seventeen don't usually fall out--and my rank and
medal brought me favour in her eyes. Moreover, I was very respectful in
my words and demeanour. I pitied her misfortune, and my pity was not
lessened by the sight of her beauty, and, before I had been three days
attending to her affairs, I took more interest in them than I could by
any chance take in the accounts of a company. We were very good friends
and companions, but there was not a hint, not a suspicion, of love
on either side. She was pretty and in trouble, and, therefore, had my
sympathy. I was kind and attentive to her, and she was grateful. _Voilà

Before I drank the wine I made her put her lips to the glass, which she
did, prettily and with a blush.

"You must never ask me to do that again," she said.

"Why, it is the custom of the Legion, ma camarade," I replied. "You are
now a legionary; surely you will do as your good comrades do?"

"Well, at least not in the presence of others."

"Very well," I answered; "but always when we are alone?"

"Yes," she whispered; "when we are alone. I trust you." And she put her
little hand out to me. I took it, and by a sudden impulse kissed it.

"You may always trust me," I said--"always."

A question now arose as to the disposal of the money. There was no
danger from natives, as the new house was inside the lines; there was
not much, indeed, from soldiers, as there were sentries near. At the
same time I told Giulia that it would be safer to transfer it to some
other place. "Can you not," I suggested, "take it to the woman in whose
quarters you live?"

"No, no," she replied; "I will take some to give to her--she has been
very good to me--but you are in charge, you must keep the greater part."

"I?" I said in astonishment.

"Yes; if you do not, I will leave it here."

"But, Mademoiselle Julie, there are very bad men in every battalion,
and someone may break in and steal all."

"Let the sentinels keep watch."

"Ah! a sentinel may be glad to get half."

"I do not care; you are my sergeant-major"--as she said this a rosy
flush came up over neck and face and ears--"and it is your duty to keep
my money for me. Besides, did I not say that I trust you?"

In the end I had to take twelve hundred francs, though with many
misgivings. Giulia told me that she would give two hundred to the
sergeant's wife, the rest she would keep herself. Then we locked up
the place and departed to our separate quarters, after having made an
appointment to meet in the morning, to inspect the stores and see if
anything had been touched during the night. Giulia wanted me to take
the keys as well as the money, but this I refused to do.

I could scarcely sleep that night on account of the money. I occupied
a small room in a long, low-roofed building, given up to the
accommodation of sergeants whose domestic arrangements did not include
a woman. I barricaded the door, put a glass on the window, so that
anyone trying to enter that way might knock it down on a tin basin
placed just below, and put a naked bayonet and the box containing the
money under my pillow. For all these precautions I spent a wakeful
night, and rose in the morning, restless, anxious, and unrefreshed.
After the morning coffee I felt better, and laughed to myself at my
fears of the night. Who would take the money? surely not one of the
sergeants. I did not, I could not, suspect them, but I certainly should
not like to trust every man in the battalion; the Legion contains more
than a due percentage of desperate ruffians, and our battalion had its
fair share of the bad ones.

As I went across the parade-ground to keep my appointment with Giulia
at the door of the canteen I met the captain of my company, or at least
of the company to which I was attached, though I seldom paraded with
it. He noticed the box and asked me what it contained. When I told him
he laughed, and said that many a man would be pleased to be so trusted,
especially by so beautiful a girl as Mademoiselle la Cantinière. I
answered that the trust was pleasant but the responsibility too great;
I did not wish to have the safe keeping of twelve hundred francs.
"You cannot help it now, my sergeant-major of the canteen, you must
undertake all the duties of your position." Then he told me to present
his compliments to Mademoiselle Julie, and went away.

I met Giulia at the door. She looked annoyed at having to wait, but
when I made her acquainted with the delay caused by meeting the captain
her face cleared.

"I thought, mon ami," she said, "that you had forgotten your duty."

"That might be possible; but, Mademoiselle Julie, how could I forget

She curtsied at the compliment, and I noticed the grace of her figure,
the beauty of its curves, the wonderful arch of the instep; and I
must have looked my admiration, for when she lifted her eyes to meet
mine, again the rosy flush came up over her neck and cheeks. "Let us
see that all is right within," she said, and opened the door. When we
were inside we saw at a glance that everything was as we had left it
on the previous evening. "Now let us count the money," I said. In a
second Giulia flew into a rage, she stamped her foot upon the ground,
she cried out that I wished to insult her, that I thought her mean
and suspicious, and finally burst into tears. I laid my hand upon her
arm and wished to know what had vexed her; she flung it off with an
indignant gesture and bade me go away. I was thunderstruck. I could
not tell how I had offended, and was beginning to feel aggrieved. Why
should I be told that I had insulted her whom I would not pain for
all the world? The more I thought of my conduct towards her, the less
reason I could see for her anger and tears. I was wise enough, however,
to let her have her cry out: when she had done with weeping she would
be reasonable. I was not mistaken.

When she had dried her tears, I asked how I had offended her. She
looked, calmly enough now, at me, and said: "Did I not tell you
yesterday that I trusted you?"

"Yes," I replied.

"And yet to-day you ask that I should count the money. How can I do so
and trust?"

I took off my kepi, bowed, and said: "Pardon me, I was wrong."

"You will never offend me again?"

"Never. And you, you will forgive?"

"Yes; once, but not a second time."

Again she gave me her hand, again I kissed it, then she put her hands
upon my shoulders, and said: "My dear friend, if I did not trust you
more than you think, I would not be alone with you here."

She asked me to take a glass of wine, voluntarily put the glass to her
lips, and then handed it to me. I deliberately turned it round, so
that my lips should touch where hers had touched, and drained it to
the bottom, looking the while over it at Giulia. She smiled and looked
pleased, and then turned away to get some cigars. I had more sense than
to offer money. I took the cigars, and said:

"You are a good comrade, Giulia."

It was the first time I had called her by her name. She hesitated a
little, and then answered:

"And you too, you will be a good comrade, will you not, Jean?"

"Oui, ma belle." And I bit off the end of a cigar, while she struck a
match to light it for me.

Just as I began to smoke there came a knock at the door. I shouted out
"Entrez," and the commandant came in. I put down the cigar and stood to

"Everything goes well, is it not?" he asked.

"Yes, monsieur le commandant," Giulia replied; "I can soon repay some
of the money advanced by you and the other officers."

"No, my child," the commandant said; "you are the daughter of the
regiment now. The battalion must be father and mother to you; we cannot
accept repayment."

"But my mother paid back the money given to her by the officers."

"Yes, my dear child; but your mother was not born in the regiment,
and though we lent to her we give to you. We gave it, indeed, and did
not expect to be repaid. I was a sub-lieutenant then, and I remember
all. She insisted, and we were compelled to accept. With you it is
different; we will insist, and you must not refuse. How do you like the
sergeant-major of the canteen?" he went on. We all laughed at the queer
title; no one had ever heard of such a rank.

"Very well, monsieur le commandant."

"Yes, yes; I think he will be good; if he is not, tell me." With that
he went away.

"I must be good, Giulia?" I said, as I lit the cigar again.

"Yes; very good, my comrade; you must never offend me again."

"Ah! you do not forget--perhaps you will never forget--and then, what
is the good of being forgiven?"

"I will forget; yes, I will never remember, unless you force me to."

I promised that I should never offend her again, and she smiled and
said that she believed me.

"Nobody will enter here during the day," I told her, "and I will leave
the box here; if I do not I must carry it everywhere with me, and that
will be inconvenient."

Giulia asked me why I should carry it about with me, and I told her
that I should have no peace or ease of mind while it was out of my
sight unless it was in the canteen, which was near so many sentinels.
I also mentioned my fears for its safety the previous night and the
precautions that I had taken. She was very sorry that I had been so
restless, and advised me to leave it in future in the canteen. To this
I demurred. I told her that if the box were there, I should be getting
up at all hours of the night to come and look at the place, and perhaps
I might be shot by a sentry. "But can we not find a hiding-place--some
place that nobody could find even in broad daylight?" The idea struck
me as a good one. We searched in all directions, and finally decided on
an empty box half-full of straw that had contained bottles. By leaving
this, of course, without the money, in full view of everybody during
the day, no man who might enter at night would dream of searching it.
Then I proposed that we should put only the money there every evening
and that I should take away the empty box.

"No, my friend, you shall not. Something might happen if the bad ones
thought that the box was full; better lose the money than a good
friend's life."

"As it pleases you, my comrade; I will obey orders, then I cannot

That evening the canteen did a good trade, so good, indeed, that
we--that is, Giulia and I--determined on sending for more wine and
_eau-de-vie_. I went to the commandant in the morning and told him how
affairs stood. He was glad to hear my report, and ordered me to make
out the order and give it to him to be forwarded. I brought him the
written order to a merchant in Oran and handed over eighteen hundred
francs in cash. He had the money counted by a clerk, and then told me
that he would see that Mademoiselle Julie's order and money were safely
transmitted. I saluted and went away.

As day after day passed Giulia and I became all the better friends. We
openly showed our liking for each other. We were constantly meeting,
sometimes by accident it is true, but oftener by unexpressed design,
and, whenever we met, we always stopped to speak. I, being unattached
to any company for battalion duties, had plenty of time on my hands;
Giulia, of course, had nothing to do until evening, as I took good care
that her place was swept and cleaned every morning by legionaries,
who were only too glad to do this work for a glass of brandy and an
ounce of tobacco apiece; thus we, as it were, could not help meeting
so frequently. The others noticed and said nothing; it was tacitly
understood at the time through the battalion that we were lovers, and
yet we had never even spoken of love, and I had kissed her hand only
twice. We were happy together, and that, for the moment, was enough for


When Giulia and I met next morning at the canteen we found money and
goods untouched. She did not ask me to take a glass of wine this time
but filled it out, put it to her lips, and gave it to me. I drank the
wine, lit a cigar, and asked her if she had any orders. We laughed at
this, then she in her pretty way insisted that I was the sub-officer
in charge and that her duty was to listen and obey, mine to command.
I objected, saying that the lady's wishes had to be considered first.
A good deal of harmless chat followed. I smoked the cigar, she deftly
rolled a cigarette and lit it from my cigar, our faces were close
together, and I told her it was well that cigarette and cigar were
between us and also kept our lips engaged. But this was all fun, we
had nothing to do; the men of the battalion, at least three companies
of them, were out marching with knapsacks and pouches full, the fourth
company was up to its eyes in work, some on guard, some cooking, some
doing the necessary duties of a camp; I honestly believe that we two
were the only idle, careless ones in the cantonment.

As she flung away the end of a cigarette she said: "I have resolved to
live here after a few days."

"What!" I cried, "you to stay here alone, beautiful and with money?"

She smiled back, as it were triumphantly, and replied:

"Why not?"

"But you are beautiful."

"Thanks, my comrade."

"And there will always be money in the house."

"It is true."

"And beauty and money, what will they not tempt men to do?"

"I shall have a protector."

This was a blow to me, and she must have seen it, for she said quickly,
putting her hand on my arm, that the sergeant and his wife whom she had
been staying with since her mother's death would keep house for her.

"Oh," I cried, "I am so glad and I was so sorry."

"I trust you, Jean," she answered; "will you not trust me?" I was not
allowed to reply; she put a pretty finger on my lips, and said:

"Yes, I know you trust me; why say to me what I know?"

What pleasant days we had together! What fun and jesting and pretended
rebukes! When the sergeant and his wife were installed in one of the
rooms over the canteen, I used to stay until the call went for "Out
lights," and then I groped my way in the darkness back to my quarters,
challenged by every sentry on the road. Soon the battalion got to
understand that _le jeune_ was always to be found going to his quarters
at a certain hour, and the sentries used to look out especially for me.
I, of course, had to answer their challenges and to give my reason for
being out at night. I always said:

"Visiting Sergeant M----." As I passed the scoundrels used to say:
"Sergeant M----, is he married? Has Madame M---- a friend at her
house?" And I dared not say anything in reply, because if I did all the
battalion would be laughing at me and somebody else next day.

You must not think that the men wished to hurt anyone's feelings. No;
bad as they were, forgetful as they were of the ten commandments,
they had no intention, not even the slightest, of offending Giulia or
me. Giulia was the pet. Many envied me, I am sure, but they envied me
because they thought things; had they known that Giulia and I were
merely good friends, good comrades, and that no word of love had ever
been said by either of us they would have laughed, and said: "Oh, boy
and girl to-day, lover and mistress to-morrow," but that was because,
with a lingering taste for good, they had quite given up expecting it
here or hereafter. One thing I must say, the legionaries were very
quiet in the canteen. They called for their drinks and went outside at
once, and there smoked, drank, and sang as best pleased each. Sometimes
a man would have no money and would wish for a drink in the morning or
a pipeful of tobacco at night. He came to me, and said:

"I want it, my sergeant-major; will you give it me?"

"I can't give it," I used to say, "but I'll ask for it for you, and if
you don't pay when you have money I shall have to pay instead and I'll
never ask for you again."

They did not always pay, but that was because a man's money was
stopped--he was in hospital, perhaps, or in jail--but Giulia and I
never minded that; the men who could pay did.

To say the truth, no battalion in the world was so good or so
comfortable as ours at that time. The men never drank out of the lines,
therefore those who went too far could be easily carried away to bed.
There was very little fighting, for no man, indeed, would strike a blow
in Mademoiselle Julie's canteen, and if a blow is not struck soon,
soldiers forgive and forget easily; moreover, if a man had no money he
could get his bit of tobacco and, perhaps, his glass of _eau-de-vie_
without begging for it. Giulia never wrote down the name of a man she
gave credit to; she said always: "It is not my honour, but yours, that
is at stake." That phrase with us was worth all the ledgers in the

One evening I was sitting on the edge of the counter talking about
something or other to a corporal who had dropped in for a glass of
wine and had asked me to join him in the drink. In spite of the
difference in rank I consented, for I knew quite well that the social
position that the corporal used to hold was very much higher than my
own; as a matter of fact, the man had at one time a commission in the
British army, and his father draws to this very day a big pension
from the British Government But that is by the way. As we chatted
Giulia listened and was interested; we spoke of some affairs of the
battalion, and Giulia knew as much as we did of such things. We three
were the only persons in the canteen. I had just told Giulia to refill
the glasses, and she was about doing so when a man entered, a simple
soldier. I did not know him at the time; I found out afterwards
that he was a Hessian and bore the reputation of being taciturn and
unsociable, thereby rendering himself an object of dislike to all. He
called for a glass of brandy and drank it, then for another, which he
sipped slowly, and tried to enter into conversation with Giulia. The
corporal and I resumed the conversation interrupted by the Hessian's
entrance, and Giulia evidently preferred to listen to us rather than
to the new-comer. As he noted this he became rather angry, and made
some remark about his money being as good as another's, and that
canteen girls should be obliging to all customers. Giulia, who had a
hot temper, told him at once to finish his drink and to take himself
and his money elsewhere. The Hessian drank his brandy, and as he was
leaving said that she knew the difference between a simple soldier
and a sergeant-major, and if someone had no chevrons on his sleeve he
would soon be taught that it was unmannerly to sit on a counter in the
presence of a lady. My temper had been gradually rising and this was
too much for me. I jumped down from the counter, took off my belt and
bayonet, which I handed to Giulia, stripped off my tunic, and told the
scamp that there were no chevrons on my shirt. He was astonished, and
almost before he could put himself on his defence I had given him in
quick succession right and left fists in the eyes. I followed up the
attack vigorously, and in less than three minutes all the insolence
was taken out of him and he begged for mercy. Then I kicked him out of
the canteen and told him never again to enter it, put on my tunic and
sat down, this time on a chair.

"I must apologise," I said to Giulia; "I should not have sat on
the counter; in one sense he was right. I will not ask pardon for
quarrelling, for he offended you too."

"You may sit where you like, my sergeant-major," Giulia replied; "I
shall not be offended."

"But I should not sit on the counter."

"Sit where you wish," she repeated; "I shall be satisfied."

"Même sur vos genoux, mademoiselle," said the English corporal, with a
smile. Giulia blushed, laughed, and shook her head.

I may finish here about the Hessian. The story was told by him that I
had committed an unprovoked assault When the commandant heard this,
he sent for me. I told the truth, and my version of the affair was
corroborated by Giulia and the corporal. The commandant would take no
official notice of the affair, but he privately admonished me that it
was very wrong to take off my belt and tunic. "You should not have
undressed, even partially," he said, "in the presence of a lady and an
inferior." But he gave me no blame for the beating I gave the Hessian.

Here I must explain the military meaning of being undressed. If a
man is on duty and wearing a belt and bayonet, he is undressed if he
takes them off. Should he be supposed to wear white trousers and white
gaiters, he is undressed if he wears red trousers with black leggings.
So one can understand that, when the commandant admonished me for being
undressed in the presence of Giulia and the corporal, he referred
quite as much to the taking off of my belt and bayonet as he did to
the taking off of my coat. Soldiers have to be very particular about
their clothing and equipments; this is quite right, as it tends to good
discipline and order.

When the canteen closed for the evening Giulia and I smoked our
cigarettes as usual, while I sipped my glass of wine. We were
rather silent, for I was thinking of the quarrel and its probable
consequences; what Giulia thought of I cannot tell. At last I finished
my cigarette, carefully extinguished the end for fear of fire, and
drained my glass. I rose to go. Instead of shaking hands with me across
the counter--for she had been sitting inside all the time, whilst I
occupied a seat outside--Giulia came round to where I was and for the
first time asked me what I thought would happen.

"Oh, nothing, nothing," I replied; "what can happen? I had to do as I
did; I surely could not allow any man to misconduct himself here?"

"Yes, yes; but you took off your belt and tunic."

"Oh, that will never be mentioned; why should the scoundrel talk of

"Yes; but he will talk of it, and there will be trouble--trouble for
you on my account."

"Well, if there is to be trouble for me I shall not mind it, since it
will be on your account; were it on account of any other I should be

"But you may lose your rank," she insisted.

"I shall not mind, so long as they leave me on duty in the canteen."

"But they may not leave you here; another may come."

"That is true," I answered, "and that is the only thing I am afraid of."

"You would like to stay here with me?" said Giulia, blushing as she

"Always, always with you," I replied, and, putting my kepi on the
counter, I took her in my arms and kissed her full upon the lips.

Then we forgot all about the Hessian and thought only about ourselves.
I have no mind to write all about our love story; people who have loved
will understand, and those poor wretches who have never known what it
is to love passionately and to be as passionately loved could never
comprehend, were I to write till Doomsday about Giulia and myself.

At last the time came for parting. Giulia told me that she should not
sleep for thinking of what might happen as a result of the quarrel, but
I succeeded in calming her fears. "Trust me," I told her; "I took the
wisest course, though I did not think of that at the time. If I had
allowed the rascal to go away unpunished, the commandant would call me
a coward and say that I was unworthy to wear the military medal, and
all the officers and men would agree with him. Now the worst that can
be said is that I lost my temper and forgot my rank. Even that too will
be pardoned, since they will easily see that I could not allow myself
to be insulted in your presence without taking instant vengeance for
the affront." She grew more composed as I spoke, and I felt more at
ease; in comforting Giulia I comforted myself.

I did not get the message that the commandant wished to see me until
about three o'clock in the afternoon of the next day. All the morning I
had enough to do to prevent Giulia from breaking down; her eyes showed
that she had spent a restless night, a night of tears, but as the
morning wore on she almost forgot her anxiety in my cheering words and
more than cheering kisses. When a sergeant told me that I was wanted at
the officers' quarters Giulia broke down completely. I kissed her once
more, bade her be of good courage, and gave her over to the sergeant's
wife, whose kindness and tender sympathy were of inestimable value to
us both. The sergeant's wife was a good woman and deserved a better
fate than that which was her lot afterwards; but then, what will you?
It is only the good who suffer in this world; the bad are always to be
found at the top of the wheel.

Well, the commandant received me as I have already told, and after a
kind admonition--how kind these officers that men fear so much can be
when they like!--sent me away. I saluted, turned, walked a pace or
two, and then set off running at the top of my speed to the canteen. I
burst in the door, ran up the stairs, taking three steps at a time, and
bounded with a loud cry of joy into the room where Giulia was weeping.
I could say nothing, nothing intelligible at all events, but Giulia
understood. So did the sergeant's wife, for she discreetly went away
and left us to ourselves and our happiness.

Things went on badly for the Hessian. He was always an ill-liked
comrade, but this last affair was too bad indeed. All sympathised with
Giulia and myself, and the sympathy was not merely on account of the
chance a man had of getting tobacco and a glass of spirits when his
pockets were empty. Oh no; the legionaries were glad that they could
get a little credit, but then they always paid--that is, all paid
except the poor devils whose money was stopped for some reason or
other--and they were pleased with the canteen, pleased with Giulia, who
had been born in the battalion, and I think they were not discontented
on account of my position, for was not I a legionary like themselves?
So the Hessian was not spoken to, or only spoken to to be cursed; if
he replied he was beaten; if he complained, there were plenty to prove
that he was a bad comrade and that it was impossible to soldier with
him, and, unfortunately for himself, he had been known as an unsociable
fellow for a long time. The end was that he volunteered for Tonquin,
where there were some of ours still, and his captain was by no means
sorry to be rid of him, for one can never know what may occur when a
man is deservedly unpopular in the Legion and has not grace or tact
enough to get back to favour with his comrades.

As for Giulia and me, life was idyllic. We did not mind the laughing
jests of our comrades; they never went too far. There was a leaven of
the gentleman in the battalion, and this leaven leavened all the mass.
Then the really bad ones were afraid; the example of the Hessian was
too fresh in their minds. But, indeed, all were kind and agreeable.
That Giulia and I should be lovers had been obvious to all others long
before we ourselves thought of being such to one another, and when
the legionaries noticed that she lived for me alone, just as all my
thoughts were alone hers, they kept their coarse jokes to themselves
and were as polite to us as if we were far higher than they in social
position. Some of the songs were not of a moral kind, but as the
evening concert always took place outside the canteen Giulia was not
supposed to hear, and, indeed, when she did hear she did not always
understand. When she did comprehend she said nothing; one cannot be a
_cantinière_ in the Legion and a prude.

At this time Giulia and I were always together. Certainly while the
canteen was open I was outside the counter, often making one of a
party of sergeants who came to drink in comrade-like fashion with one
another; at other times merely going around to see that there was no
disorder--well, no more disorder and abandonment than are reasonable
in a canteen where belts are off and tongues wag freely. I very seldom
had any trouble, most of the legionaries kept within bounds, and those
who felt disposed to give a loose rein to the desire of ardent spirits
were prevented from doing so by a constant lack of money. Sometimes,
however, when some Russian or Prussian or Austrian had received money
from Europe there was a little danger of a free fight, and I, who had
been in the encounter at Three Fountains, did not like these things.
I had told Giulia about that trouble and she was just as concerned as
I, but she was concerned for my safety and my rank, while I was anxious
about her shop and herself. Any man can start a row--oh, it is quite
easy, I assure you--but it is not every man that can stop one. Besides,
I remembered how the huts were torn down at Three Fountains and the
Russian's advice to the old soldier sutler: "Take your goods and madame
away." The advice about madame seemed especially applicable to Giulia,
and yet I knew she would stay by me, and it was my duty to stay by the

One day the English corporal whom I have mentioned came to the canteen
and asked Giulia to take care of some money for him. Giulia refused
point-blank, but said that he might speak to me. When I learned what
he wished me to do I at once saw the reasonableness of the request,
inasmuch as no man would like to keep so large a sum of money as
the corporal had in his own possession in a hut. The Englishman had
just received from home a Bank of England note for £100, and many a
simple soldier would kill him for such a sum. But, one may object,
how negociate such a billet in such a place? Oh, no one could do that
except the owner, or someone like Giulia, who would change it for
him in the regular way of business; but many a man was nearing the
end of his five years' service, and a Bank of England note could be
easily hidden for a time and in the end changed in Paris. One hundred
pounds!--twenty-five hundred francs!--why, it was a fortune.

I said that I would take the note and give him a receipt for it, and
that, as he drew money from Mademoiselle Julie, he could give receipts
until the full amount was withdrawn. He thanked me, gave me the note,
took a receipt, and immediately applied to Giulia in my presence for
a hundred francs. She gave him the money at my request and he gave me
an acknowledgment. That evening his squad was merry; he had given
them fifty francs to spend, the other fifty he spent with his brother

On the following day he asked me about the stock in the canteen. I told
him that there was not at the time enough to justify him in giving a
spree to a section, but that in less than a week he could stand treat
to the battalion if he liked.

"Oh no; not the battalion, only the company."

"I understand," said I; "I know that you cannot go outside your own
company, but I spoke of the battalion merely to show you Mademoiselle
Julie's resources."

"I see," the corporal replied; "well, tell me when you are ready, and
my comrades shall enjoy an evening's carouse."

Let me now tell about the money. Of course, it was Giulia's, not
mine, and she kept it in her money box, which was snugly hidden in
her own room in a place that no one knew of except ourselves. Even
the sergeant's wife did not know it. She never entered Giulia's room
except on invitation. Giulia herself kept the place as it ought to be,
sweeping it, dusting the furniture, and having everything as neat and
clean as it could be in a palace. Once a week she gave me the key. I
went there with a couple of privates--of course, she then took the box
away--the legionaries with me removed everything to another place and
washed out the room and left it with windows and door open for a couple
of hours. They then returned, replaced the furniture, got a couple of
drinks, a couple of cigars and a franc, and went away satisfied. But
this is mere domestic economy.

Giulia also kept the receipt for the hundred francs. But, one will say,
why not transact the business without troubling me? Well, the amount
was so large and the money was so strange that she wished me to settle
everything for her, as I was, in her opinion, the one man in the world
who knew everything and was always right. Again, she knew how much I
prized her trust, and so was glad to pay me a delicate compliment.
Moreover, we were so closely united to each other now that it would
seem to so gentle and confiding, yet high-spirited a girl as she was
a breach of faith for her to engage in such a transaction without my
knowledge and consent. Yet when I asked Giulia why she had not taken
the money from the corporal at once, she only answered: "I don't know;
but I would not." Then she kissed me, and said: "I will never take
anything, unless you know about it and are satisfied."

What a sum of happiness the events, even the very words, of our lives
made at this time! Ah, well! the sum was soon to be added up, and the
total not exceeded, for ever.

About five days after my last conversation with the English corporal
the new stock arrived. It had cost altogether about two thousand
francs, and we--that is, Guilia and I--were sure to make at least five
or six hundred francs profit. When we ordered the stuff we expected
that it would last for some time, but now, knowing the corporal's
resources and intention, we settled that it would all be sold within a
week. We were not disappointed; in fact, the day after it arrived we
had to send an order for a similar quantity to our agent at Oran.

"I see that the new goods have arrived," said the Englishman to me as I
met him on the parade-ground.

"Yes," I replied. "I have been looking for you. If you tell me now how
much you want I can get it, and you can write out the receipt."

"Thanks, my sergeant-major; but you are a man of experience in these
things. You were at Three Fountains; is it not so?"

"Yes," I answered, laughing.

"Then will you tell me how much I ought to have for the entertainment
of my company?"

"Oh, five hundred francs will do well, but seven or eight hundred will
really be a generous amount to spend."

"Let me be very generous then; get me a thousand."

"Very well; but remember there will be change left. Let your squad
understand that they will have the spending of that, so shall you have
sentries guarding your sleep."

"You are right, my sergeant-major, you are right; I am obliged to you
for the hint. Will not Mademoiselle Julie give us a glass of wine, so
that we may clink our glasses together?"

"Oh, certainly. Nobody amongst the officers troubles about the canteen.
One can generally get a glass of _eau-de-vie_ or _vin ordinaire_ at any
reasonable hour. The commandant knows that no man is given more than he
can safely bear, and what is the use of being strict in such a place as

The corporal knew this. If a man wanted a drink at any hour when the
canteen was supposed to be shut, he could speak to me and I could get
it for him. He did not, however, enter the canteen; he had to take it,
and that quickly, at a window at the back. As a rule, men only wanted a
glass of brandy in the morning--about half-a-dozen at most; these were
the men who had had too much drink the evening before and who possessed
or borrowed the necessary coppers in the morning.

As the English corporal and I took our drinks together at the little
window, I told him the true story of Three Fountains. Giulia listened
with interest, though she had heard all about it before. Once I asked
her to refill the glasses. She said: "Do not continue until I return; I
wish to hear it all again." Of course, I waited for her return and then
proceeded with my tale. When I had finished, I said that I hoped there
would not be any such work here.

"Oh no," replied the corporal; "not if I can help it."

"You must not make them drunk," said Giulia.

"No, no, Madame Julie; I give you my word of honour."

It was the first time that she had been addressed as madame. She
blushed a rosy red, turned her head aside for a moment, and gave me one
swift glance of----Oh, I knew well what it meant and how it pleased me,
but I will say no more. The corporal was a gentleman and went away at
once. He finished his drink, raised his kepi, and said adieu.

There was a good deal of boisterous mirth that evening at the canteen
and around it. A couple of men did strike each other, but before any
serious damage was done, I had both under guard and on the road to the
guard-room. The rest took the hint; they saw that fighting meant loss
of the drink and fun of the evening, and a night in the guard-room
and punishment in the morning. A few men who were evidently overcome,
or nearly so, by the effects of the liquor were carried away to bed
by their comrades, and, taken all in all, the evening passed away
satisfactorily. Next morning, however, nearly a hundred men turned up
for _eau-de-vie_, and all had money. The corporal had been judiciously
generous; everyone was pleased.

The Englishman gave one more spree, three nights after, to his company,
but this second one did not cost him more than four hundred francs.
Then he spent two hundred francs one evening with his section; what was
left was kept for his squad. In acting as he did he followed the custom
of the Legion, but I have already said enough about that.

As he was drawing the last fifty francs I said to him in Giulia's

"Monsieur le caporal, you have spent your money as it should be spent,
but it may be a long time until you are rich again. Do not hesitate
if you want a litre of wine or some brandy or tobacco and have no
money. There has been a great profit in a short time; whenever you feel
inclined come and have your share of it."

"Yes," said Giulia; "you will be always welcome, whether your pockets
are full or empty."

"I thank you both," the Englishman replied, "and I like and respect you
too much not to take advantage now and then of your generous offer."

"Come as often as you like," I said; "you will always find a welcome,
and that not merely on account of the profit."

"Yes," said Giulia; "that is true."

"I will come," the corporal answered, "but not very often; such a
welcome is too good to be worn out." He lifted his kepi to Giulia,
bowed, and went away.

He did not come very often without money, only now and then, as he had
said, but, you see, he was very proud.


Soon afterwards some important changes took place in the battalion.
We were ordered to prepare a draft of four hundred officers and men
for the East, and in lieu of these we received a corresponding number
of recruits and veterans sent home. The changes in the officers were
many, for, in addition to those who went as a matter of course with
the draft, others volunteered for foreign service and were accepted.
As far as I was concerned, the officer most to be regretted was the
adjutant. The man who went was always kind and had ever a pleasant word
for Giulia and for me; the one who replaced him was destined to be our
greatest enemy. We could not guess this at the time, and naturally
thought that all things would go on as usual, but it was not long
before we were cruelly undeceived.

The new adjutant was a stout, thick-set man of about thirty-five years.
He had seen a good deal of service both in Algeria and Tonquin, and was
undoubtedly a very smart soldier and a most capable man for performing
the duties of his rank. That is all one can say in his favour. He
was harsh, even tyrannical; he never spared a man's feelings, and
his tongue could cut like a whip-lash. All the legionaries, from
sergeant-major down to simple soldier, feared and hated him; before he
had been in the battalion a fortnight we, who had been the most joyous
and careless fellows on earth, every man pleased with himself and with
his comrades, became the most sullen and dogged lot in the world. There
was just as much drinking as ever, but the singing, the _camaraderie_,
the easy give-and-take feeling that used to prevail, were all gone.
Moreover, the men drank more brandy and less wine, and, as I pointed
this out to Giulia, I said:

"Carissima, there will be bad work soon; somebody's blood will flow,
and then there will be an execution."

She shuddered as she replied: "How I wish that that bad man were sent
away! Before he came we were all happy, now I, even I, am gloomy and
troubled; I am oppressed by some foreboding that I cannot understand."

I could enter into her feelings, for I too had anxious thoughts, not
for Giulia or myself, indeed, but for the other legionaries. I felt
that an outbreak of some kind would occur, but the chief trouble was
to persuade myself that it would be merely a rash act on the part of
one man, who would free all from tyranny and take the punishment by
himself, but as the days wore on I, who knew the Legion by heart,
could see that there was a far greater chance of a number of men being
concerned in the _émeute_. One thing delayed action, the newcomers and
the rest had not sufficiently fraternised--four hundred strangers are
too many for any battalion to assimilate quickly.

One morning half-a-dozen men were having a nip of brandy each at a
little window at the back of the canteen; I was standing a little
apart, and Giulia was passing out the glasses. Suddenly the new
adjutant came round the corner and sternly asked the meaning of giving
out drink at such an hour. Nobody could reply. We all knew that the
commandant winked at the business, we all knew too that the canteen
should not be open at that time, but then no harm had ever come of it,
no man ever got more that one _petite verre_, and surely that would
rather help a man than hurt him if he wanted it. But how could I, the
one chiefly addressed, say all that? Oh no; I had to be silent and
take my abuse as best I could, and truly the adjutant was abusive. He
was still speaking like a brute when Giulia, with flushed cheeks and
sparkling eyes, broke in, and said:

"The sergeant-major has nothing to do with it, it is I alone who am to

The adjutant saluted her politely and replied that he understood that
I was in military charge of the canteen, but, even had I nothing to
do with it, I was acting in a most disgraceful fashion when I allowed
these pigs to get drunk so early in the morning.

"The soldiers are not pigs," answered Giulia, "and they are not drunk;
no man ever gets more than a _petite verre_ at this hour."

"Then it is usual to supply drink so soon," the scoundrel said; "ah!
the commandant must hear of this."

Then he took my belt and bayonet and sent me to my own room, to remain
there under arrest; as for the others, he merely wrote down their names
and ordered them away. When they had gone--it was long afterwards that
I learnt this--he tried to begin a conversation with Giulia, but he had
scarcely uttered an endearing word when she put down the window and
walked away. She was right, and the scoundrel was wrong, but he made
her and me suffer for it.

Just as I was expecting my morning coffee, I heard a tap at the door,
and cried "Come in." Giulia entered carrying a tray with coffee and
rolls and butter. I took the tray from her and put it on the floor.
There was no table, of course; in a bachelor sergeant's room nothing,
indeed, but the camp-bed and a shelf or two for my equipments. Then I
kissed her, and said:

"You spoke bravely this morning; I am glad of it I should like to say
what you said, but they would punish me."

"Are you pleased?" she asked.

"Yes, carissima mia; and all the battalion will be pleased when they
hear about it."

"I do not care about the battalion if you are content."

"Yes, yes, ma belle; I am very content. Is he not a rascal?"

"Oh," said Giulia, "I hate him; all the trouble comes from him;
somebody must kill him or we shall never again have peace."

"Somebody will kill him," I answered; "you may rest assured of that."

"But not you, not you," she cried; "promise me, not you."

"Certainly not," I replied; "why should I kill him when there are so
many others who have more grievances than I? Moreover, I have no desire
to be shot; I am too happy here with you to wish to leave you. Heaven
for me is here."

She was satisfied with this, and insisted on my tasting the coffee.

"Is it nice?" she asked.

I smiled, and said that it was very nice.

"Does it taste well?"

"Oh yes; I never drank any coffee I liked so well."

The truth is, Giulia had put a glass of _eau-de-vie_ into the coffee,
and I felt that I wanted it after the scene in the morning. How kind,
how thoughtful she was! I told her so over and over again before she
left, and when she did go, she said with a pretty way of command that
she had:

"Expect me in an hour, and do not lose your temper with anyone until I
come back; there is trouble enough already."

I promised and she went away.

Giulia, as she had promised, came back in an hour. She brought me a
little wine, for she knew that very soon I should be in front of the
commandant, and a glass of wine does summon up one's courage. A glass
of wine before an interview, a glass of brandy before a battle--that is
sound sense. Very soon a couple of soldiers of my own rank came for
me. I gave them the remainder of the liquor, and they were very pleased.

"I hope you won't get into serious trouble," said the Alsatian.

"Not at all," chimed in the Spaniard; "he'll get off, but there must be
no more drinking out of hours."

"I will take care of that," said Giulia; "will you tell your
companies?" They promised to do so, and we three went away, I in the
centre without belt or bayonet, and Giulia followed, after locking
the door of my room. When we came before the commandant one of the
escort took off my kepi. The adjutant was present, looking as stiff
and unimpressionable as a block of wood. When the accusation was read
out I was asked if I had anything to say. I replied that I had not.
The commandant considered and considered and considered. He walked up
and down for a few moments, then stood still for a second or two, and
resumed his walk. After about five minutes he said:

"You are young, you have the military medal; I do not like to punish
you." Here the adjutant interposed and asked permission to make a
statement. When this was granted, he raked up the whole story of the
quarrel at Three Fountains, as if everyone did not know about it. He
laid stress upon the fact that I had been one of the ringleaders in
that affair, and ended by asking was such an one as I fit to look after
a canteen. Then the commandant said:

"When you came first to the battalion there was a sergeant-major in
every company, and I could not find a place for you. Most commandants
would have made you simple sergeant of a section. Will you now consent
to give up one chevron and become sergeant? If you do, I will say no
more about this affair." I jumped at the offer, the more readily as
nothing was said about taking me from the society of Giulia.

"Very well," said the commandant; "present yourself here to-morrow
morning with only one chevron on your sleeve."

My kepi, belt and bayonet were returned to me. Having put them on, I
saluted and walked away a free man again.

Giulia was waiting for me a short distance off. I told her all about
the matter as we walked towards my quarters. When we arrived there I

"Get your scissors and cut off the chevron."

"No, no," she cried; "I will never cut it off."

"Then give me your scissors and I will do it."

But she would not give her scissors for that purpose. So I had to take
off my tunic, and with the point of a little Spanish knife which I used
for cutting tobacco--these Spanish knives are very handy little things,
for one cannot always wear a bayonet, and one never knows how trouble
may arise--I ripped the upper chevron from my sleeve. I laid it on my
camp-bed. Giulia took it, kissed it, and put it in her bosom.

"I would not cut it off," she said, "but I will sew it on again, when
the time comes." That time never came.

Giulia went away to see about some things in the canteen. In less than
five minutes she was back again, looking as angry as a tigress at bay.
When she grew a little composed, she told me that the sergeant who
stayed with his wife in the room over the bar had been appointed to
the charge of the place and that I was to be assigned to his section
in No. 4 Company in the morning. This was most unpleasant news, but I
comforted her by saying that it really made no difference, except that
I could not now go to see her at the canteen except during the hours
when it was open, but that I should do my best to see her as often as
possible outside duty hours. "They cannot separate us anyway," I said;
"you are all in all to me and I am all in all to you." So she relieved
her sorrow by a good cry, and then sat, quite quiet, on my lap. After
all, the great thing was that nobody could part us altogether.

Next morning things turned out as Giulia had said. I was posted for
duty to the first section of No. 4 Company instead of the sergeant
whose wife had given shelter and protection to Giulia after her
mother's death, and he was assigned to look after the canteen. I very
soon fell into the routine duties of a sergeant. The section was handed
over to me in first-class order and temperament save for one thing--the
soldiers were discontented with the tyranny of the adjutant. This did
not affect me much, as they were more or less inclined to look upon me
as a martyr, and my reduction in rank was a fresh source of ill-humour,
showing, as it did, another proof of the mischievous malevolence of
the adjutant. I took, or pretended to take, the matter easily. I did
my duty as it should be done during what one may call business hours,
but when the work of the day was over I was good comrade to all. It was
lucky that I made so many friends at the time; I wanted them--every
one--very soon.

While I was acting as sergeant, the adjutant made several attempts
to get into the good graces of Giulia, but she repulsed him on every
occasion. At last he asked her point-blank why she would not even
acknowledge his salute, and she told him bluntly that she disliked him
and that she wished him in Tonquin or in his grave--anywhere, so long
as he was out of the battalion. Now Giulia was passionate even for an
Italian, and as she spoke she raised her voice, unthinkingly, indeed,
and some soldiers going with a corporal to relieve the sentries heard
what she said as they passed by. The adjutant saw that they heard; he
knew that he was hated by all, and he felt that in a couple of hours
the whole battalion would be secretly enjoying his rebuff. With a curse
he turned on his heel. Afterwards he neglected Giulia but paid more
than enough of attention to me. He cursed me openly on parade, he found
fault with every man in my section, not a buckle was bright, not a
strap was clean, the greatcoats were badly folded, the bayonets were
dull and the rifles were foul. In short, every fault that a man can
find was found by him, but, be it well understood, only in the absence
of the captain and other officers of the company. When the adjutant had
charge of the parade and the sergeants commanded the companies, then
the men of my section knew that a bad quarter of an hour awaited them.
The other legionaries noted this too. They were glad, because it was
quite obvious now that the majority of the battalion might endure the
adjutant's harshness patiently, for were not the men of No. 1 section
of No. 4 Company the really aggrieved ones? It was tacitly understood
in the battalion that the avenger would come from us.

All this time Giulia and I met every afternoon just before the opening
of the canteen, and afterwards for ten minutes or so when the canteen
was closed for the day. While the place was open I was always to be
found there, unless I was on guard or had some duty to perform that
kept me away. The other sergeants had easy lives. Every extra piece
of work was passed on to me by the adjutant, and let me say here that
the adjutant is the worst enemy a sub-officer can have. It's bad to
be disliked by the commandant, because he will block promotion; the
captain's enmity is hard to bear, because he can snarl three or four
times a day; but the adjutant can play the very devil with a man in a
thousand ways. Imagine asking a man who has made a slight mistake in
making out the orders of the day:

"Can you read and write?"

"Yes, sir."

"Well," comes the reply before more than a hundred soldiers, "take
care in future to read and write correctly. Go back to your place, you
stupid pig."

And as the man departs he is suddenly ordered to halt and face
right-about, and then asked:

"Who promoted you sergeant?" And before he has time to answer, the
remark is made, loudly enough to be over all the parade:

"There is not a man in the camp less fitted to wear the gold chevron
than you. To your place, rascal!"

If Giulia happened to be passing through the parade ground it was
worse. The abuse I received--and remember there is no redress in the
Legion unless one settles matters for himself with an unexpected bullet
or bayonet-thrust, and then there will be an execution--the abuse, I
say, that I received made my blood often almost boil with rage. I could
not have endured it but for the sweet company of Giulia; with her in
the evening I forgot the wrongs and insults of the day. Truly there
is no solace for a troubled spirit like the society of the loving and
beloved one; her sweet sympathy more than makes up for all.

The sergeant of No. 2 section of my Company was a German Pole, a
good-humoured fellow, ready for any fun, except when the adjutant's
eyes were fixed upon him, but withal a good soldier. His time was
nearly up, and he meant to go to Paris, and there make a living
somehow, when he should be at last done with the Foreign Legion. He and
I were on very friendly terms, and, indeed, I was oftener with him than
with any other sergeant of the corps. One evening--it was almost his
last evening with us--he drank more than was good for him, and awoke in
the morning with a headache and a sick stomach. I saw that he could not
drink his morning coffee, and asked him if he would not like a glass of

"Yes," he replied; "but one cannot get that now, this cursed adjutant
has spoiled all."

"Never mind," I answered, "I will get it for you."

"Take care, my comrade, you will get into more trouble, and are not
things bad enough with you already?"

"So bad," I said, "that they cannot be worse." And I took my kepi and
sallied forth. As luck would have it Giulia was sitting at the open
window of her bedroom, and when I beckoned to her she came out on the
cantonment square to meet me. I told her that a poor devil was ill and
wanted some brandy.

"All right," she said, "I will get some and give it to you at your own

I returned, told the Pole that he should soon receive some medicine,
and waited for Giulia at the door. Now either the adjutant must have
observed all this, or some scoundrel must have told him about it, for
just as I turned into the bachelor sergeants' quarters with the drink
and Giulia went away again towards the canteen, the adjutant came
running up at the top of his speed, crying out: "Halt, halt, sergeant;
what have you got there?" I was forced to deliver up the little flask.
He uncorked it, smelled, and said:

"Very well, very well, consider yourself a prisoner. Ah, Mademoiselle
Giulia," he went on, "what excuse can your lover make now?"

"Go away, Giulia," I said.

"Silence; to your room, rascal!" roared the angry adjutant.

"Good-bye, my well-beloved," said Giulia. "Out of my way, pig" (this to
the adjutant). And she walked across the square with the air and tread
of an empress.

The adjutant gnashed his teeth and bit his moustache with rage; he
hissed rather than said to me:

"You, rascal, shall pay for this, and this payment, understand well,
is only the first; others are sure to come afterwards." I turned on my
heel and entered my apartment.

The Pole was very sorry, and would, I believe, have told about his part
in the affair, but I pointed out, as others also did, that there was
no use in his getting into trouble, as by so doing he could not help
me in the least. Everyone saw quite plainly that I should certainly
be reduced to the rank of corporal, if not lower, and all were, or
professed to be, sorry for my misfortune. To cut the tale short, I may
as well say at once that I got my choice of resigning my position as
sergeant of a section and becoming a mere corporal of a squad or of
going before a court-martial. Of course I resigned, for the offence
of obtaining liquor at a wrong hour after the previous warning could
not be overlooked, and, as likely as not, a court-martial might send
me back to the ranks, a thing I had no desire for. The first time I
passed the adjutant with the two red chevrons on my sleeve instead of
the single gold one he smiled with an unholy joy, but the smile changed
to a scowl as he saw the kiss of welcome that I received from Giulia at
the door of the canteen.

It was well for all the other squads in the section that I was
reduced. They were now treated not worse, certainly, than the rest of
the legionaries, but my little squad of sixteen men had to bear the
brunt of the adjutant's anger. I was very concerned at this, and told
Giulia. She--clever and good girl--at once found out a means of in part
compensating them, but she did not tell me, and she strictly warned
them not to tell me either. They--poor devils--were only too glad to
keep her counsel, and it was by a mere accident that I learned the
truth afterwards. Her plan was this: She told the men of my squad that
they could come to the canteen with or without money and that they need
not be afraid of a refusal on her part to supply them, as far as they
could reasonably expect, with drink and tobacco. Now a legionary will
stand a good deal of abuse during the day if he knows that brandy and
other comforts await him for nothing in the evening; and, moreover, it
was evident to all that no one was especially aimed at except me, and
that, when No. 7, let us say, of the squad was told that he was a dirty
pig, he was merely getting the benefit of remarks that were really
meant for me. When the adjutant had done abusing the men one by one he
gathered, as it were, all the abuse together and hurled it at my head,
and often those rough legionaries, smarting as they were under their
own vexations, used to feel for me more than for themselves. I said
to them one day after the devil had left the hut, where he had kicked
about our equipments, swearing that we did not know the meaning of good
order, that I would never report any man for anything: "No matter how
bad we may be," I continued, "we are abused and sworn at. We are all
punished for the evil we do and the evil that we don't even think of."

"I hope," said a simple soldier, a Sicilian, "that the devil will be
dead soon."

He looked significantly at me, and then at the others, but, as I said
nothing, the implied proposal went by the board. But we all began to
think seriously from that day forth.

Many a stolen interview I had with Giulia when all in the cantonments
were asleep. I could rarely see her now, for the adjutant found me
plenty of work for my leisure time, and I took care to be in the hut
every evening lest there should be a fight amongst the comrades of the
squad. One must not imagine that they were bad comrades to one another.
On the contrary, they were very good indeed, but when men are angry at
being abused and sworn at without cause and without mercy they will
easily quarrel among themselves. So I watched the squad carefully,
and more than once stopped a dispute that might have suddenly led to
a general fight, and very soon the simple soldiers saw that I was
taking care of them for their sakes as well as for my own. At first
they were inclined to resent this, but common-sense prevailed, and they
acknowledged--tacitly only, of course--that I was in the right.

One night about twelve o'clock I was speaking to Giulia at the little
window at the back of the canteen. We had been talking for half-an-hour
of various matters and the time had passed quickly for both. I was
about kissing her good-night when I heard a step behind me. In a second
I was out of Giulia's arms and had faced about. Instinctively my hand
sought my left side, where the bayonet was.

"Who is there?" said the well-known voice of the adjutant.

"Caporal Le Poer de la quatrième compagnie, monsieur," I replied.

"What are you doing here? Why are you not with your squad? Who is in
charge at the hut?"

I said nothing, for I had nothing to say. I almost felt the chevrons
take flight from my arm. I had sense enough, however, to take my hand
from the hilt of the bayonet. Things were bad enough as they were.

The adjutant marched me to where a sentinel was on duty. He gave me
in charge to this man and went to the guard-hut. Very soon a corporal
and two men of the guard arrived, and I was taken to the prisoners'
quarters, to rest as well as I could on a plank bed until morning. When
I was brought before the commandant the charges were read out against
me of having been absent without leave or necessity from the hut where
my squad lay, of having left no one in charge while I was away, and of
going to the canteen in the middle of the night. The commandant looked
very serious, and, I daresay, so did I. What I had done was good to
do, but bad to be charged with doing. Any other officer coming upon me
as the adjutant had come would have passed on and not minded; even the
commandant, I am sure, would pretend not to see. But when the charge
was made and its truth admitted, then discipline compelled that proper
notice should be taken of it. I was not sent before a court-martial.
I was permitted to resign both chevrons, and so I went back to my
company a simple soldier of the second class.

I said to Giulia as we talked that evening at the end of the counter in
the canteen--the other legionaries, I must mention, were decent enough
to keep out of earshot--that I should be very careful now, as I had no
more chevrons to lose, and an ugly punishment was sure to follow the
next charge. "But for you, carissima," I went on, "I should volunteer
again for Tonquin." Giulia at this began to weep quietly, but I soon
reassured her. I told her that I would never go anywhere willingly
unless she came with me, and then she quickly dried her tears.

"You must take good care, Jean, of everything, and above all things,
you must never allow yourself to lose your temper. Yes," she continued,
"no matter what is said to you, no matter how hard it may be to bear,
control yourself and all will be well. Come every evening, and I will
comfort you for all the troubles and insults of the day."

I promised faithfully to follow her advice, and though oftentimes it
was hard to keep my temper, yet the remembrance of my promise and the
thought that every minute that passed brought the time of our next
meeting nearer made me feel, if not supremely happy, at least well
content to endure with outward equanimity the curses, epithets and
abuse that were my daily lot. I had one other consoling thought, some
day surely the devil would be struck down by an irritated man, and he
would in all probability be taken away in the midst of his sins. That
was the constant prayer of the legionaries of the battalion. May he
die, and die soon, and may he go safely home to his father, who is in

Now that I was as low as I could be in the Legion, the adjutant,
sergeants and corporals led me a terrible life. There was no work too
hard or too dirty for me; I did twice as much camp-cleaning as any
other; my spare time was encroached upon; and I found myself almost
every night a prisoner in the guard-house. The adjutant had the right
of making me what one may call a prisoner at large for a week, and
longer, at a time. All he had to do was to pretend to find fault with
me for laziness, though I was an active soldier; for dirt, though I
was a clean one; for carelessness, though I, for my own sake as well
as for Giulia's, was the most careful soldier in the battalion. Then,
when all the day's duties were over I could not go, as others went, to
the canteen. I had to report myself at the guard-room and enter the
prisoners' quarters, where I might stretch myself on the plank bed in
the clothes which I had worn all the day, until the call went next
morning to summon me to another dreary round of hard work and hurtful
words. No one must wonder that the sergeants and corporals ill-treated
me; the adjutant would have ill-treated them, if they had shown me any
signs of favour or even of fair-play. Moreover, it's the way of the
world to kick the man that's down, and human nature is the same in the
Legion as elsewhere.

I should have become quite reckless but for the love and kindly
sympathy of Giulia. With her I almost forgot my sorrows, and the firm
assurance I had that nothing could lower me in her eyes, and that
no man in all the world could steal her heart from me, was my great
safeguard in the moments, and they were many, of temptation. The rest
of the legionaries watched with interest the conduct of the adjutant;
they felt that some time or other the crisis would arrive; it was
agreed on all sides that I was the predestined avenger.


Though I did my best to keep out of trouble, still I could not help
now and then breaking the regulations. Other soldiers broke them far
oftener than I, but I knew quite well that the sergeants and corporals
were all watching me in order to bring me up before the commandant on
some charge or other, and so curry favour with the dreaded adjutant.
Now it would not be fair to blame them for this, every sub-officer
naturally preferred that the simple soldier should get into trouble
rather than himself; and, moreover, the man who could get me punishment
was sure to be left alone by the tyrant of the battalion. I certainly
felt a bit sore about it at times, and Giulia, to whom I communicated
my suspicions, was very angry indeed.

The first serious affair in which I was involved, as a simple soldier,
occurred one evening in the hut where my squad lay. I was not a
prisoner at large at the time, and so had not to go to the guard-hut,
report myself for the night, and then take up my quarters in the cells
where the prisoners were kept under guard. As I sat on the edge of my
bed-cot, smoking and thinking, an Austrian came in, evidently under
the influence of drink. This man was as pleasant a companion as one
could wish for when sober, but when drunk--he was not often so, I must
confess--his disposition underwent a change; he became violent, abusive
and quarrelsome. The first person he laid eyes on when he passed the
door was myself, and towards me he accordingly staggered. I cannot
recall what he said first, but I know that I was angry and returned
a very sharp answer. He then began to curse and revile me, and I am
afraid that my language in reply was as "frequent and painful and free"
as his. The corporal of the squad came in as we were warming to our
work and saw how matters were going. He left the hut at once, and,
mean hound that he was, listened just outside the door. Very soon he
returned, and, ordering some other soldiers to arrest us, marched us
both to the guard hut, and left us there for the night in charge of
the sergeant of the guard. In the morning the Austrian, who had slept
off the effects of the drink, was very sorry. I told him that it was a
pity he had not fallen out with someone else, as I was certain to get a
heavy sentence.

"You know," I went on, "the corporal will put the affair in as bad a
light as possible for me, because by doing so he will have the adjutant
as his good friend; and, besides, I have been up before the commandant
so often of late and have been reduced in rank so much that he will
consider me a soldier of very bad character and will punish me as such.
In any case you are a soldier of the first class, and at most he can
only take away your chevron."

"That is true, my comrade; I am very sorry, that cursed brandy made a
fool of me."

"Well, it can't be helped now," I said; "I bear no malice."

"Thanks, my friend, thanks," the Austrian replied; "but Mademoiselle
Julie, she will never forgive me."

"So much the better," I told him; "then you will get no more brandy,
and so will keep out of prison." He sighed heavily and said no more: I
could see that he was really sorry at last.

At the usual hour all the prisoners made their appearance before the
commandant. The Austrian and I were the last to be tried, and we could
see that our judge was in bad humour that morning and unsparing of
abuse and punishment alike. When our turn came we presented ourselves
before him, bareheaded, without belts, and guarded by an armed escort.
When the charge had been read out the corporal and some men gave
evidence in support of it, and we were asked, the Austrian first, as he
was a soldier of the first class, what we had to say in reply. Neither
could say anything, and truly, unless we had a very good defence
indeed, it was best to say nothing, for the commandant, a good man in
many ways, was very short-tempered, and was evidently in a rage that
morning. The Austrian was condemned to lose his chevron, and then the
officer turned to deal with me.

"You have been here often of late," he said, very mildly to all
appearance, but I knew what that sudden mildness meant. I said nothing.

"Can you not speak?" he almost roared.

"Yes, sir."

"You have been here often, very often--too often; is it not so?"

"Yes, sir."

"Do you think that I have nothing to do except to listen to complaints
against you?" Again he spoke very quietly.

"No, sir."

"Then why are you here almost every day?"

"I cannot avoid it, sir."

"Well, well, it is necessary that you learn a lesson. Four hours _en
crapaudine_. Remember, remember well, not to appear here again soon."

Now I have already described this punishment, and have said something
about its effects, as I heard about them from others, and as I saw men
when they were put in it, but I was now for the first time to feel them
for myself. The adjutant did a very mean thing, and many men who would
not mind seeing me _en crapaudine_, not through any dislike of me but
simply because they were used to the sight of prisoners so placed,
severely blamed him for it, and blamed him the more severely as they
felt that this new system of punishment might become the custom of the
battalion. Everyone feared for himself, one may say.

Now it was usual to keep a soldier sentenced to this discipline in the
guard-hut until the great heat of the day had passed and then to put
him in a certain portion of the parade-ground trussed up like a dead
fowl. The adjutant, however, did not allow this to be done with me. He
came down to the guard-hut a little before noon, had me taken from the
cells to the place of punishment, and there, my ankles being fastened
together and my hands manacled behind my back, I was forced upon my
knees, my body pressed back until the centres of both pairs of irons
were joined as closely together as possible, and so every joint of my
body put upon the rack. But this was not all. When I was safely _en
crapaudine_ the brute knocked my kepi off with his stick, and so I was
left in a posture of agony, exposed with bare head to all the torturing
rays of an African sun. Now one can understand why my comrades were
indignant; now one can see why they dreaded punishment in the noonday
hours, for even if the kepi were left on a man's head, he would in all
likelihood cast it off by his own struggles, and be sure, be very sure,
that no one would dare to approach to replace it. It was replaced for
me, I grant, and replaced more than once, and other things were done
that helped me in some sort to bear my punishment, but Giulia was not
amenable to military law as we others were, and even the adjutant dared
not fall out openly with her, for all Frenchmen, including even the
commandant, naturally side with the woman in a quarrel, especially when
the woman is _figlia del reggimento_.

I was not long _en crapaudine_ before I realised to the full the awful
agony that men endure when they are truly and literally on the rack.
Pains were quickly felt by me at the knees and at the ankles and at the
wrists. My hands, forced backwards into an unnatural position, dragged
heavily upon my neck, and the pain, beginning there, travelled down
gradually to the shoulder-joints, so that from neck to ankles there was
not a joint without its share of torment. Soon afterwards the small
of my back became involved in the general dislocation, and then it
seemed to me as if a heavy weight had been placed upon my abdomen and
was squeezing the lower part of my body out of all proportion. Then
a tight band, as it were, was fastened on my chest; I seemed to feel
my ribs crushed in upon my heart, my breath came and went quickly,
and, to complete the agony, my forehead began to feel constricted,
and shooting pains ran from temple to temple, as if some demon from
the lower regions were thrusting and thrusting and thrusting again a
red-hot knife through my brain. At this time I must have begun to cry
out, or at least to groan, for I was suddenly aware of a rough hand
grasping me by the head and another pulling down my underjaw, some hard
substance was shoved into my mouth, and in spite of all the pain that I
was enduring my senses for a moment came back fully to me. I knew that
I was gagged and that the first part of my punishment was over, for men
generally drift into insensibility when the gag is applied; there will
be an occasional lifting of the eyelids, a spasmodic shaking of the
head, and that is all.

I learned afterwards that Giulia had replaced my kepi more than once,
and had even bathed my temples and forehead with cold water, but she
was not allowed to remove the gag, though she begged and prayed that
it might be taken away. The adjutant had wisdom enough to keep away;
it was well known that Giulia, for her own protection in so strange a
society, so remote too from civilisation, always carried a knife about
her person, and very often a dainty little five-chambered revolver that
would certainly kill at near range. But for all that he saw that I was
bound and gagged to the last minute of the four hours, and the sergeant
of the guard, as well as the sentry who stood near, knew very well the
consequences of yielding to Giulia's prayers and entreaties.

"Oh no; anything in reason, Mademoiselle Julie; but you know as well as
a _vieux soldat_ that we cannot disobey our orders. Disobedience on our
part would injure us and not save your lover in the least."

Giulia understood, and could only weep and pray that the time might fly
with eagle wings. Alas! for her, even more than for me, time, had only
leaden feet that afternoon in the little cantonment near the desert,
and, worst of all, the sun blazed furiously in a cloudless sky.

At long last the fourth hour came to an end. Quickly the gag was
withdrawn from my mouth, the irons were taken from my limbs, and I was
lifted up to my feet But I could not stand, I staggered and almost
fell; Giulia was not strong enough to hold me up, but the sergeant
caught me at the other side, and both lowered my body gently to the
ground. One could easily see that it was impossible for me to reach
without help the hut where my squad lived, and some legionaries who
had been looking on with interest at the scene--poor devils, not one
of them could tell when his own turn might come--came across from
where they were standing and volunteered to carry me to my cot. Giulia
gratefully accepted this offer, and I was borne as tenderly as possible
to my hut. There some of my own squad took me, undressed me, and put me
to bed, and left the hut to Giulia and myself. Giulia managed to get
me to drink some brandy and water, and I gradually felt better, but as
my senses returned I became more and more conscious of the awful pain
in every joint of my body. There was but one thing to set me right
again--rest, absolute, complete rest, rest without stir of limb, for
every time I ever so slightly moved a terrible stabbing pain ran right
from the part I moved through all my body.

That evening the canteen was kept open during the usual hours by the
wife of the sergeant who had replaced me in military charge of it.
Giulia would not leave me, and in some degree to make up for keeping
the others out of their hut, she gave money to those of the squad who
had not given evidence against me. The corporal got none, neither did
the Austrian; as for two or three others who had been summoned as
witnesses before the commandant, they got merely angry words, mixed
with contemptuous epithets. They did not stand this long. They left
the hut as quickly as possible and kept away until nightfall, when an
unpleasant surprise awaited them and the other comrades of the squad.
It seems that Giulia went away for a short time while I was sleeping
and made certain preparations for spending the night in the hut.
Consequently, when the corporal and the soldiers assembled outside and
called to Giulia that all lights would soon have to be put out, she
told them plainly that the lights would not be put out in that place,
that she had candles enough to last until morning, and that she meant
to allow no man to enter for the night.

"I stay here," she told them, "for the sake of my lover. I will keep
you out for the sake of my good name. I have three loaded revolvers and
plenty of spare cartridges, if any one of you should attempt to enter,
I will kill him."

They tried to persuade her to go to her own quarters; they promised
that they would take turn about to watch me; all was of no use. At
last the corporal went and told the adjutant. The latter saw no way of
settling the matter, knowing full well that he would receive a bullet
rather than a word from Giulia, so he wisely resolved to tell the
commandant of the affair. The commandant, in good humour by this time,
only laughed and said that he would see about it. So he came across,
and, rapping at the door, asked Giulia for the privilege of entering.
Giulia opened the door, the commandant saluted her with his customary
courtesy, and then inquired for me. I answered for myself, and with
deliberate malice I told him that the four hours _en crapaudine_
would have been easily endured if I had undergone the punishment in
the evening, as was usual, but that the heat of the sun had hurt me
severely, especially as the adjutant had knocked my kepi off with his
stick. The commandant was indignant; he was only like all officers, who
don't care what men suffer so long as the sufferings are not intruded
upon their notice, but who, on hearing a specific case of unfair play,
will virtuously condemn somebody and then forget all about the affair.
That's the way in every army in the world; Sergeant X speaks harshly to
Private Y to-day, the captain overhears, and speaks still more harshly
to the sergeant for his abuse of the private; next day Private A, who
has been soundly rated by Corporal B, seeks redress, and is told at
once that he did not get half enough and that if he can only carry
foolish complaints to his captain, as a little girl to her mother, he
has no right to wear a uniform--he should rather wear a petticoat. Yes;
officers are inconsistent in their conduct to the soldiers, so are rich
people in their conduct to the poor: one day in the week kindness;
six days in the week ugly names and cutting words and, worst of all,
unveiled contempt.

Well, the commandant said that he would speak to the adjutant in the
morning, and--I may as well finish with this now--he kept his word, and
gave the brute as straightforward, pointed, and condensed a reproof as
a superior officer ever gave to an inferior. He did it before witnesses
of all ranks, and so the story was told through all the battalion, and
even those who had no money were happy that day.

When the commandant volunteered to escort Giulia to her abode she
refused point-blank.

"I will stay here," she said, "all the night, and I will fire on any
man that tries to enter."

The commandant, pretty experienced--as most officers are--in the ways
of women, saw that she had quite made up her mind, and, shrugging his
shoulders, said: "Very well; but let the men take their greatcoats and
blankets away."

"Yes; but you, monsieur le commandant, will wait till all have

"But yes, but yes." And he went to the door and told the men that they
were to come in, take their coats and blankets, and leave the hut at
once. Afterwards he would dispose of them for the night. He managed
well enough by dividing them amongst the neighbouring huts, where the
poor, evicted fellows made each man his bed as best he could upon the
ground. Then he told the sergeant of the guard that the lights in my
hut were not to be taken notice of by the sentries, and went home to
bed, proudly happy in the consciousness of having acted kindly towards
people, for all of whom--Giulia, of course, excepted--he felt the most
supreme contempt when they were not on active service. You must know
that in front of the enemy we legionaries were always addressed as "mes
enfants," at all other times any ugly name was good enough for us.

Giulia insisted on my staying in bed all next day, and no one said a
word about it. In the early forenoon the lieutenant--with whom I got
on so well in the march to the cantonment and who was now in charge
of the company during the illness of the captain--came and spoke very
sympathetically to us both. He said nothing about the lecture read
by the commandant to the adjutant, rightly judging that there were
many who would be very glad to give us all the news about that. As
he was going away he said something to the corporal who was standing
near the door. After the officer's departure the sub-officer told me
that I might stay in bed another day if I liked. I thanked him, but
declined. The fact is, I knew my comrades were anxious to get back
to their quarters, as they were sure to be anything but comfortable
divided amongst so many squads. Consequently, I told Giulia that
evening that I was nearly myself again, and I asked her to bring across
a couple of bottles of _eau-de-vie_, so that we might make some amends
to the others for their eviction. Giulia brought more than I had asked
for. She carried across from the canteen two bottles of brandy, three
of wine, and a couple of pounds of tobacco. When the others saw the
bottles and the packages they were more than satisfied; they drank her
health that night, and swore often, and with vehemence, that they would
all willingly die for her. What children soldiers are, and how easily
they are pleased!

After this I had a fairly easy time for a few weeks. But I had become
rather reckless now, and all Giulia's powers of persuasion were needed
to prevent me from breaking down into a careless, slovenly soldier.
What is the good, I often thought, of cleaning equipments when I
shall be abused just as much as if they were really dirty? Where is
the use of springing smartly at the word of command when I shall be
called a lazy rascal and a stupid fool? What matters it whether I am
idle or hardworking when I get the same reward every time? Since I am
to be abused and punished let me at least deserve the abuse and the
punishment, then I shall be more content. But Giulia would not hear
of this. She was determined that I should continue to be a clean,
careful, active soldier. She had a wonderful fund of hope, and she had
one argument that I could not withstand. "Yes, yes, it is hard," she
would say; "but remember, when you begin to deserve trouble, I shall
begin to deserve it too." Now, though I could easily be reckless on
my own account, I could not find it in my heart to be reckless when
Giulia was certain to share the consequences along with me. She was too
good, too true, too loving to be drawn by me, who loved her so much,
into any rashness which would end bitterly for us both--more bitterly,
I fancied, for her, who would survive, than for me, whose troubles
would soon be over. Nevertheless, I grew more and more morose every
day. True, I was never morose in Giulia's society, but in the hut I
was not a pleasant companion, and I am afraid that my comrades left me
more and more to myself every day. The corporal did not seem to watch
me any longer. I fancy he was getting to be a little afraid. He, as
well as the rest, saw that it would take very little to make me lose
my temper altogether. And when a desperate legionary, his mind full of
real--as mine were--or fancied wrongs, does break out, he is more like
the Malay who runs amok than the European who strikes a blow or two
and then is carried--kicking, striking, biting, and cursing--to the
guard-house. Another reason that the corporal had for not interfering
with me was this, the other legionaries were not indignant with me for
my moroseness and want of good-fellowship. Now, as a rule, the man
who keeps aloof from the rest of his squad has a bad time. Men will
not allow themselves and their society to be flouted by another not a
bit better, not a bit higher, than themselves. In the Legion all are
equal--the ex-prince and the ex-pauper, the man of good character and
the man of bad. But when the men of a squad see that a comrade is in
bad temper with his superiors and recognise that he has reason, then
they will not mind aloofness or sharp answers or ugly words. On the
contrary, they will sympathise, never knowing when their own turns
may come for ill-treatment. So the corporal, seeing that the men were
quite satisfied that I should live my life to myself and felt sympathy
and not anger on account of my conduct, wisely left me alone. There
were many ugly stories current in the Legion of what had been done by
men driven to desperation, and, be it well understood, the sub-officer
valued his chevrons a good deal less than he valued his life.

I got myself into trouble more than once about this time, but I was
never afterwards put _en crapaudine_. Twice I was buried up to the
neck in the ground, or rather once to the waist and once to the neck.
This was called putting a man _en silo_. It was a hard punishment, but
not to be compared with the other. The worst of it was that one felt
as if heavy weights were pressing him at all points, but this feeling
of pressure was nothing compared to the straining and racking of the
joints when one was _en crapaudine_. A good proof of this is that I was
never gagged when _en silo_. I could easily enough stand it without a
cry. It is of no account now why I was thus punished. I freely admit
that the commandant was quite justified in making me suffer for my
offences, but it must be remembered to my credit that there would
have been no offences if I had been left alone. Ill-treatment made me
act foolishly, that is the first point; I paid for my folly, that is
the second; the third is, when a punishment is over the offence that
entailed it ought to be forgotten.

I was now, to all intents and purposes, a man apart from his fellows.
The other legionaries watched me curiously. They wondered, I fancy,
how long I should stand the strain and how the certain result would
actually come about. The adjutant was just as tyrannical as ever to
the men of the battalion; he distributed his curses and abuse with
perfect impartiality, but no one minded now. The officers were the
only ones who did not understand, though they, doubtless, had heard
of many tragedies in the Legion, yet they seemed to have forgotten
all: officers really care only for their own pleasure and comfort,
and every one of them, from commandant down to sub-lieutenant, felt
quite satisfied so long as there was an appearance of good order and
discipline. If I were an officer, I should remember that a troublesome,
riotous battalion seldom furnishes materials for a tragedy; a quiet,
well-behaved one, where the men speak in drawing-room tones and seem
to be always looking out for something, has more elements of danger in
it. In the Indian Mutiny it was the good soldier who gave the most
trouble and took the biggest share of the beating; he mutinied because
his conscience drove him to it, and his conscience would not allow him
to surrender. When a bad soldier mutinies, any hound is good enough to
bite him, and once bitten, he hands in his gun. To put the matter in a
nutshell: the battalion was too good; it was so quiet and calm that any
man of observation might see that there was something ugly underneath.


One day as I was crossing the parade-ground I saw the adjutant stop
Giulia, who was coming to meet me, and speak, as I thought, earnestly
to her. I knew that he admired her and that a good deal of my troubles
arose from her avowed preference for me, but my mind was quite easy
on that score. Dozens of men in the battalion would be very glad to
replace me in her favour, but all were aware that she was true as
steel, and though this knowledge probably made many more envious of
my good fortune yet it certainly kept them from annoying Giulia with
unavailing protestations of love. Indeed, Giulia and I often laughed
together when a legionary after a second or third glass of _eau-de-vie_
looked longingly at her for a moment and then sighed with love and
liquor. At first she used playfully to resent my allusions to her
conquests, but as soon as she understood my absolute faith in her
constancy she entered into the spirit of badinage quite as freely as
I. I never jested about the adjutant. When we spoke of him we were
both angry--I for my disgrace and punishment, Giulia because at the
time she understood better than I did the reason of his severity. Many
times she told me that he had spoken in a more than friendly manner
to her, but she always added that her answers were not the answers he
wished for, and I had often heard from my comrades of scenes at or near
the canteen when she spoke her mind openly to him and made him feel
that worst of all tortures to a man of sensitive mind--words of utter
contempt from the woman he adores. What must have made things worse for
the adjutant was that he knew, as the others did, that his repulses
were deserved, and the officer was especially punished in this--that
the whole battalion rejoiced in his discomfiture, and men repeated over
and over again in hut and guard-house and canteen the very expressions
with which Giulia had cut him to the heart. I had never questioned her
closely about his behaviour and attempts at love-making--I thought of
him as an enemy, not as a rival--but when I saw him so deliberately
stop Giulia as she was approaching me I resolved to ask her, not out of
jealousy, be it well understood, but out of curiosity, what he had to
say so important that he laid his hand upon her arm to detain her.

I could not speak to Giulia that day about this, as very soon after
the adjutant had stopped her on the parade-ground I was sent on some
duty or other that kept me busy until the canteen was opened, and then
there was no chance of private conversation. Next day was Sunday, and
I then could be with her for at least a couple of hours, so that I did
not mind the delay. While I was in the canteen that Saturday evening,
drinking a glass of wine with a couple of Alsatians, I asked Giulia
to meet me at the main gate on the following day. She, of course,
consented; my asking was only a matter of form, a compliment to the
girl. She told me that she would bring a flask of wine and that she
would also have a packet of cigarettes and a few cigars.

"Why do you tell me that, Giulia?" I asked. "When you bring me any
present I accept and thank you, but you know I want nothing but your
comradeship and your love."

"I know well," she replied; "but I want you to come out of the
cantonment with me to-morrow. I want to tell you many things, and we
shall be away for a long time. If I am not back in time to open the
canteen the sergeant's wife will open it for the soldiers. But you
and I, we must talk long and earnestly to-morrow. Confide in me as I
confide in you. I am true--I shall always be so--and you, I know, will
be true as well."

To this I could answer nothing except that I loved her better than my
life; that I trusted her more than any man had ever trusted woman; and
that I was her own, her very own, for ever.

When we met next day at the main-guard Giulia, as she had promised,
had a little parcel that made the sergeant of the guard, the sentry on
duty, and the other legionaries lounging about, consider me a happy man
in spite of all my misfortunes. I could see that, and I own it gave me
pleasure. The lowest, as well as the highest, desires to inspire envy
in the hearts of others. So long as they think him especially favoured,
the sorrows and troubles, which he alone knows of and feels, seem to
diminish, even almost to disappear. But I had more than the envy of my
comrades to console me; Giulia, happy and smiling, came towards me as
I approached, and the sight of her happiness at meeting me was more
than enough to make me forget all my disgrace, all my punishment, the
hard words which came as regularly as the bugle went for parade, the
extra toil that I was condemned to as the tyrant's enemy, and all the
incidental annoyances that were sure to come to one whom his fellows
had already named "Pas de chance." Yes; that, as I now remember it, was
the last of the happy moments. It seemed as if the gods were giving us
an overtaste of happiness before the time of anger, strife, and utter
wretchedness opened on our lives.

We passed out together through the gate, Giulia in her smartest dress,
and I in the regulation Sunday attire, with belt and bayonet and
gloves. In Europe people put on silk hats and frock coats on Sundays;
we of the Legion merely wore gloves and bayonets, but even with these
small additions to our usual costume we felt extra dressed. It was a
warm day--that is, warm even for Algeria--and we walked rather slowly
along. Once we passed through the gate I took the little parcel from
Giulia, saying, with a happy smile: "I am robbing you ma belle."

"You cannot rob me of anything," she replied, "since all I have is

Then I kissed her, forgetting all about the legionaries of the guard
who were lounging about the gate. How they must have envied me, my good

We did not go far from the cantonment, merely about a quarter of a
mile, to a place where we had spent many a pleasant hour together on
former Sundays. It was not an ideal resting-place. It was certainly
not a meadow pied with daisies, with a murmuring rivulet at hand, but
there really was a little shelter, for a fairly big rock overhung the
spot, and in the lee of this one could somewhat escape the fierce heat
of the sun. None of the other soldiers came near it on Sundays. They
would, of course, have no hesitation in disturbing me, but Giulia the
imperious, Giulia who could refuse the blessed liquor even to a rich
man if she wished, was not to be offended. A couple of legionaries,
a Spaniard and a Greek, had on one occasion posted themselves in a
position whence they could watch our love-making, and had carried
back a report to their comrades that Giulia and me were not so much
in love as people thought, and it was only two days afterwards, when
they entered the canteen together and were sternly ordered out of it,
that they found out that we had discovered them and would not provide
amusement for spies. The other soldiers had no sympathy with either
Greek or Spaniard, and so the corps could boast, as I told them one
day, of at least two men who did not drink. It is all very well to
be a teetotaller from choice, but to be one from necessity is a very
different thing, especially to a soldier. And the lesson Giulia taught
by refusing even a glass of _vin ordinaire_ to the precious pair
made all the rest desirous of leaving us our chosen resting-place to

When we arrived and sat down Giulia took the little parcel from me
and opened it. There were three or four cigars, a couple of dozen
cigarettes, and a pint bottle of wine. Some sweets were also there, but
I left these for Giulia.

"Very well," I said, "this is a real feast. We can live here for at
least four hours with such supplies."

"Is it not good?" she asked.

"Very good," I told her; "you grow kinder every day; but I too have a
little surprise for you, carissima."

"What! a surprise for me? What is it?" And she laid her pretty little
hand upon my arm.

I bade her shut her eyes, and when she did so, I clasped a silver
bracelet on her wrist--it had cost me more than two months' pay--and
was amply rewarded for my gift by the childish joy she showed when she
beheld it. How happy we were that Sunday!

But this story has little to do with happiness now that it approaches
the end. When we had taken a little of the wine and were quietly
enjoying our cigarettes I asked Giulia what the adjutant had said to
her on the previous day.

"I will tell you all now," she said to me. "I can no longer keep it
from you, though I do not wish to give you pain. You have always
trusted me, as I have trusted you. Is it not so, dearest?"

"But yes," I answered; "no one could doubt you; you are too good
and too true. Why, even the worst man in the battalion knows and
acknowledges that."

"I am well content," Giulia said to me; "you have not erred. I have
always been faithful, and I will be faithful for ever. But I cannot
prevent anyone, not even the man I hate most, from loving me, and
things have come to such a pass now that it is only right that you
should know all."

Thereupon, seeing that the poor girl was in great distress, I flung
away my cigarette, and taking hers from between her fingers flung it
away too. Then I kissed her, and keeping her very closely in my arms,

"Tell me everything; but I must tell you one thing first: I am quite
sure that, no matter what troubles we may have endured or may have to
endure, neither will ever grieve the other by want of love or want of

She sobbed for a moment quietly on my breast, and then began:

"It is all because of that adjutant--that devil who will not allow
anyone to be happy. He has always, since he came to the cantonment,
desired to take me for himself, and whenever he came with his
unwished-for proposals I insulted him and drove him away. Then he
threatened that he would take vengeance on you, and I warned you to
be on your guard. In spite of all he injured you and nearly broke my
heart, but I constantly hoped that he might leave the battalion with
the next draft. The draft has gone and he remains; there will be no
new draft for months, and what hope is left now? When he stopped me
on the parade yesterday it was to renew his unwelcome proposals, but
this time he asked me to be his wife. I was angry, and told him that,
were he even President of the Republic, I would neither let him kiss
me as lover nor wed me as husband, and that, no matter what rank he
might win, he would always remain the same--a tyrant to those beneath
him, and a tyrant, I believed, was only slightly better than a slave.
Then he swore with vehemence that he would have you shot before a
month was over, and that is why I tell you." At this point she wept,
and could not be comforted for a long time. When she became somewhat
calm, I told her that now we knew the adjutant's intentions we could
do at least something to prevent their realisation, and that, in any
case, if the affair should come to the worst it would be easy enough
to have a little satisfaction before being punished. This did not seem
very comforting, but it was the best I could say. My mind was at the
time even more full of hate of the adjutant than love of Giulia, and I
think she must have noticed this, for she tried to turn my thoughts in
a pleasanter direction. Almost in a moment she, who had but a moment
before been hopeless and comfortless, dried her tears, smiled bravely
into my eyes, and told me I thought more of my anger than of her
love. I put aside at once all emotions save those of tenderness and
affection, I petted and caressed her, I told her over and over again
what women never tire of hearing: _Je t'aime, je t'aime, je t'aime_.
If you can say "I love you" to a woman, and she feels that you say it
with truth, you have made the most eloquent speech in the world to her
ears--that is, be it well understood, if she is inclined to say the
same words to you. If she cannot respond, why! say good-bye and forget
her. He is only a fool who cannot, even though it hurts, give up a love
that meets with no response.

But there was no danger of lack of response on Giulia's part. In a
pretty mixture of Italian, French, and English that we had taught each
other she gave me assurances that were not the less valued because
they were repetitions of ones that I had received from her many times
before, and that fell upon my ears all the more pleasantly that I well
knew them to be absolutely true. There can be no mistaking the love or
the hate of an Italian girl; the Southern warmth shows itself in both.
As I had experience of one, so the adjutant had sorely felt the other.

While we were thus creating happiness for each other, a harsh voice
fell upon our ears. It was the adjutant's. I stood up and faced round
to meet him, all thoughts of love had now disappeared, only hatred of
the tyrant filled my heart. I remembered the many insults, the unfair
surprises, the more than devilish ingenuity with which he had hounded
me down. I thought of my former rank and contrasted it in my mind
with my then lowly condition; I remembered my lost chevrons, my lost
pay, my lost position, my lost chance of promotion, my lost friends,
for what sergeant could associate with the reduced sub-officer in the
ranks! I thought of Giulia's sorrows, her wakeful nights when she
knew that I was tossing uneasily on a plank bed, her anxiety as the
hour approached for my trial, her fear of some terrible result, the
insulting proposals that she was compelled to hear and of which she
dared not speak, and as all these thoughts surged through my brain I
saw no adjutant, no superior officer of mine, but a man-wolf, a demon
incarnate hot from hell. Yet I was outwardly calm; I said no word, nor
for some moments did he speak, but I felt that the crisis had come at
last. I was glad that we three were quite alone; the thought flashed
upon my mind that it was Sunday, and that day I wore my bayonet.

At last he spoke: "Will mademoiselle kindly go away and permit me to
speak alone to the soldier?"

"No," Giulia replied; "I will stay. Why have you come here?"

"I came," said the adjutant, speaking very slowly and impressively, all
the while looking hard at me, "to make a proposition to this man."

"I can guess your proposition," I replied, stopping Giulia with a
gesture, "and I give you the same answer as Mademoiselle Julie has
already given. She does not give me up; I do not give up her. Did you
think," and I spoke with deliberation equal to his, "that I would allow
my darling to purchase an easy life and also promotion for me by giving
you even one kiss, even one glance of favour! No," I went on, "Giulia's
kisses and caresses and words of love are for me and for me alone; get
some woman of the camp--she will be good enough for you."

The adjutant controlled himself with an effort. After a short delay, in
which, I presume, he determined to make one attempt more to gain his
object, for his desire was greater than his hate, he said:

"I have offered to marry her; you are not in a position to do so. When
we are married I will get leave of absence and we will go away, and
while away from the battalion I can arrange a transfer; then we shall
never meet again. If she comes away with me as my wife, I will take
care that she has a happy and comfortable life; if she does not marry
me, and I ask her now for the last time, she cannot be happy here, for
I will see that you at least will not be long her lover." Then, turning
to Giulia, he went on: "If you really love him, save him now."

He held out his hands appealingly to her. As he stood so exposed I
struck his cheek fair and full with the back of my right hand.

"Your answer, dog," I cried.

With an angry indrawing of his breath he turned to me, and his right
hand felt for his sword. It was half out of the scabbard when I plucked
my bayonet from its sheath, and driving it straight forward I pierced
his right arm as it lay across his body. He did not let go his hold of
the sword hilt in spite of the wound, but drew the sword and raised it
to cut me down. As his right arm went up I pushed it back with my left
hand and, coming to close quarters, plunged my bayonet into his body.
He reeled, and again I drove my weapon home. He staggered away from me,
and before I could get close enough to repeat the thrust fell heavily
upon his back. He lay quite still. I mechanically wiped my bayonet
clean, and then said to Giulia:

"I could not help it; he would have killed me if he could."

Giulia said nothing, but when I had put up my side-arm she came to
me and, putting her dear arms round my neck, wept bitter tears of
anticipation upon my breast.

There was nothing to be done except to go back to camp and wait for
what might happen. Neither of us spoke of the result that each
felt was certain. Though we were resolved to say nothing about the
affair yet we made no attempt to divert suspicion from ourselves. The
half-smoked cigarettes, the half-empty bottle, the paper and twine of
the parcel, all were left behind in close proximity to the body of the
adjutant. As we walked slowly back Giulia suddenly halted and faced me.

"They will kill you," she said.

"I think so," I answered.

"And I, I will not live when you are gone."

I pleaded with her for her own life. I used all the arguments I could
think of about the wickedness of self-destruction; nought was of avail.

"But, carissima mia, your father was killed in battle, and your mother,
who loved him fondly, did not kill herself."

"Ah, mon Jean, I was born at the time. Her baby made her live."

"And Giulia,"--I took her in my arms and kissed her,--"do you not
understand? Is it not so?" She broke down into a flood of tears.

"O Jean, Jean, I must live, I must live, even though one half of my
life goes out with you."

I caressed and comforted her--we were in full view of the gate, but we
minded not. She grew calm at last, and looked at me with a new look
in her eyes--a look that I had seen but once before, when the English
corporal had called her madame, but then it meant rather bashful hope
and half-afraid longing, now it showed knowledge and certainty and free

"I am very happy now," I told her as we approached the gate where the
men relieved from duty as sentinels were standing. "I care not now
what may happen to myself, and for you half, and more than half, of
my anxiety has left me. There is only, one thing that I must do now,
I must look for Père Michel at once. You will go to your quarters; he
will come with me there. Tell the sergeant and his wife to expect us.
Do not be afraid, they will not be surprised."

Giulia said nothing in reply; a closer clinging to my arm, one quick
glance, a sudden heaving of the breast, these told me more than any
words could tell.

We separated just inside the gate, Giulia going at once to her
quarters, while I went towards the officers' building to find the
chaplain. I saw him at once, and told him the more important facts on
the spot; he shook his head, and told me that there was but one way
to make reparation. He said that Giulia and I should both confess our
sins, but I said:

"No; marry us now or marry us never."

Anxious to do his best, and knowing full well that many in the
battalion were worse than I--he did not know about the adjutant's fate
at the time, as I took care to keep that to myself--he yielded to my
entreaties and went with me to the canteen. There we were married,
the sergeant and his wife acting as witnesses. The good priest, he
was a good and brave man, gave us some advice; he told us that he
would always remember us in his prayers, and went away. Then the
sergeant said: "I suppose there will be great rejoicing in the camp
this evening," and looked astonished when Giulia utterly broke down.
His wife drew him away, and we were alone together, the most utterly
wretched bride and bridegroom that the world has ever seen. Giulia said
to me:

"You are mine, all mine now; when they seek you they must find you
here." I dreaded the effect of my arrest in her presence, but she

"I will show good courage, I will not give way to grief," she answered.
"You shall see, and you shall not be ashamed."

After that we sat together on the side of the little bed. We said
little, but our hearts were bursting; there had never been so perfect,
so complete, so unutterable a sympathy between us. We knew then, as
we never did, and never could, know before, the intense sweetness of
love, which only exquisite anguish can bring forth.

After some time--I know not, nor shall ever know, how long--we heard
the dull sound of a rifle butt upon the door below. It was quickly
opened, and through the raised window we heard the words: "Is
Mademoiselle Julie within?"

"No; but Madame Julie is," replied the sergeant, with a laugh.

"Is she alone?"

"No; her husband is with her."

"Ah, we want him; we must enter."

Giulia pressed more closely to my side. In a moment the rifle butt
sounded on our door. "Entrez," I called out. The door was flung open
and a sergeant appeared, two soldiers peering curiously over his

"You are my prisoner."

"Very well, my sergeant; pardon me for a moment."

Then to Giulia: "My darling, I must obey orders."

Giulia said nothing. I kissed her, said: "Be of good courage," and
walked to the door.

As the soldiers placed themselves one at each side I heard a loud cry.
I would have turned back, but I was pushed headlong down the stairs.
There was no use in resisting, so I went quietly to the guard-house,
with an awful fear at my heart for my poor love in her agony and
loneliness. As I entered the prison I heard a legionary of the guard
say to his comrades:

"I knew how it would be; yes, long ago."

That night I slept little. The hard plank was nothing, I was used to
that; the death of the adjutant was nothing in itself, for had he not
deserved it? Its consequences, as far as they affected me, I could take
without flinching, but the thought of Giulia, of her future, in which
nought was certain save hopelessness and the sense of utter loss, made
me wakeful and anxious through the silent hours. Three legionaries
confined for some offence were my companions in the cell. They knew
nothing of the affair, and when I was suddenly pushed through the
door by the sergeant of the guard, these men eagerly asked what new
misfortune was mine.

"Can you not guess?" I answered.

They looked at one another, the same thought was in the minds of all.
The Sicilian said:

"You have done it! Yes, I knew you would. I am glad that he is gone,
yet I am sorry for you, and still more sorry--" He stopped and shook
his head.

"Yes," said a Pole; "that is the way, it is the woman always that
suffers most."

The third, a Frenchman by birth, who found it better to be a Lorrainer
in the Legion than to serve in his proper regiment in France, was the
last to speak.

"It is done now, and we shall all be grieved at the loss of a good
comrade, but the battalion will be happy once more. I salute," he
continued, taking off his kepi, "the hero who has freed us from

We were silent for a time. Then the Frenchman asked me how it happened.

"I struck him, he drew his sword, and then I gave him my bayonet, voilà

"How often?"

"Three times."

"Very well," said the Sicilian; "then it must be all right. It is all
right; the battalion must have a new adjutant now."

I refused my soup when it came and the Frenchman offered me his.

"If I cannot take my own, why yours?" I asked angrily.

"Mine is not soup, it is something better." It was, and I gladly took
it. He had wine instead of soup. This was wrong, but a good comrade who
has money can do a kindness to a prisoner. But he must be a very good
comrade, and he must have more than enough to buy the wine.

They saw that I was disinclined for much speaking, and they went away
to the other end of the cell. There they spoke and gesticulated freely.
Yet very seldom did a word reach me; their voices were low, their heads
close together, but I noted, half abstractedly as it were, the quick
action of the shoulders, the eager motion of the hands. After some time
they stopped the conversation and sat or lay down on the rough planks
that served for beds. No other prisoners came in that night; sergeants
and corporals were not thinking of making arrests, and the soldiers
were too busy talking about the affair to quarrel. Yet there were many
besides Giulia and me who were sorry for what would surely happen: the
quick court-martial, and then the volley at the open grave.


Next morning the preliminary investigation was held by the commandant.
He finished with all other work first, and then directed that I should
be brought before him. I knew this, because the others were taken away
to stand their trial, and I was left behind. When I was in his presence
I saluted, and the commandant said with soldierly directness:

"The adjutant is dead; you are charged with killing him; have you
anything to say?"

"Only this, sir," I replied, "he insulted me, then he insulted
Mademoiselle Julie, who is now my wife; I struck him, he drew his
sword, and I my bayonet. I was the quicker of the two, and wounded him;
then he raised his sword to cut me down, and I repeated the blow."

"But there were three wounds; is it not so?" he said to the surgeon.

"Yes, monsieur le commandant."

"How do you explain the third wound?"

"Two," I answered, "were in self-defence, the third, sir, in passion."

"Ah; and how in self-defence?"

"The first, sir, on the arm as he drew his sword; the second on the
body as he lifted it to strike; the third, sir, on the body in the
anger of the moment."

"That will do," said the officer; "as the general is arriving to-day
I will lay the matter before him. But I warn you, prepare for a
court-martial and its result."

I saluted, and was led away.

There is no need to go through the preliminaries. The general received
the same information from me as the commandant had got, and at once
ordered a board of officers to try me for the offence.

"They will not have much difficulty in deciding, as the accused
confesses his crime, so I will wait here to confirm the finding," he
said to the commandant.

I heard this as I was facing about with the escort to return to the
guard-house, and the last vestige of hope disappeared.

I gave no further evidence before the court-martial than I had already
given to the commandant. I did not like to speak of the adjutant's
animosity towards me, as that and its consequences would supply a
motive for my act, and that I did not wish to impress upon their minds.
Better let them think it was sudden, as, indeed, it was in one way,
than deliberate and led up to by his own fault, as it was in another.
One must understand that, but for my resentment and sense of wrong and
oft-thought desire of his death, I should not have killed him; and one
must also know that, were he passing quietly by, I should not have
rushed upon him with my bayonet. My feelings were due to the injuries
and insults he had heaped upon me; my sudden action to his threat about
my life to Giulia, repeated, as it was, to me.

The result of the court-martial was that I was acquitted of the
killing, as that was done in self-defence, but found guilty of striking
my superior officer, and for that sentenced to be shot. This was duly
confirmed, read out on general parade, and the execution was set for
the following morning at eight o'clock. As I heard the words read
out, standing bareheaded, without a belt, between two soldiers with
loaded rifles and fixed bayonets, I felt that my last sun would set
that night. Little I guessed of what would be accomplished by the
wit and courage of a loving woman, by the unselfish chivalry of two
legionaries, who had gone separately to Giulia, neither knowing of the
other's design, and offered to help her and her husband, even at the
risk of their lives. And yet both these men made light of their action
at the time, and, were they in the land of the living to-day, would
surely only claim the credit of having stood by a comrade in trouble
and a woman in distress. They were the English corporal, whom I have
already mentioned, and an Irishman--a simple soldier--let us call him
Mac. When Giulia thanked the corporal he told her that, as he had lost
his honour long ago, it did not matter if he lost his life now.

"Surely not your honour?" she queried.

"Well, I think not, indeed, but the world, unfortunately, does not
agree with me."

Mac said he could not do less than try to rescue me,--"il est mon
pays, n'est ce pas?"--and he, because he was an Irishman, could always
get what he wished in the canteen. I did not know this. I found out,
however, that Giulia often gave Mac, the only other Irishman in the
battalion, brandy and wine and tobacco without payment, as he was my
countryman, and I do not blame the poor devil for accepting, for he was
always in trouble, his pay was constantly stopped, and a soldier can do
easily without his dinner, but is ripe for mischief if he is deprived
of his glass and of his pipe. Well, she did not lose in the end, as he
said--but that must come in its own place.

Now the Englishman was corporal of the guard that night. I did not know
anything definite about the plan for my escape, for when Giulia visited
me at about six o'clock in the evening all she could tell me was to
hope, to watch, and to be ready. I needed little advice about the last
two matters; as for hoping, that was almost impossible. About eight
o'clock the corporal visited me, as a matter of duty, to see that all
was right. He ordered me, in a loud, rough voice, to get up from where
I lay. As I stood in front of him he whispered: "After midnight," and

At about twenty minutes past twelve I heard a low voice calling to me
at the window. This I had left open, so that there might be a means
of communication if anyone could get to the other side. I had not
much expectation of this, as a sentry was posted just there, and no
legionary, I thought, would be such a fool as to risk punishment by
permitting even Giulia to speak to me. When I went to the window I
found Mac outside.

"Hurry, hurry," he said; "we must get these bars out quickly. We can
lose no time if we are to succeed."

Now there were two iron bars fixed vertically in the mud of which the
wall was built, and Mac, giving me a bayonet, told me to clear the
lower end of one, while he cleared the lower end of the other. We
said nothing more. We worked with a will. In a short time the ends
were free, and then Mac, a powerful man, pulled the bars out, so that
I could just squeeze my body through. I had, however, to take off my
tunic to do so, and I passed this out first. When I got out I saw a
body on the ground.

"You have his bayonet," said Mac, "take his rifle and belt as well."

The man lay quite motionless. I took his belt and put it on and then
possessed myself of the rifle. I felt happy enough now. Now they could
not shoot me like a dog; I could at least die fighting.

"Wait a moment," said Mac.

In a few minutes we heard the door of the guard-house opening, and then
the voice of the corporal telling the sentinel in front that he would
return in a quarter of an hour. The corporal came round to where we
stood. He had his rifle, bayonet, and ammunition. He said:

"Is it all right?"


"Are you armed?"

"Yes, both; he has the sentry's weapons."

"Very good; let us go. When we are at a safe distance from the
guard-house we shall pretend to be a visiting patrol."

In this way we passed the sentries at a distance from the main-guard
and marched boldly along till we came to where a native cavalryman was
on duty near the horses. He challenged, and received a satisfactory
reply. As we passed him the corporal halted us, and ordered me to hold
his rifle for a moment. I took it, and before I or the cavalry-guard
could understand the Englishman had the latter by the throat. Mac laid
down his rifle and seized the unfortunate fellow's arms, and in a few
moments he was a corpse.

"Now," said the corporal to me, "you get the woman, we will get ready
the horses."

"Where is she?" I asked.

"Some place over there." And he pointed with his hand.

I went in the direction pointed out and soon met Giulia. She had been
easily able to follow us, for our steady tramp could be heard at some
distance. We made no attempt to conceal our movements; we were to all
appearance a visiting patrol. As I came to her side I whispered: "It
goes very well, carissima. The others are getting out the horses."

Giulia flung herself into my arms. I snatched a kiss and led her to
where Mac and the Englishman were busy. They had two horses already
out, and were saddling them with all despatch. One must understand that
the saddles and bridles are always kept near the chargers, especially
in a place where at any moment a raid from the desert may have to be
repelled. Soon four horses were ready, and then we all mounted and rode
slowly towards a gate at the rear of the camp, where a single sentinel
was posted. This man, luckily for us, was a Turco. When the corporal
replied to his challenge and told him that we were officers he believed
the story. Then the Englishman and I dismounted, taking only our
bayonets, and approached the gate. The sentry protested against our
opening this, but I got behind him and flung my hands about his neck.
At the same moment the corporal wrenched away the rifle and bayonet and
buried his own steel in the Turco's heart.

We opened the gate as quickly and quietly as possible and went out. For
ten minutes we walked our horses slowly and almost noiselessly away
from the camp. Then we headed due south after a short consultation--the
corporal leading, Giulia and I following, Mac bringing up the rear.
We were now going straight for the Great Desert, where alone there
was hope of safety. Had we gone north towards the Mediterranean, our
freedom would not be worth twenty-four hours' purchase. As it was, we
had a good chance of getting safely away from French pursuit, for our
post lay at the extreme south of French territory in that part. But in
the desert what were we to do? We did not know--we did not think about
that. All our energies and thoughts were directed to getting clear
away from the French and native cavalry. We knew that the escape would
be soon discovered, but we fancied that no pursuit would be attempted
until dawn, and it was our business to travel as far as we could from
the cantonment in the short time that we had at our disposal. Moreover,
if we could only put a fair distance between ourselves and our pursuers
there was every likelihood that they would never catch up with us,
because the native horsemen would not care to go too far into the
desert, for they would get little quarter from the Arabs who infest it.
Why, they would be killed for the sake of their horses, equipments,
and arms, and the wild Arab does not fear the native levies as he does
the Frenchmen, for two reasons--in the first place, the Arab is quite
as good a fighting man, and he knows it, as the other African; in the
second, it is only the white soldiers whose weapons kill from afar. As
for us, we had to venture into the desert, as I have already said. We
wanted, to use another phrase of mine, to get from the fire to the
frying-pan--_du feu à la poêle_.

We kept steadily forward until the sun came up in the east with
his usual suddenness. Then we halted, and began to consider our
position. At best it was a bad one. We were four, with four horses;
for ourselves, we had only a haversack of food and a flask of brandy
that Giulia had been thoughtful enough to bring, for our horses we had
nothing. As far as fighting power went we were better off, as we had
three good rifles--_fusils Gras_ we called them--and eighty rounds of
ball cartridge per man. We had bayonets as well, and Giulia had a pair
of revolvers and a stiletto, so that, given a fair chance, we were good
enough for a dozen enemies. One must remember that we were desperate;
nothing could be gained by surrendering to Frenchmen, since our lives
were now forfeit; with a woman in the party we could not surrender to

The English corporal, Mac and I, spoke in English.

"I want you to promise one thing," I said to them: "if two go down, let
the third kill my wife."

"Oh, that's understood," said the Englishman.

"I hope it may not be my lot," said Mac, "but I'll do it all the same."

"Now," said the corporal, "we must go farther south and chance meeting
with the Arabs. I don't know," he went on, "whether I am anxious to
meet any or not. If we don't meet any we shall probably miss the wells;
if we do meet them there will be a fight."

"It is better to fight," said Mac, "than to die of thirst in the

"I think so too," I said.

"Well," asked the corporal, "shall we go straight on at top speed or

"Let us go on," I advised; "let us press on as far as we can, then if
we meet any Arabs, or if the spahis ride up to us, we can halt and
fight. Remember, without food or water for our horses we cannot run,
we cannot make even a running fight; it must be a standing fight to a

The Englishman and Mac agreed with me, and before we started again I
said to Giulia in their hearing:

"N'aie pas peur, ma bien chère, tu ne seras pas prisonnière, plutôt tu
seras tuée par le dernier protecteur."

"Je suis bien content," she replied, and, bowing prettily to the
others, she murmured a word of thanks.

We rode on for about two hours, and then halted to rest our horses and
to eat a little of Giulia's provisions. We did not drink, as brandy
is not a good thing when one has nothing else. If we could only get
our usual morning coffee we should have had a nip apiece, but we who
had soldiered in Algeria and other hot climates were too sensible to
touch fire-water without anything to qualify it and with the certainty
of a hot day's march before us. After eating and smoking we got back
into our saddles and rode on until the heat of the sun made us again
halt for our own sakes as well as on account of our animals. In spite
of our discomfort we felt fairly happy; we had made a good morning's
march since the sun appeared, and though we had done very little in the
darkness, yet we believed ourselves to be safe enough from pursuit.
After a couple of hours' rest we resolved, in spite of the heat, to
press on again, and, going rather slowly, we and our horses were not
too hard pressed. About four o'clock in the afternoon we again halted,
this time for about an hour, and then, as our horses did not seem to
suffer overmuch from the want of food and water--they were desert
horses, one must remember--we again mounted and continued our journey
to the south.

It was, I should say, a little past five o'clock in the afternoon when
Mac, who had halted for a moment to look to the north, shouted to
us that the spahis were coming. We turned, and saw, a long distance
away, for the atmosphere was very clear, a party of mounted soldiers
advancing on our tracks. There was no use in tiring our horses and
ourselves by an attempted flight; we understood quite plainly that the
native cavalrymen were certain to overtake us, and it was just as well
to await them where we stood. We dismounted, hobbled our horses, and
came together for consultation. The corporal said:

"We must stand at least ten paces apart from one another, unless they
charge; in that case we must stand back to back."

"Give your orders, corporal," I said, "and we will obey."

"Yes," assented Mac; "there must be a commanding officer in every

"Very good," said the corporal. "You, Mac, go ten paces to the right;
you stay here, mademoiselle; you"--this to me--"go ten paces farther to
the left; and I place myself at the extreme left, so we shall offer bad
targets, especially for cavalry."

When we had ranged ourselves as ordered our enemies were close enough
for us to note their numbers; they were a dozen in all.

"Why," shouted Mac, "it's only a corporal's squad; we're a corporal's
squad ourselves, boys, and we're whites."

"As soon as you think you can hit a man or horse fire," commanded the

In a moment or two I heard a report on the right. Mac, one of the best
shots in our old battalion, had fired, and the result was of good omen.
A horse fell heavily in the advance, pitching his rider forward, a
second stumbled over the first, staggered to the left, and brought down
a third. We cheered as we saw this, and the rest of the little troop
pulled up for a moment. As they did so the corporal and I fired. A man
tumbled out of his saddle on their right; in the centre a horse, mad
with the sudden shock and the pain of the bullet, suddenly ran away
with its rider. They passed not more than fifty yards to our right,
and Mac's rifle spoke again: the spahi flung up his hands and fell
forward on his horse's neck.

"Well done, Mac," I shouted out, "we can easily whip them now."

As I spoke I dropped on one knee and levelled my rifle at the little
knot of men and horses. The corporal and I fired almost together, and
though no man or horse fell, yet we felt certain that some damage was
done. We knew quite well, as every soldier knows, that a wounded horse
will not always fall and that an Arab will sit in his saddle with more
than one bullet in his body. One result our fire had, it caused the
spahis to withdraw out of range, and this gave us a respite. One will
ask: Why did not the cavalry return our fire? Well, it would do them no
good. Our weapons killed at a much longer range than theirs; for two
reasons--first, the rifle always carries farther than the carbine; and,
second, our weapons were of later pattern and, therefore, better than

We could now reckon up our successes. To Mac's first shot three horses
and three men had fallen; of these two horses and one man remained
on the ground. My first shot had sent a horse careering madly over
the desert, and Mac's second had put his rider out of the fight. The
corporal had also brought down a man, but this fellow had been carried
away by his comrades. As for the last shots, there was no apparent
result, but we believed that some damage had been done by them. Anyway
three men and three horses were accounted for, and we who had driven
back a dozen spahis had no fear of only nine, though we were not
such fools as to imagine that these hot-blooded Arabs were more than
temporarily discomfited by our success.

Very soon the Arabs again advanced, but in a different fashion. Instead
of now coming forward in a bunch they separated widely over the plain,
so as to form a great half-circle in our front and our flanks.

"Don't throw away a shot," commanded the corporal. And then, hesitating
for a moment, he continued: "Let us draw closer together--this is the
grand attack--if they don't come home now in their charge, they will
never do it."

We all closed in on Giulia; we formed a lozenge or diamond in array.
I looked straight towards the north, the corporal to the west, Mac to
the east, and Giulia was just at my back, but looking past me at the
quickly-moving spahis. Our bayonets were fixed. Suddenly one of the
spahis, the corporal, I suppose, uttered a loud cry and charged. All
the rest followed his example, and in a moment the nine were within
long range. We fired and loaded, fired again and loaded again. I cannot
say how often this occurred, but I saw a horse fall in my front to my
second bullet, and soon afterwards I knew that two men at least were
charging home. As they came with levelled lances I heard the corporal

"Mine are settled; I'm with you; Mac's all right; come out and meet

We went out together; as we did the corporal commanded:

"Go to the right; shoot your man if you can, if not, use your bayonet."

I fired and missed. I met the lowered lance with my bayonet, and, like
a fool, turned it up; the spahi let it go and swung the heavy butt
downwards and to his right rear. I could not avoid the blow; it took
me fairly on the breast, sending me to the ground. As he pulled at
the reins to get his charger back I heard a sharp report, followed by
another: my enemy collapsed and fell. As I rose painfully to my feet,
feeling as if a ton weight were laid upon my chest, Giulia caught me in
her arms and asked with anxiety if I were hurt. "Not much," I answered:
"but where are the others?" I saw Mac a few paces away aiming at a
retiring spahi; turning round I saw the English corporal wiping his
bayonet; near him lay a dead soldier. On the plain at various distances
lay men and horses; farther off than these the remains of the spahis
had assembled--one mounted and three dismounted men.

"What happened to you, mon camarade?" said the corporal.

"Oh," I replied, "like a fool I turned the lance up instead of down; he
then struck me with the butt, and Giulia shot him just in time to save

"It seems to me," said the corporal, speaking in French, "that Madame
Julie is always saving your life."

"Yes," I replied, smiling; "and I would rather owe it to her than to
anyone else."

We were now quite satisfied. It was absolutely impossible for the four
survivors to attack us with any hope of success owing to our weapons.
They were quite aware of this; in fact, they were in difficulties now,
for the question arose for them: How were they to get back to the
cantonment? Their horses were dead or wounded, for all we knew the men
might be wounded as well, and the spahis could not by any chance like
the prospect of meeting in the desert any of their co-religionists who
had remained unsubdued.

One thing we had to do, and do quickly. This was to get away as far
as possible from the remnants of the spahis. If we remained in their
vicinity until darkness came we should lose all the advantage of our
superior weapons, and we were well aware that the native troops are
daring and skilful fighters with cold steel. Moreover, it is the Arab
nature to lust for vengeance, especially on Christians, though our
Christianity was of a rather shadowy nature, more than to love even
his life, and these men had sufficient reason to hate us. Accordingly
we mounted and turned our weary horses' heads again towards the south,
going at an easy pace, and now and again looking back to see if there
were new pursuers on our track. When we had gone some distance and
had lost sight of the defeated spahis, the corporal said: "Let us turn
to the right; if new men have come up to the others, they will go due
south." The advice seemed good, so we went westwards for about two
hours, and then halted to rest ourselves and our horses. We were very
thirsty now, but Mac told us to our great delight that he had taken two
water bottles from dead spahis.

"Why did you not tell us before?" asked the corporal.

"I thought it best to wait, and, besides," he answered, "I was thinking
more about pursuit than about even the water."

We very soon half emptied one, Giulia getting the first and largest
drink, and then we poured into this bottle the contents of the spirit
flask that Giulia had brought.

"Now, madame," said the corporal, "you shall have the bottle of water
for yourself, we will be satisfied with the other."

This was a very good arrangement. Giulia did not like _eau-de-vie_ and
we did; moreover, Giulia wanted more liquid in the desert than three
veteran campaigners.

At about two o'clock in the morning we set out again, and travelled
very slowly in a south-westerly direction. Our horses were beginning
to show signs of failing, and we eagerly scanned the desert all around
us after the sun had risen to try to discover signs of an oasis or
even of a caravan. Our steeds would soon give up the struggle, that we
knew, and we could scarcely hope to keep it up on foot for more than
twenty-four hours. Now one must not imagine that we were hopeless.
On the contrary, we felt that fortune, having befriended us so long,
would not now abandon us. We thought of the difficulties surmounted
in the escape and of the good fight which we had made against our
pursuers, and with such recent memories our spirits could not be cast
down. We had a little food, a little drink, good weapons, and enough of
ammunition. We knew that every man could trust his comrades, and so,
while our horses lasted, and for at least a day afterwards, we could
laugh at Fate.

So we jogged along for some time after dawn, rested for an hour, and
then pushed on again. About midway between sunrise and noon Mac, whose
eyes were as keen as a vulture's, cried out:

"At last, boys, at last; look yonder."

We looked, and saw a slowly-moving object. There was no doubt about
what it was, our path would soon intersect that of a caravan. When
the parties met one of two things would be our portion--safety or
death--for, if we could not get water and food in hospitable fashion,
we had no resource but to fight for them, and desert fights are


I said to the Englishman:

"Let us halt, eat, and drink; we shall then be better able to fight, if
fighting should be necessary."

"That is right," replied the corporal; "we will finish all our
provisions and all the water, even madame's."

"Yes," I said; "we shall soon have as much as we need, or we shall need

We dismounted, divided the scanty remains of the food into four equal
portions, and all ate slowly and enjoyingly. Then we drank all the
water left in Giulia's bottle, sharing it as fairly as we could when we
had no measure and had to guess at the total amount and then at each
one's share. As for the little stock of brandy and water, that, on
Mac's suggestion, was to be kept until we were nearer the caravan and,
therefore, nearer the fight that might ensue. Giulia would take none,
but we others were very glad we had it, not that we wanted brandy to
nerve us for the fray, but a little does one no harm just before the
beginning of an engagement. After the meal we filled our pipes and lit
them with one of the few matches that Mac had in his pockets when we
came away from the cantonment, then we mounted again, and rode slowly
towards the point where we had resolved to strike the path of the

As we went along we observed that it was not a large company, and this
made us naturally glad. We only hoped now that there might be many
women and children and slaves; if so, our chances of success either
by fair means or by foul would be vastly increased. Very soon we saw
a couple of camels with riders coming towards us, and we knew that we
had been observed and that our friends of the caravan were curious to
find out the meaning of our little party traversing the desert. The
camelmen rode up to within easy range, but it was not our business to
begin a fight. We did not even call out to them; it was better, as the
corporal said, to let them go back and report, and then we should see
what the main body would do. When the Arabs, for such they evidently
were, had observed us closely for some minutes they turned and rode
back upon their comrades. These had halted, and as we were now in full
view we halted too. As we dismounted the corporal said:

"Now for the last drink."

"Not the last, I hope," said Mac.

"Oh, who the devil knows and who the devil cares?" answered the
Englishman. Then, as if ashamed of showing any emotion, he went on: "I
beg your pardon, I could not help speaking so hastily just now; I am
irritable, but I promise you I shall be cool enough in the fight."

"Oh, it's all right," replied Mac; "I've often been a bit hasty myself."

Giulia, scarcely understanding, looked at me with a puzzled air. When I
smiled at her she smiled back at me, her confidence restored.

When we had drunk the brandy and water I asked the corporal whether or
not we should fight the desert Arabs as we had fought the spahis.

"Certainly yes," he replied; "we did well in the rehearsal, may we not
hope to do even better now?"

"I think so," I answered; "you see it is no longer a plan; it is now,
as it were, a piece of drill that we have learned."

"Yes," said Mac; "we can go through it now as a soldier goes through
the bayonet exercise; yes, let us fight as we fought before."

"If the battle does not go well," said Giulia, "you must not forget

"But no," I answered her, "but no; that is the one thing that we others
are always thinking about. You must be saved, even though safety lay
only in death."

"But the work must be done thoroughly," she insisted.

"Madame need not fear," said the corporal, speaking in a low voice;
"even were I in my death agony, I should have strength enough left to

"So should I," said Mac, "but I'd be sorry all the same." I was about
to speak, but Giulia put her finger on my lips, and said:

"I am well content, I am almost happy."

Very soon a number of men, some on camels, others on horses, rode out
from the caravan towards us. Our horses were hobbled, as we preferred
to fight on foot. We were infantrymen by training, and, even had we
been of the cavalry, we could get no good from our chargers after the
long journey without food or water. When we ranged ourselves in open
order the oncoming Arabs halted, and evidently consulted together.
After a few moments of deliberation they divided into two parties, each
about half-a-dozen strong, and prepared to attack us on both flanks.
When the party on the right came within long range Mac called out:

"Am I to fire, corporal?"

"Yes; when you think you can hit man or camel or horse," replied the

Almost immediately afterwards Mac fired, but no result seemed to follow
the shot. He fired a second time, and brought down a man who was riding
on a camel somewhat in advance of the others, brandishing a lance. A
hurried volley came towards us now, but the range was too great for
their guns, and we did not even hear the whistle of the bullets. The
corporal and I had already begun to fire on the party approaching our
left, and very soon a hot fusilade was going on. Luckily for us our
opponents did not attempt to charge; they foolishly depended on their
fire arms, with the result that we had emptied three saddles before
their bullets began to hiss past our ears. When at last their bullets
began to be unpleasantly perceptible the nearest Arab was full 300
yards away, and not one of us had been touched. We were now warming to
the work, and at such a range in so clear an atmosphere it was easy for
our rifles to tell. Not more than a dozen shots had whizzed past our
heads when the Arabs were forced to retire, leaving five men on the
plain, while two camels sprawling on the ground and two horses standing
shivering with hanging heads told us that the animals had suffered as
well as the men. As the Arabs galloped away we fired once or twice at
their backs, but it is very hard for a soldier to hit a horse or a man
going away from him.

We came together for a council of war. We at length decided to give
them half-an-hour to recommence the attack; if they did not assail us
again within that time, or if they should continue their journey, we
were then to assault the caravan. The plain fact was that we had to get
possession of the caravan; if we did not, our horses would fail, and
we, on foot in the desert, should have no chance of saving our lives.
Moreover, we felt justified in acting as highway robbers, for the Arabs
had deliberately halted, and then sallied forth to take our lives,
so as to possess themselves of our horses and arms. For me there was
another thought: if the fight had gone against us, as it might easily
have done if the Arabs had had sense enough to scatter and then to come
straight home in a charge, Giulia would have had to die. There was no
other resource. We Europeans could not endure the thought that a woman
of our own blood, of our own colour, of our own ideas, should become
the slave of a Bedouin of the desert.

We did not have to wait long. Ten men, five on camels, five on
horseback, rode out from the caravan and started in a headlong charge
against us. They began to gallop at a very long distance off, and this
was lucky for us, for when the horses arrived at our position they were
quite blown. Our rifles spoke quickly and well. There was no aiming at
individuals, all we tried to do was to put as many bullets as we could
into the moving mass before it could reach our bayonets. We were in
close order now, with Giulia in the rear. In spite of all our efforts
the Arabs reached the spot where we were, but neither horse nor camel
would come upon the steel. All swerved aside, and the Arabs, firing
from the backs of their animals, tried to shoot us down. But our rifles
were better, far better, and we were steady as rocks upon the ground.
Moreover, Giulia's revolvers were emptied, all save one chamber, and
that was kept for herself. I cannot tell about my comrades, except that
each did his duty, but I can tell what happened to myself. An Arab
mounted on a camel tried to reach me with his spear; I lunged at his
camel's snout, and got my bayonet well home. The terrified animal drew
back, and as it did so I shot its rider dead. A second Arab, who had
dismounted, or whose horse had been shot, came at me with a scimitar.
But it was of no use; the long rifle and bayonet got in twice--once, as
I had been taught long before, on the face, the second time full in the
region of the heart. That ended my fighting for the day. The attack was
over. One Arab was galloping away, but not so fast that a bullet from
Mac's rifle could not reach him; two or three wounded who were trying
to go off were soon settled by the English corporal and myself. We had
no mercy in our hearts; they would not give us quarter, and we would
give none to them. Not a man of the ten who attacked us escaped, and
had a hundred others been in our power at the time we should have slain
them all.

It was now our turn to attack. We mounted our horses, having first
freed them from their hobbles, and advanced as quickly as the poor
brutes could move towards the place where the caravan lay. When we
came within about 500 yards of it three or four Arabs opened fire. Mac
and the English corporal dismounted and returned the fire with success.
After a few shots two of the Arabs fell, and then the shooting ceased.
An old man, evidently a sheik, came forward with his hands raised above
his head and spoke to us in Arabic. The corporal knew a few words of
the language, and told him that we wanted water and food. When the
sheik heard this he offered us all that the caravan had of what we
required, and begged us to spare the lives of all who surrendered.
This we promised to do, and in a quarter of an hour we were furnished
with four fresh saddle-horses and two others for burden, with enough
of food to last a fortnight, and a fair supply of water. We left the
horses that had hitherto borne us to the beaten party; they were worn
out, and, besides, they bore the stamp of the French Government. We
took clothing also from four of the dead men, and afterwards found an
opportunity of changing our uniform--of course, only kepi, tunic, and
trousers--for an attire more befitting the desert and, therefore, less
noticeable in it. Even Giulia, the while we turned our backs, put on an
Arab dress, and many merry compliments we paid her about it.

When we left the caravan we pushed south at full speed for
half-an-hour. Then turning to the west we went on at a fairly quick
pace for more than two hours. As we might by that time consider that we
had reached a place of comparative safety we halted for a rest. We had
made a good meal of dates, bread and water after seizing the caravan,
and so felt no hunger, but we soldiers--pretended Arabs I suppose we
ought to call ourselves now--were glad to fill our pipes and talk over
the two excellent fights we had made, for liberty first, and then for
life. But we did not halt long; we had still to go farther west, and
then to turn our horses' heads north for Morocco. This dangerous way
through savage Sahara and almost as savage Morocco was for us the one
way of escape, the one way of safety, the one way that would bring
us back to civilisation and to happiness. Yet, dangerous as it was,
we were filled with high hopes of success. All our undertakings had
prospered, somehow or other; each one felt that there was no danger in
the world that he and his good comrades could not overcome. And I am
the sole survivor--but why should I anticipate?

For three days we travelled due west, caring our horses and sparing
our supplies. Then we came upon an oasis, at which we refilled our
water bottles. Luckily, there was not a soul at it or in sight, for we
had no desire, now that we were sufficiently well equipped with all
that we wanted, to try conclusions again with the fighting men of the
desert. Our only wish at the time was to travel without attracting the
observation of any. Then we turned towards the north-west and went
slowly and cautiously along. We knew that soon we should be in the
land of the Moors, but we were not so foolish as to believe that we
should find a settled government there. We were quite well aware that
most of the tribes south of the Atlas Mountains yield obedience only
to their own chiefs, but we had no fear of the agricultural people.
The only ones likely to attack us were the nomadic Arabs, and most
of these would be left behind by us along with the desert. One must
remember that in the Sahara there is but one law, the law of force, the
plunderer of to-day is often the plundered of to-morrow. Where all are
robbers, robbery is no reproach. In Morocco, however, even south of the
Atlas Mountains, people have settled down in villages, poor and dirty
it is true, but still homes. Where men have houses, ploughs, and oxen
they begin to be civilised, and one may generally pass along without
molestation. One must pay his way, of course, and we had money enough
to do that, as Giulia had taken all her savings with her. True, our
money might excite their cupidity, but then we need never show much
at a time, and we presented all the appearance of a party that could
defend its possessions. The English corporal and Mac did look really
formidable; their beards had not been shaved since we came away, and I
in fun nicknamed Mac the "hirsute tiger" and the corporal the "shaggy
lion." They laughed at the names and at one another, and when the jest
was explained to Giulia she laughed too, but not, as I noticed, with
the same heartiness as of old. Poor girl! she was not at all well. Her
strength was reduced, and the troubles, the anxieties, the privations
of her life in the desert, following upon her agony before and during
my trial, were beginning to tell seriously upon her, and I could do
nothing to spare her in the least!

As we were riding along together one day the corporal said--in English,
so that Giulia might not understand:

"It is all very well for you, Jean--you ought to be happy because you
have escaped death--but what are Mac and I to do if we ever escape from
the desert?"

I did not say anything in reply, but Mac spoke.

"I am satisfied if I can get home to Ireland once more; once there I
will think twice before again becoming an exile."

"Very good," answered the corporal; "but I have no home to go to."

"Can you not go to the United States," I asked, "and make a new home

"Yes, yes, I have thought of that; but----"

He said no more, and we all rode silently on for a time.

That night, when Mac called me for my turn of guard, he said:

"Did you notice how queer the corporal was to-day?"

"Oh yes; and so did Giulia. She asked me if there was anything wrong,
and I knew not what to tell her."

"Ma foi," said Mac, "I see trouble ahead. Believe me, there will be at
least one more fight, and 'twill be for the corporal's satisfaction
this time."

"I can't help it," I replied; "he fought for me, and if he wants me
I'll fight for him."

"So will I," answered Mac. "Good night."

About two days afterwards we came to a little village, and boldly
demanded food, water and lodging. We promised to pay for all we got,
but we took care to drive a hard bargain, so that they might think us
poorer than we were. People will tell you about Arabian and Moorish and
Turkish hospitality, but then these have never been with Arabs or Moors
or Turks; if they had been, they would know that such hospitality has
its price and that the price is limited by two things only--the wealth
and the cunning of the purchaser. Of course, we kept the usual watches
that night; we thought we were safe, but one can never be safe enough.

Next morning we got ready to depart. Giulia, Mac, and I had gone
slightly in advance, Mac and I leading the horses that carried our
supplies. The corporal was last. Suddenly we heard a woman's cry, then
a loud oath and a shriek, and, looking back, we saw the Englishman
lifting an Arab, or rather a Berber, woman to his saddle. Just as he
succeeded a native rushed at him with a spear and stabbed him twice
in the side. The corporal let go his hold of the woman and tried to
unsling his rifle, but was unable to do so before the Berber thrust
at him again, and brought him heavily to the ground. I had meanwhile
dropped the bridle of the horse that I was leading and turned back.
My rifle was unslung in a moment, and I fired at almost point-blank
range at the Berber, just as he was preparing to drive his weapon home
again in the body of my prostrate comrade. He flung up his arms and
stumbled forward, tripping over the corporal. I rode back to help the
Englishman, but it was too late; he was dead. Meanwhile shots began to
fly round us; all the villagers were aroused by the outcry and the
report of my rifle. Mac shouted to me to come away; there was no hope
save in instant flight. I turned again, and regained Giulia's side,
only to find that the pack-horses had stampeded. Mac fired at the crowd
of natives, with what success I know not, and then the three of us
galloped away at top speed, followed as we went by a dropping fire.

When we had got about half-a-mile from the village we looked back,
and saw we were pursued. Six or eight Berbers were on our trail, and
were evidently determined to take vengeance on us for the corporal's
rashness. Our horses were quite fresh, and we pushed on, as it would
not do to fight too near their village, for then they might be so
reinforced that all hope of success on our part would disappear. If we
could only get the half-dozen or so that followed us sufficiently far
away we could enter into a fight with confidence. We had the European's
usual contempt for savages, and our two previous fights had given us
a wonderful amount of faith in ourselves and our weapons. True our
fighting power had been much diminished by the death of the Englishman,
for the loss of one rifle was serious in so small a band; but, even
so, Mac and I were quite sure that we could first stall off the grand
attack, and then inflict such damage on our opponents that they, or
what was left of them, would be glad enough to retire.

We had gone thus about five or six miles when Mac called to Giulia and
me to pull up. "No," I shouted; "let us press on a little farther."
Mac shook his head. I saw that he was very pale; the fear that another
comrade was passing away took instant possession of my heart. When we
halted the pursuing Berbers were not more than half-a-mile away; they
were six in number, and kept close together.

"What is wrong?" I asked.

"I was hurt," Mac replied, "in the firing at the village, and I could
not go farther at that pace."

"Where did you get it?"

"In the right side." And he held his hands pressed upon his body just
above the right groin.

"It is all right," he went on. "I can get through this fight, but
after----" He stopped, smiled feebly, and shook his head. In a moment I
had taken off his belt, opened his clothes, and looked for the wound.
It was a small one, just a little hole in the side, with scarcely any
outflow of blood. This made me serious. I had often seen similar ones,
and I knew, as all soldiers do, that the wound that does not bleed
outwardly bleeds inwardly, and is the most dangerous for the sufferer
and the most difficult for the surgeon.

"Never mind," said Mac; "you can do nothing--at least you cannot until
we have beaten off these rascals. Do not weep, petite," he said to
Giulia; "I now repay you for all your kindness to me when my pay was

This only made Giulia weep all the more. Poor girl, it was for her a
morning of tribulation.

But the work had to be done. We all lay down close together, and as
soon as the Berbers came within easy range Mac and I opened fire.
The fight was like both the others, except that these Berbers, being
village-bred agriculturists, did not try to charge us with so much
resolution as either the spahis or the Bedouins. They fired upon us for
some time, but Mac and I were too well armed to mind much the popping
of their guns, and when we had shot three men and a couple of horses
the survivors withdrew. Then Mac insisted that we should mount and go
forward again, because, as he truly said, if others came up they might
attack us in that place, but the sight of their dead comrades would
scarcely impel them to pursue. Giulia and I could not deny this. It was
apparent that the best chance of safety lay in leaving the field to
the dead and making good our retreat before the Berbers learned that
another man of ours had been placed _hors de combat_. Nevertheless, it
was with heavy hearts that we remounted. It pained Giulia and myself to
see the changed look in our good comrade's eyes; his forced smile made
us sad, for the thought crossed our minds that soon we should be alone
together in a savage land, without a friend, and almost without hope.


We struggled on together for about half-an-hour. Then Mac said that
he could go no farther, and Giulia and I lifted him out of the saddle
and placed him tenderly on the ground. I asked him if he were in much
pain; he said that he felt very little, but that his lower limbs were
becoming numbed.

"The end cannot be far off," he went on, "and, when I am gone, take my
rifle and cartridges, and put as great a distance as possible between
yourselves and the Berbers."

"Do not think of us," I replied, "think of yourself; you have but a
short time to make your peace with God."

He said nothing to me, but I saw his lips moving in quiet prayer. After
some time he said:

"Good-bye, my good comrades; it is nearly over."

Giulia was weeping, and there were tears also in my eyes. I pressed his
hand, and Giulia, bending down, kissed him on the forehead. A moment
after he ejaculated: "O Lord, have mercy." And at the words his gallant
spirit passed away.

We were now lonely indeed. In one morning Giulia and I had lost our
two companions--the two men who did not hesitate to risk their lives,
as they used to put it, for the comrade in trouble and the woman in
distress. The outlook that had been so favourable the day before was
now dark and gloomy. Two-thirds of our fighting strength had gone; but
that was not the worst: we missed even more the ruined Englishman's
stern manner and stout heart, the laughing Irishman's constant wit on
the march and steady earnestness in the fight. Both were good friends,
of totally different natures, yet equally sympathetic; each made up
for what the other lacked. One never minded the gloom that too often
sat upon the corporal's brow in listening to the ceaseless jesting and
careless laughter of the simple soldier; and when the fight came one
felt that Mac would care, and care well, for his share of it, but that
the Englishman, while working as a fighting man, was planning as our

People will say: Oh, but you were once sergeant-major, and why did
not you command rather than the corporal? Well, for two good reasons.
First, if I had once been sergeant-major, he had once been captain.
Second, somebody had to be close to Giulia in every fight, for reasons
that may be guessed--and who had a better right to be at her side than

There was no time for us to bury poor Mac, even had I pick and shovel
for the work. Anyway, no soldier thinks much about where his body will
lie after death: no grave at all is as good as a place in a trench
where hundreds of others are pressing and crowding around. When you
have once seen a battlefield grave, where three or four hundred lie
like sardines in a tin, you will find little, if indeed any, poetry in
the words "God's acre." Not that the burial party should be blamed, be
it well understood. Oh no! they must think of the living, especially
the wounded, and in a hot climate quick burial is the only thing to
prevent a pestilence of the sun.

Giulia and I managed to go about twelve kilometres farther on our road
that day. I did not want to go so far, but she insisted. She knew,
as I did, that she was not in a fit state to travel such a distance;
but some fear of the Berbers who had killed our comrades had taken
possession of her heart, and she would not, nay, she could not, rest
until we were quite safe from further pursuit. But she could not hold
out very long; at last even to sit her horse when going at a mere
walking pace was too much for her strength, and she was compelled to
yield to my entreaties and to dismount and rest. Poor girl! she was
very nervous and excited. Even the struggles that ended in complete
success had tried her too much, and now she felt with tenfold anxiety
and apprehension the death of the two loyal, brave, and generous
comrades who had been so suddenly lost. And a woman always feels the
loss of a friend more than a man does, because a man can easily get
another, but a women must be always suspicious of those who tender her
friendship, lest there be poison in the gift.

That night we could set no guard. Both of us were weary in spirit and
in body. There was no one to relieve me if I watched, and Giulia could
not rest unless I was so near that her hand could always touch me. I
thought of a plan: it was to picket the horses so that there should
be no danger of losing them, and then to withdraw about four hundred
yards from the spot where they were placed. The horses might attract
enemies in the night, but if we were some distance away, we ought to
be in comparative safety. Giulia assented; and when I had settled the
horses for the night I helped her to a spot a good distance from them,
and after a little interval, during which Giulia wept and I comforted
her as best I could, we lay down to rest in the desert side by side. As
I was sleeping, as a soldier sleeps who has learned to rest with aching
body or even with aching heart, Giulia clasped me by the shoulder, and
brought me back to active thought and life.

"What! is there an attack?" And I tried for my rifle in the dark.

"No, no! oh no! it is not that. I am ill; oh, what shall I do!"

But I will not tell the story. The night wore on, and when dawn came
it was only to show me that the best of all my comrades, the comrade
who made life happy and a thing of joy, the woman who had loved and
trusted, ever true, ever unchanging, was about to pass out of my life
for ever. The end came shortly after the dawn. It was quiet, for poor
Giulia was worn out with all that she had gone through, and, when all
was over, Arab or Berber or robber of the road might take my life, and
I should not resist. What was the good of life since I had lost my love?

All that day I stayed quietly by the dead body of my dear one. I forgot
the horses; I forgot the danger of attack; I forgot all things save
that I was at last alone, really alone, in the world. I thought of
those whom I had loved and lost--Nicholas the Russian, the English
corporal, Mac; but every moment my thoughts reverted to the greatest
loss of all--the loss of her whose corpse, pale and bloodless, it is
true, but with an indefinable beauty of feature and expression, lay
quiet and still upon the sand.

In the evening I dug a grave with my bayonet, and gently, tenderly,
laid there to rest the remains of her who had loved me with so great a

       *       *       *       *       *

There is little more to be said. I had no difficulty in making my way
to Tangier. I was not molested, nor did I molest anyone. The only
thought in my mind was to get as far away as possible from Africa--the
land for me of so many chances and changes, of exquisite love and still
more exquisite sorrow. I was hopeless, heartless, not in the sense that
I was heartless to others--I was heartless only for myself.

From Tangier I crossed to Spain, and there found a relation at
Salamanca--one of those men who, studying for the priesthood, choose
the foreign colleges rather than Maynooth. He helped me with money to
reach Ireland, but from him, as from all others, I kept the true story,
the story, I may now say, of "twenty golden years ago."


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