Title: The Convent School - Early Experiences of a Young Flagellant
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           THE
     Convent School,


    EARLY EXPERIENCES
           OF
   A YOUNG FLAGELLANT.

  BY ROSA BELINDA COOTE.


         LONDON:
    PRIVATELY PRINTED.
          1898.



[Decoration]

  Salomon said, in accents mild,
    Spare the rod and spoil the child;
  Be they man or be they maid,
  Whip and wallop ’em, Salomon said


The dicta of the Wise Man concerning discipline have been the source
of inexpressible dolour to children for very many centuries; and it
has only been within the last sixty years that ferocity in the
treatment of infants (I am speaking of English children, Jean Jacques
Rousseau shamed the French out of the practice of beating their
offspring, nearly a hundred years ago) has been gradually diminishing.
In the eighteenth century the lot of the British juvenile was
certainly a cruel one That admirable woman, the mother of the
Wesleys, held that a child should be made to desist from crying and to
“fear the rod” at the mature age of twelve months; and Miss Maria
Semple, writing on education in 1812, tells a story of a lady who was
educated in early years by a relative. “On a certain day in every week
she received corporal chastisement. If she had committed faults, ‘the
punishment was due;’ if she had not, she probably would in the week
ensuing. At the distance of more than half-a-century, the memory of
this person, who bore a public character of piety and virtue, was
spoken of, and justly, with aversion by the person she had thus
treated.” Thus Miss Maria Semple.—“G. A. S.,” in the _Illustrated
London News_.



INTRODUCTORY LETTER OF THE AUTHORESS.


My Dear Nellie,—

Since writing you my confessions, in that series of letters which you
flattered me by calling “most interesting facts, and deliciously
voluptuous reading for lovers of the rod,” the following curious
narrative has been entrusted to my confidential keeping by a young
Countess of my acquaintance; but as there are no secrets between us,
and I think it may afford some little pleasure in the perusal, I
hasten to copy it out for you, from notes which I made day by day at
the bedside of the dear young creature, as she told the particulars to
me, at my visits during her long and painful illness, now, I am
afraid, close upon a fatal termination; and you may guess how grieved
I am to think that, although I now reserve her name as a secret, too
solemn to be entrusted, even to you, the stillness of the grave will
soon do away with all necessity for such reticence. Should my
confessions ever be printed after our time, this tale certainly ought
to bear them company, either as prefix or addenda.

        Believe me, dear Nellie,
          Your ever affectionate friend,
            Rosa Belinda Coote.

London, 10th January, 1825.



[Decoration]


   THE CONVENT SCHOOL,
           OR
    EARLY EXPERIENCES
           OF
   A YOUNG FLAGELLANT



Chapter I

_The Early Life of Lucille_


Since, dear Rosie, you are so interested to hear my birching and
whipping experiences, I will try to recollect them as well as
possible, but hope you will consider my weak state of health, and not
press me to tell you too much at once.

Perhaps you do not know that almost from my infancy it was arranged
that I should marry the Earl of Ellington, who was about twelve years
my senior, being a family compact of a purely mercenary character,
designed to consolidate some very doubtful title deeds, which now that
our union has proved unfruitful, are likely to entail great expense
and annoyance to our heirs-at-law.

My father, you know, was the Honourable Mr. Warton, and my mother died
in giving birth to myself, so that I was brought up under a nurse, and
afterwards, when about seven years old, a young lady was engaged as
governess to instil my juvenile mind with the rudiments of learning,
preparatory to being sent to a finishing school.

This lady’s name was Miss Birch, and although my papa had known her
father, Dr. Birch, for some years, I now believe that the fascination
of her name had great influence with him in making a selection from
the numerous, and in many instances more eligible ladies, who applied
for the situation.

Miss Birch was a dark lady about thirty years of age when she entered
our family, very good-looking, rather large pouting mouth, set off
with lovely rows of most pearly white teeth, which, when she smiled or
said much showed to beautiful effect in contrast to her rather swarthy
complexion, dark brown eyes, and thick bushy black arching eyebrows,
her figure was well moulded and plump, and being about five feet six,
she had quite a commanding presence.

I was nearly eight years old before I began to notice the significant
looks which occasionally passed between papa and governess, but hints
were so often thrown out about the necessity of procuring a good birch
rod for the naughty bottom of Lucille, that I was gradually awakened
to the discovery of some most mysterious kind of understanding which
must subsist between them. My infant brain was much puzzled and
alarmed, as I already felt in imagination the tingling smart of the
green twigs I so much dreaded.

Miss Birch seemed more exacting and severe over my lessons, especially
when papa happened to be in the schoolroom, and now I will tell you my
first experience of the rod.

One day after failing both in spelling and arithmetic she rang the
bell, and ordered the servant to request Mr. Warton’s presence in the
schoolroom for a few minutes. Papa entered with a very serious look,
requesting Miss Birch to inform him of the cause of sending for him.

“Mr. Warton,” said my governess, “you know we have had many serious
conversations about the necessity for proper correction in case Miss
Lucille should continue so inattentive to her studies, to-day she has
failed in everything, and I am certain that unless her energies are
sharpened up by the stinging smart of the rod she will go from bad to
worse; I am so averse to wield the birch myself, and would much
prefer that her papa should take in hand the serious whipping she
ought to have.”

Papa.—“Lucille, you hear what Miss Birch says, (I noticed him cast
most excited and amorous looks towards the governess as he spoke), she
has been most forbearing with you, and interceded with me many times
to save your bottom, and even now cannot bring herself to lift her own
hand to make you smart a little; it must indeed be a serious fault to
induce her to ask me to use the rod, but, ‘Spare the rod and spoil the
child,’ has always been a maxim with me; lay her across your lap, Miss
Birch, and pull up her clothes, whilst I get the rod out of the table
drawer.”

Miss Birch, with heaving bosom, and quite a deep blush upon her
face.—“I feel as ashamed at baring her naughty posteriors as if I was
going to suffer the degradation and humiliation myself, but come,
Lucille dear, you must bear it, and I hope you will be a better and
more diligent girl in future.” Then catching me by the wrist, as I
stood by her side covered with confusion, she tried to lay me across
her knees, but I struggled and screamed, “No! No!! No!!! I won’t be
whipped! Oh! Oh!! dear papa, do forgive me this time!” my face quite
crimson and streaming with tears.

Papa, having got out the rod, a fine switch of long thin birch twigs,
tied up with velvet and silk ribbons at the handle,—“Come! Come!!
Lucille, this resistance will only make it worse for you.” As he
seized and threw me on the governess’s lap, Miss Birch securing my
head well under her left arm, speedily pulled up dress and skirts,
till my fat little bottom was exposed in a tight fitting pair of
drawers, my legs being left to kick about, although I was quite firmly
secured, and to all intents quite helpless, and my toes could scarcely
touch the ground.

I could hear papa whisking the birch about, and then he said, “That
will do famously, Miss Birch, keep her head and shoulders well down as
you hold up her skirts; much as I pity my darling little Lucille, I
must do my duty and make her smart for her idleness in school.”

My face was burning hot with the deep blushes of shame, and I
struggled desperately to free my head from the vice-like pressure of
Miss Birch’s arm, as I begged with piteous sobs to be let off for this
once. “Oh! dear papa! Oh! pray don’t beat me!”

Papa.—“Indeed, I must, though every blow will send a pang to my own
heart, you naughty, bad, inattentive girl, all this has come by your
great idleness, and trusting too much to the kind heart of your
governess.” As he said this, three sharp stinging cuts whacked on my
tight-fitting drawers in quick succession.

The pain was intense, I kicked, writhed and screamed for “Mercy!
Mercy! Oh! Oh!! I will be good! Oh! Papa! Oh, Miss Birch, do let me
go!”

Papa, in quite an excited tone, (for I could see nothing), “So you
mean to be good in future! Do you feel the birch is doing you good
already? Ha! ha!! my little Lucille, you must have a little more yet
to make a perfect cure of your idleness.” Whack—whack—whack—whack—four
more cuts, each one more agonizing than the last, in spite of my
sobbing and screaming. “Now, Miss Birch,” he continued, “let her feel
it on the bare flesh, open her drawers so we can see the effects of
the cuts.”

This was at once done, as I cried, “Ah! Ah!! No! No!! Oh, Papa! How
cruel!”

Papa.—“What a sight. The rod has made her bottom blush finely. It’s
best to make her feel sore a few days, or she will soon forget it, and
relapse into her old ways.”

The drawers were unbuttoned, and I could feel they were quite pulled
down my thighs, exposing the entire surface of my smarting rump, but
I had only a few moments for reflection before the blows fell again in
rapid succession, cutting, tearing, and scratching the skin, whilst
the boiling blood in my veins seemed to throb as if it must spurt
through the pores at every burning touch of the rod.

My head was pressed against the tumultuously heaving bosom of my
governess, and notwithstanding the intensity of my suffering, I could
plainly hear the beating of her heart, and knew that her thighs were
tightly compressed together, whilst a strange tremor pervaded her
entire frame.

“There, there, that will do,” said Papa, in a very excited tone. “I’ve
drawn the blood for her. Now, Miss Dunce, kneel and kiss the rod, and
ask your kind governess to forgive you.”

I slipped down on my knees, and hiding my face in my hands in her lap,
promised Miss Birch “if she would forgive me now, to be a better girl
in future.”

“That will do. I don’t want to be too hard upon Lucille this time. We
will leave her to think over her disgrace and shame, and let her
beware of the birch again,” said Papa, taking Miss Birch’s hand, to
lead her from the room. “This has been a most agitating scene for your
governess, who must repose in her private room for a while to recover
herself.”

The schoolroom door, which opened directly into her private room, was
closed upon me, and the key turned in the lock, but all my hurts and
bruises were insufficient to distract my attention from the peculiarly
warm and excited glances which passed from papa towards my governess,
whose face was suffused with blushes, and her eyes turned down, as if
afraid to meet his ardent looks as they passed from the room.

My curiosity was excited so much, that I listened at the keyhole. Papa
was evidently remaining in the governess’s room. I could hear a
rustling of her dress, as if some little struggle was taking place; a
sound of smothered kisses, and soft expostulatory ejaculations, such
as, “I dare not! Oh! No! No!! Not now! Pray leave me! Oh! Oh!!” Then
an almost perfect quiet, except for a slight rustling sound, and, now
and then, broken sighs with heavy breathing.

At last all was quiet, and having now been left more than half-an-hour
to myself in the schoolroom, I ventured to tap at the door and beg
Miss Birch to let me into her room, as I would never, never, offend
again.

After a very slight delay, the door was unlocked, and my governess
received me with expressions of great tenderness, kissed her poor
Lucille, and hoped my poor bottom was not too sore. Her eyes were
melting with what I should now call a soft voluptuous languor, and
scintillated with extraordinary brilliancy, all of which set my young
ideas in a flutter of wonderment, as to the extraordinary cause of her
prolonged emotion.

Things went on pretty smoothly for some time, but I found it quite
impossible to avoid coming under the rod every now and then, the
chastisement getting more severe on every fresh occasion.

Papa always had to handle the twigs, and when I began to get older,
Miss Birch would tie me up and leave the room, as she pretended to be
quite unable to bear the scene. Still papa would always go into her
sanctum at the conclusion of my whipping, to talk the matter over with
my governess.

I will tell you of a fearful birching, the last I had before being
sent to the Convent School; it does not matter what the fault was, but
it must have been something very serious. Papa and Miss Birch both
helped to tie me up on a four poster bed in my own room. I was
stripped of every thing but my skirts and drawers, which were all
secured and arranged so as to expose my back parts in the best
possible manner for whipping. My hands were tied to the bed post high
above my head, and making me kneel on the bed, one leg was secured at
the knee to the same post, my other leg being left free to kick about.

Miss Birch vanished, and papa arming himself with a formidable rood,
elegantly trimmed as usual, began by lecturing me on my fault.

“You impudent girl, I can scarcely believe it of you, Lucille, now you
are just upon twelve, but this is the last whipping you will get at my
hands, and I promise you it shall be a sound one, and then I’ll pack
you off to the convent, with instructions to the sisters to be very
strict in looking after you.”

“Oh! Oh!! Papa,” I implored, “Have mercy, don’t be so severe, indeed I
won’t do it again!”

“Hold your tongue, Miss,” he said, impatiently, “you always cry before
you are hurt, but you shall remember this whipping as long as you
live;” giving me a slashing cut round my loins, then another, and
another on each cheek of my buttocks, “how do you like it, you bad
girl! will you turn over a new leaf when you leave home? Will you?
Will your? Will you? Will you?” Each question being accompanied by a
terrific smarter; the blows seemed to cut like a red hot knife, and my
boiling blood tingled from the tips of my fingers to the ends of my
toes. I could feel great burning bursting weals rising on my skin at
every cut; I screamed and plunged till the bed-post creaked with the
strain, and my wrists and knee were quite pained by the tight
ligatures by which they were secured.

“Let this be a solemn warning to you, Miss Lucille,” he continued,
“but I’m afraid all my efforts for your reformation are quite thrown
away upon such a worthless baggage,” cutting away still more
furiously, and as I turned my head to scream and implore for mercy, I
could see how excited he was over the business with flushed face and
sparkling eyes; he was a fine handsome man of about forty-five, and
gave me the idea of looking as if in the midst of a tremendous battle.

Anything but a bloodless battle for me; my bottom was soon dripping
with the ruby drops of my young blood, the sight of which seemed only
to exasperate him still more.

“Ah! You little wretch. Scream away!” he exclaimed. “It’s a beautiful
sight to see you writhing and plunging under every scathing cut. May
it do you good, and draw the imprudence out of your tail. Will you?
Will you, try and behave better, or shall I send you off to the
convent at once, in their holiday time? There! There!! There!!!”

He finished with three tremendous cuts, without waiting for my reply,
and sank back, gasping for breath, into an easy chair.

It was quite a minute or two before my screams and moans of agony
subsided. Then Miss Birch coming in, released my hands and leg, an
ordering me to rest on the bed for a while, retired with my father
locking the door behind them.

The smarting sensation now turned to a delicious voluptuous warmth, as
I lay under the bed clothes. My right hand was passed all over the
glowing surface of my buttocks, and seemed at last, quite unwittingly
to settle itself on my hairless little cunny. I turned on my belly
with my hand still under me, and wriggling myself about, as I lay
thinking over all the cuts I had received, gradually found a most
pleasing sensation from the rubbing of my hand and the two forefingers
mechanically worked into the slit, squeezing my legs together, I
rubbed on to increase the pleasurable emotions which I felt driving me
to strive and obtain, I knew not what. The frenzy now threw me into
such a state of excitement that my fingers were plunged as far as
possible up my virgin cunny, as I gasped, writhed, and tossed my
bottom up and down. The crisis came at last, and my furious efforts
were rewarded by a most heavenly emission; my soul seemed to flow from
me at the moment, and left me in a delightful state of voluptuous
lethargy, which lasted for some minutes, and when at length I regained
my serenity, it was to find my fingers, cunny, and thighs all sticky
from the thick spermy emission of my first maiden spend. There was
also a slight stain of blood, for I had actually ravished myself in my
furious excitement.

I got up and sponged myself, then lay down to reflect on the curious
and delicious emotions I had procured for myself, and determining to
soon have a repetition of my secrets joys, fell asleep to dream of
being in the arms of a most lovely boy about my own age, who seemed to
impart to my ravished senses another taste of what I had already felt.

Awaking in a struggle to retain my love-bird, I found myself bedewed
by another emission, but at last I slept with tranquility, and never
shall I forget my first taste of joy that day.

[Decoration]



[Decoration]


Chapter II.

_The Convent School_


My father’s extreme severity made me rather glad when in about a
week’s time Miss Birch began to make preparations for my departure to
Belgium, and in less than three weeks I found myself installed as a
pupil in the seminary of the Ursuline nuns at Brussels. The Lady
Superior struck me from the very first as being a frightfully severe
woman; the morning after my arrival she sent for me to hear her read
my father’s instructions, and remarked that he had given her _carte
blanche_ as to punishment, and that in their school discipline was
strictly enforced. “Remember, young lady,” said she, in dismissing me
from her presence, “we never overlook a fault, and that my word is law
here.”

My face flushed with indignation, and tears filled my eyes as I left
the apartment, fully assured in my own mind that I must soon
experience a taste of their discipline, nor had I long to wait, for
two days after, having confidentially expressed my disgust to another
pupil, with respect to the coarse fare set before us at meals, I soon
found I had been talking to a tell-tale spy, who carried everything to
the Superior.

An elderly nun quietly told me she had been sent to conduct me to the
private room of the Lady Superior. My time was come, and I followed my
chaperone with trembling anxiety.

Our Superior was a stern looking woman of about forty-five, with dark
piercing eyes and Roman nose, thin compressed lips considerably adding
to the severity of her expression.

“Mdlle. Lucille,” said the superior, “I thought the caution I gave you
on your arrival, would at least have saved you from trouble for some
time, and spared me the pain of inflicting personal correction on you
so soon after your entry into our seminary, but I am afraid your papa
must have had serious cause for wishing me to be severe with you; now
what have you been saying to your fellow pupil the Mdlle. Olive; did
you remark, ‘that the food was not fit for a dog, much less
schoolgirls’?”

I looked down in confusion, “Ah, I see,” she continued, “you cannot
deny it; well Lucille, I hope soon to convince you that our bill of
fare is both wholesome and proper for the pupils, I shall give you one
dozen cuts with the rod, and then let you off if you promise not to
offend in the same way again.”

The nun who was called Serena, now placed a long stool in the middle
of the apartment, and made me lie on it full length face downwards,
then I felt her cold busy hands as they turned up my clothes, and
opened my drawers behind, till my bottom was left naked to the attack
of the Lady Superior.

“Do you, Mdlle. Lucille,” she asked sternly, “consider that our fare
of bread and porridge three times a day, and meat or soup twice a
week, added for dinner is only fit for a dog? Ah! Ha!” she went on,
cutting me slowly and severely at every few words, “This will give you
a better appetite; how do you like birch sauce, Miss Dainty Mouth?”

I screamed with the pain, and plunged about so that Sister Serena had
to hold me down with all her weight upon my shoulders. “Forgive me,
oh, forgive me this time, I won’t speak to Olive again!” I gasped out
as the heavy woman almost stopped my breath, but at last it was over,
and after kissing the rod and making me look at the blood-stained
weals on my bottom, they sent me away with a caution how I spoke about
that or anything else I might see done in the convent.

I longed to have my revenge on the deceitful Olive, but knew not where
to turn for a confidant, they all perhaps would be equally
treacherous. I stuck to my lessons and avoided punishment as much as
possible, being assured that the longer I brooded on my revenge the
more complete it would be in the end, at the same time I thoroughly
studied every part of the building to which I was allowed access, in
the hope I might some day find it very useful if I wanted to effect my
escape.

The nuns I believe slept in dormitories, where there were a dozen or
more together, but every pupil had a very small room to herself, mine
was in a long corridor, and Olive’s three or four doors from mine,
there were neither locks or bolts to any door, as the Lady Superior
and elder sisters were supposed to take frequent peeps at us in our
sleep; I had at last matured my plan, and having everything in
readiness, one dark night when there was not even a glimpse of
moonlight, I patiently watched till some of the principals had paid
the accustomed visit, and heard the cracked voice of an old nun say,
“fast asleep,” as I feigned to be in a deep slumber.

Soon their footsteps died away in the corridor, and after waiting some
time, till I felt sure every pupil must be again asleep, if the going
round should have awakened them, I crept out of bed, and providing
myself with some pins and a strong piece of cord, was soon at the
bedside of the treacherous girl I wanted to serve out; my first act
was to quietly pass my cord around her, outside the small bed, so that
I could suddenly draw it tight and secure her a helpless victim in my
power then suddenly stuffing the bedclothes into her mouth before she
could scream out, ordered her in a rough whisper to keep quiet or I
would kill her; it was too dark to see her terrified face, but she
shuddered all over, and seemed as if her very blood was chilled, so
cold did she seem to my touch.

Taking advantage of her fright, hands and feet were instantly tied so
that she was spread out in a helpless fashion; I made her own
handkerchief, which I happened to get hold of, into a gag, and at the
same time could feel the drops of cold sweat upon her temples. Now I
turned up the bedclothes or pushed them off, as I was tying the cord,
till she was quite naked from the bosom downwards.

My hands roved over the soft, firm, naked flesh of her belly, then to
the mount of love, which I found just beginning to be fledged with
silky down. My fingers sought the crack below, and I could not help
amusing myself by frigging her with all my might, the two first
fingers of my right hand ruthlessly pushing into her cunny, and I knew
caused her intense pain; from the slight groans which the gag could
not entirely suppress.

What pleasure it was to me to torture her by my roughness, and outrage
her every sense of modesty, although I was too ignorant at the time to
know that my fingers were actually taking the poor girl’s virginity; a
kind of fury possessed me, and I actually bit the lips of her cunny,
and munched off as much of the silky down as I could bite away; the
pain must have been intense, and her writhing, shuddering agony was so
much bliss to me.

At last to finish her off I got a piece of the cord, and passing it
right along her crack, tied it round her thighs and waist as tightly
and painfully as possible, and then for ornament stuck a lot of pins
in the plumb cheeks of her bottom and left them there.

My revenge was complete, so wiping my fingers on the bedclothes, for
fear of any blood-stains, &c., I left my victim just as she was, to be
tormented by her horrible pains and fears till some one might find it
out, and release her in the morning.

This outrage was never discovered, my victim was found insensible next
morning, and remained in a delirious state for three or four weeks
before she recovered consciousness, and then the agony and terror she
had endured on that awful night had so turned her brain that she
believed it was the devil who had so grossly ill-used her, but I heard
that one of the father confessors was strongly suspected of having
committed the atrocity.

The Superior, with whom Olive had been a favourite, now vented her
spite in every direction amongst the young lady pupils of the
seminary, and I for one soon fell under her displeasure, and was
ordered to be tied up to their whipping post; it was only for slightly
oversleeping myself, and not dressing quickly when the bell rang for
us to get up at 6 A.M.

I was suspended by my wrists being tied high up the post as I stood
upon a small footstool, then it was suddenly kicked away, the jerk of
the sudden strain on my wrists almost making the straps cut into the
flesh. My feet were dangling some inches from the ground, “Oh! Oh!
Ah—r—r—r—re!” I screamed, “How cruel! Oh! Papa! Papa! If you only knew
how they are treating me in this awful place!”

Lady Superior (who seemed delighted at the sight of my pain),—“Hold
your foolish noise, Mdlle. Lucille, wait till you have something to
scream about, girl.” Then the old Serena, who it seemed was always in
attendance at punishment time, pinned up my skirts and opened my
drawers behind, and the Superior went on, “This rod shall make all the
sluggards turn out quicker in the morning; what do you think,
Mademoiselle, of making us all wait prayers for ten minutes? will you
wake—wake—wake up sharper in future?”

She gave me three smarting cuts at each word, and my suspended
position added so much to the intensity of my pain, that I screamed,
kicked, and plunged about as I swung by my wrists from the post.
“Sister Serena,” exclaimed the Superior, “keep the girl steady or I
cannot plant my cuts as effectually as I ought to do upon her naughty
impudent bottom, she shan’t sleep for a week if I can only make it
sore enough!” Serena now held me to the post with one hand, to prevent
my swaying about, whilst the rod rained a succession of withering,
scorching cuts on my buttocks, and just underneath the parting of the
cheeks of my bottom. My screams were heartrending, but they only
seemed to enjoy it more and the Superior never ended her objurgations
till the rod was worn out.

Things now went on till I was nearly fourteen, we never had a holiday,
and only short letters came to me from home, in which my father
constantly expressed his hopes of my improvement, and seemed quite
oblivious to all I had written from time to time about my severe
treatment, and begging him to remove me to some other school.

I afterwards found out that my home letters were regularly suppressed,
and others more suitable were written and sent to papa, in my name;
what wretch that Superior now appears in my eyes, she not only
delighted in whipping us nearly to death, but forget letters to our
parents so as to keep her pupils, and make everything appear _couleur
de rose_.

Perhaps, dear Rosa, you have heard that I managed to escape from that
dreadful convent, but previous to that they nearly killed me. I was
getting quite a big girl, my pussey already sported its silken down on
the Mons Veneris, which we all consider such an ornament to our secret
charms.

The Superior had lately taken much notice of me, and introduced me to
a clique of her favourites, three or four pretty girls about my own
age, who were often indulged with little treats in her private room;
there, we girls were encouraged and instructed in all kinds of
lascivious ideas; we looked at each other’s cunnies, tickled and
kissed each other in every possible way, the Superior encouraging us,
and suggesting a variety of attitudes for us to try. She had a huge
godemiche, about nine inches long, and very thick, which she would fit
upon one of the girls, and then submit herself to be fucked as hard as
possible, whilst the other girls had to turn up the girl’s skirts, and
smack her bottom hard and fast, with the palms of their hands, to make
the young gentleman (as the Superior called her partner) work fast and
vigorously.

Then she would have us all strip naked, whilst we had in turn to kiss
and suck her cunt, when it was all slimy with her spendings.

I did not mind the slapping, or allowing any one to kiss and
tongue-fuck my cunny, but the Superior’s was so hairy, and had such
meaty looking lips, and a huge clitoris, (which I now know is induced
by long-continued self-abuse), and it smelt so fishy, that I
absolutely declined the honour of gamahuching her, and nothing could
induce me to do so.

This so enraged her that she flew at me like a tigress. I was knocked
down, and beaten with a thick stick, till my flesh was bruised all
over, and then picked up, almost fainting, and hurried off to my own
little room.

Perhaps nothing further would have happened, but in my innocence, I
supposed my letters were sent home just as I sealed them up, so I
wrote to Miss Birch a full account of what I had been seduced into,
and the dreadful beating I had received, for not liking the cunt of
the Lady Superior.

The very next day after I thought the letter was gone, the old nun,
Serena, fetched me into a dull gloomy room, which I had never been in
before, but at once rightly judged to be a punishment chamber, when I
saw a high whipping post, made of a square beam, set upright in the
floor, with two rings near the top on each side, by which to tie up
the victim; a birch rod was hanging on the wall, and two scourges with
long things lay upon a seat at one end, but I had no time for further
observation, as the Superior seemed to follow us into the room almost
immediately.

“Now, Mdlle. Lucille,” she exclaimed, grinding her teeth in rage, “you
shall rue the insult you put upon me the other day, before my special
favourites, of which I had minded to make you one, so that when you
left the seminary you might look back with pleasure to the loving
amusements I had first introduced you to; perhaps I should have
overlooked it all, but see I have your letter. Ha! Ha!! you little
fool to think that would ever go out of the convent!”

Sister Serena had by this time put me on a stool, and was fastening my
wrists one on each side of the post, and presently the stool was
removed, and I found myself just touching the floor with the tips of
my toes.

“What a beautiful position, how she will twist about and scream when
she feels the scourge, make haste to bare her bottom, as I am burning
to pay her out. Ha! Ha!! Mdlle. Lucille, I fancy you wouldn’t mind
kissing my cunt now if I promised to let you off,” said the Superior
spitefully.

My courage and natural obstinacy came to my assistance at the moment,
I was so indignant, and the idea was so repulsive to me that I
resolved rather to die than do that for her; I was frightened and yet
flushed with shame and indignation at my treatment, besides something
seemed to advise me to irritate my tormentor to do her worst, and get
it over quickly.

“No! No!! No, never!!! you may kill me, and then I should be out of my
misery!” I exclaimed.

She scowled with ferocity, but said with all the calmness she could
command, “make haste, Serena, up with her clothes, and open the
drawers well, and keep her as steady as possible.” Then taking up the
instrument of punishment I could see it consisted of five or six long
thongs of whipcord, plaited and knotted at the ends, fixed on a very
elastic handle.

It was poised in her hand for a moment, and then brought down with
stinging force on my exposed buttocks, then again, and again, and
again, in quick succession; each cut seemed to sear the flesh as if
done by a red hot iron, my piercing screams filled the whole place,
and the Superior, her eyes sparkling with ferocious joy, jeered me
about how I liked the scourge. “How lovely you look, Mdlle. Lucille,
as you plunge and scream, and I know the intense agony of every cut;
would you rather die now, my little dear? Well, I’ve a good mind to
kill you, outright, only I want to keep you as long as that _dear,
kind papa_ of yours is willing to pay! How he must have loved his
Lucille, to place her with me; I’m so kind, so very kind, you know,
my dear girl! What do you think of my kindness, you little love?”

Her cuts were awful, and I swayed and plunged so that it was
impossible for Serena to keep my body steady, so she seized the other
scourge, and tried her best to second the Superior in her efforts to
cut me up more and more.

At last they fairly panted for breath, as I was left dangling, sobbing
and moaning, with my clothes torn, my drawers in shreds, and streaming
with blood all down my thighs and legs.

Fearing I might faint, they poured a little strong cordial down my
parched throat, sponged my face with cold water, and put some strong
snuff up my nose, which almost drove me into convulsions, so very
violent was the fit of sneezing produced.

They seemed carried away with delight at the sight of my sufferings,
and sprinkled a quantity of the snuff over the cuts on my bottom,
just to dry up the blood, as they said with a laugh. Next all my
clothes were cut or torn off, till I had nothing on but slippers,
stockings, and the remains of my drawers.

“Now we’ll finish off the obstinate, impudent little beast, I wish I
dare kill her,” said the Superior, grinding her teeth, “only I should
lose too much, she is worth more alive than dead.”

A couple of lady’s riding whips were now produced, and the two women
attacked me afresh; I was cut all over my body, each cut seemed as if
done with a red hot knife, the blood flowed down my back in streams,
and yet their rage seemed to increase at the sight of my sufferings.
My screams were awful, but only so much music to their ears. They
jeered and derided my cries for “God to have mercy on me, &c.,” said
“my time was come to die, but they would make me last as long as
possible, and draw out my agony to the very last gasp.”

This must all have passed in a very short time, but was an age of
intense suffering to me, and the finale was such a display of ferocity
that I sank under it, and thus robbed them of the pleasure of
prolonging my torture. The Superior seized me by the hair, and drawing
my head back, lashed her whip across my face and bosom, drawing more
blood at every cut, whilst old Serena, not to be outdone, took my
right leg under her arm, cut me dreadfully inside my thighs, along the
crack of my pussey, and made the tip of her whip reach the Mons
Veneris.

This was the last I could recollect, but when I came to myself I was
in my own bed, wrapped up in cloths soaked in water. No bones were
broken, and my health soon recovered sufficiently to enable me to
effect my escape, and avoid their further malice.



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Chapter III.

_Lucille’s Marriage and Adventures._


It was about 3 A.M. one fine morning when I escaped from the Ursuline
Convent; and made my way to the Hotel d’Angleterre, the porter in
answer to my summons was about to refuse to give me refuge, when a
young Englishman, who was just taking his candle in the hall, said,
“he’d be damned if I should not be taken care of,” and ordered the
chambermaid to be called to attend on me, and added that he would be
responsible for all expenses. “Certainly, my lord,” said the porter of
the hotel, but he added _sotto voce_, “I think he’s a fool to be so
easily imposed upon.”

I was too glad to have found a protector, (especially when I found he
was an aristocrat), so I quietly followed the _femme de chambre_, and
was content to await awhile for the _denouement_ of my adventure.

Breakfast was brought to me about eleven o’clock, and also a message
to say that Lord Dunwich, would do himself the pleasure of waiting
upon me in an hour’s time.

You may be sure I was all impatience to see the kind fellow who had
stood my friend, and was most agreeably surprised to find his manners
quite equal to his appearance when I saw him again.

His Lordship was greatly interested by the account of my escape from
the convent, and said he was a very particular friend of my betrothed
husband, the Earl of Ellington, and would put me under the protection
of a lady going to England, who would see me safe home. He was such a
handsome fellow, and my gratitude was so gushing that at the moment I
could have refused him no thing, and was delighted by the way he
lingered over a kiss, he would insist upon as his due, my whole soul
seemed to leap towards the generous fellow, and tears of
disappointment stood in my eyes when he was gone.

I never saw him again till my wedding day, two years later, when he
was best man to my husband, and in my eyes looked a thousand times
more loveable.

A married couple of sixteen and twenty-eight ought to have been
blessed with every happiness, but after the first three days of our
honeymoon the Earl’s temper seemed so overbearing and imperious, that
I began seriously to regret my fate, and looked forward to a life of
gilded misery. The Earl was fond of the turf, and often left me alone
whilst he spent a fortnight at Newmarket or Doncaster and York.

One day I was agreeably surprised by a call from Lord Dunwich, (we
were living in Grosvenor Square at the time), he looked more handsome
than ever, and seemed so full of sympathy for me in every respect that
I could not help falling into tears, and telling him all my fears, and
how I was neglected for nasty ugly fourlegged brutes of race-horses,
and that in fact I was sure Lord Ellington loved his Derby favourite
better than myself, and would rather I broke my neck than his pet
should fall lame.

“Ah, Lucille” he said, falling on his knees before me, “how your
distress cuts me to the quick, would to God I could comfort you in any
way! I have loved you from the first moment we met, although I knew
you belonged to a bosom friend, and now the wretch slights you; look
up, dear Lucille, from your tears, smile upon one who is devoted to
you body and soul!” And then seizing my hand, upon which he imprinted
a lot of impassioned kisses, “Ah, you will pardon my presumptuous
love, how can I help it?”

I was piqued by the Earl’s coldness towards me, and something impelled
me to pity the handsome suitor at my feet, so that although the tears
were still welling from my eyes, could not help smiling and caressing
his head as he looked up to my face.

“Darling Lucille, I may call you so now, you respond to my love, my
happiness is too great,” he exclaimed, drawing my unresisting body
down, so that our lips quickly met in a rapturous kiss of real love.

I was lost, and he so rapidly took advantage of everything, that
proceeding from one liberty to another, in less than ten minutes I was
an adulteress, but what a sweet sin, what transports of love shot
through our souls as we melted away again and again in the ecstasies
of mutual enjoyment; how we toyed with each other’s most secret
charms, and promised to renew our forbidden pleasure at every
convenient opportunity.

Alas, for our happiness, some spy informed the Earl of my sweet
_liaison_, he made an excuse to visit Brussels with me and again I
found myself incarcerated in a hateful convent.

The kindness of my husband on our journey from England (which I
afterwards found was only a part of his most artful programme), had so
imposed upon my rather soft-hearted nature, that I really felt sorry
that I ever been unfaithful to my marriage vows, although no doubt the
image of my loving paramour was firmly imprinted in my heart.

We went to operas, bal masques, saw all the sights, and enjoyed
ourselves immensely for a few days and being strict Catholics he one
day said jestingly, “I suppose, Lucille, we must go to confession, and
get absolution after having enjoyed ourselves, and confess all the
delightful sins we have committed; by-the-bye, be sure you do not
forget to confess having ridden a St. George on your husband, and
allowed him to spend his seed in your hand, or on your pretty bosom,
they are most awful sins, and will cost a pretty penny for absolution.
I should not be surprised if the Rev. Father undertook to inflict
personal chastisement _à la Girard et Cadière_,” he added, laughing.

“But, seriously,” I answered, “apart from joking, I know we ought to
do it, and will go to that church in the Rue de la Madeleine this very
day, I know I am a sinner, but don’t like to make a laugh of such
serious things.”

Then seating myself on his knee, I drew his face to mine, and kissed
him lovingly, as I added, “But, dear Francis, you won’t leave your
little wife so long again, will you, for those horrid horses? You
can’t imagine how dull and low spirited I get when left all by
myself.”

“What a pretty pouting little bride you look. Why, Lucille, the way
you kiss excites me as if we were still on the honeymoon trip; but
dearest,” he added, “a sporting man must see his horses tried and run,
then, you, know, I shall make up in the winter what you lose in the
summer; there’s nothing else to do then but to make love. Ha, you
sweet little devil, do you want to commit another sin before
confession?”

My hand had been gently caressing his prick outside his breeches, till
it was now rampant and impatient of the restraining cloth.

“Well,” he went on, following my example, by passing a hand up my
clothes, and gently tickling my clitoris with his forefinger, “we’ll
lump it all together, so there won’t be any more to pay. My Stars,
Lucille, how excitable you are. You’re spending on my fingers. It’s
nothing to blush about, little simpleton.”

I got off his lap, and kneeling before him, unbuttoned his flap, and
the engine of love seemed to leap into my hand, its fiery head, with
the skin turned back, looked so tempting, that I could not resist the
temptation to kiss and caress it for a few moments. My tongue played
lasciviously round the tender and excitable surface, whilst my hands,
were fondling his finely developed balls.

“Darling! Darling!” he ejaculated. “It’s coming! Oh! I can’t
stop—kiss—kiss—suck it. Take it in your mouth, Lucille! Oh! Ah! How
delicious! You darling, to think you would give me so much pleasure!”

I was as excited as himself, and sucked and swallowed his delicious
spendings to the very last drop, as he pressed my head down with his
hands, and gasped out his hands, and gasped out his ejaculations of
ecstasy.

“Now, it’s my turn, Sir. I mean to have a St. George, as you lie on
the hearthrug. Come, down with you at once, or I will bite it off,”
making him feel my teeth, as I playfully took it again in my mouth.

We had a delightful bout on the hearthrug, and I rode him till he
spent into my excited cunt a third time. Keeping his cock stiff, and
starting him again after each spend by the contractions of the folds
of my vagina, which he declared gave him the most exquisite and
voluptuous sensations, and that he had never experienced anything to
equal it in his life, many women as he had had in his time.

Presently I told him that as soon as I could get dressed I would go to
confession.

“Do love,” he replied, “and if the Confessor is reasonable with you, I
will go myself to-morrow, or send for him to wait on me at the hotel.”

I left him smoking a cigar, and about an hour-and-a-half afterwards
entered the church, where I was immediately accosted by an elderly
priest. “If the English lady wishes to confess, the Father Francisco
in yonder box is most suitable for Madame. He knows the English ways
so well, and was consecrated in England.”

I approached the box, which was in a very secluded corner of the
sacred building, and kneeling on a hassock, enquired, in a low voice,
“If the Rev. Father Francisco was ready to hear my confession?”

“Yes, my daughter, and I pray God you may have nothing but venial sins
to confess,” was the reply of my unseen Confessor.

In my innocence I related every act of our married life; how excited
we were in our love games, and the various attitudes we used to
heighten our enjoyment.

“Awfully sensual, my daughter. Your Confessor previous to marriage
must have admonished you as to the use of these unnatural postures in
following the dictates of nature in your endeavours to obey the first
commandment, ‘_to increase and multiply_.’ The holy rites of matrimony
ought not to be perverted by lascivious ideas and filthy sacrifices to
lust. It is a most serious thing my daughter, but before I consider
what penance to exact for such sins, tell me, as you value the
intercession of our Holy Mother, have you always been faithful to your
husband? If only by a look or a gesture, it is important to your
salvation hereafter that you should confess it now.”

I was silent, dumbfoundered for a moment or two. “Ah! my daughter,
conceal nothing. Alas! it is as I feared—conceal nothing from me, or
it will be impossible for me to grant you absolution.”

Thus pressed, and feeling but a full confession would avail me with
the Confessor, I told him everything, and especially how sorry I felt
at having allowed my pique at the Earl’s neglect to have carried me
into such a _liaison_, and that the tender regard he had lately
exhibited towards me smote me to the quick for my unfaithfulness, and
that that was the reason I had so given way to lasciviousness with
him, in order to compensate, by the perfect abandon of my love, for
any suspicions he might entertain.

“My daughter, I must consult our Superior. Yours is such a serious
case, and I beg that you will go into the vestry, by the door behind
this box, and wait a few minutes, till I bring you his decision,” said
Father Francisco.

I was all of a tremble, my face felt hot with blushes of shame and I
longed to hide from observation for a few minutes, so I readily went
into the vestry, as he had requested. It was a bare scantily furnished
room, with a few chairs, a writing table covered with papers, and some
priests’ frocks and vestments hanging round the walls.

Presently the old priest who had accosted me on my first entering the
church, came to conduct me to Father Francisco’s room, but instead of
that, I found myself in the cell of a convent, with the door locked
behind me.

The worst fears assailed my frightened mind; I sank on my knees,
calling on God and my husband to release me, crying and stamping in
impotent rage by turns; this must have lasted an hour or two. Then a
little wicket was opened in the door, and the same old priest told me
to calm myself, for Father Francisco and the Superior were praying to
the Holy Mother to direct them what penance to impose upon such a
sinner, and that I must remain where I was till next day, when, he
added, “no doubt you will be restored to your loving husband, as pure
in mind and spirit as when you first took your marriage vows.”

I was going to implore him to allay the Earl’s anxiety on my behalf,
but he assured me they had sent to his lordship to say that I was
doing penance for some hours in their convent, and quickly closed the
_guichet_, so that I was again left alone.

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Chapter IV.

_The Penance_


Two nuns supplied me with refreshment, made me up a bed on the floor,
and I really had nothing to complain of as to treatment that first
night, still, something seemed to assure me that I really was a
prisoner, and should not so easily get out of the convent. My hope
was, that the Earl would speedily insist upon my speedy release,
(little dreaming at the moment that he was the instigator of my
detention, and had actually acted as confessor in the assumed name of
Father Francisco.)

My anxiety was greatly increased the next day, when hour after hour
passed, and still no communication from the Confessor or Superior, the
nuns who brought me in breakfast and dinner were silent to all my
enquiries or offers of bribes if they would help me get out of the
place.

My watch had stopped for want of a key, but about seven o’clock in the
evening, as near as I could guess, the old priest opened the door, and
beckoned me to follow him. My heart suddenly recovered its courage,
and I braced up my nerves to bear the severest penance; we passed
along several passages, and at last opening a door, he motioned me to
enter. There, sitting before a small table, which had a bible and
crucifix upon it, sat a rather young priest, about the same age as my
husband, but with a close shaven face and crown (the Earl had heavy
whiskers and moustache, I had never seen him otherwise), and he
struck me as being very like Francis about the nose and eyes, still,
no suspicion that it could really be him came into my mind.

“Daughter Lucille, Lady Ellington,” said the seated Confessor, as the
other locked the door behind me, “In answer to prayer, the Holy Mother
has inspired us to grant you absolution, only after the most severe
personal chastisement and humiliations we can possibly inflict upon
you. Then, you will return to your confiding loving husband, purified
of your adulterous sins, but for all that, he will still, and for the
rest of his life, wear the horns of a cuckolded husband, which is his
punishment for teaching you such lascivious ideas; it is an awful sin
to so abandon yourselves to lust, and your unfaithfulness is the
providential punishment he so well deserves.”

My face and neck were suffused with the blushes of burning shame, as
my eyes fell beneath his ardent gaze, besides something instinctively
told me that both Father Francisco and his coadjutor were enjoying the
sight of my confusion.

“Now please divest yourself of everything you have on, except corset,
chemise and drawers, whilst I prepare this scourger for the
chastisement of your wicked sensual flesh, and my brother here will
get that rope in order, ready to tie up your hands above your head.”

I scarcely knew how I got my dress and skirts off, as my hands
trembled so, and the idea of stripping before two men, even if they
were priests, was so distressing to my sense of modesty, but, somehow
or other, I was soon standing up, with my skirts on the floor, about
my heels, and my last under petticoat tucked up under my corset.

Father Francisco confronted me, scourge in hand, and pointing with his
finger to my drawers in front, roughly ordered me to open them, and
show where I had admitted my lover, when in the act of committing
adultery.

“Open it, you wicked woman. I must see the seat of lust itself!”

He flourished his scourge so, and gave me two such terrible cuts round
my buttocks, that I was compelled to obey his immodest and shameful
order, and the moment I had done so, he produced a pair of scissors
and denuded me of nearly all the dark, silky chevelure I took such
delight in viewing in the glass, when ever I dressed myself, or just
got out of my morning bath.

“I suppose you were so excited and wanton, when Lord Dunwich embraced
you, that you shewed him everything, even your nakedness, as the Bible
calls it; did you blush then, as you pretend to do now, Lucille?” he
asked.

My surprise and indignation almost choked me, so that I was unable to
speak, and he gave me a heavy slap with his hand on my bottom, saying,
“So you will not answer, and think I am behaving shamefully, do you?
It’s nothing to what you will have to submit to presently, Lady
Ellington; turn round and open your legs, and stoop forward this
instant, or I will flog the very life out of you!”

His rude hand was passed under my bottom, between my legs, and as I
covered my face with my hands, I could feel his fingers invade every
secret spot in turn, even to forcing a digit up the fundamental
orifice, which is always so tight and difficult of entrance, saying,
as he did so: “Did you let him go there, or has your husband ever
sodomised your bum-hole? Ha! Ha! How modest we are now. Speak; say if
you ever allowed any one to put his prick in your arse?”

I cannot recollect all he said or questioned me about, but his words
and actions were every moment more and more coarse and obscene, on
purpose to add to my humiliation.

“Here, Father Anthony,” he continued, addressing the old priest,
“where is your godemiche? That’s the thing to draw all the wantonness
out of her lustful body. It is well furnished with good stiff
bristles?”

Father Anthony.—“It’s a new one, same as we always keep in stock to
subdue the fleshly lusts of these lascivious female sinners, and never
used before, but I must tie her up.”

The rope, which hung from a pulley in the ceiling, was tied tightly
round my wrists, bringing both hands together; then he pulled it as
hard as possible till I could barely touch the floor with my feet, and
all my weight was upon my arms and the muscles of my back.

“That’s it, exactly,” chuckled Francisco. “Now, my dear Lucille, Lady
Ellington I ought to say, you will really enjoy the insertion of this
jolly dildoe up your cunt, and it is full of a delightful injection,
with which it will spend in response to your emission of pleasure.”

“Ah! No! No! Oh pray don’t treat me with such brutality,” I screamed,
in horror, when I saw the huge red-headed thing, with its shaft
springing from a bed of bristles, fixed round the balls so as to prick
the cunt at every insertion, besides its length and thickness seemed
quite terrible to contemplate. “I am quite content to submit to your
penance of scourging and whipping, but oh, oh, have mercy, and put
that thing out of my sight.”

Father Francisco.—“Look, you need not be so frightened. I shall
lubricate it well with perfumed oil to make it enter you easily,
besides I will put some on your cunt and bottom.” Suiting his actions
to his word, and oiling my privates profusely, especially my
bottom-hole, which he lubricated till he could easily work two fingers
in at once.

It was dreadfully disgusting, but still his frigging my bottom was
rather exciting, and he could tell or guess my feelings, as he went on
to say, “I see you like it, but the dildoe will make you plunge and
spend with delight.”

He then took up my legs; one under each arm, and stood between them,
so they were wide apart, and Father Anthony, his face plainly showing
how he delighted in the task, proceed to force his godemiche into me,
opening the lips of my cunt with his fingers till the head was fairly
in, then ruthlessly shove, shove, shove, till, “Ah! Ah! Oh!
Ah—r—r—r—re!” I screamed in dreadful pain, as the sharp bristles ran
into the tender surroundings of my pussey. “Ah! Ah! Oh, my God!” I
screamed plunging and writhing in my agony, his eyes glared into mine
with a fiendish delight, only equalled by the look of his companion,
who held my legs like a vice, and encouraged him to fuck the wanton
woman till she had had enough to keep her out of adultery for a long
time to come.

Presently Father Francisco, digging his nails into the flesh of my
legs, said excitedly, “See, see, she’s coming. The gluey spend is
glistening on your dildoe. Now, now, shoot it into her; let her enjoy
it!”

In a moment I felt the hot gush of the contents of the godemiche. It
rather relieved me for a moment or two, but oh, oh, my dear, even
after this long lapse of time, I can never forget the agony of that
moment. The whole of my body seemed filled with liquid fire, for they
had filled the dildoe with some infernal decoction on purpose to ruin
my health, and destroy all chance of my ever enjoying the sweets of
love again. Such I know was their intent, for they taunted me with it
at the time; but although I never quite recovered from the shock to my
system, and feel even now that it was the original cause of my
premature decay, they did not succeed in depriving me of all sensual
desire or feelings for the future.

I fainted, but they never let me down, and when at last I began to
recover consciousness Father Francisco was using his scourge most
unmercifully on my buttocks, the drawers being open, and the naked
flesh exposed to every cut.

“I thought this would bring her round”, exclaimed he. “See, Father
Anthony, her eyes are opening, it will soon make her forget the
dildoe fucking, she did enjoy that, did she not, Anthony? But she’ll
be a long time before she has such pleasure again. Ha! Ha! Ha!!! how
lovely she is getting, see her wriggle from the pain of every cut. Ah,
Lucille, dear Lady Ellington, what intense delight the sight of your
agony is to us.”

By this time either he was tired, or he thought a little respite would
enable me to bear more presently, so dropping the scourge on the floor
he left me still suspended, whilst himself and assistant sat down and
gloated over the sight of my suspended figure and blood-stained
bottom, with their hands under their frocks, and I verily believe now
they were frigging themselves.

After about ten minutes Father Francisco again approached, scourge in
hand, whilst the elder priest gave me a few drops of cordial, and held
some pungent salts under my nose to refresh me a little. “That will
do,” said the former, “stand back, Father Anthony. Now, now, you
wicked, wanton, lustful young woman, did you wish your husband dead
when having connexion with Lord Dunwich? Why don’t you answer? Were
his parts more pleasing to your sensuality? Is he better furnished
than your husband? Speak up; confess all your wickedness! Did no sense
of shame shock you in the midst of your enjoyment with that fellow,
eh?”

Every question brought a scathing cut with it, breaking the weals and
drawing fresh blood at every stroke, but I really was so ashamed I
knew not how to answer, and my tongue was useless except for moans or
cries of pain, and notwithstanding all their degrading and cruel
treatment I felt it was fully deserved by me.

“Won’t you speak? won’t you confess your sorrow for your sin?” he
continued. “Are you really so lost to all sense of shame as to be
hardened against repentance? This must be whipped, yes, whipped out of
you, even if it nearly costs your life!”

Just then Father Anthony loosed the rope a little, so that I could
shrink further from the blows of the scourge, till I was driven up to
the wall, where I stood on tiptoe with my hands drawn up over my head,
and my back bending as much as possible to avoid the terrible shower
of blows with which he was cutting up my buttocks still more and more.

Crimson with shame, tears flowing in torrents from my starting eyes, I
moaned, cried and implored for mercy, protesting in a broken voice,
“That ever since my husband had renewed his kindness to me I had been
very, very sad and ashamed of myself for what I had done, and only his
former neglect had caused me to throw myself into the arms of a
handsome man to whom I was under great obligations for protecting me
when I escaped from the Ursuline Convent.”

“Ha, then, you are that Lucille who insulted Lady Superior, I heard
all about it at the time!” he went on furiously. “Now you shall be
punished for that too,” seizing my left leg and lifting it up, so
that he could cut freely under my thighs, on my sore cunny, and every
tenderest spot he could think of, whilst old Father Anthony was
rubbing his hands in delight at the sight.

My agony was so intense that I could only gasp and sigh, strength I
had none, he seemed beside himself with rage, but at last dropped his
scourge, and throwing open his frock in front I could feel his rampant
pego thrusting towards my mount, and am sure he spent on my drawers
outside before he could get into me; this he soon effected, and taking
my buttocks up in his strong embrace, he fucked furiously, swaying me
about with my arms still tied up by the rope; but I forgot all that,
his motions within me took away all feeling of pain, and I believe
much as I loathed him and felt humiliated by all his dreadful
treatment that I actually spent copiously when I felt his hot sperm
shooting into and soothing my overheated cunt.

He was so overcome that Father Anthony seeing he was about to fall,
released me, or loosened the rope so that we sank down together on the
floor, and laid almost motionless for a few minutes, till the old
priest, taking up a scourge, began to whip us both unmercifully, and
made Francisco get up. This was the end for that time, but I was
ordered to prepare for a final penance in a day or two’s time.

[Decoration]



[Decoration]


Chapter V.

_The Last Scène and Denouement._


They kept me in the same chamber, where I had been so outraged, the
two nuns nursing,—bathing my bruises, and using soothing injections to
allay the inflammations of my privates, till, on the third day, they
said I was so far recovered that my Confessors might finish the
prescribed penance, adding, with a malicious smile, “we saw everything
last time, and so we shall now, through our peepholes; how delicious
the sight was last time, and we had such frigging and dildoe fucks
after it was all over.”

Having said this, they speedily disappeared and I was left to await my
fate in trembling anxiety; I was hot and cold by turns, as the
recollection of all the humiliating and painful incidents of the other
day came back so vividly to my mind, and in imagination I seemed to
suffer all my tortures over again.

This did not last long, although you may be sure it seemed long enough
to me in my state of apprehension. A key was turned in the lock, and
the door creaked on its hinges; my persecuting confessors again stood
before me in reality, with quite a sardonic expression of anticipated
pleasure on their faces; no trace of pity could I find on either
visage, nothing but gloating sensuality seemed to animate the ardent
looks with which they regarded me for some moments.

The hateful Francisco was the first to address me, a smile of terrible
meaning playing round his mouth, showing his pearly white teeth to
such perfection that I was again strongly reminded of my husband.

“Lady Ellington, I hope, has had good time for reflection upon the
heinousness of her sins, particularly those in contravention of her
marriage vows; wantonness is as nothing compared to that. What has the
penitent Lucille to say? Has her chastisement made her feel the pangs
of real remorse?” he said, whisking a scourge before my face.

I was too frightened to speak; face, neck and bosom, I could feel,
were in a burning heat, whilst my eyes could not meet his, for
something more than shame instinctively told me what I might have to
suffer at his hands.

“No sign of repentance here, Father Anthony; she must be stripped
naked at once. Do you hear, Lucille? Strip—strip—strip at once, or it
will be much the worse for you!” he said with rough ferocity.

Both priests helped me to undress, and in their impetuous haste almost
tore the clothes off my back, at the same time taking all sorts of
disgusting liberties, and keeping me in a continued state of
confusion, at last when nothing was left but my chemise to remove,
they suddenly tied the rope round my left ancle, and in an instant I
found myself suspended head downwards, with the right leg kicking in
the air, and screaming piteously for mercy.

“Secure her wrists to the rings in the floor,” said Francisco, “and
then help me to whip the seat of lust till she is a little more
repentant.”

The elder priest speedily effected this, and then both of them with
scourges commenced to whip me most mercilessly, aiming their
relentless cuts between my legs so as to cut the lips of my cunt and
round my bottom-hole at every blow; now and then the cruel thongs
would wind round the upper part of my thighs, or on to my mount; my
cries were heartrending, as each blow seemed to re-open all my old
cuts and bruises. “Ah! Ah—r—r—re! Oh! Oh!! will you never have pity,
and believe me sorry for my faults?” I screamed or moaned, and gasped
out the words in intense agony.

“So you begin to repent a little under the lash, do you, Lucille, are
you really sorry for having wronged Lord Ellington, is it your mind or
your cunt that is most filled with remorse? How you seem to writhe,
and how prettily we are making it look for you, the trickling blood is
delightful to see as it flows in drops and rills over your back and
belly!” His questions were spoken slowly as he seemed to enjoy the
pleasure of my intense suffering, and two or three of his cuts were
over the tender surface of my belly or right across the navel.

“Scream away, you sensual woman, why don’t you implore the Holy Virgin
to have pity and forgive you, we are only carrying out her commands,
are we not Father Francisco?” hissed out old Anthony, as he continued
to scourge my back and sides, and every now and then aimed a fearful
blow right down my lacerated cunny. Again they would stop for a
little, and ask me jeeringly, “about my feeling of remorse, would I
indulge in such obscenity with my husband again, or keep from adultery
in future?”

I was almost too far gone to do more than moan, and Father Anthony
suggested that I ought to be well lashed over my neck, shoulders, and
bosom, to make me speak out, but the other seeing how exhausted I
really was, restrained his mad fury, and then after waiting a little
one of them would give me a terrible cut, and ask the other to see the
beautiful effects of it as I swayed about in agony; this was done
again and again, till after a time the scourges were thrown aside, and
the rope being lowered I was allowed to lay on the floor for a little
while, and some cordial was again administered to refresh me, my
tormentors sitting down and frigging themselves openly before my face,
till in the act of spending they would stand over me so that I might
be thoroughly humiliated by having all their spendings drop on my
face, neck, or head, as I was still secured to the floor by my wrists.

Presently, at a sign from Francisco, his companion hoisted me up by
the ancle again, and did it so tightly that I was frightfully
stretched by my arms and leg; which were drawn as painfully tight as
he could make it, the fastenings cutting into the flesh so that I bear
the marks to this very day, I could see that Francisco was again
preparing his godemiche with oil, but he did not put any upon my
person.

Horrified at the sight, I begged and implored them in the most piteous
manner not to degrade me again with that disgusting instrument,
promising to pay the Church any amount for absolution rather than
endure it again.

“Too late, too late, your repentance is not sincere, besides, the
other day we saw with our eyes how your lascivious nature responded to
the thrusts of this thing in your cunt, now I am going to degrade
your bottom-hole by inserting it there, however painful the operation
may prove,” saying which he seized, and held my left leg under his
arm, and standing close to my body at once proceeded to carry out his
infernal idea of ravishing my anus. Lacerated, bleeding, and sore as
my bottom was at the least touch, and regardless of my piercing
shrieks, he forced the oily head of the india rubber thing quite into
my tightly contracted bum-hole, the pain was intense, as it seemed to
rend the lining tissue of the anal canal in its passage, and the
bristles round its root added, if possible, still more to the
intensity of my suffering.

I believe, that giving one long shriek of agony, I lost consciousness
for a time, but only to awake and find them laughing and jeering at my
sufferings, as the one worked his dildoe in my bottom, whilst the
other had thrust two or three fingers up my blood-stained and wounded
cunt. It is quite indescribable what I felt at this outrage, the
accumulation of shame, agony and horror so overpowered my exhausted
nature, that I went off again into such a death-like swoon, that they
really feared I was dead, and made haste to let me down as well as
apply strong restoratives.

My hands were still retained in the rings on the floor, and the
godemiche was left sticking in my bottom, the spasmodic contractions
of the sphincter muscle holding it as in a vice, whilst the pulsations
of the violated passage behind were still awfully painful. All this
was apparent to me as I slowly came to myself once more, and could see
the excited looks of my cruel Confessors, who proceeded to sprinkle me
with cold water, and use a large sponge for the purpose of both
refreshing me and allowing them to gloat over the extent of my hurts.

This lasted a little while, then I was made to get up on my hands and
knees, facing Francisco, who then opened his frock, so as to show me
the excited state of his prick, at the same time, with a malicious
look of fiendish joy, he asked me, “If I should not like to suck such
a delightful sweetmeat?” Then seeing my look of intense disgust, he
burst into a rage, saying, “Oh! So you mean to insult me as you did
the Lady Superior of the Ursulines, do you, Lucille? You may think I
am disgusting and nasty, or I smell strong as she did, and I may tell
you, to make you relish it still more, that scarcely an hour ago it
was up the strong smelling cunt of that very same lady, and I was
careful not to wash, so that you might have the full benefit of the
delicious aroma of her spendings.”

Speechless with disgust, and helpless in every way, it was useless for
me to appeal for mercy or consideration from two such heartless
beings; the only thing I could do was to close my eyes to the awful
sight.

But only for a moment, a tremendous whack from Father Anthony, who had
taken up the scourge, made me shriek out again, “Ah! Ah! Oh! Will you
never finish me off, and kill me in mercy?” The only answer I had was
a quick repetition of the blow, whilst the repulsive Francisco’s
right hand, clutching my hair, pulled my head up, and drew it back so
painfully, that I gasped for breath. This was exactly what he wanted,
and, in a moment, his prick was forced into my mouth. The sensation
was so repulsive, horrible, and choking all at once, that I had not
the presence of mind to bite, or he would have repented the act ever
after. Old Anthony was cutting my back, bottom, thighs, and loins,
even the calves of my legs not escaping his frenzied scourging. Blood
was streaming over my flesh, and dripping to the floor in little
pools, and I felt I was really dying at last. Just then the excited
Francisco shot a deluge of hot sperm into my mouth and throat; I was
choked, and remember no more, except, that on recovering
consciousness, the supposed Confessor, Francisco, was dressed as a
gentleman, and I immediately recognised him as my husband, as, at the
same instant, he exclaimed, “Woman, my revenge is complete. You won’t
deceive me again. How I have revelled in degrading, humiliating, and
torturing my adulterous wife. You’ll never see me more. This has been
my way of divorcing myself from a faithless bitch.”

He was gone before I could find words to reply, but my sense of pain
was instantly drowned in a deep desire for vengeance for this outrage,
and its impulse so strengthened me, that I was soon well enough to
travel.

My lover, Lord Dunwich, received me with open arms, and declared he
would shoot or be shot by the Earl ere forty-eight hours had elapsed;
at once despatching a friend with his cartel to arrange a meeting for
the next morning in Hyde Park at the dawn of day.

We spent the night together at his hotel, although scarcely fourteen
days since I was so fearfully outraged, how we fucked all night, and
swam in sensual pleasures for hours, I would deny him nothing, was he
not my champion, who was going to risk his life in the morning to
avenge my fearful wrongs, and to make him still more earnest in his
desire for vengeance, I stripped naked, let him examine every part,
where the marks of the bruises and lacerations were still visible; my
cunt he sucked, kissed and fucked till I was beside myself with
excitement, and he was also ready for anything, then my poor bum-hole
attracted his attention, he kissed and put his tongue into it, till I
was eager to have him there, and begged he would put his prick in
gently at first for fear of hurting me too much; this was a heavenly
finish to our night of love; we swam in delight, never before or since
have I tasted voluptuous joy to equal that _enculade_.

Next morning dressed as a young gentleman with a false moustache, I
went as one of his seconds to the fatal place of meeting, and had the
satisfaction of seeing my wrongs avenged by a ball through the heart
of my hated husband. We then went abroad for a while, but my dear
lover lost his life by drowning in the Rhine, since which I have
consoled myself as you know by all sorts of erotic fancies,
especially flagellation, and now dear Rosa at the early age of
twenty-five I find myself fast fading away.


FINIS.



Transcriber’s Note

Perhaps as a corollary of the private printing, the typesetting of the
original book was of indifferent quality. Numerous typographical
errors have been corrected; period spelling has been retained.
Inconsistent hyphenation (bed-post/bed post, tight-fitting/tight
fitting) has been left as printed in the original.





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