Title: Bread
Author: Norris, Charles G.
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BREAD



BY THE SAME AUTHOR


  SALT
    or The Education of Griffith Adams

“Ye are the salt of the earth; but if the salt have lost his savour,
wherewith shall it be salted?”

  --_Matthew_ V:13


  BRASS
    A Novel of Marriage

    “Annul a marriage? ’Tis impossible!
    Though ring about your neck be brass not gold,
    Needs must it clasp, gangrene you all the same!”
        --_Robert Browning_


E. P. DUTTON & COMPANY



 BREAD

 BY
 CHARLES G. NORRIS
 AUTHOR OF “BRASS,” “SALT,” ETC.

 [Illustration]

 NEW YORK
 E. P. DUTTON & COMPANY
 681 FIFTH AVENUE



 _Copyright_, 1923,
 BY CHARLES G. NORRIS

 _All Rights Reserved, Including that of
 Translation into Foreign Languages,
 Including the Scandinavian_


 Printed in the United States of America



 DEDICATED TO
 The Working Women of America



CONTENTS


                 PAGE

  Book I.           1
    Chapter I.      3
    Chapter II.    34
    Chapter III.   61
    Chapter IV.    89
    Chapter V.    131
    Chapter VI.   152

  Book II.        163
    Chapter I.    165
    Chapter II.   190
    Chapter III.  242
    Chapter IV.   273
    Chapter V.    287
    Chapter VI.   320
    Chapter VII.  331

  Book III.       377
    Chapter I.    379
    Chapter II.   413
    Chapter III.  446
    Chapter IV.   470



BOOK I



BREAD



CHAPTER I


§ 1

“_One_ and two and three and four and--_one_ and two and three and four
and....”

Mrs. Sturgis had a way of tapping the ivory keys of the piano with her
pencil when she was counting the beat during a music lesson. It made
her little pupils nervous and sometimes upset them completely. Now she
abruptly interrupted herself and rapped the keys sharply.

“Mildred, dearie--it doesn’t go that way at all; the quarter note is on
‘three.’ It’s one and two and _three_ and.... You see?”

“Mama.” A tall dark girl stood in the doorway of the room.

Mrs. Sturgis affected not to hear and drew a firm circle with her
pencil about the troublesome quarter note. There was another insistent
demand from the door. Mrs. Sturgis twisted about and leaned back on the
piano bench so that Mildred’s thin little figure might not obstruct the
view of her daughter. Her air was one of martyred resignation but she
smiled indulgently. Very sweetly she said:

“Yes, dearie?” Jeannette recognized the tone as one her mother used to
disguise annoyance.

“It’s quarter to six....” Jeannette left the sentence unfinished. She
hoped her mother would guess the rest, but Mrs. Sturgis only smiled
more sweetly and looked expectant.

“There’s no bread,” Jeannette then said bluntly.

Mrs. Sturgis’ expression did not change nor did she ease her
constrained position.

“Well, dearie ... the delicatessen shop is open. Perhaps you or Alice
can run down to Kratzmer’s and get a loaf.”

“But we can’t do that, Mama.” There was a note of exasperation in the
girl’s voice; she looked hard at her mother and frowned.

“Ah....” Mrs. Sturgis gave a short gasp of understanding. Kratzmer
had been owed a little account for some time and the fat German had
suggested that his bills be settled more promptly.

“My purse is there, dearie”; she indicated the shabby imitation leather
bag on the table. Then with a renewal of her alert smile she returned
to the lesson.

“One and two and three and four and--_one_ and two and----”

“Mama, I’m sorry to interrupt....”

Mrs. Sturgis now turned a glassy eye upon her older child, and the
patient smile she tried to assume was hardly more than a grimace. It
was eloquent of martyrdom.

“I’m sorry to have to interrupt,” Jeannette repeated, “but there isn’t
any money in your purse; it’s empty.”

The expression on her mother’s face did not alter but the light died
in her eyes. Jeannette realized she had grasped the situation at last.

“Well ... dearie....” Mrs. Sturgis began.

Jeannette stood uncompromisingly before her. She had no suggestion to
offer; her mother might have foreseen they would need bread for dinner.

The little music-teacher continued to study her daughter, but presently
her gaze drifted to Mildred beside her perched on a pile of music
albums.

“You haven’t a dime or a nickel with you, dearie?” she asked the child.
“I could give you credit on your bill and your papa, you see, could pay
ten cents less next time he sends me a check....”

“I think I got thome money,” lisped Mildred, wriggling down from her
seat and investigating the pocket of her jacket which lay near on a
chair. “Mother alwath givth me money when I goeth out.” She drew forth
a small plush purse and dumped the contents into her hand. “I got
twenty thenth,” she announced.

“Well, I’ll just help myself to ten of it,” said Mrs. Sturgis, bending
forward and lifting one of the small coins with delicate finger-tips.
“You tell your papa I’ll give him credit on this bill.”

She turned to Jeannette and held out the coin.

“Here, lovie; get a little Graham, too.”

There was color in the girl’s face as she accepted the money; she drew
up her shoulders slightly, but without comment, turned upon her heel
and left the room.

Mrs. Sturgis brought her attention once more cheerfully back to the
lesson.

“Now then, Mildred dearie: _one_ and two and three and four and--_one_
and two and _three_ and four and.... Now you have it; see how easy that
is?”


§ 2

Jeannette passed through the dark intervening rooms of the apartment,
catching up her shabby velvet hat from her bed, and came upon her
sister Alice in the kitchen.

There was a marked contrast between the two girls. Jeannette, who
was several months past her eighteenth birthday, was a tall, willowy
girl with a smooth olive-tinted skin, dark eyes, brows and lashes,
and straight, lustreless braids of hair almost dead black. She gave
promise of beauty in a year or two,--of austere stateliness,--but now
she appeared rather angular and ungainly with her thin shoulders and
shapeless ankles. She was too tall and too old to be still dressed
like a schoolgirl. Alice was only a year her junior, but Alice looked
younger. She was softer, rounder, gentler. She had brown hair, brown
eyes and a brown skin. “My little brown bird,” her mother had called
her as a child. She was busy now at the stove, dumping and scraping
out a can of tomatoes into a saucepan. Dinner was in process of
preparation. Steam poured from the nozzle of the kettle on the gas
range and evaporated in a thin cloud.

“Mama makes me so mad!” Jeannette burst out indignantly. “I _wish_ she
wouldn’t be borrowing money from the pupils! She just got ten cents out
of Mildred Carpenter.”

She displayed the diminutive coin in her palm. Alice regarded it with a
troubled frown.

“It makes me so sick,” went on Jeannette, “wheedling a dime out of a
baby like that! I don’t believe it’s necessary, at least Mama ought
to manage better. Just think of it! Borrowing money to buy a loaf of
bread! ... We’ve come to a pretty state of things.”

“Aw--don’t, Janny,” Alice remonstrated; “you know how hard Mama
tries and how people won’t pay their bills.... The Cheneys have owed
eighty-six dollars for six months and it never occurs to them we need
it so badly.”

“I’d go and get it, if I was Mama,” Jeannette said with determination,
putting on her hat and bending her tall figure awkwardly to catch her
reflection in a lower pane of the kitchen door. “I wouldn’t stand it.
I’d call on old Paul G. Cheney at his office and tell him he’d have to
pay up or find someone else to teach his children!”

“Oh, no, you wouldn’t, Janny!--You know that’d never do. Paul and
Dorothy have been taking lessons off Mama for nearly three years.
Mama’d lose all her pupils if she did things like that.”

“Well--” Jeannette drawled, suddenly weary of the discussion and
opening the kitchen door into the hall, “I’m going down to Kratzmer’s.”


§ 3

In the delicatessen store she was obliged to wait her turn. The shop
was well filled with late customers, and the women especially seemed
maddeningly dilatory to the impatient girl.

“An’ fifteen cents’ worth of ham ... an’ some of that chow-chow ... and
a box of crackers....”

Jeannette studied the rows of salads, pots of baked beans, the pickled
pig’s-feet, and sausages. Everything looked appetizing to her, and the
place smelled fragrantly of fresh cold meat and creamy cheeses. Most of
the edibles Kratzmer offered so invitingly, she had never tasted. She
would have liked to begin at one end of the marble counter and sample
everything that was on it. She looked curiously at the woman near
her who had just purchased some weird-looking, pickled things called
“mangoes,” and gone on selecting imported cheeses and little oval round
cans with French and Italian labels upon them. Jeannette wondered if
she, herself, would ever come to know a time when she could order
of Kratzmer so prodigally. She was sick of the everlasting struggle
at home of what they should get for lunch or dinner. It was always
determined by the number of cents involved.

“Well, dearie,” her mother invariably remonstrated at some suggestion
of her own, “that would cost thirty cents and perhaps it would be wiser
to wait until next week.”

A swift, vague vision arose of the vital years that were close at
hand,--the vital years in which she must marry and decide the course of
her whole future life. Was her preparation for this all-important time
ever to be beset by a consideration of pennies and makeshifts?

“Vell, Miss Sturgis, vat iss it to-night?”

Fat Mrs. Kratzmer smiled blandly at her over the glass shelf above the
marble counter. Jeannette watched her as she deftly crackled thin paper
about the two loaves, tied and snapped the pink string. Kratzmer and
his wife were fat with big stomachs and round, double chins; even Elsa
Kratzmer, their daughter, who went to the High School with Jeannette
and Alice, was fat and had a double chin. The family had probably all
they wanted to eat and a great deal more; there must be an enormous
amount of food left on the platters and dishes and in the pans at the
end of each day that would spoil before morning. Kratzmer, his wife and
daughter must gormandize, stuff themselves night after night, Jeannette
reflected as she began to climb the four long flights of stairs to
her own apartment. It was disgusting, of course, to think of eating
that way,--but oh, what a feast she and Alice would have if they might
change places with the trio for a night or two!

As she reached the second landing, a thick smell of highly seasoned
frying food assailed her. This was the floor on which the Armenians
lived, and a pungent odor from their cooking frequently permeated
the entire building. The front door of their apartment was open and
as Jeannette was passing it, Dikron Najarian came out. He was a tall
young man of twenty-three or-four, of extraordinary swarthy beauty,
with black wavy masses of hair, and enormous dark eyes. He and his
sister, Rosa,--she was a few years older and equally handsome,--often
met the young Sturgis girls on the stairs or fumbling with the key to
the mail-box in the entrance-way below. Jeannette and Alice used to
giggle sillily after they had encountered Dikron, and would exchange
ridiculous confidences concerning him. They regarded the young man as
far too old to be interested in either of themselves and therefore
took his unusual beauty and odd, foreign manner as proper targets for
their laughter.

Jeannette now instinctively straightened herself as she encountered her
neighbor. Upon the instant a feminine challenge emanated from her.

“Hello,” Dikron said, taken unawares and obviously embarrassed. “Been
out?”

For some obscure reason Jeannette did not understand, she elected at
that moment to coquet. She had never given the young Armenian a serious
thought before, but now she became aware of the effect their sudden
encounter had had upon him. She paused on the lower step of the next
flight and hung for a moment over the balustrade. Airily, she explained
her errand to Kratzmer’s.

“What smells so good?” she asked presently.

She thought the odor abominable, but it did not suit her mood to say so.

“Mother’s cooking mussels to-night; they’re wonderful, stuffed with
rice and peppers.... Have you ever tasted them? Could I send some
upstairs?”

Jeannette laughed hastily, and shook her head.

“No--no,--thanks very much.... I’m afraid we wouldn’t....” She was
going to say “appreciate them” but left the sentence unfinished. “I
must go on up; Mother’s waiting for the bread.”

But she made no immediate move, and the young man continued to lean
against the wall below her. Their conversation, however, died dismally
at this point, and after a moment’s uncomfortable silence, the girl
began nimbly to mount the stairs, flinging over her shoulder a somewhat
abrupt “Good-night.”


§ 4

“Get your bread, dearie?” Mrs. Sturgis asked cheerfully as Jeannette
came panting into the kitchen and flung her package down upon the
table. Her daughter did not answer but dropped into a chair to catch
her breath.

Mrs. Sturgis was bustling about, pottering over the gas stove, stirring
a saucepan of stewing kidneys, banging shut the oven door after a brief
inspection of a browning custard. Alice had just finished setting the
table in the dining-room, and now came in, to break the string about
the bread and begin to slice it vigorously. Jeannette interestedly
observed what they were to have for dinner. It was one of the same
old combinations with which she was familiar, and a feeling of weary
distaste welled up within her, but a glimpse of her mother’s face
checked it.

Mrs. Sturgis invariably wore lace jabots during the day. These were
high-collared affairs, reinforced with wires or whalebones, and they
fastened firmly around the throat, the lace falling in rich, frothy
cascades at the front. They were the only extravagance the hard-working
little woman allowed herself, and she justified them on the ground
that they were becoming and she must be presentable at the fashionable
girls’ school where she was a teacher, and also at Signor Bellini’s
studio where she was the paid accompanist. Jeannette and Alice were
always mending or ironing these frills, and had become extremely expert
at the work. There was a drawer in their mother’s bureau devoted
exclusively to her jabots, and her daughters made it their business to
see that one of these lacy adornments was always there, dainty and
fresh, ready to be put on. Beneath the brave show of lace about her
neck and over the round swell of her small compact bosom, there was
only her “little old black” or “the Macy blue.” Mrs. Sturgis had no
other garments and these two dresses were unrelievedly plain affairs
with plain V-shaped necks and plain, untrimmed skirts. The jabots gave
the effect of elegance she loved, and she had a habit of flicking the
lacy ruffles as she talked, straightening them or tossing them with a
careless finger. The final touch of adornment she allowed herself was
two fine gold chains about her neck. From the longer was suspended her
watch which she carried tucked into the waist-band of her skirt; while
the other held her eye-glasses which, when not in use, hung on a hook
at her shoulder.

The tight lace collars creased and wrinkled her throat, and made
her cheeks bulge slightly over them, giving her face a round full
expression. When she was excited and wagged her head, or when she
laughed, her fat little cheeks shook like cups of jelly. But as soon
as her last pupil had departed for the day, off came the gold chains
and the jabot. She was more comfortable without the confining band
about her neck though her real reason for laying her lacy ruffles
aside was to keep them fresh and unrumpled. Stripped of her frills,
her daughters were accustomed to see her in the early mornings, and
evenings, with the homely V-shaped garment about her withered neck, her
cheeks, lacking the support of the tight collar, sagging loosely. Habit
was strong with Mrs. Sturgis. Jeannette and Alice were often amused at
seeing their mother still flicking and tossing with an unconscious
finger an imaginary frill long after it had been laid aside.

Now as the little woman bent over the stove, her older daughter
noted the pendant cheeks criss-crossed with tiny purplish veins, the
blue-white wrinkled neck, and the vivid red spots beneath the ears left
by the sharp points of wire in the high collar she had just unfastened.
There were puffy pockets below her eyes, and even the eyelids were
creased with a multitude of tiny wrinkles. Jeannette realized her
mother was tired--unusually tired. She remembered, too, that it was
Saturday, and on Saturday there were pupils all day long. The girl
jumped to her feet, snatched the stirring spoon out of her mother’s
hand and pushed her away from the range.

“Get out of here, Mama,” she directed vigorously. “Go in to the table
and sit down. Alice and I will put dinner on.... Alice, make Mama go in
there and sit down.”

Mrs. Sturgis laughingly protested but she allowed her younger daughter
to lead her into the adjoining room where she sank down gratefully in
her place at the table.

“Well, lovies, your old mother _is_ pretty tired....” She drew a long
breath of contentment and closed her eyes.

The girls poured the kidney stew into an oval dish and carried it and
the scalloped tomatoes to the table. There was a hurried running back
and forth for a few minutes, and then Jeannette and Alice sat down,
hunching their chairs up to the table, and began hungrily to eat. It
was the most felicitous, unhurried hour of their day usually, for
mother and daughters unconsciously relaxed, their spirits rising with
the warm food, and the agreeable companionship which to each was and
always had been exquisitely dear.

The dining-room in the daytime was the pleasantest room in the
apartment. It and the kitchen overlooked a shabby back-yard, adjoining
other shabby back-yards far below, in the midst of which, during
summer, a giant locust tree was magnificently in leaf. There were
floods of sunshine all afternoon from September to April, and a brief
but pleasing view of the Hudson River could be seen between the wall
of the house next door and an encroaching cornice of a building on
Columbus Avenue. At night there was little in the room to recommend
it. The wall-paper was a hideous yellow with acanthus leaves of a more
hideous and darker yellow flourishing symmetrically upon it. There was
a marble mantelpiece over a fireplace, and in the aperture for the
grate a black lacquered iron grilling. Over the table hung a gaselier
from the center of which four arms radiated at right angles, supporting
globes of milky glass.

Mrs. Sturgis’ bedroom adjoined the dining-room and was separated from
it by bumping folding-doors, only opened on occasions when Jeannette
and Alice decided their mother’s room needed a thorough cleaning and
airing. The latter seemed necessary much oftener than the former for
the room had only one small window which, tucked into the corner, gave
upon a narrow light-well. It was from this well, which extended clear
down to the basement, that the evil smells arose when the Najarians,
two flights below, began cooking one of their Armenian feasts.

In the center of the apartment were two dark little chambers occupied
by the girls. Neither possessed a window, but the wall separating
them was pierced by an opening, fitted with a hinged light of frosted
glass which, when hooked back to the ceiling, permitted the necessary
ventilation. These boxlike little rooms had to be used as a passageway.
The only hall was the public one outside, at one end of which was
a back door giving access to the kitchen and the dining-room, and,
opposite this, a front one, opening into the large, commodious
sitting-room, or studio--as it was dignified by the family--in which
Mrs. Sturgis gave her music lessons.

It was this generous front room, with its high ceiling, its big bay
window, its alcove ideally proportioned to hold the old grand piano,
which had intrigued the little music-teacher twelve years before,
when she had moved into the neighborhood after her husband’s death
and begun her struggle for a home and livelihood. Whether or not the
prospective pupils would be willing to climb the four long flights of
stairs necessary to reach this thoroughly satisfactory environment for
the dissemination of musical instruction was a question which only
time would answer. Mrs. Sturgis had confidently expected that they
would and her expectations had been realized. The dollar an hour, which
was all she charged, had appealed to the more calculating of their
parents; moreover Henrietta Spaulding Sturgis was a pianist of no mean
distinction. She was a graduate of the Boston Conservatory, was in
charge of the music at Miss Loughborough’s Concentration School for
Little Girls on Central Park West, and was the accompanist for Tomaso
Bellini, a well-known instructor in voice culture who had a studio
in Carnegie Hall. These facts the neighborhood inevitably learned,
and that lessons at such a price could be had from a teacher so well
equipped was confided by one shrewd mother to another. The stairs were
ignored; a little climbing, if taken slowly, never hurt _any_ child!

But while year after year it became more and more advertised that
bustling, round-faced, cheerful Mrs. Sturgis _did_ have charge of
the music at Miss Loughborough’s school on Tuesdays and Fridays of
each week, and _did_ play the accompaniments for the pupils of Signor
Bellini at his Carnegie Hall studio on Mondays and Thursdays, no one
suspected that sharp Miss Loughborough handed Mrs. Sturgis a check
for only twenty-five dollars twice a month and that thrifty Signor
Bellini paid but five dollars a day to his accompanist. Wednesdays
and Saturdays were left for private lessons at a dollar an hour, and
although Mrs. Sturgis could have filled other days of the week with
pupils, Miss Loughborough and Signor Bellini represented an income that
was certain, while nothing was more uncertain than the little pupils
whose parents sent them regularly for a few months and then moved away
or summarily discontinued the instruction often without explanation.
Jeannette and Alice had urged their mother repeatedly to drop one
or the other of her close-handed employers and take on more pupils,
but to these entreaties Mrs. Sturgis had shaken her head with firm
determination until her round little cheeks trembled.

“No--no, lovies; that may be all very well,--they may be underpaying
me,--perhaps they are, but the money’s _sure_ and that’s the comfort.
It’s worth much more to me to know _that_ than to earn twice the
amount.”

It was the dreary hot summers that Mrs. Sturgis and her daughters
dreaded when Miss Loughborough’s school closed its doors and Signor
Bellini made his annual pilgrimage to Italy, and the little pupils
who had filled the Wednesday and Saturday lesson hours drifted away
to the beaches or the mountains. July and August were empty, barren
months and against their profitlessness some provision had to be made;
a little must be put by during the year to take care of this lean and
trying period. But somehow, although Mrs. Sturgis firmly determined at
the beginning of each season that never again would she subject her
girls to the self-denials, even privations, they had endured during
the summer, every year it became harder and harder to save, while
each summer brought fresh humiliations and a slimmer purse. Even in
the most prosperous seasons the small family was in debt, always a
little behind, never wholly caught up, and as time went on, it became
evident that each year found them further and further in arrears. They
were always harassed by annoying petty accounts. Miss Loughborough’s
and Signor Bellini’s money paid the rent and the actual daily food,
and when a parent took it into his or her head to send a check for a
child’s music, the amount had to be proportioned here and there: so
much to the druggist, the dentist and doctor; so much to the steam
laundry; so much to the ice company and dairy; so much for gas and fuel.

Emerging from the chrysalis of girlhood, Jeannette and Alice were
rapidly becoming young women, with a healthy, normal appetite for
pretty clothes and amusement. These were simple enough and might so
easily have been gratified, Mrs. Sturgis often sadly thought, if her
income would keep but a lagging pace with modestly expanding needs.
It required a few extra dollars only each year, but where could she
lay her hands on them? When a business expanded and its earnings grew
proportionately, an employee’s salary was sure to be raised after a
time of faithful service. Mrs. Sturgis did not dare increase the rates
she charged for her lessons. She felt she was facing a blank wall; she
could conceive of no way whereby she might earn more. Skimping what
went on the table was an old recourse to which she and her children
were now thoroughly accustomed. She did not see how she could possibly
cut down further and still keep her girls properly nourished.


§ 5

She watched them affectionately now as they finished their dinner,
observing her older daughter’s fastidious manipulation of her fork,
the younger one’s birdlike way of twisting her small head as she ate.
A fleeting wonder of what the future held in store for each passed
through her mind. Jeannette was the more impetuous, and daring,
was shrewd-minded, clear-thinking, efficient, was headstrong, and
actuated ever by a suffering pride; she would undoubtedly grow into
a tall, beautiful woman. Alice,--her mother’s “brown bird,”--seemed
overshadowed by comparison and yet Mrs. Sturgis sometimes felt that
Alice, with her simpler, unexacting, contented nature, her gentle
faith, her meditative mind, was the more fortunate of the two. She,
herself, turned to Jeannette for advice, for discussion of ways and
means, and to Alice for sympathetic understanding and uncritical
loyalty. They were both splendid girls, she mused fondly, who would
make admirable wives. They must marry, of course; she had brought
them up since they were tiny girls to consider a successful, happy
marriage as their outstanding aim in life; she had trained them in the
duties of wives, even of mothers, but she shuddered and her heart grew
sick within her as she began dimly to perceive the time approaching
when she must surrender their bloom and innocence and her complete
proprietorship in them to some confident, ignorant young male who would
unhesitatingly set up his half-baked judgment for his wife’s welfare
against her hard-won knowledge of life. Yet both girls must marry; her
heart was set on that. Marriage meant everything to a girl, and to the
right husbands, her daughters would make ideal wives.

With the speed of long practice, the remains of the dinner were swept
away and the kitchen set to rights. Both girls attempted to dissuade
their mother from performing her customary dish-washing task, urging
her that to-night she must rest. But Mrs. Sturgis would not listen;
she was quite rested, she declared, and there was nothing to washing
up the few dishes they had used; why, it wasn’t ten minutes’ work! She
invariably insisted upon performing this dirtier, more vigorous task;
Alice’s part was to wipe; Jeannette’s to clear the table, brush the
cloth, put away the china and napkins, and replace the old square piece
of chenille curtaining which had for years done duty as a table cover.
Then there was the gas drop-light to set in its center, and connect
with the gaselier above by a long tube ending in a curved brass nozzle
that fitted over one of the burners. Where this joining occurred, there
was always a slight escape of gas, and it frequently gave Mrs. Sturgis
or her daughters a headache, but beyond an impatient comment from one
of them, such as “Mercy me! the gas smells horribly to-night!” or “Open
the window a little, dearie,--the gas is beginning to make my head
ache,” nothing was ever done about it. It was one of those things in
their lives to which they had grown accustomed and accepted along with
the rest of the ills and goods of their days.

Mother and girls used the dining-room as the place to congregate, sew,
read or idle. They rarely sat down or attempted to make themselves
comfortable in the spacious front room. It was not nearly so agreeably
intimate, and they felt it must always be kept in order for music
lessons and for rare occasions when company came. “Company” usually
turned out to be a pupil’s mother or a housemaid who came to explain
that little Edna or Gracie had the mumps or was going to the dentist’s
on Saturday and therefore would not be able to take her lesson, or a
messenger from Signor Bellini to inquire if Mrs. Sturgis could play for
one of his pupils the following evening. Such was the character of the
callers, but the fiction of “company” was maintained.

The group Mrs. Sturgis and her daughters made about the dining-room
table in the warm yellow radiance of the drop-light was intimately
familiar and dear to each of them. There was always a certain amount of
sewing going on,--mending or darning,--and hardly an evening passed
without one or another industriously bending over her needle. Usually
they were all three at it, for they made most of their own clothes.
Each had her own particular side of the table and her own particular
chair. They were extremely circumspect in the observance of one
another’s preferences, and would apologize profusely if one happened
to be found on the wrong side of the table or incorrectly seated. Mrs.
Sturgis, on the rare occasions when she found herself with nothing
particular to do, spread out a pack of cards before her and indulged
in a meditative solitaire; Alice had always a novel in which she was
absorbed. Generally three or four books were saved up in her room, and
she considered herself dreadfully behind in her reading unless she had
disposed of one of them as soon as she acquired another. Jeannette
studied the fashions in the dress magazines and sometimes amused
herself by drawing costume designs of her own.

But dressmaking occupied most of the evenings. There was usually a
garment of some kind in process of manufacture, or a dress to be ripped
to pieces and its materials used in new ways. Alice acted as model no
matter for whom the work was intended. She had infinite patience and
could stand indefinitely, sometimes with a bit of sewing in her hands,
sometimes with a book propped before her on the mantel, indifferent
and unconcerned, while her mother and sister crawled around her on
the floor, pinning, pulling and draping the material about her young
figure, or else sitting back on their heels and arguing with each
other, while they eyed her with heads first on one side, then on the
other.


§ 6

To-night Jeannette was making herself a corset cover, Alice was
struggling over a school essay on “Home Life of the Greeks in the Age
of Pericles,” and Mrs. Sturgis was darning. They had not been more than
half-an-hour at their work, when there was the sound of masculine feet
mounting the stairs, a hesitating step in the hall, and a brief ring of
the doorbell. They glanced at one another questioningly and Alice rose.
Alice always answered the bell.

“If it’s old Bellini wanting you to-night....” Jeannette began in
annoyance. But the man’s voice that reached them was no messenger’s;
it was polite and friendly, and it was for Alice’s sister he inquired.
Jeannette found Dikron Najarian in the front room. The young man was
all bashful breathlessness.

“There’s an Armenian society here in New York, Miss Sturgis. My father
was one of its organizers, has been a member for years. We’re having a
dance to-night at Weidermann’s Hall on Amsterdam Avenue, and my cousin,
Louisa, who was going with me, is ill; she has a bad toothache. I have
her ticket and ... will you come in her place? Rosa’s going, of course,
and ... tell your mother I’ll bring you home at twelve o’clock.”

It was said in an anxious rush, with hopeful eagerness. Jeannette,
bewildered, went to consult her mother. Mrs. Sturgis hastily pinned one
of her jabots around her neck and appeared to confront young Najarian
in the studio. She listened to the invitation thoughtfully, her head
cocked upon one side, her lips pursed in judicial fashion. Janny was
still very young, she explained; she had never attended anything
quite--quite so grown-up, she was used only to the parties her school
friends sometimes asked her to, and Mrs. Sturgis was afraid....

Suddenly Jeannette wanted to go. She pinched her mother’s arm, and an
impatient protest escaped her lips.

“Oh, please, Mrs. Sturgis....” pleaded the young man.

A rich contralto voice sounded from the hallway of the floor below.
The door to the apartment had been left open and now they could see
big handsome Rosa Najarian’s face through the banisters as she stood
halfway up the stairs.

“Do let your daughter come, Mrs. Sturgis. They are all nice boys and
girls. I will keep a sharp eye on her and bring her home to you safely.”

“Well,” said Mrs. Sturgis, “I just wanted to feel satisfied that
everything was right and proper.”

There were some further words. Jeannette left her mother talking with
Dikron and flew to the dining-room, to her sister.

“Quick, Alice dearie! Dikron Najarian’s asked me to a dance. I must
fly! Help me get ready. He’s waiting.”

Instantly there was a scurry, a jerking open of bureau drawers, a
general diving into crowded closets. The question immediately arose,
what was Jeannette to wear? In a mad burst of extravagance, she had
sent her dotted Swiss muslin to the laundry. There remained only her
old “party” dress, which had been done over and over, lengthened and
lengthened, until now the velvet was worn and shiny, the covering of
some of the buttons was gone and showed the bright metal beneath, the
ribbon about the waist was split in several places. Yet there was
nothing else, and while the girl was hooking herself into it, Alice
daubed the metal buttons with ink, and sewed folds of the ribbon over
where it had begun to split. Jeannette borrowed stockings from her
sister and wedged her feet into a pair of her mother’s pumps which were
too small for her. Her black lusterless locks were happily becomingly
arranged, and excitement brought a warm dull red to her olive-tinted
cheeks. She was in gay spirits when Najarian called for her some
fifteen minutes later, and went off with him chattering vivaciously.

Mrs. Sturgis stood for a moment in the open doorway of her apartment
and listened to the descending feet upon the stairs, to the lessening
sound of gay young voices. She assured herself she caught Rosa
Najarian’s warmer accents as the older girl met her brother and
Jeannette two flights below; she still bent her ear for the last sounds
of the little party as it made its way down the final flight of stairs,
paused for an interval in the lowest hallway, and banged the front door
behind it with a dull reverberation and a shiver of glass. As the house
grew still she waited a minute or two longer with compressed lips and a
troubled frown, then shook her round little cheeks firmly, turned back
into her own apartment, and without comment began to help Alice hang up
Jeannette’s discarded clothing and set the disordered room to rights.


§ 7

Jeannette found her mother sitting up for her when she returned a
little after twelve. Mrs. Sturgis was engaged in writing out bills
for her lessons which she would mail on the last day of the month. The
old canvas-covered ledger with its criss-crossed pages, its erasures
and torn edges in which she kept her accounts was a familiar sight in
her hands. She was forever turning its thumbed and ink-stained leaves,
studying old and new entries, making half-finished calculations in the
margins or blank spaces. She sat now in the unbecoming flannelette gown
she wore at night, her thin hair in two skimpy pig-tails on either side
of her neck, a tattered knitted shawl of a murderous red about her
shoulders, and a comforter across her knees. In the yellow light of the
hissing gas above her head, she appeared haggard and old, with dark
pockets underneath her scant eyebrows and even gaunt hollows in the
little cheeks that bulged plumply and bravely during the day above her
tight lace collars.

“Well,--_dear_-ie!” Bright animation struggled into the mother’s face,
and her voice at once was all eagerness and interest. “Did you have a
good time? ... Tell me about it.”

Immediately she detected something was amiss. There was none of the gay
exhilaration and youthful exuberance in her daughter’s manner, she had
confidently expected. One searching glance into the glittering dark
eyes, as the girl stooped to kiss her, told her Jeannette was fighting
tears, struggling to control a burst of pent-up feeling.

“Why, dearie! What’s the matter? ... Tell me.”

“Oh----!” There was young fury in the exclamation. Jeannette flung
herself into a chair and buried her face in her hands, plunging her
finger-tips deep into her thick coils of black hair. For several
minutes she would not answer her mother’s anxious inquiries.

“Wasn’t Mr. Najarian nice to you? Didn’t he look after you? Didn’t you
have a good time? Tell Mama,” Mrs. Sturgis persisted.

“Oh, yes,--he was very nice, ... yes, he took good care of me,--and
Rosa did, too.”

“Then what is it, dearie? What happened? Mama wants to know.”

Jeannette drew a long breath and got brusquely to her feet.

“Oh, it’s this!” she burst out, striking the gown she wore with
contemptuous fingers. “It’s these miserable things I have to wear!
There wasn’t a girl there, to-night,--not even one,--that wasn’t better
dressed. I was a laughing-stock among them! ... Oh, I know I was, I
know I was! ... They all felt sorry for me: a poor little neighbor of
Dikron Najarian’s on whom he had taken pity and whom he had asked to a
dance! ... Oh! I can’t and _won’t_ stand it, Mama.”

Tears suddenly choked her but she fought them down and stilled her
mother’s rush of expostulations.

“No--no, Mama! ... It’s _nobody’s_ fault. You work your fingers to the
bone for Allie and me; you work from daylight till dark to keep us in
school and in idleness. I’m not going to let you do it any longer....
No, Mama, I’m not going to let things go on as they are. I needed some
experience like to-night’s to make me wake up.”

“What experience? Don’t talk so wild, baby.”

“Finding out for myself I was the shabbiest dressed girl in the room!
There were a lot of other girls there,--really nice girls. I didn’t
expect it. I suppose I thought I wouldn’t find any American girls like
myself at an Armenian dance. I don’t know _what_ I thought! ... But
there were only a few like Rosa and Dikron, and all the other girls
were beautifully dressed.”

Jeannette broke off and began to blink hard for self-control. Her
mother, her face twisted with sympathy and distress, could only pat her
hand and murmur soothingly over and over: “Dearie--my poor dearie--my
dearie-girl----”

“I saw one old lady sizing me up,” Jeannette went on presently. “I
could see right into her brain and I knew every thought she was
thinking. She looked me over from my feet to my hair and from my hair
to my feet. There wasn’t a thing wrong or right with me that that old
cat missed! She didn’t mean it unkindly; she was merely interested in
noting how shabby I was.... And Mama,--it was a revelation to me! I
could just see ahead into the years that are coming, and I could see
that that was to be my fate always wherever I went: to be shabbily
dressed and be pitied.”

“Now--now, dearie,--don’t take on so. Mama will work hard; we’ll
save----”

“But that’s just what I won’t have!” Jeannette interrupted
passionately. “I’m not going to let you go on slaving for Allie and
me, making yourself a drudge.... What’s it all for? Just so Allie and
I can marry suitable rich young men! Isn’t that it? Ever since I can
remember, I’ve heard you talk about our future husbands and what kind
of men they are to be. You’ve been describing to us for years the time
when we’ll be going to dances and theatres. Going, yes, but how?
Dressed like this? Worn, shabby old clothes? To be pitied by other
women? ... No, Mama, I won’t do it. I’d rather stay home with you for
the rest of my life and grow up to be an old maid!”

“Oh, Janny, don’t talk so reckless. You take things so seriously,
and you’re always imagining the worst side of everything. There are
thousands of girls a great deal worse off than you. There are thousands
of mothers and fathers and daughters in this city right this minute who
are facing just this problem. It’s as old as the hills. But there’s
always a way out,--a way that’s right and proper. Don’t let it trouble
you, dearie; leave it to Mama; Mama’ll manage.”

“No, Mama, I _won’t_ leave it to you! I’ve got eyes in my head and
I see how hard you have to struggle. We’re always behind as it
is,--pestered by bills and the tradespeople. Why, this very afternoon
we didn’t have a cent in the house,--not even a copper,--and you had to
borrow a dime from Mildred Carpenter to buy bread! Just think of it!
_We didn’t have money enough for bread!_”

“But, dearie, I’ve got Miss Loughborough’s check in my purse.”

“Yes, and we owe ten times its amount! ... We’re running steadily
behind. I don’t see anything better ahead. It’s going to be this way
year after year, always falling a little more and a little more behind,
until--until, well--until people won’t trust us any more.”

“Perhaps we could cut down a bit somewheres, Janny.”

“Oh, Mama, don’t talk nonsense! I’m going to work,--that’s all there is
about it.”

“Jeannette! ... You can’t! ... You mustn’t!”

“Well, I am just the same. Rosa Najarian is a stenographer with the
Singer Sewing Machine Company, and she gets eighteen dollars a week!
... Think of it, Mama! Eighteen dollars a week! She took a ten weeks’
course at the Gerard Commercial School and at the end of that time they
got her a job. She didn’t have to wait a week! ... No, I’m not going to
High School another day. To-morrow I’m going down to that Commercial
School.”

“But, dearie--dearie! You don’t want to be a working girl!”

“You’re a working woman, aren’t you?”

“But, my dear, I had no other choice. I had my girls to bring up,
and I’ve grubbed and slaved, as you say, just so my daughters would
never have to take positions. I’ve worked hard to make ladies of you,
dearie,--and no lady’s a shop-girl.... Oh, I couldn’t bear it! You and
Allie shop-girls! ... Janny,--it would _finish_ me.”

“Well, Mama, you don’t feel so awfully about Rosa Najarian--do you? You
consider Rosa a lady, don’t you?”

“She’s an Armenian, Jeannette, and I know nothing about Armenians.
Besides she is not _my_ daughter. The kind of men I want for husbands
to my girls will not be looking for their wives behind shop counters!”

“But, Mama, stenographers don’t work behind counters.”

“Oh, yes, they do.... Anyway it’s the same thing.”

Jeannette felt suddenly too tired to continue the discussion. Her
mind began turning over the changes the step she contemplated would
occasion. Mrs. Sturgis’ fingers played a nervous tattoo upon her
tremulous lips. She glanced apprehensively at her daughter and in that
moment realized the girl would have her way.

“Oh, dearie, dearie!” she burst out. “I can’t _have_ you go to work!”

Jeannette knew that no opposition from her mother would alter her
purpose. Where her mind was made up, her mother invariably capitulated.
It had been so for a long time, and Jeannette, at least, was aware of
it. As she foresaw the full measure of her mother’s distress when she
put her decision into effect, she came and knelt beside her chair,
gathered the tired figure in its absurd flannelette nightgown in her
arms and kissed the thin silky hair where it parted and showed the
papery white skin of her scalp. Mrs. Sturgis bent her head against
her daughter’s shoulder, while the tears trickled down her nose and
fell upon the girl’s bare arm. Jeannette murmured consolingly but her
mother refused to be comforted, indicating her disapproval by firm
little shakes of her head which she managed now and then between watery
sniffles.

There were finally many kisses between them and many loving assurances.
The girl promised to do nothing without careful consideration, and
they would all three discuss the proposition from every angle in the
morning. When they had said a last good-night and the girl had gone to
her room, Mrs. Sturgis still sat on under the hissing gas jet with the
red, torn shawl about her shoulders, the comforter across her knees.
The tears dried on her face, and for a long time she stared fixedly
before her, her lips moving unconsciously with her thoughts.

The little suite of rooms she had known so intimately for twelve long
years grew still; the chill of the dead of night crept in; Jeannette’s
light went out. Mrs. Sturgis reached for the canvas-covered ledger
on the table beside her and began a rapid calculation of figures on
its last page. For a long time she stared at the result, then rose
deliberately, and went into her room. There she cautiously pulled
an old trunk from the wall, unlocked its lid, raised a dilapidated
tray, and knelt down. In the bottom was an old _papier-maché_ box,
battered and scratched, with rubbed corners. She opened this and began
carefully to examine its contents. There was the old brooch pin Ralph
had given her after the first concert they attended together, and
there were her mother’s coral earrings and necklace, and the little
silver buckles Jeannette had worn on her first baby shoes. There were
some other trinkets: a stud, Ralph’s collapsible gold pencil, a French
five-franc piece, a scarf-pin from whose setting the stone was missing.
Tucked into a faded leather photograph case was a sheaf of folded
pawn tickets. That was the way her rings had gone, and the diamond
pin, Ralph’s jeweled cuff-links and the gold head of her father’s
ebony cane. She picked up the pair of silver buckles and examined
them in the palm of her hand; presently she added the gold brooch and
the collapsible pencil before she put back the contents of the trunk
and locked it. For some moments she stood in the center of her room
gently jingling these ornaments together. Then her eye travelled to
her bureau; slowly she approached it, and one after another lifted
the gold chains she wore during the day. These she disengaged from her
eye-glasses and watch, and wrapped them with the buckles and the brooch
in a bit of tissue paper pulled from a lower drawer. But still she did
not seem satisfied. With the tissue-paper package in her hand, she
sat on the edge of her bed, frowning thoughtfully, her fingers slowly
tapping her lips. Presently a light came into her eyes. She lit a
candle and stole softly through the girls’ rooms, into the great gaunt
chamber that was the studio. In one corner was a bookcase, overflowing
with old novels, magazines, and battered school-books. It was a
higgledy-piggledy collection of years, a library without value save
for five substantial volumes of Grove’s Musical Dictionary on a lower
shelf. Mrs. Sturgis knelt before these, drew them out one by one, and
laid them beside her on the floor. She opened the first volume and read
the inscription: “To my ever patient, gentle Henrietta, for five trying
years my devoted wife, true friend, and loving companion, from her
grateful and affectionate husband, Ralph.” There was the date,--twelve
years ago,--and he had died within six months after he had written
those words. Her fingers moved to her trembling lips and she frowned
darkly.

She closed the book, carried the five volumes to a shelf in a closet
near at hand, and tucked them out of sight in a far corner. There was
one last business to be performed: the books in the bookcase must be
rearranged to fill the vacant place where the dictionary had stood.
Mrs. Sturgis was not satisfied until her efforts seemed convincing. At
last she picked up her wavering candle and made her way back to her
own room. As she got into bed the old onyx clock on the mantel in the
dining-room struck three blurred notes upon its tiny harsh gong. Only
when darkness had shut down and the night was silent, did tears come
to the tired eyes. There was then a blinding rush, and a few quick,
strangling sobs. Mrs. Sturgis stifled these and wiped her eyes hardily
upon a fold of the rough sheet. She steadied a trembling lip with a
firm hand and resolutely turned upon her side to compose herself for
sleep.



CHAPTER II


§ 1

It took all Jeannette’s young vigorous determination to carry into
effect the plan she had conceived the night of the Armenian dance.
She met with an unexpected degree of opposition from her mother, and
even from Alice, who was as a rule indecisive, and the vaguest of
persons in expressing opinions. It was too grave a step; Janny might
come to regret it bitterly some day, and it might be too late then to
go back; Alice thought perhaps it would be wiser to wait awhile. But
Jeannette did not want to wait. The more she thought about being a
wage-earner, and her own mistress, free to do as she pleased and spend
her money as she chose, the more eager she was to be done with school
and the supervision of teachers. She felt suddenly grown up, and looked
enviously at the young women she met hurrying to the elevated station
at Ninety-third Street in the early mornings on their way downtown to
business. She noted how they dressed and critically observed those who
carried their lunches. She thought about what she should wear, the
kind of hat and shoes she would select, when she was one of them. If
it meant skipping her noonday meal entirely, she decided, she would
never be guilty of carrying lunch with her. Alice and her intimates at
school on a sudden became drearily young to her; she was irritated by
their giggling silliness. She chose to treat them all with a certain
aloofness, and began to regard herself already as a highly-paid, valued
secretary of the president of a large corporation. In the evenings she
found excuses for visiting Rosa Najarian and eagerly listened to the
older girl’s account of the business routine of her days.

The tuition at the Gerard Commercial School for ten weeks’ instruction
in shorthand and typing was fifty dollars payable in advance, and it
was her inability to get this sum that prevented Jeannette from putting
her plan immediately into effect. She made herself unhappy and her
mother and sister unhappy by worrying about it. Mrs. Sturgis fretted
uncomfortably. She alone was aware of an easy way by which the money
could be obtained, but since she did not approve of her daughter’s
purpose, she had no inclination to divulge it.

A five thousand dollar paid-up insurance policy from a benevolent
society had become hers at the time of her husband’s death. It
represented a nest-egg, the thought of which had always been the
greatest comfort to her. In sickness or in case of her death, the girls
would have something; they would not be left absolutely destitute. She
had never mentioned this policy to her daughters, always being afraid
she might borrow on it, and many a time she had been sorely tempted to
do so. With the knowledge of its existence unshared with anyone, Mrs.
Sturgis felt herself equal to temptation; but once taking her children
into her confidence, she feared she would soon weakly make inroads upon
it.

Now as Jeannette became restive and impatient for want of fifty
dollars, her mother grew correspondingly depressed. It was to protect
herself against just such wild-goose schemes as this, she told herself
over and over, that she had refrained from telling her darlings
anything about the money.

But events, unforeseen, and from her point of view, calamitous, robbed
her of her fortitude, and forced her to play into her daughter’s hands.
Scarlet fever broke out in the neighborhood; an epidemic swept the
upper West Side; the Wednesday and Saturday lessons,--all of them,--had
to be discontinued; Miss Loughborough’s school closed its doors. Mrs.
Sturgis found some music to copy, but the money she earned in this way
was far short of the meager income upon which she and her daughters
had depended. The days stretched into weeks and still new cases were
reported in the district. The time came when there was actual want in
the little household, literally no money with which to buy food, and no
further credit to be had among the tradespeople.

Jeannette applied for and secured the promise of a job in a small
upholsterer’s shop in the neighborhood at six dollars a week, and in
the face of her firm resolution to accept the offer and go to work on
the following Monday morning, Mrs. Sturgis confessed her secret. As she
had foreseen, Jeannette had little difficulty in persuading her,--since
now she would be compelled to borrow on her store,--to make the amount
of her loan fifty dollars additional.

“Why, Mama, I’ll be earning that much a month in ten weeks, and I can
pay it back to you in no time.”

“I know--I know, dearie. But I just hate to do it.”

Eventually, she gave way before her daughter’s flood of arguments.
It was what she had feared ever since Ralph died; there would be no
stopping now the inroads upon her little capital; she saw the beginning
of the end.

But Jeannette went triumphantly to school.


§ 2

After the first few days while she felt herself conspicuous as a new
pupil, she began to enjoy herself immensely. The studies fascinated
her. Hers was an alert mind and she was unusually intelligent. She
had always been regarded as an exceptionally bright student, but she
had achieved this reputation with little application. Her school work
heretofore had represented merely “lessons” to her; it had never
carried any significance. But now she threw herself with all the
intensity of her nature upon what seemed to her a vital business.
She realized she had only ten weeks in which to master shorthand and
typing, and at the end of that time would come the test of her ability
to fill a position as stenographer. She dared not risk the humiliation
of failure; her pride,--the strongest element in her make-up,--would
not permit it. She must work, work, work; she must utilize every hour,
every minute of these precious weeks of instruction!

The girl knew in her heart that she had many of the qualifications of
a good secretary. She was pretty, she was well-mannered, intelligent,
and could speak and write good English. To find ample justification for
this estimate, she had but to compare herself with other girls in the
school. These for the most part were foreign-born. A large percentage
were Jewesses, thick-lipped and large-nosed, with heavy black coils of
hair worn over ill-disguised “rats.” Jeannette detected a finer type,
but even to these exceptions she felt herself superior. They chewed gum
a great deal, and shrieked over their confidences as they ate their
lunches out of cardboard boxes at the noon hour. She could not bring
herself to associate with such girls, and forestalled any approach to
friendliness on their part by choosing a remote corner to devote the
leisure minutes to study. In consequence she became the butt of much
of their silly laughter, and though she winced at these whisperings
and jibes, she never betrayed annoyance. There was a sprinkling of
men and boys throughout the school, but the male element was made up
of middle-aged dullards and pimply-necked raw youths, none of whom
interested her.

The weeks fled by, and Jeannette was carried along on an undiminished
wave of excitement. Everything she coveted most in the world depended
upon her winning a diploma from the school at the end of the ten weeks’
instruction. She discovered soon after her enrollment, that while this
might be physically possible, it was rarely accomplished, and most of
her fellow students had been attending the school for months. A diploma
represented to her the measure of success, and as the time grew shorter
before she was to take the final examinations, she could hardly sleep
from the intensity of her emotions.

At home, matters had materially improved. The epidemic was over; Miss
Loughborough’s school had reopened its doors, and Mrs. Sturgis was
again beginning to fill her Wednesdays and Saturdays with lessons.
But the problem of finances was still unsolved. There was a loan of
five hundred dollars now on the insurance policy, and Jeannette foresaw
her mother would not cease to fret and worry over that until it had
somehow been paid back. Everything, it seemed to her, depended on her
success at school. There was no hope for the little family otherwise.
Alice--trusting, complacent little Alice--was not the type who could
shoulder any of the burden; her mother was perceptibly not as strong as
she had been. There would always be debts, there would always be worry,
there would always be skimping and self-denial, unless she, Jeannette,
got a job and went to work.

Weary with fatigue, she would drive herself at her practice on the
rented typewriter in the studio every evening until her back flamed
with fire and her fingertips grew sore. She made Alice read aloud
to her while she filled page after page in her note-book with her
hooks and dashes, until her sister drooped with sleep. Mrs. Sturgis
protested, actually cried a little. The child was killing herself to no
purpose! There wasn’t any sense in working so hard! She was wasting her
time and it would end by their having a doctor!

Jeannette shook her head and held her peace, but when the reward came
and old Roger Mason, who had been principal of the school for nearly
twenty years, sent for her and told her he wanted to congratulate her
on the excellent showing she had made, she felt amply compensated. But
none of those who eagerly congratulated her,--not even her mother nor
Alice,--suspected how infinitely harder than mastering her lessons had
been what she had endured from the jeering, mimicking girls who had
made fun of her through the dreadful ten weeks.

But that was all behind her now. She could forget it. She had justified
herself, and stood ready to prove to her mother and sister that she
could now fill a position as a regular stenographer, could hold it,
and moreover bring them material help. She was all eagerness to
begin,--frightened at the prospect, yet confident of success.


§ 3

Graduates of the Gerard Commercial School ordinarily did not have to
wait long for a job. The demand for stenographers was usually in excess
of the supply. Little Miss Ingram, down at the school, who had in hand
the matter of finding positions for Gerard graduates, was interested
in obtaining the best that was available for Miss Sturgis who had made
such an excellent record, and Jeannette was thrilled one morning at
receiving a note asking her to report at the school without delay if
she wished employment.

Miss Ingram handed her an address on Fourth Avenue.

“It’s a publishing house. They publish subscription books, I
think,--something of that sort. I don’t urge you to take it,--something
better may come along,--but you can look them over and see how you
think you’d like it. They’ll pay fifteen.”

“Fifteen a week?” Jeanette raised delighted eyes. “Oh, Miss Ingram, do
you think I can please them? Do you think they’ll give me a chance?”

Miss Ingram smiled and squeezed Jeannette’s arm reassuringly.

“Of course, my dear, and they’ll be delighted with you. You’re a great
deal better equipped than most of our girls.”

The Soulé Publishing Company occupied a spacious floor of a tall
building on Fourth Avenue. Jeannette was deafened by the clatter of
typewriters as she stepped out of the elevator.

The loft was filled with long lines of girls seated at typewriting
machines and at great broad-topped tables piled high with folded
circulars. Figures, silhouetted against the distant windows, moved to
and fro between the aisles. It was a turmoil of noise and confusion.

As she stood before the low wooden railing that separated her from it
all, trying to adjust her eyes to the kaleidoscopic effect of movement
and light, a pert young voice addressed her:

“Who did chou want t’ see, ple-ease?”

A little Jewess of some fourteen or fifteen years with an elaborate
coiffure surmounting her peaked pale face was eyeing her inquiringly.

“I called to see about--about a position as stenographer.”

Jeannette’s voice all but failed her; the words fogged in her throat.

“Typist or regular steno?”

“Stenographer, I think; shorthand and transcription,--wasn’t that what
was wanted?”

“See Miss Gibson; first desk over there, end of third aisle.” The
little girl swung back a gate in the railing, screwed up the corners of
her mouth, tucked a stray hair into place at the nape of her neck, and
with an assumed expression of elaborate boredom waited for Jeannette to
pass through.

It took courage to invade that region of bustle and clamor. Jeannette
advanced with faltering step, felt the waters close over her head,
and herself engulfed in the whirling tide. Once of it, it did not
seem so terrifying. Already her ears were becoming attuned to the
rat-ti-tat-tating that hummed in a roar about her, and her eyes
accustomed to the flying fingers, the flashing paper, the bobbing
heads, and hurrying figures.

Miss Gibson was a placid, gray-haired woman, large-busted and severely
dressed in an immaculate shirtwaist that was tucked trimly into a snug
belt about her firm, round person.

She smiled perfunctorily at the girl as she indicated the chair beside
her desk. Jeannette felt her eyes swiftly taking inventory of her. Her
interrogations were of the briefest. She made a note of Jeannette’s
age, name and address, and schooling. She then launched into a
description of the work.

The Soulé Publishing Company sold a great many books by subscription:
_Secret Memoirs_, _The Favorites of Great Kings_, _A Compendium of
Mortal Knowledge_. Their most recent publication was a twenty-five
volume work entitled _A Universal History of the World_. This set of
books was supposed to contain a complete historical record of events
from the beginning of time, and was composed of excerpts from the
writings of great historians, all deftly welded together to make a
comprehensive narrative. A tremendous advertising campaign was in
progress; all magazines carried full-page advertisements, and a coupon
clipped from a corner of them brought a sample volume by mail for
inspection. When these volumes were returned, they were accompanied
by an order or a letter giving the reason why none was enclosed.
To the latter, a personal reply was immediately written by Mr.
Beardsley,--Miss Gibson indicated a young man seated by a window some
few desks away. He dictated to a corps of stenographers, and followed
up his first letters with others, each containing an argument in favor
of the books.

Miss Gibson enunciated this information with a glibness that suggested
many previous recitations. When she had finished, with disconcerting
abruptness, she asked Jeannette if she thought she could do the work.
The girl, taken aback, could only stare blankly; she had no idea
whether she could do it or not; she shook her head aimlessly. Miss
Gibson frowned.

“Well,--we’ll see what you can do,” she declared. “Miss Rosen,” she
called, and as a young Jewess came toward them, she directed: “Take
Miss--Miss”--she glanced at her notes,--“Sturgis to the cloak room, and
bring her back here.”

Jeannette’s mind was a confused jumble. “They won’t kill me,--they
won’t eat me,” she found herself thinking.

Presently she stood before Miss Gibson once more. The woman glanced at
her, and rose.

“Come this way.” They walked toward the young man she had previously
indicated.

“Mr. Beardsley, try this girl out. She comes from the Gerard School,
but she’s had no practical experience.”

Jeannette looked into a pleasant boy’s face. He had an even row of
glittering white teeth, a small, quaint mouth that stretched tightly
across them when he smiled, blue eyes, and rather unruly stuck-up hair.

She wanted to please him--she could please him--he seemed nice.

“Miss--Miss--I beg pardon,--Miss Gibson did not mention the name.”

“Sturgis.”

“There’s a vacant table over there. You can have a Remington or an
Underwood--anything you are accustomed to; we have all styles.... Miss
Flannigan, take charge of Miss Sturgis, will you?”

A big-boned Irish girl came toward him. She was a slovenly type but
apparently disposed to be friendly.

“I’ll lend you a note-book and pencils till you can draw your own from
the stock clerk. You have to make out a requisition for everything you
want, here. You’ll find paper in that drawer, and that’s a Remington if
you use one.”

Jeannette slipped into the straight-back chair and settled with a sense
of relief before the flimsy little table on which the typewriter stood.
She was eager for a moment’s inconspicuousness.

“This is the kind of stuff he gives you.”

Miss Flannigan leaned over from behind and offered her several yellow
sheets of typewriting.

Jeannette took them with a murmured thanks, and began to read.

“... deferred payment plan. Five dollars will immediately secure this
handsome twenty-five volume set.... On the first of May, the price of
these books, as advertised, must advance, but by subscribing now....”

She wet her dry lips and glanced at another page.

“The authenticity of these sources of historical information cannot be
doubted.... Eliminating the traditions which can hardly be accepted as
dependable chronicles, we turn to the Egyptian records which are still
extant in graven symbols.”

She couldn’t do it! It was harder than anything she had ever had in
practice! She saw failure confronting her. The sting of tears pricked
her eyes, and she pressed her lips tightly together.

Blindly she picked up a stiff bristle brush and began to clean the
type of her machine. She slipped in a sheet of paper, and, to distract
herself, rattled off briskly some of her school exercises. Those other
girls could do it! She saw them glancing at their notes, and busily
clicking at their machines. They did not seem to be having difficulty.
Miss Flannigan,--that raw-boned Irish girl with no breeding, no
education, no brains!--how was it that _she_ managed it?

She frowned savagely and her fingers flew.

“Miss Sturgis.”

Young Mr. Beardsley was smiling at her invitingly. She rose, gathering
up her pencils and note-book.

“Sit down, Miss Sturgis. This work may seem a little difficult to you
at first but you’ll soon get on to it. Most of these letters are very
much alike. There’s no particular accuracy required. The idea is to get
in closer touch with these people who have written in or inquired about
the books, and we write them personal letters for the effect the direct
message....”

He went on explaining, amiably, reassuringly. Jeannette thawed under
his pleasant manner; confidence came surging back. She made up her mind
she liked this young man; he was considerate, he was kind, he was a
gentleman.

“The idea, of course, is always to have your letters intelligible.
If you don’t understand what you have written, the person to whom it
is addressed, won’t either. I don’t care whether you get my actual
words or not. You’re always at liberty to phrase a sentence any way
you choose as long as it makes sense.... Now let’s see; we’ll try one.
Frank Curry, R.F.D. 1, Topeka, Kansas.... I’ll go slow at first, but if
I forget and get going too rapidly, don’t hesitate to stop me.”

Jeannette, with her note-book balanced on her knee, bent to her work.
Beardsley spoke slowly and distinctly. After the first moments of
agonizing despair, she began to catch her breath and concentrate on
the formation of her notes. More than once she was tempted to write a
word out long-hand; she hesitated over “historical,” “consummation,”
“inaccurate.” She had been told at school never to permit herself to do
this. Better to fail at first, they had said, than to grow to depend on
slipshod ways.

The ordeal lasted half-an-hour.

“Suppose you try that much, Miss Sturgis, and see how you get along.”

She rose and gathered up the bundle of letters. Beardsley gave her a
friendly, encouraging smile as she turned away.

“How pleasant and kind everyone is!” Jeannette thought as she made her
way back to her little table.

But her heart died within her as she began to decipher her notes.
Again and again they seemed utterly meaningless,--a whole page of
them when the curlicues, hooks and dashes looked to her like so many
aimless pencil marks. She frowned and bent over her book despairingly,
squeezing hard the fingers of her clasped hands together. What had he
said! How had he begun that paragraph? ... Oh, she hadn’t had enough
training yet, not enough experience! She couldn’t do it! She’d have to
go to him and tell him she couldn’t do the work! And he had been so
kind to her! And she would have to tell capable, friendly Miss Gibson
that a month or two more in school perhaps would be wiser before she
could attempt to do the work of a regular stenographer! And there were
her mother and sister, too! She would have to confess to them as well
that she had failed! The thought strangled her. Tears brimmed her eyes.

“Perhaps you’re in trouble? Can I help?” A gentle voice from across
the narrow aisle addressed her. Jeannette through blurred vision saw a
round, white face with kindly sympathetic eyes looking at her.

“What system do you use? The Munson? ... That’s good. Let me see your
notes. Just read as far as you can; his letters are so much alike, I
think I can help you.”

Jeannette winked away the wetness in her eyes, and read what she was
able.

“Oh, yes, I know,” interrupted this new friend; “it goes this way.” She
flashed a paper into her machine and clicked out with twinkling fingers
a dozen lines.

“See if that isn’t it,” said the girl handing her the paper.

Jeannette read the typewritten lines and referred to her notes.

“Yes, it’s just the same.” Her eyes shone. “I’m _so_ much obliged.”

“It seemed to me awfully hard at first. I thought I never could do it.”

“Did you?” Jeannette smiled gratefully.

“Oh, yes; we all had an awful time. He uses such outlandish words.”


§ 4

The morning was gone before she knew it. She went out at lunch-time,
walked a few blocks up Fourth Avenue and then turned back to the
office. She did not eat; she did not want any lunch; her mind was
absorbed in her work; she had hardly left the building before she
wanted to get back to her desk, to recopy a letter or two in which she
had made some erasures. The afternoon fled like the morning.

A whirl of confused impressions spun about in her brain as she shut
her eyes and tried to go to sleep that night. Although she ached with
fatigue, she was too excited to lose consciousness at once. The day’s
events, like a merry-go-round, wheeled around and around her. On the
whole she was satisfied. She had finished all of the letters Mr.
Beardsley had given her; he had beckoned her to come to him after he
had read them, had commended her, and given her back but one to correct
in which the punctuation was faulty.

“I’m sure you’ll do all right, Miss Sturgis,” he told her. “You’ll find
it much easier as soon as you get used to the work.”

And Jeannette felt she had made a real friend in Miss Alexander, the
girl across the aisle who had so generously, so wonderfully helped
her. Among the riff-raff of girls that surged in and out of the
office, cheaply dressed, loud-laughing, common little chits, Beatrice
Alexander was easily recognizable as belonging to Jeannette’s own
class. Each had discerned in the other a similarity of thought, of
taste and refinement that drew them immediately together.

A wonderful, tremendous feeling of importance and self-respect came to
Jeannette as she had made her way across crowded Twenty-third Street
and encountered a great tide of other workers homeward bound; as
she climbed the steep elevated station steps, and with the pushing,
jostling crowd wedged her way on board a train; as she hung to a strap
in the swaying car and squeezed herself through the jam of people about
the doorway when Ninety-third Street was reached, and as she walked the
brief block and a half that remained before she was at last at home.
Every instant of the way she hugged the soul-satisfying thought that
she had proven herself; now she was truly a full-fledged wage-earner, a
working girl. She had achieved, she felt, economic value.


§ 5

Life began to take on a new flavor. The future held hidden golden
promises. Jeannette had always had a protecting, proprietary attitude
toward her mother and Alice, but now she was acutely aware of it, and
the thought was sweet to her; she revelled in the prospect of the rôle
she must inevitably assume. All her world was centered in her eager,
hard-working, ever-cheerful, fussy little mother, and her gentle
brown-eyed sister who looked up to her with such adoration and implicit
faith. Jeannette felt she had forever established their confidence in
her by this successful step into the business world. Her mother had
been completely won by her good fortune, and her stout little bosom
swelled with pride in her daughter’s achievement. Eagerly she told her
pupils about it, and even regaled with the news fat good-natured Signor
Bellini and politely indifferent Miss Loughborough.

To Jeannette, the Soulé Publishing Company became at once a concern of
tremendous importance. Before little Miss Ingram had mentioned its name
to her, she was not sure she had ever heard it. Now she seemed to see
it wherever she turned, heard about it in chance conversations at least
once a day; it leaped at her from advertisements in the newspapers and
from the pages of magazines. Books, she casually picked up, bore its
imprint. A great pride in the big company that employed her came to
her: it was the largest and most enterprising of all publishing houses;
it was spending a million dollars advertising _The Universal History of
the World_; it had hundreds of employees on its pay-roll!

If there were less roseate aspects of the concern that paid her fifteen
dollars every Saturday, Jeannette did not see them. She never stopped
to examine critically the history she was helping to sell, nor to
glance into the pages of the _Secret Memoirs_, nor to open the leaves
of the set of books labelled _Favorites of Great Kings_. She never
thought it curious that the firm employed so many cheaply dressed,
vulgar-tongued little Jewesses, and sallow-skinned, covert-eyed girls.
Nor did she wonder that she never observed any important-looking
individuals who might be officials of the company, walking about or
up and down the aisles of the racketting, bustling loft. There was
only Mr. Kent. The others, whoever they might be, confined their
activities, she came to understand, to the main offices of the Company
on West Thirty-second Street. This great loft with its sea of life was
only a temporary arrangement,--part of the great selling campaign by
which a hundred thousand sets of the History were to be sold before
May first. Something of tremendous import was to happen on this
fateful date,--an upheaval in trade conditions, a great change in the
publishing world. Jeannette was not sure what it was all to be about,
but she was convinced that after May first, the public would no longer
have this wonderful chance to buy the twenty-five volumes of the
History at such a ridiculously low price.

Behind glass partitions in one corner of the extensive floor were the
inner offices,--the “holy of holies” Jeannette thought of them,--where
Mr. Edmund Kent existed, pulled wires, touched bells, and gave orders
that generalled the activities of the hundreds of human beings who
clicked away at their typewriters, or deftly folded thousands and
thousands of circulars, to tuck into waiting envelopes that were later
dragged away in grimy, striped-canvas mail sacks. Mr. Edmund Kent
was the Napoleon, the great King, the Far-seeing Master who in his
awesome, mysterious glass-partitioned office, ruled them with arbitrary
and benevolent power. All day long, Jeannette heard Mr. Kent’s name
mentioned. Miss Gibson quoted him; Mr. Beardsley decided this or that
important matter must be referred to him. What Mr. Kent thought, said,
did, was final. The girl used to catch a glimpse of the great man, now
and then, as he came in, in the morning, or went out to a late lunch:
a square-shouldered, firm-stepping man with a derby hat, a straight,
trim mustache, and an overcoat whose corners flapped about his knees.
He seemed wonderful to her.

“Shhhh....” a whisper would come from one of the girls near by;
“there’s Mr. Kent”; and all would watch him out of the corners of their
eyes as they pretended to bend over their work.

“Mr. Kent is President of the Company?” Jeannette one day ventured to
ask Mr. Beardsley.

“Oh, no, just the selling agent,” he replied. This was perplexing, but
it did not make Jeannette regard with any less veneration the stocky
figure in derby hat and flapping coat corners which strode in and out
of the office.

There were other mysterious persons who had desks in the “holy of
holies,” but Jeannette was never able to make out who these were, nor
what might be their duties. Miss Gibson was in charge of the girls on
the floor; Mr. Beardsley was her immediate “boss.” There was a cashier
who made up the pay-roll and whose assistants handed out the little
manila envelopes on Saturday morning containing the neatly folded
bills. She had no occasion to be concerned about anyone else.

Her “boss’s” full name was Roy Beardsley. _Roy!_ She smiled when
she heard it. He was young,--twenty-three or-four; he was a recent
Princeton graduate, was unmarried and lived in a boarding-house
somewhere on Madison Avenue. She found out so much from the girls her
second day at the office; they were glib with information concerning
any one of the force.

Jeannette liked her young boss, principally because it soon became
apparent that he treated her with a courtesy he did not accord
the other girls. She was, after all, a “lady,” she told herself,
straightening her shoulders a trifle, and he was sufficiently well-bred
himself to recognize that fact. He must see, of course, the difference
between herself and such girls as--well--as Miss Flannigan, for
instance. But more than this, Jeannette grew daily more and more
convinced that he was beginning to take a personal interest in her
for which none of these considerations accounted. Nothing definite
between them gave this justification. There was no word, no inflection
of voice that had any significance, but she saw it in a quick glimpse
of his blue eyes watching her as she sat beside his desk, in the smile
of his strange little mouth that stretched itself tightly across
his small teeth when he first greeted her in the day and wished her
“good-morning.” Some strange thrilling of her pulses beset her as she
sat near him. It irritated her; she struggled against it, even rose to
her feet and went to her desk upon a manufactured excuse to check the
subtle influence that began to steal upon her when she was near him.
All her instincts battled against this upsetting something, whatever it
was,--she could not identify it by a name--which began more and more to
trouble her.

Jeannette was a normal, healthy girl budding into womanhood, with
broadening horizons and rapidly increasing intimate associations with
the world. She was growing daily more mature, more impressive in her
bearing, and notably more beautiful. She was fully conscious of this.
Her mirror told her so, the glances of men on the street contributed
their evidence, the covert inspection of her own sex both in and out
of the office confirmed it. She was becoming aware, too, of a growing
self-confidence, of poise and power in herself that she had never
suspected.

With what constituted “crushes,” “cases,” with what was implied in
saying one was “smitten,” she was thoroughly familiar. To a confidant
she would now have frankly described Roy Beardsley as having a “crush”
on her. He was not the first youth of whom she could have truthfully
said as much. Various boys at one time or another, during her school
days, had slipped notes to her as they passed her desk, or shamblingly
trailed her home after school, carrying her books for her, and had
hung around the doorstep of the apartment house, loitering over their
leave-taking, digging the toe of a shoe into the pavement, grinning
foolishly. Some of them had confided to her that they “loved” her
and asked her to promise to be their “girl.” She, herself, had had a
“terrible case” on a vaudeville dancer named Maurice Monteagle, and on
a youth of Greek extraction who worked in Bannerman’s Drug Store on the
corner near her home, tended the soda-water counter there and whose
name she never learned.

But in none of these affairs of her young heart had there been anything
like this. She began by being somewhat flattered by Beardsley’s
attention, and was guilty of provoking him a little at first with a
smile and glance. Like all girls of her age, she had been willing, even
anxious, to whip his interest into flame. But she soon grew frightened.
There was now something in the air, something in herself she could
not quite control; she could not still the sudden throbbing of her
heart, the swimming of her senses. The moment came when she actually
dreaded meeting him in the mornings, when the minutes she was obliged
to sit beside his desk and listen to the peculiar little twang in his
voice were an ordeal. She dared not lift her eyes to meet his, but she
could see his long white fingers moving about on the desk, playing with
pencil and pen, and she could feel him looking at her when his voice
fell silent. These were the moments that disturbed her most, when she
could not--not for the life of her--control the mounting color that
began somewhere deep down within her, and swept up into her cheeks,
over her temples, to the roots of her hair. She had to rest her hand
against her note-book, to keep it from trembling. During these silences
when she felt him studying her she sometimes thought she must scream or
do something mad, unless he turned his eyes elsewhere. She seriously
considered resigning and seeking another position.


§ 6

Jeannette drank deeply of satisfaction in being a wage-earner. She
walked the streets of the city with a buoyant tread; she gazed with
pride and affection into the eyes of other working girls she passed;
she was self-supporting like them; she had something in common with
each and every one of them; there was a great bond that drew them all
together.

But while she felt thus affectionately sympathetic to these girls in
the mass, no one of them drew the line of social distinction more
rigidly, even more cruelly than did she, herself. She felt she was the
superior of the vast majority of them, and the equal of the best.
She might not be earning the salary perhaps some of them did who
were private secretaries, but she was confident that she would. Her
experience with stenography confirmed this self-confidence. With three
weeks of actual practice the trick, the knack, the knowledge,--whatever
it was,--had come to her of a sudden. Now she could sweep her pencil
across the page of her note-book, leaving in its wake an easy string
of curves, dots and dashes, setting them down automatically, keeping
pace with even the swiftest of young Beardsley’s sentences. Nothing
could stop her progress in the business world; she loved being of it,
revelled in its atmosphere, realizing that she was cleverer than most
men, shrewder, quicker, with the additional advantage of unerring
intuition.

This new-born ambition told her to keep herself aloof from other
working girls. Not that she had any inclination to associate with them;
they offended her,--not only those in the office but the giggling,
simpering girls she saw on the street, who were obviously of the same
class, teetering along on ridiculously high heels, wearing imitation
furs, and building their hair into enormous bulging pompadours. They
were the kind who did not leave the offices where they worked at the
noon hour but gathered in groups to eat their lunches out of cardboard
boxes and left a litter of crumbs on the floor; they were the kind who
crowded Childs’ restaurant, adding their shrill voices and shrieks to
the deafening clatter of banging crockery.

Jeannette, feeling that it was a working girl’s privilege to become an
habitué of Childs’, eagerly entered one of these restaurants at a noon
hour during the early days of her employment. Accustomed as she had
become to the din of an office, the noise in the eating place did not
distress her. But she shrank from rubbing elbows with neighbors whose
manner of feeding themselves horrified her. A study of the price card
and an estimate of what she could buy for fifteen cents, the amount she
decided she might properly allow herself for lunches, completed her
dissatisfaction with the restaurant and similar places. She decided
to go without lunch and to spend the leisure time of her noon-hour
wandering up and down Fifth Avenue and Broadway, looking into shop
windows,--- Lord & Taylor’s, Arnold Constable’s and even Tiffany’s on
Union Square,--and in making tours of inspection through the aisles of
Siegel-Cooper’s mammoth establishment on Sixth Avenue.

It was in the rotunda of this gigantic store, where stood a great
golden symbolic figure of a laurel-crowned woman, that there was a
large circular candy counter and soda fountain, and here the girl
discovered one might get coffee, creamed and sugared, and served in a
neat little flowered china cup, and two saltine crackers on the edge of
the saucer, for a nickel. In time, this came to constitute her daily
lunch. She could stand at the counter, sipping her drink, and nibbling
the crackers at her ease, feeling inconspicuous and comfortable,
presenting, she realized, merely the appearance of a lady shopper, who
had taken a moment from her purchasing for a bit of refreshment.

The nourishment, slight as it was, proved sufficient. On the days she
had gone lunchless, she had developed headaches late in the afternoon,
but the coffee and crackers, she found, were enough to sustain her from
a seven o’clock breakfast to dinner at six-thirty. A nickel for lunch,
a dime for carfare--sometimes she walked downtown--took less than a
dollar out of her weekly wage. That left fourteen dollars to spend as
she liked. She gave her mother nine and kept five for clothes. Five
dollars a week for new clothes! Her heart never failed to leap with joy
at the thought. Five dollars a week to save or to spend for whatever
she fancied! Oh, life was too wonderful! Just to exist these days and
to plan how she would dress herself, and what else she would do with
her earnings, filled her cup of joy to the brim.

Her little mother protested vehemently when she put nine dollars in
crisp bills into her hand at the end of the first week of work.

“Oh--dearie! What’s this? ... What’s all this money for?”

“It’s what I’m going to give you every week, Mama.”

Mrs. Sturgis for a moment was speechless, gazing with wide eyes into
her daughter’s smiling face. She wouldn’t accept it. She wouldn’t hear
of such a thing. It was the child’s own money that she had earned
herself and not one cent of it should go for any old stupid bills or
household expenses. She shook her head until her round fat cheeks
trembled like cupped jelly.

But Jeannette had her way, as she knew, and her mother knew, and
admiring, exclaiming Alice knew she would from the first. That same
evening, after the pots and pans and the supper dishes had been washed,
Mrs. Sturgis established herself under the light at the dining-room
table with the canvas-covered ledger before her and began to figure.
Thirty-six dollars a month! Thirty-six dollars a month! Six times six?
That was ...? Why, they’d almost be out of debt in six months! And they
wouldn’t need to fall behind a cent during summer! It was wonderful! It
was too--too wonderful! Tears filmed Mrs. Sturgis’ bright blue eyes;
her glasses fogged so that she had to take them off and wipe them. She
didn’t deserve such daughters! No woman ever had better girls!

They got laughing happily, excitedly over this, an hysterical sob
threatening each. They kissed each other, the girls kneeling by their
mother’s chair, their arms around one another, and clung together. And
then Alice said she had half a mind to go to work, too, and do her
share.

But there was an immediate outcry at this from both her mother and
sister. What nonsense! What a foolish idea! She mustn’t _think_ of such
a thing! Just because Jeannette had given up her schooling and gone
out into the world was no reason why both sisters should do it. There
was not the slightest necessity. Alice’s place was at school and at
home. Some one had to run the house; that was her contribution. She was
fitted for it in every way: she was domestic, she liked to cook and she
liked to clean.

A still more convincing argument that persuaded apologetic Alice that
indeed she was quite wrong, and her mother and sister were entirely
right, was voiced by Jeannette. Alice had much too retiring a nature
to be a success in business. Assurance, self-assertiveness, even
boldness were required, and Alice had none of these qualities. This
was undeniably true; they all agreed to it. It seemed to be the last
word on the matter; the topic was dismissed. Mrs. Sturgis went back to
figuring on her bills; Jeannette to speculating about Roy Beardsley as
she darned a tear in an old shirtwaist.

“I’ve often wondered,” ventured Alice after a considerable pause, “just
what I should do,--how I could support myself if both of you happened
to die. I mean--well, if Jeannette should go off somewhere,--to Europe,
maybe,--and Mother should get sick, and I should have to....”

Her voice trailed off into silence before the astonished looks turned
upon her.

“Well, upon my word ...” began Jeannette.

“Why, Alice dearie, what’s got into you?”

“You’re going to kill us both off,--is that it? I’m to run away and
leave Mother sick on your hands?”

“I mean--well, I meant----” struggled the confused Alice.

“Dearie,” said her mother, “you won’t have to worry about the future.
Mama’ll take care of you until some nice worthy young man comes along
to claim you for his own.”

“You’ll be married, Allie dear, long before I will. You’re just the
kind rich men fall madly in love with.”

“Oh, hush, Janny! ... please.”

But her sister’s thoughts were already upon a more engaging matter. She
was busy once again with Roy Beardsley.



CHAPTER III


§ 1

Spring burst upon New York with a warm breath and a rush of green.
The gentle season folded the city lovingly in its arms. Everywhere
were the evidences of its magic presence. The trees shimmered with
green, shrubbery that peeped through iron fence grillings vigorously
put forth new leaves, patches of grass in the areaways of brownstone
houses turned freshly verdant, hotels upon the Avenue took on a brave
and festal aspect with blooming flower-boxes in their windows, florist
shops exhaled delicate perfumes of field flowers and turned gay the
sidewalks before their doors with rows of potted loveliness, the Park
became an elysian field of soft invitingness, with emerald glades
and vistas of enchantment like tapestries of Fontainebleau. Spring
was evident in women’s hats, in shop windows, in the crowded tops of
lumbering three-horse buses, in the reappearance of hansom cabs, in
open automobiles, in the smiling faces of men and women, in the elastic
step of pedestrians. Spring had come to New York; the very walls of
houses and pavements of the streets flashed back joyously the golden
caressing radiance of the sun.

Walking downtown to her office on an early morning through all this
exhilarating loveliness, stepping along with almost a skip in her gait
and a heart that danced to her brisk strides, Jeannette felt rather
than saw a man’s shadow at her elbow and turned to find Roy Beardsley
beside her, lifting his hat, and smiling at her with his tight little
mouth, his blue eyes twinkling.

“Oh!” she exclaimed, her fingers pressed hard against her heart. She
had been thinking of him almost from the moment she had left home.

“Morning.... You don’t mind if I walk along? ... It’s a wonderful
morning; isn’t it glorious?”

“Oh, my, yes,--it’s glorious.” She had herself in hand by another
moment and could return his smile. They had never stood near one
another before, and the girl noticed he was half-a-head shorter than
herself. There were other things the matter with him, seen thus upon
the street while other men were passing, and with his hat on! Jeannette
could not determine just what they were. Glancing at him furtively as
they walked together down the Avenue, she was conscious of a vague
disappointment.

“Do you walk downtown every morning?” he asked.

“Oh, sometimes. How did you happen to be up this way so early?”

“I take a stroll through the Park occasionally. It’s wonderful now.”

“Yes, it’s very beautiful.”

“I think New York’s the loveliest place in the world in spring.”

“Well, I guess it is,” she agreed.

“And you have to go through a long wet winter like this last one to
appreciate it.”

“Yes, I think you do.”

“I thought we’d never get rid of the snow.”

“They clean the streets up awfully quickly though;--don’t you think so?”

“Yes, they have a great system here.”

“The poor horses have a terrible time when it’s slippery.”

“There was a big electric hansom cab stuck in the snow for four days in
front of the place where I live. They had to dig it out,” he said.

“It makes the spring all the more enjoyable when the change comes.”

“Yes, the people seem to take a personal pride in the weather.”

“It’s as though they had something to do with it themselves.”

“That’s right I noticed it the first year I was here.”

“You’re not a New Yorker, then?”

“Oh, no; my home’s in San Francisco. I only came East three years ago
to go to college.”

“I thought you were ... one of the girls at the office mentioned you
were a Princeton man.”

“I was, but I ... well, I flunked out at Christmas. I was tired of
college, anyway. I wanted to go into newspaper work, but I couldn’t get
a job with any of the metropolitan dailies, so temporarily I am trying
to help sell the _Universal History of the World_.”

They talked at random, the man inclined to give more of his personal
history; the girl, pretending indifference, commented on the steady
encroachment of stores upon these sacred fastnesses, the homes of the
rich. She interrupted him with an exclamation every now and then, to
point out some object of interest on the street, or something in a shop
window.

It was thrilling to be walking together down the brilliant Avenue
in the soft, morning sunshine. They paused at Madison Square before
beginning to weave their way through the traffic of the street, and
striking across the Park, gay with beds of yellow tulips, trees budding
into leaf, and fountains playing. Roy put his hand under the girl’s
forearm to guide her. The touch of his fingers burnt, and set her
pulses thrilling. She pointedly disengaged herself, withdrawing her
arm, when they reached the farther side of the Avenue.

Crossing the Square, she glanced at him critically once more. He seemed
absurdly young,--a mere college boy with his cloth hat at a youthful
angle, his slim young shoulders sharply outlined in the belted jacket.
It was possible he was a few years her senior, but she felt vastly
older.

He was commenting on the portentous date, May first, when the price
of the History was to advance. The company had somehow succeeded in
postponing the fateful day for two weeks, and the public was to have a
fortnight longer in which to take advantage of the low prices.

“... and after that, no one knows what will happen. Perhaps we’ll all
lose our jobs.”

“Oh,--do you really think so?” Jeannette was aghast.

“Well, some of us will go; they can’t continue to keep _that_ mob on
the pay-roll. I don’t think they’ll let you go, though, you’re such a
dandy stenographer. I shall certainly recommend them to keep you, but I
doubt if they’ll have any further use for me. They’ll let me out, all
right.”

He smiled whimsically. It was this whimsical smile the girl found so
appealing and so--so disconcerting.

“I shall be sorry if that happens,” she said slowly.

“Will you?”

“Why, of course.”

“But will you be really sorry if--if I’m no longer there?”

“We-ll,--it will be hard getting used to someone else’s dictation; I’m
accustomed to yours now.”

“Yes,--I’ll be sorry to go,” he said after a moment. “I like the work,
after a fashion, ... but, of course, it isn’t getting me anywhere. I
want to write; I’ve always been interested in that. If I could get
any kind of work on a newspaper or a magazine, it would suit me fine.
My father’s awfully sore at me for being dropped at Princeton. He’s a
minister, you know,”--Beardsley laughed deprecatingly with a glance at
his companion’s face,--“and he didn’t like it a little bit. I didn’t
want to go back home like--well--like the prodigal son, so I wrote him
I’d get a job in New York, and see what I could do for myself.”

“I see,” the girl said with another swift survey of his clean features
and tight, quaint smile. There was an extraordinary quality about him;
he was pathetic somehow; she felt oddly sorry for him.

“I’d like to make good for my father’s sake.... He’s only got his
salary.”

“I see,” she repeated.

“But summer’s the deuce of a time to get a job on a newspaper or
magazine in New York, everybody tells me.... I don’t know what I’ll do
if I don’t get something.”

Jeannette wondered what she would do herself. She had begun to enjoy so
thoroughly her daily routine, and to take such pride in herself! ...
Well, it would be too bad....

They had reached the intersection of Fourth Avenue and Twenty-third
Street where the ground was torn up in all four directions, and hardly
passable.

“I’ll say a prayer of thankfulness when they get this subway finished,
and stop tearing up the streets,” Jeannette remarked.

Once again Roy caught her elbow to help her over the pile of débris,
across the skeleton framework of exposed tracks, and again the girl
felt the touch of his young fingers like points of flame upon her arm.
She caught a shining look in his eyes. Love leaped at her from their
blueness. A moment’s giddiness seized her, and there came a terrifying
feeling that something dreadful was about to happen, that she and
this boy at her side were trembling on the brink of some dreadful
catastrophe. Instinct rose in her, strong, combative. She turned
abruptly into the open door of a candy shop and steadied herself as she
bought a dime’s worth of peppermints.

Emotions, burning, chilling, conflicting, took possession of her
the rest of the day. From her typewriter table she covertly studied
Beardsley, as he leaned back in his armed swivel-chair before his
flat-topped desk, his fingers loosely linked together across his chest,
his eyes unseeing, fixed on some distant point through the window’s
vista, dictating to the stenographer who bent over her note-book, as
she scribbled beside him. What was it about him that moved her so
strangely? What was it in his twinkling blue eyes, his quaint mouth
with its whimsical smile that stirred her, and set her senses swimming?
He was in love with her. Perhaps it was just because he cared so much
that she was thus deeply stirred. There had been others, she reminded
herself, who had been in love with her, but they had awakened no such
emotion.

Had she come to care herself?

She asked the question with a beating heart. Was this love,--the
feeling about which she had speculated so long? Love,--the _great_
love? Was she to meet her fate so soon? Was her adventure among men to
be so soon over? Was this all there was to it? The first man she met?
She and Roy Beardsley?

She denied it vehemently. No, it was nonsense,--it was ridiculous! Roy
Beardsley was a boy,--a mere youth who had been dropped from college.
She would not permit herself to become interested in him. It was
preposterous,--absurd!

She assured herself she would have no difficulty in controlling her
emotion in future, but the emotion itself continued to puzzle her. What
was it, she felt for this man? Was she in love,--_really_ in love,--in
love at last? She looked at him a long time. She wondered.


§ 2

That he would meet her on the Avenue next morning she felt was almost
certain. She said to herself a hundred times it would be much wiser
for her to take the elevated train, or at least to walk down another
street and avoid the possibility of such an encounter. If she were not
to permit herself to become further interested, it was obvious she must
see him as little as possible. But when morning came it was into Fifth
Avenue she turned.... She felt so sure of herself; she wanted to see if
he would really be there.

Once or twice she thought she recognized his distant figure coming
toward her. Each time her heart came into her throat. She stopped and
made a pretense of studying a milliner’s window, while she wrestled
with herself. She was mad, she was a fool, she had no business to let
herself play with fire this way! At the next corner she would turn
eastward, and go down Fourth Avenue. But when she reached the cross
street she decided to walk just one more block, and in that interval he
stepped from a doorway where he had been watching for her, and joined
her.

“Good-morning.”

“Oh--hello!”

The sudden sight of him, the sound of his voice affected her like
fright. She hurried on, trying to still the pounding in her breast,
turning her face toward the traffic in the street to hide her confusion.

“What’s the hurry?” he laughed. “It isn’t half past eight yet.”

“I have a personal letter to type before office hours,” Jeannette said
abstractedly, but she lessened her pace.

“I love these early walks on the Avenue,” he said.

“I always walk down if I have time,” she replied. “I wouldn’t
miss it for anything.” She gave him a quick inspection. He was
insignificant,--he had a weak, effeminate expression,--his features
were small and lacked resolution. And yet it was the same face with
its blue eyes, always brightly alight, its twisted mouth and thin
lips stretched tightly over his small, glittering, even teeth when
he smiled, that haunted her through the day, pursued her to her
home, gleamed at her from the blackness of her room after she had
gone to bed, visited her in her dreams, and greeted her with its
irresistible charm when she awoke in the mornings. She loved that
irresolute face, with all its weakness, its curious eccentricities;
she loved the grace of that slight boyish figure with its square, bony
shoulders, its tapering, slim waist; she loved those thin, almost
emaciated white wrists, and those long chalk-hued hands and attenuated
fingers. She loved the way he bore himself, the poise of his figure,
the lithesomeness and suppleness of his young body. And she despised
herself for loving, and hated him for the emotion he stirred in her.
She wanted to kiss him, she wanted to kill him, she wanted him in her
arms, she wanted never to see him again; she wanted him to be madly,
desperately in love with her, and she wanted herself to be coldly
indifferent.

The spring sunlight flooded the Avenue gloriously; the green omnibuses,
dragged by three horses harnessed abreast, rambled up and down; cabs
teetered on their high wheels, and weaved their way through the traffic
at a smart clip-clap; hurrying women, with the trimming of their
flowered hats nodding to their energetic gait bustled upon their early
morning errands; stores were being opened, shirt-sleeved porters were
noisily folding the iron gates before the doors back into their daytime
positions; shop-girls, and stenographers, briskly on their way to their
offices, half smiled at one another as they passed.

It was impossible not to respond to the infectious quality that was
in the air. Jeannette laughed happily into her companion’s face, and
he gazed at her eagerly, his eyes shining, his mouth twisted into its
whimsical smile. They were exhilarated, they were enthralled, they were
oblivious to everything in the world except themselves.

He stopped her abruptly, a block from the office.

“I think perhaps ... I believe you would prefer it, Miss Sturgis,
if--if you and I ... if you were not seen entering the building,
with--with an escort. It might be easier, pleasanter for you, if I....”

He hesitated, floundering helplessly. They stood still a moment facing
one another, each thinking of impossible things to say. Then Beardsley
murmured: “Well ...” lifted his hat, and she put her hand in his. He
held it tightly in the firm grip of his thin white fingers, until she
had to free it. She laughed shakily, as she turned away.

“That was really very nice of him,” she thought as she hurried
on. “That was really very nice. I shan’t mind walking with him
occasionally, if it doesn’t set the office gossiping.”


§ 3

Love swept them tumultuously onward. There was no time to pause, to
consider, no time to calculate, none to take stock of one’s self. In a
week Jeannette Sturgis and Roy Beardsley were friends, in ten days they
were lovers. Every morning he met her on the Avenue and walked with her
to within a block of the office, and in the evening he joined her for
the tramp homeward. He begged her again and again to lunch with him but
to this she would not agree. They knew they loved each other now, but
dared not speak of it. He was diffident, eager to ingratiate himself
with her, fearful of her displeasure; and she,--while she confessed her
love to herself,--passionately resolved he should never guess it nor
persuade her to acknowledge it. She had an unreasonable primitive dread
of what might follow if Roy should speak. Their love was all too sweet
as it was. She did not want to risk spoiling it, and trembled at the
thought of its avowal.

Yet in her heart she knew what must inevitably happen. Their attraction
for one another was stronger than either; it was rushing them both
headlong down the swift current of its precipitous course.

On the very day the words were trembling on her lover’s lips came the
staggering announcement that on the fifteenth day of May the activities
of the Soulé Publishing Company in selling the _Universal History
of the World_ would cease, and the services of all employees would
terminate on that date.

The girls told Jeannette the news the moment she arrived at the office,
and she found it confirmed on a slip of paper in an envelope on her
typewriting table.

“All? Every one?” she asked blankly. She had confidently expected that
she would be kept on,--for a month at least.

“Well, that’s what they say; Mr. Beardsley, Miss Gibson,--everybody.”

“Oh,” murmured Jeannette, betraying her disappointment.

“Did you think they’d keep you on the pay-roll after the rest of us
were fired?” asked Miss Flannigan airily.

Jeannette perceptibly straightened herself and levelled a cool glance
at the girl.

“Perhaps,” she admitted.

“Oh-h,--is that so?” mimicked Miss Flannigan. “Well, you got another
think coming,--didn’t you?”

Jeannette drowned the words by attacking her machine, her fingers
flying, the warning ping of the tiny bell sounding at half-minute
intervals. But her heart was lead within her, and her throat tightened
convulsively. She was going to lose her job! She was going to be thrown
out of work! She was going to be among the unemployed again! Her
mother! ... And Alice! ... That precious five dollars a week that was
all her own!

The rest of the day was dreary, interminable. Demoralization was in the
air. The girls whispered openly among themselves, and filtered by twos
and threes to the dressing-room, where they congregated and gossiped.
The spring sunshine grew stale, and poured brazenly through the west
windows. Miss Flannigan chewed gum incessantly as she giggled noisily
over confidences with a neighbor. Even Beardsley seemed to have lost
interest for Jeannette.

Yet when she came to his desk later in the day for the usual dictation,
he handed her a paper on which he had written:

“You mustn’t be downhearted. There is always a demand for good
stenographers. You won’t have the slightest difficulty in getting
another job. I wish I was as sure of one myself. May I walk home with
you this evening?”

She gave him no definite answer but she liked him for his encouragement
and sympathy. Whenever she sat near his desk, note-book in hand,
waiting for him to dictate to her, he was to her a superior being, one
whose judgment and perception were above her own; he was her “boss.” It
was different when she met him outside the office; he was just a boy
then,--a boy who had flunked out of college. Now he, too, had lost his
job. Like her, he would soon be unemployed. No longer need she fear his
possible censure of her work, or take pleasure in his praise of it. She
realized he had lost weight with her.

After office hours that evening, he met her outside the building and as
he walked home with her was full of philosophical counsel.

“Why, Miss Sturgis, it’s never hard for a girl to get a job,--a, girl
who’s got a profession, and who’s shown herself to be a first-rate
stenographer. The offices downtown are just crazy to get hold of girls
like you. You won’t have the slightest difficulty in finding another
position.... If you were me, you’d have something to worry about. I’ve
got to get a job that will land me somewhere,--a job in which I can
rise to something better.”

“But so have I,” said Jeannette.

“Well, yes, I know.... But girls’re different. They only want a job for
a little while,--a year, two or three years perhaps, and then they get
married. Working for girls is only a sort of stop-gap.”

“No, it isn’t; not always. There’s many a girl who perhaps doesn’t
regard matrimony with such awful importance as you men think. I mean
girls who aren’t thinking about marriage at all, and who really want to
become smart, capable business women.”

Roy smiled deprecatingly. “But I’m talking about the average girl,” he
said.

“And so am I. Girls have a right to be economically independent, and I
can’t see why they have to stop working just because they marry,--any
more than men do.”

“Girls have to stay home and run the house.”

“Oh, what nonsense!” cried Jeanette. “It’s no more her home than it is
the man’s.”

Roy shrugged his slight shoulders. He had no desire to argue with her.
He was more concerned with the thought that in the future there would
be no office to bring them together daily.

“There are only two days more. Saturday we get our last pay envelope.”

They walked on in silence.

“I hope you’ll let me come to see you. We’ve become such good friends.
I’d hate to....”

He left the sentence awkwardly unfinished.

“Oh,--I’d like to have you call some evening,” she said with apparent
indifference. “I’d like to have you meet my mother and sister.”

“I’d love to.... I want to know them both.”

“Well, come Sunday,--to--to dinner. We have it at one o’clock. I
suppose it’s really lunch, but we’re awfully old-fashioned and we
always have our Sunday dinner in the middle of the day.... You mustn’t
expect much; we live very simply.”

“Thanks, awfully....”

“We don’t keep any servant, you know.”

“I quite understand. You’re very good to invite me.”

“I’m sure my mother and sister will be glad to meet you.”

“I’m awfully anxious to know _them_.”

“Well, come Sunday.”

“You bet I will.”

“Of course, they’ve heard about ‘Mr. Beardsley.’”

“Have they? ... Do you talk about me sometimes to them?”

“Why, of course! ... Naturally.... What do you expect?”

“I hope you’ve given me a good character.”

“I daresay they think you’re an old bald-headed man with a thick curly
beard.”

“Oh, _no_! ... They’ll be terribly disappointed!”

“I’m going to tell them you’re a gruff old codger with a perpetual
grouch.”

“Miss Sturgis,--please!”

They were both laughing hilariously.

“Here’s your home. I had no idea we had walked so far.... Shall I see
you to-morrow? I’ll be waiting at the Seventy-second Street entrance to
the Park.”

“All right.”

“At eight o’clock?”

She nodded, waved her hand to him, and ran up the stone steps. He
waited until she had fitted her key into the lock, and the heavy
glass-panelled door had closed behind her.


§ 4

Saturday was their first intimate little meal by a window in a café. It
had been their last morning at the office, and by noon the activities
of the Soulé Publishing Company in selling the _Universal History of
the World_ had ceased. Pay envelopes had been distributed shortly
after eleven, and an hour later all the little Jewesses with their
absurd pompadours and high heels, the Misses Rosens and Flannigans,
the office clerks and office boys had packed the great elevators for
the last time, laughing and squeezing together, and swarmed out of the
building not to return. And Roy and Jeannette were among them.

“You will go to lunch with me?” he had written on a sheet of paper and
pushed toward her as she sat at his elbow. “I’ve got a lot of things to
talk to you about, and it’s our last day here together.”

She had tried to consider the matter dispassionately, but a glimpse of
his bright, eager eyes fixed on her had sent the blood flooding her
neck and cheeks, and before she quite knew what she had done she had
nodded.

He joined her at the street entrance and together they made a happy
progress toward Broadway.

A great felicity descended upon them. Their senses thrilled to the
beauty of the warm day and their being thus together. Roy piloted her
through the hurrying noontime throng, his hand about her arm. She
tingled again at the touch of his fingers, and loved it. Then they
entered the café of a hotel, and found a cozy table for two by the
window where, dazzled and enthralled by their great happiness, they
smiled into one another’s eyes across the white cloth, glittering with
cutlery and glasses.

Love was wonderful! He loved her; she loved him. They both knew it;
they were drunk with the thought. This was their adventure,--theirs and
theirs alone!

“I may have to go home this summer,” Roy said with a troubled air after
he had given their order to the waiter. He stared at the winding crowd
that surged back and forth beneath their window. “But I’m coming back
right away. In August.”

“You mean to San Francisco?”

“My father wants me to come West for a month or two. He sent me my
ticket.... I guess he expects me to settle down out there. Of course
he wants me to. The ticket is only a one-way one. But he’s in for a
disappointment. I can’t be happy in San Francisco; I want to come back
to New York.”

They both fell silent, thinking their own thoughts. Jeannette was
conscious of the dreariness and drabness of life once more; it was
disheartening and depressing to be unemployed. All these people
hurrying past the window, she reflected, were intent upon some
particular errand; each one had a job; the whole world had jobs
but herself. There would be nothing for her to do but “apply for
employment.”

“Please can you give me a position? ... Excuse me, sir, I’m looking for
work.... Could you use a stenographer?”

Oh, it was detestable, it was intolerable! It dragged her pride in the
dust! ... And there would be no one to sympathize, to advise her,--or
help her! She would be alone all summer in New York with no one
interested!

Roy, watching her, guessed her thoughts.

“I’m coming back....”

She flushed warmly.

“Would you like me to come back? Would it make any difference to you,
if I did? If you’ll just say you’d like me to come back, I will; ...
I’ll promise! ... Will you?”

The girl bent over her plate, hiding her face with the brim of her hat.
The giddiness she had experienced that day in the street threatened
her.

“Would you want me to come back?” Roy insisted.

She raised her eyes and met his gaze; he held them with the burning
intentness of his own, and for a long, long moment they stared at one
another.

“You know I love you,” he said tensely.

His lip quivered; his face was aglow.

“I love you with every fibre of my being! I’ll come back to you,--I’ll
come back from the ends of the earth. Only just say you love me,
too, Jeannette.... You _do_ love me, don’t you? ... You’re the most
wonderful girl I’ve ever known, Jeannette! ... God, Jeannette, you’re
just wonderful!”

Why was it that in the supreme moment of his great avowal he seemed
a little ridiculous to her? She felt suddenly like laughing. He was
so absurdly young, so juvenile, so school-boyish, leaning toward her
across the table in his youthful Norfolk jacket, with his unruly hair
sticking up on top his head!


§ 5

He kissed her when they parted from one another late that afternoon.
They had been absorbed in talk, and the hours slipped by until before
they were aware it was five o’clock. He walked home with her and just
inside the heavy glass doors of the old-fashioned apartment house where
she lived he put his arms about her, their faces came close together,
and for the briefest of moments their lips met. It was a shy kiss,
hardly more than a touch of mouth to mouth. For another moment they
stood raptly gazing into each other’s eyes, their fingers interlocked.
Then Jeannette fled, running up the stairs, nor did she grant him
another look, even when she reached the landing above and had to turn.
But on the third flight of stairs she paused, held her breath to still
the noise of her panting, and listened. There was nothing. A cautious
glance over the balustrade down through the narrow well of the stairs
revealed his shadow on the stone flagging below. She sank to the
step, and waited to catch her breath, her ears strained for a sound.
Presently she heard him moving; there was a crisp clip of his shoes;
she guessed he was searching the gloom of the stairwell for a glimpse
of her. But she would not look, and sat motionless with tightly clasped
hands. After a long interval she heard his hesitating step again. The
half-opened door swung slowly back, brightening the hallway below a
moment with yellow daylight from the street, then closed with a dull
jangle of heavy glass. She sat for a moment more, then a tiny choking
sound burst from between her close-shut lips, and she buried her
glowing face in her hot hands, pressing her fingertips hard against her
eyeballs until the force of them hurt her.


§ 6

That night Jeannette experienced all the exquisite joy and fierce agony
of young love. It was an exhausting ordeal; she lived over and over
the thrilling hours of the day that had terminated in that glorious,
intoxicating second when the boy’s thin lips were against her own, and
she had felt their warm, tingling pressure. The recollection brought
to her wave upon wave of hot flushes that began somewhere deep down
inside her being and flooded her with ecstasy. She strove against it,
yet had no wish to control her thoughts. Shame,--some curious sense of
wrong,--distressed her. It was not right;--it was all wrong! Instinct
grappled with desire. She wept deliciously, convulsively, burying her
head in her pillow and pressing its smothering softness against her
mouth to stifle her sobbing breath that neither her mother nor Alice
might hear it. Past midnight she rose and went noiselessly to the
bathroom where she washed her face, carefully brushed and re-braided
her hair. Her head ached and her swollen eyes were hot and painful. But
she felt calmer. She studied her face for a long moment in the battered
mirror that hung above the wash-stand, and as she looked a great
quivering breath was wrung from her.

“Roy ... I can’t ... it can never be ... never, never be,” she
whispered despairingly to her image.

For the moment she felt triumphant. She had conquered something, she
did not know what. She dimmed the gaslight and found her way back to
bed. Sleep came mercifully, and she did not wake until her mother
kissed her the next morning.


§ 7

It was Sunday, the day he had promised to come to dinner. Dinner,
with the Sturgises on Sunday, was always the noontime meal. Cold meat
or a levy on Kratzmer’s delicatessen counters, with weak hot tea,
constituted Sunday supper. Dinner, however, invariably involved roast
chicken and ice cream which was secured at the last moment from O’Day’s
Candy Parlor, and carried home by one of the girls, packed in a thin
pasteboard box. There was seldom ice in the leaky ice-box, and Sunday
dinner was therefore usually a hurried affair, as mother and the girls
were always acutely conscious during every minute of its duration of
the melting cream in the kitchen.

For this Mrs. Sturgis was responsible. Her frugality would not allow
her leisurely to enjoy her meal at the sacrifice of the ice cream.
The fear of its becoming soft and mushy pressed relentlessly upon her
consciousness.

“Now, dearie,--don’t talk! Eat your dinner. It’s much more digestible
if it’s eaten while it’s hot,” she would urge her daughters almost with
every mouthful.

No one ever spoke of the ice cream itself. The reason for such close
application to the business of eating was never voiced. It was part of
the ritual of Sunday dinner that it should not be mentioned. Not until
Alice had piled and crowded the aluminum tray with the soiled dishes,
carried these away, and returned with the mound of cream sagging upon
its platter, could Mrs. Sturgis and her daughters allow themselves
to relax. No matter how well the rest of the dinner might be cooked,
it must be gulped down and its enjoyment wasted for the sake of a
quarter’s worth of frozen cream.

It was upon these circumstances that Jeannette’s rebellious thoughts
centered on the morning of Roy Beardsley’s visit. She was worn out
after her troubled night, and the prospect of seeing him so soon after
the tremendous occurrences of the previous afternoon and her stormy
reflections upon them made her nervous, apprehensive. She wanted time
to think things out, to consider matters.... Anyhow--what would her
mother and sister think of him? What would he think of them?

“Dearie--dearie!” Mrs. Sturgis expostulated more than once. “Whatever
makes my lovie so cross this morning? ... You’ll get another position,
dearie,--if that’s what’s troubling you.”

“Oh, you make me tired!” thought her daughter, angrily, though the
words were unsaid.

“Well, I _do_ hope we can at least have some other kind of dessert,”
she said aloud. “We always have to rush so infernally through dinner;
it makes me sick! ... Or, I’ll tell you what,” she went on hopefully,
“we can get in a little ice.”

“It will leak all over the floor,” Alice objected. “The old thing is
full of holes.”

“There’s nothing better than O’Day’s strawberry cream,” Mrs. Sturgis
declared; “and there isn’t a thing in the house, so I can’t make a
pudding.”

Jeannette said nothing further but gloomed in silence. She elected
to be furiously energetic, and undertook a thorough cleaning of the
studio, strewing strips of damp newspaper over the floor, sweeping
vigorously, her head tied up in a towel. The broom shed its straw, and
she discovered little triangles of dirt in obscure corners which Alice
had evidently deliberately neglected. The white curtains were dingy,
the front windows needed washing, and in the midst of her cleaning,
Dikron Najarian came in upon her to ask her to walk with him in the
afternoon. In a fury she attempted to move the piano to pull loose a
rug, and in the effort, which was far beyond her strength, she hurt
herself badly. Her mother found her lying on the floor, crying weakly.

“Dearie--_dearie_! What happened to you! My darling! You shouldn’t
work so hard; there’s no necessity for your being so thorough.”

The girl had really injured herself. Mrs. Sturgis called wildly for
Alice, and between them they carried her to her room and laid her on
her bed. She had wrenched her back, but she refused to admit it. She
wouldn’t be put to bed. She was all right, she told them; just a few
moments’ rest, and she would be herself again. It was twelve o’clock
and Roy would be there at one!

She lay on her bed, and gazed blindly up at the old familiar discolored
ceiling; presently her eyes closed and two large tears stole from under
her lashes and rolled down her cheeks. She knew she had hurt herself
far more seriously than she would let her mother or sister suspect.
Something had given way in the small of her back; she made an effort
to sit up, and the pain all but tore a cry from her. But she was
determined they should not know; she would get up, and meet Roy, and go
through with dinner as though nothing was the matter!

Struggling, with tiny explosions of pent-up breath and smothered
groans, her hand at every free moment pressed to her side, she managed
to dress herself. The effort exhausted her; a film of perspiration
covered her forehead, her upper lip and the backs of her hands. She
steadied herself now and then by leaning against the dresser, until
her strength came back to her. She did not care, now, whether Roy
Beardsley found the studio clean or not, whether or not he was hustled
through dinner, thought her home cheap and poor, her mother and sister
commonplace and fussily solicitous.

He was ahead of time. She met him with careful step and a fixed smile
of welcome. He was glowing with eagerness; his hands trembled a little
as he held them out to her. At sight of him, a moment’s wave of
yesterday’s emotion swept over her, but immediately there came a sharp
stab of pain, and she caught a quick breath from between the lips that
held her smile. His anxious questions were cut short by the bustling
entrance of Mrs. Sturgis and Alice.

Jeannette’s mother was at once flatteringly hospitable, inviting the
guest to sit down and make himself comfortable, while she established
herself with an elegant spread of skirts on the davenport, and began to
toss the lacy ruffles of her best jabot with a careless finger.

Were Mr. Beardsley’s parents living? Ah, yes,--in San Francisco. They
had fogs out there a great deal, she’d heard. And he had lost his
mother. Consumption? Ah, that was indeed a pity! ... And his father
was a clergyman? Eminently laudable profession.... And he had wanted
to come East to college? Quite right and proper. Princeton was a fine
college; nice boys went there.... And he had spent some time in New
York? Wonderful city,--but a very expensive place to live,--probably
the most expensive in the world....

Jeannette recognized a favorite theme and broke in with an inquiry
about dinner. She was suffering miserably; she wondered if she
would have the strength to get to the dining-room. Alice already
had disappeared; the slam of the back door some moments before had
announced her departure for O’Day’s Candy Parlor. Mrs. Sturgis excused
herself with many profuse explanations, and departed kitchenward,
whence presently there came the bang of pots in the sink and the hiss
of running water.

Left together, Roy turned eagerly to Jeannette where she stood beside
the mantel, a white hand gripping its edge.

“Dearest, I’ve been so crazy to see you! ... Is anything wrong? You’re
not angry with me after yesterday?”

Her eyes softened, but, as if to check for that day any moment’s
tenderness, there was again a sharp twinge. Involuntarily she winced.

“Jeannette! You’re not well! What’s the matter?”

She laid her hand on his arm to reassure him and steady herself.

“Nothing,” she breathed. “I hurt my back this morning. I must have
wrenched it. It’s really nothing. Now and then it gets me.”

She managed a disarming smile.

“Mother and Allie mustn’t know a thing about it. I don’t want to
alarm them; they’re so excitable. To-morrow, I’ll be quite all right
again.... You must help me.”

“Why, surely; you know I will.... But, dearest----”

“Oh, please! Don’t make a fuss.” Her tone was sharp, and at once he
fell silent, watching her face anxiously.

“Do you love me?” he queried in a low voice.

She did not answer; she was in no mood for love-making. In a moment,
she moved with difficulty to the window, and stood there, fighting her
pain, and looking down vacantly into the street. Provokingly, tears
rose to her eyes. She was afraid she was going to cry. She could see
Allie returning with the square paper box held with a finger by its
thin wire handle, and presently the great front door of the house shut
with a jangle.

Roy’s arm stole about her waist, but its touch hurt her.

“Oh, please!” she begged crossly.

“I’m sorry,--awfully sorry. I forgot.... You’re in terrible pain,
aren’t you? ... Shall I get a doctor? ... Don’t you want to lie down?
... Would you like me to go?”

She wanted to slap him.

“Just leave me alone!”

Mrs. Sturgis’ eager step was approaching, and in a moment she presented
at the doorway a face reddened from the heat of the stove, and moist
with perspiration.

“Dinner’s ready, dearie,” she announced. “Won’t you come this way, Mr.
Beardsley? We use our bedrooms for a passage-way, although the hall
outside, I suppose, is really better, but, you see, it’s much more
convenient....”

Jeannette motioned him to precede her, and followed, holding on by
the furniture as she made her way. Her mother was in the kitchen and
Alice’s back was turned as in anguish she got into her chair.

Dinner was endless. The soup had curdled; the potatoes were scant; the
salt-cellar in front of Roy had a greenish mold about its top; Roy,
himself, kept fiddling with his silverware,--rattling knife and fork,
and fork and spoon; her mother and sister had never, in Jeannette’s
opinion, jumped up from the table so incessantly for errands to
kitchen or sideboard. The pain in her back every now and then became
excruciating. She sat through the dragging meal with a set smile
upon her lips, turning her head with assumed brightness from face to
face as each one spoke. Her mother did most of the talking, keeping
up a continual flow of chatter to fill the silences. Alice rarely
volunteered an observation when there was company, and Jeannette’s
misery made her dumb. Mrs. Sturgis rose to the occasion and supplied
conversation for all three. Jeannette, watching Roy’s face, resented
his polite show of interest. Her mother had what her daughters
described as a “company” manner. When it was upon her she interrupted
herself every little while with nervous giggles and to-day, Jeannette
decided, she had never indulged in them so often. She was eloquent
during the meal with reminiscences of her childhood’s escapades and
early cuteness, and Jeannette watched the animated face with its
jogging, pendent cheeks in an agony of spirit that matched her physical
misery.

“... Nettie,--we always called Janny, ‘Nettie,’ when she was
little,--was only six then, and she was awfully pretty and cute. We
were having dinner at a restaurant downtown,--her papa had a friend
to entertain. Allie....? I don’t remember where Allie was....”; Mrs.
Sturgis gazed in sudden perplexity at her younger daughter. “I guess
you were at home with Nora, lovie.... At any rate, we were at this
restaurant and a waiter was serving us nicely, and nobody was paying
any attention, when all of a sudden Nettie says loud and pertly to the
waiter: ‘Now that you’re up, will you please get me a glass of milk?’”
Mrs. Sturgis shut her eyes and laughed until her little round cheeks
shook. “Imagine,” she finished, “‘Now that you’re _up_!’ ... To the
_waiter_!” She went off into gales of mirth.

Roy laughed too, a thin, polite laugh, without a trace of spontaneity.
Jeannette hated him. She hated her sister, too, for her smug
complacency. Alice sat there encouraging her mother with responsive
twitterings every time Mrs. Sturgis threw her head back to chuckle.
Jeannette felt she was suffocating; the pain dug itself steadily and
cruelly into the small of her back; she could not draw one adequate
breath.

The platter and remains of the hacked and dismembered chicken, and the
soiled dishes eventually were removed; Alice brushed the table-cloth
with a folded napkin, sweeping crumbs and litter, ineffectually,
as Jeannette noted in utter desolation, into the palm of her hand,
carrying the refuse handful by handful to the kitchen, until the
operation was complete. The ice cream was borne in, in mushy
disintegration, and her mother commented on its melted condition and
the various responsible reasons, until the girl thought she would
scream in protest.

She could not eat; she could not drink; lifting her hand to her lips
was misery. Roy’s solicitous glance was more and more intently fixed
upon her; Alice, also, was beginning to send concerned looks in her
direction. She felt her strength rapidly ebbing from her. She could
endure but little more--but little, little more. Her will power was
deserting her, resolution forsaking her, she felt it going--going;
it was slipping away ... she was going to fall! ... Ah, she _WAS_
falling....!

“Janny, dearie!” Her mother’s alarmed cry faintly reached her dimming
consciousness.



CHAPTER IV


§ 1

The following summer was one of the hottest on record in New York
City. The thermometer persistently hung around ninety, and the
newspapers gave daily accounts of deaths and prostrations. Thousands
of East-siders sought Coney Island and the cool beaches to spend their
nights upon the sands. Thunderstorms brought but temporary relief.
Jeannette, slowly regaining strength and energy, declared she had never
known so many violent thunderstorms in the space of one short summer.
She hated the vivid, blinding darts and the cracking ear-splitting
detonations. She could reason convincingly with herself that there was
but the minutest atom of danger, yet the menacing crashes never failed
to bring her heart into her mouth and make her wince.

She had been in bed four weeks since the Sunday Roy had dined with the
family, and she had fainted at the table. The doctor, when he arrived,
had declared, after careful examination, that several ligaments had
been torn from the bone, and the muscles of her back had been badly
strained. She had been tightly bandaged with long strips of adhesive
tape, and put to bed in her mother’s room, where she had lain for a
month, rebellious and raging, at the mercy of a horde of disturbing
thoughts.

Roy sent flowers, a box of candy, magazines. He wrote her long letters
in a boyish hand in which he boyishly expressed his concern for her
condition, his earnest hope of her speedy recovery, his tremendous
devotion. It was for the last that she eagerly looked when she
unfolded his scrawled pages. But his words never seemed to satisfy her
wholly; they were never vehement enough. She longed for something more
vigorous, aggressive, violent.

At the end of ten days he begged to be allowed to come to see her.
There was no reason why he shouldn’t, Jeannette reflected, but she
could not bring herself to the point of asking her mother to arrange
for the visit. She did manage to say, with a light air of ridicule, one
morning, when Mrs. Sturgis brought her breakfast tray to her bedside:

“Roy’s got the nerve to want to come to see me.”

“Why don’t you let him, dearie,--if you’d like it? He seems a right
nice young fellow, and you could put on your dressing sacque, and Alice
could do your hair.... I’ll be home to-morrow,--all day, you know. It
would be quite right and proper.”

But the girl only made a grimace.

“That kid! That rah-rah boy! ... He thinks he’s got an awful case.”

“Why do you treat Mr. Beardsley so mean, Janny?” Alice asked her a
few days later, closely studying her face. “You know,” she continued
slowly, “sometimes I think you’re really in love with him.”

“Love!” cried her sister. “Hah! with _that_ kid?”

“I think he’s terribly attractive, Janny.”

“Half baked!” Jeannette said scornfully.

“Well, I think he’s _charming_.”

“You can have him!”

“Oh, Janny! ... You’re _dreadful_!”

But in the dark nights Jeannette would kiss the scrawled writing, press
the stiff note-paper to her cheek, and let her thoughts carry her back
to their first meeting, their first encounter on the Avenue, their
first kiss in the hallway downstairs, their memorable lunch together....

Ah, it was beautiful? It was all so very beautiful,--so infinitely
beautiful! Every glance, every word, every moment! She loved him! She
could not deny it. Oh,--she loved him, she loved him!

He wrote he was obliged to go to San Francisco. It was impossible
to find a position in New York during midsummer, and his father had
telegraphed him to come home. He would have to go, but he longed to
see Jeannette just once before he went. He _must_ see her, if only to
say “good-bye.” He was coming back the first of September, and then he
would.... But they must talk everything over. Wouldn’t she please let
him come?

Jeannette still hesitated. She wanted to see him again; yet she was
afraid,--afraid of disappointment, of what her mother and sister might
think, of herself and Roy. In the end, with what seemed to her a
weakness she despised, she wrote him, and named an afternoon; Although
the doctor had said she was to remain in bed for another week, she
prevailed upon her mother and sister to move her into the studio, where
with pillows about her and a comforter across her knees, and her hair
arranged in the pretty fashion Alice sometimes liked to dress it, she
received her lover.

It was as unsatisfactory an interview as she had feared. Constraint
held them both. Jeannette was intent upon not betraying the delicious
madness into which her thoughts of Roy had led her during the empty
hours of her long illness, and she sat up stiffly, unbendingly. Roy did
not understand. He thought the change in her was due to her illness,
but there was something about her that troubled him. They made their
promises to one another, they held each other’s hands, they kissed
good-bye, but there was nothing fervid about any of it. At the door,
however, when he turned, hat in hand, for a final, searching look, she
saw a glitter in his eyes, his queer little mouth was straight and
drawn harshly, unsmilingly across his teeth. It was that last look of
him, that wet gleam in his eyes which took her courage and brought
her own tears in a rush. But by then he was gone. The dull boom of
the hall-door closing downstairs announced his departure with stern
finality.


§ 2

The summer bore on, hot, unalleviated. The apartment smelled of strange
odors, was close, airless in spite of open windows. The Najarians,
with much banging and clattering, left with their trunks and boxes for
several weeks at the seashore, and on the first of the month old Mrs.
Porter, who had occupied the first floor since the building was erected
thirty years before, moved away. Only the two trained nurses, one
flight down, who were rarely at home, remained in the city during the
burning weeks of July and August.

With the Sturgises, life became dreary and grew drearier. Miss
Loughborough’s school closed, Signor Bellini departed for his beloved
Italy, the Wednesday and Saturday pupils became fewer and fewer and
by mid-July had evaporated entirely. Mrs. Sturgis, fretting over the
trivial expenses each day inevitably brought, wore a worried, harassed
air. She found some work to do, copying music, but this had to be given
up, as her teeth commenced to give her trouble. How long she was able
to disguise her discomfort from her daughters, they never guessed, but
her misery eventually was discovered, and she was summarily driven to a
dentist. It developed that her teeth were in such a decayed condition
they would all have to be pulled, and replaced by an artificial set.

Poor Mrs. Sturgis wept and protested. She objected strenuously to
anything so drastic. It wasn’t _in the least necessary_! She couldn’t
_possibly_ afford it! Her daughters urged her and argued with her until
they lost their tempers and there was almost a quarrel in the little
household. The dentist declined to modify his advice. Pain--cruel,
persistent pain, that robbed her of her sleep, and sapped her
strength--finally compelled her to give way.

“I’ll do it,--but my girlies haven’t the faintest idea what they are
letting me in for! It will be the death of me!” wailed Mrs. Sturgis.

Jeannette, able to sit up now and hobble from one room to another,
regarded her mother with frank impatience as she rocked vigorously back
and forth, weeping abjectly into a drenched little handkerchief. She
felt sorry for her, she would have made any sacrifice to alleviate her
pain to make matters easier for her, and yet it was obvious there was
no other course for her, and the sooner the teeth were out and a false
set in their place, the better it would be for them all. The girl gazed
gloomily out of the window.

“And my daughter’s no comfort to me,” continued Mrs. Sturgis,
piteously, conscious of Jeannette’s unvoiced criticism. “The child
that I’ve raised through sorrow and tribulation, through hunger and
self-denial,--the daughter for whom I’ve worked and sacrificed my
life....”

Jeannette continued to stare stonily into space, locked her fingers
more tightly together, but said nothing.

Eventually there came the terrible day when Mrs. Sturgis and Alice went
forth to the dental surgeon, and when the young girl brought her spent
and broken mother home in a cab. The four flights of stairs for the
exhausted woman were a dreadful ordeal. Jeannette, catching a glimpse
of the labored progress, as she gazed over the balustrade from the top
landing, forgot her own weakened condition, the doctor’s caution, and
hurried to her mother’s assistance. She ran down the stairs and grasped
the little woman’s almost fainting figure in her young arms. Together
the sisters dragged and pushed her up the remaining steps, but the
older girl knew before she reached the top, that she had put too great
a strain upon her own partially regained strength.

She paid for the imprudence by another three weeks in bed. It was
the longest three weeks of her life. Her mother roamed about from
room to room, toothless and inarticulate, unable to eat solid food,
waiting for her lacerated gums to heal. She complained and mumbled
almost incessantly, harassed by the thought of doctor’s and dentist’s
bills which she declared over and over she saw no way of ever paying.
Jeannette, chained to her bed, had to listen unhappily. Mrs. Sturgis
gave her no respite. She refused to leave the house for fear of meeting
a friend in the street who would discover her toothlessness. Alice
went to market and ran the errands, while Mrs. Sturgis rocked back and
forth, back and forth, beside Jeannette’s bed, picked at her darning,
and complained of life. It was not like her mother, thought the
daughter wearily; she of indomitable spirit, who had never been afraid
of hardships, but rejoiced in overcoming them.

Letters from Roy brought the only alleviating spots in these long,
tiring days. He wrote almost every day and there were numerous picture
post-cards. His letters were full of assurances and young hopes.
Jeannette loved his endearments, his underscored protestations, but
the plans which he elaborately unfolded seemed so uncertain, their
realization so improbable that they left her cold. She read the
scrawled words in the immature script, and tried to conjure up a
picture of him penning them. It eluded her. The boy in the Norfolk
jacket with the stuck-up hair, blue eyes, and whimsical smile, that
had so strangely fired her heart, had already become hazy and remote.
Her own weak back and helplessness, her mother’s trembling cheeks
and mumbled complaints were harsh realities, very close at hand. The
summer sun blazed on unsparingly, and perspiration covered her arms
and neck and trickled down between her breasts. Spring and young
love, the glittering Avenue, walks and talks and murmured confidences
that whipped the blood and caught the breath, were of a far distant
yesterday. Was there ever a time when thoughts of this boy had kept
her awake at nights, a time when at the memory of his kiss her tears
had blinded her? It was some other Jeannette,--not the one who sighed
wearily and wished Alice would keep the door shut, and not let in the
flies to bother her.


§ 3

Slowly Nature reasserted herself. Strength returned, old hopes revived,
youth throbbed again in the veins, life once more took on a pleasing
aspect. The late August day, that found Jeannette making a cautious way
toward the Park on her first venture from the house, was brilliant with
warm but not too hot sunshine, and the foliage of trees and shrubbery
in the Park vistas never appeared greener or more inviting.

Mrs. Sturgis’ false teeth had made a great improvement in her
appearance, had rounded out her face, given strength to her jaw,
and made her seem ten years younger. The little woman was delighted
with the effect, and was now evincing a gratified interest in her
appearance. Signor Bellini had returned earlier than he expected,
had already started his Monday and Thursday classes, while Miss
Loughborough’s Concentration School for Young Ladies was about to open
its doors, and pupils were flocking back from their vacations. And
lastly, and to the girl, most important of all, Roy was returning to
New York.

He would arrive in the city in a few days, and she wondered how she
would feel toward him when they met. As she sat upon a park bench,
enjoying the sun and the toddling children playing in the soft gravel
of the pathway near by, she asked herself if she cared. She could not
tell. Of far more interest to her was the prospect of work again. She
had been stifled all summer by illness and heat, but now she wanted
to get back to the business world and win her independence anew. Her
ambition was afire; she was all eagerness to have a job once more....
Roy? ... Well, it would be pleasant to have him making love to her
again, to watch him tremble at her nearness.

But she found herself thrilling on the afternoon he was to see her.
He had telephoned in the morning from the station, and his voice
had sounded wonderfully sweet and eager. When his ring at the door
announced him, her heart raced madly. Delicious tremors, one after
another, coursed through her.

He came hurrying up the stairs and she met him in the studio. Their
hands instantly found one another’s, and they stood so a moment,
smiling happily and ardently into each other’s eyes; then she drifted
into his arms, and it seemed the peace of the world had come.

Ah, she had forgotten how dear he was, how lovable, how sweet! It was
good to have him take her to himself that way, and feel his thin arms
about her, and have him hold her close against his young hard breast.

Plans--plans,--they were full of them. They were engaged now; Mrs.
Sturgis and Alice must be told, the father wired, and Roy must
immediately set about finding a job. He had some corking letters,
he told her eagerly, and he was on the trail of a splendid position
already. Jeannette was going to find work, too; they would both save,
buy all the clothes they would need, and be married,--oh, some time
in the spring! Roy, holding both her hands, gazed at her with shining
eyes, his whole face glowing with excitement.

“Oh, God, Jeannette--oh, God! Just think! You and me! Married!”

It _was_ a wonderful prospect.


§ 4

In less than a week, he had obtained a promising position with the
Chandler B. Corey Company, publishers of high-class fiction and the
best of standard books. It was a new but flourishing organization with
offices on Union Square. In addition to its book business, there were
two monthly magazines, _The Wheel of Fortune_ and _Corey’s Commentary_,
and Roy was made part of the staff that secured advertisements for
the pages of these periodicals. He was full of enthusiasm for his new
work. Mr. Featherstone, the advertising manager, who was also a member
of the firm, was the jolliest kind of a man, and the other fellows in
the department, Humphrey Stubbs and Walt Chase, were “awfully nice”
chaps. He was to receive from the start, twenty dollars a week, and Mr.
Featherstone promised him a raise of five dollars at the end of three
months, if he made good. The gods were with them. Jeannette and he
could be married early in the spring.

The girl listened and pretended to rejoice, but her heart was
sick within her. Roy, getting twenty dollars a week!--back in a
job!--independent and secure once more!--a bright future and rapid
advancement ahead of him! She was bitterly envious. She longed for
the old life of business hours, of office excitement, for her neatly
managed if frugal lunches, for the early hours in the mornings and the
tired hours at night, for the heart-warming touch of the firm, plump
little manila envelope on Saturday mornings, and, above all, she longed
for the satisfaction of being a wage-earner again, of being financially
her own mistress, and being able to contribute something toward the
household bills each week.

The next day she started out to find work. She knew it would be a
humiliating business, but she found it worse than she feared. The
advertisements for stenographers in the newspapers which she answered,
all turned out to be disappointing. The most she was offered was ten
dollars a week, and in the majority of cases only six or eight. She
had made up her mind to accept nothing less than what she had earned
before. She would walk out of an office into the glaring street with
the prick of tears smarting her eyes, with lips that trembled, but she
would vigorously shake her head, and renew her determination.

She went to interview Miss Ingram of the Gerard Commercial School, but
Miss Ingram had no vacant positions on her list.

“I’ve never seen anything like it,” the little teacher said with a
forlorn air; “I’ve got three girls now just waiting for something to
turn up, but all they want downtown are boys--boys--boys!”

Twice Jeannette had the unpleasant experience of having men to whom she
applied for work lay their hands on her. One slipped his arm about her,
and tried to kiss her, pressing a bushy wet mustache against her face;
the other placed his fat fingers caressingly over hers and, leering at
her, promised he would find her a good job, if she’d come back later
in the day. She was equal to these occasions but there was always a
sickening reaction that left her weak and trembling with a salt taste
in her mouth. She said nothing about them at home.

Her mother and Alice, even Roy, had urged her not to go to work again.
Mrs. Sturgis reiterated her original objection; Alice thought it was
not necessary, that Janny had better take things easy and devote her
time to wedding preparations. Roy did not like the idea, he frankly
admitted, of her associating so intimately with a lot of men in an
office, and, besides, it distracted her, made her nervous.

“In three months, sweetheart, I’ll be getting twenty-five dollars
a week and we can get married. A hundred a month is enough for a
while. You ought to run the table on ten dollars a week,--your mother
does that for the three of you!--and out of the remaining sixty, we
surely will have enough for rent, and a lot left over for clothes and
theatres.”

“Oh, yes,” Jeannette sighed wearily, “it’s plenty,--only I want--I
want to earn some money myself. I need clothes, and I ought to have
everything for a year, at least!”

September passed, and October came with a tingle of autumn, and an
early touch of yellow, drifting leaves. Jeannette missed the chance
of an excellent position in the manager’s office of a large suit and
cloak manufacturer by no more than a minute or two. She saw the other
applicant enter the office just ahead of her, and was presently told
the place was filled. The girl who had preceded her was Miss Flannigan!

There was another position in a lawyer’s office for which she eagerly
applied. She heard the salary was twenty-five dollars a week, but when
she was interviewed, and it was discovered she had no knowledge of
legal phraseology, she was rejected.

Desperate and discouraged, she was obliged to listen in the evenings
to Roy’s glowing praise of his new associates, to detailed accounts of
small happenings in the office, and gossip between desks. She learned
all about Mr. Featherstone, his devoted and adoring wife, his small,
crippled son, his own good nature, and hearty joviality. She heard a
great deal about Humphrey Stubbs and Walt Chase. Stubbs, she gathered,
was already Roy’s enemy. He had made several efforts to discredit the
newcomer, and was on the lookout for things about which to criticize
him to his chief. Walt Chase, on the contrary, was amiable and inclined
to be very friendly. Walt had been married less than a year, lived in
Hackensack, and his wife had just had a baby.

Jeannette listened enviously, with despair in her heart, when she heard
about Miss Anastasia Reubens, the editor of _The Wheel of Fortune_.
That Miss Reubens was forty-five and had spent all the working years
of her life on the editorial staff of one magazine or another made
little difference to Jeannette. She hated to inquire about her, but her
curiosity was too great.

“What do you suppose she gets?” she asked Roy with a casual air.

“Oh, I don’t know; perhaps fifty or sixty a week. I’m sure I haven’t
an idea. None of the folks down there get high salaries; everyone is
underpaid. Mr. Corey hasn’t more than got the business started. He
only began it five years ago. He tells us, we’ve got to wait with him,
until the money begins to come in, and then we’ll all share in the
profits.”

“Fifty or sixty a week?” sniffed Jeannette. “Did she tell you she got
that? ... She’s lucky, if she gets twenty-five!”

Roy shrugged his shoulders. He had an irritating way of avoiding
arguments, Jeannette noticed, by lapsing silent. She considered the
matter for a moment further, but decided it was not worth pressing.

“What kind of a man is Mr. Corey?” she asked.

“Oh, Corey? Corey’s a peach. He’s a dynamo of energy, and has all sorts
of enthusiasm. He’s got the most magnetic personality I’ve ever seen
in my life. He’s going to make a whale of a big business out of that
concern. Every Wednesday we all lunch together,--that is, the men in
the editorial and book departments,--and we go to the Brevoort; we’ve
got a private room down there, and Mr. Corey always comes and talks to
us about the business and we try to offer suggestions that will help
each other. We call it ‘The Get Together Club.’ It’s great.”

Jeannette studied her lover’s face and for a moment felt actual dislike
for him. What did _he_ know? Why should _he_ be so fortunate? Why
should everything go so smoothly for _him_? Why shouldn’t _she_ have a
chance like that?

“Mr. Featherstone may send me to Boston Friday to see the Advertising
Manager of Jordan & Marsh about some copy. He said something about it
last night. I’d hate to go, but, gee! it would be a great trip!”

Jeannette rose to her feet abruptly and lowered a hissing gas-jet. Oh,
she was unreasonable, silly, ungenerous! But she couldn’t listen any
longer. It made her sick.


§ 5

Mr. Abrahms, of Abrahms & Frank,--fur dealers and repairers of fur
garments,--would pay twelve dollars a week for a first-class “stenog,”
who “vood vork from eight till sigs.” He was very anxious that
Jeannette should accept his offer.

“I need a goil chust lige you, who c’n tage letters vot I digtate an’
put ’em into nice English, and be polide to der customers vot come in
ven I am busy,” he explained.

It was a cheap little establishment, crowded into the first floor and
basement of an old private dwelling, now devoted to similar small
enterprises. A dressmaker occupied the second floor, an electrician the
next, and a sign-painter the last and topmost. It was far from being
the kind of employment Jeannette wanted, but it was the best that had
been offered, and she promised to report on Monday.

She went dismally home on the “L,” deriving a bitter satisfaction
in picturing to herself what her days would be like, cooped up in
an ill-ventilated back office with the swarthy, none-too-clean Mr.
Abrahms, interviewing the none-too-clean customers who would be likely
to patronize such a place. Still it was a job and she was a wage-earner
again. There would be some comfort in announcing the news to Roy and to
her mother and sister.

She found a message from Roy when she reached home. It had been brought
by the clerk in Bannerman’s Drug Store. He had said, Alice repeated
for the hundredth time, that Mr. Beardsley had ’phoned and asked him to
tell Miss Jeannette Sturgis to come down at once to his office; he had
said it was important. Alice didn’t know anything more than that; there
wasn’t any use asking her questions; the clerk had just said that, and
that was all.

“Perhaps he’s got a job for me!” Jeannette exclaimed with a wild hope.
“He knows how badly I want one!”

“I’m sure I haven’t the faintest idea.” Her sister turned back to the
soapy water in the wash-tub where she was carefully washing some of her
mother’s jabots.

“Well, I’ll fly.”

Jeannette hurried to her room, and jerked the tissue paper out of her
best shirtwaist. Her fingers trembled as she re-dressed herself; the
tiny loops that connected with small pearl buttons on her cuffs eluded
her again and again until she was almost ready to cry with fury. She
felt sure that Roy had a job for her; he would have telephoned for no
other reason. In thirty minutes she was aboard the “L” again, rushing
downtown.

As she crossed Union Square the gold sign of the Chandler B. Corey
Company spreading itself imposingly across the façade of an ancient
office building made her heart beat faster, and her rapid, breathless
walk doubled with her excitement into almost a skip as she hurried
along. Oh, there was good news awaiting her! She felt it!

The wheezy elevator bumped and rumbled as it leisurely ascended. At the
fourth floor she stepped out into a reception room whose walls were
covered with large framed drawings and paintings. There were some
magazines arranged on a center table. The place smelt of ink and wet
paste. A smiling girl rose from a desk and came toward her.

“I’ll see if he’s in,” she said in reply to Jeannette’s query and
disappeared.

Upon an upholstered wicker seat in one corner of the room an
odd-looking woman wearing a huge cart-wheel hat was talking animatedly
to another who listened with a twisted, sour smile. They were
discussing photographs, and the woman in the cart-wheel hat was handing
them out one by one from a great pile in her lap. Jeannette was forced
to listen.

“This one is of some monks in a village monastery in Korea, and this
shows some of the Buddhist prayers for sale in a Japanese shop,--did
you ever see such a number?--and here is a group of our Bible students
at Tientsin,--could you ask for more intelligent faces? ... Wonderful
work.... these men are sacrificing their lives ... twelve thousand
dollars....” The words trailed off into an impressive whisper.

Down in the Square the trees were a mass of lovely golden brown and
golden yellow shades. Tiffany’s windows across the way sparkled with
dull silver.

Roy’s quick step sounded behind her, and Jeannette turned to meet his
grinning, eager face, his smile stretched to its tightest across his
small and even white teeth.

“Gee, I’m glad you’ve come, Janny!” he exclaimed boyishly. “Say, you
look dandy!--you look out-of-sight!” He eyed her delightedly. The woman
with the sour, twisted smile glanced toward them casually. Jeannette
was all cool dignity.

“What was it, Roy? ... Why did you send for me?”

He continued to smile at her, but at last her serious, expectant look
sobered him.

“I think I’ve got a job for you!” he said quickly, dropping his voice.
“I only heard about it this morning. I couldn’t telephone until I went
out to lunch. One of our regular stenographers is sick; she’s very sick
and is not coming back. Mr. Kipps, the business manager, was explaining
why they were short-handed upstairs and I was right there, so of course
I heard about it. I spoke to Mr. Featherstone about you, and he sent
me to Kipps, and Kipps told me to tell you to come down, so he could
talk to you. I told him what a wizard you were, and he seemed awfully
interested. I didn’t lose a minute; I telephoned as soon as I went out
to lunch. I had a deuce of a time making that drug clerk understand....
Gee, you look dandy! ... Gee, you look swell! ... Gee, I love you!”

He piloted her a few minutes later into the inner offices. Jeannette
gained a confused impression of crowded desks and clerks, the iron
grilling of a cashier’s cage, an open safe, a litter of paper, wire
baskets of letters, and stacks of bills. Before she knew it, she found
herself confronting Mr. Kipps, and Roy had abandoned her. She was aware
of a nervous, fidgety personality, with a thin, hawklike face and long,
thin fingers. He had unkempt hair and mustache, and wore round, black
tortoise-shell glasses through which he darted quick little glances
of appraisement at the girl who had seated herself at his invitation
beside his desk.

He fitted his finger-tips neatly together as he questioned her, lolled
back in his swivel armchair, and swung himself slowly from side to
side, kicking the desk gently with his feet. He asked her to spell
“privilege” and “acknowledgment,” and to tell him how many degrees
there were in a circle. He nodded with her replies.

He would give her a trial; she could report in the morning. He
dismissed her with no mention of what salary she would receive.

But Jeannette did not care. She was delighted and in high spirits. This
was just the kind of a job she wanted, just the sort of an atmosphere
she longed for; she felt certain that, whatever they paid her at first,
she would soon make them give her what she was worth.

When Roy arrived that evening there was great hilarity in the Sturgis
household. He had never seen Jeannette in such wild spirits, or found
her so affectionate with him. The coldness he sometimes met in her, the
reserve, the unyieldingness, were all absent now. He pulled the shabby
davenport up before the fire, and they sat holding hands, watching the
dying fire flicker and flicker and finally flicker out, and when the
light was gone she lay close against him, his arms about her, and every
now and then, as he bent his head over her, she raised hers to his, and
their lips met.


§ 6

Her desk, with those of the five other stenographers employed by the
publishing company, was located on the floor above the editorial
offices. Here were also the circulation and mail order departments.
Light entered from three broad front windows but it was far from
sufficient and thirty electric bulbs under green tin cones suspended
by long wire cords burned throughout the day over the rows of desks
and tables that filled the congested loft. At these were some hundred
girls and women, and half a dozen men. In the rear, where the daylight
failed almost completely to penetrate, the cones of electric radiance
flooded the dark recesses brilliantly. Old Hodgson, who was in charge
of the outgoing mail, there had his domain, and it was in this quarter
that the lumbering freight elevator occasionally made its appearance
with a bang and crash of opening iron doors. Toward the front, near the
windows, and separated from the rest by low railings, were located the
desks of Miss Holland and Mr. Max Oppenheim. The former was a tall,
thin-faced woman with iron-gray hair and a distinguished voice and
manner. Just what her duties were Jeannette could not guess. She had
her own stenographer and was forever dictating, or going downstairs
with sheaves of letters in her hands for conferences with Mr. Kipps.
Oppenheim was the Circulation Manager. He was a Jew, intelligent and
shrewd, with a pallor so pronounced it seemed unhealthy, further
emphasized by a thick mop of coal-black glistening hair that swept
straight back without a parting from his smooth white forehead.
Jeannette thought she recognized in him a type to be avoided; but she
never saw anything either in his manner toward her or the other girls
at which to take exception.

There was one other individual in the room who had a department to
herself. This was a chubby, bespectacled lady with an unpronounceable
German name who presided over a huddle of desks and conducted the
mail order department. No one ever seemed to have anything to say to
her, nor did she in her turn appear to have anything to say to anyone.
She plodded on with her work, unmolested, lost sight of. Sometimes
Jeannette suspected that Mr. Corey and Mr. Kipps and the other men
downstairs had forgotten the woman’s existence.

The stenographers with whom she was immediately and intimately thrown
were distinctly of a better class than the girls who had been her
associates in the Soulé Publishing Company. Miss Foster was red-headed
and given to shouts of infectious mirth, Miss Lopez was Spanish, pretty
and charming, Miss Bixby was a trifle hoidenish but good-natured, and
Miss Pratt was frankly an old maid for whom life had been obviously
a hard and devastating struggle; there remained Miss La Farge, who,
Jeannette suspected, was not of the world of decent women; her
be-ribboned _lingerie_ was clearly discernible through her sheer and
transparent shirtwaists, and she was given to rouge, lavish powdering,
and strong scent.

The first day in her new position was as difficult as Jeannette
anticipated. She knew she gave the impression of being cold and
condescending, but her shyness would not permit her to unbend. The
girls were politely distant with her at first, but Jeannette was fully
aware that each and every one of them was alive to her presence, and
everything they did and said was for her benefit.

She made an early friend of Miss Holland. The tall woman stopped at her
desk in passing, smiled pleasantly at her and asked if everything was
going all right. Something of quality, of good breeding in the older
woman’s face brought the girl to her feet, and it was this trifling act
of courtesy that won Miss Holland’s approval and favor, which Jeannette
never was to lose.

There were plenty of girls scattered among the tables where the
business of folding circulars, addressing envelopes, and writing cards
went on, who were of the high-heeled, pompadoured, sallow-skinned
variety with which Jeannette was already familiar, but these persons
came and went with the work; few of them were regular employees.

When a stenographer was needed in the editorial department a buzzer
sounded upstairs and the girl next in order answered the summons.
Miss Foster usually took Mr. Corey’s dictation and also that of his
secretary, Mr. Smith, but the other girls went from Mr. Featherstone to
Mr. Kipps to Miss Reubens and to the rest as they were required.

Mr. Kipps sent especially for Jeannette on her first morning. She
was nervous and her pencil trembled a little as she scribbled down
her notes. She found his dictation extremely difficult to take; he
hesitated, paused a long time to think of the word he wanted, corrected
himself, asked her to repeat what he had said, or to scratch out what
she had written and to go back and read her notes to a point where
he could recommence. But he seemed pleased when she brought him the
finished letters.

“Very good, Miss Sturgis,--very good indeed,” he said without
enthusiasm, tapping his pursed lips with the tip of his penholder as he
scanned her work.

She was jubilant. She looked for Roy; she was eager to tell him
what Mr. Kipps had said. But he was not at his desk as she passed
through the advertising department, nor was he waiting for her--as she
hoped--when five o’clock came and she started home.

Well, she was satisfied,--she had gotten just what she wanted,--she
would soon make herself indispensable.... Mr. Kipps was really a lovely
man, although one would never suspect it from his nervous manner. She
felt a sudden assurance she was going to be very happy.

Roy found her again in her sweetest, kindest mood that evening. They
began at once to discuss everyone in the entire organization of the
company from the President, himself, down to Bertram, the little Jew
office boy, who was inclined to be fresh. The publishing house had
suddenly become their entire world and everyone in it was either friend
or foe.

“I hope I make good,” sighed Jeannette.

“Make good?” repeated her lover indignantly. “Of course, you’ll make
good. Don’t _I_ know how good you are? Why, _say_, Janny dear, you’ve
got that bunch of girls skinned a mile!”

It was soon evident to Jeannette that Roy was right. The next day she
made a point of glancing at some of Miss Foster’s and Miss Lopez’s
letters; she noted two errors in the former’s, and the latter’s were
rubbed and full of erasures; the letters, themselves, were poorly
spaced and the sheets in several instances were far from being clean.
She was genuinely shocked at such slovenliness. They would not have
tolerated it at the school for a minute! The girls who had been with
her under Beardsley had done better work than that!.... She paused
over the thought and smiled. It was funny now to think of dear old Roy
as the Mr. Beardsley who had once filled her with such awe and in fear
of whose displeasure she had actually trembled.


§ 7

Her satisfaction with her new position found utter completeness when
on her first Saturday morning her pay envelope reached her, and she
discovered she was to receive fifteen dollars a week. It was the last
drop in her felicity. She flung herself into her work with all the
eagerness of an intense young nature. In turn she took dictation from
Mr. Featherstone, Miss Reubens, Mr. Olmstead, the auditor, and young
Mr. Cavendish, who edited _Corey’s Commentary_. Everyone seemed to
like her. Miss Reubens, having tried the new stenographer, thereafter
invariably asked for her, and while this was gratifying in its way,
Jeannette would have willingly foregone the distinction. Miss Reubens
was not a pleasing personality for whom to work; she referred to
Jeannette as “the new girl,” treated her like a machine, and kept her
sitting idly beside her desk while she sorted papers or carried on long
conversations at the telephone. She was a high-strung, perpetually
agitated person, given to complaining a great deal, undoubtedly
overworked, but finding consolation in pitying herself and in bemoaning
her hard lot. Jeannette recognized in her the lady with the twisted,
sour mouth who had been inspecting photographs the day she first came
to the office.

Mr. Olmstead, the auditor, was a tiresome old man, who teetered on his
toes when he talked and tapped his thumb-nail with the rim of his
eye-glasses to emphasize his words. He took a tedious time over his
dictation, and Jeannette had to shut her lips tightly to keep from
prompting him.

Mr. Cavendish, on the other hand, was charming. He was about
thirty-three or-four, Jeannette judged, handsome, with thick, very
dark red hair, and a thick, dark red mustache. He was always very
courteous, and had an ever-ready stock of pleasantries. She was aware
that he admired her, and she could not help feeling self-conscious
in his company. They joked together mildly and their eyes frequently
held one another’s in amused glances. Of all the people in the office
she liked best to take dictation from him; he never repeated himself,
his sentences were neatly phrased and to the point, and his choice of
words, she considered, beautiful. That he was unmarried did not detract
from her interest in him. She read some of the recent back numbers of
_Corey’s Commentary_ and particularly the editorials, and told Roy she
admired them enormously.

She was far happier in the environment of the editorial rooms than
upstairs where she worked with the other stenographers in the midst
of the bustle, racket and confusion of the circulation and mail order
departments. She soon discovered she had little in common with Miss
Foster or Miss Bixby; Miss Lopez was a pretty nonentity; Miss Pratt, an
elderly incompetent, and Miss La Farge, a vulgar-lipped grisette. The
girls realized she looked down on them and clannishly hung together,
to talk about her among themselves. They were not openly rude, but
Jeannette was aware she was not popular with them.

Miss Holland alone on the first floor attracted her. They smiled at
one another whenever their eyes met, and Jeannette enjoyed the feeling
that this faded, kindly gentlewoman recognized in her a girl of her own
class.


§ 8

There were a dozen other personalities in the company that the new
stenographer learned to know and with whom she came more or less
into contact. Important among these was Mr. Corey’s secretary, Mr.
Smith, whom nobody liked. He was suspected of being a tale-bearer, an
informant who tattled inconsequences to his chief. He was obviously a
toady, and treated everyone in the office, not a member of the firm,
with an air of great condescension. Mrs. Charlotte Inness of the book
department was a regal, gray-haired personage, with many floating
draperies that were ever trailing magnificently behind her as she
came and went. Miss Travers, who was cooped up all day behind the
wire grilling of the Cashier’s cage, was a waspish, merry individual,
and although sometimes common, even vulgar, was both friendly and
amusing. Francis Holme and Van Alstyne spent most of their time on
the road visiting book dealers. Van Alstyne was English and inclined
to be patronizing, but Holme was large-toothed, large-mouthed and
big-eared, bluff and frank, noisy and good-hearted. And there was also
Mr. Cavendish’s assistant, Horatio Stephens, a tall, rangy young man,
with rather a dreamy, detached air, with whom Roy shared a room at
his boarding-house. Jeannette found him vaguely repellent; there was
something about his long skinny hands and drooping eyelids that made
her creepy. And then there was Mr. Corey himself.

Chandler B. Corey was, as Roy had described him, a man of vivid
personality. Although not yet in his fifties, he had a full head of
silky white hair. In sharp contrast to this were his black bushy
eyebrows and his black mustache which curled gracefully at the ends
and which he had a habit of pulling whenever he was thinking hard. His
skin was pink and clear as a boy’s, but there was nothing effeminate in
his face with its heavy square jaw. There was a dynamic quality about
him that communicated itself to everyone who came in contact with him,
and yet with all his energy and fire, Jeannette noted there was an
extraordinary gentleness about him, somewhat suggesting sadness.

On a day toward the end of her third week, she took a long and
important letter from him. Miss Foster was struggling with a pile
of other work he had already given her, and Mr. Smith sent Bertram
upstairs with a request for Miss Sturgis to come down.

She had never been in Mr. Corey’s office before. At once she was struck
with its quality. Compared with the noisy ruggedness and bare floors
outside, it was quiet, luxurious. Sectional bookcases, filled to
overflowing, and many autographed framed photographs lined walls that
were covered with burlap. There were one or two large leather armchairs
and in the center a great flat-topped desk heaped with manuscripts
and stacks of clipped papers. A film of dust lay over many of these,
and the scent of cigar smoke was in the air. Mr. Corey’s silvery head
beyond the desk appeared as a startling blot of white against the
background of warm brown.

She was surprised to discover how tersely he dictated. There was
nothing of a literary quality about his sentences, nothing savoring of
the polish of Mr. Cavendish. He was all business and dispatch. She felt
oddly sorry for him; more than once during the brief quarter of an hour
that she was with him a great sympathy for him came over her. He seemed
weighed down with responsibilities. A paper mill was pressing him for
money; no funds would be available for another three months; his letter
offered them his note for ninety days. While he dictated, the telephone
interrupted him; something had gone wrong with the linotype machines,
and the delay would result in _The Wheel of Fortune_ being two or
three days late on the news-stands. In the midst of this conversation
Mr. Featherstone came in to report that Shreve & Baker had cancelled
their advertisement and had definitely refused to renew it. An army of
annoyances pressed around on every side.

She told Roy about it when he came to see her that night.

“Oh, C. B.’s a wonder,” he agreed; “he carries that whole concern on
his shoulders, and you can rest assured there’s nothing goes on down
there that he doesn’t know. They all depend on him.”

“He seems so over-burdened, and so--so harassed,” Jeannette said.

“I guess he’s all of that. You know he’s had an awful hard time getting
a start; the business is just about able to stand on its own feet now.”

“I don’t think Mr. Smith is much help to him. He could save him a whole
lot if he would.”

“Oh, _that_ fish! He’s no good. He told C. B. a most outrageous lie
about Mr. Featherstone; there was an awful row.”

“Then why doesn’t Mr. Featherstone have him discharged?”

“Nobody’s got anything to say down there except Mr. Corey. He owns
fifty-one per cent of the stock, I understand, and if he likes Smith,
Smith is going to stay.”

“I can’t see how Mr. Corey can put up with him.”

“How did C. B. like your work?”

“I don’t know. Mr. Smith took it when I brought it downstairs, and
carried it in to him. I didn’t hear a word; but he didn’t send it back
to me for anything.”

“He was pleased all right. You’ve made a hit with everyone. They’re
all crazy about you; Miss Reubens always wants you; and Cavendish, I
notice, seems to take a special interest in his dictation now.”

The last was said with an amused scrutiny of her face.

“Oh, don’t be silly, Roy!”

“I’m not,” he declared sensibly. “I don’t care if he admires you. Men
are always going to do that. Holme asked me the other day who the new
queen was, and I was mighty proud to tell him you were my fiancée. I
guess I appreciate the fact that the smartest, loveliest girl in the
world is going to be my wife!”

“Oh,--don’t!” Jeannette repeated. There was trouble in her face.


§ 9

Her days were packed full of interest now. She enjoyed every moment of
the time spent within the shabby portals of the publishing house. The
rest of the twenty-four hours were given to happy anticipation of new
experiences awaiting her, or in pleasant retrospect of happenings that
marked her advancement. For it was clear to her she was progressing,
daily tightening her hold upon her job, making the “big” people
like her, bringing herself nearer and nearer the goal she some day
eagerly hoped to reach: of being indispensable to these delightful,
new employers. To what end this tended, how far it would carry her,
under what circumstances she would achieve final success she could not
surmise. She was conscious these days only of an intense satisfaction,
a delight in knowing she was steadily, though blindly, attaining her
ambition.

Often she wished during these early weeks she had a dozen pairs of
hands that she might take everyone’s dictation and type all the letters
that left the office. She became interested in the subject and purpose
of these letters. Cavendish wrote an urgent note to a Mr. David Russell
Purington, who was a regular contributor to _Corey’s Commentary_ from
Washington, telling him how extremely important it was, in connection
with a certain article shortly to appear in the magazine, for him
to obtain an exclusive interview on the subject with the Japanese
plenipotentiary at that time visiting the capital. Miss Reubens fretted
and murmured complainingly as she worded a communication to Lester
Short, the author, explaining that it was impossible for _The Wheel of
Fortune_ to pay the price he asked for his story, _The Broken Jade_.
Mr. Kipps, through her, informed the Typographical Union, Number 63,
that under no conditions would the Chandler B. Corey Company reëmploy
Timothy Conboy and that if the union persisted, the Publishing Company
was prepared to declare for an open shop. Mrs. Inness confided to her
hand an enthusiastic memorandum to Mr. Corey urging him to accept and
publish at once a novel called _The Honorable Estate_ by a new writer,
Homer Deering, which she declared was of the most sensational nature.

But after typing these letters and memorandums Jeannette heard nothing
more of them. She wanted to know whether or not Mr. David Russell
Purington succeeded in obtaining the much desired interview, what
Lester Short decided to do about the seventy-five dollars Miss Reubens
offered, how the Typographical Union, Number 63, replied to Mr. Kipps’
ultimatum, and if Mr. Corey accepted Homer Deering’s significant
manuscript. Her curiosity was seldom gratified; she hardly ever saw the
replies to the letters she had typed with such interest. Miss Foster,
Miss Lopez, Miss Pratt, Miss Bixby or Miss La Farge continued the
correspondence. Often she would see a letter unwinding itself from a
neighboring machine at the top of which she would recognize a familiar
name, but she had no time to read further, and there was a certain
restraint observed among the girls about overlooking one another’s
work. Jeannette realized she was merely a small cog in a machine and
that her prejudices, enthusiasms, her interest and opinion were of
small consequence to anyone.

She rose early in the morning, sometimes at five, and her mother would
hear her thumping and pounding with an iron in the kitchen as she
pressed a shirtwaist to wear fresh to the office, or clitter-clattering
in the bathroom as she polished her shoes or washed stockings. Her
costume was invariably neat and smart, but she dressed soberly, with
knowing effectiveness for her working day. Her mother, yawning sleepily
or frowning in mild distress, would find her getting her own breakfast
at seven.

“Why, dearie,” she would plaintively remonstrate, “whatever do you want
to bother with the stove for? I’m going to get your breakfast; you
leave that to me.... I don’t see,” she might add querulously, “why you
have to get up at such unearthly hours.”

Alice would shortly make her appearance, and with wrappers trailing,
slippers clapping and shuffling about the kitchen, her mother and
sister would complete the simple preparations for her morning meal,
and set about getting their own. About the time they had borne in the
smoking granite coffee-pot again to the dining-room, and had hunched
up their chairs to the table, Jeannette would be ready to leave the
house. When she came to kiss them good-bye, she would always find them
there, her mother’s cheek soft and warm, Alice’s firm, hard face, cool
and smelling faintly of soap. She would seem so vigorously alive as
she left them, so confident and capable. There was always a tremendous
satisfaction in feeling well-dressed, well-prepared and early-started
for her day’s work. As she left the house, and filled her lungs with
the first breath of sharp morning air, there would come a tug of
excitement at the prospect of the hours ahead. She loved the trip
downtown on the bumping, whirring elevated; she loved the close contact
with fellow-passengers, wage-earners like herself; she loved the brisk
walk along Seventeenth Street and across the leaf-strewn square, where
she faced the tide of clerks and office workers that poured steadily
out of the Ghetto and lower East Side, and set itself toward the great
tall buildings of lower Fifth Avenue and Broadway, and she loved the
first glimpse of the gold sign of the Chandler B. Corey Company, with
the feeling that she belonged there and was one of its employees.

She would be at her desk half to three-quarters of an hour ahead of the
other girls. There would usually be work left over from the previous
day. She liked settling herself for the busy hours to come when no one
was around and she could do so with comfort.

She would hardly be conscious of the other girls’ arrival, and would
often greet them with a smiling good-morning, or answer their questions
with no recollection afterwards of having done so.

The whirlwind of office demands and the tide of work would soon be
about her. Miss Reubens wanted her, Mr. Kipps rang for a stenographer,
Mr. Featherstone had an important letter to get off before he went out.
Would Miss Sturgis look up that letter to the Glenarsdale Agency? Would
Miss Sturgis come down when she was free? Mr. Cavendish had an article
he wanted copied as soon as possible. Miss Bixby was busy, Miss Foster
was busy, Miss Lopez, Miss Pratt, Miss La Farge were busy; Miss Sturgis
was busiest of all. She thrilled to the rush and fury of her days.
There was never a let-up, never a lull; there was always more and more
work piling up.

At noon, at twelve-thirty, at one,--whenever she was free for a moment
about that time,--she would slip out for her lunch. She had learned
she must eat,--eat something, no matter how little, in the middle of
the day. She still patronized the soda and candy counter in the big
rotunda of Siegel-Cooper’s mammoth department store for her china cup
of coffee and two saltine crackers. Sometimes she spent another nickel
for a bag of peanut brittle. Somewhere she had read that the sugar in
the candy and the starch in the peanuts contained a high percentage of
nutritious value. She nibbled out of the bag on her way back to the
office.

She would be gone hardly more than half the hour she was allowed for
luncheon. Between one and three in the afternoon was the time she was
least interrupted, and in this interval her fingers flew, and letter
after letter,--slipped beneath its properly addressed envelope,--would
steadily augment the pile in the wire basket that stood beside her
machine. She rejoiced when it grew so tall, the stack was in danger of
falling out.

In the late afternoon came the rush and the most exacting demands. Miss
Reubens had a letter that must go off that night without fail; Mr.
Featherstone had just returned from a conference with a big advertiser
and wanted a record of the agreement typed at once; Mr. Kipps had
a communication to be instantly dispatched; Mr. Corey needed a
stenographer. The girls were all busy; they had too much to do already;
they could not finish half the letters that had been given them. Well,
how about Miss Sturgis? Could Miss Sturgis manage to get out just one
more? It was _so_ important. Yes, Miss Sturgis could,--of course she
could; it might be late, but if the writer would remain to sign it,
she’d manage to finish it somehow.

“You’re a fool,” Miss Bixby said to her one day sourly. “Nobody’s going
to thank you for it; you don’t get paid a cent more; I don’t see why
you want to make a beast-of-burden out of yourself. They just use you
like a sponge in this office; squeeze every ounce of strength out of
you, and then throw you away. Look at Linda Harris!”

Linda Harris was the girl who had sickened, and whose place Jeannette
now filled.

Perhaps Miss Bixby was right, Jeannette would say to herself, riding
home after six and sometimes after seven o’clock on the lurching train,
tired to the point where her muscles ached and her sight was blurred.
But there was something in her that rose vigorously to this battle of
work, that made her reach down and ever deeper down inside herself for
new strength and new capacity.


§ 10

Wearily, her hand dragging on the stair rail, she would pull herself
step by step up the long flights to the top floor. Tired though she
might be, her mind would still be buzzing with the events of the day:
Mr. Cavendish’s letter to Senator Slocum,--had she remembered the
enclosures? Mr. Kipps had been short with her, or so he had seemed;
perhaps he had been only vexed at the end of a long day of worry. Mr.
Corey’s smile at a comment she had ventured was consoling. Then there
was that friction between Miss Reubens and Mrs. Inness; they had had
some sharp words; she wondered which one of them eventually would
triumph. Mrs. Inness, of course.... And little Miss Maria Lopez had
confided to her in the wash-room she was going to be married!

“Hello, dearie! ... Home again?” Jeannette’s mother would call to her
cheerfully as she pushed open the door. Alice would turn her head with
a “’Lo, Sis”; she would kiss them dutifully, perfunctorily. The kitchen
would be hot and steamy; the smell of food would make her feel giddy,
perhaps faint. She would be ravenously hungry. She would go to her dark
little bedroom, light the gas, remove her hat, blouse, and skirt and
stretch herself gratefully on her bed.... Would Mrs. Inness go to Mr.
Corey about her difference with Miss Reubens? ... Miss Holland had had
a conference with Mr. Kipps all afternoon; what could it be about? ...
Would Bertram be discharged for losing that manuscript? ... Mr. Van
Alstyne had certainly been unnecessarily curt; she cordially disliked
him.... And Mr. Smith had most assuredly not given her Mr. Corey’s
message; why, she remembered distinctly....

“Dinner, dearie.” She would drag herself to her feet, rub her face
briskly with a wet wash-rag, and in her wrapper join her mother and
sister at table.

“Well, tell us how everything went to-day,” Mrs. Sturgis would say,
busy with plates and serving spoon.

“Oh,--’bout the same as usual,” Jeannette would sigh. “Bertram, the
office boy, lost a manuscript to-day. It was terribly important. We
were awfully busy upstairs, and Mrs. Inness sent the book out to be
typed, and he left the package somewheres,--on the street car, he
thinks. Mr. Kipps will probably fire him; he deserves it; he’s awfully
fresh.”

“You don’t say,” Mrs. Sturgis would murmur abstractedly. “Drink your
tea, dearie, before it gets cold.”

Jeannette dutifully sipping the hot brew would consider how to tell
them of the trouble between Mrs. Inness and Miss Reubens.

“Miss Reubens,--you know, Mother,--is the editor of _The Wheel of
Fortune_, and Mrs. Charlotte Inness runs our book department. They
dislike each other cordially and I just know some day there’s going to
be a dreadful row----”

“Alice, dearie,--get Mother another tea-cup,” Mrs. Sturgis might
interrupt, her eye on her older daughter’s face to show she was
attending. “And while you’re up, you might glance in the oven.... Yes,
dearie?” she would say encouragingly to Jeannette.

The girl would recommence her story, but she could see it was
impossible to arouse their interest. Their attention wandered; they
knew none of the people in the office; it was no concern of theirs what
happened to them.

“Kratzmer had the effrontery to charge me thirty cents for a can of
peaches to-day,” Mrs. Sturgis would remark. “I just told him they were
selling for twenty-five on the next block and I wouldn’t pay it, and
he said to me I could take my trade anywhere I chose, and I told him
that that was no way to conduct his business, and he as much as told me
that it was his business and he intended to run it the way he liked! I
wouldn’t stand for such impudence, and I just gave him a piece of my
mind.” An indignant finger tossing an imaginary ruffle at her throat
suggested what had been the little woman’s agitated manner.

“Kratzmer’s awfully obliging,” Alice commented mildly.

“Well, perhaps,--but the idea!”

“Mr. Corey was unusually nice to me to-day,” Jeannette remarked.

Her mother would smile and nod encouragingly, but her eyes would be
inspecting her daughters’ plates, considering another helping or
whether it was time for dessert.

“I couldn’t match my braid,” Alice would murmur in a disconsolate tone.
“I went to the Woman’s Bazaar and to Miss Blake’s and they had nothing
like it. I suppose I’ll have to go downtown to Macy’s. Do you remember,
Mother, where you got the first piece?”

“No, I don’t, dearie,” her mother would reply slowly. “Perhaps it was
O’Neill & Adams.... How much do you need?”

“About three yards. I could manage with two. Do you suppose you’d have
time to-morrow, Janny, to try at Macy’s?”

“Maybe; I can’t promise. You have no idea how rushed we are sometimes.”

“You know I’ve a good mind to try Meyer’s place over on Amsterdam; it
always seems so clean. Kratzmer’s getting too independent.”

“Kratzmer knows us, Mama, and sometimes it’s awfully convenient to
charge.”

“I know. That’s perfectly true. But the idea of his talking to me that
way!”

“They might have it at Siegel-Cooper’s. You could ask there to-morrow.
It would only take you five minutes. I hate to go all the way downtown,
and there’s the carfare.”

“I’ve traded with Kratzmer ever since he moved into the block. I guess
he forgets I’ve been a resident in this neighborhood for nearly
thirteen years. He shouldn’t treat me like a casual customer; it’s not
right and proper.”

“It would be the greatest help if I could get it to-morrow. I’m
absolutely at a standstill on that dress until I have it. Siegel’s sure
to keep a big stock. I’ll give you a sample.”

“I’ve always liked the look of things at Meyer’s. All the Jewesses go
there and they always know where to get the best things to eat,--but I
suppose he _is_ more expensive.”

“It oughtn’t to cost more than twenty cents a yard. Do you remember
what you paid for it, Mama?”

“Dearie,--it’s so long ago; I’m sorry.... I’d rather hate to break
with Kratzmer after all these years. You can’t help but make friends
with the trades-people. Do you think Meyer’s would really be more
high-priced, Janny?”

Jeannette would shrug her shoulders and carefully fold her napkin. They
were dears,--she loved them best of all the world,--but they seemed
so small and petty with their trifling concerns: matching braids and
disagreeing with trades-people.

The dinner dishes would be cleared away. Jeannette would brush the
cloth, put away the salt and pepper shakers, the napkins, and unused
cutlery; then she would carefully fold the tablecloth in its original
creases, replace it with the square of chenille curtaining, and climb
on a chair to fit the brass hook of the drop-light over the gas-jet
above.

Roy would arrive at eight,--he was always there promptly,--and she
would have a bare twenty minutes to get ready. She would hear her
mother and sister scraping and rattling in the kitchen as she dressed,
water hissing into the sink, the bang of the tin dishpan, their voices
murmuring.

She would be glad when her lover came. A flood of questions, surmises,
hazarded opinions about office affairs, poured from her then. She
was free at last to talk as she liked about what absorbed her so
much; she had an audience that would listen eagerly and attentively
to everything. What _would_ Mr. Kipps do about Bertram, and if the
manuscript was really lost, what _would_ Mrs. Inness do about it?
... Did he hear anything about the row between Mrs. Inness and Miss
Reubens? Well,--she’d tell him, only she wanted first to ask his advice
about whether she should go to Mr. Corey and simply tell him that Smith
had certainly _never_ given her his message?

Roy would meet this eager gossip with news of his own. Mr. Featherstone
had given Walt Chase an awful call-down for promising a preferred
position he had no right to, and Stubbs was starting on a trip to
Chicago and St. Louis. There was talk of putting Francis Holme in
charge of the Book Sales Department, and Roy hoped he’d get it instead
of Van Alstyne. And what did Jeannette think the chances would be of
Horatio Stephens getting Miss Reuben’s job if Miss Reubens quit on
account of Mrs. Inness?

Roy would tire eventually of this shop talk. He longed to reach the
love-making stage of the evening; he was eager to tell her how much
he adored her, and to have her confess she cared for him in return;
he liked to have her nestle close against him, his arms about her, to
hold her to him and have her raise her lips to his each time he bent
over her. But Jeannette grew less and less inclined these days to
surrender herself to these embraces. Each time Roy mentioned love,
she would tell him not to be silly, and would speak of another office
affair. It distressed her lover; he would fidget unhappily, not quite
understanding how she eluded him. Again and again he would return to
the question of their marriage. Did Jeannette think March would be a
good month? It was three months off. Yes, March would be all right,
but did he suppose Miss Reubens was really overworked? Roy didn’t know
whether she was or not; she complained a good deal, he admitted. But
now about where they were to live; he had heard of a little house in
Flatbush that could be rented for twenty dollars a month. How did she
feel about living in Brooklyn?

But marriage did not interest her for the present; she was too much
absorbed in the affairs of the publishing company. Weddings could wait;
hers could, anyhow. Just now she wanted Roy to help her guess the
salaries of everyone in the office.

And when, as ten and ten-thirty and eleven o’clock approached, Roy,
conscious of the passing minutes, would press his love-making to a
point where Jeannette could no longer divert him, she would send him
home. She would suddenly remember she had her stockings to wash out,
or gloves to clean before she went to bed. She would realize at the
moment, how dreadfully tired she was, and the morrow always presented a
difficult day.

“You must go now, Roy,” she would say. “You simply _must_ go. I’m dead
and I’ve got to get some sleep. Please say good-night.”

“Not until you kiss me,” he would insist.

“... There. Now go.”

“But tell me first you love me?”

“Oh, _Roy_!”

“No,--you must tell me.”

“Why, of course; you know I do.”

“Lots?”

“Yes--yes.”

“And you’ll marry me?”

“Surely.”

“When?”

“Now, Roy, you _must_ go. I tell you I’m dropping, I’m so tired.”

“But tell me when you’ll marry me?”

“Well,--whenever we’re ready.”

“You darling! Kiss me again.”

“Roy!”

“Kiss me.... Oh, kiss me _good_.”

“Good-night!”

“Good-night.... You darling!”



CHAPTER V


§ 1

Roy wanted to be married; he wanted Jeannette to set the date; he
wanted her to make up her mind where she preferred to live, and to
start making plans accordingly. Just before Christmas his salary was
raised five dollars a week and the last barrier--for him--to the
wedding was removed. There was nothing to prevent their being married
at once. Everyone agreed, even Jeannette herself, that a hundred
dollars a month would be sufficient for their needs the first year.
With a mysterious air, Mrs. Sturgis hinted at responsibilities that
might come to them, but Roy’s salary would undoubtedly be raised more
than once by that time. She liked her daughter’s promised husband; he
had such an honest, clean face, his eyes were so clear and blue. He
made her think of her Ralph. She felt she could with safety entrust
Jeannette’s happiness to him. Alice was frankly a warm admirer of her
prospective brother-in-law. She agreed with everything he said and
always sided with him in an argument. Mother, sister and future husband
shared the opinion that the marriage must soon take place; there was
no sense in Jeannette’s wearing herself to death down there at that
office; she took it all too seriously; she was undermining her health.

Jeannette, with vague misgivings, agreed. It was too bad; she liked the
business life so much. But marriage was the thing; she must make up
her mind to be married and settle down in a little house with Roy over
in Brooklyn,--presumably. She thought of the dish-washing, bed-making,
carpet-sweeping, cooking, and shuddered. She hated domesticity. Alice
would have loved it; but she was different from Alice.

Roy? ... Oh, she loved Roy, she guessed, but not with the fluttering
pulse and quickened breath he had once occasioned. She liked him; he
was sweet and companionable. Sometimes she felt very motherly toward
him, liked to brush his stuck-up hair and rest her cheek against his.
She could see herself happy with him, knowing she would always dominate
him and he was disarmingly amiable. Sometimes she thought about babies.
She wouldn’t mind having them. She had always imagined she would like
one some day, to dandle about and cuddle close to her. Roy was sure
to be a sweet-tempered father. But she sighed when she thought of
the office, the progress she was making there, her popularity, and
particularly the five dollars a week that was her own to spend just as
she pleased. She loved that five dollars; once she touched the soft
greenback to her lips.

She agreed to be married on the second of April.


§ 2

It was shortly after the beginning of the new year that the news went
around the office that Mr. Smith was going;--fired, everyone decided.
No one knew how the rumor got about, but there was universal and secret
rejoicing. It was whispered that, as Mr. Corey’s secretary, he had been
indiscreet.

There were to be other changes in the office. Miss Travers was to take
Smith’s place, Mr. Holme was to be put in complete charge of the Book
Sales department, Van Alstyne was leaving, and Miss Holland was to go
downstairs to assist Mr. Kipps.

Jeannette, excited by these readjustments, surmised that her own
news of resignation would create its particular stir. How interested
everyone would be to learn that she and Roy Beardsley of the
Advertising Department were to be married! There would be a lot of
rejoicing and good wishes. The office would consider it a happy match.
Her going would be regretted,--she knew that she was valued,--but all
would be glad nevertheless that she and young Beardsley were going to
be man and wife. An ideal couple!--Happy romance!--Miss Sturgis and Mr.
Beardsley! How delightful! Well--well!

If everyone was sure to think so well of her marriage, why should she
have any doubts about it?

She was pondering on this, one day, while mechanically folding her
letters and putting them into their proper envelopes, when there came
a summons from Mr. Corey. She found him idly thumbing the pages of an
advance dummy of one of the magazines. When she had seated herself and
flapped back her note-book for his dictation, he asked her without
preamble how she would like the idea of being his secretary. He
elaborated upon what he should expect of her: there would be plenty
of hard work, long hours sometimes, she might have to come back
occasionally in the evenings, and there must be no gossiping with other
employees of the company or outside of the office.

“What goes on in here, what you learn from my letters or see from my
correspondence, what you come to know of my business or private life,
must be kept strictly to yourself. Nothing must be repeated,--not even
what may seem to you a trivial, insignificant fact. I wish to have no
secrets from my secretary, and I do not wish my affairs discussed with
anyone, not even with members of the firm, such as Mr. Kipps, or Mr.
Featherstone. Understand? Miss Holland thinks you’re qualified to fill
the position,--recommends you warmly,--and Mr. Kipps has a good word
for you. Personally I have a feeling you will do very well, and that I
can trust you. If you think you can do the work, we will start you at
twenty-five a week.... What do you say?”

Jeannette’s throat went dry, her temples throbbed, her face burned.
Visions swift, tormenting, rose before her: she saw Roy, her mother,
sister!--she saw herself a bride, a wife, with hair hanging about her
face, bending over a steaming pan full of dirty dishes; she saw herself
sitting where Mr. Smith had sat, moving about the office, respected,
looked up to, feared and conciliated. She thought of the number of
times she had said that Smith was of small help to his chief, and the
number of times, in her secret soul, she had pictured herself in some
such post as his, helping, protecting, serving as she knew she could
help, protect and serve. She gazed at the kind face with its crown of
silvery white, and into the dark eyes studying her, as she felt rising
up strong within her the consciousness of how she could work for this
man, and be to him all he could ever expect in a secretary. The sadness
that surrounded him, the big fight he was waging to make his business
a success touched her imagination. She sensed his need of her,--his
great need of her,--and she saw in the dim future how dependent he
would grow to be on her. She would have a part in his struggle; she
could help him achieve his ambition as he could help her achieve
hers. Suddenly Roy’s stricken face interposed again. Rebellion rose
passionately! ... But it was too late. She was going to be married; she
was going to be Roy’s wife.... Yet how desperately she longed to be
this big man’s secretary! She thought of the sensation the promotion
would cause, how it would stagger Miss Foster, Miss Bixby, the other
girls,--how it would impress her mother, Alice,--_Roy_!

Her strained, hard expression brought a puzzled look to her employer’s
face. She tried to speak; her lips only moved soundlessly.

“Well, well,--you don’t have to make up your mind at once,” Mr. Corey
said. “Suppose you try it for a month or two. I don’t think you’ll find
it as hard as you anticipate. I am away for some months every year,--I
go abroad in the spring,--and while that does not mean a vacation for
you, the work is naturally easier. I would greatly appreciate loyalty
and conscientiousness. I think you have just the qualities. Try it, as
I suggest, until, say the first of March, and then we’ll see how we get
along together and whether you think the work too hard.”

She could not bring herself to tell him she was going to be married,
that she was thinking of resigning in a few weeks; she could not dash
from his hand the cup, brimming with all her ambitions realized, which
he held out to her so persuasively. No,--not just yet. He suggested she
try the position until the first of March. There was nothing to hinder
her from doing that! The glory would be hers, even if she were to enjoy
it but for six weeks. She would be “Mr. Corey’s secretary” before the
office; everyone would know of it, her mother, Alice, Roy,--all of them
would see how she had succeeded. On the first of March,--went her swift
mind,--she could talk it over with Mr. Corey, tell him the work was
beyond her strength, that she didn’t like it,--or that she was going to
be married! It wouldn’t matter then.

“Well,--what do you say?” Mr. Corey leaned forward slightly, his shrewd
eyes watching her.

She swallowed hard, and met his steady gaze.

“Yes,--I’ll try it. I--I think I can do it.”

“Good. Then we’ll start in to-morrow. Mr. Smith leaves us Saturday.
He can show you about my private filing system and some of the ropes
before he goes.”


§ 3

Quietly she told the news to her mother and sister that evening.
At once there was a hubbub; they were lavish with kisses, hugs and
congratulations. Alice, clapping palms, exclaimed:

“That will give you seventy-five--ninety dollars more to spend on your
trousseau! ... Oh, what will you _do_ with it, Janny?”

“It’s more than Roy gets,” Mrs. Sturgis commented proudly with an
elegant gesture of her hand.

“No, he was raised just before Christmas.”

“Well, it’s as much anyway. Think of it: twenty-five dollars a week!
... For a _girl_! ... Why, your father never earned much more!”

Roy was delighted, too.

“By golly!” he exclaimed enthusiastically. “I told you, didn’t I?
I guess I can tell a good stenographer when I see one. You were
worrying--remember?--when you first went down there whether you were
going to make good or not.... Well,--_say_,--isn’t that great! ... I
guess I’ve got a pretty smart girl picked out for a wife; hey, old
darling? You’re just a wonder, Janny! You can do anything. I wish
I was good enough for you, that’s all.... Poor old C. B.! He’ll be
disappointed as the deuce when you quit!”

Nevertheless, within the next few days Roy wondered if he altogether
liked the change in Jeannette’s status. Her manner towards him became
different. She no longer would gossip about office matters, and during
business hours she treated him with cold formality. There had always
been a pleased light in her eyes at a chance encounter with him and
sometimes he would find a little note on his desk she had left there.
But now she held him at a distance rather pompously, he thought. She
answered “I don’t know,” or “Mr. Corey didn’t say,” when he asked some
casual question about business. She had become close-mouthed, and gave
herself an air as she went about her work.

“I can’t act differently towards you than I do towards anybody else,”
she said in her defence when he complained. “Don’t you see, Roy, I’ve
got to be a kind of machine now. I’ve got to treat everybody alike. Mr.
Corey wouldn’t like it if he thought I was intimate with you.”

“But we’re _engaged to be married_!”

“Yes, of course,--but he doesn’t know it. And I want to make good,
even if it’s only for a few weeks. You understand, don’t you, Roy?”

Perhaps he did, perhaps he didn’t. Jeannette did not concern herself.
She was absorbed in adequately filling this coveted job which satisfied
her heart and soul and brain.

The hour of triumph when the news went abroad of her promotion was as
gratifying as she could possibly have wished. The girls crowded about
her, congratulating her, wringing her hands; Miss Foster impulsively
kissed her. Jeannette knew they envied her; she knew that, for the time
being, they even hated her; but their assumed pleasure in her good
fortune was none-the-less agreeable. Miss Reubens complained sourly
that the general office had lost its only efficient stenographer;
Mr. Cavendish charmingly expressed his personal satisfaction in
her advancement and gave her hand a warm pressure of friendliness;
Mr. Kipps and Mr. Featherstone both complimented her with hearty
enthusiasm. Jeannette was not cynical but she believed she put a
proper value on these felicitations,--particularly those of these last
two gentlemen. Mr. Corey was indeed the dominant power behind them
all; their destinies lay largely in his hands, and she was now the
go-between, the avenue of approach between the underlings and leader.
As they had feared and disliked Smith, so they would fear and perhaps
dislike her. She hoped they would learn to like her in time, but it
was natural they should feel a great respect for President Corey’s
secretary, and be anxious to gain her favor, hoping that to each of
them she might prove a “friend at court.” Still they were not wholly
insincere. Miss Holland, Jeannette felt, was genuinely pleased. The
older woman held both her hands and told her how happy the news had
made her; her eyes shone with the light of real pleasure. The girl felt
her to be indeed a friend.

Jeannette took her new work with the utmost seriousness. She
determined at the outset to treat everyone in the office with absolute
impartiality, to carry whatever anybody entrusted to her to the
President’s attention with an equal measure of fidelity, to see to
it that Mr. Kipps or Horatio Stephens would fare the same at her
hands. She planned to execute her secretarial duties automatically,
disinterestedly, with the impersonal functioning of a machine.

But she discovered the futility of this scheme of conduct within the
first few days. Miss Reubens wished to speak to Mr. Corey. Was Mr.
Corey busy? Would Miss Sturgis be so good as to tell her when she might
see him for a few minutes? Jeannette knew, as it happened, what Miss
Reubens wished to interview Mr. Corey about; Miss Reubens had already
discussed it with him, and he had already advised her. It would be
merely adding to his troubled day to go over the matter again; nothing
more would be accomplished. Besides, Jeannette knew Miss Reubens bored
Mr. Corey just as she bored everybody else. The interview did not take
place.

Again, Mr. Cavendish had promised a check to a distinguished contributor
to _Corey’s Commentary_; he had assured the author-statesman it would
be in the mail that afternoon without fail; would Miss Sturgis manage
to get Mr. Corey to sign it at once? Miss Sturgis could and did, but
a check to an engraving company, which Mr. Olmstead wished to be sent
the same day, waited until next morning for the hour which Mr. Corey
set apart for check-signing.

Her first concern was for Mr. Corey himself. She had guessed he was
harassed and harried, but had no idea how greatly harassed and harried
until she came to work at close quarters with him. He had tremendous
capacity, was an indefatigable worker, but she had not observed
his methods a week before she noted he did far too much that was
unnecessary. Insignificant things engaged and held his attention; he
frittered away his time upon trivialities. She set herself to save him
what she could and began by keeping the office force from troubling
him. Mr. Corey had a delightful personality, was a charming and
stimulating talker, a most pleasing companion; his secretary understood
quite clearly why every member of the staff liked to sit in an easy
chair in his office and spend half-an-hour with him, chatting about
details. He was too ready to squander his precious moments on anyone
who came to him. It was difficult to sidetrack these time-wasters but
in some measure she succeeded. Memorandums that came addressed to
him, she dared answer herself; she even went so far as to lift papers
from his desk and return them whence they came with a typed note
attached: “Mr. Corey thinks you had better handle this. J. S.” Her
daring frightened her sometimes. It was inevitable she should run into
difficulties.

One afternoon the “buzzer” at her desk summoned her; it sounded more
peremptory than usual.

“Miss Sturgis,” Mr. Corey addressed her, “Mr. Kipps left some
information about our insurance on my desk a day or two ago; have you
seen it?”

“Yes, sir, I returned it to him early this morning and suggested that
he take care of the matter for you.” As she spoke she felt the color
rushing to her face.

Corey’s black brows came together in an annoyed frown. He cleared his
throat with a little impatient cough, and jerked at his mustache.

“I wish, Miss Sturgis,--I wish you would not be quite so officious.”

Jeannette squared herself to the criticism, and stood very erect,
returning his look.

“I thought Mr. Kipps could take care of the matter, without bothering
you further,” she said, beginning to tremble.

There was silence in the room. The girl’s defiant figure, tall and
straight, confronted the man at the desk, and the dark frown that bore
down upon her. She was very beautiful as she stood there, with the warm
color tinging her olive-hued cheeks, her eyes clear and unwavering,
her head flung back, her small hands shut, resolute, unflinching.
Perhaps Corey saw it, perhaps it occurred to him that she showed a fine
courage, bearding him in this fashion, facing him with such spirit,
acknowledging her high-handedness yet defending it. As he considered
the matter, it came to him that she was right. Kipps was perfectly
capable of taking care of this insurance business himself.

What was passing in the man’s mind the girl never knew. Slowly she saw
the scowl drift away, the stern face relax. He swung his chair toward
the window and contemplated the horizon. The sun was setting over the
Jersey shore, and the glow of a red sky was reflected on his face.

“Very well,” he said at last. It was ungracious, it was curt, but there
was nothing more. There was no dismissal. The girl waited a few minutes
longer, then turned and quitted the room.

There were errors--serious errors--for which she was accountable. She
incorrectly addressed envelopes in the hurry of dispatching them,
she mixed letters and sent them to the wrong people, she mislaid
certain correspondence that upset the whole office, and she kept the
great Zeit Heitmüller, painter and sculptor,--of whom she had never
heard,--waiting for more than an hour in the reception room, though
Mr. Corey had begged him to call. Mr. Featherstone criticized her
sharply when she neglected sending off some advertising copy after Mr.
Corey had O.K.’d it, and she was aware that Mr. Olmstead complained of
her in great annoyance when she returned to him an inventory he had
prepared after it had lain four days on Mr. Corey’s desk. At times she
felt herself an absolute failure, and at others knew she was steadily
gaining ground in the confidence and regard of the man she served.
There were hard days, days when everything went wrong, when everybody
was cross, when it was close and suffocating in the office, and
whatever one touched felt gritty with the grime of the dusty wind that
swept the streets. There were days when Corey was short and critical,
when whatever Jeannette did, seemed to irritate him. A dozen times
during a morning or afternoon she might be near to tears and would
rehearse in her mind the words in which she would tell him that since
she could not do the work to satisfy him, he had better find someone
else to take her place. There were other days when he chatted with her
in the merriest of moods, asked how she was getting along, inquired
about herself and her family, looked up smilingly when she stood before
his desk to interrupt him, and thanked her for having protected him
from some trifling annoyance.

Her heart swelled with pride and satisfaction the first Saturday she
tore off a narrow strip from the neat, fat little envelope Miss Travers
handed her, and found folded therein two ten-and one five-dollar bills.
Twenty-five dollars a week! She rolled the words under her tongue; she
liked to hear herself whisper it. “Twenty-five dollars a week!” There
were hundreds and hundreds of men who didn’t earn so much, and a vastly
larger number of women!

Her mother, warmly seconded by Alice, refused to allow her to
contribute more than ten dollars toward the household expenses. She had
her trousseau to buy, they argued, and this was Jeannette’s own money
and she ought to spend it just as she chose and for what she chose.
Finances at the moment were much less of a problem than they had been
for the little household. A wealthy pupil of Signor Bellini with a fine
contralto voice had engaged Mrs. Sturgis as her regular accompanist,
and paid her ten dollars every time she played for her at an evening
concert.

Jeannette allowed herself to be persuaded, and Saturday afternoons
became for her orgies of shopping. She priced everything; she ransacked
the department stores. She knew what was being asked for a certain
type and finish of tailor suit on Fifth Avenue, and what “identically
the same thing” could be bought for on Fourteenth Street. She got
the tailor suit, and a new hat, a pair of smart, low walking pumps,
some half-silk stockings, be-ribboned underwear, a taffeta petticoat,
everything she wanted. She lunched at the St. Denis in what she felt to
be regal luxury, and indulged herself in a bag of chocolate caramels
afterwards. The joy of having money to spend intoxicated her; she
revelled in the glory of it; it was exciting, wonderful, marvellous.
Not one of the things she bought would she allow herself to wear;
everything was to be saved until she was married, and became Mrs. Roy
Beardsley.

Her future husband took her one Sunday to inspect the small brick
house in Flatbush which could be rented for twenty dollars a month.
The weather was unduly warm,--an exquisite day with a golden sun,--one
of those foretastes of spring that are so beguilingly deceptive. From
the janitor, who showed them over it, they learned that the house
would cost them twenty-two dollars a month. It was one of a solid,
unrelieved row of fourteen others exactly like it, all warmed by a
central heating system, and supplied similarly with water and gas. It
was dark, the floors were worn and splintery, the windows dingy; the
whole place smelled of old carpets and damp plaster. Still it had three
bedrooms upstairs, and a living-room, a really pleasant dining-room,
and a kitchen on the ground floor. Roy watched Jeannette’s face eagerly
as they stepped from room to room, but he failed to detect any sign of
enthusiasm. It impressed the girl as anything but cheerful. She saw
herself day after day alone in this place, sweeping, dusting, making
beds, washing dishes, getting herself a plate of pick-up lunch and
eating it at the end of the kitchen table, trying to read, trying to
sew, trying to amuse herself during the empty afternoons until it was
time to start dinner and wait for her husband to come home. After the
bustle and excitement of the office, it would be insufferably dull.

As they waited a moment on the front steps for the janitor to lock up
after them, Jeannette noticed a large, fat woman in a shabby negligée,
watching them from the upper window of the adjoining house, her plump,
pink elbows resting on a pillow, as she leaned out upon the sill,
enjoying the mellowness of the afternoon. On the ground floor behind
the looped lace curtains of a front window, her husband was asleep in a
large upholstered armchair, Sunday newspapers scattered about him, the
comic section across his round, fat abdomen.

“These would be the kind of neighbors she would have!” thought
Jeannette. Oh, it wasn’t what she wanted! It wasn’t her kind of a
life--_at all_! She would be lonely, lonely, lonely.

Roy was getting twenty-five dollars a week; she was getting twenty-five
dollars a week. Why couldn’t they go on working together in the same
office and have a joint income of fifty dollars a week,--two hundred
dollars a month! The idea fired her.

But she found no one to share her enthusiasm. Alice pressed a dubious
finger-tip against her lips; Roy frowned and said frankly he didn’t
think it was the right way for a couple to start in when they got
married; her mother indulged in firm little shakes of her head that set
her round cheeks quivering. When the heated discussion of the evening
was over and Roy had taken himself home, Mrs. Sturgis came to sit on
the edge of Jeannette’s bed after the girl had retired, and in the
darkness discoursed upon certain delicate matters which evidently her
dear daughter hadn’t considered.

“I hope my girl won’t have responsibilities come upon her too soon
after she’s married,” she said, after a few gentle clearings of her
throat, “but, dearie, you know about babies, and you’ll want to have
one, and it’s right and proper that you should. But where would you be
if a--if a--you found you were going to have one,--and you were working
in an office? You must consider these things. Roy’s perfectly right in
not wanting his wife at a dirty old desk all day.... And then, dearie,
there are certain decencies, certain proprieties. A bride cannot be
too careful; she must always be modest. Suppose you actually tried
this--this wild scheme of yours, and after your happy honeymoon, went
back to the office among your old associates, the men and women with
whom you’ve grown familiar; imagine how it would seem to them, and what
dreadful thoughts they might think about you and Roy! One of the lovely
things about marriage, Janny, is the dear little home waiting to shield
the young bride.”

“Oh, but Mama ...” began Jeannette in weary protest. But she stopped
there. What use was it to argue? None of them understood her; none of
them was able to grasp her point of view.

Roy voiced the only argument that had weight with her.

“I don’t think C. B. would like it; I don’t think he would want to have
a secretary who was married to somebody in the same office.”

Jeannette felt that this would be a fact. No matter how well she might
please Mr. Corey, a secretary who was married to another employee of
the company would not be satisfactory. It was highly probable that in
the event of her marriage he would be unwilling for her to continue
with him.

No, it was plain that if she married Roy, she must resign, she must
let go her ambition, her hopes for success in business, and she must
accept Flatbush, and the dismal little brick house, the unprepossessing
neighbors, and the lonely, lonely days.

Well--suppose--suppose--suppose she _didn’t_ marry!

The relief the idea brought was startling. But she couldn’t bring
herself to give up Roy,--she couldn’t hurt him! She loved him,--she
loved him dearly! Never in the last few months since he had come back
to her from California had she been so sure she loved him as now. Those
eager blue eyes of his, that unruly stuck-up hair, that quaint smile,
that supple, boyish figure,--so sinuous and young and clean,--she
couldn’t give them up!

A battle began within her. It was the old struggle,--the struggle of
ambition and independence, against love and drudgery, for marriage
meant that to her; she could think of it in no other way.

Daily in her work at the office, she felt a steady progress; daily, she
beheld herself becoming increasingly efficient; daily, more and more
important matters were entrusted to her.

“Thank you very much, Miss Sturgis.” “That’s fine, Miss Sturgis.”
“Please arrange this, Miss Sturgis.” “Miss Sturgis, will you kindly
attend to this matter yourself?”

These from Mr. Corey, and in the office she overheard:

“Well,--get Miss Sturgis to do that.” “Better ask Miss Sturgis.” “Miss
Sturgis will know.” “If you want C. B.’s O.K., get Miss Sturgis to put
it up to him.”

It was wine to her. She felt herself growing ever more confident,
established, secure.


§ 4

“Now, Janny,--what are you going to do about a house or an apartment
or something where we can begin housekeeping? Gee, I hate the idea
of boarding! We ought to have a place we can call our _home_. April
second is only two weeks off, and I don’t suppose it’s possible to find
anything now. We’ll have to go to a hotel or a boarding-house for a
while until we can look ’round.... Do you realize, Miss Sturgis, you’re
going to be Mrs. Roy Beardsley inside of a fortnight!”

“Roy--_dear_!” she exclaimed helplessly.

“But, my darling,--you’ve got to make up your mind.”

Make up her mind? She could not. She listened dumbly, miserably while
her mother and sister discussed, with the man she had promised to
marry, the details of the wedding, and what the young couple had
better do until they could find a suitable place in which to start
housekeeping.

“We’ll go over to the church on Eighty-ninth Street about six o’clock,
and Doctor Fitzgibbons will perform the ceremony and then we’ll come
back here for a happy wedding supper,” planned Mrs. Sturgis confidently.

On what was she expected to live? asked Jeannette, mutinously, of
herself. Twenty-five dollars a week for both of them? It had seemed
ample when they first discussed it. Her mother’s income for herself
and two daughters had rarely been more and frequently less. Mrs.
Sturgis paid thirty dollars a month rent for the apartment, and Alice
was supposed to have ten dollars a week on which to run the table; in
reality she provided the food that sustained the three of them at an
expenditure of one dollar a day. But at forty dollars a month for food
and twenty or twenty-five a month for rent and at least five dollars a
week for Roy’s lunches and carfare, what was she, Jeannette, to have
left to spend on clothes or amusement? She would be a prisoner in that
dismal little Flatbush house, bound hand and foot to it for the lack of
carfare across the river to indulge in a harmless inspection of shop
windows! Now she was free,--now she could get herself a gay petticoat
if she wanted one, or a new spring hat in time for Easter, or take
Alice and herself to a Saturday matinée and nibble chocolates with her,
hanging excitedly over the rail of the gallery from front row seats!
And she was to relinquish all this liberty, which now was actually
hers, actually her own to enjoy and delight in rightfully and lawfully,
and manacle her hands, rivet chains about her ankles and enter this
prison, whose door her mother, her sister and Roy held open for her,
and where they expected her to remain contentedly and happily for the
rest of her life!

It was too much! It was preposterous! It was inhuman! She didn’t love
_any_ man enough to make a sacrifice so great. She was self-supporting,
independent,--beholden to no one,--she could take care of herself for
life if necessary, and after her room and board were paid for, she
would always have fifteen dollars a week--sixty dollars a month!--to
spend as foolishly or as wisely as she chose with no one to call her
to account. She hugged her little Saturday envelopes to her breast;
they were hers, she had earned them, she would never give them
up,--never--never--never!


§ 5

She persuaded Roy to postpone the wedding. There was no special need
for hurry. It would require a lot more saving before they could
properly furnish a little house or an apartment; it was much wiser for
them to start in right; in a few months they could have two or three
hundred dollars. She presented the matter to him in a rush of words one
evening and, as she had foreseen, he was overborne by her vehemence.
Roy was sweet-tempered, he was amiable, he was always willing to give
way in an argument. Often she had felt impatient with him for this easy
tractability. He didn’t have enough backbone! Even now his readiness to
concede what she asked disappointed her. Something within her clamored
for an indignant rejection of her proposal. She wanted him to insist
with an oath that their marriage must take place at once, that she
must make good her promise without further to-do. He lost something
very definite in her regard at that moment; he never meant quite so
much to her again. It was the pivotal point in their relationship.

Alice let her hands and sewing fall into her lap when her sister
told her the marriage was to be postponed, and said anxiously: “Oh,
Janny,--I’m awfully sorry,” but her mother unexpectedly approved.

“There’s no need of your rushing into all the troubles and worries of
marriage, dearie,--until you’re quite, quite prepared. I think you’re
very wise to wait a little while; it’s right and proper; you and Roy
are showing a lot of real common sense. You’ll have some capital to
start in with, and you can take your time about finding just the right
kind of a place to live in. And then it means I’m going to have my
darling all summer.... Only,” she added with a reproachful glance at
the girl and a pout of lips and cheeks, “I wish you’d give up that
horrid, old office and stay at home with your mother and sister, and
have a few months to yourself before you fly away to be a bride.”

What a relief to know she had escaped for a time at least the net that
had been spread for her! With head held high, and a free heart, with
eager step and a pulse tuned to the joy of living, Jeannette plunged on
with her work.



CHAPTER VI


§ 1

The cold of winter clung with a tenacious grip to the city that year
until far into April. Jeannette had eagerly looked forward to the
spectacular flower-vendors’ sale of spring blooms in Union Square on
the Saturday before Easter but a bitter wind began to assert itself
early in the day and by ten o’clock had wrought pitiful havoc with the
brave show of potted lilies and azaleas. The Square was littered with
their battered petals and torn leaves. Three days before the first of
May a flurry of snow clothed the city again in white, and then, without
warning, summer breathed its hot, moist breath upon the town. The air
was heavy with water; a mist, thick and enervating, spread itself
like a miasma from a stagnant pool, through the streets. A tropical
heat,--the wet clinging heat of a conservatory,--enveloped New York.
And in June came the rain, an intermittent downpour that lasted for
weeks.

It was a trying time for everyone. The office felt damp, and there was
a constant smell all day of wet rubber and damp woolens. Black streams
of water meandered over the floor from the tips of wet umbrellas,
stacked in corners. On the fifth floor the roof leaked, and old Hodgson
had to be moved elsewhere. In the midst of the general discomfort Mr.
Corey fell sick.

It proved nothing more serious than a heavy bronchial cold, but
his physician ordered him to bed, and he was warned he must not
venture into the damp streets until the last vestige of the cold had
disappeared. The doctor consented to let him see his secretary and to
keep in touch with the office by telephone. It was thus that Jeannette
came to visit her employer in his own home.

Mr. Corey lived in one of three cream-painted brick houses on Tenth
Street, a hundred yards or so from the corner of Fifth Avenue.
The houses were quaint affairs, only two stories in height, with
square-paned glass in the shallow windows and wide, deep-panelled front
doors ornamented in the center with heavy, shining brass knockers.
They were old buildings, dating back to the early nineteenth century,
and had somewhat of a colonial atmosphere about them. The Corey family
consisted of Mrs. Corey and two children,--a boy of eighteen, Willis
Corey, in his first year at Harvard, and a girl, Helen, a year younger,
who lived at home and was called “Babs.” Jeannette was disappointed,
not to say disturbed, at meeting her employer’s wife.

“I wasn’t aware that I had a preconceived idea of her,” she said to
Alice in recounting her impressions. “Mr. Corey seems to be devoted
to her, and has a large silver-framed photograph of her on his desk.
I supposed from her picture and from the way he speaks about her that
she was the same kind of earnest, hard-headed, clear-thinking person
as himself. But she isn’t that way at all. In the first place, she’s
very tall and stately; she’s got lots of hair,--it’s quite gray and
very curly,--and she piles it up on top of her head and always wears
a bandeau or a fillet to bind it. She’s rather intense in her manner
and a trifle theatrical. She’s a handsome woman, faded of course now,
but she has very large dark eyes, that she uses effectively, and
really beautiful brows. She affects the weirdest of costumes, all lace
and floating scarf, with lots of color. She had several rings on her
fingers and bracelets dangling and jingling on her wrists. I thought
her stupid; I mean _really_ dense. When I got to the house she came out
to the hall where I was waiting, led me into the parlor and made me sit
down. She said she wanted to have a good talk with me. She was so glad
Mr. Smith had gone, and she went on at once to say how she had urged
‘Chandler!’--it was funny to hear Mr. Corey called by his first
name!--how she had urged him to make a change for a long time. She said
he said to her: ‘Where do you think I could find anybody to replace
him?’ and she said: ‘Well, how about that clever Miss Sturgis who’s
just come to you?’ She told me she had begged him for weeks to give me
a trial before he consented.

“You know, Allie, it rather puzzled me what her object could be in
romancing that way, for, of course, I don’t believe a word of it. She
never heard of me until Mr. Corey happened to tell her he had a new
secretary! And then she went on to talk about the business. My dear,
it was pathetic! She wanted me to think that she knew about everything
that went on at the office, that Mr. Corey kept nothing from her,
and talked over every important decision with her before he made up
his mind. I almost laughed in her face! She doesn’t know one single
thing about his affairs. She hasn’t the faintest idea, for instance,
that he’s in debt, that the paper company could wind up his affairs
to-morrow if it wanted to, nor what bank has helped to finance him
from the start, nor where the money comes from that buys her food and
clothing. She supposes, I presume, that it comes from profits. Profits
are a negligible quantity with the Chandler B. Corey Company and have
been ever since Mr. Corey launched it. It’s getting in better shape all
the time, and some day there _will_ be profits.

“Mrs. Corey looked brightly at me with her large soulful eyes and said:
‘Those two volumes of _The Life and Letters of Alexander Hamilton_ are
quite wonderful, aren’t they? Such beautiful bookmaking!’ and ‘We were
quite successful with _The Den_, weren’t we?’ Imagine, Alice! ‘_We!_’
What she knows about the business is about as much as she can gather
from the books Mr. Corey publishes and occasionally brings home to her!
She talked a lot about the magazines, and asked me if I didn’t think
Miss Reubens was making a very wonderful periodical out of _The Wheel
of Fortune_.

“I just nodded and agreed with her. She was trying to impress me how
well-informed she was, and I let her think she succeeded. Toward the
end she got started on Mr. Corey, and how hard he worked, and how
keenly I ought to feel it my duty to save him from petty annoyances; I
must consider myself a guard, a sentinel, stationed at the door of his
tent to keep the rabble from disturbing the great man! I let her rave
on, but it was all I could do to listen. I thought as I sat there that
in all probability she was the noisiest and most disturbing of the lot.
She wound up by telling me what the doctor had said to her about Mr.
Corey having caught cold, and she wanted to urge me particularly to
guard him against draughts. Then she asked me if Mr. Corey ever took me
to lunch! Now what do you think made her ask me a question like that?
You don’t suppose she’s jealous? It seems too ridiculous even to think
about. My goodness! When you see the kind of women some men get for
wives you wonder how they put up with them!”


§ 2

All Mr. Corey’s personal mail passed through Jeannette’s hands; she
opened and read most of it. He dictated to her his letters to his son
at Cambridge, and even those to his wife and Babs when they went to
Kennebunkport for the summer. Jeannette learned that Willis had been
madly in love with a married woman who sang in the choir of a Fifth
Avenue church, that he was given to midnight carousing, smoked far
too many cigarettes, that his mother spoiled him, and his father was
disgusted with him. With the aid of a “cramming” school, he had somehow
wiggled himself into Harvard, but Mr. Corey had made him distinctly
understand that at the first complaint concerning him he would have
to withdraw and go to work. Jeannette came to know, too, that Babs
was epileptic and that early in May she had had the first fit in two
years, and that the day after her mother and herself had arrived in
Kennebunkport, she had had another. Letters of a very agitated nature
passed between the parents as to what should now be done. Nothing was
decided. Likewise Jeannette learned that Mrs. Corey was at times
recklessly extravagant. Her husband repeatedly had to call her to
account, and sometimes they had violent quarrels about the matter.
Just before Mrs. Corey departed for Maine she had bought six hats for
herself and Babs, and had charged over three hundred dollars’ worth
of new clothing. Mr. Corey had been exasperated, as only a few weeks
before he had made a point of asking her to economize in every way
possible during the coming summer. He himself, Jeannette knew, must
shortly undergo a more or less serious operation, of which his family
was totally ignorant, that he was worried because his Life Insurance
Company had declined after an examination to increase the amount of his
insurance, and that he had successfully engineered a loan to wipe off
his indebtedness to the big Pulp and Paper Company.

There was little that concerned him with which she did not become
acquainted. She knew that his house on Tenth Street was heavily
mortgaged and that on the second loan carried by the property he was
paying an outrageous rate of interest; that on the tenth of every month
he never failed to send a check for sixty-six dollars and sixty-seven
cents to a man in Memphis, Tennessee, that his dentist threatened to
sue him unless he settled a bill that had been owing for two years;
that on the first of every month, Mr. Olmstead deposited to his account
in the Chemical National Bank five hundred dollars; that no month ever
passed without his chief sending for the old man and directing him
to deposit an additional hundred, or two hundred, or sometimes three
hundred to his account, and that these sums appeared on the books of
the company as personal indebtedness. Frequently this levy upon the
Company’s bank balance upset Mr. Olmstead, and more than once Jeannette
heard the old cashier emphatically assert as he rapped his eye-glasses
in his agitated fashion upon his thumb-nail:

“All right, Mr. Corey,--you’re the boss here, and I’ve got to do as you
say, but I won’t answer for it, Mr. Corey. I warn you, sir, we won’t
have enough for next week’s pay-roll!”

“Oh, yes, yes, yes,” Mr. Corey would soothe him. “We’ll manage
somehow; you pay the money in the bank for me and we’ll talk about it
afterwards.”

There were even more intimate things about the man she served which
became his secretary’s knowledge. He sometimes took the sixtieth of a
grain of strychnine when he was unusually tired, he dyed his mustache
and eyebrows, and wore hygienic underwear for which he paid six dollars
a garment. She had charge of his personal bank account. She drew the
checks, put them before him for his signature, and sent them out in the
mail. While Mrs. Corey was in Kennebunkport, she paid all the household
expenses of the establishment on Tenth Street: electric light and milk
bills, grocer’s and butcher’s accounts, the wages of the cook. She knew
what were Mr. Corey’s dues and expenses at the Lotus Club, what he paid
for his clothes, what he owed at Brooks Bros., and at the Everett House
where he had a charge account and signed checks for his lunches. There
were no secrets in his life that were closed to her; he had less than
most men to conceal; she considered him the most generous, the most
upright, the most admirable man in the world.


§ 3

It was on a hot Saturday afternoon in July when no one but themselves
were in the office, that Jeannette told Mr. Corey about Roy. She had
not seen quite so much of Roy lately; he had been away on a business
trip, and Horatio Stephens had asked him to spend his fortnight’s
vacation with himself and family at Asbury Park. He had written her
letters full of endearments and underscored assertions of love, and
had returned to plead eagerly that she set the day for the wedding and
begin to plan with him how and where they should live. His earnestness
made her realize she could temporize no longer.

“It isn’t that I don’t care for him,” she said to Mr. Corey; “it’s just
that I don’t want to get married, I guess.”

The windows were open and a gentle hot wind stirred the loose papers on
the desk. A lazy rumble of traffic rose from the street, punctuated now
and then by the shrill voices of children in the Square, and the merry
jingle of a hurdy-gurdy.

“You mustn’t trifle with your happiness, Miss Sturgis,” Corey said,
pulling at his mustache thoughtfully. “You know this is all very well
here for a time, but you must think of the future.”

Jeannette stared out of the window and for some minutes there was
silence; she spoke presently with knitted brows.

“Oh, I’ve gone over it and over it, again and again, and it seems
more than I can do to give up my independence and the fun of living
my own life just yet. I--I like Mr. Beardsley; I think we’d be happy
together. He’s devoted to me, and he’s most amiable,”--she glanced
with a smile at her employer’s face. “My mother and my sister are eager
to have me marry him, but I just can’t--can’t bring myself to give up
my work and my life here to substitute matrimony.”

“No consideration for me, my dear girl, ought to influence you. I’d be
sorry to lose you, of course; you’re the best secretary I ever had,
and I’d be hard put to it to find anyone who could begin to fill your
place even remotely. But you mustn’t think I couldn’t manage; I’d find
somebody. Your duty is to yourself and living your own life.”

“It isn’t that, Mr. Corey. It’s the work that I love; I don’t want to
give it up,--the excitement and the fun of it. It’s a thousand times
more exhilarating than cooking and dish-washing.... And then there’s
the question of finances, which, it seems to me, I’m bound to consider.
Mr. Beardsley’s getting twenty-five and I’m getting twenty-five; that’s
fifty dollars a week we earn, but if I marry him, we both would have to
live on just his salary.”

“Yes,--that’s very true,” the man admitted.

The girl threw him a quick glance, and went on hesitatingly:

“I don’t suppose we could marry and each of us go on holding our jobs?”

Mr. Corey considered, stroking his black mustache with a thoughtful
thumb and finger.

“Well,” he said slowly, “what do you gain? If you went on working,
you’d find it difficult to keep house; you’d have to live in a
boarding-house. And that isn’t homemaking. And then, Miss Sturgis,
there’s the, question of children. What would you do about them? You
wouldn’t care to have a child as long as you came downtown to an office
every day.... No, I wouldn’t advise it. If you love your young man well
enough, I would urge you to marry him.”

“I _don’t_!” Jeannette said to herself violently on her way home.

But did she? Almost with the denial, she began to wonder.

That night when Roy came to see her and asked her again for the
thousandth time to name the day, she took his face between her hands
and kissed him tenderly, folded his head against her breast, and with
arms tight about him, pressed her lips again and again to his unruly
hair.

Later, when he had gone and she was alone, she dropped upon her knees
before the old davenport where they had been sitting, and wept.

It was the end of the struggle. She told no one for a long time, but in
her mind she knew she would never marry him. Her work was too precious
to her; her independence too dear; to give them up was demanding of her
more than she had the strength to give.


END OF BOOK I



BOOK II



BREAD



CHAPTER I


§ 1

The Chandler P. Corey Company was moving its offices. A twenty-year
lease had been taken on a building especially designed to fit its needs
in the East Thirties. The new home was a great cavernous concrete
structure of eight spacious floors. On the ground floor were to be the
new presses destined to print the magazines, and perhaps some of the
books in the future; the next two floors were to house the bindery, the
composing room and typesetting machines; the editorial rooms were to be
located on the fourth floor, and above these would come in order the
advertising, circulation and pattern departments, each with a stratum
in the great concrete block to itself. The eighth floor was to be given
over to surplus stock, and it would also serve as a store-room for
paper and supplies.

Both _Corey’s Commentary_ and _The Wheel of Fortune_ had made money
for their owners during the past three years. It was the day of the
“muck-raking” magazine, and Cavendish had unearthed a Wall Street
scandal that sent the circulation of _Corey’s Commentary_ climbing
by leaps and bounds. _The Wheel of Fortune_ had been rechristened
_The Ladies’ Fortune_, and its contents were now devoted to women’s
interests and fashions. The pattern business, that had been launched in
connection with it, had proven from the outset immensely successful.
Horatio Stephens was now its editor, and Miss Reubens conducted the
special departments appearing among the advertising in its back
pages, always referred to in the office as “contaminated matter.”
The circulation of both periodicals had increased so rapidly that
Mr. Featherstone had been obliged to announce an advance in their
advertising rates every three months.

Other branches of the business, too, had grown and shown a profit.
Francis Holme, who was head of the Book Sales Department, and now a
member of the firm, had developed the manufacture and sale of book
premiums and school books. He sold large quantities of the former
to the publishers of other magazines, for use in their subscription
campaigns, and was even more successful with the latter among private
schools and some public ones throughout the country. One or two recent
novels had sold over the hundred thousand mark, and the general
standing of the Chandler B. Corey publications had improved. It was
conceded in the trade they had now a better “line.” Something was being
done, too, in the Mail Order Department, in charge of Walt Chase, and
more and more sets of standard works were being sold by circularizing
methods.

The installation and operation of their own presses had been a grave
undertaking. Mr. Kipps had strenuously opposed it, arguing that the new
building was enough of a responsibility, and that they should mark
time for awhile and see how they stood, rather than incur a new loan
of half a million dollars which the new presses involved. Mr. Corey
was convinced, however, that a tide had arrived in their affairs which
demanded a rapid expansion of the business, and if he and his partners
were to make the most of the opportunity thus presented, they must rise
to the occasion, and show themselves able to expand with it.

“There’s no use of our trying to crowd back into our shells after we’ve
outgrown them, is there, Miss Sturgis?” he said to his secretary, with
an amused twinkle in his eye, after a heated conference with the other
members of the firm, during which Kipps in high dudgeon had left the
room.

Jeannette smiled wisely. She believed that her chief was one of those
few men who had far-seeing vision, and could look with keen perception
and unfaltering eye into the future, and that he would carry Mr. Kipps,
Mr. Featherstone, the office, his family, herself, everybody who
attached themselves to him, to fame and fortune in spite of anything
any one of them might do. When he was right, he knew it, and knew it
with conviction, and nothing could shake him.

He had only one weakness, his secretary felt, and that was his attitude
toward his son, Willis, who, two years before, had been withdrawn
from the intellectual atmosphere of Cambridge, and put into the
business, presumably that his father might watch him. He was one of
the sub-editors of _Corey’s Commentary_ and demoralized the office by
his late hours, his disregard of office rules against smoking, and his
condescending attitude toward everyone in his father’s employ.

The three years that Jeannette Sturgis had been Mr. Corey’s secretary
had seen many changes. Poor Mrs. Inness had turned out to be a
dipsomaniac. Jeannette guessed her secret long before it was discovered
by anyone else, and she had been full of pity and sorrow when this
gray-haired, regal woman had to be dismissed. Van Alstyne was gone,
and Humphrey Stubbs as well; Max Oppenheim likewise had departed. The
new Circulation Manager was a shrewd, keen-eyed, spectacled young
Scotchman, named MacGregor, whom everyone familiarly spoke to and
of as “Sandy.” Miss Holland was still Mr. Kipps’ assistant, and now
most of the routine affairs of the business were administered by her.
Besides Mr. Holme, there was another new member of the firm, Sidney
Frank Allister, who had come into the Chandler B. Corey Company from
a rival house, and was now entrusted with the book-publishing end of
the business. It was usually his opinion that decided the fate of
a manuscript. He had his assistants: a haughty Radcliffe graduate,
named Miss Peckenbaugh, whom Jeannette heartily disliked, and old
Major Ticknor, who had a stiff leg since his Civil War days, and who
stumped into the office two or three times a week with his bundle of
manuscripts and stumped out again with a fresh supply. Very rarely Mr.
Corey was consulted; he frankly declared he hated to read a book, and
would only do so under the most vigorous pressure.

“Do I _have_ to read this, Frank?” Jeannette would often hear him ask
Allister, when the latter brought him a bulky manuscript and laid it on
his desk. “You know, I don’t know anything about literature,” he would
add, smilingly, with his favorite assumption of being only a plain
business man and lacking in appreciation of the arts.

“Well, Mr. Corey, this is really important,” Allister would say. “We
don’t agree about it in my department.”

“Has Holme read it? He can tell you whether it will sell or not.”

“Mr. Holme doesn’t think it will, but I believe this is a very
important book, and one we most assuredly ought to have on our list.”

Frequently Mr. Corey would hand the manuscript over to Jeannette after
Mr. Allister had left the room, and beg her to take it home with her,
read it, and give him a careful synopsis and her opinion. She used to
smile to herself when she would hear him quoting her, and once when he
repeated a phrase she had used in her report, he winked at her in a
most undignified fashion.

“I’m nothing but a hard-headed business man, you know,” he would say,
justifying himself to his secretary when they were alone together. “I
haven’t any time to read books. I can hire men to do that,--men with
much keener judgment about such things than I have. I’m watching the
circulation of our magazines, the advertising revenues, our daily sales
report, and seeing that our presses are being worked to their maximum
capacity. I’m negotiating with a mill for a year’s supply of paper, and
buying fifty thousand pounds of ink, and at the same time arranging for
a loan from the bank. I haven’t got time for books. Anyhow I never went
to college,”--this with a humorous twinkle as he had a general contempt
for college men,--“and I don’t know anything about ‘liter-a-choor.’”


§ 2

Jeannette took a tremendous pride in the new building. She had an
office to herself, now,--one adjoining Mr. Corey’s. He left the details
of equipping both to her. She took the greatest delight in doing so.
She bought some very handsome furniture,--a great mahogany desk covered
with a sheet of plate glass for Mr. Corey; some finely upholstered
leather armchairs, a rich moquette rug, and she had the walls
distempered, and lined on three sides with tall mahogany bookcases
with diamond-paned glass doors. She had all the authors’ autographed
photographs reframed in a uniform narrow black molding, and hung them
herself. She arranged to have some greens always on the bookcases, and
a great bunch of feathery pine boughs in a large round earthenware jar
on the floor in one corner.

There had come to exist a very warm and affectionate companionship
between the president of the publishing house and his secretary.
Jeannette thought him the finest man she knew. She admired him
tremendously, admired his shrewdness, his cleverness, his extraordinary
capacity for work. He was impatient beyond all reason, sometimes. She
had often seen him jump up with a bang of a fist on his desk and an
angry exclamation on his lips when an office boy had dallied over an
errand, or had heard these things when it was she who was keeping him
waiting, and he would come himself after the carbon of the letter, or
the report, or the book he had asked for. He would stride through the
aisles between the desks, or across the floor to somebody’s office
with great long steps, his fists swinging, his brows knit, intent upon
putting his hands at once upon what he wanted. He could be brutally
rude, when annoyed, and he gave small consideration to anyone else’s
opinion when he had a definite one of his own. But she could forgive
these shortcomings. She saw the odds against which he contended, she
saw the ultimate goal at which he aimed, and she saw the vigorous
battle he was waging toward this end,--and her esteem for him knew no
bounds.

She felt herself to be his only real ally though she did not
overestimate her services. Among those who came close to him--his
business associates and family--she was the only one not an actual drag
upon him. Mr. Featherstone and Mr. Kipps were of no more assistance
to him in conducting the affairs of the company than any two of the
salaried clerks. Frequently they hampered him, rubbing their chins or
hemming and hawing over one of his brilliant flashes of wisdom, to
rob him of his enthusiasm. As the business increased, they were more
and more inclined to demur at any new scheme he proposed. His family
were so much dead weight about his neck. The boy had proved himself
of small account, the daughter was epileptic, Mrs. Corey an exacting,
extravagant, capricious wife.

Jeannette’s surmise upon their first meeting that her employer’s
wife was already unaccountably jealous of her soon found ample
confirmation. Mrs. Corey grew more and more resentful of Jeannette’s
intimate knowledge of her personal affairs, the complete confidence of
her husband which she enjoyed, the close daily association with him.
Jeannette was aware there had been several violent quarrels over her
between husband and wife, Mrs. Corey demanding that she be dismissed,
Mr. Corey firmly declining to agree. It did not make matters any too
pleasant for the girl. Whenever Mrs. Corey encountered her, she was
effusively sweet, but her manner suggested: “You and I, my dear, _we_
know about him,” or “We women,--his secretary and his wife,--must
stand together for his protection.” Jeannette was keenly conscious of
the utter falseness and insincerity of this attitude. She knew that
Mrs. Corey hated her, and would gladly see her summarily dismissed.
She would smile with equally apparent sweetness in return, and fume
in silence. She considered she was often doing for Mr. Corey what his
wife should have been doing, that she filled the place of assistant,
philosopher and friend only because Mrs. Corey was utterly incompetent
to fill any of these rôles. If her relation to her employer had grown
to be that of companion and helpmate, if she had been obliged to assume
part of the province of a wife, none of the compensations were hers,
she reflected indignantly. Mrs. Corey lived in luxury, came and went
as she pleased, observed no hours, exercised no self-restraint, posed
as her husband’s partner in life, his guide and counsellor, spent his
money extravagantly, and enjoyed the satisfaction of being the wife
of the president of what had now become one of the big publishing
houses in New York, while she, Jeannette, who worked beside him eight,
nine, sometimes eleven or twelve hours out of every twenty-four, got
thirty-five dollars a week!

But in moments of fairer judgment she realized she received much more
than merely the contents of her pay envelope. She had an affection
and a regard from Mr. Corey that he never had given his wife. She was
closer to him than anyone else in the world; she was what both wife and
daughter should have meant to him; he loved her with a warm paternal
feeling, and her love for him in return was equally sincere, deep and
devoted. She sometimes felt that she and this man for whom she slaved
and whom she served and helped could conquer the world. There existed
no sex attraction between them; each recognized in the other the half
of an excellent team of indefatigable workers; their relation was
always that of father and daughter, but their feelings could only be
measured in terms of love,--staunch, enduring, unswerving loyalty.


§ 3

There was nothing in Jeannette’s life from which she derived more
satisfaction than the way in which she had deflected Roy Beardsley’s
interest in herself to her sister. There was a time after she had
made up her mind she could not marry him, when dark hours and aching
thoughts assailed her, when she felt she was sacrificing all her
happiness in life to a mere idea. But she had fought against these
disturbing reflections, resolutely banishing Roy from her mind, and
making herself think of ways in which their relationship could be
put upon a platonic basis. She took walks with him, made him read
aloud to her when he came in the evenings, persuaded him to take her
to lectures, and formed the habit of going with him once a week to a
vaudeville show in a neighboring theatre on upper Broadway. Her policy
was always to be _doing_ things with him, never to be idle or to sit
alone with him, for this always led to intimate talk and love-making.
She strove to keep the conversation impersonal. Roy was so easily
managed, she sometimes smiled over it. And yet there came times when it
was hard to deny herself the firm hold of his young arms.

What proved an immediate and tremendous help in conquering herself was
a discovery she made from a chance glimpse of her sister’s earnest,
brown eyes fixed upon Roy’s face. The three of them were in the studio
one evening, and happened to be discussing religion. Roy delivered
himself sententiously of a trite truism, something like: “It should
be part of everyone’s religion to respect the religion of others.” As
Jeannette was considering him rather than his words at the moment,
her gaze happened to light upon her sister’s face, and little Alice’s
secret stood revealed. The girl sat with her mouth half-open, staring
at Roy with wide eyes, and an adoring look, eloquent of her thoughts.
Jeannette was staggered. She was instantly aware of a great pain in
her own heart, a great longing and hurt. It was clear Alice did not
understand herself, had no suspicion that she was in love.

At once the elder sister began to readjust herself, “clean house,” as
she expressed it. She marvelled again and again about Alice; it was
hard to accept the idea that love had come to her little sister, yet
the look in the rapt face had been unmistakable, and as the days went
by Jeannette found plenty of evidence to confirm her suspicions. It was
surprising how much the knowledge of her sister’s secret helped her to
overcome any weakness for Roy that remained in her own heart. She saw
at once the suitableness of a match between them; Alice and Roy were
ideally suited to each other, and their coming to care for one another
would surely be the best possible solution to her own problem. She
could not, would not, marry him; the next best thing, of course, would
be for him to marry her sister.

She set about her schemes at once. The very next evening it had been
arranged Roy was to go with her to the theatre. They usually sat in one
of the back rows of the balcony. That afternoon she left a little note
on his desk to say she wanted to see him when he came in, and when he
appeared, told him she would be obliged to work with Mr. Corey that
evening, and suggested he take her sister to the show in her place.
When he came of an evening to see her at her home, she would send Alice
out to talk to him, while she dallied over her dressing. Whenever
Alice happened to join her and Roy, she found an excuse to leave them
together. She persuaded the young man frequently to include her sister
in their jaunts or walks, and in the evenings, more and more often
she complained of a headache, took herself to bed, and left Alice to
entertain him. Poor little Alice was blindly unconscious of the strings
that were being pulled about her, but she came to a full and terrifying
realization at last of where her heart was leading her. She began to
mope and weep, to talk of going away. She spoke of wanting to be a
trained nurse.

Roy was still placidly indifferent to her interest in him. His ardor
for Jeannette had cooled, but he still fancied himself in love with
her, and expected that some day they would be married. He no longer
fretted her, however, with demands or troubled her with love-making.
His days were full of interests: he had his friends, his work at the
office, his companionship with the two Sturgis girls,--all of which
was very agreeable and entertaining. Jeannette and he would be married
some day before long; he was content to let matters drift until she
was ready to name the day.... Alice? Oh, Alice was a lovely girl,--a
_deuce_ of a lovely girl. She was going to be his sister-in-law soon.

Before long Mrs. Sturgis came fluttering in great agitation to her
oldest daughter. By various circumlocutions, she approached the subject
which was causing her so much distress. It was quite evident that
Alice was not well; she was run down and getting terribly nervous. Had
Jeannette noticed anything wrong with her? Jeannette didn’t suppose it
could be a _man_, did she? The little brown bird was still her mother’s
baby after all, but you never could tell about girls. Alice was,--well,
Alice was nineteen! And if it _was_ a man,--the dear child acted
exactly as if there was one,--who could it possibly be? She didn’t see
anybody but Roy; she didn’t go any place with anybody else. Now her
mother didn’t want to say _one word_ to distress Jeannette, or to say
anything that would--would upset her.... Perhaps she was all wrong
about it anyway, but--but did Jeannette think it was possible that
Alice and Roy,--that Alice,--that Alice....

Amused, Jeannette watched her anxious little mother floundering on
helplessly. Then she suddenly took the plump and worried figure in her
arms, hugged her, and told her all about it.

Mrs. Sturgis could only stare in amazement and interject breathless
exclamations of “But, _dearie_!” “Why, _dearie_!” “Well, I don’t know
what to make of you!”

But the question now remaining was how to jog Roy’s consciousness
awake, make him see the little brown flower at his feet that looked up
at him so adoringly, only waiting to be plucked. Jeannette said nothing
to her mother, but she went to Roy direct. She felt sure of her touch
with him.

First she made him realize that she could never be satisfied with being
his wife. She explained carefully and convincingly why it could never
be, and then while he gazed tragically at the ground, twisting his lean
white fingers, she spoke to him frankly of Alice.

As she talked it came over her with fresh conviction that, had she
married him, she could have done as she liked with Roy; he was putty in
her hands. But her husband must be a man who would mold _her_, make her
do what he wished, bend her to his will. Only such a man would awaken
her love and keep it. She despised Roy for his amiability.

He looked very boyish and silly to her now, as he rumpled his stuck-up
hair, and dubiously shook his head. He was surprised to hear about
Alice, and,--Jeannette could see,--at once interested. She left the
thought with him and confidently waited for it to take hold. Mr. Corey,
she felt, would have handled the situation in just some such fashion as
she had,--direct, cutting the Gordian knot, plunging straight to the
heart of the matter.

One night at dinner she casually told her mother and sister that her
engagement with Roy had been broken by mutual consent. She explained
they both had begun to realize they did not really love one another
well enough to marry and had decided to call it off. Roy was a sweet
boy, she added, and would make some girl a splendid husband. She
glanced covertly at Alice. The girl was bending over her plate,
pretending an interest in her food, but her face was deadly white. A
rush of tenderest love flooded Jeannette’s heart. At the moment she
would have given much to have been free to take her little sister in
her arms and tell her everything, assure her that the man she loved was
beginning to love her in return and would some day make her his wife.

And that was how it turned out. A year later Roy and Alice were married
by the Reverend Doctor Fitzgibbons in the church on Eighty-ninth Street
in just the way the bride’s mother had planned for her older daughter,
and now they were living in a small but pretty four-room apartment
out in the Bronx for which they paid twenty-five dollars a month.
Happy little Mrs. Beardsley’s mother and sister were aware that very
shortly those grave responsibilities at which Mrs. Sturgis had often
mysteriously hinted were to come upon her. Alice was “expecting” in
March.

Roy was no longer an employee of the Chandler B. Corey Company. He
had found another job just before he married and was now with _The
Sporting Gazette_, a magazine devoted to athletic interests, gaming,
and fishing, where he was getting forty dollars a week as sub-editor.
He had always wanted to write and this came nearer his ambition than
soliciting advertisements. Moreover there was the increase in salary.
Of course _The Sporting Gazette_ was new and had nothing like the
circulation of the Corey publications, but Roy considered it a step
ahead. He had given Mr. Featherstone a chance to keep him, but Mr.
Featherstone had rubbed his chin and wagged his head dubiously when
asked for a raise. No,--there mustn’t be any more raises for awhile, no
more increases in salary until the company was making larger profits;
they were expanding; there was the new building with the larger
rent, and all those new presses to be paid for. So Roy had gone in
quest of another job, and had found it in one of three rough little
rooms comprising the editorial offices of _The Sporting Gazette_. He
considered himself extremely happy, extremely fortunate.

The attraction Jeannette had once felt for him was as dead as though it
had never been.


§ 4

Mrs. Sturgis no longer had to work so hard. She had given up her
position as instructor in music at Miss Loughborough’s Concentration
School for Little Girls and her work as accompanist for Signor
Bellini’s pupils. Jeannette had made her resign from both places.
With Alice married and gone, it was better for her mother to stay at
home and take charge of the housekeeping. Mrs. Sturgis gave private
lessons, now,--a few hours only in the morning or afternoon,--and
these, she asserted, were a “real delight.” It left her plenty of time
for marketing and for preparing the simple little dinners she and her
daughter enjoyed at night. She took the keenest interest in these, and
was always planning something new in the way of a surprise for her
“darling daughter when she comes home just dead beat out at the end
of the day.” Finances were no longer a problem. Jeannette contributed
twenty dollars a week to the household expenses while her mother earned
as much and sometimes more. She often reminded her daughter she could
do even better than that, especially during the winter months, but
Jeannette would not hear of her working harder.

“But what’s the use, Mama?” she would ask. “We’ve got everything we
want. I can dress as I like on what’s left out of my salary, and there
is no sense in your teaching all day. I love the idea of your being
free to go to a concert now and then, and Alice’s going to need you a
lot when the baby comes and afterwards.”

“That may be all very true, dearie, but I don’t just feel right about
having so much time to myself. I could easily do more. There was a lady
called this afternoon and just _begged_ me to take her little girl. You
know I have all Saturday morning.”

“No,” said Jeannette decisively; “I won’t consider it.”

They were really very comfortably situated, the girl would reflect.
Once a week, sometimes oftener, Mrs. Sturgis would be asked to
accompany a singer at a recital. That meant five dollars, often
ten,--ten whenever Elsa Newman sang. Then there was the twenty she,
herself, contributed weekly, and the lessons that brought in an equal
amount. Between her mother’s earnings and her own, their income was
never less than two hundred and fifty dollars a month. They were rich;
they lived in luxury; they need never worry again. Jeannette knew she
could remain with Mr. Corey for life if she wanted to; there was no
possible danger of her ever losing her job. Her mother fussed about
the apartment, cooked delicious meals, took an interest in arranging
and managing their little home in a way that previous demands upon her
time had never permitted. A new rug was bought for the studio, and some
big easy chairs, which they had talked about purchasing for years.
The piece of chenille curtaining that had done duty as a table cover
so long in the dining-room was supplanted by a square of handsomer
material; the leaky drop-light vanished and was replaced by one more
attractive and serviceable. More particularly Jeannette had seen to
it that her mother got new clothes. Mrs. Sturgis had always favored
lavender as the shade most becoming to her, and her daughter bought
her a lovely lavender velvet afternoon dress which had real lace down
the front and was trimmed with darker lavender velvet ribbon. Some
lavender silk waists followed, and a small lavender hat upon which the
lilac sprays nodded most ingratiatingly. Mrs. Sturgis was radiant over
her new apparel. Her extravagant delight touched the daughter. It was
pathetic that so little could give so much intense enjoyment.

Once or twice a month, Jeannette took her mother to a matinée. She
loved to go to the theatre herself, and studied the advertisements,
read all the daily theatrical notes and never missed a review. She
would secure seats for the play, weeks in advance, and always took her
mother to lunch downtown before the performance. These were wonderful
and felicitous occasions for both of them. They had great arguments
each time as to where they should eat, what they should select from
the magnificent menus, and later about the play itself. Jeannette liked
to startle her mother by selecting some extravagant item from the
bill-of-fare, or surprise her by handing her a little present across
the table. Sometimes as they came out of the theatre she would pilot
her without preamble toward a hansom-cab and before the excited little
woman knew what it was about, would help her in, and tell the cabby to
drive them home slowly through the Park.

“Oh, dearie, you’re not going to do this again!” Mrs. Sturgis would
expostulate drawing back from the waiting vehicle. She really wished
to protest against the needless extravagance. Jeannette would smile
lovingly at her, and urge her in. Later as they were rumbling through
the leafless Park and met a stream of automobiles and sumptuous
equipages going in the opposite direction, Mrs. Sturgis would settle
herself back with a sigh of contentment and say:

“Really, dearie, I don’t think there is anything I enjoy quite as much
as riding in a hansom. You’re very good to your old mother. We may land
in the poorhouse, but we’re having a good time while the luck lasts.”

On the occasion of the first performance of _Parsifal_ at the
Metropolitan, Jeannette, through Mr. Corey, was able to secure one
ten-dollar seat for her mother. It was the greatest event in little
Mrs. Sturgis’ life. She longed for Ralph, and wept all through the Good
Friday music.

Frequently on Sunday afternoons Jeannette’s mother made her daughter
accompany her to Carnegie Hall for a concert or a recital. Then, she
declared, it was her turn to treat and she would not allow the girl
to pay for anything. Her entertainments were never as “grand” as her
daughter’s, but she took a keen delight in playing hostess, and after
the music always suggested tea. They were both exceedingly fond of
toasted crumpets, and Mrs. Sturgis was ever on the lookout for new
places where they were served. But neither of her daughters inherited
her love for music. Jeannette went to the concerts dutifully, but the
satisfaction derived from these afternoons came from giving her mother
pleasure rather than from the jumble of sound made by the wailing
strings, tooting wood-winds and blaring trumpets. She could make
nothing out of it all. When there was a soloist she was interested,
especially if it was a woman, of whose costume she made careful notes.

Mother and daughter also went to church sometimes. Doctor Fitzgibbons
had made a deep impression upon Mrs. Sturgis when he officiated at the
marriage of Roy and Alice. She had been “flattered out of her senses”
when the clergyman called upon her a few weeks after the ceremony to
inquire for the young couple. He had talked to her about “parish work,”
and expressed the hope that she would see her way clear “to join the
church” and become interested in his “guild.” Mrs. Sturgis had laughed
violently at everything he said, and had promised all he suggested.
Thereafter she referred to him as her “spiritual adviser,” and
Jeannette was aware she called occasionally at the rectory to discuss
what she termed her “spiritual problems.”

Sunday evenings, Mrs. Sturgis and Jeannette usually invited Alice and
Roy to dinner, and sometimes they were the guests of the young couple
in the little Bronx apartment. Roy and Alice were like two children
playing at keeping house, Mrs. Sturgis said with one of her satisfied
chuckles. Jeannette, too, thought of them as children. Alice had
always seemed younger to her than she really was, and even when her
own thoughts had been filled with Roy, he had always impressed her as
a “boy.” She often wondered nowadays, when he and his happy, dimpling,
brown-eyed bride sat side by side on the sofa, their arms around one
another, their hands linked, exchanging kisses every few minutes in
accepted newly-wed fashion, what she had ever seen in him that had made
her own senses swim and her heart pound. He was just a sweet, amiable
boy to her now, with a fresh, eager manner, and rather an attractive
face. She still liked his quaint mouth, his whimsical smile, his quick
flashing blue eyes, but they no longer stirred her. She could kiss him
in affectionate sisterly fashion without a tremor.

Jeannette and Mrs. Sturgis took great delight in observing the young
couple together, in watching them in their diminutive but pretty home,
and in discussing them afterwards. They were ideally happy,--laughing,
romping, playing little jokes upon one another, deriving vast amusement
from words, signs and phrases, the meaning of which were known to them
alone. Both were affectionately demonstrative, forever holding hands,
caressing one another and kissing. Jeannette said it made her sick, was
disgusting, but her mother scolded when she betrayed her distaste, and
reminded her it was “only right and proper.”

Roy, against the prospect of his marriage to Jeannette, had saved
money; Mrs. Sturgis, urged by her older daughter, had once again placed
a loan of five hundred dollars upon the nest-egg in the savings bank;
Jeannette had contributed another hundred, and Roy’s father had shipped
from San Francisco a half car-load of family furniture which had been
in storage for many years. The wedding had awaited the arrival of
this freight, and as soon as it came the stuff had been uncrated, and
installed in the little Bronx apartment. The ceremony then followed and
Roy took his blushing, laughing, excited bride from her mother’s arms,
from the old-fashioned apartment where she had lived almost since she
could remember, and from the wedding supper, direct to the new home in
the Bronx which together they had furnished with such joy and hours of
planning and discussion.

They had nearly a thousand dollars to spend, but Alice wisely
decided, so her mother thought, that only half of it should go into
house-furnishing. The furniture shipped by the Reverend Dwight
Beardsley was designed in the style of an earlier day and much of it
was too large for the snug little rooms of the Bronx flat. A large
sideboard with a marble slab top and huge mirror could not be brought
into the apartment at all, and was sold to a second-hand furniture
dealer on Third Avenue for fifteen dollars. But most of the furniture
from California was usable, and all of it good and substantial. Alice
made the curtains for the dining and living rooms herself; she and Roy,
on their hands and knees, painted the floors a warm walnut tone. They
bought three or four rugs, a fine second-hand sofa with a rich but not
too gaudy brocaded cover, bed and table linen, and everything needed
for the kitchen. Horatio Stephens and his family sent them a colored
glass art lamp, and Mr. Corey, consulting Jeannette, presented a
beautiful clock with silvery chimes.

No young husband and wife ever took greater delight in their first
home. They were always “fixing” things, arranging and rearranging them,
cleaning and dusting. Roy bought a Boston fern during an early week of
the marriage, paid three dollars for a brass jardiniere at a Turkish
vendor’s to hold it, and the plant flourished on a small taboret in the
front windows. They took the most assiduous care of this, watering it
several times a day and digging about its roots with an old table knife
whenever either of them had an idle moment. When one of the curling
fronds began to turn brown, they had long discussions as to whether
it should be trimmed off or not. They acquired a canary, too, which
shared with the fern the young couple’s devotion. Alice had bought the
bird because she was so “miserably lonely” without Roy all day long
that she would “go out of her senses wanting him” unless there was
something alive ’round the house to keep her company. The fact that
the canary never opened his throat to make a sound,--although Alice
had been assured by the man in the bird-store that he would “sing his
head off”--did not in any wise detract from her love for the little
feathered creature that hopped about in his cage and made a great fuss
over giving himself a bath in the mornings. They called him “Sonny-boy”
and took turns at the pleasure of feeding him.

Alice was a good cook. She had a gift for the kitchen, and Jeannette
and her mother would exclaim in admiration over the delicious meals
she prepared when they came to dinner. Roy would glance from mother
to sister-in-law when the roast appeared or when a particularly
appetizing-looking pudding was brought in, and at their exclamations of
delight, he would say:

“Guess I’ve got a pretty smart wife,--hey? Guess I know a good cook
when I see one, huh? Why, Alice’s got most women I know skinned a mile!
She’s just a wonder; she can do anything. I only wish I was good enough
for her. She’s a wonder, all right--all right.”

Jeannette was deeply moved when her sister told her she was going to
have a baby. It tore at her heart to think of little Alice, to herself
so young, so immature, so tender and weak and inexperienced, bringing
a child into the world. She worried about it, wondered if Alice would
die, felt with terrifying conviction that that would be the way of it.
Her mother’s pleasure and complacency about the matter reassured her
but little. Alice was having a child much too soon after her wedding;
she ought to have waited for a year or so at least.

She watched the changes in her sister’s face and figure with growing
wonder. Child-bearing was a mystery. Jeannette had never known a woman
intimately who had had a baby; now she was both curious and concerned.
After the early months of discomfort had passed, a benign gentleness
settled upon Alice; her expression became placid, serene, beautiful. A
quality of goodness transfigured her. She moved through the days toward
her appointed time with supreme tranquillity. Whenever Alice spoke of
“my baby,” Jeannette winced, while her mother maddened her each time
with the remark that it was “only right and proper.”

One morning early in March, shortly after Jeannette had reached the
office, her mother telephoned her in a great state of excitement. She
had just heard from Roy; Alice’s baby would arrive that day; they were
taking her right away to the hospital; she wasn’t in any pain yet, but
the doctor thought it would be best to have her there; he didn’t say
when the child was likely to be born.

There was no more news. The morning stretched itself out endlessly.
Jeannette worried and suffered in silence; at noon she telephoned the
hospital and got Roy; there was little change; Alice was miserable,
but there was no talk about when the baby would be born; the doctor
had promised to be in at three; Roy would let her know if anything
happened. All afternoon there was a meeting of the members of the firm
in Corey’s office; the question of the move to the new building was
being discussed; it lasted until four, until five, until quarter to
six. Jeannette was beside herself. Alice was dead and they were afraid
to let her know!

At six o’clock her mother telephoned again. Alice was having her pains
with some regularity now; the baby ought to be there about eight or
nine o’clock, the doctor said.

As soon as she was at liberty Jeannette left the office. She did not
want to eat, but took the elevated direct to the hospital. Her mother
and Roy met her and they kissed one another again and again. Alice
was “upstairs” now. They sat with their elbows touching on a hard
leather-covered seat in the reception-room. Jeannette’s head began
to ache; she counted the sixty-three squares in the rug on the floor
twenty-two times; the black on the Welsbach burner in the lamp looked
exactly like two people kissing.

Towards midnight the baby was born.

When Jeannette first saw her niece, the upper part of the little head
and forehead were carefully bandaged. Her mother whispered that it had
been an “instrument case”; Roy was not to know for a while at any rate.
The baby was perfect,--a fine, healthy, eight-pound girl, and Alice was
doing nicely.

But Alice did not leave the hospital for six weeks and was six months
in recovering her old strength and buoyancy.



CHAPTER II


§ 1

It was some three months after the publishing house had been
established in its new offices, that Jeannette had the card of Martin
Devlin brought to her. It was embossed and heavily engraved, with
a small outline of the earth’s two hemispheres in one corner and
bisecting these, in tiny capitals, the words: THE GIBBS ENGRAVING
COMPANY. Mr. Corey was out; Jeannette told the boy to inform the
caller. In a minute or two the messenger returned to say that the
gentleman would like to speak to Mr. Corey’s secretary, but Jeannette
had no time to waste on solicitors of engraving work, and sent word
that she was occupied. The boy reappeared presently with another of Mr.
Devlin’s cards, on the back of which was pencilled:

 “Dear Miss Sturgis,--I’d be grateful for two minutes’ interview. Have
 a message from an old friend of yours.

    M. Devlin.”


Jeannette frowned in distaste, and looked up at the boy, annoyed. She
was extremely busy, typing a speech for Mr. Corey which he was to read
that night at a Publishers’ Banquet at the Waldorf. It was twenty
minutes past four; she expected him to return at any minute.

“Tell the gentleman to come again, will you, Jimmy? I’m really too busy
to see him to-day.”

The boy went out and she returned to her work, her fingers flying.

“The responsibility of molding public opinion,” went her notes, “rests
perhaps with our press, but to whom do the discriminating readers of
the nation in confidence turn for the formation of their taste in
literature, their acquaintance with the Arts, the dissemination of
those inspiring idealistic thoughts and precepts of the fathers of our
great----”

She estimated there were another three pages of it.

The door of her office opened and a young man of square build, with
broad shoulders, and a grin on his face, filled the aperture.

“Beg pardon, Miss Sturgis,” he began. “I hope you won’t think I’m
butting-in.”

He had a strong handsome face, big flashing teeth, black hair and black
eyebrows.

Jeannette looked at him, bewildered. She had never seen this man
before; she did not know what he was doing in her office, nor what he
wanted.

“I’m Martin Devlin,” he announced, advancing into the room.

At once she froze; her breast rose on a quick angry intake, and her
eyes assumed a cold level stare.

“I hope you’re not going to be sore at me.” He smiled down at her in
easy good humor.

“Mr. Corey’s not in,” said the girl. She was staggered by this
individual’s effrontery.

“Well, that’s too bad, but I really called to have a few minutes’ chat
with you,” he returned nonchalantly. “We have a friend of yours down at
our office: Miss Alexander, Beatrice Alexander. ’Member her? She says
a lot of nice things about you.”

“Oh!” Jeannette elevated her eyebrows and surveyed the speaker’s head
and feet.

“I’m afraid you’re sore at me,” he said. He laughed straight into her
cold eyes, showing his big teeth.

Jeannette straightened herself and frowned. She felt her anger rising.

“Er--you--a----” she began, deliberately clearing her throat with a
little annoyed cough. “I think you’ve made a mistake. Mr. Corey is not
in. As you see, I am busy. Good-day.”

She looked down at her notes and swung her chair around to her machine.

“Whew!” whistled Mr. Devlin. He took a step nearer, put his hand on
her desk, bent down to catch a glimpse of her face, and said with a
pleading note in his voice and with that same flashing smile:

“Aw--please don’t be sore at me, Miss Sturgis!”

The man’s sudden nearness brought Jeannette up rigidly in her seat. Her
eyes blazed a moment, but there was something in this person’s manner
and in the ingratiating quality of his smile that made her hesitate.
Her first thought had been to call the porter or one of the men
outside, and have him summarily put out. Instead she said in her most
frigid tone:

“Really, Mr. Devlin, you presume too far. You see that I am busy and
I’ve told you that Mr. Corey is not in.”

“Well that’s all right, but what do you want me to tell Miss Alexander?
She’ll be wanting to know if I delivered her message.”

“Miss Alexander, as I remember her, is a very lovely girl. You can
tell her that I’ve not forgotten her, and that I am sorry that ... that
in her office there are not more mannerly gentlemen.”

Devlin threw back his head and roared. His laugh was extraordinary.

“Say, Miss Sturgis,” he began, “please don’t be sore at me. I didn’t
know I’d find a girl like you in here. Miss Alexander said you were
awfully nice and I thought maybe you’d be doing me a favor one of these
days. I took a chance on getting in to see you the way I did. Don’t
blame the kid.”

“What kid?”

“The office boy. I slipped him a quarter and told him to tell you I was
an old friend of yours and wanted to give you a surprise.”

“Upon my word!”

“Well, you see,--we’ve all got to make our living; you, me and the
office boy.”

“There are ways of doing it,” said Jeannette acidly.

“I think they’re all legitimate.”

“What,--bribing office boys?”

“Well, I didn’t bribe him exactly. I deceived him.” He laughed again.
He was Irish, the girl noted, and presumably considered he had a great
deal of Irish charm.

“At any rate, I got in to see you.”

“Much good it’s done you.”

“I have hopes for the future.”

“I wouldn’t cherish them.”

“Ah, well now, Miss Sturgis, don’t be cruel!”

“I’m not in the least interested.”

“Won’t you tell me who’s doing Corey’s engraving?”

“I will not.”

“I can find out easily enough, and I think I can interest him.”

“I think you can’t.”

“Won’t you make an appointment for me to see him?”

“Certainly not!”

“There’s other ways I can meet him.”

“You’re at liberty to find them.”

“Aw ... you’re awfully mean. Why don’t you give a fellow a chance for
his living?”

“You don’t deserve it.”

“Because I gave the boy a quarter to show me which was your office?”

“Yes, and because you’re so ... so....”

“Fresh,--go on; you were going to say it!”

“Evidently you are aware of it.”

“A fellow hasn’t a chance to think anything else.”

“Well,--you’ll have to excuse me. I’m really very busy.”

“Can I come again when you’ve a little more time to spare?”

“I am always busy.”

“Can I ’phone?”

“I can’t bother with ’phone messages.”

Mr. Devlin for a moment was routed.

“Oh, _gosh_!” he said in disgust.

Jeannette was not to be won. She nodded to him, and began to type
briskly, the keys of her machine humming. The man stood uncertainly a
moment more, shifting from one foot to the other; then he swung himself
disconsolately toward the door, and closed it slowly after him. Almost
immediately he opened it again and thrust in his head.

“I’m coming back again,--just the same!” he bawled. Jeannette did not
look around, and the door clicked shut.


§ 2

The next time he called she was taking dictation from Mr. Corey and
was unaware he had come. When she finished with her employer, and
picked up the sheaf of letters he had given her, she passed through the
connecting door between the two offices, and found Devlin waiting in
her room.

“_Really!_” She stopped short and frowned in quick annoyance.

“Well, here I am again!” he said blandly.

“And here’s where you go out!” She walked towards the door that led to
the outer office and flung it open.

Devlin’s face altered, and a slow color began to mount his dark cheeks.

“Aw--say----” he said in hurt tones. The smile was gone; for the moment
his face was as serious as her own.

Jeannette did not move. Devlin picked up his hat and gloves.

“My God!” he exclaimed fervently, “you’re hard as nails!”

As he went out she suddenly felt sorry for him.

But that was not the last of him. His card appeared the next afternoon.
Mr. Corey was again away from the office.

“I’m not in to this person,” she said to Jimmy, “and if he bribes you
to show him in here, I’ll go straight to Mr. Kipps and have you fired.”

The next day he telephoned. She hung up the receiver, and told the girl
at the switch-board to find out who wanted her before she put through
any more calls. The day following brought a letter from him, but as
soon as she discovered his signature, she tore it up and threw it in
the waste-paper basket. Two minutes later, she carefully recovered its
ragged squares and pieced them together.

“My dear Miss Sturgis,” it read, “you must overlook my boorish methods.
I’ll not bother you again, but I beg you will not hold it against me,
if I try to make your acquaintance in some more acceptable manner.
Yours with good wishes, Martin Devlin.”

He wrote a vigorous hand,--strong, distinct, individual.

Jeannette considered the letter a moment, then uttered a contemptuous
“Puh!” scooped the fragments into her palm, and returned them to the
receptacle for trash.


§ 3

Toward the end of the week, she had a telephone call from Beatrice
Alexander. She had not seen the girl for nearly four years but
remembered how exceptionally kind she had been to her that first day
she went to work, and thought it would be pleasant to meet her again,
and talk over old times. They arranged to have luncheon together.

They met at the Hotel St. Denis. Jeannette always went there whenever
there was sufficient excuse; she loved the atmosphere of the old
place. Her luncheon was invariably the same: hot chocolate with whipped
cream, and a club sandwich. It cost just fifty cents.

Beatrice Alexander had changed but little during the years Jeannette
had not seen her, except that now she wore glasses. A little gold chain
dangled from the tip of one lens, and hooked itself by means of a gold
loop, over an ear. It made her look schoolmarmy, but she had the same
sweet face, the same soft dovelike eyes, and the whispering voice.

“And you _never_ married Mr. Beardsley,” she commented. “I heard you
were engaged and he certainly was awfully in love with you.”

Jeannette explained about her sister, and how happy the two were in
their little Bronx flat. Her companion exclaimed about the baby.

She had had two or three places since the old publishing house
suspended its selling campaign of the History. She had been in the
business office of the Fifth Avenue Hotel Company until it closed its
doors. Now The Gibbs Engraving Company employed her; she’d been there
about a year, and liked it all right, but the constant smell of the
strong acids made her a little sick sometimes. She and Jeannette fell
presently to discussing Martin Devlin.

“Oh, he’s all right,” Beatrice Alexander said. “He came there about the
same time I did. He’s an awful flirt, I guess, and he gets round a good
deal. I don’t know much about him, except that he’s always pleasant and
agreeable, never, anything but terribly nice to me. Everybody likes
him. He’s one of our best solicitors. I heard from one of the men in
your composing room, who’s a kind of cousin of mine, that you were
with the Corey Company and were Mr. Corey’s private secretary, and one
day I happened to hear Mr. Devlin talking to Mr. Gibbs,--Mr. Gibbs and
his brother own The Gibbs Engraving Company,--and he said something
about how he wished he could land your account but he didn’t know a
soul he could approach. And then I mentioned I knew you. That was all
there was to it, only he said you treated him something awful.”

Jeannette rehearsed the interview.

“He struck me as a very fresh young man,” she concluded.

“Oh, Mr. Devlin’s all right,” Beatrice Alexander said again. “He
doesn’t mean any harm. He’s Irish, you know,--he was born here and all
that,--and he just wants to be friendly with everyone. I suppose he was
kind of hurt because you were so short with him.”

“I most certainly was,” Jeannette said, grimly.

“Well, he’s been begging and begging me to call you up. He wanted to
take us both out to lunch, but I wouldn’t agree to that. I told him I’d
see you about it first.”

“I wouldn’t consider it,” Jeannette said, indignantly. “The idea!
What’s the matter with him?”

“I imagine,” Beatrice Alexander said shyly, “he likes your style.”

“Well, I don’t like _his_! ... The impertinence!”

They finished their lunch and wandered into Broadway. It was Easter
week, and the chimes of Grace Church were ringing out a hymn.

“Let’s not lose touch with each other again,” said Beatrice Alexander
at parting. “I’ll ’phone you soon, and next time you’ll have to have
luncheon with _me_. I always go to Wanamaker’s; they have such lovely
music up there, and the food’s splendid.”


§ 4

Jeannette had forgotten Mr. Devlin’s existence until one day as she was
typing busily at her desk she suddenly recognized his loud, infectious
and unmistakable laugh in the adjoining office. Mr. Corey had come in
from lunch some ten minutes before, and had brought a man with him. She
had heard their feet, their voices, and the clap of the closing door
as they entered. Now the laugh startled her. She paused, her fingers
suspended above the keys of her typewriter, and listened. It was Mr.
Devlin; there was no mistaking him. She twisted her lips in a wry
smile. He and Mr. Corey were evidently getting on.

She knew she would be called. When the buzzer summoned her, she
picked up her note-book and pencils, straightened her shoulders in
characteristic fashion, and went in.

Devlin rose to his feet as she entered, but she did not glance at him.
Her attention was Mr. Corey’s.

“How do you do? How’s Miss Sturgis?” Devlin was all good-natured
friendliness, showing his big teeth as he grinned at her.

She turned her eyes toward him gravely, gazed at him with calm
deliberation, and briefly inclined her head.

“Oh, you two know each other? Friends, hey?” asked Mr. Corey, looking
up.

“Well, we’re trying to be,” laughed Devlin.

Jeannette made no comment. She gazed expectantly at her chief.

“The Gibbs Engraving Company,” said Mr. Corey in his brusque
businesslike voice, “wants to do our engraving. I’m going to give them
a three months’ trial. I’d like to have you take a memorandum of what
they’ve quoted us. Mr. Gibbs is to confirm this by letter. Now you
said five cents per square inch on line cuts with a minimum of fifty
cents....”

Jeannette scribbled down the figures.

“Three-color work a dollar a square inch,” supplied Devlin.

“Oh, I thought you said you’d give us a flat rate on our color work.”

“On the magazine covers, yes, but I can’t do that on general color
work.”

“Well, that’s all right.” The discussion continued. Presently the girl
had all the details.

“Give me a memorandum of that,” Corey said, “and send a carbon to Mr.
Kipps.” He turned to the young man. “We’ll talk it over, and let you
know just as soon as we hear from you.” Devlin rose. The men shook
hands as Jeannette passed into her own room. She heard them saying
good-bye. Their voices continued murmuring, but she did not listen.
Suddenly Mr. Corey opened her door.

“Mr. Devlin wants to speak to you a minute, Miss Sturgis.” He nodded to
his companion, said “Well, good-bye; hope we can get together on this,”
and shook hands once more, and left Devlin confronting her.

“Please let me say just one word,” he said quickly. “I met Mr. Corey
at the Quoin Club the other day and made a date for lunch. I’m after
his business all right, and think I’ve got it cinched. I don’t want
you to continue to be sore at me, if my outfit and yours are going to
do business together. I’m sorry if I got off on the wrong foot. Please
accept my apology and let’s be friends.”

“I don’t think there is any occasion----” began Jeannette icily.

“Aw shucks!” he said interrupting her, “I’m doing the best I can to
square myself. I didn’t mean to annoy you. I didn’t care at first what
you thought of me as long as I got in to see Mr. Corey. I confess I
thought maybe I could jolly you into arranging a date for me to see
him. No,--wait a minute,” he urged as the girl frowned, “hear me out.
You see I’m being honest about it. I’m telling you frankly what I
thought at first, but that was before I even saw you. I had no idea you
were the kind of girl you are. It isn’t usual to find a person like you
in an office. Oh, you think I’m jollying you! I swear I’m not. I just
want to ask you to forgive me if I offended you, and be friends.”

There was something unusually ingratiating about this man. Jeannette
hesitated, and Devlin continued. He pleaded very earnestly; it was
impossible not to believe his sincerity.

Jeannette shrugged her shoulders when he paused for a moment. Her hands
were automatically arranging the articles on her desk.

“Well,” she conceded slowly, “what do you want?”

“For you to say you’ll forgive a blundering Irish boobie, and shake
hands with him.”

He wrung a dry smile from her at that. She held out her hand.

“Oh, very well. It’s easier to be friends with you than have you here
interfering with my getting at my work.”

“That’s fine, now.” He held her fingers a moment, his whole face
beaming. “You’ve a kind heart, Miss Sturgis, and I sha’n’t forget it.”

He took himself away with a radiant smile upon his face.


§ 5

It was evident Martin Devlin proposed to be a factor in her life.
When he came to the office to see Mr. Kipps or Miss Holland about the
engraving,--and the work brought him, or he pretended it brought him,
two or three times a week--he never failed to step to Jeannette’s door,
open it, and give her the benefit of his flashing teeth and handsome
eyes as he wished her good-day or asked her how she was. He did not
intrude further. His visits were only for a minute or two. Only once
when she was looking for a letter in the filing cabinet, he came in and
lingered for a chat. He saw she was not typing, therefore ready to talk
to him since he was not interrupting her. When she went to lunch with
Beatrice Alexander a week or two later at Wanamaker’s he joined the two
girls by the elevators as they were leaving the lunch-room, pretending,
Jeannette noticed, with a great air of surprise, that the meeting was
merely a fortuitous circumstance. The subway had a few days before
begun to operate. Jeannette had never ridden upon it, so Martin piloted
her down the stone steps, boarded the train, and rode with her until
they reached Thirty-fourth Street. Beatrice Alexander had said good-bye
as they left Wanamaker’s.

Devlin had a confident, self-assured way with him. It could not be said
he swaggered, but the word suggested him. He was easy, good-natured,
laughing, cajoling, irresistibly merry. His good humor was contagious.
Men smiled back at him; women looked at him twice. To the subway
guard, to the sour-faced little Jew at the newsstand, to the burly
cop with whom they collided as they climbed the stairs to the street,
he was familiar, patronizing, jocular. He called the Italian subway
guard “Garibaldi,” the Jewish newsdealer “Isaac,” the burly policeman
“Sergeant.” One glance at him and each was won; it was impossible to
resent his familiarity. Everybody liked him; he could say the most
outrageous things and give no offense. It was that Irish charm of his,
Jeannette decided, back once more at her desk and clicking away at her
machine, that made people so lenient with him.

She began to speculate about him a good deal. It was clear he was in
hot pursuit of her, and that he intended to give her no peace. He
commenced to bring little boxes of candy which he slid on to her desk
with a long arm when he opened her office door to say “Hello!” Then
flowers put in their appearance: sweet bunches of violets, swathed
in oiled paper, their stems wrapped in purple tinfoil, the fragrant
ball glistening with brilliant drops of water; there were bunches of
baby roses, too, and lilies-of-the-valley, and daffodils. One day she
happened to mention she had never read “The Taming of the Shrew,” and
the following morning there was delivered at her home a complete
set of the Temple edition of Shakespeare’s plays. She protested, she
threatened to throw the flowers out of the window, she begged him with
her most earnest smile not to send her anything more. She was talking
into deaf ears. The very next day she found on her desk two seats for
a Saturday matinée with a note scribbled on the envelope: “For you and
your mother next Saturday. Have a good time and think of Martin.”

In deep distress she told her mother about him, but Mrs. Sturgis shared
none of her concern.

“Well, perhaps the young man is trying to be friends with you in the
only way he knows how. I wouldn’t be too hasty with him, dearie. You
say he’s with an engraving company? Is that a good line of work? Does
he seem well-off,--plenty of money and all that?”

“Oh, _Mama_!” cried Jeannette, in mild annoyance.

“There’s no harm, my dear, in a nice rich young fellow admiring a
pretty girl like my daughter. If the young man’s well brought up and
means what’s perfectly right and proper, I don’t see what you can
object to. You’ve got to marry one of these days, lovie; you must
remember that. There isn’t any sense in tying yourself down to a desk
for the rest of your life! You’ve _got_ to think about a husband!”

“Well, I don’t want _him_!”

“Perhaps not. I’m not saying anything about him. But there’s plenty of
nice young men in the world, and you mustn’t shut your eyes to them. A
girl should marry and have a home of her own; that’s what God intended.
Doctor Fitzgibbons was saying exactly that same thing to me only
yesterday. Now this Mr. Devlin,--it’s an Irish name, isn’t it?----”

“Oh, hush,--for goodness’ sakes, Mama! Don’t let’s talk any more about
him.... What did Alice have to say to-day?”

“She’s really gaining very rapidly now,” Mrs. Sturgis said instantly
diverted. “She says she’s going to let that woman go. She comes every
day and does all the dishes and cleans up and it only costs Alice three
dollars a week.”

“Why, she’s crazy,” cried Jeannette. “She isn’t half strong enough to
do her own work, yet. You tell her I’ll pay the three dollars till
she’s all right again. I can’t imagine what Roy Beardsley’s thinking
about!”


§ 6

Martin Devlin begged her to allow him to take her mother and herself to
dinner, and “perhaps we’ll have time to drop in at a show afterwards,”
he added. Jeannette declined. She had no wish to become on more
intimate terms with him, but he would not take “No” for an answer. He
persisted; she grew angry; he persisted just the same. She considered
going to Mr. Corey and informing him that this representative of The
Gibbs Engraving Company was annoying her, and yet it hardly seemed the
thing to do. She spoke of it again to her mother, and Mrs. Sturgis
at once was in a flutter of excitement at the prospect of a dinner
downtown.

“But why not, dearie?” she argued. “I could wear my lavender velvet,
and you’ve got your new taffeta.... I’d like to meet the young man.”

After all there were thousands of girls, reflected Jeannette, who were
accepting anything and everything from men, wheedling gifts out of
them, sometimes even taking their money. Her mother would get much
pleasure out of the event.

When Devlin urged his invitation again, she drew a long breath, and
consented. There seemed no reason why she should not accept; there was
nothing wrong with him; she liked him; he was agreeable and devoted;
her mother would be delighted.

He called for them on the night of the party in a taxi. It was an
unexpected luxury. He won Mrs. Sturgis at once. Why, he was perfectly
charming, a delightful young man! What in the world was Jeannette
thinking about? She laughed violently at everything he said, rocking
back and forth on the hard leather seat in the stuffy interior of the
cab, convulsed with mirth, her round little cheeks shaking. He was the
most comical young man she’d ever known!

The taxi took them to a brilliant restaurant, gay with lights, music
and hilarity. Jeannette’s blue, high-necked taffeta and her mother’s
lavender velvet were sober costumes amidst the vivid apparel and
low-cut toilettes of the women. But the girl was aware that no matter
what her dress might be, she, herself, was beautiful. She saw the
turning heads, and the eyes that trailed her as the little group
followed the head-waiter to their table. The table had been reserved,
the dinner ordered. Cocktails appeared, and she sipped the first she
had ever tasted. Her mother was in gay spirits, and preened herself
in these surroundings like a bird. Devlin seemed to know how to do
everything. He was startlingly handsome in his evening clothes; the
white expanse of shirt was immaculate; there were two tiny gold studs
in front, and a black bow tie tied very snugly at the opening of his
collar. It was no more than conventional semi-formal evening dress,
and yet somehow it impressed Jeannette as magnificent. She had never
noticed how becoming the costume was to a man before. She realized,
as she glanced at him, he was the first young man she had ever known,
who had taken her out in the evening and worn evening dress. Roy had
been too poor; the tuxedo he had had at college was shabby; she had
never seen him wear it. She studied Devlin now critically. His hair was
coal black, coarse, a trifle wavy; he wet it, when he combed it, and
it caught a high light now and then. His eyebrows were heavy and bushy
like his hair, the eyes, themselves, deep-set but alive with twinkles
and laughter. They were expressive eyes, she thought, capable of
subtlest meanings. His nose was straight, his mouth large and red, and
his big even teeth glistened between the vivid lips with the glitter of
fine wet porcelain. He had an oval-shaped face and a vigorous pointed
chin. His skin was unblemished, but the jaw, chin, and cheeks were dark
blue from his close-shaven beard. It was his expression, she decided,
more than the regularity of his features, that made him so handsome. In
his evening dress he was extraordinarily good-looking. She judged him
to be twenty-six or seven.

The dinner progressed smoothly. Devlin had evidently taken pains in
ordering it, and he gave a pleased smile when Mrs. Sturgis waxed
enthusiastic over some particular feature, and Jeannette echoed her
praise. There was, as a matter of fact, nothing spectacular about
it: oysters, chicken _sauté sec_,--a specialty of the restaurant,--a
vegetable or two, salad with a red sauce--Mrs. Sturgis thought it
most curious and pronounced it delicious--an ice. To his guests, it
seemed the most wonderful dinner they had ever eaten. The girl was
impressed; her mother flatteringly excited.

“It’s all so _good_!” Mrs. Sturgis kept repeating as if she had made a
surprising discovery.

Devlin called for the check, glanced at it, dropped a large bill on
the silver tray, and when the change was brought, amounting to two
dollars and some cents,--as both Jeannette and her mother noted,--waved
it away to the waiter with a negligent gesture. It was lordly; it was
magnificent!

Jeannette loved such ways of doing things, she loved the lights and
music, the excellent food, the deferential service, the gorgeous
restaurant, the beautifully gowned women. She would like to own one
rich and sumptuous evening dress like theirs, and to be able to wear it
to such a magnificent place as this, and queen it over them all. She
knew she could do it; she could dazzle the entire room.

Devlin guided his guests through the revolving glass doors to the
street, the taxi-cab starter blew his whistle shrilly, a car rolled up,
the door was held open for them to enter, and banged shut. The starter
in his gold-braided uniform and shining brass buttons, touched his
cap respectfully, and the taxi rolled out into the traffic. Jeannette
thrilled to the luxuriousness and extravagance of it all.

It was the same at the theatre. They had aisle seats in the sixth row;
the musical comedy was delightful, spectacular, magnificent, in tune
with everything else that evening. After the theatre, their escort
insisted upon their going to a brilliant café where the music was
glorious, and where Jeannette and her mother sipped ginger-ale and
Devlin drank beer. Mrs. Sturgis commented half-a-dozen times upon the
peel of a lemon, deftly cut into cork-screw shape, and twisted into
her glass, which gave the ginger-ale quite a delightful flavor. It was
Devlin’s idea; she had heard him suggest it to the waiter. He was a
very remarkable young man,--very!

They were swept home in another taxi-cab, and he refused to let them
thank him for the glorious evening. He hinted he would like to call,
and perhaps be asked to dinner. But of course, that was not to be
thought of! A grand person like him coming to one of their simple
little meals, with Mrs. Sturgis or Jeannette jumping up to wait on the
table? That would be perfectly ridiculous! But he might call some time,
or perhaps go with them to a Sunday concert. He would be delighted, of
course. He held his hat high above his head as he said good-night, and
stood at the foot of the steps until they were safely inside.

It had been a memorable evening; they really had had a most wonderful
time; Mr. Devlin certainly knew how to do things! Mrs. Sturgis,
carefully pinning a sheet about her lavender velvet preparatory to
hanging it in the closet, began planning how they could entertain him.

“Is he fond of music, do you know, dearie? I think we could get seats
for some Sunday afternoon concert, and then bring him home to tea. It
would be much better to ask him here than to go to any of those little
tea-places; we could get some crumpets and toast them ourselves, and
might buy a few little French pastries. You could see he was dying to
be asked.”

Jeannette felt vaguely irritated.

“Oh, let’s not rush him, Mama.”

“Rush him? Who’s talking of rushing him, I’d like to know? The young
man is a very delightful, presentable gentleman, and he’s evidently
taken a great fancy to you, and he’s even been nice to your poor old
mother. I declare, Janny, I can’t sometimes make you out! I just
was proposing we extend him a little hospitality in return for his
extremely lavish entertainment. He’s been most kind and considerate,
and the least we can do....”

Jeannette’s mind wandered. It certainly would be wonderful, went her
roving thoughts, to have money, and dress gorgeously, and go about
to such magnificent restaurants, and then taxi off to the theatre,
whenever one wanted to! It would be wonderful, too, to have somebody
strong and resourceful always looking out for one’s comfort and
enjoyment, paying all the bills, never bothering one about money,
consulting and gratifying one’s slightest whim!

She went to sleep in a haze of golden imaginings. Her mother’s voice in
the next room planning various schemes, commenting upon Mr. Devlin’s
attractiveness, grew fainter and fainter, and finally dwindled silent.


§ 7

But the next morning Jeannette vigorously attacked the subject. There
had been nothing extraordinary about the past evening. A man in
conventional evening dress had taken her mother and herself to dine in
a restaurant, and afterwards had driven them in a taxi to the theatre.
What was there so remarkable in that? It was being done all the time;
the restaurants were packed full of such parties night after night. It
had merely _seemed_ wonderful to a girl and her mother unused to such
entertainment.

Jeannette kept reminding herself of this throughout the ensuing day.
She did not propose to have her head turned, as her mother’s evidently
was, by a little splurge of money. She was not in love with Martin
Devlin, she did not care a snap of her finger for him, she would not
marry him if he had a million! There was no sense in letting him think
she would even consider such an idea. She couldn’t help it, if he was
in love with her. She had done nothing to encourage him, and she didn’t
propose to begin. No, the whole thing had better come to an end; it
had gone quite far enough; she’d have to call off any silly plans her
mother might be making.... What! Marry Martin Devlin and give up her
job? _Never in the world!_

But Jeannette found she was dealing with a personality very different
from that of Roy Beardsley. Mr. Devlin had one idea, one object:
the idea was Jeannette, the object matrimony. He besieged her with
attentions, he gave her no peace, he hounded her footsteps. Mrs.
Sturgis threw herself whole-heartedly upon his side. She was deaf to
her daughter’s remonstrances; she refused to be discourteous, as she
described it, to a young man so attentive and considerate. Mother and
daughter actually quarrelled about the matter, refused to speak to
each other for a whole day, made up with tears and kisses, but this in
no jot altered Mrs. Sturgis’ purpose of being Mr. Devlin’s friend and
advocate.

Jeannette was not to be shaken. She did not desire Mr. Devlin, she did
not want to marry anyone, she had no intention of abandoning her work.

“You _got_ to marry me, Jeannette,” this purposeful young man said to
her one day.

“Never,” said Jeannette resolutely.

“Oh, yes, you will,” he told her with equal confidence.

“Well, we’ll see about that. I don’t care for you; I wouldn’t marry you
if I did; you are only annoying me with your attentions. I would really
like you much better if you’d leave me alone.”

The very evening this conversation took place she found a beautiful
little scarab pin waiting for her when she got home. She mailed it
back to him at The Gibbs Engraving Company. The next day came perfume,
and a day or two later a large roll of new magazines; he sent her
candy, flowers, theatre tickets. She gave the candy away, threw the
flowers out of the window, tore up the theatre tickets and sent the
torn paste-boards back to him in a letter in which she told him further
gifts would only anger her. They kept on coming with undiminished
regularity. She wept; her mother scolded her; Devlin called. There was
no evading him; he was everywhere.

One day, he grabbed her, took her in his arms, beat down her
resistance, strained her to him, and kissed her savagely, hungrily on
the mouth. In that instant she capitulated; something broke within her;
an overwhelming force rose like a great tide, welled up over her head
and submerged her. She wilted in his embrace, succumbed like a crushed
lily and longed for him to trample on her.

Love, glorious, intoxicating, passionate, had sprung to life
in her. She resented it; she was helpless against it. She
fought--fought--fought to no purpose. It rode her, rowelled her,
harried her. Martin Devlin had conquered her heart, but her will was
another matter.


§ 8

Jeannette became miserably unhappy. She imagined she had experienced
all love’s emotions when Roy Beardsley possessed her thoughts. She
laughed now when she thought of them. She had been little more than a
school girl then, with a school girl’s capacity for love,--a maiden’s
love, virginal, immature. It was not to be compared with this flame
that seethed within her now. Oh, God! Her love for Martin Devlin was
an agony! For the first time in her life she knew the full meaning
of fear. She feared this man with a fear like terror. Ruthlessly he
obtruded himself into her life, ruthlessly he assaulted the securest
fastnesses of it, ruthlessly, she dreaded, he would strike them down
and subdue her will as easily as he had won her love. He was in her
thoughts all day and all night; she trembled when he was near her; it
was torment when they were apart. Again and again, she returned to
her determination to put him out of her life; he would only cause her
trouble; there was only unhappiness in store for them both. It was
useless. Neither her thoughts nor Devlin had any mercy upon her. She
knew at last what love, real love, was like; it was a raging fire,
white-hot, scorifying, consuming.

His lips never again found hers after that first terrible moment of
weakness. Sometimes he caught her to him and strained her in his
arms, but her cheek or hair or neck received his eager kiss. She
resisted these embraces with all her strength, struggled in his grasp.
She was mortally afraid of him; mortally afraid of herself. Desire
throbbed in all her veins. She clung desperately to the last redoubt
in her defenses behind which every instinct told her safety lay. She
would allow him no avenue of approach; she would tolerate no moment’s
weakness in her fortitude.

“Janny, you love me, and, by God, I love you. You’re the finest woman
I’ve ever known, Janny. When are you going to marry me?” Martin had his
arms about her, but both her hands were pressed against his breast.
He seemed so big and powerful as he stood holding her; she knew his
clean shaven chin was rough with his beard, firm and cold; he smelled
fragrantly of cigars.

Ah, love! That was one thing,--she had no control over her heart,--but
marriage was another. That was very different indeed.

“Martin dear,--I _do_ love you,--I’m proud I love you. But I don’t want
to get married!”

“Why not?”

Jeannette sighed wearily.

“I don’t suppose I can ever make you understand. I like to live my
own life; I like to come and go as I please; I like to have the money
I earn myself to spend the way I like. And besides that, I love my
work, I love being at the office. I’ve been part of this business now
for three years; I’ve helped to build it up, I know every detail; it
belongs to me in a way. Does that sound unreasonable to you?”

“No, not unreasonable exactly. But I don’t think you see it right;
you attach too much importance to it. You’ll be just as free and
independent as my wife as you are now.”

Would she? She wondered. It was of that, that she had her gravest
misgivings.

“And then there’s Mr. Corey. I wouldn’t feel right about leaving him;
he depends on me so much.”

“Well, for God’s sake!” exclaimed Martin. “Do you mean to tell me you
would let _that_ stand in the way?”

“It’s a consideration,” said Jeannette honestly. Martin’s face settled
grimly.

“And then there’s Mama,” went on the girl. “She’s so happy now, living
with me. She doesn’t have to work so hard any more, and she goes to
concerts and visits Alice and does as she pleases. You see, if I
married, that would have to come to an end. I don’t know what she would
do.”

“Why, she could do a lot of things,” argued Martin. “She might go and
live with your sister, for instance, or come with us; she could divide
her time between the two of you.”

“Alice would love to have her,” admitted Jeannette. “Mama’s crazy about
Etta, and of course it would make it easier for Allie. But I don’t
think Mama would consent to live with either of her children.”

“I’ve always been a fan for your ma,” said Martin, “and that just shows
how dead sensible she is. Your sister’s husband and I could each send
her twenty-five dollars a month, and she could find some place to board
easily for that.”

“Roy hasn’t got any twenty-five dollars.”

“We can fix up some arrangement that will be satisfactory all ’round.”

“Mama would never consent to give up her teaching. It really means too
much to her.”

“Well, there you are! You haven’t got a real reason on earth for not
marrying me to-morrow.”

But Jeannette felt she had, though she could find no one to agree with
her.

“You’re just playing with your happiness, dearie,” her mother said to
her. “Martin Devlin’s a fine young man. You could go a long way before
you’d find a better husband. I want to see my dearie-girl in a little
home of her own like her sister’s.”

“Oh, Janny,” said Alice, “you don’t know what fun, being married is!
Why, after you’ve become a wife, you feel differently about the whole
world. Why, I’d marry _anybody_ rather than not be married at all! ...
And then, Janny, you haven’t got the faintest idea how sweet it is to
have a baby of your own. Etta is just the joy of our lives. You ought
to see Roy playing with her when he comes home from the office and I am
getting her bath ready!”

Jeannette studied her sister’s radiant face curiously. There was a
mystery here; something she did not understand. This was the girl who
had borne her child in agony, who had endured nearly fifteen hours of
labor, who had been torn and ripped, and had lain helpless on her back
for six long months, fighting her way back to strength and normality,
despairing and weakly crying! Yet here she was talking of the joy of
having a baby, urging her sister to a like experience!

It was puzzling. How soon mothers forgot! Six months of helplessness
already unremembered! It had not passed from Jeannette’s recollection.
It had been terrible--terrible! ... And yet she would like to have a
baby of her own,--a baby without that fearful ordeal,--a little Martin
Devlin. She kissed Etta on the back of her wrinkled fat neck where it
was sweetly perspiry and fuzzy with the lint from her blankets.


§ 9

Jeannette was equally sure of two things: she loved Martin with all her
soul; she would never consent to give up her position with Mr. Corey
and marry him. Martin, her mother, Alice, even Mr. Corey, who soon
learned of the situation, could not persuade her.

Corey had a long talk with her about the matter.

“I don’t know very much about your young man; Gibbs speaks well of him.
He tells me he’s been with them a little more than a year, and is their
star salesman. I think he has more possibilities in him than that. Of
course you never can tell. I confess I was impressed when I first met
him. Somebody at the Quoin Club had him there as a guest and introduced
us, and he talked good business from the start. I don’t think much of
Gibbs’ engraving, but that’s no reflection on Devlin. Personally I
think you ought to marry. I advised you the same way before. Perhaps
you were right in not being too hasty in that instance. I can’t know,
of course, whether you’re seriously interested or not. Your heart has
got to tell you that. If you love Devlin well enough and think you’ll
be happy with him, you ought to marry him. I hate to see you wasting
your life down here in this office. You’re deserving a better chance.
Business is no place for a girl. You ought to be building a home and
rearing children of your own. If you make as good a wife as you have a
secretary,” he ended with a smile, “your husband will have no occasion
to find fault with you.”

But she could not bring herself to give up her independence. That was
what stuck in her throat. She came back to it repeatedly. A little
apartment like Alice’s to share with Martin, to fix and furnish,--it
appealed to her imagination, it had its attractions,--but it would be
such a leap in the dark! She was so sure of her happiness living the
way she was--why alter it? Yet was there any happiness for her without
Martin? She tried to picture it, and her heart misgave her.

Some of the glamor that surrounded him at first had now disappeared.
He no longer seemed a scion of wealth, a prince, a lordling, to
whistle menials to his beck and call, and to swagger his way in and
out of restaurants, leaving a trail of scattered largess in his wake.
Familiarity had stripped him of the cloak of splendor with which he
first had dazzled her. She liked him all the better without it, for it
had only been bluff with him, his way of trying to impress her. She
knew him now for an ever merry soul, an amused and amusing companion,
possessing rare thoughtfulness, a little vain, a little opinionated,
vigorous, direct, domineering, who could, if he so desired, charm an
angel Gabriel to softness. He had his faults; she thought she knew them
all. He was happy-go-lucky, had small regard for time, appointments,
or others’ feelings; he was extravagant in all his tastes; and loved
pleasure inordinately. But there was a charm about him that made up
to her a thousandfold for these trifling short-comings. He was the
handsomest of men, generous and invariably kind-hearted, he could win a
smile from an image, or accomplish the impossible, once his mind was
made up.

It was a satisfaction to learn that he earned only fifty dollars a
week. She had thought him a millionaire at first. He threw money about
with a prodigality that distressed her. His theatre tickets, his gifts,
his unceasing attentions cost money,--a great deal of money. She
knew his salary did not warrant it. She was glad he got but fifty a
week,--only fifteen more than she did, herself. Roy was getting forty.
Martin seemed more human to her after she knew the size of his salary;
he was more comprehensible.

And here, once more, was confronting her the matter of finances were
she to marry. She and her mother together enjoyed an income that was
never less than two hundred dollars a month. She contributed eighty, as
her share towards rent and food, and had still sixty dollars a month
left to spend as she chose, for clothes, for a gift to Alice, or for
delightful adventures with her mother, lunches and theatres on Saturday
afternoons, and the little surprises that were so delightful. Would she
have anything like as much out of the two hundred dollars Martin earned
if she married him? What part of his weekly pay envelope was he likely
to give her to run their house, and to spend on herself?

It was only fair, since he pressed his suit so vigorously, that this
all-important matter should be brought up and discussed. She did not
consider herself mercenary. The question of the wife’s allowance in
marriage seemed a vital one to her. She had tasted independence, and
did not consider she should be expected to relinquish it in marriage.
Alice and Roy got along in amiable fashion on this point. Roy kept
five dollars a week for himself and gave his wife the rest of his
pay envelope. Sometimes toward the end of the week he would ask her
for fifty cents or a dollar to tide him over until Saturday. That
arrangement seemed to Jeannette eminently fair. Roy gave all he could
be reasonably expected to, she thought; five dollars a week was about
as little as he could get along on for carfare, lunches and tobacco.
Of course, his clothing and the pleasures he and his wife shared, came
out of what Alice was able to save from week to week,--and she did
manage to save a little. But, as Jeannette had often remarked, Alice
was different from her. She, Jeannette, had won for herself an economic
value to be measured in dollars and cents, and it was not fair to
expect her to forego this for a hazy, uncertain condition in which her
wishes and wants were only to be gratified at her husband’s whim. It
was better to have a frank discussion and settle the matter.

Martin shouted a delighted laugh when she expounded this thought.

“Why, my darling,” he said, “don’t bother your head about it. You can
have every cent I make and if that isn’t enough, I’ll go out and steal
for you.”

“But seriously, Martin, what do you think a wife should have out of her
husband’s income? Now, I’m not saying I’ll marry you----”

“You darling!”

“No--no,--be sensible, Martin. I want to thresh this out. If I _should_
consent to marry you, what would you think would be a fair proportion
of what you earn that I could count on as my own?”

“What would you be wanting money for?” Martin asked, amused by her
earnestness.

“What would I be wanting money for?” she repeated. “Why, what do you
think? ... For clothes, for pleasures, to throw away if I liked!”

“Aw, hear her!” he laughed. “Why, my darling, I’ll buy you your clothes
and everything your little heart desires if only you’ll say ‘yes’ to
me.”

“Martin, I’ll never say ‘yes’ until this is settled,” she said
spiritedly, her eyes with a queer light in them.

Martin was serious for a moment.

“Sweet woman,” he said earnestly, “you can have it all. Divide it any
way you like. I don’t care in the least. There’s plenty for the two of
us.”

But Jeannette would consider nothing so indefinite. She did not want
a great deal, but she wanted to feel sure of something that would be
regarded as entirely her own. With difficulty she persuaded him to
talk about the matter in earnest. They agreed that if his salary were
equally divided, and Jeannette paid all the table expenses out of her
half while he paid the rent and everything else out of his, that would
be an equitable arrangement. That satisfied Jeannette; it gave her
something to think about when she considered marrying him.

But even with this much settled, she was no nearer making up her
mind than she had ever been. Marriage meant giving up the office,
the close affiliations she had formed there. Propinquity had made
her fellow-workers her friends; she knew them all intimately, knew
something of their private lives, rejoiced or sorrowed with them at the
inevitable changes of fortune. When an eminent surgeon from Germany
performed a miraculous operation on Mr. Featherstone’s little son and
gave him the use of his legs on which he had never walked, she shared
his father’s joy; when Mr. Cavendish married a charming Vassar girl who
was the daughter of a wealthy Wall Street banker, she congratulated
him with a real pleasure; when Miss Holland’s seventeen-year-old
nephew secured an appointment at Annapolis and successfully passed
the entrance examination, she took keen satisfaction in her friend’s
delight. She was shocked and saddened when Sandy MacGregor’s wife died,
and when Mr. Allister was taken ill with pneumonia no one inquired more
frequently about him while he struggled desperately to live, or felt
more pleasure when it was announced he had turned the corner and would
before long be back again at his desk. She was glad when Francis Holme,
Walt Chase and Sandy MacGregor each received a substantial gift of
the company’s common stock at Christmas-time, and was correspondingly
sorry that Horatio Stephens and Willis Corey shared equally in the
honorarium. When Miss Peckenbaugh asked for a raise in salary, and her
request was endorsed by Mr. Allister, she took it upon herself to tell
Mr. Corey certain facts about the young lady that had become known to
her, and when as a result, the request was refused and Miss Peckenbaugh
in anger resigned, she was amused and delighted. At the same time she
urged and secured a five-dollar raise per week for old Major Ticknor
who had a little blind grandchild he was helping to maintain in a
private sanitarium. Young Tommy Livingston in the bindery had impressed
her upon a certain occasion with his brightness and ability, and she
recommended him warmly to Mr. Corey, and had the satisfaction of seeing
him promoted to a desk in Mr. Kipps’ department. At her suggestion,
window-boxes filled with flowers were put along the windows of the
press-room that faced the street; she persuaded the firm to install a
lunch-room for the women employees on the eighth floor, and it was her
idea that a regular trained nurse be engaged and established in a small
but complete infirmary within the building. She induced Mr. Corey to
offer a certain rising young author, whose work had been her discovery
and who was showing steady improvement, an increase in royalty
percentage, and she prevented the publication of a certain piece of
fiction, which Corey had given her to read, because she considered it
vicious, despite Mr. Allister’s strong recommendation. She advised her
chief to instruct Horatio Stephens to order a series of articles from a
woman writer whose work in another magazine had interested her, and she
urged him not to engage a certain Madame Desseau of Paris, a designer
of women’s clothes, as the fashion editor of _The Ladies’ Fortune_.
Jeannette had a hand in almost every important step that was taken. Mr.
Corey respected her judgment, frequently consulted her, and sometimes
followed her advice even when contrary to his inclinations. He often
told her that he believed her intuition was unerring and the greatest
possible help to him.


§ 10

That particular winter proved an exceptionally strenuous and exacting
one for Mr. Corey. He was worn out with work and with the ever
increasing demands upon him, demands that came more and more from the
outside.

The P. P. Prescott Publishing Company, a house with a reputation of
half a century of high literary output, through mismanagement was in
danger of bankruptcy. While the “P P P” books were famous the world
over, the bank that had financed the concern for years was tired
of the arrangement; the tottering house owed the Chandler B. Corey
Company nearly a hundred thousand dollars for subscription premiums
Francis Holme had sold it, and it was a foregone conclusion that if
the Prescott Company failed, there would be no way of collecting the
debt. Mr. Corey wanted to take over the Prescott Company entirely,--it
could have been bought at the time for practically nothing by assuming
its obligations,--but this was one of their chief’s bold and brilliant
ideas that Mr. Kipps and Mr. Featherstone opposed and, to Jeannette’s
intense regret, persuaded him against. The result was that instead of
absorbing the Prescott Company, and letting the Corey organization
administer its various activities, Mr. Corey was forced to become
chairman of the board which undertook to put the older publishing house
on its feet again, and to do most of the work himself.

In addition to this he was compelled to accept the leadership of a
committee appointed by the Publishers’ Association to confer with the
postal authorities in Washington regarding the rates on second class
mail matter which were in danger of being raised. He had been obliged
to make several trips to the capital. He was one of the directors of
a large paper mill which, in conjunction with some other publishers,
he had purchased. He had shown an interest in local politics and had
been put on the Republican State Central Committee; he was one of
the governors of the Swanee Valley Golf Club, and executor of the
estate of Julius Zachariah Rosenbaum, a wealthy Jewish capitalist,
whose autobiography he had published during the old Hebrew’s life. No
one outside the immediate members of the firm, with the exception of
Jeannette, knew that Rosenbaum had taken sixty thousand subscriptions
to _Corey’s Commentary_ when the story of his life was appearing in
serial form in that magazine, and when the book was published he
ordered twenty-five thousand copies, presumably to distribute among his
friends. Poor Rosenbaum! It was doubtful if he had a score, and when
he died there was universal rejoicing throughout the country that the
most grasping of moneyed barons, who had consistently obstructed the
wheels of progress, was gone. But he left a large slice of his wealth
in charitable endowments, and named Chandler B. Corey as one of the
executors of his will.

These responsibilities weighed heavily upon Mr. Corey’s health and
strength. He had been troubled with indigestion for several months and
his general condition was not good. In addition there were domestic
cares. With the increase of their fortunes, Mrs. Corey had moved
herself and her family into a stone front house on Riverside Drive
where she proceeded to maintain an expensive order of existence. She
had begged hard for this new home, and her husband weakly had given
way. He never seemed able to refuse his wife anything, Jeannette
thought. He could be strong about other matters, but where Mrs. Corey
and his son, Willis, were concerned he was foolishly irresolute. Mrs.
Corey established herself in great feather in the new house, hired
four servants in addition to a liveried chauffeur, who drove her
Pope-Toledo, and began to entertain lavishly. Her special victims
were authors, particularly visiting ones from England, and if any
of them happened to be titled, it was always the occasion for an
elaborate affair. Mr. Corey hated these entertainments, and to avoid
them frequently went to Washington on the plea of pressing business
connected with the postal rates. The new order was exceedingly
expensive. Jeannette could not understand why Mr. Corey put up with it.

But his wife’s reckless expenditure was a matter of small concern in
comparison with his anxiety for his daughter. The unfortunate girl
had fallen during a sudden epileptic seizure, and struck her head
upon a brass fender at the hearth. She had lain for three months in a
semi-conscious condition, and though treatments had partially restored
her mind, she was not wholly competent and would never again be able to
go about without an attendant. It was a great grief to her father. His
troubles had been further augmented at this particular time by Willis,
who had been paying marked attention to a married society woman with an
unenviable reputation for many affairs with young men. Mr. Corey solved
this particular problem by sending Willis on a hunting expedition to
South Africa with Eric Ericsson, the Norwegian explorer. Ostensibly
the young man went to write articles about the trip for _Corey’s
Commentary_. It was announced he was to be gone for a year. Jeannette
was aware that Mr. Corey had paid Ericsson five thousand dollars to
take his son with him; the money had been given, of course, in the form
of a contribution to scientific research.

It was small wonder that Corey’s physician ordered a complete rest
for him in the early spring of the year. The man was threatened with a
nervous breakdown, his doctor told him; the matter of his indigestion
must have his serious attention; he must take a vacation, and he must
take it immediately. Affairs at the office made it impossible, at the
moment, for this vacation to be of any length; even Jeannette realized
that it would be hazardous for the company to be left without Mr.
Corey’s guiding hand on the helm. It was decided that he should go to
White Sulphur Springs, play golf as much as he was able, give especial
attention to his diet, and keep in touch with the office by mail and
telegraph. He would be able, it was hoped, to get a complete change of
climate and a proper rest by this arrangement.

“Of course, you’ll have to go with me, Miss Sturgis,” he said, wheeling
round upon her when this conclusion had been reached. “I couldn’t do a
thing down there without you.”

“Why, certainly,” the girl answered. As their eyes met a moment, the
same thought passed through both minds.

“We’ll take your mother along,” said Corey in his brisk, direct fashion.

Mrs. Sturgis at once was in a great state of agitation.

“But my pupils, dearie,--my little pupils!” she cried. “What will the
darlings do without their lessons?”

“Well, the little darlings can get along without them,” Jeannette
told her. “When their parents want to take them off to the mountains
or the seashore, they just take them, and there’s never any question
about paying for cancelled lessons. I guess you can do the same for
once in your life.... Anyhow, there’s no use arguing about it, Mama.
Mr. Corey needs me, and if you don’t go with me, I’ll go without you.
It’s perfectly ridiculous that we have to be chaperoned! He’s like my
father! ... But I thought you’d enjoy the trip. You know it isn’t going
to cost either of us a penny!”

“Why, of course, dearie,--but you kind of spring this on me. I haven’t
had a chance to think it over.... Of course, I’d love it.”


§ 11

White Sulphur Springs was beautiful, the weather perfection; Jeannette
enjoyed every hour of her stay. She had wanted to get off by herself
for some time, to think calmly over what she must do about Martin
Devlin. He had given her one of his hungry kisses when he said
good-bye, and she felt at the moment he was dearer to her than life
itself. He was urging her with voice, eyes and lips to be his wife. A
realization had come to her that she could temporize with the situation
no longer; she must either agree to marry him, or in some way bring the
intimacy to an end.

Corey played golf mornings and afternoons. Jeannette watched his mail,
and answered most of it herself, only consulting him when necessary.
She would give him brief memorandums of what his mail contained, and
show him the carbons of the letters she had dispatched, signed with his
name, “per J. S.” He did not have to give more than an hour a day to
his affairs.

The doctor had warned him about his diet, and had directed him to take
a hydrochloric acid prescription three times a day. Jeannette watched
his food as well as his mail; she studied the menus in the dining-room
and ordered his meals in advance, so that he would be sure to eat the
proper food; she made him take his medicine, and persuaded him to try
some electric baths that were operated in connection with the hotel.
She kept a chart of his weight, and when they met at the breakfast
table she would inquire about his night. She saw with satisfaction that
he was improving steadily; his face, neck and hands were turning a
healthy bronze color, his appetite was excellent, his sleep undisturbed.

At first a problem presented itself in Mrs. Sturgis. The little woman
was intensely excited at being so closely associated with Mr. Corey.
His presence agitated her; she felt it was her duty to entertain him,
to evince an interest in his comings and goings, to maintain a pleasant
and polite ripple of conversation at the table or whenever they were
together. She believed it was expected of her to show an interest equal
to her daughter’s in the state of his health, and that she must always
inquire how he felt and how he had passed the night. Jeannette knew Mr.
Corey hated this kind of fussy solicitude; it annoyed and irritated
him. The girl suffered acutely whenever her mother commenced to ply him
with her prim inquiries, or when she pretended to be interested in his
golf game about which she knew, and her daughter and Mr. Corey knew she
knew, not one thing. Jeannette suspected there were moments when Mr.
Corey could have strangled her with delight.

There came a distressing hour eventually to mother and daughter.
Jeannette had to tell her that Mr. Corey did not like her concern as to
his welfare, that he had come down to White Sulphur Springs to rest,
and that he must be spared all possible conversation. Mrs. Sturgis
wept. She declared she had never been so “insulted” in her life, that
she was going to pack her trunk and go home at once.

It was in the midst of this scene that a bell-boy of the hotel brought
Jeannette a telegram addressed to Mr. Corey. She tore it open. It was
from his wife.

 “Dear Chandler, am lonesome without you. Wish to join you for rest of
 your stay. Wire me if I may come. Can leave at once. Love.

    Rachael.”


Jeannette shut her teeth slowly as she read the words. It was most
unfortunate. Mrs. Corey would upset her husband, would interfere with
his daily routine, clash with him at once over his golf, object to
the time he gave to it, find fault with Jeannette’s presence, angrily
resent her supervision of his health and meals, so that little of the
hoped-for good would result from these weeks of rest and recreation.
And Mr. Corey would amiably agree to letting her join him!

Jeannette’s distress soon persuaded Mrs. Sturgis to forget her own
grievances. Once her sympathy for her daughter was aroused, she waxed
indignant over Mrs. Corey’s selfishness and lack of consideration.

“Why, the woman must be crazy,” she said warmly. “He came down here
just to get away from her!”

“Oh, I know,” murmured Jeannette, “and as sure as I show him her
telegram he will tell me to wire her to come at once.”

“Well, I wouldn’t tell him anything about it,” declared Mrs. Sturgis.

They fell to discussing the situation. After long consultation and
several efforts at drafting it, they concocted the following answer:

 “Mr. Corey is not well. I think it would be unwise for you to join
 him just now. He is getting a maximum amount of rest and sleep
 and anything tending to interfere with these I believe would be
 unfortunate. Will keep you advised of his condition.

    Jeannette Sturgis.”


In the middle of the night that followed, Jeannette awoke, and
considered what she had done. As she lay awake reviewing the matter,
the conviction slowly came to her that she had committed a dreadful
blunder. Her mouth grew dry; a cold sweat broke out on her. She got up,
went to the window and gazed out upon the flat moonlight that filled
the hotel garden below with evil shadows.

Mrs. Corey was certain to be wild! She would be insane with anger!
Jeannette could follow the workings of her mind: Was her husband’s
secretary to presume to tell her what she should do where his welfare
was concerned? Was this stenographer at so much a week to take it upon
herself to tell her employer’s wife she did not think her presence at
her husband’s side a good thing for him? Was she implying that it would
be harmful, distressful for him? Did she have such entire confidence
in herself and her judgment that she could send a telegram like that
without even consulting him? ...

Oh, the heavens were about to fall! It was an irreparable mistake! Mr.
Corey, himself, would be furious with her! The mental distress she had
been anxious to save him, she had, with her own hand, brought ten
times more heavily upon him! She was a fool,--an utter, inexcusable
fool! She was--was--was----

She did not sleep the rest of the night. She rolled and tossed in her
bed, and walked the floor.

In the morning she went straight to Mr. Corey and told him what she
had done. His seriousness as he frowned, and pulled at his moustache
confirmed her worst fears. He made no comment; asked a few questions;
there was nothing more. Jeannette went on talking volubly, at times
incoherently, for the first time in all the years she had been his
secretary, trying to justify herself. Suddenly a rush of tears blinded
her; she tried to check them; it was useless.

“Well, well, well, Miss Sturgis,” Corey said consolingly patting her
folded hands. “You mustn’t take it so hard. It’s not such a serious
matter. You’re making too much of it. I guess I can square it for both
of us.”

He drew a sheet of hotel paper toward him and scribbled a couple of
lines with his fountain pen.

“Here,” he said, shoving it towards her. “Send her this telegram and
see how it works.”

Jeannette read what he had written through blurred vision.

 “Dear Rachael, Miss Sturgis has shown me your wire of yesterday. I
 agree with her that it would be a mistake for you to join me just at
 present. Am writing you. Much love.

    Chandler.”

The girl looked up at him with swimming eyes. Impulsively she caught
his hand; his generosity overwhelmed her; in a moment she had pressed
the hand to her lips.


§ 12

They returned to New York the end of March. Mrs. Sturgis had been in a
flutter of excitement during the last ten days of their stay; she was
madly anxious to get home to see Alice, who had written she was going
to have another baby. Both her mother and sister were distressed at the
news; they felt it was unfortunate she was going to have one so soon
after her first. Little Etta was not a year old yet.

On Washington’s Birthday, which fell on a Friday that year, Martin
Devlin had come all the way from New York to see Jeannette. He had
brought with him in his pocket a flawless, claw-set diamond solitaire
in a little plush jeweller’s box and had begged Jeannette to allow him
to slip it on her finger. She had found herself missing him during
the weeks of separation more than she had believed it possible she
could miss anyone; she missed his big hands and his big voice, his
indefatigable solicitude, his joyous laugh, his unwavering love for
her. In the months,--it was close to a year,--that she had known him,
she had grown dependent upon these; Martin was part of her life now;
she could not imagine it without him; love had enriched the existence
of both. But she was no nearer marrying him than she had ever been.
During the weeks of sunshine, the hours of solitude and thinking
she had enjoyed, it seemed to her that marriage would be a terrible
mistake; she believed she saw her destiny lying straight ahead; she
had chosen a vocation, and like a nun, who renounces marriage, she
too must give up all thought of being a wife. She must pursue her life
work unhampered by domesticity. Not forever would she be Mr. Corey’s
secretary; there were heights beyond she planned to attain. She told
herself she had the capacity of being a successful executive; some day
she would hold a position like Miss Holland’s, have a department of her
own. Walt Chase had charge of the Mail Order business; one of these
days he would be promoted to something more responsible, and Jeannette
intended then to ask Mr. Corey to give her his place. She knew she
could do the work,--perhaps even better than Walt Chase. She had plans
already to make it larger and to get out special literature designed to
arouse women’s interest. Walt Chase was getting seventy-five dollars
a week now. She would like to be earning that much. She knew what
she would do with it: she’d begin to put by a hundred a month, and
invest it in good securities; when she grew old or wanted to take a
vacation, she would have something saved up. She had only commenced
to think of these matters recently, but now the idea fired her. It
would be wonderful to have a private income of one’s own. And perhaps
she might take her mother with her on a little jaunt to Europe! ...
But matrimony? No, marriage was too great a risk, too much of an
experiment. She acknowledged she loved Martin Devlin as much as she
could ever love any man. Of that she was sure. She was not equally sure
she would always be happy with him, that she would like married life
itself. Why risk something that might bring her untold sadness?

So Jeannette had argued before Martin arrived to see her and so she
had planned to tell him. It was a familiar conclusion with her, but
this time she determined that he should have the truth and she would
convince him that she could never marry him. But when Martin put his
big fingers around her arm and drew her strongly to him, crushing her
in his embrace while he forced his lips against hers, she wanted to
swoon in his arms and so die. The weakness was but momentary; she fled
from him, won control of herself again, and the bars were up once more
between them. But she had not been able to bring herself to enunciate
her high resolve; she had refused the ring, yet Martin had returned to
New York with the confident feeling that some day she would wear it.

Mr. Corey had entirely regained his old buoyancy during the six weeks’
rest. He came back to his desk with all the dynamic energy which had
so impressed Jeannette when she first became his secretary. She, too,
was glad to be home again, back in her own office, resuming her daily
routine, gathering up the threads of activity and influence she loved
to have within her grasp, and seeing Martin every day. Alice, with her
round eyes reflecting in their depths that same curious light Jeannette
had noticed when the first baby was coming, welcomed her mother and
sister in the gayest of spirits. She was having not nearly the same
degree of discomfort, she told them, that she had had while carrying
Etta. She made them come to dinner the night they arrived in New York;
she wanted them to see the baby, and to show them the sewing machine
Roy was buying for her on the installment plan. Martin was included in
the party. This troubled Jeannette a little, for it seemed to establish
him in the family circle.

She had returned from White Sulphur Springs on Sunday. On Tuesday, Mr.
Corey did not come to the office all day. Jeannette had expected him;
he had said nothing to her about being absent; she had no idea where
he was. On Wednesday, when he came in, in the middle of the morning, a
strained white look upon his face told her at once that something had
gone wrong. He rang for her almost immediately, and indicated a chair
for her, while he instructed the operator at the telephone switch-board
he was not to be disturbed.

“Miss Sturgis,” he began, working a troubled thumb and forefinger at
the ends of his moustache, “I have some unhappy, news for you; it has
been unhappy for me, and I fear it will be equally so for you. Mrs.
Corey as you know is a high-strung, temperamental woman. You’ve no
doubt observed she had a decidedly suspicious nature....”

Jeannette’s heart stood still. In a flash she saw what was coming. A
gathering roar began mounting in her ears, every muscle grew tense.
She could see Mr. Corey’s mouth moving, his lips forming words and she
heard his voice, but what he was saying, was meaningless to her; she
could get no sense out of it. Suddenly he came to the word “divorce.”
Her whole nature seemed to have been waiting for him to say it; as he
pronounced it, she sat bolt upright, and a quick convulsion passed
through her. At once her mind was clear and she was able to follow
everything he was saying.

“... wrote her a long letter from the hotel. I was loving and
affectionate in it--as affectionate as I knew how to be, for I feared
the unfortunate matter of the telegrams would anger her. I think
I wrote some eight or nine pages, and I tried to explain that you
had been merely actuated by your solicitude for me. In my anxiety
to placate her, I spoke very harshly of you, told her that you
realised you had overstepped your province, that I had given you a
severe reprimand and that you were much chagrined. I explained to her
carefully your mother was with us, but she knew that was to be before
we left. I assured her of my devotion. I got no answer. I suspected
before we reached New York that she was at outs with me, but there
have been other occasions when this was so, and I had no doubt that I
could soothe her injured feelings. She had always resented your being
my secretary; of course, you’ve known that. I did not dream, however,
that she was as angry with me as she evidently is. She has shut herself
into her own apartment at home and declines to see me; she is preparing
to file against me a suit for absolute divorce, accusing me of improper
conduct with you at White Sulphur Springs, claiming that your mother
was bribed into conniving----”

“_Oh!_” gasped Jeannette.

“I am telling you these unpleasant details, so that you can fully grasp
the situation. You will have to know in any case, and I think it is
only fair to you to give you the whole truth from the start. She has
gone to Leonard and Harvester and persuaded them to represent her. I
don’t know what Dick Leonard is thinking about; he has known me for
twenty years. Winchell, whom I saw yesterday, has been to interview
Leonard, and he informs me that a detective agency was employed to
watch us while we were at the hotel, and that affidavits have been
obtained from some of the hotel employees which substantiate Mrs.
Corey’s allegations.”

Mr. Corey smiled wryly.

“I don’t want to go on shocking you in this fashion. I just wish to
say that Winchell showed me a copy of the plea, and the statements
contained in it are as odious as they are false. You and I have been
spared nothing.”

Again Mr. Corey paused, and a savage frown gathered on his brow.
Jeannette was trembling; she wet her lips and swallowed convulsively.

“The brunt of the attack,” he resumed after a moment, “seems to be
levelled against you. Leonard told Winchell that Mrs. Corey had no
desire to expose me,--that was the word used; she wishes to bring to
an immediate termination a relationship which she cannot tolerate; she
declines,--so Leonard states,--to remain my wife as long as you are
my secretary. As Winchell points out we have no way of determining
whether or not she is in earnest. Of course she cannot prove her suit;
she can prove nothing; but she sees quite clearly she can blacken your
reputation before the world and force you out of this office by the
very publicity which is bound to be attached to the case.... It makes
me angry; it makes me _very_ angry. I have been thinking over the
situation from every angle, and I would willingly, and, I confess, with
a good deal of relish, contest her suit, force her to retract every
word she has said against either of us, and assist you in every way I
could in suing her for libel. All my life my guiding principle has been
justice. I believe in justice; I believe in a square deal, and this is
foul, rank and outrageously unfair. If there was any possible way of
obtaining justice for you I wouldn’t care anything for myself. I would
welcome the publicity; certainly I have no cause to dread it. But it
would serve you hard.... Take our own office here,--how many of those
people outside there would believe in your or my innocence, no matter
how completely we were vindicated?

“But far more important that the opinion of any one of those out
there,--or that of all of them together,--is the effect this unpleasant
story would have upon your young man. No doubt he has the same
confidence in you that I have, but you will appreciate that no man
likes to have for a wife a girl who has been mixed up in a scandal....
You see, how it would be? ... Devlin is a fine fellow; I like him; he
will make his mark. You have confided in me that you care for him....
Well, Miss Sturgis, I advise you to marry him!--marry him before this
ugly story gets bruited abroad. I am convinced it will never be told.
I know Mrs. Corey and I know how she will act. As soon as she hears
you are married and no longer here, she will withdraw her suit and be
anxious to make amends. I have no desire for a divorce. I understand
all too well that it will be Mrs. Corey who will suffer if we are
separated, not I, and I have the wish to protect her against herself.
There are the children to think of, too. This is merely the act of an
insane woman,--a woman blinded by jealousy. Outrageously unfair as it
is to you, and much as I shall hate to part with you, it seems to be
the wisest thing to do. Winchell advises it, and I confess when I think
of your own interests and everything that is involved, I agree with
him. What do you think?”

Jeannette sat staring at her folded hands. Slowly the tears welled
themselves up over her lashes and splashed upon the crisp linen of her
shirtwaist. She was not sorrowful; she was only hurt,--hurt and cruelly
shocked that anyone could believe the things Mrs. Corey had said of
her and this man who was father, friend, and counsellor to her, whom
she loved and respected and who, she knew, loved and respected her in
return. Their relationship during the four and a half years they had
been so intimately associated had been above criticism; it had been
perfect, irreproachable. Jeannette felt foully smirched by the base
imputation.

“_Gracious--goodness!_” she said at last upon a quivering breath, her
breast rising. Tears trembled on her lashes, but for the instant her
eyes blazed.

“Well,” Mr. Corey said wearily after a pause, “it’s too bad,--isn’t it?”

Too bad? Too bad? Ah, yes, it was indeed too bad! Silence filled the
book-lined room, the very room she had taken such pains and such
delight in furnishing so tastefully. She recalled Mrs. Corey had
resented that! She had put some fresh pine boughs in the earthenware
pot in the corner yesterday, and the office smelled fragrantly of
balsam. The rumble of the presses below sent a fine tremor through the
building. Both man and girl stared at the floor. They were thinking the
same things; there was no need to voice them; both understood; it was
all clear now to each.

He was right. The best thing,--the only thing for her to do was to
resign. That would immediately pacify his wife; it would avert the
breach and save Corey from an ugly scandal which could only hurt him.
And then there was herself to consider, her own good name, her mother
and Alice, and there was Martin! Nothing stood in the way now of her
giving him the answer for which he eagerly waited. Martin! Ah, there
was a refuge for her, there was a haven ready to welcome her! He would
take her to himself, protect her, shield her against these slandering
tongues!

Suddenly at the thought of him, so merry and strong and confident, of
his joy at the promise she was now free to make, the floodgates of her
heart opened and, bowing her head upon her fiercely clasped hands, she
burst into convulsive sobbing.



CHAPTER III


§ 1

June sunshine streamed in through the open windows in an avalanche of
golden light and lay in bright parallelograms on the floor. Jeannette
was making the bed. She was in the gayest of spirits and sang as
she punched the pillows to rid them of lumpiness, and smoothed them
flat. She spread the brilliant cretonne cover, with its gaudy design
of pheasants, over the bed, turned it neatly back two feet from the
head-board, laid the pillows in place, and folded the cretonne over
them, tucking it in gently at the top. The bed-cover was not as long
as it should have been, and it required nice adjustment to make it lap
over the pillows. It was the Wanamaker man’s fault, Jeannette always
thought, when she reached this point in her morning’s housework; she
had told him with the utmost pains how she wished the cretonne to go,
and it was his mistake that it was not long enough. Short as it was,
it could be made to reach by allowing only a scant inch or two at the
bottom. She had put the same material at the windows in narrow strips
of outside curtaining, and there was a gathered valance across the top.
The bedroom was “sweet,”--charming and beautifully appointed like the
rest of her domain. Her mother and Alice had “raved” about everything.
Martin liked it, too, though his wife wished he could find the same
amount of pleasure in their little home that she did. Martin was like
most men: he did not notice things, never commented upon her ideas and
clever arrangements.

To her the apartment was perfection. It was situated in a building that
had just been erected in the West Eighties, halfway between Broadway
and the Drive. It had five rooms and the rent was fifty dollars a
month, more perhaps than they ought to be paying, but Martin had
argued that ten dollars one way or another did not make any particular
difference and if it suited Jeannette, he was for signing the lease. So
he had put his name to the formidable-looking legal document, and the
young Devlins had agreed to pay the big rent and to live there for a
year. They could remain in it for life, Jeannette declared, as far as
she was concerned; she could not imagine ever wanting a more beautiful
or a more satisfactory home.

The apartment contained all the latest improvements: electric lights,
steam heat, a house telephone. The woodwork was chastely white
throughout; the electrolier in the dining-room a plain dull brass;
the fixtures in all the rooms were of the same lusterless metal;
between dining-and living-rooms were glass doors, the panes set in
squares; the bathroom floor was solid marquetry of small octagonal
tiles embedded in cement, and glossy tiling rose about the walls to
the height of the shoulder; the room glistened with shining nickel
and flawless porcelain; the bathtub was sumptuous and had a shower
arrangement with a rubber sheeting on rings to envelop the bather.
Martin had grinned when his eye took in these details. He swore in
his enthusiasm: by God, he certainly would enjoy a bathroom like that;
it certainly would be great. But Jeannette was more intrigued with the
kitchen. Here were white-painted cupboards, fragrantly smelling of
new wood, and a marvellous pantry full of neat contrivances, drawers,
bins and lockers. In one of them Jeannette discovered a little sawdust
and a few carpenter’s shavings; they spoke eloquently of the newness
and cleanliness of everything. There was a shining gas-stove, too,
with a roomy oven that had an enamelled door and a bright nickel knob
to it. There was even a gas heater connected with the boiler; all
one had to do was to touch a match to the burner,--the renting agent
explained,--and presto! the flame came up, heated the coil of copper
pipe and in a moment,--oh, yes, indeed, much less than a minute!--there
was the hot water!

It had seemed so miraculous to Jeannette that she had not believed
it would work, but it did, perfectly. No fault was to be found with
anything connected with the wonderful establishment.

There had been plenty of money with which to furnish it just as
Jeannette pleased. The publishing company had presented her with
a check for two hundred and fifty dollars as a wedding gift in
appreciation of her faithful services, and Mr. Corey had supplemented
this with one of his own for a like amount.

“No,--no,--don’t thank me,--please, Miss Sturgis,” he had said almost
impatiently as he handed it to her. “I feel so badly about your going,
and I can never pay you for all you’ve done for me. This is a poor
evidence of my gratitude and esteem. I wish I might make it thousands
instead of hundreds.”

In addition, he had sent her on the day she was married a tall silver
flower vase that must have cost, Jeannette and Martin decided, almost
as much as the amount of his check.

Her mother had borrowed five hundred upon the old paid-up policy,
asserting that she had done so for Alice, and the older daughter was
entitled to a like amount upon getting married. And besides all this,
Martin had turned over to his wife on the day the lease had been
signed, several hundreds more.

It appeared that a year before, about the very time he had met
Jeannette, his mother died. She had lived in Watertown, New York, where
Martin was born, and where she had an interest in a small grocery
business. Martin’s father,--dead for sixteen years,--had been a grocer
and had run a “back-room” in connection with his store, where Milwaukee
beer had been dispensed but never “hard” liquor. Jeannette did not give
her mother these facts when she learned them; it was nobody’s business,
she contended; everybody when he came to America was a pioneer and
began in a humble way. Paul Devlin’s old partner, Con Donovan, who
had come over from Ballaghaderreen with him in ’73, had carried on
the business after his demise, and there had been money enough to
send Martin to school and to support the boy and Paul’s widow. But
when his mother had followed his father to the grave, Martin had no
longer any interest in groceries, and he gladly accepted the three
thousand dollars Con Donovan offered him for his inherited share of the
business. It hadn’t been enough to do anything with, Martin explained
to his wife; so he had just “blown” it. It accounted for the theatre
tickets, the presents, the entertainments with which he had backed his
wooing. There was nearly a thousand dollars left after the honeymoon
to Atlantic City, and Martin had gone to his bank and transferred the
whole account to his wife’s name upon their return, telling her to go
ahead and furnish the new home in any way she fancied.

Jeannette had nearly seventeen hundred dollars in the bank when she
began. She had no thought of spending so much, but it melted away
in the most surprising fashion. Martin, in a way, was responsible
for this: whenever she consulted him, he was always in favor of the
more expensive course. She would have been quite satisfied with a
two-hundred-and-twenty-dollar dining-room set, but he decided in favor
of the one that cost three hundred and fifty. When she said she would
be contented with the simple white-painted wooden bed, he had chosen a
brass one and ordered the box-spring mattress that had cost nearly a
hundred dollars more. He had also persuaded her against her judgment in
the matter of the big davenport and the upholstered chairs that went
with it for the living-room. Then there had been the matter of the two
oil paintings in ornate gold frames upon which they had chanced in
Macy’s while on a shopping tour. Jeannette had grave doubts about the
oils; she did not know whether they were good or bad. Her misgivings in
regard to them may have sprung from the fact that they hung in Macy’s
art gallery; but there could be no questioning the handsomeness and
impressiveness of the gold frames.

“Why sure, let’s have ’em,” Martin said, eyeing them judicially as he
and his wife stood together considering the purchase; “they look like
a million dollars, and anything I hate are bare walls! You want to have
the place lookin’--oh, you know--artistic and classy.”

“The autumn coloring in this one is most lifelike,” the eager young
salesman ventured. “It seems to me they both have a great deal of depth
and quality,--don’t you think?--and while, of course, the size has
nothing to do with the art, still I really think you ought to take into
consideration the fact that this canvas is thirty-six by twenty-seven,
and the other one is nearly as large. Now for twenty-five and thirty
dollars....”

“Sure, let’s have ’em,” Martin decided in his lordly, arbitrary way,
“and if I find out they’re no good,” he added to the beaming salesman,
“I’ll come back here and slap Mrs. Macy on the wrist!”

This last was most appreciated, and the very next day, in much
excelsior and paper wrappings, the two heavily framed paintings arrived
and now hung facing one another in the front room. Jeannette used to
study them, finger on lip, wondering if they had merit or were nothing
but daubs. They appeared all right; there was nothing to criticize
about them as far as she could see, but she knew they would never mean
anything to her as long as she remembered they had been bought at
Macy’s. Her mother warmly shared her husband’s enthusiasm.

“Why, dearie, they look perfectly beautiful,” she told her daughter,
“and they give your home such an air of distinction. I wouldn’t worry
my head about where they came from, as long as they give you pleasure.”

But if Jeannette had misgivings about the pictures, she had no doubts
about anything else her perfect little home contained. It was complete
as far as she could make it, from the service of plated flat silver her
old associates at the office had clubbed together and given her, to the
carpet sweeper that had a little closet of its own to stand in along
with the extra leaves of the dining-room table. There were towels,
sheets, table linen, chairs, pictures and rugs. She had indulged
her fancy somewhat in curtaining, had decided on plain net at the
windows with narrow strips of some brightly colored material on either
side. She had picked out a salmon-tinted, satin-finished drapery at
Wanamaker’s for the living-room, and gay cretonne for her bedroom, and
she had had these curtains made at the store.

“I’d be forever doing the work,” she had said in justifying this
extravagance to Martin, “and we want to get settled some time!”

“Sure,--have ’em made,” he had agreed genially.

The dining-room had puzzled Jeannette for a long time, but after the
dark blue carpet had been selected and made into a rug to fit the room,
she had found a blue madras that just matched its tone. It cost a great
deal more than she felt she ought to pay, but she had bought the twelve
yards she needed, nevertheless, and had determined she could save
something by cutting and hemming the curtains herself; she could take
them out to Alice’s and use her sewing-machine.

It was all finished now, Jeannette reflected, pushing the big brass bed
into place against the wall. They had been a little reckless perhaps,
but now they were ready to settle down, begin to live quietly and to
save. They owed about two hundred dollars at Wanamaker’s but would
soon manage to pay that off.

She went on calculating expenses as she ran the carpet sweeper about
the room. Martin liked a good deal of meat, so she doubted if she could
manage the table on less than twelve or maybe, thirteen dollars a week;
that would take half of what he gave her on Saturdays. She needed so
much for this, so much for that, and she would have to get herself some
kind of a silk dress for the hot weather; still she thought she could
save five or six dollars a week and Martin ought to be able to do the
same; they would have the Wanamaker bill paid in a few months. As she
went on running the sweeper under the bed and pushing it gingerly into
corners so as not to mar the paint of the baseboards, she reflected
that, as a matter of fact, Martin had really no right to expect her
to pay anything out of her weekly money on what they owed Wanamaker;
every cent of that bill had been for house furnishing, and it had been
clearly understood between them that her money was for the table and
herself. Still it had been she who had wanted the curtains; she ought
to help pay for them.


§ 2

When the bathroom was cleaned, Martin’s bath towel spread along the
rim of the tub to dry, his dirty shirt and collar put into the laundry
basket, his shoes set neatly on the floor of the closet, the ash
receiver in the living-room emptied and the cushions on the davenport
straightened, Jeannette settled herself in a rocking-chair at the
window, her basket of sewing in her lap. She hated sewing; the basket
was in tangled confusion, but it was always that way. Spools and yarn,
papers of needles, pins, buttons, threads, tape, and scraps of material
were all mixed up together in a fine snarl. She found a certain degree
of satisfaction in its confusion. To-day she had a run in one of her
silk stockings to draw together, and a button to sew on Martin’s coat.

She caught the coat up first and as she held it in her hands, the song
that she had been humming all morning died upon her lips. She looked
at the garment with softening eyes; then she raised its rough texture
to her cheek and kissed it. It smelled of its owner,--a smell that was
fragrance to her,--an odor scented faintly with cigars but even more
redolent of the man, himself; it was strong, it was masculine, it was
Martin. There was no smell like it in the world or one half so sweet.

She mused as she searched for a black silk thread, needle and thimble.
When Alice had extolled to her the wonderful happiness of marriage, how
right she had been! Jeannette pitied all unmarried women now. There
was a Freemasonry among wives, and all spinsters, old and young, were
debarred from the mystic circle. She wondered what made the difference.
Unmarried women were all buds that had never opened to the full beauty
of the mature flower. They were of the uninitiated and as long as they
remained so would never attain their full powers. Miss Holland, now,
was a fine woman, efficient, capable, executive, but how much more able
and efficient and remarkable if she had married! She might be divorced,
she might be a widow. That did not make a difference, it seemed to
Jeannette in the full bloom of her own wifehood; it was marrying
that counted; it was that “Mrs.” before a woman’s name, that gave her
standing, poise, position in the world, broadened her sympathies,
increased her capabilities.

She thought her own marriage perfection; she considered herself the
happiest, most fortunate of wives; her pretty home enchanted her,
and Martin was the most satisfactory of adoring husbands. He had his
faults, she presumed, and she, no doubt, had hers, but there were never
woman and man so happy together, so ideally congenial. She thought of
her honeymoon,--the few days at Atlantic City. She had never learned
to swim, but Martin was an expert. He had looked stunning in his
bathing-suit,--straight, clean-limbed, with his big chest and shoulders
and his slim waist,--the figure of an athlete, as she indeed discovered
him to be when he struck out into the sea with the freedom of a seal,
flinging the water from his black mop of hair with a quick head-toss
now and then, his arms working like flails. They had plunged through
the breakers together, and Martin had held her high up as the curling
water crashed down upon them. It had been cold but exhilarating, and
a group had gathered on the boardwalk and down on the beach to watch
the two battling with the waves. Then there had been the quiet rolling
up and down the boardwalk in the big chair while the tide of Easter
visitors sauntered past them in all their gay clothing. The weather
had been warm, the sunshine glorious. She thought of their room at the
hotel and the intimate times of dressing and undressing in each other’s
presence. It had been emotional, exciting, a little frightening, but
there had been the discovery of perfect comradeship, and all the other
phases of marriage,--pleasant and unpleasant,--had been forgotten.
Companionship,--wholehearted, unreserved, constant,--that was the
outstanding feature of marriage for Jeannette.

Her mind carried her on to contemplate the future and what it held
in store for them. Her marriage with Martin must be a success. There
must be no quarrelling, no disagreements, no bickerings. There must
never, never be any talk of divorce between them.... Ah, how she hated
the word divorce now! She had never given the subject any particular
consideration heretofore; it was merely an accepted proceeding by which
unhappily married people won back their freedom. But how differently
she felt about it to-day! She would die rather than ever consent to
a divorce from Martin! She’d forgive him anything! He was a little
spoiled, perhaps; he liked to have his own way, and he hated anything
unpleasant. It must be her duty to humor and educate him; she must give
a little, exact a little. A successful marriage, she believed, depended
upon that. A husband and wife must become adjusted to one another. If
necessary, she resolved, she would give more than she received. Oh,
yes, she would give and give and _give_!

Martin had only one serious fault, and that was he too much liked
having a good time. It seemed to her he was never satisfied with
anything less than an epicure’s dinner; he must have the best all
the time. He loved cocktails and wine and good cigars, a “snappy”
show, a little bite of something afterwards, a gay place to dine,
lively music, lights, color. He wanted “to go places where there was
something doing,” and he didn’t want “to go places where there was
nothing doing.” These were familiar expressions on his lips. His wife
told herself she liked a good time, too; she loved the theatre and to
dress well, and she liked a gay restaurant, good food and music, but
she didn’t want them all the time; she wasn’t as dependent upon them
as Martin was. A husband and wife, she considered, should not indulge
in too much of that kind of frivolous living, and no later than last
evening she had had a talk with Martin about it.

“Aw,--sure my dear,--you’re dead right,” he had assured her. “I know.
We must settle down, and stay at home nights, but we’re still having
our honeymoon, and I can’t get used to the idea that you’re my wife. It
just seems to me we ought to celebrate all the time.”

Martin was always so reasonable, thought Jeannette, recalling his
words. She decided she would have a specially nice dinner for him that
night to show him how much she appreciated his sweetness. She paused
a moment over the decision, as she recalled that something vague had
been said to her mother about coming to dine with them. She knew Martin
would prefer to be alone and she wanted to encourage the idea of his
spending the evenings quietly with her. She would go to see her mother
and explain matters; she would have lunch with her; at Kratzmer’s she
would stop and get some salad, and she’d buy some crumpets at Henri’s
and take them along with her.

Abruptly, she determined to let the run in her stocking wait. She wound
the silk several times about the button on Martin’s coat, pushed the
needle through the fabric twice, and snapped the thread close to the
cloth with an incisive bite of her teeth. Then she carried the work to
her room, hanging Martin’s coat on a hanger in the closet.

As she proceeded to dress carefully, she considered each detail of her
costume. Her wardrobe was delightfully complete; she had plenty of
clothes, a suitable garment for any demand. While an office worker, she
had always dressed with certain soberness, an eye to business decorum.
But as a married woman, a young matron who lived at the Dexter Court
Apartments, she felt she could allow herself more latitude. She ran
her eye appraisingly over the file of dresses that hung neatly in her
closet; their number gratified her; she was even satisfied with her
hats. Now she lifted down her blue broadcloth tailor suit, covered
handsomely with braid, and selected a soft white silk shirtwaist that
had a V-neck and a pleated ruffled collar; she drew on fine brown silk
stockings and fitted her feet into tan Oxfords. Her ankles were trim
and shapely. She never had appeared so smartly dressed; her appearance
delighted her. But she was in doubt about the hat for the day, and
finally selected the Lichtenberg model: a silvered straw, with a
flaring brim, trimmed in gray velvet and a curling gray cock’s feather.
As she pulled her hands into tan gloves and gave a final glance at
herself in the long mirror of the bathroom door she decided that was
the costume she would wear when she went to the offices of the Chandler
B. Corey Company to pay her old friends a visit.


§ 3

Mrs. Sturgis had declared after Jeannette’s marriage she preferred to
remain in the old apartment where she had been comfortable for so
many years. To be sure the rent was thirty dollars a month, but she
said she could manage that. She had her music lessons,--four or five
hours a day,--and there were other pupils to be had if she needed the
income. But it did not appear necessary. Elsa Newman’s cousin, Cora
Newman, who had been studying with Bellini for two years, had developed
a truly remarkable mezzo, and she preferred Mrs. Sturgis to any other
accompanist. The very week Jeannette was married Cora Newman had given
her first public recital, and Mrs. Sturgis had been at the piano. She
had had a very beautiful black dress _made_ for the occasion and the
affair had been a great success. The critics had praised Miss Newman’s
voice and the _Tribune_ had given a special line to the player: “The
singer was sympathetically accompanied at the piano by Mrs. Henrietta
Spaulding Sturgis.” Now both Elsa and Cora wanted her whenever either
of them sang, and there were plans ahead for a concert tour to Quebec
and Montreal. If that turned out successfully, they were talking of
an up-state trip in the fall through Rochester, Syracuse, as far as
Buffalo.

“You know what _I_ eat, lovies,” Mrs. Sturgis had explained to her
daughters when keeping the apartment was being discussed among them,
“is microscopic, and it won’t cost me five a week. I can always get
whatever I need at Kratzmer’s and a little tea and toast is often all I
want.”

“But that’s just _it_!” Jeannette had expostulated. “You don’t eat
enough to keep a bird alive, anyhow, and if you live by yourself, you
won’t eat _that_!”

Mrs. Sturgis had assured them she would take good care of herself.

“You can’t imagine me happy in a boarding-house,” she had challenged,
“and I wouldn’t be able to have a piano there or give lessons!” There
had been no answer to this; boarding in one place and renting a studio
in another would be even more expensive than keeping the apartment.


§ 4

To-day Jeannette heard the familiar finger exercises as she
neared the top of the long stair-flight of her old home:
ta-ta-ta-ta-_de_-da-da-da-da--ta-ta-ta-ta-_de_-da-da-da-da, and as she
noiselessly opened the back door kitchenward, her mother’s voice from
the studio: “_One_-and-two-and-three-and-four-and....”

She took off her hat and gloves, laid them on her mother’s bed and went
to peek in the cupboard; there was a piece of bakery pie and a few
eggs. She decided to make an omelette and with the toasted crumpets and
tea, a little jar of marmalade and the potato salad she had brought
with her, she and her mother would lunch royally. It was ten minutes to
twelve; the lesson would soon be over.

They lingered over their repast until nearly two. Mrs. Sturgis had
lessons from four to six,--the after-school hours,--but until then
she was free. She had had half a notion, she confessed, of going down
to Union Square that afternoon to look at some new piano pieces for
beginners at Schirmer’s. Jeannette told her she would go with her,--she
wanted to get an alligator pear for Martin’s dinner,--but neither of
them appeared inclined to terminate the little luncheon at the kitchen
table. They had finished the crumpets, but there was still marmalade
left, and Mrs. Sturgis produced some pieces of cold left-over toast
with which to finish it.

She was full of news and her affairs. In the first place, Alice and
Roy were going to Freeport on Long Island for the summer. They had
found a very nice place where they could board for eighteen dollars
a week,--oh, yes, both of them and the baby, too,--Roy was going to
commute every day, and the Bronx flat was to be closed,--just turn the
key in the door and leave it until they were ready to come back. Then
there was great talk about the concert tour. Bellini, who had sailed
only the day before yesterday for Italy, had thought Miss Elsa and Miss
Cora had better study another winter before attempting it, but a most
encouraging letter had been received from Montreal, and both the girls
were eager to try the experiment. They were in doubt as to whether
they should take a violinist with them or not; of course a violinist
would be a drawing-card, but they would have his salary and all his
expenses to pay, which would cut down the profits--if there were any!
Jeannette’s mother did not think it was in the least necessary, but if
they didn’t take one, Miss Elsa had said Mrs. Sturgis had better be
prepared to do some solo numbers, and that meant she’d have to do some
real hard practising as she hadn’t done anything like that for years!
She did not know whether to work up the Mendelssohn _Capricioso_ or the
Chopin _Fantaisie Impromptu_; what did Jeannette think? Of course there
was that _Meditation_....

But as her mother rambled on, Jeannette’s mind wandered. Her thoughts
were with Martin. She wondered what he was doing at that moment; with
whom he had lunched; how she could entertain him in the evenings and
keep him from wanting to go out. He must have some friends whom she
could invite to dinner. There was Beatrice Alexander, of course, and
she had heard him speak pleasantly of Herbert Gibbs,--the younger of
the two Gibbs brothers. He was married, she remembered; his wife had a
baby and they lived somewhere down on Long Island. She herself would
have liked to have asked Miss Holland, but she was hardly the type
that would interest Martin. There was Tommy Livingston,--but Tommy
was really too young. Her mind rested on Sandy MacGregor! He was a
widower,--his wife had been dead for over a year,--she knew he would
love to come to them, and Martin was sure to like him. The thought
elated her: Sandy and Beatrice Alexander would make an excellent
combination.

She accompanied her mother downtown in gay spirits, full of
determination to put this plan immediately into effect.


§ 5

The dinner-party, when it took place, was not altogether a success;
still it was far from being a failure. Sandy unquestionably had a good
time, for he and Martin took a great liking to each other. Beatrice
had proven the unfortunate element. She had always been diffident and
the eye-glasses hopelessly disfigured her. Martin liked her because he
knew her so well,--one had to know Beatrice to appreciate her,--but
Sandy had been merely polite and amiable. He enjoyed Martin and
Martin’s cocktails, however,--they had one or two before dinner,--and
each time they raised their glasses, Sandy said: “Saloon!” which had
amused Martin vastly. The dinner itself was delicious,--even Jeannette
felt satisfied. The baked onions stuffed with minced ham,--Alice had
suggested that and shown her how to do them,--had been enthusiastically
praised, the chicken had been tender and the iced pudding, ordered at
Henri’s, could not have been more delicious.

After dinner they played auction bridge; Martin loved cards in any form
and he undertook to teach Jeannette; Sandy was an old hand at the game,
but Beatrice Alexander was but a timid player. After three or four
rubbers, the men abandoned the cards, which, Jeannette could see, bored
them with such partners, and began matching quarters, and Martin had
won eighteen dollars. The last match had been for “double or nothing”
and Jeannette was hardly able to stifle the quick breath of relief that
came to her lips when Martin won. She had always known Sandy to be
liberal-handed and he paid his losses good-humoredly, telling Jeannette
in a way that made her believe he meant what he said, that he had had
a wonderful evening, and would telephone shortly to ask the Devlins to
dinner with him. He generously offered to take Beatrice Alexander home,
and Jeannette returned from the elevator, where she and Martin had
bidden good-night to their departing guests, to the disorder and smoky
atmosphere of their little home with the feeling that it had all been
worth while.

“My Lord!” Martin said that night as he lay in bed waiting for her to
wind the clock, open the window, snap out the lights and join him, “I
wish you had a girl out there in the kitchen to help you with all
that mess. Damned if I like the idea of my wife doing all those dirty
dishes, and having to clean up everything to-morrow. It will take you
all day.”

“Well,” Jeannette answered, “I’ll hate it to-morrow myself. But I
really don’t mind very much. I love the idea of entertaining our
friends. But we can’t have a girl yet. I’ve got to do my own work for
awhile at any rate. You see, Martin, I was figuring it out....”

She had crawled in beside him and at once his arms were about her and
she had nestled close to him, her head on his hard shoulder.

“Your friend Sandy’s a corker,” he said, kissing her hair and ignoring
her plan of figures and economy. “I like that guy fine. You can have
all that eighteen dollars I won from him.”

“Oh, Martin!”

“Sure,--of course.”

“I’ll put it in the till.”

The till was a small round canister intended for tea but converted into
a savings bank.

“You’ll do nothing of the kind,” Martin told her. “You blow it in on
yourself, or for something nice for the house.”

“But, Mart,” she remonstrated, “I want to pay off that Wanamaker’s
bill! We can’t have a girl in the kitchen until we don’t owe a cent.”

“Aw, don’t worry so, Jan. You’re always scared we’re going to go bust
or something. I’ll get a raise as soon as summer’s over. Gibbs is bound
to come through ’cause he knows I’ll quit if he don’t. I bring in a
lot of fine business to that outfit, and all my customers are dandy
friends of mine. I’ll not be working for him at fifty per much longer.”

“Mart,” Jeannette said suddenly, “wouldn’t it be a good plan to have
Herbert Gibbs and his wife to dinner some night and show them how nice
we are and how nice we live and what a good dinner we can give them?
You know it might help; he tells his brother everything, Beatrice says.”

“Great! Say, that’s a bully idea!” Martin was at once enthusiastic.
“Herb would like it fine and so would Mrs. Herb. I’ll get some good
old Burgundy and pour it into him and feed him some Corona-Coronas and
he’ll just expand like a night-blooming cereus.”

And on this happy plan, still with an arm about her, her head pillowed
on his shoulder, they drifted off to sleep.


§ 6

Some six weeks after her return to New York from Atlantic City,
Jeannette arrayed herself in her braided broadcloth tailor suit,
drew on her tan silk stockings and tan shoes, set the gray hat at a
smart angle upon her head, added the touch of a fine meshed veil that
brought the curling gray cock’s feather close to her hair, and paid her
long-deferred visit to the office.

As she turned in at the familiar portals she was astonished at the
difference between her present feelings and those of old. A year before
she had entered the building with a hurried step, a preoccupied manner,
her mind busy as she hastened to her work with ways of attacking
and dispatching it. She had been conscious then that she was the
“president’s secretary,” and had borne herself accordingly as she
made her way through the groups of gossiping girls, aware they thought
her haughty and unapproachable. To-day, she was Mrs. Martin Devlin,--a
matron, smartly dressed,--come to pay a visit to the publishing house
with the air of a lady who had perhaps arrived to select a book in
the retail department or to enter a subscription. The dusty office
atmosphere was alien to her now; the bustling, eager clerks, intent
upon their affairs, seemed pettily employed; there was something
ridiculous about it all to her. Yet less than three months ago this had
been her world; all the vital interests of her life had been centered
within these square walls. She still loved it, loved the building,
the cold cement floors, the bare ceilings studded with sprinkler
valves, loved what evidences of her own handiwork she recognized: the
window-boxes, and the miniature close-clipped trees that stood in the
entrance, the name of the house in neat gold lettering on the street
windows.

Ellis, the colored elevator man, was the first to recognize her; he
grinned, flashing his white teeth out of his black face, chuckling
largely.

“Well, it certainly is good to see you; it certainly is like old times
to see you ’round,” he said, rolling back the clanging door.

She stepped out upon the familiar fourth floor. It was the same--no
different: the old racket, the old hum and confusion. A minute or
two passed before she was seen; then there was a general whispering,
machines stopped clicking, heads turned; there were smiles and nods
from all parts of the big room. Mrs. O’Brien, Mr. Kipps’ stenographer,
rose and came to greet her; Miss Sylvester and Miss Kate Smith
followed suit. Presently there was a small crowd around her with
questions, laughter, little cooing cries of pleasure, a feminine
chatter. She caught Mr. Allister’s eye as he was leaving Mr. Corey’s
office.

“’Pon my word!” She could not hear him say it, but she saw his lips
form the phrase and noted his pleased surprise. He came forward at
once, smiling broadly, pushing his way through the women who gave place
to him.

“Glad to see you, Miss Sturgis,” he said beaming. “Only, by Jove,
you’re not ‘Miss Sturgis’ any more! ... ‘Devlin,’ isn’t it? ... Does
Mr. Corey know you’re here? He’ll be delighted, I know. Wants to see
you badly. Two or three matters have come up he’d like to ask you
about; nobody ’round here seems to know a thing about them.... Come in;
he’ll be mighty glad to see you.”

He pulled back the swing gate in the counter and walked with her
towards Mr. Corey’s office.

As Jeannette passed within a few feet of Miss Holland’s desk and as
their eyes met she mouthed:

“See you in just a minute.”

“Here’s an old friend of ours,” said Mr. Allister, opening Mr. Corey’s
door.

The white head came up, and immediately a pleased flush spread over the
face of the man at the desk.

“Well--well--well,” he said, getting to his feet and coming to take
both her hands. “Miss Sturgis! It’s good to see you again.”

“She’s not Miss Sturgis any more,” laughed Mr. Allister.

“That’s so--that’s so; it’s ‘Devlin’ of course. Well, Mrs. Devlin, you
surely look as though marriage agreed with you.”

They were all laughing in good spirits. A few moments of
inconsequential remarks, and then Allister withdrew while Mr. Corey
made Jeannette sit down.

“Oh, I must have a talk,” he insisted, “and hear all about you.”

The door opened, and young Tommy Livingston came in with a question on
his lips. His eyes lighted as he recognized the caller.

“My new secretary,” said Corey smiling.

“Oh, is that _so_?” Jeannette was pleased; the boy had always been a
protégé of hers. “Well, Tommy, this _is_ a step up for you!”

“Yes, indeed,” he said grinning. “I’m doing the best I know how....”

“Tommy does very well,” approved Mr. Corey.

“I didn’t know you understood dictation,” said Jeannette.

“I don’t very well. I’ve got a stenographer in my office,--’member Miss
Bates?--and I’m going to night school and learning shorthand; I can run
a machine fairly decently now.”

“Well, isn’t that splendid!”

Presently she was alone with Mr. Corey again. He asked about her, about
Martin, about her married life. She was frank with her answers.

“I shall never thank you enough,” she said, “for persuading me to
accept Mr. Devlin. I never would have married if you hadn’t made me,
and I never would have known what I missed. I guess I’d’ve been here
for the rest of my days.”

She was eager for his news, too.

Yes, he and Mrs. Corey were quite reconciled. She was very sorry she
had maligned Jeannette. He was going to England in ten days and was
taking her with him. Babs was about the same; she would never be any
better; they had an excellent trained nurse for her and she was to
spend the rest of the summer at a camp in the Adirondacks. Willis had
written a most interesting letter from Johannesburg; he and Ericsson
were trekking north through Matabeleland and Bulawayo; Mr. Corey did
not expect to hear from him again for three months. Affairs at the
office were about as usual; they expected to publish a big novel in the
fall by Hobart Haüser; Garritt Farrington Trent had left his former
publishers and come over to them; advertising was bad; there was some
talk of a printers’ strike; _The Ladies’ Fortune_ had been selling
excellently on the stands; the pattern business was booming.

There were one or two matters he wanted to ask her about: What was
the arrangement with Hardy as to the dramatic rights of _Harnessed_?
No record could be found of the agreement. And did she recall from
what concern they had bought that last stock of special kraft wrapper?
And the folder containing all the correspondence with the Electrical
Manufacturing Company had disappeared. What could have become of it?
She answered as best she could. When she got up to go, he accompanied
her to the door of his office.

“I can’t begin to tell you how we all miss you here,” he said gravely,
“and how much _I_ do especially. It’s been hard sledding without you.
I’ve thought a hundred times,--oh, a _thousand_ times!--of how much
you did for me to make the work easier and how much you lifted from
my shoulders. I got used to it, I’m afraid, and took a good deal for
granted.... But I’m glad you’re married; that’s where you belong:
making a home for yourself and leading your own life.”

There was moisture in Jeannette’s eyes as she turned away. She loved
Chandler Corey, she said to herself; he was a wonderful man; she knew
she was the only person in the world who truly appreciated him; and she
knew he loved her, too. It was this glimpse of his affection for her
that moved her. Theirs had been a rare comradeship, a fine communion, a
beautiful relationship. It was ended; it was past and done; they could
no longer be together or even find an excuse to see one another without
having their actions misinterpreted. It had been the business, the
common interest, that had wrought the tie between them, and now that
there was no longer any office, the intimacy and companionship was at
an end, the bond sundered,--soon they would have but a casual interest
in one another!--and she had been closer to him than anyone else in the
world, like a daughter, and he a father to her. It was sad; a matter
to be mourned; each going a different way, only memories of a splendid
coöperation and friendship remaining to remind them of happy years
together.


§ 7

Jeannette stopped at Miss Holland’s desk and made her promise to take
lunch with her at the noon hour when they could have a good talk.

As she left the scene of her former activities, her progress through
the aisles between the desks was once again a succession of
hand-clasps, congratulations, well-wishes, nods and smiles. It touched
her deeply; she had no idea she had been so well liked: everyone there
seemed to be her friend.

Miss Holland joined her at half past twelve in the lobby of the Park
Avenue Hotel, and they had a delightful luncheon together at one of the
little tables edging the balcony about the court. News was exchanged
eagerly. Jeannette’s was scant, but her companion had endless gossip
to retail. Miss Holland’s nephew, Jerry Sedgwick, was a midshipman
now, and on his summer cruise in Cuban waters aboard a big battleship.
She and Mrs. O’Brien had a little apartment down on Waverly Place and
managed quite comfortably. The office was getting dreadfully on Miss
Holland’s nerves; it was so different from what it used to be; in the
old days everyone had done the best that was in him or her to make
the business a success; no one had cared what the returns were to be;
the idea of doing more and better work had been the thought actuating
all. Now that the Corey Company had become one of the largest and most
prosperous publishing houses in the country, the spirit had changed;
everyone thought about “profits.” They had conferences of all the heads
of departments each week and no one was interested in learning what
was going on in the different branches of the business; what commanded
their attention was how much “profit” was to be shown. It disgusted
Miss Holland; there was no “Get Together Club” any more. Mr. Kipps was
becoming more and more critical and fault-finding; he had headaches all
the time; Miss Holland believed he was a sick man; he never took any
exercise. The pattern business had grown enormously; Mr. Cruikshanks
had done wonders with it; they had had to lease a whole big building
over on Tenth Avenue to take care of it; _The Ladies’ Fortune_ had a
circulation of nearly half a million; Horatio Stephens had had a very
substantial raise, and had grown awfully opinionated and disagreeable.

There was more gossip of lesser significance. Miss Hoggenheimer of
the mailing department had gone on the stage, and had a part now in
_It Happened in Nordland_, while Miss Gleason had married that big
George Robinson of the Press Room, and Tommy Livingston would soon
be engaged,--if he wasn’t already,--to Mrs. O’Brien’s little sister,
Agnes, who worked in the Mail Order Department.... Oh, yes! and had
Jeannette heard what had happened to Van Alstyne? It was terrible! He
was in the penitentiary at Atlanta for using the United States mail
for fraudulent purposes; he had become involved with some unscrupulous
men who advertised worthless stock and the Federal authorities had put
them all in jail.... And poor Mrs. Inness was dead; she died at her
brother’s house in Weehawken.

Jeannette devoured these details. She sat absorbed, fascinated,
listening to every word that came from her companion’s lips; she could
not get enough of this chatter about her old associates; she was hungry
for every scrap of information, fearful that Miss Holland might neglect
to tell her everything.

She walked back with her friend to the office and would not let her
go for another ten minutes until she had heard the final details of a
violent quarrel between Miss Reubens and Mr. Cavendish.

Miss Holland promised to dine with her and Martin soon, and Jeannette
promised in return to come with her husband to dinner with Miss Holland
and Mrs. O’Brien in the Waverly Place apartment. They parted with many
such assurances.

Jeannette walked all the way home in a daze of memories, thoughts of
the old times crowding upon her brain, her interest in business affairs
and personal happenings in the Chandler B. Corey Company awake again,
stirring with all its former keenness.


§ 8

The dinner to which Mr. and Mrs. Herbert Gibbs were invited and to
which after various postponements they ultimately came was a dismal
failure from Jeannette’s point of view. First of all, she was late
with the meal itself, and in hurrying, spattered grease on her
gown; the yeast powder biscuits would not rise, and the leg of lamb
was underdone, the meat pink when Martin carved it. Then Martin,
himself, was nervous and excited, and the cocktails he had with his
guest before they sat down went to his head and made him talk and
act sillily. Lastly, and most important, the Gibbses were hopeless!
Herbert Gibbs was flat-headed and there was no curve at the back of
his neck, while the hair grew down under his collar sparse and short;
he had an expressionless, stupid face and it was impossible to tell
whether he was being bored or amused at the attempt of young Mr. and
Mrs. Devlin to entertain him and his wife. Mrs. Gibbs was even less
prepossessing. She was a plump German girl, with thin yellow hair done
up in a knob on top of her head which frankly showed her white scalp
through wide gaps. She was irritatingly voluble, had a piercing sharp
nervous laugh, and exclaimed shrilly about whatever Jeannette said or
did. She chatted unceasingly about her child, little “Herbie,” who,
it seemed, was only ten months old but could already both walk and
talk, and she embarrassed Jeannette by asking in a whisper how soon
there was going to be a little Devlin. There was nothing spontaneous
in the conversation during the whole evening, neither while they sat
at table nor later in the living-room, where Mr. Gibbs sat stolidly
puffing at cigars, sipping the red Burgundy with which Martin kept his
glass filled, and Mrs. Gibbs rattled on about how they had found their
home at Cohasset Beach on Long Island, and the involved circumstances
connected with its eventual purchase. Mercifully they were obliged to
take an early train home on account of “Herbie,” but did not depart
until they had warned their young hosts they would soon be expected to
spend a Sunday with them in the country.

That night, going to bed, Martin and Jeannette had their first quarrel.
It left her shaken and unhappy all the next day. She ridiculed their
guests and Martin defended them; she declared they were stupid
and common; he, that she didn’t know them, that they were a very
good-hearted sort, that she had been cold and patronizing with Mrs.
Gibbs, that her husband had noticed it, and become awfully “sore”; it
would have been a “damn sight better,” Martin concluded stormily, if
they had never been asked.

“And after all the trouble I went to!” raged Jeannette to herself,
hugging her side of the bed, rebellion strong within her, “cooking all
day long, planning everything out, going over to Columbus Avenue twice,
getting flowers for the table, working myself dizzy and ruining my
organdie, just so he could make a good impression on them and perhaps
help himself a little at the office!”

A tear trickled down her nose, and she wiped it off with a finger-tip.
She would never give in to him,--never! She would make him beg and
beg and beg for her forgiveness! It would be a long, long time....
With head aching and trying to choke down a sniffle that threatened to
betray her, she fell asleep.

There was an eager reconciliation the next night; promises, vows,
assurances, harsh self-accusations, and Martin carried her off after
dinner to two dollar seats at the _Broadway_, where Jeannette whispered
penitently, hugging his arm in the dark of the theatre, that if the
Gibbses _did_ ask them to visit them some Sunday, she would go and be
her nicest to both.


§ 9

The occasion when Sandy MacGregor had the young Devlins to dine with
him in style on the roof garden of the new Astor Hotel was another
affair that turned out unfortunately. The lady whom Sandy asked to be
fourth in the party,--a Mrs. Fontella,--was not the type with whom
Jeannette had been accustomed to associate. She was boldly handsome
with great round black eyes, masses of auburn hair, a cavernous
red mouth, and a large, prominent bust. She was noisy and coarse,
and when she laughed she showed a great deal of gum and rows of
glittering gold-filled teeth. Jeannette froze into her most rigid and
uncommunicative self. Just before dessert was served, Martin and Sandy
excused themselves from the table and disappeared, leaving her sitting
for almost half-an-hour alone with her noisy and conspicuous companion.
It was evident when the men returned they had been downstairs to the
bar where they had had drinks and had been shaking dice. Jeannette was
thoroughly incensed, and although Sandy had seats for the theatre, she
complained she was ill and insisted upon going home.

There was another quarrel between her husband and herself that night,
but before they went to sleep he won her forgiveness, abused himself
for treating her shabbily, told her again and again he was sorry, and
promised never to be guilty of neglecting her again.

He could be irresistibly winning when he wanted to be.



CHAPTER IV


§ 1

On the Fourth of July the Gibbses asked Martin and Jeannette to
spend the holiday and Sunday with them at Cohasset Beach. Jeannette
contemplated the visit in the gayest of spirits. She spent fully two
hours carefully packing her own and Martin’s suitcases. She had some
very smart clothes for such an outing which she had had no opportunity
of wearing since the happy honeymoon days at Atlantic City. The idea of
appearing in these again at such a well-known summer resort as Cohasset
Beach delighted her. She was anxious to be cordial to Mrs. Gibbs for
Martin’s sake, and meant to dispel any unpleasant impression of herself
that either Mr. Gibbs or his wife might have been harboring. To exert
herself particularly in her host’s direction, “draw him out of his
shell”--as Martin expressed it,--and make him like her, was part of her
resolution.

Late Friday afternoon she manfully struggled with the two suitcases to
the Thirty-fourth Street ferry and met Martin as agreed at the entrance
of the waiting-room. They had been anxious to catch an early train from
Long Island City, and it had been arranged that Mr. Gibbs and Martin
should come to the station directly from the office and meet her at the
ferry station.

“My God, Jan!” Martin exclaimed after he had swung himself off the
trolley-car and come running up to where she was waiting. “My God, you
look great! Say,--I never saw you look so--so swell!” Mr. Gibbs was
pleasantly cordial, though suffering much discomfort from the excessive
heat. Sweat trickled down his expressionless face, and continually he
removed his straw hat to mop his forehead with a drenched handkerchief.

It was indeed hot, but the vistas up and down the river as the
ferry-boat blunted its way toward the Long Island shore were all of
cool pinks, palest greens and lavenders in the late summer afternoon,
while the sun, setting through a murky haze, cast an enchanted light
over the scene. In the train, Mr. Gibbs took himself off to the smoking
car, leaving Martin and Jeannette alone. They sat beside a raised
window, their hands linked under a fold of her silk dress, and the
air that reached them was rich with the scent of the open country.
The girl’s heart was overflowing with happiness as Martin whispered
endearments in her ear: she was a wonder, all right; she looked like a
million dollars; gosh! he was proud of her; there was no girl in the
world like his wife! The holiday that was beginning for them, and the
knowledge that they were not to be separated for two whole days--nearly
three!--filled both with great felicity.

Cohasset Beach is a little village of two or three thousand inhabitants
on the Sound side of the Island, some twenty-five or thirty miles from
New York. The Gibbses lived in an unpretentious, white, peaked-roofed
house, with plenty of shade trees about it, and a rather patchy,
ill-kept lawn, bordered with straggling rosebeds. There was a
lattice-sided porch covered with a clambering vine. The place was
attractive though shabby; the house sorely in need of paint, the front
steps worn down to the natural color of the wood, the edges of the
treads frayed and splintery. A sagging hammock hung under scrawny
pepper trees, and a child’s toys were scattered about, while close
to the latticed porch was a pile of play sand hauled up from the
neighboring beach.

Jeannette was disappointed. She had pictured the Gibbses’ house more of
an establishment. Cohasset Beach was a fashionable summer resort; the
Yacht Club there was famous; she had thought to find her hosts living
in some style. But she was not to be daunted; she had come prepared
to have a good time and to make these people like her; she reminded
herself of her determination not to spoil this visit for Martin.

But on encountering Mrs. Gibbs she realized afresh how little in common
she had with her hostess. The woman was devoid of poise, restraint, or
dignity; Jeannette had forgotten her volubility and harsh, unpleasant
laugh. Mrs. Gibbs welcomed her guest eagerly, keeping up a running
fire of remarks, loosing her squeaks of mirth in nervous fashion. She
slipped her arm about Jeannette’s waist and before showing her to her
room or giving her a chance to remove her hat, led her to the nursery
to view little Herbie in his crib. Mr. Gibbs followed for a peep at his
son before the child went off to sleep and he brought Martin with him.
They all hung over the sides of the crib and exclaimed about the baby,
who rolled his solemn, perplexed eyes from face to face. Jeannette
noted he was exactly like his father: flat-headed, expressionless,
with no curve at the back of his neck, but Martin seemed quite taken
with him and when he tickled him with a finger, the baby opened wide
his little red mouth, displayed his toothless red gums and crowed
vigorously. Jeannette was sure she detected in the sound the shrillness
of his mother’s senseless laugh.

The guest room was on the third floor in one gable of the roof, a big
room with sloping ceilings; it was equipped with a washstand on which
stood a basin and ewer; the bathroom was on the floor below. Hattie,
the colored cook, would bring up hot water, Mrs. Gibbs said in her
excited way as she left them, urging her guests to make themselves
comfortable. Jeannette had carefully packed Martin’s dinner clothes,
and her own prettiest dinner frock, but there would evidently be no
formal dressing in such a household. She stood at an open latticed
window that jutted out above the vine-covered porch and looked out over
a rippling billow of tree-tops, softly green now in the fading evening
light, that tumbled down to the water’s edge. The Sound was dotted
with little boats riding at anchor and there was one private yacht,
gay with lights and fluttering pennants. The lambent heavens in the
west touched the shimmering water delicately with pink. She pressed her
lips resolutely together, and stared out upon the scene unmoved by its
beauty.

“Great,--isn’t it?” Martin said, coming to stand beside her and putting
his arm about her. “We’ll have a home like this of our own, some
day,--hey, old girl? And you’ll be the boss of the show and be cooking
me some of your fine dinners when I come home, and I’ll take you out
sailing in the yacht on Sundays.” He laughed his rich buoyant peal and
caught her in his arms.

“Oh, Martin,” she breathed tremulously, sinking her face against his
shoulder, “I love you so,--I love you so!”

As she had foreseen, there was no change of costume for dinner at the
Gibbses’ table. The meal itself had as little distinctiveness as the
host and hostess: soup and vegetables, a large steak followed by apple
pie and the usual accessories. Martin, Mr. Gibbs and his wife drank
beer; it appeared that it was imported, and Martin was eloquent in its
praise. There were cookies too, which made a special appeal to him;
_küchen_, Mrs. Gibbs called them, but Jeannette thought them hard and
tasteless. After dinner, the men walked down to the water and back,
smoking their cigars, while Jeannette sat and listened to a long tale
by Mrs. Gibbs of how she had happened to meet her Herbert, how her
parents had objected, how they had tried to separate them, and how love
had finally triumphed.

But Jeannette went to sleep that night with a happy prospect for the
morrow awaiting her: they were to have lunch at the fashionable yacht
club.


§ 2

Disappointment lay in store for her again. At noon, the next day,
perplexed by the picnic baskets and shoe-boxes of lunch with which they
were laden as they left the house, she learned it was the Family Yacht
Club and not the imposing Cohasset Beach Yacht Club for which they were
headed. Oh, no, Mr. Gibbs explained, only the swell New Yorkers and
the rich nabobs who lived down on the “Point” patronized the Cohasset
Beach Yacht Club; the dues there were fifty dollars a month; the nice
folk in Cohasset all belonged to the Family Yacht Club; she would see
herself how pleasant it was there; the steward served hot coffee and
everybody brought their own lunches. Jeannette looked straight ahead of
her to hide the blur of disappointed tears that for a moment blinded
her. Martin was behind with Mrs. Gibbs carrying Herbie in his arms.
The resolve to try and be pleasant and make these people like her died
hopelessly in the girl’s heart. Oh, it was no use! It had been dreadful
from the moment they arrived; it would remain dreadful till the end!

The club-house of the Family Yacht Club was a low spreading,
wind-blown, sand-battered, gray building that squatted along the shore,
separated from the lisping wavelets of the Sound by a strip of white,
sandy beach; a long pier ran out into the water and a number of small
sail-boats and row-boats were tied to the float at its further end. The
pier, the beach, the wide veranda of the club-house were all crowded
to-day; flags flew or were draped everywhere, and bathers ran up and
down along the wet sand or congregated on the raft anchored a hundred
yards from shore.

“Whew!” exclaimed Martin when he viewed the scene, “isn’t this great!”

His wife threw him a look; it did not seem possible he was serious, but
a glimpse of his delighted face showed her he was indeed.

There were no chairs nor benches on which to sit, but the newcomers
found a clean space on the sandy shore and prepared to establish
themselves there. Jeannette thought of her spotless new white
fibre-silk skirt, and in sad resignation sank into place. About them
were a dozen or so of similar groups, preparing for the midday meal or
already enjoying it. They were all neighbors of the Gibbses, residents
of Cohasset Beach, who knew one another intimately, and hailed each new
arrival, bandying Christian names. A man some distance away shouted in
the direction of the Gibbs party, brandishing a bottle of beer.

“Hey, Gibbsey,” he yelled, “hey there! How’s the old stick-in-the-mud?”

Mrs. Gibbs shrieked across the stretch of sand at the woman beside him.

“How’s the baby?”

“Fine,” came the answer. “Mama’s got him.”

“That’s Zeb Kline over there,” Mrs. Gibbs informed her husband; “it’s
the first time he’s been out since he was sick.... And those folks with
Doc French certainly look like his sister-in-law and that cousin of
hers, Mrs. Prentiss.”

A burst of music and the report of a cannon came distinctly from
farther down the shore. Jeannette, craning her neck, could see a large,
glistening white building with a red roof, gaily decorated with flags;
there were loops of bunting about the railings of its porches.

“That’s the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club,” said Mr. Gibbs; “the
Commodore’s just come to anchor; that’s his yacht out there; there’ll
be some fine racing this aft; the Stars are going out.”

“Ham or cheese?” Mrs. Gibbs inquired, proffering sandwiches. She was
busy with the lunch, snapping strings, opening boxes, squeezing wrapped
tissue-paper packages with her fingers, shaking them, hazarding guesses
as to their contents.

“I wonder what Hattie’s got in here,” she kept saying.

“Do have some sauerkraut; I made it myself. I thought maybe you’d
like it. Don’t you fancy mustard dressing? ... Well, try the stuffed
eggs. Hope you think they’re good. The cake’s Hattie’s; I think her
chocolate’s splendid.... Mr. Devlin, some mustard pickles? Some eggs?
... Goodness gracious, papa! Look out for Herbie! He’ll get himself all
sopping!”

“Say, Mr. Gibbs, this beer is great! How do you manage to have it so
cold?” Martin asked.

“I bring it down a day or two ahead of time and the steward puts it on
the ice for me; just half a dozen bottles, you know; doesn’t put him to
too much trouble.”

“Well, this is a great little Club all right.”

“_We_ think it’s nice. Just a few of us that have children got together
and organized it. The Cohasset Beach has a big bar, and there always is
a good deal of drinking going on down there. The New Yorkers, you know,
come down for a good time. No place for young folk.”

“No, you bet your life.”

Jeannette, in spite of herself, found she was hungry. The fried chicken
in the oiled tissue paper was delicious, and she loved the liverwurst
sandwiches. Mrs. Sturgis and her girls had always been extremely fond
of liverwurst; Kratzmer kept it, and many a luncheon Jeannette, her
mother and sister had made with little else. The hot cup of coffee,
that Mrs. Gibbs poured from the tin pot the Club steward brought and
set down in the sand, put life into her. The pleasant heat of the
day, the sunshine, the life and frolicking in sand and water, forced
enjoyment upon her. But she would not go in swimming when Martin
urged her. One glance at the crude bath-house with its gray boards
and canvas roof was sufficient to decide her on this point. She sat
stiffly beside Mrs. Gibbs, who had rocked Herbie to sleep in her arms,
and now moved so her shadow would keep the sun off the child’s face,
while she watched Mr. Gibbs and her husband disport themselves in the
water. Martin’s swimming always attracted attention and when he made
a beautiful swan dive from the end of the pier, there was a ripple of
applause. She felt proud of him, proud of his fine figure, the beauty
of his young body, his prowess, his unaffectedness.

“Who’s that young fellow doing all the fancy diving out there?” a man
sauntering up asked Mrs. Gibbs.

“S-ssh,” breathed that lady, indicating her sleeping child. “His name’s
Martin Devlin,” she whispered; “he works for Herbert in the city.”

Works for Herbert in the city! Jeannette felt the blood rush to her
face. Works for Herbert! Indeed! Well, he wouldn’t be _working_ for
Herbert much longer. She’d have something to say about _that_. The
idea! The impertinence! Giving the impression that her wonderful Martin
was merely an employee of Herbert Gibbs!

Her husband, wet and dripping, came up to her and flung himself down
panting upon the sand.

“Gee,” he said boyishly, “that water’s great! Never had a better swim
in my life. It’s a shame you didn’t go in, Jan.”

He looked at her, sensing something was amiss, but she smiled at him
and pressed his wet, sandy hand.

Late in the afternoon they prepared to go home. As they were about to
leave the Club, a man climbing into his automobile offered a lift.
Martin and Jeannette begged to be allowed to walk and persuaded their
hosts on account of the baby to take advantage of the car. Left to
themselves, they commenced a leisurely return.

Along the tree-bordered roads that fringed the shore, other groups in
white skirts and flannels were wending their way homeward; flags flew
from poles or were draped over doorways; the strains of a waltz drifted
seductively from the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club; the blue water of the
Sound was dotted with glistening triangles of sails, heeled over and
headed in one direction.

“Those are the Stars,” Martin exclaimed; “the race is finishing; number
seven seems to have it cinched. That steam yacht over there with all
the flags is the judges’ boat.”

They watched for a moment longer. Far out in midstream, one of the
Sound steamers was passing; already lights were beginning to twinkle in
her cabins.

“Wonderful day,” commented Martin, giving his wife’s hand, as it rested
in the crook of his elbow, a squeeze with his arm. They wandered
onward. “I’d love to have a home with you in a place like this, with
the sailing and swimming and tennis and all this outdoor fun. It’s my
idea of living. A fellow Mr. Gibbs introduced me to out on the raft
belongs to the Cohasset Beach Club, too. He told me they’ve got some
swell tennis courts over there and he was after me to play with him
to-morrow.”

“And will you?” Jeannette asked, listlessly.

“Well, I guess I can’t. Mr. Gibbs said something about some friends of
theirs asking us all to go sailing to-morrow.”

“That will be nice,” said his wife, still in a lifeless tone, but
Martin did not notice.

“By George, I think this is a great place. I was asking Mr. Gibbs about
rents, and he tells me we could get a fine little eight-room house for
forty a month, and it’s only three-quarters of an hour from town.”

“And what would you do without your theatres and your shows and your
little dinners downtown?” smiled Jeannette.

“Oh--they could go hang!”

The smile upon his wife’s face twisted skeptically. She knew Martin
better than he knew himself.

“And don’t you think the Gibbses ’re awful nice folks? They don’t put
on any airs but ’re friendly and simple. They’d take us under their
wing and ’d be darned nice neighbors.”

Jeannette shut her mouth. It was not the time to shatter his
enthusiasm; he was having a good time, imagined these people wonderful;
it wouldn’t be kind of her to show him now how vulgar and cheap and
horrid they and their friends and their little ridiculous Club were.
No,--it would only hurt him, and under the influence of the day and the
good time, it would lead to a quarrel,--and she was sick of quarrels.
She reminded herself she was out of sorts from the long day of boredom
and disappointment; it would be madness to say a word now. The time
when she could make him see the Gibbses, their house, their friends,
their tiresome pleasures and cheap environment as she saw them would
come, and she must bide her time.

“... not so particularly interesting,” Martin was saying, “but a darned
good sort, and he’s got a shrewd business head. I think he likes me
first-rate, and I was mighty glad to see you and Mrs. Gibbs pulling
together. She told me she thought you were great, said all manner of
nice things about how swell you looked. She’s not much of a looker,
herself, but she certainly has got the right feeling of hospitality.
Know what I mean, Jan? She gives you the best she’s got, and makes you
feel at home and that she’s glad you’re in her house. I think that’s
bully.... And isn’t that kid a corker? Golly, I think he’s slick! You
know, I carried him all the way down from the house to the Club and he
had his arms round my neck the whole way. He made funny little sounds
in my ear, you know, as though he was kind of enjoying himself! ...
Gee, he’s a great baby!”

That flat-headed, vacant-faced child? ... Well, Martin was _hopeless_!
He must be crazy; there was no use talking to him!


§ 3

In the morning Jeannette vigorously renewed her resolution not to mar
her husband’s pleasure. For the first time, since her marriage, she
felt oddly estranged from him. There was a rent somewhere in the veil
through which he had hitherto appeared so handsome, so considerate,
so wonderfully perfect, and the glimpse she had of him now through
the rift was disconcerting and a little shocking. While they were
dressing, he smoked a cigarette although he well knew the fumes of it
before breakfast made her giddy; at the table he was unnecessarily
noisy, laughed too loudly, with his mouth wide open and full of
muffin, and after breakfast on the ill-kept lawn, he rolled about with
the Gibbs baby, making a buffoon of himself and streaking his white
trousers with grass green and dirt. They were to go sailing at ten
o’clock,--the Websters were to call for them,--and it was thoughtless
of Martin, and indicated all too clearly his utter indifference to
her feelings. He looked a sight in his dirtied flannels! ... But
she _would_ be sweet! She _would_ be amiable! She would _not_ undo
whatever good had been accomplished. At four o’clock they would take
the train back to the city; there remained less than seven hours more
of this dreadful visit! Martin had completely captivated Mrs. Gibbs;
his enthusiasm for the baby had been the last compelling touch; she
shrieked at everything he said, thought him “perfectly killing.” Both
she and Mr. Gibbs had been cordial to Jeannette. Grimly, the girl
determined she would hold herself in leash for the few short hours that
remained, would smile and smirk and simper and do whatever they wanted!

But it was the ten-forty train that night which she and Martin were
able to catch back to town. The Websters’ yacht had been becalmed, and
all day the boat had rocked upon the slow oily swells of the Sound, the
sail flapping dismally, the ropes creaking and straining in the blocks.
The women had huddled together in the scant shade of the sail, while
the men sprawled helplessly in the flagellating sun. Herbie had wailed
and whimpered for hours before his mother had been able to quiet him
off to sleep. She had kept repeating in a sort of justification for
his ill temper: “Why, he wants his bottle; the poor darling wants his
bottle; ’course he’s cross, he wants his bottle.”

At four in the afternoon a motor-boat had come within hailing distance
and generously offered a tow. Fifteen minutes later they were underway
in its wake, when something suddenly went wrong with the motor-boat’s
engine, and both vessels slowly heaved from side to side on the oily
swells. Mrs. Webster frankly became seasick. The men shouted to one
another across the strip of water between the boats, but none of the
suggestions of either party brought results. The motor-boat being
equipped with oars, it was decided to row for assistance,--a matter of
two miles’ steady pull. Martin had wanted to go along and lend a hand,
but Jeannette tugged at his arm and sternly forbade him to leave her.

Effective aid finally appeared towards eight o’clock in the evening
when the gathering darkness had begun to make their position really
perilous, and an hour later the party clambered out on the float
in front of the Family Yacht Club, cramped, hungry, but profoundly
thankful. By the time Martin and Jeannette had reached the Gibbses’
house and made ready for their return to town, the ten-forty had been
the earliest train they could catch back to the city. Their hosts
begged them to remain for the night, but Jeannette was inflexible
in insisting upon returning home. She feared another hour spent at
Cohasset Beach would drive her stark, raving mad.



CHAPTER V


§ 1

When Martin went on his honeymoon to Atlantic City, he had taken
his annual two weeks’ vacation. During the hot weather of summer,
therefore, he and Jeannette were obliged to remain in the sweltering
city. But Jeannette did not mind the heat. Adventuring in married
life was too utterly absorbing; she loved her new home, and each day
found new delight in managing it. She and her husband considered
themselves deliriously happy. Nights on which they did not go to the
theatre, they roamed the bright upper stretches of Broadway, sauntered
along Riverside Drive as far as Grant’s Tomb, or meandered into the
Park, where electric lights cast a theatrical radiance on trees and
shrubbery. On Sundays they made excursions to the beaches, and one
week-end they went to Coney Island on Saturday afternoon and stayed
the night at the Manhattan Beach Hotel. Jeannette long remembered
the glorious planked steak they enjoyed for dinner on that occasion,
sitting at a little table by the porch railing, listening to the big
military band, while all about them a gay throng chatted and laughed
at other tables, and crowds surged up and down the boardwalk as the
Atlantic thundered a dull rhythmical bourdon to the stirring music of
trumpet and drum.

Her mother departed the first of August for Canada. The concert tour
having been finally decided upon,--without the violinist,--every day or
so cards arrived from Mrs. Sturgis post-marked “Montreal,” “Quebec,”
“Toronto.” The venture could hardly be considered a financial success,
she wrote, but she and the girls were having just too wonderful a time!
The Canadians were extraordinarily hospitable!

Alice, Roy, and the baby returned from Freeport the last of September;
she expected to be confined early in November. The Devlins visited
them one Sunday during the last weeks of their stay on Long Island,
and Jeannette wondered how her sister could be happy in such an
environment. The room the Beardsleys occupied was under the roof and,
during the day, like an oven. Etta, Alice told her, woke up sometimes
as early as five or five-thirty, and nothing would persuade the child
to go to sleep again. As soon as she was awake, she began to fret, and
her wails disturbed the other boarders at that hour. Either father
or mother would find it necessary to get up, dress, and wheel the
child out in her carriage, pushing her around and around the block
until she could be brought safely back to the house. On Sundays when
breakfast was not until nine o’clock, these hours of the early silent
mornings were a long, wearisome, hungry trial. Jeannette thought the
food at the boarding-house was markedly meager, and Alice had to admit
that as the season was drawing to a close, there were evidences of
retrenchment on the part of the landlady, but at first, she assured her
sister, the table had been plentiful and good. The effect of all this
upon Jeannette had been a determination to order her own life along
safer lines. Two or three times Alice had come up to the city during
the summer to spend the night. On these occasions Roy slept at his
own flat in the Bronx, as there was only a narrow couch available at
the Devlins’. To this Martin had been relegated, and the two sisters
occupied the bed together. Alice was very large. It worried Jeannette;
she was once more full of apprehensions. She made up her mind that for
herself she did not want a baby for a long time, not until she and
Martin were out of debt, and had saved something so that she could be
sure of a certain amount of comfort and care.

Martin’s attitude about money distressed her. He did not seem to take
the matter of their finances with sufficient seriousness. He was ever
urging her to engage a maid to attend to the dish-washing and clean
up after dinner. He hated kitchen work, himself, and equally hated to
have his wife do it. When he finished his dinner and rose from the
table, rolling a cigar about between his teeth and filling his mouth
with good, strong inhalations of satisfying tobacco smoke, he felt
contented, replete, ready for talk and relaxation. To have Jeannette
disappear into the kitchen and begin banging around out there with
pans and rattling dishes annoyed him. He could not bring himself to
help her; something in him rebelled at such work. His wife readily
understood how he felt; she sympathized with him, and did not want him
to help her, but she had her own aversion to letting the dishes stand
over night and having them to do after breakfast the following day.
It took the best part of her morning, and meant she could never get
downtown until afternoon. But Martin was willing to concede nothing; he
answered her arguments by reiterating his advice to her to hire a girl.

“Good God, Jan,” he would say in characteristic vigorous fashion, “she
would cost you fifteen or twenty dollars a month, and then you could
get out as early as you wanted to in the mornings and we could have our
evenings together.”

It was just that fifteen or twenty dollars a month which Jeannette
wanted to save to pay on her bills. She had inherited a sense of
frugality; it worried her to be in debt. Martin, on the other hand,
was blandly indifferent. He was willing to deny himself very little,
his wife often felt, to help her contribute to the “till.” They had
many arguments about the matter but never reached a conclusion. Their
creditors,--they owed a little less than three hundred dollars,--were
kept satisfied by a small remittance each month but something more
always had to be charged. Jeannette was baffled. She talked it over
with Alice. The Beardsleys lived more simply than the Devlins; they did
not entertain nor go out to dinner so often nor to the theatre, and
they paid only half as much rent. Their whole scale of expenditure was
more economical. That was the answer, of course. When Jeannette told
Martin they were living beyond their means, he grew angry.

“Damn it,” he answered her, “if there is one thing I hate more than
another, it’s a piker! What do you want to crab about the bills for?
Haven’t we got everything we want? Aren’t we getting along all right?
Who’s kicking?”

Jeannette heaved a sigh of weariness. Some day before long she would
have to persuade him to her way of thinking.


§ 2

Alice’s boy was born in October and was christened Ralph Sturgis
Beardsley by the Reverend Doctor Fitzgibbons, much to Mrs. Sturgis’
tearful satisfaction. Alice had a comparatively easy time with the
birth of her second child, but again there was an aftermath which kept
her weak and anæmic and necessitated an operation just before Christmas.

It was just before Christmas that Jeannette urged Martin to ask for a
raise. Several circumstances encouraged her: she had learned through
Miss Holland that Walt Chase was getting eighty-five dollars a week,--a
big mail order concern out in Chicago had made him an offer and Mr.
Corey had been obliged to raise his salary in order to keep him; Martin
had met John Archibald of the Archibald Engraving Company, the largest
color engravers in the city, and Mr. Archibald had bought Martin a
drink at the bar in the Waldorf and presented him with a cigar; lastly,
her husband had landed a new engraving account a few weeks before and
had brought in considerable holiday business. Martin heeded her advice
and had a talk with Herbert Gibbs, who promised to take the matter up
with his brother, Joe, and seemed disposed to recommend the increase.
In the wildest of spirits, Martin came home, waltzed his wife around
the apartment, kissed her a dozen times, told her again and again
she was a wonder, insisted she stop her preparations for dinner, and
carried her off to a café downtown where he ordered a pint of champagne
and toasted her.

His elation, however, was not fully justified. Martin had asked for
a substantial increase and a commission on all new accounts. It was
evident that in discussing the matter, the brothers had decided this
was too much. They agreed to give him three thousand a year on a twelve
months’ contract.

“I always detested that flat-headed pig,” Jeannette exclaimed
inelegantly when Martin brought home the news. “Think of how we tried
to entertain him and that stupid wife of his, and how we went down to
visit them and let them bore us to death! I knew he was that kind of a
creature!”

“Aw, come, come, Jan,” Martin remonstrated; “you want to be fair. Herb
did the best he could; it was old Joe who kicked. Three thousand a year
isn’t so bad; that’s two hundred and fifty a month. Not so rotten for a
fellow twenty-seven.... Now I hope to God you’ll get a girl in here to
help run the kitchen.”

“Well,--all right,” Jeannette conceded, “only you’ve got to go on
helping me save. I want to pay off every cent we owe.... I suppose I
get my half as usual.”

“Sure. I’ll be paid now twice a month: first and fifteenth.”

“Let’s see; ... that’s a hundred and twenty-five. I get sixty-two
fifty; that’s really five dollars more a week, isn’t it?”

“You’re a little tight-wad,--do you know that, darling?”

“No, I’m not,” Jeannette defended herself. “I’m only trying to run
things economically and systematically, and to do that you’ve _got_ to
plan ahead. The trouble with you, Mart, is that you never do!”

The raise led to the appearance of Hilda in the kitchen. Hilda was
a big-boned, good-natured Swedish girl, willing, but a careless
cook, often exasperatingly stupid. Jeannette paid her fifteen dollars
a month, and established her in the vacant bedroom not hitherto
furnished, which involved an outlay of nearly a hundred dollars.

In spite of the additional income, money continued to be a problem.
Jeannette still felt that she and Martin were living too extravagantly,
and that her husband did not do his share in helping to retrench. She
had been entirely satisfied in the old days before she married to go to
the theatre in gallery or rear balcony seats, but Martin scorned these
locations. When he went to a show, he said, he wanted to enjoy himself,
and sitting in the cheap seats robbed him of any pleasure whatsoever.
It was the same whenever they went downtown to dinner; he preferred the
expensive hotels and restaurants; when he bought new clothes he went
to a tailor and had the suit made to order; he tipped everywhere he
went far too generously. If there was any economizing to be done, it
was always Jeannette who must do it, and what made it all the harder
was that he did not thank her for the self-denial. He spent,--his wife
had no way of knowing how much,--a great deal for drinks, and for the
gin and vermuth he brought home. Once a week, sometimes oftener, he
would arrive with a bottle of each, carefully wrapped up in newspaper,
under his arm. Every time they entertained, she knew it meant more gin
and more vermuth for cocktails. Martin was not a tippler. Frequently
several days or a week would go by without his even suggesting a
cocktail. He did not seem to want one, unless there was company, or
he happened to come home specially tired. Jeannette had never seen
him intoxicated, although on the last day of the year a number of the
men at his office had gathered in the late afternoon at a neighboring
bar, and wished each other “Happy New Year” over and over. Martin
arrived home, glassy-eyed and noisy, wanting her to kiss and love him.
She hated him when he had been drinking; she even loathed the odor
of liquor on his breath; it made it strong and hot like the breath
of a panther. Another expense was his cigars of which he consumed
half-a-dozen a day. She knew they cost money, and she knew Martin well
enough to feel sure that the kind he liked was not the inexpensive
variety.

There was also his card playing to be taken into account. Sandy
MacGregor had a circle of friends who played poker together generally
once a week, on Friday nights. At first Jeannette had urged Martin to
go when Sandy had rung him up, asking if he would like to “sit in.” She
considered it part of a good wife’s rôle: a man should not be expected
to give up masculine society, or an occasional “good time with the
boys” merely because he was married. She did not entirely approve of
poker, but Martin loved it. Whenever he won, he woke her up when he
came home and announced it triumphantly; when he lost he said nothing
about it, and she felt she had no right to ask questions. She suspected
he did not tell her the truth about the size of the stakes for which
he played, realizing she would worry, so she never inquired, and if
Martin came home and put seven or eight dollars on her dressing-table,
exultingly telling her that it was half his winnings, she thanked him
with a bright smile and a kiss for his generous division, even though
she was confident he had won a great deal more.

On the first and fifteenth of the month he gave her sixty-two dollars
and fifty cents. She had to apportion the money among the tradespeople,
the bills “downtown,” and keep enough for Hilda’s wages and incidental
table expenses for the ensuing fortnight. It left her very little to
spend on herself, for clothes and amusements,--far from enough. For
years she had been independent, her own mistress, with the disposal
of her entire earnings; it was hard for her now to have to economize
and compromise and resort to makeshifts because of her husband’s
indifference and improvidence. It brought back disturbing memories
of old days when she and Alice and their mother had had to skimp and
struggle in order to eke out the simplest order of existence. It was
just what she feared might happen when she had considered marrying.

A month arrived when Jeannette found upon her grocer’s bill a charge
for gin and vermuth and for half a box of cigars: nine dollars and
twenty-five cents! It precipitated an angry quarrel between her husband
and herself. Martin had been encroaching in various ways upon her
half share of his salary, and she proposed now to put a stop to it.
He argued that the cocktails and cigars had been for her friends when
invited to dinner; she retorted that neither cocktails nor cigars had
had any share in the entertainment she provided, and if he chose to
have them on hand and offer them, it was his own affair. She taxed
him with the whole score of his extravagance, while Martin chafed and
twisted under her sharp criticisms, swore and grew sulky. He hated
unpleasantness and tried to evade the issue: he’d pay for the booze
and cigars and buy her a hat or anything else she fancied, if she’d
only “forget it” and quit “ragging” him. But Jeannette felt that the
question of an equal division of their financial responsibility was
vital to the success of their marriage, the happiness of both, and
she refused to be deflected. He finally stormed himself out of the
apartment, viciously banging the door shut behind him. Two days of
misery followed for them both, when they met with the exchange of
monosyllables only, though their thoughts pursued one another through
every hour. Their reconciliation was terrific, each willing to concede
everything, eager to make promises and to assure the other of utter
contriteness.

From Jeannette’s point-of-view matters improved. Twice Martin gave her
an extra ten dollars out of his half of his salary.


§ 3

When the year’s lease on the apartment neared its end, Martin was not
for renewing it. Herbert Gibbs had been talking to him about Cohasset
Beach, urging him to move there. Summer was approaching, Gibbs pointed
out, with all its good times of swimming and boating, and even in
winter, he assured Martin, there was plenty of outdoor sport: skating,
tobogganing, even skiing. In particular, his employer counselled, there
was a remarkable little house,--a bungalow,--with floors, ceilings and
inside trim of oak that had just become vacant through the death of its
owner, which could be had for fifty dollars a month. It was a great
bargain for the money. Martin was enthusiastic. Gibbs had promised he
would be at once elected to the Family Yacht Club, and had described
the good times its members had: dances every Saturday night and in
summer, swimming, yachting, picnics. The “bunch,” he assured the young
man, was a “live” one,--the pick of “good fellows.”

Jeannette listened to her husband’s glowing recital with a cold
tightening at her heart.

“He says, Jan,” Martin told her eagerly, “that every once in awhile
they have masquerade parties down at the Club, and everybody goes all
dressed up, with masks on, you know, so nobody recognizes you, and they
just have a riot of fun. Then about a dozen or fifteen of the fellows
are going to get sail-boats this year. There’s a ship-yard near there,
and the ship-builder has designed the neatest little sail-boat you ever
saw in your life. He calls it the A-boat, and they are only going to
cost ninety dollars apiece. Just think of that, Jan: ninety dollars
apiece! A sail-boat,--a little yacht,--for that sum! Gee whillikens!
Can you imagine the fun we’ll have? Everybody, you know, starts the
same with a new boat. Gibbs was crazy to have me order one,--the Club
is anxious to give the ship-builder as big an order as possible so’s to
get the price down,--so I fell for it and told him to put me down. I
thought maybe I’d call her the _Albatross_?”

“You--_what_?” asked Jeannette blankly.

“Sure, I told him to put me down. You know, it made a hit with him;
he’d’ve been awfully sore if I hadn’t; and it’s up to me to keep in
with old Gibbsey. I can sell it if we don’t like it. Gibbs put my name
up for membership in the Yacht Club.”

“He _did_?” Jeannette said blankly again.

“Well, darling, it’s only thirty dollars a year and I guess that’s not
going to break us; the initiation fee is twenty-five,--something like
that. Why the Club is just intended for young married folks like us;
there’re the dances for the ladies, and the card parties and picnics,
and there’re the sports for the men. Gee,--I think it will be great!
And Gibbsey tells me that by special arrangement this year the Cohasset
Beach Yacht Club is going to let us use its tennis courts!”

Jeannette looked into his excited eyes, and a dull exasperation came
over her.

“The poor, poor simpleton,” she thought. “He thinks he’ll like it;
Gibbs has filled him full. He’ll hate it as I hate it now inside of
a fortnight. He never would be contented in such a place; what would
he do without his theatres and the gay night life he loves? It’s hard
enough for us to live as we are,--we have to struggle and struggle
to make ends meet,--and here he is mad to try an even more expensive
method of living, involving clubs and club dues, yachts and commutation
fares! ... And in such a community with such people! The flat-headed
Gibbses and their awful friends picnicking there on the sand that
terrible Fourth of July! And Martin proposes I exchange them and their
vulgar dreadful society, their masquerades and card parties, for my
beautiful little apartment which I’ve tried to make perfect, which
everyone admires, and which is my joy and delight!”

There was a dangerous, fixed smile on her face as she rose from the
dinner table where they had been lingering over their black coffee, and
rang the little brass bell for Hilda to clear away.

“Well, what do you think, Jan? Don’t you believe we’d both come to love
the country? Don’t you think we’d have a pack of fun down there?”

She eyed him with a cold stare a moment before she answered slowly:

“I won’t consider it.”

His face fell.

“What’s more,” she added briefly, “I think you’re a fool.”

His expression darkened; he glowered at her, hurt to the quick. She
ignored him and went about the living-room straightening objects,
lowering shades, adjusting lights. All the time she was steeling
herself to the wrangle she knew was coming. She would be equal to
it; she would give him straight talk; she’d let him have a piece of
her mind and make him realize how absurd he was, how utterly insane.
Buying yachts and joining clubs! What did he think he was, anyway? A
millionaire?

The storm when it broke was the most violent they had yet known; it was
even worse than she had anticipated. Martin, usually noisy, cursing,
was quick to recover, while she rarely lost control of speech or
action. But now the thought of giving up her little home, as he calmly
proposed, infuriated her. He had not the faintest conception of how she
loved it; he had never done one single thing to improve or beautify it
beyond buying those frightful Macy daubs!

For the first time in their quarrels she could not control her tears.
Convulsed with sobbing, Martin thought she had capitulated. He waited
several minutes in distressed silence and then came to where she lay
upon the couch to put his arms about her and draw her to him, but she
turned on him with a fury that was shocking. Rebuffed, he stared at her
savagely, then snatched his hat and coat and left her with a violent
bang of the door.

Jeannette never for one moment thought she could not swing Martin
to her wishes. She could not conceive of herself weakening; Martin
had always been easy-going, good-natured. But she had forgotten how
purposeful he could be when his intent was hot; she had forgotten his
perseverance, his patience, his indefatigability when he wooed her; she
had forgotten his winningness, his persuasiveness. He brought all these
qualities into play now; there was no side-tracking him, no gainsaying
him. His mind was locked against the renewal of their lease, and set
upon Cohasset Beach. He argued, he cajoled, he pleaded, he coaxed.
Never had she known him so irritating or so winning. If she grew cross,
he was amiable; if she grew sorrowful, he was consoling and tender;
if she advanced arguments that brooked no reply, he was loving and
answered her with kisses. But he was determined; nothing swerved him
from his purpose.

Once again, Jeannette found no comforting support in anybody. Her
mother said she ought to give in to her husband if he was so set upon
the plan; it was the wife’s place to give way. Alice thought it would
be delightful to live in the country, and assured her sister she would
come to love it; she and Roy had been talking all winter about moving
to some place on Long Island or in New Jersey, but it was hard to find
anything really nice for twenty-five dollars a month within commuting
distance of the city; they were going to board at Freeport again for
the summer and they intended to look around and see what they could
find there. It would be ideal for the children.... Was there any hope
... any prospect ...?

“No, thank Heaven,” Jeannette answered fervently. She had enough to
bother her without the complication of a baby just now.

On the anniversary of her wedding day she surrendered. Martin had been
so sweet and gentle with her, so anxious to please, so considerate,
every impulse within her prompted her to do the thing he wanted. She
could see how eager he was for his sail-boat, his new club and the
country; he was mad to have them; her heart was full of love for him.
She reminded herself that when she had entered into this marriage
she had been determined to give more, if need be, than he did, to
make their union a success. Here was an opportunity. It meant a great
sacrifice for herself; she had no faith in the experiment, but felt
sure she would learn to hate all the people and the place, and Martin
would soon tire of it and them and share her feelings. But now it
was the thing above all else he wanted, and it was her chance to be
generous.

She extracted from him two promises, however. It was a foregone
conclusion, she told him, that she would not be happy at Cohasset
Beach, but if she agreed to go and live there with him, it must be
understood between them that she was to be free to come into New York
as often as she pleased, to shop or to visit her mother and Alice, or
do anything she liked. He must also understand that he was to keep a
closer watch upon their finances. With commutation, railroad fares and
club dues added to their expenses they would have to practise a much
more rigid economy. She wanted to get the table expenditures down to
fifteen dollars a week, and that would be out of the question if he
expected her to entertain. As soon as they were out of debt and had a
little ahead, she would be more than willing to have him invite people
to visit them.

He promised everything. He was only too anxious and willing, he said,
to agree to all she asked, to show his deep gratitude.


§ 4

The bungalow at Cohasset Beach, at first sight, consoled her in some
degree for giving up the apartment. The little house was charming, and
charmingly situated. It had been built a few years before by a rich
old lady, an invalid, who had been compelled to pass her days in a
wheel-chair which she operated herself. Because of the chair, the house
had been planned bungalow-fashion, though there was an upstairs of two
small bedrooms and an extra bath, and the doorways between rooms had
been made particularly wide to permit the easy passage of the chair.
Inside there were oak floors throughout, a spacious fireplace, and
an oak-timbered ceiling in a generous-sized living-room, off which
opened two bedrooms and, opposite, the dining-room. There was an acre
or so of unkempt ground about the house with some gnarled old apple
trees, in blossom when Jeannette first saw them, and at the rear
the ground sloped down to a rush-bordered pool in whose rippleless
surface all the colors of the sky, blossoming trees and bordering
reeds were intensified in glorious reflection. A white cow stood upon
her own inverted image at the farther side. There was no view of the
Sound,--the bungalow was a good mile from the water,--but it was
picturesquely set, and Jeannette felt, since she had been forced to
abandon the city, she could not have found a home in the country that
suited her better.

The move from town was accomplished without a hitch; even Hilda was
successfully transplanted. Jeannette set herself determinedly to work
to fit herself and her furniture into the new environment, and was
surprised to discover how easily both were accomplished. Expenses alone
distressed her. The vans which brought down the household effects cost
more than she had expected, and she was obliged to order more furniture
and rugs to make the new home attractive. Unfortunately, the bungalow
had casement windows and this necessitated cutting and remaking all
her curtains. Some in addition, too, were needed for the living-room,
and Jeannette had decided that scrim would be both practical and
economical, but the clerk in the store had shown her a soft, lovely
material, stamped with a design of long green grasses and iris, which
he assured her was “sunfast.” The pale purple and green in the goods
had appealed to her as so unusually beautiful and effective that she
had not been able to resist getting it. She decided to plant iris about
the house in the long narrow strips of flower-beds, and to carry iris
as a _motif_ throughout the place. In a Fifth Avenue shop there was
some china that had a pattern of _fleur-de-lis_ in its center, and her
heart was set on some day acquiring it for her new home.

Martin was immediately elected to the Family Yacht Club; the Gibbses
had him and his wife to dinner and invited the Websters and another
couple to make their acquaintance; Mrs. Rudolph Drigo and Mrs. Blum,
who were neighbors, called, also Doctor Vinegartner of the Episcopal
Church. Alice, Roy, and the children spent a Sunday with her sister and
Alice was enthusiastic about everything. She told Roy they would have
to find a house of their own at Cohasset Beach without delay. Summer
had arrived before Jeannette was half aware of its approach.

The weather turned glorious; the dogwood came and went; the country
was full of sweet scents; robins and thrushes sang with open throbbing
throats in the apple trees and hopped about in the shade; the frogs
shrilled musically at evening in the pool, but Jeannette did not find
the happiness for which she hoped. She tried to be content; she sought
for joy in her new life and surroundings. She found none. Too many
things were wrong. Over and over again she decided it was hopeless.

First of all, there was the Family Yacht Club which Martin loved and
she despised. She had known beforehand what it was going to be like,
and closer acquaintance proved her premise to have been correct.
All-year-round residents of Cohasset Beach made up its membership.
There were less than three thousand people in the Long Island village
during the winter; it was only in summer that the place became
fashionable. Among those who belonged to the little yacht club,
Jeannette soon discovered, were Tim Birdsell, the village plumber; Zeb
Kline, a contractor, hardly better than a carpenter; Fritz Wiggens,
who kept an electrical equipment store on Washington Street; Steve
Teschemacher and Adolph Kuntz, who were real estate agents and were
interested in a development known as “Cohasset Park”; then there were
the local dentist and his wife, the local attorney and his helpmate,
and the local doctor, who seemed to be of a better sort than the rest
and was fortunately unmarried. The ladies took an active part in the
social life of the yacht club and ’Stel Teschemacher, Chairwoman of
the Entertainment Committee, went early to call upon the new member’s
wife to invite her to come to the “Five Hundred Club” meeting on the
following Friday afternoon. There was a sprinkling of others who
boasted of a slightly more exalted social status: Mrs. Drigo’s husband
operated a large ice plant in New York City. Mrs. Blum was the wife of
the well-known confectioner, and Percy Webster was connected with an
advertising agency. If there were more interesting members they kept
themselves aloof,--at least Jeannette did not meet them. Once when
she was describing to her mother with a good deal of relish the type
of people who belonged to this club, and was referring to the list
of members in the club’s annual booklet, she was surprised to come
upon the name of Lester Short and that of a prominent magazine editor
well-known to her.

She asked Herbert Gibbs about these people at an early opportunity but
elicited nothing more satisfactory from him than: “Oh, they come round
occasionally.” If such was the case, Jeannette was unable to identify
them. She was interested to learn later that Lester Short and his wife
had six children and lived about half-a-mile beyond the village in the
region known as the “Point.”

Martin had no fault to find with his new friends. He was welcomed into
their hearts; he charmed them all; he was acclaimed immediately the
most popular member, and was appointed by the Commodore, old Jess
Higgenbothen, affable, decrepit and rich, and owner of most of the
acres Teschemacher and Kuntz were trying to sell as choice lots in
Cohasset Park, to serve on the entertainment committee with ’Stel
Teschemacher. Martin was enchanted with the cordiality with which he
was accepted; he thought Zeb Kline, Fritz Wiggens, young Doc French
“corking good scouts”; Zeb and Fritz were a little rough perhaps but
they were regular fellows; Steve Teschemacher was as “funny as a
crutch” and his partner, Adolph Kuntz, had about as sharp and shrewd a
mind as Martin had ever encountered.

“Why, you ought to hear Adolph talk politics!” he told his wife
enthusiastically. “He knows more about what’s going on up in Albany
right this minute than all the newspapers in New York. You ought to
hear him tell some of his experiences in the Republican Party!”

He might be interesting and clever, everything Martin said of him, but
to Jeannette he seemed uncouth, ill-bred, a spitter of tobacco juice.


§ 5

When the Yacht Club formally opened its summer season, Jeannette put
on her prettiest frock and went with her husband to the dance with
which it was inaugurated. It was one of the efforts she made to adapt
herself to the village life. She loved to dance. Swimming, sailing,
tennis did not appeal to her, but from the dances in the club-house she
hoped she might derive a certain amount of genuine pleasure. On the
night of the affair, after studying the reflection in her mirror she
had decided she had never looked so well; with truth she could say she
was a beautiful woman, and in this estimate of herself, she found ample
confirmation in Martin’s eyes. They hired a hack and drove over to the
club.

But for the young wife it proved a dismal experience. The yokels,--the
plumber, the electrician, the carpenter, the dentist and real estate
agents,--were afraid to approach her,--not that she wanted them
to,--and she had been left to the favor of Herbert Gibbs, Doc French,
and the old Commodore. The women eyed her covertly, whispered about
her and her gown, and made no advances. Herbert Gibbs danced with her
once, twice; Martin was three times her partner; Commodore Higgenbothen
had passed his “gallivanting” days; Doc French, whom she liked and to
whom she would have been glad to be cordial, did not dance at all. The
floor was rough and uneven; the music lugubrious; three small boys
kept up a fearful racket playing with some folding chairs stacked in
a corner. She watched Martin whirling and wheeling about the floor,
his face a broad grin, his eyes and teeth flashing, talking, laughing,
exchanging an endless banter with other couples, answering here, there
and everywhere to calls of “Martin” and “Mart.” At half-past ten she
could stand no more of it. She knew she was dragging her husband away
from a hilarious good time, but she was bored, disgusted with the whole
evening and the hoidenish, loud-voiced village folk. She would never
make the mistake of going to another of their wretched dances. Martin
could go if he wanted to; if he liked to hobnob with such people, he
could do so to his heart’s content: she wouldn’t raise one word of
objection, but wild horses wouldn’t drag her there again!

In a fortnight, there was another dance at the club, and this time
Martin took himself to the party alone, while Jeannette went to bed
with a magazine. He woke her up when he came home a little after
twelve, and told her he had had a wonderfully good time, and that
Lester Short, his wife and their two older children had been present.
But Jeannette had no regrets. The Shorts and her husband could enjoy
the society of the plumbers and carpenters and their wives if they
chose to do so; she felt satisfied that if she had gone she would have
been miserable.


§ 6

Besides the Yacht Club there were other things in the new order of
existence that proved annoying. Meat and vegetables cost considerably
more at Cohasset Beach than in the city, and everything else was
proportionally dearer. Jeannette had thought she might save a little
on her marketing in the country, and it was discouraging to discover
that this was quite impossible. She certainly had not expected to find
that prices were actually higher. Then there was not nearly the same
variety from which to choose in the stores here as there had been
in the groceries and particularly the meat markets of Amsterdam and
Columbus Avenues. She and Martin were especially fond of lamb kidneys
which she used to buy at the rate of three for five cents in New York.
Pulitzer’s at Cohasset Beach never seemed to have them. And even more
exasperating was the fact that fish could only be had on Thursdays
when the fish-man came around blowing his horn.

The neighborhood, too, was a source of discomfort. Jeannette
discovered, within a few days after they had moved into the bungalow,
that the reason so attractive a house had been for rent at such a
figure, with its acre and more of ground, its apple trees and pond and
picturesque setting, was that it was situated on the wrong side of
town, beyond the railroad tracks, a mile from the water. The desirable,
residential section of Cohasset Beach was that in which the Herbert
Gibbses lived, on the hill overlooking the Sound. A block from the
bungalow, their rear yards abutting upon the railroad tracks, was a row
of shabby cottages occupied by laborers, Polacks mostly, who worked
in the quarries down on the “Point.” Here fences sagged and refuse
littered the roadway, dirty children scrambled about and screamed at
one another, drying laundry fluttered from clothes-lines, and fat
dark women in calicoes and shuffling shoes gossiped from doorstep
to doorstep. On Saturday nights there were invariably celebrations
among these people at which, from the singing and general racket,
it was evident that red wine flowed freely, and the doleful whine
of an accordion accompanying hoarse masculine voices rose dismally
from sundown until the early morning hours, interrupted by shouts
of rollicking laughter. Martin assured his wife that these people
were simple creatures, peasants transplanted but a few years from
their native soil, celebrating after a week of toil, in a harmless
jovial way after the fashion to which, in the old country, they had
been accustomed. But Jeannette found it disturbing, not a little
frightening, especially on those nights when Martin went off to the
Yacht Club and left her alone with only Hilda in the house.

Lastly mosquitoes, germinated in the pond within a hundred yards of
her own door, made their appearance in hungry numbers early in July.
The pool was practically stagnant,--without visible outlet,--and the
neighbor who owned it and who operated a small dairy, refused to oil
it as his cows watered there. The bungalow windows were unscreened.
Jeannette did not understand how she had failed to notice the fact
when she first inspected the premises. The matter had to be remedied
immediately, or life would be insupportable. The landlord declined to
do anything; Martin thought perhaps they could endure the nuisance
until cold weather came, but his wife declared that unthinkable. If the
windows were shut with the lights on, the bungalow became insufferably
hot and stuffy; if left open, moths, winged bugs, every kind of flying
insect of the night together with the pests bred in the stagnant pool,
flew in to buzz about the globes and torment those beneath them. Zeb
Kline agreed to equip the bungalow with screens,--the frames would have
to be fitted to the insides of the windows on account of their being
casement,--for sixty-five dollars, and Jeannette, angered by Martin’s
complacent acceptance of the circumstances, and his indifferent
attitude towards that for which she felt him largely responsible, told
the carpenter to go ahead.

There were days when in the seclusion of her own bedroom she gave
way freely to her tears. She wanted to be happy; she wanted to be
a good manager of her house, a good wife to Martin. Life often
seemed to demand more from her than she was capable of giving.
Concede--concede--concede! It was all concession for her; Martin gave
nothing.


§ 7

There came another Fourth of July, one year from the time of the visit
to the Gibbses. Doc French was a member of the Cohasset Beach Yacht
Club as well as of the Family Yacht Club. There was to be a wonderful
party at the former on the evening of the Fourth; it was the Club’s
annual show. A dinner was to be followed by a vaudeville entertainment
provided by a number of talented actors from the Lambs Club, and after
that a dance which would probably last all night. Doc French invited
Martin Devlin and his wife to be his guests; he was giving a little
dinner party for his sister-in-law, Lou, and her cousin, Mrs. Edith
Prentiss, who were spending the holiday with him.

Jeannette was overjoyed at the prospect. She spent a day shopping in
New York, and bought herself silver satin slippers, a pair of gray silk
stockings to wear with a silver dress,--part of her trousseau,--which
she had had no occasion to put on since she moved to the country. It
promised to be a delightful affair and Martin shared her excitement.

It turned out to be all she expected. The spacious dining-room, the
dancing floor, even the awninged porches were crowded with tables,
gay with flowers and patriotic decorations. There was a beguiling
atmosphere of soft lights, color and music, smart and lovely women,
elaborate costumes, attractive men. Jeannette felt that she herself
bloomed with beauty, that she appeared tall, statuesque, superb.
People at other tables threw appraising glances and occasionally she
saw a lorgnette levelled in her direction. Doc French was admiring and
attentive; she liked his sister-in-law and particularly Mrs. Prentiss;
the vaudeville show on an improvised stage at one end of the long room
was one of the best she had ever witnessed. Some of the actors were
head-liners in their profession; with songs and stories, they kept the
audience rocking with laughter and stirred it to roars of applause. One
of the entertainers particularly drew Jeannette’s interest,--a young
actor, named Michael Carr. An unusually attractive youth, renowned for
his good looks, a matinée idol, he had held the boards on Broadway all
winter as the leading attraction in a Viennese opera. Jeannette thought
he sang delightfully, and had a most charming personality.

Towards midnight the chairs and tables were cleared away and the
dancing began. Doc French did not dance, himself, but he had no
difficulty in securing partners for his guests, and Jeannette floated
around the gaily decorated ball-room through the soft colors of calcium
lights thrown upon the dancers, in an intoxication of pleasure. Men,
young and old, seemed anxious to know her and ask her to dance; she
was in demand every moment, and in one of these dizzying whirls she
was interrupted by Doc French to introduce Michael Carr. The actor had
asked to be presented; could he have a dance? The next was promised,
but he could have it just the same, she said with shining eyes. She
drifted away in his arms presently, a sweet giddiness enveloping her
senses, rocking her in sensuous delight. They glided from the dance
and wandered out upon the long pier over the water. The lisping waves
lapped the piles and rhythmically beat upon the pebbled shore, the
music of the dance reached them plaintively, yachts white and ghostly
stood sentinels at their moorings, their cabins pin-pricked with
lights, their starboard lanterns glowing green. The night air was
caressing, gay voices floated toward them, there was smothered laughter
from hidden corners, the heavens were a myriad of golden stars. Quite
simply Michael Carr took the slim silver figure in his arms, she
melted into his embrace and their lips clung to one another’s long and
lovingly. It was a night of love, a night for lovers.

The brilliantly lit ball-room, the music drew them back. Jeannette had
no sense of guilt; the mood of the hour still wrapped her; for the
moment she loved this man whole-heartedly; he was divine, a super-man,
a god. No thought of Martin came to distress her. She was supremely
content, supremely happy; it was rapture, bliss, enchantment. In her
ear he kept whispering:

“You are wonderful, you are beautiful, you are adorable.”

Doc French was beckoning to her, but she only smiled amiably at
him as she passed and floated on in Michael’s arms, bending and
undulating with him in perfect symmetry of motion. There was no
such thing as time or space; she shut her eyes, and seemed to be
floating--floating--floating---- Doc French stopped them with a hand on
the actor’s arm.

“Sorry to interrupt,” he said, “but I fear I must. Your husband, Mrs.
Devlin.... May I speak to you a moment?”

Carr said, “Oh, I beg pardon,” and stepped aside, but Jeannette’s
thoughts followed him.

“What is it, Doc?”

“Martin had better go home, Mrs. Devlin. He’s been downstairs at the
bar, and I guess he’s had a bit too much. I was going to take him home
myself but I didn’t know how to get into your house.”

“Martin?”

“He’s been downstairs at the bar, and I’m afraid the fellows there
wouldn’t let him get away.”

“_Martin?_”

Reality came blindingly upon her with a glare of hideous white light.
Her dream shattered. Ugliness obtruded,--things naked and angular,
harshness and cold cruelty! She felt as if she were being jerked from
enchanted slumber by a rude and horrid hand.

She clutched at her heart as if to tear out the pain that had already
stabbed her there.

“Martin!” she breathed again, gasping a little, the blood draining from
her face.

“He’s all right, Mrs. Devlin,--quite all right, I assure you. Nothing’s
happened to him--nothing wrong. There’s been no accident.”

“Accident?” Her eyes widened with sudden fear.

“No--no; it’s all right. He’s just drunk a little too much, and I
thought he’d better go home.”

“Oh, surely--right away. Where is he?”

“Well, we’ve got him out in my car.”

“Let’s go--let’s go then; let’s go quickly. I’ll get my wraps.” She
started for the dressing-room.

“Good-night,” Michael’s voice called after her but she did not turn her
head.

Doc French led her to the motor car. Martin lay huddled in the back,
insensate, a long string of saliva trailing from his under lip. A
strange man supported him.

A trembling, whispered exclamation escaped Jeannette. Her companion
kept on reassuring her.

“There’s nothing--nothing the matter,” he repeated. “He’s had too much
to drink, that’s all.... Get in the front seat with me and I’ll drive
you straight home and we’ll put him to bed.”

They bumped over the car-tracks in Washington Street and the dusty
uneven ground in front of the station. The dawn was coming up angry and
on fire in the east.

Before the bungalow, Jeannette jumped from the motor car and struggled
to insert the twisted latch-key in the lock, but her fingers shook so
much it took her some time to manage it. Behind her, Doc French and the
strange man were lifting Martin from the car. As they wrenched him free
he groaned painfully.

Jeannette flew into the house, flung on lights, tore back the
gay-figured cretonne cover of the bed. Her underclothes lay upon the
chair where she had tossed them when she had been so happily dressing.
She gathered these with one swift reach and threw them to the floor of
a closet. The stumbling feet were coming; the men were carrying Martin
head and feet. With a concerted effort they heaved him upon the bed and
he lay there inertly, sprawling, just as he had fallen.

“Can I help you, Mrs. Devlin?” asked the Doctor, dusting off his hands.

“Oh, no,--thank you very much,” Jeannette answered in a strained voice.

“Don’t you think we’d better undress him? He’s pretty heavy for you to
manage alone.”

Jeannette looked at the helpless figure flung out across the bed,
ungainly postured like a child’s discarded doll, purple lips parting
with each breath, the hair damp and tousled. One of his garters
had loosened and dangled now from the wrinkled hose that covered a
patent-leather pump.

“No,” she said again slowly, “thank you very much for all your
kindness, Doc,--but it’s my--my job; he belongs to me; I’ll take care
of him.”


§ 8

Three hours later she walked out on the back porch. The heat of the
Sunday morning was moist and tropical, giving promise of a scorching
day. The bells of the Catholic Church on the “Point” road were ringing
sweetly for the children’s mass. Her eyes felt burnt out from lack of
sleep: two black holes in her head. Hilda was making a small fuss in
the kitchen, rattling pans, droning hoarsely to herself. Jeannette
stood at the porch railing and looked off across the quiet country,
misty with the early heat. Emotions were at war in her heart, and there
was pain--pain--pain.

She had not been to bed; she had not even lain down. The silver gown
had been put away, her finery discarded, and now she wore the striped
velveteen wrapper in which she usually did her morning’s work. She had
undressed her husband, removed his shoes, drawn off his dress suit,
tugging at its arms, rolling him from one side to another to free the
clothing. She had washed his face with a cold wet rag and brushed the
rumpled hair from his eyes. Then she had put the room in order, opened
the casement windows, drawn the shades, closed the door and left him
to peace and sleep. The house had needed straightening and to this she
had turned her attention, adjusting rugs, pushing chairs into position,
emptying ash receivers, carrying away newspapers, arranging magazines
and books in neat piles, using broom and dust-pan, wiping the furniture
with a dust cloth. Hilda had given her some coffee at eight o’clock
and she had drunk it black and crunched some thin slices of buttered
toast. Now nothing remained to be done and the thoughts to which she
had resolutely shut her mind clamored for admittance to her weary
brain. Remorse and reproach, censure and repugnance, disillusionment,
humiliation, grief and regret,--they swarmed upon her like so many
black flies.

The hours of the morning ticked themselves away. She could not sleep;
she could not rest. Over and over her thoughts turned to the incidents
of the night, giving her no peace, no surcease. Every little while she
would go softly to Martin’s door and silently look in upon him; he lay
as she had left him. In spite of the opened windows the room reeked of
alcohol.

Towards noon she fell asleep on the couch in the living-room, and the
afternoon light was waning when she opened her eyes. The sound of water
woke her; Martin was running a bath, and when presently she entered the
bedroom, she found him shaving. She was shocked at his appearance; his
face was dead white, the eyes bloodshot, and his hand trembled as he
held the razor, but it was Martin, restored to life and sanity.

They avoided one another’s glance, and constraint held them silent. She
could see that physically he was weak, his nerves still shattered and
that his mind was sick with remorse, and fear of her displeasure. He
could not guess she wanted only to take him in her arms, to kiss and
comfort him, wanted only to be kind and good to him, to restore him to
health and strength again, wanted to utter no word of reproach but to
give him all the love she could and so ease the pain and shame within
herself.


§ 9

Three weeks later, Doc French drove up in front of the bungalow door in
his lumbering motor car. It was late in the afternoon. There had been a
heavy thunderstorm about two o’clock but now the sun was glittering on
all the dripping trees and drenched shrubbery and the air was fragrant
with sweet grassy and woodland smells.

There was to be another dance at the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club the
following Saturday night. Doc’s sister-in-law and Mrs. Prentiss were
coming down for it and would stay with him over the week-end; it
happened to be Lou’s birthday and he wanted Martin and Jeannette to
help celebrate the event at a small dinner he was arranging at the
Cohasset Beach club-house before the dance.

Jeannette thanked him and said that, no, she was sorry but she and
Martin had another engagement; Doc was very kind to think of them but
it would have to be another time.

When her husband came home on the five-twenty, she told him about it.

“Oh, you bet you,” he agreed. “No more of that kind of stuff for this
young fellow. We’re out of our class at that club, Jan.”

“I thought,” suggested Jeannette, “we might go to the other club that
night. There’s always a dance there, and it would be our excuse to
Doc French. It occurred to me that perhaps after we got to know those
people a little better, we might like it.”

Martin’s face beamed with pleasure.

“Would you? Would you really go?” he asked eagerly. “Say, Jan, that’ll
be fine. Say, if you only wouldn’t be so standoffish and proud, you’d
learn to like that gang and they’d learn to like you. They’re awfully
good-hearted.”

“Well, I’ll try,” said his wife.



CHAPTER VI


§ 1

It was quite an undertaking to go from Cohasset Beach to Freeport, on
the opposite side of Long Island. One had to take the steam train to
Jamaica and change cars there; the connections were bad; it took the
better part of two hours. But Alice had written her sister week after
week begging her and Martin to spend a Sunday with them and finally a
date had been set. It was the end of the Beardsleys’ stay at Freeport,
and the visit could not be further postponed if the Devlins were to
accomplish it at all. Jeannette was eager to go, but to Martin it meant
the loss of his one day in the week of yachting. There were races every
Sunday afternoon and since Martin had acquired his little A-boat, there
was no joy in life for him equal to the pleasure of sailing it. But
it held no joy for Jeannette; she resented the boat and everything
connected with it; to her it only meant ninety dollars’ worth of
extravagance and it took her husband away from her every week-end. He
spent Saturday afternoons “tuning up,” as he described it, for the race
on Sunday. She saw little of him on these days; he was always at the
yacht club and would often be half-an-hour to an hour late for dinner.
He never had had any sense of time.

So she had patiently urged the expedition to Freeport and had made him
promise weeks in advance that this particular date should be dedicated
to the visit.

The day was a glorious success. Martin was in his sweetest, merriest
mood and no regret over his lost sport lingered in his heart. There
was only a faint stirring of wind and little indication that it would
freshen, as previous days had been marked by calm; he was consoled,
therefore, in thinking that in all probability there would be no race
that afternoon.

Alice, Roy, and the children met them at the Freeport Station. They
were all going on a picnic over to the beach it was announced; a launch
would take them to a sandy reef that was their own discovery; it left a
little after eleven; they just had time.

The beach when they reached it was totally deserted. No one ever came
there, Alice explained; it was a narrow, hummocky strip of sand, a mile
or more in length with no habitation on it but a gray weather-beaten
shack falling into ruins. A rickety one-board pier jutted out into the
lagoon that separated this reef from the island shore and the launch
stopped there a moment to let the little party disembark before it went
chug-chugging on its way to Coral Beach farther along the coast, where
a small tent colony was springing into being. The launch would return
for them about five o’clock.

A sandy tramp of a few hundred yards over the dunes and sparse gray
sea-scrub brought them to the lunching spot. Here, half covered over
with drifting sand, was a long padlocked pine box. Roy produced a key
and opened it. This was the cache, the Beardsleys explained; they and
the children came here every Sunday and they kept a few things stowed
away in the box. Nobody ever disturbed them. This was their own
little sandy domain, and they referred to it always as San Salvador.
The box disclosed a tall faded, beach umbrella which was immediately
unfurled and planted upright in the sand; then there was a piece of
clean canvas, some straw cushions, and an iron grill. The canvas was
spread under the umbrella; Roy made Jeannette seat herself on one of
the cushions, and he propped a board at an angle behind her so that
she might lean back against it and be comfortable; then she was given
Ralph to hold and to feed from his bottle. The others proceeded to busy
themselves with preparations for lunch. Etta was quite able to look out
for herself, Alice assured her sister, and the baby would be off in ten
minutes.

An expedition for driftwood was inaugurated and presently a large pile
of smoothly rounded bleached sticks, branches and blocks of wood was
heaped near at hand. The lunch consisted of hot cocoa and chops which
were to be grilled, and some round flat bakery buns to be split in
half and toasted. In a few moments there was a brisk, snapping fire
leaping up through the bars of the grill; a large saucepan and the
milk appeared, the buns impaled on the points of sticks were set to
toasting; at the last moment the chops were to be put on to broil.

A heavenly felicity stole over Jeannette as she sat in the shade of
the umbrella, the baby in her arms, watching the scene. The Atlantic
thundered in in great arcs of green water, foamed-crested, which
crashed magnificently in round curling splathers of spray, and slid
swiftly, smoothly, reachingly up the flat beach to slink back again
upon themselves as if deriding these harmless, picnicking people were
not the victims for which they sought. Seaweed littered the beach in
long whip lashes and bulbous bottles, and seabirds picked their way
about in it, and pecked at sand fleas; gulls soared in wide circles
above their heads, squawking ugly cries, or skimmed the wave-tops
hunting fish. Far out upon the bosom of the ocean a steamer left a long
scarf of smoke against an azure sky. The salt air from the sea was
scented with the fragrant odor of the beachwood fire.

Little Ralph lay inertly in Jeannette’s arms sucking greedily at his
bottle until the last of it had to be tilted up against his mouth.
At this stage his eyelids began to drift shut and his head to hang
heavily in the crook of her elbow. He was a cunning child, his aunt
thought, critically studying him. He resembled his father with a
closeness that was ludicrous: a small replica, with the same small
mouth, the same whimsical smile and unruly, tawny hair. His skin was
like satin,--delicately tinted,--and against its faint pinkness his
long-fringed lashes lay like tiny feathery fans. His weight against
her breast felt pleasant to her; he seemed so trusting, so certain of
protection, as he lay sleeping thus, a scrap of humanity confident of
the world’s love. A sudden tenderness came to the woman; she bent down
and kissed the damp forehead at the edge of the child’s yellow hair.

The entrancing smell of crisply broiling meat and toasting bread
assailed her.

“Uuum--m,” she said hungrily, and raising her head she observed Martin
watching her. Puzzled a moment by the intentness of his gaze, her eyes
widened inquiringly, but he only shook his head at her pleasantly and
grinned. There was love in his look and it thrilled her as evidence of
any affection from him never failed to do.

She gently laid the baby on the strip of canvas, arranged a rumpled
little pillow beneath his head, spread a square of netting over him to
keep flies from bothering him, weighing down its corners with a few
beach pebbles, and joined the others about the fire, where presently
they were all munching with gluttonous cries of delight. Never was
there better food! Never was there anything so delicious! A bite of
grilled chop and a bite of crisp buttery bun! Their appetites were
on edge; they grunted in satisfying them. Another cup of hot cocoa,
please,--and, yes,--another chop,--just one more,--but this must
positively be the last!

As the fire died away, they lay back upon the sand, replete, heavy with
food, bathed in pleasant warmth. Etta, stripped of all clothing but a
diminutive under-shirt, played in the sand and squatted on her heels
on the edge of the wave-rips, uttering gurgling cries of fright when
her toes were wet. Drowsiness and bodily comfort wrapped the others’
senses; a feeling of openness,--sky, land and ocean,--beguiled them;
the breakers pounded and swished musically up the beach; sea-birds
lifted plaintive cries; the faint breeze was redolent of salt and kelp;
the sun’s heat warm and caressing.

Jeannette awoke deliciously; Martin was bending over her; he had kissed
her, and now he was smiling down at her.

“Come on,” he said, “we’re all going swimming.”

“Oh,” protested Jeannette, yawning, with a great stretch of limbs,
“must we?”

“Oh, yes, Janny,” Alice urged, coming up, “we always go swimming;
that’s the best part of the fun.”

“I didn’t bring a bathing suit,” objected Jeannette, sleepily.

“I’ve got an old one of mine for you and Roy borrowed a suit at the
boarding-house for Martin.”

They dragged her to her feet and as she looked at the emerald waves
curling toward her, they suddenly seemed inviting.

In a few moments they were into their bathing suits and ran down to
the water together,--the four of them,--holding hands, laughing and
shouting. The rushing tide swirled about their knees and leaped up
against their thighs.

“Come on!” urged the men, dragging their wives into the frightening
turmoil.

A wave engulfed them, quickening their breath, sending their hearts
knocking against their throats with its cold sharpness.

“Oh-h-h!” screamed Jeannette, “isn’t it _glorious_?”

Martin caught her, lifted her high, as a comber crashed down upon them,
burying him in white foam. The water fled past.

Jeannette caught him about the neck and they pressed their lips and wet
faces together.

“Mart--Mart!” she cried. “It’s just like our honeymoon, isn’t it?”

He strained her to him, kissing her dripping hair and cheeks, his
arms entwined about her, his face stretched wide with laughter and
excitement.

“My God, Jan,” he said with almost a groan of feeling, “my God, I love
you when you’re this way! You’re just _wonderful_!”

Her shining eyes were his answer, and he caught her to him again to
kiss her fiercely.

A wave suddenly plunged over them. Jeannette felt herself wrenched
from his embrace, felt him stumbling on the sand in the big effort he
made to keep his footing. Even in that brief frightening moment, when
she was totally submerged and they were being dragged apart, she was
conscious of the great strength of the man, of arms suddenly taut as
steel cables, of fingers and hands that gripped her like grappling
hooks of iron and pitted their might against the might of the sea. The
tumultuous plunge of water rushed headlong on its course, but Martin
stood firm and pulled her to him.

They clung together once more, and laughing like children faced another
menacing attack of the ocean.


§ 2

Later as she lay prone upon the hot, hard sand, baking in the sun’s
delicious heat, her hair spread out behind her on a towel to dry,
she watched her husband with Etta in his arms again encountering the
waves. The little girl’s arms were tight around his neck and she
screamed with excitement whenever the water foamed and welled up about
them. The child was not frightened; it was remarkable to observe the
unusual confidence the little girl had in her uncle. A fine figure of
a man, mused his wife; his limbs had the form of sculpture and his
body, shining now with the glitter of wet bronze, showed every muscle
rippling beneath the skin like writhing snakes. He was indeed a husband
to be proud of, a husband any woman might envy her. She must never let
his love for her grow less; he must always be _in_ love with her, not
merely have an affectionate regard for her as most men had for their
wives. He was lying on the beach, now, and Etta was covering him with
sand, screaming shrilly each time he stirred and cracked the mold she
was patting into shape about him.

“You bad, Uncle Martin,” came the child’s piping voice; “you be a good
man and lie still.”

He had the child on his back presently and on hands and knees crawled a
hundred yards down the beach, sniffing at whatever came into his path
and growling fiercely. Etta’s shrieks reached them above the roar of
the surf. She had a stick now and was belaboring her steed vigorously.

“No, no, Etta, no--no!” called her mother. Martin waved a reassuring
hand and pretended to suffer death. “It’s wonderful the way Martin has
with children,” commented Alice; “they seem to take to him naturally.”

Everyone did, thought his wife affectionately. He was truly
exceptional; children,--boys and girls,--men and women,--everybody felt
his irresistible attraction.

A shrill tooting announced the arrival of the launch. There was a mad
scramble; no one was dressed. Roy went off to tell the boat to wait
while the others hurried into their clothes, gathered plates, forks
and other accessories of the lunch into baskets, and flung umbrella,
canvas, grill and cushions back into their keeping-place. Everyone was
laughing helplessly when Roy came springing back to tell them to take
their time as the old captain had admitted he was half-an-hour early.

Fifteen minutes later they clambered aboard the puffing motor-boat,
and Martin and Jeannette found themselves sitting side by side in the
stern. His hand found hers as it lay upon the seat between them and
their fingers linked themselves together; their eyes shone as they
looked at one another.

“Wonderful day, Jan.”

“Ah, wonderful indeed,” she answered.


§ 3

It was late that night after they were in bed that Martin said to her:

“Jan, old girl, wouldn’t you like to have a baby? You looked so sweet
to-day sitting there under the umbrella with little Ralph in your
arms,--really you made a beautiful picture: mother and child, you know;
I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind since.... I think it would
be a lot of fun to have a kid.”

Jeannette was silent. She had often thought about having a child.
Martin continued:

“Seems to me, Jan, you’d love a baby after it came. I know it’s a
pretty tough experience, and you don’t want one so awfully badly, but
Gee Christopher! _I_ think a baby would be swell; one of our own, you
know, one that belonged to us, that was ours,--and you would, too. I
often look at Herbert Gibbs’ kid and wish to goodness he was mine.
Herb’s always talking about him and I know damn well I’d be just as
looney about a son of my own.... Now take Roy and Alice, for example:
see what fun they get out of their children, and that Etta sure’s a
heart-breaker! And she’s so jolly, too! Did you ever see a pluckier kid
than that? You’d like a little daughter like her, wouldn’t you, Jan? I
think a baby would be a lot of fun, don’t you?”

Still she said nothing and he asked his question again, giving her a
little squeeze in the circle of his arm.

“I was just thinking about it,” she said vaguely. “It means a good deal
for a woman.”

“That’s right, of course. I know it does,--but you wouldn’t be scared,
would you, Jan?”

“Oh, no, that wouldn’t bother me--much,” she said slowly. “It’s the
ties that bind one afterwards that I was thinking of.”

“Well-l, you want a baby some time, don’t you? You don’t want to grow
old and be childless, do you?”

“No; certainly not.”

“Then what’s the good of waiting?”

“A baby’s an expense, and we’re terribly behind. I think we ought to be
out of debt first, don’t you?”

“Yes-s,--I guess so.”

They went off to sleep at this point, but Martin brought the subject
up again a few days later. During the interval, however, Jeannette
had made up her mind: they were over five hundred dollars in debt and
until that was cleaned up or at least very materially reduced, it would
be very foolish indeed for them to consider having a child. If Martin
wanted a baby, he must do his share in getting out of debt.

“But Jan, don’t you think that a baby would help us save? I mean if
there was one in the house, I don’t believe you and I would want to gad
so much.”

His wife eyed him with a twisted smile and an elevated brow.

“Oh--hell,” he said, disgustedly, and went to find a cigar.



CHAPTER VII


§ 1

September brought an end to the yacht-racing and a few weeks later
Martin’s beloved A-boat was towed with a number of others a mile or two
down the Sound to be housed in winter quarters. Jeannette earnestly
hoped that this would mean her husband would spend more time with her
at week-ends. He was gone from Monday till Friday all day, and she felt
that at least part of his Saturday afternoons and Sundays should be
hers. But Martin always wanted to _do_ things on these days; he wanted
some active form of amusement, some excitement, a “party,” as he called
it; he was never content to sit at home and read or go for a walk with
his wife. He asserted he needed the exercise, and if he missed it
between Saturday noon and Sunday night, he was “stale” for the rest
of the week. Sometimes Jeannette came into the city by train on a
Saturday, met him after the office closed at noon, and together they
went to lunch and later to a matinée. Then the alternative presented
itself of either remaining in town for dinner and going to another show
or of taking a late afternoon train back to Cohasset Beach. Such a
program, of course, cost money, but unless Jeannette did this, Martin
would go off to the Yacht Club Saturday afternoon, and return there in
the evening after dinner to play poker. The Saturday night dances gave
place at the close of the yachting season to “smokers” which only the
men attended. A certain group called itself “the gang,” and prominent
in it were such club lights as Herbert Gibbs, Zeb Kline, Fritz Wiggens,
Steve Teschemacher and Doc French. Martin Devlin was warmly hailed as
one of them. They played poker every Saturday night and the “session”
lasted until an early hour Sunday morning.

Jeannette came to hate these men; she resented their taking her husband
from her; she begrudged his gambling when he could not afford to lose.
When she protested, the only answer from him was a testy: “Quit your
crabbing.” He almost invariably won and divided his winnings with
her, or at least divided what purported to be his winnings. His wife
despised herself for taking the money; it made her want him to win,
though she wished to be indifferent to his card-playing, since she did
not approve of it. She tried to justify her acceptance of the money on
the ground that it went to pay off some of their bills. But sometimes
she bought a small piece of finery for herself with it. She was
becoming very shabby in appearance. She reminded herself almost daily
that she had not bought any new clothes since she was married, and the
bride’s wardrobe, though ample, was now worn and much depleted.


§ 2

It was towards the end of summer, when already there was a brisk touch
of fall in the air, that Roy Beardsley fell ill with typhoid and for
three weeks was a desperately sick man. Martin, who had various talks
with the physician, told Jeannette that there was small hope of his
recovery; certain phases of the case made it appear very grave.

Jeannette took Etta and Ralph to stay with her in the country and
Mrs. Sturgis moved out to the flat in the Bronx to help Alice fight
for Roy’s life. Jeannette, from the first, believed he was going to
die; destiny, it seemed to her, had ordained it. For the first time in
many years she got down on her knees in her bedroom and prayed. She
realized more clearly than anyone else in the family what a tragedy
Roy’s death would be to them all,--to helpless Alice and his helpless
children, to her little mother, to Martin, to herself. She did not
know what would become of Alice and her babies! How would they live?
She and Martin would have to shoulder the responsibility, and they had
difficulty in making ends meet as it was! Where would Martin get fifty
or even twenty-five dollars a month to send Alice? And how could Alice
and the children manage on so small a sum? Roy, she knew, had a three
thousand dollar life insurance policy,--hardly more than enough to bury
him decently! Alice could not go to work; she had not the faintest
notion of how to earn a living. She was clever with her needle, but
that was all. It was impossible to imagine her a seamstress! But
she would either have to go into that work and let Jeannette keep
the children, or she would have to live with her mother, while Mrs.
Sturgis and Martin,--between them,--would have to contribute what they
were able to their support! It was a terrible prospect in any case.
Jeannette was ridden with fear of the catastrophe. How different it
would be, she reminded herself, were she in Alice’s situation,--she
with her profession and her experience in business! She had nothing
to fear on that score; she could always take care of herself. Poor
Alice!--poor little brown bird!--there would be nothing for her to
do; she could not support _herself_, not to mention her two children!
Jeannette remembered that once she had begged to be allowed to follow
her sister’s example and go to work, and she recalled how she and her
mother had vigorously opposed her. She wondered now if that had been
right. Perhaps every woman ought to have a profession or at least a
recognized means of earning her livelihood. How secure Alice would
feel now in that case if Roy died! Grief-stricken, yes, but with
the comforting knowledge that neither she nor her children need be
dependent on anyone!

All day long as Jeannette watched Etta and Ralph playing under the
apple trees, which had begun to shed their yellow leaves and the scant
weazened fruit from their scraggy branches, she thought of Roy’s
possible death and her sister’s plight. Any one of the family group
could be spared better than he! Yes, even Alice! ... Oh, it would be a
calamity,--a dreadful, horrible calamity if Roy died! ... Twenty times
a day she closed her eyes and thought a prayer.

She enjoyed having the children with her. Etta was an affectionate,
ebullient child, always ready with hugs and kisses; little Ralph
placidly viewed the world with reposeful solemnity, made no demands,
was amiably satisfied with any arrangement his elders or even his
big sister thought wise, and in his gentleness was extraordinarily
appealing.

Late in the afternoons, Jeannette would dress them in clean rompers,
pull on their sweaters and set them out on the lower step of the front
stoop to wait for Martin. There they would sit for sometimes an hour,
or even longer, watching for him and at the first glimpse, Etta would
run screaming to meet him with arms flung wide, Ralph following as
best he could. Martin was particularly in love with the boy, and he
would hold the baby in his lap for long periods, neither of them making
a sound; or the child would grasp his finger and toddle beside him,
see-sawing from one slightly bowed leg to another, to inspect the pool
and perhaps capture a frog.

Only a miracle would stay Death’s hand, the doctor had said, but the
miracle happened; very slowly the tide began to turn and inch by inch
the flood of life came back to the wasted body of Roy Beardsley.
Jeannette shed tears of gratitude when it was definitely asserted he
would get well. She left the children in Hilda’s care and went to
the city to rejoice with her mother and sister. They clung together
the way they used to do before either of the girls was married, wept
and sniffled and kissed one another again and again. Roy’s blue eyes
seemed enormously large and dark when his sister-in-law saw him; his
lip was drawn tight across his teeth and these protruded like the fangs
of a famished dog. His cheeks were sunk in great hollows beneath his
cheek-bones, and his hands were the hands of the starved. He was a
living skeleton, but his great eyes acknowledged her presence and her
smile, and there was a faint twitching of the tight-drawn lip. Although
she had been prepared, she could not keep from betraying the shock his
altered appearance gave her; he was indeed ghastly.

The averted tragedy sobered them all. Roy would be many weeks getting
back his health and he must take particular care of himself during
the approaching winter, the doctor cautioned. No one ever whispered
the word “tuberculosis” but each knew it was that which Roy must
guard against. If it could be managed, he ought to be taken to a
warmer climate, the physician advised, and he must make no effort, but
rest, drink milk and eat nourishing food for a long time until he had
entirely regained his strength. His father eagerly wrote him to come to
California; Jeannette and Martin asked to keep the children; everyone
urged Alice to take her husband to the Golden State. So just before the
first snow of the year, she and Roy departed westward, waving good-bye
through the iron grill at the station to the little group behind it,
who waved vigorously in return until “All aboard” was shouted, the
porter helped Alice up into the vestibule and the train began slowly to
move.


§ 3

The winter was hard. It was unusually cold and snow lay heavy in great
mounds along the edges of the village streets, and beaten trails of it
meandered through the frozen fields. Soot from the trains blackened the
white drifts and the road-beds were rutted in sharp ridges, and gray
ice, that crackled and shivered like glass underfoot, formed in the
hollows. The leafless trees spread their branches in black nakedness
against the bleak sky and the wind blew chilly across the bare
countryside from the icy waters of the Sound.

Yet Jeannette knew her first happiness at Cohasset Beach. Her days
were full of the care of her small niece and nephew. They were
endearing mites, exacting, but warmly affectionate. She had had no
experience in bringing up children but her mother came down to stay
with her for a while, and Mrs. Drigo, who lived a hundred yards or
so down the street, and had four healthy youngsters of her own,
gave counsel in emergencies. Jeannette devoted herself to her task.
She attacked the problem much as she would have met some untoward
circumstance in business. She considered herself efficient, set great
store by efficiency, and proposed to apply it to the care of her
sister’s children. She devised a system and adhered to it.

In the cold mornings when the children woke, they might look at their
picture-books until she came in to dress them. They must not make any
noise and Martin must not go in to play with them or even open their
door to say “Hello” when he got up early to fix the furnace. They had
their “poggy” and milk at eight and immediately thereafter were bundled
into their woolly leggings, sweaters, hooded caps and mittens and sent
out to play in the snow. They were to amuse themselves until eleven,
when, furred and properly shod, their aunt appeared to take them with
her to market, wheeling Ralph in his go-cart, while Etta trailed along
beside them. Upon returning, the children had their luncheon, always
a good full meal of baked potato, cut-up meat and vegetables, and a
little dessert. Jeannette believed small children should have light
suppers, and that their “dinner” should come at midday. After they had
eaten, it was nap-time, and this was the blessed interval of relaxation
for herself. Her charges must stay in bed until three o’clock, when
they were re-dressed in their woolly leggings, sweaters and caps, and
permitted to go out again to play in the snow. For the rest of her
life, bits of watery ice stuck to the fine hairs of woollen garments
always brought back to Jeannette with poignant emotion the memory of
these days. When the children stamped into the house at the end of
their play, their skins hard and coldly fresh, their breaths puffs of
vapor, their cheeks crimson, the little sweaters and leggings would
be encrusted with hard, icy snow. Jeannette would have a log fire
going, and she would undress them before its crackling blaze and hang
their damp outer garments on the fire screen to dry. The little naked
figures dancing in the warm room in the flickering firelight was always
a delightful sight to her. They were their merriest at this hour and
said their cutest things with which she remembered later to regale
Martin. Upstairs the oil heater would be warming the bathroom which
Hilda had made ready and presently there would come a mad dash into
the dining-room and up the cold stairway to the grateful temperature
of the little room. And here began a great splashing with shrieks and
admonitions, and here Jeannette dried their sweet little bodies and
slipped them into their cotton flannel double-gowns. Then downstairs
once more before the replenished log fire to sit on either side of her
and empty their warmed bowls of crackers and milk and listen to the
story she either read or told them until Martin came in to find them
so. Then followed kisses and hugs all round and immediately thereafter
the children were dispatched to bed with a final warning from their
aunt that there must positively be no talking.

Thus it was day after day, always the same, relentlessly the same,
undeviating monotony. Martin always praised Jeannette, her mother
praised her, even the neighbors praised her. Alice wrote loving
messages of deep gratitude. She responded to the general approval,
delighted in the applause. The thought that she was proving herself
equal to this unfamiliar rôle, that she was doing her job efficiently,
comforted and inspired her. Revelling in her righteous duty, she threw
herself passionately into its perfect execution. She gave it all her
energy, thought and time. She told her husband and mother with much
emphasis that Etta and Ralph were far better behaved now than they ever
had been with their own father and mother.

“It’s routine, I tell you,” she would say. “Children respond to routine
and this business of deviating from a strict schedule is demoralizing.
A little firmness is all that is necessary in making children good.
They really are very adaptable. I confess I was surprised. They learn
so quickly! The minute Etta and Ralph saw when they first came that I
wouldn’t stand for any foolishness, they were as meek as lambs.... I
declare! Alice is so soft and easy-going with them, I hate to think of
their being spoilt when they go back.”

It was another surprise to Jeannette to discover how little the
presence of the children in the house disturbed Martin. She had thought
he would grow restless after a time and that they would be certain to
annoy him. She had been sure he would soon object to ties which would
chain her to the house. Martin loved children--loved them particularly
well for a man, perhaps--but he was often unreasonable where her time
and movements were concerned, and had always rebelled at restraint.
Now he mildly accepted the new element in their lives without protest
and as time passed continued amiable. If she could not go out with him
or accept an invitation, he did not reproach or even urge her, but
praised her for her devotion, and often stayed at home to keep her
company. Saturday nights, however, when the “gang” gathered at the
Yacht Club, he went off to join them, but since the children were with
her, Jeannette did not mind being alone in the house.

“Come home early,” she would say to him. “It’s such fun to have you in
the house on Sundays and the children love it. I hate to have you wake
up tired and hollow-eyed, and you know, Martin, when you get only two
or three hours’ sleep you are sometimes a little cross and the children
notice it.”

“You’re dead right,” he would agree with her readily. “I’ll tell the
boys I’ve got to quit at midnight. They can begin the rounds then;
there’s no sense in our sitting up until three or four o’clock in the
morning.”

And often he kept his word.


§ 4

Alice and Roy had planned to stay six months in California, but in
April Jeannette received a letter from her sister with the news that
they had decided to return the first of May; Roy was in fine shape,--he
was even fat!--they both were mad to see their children.

The letter left Jeannette feeling strangely blank. What was she to do
without Etta and Ralph? She had talked a great deal about the fearful
responsibility, the exacting care these youngsters involved and what
a relief it would be to her when their mother came home to take them
off her hands. She had aired these views to her own mother and to Mrs.
Drigo, Mrs. Gibbs, and particularly to Martin. Yet now that Alice was
coming a month, even six weeks sooner than she intended, she had none
of the expected elation. A sadness settled upon her. She wondered how
she would occupy herself when the babies were gone.

“What do you suppose Roy intends to do?” she asked Martin one day. “He
hasn’t got a job. I don’t see how he’s going to manage for Alice and
the children.... He might leave them with us for awhile.... No,--I
suppose Alice will want them back immediately! ... It will be some time
before he gets settled.”

“Oh, he’ll find something to do, right away,” Martin answered her
cheerfully.

That was one of Martin’s irritating qualities, reflected his wife. He
was always so optimistic, so confident, never appreciating how serious
things sometimes were. Roy and Alice were facing a grave situation; it
might be desperate. Martin refused to regard it as important.

“I wonder if Mr. Corey would take him back at the office?” Jeannette
hazarded. Very probably he would. It was a brilliant idea and, acting
upon it at once, she went the following day to see her old employer.

The visit to the publishing house was strangely disquieting. She was
struck by the number of new faces, the many changes. The counter which
formerly defined the waiting-room on the fourth floor had been removed
and now the space, walled in by partitions, was converted into a retail
book store with shelves lined with new books and display tables. A
gray-haired woman inquired her name with a polite, indifferent smile,
and when she brought back word that Mr. Corey would see Mrs. Devlin,
undertook to show Jeannette the way to his office!

There were changes behind the partitions as well. It was amazing the
differences two years had wrought. There was none of the flutter of
interest her appearance had caused at her previous visit. One or two of
her old friends came up to shake her hand and to ask about her, while
a few others nodded and smiled. She did not see Miss Holland anywhere,
and Mr. Allister of whom she caught a glimpse in a distant corner
accorded her a casual wave of the hand. She was forgotten already, she,
who had once enjoyed so much respect, even affection, who had been the
president’s secretary, had been known to have his ear and often to
have been his adviser! Miss Whaley, whom she remembered as having been
connected with the Mailing Department, she met face to face on her way
to Mr. Corey’s office, but the girl had even forgotten her name!

But there was nothing wanting in her old chief’s reception. Mr. Corey
rose from his desk the instant she entered his room, and reached
for both her hands. He was the same warm, cordial friend, eager to
hear everything about her. How was she getting on? How was that
good-looking husband of hers? Where were they living? He reproached her
for not having been in to see him, appeared genuinely hurt that she
had neglected him so long. He had changed, too, Jeannette noticed;
his face sagged a little and he no longer bore himself with his old
erectness. She observed he still dyed his mustache; a little of the
dyestuff was smeared upon his cheek.

News of himself and his family was not particularly cheerful. Babs
was in a private sanitarium at Nyack; Mrs. Corey was badly crippled
with rheumatism,--a virulent arthritis,--and, in the care of a
trained nurse, had gone to Germany to try to get rid of it; Willis
had picked up an African malarial fever while he had been exploring,
and although he was home again, recurrent attacks of it kept him in
poor health. Jeannette noted a gentleness in Mr. Corey’s voice as
he spoke of his son; he blamed himself for Willis’ condition; that
African trip on which he had sent him was responsible for the boy’s
broken constitution. As for business, things were in bad shape, too.
The public did not seem to be buying books any more; they weren’t
interested; _The Ladies’ Fortune_ was doing pretty well, but the
increased cost of production knocked the profits out of everything; the
office was demoralized, the “folks” did not seem to coöperate as they
had done in the old days; he, himself, found daily reasons to regret
the hour when Jeannette had ceased to be his secretary; he hadn’t had
any sort of efficient help since she left; recent secretaries all had
proven a constant source of annoyance to him. Tommy Livingston had
got married and asked for one raise after another until Mr. Corey was
obliged to let him go; he believed he was doing very well for himself
in the news photograph business; Mr. Corey finally had had to take Mrs.
O’Brien away from Mr. Kipps, but even she was far from competent. There
were other details about the business that awoke the old interest
in Jeannette. Something in this office atmosphere fired the girl; it
brought buoyancy to her pulse, it stimulated her, it put life into her
veins. How happy she had been here! Never so contented, she said to
herself.

She hastened to tell Mr. Corey the object of her visit, and he promised
to find a place somewhere in the organization for Roy.

“I have only a hazy recollection of the young man,” he said, “but I’ll
do whatever you want me to, on your account, Miss Sturgis.”

Jeannette smiled. She would always be “Miss Sturgis” to Mr. Corey. She
liked it that way; her married name meant nothing to him, never would.
She thanked him warmly and promised to come to see him again.

As she made her way out through the crowded aisles of the general
office, amid the familiar rattle of typewriters and hum of work, past
old faces and new, her heart tugged in her breast. She was still part
of it; some of herself was implanted eternally here in this tide of
work, in the busy, preoccupied clerks, in the hustle and bustle, in
the smell of ink and paste and pencil dust, in the very walls of the
building.


§ 5

The good news she had to tell Roy of the job she had secured for him
warmed her heart. There was no time to write, but she treasured it to
herself and imagined a dozen times a day, as he and Alice were speeding
homeward, how she would break it to him.

Martin was unable to be present when they arrived at the Grand Central
Station, but Mrs. Sturgis, Jeannette and the two children were there
waiting for them to emerge from the long column of passengers that
streamed in a hurrying throng from the Chicago train. There were
screams of joy and wet lashes as the parents’ arms caught, hugged and
kissed the children again and again. Mrs. Sturgis had a cold luncheon
prepared at home, and with bags and children, the four adults bundled
themselves into a taxi and drove to Ninety-second Street, laughing
excitedly, interrupting one another with inconsequences after the
manner of all arriving travellers.

Roy indeed had put on weight; the emaciated look had entirely
disappeared. His plumpness altered his expression materially and his
sister-in-law was not quite sure she liked it. There could be no
question about his splendid health. His face was round and there were
actually folds in his neck where it bulged a trifle above his collar.
Alice looked prettier than ever and as Jeannette studied her, she
realized how much she had missed her sister during the past few months
and how much she loved her. Yet when the children climbed into their
mother’s lap and tried awkwardly to twine their short arms about her
neck, Etta announcing shrilly that she loved her “bestest in all the
world,” Jeannette experienced a cruel pang of jealousy. Now Alice would
immediately begin to spoil them and undo all her good work! ... It was
going to be very hard,--very hard, indeed.

She was anxious to tell her good news. Roy must be worrying about
the future and it was not fair to keep him in the dark. But when she
told him triumphantly, he and his wife only looked at one another
with a significant smile. They had good news of their own: they were
going back to California and meant to take the children with them;
they intended to live out there for a year or two in a place called
“Mill Valley,” just across the bay from San Francisco, with Roy’s
father. Dr. Beardsley was a dear old white-headed man,--the dearest on
earth, Alice declared,--and he was rector of a little church in Mill
Valley and lived in the most adorable redwood shake house up on the
side of a mountain just above the village. The house was a roomy old
place and Dr. Beardsley had talked and talked to them about coming to
California and making their home with him for two or three years until
Roy had gained a start, for it appeared that Roy wanted to write,--he
had always wanted to write,--and while he had been convalescing out
in California under the big redwoods, he had written a book,--not a
big one,--but a story about an old family dog the Beardsleys had once
owned, and he had sent it to a magazine and they had paid three hundred
dollars for the serial rights and there was a very good chance that
some publisher would bring it out in book form! The money was not very
much of course, but it was unquestionably encouraging and Dr. Beardsley
felt that he and Alice ought to combine forces and give Roy a chance at
the profession he hungered to follow. He had never had an opportunity
to show what he could do with his pen, and it was not fair to have him
give up this ambition merely because he had a wife and two children on
his hands. Dr. Beardsley had three or four thousand dollars in the bank
and he declared he had no particular need of the money and was ready
to invest it in his son’s career as a promising speculation in which
he, himself, had faith. He believed, he had said, he would get a good
return on his money! He had urged Alice and Roy to come with their two
children and make their home with him for a while, live the simplest
kind of life,--living was extraordinarily cheap in Mill Valley; Mama
wouldn’t believe how cheap after New York!--and wait until Roy was on
his feet with a well-established market for his work.

“So we talked it over and said we would,” concluded Alice with her soft
brown eyes shining confidently at her husband, “only it’s going to be
awful hard to leave you Mama, and Sis.”

Mrs. Sturgis promptly grew tearful.

“No--no, dearie,” she said between watery sniffles and efforts to check
herself, “I don’t know _why_ I’m crying! It’s quite right and proper
for you and Roy to accept his father’s kind offer. There’s no question
in my mind he’ll be a great writer, and I think you’re very wise, and
it will be lovely and healthy for the children and I approve of the
whole idea thoroughly, only--only California seems so terribly far
away!” A burst of tears accompanied the last. Jeannette felt irritated.
Her mother would soon be reconciled to Alice and the children being in
California,--but in her own heart there was already an ache she knew
would not leave it for many months.


§ 6

The end of May, when the dogwood was again powdering the new-leafed
woods with its white featheriness, when the Yacht Club had formally
opened its season, and Martin had towed his adored A-boat out of
winter storage, had pulled it with a row-boat the two-and-a-half miles
to its summer moorings, Alice, Roy and the children departed, and
Jeannette faced an empty home with what seemed to her an empty life.

It was inevitable she should reach out for distraction. During the
spring, Doc French had married Mrs. Edith Prentiss, a rich widow, whom
Jeannette had liked from their first meeting. The new Mrs. French was
her senior by only a year or two, and much the same type: tall and dark
with beautiful brows and skin and masses of glistening black hair. She
had a great deal of poise, and dash, and dressed handsomely. At the
opening of the season for the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club, when there was
a dinner and dance, the Devlins were Doctor and Mrs. French’s guests
and had a particularly good time. Jeannette bought herself a new dress
for the occasion. She would not have been able to go otherwise, she
told Martin, as she had absolutely nothing to wear! All the pretty
clothes that had formed her trousseau were completely gone now; she did
not have a single decent evening frock left!

The affair led to the young Devlins being asked to a Sunday luncheon
on board the new Commodore’s sumptuous yacht and this had been another
happy event. Martin had been in high feather, and had proven himself
unusually amusing and entertaining. The Commodore’s wife had singled
him out for attention; the Commodore, himself, and Doc French had urged
him to allow his name to be put up for membership in the Yacht Club.

It was a great temptation for both the young husband and wife, but it
was out of the question for them to belong to two yacht clubs, and
Martin resolutely refused to resign from the Family. No, he said, there
were too many “good scouts” in the little club, and he wouldn’t and
couldn’t “throw them down.” Jeannette did not urge it, although it was
hard to decline the invitation to join the Cohasset Beach Club. Yet
she felt that membership in it was beyond their means and would lead
to other extravagances, while specially was she afraid of the free
drinking that went on there. Martin had a mercurial temperament; one
drink excited him; more made him noisy and silly; he was not the type
that could stand it. Better the Family Yacht Club as the lesser of the
two evils. She would have been satisfied if he never entered either.

She voiced her complaint to her mother, with a good deal of vexation:

“It makes me so mad! Martin _won’t_ economize, _won’t_ help me save and
insists upon being a member of that cheap little one-horse organization
with its cheap common members, spending his time and money in a place
he knows I detest and where I never set my feet that I don’t regret it.
And if he would only help me get out of debt and would behave himself
when there was liquor around, we might be able to join the Cohasset
Beach and associate with nice, decent people of our own class and enjoy
some kind of social life. It’s unfair--rottenly unfair! I’ve been
struggling all winter taking care of my sister’s babies, and of course
it’s been expensive and we haven’t been able to put by a cent. I’ve
done my level best to economize; I haven’t bought myself so much as a
pair of shoes since last year, ... and look at me!”

She held out her foot and showed her mother where the stitching along
the sole had parted. Mrs. Sturgis shook her head distressfully, and
made “tut-tutting” noises with her tongue.

“And what does he expect me to do?” Jeannette went on, her voice rising
as her sense of injustice grew upon her. “Here’s Doc French and his
wife, Edith,--she’s really a stunning girl, Mama, and I like her so
much!--anxious to be nice to me, wanting me to go with them to the
smart Yacht Club all the time, asking me to their house for dinner and
cards, or to go motoring with them in their beautiful new car, and
Commodore and Mrs. Adams inviting me to luncheon on _The Sea Gull_,
and I haven’t a decent stitch to my back! If I complain to Martin, he
says I’m ‘crabbing’ or tells me to get what I need and charge it! And
that’s just madness, Mama,--you know that. He denies himself nothing
and expects me to do all the self-sacrificing. I declare I’m sorely
tempted sometimes to take him at his word, to go ahead just as I like,
get whatever I need and let him meet the bills as best he can. That’s
what most wives would do! I’ve never known such humiliation since I
went to that Armenian dance with Dikron Najarian. In all the time I
was supporting myself, I was never so shabbily dressed as I am right
this minute! It does seem to me that Martin could manage better. I
know _I_ did when I was earning my own money and financing my own
problems. Martin makes just about what you and I used to have when we
were living together, and you know perfectly well, Mama, we had money
to _throw away_ then. Why we used to go to the theatre and everything!
I haven’t been inside a theatre in--in--well, since last September and
that’s nearly a year! _I_ don’t know what he does with his money! He
swears he doesn’t gamble any more, but he’s always broke and I have the
hardest time getting my sixty-two fifty out of him on the first and the
fifteenth. He tried to borrow some of it back from me last month! I
tell you, he didn’t get it! He never takes me into his confidence about
money matters and he never comes and gives what’s coming to me out of
his pay envelope of his own accord! I always have to _ask_ him for it!
Think of it, Mama, having to _ask_ him to give me what’s my right! I
never had to go to Mr. Corey and _ask_ him for my salary on Saturday
mornings, and I work ten thousand times harder for Martin Devlin than
I ever did for Mr. Corey! ... I was no shrinking violet when Martin
married me! I was a self-supporting, self-respecting business woman
and when we married we made a bargain, and I intend he shall live up
to it. I don’t propose he’s going to welch on me merely because I’m a
woman. He’s got to give me just as much consideration as he would a man
with whom he’s made a contract. Our marriage was an honorable agreement
with certain specified provisions, and if he doesn’t live up to them,
neither shall I!”

“Oh, Janny, Janny!” cried her mother in alarm; “don’t talk so reckless,
dearie! What on earth do you mean?”

“Walk out on him!” flashed Jeannette. “I’ll go back to my job and run
my own life the way it suits me!”


§ 7

Martin spent every Saturday afternoon at the Family Yacht Club, “tuning
up” his boat. He loved to tinker about her, adjusting this, tightening
that; he was never finished with her; there was always something still
remaining to be done. He and Zeb Kline sailed the _Albatross_ together
in the races; they constituted her crew.

As soon as Martin reached Cohasset Beach from the city on the last day
of the week, he hurried directly from the station to the yacht club.
He kept his outing clothes,--they consisted of little more than a
shirt, a pair of duck pants and “sneakers,”--in a locker at the club.
By two o’clock he was squatting in the cockpit of the teetering little
boat, busy with wrench, knife, or rag, thoroughly happy. If there was
sufficient wind later in the afternoon, he and Zeb might take a short
sail up the Sound, round the red buoy, and home again, or over two legs
of the course. The afternoon was all too short; it was six,--seven,
before a realization of the passing time came to him. He wanted a quick
swim then before re-dressing himself, and if someone did not give him a
lift, there was the long hike homeward.

He would be sure to find one of three situations when he opened the
door of the bungalow upon reaching home: Jeannette would be there,
coldly unresponsive, resentful of his tardiness; she would be dressing
for a dance at the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club in frivolous mood, or she
would have already departed to dine with Doc and Edith French, having
left word with Hilda for him to follow if he cared to. He came to
accept these circumstances. He did not particularly like them but he
did not know how to go about changing them. To dress and join his wife
was generally too much effort after his long afternoon on the water. He
either found his own amusements or else, thoroughly weary, went to bed.

At an early hour on Sunday he was usually astir and often left the
house while Jeannette was still asleep, or else they breakfasted
together about nine o’clock and made polite inquiries as to one
another’s plans for the day. Every Sunday afternoon during the
summer there was a race and Martin would not have missed one for any
consideration. As soon as he could leave the house, he was off to the
club and Jeannette did not see him again until he came stumbling home
late in the evening, sunburnt and thoroughly exhausted.

One Saturday night it was nearly eight o’clock when the flickering
acetylene lamps of Steve Teschemacher’s big brass-fitted motor car
swept into the circular driveway before the Devlins’ home, and Martin
got out, called “Good-night and many thanks!” and opened the door of
his house. Dishevelled, his hair blown, his shirt open at the throat,
carrying his cravat and collar, he walked in upon a dinner party his
wife was giving. The four people at his table were all in immaculate
evening dress. He recognized Doc French and Edith, but the remaining
person in the quartette was a man he had never seen before.

“Mr. Kenyon, my dear,” said Jeannette, introducing him. “Our little
party was quite impromptu. I didn’t know how to get you. I telephoned
the club twice but Wilbur said you were out on the water.”

Doc French welcomed him, clapping him on the back.

“Get a move on, Mart,” he said, jovially, “your cocktail’s getting
cold.”

Martin hurried. The blankness passed that had come to him as,
unprepared, he arrived upon the scene. His good-nature asserted
itself; he was always ready for a good time. In fifteen minutes he
was entertaining his wife’s guests with an Irish story, told with
inimitable brogue, and had them all roaring with laughter.

Kenyon he did not fancy. The man was too perfectly dressed, his white
silk vest had a double row of gold buttons and fitted his slim waist
too snugly; the movements of his hands were too graceful, too studied;
his heavily lashed eyes squinted shut when he laughed, and the eyes,
themselves, were glittering and glassy.

Martin went with the party to the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club for the
dance to which they were bound. Since he had declined to become a
member he felt he ought not to go at all to the club, but Doc French on
this particular night would not listen to him, and carried him off with
the others. There were the usual drinks, the usual gay crowd, the usual
music and the usual dance; Martin, pleasantly exhilarated, had his
usual good time. He saw his wife here and there upon the dancing floor
during the evening, and thought her unusually vivacious and pretty,
but it was not until three or four days later that a casual happening
brought back to him a disquieting recollection that each time he had
caught a glimpse of her that night, her partner had been Kenyon.

The incident that stirred this memory was the chance discovery of
two cigarette stubs in a little glass ash tray on the mantel above
the fireplace. Jeannette did not smoke. She explained readily that
Gerald Kenyon had been to tea the previous afternoon. But Martin
was not satisfied. Kenyon was a type of rich man’s son,--idler and
trifler,--whom Martin thought he recognized; Jeannette had said
nothing about having had him to tea and the circumstance was too
unusual for her to have forgotten to mention it; now he recalled the
matter of the dance.

One of their old angry quarrels followed. It left both shaken and
repentant, and in the reconciliation that followed, much of their early
warm love and confidence in one another returned. Many differences were
settled, many concessions and promises were made, and better harmony
existed between them thereafter than they had known for a long time.


§ 8

It was then that Jeannette seriously considered having a baby. Martin
was anxious for a child, and she knew how happy one would make him, how
grateful and tender he was sure to be to her. She dreaded the ordeal
more than most women; she was fearful of the agony that awaited her
at the end of the long, dreary, helpless nine months; Alice’s hard
labor, and the following weakness from complications that had kept her
practically bedridden for half-a-year, had made a grave impression on
Jeannette’s mind. She shuddered at the idea of being torn, at being
manhandled by doctors, at being pulled and mauled and treated like
an animal. It represented degradation to her, but she was prepared
to go through with it. She wanted a child; she wanted one as much as
Martin did; she wanted more than one. Her husband had accused her once
of not loving children, but after the devotion she had lavished upon
Etta and Ralph during the long months of the past winter, she felt she
had convinced him that such a reproach was wholly unjustified. Far
more than the agony of childbirth, Jeannette apprehended the fetters
that maternity would forge about her feet. Once a mother she knew her
liberty was over. She would be bound then by the infant at her breast,
by ties of duty and maternal instinct, and above all by love. She hated
the thought of restriction; she hated the thought of giving up her
independence; she rebelled at inhibitions which would prevent her from
going her own way, living her own life, being her own mistress.

Once again the question of money obtruded itself. What did the years
ahead hold in store for her as Martin’s wife? How would she fare at her
husband’s hands when she was thirty, forty, fifty? The infatuation of
the bride for the man she had married, was gone now; she saw him in a
cold, critical light. She loved him; she loved him truly and honestly;
she loved him more than she had ever thought to love any man. Never was
she so happy as when they two were alone together and in sympathy. She
liked often to recall the happy day they had spent with Alice and Roy
on the sand reefs off Freeport. Martin had been so sweet, and splendid
and dear that day! No woman could love a man more than she did, then;
he had been everything that stirred her admiration. But that was a
year ago and he wasn’t the same; he and she had drifted apart. Perhaps
it was as much her fault as his; perhaps their grievances against one
another were no more than those of any average couple. She realized
that both were strong-willed and opinionated; it was inevitable that
they should sometimes clash. But if Martin differed with her, he
could pursue his own way independent of his wife, while she must wait
upon his pleasure. She did not--could not trust Martin with the old
confidence he had once inspired. Perhaps that was the experience of all
wives. Most women put up with it, _had_ to put up with it, made the
best of conditions, lay with what equanimity they could in the bed they
had chosen in the first flush of love. But with her,--and always with
this thought ever since she had been a wife, Jeannette had breathed a
prayer of gratitude,--there was a way out! The girls that had married
blindly out of their father’s and mother’s house had no alternative
if their marriages proved unsatisfactory but to endure them or seek
divorce. But she and all other women who had achieved a livelihood
of their own in the world of business, who had won for themselves an
economic value that could be measured in dollars and cents, could go
back to work! They did not have to appeal to the law, the disreputable
divorce courts, to free them from an intolerable alliance, or compel a
reluctant man to support them with alimony gouged from his unwilling
pocketbook!

Ever since she had become Martin’s bride, Jeannette realized she had
hugged this thought to herself and always found consolation in it. It
had even been in her mind when she considered marriage; she had said to
herself in those uncertain days, that if the experiment did not prove
satisfactory, there was a stenographer’s job waiting for her somewhere
in the world. Now this knowledge that she could be independent again if
she chose had a vital bearing on the question of her having a child.
Once a mother, the door of escape from a situation which might some day
become intolerable would be forever closed. She could not leave a baby
as she could leave a husband.

Should she risk it? Should she take the plunge, leave the safe return
to shore behind her and strike out into unknown waters, placing faith
in her husband’s devotion and his ability to take care of her? Ah, if
she could only be sure! If she could only be convinced of Martin’s
dependability! She did not care a snap of her finger for Gerald
Kenyon, Edith French or the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club or anything!
All she wanted was that Martin should be good to her, should protect
and provide for her with as much thought and care as she had given
herself when she had been a wage-earner and her own mistress! If Martin
would stand back of her, she would welcome a baby, she would bear him
half-a-dozen,--all that her strength was equal to! She would banish her
fear of the ordeal!

She told him so passionately. She showed him the reasonableness and
righteousness of her stand, and he admitted the truth of what she said.
He promised to do anything she wanted.

“You’re dead right, Jan,” he said with a gravity that went straight to
her heart, “I see your point. I’ll do the best I can. And golly! won’t
it be great when there’s a kid in the family,--you know,--a kid that’s
our own? Why, you were never so happy or so pretty, and you never were
so good to me and I never loved you more than when Etta and Ralph were
toddling round here.”

But she would agree to nothing until he had demonstrated to her that he
had changed and was as much in earnest about the matter as she proposed
to be.

“Mart, you’ve got to show me; you’ve got to convince me you’ve turned
over a new leaf. I want to be satisfied that I am always going to be
glad I’m your wife before I anchor myself to you for the rest of my
life. Now we’re in debt. While I’ve been out of sympathy with you, I’ve
done some charging in town,--new clothes I had to have in order to go
about with Edith French. If we have a baby it’s going to cost money,
and we’ve _got_ to be out of debt first,--don’t you think so? You can
reëstablish my faith in you by showing me now how you can help me save.
If we cut down and put our minds to it, we can save a thousand dollars
by the first of the year. Now I’ll let Hilda go and do my own work, if
you’ll resign from the Family Yacht Club!”

It was a challenge and Martin’s startled eyes found hers.

“And sell my A-boat?” he asked blankly.

“And sell your A-boat,” Jeannette repeated firmly.

“Well-l, my God,--that’s kind of tough,” he said slowly. “But all
right,--if you say so, I’ll get out, I’ll sell it and quit.”

“Do you really mean it, Mart?”

“Yes, I’ll--I’ll resign.... Only, Jan, can’t I finish the season? Zeb
and I’ve got a swell chance for the cup and all the A-boats have been
invited over to Larchmont for their annual regatta, and Zeb knows that
course, and we’re all going to be towed over the day before....”

He was like a little boy pleading for a toy. She could not find it in
her heart to refuse him.

“Very well,” she conceded slowly, “only as soon as the season’s over
you’ll positively resign?”

“Sure. I’ll tell the fellows to-morrow that it’s my last year, and I’ll
quit after the final race.”


§ 9

June, July and August passed, Labor Day came and went, the yachting
season closed with gala festivities, special boat races, a big dance at
each of the clubs, and one day Martin announced that Zeb had paid him
sixty dollars for the _Albatross_, and that he had sent in his letter
of resignation to the board of directors. It was then that Jeannette
told Hilda she would be obliged to let her go. She had grown fond of
the girl and was sorry to lose her, but in the face of this evidence of
her husband’s good faith, she felt she must begin to carry out her part
of their bargain.

Apart from this, there were other considerations which made her welcome
this new régime of curtailment and self-denial. She was not satisfied
with the recent order of her life; her conscience troubled her; there
had been certain evenings during the past summer, memories of which
were not altogether pleasant.

Hardly a week had gone by without Doc and Edith French inviting her
to go with them to a dance at the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club or on a
jaunt to some road-house on Long Island, and Gerald Kenyon invariably
had been along. He had made love to her, flattering love to her, and
she had been diverted. She liked him; he danced well, he was rich and
a prodigal host, he was agreeably attentive. She would have early sent
him to the right-about had it not been he proved a convenient escort.
Martin was rarely on hand to accompany her; Gerald was eager to go
with her anywhere she wished. She suffered his attentions, reminding
herself that it was only for a few weeks,--just until the end of the
summer,--and it was her last fling at gaiety. She would rid herself of
him by September and prepare her household and her life for the time
of retrenchment. Nothing of serious significance had happened on any
of these merry evenings; Martin could not have found fault with her;
Gerald had never so much as kissed her cheek, but the atmosphere that
had prevailed was disturbing to Jeannette. Gerald often imbibed too
freely, but he was never offensive. He and the Frenches sometimes grew
noisy and there was a good deal of loose talk. A drink or two had a
marked effect on Edith, and Jeannette wondered sometimes at the things
she said and did. Not that her words and actions were in themselves
particularly shocking, but coming from a woman of her graciousness and
refinement they sounded rough. Jeannette was ready, now, to be quit of
these intimates. Their society was not healthy, and in her soul she was
conscious she did not belong in it. Her innate sense of rectitude took
offense at such behavior.

Thus it was that she turned to the period of self-denial with
willingness, even zeal. She threw herself whole-heartedly into the
program of her new existence. She wanted to clean her soul as well as
her life.

She was happy in the changed order of her days; she liked doing her own
work since it meant penance for her as well as saving; she liked to
think she was preparing herself for her child. She figured out how long
it would take them to be out of debt: less than a year if they saved
only fifty dollars a month.

“Now, Martin,” she reminded her husband, “I’m not going through with
this unless you stand back of me. You’ve got to save penny for penny
with me, and you’ve got to show me you’re deadly in earnest.”

She said this because he did not seem as enthusiastic, now, as he had
been when the plan was first discussed. The eagerness was missing, and
he was rather sour about it. She knew he grieved over the sale of his
boat, and it was bitter hard for him to give up his club. But this time
she was determined. She had renounced her frivolous, expensive friends;
he must renounce his; she proposed to get along without the luxury of a
servant, he must deny himself, too.

“Well, damn it!” he growled at her implied reproach, “ain’t I doing
everything you want? The boat’s gone, and I’ve sent my letter in to the
club! What more do you want me to do?”

“Martin! that’s no way to speak to your wife! You’re not doing it for
_me_!”

She sighed in discouragement. He had a long way to go.

His efforts to divert himself about the house on Saturday afternoons
and Sundays were pathetic. He started vigorously to spade up a bit of
ground which he declared would make an admirable vegetable bed in the
spring. The spading lasted half a day and all winter Jeannette saw
the snow-covered shovel sticking upright in the ground where he had
left it. He was bored by inactivity. Books did not interest him; he
scorned the solitaire she suggested and in which she herself could find
amusement; likewise he grew impatient at walks in the woods now full of
autumn tints. Jeannette tried her best to entertain him. Several times
she asked the Drigos over for auction bridge but Mrs. Drigo and her
husband quarrelled so much when the cards ran against them, that Martin
declared he did not care to play with them. Jeannette tried “Rum” but
that, too, bored him; there was no pleasure in the game, he told her,
without stakes and one couldn’t gamble with one’s wife. At the end of
her resources, she shrugged her shoulders and let him seek out his own
amusements as best he could. His attitude nettled her. He ought to face
the new life, she felt, with the same fortitude, conscientiousness and
willingness that she displayed. She told him so with a good deal of
rancor one day: he was acting like a spoiled boy; he wasn’t being a
good sport about it. He only glowered at her in reply and stalked out
of the house.

She had her own suspicions where he went, but she did not reproach
him. In her heart she was sorry for him; his empty evenings and his
week-ends hung heavy on his hands. She hoped he would get used to the
idea and by and by be moved to follow her example.

But as the weeks and then the months began to go by, and she saw that
it was only she who was making the sacrifices,--cleaning, cooking,
washing dishes, denying herself clothes and even trips to the city
to see her mother,--a dull anger kindled within her. This burst into
flame when she learned by chance that Martin was still a member of the
Yacht Club. ’Stel Teschemacher telephoned her one day to remind her
to be sure and come to a bridge tournament the ladies of the club had
arranged for the following Wednesday afternoon. Jeannette explained
with some relish that she feared she was not eligible to participate
since her husband was no longer a member of the club, but ’Stel
Teschemacher assured her that such was not the case.

“Oh, no, you’re mistaken, Mrs. Devlin. He’s still a member and a very
valued one. The Directors refused absolutely to accept your husband’s
resignation; they just positively made him reconsider it.... Why, we
couldn’t get along without Mr. Devlin! He’s just the life of the club!”

Jeannette said nothing to Martin. She was bitter, feeling he had
tricked her, was not playing fair. She decided she would go to New York
and pour out her grievance in a stormy recital to her mother. It would
relieve her mind. On the train she met Edith French and when the city
was reached, her friend triumphantly carried her off to lunch at the
Waldorf.


§ 10

Not very long after this, she learned that Martin had been playing
poker, and had lost. He had had a bad streak of luck and was obliged
to confess to her he did not have enough money to pay the rent without
making a levy upon her share of his salary; she must count on only
forty dollars when his next pay-day fell due.

At that her resentment burst forth. She had denied herself consistently
since the first of September. With her own hands she had made the
little Christmas presents she had sent Alice and the children, and even
what she had given her mother, in order to save a few dollars, and here
was Martin gambling away at the card table money that was hers!

“You’re no more fit to be a father than a husband,” she told him, her
anger blazing. “You expect me to bear a child to a man like you! You’re
no better than a common thief!”

“Aw, cut that out, Jan,” he answered, a dull crimson reddening his
neck; “I’ll admit I’m in wrong and that you’ve got every right to be
sore at me, but what’s the use in accusing me of being dishonest?”

“Dishonest?--dishonest?” she repeated furiously, her hands clenched.
“Half of every dollar you earn belongs to me,--and don’t you forget
it! It’s mine by right of being your wife; it’s mine by right of your
definite promise when I married you that we should share and share
alike. I made a financial sacrifice then because I thought you and I
were going to build a house and rear a family. I used to earn a hundred
and forty dollars a month,--let me tell you,--and every cent of it I
spent as I chose and for what I chose. I’ve never seen that much or
anything like that much, since I married you. Don’t fool yourself you
_give_ me a penny! You work in your office and I work here and we both
earn your salary. When you take my money and gamble with it and lose
it, you’re doing exactly the same as if you put your hand in Herbert
Gibbs’s cash drawer and helped yourself! It’s just plain thievery!”

Martin was on his feet, his face congested.

“If you were a man, I’d knock your damned head off.”

“If I were a man,” retorted his wife, “you’d be afraid to!”


§ 11

It was in this mood of fury, with her grievance seething within her,
that she gladly agreed to accompany Edith French on a day of shopping
in the city. Edith telephoned she had been invited by a certain famous
Fifth Avenue importer to witness, at a private showing, the opening of
some sealed trunks just received from Paris containing the new spring
models. She wanted Jeannette to go with her, and the two women arranged
to leave for town on an early morning train.

It was a cold, glittering winter’s day when the crispness in the
air set the blood tingling; snow was piled in the street and there
was a general scraping of iron shovels on stone and cement. Edith
and Jeannette feasted their eyes on the new styles as they eagerly
discussed clothes and fashions. Edith, stimulated by her privileged
glimpses, bought herself a new hat, which Jeannette declared to be the
most beautiful thing she had ever seen in her life! Edith, it seemed
to her companion, was free to purchase anything that took her fancy.
If a garment or bauble attracted her, she got it without hesitation.
Jeannette’s heart was sick with longing. She watched her companion
enviously. In a reckless moment, urged by her friend to whom she had
confided at luncheon the tale of Martin’s perfidy, and who had been
gratifyingly sympathetic, she selected and charged a long woolly, loose
tan coat that had a deep collar of skunk. The coat had been “on sale”
and Edith had been so full of admiration for the way Jeannette looked
in it, that she offered to buy it and give it to her as a present.
To this Jeannette would not agree, but later, wrapped in its soft
ampleness and with a glowing satisfaction that it was the most becoming
garment she had ever owned, she did not press an objection when Edith
proposed to telephone Gerald Kenyon and ask him to take them to tea.
At five o’clock sitting against the crimson upholstered wall-seats
of a glittering café, sipping her hot tea and nibbling her thin,
buttered toast, listening to the music and the pleasant chatter of
her companions, conscious of Gerald Kenyon’s admiring eyes, Jeannette
decided that it was the first happy moment she had known in months, and
that if Martin chose to go his way, she had ample justification to go
hers.

A madness descended upon her. She was near to tears most of the time
but went dry-eyed upon her way, shutting her ears to the voice of
conscience, refusing to allow her better nature to assert itself. On
and on she stumbled into the forest of imprudence, allowing herself to
give no heed to the gathering shadows, taking no thought of how she
should ever find her way out of the gloom when the hour came for her to
turn back,--for, of course, she must some time turn back!

Little by little she was beguiled into doing the things she had
foresworn. She allowed Edith to persuade her into going almost daily
with her to the city; she spent here and there the dollars she had
so hardly saved; she began heedlessly to charge again: shoes, silk
stockings, a smart French veil, gloves. The two friends fell into the
habit of lunching or taking tea with Gerald Kenyon and sometimes going
to a matinée with him, and the day came--as he had carefully planned
it should come,--when Jeannette lunched with him alone. And over the
small table at which they sat so intimately, still in the grip of
the insanity that fogged her sense of righteousness and values, she
confided to his eager, understanding ears the story of her husband’s
selfishness, and listened to his persuasive voice as he offered to help
her out of her difficulties.

“Why, listen here, Jeannette,” he said, bending toward her earnestly
across the littered luncheon cloth, “I can make five thousand dollars
for you over night. There’s no sense in your troubling yourself about
money matters. If you’re in debt, I can show you a way that will pull
you out of the hole and give you all the spending money you need! The
old man, you know, is in steel. He’s on the inside and there’s nothing
that goes on down in Wall Street that he doesn’t know. He gave me a tip
the other day: a sure-fire tip. Did you ever hear of Colusium Copper?
Well, it’s one of the subsidiary companies of the United States Steel
Corporation, and its stock’s going right up. The old man telephoned me
to come down and see him, and he says to me: ‘Gerald, put what you can
lay your hands on on Colusium Copper; it’s due to go to seventy-five
and you want to get out about seventy-two or three.’ It was fifty-eight
then; it’s about sixty-six to-day. Why, look here,--it went up a couple
of points yesterday.” He showed her the figures convincingly in a
newspaper he drew from his pocket. “Now you just let me buy a few of
those shares for you this afternoon before the market closes, and I’ll
hand you a check for five hundred to-morrow when you meet me for lunch.
You don’t have to put up the money; I can fix that for you; I’ll just
telephone my brokers you want to buy a few shares and that I’ll O.K.
the deal. It’s a sure-fire proposition, Jeannette. You won’t be risking
a cent.”

He was very earnest, very persuasive; his voice was gentle and so
kindly. Five hundred dollars! thought the girl; it would wipe out all
those little purchases here and there that she had had charged to her
account about which Martin knew nothing!

Gerald was a _dear_! He was really a most generous, warm-hearted
friend! It was wonderful of him to take such an interest in her
trifling financial problems.

And the next day he showed her the check: $515.60 beautifully made
out,--W. G. Guthrie & Company, Stock Brokers,--and it was drawn in her
name. Her fingers trembled a little as she took the stiff bank paper in
her hands.

“You see what I told you!” Gerald said with a triumphant smile. “Why,
say, I could have made it five thousand just as easy if you had only
said the word. The old man knows when anything like this is coming off
in the Street. You have to laugh at the way the public runs in and lets
the big guns fleece them. The big fellows stick up the bait and the
poor fools rush after it and then chop--chop go the axes! ... Any time,
Jeannette, you want a bit of change just let me know and I can fix it
for you. I’ll just give the old man a ring and ask him what’s good....
Now, for Heaven’s sake don’t get the idea that what I’m able to do for
you on a little flier down in Wall Street is anything in the nature of
a present or anything like that. I’m just slipping you a little piece
of inside information,--savvy, dearie?”

The endearment was unfortunate. It suddenly reminded Jeannette of
her mother and she remembered she had not been to see her in weeks.
Besides, it was the first time Gerald had addressed her with any such
familiarity.

“I don’t think I’d better take this,” she said abruptly, tossing the
folded check at him. She leaned back in her chair and drew her hands
close to her breast.

He picked it up, tapped his fingers gently with it and began to argue.
He argued long and eloquently: the money did not belong to him, it was
hers, it represented the profits of her own little deal, he hadn’t a
right to a cent of it, it was impossible for him to touch it. But now
no word from him could reach Jeannette. Fear was awake in her; she
began to be very frightened; her panic grew. Suddenly she wanted to
get up from the table and run into the street. She wanted to go to her
mother; she wanted her mother badly. She felt she must get out of the
restaurant, must get into the air, must get away from that table and
this man at any price. She was like one who stands with her back to a
precipice and, turning around, finds herself within a few inches of its
edge, a chasm yawning at her feet. Fright made her giddy, her mouth was
dry, her throat closed convulsively.

“If I can only stand it for ten minutes more,” she said to herself,
gripping tight her folded hands beneath the table, “and keep my head
and not let him suspect! ... I must go on and pretend.... Just ten
minutes more.”

She managed it badly. The experienced eye of her companion guessed all
that was passing in her mind, and he cursed himself for having been too
precipitous. The wary hare that he had been at such pains to coax to
his side for so many months had taken flight at the first lift of his
finger. He would have to begin all over again, and this time proceed
more leisurely. For the present, he knew his cue was to withdraw.

He let her make her escape without remonstrance. He asked if she would
not allow him as a friend to mail her the check, and when with more
vehemence than she meant to display, she refused, he tore the paper
neatly into bits and let the fragments flutter from his finger-tips to
the table.

“Well,--it’s too bad,” he said with a shrug that eloquently expressed
his hurt. “Sorry. My only object was to try and help a bit.”

He left her at the door of the restaurant with a graceful lift of
his hat, saying he hoped to see her soon again. It was lost upon the
girl. She hurried to a telephone booth in a drug store at hand and
tried to reach the apartment on Ninety-second Street, but there was
no answer. She thought of Martin but there was the uncomfortable
confession she would have to make to him of her recent extravagances.
Her recklessness, she realized, had robbed her of the righteousness of
her quarrel with him; reproach he could meet with reproach.

She longed then for her sister,--her quiet, brown-eyed sister,--who
had never judged her harshly in her life, but Alice was in far-away
California. There was nobody, nobody in the world to whom she could
turn for comfort, for sympathy and counsel, and then coming toward her
with a pleased and smiling recognition in his face she saw Mr. Corey.
She fluttered to him with almost a sob, and put both her hands in his;
as he greeted her affectionately she wanted desperately to lay her head
against his shoulder and give way to the fury of tears that fought
now to find escape. In that moment, everyone seemed to have failed
her,--mother, sister, husband,--but this staunch, loyal, rock-solid
friend who believed in her, who knew only the best of her, whose faith
in her was unbounded, who knew her as she really was.

He was talking but she listened not to his words but to her own heart
that told her here was the haven for which she sought, here was the
counsellor, the friend who would help her without cavil or reproach.

“Tell me about yourself,” he was saying. “You promised you’d come in to
see me once in awhile,--and that brother-in-law of yours? I thought we
were going to find a job for him? What happened?”

Jeannette attempted to explain: Roy was trying to become an author, his
first story was appearing as a serial and he and his wife and babies
were in California. As she spoke of Alice, her voice suddenly grew
husky and when she tried to clear her throat, the hot prick of tears
sprang to her eyes, and she was obliged to stop and press her lips
together. Mr. Corey’s brows met sharply.

“What’s the matter? You’re in trouble?” He waited for her to speak but
she could only shake her head helplessly and blink her swimming eyes.

“Come in here with me,” he said in the old authoritative voice she
still loved to obey. They turned from the crowded street where they
were being jostled, into the drug store she had just quitted. It was
crowded in here, too, with a swarm of elbowing people before the soda
fountain. Corey guided the girl to the rear and they stopped by a
deserted counter.

“Now what is it? Tell me about it,” he said shortly. “Can I help you?”

She tried again to answer him but she was still too shaken; at any
effort to speak her tears threatened.

“Please,” she managed, gulping.

He left her, went to the soda counter and returned with a glass of
water. She drank it gratefully; the cold drink steadied her.

“I’ve just been acting foolishly,” she said at last, dabbing her eyes
with a corner of her handkerchief. “It’s all my fault, I guess.”

By degrees he pried her story from her: Martin had been treating her
badly; he had been very unfair to her; their marriage was a hopeless
failure; she couldn’t make it a success alone; she had struggled and
struggled and she didn’t believe it was any use; he was fearfully
extravagant and she had to do all the saving to keep them out of debt;
she had done without a servant just so they could get a little ahead,
but try as she would, they kept falling behind, and Martin didn’t
care....

She had no intention of misrepresenting her case to Mr. Corey, but
hungered for his sympathy, for his justification and approval, for his
censure of her husband.

He heard her with furrowed brows, his keen eyes watching her face, and
when she fell silent, he waited a long moment.

“Life’s hard on young people,” he said at length with a deep breath
and a dubious shake of his head. “It’s hard enough for them to get
adjusted to one another without having to worry over money matters. I’m
sorry your marriage has not turned out well. I feel particularly badly
because I urged you into it. Devlin seemed a likely fellow to me.”

They both considered the matter, studying the floor. Jeannette felt as
she stood there her life was breaking to pieces.

“If you’re in debt,” said Mr. Corey at length, “and it’s merely a
question of money to tide you over present difficulties; you must let
me lend you what you need.”

“Oh, no, thank you,” she said quickly.

“Oh, yes, but you must,” he insisted.

With firmness she declined. She wasn’t begging; she just had had one
man try to give her money; she couldn’t accept financial assistance
from anyone. No, it was her own problem,--she could work it out herself
without anyone’s help.

“Very well, then,” he suggested, “come back and work for me awhile.
I’ve an abominable person as secretary now; I intended to fire her
anyhow, and it will give me tremendous satisfaction to do so at once,
for I never needed efficient help more desperately than now.”

The words of polite thanks on Jeannette’s lips died. She raised her
eyes and fixed them on the face of the man before her, a light breaking
slowly in them.

“You mean ...?” she began. Her face was like radiant dawn.

“I mean exactly what I say: come back for as long as you wish. Stay
until you’ve earned what you need, and be free to go when you’re ready:
three months, six months, whenever you like.... It will be good to see
you back even for a short time at your old desk.”

Her intent gaze leaped from pupil to pupil of his smiling, earnest
eyes. Her thoughts raced: there was Martin; he would say “No” of
course; he wouldn’t consider letting her do this; he’d be furious, but
Martin would have to be won over, and if not ... well then ... there
was her mother and her own old room waiting for her in the apartment on
Ninety-second Street!

“Well?” said Mr. Corey amused, at the glowing color in her face.

“Mrs. Corey?” Jeannette faltered.

“She’s in Germany and a very sick woman. It’s rheumatism, you know, and
she’s been crippled a long time. I doubt anyhow if she’d care.”

Somewhere up above like pigeons fluttering forth from heaven’s dome
came happiness winging down upon the girl.

“Oh, yes,--if you’ll have me,--indeed I’ll come back.... I’ll be there
Monday morning! ... Oh, it will be _wonderful_!”


END OF BOOK II



BOOK III



BREAD



CHAPTER I


§ 1

The cat was crying to get in. Jeannette, deep in slumber, was irritated
by persistent mewings. Every once in awhile the outside screen door at
the back of the apartment shut with a small clap as the animal, sinking
its claws into the wire mesh, tried to pull it open. The noise awoke
Jeannette finally and she sat up with a start.

It was morning. Gray light filled the room. She peered at the alarm
clock, blinking her eyes, and saw there were still twenty minutes before
she had to get up. In the next room, the sound of a closing window
announced that Beatrice Alexander was already astir.

“She’s put Mitzi out,” thought Jeannette, drawing the bed clothes over
an exposed shoulder. “I wish she’d remember to leave the door ajar.”

Presently Beatrice’s steps passed in the hall and in another moment
the annoyance ceased. Jeannette dropped gratefully back to sleep. But
it seemed she had hardly lost consciousness when the whirring clock
bell aroused her again. Though still drowsy, she immediately got up;
she never permitted herself to remain in bed after the moment arrived
for rising; indulgence of this kind was weakness of character, and she
despised weakness in herself or in others. As she dressed, she heard
Beatrice in the kitchen busy with breakfast preparations. From the
window a glimpse of the street showed the sun’s first rays striking
obliquely through the haze of early morning.

The apartment in Waverly Place had now been her home for seven years;
she and Beatrice Alexander had taken it together a month after her
mother’s death, and life for the two women as time rolled on had become
undeviating in its routine. There was small variation in their days.

It was Beatrice’s business to prepare breakfast. She rose at seven;
Jeannette half-an-hour later. The meal was always the same: fruit,
boiled eggs, four pieces of toast, and a substitute for coffee,--cubes
of a prepared vegetable material dissolved in hot water. Beatrice set
the table daintily, with a small Japanese lunch cloth and a yellow
bowl filled with bright red apples in its center. Knives, forks and
spoons were nicely arranged and she never neglected to put tumblers of
drinking water beside the triangularly folded, fringed napkins, and
finger-bowls at each place with a bit of peel sliced from the bottoms
of the grapefruits or oranges which began the breakfast. Beatrice was
a fastidious person, Jeannette often thought gratefully; she liked
“things nice.”

While her friend was busy in kitchen and dining-room, Jeannette
dressed with her usual scrupulous carefulness. She gave but meager
attention to household affairs; these were Beatrice’s province; it
was Beatrice who did the ordering, paid the bills and managed the
small establishment. Jeannette’s companion was much like Alice and
these duties came naturally to her. Besides, during the years Mrs.
Sturgis and her daughter had lived together, it had been her mother who
attended to such matters; Jeannette had grown accustomed to leaving
household details to someone else. She took pains to explain this to
Beatrice when they discussed the project of an apartment together and
the latter had assured her it would be quite satisfactory. There had
never been the slightest friction between the two women; Beatrice
Alexander, with her soft, whispery voice and shy manner, was one of the
sweetest-tempered persons in the world.

The years had dealt not unkindly with Jeannette. At forty-three,
she was still a handsome woman,--no longer graceful and willowy,
perhaps,--but erect, aggressive, substantial-looking. There was a
solidarity about her now; her arms were big and round, her shoulders
broad and plump, her bosom well-developed; she was thirty pounds
heavier, and walked with a sturdy tread. There was gray in her hair,
too, and a certain settled expression about her mouth that proclaimed
middle age, but she was a fine looking woman with clear eyes and
skin, an impressive carriage, and much that was commanding in poise.
She dressed smartly and was always meticulously neat. Every morning
she donned a fresh shirtwaist, crisply laundered. It was a matter of
concern to her that this should set so snugly and correctly where it
joined the plain dark tailored skirt that closely fitted her back,
the effect should be of the skirt holding the blouse trimly in place.
When she had completed her toilet, she was the embodiment of trigness
and trimness, from her dark lusterless hair with its streaks of gray,
which she now wore in a smooth sweep encircling her head like a bird’s
unruffled wing, to her tan-booted feet in sheer brown silk stockings.
She always had taken a great deal of pains in the matter of attire, and
her hats, shoes and garments were of the latest approved styles and the
best materials, and came from the most exclusive shops in New York. She
still observed the strictest simplicity in the matter of clothes when
she dressed for the office.

She surveyed herself now in the mirror with approval, and as she
noted her fine tall figure, the breadth of her shoulders, the round,
neat, firm waist line, her calm, strong face,--shrewd, capable,
resourceful,--she could understand the awe and respect with which
the girls in her department regarded her. A hint of a smile touched
her resolute lips as she thought that to them she must appear a
super-woman, a sort of queen, the fount of all wisdom, justice and
power. She liked the idea.

She flung back the covers to let her bed air during the day, and
righted the flagrant disorder in her room with a few effective
movements. As she opened her closet door or bureau drawers, the
scrupulous neatness of their contents pleased her; the row of dresses
in the closet suggested the orderliness of a company of soldiers; her
shoes and slippers, each pair equipped punctiliously with boot-trees,
ranged themselves on a shelf in effective array, her lingerie was
carefully be-ribboned, folded in piles, and a scent of sachet arose
from its lacy whiteness.

As she busied herself she came upon a muss of face powder that had been
spilled upon the glass top of her bureau. A small sound of annoyance
escaped her. She crossed the hall to the bathroom, returned with the
moistened end of a soiled towel, resurrected from the laundry basket,
and wiped up the offending litter vigorously.

About to quit the room she paused a moment with her hand on the
door-knob for a final inspection, and turned back to make sure the
lower bureau drawer was locked and that she had put the key in its
hiding place under the rug; she raised the window an inch higher; a
white thread on the floor attracted her eye and she picked it up with
thumb and finger to deposit in the waste-basket before she joined
Beatrice Alexander in the dining-room. A glance at her wrist watch
assured her she was on time to the minute.

“Morning, Beat,” she said saluting her companion. “What was the matter
with Mitzi this morning?”

“I let her out early; she was clawing the carpet and growling. She
wouldn’t stop, so I just had to get up and put her out.”

“Strange,” commented Jeannette, eyeing the cat who blinked at her
comfortably from beside an empty soup plate that had held her bread and
milk. She began to talk baby talk to the pet:

“Mitzi-witzi! Yes, oo was,--oo went out to see a feller,--ess oo
did....”

The two women sat down to the breakfast table together. Jeannette
spread her _World_ out before her; Beatrice propped the _Times_ against
a water pitcher. They picked at their fruit, raised egg spoons to their
lips delicately, broke off bits of toast and inserted them in their
mouths, sipped their coffee with little fingers extended. Silence
reigned except for the small noises of cup and spoon, and the crackle
of newspapers.

“I _do_ think France ought to be more lenient with Germany,” Beatrice
remarked at length, adjusting her eye-glasses.

“I’d make her pay to the last mark she’s got,” asserted Jeannette. She
folded back her newspaper carefully to another page.

“They had quite an accident in the subway,” Beatrice observed.

“So I see.... Does seem to me the papers are awfully hard on the
Interborough. I should think they ought to be permitted to charge an
eight-cent fare; everything else is going up in price.”

“Do you suppose that Hennessy woman will get off?” asked Beatrice after
an interval.

“Well, I’d like to see her.”

“Senator Knowles died, they think, from drinking whiskey that had wood
alcohol in it.”

“Served him right. I wish they all would.”


§ 2

At twenty minutes past eight, Jeannette put on her hat carefully
before the mirror, drew about her shoulders her tipped fox scarf,
jerked her hands vigorously into stout tan gloves, and proceeded down
the two flights of stairs to the street. As she descended she noted
with customary pleasure the effect of the cream-painted woodwork
in the halls, the width of the stairs, and the flood of light from
the skylight above the stair-well which effectively illuminated the
interior of the house. She and Beatrice had indeed been fortunate in
finding a home in such a pleasant, well-arranged building. It was the
same apartment Miss Holland and Mrs. O’Brien had occupied for so many
years, until the latter married again, and the former went to live with
her nephew, Jerry,--who was a Commander now, had a wife and babies,
and was stationed at the Brooklyn Navy Yard. The trend of Jeannette’s
thoughts reminded her she had not been to see Miss Holland for nearly
two months; she resolved upon a visit in the immediate future.

The street was filled with morning sunshine as Jeannette stepped out
upon the stone flagging of the lower hall, closed the inner door behind
her, and felt in her purse with gloved fingers for the key to the
mail-box.

She found two letters for herself: one from Alice saying that Etta was
going to town on Saturday, would love to lunch with Aunt Jeannette and
be eternally grateful to her if she’d help her pick out the dress;
the other was a circular from Wanamaker’s. It was the latter rather
than the former communication that started the train of thought which
occupied Jeannette’s mind as she firmly stepped along the Avenue.
Her walk to the office took twenty-three minutes and as she passed
Fourteenth Street she noted by a clock in front of a jeweller’s store
that she was a minute ahead of time. The Wanamaker circular set
forth the advantages of a sale of women’s suits, yet it was not the
attractive prices nor the smart models that occasioned Jeannette’s
thoughts. The envelope containing the circular was addressed to “Mrs.
Martin Devlin.” No one called her by that name any more. When she
went back to work as Mr. Corey’s secretary, she had been welcomed as
“Miss Sturgis.” “Miss Sturgis” had meant something in the affairs of
the Chandler B. Corey Company; no significance was attached to “Mrs.
Devlin.” It seemed wiser to drop her married name,--and after the break
with Martin, she had no desire to keep it.

Odd to have been a man’s wife, to have belonged to someone! It would
be hard to think of herself as a “Mrs.” again, to call herself “Mrs.
Martin Devlin.” How many years ago had it been? Fifteen? Sixteen?
Something like that. Had there really ever been an interval of four
years in her life when she had been a married woman? It seemed to her
she had always been part of the Chandler B. Corey Company,--or the
Corey Publishing Company as it now was called,--part of it without a
break since those days of long ago when it had occupied three floors in
a clumsy old office building and had looked out, with Schirmer’s Music
Store and Tiffany’s, upon Union Square. What a slim, tall, ignorant,
ill-equipped young thing she had been that day she went eagerly to meet
Roy at the office and had watched Miss Reubens looking at photographs
in the reception room! Jeannette smiled now at the memory of herself.
It strained the imagination to believe that the present Miss Sturgis of
the Mail Order Department had been that awkward girl so long ago.

The years--the years! The changes they had wrought! Jeannette thought
of her last painful interview with Martin and the shadow of a frown
came to her brow. She had gone over every detail of it a million times.
It had indeed been harrowing. Poor Martin! He had pleaded so hard for
her to come back to him, he had offered to do anything she wanted, but
it was too late then; she couldn’t make him see it. She reminded him
again and again that he had talked just the same way when he begged
her to marry him; she had doubtfully agreed then, had consented to
give their union a trial, and it had turned out a failure,--a hopeless
failure. No, she didn’t blame him; she told him so over and over and
admitted it was as much her fault as his; she was no more fitted to be
a wife than he a husband; many people were constituted that way; they
weren’t suited to married life. She pointed out to him that unless a
marriage was happy, it was a mistake, and neither he nor she had been
happy as man and wife. Why, she had never been for one minute as happy
married to Martin Devlin as she had been since she became her own
mistress again! She loved her independence, she told him, too much to
surrender it to any man. And he? Well, it had been clearly demonstrated
that he liked the society of men and enjoyed outdoor sports more than
he did being a husband. She tried hard not to reproach him, had even
said she saw no reason why they, two, could not go on being friends,
occasionally seeing one another, but at that point Martin got angry,--a
sort of madness seemed to take hold of him and he had said all sorts of
terrible things to her, even called her names,--unforgettable ones. It
had ended in a dreadful scene, a terrible scene,--dreadful and terrible
because in spite of the fury and bitterness that gripped them, they
knew love still remained. Jeannette would never forget the storm of
tears, the abject grief that had come to her at their parting. Love
Martin though she did, she realized she loved her re-won independence
more, and she would not,--_could_ not return to him. Mr. Corey had
taken her in; she had promised to work for him for a while at least,
and it was utterly impossible for her to tell him, after he had
discharged his other secretary, that she was going back to her husband
again. If Martin had only given her a year or two she might have been
willing to be his wife once more, and she had told him as much, but
Martin refused to listen; he had thrown down his challenge and forced
her then and there to choose between her job and himself. There was
nothing else for her to do; she had made her decision, and Martin had
gone his way. She had never regretted it, she said to herself now; she
was far better off to-day, far happier and more contented than she ever
would have been as Mrs. Martin Devlin. As his wife she would have had
ties and known sickness; she and he would have quarrelled and there
would have been everlasting recriminations; she would have lost her
looks, and her clothes would have become shabby; she would have grown
familiar with poverty and have had to fight for herself and family the
way Alice did,--poor, deserving, hard-working Alice, with her five
children and unsuccessful husband! No doubt she, Jeannette, had missed
much in life, but hers had been the safe course, the prudent and sure
one. She was now in charge of the Mail Order Department of the Corey
Publishing Company, she was earning fifty dollars a week, had five
Liberty bonds all paid for, and was beholden to no one.... Of Martin
she had not heard for years. On a visit to Alice at Cohasset Beach,
she had one Sunday encountered ’Stel Teschemacher and that lady had
informed her that Zeb Kline, while on a brief visit to Philadelphia,
had seen Martin, and Martin had an agency for a motor-car there and
was doing quite well. Jeannette would have liked to hear more, but she
did not care to have ’Stel Teschemacher suspect she was interested.

It was ’Stel’s husband who sold the Beardsleys their home at Cohasset
Beach. The purchase had followed the death of Roy’s father and the
return of Roy and his family to New York. Dr. Beardsley had not lived
long enough to make a writer’s career for his son possible. His death
had sadly broken up the small home in Mill Valley, and Roy and Alice
had deemed it wiser to put the little money the clergyman left them
into a home of their own than spend it in paying rent, butchers’ and
grocers’ bills on the chance that Roy’s pen might some day earn a
livelihood sufficient for their needs. He had been only moderately
successful as an author. His dog story had been published and he had
placed several short stories but these had been few and far between and
then little Frank had come to add his chubby countenance to the family
circle and his parents decided a writer’s career was too precarious for
a man with a family. A job on a newspaper or magazine would insure a
steady income. So with grief over their bereavement and disappointment
in their hearts for the abandoned profession, Roy and his wife returned
to New York and then in quick succession had come the finding of his
position on the _Quart-z-Arts Review_ which carried with it a moderate
salary, the purchase of the house at Cohasset Beach, and in time the
arrival of the small Jeannette,--’Nettie she was called to distinguish
her from her aunt,--and Baby Roy, who was seven years old now and had
recently asserted his manhood by resenting the identifying adjective by
which he had been known since birth. Jeannette paused a moment in her
retrospective thoughts to calculate: Twenty-two years! Yes,--Alice and
Roy had been married twenty-two years! They were an old married couple
now.


§ 3

She realized abruptly she had reached the office. Men and women, up
and down the street, were converging in their courses toward the doors
of the publishing company. The great concrete block of eight stories,
crowded now to the limit of its capacity, with the thundering presses
on the lower floors, had often seemed to her a monster that sucked in
through its tiny mouth each morning a small army of workers, mulled
them about all day between its ruminating jaws, fed on their juices and
spewed them forth at evening to go their ways and gather new strength
during the night to feed its hungry maw again upon the morrow.

Though the picture was grim and repellent, she cherished no hostility
toward the institution that employed her. With the exception of the
four-year interlude of adventuring in matrimony, she had been an
employee of the self-same concern since she was eighteen; for nearly
twenty years her name had appeared upon its pay-roll; in November
she could make that very boast. More than any building in the world
this block of steel and concrete was bound up with her destiny; she
had spent most of the days of her life within it; she had seen its
beginnings, had watched it spring into being, had had a hand in
altering and adapting it to the needs of business, had observed its
almost barren floors slowly fill year after year with human activity
until now the use of every square foot of space was a matter of debate;
she was one of the half dozen still gleaning a livelihood within its
walls to-day who could speak of a time before its existence had even
been conceived.

Most of those early associates on Union Square were gone now,--dead
or following other lines of endeavor. Old Kipps still pottered
about in the manufacturing department, Mr. Cavendish white-haired,
gray-moustached and rosy, still edited _Corey’s Commentary_; Miss
Travers, her merry face now lined with many criss-crossed wrinkles, had
succeeded Mr. Olmstead and while not accorded the title of Auditor,
which he had enjoyed, was known as the Cashier. Then there was Sidney
Frank Allister, who, while he did not date back to the Union Square
days, was still to be reckoned among those early associated with the
fortunes of the publishing company, and now very much identified with
them since he had become President and sat in the seat of Chandler B.
Corey.

For Mr. Corey was dead. He had died the year Jeannette lost her mother
and had followed his son, Willis, to the grave after a few months. Mrs.
Corey had left him a widower many years before. There remained only his
daughter, Babs, in an Adirondack sanitarium for the insane, to inherit
his wealth and fifty-one per cent of the stock of the business he had
created. He died a rich man and his will provided that his worldly
possessions should be divided equally between his two children, their
heirs and assigns, and of these last there were none, for Willis had
never married and Babs could not. Jeannette often used to muse upon the
futility of human ambition when she thought of the man she had served
so long as secretary. She knew it had been the great desire of his life
to found a publishing house that should become identified with the
growth of American literature and pass on down the years in the hands
of the Corey family, father and son succeeding one another after the
fashion of some of the great English houses.

One day while sitting in his office intent upon affairs of business,
his head dropped forward and banged on the hard surface of his desk
before him, and he was dead. His heart had suddenly grown tired of its
work. Even before he was laid away at Woodlawn, there had begun the
mad scramble for the control of stock which would elect his successor.
Jeannette never learned how Mr. Allister succeeded in obtaining it, but
Mr. Featherstone had shortly been eliminated entirely from the affairs
of the company and it was whispered that Mr. Kipps had played a double
game. However that may have been, Sidney Frank Allister was by far the
best man to fill Corey’s place, in Jeannette’s opinion. He was not so
shrewd nor so far-seeing, but he had certain literary qualifications
which fitted him for the position. Mr. Featherstone, Jeannette had
early come to regard as a blustering blow-hard, while Mr. Kipps was
hardly grammatical in speech or in letters, and had grown into a fussy
old man. Francis Holm or Walt Chase might have proven themselves even
better material, but three years prior to Mr. Corey’s death, both these
young men had broken away from the old organization; Holm had launched
forth into the publishing business for himself, and Walt Chase had gone
to Sears, Roebuck & Co. in Chicago at a salary, it was rumored, of ten
thousand a year, and Jeannette had succeeded him as head of the Mail
Order Department.

Much as she had enjoyed being secretary to Mr. Corey, she was forced to
realize as the years rolled by, that the position held no future for
her. She would always be the president’s secretary as long as Mr. Corey
lived but against the congenial work and easy rôle her ambition had
protested. Recollections of early resolutions she had made on entering
the business world returned to disturb her complacency. She remembered
vowing then she would go to the very top and some day become herself an
executive instead of a secretary. She saw no reason why she should not
follow in Walt Chase’s footsteps and be worth ten thousand a year, if
not to the Corey Company then to some other. She had great confidence
in herself, felt especially qualified to do mail order work, and was
sure she could increase sales and manage the department better than
Walt Chase. It was a pet idea of hers that women, not men, bought books
by mail, and she was confident that attacks directed at women, written
from a feminine standpoint, would show results. When the offer from
Chicago came and Chase announced he was going, she determined suddenly
to seize the opportunity and asked Mr. Corey for Chase’s place; she had
played secretary long enough, she told him,--she wanted her chance at
bigger work.

There had been a great deal of demurring and discussion before she was
allowed to try her hand. Mr. Kipps and Mr. Featherstone had vigorously
opposed the plan, arguing that while Miss Sturgis had proven herself an
incomparable secretary, there was no indication she would be equally
successful in charge of the Mail Order Department. Walt Chase had
built up a steady sale for the company’s publications, and had been,
doing many thousands of dollars’ worth of business a year. Mr. Kipps
and Mr. Featherstone shared the opinion that a woman was not competent
to manage affairs involving so much money,--they were too large for
the feminine mind to grasp. They contended, too, that she had had no
experience in mail order affairs, and that a young man, named Owens,
who had been Chase’s assistant for over a year, was his logical
successor, and had been led to expect the promotion; it was doubtful,
they said, whether he and Mr. Sparks, and old Mr. Harris and the one
or two other men who had been under Walt Chase would consent to remain
if a woman was placed in charge of them; this particular branch of the
business had become exceedingly profitable and it was pointed out to
Mr. Corey that he was in great danger of demoralizing it by permitting
a girl to assume its management.

Jeannette had stood firm and resolutely pressed her request in the
face of opposition which she considered stupid and which angered her.
Mr. Corey finally agreed to give her a trial although it was clear he
had his misgivings. But during the nine years in which Jeannette had
filled the coveted position, she had amply demonstrated to everyone’s
satisfaction her faith in herself to be warranted, and this in spite
of the fact that Owens and Sparks had promptly resigned as predicted
by Mr. Featherstone and Mr. Kipps, and for a time the work had been
demoralized indeed.

Yet she triumphed, as she knew she would, and the ideas she had long
cherished for conducting mail order campaigns had borne fruit. Last
year she had the satisfaction of stating in her annual report that
the business of her department had doubled in size since she had taken
it in charge. It had been a long struggle fraught with interference
and constant criticism of her methods. It had been particularly hard
at first when Mr. Kipps supervised everything she did and vetoed some
of her pet projects. He had hampered her in every way he could, not
because he had any personal feeling against her but because she was
a woman and he had no faith in a woman’s judgment. That was the way
he had always treated Miss Holland; but now since Miss Holland had
resigned and gone to live with her nephew in Brooklyn, he was willing
at any minute to wax eloquent in praise of her extraordinary ability:
ah, yes,--yes, indeed,--Miss Holland was a remarkable woman,--fitted
in every way for business,--brain like a man’s,--wonderfully
clear-sighted, excellent judgment; they didn’t “make” many women like
Miss Holland,--she was the exception, one in a million!

Jeannette had to contend against such prejudice for the first year or
two, but eventually she overcame it. Mr. Corey helped her whenever
possible. She strove to keep the affairs of her department to herself
and when forced to seek higher authority, made a practice of going
directly to the President who had been the first to be convinced of
her ability. As time went on, Kipps and the other members of the
firm inclined to question her gradually allowed her to go her way.
It had taken nearly a decade to win their confidence but there was
satisfaction in the thought that at last it was hers, the victory was
complete. Of course old Mr. Kipps would always purse his lips and frown
dubiously about anything she proposed for he would never be completely
convinced of her ability until she followed in Miss Holland’s
footsteps, but Kipps was stooped and aged now and little attention was
paid to what he said or did. The Board of Directors was satisfied with
the generalship of Miss Sturgis whose monthly reports of sales and
profits confirmed their confidence. When some other department reported
a loss, or when business in general was poor, the Mail Order Department
could be depended upon to show a consoling profit.


§ 4

One section of the sixth floor was Jeannette’s domain. She had tried
for years to have her department walled off by partitions but the
best she had been able to obtain for herself and her girls was a line
of screens and bookcases. She had twenty-four clerks under her now,
although the number fluctuated, particularly during October when the
fall campaign was in progress. Then her force often swelled to over a
hundred and the extra help was quartered temporarily in neighboring
vacant lofts and offices, rented for a few weeks. She then had her
lieutenants to superintend the work, which for the most part consisted
merely of folding and inserting circulars in envelopes, sealing and
stamping.

Her department was well organized; the work had been so systematized
that it now moved with perfect smoothness. Old Sam Harris,--who
represented all that was left of Walt Chase’s régime,--supervised
the card catalogues; Miss Stenicke was in charge of the girls; the
“inquiries” were checked and answered by Mrs. M’Ardle, while orders
were entered and forwarded to the stock room for filling by little
Miss Lacy. Jeannette devoted herself to the preparation of copy for
letters, circulars and advertisement. This was the most important part
of the work, and she believed her time and brains could not be better
employed. She kept huge scrap-books in which she pasted circulars and
letters issued by other mail order houses and spent hours poring over
them.


§ 5

Her desk stood on a low platform and from this vantage-point she could
overlook her department as a school teacher surveys her schoolroom.
She prided herself she could tell at a glance what any particular girl
ought to be doing; if ever in doubt she promptly summoned Mrs. M’Ardle
to her desk and inquired. All the girls respected and admired her;
they knew her to be fair-dealing and straightforward, though swift in
censure where merited. She liked to have them think of her in this way
and cultivated the idea.

“You’re conscientious and you try hard,” she would say in admonishing
some unfortunate bungler. “I want to be just to you. In conducting the
affairs of this department, I want to be as lenient as I can. I strive
to forget personalities and think only of my assistants,--or perhaps I
had better say ‘associates,’--as co-helpers in a big machine, each one
functioning to the best of her ability at her particular piece of work.
I’ve explained my ideas to Mr. Allister repeatedly. I want the girls in
the Mail Order Department to be every one her own boss, to come and
go as she pleases, and feel responsible--not to me but to the work....
I want to be a ‘big sister’ to every girl under me. I’m placed here
to help, advise and direct, not to scold. But if you fail to perform
properly the work assigned you, if you’re clumsy and careless and
haphazard in your methods, then it is my duty to call the fact to your
attention.... I want to be fair to everyone; I have no favorites....”

The lecture might continue at some length particularly if Miss
Stenicke, Mrs. M’Ardle or little Miss Lacy was within earshot.

For a long time this Mail Order branch of the business of which she was
the head had called forth Jeannette’s great pride. She had felt it was
all hers,--her work. But of late, she had been stirred less and less.
After all what had been accomplished? For nearly ten years she had
bent her energies to making this phase of the activities of the Corey
Publishing Company aboundingly successful. There no longer remained any
question as to whether or not she had achieved her purpose. A year or
two ago a recalcitrant spirit among her girls had immediately aroused
in her a determination to break it; the discovery of an error at once
had challenged her to trace it to its source; the questioning of her
authority or trespassing upon her prerogatives had stirred her upon the
instant to battle. One of the keenest pleasures of her days had been
to draft laws that should govern her girls and to see that these were
enforced. She had begun to detect in herself within the last year or
two an increasing indifference to all such things,--she did not care as
she once had cared. She was no longer hampered or troubled by those
“downstairs”; her assistants and her girls gave her small occasion
for supervision; the work of the department ran on well-oiled wheels.
With opposition eliminated, the task of organization perfected, the
maximum volume of business attained, there remained nothing to fire her
spirit or brain, to stimulate fresh effort. And she was distressed by
a suspicion that more and more persistently obtruded itself upon her
consciousness that perhaps she was getting old, that the indifference
to what went on about her and to her work was merely a sign of
approaching age!

She rebelled at the idea; she put it from her vigorously; she refused
to entertain it. Why, she was only forty-three! She was in the heyday
of her powers. Her judgment, her mind, her capacities were never so
keen as now. She was equal to far more exacting, more difficult work.
Disturbed by this fear, she decided to look about her for fresh fields
of endeavor. There was no higher position in the Corey Publishing
Company open to her; more important places were all filled by members
of the firm, and it was not likely that any one of them would step
aside and give her a chance at his work. No,--though proud of her long
years of service and her record with the publishing company,--she
decided that neither was of sufficient importance to keep her
indefinitely on its pay-roll until she was ready to follow in Miss
Holland’s footsteps. She let it be known in mail order circles that she
was looking for a job.

Of Walt Chase she continued to think enviously. She had heard he was
now one of the big men in Sears, Roebuck & Company, a fact
that exasperated her, because she felt herself to be cleverer than
he, more able in every respect. He was getting ten thousand--twelve
thousand--fifteen thousand,--whatever it was,--a year and climbing
the ladder of success rung after rung, while she was doing the work
he had left behind him at the Corey Publishing Company in a far more
efficient, economical, and profitable way and was being paid fifty
dollars a week!

One day she learned of a vacancy in the American Suit & Cloak Company,
where they were looking for someone familiar with mail order work.
She wrote and applied for the position. A conference with the General
Manager followed. It developed he was in search of a man,--a woman, it
was feared, was not qualified to do the work,--but the Manager admitted
he knew Miss Sturgis by reputation and would be glad to make a place
for her in his organization if she was dissatisfied where she was,--and
he could promise her,--well, he could pay her thirty-five dollars a
week. Jeannette declined and eased her mind by writing a coldly worded
letter of thanks and regret; the General Manager of the American Suit
& Cloak Company must have a poor opinion of her sense of values, if
he expected her to resign from a position where she was the head of a
department and receiving fifty dollars a week to accept an underling’s
place at a smaller salary! But fifty dollars a week from the Corey
Publishing Company was far below what she was worth, Jeannette
considered. It infuriated her to think that while Mr. Allister and
those “downstairs” were glib with their commendation of her work,
there was never any talk of expressing this appreciation by a raise in
salary.


§ 6

Her first business in the mornings upon reaching her desk was to fasten
a sheet of paper about each of her wrists and pin another to the
front of her shirtwaist as a protection against dirt. It was almost
impossible to go through half a day and keep one’s linen clean without
these shields. Dust from the street filtered in through the windows,
that must be kept open at the top for ventilation and occasionally
little feathery balls of soot made their appearance. Contact with
office furniture always held the risk of a smudge. Jeannette had her
desk and chair thoroughly wiped off by one of her girls before she
reached the office in the morning and again when she went to lunch but
in an hour or two after these protective measures, she would begin to
feel grit under the tips of her fingers and observe a fine gray layer
on the surfaces of white paper.

She usually arrived five or ten minutes before nine o’clock at which
hour the business of the day was supposed to begin. Never late herself,
she had trained her girls to be equally punctual. It was a matter of
pride with her that in the Mail Order Department work began promptly
on the stroke of the hour. There was no formality about the way it
commenced. Without sign or sound from Jeannette the girls set about
their various duties with simultaneous accord, the noise of chatter and
laughter died away, there was a general scraping of chair legs on the
cement floor, and the buzz of typewriters, like the chirping of marsh
frogs, began slowly to gather volume.

First Jeannette turned her attention to her “Incoming” basket, neatly
stacked the clipped correspondence, memorandums and communications
before her, and, armed with a thick blue pencil, began their
disposal, marking certain letters and papers a vigorous “No” or
“O.K.-J.S.”--pinning a sheet of scratch pad to others and
scribbling thereon a brief direction or query. Most of the pile before
her disappeared into her “Outgoing” basket, but in an upper corner of
her desk was a folder inscribed: “Mr. Allister,” and into this she
would occasionally slip a letter or memorandum. Its contents would
go to him by boy later in the day; once in a while she carried some
important matter to him herself but she troubled him as little as
possible. She tried to keep the affairs of her department to herself;
the less she attracted the attention of the Directors, the less they
were likely to ask for reports or feel called upon to supervise or
investigate her work; she preferred to let the monthly statements of
sales speak for her.

By ten o’clock the “Incoming” basket would be empty, and she could
begin the preparation of copy for an advertisement, a circular letter,
or the arrangement of a leaflet setting forth the features of a new
set of books. This was the work she loved best to do, knowing she was
unusually good at it; there were daily evidences her copy “pulled,”
that the touches she gave her advertisements were productive of sales.
No one “downstairs” appreciated how clever she was, though there were
the reports of sales to attest to her ability.

She often wished there was more of this particular kind of ad-writing
and circular-preparing to be done, but the books of the Corey
Publishing Company sold by mail, year after year, varied little in
type: These were a standard dictionary, a Home Library of Living
Literature, a set of handbooks for Garden and Kitchen, and then there
were the dressmaking books issued in connection with the pattern
department: “How to Sew,” “How to Knit,” “How to Embroider.” In
addition to the circularizing for these was that for subscriptions to
the magazines, offered in conjunction with some particular premium.

When a special letter had to be prepared, Jeannette preferred to write
it at home or come back to the office at night when she could be alone
and undisturbed. There was continual interruption during the day; she
rarely enjoyed five minutes of consecutive thought. One source of
distraction and a great annoyance was having personally to initial
every request for supplies, no matter how trifling. This was one of
Mr. Kipps’ schemes. He had made it a rule that heads of departments
must O.K. all such requisitions. A paper of pins, a pot of paste, a pad
of paper could not be issued by the stock clerk to any of her girls
without Jeannette’s initials being affixed to the request. All day long
she was interrupted by: “C’n I have a pencil, Miss Sturgis?” “Please
O.K. my slip for some paper, Miss Sturgis.” “’Xcuse me for interruptin’
you, Miss Sturgis, but I need some pen points.” Mr. Kipps’ idea was to
prevent waste, but Jeannette frequently realized with exasperation that
her time was of a great deal more value to the company than pencils,
pens or paper, and there was a far greater waste in interrupting a line
of constructive thinking than in trying to conserve the supplies of the
stock room.

The telephone at her desk was continually at her ear: the composing
room wanted the cut for Job 648; the engraver didn’t have the “Ben
Day” she had specified; Mr. Sanders, Mr. Kipps’ assistant, wished to
know if she could use a Five-and-a-quarter envelope just as well as
a Number Six; she had requisitioned five thousand two-cent stamps
and they had not been delivered; she needed a hundred thousand more
“Dictionary” circulars, and would like Stamper & Bachellor to submit
her some “m.f. laid, 24 by 36” in various tints; the stencil machine
was out of order and she wanted to borrow one from the mailing
department.

One thing followed another all day long.

“If we insert that return postal, we can’t mail this attack under
two-cent postage.”

“Hello, Miss Sturgis,--say, _Events_ can only give us a half page; will
you prepare new copy for the smaller space? They’re waiting to go to
press.”

“Miss Sturgis, we’re running short on ‘_How to Knit_.’”

“Miss Sturgis, we’ll have to get in some extra girls if you want those
letters signed by hand.”

“Miss Sturgis, do you want these mimeographed or printed?”

“Miss Sturgis, Mr. Allister’d like to see you.”

“Miss Sturgis, c’n I have some pins?”

At a quarter past twelve she went to lunch. She made a point of going
promptly. There was a time, some years back, when she had fallen into
the habit of letting her lunch hour lapse over into the afternoon,
allowing the demands upon her further and further to postpone it, and
it had been two o’clock, sometimes three before she went out. As a
result, indigestion and headaches commenced seriously to trouble her,
and the doctor advised a regular hour for lunch. At twelve-fifteen,
therefore, she compelled herself to drop whatever she had in hand and
leave the office; one of the girls was instructed to call her attention
to the time.

She always went to the Clover Tea Room for her luncheon. This was
a little basement restaurant operated by two elderly sisters. It
was prettily appointed with yellow lights, yellow candles, yellow
embroidered table doilies and yellow painted furniture. Jeannette had
her own special table daily reserved for her. Lunch cost sixty-five
cents and consisted generally of a small fruit cocktail, a chop, a
little fish, or an individual meat pie, with an accompanying dab of
vegetable, and a dessert.

She was accustomed to enter the Tea Room at twelve-twenty almost to the
minute: a tall, fine-figured, handsome woman in her dark tailor-made,
her modish hat and fur scarf. She would proceed directly to her table,
exchanging a smile and a word of greeting with the elder Miss Hanlon as
she passed her desk. Unbuttoning her gloves and drawing them from her
hands, she would study the handwritten menu:

Minnie would presently come for her order.

“Morning, Miss Sturgis; what’s it to-day? Stew looks good.”

“Good morning, Minnie. Well, if you say so, I’ll have the stew. And
don’t forget to bring lemon with my tea.”

The Tea Room would be but partially filled when Jeannette entered, but
as she waited for her lunch other people began to arrive. Ah, here was
Miss Hogan of Lyman & Howell, and here was that pretty Miss Thompson of
Altman’s; Mr. Crothers of the Stationers’ Supply was late,--no, here
he was; Mrs. Diggs had that funny looking hat on again; this person
was a stranger and that couple, busily talking, were quite evidently
shoppers. A gray-haired woman in the corner appeared at the Tea Room
several times of late; Jeannette decided she must ask Miss Hanlon who
she was, and find out where she was employed.

At quarter to one or perhaps ten minutes before the hour, Jeannette
would pour a little drinking water from her tumbler over her
finger-tips into her empty dessert saucer, moisten her lips, wipe them
on the little yellow napkin, and draw on her gloves nicely. She always
left ten cents for Minnie and paid her check at Miss Hanlon’s desk on
her way out. Usually she had the better part of half-an-hour before it
was time to return to the office. Between the Tea Room and the corner
of the Avenue, she almost invariably encountered Miss Travers, the
Cashier, who likewise patronized the little restaurant. They would nod
and smile at one another as they passed but neither had time to pause
for words. Jeannette frequently had a small errand to perform: gloves
to get at the cleaners’, her shoes polished, a bit of shopping, a book
to exchange at the library. When there was nothing specially pressing,
she would pay a visit to a bustling Fifth Avenue store, where she would
make her way through crowds of jostling women, and inspect counters,
examining, even pricing the merchandise that attracted her. In the long
years she had been an office-worker, she had spent many a luncheon
hour in this fashion; she never grew tried of such visits, nor of
acquainting herself with the new fads, novelties and latest styles in
feminine apparel.

Just one hour after she had left it, she would be back at her desk,
readjusting her paper cuffs, and re-pinning the sheet at her breast. At
once the demands upon her would recommence:

“Miss Sturgis, while you were out, engravers ’phoned and said they
can’t find that cut.”

“Miss Sturgis, Mr. Kipps wants to know how many copies of _Garden and
Kitchen_ we sold up to November first last.”

“Miss Sturgis, Miss Hilliker went home sick.”

“Miss Sturgis, will you sign my requisition for a box of clips?”

“Miss Sturgis, c’n I have a pencil?”

Thus it would continue for the rest of the day. The afternoon light
would shine bleak and garish through the fireproofed windows with their
meshed wire embedded in the glass, the dust would settle on desks and
papers, the thundering presses on the lower floors would send fine
vibrations through the building, typewriters would maintain a clicking
droning, a buzz of small noises would harass the ear, there would be
a continual flash of paper and of white hands at the folders’ tables,
while pervading everything would be the thick sweet smell of ink
emanating from stacks of new print matter fresh from the press-room.

Five o’clock always surprised Jeannette. Her work absorbed her; if
she threw a hasty glance at the neat small mahogany-cased clock on
her desk, it was to ascertain if there was time enough to complete
one more task that day, or to begin preparations for a new one. The
ringing gong that sounded “quitting time” invariably startled her into
a blank sensation of discouragement. She would wish at that moment for
another hour to finish the matter in hand,--just a little longer and
she would have it out of the way! The commotion among the girls which
instantly followed the gong never failed to annoy her. In less than
five minutes,--save for Mrs. M’Ardle, little Miss Lacy, Miss Stenicke,
and old man Harris,--her department would be empty. These assistants
remained a little later to clean up the day’s work and prepare for
the morrow’s. In another quarter of an hour, they too would begin to
bang desk drawers shut, and prepare to depart. Presently Jeannette
would be alone. She usually was the last to leave. It was then that
a feeling of fatigue, a weariness of soul, a distaste of life would
begin to assert themselves. Reaction from the racing events of morning
and afternoon would close down upon her and of a sudden her work, her
days, her whole life, would seem drab, colorless, profitless. What
did it matter if a few more copies of the Dictionary were sold, what
difference did it make if the new attack was a success, whether or
not little Miss Lacy was inclined to be careless, or that Mr. Kipps
had attempted to interfere with her again? Of what importance was the
Mail Order Department of the Corey Publishing Company anyway? Or the
concern itself? Mr. Corey had worked hard all his life and then had
died and left it behind him! What good had it ever done him? This
racketing building represented such trivial enterprise after all! It
seemed ridiculously trifling.... She would get to her feet with a great
sigh of apathy, disgust for her work and life rising strong within
her. Frequently with a sweep of an impatient hand she would scoop the
papers before her into the top drawer of her desk, or thrust them back
into her “Incoming” basket. They could wait until the morrow; to-night
they bored her; she wanted to get away; to shut them out of her mind!
... Ah, it was all so petty! No one would thank her for working after
hours! She was sick to death of it!

She would adjust her hat with her usual care before the mirror in the
dressing-room, tucking her hair neatly beneath its brim, don fur and
gloves, and proceed to the elevator.

On the way out she might encounter Mr. Kipps or Mr. Allister.

“Good-evening, Miss Sturgis.”

“Good-evening, Mr. Allister.”

The street would be blue with gathering dusk, and crowded with dark
hurrying figures homeward bound. Lights here and there streamed from
office windows, dabs of brilliant yellow in the purple scene. Motor
trucks and delivery wagons backed to the curb were being piled with
crates and packages by hustling, calling men and boys. The tide of
workers let loose from desk and counter set strongly in conflicting
currents. Long lines of traffic filled the congested thoroughfare and
waited for the signal to move forward. A dull clamor, a pulsing bass
note, a sound of feet, voices, motor horns, a banging and bawling, a
thumping and hubbub, clatter and rumble, throbbed persistently. There
was a sense of hurry and dispatch in the air. No one had any time to
waste; it was the hour of home-going, the end of the day’s toil, the
feeding time of the great army of workers.


§ 7

Dinner had still to be prepared by the time Jeannette reached
the apartment in Waverly Place. Beatrice, who was employed by a
manufacturer of soaps and toilet waters a few blocks from where she
lived, was usually in the kitchen when her friend arrived. Beatrice
did the marketing at her lunch hour, or in going to and from her
office. Mrs. Welch, who lived downstairs, obligingly took in packages
and kept an eye on Mitzi, well qualified, however, to look after
herself. The cat mysteriously disappeared during the day to present
herself bright-eyed, hungry and affectionate the instant Jeannette’s or
Beatrice’s steps sounded in the hall.

The dinners the two working women shared were usually simple. Very
seldom they ate meat. Eggs in any form were popular and the evening
meal,--nine times out of ten,--began with a canned soup served in
cups. From the delicatessen on Sixth Avenue a variety of canned food
was obtainable. Jeannette and Beatrice were particularly fond of
canned chicken _á la King_, which had merely to be heated, seasoned
and poured over toast. Sometimes they made their dinner of soup, a can
of asparagus tips, tea and crullers. The asparagus tips made frequent
appearances. Beatrice kept in the ice-box a little jar of mayonnaise,
which she usually whipped together on Sundays. Macaroni salad was
another prime favorite, and there were also tuna fish, creamed or made
into a salad, and fish balls whenever they could be obtained.

Once in a while on a Sunday or on one of those rare occasions when
company was expected Beatrice struggled with meat and potatoes
for a three-course meal, but in these ventures she received small
encouragement from Jeannette. The latter was forever proclaiming she
“despised” to cook and was therefore averse to betraying any interest
in plans for an elaborate meal; the odor of meat cooking in the house
smelled the place up horribly, she declared.

Punctiliously, however, she performed her share of the work in cleaning
up after dinner. She dried the dishes, gathered the small luncheon
cloth by its four corners and gave it a quick shake out of a rear
window, put away the silverware, and restored to the sideboard drawer
the two fringed napkins in their red lacquer rings, rearranged the
table and pushed back the chairs against the wall. Beatrice meanwhile
would be busy fussing in the kitchen, washing the one or two pans she
had used, the tea-pot and few dishes, feeding Mitzi the remnants of the
can of soup and perhaps a bit of fish or a little fried liver. By half
past seven dinner would be a thing of the past and the little home in
order again.

Jeannette made it a practice to spend the ensuing hour or two in the
seclusion of her own room. In many ways, this was the happiest time
of the day for her. She was alone finally and could count upon being
unhurried and undisturbed. First she made her bed with care: the
undersheet must be stretched tight and tucked well under the mattress,
there must be no wrinkles and the covers must be folded in loosely
at the bottom; she affected a baby pillow which twice a week must be
slipped into a fresh embroidered case. Five minutes followed with the
carpet sweeper; the room was tidied,--everything put in its right
place. When all was done, she would feel free to turn her attention
to herself. If there was mending, she next disposed of it; distasteful
though sewing had always been to her, she had grown dexterous with her
needle. She spent fifteen minutes manicuring her nails, and an equal
time brushing her hair and rubbing a tonic into her scalp. The gray was
very thick over the right temple and Beatrice had urged her to have it
“touched up” but Jeannette rather liked it as it was; she considered
it added a distinguished touch. There were other intimate offices
she performed at this hour with great thoroughness, her vigorousness
increasing as time carried her into middle age. Twice a week, sometimes
oftener, she took a hot bath about nine o’clock. Great preparations
were attached to this performance, and she indulged herself in perfumed
bath salts, perfumed soap, and delicately scented powder. When
Mehitable brought home the “wash” on Friday nights, Jeannette devoted
half-an-hour to running pink satin ribbons through her chemises and
brassières. The ribbons she carefully steamed herself once a month and
pressed with the electric iron in the kitchen. But those nights on
which she did not bathe, when her room was in order and her toilette
completed, she would don a kimona, and, with hair hanging in pig-tails
down her back, her feet in Japanese wicker sandals, shuffle her way to
the front room, with a book under her arm, to join Beatrice for perhaps
an hour’s chat or reading before finally retiring. Neither she nor her
companion ever went to the movies, and seldom to the theatre. Saturday
afternoons Jeannette spent in tours of shrewd and calculated shopping,
and on Sundays she went to Cohasset Beach to spend the day with Alice
and the children.



CHAPTER II


§ 1

Jeannette, on her way to Cohasset Beach, let her Sunday newspaper drift
indifferently into her lap, and turned her attention to the October
landscape through the car window. The train was filled with Sunday
visitors like herself, bound for friends and relatives in the suburbs.
They would enjoy a hearty meal around a crowded table at one o’clock,
would inspect the local country club for a view of the links or the
golfers in their “sports” clothes, indulge, perhaps, in a motor trip
to gain further aspects of the autumnal foliage, or, complaining of
having over-eaten and demurring at any effort, establish themselves at
the card table to while away the rest of the afternoon at bridge. At
five o’clock the swarm that had filtered into the country all morning
through the Pennsylvania Station would decide with one accord to return
to the city, the cars would be jammed and every seat taken long before
the westbound trains reached Cohasset Beach. It was always a noisy
crowd with crying, tired babies wriggling in parents’ laps, golfers
arguing about their scores and the adjustment of their bets, silly
girls convulsed at one another’s confidences or lifting shrill pipes
of mirth at the hoarse whispered comments from slouching male escorts,
returning ball teams of youthful enthusiasts who banged each other over
the head and vented their high spirits in rough jibes or horse-play.

Sunday travel was a bore, thought Jeannette in mild vexation. Even
the outbound trains during the morning, which were never more than
comfortably filled, stopped at every station along the line, no matter
how insignificant. It took ten minutes longer to get to Cohasset Beach
on Sundays than on any other day of the week; the express trains that
left the city late in the afternoons from Monday to Saturday landed
Roy home in nineteen minutes. It used to take a weary forty-five,
Jeannette remembered, when the East River had first to be crossed by
ferry and the rest of the way travelled in the old racketing, shabby,
plush-seated, puffing steam trains from Long Island City.

She fell to musing as she idly watched the country flying past. She
recalled the time when she and Martin had paid their first visit to
Cohasset Beach as guests of the Herbert Gibbses and had gone picnicking
on the shore at the Family Yacht Club. The Gibbses owned a handsome
home on the Point to-day, and the little Yacht Club had been merged
into the Cohasset Beach Yacht Club, which, since the fire that had laid
it in ashy ruins, was now housed in a large, imposing edifice of brick
and stone. The town itself,--then hardly more than a summer resort
for “rich New Yorkers,” a few hundred houses scattered carelessly
over some wooded hills,--had grown within the last dozen years into a
flourishing community with banks, brick business blocks, and fireproof
schools, with paved streets, and rows upon rows of white painted houses
with green shutters and fan-shaped transoms above panelled colonial
doorways. The woods were gone; the sycamores and gnarled old apple
trees had given place to spindling elms set at orderly intervals on
either side the carefully graded streets and to formal little gardens
and close-cropped patches of lawn. The dilapidated wooden station
had been supplanted by a substantial concrete affair, surrounded
with cement pavements, and provided with comfortable, steam-heated
waiting-rooms. The whirring electric trains swept on to other thriving
villages further down the Island, and paused, coming or going, but
a minute or two at the older town which had once been the terminal.
There were now blocks and blocks of these trimly-built, neatly-equipped
houses at Cohasset Beach, each with its garden, its curving cement
walks and contiguous garage, and Messrs. Adolph Kuntz and Stephen
Teschemacher had built stone mansions for themselves in the center of
Cohasset Beach Park, to-day the “court” end of town.

Alice and Roy lived in humbler quarters: the old frame house Fritz
Wiggens and his paralytic mother had once occupied. It was yellow and
gabled, rusty and blistered, and spread itself out in ungainly fashion
over a none-too-large bit of ground. It had, by no means, been a poor
investment, although the building had needed a steady stream of repairs
since the Beardsleys acquired it. Roy had been offered three times
what he paid for it on account of its desirable location overlooking
the waters of the Sound. Every now and then he and Alice discussed
selling the place but invariably reached the same conclusion: Rents
were prohibitive and no other house half as satisfactory could be
purchased for the money without assuming a mortgage, an additional
financial burden not to be considered; their problem was to devise ways
of reducing expenses rather than increasing them.


§ 2

Jeannette had decided to walk to her sister’s house, but on the
platform as she descended from the train she unexpectedly encountered
Zeb Kline and his wife, awaiting the arrival of Sunday guests. Zeb had
married Nick Birdsell’s daughter and gone into partnership with his
father-in-law; Birdsell & Kline, General Contractors, had built most of
the new houses in Cohasset Beach, and now Zeb had a fine stucco one of
his own, and his wife drove about in her limousine and kept a chauffeur.

At the time Jeannette and Martin separated, the former had been aware
that the sympathy of the community was with her genial, amusing,
good-looking husband. The townsfolk considered she had treated him
“shamefully”; only Edith French and the Doc were acquainted with the
true facts of the case and had defended her, but the Doc and his wife
had moved away within a year after Jeannette returned to work, and she
had lost touch with them. Word reached her that they had settled in St.
Louis, that the Doc had had his right hand amputated as the result of
an infection from an operation, and that he was running a drug store
there. Later Jeannette heard that Edith had left him and married an
actor.

Suspecting a hostile attitude among these friends and acquaintances of
her married years, Jeannette had kept herself carefully aloof from all
of them when Roy and Alice selected Cohasset Beach for their home. She
would avert her eyes when passing any of them on the street, or would
bow with but a brief, unsmiling inclination of the head when forced to
acknowledge recognition.

Now, as she came face to face with Zeb Kline and his wife, Zeb,
a trifle flustered, lifted his cap and greeted her by name, and
Jeannette, also taken unawares, responded with more cordiality than she
felt. She was somewhat perturbed by the incident and was conscious of
Kitty Birdsell Kline’s appraising eye following her as she made her way
across the station platform.

It was this trifling occurrence that induced her to alter her intention
and ride to Alice’s. Mrs. Kline might be admiring her,--her clothes
and carriage,--or she might be sneering. In either case, the scrutiny
was unwelcome, and, straightening her shoulders, Jeannette directed
her steps toward one of the shabby, waiting Fords, and climbed in. She
had no intention of letting the Klines sweep by her in their limousine
while she trudged along the sidewalk.

Established in her taxi and rattling over the familiar route to her
sister’s home, a pleasant thought of Zeb came to her. After all, he
was the best of that rough and common group; he had always been polite
to her, honest and straightforward; she remembered how kind he had
been about the construction of the screens for the bungalow’s windows,
hurrying their making and charging her practically no more than they
had cost. She wondered if he had been to Philadelphia recently or had
heard anything more of Martin. If she should chance to meet Zeb in the
street some day, she debated whether or not she should ask him for news.

Baby Roy, clad in his Sunday corduroy “knickers” and a white shirt,
which Jeannette knew well had been put upon him clean that morning,
was sprawled on the cement steps of the Beardsleys’ home as her
vehicle stopped before it. The cleanly appearance had departed from
Baby Roy’s shirt, the trousers had become divorced from it, his collar
was rumpled, and the bow tie, which his aunt suspected Etta’s hurried
fingers had tied before church, was bedraggled and askew over one
shoulder. He lay on his back, his head upon the hard stone, his fair
hair in tousled confusion, gazing straight upward into the sky, his
arms waving aimlessly above him. He made no move at the sound of the
motor-car and only stirred when Jeannette reached the steps.

“Hello, Aunt Jan,” he drawled in his curious, indolent voice.

“Well, I declare,” said Jeannette, surveying him with puzzled
amusement, “will you kindly tell me what you’re doing there? What are
you looking at? What do you think you see?”

Baby Roy smiled foolishly, and with open mouth, twisted his jaw slowly
from side to side.

“Aw,--I was just thinking,” he answered in awkward embarrassment. He
got to his feet and put his arms around his aunt’s neck as she stooped
to kiss him.

His cheek was soft and warm, and he smelled of dirt and sunburn.

“You’re a sight,” she told him; “your mother will be wild. Why don’t
you try to keep yourself clean one day a week at least?”

“Ma won’t care,” the youngster observed, “and Et won’t say nothin’.”

“Pronounce your ‘g’s, Baby Roy,--say ‘noth-_ing_.’ Why will Etta say
nothing?”

“’Cause she’s got her feller.”

“Who? That pimply-faced Eckles boy?”

The child nodded and then irrelevantly added:

“Nettie’s got appendicitis.”

“Good gracious!” exclaimed Jeannette. “Where did she get that?”

Further information was not forthcoming. The woman’s mind flew to the
possible complications such a calamity would precipitate as she opened
her bag and felt among its contents for the nickel package of lemon
drops she had purchased at the Pennsylvania Station while waiting
for her train. She shook three of the candies out into Baby Roy’s
dirt-streaked palm, and was admonishing the recipient that they were
to be eaten one by one, when there was a clatter of hard shoes on the
porch and a boy of thirteen catapulted out of the house.

“Dibs on the funny paper!” he yelled.

Jeannette eyed him with assumed disapproval.

“There’s no necessity for such a racket, Frank; it’s Sunday, remember,
and your sister’s sick and everything.”

She proceeded at once, however, to unfold her newspaper and to hand him
the comic section.

“I brought you one out of the _American_, too.” Frank seized the papers
and grunted his thanks.

“How is Nettie?” inquired his aunt.

She had to repeat her question for the boy’s attention was already
absorbed by the colored pictures.

“Oh, she’s all right, I guess,” he answered carelessly.

“Is she really sick?”

“I dunno.”

Reproof was on Jeannette’s lips but she checked herself. Frank was her
favorite among her sister’s children; he was the only one of them, she
was at pains to declare frequently, who had any “gumption.” The rest
were like their easy-going, amiable parents. Frank had some of her own
energy; he was like her in many ways. It was clear he was destined
to be the mainstay of his father’s and mother’s old age. He was sure
to get on, make money, be successful no matter in what direction he
turned his energies. A fine, clever boy, she considered him, with some
“get-up-and-get” in his composition.

She left the two brothers seated side by side on the steps, poring over
the “comics.” Their voices followed her as she entered the house.

“Go on, read it to me;--go on, read it to me. Don’t be a dirty stinker.”

“Aw, shut up, can’t yer? Wait till I get through first.”

Jeannette met Alice in the hallway and her first question was of the
sick child. Alice kissed her with affection and hugged her warmly.

“I don’t think anything’s the matter,” she said reassuringly.
“Nothing in the world but an old-fashioned stomach-ache; something
she’s eaten,--that’s all. I thought it wiser to keep her in bed for
to-day,--give her insides a good rest.”

“Why, Baby Roy said it was appendicitis!”

“Oh, nonsense! The child isn’t any more sick than I am!”

“Well, it gave me quite a turn.”

“Of course!” agreed Alice.

Jeannette eyed her sister a moment in suspicion. Allie’s vehement
rejection of the idea that anything might be seriously the matter
suggested Christian Science. Jeannette had heard Mrs. Eddy’s
teachings discussed more or less frequently of late by her sister and
brother-in-law. She suspected they both leaned toward that faith but
lacked courage to come out openly and declare themselves. She wondered
how far these idiotic principles had laid hold of them, and now, with a
searching glance, she asked:

“Has error crept in?”

Alice blushed readily and laughed.

“I don’t know anything about that. If she’s any worse to-morrow, I’ll
send for the doctor.

“I should hope so,” Jeannette approved warmly.

“Etta’s delighted with her dress,” Alice said with an abruptness that
suggested a desire to change the subject. “You were a dear to help her
out.”

“It was nothing at all,--less than five dollars. It seemed a shame not
to get something that was becoming, and there’s real value in that
garment.”

“Oh, yes, indeed. I could see that.”

Great thumping, banging and scraping were going on somewhere down below.

“Roy and Ralph are cleaning the furnace,” explained Alice in answer to
her sister’s puzzled look. “It hasn’t been fired,--oh, I don’t think
since last March.... Come upstairs and lay your things on Etta’s bed.
I’ve got Nettie in mine; it’s so much pleasanter in our room.”

The two women mounted the creaking stairs. In the front room a little
girl was propped up in bed with several pillows; she was cutting out
pictures from magazines and the bed clothes and carpet were littered
with scraps and slips of paper; a thin, plaid shawl was about her
shoulders, fastened clumsily across her chest with a large safety-pin.
She was not a particularly pretty child; her face was too long and too
pale, but her hair, soft and rippling, had the warm brown color that
had distinguished her mother’s, and her eyes were of the same hue.

“Look, Moth’, I put a new hat on this lady and she looks a lot nicer.”
The child held up a wavering silhouette for inspection. “Oh, hello,
Aunt Janny,” she cried as her aunt appeared in her mother’s wake; “was
that you in the taxi?”

There was a note of real pleasure, Jeannette felt, in the little girl’s
greeting, and she put some feeling into her kiss as she bent down to
embrace her.

“I brought you some lemon drops, Nettie, but since you’re upset perhaps
you’d better not have them.”

“Oh, I’m quite all right,” said the little girl brightly. “I’m not the
least bit sick.”

Here was the cloven hoof of Christian Science again, thought her aunt
darkly; the child had been coached, no doubt! It was a great pity if
that rigmarole was going to be taken up by Alice and Roy to make them
all miserable!

“Well, I think I wouldn’t eat candy till to-morrow,” advised Jeannette.
“What I think you need is a good dose of castor-oil,” she added firmly
with a glance at her sister. “But here,--I have something here, I
know you’ll like much better,” she went on, searching in her bag. She
brought to light a gold-colored, metal pencil about three inches long
with a tiny ring at one end, and gave it to the child.

“Oh, thank you, Aunt Janny,--thank you awfully,” cried the invalid,
immediately beginning to experiment with the cap which, in turning,
shortened or lengthened the lead.

“Where’s Etta?”

“Gone to church,” Alice replied.

“Heavens! ... What for?” Jeannette turned inquiring eyes upon the
girl’s mother. It was not that she lacked sympathy with any religious
observance on her niece’s part, but church-going for Etta was unusual.
The younger children were sent dutifully to Sunday school but the rest
of the family were rather casual about attending divine services. Alice
smiled significantly in answer to the query, elevated a shoulder, and
indulged in a slight head-shake.

“I suppose that means a boy again,” Jeannette said, interpreting the
look and gesture. “Doesn’t she see enough of them afternoons and
evenings? I declare, Alice, I don’t know what you’re going to do with
that girl. Yesterday afternoon, all she could talk about was the
movies, and she even stopped me in front of a photographer’s show-case
to ask me if I didn’t think a man in it was perfectly stunning! ... He
was old enough to be her father!”

“Well, all the girls are like that nowadays.”

“It was decidedly different when we were that age.”

“Oh, indeed it was,” agreed Etta’s mother. “I was thinking only
yesterday how we used----”

“You made a great mistake,” interrupted Jeannette, “in letting her bob
her hair. It’s affected her whole character. She was never quite so
frivolous before.”

“That was her father’s doing,” said Alice mildly.

“Oh, well,--he’d let her do anything she wanted! She has but to ask!
... What do you intend to do with her? Let her run round this way
indefinitely? I’d make her take up sewing or cooking or learn some
language.”

“Etta can sew quite nicely,” said her mother loyally, “and she’s a good
cook. She wants to go to work,--you know that. She thinks you’d have no
difficulty in getting her a position at the office.”

“Well, perhaps I would, and perhaps I wouldn’t. But I don’t approve of
the idea! She’d much better go to Columbia or Hunter College.”

“But, Janny dear, we’ve been all over that, time and time again. That
costs money. It would take several hundred a year to send Etta to
college, and we haven’t got it. Roy thinks it’s much more important
that Ralph should follow up his engineering at some university.”

Jeannette tapped her pursed lips with a meditative finger.

“When’s he ready?”

“This is his last year in High School.”

“It would be wiser to send him to business college.”

“Roy’s heart is set on Princeton, but if we can’t afford that,--and I
don’t see how we possibly can!--then Columbia. He could commute, you
know.”

Voices and the sound of feet on the porch announced arrivals.
Jeannette drew aside a limp window curtain and gazed down at the front
steps.

“It’s that pimply Eckles youth,” she announced.

“His dog has nine puppies and he’s promised one to me,” came from the
bed.

“I hope Etta doesn’t ask him to stay to dinner,” Alice remarked, “it’ll
make Kate furious.”

“No, he’s going.... I must take off my things.”

Etta running upstairs a moment or two later found her aunt before the
mirror in her room, powdering her nose.

“Oh, darling!” The girl rushed at her and flung her arms about her
enthusiastically.

“Careful,--careful, dearie,--I’ve just fixed myself.” Jeannette held
Etta’s arms to the girl’s sides and implanted a brief kiss on her
forehead. The enthusiasm of her niece was in nowise crushed.

“Didn’t we have fun yesterday, Aunt Jan? Oh, I just love going shopping
with you! You know _everything_!”

Jeannette smiled complacently. She was a dear child, this! So
responsive and appreciative!

Suddenly she glanced at her sharply, whipped a handkerchief from the
bureau, and before unsuspecting Etta could guess what she was about,
gave the girl’s lip a quick rub. There was a tell-tale smudge of red
on the white linen. Jeannette held forth the evidence accusingly and
her niece began to laugh, hanging her head like a little girl half her
years.

“I tell you, Etta, it doesn’t become you! Your lips are red enough
without putting any of that Jap paste on them! When you rouge them,
it makes you look cheap and common.... I don’t care _what_ the other
girls do!”

She surveyed the girl critically: a handsome child with a lovely mop
of dark brown hair that clung in rich clusters of natural curls about
her neck and ears; her eyes were unusually large and of a deep, velvety
duskiness, though there was a perpetual merry light in them, and her
mouth, too, had a ready smile; her teeth were glistening white, but her
complexion was bad, given to eruptions and blotches.

“And I wish,” continued Jeannette, “you’d stop eating candy and
ice-cream sodas, and leave cake and pastry alone. Your skin would clear
out in no time. It’s a shame a girl as pretty as you has to spoil her
looks by injudicious eating.”

“Isn’t it the limit?” agreed Etta. Her face clouded and she went close
to the mirror to study her reflection narrowly.

“I never knew it to fail!” she said in disgust. “Wednesday night,
Marjorie Bowen’s giving a bridge party, and she’s invited a boy I’m
just dying to meet! And there’s a blossom coming right here on my chin!
I always break out if there’s anything special doing!”

“Well, I tell you!” exclaimed her aunt. “You wouldn’t have those things
if you’d diet with a little care. Massaging won’t help a bit; you’ve
got to remember to stop eating sweets.... Who’s the new beau you’re
‘dying to meet’?”

“Oh, he’s a high-roller,--lives down on the Point,--drives a Stutz and
everything! The girls are all mad about him. He’s been at Manlius for
the last two or three years, and now he’s freshman at Yale.... Name’s
Herbert Gibbs!”

“Goodness gracious!” ejaculated her aunt.

“What’s the matter?”

“Well, ... nothing....”

“Oh, tell me please, Aunt Jan!--Please tell me!”

“Don’t be foolish! I knew his father, that’s all, and I once saw your
‘high-roller’ in his crib when he was less than a year old.... Isn’t he
rather expressionless and flat-headed?”

“No; I think he’s perfectly stunning. He wears the best-looking clothes
and he’s an awful sport!”

“Well, you’d never expect it, if you’d known his father,” her aunt said
dryly.

There was an ascending tramp of feet on the stairs, and Roy with his
eldest son appeared, dishevelled and sooty.

“That was a dirty job, all right,” declared Roy after he had greeted
his sister-in-law and kissed her with the tips of his lips for fear
of contaminating her. “I don’t think she’s been cleaned for years. We
shovelled out a ton of soot. Ralph did all the hard work.”

He seemed a little ridiculous, a little pathetic to Jeannette, as he
stood before her with his smirched and blackened face, and his tight,
wan smile, the upper lip drawn taut across his row of even teeth.
His stuck-up hair was still unruly, and had begun to recede at the
temples and to thin on top; his face was lined with tiny wrinkles
and he wore spectacles with bifocal lenses and metal rims,--an
insignificant man, industrious, conscientious, weighed down with the
cares and responsibilities of a large family. Life had dealt harshly
with him, and somehow, remembering the boy with the whimsical smile
who had once made such earnest love to herself in the flush of youth,
Jeannette could not but regard the result as tragic. She was fond of
Roy, nevertheless; he was always amiable, always good-tempered and
cheerful, but she wondered at this moment as she took stock of him what
sort of a man he would have become if she, and not Alice, had married
him. Different, no doubt, for she would have pushed him into material
success; she would not have been as easy-going with him as Alice; he
had wanted to write; well, if she had been his wife, he would probably
have turned out to be a very successful author for he had ability.

Roy’s oldest son, Ralph, was in many ways like his father. He had the
same sweet, obliging nature and was even gentler. His voice had the
quality of Baby Roy’s: indolent, drawling, dragging, and he spoke with
a leisureliness that was often irritating. He was slight of build,
narrow-chested and stoop-shouldered, a student by disposition, forever
burrowing into a book or frowning over a magazine article. Jeannette
would have considered this highly commendable had Ralph ever shown any
evidence of having gleaned something from his reading, or displayed any
knowledge as a result of it. What he read seemed to pass through his
mind like water through a sieve.

She had brought down an advanced copy of the forthcoming issue of
_Corey’s Commentary_ for him, and he accepted this now, with an
appreciative word.

She always made a point of bringing presents to her sister’s children
whenever she visited them; she liked the reputation of never coming
empty-handed. The gifts, themselves, might be trifling,--indeed she
thought it becoming that they should be,--but she strove to make them
sufficiently appropriate to indicate considerable thoughtfulness in
their selection. She regarded herself as very generous where her nieces
and nephews were concerned. Yesterday she had enabled Etta to buy a
more expensive dress than was possible with the money her mother had
given her, and last week she had sent Frank a fine sweater from a sale
of boys’ sweaters she happened upon in a department store. Of all her
sister’s children, Frank baffled her. He treated her casually, almost
with indifference. While the other children swarmed about her with
effusive gratitude and affection, whenever she gave them anything,
Frank either grunted his thanks or failed to express them at all. She
loved him by far the best, and was continually making him presents or
defending him from criticism. Her partiality was so noticeable she
was mildly teased about it by the rest of the family; but it drew no
recognition from the boy. His aunt, eyeing him with great yearning in
her heart, would often wonder how she could bribe him to put his stout,
rough arms about her neck and kiss her once with warmth and tenderness.
She was never able to stir him to the faintest betrayal of sentiment.

Her benevolence toward her sister’s family frequently went further than
presents for the children. At Christmas-time she was munificent to them
all, and she never forgot one of their birthdays. Once a year she took
Nettie, Frank and Baby Roy to the Hippodrome, and on the occasional
Saturdays that Alice or Etta came to the city, she always had them
to lunch with her, accompanied them on their shopping trips, and
contributed, here and there, to their small purchases. Not infrequently
when she knew Alice was worrying unduly about some vexatious account,
she would press a neatly folded bill into her hand. She liked the
power that money gave her where they were concerned; she delighted in
their gratitude and deference to her opinions; she was an important
factor in their lives and she enjoyed the part.


§ 3

At one o’clock dinner was announced. There was little ceremony about
the Beardsleys’ meals; the important business was to be fed. Kate,
the cook and waitress,--a big-bosomed, wide-hipped Irish woman, with
the strength of a horse and the disposition of a bear,--had scant
regard for the preferences of any one member of the family she served.
Her attention was concentrated upon her work; indeed, it required a
considerable amount of clear-thinking and planning to dispatch it at
all, and she brooked no interference. Roy, Alice, and the children were
frankly afraid of her; even Jeannette admitted a wholesome respect.

“Oh, Kate’s in an awful tantrum!” the whisper would go around the house
and the family would deport itself with due regard to Kate’s mood.

She piled the food on the table, rattled the bell and departed
kitchenward, leaving the Beardsleys to assemble as promptly or as
tardily as they chose. There never were but two courses to a meal: meat
and dessert. Kate had no time to bother with soup or salad. Her cooking
was good, however, and there were always great dishes of potatoes and
other vegetables as well as a large plate of muffins or some other kind
of hot bread. Jeannette firmly asserted that Kate’s meat pie with its
brown crisp crust could not be surpassed in any kitchen.

To-day there were but seven at table as Nettie remained upstairs in
bed. She would have crackers and milk later, her mother announced.

“Milk toast,” Jeannette suggested. But Alice shook her head and made a
motion in the direction of the kitchen.

“She doesn’t like anyone fussing out there,” she whispered, “and I
don’t like to ask her to do it herself; it’s extra work no matter how
trivial. The Graham crackers will do just as well; Nettie’s quite fond
of them.”

It was a cheerful scene, this gathering at the table of Roy, his wife,
and their children. Tongues wagged constantly; there was happy laughter
and loud talk, much clatter of china and clinking of silverware. Roy
stood up to carve and he served generously; plates were passed from
hand to hand around the table to Alice who sat opposite him and she
added heaping spoonfuls of creamed cauliflower or string beans, and
mashed potatoes. The pile of food set down in front of each seemed, by
its quantity, unappetizing to Jeannette, but the others evidently did
not share her feeling, for they cleaned their plates, while Frank and
Baby Roy almost always asked for more. The remarks that flew about the
board had small relevancy, but she found them interesting, liked to
lean back in her chair, with wrists folded one across the other in her
lap, and listen comfortably.

“Mr. Kuntz tells me he’s sold the Carleton place; the Hirshstines
bought it,” Roy might observe.

“Oh, golly,--those kikes!”

“Frank, you mustn’t speak that way; Mrs. Hirshstine’s a nice woman, and
Abe Hirshstine’s very public-spirited.”

“They may be Jews all right, but I wouldn’t consider them ‘kikes’;
there’s a lot of difference.” Ralph’s drawl often had that irritating
quality his aunt disliked.

“Well, _she’s_ certainly a dumb-bell, if there ever was one.” Jeannette
would infer this was of the daughter.

“That’s because Buddy Eckles’s after her!”

Etta with curling lip would dismiss this without comment.

“He likes to drive her Marmon,--that’s what _he’s_ after.”

“She spoke about taking us all over to Long Beach, Saturday, and
Buddy’s going to drive.”

“Hot dog!”

“You can’t go, smarty!”

“_Why?_--Why can’t I go?”

“’Cause you’ve got to go to the dentist’s.”

“Aw,--cusses!”

“Do you think I’d better have the storm windows put up to-morrow, Roy,
when that man comes to fix the radiators?”

“I wouldn’t hurry about it; it isn’t November first yet.”

“I know, but it keeps the house so much warmer, and I was thinking
about Nettie....”

“Ralph and I can do it when you need them.”

“We get Barthelmess at the Plaza Friday and Saturday!”

“Oh, c’n I go, Moth’?”

“We’ll see; perhaps your father will take you.”

“Do you let the children go to the movies much, Alice?”

“Depends on the picture. Barthelmess is always clean and good.”

“Friday I’ll be late coming home, and Saturday night I’m afraid I’ll
have to go to the Civic Improvement meeting.”

“Bet I’m gypped!”

“Don’t worry, Baby Roy; I’ll let you go by yourself, Saturday
afternoon, if you’re a good boy.”

“Pulitzer’s closing out his meat market; going to handle nothing but
groceries from now on.”

“Well, I guess he’s made money. He’s a good citizen, all right. He
subscribed two hundred and fifty for the district nurse.”

“Did you get on to my classy hair part, Aunt Jan? All the women-getters
at school do their hair this way now.”

“Really, Frank! Your language ...! I don’t know where or how you pick
up such phrases.”

“Don’t be too critical, Alice. He attaches no significance to them. You
know what boys are.”

There was an endless stream of such talk, Roy and his wife frequently
maintaining one conversation between ends of the table, while their
children carried on another across it.

Kate crammed the soiled dishes on the oval, black, tin tray, piled them
high, and grasping the tray with strong arms, bore it to the kitchen,
kicking the swing door violently open as she passed through.

Dessert made its appearance, usually a deep apple pie, a chocolate
pudding or a mound of flavored jelly in which slices of banana careened
at various angles. Kate refused flatly to bother with ice-cream. Once
in a while she condescended to make a layer cake.

During the meal it was customary for the telephone to ring several
times. Instantly at each summons, Etta would be upon her feet and make
a quick dash for the instrument. Long conversations would ensue in
which Etta’s voice would drift down to the dining-room.

“Well, I didn’t.... Well, you tell him I didn’t.... Well, you tell
him I didn’t say anything of the kind.... I never did.... He’s just
crazy.... I never said anything of the kind.... Well, you tell him I
didn’t....”

“Etta!” her father would call presently. The voice would continue
unfalteringly, and Roy at intervals would repeat her name until finally
the long-winded parley would be brought to an end.

By two o’clock on this particular day the meal was over, and there was
a general breaking-up of the group. Alice went out into the kitchen to
prepare Nettie’s tray. Frank vanished in pursuit of his own affairs,
which usually took him to the house of “Chinee” Langlon, whose parents
were wealthy and had lavished everything they could think of on their
one son, including an elaborate wireless outfit. Buddy Eckles arrived
a few minutes past the hour, planting himself on the front steps, and
waited ostensibly for Etta to go walking with him. Jeannette had her
own ideas as to where they actually went. She suspected they made
their way without delay to the home of some girl friend, whose parents
were absent or had lax ideas about the Sabbath, and there, having
carefully pulled down the window-shades, out of deference to the
possible prejudices of passers-by, they rolled back the rugs, turned
on the Victrola, and with other couples as frivolous as themselves,
danced until within a minute or two of the time when it was necessary
to return to their respective families. Ralph disappeared up into his
den,--a wretched, ill-lighted, cramped chamber he had built himself in
the attic. He kept the door of this apartment carefully locked at all
times, and when within by the light of a kerosene lamp, read what his
aunt earnestly hoped was entirely edifying literature, and where, she
was thoroughly persuaded, he indulged secretly in cigarettes. Baby Roy
wandered amiably and uncomplainingly about, listening to his elders’
conversation, or took himself off into the scraggy garden where he hid
in strange nooks and told himself stories in a droning voice which
always ended in frightening him. Jeannette regarded him the strangest
of her sister’s children; she frankly declared she did not understand
him and thought Alice outrageously lenient where he was concerned.


§ 4

To-day’s visit was an unusually happy one for Jeannette. Nettie drifted
off to sleep while her mother and aunt established themselves in shabby
grass-rockers on the side-porch and had a long, comfortable talk. The
day had turned unexpectedly warm and there was a reviving touch of dead
summer in the air. In a neighbor’s garden, chrysanthemums and cosmos
were still in bloom, and the brilliant colors made the Beardsleys’
own unkempt little yard appear gay and luxuriant. A mechanical piano
tinkled pleasantly somewhere, and every now and then there came the
vibrant hum of a passing motor-car. Kate marched past her mistress and
her mistress’s sister presently, clad in sober town clothes and wearing
one of Jeannette’s discarded hats which the giver thought, at the
moment, became her nicely. Kate was off for the rest of the day, and
Alice with Etta’s help would manage the cold supper for the family at
half-past six. A stillness on this midafternoon settled about the house
usually teeming exuberantly with life. Through an open window near at
hand, the women on the porch could hear an occasional rustle of papers
as Roy, prone upon the leather-covered couch in the living-room, read
the Sunday news.

Alice drew a deep sigh of weary comfort.

“I ought to get at my sewing, I suppose, but I don’t like bringing it
out on the porch Sunday; people can see you from the street.... It’s so
pleasant out here, I hate to go in.”

“Sit awhile,” encouraged Jeannette. “You’re always worrying yourself
about something, Alice.”

“I have to. Frank’s stockings have _got_ to be darned or he can’t go to
school to-morrow; Baby Roy’s cap is torn and I noticed his school suit
needs cleaning.”

“You ought to make Etta do these things.”

“Etta does enough,” her mother defended her; “she’s only young once,
you know, and Sunday ought to be as much of a holiday for her as it
is for other young folks.... And there’re some letters I must write,
one to Nettie’s teacher for Frank to take to school with him in the
morning.... Mercy! there’s never any let-up to it. I’ve got to go over
this month’s bills with Roy some time to-day and decide what we’re
going to do about them. You know, I just _won’t_ bother him about money
matters when he comes home all tired out at night, and I have to wait
until Sunday.”

“How are you off this month? Any worse than usual?”

“Roy’s premium falls due. I’ve got the money all right, but some of the
monthly bills will have to wait.... You know, Jan, I’m sick to death
of this ever-constant worry about money; I’ve had it all my life, ever
since I was a little girl. I wish to goodness I could earn something on
the side. When the children were little, I couldn’t spare the time, but
that isn’t a consideration now. Etta could perfectly well take care of
the house, and I could devote several hours a day to some kind of work
that would bring in money. I thought I’d knit a few sweaters and see if
I could induce some shop in the city to handle them; it would only cost
me the wool. If I’d learned typing, I think I could get some copying
to do. You know it makes me ashamed to realize how little I could earn
if I was obliged to get out and seek my living. I’d be worth about ten
dollars a week. That would be what they’d call my ‘economic value.’ ...”

“‘Economic value!’” cried Jeannette. “What do you mean? The mother of
five children has an economic value of ten dollars a week! Why, Alice,
you talk like a crazy woman!”

“I may be worth a great deal more than that to the nation, but that’s
all I’d be worth to a business man.”

“The Government ought to give you an annual income the rest of your
life for every child you bring into the world; that would represent
your economic value!”

“Well, there’s no likelihood of their doing it,” laughed Alice. “I wish
I had a definite way of earning money,--I mean a profession like a
stenographer or a nurse. I’ve always claimed, Janny, that every woman,
married or single, ought to learn a trade or profession. You have no
idea how I envy you, sometimes. You’re independent, you’re beholden to
no one, you’re utterly free of all these cares and responsibilities
that harass me from morning to night.”

Jeannette shook her head emphatically.

“You don’t know, Alice,” she said. “If you envy me my life, I envy you
a hundred times more. I envy you these very cares and responsibilities
of which you complain; I envy you your husband and your children and
all those things that go to make a home.... Oh, I think sometimes, I
was a blithering _fool_ to have left Martin!”

His name had not crossed her lips for months, and for a little time
there was silence on the porch.

“Do you ever hear from him?” asked Alice in a lower key.

“No. I understand he’s in Philadelphia in the automobile business. You
know as much about him as I do.”

“And he’s never married?”

“We’ve never been divorced.”

Again there was an interval of silence.

“Would you go back to him, Jan?”

Jeannette stared out into the warm sunshine, and her rocker ceased its
slow movement.

“I’ve thought about it,” she admitted. “I’d like a home. I’m so tired
of the office. There’s nothing to work for in the business any more.
I’ve got as far as they’ll let me go; there’s no future for me.”

“Why don’t you write him?” Alice suggested, watching her sister’s
serious face. “He may be as lonely as you are.”

“It’s fourteen years,” mused Jeannette. “We’ve both changed. He may be
very different.”

“He may still be thinking of you and blaming himself for having treated
you so unkindly.... Why don’t you write him and just say you’d be glad
to know how he’s getting on?”

“I don’t know his address.”

“Well, that could be found out easily enough.”

There was a sound within, and Roy came stumbling out on the porch to
stretch himself, luxuriously.

“Whew!” he said, enjoying a great yawn. “I nearly went to sleep in
there.”

“Why didn’t you? A nap would have done you good.”

“I don’t like to miss a single minute of my one day at home. It’s too
pleasant out here.”

Alice began to fidget, clearing her throat nervously.

“Do you feel like going over some bills with me, Roy?” she ventured
with obvious reluctance.

“Sure,” he agreed good-naturedly.

He sat down on the steps, while his wife went indoors and presently
returned with a sheaf of bills, a pad and pencil. She established
herself next to him.

“Now you see, Roy,” she began, “in the first place, there’s the two
hundred and forty that’s due on the fifth. I’ve got one hundred and
fifty saved up, and that means I must take ninety out of next week’s
salary. It’s going to leave me precious little, and there’s your
commutation for next month that’s got to come out right away. I figure
we owe about,--well, it’s not over six hundred; I’m not counting
Frank’s teeth nor Gimbel’s; they can wait. But here’s the first of the
month coming and Pulitzer, you know, won’t let you charge unless you
pay up by the tenth. Now I was thinking....”

The voices went on murmuring, and Jeannette mused. Here it was again:
the eternal war against want, the fight for existence, the battle for
bread. There was never any end to it; it was perpetual, incessant,
unending. In all the houses within the range of her vision, in all
the trim, orderly, little dwellings that made up Cohasset Beach, in
all the thousands and thousands of homes that dotted Long Island, in
the millions that were scattered over the United States, and over the
world, this struggle was going on. It was easy in some; it was bitter
hard in others. Alice, who was among the most readily satisfied and
uncomplaining of women, had protested against the everlasting drudgery,
a moment ago! ... Well, she, Jeannette, had solved that particular
problem for herself pretty much to her satisfaction. It was many years
since she had had to worry about a bill; her income more than covered
her expenses; she had saved and was going on saving; she had nearly
enough money in the bank to buy another bond. In a few years she would
have ten thousand dollars securely invested. Then, she would resign
from the Corey Publishing Company,--they would pay her something, part
salary, as long as she lived, the way they did Miss Holland,--and
perhaps she would travel, or perhaps make her home with Roy and Alice.
They would not want her particularly, but theirs might be the only
place to which she could go; she knew their loyalty and affection would
make them urge her to come to them.... And there was Frank! She would
like to do something for that boy: pay his way through college or make
him some kind of a handsome present that would render him eternally
grateful to her. But she supposed he would be getting married as soon
as he was grown up and would have no eyes nor time for anybody except
the fluffy-haired doll he would select for a wife! ... Love was a
funny thing! ... Her mind drifted to Martin,--Martin, with his youth,
his charm, his good looks, his winning personality. Ah, he was a man
of whom any woman might be proud! Well, she _had_ been proud of him;
she had always admired him; he had always had a particular appeal for
her.... It was the selfsame thing that was agitating Roy and Alice
to-day, that had caused her disagreement with Martin,--this struggle
for money, for the means to pay bills, for the wherewithal to buy
bread! ... Ah,--and they had had enough, more than enough, if Martin
only had been reasonable! ... Undoubtedly he was very successful now;
an agency for a motor-car in Philadelphia indicated success; he was, in
all likelihood, a rich man. She wondered what would have happened to
him and to her if she had stuck to him! ...

Her mind wandered into strange speculations. She had once viewed the
streets of Philadelphia from a car window on her way to Washington. She
thought of the city as blocks and blocks of small brick houses, with
pointed roofs, standing close together, row after row, each with a
little square bit of lawn beside brown stone front steps. She imagined
herself and Martin in one of these; she was keeping house again, and
she had a cook and perhaps a maid, and of course she would have an
automobile, since Martin had the agency for one. Her life was full of
friendships; she was able to dress beautifully; Martin’s associates
admired her, thought her handsome, regal; she took a keen interest in
her children’s schooling,--for, of course, there would be children,--a
twelve-year-old Frank, and perhaps a younger Frank, as well, and one
daughter, a girl different from either Etta or Nettie, a tall girl with
a fine carriage, gracious, dignified, beautiful. How she would enjoy
dressing her, and how proud Martin would be of his children, and of
herself,--her poise and beauty, her fine clothes and the way she wore
them, her graciousness to his friends and her capable management of his
home....

“No man ever had a better wife than I have; no man was ever prouder of
his wife and children; no man was ever more grateful. You’re a wonder,
dear,--have always been a wonder! Other men envy me,--envy me your
beauty and your goodness and your devotion. Everything I’ve amounted
to in this life I owe to you; you’ve made me what I am; you’ve made
our home what it is! My friends look at you and think how lucky I’ve
been. I look back on all the hard years we’ve been together, on all the
tough times we’ve had and somehow pulled through, and I know it’s to
you, and not to me, the credit belongs. Oh, yes, it does! You’ve made
my home for me, you’ve given me my children, you’ve taken the burden
of everything on your shoulders, you’ve carried us both along and
made our venture as man and wife, as father and mother, successful. I
owe everything in the world to you, and to me you’re the loveliest and
dearest woman in the world....”

It was Roy’s voice that she heard in the hush of the warm Sunday
afternoon, and it blended with the queer thoughts of the woman who sat
so still in her rocker as to be thought asleep.

“No--no, Roy,” Alice interrupted him. “We’ve done it together. Money
doesn’t count with me,--really it doesn’t. Sometimes I protest a bit
when I think of what the children have to do without, but there is
nothing that can take the place of the love we all share. We’re a
little group, a little clan that’s always clung together, and I’d
rather be cold and hungry and see the children shabby and needy than
have one less of them, or have discord amongst us. You and I have had
our trials and our disagreements, but we’ve always loved each other and
loved the children....”

Alice was crying now, softly crying with her head against her husband’s
shoulder and his arm about her, and the hot prick of tears came to
Jeannette’s eyes and a burning trickle ran down the side of her nose.
She dropped her forehead into her hand and shielded her face with her
palm.

“We’ll weather this difficulty as we’ve weathered many another,”
Roy said consolingly. “I’ll go into the insurance company’s office
to-morrow and fix it up with them; we’ll pay them half on the fifth,
and I’m sure they’ll give me thirty days on the balance. Then you can
settle what’s most pressing and give the others a little on account....
Why say,--we’ve faced worse times than this! Do you remember that
Christmas when Ralph was only three and we’d been out trying to find
the kids some cheap presents and I lost that ten-dollar bill out of my
pocket? And do you remember when I was so rotten sick with pneumonia
and the doctor thought I was going to get T.B.? And do you remember
the time when Baby Roy was coming and you fell downstairs and broke
your collar-bone? ... I tell you, Alice, we’ve _lived_, you and I! We
haven’t had very much to do it on, but we’ve _lived_!”

“You’re such a comfort, Roy. You’re always so sweet about everything
and you always put heart into me. You’re wonderful!”

“It’s _you_ that are the wonder, Alice,--the most wonderful wife a man
ever had!”

Their heads turned toward one another in mutual inclination and their
lips met lovingly. They sat on for awhile in silence, Alice’s head once
more against her husband’s shoulder, their hands linked, the man’s arm
about his wife.

There came a faint sound from somewhere in the house.

“That’s Nettie,” Alice said, immediately arousing herself and getting
to her feet. “I’ll go up. The child’s slept quite a while; it’s almost
four o’clock.”

She crossed the porch with careful tread not to disturb her sister, and
in another minute her voice and her daughter’s, alternately, floated
down from an upstairs window. Roy produced a pipe from his coat pocket,
and proceeded to empty, fill and light it with attentive deliberation.
When he had it briskly going, he rose and leisurely crossed the strip
of lawn to his neighbor’s yard, vaulted the low wire fence, and was
lost in a moment beyond the cosmos and chrysanthemums.

Jeannette remained as she was, head in hand, thinking, thinking. The
tears had dried upon her face, her eyes were staring, and there was an
empty hunger in her heart that she recognized at last had been there
for a long, long time.



CHAPTER III


§ 1

“Etta! Is that you?”

“Yes,--it’s me, Aunt Jan.”

“Say ‘it’s I,’ dear. What brings you to the city, Sunday?”

“I stayed in town last night. There was a dance at Marjorie Bowen’s
cousin’s house and Moth’ said I could go. We had a perfectly divine
time! Her aunt chaperoned us and I slept with Marj. I thought maybe
you’d be going down to Cohasset Beach this morning, and we’d go
together. So I got up, left the girls in bed, had my breakfast, and
took a ’bus to come down to see you. I want to talk to you about
something.”

“But, dear,--I wasn’t going to the country to-day. I promised an old
friend of mine who lives at the Navy Yard in Brooklyn, I’d go to see
her this afternoon.”

Etta’s face fell and she frowned disconsolately at the carpet. Her aunt
suspected something was troubling her.

“Couldn’t you tell me what’s on your mind, now?”

“Oh, it wasn’t anything particular; I wanted to ask your advice, and I
thought we’d have a talk as we went down in the train.”

A bright light suddenly came into the girl’s face.

“Is it Miss Holland you’re going to see, Aunt Janny? Won’t you let me
go with you? Remember I met her that day she was here to lunch? She’s
perfectly _sweet_! I’d just love to visit the Navy Yard!”

“Well, I don’t think you’ll find many ensigns or lieutenants hanging
about on Sunday.”

“Oh, but it would be lots of fun, just the same! I’ll ‘phone Moth’
I’m with you and take a late train this aft! Please say yes, Aunt
Janny,--please say yes!”

The girl was jumping up and down in eagerness.

“Well-l,” her aunt said with an amused but doubtful smile, “I don’t see
what you’d get out of it, particularly.”

“I’d just love the trip, and I’d like being with you, Aunt
Janny,--really I would!”

Jeannette narrowed her lids and eyed her skeptically. She was pleased,
nevertheless. Her niece’s excessive ebullition and high spirits never
failed to divert her; she liked the child’s company; the girl had a
great respect for her worldly judgment, much more than she had for her
mother’s or father’s, and the older woman found it an engaging business
to expound her theories of life and her views of affairs to the younger
one.

“I’m not going until after lunch,” she said, still with a vague
hesitancy in her manner.

“I don’t mind waiting a bit.”

“Can you amuse yourself until noon? I have some office work to do that
will take me about an hour. Miss Alexander’s gone to church but she’ll
be back directly.”

“Could I make some egg muffins? We could have ’em for lunch, an’
they’re awfully nice and I’m really good at them.”

Jeannette noted the child’s palpitant eagerness again with mild
amusement.

“I think that would be lovely,” she consented, her fine eyes twinkling.
“But don’t get things out there in a mess; Miss Alexander won’t like it
if she comes home and finds everything upset.”

“I’ll be ever and ever so careful,” agreed Etta, already skipping
toward the kitchen.

Jeannette took herself back to the cold front room, seldom used by
either herself or Beatrice, and brought her thoughts once more to the
construction of the half-finished circular letter which must be ready
for the composing room early Monday morning.

She heard Beatrice come in presently, and an hour later, as she was
completing the last revision of her work, Etta appeared breathlessly to
announce lunch.

The egg muffins were excellent and received enthusiastic praise.
Jeannette ate them with the heated canned tamales, and sipped her tea,
one eye on the clock, for she was anxious to make an early start if
Etta was to catch, at any seemly hour, a train back to Cohasset Beach.

It was after two before she and her niece found themselves seated in
the thundering subway.

“Well, now, tell me your troubles, my dear,” Jeannette began; “I want
to hear all about them.”

But Etta had to be coaxed before she would become communicative.

“Oh, it’s _this_!” she finally burst out, striking her skirt with
disdainful fingers. “It’s my clothes, Aunt Jan! I was horribly ashamed
last night. There wasn’t a girl there at Marjorie’s cousin’s party
who wasn’t a lot better dressed than I! I felt _awful_ and was so
embarrassed! One of the girls’ older sister was there and I saw her
taking an inventory of everything I had on! I just wanted to sink
through the floor! Moth’ does everything she possibly can to see
that I look decent, and I know better than anyone else what she does
without so that I can have things! But I don’t want that! I don’t want
Moth’ and Dad denying themselves on my account. I want to be able to
take care of myself and buy my own clothes, earn my own living and be
independent! ... Aunt Jan, won’t you get me a job at your office? Won’t
you back me up with Moth’ and Dad, and urge them to let me go to work?
I don’t want to stay at home and just help Moth’ here and there with
the housework and do nothing else but go to the movies and dance jazz!
They call me a ‘flapper,’ and I suppose I am one,--but what else is
there for me to be? I hate it, Aunt Jan,--I _hate being a flapper_! I
want to be something different and better; I want to make my own way
in the world and not be obliged to stick round home until a man with
enough money comes along and asks me to marry!”

It was the old familiar cry, the cry of youth calling for
self-expression, the cry of budding life eager for experience, the cry
of young womanhood demanding independence, emancipation.

The words rang familiarly in the older woman’s ears, and she smiled
sadly with a sorry head-shake.

“Why, what’s the matter, Aunt Jan?” asked the girl after a troubled
scrutiny of her companion’s face. “Don’t you think I have a right to
earn my own living if I want to?” She renewed her arguments with
characteristic vehemence. There was nothing new in them for Jeannette;
she had voiced them all herself twenty-five years ago. A memory of her
patient, hard-working little mother came to her, and she saw her once
again with the comforter over her knees, the knitted red shawl pinned
across her shoulders, thin of hair, with trembling pendent cheeks,
bending over the canvas-covered ledger, figuring--figuring--figuring.
And she saw herself, the impatient eighteen-year-old, striking
her faded velvet dress with angry fingers, protesting against the
humiliation her shabby attire occasioned her, asking to be allowed to
work, to earn the money that would permit her to dress as other girls
dressed, and be her own mistress, self-supporting. How well, she,
Jeannette, could now sympathize with that earnest, tearful, little
mother!

She looked at Etta and, in her mind, saw her anxiously taking dictation
from some frowning business man, saw her white flying fingers busy at
some switch-board disentangling telephone cords, pictured her perched
on a tall stool, bending over a great tome, making careful entries, saw
her folding circulars, writing cards, filing letters, giving her youth,
her eagerness and beauty to the grim treadmill of business life, and
her heart filled with pain.

“... and there’s no reason on earth,” Etta was saying, “why I shouldn’t
help out at home. Dad and Moth’ have given all their lives to us
children; they’ve denied themselves and denied themselves just so we
can have clothes for our backs, enough to eat and go to school! It
isn’t fair. It’s time I helped. I could go to business college, take a
course, and in three months, I could learn to be a stenographer and
earn fifteen or twenty dollars a week....”

“Hush, child,--hush! You don’t know what you’re talking about!”
Jeannette broke in, suddenly stirred to speech. “I threw away my life,
talking just that kind of nonsense. To learn to earn her own living is
a dangerous thing for a young girl.”

“Why, how do you mean, Aunt Jan?”

“Its effect is poison; it’s like a drug, a disease! I’ve paid bitterly
for my financial independence. I sacrificed everything that was
precious to me because I wanted to be self-supporting. Etta dear, life
is a hard game for women at best, but waiting within the shelter of her
own home for the man she’ll some day come to love and who will love her
is the best and wisest course for a girl to follow.”

“But I hate the kind of life I’m living! There’s nothing ahead of
me but marriage, unless I go to work! You wouldn’t want me to marry
just because I was bored at home,--and I’ve known lots of girls to
do that! I never meet any attractive men,--only High School kids and
rah-rah boys out of college. Wouldn’t I have a much better chance
to meet a finer class of young men around business offices,--I mean
serious-minded, ambitious young men? It seems to me I’d have much more
opportunity to meet a man I’d admire, and who might want me to marry
him if I went to work than I ever will waiting stupidly at home.”

“It doesn’t make any difference where you meet him, whether it is in
business or at a High School dance,” Jeannette answered. “He’s bound
to find you, and you him.... I hate to see you go to work. You pay a
fearful penalty in doing so. It makes you regard marriage lightly, and
prejudices you against having children----”

“Oh, I shall want children!” exclaimed Etta, promptly. She proceeded
to outline just what were her requirements in a husband, and to give
her views on the subject of having children. Her aunt was somewhat
disconcerted to discover that she had these matters, as far as they
concerned herself, entirely settled in her own mind. “Oh, yes, indeed,”
Etta repeated, “I shall want children. Perhaps not such a lot of them
as Moth’ and Dad have. They would have had a much easier time of it, if
they’d had only one or two. Instead of always being poor and having to
struggle, they could have lived in considerable comfort, and now there
would be no question about their being able to send me to Bryn Mawr or
Vassar. I think two children are enough for any couple. Now, my idea,
Aunt Janny,----”

“Oh, for Heaven’s sakes, Etta!” Jeannette interrupted with impatience;
“you don’t know what you’re talking about! What does your education
or Ralph’s education amount to in comparison with the lives of Frank,
Nettie, and Baby Roy? You’ll have a great deal more worth-while
education pounded into you by having brothers and sisters and by having
to help your mother take care of them, than you would ever get at Bryn
Mawr. More than that, just living in the same house with them, being
brought up with them and learning to deny yourself, now and then, for
their sake has taught you unselfishness, forbearance that will make you
a far better wife and mother than ten years’ of college education! ...
Your father and mother with you children about them, with the hard
problems you present, with the ever-pressing question of ways and means
before them, with the solving of these problems,--for there is always a
solution,--are among the most enviable people in the world. There was a
time when I used to feel sorry for your mother, but now I look at her
with only admiration and jealousy. You think of her as poor! Well, I
think of her as rich! And I attribute much of the happiness she has had
out of life to the fact that she never went into business.... Stay out
of it, Etta my dear, whatever you do! It’s an unnatural environment for
a girl, and in it her mind and soul as surely become contaminated as
if she deliberately went to live in a smallpox camp.... Look at me, my
dear! I’ve given twenty years of my life to business and what have I to
show for it? Nothing but a very lonely and selfish old age!”

“Oh, Aunt Jan!” cried the girl, shocked into protesting. “How can you
say such things! Why I think you’re one of the handsomest, happiest,
most enviable, smartest-dressed women in the world!”

Jeannette laughed.

“Well, I didn’t mean to deliver a ‘curtain’ lecture! I just hated the
thought of your following in my footsteps. It makes me actually shudder
even to think of it. But I didn’t mean to get started the way I did----

“Here,” she suddenly cried, gathering her things together and hurriedly
getting to her feet, “this is the Bridge! We have to get off here and
change cars.”


§ 2

The house just inside the high iron fence of the Navy Yard in which
Commander Jerome Sedgwick lived was a three-story, square, dirty
cream-painted cement affair, which bore his name in a small, neat
sign on the third step of the front stairs. Across the street from
it, children racketed upon a city play-ground, and in its rear some
green-painted hot-houses leaned haphazardly against one another, their
backs turned upon a quadrangle where several orderly tennis courts were
located. Jeannette had visited Miss Holland here many times, and one
summer a few years ago, had spent her two weeks’ vacation keeping her
old friend company, while the nephew, Jerry, was enjoying a month’s
leave with his family, fishing among the Maine lakes.

A little girl of five, just tall enough to reach the knob, opened the
door a few inches and stared up unsmilingly at the visitors.

“How do you do, Sarah?” said Jeannette, recognizing the child. “Is your
mama at home?”

Sarah continued to stare stolidly a moment, then turned and
disappeared, leaving the door hardly more than ajar. Jeannette and Etta
could hear the sound of her shrill, piping voice, and her small running
feet within.

Mrs. Sedgwick came rustling to greet the callers promptly, and in her
wake limped Miss Holland.

“Oh, you _dear_!” exclaimed the latter, catching sight of Jeannette.
“I’m so glad you came; I’ve been hungering for a sight of you for
weeks.” She kissed her friend warmly on both cheeks. Etta was presented.

“The child begged to be allowed to come,” explained her aunt. “She
wanted a glimpse of the Yard.”

“Why, certainly,” exclaimed Mrs. Sedgwick cordially. “I’m delighted you
brought her. Jerry unfortunately isn’t home but I have to take Sarah
and Junior out shortly, and I’ll be charmed to show your niece about,
and leave you two to gossip by yourselves.”

Miss Holland, her thin, knuckly, white hand on Jeannette’s forearm,
drew her into the sitting-room.

“Take off your things down here, my dear; I can’t climb stairs very
well on account of my knees, and no one’s coming in.”

“How _is_ your rheumatism?” inquired Jeannette.

“’Bout the same; it keeps me rather helpless, and the doctor is
actually starving me to death. What with the things he says I can’t eat
and the things I don’t like, my menus are rather limited.”

The two women settled themselves before the small, glowing coal fire in
an old-fashioned grate, and began talking in low tones. Mrs. Sedgwick
excused herself to make the children ready to go out, while Etta stood
at the window, gazing with absorbed interest at any evidence of Navy
life that came within the range of her vision.

“’Xcuse me, Miss Holland,” she interrupted presently with her usual
breathlessness, “do you happen to know, or did you ever hear Commander
Sedgwick mention a young ensign named White?”

Miss Holland looked doubtful.

“My friend, Marjorie Bowen, knew him, or knew his sister, I think,
while he was at Annapolis.”

“Well, I’m afraid ...” began Miss Holland.

Etta proceeded hastily to another observation.

“There was a destroyer in Cohasset Bay last summer,--anchored right off
the Yacht Club,--and I saw two of the officers on shore one day.... I
don’t know what their names were, of course, but during the war I knew
several of the boys in the reserves. Asa Pulitzer was a boatswain’s
mate; ... I think that’s what he was.”

Jeannette turned an indulgent smile upon Miss Holland.

“Asa Pulitzer is the local grocer’s son.”

“Well, I don’t care if he is!” protested Etta. “He made good----”

Mrs. Sedgwick rustled downstairs at this moment, making a timely
entrance. She carried Etta off, with assurance of returning in time for
tea.

“Well-l,” said Jeannette comfortably, as the pleasant hour of
companionship and confidences began. “You don’t _look_ as if you’d been
ill!”

“Not ill exactly; it’s this wretched rheumatism that will not get
better.”

Miss Holland’s tone was not complaining; indeed she always spoke
with remarkable placidity. Jeannette regarded her with all her old
admiration. There was an unusual aristocratic quality about Miss
Holland that never failed to stir her. She was white-haired, now,
fragile and thin looking, and there was an uncertainty about her
movements, but she still bore herself with distinction,--a gentlewoman
to her finger-tips. Even more than the air of gentility that surrounded
her, Jeannette esteemed the shrewd brain, nimble wit and judgment of
this woman. It seemed a sad and sorry thing to her that so splendid a
personality, so fine an intellect should have had so little opportunity
for self-expression in the world, and that at sixty, Miss Holland
should be no more than what she seemed: an old maid, growing yearly
more and more crippled, passing what days remained to her with her
nephew and her nephew’s family, somewhat of a problem, somewhat in the
way! Of course they loved her; Jeannette knew that Commander Sedgwick
was devoted to his aunt and treated her with as much respect and
affection as ever son did his mother, but, after all, on the brink of
old age, Miss Holland’s course was run, and how little she had to show
for all her years of toil and faithfulness! She had spent her life at
an underling’s desk and given her wisdom and her strength to a business
that had paid her barely enough to support herself and make it possible
for her to give her nephew his profession!

“Miss Holland,” Jeannette asked impulsively, “what did the Corey
Company pay you towards the end of your employment there?”

“Fifty dollars a week for the last five years I was with them.”

“And altogether, you were there?”

“Twenty-five years.... Why do you ask?”

“I was thinking how little they appreciated you.”

“Mr. Kipps told me,” Miss Holland said with a reminiscent smile, “that
it would never do to pay women employees more than fifty a week; they
wouldn’t know what to do with the money.”

“He didn’t!”

“Oh, yes! He claimed it would demoralize them. He used to say they
would be sure to throw it away on ‘fripperies.’ ‘Fripperies,’ you
remember, was a great word of his.”

“It still is!”

“Mr. Kipps’ attitude is typical, I think, of the average employer of
women. This is a man-made world, as perhaps you’ve noticed, my dear.
Did you ever stop to consider the injustice to which working women are
subjected? Do you realize there are about twelve million working women
on pay-rolls in the United States, that twenty dollars a week is a very
high wage for any one of them to receive, and six million of them, or
half of the entire number, earn between ten and twelve a week? ...
I happen to have the statistics issued by the woman’s bureau of the
Department of Labor.”

Miss Holland pushed herself up erect from her chair, and her face
showed the pain the effort cost her.

“Can’t I get it for you?” offered Jeannette hastily.

“No--no; thanks very much; it’s right here. I can put my hand on it
in just a minute.” From a desk near at hand she produced a government
report.

“I came across this the other day, and I saved it because it proves
what I have always felt about the unfairness with which women are
treated in business. They may perform equal work with men but very few
of them are paid as well. The average annual earning power of the male
industrial worker now is at the rate of a thousand dollars a year;
that of the woman industrial worker five to six hundred. Among office
workers the disparity is much greater. When I was getting fifty dollars
a week as Mr. Kipps’ chief assistant, there was a youth helping me who
was being paid sixty.”

“I know,” agreed Jeannette. “When Tommy Livingston followed me as Mr.
Corey’s secretary, he did not do the work half as competently as I had
done,--Mr. Corey often told me so,--and yet he was paid more at the
very start, and asked for and received one raise after another, until
Mr. Corey was paying him nearly twice what he formerly had paid me; but
when I went back to work after I left Martin, Mr. Corey started me in
again at the old salary of thirty-five, and never suggested a higher
rate. Walt Chase was getting eighty-five dollars weekly as head of the
Mail Order Department, and when I took charge, I received only forty.
Although I have doubled the amount of business the Corey Publishing
Company does by mail, I am to-day being paid but fifty a week. Mr.
Allister told me when I asked for my last raise, that it was the last
he would ever give me.”

“Almost all employers underpay their women workers,” affirmed Miss
Holland. “In general women are receiving to-day from a half to
two-thirds what men are who do identically the same kind of work. I was
discussing this question once with Mr. Kipps, and he defended himself
by stating that the majority of girls who fill office positions only
work for ‘pin money.’ ... ‘Pin money?’ What is ‘pin money’? Dollars and
cents, I take it, with which to buy clothes and some amusement. Don’t
men need ‘pin money,’ too? Doesn’t everyone? When the Corey Publishing
Company employs a young man,--a High School or College graduate,--what
he is paid per week is never spoken of as ‘pin money,’ yet he spends
it for exactly the same things as girls do.... I’ve often wondered if
Mr. Kipps considered the salaries he paid you and me, Mrs. O’Brien, and
Miss Travers, Miss Whaley, Miss Foster, Miss Bixby, Miss Kate Smith,
old Mrs. Jewitt, Mrs. M’Ardle, and Miss Stenicke as ‘pin money!’ Most
of those women not only supported themselves but their old mothers and
fathers, their younger brothers and sisters or some helpless relative.
Mrs. O’Brien had two daughters she kept at Ladycliff for nine years;
Miss Travers has a bed-ridden sister; Miss Whaley, her mother; Mrs.
Jewitt, a tubercular husband; and Kate Smith is putting her young
brother through dental college----”

“Yes,” interrupted Jeannette, “Mrs. M’Ardle has two children of her own
she is taking care of, and one of her sister’s, and she’s getting only
forty dollars a week.”

“How does she _do_ it!” exclaimed Miss Holland.

“I’m sure I don’t know.... Beatrice Alexander has been sending thirty
dollars a month to her helpless old aunt in Albany for the past fifteen
years.”

“That’s where the ‘pin money’ goes!” declared Miss Holland with a note
of scorn in her voice. “These silent, uncomplaining, hard-working women
who give their lives to the grind of business! I feel keenly the rank
injustice that is being done them!”

There was a moment’s silence, and Miss Holland continued:

“Mr. Kipps’ great argument was always that girls who came seeking
employment did so with the intention of working only a year or two, and
then getting married. He argued that a concern could not regard these
women as permanent employees to be trained to fill important positions;
they could not be depended upon to remain with a business and grow up
with it----”

“I must say,” broke in Jeannette with fine sarcasm, “that great
inducements are offered them to do so! At the end of twenty and
twenty-five years’ faithful and efficient work in such positions as
you filled and as I fill to-day, they are paid fifty dollars a week!”

“I answered him,” Miss Holland went on, after an appreciative nod,
“that neither could the men he employed be considered as fixtures.
I reminded him of Van Alstyne, Max Oppenheim, Humphrey Stubbs, Walt
Chase, Tommy Livingston and Francis Holm. There are a hundred others.
How many boys starting in to business, do you suppose, stick for the
balance of their lives with the concern for which they first began to
work?”

“Not many.”

“Few indeed! It’s to keep and hold these same boys and young men that
the large corporations to-day are offering to sell them stock at
advantageous rates.”

“Of course, it is the girls living at home,” observed Jeannette,
“partially supported by their fathers and mothers or some relative,
willing to work for small salaries to buy themselves a few extra
clothes and a measure of amusement, that are keeping down the salaries
paid to women entirely dependent on their earnings.”

“During the war,” observed Miss Holland, “a hundred thousand women were
employed by the railroads to perform the work which the men formerly
did before they went into the army. Women cleaned locomotives, tended
stock-rooms of repair shops, sold tickets, took charge of signal
stations, worked as carpenters, machinists, and electricians; women
took the places of men in the steel mills, in the munition plants, in
the foundries and even in coal mines. The National War Labor Board,
headed by William H. Taft, undertook to protect the women workers, and
laid down the principle that women doing the work formerly performed
by men should receive the same pay. In other words, the pay was to
be fixed by the job and not by the sex of the employee. Employers
throughout the nation followed the ruling of the Labor Board.”

“But that was a war-time measure,” said Jeannette, “and we all did
things, then, that were altruistic and patriotic.”

“If women had the physical strength of men,” Miss Holland asserted,
“and could defend their principles by force, there would be a speedy
end of injustices. Why do male waiters in our restaurants get higher
wages than waitresses? Certainly they don’t work any harder, or give
better service. Suppose all the women workers in New York City formed
unions, and struck for what they decided adequate pay, a uniform scale
of salaries, and could use the same methods that men would use in
preventing women who had not joined the ranks from taking their places!
Think what would happen! The work in every office, every bank, every
corporation in this city would come promptly to a standstill; the
strike would last forty-eight, seventy-two hours, and then the demands
of the women would be conceded.... You want to remember one thing,
my dear: _women never banded together since history began, and asked
anything that was unfair or unjust_!”

“I was having a very interesting talk with my niece as we were coming
here,” broke in Jeannette; “Etta wants to go to work, wants a position
as stenographer in some office, not only to earn extra money with which
to help out at home, but to acquire an interest in life that will
fill her days. There are a hundred thousand young girls like her in
this city to-day. Consider what effect a job would have on an immature
character like Etta’s! I’ve been all through the bitter mill, and I
speak from experience. Financial independence is a dangerous thing for
such young girls. It makes them regard marriage with indifference.
There is many a girl who has declined to marry a young man to whom she
undoubtedly would have made a good wife merely because his income,
which would have to do for both of them, was no more, or perhaps only a
little more, than what she was earning herself.”

Jeannette’s lips closed firmly a moment and she stared out of the
window at the bleak prospect of the Yard’s quadrangle bordered by
closed and silent brick warehouses.

“But suppose the girl office-worker decides to give matrimony a trial,”
she continued, “as I did, her mind has been distorted by having known
what it means to be financially her own mistress. Instead of bringing
to her job of wifehood the resolute determination to make a success of
it, from the first she is critical, and on the constant lookout for
hardships in her new life, comparing them with the freedom of her old.
I should have made Martin a much better wife, Miss Holland, if I had
brought to my problem of being his partner the passionate determination
that was mine in wanting to make good as Mr. Corey’s secretary. I
always hugged to myself the thought that if the time came when I
wouldn’t like Martin any more or like being a wife, I could go back to
my job,--and that is exactly what this thought led me to do. Making any
marriage a success is the hardest work I know about both for men and
women, and there should be no avenue of easy escape from it for either
of them. I’d never have left Martin, I’d have endured his unkindness
and lack of consideration,--or at least what seemed his unkindness and
lack of consideration to me then,--if there hadn’t been an easy way out
for me, and we’d have gone on together and made a home for ourselves
and our children. All I had to do was to walk out of Martin’s house
and go back to my job. That’s what every wife who has once been a
self-supporting wage-earner says to herself from the day she marries.
She doesn’t even have the trouble of getting a divorce to deter her....
It’s wrong, I tell you, Miss Holland! It’s all _wrong_! The more I
live, the more I am convinced that women have no place in business.
No,--please let me finish,” she said earnestly as her friend started
to interrupt. “There’s one other angle to this question: the girl who
has once tasted independence but who decides to give matrimony a trial
may go so far as to consent to be a wife, but she stops at becoming a
mother! She dreads children. And why? Because she realizes that once
a baby is at her breast, she’s bound hand and foot to her husband and
her home. She can’t leave her child with the nonchalance she can her
husband. In the homes of women who have achieved economic independence
before they marry, you will find few children, and in the majority of
cases, none at all. I know a score of girls, at one time in office
jobs, who quit them to be married, but have drawn the line at babies.

“It seems to me this is of national significance. The country is being
deprived of homes and children because of this great invasion of women
into business during the last twenty or thirty years. When I went
to work twenty-four years ago, it was the exception for nice girls
to go into offices. I remember how my mother fretted over my wanting
to do it and how bitterly she opposed me. Now, every girl, rich or
poor, desires a year or two of business life. Women are devised by
Nature to be home-builders and mothers. Anything tending to deflect
them from fulfilling their destiny is contrary to Nature and is doomed
to failure or to have bound up in it its own punishment. When women
compete with men in fields in which they do not belong, they are
acting against Nature, and as surely as one gets hurt by leaning too
far out of a window, so surely do such women pay a penalty for their
deeds. Man was condemned in Genesis to ‘work by the sweat of his brow’;
there is nothing said about women having to work; she was given her
own punishment. And here is an obvious fact, Miss Holland: No man
likes to work under a woman boss. When I took charge of the Mail Order
Department, three men who had been with Walt Chase resigned rather than
work under me. I didn’t blame them. It was as repugnant to me to give
them orders as it was for them to take them.

“Now that is a biological obstruction in the way of woman’s progress
in business that you cannot get away from, and which you cannot lay to
man’s door. Men don’t like to work for women, and women don’t like to
have men assistants, and since man is intended by God and Nature to be
the worker, and woman is ordained to bear children, I say again that
women have no place in business.”

“But Miss Sturgis, Miss Sturgis!” cried Miss Holland. “Do you mean
to tell me that women have not the right to earn their own living? Do
you mean to tell me that you and I and all the women in the world must
always look to some man to support us? Do you mean to tell me that
widows with children to take care of, and women whose husbands are
incapacitated or who desert them or who turn out to be drunkards or
brutes, and women who are adrift in the world, and perhaps have never
married because they’ve never been wooed, haven’t a right to turn their
brains to account and earn their livelihoods?”

“Well, it might be a good plan to limit the women workers to just the
classes you mention,” Jeannette answered. “Certainly I won’t concede
to you that every eighteen-year-old flapper like my niece or your
sweet young college-graduate has the right to plunge into business
and unfit herself for wifehood and motherhood, driving at the same
time some needy soul of her own sex out of employment. Comeliness, a
fair complexion have much to do with securing a job for a woman and
with helping her to retain it. The plain girl or, more particularly,
the middle-aged woman with two children to support, whose beauty has
long since deserted her, has small chance against the pink-skinned
eighteen-year-old with the bobbed hair and the roguish eye who may only
have one-tenth of her ability. No employer ever hires a good-looking
young man in preference to a homely one whose years of experience and
ability are known. The more faded a woman becomes, the less she is
wanted about an office. Looks play an important part in the rôle of the
business woman. She should be judged, I think, not by her appeal to the
eye, but by her industry. This is one more reason why I believe women
under thirty should be debarred from going to work. If women workers
were limited, confined to thousands, let us say, instead of millions,
then those privileged to work could earn a proper living wage, and
dictate the terms under which they should be employed. There are
certain professions and callings to which women are recognizably better
suited than men; nursing and dressmaking are but two of them. If the
supply of women for these vocations were limited, the demand would soon
fix an adequate wage.

“It has occurred to me many times,” persevered Jeannette, “that it
would perhaps solve the problem,--or help solve it,--if certain
professions and certain kinds of work were restricted by law to women.
I’ve been told that in Japan only those who are blind may be embalmers
of the dead. It restricts this vocation to a class of unfortunates
which otherwise would have great difficulty in earning its living,
and as a consequence there are no blind mendicants in Japan. I would
advocate legislation in this country that would restrict certain
occupations solely to women, and then I would limit the women who were
eligible to fill them to widows or to those who could prove they must
support themselves.”

“There is little doubt that becoming wage-earners tends to keep women
out of matrimony,” Miss Holland said thoughtfully. “I know it did with
me. There was a young professor of archæology from Wesleyan who wanted
me very earnestly to marry him, and I should have liked to have done
so, but I was working then, and had taken Jerry to live with me,--he
was only eight,--and the professor’s salary was not large enough for
the three of us.”

“And think what a wonderful wife you would have made!”

“I don’t know about that,” smiled Miss Holland, “but I was interested
in his work and I should have enjoyed helping him.”

“Exactly!” cried Jeannette. “I have no doubt you would have helped him
very materially, whereas you gave your wits and your life in helping
Mr. Kipps over the rough parts of his business days for a consideration
of fifty dollars a week!”

“He could have found somebody else who could have helped him just as
well.”

“But that doesn’t make it any fairer,” insisted Jeannette. “What have
you got to show for your twenty-five years of helping Mr. Kipps? ...
This!” She spread out her hands significantly.

“Well, I have my old age provided for,” said Miss Holland, with an
indulgent smile. “I get my check for half-salary from the office
regularly the first of every month. I suppose I’ll continue to get that
until my rheumatism or my heart carries me off.”

“But is that any reward for twenty-five years of slavery and drudgery?
How many thousand and tens of thousands of dollars have your brains
saved the Corey Publishing Company?”

“That isn’t all of it. You must remember I have Jerry.”


§ 3

Yes, she had Jerry, said Jeannette to herself, lying awake that night
for long aching hours of whirling thoughts after she was in bed. Miss
Holland’s old age was rich in the love this nephew, his wife and
children bore her.

And it came to the sleepless woman in the bed that it was not the love
Miss Holland received that mattered; it was what she gave and had
given that made her life, in spite of old age, rheumatism and growing
helplessness, glorious with complete and satisfying happiness.



CHAPTER IV


§ 1

“Dent--Department--Derrick--Desmond--Deutsch--Deveraux--Deverley--De
Vinne--Devlin....”

There it was: “Martin Devlin, Motor Cars,--North Broad Street.”
Jeannette’s polished finger-nail rested beneath the name and her
lips formed the words without a sound. She closed the Philadelphia
Directory, turned from the telephone desk in the big New York hotel,
and walked slowly out into the bright autumn glare of the street.

Thanksgiving was next week; there would be no difficulty in securing
leave at the office to be absent from Wednesday night until Monday
morning.

“I’d just like to see,” she kept repeating to herself. “There’d be no
harm in _seeing_ what kind of a place he has. I could learn so much
just walking by.”

An odd excitement took possession of her. She saw herself in the train,
she saw herself in a large, comfortable room at the Bellevue-Stratford,
saw herself in her smartest costume, sauntering up Broad Street.

“I’ve a good mind to do it,” she whispered. “It could do no possible
harm. I’d just like to see.”

She was unable to reach any definite conclusion, but she inspected
her wardrobe carefully, deciding exactly what she would wear if she
went to Philadelphia, and then did a very reckless thing: she bought
herself a sumptuous garment, a short outer jacket of broadtail and
kolinsky, a regal mantle fit for a millionaire’s wife. A giddy madness
seemed to settle upon her after this; her savings in the bank,--the
savings which were to buy another bond,--were almost wiped out, and
she deliberately drew a check for what remained. Some power outside of
herself seemed to take charge of her actions; she moved from one step
to another as if hypnotized; she spoke to Mr. Allister about two extra
days at Thanksgiving, she bought her ticket and chair-car reservation
at the Pennsylvania Station, she wrote the Bellevue-Stratford to hold
one of their best outside rooms for her, she explained with simulated
carelessness to Beatrice Alexander that there was a Book-Dealers’
Convention in Philadelphia which the firm had requested her to attend,
and the four o’clock train on the afternoon of the holiday found her
bound for the Quaker city.

As she sat stiffly upright in her luxurious armchair, staring out upon
the dreary New Jersey marshes, panic suddenly came upon her.

What was she doing? Was she _crazy_? Was Miss Sturgis of the Mail Order
Department this woman, so elegantly clad, speeding toward Philadelphia?
And on what mad errand? After years of careful living, after years
of prudent saving, was it actually she, Jeannette Sturgis, who had
recklessly flung to the four winds the bank account of which she had
been so proud? Oh, she must be mad, indeed!

She grasped the arms of her chair and instinctively glanced from one
end to the other of the palatial car. She was seized with a violent
impulse to get off. There was Manhattan Transfer; she could take a
train back to the city from there. Determinedly, she gazed out upon the
empty, cold-looking platform when the train reached the station, but
she made no move, and as the wheels commenced to rumble beneath her
once more, she sank back resignedly into her seat, and a measure of
calmness returned.

She was not committing herself merely by going to Philadelphia and
walking past Martin’s place of business! Suppose she _did_ meet him!
Suppose they actually encountered one another, face to face! What then?
There was nothing compromising in that! She could explain her presence
in Philadelphia in a thousand ways should he be interested. She blessed
the judgment that had prompted her to confide in no one; Beatrice
believed she was attending a Book-Dealers’ Convention, Alice that she
was having her Thanksgiving dinner with Miss Holland.


§ 2

As she left the overheated parlor car at Broad Street Station her
composure was thoroughly restored. There was a tingling nimbleness in
the air; the clear, November day was bright with metallic sunshine.
Jeannette tipped the “red-cap” for carrying her bags, climbed into a
taxi-cab and with a casual air that seemed to spring from familiarity
with such proceedings, directed to be driven to her hotel.

The cold bare streets, deserted on account of the holiday, the
brilliant foyer of the Bellevue, the urbane room-clerk, the gilded
elevator cage, the large high-ceilinged bedroom with its trim, orderly
furniture, its double-bed, glistening with white linen, its discreet
engravings of Watteau ladies in the gardens of Versailles, followed
in quick succession. Then she was standing at the window looking down
into the wide, dismal gray street far below, and the departing bell-boy
softly closed the door behind him.

She was here; she was in Philadelphia; she would have that to remember
always. If nothing else happened, she could never forget she had come
this far.... Somewhere in the city was Martin; he was preparing to eat
his Thanksgiving Dinner; it was a quarter past six, he was probably
dressing! ... Suppose he elected to eat the meal with friends in the
main dining-room of her hotel! Her throat tightened convulsively and
her fingers twitched. Well, she would be equal to facing him if he saw
her; she would not be frightened into abandoning the course that was
natural for her to follow. If it had been actually the case that she
was here in Philadelphia to attend a Book-Dealers’ Convention, she
would put on her black satin dinner frock and go down to dinner with
her book; she did not propose to allow herself to do differently....
It would be ridiculous to eat her Thanksgiving dinner upstairs in her
rooms!

She bathed, she did her hair with unusual success, she powdered her
neck and arms, she donned the black satin with the square neck and
jet trimming, and with her book beneath her arm, mesh bag in her
hand, descended to the dining-room at half past seven. There was
an instant’s terror as she stood in the curtained doorway of the
brilliantly-lit dining-room. There rushed upon her impressions of
flowers, music, the odor of food, a wave of heat, the flash of napery,
the gleam of cutlery, faces, faces everywhere,--heads turning,--eyes
following,--whispers,--a hush as she made her way in the wake of the
obsequious head-waiter.

Steeling her nerves, measuring every movement, she seated herself with
deliberation, deliberately set her bag and book at her right hand,
deliberately turned her attention to the menu, deliberately raised her
eyes, and gazed about the room as she deliberately ordered.

But there was nothing! There was nobody! No one was looking at her; no
one had noticed her entrance! The music was wailing in waltz measure,
the diners were talking and laughing, attendants hurrying to and fro.
He was not there; there was no one faintly resembling him in the room.

She cleared her throat and raised a tumbler of water to her lips, but
as she did so, her teeth chattered an instant against the thin glass.


§ 3

Philadelphia awoke the next day with the bustle of business. Feet
clip-clipped on the pavements, taxies chugged and honked, trucks
bumped and rattled, street-cars rumbled and clanged their bells. Life,
teeming, bustling, rushing, burst from every corner and doorway.

Mechanically Jeannette moved through her early morning routine; she
dressed, breakfasted, read her newspapers; she drew upon her shoulders
the handsome fur jacket, as, gloved, hatted and gaitered, she stepped
out on the street.

“Taxi, lady?” No, she preferred to walk. Her number was only a few
squares away.

An intent and hurrying tide of pedestrians set against her, congested
traffic choked the street. She was an interested observer, and made
but a leisurely progress, stopping at the shop windows, studying their
displays. Nothing unusual in any of them attracted her; New York
was more up-to-the minute in fads and fancies; the merchants there
were more enterprising; they knew what was what; these Philadelphia
shop-keepers merely aped their ways and followed their leads. There
was no city in the world, she thought with pride, where merchandising
was such a fine art and where novelties so quickly caught on as in
New York. She wondered why people lived in Philadelphia when they
could just as well live in New York. She passed a theatre and read
the announcement on the bill-board; the play had been in New York six
months ago!

She captured her wandering thoughts and looked about her, wondering how
far she had walked.

“Vine Garden?”

“The next cross-street, Madam.”

Her pulses stirred and unconsciously she quickened her pace. She was
presently in the neighborhood of the number she sought. It ought to be
right here.... She edged her way towards the curb and gazed up at the
façades of stores and buildings. Strange,--there was nothing here that
resembled an automobile agency! That building was a piano store, and in
the next sewing machines were sold.... Suddenly the name leaped at her
in a window’s reflection. It was across the street! She wheeled about
and there it was: Martin Devlin--Motor Cars. The name was in flowing
script, the letters rounded and bright with gold, and the sign tilted
out slightly over the sidewalk. Her heart plunged and stood still. That
was her husband’s place of business! There it was: Martin Devlin--Motor
Cars!

The appearance of the agency impressed her. Across its front were four
large plate-glass windows, two on each side of the entrance. On these
also appeared Martin’s name in the same style of flowing script, and
beneath, in Roman type, the name of the automobile he handled. The
show-room was spacious and softly illuminated with reflected light
from alabaster bowls hung from the ceiling by brass chains. There were
a half dozen models of the motor car, ranged within, three on a side,
their noses pointing toward one another obliquely. The high polish
of nickel and varnish, here and there, reflected the bright electric
radiance above. The place had the air of elegance.

Curious, but with galloping pulses, Jeannette picked her way across the
street, and slowly strolled past. Through the plate-glass windows she
could see two young men standing, their arms folded, talking. Neither
was Martin. She turned and retraced her steps, swiftly inspecting.
Every moment her confidence increased. She noted the walls of the
show-room were of cream-tinted terra-cotta brick, the floor of smooth
cement with rich rugs defining the aisles; in the rear was a balcony
where she could see yellow electric lights burning over desks, and make
out the faces and figures of two or three girls. That was where the
offices were located, no doubt, where Martin would have his desk.

Was he in? Would she risk a meeting? Did she have nerve enough to go
inside and say: “Miss Sturgis would like to see Mr. Devlin!” ... It was
extraordinary, amazing! ... How utterly overcome he would be! ... To
have his wife, whom he hadn’t seen for fourteen years, walk in upon him
that way! ... It wasn’t fair to him, after all. She had better go back
to the hotel and write him,--or perhaps it would be better to telephone.

Emotions, impulses, strange and contradictory, pulled her one way and
another. The apprehension, the misgivings of yesterday were absent
now. There was no longer any question in her mind as to whether or
not she wanted to see Martin; she knew she wanted to see him very
much; in fact, her mind was made up, she must see him. It would be
a thrilling experience, after so many years.... When they parted,
it had not been because they had ceased to be fond of one another.
They had liked,--yes, even loved each other, at the very moment of
separation.... How was it to be managed? How could she arrange to
meet him with propriety? Her appearance, she was aware, would make
an impression upon him; that effect would be lost in writing or
telephoning.... Perhaps she had better go back to the hotel and think
it over, but then she might never again find the courage which was hers
at that moment.... She must do something; she could not stand there
indefinitely gazing through the window at the motor cars inside! The
young men within, she observed, had noticed her.

With heart that hammered at her throat, she stepped to the heavy door;
it swung back at her touch. There was a pleasant warmth within. One of
the young men came hurrying forward, rubbing his hands, one over the
other, bowing politely, a beaming smile upon his face.

“Good morning, Madam. Interested in the _Parrott_?”

Jeannette swept the show-room with a quick look before answering. There
was no one there remotely like Martin.

“I was thinking about one,” she admitted.

“Most happy to arrange a demonstration at any time.... What model did
you fancy?”

Jeannette moved about the cars, peering into the interiors of their
tonneaus, commenting upon the upholstery and finish, pretending an
attention to the young salesman’s glib explanations.

“Shift here is automatic ... cylinders ... compression ...
hundred-and-eighteen-inch wheel-base, ... equipment just as you see
it, ... rear tire extra, of course, ... lovely car for a lady to drive
... rides like a gazelle ... just like a gazelle ... you wouldn’t know
you were moving.... Lovely engine, isn’t it, Madam? ... A child could
easily take it apart.”

Jeannette nodded and appeared interested. All the time she was
thinking: “I wonder if he’s up there--I wonder if he’s up there.”

“Mr. Devlin ...?” she hazarded.

“Oh, you know Mr. Devlin?” The possibility seemed to fill the salesman
with rare pleasure; it was a discovery, unexpected, delightful.

“I--I used to know him years ago,” Jeannette faltered.

“He’s a splendid man, isn’t he?” glowed the youth. “Wonderful
personality,--a regular ‘good fellow.’ He’s made quite a record with
the _Parrott_, you know. Unfortunately he’s out just now, but he’s
expected. I’m sure he’ll be glad to know you called, and I’ll be very
pleased to tell him. You didn’t mention.... May I ask the name?”

Jeannette hesitated. This was not the way she would have him hear of
her.

“No,--I’ll call again; I’ll come in later. I’m--- I’m stopping at the
Bellevue; it isn’t far.”

“Couldn’t I arrange a demonstration for you this afternoon? At any hour
you say. I’d like to show you the way the _Parrott_ rides,--just like a
gazelle. I’ll have our driver come with the limousine, or perhaps you’d
prefer the landaulet model.... You might like to pay some calls this
afternoon; it would give you a chance to test the _Parrott_ and see how
you like it.... Ah, here’s Mr. Devlin!”

The heavy glass front door opened. Jeannette felt the cold air from
the street. She gave a quick glance as she turned her back, her heart
plunging. It was Martin all right, but what a changed and different
Martin! So much older, so much larger than she remembered him! He wore
a Derby hat and had a cigar.

The salesman had left her side and was communicating her presence to
his employer. Jeannette stood with both hands pressed tightly against
her heart and fought for self-possession.

She heard Martin speak. That voice ...! That voice ...! It suffocated
her. An avalanche of memories and forgotten emotions swept down upon
her.... He was coming! She even recognized his step!

“’Morning, Madam,”--there was the old briskness, and alertness in his
tone!--“what can I----”

She straightened herself and turned regally.

“Good morning, Martin,” she said smiling. Her color was high, she was
trembling, her pulses racing.

There was a quick jerk of his head,--a well-remembered mannerism,--and
a lightning survey of her features.

“Good God! ... _Jan!_”

Emotions played in his face, his eyes darted about her, his color faded
and flamed darkly. His confusion gave her composure. He was handsome
still, smooth-shaven and clean; his cheeks were fuller, a trifle
florid, he had a well-defined double-chin, his black, thick hair was
streaked with wiry, white threads; he had grown stouter, had acquired
a girth, but his fatness was robust and healthy. He had gained in
presence, in firmness of feature, in polish,--a man of business and
affairs, energetic, a leader.

“Are you surprised to see me, Martin?”

“Well, of course, ... well, ... I should say!”

She was conscious that her beauty and stateliness, her costume, her
fashionableness overwhelmed him.

“I’ll be ... I’ll be damned!” he enunciated. “Excuse me, Jan,--but I’ll
be ... I’ll be damned!”

An amused sound escaped Jeannette. She was smiling broadly; she felt
she had the situation well in hand.

“I’m sorry I startled you, Martin. I happened to be passing and I saw
your name and thought I’d drop in.... How’ve you been after all these
years?”

“Oh,--all right, I guess. Sure, I’ve been fine.... And you? I guess
there’s no need of asking.”

“I’ve been quite well. I’m never sick. I came down to Philadelphia to
attend a Book-Dealers’ Convention.... I’m stopping at the Bellevue.”

“Well--er, you going to be in town long?”

“Oh,--two or three days. I’m going back to New York Sunday, I guess. I
think I can get away by that time.... This is a fine car you handle;
its lines are really very beautiful.”

“It’s a good car, all right. I had a big year this year,--and last
year, too.”

“Well, that’s good; I’m glad to hear it.... I never heard of the
_Parrott_ before.”

“You _didn’t_? ... Well, we think we advertise a good deal. It ranks up
among the best.... Are you--are you married or anything like that?”

Jeannette laughed richly.

“Not since an experience I had some fourteen years ago that didn’t
take!”

Martin echoed her amusement. He was regaining his ease; she could see
he was beginning to enjoy himself.

“You know I took my maiden name when I went back to work; everybody
knew me there as ‘Miss Sturgis’; it seemed easier.”

“Yes, I see,” Martin agreed.

“I’m still with the old company.”

“What,--the same old publishing outfit?”

“Yes; I’m in charge of the Mail Order Department now.... We do quite a
business.”

“Is that so? And how do you like it?”

“Oh, I like it all right. They think a lot of me there, and I do about
as I please.... I’m thinking of resigning though; one of these days,
pretty soon, I’ll quit. It gets on your nerves after awhile, you know.”

“Yes, I guess it does.”

A momentary embarrassment came upon them.

“Well, it was pleasant to catch a glimpse of you, again, Martin. If
you’re ever in New York, ring me up. You know the office----”

“Well, say,--I don’t like to have you go away like this! I’d like to
see something of you while you’re in town,--and talk over old times.
There’s a lot of things I’ll bet we’d find interesting to tell one
another.”

“I shouldn’t wonder,” she said lightly.

“I got a business engagement for lunch unfortunately”; he scowled in
troubled fashion. “I can’t very well get out of it.... You’re at the
Bellevue? ... Well, how about dinner? Couldn’t we get together for
dinner?”

“Why, I guess so. Yes,--that would be lovely,” said Jeannette with an
air of careful consideration.

“I’ll bring my wife; Ruthie will be glad to meet you. You knew I
married again, didn’t you?”

Jeannette’s expression did not alter by the quiver of an eyelash; she
continued to regard Martin with smiling eyes.

“No, I hadn’t heard.... I didn’t suppose.... So you married, again?”

“Yes, I married a widow,--a widow with two kids: girl and a
boy,--splendid youngsters.... Say, you _got_ to see those kids; they’re
Jim-dandies!”

“That’s ... that’s fine.”

“And I think you’ll like Ruthie, too, Jan. She isn’t your style
exactly, but she’s all right. There’s no side to Ruthie. I think you’ll
like her; she’s a fine little woman and a great little mother. You’ll
like her, I’ll bet a hat.”

“I’m sure I shall.”

“Then it’s all right for to-night? Ruthie’ll join me downtown and we’ll
come over to the hotel, and the three of us will have a great little
dinner together and chew the rag about old times.... Say, d’you ever
see that old ragamuffin, Zeb Kline?”

“Oh, yes, indeed. I saw him two or three weeks ago. He’s quite
successful, now, you know; he’s made a great deal of money; married
Nick Birdsell’s daughter.”

“Is _that_ so! Well, is _that_ so! He was a card all right, a great old
scout.... And d’you ever see any of the rest of the old gang: Adolph
Kuntz, an’ Fritz Wiggens, an’ Steve Teschemacher an’ old Gibbsy?”

“Oh, yes, occasionally.”

“Say, what’s old Gibbsy doing? He was a wormy little rat, all right,
wasn’t he?”

“He’s got a very fine place, now, down on the Point,--quite an estate.”

“Well, wouldn’t you know it! He’d be just the kind of a little tightwad
that would build himself a swell house! ... And what happened to old
Doc French?”

Jeannette’s countenance changed and she shook her head.

“Don’t bother to tell me now. Save it up for to-night. We’ll have a
great talk-fest.... Ruthie and I will show up at the hotel,--what time?
Let’s make it early so we can have all evening. Six-thirty? How’s
that?”

Jeannette smiled assent.

“We’ll be there at six-thirty, and say, Jan, you know this is going to
be my party all right--all right.”

He accompanied her to the door, knocking the Derby hat nervously
against his knee, his cigar gone out.

“Then we’ll see you to-night, Jan. Six-thirty, hey? ... Gee, I’m glad
you dropped in! We’ll have a great little old talk-fest.”

“To-night, then.”

“Sure. At the Bellevue. We’ll be there. Six-thirty.”


§ 4

Married? Married? It couldn’t be possible! Why, they had never been
divorced! ... How could he be married again?

A great weariness came over Jeannette. It was disgusting! What had he
wanted to get married again for? Pugh! It was most disappointing....
Another woman! ... She had never imagined anything like this.... Was
he living with her without a ceremony? Probably. She must be a cheap
sort of creature.... But it didn’t make any difference whether she was
legally his wife or not; it was the same thing. The fact remained he
had taken up with someone else. No doubt she was known as “Mrs. Devlin.”

Jeannette went back to the hotel and upstairs to her room, laid aside
her beautiful fur jacket, her hat, took off her dress, put on her
kimona. Her mind, like a squirrel in a cage, went around and around
over the same ground. How _could_ he be married? Why, they had never
been divorced!

The prospect of the evening suddenly palled upon her. Even though he
_had_ married, a dinner and chat alone with Martin would have had
some piquancy; it would have been quite exciting and amusing to have
recalled old friends, old memories. But there would be no spontaneity
in their talk with another woman beside them, a bored and critical
listener! It would be dreadful! An intolerable situation! ... She
thought of a hurried return to New York, a telephone to Martin that
she had been unexpectedly called home. Yet that seemed undignified; he
would be sure to guess her reason, or if he did not, “Ruthie” could be
depended upon to enlighten him. She shook her head in distaste. She was
committed to this unpalatable program, now; she would be obliged to see
it through,--but oh, how she was going to hate it! How she was going to
despise every moment of it!

She considered the other woman, trying to imagine what she would be
like.... Well, Ruthie might be comfortably established in her place,
but she should have no ground for believing she was envied!

A reflection of herself at this moment in the mirror forced a smile
from Jeannette’s lips as she detected upon her face a look of haughty
condescension. She had been fancying the encounter with Ruthie and had
unconsciously assumed the expression that would suit that moment....
Well, Ruthie would have the benefit of that withering, imperious
glance; she would realize the minute she saw Jeannette Sturgis that
here was a woman that would brook no patronizing airs from her, and in
the course of the evening she would have it pointed out to her, in a
manner which would leave no room for misunderstanding, that it was she,
Jeannette, who had left Martin; hers had never been the rôle of the
deserted wife; as far as “leavings” were concerned, Ruthie had them and
welcome! ... Ah! She _hated_ her!

The telephone trilled. Jeannette’s heart plunged as she heard Martin’s
voice.

“Hello, Jan! Say,--I ’phoned Ruthie and she says for me to bring you
out to our house to-night; she says it will be much pleasanter there
and we can talk a whole lot better. I rang her up and explained about
our having dinner with you at the Bellevue, but she insists that you
come on out to our house. She said by all manner of means to bring you.
She said she’d ’phone you, herself, but I said I didn’t think that was
necessary.”

“Why-y,--I’m afraid----”

“You know we live out at Jenkintown; it’s an awful pretty suburb. I’d
like you to see it and I’m crazy to have you see the kids. They’ll
still be up by the time we get there. I’ll call for you a little after
six and drive you out.”

Jeannette’s mind worked rapidly. There was nothing for her to do but to
accept, and to accept graciously.

“That will be lovely, Mart. As you say it will be much nicer in the
country. I shall really like to see your home and to meet--” she
cleared her throat,--“Mrs. Devlin.”

“Well, that’ll be fine, Jan,--that will be great. Say, you couldn’t
make that five-thirty just as well, could you? You see the office
closes at five, and I’ll just have to bum ’round here doing nothing
until it’s time to call for you,--and then besides you’ll have a little
light left so you c’n see something of the country, and I want to tell
you, Jan, Jenkintown’s a swell little suburb.”

“Why, yes, Martin. Five-thirty will be perfectly all right for me.”

“That’s fine then; I call for you at five-thirty.”

She hung up the receiver and bent forward so that her brow rested
lightly against the mouthpiece of the instrument, her eyes closed, and
after a moment she squeezed them tight shut.... Ah, what pain! ... What
heart stabs! ... The prick of tears stung her eyeballs like needle
points.


§ 5

She powdered her shoulders and did her hair; she red-lipped her mouth;
she hooked the black satin dress about her; she hung her generous
string of artificial pearls around her neck and screwed the large
artificial pearl ear-rings upon her ears. At five o’clock she was
ready, and for the ensuing thirty minutes she studied her reflection in
the glass, turning first to one side, then to the other, noting various
effects. She wore no hat, but to-night her hair, with its distinguished
touch of white, was dressed high, and thrust into its thick coil at the
back of her head were three large brilliant, rhinestone combs.

Promptly at the half-hour, Martin was announced, and slipping on the
marvellous jacket, rolling the fur luxuriously against her neck,
Jeannette descended in the elevator and met him in the foyer. The
glance he gave her satisfied her; she knew Martin; he had not changed.
There remained only Ruthie, and in that instant it came to Jeannette
a cold, disdainful manner would put herself, bound and helpless, at
Ruthie’s mercy. They were two shrewd and clever women,--she assumed
Ruthie would be shrewd and clever,--meeting one another under strange
and difficult circumstances; any hint of condescension, any suggestion
of a patronizing air, and Ruthie would be laughing at her. No, the part
for her to play was one of all sweetness and amiability; graciousness
was her only salvation.

Martin guided her out of the hotel, his fingers at her elbow. A
limousine swept up to the door. It was a _Parrott_, and there was a
liveried chauffeur at the wheel.

“Get right in, Jan.”

He stooped through the doorway and sank heavily against the upholstered
cushions beside her. The “starter” touched his cap, and banged
the door. Memories swept back upon Jeannette, memories of another
motor-car, a taxi-cab, and another “starter” who had banged shut an
automobile door upon the two of them, and of a night pulsing with high
emotions, hopes and young love. Her little excited mother with her
pendent, trembling cheeks, dressed in her lavender velvet, had been
with them on that other night, and she had sat beside her daughter
where Martin now was sitting, and Martin had occupied the small
collapsible seat opposite, and had balanced himself there with his
knees uncomfortably hunched up, to keep his feet out of the way!

“... what we call the _Parrott_ Convertible; it’s just out this year,”
Martin was explaining. “You see with a little manipulation of the glass
windows and seats you can turn it from a limousine into a Sedan and
drive it yourself.”

“How clever!” she said. “You know, Martin, it delights me to think of
your being so successful. It was coming to you. You were born to be a
good salesman, and I’m glad you’ve gotten into a line of business where
your talents count for something. You were entirely out of your element
with that Engraving Company; they didn’t begin to appreciate you.”

“They didn’t, did they? That younger Gibbs,--Herbert Gibbs,--he was
certainly a little rat, if there ever was one. You know I had a
terrible row with him after--after....”

“And I’m glad, too,” proceeded Jeannette hastily, “that you’ve married
again and ’ve got your son and daughter. You were always crazy about
children. Remember how you used to rave about Alice’s Etta and Ralph
when they were babies?”

“You bet you. How are----?”

“And then you were much too fine and too good for that Cohasset Beach
crowd----”

“They were a bunch of good scouts, all right.”

“Weren’t they?” Jeannette said veering quickly. “Every one of them has
made good. Steve Teschemacher’s quite wealthy.”

“Tell me about him,--tell me about ’em all. Say, do you ever go down to
Cohasset Beach any more?”

“Oh, yes; frequently. Alice and Roy bought there, you know.”

“The deuce they did! You don’t mean to say so? Well, say, Jan, who’s
living in the bungalow? ... Say, Janny, I often think....”

They were busy in reminiscences, interrupting one another, laughing,
ejaculating, now and then arrested by a memory that was not altogether
mirth-provoking and unexpectedly stirred them. At times Martin swayed
in his seat and pounded his knee.

“By God!” he would shout gleefully, “by God, I’d forgotten that!--by
God, that was a hot one, all right! Say,--that had gone completely out
of my mind. You’re a wonder for remembering little things, Jan! ... By
golly!”

The car rolled smoothly out over the paved highway that circled through
the hills. Large, handsome houses with lights shining here and there
from windows, and surrounded by tall, gaunt, leafless trees, alternated
on either side of the road and fled past. Their own vehicle was but one
link in a long chain of nimble bugs with glowing antennæ which crawled
hard upon one another along the winding course.

There came an abrupt turn, the motor car swung up a steep driveway,
slid on to crunching gravel, and stopped.

“Here we are!” exclaimed Martin. The chauffeur leaped from his seat and
attentively opened the car door.

A large frame house of gracious lines, with exterior stone chimneys,
many windows, and a precipitous lawn that swept down to the roadway a
hundred feet or more below.

“We get a splendid view of the valley here,” said Martin, coming to
stand beside Jeannette as she looked out across the country. The
landscape was shrouded in dusk, pricked with a myriad of lights;
there was a jagged silhouette of distant tree-tops and beyond a pale,
mother-of-pearl sky touched faintly with dying pink.

They turned to the house and as Martin stooped to insert his latch-key
there was the quick run of small feet within, the door was flung open
and a little girl hurled herself upon him with a violent silent hug.

“Well, well,” said Martin, “how’s my darling?” He kissed her with equal
vigor, his hat knocked at an angle upon his head.

“This is ‘Tinker,’” he said, smiling at Jeannette. “Everybody calls
her ‘Tinker,’ but her real name’s ‘Elizabeth.’ Where’s your brother,
Tinker?”

An answering clatter and rush came from an interior region, and a small
boy flung himself upon the man.

“And this is Joe, Janny. He has a nickname, too; sometimes we call him
‘Josephus,’--don’t we, old blunderbuss?”

There was another vigorous embrace.

The two children regarded Jeannette with shy but friendly glances. The
little girl was about nine, the boy two or three years younger. Tinker
was brown of skin and brown of eye; her hair was short and tawny and
swept off her face in an old-fashioned way, held back by an encircling
comb that reached from one temple to the other. She was freckled and
had an alert, engaging expression, while her brown eyes were sharp as
shoe buttons, and twinkled between long tawny eyelashes. Simply, she
approached Jeannette and held up her brown arms as she offered her
lips. The boy was diminutive and wiry with furtive glance and grinning
mouth that displayed a gaping hole left by two missing front teeth.
He hung his head as he held out his small hand, but as Jeannette took
it, he darted a quick upward look into her face and gave her a friendly
elfish grin.

Jeannette was moved, captivated at once by the charm of both.

“They’re darlings!” came involuntarily from her, and then there was the
sound of descending feet upon the stairs and Jeannette straightened
herself from the crouching position in which she had greeted the
children to face their mother.

“A pretty woman--and sweet--younger than I expected,” went Jeannette’s
thoughts; “nothing to fear here.”

Ruthie was in truth a pretty woman, pretty without being either
beautiful or handsome. Her expression was bright, alert, eager, her
manner friendly and effusive. She resembled her small son.

“This is Ruthie, Jeannette----” began Martin.

“How do you do?” said Ruthie, hurrying forward, leaving no doubt of her
cordiality. “It was very nice of you to come to us to-night.”

“Not at all,” Jeannette responded with her best smile. “It was nice of
you to want me.”

“I was anxious to know you,” said Ruthie.

She could afford to be gracious thought Jeannette. She had everything:
the home, the children, money, position,--she had Martin! ... Was it
possible they were really married? Or did Ruthie merely _think_ she was
his wife?

Jeannette was piloted upstairs to a large, pleasant bedroom. The
chairs, the tables, the bureau and chiffonier, the twin beds were all
of bright bird’s-eye maple; rose hangings were at the windows, rose
silk comforters were neatly folded at the foot of each bed, rose shades
on the wall lights diffused a soft rosy radiance. The dressing-table
glittered with silver toilet articles, and Jeannette noticed they
were all monogramed “R.T.D.” Flanking them were large silver-framed
photographs, one of Martin,--a handsome, fierce-looking Martin in
evening dress,--the other of the two children, Tinker with her arm
about her brother. Domesticity radiated everywhere.

“I never looked better,” Jeannette thought consolingly as she caught a
full-length reflection of herself in the long mirror impanelled in the
bathroom door. Her hair pleased her; her high color was most becoming;
she knew herself to be beautiful. She went downstairs, serene and
confident, sure of being able to carry off the evening with lightness
and ease.

“I thought it would be quieter and perhaps a little pleasanter without
the children at table,” said Ruthie brightly as Jeannette joined her,
“so I arranged to give them an early supper, and now Martin’s been
scolding me. He thinks you’ll be disappointed.”

“Oh, it doesn’t matter,” Jeannette murmured.

“Martin’s almost unreasonable about them; he wants them all the time,”
continued Ruthie. “I tell him if he had them on his hands all day,
perhaps he wouldn’t be quite so enthusiastic!” She laughed an amused
little laugh like the twittering of a bird. “He couldn’t be fonder of
them if they were his own,” she added.

There was a moment’s pause.

“You see, I’d lost my first husband before I met Martin,” Ruthie
continued thoughtfully. “My first marriage wasn’t very successful.”

She _did_ think she was married then!

“You were divorced?” asked Jeannette. If there was a barb to the
question it failed in effect.

“No; Mr. Mason was killed. He was--was rather intemperate, and there
was an accident. I met Martin some time afterwards and he was wonderful
to me.”

“You’ve known him long?”

“Let me see. About seven years. Joe was only a baby, and we were living
in Scranton. Martin and I married about a year after my husband’s
death. I was having a very hard time of it; Mr. Mason carried but very
little life insurance and I took up manicuring; I had to; there was no
other way for us to get along.”

She smiled at the last.

He was sorry for her, thought Jeannette; that was the way of it.

“That had been your--your profession formerly?” Jeannette asked with an
innocent air.

“No, I had to learn it,” Ruthie said, unruffled. “I had to do
something. I only did private work, you know.” She cast a quick glance
at Jeannette’s face. “Martin and I didn’t meet in a barber shop!” she
added with a bright laugh.

Jeannette could think of nothing to say to this, so she nodded, and
gazed into the red coals of the grate-fire before which the two women
were standing.

“Here he is!” Ruthie said, suddenly.

Martin’s step could be heard approaching and in a moment he entered the
living-room. Jeannette noticed he had changed into dinner clothes.

“Well, Jan, it’s mighty darned nice to see you here,” he said
advancing, rubbing his hands. He appeared well-groomed, was freshly
shaved, his clothes fitted him to perfection, his thick neck and
swarthy skin seemed clean and wholesome.

“Have a little cocktail?” he suggested. “I’ve got a cracker-jack
bootlegger that brings me the stuff direct from New York,--real old
Gordon! If this damned governor of ours has his way, we’re not likely
to get any more of it. This prohibition stuff makes me sick, doesn’t it
you?”

“It doesn’t bother me, Martin,” Jeannette answered lightly. “I never
drink anything.”

“Well, how about having a little cocktail to-night? Just by way of
celebration? Huh? What d’you say?”

“No-o, thank you, Martin; not to-night. I really never touch it, but
don’t let me stop you two.”

“Ruthie doesn’t drink either. She’s a plumb tee-totaler,--believes in
it! What do you know about that?”

Martin laughed good-naturedly. His mirth had the old-time extraordinary
infectious quality.

“Don’t bother about mixing a cocktail to-night, Martin dear,” Ruthie
said in a persuasive voice. “It takes you so long with the ice and
everything, and dinner’s late, now.”

“I’ll have a little of the straight stuff, then,” he said, still
rubbing his hands in high good humor.

They went together into the dining-room through the double glass doors,
curtained in shirred folds of pink silk. The table was glittering with
polished silverware and sparkling glass; in the center was a low fern
in a metal fern-dish. Martin unlocked a door in the sideboard, took
out a whisky bottle, held it up a moment to the light to inspect the
measure of its contents, and poured himself an inch into a tumbler.

“D’you remember that guy who used always to say ‘Saloon’ when he was
taking a drink?” asked Martin, grinning at Jeannette. “He was a card
all right? ... Well, ‘saloon!’”

He drained the drink in two gulps, followed it with a draught of water,
and sat down, smacking his lips.

A maid appeared, bearing a tureen of soup, and presently passed cheese
straws. Jeannette observed her spotless white bibbed apron and black
dress, and she took note of the fine sprays of celery and olives in
side dishes on the table, twinkling with ice. The dinner proceeded
comfortably,--well-served, well-cooked, stereotyped: a roast of beef,
with potatoes browned in the pan, canned French peas, a salad of
chopped apples and nuts, a dessert of cake and ice-cream. She recalled
with a sharp twinge the “company” dinners she had struggled so hard
to prepare for Martin and his friends, and the effort she had made to
serve him things he liked so as to make him want to stay at home....
Ah, she had tried, she reminded herself, she had really tried hard
to be a good wife to him! ... It was all so much easier for Ruthie;
she had her cook, her waitress, and there was even the chauffeur. So
easy to sit still and merely tell them what to do! ... And Martin? ...
Well, he had matured, he had settled down, was more seasoned, more
reasonable, more disciplined.... She noticed for the first time a
jagged white scar on his right temple; it had not been there when she
had known him!

Throughout dinner he was in the gayest of spirits; Ruthie turned
bright alert eyes from one face to the other; Jeannette felt the last
vestige of constraint slip from her. The talk was all of Tinker and
Josephus, of the good schools of Jenkintown, of motor cars and the
future of the automobile industry, of traffic laws and Philadelphia and
things in general. Every once in awhile a chance remark would sound a
personal note, but the three with one accord would veer away from it
and pursue another topic. There was no telling where rocks of disaster
might be hidden.

But after dinner, when Martin stood before the sucking coal fire in the
living-room, stirring his coffee, a fresh cigar tilted up in the corner
of his mouth, his head twisted to one side to avoid the smoke, it was
evident the moment had arrived when he wanted to hear news of his old
friends and start recalling old times. Tinker and her brother presented
themselves to say good-night and their mother made them an excuse for
leaving her husband and her guest together.

“She’s far smarter than one would ever suspect from that affected
bright expression,” thought Jeannette smiling at the children as they
tumbled themselves out of the room.

Ruthie did not reappear until nearly ten o’clock, and then came in with
many apologies for having been detained. Martin, by that time, had
heard all the news, had heard of Roy and Alice, of poor unfortunate Doc
French, of ’Dolph Kuntz, and Fritz and Steve, and even of some of the
changes in the publishing company which interested him. He was far from
satisfied, however, and wanted to go over it all once more.

“Say, do you remember that night, Jan, you and I and that Scotch friend
of yours and that awful fright he took along with him had dinner up on
the Astor roof? What became of that guy?”

And----

“D’you ’member that time we got stuck out in the Sound aboard the
Websters’ yacht? ... Say, do they have any more racing down there? ...
What’s become of all the little A-boats?”

But Jeannette knew the time for leave-taking had come. She rose smiling.

“I’m sorry, Martin; I shall have to say good-night. I really must be
going. My day’s very full to-morrow.”

He was loud in protest, a little unnecessarily loud, Jeannette thought.
She tried to dissuade him from accompanying her back to the hotel, but
he insisted.

“I wouldn’t _think_ of you riding back all by yourself, Jan! That
wouldn’t do at all. The car’s right here; the man’s waiting. He’ll run
me in and run me out again in less than an hour; I’ll be home again in
no time.”

Ruthie urged, too.

“Oh, yes,” she insisted brightly. “You must let Martin take you back to
town; it won’t hurt him a bit, and you two have such a lot to talk over
together about old times and everything.”

The little woman’s face was wreathed with smiles; she was confident,
solicitous. She was sure of herself; sure of Martin; her concern had
every semblance of sincerity. Jeannette felt baffled, vaguely irritated.

The two women said good-night to one another with appropriate phrases
and amiability. Ruthie stood in the shining arch of the doorway as the
motor car swept up to the steps, crunching on the fine gravel of the
drive, and Jeannette and Martin got in. She even managed a little wave
of the hand as its door slammed and the car started.

Jeannette hated her. It was impossible to guess what thoughts were
behind that alert expression of innocent pleasure.

“You’ve come on in the world, Martin,” she observed.

“Yes, I’ve made a little money, but I’m going to make more,--a good
deal more. You know, I often think of the old man and the old woman up
there in Watertown settling down forty, or I guess it’s fifty, years
ago, to running that little grocery business of theirs, and I can’t
help wishing sometimes they were round to see how good I’ve made.
They’d get an eyefull, all right! But I’ve worked for my success,
Jan,--that is, I’ve worked hard the last five years. You know I was
down and out for awhile?”

“Were you? I didn’t know that. How did that happen?”

Martin cleared his throat and twisted a little in his seat so as to
talk more directly at her.

“I was pretty badly cut-up, Jan, when you ran out on me!”

“Were you?”

“You bet I was, and I began hitting her up there for awhile; I let
things go to the devil and I was boozing a good deal. There were two or
three years there when I wasn’t much better than a bum.”

“Martin!”

“Well, I was sore at the world,--and sore, I guess, at you. Yes, pretty
damn sore. You know, Jan, I didn’t think you treated me quite right,
and then I blamed myself an awful lot for the way I treated you.”

“It was too bad,” Jeannette said slowly. “I think maybe we were both
wrong. We were very young and inexperienced, Mart.”

“Yes, that’s right. We pulled the wrong way.”

“I’m sorry you took it so badly. I didn’t feel extra good about it
myself. I’ve often wished since....”

“Oh, there’s no use going over the old ground now. It’s all over and
done with, but I was mighty fond of you, Janny.”

“Don’t, Martin.”

“You bet I was. I took it pretty hard when you left me; I didn’t care
what happened to me.”

“I’m sorry. It wasn’t easy for me either. If you’d only come back,--or
sent word....”

“You don’t understand, Jan. I was down and out then. I had nothing to
offer you. I’d punched Gibbsy’s face and I’d lost my job and I was
driving a truck,--that is, when I was working at all.”

“Martin!”

“Oh, what’s the use of going back over old times!” he said with sudden
harshness. “You’ve changed and I’ve changed. I’m married now,--got a
home and family,--and I’m happy, Jan. Ruthie’s a good little woman.”

“When did you marry, Mart?”

“In--let’s see!--in 1917; just before we got into the war. I got a
job as a salesman in an automobile agency in Scranton. Tinker and her
mother were living next door to my boarding-house; it was Tinker that
caught my eye first; she and I used to have great times together; I was
crazy about that kid, and then I met Ruthie.”

“And after that you were married?”

“Well, not right away. I had to get free first. You were awfully decent
about not contesting the suit, Jan, but then I was pretty sure you
wouldn’t.”

“And was there a suit?”

“Why, sure. I got a decree in New York. They gave it to me. You never
showed up.”

“I don’t remember,” said Jeannette vaguely.

“You were served with a summons; we had the testimony of the process
server! You let the case go by default.”

“Did I? ... I can’t ... I don’t seem to remember. What were the
grounds? I thought in New York State you had to prove----”

Martin leaned forward in his seat and stared at her through the dimness
in the car, trying to see her face.

“Say, what is this?” he asked. “Are you trying to kid me,--rub it in,
or something like that?”

“No, Martin,” she answered earnestly. “I don’t know what you’re talking
about. I never supposed we’d been divorced.”

“Good God! Did you think we were still married?”

“Why, certainly.”

The man dropped back against the upholstery with a short explosion of
breath.

“Tell me about it, Martin.”

“You make it damned hard, Jan. If you’re trying to rub it in, you’re
certainly doing a nifty job.”

“No, Martin, truly. I’m quite honest.”

He was silent and Jeannette had to plead again for enlightenment.

“I don’t understand this,” he said, troubled.

“But tell me. I want to know.”

“Well, you know I was damned sore at you,” he began at length. “I
wanted to get married; Ruthie, Tinker and the baby needed me. She was
up against it and was having a tough time trying to make ends meet. I
wanted to help out but she wouldn’t let me and the only thing for it
was to get married. So I went to a lawyer there in Scranton and asked
him if he’d fix it so I could get a divorce from you. He got in touch
with a firm in New York and they dug up all that rot about you and
Corey----”

“Oh, my God!” gasped Jeannette in a whisper.

“Oh, I knew it was the bunk; you’d told me the story and I knew you’d
given me the straight dope. But there was the evidence and the sworn
affidavits of the hotel employees that Corey’s wife had secured. It
made enough of a case. I’m damned ashamed of it now, Jan. I wish to
God, I’d never done it, but I was sore, remember, and I wanted to get
married to Ruthie.”

There was painful silence in the swaying car. Jeannette sat very still,
two fingers of each hand pressed against either cheek.

“I was pretty certain you’d let it go by default,” Martin went on after
awhile in a distressed voice. “It was no case you’d want to contest,
and I thought you probably wanted your freedom as much as I did.... I
thought surely you’d married long ago.”

Silence reigned again, Jeannette struggling with herself, Martin
concerned at her voicelessness.

“By God, Jan, I thought you knew all about it,--I swear to God I did!
The process server stated in court he’d handed you the summons, and
saw you pick it up; I heard him say it with my own ears. The referee
warned him about perjury, thought he smelled collusion, or something of
that sort; he ragged me something fierce.... It was rotten the way it
turned out, for the case came up right after your friend Corey died,
and I felt pretty mean blackening a man’s character when he wasn’t more
’an cold in his grave, ’specially as I knew it was a frame-up.”

A pent-up breath escaped Jeannette like a moan. A scene flashed before
her mind: a dark street,--the street just in front of the office--it
was late and the crowd of clerks and workers was pouring out of the
doorway, hurrying homeward with gravity in their hearts and the news
on their lips that Chandler B. Corey, the president of the company,
had that day dropped dead at his desk. And among these sobered men
and women walked herself, shocked and shaken, trying to realize that
the best friend she had in the world was gone, and would never be at
hand again to advise her nor be interested in what befell her. As she
stepped into the street a man in a slouch hat confronted her, demanding
to know if she was Mrs. Martin Devlin, thrust a folded paper at her,
and disappeared. She remembered drawing back, frightened and affronted,
and after the man had made off, rescuing the paper from the sidewalk at
her feet where it had fallen. It was dark in the street,--too dark to
read. She recalled holding the paper up to decipher what was printed on
the first page, and then, indifferent, her heart and mind heavy with
the tragedy of the day, had thrust it into her muff and sorrowfully
made her way homeward. Days later, when she remembered the incident
and searched her muff, the paper had disappeared. It had fallen out; it
was gone; and she dismissed the matter from her mind.

Now she realized the folded paper had been the summons bidding her come
to court to defend herself against calumny, and to show reason why
Martin Devlin should not be free to take unto himself another wife!

Suddenly something very precious died within her dismally. The
excitement of the night dwindled and departed; the piquancy of her
adventure drooped and faded; her interest in a situation that had up to
that minute stirred pulse and imagination, shrivelled and evaporated.
She was weary and bored; she felt disgusted and sick; she wanted to
be quit of the whole affair, of smiling, alert, complacent Ruthie, of
the homely, clumsy children, of this sleek, fat, selfish man beside
her! ... Ah, she had been a fool ever to think ... ever to imagine....
A woman of her position, sensible, capable, independent,--stout,
settled, middle-aged and gray! ... Oh, it was detestable,--it was
humiliating,--_insufferable_!

They were at the hotel.

“You don’t want to let what I told you bother you, Jan. I never stopped
to think how you’d feel about it. And you want to remember that those
things never get out; they’re all kept strictly Q.T. It happened six or
seven years ago and there isn’t a soul--Here, I’m coming in with you.”

“You needn’t bother, Martin.”

“That’s all right. I’ll see you inside.”

They moved through the revolving glass doors and mounted the steps into
the brilliant lobby.

“Well, it’s been great to see you, and I surely have enjoyed talking
over old times. By God, it’s been a great evening.”

“Yes, indeed. It’s been very amusing.”

“I’m awfully glad you looked me up.... And say, Jan, you like Ruthie,
don’t you? Don’t you think she’s a nice little woman? Not your style
exactly,--no side, or anything like that,--but she’s a damned agreeable
little person, hey? ... You’re not sore at me now, are you, for that
rotten trick I played on you? I’d never have done it if it had been
up to me. It was the lawyers, you know. They dug up the story and put
it over. I’d never have done it,--I swear to God, Jan, I wouldn’t!
I’m--I’m sorry as the devil, now; by God, I am!”

“Let’s not talk about it, Martin; it’s all past and forgotten.”

“Well, that’s damned white of you, Jan,--damned white! I always said
you were a sensible woman.”

Jeannette turned and held out her hand.

“Aw, say,” Martin protested, “aren’t you going in to the café with me
and have some ginger ale or something? I hate to say good-night so
soon. There’s a lot of things I want to ask you. I’d like to keep this
evening going forever.”

But Jeannette’s one desire was to end it. She wanted her room, to have
the door shut and locked behind her, to be alone.

“I’m sorry, Martin----”

“Just a small glass of ginger ale?” he pleaded.

“Thank you, no, Martin; I think I’d better go up.”

“Well, am I not to see you again? You’re not going, until Sunday, are
you?”

“I shall be busy to-morrow; I’m engaged all day.”

“How about to-morrow night?”

“I’m not free then either.”

A frown settled on the man’s face.

“Damn it ...” he began disgustedly. She continued to smile pleasantly
but offered no suggestion.

“Well, I’ll see you in New York some time soon,” he asserted finally;
“I have to go up there once in awhile.”

“Yes, do that,” Jeannette said without enthusiasm.

“I’ll ’phone you? I’ll give you a ring at the office.”

“Yes, do that,” she repeated.

“Well, then, I guess I’d better say good-night.”

“Good-night, Martin.”

She turned toward the elevators, giving him a nod and a brief smile
over her shoulder. As the gate of the cage slid shut, she caught
another glimpse of him, standing where she had left him, perplexed,
frowning, disconsolate,--staring after her.


§ 6

The train was crowded. Jeannette had chosen one at midday, thinking
to have her lunch in the dining-car and so beguile away part of the
tedium of the trip. It was Saturday; she had decided to return home at
once rather than wait until Sunday; there was nothing to hold her in
Philadelphia and she was anxious to get back to the little apartment in
Waverly Place. Many other travellers had apparently conceived the same
idea of having the noon meal on the way, and Jeannette discovered there
were no seats left in the chair-car, so she was obliged to share one
in a day coach with a short, plump lady with a prominent bust and short
fat arms who sat up very straight beside her and wheezed audibly at
every breath. Jeannette’s heavy suit-case was stowed in front of her,
and pressed uncomfortably against her knees, while there was no place
for her hat-box except in the aisle where it was stumbled over and
cursed by every passing passenger. There were cinders embedded in the
plush covering of the seat, the car was badly ventilated and smelled
of warm, crowded humanity. At Trenton, feeling dirty and dishevelled,
she made a swaying progress toward the dining-car only to find twenty
people ahead of her. Disheartened, she returned to her seat, concluding
to wait until she reached the city before she lunched. Perhaps she
would go directly home and persuade Beatrice to make her some tea and
toast.

The day was leaden, the country forlorn and dreary; the trees stood
bare and black upon bare and blackened ground; the houses seemed
cold, desolate and grimy. It began to rain as the train slowed down
through smoky Newark, and long diagonal streaks of water slashed the
dirty window-panes. Waiting travellers on platforms huddled under
station sheds or bent their heads and umbrellas against the sharp
wind and driving drops as they struggled toward the cars. The train
grew steadily more crowded; people stood in the aisles, swayed and
were pitched against those in the seats. Jeannette’s head began to
ache dully and at every knock or kick her offending hat-box received
she winced as though struck. In the tube beneath the Hudson River,
the train came to a standstill and there was a long wait; women grew
nervous, and a man said in a loud, laughing voice to a neighbor:

“Say, Bill, it’d be some pickings, all right, if the river came in on
us while we were stuck here.”

“Oh, Jesus Mary!” gasped the woman next to Jeannette, and for some
minutes the wheeze of her breathing rose to a higher key.

Finally, with much whirring, jerking and dancing of lights, the train
rolled into the Pennsylvania Station.

“I’ll go home and get into bed, and Beatrice will bring me some tea and
toast,” Jeannette whispered to herself, cramped and weary, fighting the
pain in her head that grew steadily worse. She stumbled into a taxi-cab
and went bumping and racketing down Seventh Avenue. The rain was now
coming down in a forest of lances, and was driven in through the
three-inch opening at the top of one of the windows. Jeannette tried
to close it; her attempt was pitiful. The taxi skidded violently into
Eighth Street and she was thrown to her knees, her hat jammed against
the opposite side of the car.

“That’s all right, lady; nothin’ happened!” yelled the driver.

“In five minutes!” breathed Jeannette, one hand pressed hard against
her breast.

Ah, here she was! Here she was, at last!

Her fingers shook as she fumbled with the key to the street door.

“Thank you, so much,” she said to the taxi-driver who brought her bags
up to the landing. She handed him his fare. “Keep the change; I can
manage the rest.”

Inside, she grasped her luggage with either hand, and resolutely
mounted the two long flights of stairs, forcing herself to go to the
top without pausing. She was panting, then, her head splitting.

She tried the apartment door; it was locked.

“Beatrice! Beatrice!” she called, rapping impatiently upon the panels.

A faint mewing came to her ears. There was no other answer.

“Oh, God,--she’s out!” Her cry was almost a sob. Of course! it was
still the Thanksgiving vacation; Beatrice would be with her cousins in
Plainfield; she wouldn’t be home until Sunday night!

Jeannette fumbled for her door-key. There was little light and she was
obliged to kneel before she could find the hole in the lock. With a
gasp she finally threw open the door and stumbled into the flat. It was
cold, unaired, deserted. Mitzi, tail on end, welcomed her with shrill,
complaining cries.

“Oh, you baby you,” Jeannette said aloud, blinking through her own
distress and eyeing the cat. “You’ve been shut up in here since the day
before yesterday and you’re just about starving.”

Mitzi confirmed this with a wail. Jeannette scooped the animal up with
a long arm and carried her into the kitchen. It was cold and bleak in
here, too, smelling foully of Mitzi’s incarceration.

A groan was wrung from Jeannette’s lips.

In the ice-box she found only a bowl half full of pickled beets, a
plate of butter, two rather shrivelled bananas, and a few pieces of
dried toast. She clapped the kettle on the stove, lighted the gas, and
stood caressing the cat until the water had warmed; then she moistened
the toast and set it in a soup plate on the floor.

“Here, you poor critter, eat that until I get you something decent.”
Mitzi leaped at the meal, jerking the food into her mouth, growling
gluttonously.

Jeannette put her fingers to her head and watched the performance,
breathing hard.

“I must,” she said aloud. “It won’t kill me.”

She went into her own room, laid aside her fur coat, put on an old
mackintosh and felt hat, once more went out into the rain, and
presently dragged herself up the stairs again with a bottle of milk and
a bag of provisions.

Her temples throbbing and little streaks of pain darting through her
eyeballs, she moved resolutely through the next few minutes. While the
kettle was heating, she got herself into her kimona, and braided her
hair. Then she returned to the kitchen, mixed a large bowl of bread
and milk for the cat, and dutifully made herself tea which she drank,
munching between sips some saltine crackers warmed in the oven.

Peace gradually descended upon her. Mitzi, replete and satisfied,
licked milk-stained whiskers, and eyed her comfortably from the floor.
The pain in Jeannette’s head was less violent, but she was very cold.

“I’ll get a hot-water bottle and go to bed,” she said. “I think I’ll go
crazy if I keep on this way.”

She proceeded to her room, made her bed, then commenced to unpack her
bags and put away her things. When she was about finished, she came
upon the fur coat where she had left it on a chair. She picked it up
and stared at it, observing its brilliant silk lining, its smooth,
plushy surface, the soft texture of its fur collar. Suddenly she flung
it from her into a far corner on the floor, and for a moment stood a
tragic figure with clenched hands, flashing eyes and heaving breast.

There was a diversion,--a sound close at hand that startled her. Mitzi
had jumped on the bed, and was gazing up at her with head twisted to
one side, glassy eyes fixed inquiringly upon her face, long tail alert,
the tip waving gently. The cat opened her mouth and mewed plaintively.
Jeannette relaxed, gathered the animal into her arms, and slowly sank
down upon the bed. Mitzi, nestling comfortably against her, began
to purr rhythmically. A slow trembling came to the woman, and her
fingers shook as they stroked Mitzi’s back. She fought desperately to
check the gathering tempest within her, and for a moment struggled
with firm pressed lips and shut teeth as the tears welled up into
her eyes, rolled down her cheeks, and splashed upon her hand. Then
suddenly the floodgates of her heart burst, grief overwhelmed her, and
she sank sideways on the bed, carrying the cat to her neck, cuddling
and stroking it, while burying her face against the soft fur, and
passionately sobbing:

“Oh, Mitzi--Mitzi! I love you so--I love you so!”


THE END



Transcriber's Notes:


  A number of typographical errors have been corrected silently.

  Second section numbered 11 of Chapter II of Book II renumbered to
  section 12.

  Table of Contents was augmented with chapter numbers.



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