Title: The Cabala
Author: Wilder, Thornton Niven
Language: English
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THE CABALA



_By_

THORNTON NIVEN WILDER



_NEW YORK_

ALBERT & CHARLES BONI

1926



_To my friends at the American Academy
in Rome, 1920-1921_



_The Cabala_

Book One: First Encounters

Book Two: Marcantonio

Book Three: Alix

Book Four: Astrée-Luce and the Cardinal

Book Five: The Dusk of the Gods



BOOK ONE: FIRST ENCOUNTERS


The train that first carried me into Rome was late, overcrowded and
cold. There had been several unexplained waits in an open field, and
midnight found us still moving slowly across the Campagna toward the
faintly-colored clouds that hung above Rome. At intervals we stopped at
platforms where flaring lamps lit up for a moment some splendid
weather-moulded head. Darkness surrounded these platforms, save for
glimpses of a road and the dim outlines of a mountain ridge. It was
Virgil's country and there was a wind that seemed to rise from the
fields and descend upon us in a long Virgilian sigh, for the land that
has inspired sentiment in the poet ultimately receives its sentiment
from him.

The train was overcrowded, because some tourists had discovered on the
previous day that the beggars of Naples smelt of carbolic acid. They
concluded at once that the authorities had struck a case or two of
Indian cholera and were disinfecting the underworld by a system of
enforced baths. The air of Naples generates legend. In the sudden exodus
tickets for Rome became all but unprocurable, and First Class tourists
rode Third, and interesting people rode First.

In the carriage it was cold. We sat in our overcoats meditating, our
eyes glazed by resignation or the glare. In one compartment a party
drawn from that race that travels most and derives least pleasure from
it, talked tirelessly of bad hotels, the ladies sitting with their
skirts whipped about their ankles to discourage the ascent of fleas.
Opposite them sprawled three American Italians returning to their homes
in some Apennine village after twenty years of trade in fruit and
jewelry on upper Broadway. They had invested their savings in the
diamonds on their fingers, and their eyes were not less bright with
anticipation of a family reunion. One foresaw their parents staring at
them, unable to understand the change whereby their sons had lost the
charm the Italian soil bestows upon the humblest of its children, noting
only that they have come back with bulbous features, employing barbarous
idioms and bereft forever of the witty psychological intuition of their
race. Ahead of them lay some sleepless bewildered nights above their
mothers' soil floors and muttering poultry.

In another compartment an adventuress in silver sables leaned one cheek
against the shuddering windowpane. Opposite her a glittering-eyed matron
stared with challenging persistency, ready to intercept any glance the
girl might cast upon her dozing husband. In the corridor two young army
officers lolled and preened and angled for her glance, like those
insects in certain beautiful pages of Fabre, who go through the ritual
of flirtation under futile conditions, before a stone, merely because
some associative motors have been touched.

There was a Jesuit with his pupils, filling the time with Latin
conversation; a Japanese diplomat reverently brooding over a
postage-stamp collection; a Russian sculptor sombrely reading the bony
structure of our heads; some Oxford students carefully dressed for
tramping, but riding over the richest tramping country in Italy; the
usual old woman with a hen and the usual young American, staring. Such a
company as Rome receives ten times a day, and remains Rome.

My companion sat reading a trodden copy of the London Times, real estate
offers, military promotions and all. James Blair after six years of
classical studies at Harvard had been sent to Sicily as archaeological
adviser to a motion picture company bent on transferring the body of
Greek mythology to the screen. The company had failed and been
dispersed, and Blair thereafter had roamed the Mediterranean, finding
stray employment and filling immense notebooks with his observations and
theories. His mind brimmed with speculation: as to the chemical
composition of Raphael's pigments; as to the lighting conditions under
which the sculptors of antiquity wished their work to be viewed; as to
the date of the most inaccessible mosaics in Santa Maria Maggiore. Of
all these suggestions and many more he allowed me to make notes, even to
the extent of copying some diagrams in colored inks. In the event of his
being lost at sea with all his notebooks--a not improbable one, as he
crosses the Atlantic on obscure and economical craft, not mentioned in
your paper, even when they founder--it would be my confusing duty to
make a gift of this material to the Librarian of Harvard University
where its unintelligibility might confer upon it an incomputable value.

Presently discarding his paper, Blair decided to talk: You may have come
to Rome to study, but before you settle down to the ancients you see
whether there aren't some interesting moderns.

There's no PhD. in modern Romans. Our posterity does that. What moderns
do you mean?

Have you ever heard of the _Cabala_?

Which one?

A kind of a group living around Rome.

No.

They're very rich and influential. Everyone's afraid of them. Everybody
suspects them of plots to overturn things.

Political?

No, not exactly. Sometimes.

Social swells?

Yes, of course. But more than that, too. Fierce intellectual snobs, they
are. Mme. Agoropoulos is no end afraid of them. She says that every now
and then they descend from Tivoli and intrigue some bill through the
Senate, or some appointment in the Church, or drive some poor lady out
of Rome.

Tchk!

It's because they're bored. Mme. Agoropoulos says they're frightfully
bored. They've had everything so long. The chief thing about them is
that they hate what's recent. They spend their time insulting new titles
and new fortunes and new ideas. In lots of ways they're mediæval. Just
in their appearance for one thing. And in their ideas. I fancy it's like
this: you've heard of scientists off Australia coming upon regions where
the animals and plants ceased to evolve ages ago? They find a pocket of
archaic time in the middle of a world that has progressed beyond it.
Well, it must be something like that with the Cabala. Here's a group of
people losing sleep over a host of notions that the rest of the world
has outgrown several centuries ago: one duchess' right to enter a door
before another; the word order in a dogma of the Church; the divine
right of kings, especially of Bourbons. They're still passionately in
earnest about stuff that the rest of us regard as pretty antiquarian
lore. What's more, these people that hug these notions aren't just
hermits and ignored eccentrics, but members of a circle so powerful and
exclusive that all these Romans refer to them with bated breath as The
Cabala. They work with incredible subtlety, let me tell you, and have
incredible resources in wealth and loyalty. I'm quoting Mme.
Agoropoulos, who has a sort of hysterical fear of them, and thinks
they're supernatural.

But she must know some of them personally.

Of course she does. So do I.

One isn't afraid of people one knows. Who's in it?

I'm taking you to meet one of them tomorrow, this Miss Grier. She's
leader of the whole international set. I catalogued her library for
her,--oh, I couldn't have got to know her any other way. I lived in her
apartment in the Palazzo Barberini and used to get whiffs of the Cabala.
Besides her there's a Cardinal. And the Princess d'Espoli who's mad. And
Madame Bernstein of the German banking family. Each one of them has some
prodigious gift, and together they're miles above the next social
stratum below them. They're so wonderful that they're lonely. I quote.
They sit off there in Tivoli getting what comfort they can from one
another's excellence.

Do they call themselves the Cabala. Are they organized?

Not as I see it. Probably it never occurred to them that they even
constituted a group. I say, you study them up. You ferret it out, the
whole secret. It's not my line.

In the pause that followed, fragments of conversation from the various
corners of the compartment flowed in upon our minds so recently occupied
with semi-divine personages. I haven't the slightest desire to quarrel,
Hilda, muttered one of the English-women. Naturally you made the
arrangements for the trip as best you could. All I say is that that girl
did _not_ clean off the washstand every morning. There were rings and
rings.

And from an American Italian: I says it's none of your goddam business,
I says. Take your goddam shirt the hell outta here. He run, I tell you;
he run so fast you don't see no dust for him he run so.

The Jesuit and his pupils had become politely interested in the postage
stamps and the Japanese attaché was murmuring: Oh, most exclusively
rare! The four-cent is pale violet and when held up to the light reveals
a water-mark, a sea-horse. There are only seven in the world and three
are in the collection of the Baron Rothschild.

Symphonically considered, one heard that there had been no sugar in it,
that she had told Marietta three mornings running to put sugar in it, or
bring sugar, although the Republic of Guatemala had immediately cut
than, a few had leaked out to collectors, and that more musk-melons than
one would have thought possible were sold annually at the corner of
Broadway and 126th Street. Perhaps it was in revulsion against such
small change that the impulse first rose in me to pursue these
Olympians, who though they might be bored and mistaken, had at least,
each of them, "one prodigious gift."

It was in this company then, and in the dejected airs of one in the
morning that I first arrived in Rome, in that station that is uglier
than most, more hung with advertisements of medicinal waters and more
redolent of ammonia. During the journey I had been planning what I
should do the moment I arrived: fill myself with coffee and wine, and in
the proud middle of the night, run down the Via Cavour. Under the hints
of dawn I should behold the tribune of Santa Maria Maggiore, hovering
above me like the ark on Ararat, and the ghost of Palestrina in a soiled
cassock letting himself out at a side door and rushing home to a large
family in five voices; hurry on to the platform before the Lateran where
Dante mixes with the Jubilee crowd; overhang the Forum and skirt the
locked Palatine; follow the river to the inn where Montaigne groans over
his ailments; and fall a-staring at the Pope's cliff-like dwelling,
where work Rome's greatest artists, the one who is never unhappy and the
one who is never anything else. I would know my way about, for my mind
is built upon the map of the city that throughout the eight years of
school and college had hung above my desk, a city so longed for that it
seemed as though in the depth of my heart I had never truly believed I
should see it.

When I arrived finally, the station was deserted; there was no coffee,
no wine, no moon, no ghosts. Just a drive through shadowy streets to the
sound of fountains, and the very special echo of travertine pavements.



During the first week Blair helped me find and fit out an apartment. It
consisted of five rooms in an old palace across the river and within
stone's-throw of the basilica of Santa Maria in Trastevere. The rooms
were high and damp and bad Eighteenth Century. The ceiling of the salone
was modestly coffered and there were bits of crumbling stucco in the
hall, still tinted with faint blues and pinks and gilt; every morning's
sweeping carried off a bit more of some cupid's curls or chips of scroll
and garland. In the kitchen there was a fresco of Jacob wrestling with
the angel, but the stove concealed it. We passed two days in choosing
chairs and tables, in loading them upon carts and personally conducting
them to our mean street; in haggling over great lengths of gray-blue
brocade before a dozen shops, always with a view toward variety in stains
and unravellings and creases; in selecting from among the brisk
imitations of ancient candelabra those which most successfully simulated
age and pure line.

The acquisition of Ottima was Blair's triumph. There was a trattoria at
the corner, a lazy casual talkative wine-shop, run by three sisters.
Blair studied them for a time, and finally proposed to the intelligent
middle-aged humorous one that she come and be my cook "for a few weeks."
Italians have a horror of making long-term contracts and it was this
last clause that won Ottima. We offered to take on any man she
recommended to help her with the heavier work, but she clouded at that
and replied that she could very well do the heavier work too. The
removal to my rooms must have arrived as a providential solution to some
problem in Ottima's life, for she attached herself passionately to her
work, to me, and to her companions in the kitchen, Kurt the police dog
and Messalina the cat. We each winked at the others' failings and we
created a home.

The day following our arrival, then, we called upon the latest dictator
of Rome and found a rather boyish spinster with an interesting and
ailing face, fretful bird-like motions and exhibiting a perpetual
alternation of kindness and irritability. It was nearly six when we
walked into her drawing-room in the Palazzo Barberini and found four
ladies and a gentleman seated a little stiffly about a table conversing
in French. Madame Agoropoulos gave a cry of joy at seeing Blair, the
absent-minded scholar to whom she was so attached; Miss Grier echoed it.
A thin Mrs. Roy waited until something had been dropped into the
conversation about our family connections before she could relax and
smile. The Spanish Ambassador and his wife wondered how on earth America
could get on without a system of titles whereby one might unerrably
recognize one's own people, and the Marquesa shuddered slightly at the
intrusion of two coarse young redskins and began composing mentally the
faulty French sentence with which she would presently excuse herself.
For a time the conversation blew fitfully about, touched with the formal
charm of all conversation conducted in a language that is native to no
one in the group.

Suddenly my attention was caught by a tension in the room. I sensed the
tentatives of an intrigue without being able to gather the remotest
notion of the objectives. Miss Grier was pretending to babble, but was
in reality quite earnest, and Mrs. Roy was taking notes, mentally. The
episode resolved itself into a typical, though not very complicated,
example of the Roman social bargain, with its characteristic set of
ramifications into religious, political and domestic life. In the light
of information received much later, I call your attention to what Mrs.
Roy wanted Miss Grier to do for her; and what Miss Grier asked in return
for her services:

Mrs. Roy had narrow eyes and a mouth that had just tasted quinine; while
she spoke her ear-pendants rattled against her lean clavicles. She was a
Roman Catholic, and in her political activity a Black of the Blacks.
During her residence in Rome she had occupied herself with the task of
bringing the needs of certain American charitable organizations to the
attention of the Supreme Pontiff. Slander attributed a diversity of
motives to her good works, the least damaging of which was the hope of
being named a Countess of the Papal States. The fact is that Mrs. Roy
was pressing audiences in the Vatican with the hope of inducing His
Holiness to commit a miracle, namely to grant her a divorce under the
Pauline Privilege. This consummation, not without precedent, depended
upon a number of conditions. Before taking any such step the Vatican
would ascertain very carefully how great the surprise would be in Roman
Catholic circles; American cardinals would be asked in confidence for a
report on the matron's character, and the faithful in Rome and
Baltimore, without their being aware of it, would be consulted. This
done it would be well to gauge the degree of cynicism or approval the
measure would arouse in Protestants. Mrs. Roy's reputation happened to
be above reproach, and her right to a divorce indisputable (her husband
had offended under every category: he had been unfaithful; he had lapsed
from a still greater faith; and he had become an _animae periculum_,
that is, he had tried to draw her into an irreverent argument over the
liquefaction of the blood of St. Januarius); but the Protestant
_imprimatur_ was needed. Whose opinion would be more valuable for this
purpose than that of the austere directress of the American Colony? Miss
Grier would be approached--and both women knew it--through channels
exquisite in their delicacy and resonance; and if an uncertain note were
sounded from the Palazzo Barberini, the familiar verdict Inexpedient
would be returned to the petitioner, and the question never reopened.

Mrs. Roy having so much to ask from Miss Grier, wanted to know if there
were any service she could render in return.

There was.

No Italian work of art of the classic periods may leave the country
without an enormous export tax. How then did Mantegna's "Madonna between
St. George and St. Helen" ever arrive at the Alumnae Hall of Vassar
College without passing through the customs? It was last seen three
years before in the collection of the poor Principessa Gaeta; it was so
ascribed in the reports of the Minister of Fine Arts for the following
years, in spite of the rumor that it was being offered to the museums of
Brooklyn, Cleveland and Detroit. It changed hands six times, but the
dealers, savants and curators were so taken up with the problem as to
whether or not St. Helen's left foot had been retouched by Bellini (as
Vasari affirms) that it had never occurred to them to ask if it had been
registered at the border. It was finally bought by a mad old Boston
dowager in a lavender wig who, dying, bequeathed it (along with three
spurious Botticellis) to that college with which her vicious spelling
alone would have prevented her association in any capacity save that of
trustee.

The Minister of Fine Arts at Rome had just heard of the donation and was
in despair. When the thing became known his position and reputation
would be gone. All his vast labors for his country (_exempli gratia_: he
had obstructed the disinterment of Herculaneum for twenty years; he had
ruined the facades of twenty gorgeous Baroque churches in the hope of
finding a thirteenth century window; etc., etc.) would avail him nothing
in the storms of Roman journalism. All loyal Italians suffer at the
sight of their art treasures being carried off to America; they are only
waiting for some pretext to rend an official and appease their injured
honor. The Embassy was already in agonies of conciliation. Vassar could
not be expected to give up the picture, nor to pay a smuggler's duty.
Tomorrow morning the Roman editorials would picture a barbarous America
stealing from Italy her very children and references would be made to
Cato, Aeneas, Michelangelo, Cavour and St. Francis. The Senatus Romanus
would sit on every bit of delicate business that America was endeavoring
to recommend to Italian favor.

Now Miss Grier, too, was a trustee of Vassar. She had a flattering
position in the long processions that formed in June among the sun-dials
and educative shrubs. She was ready to pay the fine, but not until she
had placated the city fathers. This could be done by obtaining the
favorable votes of the committee that was to sit that very evening. This
committee was composed of seven members, four of whose votes she already
commanded; the other three were Blacks. For the matter to be dropped in
the interest of the Princess Gaeta a unanimous verdict was necessary.

If Mrs. Roy descended at once to her car, she would have time to drive
to the American College in the Piazza di Spagna and confer with dear
omniscient Father O'Leary. Marvellous are the accoustics of the Church!
Before ten that evening the three Black votes would be decently cast for
conciliation. It was Miss Grier's task over the tea-table to convey this
long exposition to Mrs. Roy and to intimate the ineffable return she,
Miss Grier, would be able to make for any favors. This was complicated
by the necessity of making sure that neither Mme. Agoropoulos nor the
Ambassadress (men don't matter) suspected the least collusion.
Fortunately the Ambassadress could not understand rapid French, and Mme.
Agoropoulos, being sentimental, could be continually distracted from the
main issue by little sops of prettification and pathos.

Miss Grier played these several cards with the economy and precision of
a faultless technique. She had that quality which is a peculiar part of
the genuine that invests great monarchs, and which we see notably in
Elizabeth and Frederick, the power of adjusting threats to just the
degree that stimulates, yet does not antagonize. Mrs. Roy understood at
once what was expected of her. She had been packing committees and
conciliating soured Papal chamberlains and Italian political _dévotes_
these many years; trading in influence was her daily portion. Moreover
joy can exert the happiest sort of influence on the intelligence and she
felt her divorce was at hand. She rose hastily.

Will you excuse me if I run? she murmured. I told Julia Howard I would
call for her at Rosali's. And I have an errand in the Piazza di Spagna.

She bowed to us and fled. What emotion is it that lends wings to such
matter-of-fact feet and blitheness to such thin dispositions? The next
year she married a young French yachtsman, half her age; she settled
down in Florence and gave birth to a son. The Blacks no longer talked
votes when she entered their drawing-rooms. Vassar retains the painting
and in its archives a letter from the Italian Secretary for Foreign
Affairs which reads like a deed of gift. The influence of a work of art
upon the casual passerby is too subtle for determination, but one has
faith to believe that the hundreds of girls who pass beneath the
Mantegna daily draw from it impulses that make them nobler wives and
mothers. At least that is what the Ministry promised the College.

When the others had gone, Miss Grier made a face after them, lowered the
lights and bade us talk about New York. She seemed to take some pleasure
in such exotic company as ourselves, but her mind strayed until suddenly
jumping up, she smoothed out the folds of her gown and bade us hurry
off, dress, and come back to dinner at eight. We were surprised but
equal to it, and dashed off into the rain.

At once I harried Blair for more facts about her. He could give me
little; the portrait of her mind and even of her features lies in the
following account of her ancestry that I made out for myself by reading
between the lines and by studying the photographs of a history of the
Griers, written by a second cousin, for considerations.

It seems that her great-grandfather had gone to New York in 1800,
suffering from ill-health. He took an old house in the country and
intended spending his days like a hermit, studying the prophetic
passages of the Bible and encouraging the multiplication of four pigs
that he had brought across the water in a basket. But his
disposition improving with his affairs, he soon discovered himself to be
married to the heiress of Dawes Corners, Miss Agatha Frehestocken, the
death of whose parents, ten years later, united two farms of
considerable extent. Their children, Benjamin and Anne, were brought up
with such education as fell to them on rainy afternoons at the caprice
of their father. Our Miss Grier's grandfather, a crafty single-minded
country boy, disappeared for many years into a whirlpool of obscure
activity in town, becoming in turn potboy, newspaper devil and
restaurant manager. At last he revisited his parents and forced them to
permit his using their land as security for some railroad investments.
We have his picture at this stage: the daguerreotype of the Dutch yokel
with the protruding lower lip and grinning pugnacious eyes is reproduced
in any history of the great American fortunes. Probably the gentle art
of horsewhipping one's parents was revived that Sunday evening at Dawes
Corners for Anne intimates that she was directed to take her knitting
into the feed-house and sit on sacks until she was recalled. The old
father cursed the son roundly from the imprecatory psalms and had his
curious revenge: the worm of religious introspection was stirred in the
brain of Benjamin Grier and a strain of ill-health in his body. Success
came of it; he became a deacon and a millionaire at about the same time;
he was presently directing five railroads from a wheel-chair. His
parents died in a Washington Square mansion, unforgiving to the end.

Benjamin married the daughter of another magnate, a girl who in another
age and faith would have retired to a convent and eased the poverty of
her mental and spiritual nature in a perpetual flow of damp
unexplainable tears. She bore a sickly son to the world of brownstone, a
son in whom the æsthetic impulse stifled during so many generations of
Griers and Halletts, attained a piteous flowering, a passion for the
operas of Rossini, and for things he fondly took to be Italian, garish
rosaries, the costumes of the peasant of Capri, and the painting of
Domenichino. He married a firm sharp woman, older than himself, who had
deliberately chosen him in the vestry of the Presbyterian Church. They
were incredibly wealthy, with that wealth that increases in the dark
and, untended, doubles in a year. With the affiliation of this
determined Grace Benham one last offspring was made possible to the
Grier line,--our Miss Grier. To the score of governesses that trod
sobbing on one another's heels, she appeared a monster of guile and
virulence. She was dragged without rest from New York to Baden-Baden,
from Vevey to Rome, and back again; and she grew up without forming any
attachment to place or person. Her parents died when she was twenty-four
and finally sheer solitude did what exhortation could not do: her
character softened in an attempt at piteously luring people to talk to
her, live with her, to fill somehow the moneyed emptiness of her days.

Such an account of her extraction, if she read it, would have neither
interested her nor embarrassed her. Her mind lay under the hot breath of
a great fretfulness; she lived to ridicule and insult the fools and
innocents of her social circle. In this fretfulness floated all the
enthusiasms and frustrations of her line: her great-grandfather's gloom,
her grandfather's whip and his dread of the Valley of Bones, her
grandmother's red eyes and her father's repressed loves for the Normas
and Semiramides of the Academy of Music. She was restless too, with the
masculine capacities inherited from her grandfather, the capacities of a
business magnate, that given her sex and situation could find their only
outlet in a passion for making women tremble and a mania for interfering
in the affairs of others. She was with all this a woman of intelligence
and force; she ruled her eccentric and rebellious parish with acrid
pleasure and at her death the drawing-rooms of Rome resounded with a
strange wild murmur of muted joy.

Her portrait is not complete without an account of her strangest habit,
due partly to the sleepless nights of a lifetime of illness, and partly
to the fear of ghosts instilled in her by governesses when she was a
girl. She was never able to sleep until the coming on of dawn. She
feared to be alone; toward one in the morning she could be found urging
her last callers to stay a little longer; _c'est l'heure du champagne_,
she would say, offering them that untimely inducement. When finally they
went away she would devote the rest of the night to music, for like the
German princes of the Eighteenth Century she maintained her own troup of
musicians.

These sessions before dawn were not vaguely and sentimentally musical;
they were to the last degree eclectic. In one night she would hear all
the sonatas of Skriabin or the marches of Medtner; in one night both
volumes of the Well-Tempered Clavichord; all the Handel fugues for
organ; six Beethoven trios. Gradually she won away from the more easily
appreciated music altogether and cultivated only what was difficult and
cerebral. She turned to music that was interesting historically and
searched out the forgotten rivals of Bach and the operas of Grétry. She
paid a group of singers from the Lateran choir to sing her endless
Palestrina. She became prodigiously learned. Harold Bauer would listen
meekly to her directions on phrasing Bach--he averred that she had the
only truly contrapuntal ear of the age--and the Flonzaleys acceded to
her request to take certain pages of Lœffler a little faster.

In time I encountered a number of people who for one reason or another
were unable to sleep between midnight and dawn, and when I myself tossed
sleepless or when I returned late to my rooms through the deserted
streets--at the hour when the parricide feels a cat purring against his
feet in the darkness--I pictured to myself old Baldassare, in the Borgo,
former Bishop of Shantung, Apostolic Visitor to the Far East, rising at
two to study with streaming eyes the Church Fathers and the Councils,
marvelling he said, at the continuous blooming of the rose-tree of
Doctrine; or of Stasia, a Russian refugee who had lost the habit of
sleeping after dark during her experience as nurse in the War, Stasia
playing solitaire through the night and brooding over the jocose
tortures to which her family had been subjected by the soldiers of
Taganrog; and of Elizabeth Grier listening the length of her long
shadowed room to some new work that d'lndy had sent her or bending over
the score while her little troup revived the overture to _Les Indes
Galantes_.


When we remounted the steps an hour later, then, we found the guests
already arrived and awaiting their hostess. Among other privileges Miss
Grier had long reserved to herself a prerogative of royalty, that of
being the last arrival at one's own parties. In the hall the
maître-d'hôtel gave me a note reading: Please take in Mlle de
Morfontaine, a high Merovingian maiden who may invite you to her villa
at Tivoli. In a few moments Miss Grier had slipped in and was greeting
her guests in a hurried zigzag across the room. She was dressed after a
costume-plate by Fortuny, conceived in salamander red and black. About
her neck hung a rare medal of the Renaissance, much larger than any
other woman would have ventured to wear.

As this woman wanted to be in a position to hear every word spoken at
her table Rome had long had good reason to complain of the crowded
arrangements of her dinners; we were packed together like the hurried
diners at Modane. But she had still other conventions to challenge: she
discussed the food; she reversed the direction of conversation from the
right to the left hand at the least convenient opportunities; she talked
to the servants, chattily; she shifted the conversation from French to
English or Italian capriciously; she referred to guests who had been
invited but had not been able to come. One suddenly became aware that
she was not eating the courses that were served to us. She began with a
little bowl of breadcrumbs and walnuts; to this she added later--while
we confronted a _faisan Souvaroff_ dressed with truffles and _foie gras_
and graced with that ultimate dark richness which it is the privilege of
Madeira to confer on game--an American cereal, soaked in hot water and
touched with butter. Nor could she restrain herself from teasing her
guests in a dangerous way, and with almost inspired precision: a
political Duke on his dull speeches; Mrs. Osborne-Cady on the career as
a concert-pianist that she had sacrificed to a more than usually
disappointing home-life. For a moment at the beginning of the meal her
electric eyes paused at my place and she began to murmur ominously, but
thinking better of it she ordered the servant to offer me some more
_œufs cardinal_ adding with a sort of insolence that they were the only
_œufs cardinal_ that one could eat in Europe and that Mémé (the elder
Princess Galitzine) was a little fool to vaunt her chef, who had
received his training in railway-stations, etc., etc.

The high Merovingian maiden at my left was Mademoiselle
Marie-Astrée-Luce de Morfontaine, daughter of Claude-Elzéar de
Morfontaine and Christine Mézières-Bergh; her grandfather Comte Louis
Mézières-Bergh had married Rachel Krantz, the daughter of the great
financier Maxi Krantz and had been the French ambassador to the Vatican
in 1870. She was then, excessively rich, for she owned, they said, more
shares in the Suez Canal than the Rothschilds: She was tall,
large-limbed and bony, without somehow being too thin. Her high white
face, framed between two carnelian ear pendants, recalled some
symbolical figure in a frieze of Giotto, out of drawing, but radiating
gaunt spiritual passions. She had a hoarse voice and a rapt manner, and
for the first ten minutes said many foolish things because her mind was
afar off; one felt vaguely that it would come around in its own time.
This it presently did and with considerable impact. She outlined to me
the whole Royalist movement in France. She seemed to believe as
passionately in its aim as she despised its practice. There can be no
king in France, she cried, until Catholicism has had a great revival
there. France cannot be great save through Rome. We are Latins; we are
not Goths. They are forcing alien systems upon us. Eventually we shall
find ourselves, our kings, our faith, our Latin hearts. I shall see
France return to Rome before I die, she added clasping her hands before
her chin. I replied faintly that both the French and Italian
temperaments seemed to me singularly unrepublican, whereupon she laid
her long pale hand upon my sleeve and invited me to come that week-end
to her villa.

You will hear the whole argument, she said. And the Cardinal will be
there.

I asked which Cardinal? The pain on her face showed me that at least for
the circle in which she moved there were not seventy cardinals, but one.

Cardinal Vaini, of course. The College at present is singularly free of
uninteresting priests, but surely the only cardinal with learning, with
distinction, with charm, is Cardinal Vaini.

I had so often encountered learning, distinction and charm, (to say
nothing of piety) in the lower reaches of the Church that I was shocked
to learn that these qualities were so rare higher up.

Besides she added, what other is friendly to France, the rebellious
daughter? You have not yet met the Cardinal? Such knowledge! And to
think that he will not write! If I may say it without disrespect His
Eminence is afflicted with a sort of--inertia. The whole world is
waiting for an explanation of certain contradictions in the Fathers; he
is the only man who can do it; yet he remains silent. We beg him with
prayers. It is in his power to effect the re-entry of the Church into
literature. Perhaps he might single-handed carry through the cause we
all have so at heart.

I asked shyly what cause this might be.

She turned toward me with some surprise. Why, the promulgation of the
Divine Right of Kings as a dogma of the Church. We hope to have an
Œcumenical Council called for that purpose within the next twenty-five
years. I thought that of course you knew; in fact I assumed that you
were one of our workers.

I replied that I was both an American and a Protestant, an answer that I
felt relieved me of the burden of being a catholic royalist.

Oh, she said, we have many adherents who at first glance would appear to
have no interest in the movement: we have Jews and agnostics, artists,
and, yes, even anarchists.

I now felt quite sure that I was sitting beside an insane person. They
don't lock you up when you have millions, I said to myself. The idea of
trying to collect a Council, in the Twentieth Century, to give crowns a
supernatural sanction and to enroll the sanction among the articles of
obligatory belief, was no mere pious revery; it was lunacy. We were
prevented from returning to the subject that evening, but several times
I found her spacious half-mad glance resting on me with greater
implication of intimacy than I was quite ready to acknowledge.

I will send the car for you at eleven, she murmured as she passed me in
leaving the table. You must come. I shall have a great favor to ask of
you.


On returning to the drawing-rooms I found myself beside Ada Benoni,
daughter of a popular senator. Although she seemed almost too young to
go out in the evening, she had that soft cautious sophistication of well
brought up Italian girls. I asked her almost at once if she would tell
me about the Cabala.

Oh, the Cabala's only some people's joke, she answered. There is no
Cabala, really. But I know what you mean. And the young girl's eyes
carefully estimated the distance between us and the company on all
sides. By Cabala they mean a group of people that are always together
and have a lot in common.

Are they all rich? I asked.

No ... she answered thoughtfully. We mustn't speak so loudly. Cardinal
Vaini can't be rich, nor the Duchess d'Aquilanera.

But they're all intellectual?

The Princess d'Espoli isn't intellectual.

Then what have they in common?

Oh, they haven't anything in common, except ... except that they despise
most people, you and me and my father and so on. They've each got one
thing, some great gift and that binds them together.

Do you believe that they work together and plan trouble here and there?

The girl's forehead wrinkled and she reddened slightly. No, I don't
think they mean to, she said softly.

But they _do_? I insisted.

Well, they sit over there in Tivoli and talk about us and somehow,
without knowing it, they then _do_ something.

How many of them do you know?

Oh, I know all of them a little, she replied quickly. Everybody knows
all of them. Except, of course, the Cardinal. I love them all, too.
They're only bad when they're together, she explained.

Mlle. de Morfontaine has asked me to spend the week-end at her villa in
Tivoli. Will I see them there?

Oh, yes. We call that the hotbed.

Is it all right? Have you any advice to give me before I go?

No.

Yes, you have.

Well, she admitted, drawing her eyebrows together, I advise you to
be ... to be stupid. It's hard. You must expect them to be very cordial at
first. They have a way of getting very excited about people and then
getting tired of them and dropping them. Except every now and then they
find someone they like and they adopt him or her for good, and there's a
new member of the Cabala. Rome's full of people who went through the
rapids and didn't stick. Miss Grier's especially that way. She's just
met you lately hasn't she?

Why, yes,--just this afternoon.

Well, she'll have you around every minute of the day for a while. She's
coming over in a minute to ask you to stay to her midnight supper. She
has famous midnight suppers.

But I can't. I was here to tea and immediately asked to dinner. It would
be ridiculous to stay to midnight....

It's not ridiculous in Rome. You're just getting into the rapids, that's
all. Everybody cultivates their friendships in rushes. It's very
exciting. Don't try and fight against it. If you do that you lose the
best of everything. Do you want to know how I know about your being in
the rapids? Well, I'll tell you. My fiancé was to have come to the
dinner tonight, and an hour before, a note was brought to his house
asking him to come next Friday instead and go to the Opera also. She
does that often and it only means that she has found some new friend she
insists on keeping by her that evening. Of course the second invitation,
the consoling one, is always bigger and more showy than the first, but
we get angry.

I should say so. I'm sorry I was the one to prevent ...

Oh, that's all right, she answered. Vittorio's out waiting for me in the
car now.

So it was that when Blair and I presented ourselves before Miss Grier to
take our leave, she drew me aside with an irresistible vehemence and
standing against my ear said: You are to come back here tonight. There
will be some people in to a late supper whom I want you to meet. You
can, can't you?

I made some show of protest, and the effect was appalling. But, my dear
young man, she cried. I'll have to ask you to trust me. There is
something of the first importance that I want to put to you. The fact is
I have already telephoned a very dear friend of mine.... Please now,
just as a favor to me, put off what you had planned. There's a very
great service we want to ask you.

Of course with that I fairly folded up, as much with surprise as
compliance. Apparently the whole Cabala wanted me to do favors.

Thank you, thank you so much. About twelve.


It was then about ten. Two hours to kill. We were about to go to the
Circus, when Blair exclaimed:

Say, do you mind if I drop in and see a friend of mine for a minute. If
I'm going Tuesday I ought to say goodbye and see how he is. Do you hate
sick people?

No.

He's a nice fellow, but he hasn't long to live. He's published some
verse in England; one of the thousand, you know. It got an awful rap.
Maybe he's quite a poet, but he can't get over that diction. He's
awfully adjectival.

We climbed down the Spanish Steps and turned in at the left. On the
stairs Blair stopped and whispered: I forgot to tell you that he's
watched over by a friend, a sort of water-colourist. They're dead-poor
and it's all they can do to get a doctor. I meant to lend them some more
money--what have you with you?

We assembled a hundred lire and knocked at the door. Receiving no answer
we pushed it open. There was a lamp burning in the further of two mean
rooms. It stood beside a bed and cast its light on the remorseless
details of a barricade built during the last stages of consumption
against a light vaulter; bowls and bottles and stained cloths. The
sleeping invalid was sitting high in bed, his head turned away from us.

The artist must have gone out for a minute to look for some money, said
Blair. Let's stay around a bit.

We went into the other room and sat in the dark looking at the moonlight
that filled the Fountain of the Boat. There were fireworks on the
Pincian Hill in memory of some battle on the Piave and the tender green
of the sky seemed to tremble behind the Chinese blooms that climbed the
night. A friendly tram entered the square at intervals, stopped
inquiringly, and bustled out again. I tried to remember whether Virgil
had died in Rome ... no, buried near Naples. Tasso? Some piercing-sweet
pages of Goethe, the particular triumph of Moissi who brings to them his
wide-open eyes and elegiac voice. Presently we heard a call from the
next room: Francis. Francis.

Blair went in: I guess he's gone out a minute. Can I do something for
you? I'm going in a day or two and I called around to see how much
better you are. Would it tire you if we sat with you a bit? ... Come on
in, say!

For the moment Blair had forgotten the poet's name and our introduction
was slurred over. The sick man looked his extremity, but his fever gave
to his eyes an eager and excited air; he seemed willing to listen or to
talk for hours. My eye fell upon a rough pencilled note that lay on the
table beyond the invalid's reach: Dear Dr. Clarke: he spat up about two
cupfuls of blood at 2 P.M. He complained so of hunger that I had to give
him more than you said. Be back at once. F. S.

Have you been able to write anything lately? Blair began.

No.

Do you read much?

Francis reads to me. He pointed to a Jeremy Taylor on his feet. You're
Americans, aren't you? I have a brother in America. In New Jersey. I was
to have gone over there.

The conversation lapsed, but he kept staring at us, smiling and
bright-eyed, as though it were swift and rare.

By the way, are there any books you'd like us to lend you?

Thank you. That would be fine.

What, for instance?

Anything.

Think of one you'd like especially.

Oh, anything. I'm not particular. Only I suppose it would be hard to
find any translations from the Greek?

Here I offered to bring in a Homer in the original and stammer out an
improvised translation.

Oh, I should like that most of all, he cried. I know Chapman's well.

I replied, unthinking, that Chapman's was scarcely Homer at all, and
suddenly beheld a look of pain, as of a mortal wound, appear upon his
face. To regain control of himself he bit his finger and tried to smile.
I hastened to add that in its way it was very beautiful, but I could not
recall my cruelty; his heart seemed to have commenced bleeding within
him.

Blair asked him if he had almost enough poems for a new book.

I don't think about books any more, he said. I just write to please
myself.

But the insult to Chapman had been working in him; he now turned his
face away and great tears fell upon his hands. Excuse me. Excuse me, he
said. I'm not well, and I seem to ... to do this about nothing.

There was a search for a handkerchief, but none being found he was
persuaded to use mine.

I don't want to go away without seeing Francis, said Blair. Do you know
where I might find him?

Yes, yes. He's around the corner at the Café Greco. I begged him to go
and get some coffee; he'd been here all day.

So Blair left me with the poet, who seemed to have forgiven me and was
ready for the hazards of further conversation. Feeling it was better I
did the talking, I began to discourse upon everything, on the fireworks,
on the wildflowers of Lake Albano, on Pizzetti's sonata, on a theft in
the Vatican library. His face showed dearly what matter pleased him; I
experimented on it, and discovered that he was hungry for hearing things
praised. He was beyond feeling indignant at abuses, beyond humor, beyond
sentiment, beyond interest in any bits of antiquarian lore. Apparently
for weeks together in the wretched atmosphere of the sick-room Francis
had neglected to speak highly of anything and the poet wanted before he
left the strange world to hear some portion of it praised. Oh, I laid it
on. His eyes glowed and his hands trembled. Most of all he desired the
praise of poetry. I launched upon a history of poetry, calling the
singers by name, getting them wrong, assigning them to the wrong ages
and languages, characterizing them with the worn epithets of an
encyclopœdist, and drawing upon what anecdotage I could,--all bad, but
somehow marshalling the glorious throng. I spoke of Sappho; of how a
line of Euripides drove mad the citizens of Abdera; of Terence pleading
with audiences to come to him rather than to the tight-rope walkers; of
Villon writing his mother's prayers before the great picture-book of a
cathedral wall; of Milton in his old age, holding a few olives in his
hand to remind himself of his golden year in Italy.

Quite suddenly in the middle of the catalogue he burst out fiercely: I
was meant to be among those names. I was.

The boast must have revolted me a little and my face have shown it, for
he cried again: I was. I was. But now it's too late. I want every copy
of my books destroyed. Let every word die, die. When I'm dead I don't
want a soul to remember me.

I murmured something about his getting well.

I know more about it than the doctor, he replied, staring at me with
stem fury. I studied to be a doctor. And I watched my mother and brother
die, just as I am dying now.

There was no answer for that. We sat silent. Then in a gentler voice he
said:

Will you promise me something? My things weren't good enough; they were
just beginning to be better. When I am dead I want you to make sure that
Francis does what he promised. There must be no name on my grave. Just
write: Here lies one whose name was writ in water.

There was a noise in the next room. Blair had returned with the
water-colourist. We withdrew. The poet was too sick to see us again and
when I came back from the country he had died and his fame had begun to
spread over the whole world.



BOOK TWO: MARCANTONIO


La Duchessa D'Aquilanera was a Colonna and came from the conservative
wing of a family that cannot forget its cardinalitial, royal and papal
traditions. Her husband had come of a Tuscan house that had received its
illustration by the thirteenth century, was praised in the histories of
Machiavelli and execrated in Dante. Neither family had counted a
misalliance in twenty-two generations, and even in the twenty-third
incurred only such stigma as attaches to marriage with an illegitimate
Medici or a Pope's "niece". The Duchess could never forget--among a
thousand similar honors--that her grandfather's grandfather, Timoleo
Nerone Colonna, Prince of Velletri, had carried many an insulting
message to the ancestors of the present King of Italy, the old but
apologetic house of Savoy; and that her father had refused a Grandeeship
at the court of Spain because it had been withheld from his father; and
that through herself she carried to her son the titles of Chamberlain of
the Court of Naples (if there were one). Prince of the Holy Roman Empire
(if that superb organization had only survived) and Duke of Brabant, a
title which unfortunately reappears among the pretensions of the royal
families of Spain, Belgium and France. She had the best of claims to an
Altesse, and even to an Altesse Royale; at least to the Sérénissime,
for her mother had been the last member of the royal family of
Craburg-Hottenlingen. She had the largest cousinage outside the Buddhist
priesthood. The heralds of the European courts bowed to her with a
particular distinction realizing that by some accident many diverse and
lofty lines converged in her odd person.

She was fifty when I met her, a short, black-faced woman with two
aristocratic wens on the left slope of her nose, yellow, dirty hands,
covered with paste emeralds (an allusion to her Portuguese claims; she
was Archduchess of Brazil, if Brazil had only remained Portuguese), lame
with the limp that pursues the Della Quercia, just as her aunt had been
epileptic with the epilepsy of the true Vani. She lived in a tiny
apartment in the Palazzo Aquilanera, Piazza Aracœli, from the windows
of which she watched the sumptuous weddings of her rivals, ceremonies to
which she had been invited, but dared not attend, foreseeing that she
would be assigned to places that fell below her pretensions; to accept a
humble seat would be to admit that one had relinquished the whole bundle
of vast historic claims. She had left many a great function abruptly on
discovering that her chair was behind some of those Colonna cousins who
had cast away all right to aristocratic distinction by marrying theatre
women or Americans. She refused to be seated behind pillars among
dubious Neapolitan titles--in the shadow of her own family tombs; to be
left among the footmen at the door of a musicale; to be invited at the
eleventh hour; and to be kept waiting in antechambers. For the most part
she clung to her ugly stuffy rooms, brooding on the disregarded glories
of her line and envying the splendors of her richer relatives. The fact
is that from the point of view of a middle-class Italian she was not
really poor; but she was too poor to afford the limousine and livery and
great entertainments; to be without these and yet invested with her
pretensions was to be poorer than the last nameless body fished out of
the Tiber.

Recently however she had begun to receive unexpected and thrilling
recognitions. Little though she went out, when she did appear in
society, her austere face, her majestic limp, and her strange jewels
carried conviction. People were afraid of her. The arbiters of
precedence in Rome dared at last to intimate to the Odescalchi and
Colonna and Sermoneta that this almost shabby little woman whom they
snubbed and shoved like some half-wit poor relation, had every right to
precede them at a formal function. French circles, such as had not lost
all seigneurial deferences under the sponge of republicanism recognized
her ultramontane alliances. She was the first to notice the improvement
in her reception, and if a bit bewildered it did not take her long to
set her sails to the unexpected breeze. She had a son and daughter to
advance and it was for them that she now resolved to immolate her pride.
From the earliest signs of her rehabilitation she forced herself to
sally out into the world, and finding that her stock was higher in the
international colony she stooped distastefully to call upon the American
peeresses and on the South American representatives. Eventually she
found herself at Miss Grier's midnight suppers. The reflection of the
consideration she received in such places finally reached her own people
and she was gradually spared the more obvious humiliations.

It became necessary for her now to drop her former friends, the dull
soured old women, more plaintive than herself, and with less reason,
with whom she had been accustomed to fret away the long afternoons and
evenings behind the drawn blinds of the Piazza Aracœli. She was obliged
likewise to abandon a sordid habit that linked her no less surely to the
previous centuries, namely that of rushing into law-suits. The innate
capacity for affairs which abounded in this woman had found during the
days of her obscurity this extraordinary outlet. She went about scenting
out old claims and deeds, the slips of tradesmen and the subtle
omissions of lawyers. She was always protecting her shyer friends from
imposition, and she was always successful and often made a good deal of
money. She employed obscure boy-lawyers and when she was called upon as
a witness, relying on her distinctions to prevent her being interrupted,
she used the occasion as an opportunity to sum up the whole case. The
middle classes seeing in the morning paper that S. A. Leda Matilda
Colonna duchessa d'Aquilanera was attacking the City of Rome over the
valuation of property near a railroad, or contesting the bill of some
popular stationer or fruiterer on the Corso, suffered willingly the
inconvenience of holding a seat in court for hours in order to see the
malignant resourceful woman and to hear her trenchant sarcasms and her
irresistible accumulation of evidence. Yet her relatives had always
sneered at this passion, failing to see that she represented more
clearly than themselves the qualities that had always gone to
characterize the aristocracy.


It was this woman then whom we confronted when we returned at midnight
for our third engagement that day in the old palace. Supper was served
in a larger, brighter apartment than I had yet seen. As I entered the
huge doorway my eyes fell upon a strange figure that I knew at once must
be a Cabalist. A short, dark, ugly woman, holding a cane between her
knees was staring at me with magnificent fierce eyes. With the bodiced
dress and eagle's head I became aware of her jewels, seven huge lumpy
amethysts strung about her neck on a golden rope. I was presented to
this witch who at once, and by the blackest art, made one like her. On
hearing that Blair was leaving Rome shortly she centered her attention
on me.

For a moment she sat before me, sliding the end of her stick nervously
about on the floor, drawing in her upper lip, and gazing hard into my
eyes. She asked me my age. I was twenty-five.

I am the Duchess d'Aquilanera, she began. What language shall we speak?
I think we will talk English. I do not talk it good, but we must be
plain. It must be so you must understand me quite perfectly. I am a
great friend of Miss Grier. I have often talked over with her a great
problem--a sorrow, my young friend--that is in my home. Suddenly tonight
at seven o'clock she call me up on the telephone and told me she have
found someone who could help me: she mean you. Now listen: I have a son
of sixteen. He is important because he is somebody. How you say?--he is
a personage. We are of a very old house. Our family has been in the
front of Italy, everyone in her triumph and in her trouble. You are not
sympathetic to that kind of greatness in America, not? But you must have
read history, no? ancient times and the middle times and like that? You
must realize how important the great families are ... have always been
to ... countries ...

(Here she grew nervous, and blew several bubbles and expended herself in
those splendid Italian gestures denoting difficulty, perhaps futility,
and resignation before the impossible. I hastened to assure her that I
had great respect for the aristocratic principle.)

Perhaps you have and perhaps you haven't, she said at last. In all
events, think of my son as a prince whose blood contains all sorts of
kings and noble people. Well, now I must tell you he has fallen in bad
ways. Some women have got hold of him and I do not know him any more.
All our boys in Italy go that way when they are sixteen, but
Marcantonio, my god, I do not know what is the matter with him and I
shall go crazy. Now in America you are all descended from your Puritans,
are you not, and your ideas are very different. There is only one thing
to do, and that is: you must save my boy. You must talk to him. You must
play tennis with him. I have talked to him; the priest has talked to
him, and a good friend of mine, a Cardinal, has talked to him and still
he does nothing but go to that dreadful place. Elizabeth Grier says that
most boys in America at your age are just ... naturally ... good. You
are _vieilles filles_; you are as temperate as I do not know what. It's
very strange, if it's true, and I do not think I believe it; at all
events it's not wise. At all events you must talk to Marcantonio and
make him stay away from that dreadful place or we shall go mad. My plan
is this: next Wednesday we are going for a week to our beautiful villa
in the country. It is the most beautiful villa in Italy. You must come
with us. Marcantonio will begin to admire you, you can play tennis and
shoot and swim and then you can have long talks and you can save him.
Now, won't you do that for me, because no one has ever come to you in
such trouble as I have come to you in today?

Hereupon, in sudden fear that all her efforts had been in vain, she
began waving her stick to attract Miss Grier's attention. That lady had
been watching us from a corner of her eye and now came running up. The
Duchess burst into a flood of tears, crying into her pocket
handkerchief: Elisabetta, speak to him. Oh, my god, I have failed. He
not want us and all is lost.

I was divided between anger and laughter and kept muttering into Miss
Grier's ear: I'd be glad to meet him. Miss Grier, but I can't lecture
the fellow. I'd feel like a fool. Besides what would I do with a whole
week....

She's put it to you wrongly, said Miss Grier. Let's not say anything
more about it tonight.

At this the Black Queen began rolling about in her chair, the motions
preparatory to rising. She rammed her stick against my shoe for leverage
on the polished floor and stood up. We must pray to God to find another
way. I am a fool. I do not blame the young man. He cannot realize the
importance of our family.

Nonsense, Leda, said Miss Grier, firmly in Italian. Be quiet a moment.
Then turning to me: Would you like to pass a week-end at the Villa
Colonna-Stiavelli, or not? There's no stipulation about lecturing the
Prince. If you like him, you'll feel like talking to him anyway, and if
you don't like him, you're welcome to leave him alone.

Two Cabalists were begging me to take a glimpse of the most famous of
Renaissance villas, one moreover that was obstinately closed to the
public and that had to be peered at from the road half a mile away. I
turned to the Duchess and bowing low accepted her invitation. Whereupon
she kissed the shoulder of my coat, murmured with a beautiful smile:
Christiano! Christiano! and bidding us good night, passed bowing from
the room.

I shall see you Sunday at Tivoli, said Miss Grier, and tell you all
about it there.

During the next few days my mind lay under the dread of the two
engagements that lay ahead of me: the week-end at the Villa Horace and
the missionary enterprise at the Villa Colonna. I stayed in my rooms,
depressed, reading a little, or took long walks through the Trasteverine
underworld, thinking about Connecticut.

The car that called for me Saturday morning already contained a
fellow-guest. He introduced himself as M. Léry Bogard, adding that
Mlle. de Morfontaine had offered to send for us separately, but that he
had taken the liberty of requesting that we be called for together, not
only because any company in crossing the Campagna is better than none,
but because he had heard many things of me that led him to believe that
we would not be uncongenial. I replied in that language wherein all
courtesy sounds sincere, that the possibility of being congenial to so
distinguished a member of the French Academy and to so profound a
scholar was a greater honor than I dared hope for. These overtures did
not tend to chill the encounter. M. Bogard was a fragile elderly
gentleman, immaculately dressed. His face was delicately tinted by
exquisite reading and expensive food, russet and violet about the eyes,
his cheeks a pale plum from which rose the ivory-white of his nose and
chin. His manner was soft and conciliatory, expressed for the most part
in the play of his eyelids and hands both of which fluttered in unison
like petals about to fall upon the breeze. I spoke hesitantly of the
pleasure I had derived from his works, especially from those pages, so
faintly tinctured with venom, on Church History. But now he cried out at
once: Do not mention them! My early indiscretions! Horrible! What would
I not give to withdraw them. Can that nonsense have reached as far as
America? You must let your friends know, young man, that those books no
longer represent my attitude. Since then I have become an obedient son
of the Church and nothing would give me greater comfort than to hear
that they had been burned.

What may I tell my friends now represents your real views? I asked.

Why read me at all? he cried in mock grief. There are too many books in
the world already. Let us read no more, my son. Let us seek out some
congenial friends. Let us sit about a table (well-spread, pardi!) and
talk of our church and our king and perhaps of Virgil.

My face must have shown a trace of the suffocation I experienced at this
plan of life, for M. Bogard became at once more impersonal. The country
we are traversing now, he said, has known stirring times ... and he
began an instructive travelogue, as though I were some stupid
acquaintance, his hostess' son, and as though he were not, nor ever had
been, a distinguished scholar.

On arriving at the Villa we were met by the steward and shown to our
rooms. The Villa had been a monastery for many years and in purchasing
it Mlle. de Morfontaine had obtained likewise the adjoining church which
still served the peasants of the hillside. She claimed that the Villa
was the very one that Maecenas had given to Horace: local tradition
affirmed it; the foundations were of the best opus reticulatum; and the
location fulfilled the rather vague requirements of classical allusion;
even onomatopoea testified, declared our hostess, asserting that from
her window the waterfall could be literally heard to lisp


    "... domus Albuniae resonantis
    Et praeceps Anio ac Tibumi locus et uda
    Mobilibus pomaria rivis."


In furnishing her monastery our hostess had combined, as best she could,
a delight in æsthetic effects and a longing for severity. A long low
rambling plaster building, without grace of line, was the Villa Horace.
Disordered rose gardens surrounded it, with intentionally neglected gravel
paths, and chipped marble benches. One entered a long hall at the end of
which several steps descended to a library. The hall was lined with
doors at regular intervals on both sides, doors to what had once been
cells now thrown together into reception rooms. Many of these doors
stood open during the day and the long corridor paved with russet tile,
was striped with the sunshine that fell across it. The ceiling had been
coffered, and like the doors touched with dark green and gilt, and with
that rich wasted brick-red that is the color of Neapolitan tiles. The
walls were yellow white, of caked and crumbling plaster, and the beauty
of the view with the optical illusion of distance and the depth and the
lightness of the library seen like some great green-golden well at the
further end, appealed to that sense of balance and one's tactile
imagination as do the vistas in the paintings of Raphael whose spell is
said to reside in that secret. To the left lay the reception rooms,
carpeted in one color, hung with tabernacles and Italian primitives,
while huge candelabra, pots of flowers and tables covered with brocades
and crystals and uncut jewels, relieved the severity of unfreshened
walls. Towards the end of the hall at the right one ascended a few steps
to the refectory, the barest room in the house. By day the refectory was
a meaningless casual club-room. Luncheon was a negligible affair at the
Villa; one's conversation must be saved for dinner; at luncheon one
barely looked at one another, one talked about the last rains and the
next drought, or any subject that did not faintly allude to the
devouring passions of the house, religion and aristocracy and
literature. The beauty of the refectory was purely a matter of lighting
and at eight o'clock the greatness of the room lay in the pool of
wine-yellow light that was shed on the red table cloth, the dark green
crested plates, the silver and the gold, the wineglasses, the gowns and
decorations of the guests, the ambassadorial ribbons, the pontifical
violets, and the little army of satin-clad footmen that suddenly
appeared from nowhere.

On the night of my arrival the Cardinal was the last to appear at
dinner, and entered directly into the refectory where we stood waiting
for him. His expression was benignant, even beaming. While he blessed
the meal, Mlle. de Morfontaine knelt on her admirable yellow gown and M.
Bogard dropped on one knee and shaded his eyes. The grace was in
English, a strange affair discovered by our erudite guest among the
literary remains of some disappointed Cambridge parson.


                 Oh, pelican of eternity,
            That piercest thy heart for our food,
       We are thy fledglings that cannot know thy woe.
     Bless this shadowy and visionary food of substance,
                Whose last eater shall be worm,
           And feed us rather with the vital food of
                      Dreams and grace.


The Cardinal, though unimpaired in mind and body, looked all of his
eighty years. The expression of dry serenity that never left his yellow
face with its drooping moustache and pointed beard gave him the
appearance of a Chinese sage that has lived a century. He was born of
peasants on the plain between Milan and Como, and had begun his
education at the hands of the local priests who soon discovered in him a
veritable genius for latinity. He was passed upward from school to
school gaining in his progress all the prizes the Jesuits had to offer.
The attention of a large body of influential churchmen was gradually
drawn to him and at the time of his graduation from the great college on
the Piazza Santa Maria sopra Minerva (presenting a thesis of
unparalleled brilliance and futility on the forty-two cases in which
suicide is permissible and the twelve occasions on which a priest may
take up arms without danger of homicide) a choice between three great
careers was offered to him. The details of each had been prepared under
the highest patronage: he might become a fashionable preacher; or one of
the courtier-secretaries of the Vatican; or a learned teacher and
disputant. To the amazement and grief of his professors he suddenly
announced his intention of following a road that to them meant ruin; he
declared for Missions. His foster-fathers raged and wept and called on
heaven to witness his ingratitude; but the boy would hear of nothing
less than the Church's most dangerous post in Western China. Thither in
due time he departed with scarcely a blessing from his teachers who had
already turned their attention to more docile if less brilliant pupils.
Through fire, famine, riots, and even torture, the young priest labored
for twenty-five years in the province of Sze-chuen. This missionary
fever however did not entirely spring from piety. The boy, conscious of
the great powers raging within him, had been throughout his youth
insolent, contemptuous of his teachers and of his companions. He knew
and despised every type of a churchman to be found in Italy; never had
he seen a thing adequately done by them, and now he dreamed of a field
of work where he would be answerable to no fool. In the whole realm of
the Church there was only one region that filled his requirements; a
month's travelling by crude wagon separates one from the next priest in
Sze-chuen. There, then, after a shipwreck, some months of slavery, and
other experiences that he never related, but which reached the world
from his native helpers, he settled in an inn, dressed as a native, grew
a pigtail, and lived among the villagers for six years without
mentioning his faith. He passed the time studying the language, the
classics, the manners, ingratiating himself with the officials and so
perfectly identifying himself with the daily life of the city that in
time he all but lost the odor of foreignness. When at last he began to
declare his mission to those merchants and officials in whose homes he
had become an almost nightly visitor his work was rapid. Perhaps the
greatest of all the Church's missionaries since the Middle Age, he
turned many a compromise that was destined to shock Rome profoundly. He
somehow achieved a harmonization of Christianity and the religions and
accepted ideas of China that had its parallel only in those daring
readings that Paul discovered in his Palestinian cult. So subtle were
the priest's adaptations that it never occurred to his first converts to
be even conscious of repudiating their old faith until at last after
twenty lectures he showed them how far they had gone and how charred
were the bridges that lay behind them. Once he had them baptized
however, he could give them only the bitterest bread to eat: the
foundations of his cathedral lay squarely on a score of martyrs' graves,
but once built suffered no further assault and grew slowly and
irresistibly. Finally sheer statistics did what envy could not prevent
and he was made a bishop. At the end of his fifteenth year in the East
he returned to Rome for the first time and was received with cold
dislike. His health had been partly undermined, and he was granted a
year's repose, during which he worked in the Vatican library on a thesis
relative to nothing in China, the donation of Constantine. This was
considered shocking in a missionary and when it was published its
learning and impersonality won it the neglect of the ecclesiastical
reviewers. He was treated with condescension by the courtiers of the
Palace; by implication they described to him their idea of his great
creation in Western China: a low mud-brick meeting-house and a
congregation of beggars who pretended to a conversion in order to be
fed. He did not trouble to describe to them the stone cathedral with two
awkward but lofty towers, the vast porch, the schools and library and
hospital; the processions on Feast days carrying garish but ardent
banners entering the great cavern of the Church and singing the
correctest Gregorian; nor of the governmental honors, the
tax-exemptions, the military respect during revolutions, the
co-operation of the city.

At last he returned, willingly enough, to sink himself for another ten
years into the remote interior. His visit to Rome had not altered his
boyish attitude toward his fellowmen. He had heard strange tales about
himself,--how he had amassed a huge fortune by taking bribes from the
Chinese merchants, how he had interpreted the atonement in Buddhist
terms and had allowed pagan symbols to be stamped upon the Host itself.

The ecclesiastical honors that eventually arrived must have been
extravagantly deserved, for they came without his or any friend's
negotiation. Sheer accomplishment must so have stared the Vatican in the
face that it had felt torn from its hands the trophies it was accustomed
to relinquish only on the receipt of petitions bearing ten thousand
signatures or at the instance of wealth or power. To receive these new
distinctions, the Bishop returned to Rome again after an absence of ten
years. This time he meant to remain in Italy, having decided that
henceforth his work would be better in the hands of natives. The
ecclesiastics viewed this return with considerable trepidation, for if
he returned as a scholar eager for doctrinal debates they dreaded seeing
exposed their lack of interest or equipment; if he came as a critic of
the Propaganda, they were all in danger. They watched him settle down
with two Chinese servants and an absurd peasant woman whom he insisted
on referring to as his sister, in a tiny villa on the Janiculum, join
the Papal Archaeological Society and apply himself to reading and
gardening. Within five years his retirement had become a greater
embarrassment to the Church than his pamphlets might have been. His fame
among Romanists outside Rome was unbounded; every distinguished visitor
rushed from the station to get an introduction to the recluse of
Janiculum; the Pope himself was a little tried by the zeal of visitors
who imagined that His Holiness enjoyed nothing better than discussing
the labors, the illness, and the modesty of the Cathedral Builder of
China. English Catholics and American Catholics and Belgian Catholics
who did not understand the exquisite subtlety of these matters and
should let them alone, kept crying: Why isn't something being done for
him? He humbly refused a high honorary Librarianship in the Vatican, but
his refusal was not accepted and his name crowned the stationery; the
same thing happened with the great committees on Propaganda; he did not
appear at the meetings, but no speech was so influential as the report
of chance words let fall in conversation with disciples at the Villino
Wei Ho. His very lack of ambition frightened the Churchmen; they
supposed it must arise from a similar emotion to that which kept
Achilles sulking in his tent, and dreaded the moment when he would
ultimately arise, swinging his mighty prestige and crush them for the
honors they begrudged him; finally he was offered the Hat, by a
committee from the College all in a perspiration lest he refuse it. This
time he accepted their offer and went through the forms with a rigid
decorum and with an observance of traditional minutiae that had to be
elaborately explained to his Irish American colleagues.

It would be hard to say what his thoughts were those dear mornings as he
sat among his flowers and rabbits, a volume of Montaigne fallen on to
the gravel path from the tabouret beside him, what were his thoughts as
he gazed at his yellow hands and listened to the hushed excitement of
the Aqua Paola exclaiming in eternal praise of Rome. He must surely have
asked himself often in what year his faith and joy had fled. Some said
that he had become attached to a convert who had relapsed into paganism;
some said that one day under torture he had renounced Christianity to
save his life from the hands of brigands. Perhaps it was only that he
had attempted the hardest task in the world and found it not so
difficult after all; and reflecting that he could have built up a huge
fortune in the financial world with half the energy and one-tenth the
gifts; that he was the only person living who could write a Latin that
would have entranced the Augustans; that he was the last man who would
be able to hold in his head at one moment all the learning of the
Church; and that to become a Prince of the Church required nothing but a
devoted indifference to its workings,--reflecting on these things he may
well have felt the world not to be worth the thunder of admiration and
applause that was so continually mounting to Heaven in its praise.
Perhaps one of the other stars is more worthy of one's best efforts.

Grace concluded, the meal could not be begun until the Cardinal was
informed as to Alix. But where's Alix?

Alix is always late.

Are you sure she's coming?

She telephoned this afternoon, that ...

Now isn't that too bad of her! She's coming in panting when the dinner's
half over. Then apologies. Father, you're too kind to her. You always
forgive her directly. You must act cross.

We must all act cross.

Everybody look angry when Alix comes in.

I had assumed that the conversation of the Cabala _in camera_ in camera
would be vertiginous. If I anticipated the wit and eloquence of its
table-talk I dreaded their gradual discovery that I was tongue-tied or
doltish. When, therefore, the conversation at last broke forth I had the
mixed sensation of discovering that it was not unlike that of a house
party on the Hudson. Wait, I told myself, they will warm up. Or perhaps
it is my presence here that prevents them from being at their best. I
recalled the literary tradition that the gods of antiquity had not died
but still drifted about the earth shorn of the greater part of their
glory--Jupiter and Venus and Mercury straying through the streets of
Vienna as itinerant musicians, or roaming the South of France as
harvesters. Casual acquaintances would not be able to sense their
supernaturalism; the gods would take good care to dim their genius but
once the outsider had gone would lay aside their cumbersome humanity and
relax in the reflections of their ancient godhead. I told myself that I
was the obstacle, that these Olympians chattered and chaffed for a
season until my departure, when the air would change,--what divine
conversation....

Presently in burst their Alix, the Princess d'Espoli, panting and
a-flutter with apologies. She knelt to the Cardinal's sapphire. No one
looked the least bit cross. The very servants beamed. We are to know a
great deal about the Princess later; suffice it to say that she was a
Frenchwoman of the utmost smallness and elegance, sandyhaired, pretty,
and endowed with a genius for conversation in which every shade of wit,
humor, pathos and even tragic power followed in close succession. Within
a few moments she was enchanting the company with a lot of nonsense
about a horse who had started talking on the Pincian Hill and the
efforts of the Police Force to suppress such an aberration of nature. As
I was presented to her she murmured quickly: Miss Grier told me to tell
you that she will be here at about ten-thirty.

After dinner Madame Bernstein played the piano for a time. She was still
the power behind the great German banking house. Without ever venturing
into her sons' offices or directors' meetings she yet disposed of all
the larger decisions of the firm, by curt remarks at their dinner
tables, by postscripts to her letters and by throaty injunctions at the
moment of saying goodnight. She wanted the sensation of having retired
from its direction, her whole middle life have been expended in a
magnificent display of generalship and financial imagination, yet she
could not keep her mind off its problems. The friendship of the Cabala
was beginning to reconcile her to advancing age, and drawing her further
and further into her love for music.

As a girl she had often heard Liszt and Tausig in her mother's home; by
dint of never playing Schumann or Brahms she had kept her fingers all
silver and crystal, and even now, practically in her old age, she evoked
the great era of virtuosi, a time when the orchestra had not led piano
technique into a desperate imitation of brass and strings. Mlle. de
Morfontaine sat holding in the cup of her hand the muzzle of one or
other of her splendid dogs. Her eyes were filled with tears, but whether
they were the facile tears of her half-mad nature or the witness of
memories brought back on the tide of Chopin's sonata, we cannot know.
The Cardinal had retired early and the Princess sat in the shadows, not
listening to the music, but pursuing some of the phantoms of her most
secretive mind.

Barely had the army with banners ceased drilling in the wintry sunlight
of the last movement when a servant whispered to me that the Cardinal
wished to see me.

I found him in the first of the two small rooms that had been set aside
for him at the Villa. He was writing a letter, standing up to it at one
of those high desks known to the clerks of Dickens and the illuminators
of the Middle Age. I was later to receive many of those famous letters,
never more nor less than four pages long, never falling short of their
amazing suavity, never very witty nor vivid yet never untouched from
beginning to end by the quality of their composer's mind. Whether he
declined an invitation or suggested a reading of Freud's book on
Leonardo, or gave suggestions on the feeding of rabbits, always from the
first sentence he foresaw his last and always like a movement from
Mozart's chamber-music the whole unit lay under one spirit and the
perfection of details played handmaid to the perfection of the form. He
seated me in a chair that suffered all the light that was in the room,
treating himself to a fine shadow.

He began by saying that he had heard that I was to keep an eye on Donna
Leda's son for a while.

I became warm and unintelligible in an effort at protesting that I could
guarantee nothing; that I was most reluctant; and that I still reserved
the right to withdraw at any moment.

Let me tell you about him, he began. Perhaps I should say first that I
am a sort of old uncle in the family, and their confessor for many
years. Well,--this Marcantonio. What shall I say? Have you seen him?

No.

The boy is full of good things. He ... he ... Full of good things.
Perhaps that's his trouble. You say you haven't met him yet?

No.

Everything seemed to start well. He was good in his studies. He made a
lot of friends. He was particularly good in the ceremonial that his rank
requires, his attendance at Court and at the Vatican. His mother was a
little anxious about his boyish dissipations. She had his father in
mind, I suspect, and wanted the boy to get over them as soon as
possible. Donna Leda is a more than usually foolish woman. She was very
pleased when he set up his own apartment off on the Via Po and became
very secretive about it.

Here the Cardinal began to grope about again, perhaps surprised at his
own awkwardness. Presently however he gathered up the reins with new
determination and said: And then, my dear young man, something went
wrong. We thought he would go through the usual experience of a Roman
young man of his class and come out. But he has never come out. Perhaps
you can tell me why this young fellow couldn't have had his five or six
little affairs and gotten over it?

I showed myself as quite unequal to answering this question. In fact I
was so amazed at the five or six little liaisons for a boy of sixteen,
that it was all I could do to keep my face casual. I wanted badly not to
appear shocked and endeavored by a lift of an eyebrow to imply that the
boy might have a score if he liked.

Marcantonio, continued the priest, went around with a group of boys
older than himself. His greatest wish was to be like them. You could see
them at the races, in the music-halls, at Court, in the tea-rooms and
hotel lobbies. They wore monocles and American hats, and all they talked
about was women and their own successes. Euh ... perhaps I should begin
at the beginning.

There was a pause.

He was first initiated--perhaps I should use a stronger word--on Lake
Como. He used to play tennis with some very warm little South American
girls, heiresses from Brazil, I believe, from whom no secrets were hid.
I fancy our Tonino merely meant to pay them a shy compliment or two, a
sudden kiss under the laurel-bushes. But he soon found himself with a
little ... a sort of Rubens riot on his hands. Well, it began in
imitation of his older friends. From imitation it went to an exercise of
vanity. What was Vanity became Pleasure. Pleasure became a Habit. Habit
became a Mania. And that's where he is now.

There was another pause.

You must have heard of how certain insane persons become enormously
intelligent--that is, they become sly and secretive--trying to conceal
their delusion from their guards? Yes; and I am told that vicious
children perform feats of duplicity worthy of the most expert criminals,
in an effort to conceal their tricks from their parents. You have heard
of such things? Well, that is where Marcantonio is now. What can be
done? Some people would say that we should let him go and make himself
thoroughly sick. Perhaps they are right, but we should like to step in
before that, if possible. Especially since there has a come a new
development into the story.

My mood at that moment was overwhelmingly against new developments. In
the distance I could hear that Madame Bernstein had resumed her Chopin.
I would have given a lot for the power of being rude enough to leap for
the doorknob and bid my host goodnight, a long goodnight to the
wallowing little Prince and his mother.

Yes, continued the Cardinal, his mother has at last found a marriage for
him. To be sure she does not believe there is a house in the world that
can bring any new distinction to her own, but she has found a girl with
an old name and some money and expects me to do the rest. But the girl's
brothers know Marcantonio. They are in the group I described to you.
They refuse to permit the marriage until Marcantonio has, well--been
quiet for a while.

Now my face must have shown a rich mixture of horror and amusement and
anger and astonishment, for the Cardinal became perplexed. You never can
tell what will surprise an American, he probably said to himself.

No, no. Excuse me, father. I can't, I can't.

What do you mean?

You want me to go to the country to hold him down to a few weeks of
temperance. I don't understand how you can mean such a thing, but you
do. He's a sort of Strassburg goose whom you want to stuff with virtue,
don't you, against his marriage. Don't you see...?

You exaggerate!

Excuse me if I sound rude, Father: No wonder you couldn't make an
impression on the boy,--you didn't believe in what you were saying. You
don't really believe in temperance.

Believe in it. Of course I do. Am I not a priest?

Then why not make the boy...?

But after all, _we are in the world_.

I laughed. I shouted with a laughter that would have been insulting, if
it hadn't contained a touch of hysteria. Oh, I thank thee, dear Father
Vaini, I said to myself. I thank thee for that word. How clear it makes
all Italy, all Europe. _Never try to do anything against the bent of
human nature_. I came from a colony guided by exactly the opposite
principle.

Excuse me, Father, I said at last. I can't go on with it. Under any
conditions I should' feel an awful hypocrite talking to the boy. But if
I knew it were only a measure to keep him good a month or two I should
feel ten times more so. It can't be argued; it's just a matter one
feels. I must tell Miss Grier I cannot visit her friend. She is driving
out here at ten-thirty. If you will excuse me I shall go and find her in
the music-room now.

Do not be angry with me, my son. Perhaps you are right. Probably I do
not believe these things.

Hardly had I re-entered the music-room with my revolt written all over
me when the Princess d'Espoli came forward. By that telepathy which the
Cabala employed in its affairs she already knew that I had to be
persuaded all over again. She made me sit down beside her and with the
briefest outlay of those gifts of suppliance and enchantment of which
she held the secret, she won my promise. In two minutes she had made it
seem the most natural thing in the world that I should play stem older
brother to a gifted drifting friend of hers.

As by the click of some invisible stage-manager Miss Grier entered.

How are you, how are you? she said, trailing her russet draperies across
the tiles toward me. You can't guess who drove me out. I must hurry
back. The Lateran choir is coming to sing Palestrina to me about
twelve,--perhaps you know the motets from the Song of Songs? No?
Marcantonio brought me here. He loves high-powered cars, and as his
mother can't give him one I let him play with mine. Can you come out and
meet him now? You'd better get your coat. Do you like night rides?

She led me out to the road where behind two blinding headlights a motor
was humming impatiently. Antonino, she called. This is an American
friend of your mother's. Do show him the car for half an hour, will you?
Don't kill anybody.

An incredibly slight and definite little elegant, looking exactly his
sixteen years, with spark-like black eyes bowed stiffly to me in the
faint light over the wheel. Italian princes do not rise at the approach
of ladies.

Don't hurt my car or my friend, Marcantonio.

No.

Where are you going?

But he did not choose to answer and the aroused motor drowned out the
lady's questions. For ten minutes we sat in silence while the road rose
to the headlights. After a harrowing struggle with his own selfishness
Don Marcantonio asked me if I wanted to take the wheel. Assured that
nothing would alarm me more, he settled down to driving with an almost
voluptuous application. He made nice distinctions with grades and
corners, took long descents cantabilemente, and played scherzi on
cobblestones. The outlines of the Alban hills stood out against the
stars that like a swarm of golden bees recalled that haughty Barberini
who had declared that the sky itself was the scutcheon of his house. All
lights were out on the farms, but occasionally we passed through a
village whose francobollo shop showed a lantern and a group of card
players. Many a wakeful soul in those enormous family beds must have
turned over, crossing himself, at the sighing whistle of our flight.

Presently however the driver wanted to talk. He asked a great many
questions about the United States. Could one plunge into the life of the
Wild West any minute? Were there many big cities as big as Rome? What
language was spoken in San Francesco? in Philadelphia? Where did our
athletes train for the Olympic Games? Was the public allowed to watch
them? Did I know about such things? I replied that at school and college
one couldn't help picking up hints on form and training. He then
disclosed the fact that at the Villa Colonna he had directed the
gardeners to make a running-track, cinders and hurdles and pit and shed
and embanked corners. And that we were to use it every morning. He
dreamed of himself doing incredible distances in incredible time. He
outlined a plan to me whereby under my direction he would begin by
running a mile every morning, and should add a half-mile daily for
weeks. This would go on for years and then he would be ready to enter
the Paris Olympics of 1924.

In my head the nerves of astonishment had been a little fatigued lately,
what with Mlle. de Morfontaine and her Œcumenical Council, the Cardinal
and his tolerances. Miss Grier and her cereals. But I confess they
received no small twinge when this frail and emptied spirit announced
his candidacy for a world's record in long runs. Not without sly
intention I began to outline the sacrifices that such an ambition would
entail. I touched on diet and early hours and early rising; he accepted
them eagerly. I then skirted those self-denials that would touch him
more particularly, and now with a mounting exaltation, with an almost
religious fire, he pledged himself to all temperance. The fact that I
was astonished shows my immaturity. I thought I was witness to a great
conversion. I told myself that he wanted to be saved; that he was
rolling up outside forces that might protect himself from his weakness;
and that he hoped to find in athletics a deliverance from despair.

Returning to the Villa we found the company still listening to music. As
we entered the room all eyes were turned towards us and I knew that for
the present the Cabala had laid aside all activity and was brooding over
one thing, the rescue of Donna Leda's son.

On arriving at my rooms in Rome I found several notes from a Mr. Perkins
of Detroit, a successful manufacturer who had crossed with me. Mr.
Perkins, descending upon Italy for the first time, was resolved to see
it at its best. There were no collections so private but that he was
able to secure letters of admittance; no savants too occupied but that
he obtained their services as ciceroni; audiences he obtained with the
Pope were, as he called them, "super-special"; excavations not yet open
to the public suffered his disappointed peerings. Some secretary at the
Embassy must have mentioned that I had already made some Italian
acquaintances, for there were these notes from him reminding me that he
wanted to know some real Italians. He wanted to see what they were like
in their homes, and he expected me to show him some. Mind, real
Italians. I wrote him at once that all the Italians I knew were half
French or half American, but assured him that when I had actually
isolated a native I would bring them together. I added that I was
leaving for the country, but would return in a week or two and see what
could be done.


To the country then I went, being driven for the greater part of a day
by Marcantonio himself. His enthusiasm for running had by no means
abated; in fact it seemed to have gone from strength to strength,
probably because of some lapses from strict training in the interval. It
was late afternoon and a red sunset was filtering through a blue dusk
when we entered the great gates of the park. There was first a forest of
oaks; then a mile of open lawn with some hurrying sheep; then a pineta
with a brook; the farmhouses in a cloud of doves; the upper terrace with
a perspective of fountains; and at last the casino with the Black Queen
trailing her garments of dusty serge across the driveway of powdered
shell. There was little time to admire the orange-brown front of the
villa roughened with wreaths and garlands that were crumbling away
before the sun and rain, or the famous frieze of the women in Ariosto's
poems, recalling the days when Pope Sylvester Lefthand held here his
academy and invented the Sylvestrian sonnet-form. All I could do was to
conceal my pleasure at the discovery that I was to live by candle-light
in rooms that though the originals of hundreds of bad copies on Long
Island, were here the secret shame of their owners. My hosts' ideal of
residence was a hotel on the Embankment and they all but breathed an
apology for the enormous rooms to which I was conducted, and in which I
stood transfixed, lost in antiquarian dreams until Marcantonio knocked
on the door to call me to supper.

At table I was presented to Donna Julia, Marcantonio's half-sister, and
to a spinster cousin of the family, always present, always silent and
whose lips never ceased moving, as solitaries' must, to the measure of
her inner thoughts. Like all girls of her class Donna Julia had never
been alone for more than a half-hour in all her life. Her immense
talents for being bad had been balked at every turn; they had been
forced to take refuge in her eyes. She had never even been allowed to
read anything more inflammatory than the comedies of Goldoni and I
Promessi Sposi, but she guessed at a criminal world and presently when
marriage suddenly opened up to her every freedom she played her part in
it. Donna Julia was a little stiff, almost ugly with her level baleful
regard. She kept silent most of the time, was utterly incurious of me,
and seemed chiefly occupied in angling for her brother's evasive glance
so as to plant into it a triumphant significant idea.

One retired early at the Villa Colonna. But Marcantonio, for whom my
simplest remarks were astonishing, would stop in at my room and talk for
hours over some glasses of Marsala. No doubt his mother, noting the
visits through her half-opened door down the hall, assumed with great
satisfaction that I was reading lectures on hygiene. But, especially as
the week advanced, we were chiefly taken up with a diagram that showed
day by day how the little champion had run and in what time.

It must have been at the end of a week of this that in one of our late
conversation his friendliness suddenly turned into contempt. A week's
preoccupation with unsentimental matters now took its revenge. Back into
his mind flooded the images of passion, and he wanted to boast. Perhaps
he saw that prowess on the field was not to be his, and his egoism being
athirst for all possible superlatives, he must replace it with a
catalogue of the first prizes he had won in another arena. He recalled
the Brazilian girls under the arbors of Como. He described how he had
returned to Rome after that initiation bent on seeing whether the game
was as easy as it had seemed. Suddenly his eyes had been opened to a
world he had not dreamed of. So it was true that men and women were
never really engaged in what they appeared to be doing, but lived in a
world of secret invitations, signals and escapes! Now he understood the
raised eyebrows of waitresses and the brush of the usher's hand as she
unlocks the loge. It is not an accident that the wind draws the great
lady's scarf across your face as you emerge from the door of the hotel.
Your mother's friends happen to be passing in the corridor outside the
drawing-room, but not by chance. Now he discovered that all women were
devils, but foolish ones, and that he had entered into the true and only
satisfactory activity in living--the pursuit of them. One minute he was
exclaiming at the easiness of it; the next he described its difficulties
and subtlety. Now he sang the uniformity of their weakness and now the
endless variety of their temperaments. Next he boasted of his utter
indifference and his superiority to them; he knew their tears but he did
not believe they really suffered. He doubted whether they had souls.

To incidents that were true he added others that he wished had been
true. To his acquaintance with a corner of Rome he added a
fourteen-year-old's vision of a civilization where no one thought about
anything but caresses. This fantasy took him about two hours. I listened
without a word. It must have been this that undermined his exhilaration.
He had been talking to impress me. Impressed I certainly was; no New
Englander could help it; but I knew that a great deal depended on my not
showing it. Perhaps it was his sudden realization that, seen through my
eyes, these adventures were not enviable; perhaps it was that the black
tide of reaction licked close on the heels of such pride; perhaps it was
just truth finding room for utterance in his mounting fatigue,--at all
events, there was strength left for one more outburst: I hate them all!
I hate it. There's no end to it all. What shall I do? And he fell on his
knees beside the bed and buried his face in the side of the mattress,
his hands feverishly pulling at the cover.

Priests and doctors must often hear the cry Save me! Save me! I was
destined to hear it from two other souls before my Roman year was over.
Who now thinks it uncommon?

I scarcely know what I said when my turn at last came around. All I know
is that my mind whipped up to its subject with a glee. Heaven only knows
what New England divines lent me their remorseless counsels. I became
possessed with the wine of the Puritans and alternating the vocabulary
of the Pentateuch with that of psychiatry I showed him where his mind
was already slipping; I pointed out wherein he already resembled his
uncle Marcantonio, no mean warning; I made him see that even his interest
in athletics was a symptom of his disintegration; how that he was
incapable of fixing his mind on the general interests of man, and how
everything he thought and did--humor, sports, ambition, presented
themselves to him as symbols of lust.

My little tirade was effective beyond all expectation and for a number
of reasons. In the first place, it had the energy and sincerity which
the Puritan can always draw upon to censure those activities he cannot
permit himself,--not a Latin demonstration of gesture and tears, but a
cold hate that staggers the Mediterranean soul. Again, all my words had
already their dim counterpart in the boy's soul. It is the libertine and
not the preacher who conceives most truly of the ideal purity and
soundness, because he pays it out, coin by coin, regretfully, knowingly,
unpreventably. All my words went to rejoin their prototypes in
Marcantonio's mind. Again, how could I know that he had arrived but
recently at that stage of failure when one's whole being reverberates,
as with some bell of despair, with the words: I shall never get out of
this. I am lost. Again, I found out later that Marcantonio had a streak
of religious frenzy in him, that for a year he had watched himself
alternating communion and dissipation, the exaltation of the former
itself betraying him into the latter and the despair of the latter
driving him in anguish to the former. At last in sheer cynicism, after
watching himself fail so often, he had missed Mass for several months.
All these reasons go toward explaining the prostrating effect my brief
and vindictive speech had. He cowered against the carpet, begging me to
stop, gasping out his promises of reform. But having brought him to a
conviction he might never attain again, I thought it unwise to let go. I
had reserves of indignation left. But now he knelt crying on the carpet,
covering his ears with his hands and shaking his wet face at me with all
its terror and suppliance. I stopped and we stared at one another,
darkly, trembling under our several headaches. Then he went to bed.

The next morning he seemed etherialized, made almost transparent by his
new resolutions. He walked lightly and with an air of humility. No
reference was made to the scene of the evening before, but his glances
over the tennis net implied an obedience and a deference that were more
annoying than impudence. After two sets we wandered over to the lower
fountain and here stretched out on the semi-circular bench he slept for
three hours. It seemed to me as I watched morning advance to noon and
the sun penetrate his thin body in the delicious fatigues that follow
hysterical outbursts, it seemed that it would not be rash to wonder if
possibly we may have succeeded. I day-dreamed. From the formal terrace
below the casino came the click of topiary shears; from the field where
the ancient altar had been placed, drum-shaped and bearing an almost
effaced frieze, came the shouts of some divinity students (to whom a
little villa on the estate had been offered as a vacation house) playing
football, their cassocks tucked up about their knees; from the pine wood
the exclamations of two shepherds who sat whittling while their flock
drifted almost imperceptibly to the road beyond. The fountain before me
gave forth its varied sounds: the whir of its initial jet and the tinkle
as it fell back into the first bowl; the drumtaps as this overflowed and
slipped into the second; and the loud loquacity with which the lowest
basin received all that came to it from every level. Tacitus lay unread
upon my knee while my eyes followed the lizards that flashed in and out
of the brilliant sunshine on the gravel, noting their confusion when a
sudden breeze bent the poised veil of the fountain and swept us all with
a fine mist. The monotony of light and the noise of water, of insects,
and of doves in the farmhouses behind me, combined to recall those
tremulous webs of sound that modern composers set shimmering above their
orchestra, to draw across it presently on the oboes their bleating
melody in thirds.

While I sat there a note was brought me from the house. Mr. Perkins of
Detroit had heard I was at the Villa and from the hotel in the nearby
town announced his intention of calling on me,--lucky in have a pretext
for entering the most inaccessible villa in Italy. I scribbled on the
back of his envelope that an unfortunate event in the family prevented
my asking him to the house at present.

The hot sunlight of the morning had gathered its storm and all afternoon
we sat indoors. Marcantonio and Donna Julia attempted teaching me the
Neapolitan dialect, while the silent cousin sat by, deeply shocked. But
my lesson soon descended into a subtle and barbed quarrel between the
teachers. It was conducted for the most part in rapid and hate-laden
parentheses, far above my head, in their thick _argot_. What she taunted
him about I can only guess. He was invariably beaten; he grew loud and
angry. Twice he leaped around the table to strike her; she waited for
the blow, stretching herself sleekly and looking up at him from her
magnetic eyes. At length he urged me to come away from her and to go
upstairs, and the two parted much as children of seven would with a bout
of grimaces and a competition to have the last ugly word.

After dinner the war was resumed. The Duchess was nodding by the fire;
the cousin was mumbling opposite her. And the two children sat in the
shadows exchanging invective. I was made strangely uneasy by their
curious quarreling. I excused myself and went to bed. The last thing I
saw was an infuriated blow that Marcantonio directed at his sister's
shoulder and the last sound I heard was the tremolo of her provocative
laughter as they tussled on the carved wooden chest in the corner. I
debated with myself on the stairs: surely I had imagined it; my poor
sick head was so full of the erotic narratives of the week; surely I
imagined the character of mixed love and hate in those blows that were
savage caresses, and that laughter that was half sneer and half
invitation.

But I had not imagined it.

At about three I was awakened by Marcantonio. He was still dressed. He
poured at my drowsy head a torrent of whirling words in which I
distinguished nothing but a feverish reiteration of the phrase: You were
right. Then he left the room as abruptly as he had come.


What luck Mr. Perkins had always had! Even now when he brought to bear
all his American determination and broke into the gardens of the
forbidden Villa, what guardian angel arranged that he should see the
Villa at its most characteristic? Surely a rich old Italian villa is at
its most characteristic when a dead prince lies among the rose-bushes.
When Frederick Perkins of Detroit leapt the wall in the crystal airs of
seven in the morning, he discovered at his feet the body of Marcantonio
d'Aquilanera, 14th prince and 14th duke of Aquilanera and Stoli, 12th
duke of Stoli-Roccellina, marquis of Bugnaccio, of Tei, etc., baron of
Spenestra, of Gran-Spenestra, seigneur of the Sciestrian Lakes; patron
of the bailly of the order of San Stephano; likewise prince of
Altdorf-Hotenlingen-Craburg, intendant elector of Altdorf-H-C.; prince
of the Holy Roman Empire, etc., etc.; chamberlain of the court of
Naples; lieutenant and cousin of the Papal Familia; order of the Crane(
f. class); three hours cold, and with a damp revolver clutched in his
right hand.

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BOOK THREE: ALIX


The Cabalists received the news of Marcantonio's death philosophically.
The account of it which the bereaved mother gave to Miss Grier was a
miracle of misunderstanding. According to her I had done wonders; in
fact it was the suddenness and thoroughness of the boy's reformation
that had broken his health. She, she, was to blame. She should have
foreseen that continence was not to be expected of a mere lad; he had
gone insane from an excess of virtue and shot himself from too much
sanctity. These things are out of our hands, dear Leda, murmured Miss
Grier. The Cardinal made no comment.

The Cabala went back to its usual occupations. Being the biographer of
the individuals and not the historian of the group I shall not take up
much space here with details of the discomfiture of Mrs. Pole (she had
been impudent to Miss Grier), nor of the Renan performance (_L'Abbesse
de Jouarre_ was effectively not given as a benefit at the Constanzi).
From a purely disinterested love of Church tradition they blocked the
canonization of several tiresome nonentities that had been proposed to
gratify the faithful in Sicily and Mexico. They saved the taxpayers of
Rome the purchase of hundreds of modern Italian paintings, and the
establishment of a permanent museum for than. They interested public
opinion in the faint smell of drains that is wafted through the Sistine
Chapel. When an oak forest fell ill in the Borghese Gardens no one but
the Cabala had the sense to send to Berlin for a doctor. To tell the
truth their achievements were not very considerable. I soon saw that I
had arrived on the scene in the middle of the decline of their power. At
first they thought they could do something about the strikes, and about
the Fascismo, and the blasphemies in the Senate; and it was only after a
great deal of money had been spent and hundreds of persons ineffectually
goaded that they realized that the century had let loose influences they
could not stem, and contented themselves with less pretentious
assignments.

I came to see more and more of them. My youth and foreignness never
ceased to amuse them and they were made almost uncomfortable by the
knowledge that I so liked them. They thought they had outgrown being
susceptible to being liked. From time to time they would point their
fingers to where I sat staring at them in sheer wonder.

He's like an eager dog with his tongue out of his mouth, Alix d'Espoli
would cry. What does he see in us?

He never loses hope that we will suddenly say something memorable, said
the Cardinal looking at me musingly,--the look of a great talker who
knows that for lack of a Boswell his greatness must die with him.

He comes from the rich new country that will grow more and more splendid
while our countries decline to ruins and rubbish heaps, said Donna Leda.
That's why his eyes shine so.

Why, no, cried Alix. I believe he loves us. Just simply loves us in a
disinterested new world way. Once I had a most beautiful setter, named
Samuele. Samuele spent all his life sitting around on the pavement
watching us with a look of most intense excitement.

Did he bite? asked Donna Leda who had a literal mind.

You didn't have to give Samuele a sandwich to win his devotion. He liked
to like. You won't be angry with me if every now and then I call you
Samuele to remind me of him?

You mustn't talk about him in front of him, muttered Mme. Bernstein who
was playing solitaire. Young man, get me my furs from the piano until
these people remember themselves.

The Princess explained me. What fairer service can one render another?
How could I do other than attach myself to one with so quick and
gracious an interpretation.

The Princess was not really modern. As scientists gazing at certain
almost extinct birds off Australia are able to evoke a whole lost era,
so in the person of this marvellous princess we felt ourselves permitted
to glimpse into Seventeenth Century and to reconstruct for ourselves
what the aristocratic system must have been like in its flower.

The Princess d'Espoli was exceedingly pretty in a fragile Parisian way;
her vivacious head, surmounted by a mass of sandy reddish hair was
forever tilted above one or other of her thin pointed shoulders; her
whole character lay in her sad laughing eyes and small red mouth. Her
father came of the Provençal nobility and she had spent her girlhood
partly in provincial convent schools and partly climbing like a goat the
mountains that surrounded her father's castle. At eighteen she and her
sister had been called in from the cliffs, dressed up stiffly and hawked
like merchandise through the drawing-rooms of their more influential
relatives in Paris, Florence, and Rome. Her sister had fallen to an
automobile manufacturer and was making the good and bad weather of
Lyons; Alix had married the morose Prince d'Espoli who had immediately
sunk into a profounder misanthropy. He remained at home sunk in the last
dissipations. His wife's friends never saw or referred to him;
occasionally we became aware of him, we thought, in her late arrivals,
hurried departures and harassed air. She had lost two children in
infancy. She had no life, save in other peoples' homes. Yet the sum of
her sufferings had been the production of the sweetest strain of gaiety
that we shall ever see, a pure well of heartbroken frivolity. Wonderful
though she was in all the scenes of social life, she certainly was at
her finest at table, where she had graces and glances that the most
gifted actresses would fall short of conceiving for their Millamonts,
and Rosalinds and Célimènes; nowhere has been seen such charm, such
manners, and such wit. She would prattle about her pets, describe a
leave-taking seen by chance in a railway station, or denounce the Roman
fire departments with a perfection of rendering of Yvette Guilbert, a
purer perfection in that it did not suggest the theatre. She possessed
the subtlest mimicry, and could sustain an endless monologue, but the
charm of her gift resided in the fact that it required the collaboration
of the whole company; it required the exclamations, contradictions, and
even the concerted shouts as of a Shakespearean mob, before the Princess
could display her finest art. She employed an unusually pure speech, a
gift that went deeper than a mere aptitude for acquiring grammatical
correctness in the four principal languages of Europe; its source lay in
the type of her mind. Her thought proceeded complicatedly, but not
without order, in long looping parentheses, a fine network of relative
clauses, invariably terminating in some graceful turn by way of climax,
some sudden generalization or summary surprise. I once accused her of
speaking in paragraphs and she confessed that the nuns to whom she had
gone to school in Provence had required of her every day an oral essay
built on a formula derived principally from Madame de Sévigné and
terminating in a _concetto_.

Such rare personalities are not able to derive nourishment from ordinary
food. Rumors of the Princess's strange stormy loves reached us
continually. It seems that she was doomed to search throughout the
corridors of Rome a succession of attachments as brief and fantastic as
they were passionate and unsatisfied. Nature had decided to torment this
woman by causing her to fall in love (that succession of febrile
interviews, searches, feints at indifference, nightlong solitary
monologues, ridiculous visions of remote happiness) with the very type
of youth that could not be attracted by her, with cool impersonal
learned or athletic young Northerners, a secretary at the British
Embassy or Russian violinist or German archaeologist. As though these
trials were not sufficient, society had added to them this aggravation,
that her Roman hostesses, conscious of this failing and wishing to make
sure that at their tables the Princess would display her finest flights,
would intentionally include among their guests the Princess's latest
infatuation to whom throughout the evening she would sing, like a swan,
her song of defeated love.

As a mere girl, if I may presume to reconstruct the growth of her
personality, she sensed the fact that there was in her something that a
little prevented, her making friends, namely; intelligence. The few
intelligent people who truly wish to be liked soon learn, among the
disappointments of the heart, to conceal their brilliance. They
gradually convert their keen perceptions into more practical
channels,--into a whole technique of implied flattery of others, into
felicities of speech, into the euphemisms of demonstrative affection,
into softening for others the crude lines of their dullness. All the
Princess's perfection was an almost unconscious attempt at making
friends of those who would first be her admirers, yet realizing that if
she were too artistic they would be dazzled but repelled, and that if
she were less than perfect they would dismiss her as a trivial bright
hysteric. For many years she had practiced this babbling speech on her
friends, unconsciously noting on their faces which tones of the voice,
which appropriate fleck of the hands, which delayed adjectives were more
and which less successful. In other words she had achieved mastery of a
fine art, the all but forgotten art of conversation, under the impetus
of love. Like some panic-stricken white mouse in the trap of a
psychologist's experiment she had been seeking her ends by the primitive
rules of trial and error, only to learn that at the last one is too
bruised by the mistakes to enjoy the successes. The exquisite and
fragile mechanism of her temperament had not been able to stand the
strain laid upon it, the double exhaustion of inspiration and woe; and
the lovely being was already slightly mad. She grew daily more
light-headed and could be caught from time to time in moods that were
variously foolish and pathetic. But her deepest wound was still to come.

James Blair and his notebooks were staying over in Rome after all. He
had come upon some new veins of research. For him ten lifetimes would be
all too short to pursue the horizons of one's curiosity. Think, he would
say, it would take about ten years to work up the full critical
apparatus to attack the historical problems surrounding the life of St.
Francis of Assisi. It would take almost as many to get up the Roman
road-system, the salt roads and the wheat roads,--God, the whole problem
as to how the Rome of the Republic was fed. Another day he would be
dreaming about starting on the eight or ten books in French and German
on Christina of Sweden and her life in Rome; then one studied up Swedish
and read the diaries and the barrels-full of notes; when one knew more
about her than did anyone alive one passed on to her father and buried
oneself for months in libraries to master the policies and the military
genius of Gustavus Adolphus. Thus life stretched ... bindings ...
bindings ... catalogues ... footnotes. One studied the saints and never
thought about religion. One knew everything about Michelangelo yet never
felt deeply a single work. James spent weeks of fascinated attention on
the women of the Caesars and yet could scarcely be dragged to dinner at
the Palazzo Barberini. He found all moderns trivial, and was the dupe of
the historians' grand style which fails to convey the actuality (for
Blair, the triviality) of their heroes. The present casts a veil of
cheapness over the world: to look into any face, however beautiful, is
to see pores and the folds about the eye. Only those faces not present
are beautiful.

The fact is that quite early James Blair had been frightened by life (in
a way which the Princess, in a moment of misery and inspiration, was to
divine later with the cry: What kind of a stupid mother could he have
had?) and had forever after bent upon books the floodtides of his
energy. At times his scholarship resembled panic; he acted as though he
feared that raising his eyes from the page he would view the world, or
his share in the world, dissolving in ruin. His endless pursuit of facts
(which had no fruit in published work and brought no intrinsic æsthetic
pleasure) was not so much the will to do something as it was the will to
escape something else. One man's release lies in dreams, another's in
facts.

All this resulted in a real unworldliness, which with his youth and
learning and faintly _distrait_ courtesy especially endeared him to
older women. Both Miss Grier and Mme. Agaropoulos hovered about him with
mothering delight and sighed with vexation at his obstinate refusal to
come and see them. He reminded me of the lions that stare, unwinking and
unseeing, at the crowd about their cage, the crowd that grimaces and
waves admiring parasols, though the beast disdains to pick up even a
biscuit from such vulgar givers.

At the time that the Princess's story begins he was engaged in
establishing the exact location of the ancient cities of Italy. He was
reading mediæval descriptions of the Campagna and tracing through
place-names, through dried water-courses, through cracked old paintings
the exact position of disused roads and abandoned towns. He was learning
about the country's former plants and animals: he was quite happy.
Sometimes he made notes of all this, but for the most part he preferred
to learn the truth and then forget it.

When it began to get cold in his room he serenely made use of mine,
covering my tables with his velumbound folios, standing his pictures
against my wall, and strewing my floors with his maps. He had dazzled
one of the librarians at the Collegio Romano with his allusions and had
obtained the privilege of bringing the material home.

One day the Princess d'Espoli came to see me. Ottima admitted her. She
came in upon James Blair who was kneeling on the floor crawling from
city to city on some yellow crested maps. His coat was off; his hair was
in a tangle, and his hands were gray with dust. He had never met her and
did not like her clothes. He did not want to be drawn into a
conversation and stood, handsome and sulky, his glances stealing to the
maps on the floor. Explained that I was out. Might not be back before.
Would not forget to tell that.

Alix didn't mind. She even asked for some tea.

Ottima had just come in to begin thinking about dinner. While tea was
making Alix asked to have the maps explained to her. Now the Princess
was more capable of entering into an enthusiasm for old cities than most
of the several hundred women of her acquaintance; but short of a
doctorate in archæology one does not enter upon such ground with James
Blair. Coldly, haughtily, and with long quotations from Livy and Virgil,
he harangued my guest. He dragged her remorselessly up and down the
seven hills; he wrung her in and out of all the shifting beds of the
Tiber. When I finally returned I found her sitting gazing at him over
the edge of her teacup with a faintly mocking expression. She had not
known that such a man was possible. Throughout the whole episode Blair
had acted like nothing so much as a spoiled boy of seven interrupted in
a game about Indians. It would be hard to say what had most captivated
the Princess, but it was probably that trace of sturdy spoiled egotism.
It might have been, in part, the cold douche of being unwelcome,--she
who was the delight of the most delightful people in Europe, who had
never entered a door without arousing a whirlpool of welcome, who had
never come too early nor left too late,--suddenly she had tasted the
luxury of being resented.

As soon as I arrived Blair took a swift and awkward departure.

But he's charming! He's charming! she cried. Who is he?

I told her briefly of his home, his progress through the universities,
and his habits of study.

But he's extraordinary. Tell me: is he--shy, is he _boudeur_ with
everybody? Now perhaps I did something to annoy him? What could I have
said, Samuele?

I hastened to reassure her. He's that way with everyone. And most people
like him all the more for it. Especially older women. For example, Miss
Grier and Mme. Agaropoulos adore him and all he does is to sit on their
chairs inventing excuses for not coming to dinner.

Well, I'm not old and I like him. Oh, he is so rude! I could have
slapped him. And he only looked at me once. He will have a hard time in
life, Samuele, unless he learns to be more gracious. Isn't there anybody
he likes, no? besides you?

Yes, he's engaged to a girl in the United States.

Dark hair or light?

I don't know.

Mark my words, he will be very unhappy, unless he learns to be more
amiable. But think! what intelligence, what an eye! And how wonderful it
is to see such an absence of trickery, you know, such simplicity. Does
he live here?

No, he just brings his books in here when it's too cold in his own room.

He is poor?

Yes.

He is poor!

Not very poor, you know. When he really gets down to his last cent he
can always find things to do at once. He's happy to be poor.

And he lives quite alone?

Yes. Oh, yes.

And he is poor. (This caused her a moment's astonished reflection, until
she burst out:) But you know, that is not right! It is society's
duty ... that is, society should be proud to protect such people. Someone
very gifted should be appointed to watch over such people.

But, Princess, James Blair values his independence above everything. He
doesn't want to be watched over.

They should be watched over in spite of themselves. Look, you will bring
him to tea some day. I am sure my husband's library has some more old
maps of the Campagna. We have the bailiff's reports of the Espoli back
into the Sixteenth Century. Wouldn't that bring him?

Even surprised at herself, the Princess tried for a time to talk of
other things, but presently she returned to praise what she called
Blair's single-mindedness; she meant his self-sufficiency, for while we
are in love with a person our knowledge of his weaknesses lies lurking
in the back of our minds and our idealization of the loved one is not so
much an exaggeration of his excellences as a careful "rationalization"
of his defects.

When next I saw Blair he wasted two or three hours before he got up
courage to ask me who she was. He listened darkly while I spoke my
enthusiasm. At last he showed me a note in which she asked him to drive
with her to Espoli, look over the estate, and to examine the archives.
He was to bring me if I wanted. James wished greatly to go; but he was
suspicious of the lady. He liked her and yet he didn't. He was trying to
tell me that he only liked ladies who didn't like him first. He twisted
the letter about trying to decide, then going to the table wrote a note
of refusal.

Then began what it is merely brutal to call a siege. Driving in the
Corso Alix would say to herself: There's nothing unconventional in my
stopping at his room to see if he wants to drive in the Gardens. I could
do as much for a dozen men and it would be perfectly natural. I am much
older than he is, so much so, that it would merely be an act of ...
thoughtfulness. When she stood on the platform before his door (for she
was not content to send up the chauffeur) she would experience a moment
of panic, wishing to recall her ring, imagining when no one answered
that he was in hiding behind the closed door, listening, who knows, in
anger or contempt to her loud heartbeats. Or she would debate all
evening among the gilt chairs of her little salon as to whether she
might drop him a note. She would count the days since last she had
spoken to him and gauge the propriety (the inner, the spiritual
propriety, not the wordly propriety: for the Cabalists the latter had
ceased to exist) of a new meeting. She was always coming upon him by
accident in the city (she called it her proof of the existence of
guardian angels) and it was with these chance meetings that she had
generally to content herself. She would attract his attention the length
of the Piazza Venezia and carry him to whatever destination he confessed
to. No one has ever been happier than Alix on these few occasions when
she sat beside him in her car. How docilely she sat listening to his
lecture; with what tenderness she secretly noticed his tie and shoes and
socks: and with what intensity she fixed her gaze upon his face trying
to imprint upon her memory the exact proportions of his features, the
imprint that indifference retains so much better than the most
passionate love. There was a possibility that they might have become the
most congenial of friends, for he dimly sensed that there was something
in her that allied her to the great ladies of his study. If she had only
succeeded in concealing her tenderness. At the first signs of his liking
for her she would become so intoxicated with the intimation of
cordiality that she would make some shy little remark with a faintly
sentimental implication; she would comment on his appearance or ask him
to lunch. And lose him.

One day he gave her a book that had been mentioned in their
conversations. He did not stop to think that it was the first move he
had made spontaneously in the whole relation. Hitherto every suggestion,
every invitation, had proceeded from her (from her, trembling,
presuffering a rebuff, lightly) and she longed for a first sign of his
interest. When this book was brought to her, then, she lost her balance;
she thought it justified her in pushing the friendship on to new levels,
to almost daily meetings, and to long comradely lazy afternoons. She
never realized that in his eyes she was, first, an enemy to his studies,
and second, that strange hedged monster which all his wide reading had
not been able to humanize: a married woman. She called once too often.
Suddenly he changed; he became rude and abrupt. When she climbed his
stairs he did hide behind the door and the bell rang in vain and with a
menacing sound, though she had her ways of knowing he was in. She became
terrified. Again she confronted that cavern of horror in her nature: she
seemed always to be loving those that did not love her. She came to me,
distraught. I was cautious and offered her philosophy until I could
sound Blair in the matter.

Blair came to me of his own accord. He paced up and down the room,
bewildered, revolted, enraged. His stay in Rome had become impossible.
He no longer dared remain in his room and when he was out he clung to
the side streets. What should he do?

I advised him to leave town.

But how could he? He was in the middle of some work that. Some work
that. Damn it all. All right, he'd go.

I begged him before he went to come to dinner with me once when the
Princess would be present. No, no. Anything but that. I, in turn, became
angry. I analyzed the different kinds of fool he was. An hour later I
was saying that the mere fact of being loved so, whether one could
return it or not, put one under an obligation. More than an obligation
to be merely kind, an obligation to be grateful. Blair did not
understand, but consented at last on the difficult condition that I was
not to reveal to the Princess that he was leaving for Spain on the very
night of the dinner.

Of course, the Princess arrived early, so enchantingly dressed that I
fairly floundered in admitting her. She held tickets for the opera; one
no longer cared to hear _Salome_, but _Petrushka_ was being danced after
it, at ten-thirty. Blair's train left at eleven. He arrived and played
his most gracious. We were really very happy, all of us, as we sat by
the open window, smoking and talking long over Ottima's excellent
_zabiglione_ and harsh Trasteverine coffee.

It was a continual surprise to me to see that in Blair's presence she
was always a proud detached aristocrat. Even her faintly caressing
remarks were such as would not be noticed if one had let them fall to
someone with whom one was not secretly in love. Her fastidious pride
even drove her to exaggerating her impersonality; she teased him, she
pretended she did not hear when he addressed her, she pretended she was
in love with me. It was only when he was not present that she became
humble, even servile; only then could she even imagine calling on him
unasked. At last she rose: It's time to go to the Russian Ballet, she
said.

Blair excused himself: I'm sorry I must go back and work.

She looked as though a sword had gone through her. But surely,
three-quarters of an hour with Stravinsky is a part of your work. My
car's right here.

He remained firm. He too had a ticket for that night.

For a moment she looked blank. She had never met obstinacy under such
conditions and did not know what to do next. After a moment she bent her
head and pushed back her coffee-cup. Very well, she said lightly. If you
can't, you can't. Samuele and I shall go.

Their parting was grim. During the drive to the Constanzi she remained
silent, fingering the folds of her coat; during the ballet she sat at
the back of the box thinking, thinking, thinking, with staring dry eyes.
At the dose scores of friends pressed about her in the corridor. She
became gay: Let's go to the cabaret run by the Russian refugees, she
said. At the door of the cabaret she dismissed her chauffeur, telling
him that her maid need not sit up for her. We danced for a long time in
silence, her depression stealing back upon her.

When we left the hall the unfriendliest moonlight in the world was
flooding the street. We found a carriage and started towards her home.
But falling into the most earnest conversation in all our acquaintance
we failed to notice that the carriage had reached her door and had been
standing there for some time.

Look, Samuele, do not make me go to bed now. Let me go in and change my
clothes quickly. Then let us drive about and watch the sun come up over
the Campagna. Would that make you angry with me?

I assured her that it was just what I wanted and she hurried into the
house. I paid off the driver who was drunk and quarrelsome and when she
rejoined me we strolled through the streets talking and gradually
inviting a resigned drowsiness. We had experimented with vodka at the
cabaret and the alcohol conferred upon our minds the same mood that the
moonlight was shedding upon the icy bubble of the Pantheon. We strayed
into the courtyard of the Cancelleria and criticized the arches. We
returned to my rooms for cigarettes.

Last night I wasn't at all brave, she said, lying back in the darkness
on the sofa. I was desperate. That was before I received your
invitation. Could I go to see him or couldn't I? A week had gone by. I
asked myself would he feel ... well, insulted, if a lady knocked on his
door at ten o'clock. It was about ten o'clock. Really, there's nothing
peculiar about a lady's paying a perfectly impersonal call at about
nine-thirty. There's nothing self-conscious, Samuele, about my being
here now, for instance. Besides I had a perfectly good reason for going.
He asked me what I thought of La Villegiatura, and since then I had
read it. Now tell, my dear friend, would it have been ridiculous from
the American point of view if I had...?

Beautiful Alix, you are never ridiculous. But wasn't your meeting with
him tonight all the fresher, all the happier, just because you hadn't
seen him for so long?

Oh, how wise you are! she cried. God has sent you to me in my trouble.
Come by me and let me hold your hand. Are you ashamed of me when you
have seen me suffer so? I suppose I should be ashamed. You see me
without any dignity. You have kind eyes and I am not ashamed in front of
you. I think you must have loved too, for you take all my foolishness as
a matter of course. Oh, my dear Samuele, every now and then the thought
comes over me that he despises me. I have all the faults that he hasn't.
When I have this nightmare that he not only dislikes me but laughs at
me, yes, laughs at me, my heart stops beating and I blush for hours at a
time. The only way I can save myself then is by remembering that he has
said many kind things to me; that he sent me that book; that he has
asked after me. And then I pray God very simply to put into his mind
just a bit of regard for me. Just a bit of respect for those things ...
those things that other people seem to like in me.

We sat in silence for a time, her feverish hand plunged deep into mine
and her bright eyes gazing into the darkness. At last she began speaking
again in a lower voice:

He is good. He is reasonable. When I am analytical this way I unfit
myself for his loving me. I must learn to be simple. Yes. Look, you have
done so much for me, may I ask for one more favor. Play to me. I must
get out of my mind that wonderful music where Petrushka wrestles with
himself.

I felt ashamed of playing before her who played far better than any of
us, but I drew out my folios and started right through Gluck's _Armide_.
I had hoped that the inept performance would awaken an æsthetic
annoyance and so shake her out of her dejection, but I presently saw
that she had fallen asleep. After a long and adroit diminuendo I left
the piano, turned on a shaded light near her, and stole off into my own
room. I changed my clothes and lay down ready for the walk in which we
were to see the sun rise. I was trembling with a strange happy
excitement, made up partly of my love and pity for her, and partly from
the mere experience of eavesdropping on a beautiful spirit in the last
reaches of its pride and suffering. I was lying thus, proud and happy in
the role of guardian, when my heart suddenly stopped beating. She was
weeping in her sleep. Sighs welled up from the depths of her slumber,
hoarse protests, obstinate denials and moans followed one upon another.
Suddenly her broken breathing ceased and I knew she was awake. There was
a half-minute of silence; then a low call: Samuele.

Hardly had I appeared at the door before she cried: I know he despises
me. He runs away from me. He thinks me a foolish woman who pursues him.
He tells the servant to tell me he is out, but he stands behind the door
and hears me go away. What shall I do? I'd better not live. I'd better
not live any more. It's best, dear Samuele, that I go out right now, in
my own way, and stop all this mistaken, this, this, futile suffering of
mine. Do you see?

She had arisen and was groping for her hat. I really have courage enough
tonight, she muttered. He is too good and too simple for me to worry him
as I do. I'll just slip out ...

But Alix, I cried. We love you so. So many people love you.

You can't say that people love me. They like to greet me on the stairs.
They like to listen and smile. But no one has ever watched under my
window. No one has secretly learned what I do every hour of the day. No
one has ...

She lay back on the sofa, her cheeks flushed and wet. I talked to her
for a long time. I said that her genius was social, that she was made
for the delight of company, that she relieved others of the weight of
their own boredom, their disguised self-hatred. I promised her that she
could find happiness in the exercise of her gift. I could see by a
glimpse of her wet cheek turned away, that it calmed her to be told so,
for she possessed the one form of genius that is almost never praised to
its face. She grew more tranquil. After a pause she began talking in a
dreamy tone:

I will leave him alone. I will never see him again, she began. When I
was a girl and we lived on the mountains, Samuele, I had a pet goat
named Tertullien that I loved very much. One day Tertullien died. I
would not be comforted. I was hateful and obstinate. The nuns with whom
I went to school could do nothing with me and when it was my turn to
recite I refused to speak. At last my dear Mother Superior called me
into her room and at first I was very bad, even with her. But when she
began to tell me of her losses I flung my arms about her and wept for
the first time. As a punishment she made me stop everyone I met and say
to them twice: _God is sufficient_! _God is sufficient_!

After a pause she added: I know that it can be true for other people,
but I still wanted Tertullien. When is your patience with me coming to
an aid, Samuele?

Never, I said.

The windows were beginning to show the first light of dawn. Suddenly a
little bell rang out near by, a tinkle of purest silver.

Hush, she said. That's the earliest mass at some church.

Santa Maria in Trastevere is just around the corner.

Hurry!

We let ourselves out of the palace and breathed the cold gray air. A
mist seemed to hang low about the street; puffs of blue smoke lay in the
corners. A cat passed us. Shivering but elated we entered the church
joining two old women in wadded clothes and a laborer. The basilica
loomed above, the candles of our side-chapel picking out reflections in
the curious marbles and the gold of the mosaics in the vast black cave.
The service of the Mass was enrolled with expedition and accuracy. When
we came out a milky light had begun to fill the square. The shutters of
several shops were being lowered; drowsy passers-by made the diagonals
staggering; a woman was lowering her chickens in a basket from the fifth
story for a long day's scratching.

We walked over to the Aventine, crossing the Tiber which twisted like a
great yellow rope under a delicate fume. We stopped for a glass of sour
blue-black wine and a paper bag of peaches.

For the time at least the Princess seemed to herself to have forever
closed her mind to even the remotest hope that she would ever see Blair
again. Sitting on a stone bench on the gloomy Aventine while the sun
shouldered its way up through plunging orange clouds, we mused. She
seemed for a time to have fallen back into her old despondency; I
resumed the arguments that spoke more glowingly of her gifts.

Suddenly she straightened up. All right. I will try it for you. I must
do something. Where are you going today?

I murmured that Mme. Agaropoulos was giving a sort of a musicale: that
she was introducing a young compatriot who claimed to have discovered
the secret of ancient Greek music.

Write her a note. Telephone her. Ask her if I may come. I too shall
learn about ancient Greek music. I shall be introduced to everyone
there. I shall be asked to everyone's house. Listen, Samuele, since you
say it is my talent I shall get to know everyone in Rome. I shall die of
social engagements: Here lies the woman who never refused an invitation.
I shall meet two thousand people in ten days. I shall lay myself out to
please anybody on earth. And mind you, Samuele, if that does not nourish
me, we shall have to finish trying, you know....

Mme. Agaropoulos was staggered with joy when she discovered that the
unhoped for the unprocurable Princess was coming to her house. Mme.
Agaropoulos was not the slave of social categories, but she longed to
frequent the Cabala, as some long for the next world. She assumed that
in that company all was wit and love and peace. There one would find no
silly people, none envious, none quarrelsome. She had met the Princess
d'Espoli once and had ever since taken her as the type of person she
would herself have been if she had been better-looking, thinner and had
had more time to read, little realizing that all these had been more in
her power than in Alix, and that she had spoiled her own progress by
a lazy kindliness, great kindliness but lazy.

The Princess called for me in her car at five o'clock. It would be
impossible for me to describe her clothes; it is enough to say that she
had the most incredible power of supplying new angles, shades, lines,
that interpreted her character. This aptitude received added éclat from
her residence in Italy, for Italian women, though often more beautiful,
lack both figure and judgment. They anxiously spend enormous sums in
Paris and achieve nothing but bundles of rich stuffs that bulge or trail
or blow about them in effects they half guess to be unsuccessful, and
seek to repair with a display of stones.

We pursued the Via Po for a mile or two and alighted at the ugliest of
its houses, an example of that modern German architecture that has done
so much for factories. As we mounted the stairs she kept muttering:
Watch me! Watch me! In the hall we found a host of latecomers standing
with their fingers on their lip while from the drawing rooms there
issued the sound of passionate declamation accompanied by the plucking
of a lyre, the desolate _moto perpetuo_ of an oriental flute and a
rhythmic clapping of hands. In other words we had arrived too early; our
campaign for meeting two thousand souls in ten days was being balked at
the outset. Fretted we pushed on into the garden behind the house.
Sitting down on a stone bench, with the tragic ode still faintly
sounding in our ears we gave our attention to the spectacle in the
middle distance of a white-haired gentleman in a wheel-chair overflowing
with brightly-colored shawls. This was Jean Perraye; I told the Princess
of how Mme. Agaropoulos had found the saintly old French poet at the
point of death, wrapt in shawls in a wretched little hotel at Pisa, and
how by supplying him with tender interest, whole milk and a group of pet
animals she had restored his muse, comforted his last years and effected
his entrance into the French Academy. At this moment he was engaged in
addressing a circle of attentive cats. These six cats, intermittently
licking the fine silk of their shoulders, and casting polite glances at
their patron, were gray angoras, the color of cigarette ash. We had read
the poet's latest book and knew their names: six queens of France. We
practically dozed on the bench--the hot sunlight, the choruses of the
_Antigone_ behind and Jean Perraye's exordium to the queens of France
and Persia before, would have made drowsy even those who had not passed
a night of confession and tears.

When we came to ourselves the audition was over and the company, doubly
noisy after music, was shouting its appreciation. We re-entered the
house, hungry for pastry and encounters. A sea of hats, with scores of
self-conscious eyes staring about in perpetual search of new
salutations, marking down the Princess for their own; occasionally the
large stomach of a senator or an ambassador swathed in serge and bound
with a golden chain.

Who's the lady in the black hat? whispered Alix.

Signora Daveni, the great engineer's wife.

Fancy! Will you bring her to me or should you take me to her. No, I'll
go to her. Take me.

Signora Daveni was a plain little woman presenting the high lifted
forehead and fresh eyes of an idealistic boy. Her husband was one of
Italy's foremost engineers, an inventor of many tremendous trifles in
airplane construction and a bulwark of conservative methods in the
rising storm of labor agitation. The Signora was on every philanthropic
committee of any importance in the whole country and during the War had
directed incalculable labors. The consciousness of her responsibilities
combined with a touch of brusqueness from her humble extraction had
brought her into many a short triumphant struggle with cabinets and
senates and there are stories of her having sharply rebuked the vague,
well-intentioned interferences of the royal ladies of Savoy. Yet these
distinctions had only made her manners the simpler and her quick
cordiality was continually deflating the deference that was paid to her.
She dressed badly; she walked badly, her large feet pushing before her
like those of some jar-carrier in an upland village. It had been rather
fine in uniform, but now that she must return to hats and gowns and
rings the consciousness of her lack of grace caused her much depression.
Her home was in Turin, but she lived a great deal in Rome out among the
open lots of the Via Nomentana and knew everyone. The Princess with the
unexpectedness that lies in the very definition of genius turned the
conversation upon the use of sphagnum moss as a surgical dressing. The
diverse excellence of the two women glimpsed one another; the Princess
was astonished to find such quiet mastery in a woman without a _de_ and
the Signora was amazed to find the same quality in a noblewoman.

I drifted off, but presently the Princess rejoined me. She is real, that
woman. I am going to dinner with her Friday; so are you. Find me some
more. Who is that blonde with the voice?

You don't want to know her, Princess.

She must be important with that voice; who is she?

She is the woman in the whole world who is most your opposite.

Then I must know her. Will she give me tea and introduce me to a dozen
people?

Oh, yes, she'll do that. But you haven't a thing in common. She is a
narrow British woman, Princess. Her only interest is in the Protestant
Church. She lives in a little British hotel....

But where does she get that _authority_--and the Princess made a gesture
of perfect mimicry.

Well, I admitted, she has received the highest honors an Englishwoman
can receive. She wrote a hymn and they made her a Dame of the British
Empire.

You see I must be caught out of myself. I must meet her right now.

So I led her up to Dame Edith Steuert, Mrs. Edith Foster Prichard
Steuert, author of Far From Thy Ways, I Strayed, the greatest hymn since
Newman's. Daughter, wife, sister, what not, of clergymen, she lived in
the most exciting currents of Anglicanism. Her conversation ran on
vacant livings and promising young men from Shropshire, and on the
editorials in the latest _St. Georges Banner_ and _The Anglican Cry_.
She sat on platforms and raised subscriptions and got names. She seemed
to be forever surrounded by a ballet of curates and widows who at her
word, rose and swayed and passed the scones. For she was the author of
the greatest hymn of modern times and gazing at her one wondered when
the mood could have struck this loud conceited woman, the mood that had
prompted those eight verses of despair and humility. The hymn could have
been written by Cowper, that gentle soul exposed to the flame of an
evangelism too hot even for negroes. For one minute in her troubled
girlhood all the intermittent sincerity of generations of clergymen must
have combined in her, and late at night, full of dejections she could
not understand, she must have committed to her diary that heartbroken
confession. Then the fit was over, and over for ever. It was a telling
example of that great mystery in religious and artistic experience: the
occasional profundity of nobodies. Dame Edith Steuert on being
presented, straightened visibly to show that she was not impressed by
the title. With a candor that was another surprise, Alix asked her if
she might use her name as reference on her nephew's application for
entrance into Eton College. To be sure the nephew was in Lyons, but if
Dame Edith would permit the Princess to call upon her some afternoon she
would bring some of the boy's letters, photographs and sufficient
apparatus to convince her that he was a student recommendable. Friday
afternoon was agreed upon, and the Princess rejoined me for new
introductions.

So it went on for an hour. The Princess had no method; each new
encounter was a new problem. Within three minutes the meeting became an
acquaintance, and the acquaintance a friendship. Little did the new
friends guess how strange it was to her. She kept asking me what their
husbands "did." It delighted her to think that their husbands did
anything; she had never guessed that one could meet such people and
smiled amazedly like a girl about to meet a real printed poet. A
doctor's wife, the wife of a man in rubber, fancy.... Toward the end of
the afternoon her enthusiasm waned. I feel a little dusty, she
whispered. I feel very Bovary. To think that all this has been going on
in Rome without my knowing it. I'll go and say goodbye to Mme.
Agaropoulos,--_tiens_, who is that beautiful lady. That is an American,
isn't it? Quick.

For the only time in my life I saw the beautiful and unhappy Mrs. Darrell
who had come to take leave of her Roman friends. As she entered the room
a silence fell upon the company; there was something antique, something
Plato would have seized upon in the effect of her beauty. She made much
of it, with that touch of conceit that we allow to a great musician
listening exaggeratedly to his own perfect phrasing, or to the actor who
sets aside author, fellow-players and the fable itself, in order to
improvise the last excessive moments of a death scene. She dressed, she
glanced, she moved and spoke as only uncontested beauties may: she too
revived a lost fine art. To this virtuosity of appearing, her illness
and suffering had added a quality even she could not estimate, a magic
of implied melancholy. But all this perfection of hers was
unapproachable; none of her dearest friends, not even Miss Morrow, dared
to kiss her. She was like a statue in a solitude. She presuffered her
death, and her spirit was set in defiance. She hated every atom of a
creation where such things were possible. The next week she was to
retire to her villa at Capri with her collection of Mantegnas and
Bellinis and to live through four months with their treacherous
love-affair and to die. But this day in the serenity of the selfishness
that was her perfection and the selfishness that was her illness she
effaced the room.

He would have loved me if I had looked like that, breathed Alix into my
ear, and sinking into a retired chair covered her mouth with her hand.

Mme. Agaropoulos took Helen Darrell's fingertips a little timidly and
led her to the finest chair. No one seemed able to say anything. Luigi
and Vittorio, sons of the house, went up and kissed her hand; the
American ambassador approached to compliment her.

She is beautiful. She is beautiful, muttered Alix to herself. The world
is hers. She will never have to suffer as I must. She is beautiful.

It would not have consoled the Princess if I had explained to her that
Helen Darrell, having been admired extravagantly from the cradle had
never been obliged to cultivate her intelligence to retain her friends
and that, if I may say it respectfully, her mind was still that of a
school-girl.

Fortunately the flautist was still there to play and during the
performance of the Paradise music from Orpheus scarcely a pair of eyes
in the room left the newcomer's face. She sat perfectly straight,
allowing herself none of the becoming attitudes which music suggests to
her kind, no ardent attention, no starry-eyed revery. I remember
thinking she marked too deliberately the anti-sentimental. When the
music was over she asked to be taken to say goodbye, for the present,
to Jean Perraye. From the window I could see than alone together, with
the gray cats, queens of France, moving meaninglessly about them. One
wonders what they said to one another as she knelt beside his chair: as
he said later, they loved one another because they were ill.

Alix d'Espoli would not stir until she knew that Mrs. Darrell had left
the house and garden. All her suffering had rushed back upon her. She
pretended to be sipping a cup of tea while she gathered herself
together. I understand now, she murmured hoarsely. God has never meant
me to be happy. Others may be happy with one another. But I shall never
be. I know that now. Let us go.

Then began what was ever after known to the Cabala as Alix aux Enfers.
She would lunch at a tiny pension with some English spinsters; stop in
at some studio in the Via Margutta; pass through a reception at an
Embassy; dance till seven at the Hotel Russie as the guest of some
cosmetic manufacturer's wife; dine with the Queen Mother; hear the last
two acts of the Opera in Marconi's box. Even after that she might feel
the need of finishing the day at the Russian cabaret, perhaps
contributing herself a monologue to the program. She no longer had any
time to see the Cabala and it watched her progress with terror. They
begged her to come back to them, but she only laughed at them with her
bright febrile eyes and dashed off into her new-found whirlpools. Long
after when some Roman name arose in their conversation they would all
cry: Alix knows them! To which she would reply coolly: Of course I know
them, and a roar would arise from the table. The acquaintances she was
now pursuing for distraction, I had long since pursued for study or from
simple liking; but she soon outstripped me by the hundreds. I went to a
few engagements with her, but often enough we would come upon one
another in ludicrous situations; whereupon we would retire behind a door
and compare notes as to how we got there. Did Commendatore Boni ask a
few people to the Palatine? she was there. Did Benedetto Croce give a
private reading of a paper on George Sand? we glimpsed one another
gravely in that solemn air. She lost a comb in defence of Reality at the
stormy opening of Pirandello's Sei Personaggi in Cerca d'Autore; at
Casella's party for Mengelberg, who had been surpassing himself at the
Augusteo, dear old Bossi stood on her train and the sound of ripping
satin caught the enraptured ear of a dozen organists.

When the bourgeoisie discovered that she was accepting invitations there
was a tumult as of many waters. Most of her hostesses assumed that she
would not have come to them were it not for the fact that better doors
were beginning to be closed against her, but fair or foul they would
accept her. And they had her at her best; the faint touch of frenzy that
was driving her on only rendered her gift the more dazzling. People who
had spent their lives laughing at tiresome jokes were now given
something to laugh at. She would be begged to do this or that "bit"
which had become famous. Have you heard Alix do the Talking Horse? No,
but she did the Kronprinz in Frascati for us last Friday. Oh, aren't you
lucky!

For the first time she was seeing something of artists and among them
she was enjoying her liveliest successes. The underpainting of her
misery which especially these days rendered her wit so magical was much
clearer to them than to the manufacturers. They never failed to mention
it and their love led them to paying her the strangest tributes which at
the time she was in too great a daze to stop and value.

For a while I thought she was enjoying all this. She would laugh so
naturally over some of the accidents of the days. Moreover I noticed
that she was forming some very rare attachments and I hoped that the
friendship of Signora Daveni or of Duse or of Besnard would be able to
comfort and finally reconcile her. But one evening I was suddenly shown
how utterly ineffectual this plunging about the jungle was.

After a month's absence James Blair wrote me from Spain that he had to
come back to Rome, even if it were only for a week. He promised to see
no one, to keep up side-streets and to get out as soon as it was
possible.

I wrote him back in the strongest profanity that it was impossible. Go
anywhere else. Don't fool with such things.

He replied, no less angry, that he could move about the earth as freely
as everybody else. Whether I liked it or not he was coming to Rome the
following Wednesday and nothing would stop him. He was on the traces of
the Alchemists. He wanted to know all that was left of the old secret
societies and his search was leading to Rome. Since I could do nothing
to prevent his coming I could at least devote my energies to concealing
it. I took almost ridiculous precautions. I even saw to it that Mlle de
Morfontaine had Alix in Tivoli over the week-end and that Besnard had
her sitting for a portrait most of the mornings. But there is a certain
spiritual law that requires our tragic coincidences. Which of us has not
felt it? Take no precautions.

The seer whom Blair had returned to visit, Sareptor Basilis, lived in
three rooms on the top floor of an old palace in the Via Fontanella di
Borghese. Rumor had it that he could make lightning play about his left
hand and that when his meditations approached ecstacy he could be seen
sitting among the broken arcs of a dozen rainbows; and that as you
mounted the dark stairs you fought your way through the welcoming ghosts
as through a swarm of bees. In the front room where the meetings were
held (Wednesdays for adepts, Saturdays for beginners) one was awed by
discovering a circular hole in the roof that was never closed. Under it
had been laid a zinc-lined depression that carried off the rain water
and in this depression stood the master's chair.

Long meditation and ecstatic trances had certainly beautified his face.
His blue-green eyes, not incapable of sudden acuteness, drifted vaguely
about under a smooth pink forehead; he had the bushy white eyebrows and
beard of Blake's Creator. Except for his long walks he seemed to have no
private life, but sat all day and night under the hole in the roof,
lending an ear to a whispering visitor, writing slowly with his left
hand, or gazing up into the sky. A host of people from every walk of
life sought him out and held him in reverence. He gave no thought to
practical necessities, for his admirers, spiritually prompted, were
continually leaving significant looking envelopes beside him on the
zinc-lined depression. Some left bottles of wine and bars of bread, and
brown silk shirts. The only human occupation that arrested his attention
was music, and it is said that he would stand by the door of the
Augusteo on the afternoon of a symphony concert and wait for some
passerby, spiritually prompted, to buy him a ticket. If none came, he
would continue on his way without bitterness. He composed music himself,
hymns for unaccompanied voices which he affirmed he had heard in dream.
They were written in a notation resembling our own, but not sufficiently
so to allow of transcription. I have puzzled for hours over the score of
a certain _Lo, where the rose of dispersion empurples the dawn_. This
motet for ten voices, a chorus of angels on the last day, began plainly
enough with the treble clef on five staves, but how was one to interpret
a sudden shrinkage of the horizontal lines to two in all parts? I humbly
approached the master on this subject. He replied that the effect of the
music at that point could only be expressed by a radical departure from
standard notation; that the economy of staves denoted an acuity of
pitch; that the note on which my thumb was reposing was an E, a violet
E, an E of the quality of a lately-warmed amethyst ... music powerless
to express ... ah ... the rose of dispersion empurples. At first the
nonsense in which he moved and thought enraged me. I invented
opportunities for provoking his absurdity. I improvised a story about a
pilgrim who had come up to me in the nave of the Lateran and told me it
was God's will that I should return with him to a leper colony in
Australia. Dear Master, I cried, how shall I know if this be my real
vocation? His answer was not clear. I was told that destiny herself was
the mother of decision, and that my vocation would be settled by events
not by consideration. In the next breath I was bidden to do nothing
rashly; to lay my ear over the lute of eternity and to plan my life in
harmony with the cosmic overtones. During the course of a year thousands
of women visited him, of every rank, and in every sort of perplexity,
and to each one he offered the comforts of metaphor. They came away from
him with shining faces; these phrases were beautiful and profound to
them; they wrote them in their diaries and murmured them over to
themselves when they were tired.

Basilis was attended by two homely sisters, the Adolfini girls. Lise
must have been thirty and Vanna about twenty-eight. They say that he ran
across them in the Italian quarter of London where they were serving as
attendants in a ballet school. Penury and abuse had left them scarcely
the human semblance. Every evening at eleven when they had unlaced the
last slipper of the night class, treated the floor with tallow, polished
the bars and tied up the chandelier, they went around the corner to the
Café Roma for a thimbleful of coffee to sip with their bread. Here
Basilis was to be found, a photographer's assistant with grandiose
pretensions. He was vice-president of the Rosicrucian Mysteries, Soho
Chapter, a group of clerks, waiters and idealistic barbers who found
compensation for the humiliations they underwent by day in the glories
they ascribed to themselves by night. They met in darkened rooms, took
oaths with one hand resting on the works of Swedenborg, read papers on
the fabrication of gold and its metaphysical implications, and elected
one another with great earnestness to the offices of arch-adept and
_magister hieraticorum_. They corresponded with similar societies in
Birmingham, Paris and Sydney, and sent sums of money to the last of the
magi, Orzinda-Mazda of Mount Sinai. Basilis first discovered his power
over the minds of women when he fell into the habit of talking to the
two mute sisters in the café. They listened wide-eyed to his stories of
how some workmen near Rome, breaking by chance into the tomb of Cicero's
daughter, Tulliola, discovered an ever-burning lamp suspended in
mid-air, its wick feeding on Perpetual Principle; of how Cleopatra's son
Cæsarion was preserved in a translucent liquid "oil of gold," and could
be still seen in an underground shrine at Vienna; and of how Virgil
never died, but was alive still on the Island of Patmos, eating the
leaves of a peculiar tree. The wonder-stories, the narrator's
apocalyptic eyes, the excitement of being spoken to without anger, and
the occasional offer of Vermouth bewitched the sisters. They became his
unquestioning slaves; with the money they had saved up he opened a
Temple where his gift met extraordinary success. The girls left the
ballet school and became doorkeepers in the house of their lord. The new
leisure into which they entered, the sufficient food, the privilege of
serving Basilis, his confidence and his love, combined to constitute a
burden of happiness almost too great to be borne. Happiness is in
proportion to humility: the humility of the Adolfini girls was so
profound that there was in it no room for the expression of gratitude or
surprise; in the face of it food could not fatten them nor love soften
their bony features; not even when after some altercation with the
London police Basilis and his handmaidens removed to their native Rome.
To be sure the master in turn never confessed his indebtedness to the
girls for their silent and skillful ministration. Even in love he was
impersonal; they merely provided him with that mood of gentle satiety of
the senses which is an indispensable element of the philosopher's
meditation.

It was under this skylight then that Blair and I sat at about
eleven-thirty, waiting for the public séance to begin. We were early,
and leaning back against the wall we watched the little group of
visitors that one by one moved up to the unboxed confessional that was
the master's ear. A clerk with watery eyes and trembling hands; a stout
lady of the middle class, gripping a large shopping purse and talking
with great rapidity about her _nepote_; a trim little professional
woman, probably a lady's maid, stuffing a tiny handkerchief into her
mouth as she sobbed. Basilis' eyes seldom strayed to his visitors'
faces, while he dismissed them with a few measured grave sentences his
glance revealed nothing but its serene abstraction. Presently a younger
woman, heavily veiled, crossed the floor swiftly to the empty chair
beside him. She must have been there before, for she lost no time in
greetings. Under deep emotion she pleaded with him. A little surprised
by her vehemence he interrupted her several times with the words _Mia
figlia_. The reproaches only increased her energy, and brushing back her
veil with her hand in order to thrust her face into the sage's she
revealed herself as Alix d'Espoli. Terror went through me; I seized
Blair's arm and made signs that we were to escape. But at that moment
the Princess with a gesture of anger, as though she had come, not so
much to ask the sage's counsel, as to announce a determination, rose and
turned to the door. Unerringly her eyes met ours, and the rebellious
light died out, to be replaced by fear. For a moment the three of us
hung suspended on one cord of horror. Then the Princess collected
herself long enough to tincture the despairing contraction of her mouth
with a smile; she bowed to us deliberately in turn and passed almost
majestically from the room.

At once I returned home and wrote her a long letter, using the whole
truth as a surgeon in an extremity would resort to a wholesale guesswork
with the knife. I never received an answer. And our friendship was over.
I had often to meet her again, and we even came finally to have
agreeable conversations together, but we never mentioned the affair and
there was a glaze of impersonality over her eyes.

From the night she had seen us in Basilis' rooms the Princess gave up
her social researches as abruptly as she had begun them. Nor did she
ever go to the Rosicrucian again. I heard that she was attempting the
few remaining consolations that lie open to affliction: she took to the
fine arts; she climbed up ladders respectfully placed for her in the
Sistine Chapel and stared at the frescos through magnifying glasses; she
resumed the culture of her voice and even sang a little in public. She
started off on a trip to Greece, but came back without any explanations
a week later. There was a hospital phase during which she cut off her
hair and tiptoed about among the wards.

At last the beating of the wings, the darting about the cage, subsided.
She had come to the second stage of convalescence: the mental pain that
had been so great that it had to be passed into the physical and that
expressed itself in movement, had now sufficiently abated to permit her
to think. All her vivacity left her and she sat about in her friends'
homes listening to their visitors.

Little by little then her old graces began to reappear. First a few wry
sarcasms, gently slipping off her tongue; then some rueful narratives in
which she appeared in a poor light; then ever so gradually the wit, the
energy, and last of all the humor.

The whole Cabala trembled with joy, but pretended to have noticed
nothing. Only one night when for the first time at table she had
returned to her gorgeous habit of teasing the Cardinal on his Chinese
habits, only once on leaving the table did he take her two hands and
gaze deep into her eyes with a significant smile that both reproached
her for her long absence and welcomed her back. She blushed slightly and
kissed the sapphire.

I, who know nothing about such things, assumed that the grand passion
was over and dreaded any moment seeing her interesting herself in some
new Northerner. But one little incident taught me how deep a wound may
be.

One afternoon at the villa in Tivoli we were standing on the balcony
overlooking the falls. Whenever she was left alone with me her charm
abated; she seemed to be fearing that I might attempt a confidence; the
muscles at the corners of her mouth would tighten. We were joined from
the house by a well-known Danish archaeologist who began to discourse
upon the waterfall and its classical associations. Suddenly he stopped
and turning to me, cried:

Oh, I have a message for you. How could I have forgotten that! I met a
friend of yours in Paris. A young American named Blair--let me see, was
it Blair?

Yes, Doctor.

What a young man! How many of you Americans are like that? I suppose you
never met him, Princess? ...

Yes, replied Alix, I knew him too.

Such intelligence! He is surely the greatest instinctive scholar I have
ever met, and, believe me, perhaps he is all the greater for never
putting anything down on paper. And such modesty, Princess,--the modesty
of the great scholar that knows that all the learning one human head can
hold is but a grain of dust. I spent two whole nights over his notebooks
and I honestly felt as though I had brushed against a Leonardo, really,
a Leonardo.

We both stood rapt, listening to the waves of happy praise when suddenly
I became aware that the Princess had fainted beside me with a happy
smile upon her face.



BOOK FOUR: ASTRÉE-LUCE AND THE CARDINAL


There was a vague understanding among the members of the Cabala that I
was engaged upon the composition of play about Saint Augustine. None of
my friends had ever seen the manuscript (even I was surprised to come
upon it every now and then at the bottom of my trunk), but it was
treated with enormous respect. Mlle de Morfontaine especially kept
asking about it, kept walking about on tiptoes and glancing at it
sideways. It was to this that she was alluding in the note I received
soon after Blair's frightened departure: Try and arrange to come up to
the Villa for a few weeks. It is perfectly quiet until five o'clock
every afternoon. You can work on your poem.

It was my turn for a little peace. I had so recently passed through the
desperations of Marcantonio and Alix. I sat holding the note for a long
while, my wary nervous system begging me to be cautious, begging me to
make sure that no hysterical evenings could possibly lie behind it. Here
was a place where it was perfectly quiet until five o'clock every
afternoon. It was five o'clock every morning that I wanted to be
reassured about. You can work on your poem. Surely the only vexation
that could proceed from that wonderful lady lay exactly there,--she
would be asking me every morning about the progress on the Third Act. It
would be good for me to be hectored about my play. And what wonderful
wines she stored. To be sure the lady was mad, indubitably mad. But mad
in a nice way, with perfect dignity; decently mad on a million a year.
I wrote her I would come.

What could have been more reassuring than the first days? Mornings of
sunlight when the dust settled thicker on the olive-leaves; when the
terraced hillside seemed to be powdering away; when no sound reached the
garden but the cry of a carter in the road, the cooing of doves,
stepping high along the eaves of the gardener's shed, and the sound of
the waterfall with its mysterious retardations, a sound of bronze. I ate
luncheon alone under a grape arbor. The rest of the day was spent in
roaming over the hills or among the high chairs of Astrée-Luce's rich
and curious library.

From the middle of the afternoon one sensed the approach of dinner. One
felt the gradual tightening of the chord of formality until, like the
bursting of some pyrotechnical bomb, full of dazzling lights and
fascinating detail, the ceremony began. For hours there had come a hum
as of bees from the wing of the house that contained the kitchen; there
followed the flights of maids and hairdressers through the corridors,
the candle-lighter, the flower-bearers. The crushing of gravel under the
window announces the arrival of the first guests. The majordomo clasps
on his golden chain and takes his place with the footmen at the door.
Mlle de Morfontaine descends from her tower kicking her train about to
teach it its flexibility. A string quartet on the balcony begins a waltz
by Glazounov as subdued as a surreptitious rehearsal. The evening takes
on the air of a pageant by Reinhardt. One passes to the saloon. At the
head of the table behind peaks of fruits and ferns, or cascades of
crystal and flowers, sits the hostess, generally in yellow satin, her
high ugly face lit with its half-mad surprise. She generally supports a
headdress of branching feathers and looks like nothing so much as a bird
of the Andes blown to that bleakness by the coldest Pacific breezes.

I have described how Miss Grier brooded over her table and placed
herself to hear every word whispered by her remotest guest. Astrée-Luce
followed a contrary procedure and heard so little of what was said that
her very guest of honor was often obliged to resign all hope of engaging
her attention. She would seem to have been caught up into a trance; her
eyes would be fixed on some corner of the ceiling as though she were
trying to catch the distant slamming of a door. Generally some Cabalist
held the opposite end of the table: Mme. Bernstein, huddled up in her
rich fur cape, looking like an ailing chimpanzee and turning from side
to side the encouraging amiability of her grimace; or the Duchess
d'Aquilanera, a portrait by Moroni, her dress a little spotty, her face
a little smudged, but somehow evoking all the passionate dishonest
splendid barons of her line; or Alix d'Espoli making passes with her
exquisite hands and transforming the guests into witty and lovable and
enthusiastic souls. Miss Grier seldom came, having festivals of her own
to direct. Nor was it often possible to invite the Cardinal, since any
company to meet him must be chosen with infinite discretion.

Almost every evening after the last guest had left the hill or retired
to bed, and the last servant had finished finding little things to
adjust, Astrée-Luce and I would descend into the library and have long
talks over a drop of _fine_. It was then that I began to understand the
woman and to see where my first judgments had been wrong. This was not
a silly spinster of vast wealth nourishing a Royalist chimæra; nor the
sentimental half-wit of the philanthropic committees; but a Second
Century Christian. A shy religious girl so little attached to the things
about her that she might awake any day and discover that she had
forgotten her name and address.

Astrée-Luce has always illustrated for me the futility of goodness
without intelligence. The dear creature lived in a mist of real piety;
her mind never drifted long from the contemplation of her creator; her
every impulse was goodness itself: but she had no brains. Her charities
were immense but undigested; she was the prey of anyone who wrote her a
letter. Fortunately her donations were small, for she lacked the
awareness to be either avaricious or prodigal. I think she would have
been very happy as a servant; she would have understood the role, have
seen beauty in it, and if her position had been full of humiliation and
trials it would have deeply nourished her. Sainthood is impossible
without obstacles and she never could find any. She had heard over and
over again of the sins of pride and doubt and anger, but never having
felt even the faintest twinge she had passed through the earlier stages
of the spiritual life in utter bewilderment. She felt sure that she was
a wicked sinful woman, but did not know how to go about her own reform.
Sloth? She had been on her knees an hour every morning before her maid
appeared. So difficult, so difficult is the process of making oneself
good. Pride? At last after intense self-examination she thought she had
isolated in herself some vestiges of pride. She attacked them with fury.
She forced herself to do appalling things in public in order to uproot
the propensity. Pride of appearance or of wealth? She soiled her sleeves
and bodice intentionally and suffered the silent consternation of her
friends.

She read the lessons so literally that I have seen her give away her
coat time after time. I have seen her walk miles with a friend who asked
her to go as far as the road. Now I was to learn that her fits of
abstraction were withdrawals into herself for prayer and adoration, and
often caused by almost ludicrous incidents. I was no longer left to
wonder why all references to fish and fishing sent her off into the
clouds; I realized that the Greek word for fish was the monogram of her
Lord and acted upon her much as a muezzin's call acts upon a Mohammedan.
A traveller spoke flippantly of the pelican; at once Mlle de Morfontaine
repaired to her mental altar and besought its guest not to grieve at the
disrespect paid to one of His most vivid symbols. Strangest illustration
of all was shown me a little later. One day she chanced to notice on my
hall table an envelope which I had addressed to Miss Irene H. Spencer, a
teacher of Latin in the High Schools at Grand Rapids, who had come over
to put her hand on the Forum. At once Astrée-Luce insisted on meeting
her. I never told Miss Spencer why she had been tendered so amazing a
luncheon, why her hostess had listened so breathlessly to her trivial
travelogues, nor why on the following day a golden chain hung with
sapphires had been left at the pension for her. In fact Miss Spencer was
a devout Methodist and would have been shocked to learn that IHS meant
anything.

Strange though Mlle de Morfontaine was, she was never ridiculous. Such
utter refusal of self can by sheer excess become a substitute for
intelligence. Certainly she was able to let fall remarkably penetrating
judgments, judgments that proceded from the intuition without passing
through the confused corridors of our reason. Though she was
exasperating at times, at others she would abound in almost miraculous
perceptions of one's needs. People as diverse as Donna Leda and myself
had to love her, one moment almost with condescension as to an
unreasonable child, and the next with awe, with fear in the presence of
something of infinite possibility. Whom were we entertaining unawares?
Might this, oh literally! be an...?

This then was the being whom I came to know during those late
conversations in the library over a drop of _fine_. The talk was
leisurely, full of pauses and to no point, but my bruised instinct could
no longer escape the conviction that there was some deeply important
matter that she wished to submit to me. I soon foresaw that I was not to
rest. My dread of the revelation however was heightened by the obvious
difficulty Astrée-Luce found in coming to the point. Finally instead of
trying to avoid the discussion I tried to provoke it; I thought I could
help here and there by opening veins of conversation that might surprise
her problem. But no. The happy moment hung off.

One evening, she asked me abruptly whether it would greatly interfere
with my work if we were to move to Anzio for a few days. I replied that
I should like nothing better. All I knew of Anzio was that it was one of
the resorts on the sea, a few hours from Rome, the site of one of
Cicero's villas, and near Nettuno. She added a little anxiously that we
should have to go to a hotel, a very poor hotel at that, but that it was
out of season and there were ways in which she could supply some of the
deficiencies of the service. A little foresight could prevent my being
too uncomfortable.

So one morning we climbed into the large plain car she reserved for
travelling and drove westward. The back seat served as a warehouse. One
glimpsed a maid, a prie-dieu, a cat, a real panel by Fra Angelico, a box
of wines, fifty books and some window curtains. I found out later that
there had been a lavish assortment of caviare, paté, truffles and
ingredients for rare sauces by which, with a discouraging failure to
understand me, she intended to supplement the resources of a tourists'
hotel. She drove, herself, and in nothing did Heaven's interest in her
reveal itself more clearly. First we stopped at Ostia so that I might
see the veritable spot where the last scene of my wretched play took
place. We read aloud the page of Augustine and I silently vowed to
renounce forever any notion of rephrasing it.

On our first evening at Anzio a cold wind blew in from the sea. The
vines and shrubs whipped the houses; the lamps of the cafés about die
square swung cheerlessly over wet tables; one could not escape the
desolate slip-slap of the waves against the sea-wall. But we both had a
taste for such weather. We decided at about six o'clock to walk to
Nettuno returning for dinner at half-past nine. We wrapped ourselves in
rubber and started off, leaning against the wind and spray and feeling
strangely exhilarated. For a time we walked in silence, but entering at
last that portion of the road that lies between the high walls of the
villas, Astrée-Luce began to talk:

I have told you before, Samuele, (the whole Cabala had followed the
Princess in calling me Samuele) that the hope of my life is to see a
king reigning in France. How impossible such a thing seems now! No one
knows it better than I. But everything I love most is improbable. And it
is the fact that it seems so untimely that will help us most when we
come to prepare the Divine Right of Kings as a dogma of the Church. What
anger there will be, what sneers! Even important Churchmen will rush
down to Rome and beg us not to upset the progress of Catholicism by such
a move. There will be controversies. All the newspapers and the reviews
will be shouting and weeping and laughing and the whole basis of
democratic government, the folly of republics, will be aired. Europe
will be cleansed of the poison in its side. We have nothing to fear from
debates. The people will turn to God and ask to be ruled by those houses
of His choosing.--However, I am not trying to convince you of it now,
Samuele; I am only stating it so as to lead up to something else. You
are a Protestant; does this make you impatient? Are you tired of me?

No, no, please. I am very interested, I replied.

At that moment our road brought us again to the water's edge. We stood
for a moment on a parapet looking down on the loud sea that plunged
about on the washing stones of a village. It began to rain. Astrée-Luce
was gripping the iron railing watching the steam that rose from the
waves; she was crying silently.

Perhaps, she continued, as we returned to our journey, you can imagine
the tenth part of my disappointment as I watch the Cardinal getting
older, and myself, and the nations falling deeper and deeper into error,
and so little done. He can help us. He seems to me to have been
especially created to help us. I do not forget his work in China. It was
heroic. But what a greater work remains for him in Europe. Year follows
year and still he sits up there on the Janiculum, reading and walking in
the garden. Europe is dying. He will not stir.

At the time I was deeply moved. The rain and her tears and the puddles
and the slapping noises of the water against the sea-wall had begun to
affect me. All the voices of nature kept repeating: Europe is Dying. I
would have liked to stop and have a good meaningless cry myself, but I
had to listen to the voice beside me:

I cannot understand why he does not write. Perhaps I am not meant to
understand. I know he believes that the universality of the Church is
imminent. I know that he believes that a Catholic Crown is the only
possible rule. But he does not stir to help us. All we ask from him is a
book on the Church and the States. Think, Samuele, his learning, his
logic, his style--but you have never heard him preach? His irony in
controversy and his amazing perorations! What would be left of
Bosanquet? The constitutions of the republics of the world would be
tossed about--you will forgive me if I seem disrespectful to your great
country--tossed about like eggshells. His book would not be just a book
fallen from the press: it would be a force of nature; it would be the
simultaneous birth of an idea in a thousand minds. It would be placed at
once on the canon and bound up with the Bible. And yet he spends his day
among rose bushes and rabbits and reading histories of this and that. I
want to do this in my life time; I want to arouse this great man to his
task. And you can help me.

I was excited. The air was full of a divine absurdity. Here was someone
who was not afraid of using superlatives. This was being mad on a great
scale. It would be hard to come down to ordinary living after these
intoxicating threats against the presidents of this world and the
binderies of the British Bible Society. I tried to think of something to
say. I mumbled something about willingness.

She did not notice my inadequacy. It seems to me, she continued, that I
have at last discovered one of the causes of his reluctance to join us.
But first, tell me how he is regarded by the various Romans whom you
have met. What is his legend among people who do not know him?

Here I was frightened. Could _she_ have heard? How could any of those
strange rumors have reached her?

But she would learn nothing from me. I took leave of good faith and told
her all the favorable reports I had heard. Simple souls were captivated
by the thought that apart from a few major obligations he lived on
sixty-five lire a week; that he spoke twelve languages; that he enjoyed
polenta; that he visited in certain Roman homes (her own, in particular)
without ceremony; that he was translating the Confessions and the
Imitation into exquisite Chinese. I knew Romans who so loved the very
thought of him that they took walks to the Janiculan Hill solely to peer
between his garden gates and lurked about the house in the hope of
giving their children an opportunity to kiss his ring.

Astrée-Luce waited in silence. At last she said with only a trace of
reproach:

You are trying to spare me, Samuele. But I know. There are other stories
about him. His enemies have been at work systematically poisoning his
prestige. We know that there is no one in Rome who is kinder, more
humble, higher-minded; but among the common people he has almost the
reputation of a monster. Some people have been at work spreading such
rumors deliberately. And the Cardinal has heard of them: through the
whispering of servants or by cries in the road, or by anonymous letters,
in all sorts of ways. He exaggerates this attitude. He feels that he is
in a hostile world. It has made his old age tragic. And that is why he
will not write. Yet it is within our power to save him still.--But look!
There is a francobollo shop. Let us get some cigarettes and find some
place to sit down. It makes me so happy to talk of this!

Provided with cigarettes we looked about for a wine shop. Our wish
evoked one at the next curve in the road, a smoky uncordial tunnel, but
we sat down before the glasses of sour inky wine and continued our
conspiracy. Astrée-Luce confessed that if the ill-odor had become
attached to the Cardinal's name through any real delinquencies on his
part, we could not have hoped to dissipate it. Truth in such subtle
regions as rumor would be unalterable. But she knew that the aspersions
in this case were the result of a clever campaign and she felt sure that
a countercampaign could still sweeten his reputation. In the first place
our enemies had taken advantage of the Italians' prejudice against the
Orient. An Italian enjoys the same delicious shudder at the sight of a
Chinaman that an American boy does at the mention of a trapdoor over a
river. The Cardinal had returned from the East yellow, unwrinkled. His
walk troubled them. It was easy to build upon this, to pass the whisper
along the Trasteverine underworld that he kept strange images, that
animals (his gardenful of rabbits and ducks and guinea fowl) could be
heard shrieking late at night, that his faithful Chinese servant had
been seen in all sorts of terrifying attitudes. Next, his frugal life
stirred their imaginations. Every one knew he was fabulously wealthy.
Rubies as big as your fist and sapphires like doorknobs, where were
they? Did you ever go up to the gate of the Villino Wei Ho? Come with me
Sunday. If you sniff hard enough you can get the strangest odor, one
that will leave you drowsy for days and give you dreams.

We were to change all this. We sat there choosing a committee of
rehabilitation. We were to have magazine articles, newspaper paragraphs.
His eightieth birthday was approaching. There would be presentations.
Mlle de Morfontaine was donating a Raphael altar piece to his titular
church. But most of all we would send out agents among the people,
telling them of his goodness, his simplicity, his donations to their
hospitals, and ever so faintly his sympathy with socialistic ideas; he
was to be the People's Cardinal. We had anecdotes of his snubbing the
arrogant members of the College, of his defending a poor man who had
stolen a chalice from his church. China was to be recreated for the
Trasteverines. And so on. We were to prop up the Cardinal so that the
Cardinal could prop up Europe.

When we returned to the hotel that night Astrée-Luce seemed to have
grown ten years younger. Apparently I was the first person to whom she
had outlined her vision. She was so eager to be at work that she
suddenly asked me if I minded packing up again and going back to Tivoli
that night. We could the better start work in the morning. What she
really wanted was the exhilaration and fatigue of driving (her terrible
driving) before she went to bed. So we put back into the car the maid,
the Fra Angelico, the ingredients for sauces and the cat, and returned
to the Villa Horace at about two in the morning.

The Cardinal was not to know that we were putting up a scaffolding about
his good name and freshening the colors; but we were to persuade him not
to do some of the things that particularly antagonized the public. The
very next morning Astrée-Luce shyly begged me to go and see him. She
did not know why, but she had a vague idea that now I knew her hopes my
eyes would be open to significant details.

I found him as one could find him every sunny day the year round, seated
in the garden, a book on his knee, a reading glass in his left hand, a
pen in his right, a head of cabbage and a Belgian hare at his feet. A
pile of volumes lay on the table beside him: "Appearance and Reality,"
Spengler, "The Golden Bough," "Ulysses," Proust, Freud. Already their
margins had begun to exhibit the spidery notations in green ink that
indicated a closeness of attention that would embarrass all but the
greatest authors.

He laid aside his magnifying glass as I came up the path of shells.
_Eccolo, questo figliolo di Vitman, di Poe, di Vilson, di Guglielmo
James,--di Emerson, che dico_! What do you want?

Mlle de Morfontaine wants you to come to dinner Friday night, just the
three of us.

Very good. Very nice. What else?

What do you want, Father, for your birthday? Mlle de Morfontaine wants
me to sound you tactfully ...

Tactfully!--Samuelino, walk to the back of the house and tell my sister
you will stay to lunch. I am to have a little Chinese vegetable dish.
Will you have that or a little risotto and chestnut-paste? You can buy
yourself something solid on the way down hill. How is Astrée-Luce?

Very well.

A little illness would be good for her. I am uncomfortable when I am
with her. There are certain doctors, Samuele, who are not happy when
they are talking to people in good health. They are so used to the
supplicating eyes of patients that say: Shall I live? In the same way I
am ill at ease in the company of persons who have never suffered.
Astrée-Luce has eyes of blue porcelain. She has a fair pure heart. It
is sweet to be in the company of a fair pure heart, but what can one say
to it?

There was St. Francis, Father...?

But he had been libertine in his youth, or thought he had.--Senta! Who
can understand religion unless he has sinned? who can understand
literature unless he has suffered? who can understand love unless he has
loved without response? _Eco_! The first sign of Astrée-Luce's being in
trouble was last month. There is a certain Monsignore who wants her
millions for his churches in Bavaria. Every few days he climbs the hill
to Tivoli and breathes into her ear: _And rich He hath sent empty away_.
The poor child trembles and pretty soon Bavaria will have some enormous
churches, too ugly for words. Oh, you know, there is for every human
being one text in the Bible that can shake him, just as every building
has a musical note that can overthrow it. I will not tell you mine, but
do you want to know Leda d'Aquilanera's? She is a great hater, and they
say that during the Pater Noster she closes her teeth tight upon: _Sicut
et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris_.

At this he laughed for a long time, his body shaking in silence.

But was not Astrée-Luce devoted to her mother? I asked.

No, she has had no losses. That was when she was ten. She has poetized
her, that is all.

Father, why did not that literal faith of hers carry her to a convent?

She promised her dying mother she would stay alive to put a Bourbon on
the throne of France.

How can you laugh, Father, at her devotion to ...

We old men are allowed to laugh at things that you little students may
not even smile about. Oh, oh, the house of Bourbon. Would you be
surprised if I gave up my life to reviving the royal brother-and-sister
marriages of Egypt? Well! It is not more impossible.

Dear Father, won't you write one more book? Look, you have about you all
the greatest books of the first quarter of my century ...

And very stupid they are, too.

Won't you make us one. Such a great book, Father Vaini. About yourself,
essays like Montaigne,--about China and about your animals and
Augustine ...

Stop! No! Stop at once. You frighten me. Do not you see that the first
sign of childhood in me will be the crazy notion that I should write a
book? Yes, I could write a book better than this ordure that your age
has offered us (and with a sharp blow he pushed over the tower of books;
the Belgian hare gave a squeal as he barely escaped being pinned under
Schweitzer's Skizze). But a Montaigne, a Machiavelli ... a ... a ...
Swift, I will never be. How horrible, how horrible it would be if you
should come here some day and find me writing. God preserve me from the
last folly. Oh, Samuele, Samuelino, how bad of you to come here this
morning, and awaken all the vulgar prides in an old peasant. No, don't
pick than up. Let the animals soil them. What is the matter with this
Twentieth Century of yours...? You want me to compliment you because
you have broken the atom and bent light? Well, I do, I do.--You may tell
our rich friends, tactfully, that I want for my birthday a small Chinese
rug now reposing in the window of a shop on the Corso. It would be
unbecoming for me to say more than that it is on the left as you
approach the Popolo.--The floor of my bedroom is getting colder every
morning, and I always promised myself that when I became eighty I might
have a rug in my bedroom.


What went wrong?

The first hour was delightful. The Cardinal always ate very little
(never meat) and that with preposterous slowness. If his soup took him
ten minutes his rice required half an hour. To be sure the elements of
trouble were present merely in these friends' characters. They were so
different that just to hear them talking together had an air of high
comedy. First, Astrée-Luce made the mistake of referring to the
Bavarian Monsignore. She suspected that the Cardinal was out of sympathy
with any plans she might have of helping the Church in that direction;
she longed to talk over with him the problem of her wealth and its
disposition, but he refused to give her the least advice. He had endless
resources of ingenuity in evading the subject. As Rome was arranged at
that time it was most important that he should exercise no influence on
that aspect of his friend's life. Yet he allowed it to be seen that he
knew she would handle the matter foolishly. It ailed him to see such an
enormous instrument for progress drift down the wind of ecclesiastical
administration.

Now we must remember that it was the eve of his eightieth birthday. We
have already seen that the event had precipitated a flood of amused
bitterness. As he said later, he should have died at the moment of
leaving his work in China. The eight years that had elapsed since then
had been a dream of increasing confusion. Living is fighting and away
from the field the most frightening changes were taking place in his
mind. Faith is fighting, and now that he was no longer fighting he
couldn't find his faith anywhere. This vast reading was doing something
to him.... But most of all we must remember his terror at the thought
that the people of Rome hated him. He would leave in dying a memory
without affection and without dignity. An anonymous letter had told him
that even in Naples children were kept in good behavior with threats
that the Yellow Cardinal would skin them. If one were young one would
laugh at such a rumor, but being old one grew cold. He was leaving a
world where he was shuddered at for a world that was no longer as
distinct as it had been, but which might yet have this consolation that
he would not be able to look down from it and see the people
surreptitiously spitting on the endings in _issimus_ that would compose
his epitaph.

Before I knew it we were in the middle of a wrangle about prayer.
Astrée-Luce had always longed to hear the Cardinal discourse upon
abstract matters. She had often tried to draw him into arguments on the
frequent communion and on the invocation of the saints. He had once
whispered to me that she was trying to extract from him the materials
for a calendar, such sweet manuals as she could buy in the Place Saint
Sulpice. Every word of his was sacred. She would not have hesitated to
put him in a Church window with St. Paul. It was only after a few
moments that she became aware that he was saying some rather strange
things. Could that be Doctrine? If anything he said was difficult all
she had to do was to try hard to grasp it. Truth, new truth. So she
listened, first with surprise, then with mounting terror.

He was launched upon the paradox that in prayer one should never ask for
anything. His dialectic was doing an incredible work. He had decided to
be Socratic and was asking Astrée-Luce questions. He wrecked her on
several orthodox assumptions. Twice she fell into heresy and was
condemned by the councils. She seized hold of St. Paul but the epistle
broke in her hand. She came to the surface for the third time but was
struck by a Thomist fragment. The previous week the Cardinal had been
called to the deathbed of a certain Donna Matilda della Vigna, and it
was poor Donna Matilda who was now dragged forth to point the argument.
Exactly what had the survivors been praying for? Astrée-Luce was easily
routed from the more obvious positions. She became frightened. Presently
she rose:

I don't understand. I don't understand. You are joking, Father. Aren't
you ashamed of saying such things to bewilder me, when you know how I
value everything you say.

Look, then, continued the Cardinal. I shall ask Samuele about this. As
he is only a Protestant it will be very easy to entangle him. Samuele,
may I assume that God may have intended Donna Matilda to die before long
anyway?

Yes, Father, for she died that very night.

But we thought that if we prayed very sincerely we might change His
mind.

Why ... there is authority for our Hoping that in extremities our prayer
may....

But she died. Then we were not sincere enough! Or persevering enough!
Good! Sometimes He grants and sometimes He doesn't, and Christians are
expected to pray hard on the chance that this is one of the times He
might relent. What a notion! Astrée-Luce, what a thought!

Father, I can't stay and hear you talk this way.

What a view of these things. Listen. It is inincredible that He should
change His mind. Because we frightened mortals are on the carpet? Oh!
You are a slave, to the idea of bargain. The money changers are still in
the temple!

Here Astrée-Luce, gone quite white, returned to the arena with one more
brave venture: But, Father, you know He answers the requests of a good
Catholic. Then she added in a lower voice with tears in her eyes. But
you were there, dear Father. If you had deeply wished it you could have
altered the ...

Here he half rose from his chair crying with terrible eyes: Insane
child! What are you saying? I? _Have I no losses_?

Now she flung herself upon the floor before him. You have been saying
these things to prove me. What is the answer? I will not let you go
until you tell me. Dear Father, you know that prayer is answered. But
your clever questions have upset all my old ... old ... What is the
answer?

Come, sit down, my daughter, and tell me yourself. Think!

This went on for another half-hour. I grew more and more astonished.
Mere prayer as a problem was soon left far behind. It was the idea of a
benignant power behind the world that was being questioned now. For the
Cardinal it was an exercise in rhetoric, sharpened by his temperamental
scepticism on the one hand and by his latent resentment against
Astrée-Luce on the other. It was a kind of questioning that would have
had no effect on sound intellectual believers. It was disastrous for
Astrée-Luce because she was a woman without a reason who just this once
was trying to reason. She would so have liked to have been a deep
thinker, and when she fell it was through her desire to be a different
person.

It went on and on. At every fresh proposal he would now cry Bargain! A
Bargain! and point out that her prayers sprang from fear or the greed
for comfort. Astrée-Luce was going to pieces. I moved over behind her
chair and pleaded with the Cardinal by gesture. Was he tormenting her
out of caprice? Did he realize her devotion to himself?

At last she seemed to have a light:

My head is in a whirl. But I know now what you mean me to answer. We may
not ask for things, or people, or relief from sickness, but we may ask
for spiritual qualities; for instance for the advancement of the
Church...?

Vanity! Vanity! How many years have we been praying for a certain good
thing? What have statistics shown us?--I refer to the conversion of
France.

With a cry Astrée-Luce rose and left the room. I took upon myself to
protest to him.

She is foolish, Samuelino. You cannot call those convictions deep that
were overturned with straws. No, trust me. This is for her good. I have
been a confessor too long to go astray here. She has the spiritual
notions of a school-girl. She must be fed on some harsher bread.
Understand that she has never suffered. She is good. She is devout. But
as I told you the other day, just by accident she has never known
trouble.

Just the same, Eminence, I know her well enough to know that this very
moment she is in her chapel, clinging to the altar-rails. She will be
depressed for weeks.

But just at that moment Astrée-Luce returned. Her manner was agitated
and artificially gracious. Will you excuse me if I go to bed now? she
asked. (She never called him Father again.) Please stay and talk with
Samuele.

No, no. I must be going. But before I go let me tell you one thing. The
real truths are difficult. At first they are forbidding. But they are
worth all the others.

I shall be thinking over what we have said.--I ... I ... Excuse me, if I
ask you something?

Yes, my child, what is it?

Promise me you weren't joking.

I wasn't joking at all.

Did I really hear you say that the prayers of good men are of no...?
However. Goodnight. You will forgive my slipping away now?

So they took their leaves.

I went to bed worried. I was worrying about Astrée-Luce. Was she going
to lose her faith? What do bystanders do in such a case? The loss of
one's faith is always comic to outsiders, especially when the loser is
in fine health, wealth, and a fairly sound mind. The loss of any one or
all of these has a sort of grandeur; Astrée-Luce should have the loss
of her faith depend on one of the others. It's not a thing one loses in
fine weather.

I was wakened from a troubled sleep by a discreet but continuous
knocking upon my door. It was Alviero, the majordomo.

Madame says will you please dress and come to her in the library,
please.

What's the matter, Alviero?

I do not know, Signorino. Madame have not sleeped all night. She have
been in the church hitting the floor.

All right, Alviero, I'll be there in a minute. What time is it?

Three o'clock and one-half, Signorino.

I dressed rapidly and hurried to the library. Astrée-Luce was still in
her gown. Her face was white and drawn; her hair was disheveled. She
came toward me with both hands extended: You will forgive my sending for
you, won't you? I want you to help me. Tell me: were you made unhappy by
the strange things Cardinal Vaini said after dinner?

Yes.

Have you Protestants ideas on these things?

Oh, yes, Mlle de Morfontaine.

Were his ideas new? Is that what everyone is thinking?

No.

Oh, Samuele, what has happened to me! I have sinned. I have sinned the
sin of doubt. Shall I ever have peace again. Can the Lord take me back
after I have had such thoughts? Of course, of course, I believe that my
prayers are answered, but I have lost ... the ... the reason why I
believe it. Surely, there is a key here. Perhaps it's just one word. All
you have to do is find the one little argument that makes the whole
thing natural. Isn't it strange! I've been looking here (and she pointed
at the table which was covered with open books, the Bible, Pascal, the
Imitation) but I don't seem to be able to put my finger on the right
place. Sit down and try and tell me, my dear friend, what arguments
there are that God hears us speak and will answer us.

I talked to her for quite a long while, but achieved nothing. Perhaps I
even made it worse. I told her that I was sure that she still believed.
I showed her that the very fact that she was distressed about it proved
that she was furiously believing. After an hour of this wrestling she
seemed a little comforted, however, and picking up a fur coat went back
to her cold chapel and prayed diligently for faith until the morning.

At about ten she appeared in the garden and asked me to read a note that
she was sending to the Cardinal. I was to pass on it. Dear Cardinal
Vaini, I will always honor you above all my friends. I think you love me
and wish me well. But in your great learning and multiple interests you
have forgotten that we who are not brilliant must ding to our childhood
beliefs as best we may. I have been inexpressibly troubled since
yesterday evening. I want to ask a favor of you: that you indulge my
weakness to the extent of not touching upon matters of belief when I am
with you. It gives me great pain to have to ask you this. I beg of you
to understand it as apart from any personal feelings of unfriendliness.
I hope that I may grow strong enough to talk of these matters with you
again.

It was a very bad letter, but that was perhaps due to the content. I
suggested shyly that she omit the last sentence. So she copied it and
sent it off by a special messenger.

Soon the day came for the end of my stay in the Villa. She came up to my
room for a last talk.

Samuele, you have been with me during the saddest days of my life. I
cannot deny that all interest has gone out of living for me. I still
believe, but I don't believe as I used to. Perhaps it was not right that
I went through life as I did. Now I know that I rose up every morning
full of unspeakable happiness. It seldom left me. I had never thought
before that my beliefs in themselves were unbelievable. I used to boast
that they were, but I did not know what I was saying. Now hours come to
me when I hear a voice saying: There is no prayer. There is no God.
There are people and trees, millions of them both, every moment
dying.--You will come and see me again, won't you, Samuele? Have I made
it very unpleasant for you in the house?


When I reached my rooms in Rome I found three letters from the Cardinal
asking me to come and see him at once. As I entered the gate he came
toward me eagerly:

How is she? Is she well?

No, Father, she is in great trouble.

Come inside, my son. I must speak to you.

When we entered his study, he closed his door behind him, and said with
great emotion: I want to say to you that I have sinned, greatly sinned.
I cannot rest until I have tried to repair the harm I have done. Look,
look at this letter she has written me.

Yes, I have seen it.

Her letter forbids my explaining what I meant. Is there no way I can
reassure her?

There is only one way now. You must regain all her confidence before you
touch on such matters again. You must come and go about her house as
though nothing had happened--

Oh, but she will never ask me again!

Yes, she is having you all to dinner quite soon, Alix, Donna Leda, and
M. Bogard.

Thanks be to God! I thank Thee, I thank Thee, I thank Thee, I thank
Thee ...

May I speak quite boldly, Eminence?

Yes. I am a poor old man, all mistakes. Speak to me as you like.

If you go, take great care not to let slip any remark on religious
matters. I beg of you, do _not_ try to reinstate yourself with some
orthodox comments. She might misunderstand one little word and think you
were attacking her faith again. It is very serious. Your ideas are not
orthodox, Father, and if you said an orthodox thing it would not sound
sincere and that would be worst of all. But if you come and go simply
and affectionately, she will lose her horror of you--

Horror of me!

Yes, and very gradually, perhaps after a year, you may be able--

But I may not live a year!

_Es muss sein!_

This struck him as humorous and ruefully he sang Beethoven's phase,
adding: All the avenues of life lead to that.


[Illustration]


_Es muss sein_. I should have stayed In China. (Here he fell silent for
a while, heaving deep sighs and staring at his yellow hands.) God has
chosen to take away my reason. I am an idiot, falling into every ditch.
Oh, that I had died long ago--and yet I cannot die until I have righted
myself. Hand me that red book behind you. There are two plays about old
men, Samuelino, that grow dearer every day to an old man. There is your
Lear, and--and opening _Oedipus at Colonus_ he translated slowly:

Generous son of Aegeus, to the gods alone old age and death come never.
But all else is confounded by all-mastering time. The strength of earth
decays and the strength of the body. Faith dies. Distrust is born. Among
friends the same spirit does not last true ... and bowing his head he
let the book fall to the floor. _Es muss sein_.


I did not go to that dinner. I dined alone with Miss Grier in the city,
but at about ten we drove out to Tivoli to sit with the company. As we
went I outlined to her discreetly the relations that now existed between
two of her best friends: Oh, how stupid he is, she cried. How cruel!
What a lot he has forgotten. Don't you see that the whole thing rests,
not on the abstract question as to whether her prayers may be answered,
but on the question as to whether ONE prayer may be answered? Her prayer
for France ... Doesn't he believe such things are real to other people?

He thinks that a little doubt will be good for her. He describes her as
the woman who has never suffered.

He is in his dotage. I am so angry I am ill.

At this moment our car drew aside to let pass another hurrying by
towards Rome. This was Mlle de Morfontaine's great ugly travelling car
and the Cardinal was in it.

There he is now, cried Miss Grier. They must have broken, up early.

Something's happened, I said.

Yes, something has very likely happened, God forgive us. If everything
were all right, Alix would be driving back with him. Our wonderful
company is dissolving. Alix no longer trusts us. Leda is losing her good
old commonsense. Astrée-Luce has quarrelled with the Cardinal. I'd
better leave Rome and go back to Greenwich.

As we approached the Villa we became aware that something indeed must
have happened. The front door was open. The servants were gathered in
the hall whispering in front of the closed doors of the drawing rooms.
As we entered these opened and Alix, Donna Leda and Mme Bernstein
appeared supporting a sobbing Astrée-Luce. They led her up the stairs
to her tower. Miss Grier without questioning the servants as to what had
happened, gently urged them to return to their rooms. We passed into the
drawing room just in time to see M. Bogard leaving by another door and
looking considerably shaken. We sat down in silence, our thoughts full
of foreboding. Simultaneously we became aware of a faint odor of powder
and smoke and glancing about my eye fell upon a rent near the ceiling
beneath which a little pile of white dust had collected on the floor.
Mme Bernstein hurried in and after closing the door carefully behind
her, came toward us:

Not a soul must hear of this. Oh, this must be kept so quiet. What a
thing to happen! Anything is possible after this. What a blessing that
no servants were in the room when ...

Miss Grier asked her several times what had happened.

I know nothing. I can hardly believe my own senses, she cried.
Astrée-Luce must have gone mad. Elizabeth, will you believe me when I
tell you that we were sitting here quietly over our coffee--Look, look!
I didn't see that hole in the ceiling before!--Isn't it all frightful?

Please, Anna, please tell us what happened!

I am.--There we were sitting over our coffee, talking in low voices of
this and that, when suddenly Astrée-Luce went over to the piano, picked
up a revolver from among the flowers and shot at the good Cardinal.

Anna! is he hurt?

No. It didn't even come near him. But what a thing to happen! What on
earth could have made her do such a thing! We were friends--we were all
such good friends. I do not understand anything.

Try and think, Anna: did she say anything when she fired at him, or
before she fired?

That's the strangest of all. You won't believe me. She called out: The
devil is here. The devil has come into this room. At the Cardinal!

What had he been saying?

Nothing! Merely everyday things. We had been telling stories about the
peasants. He had been telling us about some peasants he had come across
on his walks outside S. Pancrazio.

Suddenly Alix appeared: Elizabeth, go to her quickly. She wants to see
you. She is alone.

Miss Grier hurried out.

Alix turned to me:

Samuele, you know the majordomo better than we do. Will you go and tell
him that Astrée-Luce has had a nervous breakdown. That she thought she
saw a burglar at the window, and that she fired at him. It is so
important for the dear Father's sake that no hint of this gets about.

I went out and found Alviero. He knew the explanation was insufficient,
but utterly devoted to the whole Cabala he could be trusted to dress the
story at exactly the points that would most convince the other servants.

Alix did not understand what lay back of the shot, but she was able to
recall the conversation that had led up to it. The Cardinal had told the
following simple story, an incident he had witnessed in one of his walks
outside the city wall:

A farmer wished to break his six-year-old daughter of crying. One
afternoon he led her by the hand to the center of a marshy waste,
thickly grown with wiry reeds well above the child's head. There he had
suddenly flung away her hand, saying: Now are you going to cry any more?
The child, with a last rush of contrary pride and with a beginning of
fear, started to cry. All right, shouted the father, we don't want any
bad children in our house. I'm going to leave you here with the tigers.
Good bye. And jumping out of the child's sight, repaired to a wine shop
at the edge of the waste and sat down for an hour's cardplaying. The
child strayed about from hummock to hummock, wailing. In due time the
father reappeared and taking her affectionately by the hand led her
home.

That was all.

But Astrée-Luce had never learned, as the rest of us have, to harden
her heart slightly before stories of cruelty or injustice. She may have
had no losses of her own, but she had always been ready to expose her
imagination to the full force of other people's wrongs. Such an anecdote
would have drawn from others a sigh, a swift protective contraction of
the lips and a smile of gratitude for its safe conclusion. But to
Astrée-Luce it was the vividest reminder that the God whose business it
was to brood over the world ministering to the discouraged and the
mistreated, was no more. The Cardinal had killed him. There was no one
left to soothe the horse that has been beaten to death. The kittens that
the boys fling against the wall have no one to speak for them. The dog
in torment that keeps his eyes upon her face, and licks her hands even
while his eyes grow dim, shall have no comforter but her. This was not a
casual story the Cardinal was telling: it concealed a covert allusion to
their conversation of the preceding week. It was a taunt. It was a sort
of curse. Look at the world without God, he was saying. Get used to it.
If she had lost God, oh how clearly she had gained the Devil. Here he
was triumphing in this lacerating story. Astrée-Luce went over to the
piano, picked up a revolver from the flowers and shot at the Cardinal,
crying: The Devil has come into this room!

As the Cardinal drove back that night he kept repeating to himself the
words: Then these things are real! It had required Astrée-Luce's shot
to show him that belief had long since become for him a delectable game.
One piled syllogism on syllogism, but the foundations were diaphanous.
He strained to remember what faith was like when he had had it. He kept
dragging before his mind's eye the young priest in China exhorting the
families of the Mandarins. That was himself. Oh, to retrace the way. He
would go back to China. If he could look again on the faces that were
serene with a serenity he had given them, perhaps he could steal it
back. But side by side with this hope was a terrible knowledge: no words
could describe the conviction with which he saw himself guilty of the
greatest of all sins. Murder was child's play compared to what he had
done.

The firing of the shot had done as much for Astrée-Luce. On awaking,
her terror lest she had harmed him, later her fear that she had fallen
out of reach of his forgiveness was greater than had been her misery in
a world without faith. It was given to me to carry from each to the
other the first messages of anxious affection. When Astrée-Luce and the
Cardinal discovered that they were living in a world where such things
could be forgiven, that no actions were too complicated but that love
could understand, or dismiss them, on that day they began their lives
all over again. This reconciliation was never put into words, in fact it
remained to the end merely in a state of hope. They longed to see one
another again, but it would have been impossible. They dreamed of one of
those long conversations that one never has on earth, but which one
projects so easily at midnight, alone and wise; words are not rich
enough nor kisses sufficiently compelling to repair all our havoc.

He received permission to return to China, and sailed within a few
weeks. Several days after leaving Aden he fell ill of a fever and knew
that he was to die. He called the Captain and the ship's doctor to him
and told them that if they buried him at sea they would have to face the
indignation of the Church, but that they would be fulfilling his dearest
wish. He took what measures he could to shift upon himself the blame for
such an irregularity. Better, better to be tossing in the tides of the
Bengal Sea and to be nosed by a passing shark, than to lie, a sinner of
sinners, under a marble tomb with the inevitable _insignis fistate_, the
inescapable _ornatissimus_.



BOOK FIVE: THE DUSK OF THE GODS


When my time tame to leave Rome I set aside several days for the last
offices of piety, piety in the Roman sense. I wrote a note to Elizabeth
Grier arranging for a long late talk on the eve of my departure. There
are some questions I want to ask you, I said, which no one can answer.
Then I went to the Villino Wei Ho and sat for an hour with the
Cardinal's sister. The guinea fowl were less vocal than formerly and the
rabbits were still hobbling about the garden looking for a gleam of
violet. I went to Tivoli and peered through the iron gates of the Villa
Horace. Already it looked as though no one had lived there for years.
Mlle de Morfontaine had returned to her estates in France and was living
in the closest retirement. They said that she opened no letters, but I
wrote her a note of farewell. I even spent an afternoon in the stifling
rooms of the Palazzo Aquilanera, where Donna Leda imparted to me in
great confidence the news of her daughter's engagement. Apparently the
young man was unable to produce any cousins from among the draughty
courts of Europe; his family was merely Italian; but he owned a modern
palace. At last a bathroom was to make its appearance in the house of
Aquilanera. How time flies!

My most considerable observance was a trip to Marcantonio's grave. I
found it by the village cemetery near the Villa Colonna-Stiavelli.
Consecrated ground had been denied the boy, but in her bewilderment and
love the mother had contrived a false wall of stones and briars that
seemed to include his grave among those of souls that the Church felt
safe in recommending at the Judgment Day. Here I sat down and prepared
to think about him. I was perhaps the only person in the world who
understood what had brought him there. The last office of friendship
would be to think about him. But some birds were singing; a man and his
wife were cultivating the ground in the next field; the sunlight was
heavy. Hard as I tried I could not keep my thoughts on my friend; it was
not difficult to recall his features or to meditate about dissipation;
but really elegiac reflection escaped me, Marcantonio. I drove back to
Rome ashamed of myself. But it had been a delightful day in the country,
unforgettable June weather.

There was one association I could not renew; I could not go to see Alix.
Whenever I met her by chance the barrier of her lowered eyelids told me
that we would never have long talks again.

Closing the apartment was melancholy enough. Ottima and I spent hours in
packing, our heads bent over our boxes and full of our imminent
farewells. She was going back to her wine-shop at the corner. Long
before I bought a ticket she had begun to pray for those in peril on the
sea and to notice the windy days. After an exhausting struggle with
myself I decided to give her the police dog. Kurt's affections were
equally divided between us; in Europe or in America he would pine for an
absent friend. Ottima and Kurt would grow old together in a life filled
with exquisite mutual attentions. I could swear that before I went to
the hotel on that last night Kurt knew I was taking leave of him. There
was a grandeur I fell short of in the way he faced an inevitable
situation. He placed one paw on my knee and looked to the right and left
in deep embarrassment. Then lying down he placed his muzzle between his
paws and barked twice.

I found Elizabeth Grier at midnight sitting in the library that Blair
had catalogued. Her small neat head looked tired and after some
desultory conversation I made a move to go. She reminded me that I had
intended asking her some questions.

My questions are harder to put than to answer.

Try.

Miss Grier, did you know that you and your friends were called the
Cabala?

Yes, of course.

I shall never know such a company again. And yet there seems to be some
last secret about you that I've never been able to seize. Haven't you
anything to tell me that will show me what you all meant, how you found
one another, and what made you so different from anyone else?

Miss Grier took a few minutes off to think this over. She sat smiling
strangely and stroking with her fingertips the roots of her hair beside
her left temple. Yes, she said, but it will only make you angry if I
tell you. Besides it's very long.

It's not long, Miss Grier, but you will insist on making it long because
you hate to have your guests leave before dawn. However, I shall listen
to you for hours if you promise to throw some light on the Cabala and
the dinners at the Villa Horace.

Well, first you must know, Samuele, that the gods of antiquity did not
die with the arrival of Christianity.--What are you smiling at?

You're adorable. You have resolved to make your explanation last
forever. I asked about the Cardinal and you have gone back to Jupiter.
What become of the gods of antiquity?

Naturally when they began to lose worshipers they began to lose some of
their divine attributes. They even found themselves able to die if they
wanted to. But when one of them died his godhead was passed on to
someone else; no sooner is Saturn dead than some man somewhere feels a
new personality descending upon him like a strait-jacket, do you see?

Now, Miss Grier!

I told you it would make you angry.

You don't pretend this is true?

I won't tell you whether this is true, or an allegory, or just
nonsense.--Next, I am going to read you a strange document that came
into my hands. It was written by a certain Hollander who became the god
Mercury in 1912. Will you listen?

Has it anything to do with the Cabala?

Yes. And with you. For I sometimes think that you are the new god
Mercury. Take some of that claret and listen quietly.


I was born in a Dutch parsonage in 1885. I was the despair of my home
and the terror of the village, a little liar and thief in the full
enjoyment of my health and wit. My real life began one morning of my
twenty-seventh year when I experienced the first of a series of violent
pains in the center of my head. This was my deification. Some untender
hand was emptying the cup of my skull of its silly gray brains and
filling it with the divine gas of instinct. My body too had its part; in
this; each miscropic cell had to be transformed; I was not to fall sick
or grow old or die, save when I chose. As historian of the gods I have
to keep record of an accident whereby, through some monstrosity in
spiritual law, an Apollo of the 17th Century failed to completely deify:
one arm remained corruptible.

It was then that I discovered the first great attribute of our nature,
namely that to wish for a thing is to command it. It does not suddenly
fall into your hand or descend in a rosy mist upon your carpet. But
circumstances start a discreet ballet about you and the desired thing
comes your way through the neatest possible imitation of natural law and
probability. Scientists will tell you that they have never seen the
sequence of cause and effect interrupted at the instance of prayer or of
divine reward or retribution. Do they think, the fools, that their
powers of observation are cleverer than the devices of a god? The poor
laws of cause and effect are so often set aside that they may be said to
be the merest approximations. I am not merely a god but a planet and I
speak of things I know. So I stole my mother's savings from under her
pillow and went to Paris.

But it is at Rome that we were last worshipped under our own names, and
it is thither that we are irresistibly called. During the journey I
gradually discovered further traits of my new being. I woke up mornings
to discover that bits of information had been deposited in my mind
overnight, the enviable knowledge for instance, that I had the power of
'sinning' without remorse. I entered the Porta del Popolo one midnight
in June, 1912. I ran the length of the Corso, lept the fence that
surrounds the Forum, and flung myself upon the ruins of my temple. All
night in the fine rain I tore my clothes in joy and anguish, while up
the valley came an interminable and ghostly procession singing my hymns
and hiding me in a tower of incense. With the coming of dawn my
worshipers vanished and wings no longer fluttered at my heels. I climbed
out of the sunken ruins and went out into the misty streets in search of
some coffee.

Godlike I never reflect; all my actions arrive of themselves. If I pause
to think I fall into error. During the next year I made a great deal of
money on the races at Parioli. I speculated in motion pictures and
African wheat. I went into journalism and the misrepresentations I sowed
will have deferred Europe's recovery from the War many scores of years.
I love discord among gods and men. I have always been happy. I am the
happiest of the gods.

I had been called to Rome to serve as the gods' messenger and secretary,
but more than a year had passed before I recognized even one. The Church
of Santa Maria sopra Minerva is built over an ancient temple to that
goddess and there one day I found her. So impatient was I to discover
the others that I disobeyed the laws of my nature and went hunting for
them. I spent hours hanging about the station in search of newly arrived
divinities. One night I strode the platform waiting for the Paris
Express. I was trembling with premonition. I had donned a silk hat and
its complements, a coral camellia, and a little blonde moustache. Plumed
with blue smoke and uttering splendid cries the train rushed into the
station. The travelers descended from their compartments into a sea of
_fachini_ and relatives. I bowed to a Scandinavian diplomat and a
Wagnerian prima donna. They returned my greeting hesitantly; a glance
into their eyes showed me that they were brilliant but not supernatural.
There was no incipient Bacchus among the Oxford students on vacation;
the Belgian nuns on pilgrimage discovered me no Vesta. I scanned faces
for half an hour until the length of pavement was deserted and a long
line of old women with pails appeared. I stopped by the engine to ask a
guard if another section of the train was to follow. I turned
to see a strange face looking at me from the small window of the
locomotive--mis-shapen, black with coal-dust, gleaming with perspiration
and content, and grinning from ear to ear, was Vulcan.


Here Miss Grier raised her head: There follow fifty pages describing his
encounters with the others. Have you anything to say? Do you recognize
anything?

But, Miss Grier, I've had no headaches! I don't receive what I want!

No?

What am I to understand? You've made it twice as confused. Explain some
more.

He goes on to say that the gods were afraid of being laughed at for what
they had lost. Flight, for instance, and invisibility, and omniscience
and freedom from care. People would forget that they still had a few
enviable powers: their strange elation; their command over matter; their
ability to live or die when they chose and to live beyond good and evil.
And so on.

What became of him?

Finally he decided to die, as they all do. All gods and heroes are by
nature the enemies of Christianity--a faith trailing its aspirations and
remorses and in whose presence every man is a failure. Only a broken
will can enter the Kingdom of Heaven. Finally tired out with the cult of
themselves they give in. They go over. They renounce themselves.

I was astonished at the desolation in her voice. It held me back from
eagerly demanding of her the application to the Cabala of all these
principles. We went in to the next room where her musicians were waiting
to offer us some English madrigals. The applications still occur to me,
especially when I am depressed. They give in. They go over.


On the night that my steamer left the bay of Naples I lay sleepless in
my deck-chair until morning. Why was I not more reluctant at leaving
Europe? How could I lie there repeating the Aeneid and longing for the
shelf of Manhattan? It was Virgil's sea that we were crossing; the very
stars were his: Arcturus and the showery Hyades, the two Bears and Orion
in his harness of gold. All these passed before me in a cloudless sky
and in the water, murmuring before a light wind, the sliding
constellations were brokenly reflected.

Mercury is not only the messenger of the gods; he is the conductor of
the dead as well. If in the least part his powers had fallen to me I
should be able to invoke spirits. Perhaps Virgil could read my mood for
me, and raising my two palms I said in a low voice (not loud enough to
reach the open port-holes behind me):

Prince of poets, Virgil, one of your guests and the last of barbarians
invokes you.

For an instant I thought I saw the shimmer of a robe and the reflection
of the starlight on the shiny side of a laurel leaf. I pressed my
advantage:

_O anima cortese mantovana_, greatest of all Romans, out of the eternity
of that limbo to which the Florentine, perhaps wrongly, consigned you,
grant me a crumb of time.

Now indeed the shade stood in mid-air just above the hand-rail. The
stars were glittering and the water was glittering, and the great shade,
picked out in sparks, was glittering furiously. But the image must
become clearer. There was one title that might avail more with him than
those of poet or Roman.

Oh, greatest spirit of the ancient world and prophet of the new, by that
fortunate guess wherein you foretold the coming of Him who will admit
you to His mountain, thou first Christian in Europe, speak to me!

Now indeed the gracious spirit became completely visible with pulsations
of light, half silver and half gold, and spoke:

Be brief, importunate barbarian. Except for this last salutation wherein
you have touched my only pride, I would not delay here. Detain me not
from the absorbing games of my peers. Erasmus is in debate with Plato,
and Augustine has descended from the hill and sits among us, though the
air is gray Be brief, I pray you and give heed to your Latin.

At this I realized that I had no definite question to put to my guest.
In order to mark time and prolong so uncommon an interview, I engaged
him in conversation:

Was I then right, Master, is assuming that Dante was hot completely in
God's confidence?

Indignation infused a saffron stain into the noble figure in
silver-gold: Where, where is he, that soul of vinegar, that chose to
assign the souls of the dead more harshly than God? Tell him that though
a pagan I too shall see bliss. It is nothing that I must first pay the
penalty of ten thousand years. Behold this moment I exhibit the sin of
anger; where is _he_ in pain for the sin of pride?

I was a little shocked to discover that neither genius nor death removed
us beyond the temptation to asperity, but said: Master, have you met the
poets of the English tongue that have come into your groves?

Let us be brief, my friend.--One came that had been formerly blind and
did me much honor. He spoke a noble Latin. Those that stood by assured
me that in his lines mine were not seldom reflected.

Milton was indeed your son....

But before him came another, greater than he, a writer of pieces for a
theatre. He was proud and troubled and strode among us unseeing. He made
me no salutation. Vanity no longer exists among us, but it is sweet to
exchange greetings among the poets.

He knew but little Latin, Master, and perhaps had never read your page.
Moreover in life he was neither the enemy nor advocate of grace and
being arrived in your region his whole mind may well have been consumed
with anxiety as to his eternal residence. Is he among you still?

He sits apart, his hand over his eyes, and only raises his head when, in
the long green evenings, Casella sings to us, or when on the wind there
drifts from Purgatory the chorus that one Palestrina prepares.

Master, I have just spent a year in the city that was your whole life.
Am I wrong to leave it?

Let us be brief. This world where Time is, troubles me. My heart has
almost started beating again,--what horror! Know, importunate barbarian,
that I spent my whole lifetime under a great delusion,--that Rome and
the house of Augustus were eternal. Nothing is eternal save Heaven.
Romes existed before Rome and when Rome will be a waste there will be
Romes after her. Seek out some city that is young. The secret is to make
a city, not to rest in it. When you have found one, drink in the
illusion that she too is eternal. Nay, I have heard of your city. Its
foundations have knocked upon our roof and the towers have cast a shadow
across the sandals of the angels. Rome too was great. Oh, in the pride
of your city, and when she too begins to produce great men, do not
forget mine. When shall I erase from my heart this love of her. I cannot
enter Zion until I have forgotten Rome.--Dismiss me now, my friend, I
pray thee. These vain emotions have shaken me.... (Suddenly the poet
became aware of the Mediterranean:) Oh, beautiful are these waters.
Behold! For many years I have almost forgotten the world. Beautiful!
Beautiful!--But no! what horror, what pain! Are you still alive? Alive?
How can you endure it? All your thoughts are guesses, all your body is
shaken with breath, all your senses are infirm, and your mind ever full
of the fumes of one passion or another. Oh, what misery to be a man.
Hurry and die!

Farewell, Virgil!

The shimmering ghost faded before the stars, and the engines beneath me
pounded eagerly towards the new world and the last and greatest of all
cities.



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