Title: Tales for Christmas Eve
Author: Broughton, Rhoda
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TALES FOR CHRISTMAS EVE.



  TALES
  FOR
  CHRISTMAS EVE.

  BY
  RHODA BROUGHTON,

  AUTHOR OF
  “COMETH UP AS A FLOWER,”
  ETC., ETC.

  [Illustration]

  LONDON:
  RICHARD BENTLEY AND SON.
  1873.



CONTENTS.


                                                          PAGE

  THE TRUTH, THE WHOLE TRUTH, AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH      1

  THE MAN WITH THE NOSE                                     33

  BEHOLD IT WAS A DREAM!                                    83

  POOR PRETTY BOBBY                                        131

  UNDER THE CLOAK                                          191



THE TRUTH, THE WHOLE TRUTH, AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH.



THE TRUTH, THE WHOLE TRUTH,

AND

NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH.



MRS. DE WYNT TO MRS. MONTRESOR.

                                                  “18, ECCLESTON SQUARE,
                                                         “_May 5th._

“MY DEAREST CECILIA,

“Talk of the friendships of Orestes and Pylades, of Julie and Claire,
what are they to ours? Did Pylades ever go _ventre à terre_, half over
London on a day more broiling than any but an _âme damnée_ could even
imagine, in order that Orestes might be comfortably housed for the
season? Did Claire ever hold sweet converse with from fifty to one
hundred house agents, in order that Julie might have three windows to
her drawing-room and a pretty _portière_? You see I am determined not
to be done out of my full meed of gratitude.

“Well, my friend, I had no idea till yesterday how closely we were
packed in this great smoky bee-hive, as tightly as herrings in a
barrel. Don’t be frightened, however. By dint of squeezing and
crowding, we have managed to make room for two more herrings in our
barrel, and those two are yourself and your other self, _i.e._ your
husband. Let me begin at the beginning. After having looked over, I
verily believe, every undesirable residence in West London; after
having seen nothing intermediate between what was suited to the means
of a duke, and what was suited to the needs of a chimney-sweep; after
having felt bed-ticking, and explored kitchen-ranges till my brain
reeled under my accumulated experience, I arrived at about half-past
five yesterday afternoon at 32, ---- Street, May Fair.

“‘Failure No. 253, I don’t doubt,’ I said to myself, as I toiled up
the steps with my soul athirst for afternoon tea, and feeling as
ill-tempered as you please. So much for my spirit of prophecy. Fate, I
have noticed, is often fond of contradicting us flat, and giving the
lie to our little predictions. Once inside, I thought I had got into a
small compartment of Heaven by mistake. Fresh as a daisy, clean as a
cherry, bright as a seraph’s face, it is all these, and a hundred more,
only that my limited stock of similes is exhausted. Two drawing-rooms
as pretty as ever woman crammed with people she did not care two
straws about; white curtains with rose-coloured ones underneath,
festooned in the sweetest way; marvellously, _immorally_ becoming, my
dear, as I ascertained entirely for your benefit, in the mirrors, of
which there are about a dozen and a half; Persian mats, easy-chairs,
and lounges suited to every possible physical conformation, from the
Apollo Belvedere to Miss Biffin; and a thousand of the important little
trivialities that make up the sum of a woman’s life: ormolu garden
gates, handleless cups, naked boys and décolleté shepherdesses; not
to speak of a family of china pugs, with blue ribbons round their
necks, which ought of themselves to have added fifty pounds a year
to the rent. Apropos, I asked, in fear and trembling, what the rent
might be--‘three hundred pounds a year.’ A feather would have knocked
me down. I could hardly believe my ears, and made the woman repeat it
several times, that there might be no mistake. To this hour it is a
mystery to me.

“With that suspiciousness which is so characteristic of you, you
will immediately begin to hint that there must be some terrible
unaccountable smell, or some odious inexplicable noise haunting
the reception rooms. Nothing of the kind, the woman assured me,
and she did not look as if she were telling stories. You will next
suggest--remembering the rose-coloured curtains--that its last occupant
was a member of the demi-monde. Wrong again. Its last occupant was an
elderly and unexceptionable Indian officer, without a liver, and with a
most lawful wife. They did not stay long, it is true, but then, as the
housekeeper told me, he was a deplorable old hypochondriac, who never
could bear to stay a fortnight in any one place. So lay aside that
scepticism, which is your besetting sin, and give unfeigned thanks to
St. Brigitta, or St. Gengulpha, or St. Catherine of Sienna, or whoever
is your tutelar saint, for having provided you with a palace at the
cost of a hovel, and for having sent you such an invaluable friend as

                                               “Your attached
                                                    “ELIZABETH DE WYNT.”

“P.S.--I am so sorry I shall not be in town to witness your first
raptures, but dear Artie looks so pale and thin and tall after the
hooping-cough, that I am sending him off at once to the sea, and as
I cannot bear the child out of my sight, I am going into banishment
likewise.”



MRS. MONTRESOR TO MRS. DE WYNT.


                                             “32, ---- STREET, MAY FAIR,
                                                         “_May 14th_.

“DEAREST BESSY,

“Why did not dear little Artie defer his hooping-cough convalescence,
&c., till August? It is very odd, to me, the perverse way in which
children always fix upon the most inconvenient times and seasons
for their diseases. Here we are installed in our Paradise, and have
searched high and low, in every hole and corner, for the serpent,
without succeeding in catching a glimpse of his spotted tail. Most
things in this world are disappointing, but 32, ---- Street, May Fair,
is not. The mystery of the rent is still a mystery. I have been for my
first ride in the row this morning: my horse was a little fidgety; I
am half afraid that my nerve is not what it was. I saw heaps of people
I knew. Do you recollect Florence Watson? What a wealth of red hair
she had last year! Well, that same wealth is black as the raven’s wing
this year! I wonder how people can make such walking impositions of
themselves, don’t you? Adela comes to us next week; I am so glad. It is
dull driving by oneself of an afternoon; and I always think that one
young woman alone in a brougham, or with only a dog beside her, does
not look _good_. We sent round our cards a fortnight before we came up,
and have been already deluged with callers. Considering that we have
been two years exiled from civilized life, and that London memories are
not generally of the longest, we shall do pretty well, I think. Ralph
Gordon came to see me on Sunday; he is in the ----th Hussars now. He
has grown up such a _dear_ fellow, and so good-looking! Just my style,
large and fair and whiskerless! Most men nowadays make themselves as
like monkeys, or Scotch terriers, as they possibly can. I intend to
be quite a _mother_ to him. Dresses are gored to as _indecent_ an
extent as ever; short skirts are rampant. I am so sorry; I hate them.
They make tall women look _lank_, and short ones insignificant. A
knock! Peace is a word that might as well be expunged from ones London
dictionary.

                                            “Yours affectionately,
                                                    “CECILIA MONTRESOR.”



MRS. DE WYNT TO MRS. MONTRESOR.


                                                “THE LORD WARDEN, DOVER,
                                                          “_May 18th_.

“DEAREST CECILIA,

“You will perceive that I am about to devote only one small sheet
of note-paper to you. This is from no dearth of time, Heaven knows!
time is a drug in the market here, but from a total dearth of ideas.
Any ideas that I ever have, come to me from without, from external
objects; I am not clever enough to generate any within myself. My life
here is not an eminently suggestive one. It is spent in digging with a
wooden spade, and eating prawns. Those are my employments, at least;
my relaxation is going down to the Pier, to see the Calais boat come
in. When one is miserable oneself, it is decidedly consolatory to see
some one more miserable still; and wretched and bored, and reluctant
vegetable as I am, I am not _sea-sick_. I always feel my spirits rise
after having seen that peevish, draggled procession of blue, green and
yellow fellow-Christians file past me. There is a wind here _always_,
in comparison of which the wind that behaved so violently to the
corners of Job’s house was a mere zephyr. There are heights to climb
which require more daring perseverance than ever Wolfe displayed, with
his paltry heights of Abraham. There are glaring white houses, glaring
white roads, glaring white cliffs. If any one knew how unpatriotically
I detest the chalk-cliffs of Albion! Having grumbled through my two
little pages--I have actually been reduced to writing very large in
order to fill even them--I will send off my dreary little billet. How I
wish I could get into the envelope myself too, and whirl up with it to
dear, beautiful, filthy London. Not more heavily could Madame de Staël
have sighed for Paris from among the shades of Coppet.

                                                  “Your disconsolate
                                                                “BESSY.”



MRS. MONTRESOR TO MRS. DE WYNT.


                                             “32, ---- STREET, MAY FAIR,
                                                         “_May 27th_.

“Oh, my dearest Bessy, how I wish we were out of this dreadful,
dreadful house! Please don’t think me very ungrateful for saying this,
after your taking such pains to provide us with a Heaven upon earth, as
you thought.

“What has happened could, of course, have been neither foretold, nor
guarded against, by any human being. About ten days ago, Benson (my
maid) came to me with a very long face, and said, ‘If you please, ’m,
did you know that this house was _haunted_?’ I was _so_ startled: you
know what a coward I am. I said, ‘Good Heavens! No! is it?’ ‘Well,
’m, I’m pretty nigh sure it is,’ she said, and the expression of her
countenance was about as lively as an undertaker’s; and then she told
me that cook had been that morning to order in groceries from a shop
in the neighbourhood, and on her giving the man the direction where to
send the things to, he had said, with a very peculiar smile, ‘No. 32,
---- Street, eh? h’m? I wonder how long _you_’ll stand it; last lot
held out just a fortnight.’ He looked so odd that she asked him what he
meant, but he only said, ‘Oh! nothing; only that parties never _did_
stay long at 32. He had known parties go in one day, and out the next,
and during the last four years he had never known any remain over the
month.’ Feeling a good deal alarmed by this information, she naturally
inquired the reason; but he declined to give it, saying that if she
had not found it out for herself, she had much better leave it alone,
as it would only frighten her out of her wits; and on her insisting
and urging him, she could only extract from him, that the house had
such a villanously bad name, that the owners were glad to let it for a
mere song. You know how firmly I believe in apparitions, and what an
unutterable fear I have of them; anything material, tangible, that I
can lay hold of--anything of the same fibre, blood, and bone as myself,
I could, I think, confront bravely enough; but the mere thought of
being brought face to face with the ‘bodiless dead,’ makes my brain
unsteady. The moment Henry came in, I ran to him, and told him; but
he pooh-poohed the whole story, laughed at me, and asked whether we
should turn out of the prettiest house in London, at the very height of
the season, because a grocer said it had a bad name. Most good things
that had ever been in the world had had a bad name in their day; and,
moreover, the man had probably a motive for taking away the house’s
character, some friend for whom he coveted the charming situation and
the low rent. He derided my ‘babyish fears,’ as he called them, to such
an extent that I felt half ashamed, and yet not quite comfortable,
either; and then came the usual rush of London engagements, during
which one has no time to think of anything but how to speak, and act,
and look for the moment then present. Adela was to arrive yesterday,
and in the morning our weekly hamper of flowers, fruit, and vegetables
arrived from home. I always dress the flower-vases myself, servants
are so tasteless; and as I was arranging them, it occurred to me--you
know Adela’s passion for flowers--to carry up one particular cornucopia
of roses and mignonette and set it on her toilet-table, as a pleasant
surprise for her. As I came downstairs, I had seen the housemaid--a
fresh, round-faced country girl--go into the room, which was being
prepared for Adela, with a pair of sheets that she had been airing
over her arm. I went upstairs very slowly, as my cornucopia was full
of water, and I was afraid of spilling some. I turned the handle of
the bedroom-door and entered, keeping my eyes fixed on my flowers, to
see how they bore the transit, and whether any of them had fallen out.
Suddenly a sort of shiver passed over me; and feeling frightened--I did
not know why--I looked up quickly. The girl was standing by the bed,
leaning forward a little with her hands clenched in each other, rigid,
every nerve tense; her eyes, wide open, starting out of her head, and
a look of unutterable stony horror in them; her cheeks and mouth not
pale, but livid as those of one that died awhile ago in mortal pain. As
I looked at her, her lips moved a little, and an awful hoarse voice,
not like hers in the least, said, ‘Oh! my God, I have seen it!’ and
then she fell down suddenly, like a log, with a heavy noise. Hearing
the noise, loudly audible all through the thin walls and floors of a
London house, Benson came running in, and between us we managed to
lift her on to the bed, and tried to bring her to herself by rubbing
her feet and hands, and holding strong salts to her nostrils. And all
the while we kept glancing over our shoulders, in a vague cold terror
of seeing some awful, shapeless apparition. Two long hours she lay in
a state of utter unconsciousness. Meanwhile Harry, who had been down
to his club, returned. At the end of the two hours we succeeded in
bringing her back to sensation and life, but only to make the awful
discovery that she was raving mad. She became so violent that it
required all the combined strength of Harry and Phillips (our butler)
to hold her down in the bed. Of course, we sent off instantly for a
doctor, who, on her growing a little calmer towards evening, removed
her in a cab to his own house. He has just been here to tell me that
she is now pretty quiet, not from any return to sanity, but from sheer
exhaustion. We are, of course, utterly in the dark as to _what_ she
saw, and her ravings are far too disconnected and unintelligible to
afford us the slightest clue. I feel so completely shattered and upset
by this awful occurrence, that you will excuse me, dear, I’m sure, if
I write incoherently. One thing, I need hardly tell you, and that is,
that no earthly consideration would induce me to allow Adela to occupy
that terrible room. I shudder and run by quickly as I pass the door.

                                         “Yours, in great agitation,
                                                              “CECILIA.”



MRS. DE WYNT TO MRS. MONTRESOR.


                                                “THE LORD WARDEN, DOVER,
                                                         “_May 28th_.

“DEAREST CECILIA,

“Yours just come; how very dreadful! But I am still unconvinced as to
the house being in fault. You know I feel a sort of godmother to it,
and responsible for its good behaviour. Don’t you think that what the
girl had might have been a fit? Why not? I myself have a cousin who is
subject to seizures of the kind, and immediately on being attacked his
whole body becomes rigid, his eyes glassy and staring, his complexion
livid, exactly as in the case you describe. Or, if not a fit, are you
sure that she has not been subject to fits of madness? _Please_ be
sure and ascertain whether there is not insanity in her family. It
is so common nowadays, and so much on the increase, that nothing is
more likely. You know my utter disbelief in ghosts. I am convinced
that most of them, if run to earth, would turn out about as genuine as
the famed Cock Lane one. But even allowing the possibility, nay, the
actual unquestioned existence of ghosts in the abstract, is it likely
that there should be anything to be seen so horribly fear-inspiring,
as to send a perfectly sane person _in one instant_ raving mad, which
you, after three weeks’ residence in the house, have never caught a
glimpse of? According to your hypothesis, your whole household ought,
by this time, to be stark, staring mad. Let me implore you not to give
way to a panic which may, possibly, probably prove utterly groundless.
Oh, how I wish I were with you, to make you listen to reason! Artie
ought to be the best prop ever woman’s old age was furnished with, to
indemnify me for all he and his hooping-cough have made me suffer.
Write immediately, please, and tell me how the poor patient progresses.
Oh, had I the wings of a dove! I shall be on wires till I hear again.

                                                         “Yours,
                                                                “BESSY.”



MRS. MONTRESOR TO MRS. DE WYNT.


                                      “NO. 5, BOLTON STREET, PICCADILLY,
                                                       “_June 12th_.

“DEAREST BESSY,

“You will see that we have left that terrible, hateful, fatal house.
How I wish we had escaped from it sooner! Oh, my dear Bessy, I shall
never be the same woman again if I live to be a hundred. Let me try
to be coherent, and to tell you connectedly what has happened. And
first, as to the housemaid, she has been removed to a lunatic asylum,
where she remains in much the same state. She has had several lucid
intervals, and during them has been closely, pressingly questioned as
to what it was she saw; but she has maintained an absolute, hopeless
silence, and only shudders, moans, and hides her face in her hands when
the subject is broached. Three days ago I went to see her, and on my
return was sitting resting in the drawing-room, before going to dress
for dinner, talking to Adela about my visit, when Ralph Gordon walked
in. He has always been walking in the last ten days, and Adela has
always flushed up and looked happy, poor little cat, whenever he made
his appearance. He looked very handsome, dear fellow, just come in from
the park in a coat that fitted like a second skin, lavender gloves, and
a gardenia. He seemed in tremendous spirits, and was as sceptical as
even you could be, as to the ghostly origin of Sarah’s seizure. ‘Let me
come here to-night and sleep in that room; _do_, Mrs. Montresor,’ he
said, looking very eager and excited, ‘with the gas lit and a poker,
I’ll engage to exorcise every demon that shows his ugly nose; even if
I should find--

  “‘Seven white ghostisses
  Sitting on seven white postisses.’

“‘You don’t mean really?’ I asked, incredulously. ‘Don’t I? that’s
all,’ he answered emphatically. ‘I should like nothing better. Well,
is it a bargain?’ Adela turned quite pale. ‘Oh, don’t,’ she said,
hurriedly, ‘_please_, don’t; why should you run such a risk? How do you
know that you might not be sent mad too?’ He laughed very heartily,
and coloured a little with pleasure at seeing the interest she took in
his safety. ‘Never fear,’ he said, ‘it would take more than a whole
squadron of departed ones, with the old gentleman at their head,
to send me crazy.’ He was so eager, so persistent, so thoroughly
in earnest, that I yielded at last, though with a certain strong
reluctance, to his entreaties. Adela’s blue eyes filled with tears,
and she walked away hastily to the conservatory, and stood picking bits
of heliotrope to hide them. Nevertheless, Ralph got his own way; it was
so difficult to refuse him anything. We gave up all our engagements
for the evening, and he did the same with his. At about ten o’clock he
arrived, accompanied by a friend and brother officer, Captain Burton,
who was anxious to see the result of the experiment. ‘Let me go up at
once,’ he said, looking very happy and animated. ‘I don’t know when I
have felt in such good tune; a new sensation is a luxury not to be had
every day of one’s life; turn the gas up as high as it will go; provide
a good stout poker, and leave the issue to Providence and me.’ We did
as he bid. ‘It’s all ready now,’ Henry said, coming downstairs after
having obeyed his orders; ‘the room is nearly as light as day. Well,
good luck to you, old fellow!’ ‘Good-bye, Miss Bruce,’ Ralph said,
going over to Adela, and taking her hand with a look, half laughing,
half sentimental--

  “‘Fare thee well, and if for ever,
  Then for ever, fare thee well,’

that is my last dying speech and confession. Now mind,’ he went on,
standing by the table, and addressing us all; ‘if I ring once, _don’t_
come. I may be flurried, and lay hold of the bell without thinking;
if I ring twice, _come_.’ Then he went, jumping up the stairs three
steps at a time, and humming a tune. As for us, we sat in different
attitudes of expectation and listening about the drawing-room. At first
we tried to talk a little, but it would not do; our whole souls seemed
to have passed into our ears. The clock’s ticking sounded as loud as a
great church bell close to one’s ear. Addy lay on the sofa, with her
dear little white face hidden in the cushions. So we sat for exactly
an hour; but it seemed like two years, and just as the clock began to
strike eleven, a sharp ting, ting, ting, rang clear and shrill through
the house. ‘Let us go,’ said Addy, starting up and running to the door.
‘Let us go,’ I cried too, following her. But Captain Burton stood in
the way, and intercepted our progress. ‘No,’ he said, decisively, ‘you
must not go; remember Gordon told us distinctly, if he rang once _not_
to come. I know the sort of fellow he is, and that nothing would annoy
him more than having his directions disregarded.’

“‘Oh, nonsense!’ Addy cried, passionately, ‘he would never have rung
if he had not seen something dreadful; do, _do_ let us go!’ she ended,
clasping her hands. But she was overruled, and we all went back to our
seats. Ten minutes more of suspense, next door to unendurable, I felt
a lump in my throat, a gasping for breath;--ten minutes on the clock,
but a thousand centuries on our hearts. Then again, loud, sudden,
violent the bell rang! We made a simultaneous rush to the door. I
don’t think we were one second flying upstairs. Addy was first. Almost
simultaneously she and I burst into the room. There he was, standing in
the middle of the floor, rigid, petrified, with that same look--that
look that is burnt into my heart in letters of fire--of awful,
unspeakable, stony fear on his brave young face. For one instant he
stood thus; then stretching out his arms stiffly before him, he groaned
in a terrible, husky voice, ‘Oh, my God; I have seen it!’ and fell down
_dead_. Yes, _dead_. Not in a swoon or in a fit, but _dead_. Vainly we
tried to bring back the life to that strong young heart; it will never
come back again till that day when the earth and the sea give up the
dead that are therein. I cannot see the page for the tears that are
blinding me; he was such a dear fellow! I can’t write any more to-day.

                                             “Your broken-hearted
                                                              “CECILIA.”

This is a true story.



THE MAN WITH THE NOSE.



THE MAN WITH THE NOSE.

[The details of this little story are of course imaginary, but the main
incidents are, to the best of my belief, facts. They happened twenty,
or more than twenty years ago.]



CHAPTER I.


“Let us get a map and see what places look pleasantest?” says she.

“As for that,” reply I, “on a map most places look equally pleasant.”

“Never mind; get one!”

I obey.

“Do you like the seaside?” asks Elizabeth, lifting her little brown
head and her small happy white face from the English sea-coast along
which, her forefinger is slowly travelling.

“Since you ask me, distinctly _no_,” reply I, for once venturing to
have a decided opinion of my own, which during the last few weeks
of imbecility I can be hardly said to have had. “I broke my last
wooden spade five and twenty years ago. I have but a poor opinion of
cockles--sandy red-nosed things, are not they? and the air always makes
me bilious.”

“Then we certainly will not go there,” says Elizabeth, laughing. “A
bilious bridegroom! alliterative but horrible! None of our friends show
the least eagerness to lend us their country house.”

“Oh that God would put it into the hearts of men to take their wives
straight home, as their fathers did,” say I, with a cross groan.

“It is evident, therefore, that we must go somewhere,” returns she,
not heeding the aspiration contained in my last speech, making her
forefinger resume its employment, and reaching Torquay.

“I suppose so,” say I, with a sort of sigh; “for once in our lives we
must resign ourselves to having the finger of derision pointed at us by
waiters and landlords.”

“You shall leave your new portmanteau at home, and I will leave all my
best clothes, and nobody will guess that we are bride and bridegroom;
they will think that we have been married--oh, ever since the world
began” (opening her eyes very wide).

I shake my head. “With an old portmanteau and in rags we shall still
have the mark of the beast upon us.”

“Do you mind much? do you hate being ridiculous?” asks Elizabeth,
meekly, rather depressed by my view of the case; “because if so, let
us go somewhere out of the way, where there will be very few people to
laugh at us.”

“On the contrary,” return I, stoutly, “we will betake ourselves to
some spot where such as we do chiefly congregate--where we shall be
swallowed up and lost in the multitude of our fellow-sinners.” A
pause devoted to reflection. “What do you say to Killarney?” say I,
cheerfully.

“There are a great many fleas there, I believe,” replies Elizabeth,
slowly; “flea-bites make large lumps on me; you would not like me if I
were covered with large lumps.”

At the hideous ideal picture thus presented to me by my little beloved
I relapse into inarticulate idiocy; emerging from which by-and-by, I
suggest “The Lakes?” My arm is round her, and I feel her supple body
shiver though it is mid July, and the bees are booming about in the
still and sleepy noon garden outside.

“Oh--no--no--not _there_!”

“Why such emphasis?” I ask gaily; “more fleas? At this rate, and with
this _sine quâ non_, our choice will grow limited.”

“Something dreadful happened to me there,” she says, with another
shudder. “But indeed I did not think there was any harm in it--I never
thought anything would come of it.”

“What the devil was it?” cry I, in a jealous heat and hurry; “what the
mischief _did_ you do, and why have not you told me about it before?”

“I did not _do_ much,” she answers meekly, seeking for my hand, and
when found kissing it in timid deprecation of my wrath; “but I was
ill--very ill--there; I had a nervous fever. I was in a bed hung with
a chintz with a red and green fern-leaf pattern on it. I have always
hated red and green fern-leaf chintzes ever since.”

“It would be possible to avoid the obnoxious bed, would not it?” say
I, laughing a little. “Where does it lie? Windermere? Ulleswater?
Wastwater? Where?”

“We were at Ulleswater,” she says, speaking rapidly, while a hot colour
grows on her small white cheeks--“Papa, mamma, and I; and there came
a mesmeriser to Penrith, and we went to see him--everybody did--and
he asked leave to mesmerise me--he said I should be such a good
medium--and--and--I did not know what it was like. I thought it would
be quite good fun--and--and--I let him.”

She is trembling exceedingly; even the loving pressure of my arms
cannot abate her shivering.

“Well?”

“And after that I do not remember anything--I believe I did all sorts
of extraordinary things that he told me--sang and danced, and made a
fool of myself--but when I came home I was very ill, very--I lay in
bed for five whole weeks, and--and was off my head, and said odd and
wicked things that you would not have expected me to say--that dreadful
bed! shall I ever forget it?”

“We will _not_ go to the Lakes,” I say, decisively, “and we will not
talk any more about mesmerism.”

“That is right,” she says, with a sigh of relief, “I try to think
about it as little as possible; but sometimes, in the dead black of
the night, when God seems a long way off, and the devil near, it
comes back to me so strongly--I feel, do not you know, as if he were
_there_--somewhere in the room, and I _must_ get up and follow him.”

“Why should not we go abroad?” suggest I, abruptly turning the
conversation.

“Why, indeed?” cries Elizabeth, recovering her gaiety, while her pretty
blue eyes begin to dance. “How stupid of us not to have thought of it
before; only _abroad_ is a big word. _What_ abroad?”

“We must be content with something short of Central Africa,” I say,
gravely, “as I think our one hundred and fifty pounds would hardly take
us that far.”

“Wherever we go, we must buy a dialogue book,” suggests my little bride
elect, “and I will learn some phrases before we start.”

“As for that, the Anglo-Saxon tongue takes one pretty well round the
world,” reply I, with a feeling of complacent British swagger, putting
my hands in my breeches pockets.

“Do you fancy the Rhine?” says Elizabeth, with a rather timid
suggestion; “I know it is the fashion to run it down nowadays, and
call it a cocktail river; but--but--after all it cannot be so _very_
contemptible, or Byron could not have said such noble things about it.”

  “The castled crag of Drachenfels
    Frowns o’er the wide and winding Rhine,
  Whose breast of waters broadly swells
    Between the banks which bear the vine,”

say I, spouting. “After all, that proves nothing, for Byron could have
made a silk purse out of a sow’s ear.”

“The Rhine will not do then?” says she, resignedly, suppressing a sigh.

“On the contrary, it will do admirably: it _is_ a cocktail river, and I
do not care who says it is not,” reply I, with illiberal positiveness;
“but everybody should be able to say so from their own experience, and
not from hearsay: the Rhine let it be, by all means.”

So the Rhine it is.



CHAPTER II.


I have got over it; we have both got over it tolerably, creditably;
but after all, it is a much severer ordeal for a man than a woman,
who, with a bouquet to occupy her hands, and a veil to gently shroud
her features, need merely be prettily passive. I am alluding, I need
hardly say, to the religious ceremony of marriage, which I flatter
myself I have gone through with a stiff sheepishness not unworthy of
my country. It is a three-days-old event now, and we are getting used
to belonging to one another, though Elizabeth still takes off her
ring twenty times a day to admire its bright thickness; still laughs
when she hears herself called “Madame.” Three days ago, we kissed all
our friends, and left them to make themselves ill on our cake, and
criticise our bridal behaviour, and now we are at Brussels, she and I,
feeling oddly, joyfully free from any chaperone. We have been mildly
sight-seeing--very mildly, most people would say, but we have resolved
not to take our pleasure with the railway speed of Americans, or the
hasty sadness of our fellow Britons. Slowly and gaily we have been
taking ours. To-day we have been to visit Wiertz’s pictures. Have you
ever seen them, oh reader? They are known to comparatively few people,
but if you have a taste for the unearthly terrible--if you wish to
sup full of horrors, hasten thither. We have been peering through the
appointed peep-hole at the horrible cholera picture--the man buried
alive by mistake, pushing up the lid of his coffin, and stretching
a ghastly face and livid hands out of his winding sheet towards you,
while awful grey-blue coffins are piled around, and noisome toads and
giant spiders crawl damply about. On first seeing it, I have reproached
myself for bringing one of so nervous a temperament as Elizabeth to see
so haunting and hideous a spectacle; but she is less impressed than I
expected--less impressed than I myself am.

“He is very lucky to be able to get his lid up,” she says, with a
half-laugh; “we should find it hard work to burst our brass nails,
should not we? When you bury me, dear, fasten me down very slightly, in
case there may be some mistake.”

And now all the long and quiet July evening we have been prowling
together about the streets. Brussels is the town of towns for
_flâner_-ing--have been flattening our noses against the shop windows,
and making each other imaginary presents. Elizabeth has not confined
herself to imagination, however; she has made me buy her a little
bonnet with feathers--“in order to look married,” as she says, and the
result is such a delicious picture of a child playing at being grown
up, having practised a theft on its mother’s wardrobe, that for the
last two hours I have been in a foolish ecstasy of love and laughter
over her and it. We are at the “Bellevue,” and have a fine suite of
rooms, _au premier_, evidently specially devoted to the English, to
the gratification of whose well-known loyalty the Prince and Princess
of Wales are simpering from the walls. Is there any one in the three
kingdoms who knows his own face as well as he knows the faces of
Albert Victor and Alexandra? The long evening has at last slidden
into night--night far advanced--night melting into earliest day. All
Brussels is asleep. One moment ago I also was asleep, soundly as any
log. What is it that has made me take this sudden, headlong plunge
out of sleep into wakefulness? Who is it that is clutching at and
calling upon me? What is it that is making me struggle mistily up into
a sitting posture, and try to revive my sleep-numbed senses? A summer
night is never wholly dark; by the half light that steals through the
closed _persiennes_ and open windows I see my wife standing beside
my bed; the extremity of terror on her face, and her fingers digging
themselves with painful tenacity into my arm.

“Tighter, tighter!” she is crying, wildly. “What are you thinking of?
You are letting me go!”

“Good heavens!” say I, rubbing my eyes, while my muddy brain grows
a trifle clearer. “What is it? What has happened? Have you had a
nightmare?”

“You saw him,” she says, with a sort of sobbing breathlessness; “you
know you did! You saw him as well as I.”

“I!” cry I, incredulously--“not I. Till this second I have been fast
asleep. _I_ saw nothing.”

“You did!” she cries, passionately. “You know you did. Why do you deny
it? You were as frightened as I?”

“As I live,” I answer, solemnly, “I know no more than the dead what you
are talking about; till you woke me by calling me and catching hold of
me, I was as sound asleep as the seven sleepers.”

“Is it possible that it can have been a _dream_?” she says, with a
long sigh, for a moment loosing my arm, and covering her face with her
hands. “But no--in a dream I should have been somewhere else, but I was
here--_here_--on that bed, and he stood _there_,” pointing with her
forefinger, “just _there_, between the foot of it and the window!”

She stops, panting.

“It is all that brute Wiertz,” say I, in a fury. “I wish I had been
buried alive myself, before I had been fool enough to take you to see
his beastly daubs.”

“Light a candle,” she says, in the same breathless way, her teeth
chattering with fright. “Let us make sure that he is not hidden
somewhere in the room.”

“How could he be?” say I, striking a match; “the door is locked.”

“He might have got in by the balcony,” she answers, still trembling
violently.

“He would have had to have cut a very large hole in the _persiennes_,”
say I, half-mockingly. “See, they are intact and well fastened on the
inside.”

She sinks into an arm-chair, and pushes her loose soft hair from her
white face.

“It _was_ a dream then, I suppose?”

She is silent for a moment or two, while I bring her a glass of water,
and throw a dressing-gown round her cold and shrinking form.

“Now tell me, my little one,” I say, coaxingly, sitting down at her
feet, “what it was--what you thought you saw?”

“_Thought_ I saw!” echoes she, with indignant emphasis, sitting
upright, while her eyes sparkle feverishly. “I am as certain that I saw
him standing there as I am that I see that candle burning--that I see
this chair--that I see you.”

“_Him!_ but who is _him_?”

She falls forward on my neck, and buries her face in my shoulder.

“That--dreadful--man!” she says, while her whole body is one tremor.

“_What_ dreadful man?” cry I, impatiently.

She is silent.

“Who was he?”

“I do not know.”

“Did you ever see him before?”

“Oh, no--no, never! I hope to God I may never see him again!”

“What was he like?”

“Come closer to me,” she says, laying hold of my hand with her small
and chilly fingers; “stay _quite_ near me, and I will tell you,”--after
a pause--“he had a _nose_!”

“My dear soul,” cry I, bursting out with a loud laugh in the silence of
the night, “do not most people have noses? Would not he have been much
more dreadful if he had had _none_?”

“But it was _such_ a nose!” she says, with perfect trembling gravity.

“A bottle nose?” suggest I, still cackling.

“For heaven’s sake, don’t laugh!” she says, nervously; “if you had seen
his face, you would have been as little disposed to laugh as I.”

“But his nose?” return I, suppressing my merriment; “what kind of nose
was it? See, I am as grave as a judge.”

“It was very prominent,” she answers, in a sort of awe-struck
half-whisper, “and very sharply chiselled; the nostrils very much cut
out.” A little pause. “His eyebrows were one straight black line across
his face, and under them his eyes burnt like dull coals of fire, that
shone and yet did not shine; they looked like dead eyes, sunken, half
extinguished, and yet sinister.”

“And what did he do?” ask I, impressed, despite myself, by her
passionate earnestness; “when did you first see him?”

“I was asleep,” she said--“at least I thought so--and suddenly I opened
my eyes, and he was _there_--_there_”--pointing again with trembling
finger--“between the window and the bed.”

“What was he doing? Was he walking about?”

“He was standing as still as stone--I never saw any live thing so
still--_looking_ at me; he never called or beckoned, or moved a
finger, but his eyes _commanded_ me to come to him, as the eyes of the
mesmeriser at Penrith did.” She stops, breathing heavily. I can hear
her heart’s loud and rapid beats.

“And you?” I say, pressing her more closely to my side, and smoothing
her troubled hair.

“I _hated_ it,” she cries, excitedly; “I loathed it--abhorred it. I was
ice-cold with fear and horror, but--I _felt_ myself going to him.”

“Yes?”

“And then I shrieked out to you, and you came running, and caught fast
hold of me, and held me tight at first--quite tight--but presently
I felt your hold slacken--slacken--and though I _longed_ to stay
with you, though I was _mad_ with fright, yet I felt myself pulling
strongly away from you--going to him; and he--he stood there always
looking--looking--and then I gave one last loud shriek, and I suppose I
awoke--and it was a dream!”

“I never heard of a clearer case of nightmare,” say I, stoutly; “that
vile Wiertz! I should like to see his whole _Musée_ burnt by the hands
of the hangman to-morrow.”

She shakes her head. “It had nothing to say to Wiertz; what it meant I
do not know, but----”

“It meant nothing,” I answer, reassuringly, “except that for the future
we will go and see none but good and pleasant sights, and steer clear
of charnel-house fancies.”



CHAPTER III.


Elizabeth is now in a position to decide whether the Rhine is a
cocktail river or no, for she is on it, and so am I. We are sitting,
with an awning over our heads, and little wooden stools under our
feet. Elizabeth has a small sailor’s hat and blue ribbon on her head.
The river breeze has blown it rather awry; has tangled her plenteous
hair; has made a faint pink stain on her pale cheeks. It is some fête
day, and the boat is crowded. Tables, countless camp-stools, volumes
of black smoke pouring from the funnel, as we steam along. “Nothing to
the Caledonian Canal!” cries a burly Scotchman in leggings, speaking
with loud authority, and surveying with an air of contempt the eternal
vine-clad slopes, that sound so well, and look so _sticky_ in reality.
“Cannot hold a candle to it!” A rival bride and bridegroom opposite,
sitting together like love-birds under an umbrella, looking into each
other’s eyes instead of at the Rhine scenery.

“They might as well have stayed at home, might not they?” says my wife,
with a little air of superiority. “Come, we are not so bad as that, are
we?”

A storm comes on: hailstones beat slantwise and reach us--stone and
sting us right under our awning. Everybody rushes down below, and
takes the opportunity to feed ravenously. There are few actions more
disgusting than eating _can_ be made. A handsome girl close to us--her
immaturity evidenced by the two long tails of black hair down her
back--is thrusting her knife half way down her throat.

“Come on deck again,” says Elizabeth, disgusted and frightened at this
last sight. “The hail was much better than this!”

So we return to our camp-stools, and sit alone under one mackintosh in
the lashing storm, with happy hearts and empty stomachs.

“Is not this better than any luncheon?” asks Elizabeth, triumphantly,
while the raindrops hang on her long and curled lashes.

“Infinitely better,” reply I, madly struggling with the umbrella to
prevent its being blown inside out, and gallantly ignoring a species of
gnawing sensation at my entrails.

The squall clears off by-and-by, and we go steaming, steaming on
past the unnumbered little villages by the water’s edge with church
spires and pointed roof, past the countless rocks with their little
pert castles perched on the top of them, past the tall, stiff poplar
rows. The church bells are ringing gaily as we go by. A nightingale is
singing from a wood. The black eagle of Prussia droops on the stream
behind us, swish-swish through the dull green water. A fat woman who is
interested in it, leans over the back of the boat, and by some happy
effect of crinoline, displays to her fellow-passengers two yards of
thick white cotton legs. She is, fortunately for herself, unconscious
of her generosity.

The day steals on; at every stopping place more people come on. There
is hardly elbow room; and, what is worse, almost everybody is drunk.
Rocks, castles, villages, poplars, slide by, while the paddles churn
always the water, and the evening draws greyly on. At Bingen a party of
big blue Prussian soldiers, very drunk, “glorious” as Tam o’ Shanter,
come and establish themselves close to us. They call for Lager Beer;
talk at the tip-top of their strong voices; two of them begin to spar;
all seem inclined to sing. Elizabeth is frightened. We are two hours
late in arriving at Biebrich. It is half an hour more before we can
get ourselves and our luggage into a carriage and set off along the
winding road to Wiesbaden. “The night is chilly, but not dark.” There
is only a little shabby bit of a moon, but it shines as hard as it can.
Elizabeth is quite worn out, her tired head droops in uneasy sleep on
my shoulder. Once she wakes up with a start.

“Are you sure that it meant nothing?” she asks, looking me eagerly in
my face; “do people often have such dreams?”

“Often, often,” I answer, reassuringly.

“I am always afraid of falling asleep now,” she says, trying to sit
upright and keep her heavy eyes open, “for fear of seeing him standing
there again. Tell me, do you think I shall? Is there any chance, any
probability of it?”

“None, none!”

We reach Wiesbaden at last, and drive up to the Hôtel des Quatre
Saisons. By this time it is full midnight. Two or three men are
standing about the door. Morris, the maid, has got out--so have I,
and I am holding out my hand to Elizabeth, when I hear her give one
piercing scream, and see her with ash-white face and starting eyes
point with her forefinger----

“There he is!--there!--there!”

I look in the direction indicated, and just catch a glimpse of a tall
figure, standing half in the shadow of the night, half in the gaslight
from the hotel. I have not time for more than one cursory glance, as I
am interrupted by a cry from the bystanders, and turning quickly round,
am just in time to catch my wife, who falls in utter insensibility into
my arms. We carry her into a room on the ground floor; it is small,
noisy, and hot, but it is the nearest at hand. In about an hour she
re-opens her eyes. A strong shudder makes her quiver from head to foot.

“Where is he?” she says, in a terrified whisper, as her senses come
slowly back. “He is somewhere about--somewhere near. I feel that he is!”

“My dearest child, there is no one here but Morris and me,” I answer,
soothingly. “Look for yourself. See.”

I take one of the candles and light up each corner of the room in
succession.

“You saw him!” she says, in trembling hurry, sitting up and clenching
her hands together. “I know you did--I pointed him out to you--you
_cannot_ say that it was a dream _this_ time.”

“I saw two or three ordinary looking men as we drove up,” I answer,
in a commonplace, matter-of-fact tone. “I did not notice anything
remarkable about any of them; you know the fact is, darling, that you
have had nothing to eat all day, nothing but a biscuit, and you are
over-wrought, and fancy things.”

“Fancy!” echoes she, with strong irritation. “How you talk! Was I ever
one to fancy things? I tell you that as sure as I sit here--as sure as
you stand there--I saw him--_him_--the man I saw in my dream, if it was
a dream. There was not a hair’s breadth of difference between them--and
he was looking at me--looking----”

She breaks off into hysterical sobbing.

“My dear child!” say I, thoroughly alarmed, and yet half angry, “for
God’s sake do not work yourself up into a fever: wait till to-morrow,
and we will find out who he is, and all about him; you yourself will
laugh when we discover that he is some harmless bagman.”

“Why not _now_?” she says, nervously; “why cannot you find out
_now_--_this minute_?”

“Impossible! Everybody is in bed! Wait till to-morrow, and all will be
cleared up.”

The morrow comes, and I go about the hotel, inquiring. The house is so
full, and the data I have to go upon are so small, that for some time I
have great difficulty in making it understood to whom I am alluding. At
length one waiter seems to comprehend.

“A tall and dark gentleman, with a pronounced and very peculiar nose?
Yes; there has been such a one, certainly, in the hotel, but he left at
‘grand matin’ this morning; he remained only one night.”

“And his name?”

The garçon shakes his head. “That is unknown, monsieur; he did not
inscribe it in the visitor’s book.”

“What countryman was he?”

Another shake of the head. “He spoke German, but it was with a foreign
accent.”

“Whither did he go?”

That also is unknown. Nor can I arrive at any more facts about him.



CHAPTER IV.


A fortnight has passed; we have been hither and thither; now we are at
Lucerne. Peopled with better inhabitants, Lucerne might well do for
Heaven. It is drawing towards eventide, and Elizabeth and I are sitting
hand in hand on a quiet bench, under the shady linden trees, on a high
hill up above the lake. There is nobody to see us, so we sit peaceably
hand in hand. Up by the still and solemn monastery we came, with its
small and narrow windows, calculated to hinder the holy fathers from
promenading curious eyes on the world, the flesh, and the devil,
tripping past them in blue gauze veils: below us grass and green trees,
houses with high-pitched roofs, little dormer-windows, and shutters
yet greener than the grass; below us the lake in its rippleless peace,
calm, quiet, motionless as Bethesda’s pool before the coming of the
troubling angel.

“I said it was too good to last,” say I, doggedly, “did not I, only
yesterday? Perfect peace, perfect sympathy, perfect freedom from
nagging worries--when did such a state of things last more than two
days?”

Elizabeth’s eyes are idly fixed on a little steamer, with a stripe of
red along its side, and a tiny puff of smoke from its funnel, gliding
along and cutting a narrow white track on Lucerne’s sleepy surface.

“This is the fifth false alarm of the gout having gone to his stomach
within the last two years,” continue I, resentfully. “I declare to
Heaven, that if it has not really gone there this time, I’ll cut the
whole concern.”

Let no one cast up their eyes in horror, imagining that it is my father
to whom I am thus alluding; it is only a great uncle by marriage,
in consideration of whose wealth and vague promises I have dawdled
professionless through twenty-eight years of my life.

“You _must_ not go,” says Elizabeth, giving my hand an imploring
squeeze. “The man in the Bible said, ‘I have married a wife, and
therefore I cannot come;’ why should it be a less valid excuse now a
days?”

“If I recollect rightly, it was considered rather a poor one even
then,” reply I, dryly.

Elizabeth is unable to contradict this, she therefore only lifts two
pouted lips (Monsieur Taine objects to the redness of English women’s
mouths, but I do not) to be kissed, and says, “Stay.” I am good enough
to comply with her unspoken request, though I remain firm with regard
to her spoken one.

“My dearest child,” I say, with an air of worldly experience and
superior wisdom, “kisses are very good things--in fact there are few
better--but one cannot live upon them.”

“Let us try,” she says, coaxingly.

“I wonder which would get tired first?” I say, laughing. But she only
goes on pleading, “Stay, stay.”

“How _can_ I stay?” I cry, impatiently; “you talk as if I _wanted_ to
go! Do you think it is any pleasanter to me to leave you than to you
to be left? But you know his disposition, his rancorous resentment of
fancied neglects. For the sake of two days’ indulgence, must I throw
away what will keep us in ease and plenty to the end of our days?”

“I do not care for plenty,” she says, with a little petulant gesture.
“I do not see that rich people are any happier than poor ones. Look at
the St. Clairs; they have £40,000 a-year, and she is a miserable woman,
perfectly miserable, because her face gets red after dinner.”

“There will be no fear of _our_ faces getting red after dinner,” say I,
grimly, “for we shall have no dinner for them to get red after.”

A pause. My eyes stray away to the mountains. Pilatus on the right,
with his jagged peak and slender snow-chains about his harsh neck; hill
after hill rising silent, eternal, like guardian spirits standing hand
in hand around their child, the lake. As I look, suddenly they have
all flushed, as at some noblest thought, and over all their sullen
faces streams an ineffable rosy joy--a solemn and wonderful effulgence,
such as Israel saw reflected from the features of the Eternal in their
prophet’s transfigured eyes. The unutterable peace and stainless
beauty of earth and sky seem to lie softly on my soul. “Would God I
could stay! Would God all life could be like this!” I say, devoutly,
and the aspiration has the reverent earnestness of a prayer.

“Why do you say, ‘_Would God!_’” she cries, passionately, “when it lies
with yourself? Oh my dear love,” gently sliding her hand through my
arm, and lifting wetly-beseeching eyes to my face, “I do not know why
I insist upon it so much--I cannot tell you myself--I daresay I seem
selfish and unreasonable--but I feel as if your going now would be the
end of all things--as if----.” She breaks off suddenly.

“My child,” say I, thoroughly distressed, but still determined to have
my own way, “you talk as if I were going for ever and a day; in a week,
at the outside, I shall be back, and then you will thank me for the
very thing for which you now think me so hard and disobliging.”

“Shall I?” she answers, mournfully. “Well, I hope so.”

“You will not be alone, either; you will have Morris.”

“Yes.”

“And every day you will write me a long letter, telling me every single
thing that you do, say, and think.”

“Yes.”

She answers me gently and obediently; but I can see that she is still
utterly unreconciled to the idea of my absence.

“What is it that you are afraid of?” I ask, becoming rather irritated.
“What do you suppose will happen to you?”

She does not answer; only a large tear falls on my hand, which she
hastily wipes away with her pocket handkerchief, as if afraid of
exciting my wrath.

“Can you give me any good reason why I _should_ stay?” I ask,
dictatorially.

“None--none--only--stay--stay!”

But I am resolved _not_ to stay. Early the next morning I set off.



CHAPTER V.


This time it is not a false alarm; this time it really has gone to his
stomach, and, declining to be dislodged thence, kills him. My return is
therefore retarded until after the funeral and the reading of the will.
The latter is so satisfactory, and my time is so fully occupied with a
multiplicity of attendant business, that I have no leisure to regret
the delay. I write to Elizabeth, but receive no letters from her. This
surprises and makes me rather angry, but does not alarm me. “If she
had been ill, if anything had happened, Morris would have written. She
never was great at writing, poor little soul. What dear little babyish
notes she used to send me during our engagement; perhaps she wishes to
punish me for my disobedience to her wishes. Well, _now_ she will see
who was in the right.” I am drawing near her now; I am walking up from
the railway station at Lucerne. I am very joyful as I march along under
an umbrella, in the grand broad shining of the summer afternoon. I
think with pensive passion of the last glimpse I had of my beloved--her
small and wistful face looking out from among the thick fair fleece of
her long hair--winking away her tears and blowing kisses to me. It is
a new sensation to me to have any one looking tearfully wistful over
my departure. I draw near the great glaring Schweizerhof, with its
colonnaded, tourist-crowded porch; here are all the pomegranates as I
left them, in their green tubs, with their scarlet blossoms, and the
dusty oleanders in a row. I look up at our windows; nobody is looking
out from them; they are open, and the curtains are alternately swelled
out and drawn in by the softly-playful wind. I run quickly upstairs and
burst noisily into the sitting-room. Empty, perfectly empty! I open the
adjoining door into the bedroom, crying “Elizabeth! Elizabeth!” but
I receive no answer. Empty too. A feeling of indignation creeps over
me as I think, “Knowing the time of my return, she might have managed
to be indoors.” I have returned to the silent sitting-room, where the
only noise is the wind still playing hide-and-seek with the curtains.
As I look vacantly round my eye catches sight of a letter lying on the
table. I pick it up mechanically and look at the address. Good heavens!
what can this mean? It is my own, that I sent her two days ago,
unopened, with the seal unbroken. Does she carry her resentment so far
as not even to open my letters? I spring at the bell and violently ring
it. It is answered by the waiter who has always specially attended us.

“Is madame gone out?”

The man opens his mouth and stares at me.

“Madame! Is monsieur then not aware that madame is no longer at the
hotel?”

“_What?_”

“On the same day as monsieur, madame departed.”

“_Departed!_ Good God! what are you talking about?”

“A few hours after monsieur’s departure--I will not be positive as to
the exact time, but it must have been between one and two o’clock as
the midday _table d’hôte_ was in progress--a gentleman came and asked
for madame----”

“Yes--be quick.”

“I demanded whether I should take up his card, but he said ‘No,’ that
was unnecessary, as he was perfectly well known to madame; and, in
fact, a short time afterwards, without saying anything to any one, she
departed with him.”

“And did not return in the evening?”

“No, monsieur; madame has not returned since that day.”

I clench my hands in an agony of rage and grief. “So this is it! With
that pure child-face, with that divine ignorance--only three weeks
married--this is the trick she has played me!” I am recalled to myself
by a compassionate suggestion from the garçon.

“Perhaps it was the brother of madame.”

Elizabeth has no brother, but the remark brings back to me the
necessity of self-command. “Very probably,” I answer, speaking with
infinite difficulty. “What sort of looking gentleman was he?”

“He was a very tall and dark gentleman with a most peculiar nose--not
quite like any nose that I ever saw before--and most singular eyes.
Never have I seen a gentleman who at all resembled him.”

I sink into a chair, while a cold shudder creeps over me as I think
of my poor child’s dream--of her fainting fit at Wiesbaden--of her
unconquerable dread of and aversion from my departure. And this
happened twelve days ago! I catch up my hat, and prepare to rush like a
madman in pursuit.

“How did they go?” I ask incoherently; “by train?--driving?--walking?”

“They went in a carriage.”

“What direction did they take? Whither did they go?”

He shakes his head. “It is not known.”

“It _must_ be known,” I cry, driven to frenzy by every second’s delay.
“Of course the driver could tell; where is he?--where can I find him?”

“He did not belong to Lucerne, neither did the carriage; the gentleman
brought them with him.”

“But madame’s maid,” say I, a gleam of hope flashing across my mind;
“did she go with her?”

“No, monsieur, she is still here; she was as much surprised as monsieur
at madame’s departure.”

“Send her at once,” I cry eagerly; but when she comes I find that she
can throw no light on the matter. She weeps noisily and says many
irrelevant things, but I can obtain no information from her beyond the
fact that she was unaware of her mistress’s departure until long after
it had taken place, when, surprised at not being rung for at the usual
time, she had gone to her room and found it empty, and on inquiring in
the hotel, had heard of her sudden departure; that, expecting her to
return at night, she had sat up waiting for her till two o’clock in
the morning, but that, as I knew, she had not returned, neither had
anything since been heard of her.

Not all my inquiries, not all my cross-questionings of the whole staff
of the hotel, of the visitors, of the railway officials, of nearly all
the inhabitants of Lucerne and its environs, procure me a jot more
knowledge. On the next few weeks I look back as on a hellish and insane
dream. I can neither eat nor sleep; I am unable to remain one moment
quiet; my whole existence, my nights and my days, are spent in seeking,
seeking. Everything that human despair and frenzied love can do is done
by me. I advertise, I communicate with the police, I employ detectives;
but that fatal twelve days’ start for ever baffles me. Only on one
occasion do I obtain one tittle of information. In a village a few
miles from Lucerne the peasants, on the day in question, saw a carriage
driving rapidly through their little street. It was closed, but
through the windows they could see the occupants--a dark gentleman,
with the peculiar physiognomy which has been so often described, and
on the opposite seat a lady lying apparently in a state of utter
insensibility. But even this leads to nothing.

Oh, reader, these things happened twenty years ago; since then I have
searched sea and land, but never have I seen my little Elizabeth again.



BEHOLD, IT WAS A DREAM!



BEHOLD, IT WAS A DREAM!



CHAPTER I.


Yesterday morning I received the following letter:

                                    “Weston House, Caulfield, ----shire.

  “MY DEAR DINAH,--You _must_ come: I scorn all your excuses, and see
  through their flimsiness. I have no doubt that you are much better
  amused in Dublin, frolicking round ball-rooms with a succession of
  horse-soldiers, and watching her Majesty’s household troops play
  Polo in the Phœnix Park, but no matter--you _must_ come. We have
  no particular inducements to hold out. We lead an exclusively
  bucolic, cow-milking, pig-fattening, roast-mutton-eating and
  to-bed-at-ten-o’clock-going life; but no matter--you _must_ come.
  I want you to see how happy two dull elderly people may be, with
  no special brightness in their lot to make them so. My old man--he
  is surprisingly ugly at the first glance, but grows upon one
  afterwards--sends you his respects, and bids me say that he will meet
  you at _any_ station on _any_ day at _any_ hour of the day or night.
  If you succeed in evading our persistence this time, you will be a
  cleverer woman than I take you for.

                                          “Ever yours affectionately,
                                                           “JANE WATSON.

  “_August 15th._

  “P.S.--We will invite our little scarlet-headed curate to dinner to
  meet you, so as to soften your fall from the society of the Plungers.”

This is my answer:

  “MY DEAR JANE,--Kill the fat calf in all haste, and put the bake
  meats into the oven, for I will come. Do not, however, imagine that
  I am moved thereunto by the prospect of the bright-headed curate.
  Believe me, my dear, I am as yet at a distance of ten long good years
  from an addiction to the minor clergy. If I survive the crossing of
  that seething, heaving, tumbling abomination, St. George’s Channel,
  you may expect me on Tuesday next. I have been groping for hours in
  ‘Bradshaw’s’ darkness that may be felt, and I have arrived at length
  at this twilight result, that I may arrive at your station at 6·55
  P.M. But the ways of ‘Bradshaw’ are not our ways, and I _may_ either
  rush violently past or never attain it. If I do, and if on my arrival
  I see some rustic vehicle, guided by a startlingly ugly gentleman,
  awaiting me, I shall know from your wifely description that it is
  your ‘old man.’ Till Tuesday, then,

                                            “Affectionately yours,
                                                        “DINAH BELLAIRS.

  “_August 17th._”

I am as good as my word; on Tuesday I set off. For four mortal hours
and a half I am disastrously, hideously, diabolically sick. For four
hours and a half I curse the day on which I was born, the day on which
Jane Watson was born, the day on which her old man was born, and
lastly--but oh! not, _not_ leastly--the day and the dock on which and
in which the _Leinster’s_ plunging, courtseying, throbbing body was
born. On arriving at Holyhead, feeling convinced from my sensations
that, as the French say, I touch my last hour, I indistinctly request
to be allowed to stay on board and _die_, then and there; but as the
stewardess and my maid take a different view of my situation, and
insist upon forcing my cloak and bonnet on my dying body and limp head,
I at length succeed in staggering on deck and off the accursed boat. I
am then well shaken up for two or three hours in the Irish mail, and
after crawling along a slow by-line for two or three hours more, am at
length, at 6·55, landed, battered, tired, dust-blacked, and qualmish,
at the little roadside station of Caulfield. My maid and I are the only
passengers who descend. The train snorts its slow way onwards, and I am
left gazing at the calm crimson death of the August sun, and smelling
the sweet-peas in the station-master’s garden border. I look round
in search of Jane’s promised tax-cart, and steel my nerves for the
contemplation of her old man’s unlovely features. But the only vehicle
which I see is a tiny two-wheeled pony carriage, drawn by a small
and tub-shaped bay pony and driven by a lady in a hat, whose face is
turned expectantly towards me. I go up and recognise my friend, whom I
have not seen for two years--not since before she fell in with her old
man and espoused him.

“I thought it safest, after all, to come myself,” she says with a
bright laugh. “My old man looked so handsome this morning, that I
thought you would never recognise him from my description. Get in,
dear, and let us trot home as quickly as we can.”

I comply, and for the next half hour sit (while the cool evening wind
is blowing the dust off my hot and jaded face) stealing amazed glances
at my companion’s cheery features. _Cheery!_ That is the very last
word that, excepting in an ironical sense, any one would have applied
to my friend Jane two years ago. Two years ago Jane was thirty-five,
the elderly eldest daughter of a large family, hustled into obscurity,
jostled, shelved, by half a dozen younger, fresher sisters; an
elderly girl addicted to lachrymose verse about the gone and the dead
and the for-ever-lost. Apparently the gone has come back, the dead
resuscitated, the for-ever-lost been found again. The peaky sour virgin
is transformed into a gracious matron, with a kindly, comely face,
pleasure making and pleasure feeling. Oh, Happiness, what powder, or
paste, or milk of roses, can make old cheeks young again in the cunning
way that you do? If you would but bide steadily with us we might live
for ever, always young and always handsome.

My musings on Jane’s metamorphosis, combined with a tired headache,
make me somewhat silent, and indeed there is mostly a slackness of
conversation between the two dearest allies on first meeting after
absence--a sort of hesitating shiver before plunging into the sea of
talk that both know lie in readiness for them.

“Have you got your harvest in yet?” I ask, more for the sake of not
utterly holding my tongue than from any profound interest in the
subject, as we jog briskly along between the yellow cornfields, where
the dry bound sheaves are standing in golden rows in the red sunset
light.

“Not yet,” answers Jane; “we have only just begun to cut some of it.
However, thank God, the weather looks as settled as possible; there is
not a streak of watery lilac in the west.”

My headache is almost gone and I am beginning to think kindly of
dinner--a subject from which all day until now my mind has hastily
turned with a sensation of hideous inward revolt--by the time that the
fat pony pulls up before the old-world dark porch of a modest little
house, which has bashfully hidden its original face under a veil of
crowded clematis flowers and stalwart ivy. Set as in a picture-frame
by the large drooped ivy-leaves, I see a tall and moderately
hard-featured gentleman of middle age, perhaps, of the two, rather
inclining towards elderly, smiling at us a little shyly.

“This is my old man,” cries Jane, stepping gaily out, and giving him a
friendly introductory pat on the shoulder. “Old man, this is Dinah.”

Having thus been made known to each other we shake hands, but neither
of us can arrive at anything pretty to say. Then I follow Jane into her
little house, the little house for which she has so happily exchanged
her tenth part of the large and noisy paternal mansion. It is an old
house, and everything about it has the moderate shabbiness of old age
and long and careful wear. Little thick-walled rooms, dark and cool,
with flowers and flower scents lying in wait for you everywhere--a
silent, fragrant, childless house. To me, who have had oily locomotives
snorting and racing through my head all day, its dumb sweetness seems
like heaven.

“And now that we have secured you, we do not mean to let you go in
a hurry,” says Jane hospitably that night at bedtime, lighting the
candles on my dressing-table.

“You are determined to make my mouth water, I see,” say I, interrupting
a yawn to laugh. “Lone lorn me, who have neither old man nor dear
little house, nor any prospect of ultimately attaining either.”

“But if you honestly are not bored you will stay with us a good bit?”
she says, laying her hand with kind entreaty on my sleeve. “St.
George’s Channel is not lightly to be faced again.”

“Perhaps I shall stay until you are obliged to go away yourselves to
get rid of me,” return I, smiling. “Such things have happened. Yes,
without joking, I will stay a month. Then, by the end of a month, if
you have not found me out thoroughly, I think I may pass among men for
a more amiable woman than I have ever yet had the reputation of.”

A quarter of an hour later I am laying down my head among soft and
snow-white pillows, and saying to myself that this delicious sensation
of utter drowsy repose, of soft darkness and odorous quiet, is cheaply
purchased even by the ridiculous anguish which my own sufferings,
and--hardly less than my own sufferings--the demoniac sights and sounds
afforded by my fellow-passengers, caused me on board the accursed
_Leinster_--

  “Built in the eclipse, and rigged with curses dark.”



CHAPTER II.


“Well, I cannot say that you look much rested,” says Jane next morning,
coming in to greet me, smiling and fresh--(yes, sceptic of eighteen,
even a woman of thirty-seven may look fresh in a print gown on an
August morning, when she has a well of lasting quiet happiness inside
her)--coming in with a bunch of creamy _gloire de Dijons_ in her hand
for the breakfast table. “You look infinitely more fagged than you did
when I left you last night!”

“Do I?” say I, rather faintly.

“I am afraid you did not sleep much?” suggests Jane, a little
crestfallen at the insult to her feather beds implied by my
wakefulness. “Some people never can sleep the first night in a strange
bed, and I stupidly forgot to ask whether you liked the feather bed or
mattress at the top.”

“Yes, I did sleep,” I answer gloomily. “I wish to heaven I had not!”

“Wish--to--heaven--you--had--not?” repeats Jane slowly, with a slight
astonished pause between each word. “My dear child, for what other
purpose did you go to bed?”

“I--I--had bad dreams,” say I, shuddering a little and then taking her
hand, roses and all, in mine. “Dear Jane, do not think me quite run
mad, but--but--have you got a ‘Bradshaw’ in the house?”

“A ‘Bradshaw?’ What on earth do you want with ‘Bradshaw?’” says my
hostess, her face lengthening considerably and a slight tincture of
natural coldness coming into her tone.

“I know it seems rude--insultingly rude,” say I, still holding her hand
and speaking almost lachrymosely: “but do you know, my dear, I really
am afraid that--that--I shall have to leave you--to-day?”

“To leave us?” repeats she, withdrawing her hand and growing angrily
red. “What! when not twenty-four hours ago you settled to stay _a
month_ with us? What have we done between then and now to disgust you
with us?”

“Nothing--nothing,” cry I, eagerly; “how can you suggest such a thing?
I never had a kinder welcome nor ever saw a place that charmed me more;
but--but----”

“But what?” asks Jane, her colour subsiding and looking a little
mollified.

“It is best to tell the truth, I suppose,” say I, sighing, “even though
I know that you will laugh at me--will call me vapourish--sottishly
superstitious; but I had an awful and hideous dream last night.”

“Is that all?” she says, looking relieved, and beginning to arrange
her roses in an old china bowl. “And do you think that all dreams are
confined to this house? I never heard before of their affecting any
one special place more than another. Perhaps no sooner are you back in
Dublin, in your own room and your own bed, than you will have a still
worse and uglier one.”

I shake my head. “But it was about this house--about _you_.”

“About _me_?” she says, with an accent of a little aroused interest.

“About you and your husband,” I answer earnestly. “Shall I tell it you?
Whether you say ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ I must. Perhaps it came as a warning;
such things have happened. Yes, say what you will, I cannot believe
that any vision so consistent--so tangibly real and utterly free from
the jumbled incongruities and unlikelinesses of ordinary dreams--could
have meant nothing. Shall I begin?”

“By all means,” answers Mrs. Watson, sitting down in an arm-chair and
smiling easily. “I am quite prepared to listen--and _dis_believe.”

“You know,” say I, narratively, coming and standing close before her,
“how utterly tired out I was when you left me last night. I could
hardly answer your questions for yawning. I do not think that I was
ten minutes in getting into bed, and it seemed like heaven when I laid
my head down on the pillow. I felt as if I should sleep till the Day
of Judgment. Well, you know, when one is asleep one has of course no
measure of time, and I have no idea what hour it was _really_; but
at some time, in the blackest and darkest of the night, I seemed to
wake. It appeared as if a noise had woke me--a noise which at first
neither frightened nor surprised me in the least, but which seemed
quite natural, and which I accounted for in the muddled drowsy way in
which one does account for things when half asleep. But as I gradually
grew to fuller consciousness I found out, with a cold shudder, that
the noise I heard was not one that belonged to the night; nothing that
one could lay on wind in the chimney, or mice behind the wainscot, or
ill-fitting boards. It was a sound of muffled struggling, and once I
heard a sort of choked strangled cry. I sat up in bed, perfectly numbed
with fright, and for a moment could hear nothing for the singing of
the blood in my head, and the loud battering of my heart against my
side. Then I thought that if it were anything bad--if I were going to
be murdered--I had at least rather be in the light than the dark, and
see in what sort of shape my fate was coming, so I slid out of bed and
threw my dressing-gown over my shoulders. I had stupidly forgotten, in
my weariness, over night, to put the matches by the bedside, and could
not for the life of me recollect where they were. Also, my knowledge
of the geography of the room was so small that in the utter blackness,
without even the palest, grayest ray from the window to help me, I was
by no means sure in which direction the door lay. I can feel _now_ the
pain of the blow I gave this right side against the sharp corner of the
table in passing; I was quite surprised this morning not to find the
mark of a bruise there. At last, in my groping, I came upon the handle
and turned the key in the lock. It gave a little squeak, and again I
stopped for a moment, overcome by ungovernable fear. Then I silently
opened the door and looked out. You know that your door is exactly
opposite mine. By the line of red light underneath it, I could see that
at all events some one was awake and astir within, for the light was
brighter than that given by a night-light. By the broader band of red
light on the right side of it I could also perceive that the door was
ajar. I stood stock still and listened. The two sounds of struggling
and chokedly crying had both ceased. All the noise that remained was
that as of some person quietly moving about on unbooted feet. ‘Perhaps
Jane’s dog Smut is ill and she is sitting up with it; she was saying
last night, I remember, that she was afraid it was beginning with the
distemper. Perhaps either she or her old man have been taken with some
trifling temporary sickness. Perhaps the noise of crying out that I
certainly heard was one of them fighting with a nightmare.’ Trying, by
such like suggestions, to hearten myself up, I stole across the passage
and peeped in----”

I pause in my narrative.

“Well?” says Jane, a little impatiently.

She has dropped her flowers. They lie in odorous dewy confusion in
her lap. She is listening rather eagerly. I cover my face with my
hands. “Oh! my dear,” I cry, “I do not think I can go on. It was _too_
dreadful! Now that I am telling it I seem to be doing and hearing it
over again----”

“I do not call it very kind to keep me on the rack,” she says, with a
rather forced laugh. “Probably I am imagining something much worse than
the reality. For heaven’s sake speak up! What _did_ you see?”

I take hold of her hand and continue. “You know that in your room the
bed exactly faces the door. Well, when I looked in, looked in with
eyes blinking at first, and dazzled by the long darkness they had been
in, it seemed to me as if that bed were only one horrible sheet of
crimson; but as my sight grew clearer I saw what it was that caused
that frightful impression of universal red----” Again I pause with a
gasp and feeling of oppressed breathing.

“Go on! go on!” cries my companion, leaning forward, and speaking with
some petulance. “Are you never going to get to the point?”

“Jane,” say I solemnly, “do not laugh at me, nor pooh pooh me, for
it is God’s truth--as clearly and vividly as I see you now, strong,
flourishing, and alive, so clearly, so vividly, with no more of dream
haziness nor of contradiction in details than there is in the view
I now have of this room and of you--I saw you _both_--you and your
husband, lying _dead_--_murdered_--drowned in your own blood!”

“What, both of us?” she says, trying to laugh, but her healthy cheek
has rather paled.

“Both of you,” I answer, with growing excitement. “You, Jane, had
evidently been the one first attacked--taken off in your sleep--for you
were lying just as you would have lain in slumber, only that across
your throat from there to there” (touching first one ear and then the
other), “there was a huge and yawning gash.”

“Pleasant,” replies she, with a slight shiver.

“I never saw any one dead,” continue I earnestly, “never until last
night. I had not the faintest idea how dead people looked, even people
who died quietly, nor has any picture ever given me at all a clear
conception of death’s dread look. How then could I have _imagined_ the
hideous contraction and distortion of feature, the staring starting
open eyes--glazed yet agonized--the tightly clenched teeth that go to
make up the picture, that is _now, this very minute_, standing out in
ugly vividness before my mind’s eye?” I stop, but she does not avail
herself of the pause to make any remark, neither does she look any
longer at all laughingly inclined.

“And yet,” continue I, with a voice shaken by emotion, “it was _you_,
_very_ you, not partly you and partly some one else, as is mostly the
case in dreams, but as much _you_, as the _you_ I am touching now”
(laying my finger on her arm as I speak).

“And my old man, Robin,” says poor Jane, rather tearfully, after a
moment’s silence, “what about him? Did you see him? Was he dead too?”

“It was evidently he whom I had heard struggling and crying,” I answer
with a strong shudder, which I cannot keep down, “for it was clear
that he had fought for his life. He was lying half on the bed and half
on the floor, and one clenched hand was grasping a great piece of the
sheet; he was lying head downwards, as if, after his last struggle, he
had fallen forwards. All his grey hair was reddened and stained, and I
could see that the rift in his throat was as deep as that in yours.”

“I wish you would stop,” cries Jane, pale as ashes, and speaking with
an accent of unwilling terror; “you are making me quite sick!”

“I _must_ finish,” I answer earnestly, “since it has come in time I am
sure it has come for some purpose. Listen to me till the end; it is
very near.” She does not speak, and I take her silence for assent. “I
was staring at you both in a stony way,” I go on, a feeling--if I felt
at all--that I was turning idiotic with horror--standing in exactly
the same spot, with my neck craned to look round the door, and my eyes
unable to stir from that hideous scarlet bed, when a slight noise, as
of some one cautiously stepping on the carpet, turned my stony terror
into a living quivering agony. I looked and saw a man with his back
towards me walking across the room from the bed to the dressing-table.
He was dressed in the dirty fustian of an ordinary workman, and in his
hand he held a red wet sickle. When he reached the dressing-table he
laid it down on the floor beside him, and began to collect all the
rings, open the cases of the bracelets, and hurry the trinkets of all
sorts into his pockets. While he was thus busy I caught a full view
of the reflection of the face in the glass---- I stop for breath, my
heart is panting almost as hardly as it seemed to pant during the awful
moments I am describing.

“What was he like--what was he like?” cries Jane, greatly excited. “Did
you see him distinctly enough to recollect his features again? Would
you know him again if you saw him?”

“Should I know my own face if I saw it in the glass?” I ask scornfully.
“I see every line of it _now_ more clearly than I do yours, though that
is before my eyes, and the other only before my memory----”

“Well, what was he like?--be quick, for heaven’s sake.”

“The first moment that I caught sight of him,” continue I, speaking
quickly, “I felt certain that he was Irish; to no other nationality
could such a type of face have belonged. His wild rough hair fell down
over his forehead, reaching his shagged and overhanging brows. He
had the wide grinning slit of a mouth--the long nose, the cunningly
twinkling eyes--that one so often sees, in combination with a shambling
gait and ragged tail-coat, at the railway stations or in the harvest
fields at this time of year.” A pause. “I do not know how it came to
me,” I go on presently; “but I felt as convinced as if I had been
told--as if I had known it for a positive fact--that he was one of
your own labourers--one of your own harvest men. Have you any Irishmen
working for you?”

“Of course we have,” answers Jane, rather sharply, “but that proves
nothing. Do not they, as you observed just now, come over in droves at
this time of the year for the harvest?”

“I am sorry,” say I, sighing. “I wish you had not. Well, let me finish;
I have just done--I had been holding the door-handle mechanically in
my hand; I suppose I pulled it unconsciously towards me, for the door
hinge creaked a little, but quite audibly. To my unspeakable horror the
man turned round and saw me. Good God! he would cut my throat too with
that red, _red_ reaping hook! I tried to get into the passage and lock
the door, but the key was on the inside. I tried to scream, I tried to
run; but voice and legs disobeyed me. The bed and room and man began
to dance before me; a black earthquake seemed to swallow me up, and
I suppose I fell down in a swoon. When I awoke _really_ the blessed
morning had come, and a robin was singing outside my window on an apple
bough. There--you have it all, and now let me look for a ‘Bradshaw,’
for I am so frightened and unhinged that go I must.”



CHAPTER III.


“I must own that it has taken away appetite,” I say, with rather a
sickly smile, as we sit round the breakfast table. “I assure you that
I mean no insult to your fresh eggs and bread-and-butter, but I simply
_cannot_ eat.”

“It certainly was an exceptionally dreadful dream,” says Jane, whose
colour has returned, and who is a good deal fortified and reassured
by the influences of breakfast and of her husband’s scepticism; for a
condensed and shortened version of my dream has been told to him, and
he has easily laughed it to scorn. “Exceptionally dreadful, chiefly
from its extreme consistency and precision of detail. But still, you
know, dear, one has had hideous dreams oneself times out of mind and
they never came to anything. I remember once I dreamt that all my teeth
came out in my mouth at once--double ones and all; but that was ten
years ago, and they still keep their situations, nor did I about that
time lose any friend, which they say such a dream is a sign of.”

“You say that some unaccountable instinct told you that the hero of
your dream was one of my own men,” says Robin, turning towards me with
a covert smile of benevolent contempt for my superstitiousness; “did
not I understand you to say so?”

“Yes,” reply I, not in the least shaken by his hardly-veiled disbelief.
“I do not know how it came to me, but I was as much persuaded of that,
and am so still, as I am of my own identity.”

“I will tell you of a plan then to prove the truth of your vision,”
returns he, smiling. “I will take you through the fields this morning
and you shall see all my men at work, both the ordinary staff and
the harvest casuals, Irish and all. If amongst them you find the
counterpart of Jane’s and my murderer” (a smile) “I will promise
_then_--no, not even _then_ can I promise to believe you, for there is
such a family likeness between all Irishmen, at all events, between all
the Irishmen that one sees _out_ of Ireland.”

“Take me,” I say, eagerly, jumping up; “now, this _minute_! You cannot
be more anxious nor half so anxious to prove me a false prophet as I am
to be proved one.”

“I am quite at your service,” he answers, “as soon as you please.
Jenny, get your hat and come too.”

“And if we do _not_ find him,” says Jane, smiling playfully--“I think I
am growing pretty easy on that head--you will promise to eat a great
deal of luncheon and never _mention_ ‘Bradshaw’ again?”

“I promise,” reply I, gravely. “And if, on the other hand, we _do_ find
him, you will promise to put no more obstacles in the way of my going,
but will let me depart in peace without taking any offence thereat?”

“It is a bargain,” she says gaily. “Witness, Robin.”

So we set off in the bright dewiness of the morning on our walk over
Robin’s farm. It is a grand harvest day, and the whitened sheaves are
everywhere drying, drying in the genial sun. We have been walking for
an hour and both Jane and I are rather tired. The sun beats with all
his late-summer strength on our heads and takes the force and spring
out of our hot limbs.

“The hour of triumph is approaching,” says Robin, with a quiet smile,
as we draw near an open gate through which a loaded wain, shedding
ripe wheat ears from its abundance as it crawls along, is passing. “And
time for it too; it is a quarter past twelve and you have been on your
legs for fully an hour. Miss Bellairs, you must make haste and find the
murderer, for there is only one more field to do it in.”

“Is not there?” I cry eagerly, “Oh, I _am_ glad! Thank God, I begin to
breathe again.”

We pass through the open gate and begin to tread across the stubble,
for almost the last load has gone.

“We must get nearer the hedge,” says Robin, “or you will not see their
faces; they are all at dinner.”

We do as he suggests. In the shadow of the hedge we walk close in front
of the row of heated labourers, who, sitting or lying on the hedge
bank, are eating unattractive looking dinners. I scan one face after
another--honest bovine English faces. I have seen a hundred thousand
faces _like_ each one of the faces now before me--very like, but the
exact counterpart of none. We are getting to the end of the row, I
beginning to feel rather ashamed, though infinitely relieved, and to
smile at my own expense. I look again, and my heart suddenly stands
still and turns to stone within me. He is _there_!--not a hand-breadth
from me! Great God! how well I have remembered his face, even to the
unsightly smallpox seams, the shagged locks, the grinning slit mouth,
the little sly base eyes. He is employed in no murderous occupation
_now_; he is harmlessly cutting hunks of coarse bread and fat cold
bacon with a clasp knife, but yet I have no more doubt that it is
_he_--he whom I saw with the crimsoned sickle in his stained hand--than
I have that it is I who am stonily, shiveringly, staring at him.

“Well, Miss Bellairs, who was right?” asks Robin’s cheery voice at my
elbow. “Perish ‘Bradshaw’ and all his labyrinths! Are you satisfied
now? Good heavens!” (catching a sudden sight of my face) “How white you
are! Do you mean to say that you have found him at last? Impossible!”

“Yes, I have found him,” I answer in a low and unsteady tone. “I knew I
should. Look, there he is!--close to us, the third from the end.”

I turn away my head, unable to bear the hideous recollections and
associations that the sight of the man calls up, and I suppose that
they both look.

“Are you sure that you are not letting your imagination carry you
away?” asks he presently, in a tone of gentle kindly remonstrance. “As
I said before these fellows are all so much alike; they have all the
same look of debased squalid cunning. Oblige me by looking once again,
so as to be quite sure.”

I obey. Reluctantly I look at him once again. Apparently, becoming
aware that he is the object of our notice, he lifts his small dull eyes
and looks back at me. It is the same face--they are the same eyes that
turned from the plundered dressing-table to catch sight of me last
night. “There is no mistake,” I answer, shuddering from head to foot.
“Take me away, please--as quick as you can--out of the field--home!”

They comply, and over the hot fields and through the hot noon air we
step silently homewards. As we reach the cool and ivied porch of the
house I speak for the first time. “You believe me _now_?”

He hesitates. “I was staggered for a moment, I will own,” he answers,
with candid gravity; “but I have been thinking it over, and on
reflection I have come to the conclusion that the highly excited
state of your imagination is answerable for the heightening of the
resemblance which exists between all the Irish of that class into an
identity with the particular Irishman you dreamed of, and whose face
(by your own showing) you only saw dimly reflected in the glass.”

“_Not_ dimly,” repeat I emphatically, “unless I now see that sun dimly”
(pointing to him, as he gloriously, blindingly blazes from the sky).
“You will not be warned by me then?” I continue passionately, after
an interval. “You will run the risk of my dream coming true--you will
stay on here in spite of it? Oh, if I could persuade you to go from
home--anywhere--anywhere--for a time, until the danger was past!”

“And leave the harvest to itself?” answers he, with a smile of quiet
sarcasm; “be a loser of two hundred or three hundred pounds, probably,
and a laughing-stock to my acquaintance into the bargain, and all
for--what? A dream--a fancy--a nightmare!”

“But do you know anything of the man?--of his antecedents?--of his
character?” I persist eagerly.

He shrugs his shoulders.

“Nothing whatever; nothing to his disadvantage, certainly. He came
over with a lot of others a fortnight ago, and I engaged him for the
harvesting. For anything I have heard to the contrary, he is a simple
inoffensive fellow enough.”

I am silenced, but not convinced. I turn to Jane. “You remember your
promise: you will now put no more hindrances in the way of my going?”

“You do not mean to say that you are going, really?” says Jane, who is
looking rather awed by what she calls the surprising coincidence, but
is still a good deal heartened up by her husband’s want of faith.

“I do,” reply I, emphatically. “I should go stark staring mad if I were
to sleep another night in that room. I shall go to Chester to-night,
and cross to-morrow from Holyhead.”

I do as I say. I make my maid, to her extreme surprise, repack my just
unpacked wardrobe and take an afternoon train to Chester. As I drive
away with bag and baggage down the leafy lane, I look back and see my
two friends standing at their gate. Jane is leaning her head on her old
man’s shoulder, and looking rather wistfully after me: an expression of
mingled regret for my departure and vexation at my folly clouding their
kind and happy faces. At least my last living recollection of them is a
pleasant one.



CHAPTER IV.


The joy with which my family welcome my return is largely mingled with
surprise, but still more largely with curiosity, as to the cause of my
so sudden reappearance. But I keep my own counsel. I have a reluctance
to give the real reason, and possess no inventive faculty in the way of
lying, so I give none. I say, “I _am_ back: is not that enough for you?
Set your minds at rest, for that is as much as you will ever know about
the matter.”

For one thing, I am occasionally rather ashamed of my conduct. It is
not that the impression produced by my dream is _effaced_, but that
absence and distance from the scene and the persons of it have produced
their natural weakening effect. Once or twice during the voyage, when
writhing in laughable torments in the ladies’ cabin of the steamboat, I
said to myself, “Most likely you are a fool!” I therefore continually
ward off the cross-questionings of my family with what defensive armour
of silence and evasion I may.

“I feel convinced it was the husband,” says one of my sisters, after a
long catechism, which, as usual, has resulted in nothing. “You are too
loyal to your friend to own it, but I always felt sure that any man
who could take compassion on that poor peevish old Jane must be some
wonderful freak of nature. Come, confess. Is not he a cross between an
ourang-outang and a Methodist parson?”

“He is nothing of the kind,” reply I, in some heat, recalling the
libelled Robin’s clean fresh-coloured _human_ face. “You will be
very lucky if you ever secure any one half so kind, pleasant, and
gentleman-like.”

Three days after my return, I receive a letter from Jane:

                                               “Weston House, Caulfield.

  “MY DEAR DINAH,--I hope you are safe home again, and that you
  have made up your mind that two crossings of St. George’s Channel
  within forty-eight hours are almost as bad as having your throat
  cut, according to the programme you laid out for _us_. I have good
  news for you. Our murderer elect is _gone_. After hearing of the
  connection that there was to be between us, Robin naturally was
  rather interested in him, and found out his name, which is the
  melodious one of Watty Doolan. After asking his name he asked other
  things about him, and finding that he never did a stroke of work and
  was inclined to be tipsy and quarrelsome, he paid and packed him off
  at once. He is now, I hope, on his way back to his native shores,
  and if he murder anybody it will be _you_, my dear. Good-bye, Dinah.
  Hardly yet have I forgiven you for the way in which you frightened me
  with your graphic description of poor Robin and me, with our heads
  loose and waggling.

                                       “Ever yours affectionately,
                                                          “JANE WATSON.”

I fold up this note with a feeling of exceeding relief, and a thorough
faith that I have been a superstitious hysterical fool. More resolved
than ever am I to keep the reason for my return profoundly secret from
my family. The next morning but one we are all in the breakfast-room
after breakfast, hanging about, and looking at the papers. My sister
has just thrown down the _Times_, with a pettish exclamation that
there is nothing in it, and that it really is not worth while paying
threepence a day to see nothing but advertisements and police reports.
I pick it up as she throws it down, and look listlessly over its tall
columns from top to bottom. Suddenly my listlessness vanishes. What is
this that I am reading?--this in staring capitals?

  “SHOCKING TRAGEDY AT CAULFIELD.
  DOUBLE MURDER.”

I am in the middle of the paragraph before I realise what it is.

  “From an early hour of the morning this village has been the scene
  of deep and painful excitement in consequence of the discovery of
  the atrocious murder of Mr. and Mrs. Watson, of Weston House, two
  of its most respected inhabitants. It appears that the deceased had
  retired to rest on Tuesday night at their usual hour, and in their
  usual health and spirits. The housemaid, on going to call them at
  the accustomed hour on Wednesday morning, received no answer, in
  spite of repeated knocking. She therefore at length opened the door
  and entered. The rest of the servants, attracted by her cries, rushed
  to the spot, and found the unfortunate gentleman and lady lying on
  the bed with their throats cut from ear to ear. Life must have been
  extinct for some hours, as they were both perfectly cold. The room
  presented a hideous spectacle, being literally swimming in blood.
  A reaping hook, evidently the instrument with which the crime was
  perpetrated, was picked up near the door. An Irish labourer of the
  name of Watty Doolan, discharged by the lamented gentleman a few days
  ago on account of misconduct, has already been arrested on strong
  suspicion, as at an early hour on Wednesday morning he was seen by a
  farm labourer, who was going to his work, washing his waistcoat at a
  retired spot in the stream which flows through the meadows below the
  scene of the murder. On being apprehended and searched, several small
  articles of jewelry, identified as having belonged to Mr. Watson,
  were discovered in his possession.”

I drop the paper and sink into a chair, feeling deadly sick.

So you see that my dream came true, after all.

The facts narrated in the above story occurred in Ireland. The only
liberty I have taken with them is in transplanting them to England.



POOR PRETTY BOBBY.



POOR PRETTY BOBBY.



CHAPTER I.


“Yes, my dear, you may not believe me, but I can assure you that
you cannot dislike old women more, nor think them more contemptible
supernumeraries, than I did when I was your age.”

This is what old Mrs. Wentworth says--the old lady so incredibly
tenacious of life (incredibly as it seems to me at eighteen) as to have
buried a husband and five strong sons, and yet still to eat her dinner
with hearty relish, and laugh at any such jokes as are spoken loudly
enough to reach her dulled ears. This is what she says, shaking the
while her head, which--poor old soul--is already shaking a good deal
involuntarily. I am sitting close beside her arm-chair, and have been
reading aloud to her; but as I cannot succeed in pitching my voice so
as to make her hear satisfactorily, by mutual consent the book has been
dropped in my lap, and we have betaken ourselves to conversation.

“I never said I disliked old women, did I?” reply I evasively, being
too truthful altogether to deny the soft impeachment. “What makes you
think I do? They are infinitely preferable to old men; I do distinctly
dislike _them_.”

“A fat, bald, deaf old woman,” continues she, not heeding me, and
speaking with slow emphasis, while she raises one trembling hand to
mark each unpleasant adjective; “if in the year ’2 any one had told me
that I should have lived to be that, I think I should have killed them
or myself! and yet now I am all three.”

“You are not _very_ deaf,” say I politely--(the fatness and baldness
admit of no civilities consistent with veracity)--but I raise my voice
to pay the compliment.

“In the year ’2 I was seventeen,” she says, wandering off into memory.
“Yes, my dear, I am just fifteen years older than the century and _it_
is getting into its dotage, is not it? The year ’2--ah! I that was just
about the time that I first saw my poor Bobby! Poor pretty Bobby.”

“And who _was_ Bobby?” ask I, pricking up my ears, and scenting, with
the keen nose of youth, a dead-love idyll; an idyll of which this poor
old hill of unsteady flesh was the heroine.

“I must have told you the tale a hundred times, have not I?” she asks,
turning her old dim eyes towards me. “A curious tale, say what you
will, and explain it how you will. I think I _must_ have told you; but
indeed I forgot to whom I tell my old stories and to whom I do not.
Well, my love, you must promise to stop me if you have heard it before,
but to me, you know, these old things are so much clearer than the
things of yesterday.”

“You never told me, Mrs. Hamilton,” I say, and say truthfully; for
being a new acquaintance I really have not been made acquainted with
Bobby’s history. “Would you mind telling it me now, if you are sure
that it would not bore you?”

“Bobby,” she repeats softly to herself, “Bobby. I daresay you do not
think it a very pretty name?”

“N--not particularly,” reply I honestly. “To tell you the truth, it
rather reminds me of a policeman.”

“I daresay,” she answers quietly; “and yet in the year ’2 I grew to
think it the handsomest, dearest name on earth. Well, if you like, I
will begin at the beginning and tell you how that came about.”

“Do,” say I, drawing a stocking out of my pocket, and thriftily
beginning to knit to assist me in the process of listening.

“In the year ’2 we were at war with France--you know that, of course.
It seemed then as if war were our normal state; I could hardly remember
a time when Europe had been at peace. In these days of stagnant quiet
it appears as if people’s kith and kin always lived out their full time
and died in their beds. _Then_ there was hardly a house where there was
not one dead, either in battle, or of his wounds after battle, or of
some dysentery or ugly parching fever. As for us, we had always been
a soldier family--always; there was not one of us that had ever worn
a black gown or sat upon a high stool with a pen behind his ear. I
had lost uncles and cousins by the half-dozen and dozen, but, for my
part, I did not much mind, as I knew very little about them, and black
was more becoming wear to a person with my bright colour than anything
else.”

At the mention of her bright colour I unintentionally lift my eyes from
my knitting, and contemplate the yellow bagginess of the poor old cheek
nearest me. Oh, Time! Time! what absurd and dirty turns you play us!
What do you do with all our fair and goodly things when you have stolen
them from us? In what far and hidden treasure-house do you store them?

“But I did care very much--very exceedingly--for my dear old
father--not so old either--younger than my eldest boy was when he went;
he would have been forty-two if he had lived three days longer. Well,
well, child, you must not let me wander; you must keep me to it. He was
not a soldier, was not my father; he was a sailor, a post-captain in
his Majesty’s navy and commanded the ship _Thunderer_ in the Channel
fleet.

“I had struck seventeen in the year ’2, as I said before, and had
just come home from being finished at a boarding-school of repute in
those days, where I had learnt to talk the prettiest _ancien régime_
French and to hate Bonaparte with unchristian violence from a little
ruined _émigre maréchale_; had also, with infinite expenditure of
time, labour, and Berlin wool, wrought out ‘Abraham’s Sacrifice of
Isaac’ and ‘Jacob’s First Kiss to Rachel,’ in finest cross-stitch. Now
I had bidden adieu to learning; had inly resolved never to disinter
‘Télémaque’ and Thompson’s ‘Seasons’ from the bottom of my trunk; had
taken a holiday from all my accomplishments with the exception of
cross-stitch, to which I still faithfully adhered--and indeed, on the
day I am going to mention, I recollect that I was hard at work on Judas
Iscariot’s face in Leonardo da Vinci’s ‘Last Supper’--hard at work at
it, sitting in the morning sunshine, on a straight-backed chair. We
had flatter backs in those days; our shoulders were not made round by
lolling in easy-chairs; indeed, no _then_ upholsterer made a chair that
it was possible to loll in. My father rented a house near Plymouth at
that time, an in-and-out _nooky_ kind of old house--no doubt it has
fallen to pieces long years ago--a house all set round with unnumbered
flowers, and about which the rooks clamoured all together from the
windy elm tops. I was labouring in flesh-coloured wool on Judas’s left
cheek, when the door opened and my mother entered. She looked as if
something had freshly pleased her, and her eyes were smiling. In her
hand she held an open and evidently just-read letter.

“‘A messenger has come from Plymouth,’ she says, advancing quickly and
joyfully towards me. ‘Your father will be here this afternoon.’

“‘_This afternoon!_’ cry I, at the top of my voice, pushing away my
heavy work-frame. ‘How delightful! But how?--how can that happen?’

“‘They have had a brush with a French privateer,’ she answers, sitting
down on another straight-backed chair, and looking again over the large
square letter, destitute of envelope, for such things were not in those
days, ‘and then they succeeded in taking her. Yet they were a good deal
knocked about in the process, and have had to put into Plymouth to
refit, so he will be here this afternoon for a few hours.’

“‘Hurrah!’ cry I, rising, holding out my scanty skirts, and beginning
to dance.

“‘Bobby Gerard is coming with him,’ continues my mother, again glancing
at her despatch. ‘Poor boy, he has had a shot through his right arm,
which has broken the bone, so your father is bringing him here for us
to nurse him well again.’

“I stop in my dancing.

“‘Hurrah again!’ I say brutally. ‘I do not mean about his arm; of
course I am very sorry for that; but at all events, I shall see him at
last. I shall see whether he is like his picture, and whether it is not
as egregiously flattered as I have always suspected.’

“There were no photographs you know in those days--not even hazy
daguerreotypes--it was fifty good years too soon for them. The picture
to which I allude is a miniature, at which I had stolen many a deeply
longingly admiring glance in its velvet case. It is almost impossible
for a miniature not to flatter. To the most coarse-skinned and
mealy-potato-faced people it cannot help giving cheeks of the texture
of a rose-leaf and brows of the grain of finest marble.

“‘Yes,’ replies my mother, absently, ‘so you will. Well, I must be
going to give orders about his room. He would like one looking on the
garden best, do not you think, Phœbe?--one where he could smell the
flowers and hear the birds?’

“Mother goes, and I fall into a meditation. Bobby Gerard is an orphan.
A few years ago his mother, who was an old friend of my father’s--who
knows! perhaps an old love--feeling her end drawing nigh, had sent for
father, and had asked him, with eager dying tears, to take as much care
of her pretty forlorn boy as he could, and to shield him a little in
his tender years from the evils of this wicked world, and to be to him
a wise and kindly guardian, in the place of those natural ones that
God had taken. And father had promised, and when he promised there was
small fear of his not keeping his word.

“This was some years ago, and yet I had never seen him nor he me;
he had been almost always at sea and I at school. I had heard plenty
about him--about his sayings, his waggeries, his mischievousness, his
soft-heartedness, and his great and unusual comeliness; but his outward
man, save as represented in that stealthily peeped-at miniature,
had I never seen. They were to arrive in the afternoon; but long
before the hour at which they were due I was waiting with expectant
impatience to receive them. I had changed my dress, and had (though
rather ashamed of myself) put on everything of most becoming that my
wardrobe afforded. If you were to see me as I stood before the glass on
that summer afternoon you would not be able to contain your laughter;
the little boys in the street would run after me throwing stones and
hooting; but _then_--according to the _then_ fashion and standard of
gentility--I was all that was most elegant and _comme il faut_. Lately
it has been the mode to puff oneself out with unnatural and improbable
protuberances; _then_ one’s great life-object was to make oneself
appear as scrimping as possible--to make oneself look as flat as if
one had been ironed. Many people _damped_ their clothes to make them
stick more closely to them, and to make them define more distinctly
the outline of form and limbs. One’s waist was under one’s arm’s; the
sole object of which seemed to be to outrage nature by pushing one’s
bust up into one’s chin, and one’s legs were revealed through one’s
scanty drapery with startling candour as one walked or sat. I remember
once standing with my back to a bright fire in our long drawing-room,
and seeing myself reflected in a big mirror at the other end. I was so
thinly clad that I was transparent, and could see through myself. Well,
in the afternoon in question I was dressed quite an hour and a half
too soon. I had a narrow little white gown, which clung successfully
tight and close to my figure, and which was of so moderate a length as
to leave visible my ankles and my neatly-shod and cross-sandled feet.
I had long mittens on my arms, black, and embroidered on the backs in
coloured silks; and above my hair, which at the back was scratched
up to the top of my crown, towered a tremendous tortoise-shell comb;
while on each side of my face modestly drooped a bunch of curls, nearly
meeting over my nose.

“My figure was full--ah! my dear, I have always had a tendency to fat,
and you see what it has come to--and my pink cheeks were more deeply
brightly rosy than usual. I had looked out at every upper window, so as
to have the furthest possible view of the road.

“I had walked in my thin shoes half way down the drive, so as to
command a turn, which, from the house, impeded my vision, when, at
last, after many tantalising false alarms, and just five minutes later
than the time mentioned in the letter, the high-swung, yellow-bodied,
post-chaise hove in sight, dragged--briskly jingling--along by a pair
of galloping horses. Then, suddenly, shyness overcame me--much as I
loved my father, it was more as my personification of all knightly and
noble qualities than from much personal acquaintance with him--and I
fled.

“I remained in my room until I thought I had given them ample time to
get through the first greetings and settle down into quiet talk. Then,
having for one last time run my fingers through each ringlet of my two
curl bunches, I stole diffidently downstairs.

“There was a noise of loud and gay voices issuing from the parlour,
but, as I entered, they all stopped talking and turned to look at me.

“‘And so this is Phœbe!’ cries my father’s jovial voice, as he comes
towards me, and heartily kisses me. ‘Good Lord, how time flies! It
does not seem more than three months since I saw the child, and yet
then she was a bit of a brat in trousers, and long bare legs!’

“At this allusion to my late mode of attire, I laugh, but I also feel
myself growing scarlet.

“‘Here, Bobby!’ continues my father, taking me by the hand, and leading
me towards a sofa on which a young man is sitting beside my mother;
‘this is my little lass that you have so often heard of. Not such a
very little one, after all, is she? Do not be shy, my boy; you will not
see such a pretty girl every day of your life--give her a kiss.’

“My eyes are on the ground, but I am aware that the young man rises,
advances (not unwillingly, as it seems to me), and bestows a kiss,
somewhere or other on my face. I am not quite clear _where_, as I think
the curls impede him a good deal.

“Thus, before ever I saw Bobby, before ever I knew what manner of man
he was, I was kissed by him. That was a good beginning, was not it?

“After these salutations are over, we subside again into
conversation--I sitting beside my father, with his arm round my waist,
sitting modestly silent, and peeping every now and then under my eyes,
as often as I think I may do so safely unobserved, at the young fellow
opposite me. I am instituting an inward comparison between Nature and
Art: between the real live man and the miniature that undertakes to
represent him. The first result of this inspection is disappointment,
for where are the lovely smooth roses and lilies that I have been wont
to connect with Bobby Gerard’s name? There are no roses in his cheek,
certainly; they are paleish--from his wound, as I conjecture; but even
before that accident, if there were roses at all, they must have been
mahogany-coloured ones, for the salt sea winds and the high summer sun
have tanned his fair face to a rich reddish, brownish, copperish hue.
But in some things the picture lied not. There is the brow more broad
than high; the straight fine nose; the brave and joyful blue eyes, and
the mouth with its pretty curling smile. On the whole, perhaps, I am
not disappointed.

“By-and-by father rises, and steps out into the verandah, where the
canary birds hung out in their cages are noisily praising God after
their manner. Mother follows him. I should like to do the same; but a
sense of good manners, and a conjecture that possibly my parents may
have some subjects to discuss, on which they would prefer to be without
the help of my advice, restrain me. I therefore remain, and so does the
invalid.



CHAPTER II.


“For some moments the silence threatens to remain unbroken between us;
for some moments the subdued sound of father’s and mother’s talk from
among the rosebeds and the piercing clamour of the canaries--fish-wives
among birds--are the only noises that salute our ears. Noise we make
none ourselves. My eyes are reading the muddled pattern of the Turkey
carpet; I do not know what his are doing. Small knowledge have I had of
men saving the dancing-master at our school; a beautiful new youth is
almost as great a novelty to me as to Miranda, and I am a good deal
gawkier than she was under the new experience. I think he must have
made a vow that he would not speak first. I feel myself swelling to
double my normal size with confusion and heat; at last, in desperation,
I look up, and say sententiously, ‘You have been wounded, I believe?’

“‘Yes, I have.’

“He might have helped me by answering more at large, might not he? But
now that I am having a good look at him, I see that he is rather red
too. Perhaps he also feels gawky and swollen; the idea encourages me.

“‘Did it hurt very badly?’

“‘N--not so very much.’

“‘I should have thought that you ought to have been in bed,’ say I,
with a motherly air of solicitude.

“‘Should you, why?’

“‘I thought that when people broke their limbs they had to stay in bed
till they were mended again.’

“‘But mine was broken a week ago,’ he answers, smiling and showing his
straight white teeth--ah, the miniature was silent about _them_! ‘You
would not have had me stay in bed a whole week like an old woman?’

“‘I expected to have seen you much _iller_,’ say I, beginning to feel
more at my ease, and with a sensible diminution of that unpleasant
swelling sensation. ‘Father said in his note that we were to nurse you
well again; that sounded as if you were _quite_ ill.’

“‘Your father always takes a great deal too much care of me,’ he says,
with a slight frown and darkening of his whole bright face. ‘I might be
sugar or salt.’

“‘And very kind of him, too,’ I cry, firing up. ‘What motive beside
your own good can he have for looking after you? I call you rather
ungrateful.’

“‘Do you?’ he says calmly, and without apparent resentment. ‘But you
are mistaken. I am not ungrateful. However, naturally, you do not
understand.’

“‘Oh, indeed!’ reply I, speaking rather shortly, and feeling a little
offended, ‘I daresay not.’

“Our talk is taking a somewhat hostile tone; to what further amenities
we might have proceeded is unknown; for at this point father and mother
reappear through the window, and the necessity of conversing with each
other at all ceases.

“Father staid till evening, and we all supped together, and I was
called upon to sit by Bobby, and cut up his food for him, as he was
disabled from doing it for himself. Then, later still, when the sun
had set, and all his evening reds and purples had followed him, when
the night flowers were scenting all the garden, and the shadows lay
about, enormously long in the summer moonlight, father got into the
post-chaise again, and drove away through the black shadows and the
faint clear shine, and Bobby stood at the hall-door watching him, with
his arm in a sling and a wistful smile on lips and eyes.

“‘Well, we are not left _quite_ desolate this time,’ says mother,
turning with rather tearful laughter to the young man. ‘You wish that
we were, do not you, Bobby?’

“‘You would not believe me, if I answered “No,” would you?’ he asks,
with the same still smile.

“‘He is not very polite to us, is he, Phœbe?’

“‘You would not wish me to be polite in such a case,’ he replies,
flushing. ‘You would not wish me to be _glad_ at missing the chance of
seeing any of the fun?’

“But Mr. Gerard’s eagerness to be back at his post delays the
probability of his being able to return thither. The next day he has
a feverish attack, the day after he is worse; the day after that worse
still, and in fine, it is between a fortnight and three weeks before
he also is able to get into a post-chaise and drive away to Plymouth.
And meanwhile mother and I nurse him and cosset him, and make him odd
and cool drinks out of herbs and field-flowers, whose uses are now
disdained or forgotten. I do not mean any offence to you, my dear,
but I think that young girls in those days were less squeamish and
more truly delicate than they are nowadays. I remember once I read
‘Humphrey Clinker’ aloud to my father, and we both highly relished and
laughed over its jokes; but I should not have understood one of the
darkly unclean allusions in that French book your brother left here
one day. _You_ would think it very unseemly to enter the bedroom of a
strange young man, sick or well; but as for me, I spent whole nights
in Bobby’s, watching him and tending him with as little false shame
as if he had been my brother. I can hear _now_, more plainly than the
song you sang me an hour ago, the slumberous buzzing of the great
brown-coated summer bees in his still room, as I sat by his bedside
watching his sleeping face, as he dreamt unquietly, and clenched,
and again unclenched, his nervous hands. I think he was back in the
_Thunderer_. I can see _now_ the little close curls of his sunshiny
hair straggling over the white pillow. And then there came a good and
blessed day, when he was out of danger, and then another, a little
further on, when he was up and dressed, and he and I walked forth into
the hayfield beyond the garden--reversing the order of things--_he_,
leaning on _my_ arm; and a good plump solid arm it was. We walked
out under the heavy-leaved horse-chestnut trees, and the old and
rough-barked elms. The sun was shining all this time, as it seems to
me. I do not believe that in those old days there were the same cold
unseasonable rains as now; there were soft showers enough to keep the
grass green and the flowers undrooped; but I have no association of
overcast skies and untimely deluges with those long and azure days.
We sat under a haycock, on the shady side, and indolently watched the
hot haymakers--the shirt-sleeved men, and burnt and bare-armed women,
tossing and raking; while we breathed the blessed country air, full
of adorable scents, and crowded with little happy and pretty-winged
insects.

“‘In three days,’ says Bobby, leaning his elbow in the hay, and
speaking with an eager smile, ‘three days at the furthest, I may go
back again; may not I, Phœbe?’

“‘Without doubt,’ reply I, stiffly, pulling a dry and faded ox-eye
flower out of the odorous mound beside me; ‘for my part, I do not see
why you should not go to-morrow, or indeed--if we could send into
Plymouth for a chaise--this afternoon; you are so thin that you look
all mouth and eyes, and you can hardly stand, without assistance, but
these, of course, are trifling drawbacks, and I daresay would be rather
an advantage on board ship than otherwise.’

“‘You are angry!’ he says, with a sort of laugh in his deep eyes. ‘You
look even prettier when you are angry than when you are pleased.’

“‘It is no question of my looks,’ I say, still in some heat, though
mollified by the irrelevant compliment.

“‘For the second time you are thinking me ungrateful,’ he says,
gravely; ‘you do not tell me so in so many words, because it is towards
yourself that my ingratitude is shown; the first time you told me of it
it was almost the first thing that you ever said to me.’

“‘So it was,’ I answer quickly; ‘and if the occasion were to come over
again, I should say it again. I daresay you did not mean it, but it
sounded exactly as if you were complaining of my father for being too
careful of you.’

“‘He _is_ too careful of me!’ cries the young man, with a hot flushing
of cheek and brow. ‘I cannot help it if it make you angry again; I
_must_ say it, he is more careful of me than he would be of his own
son, if he had one.’

“‘Did not he promise your mother that he would look after you?’ ask I
eagerly. ‘When people make promises to people on their death-beds they
are in no hurry to break them; at least, such people as father are not.’

“‘You do not understand,’ he says, a little impatiently, while that hot
flush still dwells on his pale cheek; ‘my mother was the last person
in the world to wish him to take care of my body at the expense of my
honour.’

“‘What are you talking about?’ I say, looking at him with a lurking
suspicion that, despite the steady light of reason in his blue eyes, he
is still labouring under some form of delirium.

“‘Unless I tell you all my grievance, I see that you will never
comprehend,’ he says sighing. ‘Well, listen to me and you shall hear
it, and if you do not agree with me, when I have done, you are not the
kind of girl I take you for.’

“‘Then I am sure I am not the kind of girl you take me for,’ reply I,
with a laugh; ‘for I am fully determined to disagree with you entirely.’

“‘You know,’ he says, raising himself a little from his hay couch and
speaking with clear rapidity, ‘that whenever we take a French prize a
lot of the French sailors are ironed, and the vessel is sent into port,
in the charge of one officer and several men; there is some slight
risk attending it--for my part, I think _very_ slight--but I suppose
that your father looks at it differently, for--_I have never been
sent_.’

“‘It is accident,’ say I, reassuringly; ‘your turn will come in good
time.’

“‘It is _not_ accident!’ he answers, firmly. ‘Boys younger than I
am--much less trustworthy, and of whom he has not half the opinion
that he has of me--have been sent, but _I_, _never_. I bore it as well
as I could for a long time, but now I can bear it no longer; it is
not, I assure you, my fancy; but I can see that my brother officers,
knowing how partial your father is to me--what influence I have with
him in many things--conclude that my not being sent is my own choice;
in short, that I am--_afraid_.’ (His voice sinks with a disgusted and
shamed intonation at the last word.) ‘Now--I have told you the sober
facts--look me in the face’ (putting his hand with boyish familiarity
under my chin, and turning round my curls, my features, and the front
view of my big comb towards him), ‘and tell me whether you agree with
me, as I said you would, or not--whether it is not cruel kindness on
his part to make me keep a whole skin on such terms?’

“I look him in the face for a moment, trying to say that I do not agree
with him, but it is more than I can manage. ‘You were right,’ I say,
turning my head away, ‘I _do_ agree with you; I wish to heaven that I
could honestly say that I did not.’

“‘Since you do then,’ he cries excitedly--‘Phœbe! I knew you would, I
knew you better than you knew yourself--I have a favour to ask of you,
a _great_ favour, and one that will keep me all my life in debt to you.’

“‘What is it?’ ask I, with a sinking heart.

“‘Your father is very fond of you----’

“‘I know it,’ I answer curtly.

“‘Anything that you asked, and that was within the bounds of
possibility, he would do,’ he continues, with eager gravity. ‘Well,
this is what I ask of you: to write him a line, and let me take it,
when I go, asking him to send me home in the next prize.’

“Silence for a moment, only the haymakers laughing over their rakes.
‘And if,’ say I, with a trembling voice, ‘you lose your life in this
service, you will have to thank me for it; I shall have your death on
my head all through my life.’

“‘The danger is infinitesimal, as I told you before,’ he says,
impatiently; ‘and even if it were greater than it is--well, life is
a good thing, very good, but there are better things, and even if I
come to grief, which is most unlikely, there are plenty of men as good
as--better than--I, to step into my place.’

“‘It will be small consolation to the people who are fond of you that
some one better than you is alive, though you are dead,’ I say,
tearfully.

“‘But I do not mean to be dead,’ he says, with a cheery laugh. ‘Why are
you so determined on killing me? I mean to live to be an admiral. Why
should not I?’

“‘Why indeed?’ say I, with a feeble echo of his cheerful mirth, and
feeling rather ashamed of my tears.

“‘And meanwhile you will write?’ he says with an eager return to the
charge; ‘and _soon?_ Do not look angry and pouting, as you did just
now, but I _must_ go! What is there to hinder me? I am getting up my
strength as fast as it is possible for any human creature to do, and
just think how I should feel if they were to come in for something
really good while I am away.’

“So I wrote.



CHAPTER III.


“I often wished afterwards that my right hand had been cut off before
its fingers had held the pen that wrote that letter. You wonder to
see me moved at what happened so long ago--before your parents were
born--and certainly it makes not much difference now; for even if he
had prospered then, and come happily home to me, yet, in the course
of nature he would have gone long before now. I should not have been
so cruel as to have wished him to have lasted to be as I am. I did
not mean to hint at the end of my story before I have reached the
middle. Well--and so he went, with the letter in his pocket, and I
felt something like the king in the tale, who sent a messenger with a
letter, and wrote in the letter, ‘Slay the bearer of this as soon as
he arrives!’ But before he went--the evening before, as we walked in
the garden after supper, with our monstrously long shadows stretching
before us in the moonlight--I do not think he said in so many words,
‘Will you marry me?’ but somehow, by some signs or words on both our
parts, it became clear to us that, by-and-by, if God left him alive,
and if the war ever came to an end, he and I should belong to one
another. And so, having understood this, when he went he kissed me, as
he had done when he came, only this time no one bade him; he did it of
his own accord, and a hundred times instead of one; and for my part,
this time, instead of standing passive like a log or a post, I kissed
him back again, most lovingly, with many tears.

“Ah! parting in those days, when the last kiss to one’s beloved ones
was not unlikely to be an adieu until the great Day of Judgment, was
a different thing to the listless, unemotional good-byes of these
stagnant times of peace!

“And so Bobby also got into a post-chaise and drove away, and we
watched him too, till he turned the corner out of our sight, as we had
watched father; and then I hid my face among the jessamine flowers
that clothed the wall of the house, and wept as one that would not be
comforted. However, one cannot weep for ever, or, if one does, it makes
one blind and blear, and I did not wish Bobby to have a wife with such
defects; so in process of time I dried my tears.

“And the days passed by, and nature went slowly and evenly through her
lovely changes. The hay was gathered in, and the fine new grass and
clover sprang up among the stalks of the grass that had gone; and the
wild roses struggled into odorous bloom, and crowned the hedges, and
then _their_ time came, and they shook down their faint petals, and
went.

“And now the corn harvest had come, and we had heard once or twice from
our beloveds, but not often. And the sun still shone with broad power,
and kept the rain in subjection. And all morning I sat at my big frame,
and toiled on at the ‘Last Supper.’ I had finished Judas Iscariot’s
face and the other Apostles. I was engaged now upon the table-cloth,
which was not interesting and required not much exercise of thought.
And mother sat near me, either working too or reading a good book, and
taking snuff--every lady snuffed in those days: at least in trifles, if
not in great things, the world mends. And at night, when ten o’clock
struck, I covered up my frame and stole listlessly upstairs to my room.
There, I knelt at the open window, facing Plymouth and the sea, and
asked God to take good care of father and Bobby. I do not know that I
asked for any spiritual blessings for them, I only begged that they
might be alive.

“One night, one hot night, having prayed even more heartily and
tearfully than my wont for them both, I had lain down to sleep. The
windows were left open, and the blinds up, that all possible air might
reach me from the still and scented garden below. Thinking of Bobby,
I had fallen asleep, and he is still mistily in my head, when I seem
to wake. The room is full of clear light, but it is not morning: it is
only the moon looking right in and flooding every object. I can see my
own ghostly figure sitting up in bed, reflected in the looking-glass
opposite. I listen: surely I heard some noise: yes--certainly, there
can be no doubt of it--some one is knocking loudly and perseveringly
at the hall-door. At first I fall into a deadly fear; then my reason
comes to my aid. If it were a robber, or person with any evil intent,
would he knock so openly and clamorously as to arouse the inmates?
Would not he rather go stealthily to work, to force a _silent_ entrance
for himself? At worst it is some drunken sailor from Plymouth; at
best, it is a messenger with news of our dear ones. At this thought I
instantly spring out of bed, and hurrying on my stockings and shoes and
whatever garments come most quickly to hand--with my hair spread all
over my back, and utterly forgetful of my big comb, I open my door, and
fly down the passages, into which the moon is looking with her ghostly
smile, and down the broad and shallow stairs.

“As I near the hall-door I meet our old butler, also rather
dishevelled, and evidently on the same errand as myself.

“‘Who _can_ it be, Stephens?’ I ask, trembling with excitement and
fear.

“‘Indeed, ma’am, I cannot tell you,’ replies the old man, shaking his
head, ‘it is a very odd time of night to choose for making such a
noise. We will ask them their business, whoever they are, before we
unchain the door.’

“It seems to me as if the endless bolts would never be drawn--the key
never be turned in the stiff lock; but at last the door opens slowly
and cautiously, only to the width of a few inches, as it is still
confined by the strong chain. I peep out eagerly, expecting I know not
what.

“Good heavens! What do I see? No drunken sailor, no messenger, but, oh
joy! oh blessedness! my Bobby himself--my beautiful boy-lover! Even
_now_, even after all these weary years, even after the long bitterness
that followed, I cannot forget the unutterable happiness of that moment.

“‘Open the door, Stephens, quick!’ I cry, stammering with eagerness.
‘Draw the chain; it is Mr. Gerard; do not keep him waiting.’

“The chain rattles down, the door opens wide, and there he stands
before me. At once, ere any one has said anything, ere anything has
happened, a feeling of cold disappointment steals unaccountably over
me--a nameless sensation, whose nearest kin is chilly awe. He makes
no movement towards me; he does not catch me in his arms, nor even
hold out his right hand to me. He stands there still and silent, and
though the night is dry, equally free from rain and dew, I see that he
is dripping wet; the water is running down from his clothes, from his
drenched hair, and even from his eyelashes, on to the dry ground at his
feet.

“‘What has happened?’ I cry, hurriedly, ‘How wet you are!’ and as I
speak I stretch out my hand and lay it on his coat sleeve. But even as
I do it a sensation of intense cold runs up my fingers and my arm,
even to the elbow. How is it that he is so chilled to the marrow of his
bones on this sultry, breathless, August night? To my extreme surprise
he does not answer; he still stands there, dumb and dripping. ‘Where
have you come from?’ I ask, with that sense of awe deepening. ‘Have you
fallen into the river? How is it that you are so wet?’

“‘It was cold,’ he says, shivering, and speaking in a slow and
strangely altered voice, ‘bitter cold. I could not stay there.’

“‘Stay where?’ I say, looking in amazement at his face, which, whether
owing to the ghastly effect of moonlight or not, seems to me ash white.
‘Where have you been? What is it you are talking about?’

“But he does not reply.

“‘He is really ill, I am afraid, Stephens,’ I say, turning with a
forlorn feeling towards the old butler. ‘He does not seem to hear what
I say to him. I am afraid he has had a thorough chill. What water
can he have fallen into? You had better help him up to bed, and get
him warm between the blankets. His room is quite ready for him, you
know--come in,’ I say, stretching out my hand to him, ‘you will be
better after a night’s rest.’

“He does not take my offered hand, but he follows me across the
threshold and across the hall. I hear the water drops falling drip,
drip, on the echoing stone floor as he passes; then upstairs, and along
the gallery to the door of his room, where I leave him with Stephens.
Then everything becomes blank and nil to me.

“I am awoke as usual in the morning by the entrance of my maid with hot
water.

“‘Well, how is Mr. Gerard this morning?’ I ask, springing into a
sitting posture.

“She puts down the hot water tin and stares at her leisure at me.

“‘My dear Miss Phœbe, how should _I_ know? Please God he is in good
health and safe, and that we shall have good news of him before long.’

“‘Have not you asked how he is?’ I ask impatiently. ‘He did not seem
quite himself last night; there was something odd about him. I was
afraid he was in for another touch of fever.’

“‘Last night--fever,’ repeats she, slowly and disconnectedly echoing
some of my words. ‘I beg your pardon, ma’am, I am sure, but I have not
the least idea in life what you are talking about.’

“‘How stupid you are!’ I say, quite at the end of my patience. ‘Did not
Mr. Gerard come back unexpectedly last night, and did not I hear him
knocking, and run down to open the door, and did not Stephens come too,
and afterwards take him up to bed?’

“The stare of bewilderment gives way to a laugh.

“‘You have been dreaming, ma’am. Of course I cannot answer for what you
did last night, but I am sure that Stephens knows no more of the young
gentleman than I do, for only just now, at breakfast, he was saying
that he thought it was about time for us to have some tidings of him
and master.’

“‘A dream!’ cry I indignantly. ‘Impossible! I was no more dreaming then
than I am now.’

“But time convinces me that I am mistaken, and that during all the
time that I thought I was standing at the open hall-door, talking to
my beloved, in reality I was lying on my bed in the depths of sleep,
with no other company than the scent of the flowers and the light of
the moon. At this discovery a great and terrible depression falls on
me. I go to my mother to tell her of my vision, and at the end of my
narrative I say,

“‘Mother, I know well that Bobby is dead, and that I shall never see
him any more. I feel assured that he died last night, and that he came
himself to tell me of his going. I am sure that there is nothing left
for me now but to go too.’

“I speak thus far with great calmness, but when I have done I break out
into loud and violent weeping. Mother rebukes me gently, telling me
that there is nothing more natural than that I should dream of a person
who constantly occupies my waking thoughts, nor that, considering
the gloomy nature of my apprehensions about him, my dream should be
of a sad and ominous kind; but that, above all dreams and omens, God
is good, that He has preserved him hitherto, and that, for her part,
no devil-sent apparition shall shake her confidence in His continued
clemency. I go away a little comforted, though not very much, and
still every night I kneel at the open window facing Plymouth and the
sea, and pray for my sailor boy. But it seems to me, despite all my
self-reasonings, despite all that mother says, that my prayers for him
are prayers for the dead.



CHAPTER IV.


“Three more weeks pass away; the harvest is garnered, and the pears
are growing soft and mellow. Mother’s and my outward life goes on in
its silent regularity, nor do we talk much to each other of the tumult
that rages--of the heartache that burns, within each of us. At the end
of the three weeks, as we are sitting as usual, quietly employed, and
buried each in our own thoughts, in the parlour, towards evening we
hear wheels approaching the hall-door. We both run out as in my dream
I had run to the door, and arrive in time to receive my father as he
steps out of the carriage that has brought him. Well! at least _one_
of our wanderers has come home, but where is the other?

“Almost before he has heartily kissed us both--wife and child--father
cries out, ‘But where is Bobby?’

“‘That is just what I was going to ask you,’ replies mother quickly.

“‘Is not he _here_ with you?’ returns he anxiously.

“‘Not he,’ answers mother, ‘we have neither seen nor heard anything of
him for more than six weeks.’

“‘Great God!’ exclaims he, while his face assumes an expression of
the deepest concern, ‘what _can_ have become of him? what _can_ have
happened to the poor fellow?’

“‘Has not he been with you, then?--has not he been in the _Thunderer_?’
asks mother, running her words into one another in her eagerness to get
them out.

“‘I sent him home three weeks ago in a prize, with a letter to you, and
told him to stay with you till I came home, and what can have become of
him since, God only knows!’ he answers with a look of the profoundest
sorrow and anxiety.

“There is a moment of forlorn and dreary silence; then I speak. I have
been standing dumbly by, listening, and my heart growing colder and
colder at every dismal word.

“‘It is all my doing!’ I cry passionately, flinging myself down in an
agony of tears on the straight-backed old settle in the hall. ‘It is
my fault--no one else’s! The very last time that I saw him, I told him
that he would have to thank me for his death, and he laughed at me, but
it has come true. If I had not written _you_, father, that accursed
letter, we should have had him here _now_, this _minute_, safe and
sound, standing in the middle of us--as we never, _never_, shall have
him again!’

“I stop, literally suffocated with emotion.

“Father comes over, and lays his kind brown hand on my bent prone head.
‘My child,’ he says, ‘my dear child,’ (and tears are dimming the clear
grey of his own eyes), ‘you are wrong to make up your mind to what is
the worst at once. I do not disguise from you that there is cause for
grave anxiety about the dear fellow, but still God is good; He has kept
both him and me hitherto; into His hands we must trust our boy.’

“I sit up, and shake away my tears.

“‘It is no use,’ I say. ‘Why should I hope? There is no hope! I know it
for a certainty! He is _dead_’ (looking round at them both with a sort
of calmness); ‘he died on the night that I had that dream--mother, I
told you so at the time. Oh, my Bobby! I knew that you could not leave
me for ever without coming to tell me!’

“‘And so speaking, I fall into strong hysterics and am carried upstairs
to bed. And so three or four more lagging days crawl by, and still we
hear nothing, and remain in the same state of doubt and uncertainty;
which to me, however, is hardly uncertainty; so convinced am I, in my
own mind, that my fair-haired lover is away in the land whence never
letter or messenger comes--that he has reached the Great Silence. So
I sit at my frame, working my heart’s agony into the tapestry, and
feebly trying to say to God that He has done well, but I cannot. On the
contrary, it seems to me, as my life trails on through the mellow mist
of the autumn mornings, through the shortened autumn evenings, that,
whoever has done it, it is most evilly done. One night we are sitting
round the little crackling wood fire that one does not need for
warmth, but that gives a cheerfulness to the room and the furniture,
when the butler Stephens enters, and going over to father, whispers to
him. I seem to understand in a moment what the purport of his whisper
is.’

“‘Why does he whisper?’ I cry, irritably. ‘Why does not he speak
out loud? Why should you try to keep it from me? I know that it is
something about Bobby.’

“Father has already risen, and is walking towards the door.

“‘I will not let you go until you tell me,’ I cry wildly, flying after
him.

“‘A sailor has come over from Plymouth,’ he answers hurriedly; ‘he
says he has news. My darling, I will not keep you in suspense a moment
longer than I can help, and meanwhile pray--both of you pray for him!’

“I sit rigidly still, with my cold hand tightly clasped, during the
moments that next elapse. Then father returns. His eyes are full of
tears, and there is small need to ask for his message; it is most
plainly written on his features--death, and not life.

“‘You were right, Phœbe,’ he says, brokenly, taking hold of my icy
hands; ‘you knew best. He is gone! God has taken him.’

“My heart dies. I had thought that I had no hope, but I was wrong. ‘I
knew it!’ I say, in a dry stiff voice. ‘Did not I tell you so? But you
would not believe me--go on!--tell me how it was--do not think I cannot
bear it--make haste!’

“And so he tells me all that there is now left for me to know--after
what manner, and on what day, my darling took his leave of this pretty
and cruel world. He had had his wish, as I already knew, and had set
off blithely home in the last prize they had captured. Father had
taken the precaution of having a larger proportion than usual of the
Frenchmen ironed, and had also sent a greater number of Englishmen. But
to what purpose? They were nearing port, sailing prosperously along on
a smooth blue sea, with a fair strong wind, thinking of no evil, when a
great and terrible misfortune overtook them. Some of the Frenchmen who
were not ironed got the sailors below and drugged their grog; ironed
them, and freed their countrymen. Then one of the officers rushed on
deck, and holding a pistol to my Bobby’s head bade him surrender the
vessel or die. Need I tell you which he chose? I think not--well” (with
a sigh) “and so they shot my boy--ah me! how many years ago--and threw
him overboard! Yes--threw him overboard--it makes me angry and grieved
even now to think of it--into the great and greedy sea, and the vessel
escaped to France.”

There is a silence between us: I will own to you that I am crying, but
the old lady’s eyes are dry.

“Well,” she says, after a pause, with a sort of triumph in her tone,
“they never could say again that Bobby Gerard was _afraid_!

“The tears were running down my father’s cheeks, as he told me,” she
resumes presently, “but at the end he wiped them and said, ‘It is well!
He was as pleasant in God’s sight as he was in ours, and so He has
taken him.’

“And for me, I was glad that he had gone to God--none gladder. But you
will not wonder that, for myself, I was past speaking sorry. And so the
years went by, and, as you know, I married Mr. Hamilton, and lived with
him forty years, and was happy in the main, as happiness goes; and when
he died I wept much and long, and so I did for each of my sons when in
turn they went. But looking back on all my long life, the event that
I think stands out most clearly from it is my dream and my boy-lover’s
death-day. It _was_ an odd dream, was not it?”



UNDER THE CLOAK.



UNDER THE CLOAK.


If there is a thing in the world that my soul hateth, it is a long
night journey by rail. In the old coaching days I do not think that
I should have minded it, passing swiftly through a summer night on
the top of a speedy coach with the star arch black-blue above one’s
head, the sweet smell of earth and her numberless flowers and grasses
in one’s nostrils, and the pleasant trot, trot, trot, trot, of the
four strong horses in one’s ears. But by railway! in a little stuffy
compartment, with nothing to amuse you if you keep awake; with a dim
lamp hanging above you, tantalizing you with the idea that you can
read by its light, and when you try, satisfactorily proving to you
that you cannot; and, if you sleep, breaking your neck, or at least
stiffening it, by the brutal arrangement of the hard cushions.

These thoughts pass sulkily and rebelliously through my head as I
sit in my salon, in the Ecu at Geneva, on the afternoon of the fine
autumn day on which, in an evil hour, I have settled to take my place
in the night train for Paris. I have put off going as long as I can.
I like Geneva, and am leaving some pleasant and congenial friends,
but now go I must. My husband is to meet me at the station in Paris
at six o’clock to-morrow morning. Six o’clock! what a barbarous hour
at which to arrive! I am putting on my bonnet and cloak; I look at
myself in the glass with an air of anticipative disgust. Yes, I look
trim and spruce enough now--a not disagreeable object perhaps--with
sleek hair, quick and alert eyes, and pink-tinted cheeks. Alas! at six
o’clock to-morrow morning, what a different tale there will be to tell!
dishevelled, dusty locks, half-open weary eyes, a disordered dress, and
a green-coloured countenance.

I turn away with a pettish gesture, and reflecting that at least there
is no wisdom in living my miseries twice over, I go downstairs, and get
into the hired open carriage which awaits me. My maid and man follow
with the luggage. I give stricter injunctions than ordinary to my maid
never for one moment to lose her hold of the dressing-case, which
contains, as it happens, a great many more valuable jewels than people
are wont to travel in foreign parts with, nor of a certain costly and
beautiful Dresden china and gold Louis Quatorze clock, which I am
carrying home as a present to my people. We reach the station, and I
straightway betake myself to the first-class Salle d’Attente, there to
remain penned up till the officials undo the gates of purgatory and
release us--an arrangement whose wisdom I have yet to learn. There are
ten minutes to spare, and the salle is filling fuller and fuller every
moment. Chiefly my countrymen, countrywomen, and country children,
beginning to troop home to their partridges. I look curiously round
at them, speculating as to which of them will be my companion or
companions through the night.

There are no very unusual types: girls in sailor hats and blonde
hair-fringes; strong-minded old maids in painstakingly ugly
waterproofs; baldish fathers; fattish mothers; a German or two,
with prominent pale eyes and spectacles. I have just decided on the
companions I should prefer; a large young man, who belongs to nobody,
and looks as if he spent most of his life in laughing--(Alas! he
is not likely! he is sure to want to smoke!)--and a handsome and
prosperous-looking young couple. They are more likely, as very
probably, in the man’s case, the bride-love will overcome the
cigar-love. The porter comes up. The key turns in the lock; the
doors open. At first I am standing close to them, flattening my
nose against the glass, and looking out on the pavement; but as the
passengers become more numerous, I withdraw from my prominent position,
anticipating a rush for carriages. I hate and dread exceedingly a
crowd, and would much prefer at any time to miss my train rather than
be squeezed and jostled by one. In consequence, my maid and I are
almost the last people to emerge, and have the last and worst choice
of seats. We run along the train looking in; the footman, my maid, and
I--full--full everywhere!

“Dames Seules?” asks the guard.

“Certainly not! neither ‘Dames Seules,’ nor ‘Fumeurs,’ but if it must
be one or the other, certainly ‘Fumeurs.’”

I am growing nervous, when I see the footman, who is a little ahead of
us, standing with an open carriage door in his hand, and signing to us
to make haste. Ah! it is all right! it always comes right when one does
not fuss oneself.

“Plenty of room here, ’m; only two gentlemen!”

I put my foot on the high step and climb in. Rather uncivil of the two
gentlemen! neither of them offers to help me, but they are not looking
this way I suppose. “Mind the dressing-case!” I cry nervously, as I
stretch out my hand to help the maid Watson up. The man pushes her from
behind; in she comes--dressing-case, clock and all; here we are for the
night!

I am so busy and amused looking out of the window, seeing the
different parties bidding their friends good-bye, and watching with
indignation the barbaric and malicious manner in which the porters
hurl the luckless luggage about, that we have steamed out of the
station, and are fairly off for Paris, before I have the curiosity to
glance at my fellow-passengers. Well! when I do take a look at them,
I do not make much of it. Watson and I occupy the two seats by one
window, facing one another. Our fellow travellers have not taken the
other two window seats; they occupy the middle ones, next us. They are
both reading behind newspapers. Well! we shall not get much amusement
out of them. I give them up as a bad job. Ah! if I could have had my
wish, and had the laughing young man, and the pretty young couple, for
company, the night would not perhaps have seemed so long. However I
should have been mortified for them to have seen how _green_ I looked
when the dawn came; and, as to these commis voyageurs, I do not care
if I look as green as grass in their eyes. Thus, all no doubt is for
the best; and at all events it is a good trite copy-book maxim to say
so. So I forget all about them: fix my eyes on the landscape racing
by, and fall into a variety of thoughts. “Will my husband really get
up in time to come and meet me at the station to-morrow morning? He
does so cordially hate getting up. My only chance is his not having
gone to bed at all! How will he be looking? I have not seen him for
four months. Will he have succeeded in curbing his tendency to fat,
during his Norway fishing? Probably not. Fishing, on the contrary,
is rather a _fat-making_ occupation; sluggish and sedentary. Shall
we have a pleasant party at the house we are going to, for shooting?
To whom in Paris shall I go for my gown? Worth? No, Worth is beyond
me.” Then I leave the future, and go back into past enjoyments;
excursions to Lausanne; trips down the lake to Chillon; a hundred and
one pleasantnesses. The time slips by: the afternoon is drawing towards
evening; a beginning of dusk is coming over the landscape.

I look round. Good Heavens! what can those men find so interesting in
the papers? I thought them hideously dull, when I looked over them
this morning; and yet they are still persistently reading. What can
they have got hold of? I cannot well see what the man beside me has;
vis-à-vis is buried in an English _Times_. Just as I am thinking
about him, he puts down his paper, and I see his face. Nothing very
remarkable! a long black beard, and a hat tilted somewhat low over
his forehead. I turn away my eyes hastily, for fear of being caught
inquisitively scanning him; but still, out of their corners I see that
he has taken a little bottle out of his travelling bag, has poured
some of its contents into a glass, and is putting it to his lips. It
appears as if--and, at the time it happens, I have no manner of doubt
that he is drinking. Then I feel that he is addressing me. I look up
and towards him: he is holding out the phial to me, and saying--

“May I take the liberty of offering Madame some?”

“No thank you, Monsieur!” I answer, shaking my head hastily and
speaking rather abruptly. There is nothing that I dislike more than
being offered strange eatables or drinkables in a train, or a strange
hymn book in church.

He smiles politely, and then adds--

“Perhaps the _other_ lady might be persuaded to take a little.”

“No thank you, sir, I’m much obliged to you,” replies Watson briskly,
in almost as ungrateful a tone as mine.

Again he smiles, bows, and re-buries himself in his newspaper. The
thread of my thoughts is broken, I feel an odd curiosity as to the
nature of the contents of that bottle. Certainly it is not sherry or
spirit of any kind, for it has diffused no odour through the carriage.
All this time the man beside me has said and done nothing. I wish he
would move or speak, or do something. I peep covertly at him. Well!
at all events, he is well defended against the night chill. What a
voluminous cloak he is wrapped in; how entirely it shrouds his figure;
trimmed with _fur_ too! why it might be January instead of September.
I do not know why, but that cloak makes me feel rather uncomfortable.
I wish they would both move to the window, instead of sitting next us.
Bah! am _I_ setting up to be a timid dove? I, who rather pique myself
on my bravery--on my indifference to tramps, bulls, ghosts? The clock
has been deposited with the umbrellas, parasols, spare shawls, rugs,
etc., in the netting above Watson’s head. The dressing-case--a very
large and heavy one--is sitting on her lap. I lean forwards and say to
her--

“That box must rest very heavily on your knee, and I want a
footstool--I should be more comfortable if I had one--let me put my
feet on it.”

I have an idea that, somehow, my sapphires will be safer if I have them
where I can always feel that they are _there_. We make the desired
change in our arrangements. Yes! both my feet are on it.

The landscape outside is darkening quickly now; our dim lamp is
beginning to assert its importance. Still the men read. I feel a
sensation of irritation. What can they mean by it? it is utterly
impossible that they can decipher the small print of the _Times_, by
this feeble shaky glimmer.

As I am so thinking, the one who had before spoken lays down his
paper, folds it up and deposits it on the seat beside him. Then,
drawing his little bottle out of his bag a second time, drinks, or
seems to drink, from it. Then he again turns to me--

“Madame will pardon me, but if Madame _could_ be induced to try a
little of this; it is a cordial of a most refreshing and invigorating
description; and if she will have the amiability to allow me to say so,
Madame looks faint.”

(What _can_ he mean by his urgency? _Is_ it pure politeness? I wish
it were not growing so dark.) These thoughts run through my head as I
hesitate for an instant what answer to make. Then an idea occurs to
me, and I manufacture a civil smile and say, “Thank you very much,
Monsieur! I am a little faint, as you observe. I think I will avail
myself of your obliging offer.” So saying, I take the glass, and touch
it with my lips. I give you my word of honour that I do not think I
did more; I did not mean to swallow a drop, but I suppose I must have
done. He smiles with a gratified air.

“The other lady will now, perhaps, follow your example?”

By this time I am beginning to feel thoroughly uncomfortable: _why_,
I should be puzzled to explain. What _is_ this cordial that he is so
eager to urge upon us? Though determined not to subject _myself_ to
its influence, I _must_ see its effect upon another person. Rather
brutal of me, perhaps; rather in the spirit of the anatomist, who, in
the interest of science, tortures live dogs and cats; but I am telling
you _facts_--not what I ought to have done, but what I _did_. I make
a sign to Watson to drink some. She obeys, nothing loath. She has
been working hard all day; packing and getting under weigh, and she
is tired. There is no feigning about her! She has emptied the glass.
Now to see what comes of it--what happens to my live dog! The bottle
is replaced in the bag; still we are racing, racing on, past the hills
and fields and villages. How indistinct they are all growing! I turn
back from the contemplation of the outside view to the inside one. Why,
the woman is asleep already! her chin buried in her chest; her mouth
half open; looking exceedingly imbecile and very plain, as most people,
when asleep out of bed, do look. A nice invigorating potion, indeed! I
wish to Heaven that I had gone in Fumeurs, or even with that cavalcade
of nursery-maids and unwholesome-looking babies in Dames Seules, next
door. At all events, I am not at all sleepy myself: that is a blessing.
I shall see what happens. Yes, by-the-by, I must see what he meant
to happen: I must affect to fall asleep too. I close my eyes, and
gradually sinking my chin on my chest, try to droop my jaws and hang
my cheeks, with a semblance of bonâ-fide slumber. Apparently I succeed
pretty well. After the lapse of some minutes, I distinctly feel two
hands very cautiously and carefully lifting and removing my feet from
the dressing-box.

A cold chill creeps over me, and then the blood rushes to my head and
ears. What am I to do? what am I to do? I have always thought the
better of myself ever since for it; but, strange to say, I keep my
presence of mind. Still affecting to sleep, I give a sort of kick,
and instantly the hands are withdrawn and all is perfectly quiet
again. I now feign to wake gradually, with a yawn and a stretch;
and, on moving about my feet a little, find that, despite my kick,
they have been too clever for me, and have dexterously removed my
box and substituted another. The way in which I make this pleasant
discovery is that, whereas mine was perfectly flat at the top, on the
surface of the object that is now beneath my feet there is some sort
of excrescence--a handle of some sort or other. There is no denying
it--brave I _may_ be--I may laugh at people for running from bulls; for
disliking to sleep in a room by themselves, for fear of ghosts; for
hurrying past tramps: but now I am most thoroughly frightened. I look
cautiously, in a sideways manner, at the man beside me. How very still
he is! Were they _his_ hands, or the hands of the man opposite him? I
take a fuller look than I have yet ventured to do; turning slightly
round for the purpose. He is still reading, or at least still holding
the paper, for the reading must be a farce. I look at his hands: they
are in precisely the same position as they were when I affected to
go to sleep, although the pose of the rest of his body is slightly
altered. Suddenly, I turn extremely cold, for it has dawned on me that
they are not real hands--they are certainly false ones. Yes, though the
carriage is shaking very much with our rapid motion, and the light is
shaking, too, yet there is no mistake. I look indeed more closely, so
as to be quite sure. The one nearest me is ungloved; the other gloved.
I look at the nearest one. Yes, it is of an opaque waxen whiteness. I
can plainly see the rouge put under the finger-nails to represent the
colouring of life. I try to give one glance at his face. The paper
still partially hides it; and as he is leaning his head back against
the cushion, where the light hardly penetrates, I am completely baffled
in my efforts.

Great Heavens! what is going to happen to me? what shall I do? how much
of him is _real_? where are his _real_ hands? what is going on under
that awful cloak? The fur border touches me as I sit by him. I draw
convulsively and shrinkingly away, and try to squeeze myself up as
close as possible to the window. But alas! to what good? how absolutely
and utterly powerless I am! how entirely at their mercy! And there is
Watson still sleeping swinishly! breathing heavily opposite me. Shall
I try to wake her? But to what end? She, being under the influence of
that vile drug, my efforts will certainly be useless, and will probably
arouse the man to employ violence against me. Sooner or later in the
course of the night I suppose they are pretty sure to murder me, but I
had rather that it should be later than sooner.

While I think these things, I am lying back quite still, for, as I
philosophically reflect, not all the screaming in the world will help
me: if I had twenty-lung power I could not drown the rush of an express
train. Oh, if my dear boy were but here,--my husband I mean,--fat
or lean, how thankful I should be to see him! Oh, that cloak, and
those horrid waxy hands! Of course I see it now! They remained stuck
out, while the man’s real ones were fumbling about my feet. In the
midst of my agony of fright, a thought of Madame Tussaud flashes
ludicrously across me. Then they begin to talk of me. It is plain that
they are not taken in by my feint of sleep: they speak in a clear,
loud voice, evidently for my benefit. One of them begins by saying,
“What a good-looking woman she is--evidently in her première jeunesse
too”--(Reader, I struck thirty last May)--“and also there can be no
doubt as to her being of exalted rank--a duchess probably.”--(A dead
duchess by morning, think I grimly). They go on to say how odd it is
that people in my class of life never travel with their own jewels,
but always with paste ones, the real ones being meanwhile deposited
at the bankers. My poor, poor sapphires! good-bye--a long good-bye to
you. But indeed I will willingly compound for the loss of you and the
rest of my ornaments--will go bare-necked, and bare-armed, or clad in
Salviati beads for the rest of my life, so that I do but attain the
next stopping place alive.

As I am so thinking, one of the men looks, or I imagine that he looks,
rather curiously towards me. In a paroxysm of fear lest they should
read on my face the signs of the agony of terror I am enduring, I throw
my pocket handkerchief--a very fine cambric one--over my face.

And now, oh reader, I am going to tell you something which I am sure
you will not believe; I can hardly believe it myself, but, as I so lie,
despite the tumult of my mind--despite the chilly terror which seems
to be numbing my feelings--in the midst of it all a drowsiness keeps
stealing over me. I am now convinced either that vile potion must have
been of extraordinary strength, or that I, through the shaking of the
carriage, or the unsteadiness of my hand, carried more to my mouth,
and swallowed more--I did not _mean_ to swallow any--than I intended,
for--you will hardly credit it, but--I _fell asleep_!

       *       *       *       *       *

When I awake,--awake with a bewildered mixed sense of having been
a long time asleep,--of not knowing where I am--and of having some
great dread and horror on my mind--awake and look round, the dawn
is breaking. I shiver, with the chilly sensation that the coming of
even a warm day brings, and look round, still half unconsciously,
in a misty way. But what has happened? how empty the carriage is!
the dressing-case is gone! the clock is gone! the man who sat nearly
opposite me is gone! _Watson is gone!_ but the man in the cloak and
the wax hands still sits beside me! Still the hands are holding the
paper; still the fur is touching me! Good God! I am tête-à-tête with
him! A feeling of the most appalling desolation and despair comes over
me--vanquishes me utterly. I clasp my hands together frantically,
and, still looking at the dim form beside me, groan out--“Well! I did
not think that Watson would have forsaken me!” Instantly, a sort of
movement and shiver runs through the figure: the newspaper drops from
the hands, which however continue to be still held out in the same
position as if still grasping it; and behind the newspaper, I see by
the dim morning light and the dim lamp-gleams that there is no real
face but a mask. A sort of choked sound is coming from behind the mask.
Shivers of cold fear are running over me. Never to this day shall I
know what gave me the despairing courage to do it, but before I know
what I am doing, I find myself tearing at the cloak,--tearing away the
mask--tearing away the hands. It would be better to find _anything_
underneath--Satan himself,--a horrible dead body--anything--sooner than
submit any longer to this hideous mystery. And I am rewarded. When the
cloak lies at the bottom of the carriage--when the mask, and the false
hands and false feet--(there are false _feet_ too)--are also cast away,
in different directions, what do you think I find underneath?

Watson! Yes: it appears that while I slept--I feel sure that they must
have rubbed some more of the drug on my lips while I was unconscious,
or I never could have slept so heavily or so long--they dressed up
Watson in the mask, feet, hands, and cloak; set the hat on her head,
gagged her, and placed her beside me in the attitude occupied by the
man. They had then, at the next station, got out, taking with them
dressing-case and clock, and had made off in all security. When I
arrive in Paris, you will not be surprised to hear that it does not
once occur to me whether I am looking green or no.

And this is the true history of my night journey to Paris! You will
be glad, I daresay, to learn that I ultimately recovered my sapphires,
and a good many of my other ornaments. The police being promptly set
on, the robbers were, after much trouble and time, at length secured;
and it turned out that the man in the cloak was an ex-valet of my
husband’s, who was acquainted with my bad habit of travelling in
company with my trinkets--a bad habit which I have since seen fit to
abandon.

       *       *       *       *       *

What I have written is literally true, though it did not happen to
myself.


THE END.


BILLING, PRINTER, GUILDFORD, SURREY.



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